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                             THE RALSTONS

                       [Illustration: colophon]




                             THE RALSTONS

                                  BY

                          F. MARION CRAWFORD

            AUTHOR OF “A ROMAN SINGER,” “PIETRO GHISLERI,”
                     “KATHARINE LAUDERDALE,” ETC.

                          TWO VOLUMES IN ONE

                               New York

                         THE MACMILLAN COMPANY

                     LONDON: MACMILLAN & CO., LTD.
                                 1902

                         _All rights reserved_

                           COPYRIGHT, 1893,
                        BY F. MARION CRAWFORD.

       Set up and electrotyped January, 1894. Printed December,
      1894. Reprinted January, February twice, 1895. Two volumes
                printed in one, June, 1899; July, 1902.

                       _Twenty-second Thousand_

                             Norwood Press
                 J. S. Cushing & Co.--Berwick & Smith
                         Norwood Mass. U.S.A.




                             THE RALSTONS.




CHAPTER I.


Alexander Lauderdale Junior was very much exercised in spirit concerning
the welfare of his two daughters, of whom the elder was Charlotte and
the younger was Katharine. Charlotte had been married, nearly two years
before the opening of this tale, to Benjamin Slayback, the well-known
member of Congress from Nevada, and lived in Washington. Katharine was
still at home, living with her father and mother and grandfather, in the
old house in Clinton Place, in the city of New York.

Mr. Lauderdale, the son of the still living philanthropist, and the
nephew of the latter’s younger brother, the great millionaire, Robert
Lauderdale, sat in his carefully swept, garnished and polished office on
a Saturday morning early in April. In outward appearance, as well as in
inward sympathy, he was in perfect harmony with his surroundings. He
resembled a magnificent piece of mechanism exhibited in a splendid
show-case--a spare man, extremely well proportioned, with a severe cast
of face, hard grey eyes, and a look all over him which recalled a
well-kept locomotive. He sat facing the bright light which fell through
the clear plate glass. One of his hands, cool, smooth, lean, lay
perfectly still, spread out upon the broad sheet of a type-written
letter on the table; the other, equally motionless, hung idly over his
knee. They were grasping hands, with long, curved nails, naturally
highly polished. It was not probable that the great Trust Company, in
which Alexander Junior held such an important position, should ever lose
the fraction of a fractional interest through any oversight of his.

So far as his own fortune was concerned, he often said that he was poor.
He lived in an old house which had been his grandfather’s and father’s
in turn, but which, although his father was alive and continued to live
in it, had become his own property some years previous to the beginning
of this story. For Alexander Lauderdale Senior was a philanthropist; and
although his brother, the rich Robert, gave liberally toward the support
of the institutions in which he was interested, Alexander had little by
little turned everything he possessed into money, applying it chiefly to
the education of idiots. The consequence was that he depended, almost
unconsciously, upon his only son for the actual necessities of life.
The old house was situated on the north side of Clinton Place, which had
never been a fashionable street, though it lay in what had once been a
most fashionable neighbourhood. No one need be surprised if the near
relatives of such a very rich man as Robert Lauderdale lived very
quietly, so far as expenditure was concerned. He was a very generous
man, and would have done much more for his nephew and the latter’s
family if he had believed that they wished or expected it. But in his
sensible view, they had all they needed,--a good house, a sufficient
amount of luxury, and a very prominent position in society. He knew,
moreover, that, however much he might give, the money would either find
its way into the vast charities in which his brother was interested, or
would disappear, as other sums and bits of property had disappeared
before now, to some place--presumably one of safety--of which his nephew
never spoke. For he suspected that Alexander Junior was not nearly so
poor as he represented himself to be, and he was not exactly pleased
with the fact that he himself was the only person before whom Alexander
Junior bowed down and offered incense.

For this younger Lauderdale was a very rigid man in almost all respects:
in his religion, which took the Presbyterian form, and took it in
earnest; in his uprightness, which was cruelly sincere; and in his
outward manner, which was in the highest degree conventionally correct.

It was this extreme correctness which lay at the root of his present
troubles, since, in his opinion, both his daughters had departed from it
in opposite directions and in an almost equal degree. He did not
recognize himself in either of them, and, as he believed his own
character to be an excellent model for his family, his vanity was
wounded by nature’s perverseness. Furthermore, he distinctly disliked
that sort of social prominence which is the portion of those who are not
like the majority, or who do not think with the majority and say so.
Both Mrs. Slayback and Miss Lauderdale attracted attention in that way.

Mrs. Slayback was handsome and vain, and believed herself to be proud in
the better sense of the word. She had married her husband for two
reasons: because she found the paternal home intolerable, and because,
besides being rich, Benjamin Slayback was thought to be a man who had a
brilliant future before him in the world of politics. Charlotte had
believed that she could rule him, and herself become a power. In this
she had been disappointed at the outset, having been deceived by a
certain almost childlike simplicity of exterior, which was in reality
one of Slayback’s strongest weapons. He admired her very much; he
looked up to her with admiration for her superior social acquirements,
and he treated her with a sort of barbaric liberality to which she had
not been accustomed. But within himself he followed his own political
devices without consulting her, and with a smiling reticence which
convinced her most unpleasantly that she was not intellectually a match
for him. This was all the more painful as she considered him to be her
social inferior, a point of view which was popular with some of her
intimate friends in New York, but much less so in Washington, and not at
all in Nevada.

The immediate consequence of this state of affairs was that Charlotte
and her husband did not agree. Both were disappointed, though in an
unequal measure. Slayback claimed that any woman should be contented who
had what he gave his wife. Charlotte thought that she showed great
forbearance in not leaving a man whom she could not rule. It was not
worth while, she said to herself, to have accepted a man who had, at her
first acquaintance with him, worn a green tie; whose speech at home was
remarkable rather for its ‘burr’ than for its grammar, and who did queer
things with his knife and fork--unless his undeniable intelligence and
force were to be at her service in such a way as to make her feel that
she was at least as powerful a person as he. She had condemned the green
tie, and he had submitted, and she had successfully conveyed hints
against cutting fish and potatoes with a steel knife; but in the matter
of grammar she had been less successful. When Benjamin was on his legs
on the floor of the House, as he often was, he could speak very well
indeed, which made it all the more unpleasant when he relapsed into the
use of dialect, not to say slang, at his own table. He was a jovial man
over his dinner, too, and she particularly detested jovial men,
especially when they spoke English not altogether correctly. She had
vaguely hoped that Benjamin would be spoken of as Mrs. Slayback’s
husband, but it had turned out that, in spite of her beauty and
brilliant conversation, she was spoken of as Benjamin Slayback’s wife.
By way of outshining him, she had conceived the plan of outshining
everybody else in matters of fashion and fashionable eccentricity. She
had spoken to more than one member of the family of obtaining a divorce
on the ground of incompatibility of temper, which, she said, could be
managed in Nevada, since New York was so absurdly strict about divorces.
It was evidently within the bounds of the possible that she might have
spoken in this sense to friends who were not related to her, as her
father knew. Altogether, he was aware that she was talked of and he
suspected that she was laughed at. She had been seen to smoke
cigarettes, it was reported that she had driven four-in-hand, and
Alexander would have been less surprised than shocked if he had heard
that she played poker with her intimates and bet on horse-races.

It was hard that such a man should have such a daughter, he thought, and
that all this should be the result of so much careful and highly correct
training and education. It was harder still that his younger child
should be as completely out of sympathy with him as her elder sister,
especially as Katharine outwardly resembled him, at least a little,
whereas Charlotte had inherited her fair complexion from her mother.

Of the two, Katharine was the more difficult to deal with, and he was
glad that her peculiarities were mental rather than outwardly manifested
in her behaviour, as her sister’s were. But of their kind, they were
strong and caused him great anxiety. There was a mystery about her
thoughts, too, which he could not fathom, and which influenced her
conduct, as though she had some secret motive for some of her actions
and for many of her opinions, which might, perhaps, have explained both,
but which she was not willing to divulge. Katharine held views upon
religion which were of the most disquieting character, and Katharine
flatly refused to speak of being married. These were Alexander Junior’s
principal grievances against her.

So far as the second of these was concerned, he might have found plenty
of excuse for her, had he sought it, in his own character. Whatever his
faults might be, he had been a very faithful man. He had married Emma
Camperdown, the famous beauty from Kentucky, when they had both been
very young, and he had loved her all his life, in spite of the fact that
she was a Roman Catholic and he a very puritanically inclined
Presbyterian of the older school. Love that will bear the strain of
religious differences, when religious conviction exists on both sides,
must be of a very robust nature, and Alexander’s had borne it for a
quarter of a century. It was true that his wife, who had been born a
Catholic, was not aggressively devout; but in his view of the matter,
her errors were mortal ones, and the thought of her probable fate in a
future existence had really saddened the hard man’s life. But it had not
diminished nor shaken his love. About that, there was nothing romantic,
nor Quixotic, nor emotional. It had none of the fine, outward qualities
which often belong abundantly to transient passions. There was in it a
good deal of the sense of property, which was very clearly defined with
him, and he lacked in most ways the delicacies and tendernesses which
are the rarest and most beautiful ornaments of the strong. But such as
it was, its endurance and good faith were unquestionable. Indeed,
endurance and uprightness were Alexander’s principal virtues. Both were
genuine, and both were so remarkable as to raise him high in the respect
of his fellow-men. If he had secrets, he had a right to keep them, for
they concerned nobody but himself, and he was naturally reticent.

Katharine had some similar qualities. She had loved her distant cousin,
John Ralston, a long time, and she was as faithful and enduring as her
father. Ralston loved her quite as dearly and truly, but Alexander
Junior would not have him for a son-in-law, and had told him so in an
exceedingly plain and forcible manner. His objection was that Ralston
seemed unable to do anything for himself, and had, moreover, acquired a
reputation for being fast and dissipated. He was not rich, either. His
father, Admiral Ralston, had been dead several years, and John lived
with his mother on twelve thousand a year. The young man had made two
attempts at steady work and was now making his third, the previous ones
having resulted in his leaving the lawyer’s office in which he had
placed himself, at the end of three months, and the great banking
establishment of Beman Brothers, in Broad Street, after a trial of only
six weeks. He had now gone back to Beman’s, having been readmitted as an
especial favour to Mr. Robert Lauderdale, with no salary and with an
unlimited period of probation before him. He was a popular young fellow
enough, but he was not what is called a promising youth, though his
ways had improved considerably during the last few months. Mr. Beman
said that he came regularly to the bank and seemed disposed to work, but
that his ignorance of business was something phenomenal. Nevertheless,
to please old Robert the Rich, John Ralston was tolerated, so long as he
behaved himself properly.

And Katharine loved him, in spite of her father’s disapproval and her
mother’s good advice. For during the preceding winter Mrs. Lauderdale,
who had once favoured the match, had gone over to the enemy, and showed
a very great and almost unbecoming anxiety to see Katharine married.
Hamilton Bright, another distant relative and the junior partner of
Beman Brothers, would have married her at any moment, and he was a very
desirable man. The fact that he was a relative was in his favour, too,
for both he and Katharine would probably in the end inherit a share of
the enormous Lauderdale fortune, and it would be as well that the money
should not go out of the family. Robert Lauderdale had never married,
and was now well over seventy years of age, though his strength had not
as yet come to labour and sorrow.

Katharine did not talk of John Ralston. Especially of late, she avoided
saying anything about him. But she would look at no one else, though she
had no lack of suitors besides Hamilton Bright, and in spite of her
reticence it was easy to see that her feelings towards Ralston had not
undergone any change. Once, during the preceding winter, Alexander had
been visited by a ray of hope. Ralston had been reported by the
newspapers as having got into a bad scrape, winding up with an encounter
with a pugilist, and ending in his being brought home by policemen in
the middle of the night. It had actually been said that he had been the
worse for too much champagne, and during a few hours Mr. Lauderdale had
hoped that Katharine would be disgusted and would give him up. But it
turned out to have been all a mistake. No less a personage than the
celebrated Doctor Routh had at once written to the papers, stating that
he had attended John Ralston when he had been brought home, that he had
met with an accident, and that the current statements about his
condition were utterly false and libellous. And there the matter had
ended. Alexander might congratulate himself upon having got the alliance
of his wife against John, but their united efforts to move their
daughter had proved as fruitless as his own had been when unassisted.

There was nothing for it but to wait patiently, and to hope that she
might forget her cousin in the course of time. Meanwhile, another
anxiety presented itself, almost as serious, in her father’s opinion.
She had been brought up as a Presbyterian, like her sister, in
accordance with his wishes, and in this respect Mrs. Lauderdale had
been conscientious, though her antagonism to her husband’s church was
deep-seated and abiding. But of late Katharine had begun to express very
dangerous and subversive opinions in regard to things in general and in
respect of religion in particular. Her mind seemed to have reached its
growth and to have entered upon its development. Katharine was going
astray after strange new doctrines, Alexander thought, and he did not
like the savour of mysticism in the fragments of her conversation which
he occasionally overheard. Though he could not with equanimity bear to
hear any one deny the existence of the soul, he disliked almost more to
hear it spoken of as though humanity could have anything to do with it
directly, beyond believing in its presence and future destiny. Whether
this was due to the form of the traditions in which he had been brought
up, or was the result of his own exceedingly vague beliefs in regard to
the soul’s nature, it is of no use to enquire. The fact was the same in
its consequences. He was very much disturbed about Katharine’s views, as
he called them, and at the same time he was conscious for the first time
in his life that no confidence existed between her and him, and that
their spheres of thought on all subjects were separated by a blank and
impenetrable wall.

Then, too, Katharine had of late shown a strong predilection for the
society of Paul Griggs, a man of letters and of considerable reputation,
who was said to have strange views upon many subjects, who had lived in
many countries, and who had about him something half mysterious, which
offended the commonplace respectability of Alexander Lauderdale’s
character. Not that Alexander thought himself commonplace, and as for
his respectability, it was of the solid kind which the world calls
social position, and which such people themselves secretly look upon as
the proud inheritance of an ancient and honourable family. Everything
that Paul Griggs said jarred unpleasantly on Alexander Lauderdale’s
single but sensitive string, which was his conservatism.

Griggs disclaimed ever having had anything to do with modern Buddhism,
for instance. But he had somehow got the reputation of being what people
call a Buddhist when they know nothing of Buddha. As a matter of fact,
he happened to be a Roman Catholic. But Mr. Lauderdale had heard him use
expressions which had fixed the popular impression in his mind. The
conversation of such a man could not be good for an impressionable girl
like Katharine, he thought. He took it for granted that Katharine was
impressionable because she was a girl and young. Mr. Griggs said very
paradoxical things sometimes, and Katharine quoted them afterwards. Mr.
Lauderdale hated paradox as he hated everything which was in direct
opposition to generally received opinion. It was most disagreeable to
him to hear that there was no such thing as a future, as distinguished
from past or present, when so much of his private meditation had for its
object the definition of the future state for himself and others. He did
not like Mr. Griggs’ way of referring to the popular idea of the Supreme
Being as a ‘magnified, non-natural man’--and when Griggs quoted Dante’s
opinion in the matter, Alexander Lauderdale set down Dante Alighieri as
an insignificant agnostic, which was unjust, and branded Mr. Griggs as
another, which was an exaggeration. Now, whatever the truth might be, he
considered that Katharine was in great danger, and that although
Providence was necessarily just, it might have shown more kindness and
discretion in selecting the olive branches it had vouchsafed to him.

It need hardly be said that of the two extremes to which his daughters
seemed inclined to go, he preferred the one chosen by Katharine. That,
at least, gave no open offence. Morally, it was worse to dissect the
traditional soul as it had been handed down in its accepted form through
many generations of religious men, than to smoke a cigarette after a
dinner party. But in practice, the effect of the cigarette upon the
opinion of society was out of all proportion greater, and Charlotte was
therefore worse than Katharine, as a daughter, though she might not be
so bad when looked upon as a subject for potential salvation.

All this disturbed Alexander Lauderdale very much, for he saw no
immediate prospect of any improvement in the condition of things. For
once in his life his daughters were almost his chief preoccupation. If
he had been subject to absence of mind, something might, perhaps, have
got out of order in the minute details of the Trust Company’s working.
In that respect, however, he was superior to circumstances. But when he
was momentarily idle, his mind reverted to its accustomed channels, and
the problem regarding the future of his daughters got into the way and
upset his financial calculations, and made him really unhappy. For his
financial calculations were apparently of a nature which made them
pleasant to contemplate, although he declared himself to be so very
poor.

On that particular Saturday morning he was interrupted in his solitude
by the sudden appearance of his wife. It was not often that she had
entered his office during the ten years since he had been installed in
it, and he was so much surprised by her coming that he positively
started, and half rose out of his chair.

Mrs. Lauderdale was a beautiful woman still, and would be beautiful if
she lived to extreme old age. But she was already past the period up to
which a woman may hope to preserve the freshness of a late youth. The
certainty that her beauty was waning had come over her very suddenly on
a winter’s evening not long ago, when she had noticed that the man who
was talking to her looked persistently at Katharine instead of at
herself; and just then, catching sight of her face in a mirror, and
being tired at the time, she had realized that she was no longer
supreme. It had been a bitter moment, and had left a wound never to be
healed. The perfect, classic features, the beautiful blue eyes, the fair
waving hair, were all present still. Her tall figure was upright and
active, and she had no tendency to grow stout or heavy. She had many
reasons for congratulating herself, but the magic halo was gone, and she
knew it. Some women never find it out until they are really old, and
they suffer less.

At the present moment, as she entered her husband’s office, it would
have been hard to believe that Mrs. Lauderdale could be more than five
and thirty years of age. The dark coat she wore showed her figure well,
and her thin veil separated and hid away the imperfections of what had
once been perfect. She was a little agitated, too, and the colour was in
her cheeks--a trifle too much of it, perhaps, but softened to the
delicacy of a peach blossom by the dark gauze.

She paused a moment as she closed the door behind her, glancing first
at her husband, and then looking about the unfamiliar room, to satisfy
herself that they were alone.

“This is an unexpected pleasure, Emma,” said Alexander Junior, rising
definitely and coming to meet her.

“Yes,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale. “I don’t often come, do I? I know you
don’t like to be disturbed. But as this is Saturday, and I knew you
would be coming up town early, I thought you wouldn’t mind. It’s rather
important.”

“I trust nothing bad has happened,” observed Alexander, drawing up a
chair for her.

“Bad? Well--I don’t know. Yes--of course it is! It’s serious, at all
events. Uncle Robert’s dying. I thought you ought to know--”

“Dying? Uncle Robert?”

Alexander Lauderdale’s metallic voice rang through the room, and his
smooth, lean hands grasped the arms of his chair.

An instant later he looked a little nervously at the door, as though
hoping that no one had heard his words, nor the tone in which he had
spoken them. A dark flush rose in his face and the veins at his temple
swelled suddenly, while his grip on the chair seemed to tighten, and he
turned his eyes on his wife.

“Dying!” he repeated in a low voice. “What has happened to him? When did
you hear of this?”

Mrs. Lauderdale had not expected him to show so much feeling. She,
herself, was far from calm, however, and did not notice his extreme
agitation as though it were anything unnatural.

“Doctor Routh came to tell me,” she answered. “He’s been there all the
morning--and as there was time before luncheon, I thought I’d come--”

“But what’s the matter with the old gentleman? This is very surprising
news--very sad news, Emma.”

A rather spasmodic, electric smile had momentarily appeared on Alexander
Lauderdale’s face, disappearing again instantly, as he uttered the last
words.

“I’m very much overcome by this news,” he added, after a short
hesitation.

He did not appear to be so deeply grieved as he said that he was, but
the words were appropriate, and Mrs. Lauderdale recognized the fact at
once.

“It will make a great difference,” she said.

“Yes, I should say so. I should say so,” repeated Alexander Junior, not
with emphasis, but slowly and thoughtfully. “However,” he continued,
suddenly, “we mustn’t count--I mean--yes--we--we mustn’t altogether
place our confidence in man--though Doctor Routh certainly stands at the
head of his profession. It’s our duty to see that other physicians are
called in consultation. We must do our utmost to help. Indeed--it might
have been wiser if you had gone there at once and had sent a messenger
for me, instead of coming here. But--yes--you haven’t told me what the
matter is, my dear. Is it--anything in the nature of apoplexy--or the
heart--you know? At his age, people rarely--but, of course, while
there’s life, there’s hope. We mustn’t forget that.”

He seemed unable to wait for his wife’s answer to his questions.

“Why, no, my dear,” she replied. “You know he’s not been very well for
some days. He’s worse--that’s all. It was nothing but a cold at first,
but it’s turned into pneumonia.”

“Pneumonia? Dear me! At his age, people rarely live through it--however,
he’s very strong, of course. Difference!” he exclaimed, softly. “Yes--a
great difference. It--it will make a great gap in the family, Emma.
We’re all so fond of him, and I’m deeply attached to him, for my part.
As for my poor father, he will be quite overcome. I hope he has not been
told yet.”

“No--I thought I’d wait and see you first.”

“Quite right, my dear--quite right--very wise. In the meantime, I think
we should be going. Yes--it’s just as well that you didn’t take off your
hat.”

He rose as he spoke, and touched one of the row of electric buttons on
his desk. A man in the livery of the Company appeared at the door, just
as Alexander was taking up his overcoat.

“I’m going up town a little earlier than usual, Donald,” he said.
“Inform Mr. Arbuckle. If anything unusual should occur, send to Mr.
Harrison Beman.”

“Yes, sir.”

“That’s all, Donald.”

The man faced about and left the office, having stood still for several
seconds, staring at Alexander. Donald had been twenty years in the
Company’s service, and did not remember that Mr. Lauderdale had ever
left the office before hours in all the ten years since he had been
chief, nor in the preceding ten during which he had occupied more or
less subordinate positions.

Mrs. Lauderdale daintily pulled down her veil and pulled up her gloves,
shook out her frock a little and looked at the points of her shoes, then
straightened her tall figure and stood ready. Alexander had slipped on
his coat, and was smoothing his hat with a silk handkerchief which he
always carried about him for that purpose. He had discovered that it
made the hat last longer. Both he and his wife had unconsciously assumed
that indescribable air which people put on when they are about to go to
church.

“We’ll take the Third Avenue Elevated,” said Mr. Lauderdale. “It’s
shorter for us.”

Robert Lauderdale’s house was close to the Park. The pair went out
together into Broad Street, and the people stared at them as they
threaded their way through the crowd. They were a handsome and striking
couple, well contrasted, the dark man, just turning grey, and the fair
woman, still as fair as ever. It might even be said that there was
something imposing in their appearance. They had that look of
unaffectedly conscious superiority which those who most dislike it most
strenuously endeavour to imitate. Moreover, when a lady, of even
passably good looks, appears down town between eleven and twelve o’clock
in the morning, she is certain to be stared at. Very soon, however, the
Lauderdales had left the busiest part of the multitude behind them. They
walked quickly, with a preoccupied manner, exchanging a few words from
time to time. Lauderdale was gradually recovering from his first
surprise.

“Did Routh say that there was no hope?” he asked, as they paused at a
crossing.

“No,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale. “He didn’t say that. He said that uncle
Robert’s condition caused him grave anxiety. Those were his very words.
You know how he speaks when a thing is serious. He said he thought that
we all ought to know it.”

“Of course--of course. Very proper. We should be the first, I’m sure.”

It would not be fair, perhaps, to say that Alexander’s voice expressed
disappointment. But he spoke very coldly and his lips closed
mechanically, like a trap, after his words. They went on a little
further. Then Mrs. Lauderdale spoke, with some hesitation.

“Alexander--I suppose you don’t know exactly--do you?” She turned and
looked at his face as she walked.

“About what?” he asked, glancing at her and then looking on before him
again.

“Well--you know--about the will--”

“My dear, what a very foolish question!” answered Alexander, with some
emphasis. “We have often talked about it. How in the world should I know
any better than any one else? Uncle Robert is a secretive man. He never
told me anything.”

“Because there are the Ralstons, you know,” pursued Mrs. Lauderdale.
“After all, they’re just as near as you are, in the way of
relationship.”

“My father is the elder--older than uncle Robert,” said Alexander.
“Katharine Ralston’s father was the youngest of the three.”

“Does that make a difference?” asked Mrs. Lauderdale.

“It ought to!” Alexander answered, energetically.




CHAPTER II.


“I’m not dying, I tell you! Don’t bother me, Routh!”

Robert Lauderdale turned impatiently on his side as he spoke, and
pointed to a chair with one of his big, old hands. Doctor Routh, an
immensely tall, elderly man, with a long grey beard and violet blue
eyes, laughed a little under his breath, and sat down.

“I’m not at all sure that you are going to die,” he said, pleasantly.

“That’s a comfort, at all events,” answered the sick man, in a husky
voice, but quite distinctly. “What the deuce made you say I was going to
die, if I wasn’t?”

“Some people are stronger than others,” answered the doctor.

“I used to be, when I was a boy.”

“It won’t do you any good to talk. If you can’t keep quiet, I shall have
to go away.”

“All right. I say--mayn’t I smoke?”

“No. Positively not.”

Doctor Routh smiled again; for he considered it a hopeful sign that the
old man should have a distinct taste for anything, considering how ill
he had been. A long silence followed, during which the two looked at one
another occasionally. Lauderdale was twenty years older than the doctor,
who was the friend, as well as the physician, of all the Lauderdale
tribe--with one or two exceptions.

The room was larger and higher than most bedrooms in New York, but it
was simply furnished, and there was very little which could be properly
considered as ornamental. Everything which was of wood was of white
pear, and the curtains were of plain white velvet, without trimmings.
Such metal work as was visible was of steel. There was a large white
Persian carpet in the middle of the room, and two or three skins of
Persian sheep served for rugs. Robert Lauderdale loved light and
whiteness, a strange fancy for so old a man; but the room was in harmony
with his personality, and, to some extent, with his appearance. The
colour was all gone from his face, his blue eyes were sunken and his
cheeks were hollow, but his hair, once red, looked sandy by contrast
with the snow-white stuffs, and his beard had beautiful, pale,
smoke-coloured shadows in it, like clouded meerschaum. It was not
surprising that Routh should have believed him, and believed him still,
to be in very great danger. Nevertheless, there was strength in him yet,
and if he recovered he might last a few years longer. He breathed
rather painfully, and moved uneasily from time to time, as though trying
to find a position in which he could draw breath with less effort. Routh
sat motionless by his bedside in the white stillness.

“What’s the name of that fellow who’s written a book?” asked the sick
man, suddenly.

“What book?” enquired the doctor.

“Novel--about the social question--don’t you know? There’s an old chap
in it who has money--something like me.”

“Oh! I know. Griggs--that’s the man’s name.”

“What is Griggs, anyway?” asked Robert Lauderdale, in the hoarse growl
which served him for a voice at present.

“Griggs? He’s what they call a man of letters, or a literary man, or a
novelist, or a genius, or a humbug. I’ve always known him a little,
though he’s younger than I am. The only good thing I know about him is
that he works hard. Now don’t talk. It isn’t good for you.”

“Well--you talk, then. I’ll listen,” grumbled old Lauderdale.

Thereupon both relapsed into silence, Doctor Routh being one of those
people who cannot make conversation to order. Indeed, he was a taciturn
man at most times. Lauderdale watched him, coughed a little and turned
uneasily, but made a sign to him that he wanted no help.

“Why don’t you talk?” he enquired, at last.

“About Griggs? I haven’t read but one or two of his books. I don’t know
what to say about him.”

“Do you think he’s a dangerous friend for a young girl, Routh?”

“Griggs?” Routh laughed in his grey beard. “Hardly! He’s as ugly as a
camel, to begin with--and he’s getting on. Griggs--why, Griggs must be
fifty, at least. Did you never see him? He’s been about all the
spring--came back from the Caucasus in January or February. What put it
into your head that he would be a dangerous acquaintance for a young
woman?”

“I don’t mean his looks--I mean his ideas.”

“Stuff!” ejaculated Doctor Routh. “He’s only got the modern mania for
psychology. What harm can that do?”

“Is that all? Alexander’s an ass.”

Robert Lauderdale turned his head away as though he had settled the
question which had tormented him. Again there was a silence in the room.
The doctor looked at his patient with a rather inscrutable expression,
then took out his watch, replaced it, and consulted his pocket-book. At
last he rose and walked toward the window noiselessly on the thick,
white carpet.

“I shall have to be going,” he said. “I’ve got a consultation. Cheever’s
downstairs.”

Doctor Cheever was Doctor Routh’s assistant, who did not leave the house
during Mr. Lauderdale’s illness.

“And you can send away the undertaker, if he’s waiting,” growled the
sick man, with an attempt at a laugh. “I say--can I see people, if they
call? I suppose my nephews and nieces will be here before long.”

“It’s no use to tell you what to do. You’ll do just what you please,
anyway. Professionally, I tell you to keep quiet, not to talk, and to
sleep if you can. You’re not like other people,” added Routh,
thoughtfully.

“Why not?”

“Most men in your position are badly scared when it comes to going out.
The efforts they make to save themselves sometimes kill them. You seem
rather indifferent about it. Yet you have a good deal to leave behind
you.”

“H’m--I’ve had it all--and a long time. But I want to see Katharine
Lauderdale, if she comes.”

“I’ll send for her if it’s anything important,” said Doctor Routh,
promptly.

The sick man looked quickly at him. It seemed as though his readiness to
send for Katharine implied some doubts as to his patient’s safety.

“I don’t believe I’m going to die,” he said, slowly. “What are my
chances, Routh? It’s your duty to tell me, if you know.”

“I don’t know. If I did, I’d tell you. You’re a very sick man--and
they’ll all want to see you, of course. I--well, I don’t mean to say
anything disagreeable about them. On the contrary--it is natural that
they should take an interest--”

“Devilish natural,” answered old Lauderdale, with the noise that
represented a laugh. “But I want to see Katharine.”

“Very well. Then see her. But don’t talk too much. That’s one reason why
I’m going now. You can’t keep quiet for five minutes while I’m in the
room. Good-bye. I’ll be back in the afternoon, sometime. If you feel any
worse, send for me. Cheever will come and look at you now and then--he
won’t talk, and he’ll call me up at my telephone station, if I’m
wanted.”

“Well--if you think it’s touch and go, send for Katharine--I mean
Katharine Lauderdale, not Katharine Ralston. If you think I’m all right,
then leave her alone. She’s not the kind to come of her own accord.”

“All right.”

Doctor Routh held his old friend’s hand for a moment, and then went
away. He exchanged a few words with the nurse, who sat reading in the
next room, and then slowly descended the stairs. He was considering and
weighing the chances of life and death, and trying to make up his mind
as to whether he should send for Robert Lauderdale’s grand-niece or not.
It was rather a difficult question to solve, for he knew that if
Katharine appeared, the sick man would take her coming for a sign that
his condition was desperate, and the impression might do him harm. On
the other hand, though he was so strong and believed so firmly that he
was to live, there was more than a possibility that he might die that
night. With old people, the heart sometimes fails very suddenly. And
Routh could not tell but that his patient’s wish to see the girl might
proceed from some intention on his part which should produce a permanent
effect upon her welfare. It would be very hard on her not to send for
her, if her appearance in the sick-room were to be of any advantage to
her in future.

It was natural enough that he should ultimately decide the matter in
Katharine’s favour, for he liked her and Mrs. Ralston best of all the
family, next to old Robert himself. Before he left the house he went
into the library, which was on the ground floor, to speak with his
assistant, Doctor Cheever, whom he had not yet seen, and who had spent
the night in the house. The latter gave him an account of the patient’s
condition during the last twelve hours, which recalled at once the
discouragement Doctor Routh had at first felt that morning. Once out of
the old man’s presence, the personal impression of his strength was less
vivid, and the danger seemed to be proportionately magnified, even in
the mind of such an experienced physician. Doctor Routh had also more
than once experienced the painful consequences of having omitted, out
of sheer hopefulness, to warn people of a dying relation’s peril, and he
at once decided to go to the Lauderdales himself and tell them what he
thought of the case.

He drove down to Clinton Place, and, as luck would have it, he met
Katharine just coming out of the house alone. He explained the matter in
half a dozen words, put her into his own carriage and sent her to Robert
Lauderdale at once, telling the coachman to come back for him. Then he
went in and saw Mrs. Lauderdale, and told her all that was occurring.
She at once asked him so many questions and required such clear answers,
that he forgot to say anything about his meeting with Katharine on the
doorstep. As has been seen, he was no sooner gone than Mrs. Lauderdale
went down town to speak to her husband. Before Doctor Routh had left
Clinton Place, Katharine was sitting at old Robert Lauderdale’s bedside.

Many people said that Katharine had never been so beautiful as she was
that year. It is possible that as her mother’s loveliness began to fade,
her own suffered less from the comparison, for her mother had been
supreme in her way. But Katharine was a great contrast to her. Katharine
had her father’s regular features, and his natural, healthy pallor, and
her eyes were grey like his. But there the resemblance ceased. Where
her father’s face was hard as a medal engraved in steel, hers was soft
and delicate as moulded moonlight. Instead of his even, steel-trap
mouth, she had lips of that indescribable hue which is only found with
dark complexions--not rosy red, nor exactly salmon-pink, and yet with
something of the colouring of both, and a tone of its own besides. Her
black hair made no ringlets on her forehead, and she did not torture it
against its nature. It separated in broad, natural waves, and she wore
it as it chose to grow. She had broad, black eyebrows. They make even a
meek face look strong, and in strong faces they give a stronger power of
expression, and under certain conditions can lend both tenderness and
pathos to the eyes they overshadow.

In figure, Katharine was tall and strong, well-grown, neither slight nor
heavy. In this, too, she was like her father, who had been an athlete in
his day, and still, at fifty years, was a splendid specimen of manhood,
though he was growing thinner and smaller than he had been. His daughter
moved like him, deliberately, with that grace which is the result of
good proportion and easily applied strength, direct and unconscious of
effort. Katharine may, perhaps, have been aware of her advantages in
this respect. At all events, she dressed so simply that the colour and
material of what she wore never attracted a stranger’s eye so soon as
her figure and presence. Then he might discover that her frock was of
plain grey homespun, exceedingly well made, indeed, but quite without
superfluity in the way of ornament.

Long-limbed, easy and graceful as a thoroughbred, she entered the white
room and stooped down to kiss the old man’s pale forehead. His sunken
blue eyes looked up at her as his hand sought hers, and she was shocked
at the change in his appearance. She sat down, still holding his hand,
and leaned back, looking at him.

“You’ve been very ill, uncle Robert,” she said, softly. “I’m so glad
you’re better.”

“Did Routh tell you I was better?” asked the old man, and his gruff,
hoarse voice startled Katharine a little.

“Not exactly getting well--but well enough to see people,” she answered.
“That’s a good deal, you know.”

“I should want to see you, even if I were dying,” said Robert
Lauderdale, pressing her hand with his great fingers.

“Thank you, uncle dear! A lover couldn’t say it more prettily.” She
smiled and returned the pressure.

“Jack Ralston could--for your ears, my dear.”

“Ah--Jack--perhaps!”

A very gentle shadow seemed to descend upon Katharine’s face, veiling
her heart’s thoughts and hiding her real expression, though she did not
turn her eyes away from the old man. A short silence followed.

“I hear that Jack is doing very well,” he said, at last. “Jack’s a good
fellow at heart, Katharine. I think he’s forgiven me for what happened
last winter. I was angry, you know--and he looked very wild.”

“He’s forgotten all about it, I’m sure. He never speaks of it now. I
think he only mentioned it once after it happened, when he explained
everything to me. Don’t imagine that he bears you any malice.
Besides--after all you’ve done--”

“I’ve done nothing for him, because he won’t let me,” growled Robert
Lauderdale, and a discontented look came into his face. “But I’m glad
he’s doing well--I’m very glad.”

“It’s slow, of course,” said Katharine, thoughtfully. “It will be long
before he can hope to be a partner.”

“Not so long as you think, child. I’ve been very ill, and I am very ill.
I may be dead to-morrow.”

“Don’t talk like that! So may I, or anybody--by an accident in the
street.”

“No, no! I’m in earnest. Not that I care much, I think. It’s time to be
going, and I’ve had my share--and the share of many others, I’m afraid.
Never mind. Never mind--we won’t talk of it any more. You’re so young.
It makes you sad.”

Again the two exchanged a little pressure of hands, and there was
silence.

“It will be different when the money is divided,” said old Lauderdale,
at last. “You’ll have to acknowledge your marriage then.”

Katharine started slightly. She had her back to the windows, but the
whiteness of everything in the room threw reflected light into her face,
and the blush that very rarely came spread all over it in an instant.

Only four living persons knew that she had been secretly married to John
Ralston during the winter; namely, John and herself, the clergyman who
had married them, and Robert Lauderdale. At that time she had with great
difficulty persuaded John to go through the ceremony, hoping thereby to
force her uncle into finding her husband some congenial occupation in
the West. Half an hour after taking the decisive step, she had come to
Robert Lauderdale with her story, and he had demonstrated to her that
John’s only path to success lay through the office of a banker or a
lawyer, and John had then returned to Beman Brothers, after refusing to
accept a large sum of money, with which old Lauderdale had proposed to
make him independent. He had not been willing to give his uncle the
smallest chance of thinking that he had married Katharine as a begging
speculator, nor had the old gentleman succeeded in making him change
his mind since then. Nor had he referred to the marriage when speaking
with Katharine, except on one or two occasions, when it had seemed
absolutely necessary to do so. And now that he had spoken of it, he saw
the burning blush and did not understand it. Women had entered little
into his long life. He fancied that he had hurt her, and was very sorry.
The great hand closed slowly, as though with an effort, upon the white
young fingers.

“I didn’t mean to pain you, my dear; forgive me,” he said, simply.

Katharine looked at him with a little surprise, and the blush instantly
disappeared. Then she laughed softly and bent forward with a quick
movement.

“You didn’t, uncle dear! You didn’t pain me in the least. It’s
only--sometimes I don’t quite realize that I’m Jack’s wife. When I
do--like that, just now--it makes me happy. That’s all.”

Robert Lauderdale looked at her, tried to understand, failed, and nodded
his big head kindly but vacantly.

“Well--I’m glad,” he said. “But you see, my dear child, when John’s a
rich man, you can acknowledge your marriage, and have a house of your
own. You really must, and of course you will. John can’t refuse to take
his share. We never quarrelled, that I know of, but that once, last
winter, and you say he has forgotten that. Has he? Are you quite sure?”

Katharine nodded quickly and a whispered ‘yes’ just parted her fresh
lips. In her eyes there was a gentle, almost entreating look, as though
she besought him to believe her.

“Well,” he said, and he spoke very slowly--“well--I’m glad. He can’t
refuse to take his share when I’m dead and gone--his fair share and no
more.” He paused for some seconds. “Katharine,” he said, very earnestly,
at last, “there’s a great deal of money to be divided amongst you all.
Many of them want it. They’ll all have some--perhaps more than they
expect. There’s a great deal of money, child.”

“Yes, I know there is,” answered Katharine, quietly.

“When I’m gone they’ll say that the old man was richer than they thought
he was. I can hear them--I’ve heard it so often about other men! ‘Just
guess how much old Bob Lauderdale left,’ they’ll say. ‘Nearly eighty-two
millions! Who’d have thought it!’ That’s what the men will be saying to
each other. Eighty millions is a vast amount of money, child. You can’t
guess how much it is.”

“Eighty millions.” Katharine repeated the stupendous words softly, as
though trying to realize their meaning.

“No--you can’t understand.” The old man’s eyes closed wearily. A few
moments later they opened again, and he smiled at her.

“How did you ever manage to make so much?” she asked, smiling, too, and
with a look of wonder.

“I don’t know,” answered the great millionaire, as simply as a child. “I
worked hard at first, and I saved small things for a purpose. My father
was rich--in those days. He left us each a hundred and fifty thousand
dollars. Your uncle Alexander gave it to the poor--as much of it as the
poor did not take without asking his leave. Ralph spent some of it, and
left the rest to Katharine Ralston when he was killed in the war. I
saved mine. It seemed good to have money. And then it came--it
came--somehow. I was lucky--fortunate investments in land. I ran after
it till I was forty-five; then it began to run after me, and it’s outrun
me, every time. But I wasn’t a miser, Katharine. I don’t want you to
think that I was mean and miserly when I was young. You don’t, do you,
my dear?”

“No, indeed!” Katharine gave the answer readily enough. “But, uncle
Robert, aren’t you talking too much? Doctor Routh said you were not
to--that it might hurt you. And your voice is so hoarse! I am sure it
can’t be good for you.”

The old man patted her hand laboriously, for he was very weak.

“I want my talk out,” he said. “It doesn’t matter much whether it hurts
me. A year or two, more or less, when I’ve had it all, everything, and
so long. I’m tired, my child, though when I am well I look so strong. It
isn’t only strength that’s needed to live with. It takes more.”

“But there are other things--there is so much in your life--so many
people. There are all of us. Don’t you care to live for our sakes--just
a little, uncle?”

“If they were all like you--more like you--well, I might. I’m very fond
of you, Katharine. You know it, don’t you? Yes. That’s why I sent for
you. I don’t believe I’m going to die--I told Routh so half an hour ago.
But I might--I may. I didn’t want to go over without having had my talk
out with you. That’s it. I want to have my talk out with you. I should
be sorry to slip away without seeing you. There are things--things that
come into my head when I’m alone--and I’ve been alone a great deal in my
life. Oh, I could have married, if I had liked. Queens would have
married me--queer, little, divorced queens from out-of-the-way little
kingdoms, you know. But I didn’t want to be married for my money, and
there were no Katharine Lauderdales when I was young.”

Again, with an unsteady, laboured movement, the old hand caressed the
young one as it lay on the soft, white, knitted Shetland shawl which
covered the bed, and again Katharine smiled affectionately and laughed
gently at the flattery. Then all was quiet. She leaned back in her
chair, thinking--the aged head rested on the white pillow, thinking.

“Katharine,”--the eyes opened again,--“what does it all mean, child?”

“What?” asked the young girl, meeting him again out of her reverie.

“Life.”

“Ah--if I knew that--”

“You’re at the beginning of it--I’m at the end--almost, or quite, it
doesn’t matter. What’s the meaning of all those things I’ve done, and
which you’re going to do? They must mean something. I ought to have got
at the meaning in so many years.”

Katharine was silent. Of late, she, too, had heard the great question
asked, which rattles in the throat of the dying century, and is to-day
in the ears of all, whether they desire to hear it or not. And no man
has answered it yet. A year earlier Katharine would have said but one
word in reply. She could not say it now.

In the still, white room she sat by the old man’s side and bowed her
head silently.

“It’s puzzled me a great deal,” he said, at last, in his familiar
speech. “So long as I cared for things,--money, principally, I
suppose,--it didn’t puzzle me at all. It all seemed quite natural. But
when I got worn out inside--used up with the wear and tear of having too
much--well, then I couldn’t care for things any more, and I began to
think. And it’s all a puzzle, Katharine. It’s all a puzzle. We find it
all in bits when we come, taken to pieces by the people who have just
gone. We spend all our lives in trying to put the thing together on some
theory of our own, and in the end we give it up, and go to
sleep--‘perchance to dream’--that’s Hamlet, isn’t it? But I never dreamt
much. If it’s anything, it isn’t a dream. Well, then, what is it?”

Katharine looked up at him with a little, half-childish glance of
wonder.

“Why, uncle Robert,” she said, “I always thought you were a religious
man--like papa, you know.”

“No.” The old man smiled faintly. “I’m not like your father. I fancy I’m
more like you--in some ways. Aren’t you religious, as you call it, my
dear?”

“I’m religious, as I call it--but not as ‘they’ call it.” She laughed a
little, perhaps at herself. “I seem to see something, and I believe in
it, without quite seeing it. Oh, I can’t explain! I’ve tried so often,
but it’s quite hopeless.”

“Try again,” said old Lauderdale. “It can’t do any harm, and it may do
me good. I’m so lonely.”

Katharine was perhaps too young to understand that loneliness, but the
look in the sunken blue eyes touched her. She rose and bent over him,
and kissed the pale, wrinkled forehead twice.

“It’s our fault--the fault of all us,” she said, sinking into her seat
again.

“No; it’s not,” he answered. “I didn’t want you all, and I couldn’t have
the ones I wanted. It doesn’t matter now. I want to hear you talk. Try
and tell me what you think it all means, from your end of life. I’ve
forgotten--it’s so long ago.”

He sighed, then coughed, raising himself a little, and then sank back
upon his pillow and closed his eyes, as though to listen.

“People say so many things,” Katharine began. “Perhaps that’s the
trouble. One hears so much that disturbs one’s belief, and one hears
nothing that settles it in any new way. That’s what happens to every
one. In trying to find reasons for things, people ruin the things
themselves with the tools they use. You can’t find out the reason of a
flower--certainly not by sticking the point of a steel knife into it and
cutting the heart out. You can see how it’s made--that’s science. But
the reason of its being a flower has nothing to do with science. If it
had, science would find it out, because science can do anything
possible in its own line. But it’s always the steel knife--always,
always. You can’t tell why things exist, by taking them to pieces, can
you?”

“No--no--that’s it.” The old man turned his head slowly from side to
side. Then it trembled a little and lay still again. “And the short cut
is to say there is no reason for things--that they’re all accidents, by
selection.”

“Yes; that’s the short cut, as you say,” answered Katharine. “The
trouble is that when we’ve taken it, if we don’t want to go back, we
ought to want to go on to the end. Nobody will do that. They meet you
with a moral right and wrong, after denying that there’s a ground for
morality. I know--I’ve talked with a great many people this winter. It’s
very funny, if you listen to them from any one point of view, no matter
which. Then they all seem to be mad. But if one listens inside,--with
one’s self, I mean,--it’s different. It hurts, then. It would break my
heart to believe that I had no soul, as some people do. Better believe
that one has one’s own to begin with, and the fragments of a dozen
others clinging to it besides, than to have none at all.”

“What’s that?” asked the old man, opening his eyes with a look of
interest. “What’s that about fragments of other people’s souls?”

“Oh--it’s what some people say. I got it from Mr. Griggs. Of course
it’s nonsense--at least--I don’t know. It’s the one idea that appeals to
one--that we go on living over and over again. And he says that in that
theory there’s an original self, sometimes dormant, sometimes dominant,
but which goes on forever--or indefinitely, at least; and then that
fragments of the other personalities, of the people we have lived with
in a former state, better or worse than the original self, fasten
themselves on our own self, and influence its doings, and may put it to
sleep, and may eat it up altogether--and that’s why we don’t always seem
to ourselves to be the same person. But I can’t begin to remember it
all. You should get Mr. Griggs to talk about it. He’s very interesting.”

“It’s a curious theory,” said old Lauderdale, evidently disappointed.
“It’s an ingenious explanation, but it isn’t a reason. Explanations
aren’t reasons--I mean, they’re not causes.”

“No,” answered Katharine, “of course they’re not. The belief is the
cause, I suppose.”

The sick man glanced at her keenly and then closed his eyes once more.
Katharine rose quietly and went to the windows to draw down the shades a
little.

“Don’t!” cried Lauderdale, sharply, in his hoarse voice. “I like the
light. It’s all the light I have.”

Katharine came back and sat down beside him again.

“I wasn’t going to sleep,” he said, presently. “I was thinking of what
you had said, that belief was the cause. Well--if I believe in God, I
must ask, ‘Domine quo vadis?’--mustn’t I? You know enough Latin to
understand that. What do you answer?”

“Tendit ad astra.”

It was one of those quick replies which any girl who knew a few Latin
phrases might easily make. But it struck the ears of the man whose
strength was far spent. He raised his hands a little, and brought them
together with a strangely devout gesture.

“To the stars,” he said in a whisper, and his eyes looked upwards.

Katharine rested her chin upon her hand, leaning forwards and watching
him. An expression passed over his face which she had never seen, though
she had read of the mysterious brightness which sometimes illuminates
the features of dying persons. She thought it must be that, and she was
suddenly afraid, yet fascinated. But she was mistaken. It was only a
gleam of hope. Words can mean so much more than the things they name.

And a dream-like interpretation of the two Latin phrases suggested
itself to her. It was as though, looking at the venerable and just man
who was departing, she had asked of him, ‘Sir, whither goest thou?’ And
as though a voice had answered her, ‘Starwards’--and as though her own
eyes might be those stars--the stars of youth and life--from which he
had come long ago and to which he was even now returning, to take new
childish strength and to live again through the years. Then he spoke,
and the dream vanished.

“I believe in Something,” he said. “Call it God, child, and let me pray
to It, and die in peace.”




CHAPTER III.


Katharine said nothing, not knowing what to say. During what seemed to
her a long time, old Lauderdale lay quite still. Then he seemed to rouse
himself, and as he turned his head he coughed painfully.

“I want you to know how I’ve left the money,” he said abruptly, when he
had recovered his breath.

“Do you think I ought to know?” asked Katharine, in some surprise.

“Yes--I don’t know whether you ought--no. But I want you to know. I’ve
confidence in your judgment, my dear.”

“Oh, uncle Robert! As though your own were not a thousand times better!”

“In matters of business it may be. But this is quite another thing. You
see, there are a good many who ought to have a share, and a good many
who expect some of it, whether they have any claim or not. I want to
know if you think I’ve acted fairly by everybody. Will you tell me,
quite honestly? Nobody else would--except Katharine Ralston, perhaps.”

“But I don’t want to be made the judge of your actions, dear uncle
Robert!” protested Katharine.

“Well--make a sacrifice, then, and do something you don’t like,”
answered the old man, gruffly.

It would have pleased Doctor Routh to see how soon his temper rose at
the merest sign of opposition.

“Well--tell me, then,” said Katharine, reluctantly.

“It’s a simple will,” began the old man, and then he paused, as though
reflecting upon it. “Well--you see,” he continued, presently, “I argued
in this way. I said to myself that the money ought either to go back to
its original source--I’ve thought a great deal about that, too, and I’ve
made sketches of wills leaving everything to the poor, in a big trust--I
suppose every rich man has made rough sketches of queer wills at one
time or another.” He paused a moment and seemed to be thinking. “Yes,”
he resumed, presently, “either it should go back to the people, or else
it ought to go amongst the Lauderdales, as directly as possible. Now
there’s my brother, first--your grandfather. He’s older than I am, but
he’s careless and foolish about money. He’d give it all away--better
leave something to his asylums and things, and give him an income but no
capital. He doesn’t want anything for himself--he’s a good man, and I
wish I were like him. Then there’s your father, next, and Katharine
Ralston--my nephew and niece. They don’t want a lot of money, either, do
they?”

Katharine’s eyes expressed a little astonishment in spite of herself,
and the old man saw it. He hesitated a while, coughed, cleared his
throat, and then seemed to make up his mind.

“It’s been my opinion for a long time,” he said, slowly, “that your
father has a good deal of his own.”

“Papa!” exclaimed Katharine. “Why--he always says he’s so poor! You
don’t know how economical he is, and makes us be. I’m sure he can’t be
rich.”

“Rich--h’m--that’s a relative expression nowadays. He’s not rich,
compared with me--but he has enough, he has quite enough.”

“Oh--enough--yes,” answered the young girl. “The house is comfortable,
and we have plenty to eat.” She laughed a little. “But as for clothes,
you know--well, if my mother didn’t sell her miniatures, I don’t know
exactly what she and I should do--nor what Charlotte would have done,
before she was married.”

Robert Lauderdale looked at her intently for several seconds.

“Do you mean to say,” he asked, at length, “that when your dear mother
sells her little paintings, it’s to get money for her and you to dress
on?”

“Yes--of course. What did you think?”

“I thought it was for her small charities,” he answered, bending his
rough brows with an expression of mingled pain and anger. “It seemed to
me a good thing that she should have that interest. If I’d known that
your father kept you all so close--”

“But I really think he’s poor, uncle Robert.”

“Poor! Nonsense! He’s got a million, anyway. I know it. Don’t look at me
like that--as though you didn’t believe me. I tell you, I know it. I
don’t know how much more he has, but he’s got that.”

He moved restlessly on his side, with more energy than he had yet shown,
for he was growing angry.

“There’s some money in the drawer of that little table,” he said,
pointing with his hand, which trembled a little. “It’s open--just get
what there is and bring it here, will you?”

Katharine rose.

“I don’t want any money, if you mean to give it to me,” she said, as she
crossed the room.

She brought him a roll of bills.

“Count it,” he said.

She counted carefully, turning back the crisp green notes over her
delicate fingers. It was new money.

“There are three hundred and fifty dollars,” she said. “At least, I
think I’ve counted right.”

“Near enough. Make a note of it, my dear. There are pencil and paper on
the table. There--just write down the figure. Now put the money into
your pocket, and go and spend it on some trifle.”

“I’d rather not,” answered Katharine, hesitating.

She had never had so much money in her hand in her whole life, though
she was the grand-niece of Robert the Rich.

“Do as I tell you!” cried the old man, almost fiercely, and in a much
stronger voice than he had been able to find hitherto.

Katharine obeyed, seeing that he was really losing his temper.

“You may as well spend it on toys as leave it to the servants,” he said.
“They’d have stolen it as soon as I was dead. Not that I mean to die,
though. Not till I’ve settled one or two things like this. I feel
stronger.”

“I’m so glad!” exclaimed Katharine.

“So am I,” growled the sick man. “You’ve saved my life.”

“I?”

“Yes, child. Go and tell Routh that I said so. Upon my word!” he
grumbled, half audibly. “Selling her poor little miniatures to buy
clothes for herself and her children--my nieces--that’s just a little
too much, you know--can’t see how I could die decently--well--without
telling him what I think about it. Katharine,” he said, more loudly,
addressing her, “it amounts to this. I’ve left a few charities, and I’ve
left the Miners a little something to make them comfortable, and I’ve
given a million to the Brights--Hamilton and Hester and their
mother--and I’ve left the rest to you three young ones--you and
Charlotte and Jack Ralston. That ought to make about twenty-five
millions for each of you. I want to know if you think I’ve done right?”

Katharine’s hands dropped by her side. For the first time in her life
she was literally struck dumb.

“That doesn’t mean,” continued the old man, watching her keenly, as the
light came back to his eyes, “that doesn’t mean that I give you all that
money, just as I gave you that roll of bills just now. It’s all tied up
in trusts, just as far as the law would allow me to do it. You couldn’t
take it and throw it into the street, nor speculate, nor buy a railway,
nor do anything of the kind. You and Charlotte will have to pay half
your income to your father and mother while they live, and you’ll have
to leave it to your children--at least, Charlotte must, and I hope you
will, my dear. And Jack must give half of his income to his mother. You
see, as there are three parents, that will make it exactly equal. And
all three of you have to pay something to make up an income for your
grandfather. So it will still be equally shared. I like you best, my
dear, but I couldn’t show any favouritism in my will. The end of it will
be that you will each have something less than half the income of
twenty-five millions to spend. That’s better than selling miniatures to
buy clothes, anyway. Isn’t it, now?”

He laughed hoarsely and then coughed.

“Go home, child,” he said, presently. “I’ve talked too much. Stop,
though. What I’ve told you is not to be repeated on any account. I
wanted to know what you thought of the right and wrong of the thing--but
I’ve taken your breath away. Go home and think about it. Come and see me
day after to-morrow--there, I shouldn’t have said that an hour ago--give
me a little of that beef tea, please, my dear. I’m hungry--and I’d
rather have it from your hand than from Mrs. Deems’s. Thank you.”

He drank eagerly, and she took the cup from him and set it down again.

“She’s a good creature, the nurse,” he said. “A very good creature--a
sort of holy scarecrow. I shan’t need her much longer.”

“You really do seem better,” said Katharine, wondering how she could
ever have believed that he was dying.

“I’m going to get well this time. I told Routh this morning that I
wasn’t going to die. You’ve saved my life. There’s nothing like rage for
the action of the heart, I believe. I shall be out next week.”

He began to cough again.

“Go home--go home,” he managed to say, between the short spasms. “I’m
talking too much.”

Katharine bent down and kissed his forehead quickly, looked at him
affectionately and left the room, for she saw that what he said was
true. She closed the door softly and found her way to the stairs. She
was in haste to get out into the air and to be alone, for she wished, if
possible, to realize the stupendous possibilities of life which the last
few minutes had brought into her range of mental vision. It was not a
light thing to have been told that she was one day to be among the
richest of her very rich acquaintances, after having been brought up in
such a penurious fashion.

In the hall she came suddenly upon her father and mother, who were
parleying with the butler.

“Here’s Miss Katharine, sir,” said the servant, and he immediately fell
back, glad to avoid further discussion with such a very obstinate person
as Alexander Junior.

“Why, Katharine!” exclaimed Mrs. Lauderdale, in surprise. “Do you mean
to say you’re here?”

“Yes--didn’t you know? Doctor Routh sent me up in his carriage. He met
me on the steps just as he was going in to see you. Didn’t he tell you?”

“No--how very extraordinary!”

Mrs. Lauderdale’s face assumed a grave expression not untinged with
displeasure.

“This is very strange,” said her husband. “And Leek has just been
telling us that uncle Robert could see no one.”

“I beg pardon, sir,” said the butler, coming forward respectfully.
“There were orders that when Miss Katharine came, Mr. Lauderdale was not
to be disturbed.”

“Yes,” answered Alexander Junior, coldly. “I understand. Come,
Emma--come, Katharine--we shall be late for luncheon.”

“It isn’t half-past twelve yet,” observed Katharine, glancing at the
great old clock, which at that moment gave ‘warning’ of the coming chime
for the half-hour.

“It’s of no consequence what time it is,” said her father, more coldly
than ever. “Come!”

They went out together, and the door closed behind them. Alexander
Lauderdale stood still upon the pavement and faced his daughter, with a
peculiarly hard look in his eyes.

“What does this all mean, Katharine?” he enquired, severely. “Your
mother and I desire some explanation.”

“There’s nothing to explain,” answered the young girl. “Uncle Robert
wanted to see me, and Doctor Routh told me so, and was kind enough to
send me up in his carriage. I was coming away when I met you. There’s
nothing to explain.”

Alexander Junior very nearly lost his temper. He could not recollect
having done so since he had refused to accept John Ralston as his
son-in-law, nearly eighteen months ago. But his steely grey eyes began
to gleam now, and his clear, pale skin grew paler. It was evident that
his mind was working rapidly in a direction which Katharine could not
understand.

“I wish to know what he said to you,” he replied.

“Why do you want to know?” asked Katharine, unwisely, for she herself
was agitated.

“I have a right to know,” answered her father, peremptorily.

It was unlike him to go to such lengths of insistence at once, and even
Mrs. Lauderdale was surprised, and glanced at him somewhat timidly.

“Shall we walk on?” she suggested. “I’m cold--there’s a chilly wind from
the corner.”

They began to move, Alexander Junior walking between them, with
Katharine on his left. She did not reply to his last speech at once, and
his anger rose.

“When I speak to you, Katharine, I expect to be answered,” he said.

“Yes,” replied Katharine, coolly. “I was thinking of what I should say.”

She had been taken unawares, and found it hard to decide how to act. She
thought he was angry because he suspected her of trying to influence the
old millionaire to do something which might facilitate her marriage with
John Ralston, little guessing that in the eyes of the church and the law
she was married already. So far as revealing anything about the
dispositions of her great-uncle’s will might be concerned, she had not
the slightest intention of saying anything about it, nor of even hinting
that he had spoken of it. She was capable of quite as much obstinacy as
her father, and she was far more intelligent; but she disliked a quarrel
of any sort, and yet, placed as she was, she could not see how to avoid
one, if he continued to insist. Mrs. Lauderdale saw that trouble was
imminent, and tried to come to the rescue.

“How did he seem to be, dear?” she enquired, speaking across her
husband. “Doctor Routh was not very encouraging.”

“He is better--really better, I’m sure,” answered Katharine, seizing the
opportunity of turning the conversation. “When I first went in, he
looked dreadfully ill. His eyes are quite sunken and his cheeks are
positively hollow. But gradually, as we talked, he revived, and when I
left him he really seemed quite cheerful.”

She paused, not seeing how she could go on talking about the old
gentleman’s appearance much longer. She hoped her mother would ask
another question, but her father interposed again, with senseless and
almost brutal persistence.

“I’m glad to hear that he is better,” he said. “But I’m still waiting
for an answer to my question. What was the nature of the conversation
between you, Katharine? I insist upon knowing.”

“Really, papa,” answered the young girl, looking up to him with eyes
almost as hard as his own, “I don’t see why you should be so determined
to know.”

“It’s of no consequence why I wish to know. It should be sufficient for
you to understand my wishes. I expect you to obey me at once and to give
a clear account of what took place. Do you understand me?”

“Perfectly--oh, yes!”

It was evident from Katharine’s tone that she did not intend to satisfy
him. Her mother thought that she might have excused herself instead of
refusing so abruptly. She might have even given a harmless sketch of an
imaginary conversation. But that was not her way, as she would have
said.

Alexander’s anger increased with every moment, in a way by no means
normal with him. He said nothing for a few moments, but walked stiffly
on, biting his clean-shaven upper lip with his bright teeth. He felt
himself helpless, which made the position worse.

“So uncle Robert is really better,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, pacifically
inclined.

“I think so,” answered Katharine, mechanically.

“I’m very glad. Aren’t you glad, Alexander, my dear?” she asked, turning
to her husband.

“Of course. What a foolish question!”

Mrs. Lauderdale felt that under the circumstances it had certainly been
a very foolish question, and she relapsed into silence. She was, on the
whole, a very good woman, and was sincere in saying that she was glad of
the old man’s recovery. This was not inconsistent with her recent haste
to inform her husband of the supposed danger. It had seemed quite
natural to her to think of going instantly to old Robert Lauderdale’s
bedside, if there were any possibility of his dying. She knew, also, far
better than Katharine had known, what an immense sum was to be divided
at his death, and considering the life she had led under her husband’s
economic rule, she might be pardoned if, even being strongly attached to
the old gentleman, she was a little agitated at the thought of the
changes imminent in her own existence. There is a point at which
humanity must be forgiven for being human. In the memorable struggle for
the great Lauderdale fortune, which divided the tribe against itself,
it must not be forgotten that Mrs. Lauderdale was sincerely fond of the
man who had accumulated the wealth, though she afterwards took a
distinct side in the affairs, and showed herself as eager as many others
to obtain as much as possible for her husband and her children.

Meanwhile, in spite of her, the opening skirmish continued sharply.
After walking nearly the length of a block in silence, Alexander Junior
once more turned his head in the direction of his daughter.

“Am I to understand, Katharine, that you definitely refuse to speak?” he
enquired, sternly.

“If you mean that I should tell you in detail all that uncle Robert and
I said to each other this morning,--yes. I refuse.”

“Do you know that you are disobedient and undutiful?”

“It isn’t necessary to discuss that. I’m not a child any longer.”

“Very well. We shall see.”

And they continued to walk in silence. Alexander was fond of walking and
of all sorts of exercise, when it did not interfere with the rigid
punctuality of his business habits. He had been a very strong man in his
youth.

This was the beginning of hostilities, and the events hitherto described
took place in the month of April.

Robert Lauderdale’s instinct had not deceived him, in prompting him to
say that he was not going to die when he seemed most ill. He rallied
quickly, and within a fortnight of the day on which he had sent for
Katharine, he was able to be driven in the Park, in the noon sunshine.
He was changed, and had grown suddenly much thinner, but most of his
friends thought that at his age this was no bad sign.

Ever since that crisis there had been a coldness between Katharine and
her father. She felt that he was watching her perpetually, looking,
perhaps, for an opportunity of making her feel his displeasure, and
assuredly trying to find out what she knew. The subject was not
mentioned, and Alexander Junior seemed to have accepted his defeat more
calmly than might have been expected; but Katharine knew his character
well enough to be sure that the humiliation rankled, and that the
obstinate determination to find out the secret was as constantly present
as ever.

Katharine’s life became more and more difficult and complicated, and she
seemed to become more powerless every day, when she tried to see some
way of simplifying it. She found herself, indeed, in a very
extraordinary position, and one which requires a little elucidation for
all those who are not acquainted with her previous history.

In the first place, she had been secretly married to her second cousin
John Ralston, nearly five months before the beginning of this story.
John Ralston had faults which could not be concealed. It had been said
with some truth that he drank and occasionally played high; that he was
a failure, as far as any worldly success was concerned, was evident
enough, although he was now making what seemed to be a determined effort
at regular work. He was certainly not a particularly good young man. His
father, the admiral, who had been dead some years, had been a brave
sailor and distinguished in the service, but there were many stories of
his wild doings, so that those who trace all character to heredity may
find an excuse for John’s evil tendencies in his father’s temperament.
Be this as it may, he had undoubtedly been exceedingly ‘lively,’ as his
distant cousin and best friend, Hamilton Bright, expressed it.

But he had his good points. He was honourable to a fault. He loved
Katharine with a single-hearted devotion very rare in so young a
man,--for he was only five and twenty years of age,--and for her sake
had been making a desperate attempt to master his worse instincts. He
could be said to have succeeded in that, at least, since he had made his
good resolutions. Whether he could keep them for the rest of his life
was another matter.

Katharine’s father, however, put no faith in him, and never would.
Moreover, John was a poor man, a consideration which had great weight.
No one could suspect that his great uncle intended to leave him a large
share of the fortune, and it was very generally believed that they had
quarrelled and that John Ralston was to be cut off with nothing. This
opinion was partly due to the fact that John kept away from Robert
Lauderdale’s house more than the rest of the family, because he dreaded
the idea of being counted among the hangers on of the tribe. But
Alexander Lauderdale could not forbid him the house, because he was a
relation, but altogether refused to hear of a marriage with Katharine.
He hoped to make for her a match as good as her sister’s, if not better.
The scene with John had been almost violent, but the young lovers had
contrived to see each other with the freedom afforded by society to near
relatives.

Almost a year had passed in this way, and there had seemed to be no
prospect of a solution, when Katharine had taken the law into her own
hands, being at that time nineteen years old. She had persuaded John
that if he would marry her secretly, she could at once prevail on old
Robert Lauderdale to find him some occupation in the West. After much
hesitation John Ralston had consented, on condition that uncle Robert
should be told immediately. The pair were secretly married by a
clergyman whom John persuaded to perform the ceremony, and an hour
later Katharine had told the old gentleman her secret. He at once
offered to make her and John independent--for the honour of the family;
but John had stipulated that he was to receive nothing of the nature of
money. That would have been like begging with a loaded pistol. What he
wanted was a position in which he might do some sort of work, and
receive an equivalent sufficient to support himself and his wife. Robert
Lauderdale at once proved to his grand-niece that such a scheme was
wholly impracticable. John could do nothing which could earn him a
dollar a day. Katharine had to own at last that he was right. He said
that if John would work steadily in an office in New York, even for a
year, it would be easy to push him rapidly into success.

The compromise was accepted as the only way out of the difficulty. The
secret marriage remained a secret, and a mere accomplished formality.
John continued to live with his mother as though he were a bachelor;
Katharine stayed under her father’s roof as Miss Lauderdale. John
returned to Beman Brothers, and was now working there, as has been said
more than once. Katharine had to bear all the difficulties of a totally
false position in society. These had been the results of the secret
marriage, so far as actual consequences in fact were concerned. Morally
speaking, there could be no question but that John Ralston, at least,
had profited enormously by the sense of honourable responsibility
Katharine had forced upon him. He had made one of those supreme efforts
of which natures nervous by temperament, melancholy, and sometimes
susceptible of exaltation, are often capable. The almost divine dignity
which his mother had taught him to attribute to the code of honour stood
him in good stead. He saw by the light which guides heroes, things not
heroic in themselves to be done, but brave at least, and they were easy
to him, because, for Katharine’s sake, he would have done much more.

So far as Katharine was concerned, the effect upon her was different. It
might even be questioned whether it were a good effect. She was helpless
to do anything which could improve her position, and the result was a
feeling of hostility against her surroundings. The whole fabric of
society seemed to her to rest upon a doubtful foundation, since two
young people so eminently fitted for each other could be forced by it
into such a situation.

They were of equal standing in every way; she had even lately learned
that their prospects of fortune, which were little short of colossal,
were precisely the same. They loved each other. They were married by
church and law. Yet between John’s code of honour, on the one hand, and
Alexander Lauderdale’s determined opposition, on the other, they dared
not so much as own that they were husband and wife, lest some enormous
social scandal should ensue. They had but one alternative--to leave New
York together, which meant starvation, or else to accept Robert
Lauderdale’s help in the form of money, which John was too proud to do.
And though John would have been quite ready to starve alone, he had no
intention of subjecting Katharine to any such ordeal. He blamed himself
most bitterly for having accepted the secret marriage at all, but since
the thing was done, he meant to do his share and bear his burden
manfully and honourably. It was all he could do to atone for his
weakness in having yielded, and for the trouble he had caused Katharine.

But she had no such active part as he. He must work, for he had chosen
that salvation for his self-respect, and it was her portion to wait
until he could win his independence on his own merits, since he would
not be indebted for it to any one. The waiting is often harder to bear
than the working. Katharine grew impatient of the conventions in the
midst of which she lived, and found fault with the system of all modern
society.

She was strangely repelled, too, by the attentions of the young men she
met daily, and danced with, and sat beside at dinner. They had amused
her until the last winter. She was not one of those girls who either
feign indifference to amusement, or really feel it, and so long as she
had been free to enjoy herself without any secondary thoughts about the
meaning of enjoyment, she had found the world a pleasant place. Now,
however, she was for the first time made conscious that several of the
young fellows who surrounded her at parties really wished to marry her.
The genuine and pure-hearted convictions concerning the inviolable
sanctity of marriage, which are peculiarly strong in American young
girls, asserted themselves with Katharine at every moment. Being the
lawfully wedded wife of John Ralston, it seemed an outrage that young
Van De Water, for instance, should seek occasion to assure her of his
devotion. Yet, since he, like the rest, knew nothing of the truth, she
could not blame him if he had chanced to fall in love with her. She
could only refuse to listen to him and discourage his advances, feeling
all the while a most unreasonable and yet womanly desire to hand him
over to her husband’s tender mercies, together with a firm faith that
John was not only able, but would also be quite disposed, to slay the
offender forthwith.

This seems to prove that woman is naturally good, and that harm can only
reach her by slow stages. And it is a curious reflection that generally
in the world good, when it comes, comes quickly and evil slowly. Great
purifying religions have arisen and washed whole nations clean, almost
in one man’s lifetime, whereas it has always required generations of
luxury and vice to undermine the solidity of any strong people. A first
sin is rarely more than an episode, too often exaggerated by those who
would direct the conscience, and who leave the offenders to the terrible
danger of discovering such exaggerations later, and then of setting down
all wrong-doing as insignificant because the first was made to appear
greater than it was.

Katharine hated the falseness of her position, and the perpetual
irritation to which she was exposed unsettled the balance of her girlish
convictions as they had emerged from the process of education,
ready-made, honest, and somewhat conventional. The disturbance awakened
abnormal activity in her mind, and she fell into the habit of
questioning and discussing almost every accepted article of creeds
social and spiritual.

Hence her liking for the society of Paul Griggs, whose experience was a
fact, but whose convictions were a mystery not easily fathomed.
Alexander Lauderdale especially detested the man for his easy way of
accepting anybody’s religious beliefs, as though the form of religion
were of no importance whatever, while perpetually thrusting forward the
humanity of mankind as the principal point of interest in life. But when
he was alone with Katharine, or with some kindred spirit, Griggs
sometimes talked of other things.

The day on which Katharine, returning from Robert Lauderdale’s house,
refused to answer her father’s questions was an important one in her
history and in the lives of many closely connected with her; and this
has seemed the best place for offering an explanation of such preceding
events as bear directly upon all that followed. Here, therefore, ends
the prologue to the story which is to tell of the lives of John Ralston
and his wife, commonly known as Miss Lauderdale, during the great battle
for the Lauderdale fortune. It has been a long prologue, and, as is
usually the case in such tiresome preliminary pieces, the majority of
the actors in the real play have not yet appeared, and the few who have
come before the curtain crave as yet indulgence rather than applause.
They have shown their faces and have explained the general nature of
what is to be represented, and they retire as gracefully as they can,
under rather difficult circumstances, to reappear in such actions and
situations as should explain themselves.




CHAPTER IV.


In itself, Robert Lauderdale’s will was a very fair one. It provided, as
has been seen, that each of the living members of the family in the
direct line should have an equal income, while insuring the important
condition that the money should remain in the hands of the Lauderdales
and Ralstons as long as possible, since the income paid to the four
elder members, Alexander Lauderdale Senior, Alexander Junior, the
latter’s wife and Mrs. Ralston, John’s mother, should revert at the
deaths of each to the three younger heirs, John Ralston, Katharine, and
Charlotte Slayback, and afterwards to the children of each.

This result seemed just and, on the whole, to be desired. Robert
Lauderdale had devoted much thought to the subject, and had seen no
other way of acting fairly and at the same time of providing as far as
possible against the subdivision and disappearance of the great fortune
he had amassed. The will was to constitute three separate trusts, one
for each of the direct legatees and their children, at whose death the
trusts would expire, and the property be further divided amongst the
succeeding generations in each line.

The old millionaire was a very enlightened man, and had honestly
endeavoured during his lifetime to understand the conditions and
obligations to which the possessors of very large fortunes should
submit. Looking at the matter from this point of view, he had come to
regard the accumulation and dissipation of wealth as a succession of
natural phenomena, somewhat analogous to those of evaporation and rain,
beneficial when gradual, destructive when sudden. As water is drawn up
in the form of vapour, in invisible atoms, gradually to accumulate in
the form of clouds, which, moving under natural conditions, are borne
towards those regions where moisture is most needed, to descend gently
and be lost in showers that give earth life, until the sky above is
clear again, and all the fields below are green with growing things--so,
thought Robert Lauderdale, should wealth follow a reasonable and
beneficial course of constant distribution and redistribution, to
promote which was a moral obligation upon those through whose hands it
passed. He was not sure that it was in any way his duty to leave vast
sums for charities, nor to hasten the subdivision of the property in any
violent way; for he knew well enough that sudden divisions generally
mean the forcible depression of values, in which case wealth, of which
the income being spent regularly should find its way to the points
where it is most needed, must, on the contrary, become dormant until
values are restored, if indeed they ever are restored altogether.

If he had been the father of one or more children, there is no knowing
how he might have acted. If there had been in the whole family one man
whom he sincerely trusted to act wisely, he might have left him the bulk
of the fortune, giving each of the others a sum which would have been
large compared with what they had of their own, but wholly insignificant
by the side of the main property. But no such selection was possible.
His brother was a very old man, wholly unfitted for the purpose. His
brother’s son was a miser, and a dull one at that, in Robert’s
estimation. John Ralston was not to be thought of for a moment. Hamilton
Bright would have answered the conditions, but he was far removed in
relationship, being a descendant of Robert Lauderdale’s uncle through a
female line. Nevertheless, Robert Lauderdale hesitated.

It was perhaps natural that Alexander Junior should believe that he was
the proper person for his uncle to select as the principal heir. He was
the only son of the eldest of the family. He was a man of stainless
reputation, occupying a position of high importance and trust. No one
could have denied that he was scrupulous in business matters to a
degree rare even amongst the most honourable men of his own city. He was
comparatively young, being only fifty years old, and he might live a
quarter of a century to administer and hold together the Lauderdale
estate, for his health was magnificent and his strength of iron.

He had thought it all over daily for so many years, that he could see no
possible reason why he should not be the principal heir. In arguing the
case, he told himself that his uncle was not capricious, that he would
certainly not leave his fortune to Hamilton Bright, who was the only
other sensible man of business in the whole connection, and that it was
generally in the nature of very rich men to wish to know that their
wealth was to be kept together after they were dead. No one could
possibly do that better than Alexander Lauderdale Junior.

Nevertheless, he felt conscious that his uncle disliked him personally,
and in moments of depression, when he had taken too little exercise and
his liver was torpid, the certainty of this caused him much uneasiness.
There was no apparent reason for it, and it suggested to his
self-satisfied nature the idea that some caprice entered, after all,
into the nature of his uncle. On such occasions he rarely failed to
instruct Mrs. Lauderdale to ask uncle Robert to dinner, and to be
particularly careful that the fish should be perfect. Uncle Robert was
fond of fish and a quiet family party. Katharine was his favourite, but
he liked Mrs. Lauderdale, and his brother, the old philanthropist, was
congenial to him, though the two took very different views of humanity
and the public good. Alexander Senior’s dream was to get possession of
all Robert’s millions and distribute them within a week amongst a number
of asylums and charitable institutions which he patronized. He should
then feel that he had done a good work and that his benevolent instincts
had been satisfied. He sometimes sat in his study in a cloud of
smoke--for he smoked execrable tobacco perpetually--and tried to
persuade himself that ‘brother Bob’ might perhaps after all leave him
the whole fortune. There would be great joy among the idiots on that
day, thought old Alexander, as the two-cent ‘Virginia cheroot’ dropped
from his hand, and he fell asleep in his well-worn armchair. And then
came dreams of unbounded charity, of unlimited improvement and education
of the poor and deficient. The greatest men of the age should be
employed to devote their lives to the happiness of the poor little blind
boys, and of the little girls born deaf, and of the vacantly staring
blear-eyed youths whom nature had made carelessly, and whom God had sent
into the world, perhaps, as a means of grace to those more richly
endowed. For old Alexander was charitable to every one--even to the
Supreme Being, whose motives he ventured to judge. He was incapable of
an unkind thought, and in the heaven of his old fancy he would have
founded an asylum for reformed devils and would not have hesitated to
beg a subscription of Satan himself, being quite ready to believe that
the Prince of Hell might have his good moments. He would have prayed
cheerfully for ‘the puir deil.’ There is no limit to the charity of such
over-kind hearts. Nothing seems to them so bad but that, by gentleness
and persuasion, it may at last be made good.

He knew, of course, for Robert had told him, that he was not to have the
millions even during the few remaining years of his life, and he bore
his brother no malice for the decision. Robert promised him that he
should have plenty of money for his poor people, but did not hesitate to
say that if he had the whole property he would pauperize half the city
of New York in six months.

“You’d give every newsboy and messenger boy in the city a roast turkey
for dinner every day,” laughed Robert.

“If I thought it might improve the condition of poor boys, I certainly
should,” answered the philanthropist, gravely. “I’m fond of roast turkey
myself--with cranberry sauce and chestnuts inside. Why shouldn’t the
poor little fellows have it, too, if every one had enough money?”

“If there were enough money to go round, creation would be turned into a
kitchen for a week, and into a hospital for six months afterwards,”
observed Robert Lauderdale. “Fortunately, money’s scarcer than
greediness.”

And on the whole, there was much wisdom in this plain view, which to
Robert himself presented a clear picture of the condition of mankind in
general in regard to money and its distribution.

It would not have been natural if even the least money-loving members of
the family had not often speculated, each in his or her own way, about
the chances of receiving something very considerable when old Robert
died. He had been generous to them all, according to his lights, but he
had not considered that any of them were objects of charity. The true
conditions of his brother’s household life had been carefully concealed
from him, until Katharine had, almost accidentally, given him an insight
into her father’s family methods, so to say. Nevertheless, he had long
known that Alexander Junior must have much more money than he was
commonly thought to possess, and his mode of living, as compared with
his fortune, proved conclusively that he hoarded what he had. He must
have known that a large share of the estate must ultimately come to him,
and he could assuredly have had no doubts as to its solidity, since it
consisted entirely in land and houses. What was he hoarding his income
for? That was the question which naturally suggested itself to Robert,
and the only answer he could find, and the one which accorded perfectly
with his own knowledge of his nephew’s character, was that Alexander was
a miser. As the certainty solidified in the rich man’s mind, he became
more and more determined that Alexander Junior should know nothing of
the dispositions of the will.

And he had rigidly kept his own counsel until that day when he had
confided in Katharine. When he was well again, or, at all events, so far
recovered as to feel sure that he might live some time longer, he
regretted what he had done. Weakened by illness, he had acted on impulse
in making a young girl the repository of his secret intentions.
Moreover, he had not intended to part with the right to change them
whenever he should see fit, and the problem of the distribution of
wealth continued to absorb his attention. He had great faith in
Katharine, but, after all, she was not a man, as he told himself
repeatedly. She might be expected to confide in John Ralston, who might,
on some unfortunate day, drink a glass of wine too much and reveal the
facts of the case. He would have been even more disturbed than he was,
had he known that Alexander Junior suspected his daughter of knowing the
truth.

Robert Lauderdale had certainly not made her life easier for her by
what he had done. During several days her father from time to time
repeated his questions.

“I hope that you are in an altered frame of mind, Katharine,” he said.
“This perpetual obstinacy on the part of my child is very painful to
me.”

“I might say something of the same kind,” Katharine answered. “It’s
painful--as you choose to call it--to me, to be questioned again and
again about a thing I won’t speak of. Why will you do it? You seem to
think that I hold my tongue out of sheer eccentricity, just to annoy
you. Is that what you think? If so, you’re very much mistaken.”

“It’s the only possible explanation of your undutiful conduct. I repeat
that I’m very much pained by your behaviour.”

“Look here, papa!” cried Katharine, turning upon him suddenly. “Don’t
drag in the question of duty. It’s one’s duty to keep a secret when
one’s heard it--whether one wanted to hear it or not. There’s no reason
in the world why I should repeat to you what uncle Robert told me--any
more than why I should go and tell Charlotte, or Hester Crowdie, or
anybody else.”

“Katharine!” exclaimed Alexander Junior, sternly, “you are very
impertinent.”

“Because I tell you what I think my duty is? I’m sorry you should think
so. And besides, since you seem so very anxious that I should betray a
secret, I’m afraid that it wouldn’t be very safe with you.”

Alexander Junior did not wince under the cut. He was firmly persuaded
that he was in the right.

“If you were not a grown-up woman, I should send you to your room,” he
said, coldly.

“Yes, I realize the advantage of being grown up,” answered Katharine,
with contempt.

“But I shall not tolerate this conduct any longer,” continued Alexander
Junior. “I will not be defied by my own daughter.”

“Charlotte defied you for twenty years,” replied Katharine, “and she’s
not half as strong as I am. And I never defied you, and I don’t now.
That’s not the way I should put it. I’m not so dramatic, and as long as
I won’t,--why, I won’t, that’s all,--and there’s no need of calling it
defiance, nor by any other big name.”

Alexander was a cold man, and it was not likely that he should lose his
temper again as he had when he had walked home with her from Robert
Lauderdale’s. He began to recognize that in the matter of imposing his
will forcibly, he had met his match. He had generally succeeded in
dominating those with whom he came into close relations in life, but his
hard and freezing exterior had contributed more to the effect than his
intellectual gifts. Finding that his personality failed to produce the
usual result, he temporized, for he was not good at sharp answers.

“There’s no denying the fact,” he said, “that uncle Robert has told you
about his will. Can you deny that?”

The latter question is a terrible weapon, and is the favourite one of
dull persons when dealing with truthful ones, because it is so easily
used and so effective. Katharine was familiar with it, and knew that her
father had few others, and none so strong. She met it in the approved
fashion, which is as good as any, though none are satisfactory.

“That’s an absurd question,” she answered. “You’ve made up your mind
beforehand, and nothing I could say would make you change it. If I
denied that uncle Robert had told me anything about his will, you
wouldn’t believe me.”

“Certainly not!” replied Alexander, falling into the trap like a
school-boy.

“Then it’s clear that nothing I can say can make you change your
mind--in other words, that you’re prejudiced,” said Katharine, in cool
triumph. “And as that’s undeniable, from your own words, I don’t see
that it’s of the slightest use to ask me questions.”

Her father bit his clean-shaven upper lip and frowned severely.

“I don’t know where you get such sophistries from!” he answered, in
impotent arrogance. “Unless it’s that Mr. Griggs who teaches you,” he
added, taking a new line of aggression.

“Why do you say ‘that’ Mr. Griggs, as though he were an adventurer or a
fool?” enquired Katharine, arching her black brows.

“Because I suspect him of being both,” answered Alexander Junior,
jumping at the suggestion with an affectation of keenness.

Katharine laughed.

“That’s too absurd, papa! You’d have said just the same thing if I’d
said ‘murderer’ and ‘thief.’ You know as well as I do that Mr. Griggs is
a distinguished man,--I didn’t say that he was a great genius,--who has
got where he is by hard work and good work. He’s no more of an
adventurer than you are.”

“I’ve heard strange stories of his youth, which I shall certainly not
repeat to you,” answered Alexander, snapping his lips in the fine
consciousness of his own really unimpeachable virtue.

One proverb, at least, is true, amidst many high-sounding, conventional
lies. Virtue is emphatically its own reward. The scorn of those who
possess it for those who do not, proves the fact beyond all doubt.

“I’m not going to discuss Mr. Griggs, and I don’t want to hear about his
youth,” answered Katharine. “You’ve taken an unreasonable dislike for
him, and there’s no necessity for your meeting any oftener than you
please.”

“Fortunately, no--there’s no necessity. I should be sorry to associate
with such men, and I regret very much that you should choose your
friends amongst them. Since you’ve announced your intention of defying
me and disregarding all my wishes, we’ll say no more about that for the
present. Perhaps I shall find means to bring you to reason which will
surprise you. In the meantime, I consider that you are acting very
unwisely in refusing to communicate what you know about the will.”

“Possibly--but I’m willing to abide by my mistake,” answered Katharine,
calmly.

“It is of course certain,” continued her father, “that a very large sum
of money will come to us when my uncle Robert dies--some day. Let us
hope that it may be long before that happens.”

“By all means, let’s hope so,” observed Katharine.

“Don’t interrupt me, Katharine. You can at least show me the common
courtesy of listening to what I say, whatever position you may choose to
take up against me. As I was saying, a great deal of money will come to
some of us. We do not know exactly how much it will be, though I’ve no
doubt that you’re acquainted with all the details. But I admit that you
can’t possibly appreciate how important it is for us all to know how
this great fortune is to be disposed of, and who has been selected as
the administrator. The happiness of many persons, the safety of the
fortune itself, depend upon these things being known in time.”

“I don’t see what they can have to do with the safety of the fortune.
Houses don’t run away. I’ve often heard you say that uncle Robert has
everything in houses. I suppose one person will get one house and
another will get another.”

“I’m not here to explain the principle of business to you,” said
Alexander. “Those are things you can’t understand. The death of a man of
such immense wealth necessarily affects public affairs and the market,
even if his fortune is largely in real estate. It is a security to the
world at large to feel that a proper person has succeeded in the
management of the estate.”

“I suppose that uncle Robert understands that, too,” observed Katharine.

“In a way, of course--yes, in a certain way he must, I’ve no doubt. But
these great men never seem to realize what will happen when they die.”

“You speak of uncle Robert’s death as though you expected to hear of it
this evening. He’s almost quite well.”

Again Alexander Junior bit his lip. He had, perhaps, never before been
so conscious that when his personality failed to produce the effect he
desired, his intelligence had no chance of accomplishing anything
unaided.

“This is intolerable!” he exclaimed, with profound disgust. “Since you
can be neither decently civil nor in any way reasonable, I shall leave
you to think over your conduct.”

This is a threat which rarely inspires terror in the offender. Katharine
did not wish to go too far, and received the announcement in silence,
sincerely hoping that he would really go away and leave her to herself.
Such scenes occurred almost every day, and she was weary of them,--not
more so, perhaps, than Alexander was of perpetual defeat. She could not
understand why he was so persistent, for it seemed to her that she
showed him plainly enough how determined she was to keep silence. His
reproof did not affect her in the least, for she knew she was right. She
wondered, indeed, from time to time, that a man so undoubtedly upright
as he was should so press her to betray a confidence, when he had all
his life preached to her about the value of reticence and discretion,
and she rightly attributed his conduct to his excessive anxiety for the
money, overriding even his rigid principles. She had often admired him,
merely for that very rigidity, which appealed to her as being masculine
and strong. She despised him the more when she had discovered that the
only motive able to bend the stiff back of his scrupulous theory and
practice was the love of money, pure and simple. She did not believe
that he would have so derogated to save her life. The very arrogance of
his manner showed how far he knew himself to be from his own ideal. He
was trying to carry it through as a matter of right.

Katharine longed to confide in John Ralston. He was not so free as he
had been in his idle days, a few months earlier. Having accepted a
position, he was determined to do his best, and he stayed down town
every day as long as there was the least possibility of finding anything
which he could do in the bank.

Not long after the last-recorded interview with Katharine, Alexander
Junior, being down town, had some reason to speak of a matter of
business with the senior partner in Beman Brothers’, and entered the
bank early in the afternoon. It was a vast establishment on the ground
floor, a few steps above the level of the street. Being a place where
there was much going and coming and active work, the office had not the
air of icily polished perfection which characterized the inner fane of
the Trust Company. The counters and seats were dark, and rubbed smooth
with use, like the floor; the doors were worn with constant handling,
but moved easily and noiselessly on their hinges. The brass gratings and
rails were bright with long years of daily leathering. Everything was
large, strong, and workmanlike, as a big engine, which is well kept but
gets very little rest. There was the low, breathing, softly shuffling
sound in the air, which is heard where many are busy and no one speaks a
superfluous word.

Alexander Lauderdale passed through the great outer office and caught
sight of John Ralston, bending over some writing at a small desk by
himself. Ralston was at that time between five and six and twenty years
of age, a wiry, lean young man, with a dark face. There was more
restlessness than strength in the expression, perhaps, but there was no
lack of energy, a quality which, when it does not find vent in a
congenial activity, is apt to produce a look of discontent. Possibly,
too, there might be a dash of Indian blood in the Ralston family. There
was certainly none in the Lauderdales. John’s bright brown eyes were
turned upon his work, as Alexander passed near him, but glanced up
quickly a moment later and saw him. A look of contempt darkened the
young man’s features like a shadow, and was instantly gone again. The
two men had not exchanged half a dozen words in eighteen months. The
brown eyes went back to the page, and the sinewy, nervous hand went on
writing, and the straight, smooth hair on the top of Ralston’s head, as
he bent over the desk, became again the most prominent object, for its
extreme blackness, in that part of the office.

Alexander Junior was ushered into the elder Mr. Beman’s private room, by
a grave young man in a jacket with gilt buttons. The name of Lauderdale
was a passport in any place of business in the city.

“By the way,” he said, after exchanging a few words about the matter
which had brought him there, “you’ve taken back that young cousin of
ours, Jack Ralston. How’s the fellow getting on?”

“Ralston? Oh, yes--Mr. Lauderdale wanted him to try again--yes--well,
he’s doing pretty well, I’m told. But they tell me he can’t do anything,
though he wants to. Praiseworthy, though, very praiseworthy, to try and
work, when he’s sure to have plenty of money one of these days. I like
the boy myself,” added Mr. Beman, with slightly increasing interest.
“He’s got some good in him, somewhere, I’ll be bound.”

“Does he keep pretty steady?” enquired Alexander Junior. “You knew he
drank, I suppose?”

“Drinks!” exclaimed Mr. Beman, rather incredulously. “Nonsense--don’t
believe it.”

Mr. Beman hated society, and spent many of his leisure hours in a club
chiefly frequented by old gentlemen.

“Oh, no! It’s quite true, I assure you. I thought you knew, or I
wouldn’t have mentioned it--being a relation. I hope he won’t make a
fool of himself, now that he’s with you. Good morning.”

“Good morning, my dear Lauderdale,” answered the banker, cordially
shaking hands.

Alexander left the bank and returned to his own office, questioning
himself by the way concerning the right and wrong side of what he had
just done, in undermining whatever confidence Mr. Beman might have in
John Ralston. By dint of moral exertion, he succeeded in inducing his
Scotch business instinct to admit that it was fair to warn an old friend
if the habits of a young man he had lately taken into employment were
not exactly what they should be. He resolutely closed his eyes to the
fact that he had waited several days, until something had required that
he should see the banker, in order to ask the careless question, and
that, during all that time, Katharine’s obstinacy had rankled in his
brooding temper like an unreturned blow. He did not wish to think,
either, that he had perpetrated a small act of indirect vengeance. He
was very intent upon being conscientious--it would not do even to
remember that any under-thoughts had floated through his brain beneath
the current which he desired to see.

It was easy enough to forget it all, by merely allowing his mind to turn
again to the question of his uncle’s millions. That subject had a
fascination which never palled. If he is to be excused at all for this
and many other things which he subsequently did, his excuse must be
stated now, or never.

Let this one fact be remembered, for the sake of his humanity. He had
spent the best years of his life in the inner office of a great Trust
Company. That alone explains many things. Having originally been in
moderate circumstances, he had been brought into daily contact for a
long period with the process of hoarding money. He had seen how sums,
originally insignificant, doubled and trebled themselves, and grew to
fair dimensions by the simplest of all means,--by being kept locked up.
He had not been by nature grasping, nor covetous of the goods of others
in any inordinate degree, but he had that inborn craving for the actual
money itself, for seeing it and touching it, and knowing where it is,
which makes one small boy ask his father for a penny ‘to put by the side
of the other,’ while his brother spends his mite on a sugar-plum, eats
it, and runs off to play. Day by day, month by month, year by year, he
had seen that putting of one penny by the side of the other going on
under his eyes and personal supervision. It had been his duty to see
that the pennies stayed where they were put. It is not strange that,
with his temperament, he should have done for himself what he did for
others. And with the doing of it came the habit of secrecy, which
belongs to the miser’s passion, the instinctive denial of the
possession, the mechanical and constantly recurring avowal of an
imaginary poverty. All that came as surely as the dream of countless
gold, to be counted forever and ever, with the absolute certainty of
never reaching the end, and as the nightmare of the empty safe, more
real and terrible than the live horror of the waking man who comes home
and finds that the wife he loves has left him.

He knew that hideous scene by heart. It visited him sometimes with no
apparent cause. He knew how in the night--he always dreamed that it
happened at night--he went to his own box in the Safe Deposit Vault, his
own familiar box, as in reality he went regularly twice in every week.
He felt the thrill of secret, heart-warming anticipation as he came near
to it. His heart began to beat as it always did then, and only then,
giving him a queer, breathless sensation which he loved, and that
peculiar thirsty dryness in the throat. He turned the key, he pressed
the spring, and out it came against his greedy, trembling hand--empty.
At that point he awoke, clutching at the thin, tough chain by which the
real key hung about his neck. His worst fear for years had been to dream
that dream--his highest pleasure had been to go, after dreaming it, and
find it false, the drawer full, all safe, the good United States Bonds
filed away in dockets of a hundred thousand dollars each, untouched and
unfingered.

He knew the fascination, the dumb horror, the soul-uplifting delight of
a great passion, of one which is said to be the last and greatest, if
not the worst, that plays the devil’s music on the wrung heartstrings of
men. That is his only excuse for what he did. Dares humanity allege its
humanity in extenuation of its humanity?




CHAPTER V.


Before John Ralston had gone back to Beman Brothers’, it had been easy
enough for him and Katharine to meet in the course of the day, but the
difficulties had increased unavoidably of late. Of course they saw each
other in society, and as members of the same tribe they were often asked
to the same parties, though that was by no means a matter of certainty.
It was necessary to have a fixed understanding which should enable them
to be sure of meeting and communicating with one another, and of knowing
from day to day whether the next meeting were positively certain or not.
John’s hour for going down town was fixed, but the time of his returning
was not. That depended on the amount of work there chanced to be for him
at the bank,--sometimes more, sometimes less.

The habits of the Lauderdale household in Clinton Place were also very
exact. Alexander Junior took charge, as it were, of the day, as soon as
it appeared, and doled it out in portions. Breakfast was at half past
eight, and he expected his wife and daughter to make their appearance in
time to see him at least finish the solid steak or brace of chops with
which he fortified himself for work. His father always came down late,
in order to be able to smoke as soon as he had finished eating, without
annoying any one, for the old man seemed to subsist largely upon tobacco
smoke and fresh milk--which is a strange mixture, but not unhealthy for
those who are accustomed to it. That he smoked ‘Old Virginia Cheroots’
at two cents each, was his misfortune and not his fault. Practically he
lived upon his son, for he had long ago given away everything he
possessed, and even the old house had passed into Alexander’s hands--for
a very moderate equivalent, which the philanthropist had already spent
in advance upon the introduction of a new heating apparatus in his
favourite asylum. Alexander Junior supplied him with the necessaries of
life, and by almost imperceptible degrees of change had at last
substituted the cheroots for the fine Havanas to which his father had
been addicted in his comparative prosperity. From time to time the old
man made a mild remark about the deterioration of cigars. The
observations of his friends, after smoking one of his, were less mild.
Alexander Senior attributed the change to the McKinley Bill. Alexander
Junior did not smoke. He left the house every morning at a quarter past
nine, before the fumigation had begun.

Katharine had always been free to go out for a walk alone in the early
hours since she had been considered to be grown up, and she took
advantage of the privilege now in order to meet John Ralston. He was
expected to be at the bank at half past nine, and, as it was near the
Rector Street Station, he could calculate his time with precision if he
found himself near a station of the elevated road.

He and Katharine had a simple system of signals. John came down to
Clinton Place by the Sixth Avenue elevated, and got out at the corner.
Thence he walked past the Lauderdales’ house to Fifth Avenue, and
crossed Washington Square to South Fifth Avenue, by which he reached the
Bleecker Street Station of the elevated railway. The usual place of
meeting was on the south side of the Square. If Katharine were coming
that morning there was something red in her window, a bit of ribbon, a
red fan, or anything she chanced to pick up of the required colour. John
could see it at a glance. He, on his part, let fall a few seeds or
grains on the well-swept lower step of the house as he passed, to show
that he had gone by. The convention was that the signal should consist
of any kind of seed or grain. If, when she went out, there was nothing
on the step, which very rarely happened, Katharine went back into the
house and waited, easily finding an excuse if any one remarked her
return, by alleging a mismatched pair of gloves, or a forgotten parasol
or umbrella.

The system worked perfectly. Two or three grains of wheat, or rice, or
rye, a couple of peppercorns, a little millet, varied daily, according
to the supply John had in his pockets, and dropped near one end of the
step, were all that was required, for it was rarely that more than a few
minutes elapsed between their being deposited there and the moment when
Katharine saw them. Generally, the sparrows had got them before any one
else came out. The only person who ever noticed the frequent presence of
seeds of some kind on the doorstep was the old philanthropist, who made
illogical reflections upon the habits of the birds that brought them
there, as he naturally supposed.

With regard to the place of meeting, the two changed it from time to
time, or from day to day, as they thought best. Their minutes were
counted, as John could not afford to be late at Beman Brothers’, and
sometimes they only exchanged a few words, agreeing to meet in the
evening, or, since the spring had come, after John’s business hours.
Hitherto, they believed that none of their acquaintances had seen them,
and they believed that none ever would. There seemed to be no reason why
people they knew should be wandering in the purlieus and slums about
South Fifth Avenue and Green Street, for instance, at nine o’clock in
the morning. A few women in society patronized the little foreign shop
in the Avenue, near the Square, where artificial flowers were made, but
if they ever went there themselves, it was much later in the day.

They met on the morning after Alexander Junior had spoken to Mr. Beman
about John. The latter was standing before the church on the south side
of Washington Square, puffing at the last end of a cigarette, when he
saw Katharine’s figure, clad, as usual, in grey homespun, emerging from
one of the walks which ended opposite to him. The colour came a little
to her face as she caught sight of him.

She walked quickly, and began to speak before she reached him.

“Oh Jack! I do so want to see you!” She held out her hand as he lifted
his hat.

Their hands remained clasped a second longer, perhaps, than if they had
been mere acquaintances, and their eyes were still meeting when their
hands had parted.

“Yes--so do I,” answered Ralston, with small regard for grammar. “You
look tired, dear. What is it?”

“It’s this life--I don’t know how much longer I can stand it,” answered
Katharine, and they began to walk on.

“Has anything happened? Has your father been teasing you again?” John
asked, quickly.

“Oh, yes! He leaves me no peace. It’s a succession of pitched battles
whenever we meet. He’s made up his mind to know what uncle Robert said
to me, and I’ve made up mine that he shan’t. What can I do? Why, Jack, I
wouldn’t even tell you!”

“I don’t want to know,” answered Ralston. “Uncle Robert isn’t going to
die for twenty years, and I hope he may live thirty. Of course, when he
dies, if we’re alive, we shall have heaps of money all round, and your
father and grandfather will probably get the biggest shares. But
there’ll be plenty for us all. Your father seems to me to have lost his
head about it.”

“He really has. It’s the same thing every day. He tells me that I’m all
kinds of things--undutiful, and impertinent, and intolerable--altogether
a perfect fiend, according to him. Then he threatens me--”

“Threatens you?” repeated John, with a quick frown and a change of tone.
“He’d better not!”

“Well--he says that he’ll find means to make me speak, and that sort of
thing. I don’t see myself what means he has at his command, I’m sure. I
suppose when he’s angry he doesn’t know what he’s saying. So I try to
smile--but I don’t like it.”

“I should think not! But as you say, he can’t really do anything except
talk. He’s permanently angry, though. He came into the bank yesterday
and passed near me. I saw his face.”

John added no comment, but his tone expressed well enough what he felt.

“I know,” answered Katharine. “He always has that expression now,--one
only used to see it now and then,--as though he meant to have something,
if he had to kill somebody to get it. It’s the strangest thing! He, who
has always preached to me about keeping the secret of other people’s
confidence! It’s perfectly incomprehensible! It’s as though his whole
nature had suddenly changed.”

“He’s wild to know how much he’s to have,” observed John, thoughtfully.
“It attacked him when they expected uncle Robert to die. And now that he
knows that you know, he means to wring it out of you. I hate him. I
should like to wring his neck.”

“Jack!”

“Oh, well--of course he’s your father, and I’m very sorry for expressing
myself--all the same--” he finished his sentence inwardly. “At all
events, he’s got to treat you properly, or I shall interfere. This can’t
go on, you know.”

“You, Jack dear? What could you do?”

“What could I do? Take you away from him, of course. I’m your husband.
Don’t forget that, Katharine.”

“No, dear--I’m not likely to. But still--I don’t see--nothing’s changed,
you know. The difficulties are just the same as they ever were.”

“Yes. But the reasons are different. I can’t allow you to suffer. You
know that after all that trouble last winter my mother insisted on
making over half the property to me. Of course things go on just as they
did, and we share everything. But I’ve got it all the same--six thousand
a year, if I choose to call it my own. The reason why we don’t tell
everybody that we’re married is, first, because it would make such an
incredible row in the family, and secondly, because, as my mother and I
have so little between us, she would have to reduce ever so many things
if we set up at housekeeping with her, until I can make something. As
long as you’re happy at home, that’s all very well. We’re young enough
to wait six months or a year, though we don’t like it, and I’m going in
for earning the respect of the Beman Brethren--they’re really awfully
nice to me, I must say. Anything more ignorant than I am you can’t
imagine!”

“Never mind, Jack--you’re learning, at all events,” said Katharine, in
an encouraging tone. “And I know, dear--I know how you care for me, and
how brave you are to wait for the sake of what’s nice to your mother--”

“Oh, don’t talk of courage! It’s what I ought to have done long ago, if
I hadn’t been a born loafer and idiot. But if things are going to be
different since your beloved father has got this idea into his head, if
he’s going to torment you perpetually, and make your life a burden, and
call you bad names out of the prayer-book--that sort of thing, you
know--why, then, we must just do it, that’s all--just face the row, and
the economies, and all, and you must come to my mother’s.”

“But, Jack--just think of what would happen--”

“Well--just think what’s happening now. It’s much worse, I’m sure, and
if it’s going to last, I shall just do it. My mother always says that
she wishes we could be married. Well--we are married. There’s nothing to
be done but to tell her so. Besides, for her part, she’d be delighted.
You don’t know her! She’s just like a man in some things. She’d put up
with anything--boiled beef and cabbage, and a horse-car fare on Sundays
by way of an outing. Only, of course, if it can possibly be helped, I
don’t want her to have to pinch and screw about her gloves, and her
cabs, and the little things she likes and has had all her life. That’s
why I’m working. If I could only get a salary of two thousand a year, we
could manage. I’ve figured it all out--it’s just that two thousand that
would make the difference--it’s ridiculous, isn’t it?”

“It’s worse,” said Katharine. “It’s abominable.”

“Yes--it’s everything you like--or don’t like, rather. But if you’re
going to suffer, we must do as I say. I’ll tell you how we’ll manage
it. You’ll just go up to our house some morning about ten o’clock, and
go out of town with my mother for a few days. I’ll get a holiday from
Beman’s, and I’ll go and see your mother and tell her, and then I’ll go
down town and face your father. His office is a nice, quiet place, I
believe. He’s nothing much to do but to be trusted, and he sits all day
long by himself in the company’s showcase, and people trust him. That’s
his profession. He represents the moral side of business. Once I’ve told
him, I’ll disappear for a while,--going to you, of course,--and we three
will come back together and tell the world that we’ve been quietly
married--which is quite true. Lots of people do that nowadays to get out
of the expense and fuss of a dress parade wedding. How does that strike
you?”

“Oh, it’s clever enough, and brave of you--as you always are--to be
ready to face the parents alone. We shall have to do something of the
kind in the end, you know, because we can’t be married over again. Uncle
Robert suggested the same sort of plan last winter; only he wanted us to
go to his place up the river, and he was going to ask the whole family.
The dear old man forgot that his servants would remember for the rest of
their lives that there had been no marriage service. It wasn’t
practical.”

“By the bye, where’s our marriage certificate?” asked John, suddenly.
“You took it, you know. You never told me what became of it.”

“Oh, uncle Robert said he’d keep it with his papers. I suppose it’s as
safe there as anywhere. Still--if he were to die--”

“It’s all right, if he’s kept it. It will be in a safe place, properly
endorsed. As he’s the only person who knows the secret, he’d much better
keep it, and he’s not at all likely to die now that he’s recovered. I’d
been meaning to ask you for ever so long. But to go back--if things get
any worse, or go on as badly as they’re going now, do you see any
possible objection to doing what I propose?”

“Well, the principal objection is that it will hamper your mother, Jack.
I’d rather suffer a great deal more than I’m likely to, than thrust
myself upon her. I know--you’ll tell me that she’s very fond of me and
wants to see us married, and I know she’s in earnest about it and means
every word she says. But I’ve lived in a rigidly economical household,
as they call it. I know what it means, and it would be very difficult
for any one who’s never been used to it. Don’t think about it, dear.
Please don’t. You know I come to you with all my little woes--but you
mustn’t take them too seriously. You’ll prevent me from speaking freely
if you do, dear.”

“It’s my business to take your happiness seriously. I’m not prepared to
stand the idea of having your life made miserable on my account.”

“But it isn’t about you, Jack. It’s altogether about the question of
uncle Robert’s will.”

“Never mind. I won’t have you made unhappy by anybody, do you
understand? I’ve got the right of loving you, and the right of being
your husband, and if that isn’t enough I’ll take the right. I’m in
earnest, Katharine.”

He stood still on the pavement; she stopped, also, and faced him.

“Yes, dear; I know and I thank you,” she said, gently. “But it really
isn’t as bad as I made out. I’m irritated, and I want to be with you all
the time, and then the least little thing seems so much bigger than it
is. Please, please don’t do anything rash, Jack, or without telling me
just what you’re going to do! You know you are rash, dear--I’m always a
little afraid of what you may do when you’re angry.”

“I certainly shan’t be rash where you’re concerned,” answered Ralston.
“You’re too much to me--we are to each other--and we mustn’t risk
anything. But don’t imagine, either, that if anything goes wrong I
shan’t know it, even if you won’t tell me. I can guess what you think of
from your face, you know--I’ve often done it.”

“That’s true--I’m sure I couldn’t conceal anything from you for long,”
answered Katharine, womanly wise.

She was concealing something from him at that very moment, something
which she had meant to tell him, and would have told him, had he not
spoken so decidedly of what he meant to do if her life were made
unhappy. But she knew that he was quite capable of doing anything which
he said he would do, no matter how rash. When she had at first spoken,
she had not altogether realized how he would take up the question of her
present unhappiness as a matter for immediate and decisive action. She
loved him all the better for it, but she began to understand how careful
she must be in future.

John paused a moment after his last speech, and looked into her grey
eyes. Perhaps some little doubt assailed him as to whether, if she
tried, she could not, perhaps, keep from him something he wished to
know--the doubt from which men who love are very rarely quite free.

“But promise me, Katharine,” he said, presently, “promise me that if you
are really suffering you will tell me, instead of just leaving me to
guess.”

“Ah--you see!” She laughed softly and happily. “You’re not so sure as
you thought! Oh, yes--I’ll tell you if anything dreadful happens.”

“You’d better!” Ralston laughed, too, out of sheer delight at being with
her, and his laugh pleased her, for it came rarely. “And about your
father--I’ll tell you what I think. His excitement will cool down as he
sees that uncle Robert’s getting better, and he’ll leave you alone. You
see, he’ll be afraid that you’ll go to uncle Robert and say that you’re
being tormented to give up his secret. And then uncle Robert will
descend upon Clinton Place and make a raid and raise Cain--and there’ll
be something to pay all round and no pitch particularly hot. Do you
see?”

Katharine laughed again, but she understood that what he said was
reasonable enough.

“Now I must be going,” said Ralston. “I’m so angry about it all that I’m
on the verge of being funny, which isn’t in my line. Can you come
to-morrow? Is there any chance of seeing you to-night?”

“I don’t know. There’s a little thing at the Vanbrughs’--are you going?”

“Not asked, worse luck!”

“Then I won’t go. How stupid of them not to ask you. I suppose you
haven’t been near them for months. Have you? Confess!”

“How can I do the card-leaving business now that I’m down town all day?
It isn’t fair on a man. Besides, the Vanbrughs needn’t be so particular.
She’s nice, though--much nicer since she’s given up Sunday-schooling.
The last time we talked she knew all about the universe and the Bab
faith and the life everlasting--and she was telling everybody. She hates
me because I laughed. By Jove! I must be going, though. To-morrow,
then? As usual. I say, Katharine--if you get a chance to give your
father the sharp answer that wrath particularly dislikes, I hope you
will--and tell me about it. Good-bye, sweetheart--only sixteen minutes
to get to the bank!”

“You did it in fourteen and a half last week, Jack,” answered Katharine,
holding his hand.

“Yes--but I just caught the train--I wouldn’t do it at all, if I could
help it, you know.”

“Of course not--I mustn’t be selfish. Run, dear--and good-bye!”

In a moment he was gone. She watched his wiry, elastic movements as he
ran at the top of his speed towards the station of the elevated, to the
vicinity of which they had directed their walk while they had been
talking. As he disappeared, flying up the covered iron stairs, two steps
at a time, she turned and walked briskly homeward. The neighbourhood is
a safe and quiet one, though it is largely inhabited by foreigners, but
she did not care to slacken her pace till she got back to Washington
Square. Then she moved more slowly.

The spring was in the air and the sun was bright. She sauntered
leisurely through the walks, wondering what the coming summer was to
bring forth for her, and all the months after people began to go away.
And she thought all the time of Ralston. It seemed such an absurd and
senseless thing that they two, who were to be one day among the
richest, and would be masters of all that the world can give to people
not endowed with what is not in the world’s gift or market--that they
two, being lawfully and christianly married, should be forced to meet by
stealth for a few moments, to be separated again almost immediately by
the necessity which drove John every day to his desk as a junior clerk
in Mr. Beman’s employment. A week--a year--ten years, if uncle Robert
lived so long--and then, if John went into the bank, the clerks, who
were all his seniors, would lift their pens from the paper in the middle
of a word to watch the representative of so much wealth go by. And old
Mr. Beman would rise from his seat and offer Twenty-Five Millions a
chair, as though he were a man of years and weight. Not but that the
Bemans and John’s fellow-clerks, some of whom were acquaintances in his
own world and beginning their life as he was, were all well aware that
he had a good chance of getting something handsome in the end. But mere
potential wealth is too common in the neighbourhood of Wall Street to be
noticed or much respected. It is not the man who may have it, but the
man who has it, who commands respect. Even the only son, the man who is
sure to get it if he lives, is treated with a certain indifference. But
when time has brought down his heavy hand upon the millionaire, and
crushed him into the earth-darkness and his memory into a bit of stone
with his name on it, when the last well-greased screw has been run into
the polished coffin, when the black horses have waved their black plumes
and the last carriage that followed the funeral is being washed down in
the coach-house yard--then the man who is next stops, and lets future
run ahead of him and himself becomes present fact, strong, gorgeous,
worshipful. For at his mighty nod the wilderness may become real estate,
or the secret places of Nassau Street and Exchange Place may be hideous
with the groaning of the bulls he has beared out of the ring--and the
solid security may to-morrow be wild-cat if he wills it, and the
wild-cat emerge in the dawn with a gilt edge and an honest countenance,
to be a joyful investment for the widow’s mite.

Meanwhile, Jack was nobody down town. His cousin Hamilton Bright, who
was a junior partner in Beman Brothers’, was a vastly more important
person than he. For he had behind him what Ralston had before him, and a
fair amount of capital in the present, besides. It was all very
ridiculous, Katharine thought, and depended on the false state of
society in which she was obliged to live.

She thought bitterly of her father. He was a prominent figure in that
false state--a man of fine principles and opportunist practice--she had
caught the latter expression from Walter Crowdie, Bright’s
brother-in-law, the well-known painter, who had painted a portrait of
her during the winter, and who, as the husband of a distant cousin, was
counted in the Lauderdale tribe.

Her father, she thought, preached, prayed--and then acted far worse than
average people who prayed little and sat still to be preached at on
Sundays, in order that Providence might have a sort of weekly photograph
of their souls, so to say, and because others did the same and it was
expected of them. She and her father had never agreed very well, and had
come into open conflict about John Ralston; but hitherto she had
respected him for his uncompromising, unashamed piety. There had seemed
to her to be something masculine and bold about it, and such as it was,
she had believed in it. It had been far from being an idol, but it had
been a very creditable statue, so to say, and now, on a sudden, the head
had been knocked off it, and she saw, or thought she saw, that it was
hollow and a sham. She was too young yet to admit the presence of good
in the same place with evil, and the evil itself had been thrown
directly in her path as a stumbling-block for herself, and in the hope
that she might fall over it.

And as though it were not enough to torment her perpetually with
questions, there was that other thing which she had just concealed from
John, because he had been so angry about the first. Her father and
mother were apparently determined that she should be married before the
summer was out, and were thrusting a match upon her in a way of which
she would not have believed them capable. Ever since her mother had
discovered that she was losing her beauty and that Katharine received
three-fourths of all the admiration which had once been hers, the
relations of the two had been changed. Mrs. Lauderdale was constantly
between two conflicting emotions, which almost amounted to
passions,--her real affection for Katharine, and her detestable envy of
the girl’s freshness and youth. She was a good woman, and she despised
herself more than any one else could possibly have despised her, for
wishing that she might not be daily compared with her, handicapped, as
she was, with nearly twenty years more to carry. To marry her daughter
was to remove her from home, and perhaps from New York--and with her, to
do away with the foundation of envy, the cause of the offence, the
visible temptation to the sin which was destroying the elder woman’s
happiness and undermining her peace of mind. Mrs. Lauderdale, whose sins
had hitherto been few and pardonable, felt that if Katharine were once
away, she should become again a good woman, and find courage to bear the
terrible loss of her once supreme beauty.

For she was keenly alive to the wickedness of what she felt, though she
could not quite understand it. No man could boast that he had ever had a
meaning look or an over-sympathetic pressure of the hand from Mrs.
Lauderdale, during the five and twenty years of her married life, though
she had loved society intensely, and enjoyed its amusements with a real
innocence of which not every woman in her position would have been
capable. But no man who had laid eyes upon her could boast--and it would
have been a poor boast--that he had turned away at the first glance,
without looking again and wondering at her loveliness, and saying to
himself that Mrs. Lauderdale was one of the most beautiful women he had
ever seen.

It hurt her bodily to miss those eyes turned upon her from all sides, as
she began to miss them now. It hurt her still more--and in spite of
secret prayers and solemn resolutions and litanies of self-contempt, she
turned pale with quiet, deadly anger against the world--when, as she
entered a crowded room with Katharine, she felt, as well as saw, that
those same eyes sought the pale, severe face of the dark-haired young
girl, and overlooked her own fading perfection. The stately rose was
drooping, just as the sweet white summer myrtle burst the bud.

Let her not be judged too harshly, if she longed to be separated from
Katharine just at that time. There was no ill-will, nothing like hatred,
no touch of cruelty in the simple desire to be spared that daily
contrast. It was rather that wish which many have felt, despairing of
grace and strength to resist temptation, to have the cause of it
removed, that they may find peace. A worse woman would not so long have
been satisfied with beauty alone, and with compelling by her mere
presence the admiration of a crowd in which no one face was dearer than
the rest, nor than it should be.

She longed with all her heart to see Katharine married, as her husband
did from very different reasons. Nor were his arguments bad or unkind
from his point of view. He feared lest she should marry Ralston in spite
of him, and he honestly believed Ralston to be a worthless young fellow,
who could make no woman happy. As for his daughter, he was attached to
her, fond of her, perhaps, in his cold way; though loving with him
seemed to be a negative affair and not able to go much further than a
cessation of fault-finding, except for his wife, who had overcome him
and kept him by her beauty alone. It was not until Katharine aroused the
deep-seated passion of his unsatisfied avarice that he ceased to be kind
to her, as he understood kindness.




CHAPTER VI.


Katharine was in her room that afternoon towards five o’clock, when a
servant knocked at her door, disturbing her as she was composing a
letter to her best friend, Hester Crowdie. She looked up with an
expression of annoyance as the door opened and the maid entered.

“Oh--what’s the matter?” she asked, impatiently striking the point of
her pen upon the edge of the glass inkstand.

“Mr. Wingfield’s downstairs, Miss Katharine,” answered the girl.

“Oh--is he? Well--”

Katharine tapped her pen thoughtfully upon the glass again, and a quick
contraction of the brow betrayed her displeasure.

“Shall I tell the gentleman that you’ll be down, Miss Katharine?”
enquired the other.

“No, Annie. Tell him I’m out. That is--I’m not out, am I?”

“No, Miss Katharine.”

Katharine let her pen fall, rose and went to the window in hesitation.
The bit of red ribbon which had served as a signal to John was pinned
to the small curtain stretched over the lower sash. She looked at it
thoughtfully, and forgot Mr. Wingfield for a moment.

“Shall I show the gentleman into the library, Miss Katharine?” asked
Annie, in an insinuating tone.

“Oh, well! Yes,” said Katharine, turning suddenly. “Tell Mr. Wingfield
that I’ll be down in a few minutes, if he doesn’t mind waiting. I
suppose I’ve got to,” she added, audibly, before Annie was well out of
the room.

She glanced at herself in the looking-glass, but without interest. Then
she slipped her unfinished letter into the drawer of the little
writing-table by the window, at which she had been sitting, and turned
towards the door. But before she left the room she paused, hesitated,
and then went back to the table, locking the drawer and withdrawing the
key, which she slipped behind the frame of an engraving. She had become
unreasonably distrustful of late.

Instead of going down to the library, she knocked at the door of her
mother’s morning room. It chanced that Mrs. Lauderdale was at home that
afternoon, which was unusual in fine weather. Mrs. Lauderdale was
sitting by the window at the table she used for her miniature painting.
She had talent, and had been well taught in her girlhood, and her work
was distinctly good. Amateurs more often succeed with miniature than in
any other branches of art. It is harder to detect faults when the scale
of the whole is very minute.

Mrs. Lauderdale was bending over a piece of work she had lately begun.
All the little things she used were lying about her on the wooden table,
the tiny brushes, the saucers for colours, the needle-pointed pencils.
She looked up as Katharine entered, and the latter saw all the lines in
the still beautiful face accentuated by the earnest attention given to
the work. The eyelids were contracted and tired, the lips drawn in, one
eyebrow was raised a little higher than the other, so that there were
fine, arched wrinkles in the forehead immediately over it. The faces of
American women of a certain age, when the complexion is fair, favour the
formation of a multitude of very delicate crossing and recrossing lines,
not often seen in the features of other nationalities.

“What is it, child?” asked Mrs. Lauderdale, quietly, with her soft
southern intonation.

“Mr. Wingfield’s there again,” answered Katharine, with unmistakable
disgust.

“Well, my dear, go down and see him,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, blandly.
“Did you send word that you’d receive?”

“Yes. I’m going to tell him not to come any more.”

Katharine went behind the table, so that she faced her mother and looked
directly into her eyes. For several seconds neither spoke.

“I hope you won’t do anything so rude,” said Mrs. Lauderdale at last,
without avoiding the gaze that met hers. “We all like Mr. Wingfield very
much.”

“I daresay. I’m not finding fault with him, nor his looks, nor his
manners, nor anything.”

“Well, then--I don’t see--”

“Oh, yes, you do, mother,--forgive my contradicting you,--you know very
well that he wants to marry me, and that you want me to marry him. But I
don’t mean to. So I shall tell him, as nicely as I can, to give up the
idea, and to make his visits to you, and not to me.”

“But, Katharine, dear--nobody wishes to force you to marry him. We don’t
live in the Middle Ages, you know.”

“There’s a resemblance,” answered Katharine, bitterly.

“Katharine! How can you say anything so unjust!”

“Because it’s true, mother. I’m not blind, you know, and I’m not
perfectly insensible. I see, and I can feel. You don’t seem to think
it’s possible to hurt me--and I don’t think you mean to hurt me, as papa
does.”

“You’re quite out of your mind, my child! Your father loves you dearly.
He wouldn’t hurt you for the world. Don’t talk such nonsense, Katharine.
Go and see Mr. Wingfield, and be decently civil for half an hour--he
won’t stay even as long as that. Besides, you can’t tell him not to come
any more. He hasn’t asked you to marry him. You may think he means to,
but you can hardly take it for granted like that.”

“No, but he means to ask me to-day,” answered Katharine. “And I haven’t
encouraged him in the least.”

“Then how do you know?”

“Oh--one can always tell.”

“It’s not exactly true to say that you’ve not encouraged him,” said Mrs.
Lauderdale, thoughtfully. “He’s been here very often of late, and you’ve
danced the cotillion with him twice, at least. Then there was his
coaching party--only the other day--and you sat beside him. He’s always
sending you flowers, and books, and things, too. It isn’t fair to say
that he’s had no encouragement. You’ll get the reputation of being a
flirt if you go on in this way.”

“I’d rather be called a flirt than marry Archibald Wingfield,” replied
Katharine.

“At all events you might have some consideration for him, if you’ve none
for yourself. Don’t be foolish, Katharine dear. Take my advice. Of
course, if you could take a fancy to him, quite naturally, we should
all be very glad. I like him--I can’t help it. He’s so handsome, and has
such good manners, and speaks French like a Parisian. I know--you may
laugh--but in these days, when people are abroad half the time--and
then, after all, my dear, you certainly can’t be really sure that he
means to ask you to-day. Very likely he won’t, just because you think
he’s going to.”

“Of course, mother, you know that’s absurd! As though it wasn’t
evident--besides, those flowers this morning. Didn’t you see them?”

“What about them? He often sends you flowers.”

“Why, the box was all full of primroses, and just two
roses--extraordinary ones--lying in the middle and tied together with a
bit of grass. Imagine doing such a thing! And I know he tied them
himself, on account of the knot. He’s a yachting man, and doesn’t tie
knots like the men at the flower shops.”

“Oh, well, my dear--if you are going to judge a man by the way he ties
knots--”

Mrs. Lauderdale laughed as she broke off in her incomplete sentence.
Then her face grew grave all at once.

“Take my advice, my child--marry him,” she said, bending over her table
once more and taking up a little brush, as though she wished to end the
interview.

“Certainly not!” answered Katharine, in a tone which discouraged further
persuasion.

Mrs. Lauderdale sighed.

“Well--I don’t know what you young girls expect,” she said, in a tone of
depression. “Mr. Wingfield’s young, good-looking, well-educated, rich,
and he adores you. Perhaps you don’t love him precisely, but you can’t
help liking him. You act as though you were always expecting a fine,
irresistible, mediæval passion to come and carry you off. It won’t, you
know. That sort of thing doesn’t happen any more. When you want to get
married at last, you’ll be too old. You have your choice of almost any
of them. For a girl who has no money and isn’t likely to have much for a
long time, I don’t know any one who’s more surrounded than you are. Of
course I want you to marry. I don’t believe in waiting till you’re
twenty-five or thirty.”

“I don’t intend to.”

“Well, you will, my dear, unless you make up your mind soon. It’s all--”

“Mother,” interrupted Katharine, “you know very well that I’ve made my
choice, and that I mean to stand by it.”

“Oh--Jack Ralston, you mean?” Mrs. Lauderdale affected a rather
contemptuous indifference. “That was a foolish affair. Girls always fall
in love with their cousins. You’ll forget all about him, and I’m sure
he’s forgotten all about you. He hardly ever comes to the house now.
Besides, you never could have married poor Jack, with his dissipated
habits, and no money. Uncle Robert doesn’t mean to leave him anything.
He’d gamble it all away.”

“You called me unjust a moment ago,” said Katharine, in an altered
voice, and growing pale.

“Of course--you take his part. It’s no use to discuss it--”

“It’s not discussion to abuse a man who’s bravely doing his best. Jack
doesn’t need any one to take his part. Do you know that he’s altogether
given up his old life at the club--and all that? He’s at Beman Brothers’
all day long, and when you don’t see him in society, he’s quietly at
home with cousin Katharine.”

“Yes--I heard he was doing a little better. But he’ll never get rid of
the reputation he’s given himself. My dear, you don’t seem to remember
that poor Mr. Wingfield is waiting for you all this time downstairs.”

“It will be the last time, at all events,” answered Katharine, in a low
voice. “I’ll never see him alone again.”

She turned from her mother towards the door. Mrs. Lauderdale followed
her with her eyes for a moment, then rose swiftly and overtook her
before she could let herself out.

“Katharine--I won’t let you send Mr. Wingfield away like that!” said
Mrs. Lauderdale, in a quick, decided tone.

“Won’t let me?” repeated Katharine, slowly.

“No--certainly not. It’s quite out of the question--you really mustn’t
do it!” Mrs. Lauderdale was becoming agitated.

“Do you mean that it’s out of the question for me to refuse to marry Mr.
Wingfield?” Katharine had her back against the door and her right hand
upon the knob of the lock.

“Oh--well--no. Of course you have the right to refuse him, if he asks
you in so many words--”

“Of course I have! What are you thinking of?” There was a look of
something between indignation and amusement in her face.

“Yes--but there are so many ways, child. Katharine,” she continued,
almost appealingly, “you can’t just say ‘no’ and tell him to stop
coming--you’ll change your mind--you don’t know what a nice young fellow
he is--”

Katharine’s hand dropped from the door-handle, and she folded her arms
as she faced her mother.

“What is all this?” she asked, deliberately and with emphasis. “You seem
to me to be very excited. I should almost fancy that you had something
else in your mind, though I can’t understand what it is.”

“No--no; certainly not. It’s only for your sake and his,” answered Mrs.
Lauderdale, hurriedly. “I’ve known it happen so often that a girl
refuses a man just because she’s in a temper about something, and
then--afterwards, you know--she regrets it, when it’s too late, and the
man has married some one else out of spite.”

“How strangely you talk!” exclaimed Katharine, gazing at her mother in
genuine surprise.

“My dear, I only don’t want you to do anything rash and unkind. You
spoke as though you meant to be as hard and cold as a mill-stone--as
though he’d done something outrageous in wanting to marry you.”

“Not at all. I said that I should refuse him and beg him to stop coming
to see me. There’s nothing particularly like a mill-stone in that. It’s
the honest truth in the first place--for I won’t marry him, and you
can’t force me to--”

“But nobody thinks of forcing you--”

“I don’t know. Perhaps not,” answered the young girl, doubtfully. “But
it’s of no use, for I won’t. And as for telling him not to come--why,
it’s rather natural, I think. It just makes the refusal a little more
definite. I don’t like that way girls have of refusing a man once a
month, and letting him come to see them for a whole season, and then
marrying him after all. There’s something mean about it--and I don’t
think much of the man who lets himself be treated in that way, either.
If Mr. Wingfield is really all you say he is, he may not be just that
kind, and he’ll understand and take his refusal like a gentleman, and
not torment me any more. But it’s just as well to make sure.”

“Promise me that you’ll be kind to him, Katharine--”

“Kind? Oh, yes--I’ll be kind enough. I’ll be perfectly civil--”

“Well--what shall you say to him? That you like him, and hope to be good
friends, but that you don’t feel--”

“Dear mother!” exclaimed Katharine, with perfect simplicity, “I’ve
refused men before. I know how to do it.”

“Yes--of course--but Mr. Wingfield--”

“You’ve got Mr. Wingfield on the brain, mother!” She laughed a little
scornfully. “One would think that you were his mother, and were begging
me to be kind and nice and marry your son. I don’t understand you
to-day. Meanwhile, he’s waiting.”

“One moment, child!” exclaimed Mrs. Lauderdale, laying her hand on
Katharine’s as it went out towards the knob of the door. “You don’t
know--there are particular--well, there are so many reasons why you
shouldn’t be rough with him. Can’t you just say that you’re touched by
his proposal and will think it over?”

“Certainly not!” cried Katharine, indignantly. “Why should I keep the
poor man hanging on when I don’t mean to marry him--when I won’t--I’ve
said it often enough, I’m sure. Why should I?”

“It would be so much easier for him, if you would--to please me, darling
child,” continued Mrs. Lauderdale, in an almost imploring way, “just to
please me! I don’t often ask you to do anything for me, do I, dear? And
you’re not like Charlotte--we’ve always been such good friends, love.
And now I ask you this one thing for myself. It isn’t much, I’m
sure--just to say that you’ll think it over. Won’t you? I know you
will--there’s a dear girl!”

Mrs. Lauderdale bent her head affectionately and kissed Katharine on the
cheek. The young girl tried to draw back, but finding herself against
the door, could only turn her face away as much as possible. She did not
understand her mother’s manner, and she did not like it.

“But it’s only a moment ago that you were talking about my acting like a
flirt!” she objected, vehemently. “If it isn’t flirting to give a man
hope when there is none, what is?”

“No, dear; that’s not flirting; it’s only prudence. You may like him
better by and by, and I should be so glad! Flirting is drawing a man on
as you’ve done with him, and then throwing him over cruelly and all at
once.”

“I’ve not drawn him on, mother! You shan’t say that I ever encouraged
him.”

“I don’t know. You’ve accepted his flowers and his books--”

“What was I to do? Send them back?”

“You might have told him not to send so many, and so often; you needn’t
have read the books. He’d have seen that you didn’t care.”

“Oh, this is ridiculous, you know!”

“No, it’s not, my darling! And as for the flowers, of course you
couldn’t exactly send them back, but you weren’t obliged to wear them.”

“Nobody wears flowers now, so it wasn’t probable that I should feel
obliged to. Really, mother, you’re losing your head!”

Mrs. Lauderdale shifted her position a little, moving towards the side
of the door on which the lock was placed, and laying her hand
affectionately on Katharine’s, as though still to detain her.

“Yes,” she said, “I’d forgotten that we don’t wear flowers any longer.
But that isn’t the question, dear. I only ask you not to send him away
suddenly, with a ‘no’ that can’t possibly be taken back. I’m dreadfully
afraid that you’ll hurt the poor fellow, and I can’t help feeling that
he has reason--that you’ve given him reason to expect that you’ll at
least consider the question. Dear child, I only ask you this once. Won’t
you do it to please me? We’re all so fond of Wingfield--”

“But why? why? If I don’t mean to have him, how can I? I really can’t
understand. Is there any family reason for being so particular about Mr.
Wingfield’s feelings? We’ve never been so very intimate with his
people.”

“Reasons,” repeated Mrs. Lauderdale, absently. “Reasons? Well, yes--but
it isn’t that--” She stopped short.

“Mother!” Katharine looked keenly into her face. “You’ve been talking to
him yourself! I can see it in your eyes!”

“Oh, no!” answered Mrs. Lauderdale. “Oh, no--what makes you think that?”

But she looked away, and Katharine saw the blush of confusion rising
under the transparent skin in her mother’s cheek.

“Yes--you’ve given Mr. Wingfield to understand that I’m in love with
him,” said Katharine, in a low voice.

“Katharine, how can you!” Mrs. Lauderdale was making a desperate effort
to recover herself, but she was a truthful woman, and found it hard to
lie. “You’ve no right to say such things!”

“Yes--I see,” answered Katharine, not heeding her. “It’s all quite clear
to me now. You and papa have drawn him on and encouraged him, and now
you’re afraid that I shall put you in an awkward position by sending him
away. I see it all. That’s the reason why you’re so excited about it.”

“Katharine, dear, don’t accuse me of such things! All I said was--” She
stopped short.

“Then you did say something? Of course. I knew that was the truth of
it!”

“I said nothing,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale, going back to a total
denial. “Except, perhaps, we have given him to understand that we should
be glad if you would marry him.”

“We? Has papa been talking to him, too?” asked Katharine, indignantly.

“Don’t be so angry, child. It’s quite natural. You don’t know how glad
your father would be. It’s just the sort of match he’s always dreamed of
for you. And then I think it was very honourable in young Wingfield,
when he found that he was in love with you, to speak to your father
first.”

“Scrupulously! He might be French! He might have tried to find out first
whether I cared for him at all. But I’ve no doubt you told him that he
had only to ask and I should take him to my heart with pride and
pleasure! Oh, mother, mother! You never used to act like this!”

“But, my dear child--”

“Oh no,--don’t call me your dear child like that--it doesn’t mean
anything now. You’re completely changed--no, don’t keep me! That poor
fellow’s waiting all this time. You can’t have anything more to say to
me, for I know it all. A word more--which you may have said to him, or
a word less--what does it matter? You’ve turned on me, and now you’re
doing your best to marry me, just to get rid of me. As for papa, he
leaves me no peace about poor uncle Robert’s will. And he calls himself
an honest man, when he’s trying to force a confidence that doesn’t
belong to him, out of--yes--out of sheer love of money. Oh, it’s not to
be believed! Let me go, mother! I won’t keep that man waiting any
longer. It isn’t decent. There’ll be one lie less, at all events!”

“Katharine, dear! Stay a minute! Don’t go when you’re angry--like this!”

But Katharine’s firm hand was opening the door in spite of her mother’s
gentle, almost timid, resistance.

“No--I’m not angry now,” answered the young girl. “It’s something
different--I won’t hurt him--never fear!”

In a moment she had left the room, and her mother heard the quick
footfall on the stairs, as she stood listening by the open door. Mrs.
Lauderdale had got herself into terrible trouble, and she knew it.
Katharine had, in part, guessed rightly, for if Mrs. Lauderdale had not
told young Wingfield in so many words that her daughter loved him, she
had yet allowed him to think so, and had been guilty of a sin of
omission in not undeceiving him. There is a way of listening which
means assent, as there is a way of assenting in words which mean a flat
refusal. Alexander Lauderdale had gone farther. He had distinctly told
Wingfield, in his wife’s presence, that he had no reason to believe that
his daughter might not,--he saved his scrupulous conscience by the
‘might,’--might not ultimately accept a proposal which was so agreeable
to his own wishes. Mrs. Lauderdale had been shocked, for, as it was
spoken, the phrase sounded very untrue, though when precipitated upon
paper and taken to pieces, it is found to be cautious enough. ‘Might,’
not ‘would’--and ‘ultimately,’ not by any means at the first attempt.
Yet the impression had been conveyed to Wingfield’s mind that Katharine
was predisposed in his favour, in spite of the reports which had so long
been circulated about her engagement to Ralston. Mrs. Lauderdale had,
for a moment, almost believed that her husband had told an untruth. But
on talking the matter over with him, his dignity of manner, his clear
recollection of his own words, and the moderate stress which he laid
upon the ‘might’ and the ‘ultimately,’ not only reassured her, but
persuaded her to say almost the same thing the next time she saw
Wingfield. The young fellow always sought her out at a party, and
confided to her all he felt for Katharine, and Mrs. Lauderdale
sympathized with him, as she had once sympathized with Jack Ralston,
unconscious that she was doing anything wrong. He was handsome, frank,
and winning, and she longed to see Katharine married. The reasons were
plenty. Many cold and good women enjoy being made the confidantes of
young lovers. The atmosphere of the passion is agreeable to them, though
they may know little of the passion itself. Mrs. Lauderdale had not
fully realized the meaning of what she had been doing until Katharine
made it plain to her that afternoon. And then, although her conscience
told her that she was in the wrong, and though she had spoken to the
girl entreatingly and gently, she became angry with her as soon as she
was left to herself. The tortuousness of a good woman’s mind when she
has hurt her own conscience surpasses by many degrees that of an
ordinary criminal’s straightforwardly bad ingenuity.

Meanwhile, Katharine descended to the library, paused a moment in the
entry, and then opened the door. Archibald Wingfield’s black eyes met
her as she entered the room. He was standing before the empty fireplace,
with his hands behind him, warming them perhaps at an imaginary fire,
for they were cold. He was very much in love with her, and Katharine’s
girlish instinct was right, for he had come with the determined purpose
of asking her to be his wife. She had kept him waiting fully twenty
minutes, and during that time he had interpreted the delay in at least
as many different ways. As she came in, the colour rose in his brown
cheeks and his heart beat fast.

Archibald Wingfield was said to be the handsomest young man in New York
society, which is saying a good deal, notwithstanding those captious
persons who write and speak sarcastically about the round-shouldered,
in-kneed, flabby-cheeked youth of the present day. Of late years, during
the growth of what is now the young generation in society, there has
been a very sudden improvement in the race and type of boys and girls.
Any one can see that who does not wilfully close his eyes.

Wingfield stood fully six feet four inches without his shoes, was
broad-shouldered, deep-chested, and thin-waisted as a young Achilles.
His feet were narrow, strong, and straight, his legs those of a runner
rather than a walker, his hands broad and brown, with great,
determined-looking thumbs, marked sinews, and the high, blue veins of a
thoroughbred animal. The splendid form was topped by a small, energetic
head, with slightly aquiline features, the clean-shaven lips that made a
bold, curved, bow-like mouth, flat, healthy, brown cheeks, a
well-rounded chin, deepened in the middle with the depression which is
nature’s hall-mark on superior physical beauty--a moderately full
forehead, very small ears, jet black, short, smooth hair, and wide,
honest black eyes with rough black eyebrows. Under the brown colour
there was rich blood, that mantled like scarlet velvet in summer’s dusk.

He spoke in a low, self-possessed, unaffected voice, with an English
accent, common enough to-day among young men who have been much abroad
during their education. Wingfield had been at Christ Church, had got his
degree in the ordinary course, and was hesitating as to his future
career between the law, for which he was now reading, and a country life
of gentleman farming and horse-breeding in western New York, which
attracted him. His people were all rich, all good-looking, and all
happy. His ideals were chiefly in his own family. When he had returned
from England, he had been something of a hero among the young, owing to
his having pulled five in the Oxford boat when the latter had won the
University race in the previous spring, a very unusual distinction for a
foreign-born athlete in England. With his great height, he was still
proud of having trained to twelve stone eleven for the race.

In the matter of outward advantages John Ralston’s spare figure and
lean, Indian face could not compare favourably with such a man as
Archibald Wingfield. Nor had Wingfield’s reputation borne the strain and
the shocks which John’s had barely survived. The man seemed born to
success, happiness and popularity, as many of his family had been
successful, popular and happy before him. He himself believed that all
he needed in order to be happier than any of them was to get Katharine
Lauderdale’s consent to be his wife. And he loved her so much, and was
so nervous in the anticipation of what was to come, that his hands had
turned cold, his healthy heart was bouncing like a football in his big
chest, the blood rushed to his brown cheeks, and he almost dropped his
silk hat as she entered the room.

“How do you do, Miss Lauderdale?”

He came forward with a gigantic stride, and then suddenly made a short
little step, as he found himself already close to her.

“How do you do?” she asked, quietly repeating the inane question we have
adopted as a form of greeting and recognition.

She looked up--far up, it seemed to her--into his brilliant black eyes,
and understood how much in earnest he was, before he said anything more.
Vaguely, as in a dream, she remembered how, several months earlier, in
that very room and almost at that very hour, John Ralston had come to
her and she had persuaded him to make her his wife.

“Thank you so much for the flowers,” she said, sitting down in her
favourite little arm-chair on one side of the empty fireplace.

He murmured in a pleased but incoherent fashion as he pushed a chair
into a convenient position and sat down--not too near her--setting his
hat upon the floor beside him. He rested his two elbows on his knees,
and his chin on his folded hands, and looked at her with unblushing,
boyish admiration.

“But please don’t send me any more flowers, Mr. Wingfield,” said
Katharine, going straight to the point by an effort of will.

A puzzled look came into his face instantly. His hands dropped upon his
knees, and he sat upright in his chair.

“Why not?” he asked, simply. “I mean,” he added, fancying he had put the
question roughly, “is it rude to ask why not? It gives me so much
pleasure--if you like them a little, you know.”

It hurt Katharine to see the simplicity of the man, and it made her face
burn to think that he had been played upon.

“Because I’d rather not,” she answered, very gently.

“I--I don’t think I quite understand,” said Wingfield, with some
hesitation. “I know--you often say that I mustn’t send them so much--but
then, you know, one always says that, doesn’t one? It doesn’t seem to
mean anything except a sort of second ‘thank you’--”

“I mean more than that,” said Katharine, smiling faintly, in spite of
herself.

“But so do I!” exclaimed the young man. “I mean so much more than
that--I always have, from the very beginning--”

“Please don’t!” cried Katharine, anxiously, for she saw that he meant to
speak at once--but it was too late.

“From the very beginning, since almost the first time I ever saw
you--oh, my--my dear Miss Lauderdale--won’t you let me say it at last?”

“No--no--please--”

“If you only knew how hard I’ve tried--not to say it before,” he blurted
out, as the blood rose warm in his brown cheeks.




CHAPTER VII.


Katharine turned her eyes from him and looked thoughtfully at the
hearth-rug. A little silence followed Wingfield’s last speech, as he sat
gazing at her and hoping for a word of encouragement. But none came, and
by slow degrees the eager expression faded from his face and left it
anxious and pained.

“Miss Lauderdale--” he began, in an altered tone, and then stopped
suddenly. “Miss--Katharine--” he began again, more softly, and still
hesitated.

She looked up, and though her eyes were turned towards him, he fancied
they did not see him. She was pale, and her lips were a little drawn
together, and there was an incongruity between her attempt to smile and
the weary tension of the brows. Everything in her face told that she
pitied him with all her heart.

“I’m very sorry,” she said, with real sympathy. “It’s been a mistake
from the beginning--a great mistake.”

“Please don’t say that!” he answered, impulsively--for he was impulsive,
in spite of his solid, well-balanced strength. “Please don’t answer me
yet--”

“But I must!” she protested, and the look of pity became more set.

“No, no! Please don’t! Wait a little--and--and let me tell you--”

“It can do no good,” she answered, with a sudden rough effort. “You’ve
been misled--I didn’t know--”

“What?” he asked, softly. “That--that I cared so much--and meant
always--all along--from the very first--it’s always been so, ever since
I saw you that first night at the Bretts’, after I came back from
Europe--only it’s more so, every time, till I can’t keep it back any
more, and I’ve got to speak, and tell you--”

“Mr. Wingfield--” began Katharine, thinking, womanlike, to chill him by
the formal enunciation of his name with a protest in the tone, kindly
though it was.

“Yes--you think so now,” he answered, irrelevantly. “But I don’t ask you
to answer, I only ask you to listen to me--and, indeed, I don’t want you
to think that it’s any one’s fault, nor that there’s any fault at all,
because I know it will all come right, and you’ll care for me a little,
even if you don’t now. I’ve spoken too soon, perhaps, and perhaps I’ve
been rough or rude--or something--and I don’t know how to tell you as I
should--because I’ve never told anybody such things--don’t you believe
me, Miss Katharine? But you wouldn’t think any the better of me if I
knew how to make beautiful speeches and phrases, and that sort of thing,
would you?”

“Oh, no--no--and you’ve not been anything but nice--only--”

“I can’t help it--you’re my whole life, and I must tell you so now. Of
course, lots of men worship you, and I daresay they know how to say it
ever so much better--and that they’re very much nicer men than I am.
But--but there isn’t one of them, I don’t care who he is, who cares--who
loves you as I do, or would do what I’d do for your sake, if I could, or
if I had a chance. And even if you don’t care for me at all yet, I’ll
love you so that you will--some day--and it’s not the sort of love
that’s just flowers and attention and that, you know, like everybody’s.
It’s got hold of me--hard, and it won’t let go--ever! It’s changed my
whole life. I’m not at all as I used to be. You’re in everything I do,
and see, and think, and hear, as life is--and without you there wouldn’t
be any life in anything. Don’t think I don’t feel things because I’m so
big, and I don’t look sensitive, and all that--or because I can’t put it
into words that touch you. It’s true, for all that, and all I ask is
that you should believe me. Won’t you believe me a little, Katharine?”

The great limbs of the young Achilles quivered, and his strong hands
strained upon one another, and there was the clear ring of whole-hearted
truth in the deep voice, in spite of the incoherence and poverty of the
words.

“I believe you,” answered Katharine, looking at the rug again. “It isn’t
that. But I won’t let you think for one instant that there’s the least
possibility of my ever caring for you, or marrying you. It’s absolutely
impossible.”

“Nothing’s impossible!” he answered, impetuously. “Nothing except that
you should never care at all when I’d give my life for your little
finger, and my soul for your life--with all my heart, and be glad to
give either--”

“It hurts me very much to hear you talk like this--because you’ve been
misled and deceived--my father and mother--”

“How can they know what you think and feel?” asked Wingfield. “I only
spoke to them because it seemed right and fair, being so much in
earnest, and I couldn’t tell but what there might be some one else--I
had no right to pry into your secrets and watch you and try and find
out--it wouldn’t have seemed nice. So I asked your father, and then Mrs.
Lauderdale--but I didn’t suppose they knew absolutely--of course they
couldn’t answer for you--in that way. And I say it again--don’t make up
your mind--don’t send me off--wait--only wait! You don’t know how love
grows out of what seems to be nothing till it’s bigger and stronger than
the biggest and strongest of us--you can’t feel it growing any more than
you could feel that you were growing yourself when you were small; and
you can’t remember when it began, any more than you can remember what
you thought of when you were a year old. That doesn’t make it less real
afterwards--love’s such a little thing at the beginning, and by and by
it takes in everything, so that the whole world is nothing beside it.
And if you’ll only not make up your mind--”

“It’s made up for me, long ago--in a way you don’t dream of. It’s
absolutely, and wholly, and altogether impossible, and it always will
be, no matter what happens. Oh, I can’t say more than that, Mr.
Wingfield--and it wouldn’t be true if I said less!”

“But it can’t be really true!” he protested, bending forward in his low
chair. “Of course you think so--but how can you possibly tell? I don’t
mean to say that you’re changeable, or capricious, or anything of that
kind--but people do change, you know. Why--I hate to say it--but you
couldn’t say more than that if you were married and I didn’t know it!”

Katharine started, though she was strong and her nerves were good. He
had made the reflection very naturally, in answer to the very positive
words she had spoken. But to her it seemed as though he must know, or at
least guess, the truth. She lost her balance for a moment, as she gazed
earnestly into his honest black eyes.

“Mr. Wingfield--do you know what you’re saying?” she asked, in a low
voice.

He was afraid he had said something monstrous, and his face fell.

“I didn’t mean to offend you,” he stammered, awkwardly. “I’m awfully
sorry if I said anything I shouldn’t--”

Katharine forgot his contrition, and forgot to reassure him in the
anxiety caused her by the mere suspicion that he might know the truth.
She sat staring at him in silence for several seconds, wondering what he
knew. It was more than he could bear. He bent still nearer to her, from
the edge of his chair, and his hands moved a little towards her,
beseechingly, in as near an approach to an eloquent gesture as such a
man could have used.

“Please don’t be angry with me!” he said.

“Oh, no!” she answered, in an odd voice, with a little start. “I was
only thinking--”

He did not understand, and he moved backward into his chair suddenly,
crossed one knee over the other with an impatient jerk, and looked away
from her.

“What a brute I am!” he exclaimed, in a barely audible tone.

Katharine paid no attention to this self-condemnation. Her eyes rested
thoughtfully on his face, and she seemed to be reflecting. She was
examining her own conscience, trying to find out how far her actions
could have brought about the state of things she saw. A woman who loves
one man with all her heart has small pity for any other, though she may
know that she ought to feel pity and to show it. But she does not
therefore lose her sense of justice.

“Will you tell me one thing, Mr. Wingfield? Will you answer me one
question?” she asked, at last.

He turned to her quickly again, with a look of surprise. She was out of
tune with him, so to say, and her words and tone jarred strongly upon
his own mood.

“Certainly,” he answered, much more coldly than he had spoken yet. “I’ll
try and answer any question you ask me.”

“Do you really and truly feel that I’ve encouraged you, as though I
meant anything?” she asked, slowly.

It would not have been easy to put a question harder to answer honestly.
Wingfield did not like it. A man hates to be put in the position of
either telling a falsehood or giving offence, with no alternative but an
unmannerly refusal to speak at all. Wingfield felt that, in the first
place, he had been badly used in spite of his protestations to the
effect that no one was to blame. It had been unpardonable of Mr. and
Mrs. Lauderdale to be so mistaken in their own daughter--he put it
charitably--as to expose him to such an uncompromising and final refusal
as he had received. He went no further in that direction. He did not
think of himself as a very desirable son-in-law, and a very good match
in fortune, because, like most people, he supposed that when the
Lauderdale estate was divided, Katharine would ultimately have her share
of it, a fact to which he was indifferent. He did not, therefore, accuse
the Lauderdales of having intentionally led him on. But they had acted
irresponsibly. And now he fancied that Katharine was very angry with him
for what he had said a few moments earlier, and he thought she was
unjust, since he had really said nothing very terrible. So he resented
her last question as soon as she had asked it, and he hesitated before
replying. Katharine waited patiently a few moments.

“Do you really think I’ve been flirting?” she asked at last, seeing that
he did not answer.

“No!” he cried, at once. “Oh, no--not that! Never. If you ask me whether
you’ve ever looked at me, or spoken to me as though you really
cared--no, you never have. Not once. But then--there are other things.”

“What other things? What have I done?” Feeling that he had admitted the
main point in her favour, she grew a little hard.

“Well--you’ve let me come a great deal to see you, and you’ve let me
send you--oh, well! No--I’m not going to say that sort of thing. I got
the impression, somehow--that’s all.”

“You got the impression, from what I did, that I liked you--that I
encouraged you?” she asked, anxiously.

“Yes. I got that impression. Besides, you’ve often shown plainly enough
that you liked to dance with me--”

“That’s true--I do. You dance very well. And I do like you--as I like
several other people. It isn’t wrong to like in that way, is it? It
isn’t flirting? It isn’t as though I said things I didn’t mean, is it?”

“No,” answered Wingfield, in an injured tone. “It’s not. Still--”

“Still, you think there’s been something in my behaviour to make you
think I might care? I’m very sorry--I’m very, very sorry,” she repeated,
her voice changing suddenly with an expression of profound regret. “Will
you believe me when I tell you that it’s been altogether unconscious?
You can’t think--if you care for me--that I’d be so heartless and cruel.
You won’t, will you?”

“No--I don’t want to think it. I misunderstood--that’s all. Put it all
on me.”

He was very young, and he was cruelly hurt. He spoke coldly, lest his
words should choke him.

“No,” answered Katharine, speaking almost to herself, “there are other
people to blame, whose fault it is.”

“Perhaps.”

A silence followed. It was warm in the room. One of the windows was a
little raised, and the bells of the horse-cars jingled cheerfully in the
spring air. At last Katharine spoke again.

“I suppose it doesn’t mean much to you when I say I’m sorry,” she said.
“If you knew, it would mean much more. I’m very much in earnest, and I
shall never forget this afternoon, for I know I’ve hurt you. I think
you’re a little angry just now. It’s natural. You have a right to be.
Since you think that I’ve made you understand things I didn’t mean, I
wonder you’re not much more angry--that you don’t say much harder things
to me. It wouldn’t really be just, because I’m very unhappy, whether I’m
to blame or not. But you’re generous. I shall always be grateful to you.
You won’t bear me any more ill-will than you can help, will you?”

“Ill-will? I? No! I’m too fond of you--and besides, I’ve not done hoping
yet. I shall always hope, as long as I live.”

“No--you mustn’t hope anything,” answered Katharine, determined not to
allow him the shadow of any consolation. “It wouldn’t be just to me. It
would be like thinking that I were capricious. I’m not going to talk to
you about friendship, and all that, as people do in books. I want you to
try and forget me altogether--for I believe you--you really care for me.
So there’s no other way--when one really cares. Don’t come here any more
for the present--don’t try to meet me at parties--don’t ask me to dance
with you. The world’s very big, and you needn’t see me unless you wish
to. By and by it will be different. Perhaps you could go abroad for a
little while again. I don’t know what your plans are, but it would be
better if you could. The season will be over--it’s almost over now, and
then you’ll go one way and I shall go another, and there’s no reason why
we should meet. We mustn’t. It wouldn’t be fair to me, and it wouldn’t
be fair to you, either. You see--it’s not as though you were
disagreeable. If we meet at all, I couldn’t help being very much the
same as ever, and you know what I’ve made you think of that. You’ll
promise, won’t you?”

“Not to try and see you sometimes? No, I won’t promise that. I shall
always hope--”

“But there is no hope. There’s not the slightest possibility of any
hope. If you knew about me, you’d understand it.”

“Miss Lauderdale--will you think it very rude if I ask one question?
I’ve--I’ve put my whole life into this--and you’re sending me away
without a word. So perhaps--I think you might--”

“What is it?” asked Katharine, kindly.

“Are you engaged to Jack Ralston? I’ve heard people say that you were,
so often. Would you tell me?”

Katharine was silent for a moment. She did not know exactly how far it
would be true to say that she was engaged to John, seeing that she was
married to him. Her marriage, she thought, might be looked upon as a
formal betrothal, and there would have been little harm in taking that
view of it, under such circumstances. But she had inherited from her
father something of his formal respect for the mere letter of truth, and
she did not like to say anything which did not conform to it.

“We’re not exactly engaged,” she answered, after a short pause. “But we
care for each other very much.”

Wingfield’s brow cleared a little. He had one of those dispositions
which hope in spite of apparent certainty against them.

“Then I’ll go away for awhile,” he said, with sudden resolution and
considerable generosity, from his point of view. “If you don’t marry
him, I’ll come back, that’s all. I’m glad you told me. Thank you.”

It requires considerable self-control to act as Archibald Wingfield did
on that occasion. His voice did not tremble, and he did not turn pale,
because it was not in his nature to experience that sort of physical
weakness when he was making an effort. But what he did was not easy.
Even Katharine could see that. He sat still a few moments after he had
spoken, glanced at her once, as though to make sure that there was to be
no appeal, and then rose suddenly from his seat, and stood towering
above her.

“Good-bye,” he said, holding out his hand, and stooping to bring it
within her reach. Now that the effort had been made, his voice trembled
a little.

“Good-bye,” answered Katharine, taking his hand, and lifting her head
almost without raising her eyes.

There was something almost like timidity in her tone. She felt how he
had been wronged by her father and mother, and in her trouble she was
willing to believe that she was really a little to blame herself. She
realized, too, that he was acting very bravely and honestly, and that he
was really suffering. It was not a grand, dramatic agony, and eloquence
was the least of his gifts, but he was strong, young, and in earnest,
and had been made to undergo pain for her sake. She was ashamed of
having been the cause of it.

No other words suggested themselves to her, but he waited one moment, as
though expecting that she would speak again. Then he silently dropped
her hand, and bowing his head a little, went quietly to the door without
looking back. She did not follow him with her eyes, but she listened for
the sound of the latch, and it did not come quite so soon as she
expected. He had turned to look at her once more, his hand on the door.

“God bless you--Katharine,” he said, in a low voice.

She looked round at him quickly, and the faint, sorrowful smile came
back to her face. Her lips moved, but no words came. He gazed at her one
moment, and then took his young grief out into the spring air and the
evening sunshine.

When Katharine was alone, she sighed and gazed at the hearth-rug,
bending forward in a thoughtful attitude, her chin supported in her
hand.

“How hard it is!” she exclaimed to herself.

It seemed to her that the difficulties of her life grew with every
passing day. She had, indeed, cut the knot of one of them within the
last half hour, and so far as Archibald Wingfield was concerned, the
hard thing had been done, and he knew the worst. But she, on her part,
had much to bear yet. She had seen to-day, for the first time, how her
father and mother longed to have her married. Even now, she found it
difficult to suspect either of them of intentional cruelty, or of
attempting to use anything more than persuasion in pushing her into the
match. With her faculty for seeing both sides of a question at once, she
was just. It was natural, perhaps, that they should wish her to marry
such a man. She had never seen any one like him--such a magnificent
specimen of youthful manhood. Even her father could not compare with
him. And he had much besides his looks to recommend him, much besides
his fortune and his position and his popularity. He was brave and
honest, and able to love truly, as it seemed.

He would recover, of course, she said to herself. He was sought after,
flattered, and pursued for many reasons. He could find plenty of young
girls only too delighted to marry him, and he would certainly marry one
of them before long. His life was not blighted, and she had not broken
his heart, if hearts ever break at all. She remembered what she had once
borne, in the belief that John Ralston was disgraced for life on that
memorable occasion when all New York had learned that he had been
brought home, apparently drunk, after a midnight encounter with a
pugilist, who had found occasion to quarrel with him in a horse-car. The
belief had lasted a whole night and a whole day, and she did not think
that young Wingfield could be suffering anything like that. Moreover,
her love for Ralston made her ruthless and almost hard about every
other man. Nevertheless, she was sincerely sorry for the man who had
just left her--the more so, perhaps, because she had little or nothing
with which to reproach herself.

Katharine was not left to her own reflections very long. By a process
akin to telepathy, Mrs. Lauderdale was soon aware that Archibald
Wingfield had left the house. In the half hour during which his visit
had lasted, she had not touched her miniature, though she had looked at
it, and turned it to and from the light many times. She was very
nervous, and she wished that when he went away he might forthwith take
himself off to China, at the very least. She did not wish to meet him
that evening, nor the next, to be called to account by him for having
exceeded her powers in the impression she had conveyed of Katharine’s
readiness to marry him. Yet she remembered that she had acted very much
in the same way when Charlotte had married Benjamin Slayback. It was
true that Slayback was a much older man, and well able to take care of
himself, and that Charlotte had not at the time been showing any
especial preference for any of her adorers. She had, in fact, just then
dismissed one for the grievous offence of having turned out an
unutterable bore after three weeks of almost unbroken conversation,
during which she had exhausted his not fertile intellect, as furnace
heat dries a sponge. Charlotte’s heart had been comparatively free,
therefore, and she had been indulging in dreams of power and personal
influence. But Mrs. Lauderdale and her husband had on that occasion used
to Mr. Slayback almost the identical words which she had lately repeated
to Wingfield; Slayback had come, had proposed,--in what manner Charlotte
had never revealed,--and had been immediately accepted. Surely, there
was nothing wrong in assuming that Katharine might possibly behave in
the same way, seeing how very much more desirable a suitor Wingfield was
than Slayback. Thus argued Mrs. Lauderdale, as she tried to trip up her
conscience and step over it. But she was too good by nature to be
successful in such a fraud upon goodness, and in the midst of her
involuntary self-reproaches, her heart was beating with anxiety to know
the result of the interview.

It meant a great deal to her, for she was sure that if Katharine could
be removed from the household, peace must descend upon her own soul once
more, and she longed for peace. Somehow, she felt that if she could only
enjoy that supremacy of her wonderful beauty for one month more--for one
last month, before she grew old--she could meet Katharine again, and
forgive her all her youth and freshness, and forgive herself for having
envied them. As her life was now, she could not, try how she would. The
pain was upon her hourly, and she could not but resent it, and almost
hate the cause of it.

Though she constantly looked at her miniature, and moved the brushes and
little saucers on the table, her hearing was preternaturally sharpened,
as it was in reality the barely audible sound of the distant front door
which told her that Wingfield was gone. Instinctively she looked towards
the door of her own room, hesitated, then rose suddenly, and went out
with a quick, nervous step, and a determined look in her face. Without
stopping to consider what she should say, she descended to the library.

Katharine looked up with an expression of annoyance as her mother
entered.

“He’s gone, then?” said Mrs. Lauderdale, interrogatively.

“Yes. He’s just gone,” answered Katharine, in a voice that did not
promise confidence.

“What did you tell him, dear?”

Mrs. Lauderdale sat down beside her daughter. The smile she put on was
as unnatural as the endearing tone, and Katharine observed it. She
suffered in the artificiality which had developed in her mother of late,
so unlike the dignified personality which she had been used to love.

“Really, mother, I can’t repeat the conversation. I couldn’t if I wished
to. What difference does it make what I said, since he’s gone? I told
you what I should say. Well--I’ve said it.”

“You’ve sent him away for good--just like that?”

“I’ve told him the plain truth, and he’s gone. He won’t come
back--unless he wants to see you,” she added, rather bitterly. “I don’t
think he will, though. You’ve not exactly helped him to be happy.”

“Katharine!” There was an injured protest in the tone.

“I don’t see why you should be surprised,” answered the young girl. “Of
course he might take it into his head to be angry with you for what
you’ve done. It wasn’t very nice. I’m not sure that, in his place, I
should ever wish to see you again.”

“My child, what an exaggeration! You talk as though I had deliberately
sought him out and asked him to the house--almost asked him to marry
you.”

“It comes to that,” observed Katharine, coldly.

“Really, Katharine, you’re--beyond words!” Mrs. Lauderdale drew back a
little, in displeasure, and looked at her severely.

“I could forgive you,” continued the young girl, “if you hadn’t known
that I love Jack and never shall marry any one else. You know it and
you’ve always known it. That makes it much worse. You’ve made that poor
man suffer without the slightest reason. You could just as well have
told him that you knew I cared for some one else, and you could have
been as nice to him as you pleased. You’ve hurt him, and you’ve driven
me to hurt him, by no fault of mine, just to undo the mischief you’ve
done. Of course, it’s papa who’s really done it all, but you needn’t
have let him twist you round his little finger like a wisp of straw.”

“Oh, Katharine! Anything more unjust!”

“I’m not unjust, mother. But I’m too old to think everything you do is
perfect, merely because it’s you. When I see a man like Archie Wingfield
sitting there and straining his hands to keep himself quiet, and choking
with the sound of his own words, I know he’s suffering--and when I know
that he’s suffering uselessly, and that it’s all your fault and papa’s,
I judge you--that’s all. I’m a grown woman. I have a right to judge.”

The door opened and Alexander Junior appeared upon the threshold, just
returned from his office.

“I heard your voice, so I came in,” he said, with an electric smile
which was meant to be conciliatory. “Oh!” he exclaimed, in altered
tones, as he saw the faces of the two women, “has anything happened?”

For a moment there was silence. Mrs. Lauderdale looked at the empty
fireplace, avoiding the eyes of both her husband and her daughter. But
Katharine leaned back in her seat and faced her father. Her voice was
almost as cold and steely as his could be when she answered him at last.

“Mr. Wingfield has just asked me to marry him,” she said. “And I have
refused him--unconditionally.”

“You’ve done an exceedingly foolish thing, then,” answered Alexander
Junior. “And you’ll be very sorry for it before long.”

He came nearer and stood by the fireplace, laying one authoritative hand
upon the mantelpiece, and shaking the forefinger of the other in a
warning manner.

“I’m the best judge of that,” answered Katharine, undaunted and
unimpressed by his parental tone.

“You’re not,” answered Mr. Lauderdale. “You’ve acquired a habit of
contradicting me lately. It seems to be a part of your plan for being as
utterly undutiful and disobedient as you can. I warn you that I won’t
submit to it any longer.”

“It’s of no use to threaten me, papa,” answered Katharine, controlling
herself as well as she could. “And it doesn’t do any good to call me
undutiful and disobedient so often. It doesn’t make it true.”

“Katharine!” cried her mother, in a tone of distress which was not
artificial.

“I know what I’m saying, mother--”

“Then you should be sincerely ashamed of yourself, Katharine,” said
Alexander Junior. “As sincerely as I’m ashamed that a daughter of mine
should use such language.”

Katharine rose slowly from her chair and stood up before him, while her
mother remained seated.

“Neither of you have any right to say that you’re ashamed of anything
I’ve done,” she said. “As for my language, it’s mild enough--for what
you’ve done. I’ve been ashamed of you both to-day--here, in this room,
half an hour ago. You’ve told an honest man who’s foolishly in love with
me that I cared for him, and would have him if he would ask me, when you
know that I will never marry any one but Jack Ralston. It seems to me
that I’ve had good reason to be ashamed of you. It was hard to look him
in the face, and tell him that my father and mother had misled and
deceived him--to make him own that he had it all from you, and that I’d
not given him the shadow of a reason for thinking that I cared for
him--that he had it all from you. Oh, it was so plain! Not that you can
deny it--and you tell me that you’re ashamed of me! If I didn’t love
Jack, do you know what I’d have done? I’d have married Archie Wingfield
to save you your respect for yourself, and a little of his for you!”

“I refuse to listen any longer to such insane nonsense,” said Alexander
Junior, whose slow wrath was rising by degrees.

“You shall listen to me,” answered Katharine. “I’m fighting with you for
my life and happiness, and you’ve got to face me like an honest
man--though you are my father!”




CHAPTER VIII.


“Katharine! This is too much!” cried Alexander Junior, his anger rising
in his eyes.

The man’s heavy hand fell emphatically upon the mantelpiece, making the
old-fashioned gilt clock and the Chinese vases tremble and rattle. Mrs.
Lauderdale was not a nervous woman, but she rose from her seat and stood
beside her husband, not exactly as though she meant to take his side,
and yet not exactly as a peace-maker. She felt herself accused as much
as he did by the pale, strong girl who stood before them, one hand
hanging by her side, the other pulling nervously at the little silver
pin at her collar as though she felt that it was choking her. Of the
three, at that moment, Mrs. Lauderdale was by far the most
self-possessed.

“It’s true,” answered Katharine. “Every word of it’s true!”

As she spoke she caught her breath, and was obliged to stop, white with
anger.

“Katharine--my child! Don’t!” cried Mrs. Lauderdale, fearing she was
going to faint.

“I think you’d better go, my dear,” said Alexander to his wife. “She’s
beside herself. I’ll bring her to her senses.”

The passionate blood rose in the girl’s face and the words came again.

“No, mother--stay here!” she said. “You have no right to go away. Yes--I
say that for months you’ve been doing your best, both of you, to destroy
my happiness--and you’ll destroy my life with it, if I stay with you
longer. You’ve tried to separate me from the man I love, and you’ve been
trying every day and every hour to make me marry another man--pushing
him on, encouraging him, telling him that I would accept him--for all I
know, telling him that I loved him. I’ve not forgotten the things you’ve
done--I’ve not forgotten the day when you, mother, you who had stood by
us so long, suddenly turned without reason and told Jack to go away.
Here, in this very room, last winter--and you, papa--I’ve only to make
you remember how you took that letter when it was brought, and kept it
all day, and repeated all the lies that people told about Jack--and
mother read me the things in the papers--and you made me believe that he
had written to me when he was drunk. It was all a lie, a miserable,
infamous lie! And you liked it, and repeated it, and turned it over and
embroidered it and beautified it--to make it hurt me more. It did hurt
me--it almost killed me--but for Jack’s sake, I wish to God it had!”

“Katharine, this is blasphemy!” exclaimed her father, his cold eyes
glittering with rage--but he was not fluent, he could find no words to
dam the stream of hers.

“Blasphemy!” she cried, indignantly. “Is it blasphemy to pray--unless
your God is my Devil?”

Beside himself with passion, her father made a step forward, and with a
quick movement covered her mouth with one hand and grasped her arm with
the other. But he miscalculated her quickness as against his strength.
With a turn of the hand and wrist she was free and sprang backwards a
step.

“It’s like you to lay your hands on a woman, after trying to sell her!”
she cried, her lips turning a dull grey, her eyes colder and brighter
than his own.

Being roused, they were terribly well matched. Mrs. Lauderdale threw
herself between them. To do her justice, she faced her husband, with one
hand stretched out to warn him back.

“No, no, mother! don’t come between us. I’m not afraid--I only got my
mouth free to tell him that he’s a coward to lay his hands on me. But
that was his only answer, because the things I say are true--every one
of them, and more, too. That’s your one idea--both of you--to marry me
off and get me out of the house, because you can’t look me in the face
after the things you’ve done--after coming between me and Jack, as
you’ve tried to do, and would have done, if we’d loved each other
less--after trying to force me upon the first man who took a fancy to my
face--after tormenting me to betray uncle Robert’s confidence--and it’s
all been for money, and for nothing else. Money, money, money!”

“My child, you’re mad!” cried Mrs. Lauderdale. “What has money to do
with it? What are you talking about? Do you know that you’re making the
most insane accusations?”

“Let her talk,” said Alexander, in a low, sullen voice. “She doesn’t
know what she’s saying.”

Ashamed of his outbreak, perhaps, or in sheer helplessness against
Katharine’s desperate speech, he had fallen back again and stood leaning
against the mantelpiece, his arms folded over his broad chest, his hands
twitching at his sleeve, his pale mouth set like a steel trap, a dull,
dangerous light in his eyes.

“You’re mistaken,” continued Katharine. “It’s all for money. Money’s at
the root of every action of your life. You didn’t want me to marry Jack
because he’s poor, and because uncle Robert might not leave him
anything. Money! You thought at first you could make me take Hamilton
Bright, because he’s cared for me so long--and because he’s beginning to
be rich and is a partner in Bemans’--money, again! Archie
Wingfield--how many millions will he have? Money--of course. Uncle
Robert’s will--what shall you get by it? Money--and you’d tear the
figures out of my head with red hot pincers if you could--just to know
how much you’ll have when the poor man’s dead. Ever since we were
children, Charlotte and I, you’ve preached economy and saving and
poverty--you’ve let my mother--your wife--and you’re the nephew of the
great Robert Lauderdale--you’ve let her work her hands and her eyes till
they ached to make a little money herself--not for herself only, but for
us. No--don’t smile contemptuously like that. She’s done it all my life,
and she’s doing it still. Your children could scarcely have been
decently dressed, if she hadn’t earned a few hundred dollars for them.
There’s hardly a thing I have on that she’s not paid for out of her
earnings. We couldn’t have gone to our first ball, Charlotte or I, but
for her. And still, day after day, you say you’re poor. Do you think I
don’t see all the little meannesses? Do you think I can’t smell the vile
cigars you make grandpapa smoke, to save those few cents? Is there a
house among all our friends, poor as some of them are, where there isn’t
a fire in the library, at least in the evening, even when there’s nobody
asked to dinner? Economy, saving, meanness of all sorts--even the poor
housemaid who broke her arm on the kitchen stairs! You sent to the
hospital the day before she was to leave, half-cured and helpless, and
made her sign the declaration that she made no further claim upon you.
She came here when you were down town. Mother gave her five dollars--out
of her earnings--but I heard her story. Oh, they’re endless, your ways
of saving that filthy, miserable money of yours!”

“Are you really mad, Katharine?” asked her father, in a dull, monotonous
voice.

“Child! You know we’re comparatively poor,” said Mrs. Lauderdale.
“Come--dear child--”

She laid her hand on the girl’s arm as though she would lead her away
and end the violent scene, but Katharine stood firm.

“Poor!” she cried, indignantly. “Comparatively poor! Yes--compared with
uncle Robert or Mr. Beman, perhaps. But papa is not poor, though he has
told you so for years, though he lets you work for money--you! Though he
borrows five dollars of you--I’ve seen it again and again--and never
returns it--borrows the poor little sums you earn by hard work! Oh, it’s
not to be believed! Borrows without ever meaning to give it back--like
an honest man--oh, he wouldn’t dare to do that with his dearest friend.
But you! You can’t help yourself--”

“My dear, he keeps an account--”

“I know, I know! He pretends that he keeps the money for you and allows
you interest! I’ve heard him say so. Interest on five dollars. And have
you ever had it? Sordid--mean--there’s no word! And he keeps telling you
that he’s poor, and that we must pinch and scrape or we shall go beyond
our income--when he has over a million of dollars put away--”

“Be silent!” cried Alexander Junior, with sudden vehemence, his cheeks
as grey as ashes.

“I won’t be silent! I’ll say every word I have to say. Look me in the
face. Deny, if you dare, before God, that what I say is true--that you
have that money put away somewhere. Is it true, or not, as you hope to
be saved?”

Mrs. Lauderdale came between them again, laying her hands on Katharine’s
arm and trying to make her leave the room.

“Take care, take care!” she cried, anxiously, and hardly knowing what
she said. “Alexander--Katharine! Don’t--oh, please don’t quarrel like
this--my child, my child! You’re beside yourself!”

“I’m not--it’s true as life and death!” answered the girl, resisting the
pressure. “Ask him if it’s not! Make him swear that it’s not true--make
him say, before heaven, that he has less than a million, while he’s
selling his daughters and forcing his wife to work. Wait--don’t
speak--listen to what he says! If he can’t say it, his whole life has
been a lie, and he knows it--wait--hush!”

Katharine held her mother fast by the hands, and seemed to hold her own
breath, her angry eyes fixed on her father’s face. Mrs. Lauderdale
turned her head instinctively, and looked at him. He met their glances
for a few seconds, and his dry, pale lips parted as though he were about
to speak, but no sound came. In the waning light his eyes had a glassy
look. It only lasted a moment, and then his mouth was twisted with an
expression meant for a smile.

“Take her away--she’s mad,” he said, and his voice seemed to be suddenly
weak.

Katharine laughed aloud, bitterly and cruelly, in her triumph.

“If I were mad, as you say I am,” she said, a moment later, “that would
not make it impossible for you to tell the truth. Yes, mother--I’m going
now. I’ve said it all--and you know it’s true.”

She dropped her mother’s hands, turned contemptuously away, and left the
room. Neither her father nor her mother moved as she went, though they
followed her with their eyes until the door closed behind her with a
soft click.

Alexander Lauderdale was torn by the strongest emotions of which he was
capable--anger and avarice. But avarice was the stronger. So long as
Katharine had accused him of unkindness, of dishonesty in his treatment
of Wingfield, of meanness in his household, his wrath, though powerless,
had kept the upper hand. But at the sudden and unexpected accusation of
possessing a fortune in secret, he had been cowed. It was characteristic
of him that even in that moment he would not swear falsely, and he saw
the folly of denying the statement if he could not support his denial
with something like an oath. When passions have reached such a crisis,
they are not satisfied with less than they demand. On the whole, it had
been wiser to say nothing. He could admit afterwards that he had saved
something--he would assure his wife that Katharine’s statement had been
exaggerated--little by little, calm would be restored. And there would
not necessarily be any increase of expenditure. At that crucial moment
two thoughts had been uppermost in his mind. The miser’s dismay at the
discovery of his wealth, and the miser’s visions of ruinous expense in
the immediate future. In a flash, he had seen himself forced to spend
fifty or sixty thousand a year, instead of ten or twelve, and all
possible forms of reckless extravagance had appeared to him in a horror
of kaleidoscopic confusion. It was torture to think of it--to realize
that his secret was out.

The strong man stood, half-stunned, leaning against the mantelpiece,
pulling nervously at the bit of embroidered velvet which covered it,
his face drawn in an expression of suffering and fear. He dreaded the
question which he knew that his wife would ask him, but he had not even
the power to speak at that moment, in order to ward it off.

Mrs. Lauderdale hesitated a moment, wondering whether it might not be
better to follow Katharine to her room and try to calm her and make her
more reasonable. Never, in all the girl’s life, had her mother seen her
so passionately angry nor heard her use the tone of defying strength
which had rung in her voice as she accused her father. Mrs. Lauderdale
herself was frightened, and almost feared for Katharine’s reason. But
there had, nevertheless, been so much assurance of truth in what she had
said, that her mother was half convinced. Before she left the room to
follow her daughter, she turned to her husband, and the inevitable
question came. It could not be otherwise. The girl’s accusation had
vividly brought before Mrs. Lauderdale the labour she had expended in
all the past years, and of which the result had been to give her
children what it was their father’s duty to give them if he had anything
to give. Many a time, too, she herself had chafed under the necessity of
lending him small sums for an emergency, accepting a promise of payment
which was never fulfilled, and forced to be satisfied with the assurance
that he kept an account of what he owed her. He seemed never to have
money about him. He always said that he was afraid of losing it--he, the
most careful of men! The cumulative force of those many small meannesses
extending over a quarter of a century of married life was tremendous
when they were brought up in a body and made to face the positive
statement that he was in reality a rich man. A good wife she had been to
Alexander Junior in every sense of the word, but of that early trusting
love which hides more sins than the multitude of them which charity can
cover, there was not left even the warmth where the spark had glowed.
There was no ‘a priori’ judgment of one heart against all possible
offence and sordid meanness in the other. Katharine’s blow had been
heavy and direct, and had gone straight to its mark. Her mother loved
her--in spite of her terrible envy of her. It would need the man’s
solemn oath to outweigh the girl’s plain statement. The inevitable
question came, as Alexander knew that it must. He moved nervously as she
began to speak.

“Alexander, dear,” she said, speaking gently from force of habit, “it
would be very easy for you to deny this.”

He had thought of what he should say.

“My dear, I think that after spending half a lifetime together, during
which you’ve had occasion to find out that I’m truthful, it’s scarcely
necessary to pay any attention to an angry child’s ravings.”

But Mrs. Lauderdale was not satisfied with this poor excuse. Katharine
had roused her own resentment, and she remembered many things now, which
Katharine herself did not know--little things--the dry sticks that will
make a smouldering fire blaze.

“It’s precisely because you’re so truthful that it seems strange when
you refuse to answer a simple question, Alexander,” observed Mrs.
Lauderdale, quietly enough.

She did not wish to take up Katharine’s quarrel, nor to give the present
conversation the air of an argument. She therefore did not stay beside
him, as though they were discussing any point, but moved about the room,
pretending to arrange small objects and books and generally to set the
room in order, which was a work of supererogation, to keep herself in
countenance while she renewed the attack.

“You admit that I’m truthful,” said Alexander, coldly. “I’m glad you do.
That settles the question at once. If I’ve been a rich man all these
years, then I’ve not been telling the truth, nor acting it, either. It’s
all too absurd for discussion. I confess that at first I was angry. The
girl spoke to me in the most outrageous manner. I don’t remember that
any one has ever said anything of the kind to me in my life. It’s
wrong to be angry, and I repent of it, but I think I may be
pardoned--considering what she said. It’s been a disgraceful scene. I’m
sincerely thankful that none of the servants were present.”

“Oh--it was natural that you should lose your temper, of course!”

“Human, at all events,” said Alexander, with dignity; “I don’t think
I’ve ever made any pretence of possessing superior virtues. A man may
justifiably lose his temper sometimes. ‘Be angry and sin not.’ I did not
intend to be violent.”

“No--of course not! Still--”

“Yes. I took her by the arm and deliberately laid my hand upon her
mouth. That was not violence. Few men of sincere convictions would have
done less, considering the blasphemous words she was uttering. It’s the
duty of parents to hinder their children from committing such sins, when
they can. In the case of a man, I should have used my strength to
enforce silence. As it was, I merely covered her mouth with my hand. I
recollect that you came between us, as though you thought I meant to be
violent. Nothing could have been further from my thoughts, I assure
you.”

“I trust so,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, taking a package of envelopes out of
the little stationery rack on the writing-table, turning it round and
putting it back again.

“With regard to Archibald Wingfield,” continued Alexander, getting
further and further from the question of the money, “you know as well as
I do, that we have treated him precisely as we treated Slayback, when he
wished to marry Charlotte. As for me, I told him that I saw no reason
why Katharine might not--‘might not ultimately,’ mind you--accept an
offer which was so agreeable to me personally. I fail to see anything
which can be criticised in that answer. I should by no means like to say
positively, even now, that Katharine ‘might not ultimately’ accept him.
That would amount to denying the existence of an evident possibility,
which is absurd. She may, so far as that goes. I don’t say she will. I
say, she may. Young women frequently change their minds, and sometimes
for the better. Let us hope for the best. Of course I don’t know every
word of what you said to him, though you did your best on each occasion
to tell me all about it. I gathered that you gave him very much the same
sort of negative encouragement that I did. Practically, we told him to
try his luck.”

Mrs. Lauderdale had rarely heard her husband speak so long
consecutively. He was not fluent, as a rule, and in the recent quarrel
with Katharine he had been almost speechless. But now he was talking for
his life, as it were. If he lost the position of domination which he had
held so long with his wife, his existence must be shaken to its
foundation. He barely gave her a chance to introduce a word.

“I’m not so positively sure, myself,” she said. “Of course I didn’t mean
to convey any wrong impression to young Wingfield, but--”

“But you may perhaps have pardonably exceeded your powers,” interrupted
Alexander, anxious that she should not commit herself. “Very pardonable,
my dear, very pardonable. Such things happen constantly, even in
business. Of course the party who goes beyond his instructions bears the
responsibility in case anything goes wrong. Just so in the present case.
If there is any responsibility, which may be doubted, it’s yours and not
mine, for I’m positively certain of the words I spoke--of the very
words. I said ‘might not ultimately accept’--I recollect very
distinctly, and you know how accurate my memory is.”

“Yes--I know,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale, in a tone which might have been
thought to give the words a doubtful meaning.

“Of course you do, my dear. If Wingfield got a wrong impression,--‘if he
did,’ mind you,--he must have got it from you. I think you might perhaps
explain that to Katharine--when she’s a little calmer. I can’t allow her
to think that her father, whom she’s bound to respect, should have done
such a thing. A man’s actions carry much more weight than a woman’s. I
couldn’t allow her to think that I’d taken her feelings for granted.
There’s no immediate hurry, Emma, but I should be glad if you would
explain it to her. It will help to restore peace. As for her reasons for
rejecting Wingfield,” he continued, without pausing for his wife’s
answer, “I regret them very much. It’s a miserable thing to see such a
girl wasting her chances of happiness on such a reprobate as Jack
Ralston, and I do her the honour to say that such an affection can’t
possibly be lasting. As for her marrying him, of course that’s
altogether outside the question. I’m sure she clings to the attachment
far more out of a desire to oppose my wishes in everything, than because
she really cares for that vagabond. I’ve not the slightest fear that
she’ll ever marry him. I’m sure you don’t think so, either.”

“Unless she runs away with him,” suggested Mrs. Lauderdale.

She was annoyed by the skill with which he, who was ordinarily less
keen, had passed from the main subject in question to a side issue. She
did not know how a great passion like avarice can sharpen wits under
danger of discovery.

“Oh, well!” exclaimed Alexander, with much dignity. “If she runs away
with the fellow, that puts her altogether beyond the pale of our love,
and we shall have done with her. We won’t discuss that. The objection
to this pretence of loving Ralston--for I’m convinced that it’s nothing
else--is that it keeps her from marrying a man worthy of her, like
Archibald Wingfield. Of course there are people far richer than the
Wingfields--uncle Robert, for instance, besides the others who are so
much richer even than he, and count their millions by the hundred; but
taking him all in all, there’s not a better match in society--for looks,
and education, and position, and health, too, which I regard as a very
important consideration. You must agree with me, my dear--Wingfield
would have made an excellent husband.”

“Of course I agree with you, Alexander. What an unnecessary question!”

“My dear, when the very foundations of one’s life are being torn up and
thrown out of the window by a silly girl, it becomes necessary to ask
all the simplest questions over again.”

This extraordinary simile produced no very convincing effect on Mrs.
Lauderdale, who had listened to phrase after phrase of his long tirades
with exemplary outward resignation, for the sake of allowing peace to be
restored by the overflow of self-conscious virtue, but with little
inward patience.

“I think the best thing to do is to let the whole matter drop, and hope
that Katharine will change her mind,” she said, sensibly.

“Yes. Let’s hope that, at all events. Emma, we can’t have any more
scenes like this. If Katharine breaks out in this way again, I shall
refuse to see her. You may, if you please. But I will not. When I’m at
home she shall stay in her room.”

“But that’s impossible!” exclaimed Mrs. Lauderdale, in astonishment.
“You wouldn’t treat a child like that!”

“I would,” answered Alexander, and his lips snapped on the words. “And I
will, if there’s any repetition of such conduct. That’s a matter for me
to judge, Emma, and I don’t wish you to interfere. She has accused her
own father of being a liar, of selling her, of being a miser, and of
stealing his wife’s money. You can’t deny that, and I presume you’ve no
intention of supporting the accusations. Yes, even as it is, I prefer
that Katharine should not appear this evening. When she’s begged my
pardon for what she’s done, I’ll consent to see her. Not before. Pray
tell her that this is my decision, Emma.”

“But, Alexander, I never heard of such a thing! Of course she lost her
temper and was awfully rude to you, and I’m very much displeased with
her. But really--you can’t treat a grown woman like a baby. It’s too
absurd.”

“It’s not absurd, my dear. You must excuse me if I adopt Katharine’s
method of contradiction. The only way to treat her is to treat her as a
child. If we consider her to be a grown woman, we must either resent
what she’s done--as though she were any other woman--or else take it for
granted that she is temporarily insane, and drive her out to
Bloomingdale Asylum to-morrow morning to be cured. But so long as we
regard the whole thing as childish, it’s sufficient to tell her that
she’s not to come to table until she’s begged my pardon. Don’t you see?”

Mrs. Lauderdale was aware that he was talking nonsense, approximately
speaking, and she saw that he meant to do a very unwise thing. But as he
put it, the only good argument against his course would have been to
prove that Katharine was right and that he was wrong, which, with some
allowance for undue and angry exaggeration, would be equivalent to
proving him a miser and anything but a straightforward person. Mrs.
Lauderdale’s trouble was considerable at that moment.

“You may be right in theory,” she said, almost despairingly, “but in
practice I think you’re quite wrong. One doesn’t do that sort of thing
nowadays. If we’ve all got to fight like mad people, let’s keep it to
ourselves--”

“That’s precisely what I’m thinking of,” interrupted Alexander, whose
resolution was growing stronger every moment.

“Yes--but, my dear! The servants--and your father, too! I don’t think
he’s very discreet--”

“Yes, exactly, my dear Emma. That’s just how I look at it. I think I
know Katharine quite as well as you do, and I’m sure that if she has an
opportunity of attacking me, she will, before the servants and before my
father. I should much rather let people know that I had told Katharine
to stay in her room until she could treat me with proper respect, than
have such a conversation as has just taken place here repeated all over
New York. I’m sure you see that, don’t you?”

“Yes,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale, suddenly comprehending his point of
view. “But it seems to me that if there’s to be such an open break, it
would be better to let Katharine go down to Washington for a few days
and stay with Charlotte.”

“Certainly not!” exclaimed Alexander. “You know what Charlotte is, and
what trouble we have had with her. The two girls would make common
cause. Not at all. Not at all, Emma. I shall be glad if you will go at
once and tell Katharine what I’ve said--that I don’t wish to see her
until she has made amends for her outrageous conduct.”

“But, Alexander,” protested Mrs. Lauderdale, “it will be so
inconvenient--sending her dinner upstairs!”

“I daresay it won’t be for long. She’ll understand in a day or two, I’ve
no doubt.”

“I can’t do it,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, trying to make a stand. “It’s too
utterly--extraordinary--”

“My dear, I’m the master in this house,” answered Alexander, coldly. “I
wish it to be so. But if you’d rather not speak to her, I’ll go myself.
She irritates me, but I’m glad to say she doesn’t intimidate me. As for
such domestic difficulties as serving Katharine in her own room, they
can be got over. Let your maid take the child her dinner.”

“Well--if you insist, I’ll go,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, weakly yielding.
“I couldn’t let you go--you’d quarrel again.”

“I don’t insist upon your going, my dear--I have no right to. But I
insist upon the thing being done.”

Mrs. Lauderdale went towards the door. She paused before she went out.
“I think you’re going too far, Alexander,” she said. “I think you’re
tyrannical.”

“I think not,” he answered, coolly. “I should refuse to sit down to
table with a man who had used such language to me. I don’t see why I
should submit to it from Katharine.”

“Well--”

Mrs. Lauderdale closed the door behind her, and slowly went upstairs,
feeling as though she had been driven from the field after a crushing
defeat. Yet she had made very little resistance. With her, the man’s
cold, arrogant personality was dominant. She had always submitted to it
because there seemed to be no other course. She was conscious of wishing
that during the last five minutes she might have possessed her
daughter’s character and fighting qualities, especially when her husband
had quietly thrust all the blame about the treatment of Wingfield upon
herself, without considering for a moment that his own words might have
been misinterpreted.

She did not altogether sympathize with him against Katharine. For many
years she had felt the galling of his miserable meanness, and had many
times suspected that he was by no means as poor as he chose to declare
himself to be.




CHAPTER IX.


Mrs. Lauderdale went slowly upstairs, thinking over what she should say,
as she climbed from one story to another. At the door she knocked
softly, and Katharine’s voice bade her enter.

Katharine was standing at the window, looking out, and did not turn
round as her mother entered. The evening light was on the houses
opposite, and the glow was gently sinking into the darker street.
Katharine watched the horse-cars go by, and listened mechanically to the
jingle of the bells, hardly conscious of either.

“What is it?” she asked, as she heard the door close.

Her voice had that peculiar reedy sound which comes of speaking through
the closed teeth by the lips only. It seems to mean that the speaker is
on the defensive and not to be trifled with.

“Your father--Katharine--he’s so angry! He wanted me to speak to you.”

“Oh--it’s you, mother?” The girl’s tone changed a very little, and she
turned and came forward. “Well--I’m sorry,” she said, after a short
pause. “It can’t be helped, I suppose.”

Mrs. Lauderdale sat down in the one small arm-chair, by the
toilet-table, and clasped her hands over her knee, leaning back, and
looking up rather wistfully at Katharine.

“I think--in a way--it can be helped,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, in a
conciliatory manner. “If you would go downstairs now, and just say
quietly that you’re sorry, you know. Just as you said it now. I’m sure
he’d be willing to accept that as an apology.”

“Apology?” Katharine laughed bitterly. “I--make an apology to him? No,
mother--I won’t.”

“You ought to--really,” objected Mrs. Lauderdale, earnestly. “Why, my
dear child! Have you any idea of what you’ve been saying downstairs?
Some of the things you said were dreadful.”

“They were all true, and he knows it,” answered Katharine, stubbornly.

She leaned against the chest of drawers, and looked down into her
mother’s upturned face.

“Oh, no! they weren’t all true, dear,” protested the latter. “You
exaggerated very much. It’s quite possible that your father may have
saved something in all these years--he’s so careful! But as for having a
million, as you said--”

“But, dear mother--there isn’t a doubt of it! I didn’t promise uncle
Robert that I wouldn’t tell that--”

“What? Did uncle Robert tell you?”

“Yes! Of course! Did you suppose I was inventing?”

“Well--not exactly. But I thought you might have heard some gossip--or
something Jack Ralston said--”

“Not at all. Uncle Robert told me that he knew it to be a positive
fact--a million, at least, he said. And he’s quite as truthful as
papa--”

“More so,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, absently; “I mean,” she added, very
quickly, with a frightened look, for she had not realized what she was
saying--“I mean--quite as truthful. They’re both perfectly truthful--”

“Yes,” answered Katharine in a doubtful tone, and smiling in spite of
herself. “Not but that, if it came to believing, you know, I’d believe
uncle Robert sooner than papa--”

“Hush, child--don’t!”

Katharine said nothing, but still leaned back, resting both elbows on
the high chest of drawers on each side behind her, and looking down
thoughtfully at the points of her shoes. Mrs. Lauderdale was silent,
too, for several seconds.

“Well?” Katharine uttered the convenient word interrogatively, without
looking up.

“Well--yes,” responded Mrs. Lauderdale. “I was going to say that--” She
hesitated. “My dear,” she continued, at last, “you’ll have to say
something to your father, after all this.”

“Something like what I’ve said already?” asked Katharine, raising her
black eyebrows and glancing at her mother.

“No, no! I’m serious, my dear.”

“So am I--very. You began to talk of an apology. It’s quite useless,
mother--I can’t and I won’t apologize.”

“But, Katharine, darling--he says he won’t see you unless you do--he’s
dreadfully angry still!”

“Oh--he won’t see me? What does that mean? That I’m to stay in my room?”
She laughed a little.

“He’s in earnest about it,” said Mrs. Lauderdale. “That’s what he
said--he--I don’t like to say it--but I must, I suppose. That’s just it.
He means you to stay in your room whenever he’s in the house.”

“How childish!” exclaimed Katharine, scornfully. “What do I care? I
don’t want to see him particularly. But, just for curiosity--if he
happens to meet me on the stairs, for instance, what will he do? Throw
things at me? Box my ears? He’s quite capable of it--as you saw just
now--”

“Please don’t talk like that, dear,” said Mrs. Lauderdale. “He was
terribly angry--and you were saying the most dreadful things--he only
meant to stop you from speaking.”

“He hurt my mouth, and he hurt my arm--there’ll be black and blue marks
here to-morrow, I’m sure, by the way it feels.” She laid her left hand
on her right forearm at the point where her father had seized it.
“That’s rather like violence, you know, mother.”

Katharine turned perceptibly paler as she spoke of it. Mrs. Lauderdale
was pained at the recollection, and looked away from her, clasping her
hands a little more tightly over her knee.

“Did he ever touch you in that way, mother?” asked the young girl,
slowly.

“Me?” cried Mrs. Lauderdale. “Oh--child! How can you think of such a
thing! No, indeed! Fancy!”

“Well--I’m just as sensitive as you are,” answered Katharine. “Put
yourself in my place.”

The unexpected answer silenced the elder woman.

“I think it’s his place to apologize to me--and very humbly,” added
Katharine. “It was a cowardly piece of violence to a woman. I’m willing
to believe--for the honour of the family, and men generally--that he
didn’t mean to strike, exactly. But it felt very much like it, and I
told him so. I’ll tell him so again, if he mentions the thing.”

Mrs. Lauderdale was in great difficulties. Her husband and her daughter
were both stronger than she, they had no intention of making up their
quarrel, and yet, by her position, she was forced to act as
intermediary. It was not easy. Her husband dominated her by his strong
personality. Katharine had the better of her in argument. She turned
away a little, in thought, resting one elbow on the toilet-table beside
her, and covering her eyes with her hand for a moment. The beautiful,
tired features were pale and drawn.

“It’s very hard for me,” she said, wearily. “You’re both partly wrong
and partly right.”

“I think I’m altogether right,” said Katharine.

“I know--so does he. But you’re not--either of you--nor I, either, for
that matter. Oh, dear! I wish I knew what to do!”

“There’s nothing to be done, I’m afraid,” answered the young girl, more
gently, for she was somewhat pacified by her mother’s owning a share in
the blame. “Not that I’m going to make a fuss about it, if he doesn’t.
I’m not that kind. I won’t come down to dinner to-night, because it
would be unpleasant for everybody. As for to-morrow--we’ll see what
happens. The idea of shutting me up in my room so long as he’s in the
house, because the sight of me is disagreeable to him, it’s silly--it’s
perfectly childish! Just like an angry man! I’m not sure that I should
mind it very much, so far as not seeing him’s concerned. I don’t want to
see him, any more than he wants to see me. But it’s the principle of the
thing that sticks in my throat. It’s as though he had the right to treat
me like a small child, to be sent to bed in a dark room at discretion,
until I change my mind. It’s the tyranny of the thing, the arrogance of
it--and when I’m altogether right, as you both know.”

“No--not altogether,” objected Mrs. Lauderdale.

“I won’t go over it again, mother. I’ll sum it up in these words. He’s
rich, and he’s told us that he was poor, and he’s stood looking on and
letting you work to give us small luxuries that amount to necessities.
He’s wilfully calumniated Jack for months. He’s wilfully misled Archie
Wingfield--”

“My dear--about that--he assures me that he only said you might
ultimately accept him--”

“Well--he knew that I mightn’t, and he had no business to say I might,”
interrupted Katharine, decidedly. “Besides, I can hear just his tone of
voice, and his way of slurring over the ‘might’ till Mr. Wingfield felt
it was ‘may’--oh, it’s abominable! As for his pestering me with
questions about uncle Robert’s will, it’s natural enough, considering
how he loves money, as a cat loves cream. Oh, I know! You’re going to
say it’s disrespectful to say such things. Perhaps it is--I don’t
know--he seems to lap it up--with that smile of his--and it disappears,
and we have to live on the drops. No--I don’t feel respectful. Why
should I? I’ve respected him for nineteen years, and I can’t respect
him any longer. It’s over, once and for all. When a man deliberately
sets to work to destroy his daughter’s chances of being happy--oh, well!
It isn’t only that. It’s the whole thing, the meanness, the miserliness,
the Sunday-go-to-meeting-and-sit-up-straight sort of virtuous
superiority outside--and all this other inside. It’s revolting. It’s
upset all my ideas. I don’t feel as though I could ever believe in
anything again. I don’t mean to shock you, mother, but I can’t help
saying it, just now.”

“It’s dreadful!” Mrs. Lauderdale spoke in a low voice and earnestly.

Katharine was silent for a few moments, and looked out of the window. It
was almost dark by this time.

“You know, mother,” she said, suddenly, “I used to admire papa--very
much, in a certain way. I don’t think you ever quite realized that. Of
course I’ve been brought up in his church, though I’ve much more
sympathy with yours. It always seems to me that his is a man’s religion,
and yours is a woman’s. But then--Mr. Griggs says the world is a woman,
in a sort of way, so yours ought to be the religion of the world. Never
mind--I don’t know enough to talk about these things. What I mean is
this. I used to admire papa’s uncompromising way of looking at life, and
the way I thought he’d tell the truth and shame the devil at any price,
and his cold, unreasoning, settled certainty about heaven and hell--and
the way I thought that he took his flinty goodness down town with him,
and did right, when one knows that ever so many business men don’t. It
all seemed so strong, and cool, and manly. I couldn’t help admiring it.
And I believed that he was poor, and that although he wouldn’t say much,
he’d fight for us, and die for us, if necessary. And then--he’s
handsome, too, and straight, and steely, and formal. I’ve always liked a
little formality. Do you see what I mean?”

“Of course,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale, thoughtfully, and nodding her
head with a far-away look in her eyes.

Katharine had enumerated the very qualities that had once appealed so
strongly to her mother.

“Well--” Katharine paused a second. “It’s all a sham. That’s all.”

Mrs. Lauderdale started at the abrupt, rough words.

“Oh, Katharine, dear, don’t say that!”

“It’s true. It’s broken to pieces. It began to crack just before
Charlotte was married. It’s all broken to bits. I can see the inside of
it, and it’s not what I thought. There’s only one idea, and that’s
money. It would need a miracle to make me admire him again. It’s broken
to atoms, and what’s so strange is, that it’s taken everything with it
in the last few months--and it’s taken the last bit to-day. It’s all
gone. I can’t help it. It’s dreadful--but it’s a sort of confession,
like your confessions. I don’t believe in God any more.”

“My child, my child!”

Mrs. Lauderdale looked up at her with scared eyes and rising hands,
which sought Katharine’s, found them, and gripped them in a frightened
way. The devout woman, good at heart with her one big fault, felt as
though the world were quaking under her feet as she heard the last
words. Not that Katharine spoke them lightly, for she was in earnest,
and the declaration of unbelief was more solemn from its strangeness
than almost any confession of rigid faith could have been.

“Yes, mother--I know--we won’t talk about it. I only want you to
understand me--we’ve been so much together in our lives.”

She spoke sadly now.

“And we shall be, dear, I hope,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale.

“I don’t know--perhaps. I don’t believe we shall ever be just as we used
to be. You’re not the same--nor am I, I suppose.”

“Oh, yes we are--in our hearts. But, Katharine, darling--what you said
just now--if you knew how it hurts me--”

“It’s not your fault, mother. If anybody’s to blame, it’s papa, and I
think he is. Oh, no! You’re different. After all, we’re only a pair of
women, you and I. We can quarrel and make up, and nobody will be hurt in
the end. We’re not each other’s ideals--not that papa was mine, or
anything like it. But you naturally believe in a thing more when a
strong man stands up and asserts it and fights for it, than if it turns
out that he only says that he believes in it, out of prejudice and
family tradition and a sort of impression that after all he may go to
the wrong place if he doesn’t. He’s always talking about setting an
example--it seems to me that the example lies in the effect of the thing
upon the person one’s to imitate. If this is the effect of religion on
him, I don’t want it. I’d rather talk to Teddy Van De Water, who
chatters about Darwin and Spencer without knowing anything particular
about them, and sticks his glass in his eye and makes bad jokes about
the future state, but who’d burn his hand to the wrist rather than do
anything he thought mean. Men have done that sort of thing before
now--they’re not the men who talk about God over the soup, and try to
sell their daughters at dessert!”

“Katharine--” Mrs. Lauderdale could not find words.

“I know--but papa’s not here--and then, I don’t mean to talk about it
any longer. You’ve come up from him, I suppose, mother, to say that he
doesn’t want to see me. Very well. I don’t want to see him. But how long
is this state of things to last? I won’t apologize, and I suppose he
won’t give in. It may go on for months, then. Supposing I refuse to be
imprisoned in this way, is he going to lock me in and take the key with
him? What’s he going to do? I want to know what to expect.”

“My dear, I don’t know--he only said that. Just what I told you.”

“Because if it’s going to be a siege, I’ll go away,” said Katharine,
calmly.

“I proposed that you should go to Washington and spend a fortnight with
Charlotte. He wouldn’t hear of it.”

“Yes--but if I just go without asking his leave? What will happen? What
do you think? Girls often go alone, and it’s only five hours by the
half-past eleven train that Charlotte always takes. She’d be glad to
have me, too.”

“Your father would be quite capable of going and bringing you back--on
Sunday.”

“On Sunday!” Katharine laughed hardly. “How you know him! He wouldn’t
lose a day at his office, to save you or me from drowning. That’s what
he calls duty. Yes--perhaps he’d come, as you say. Then we should have
an opportunity of fighting it out on the way back. Five hours, side by
side--but I suppose we should turn our chairs back to back and go to
sleep or read. But he might not come, after all. Do you know? I should
feel a sort of sense of security at the Slaybacks’. I like him, though
Charlotte makes fun of him. There’s something real about him. I didn’t
mean to go to Washington, though.”

“You couldn’t go to the Ralstons’,” observed Mrs. Lauderdale. “With Jack
at home--people would talk.”

“If I went there, I should stay,” answered Katharine, with a coolness
that startled her mother. “I should never come back at all. Perhaps I
shall some day. Who knows? No--I thought I’d go and stop with uncle
Robert. That would terrify papa. He’d suppose, in the first place, that
I’d tell uncle Robert everything that’s happened, and then that uncle
Robert would tell me a great deal more about his intentions with regard
to the will. That would make papa anxious to be nice to me when I came
home again, so as to get the secret out of me. I think it’s a very good
plan; don’t you? Uncle Robert would be delighted. He’s all alone and not
at all strong. The very last time I saw him, he begged me to come and
stay a few days. I think I will. Fancy papa’s rage! He’d scarcely dare
to come and get me there, I imagine.”

Mrs. Lauderdale did not answer at once. She saw the immense advantage
Katharine would have over her father if she carried out the plan, and it
seemed too great. Alexander would be almost at his daughter’s mercy. She
could dictate her own terms of peace. Incensed as she was against him,
she could easily use her influence against him with his uncle, who had a
lonely old man’s fondness for the beautiful girl.

“Of course you could go--I couldn’t prevent you,” said Mrs. Lauderdale,
rather helplessly.

“Of course I could. I’ve only to walk there. Uncle Robert will send for
my things.”

“I hope you won’t, dear. It wouldn’t make it easier for me--he’ll think
it’s been my fault, you know--and then--”

Katharine looked at her mother in silence for a moment, and pitied her
too much, even after what had passed between them, to leave her to
Alexander’s temper.

“I won’t go yet,” said Katharine. “I won’t go unless he’s perfectly
intractable. Go and tell him that it’s all right, mother. I’ll submit
quietly and stay in my room as long as he’s in the house--quite as much
for my own sake as for his, you can tell him. If he asks about my
apologizing, tell him that I won’t, and that I expect an apology from
him. It can’t last forever. One of us will have to give in, at the
end--but I won’t. You can put it all as mildly as you like, only don’t
give him any impression that I’m submitting to him morally, even if I’m
willing to keep out of his way.”

“Couldn’t you say something a little nicer than that, dear?” asked Mrs.
Lauderdale, pleadingly, for she anticipated more trouble. “Couldn’t you
say that you’d let by-gones be by-gones--or something of that sort?”

“It wouldn’t be true. These are not by-gones. They’re present things.
The nice by-gones will never come back.”

Mrs. Lauderdale rose slowly to the height of her still graceful figure,
and stood before her daughter for a moment. In the emotion of the past
hour she had forgotten for a time her envy of the girl’s blossoming
beauty. For a moment she was impelled to throw her arms round
Katharine’s neck in the old way, and kiss her, and try to make things
again what they had been. But something hard in the young grey eyes
stopped her. She felt that she herself was not forgiven yet and might
never be, altogether.

“Very well,” she said, quietly. “I’ll do my best.”

She turned and left the room, leaving Katharine still leaning back
against the chest of drawers in the position she had not abandoned
throughout the conversation.

When Katharine was alone, she stood up, turned round and pulled out the
upper drawer. Amongst her gloves and handkerchiefs lay a photograph of
John Ralston. She took it out and looked at the keen, dark face, with
its set lips, its prominent bony temples, and its nervous lines that
would be furrows too soon.

“You’re worth all the Lauderdales and the Wingfields put together!” she
said, in a low voice.

She kissed the photograph, pressing it hard to her lips and closing her
eyes.

“I wish you were here!” she said.

She looked at it again, and again kissed it. Then she put it back with
an energetic movement that was almost rough, and shut the drawer. She
sat down in the chair her mother had occupied, and gave herself up to
thinking over all that had taken place.

Her instinct was to let John Ralston know as soon as possible what had
happened, but she knew how foolish that would be. He would insist that
the moment had come for declaring their marriage, and that she must go
and live under his mother’s roof. But she felt that something must be
done soon. If she was willing to submit to her father’s sentence, absurd
as it was, she found a reason for doing so in her own disinclination to
meet him. But the situation could not last. And yet, he was obstinate
beyond ordinarily obstinate people, and it would be like him to insist
upon banishing her for a week. In such things he had no sense of the
ridiculous. Apart from the inconvenience and constant annoyance of being
expected to keep out of his way, she was young enough to feel
humiliated. It was very like a punishment--this order not to be seen
when her father was in the house. She had no intention of disregarding
it, however. To do so would have been to produce an open war of which
the rumour would fill society. It was clear that her best course was to
be patient as long as possible, and then quietly to go to uncle Robert’s
house. The world would think it natural that she should pay him a visit.
She had done so before.

Alexander Junior seemed to be satisfied with the answer his wife brought
him. He felt that if he could make Katharine stay in her own room at his
discretion, he was still master in his own house, and his injured
dignity began to hold up its head again. The old philanthropist did not
even ask after Katharine at dinner, though he was fond of her. She so
often went out to dine alone with intimate friends, that it did not
occur to him to remark upon her absence. But, as usual, when she was not
there, the family meal was dull and silent. Alexander ate without
speaking, and with the methodical, grimly appreciative appetite of very
strong men. Mrs. Lauderdale was not hungry, and stared at the silver
things on the table most of the time. The old gentleman bolted his food
in the anticipation of tobacco, which tasted best after eating. He was a
cheerful old soul when he was not dreaming, an optimist and a professed
maker of happiness by the ton, so to say, for those who had been
forgotten in the distribution. He had big hands, shiny at the knuckles
and pink where a young man’s would be white, with horny, yellowish
nails, and he was not very neat in his dress, though he had survived
from the day when men used to wear dress coats and white ties in their
offices all day. The Lauderdale tribe regarded him as a harmless member
who had something wrong in his head, while his heart was almost too much
in the right place. A certain amount of respect was shown him on account
of his age, but though he was the oldest of them all, Robert the Rich
was undisputedly the head of the family. It was generally believed, and,
as has been seen, the belief was well founded, that he was not to have
any large share of the money in case he survived his brother.

Early on the following morning Alexander Junior emerged from his
dressing-room, equipped for the day. He wore the garments of
civilization, but a very little power of imagination might have
converted his dark grey trousers into greaves, his morning coat into a
shirt of mail, and his stiff collar into a steel throat-piece. He had
slept on his wrath, and had grown more obstinate with the grey of the
morning. His voice was metallic and aggressive when he spoke to the
serving-girl, demanding why his steak was overdone. When his wife
appeared, he rose formally, as usual, and kissed her cheek with a little
click, like the lock of a safe. He said little or nothing as he finished
his breakfast, and then, without telling her what he meant to do, he
went upstairs again and knocked at Katharine’s door.

“Katharine!” he called to her. “I wish to speak to you.”

“Well--” answered the young girl’s voice--“I’m not dressed yet. What is
it?”

“How long shall you be?” enquired Alexander, bending his brows as he
leaned against the panel to catch her answer.

“About three quarters of an hour--I should think--at least--judging from
the state of my hair. It’s all tangled.”

“Do you know what time it is?”

“No--I’ve not looked. Oh--my little clock has stopped. It’s a quarter
past four by my little clock.”

“It’s nine o’clock,” said Alexander Junior, severely. “Three minutes
to,” he added, looking at his watch.

“Well--I can’t help it now. It’s only--no--it’s sixteen minutes past
four by my little clock.”

“Never mind your little clock. I must be going down town at once, and I
wish to speak to you. I can’t wait three quarters of an hour.”

“No--of course not.”

“Well--can’t I come in? Aren’t you visible?”

“No. Certainly not. You can’t come in. I’m brushing--my hair. I always
brush it--ten minutes.”

“Katharine--this is absurd!” cried Alexander, becoming exasperated. “Put
on something and open the door.”

“No. I can’t just--now.” Her phrases were interrupted by the process of
vigorous brushing. “Besides--you can talk through the door. I can
hear--every word--you say. Can’t you hear me?”

“Yes, I can hear you. But I don’t wish to say what I have to say in the
hearing of the whole house.”

“Oh!” The soft sound of the brushing ceased. “In that case I’d rather
not hear it at all.”

“Katharine!” Alexander felt all his anger of the previous day rising
again.

“Yes--what is it?” She seemed to have come nearer to the door.

“I told you. I wish to speak to you.”

“Yes--I know. But you can’t unless you’ll say it through the door.”

“Katharine! Don’t exasperate me!”

“I’m not trying to. I understood that you didn’t wish to see me for some
days. If you’d sent me word, I should have been ready to receive you. As
it is, I can’t.”

“You know perfectly well that you can, in ten minutes, if you please. I
shall send your mother to you.”

“Oh--very well. I’ve not seen her this morning. But you’d better not
wait till I’m dressed. It will take a long time.”

“Very well,” answered Alexander Junior, who had completely lost his
temper by this time.

A moment later Katharine heard the sharp click of the lock, and the
rattle as the key was withdrawn. She never used it, having a bolt on the
inside.

“You are at liberty to take all day if you please,” said her father. “I
have the key in my pocket. Good morning.”

Katharine’s lips parted in astonishment, as she turned her eyes towards
the door, and she stood staring at it for a moment in speechless
indignation, realizing that she was locked in for the day. Then,
suddenly, her expression changed, and she laughed aloud. Alexander was
already far down the stairs.

But presently she realized that the situation was serious, or, at all
events, something more than annoying. She was to be shut up at least
until after five o’clock in the afternoon, all alone, without food or
drink, without the books she wanted, and without any one with whom to
exchange a few words. Her face became grave as she finished dressing.
She knew also that her father had lost his temper again, and she did not
care to have all the servants know it.

She rang the bell, and waited by the door till she heard the maid’s
footsteps outside.

“Ask my mother to come here a moment, Jane,” she said. “Say that it’s
important.”

A few moments later Mrs. Lauderdale turned the handle of the lock.

“Is that you, mother?” asked Katharine.

“Yes. The door’s locked. I can’t open it.”

“This is serious,” said Katharine, speaking in a low voice, close to the
panel. “Papa’s locked it and taken the key down town with him. Didn’t he
tell you?”

“No--it’s impossible, child! You must have slipped the bolt inside.”

“But, mother, he said he meant to, and I heard him do it. He got angry
because I wouldn’t let him in. I couldn’t then, for I wasn’t dressed,
and Jane’s putting a new ribbon on my dressing-gown, so I haven’t even
got that. But I didn’t want to. Never mind that--I’ll tell you by and
by. The question is how I’m to get out! Unless he didn’t quite mean it,
and has left the key on the table in the entry, with the latch-key. You
might look.”

Mrs. Lauderdale went downstairs and searched for the key, but in vain.
Katharine was locked in.




CHAPTER X.


Mrs. Lauderdale was indignant. Katharine, at least, had been able to see
the ludicrous side of the situation, and had laughed to herself on
finding that she was locked in. Less conventional than either her father
or mother, it had occurred to her for a moment that she was acting a
part in an amusing comedy. The idea that by one or two absurd phrases
she had so irritated Alexander as to make him forget his dignity and his
common sense together, and do a thoroughly foolish thing such as a child
in a passion might do, was funny in the extreme, she thought. But Mrs.
Lauderdale, being called in, as it were, after the play, thought the
result very poor fun indeed. In her opinion, her husband had done a
senseless thing, in the worst possible taste.

Fortunately the house was an old one, and the simple, old-fashioned lock
was amenable to keys which did not belong to it. In due time, Mrs.
Lauderdale found one which served the purpose, and Katharine was set at
liberty.

“This is just a little more than I can bear,” she said, as her mother
entered the room. “I didn’t expect this sort of thing last night when I
said I wouldn’t go to uncle Robert’s. Really--papa’s losing his head.”

“I must say, it’s going rather far,” admitted Mrs. Lauderdale.

“It’s gone a great deal too far,” Katharine answered. “I laughed when I
found I was locked in. It seemed so funny. But I won’t let him do it
again.”

“You two have a faculty for irritating each other that’s beyond
anything,” observed Mrs. Lauderdale. “It really would be much better if
you could be separated for a little while. My dear, what do you suppose
could happen, if you went to uncle Robert’s?”

“Just what I told you yesterday. Papa would be quite bland when I came
home again. By that time he could have got over his rage, and he’d want
to know things--oh, well! I won’t talk about all that. It only hurts
you, and it can’t do any good, can it? Hadn’t I better go up to uncle
Robert’s and ask if he can have me? Meanwhile, Jane could pack a few
things--just what I need to-day--I can always come down, or send down,
and get anything I want at a moment’s notice. Shan’t I, mother? What do
you think?”

“Well--I don’t quite know, child. Of course I ought not to, but then if
I don’t--” She paused, conscious of vagueness. “If I don’t let you go,”
she continued, “there’ll be worse trouble before long. This is an
impossible position, we know, and if you went to Washington, I’m sure
he’d go down on Sunday and bring you back. It was very clever of you to
think of going to uncle Robert’s.”

“I could go to the Crowdies’,” said Katharine, meditatively. “Of course,
Hester’s my best friend, but I do hate her husband so--I can’t help it.”

Walter Crowdie was a distinguished young painter, whose pale face and
heavy, red mouth were unaccountably repulsive to Katharine, and, in a
less degree, to her mother also. Mrs. Crowdie was Hamilton Bright’s
sister, and therefore a distant cousin.

“And papa might insist on bringing me back from there, too. There are
lots of reasons against it. Besides--Hamilton--”

“What about Hamilton?” asked Mrs. Lauderdale.

“Oh, nothing! Mother--I don’t want to do violent things and make a fuss,
and all that, you know--but if you agree, and think it’s sensible, I
will go up and ask uncle Robert if I may stay a few days. You can see,
yourself, that all this can’t go on much longer.”

In her resentment of her father’s behaviour, she felt quite reconciled
with her mother, and Mrs. Lauderdale was glad as she realized the fact.
There was an underthought in her mind, too, which was perhaps not
altogether so creditable. Though it was only to be for a few days,
Katharine was to be away from her. She, was to have a breathing space
from the temptation which tormented her. For a little while she should
be herself again, not contrasted, at every turn of her daily life, with
that terrible bloom which ever outshone the fading flower of her own
beauty. That was her dream. If she could but be supremely beautiful
still for one short month--that was all she asked--after that, she would
submit to time, and give up the pride of life, and never complain again.
She would not have acknowledged to herself that this was a motive, for
she honestly did her best to fight her sin; but it was there,
nevertheless, and influenced her to agree the more readily to
Katharine’s absence. It counteracted, indeed, the anxiety she felt about
her husband’s view of the case when he should return from his office
late in the afternoon; but her instinct told her, also, that he might
very probably be a little ashamed of what he had done, and be secretly
glad of the solution unexpectedly offered him.

Katharine got ready to go in a few minutes. As she put on her hat and
gloves, she glanced two or three times at the bit of red ribbon that lay
on her toilet-table. She had taken down the signal from the window on
the previous evening, in order to inform John Ralston that she could not
come that morning. On the whole, she was glad that she could not see
him, for it would be hard to conceal from him what had happened. She
would send him a message down town, and he could see her, undisturbed,
at their uncle’s house in the afternoon--more freely there than anywhere
else, indeed, since Robert Lauderdale was in the secret of the
clandestine marriage.

Before she left the house, Mrs. Lauderdale laid her hands upon the
girl’s shoulders and looked into her eyes with an anxious expression.

“Katharine, dear,” she said, “don’t ever let yourself think such things
as you said yesterday afternoon.”

“What things, mother?”

“About not believing--you know. You didn’t mean what you said, darling,
of course--and I’m not preaching to you. You know I promised long ago
that I would never talk about religion to you children, nor influence
you. I’ve kept my word. But this is different. Religion--well, we don’t
all agree in this world. But God--God’s for everybody, just the same,
dear. But then,” she added, quickly, “I know you didn’t really mean what
you said. Only keep the thought away, when it comes.”

Katharine said nothing, but she nodded gravely and kissed her mother on
both cheeks. At the last moment, as she was going to the door, she
stopped and turned back.

“I’m awfully sorry to bother you, mother dear,” she said, “but I’ve got
no money--not even twenty-five cents. Could you give me something? I
don’t like to be out with nothing at all in my pocket.”

The deprecating tone, the real, earnest regret at being obliged to ask
for even such a trifle, told the tale of what had gone on in the house,
unknown to the world, for years, far better than any words could have
done.

“Of course, child--I always have something, you know,” answered Mrs.
Lauderdale, promptly. “Here are ten dollars.”

“Oh--I don’t want so much!” cried Katharine. “I’m not going to buy
anything--it’s only for horse-cars, and things like that. Give me a
dollar and a little change, if you have it.”

But Mrs. Lauderdale insisted that she should take the note.

“I don’t want you to go to uncle Robert’s without a penny in your
pocket. It looks like poor relations.”

“Well--you’re always generous, mother,” answered the young girl, with a
little laugh. “But it’s papa’s relation, and not yours.”

“I know, dear--I know. But it makes no difference.”

As Katharine had anticipated, Robert Lauderdale was very glad to see
her. He was sitting in his library, into which the sun streamed through
the high windows, one of which was partly opened to let in the spring
freshness.

She thought he looked ill. He had not recovered from the effects of his
illness so quickly as Doctor Routh had expected, owing to a certain
weakness of the heart, natural enough at his age and after enduring so
severe a strain. His appetite had never returned, and he was thin in the
body and almost wasted in the face. If anything, Katharine thought he
looked worse than when she had last seen him a few days previously. But
he welcomed her with a cheery smile, and she sat down beside him.

“Come to pay me a little visit?” His voice was oddly hollow. “That’s
right! I wish you’d stay with me a few days again. But then, you’re too
gay, I suppose.”

“Not at all too gay,” laughed Katharine. “That’s exactly what I want to
do, and why I came at this hour. I wanted to ask if you’d have me for a
week, and then, if you would, I was going to send for my things. And now
you’ve spoken first, and I accept. My things are all ready,” she added,
still smiling. “You see, I knew you’d let me come.”

“Of course, little girl!” answered the old man, his sunken eyes fixing
themselves wistfully on her young face. “Ring for Leek and tell him to
send a man down at once.”

“Oh--there’s no hurry about it. I made myself as beautiful as I could
before starting--but I want to dazzle you at dinner. You sit up for
dinner, don’t you? How are you, uncle, dear? Better?”

“Yes--yes,” he answered, slowly. “I suppose I’m better. But it’s slow
work. Yes, I sit up for dinner. It makes the days shorter. They’re so
long. You look pale, my dear. What’s the matter? Too much dancing? Too
much flirting? Or what?”

“I never flirt, uncle Robert!” Katharine laughed again.

“Well, then, it’s time you began, and you’d better begin at once--with
me.”

And the old gentleman laughed, too, a queer hollow laugh that seemed to
come from his backbone, with a rattle in it. And he laid two of his
great bony fingers against the young girl’s pale, fresh cheek--as though
death played with life, and would like to kiss it.

So they chatted pleasantly together in the morning sunshine amongst the
grand old books which the rich man had collected about him. Katharine
had no intention of telling him what had happened in Clinton Place, if
she could help it. Uncle Robert did not seem to require any reason for
her sudden determination to pay him a visit, as she had done before on
more than one occasion. He was glad enough to have her, whatever her
reasons might be.

Katharine breathed the atmosphere of freedom and revived. The certainty
that for several days, at least, the perpetual contest with her father
was not to be renewed, brought colour to her cheeks and light to her
eyes. But as the time wore on towards the hour for luncheon, and she
came and went, and alternately talked with the old man and read aloud to
him a little and sat in silence, watching his face, the conviction came
over her that he could never get back his strength. The vitality was
gone out of him, and he had grown listless. She could not tell whether
he might live much longer, or not, but she felt that he had lost
something which he could never regain.

“You feel stronger, don’t you?” she asked, in an encouraging tone.

He did not answer at once, but looked at her affectionately and
dreamily.

“Don’t be worried about me, dear girl,” he said, at last. “I’m doing
very well.”

“No, but really--” Katharine’s face took an anxious expression.

“Really?” he repeated, looking at her still. Then his head fell back
against the dark red cushion. “I’m not dead yet,” he said, quietly. “But
it’s coming--it’s coming by inches.”

“Don’t say that!”

But she knew it was true, and she began to talk of other things. He,
however, seemed inclined to come back to the subject of his failing
strength.

“I should be better if they didn’t bother me,” he said. “They keep
coming to see whether I’m alive, and sending messages to enquire.
Confound them!” he exclaimed, with a momentary return of energy. “They
couldn’t send more flowers if the undertaker were in the house! What
does an old fellow like me want of flowers, I should like to know? They
may turn my grave into a flower show if they like, when I’m tucked away
in it, but I wish they’d leave me alone till I am!”

“Who are they?” asked Katharine, with some curiosity.

“The tribe, as you call the family. Your mother’s one. Didn’t she tell
you she sent me flowers?”

“No--I’ll tell her not to.”

“Don’t do that, little girl. You just let her alone. If she were the
only one--I shouldn’t care. I wouldn’t hurt her feelings for anything,
you know--and then, it means something when she sends them, because she
works for them and earns the money. But why the dickens the three Miss
Miners should think it necessary to send me American Beauties in
cardboard boxes, I can’t conceive. They’re comfortably off enough, now,
but that’s no reason, and they can’t stand the expense of that sort of
thing long. Perhaps they think it won’t last long. Of course it’s well
meant. I made Beman give them a lift with some little stocks they had
lying round, and he took an interest in the thing, I suppose, for I hear
that they’re very comfortable--ten thousand a year amongst the four of
them, with Frank--and I suppose he earns something with all his
writings, doesn’t he?”

“Oh, yes. _The Century_ gave him a hundred and fifty dollars for an
article the other day. He was so pleased! You have no idea!”

“I daresay,” said the great millionaire, gravely. “Very nice, too--a
hundred and fifty for one article. Well--he’s another. He sends me all
he writes--there’s a heap of things on the table, there. That’s his
corner, you know, because he’s the literary man of the family. And he
scribbles me little notes with them. He’s rather humble about his
work--for he says he’d really be glad if anything he turned out could
help to pass the time for me. Well--it’s nice of him, I know. But it
irritates me, somehow. As for that Crowdie, he’s the worst of the
lot--as he’s the cleverest. By the bye, what day is to-day--Thursday,
isn’t it?”

“Yes--it’s Thursday. Why?”

“Well--he’s coming before luncheon to-day. It appears that he’s painted
a picture of you. I think you said something about it last winter,
didn’t you?”

“Yes. I told you I was sitting to him. He painted it for Hester. She’s
my great friend, you know.”

“Oh, yes--so she is--so she is! Well--that’s a singular thing, too. He
said in his last note that it was for me.”

“Did he?” Katharine laughed. “You’d better take it, uncle dear--that is,
if you want it. It’s a good picture.”

“Everything the young scoundrel does is good!” growled the old man. “Do
you like him, child?”

“Like him! I perfectly loathe him--but I can’t tell why,” she added, in
quick apology. “He’s always very kind.”

“I don’t see how Walter Crowdie can be kind to my niece,” said Robert
Lauderdale, with rough pride. “Anyhow, he wants to get something out of
me. So he’s bringing the picture to me this morning. I told you what I
meant to do for them in my will. I don’t see why I should do anything.
They’re rich, those people. She had money and he gets big prices, and
I’ll do him the credit to say he’s industrious, at all events. He seems
to be a good husband to Hester, too--isn’t he?”

“She adores him,” answered Katharine.

“Well--I suppose I’m like you. I can’t tell why I dislike the man, but I
do. It’s a case of ‘Doctor Fell.’ Yes--there’s Crowdie, and the
Miners--even Ham Bright--he’s always enquiring and leaving cards! As for
your father, he writes me long letters once a week, as though I were
abroad, and he comes to see me every Sunday afternoon at four o’clock,
rain or shine.”

“Oh--that’s where he goes!” cried Katharine. “I often wondered--he
always disappears on Sunday afternoon.”

“Yes--he comes here and tells me what a solid thing the Trust Company
is, and how he’s devoting his life to it, and sacrificing his chances of
getting rich, so as to be useful. Oh, it’s very fine, I admit. But then,
he never says anything about that money of his which he keeps put away.
And I never say anything about it, either. What’s the use--it would only
make him uncomfortable.”

“But you’re quite sure he has it, uncle Robert, aren’t you?” asked
Katharine. “You’re not doing him an injustice?”

“Yes. I’ve seen it.”

“What--the money? I don’t understand.”

“I’ve seen the value of a million of money in United States Bonds, which
were the property of your father,” answered the old man. “I won’t tell
you how it happened, because a banker accidentally betrayed your
father’s confidence. It was at the time of a conversion of bonds, two
years ago. For some reason or other, Alexander--your father--couldn’t
attend to it, or do it all himself. I don’t know why. Anyhow, he
employed a banker confidentially, and I came to know the fact, and I saw
the bonds. So that settles it. He’s not squandered a million on your
clothes in the last two years, has he, little girl?”

“Hardly!” Katharine laughed. “But mightn’t it have been trust money, or
something like that?”

“No. His name was there. He’s a careful man--your father. So it couldn’t
have been a trust. Well--I was going through the list, wasn’t I? I
haven’t half finished. There’s your grandfather. Sandy never had much
sense when he was a boy. He was all heart. I suppose he knows I’m dying,
and wants me to give my soul a lift in the shape of some liberal
contributions to his charities. I wish you could see the piles of
reports he sends, and letters without end--in his queer, shaky hand.
‘Dear old Bob; what’s a million, more or less, to you, and it would make
ten thousand homes happy.’ That’s the sort of thing. Ten thousand
idiots! Give them all a hundred dollars apiece--of course they’d be
happy, for a week or two. Sandy forgets the headaches they’d have
afterwards. He believes everything’s good, and everybody’s an angel,
more or less disguised, but recognizable. Well--I suppose it’s better to
be an optimist. They’re the happy people, after all.”

“Do you think so? I don’t know. People who are always happy can’t ever
feel how happy they are sometimes, as unhappy people do. That’s what’s
so nice about being sad--now and then, when one feels gay, the world’s a
ball of sunshine. Haven’t you felt like that sometimes? I do.”

“Sometimes--sometimes,” repeated the old man, with a faint smile. “Not
lately. I’ve had so many cares. Great wealth complicates the end of
life, Katharine. You’ll be very rich. Remember that. Have your fortune
settled so that it can be easily handled when you’re old. That’s what
I’ve done, and it’s something, at all events. If I had to be picking up
odds and ends and loose threads now, it would be harder than it is. And
perhaps I’ve made a mistake. Perhaps it’s better to tell people just
what they have to expect. People worry so! Now there are all the Miners’
rich relations, you know--the Thirlwalls and the Van De Waters, and all
that set. I don’t know what they think, I’m sure. They’ve got heaps of
money, and there’s no reason on earth why I should leave them a dollar.
But they worry. Ruth Van De Water comes and brings flowers--always
flowers--I make Leek take them away--I suppose he decorates the pantry
with them--and she says her mother would so much like to take me to
drive when it’s warmer. Why? What for? And one of the Thirlwalls sent me
some cigars he’d brought from Havana with him, and old Mrs.
Trehearne--the one who’s ‘old’ Mrs. Trehearne now, since her
sister-in-law died--didn’t she toddle in the other day and say she
wanted to talk about old times!--she’s another of those holy scarecrows
that hang round death-beds. Now, she’s nothing on earth to expect of me.
It’s sheer love of worry, I believe.”

“People may be fond of you for your own sake,” suggested Katharine. “You
don’t know how nice you are! That is--when you like!”

“Well--I don’t know. It may be--but I doubt it. You see, I’ve had a good
deal of experience in the way of being liked.”

“Has it been all a bad experience? You can’t tell me that nobody ever
liked you for your own sake--never, at all. I shouldn’t believe it. The
world can’t be all bad, right through.”

“Oh, no! I didn’t say that. And I suppose I shouldn’t say anything that
looks like cynicism to you, child. Still, I must say there’s a good deal
of personal interest in the affection a rich man gets. I used to hear
that said when I was a boy, and there’s a good deal about it in
old-fashioned books, but I didn’t believe it. It’s money that makes the
world go, Katharine, my dear. It’s love for one year, perhaps, but it’s
money all the other sixty-nine out of the seventy. I’ve seen a deal of
money earned and squandered, and stolen and wasted in my time, and
there’s no denying it--money’s the main object. It keeps the world
going, and when it gets stuck in one place, as it has in my hands,
there’s an attempt--a natural attempt, I suppose--to distribute it
again. And if it doesn’t get distributed, there’s a howl of pain from
all the relations. It’s natural--it’s natural--but it doesn’t make dying
easier.”

“Don’t talk about dying, uncle dear--there’s no reason for--”

The door opened, and Leek, the butler, appeared.

“Mr. Crowdie asks if you’ll see him, sir,” he said. “He says he wrote
that he was coming this morning, sir.”

“Yes--yes. I know. Show him in, Leek.” The butler disappeared. “I’m
sorry we don’t like him,” added the old gentleman, with a rather weary
smile. “But I want to see your picture. You said it was good?”

“Very.”

There was the short silence of expectancy which precedes the entry of a
visitor, and then the door opened again and Crowdie came in. He was of
average height, but ill made, slightly in-kneed and weak-shouldered,
neither thin nor stout; pale, with a pear-shaped face and bright red
lips, beautiful brown eyes and silky brown hair which was a little too
long. His hands and feet were small--the hands being very white, with
pointed fingers, and they looked soft. He dressed well.

“It’s so kind of you to let me come, sir,” he said, as he shook hands.
“I hope you’re really better. Why, Miss Lauderdale, I didn’t expect to
see you! How do you do?”

“Thanks--how do you do? I’m staying here, you know.”

Old Lauderdale pointed to a seat. He had shaken hands with the painter,
but had not spoken.

“Yes,” he said, as Crowdie sat down, “as my niece is here, we can
compare her with her portrait. I’m very much obliged to you for thinking
of giving it to me, I’m sure. I hope you’ve brought it.”

Crowdie had grasped the situation at a glance.

“It was meant for my wife--she’s Miss Lauderdale’s most intimate friend,
you know,” he said, with fine frankness. “But we consulted about it, and
we decided that I should offer you this one and do another for her from
the sketches I have. May I have it brought in? It’s rather a big thing,
I’m afraid.”

“By all means, let’s see it,” said the old man, touching the bell at his
elbow as Crowdie rose. “The men will bring it in all right--you needn’t
go, Mr. Crowdie.”

Crowdie went towards the door, however, with an artist’s instinctive
anxiety for the safety of his work, and while he was turned away Robert
Lauderdale’s eyes met Katharine’s. They both smiled a little at the same
moment, admiring the quick-witted ingenuity with which Crowdie had
turned the difficulty of presenting the portrait to the old man while
Katharine, to whom he had said that it was for her friend,--his
wife,--sat looking on.

Two footmen, marshalled and directed by Leek, brought in the picture.

“Set it up on this arm-chair,” said Crowdie. “It will be quite
steady--so--a little more to the light--the least bit the other
way--that’ll do--thanks. Can you see it well?” he asked, turning to the
other two.

“It’s a good picture, isn’t it?” asked Katharine, after they had both
gazed at it in silence for a full minute.

“It’s wonderful!” exclaimed the old man, in genuine admiration. “It’s a
great picture, Mr. Crowdie. I congratulate you--and myself--and the
young lady here,” he added, laying his hand on Katharine’s arm as she
sat beside him.

Crowdie was pleased. He knew very well, by long experience, when
admiration was real and when it was feigned. Of late years, the true
note had rarely failed in the chorus of approval. Whatever he might be
as a man, he was a thorough artist, and a very good one, too.

“I’m so glad you like it yourself, Miss Lauderdale,” he said, coming
nearer to her as he spoke. “That’s always a test.”

“Yes--I do like it. But--I suppose I ought not to criticise--ought I? I
don’t know anything about it.”

“Oh, yes, you do. I should like to hear what you think. You’ve not seen
it for two or three weeks, and then it was in the studio. You’ve got a
new impression of it now. Tell me--won’t you?”

“Well--you don’t mind? Really not? Then I’ll tell you. I think you’ve
put something of Hester into me. Look at it. Do you see it yourself?”

“No--frankly, I don’t,” answered Crowdie, but a change came over his
face as he spoke--a mere shadow of amusement, a slight thickening of the
heavy red lips.

“It’s in the eyes and the mouth,” continued Katharine. “I don’t know
exactly what it is, but it reminds me of Hester in such an odd way--as
I’ve seen her look sometimes. There’s a little sort of drawing down of
the eyelids at the corners and up in the middle, with a kind of
passionate, longing look she has now and then. Don’t you see it? And the
mouth--I don’t know--it reminds me of her, too--the lips just parted a
little--as though they wanted something--the way one looks at big
strawberries on the table before they’re served--” Katharine laughed.

“Yes--but that’s just the way you looked,” protested Crowdie. “Doesn’t
Miss Lauderdale raise her eyes just in that way, Mr. Lauderdale?” he
asked, turning to the old gentleman.

“Oh, no!” laughed Katharine. “I never look like that. I keep my mouth
shut and glare straight at people.”

“It seems to me to be very like,” said the old man, bending forward with
his great head on one side and his hands on his knees, as he looked at
the portrait.

“It’s a great picture, anyway--whether it’s like me or not,” said
Katharine.

She was too unaffected to make any foolish remarks about being flattered
too much. She accepted the fact that she was good-looking, and said
nothing about it. Crowdie reflected for a moment, wishing to turn a
graceful compliment upon her last speech, but he could think of nothing
new. His mind was preoccupied by the discovery she had made of a fact by
no means new to himself nor, perhaps, wholly unintentional.

“Where shall we hang it, Mr. Crowdie?” asked the old gentleman, at last.

“Ah--that’s an important question. Where should you like it, sir?”

Crowdie occasionally introduced a ‘sir’ when he addressed the
millionaire, by way of hinting, perhaps, that he considered him to be
the head of the family, though his only connection was through his wife,
and that was a distant one. Hester Crowdie’s maternal great-grandfather
had been Robert Lauderdale’s uncle.

“I should like it near me,” said the old man. “Couldn’t we have it in
this room?”

“Why not? Just where it is, if you like it there. I’ll get you an easel
and a bit of stuff to drape it with in an hour.”

“An easel? H’m--that’s not very neat, is it? An easel out in the middle
of the room--I don’t know how that would look.”

“What difference does it make--if you’d like it here?” asked Katharine.

“That’s true, child--why shouldn’t I have what I like?” asked the old
millionaire.

Crowdie laughed.

“If anybody has the right and the power to please himself, you have,” he
said. “Miss Lauderdale, would you mind sitting down beside the picture
for a moment? I want to have a good look at it once more--I should just
like to see if I can find that resemblance to Hester.”

“Certainly.”

Katharine sat down, assuming easily enough the attitude she had been
accustomed to during a number of sittings. Crowdie drew back and looked
at her. Then he came to her again and put out his hand towards her hair,
but instantly withdrew it.

“I remember,” he said, quickly, but in a low voice. “You don’t like me
to touch it. Would you raise your hair a little--on the sides? You know
how it was.”

She looked up into his face and saw the expression she detested--a sort
of disagreeable smile on the heavy red lips. The feeling of repulsion
was so strong that she almost shivered. Crowdie drew back and looked
again.

“I can’t see it--for the life of me!” said Crowdie, with a little laugh.
“If you’ll excuse me, Mr. Lauderdale, I’ll go and get the easel at
once.”

“Yes--do!” said Katharine.

“Well--but--won’t you stay to luncheon, Mr. Crowdie?” asked the old man.

“Thanks--I should like to--but I’ve got a sitter coming. You’re very
kind. I’ll bring the easel myself.”

“Thank you very much. See you by and by, then,” answered Mr. Lauderdale.

When Crowdie was gone, the old man looked long and earnestly at the
picture. Gradually what Katharine meant by the resemblance to Hester
dawned upon him, and he knit his bushy white eyebrows.

“I’m sorry you told me,” he said, at last. “I see it now--what you
mean--and I don’t like it.”

“Somehow--I don’t know--it looks like a woman who’s been through
something--I don’t know exactly what. Perhaps it is like an older
woman--a married woman.”

“H’m--perhaps so. I think it is. Anyhow, I don’t like it.”




CHAPTER XI.


It was the habit of Robert Lauderdale, since he had been ill, to rest
two hours before dinner, a fact of which Katharine was well aware, and
she had sent a message to John Ralston begging him to come and see her
when he came up town after business hours. But she did not mean to let
him come without informing the old gentleman. Before he retired to his
room late in the afternoon, she spoke to him about it.

“Of course, of course, my dear,” he answered quickly, in his hollow
voice. “He may spend the day here, if he likes--and if you like.”

“Well, you see,” said Katharine, “I’ve not seen him since yesterday
morning. You know, since he’s been going regularly to business, he’s not
free in the daytime as he used to be. And as for letting him come to
Clinton Place when papa’s at home, it’s simply out of the question.”

“Is it? Do you mean to say it’s as bad as that?”

“Yes--it’s pretty bad,” Katharine answered, thoughtfully. “We’ve not
been getting on very well, papa and I. That’s why I came to you so
suddenly to-day, without warning. My mother thought it would be better.”

“Oh--she did, did she?” The old man closed his eyes, as though thinking
it over. “And she’s generally a peacemaker,” he continued, after a
moment. “That’s a sign that she thinks the situation strained, as the
politicians say. What’s happened, little girl?”

“I don’t want to tell you all the details. It’s a long story, and
wouldn’t interest you. But they got it into their heads that I ought to
marry Mr. Wingfield--you know--Archie Wingfield--the beauty--and of
course I refused him. That was yesterday afternoon. And then--oh, I
don’t know--there was a scene, and papa got angry, and so this morning
after he’d gone down town I consulted with my mother and came here. I
only wanted you to know--that’s all.”

The old gentleman was silent for some time after she had finished
speaking.

“I wish you’d induce Jack to stay here, and announce your marriage under
my roof,” he said at last, in a low voice. “I’d like to see it all
settled before--Katharine, child, feel my pulse, will you?”

Katharine started a little, and leaned forward quickly, and laid her
firm white fingers on the bony wrist.

“Can you find it?” he asked, rather anxiously.

“No--yes--wait a moment--don’t speak!” She held her breath, her eyes
fixed upon his grey face as she pressed the point where she thought the
pulse should be. “Yes--there it is!” she exclaimed suddenly, in a tone
of relief. “It’s all right, uncle Robert, only I couldn’t find it at
first. I can feel it quite distinctly now. Does it always go so fast as
that?”

“It’s going very fast, isn’t it? I have a little fluttering--at my
heart.”

“Shan’t I send for Doctor Routh?” asked Katharine, with renewed anxiety.

“Oh, no--it’s no use.” His voice was growing perceptibly more feeble. “I
shall be better presently,” he whispered, and closed his eyes again.
Then, as though fearing lest his whisper should frighten her, he made an
effort and spoke aloud again. “It often happens,” he said. “Don’t be
afraid, little girl.”

Katharine had no experience of sickness, and did not know the danger of
that fluttering at the heart in such a case. She thought he knew better
than she whether he needed anything or not, and that it would be wiser
not to annoy him with questions. She was used to manly men who said what
they wished and nothing more. He lay back in his big chair, breathing
with some difficulty. A deep furrow appeared between his eyebrows, which
gave his face an expression of pain, and his jaw dropped a little,
making his cheeks look more hollow. Katharine sat quite still for
several minutes.

“Are you suffering, uncle dear?” she asked at last, bending to his ear.

He shook his head slowly, opened his eyes a little and closed them
again.

“I shall be better in a minute,” he said, a moment later.

He revived very slowly, as she sat there watching him, and as the furrow
disappeared from his brow and his mouth closed, the look of life came
back to his face. He was a strong old man, and, though little attached
to life, was to die hard. He opened his eyes at last and looked at
Katharine, smiling a little.

“I think I’ll go to my room,” he said. “It’s my time for resting, you
know. Perhaps I’ve been up a little too long.”

To Katharine’s surprise, he was able to stand when Leek and the footman
came to help him, and to walk without much difficulty. She followed the
little procession to the door of his bedroom and saw Mrs. Deems come and
take charge of him. He turned his head slowly towards Katharine and
smiled before the door closed.

“It’s all right, little girl,” he said.

She went downstairs again and returned to the library. It faced the
south and was still warm with the sunshine. She sat down again in the
chair she had occupied before. Presently her eyes turned instinctively
to her portrait. Crowdie had brought the easel while she and her uncle
had been at luncheon, and had arranged it himself. He had come into the
dining-room, and after exchanging a few more words, had gone away again.

She gazed at the beautiful features, now that she was alone with it, and
the feeling of dislike and repulsion grew stronger, till she felt
something like what she experienced when she looked at Crowdie’s pale
face and red mouth. She felt that he had put something into the painting
which had no right there, which he had no right to imagine--yet she
could not tell what it was. Presently she rose and glanced round the
room in search of a looking-glass. But old Lauderdale did not like
mirrors, and there was none in the library. On the table, however, stood
a photograph of herself in a silver frame. She seized it as soon as she
saw it and held it up in her hand, comparing it with the portrait. She
found it hard to tell where the difference lay, unless it was in the
eyelids and the slight parting of the lips, but she felt it and disliked
it more and more.

At that moment the door was opened by one of the footmen.

“Mr. Ralston,” said the man, announcing John, who entered immediately
afterwards.

The door closed behind him as he came forward. Katharine’s heart jumped,
as she became conscious of his presence. It was as though a strong
current of life had been turned upon her after having been long alone
with death. Ralston moved easily, with the freedom that comes naturally
of good proportions. His bright brown eyes gleamed with pleasure, and
the hard, defiant lines of the lean face relaxed in a rare smile.

He kissed her tenderly, with a nervous, passionate lightness that
belongs only to finely organized beings, twice or three times. And then
she kissed him once with all her heart, and looked into the eyes she
loved.

“How good it is to have this chance!” he exclaimed, happily. “This is
better than South Fifth Avenue at nine o’clock in the morning--isn’t it?
Why didn’t we think of it before?”

“I can’t be always stopping with uncle Robert, you know,” answered
Katharine. “I wish I could.”

Something in the tone of the last words attracted his attention. With a
gentle touch he made her turn her face to the light, and looked at her.

“What’s happened?” he asked, suddenly. “There’s been some trouble, I
know. Tell me--you’ve had more worry at home, haven’t you?”

“Oh--it’s nothing!” Katharine answered, lightly. “You see how easy it is
for me to get away. What does it matter?”

“Yes--but there has been something,” insisted John, shaking his head. “I
don’t like this, Katharine.”

He turned away from her, and his eyes fell upon the portrait. It
instantly fixed his attention.

“Holloa!” he exclaimed. “Why is it here? I thought it was for Hester.”

Katharine laughed.

“He brought it this morning,” she answered. “He’s changed his mind, and
has given it to uncle Robert. How do you like it?”

John looked at it long, his eyelids drooping a little. When he turned
his head, he looked directly at Katharine’s mouth critically.

“You haven’t got a mouth like that,” he said, suddenly. “And I never saw
that expression in your eyes, either,” he added, a moment later. “What’s
the fellow been doing?”

“I don’t know, Jack. But I don’t like it. I’m sure of that, at all
events.”

“Does uncle Robert like it?”

“No. He’s anything but pleased, though he thought it splendid at first.
Then he saw what you and I see. It wasn’t so in the studio, it seems to
me. He’s done something to it since. Never mind the picture, Jack. Sit
down, and let’s talk, since we’ve got a chance at last.”

John’s eyes lingered on the portrait a moment longer, then he turned
away with an impatient movement, and sat down beside Katharine. He
stroked her hand gently two or three times, and neither said anything.
Then he leaned back in his straight chair and crossed one knee over the
other.

“Somebody’s trying to get me out of Beman’s,” he said, and his face
darkened. “I wish I knew who it was.”

“Trying to get you out of the bank?” repeated Katharine, in surprise.
“Oh, Jack, you must be mistaken.”

Jack laughed a little without smiling.

“There’s no mistake,” he said. “Mr. Beman as good as told me so this
morning. We came near having a row.”

“Tell me all about it,” said Katharine, anxiously, and leaning forward
in sympathy. “It’s outrageous--whoever has done it.”

“Yes, I’ll tell you,” said John. “It was this way. In the first place, I
went to the Vanbrughs’ last night, after all.”

“But you said you weren’t asked! I’d have gone, too--why didn’t you send
me word? At least--I’d have tried to go,” she added, recollecting that
she had spent the evening in her room.

“I found a note when I came up town. It was very informal, you know.”

“Yes--they only asked me the day before,” said Katharine. “It must have
been very amusing. They were going to do all sorts of things.”

“If you’d been there, I should have enjoyed it,” answered John. “Yes,
they did all sorts of things--improvised charades and tableaux--Crowdie
was there, and Griggs, and the set. The best thing was a tableau of
Francesca da Rimini. Hester was Francesca--you know her eyes. There they
are!” he exclaimed, looking at the portrait. “And they made me do Paolo,
and Griggs murdered me--”

“Fancy your acting in a tableau!” exclaimed Katharine.

“I never did before--but it was all improvised. Griggs looked awfully
dangerous with a black beard and a dagger. Of course I couldn’t see
myself, but they said I was dark and thin and would do; so I did it,
just to make the thing go. It was rather fun--but I kept watching the
door to see if you weren’t coming. Well--the end of it was that we
stayed very late. You know what a fellow Vanbrugh is--he’s a criminal
lawyer, of all things--and he knows all kinds of people. There was an
actor and any number of musical people, and that Russian pianist--what’s
his name?--Bezpodobny, or something like that. And we had supper, and
then we got to smoking--two or three of the women stayed. You know Dolly
Vanbrugh likes smoke, and so does Hester. I smoked some horrible Caporal
cigarettes, and they gave me a headache. But I didn’t drink anything--”

“I know, dear,” said Katharine, softly.

No one knew better than she what he had done for her sake, and how
faithfully he was keeping his word.

“Well--I got a headache, much worse than if I’d had a lot of champagne
and things. I shall have to live on milk and water and barley sugar if I
get much worse. I’m so nervous since--since I gave up all those things.
But it will go off--I’ve asked Routh, and he says it’s natural--”

“You didn’t tell me,” said Katharine, anxiously. “Why didn’t you?”

“Oh--why should I? He came to the house--he adores my mother, you know,
dear old man--so I just asked him. Well--this morning I felt rather
fuzzy in the head--woolly, don’t you know. And of course I got up early,
as usual, though it was awfully late when I got to bed. And then I saw
no red ribbon in your window--and that put me into a bad temper, so that
altogether I wasn’t in the humour to be bothered much when I got to the
bank. It happened that there wasn’t much for me to do at first, and so I
did it, and got it out of the way, and I sat doing nothing--just like
this--look here!”

He rose, and went and sat down at the chair before the great
writing-table, on the side away from Katharine. He planted his elbows on
the big sheet of blotting paper, and bending down his head, clasped his
hands over his forehead in the attitude of a man whose head hurts him.

“Do you see?” he asked, looking up at Katharine. “My head really ached,
and I’d nothing to do for a quarter of an hour, so it was quite
natural.”

“Of course! Why not? Do you have to sit up straight at the bank, like
school-children?”

“Well--old Beman seemed to think so. He came loping along--he has a
funny walk, you know--and I didn’t see him. He doesn’t often come out.
So he’d stopped right in front of me before I knew he was there. I
looked up suddenly when I heard him speak, and I jumped up. He asked
what the matter was, and I told him I had a headache, which was rash, I
suppose, considering my reputation. Then he asked me why I was doing
nothing, and I told him I’d finished what had been given me and was
waiting for more. He grunted in a displeased sort of way, and went off.
Then my head hurt me worse than ever, and I put my hands up to my
forehead again. In about five minutes, back comes old Beman, and wants
to see me in his room. What do you think he said? ‘An old and valued
friend had warned him that I had intemperate habits.’ That was a
pleasant way of opening the interview. Then he went on to say that he
had paid no attention to the old and valued friend’s warning, but that
I was so evidently suffering from the effects of over-indulgence this
morning that he felt it his duty to say that he could not tolerate
dissipated idlers in his house--or words to that purpose--and that as he
had already convinced himself by a previous trial--that was a year ago,
you know--that I had no taste for work, he begged me to consider myself
as free from any engagement on the first of next month--which struck me
as unnecessary warning, considering that I get no salary. That’s what
happened.”

“It’s abominable!” cried Katharine. “It’s outrageous! But you didn’t
take it quietly, like that, Jack? You said something?”

“Oh, yes--I said something--several things. I told him quite frankly
about myself--how I’d been rather lively, but had given it all up months
ago. It’s awful, how a thing like that sticks to one, Katharine! He was
virtuously civil--but I can’t help liking old Beman, all the same. He
didn’t believe a word I said. So I told him to ask Ham Bright, who’s
their junior partner and is privileged to be believed. Unfortunately,
Ham didn’t go to the Vanbrughs’ last night and couldn’t have sworn to
the facts. But that makes no difference. Of course, a year ago I’d have
walked out of Beman’s then and there, if he’d said such things to me,
though I suppose they were true then, more or less. It’s different
now--a good deal depends on it, and I mean to convince the old
gentleman and stay. I don’t want him to bring any tales--lies,
especially--to uncle Robert, who got me in. But it’s a wonder we didn’t
throttle each other in his office this morning. I take some credit to
myself for having behaved so well. But I confess I should like to know
who the ‘old and valued friend’ is. I’d like to be alone with him for a
few moments.”

“Yes,” said Katharine, thoughtfully. “I wish I knew. Oh, Jack, what a
shame!” she cried, with sudden vehemence. “When you’ve been trying so
hard, and have succeeded so well! Oh--those are the sins people are
burned everlastingly for--those mean, back-biting, busy-body sins,
dressed up in virtue and friendship!”

“I hadn’t thought about the everlasting side of it. I should be quite
satisfied to see the individual burn for three-quarters of an hour
here.”

“Jack--” Katharine’s face changed suddenly, as though something that
shocked her had been forced upon her mind.

“Yes--what is it? Have you guessed who it is? Do you know anything about
it? Tell me!”

“I think I know,” she answered, in a low voice, as though horror-struck
by the discovery. “I’m not sure--oh, Jack! It’s awful!”

“What’s awful? Who do you think it is?”

“No--I won’t tell you. I may be wrong, you know, and one has no right
to condemn people on a guess. But if it were--” She stopped.

“You mean your father?” asked Ralston. “Don’t you?”

Katharine was silent. She gave no sign of assent or dissent, but looked
straight into John’s eyes.

“Of course you do!” he exclaimed. “He was in the bank the day before
yesterday. Don’t you know? I told you I saw him. And he was alone with
Mr. Beman in his room. I say--Katharine--if it is, you know--”

He did not complete the sentence, but his lower jaw went out viciously
as his lips closed. Not knowing all that had passed between Katharine
and her father, he had not suspected the latter at first. It was only
when he remembered that he had told Katharine of his appearance at the
bank, which she must remember, that he understood what she meant.

“I’m not sure, Jack,” she said. “Don’t imagine that I’m sure.”

“All right--I’ll ask Mr. Beman--”

“Don’t!” cried Katharine, in sudden anxiety.

“Why not? He’s got no right to conceal the name of a man who libels me.
I shall tell him that I wish to be confronted with his informant, and
that as a gentleman he’s bound to give me the chance of justifying
myself. Of course he’ll say that he can’t send for Mr. Lauderdale to
discuss a clerk’s character. Then I think I’ll take Ham Bright with me
and go round to the Trust Company. It won’t take a quarter of an hour.”

“Of course you have a right to, Jack,” said Katharine. “Only, I hope you
won’t do that. I’m not cowardly, you know, am I? But if you knew what it
meant to live in a permanent tempest--”

“Has he been tormenting you again?” asked Ralston, quickly, and
forgetting his own troubles at the mention of hers.

She would have told him everything, and it might have been better if she
had. But he had frightened her on the previous day by threatening to
insist on announcing their marriage if she were further troubled at
home. She thought it wiser to turn back to the original point.

“If I were sure that it was papa who spoke to Mr. Beman, I could never
be civil to him again,” she said. “Can you imagine anything much worse?
I can’t. But you’re quite right to try and stay at Beman’s. It means a
great deal to uncle Robert--your sticking to regular work, don’t you
see?”

“I don’t know what will happen when he dies,” said Ralston,
thoughtfully. “Nobody else will ever do anything for me, when he’s
gone.”

“No,” answered Katharine, suppressing a smile at the thought of what
she knew, “nobody else will do anything. Let’s hope that uncle Robert
will live long enough to see you succeed. But do you know, Jack, I’m
anxious about him. Of course Doctor Routh tells him he’ll get quite well
again, and I daresay he will, but I can’t help feeling sometimes, when
I’m with him--” she hesitated. “He’s very old, you know,” she added.

They talked for some time of the old gentleman’s condition, and he would
have been pleased, could he have heard them, at their genuine hope for
his recovery. It would have balanced the sentiments of some other
members of the family as he had described them to Katharine that
morning. They had much to say to one another, and as there was no
especial reason why John should go away, he stayed, overjoyed at his
good fortune in being able to talk with her at last without the fear of
interruption and of exciting attention, which beset them when they met
at parties.

It was growing late, and the sunshine had turned red and was fading from
the splendid old books on the east wall of the room, when the door
opened and Leek appeared.

“Mr. Alexander Lauderdale wishes to speak with you, Miss Katharine,” he
said, and then glanced discreetly at Ralston.

It is necessary to say that Leek was almost as thoroughly acquainted
with the state of the family’s affairs as any member of it, and that
Alexander’s dislike of John was perfectly well known to him.

Katharine stopped in the middle of a phrase, as though she had been
struck. Ralston looked at the butler and then at Katharine, wondering
what she would say. The library, constructed with a view to avoiding
draughts, had only one door, which led into the hall, so that John could
not go out without meeting Alexander. Katharine had not believed that
her father would come to make trouble under his uncle’s roof, but he was
well acquainted with the old gentleman’s habits, and knew that he would
be resting at that hour. It was a difficult situation.

“I don’t know what to do,” said Katharine, in a low voice, helpless, at
first. “I can’t refuse to see him, since he knows I’m in. Can’t you get
out of the room, Jack?”

“There’s no other door,” answered Ralston, looking about. “Face it out.
Let him come in!”

“I daren’t--he’ll make another scene--”

“Not before me--if he begins, I’ll make him stop. You can’t send him
away,” he lowered his voice to a whisper. “Imagine what that man would
think, and what he’d tell the other servants. That settles it.”

Leek stood motionless by the door during the colloquy, which he could
not overhear, though he knew exactly what the two were saying.
Katharine hesitated a moment longer, and then gave the order.

“Ask my father to go into the drawing-room,” she said. “I’ll come in a
moment.”

Ralston laughed softly as Leek disappeared.

“What idiots we were--of course!” he said. “As though there were only
one room. Look here, Katharine,” he continued, taking her hand as she
rose, “I could slip out while you’re in there, but I’m not going to. I
want to see you afterwards. I’ll wait here.”

“Do!” answered Katharine. “I shall feel better if I know you’re here.
Not that I’m frightened--but--you understand.”

“Perfectly,” answered Ralston, looking at her.

She left the room and he closed the door behind her. She found her
father standing in the middle of the great drawing-room, in the evening
light, holding his hat, and still wearing his thin black overcoat, as
though he did not mean to stay long--an observation which reassured her.
But his face was dark and angry and his lips looked dry and cold. She
stood still at a little distance from him.

“Katharine, what is the meaning of this?” he asked, sternly. “Why are
you here?”

“You know why I’m here, papa,” answered Katharine, quietly, for she was
determined, if possible, to avoid an angry altercation.

“I suppose you mean that you’ve come here because I locked you in your
room this morning. I don’t consider that a reason.”

“I think you’ll admit that you acted hastily,” said Katharine. “Besides,
have you any objection to my paying uncle Robert a visit? I’ve been here
before in the same way, you know. You always seemed pleased. Won’t you
sit down?”

She was trying to be civil, but he was in no humour to court civility.
He paid no attention to her invitation, but remained standing in the
middle of the room.

“You understood perfectly well why I locked the door this morning,” he
said. “It’s of no use to say that I acted hastily. I intended that you
should feel my authority, and you shall. One of us two must be master.
I’ll not be browbeaten, and contradicted, and disobeyed by my own
daughter, besides submitting to any language she chooses to apply to
me.”

“Do you propose to take me back by force?” asked Katharine, with a
smile. “You know it’s impossible. Or do you mean to argue with me? You
won’t convince me, and you ought to see that you can’t.”

“In other words, you’ve left your father’s house without warning, and
not meaning to come back,” answered Alexander Junior, coldly.

“Not at all. I came here, with my mother’s consent, to make a visit.
When you agree to treat me properly, I’ll come back. I certainly won’t
stay where I’m liable to be locked up in my room by you at your
discretion. It’s not safe. You didn’t even leave the key in the house,
so that they might have brought me something to eat if I hadn’t been
able to get out.”

“You did get out.”

“By a mere chance. There happened to be a key which fitted the lock, or
I might be there still.”

“It’s where you should be. How long is this state of war to last? Do you
think I’ll endure it much longer? You’re mistaken.”

“I don’t see what you can do, if you won’t treat me like a human being.
Possibly you may get to the end of my patience, too.”

“Do you mean to threaten me? Me!” Alexander’s face darkened visibly, and
he drew himself up to his full height.

“I don’t know,” answered Katharine, keeping her temper. “I might think
it worth while to explain to uncle Robert, you know. I don’t think that
he’d be particularly pleased if he knew all you’ve done. I merely told
him that it wasn’t very peaceful in our house just now, as you wanted me
to marry Mr. Wingfield, and I wouldn’t. I’ve not told him anything
else--but I might, you know. I’m likely to be with him most of the day.
I imagine you’d rather not offend uncle Robert.”

Katharine was not prepared for the effect produced by this speech, which
was diametrically opposite to the result she had expected. She had
imagined that a reference to the will would act directly upon her
father’s love of money and make him cautious. Instead of this, however,
he grew more angry.

“If you insult me in this way again, I shall certainly use force,” he
said, in a harsh way. “You’re not of age, and I believe that the law can
constrain you to obey me, and the police will act with the law. How do
you dare to tell me that you can frighten uncle Robert into changing his
will! You’re going a little further than yesterday. I’ve warned you to
be careful. It’s your own fault if you go too far. The nearest Justice
of the Peace will give me an order to remove you to your home in an
hour. Don’t exasperate me! Put on your things and come quietly with me.
If you refuse, I’ll act at once. You shall come. I say it, and I won’t
be disobeyed.”

“And I won’t be threatened,” answered Katharine, with a rising
intonation. “As for your getting any order to remove me, as you call it,
I doubt whether you could. I rather think that uncle Robert is a much
more powerful person than you are, and that your policemen would think
twice before trying to force their way into his house. Don’t you think
so yourself?”

Her anger was up, too, and her mother was not there to come between
them. She forgot that the door of the drawing-room opened upon the same
hall as the library, but that it was not closed except by a heavy
curtain.

“And as for your saying that I’ve gone a little further than yesterday,”
she continued, her deep voice rising strong and clear in the big room,
“you’ve gone further, too. You’ve been trying to hurt me by hurting the
man I love. You’ve been to Mr. Beman, and you’ve told him that Jack is
dissipated. Yes--I thought so--it was you who said it. You can’t deny
it.”

“Certainly not!” exclaimed Alexander. “I was quite right to warn an old
acquaintance against employing such a fellow. He’s a discredit to the
bank, he’s a--”

“Stop, papa! I forbid you to say such things--”

Alexander’s great voice suddenly broke out like thunder.

“You! You forbid me to say what I please! I say that John Ralston’s a
reprobate, a man not fit to be received in decent society, a low
drunkard--”

“Oh! Is that what you say?” John Ralston drew aside the curtain, and
entered the room as he spoke.

Katharine turned pale, but her father was no coward. His steely eyes
fixed themselves on John’s face.




CHAPTER XII.


As Alexander Junior came towards him, John Ralston advanced from the
door. Katharine placed herself between them, very much as her mother had
come between her father and herself on the previous afternoon. But
Ralston laid his hand gently on her arm, and drew her back.

“Please go into the library, Katharine,” he said.

“No, no!” she cried, in answer. “I can’t leave you together--so.”

“Please go!” he repeated. “I’m angry--I must speak--I can’t before you.”

He pushed her with tender anxiety towards the door, and she felt his
hand tremble on her arm. She yielded after a little hesitation, but
paused as she reached the curtain, and looked back. John went on and
faced Alexander, supposing that Katharine had left the room.

“So it was you who spoke to Mr. Beman about me,” said Ralston, in a tone
of menace.

“You’re an eavesdropper, sir,” answered Alexander Junior, with contempt.

“As you were shouting, and the door was open, I couldn’t help hearing
what you said, Mr. Lauderdale. I was anxious about Katharine, and had
come into the hall.”

“Then you’ve heard my opinion of you. You’re not likely to change it by
trying to browbeat me.”

“I’m not browbeating you, as you call it. You’ve been saying things
about me which are untrue. You’ve got to take them back.”

Alexander Lauderdale drew himself up to his height, resting one clenched
hand upon his hip. The other held his hat. He looked a dangerous
adversary as he stood there, lean and steely, his firm face set like an
angry mask, his broad shoulders square and black against the evening
light.

“It occurs to me to ask how you propose to make me take back anything
I’ve said,” he answered.

Ralston looked at him quietly for several seconds, as a man looks who
measures another’s strength. Not that he had the slightest thought of
violence, even then; but he was a born fighter as much as Alexander, if
not more so. His instinct was always to strike rather than speak, in any
quarrel. In a hand-to-hand encounter he would have been overmatched by
the elder man, and he knew it. But that was not the reason why he
lowered his voice and tried to speak more calmly, instead of growing
hotter in altercation.

“You’ve done me a very great injustice, and you’ve almost done me a
serious injury--perhaps you really have, for Mr. Beman has turned me
out,” he said. “It’s customary, I think, for people like us to repair
such injuries as well as they can.”

“You’ve injured yourself by your habits,” answered Alexander. “I’ve a
perfect right to say so. Don’t contest it.”

“It’s contestable, at all events. I’m willing to admit that I’ve been
what’s called dissipated. More than most men, I daresay.”

“That’s undeniable, and that’s precisely what I said, or words to the
same effect.”

“I think not. You were telling Katharine just now that I was a drunkard
and a reprobate. I’ve not touched wine for months, and as for being a
reprobate--it’s a strong word, but rather vague. Since you’ve used it,
please define what you mean by it.”

“It’s a general term of disapprobation which I applied to you because I
think you’re a bad character.”

“Accusations of that sort have to be supported. You must go with me to
Mr. Beman to-morrow, and repeat what you’ve said.”

“Indeed? I shall do nothing of the kind.”

“If Mr. Beman asks you to do it, you’ll have to--at the risk of losing
your character for truthfulness.”

“Are you calling me a liar?” asked Alexander, and his voice rose angrily
as he stepped forward.

“No,” answered Ralston, calmly, but in a doubtful tone. “I’m not. But
you’ve made an accusation, and if you fail to prove it, Mr. Beman will
form his opinion about you. I formed mine long ago. I’m turning out to
be right.”

“I’m quite indifferent to your opinion,” said Alexander, contemptuously.
“And you’re not in a position to influence that of lifelong friends like
Mr. Beman. We’d better end this discussion at once. It can lead to
nothing.”

Katharine, who still stood by the door, her hand on the curtain,
devoutly wished that in this, at least, John would follow her father’s
suggestion. She had a woman’s instinctive fear of violence between
men--a fear, strange to say, which has a fascination in it. If John had
been inwardly as calm as he outwardly appeared to be, he would
undoubtedly have seen that Alexander was right in this. But the
insulting words which he had inevitably overheard rankled, as well they
might, and against all probability of success, he still hoped that
Alexander would make some acknowledgment of having been in the wrong. He
thrust his hands into his pockets and made two or three steps, his head
bent in thought. Then he turned upon his adversary suddenly again.

“Do you know--or don’t you--that I’ve given up wine since last winter?”
he enquired.

“I’ve heard it stated,” answered Alexander. “I don’t know it.”

“Well--it’s true. I tell you so now. I suppose you’ll make no further
difficulty about taking back what you said to Katharine just now--that
I’m a drunkard?”

“If you have given up wine, you are certainly not a drunkard--at
present. That’s axiomatic.” Alexander sneered.

“Will you remove the condition? I say that I have given up wine.”

“I should hesitate to accept your unsupported evidence.”

“In other words, you don’t admit that I’m speaking the truth? Is that
what you mean to say? Yes, or no.”

“I don’t accept your unsupported evidence,” repeated Alexander, pleased
with his own phrase.

“Do you know what you’re saying? It’s simply stating that I’m not to be
believed. You can’t put any other meaning upon your words.”

“I don’t wish to,” answered Alexander, driven to stand by what he had
said, but conscious that he had gone too far.

A pause followed. John was very pale. Alexander Lauderdale’s face was
dark with the blood that rose slowly under the grey olive skin. The hand
that held his hat swung quickly by his side once or twice. Ralston’s
fingers twitched nervously. By the door, Katharine held her breath.

“Look here, Mr. Lauderdale,” said John, in a low voice. “I’m not going
to strike you here, but when I meet you in the street I will.”

“Jack! Jack!” cried Katharine, rushing forward and catching his arm, and
throwing the other of her own round his neck.

She knew how much stronger her father was than he. At the sight of her,
the deep red colour appeared at last in Alexander’s face, and his anger
got the better of him altogether.

“Take your arms from that man’s neck!” he cried, furiously. “Don’t touch
him, I say!”

But Katharine did not release her hold. A woman’s idea of protecting a
man is to wind herself round him, so as to make him perfectly helpless
to defend himself.

“Let me go, dear,” said Ralston, in a voice suddenly tender, but
trembling a little.

“Katharine! Go, I say!” The white of Alexander’s eyes was bloodshot.

But Katharine tried to drag John back from him as he advanced.

“Go! Leave the room!” cried Alexander, roughly.

With a quick movement he seized her arm, almost where he had grasped it
on the previous day, and he tried to pull her away from Ralston. His
strong hand hurt her. At the same time Ralston, not seeing how tightly
Alexander held her, tried to disengage himself from her, as gently as he
could. The struggle was not apparently violent, yet Katharine was
exerting all her strength to cling to Ralston.

The floor, under the Persian rug, was highly polished. As Katharine
stood, overbalanced in her strained position, the carpet slipped under
her feet. With a short, half-suppressed cry, more of surprise than of
fear, she relaxed her hands, fell sideways, and swung downward, her arm
still in her father’s iron grip. To tell the truth, he was trying to
hold her up, though in reality he had thrown her down. Suddenly she
uttered a piercing scream, and turned livid, as she fell upon the floor,
and her father let go her arm.

At the same instant John Ralston struck Alexander Lauderdale a violent
blow on the mouth, which sent the taller man staggering back two paces.
It all happened in an instant. Alexander sprang forward again
instinctively, and struck at John, who dodged the blow and closed with
him. They were better matched at wrestling than with fists, for Ralston,
though less strong by far, was the quicker, and had the advantage of
youth. They swayed and twisted upon each other, the two lean, tough men,
like tigers.

Katharine struggled to her feet. In getting up she tried to use her
right hand, and uttered another cry of pain, as her weight rested on it
a moment in making the effort. It was quite powerless.

In a few seconds the room was full of people. Katharine’s scream had
echoed through the open door all over the house. The butler, the
footmen, and the housemaids flocked in. The cry was heard even in Robert
Lauderdale’s bedroom, and he was not asleep.

The old man started, listened, and raised himself on his elbow, at the
same time touching the bell by which he called his nurse. She had gone
out upon the landing, to try and find out what was the matter, but ran
back at the sound of the bell.

“What is it? What’s happened?” asked old Lauderdale, and there was an
unwonted colour in his face.

“I don’t know, Mr. Lauderdale,” answered the nurse, a calm, ugly,
middle-aged woman from New England. “It was a woman’s voice. Shall I go
and ask?”

“No--no!” he cried, huskily. “It was my niece--help me up, Mrs.
Deems--help me up. I’ll go as I am.”

He was clad in loose garments of white velvet--the only luxurious fancy
of his old age. He got up on his feet, steadying himself by the nurse’s
arm.

“Let me ring for the men, Mr. Lauderdale,” she said, rather anxiously.

“No, no! I can go so, if you’ll help me a little--oh, God! The child
must be hurt! Quick, Mrs. Deems--I can walk quicker than this--hold your
arm a little higher, please. Yes--we shall get along nicely so--why
didn’t I have a lift in the house! I was always so strong! Quickly, Mrs.
Deems--quickly.”

When Robert Lauderdale entered the drawing-room, he saw a crowd of
people gathering together round something which they hid from him.

“Go away! Go away!” he cried, in his hollow, broken voice.

The servants fell back at the voice of the master, only the butler
remaining at hand. Katharine was lying back in a deep arm-chair, her
broken arm resting upon a little table which had been hastily pushed to
her side. John Ralston was bending over it, and looking at it rather
helplessly, as pale as death. Opposite him, on Katharine’s left, stood
her father, his face still darkly flushed, his lips swollen and purple
from Ralston’s blow.

“Clear the room--and send for Doctor Routh,” said old Lauderdale,
turning his head a little towards Leek as he passed him.

“Yes, sir.”

“I’m afraid it’s broken,” Ralston was saying, and his hands trembled
violently as he softly passed them over Katharine’s arm.

Mrs. Deems was already undoing the buttons of the tight sleeve which
chanced to be the fashion at that time. Robert Lauderdale pushed
Alexander aside, and bent down over the chair, supporting himself with
his hands.

“Katharine--little girl--you’re hurt, dear,” he said, as gently as his
hoarseness would let him speak. “How did it happen?”

“It won’t be anything,” she said, in answer, shaking her head and trying
to smile.

“How did it happen?” repeated the old man, standing up again, and
steadying himself, as he looked anxiously at Ralston.

But Ralston did not answer at once. Across the old gentleman’s shoulder
his eyes met Alexander’s for an instant.

“Are you going to tell what you did, or shall I?” he asked, fiercely.

“What? What?” asked old Robert, in surprise. “What’s this?” He looked
from one to the other.

“Well--” Alexander began, “it’s rather hard to explain--”

“You’re mistaken,” interrupted Ralston, promptly. “It’s perfectly
simple. You threw Katharine down, and she broke her arm.”

“You--threw Katharine--down!” repeated the old man, the first words
spoken in wonder, the last in wrath.

“Not at all, uncle Robert,” protested Alexander. “Do you suppose for a
moment that I’m such a man as to--”

“I don’t care what sort of man you are!” retorted Robert Lauderdale. “If
you’ve laid hands on Katharine, you shall leave the house--for the last
time. Tell me what happened, Jack--Katharine--both of you!”

“We quarrelled and didn’t see Katharine,” said John, his brown eyes on
fire. “She thought we’d fight, and ran forward and held me round the
neck to keep us apart. Her father dragged her away violently and she
fell. Then I hit him.”

“I didn’t drag her violently--”

“Katharine--isn’t that what happened?” asked Ralston.

Old Lauderdale bent down towards her again--but there was no need of
looking into her eyes to find the truth there. Her only thought was for
Ralston, and he was speaking the truth. She loved him as few women love.
She had loved him through good and evil report, with all her soul. And
she was ruthless of others, as loving women are. For his sake, she would
have sent her father to the gallows, if he had done murder, and if the
one word which might have saved him could have done Ralston the least
hurt.

“It’s exactly as Jack says,” she answered, in clear tones. “He pulled me
from Jack and threw me down.”

Then the old man’s wrath broke out like flame. But there was a little
pause first. The blood rushed to his pale cheeks, his bony hands were
clenched, and the old veins swelled to bursting in his throat and at his
temples. The broken, harsh voice thundered and crashed as he cursed his
nephew.

“God damn you, sir! Leave my house this instant!”

Alexander Lauderdale Junior had got his deserts and more also, and he
knew it. But he stood still where he was.

“It’s useless to argue with a man in your state--” he began.

“Are you going, you damned coward?” roared old Robert. “Ring the bell,
Jack--send for the men--turn that brute out--”

He was beside himself with rage, but John glanced at Alexander, and then
walked slowly towards the nearest bell. He was not inclined to spare the
man who had injured Katharine. Perhaps most men in his position would
have carried out the orders of the master of the house. Seeing that he
was in the act to press the button, Alexander yielded. It was not at all
probable that the millionaire’s half dozen Englishmen would disobey
their master, and Robert was capable at the present moment of having him
literally kicked into the middle of the street. He had the temper that
ran through all the blood of the Lauderdale tribe, and it was up--the
fierce, Lowland Scotch temper that is hard to rouse, and long
controllable, but dangerous at the last. He had disliked and despised
his nephew for years, but had not sought occasion against him. The
occasion had come suddenly and by violence, and the wild beast in him
was let loose.

Katharine’s eyes followed her father’s tall figure, as he stalked out of
the room, with an odd expression. She was avenged for much in that
moment.

“Brute!” growled Robert Lauderdale, as he disappeared behind the
curtain.

“Infernal scoundrel!” answered Ralston, through his closed teeth.

“I’m so sorry I screamed, uncle Robert,” said Katharine. “I waked you--”

Mrs. Deems interrupted her. She had ripped the seam of the tight sleeve,
for she knew that it could not be drawn over the broken arm. On the
white flesh there were two sets of marks--the one red, and evidently
produced in the late struggle. The others were black and blue. They were
side by side, the one set a little higher than the second. The arm was
already much swollen. Mrs. Deems had listened in silence to what had
been said, and her womanly heart had risen in sympathy for Katharine.
She touched Robert Lauderdale’s sleeve, and pointed to the old marks on
Katharine’s arm, calling his attention to them.

“Those weren’t made now, Mr. Lauderdale,” she said, in a low,
matter-of-fact tone.

“No--it was last night,” said Katharine, rather faintly. “Jack,
dear--get me a cup of tea. I don’t feel well.”

Ralston hurried away, saying something to himself which was not audible
to the others, and which may as well be omitted here. The black and
white of paper and ink make youth’s blood seem too red. Old Lauderdale’s
anger was still at the boiling-point, and broke out again.

“Do you mean to say that he’s been maltreating you, child?” he asked,
his face reddening again. “If he has--”

“No--not exactly, uncle dear--I’ll tell you--but--I’m a little faint.
Don’t worry.”

She sighed and closed her eyes, as she finished speaking. She was in
great pain now that the arm was swelling.

“Best not talk, Mr. Lauderdale,” said Mrs. Deems. “I’ll get some ice and
napkins.”

And she also left the room. The old man, alone with Katharine, bent over
her with difficulty, and kissed her white forehead. His old head
trembled as he raised himself again and looked shyly round, as though he
had done something to be ashamed of. The young girl opened her eyes,
smiled a little, and closed them again at once.

“Do you feel very ill, little girl?” asked Robert Lauderdale.

There was something pathetic in the evident attempt to make his
unnatural, hollow voice sound gentle and kind, and he stroked her thick
black hair with one bony hand, while the other rested on the back of the
chair.

“Oh, no--it’s nothing--only the pain in my arm. Don’t be frightened,
uncle Robert--I’m not going to die!”

She tried to laugh to reassure him. Then a sharp twinge from the broken
limb drew her face. The expression of her suffering was instantly
reflected in the old man’s features, and his bushy white eyebrows bent
themselves.

“Routh will be here in a minute,” he said, as though reassuring her.
“I’ve sent for him.”

She nodded her thanks, but said nothing. Then with her left hand she
found one of his, and pressed it affectionately. He lifted hers, and
pressed his bearded lips to it softly.

“It will be the worse for him,” he said, consoling her, as many men
console women, with the promise of vengeance.

In his mouth the words might mean much. There are few things which a
just man, justly angry, cannot accomplish against an offender, with the
aid of eighty millions of working capital, so to say. Moreover, Robert
Lauderdale was not dead yet, and could so change his will, if he
pleased, as to keep Alexander from ever receiving any share whatsoever
of the great fortune.

But Katharine was avenged already, and wished no further evil to her
father. She had seen him humiliated and driven from the house, and she
had felt that he was not her father, but the man who had insulted and
cruelly wronged John Ralston, her lawful husband. She had not seen the
blow Ralston had struck, for at that moment she had just fallen to the
floor. But all the rest had happened before her eyes, and she had
neither spoken word nor made sign to spare him. So far, she had been
utterly merciless.

Afterwards, she wondered how she could have been so utterly hard and
unforgiving, and tried to remember what she had felt, but she found it
impossible. It is hard to recall an old scald when one is floating in
cool water. Not that she ever forgave her father for what he did and
said during those twenty-four hours--that is, in the sense of forgiving
entirely and thinking of him as though nothing had happened. That would
have been impossible--perhaps it would have been scarcely human. The
virtue that turns the other cheek to be smitten is in danger of having
its head broken by the second buffet, for cowardice takes arms of
charity. But they did not quarrel to the end of their natural lives, and
it seemed strange to Katharine, at a later period, that she should have
looked on with a calm satisfaction that soothed her bodily pain while
Robert Lauderdale ordered her father to be forcibly turned out of the
house. But that is not strange, for humanity’s hardest present problem
is almost always the problem of yesterday, which is in black and white,
rather than the expectation of to-morrow, confusedly shadowed upon the
mist of what is not yet, by the light of the hope of what may be.

There was a sort of justice, too, in the fact that Robert Lauderdale,
who had once quarrelled with John during the winter, should now be
taking his side, and be forced to take it by every conviction of
fairness. The only thing which Katharine could not understand was her
father’s own behaviour towards his uncle. It was in accordance with his
temper that he should behave to her as he had behaved, and to John
Ralston also. But it would have seemed more natural that he should have
controlled himself, even by a great effort, rather than have risked
offending the possessor of the fortune. On that afternoon he had seemed
from the first to be braving the old man’s anger. This was a mystery to
Katharine. It seemed almost like premeditation. Yet she knew her
father’s limitations, and was sure that he was not able to form a deep
scheme and carry it out, while mystifying every one who looked on. He
was dull, he was methodical, he was exact. He was also miserly, as she
had lately discovered. But he was a man to keep a secret, rather than to
produce one which should need keeping, and she almost suspected that he
had lost his senses out of sheer anger, though she knew that he was able
to control his temper longer than most men, when he pleased.

So far as the present was concerned, she felt, as she might well feel,
that she was amply avenged, and when Robert Lauderdale seemed to be
threatening further vengeance, she protested.

“Don’t make it any worse, uncle Robert,” she said, with an effort, for
she was growing very faint. “But you must keep me here till I’m well, if
you will. I can’t go home to him now.”

“Of course, child--of course! Should you like your mother to come and
take care of you?”

“Oh, no--thank you--let me be with you. We’ll be invalids together, you
know.” She smiled again, opening and closing her eyes. “Don’t forget
yourself, now,” she continued. “You’ve had too much exertion--too much
excitement--sit down and rest--here they come with the tea and things.”

John and Mrs. Deems entered in close succession. John had insisted upon
bringing the tea-tray himself, after overcoming Leek’s objection with
the greatest difficulty. But Leek appeared, nevertheless, playing
footman to Ralston as butler, so to say, and bearing a folding stand,
which he set down beside Katharine. Mrs. Deems had a bowl of ice and a
pile of napkins, with which she intended to cool Katharine’s arm until
Dr. Routh arrived.

“Beg pardon, sir,” said Leek to the old gentleman. “The old brougham was
just in with the bays, from exercise, William said, sir, so I sent him
as he was for Doctor Routh, sir. I hope I did right, sir?”

“Quite right, Leek--very sensible of you,” answered the old gentleman.
“Just help me to a chair, will you? I’m a little stiff from standing so
long. And get us some light. It’s growing dark.”

Leek and Ralston installed him in a comfortable chair on the other side
of the tea-table. Mrs. Deems was packing Katharine’s arm in ice. The
young girl’s face twitched nervously at first, but grew calmer as the
cold began to overcome the inflammation.

Old Lauderdale watched the operation with interest and sympathy. No one
but Mrs. Deems knew what Katharine must have suffered before she began
to feel the effects of the ice. Ralston stood by in silence, looking at
Katharine’s face and ready to help if he were needed, which was far from
probable. He was still pale, and the passions so furiously roused were
still at work within him. He could not help dreaming of his next
meeting with Alexander Junior, wondering when it would take place and
what would happen; but he had the deep and incomparable satisfaction of
an angry man who has dealt his enemy one successful blow. There had been
nothing wrong about that blow--it had gone straight from the shoulder,
it had not been parried, and it had crushed the mouth he hated. And even
afterwards, in the struggle that had followed, Alexander had not thrown
him, in spite of size and weight in his favour--these had been matched
by youth and quickness. The moment the two men had seen that Katharine
was hurt, they had loosed their hold on one another and gone to her,
just as the servants had rushed into the room. But John was not
satisfied, as Katharine was. He had tasted blood, and he thirsted for
more--to have his fight out, and win or be beaten without interference.
He meant to win, and he knew he could make even defeat dangerous, for he
was quick of his hands and feet, and tough.

Of the three, old Robert was the first to regain his equanimity. Of all
the Lauderdale tempers, his was the least hard to rouse and the soonest
to expend itself, and therefore the least dangerous. It was commonly
said among them that Katharine Ralston, John’s mother, who had hardly
ever been seen angry, had the most deadly temper in the family, though
it was not easy to tell on what the tradition rested. John and Alexander
had certainly not the best, and it was safe to predict that when they
met again there would be war.

The old gentleman had made very unwonted exertions that afternoon, and
before she had finished doing what she could for Katharine’s arm, Mrs.
Deems became anxious about him. His cheeks grew hollow, and as the blood
sank away from them his face became almost ghastly. Ralston looked at
him attentively and then glanced at the nurse. She nodded, and got a
stimulant and gave it to him, and felt his pulse, and shook her head
almost imperceptibly.

“How long is it since the doctor was sent for?” she asked of Ralston, in
a low voice.

“It must be twenty minutes, I should think.”

“Oh--longer than that, I’m sure!” exclaimed Katharine, whose suffering
lengthened time.

“He’ll be here presently, then,” said Mrs. Deems, somewhat reassured.
“How do you feel, Mr. Lauderdale? A little weak?”

“All right,” growled the broken voice. “Take care of Katharine.”

But he did not open his eyes, and spoke rather as though he were
dreaming, than as if he were awake.

“Provided he’s at home,” said Ralston, half aloud and thinking of the
doctor. “Hadn’t we better send for some one else, too?”

He addressed the question to everybody, in a general way.

“Best wait till the carriage comes back,” suggested Mrs. Deems.

This seemed sensible, and a silence followed which lasted some time.
Ralston stood motionless beside the nurse. Katharine had swallowed some
tea and lay quietly in her chair, while the skilful woman did her best
with the ice and napkins. The old man’s jaw had dropped a little, and he
was breathing heavily, as though asleep. Mrs. Deems did not like the
sound, for she glanced at him more and more uneasily.

“There, Miss Katharine,” she said, at last, “that’s the best we can do
till the doctor comes. I think it’s only the small bone that’s broken,
but I don’t like to handle it. I guess it’s better to leave it so till
he comes. Best not try to move yourself.”

Then she went round the table to old Lauderdale again, listened
attentively to his breathing and felt his pulse.

“Are you asleep, Mr. Lauderdale?” she asked, almost in a whisper.

The jaw moved, and he spoke some unintelligible words.

“I can’t hear what you say,” said Mrs. Deems, bending down anxiously.

He cleared his throat, coughed a little and spoke louder.

“Take care of Katharine,” he said, still without opening his eyes.

“Don’t worry about me, uncle Robert,” said Katharine, looking at him
with anxiety.

Both she and Ralston turned enquiring glances to Mrs. Deems. She merely
shook her head sadly and said nothing. Ralston beckoned to her to come
and speak with him. She poured out another dose of the old man’s
stimulant and set it to his lips. He swallowed it rather eagerly and
without difficulty. Then she glanced at Ralston and left the room. A
moment later he followed her, and found her waiting for him on the other
side of the curtain.

“You’re very anxious, aren’t you, Mrs. Deems?” he enquired, in a
whisper.

“Well,” she answered, “I suppose I am. I guess he’s had a strain with
this trouble. I do wish the doctor’d come, though. It’s a long while
since they went for him.”

“Don’t you think he’s in danger now--that he might go off at any
moment?” asked Ralston.

“Well--they do--with heart failure. That’s the danger. But it’s a strong
family, Mr. Ralston, and he’s been a strong man, old Mr. Lauderdale,
though he’s as weak as a babe now. You just can’t tell, in these cases,
and that’s the fact.”

There was a sound of wheels. A moment later Leek appeared.

“Doctor Routh can’t be found, sir,” he said. “They’ve been to his house
and to two or three other places, but he can’t be found, sir. So I’ve
sent for Doctor Cheever. He’s always on call, as they say in this
country, sir.”

“Quite right, Leek,” answered Ralston.

He looked round for Mrs. Deems, but she had gone back into the
drawing-room. She was evidently very anxious.




CHAPTER XIII.


Robert Lauderdale’s condition was precarious, and Mrs. Deems was well
aware of the fact as the minutes passed and neither of the doctors who
had been sent for appeared. It was Doctor Routh’s custom to come a few
minutes before dinner time, as well as in the morning, and his visit at
that hour was almost a certainty. As ill-luck would have it, Doctor
Cheever was also out when the carriage reached his house, having been
called away a few moments previously. Urgent messages were left for
both, and the brougham returned empty a second time. So far as the old
gentleman was concerned, Mrs. Deems knew well enough how to do what lay
in her power, and she could do nothing more than she had done for
Katharine already. But she knew how the least delay in setting a broken
bone increased the difficulty and the pain when it came to be done at
last, and her anxiety about Robert Lauderdale did not prevent her from
feeling nervous about the young girl.

No one spoke in the great drawing-room where the old man and Katharine
lay with closed eyes in their chairs, while the nurse and Ralston sat
watching them. But when Leek came with the news that Doctor Cheever
could not be found, either, Mrs. Deems was roused almost to anger.

“You’ve got to get a surgeon, anyway,” she said, sharply, to Ralston.
“If you don’t, they’ll have a bad time when it comes to setting her arm.
Mr. Lauderdale I can manage, perhaps, till the doctor comes, but I’m no
bone-setter.”

Ralston left the room, took the carriage, and went himself in search of
a surgeon, and returned with one in less than a quarter of an hour. A
few minutes later Doctor Routh appeared, and last of all came young
Doctor Cheever. Then everything was done quickly and well. The three
practitioners understood one another without words, and the machinery of
the great house of the old millionaire did their bidding.

But Doctor Routh shook his head when he was alone with John Ralston half
an hour later.

“I don’t like the look of things,” he said. “Of course, there’s no
telling about you Lauderdales. You’re pretty strong people all round. I
don’t want any confidences. I don’t want to know what’s happened. I can
see the results, and they’re enough for me. You’re a quarrelsome set,
but you’d better have managed to fight somewhere else. I’m afraid you’ve
killed him this time. However--there’s no telling.”

“How about Miss Lauderdale?” asked John, anxiously. “How long will she
be laid up?”

“Oh--three or four weeks. But they must keep her quiet for a day or two,
until the inflammation goes down. When the bone’s begun to heal and the
arm’s immobilized, she can be about. It’s no use your staying here. You
can’t see either of them. But if I were you--I don’t say anything
positive, I’m only giving you a hint--if I were you, I’d be at home this
evening. If things get worse, I’ll send for you.”

“Are you going to stay yourself?” asked Ralston.

“Of course. Practically, as far as one can judge, your uncle’s dying.
You may just as well be here as any one else. He’s very fond of you, in
spite of your little tiff last winter. You’re the only man in the family
he’d like to see, and you won’t be in the way.”

It was his manner of putting it. At any other time Ralston would have
smiled at the idea of being ‘in the way’ of death.

“I suppose there’s really no hope,” he answered, gravely. “But the only
person he’d really wish to have with him is Miss Lauderdale.”

“Well--that’s impossible, my dear boy. She can’t be running about the
house in the middle of the night with her arm just broken. It might be
dangerous.”

“You’d better not let her know if anything happens, then--or she will.”

John Ralston left the house very reluctantly at last, and returned to
his home, feeling broken and helpless, as people who have nervous
organizations do feel when they have been under great emotion and are
left in anxiety. Naturally enough, Katharine’s present condition was
uppermost in his mind, and every step which took him further from her
was an added pain. But a multitude of other considerations thrust
themselves upon him at the same time, and he asked himself what was to
happen on the morrow.

He had made up his mind, before Alexander Junior had left the house,
that it was absolutely necessary to put an end to the present situation
at once, and to declare his marriage without delay. He had never wished
it to be kept a secret, and he had now the best of reasons for insisting
that it should be made public. He might have been willing to believe
that Katharine’s fall had been an accident, and that her father had not
meant to hurt her, but the fact remained that the accident had occurred
through his brutal roughness, with the result that John had struck the
elder man in the face. It was not safe for Katharine to stay any longer
in her father’s house.

On the other hand, it seemed clear that Robert Lauderdale was near his
end. It was hardly to be hoped that he could survive the strain of his
late fit of passion, weakened as he was and old. Even Doctor Routh
thought it improbable. What would happen if he died that night? If
Katharine had to be moved,--she could scarcely stay in the house after
the old man was dead,--to whose house should she go? John swore,
inwardly, that she should not return to her father’s. And he thought,
too, of his next meeting with the latter. Society would be amazed and
horrified to hear that they had actually come to blows. Society,
especially in our country, detests the idea of personal violence. Its
verdict is against any use of such means to settle difficulties.
Society, therefore, must be kept in ignorance of what had happened. No
one had seen the blow, not even Katharine, who had just fallen to the
floor. She alone had seen John and her father struggling, for they had
loosed their hold on seeing that she was hurt, and the servants had
found them bending over her. Consequently, a great part of what had
happened would be kept secret. Robert Lauderdale would not speak of it,
and Mrs. Deems was bound to secrecy by her profession. John wondered how
Alexander Junior would meet him, however, and whether there was to be
any renewal of hostilities.

Altogether, when he let himself into his own house, he was in need of
counsel and advice. There was no one but his mother to whom he cared to
appeal for either. She had known all along of his devotion to Katharine
Lauderdale, though she knew nothing of the secret marriage. She knew
how hard Katharine’s life was made in the girl’s own home, by her
father’s determined opposition to the match, and John had told her
something of other matters--how old Robert had confided to Katharine
what he meant to do with his money, and how her father had tried to
force her to betray the confidence. Ralston was puzzled, too, by
Alexander Junior’s evident willingness to quarrel with his uncle, or at
least by his determination to make no concessions whatever to him, and
wondered whether his mother could not suggest some explanation.

Mrs. Ralston was, in some ways, very like her son, and the two
understood one another perfectly. It would, perhaps, be more accurate to
say that she had made him like herself, not intentionally, but by force
of example, a result very unusual in the relations between mother and
son. She was by no means a manlike woman, but she possessed many of the
qualities which make the best men. She was fearless and truthful, and
she was more than that--she had a man’s sense of honour from a man’s
point of view, and admitted to herself that honour was the only religion
in which she could believe. Like Katharine, she, the elder Katharine
Lauderdale, had been brought up amidst contradictory influences, and had
then married the Admiral, a brave officer, a man of considerable
scientific attainments, and a determined agnostic, of the school of
thirty years ago, when many people believed that science was to bring
about a sort of millennium within the next few years. In that direction
she went further than her son. Her sense of fairness had shown her how
unfair it would be to make an unbeliever of him before he was old enough
to judge for himself, and in this idea she had made him go to church
like other boys, and had persuaded his father not to talk atheism before
him. The result had been to produce, more or less, the state of mind
typical in these last years of the century, amongst a certain class of
people who are collectively described as cultured, though they cannot
always be spoken of individually as cultivated. John felt that he
believed in something, but he had not the slightest idea what that
something might be, and did not take the smallest trouble to find out.
In this respect he differed from Katharine. Under very similar
conditions, the young girl vacillated between a set of undefinable but
much discussed beliefs, which included pseudo-Buddhism, Psychological
Research, the wreck of what was for a few years Theosophy, and the
latest discoveries in hypnotism, taken altogether and kneaded into an
amorphous mass, on the one hand, while, on the other, she was attracted
by the rigid forms of actual Christianity, widely opposed, but nearest
in whole-heartedness, which are found in the Presbyterian and the Roman
Catholic churches. But John’s mother was a peaceable agnostic, who had
transferred the questions of right, wrong, and ultimate good before the
tribunal of honour which held perpetual session in her heart.

She never discussed such points if she could avoid doing so, and if
drawn into discussion against her will, she said frankly that she wished
she might believe, but could not. In dealing with the world, her
strength of character, her directness and her humanity stood her in good
stead. In her heart’s dealings with itself, she thought of Musset’s
famous lines--‘If Heaven be void, then we offend no God. But if God is,
let God be pitiful!’ And she offended no one, nor desired to offend any.
She had in life the advantage, the only one, perhaps, which the agnostic
has over the believer--the safety of her own soul was not in the balance
when the humanity of others appealed to her own. He who believes that he
has a soul to save can be unselfish only with his bodily safety.

Mrs. Ralston was eminently a woman of the world in the best sense of an
expression which many think can mean no good. She had never been
beautiful and had never been vain, but she had much which attracts as
beauty does, and holds as no beauty can. Of the Lauderdales now living,
she was undeniably the most gifted. Katharine might have rivalled her,
had she developed under more favourable circumstances. But with the
education she had received, good as it had been of its kind, it was not
probable that the young girl would grow up into such a woman.

Yet Mrs. Ralston had no accomplishments, in the ordinary sense of the
word. Her husband used to say that this was one of her chief attractions
in his eyes--he hated women who played the piano, and sang little songs,
and made little sketches, for the small price paid by cheap social
admiration, and greedily accepted by the performer of such tricks. There
were people who did such things well, and whose business it was to do
them. Why should any one do them badly? Mrs. Ralston never attempted
anything of the sort.

On the other hand, she was well acquainted with a number of modern
languages, and knew enough of the classics not to talk about ‘reading
Horace in the original Greek,’ which is as much knowledge in that
direction, perhaps, as a woman needs, and as most men have occasion to
use in daily life. She had read very widely, and her criticism, if not
that of pure reason, was that of a clear judgment. She had found out
early what most people never learn at all, that she could widen her
experience of life vicariously by assimilating that of other people, in
fact and even in fiction. Good fiction is very like reality. Bad fiction
is generally made up of fragments of reality unskilfully patched
together. She picked out truths wherever she found them, and set them in
their places in the body of all truth.

She was, in a way, the least American of all the Lauderdales. She
herself would have said, on the contrary, from her own point of view,
that she was the most really American in the tribe. She loved the
country, she especially loved New York, and she loved her own people
better than any other with which she was acquainted. This strong
attachment to everything American was in itself contrary to the ideas of
most persons with whom she was brought into close relations. What calls
itself society, pre-eminently, and numbers itself by hundreds, and shuts
itself off as much as possible, requiring those who would be counted
with it to pass a special examination in the subjects about which it
happens to be mad at the time--Society with a capital letter, in fact,
is tired of work, it associates home with hard labour and a bad climate,
and Europe with fine weather, idleness, and amusement. ‘They manage
those things better in France,’ expresses New York society’s opinion of
things in general apart from business. Mrs. Ralston differed from
Society, and thought that many things were managed quite as well in
America.

“That’s because you’ve been abroad so much, my dear,” said her friends.
“Wait till you’ve lived ten years at a stretch in New York. You’ll
think just as we do. You won’t like it half so much. And besides--think
of clothes and things!”

Now Mrs. Ralston did think of ‘clothes and things.’ She had never been
beautiful, but she had in a high degree the strength and grace
distinctive in many of the Lauderdales. She was tall, long-limbed,
slight as a girl, at five and forty years of age, less strong than
Katharine, perhaps, though that might be doubted, and certainly lighter
and much thinner. She, too, was dark--a keen, strong face, like her
son’s, with the same bright brown eyes, and the same fine hair, though
not nearly so black, but her face was kindlier than his, and far less
sad. She had possessed the power of enjoying things for their own sake
as long as Mrs. Lauderdale, Katharine’s mother, who had kept her faculty
of enjoying the world subjectively, with little interest in it for
itself, but with the intensely strong attachment of easily satisfied
personal vanity. The difference was, that the one form of enjoyment was
doomed to destruction with the beauty which was its source, while the
other increased with the ever broadening and deepening humanity in which
it found its dominant interest. If Mrs. Lauderdale had been shut off
from the gay side of social existence for a time, as Mrs. Ralston had
been in the first years of her widowhood, she would have become sour
and discontented. Mrs. Ralston had seen where the real bitterness of
life lay, and the bitterness had appealed to her heart almost as much as
ever the sweetness had. She had suffered in some ways much, but not
long; she had been disappointed more than once, but had been repaid.

Above all, she was her son’s friend. She had lived a woman’s life, and
in him she was living a man’s life, too. She had felt a mother’s fears
for him, a mother’s sympathy in his failures, in his downheartedness, in
the love for Katharine which had met with such bitter opposition. She
had almost known a mother’s despair in believing him lost and truly
worthless, and when she had found out her mistake, a mother’s triumph
had made her heart beat fast. And little by little through the last
months she had seen the man’s real character coming to the surface in
its strength and boldness, outgrowing the boyish weakness, the youthful
faults that were not vices yet and never would be now, and it was as
though the growth had been in her own heart, giving to herself new
interest, new life, and new vitality.

And John Ralston had forgotten that one hour in which she had doubted
him, though at the time he had found it hard to say that he ever should.
She was his best friend and was becoming his closest companion. Even
Katharine could not understand him so well, for she knew too little of
the world yet. She had given him her heart, and her sympathy was all
his, but neither the one nor the other was yet quite grown.

John and his mother dined alone together that evening, and afterwards
went upstairs and sat in a room which was called John’s study, by
courtesy, as it had been called the Admiral’s study when his father was
alive. It was a quiet, manlike room, with a small bookcase and a large
gun-rack, huge chairs covered with brown leather, an unnecessarily large
writing-table, a certain number of trophies of the chase, a well-worn
carpet and curtains that smelled of cigars. Mrs. Ralston had been
accustomed all her life to the smell of tobacco, and rather liked it
than otherwise. She settled her graceful figure comfortably in one of
the chairs, and Ralston sat down opposite to her in another and began to
smoke.

“There’s been a row, mother,” he began. “I couldn’t tell you before the
servants, but I’m going to tell you all about it now. I want your advice
and your help--all sorts of things of you. I’m rather worried.”

“Do you think I couldn’t see that in your face, Jack?” asked Mrs.
Ralston, smiling as she met his eyes. “There’s a certain line in your
forehead that always comes when there’s trouble. What is it, boy?”

John told his story briefly and accurately, without superfluous
comment, and as much of what had happened in Katharine’s life as she had
confided to him. He made it clear enough that she was being tormented to
give up Robert Lauderdale’s secret, and if he dwelt unduly upon any
point, it was upon this. Mrs. Ralston listened attentively. When he came
to the scene which had taken place on that afternoon, she leaned forward
in her chair, breathless with interest.

“Oh, Jack!” she cried. “You always seem to be fighting somebody!”

“Yes--but wasn’t I right, mother?” he asked, quickly. “What could I do?
He acted like a madman, and he dragged Katharine from me and whirled her
off upon the floor as though he’d been handling a man in a free fight. I
couldn’t stand that.”

“No--of course you couldn’t,” answered Mrs. Ralston. “I don’t see what
you could have done but hit him, I’m sure. And yet it’s a shocking
affair--it is, really. I’m afraid it’s cost uncle Robert his life, poor,
dear old man!”

“Poor man!” echoed Ralston, thoughtfully. “Routh didn’t seem to think he
could live through the night. We may get word at any moment.”

“The wonder is that he didn’t die then and there. And there’s no one
with him, either--Katharine laid up in her room--why didn’t you stay in
the house, Jack?”

“Routh wouldn’t let me. He’s there. He told me I should only be in the
way and that he’d send for me, if anything happened. It’s an odd thing,
mother--but there’s no one to go to uncle Robert but you and I and
cousin Emma. He’d have a fit if he saw cousin Alexander. And of course
the old gentleman can’t go.” He meant Robert’s brother.

“No--of course not.”

A short silence followed, and Mrs. Ralston seemed to be thinking over
the situation.

“Well, Jack,” she said, at last, “what are we going to do? This state of
things can’t go on.”

“No. It can’t. It shan’t. And I won’t let it. Mother--you know we talked
last winter--you said that if ever I wanted to marry Katharine--wanted
to! Well--that we could manage to live here--”

It would be hard to give any adequate idea of the reluctance with which
John approached the subject. Short of the consideration of Katharine’s
personal safety, which he believed to be endangered by the life she was
made to lead, nothing could have induced him to think of laying the
burden of his married life upon his mother’s comparatively slender
fortune. Although half of it was his, for she had made it over to him by
a deed during the previous winter, out of a conviction that he should
feel himself to be independent, yet he had never quite accepted the
position, and still regarded all there was as being, morally speaking,
her property. But now she met him more than half way.

“Jack,” she said, almost authoritatively, “if Katharine will marry you,
marry her to-morrow and bring her here.”

“Thank you, mother,” he answered, and was silent for a moment.

“We can live perfectly well--just as well as we do now. One person
more--what difference does it make?”

“It would make a difference--more than you think,” answered John. “But
there’s another thing about it, mother--there’s a secret I’ve kept from
you for a long time. I must tell you now. You must be the first to know
it. But I want to ask you first not to judge what I’ve done until I’ve
told you all about it.”

“Is it anything bad, Jack?” asked Mrs. Ralston, with quick anxiety,
bending far forward in her chair, while all her expression changed.

“No, mother--don’t be frightened. It’s this. Katharine and I were
married last winter.”

“Married!” cried Mrs. Ralston, in amazement. “Married!” she repeated in
a tone which showed that she was deeply hurt. “And you did not tell me!”

She said nothing more for a few moments, and John was silent, too,
giving her time to recover from her astonishment. She was the first to
speak.

“Either Katharine made you marry her, or you must have had some very
good reason for doing such a thing, Jack,” she said. “It’s not like you
to get married secretly. When was it?”

“It was on that day when I was so unlucky. When I lost my way, and
everybody thought I’d been drinking.”

“Jack! Do you mean to say that you had that on your mind, too? Oh, Jack
dear, why didn’t you tell me?”

“In the first place, I’d said I wouldn’t. The reasons seemed good then.
They haven’t seemed so good since. I’ll tell you the idea in two words.
We were to be privately married. Then we were to confide in uncle
Robert, expecting that he would find me something to do, that I could do
whatever he proposed well enough to earn a living without accepting
money as a gift. There was where the disappointment came. I found out
afterwards how true what he said was. Everybody’s on the lookout for a
congenial occupation that means living out of doors and enjoying
oneself. He said there was nothing to be done but to go back to Beman’s
and work at a desk for a year. Then he’d push me on. He tried to make me
take a lot of money, but I wouldn’t. I’m glad of that, anyhow. So we’ve
never said anything about it, except to him. But now something must be
done.”

“But you could have brought her here any time in these four months--at
least, you might have told me and I would have helped you.”

“I know--but then, it would have been a burden on you, as it’s going to
be now.”

“A burden! Don’t say such things.”

“Only that now--well--I don’t like to say it, but dear old uncle Robert
isn’t going to live long, and then you’ll be rich, compared to what you
are now, even if he only leaves you what he’d think a small legacy.”

“Yes--that’s true,” answered Mrs. Ralston, thoughtfully. “Isn’t life
strange, Jack?” she continued, after a short pause. “We’re both very
fond of him. We shall miss him very much more than we realize. I think
either you or I would do anything we could, and risk anything, to save
his life--and yet we can’t help counting on the money he’s sure to leave
us when he dies. I suppose most people would call it heartless to speak
about it, though they’d think about it from morning till night. But I
don’t think we’re heartless, do you?”

“No,” answered John, “I don’t. Not that it would be a crime if we were.
People are born so, or they aren’t. We can’t all be rough plastered with
goodness and stuccoed with virtue on top of it. We’re natural, that’s
all--and the majority of people aren’t. I don’t wish uncle Robert to
die, any more than you do, or than any one does, except cousin
Alexander. It’s only reasonable for us who are young to think of what we
may do when he’s gone, since he’s so old.”

“Yes, I suppose so,” assented Mrs. Ralston. “So you’ve been married all
these months! It hurts me a little to think that you shouldn’t have told
me. I’d have helped you. I’m sure I could have made it easier. But I
see--you were afraid that I should have to go without my toilet water
and have to wear ready made gloves, or some such ridiculous thing as
that! Married! Well--I’m not exactly sentimental, but I’d rather looked
forward to your wedding with Katharine. I always knew you’d marry her in
the end, and I liked to think of it. I’m glad, though--I’m glad it’s
done and can’t be undone, in spite of her father. Tell me all about it,
since you’ve told me everything else.”

It was not a long story--how Katharine had persuaded him, much against
his will, how he had found a clergyman willing to perform the ceremony,
and how Katharine and he had gone to the church early in the morning.

“And now she is Katharine Ralston, too, like me--and I’ve got a
daughter-in-law!” Mrs. Ralston smiled dreamily.

After the first moment of surprise and after the first sharp pain she
had felt for her son’s want of confidence in her, as she regarded his
secrecy, the news did not seem to disturb her much. For years she had
been convinced that Katharine was destined to be her son’s wife, and for
many months she had felt sure that, with his nature, his happiness and
success in life depended entirely upon his marrying her. She was
heartily glad that it had come, though, as she said, she had often
looked forward to the wedding as to something very bright in her own
existence.

“Jack,” she said, “leave it to me to set matters straight with the rest
of the family, will you?”

“Why--mother--if you think you can--of course,” answered Ralston, with
some hesitation. “The difficulty will be with cousin Alexander. We’re
enemies for life, now.”

“Yes. Until to-day you were only enemies by circumstance. You’ll never
be reconciled, now--not completely. You could never spend a night under
his roof after what has happened, could you? Of course you can say to
him that you acted under the impression that he was--well--what shall I
say?--that he was treating Katharine brutally, but that if he wasn’t,
you apologize for striking him. But after all, that’s only quibbling
with honour. It wouldn’t satisfy him and wouldn’t be very dignified for
you, it seems to me. And he’s not the man who would ever put out his
hand and forgive you frankly and say that by-gones should be by-gones.”

“Scarcely!” assented Ralston. “Not at all that kind of man. By the bye,
mother,--forgive me for going off to something else,--what do you think
is the reason why he seems so ready to offend uncle Robert, instead of
bowing down to him, as they all do? He wants the money more than any
one. He can’t suppose that if uncle Robert were to make a new will now,
after what has happened, he’d leave him anything. You should have heard
the old gentleman swear at him, and turn him out of the house!”

“I don’t know,” answered Mrs. Ralston, thoughtfully, “unless he wants to
irritate uncle Robert, and drive him into making some extraordinary will
that wouldn’t hold. Then he’d get it broken. You see, Jack, my uncle
Alexander, who’s uncle Robert’s own brother, and I, who am the only
child of uncle Robert’s other brother, are the next of kin. If there
were no will, or if the will were broken, we two should get the whole
fortune, equally divided, half and half, and none of the rest would get
anything. Mr. Brett told me that a long time ago. As it is, we don’t
know how the money’s left, though uncle Robert has often told me that I
should have a big share.”

“Katharine knows,” said John. “That’s the reason her father leaves her
no peace.”

“And she’s not told you, Jack?”

“Mother! Do you suppose Katharine would betray a confidence like that?
You don’t know her!”

“No, dear. I didn’t seriously think she would. But then--she’s your
wife, Jack. She might tell you what she wouldn’t tell any one else, and
yet not think that she were giving away a secret. Most women would, I
think.”

“Katharine’s not like most women,” said Ralston, gravely.

A silence followed, during which his mother watched his face, and her
own grew beautiful with mother’s pride in man, and woman’s gladness for
woman’s dignity.

When Ralston and his mother separated, they had come to a clear
understanding about the future. They had decided to say nothing about
the marriage until Katharine had recovered sufficiently to leave Robert
Lauderdale’s home, and then to establish her in their house, and tell
the world that there had been a private wedding. If the old gentleman
died,--and they were obliged to take this probability into
consideration,--Katharine would have to be brought at once. If anything,
this would make matters simpler. The household would be in mourning,
Katharine would be unable to go out or to appear at all for some time,
and society would easily believe that during the two or three weeks
which must pass in this way, the marriage might have taken place.




CHAPTER XIV.


No one slept much during the early part of the night in the
millionaire’s home. Katharine lay long awake, prevented from sleeping
partly by the painful numbness in her bandaged arm, and partly by the
ever recurring picture of the day’s doings which came back to her
unceasingly in the stillness. Just as the picture was growing shadowy
and dreamlike, some slight sound would break it and recall her to
herself,--a distant foot-fall on the stairs, the opening and shutting of
a door near her own, or even the occasional roll of a belated carriage
in the street.

There was a soft light in the sick man’s room. The white walls and
hangings took up and distributed the whiteness, so that even the
remotest corners were not dark. Robert Lauderdale lay in his bed,
breathing softly, his eyes not quite closed, and his bony hands lying
like knotty twigs upon the white Shetland wool that covered his body.
For they were like wood or stone, yellowish in colour, rough in shape,
and yet oddly polished by time, as some old men’s hands are. His snowy
beard and hair, too, were almost sandy again, as they had been in
youth, by contrast with the delicate linen and the snow-white, sheeny
material that was everywhere.

He was not sleeping with his eyes open, as dying persons sometimes sleep
a whole day. Nor was his mind wandering. Doctor Routh could see that
well enough, as he sat there hour after hour, watching his old friend.
The doctor wished that he might really fall asleep, and let his weary
old heart gather strength to live a little longer. But even Routh was
giving up hope. The machine was running down, and the game was played
out. There was not one chance in a hundred that Robert Lauderdale could
live another twelve hours. From time to time the doctor gave him a
little stimulant, but the failing heart reacted less and less.

Between three and four o’clock in the morning, the old man turned his
head slowly on the pillow, and his sunken eyes met Routh’s in a long
look--the look which those who have watched by the dying know very well.

“Routh,” said the hoarse voice, with solemn slowness, “I’m going to give
up the ghost.”

Still for a few seconds the deep, mysterious, wondering look continued
in the hollow eyes. Then he turned his head slowly back to the original
position. The words struck the doctor as singular. He did not remember
that he had ever heard a patient use just that phrase, though so many
persons when near the point of death give warning of their end in some
such expression.

“You’re not going yet,” the doctor answered, mechanically, and he held a
glass to the old man’s lips.

“I don’t want any false hope. I know it’s coming,” answered the dying
man, speaking against the rim of the little tumbler.

Routh stood up to his vast height, and then his nervous, emaciated frame
bent like a birch sapling in a gale as he leaned over the bed, and
listened to the fluttering beats of the heart that had almost done its
work.

“Shall I call anybody?” he asked. “Is there anything you want done?”

“How long do you think it will be?” asked Robert Lauderdale, trying to
speak more rapidly.

“Half an hour, perhaps,” answered Routh.

In their voices there was that indescribable tone with which the words
of brave men are uttered in the face of death. No one who has ever heard
it can forget it.

“I’d like to say good-bye to Katharine.” He paused and drew breath
heavily. “Will it hurt her?” he asked, presently.

“No,” answered the doctor, seeing the look of anxiety which accompanied
the question.

A broken arm seemed a very slight matter to Routh, compared with the
wish of his old friend. He did not hesitate, but touched the bell for
Mrs. Deems, who appeared at the door.

“He wishes to see Miss Lauderdale,” he whispered. “You must help her to
wrap herself up, and bring her here.”

Mrs. Deems nodded, and looked at the doctor with the grave glance of
enquiry which means the one question, ‘Life or death?’ And Routh
answered with the other glance, which means ‘Death.’ Mrs. Deems nodded
again, and left the room. Routh returned to the bedside.

“When she comes--leave us alone--please,” said the sick man.

There was silence again for a few minutes. Again the lids were half
closed, and the old eyes stared out beneath them into the soft
whiteness, and perhaps beyond. But the beard moved a little from time to
time, as though the lips were framing words, and Routh knew that the end
was near.

Then Katharine came, waxen pale, her raven hair coiled loosely upon her
shapely head, her creamy throat collarless, her left arm and hand free,
the rest of her wrapped and draped in soft, dark things. She, too,
looked up into Routh’s face with the glance of the question, ‘Life or
death?’ And again the answer was, ‘Death.’

But Mrs. Deems had told her. Her eyes said that she knew, and her face
told that she felt. Robert Lauderdale’s great head turned again, slowly
and painfully, towards her. She bent down to him, and the doctor left
the room, taking the nurse with him. He did not quite close the door. He
could almost hear, beforehand, the low cry the young girl would utter
when the end came.

Katharine bent down and laid her hand softly upon the old man’s brow.

“Uncle dear--you’re not going,” she said. “You’ll get well, after all.”

“I’m going to give up the ghost,” he said, as he had said to Doctor
Routh.

“No--no--” But she could not find anything to say, so she smoothed his
forehead.

She had never seen any one die, but she was not afraid. That is a matter
of temperament, and neither man nor woman should be blamed who can not
bear to feel a soul parting and see a body left behind. Katharine felt
only that she would keep him if she could. She knelt down and took one
of his hands, his left. It was cold and hard to touch, with little
warmth in it, like that of a statue in a garden when the sun has gone
down.

“I want to say good-bye,” said the hoarse voice, just above a whisper.

“Yes--I’m here,” answered Katharine, and there was silence again, while
she gently caressed the cold hand.

“Routh said half an hour.”

The mysterious, dying eyes wandered a little, and then sought the white
clock on the mantelpiece.

“Can’t see--what time it is,” said the rough whisper.

“Twenty minutes to four,” answered Katharine, glancing round quickly,
and then looking again at his face.

“Poor child--little girl--ought to be in bed.” The words came
indistinctly, and the breathing grew more heavy.

Then the beard moved with unspoken words, and Katharine watched, hearing
nothing. She had been a little confused at first, but now she
recollected that she should ask if there were anything she could do. She
could not tell whence the recollection came. She had perhaps got it from
a book read long ago. He might want something. He might die unsatisfied.
She made anxious haste to ask the question.

“Is there anything I can do? Any one else you want, uncle?” she
enquired, speaking close to his ear.

The breathing, almost stertorous now, ceased for an instant. He seemed
to be trying to collect strength to say something.

“Your father--tell him from me--bear no malice--” He could get no
further.

“Yes--yes--don’t think about it--don’t distress yourself,” said
Katharine, quickly. “I’ll tell him.”

Again the heavy breathing blew the stiff white hairs of his beard and
moustache, as his chin, raised in the effort of speaking, fell suddenly
to his breast again. The breath raised the coarse white and sandy hairs
and blew them to right and left. The eyelids drooped. Katharine wondered
whether old men always died like that. Then the thought that he was
really dying put on its reality for the first time, and struck her
suddenly in the heart, and the pain she felt struck back instantly into
her helpless, bandaged arm.

“Is it God?” asked the dying man, suddenly, in a louder voice and quite
clearly.

Again, in the effort, his chin rose and fell. There was something awful
in the question, asked with the strength of the death struggle. Then
came more words, indistinct and broken.

“I shall be--a little boy again.” So much Katharine understood of what
she heard.

Her tears gathered. Some of them fell upon the yellow, branch-like hand.
Then she bent close to his ear again.

“There is God,” she said. “God will take you, dear--He is taking you
now. Think of Him. You’re dying.”

Her tears broke her voice, as raindrops break the sighing of the breeze
in summer. She wept, though she would not, and her pale face was wet.
And his heavy breath filled her ears till it seemed to roar like a
furnace--the furnace of life burning itself out, where all was still and
white. She said prayers that took meaning in her heart and lost it as
they passed her lips, meeting the great doubt on the threshold of her
soul. She did not know what she said. It was not much, nor eloquent.

“I believe--God--” Then a great sigh blew the white hairs to right and
left.

The breathing grew more slow, longer, harder, a great breathing of
sighs. Death had life by the throat. In awe, the girl looked into the
ancient face, and the stream of tears trickled and ran dry. Once more
the voice burst out, articulate but rattling.

“Domine--quo--vadis?”

The great head was raised, and the mysterious eyes were wide, gazing at
her, waiting upon the answer, waiting to die. She remembered the answer.

“Tendit ad astra.”

He heard it, and died.

Katharine had never seen death, but she knew him, as we all know him.
Twice, thrice, the broad chest heaved under the soft, feathery woollen,
and the after-breath of the storm quivered in the frost of his beard.
But the girl knew he was dead. Then came her low, trembling cry, the
echo of death’s voice from living heartstrings.

It was not a great sorrow, though Katharine had been very fond of the
old man and was very grateful to him, as well she might be. She was,
perhaps, as closely attached to him as is possible in such a
relationship between the very young and the very old. But although her
tears flowed plentifully, it was not one of those deep-gripped wrenches
that twist the heart and leave it shapeless and bruised for a time--or
forever. Hearts, too, are less often broken by those who go than by
those who stay with us. The young girl’s grief was sincere, and hurt
her, but it was not profound. They led her away, and when the door of
her own room closed behind her, the tears were already drying on her
cheeks.

Death brings confusion and leaves it in his path. Many hours passed
before there was quiet in the great house, but Katharine slept,
exhausted at last by all she had endured that day, beyond the
possibility of being kept awake by mere bodily pain. Late in the morning
her mother came to her bedside. Katharine had been awake a quarter of an
hour, and had been hesitating as to whether she should ring or not. Her
arm hurt her, and the hand that had been so white was purple against the
tight white bandages. She longed to tear them off and have rest, if only
for a moment.

“Poor uncle Robert!” said Mrs. Lauderdale, seating herself, after
kissing the young girl’s forehead.

She was a little pale with natural excitement, and she was certainly not
looking her best in a black frock which was far from new, but which had
to do duty until she could have mourning made. Katharine said nothing in
answer, but nodded her head on the pillow. She wondered whether her
mother knew that she had broken her arm. But in this she did her an
injustice.

“Was your wrist much hurt?” asked Mrs. Lauderdale, almost immediately.

Then she caught sight of the splints and bandages and the purple
fingers, as Katharine lifted the coverlet a little. Instantly her face
changed.

“Heavens, child! What have you done to yourself?” she cried, springing
to her feet and bending over to look.

“Papa broke my arm,” answered Katharine, quietly.

“Your father--broke your arm?” Mrs. Lauderdale spoke with the utmost
astonishment, mingled with unbelief.

“Why, yes. Didn’t you know? It was last night--that--all the confusion
and trouble have killed poor uncle Robert. Didn’t papa tell you
anything?” Katharine stared at her mother.

“He came home and said he had hurt his mouth. I could not get him to say
what had happened to him. To tell the truth, I was rather worried. It’s
so unlike him to hurt himself, or have any accident. He said it was a
ridiculous affair, and that he didn’t choose to be laughed at, and
begged me to say nothing more about it. You know how he is. But he never
mentioned you.”

Katharine said nothing for a few moments. She wondered how wise it might
turn to be to tell her mother all that had happened. But the instinct of
child to mother overcame hesitation. Her mother had begun to take her
part again, and the broken sympathy was being restored by bits and
pieces, as it were.

“There was a terrible scene yesterday afternoon--late,” said Katharine.
“He came here, and Jack was with me in the library.”

“Jack! Oh, Katharine! I wish you wouldn’t see him in this way--”

“It’s no use wishing, mother,” answered the young girl. “I made up my
mind long ago. Well, Jack was with me in the library, when Leek came in
and said that papa was here. I saw him in the drawing-room, so that they
shouldn’t meet. I forget all he said. The usual thing, about being
disobedient and undutiful. He was awfully angry because I got out
yesterday morning. So I just went over one or two of the things he had
done to hurt me. By the bye--I ought to say, that just before he came
Jack had been telling me that some one had been to Mr. Beman, and had
said that Jack drank, and was dissipated, and was altogether rather a
good-for-nothing. And Mr. Beman had seen Jack the next day, doing
nothing, because he had nothing to do just then, and with his head in
his hand. So Mr. Beman took it into his foolish old head that Jack had
been drinking, and told him to go at the end of the month. Now I knew it
must be papa who had spoken, so I accused him of it, and he admitted
that it was true, and began abusing Jack like a pick-pocket, at the top
of his lungs. Jack heard what he said, for the door was open, and I
don’t blame him for coming in. They threatened each other, and got so
angry, and I thought they’d kill each other, so, like a silly idiot as I
was, I threw my arms round Jack’s neck as though I meant to protect him.
Papa’s so much bigger, you know. Well, he--papa, I mean--lost his head
and got me by the arm. He’s horribly strong. He got me by the right arm
a little above the wrist, and threw me half across the room, and when I
tried to help myself up--”

“Do you mean to say that he threw you down?” cried Mrs. Lauderdale,
really horrified.

“Yes--of course! With all his might, half across the room, so that I
rolled on the floor. Well, when I tried to get up, my arm was broken,
and Jack was wrestling with papa. I couldn’t help screaming when I fell,
and that roused the house, first the servants, and then uncle Robert, in
those queer white velvet clothes he wears--don’t you know? Jack told
what had happened, and uncle Robert was furious and ordered papa to
leave the house--he swore awfully--I never saw him so angry. So papa
went. But it was the rage, I suppose, and the exertion--they used up all
the dear old man’s strength--”

She stopped speaking suddenly as her thoughts went back to the dead man,
and her expression changed. Her eyes filled very slowly with tears, that
would not quite brim over, but dimmed her sight. When she turned her
head again, she saw that her mother had hidden her face in her hands
upon the edge of the bed. Katharine did not understand. A convulsive sob
shook the shapely shoulders, and the golden hair trembled.

“Mother dear--don’t cry so!” said Katharine, putting out her left hand
and touching the fair head with a caress. “I know--you were very fond of
him--of course--”

Mrs. Lauderdale looked up suddenly with streaming eyes and a face drawn
in pain. She shook her head slowly.

“It’s not that, child--it’s not that! It’s the other--”

“About me, dearest?” asked Katharine. “Don’t cry about me. I’m all
right. It hurts a little now, but it will soon be over.”

“No--child--you--you don’t understand!” answered Mrs. Lauderdale, with
trembling lips.

A passionate burst of weeping hindered her from saying more. Katharine
tried to soothe her with voice and hand, but it was of no use. Then she
just let her hand rest there, touching her mother’s cheek, and lay quite
still, waiting till the storm should pass. It lasted long, for in the
midst of her sorrow and indignation there was the acute consciousness of
the part she herself had borne in all that had happened.

“It’s my fault, it’s all my fault!” she sobbed, at last.

“No, mother--why? I don’t understand! Try and tell me what you mean.”

Little by little the sobs subsided and Mrs. Lauderdale dried her eyes.
Katharine really did not at all understand what was taking place. She
thought her mother must be hysterical. Dark women rarely understand the
moods of fair ones.

“You don’t know how dreadful it seems to me,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, as
she grew calmer. “It seems--somehow--awful! There’s no other word. Your
father treating you in such a way--and fighting with Jack! But it isn’t
only that--it’s deeper. I’ve done very wrong myself. I’ve been very
bad--much worse than you know--”

“You, bad? Oh, mother! You’re losing your head! Don’t say such absurd
things. You--well, you did go against Jack and me rather suddenly last
winter, and I couldn’t quite forgive you at the time. But it’s going to
be all right now.”

Mrs. Lauderdale’s face grew pale again. For a few moments she said
nothing, and once or twice she bit her lip.

“I’m going to tell you what it was,” she said, with a sudden
impulse--unwise, perhaps, but generous and even noble in its way. “I
envied you, dear. That’s why I behaved as I did.”

“Envied me? Envied--me?” Katharine repeated the words slowly and with a
wondering emphasis. “Why? What for?”

Mrs. Lauderdale stared at her a moment in surprise at not being
understood immediately.

“What for?” she repeated. “For your beauty--because you’re young. Don’t
you know how beautiful you are?”

Katharine stared in her turn, in genuine astonishment. The idea that her
mother could envy her had never crossed her mind.

“Yes--but--” she hesitated, and the rich young blood rose slowly under
her white skin. “I know--at least--” she stammered, “people sometimes
tell me I’m good-looking, of course. But--but the idea--of your
envying--me! Why--it never occurred to me!”

“It’s true,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, looking down and pulling at the lace
on the pillow, with a regretful smile.

“Oh, I don’t believe it!” cried Katharine, suddenly. “It’s
impossible--you may have thought you did, once--”

“No, it’s true,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale, and the smile faded and was
lost in the contrite expression which came into her face.

She had made her confession and wished to go to the end of it. She was
trying to make a reparation, being a good woman, and she found it hard,
especially as her daughter did not half understand what she meant.

“I’m losing my beauty, Katharine,” she said, and every word of the
acknowledgment cut her. “It’s going, day by day, little by little. You
don’t know--it’s as though my life-blood were being drained--it’s
worse--sometimes. I’d rather die than grow old and faded. You see, it’s
all I had. I know now how much I’ve cared for it--now that it’s so
hopeless to try and get it back. And one evening last winter--Crowdie
was there--he kept looking at you while I was talking to him, and then I
caught sight of my face in the little glass that hangs from the
mantel-shelf. I shan’t forget how I looked. I knew then.”

Her face grew suddenly weary and half-desperate now, as she told the
little story of the hardest moment in her life. Katharine listened in
wondering silence, knowing that she was learning one of the secrets of
the human heart. Mrs. Lauderdale paused a moment, and shivered a
little, perhaps with the last after-sob of her convulsive weeping.

“Yes--I knew then,” she continued, in a low voice and still looking
down. “I knew how much it had all meant. And I began to hate you. Don’t
be horrified, child. I loved you just as much, but I hated you, too. How
funny that sounds! But I can’t say it any other way. It wasn’t you I
hated--at least it wasn’t the same you that I loved. It was your face,
and your freshness, and your youth--and that walk of yours. I wanted you
to be all covered up, so that no one could see you--then I should have
loved you just as much and in just the same way as ever. Do you
understand? I want you to understand. You must, or I shall never be a
happy woman again. What I suffered! So I made you suffer, too. Do you
know what I thought? You must know everything now. I thought that if I
could separate you and Jack and make you marry some one else--since you
couldn’t marry him--why, then you’d have been away somewhere else, and I
could feel again that I was quite beautiful. Only for a month--one
month! If I could only have that feeling of being perfectly beautiful
again--just for one month.”

She bowed her head again and hid her face in the pillow, for she was
blushing with shame--the good red shame that honest blood brings from a
sinful heart. The sight of the blush pained Katharine far more than the
thought of what caused it.

“Mother dear--” she stroked the golden hair--“it’s all over now. What
does it matter? You don’t hate me now!”

“Hate you! Ah, Katharine--I never hated you without loving you just as
much. I never said those hateful things but what the loving ones fought
them and came out when I was all alone. The moment you were gone, it was
all different. The moment I didn’t have to look at you--and think of
myself, and the little wrinkles. Oh, the vile, horrid little
wrinkles--what they’ve cost me! And what they’ve made me do! And they’re
growing deeper--to punish me--pity me, dear, if you can’t forgive me--”

“Ah--don’t talk like that! I never guessed it, and now--why, I shall
never think of it again. Unless I have a daughter some day--and then I
daresay I shall feel just as you’ve felt. It seems so natural,
somehow--now that you’ve explained it.”

“Does it? Does it seem natural to you? Are you sure you understand?”
Mrs. Lauderdale looked up anxiously.

“Of course I understand!” answered Katharine, reassuring her. “You’ve
always been the most beautiful woman everywhere, and just for a little
while you thought you weren’t, because you were tired and not looking
well. You remember how tired you used to be last winter, mother, when
you were working so hard and then dancing every night, into the bargain.
It was no wonder! But you are, you know--you’re quite the most beautiful
creature I ever saw, and you always will be.”

Yet Katharine in her heart, though she was comforting her mother and
really helping her with every word she said, was by no means sure that
she quite understood it all. At least, it was very strange to her, being
altogether foreign to her own nature. With all his faults, her father
had scarcely a trace of personal vanity, and she had inherited much of
her character from him. The absence of avarice, as a mainspring which
directed his life, and the presence of a certain delicacy of human
feeling, together with a good share of her mother’s wit, were the chief
causes of the wide difference between her and Alexander. It was hard for
one so very proud and so little vain to understand how, in her mother,
vanity could so easily have driven pride out. Yet she did her best to
imagine herself in a like position, and was quite willing to believe
that she might have acted in the same way.

“Thank you, dear child,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, simply. “I don’t know why
I’ve told you all this just this morning. I’ve been trying to for a
long time. But I hadn’t the courage, I suppose. And now--somehow--we’re
more alone in the world than we were, since the dear old uncle has
gone--and we shall be more to each other. I feel it. I don’t know
whether you do.”

“Yes--I do.” And Katharine’s thoughts again went back to that strange
death-scene in the night, in the white room with the soft, warm light.
“We shall miss him more, by and by. He was a very live man. Do you know
what I mean? Whatever one did, one always felt that he was there. It
wasn’t because he was so rich--though, of course, we all have had the
sensation of a great power behind us--a sort of overwhelming reserve
against fate, don’t you know? But it really wasn’t that. He was such a
man! Do you know? I can’t fancy that uncle Robert ever did a bad thing
in his life. I don’t mean starchy, stodgy goodness. He swore at papa
most tremendously yesterday--only yesterday--just think!” She paused a
moment sadly. “No,” she continued, “I don’t mean that. He always seemed
to go straight when every one else went crooked--straight to the end, as
well as he could. Oh, mother--I saw him die, you know! I didn’t know
death was like that!”

“It must have been dreadful for you, poor child--”

“Dreadful? No--it was strange--a sort of awe. He looked so grand, lying
there amidst the white velvet! I see it now, but I didn’t think of it
then--the picture comes back--”

“Yes--I’ve seen him,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, softly. “His face is
beautiful now.”

“It wasn’t beautiful then--it was something else--I don’t know. I felt
that the greatest thing in the world was happening--the great thing that
happens to us all some day. I didn’t feel that he was dying exactly--nor
that I should never hear him speak again after those last words.”

“What did he say?” asked Mrs. Lauderdale. “No,” she added, contradicting
herself quickly. “If it’s anything like a secret, I don’t want to know.”

“It wasn’t. He looked at me very strangely, and then he said, quite
loud, ‘Domine quo vadis?’ ”

“Lord, whither goest Thou,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, translating the
familiar words to herself. “Did you say anything?”

“I answered, ‘Tendit ad astra.’ We had both said the same things once
before, some time ago. He heard me, and then he died--that was all.”

At this point some one knocked at the door. Mrs. Lauderdale rose and
went to see who was there. Leek, the butler, clad in deep mourning
already, stood outside. There was a puzzled look in his face.

“If you please, Mrs. Lauderdale, I don’t know what to do, and I’d wish
for your orders--”

“Yes--what is it?”

“There’s Mr. Crowdie downstairs, madam, wanting the picture of Miss
Lauderdale that he brought yesterday for poor Mr. Lauderdale, and
desirin’ to remove it. But the impression downstairs seems to be that
Mr. Crowdie presented it to poor Mr. Lauderdale yesterday, in which case
it appears to me, madam, to be part of poor Mr. Lauderdale’s
belongings.”

“Oh! Well--wait a minute, please. I’ll ask my daughter if she knows
anything about it.”

Mrs. Lauderdale re-entered the room.

“I heard what he was saying,” said Katharine, before her mother could
speak. “He distinctly said he gave the picture to uncle Robert. I was
there when he brought it. Isn’t that just like them--coming to get what
they can when he’s hardly dead!”

“Yes--but what shall we do?”

“I don’t care. He’ll give it to Hester, as he meant to do at first. Let
him take it.”

Mrs. Lauderdale went to the door again.

“Let Mr. Crowdie have his picture, Leek. I’ll be responsible.”

“Very good, madam.”




CHAPTER XV.


The death of Robert Lauderdale was the news of the day, and produced a
profound impression everywhere. Even the city put on, here and there, an
outward token of mourning, for on every building of the many which had
belonged to him, the flag, if it were flying, was half-masted. New York
is a city of many flags, and the eye is accustomed to attach meaning to
their position.

And people spoke with respect of the dead man, which rarely happens when
the very rich are suddenly gone. He had done well with his money, and
every one said so. He had been more charitable than many had guessed
until those who had been helped by him began to bemoan their loss.
Stories went about of his having known, personally and by name, such men
as the conductors on the Elevated Road, and of his having visited them
in their homes--them and many others. His death made no difference to
any one in Wall Street, and every one in Wall Street was therefore
prepared to praise him.

Forthwith began the speculation and gossip in regard to the will. John
Ralston heard much of it, and he observed a curious tendency amongst
the men at the bank to treat him with greater deference than usual.

The Ralstons had been informed of the final catastrophe early in the
morning. John had immediately gone to Robert Lauderdale’s house, rather
to enquire about Katharine’s condition than for any other purpose, and
had thence proceeded down town. There was no reason why he should not go
to the bank as usual, he thought. The dead man had only been his
great-uncle, and he had determined to make Mr. Beman change his mind,
and to counteract the influence of Alexander Junior. The best way to do
this was to go to work as though nothing had happened. Before he had
been half an hour at his desk, his friend Hamilton Bright, the junior
partner in the firm, came up to him.

Hamilton Bright was a sturdy, heavily built man, five and thirty years
of age, with a prosperous air--what bankers call ‘a lucky face.’ He was
fair as a Saxon, pink and white of complexion, with clear, honest eyes,
and quiet, resolute features. In his early youth he had gone to the
West, and driven cattle in the Nacimiento Valley, had made some
fortunate investments with the small fortune he had inherited, had
returned to New York, gone into Beman Brothers’ bank, and in the course
of a few years had been taken into the partnership. He was an extremely
normal man. His only peculiarity was a sort of almost fatherly
attachment to John Ralston, about which he did not reason. The shadow in
his life was his love for Katharine Lauderdale, of which, for John’s
sake, he had never spoken, but which he was quite unable to conceal.

He came to John’s desk and spoke to him in a low voice.

“I say, Jack,” he began, “is it true that cousin Katharine has broken
her arm?”

“Yes,” answered Ralston, bending his black brows. “How did you hear it?”

“It’s got about and into the papers. There’s a paragraph about it. They
say she fell downstairs.”

“Some servant told, I suppose, and got a dollar for the item. It’s the
small bone of her right arm--she was staying with poor uncle Robert, and
she had a fall--somehow,” added Ralston, vaguely. “She must have been
there when he died. It was awfully sudden at the end. I saw him
yesterday afternoon. He seemed pretty strong. I went this morning to
enquire about cousin Katharine--they say he died very peacefully.
Failure of the heart, you know.”

Bright nodded thoughtfully, as he leaned one elbow upon Ralston’s desk.

“What sort of a will is it going to turn out?” he asked, after a
moment’s pause.

“I haven’t the slightest idea,” answered John, with perfect truth.

“It would be a good thing for you if he had died intestate. Your mother
and old Alexander are the next of kin. They’d get something in the
neighbourhood of thirty or forty millions apiece. You’d give up
clerking, Jack.”

“I don’t know, I’m sure. If I were ever to have much money, a year in a
bank wouldn’t do me any harm. But I’m not likely to stay here. Cousin
Alexander’s a good enemy to me. He’s been telling Mr. Beman that I
drink, and that sort of thing, and Mr. Beman has requested me to leave
on the first of the month.”

“You don’t mean that?” Hamilton Bright’s fair Saxon face reddened in
sudden anger for his friend.

“Of course I do.”

Ralston told him exactly what had happened, and by the time he had
finished, Alexander Lauderdale Junior had another enemy, and a dangerous
one. Had Bright known all, and especially that Katharine owed her broken
arm to her father’s violence, something unexpected might have happened.
Bright had for Katharine all the Quixotic devotion which a pure and
totally unrequited love can inspire in a perfectly simple disposition,
which has been brought into rather close contact with the uncompromising
code of such a region as the Nacimiento Valley.

“And you wish to stay in the bank?” asked Bright, quietly, at last.

“Yes. And you know very well, Ham, that I’m not as bad as I used to be.
I’m going to have a talk with Mr. Beman to-day.”

“Don’t you bother,” answered Bright. “I’ll talk to him--now.”

Hamilton Bright’s broad shoulders swung round, and he went straight to
the senior partner’s room. Mr. Beman was in his usual seat at his huge
desk.

“I want to speak to you about Ralston, Mr. Beman,” he said, briefly,
laying one of his broad hands upon the shelf of the desk. “You’ve told
him to go on the first of the month, because Mr. Alexander Lauderdale
informed you that he drank.”

“Yes,” answered Mr. Beman, “I have, though I don’t know how you heard
that it was through Mr. Lauderdale.”

“Well--it’s a fact, or Ralston wouldn’t have said so, in the first
place, and I see you admit it. But there isn’t a word of truth in the
story. Ralston gave up wine altogether last winter.”

“Do you mean to say that Mr. Lauderdale has told me--a deliberate
falsehood, Mr. Bright?” asked the old banker.

“Yes.”

Now Mr. Beman had a very high opinion of Hamilton Bright, but he looked
long and earnestly into the clear blue eyes before he made up his mind
what to say.

“I’d not considered the affair as of any importance,” he said, at last.
“But you’ve made it very serious. Mr. Lauderdale is Ralston’s cousin,
and might be supposed to know what he was talking about.”

“Yes. That doesn’t make it any better for him,” observed Bright. “I know
what I’m talking about, too. Mr. Lauderdale is a sort of cousin of mine,
and I know them all pretty well. I haven’t much opinion of Mr.
Lauderdale, myself.”

Again Mr. Beman stared and met the calm blue eyes. He recalled Alexander
Junior’s steely grey ones, and did not prefer them. But he said nothing.
Bright continued.

“If you can get him to come here, Mr. Beman, I’d like to repeat what
I’ve said in his presence. He’s a liar, he’s a sneak, and I’m inclined
to think he’s a scoundrel, though I wouldn’t say more.”

But in this Bright did Alexander Junior an injustice. Mr. Beman,
however, had not survived fifty years of banking in New York without
knowing that just such men as Alexander are sometimes wrecked, morally
and financially, after having inspired confidence for half a lifetime.

“You use pretty strong language, Mr. Bright. I’ve known Mr. Lauderdale a
long time, but not intimately, though I’ve always considered him a
valuable friend in business relations. I shall certainly not countenance
any such proceedings as calling him to account for what he said. But if
you are sure of Ralston, Mr. Bright, please ask him to step here for a
moment. We’ll keep him. Not that he’s likely to stay long,” added Mr.
Beman, with a smile. “His mother and Mr. Lauderdale’s father are next of
kin to Mr. Robert Lauderdale, who died this morning, I’m told. I should
certainly not wish to do an injustice to any near relation of my old
acquaintance.”

Hamilton Bright, who rarely wasted words, merely nodded and left the
room. He went immediately to Ralston again.

“It’s all right, Jack,” he said. “Mr. Beman wants you to stay, and wants
to tell you so. Go right in.”

“Thank you, Ham,” said Ralston, rising.

A moment later he was standing before Mr. Beman. The old gentleman
looked up over his glasses.

“Mr. Ralston,” he said, “I’ve reason to believe that I was hasty
yesterday. I understand that my friend was mistaken in what he said of
you. I regret what I said myself. I shall be very glad if you’ll stay
with us. I learn from other sources that you’re very attentive to your
work, and I must say--Mr. Ralston--” he smiled pleasantly--“it will be
just as well for you to know something about our business, considering
the position--the enviable position--which you’ll probably some day
occupy.”

John Ralston, the son of one of the next of kin, was not quite the same
person as Jack Ralston, the grand-nephew of a millionaire.

“I don’t know what position I’m to occupy,” he answered. “But I’m very
glad to stay with you, Mr. Beman--and I’m much obliged to you for doing
me this justice.”

“Not at all, not at all. I should be very sorry to do any one an
injustice--especially a near relation of my old and valued acquaintance,
Mr. Robert Lauderdale.”

Thereupon John Ralston withdrew, very well satisfied. He had a sort of
premonition to the effect that things were to go better with him. It was
clear, at least, that Alexander Junior could not prevail against him,
since John had vanquished him twice within twenty-four hours. He
wondered whether Alexander were sitting all alone in his office at the
Trust Company, nervously tapping the table with his long, smooth
fingers, and wondering how soon he was to know the contents of the will.

The morning wore on, and he could almost see in the faces of his
fellow-clerks how the impression was growing that he would turn out to
be one of the heirs. There was an indescribable something in their
glances, a hardly perceptible change in their manner, of which he was
aware in spite of himself. But no news came.

At half past twelve he went out and got his luncheon at Sutherland’s, as
usual. When he came back, he found a note on his desk from his mother.
He opened it in considerable excitement, for he could not deny that he
hoped a very large share of the inheritance might come to Mrs. Ralston,
if not to himself. But the note contained no final news. Mrs. Ralston
said that, considering the enormous value of the estate, the lawyers
desired to make the will public as soon as possible--a common measure in
such cases, as the sudden demise of very rich men has a tendency to
affect public confidence, until it is known who is to have the principal
control of the fortune. Mrs. Ralston said that only she herself and old
Mr. Alexander Lauderdale, as being the two next of kin, had been
requested to hear the will read that afternoon. She advised him to come
home and wait for her, as early as he could conveniently leave the bank.

That was all, and he had to possess his soul in patience during several
hours more. His mother had not yet seen Katharine, and did not mention
her. It was impossible to foresee what she would do, but it was clear
enough that she would not, and could not, return to her father’s house
at once.

Before the afternoon was far advanced, the wisdom of the lawyers’
advice about the reading of the will became apparent. Rumours were
afloat that the whole fortune was to go to old Alexander, and rumour
further stated that he was in his dotage, and would be capable of
selling miles of real estate to found a refuge for escaped lunatics.
Serious persons gave no credit to such talk, of course, but any one
acquainted with New York knows how little, at a given moment, may upset
the market and cause disaster. The reason of this appears to be that
there are more undertakings unfinished yet, or just begun, in America,
than there are elsewhere, which depend for their success altogether upon
a period of comparative calm in financial affairs. To check them, though
they might turn out well, is often to kill them, which means ruin to
those who have backed them at the beginning.

But matters proceeded rapidly. Before Ralston left the bank, the
newsboys were crying the evening papers, containing, as they avowed,
‘the extraordinary will of Robert Lauderdale.’ In five minutes every one
in the bank had read the statement.

There was a paragraph in which, after giving the reasons for making the
will public at once, its principal conditions were named. John, who knew
nothing of what Katharine had heard, was neither surprised nor
disappointed. The paragraph had evidently been written by one of the
lawyers, and sent to all the papers for publication, and there was no
account of any interview with any of the heirs. It was a plain account,
as far as was possible.

Mr. Robert Lauderdale, it said, had never married; but he had numerous
relations, who were all descended from the original Alexander
Lauderdale, the grandfather of the deceased. In order to avoid all
possible litigation after his death, Mr. Lauderdale had left his fortune
as though it had been left by his grandfather, regularly distributed
amongst all the heirs of the primeval Alexander, with no legacies
whatsoever, excepting certain annuities to be bought of an insurance
company before the distribution, for the benefit of the servants in his
employ at the time of his death. The will, said the paragraph, bore a
very recent date, and had been drawn up, strange to say, by a young
lawyer of no particular standing. The names of the witnesses were also
given, and, oddly enough, they were persons quite unknown to any one
concerned. The paragraph went on to say that it was presumed that the
will would not be contested by any one, and would be promptly admitted
to probate. A list of the heirs followed. They were: Alexander
Lauderdale Senior, Alexander Lauderdale Junior, Mrs. Benjamin Slayback,
Robert Lauderdale Slayback, her infant son, Miss Katharine Lauderdale,
Mrs. Admiral Ralston, John Ralston, Mrs. Richard Bright, Hamilton
Bright, Mrs. Walter Crowdie. In all, there were ten living persons. The
property was to be divided precisely as though the primeval Alexander
had left it to his two sons, and as though they, in turn, had divided it
amongst their children, down to the youngest living heir, who was
Benjamin Slayback’s baby boy.

John Ralston pored over the paragraph till he knew it by heart. Then, as
soon as he proceeded to apply the terms to actual circumstances, he saw
that one-half of the whole fortune must go to Hamilton Bright, his
mother, and his sister, Hester Crowdie. Of the remaining half, he and
his mother would have half between them, or a quarter of the whole. The
smallest share would go to those who actually bore the name of
Lauderdale, for only the last quarter would remain to be distributed
between the two Alexanders, Charlotte, Katharine, and Charlotte’s child.
Robert Lauderdale had thus provided a little more liberally for
Katharine and himself than for most of the members of the family, since
they were to have, ultimately, more than a quarter of the whole. And
Alexander Junior would get one of the smallest shares. But it seemed
strange that the Brights should have so much, though it was just
possible that the old gentleman might have thought it wise to place a
large share in the hands of a trained man of business who would keep it
together.

On his side, Hamilton Bright had made the same calculations, and was as
near to losing his head with delight as his calm nature made possible.
He came up to Jack, and proposed that they should walk up town together
and discuss matters.

“I can’t,” answered Ralston. “I’ll go a bit of the way on foot, but my
mother wants to see me as soon as possible.”

They went out, followed by the envious eyes of many who had read the
paragraphs. In a few days they were both to have millions.

“Well,” said Ralston, when they were together on the pavement of Broad
Street, “it’s a queer will, isn’t it? I suppose we ought to congratulate
each other.”

“Wait till it’s all settled,” answered Bright, cautiously. “Not that
there’s going to be any difficulty, as far as I can see,” he added. “It
seems to be all right, and properly witnessed.”

“Oh--it’s all right enough. But if Alexander Junior can fight it, he
will. He’s come out worse than he expected. The only odd thing, to my
mind, is the name of the lawyer. Who is George W. Russell, anyway? Did
you ever hear of him?”

“Oh, yes--I know who he is. He’s a young chap who’s lately set up for
himself--real estate. I think I heard of his doing some work for uncle
Robert last year. He’s all right. And he’d be careful about the
witnessing and all that.”

“Yes--well--but why did uncle Robert go to him? Why didn’t he employ his
own lawyer--his regular one, I mean--or Henry Brett, or somebody one’s
heard of? I should think it would be more natural.”

“Probably he had made another will before, and didn’t like to tell his
own lawyer that he was making a new one. I’ve heard it said that old men
are queer about that. They don’t want any one to know that they’ve
changed their minds. When they do, they’re capable of going to any
shyster to get the papers drawn up. That’s probably what uncle Robert
did.”

“It’s a very just will in principle,” said Ralston. “I don’t know what
it will turn out in practice. I wonder what the estate is really worth.”

“Over eighty millions, anyhow. I know that, because Mr. Beman said he
had reason to be sure of it some time ago.”

“That gives us two twenty and you forty amongst you three. You didn’t
expect all that, Ham.”

“Expect it! I didn’t expect anything. The old gentleman never said a
word to me about it. Of course you were in a different position, your
mother being next of kin with old Alexander. But if Alexander Junior
broke the will--he can’t though, I’m certain--I shouldn’t get anything.
Of course--I think any will’s just that gives me a lot of money. And if
Alexander fights, I’ll fight, too.”

“He will, if he has an inch of ground to stand on. By the bye, if all
goes smoothly, I suppose you’ll retire from business, and I shall stop
clerking, and Crowdie will give up painting.”

“I don’t know,” answered Bright. “As for me, I think I shall stick to
the bank. There’ll be more interest in the thing when I’ve got a lot of
money in it. Crowdie? Oh--he’ll go on painting as long as he can see. He
likes it--and it isn’t hard work.”

They talked a little longer in the same strain, and then Ralston left
his friend and went up town by the Elevated, pondering deeply on the
situation. One thing seemed clear enough. However matters turned out,
whether Alexander Junior fought the will or not, Ralston and Katharine
would be free to declare their marriage as soon as they pleased. That
consideration outweighed all others with him at the present moment, for
he was tired of waiting. It was four months since he had been married,
and in that time he had seldom had an opportunity of talking freely with
his wife. The perpetual strain of secrecy was wearing upon his nervous
nature. He would at any time have preferred to fight any one or
anything, rather than have anything to conceal, and concealment had
been forced upon him as a daily necessity.

He said to himself with truth that he might as well have struck
Alexander for one reason as for another; that he might just as well have
faced him about the marriage as about the calumny upon his own character
which Alexander had uttered. But circumstances had been against his
doing so. At no moment yet, until the present, had he felt himself quite
free to take Katharine from her home and to bring her to his mother’s.
Alexander’s own violence had made it possible. And he had intended, or
he and his mother had agreed, to take the step at once, when suddenly
Robert Lauderdale’s death had arrested everything. There were fifty
reasons for not declaring the marriage now, or for several weeks to
come--chief of all, perhaps, the mere question of good taste. To declare
a marriage on the very morrow of a death in the family would surprise
people; the world would find it easy to believe that the young couple
had acted contrary to Robert Lauderdale’s wishes, and had waited for his
death, in fear of losing any part of the inheritance by offending him.
Such haste would not be decent.

But there would be no need to wait long, John thought, and in the
meantime Katharine could surely not go back to Clinton Place.

Wherever else she might be, he should have plenty of opportunities of
seeing her at his leisure. He reached his home and found his mother
waiting for him in his study. She was pale and looked tired.

“I suppose you’ve heard?” she said, interrogatively, as he entered. “I
see it’s in all the papers.”

“Yes,” answered John, gravely. “I’ve been talking with Ham Bright--we
left the bank together.”

“I suppose he’s in the seventh heaven,” said Mrs. Ralston. “Who would
ever have expected such a will?”

“I’m sure I didn’t. May I smoke, mother? I haven’t had a chance all
day.”

“Of course--always smoke. I like it. Jack--I’ve been there most of the
day, you know. I went in twice to look at him. What a grand old man he
was! I wish you could see him lying there on white velvet like an old
king.”

“I don’t like to see dead people,” answered Ralston, lighting a cigar.
“Besides--I was fond of him.”

“So was I. Don’t think I wasn’t, my dear--very fond of him. But you and
I don’t look at those things just in the same way, I know. I wish I
could see them as you do--dream of something beyond, as you do. To
me--feeling that it’s all over, and that he is there, dead on his bed,
and nowhere else, all there is of him now, or ever will be--well, I was
glad to see him as I did. I shall always remember him as I saw him
to-day. I wish I believed something. To me--the only hope is the hope of
memory for good things and forgetfulness for bad things, as long as life
lasts. I’ve got another good memory of a good man I was fond of--so I’ve
got something.”

“It’s a depressing sort of creed,” said Ralston, smoking thoughtfully.
“Not that mine’s worth much, I suppose. Still--”

He let the word imply what it might, and puffed slowly at his cigar.
Mrs. Ralston passed her hand over her eyes, and said nothing in answer.

“I don’t care!” exclaimed John, suddenly. “I can’t believe it all ends
here. I can’t, and I won’t. There’s something--somewhere, I daresay I
shall never get it, but there’s something. I know it, because I feel
there is. It’s in me, and you, and everybody.”

Mrs. Ralston smiled sadly. She had heard her husband triumphantly refute
the ontological argument many a time.

“I wish I felt it in me, then,” she answered, sincerely. “Jack--isn’t
there something strange about this will, though? An unknown lawyer,
servants for witnesses--all that, as though it had been done in a hurry.
It seems odd to me.”

“Yes. Bright and I were talking about it.”

He went on to tell her what Bright thought.

“He says he knows the lawyer, though,” he concluded, “and that he’s a
straight man, so it must be all right.”

“Mr. Allen said he’d only heard his name mentioned once or twice
lately,” said Mrs. Ralston. “It was a long, long will. Then every
servant was mentioned by name. I had no idea there could be so many in
the house.”

“Who are the witnesses?” asked John.

“One was the secretary--you know? That nice young fellow who used to be
about. I don’t know who the others were--I’ve forgotten their names. Mr.
Allen didn’t seem to think there’d be any difficulty about finding them.
He thought the property was all in this State--most of it’s in the city,
so that the will could be proved immediately.”

“Well--I hope so. But I believe there’ll be some trouble. Alexander only
comes in for a small share. He’ll do his best to break the will, so as
to get the money divided between his father and you. The Brights would
get nothing, in that case. We should get a lot more, of course--but
then--I can’t realize what twenty millions mean, can you? What
difference will it make in our lives, whether we have twenty or forty?
Those sums are mythological, anyhow. The more a man has, above ten
millions, the more care and bother and worry, and enemies he’s got for
the rest of his life.”

“I’m glad to hear you talk in that way, Jack,” said Mrs. Ralston. “It’s
just my feeling. But it’s not everybody who thinks so. Most men--well,
you know!”

“I think you’re mistaken there, mother,” answered Ralston. “I’m talking
of private individuals, of course--not of men who are in big things,
like railways, or banks--but just private persons who want to live on
their income and enjoy themselves, and who haven’t enormous families, of
course. No reasonable being can spend more than five hundred thousand a
year without trouble--at least, I don’t think so. Uncle Robert didn’t
actually spend three hundred thousand, I’ve heard it said. He cared for
nothing but white velvet and horses--of all things to go together! Of
course he gave away a million a year or so. But that doesn’t count as
expenses. All the rest just rolled up, and he had to spend hours and
hours every day in taking care of it. Now, I just ask you, what possible
satisfaction can there be in that? And everybody thinks just the same
who’s not a born idiot--or a financier. Now Bright--he’s different. He’s
a partner in Beman’s and finance amuses him. He’d like to be the Astors
and the Vanderbilts and the Rothschilds and all the rest of them, rolled
into one. He’d like to ride Wall Street like a pony and direct millions,
as he owns cattle out in the Nacimiento Valley. I wouldn’t, for my
part. Twenty thousand a year has always seemed wealth to me, though most
people one knows say one can’t more than live on it. Did you see
Katharine, mother?”

“Of course. We had a long talk.”

“You didn’t tell her anything, I suppose? I mean, what we were talking
about last night?”

“No. I thought you’d rather tell her that you’d told me. Besides--just
now! But she can’t stay there, Jack. It’s rather a ghastly
situation--alone in the house with the dead man, and only the servants.
That nurse has stayed, though, to take care of her arm. But it’s
grim--all the shades down, and every one talking in whispers. She was in
one of the back rooms, so that she could have the window open.”

“Oh--she was up, then, was she? Dressed, and all that?”

“Yes--it’s the small bone of the arm. She won’t have to stay in bed. You
can go and see her if you like. That is, if she’s still there. I advised
her to go and stay with the Crowdies. She looked at me as though she
wondered whether I knew anything. I suppose she expected that I’d advise
her to go home. But that’s impossible.”

“Of course--but she hates Crowdie. We all do, for that matter. I don’t
believe she’ll go. Didn’t she say?”

“No. Why do we all hate Crowdie? We do--it’s quite true. By the bye,
he’s distinguished himself to-day. You know that picture of Katharine?”

“Yes--he gave it to poor uncle Robert only yesterday.”

“Well--he came and took it away this morning before ten o’clock.
Katharine told me.” Mrs. Ralston laughed without smiling.

“Upon my word! But it’s rather curious, though. I didn’t know he was
mean. He never seemed to be, somehow.”

“No--I know. It struck me as strange, too. A new light on his
character.”

“I fancy he has some object. I hate him--I loathe him! But that isn’t
like him. I wonder whether Hester was angry because he gave it away. It
was for her, you know, and she may not have liked his giving it away.
I’ll go and see Katharine. Was it late when you left there?”

“About half past four. I stayed with her a long time after the lawyer
had gone.”

“Mother,” said Ralston, suddenly, “why can’t we just face it out and
bring her here? Would it look too strange, do you think?”

“Yes. People would say we’d waited for poor uncle Robert to die. You
must have a little more patience, dear boy.”

“That’s just what I thought at first,” answered Ralston. “I’ll go and
see her. If she hadn’t left at half past four, I don’t believe she’ll
leave to-day. When is the funeral to be?”

“Day after to-morrow, I think.”

                             END OF VOL. I




                             THE RALSTONS.




CHAPTER XVI.


Ralston was mistaken in supposing that Katharine had abandoned all idea
of leaving the house on the Park because it was so late. Depressed as
she was, and in almost constant pain from her arm, the atmosphere was
altogether too melancholy for her to bear. Moreover, she saw how utterly
unnatural her staying must seem in the eyes of the world, should her
acquaintances ever find out that she had remained all alone in the great
house after her uncle’s death. After Mrs. Ralston had left her, she had
made up her mind to leave in any case, had caused her belongings to be
got ready, and had ordered a carriage. But she had not quite decided
whither she would go, and Ralston found her in the library still turning
the matter over.

“Oh, Jack!” she cried, “I’m so glad you’ve come, dear!”

“I came this morning,” he answered. “But you weren’t awake yet. You’re
dressed to go out--surely you’re not going to move at this hour? Tell
me--how’s the arm? Does it hurt you much?”

“Oh--it hurts, of course,” said Katharine, almost indifferently. “That
is--it’s numb, don’t you know? But Doctor Routh says there’s nothing to
be done for a day or two, and he hasn’t moved the bandages. Now don’t
talk about it any more--there are other things much more important. Sit
down, Jack--there, in uncle Robert’s chair. Poor uncle Robert!” she
exclaimed, in a different tone, realizing that the old man would never
sit beside her again.

“Poor man!” echoed Ralston, with real sorrow in his voice.

There was silence for a moment while they both thought of him. The
stillness of the whole house was oppressive. There was an odour of many
fresh flowers, and the peculiar smell of new black stuffs which the
disposers of the dead bring with them. With a sort of instinct of
sympathy, John bent down and kissed the gloved wrist of Katharine’s left
hand as it lay on the arm of the easychair. She looked at him quickly,
moved her hand a little towards him in thanks, and smiled sadly before
she spoke.

“Jack--I can’t stay here,” she said. “I’m not nervous, you know, but I’m
not quite myself after all this. It’s too awfully melancholy. Every time
I go to my room I have to pass the door of the room where he’s
lying--and then I go in and look at him. It’s got to be a fixed idea--if
I go near the door I have to go in. And it brings it all back. Then all
the people--they come in shoals. There have been ever so many who’ve
wanted to look. It’s that horrible curiosity about death. All the
relations. Even the three Miss Miners came. I thought they’d never go.
Of course I don’t see them, so I have to be always dodging in here or
into the drawing-room, or the gallery, or else I have to stay in my
room. It will be worse to-morrow.”

“Yes,” answered Ralston. “You ought not to stay.” He paused a moment.
“Dear,” he added, “I want you to know it at once--I’ve told my mother
that we’re married--”

“Oh, Jack!” exclaimed Katharine, taken by surprise.

“It was much better. I am not sure that it wouldn’t have been better to
tell her long ago. She was hurt, because I’d kept it from her--but she’s
very glad, all the same. You see, she would have had to know it all some
day--don’t you think I was right to tell her?”

“Yes--I suppose so. Do you know? I’m a little bit afraid of
her--well--not exactly afraid, perhaps--I don’t know how to express
it--”

“You needn’t be. She thinks there’s nobody like you!”

“I’m glad she’s fond of me,” said Katharine. “I’m glad you’ve told
her--I was a little surprised at first, that was all. Yes--I’m glad that
she knows.”

She was evidently thinking over the situation, wondering, perhaps, what
her next meeting with her mother-in-law was to be like.

“She’s been here with you, hasn’t she?” asked John, resuming the
conversation after a short pause.

“Yes, and my own mother, too--and then Mr. Allen, and dear old
grandpapa. Poor old gentleman! He sat in a chair and cried like a baby
when he went in. And then the reading of the will--and the endless
people--the people who have to do with the funeral, you know. All those
things jar on me. I must get away. I can’t stand it another hour--at
least--not alone. I think I shall go home, after all.”

“Home?” repeated Ralston, in surprise. “But how can you, after all this?
Just think how your father will behave! Especially since he’s heard of
the will. I’m sure he expected to divide everything with my mother,
unless he managed to get it all for himself. I see why you promised not
to tell after uncle Robert had told you--”

“No--you don’t see, Jack,” answered Katharine, thoughtfully. “I wonder
whether it would be right for me to tell you now. I suppose so. It may
make a difference, though I suppose it can’t, really.”

“Do just as you feel, yourself,” said Ralston. “You know what he said--I
don’t. I can’t judge for you.”

Katharine was silent for a few moments. Then it seemed best to confide
in him, and she turned towards him suddenly.

“I’ll tell you, Jack. This is not the will he told me of. It’s quite
different in every way. It was only made a few days ago.”

“Well, then, this is the valid one.”

“Yes--of course. The secretary knew where it was--in a drawer of this
desk, here. Uncle Robert had told him it was there, only two days ago,
in case of his death. The key was on his chain, on the dressing-table
upstairs. You see the secretary was one of the witnesses.”

“That’s an advantage, anyway. Witnesses are often hard to find, I know.
So this will is quite different from the old one?”

“Oh--quite! The one he told me about left everything to you and
Charlotte and me--in three trusts, I think he said. We were all to give
half our income to the parents--papa and my mother and your mother--and
we were all to support grandpapa. The Brights were to have a million,
and there was something for the Miners.”

“Why, that would have given you and me two-thirds of the fortune! That
would hardly have been fair.”

“No--it seemed a great deal. But you see he changed his mind before he
died. It’s much more just, as it is--though it does seem as though
grandpapa and papa ought to have more than the Brights.”

“I don’t see why, if you look at it logically--they’re descended just as
directly from our great-great-grandfather--”

“Yes--but what had he to do with it? The money didn’t come from him.”

“No--still--to avoid all quarrelling, there was no other way. Only--it’s
going to make the biggest family quarrel there’s ever been since wills
were invented. That’s the real logic of events. Things always turn out
like that. ‘Better is the enemy of good,’ you know. Now, let me see.
Your father is going to try and break the will, of course. Your
grandfather will go with him, because if there’s no will, he’ll get
half--for his asylums and charities. Then I suppose I ought to advise my
mother to go with him against the will, too, if there’s any good ground
for breaking it. Of course we don’t want half of what he’s left us, as
it is--but still, if it’s law, it’s law, and there’s no reason why we
shouldn’t have what belongs to us, if it does belong to us. The Crowdies
are as prosperous as possible. Ham Bright’s getting rich, I know--and
then--I say, Katharine, if this will breaks down, would the will he told
you about be good, if we could find it? That’s a curious question. I
must ask a lawyer.”

“I don’t know anything about those things. But it’s getting late, Jack.
I must be going--somewhere, but where, I can’t tell! I think I’d much
better go home and face it out with papa. I’m right, and he’s wrong, and
he’s got to give in sooner or later. I’d much better go, and put an end
to all this--this tension.”

“You’re brave enough for anything!” exclaimed Ralston, with admiration.
“Still, if I were you, I wouldn’t go till after the funeral, at all
events. Don’t you think if my mother came here and stayed with you--”

“No, no, Jack! I can’t stand it any longer. I can’t help going to look
at him--I should go in the night--and it’s making me nervous.”

“How funny! But if you don’t want to go into the room, why do you go?”

“I can’t help it--I don’t know. I’m a woman, you know, and those things
take hold of one so!”

“Somebody ought to stay. I think I will. But you’d much better go to the
Crowdies’. I know you can’t bear him, but it would only be for a couple
of days. You’d be with Hester all the time, and you like her, and you
needn’t see much of him.”

“I thought of going to the Brights’. Old Mrs. Bright and I are great
friends.”

“No--don’t! It’s hard on Ham. He’s so awfully in love with you.”

“Yes--perhaps he is. But he’s down town all day--I should only see him
at dinner, and a little in the evening.”

“Don’t be ruthless, Katharine!” exclaimed John, with almost involuntary
reproach in his tone.

“Ruthless?” she repeated. “I don’t understand. What is there that’s
ruthless in that? I could see you so much more freely.”

“Why--don’t you know how it hurts--that sort of thing? To go and stay
under the same roof with a man who loves you, when you know, and he
knows, that you can never possibly love him?”

“I suppose it does,” answered Katharine, vaguely. “I hadn’t thought of
that. But then, you know, Ham would never say anything, any more than if
he knew we were married.”

“That just makes it so much the harder,” replied Ralston, smiling at her
woman’s view of the case. “Don’t you see?”

“Well--of course, if you don’t want me to go, Jack, I won’t. I believe
you’re jealous of Ham!” She laughed a little and looked at him lovingly.

“There’s no fear of that,” he said. “But he’s always been a good friend
to me. I know what he’d suffer for those two or three days, though you
can’t understand it, I suppose. I don’t want him to suffer on my
account.”

“Oh, very well. It seemed simpler, that’s all. I dislike Walter Crowdie
so--I can’t tell you! I thought of going to your house. I suppose you
thought of it, too--but, of course, it wouldn’t do at all.” She laughed
again, a little nervously this time.

“It’s not to be thought of,” answered Ralston, gravely.

“Then there’s nothing for it but to go to the Crowdies’. Will you take
me down there? I’ve ordered the carriage, and I suppose it’s ready by
this time. There can’t be any harm in our driving down together, can
there?”

“Oh, no--I should think not. We’ll pull the shades half down. Is it one
of uncle Robert’s carriages?”

“No--I sent to the livery stable. The men have no mourning coats--and I
thought it would be odd if the carriage were seen driving about as
though nothing had happened.”

Ralston could not help contrasting the tactful foresight of this
proceeding with Katharine’s readiness to inflict any amount of pain upon
Hamilton Bright. It was quite true that he could see her alone more
easily at the Brights’ than at the Crowdies’, but his own consideration
for his friend altogether outweighed the thought. Katharine saw that it
did. She returned to the discussion when they were in the carriage.

“I should have thought you’d prefer to see me at the Brights’, Jack,”
she said. “It would be so much nicer. Of course, at the Crowdies’ I
can’t be always sending Hester off whenever you come. How strange you
are sometimes! You don’t seem to see things as I do.”

“Not this, anyway,” cried John, arranging the shades as the carriage
turned into Fifth Avenue. “I’m sorry for Ham.”

“I should think you’d sacrifice him a little for the sake of seeing me.”
Her tone showed that she was a little hurt.

“Oh--of course! That is--” he interrupted himself--“that is, you know,
if it were very important.”

“But isn’t it important--as you call it? I wonder whether it means as
much to you as it does to me?” She looked at him.

“What?” he asked.

“Our meeting just as often as we can, for a minute, for an hour, to be
together as long as possible. You don’t seem to care as much as I do?”

“Indeed I do!” protested John, laying his hand on hers. “How can you say
such a thing, dear? You know how much I care!”

“Yes--but I sometimes wonder--” She hesitated. “You don’t think that
means that there is any difference in our love, do you?” she asked
suddenly, as though she could not help it.

“Why, no! What difference should there be? We both care just the
same--only each in our own way, I suppose.”

Ralston’s experience was limited, and he was not to be blamed for being
a little obtuse and slow to understand. This was a new phase, too, and
he was ready to reproach himself with having inadvertently been the
cause of it.

“That’s just it,” answered Katharine. “You say, each in our own way--it
seems to me that there’s only one way--and that’s the very most that can
be. That’s what I mean, dear. There mustn’t be two ways. There’s only
one way of caring.”

“Well--that’s our way, isn’t it?” asked Ralston, watching her tenderly.

“Not if it isn’t just the same for both of us. Because you’re a man and
I’m a woman--that’s not a reason for there being any difference--I’m
sure it isn’t, Jack!” she added, earnestly.

“Of course not!” he answered, not at all seeing what else he could say.

“Yes--but--” She stopped again and looked into his eyes.

John was not good at phrases. Under great emotion he could be eloquent
in few words--with the short, burning syllables, trembling like
fire-tongues from a furnace, which break through a man’s outer self now
and then. But at the present moment he felt no deep emotion--scarcely
any emotion at all, in fact. For months he had been used to the idea
that the beautiful young girl by his side was his lawful wife. For
months he had been accustomed to short, half-clandestine meetings. The
great thing, his real life with her, was as far off as ever, in his
heart’s sight, though his reason told him that the long period of
probation was drawing to a close. A habit had formed itself in his heart
of taking for granted, without words, that each loved the other truly,
and that each was waiting for the other. He had won her long ago. His
business of late had been to overcome circumstances, and he felt that
his actions might speak for him now, without language to help them. Yet
he felt sorely at the present moment the need of the phrase, and the
absence of the heart-beat that might prompt it. He saw that she missed
it, but though he loved her so dearly he could not force it to come. She
should have been thankful that he could not, and grateful to fate for
his inexperience.

It is a long drive from the corner of the Park to Lafayette Place, where
the Crowdies lived. The distance is fully two miles and a half, and John
realized that in the twenty minutes before him there was time for many
misunderstandings. With his natural directness, he spoke out.

“Darling,” he said, “don’t let’s be foolish, and quarrel over
nothings--”

“Quarrel? With you? Why--I’d rather die, Jack dear! It’s not that. I was
only thinking--”

She stopped, evidently with no intention of completing the sentence,
which meant, doubtless, a great deal to her, though it was vague to him.
But he had begun his explanation, and was not to be hindered from
pursuing it to the end.

“Yes, I know,” he replied, as though setting aside all her possible
objections. “Let’s look at it sensibly. It amounts to this. We both love
each other with all our hearts. You always say ‘care’ instead of ‘love.’
I suppose it’s a euphemism. But I say it just as it is. Do you think we
should have gone through all we have for each other if we didn’t love
with all our hearts? I know we couldn’t. And as for me, I’m perfectly
sure I never cared two straws for any one else. Aren’t you?”

“Jack!” exclaimed Katharine, almost offended at the idea.

“Yes--well,” he continued, rapidly, “it isn’t possible to say which has
done the most, or said the most, for the other’s sake. I think you’ve
done more for me than I have for you, if you want to know--but that’s
been the result of circumstances. You know I’d have done anything under
the sun, at any moment, don’t you?”

“Of course I do! Do you think I’d have made you marry me if I hadn’t
known that?”

“Well--that’s all right. As for saying things--I’ve said a great deal
more than you have. I’ve told you I love you several hundred thousand
times in the last year or two--haven’t I?”

“Yes--I’ve not counted.” Katharine smiled, but Ralston did not see his
advantage.

“I don’t say that I’ve found many new words to say it with,” he pursued.
“It doesn’t always seem to need new words, and if it did--well, I’m not
an author, you know. I’m not Frank Miner. I can’t go about with a
dictionary in my pocket, looking up new suits of clothes for my feelings
every time I want to air them. And sometimes I’ve said it to please you,
just because I knew you wanted me to say it and would be disappointed if
I didn’t. You see how frank I am.”

“Yes--you’re very frank!” She laughed a little, but rather hardly, as
though something hurt her.

“Don’t misunderstand me, dear,” he said, quickly. “You do--I see you do.
It’s just because I won’t be misunderstood that I’m talking as I am.
What I’m driving at is this. It isn’t true that words never mean
anything, as some people say--”

“Who says so? What nonsense!”

“Oh--people say it--books do--when the authors can’t find the words
people really say when they mean things. But it’s not true. Words mean a
great deal, when they do--when they just come because they must, you
know, in spite of everything and everybody--when they’ve strength enough
to force themselves out, instead of being dragged out, like olives out
of a bottle, and presented to you on a plate. But when they’re real,
they’re very real, with all of one, like pain or pleasure. Actions
always mean something. That’s the point. There’s no possible mistake
when a man does things that need a lot of doing, and don’t come easily.
Then you know he’s in earnest, if you’ll only look at what he does.
Don’t you think that’s true, Katharine?”

“Yes--oh, yes! That’s true enough. But it needn’t prevent a man from
saying that he cares--”

“Of course not--but if he doesn’t happen to want to say it just at that
moment--”

“But you should always want to say it. Don’t you always feel it?” She
looked at him in an odd surprise.

“Feel it--yes--always,” he answered, quickly. “But I don’t always want
to say just what I feel. Do you?”

“No. But that’s different. It makes me so happy when you say it, as you
can say it sometimes.”

“And don’t you think it makes me happy when you say it?” he retorted.
“And you don’t say it half as often as I do, I’m sure.”

“Don’t I? But I feel it, Jack.” Her eyes sought his, and found them
looking at her.

“Well--then--don’t you understand?” he asked.

But his voice was low, and it hardly reached her ears as the carriage
rumbled along, though she knew that his lips moved, and she tried hard
to catch the sounds. For a few seconds longer they looked into one
another’s eyes. Then, without word or warning, Ralston took his wife in
his arms and kissed her passionately again and again.

No one in the street could have seen, for the shades were half down and
the evening light was waning. The sun had just set, and the dark red
houses were floating in the afterglow, as everything seems to float when
twilight lifts reality from the earth into its dreamland. And the
carriage rolled and rumbled steadily along. But within it there was
silence for a while, as heart beat with heart and breath breathed with
breath.

“Jack--let me go to the Brights’,” said Katharine, suddenly, after what
had seemed a very long time.

Her voice was quite changed. It sounded so soft and touching that
Ralston could not resist it, being taken unawares.

“Dear--if you’d so much rather,” he answered, with hardly any
hesitation.

“Then tell the coachman, please,” she replied at once, without giving
him time to change his mind.

It was instinctive, and she could not help it. He yielded almost without
reluctance, and lowering the window in the front of the carriage, spoke
to the coachman. Katharine breathed a sigh of relief.

“I’m so glad--oh, I’m so glad!” she cried, leaning far back in her seat.
“I couldn’t have stood Crowdie for a whole evening!”

Ralston said nothing in answer, for he was already repenting of his
weakness, and the vision of his friend’s face rose before him, with all
its habitual calm cheerfulness suddenly twisted out of it.

“Thank you, dear,” said Katharine, softly laying her sound hand upon
his. “That was sweet of you. You don’t know how I feel about it. And
you’ll come in this evening, won’t you? Then perhaps Ham will go out.
And Mrs. Bright always goes to bed early, so we can have an hour or two
all to ourselves.”

“Certainly,” answered Ralston, a little absently, for he was thinking
more of Bright than of himself just then.

Katharine withdrew her hand from his, not quickly, nor so that he should
think she was hurt again by his tone. And she really suppressed the
little sigh of disappointment which rose to her lips.

They had been already in Fourth Avenue when Ralston had given the new
direction to the coachman, and he had turned his horses and was driving
back. The Brights lived in a small but pretty house in Park Avenue, on
Murray Hill. It was some distance to go back.

“Jack,” said Katharine, quietly, “Hamilton Bright’s your friend. Don’t
you think you’d better tell him that we’re married, and put him out of
his misery? Don’t you think it would be much more kind? You can trust
him, can’t you?”

“Just as I’d trust myself,” answered Ralston, without hesitation. “It’s
for your sake, dear--otherwise, I should have told him long ago. But you
know what most people think of secret marriages, and Ham’s full of queer
prejudices. Even the West couldn’t knock them out of him. He’s the most
terrific conservative about some things. That’s the reason why I never
thought of suggesting that I might tell him. Of course--if you’d rather.
It would be a blow to him, I think, but at the same time it’s much
better that he should know, for his own sake. Only--I’d rather not tell
him while you’re in the house.”

“Oh--if it’s going to make any difference about my staying there, we’d
better wait,” answered Katharine. “Of course--I hadn’t thought of that.
I suppose it would make it all the worse, just at first. He wouldn’t
like to see me. But he must have known, long ago, that we were engaged,
and that he had no chance.”

“The one doesn’t follow the other,” answered Ralston. “A man like Ham
doesn’t give up hope until the girl he loves is married and done for.”

“Married and done for! Jack! How you talk!”

“Oh--it’s a way of saying that she’s out of reach, that’s all. I’ve
heard you say it lots of times. No,” he continued, after a moment’s
pause, “I think it would be kinder to wait till you come away. But of
course I could tell him any day, down town.”

“Do as you think best, dear. Whatever you do will be right. Only--” She
stopped, and looked out of the window on her right, away from Ralston.

“Only what?” he asked.

“Only love me!” she cried, almost fiercely, and turning upon him so
quickly that she pressed her injured right arm against the side of the
carriage. “Only love me as I want to be loved--as I must be loved--”

The passion in her outran the pain of the physical hurt, that crept
after it and reached her a moment later, so that she turned a little
pale. Jack did not know of that, and in his eyes the pallor was of the
heart, as the voice was, and the words. It made her more beautiful, and
made love seem more true. Then his own heart beat hard, answering the
call of hers, as wave answers wave, and his arms were around her again
in an instant.

But at that moment the carriage stopped before the Brights’ house. A
smile came into the face of both of them as they drew back from one
another. Then Ralston opened the door and got out.

It might not have been easy to explain to Mrs. Bright exactly why
Katharine had arrived unexpectedly with a box and a valise to stay three
or four days with her, instead of going to her own house at such a time.
She knew, of course, that the young girl had been at Robert Lauderdale’s
during the last twenty-four hours. But Mrs. Bright wanted no
explanations, and was overjoyed to have Katharine for any reason, or
without any. She received her with open arms, ordered her things to be
taken upstairs, asked Ralston to stay and have some tea, and at once
began making many enquiries about Katharine’s arm. Ralston went away
immediately, however. After being alone with Katharine in the carriage,
as he had been, he did not care to sit still and listen to the excellent
Mrs. Bright’s questions.

“Thank you, dear,” said Katharine again, in an undertone, as he bade her
good-bye. “Come this evening. May Jack come this evening, aunt Maggie?”
she asked, turning to Mrs. Bright.

“Of course, my dear--whenever he likes,” answered the cheerful lady.

Mrs. Bright was a great-granddaughter of the primeval Alexander. Her
mother had been Margaret Lauderdale. By no possible interpretation of
the relationship was she entitled to be considered the aunt of any
member of the tribe. But they one and all called her aunt Maggie. Even
the three Miss Miners, who were nieces of Mr. Bright’s father, called
her so, and the custom had become fixed and unchangeable in the course
of many years. Of late, even grandpapa Lauderdale, the philanthropist,
had fallen into the habit, much to the amusement of everybody.

Mrs. Bright was a huge, fair, happy-faced woman with an amazingly kind
heart and a fresh face, peculiar from the apparent absence of
eyebrows--which existed, indeed, but were almost white by nature. She
had the busy manner peculiar to a certain type of very stout people.
When she was not asleep she was doing good to somebody--but she slept a
great deal. Her tastes were marvellously good, highly refined, and very
fastidious. Cleanliness is a virtue next to godliness, according to the
proverb--and since a number of persons have relegated godliness to the
catalogue of obsolete superstitions, cleanliness with them, at least,
should stand first of all. But Mrs. Bright’s mania was specklessness
surpassing all dreams of cleanliness, as pure spring water surpasses
soap as a symbol of purity. She took care to see that her house was
swept, and she garnished it herself. She exhaled a faint suggestion of
sprigs of lavender.

Hamilton Bright inherited his fresh complexion, sturdy build, and solid
good humour from her, but a certain shyness and reserve which were among
his characteristics had come to him from his father.

To Katharine’s surprise, he was already at home, and came down to see
her as soon as he heard that she was in the house. He sat down by the
little tea-table which stood between her and his mother, and he wondered
inwardly why she had come. He was pleased, however, and it seemed to him
that her coming crowned the day which had brought him such vast and
unexpected good fortune. There are men who love with all their hearts
and who are not loved in return, nor have any hope of such love, whose
greatest happiness is to see the vainly worshipped object of their
misplaced affections under just such circumstances. Bright was delighted
that Katharine should be his guest and his mother’s--she was his guest
first, in his thoughts, and it gave him the keenest pleasure to see her
drinking his and his mother’s tea out of his and his mother’s old
Dresden teacups, just as though it were her own, and thinking it just as
good.

He asked no questions, and he thought of no answers which she might give
if he asked any. He was simply pleased, and wished nothing to interfere
with his satisfaction as long as it might last.

“It’s awfully jolly to see you here,” he said, after he had looked at
her for nearly a minute.

“Well, you can’t be half as pleased as I am,” she answered. “I was there
all last night, you know, and all to-day. It’s grim. I couldn’t stand it
any longer. And I knew they didn’t exactly expect me at home--and I
didn’t want to go to Hester’s, so I thought I’d drop down upon you
without warning, as I knew you had nobody staying with you. But it was
rather a calm thing to do, now that I think of it--wasn’t it, aunt
Maggie?”

Mrs. Bright beamed, smiled, kissed her fingers to the young girl, and
then did perfectly useless things with the silver tea-strainer, rinsing
it again with boiling water, and touching it fastidiously, as though it
might possibly soil her immaculate hands.




CHAPTER XVII.


Katharine had expected to spend a quiet evening with Ralston. She had
counted upon Mrs. Bright’s sleepiness, which was overpowering when it
suddenly came upon her, and upon Hamilton Bright’s tact. She thought
that he would very probably go out soon after dinner and not appear
again. But she was very much mistaken in her calculations.

When she came down to dinner she found Bright already in the library. He
was bending over a low table and looking at a new book when she entered,
and she saw a broad, flat expanse of black shoulders, just surmounted by
a round, flaxen head. As he heard her step behind him he straightened
himself and turned round to meet her. He put out his hand. She seemed a
little surprised at this, since they had exchanged all the usual
greetings when she had come, but she took it with her left, with an
unconscious awkwardness which touched him. She laughed a little.

“It’s not easy with my left,” she said. “It doesn’t come right--besides,
we’ve shaken hands before.”

“I know,” he answered. “But it doesn’t do any harm to do it again, you
know.”

It gave him pleasure to touch even the tips of her fingers.

“You have a sort of classic look,” he said, glancing at her dress.
“Toga--you know--that sort of thing.”

“I don’t know how I’m dressed, I’m sure,” she answered. “It’s such a
bore to have one’s arm in a sling.”

She wore black. Her left side was fitted closely by the soft material,
and she had a certain little silver pin at her throat, which had
associations for her. She had worn it on the morning of her marriage
with John Ralston, and seldom appeared without it, though it was a most
insignificant little ornament. Over her right shoulder and arm she had
draped a piece of black silk and some lace. Mrs. Bright had come to her
room and arranged it for her with unerring skill and taste. It fell
gracefully almost to her feet, whence Bright’s remark about the toga.

“I should think it would be rather worse than a bore,” he said. “It must
hurt all the time. I wonder you keep up at all. But I’m glad you’ve come
down before my mother. I wanted to say something to you about all that’s
happened. You don’t mind, do you?”

“Why should I mind?” asked Katharine, smiling at the little timidity
which had checked him with its question.

“Well--you know--it’s about the will. There may be trouble about it.
Your father may wish to break it if he can. It’s not unnatural. But of
course, if he does, there’s going to be a most terrific row all round.
We shall all be raging furiously together like the heathen in about a
week, if he attacks the will. The Thirty Years’ War wouldn’t be in it,
with the row there’s going to be.”

“You take a cheerful view, cousin Ham,” said Katharine, with a smile.
“Who’s going to fight whom?”

“You and I are going to be on opposite sides,” answered Bright, gravely,
and fixing his clear blue eyes on her face.

“Well--what difference does that make?” she asked. “I mean, what
personal difference? We shall be just as good friends, shan’t we?”

“Ah--that’s it! Shall we?” He continued to watch her earnestly.

“Why not?” she asked, returning his gaze quietly. “What earthly
difference can it make to me? Of course, I hope papa won’t do anything
of the kind. We shall all have such heaps of money that I can’t see why
we should fight about a little, more or less--”

“No--but if he breaks the will, my mother and Hester and I shall get
nothing at all, and of course I shall fight it like anything. You
understand that, don’t you? It’s rather a big thing, you know--it’s
forty millions or nothing, because we’re not next of kin. You’ll
understand why I shall fight it, won’t you?”

He asked the last question very anxiously, and in his broad face there
was a curious struggle between the fighting instinct, expressed in the
setting of the firm jaw, and the painful fear of being misunderstood,
which showed itself in the entreating glance of the eyes.

“I understand perfectly,” answered Katharine. “It’s your duty to fight
it--of course.”

“I’m so glad you look at it in that way,” he said. “Because if you
didn’t--” He paused in the middle of the sentence.

“If I didn’t, I should be very stupid,” observed Katharine.

“No, no! I mean--if I thought you couldn’t understand it--well, I’ll be
hanged if I wouldn’t pretty nearly let the millions go, rather than
displease you!”

He blurted out the last words bluntly, as such men say wild but
sincerely meant things. Katharine understood.

“Please don’t say such foolish things, cousin Ham. You know it’s
perfectly absurd to talk of sacrificing a fortune in that way. Besides,
you’d have no right not to fight your best. Two-thirds of what you’ll
get will go to your mother and sister. You haven’t the slightest right
even to think of the possibility of sacrificing aunt Maggie and Hester.”

“No. I suppose I’ve not. And I know that it isn’t as though you weren’t
to have a big fortune anyway, however it turns out. Perhaps I’m a fool,
but I simply can’t bear to think of being opposed to you in anything.
That’s the plain fact, in two words.”

Katharine heard a sort of unsteadiness in the tone, and looked at him
for a moment in silence.

“Thank you, cousin Ham,” she said. “You’re a good friend. Thank you.”
She laid her hand upon his arm for an instant.

“That’s better than millions,” answered Bright, in an undertone, for his
mother was just entering the room.

Mrs. Bright might well be pardoned if she did not assume a lugubrious
and funereal expression that evening. To her, Robert Lauderdale had been
a distant relation of enormous wealth, from whom she had little or
nothing to expect, and whom she rarely saw. She had never needed his
help, and though he had occasionally remembered her and sent her a jewel
at Christmas, neither she nor her son had ever felt very much indebted
to him. The surprise was therefore overwhelming, and the rejoicing
inevitable and natural. Knowing, however, how dearly the old man had
loved Katharine, and that she had been with him at the time of his death
and had been really fond of him, Mrs. Bright avoided the subject
altogether during dinner. It would not keep out of her face, however,
nor out of her manner. Once or twice she and her son exchanged glances,
and both suppressed a happy smile. Katharine saw, understood, and felt
sad. The conversation turned upon generalities and was not very amusing.

Katharine could not help thinking of what Bright had said to her just
before dinner. At the moment, he had undoubtedly meant that he would
sacrifice the vast inheritance rather than incur her momentary
displeasure. Of course, she said to herself, when the case arose he
would not really have done so, but she could not but appreciate the
reckless generosity of the thought, and wonder at the possible strength
of the love that had prompted it. He had spoken so earnestly and there
had been such a perceptible tremor in his voice, that she had been glad
when Mrs. Bright’s appearance had cut short the interview. While she
talked indifferently during dinner, her thoughts dwelt on what Ralston
had said about Bright’s feelings and then went back to Ralston himself,
who was almost always present in her reflections. She felt that she
should not have felt any surprise if he had spoken as Bright had done.
It would have been quite natural. She might even have thought of
accepting the sacrifice.

Just then, after a little pause in the conversation, Mrs. Bright
suddenly asked her son whether he meant to go out in the evening.

“No,” he answered, promptly. “Not to-night. I wouldn’t go anywhere
except to the club, and even there--well, everybody would be talking and
asking questions, and that sort of thing. Besides,” he added, “cousin
Katharine’s here.”

The change of tone as he spoke of Katharine was so apparent that Mrs.
Bright smiled a little sadly. Her woman’s instinct had told her long ago
that her son had very little chance.

The three had not been long in the library when a servant brought a card
to Mrs. Bright. She glanced at it, somewhat surprised by the coming of
an unexpected visitor, in these days when evening visits have
disappeared from New York’s changeable civilization.

“It’s Archie Wingfield,” she said. “Funny!” she exclaimed. “Show Mr.
Wingfield in,” she said to the servant.

A moment later Archibald Wingfield entered the room. In spite of
himself, he paused a moment as he caught sight of Katharine.

“Oh!” he ejaculated, awkwardly, in a low voice.

Then he came forward, resolutely keeping his bold black eyes on Mrs.
Bright’s face as he went up to her and shook hands. Katharine had
understood the exclamation of astonishment, and felt the awkwardness of
the situation. But as she had given up all hope of seeing Ralston alone
that evening, she thought it was as well, on the whole, that some one
else should have come to help the general conversation. Nevertheless,
she would have chosen almost any one rather than her last rejected
suitor.

Both she and Hamilton Bright watched the young fellow with involuntary
admiration as he crossed the room and stood exchanging first words with
Mrs. Bright. There is a fascination about physical superiority when it
far outdoes all its surroundings and is altogether beyond competition
which, perhaps, no other attraction exercises in the same degree at
first sight.

Wingfield came to Katharine next. The rich blood rose in his brown
cheeks.

“I didn’t know you were here,” he said, simply.

“Excuse my left hand,” she answered, quietly, as she extended it. “I’ve
had a little accident.”

Wingfield started perceptibly. The expression in his black eyes changed
to one of the deepest anxiety, and the blush slowly ebbed from his face.

“An accident?” he stammered.

“Oh--nothing serious,” she answered, touched by the evident strength of
his feeling. “It’s only the small bone of my right arm. I fell down
yesterday and broke it. It’s in splints, of course, so I have to use my
left.”

“And you’re--you’re not taking care of yourself? With a broken arm?” He
seemed amazed, not having had much experience of broken limbs--his own
were solid. “But you ought to be at home--”

Katharine laughed a little.

“I’m staying here with aunt Maggie,” she answered. “I could scarcely
have any better care, could I?”

“Oh--I see. Yes.” But he did not seem satisfied.

He turned to Bright, shook hands, and then sat down.

“You must think it awfully funny--my dropping in, in this way,” he said,
recovering the self-possession which naturally belonged to his
character. “The fact is, I was going to dine out, and at the last minute
the people sent to tell me not to come, because they’ve had a little
fire in the dining-room, and everything’s flooded and uncomfortable, and
they were going to picnic somewhere--or something. So I dined at the
club, and I’m going to see the last act of that play with the horses in
it, you know--so I thought you wouldn’t mind if I asked leave to spend
half an hour with you on the way.”

“Why, of course not!” cried Mrs. Bright. “I’m delighted. You must help
us to amuse Katharine. She’s rather gloomy, poor child--with her arm,
and all she’s been through. She was staying with poor Mr. Lauderdale
when he died so suddenly.”

“Yes--it’s awfully sad,” answered Wingfield, with appropriate solemnity,
and wondering whether he should congratulate the Brights upon the
inheritance. “As for amusing Miss Lauderdale,” he continued, “I wish I
could. But I’m not a very amusing person--not a bit.”

“Perhaps we can amuse you, instead,” suggested Katharine, by way of
saying something.

“Oh, no--thanks--you’re very kind,” answered the young man, confusedly.
“You know my brothers always call me the family idiot. They’re always
chaffing me because I don’t know languages and things. I say,
Bright--you’re clever--do you know a lot of languages?”

“I? No, indeed!” answered Bright, with a short laugh. “I don’t know
anything particular--except about cattle and horses, and something about
banking. I’ve had a modern education! How should I know anything?”

“Oh, hang it all--I mean--I beg your pardon--but what a thing to say!”

“It’s mere nonsense,” observed Mrs. Bright. “Ham knows everything in a
useful way. But he’s always railing at modern education, and telling me
that it’s ruined his mind. He’s not sensible about that. Really you’re
not, Ham,” she added, with emphasis.

“Education’s meant for the common herd, mother,” answered Bright. “Fools
are better without it, bankers don’t need it, and geniuses can do
better.”

“That’s rather good,” said Katharine, thoughtfully. “With which do you
class yourself?” she asked, with a laugh.

“Well--being neither a genius nor a fool, I have to be content with
being a banker.”

“I say--are lawyers part of the common herd, Bright?” enquired
Wingfield.

“Not if you’re going to be one, my dear boy,” answered the elder man.
“But I hope you’re not going to nail me out on my statement like an owl
over a stable door. It’s not kind. It’s much nicer to be misunderstood
in a friendly way than to have all one’s friends up on their hind legs
trying to understand one, when one hasn’t meant anything particular. By
Jove! There goes the bell again! I wonder who it is?”

“What ears you have!” exclaimed Mrs. Bright. “I didn’t hear anything.
But it must be Jack Ralston. He’d come early, you know.”

Katharine glanced surreptitiously at the two men, leaning back in her
chair with half-closed eyes. Bright’s expression became a little more
set, and he moved one foot uneasily. Wingfield looked at Mrs. Bright as
she spoke, and then straight at Katharine. Ralston entered in a dead
silence, glanced quickly at Wingfield, greeted every one in turn, in the
quiet, easy way peculiar to him, which was quite different from Bright’s
slow and rather heavy manner, and from Archibald Wingfield’s physical
style, so to say, which showed itself in long, swift, powerful
movements, like the great stride of a magnificent hunter going along in
the open.

“You’ll be tired of the sight of me to-day,” said Ralston, smiling as he
sat down near Mrs. Bright.

“No fear of that, Jack,” answered Bright, anxious to show Katharine that
he was not displeased at Ralston’s coming. “My mother always looks upon
you as a sort of second son.”

“The prodigal son,” suggested John.

“Is that a hint to produce the fatted calf?” asked Bright. “Or have you
dined? You don’t look as though you had.”

“Why? What’s the matter with me? I’ve just come from dinner. I dined at
home with my mother.”

“You’re rather lean for a man who dines every day,” laughed Bright.
“That’s all. I believe you starve in secret. You’re afraid of getting
fat, Jack--that’s the truth. Confess it! You think it wouldn’t be
romantic.”

“I wish you would get a little fatter, Jack,” said Katharine. “You’d be
much nicer, I’m sure.”

The remark might have been natural enough between two cousins, both
young. But there was a subtle suggestion of proprietorship, or at least
of belonging to one another, in the tone of her voice, which jarred on
Wingfield’s ear. He was by no means dull nor slow of perception, in
spite of what he had said of himself. As an athlete, however, he took up
the question.

“You’d be stronger if you were a little heavier, Ralston,” he said. “Do
you go in for oatmeal when you train?”

“Oh--I haven’t trained since I was at college. I never bothered much.
But I don’t like stodgy things like porridge. I was a running man, you
know. I don’t believe it makes a particle of difference what one eats.”

“Oh, I do!” Katharine exclaimed, anxious to make the conversation move.
“I like some things and I don’t like others.”

“What, for instance?” asked Bright. “What do you like best to eat--and
then afterwards, what other things do you like best in the world? That’s
interesting. If you’ll tell us, we’ll get them for you right off.”

“I should think you could, between you,” said Mrs. Bright, glancing
round at the three goodly men, and wondering whether Wingfield was as
much in love with Katharine as the other two.

“What I like?--let me see,” said Katharine. “I like simple things to
eat. I hate peppermints, for instance. My mother lives on them. I like
plain things, generally--fish and game. Truffles--that’s another thing I
detest. Aunt Maggie never can understand why. She says there’s something
mysterious in a truffle, that appeals to her.”

“They’re so good!” exclaimed Mrs. Bright. “Big black ones in a napkin
with fresh butter. But it’s quite true. There’s a sort of mystery in a
truffle. It’s like love, you know.”

Everybody laughed at what seemed the fantastic irrelevancy of the
comparison--Bright laughing louder than the rest.

“How do you make that out?” he asked. “It would be rather a grimy,
earthy sort of love, I should think.”

“Explain, aunt Maggie!” laughed Katharine.

“A truffle’s a cryptogam,” said Bright. “Nobody has ever explained about
cryptogams.”

“What is a cryptogam?” asked Katharine. “I’ve always wanted to know.”

“Cryptogam means secret marriage, or something of the sort,” said
Wingfield.

Katharine started a little and glanced at John Ralston.

“Yes,” said the latter. “It’s equivalent to saying that nobody knows how
they grow. But that doesn’t at all explain what aunt Maggie means by
what she said. Come, aunt Maggie, we’re all waiting for you to tell us.”

“Oh--I’m getting so sleepy, my dears, don’t ask me to explain things!
You know I’m always sleepy in the evening. It’s taking an unfair
advantage of me! Why is love like a truffle? Why, exactly for that
reason--because nobody can possibly tell when it begins, or how, or
why--or anything about it. Only, when you find it, you’ve found
something worth having. As for secret marriages--wasn’t it you who
mentioned them just now, Mr. Wingfield? Yes--well, they’re very romantic
and unpractical and pretty, but I should think the people would find it
a great nuisance. It’s much better to run away, and be done with it.”

Ralston’s eyes met Katharine’s, and he suppressed a smile, but in her
pale face the colour was rising slowly. Again the door opened, and two
men entered the room unannounced. The servant had taken it for granted
that as two visitors had been admitted, he might admit as many more as
came. Paul Griggs, the author, and Walter Crowdie, the artist, came
forward into the bright light. Crowdie has been already described.
Griggs was a lean, strong, grey-haired, plain-featured man of fifty, a
gaunt, bony, weather-beaten man, who had lived in many countries and
had seen many interesting sights--but none so interesting, people had
been saying lately, as Katharine Lauderdale’s face. It was commonly said
that he was in love with the girl, and people added that at his age it
was ridiculous, and that he was making a fool of himself.

Crowdie, as the son-in-law of the house, and one of the numerous persons
who called Mrs. Bright ‘aunt,’ came forward first, to shake hands and
explain the visit.

“I was going to make an apology for coming in without warning, aunt
Maggie,” he said. “Griggs dined with us, and we’re going to see the last
act of that play with the horses in it--you know--and as it’s too early,
we thought we’d ring the bell and call. But as you’ve got a party, I
suppose you accept the apology. At least, I hope you will.”

“You’re very welcome, Walter--glad to see you, Mr. Griggs.” Mrs. Bright
beamed. “It is a party--isn’t it? Why, there are five men in the room.
Let’s all go and see the last act of the play with the horses, and come
back to supper! Oh--I forgot--and Katharine, too, with her broken arm.
But Mr. Wingfield’s going to it by and by.”

“Yes,” said Wingfield. “I’m going. We’ll walk up together.”

Both Griggs and Crowdie had already heard of Katharine’s accident and
were asking her about it, before Mrs. Bright had finished speaking.
Presently the new-comers got seats, and the circle widened to admit them
as they sat down.

“I’m sure we interrupted some delightful conversation,” said Griggs,
breaking the momentary silence. “Won’t you go on?”

“My mother was explaining her views upon secret marriages,” said Bright.
“She’d just been comparing love to a truffle.”

“Truffle--cryptogam--secret marriage--love,” said Griggs, gravely. “Very
natural sequence of ideas. The interesting link is the secret marriage.”

“Yes, isn’t it?” assented young Wingfield. “What do you think about it,
Mr. Griggs?”

“What were you saying about it?” asked the man of letters, cautiously.

“No--what do you think about it?” insisted Mrs. Bright. “We hadn’t said
anything especial.”

“Is anybody present secretly married?” enquired Griggs, with a pleasant
laugh. “No--exactly--then I shouldn’t advise any of you to try it. I did
once--”

“You!” exclaimed two or three voices at once, and in surprise.

“Yes--on paper, in a book, with my paper dolls. I never want to do it
again. It had awful consequences.”

“Why, what do you mean?” asked Mrs. Bright.

“Oh--nothing! I fell in love with the heroine myself from writing about
her, killed the hero out of jealousy, and blew out my brains in the end
because she wouldn’t have me. I suppose it was natural, considering what
I’d done, but I took my revenge. I put her into a convent of Carmelite
nuns. It was so awkward afterwards. I wanted her in another
book--because I was in love with her--but as she was a Carmelite, she
couldn’t get out respectably, so she’s there still. It’s an awful bore.”

Even Katharine, who had felt the blood rising again in her cheeks,
laughed at the simple, natural regret expressed in Griggs’ face as he
spoke.

“Yes,” said Bright. “That’s all very well in a novel. But in real life
it’s quite different. I think a man who does that kind of thing is a
cad, myself.”

“So do I,” said Archibald Wingfield, impetuously. “A howling cad, you
know.”

“It’s an unnecessary piece of presumption to suppose that the world
cares what one does,” said Crowdie, who had not spoken yet. “And it
complicates things abominably to be married and not married at the same
time. Shouldn’t you think so, Miss Lauderdale?” he asked, turning his
head towards Katharine as he spoke.

“I? Oh--I’ve no opinion in the matter,” answered Katharine, looking
away, and feeling very uncomfortable.

“I don’t agree with either of you,” said Ralston, slowly. “It depends
entirely on circumstances. There are cases where it’s the only thing to
do, if people really love each other. I don’t think any one has a right
to say that a man’s a cad simply because he’s married his wife secretly.
A man’s a much worse cad who marries a girl for her money, and doesn’t
care for her, than any man who gets secretly married for real love--and
you all know it.”

Ralston could not help speaking rather aggressively.

“Look out for the family temper!” laughed Walter Crowdie, in his
exquisitely musical voice.

“We’re all more or less of the family here,” answered Ralston, “except
Mr. Griggs and Wingfield. Not that we’re likely to get angry about such
a question,” he added, with an attempt at indifference. “What I say is
that it’s a monstrous injustice to call a man a cad on such grounds.”

“Oh--all right, Jack!” cried Bright. “If ever you get secretly married,
we won’t say you’re a cad. But in most cases--well, I’d rather hear
Griggs talk about it than talk myself. He’s an expert in love
affairs--on paper, as he says. Say what you really think, Griggs.
Wingfield and I can hold Ralston between us if he shows signs of being
dangerous.”

“I think I could help myself, in a modest way,” said Mr. Griggs, with a
quiet smile. “I used to be pretty strong once.”

He made the remark merely in the hope of turning the conversation.
Wingfield, as an athlete and a young Hercules, could not hear any
allusion made to physical strength without taking it up and discussing
it.

“Were you a boating man, Mr. Griggs?” he enquired, with sudden interest.

“No. I never pulled in a race.”

“I suppose you went in for long distance running, then. You’re made for
it,” he added, rather patronizingly and glancing at the man’s sinewy
figure.

“No. I never ran in a race,” answered the literary man.

“Oh--I supposed, when you spoke, that you’d gone in for
athletics--formerly,” said Wingfield, disappointed.

“No--I wasn’t educated in places where athletics were the fashion at
that time. I was strong--that’s all. I could do things with my hands
that other people couldn’t.”

“Could you?” Katharine saw that the original subject was dropping, and
encouraged the dull conversation which had taken its place. “What could
you do with your hands?” she asked, with an air of interest. “They look
strong. Could you roll up silver plates into holders for bouquets, like
Count Orloff?”

“I think I could do it,” Griggs answered, quietly. “But nobody ever
wanted to waste a silver plate on me.”

“It’s not easy, I should think,” said young Wingfield. “I know I
couldn’t do it.”

“I’m sure you could,” said Katharine, turning to him. “You must be
tremendously strong. But can’t you do something else with your hands,
Mr. Griggs? I like to see those things. They amuse me.”

Griggs was the last man in the world to wish to show off his qualities,
physical or mental, but on the present occasion he could not resist the
temptation. He never knew afterwards why he had yielded, and attributed
his weakness to the inborn desire to excel in the eyes of women, which
is in every man.

“Have you a pack of cards?” he asked, turning to Bright. “If you have,
I’ll show you something that may amuse you.”

Bright was a whist player, and immediately brought a pack from a remote
corner of the room and put it into Griggs’ hands.

“Now--there’s no deception, as the conjurers say,” he began, with a
laugh, looking first at Katharine, and then at Wingfield, as the strong
man of the party. “Perhaps you can do it, Mr. Wingfield?” he added.

“What? Tricks with cards? No--I’m not good at that sort of thing.”

“Well--it isn’t exactly a trick. I’m going to tear the pack in two. Did
you ever see it done?”

“No,” answered Wingfield, incredulously. “I’ve heard of it--but I don’t
believe it’s possible, if you tear it fairly.”

“Is this fair? Have I got a fair hold on them?”

“Yes--that’s all right. I don’t believe anybody can do it that way.”

“Well--look.”

Griggs set his teeth a little as he made the effort, and the furrows in
the weather-beaten face deepened a little, but that was all. The sinews
stood out on the backs of his hands for a few seconds, and his hands
moved, the one downwards, the other up. The pack was torn clean in two.

“By Jove!” exclaimed Bright. “I never saw that done.”

“I wouldn’t have believed it,” said Wingfield. “I’ve often tried. It’s
perfectly magnificent!”

“I’ll avoid you in a fight,” observed Ralston, laughing.

Crowdie had looked on with curiosity, but he had watched Griggs’ face
rather than his hands, comparing it with a picture of Samson pulling
down the pillars, which rose in his memory. He came to the conclusion
that the man who had painted the picture had never seen a great feat of
strength.

“It looks so easy,” said Katharine. “But it must be awfully hard.”

“There’s a good story the peasants tell in Russia about Peter the
Great,” said Griggs. “He was hunting. His horse lost a shoe, and he
stopped at a wayside smith’s. The smith made a shoe while Peter waited.
Peter took it, tried it in his hands, broke it and threw it into a
corner, saying it was bad. The smith made another, and the Czar broke it
again, and so on. But he could not break the tenth. The blacksmith asked
a rouble for the shoe. Peter gave him one. He broke it in two and threw
it into a corner, saying it was bad--and so he broke as many roubles as
the Czar had broken shoes, and said that the tenth was good. Peter was
so much pleased that he made the man a general--or something.”

“I suppose you could do that, too, couldn’t you?” asked Katharine,
looking at the gaunt, grey man with a strong admiration.

“Oh, yes--I’ve done it. But it’s a strange thing, isn’t it, when you
think that it’s all an illusion?”

“An illusion!” cried Wingfield, in disappointment. “What do you mean? It
isn’t a trick, surely!”

“Oh, no! I don’t mean that. But all matter is an illusion, isn’t it?
Nothing’s real that isn’t permanent.”

“But if matter isn’t permanent, what is?” asked Bright. “But I know--you
have the most extraordinary ideas about those things.”

“I don’t think they’re extraordinary. If matter were permanent in the
sense you mean, then life would be permanent in the same sense, because
we’re matter, and we shouldn’t die.”




CHAPTER XVIII.


Young Wingfield looked at Katharine with an air of entreaty, as though
hoping that she, at least, might understand what Mr. Griggs meant. She
smiled as she saw his expression, and understood what was passing in his
mind. She was supposed to have seen far more of Griggs during the
preceding month than she really had, and she got credit for
comprehending, at least, the general drift of his ideas, beyond what she
deserved. Wingfield looked at her in vain, and then broke the silence
which had followed Griggs’ last speech.

“I wish one knew what to believe,” he said, formulating the nineteenth
century’s dying question. “It’s not easy, you know, with all these
theories about.”

Of the seven persons present there was not one whose convictions really
coincided, even approximately, with any established form of belief. Yet
all belonged to some one of the few principal Christian churches, by
birth, early associations and youthful teaching.

Wingfield’s question was received in silence. His bold black eyes
glanced from one to another of his companions, and the blood mounted
slowly in his healthy brown cheeks, for he was young enough to fancy
that some of these might have thought his remark futile or trivial and
he did not wish to seem dull before Katharine.

She found herself in a strange position. By a very natural train of
circumstances she was accidentally set up as a sort of idol that evening
before the five men who, of all others, each in his own way, most
sincerely loved and admired her. Secretly married to the one of them she
loved, two of the others--Hamilton Bright and Wingfield--wished to marry
her. Of the other two, Crowdie, the painter, admired her more than any
woman he had ever seen, though he was undoubtedly in love with his wife.
Had she been able to understand his admiration, it would have repelled
her. Fortunately it was beneath her understanding. And to Griggs,
weather-beaten, overworked, disenchanted of all that the world held, by
reason of having had much of it either too early or too late, with his
hard head and his dreamy mind and his almost supernaturally strong
hands--to Griggs she represented something he would not have told then,
but something which Katharine need not have been ashamed to hear of, nor
her husband to tolerate. Ralston might even have found sympathy for him.

They all worshipped her in one way or another, though she was a very
human girl of her time and place in the world. And somehow, in the
silence which followed Griggs’ speech, broken only by Wingfield’s
questioning remark, they all turned to her as he had done, as though in
her face they sought the lost faith. Hard-headed men, some of them, too,
and hard-fisted. The three eldest had each accomplished something. The
two younger ones were perhaps on the way. They were rather typical men.

Katharine was vaguely conscious of their glances, and was the first to
speak, after Wingfield.

“It’s what we all feel--what half the people we know feel, though they
haven’t the courage to say it.”

Wingfield looked at her gratefully, conscious that she had justified
what he had feared had been a foolish observation.

“Katharine,” said Mrs. Bright, who had not spoken for a long time, “if
you’re going to talk theology, I shall go to bed--like the baron in the
Ingoldsby legends. ‘There are no windows to break, and they can’t get
in’--do you remember? So he went to bed and slept soundly through the
siege. It’s exactly the same with theology, my dear. It’s all been
discussed a hundred thousand times, and yet nobody ever gets in. There’s
only one religion the whole world over, and that is, to do the best one
can and help other people--because no one can do better than the best
he can, according to what he thinks right. And there’s a great deal in
soap, my dear. I’m sure people feel like better people when they’re
clean, and as people do what they feel, why, they really are better
people. I’d like to try free soap in the State of New York for a year,
and see whether it didn’t improve the criminal statistics.”

“It’s a splendid election cry, mother,” said Bright.
“ ‘Soap--Something--and Stability.’ We’ll try it some day.”

“No, but there’s truth in it,” protested Mrs. Bright. “Isn’t there, Mr.
Griggs?”

“Of course,” answered Griggs, gravely. “Every religion that ever existed
has some rules of ablution. And there’s a lot of truth in the other
things you said, Mrs. Bright. Only the trouble is, a code of
action--what you call doing the best one can--doesn’t satisfy humanity.
The average human being won’t do anything for its own sake. He must do
it for his own advantage here--or hereafter, since people will insist on
using that idiotic word.”

“Why idiotic?” asked Wingfield, very naturally.

“Hereafter means a future, and there isn’t any such thing, except in a
small way, for matter-worlds and such little trifles, which go to pieces
every two or three thousand million years.”

“Yes, but the soul--if we’ve got one.”

Wingfield added the last conditional expression rather sheepishly, as
though he suspected that the highly intellectual beings amongst whom he
found himself might have done away with such old-fashioned nonsense as
the soul.

“Of course you’ve got a soul,” said Griggs, rather impatiently. “But if
it’s a real soul, it has no weight and no size, and no shape and no
colour, nor anything resembling matter--nor anything with which to
resemble anything, except other souls. Well, of course you know that
time is only conceivable in relation to matter in motion, so that where
there isn’t any matter, there isn’t any time. And where there’s no time
there can’t be portions of time, which are past, present, and future. So
the soul has no time, doesn’t exist in relation to time, and
consequently can’t be said to have a hereafter. The body has a
hereafter--oh, yes--it’s absorbed into the elements and lives over again
thousands of millions of times. But the soul hasn’t. It’s eternal. If it
always is to be, as we say, comparing it to matter, why, then, it always
was, by the same comparison. But the fact is, that ‘it is’--and there’s
no more to be said. ‘It is,’ and as it’s indestructible, not being
matter, by the hypothesis, nothing can be said of it in that respect
except that ‘it is.’ You can’t say that an axiom, for instance, has a
past, present, and future, can you? Well--if the soul’s anything, it’s
axiomatic. There, I’ve bored you to death--shall I tear another pack of
cards for you, or break silver dollars to amuse you? I’ll do anything
I’m told, now that I’ve had my say.”

Griggs laughed quietly and crossed one leg over the other, as he looked
at Katharine.

“You’re not a comforting person when one feels religious,” she said.

“No--by Jove!” exclaimed Bright. “You wouldn’t have converted the
cowboys in the Nacimiento Valley, Griggs. They’d have tried their own
idea of a hereafter on you--quick. That’s the trouble with all that
metaphysical stuff, or whatever you call it--it doesn’t say anything to
mankind--it only talks to professorkind. Unless a fellow’s passed a sort
of higher standard in terminations, he hasn’t the ghost of a chance of
spiritual comfort. He couldn’t understand the first word of what you
talk about.”

“Did I use long words?” asked Griggs, blandly. “I thought I didn’t.”

“Well, not exactly long words. I don’t mean literally terminations. But
you talk another language, somehow. I know I’m what they call an
educated man, because I once learned some Latin and Greek at a sinful
expense of time. But I can’t half follow you, even when you use good
plain English. The policeman at the corner would march you off and clap
you in the jug like a shot if you talked to him that way for five
minutes. That is, unless you tied him up in a hard knot with those hands
of yours, and set him down by the railings to cool. I wouldn’t try it,
though. I suppose there’s a limit to the number of policemen you could
strangle with each finger. No--joking apart--that sort of thing isn’t
going to take the place of Christianity, you know--even as people like
us look at what we call Christianity. You’ve got to have something to
pray for and somebody to pray to, you know, after all.”

“Well,” answered Griggs, “there’s God to pray to and salvation to pray
for.”

“Not in your system--without any future,” retorted Bright.

“Oh, yes, there is,” replied the other. “You seem to think I’m an
atheist, or a freethinker, at least--though I can’t see why, I’m sure.”

“Why--because--” Bright stopped, trying to formulate his accusation.

Katharine laughed a little, and Wingfield looked from one to the other
with a puzzled expression, as though he should have liked to understand
better. Griggs proceeded to defend himself.

“Did I say that there was no soul?” he enquired. “On the contrary, I
said that the soul was eternal. Did I say that there was no God? I said
nothing about it. The soul is a part of God, and, therefore, since the
part exists, the Whole, of which it is a part, exists also. It’s my
belief, and, therefore, so far as I’m concerned, it’s fact. Belief is
knowledge--the ultimate possible knowledge of every man at the moment of
asking him what he believes. Did I deny that the soul is happy or
unhappy according to its rule of itself? Not at all, though I didn’t try
to explain the way in which it strikes me. You might not understand it.
But I believe that its happiness or unhappiness is exactly inversely
relative to the amount of alloy it gets from the things of which it is
conscious. As I see them all in my own way, I believe all the articles
of faith of my church, and I’m a Roman Catholic.”

“Well--I don’t see how you can,” said Bright, discontentedly.

“You’re our dear Buddhist!” put in Mrs. Bright, with a breadth of
toleration peculiar to her, and becoming. “You’ve often told me the most
delightful things about Buddhism, and I shall never think of you as
anything but a Buddhist.”

“That’s a thoroughly logical position, mother!” laughed Bright. “Stick
to it!”

“I can’t help it if my Christianity seems like Buddhism to you,”
answered Griggs. “If you knew more about Buddhism, you’d see the
difference very soon. But religion’s like love. It affects different
people differently. It isn’t often that any two people see it in
precisely the same light. When they do--”

He paused, interrupting himself. His tired eyes became suddenly dreamy,
as he stared at the Persian embroidery that hung before the disused
fireplace around which they were all sitting.

“What happens when they do?” asked Katharine.

“What happens, Miss Lauderdale? How should I know what happens when
people who are in love see love in the same light? I’m an old bachelor,
you know.” He laughed drily, being roused again.

“You’re right about one thing at all events,” said Crowdie. “It’s not
often that two people love in the same way. There are five of us men
here, about as radically different from each other as five men could be,
I should think. It’s quite possible that we may all be more or less in
love at the present moment. I’m willing to confess that I am. Don’t
jump, Ham! I’m in love with my wife, and as we’re in the family I
suppose I may say so, mayn’t I?”

“You needn’t be ashamed of loving Hester, my dear Walter!” cried Mrs.
Bright.

Bright himself said nothing, but looked curiously at his brother-in-law,
whom he disliked in an unaccountable way. He had never been able to
understand Griggs’ apparent attachment to the man. He had heard that
when Crowdie had been a young art student in Paris, twelve or fourteen
years earlier, Griggs had nursed him through an illness, and had
otherwise taken care of him. There was a mystery about it which Hamilton
Bright had always wished to solve. According to him, the best thing
about Crowdie was his friendship for the literary man. Bright could not
fathom its mystery, any more than he could understand his sister’s
passionate, all-devouring love for Crowdie. The husband and wife were
almost inseparable. Such a state of things should have seemed admirable
to the wife’s brother, but for some mysterious reason it did not. Bright
had almost resented his sister’s ardent devotion to a man who seemed to
him so unmanly. He always thought that Crowdie, with his soft, pale face
and vividly red lips, was like a poisonous tropical flower that would
ultimately harm Hester in some unimaginable way.

“No--I’m not ashamed of it,” said the painter, in answer to his
mother-in-law’s remark. “But that isn’t the question. What I mean is,
that we all love, or should love, in different ways--all five of us.
Look at us--how different we are! There’s Griggs, now. I’ve known him
half my life and a good bit of his. If he’s in love, he’s picked out a
soul, and then a face, and then a set of ideas out of his extensive
collection, and he’s sublimated the whole in that old retort of a brain
of his, and he’s living on the perfume of the essence. Poor old
Griggs!”

“Don’t pity me, and don’t patronize me, Crowdie!” laughed Griggs. “If
you offend me, I’ll pay you off, you know.”

“I’m not frightened--but I’ve done with you. I’ll go on. There’s
Ralston--he’s dangerous. He’d love like Othello, and lose his temper
like Hotspur. As for Bright, he has permanent qualities. When he’s once
made up his mind, it makes up him for the rest of his life. Faithful
Johnnie, don’t you know? He’s a do or die sort of man--and with his
constitution it means doing and not dying. Wingfield--oh, Wingfield’s
Achilles. An Achilles with black hair--only rather more so. With his
size, it’s lucky for the Trojans that he hasn’t got your Lauderdale
temper that you’re always talking about. Schliemann wouldn’t even find
the foundations of Troy. Wingfield would pulverize the whole place and
use it up for polishing his weapons. Briseis, or nothing--while the mood
lasts. I don’t mean to say that you’re fickle, Wingfield, but you’re
much too human for an undying passion, you know.”

“How about yourself?” enquired young Wingfield. “We’ve each had our
turn. Don’t forget yourself.”

“Oh--as for myself--I don’t know. I’ll leave that to you. You can all
take your revenge, and define me, if you like. I’ll be patient. I’m not
aggressive by nature. Besides, I’m quite different--I mustn’t be judged
like you other men.”

“And why not?” enquired Katharine.

“Why--I’m an artist. The foundations of my nature are different from
yours. I’m a skilled workman. It’s your business to be more or less
skilled thinkers. I do things with my hands, you do things with your
brains. The beginning of art is manual, mechanical skill. Any one who’s
got it enough to be an artist must be something of a materialist. He
can’t help it, any more than a surgeon can. What’s subject to you is
object to me--so we can’t possibly look at the same things in the same
way.”

“That’s why you’re such a confounded materialist!” exclaimed Griggs.

“Nonsense!” retorted Crowdie. “You’re always saying that matter’s an
illusion and an idea. I’m the real idealist because I go in for matter,
which is nothing but a dream, according to you.”

“Of all the consummately impertinent arguments!” laughed the man of
letters. “You’re an arrant humbug, my dear Crowdie.”

“Since matter’s only humbug, I don’t mind,” rejoined the painter.
“That’s unanswerable unless you throw up your theory--which you won’t,
for I know you. So you’d better leave me and my art to do the best they
can together.”

“It seems to me that Crowdie’s got rather the better of you,” observed
Bright.

“Oh--he has. I always admit that the children of light haven’t a chance
against the children of darkness.”

“That’s an argument ‘ad hominem,’ ” observed Crowdie. “It’s your way of
throwing up the sponge.”

“Hit him again!” laughed Bright. “Turn the other theoretical cheek to
the smiter, Griggs!”

“He’s afraid of me, all the same,” retorted Griggs. “These materialists
are the most superstitious people alive. He believes that I learned all
sorts of queer things in the East, and that I could roll up his shadow,
like Peter Schlemil’s, and destroy his Totem, and generally make his
life a burden to him by translating ‘The Owl and the Pussy Cat’ into
Arabic, and pouring ink into my hand, and all that. You know you do.”

“Yes,” answered Crowdie. “I confess that I’m what you call
superstitious. I’m inclined to believe in things like magic and
spells--like John Wellington Wells. Since your matter’s all a dream, it
can’t take much to blur it, and make it move about and change and behave
oddly. Oh, yes--I believe in the spirits of the four elements, and all
that--or if I don’t, I’d like to.”

“What good would it do you?” asked Wingfield, bluntly.

“Good? It isn’t a question of good, it’s a question of beauty. I want to
believe that beautiful things have a consciousness and a sort of power
of their own, a special perishable soul--the sort of soul that Lucretius
talks about. I’m quite willing to think that they may have an immortal
soul, too, but what concerns me is the perishable one, that suffers and
enjoys and speaks in the eyes and sighs in the voice.”

Crowdie knew what he was talking about. In painting, his talent lay
chiefly in expressing that perishable, passionate animation which is in
every human face. And so far as the voice was concerned, his own was
remarkable, and the few who ever heard him sing were almost inclined to
ask whether he had not mistaken his vocation and erred in not becoming a
public singer. It is not an uncommon thing to find painters who have
beautiful voices. Gustave Doré, for instance, might have earned both
reputation and fortune as a tenor.

“I’m afraid you’re an incorrigible heathen, Walter,” said Mrs. Bright.
“I wonder you haven’t set up gods and goddesses all over your house--you
and Hester--with little tripods before them, and garlands and
perfumes--like Tadema’s pictures, you know.”

“You can’t symbolize matter, aunt Maggie,” laughed Crowdie. “If you do,
you get entangled with the ideal again, and your symbol turns into an
idol. The Greek statues were meant for portraits of gods and goddesses,
not for symbols. So were the pictures and the images of the early
church--portraits of divine and holy personages. The moment such things
become symbols, there’s a revulsion, and they turn into idols.”

“That’s a profound thought, Crowdie,” said Griggs. “I don’t believe you
ever hit on it by yourself.”

“Well--it’s in my consciousness, anyhow, and I don’t know where it comes
from,” answered the painter. “I suppose it’s part of my set of ideas
about matter.”

“It all seems to me very abstruse,” said Wingfield, who was considerably
bored by the discussion, to Katharine, who was listening.

“No,” she answered, quickly. “I like it. It interests me.”

She had only glanced at him, but she had realized at once that he was
still wholly occupied with herself. There was a wistful, longing regret
in his black eyes just then which she understood well enough. She was
sincerely sorry for him, and would have done anything reasonable in her
power to comfort him. As he turned from her she looked at him again with
an expression which might have been interpreted to mean an affectionate
pity, though she had certainly never got so far as to feel anything
approaching to affection for the magnificent youth. Almost immediately
she was conscious that both Ralston and Bright were watching her during
the momentary pause in the conversation.

“Why are you both looking at me like that?” she asked, innocently
glancing from one to the other.

“Oh--nothing!” answered Bright, colouring suddenly and turning his eyes
away. “I didn’t know I was staring.”

Ralston said nothing in reply to her question, but transferred his gaze
from her to Wingfield, with something not unlike envy in his look. Few
men could look at Wingfield without feeling a little envious of his
outward being, and Ralston was a man singularly devoid of personal
vanity, like his mother.

“I wish I could paint you all!” exclaimed Crowdie, suddenly.

“That’s a large order,” observed Bright, with a smile.

“You’ve all got such lots in your faces to-night,” continued the artist,
with an odd enthusiasm. “There must be something in the air--well, that
doesn’t mean anything, of course--but it’s very strange.”

“What’s strange?” asked Katharine.

“Oh--I can’t exactly explain. There’s an unusual air about us all, as
though we were under pressure and rather inclined to do eccentric
things. I could paint it, but I can’t possibly put it in words.”

“I suppose I’m not sensitive,” said Wingfield to Katharine. “I don’t
notice anything particular, do you? At least--not outside, you know,” he
added, quickly, being all at once conscious of something he had not been
aware of a moment earlier.

“I know what he means,” answered Katharine. “I feel it myself. But
then--I’m tired and I suppose I’m nervous.”

“There’s a queer, mythological atmosphere about,” Crowdie was saying.

“It’s what we’ve been talking about,” said Mrs. Bright. “We’re all so
completely mixed on the subject of time and space and things like that,
that we’re just ready to believe in ghosts, and turn tables, and make
idiots of ourselves.”

“What a barbarian you are, aunt Maggie!” cried Crowdie, looking round at
his mother-in-law. “You’d take the poetry out of the Nine Muses. Not
that I meant anything poetical. It’s much more a sort of creepy, dreamy,
undefinable sensation. Yes--perhaps you’re right after all. I shouldn’t
be surprised if one of us saw a ghost to-night.”

“What will you bet?” enquired Ham, with the slow, western emphasis he
could assume when he chose.

“You’re insufferable!” exclaimed Crowdie. “Fancy betting on seeing
ghosts! You’re worse than aunt Maggie. The only man who understands me
is Griggs. Griggs, you do understand, don’t you?”

There was something petulant and almost womanish in his tone, which
struck all four men disagreeably, though perhaps none of them could or
would have told why.

“Don’t talk!” answered Griggs. “When you want people to understand you,
paint or sing. You only make a mess of it when you try to explain what
you feel in English. You’re a good painter and you sing like an angel,
but you’re a bad talker.”

“That’s said because I got the better of you in talking just now,”
retorted Crowdie, who did not seem in the least annoyed.

“Oh, don’t begin sparring again, for heaven’s sake!” exclaimed Bright.
“Cousin Katharine’s tired to death of hearing you two fighting. Sing
something, Walter. It’s much better.”

“Oh, no!” answered Crowdie. “Oh, no! I can’t sing, thank you. I never
sing at parties--as they call it.”

“You don’t call this a party, do you?” enquired Bright. “Don’t be silly.
We all want to hear you. You’re not the common amateur who has to be
begged and flattered and cajoled, and praised afterwards. You can sing
when you choose, and we all want you to.”

“No. I’d rather not,” said the painter, with a change of tone, as
though he were very much in earnest.

“I wish you would!” Katharine, for the moment, really longed to hear the
wonderful voice.

“Do you?” asked Crowdie.

There was a hesitation in his tone which suggested the idea that he had
perhaps been waiting for Katharine to ask him, in order to yield to the
request. Instantly the young girl was aware that the eyes of Ralston and
Bright were upon her. Griggs had turned his head and was watching
Crowdie curiously. Mrs. Bright looked at him, too, hesitated, and then
spoke.

“I really think that promise you made Hester was too absurd, Walter!”
she said.

“What promise?” asked Katharine, quickly.

“Not to sing for any one but her,” said Mrs. Bright, before Crowdie
could interrupt her. “Hester told me.”

Everybody looked at Crowdie and smiled at the sentimentality. His soft
eyes glanced disagreeably at his mother-in-law for a moment, and the
smile on his red lips did not conceal his annoyance.

“Besides,” continued Mrs. Bright, “if Katharine asks you, I think you
might--really, it’s too silly of Hester.”

“Oh!” exclaimed Katharine, “I don’t want you to break any promise, Mr.
Crowdie--especially one you’ve made to Hester. She’d never forgive me.
Please don’t sing--some time when she’s here--perhaps--”

But at once she again felt Ralston’s glance and Bright’s. She wondered
why they looked at her so often.

“Well then, it isn’t Katharine who asks you,” said Mrs. Bright. “I do.
I’ll be responsible to Hester. I know she won’t mind, if it’s for me.
Now, Walter, do! Just to please me!”

Crowdie said nothing. He turned his eyes upon her and then to
Katharine’s face. But, feeling uncomfortably as though she were being
watched for some reason which she could not understand, Katharine was
looking down, nervously pulling at a thread in the lace which covered
her right arm.

Wingfield was sitting on one side of her, in one of those naturally
graceful attitudes which athletes assume without thought or care, one
elbow on his knee as he bent forward, supporting his chin upon his
in-turned hand, his resolute young face turned towards Crowdie, his
black eyes somewhat sad and shadowy. On Katharine’s other side sat
Ralston, nervous, moody, ready to spring, as it were, for he had not yet
recovered from his anger at what had been said about secret marriages.
Next to him was Bright, upright in his straight-backed chair, his heavy
arms folded on his full chest, his round head thrown back, his clear
blue eyes fixed on Katharine’s face.

As she looked up again, she had a strong impression of being surrounded
by splendid wild animals. Wingfield was the tiger, colossally lithe,
brown, black, and golden; Ralston the panther, less in strength, but
lighter to spring, quicker to see, perhaps more cruel; Bright the lion,
fair, massive, dominant, silent in his strength. Griggs was a wolf,
grey, old, tough, destined to die hard some day without a cry. And
Crowdie--with his woman’s eyes, his soft, clear voice, his delicate
white hands, his repellent pallor, and wound-like lips--Katharine
thought of neither man nor beast. Even in the midst of her dream of wild
animals, he was Crowdie still, with a mysterious, indescribable,
poisonous something in all his being which made it a suffering for her
to touch his hand. To this something, whatever it might be, she
preferred her father’s cruel avarice, her mother’s envy, heartless as it
had been while it lasted. To it she would have preferred a drunkard’s
trembling hand and lip. John Ralston’s ungovernable temper was
immeasurably preferable to that, or her sister’s mean pride and petty
vanity. There was no weakness or sin, scarcely any crime of which her
maiden heart had dreamed with horror, which she would not have met and
faced and seen in its bare ugliness, rather than that unknown something
of which the existence was a certainty when Crowdie was near her.

In the dead silence of the moment the very faintest sound would have
been loud. Whether they admitted it or not, they were none of them just
then in a natural or normal state of nerves, except perhaps Mrs. Bright,
whose supernal calm was not easily disturbed. Each one of the five men
was thinking in his own way of Katharine, and of all she might be to
him. The great passion was there, five-fold, and it made itself felt in
the very air of the quiet room.

Then a soft vibration, as of a soul far off, murmuring to itself, just
trembled and felt its way amongst them, like the promise of a caress.
And again it came, more strongly, more clear, floating in the soft air
and taking life in it, and stealing to the heart with a tender,
backward-reaching regret, with a low, passionate looking forward to
things of love yet to come.

Crowdie was singing. He had not changed his position as he sat in his
chair, and he had scarcely raised his face. There was no effort, no
outward striving for art, no searching for effect. The notes floated
from his lips as though he thought them rather than as though they were
produced by any human means, rising, sinking, with ever varying colour,
tone, and meaning, ringing, as he sang, like an angel’s clarion tones,
sighing, as he breathed them, like the whole world’s love-dream.

Then time, too, sank away into dreamland. Before Katharine’s closed eyes
rose Lohengrin, silver-armed--floated the mystic swan--clashed the
clanging swords. And then, moonbeams, the passionate, great, spell-ruled
love--the question and its horror of endless parting--the rush of the
destroyers to the bridal chamber, the last, the very last farewell, and
out through the misty portals of the dream floated again the fatal,
lordly swan, with arching neck, bearing away, spirit-like, the last
breath of love from Elsa’s life.

None of them could have told how long he sang, for time was away in
dreamland, and passion’s weary eyes drooped and saw not the pain.




CHAPTER XIX.


Katharine felt considerable hesitation about going to see Mrs. Ralston
after John had told her that he had confided the secret of their
marriage to his mother. She knew very well that they must meet before
long, as they often did, and she felt that, since Mrs. Ralston knew the
truth, it would be very disagreeable if the meeting took place in the
presence of other persons. So far as any formality was concerned, too,
it would naturally have been her duty to go and see her mother-in-law,
though, in consideration of the young girl’s broken arm, any such
questions of courtesy could well be overlooked.

Katharine’s sensations as she looked forward to the interview could not
easily be described. She was, as usual, in a very exceptional position,
for she was so placed that she should have to make something like an
apology to Mrs. Ralston for having married John against his will. There
was something absurd in the idea, and Katharine smiled, alone in her
room, as she thought of it.

She was tired with all she had been through, and she put off the
difficult moment rather weakly, telling herself that she would surely
write and make an appointment on the following day, when she had
collected herself and thought it all over. She was fond of Mrs. Ralston,
and knew that her liking was returned. Mrs. Ralston had made her
understand that well enough, and John had taken pleasure in telling her
that his mother never wished him to marry any one else. Nevertheless
Katharine felt shy and awkward, and was afraid of saying too much or too
little.

Mrs. Ralston herself cut short all hesitation and came to see Katharine
at the Brights’, and found her in her little sitting-room upstairs. The
young girl was taken by surprise, as the elder woman had followed the
servant and entered almost as soon as she had been announced.

“Oh--Mrs. Ralston!” she cried, sitting up on the lounge on which she had
been lying after luncheon.

They exchanged greetings. Mrs. Ralston made her lie down again and sat
beside her. There was a moment’s silence.

“I’m so glad you’ve come,” said Katharine, breaking the ice.

“Of course I’ve come!” answered Mrs. Ralston. “If you’d not had this
dreadful accident, you’d have come to me; but as it is, I’ve come to
you, since we wanted to see each other.”

There was not much in what she said, but it gave Katharine courage,
which was precisely what the elder woman wished to do. That was one of
her few secrets. She knew how to make what was the best thing to be done
seem altogether natural, and even easy, for those who had to do it,
while avoiding the appearance of ever giving advice unless it were asked
of her. That is the rare gift of those who really influence others in
the world. Their art lies in going so straight as to make any way but
their own seem crooked by comparison.

“Yes,” said Katharine, “I wanted to see you very much. The fact is--”
she hesitated and she felt the colour rising in her cheeks, though Mrs.
Ralston could not see it. “The truth is that I--” she broke off again.
“Oh, what’s the use of making phrases, cousin Katharine?” she exclaimed.
“Jack and I are married--and you know it--and you must forgive
me--that’s what I want to say!”

“And that’s the best and the simplest way of saying it, my dear,”
answered Mrs. Ralston, smiling--for she was happy. “And now that it’s
said, let’s talk about it.”

“How good you are!” Katharine put out her left hand, and turned, bending
a little, so that her face was near her companion’s shoulder.

“I don’t know whether I’m good to be glad,” said Mrs. Ralston. “As for
forgiving you--that’s for your father and mother, not for me. The only
thing I didn’t like was that Jack shouldn’t have told me at once. I was
hurt by that. We’ve been good friends, he and I, and he ought to have
known that he could trust me.”

“We were afraid to trust anybody--except uncle Robert,” answered
Katharine, simply. “And we had to trust him. That was the object of our
getting married as we did.”

“Of course you could trust him perfectly, my dear. But it did no good.
Jack told me all about that. If he had come to me and said it all
beforehand, I could have helped a good deal. But that wasn’t your
fault.”

“Yes, it was,” protested the young girl, anxious lest Ralston should be
blamed unjustly. “It was altogether my idea from beginning to end--”

“Jack didn’t tell me that--”

“No?” Katharine’s face lightened softly. “No,” she repeated, in another
tone. “He wouldn’t have told you that. He would have thought that it
would be like blaming me. He left that out of the truth. But it’s true,
and you ought to know it. You don’t know how hard it was for me to
persuade him to marry me secretly. I used every sort of argument before
he would promise. It was I who thought that if we went straight to uncle
Robert with our secret, he would find it so easy to give Jack just what
he wanted. But Jack was right. He knew more about it than I did.
However, he yielded at last. But I want you to know how hard it was. He
said it was like a begging speculation. He would rather have died than
have accepted money from uncle Robert. I’d have taken it, and uncle
Robert offered it to me, but Jack wouldn’t let me accept it.”

“Of course not, my dear,” answered Mrs. Ralston. “That’s exactly what it
would have been--a begging speculation. There’s only one thing that can
excuse a secret marriage, and that’s love.”

“Well--in that case--” Katharine did not finish her sentence, but smiled
happily as she turned her face away.

“Yes--exactly!” And Mrs. Ralston laughed softly. “That’s the reason why
I say that I’ve nothing to forgive you,” she continued, after a little
pause. “You see, you’ve loved each other a long time--”

“Ages!” exclaimed Katharine, energetically.

“And your father objected. Of course he had a right to object, if he saw
fit. And you couldn’t have told him what you had done unless you were
prepared to leave him and come to me--which you wouldn’t do--no! I know
what you’re going to say--that it would have been putting a burden upon
me--and all that. But it wouldn’t. That’s what hurt me, that taking it
for granted that I should not be ready--much more than ready--to make a
sacrifice for Jack’s sake. Do you know what he is to me--that boy--your
husband?”

Her face changed suddenly, and the even lips set themselves in a look
that was almost fierce, as she asked the question.

“I can imagine,” said Katharine, in a low voice. “I know what he is to
me.”

“Yes. I know you love him. But it’s not the same thing. You’ll know some
day. I hope you may. There’s another kind of love besides that of men
and women.”

She spoke with a suppressed energy that Katharine hardly understood. The
young girl mentally compared this woman’s love for her son with
Alexander Junior’s parental affection for his daughter. It seemed to be
a very different thing.

“No,” continued Mrs. Ralston. “You can’t guess what Jack is to me, and
always has been. I don’t think he knows it himself. If he did, he’d have
trusted me more when he was in trouble. I’d do a good deal to make him
happy.”

As usual with her, there were no big words nor harmonious phrases. What
she said was very simple. But at that moment she looked as though
Katharine Ralston would have trampled on Katharine Lauderdale’s body, if
it could have contributed to Jack’s happiness.

“You love him very much,” said the young girl. “So do I.”

“I know you do. I don’t mean to say that in your way you may not love
him as much as I do. We shan’t quarrel about that. I only want you to
understand why I was hurt because he wouldn’t tell me what he’d done.
Since he was a boy I’ve thought his thoughts, I’ve lived his life, I’ve
done his deeds--I’ve been sorry for the foolish ones and proud of the
good ones--I’ve been his other self. It was hard that I shouldn’t have a
share in the happiest moment he ever had--when he married you. It hurt
me. I’d give my body and my soul--if I had one--for him. He had no right
to leave me out and hide what he was doing.”

“It was my fault,” said Katharine. “It was foolish of me to make him
marry me at all, as things were then. I’ve thought of it since. Suppose
that we had changed our minds, after it was done--we were married, you
know--we couldn’t have got out of it.”

“If you changed your mind, as you call it, I wouldn’t forgive you,” said
Mrs. Ralston, as sternly as a man could have spoken.

Katharine looked at her in silence for a moment.

“Yes,” she answered, gravely. “I think that if I changed my mind now,
you’d try and kill me. You needn’t be afraid.”

Mrs. Ralston returned her gaze, and her features gradually relaxed into
a peaceful smile.

“In old times I should,” she said. “I believe I’m that kind of woman.
But we’re not going to quarrel about which loves him best, my
dear--though I believe we’re both capable of committing any folly for
him,” she added.

“Yes. We are,” said Katharine. “And I don’t suppose that we could say so
to any one else but each other in the world.”

“I’m glad you feel that. So do I. And Jack knows it all without our
telling him. At least, he should, by this time.”

“Do men ever know?” asked Katharine.

“That’s hard to say. I think there are men who know what the women who
love them would do for them. I’m sure there are. But I don’t think that
any man that ever lived can understand what a mother’s love can be like,
when it’s strongest. It belongs to us women--and to animals. Men can
only understand what they can feel themselves, and they can never feel
that. They understand anything that’s founded on passion, but nothing
else.”

“Isn’t a mother’s love a passion, then?” asked Katharine.

“No--it can’t be jealous.”

Katharine wondered whether the saying were true, and whether Mrs.
Ralston’s own words and looks had not disproved her proposition before
she had stated it.




CHAPTER XX.


It is not long since, upon the death of a well-known lawyer, it was
found that he had made a long and elaborate will for himself, duly
signed and witnessed, but no single clause of which was good in law,
though he had been in the habit of drawing up wills for others during
all his professional life. It is not an easy matter to dispose of
property amongst a number of persons in such a way that no one shall be
able to find a flaw which may invalidate the whole document, even if the
signing and witnessing be in order and unassailable.

For a long time past Alexander Junior had been much interested in the
subject, and he believed that he had mastered it unaided, in all its
details, so as to be able to detect any technical illegality at a
glance. Being quite unable to foresee the nature of Robert Lauderdale’s
intentions, he had done his best to prepare himself at all points, in
case the will should turn out contrary to his hopes and wishes, as had
actually occurred. At first sight, however, his anticipations were
disappointed. So far as he could judge, the will was unassailable,
though it contained very unusual provisions. If it were admitted to
probate, it looked as though it would be unassailable.

It had of course been in the power of the testator to leave the whole
property to whom he pleased, irrespective of relationship, or to divide
it amongst such of the living relations as he chose to favour. But, in
theory, he had favoured no one. He had willed as though the whole
portion had belonged to his grandfather, and had descended from the
first Lauderdale who had emigrated, to all the members of his family in
its present ramifications. It was not easy to assail the justice of the
idea upon which the will had thus been founded, and there could be no
question of attacking it on the ground that the testator was not of
perfectly sound mind.

Clearly, however, it would be vastly to Alexander Junior’s advantage if
the will were not allowed to stand. Katharine Ralston would get half the
fortune, indeed, but Alexander Senior would get the other half. This, in
the estimation of Alexander Junior, would be tantamount to getting it
himself. It would be more easy, considering his father’s age and
infirmities, and especially in consideration of the old gentleman’s
known tendency to give away everything he possessed, to have a trust
constituted, at his own request, so far as the world should know, which
trust should manage the property and pay him the income arising from it
during the remaining years of his life. In the ordinary course of human
events, Alexander Senior could not be expected to live many years
longer, and his son believed it would be very easy to influence him in
the making of his will, or to prove that he had been of unsound mind in
case the will were not satisfactory. Then the whole fortune would come
to his son as next of kin.

But Alexander Junior was met at the outset by the difficulty of finding
any fault with the will of Robert Lauderdale. It was clear from the date
that it had been made during his last illness, in the interval between
the day when he had first been very near death, on which Alexander had
met Katharine in the house, and his ultimate demise. Several weeks had
passed, during which it had been expected that he might recover, and he
had found ample time to reconsider his last wishes. It was immediately
clear to Alexander that this was probably not the will of which his
uncle had spoken to his daughter. It might be. It was possible that he
had told her what he intended to do, and had then done it. But it was
improbable; for when she had seen him that first time, he had not been
expected to live, and it was not likely that he then looked forward to
the possibility of drawing up a document requiring considerable thought
and great care.

It was quite clear that Alexander must put the matter into the hands of
a keen and experienced man without delay, and he lost no time in doing
so. If he had not acted quickly, the will might have been proved and
administered in a few days, and his chance would be gone. Within
twenty-four hours it was known that the will would be contested by
Alexander Lauderdale Junior on behalf of the next of kin, being his
father and Katharine Ralston.

At this news there was a great commotion in all the Lauderdale tribe,
and sides and parties declared themselves immediately. The prediction
that there would be a tremendous disturbance of the family elements was
immediately realized, for the interests at stake on all sides were very
large. The ranks were marshalled and the battle began.

Clearly it was to the interest of the Lauderdales and the Ralstons to
invalidate the will if possible, while it was that of the Brights to
sustain it, and the heads of the opposing parties were actually
Alexander Lauderdale Junior and Hamilton Bright. It should have followed
that the Brights should have stood alone against all the others, a state
of things which Alexander believed should influence the court in his
favour, since in common opinion it would not seem exactly fair that a
small family of distant relations should get as much as all the nephews
and nieces of the deceased together. In the matter of wills, the courts
often have a considerable latitude within which to exercise discretion,
and no circumstance which bears upon the equity of the case is
insignificant.

Though Alexander Junior had neither a very profound nor a very
diplomatic intelligence, he saw at once, and his lawyer dwelt upon the
point, that it would be greatly to his advantage if he could establish
an evident solidarity amongst the next of kin as against the Brights,
who would profit by the will as it stood. It became his object therefore
to assure the coöperation of the Ralstons.

At first sight it seemed to him that Mrs. Ralston should without doubt
support him. He could not easily conceive that she should hesitate
between accepting a quarter of the fortune to be divided between her son
and herself, and the half of it to be held in her own right. He judged
her by himself, as people of strong passions judge others. He threw out
of consideration any sentiment she might have in regard to the
fulfilment of Robert Lauderdale’s wishes, and made it purely a question
of money for her, as it was for himself. He did not believe that any
enmity which her son might, and undoubtedly did, feel for him, could
stand in the way of such a power as twenty millions of money to
influence her. His lawyer, who did not know her well, agreed with him.

But when it became necessary to find out what Mrs. Ralston meant to do,
Alexander was conscious that he might be wrong in his calculations.
Much against his will he secretly admitted that there might be other
motives at work besides the love of money, especially in a case where a
large fortune was a certainty, whatever happened, and where the choice
lay not between much and nothing, but between much and more. Mrs.
Ralston returned answer that she desired to consider the matter and
wished to know how soon she must make a definite reply.

Then she consulted John.

“I don’t know what to do, Jack,” she said, seating herself in her
favourite chair in his study.

It was late in the afternoon, and it was raining. But it was warm, and
one of the windows was raised a little. The smell of the wet pavement
and the soft swish of the shower came up from the street.

“Why should you do anything, mother?” asked Ralston. “However--I don’t
know--” he checked himself suddenly and became thoughtful.

“What is it, Jack? Why do you hesitate?” asked his mother. “I hesitate,
too. I want to know what you think about it.”

Ralston reflected in silence for a few minutes, before he spoke.

“There are so many ways of looking at it,” he said at last. “In the
first place, you and I should naturally like to carry out the dear old
man’s wishes, shouldn’t we? That’s our first instinct, I suppose. Isn’t
it?”

“Of course it is. There can be no question of that.”

“Yes. You and I always agree. We were both fond of him, and we’re both
grateful to him. We both want things to be done as he wished. He’s tried
to be just all round, and if he hasn’t been quite fair in leaving the
Brights so much, it’s because justice isn’t always exactly fair. Law is
one thing and equity’s another, all the world over. His general idea was
to make litigation impossible, and in carrying it out the principle
happened to favour the Brights. It might have happened to favour us
instead.”

“Yes. That’s plain,” said Mrs. Ralston. “That’s one side of the case.
But there’s the other.”

“More than one other, perhaps. In the first place, if poor uncle Robert
did anything that’s not good in law, I’ve no business to advise you to
support his mistake out of sentiment, and to lose twenty millions by
it.”

“Put that out of the question, Jack.”

“No--I can’t. It’s a first-rate reason against my giving you any advice
at all. I ought not to influence you. You should act for yourself. Only,
as we agree about things generally, we’re talking it over.”

“No,” answered Mrs. Ralston. “It’s not that. It’s your children. If I
should stand out against Alexander on the ground of sentiment, I may be
keeping money from your children, or their children, which they have
much more claim to have than the Crowdies’ descendants, for instance.
And you must think of that, too. Hamilton Bright’s getting on towards
forty. I suppose he doesn’t marry because he’s still in love with
Katharine, poor fellow. But if he doesn’t marry soon, he probably never
will. At his age men get into grooves. He’s devoted to his mother, and
with all her good qualities I don’t believe she’d be a pleasant
mother-in-law, if Hamilton brought his wife to the house. He’ll see
that, and unless he falls in love rather late, he won’t marry for any
other reason. Well--he and aunt Maggie will leave their money to
Hester’s children, if she has any. There’s no reason why they should
have such an enormous amount. They’re very distant relations, anyhow. I
wonder how uncle Robert didn’t see that. There’ll be an accumulation of
money enough for twenty ordinary fortunes, if things turn out in that
way.”

“Yes--but you wouldn’t leave the Brights out altogether, mother, would
you? That’s what will happen, if the will won’t hold.”

“We’ll make a compromise and give them enough.”

“A few millions,” suggested Ralston, with a little laugh. “Isn’t it
funny that we should be talking about such sums in real earnest? But
Alexander can’t see it in that light.”

“Well--if he doesn’t? We can do it alone in that case. What’s a million
in forty?”

“Two and a half per cent,” answered Ralston, promptly, from sheer force
of the new habit he had acquired at the bank.

“You’re turning into a business man,” laughed his mother. “I didn’t mean
that. I meant it would be little enough.”

“Yes--but Ham wouldn’t take it. You know him as well as I do. He’ll have
his rights or nothing. Honestly, there’s no reason on earth why you
should make him a present of a million, if the law doesn’t give it to
him. And there can’t be any comparison in this case, because Alexander
means to have everything for his father, and then lock him up in
Bloomingdale and manage the fortune in his own Trust Company. For the
Brights it means forty millions or nothing--not a red cent.”

“I suppose you’re right about that. And Hamilton’s your friend, Jack.”

“He’s been a good friend to me. But he’s not the sort of fellow to turn
on me because I’m opposed to him in a suit. Still--he couldn’t help
feeling that it must make a difference. He wouldn’t be human if he
didn’t. You mustn’t blame him for it.”

“Blame him! Of course not! Who would? He’s the one who has everything at
stake. Well, Jack, what shall we do? We’ve got to decide.”

“It’s not easy. Mother--why don’t you send for Harry Brett and put the
whole thing in his hands? He’s a perfectly honourable man--there aren’t
many like him. Tell him what your position is, and then wash your hands
of the matter. That seems to me to be by far the best thing to do. Tell
him just how far you feel that you should like to carry out uncle
Robert’s wishes, and all you’ve told me. He’s absolutely honest, and
he’s a gentleman. If the law is plainly for us, and there’s no question
about it, then let him take it. But if Alexander’s going to try and get
round it by quibbling, Brett will stand up against him like a man. He’s
a fine fellow, Brett. I like him. You can be sure that he’ll do the
right thing.”

“I think that’s very good advice. I’ll see him and get him to answer the
letter. I suppose the next thing will be that Alexander will come to see
me and want to persuade me, especially if Brett’s for upholding the
will. If he does, I won’t say anything. What I hate is the uncertainty
of it all. Until it’s settled you and Katharine can’t consider
yourselves married. At least, you could--but I suppose you won’t.”

“She shan’t go back to Clinton Place, at all events,” said Ralston. “The
next time she goes through that door, she shall go as my wife. That
brute has ill-treated her enough, and he shan’t have another chance. Of
course, she can’t go on staying at the Brights’ through all this. That’s
another thing. It won’t be pleasant for her to feel that her father’s
trying his best to keep them out of the fortune, and to have to sit down
to dinner with them every day and hear it discussed. Besides--poor Ham’s
deadly in love still, in his dear old heavy way. I wish she’d go to the
Crowdies’. I tried to make her go the other day--”

“But that would be just as bad,” said Mrs. Ralston. “Worse, in fact.
Crowdie wouldn’t be half so careful how he talked as Bright would be.”

“That’s true. Well--she’ll just have to go and stay with the three Miss
Miners, then. It won’t be gay, but it won’t be unpleasant, at all
events.”

“Upon my word, Jack, you’d better let me ask her here. At all events, we
can keep her father away. Go and see her and try to persuade her to
come. Or I’ll go. I can manage it better. If you’ll let me tell her that
you’ve told me about your marriage, it will be easier. Otherwise she’ll
have that on her mind as a reason for not coming. After all, there’s no
especial reason why she should not know, is there? And then, Jack--you
don’t know how I should like to feel as though she were really your
wife! I’ve always wanted her for you.”

Ralston kissed his mother’s hand affectionately, and held it in his own
a moment.

“There’s no reason,” he said, presently. “I think you’ll love each other
as I love you both.”

“If she loves you, I shall,” answered Mrs. Ralston, and her face set
itself oddly. “If she doesn’t--I think I could kill her.”

In this way they agreed as far as possible upon the position they would
assume in the great family quarrel which was imminent, and, on the
whole, they seemed to have chosen wisely.




CHAPTER XXI.


In each household there was rumour of war and discussion of plans, and
the nervous tension was already great. In Lafayette Place, the
exceedingly unfashionable and somewhat remote corner where the Crowdies
dwelt in one of the half-dozen habitable houses there situated, there
was considerable disturbance. Walter Crowdie and his wife were in the
studio, alone together, talking about it all. Crowdie had received a
communication from his brother-in-law, telling him of Alexander’s
contemplated attack and enquiring as to Crowdie’s opinion, more as a
matter of form than because he expected any interference or needed any
help.

Hester Crowdie was a nervously organized woman, almost insanely in love
with her husband. She had one of those pale, delicate, passionate faces
which are not easily forgotten, and which seem to bear the sign of an
unusual destiny in each line and shade of expression. She had much of
the hereditary beauty of the Lauderdales, but the regularity of her
features was not what struck the eye first. She was slight, but graceful
as a doe, alternately quick and then indolent as an Oriental woman,
strong, yet liable to what seemed inexplicable fatigue and weakness
which overtook her without warning, and often sensitive as a fine
instrument to every changing influence about her, yet constant as steel
in her idolizing love for her husband.

To do him justice, he seemed to return all she felt for him in an almost
like degree. They were well-nigh inseparable, and she spent every moment
of the day with him which she could spare from her very slight social
and household duties, when he himself was not occupied with a sitter.

The studio was a vast room occupying the whole upper story of the house,
and lighted from above as well as by windows, the latter being generally
closed. It contained a barbaric wealth of rich Eastern carpets, stuffs,
and embroideries, which covered the walls and the huge divans, and were
draped about the chimney-piece. There was an old-fashioned high-backed
chair for Crowdie’s sitters, and there were generally at least two
easels in the room, having unfinished canvases upon them. But there was
nothing else--not a sketch, not a bit of a plaster cast, not the least
object of metal. There were none of those more or less cheap weapons
with which artists are fond of decorating their studios, there were no
vases, no plants, no objects, in short, but the easels, the one chair,
and the rich materials hung upon the walls, spread upon the divans,
covering the heaps of soft cushions. Even the high door which gave
access to the room from the narrow landing was masked by a great
embroidery. Crowdie kept all his paints and brushes in a large closet,
cut off by a curtain, and built out, balcony-like, over the yard at the
back of the house.

Hester Crowdie lay among the cushions on one of the enormous divans. She
was dressed in black, and the garment--which was neither gown nor
tea-gown, nor yet a frock--followed closely the lines of grace in which
her bodily beauty ran, from her throat to her slender feet. One
bloodless hand lay upon the dark folds, the other was pressed almost out
of sight in the yielding coils of her rich brown hair; she supported her
head, resting upon her elbow, and watching her husband.

Crowdie was standing before an easel near by, palette and brushes in
hand, touching the canvas from time to time, mechanically rather than
with any serious intention of doing anything to the picture.

“I don’t see why your brother takes the trouble to write,” he said. “It
may be a sort of formality. He must know that I’d be dead against the
Lauderdales in anything. They all detest me, and I hate them every one,
with all my heart.”

“So do I,” answered Hester. “I hate them all--except Katharine. But you
don’t hate her, either, Walter.”

“Oh--Katharine? No--not exactly. She’s too good-looking to be hated. But
she can’t bear me.”

“It’s not so bad as that. If it were, she shouldn’t be my friend for a
day. You know that. But she’s with the enemy in the present case. It
can’t be helped. I hope we shan’t quarrel. But if we must--why, we must,
that’s all.”

Crowdie touched his picture, looked at it, then glanced at his wife and
smiled.

“After all,” he said, “what does that sort of friendship amount to?”

“Well--perhaps you’re right,” she answered, and she smiled, too, as her
eyes met his, and lingered a moment in the meeting. “I don’t
know--perhaps it fills up the little empty places in life--when you’ve
got a sister, for instance. Besides--I’m fond of Katharine. We’ve always
been a good deal together. Not that I think she’s perfection either, you
know. I don’t like the way she’s gone and installed herself with mamma,
as though she didn’t know perfectly well that Ham was in love with her,
and that she was making him miserable.”

“Ham will survive a considerable amount of that sort of misery. Still,
it must be unpleasant, especially just now. After all, it’s her father
who’s attacking you and your mother and brother. They can’t talk freely
before her any more than you and I should.”

“No.” Hester paused a moment, and her face was thoughtful. “Walter,” she
began again, presently, “I want to ask you a question.”

“Do you?” he asked, softly. “I have all the answers ready to all the
possible questions you can ever ask of me. What is it?”

“Walter--weren’t you just a little tiny bit in love with Katharine, ever
so long ago, before we were married? Tell me. I shan’t mind--that is, if
it was very long ago.”

“In love with Katharine Lauderdale? No--never. That’s a very easy
question to answer.”

He stood looking at her, and the hand which held the palette hung down
by his side.

“Weren’t you? I sometimes think that you must have been. You look at her
sometimes--as though she pleased you.”

Crowdie laughed, a low, golden laugh, and glanced at his picture again,
but said nothing. Then, in the silence, he went and put away his paints
and brushes behind the curtain on one side of the fireplace at the other
end of the great room. Hester lay back among the cushions and watched
him till he disappeared, and kept her eyes upon the curtain until he
came out again. She watched him as a wild animal watches her mate when
she fears that he is going to leave her, with earnest, glistening eyes.

But he came back, bringing with him a small Japanese vase of that rare
old bronze that rings under the touch like far-off chimes. He set it
down upon the tiles before the fireplace, and poured something into it,
and set fire to the liquid with a match. It blazed with a misty blue
flame, and he threw a few grains of something upon it. A soft, white
smoke rose in little clouds, and an intoxicating perfume filled the air.

Hester’s delicate nostrils quivered, as she lay back amongst her
cushions. She delighted in rare perfumes which could be burned. The
faint colour rose in her pale cheeks, and her eyelids drooped. Crowdie
drove the white smoke with his hands, wafting it towards her.

“What a strange question that was of yours,” he said, suddenly, seating
himself upon the edge of the divan, and touching the back of her hand
softly with the tips of his fingers.

She withdrew her hand and laid it upon his as soon as he had spoken,
caressing his in her turn.

“Was it?” she asked, in a dreamy voice. “It seemed so natural. I
couldn’t help asking you. After all, there are days when she’s very
beautiful. But that wasn’t it, exactly. It was something--oh, Walter!
why did you sing to her the other night? You know you promised that
you’d never sing if I wasn’t there. It hurt me--it hurt me all over
when I heard of it. Why did you do it? And then, why didn’t you tell
me?”

“And who did tell you?” asked Crowdie, gently, but his eyelids
contracted with curiosity as he asked the question. “Not Griggs?”

“Oh, no! Mamma told me, yesterday. Why did you do it? And she said
dreadfully hard things to me about trying to keep you all to myself, and
locking up what gives people so much pleasure--and all that.”

“I’m sorry she told you. Why will people interfere and tell tales?”

“Yes--but, Walter darling--do I lock you up and try to keep you from
other people? Am I jealous and horrid, as she says I am? If you think
so, tell me. Have I ever interfered with your pleasure? Am I always
getting in your way?”

“Darling! What nonsense you talk sometimes!”

“No, but seriously, would you like me any better if I were like
Katharine Lauderdale?”

The passionate eyes sought his, and there was a quick breath, half
suppressed, as her hand ceased to caress his passive fingers.

“I couldn’t like you better--as you call it, sweetest,” answered
Crowdie.

And again his soft laugh rippled up through perfumed air. With a
movement that was almost girlish he dropped upon one elbow, and raising
her diaphanous hand in his, tapped his own pale cheek with it. Hester
laughed a little, too.

“Because if I thought you cared for Katharine Lauderdale--I’d--” She
paused, and her fingers stroked his silky hair.

“What would you do to Katharine Lauderdale if you thought I cared for
her?”

“I won’t tell you,” answered Hester, very low. “It would be something
bad. Why did you sing for her if you don’t care for her?”

“I sang for everybody. Besides, it was so dull there. They’d been
talking metaphysics and such rubbish, and there was a long pause, and
aunt Maggie wanted me to. And then, when she said that I’d promised
never to sing except for you, I didn’t choose to let them all believe it
was true. Katharine begged me not to, I remember--when she was told that
I’d made you a promise.”

“Did she?” Hester’s eyelids opened and then drooped again. “She knew
that would be the way to make you sing, or she wouldn’t have said it.
How mean women are! I’m beginning to hate her, too. Are you sorry?”

“Sorry? No. Why should I be sorry? Sweet--you’ve got this idea that I’ve
a fancy for her--it’s foolish.”

“Is it? You look a little sorry, though, because I said I should hate
her. She’s better looking than I am.”

“She!” Crowdie laughed again, the same gentle, lulling, golden laugh.
“Besides--I told you--she can’t bear me.”

“I hate her for that, too--for loving your voice as she does, and not
liking you. And I shall hate her if her father gets all the money that
ought to come to us, because if I ever get it, I’m going to make you do
all you’ve ever dreamed of doing with it. You shall build your palace
like the one at Agra--Griggs will help you, for he knows everything--you
shall do all you’ve ever dreamed--we’ll have the alabaster room with the
light shining through the walls--you shall sing to me there, by the
fountain--but you shan’t sing to Katharine Lauderdale--there, nor
anywhere else--Walter, you shan’t--”

“She’s got into your head, love--” Crowdie’s red lips kissed the
bloodless hand, and his beautiful eyes looked up to Hester’s face. “It’s
a foolish thought, sweet! Let me kiss it away.”

Hester said nothing, but her own eyes burned, and her nostrils quivered
like white rose leaves in the breeze, delicate, diaphanous, passionate.
A little shiver ran through her, and she sighed.

“Sing to me,” she said. “Sing what you sang to her the other night. Make
the song mine again. Make it forget her. Sing softly, very softly--soft,
soft--you know how I love the notes--”

She closed her burning eyes, but not so wholly but what she could see
him, as she threw back her head upon the cushions.

Crowdie sat motionless beside her, watching her. His lips were parted as
though he were just about to sing, but no sound escaped them. In the
heavy, perfumed air the stillness was intense, and it was warm.

“Sing,” said Hester, just above a whisper, as though she were murmuring
in her sleep.

But still no single note came from his lips, and still his eyes rested
on her face.

“I can’t!” he exclaimed, suddenly, as though his own breath oppressed
him.

Slowly she raised her lids, and her eyes met his, wild, dark, almost
speaking with a voice of their own.

“Why did you sing for her?” she asked, whispering, as he gradually bent
down towards her. “Do you love me?”

“Like death,” he answered, bending still.

“Do you hate Katharine Lauderdale?” she asked, very near his face.

“I hate everything but you, sweet--”

The two transparent hands were suddenly raised and framed his eyes, and
held him a moment.

“Say you hate her!” The whisper was short, fierce, and hot.

“Yes--I hate her.”

Then the hands dropped.

Far off before the great chimney-piece, the little cloud of white smoke
curled slowly from the censer upwards through the soft, love-laden
air--and the perfume stole silently everywhere, in and out, half
poisonous with aromatic sweetness, all through the great still room.




CHAPTER XXII.


Katharine found herself in a very difficult position. During the next
few days she realized clearly that she could not continue to stay with
the Brights indefinitely, both on account of their attitude in the
matter of the will, and because Hamilton Bright was in love with her.
She felt that the friendships to which she had been accustomed all her
life were slipping away under the pressure of circumstances, and that
some of her friends were becoming her enemies. Reflections she had never
known before now rose in her mind, and in a few days she had reached
that state of exaggerated cynicism and unbelief which overtakes the very
young when those with whom they closely associate change their minds
upon very important points. In the meantime, Katharine went every day to
see her mother in Clinton Place while her father was down town.

The bond between mother and daughter, which had been so violently
strained during the previous winter, and again within the past few
weeks, was growing stronger again. The events which were breaking up
Katharine’s intimacy with Hester Crowdie and the Brights had the effect
of drawing her and her mother together. So far as Hester Crowdie was
concerned, Katharine’s friendship for her had existed upon a false
basis, as has been seen. The elder woman’s ardent and sensitive nature
reflected itself in her minor actions and relations, lending them an
appearance of depth which she herself was far from feeling. Katharine
was indeed sympathetic to her, and there had been much confidence
between the two, which had not been wholly misplaced on either side. But
Hester did not wish the young girl to see too much of Crowdie. How far
she understood him it is impossible to say, but that she loved him
desperately and was jealous of every glance he bestowed on any passing
figure that pleased him, there could be no doubt. Her vanity was not
proof against that jealousy, and she feared comparison. That Crowdie
should have broken his promise about singing, and should have sung to
please Katharine, had hurt her even more deeply than she herself
realized.

On the other hand, Mrs. Lauderdale’s confession to her daughter on the
morning after Robert Lauderdale’s death had produced a profound
impression upon the young girl. Being quite unable to realize a state of
mind in which her mother could really be envious of her, Katharine
readily believed that Mrs. Lauderdale had greatly exaggerated in her
own judgment the fault of which she had been guilty, and that much of
what had seemed to be her unkindness and heartlessness toward Katharine
had really been the result of her unjust self-accusation, leading her to
avoid the person whom she believed that she had injured. All that was a
little vague, but that did not matter. The two had always been allies in
family questions, and had been devotedly attached to one another until
this year. And after the first violent scene with Alexander Junior, the
mother had taken the daughter’s side again, had released her from
imprisonment in her own room, and had approved of her taking shelter
with uncle Robert. The confession she had made on that morning had been
in reality a complete reconciliation. Katharine did not understand how
much her absence from home during twenty-four hours had to do with the
subsidence of her mother’s unnatural envy.

The result was that at the present juncture Katharine desired earnestly
to return to her home, and would have done so in spite of Ralston’s
objections, had she been assured of finding any condition approaching
even to an armed peace. But of this she had little hope. She learned
that her father was morose and silent, and that he never referred to
her. His attention was naturally preoccupied by the uncommon interests
at stake in the approaching conflict, and he grew daily more taciturn.
His old father watched events with that apparent indifference of old
age, which often conceals a curiosity not without cunning in finding
means of satisfying itself. Mrs. Lauderdale also told Katharine that
Charlotte and her husband were coming up from Washington for a few days,
in order that Slayback and Alexander might talk matters over. Contrary
to the latter’s expectations, Slayback did not seem inclined to agree
with the Lauderdales about the attempt to break the will, though his
wife and his children would ultimately profit largely by the result, if
it proved successful.

Katharine returned one afternoon from Clinton Place, after discussing
these matters with her mother, and found Hamilton Bright in the library
in Park Avenue. She always avoided as much as possible being alone with
him, and when she caught sight of his flaxen head bending over the
writing-table, she was about to withdraw quietly and go to her own room.
But he looked up quickly and spoke to her.

“Don’t run away, cousin Katharine,” he said. “And you always do run. You
know it’s not safe, with your arm in a sling.”

“But I wasn’t running,” answered the young girl. “Of course I’ll stay if
you want me. I thought you were busy.”

“Oh, no--I was only writing a note. I’ve finished--and--and I should be
awfully glad if you’d stay a little while.”

Katharine glanced at his face and saw that he was embarrassed. She
wondered what was in his mind as she sat down. He had risen from his
seat and seemed to hesitate about taking another. When a man hesitates
to sit down in order to talk to a woman, only two suppositions are
possible. Either he does not wish to be caught and obliged to stay with
her, or he has something important to say, and thinks that he can talk
better on his legs than seated, which is true for nine men out of ten.
Bright at last decided in favour of standing by the fireplace, resting
one elbow upon the shelf and thrusting one hand into his pocket.
Katharine could hear the soft jingle of his little bunch of keys. She
expected that he meant to say something about the difficulty of their
relative positions in regard to the will, which must lead to her putting
an end to her visit immediately. So long as the subject had not been
mentioned the position had been tenable, but if it were once discussed,
she felt that she should be obliged to go away at once. She could not
well accept the hospitality of her father’s bitterest opponents, though
they were her friends and relations, if once the position were clearly
defined.

“What is it?” she asked, after a short pause, by way of helping him, for
by this time she was sure that he had something to say to her.

“Oh--nothing--” He hesitated. “That is--I only wanted to talk to you a
little--that is, if you don’t mind.”

“Oh, I don’t mind at all!” answered Katharine, with a smile in which she
tried to turn her amusement into encouragement.

Except at great moments, almost all women are wickedly amused when a man
is embarrassed in attacking a difficult subject. The more kind-hearted
ones, like Katharine, will often help a man. The cynical ones get all
the diversion they can out of the situation and give a graphic account
of it to the first intimate friend who turns up afterwards. Katharine
really thought he meant to speak of the will, and the position struck
her as absurd. She was in the position of having forced herself upon the
hospitality of her father’s enemies. She wondered how Bright would put
the matter, and, woman-like, at the same moment she catalogued her
belongings as they lay about her room upstairs and calculated roughly
that it might take her as much as an hour to pack all her things if she
decided to go that evening. Still Bright said nothing.

“It seems to be rather a serious matter,” she said, assuming that he had
not asked her to stay in order to talk about the weather.

“Well--it is pretty serious for me,” he answered. “It amounts to this. I
don’t know whether you’ve ever noticed anything, so I’m not sure just
how to begin. I’d like to make a straight statement if you wouldn’t
mind--that is--if I were sure of not offending you.”

“I don’t exactly see how you can offend me,” answered Katharine,
gravely. “If it’s about the will, I suppose we think alike, only I’d
hoped that we might not bring it up and talk about it just yet. But if
you’re going to do that, I’d rather you’d let me speak first. I think I
should anticipate what you were going to say. I’d rather--and it would
be less trouble for you.”

“Well,” replied Bright, doubtfully. “I don’t know that I meant to talk
about that exactly. But there’s a certain connection. If you’ve anything
on your mind to say about it, why, go ahead, cousin Katharine--go ahead.
I daresay you’ll put it much better than I shall.”

“I’m not so sure of that. But it may seem to come better from me. I’ll
say it, at all events, and if you don’t think as I do, tell me so. Of
course I know how strange it must have seemed to you and aunt Maggie
that I should have come here, out of a clear sky, the other day, without
so much as giving you half an hour’s warning. No amount of charity and
hospitality can make that look natural to you,--to either of you,--and I
daresay you’ve wondered about it. And then, to stay on in this way,
after my father has behaved in the way he has--it’s not exactly
delicate, you know--”

“Nonsense!” exclaimed Bright, emphatically. “You’re mistaken if you
think that’s my view of the case.”

“I don’t think I’m mistaken, cousin Ham. I daresay you may like to have
me, but that doesn’t explain my coming, does it? But I’m in an awfully
hard position just now, and the other day--do you know? I was driving to
the Crowdies’, and then I changed my mind and came here instead.”

“I’m glad you did. So’s my mother. As for not thinking it natural, when
your father’s tearing about like wild and rooting up everything like a
mad rhinoceros--oh, I say! I beg your pardon--”

Katharine did not smile, for there was good blood in her veins, of the
kind that does not play false at such moments. But the temptation to
laugh was strong, and she looked fixedly at her left hand.

“No,” she said. “Please don’t speak of my father like that. I suppose
you both think you’re right in this horrible question of money. I myself
don’t know what I think. He’s wrong in one way, of course. Whether
there’s a flaw in the will or not, it represents poor uncle Robert’s
last wish about his fortune. If he changed his mind, that’s none of our
business--”

“How do you mean?” said Bright, quickly, and forgetting his
embarrassment. “Did you say he changed his mind?”

“I didn’t mean to say that, positively,” answered Katharine, who had
forgotten herself for a moment. “As the will was made almost at the last
moment, perhaps there had been--others, before it. People often make
several wills, don’t they? That’s all I meant. My own feeling would be
to carry out his wishes. But I suppose men feel differently--and it’s an
enormous fortune, of course. The main point is that you and your mother
are legally my father’s enemies--well, call it opponents--and I’ve no
business to be eating your bread while it lasts. That’s what it comes
to, in plain language.”

“I wish you wouldn’t talk in that way, cousin Katharine,” said Bright,
in a low voice. “I don’t think it’s exactly kind.”

“It’s true, at all events,” answered Katharine. “As for being kind--it’s
not a case of kindness on my part. It’s gratitude I feel, because you
and aunt Maggie have been so awfully kind to me, just when I was in
trouble.”

“Oh--if you’re going to look at it in that way!” Bright paused, but
Katharine said nothing. “Well, I don’t see where the kindness lies,” he
continued. “Of course, if you choose to put it so--but it’s a long way
on the other side. It’s a pretty considerable kindness of you to come
and stop in my house. If that’s what you’ve got to say about the will
business, cousin Katharine, I hope you won’t say any more, because I
don’t like it. I appreciate--I suppose that’s the word--I appreciate
your motives in trying to twist things inside out and to make martyrs of
us because we’ve accepted your company without saying, ‘Look here,
cousin Katharine, this is our bread, and you’re eating it, and we don’t
exactly mind, but we’d rather you’d go and eat your own.’ I suppose
that’s what you make out that we’re thinking all the time. I don’t know
whether you call that being kind to me, exactly, but I know pretty well
what it feels like. It feels as if you’d slapped my face.”

“Ham! Cousin Ham!” cried Katharine. “You know how I meant it--please,
please don’t think--”

“No; I know I’m an idiot. I suppose it’s just as well you should know
it, too. It may make things more comfortable. But I’ll tell you. Don’t
talk that way, please, because we don’t feel that way, and we’re not
going to. I’d rather have you know that this is just as much your home
as Clinton Place is than--well, than lots of things. And since we’re
saying everything right out, like this, and we’re either going to be
friends--or not--I’d like to ask you one question, if you don’t mind.
You may be offended, but you’ll know I didn’t mean to be offensive,
because I’ve said so. May I?”

He spoke roughly, relapsing under excitement and emotion to habits of
speech which had been formed and strengthened in his early years in the
West. Katharine had occasionally heard him talk in that way with men,
losing all at once the refinements of accent and speech which had been
familiar in childhood and again in maturity, but which ten years of
California and Nevada had lined, so to say, with something rougher and
stronger that occasionally broke through the shell. Katharine was by no
means sure of what he meant to say, and would very much have preferred
that he should not ask his question just then, whatever it might prove
to be. But she saw well enough that in his present mood it would not be
easy to control him.

“Yes,” she said. “Ask me anything you like, if you think I can answer. I
will if I can.”

“Well--are you going to marry Jack Ralston or not, cousin Katharine? It
would make a difference to me if you’d tell me.”

Katharine was taken unawares, both by the question and its form. Not to
answer it was very difficult, under the circumstances. She had risked
trouble in letting him speak, and it would not be true either to say
that she was going to marry Ralston or that she was not, since she was
married already. But she had never contemplated the possibility of
telling Bright the secret, and she did not wish to do so now. She was
very truthful and also very reticent--qualities which she inherited,
and which were therefore the foundation of her impulses and not acquired
virtues from which there was at least a chance of escape under very
trying circumstances. She hesitated a moment, and then made up her mind.

“I’d rather not answer the question just now,” she said, but she felt
the blush slowly rising to her cheeks.

Bright glanced at her with a look almost expressing fear. Then he turned
his eyes away, and grew red. He jingled his little bunch of keys in his
pocket, in his emotion. Once or twice he opened his lips and drew
breath, but checked himself and kept silence. Seeing that he said
nothing, Katharine rose to her feet, hoping to put an end to the
situation. He pretended not to see her, at first. She felt that she
should not go away in silence, for she did not wish to seem unkind, so
she stood still for a moment, keeping herself in countenance by
adjusting the little cape she wore over her injured arm. Still he said
nothing, and at last she made a step as though she were going away,
purposely trying to put on a kindly and natural expression.

“Where are you going?” he asked, almost roughly.

“I was going to my room,” she answered, quietly. “I haven’t even taken
off my hat, yet, you see. I’m just as I came in.”

She lengthened the short explanation unnecessarily in order to seem
kind, and then regretted it. She made another step.

“Don’t go just yet!” he exclaimed.

His throat was dry, and the words came with difficulty. Katharine knew
that there was nothing to be done now but to face the situation. She
stopped just as she was about to take another step, and came back to him
as he stood by the fireplace.

“Please don’t say anything more,” she said. “I hadn’t any idea what
question you were going to ask. Please don’t--”

“Just hear me, please,” he answered, paying no attention to what she
said. “It isn’t going to take long. You know what I meant. Well--I’ve
thought for some time that things had cooled off between you and Jack,
and that you’d settled down to be friends. So I thought I’d ask you. Of
course, if you said right out that you were going to marry him or you
weren’t--well, that would rather simplify things. But of course, if you
can’t, or won’t, I’ve just got to be satisfied, that’s all. You’ve got a
doubt, anyhow. And Jack’s my friend. He had the first right, and he has
it until you say ‘no’ and send him off. I don’t want you to think that
I’m not acting squarely by him.”

For a moment Katharine hesitated. She was much tempted to tell him of
her marriage, seeing how he spoke, but again her natural impulse kept
her silent on that point.

“There’ll never be any chance for any one else, Ham,” she said gently.
“Put it out of your mind--and I’m grateful, indeed I am!”

“Never?” he asked, looking at her--and a nervous smile that meant
nothing came into his face.

She shook her head in answer.

“There’ll never be any chance for any one else,” she repeated gravely.

He looked at her a moment longer, his face growing rather pale. Once
more he jingled his keys in his pocket, as he turned his head away.

“Well--I’m sorry,” he said. “Excuse me if I spoke--you see I didn’t
know.”

There was a tone with the commonplace words that took them straight to
Katharine’s heart. She saw how the strong, simple, uneloquent man was
suffering, and she knew that she should never have come to the house.

“I’m more sorry--and more ashamed--than you can guess,” she said, and
with bent head she left him standing by the fireplace, and went to her
room.

He did not move for a long time after she had gone, but stood still, his
face changing, though little, from time to time, with his thoughts. He
jingled his keys meditatively in his pocket every now and then. At last
he sighed and uttered one monosyllable, solemnly and without undue
emphasis.

“Damn.”

Then he shook his big shoulders, and got his hat and went for a solitary
stroll, eastwards in the direction of the river.

But Katharine had not such powerful monosyllables at her command, and
she suddenly felt very much ashamed of herself, as she shut the door of
her room and looked about, with a vague idea that she ought to go away
at once. It was not as though she had not been warned of what might
happen, nor as though she had been forced into the situation against her
will. She had deliberately chosen to come to the Brights’ rather than to
go anywhere else, and had obliged John Ralston to let her do so when she
had been with him in the carriage. If she ever told him what had just
happened he would have in his power one of those weapons which, in a
small way, humanity keenly dreads, to wit, the power to say “I told you
so.” It is not easy to explain the sense of utter humiliation which most
of us feel--though we jest about it--when the warning of another proves
to have been well founded.

Katharine saw, however, that her wandering existence could continue no
longer, and that if she left the Brights’ she must go home. She could
not continue to transfer herself from the home of one relation to that
of another, with her box and her valise, for an indefinite period. In
the first place, she was inconveniencing people, and secondly, they
would ultimately begin to wonder what had happened in Clinton Place to
make it impossible for her to stay in her father’s house. On the other
hand, she was not prepared to go there at a moment’s notice. She could
hardly expect a very hearty welcome from her father, considering how
they had parted on that afternoon at Robert Lauderdale’s house more than
a week earlier.

She hesitated as to whether she should not pretend to be ill and stay in
her room until the next morning, when she could go back quietly to
Clinton Place. But she knew that Mrs. Bright would come and sit with her
and would very soon find out that there was nothing the matter. She
might have saved herself the trouble of thinking of that, for Bright
himself did not wish to meet her, and went out and dined at his club as
the surest way of avoiding her. It was as well, at all events, that she
did not attempt to go to the Crowdies’, for her appearance there just
then would not have pleased Hester, and would have considerably
disturbed Crowdie’s own peace of mind.

She was immensely relieved to find herself alone at dinner with Mrs.
Bright, who made Hamilton’s excuses, and she looked forward to spending
a quiet evening and going to bed early, unless Ralston came. This,
however, was not probable, for he had come on the previous evening, and
he hesitated to come every day on account of the Brights.

He came, however, not long after dinner. Katharine did not understand
his expression. He smiled like a man in possession of an amusing secret
which he was anxious to communicate as soon as an opportunity offered.
At last Mrs. Bright left the room.

“Look here,” said Ralston. “I’ve got this thing--I wish you’d look at it
and tell me what you think.”

He produced a letter and handed it to her, with a short laugh. She saw
that it was in her father’s handwriting.

“Read it,” said John. “It will make you open your eyes. He has a
most--peculiar character. It’s coming to the surface rapidly.”

Katharine held out the envelope to him.

“You must take it out,” she said. “I’ve only got one hand, and that’s my
left.”

“Poor dear!” he exclaimed. “I suppose you’ll have at least ten days more
of this.”

He had opened the letter while speaking and handed it to her.

“Why don’t you read it to me yourself?” she asked.

“Because--I’d rather you should read it. It’s a very extraordinary
production. He’s not diplomatic--your father. It’s lucky he’s not an
ambassador or one of those creatures. He wouldn’t cover his country
with glory in making treaties.”

Katharine was already running her eye over the page, and her face
expressed her surprise. She even turned the sheet over and looked at the
signature to persuade herself that her father had really written what
she was reading, for it was hard to believe. As she proceeded, her brows
bent, and her lip curled scornfully. Then all at once she laughed with
genuine, though bitter, amusement--the laugh that comes from the head,
not from the heart. Then she grew grave again and read on to the end.
When she had finished, her hand with the letter in it fell upon her knee
and she looked into Ralston’s face with parted lips, as though helpless
to express her astonishment.

In any jury of honour the communication would have been accepted as a
formal apology for everything her father had done, and for anything he
might have done inadvertently. Ralston was wrong in saying that
Alexander Junior had no talent for diplomacy. Consciously or
unconsciously, he had succeeded in writing a letter in which he took
back every insulting word he had spoken of Ralston, either to his face
or behind his back, without exactly saying that he meant to do so. He
took the position of considering it a matter of the highest importance
to sift the truth out of what he called the labyrinth of evil speaking,
lying, and slandering, by which he was assailed on every side. The
confusion of similes at this point was almost grand in its chaotic
incoherence, and it was here that Katharine had laughed, as well she
might. The honour of the family, said Alexander, was at stake, and he
had accordingly performed the operation of sifting the attacking and
mendacious labyrinth. The result of his labour of love for Ralston’s
reputation, in the interests of the family honour, was much simpler than
his alleged mode of getting at it. For he did not hesitate to say that
he had ascertained, beyond the possibility of doubt that the stories
concerning John’s intemperance were lies--and the word was written with
conscientious calligraphy. There was to be no mistake there. Alexander
thought it due to Ralston, as indeed it was, to make the statement at
once, as the ultimate expression of a carefully formed opinion. With
regards to any other differences which there might have been between
them, he thought that amicable settlements were always more Christian,
and generally more satisfactory in the end. He should never forget that
he had parted from his dear uncle in wrath. Here Katharine’s lip curled
as she remembered what the nature of that parting had been. He was sure
that the wish of the dear departed would have been that all parties
should seek peace and ensue it. “To ensue” was a verb which Katharine
had never understood, and she had always suspected that it was a mistake
in the printing, but the quotation sounded well, and brought up the rear
with a clang of armour of righteousness, so to say. The phrase appeared
to be thrown out as a suggestion--as a very broad hint, in fact, seeing
that it came from him who had received the blow, and not from him who
had dealt it.

There was much more to the same effect. It was a very long letter,
covering two sheets of the Trust Company’s foolscap--very fine bond
paper with a heading in excellent good taste. But the most remarkable
point of all had been reserved for the last paragraph. Therein Alexander
Lauderdale said that he did not abandon all hope, even after what had
occurred, of cementing a union between the two surviving branches of the
Lauderdales, upon the worldly advantages of which his delicacy would not
allow him to dwell, but in which he thought it possible and even
probable, that all family differences might be forgotten on earth.
Whether he expected that they should afterwards be revived in heaven, or
in a place more appropriate, he did not add. But he signed himself
sincerely John Ralston’s cousin, Alexander Lauderdale Junior, and it was
quite clear that he wished all he had said to be believed.

“Now isn’t that the most remarkable production of human genius that
you’ve ever seen?” asked John, as Katharine dropped her hand.

She slowly nodded her head, her lips still parted in wonder, and her
eyes looked far away.

“It came over to the bank by a messenger of the Trust Company,” said
John. “So I wrote an answer on the bank paper--”

“What did you say?” asked Katharine, with sudden anxiety, dreading lest
he had given way to some new outburst of temper.

“What should I say? I said it was all right. That I was glad he had
found that I wasn’t quite so bad as he’d thought. And I added at the
end--because he’d put it there--that if there was any thing that I
hankered for and believed I was fitted for, it was to be used up as
cement for the family union--‘apply while fresh’--that sort of thing.
Only of course I put it nicely. Oh--you needn’t be afraid! I wasn’t
going to do anything idiotic. Besides, I see what he’s driving at. It’s
as plain as day.”

“What? I can’t understand it, myself--it all seems so strange and
unexpected, and unlike him.”

“It’s as clear as day, dear. He knows he must come round some day, and
he’s doing it now, so that we may be all patched up and peaceful before
the hearing about the will--that’s it. You know if all the next of kin
appear together against the distant relations, it influences the court’s
opinion, when the court has a choice of opinions, as it very likely
will have in this case.”

“Then you think the will is likely to be broken?”

“I don’t know. They’re saying to-day that one of the witnesses is
mentioned in the will--in the list of servants who get annuities, and
that if the witnessing’s wrong, the will can’t be probated, as they call
it. I don’t understand those things.”

“And the Brights will get nothing.”

“Nothing.”

“Poor Ham!”

“Yes--well--he’s got enough to live on without forty millions more.”

“It would have been a consolation to him--oh Jack! You were right--don’t
say, ‘I told you so’--please! This afternoon he wanted to--well he did
ask me--he thought it was off between you and me.”

“I told you--no, darling, I won’t say it,” answered Ralston. “Give me a
kiss, and I won’t say it.”

He did not say it.




CHAPTER XXIII.


Love, Mrs. Lauderdale had said in her absent-minded way, was not at all
like other passions. The words remained in Katharine’s memory and
pleased her and comforted her in a manner which would have surprised the
elder woman, had she guessed that she had unintentionally drawn music
from a human soul with one of those dull and stereotyped phrases which
people fall back upon when they cannot or will not explain themselves.

But that was precisely what Katharine wished to believe--that love was
not at all like other passions, that it bore not the slightest
resemblance in its nature to those which she had seen asserting
themselves so strongly around her, and of which she was beginning to
understand something by proxy, as it were. For though she had said that
her love for John Ralston was like her father’s love of money, she did
not in the least wish to believe it. She attached to love the highest
interpretation of which it is capable; she attributed to it the purest
and most disinterested motives; she gave it in her thoughts the
strongest and best qualities which anything can have.

She had a right to do so, and though she sought an explanation of her
right, she was not disturbed because she found none. She dreamed of
theories vague, but as beautiful as they were untenable, as men of
ancient times imagined impossible, but deeply poetic, interpretations of
nature and her doings. Her soul, and the soul of the man she loved had
elected one another of old from amongst myriads; neither could give
light without the other, nor could either live without the other’s life.
Together they were one immortal; separate they must perish. The good of
each was the triumphant enemy of evil in the other, and the evil in both
was gradually to be driven out and forgotten in the perfection of the
whole.

All that was contemplative in her nature was entranced before the
exquisite beauty of her imagined deity. Little by little, as other
attachments were rudely shaken, broken, and destroyed, the one of all
others which she most valued grew stronger and fairer in the wreck of
the rest; the one passion which she saw was good towered in her soul’s
field as an archangel among devils, spotless, severe, and invincible.
The angel was not John Ralston, nor were the devils those persons with
whom her life had to do. They all had other features, immortal natures,
and transcendent reasoning. At that time there was in her the foundation
of a great mythology of ideals, good and bad, personified and almost
named, among which love was king over all the rest, endowed with divine
attributes, with knowledge of the human soul, and power to move the
human heart, knowing all motives and divining all impulses,--a being to
whom a prayer might be said in trouble, and whose beneficent hand would
be swift and strong to help. Love, in her theory of the world, was the
prime cause, the intelligent director, and at the same time the ultimate
end. She and her husband were under his immediate and especial
protection. If they were faithful to him, he would shield them from
harm, and make them immortal with himself beyond the stars. If they
denied him--that is, if they ceased to love one another--his face would
grow dark, his right hand would be full of semi-biblical terrors, and he
would abandon them to the wicked will of the devils,--which were the bad
passions the girl saw in others,--to be tormented until they themselves
should be extinguished in eternal night.

Practically, Katharine had constructed a religion for herself out of the
most human thing in her nature, since she had lost the bearings of
anything higher in the storms through which she had passed. It was by no
means an unassailable religion, nor a very logical one, being derived
altogether from the exaltation of the most human of all passions, and
having its details deduced from the one-sided experience of an innocent
child. But that very innocence, that very impossibility of conceiving
that there should be anything not good in love that was true, gave it an
enormous force against the powers which were evidently evil. There was
an appearance of inexorably sound reason, too, in the conclusion that
all human motive was passion of one kind or another, and that all
passions but love were bad and self-destructive in the end, having their
foundation in selfishness, and not in the other self that fills
love-dreams.

Since passion and motive were one and the same, thought Katharine, there
could be no question as to which of them all was the best, since true
love such as hers was the only passion that had no one of the seven
capital sins attached to it. Such an argument was manifestly
unanswerable when it came from her, and she rejoiced in the security of
knowing herself to be right in the midst of many wrongs, which is one of
the highest satisfactions of human vanity for the young or the old. Day
by day, through the changing events of the past year, the conviction had
grown, until it was now the dominant cause and mover of her being, and
was assuming superhuman proportions in her estimated values of things
transcendent.

Paul Griggs, with his vaguely expressed explanations of things which
meant much, and meant it clearly, to himself, had unconsciously helped
Katharine to deify love at the expense, and to the ruin, of any form of
religious belief to which she might have been inclined. He was assuredly
not one of those men who seem to make it their business to destroy the
convictions of others, and to give them nothing in exchange for what was
consolation, if not salvation. He was, at least, a man who believed in
belief, so to say, and who, perhaps, believed many things which must
have seemed utterly incredible to ordinary beings of ordinary
experience. But he was fond of stating the results he had reached, in a
careless way, which seemed less than half-serious, without giving the
smallest hint as to the means by which he had obtained them. The
statements themselves were fragmentary: here a hand, there a head, now a
foot, and next a bit of the shoulders. He was not conscious of his
fault. To him the image was always present and complete. It seemed to
him that he was but calling attention to one point or another of the
visible whole, when it seemed to others as though he were offering them
broken bits, often unrecognizable as belonging to any possible image
whatsoever. Others sometimes put the bits together in their own way.

He was not in any sense an ordinary being, nor one to be judged by
ordinary standards, though he rarely claimed the right to be treated as
an exception. The difference between him and the average man lay not in
any very unusual gifts, and many might have been found who, knowing him
well, would have denied that there was any radical difference at all.
He would certainly have taken little pains to persuade these of the
contrary. Outwardly, he was a man of letters who had met with
considerable success in his career--about as much as justifies
good-natured people in making a lion of an author or an artist, but no
more. He had written many books, and had learned his business in the
bitter struggles which attend the commencement of an average literary
man’s life, when the fight for bare existence forces the slender talent
to bear burdens too heavy for its narrow shoulders, along paths not easy
to tread for those most sure of foot. He had some valuable gifts,
however, which had stood him in good stead. He possessed almost
incredible physical strength in certain ways, without the heavy,
sanguine temperament which requires regular exercise and perpetual
nourishment. His endurance was beyond all comparison greater than that
of men usually considered very strong, and he had been able to bear the
strain of excessive labour which would have killed or paralyzed most
people. That was one of the secrets of his success. Secondly, he had
acquired an unusual mechanical facility in the handling of language and
the arrangement of the matter he produced, so as to give it the most
favourable appearance possible. His imagination was not abundant, but he
did the best he could with it under all circumstances, and answered all
critics with the unassailable statement that he wrote for a living and
did the best he could, and sincerely regretted that he was not Walter
Scott, nor Goethe, nor Thackeray, nor any of the great ones. That was
his misfortune, and not his fault. People flattered him, he said, by
telling him that he could do better if he tried. It was not true. He
could not do better.

But in all these points he did not differ very widely from the average
man who attains to a certain permanent and generally admitted success by
driving his faculties to their utmost in the struggle for a living. The
chief difference between him and other men had been produced by an
experience of life under varying circumstances, such as an ordinary
individual rarely gets, and possibly by the long-continued action of
unusual emotions with which this study, or history, of Katharine
Lauderdale can have nothing to do, and which did not directly concern
his literary career nor his relations with the world at large, though
the outward result was to make unthinking people say that there was
something mysterious about him, which either attracted them or repelled
them, according to their temperaments and tastes. At all events, his
life had tended to the creation of a form of belief and a mode of
judgment which seemed very simple to himself, and perfectly
incomprehensible to almost every one else. He showed other people
fragments and bits of it, when he was in the humour, and sometimes
seemed surprised that those who heard him should not also understand
him. One of his fundamental articles of faith seemed to be that life as
a possession was of no value whatsoever: a doctrine which attracted very
few. But those who knew him and watched him were sure that there was no
affectation in that part of his creed, though they might hesitate in
finding reasons for his belief in it. It was strongly contrasted with
his immovable faith--not in a life to come, for he despised the
expression--but in the present fact of immortality. The mere fact that
he laughed at the idea of ‘past’ and ‘future’ in their relation to the
soul, sufficiently confused most of those who had heard him talk of such
things.

Katharine Lauderdale had neither the man’s experience to help her in
following him, nor any superior genius of insight to lead her to his
conclusions by what one might call the shorthand of reason--intuition.
She was simply attracted without understanding, as so many people are
nowadays, by everything which promises a glimpse at the unknown, if not
a knowledge of the unknowable. She took the longing for the power of
comprehension, the fragments for the whole, and the crumbs for the bread
of life. It was not unnatural, considering the tendencies of modern
culture, but it was unfortunate.

She halved her soul, and gave John Ralston his share of it, though he
had a very good one of his own. She elaborated a theory of
interchangeable and interdependent selves for herself and him, which
momentarily satisfied all her wants. She took his self with her own into
the temple of love, and bade it bow down and worship with her the
glorious deification of human passion which she had set up there. And
his imaginary self, being really but that part of her own being which
she called his, consented and obeyed, and did as she did. And the
incense rose before the shrine, and the love-angels chanted love’s
litany of praise, while Love himself smiled down upon her, and told her
that he was immortal, and would make her deathless for her belief in
him. The temple was beautiful beyond compare; the deity was spotless,
fair of form, and noble of feature; the heart that worshipped was fresh,
unsullied, and sincere. There had never been anything more perfect than
it all was in Katharine’s imagination; and there could never, in all the
long life that was before her, be anything so perfect again. John
Ralston, single-hearted and deeply loving as he was, could never have
any conception of the divinity his maiden wife adored in secret. Her
instinct told her that though he was with her, the manliness in him
looked at the world from another point of view; and in all their many
exchanges of thought she never spoke of her visions of blessedness. The
fact that she kept them to herself gave them more strength, and
preserved their intact beauty in all its splendid strength and all its
infinite delicacy.

In a certain way she owed to Paul Griggs some of her sweetest and most
exquisite thoughts, of which the memory must be with her all her life,
long after the humanity of truth supplanted the dignity of the ideal.
Not that he had taught her anything of what he believed and thought that
he knew. She, like the rest, had received only fragments of his meaning;
but out of them she had constructed a whole which was beautiful in
itself, if nothing else--as lovers of art have dreamed an unbroken ideal
of perfection upon bits of marble unearthed from the grave of a great
thing destroyed, moulding theories upon it, and satisfying their tastes
through it, each in his own way, though perhaps all very far from what
was once the truth.

But, on the other hand, Griggs was partly responsible for the eclipse of
what, in her nature, as in all, was essentially necessary. She did not
at the present time feel the loss, if it were really a loss, and not a
mere temporary shutting off of all higher possibilities from her mental
sight. She did not, perhaps, fully realize the distance to which she had
gone in unbelief in substituting one ideal for another; and she would
have been profoundly shocked had any one told her that she had at the
present time wholly abandoned anything approaching to a form of
Christianity. She would have reasoned that she said prayers, as she
supposed other people did; but she would have found it hard to say what
she thought when she said them. Nine-tenths of them were for John
Ralston, and were in reality addressed to the divinity in the love
temple--the remaining ones were mere words, and said in a perfunctory
way, with a sort of sincerity of manner, but with no devotion whatever,
and no attempt to strengthen them with a belief that they might be
answered. She had been taught to say them, and continued to say them
with the conscientiousness which is born of habit, before there can be
any thought connected with the thing done.

Griggs and his talk had only contributed to this result. The quick and
noiseless destruction of Katharine’s beliefs had been chiefly brought
about by the actions of the persons with whom she had to do, and by the
collapse of their principles in the face of difficulties, temptations
and tests. It was natural that she should ask herself of what use her
father’s blind faith and rigid practice could be, when neither the one
nor the other could diminish his avarice nor check his cruelty when
anything or any one stood between him and money. She was not to be
blamed if she doubted the efficacy of the true faith, when she saw her
religious mother half mad with envy of her own daughter’s youth and
beauty. As for the rest of them all, they did not pretend to be
religious people. Their misdeeds killed her faith in human nature, which
is, perhaps, the ordinary key to that state of mind which believes in
God, though it is by no means the only one.

Had she been able to discern and analyze what was going on in her own
heart, she would have seen that her difficulty was the old one. The
existence of evil in the world disproved to her the existence of a
Supreme Power which was all good. But she neither analyzed nor
discerned. It was sufficient for her that the earthly evil facts existed
to assure her that the heavenly, transcendent Power was an
impossibility. She never made the statement to herself, but she
unconsciously took it for granted in substituting one divinity for the
other. John Ralston said that he ‘believed in things’--and did, vaguely.
But she had never found it possible to bring him to any concise
statement of what his beliefs were. And yet he was, in her loving
opinion, by far the morally best of all the men and women she had ever
known. He did not go to church every Sunday, as her father did. She
believed that he never went to church at all, in fact. But there was no
denying the superiority of a man who had bravely overcome such
temptation as John Ralston had formerly had to deal with, over one who,
like her father, believed, trembled, and nevertheless gave himself up
wholly to his evil passion.

So she had lost her belief in human nature. But as she could not afford
to lose her belief in the man she loved, she had taken him out of the
rest of humanity, and made him the half of herself, so that they two
stood quite alone in the world, and had their temple to themselves, and
their little god to themselves, and their faith and belief and religious
practice altogether to themselves, though John Ralston was quite
ignorant of the fact. But that made no difference to Katharine. He was
in her earthly paradise, though he did not know it, and was as sincere a
worshipper of the divinity as she herself.

In this way she excepted both him and her from common humanity, and was
sure that she had found the true path which leads to the fields of the
blessed. Love was the centre of hope and the circumference of life; it
was the air she breathed, the thoughts she thought, and the actions she
performed. There was nothing else. And since eternity was the present,
as Griggs said, there was no hereafter, and so there could never be
anything but love, even after men ceased to count time. In the midst of
the prosaic surroundings of a society life, as in the midst of the great
and evil passions which do devilish deeds just below the calm,
luxurious and dull surface, there was one true idealist, one maiden soul
that dreamed of love’s immortality, and placed hers in love’s heart of
hearts.




CHAPTER XXIV.


The letter Alexander Lauderdale Junior had written to Ralston will have
given some idea of what he was willing to sacrifice for the sake of
having the will annulled. A moral degeneration had begun in him, which
might go far in the end. The passion he had so long tried to conceal,
with considerable success, and which had fed for many years on a small
object, was stirred up and set at large by the enormous wealth now at
stake. The man’s pride shrank away before it, and even his rigid
principles wavered. He began to make those compromises with his
conscience which circumstances suggested, and he forced his religious
habits to help in doing the dirty work of his greed. In a lower walk of
life, perhaps, such a man, in such a situation, would have committed
crimes to obtain the money. Alexander Junior robbed his own soul, and
murdered his own conscience. We shall know some day what difference
there is between that and murder in the first degree.

It was not an affair of a few days. Such a character could not change
easily nor quickly, either for better or for worse. For years the
thought of his uncle’s money had been constantly present with him, and
for many years he had dreamt the miser’s dream of endless gold. There
was nothing new in it, nor, of itself, had it ever disturbed the
equanimity of his well-practised righteousness. It had never even
occurred to him that in not spending his hoarded income he was wronging
any one. He had regarded his wife’s painting and selling her miniatures
as a wholesome occupation, and as what certain persons call a moral
discipline. The principles of economy which he forced his household to
practise were agreeable to the ascetic disposition which in a greater or
less degree showed itself in the Scotch blood of the Lauderdales.
Economy was a means of feeling that he was better than other people,
and, axiomatically, it cost nothing, and helped to satisfy his main
passion. Only his sense of social importance, which was strong and
hereditary, had hindered him from actually reducing his establishment to
a condition of positive penury. But that would have been impossible,
because it would have been impossible to conceal it. He preserved the
limits so carefully that, while every one said that the Lauderdales
lived very quietly, no one ever thought of saying that they lived
poorly. Then, too, Mrs. Lauderdale was herself an excellent manager, and
had long been deceived by her husband’s assurance that he was poor and
wholly dependent upon the salary he received from the Trust Company, in
which he held no interest, as he could always easily prove. As a matter
of fact, though he practically directed the affairs of the Company
himself, he considered United States’ bonds as a safer investment. He
did not consider that he was deceiving his wife, either. In his own
opinion he was poor. What was a million? There were some who had nearly
two hundred millions. Scores, perhaps hundreds, in the country had more
than fifty millions. What was a million? Was not a man poor who had but
one dollar when his neighbour had two hundred? It was no business of his
wife’s, nor of any one else, if he had something put away. It had always
been possible, within the limits of the law, that his uncle might leave
him nothing. So he had practised economy, and grown rich secretly.

But all his hardly hoarded savings were but as a drop to the sea of gold
which surged upon the horizon of his hopes when he thought of Robert
Lauderdale’s death, and which rushed forward all at once to his very
feet, as soon as the old man was really dead. It washed away his
elaborately drawn pattern of morality, as the tide obliterates the
figures a child has scrawled upon the sand; it rose by quick degrees,
and flowed higher than the rigid landmarks which he had driven like
stakes into the flat expanses of his soul; it boiled up and sucked back
the earth from beneath the very foundations of the chapel of ease he
had built for his conscience, over his own little spring of wealth, when
all the shore had been dry and arid, and the golden ocean very far off.

The long cherished hope had prepared the circumstances for the reality.
He meant now to have at least half the fortune, or perish in the attempt
to get it. That is, he was ready to spend even what he had saved, in
order to get possession of the greater sum. And he was far more ready to
spend other things, such as his pride and his manliness. He was ready
and willing to lay the shears to his garment of righteousness, and to
clip and cut it to the very limits of moral decency, leaving but enough
to cover the nakedness of his miserly soul.

Therefore he had written that letter to John Ralston, and one something
like it to John’s mother, believing it probable that she had been told
by her son of much that had taken place. His lawyer had told him that if
the will were probated, and if it became necessary to attack it on other
grounds, it would be of the highest importance that the next of kin
should act in concert against the distant relations who had been so
highly favoured. It became his business, therefore, to make sure of
having the Ralstons on his side.

He distrusted them, after what had happened. He knew that they cared
little for money, and much for a certain kind of sentiment which was
quite foreign to him, and he believed them capable of opposing him,
merely in order that the dead man’s wishes might be carried out. The
situation in which he found himself was an unexpected one, too. He had
been taken by surprise and obliged to act at short notice, and he was no
diplomatist. He merely took the first means which offered for carrying
out his lawyer’s idea. The will itself was of an unusual character. He
had expected that his uncle would either divide the fortune between the
next of kin, in trusts for their children, with a legacy to the Brights,
or that he would make something like an equal distribution amongst all
the living members of the family. He had long cherished, however, the
secret hope that as his own branch of the family was the most numerous,
and as he himself had such an unassailable character for uprightness and
economy, the largest share might be placed in his hands for
administration, if not actually as his own property. He had been
disappointed, and he considered the will a piece of flagrant injustice.

Many outsiders shared his opinion, and asked one another why the Brights
should have so much, and Alexander Junior had the satisfaction of
feeling that his action would be approved by a large number of
hard-headed business men amongst his acquaintances. His lawyer, too, was
encouraged by this fact; and looked forward confidently to pocketing an
enormous fee. He was a man as hard headed, as upright, and as spotless
in reputation as his client, and the high morality of their united
forces was imposing.

If Alexander had conceived it possible that Mrs. Ralston and her son
could agree to have no opinion in the matter, but to abide by their
lawyer’s judgment, and let him act as he thought best, he might have
spared himself the trouble and humiliation of writing the letter to
John. He would have known that Mr. Henry Brett was not the man to advise
his clients against taking their rights without any regard to sentiment,
and Alexander’s joy was great when he found that Brett was with him--a
much younger man than his own lawyer, but keen, business-like, and of
excellent standing. Brett had married the widow of the notorious forger
and defaulter, John Darche, and had diminished neither his popularity
nor his credit by so doing.

Alexander reproached himself in a way that would have surprised his
former virtue, for having so bitterly opposed Katharine’s marriage with
John Ralston. He really could not conceive how he could ever have
attached so much importance to the young fellow’s youthful follies. It
was the most natural thing in the world as it seemed to him now, that
with the prospect of boundless wealth the boy should have idled away his
time and amused himself as other boys did. His mind was full of excuses
for Ralston. What he could not pardon, he allowed to be swamped by the
gold-flood as soon as it presented itself. That one unpardonable thing
was the blow he had received. When he could not help thinking of it, and
when it stung his manliness--for he was a brave man--he took pains to
recollect that he had at once got John by the throat, and would probably
have broken some of his bones for him, if Katharine’s hurt had not
interrupted the struggle. It was not as though he had received a blow
tamely, without retaliation. His blood had been up, and Ralston must
have got the worst of it if circumstances had not obliged him to pause
in his vengeance. Nothing can equal the unconscious sophistry of a man
whose main passion requires that he shall not feel that he has been
insulted.

And so matters proceeded. The Brights’ lawyer did his best to force the
will to probate. The Lauderdales’ and Ralstons’ legal advisers created
delays, and as they were in possession of the will, they were able to
prolong the situation, and prepare for action. Old Robert Lauderdale’s
lawyer, Mr. Allen, was moreover their ally. He did not believe that the
will was good, and resented the way in which his deceased client had
surreptitiously employed a young fellow like Russell, before mentioned,
to draw it up, after he, Allen, had drawn up one which had been
irreproachable. The first point that arose was in connection with one
of the witnesses, who was unluckily not forthcoming. The signature was
that of one ‘John Simons.’ In the list of servants who were to receive
annuities appeared the name of one ‘J. Simmons,’ a groom, who, strange
to say, was not to be found either. The Lauderdale lawyers maintained
that the witness and the servant were the same person, and that there
had been a mistake in spelling the name in the list; a fact which would
have debarred the will from probate, as no legatee can be a witness.
This forced the Bright lawyers to ask time in order to find either the
witness or the groom, or both, and meanwhile the other side looked into
the will itself in search of irregularities connected with the
suspension of the power of alienation, and the like. Mr. George W.
Russell, who had drawn up the will, looked on with his hands in his
pockets, and was ‘interested in the show’ from a purely artistic point
of view.

The parties began to rage furiously together. Alexander Junior did not
hesitate to say that he remembered the groom Simmons, and that his name
was John. He assuredly believed that he did remember the fact, or he
would not have said so. But Hamilton Bright remembered, with equal
certainty, that the man had more than once gone with him when he had
been consulted, as an authority, about the buying of horses for old
Robert, and that his name was James. He had called him James, and the
man had answered to his name. That was proof positive. The servants of
the accused did not know anything about it. The man had always been
called Persimmons, because he lisped a little. He had been badly kicked
by a horse during Mr. Lauderdale’s last days, and had been sent to St.
Luke’s Hospital. At the hospital it was ascertained that he had been
discharged in a few days. He had not come back to Mr. Lauderdale’s. He
probably had some good reason for not coming back. It had been one of
his duties to buy certain things for the stables. Possibly he had been
dishonest and feared discovery. Mr. Russell, privately questioned, said
that the man who had signed the will as a witness might have been a
servant, and added, a few seconds later, that as he had not been present
when the will was signed, he did not know. He was young enough to laugh
to himself at his own pretended hesitation. He had drawn up the will.
When or where it had been signed and witnessed was beyond his knowledge.

The other witnesses said that from his appearance the man might have
been a respectable servant. He was clean shaven, and might have been a
groom. They had not heard him speak, so that they did not know whether
he lisped or not. They had never seen him before, and he had been in the
room when they had been called in. They had seen him write his name,
and were prepared to swear to it. They should also recognize him if they
saw him. Mr. Russell, privately questioned, said that he had copied the
name ‘J. Simmons’ with a list of names given him by Mr. Lauderdale for
the purpose. It had not struck him that it was informal to insert only
the initial, since there was no other Simmons, a servant, in the house
at the time. He was told severely, by the Brights’ lawyer, that it was.
He said he regretted the fact, and put his hands into his pockets and
looked on again.

Crowdie, who never swore, anathematized Alexander Junior in the dialect
of the Paris studios, a language which Alexander could not have
understood. Bright, who had driven cattle in the Nacimiento Valley,
spoke differently. Aunt Maggie’s charity suddenly ceased to be
universal, and excluded both Lauderdales and Ralstons from its benefits.
From Washington, Charlotte Slayback wrote an unusually affectionate
letter to her sister Katharine, in which she playfully compared the
fair-haired aunt Maggie and Hamilton Bright to a lioness and her whelp,
and all the tribe of Lauderdales to poor little innocent lambs with blue
ribbons round their necks. Benjamin Slayback of Nevada, Member of
Congress, said nothing. He was a singular man, having mines of silver of
his own, and his solitary pleasure was in giving his wife much money,
because she had none of her own. He reflected that if she were suddenly
made rich in her own right, his pleasure would be greatly diminished.
But on the whole, he believed in respecting dead men’s wishes, in spite
of legal formalities. He had known wills made by word of mouth by men
who had bullets in them before witnesses who had put the bullets there,
but who were scrupulous in carrying out the instructions of the
departed. He was a lawyer himself, however, and took an interest in the
case. He talked of running up to New York, from Friday to Monday, to
have a look at things, and a guess at which way the cat would jump.

Then Leek, the butler, who was anxious about his annuity, found
Persimmons, the groom, in a down-town stable, and showed him how
important it was for them both that he should at once go and swear that
he was not the John Simons who had signed the will, which he immediately
did. But on being confronted with the other witnesses, they said that
the signer had been clean shaven, and about of the same height; that the
room had been dimly lighted, and that they were not prepared to swear
that Persimmons was not the signer. Then Persimmons, being indignant,
and having had two goes of whiskey with Leek, lifted up his voice, and
swore to his own identity, and gave an account of himself, and declared
that his name was not and never had been John Simons, nor J. Simmons,
nor Persimmons, because he was not a Simmons at all, but one James
Thwaite, and had changed his name when he left England, because he had
been unjustly disqualified as a jockey, for roping Mr. Cranstoun’s mare
in the Thousand Guineas. All of which further complicated matters, while
the other witnesses grew more and more conscientiously sure that he was
the man who had signed with them, and wished to see him in a brown
jacket. Persimmons owned that he possessed such a garment, but refused
to put it on to play Punch and Judy for a couple of noodles, which
almost produced a free fight in Mr. Brett’s private office, and did not
improve things at all, for the two witnesses promptly swore that this
was the same Persimmons who had signed with them, and they should have
liked to know whether a disqualified jockey were a proper person to sign
with respectable persons like themselves--they should like to know that,
once for all. And they departed, much ruffled. Privately questioned, Mr.
Russell said that he had given Mr. Lauderdale no advice as to the
selection of his witnesses. He supposed that Mr. Lauderdale, who had
made at least two other wills in the course of his life, might have been
expected to understand what was required of witnesses. The Brights’
legal adviser told him that it was the duty of a lawyer to tell his
client how to make the signatures on a will legal. Mr. Russell thrust
his hands into his pockets and looked on. But the Brights’ lawyer began
to think that things looked queer, and that he might not get the will
through probate after all. He had not expected such a check at the
outset. He had anticipated a fight over much more complicated questions.

The Brights tried to ascertain whether the court would admit the will to
probate on the testimony of the two reliable witnesses. It seemed pretty
clear that the court would not hear of it. There had been a recent case,
argued the Brights, in which the testimony of one witness had been held
to be sufficient to establish the signatures of the others, though at
least one of the others was living at the time in a remote part of the
world. They were told that this was all very well, but that in the case
quoted there had been no question of any one of the witnesses being a
legatee, still less of that one having given an assumed name and not
being an American citizen, and that furthermore, in that case, there had
been no prospect of any litigation arising between the heirs, because
there had been only one heir, and excepting two small legacies, he would
have got the fortune just as surely if the deceased had died intestate;
and finally, that the Brights had better not come into court with any
such trumped-up case, which was unkind to the Brights, because the will
was in their favour, and they were not trumping up a case, but defending
one.

Then Persimmons, finding that eighty millions of money depended upon his
having signed or not signed the will, and that no one had, as yet,
offered him so much as a drink, save Leek, the butler, went privately to
Alexander Lauderdale Junior, and made certain propositions which
immediately resulted in his being kicked into the middle of Broad Street
by an unfeeling person in brass buttons, who answered to the name of
Donald McCracken, having red hair, large bones, and a Scotch
accent--very terrible.

On the advice of friends, Persimmons attempted to recover damages for
indignities and bruises received on the premises of the Trust Company,
and the popular feeling in the stables was with him. But he got nothing
but the promise of more kicks, payable at sight, by Donald McCracken,
and the hexecrations of Mister Leek who perceived that ‘is hannuity was
vanishing before ‘is very heyes.

And now no lawyer would make bold to say in his heart whether Persimmons
had signed or had not signed, and the war raged furiously, and the
Lauderdales, being in possession of the will, swore that they would
bring it to probate without delay, and that the Brights ought to be very
much pleased at this, as they had been so anxious to get the will
probated without delay. But the Brights were less anxious to do so than
they had been a few days earlier, and looked about them for means of
strengthening testimony. Also, the whole story was well ventilated in
the newspapers.

Then came a man privately to Hamilton Bright and said that he was John
Simons, who spelled his name in the right way, and had been the witness
of the will. He was in difficulties, and was obliged to hide from his
creditors; but if a small sum of money were forthcoming--and so forth.
Bright looked at him, and he was clean-shaven, and of average height,
and wore a brown jacket. Bright hesitated, and then called the other
witnesses, who unhesitatingly swore that the man who had signed was
Persimmons and not this Simons. And nothing more was heard of the man in
the brown jacket to this day. But another clean-shaven man of average
height with another sort of brown jacket appeared the next morning, and
many more after him, very much alike. But the departure of them from the
office was much more precipitate than that of the first. And this also
was in the morning and evening papers, and still the will was
unprobated, and lay in Mr. Allen’s safe. After that the lawyers on each
side began to accuse one another of causing delay, and while they were
quarrelling about it the delay continued, and the public jeered, and the
actors at Harrigan and Hart’s introduced jokes about the Lauderdale will
which brought the house down, until Teddy Van De Water, chancing to be
in the audience, took friendly action, and requested that the name
should not be introduced in future. At this the public of the theatre
took offence, and called all the Lauderdales gilt-edged galoots, and by
other similar epithets commonly applied to the Four Hundred by a godless
population which has not the fear of millions before its eyes, but
rather a desire for the same.

About this time the quality of the cigars smoked by Alexander Lauderdale
Senior suddenly improved at a wonderful and miraculous rate, so that in
a few days he was brought by successive stages of delight from the ‘Old
Virginia Cheroot,’ at ten cents for a package of five, to the refinement
of Havanas, at thirty cents apiece, after which of his own accord he
returned to what are known as Eden Bouquets from Park and Tilford’s. He
smoked in silent surprise, not unmixed with an old man’s cunning
curiosity, and not without much internal amusement. Reporters also came
often to see him, ostensibly to make enquiries about the vast charities
in which he was chiefly interested; but in reality they came cynically
to have a look at him, and to tell the public what probabilities of life
remained to him in which to enjoy his half of the Lauderdale fortune.
Most of them came to the conclusion that he might live many years
longer.

In the Lauderdale household there was peace during these days.
Katharine had returned, and had been received by her father with
reticent affection, and nothing more had been said about her offering an
apology for her hasty speeches. From time to time the Ralstons were
spoken of in connection with the family affairs, and then Alexander
suggested to his wife that they might be asked to dinner. It would, in
his favourite phrase, tend to cement the union between the two branches
of the family which stood together in the great contention, pitted
against the Brights and the Crowdies.

They came, and their coming was an event. Even the servants took an
interest in it. Ralston and Lauderdale shook hands rather spasmodically,
and each looked at Katharine’s arm a moment later, recalling the words
they had exchanged when they had last met, and the blow and the struggle
after it, and many other things of a similar nature. The Ralstons were
very quiet, but behaved naturally and made conversation, avoiding the
subject of the will as much as possible. After dinner John and Katharine
sat in a corner for nearly half an hour, as they used to do long ago in
the early days of their love-making, and Alexander Junior seemed well
satisfied, and resolutely turned his back on them and talked with Mrs.
Ralston.

John remembered having told his mother, when Katharine was still at the
Brights’, that the next time Katharine entered her father’s house she
should go as his wife; but fate had managed matters otherwise. Until the
question of the fortune was settled, it would be as well to keep the
marriage a secret. It could only be a question of days now. That was
clear enough from Alexander’s face, which expressed his certainty of
triumph as clearly as his cold features could express anything. His
electric smile flashed more frequently than it had done for many years,
and his steely eyes glittered in the light. But he had grown thin of
late, for it was hard to wait so long before realizing the miser’s
dream.

In the night, when he lay awake, he had a wild idea which haunted him in
the dark hours, though it never crossed his brain during the daylight.
He thought of realizing a whole million in gold coin, and of revelling
in the delight of pouring it from one hand to another. He had a million
of his own, in a very realizable shape, but somehow he would not have
risked that, so long as he had not a second. Some one might rob him--one
could never tell. He should like to be alone with the gold in his own
room for one hour, and then know that it was safe. He considered whether
the gas-light in his dressing-room were strong enough to make the metal
glitter. Electric light would be better.

It was a childish thought, and in the daytime he paid no attention to
it, but at night it came upon him like hunger or thirst, drying his
lips and driving away sleep. Then, in order to quiet his brain, he had
to promise himself that he would really do the thing he longed to do as
soon as it lay in his power. But in the morning, when he stood before
his shaving-glass, and looked into his own hard eyes, he laughed
scornfully.

So things went on for a few days more. Then Alexander arose and said
that there should be no more delay, but that the will should be brought
to probate at the next session of the court, which does not sit every
day. And then the excitement grew more intense, and the Brights and the
Lauderdales avoided one another in the street. Ralston still went
regularly to the bank and saw Hamilton Bright every day. But though they
were friends still, and there had been no unfriendly word spoken between
them, they met as little as possible and merely nodded quickly when a
meeting was unavoidable. But Ralston was displeased by the notice he
attracted whenever he got up from his seat or sat down again.
Occasionally an acquaintance of one of the numerous young gentlemen in
the bank came in, and it was rarely that, after exchanging a few words
with his friend, the stranger did not turn and glance at John, where he
sat. Ralston did not like it, but he could do nothing against it.

Then came the day of judgment. Without warning the Brights produced a
man whom they believed to be the real John Simons, and who swore that he
had signed the will in the presence of the testators and in the presence
of the other witnesses.

This was a terrible blow to the Lauderdale side. But the other witnesses
had previously sworn to and signed a statement, extracted from them by
the Lauderdales, to the effect that Persimmons was the man who had
signed with them; and whether the John Simons now present, who was a
genuine John Simons of some kind, were the right one or not, they had no
intention of laying themselves open to a possible action for perjury,
and stuck to their original testimony, regardless of the fact that the
witness now confronted with them, being also clean shaven, of average
height, and possibly the possessor of a brown jacket, was a perfectly
respectable citizen of New York. At this the legal advisers of the
Brights were thunderstruck, and the court was surprised. But with the
fear of prosecution by the Lauderdales before their eyes, the other two
would not budge, though the real John Simons, whether he had signed or
not, immediately threatened to prosecute them for perjury on his own
account. But he did not look imposing enough, and they preferred that
risk to the other.

In the face of such conflicting evidence the court ruled that, the
witnesses not agreeing, the will could not be admitted to probate, and
there was clearly nothing to be done but to give judgment that the
deceased had died intestate, and that administrators must dispose of the
property between the next of kin, Alexander Lauderdale Senior, and
Katharine Lauderdale, widow of the late Admiral Ralston of the United
States Navy.

When Alexander Junior heard the judgment he laughed hysterically, and
showed his brilliant teeth. Hamilton Bright said nothing, but he, who
generally reddened under emotion, turned white to his neck and under his
ears.

“That’s all very well,” said Mr. Allen to Mr. Henry Brett, as they
walked away together. “But if he didn’t happen to destroy the will I
made for him, there may be trouble yet. I wonder where it is!”

But nobody seemed to know.




CHAPTER XXV.


It is not very easy to conceive of the disappointment felt by persons to
whom a gigantic fortune has been left by a will which is then entirely
set aside, so that they receive absolutely nothing. It would be useless
to attempt an analysis of the state of mind which prevailed in the
households of the Brights and the Crowdies after judgment had been given
against them in the court of probate. The blow was sudden and stunning.
Though they were all very well-to-do, even rich, in the ordinary
acceptation of that word, their joint imagination had of late so
completely outrun their present circumstances, that they felt
impoverished when the hope of millions was removed beyond their reach.
They could not realize that the will was absolutely valueless, and they
still felt sure that something might be done.

Unfortunately for them the matter had been finally settled. In the
presence of witnesses who denied one another’s identity, and threatened
one another reciprocally with actions for perjury, the court could
hardly have done otherwise than it had done. To this day it is still
doubtful--from a legal point of view--which of the John Simonses signed
as a witness, though everything goes to show that the last one produced
was the right one, in spite of the fact that the others denied having
known him. Persimmons had, from the first, denied having had anything to
do with the matter, but he had subsequently sworn to all manner of
statements. The confusion was complete. There was no doubt that the
respectable John Simons who appeared last was a tenant of one of the
Lauderdale houses in MacDougal Street, and he said that he had found
himself at Robert Lauderdale’s house, having gone to complain of a leak
in his roof to old Robert himself, after having vainly laid his
grievance before the agent a number of times. The story was probably
true, but the other witnesses remained firm in their assertion that he
was not the man. They were, perhaps, telling the truth to the best of
their ability. Neither Persimmons nor John Simons were men who had
anything unusual about them to impress itself upon their memory. They
themselves, somewhat awed by the presence of the great millionaire, had
looked at him much more than at their insignificant fellow-witness. The
room had not been light, for the signing had taken place late in the
afternoon, as all agreed in stating, and they had not remained in one
another’s presence more than three minutes altogether. Simons, said the
other two, had stayed behind, whereas they had left the room
immediately. It was not surprising that their memory of the man’s face
should be indistinct.

The Brights, however, threw the whole blame upon the Lauderdales and
their legal advisers. The latter had not the right, they said, to make
the two witnesses sign an affidavit beforehand to the effect that they
recognized the third. The Lauderdales answered that there was no law to
hinder them from requesting any individual with whom they had to do, to
swear to any statement he made. The two need not have signed unless they
pleased. There had been no pressure brought to bear upon them. They had
said that they recognized Persimmons. The Lauderdale lawyers wished to
make sure that they did, so as to avoid any subsequent trouble, because
Persimmons denied that he was the man, and might disappear before the
hearing. What was more natural than that, out of pure caution, they
should have wished to file an affidavit of the man’s identity? The
Brights, amongst themselves, were obliged to admit that they did not
really know who had signed, and that the only person who could have
settled the dispute was dead, so that they could not blame the court for
its decision.

After the judgment John Simons quarrelled with the other two, who turned
upon him in defence of their own reputations. They swore out warrants
against one another which were not served, and they pottered amongst
shysters and legal small fry, until they had spent most of their money,
and disappeared from the horizon with their quarrel. The private opinion
of the judge who had settled the question was that there had been an
unfortunate mistake, and that all three had originally intended to be
perfectly honest. But he also thought it far more just that the fortune
should go to the next of kin, in spite of Robert Lauderdale’s wishes.

Alexander Lauderdale did his best to conceal his delight in his triumph.
It had been a far more easy victory than he had expected, and it was
practically complete. The only drawback was that the fortune had come
into his old father’s hands instead of into his own, but he anticipated
no difficulty in ruling the old gentleman according to his own judgment,
nor in getting control of the whole estate. He intended to treat it as
he had treated his own comparatively small possessions, and he had hopes
of seeing it doubled in his lifetime. He could make it double itself in
twenty years at the utmost, and he was but fifty years of age, or
thereabouts. He should live as long as that, with his iron constitution
and careful habits.

His father received the news with an old man’s chuckle of pleasure, and
one heavy hand fell into the other with a loud slap of satisfaction. He
had but one idea, which was to extend the scope and efficiency of his
charitable institutions, and he saw at last that he had boundless power
to do so.

“I always knew I should live to build that other asylum myself!” he
cried, referring to one of his favourite schemes. “It will only cost a
million or so, and another million as a foundation will run it. I’ll
send for the architects at once.”

Alexander Junior smiled, for he believed that he was quite able to
prevent any such extravagance by getting himself appointed his father’s
guardian, on the ground that the old gentleman would squander everything
in senseless charities. But in the meanwhile it would take some time to
make the division of the property, which was almost wholly in real
estate, as has been seen, and could not be so readily apportioned as
though it had been held in bond and mortgage. Of course the
administrators would allow either of the heirs to draw a large amount on
credit before the settling, if they desired to do so.

Alexander Senior said that he meant to live in Clinton Place for the
rest of his life, and his son considered this a very wise decision. The
people who lived opposite began to watch the old gentleman, who had
inherited over forty millions, when he went out on foot in his shabby
coat for his airing on fine days. They wondered why he did not buy a
new one, as they did, when their overcoats were worn out.

Mrs. Lauderdale was indignant at the idea of continuing to inhabit the
old house. In her mind it was associated with a quarter of a century of
penurious economy, and she longed at last for the luxury she enjoyed so
thoroughly in the houses of others.

“It’s perfectly absurd,” she said to Katharine, indignantly. “I’ve stood
it all these years because I had to--but I won’t stand it any longer. If
ever I paint another miniature! But I’d made up my mind that I wouldn’t
do that, even if we didn’t get all the money.”

“I should think so!” laughed Katharine. “Put away your paints and your
brushes, mother, and say that you’ll never use them any more. You’ll be
at it again as hard as ever in a week, because you really like it, you
know!”

“I suppose so.” And Mrs. Lauderdale laughed, too. “Let’s go out, child.
Let’s take a long drive--somewhere. I suppose we can drive as much as we
like now.”

“From morning till night,” answered Katharine; “why don’t we use the
horses and carriages? They’re all there, you know, and all the grooms
and coachmen and everything, just as though nothing had happened.”

“Do you think we could just go there and order a carriage?” asked Mrs.
Lauderdale, rather doubtfully.

“Why, of course! Whose are they all, if they’re not ours and the
Ralstons’? We have a perfect right--”

“Yes--but if we were to meet people--don’t you know?”

“Well--they’re our carriages, not theirs.” Katharine laughed again. “The
only question is whether they’ll belong to the Ralstons or to us. I
suppose they’ll all be sold and we shall buy new ones.”

“I don’t see why,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale. “They’re perfectly good
carriages, and there are some splendid horses--”

Twenty-five years of rigid economy were not to be forgotten in a day,
and Alexander Junior saw with satisfaction that his wife showed no signs
of developing any very reprehensible extravagance. But she enjoyed that
first drive, lying back in the luxurious carriage with her daughter by
her side, and feeling that it all belonged to her, or, at least, that
she was privileged to consider that it did, as much as though she had
inherited the fortune herself.

Aunt Maggie Bright saw the two in the Park and bent her head rather
stiffly. She recognized the carriage and spoke of the meeting to her son
that evening.

“They’ve a right to do as they please,” answered Hamilton gravely. “As
for the carriages and all the personal belongings, they’d have had them
anyway. I should like to know where that other will is, though. If he
didn’t destroy it, it’s good now.”

“If it’s in existence, it will turn up amongst the papers one of these
days.”

“Unless Alexander gets at them--then it won’t,” said Bright, savagely.

“Perhaps that isn’t quite just, Ham. I don’t think Alexander’s capable
of destroying such a thing.”

“Oh--isn’t he! You don’t know him, mother. If you think anything would
stand in the way of his defending his millions, you’re very much
mistaken. There’s been something very queer about the whole affair. That
affidavit wasn’t straight.”

They argued the case and talked over it, as they had done many times
already, without coming to any conclusion, except that they should have
had the money and Alexander should not. They always considered that he
had got the property, though it was really his father’s. But they both
knew how futile discussion was, and they abandoned it at last, as they
always did, with a hopeless conviction that the truth could never be
known.

Katharine on her side was much disturbed by what she knew of the
previous will, and she took counsel with John Ralston, as to how she
should act. There was not much to be done, since the will itself had
not been found up to the present date, though the administrators had
been already some time engaged in examining the papers. Of these there
was no end, though the agent of the estate was acquainted with most of
them. They consisted chiefly of title deeds and leases.

By this time Alexander had practically admitted that Katharine was
engaged to be married to Ralston, but like every one else concerned, he
thought it better to wait until the summer, before announcing the fact.
To do so now would look as though the family had only waited for Robert
Lauderdale’s death. Moreover, though it is so little the custom to wear
mourning for any but the very nearest nowadays, the inheritance of
wealth requires a corresponding show of grief on the part of the heirs.
There is a sort of tacit understanding about that. When an uncle leaves
a fortune, the particular nephew who gets it must acknowledge the fact
and propitiate the shade of the dear departed with a decently broad
hatband. The position of the Brights caused some amusement. They had
worn something approaching to mourning after old Lauderdale’s death, but
they did not think it necessary to continue to do so after the court had
set aside the will. The Lauderdales and the Ralstons wore half mourning.

As has been said, Katharine’s engagement was accepted as a fact in the
family, and she had no difficulty in seeing Ralston as often as she
pleased, when he was free from his work. He had told Mr. Beman that he
should prefer to stay in the bank for a time and learn something about
business, and Beman had been delighted, especially when he saw that John
came as regularly as ever.




CHAPTER XXVI.


In the late spring John and Katharine often walked together of an
afternoon, between half past five and sunset.

It was during one of these walks that Katharine consulted him seriously.
They went about together in unfrequented places, as a rule, not caring
to meet acquaintances at every turn. Neither of them had any social
duties to perform, and they were as free to do as they pleased as though
they had not represented the rising generation of Lauderdales.

The spring had fairly come at last. It had rained, and the pavement
dried in white patches, the willow trees in the square were a blur of
green, and the Virginia creeper on the houses here and there was all
rough with little stubby brown buds. It had come with a rush. The
hyacinths were sticking their green curved beaks up through the park
beds, and the little cock-sparrows were scraping their wings along the
ground.

There was a bright youthfulness in everything,--in the air, in the sky,
in the old houses, in the faces of the people in the streets. The
Italians with their fruit carts sunned themselves, and turned up their
dark rough faces to the warmth. The lame boy who lived in the house at
the corner of Clinton Place was out on the pavement, with a single
roller skate on his better foot, pushing himself along with his crutch,
and laughing all to himself, pale but happy. The old woman in grey, who
hangs about that region and begs, had at last taken the dilapidated
woollen shawl from her head, and had replaced it by a very, very poor
apology for a hat, with a crumpled paper cherry and a green leaf in it,
and only one string. And the other woman, who wants her car-fare to
Harlem, seemed more anxious to get there than ever. Moreover the
organ-grinders expressed great joy, and the children danced together to
the cheerful discords, in Washington Square, under the blur of the green
willows--slim American children, who talked through their noses, and
funny little French children with ribbons in their hair, from South
Fifth Avenue, and bright-eyed darkey children with one baby amongst
them. And they took turns in holding it while the others danced.

Now also the patriotic Italians took occasion to bury a dead comrade or
two, and a whole platoon of them, who had been riflemen in their own
army at home, turned out in their smart, theatrical uniforms of green
and red, with plumes of gleaming cock’s feathers lying over one side of
their flat waterproof hats. And they had a band of their own which
played a funeral march, as their little legs moved with doll-like
slowness to the solemn measure.

But Katharine and John Ralston followed less frequented paths, crossing
Broadway from Clinton Place east, and striking past Astor Place and
Lafayette Place--where the Crowdies lived--by Stuyvesant Street
eastwards to Avenue A and Tompkins Square. And there, too, the spring
was busy, blurring everything with green. Men were getting the benches
out of the kiosk on the north side where they are stacked away all
winter, and others were repairing the band stand with its shabby white
dome, and everywhere there were children, rising as it were from the
earth to meet the soft air--rising as the sparkling little air bubbles
rise in champagne, to be free at last--hundreds of children, perhaps a
thousand, in the vast area which many a New Yorker has not seen twice in
his life, out at play in the light of the westering sun. They stared
innocently as Katharine and Ralston passed through their midst, and held
their breath a moment at the sight of a real lady and gentleman. All the
little girls over ten years old looked at Katharine’s clothes and
approved of them, and all the boys looked at John Ralston’s face to see
whether he would be the right sort of young person to whom to address an
ironical remark, but decided that he was not.

“There goes a son of a gamboleer,” observed one small chap on roller
skates, as he looked after John. “He’s fly.”

“You bet! And his girl, she knows it,” replied his companion, sharing in
his admiration.

“Your dad’s new coat’s that shape,” said the first. “But ’taint made
that way. Fifth Av’nue, that is! Bet?”

“Lemme be!” retorted the other. “Botherin’ me ’bout dad’s coat. Mine’s
better’n yours, anyhow.”

“Take a reef in your lip, Johnny, or I’ll sit on it!”

Thereupon they fought without the slightest hesitation. But Katharine
and John Ralston went on, and crossed the great square and left it by
the southeast corner, from which a quiet street leads across the
remaining lettered avenues to an enormous timber yard at the water’s
edge, a bad neighbourhood at night, and the haunt of the class
generically termed dock rats, a place of murder and sudden death by no
means unfrequently, but by day as quiet and safe as any one could wish.

“I don’t know what to do, Jack,” Katharine said, as they walked along.
“The idea of that other will haunts me, and I lie awake thinking of it
at night.”

“Don’t do that,” laughed Ralston. “It isn’t worth while. Besides, it
wouldn’t make so much difference if it were found.”

“The Brights would get their share--as much as they ought to
expect--instead of getting nothing. That’s the principal thing. But papa
wouldn’t like it at all. As things are now, he’ll probably have all
grandpapa’s share when grandpapa dies. I suppose he’ll have the
management of it as it is. But if the old will were found, and were
legal, you know--why then papa never could possibly have anything but
the income of half my share. He wouldn’t like that.”

“What in the world does he want with so much?” asked Ralston,
impatiently. “I do think you Lauderdales are the strangest people! If
the will--”

“Don’t say ‘you Lauderdales’ to me like that, Jack!” interrupted
Katharine, with a little laugh. “You’re every bit as much one as I am,
you know--”

“Well--yes. I didn’t want to say disagreeable things about your
father--”

“So you jumbled us all up together! That’s logical, at all events.
Well--don’t!” she laughed again.

“No, I won’t. So I’ll say that your father is the strangest person I
ever heard of. As it is now, he’s practically got half the fortune. If
the old will turned up and were proved, he and your mother would get
two-thirds of the income--”

“No they wouldn’t, Jack. The two-thirds would be divided equally between
them and Charlotte and me.”

“Oh--I see! Then they’d only get one-third between them. Well--what
difference does it make, after all? There’s such a lot of money,
anyhow--”

“You don’t understand papa, Jack. I’m not sure that I do--quite. But I
think what he wants is not the income, for he’ll never spend it. I
believe if he had the whole eighty-two millions locked up in the Safe
Deposit, he’d be quite happy, and would prefer to go on living in
Clinton Place on ten or eleven thousand a year--or whatever it
costs--just as he’s always lived. It’s the money he wants, I think, not
the income of it. That’s the reason why I’m sure he wouldn’t like the
other will. He’d fight it just as he fought this one. For my part I
never could understand what made uncle Robert change his mind at the
last minute, just after he’d spoken to me.”

“He did, anyhow. That’s the main point.”

“Yes. You know he was very much troubled in his mind about the money. I
believe he’s been thinking for years how to divide it fairly. I could
see, when he spoke to me, that he wasn’t satisfied with what he’d done.
It was worrying him still. But now--about this other will--ought I to
say anything? I mean, is it my duty to tell papa what was in it?”

“No, indeed! How could it be your duty? Everybody knows that uncle
Robert had made a previous will. Mr. Allen drew it up, though of course
he’s bound to say nothing about what was in it. It is always taken for
granted that when a man makes a new will he burns his old one. That’s
probably what uncle Robert did, like a sensible man. What’s the use of
telling anybody about it? Besides--frankly--I wouldn’t trust your
father, if he knew what was in it. He’d go out of his mind and do
something foolish.”

“What, for instance? What could he do?”

“Well--it might fall into his hands by accident. One never knows. And he
might say nothing about it. Of course, I don’t mean to say exactly that
he would--”

“No, dear--please don’t say it. He’s my father, you know--and I don’t
think you understand him as I do. He never would do anything like
that--never! I don’t think it’s quite fair even to suggest such a
thing.”

“I’m sorry I spoke,” answered Ralston, in a contrite voice, for he saw
that she was really hurt. “You know what I mean--”

“Yes--” she replied in a doubtful tone. “But you don’t understand him,
quite. It’s the view of right and wrong, it isn’t the real right and
wrong. He’s violent, and he’s been cruelly unkind to me, and--well--he
loves money. I can’t deny it.”

“Hardly!” exclaimed Ralston, feeling that she was justifying him with
every word.

“No. It’s much too clear. Nobody could deny it. But you’re very much
mistaken if you think that papa would do anything which he knew to be
dishonest. With all his faults he’s got that good point. He’s honest in
the letter, and I think he means to be in the spirit.”

“How awfully charitable women are!” Ralston laughed rather scornfully.

“No,” answered Katharine. “I don’t go in for being charitable. I’m not
telling you that I love him, nor that I can ever forgive some of the
things he’s said and done. I suppose I ought to. But I’m just as human
as other people. I can’t turn the other cheek, and that sort of thing,
you know. I never mean to give him another chance of hurting me, if I
can help it, because I don’t know what he might do. We’re very
different, he and I, though we’re so much alike in some ways. But all
the same, I say that papa’s not a bad man, and I won’t let any one else
say it--not even you. He’s very limited. He’s fond of money. He’s got a
cruel streak--I believe it’s his New England blood, for none of the
other Lauderdales have it--”

“Except Hester Crowdie,” observed Ralston. “I’m sure she’s cruel.”

“Hester!” exclaimed Katharine, in surprise. “How absurd! She’s the
kindest woman living.”

“I may be mistaken--I judge from her face, that’s all, and from her eyes
when she sees Crowdie talking to any other woman.”

“Oh--she’s infatuated about him,” laughed Katharine. “She’s mad on that
point, but as they love each other so tremendously, I think it’s rather
nice of them both--don’t you?”

“Oh yes,” answered Ralston, indifferently. “Go on with what you were
saying. You were talking about your father.”

“Yes. He has a cruel streak. In a small way, Charlotte has it, too. She
can say the most horrid things sometimes, that give pain, and she seems
to enjoy it. But you’re wrong about Hester--she’s kind-hearted. As for
papa--it’s just that. His religion and his love of money are always
fighting in him. His religion gets the better of it whenever he’s
tempted to do anything that’s plainly wrong. But his love of money
drives him up to the very edge of what’s fair. Now, for instance, he’s
always told us that he was poor, and yet uncle Robert knew that he had a
million put away somewhere. That’s fifty thousand a year, isn’t it? Yes,
I’ve heard him say so. Yet, I’m quite sure that he really considered
that very little, much too little to have divided it between us girls.
So he’s made us live on a quarter of it all our lives. He felt poor, and
he said he was. Those things are relative, Jack. Uncle Robert would have
felt as poor as a church mouse with only a million to dispose of. As
papa looked at it, it was true, though it didn’t seem so to us. Do you
see what I mean?”

“Dear--if you wish to defend your father, defend him as much as you
please. But let’s differ in our opinion of some of his peculiarities.
It’s better to agree about differing, you know. We’ve both got the most
awful tempers, you and I, and unless we label the disagreeable things,
we shall quarrel over them. That’s one of them--your father. Put him
away and lock up the idea. It’s safer.”

“But you and I wouldn’t really quarrel--even about him, Jack,” said
Katharine, with sudden earnestness.

“Well--I don’t know. Not for long, of course.”

“Not for one minute,” said Katharine, in a tone of absolute certainty.
“When have we quarrelled, Jack? Except last winter, over that wretched
misunderstanding--and that was all my fault. You don’t think I’m angry
about what you said of papa, do you? I’m not, and I’m sorry if you
thought I was. But how could two people love each other as we do, and
quarrel? You didn’t mean what you said, dear, or you don’t understand
by quarrelling what I understand by it. Perhaps that’s it. I’ve grown up
in an atmosphere of perpetual fighting, and I hate it. You’ve not. You
don’t understand, as I said. You’ve never quarrelled with your mother,
have you?”

“Never but once--at the same time, you know, when they were all against
me. It didn’t last long.”

“Exactly. You’ve had your fights with men, I suppose, and all that. It’s
quite different. But I’ve lived all my life in the most especial garden
of our family tempers. Four of us--grandpapa, papa, Charlotte, and
I--and my mother as the only peacemaker, with her Kentucky blood! But
she’s always done her best, and we love each other dearly, she and I,
though we’ve been tearing each other’s hair out for the last four
months--until the other day. Now we’re friends again, Jack; she’s been
splendid, you know, or rather, you don’t half know!”

“And what happened the other day, to save your remaining locks?”
enquired Ralston, with a smile.

“Oh, I can’t tell you. Perhaps she will, some day. But as I was saying,
you can’t imagine what my life at home has been all these years. I’m not
sure whether it hasn’t been worse since Charlotte was married. You know
what we are--we’re so awfully polite when we fight. Ham Bright’s the
only one who gets rough when he’s excited. That’s California and
Nevada, I suppose. But we! we quarrel with all solemnity. A family of
undertakers couldn’t do it more gravely. It always seems to me that papa
ought to have a band on his hat and black gloves when he begins. Yes,
it’s funny to talk about. But it’s not pleasant to live in the middle of
it. We’re all used to being on the defensive. Charlotte didn’t mind what
she said to papa, but she used to pick her words and arrange her
phrases--like knives all stuck up in a neat row for him to fall upon.
And he generally fell, and hurt himself badly--poor papa! He’s not very
clever, though he’s so precise about what he knows. And every now and
then mother would strike out with one of her dashing southern
sentiments, and then I’d say something, and when nobody thought that
grandpapa had heard a word of the conversation, he’d suddenly make a
remark--a regular Lauderdale remark that set everybody by the ears
again. But it’s only since you and papa had that awful scene--you know,
when you first wanted to marry me--it’s only since then that he’s got
into the habit of raising his voice and being angry, and--” She stopped
short.

“And generally behaving like a fiend incarnate,” suggested Ralston, by
way of ending the sentence.

“Oh, well--let’s leave them alone, dear,” answered Katharine. “It’s all
going to be so different now. I only wanted to explain to you what I
meant by quarrelling, that’s all. I want to forget all about it, and
live with you forever and ever, and ever, and be perfectly peaceful and
happy--as we shall be. Look at the sunset. That’s much better than
talking about those horrid old times, isn’t it?”

They stood by the edge of the river, on the road that runs along from
pier to pier. Katharine laid her hand upon Ralston’s arm, and felt how
it drew her gently close to him, and glancing at his face she loved it
better than ever in the red evening light.

The sun was going down between two clouds, the one above him, the other
below, grey and golden, behind Brooklyn bridge, and behind the
close-crossing pencil masts and needle yards of many vessels. From the
river rose the white plumes of twenty little puffing tugs and
ferry-boats far down in the distance. Between the sun’s great flattened
disk and the lovers’ eyes passed a great three-masted schooner, her vast
main and mizzen set, her foresail and jib hauled down, being towed
outward. It was very still, for the dock hands had gone home.

“I love you, dear,” said Katharine, softly.

But Ralston answered nothing. Only his right hand drew her left more
closely to his side.




CHAPTER XXVII.


Katharine had been intimate with Hester Crowdie from the time when they
had both been children, though Hester was several years older than she.
Possibly the friendship had been one of Katharine’s mistakes. For his
part, Ralston, as has been seen, did not place great confidence in the
married woman’s nature, and if he did not tell Katharine exactly what he
thought, it was not from lack of conviction but because he felt that the
conviction itself was intuitive rather than logical. Men, as well as
women, have intuitions which they cannot explain, but they are much more
inclined to conceal them than women are, because they have been taught
not to trust to them. They judge others, and especially they judge
women, from small facts which they are often ashamed of seeming to value
so highly. At least, when they analyze their feelings about any given
woman, it often happens that their reasoning leads up to some detail
which, standing alone, must and does appear altogether insignificant. It
is not easy to decide whether such very small causes among the realities
actually produce the whole consequence which affects the mind, or
whether man’s view of woman and woman’s view of man, as distinguished
from the judgments each forms upon his and her own sex, is not dependent
upon a very subtle sense of truth, acting by paths shorter than logical
deduction.

In illustration and as an example it may be noticed that the eyes of the
majority of persons convey the consciousness of numbers precisely, up to
a certain point, without any operation of counting. Most people can say
at a glance, of any small group of objects, that there are two, three,
four, or even seven. With almost all individuals, counting, and counting
from the beginning, becomes necessary when there are eight or more
objects together. For though the eye embraces seven, as seven, it cannot
embrace seven out of eight and count one more to make up the number. If
there is any counting it must be done from the very beginning.

Similarly, in reading rapidly, there are many who do not read every
word. Their eyes and intelligence seize upon and comprehend blocks of
words and even of lines, by a series of spasmodic leaps, as it were,
after each one of which there is a pause of very short and hardly
perceptible duration. Those who have been obliged to read very quickly,
such as readers of manuscripts, and especially professional critics of
second-class literature, are perfectly well aware of this faculty. Such
men often read through and judge several volumes in a day, a fact which
would not be possible if they had to read each word of every sentence.
It is not well done, as Dr. Johnson would have said, but we are
surprised to see it done at all. The result, in the modern phrase, is
not judgment, but tasting. But it is a result, all the same. By force of
a habit which cannot by any means be acquired by every one, words and
even blocks of words to a great number have become to such a reader as
symbols, which convey to his mind an idea all at once. There is no doubt
but that by easy stages real symbols could, in our ordinary books, take
the place of long sentences, and convey meaning without words at all.
All forms of religion have made use of such symbols, and there is no
reason why they could not be used in printing, though there may be
excellent reasons why they should not be adopted. But in reading, as in
counting, when the meaning of a whole sentence is not understood at a
glance, it becomes necessary to read it from the beginning, word by
word, or by shorter blocks of words, just as it is necessary to spell
out a single word, such as a name, if it is not familiar at first sight,
and is not made up of familiar syllables.

And in this way, perhaps, the mind of one individual judges the whole
personality of another, without going through any form of analysis or
any enumeration of qualities and defects. The instinctive attraction of
opposite sexes for one another sharpens the faculties of all living
creatures, and hence it may possibly be, that men generally understand
women better than men, and the converse, that women are better judges of
men than they are of other women. It is often true that the combined
judgment passed by a man and woman in consultation upon any individual
is vague and worthless, though in rare cases where a profound and
wide-reaching sympathy really exists, such joint judgment is the best in
the world.

This may be a mere theory, or it may be the truth, but at all events it
seems simpler to believe that what we call intuition is founded upon
some such appreciation of each individual as a symbol representing a set
of thoughts, than to suppose that it is a sort of sixth sense, sometimes
amounting to second sight. Every one may judge of that out of his own
experience.

Ralston, who was familiar enough with the character of his family in all
its branches, thought that he saw in Hester Crowdie a sort of
modification of the same love of possession which made a miser of
Alexander Junior, and which, if opposed, would be as ruthless and as
dangerous. He might have been willing to admit that he had a share of
the same peculiarity, quality, or defect, himself. The tenacity of his
love for Katharine proved that he had it. But as he disliked Crowdie so
sincerely, Hester’s passion for her husband seemed abnormal in his
eyes. He fancied that if it were crossed or thwarted she would be
capable of going to any extremity for its sake. Her friendship for
Katharine, in his opinion, might be turned to hatred at a moment’s
notice.

The friendship of a passionate woman who seeks an outlet for the
confidences of her overflowing nature, rather than the companionship and
mutual respect which friendship means, if it means anything, is always
selfish and generally dangerous. It has no elements of stability in it.
When she has no more confidences to make she is silent, not
companionable. When she has exhausted sympathy by the often repeated
tale of her own minor experiences or of her woes, real or imaginary, and
when the response of the worn-out listener grows more dull or slow, she
believes that she has exhausted also her friend’s heart, that it is
shallow and arid, and she turns away in disgust and disappointment,
seeking a kindred soul. And that is the end of many friendships between
women. As often as not, they are founded upon the irresistible desire to
make confidences, experienced by one or both of the fancied friends, and
they come to an end when confidence no longer elicits sympathy. There is
neither the simple delight in companionship which requires no emotion,
nor the active intellectual principle on both sides which finds pleasure
in the free trade of thought without subjection to the exigent tariff
which exacts the duty of pity or admiration and unhesitatingly excludes
those who have neither to pay, from intellectual commerce.

The less impulsive, the less passionate woman of the two, she who
receives all this outpouring of the shallow but easily agitated soul, is
the one who is imposed upon. Until she has had experience, she believes
in sufferings and joys commensurate with the words which express both,
and even greater. Her pity is really excited; her admiration is genuine;
she sheds tears sympathetic, and glows with pride vicarious. Her slow
nature is roused, and its activity continues after the truth begins to
dawn upon her. Then, all at once, she finds out that truth, and suffers
the rude shock which a less stable being would scarcely feel. She is the
one who suffers. The other merely wonders why her confidences no longer
interest her friend, and lets them boil over in a new direction. Not
knowing what real friendship means, she who loses it loses nothing. What
she misses is the pity and also the admiration which helped her to pity
and admire herself, and she can get both elsewhere. But the stronger,
more silent woman, broods over her disenchantment and loses her belief
in human nature, which is the key to human happiness, as faith in God is
the key to heaven. She will not easily be drawn into such friendship
again, and is quick to scoff at it in others.

For the disenchantment of broken friendship is less violent but more
deep-reaching than the disenchantment of broken love-faith. Love is for
the one, friendship is, or may be, for the many. There is no natural
reason why any man or woman whom we meet, should never become our
friend. To lose faith in human nature may sometimes render love
impossible. But though one woman have betrayed us, and though we say in
our heart that men and women are faithless in love, yet we have not
therefore said that all humanity is faithless in all that which makes up
friendship.

Friendship is more composite than love, and becomes more and more so
with advancing years, as the whole of life, which made such a hugely
noble impression upon our young sight, is dissected, bit by bit, before
the weary eyes that have seen it too long, and before the tribunal of a
heart that has known bitterness. Friendship, like charity, covers a
multitude of sins. The rending of it shows them as they are, and they
are not beautiful.

Katharine had of late gone through events which had tended to destroy
the whole-heartedness of her view of the world and its people. Within
the past six months her character had developed, if it had not changed,
and if she was more in earnest about her realities, she was harder in
judging her imaginings and in testing anything in the nature of an ideal
which presented itself to her moral vision. She would have made a
firmer friend now, than formerly, but her friendship was also much
harder to obtain.

She was, doubtless, quite truthful to herself in what she thought of her
own mother, for instance. They were altogether reconciled for the
present, and outwardly their intercourse was what it had been before
Mrs. Lauderdale’s unreasoning envy had almost brought about a permanent
estrangement. But the fact remained that the estrangement had come,
though it had also gone again, and Katharine felt that it might possibly
some day return. The childlike faith, the belief that her mother could
do nothing wrong, which is one of childhood’s happiest tenets, was
destroyed forever. Her mother, henceforth, was as other women were in
her eyes, nearer to her, by the natural bonds that bound the two
together and by the necessary intercourse of daily life, but not in
heart nor in real sympathy. Katharine asked herself coldly what an
affection could be worth which could hate its object out of pure vanity;
and the answer was that it could not be worth much. But she never
underrated its true value in the newly discovered proof of its
fallibility.

Evidently, she was going far--too far, perhaps, for justice and
certainly too far for happiness. And she applied her conclusion not only
to her own mother, but to all handsome mothers who had pretty
daughters. The first breath of envy would poison any mother’s love she
thought, and the memories of her own childhood were poisoned
retrospectively by the bitterness of the present. She was at that stage
of growth when generalities have a force which they have never acquired
before and which they soon lose, as life’s hailstorm of exceptions
batters them out of shape. Out of isolated facts she made them, and made
of them rules, and of rules, laws.

As for her father’s conduct, it had been less unexpected, though it had
hurt her even more, because it had crossed her own path so much more
rudely and directly. But it had helped to destroy other illusions, and
in a way to undermine something which was not an illusion at all. She
had always believed in his courage and manliness, and both had, in her
opinion, broken down. No man could be brave, she felt, who treated any
woman as her father had treated her, and the mere thought of the past
scenes of violence sent a thrill of pain to her injured arm. No man
could be manly who could wish to sacrifice his daughter as she
considered that he had wished to sacrifice her--to sell her, as she said
in her anger.

There was injustice in this. Archibald Wingfield was one of the most
desirable and desired young men in New York. Having made up his mind
that Katharine should not marry Ralston, Alexander Junior could hardly
have done better for her than he did in trying to bring about a match
with Wingfield. But there Katharine was influenced by her love for John,
which made her look upon the mere suggestion of a rival as an insult
hardly to be forgiven.

The deeper and less apparent wound in her belief was the more dangerous,
though she did not know it. Alexander Junior had always professed to act
upon the most rigid religious principles, and though Katharine did not
sympathize with the form of worship in which she had been brought up,
and had at one time been strongly inclined to become a Roman Catholic,
as her mother was, she had, nevertheless, accorded a certain degree of
admiration to her father’s unbending and uncompromising consistency.
There was no gentleness and no consolation in such religion, she
thought, but she could not help admiring its strength and directness.
She had said, too, that her father was faithful in his love for her
mother, a fact which seemed suddenly to have lost its weight in her eyes
at present. But of late he had done many things which Katharine was sure
could not be justified by any religion whatsoever, and had shown
tendencies which, if his religion had ever been real, should, in her
view, have been stamped out or wholly destroyed long ago. His avarice
was one of them, his cruelty to herself another, his attempt to injure
John Ralston in Mr. Beman’s opinion was a third. And all these
tendencies were as strong as himself and could not be easily hidden nor
charitably overlooked. Not knowing the real strength of any great
passion, she could not realize that there might have been a conflict in
her father’s heart. To children, real sin seems as monstrous as real
virtue seems to those who have sinned often, and in respect of real sin,
Katharine was yet but a child. She saw a man doing wrong, who said that
he acted in accordance with the principles of his religion. She
overlooked his temptations, she ignored his struggles, she said that he
was bad and called his religion a fiction.

The direct consequence was that such convictions as she had herself were
undermined and shaken and almost ruined, and the moral disturbance
affected her in all the relations of life, except, perhaps, in her love
for John Ralston, which grew stronger as other things failed.

With regard to her friendship for Hester, however, it had not, as yet,
suffered any rude shock.




CHAPTER XXVIII.


Katharine and Hester had seen but little of one another during the
battle of the will, and a certain awkwardness and reticence had appeared
between them, which Katharine attributed altogether to the question of
the fortune. As has been seen, however, it had another source on
Hester’s side, and one much more likely to produce results that might
hurt one or the other or both of them. As for Katharine, it was
characteristic of her that she attempted to return to the former
cordiality of their relations as soon as the matter of the inheritance
had been settled.

She found Hester cold and unsympathetic, but she excused her on the
ground of the family dispute, and of the very great disappointment the
Crowdies must have suffered from the decision of the court. The
conversation turned upon indifferent matters and languished, as they sat
together in the pretty little room at the front of the house. It was
late in the afternoon, and the smell of the spring came in through the
open windows.

“It’s getting very dull in New York,” said Hester, after a long pause.
“I think we shall go out of town soon, this year.”

She suppressed a yawn with her diaphanous hand, as she leaned back in
her corner of the sofa, staring vacantly at an etching which hung on the
opposite wall, and wishing that Katharine would go. Then she rang the
bell, having thought of tea as a possible antidote to dulness.

“I suppose we shall go away, too,” said Katharine, wondering what the
summer was to be like.

The servant came, and got his orders, and went out, and Hester almost
yawned again.

“I don’t know what’s the matter with me,” she said, half apologetically.
“I’m so sleepy.”

“You’ll be all right after you’ve had some tea,” answered Katharine,
trying to think of something pleasant to say, and finding nothing.

“I hope so,” observed the elder woman. “This is awful. I’m conscious of
being dreadfully dull.”

“It’s probably the reaction,” suggested Katharine.

There was another long pause. The sound of a carriage passing along the
street came in through the windows, but scarcely seemed to break the
silence. Presently the servant returned--a highly respectable, elderly
butler with very white hair, answering to the name of Fletcher. He set
down the tea and departed noiselessly and with dignity. He had formerly
been butler at the Ralstons’ for a number of years, but Mrs. Ralston
had reduced her establishment after her husband’s death.

“What reaction did you mean?” asked Hester, idly, as she made the tea.

“Oh--I meant the natural reaction after the tremendous excitement we’ve
all been living in for so long.”

“Oh!” ejaculated her companion, rather coldly. “I see,” she continued
after a pause, during which she had made a busy little clatter with the
tea things, “you mean because we hoped to get the money and
didn’t--therefore, I’m sleepy. That doesn’t sound very sensible.”

“Well--not as you put it,” answered Katharine, with a short laugh of
embarrassment.

She had determined to attack the subject boldly, so as to break the ice
once and for always. Hester’s aggressive answer put her out.

“How would you put it?” enquired the latter, leaning back again and
waiting for the tea to draw. “Explain! I’m awfully dull to-day.”

“Don’t you think it’s natural?” asked Katharine. “It’s of no use to deny
that we’ve all been tremendously excited during the last fortnight, and
now the excitement has stopped. One’s nerves run down--that sort of
thing, you know--and then one’s tired and feels depressed.”

“The depression’s natural--in our case,” answered Hester, lifting the
cover and looking into the teapot in a futile way, as though she would
see whether the tea were strong enough.

“Yes,” said Katharine, thoughtfully. “Do you know, dear? It seems to me
as though you were thinking that it was my fault, in a way.”

“What? That I’m depressed? Don’t be silly! Do you like it strong? I’ve
forgotten. It’s about right now, I should think.”

“A little water, please--no cream--one lump of sugar--thanks. No,” she
continued, a little impatiently, “you know perfectly well what I mean,
if you’ll only understand. I suppose that’s rather Irish--” she laughed
again.

“It’s Greek to me!” replied Hester, smartly, as she poured out her own
cup of tea. “You’re trying to say something--why don’t you say it?”

It began to be clear to Katharine that there were more difficulties in
the way of what she was attempting to do, than she had dreamt of. She
had expected that Hester would be quite ready to meet her half way,
instead of intrenching herself behind an absurd and pretended
misunderstanding, as she was doing. The best way seemed to be to enter
into an explanation at once. She sipped her tea thoughtfully and then
began again.

“I’ll tell you exactly what I mean,” she said; “so that you’ll see it as
I do. I’m afraid that this question of money has come between you and
me. And if it has, I’m very sorry, because I’m very fond of you,
Hester.”

“Well--I’m fond of you,” answered Hester, in a matter-of-fact tone. “I
don’t see why the money should make any difference.”

“I hope it doesn’t. Only--I’m afraid it does, in spite of what you say.
I don’t feel as though we could ever be again exactly what we’ve always
been until now. But it’s not fair, Hester. It’s not just. You know very
well that if I could have done anything to make the will good, I would
have done it. I couldn’t. What could I do? It’s simply a misfortune that
we were on opposite sides of the fight--or our people were. I’m not
exactly what you’d call gushing, I suppose--indeed, I know I’m not. But
it hurts me to think that we’re to be like strangers, because three men
couldn’t agree about a signature. It’s unnatural. It’s not right. I came
here to-day, meaning to say so--and I’m glad I’ve had the courage to say
it without waiting any longer. But if we’re only to know each other--in
a general way like distant cousins--why, it’s better to acknowledge it
at once. It shan’t come from me--that’s all. But I’d rather be prepared
for it, you know.”

“So far as I’m concerned, I don’t want to fight,” said Hester, coolly.
“I don’t see any reason why we should. Of course we don’t throw
ourselves into each other’s arms and cry with delight every time we
meet, like schoolgirls. We’ve outgrown that. But as for my quarrelling
with you because your father’s inherited a fortune when I ought to have
had a part of it--it’s too ridiculous. You would have had a share, too,
under the will. Then you ought to quarrel with your own father, much
more than with me. Isn’t that common sense?”

“Yes--I suppose it is. But you don’t say it exactly as though--”

Katharine stopped short. She was afraid of seeming impulsive, as many
people of self-contained natures are. She knew that she was not herself
very expansive, as a rule, in her expressions of affection. But Hester
was, and the change from her former manner to her present coldness was
startling. One may miss in others what one would not have in oneself,
and one may resent another’s refusal to give it. The regret of missing
anything is not measured by its value, but by the strength of the habit
its presence has created. Men liberated after years of captivity have
missed their chains. The Irish woman in the typical story complained
that her husband no longer beat her. She missed it.

“I’ll say it in any way you like,” answered Hester, hardly. “It seems to
me that we’re just as good friends as ever. I see no difference.”

“I do,” answered Katharine. “And there’s always going to be a
difference, now,” she added, regretfully.

She was conscious that in some unaccountable way the positions had been
reversed with regard to her character and her friend’s. It should
naturally have been the more passionate, expansive, sensitive woman who
should be almost begging that the old friendship might not be forgotten,
and Katharine herself, the colder of the two, the one by far less easily
carried away by passing emotions, should have been giving the assurance
that nothing was changed. It was incomprehensible to her, as well it
might be, since there was a cause for Hester’s behaviour which lay very
far from the question of money, though the coldness which the latter had
caused was helping to make matters worse.

“I suppose we’re outgrowing each other,” suggested Hester, who was more
or less anxious to account for the change, since Katharine was laying
such great stress upon it. “You know that’s the way of the world,” she
added, tritely. “People are ever so fond of each other for a long time,
and then all at once they find out that they’re not what they were, you
know, and that they don’t really care.”

“Oh--do you look at it in that way?” Katharine’s voice and manner
changed, for she was hurt. “But don’t you think this outgrowing, as you
call it, has been rather sudden? It’s only about three weeks since we
were talking quite differently. It can’t be more, I’m sure.”

“Isn’t it?” asked Hester, indifferently. “Really, it seems ever so long
since we sat here and told each other things.”

There is a beautiful vagueness about the language of a woman when she
wishes to have something forgotten.

“It seems long to me, too,--in another way,” answered Katharine. “It’s
far off--like a good many things that happened then.”

Hester made no answer to this remark, but leaned back against her
cushion and meditatively nibbled the edge of a ginger-snap.

“Of course,” said Katharine, “if you want it all to end here, I’m not
going to cry and behave like the schoolgirl you talked about--”

“No,” interrupted Hester, munching her biscuit audibly; “it isn’t worth
it.”

“Once upon a time we should both have thought it was,” answered the
young girl. “But when a thing like friendship’s gone--it’s gone, that’s
all, and there’s nothing more to be said about it.”

“I wish you wouldn’t be so silly, my dear!” exclaimed Hester, who,
having swallowed the remains of the ginger-snap, suddenly realized that
she might at least bury her intimacy with a protest to the effect that
it was not dead. “You really go on as though we were lovers, and I had
betrayed you. In the first place it doesn’t follow, because we’re grown
up and not exactly what we used to be, that there’s no friendship
between us. We can go on just the same as ever, even if we talk
differently and gush less, and we can see just as much of each other as
we always did. You’ve got some idea or other into your head about my
being cold, because I’m sleepy and dull to-day. Probably the next time
we meet it will be just the opposite, and you’ll think me too gushing.”

So long as Hester had made no serious pretence of anything more than she
felt, confining herself more or less to generalities and vaguely saying
that she desired no break, Katharine had remained calm, but something in
the last speech seemed to ring outrageously false, and the blood slowly
rose to her throat and ebbed again without reaching her cheeks.

“Don’t pretend!” she exclaimed. “We’ve got to get at the truth to-day,
if we’re ever to get at it at all.”

Hester raised her beautiful eyebrows, as delicately and finely marked as
though they had been drawn with pen and ink.

“My dear child!” she answered, with real or affected surprise. “Don’t
fly into little pink rages like that.”

“I’m not in a rage,” protested Katharine. “And if I were, I shouldn’t be
pink--I never am. But I don’t want you to pretend things you don’t feel.
We’ve never pretended much with each other, and I don’t want to begin
now. It’s over and done for. Let’s make up our minds to it and be
sensible. I don’t see that there’s anything else to be done. But don’t
let’s pretend things. I hate that.”

“Not half so much as I do, my dear,” said Hester, airily, as though to
close the discussion. “I don’t see the slightest good in talking about
it any more. You’ve got it into your head that I’ve changed. If you
believe it, you know it, for Mr. Griggs says that--”

“Do leave Mr. Griggs alone!” cried Katharine, irritably. “It isn’t a
mere idea, either. You said we’d outgrown each other. I’m not conscious
of having grown a head taller in the last three weeks. But so far as
talking about it goes, you’re quite right. Only--” her voice changed
again and took a gentler tone--“let’s part friends, Hester, for the sake
of all that has been.”

“Why, of course!” exclaimed Hester, with insincere frankness. “That is,
if you insist upon parting, as you call it. But I declare! we might just
as well be a pair of lovers quarrelling, you know. It’s just about as
sensible, on the whole.”

“I suppose things mean more to me than they do to you,” answered
Katharine, with sudden coldness. “Friendship--like everything
else--like--”

She was going to say ‘like love,’ but checked herself. In that at least
she felt that she must have been mistaken. Whatever else she might think
of Hester, she knew that she was almost insanely in love with her
husband. At the very moment when the words were on her lips the thought
flashed through her mind, that with Hester it might be the
half-desperate, all-absorbing passion which was draining her of all
capacity for any other attachment. Katharine thought of herself and of
her love for Ralston, and felt more real sympathy for her friend just
then than she had felt for many a day.

As she ceased speaking she heard the hall door opened and shut again,
just outside the sitting-room, and a moment later she heard Crowdie’s
soft voice, low and sweet, humming to himself as he began to ascend the
stairs. As she turned to Hester, as though to continue speaking, she saw
how the pale face had changed in a moment. Every faculty was strained to
catch the faint echo of the melody, the deep eyes gleamed, there was
colour in the transparent cheeks, the dewy lips were just parted. There
was nothing unreal nor affected in that.




CHAPTER XXIX.


Katharine could not keep the expression of curiosity out of her eyes as
she watched Hester Crowdie. The woman’s whole manner had changed in an
instant, and she seemed to be another person. She seemed trying to hold
her breath to catch the distant and ever retreating sound of her
husband’s voice. The colour in her pale cheeks heightened and paled and
heightened again in visible variations. Her slender throat fluttered
with quick pulsations like that of a singing bird or a chameleon, and
her deep eyes were filled with light. Katharine even fancied that the
little ringlets of soft brown hair trembled and waved like the leaves of
a sensitive plant, impossible as it was. Hester’s whole being was all at
once intensely alive, intensely sensitive, intensely brilliant. A few
minutes earlier she had been leaning back against her cushion,
suppressing a yawn from time to time, saying cold and disagreeable
things, pale, cool, diaphanous.

Katharine moved slightly, and the white hand was upon hers instantly,
with a light touch of warning, as though to silence her, lest a single
faint echo of Crowdie’s voice should fail to reach Hester’s ears.

The young girl wondered whether she herself ever behaved so strangely
when John Ralston was near, and whether any one sitting beside her could
see his presence reflected in her eyes. She did not know, though she
believed herself, as she really was, colder and less quick to show what
she felt. The last note died away as Crowdie ascended the staircase and
got out of hearing, and Hester sank back against her cushion again. The
colour faded from her cheek, the light died in her eyes, and her throat
was quiet. The bloodless hands just met on her knees, and the tips of
the slight fingers tapped one another nervously two or three times, and
then lay quite still.

There had been something in the quickly succeeding changes which struck
Katharine as not exactly human, though she could have found no other
word with which to describe better the phases of the passing
sensitiveness she had witnessed. But it had been more like the
infinitive sensitiveness of nature than the ordinary responses of an
impressionable woman. Katharine had thought of the sensitive plant, for
she had seen many in hot-houses and had often played with them, softly
stroking the fern-like plumes made by the two rows of tiny oval leaves,
and delighting to see how they rose and waved, and tried to find and
follow her finger. And she thought, too, of stories she had heard about
the behaviour of animals before an earthquake, a great storm, or any
terrible convulsion of nature. She had never before quite understood
that, but it was clear to her now.

At the same time she felt a strong sympathy for Hester, and for the love
which was so unmistakable and real. It was impossible for her to
comprehend how such love could exist for such a man as Crowdie, whom she
herself thought so strangely repulsive, though she could find nothing to
say against him. It could only be explained on the ground of an elective
affinity, mysterious in its source, but most manifest in its results.
She had never been allowed to read Goethe’s great book, but the title of
it had always meant something to her, and represented a set of ideas
which she used in order to explain the inexplicable. It was true, also,
so far as she could see, that between Hester and Crowdie the affinity
was mutual and almost equally strong, and Katharine thought with an
unpleasant sensation of the way Crowdie sometimes smiled at his wife. Of
course, she thought, if one did not object to a certain amount of
womanliness in a man’s looks and manner, nor to a pale, pear-shaped face
with intensely red lips, nor to a figure which altogether lacked
masculine dignity--if one could forget all those things and consider
what Crowdie must seem to a blind woman, for instance, and if one could
forgive a certain insolent softness of speech which now and then was
his, why, then, Crowdie was one of the most charming of men. There was
no word but that one. Take him all in all,--his remarkable power as a
portrait painter, developed by study and real industry, his exquisite
voice and perfect taste in singing--so perfect that there was not a
trace of that art which it is art’s mission to conceal--his
conversation, which was often brilliant and almost always
interesting,--taking him all in all, thought Katharine, and quite apart
from his appearance, he was a marvellously gifted man. She had never
known a man like him. Paul Griggs was not to be despised as a judge of
men, for he had seen and known many who were worth knowing, and Paul
Griggs liked Crowdie and was intimate with him. It was true that no
other man of Katharine’s acquaintance liked him, but Griggs’ opinion
might outweigh that of many just men. But when she thought of Crowdie’s
appearance, she marvelled how any woman could love him. There was
something about it which thrilled her painfully, like a strong, bad
taste--yet not so as to hinder her from feeling sympathy for Hester, in
spite of all the latter had said during the past half hour.

“How you love him!” she exclaimed, when the voice had died away, and
Hester leaned back again in her seat.

The words were spoken impulsively and half unconsciously--the natural
expression of the young girl’s wonder. But Hester’s eyes turned quickly,
with a suspicious glance which Katharine did not see and could not have
understood.

“Well--is there any harm in my loving my husband?” asked Hester, in a
tone of unmistakable resentment.

Katharine turned and looked at her in surprise, not realizing that she
could possibly have given offence.

“Harm! why no--no more harm than there is in my saying so--nor than I
meant, when I spoke. Why, are you angry?”

“I’m not angry. Why did you say it, though--and just then? I want to
know.”

She fixed her eyes on Katharine, and a little colour came back suddenly
to her cheeks, just where it had been while Crowdie was singing--as a
transparent glass, that has been heated red in the flame and has cooled,
flushes where it had flushed before, almost as soon as it is brought to
the fire.

“Why did I say it?” repeated Katharine, surprised. “I don’t know, I’m
sure. It was a very natural remark. Everybody knows that you love your
husband very much. I suppose it struck me particularly at that moment.
How strange of you to take offence!”

“I’m not offended. I only want to know why you said it just then. Did I
change colour--or what?”

“A little colour came into your face--yes. It’s very becoming,” added
Katharine, by way of propitiation.

“Yes--I know. You needn’t tell me that I’m generally too pale. Were my
eyes different from usual?”

“They were very bright, with a far-away look at the same time--as though
you saw him through the wall.”

“Do you think any one would have noticed how I looked? I mean--any one
sitting near me, as you are?”

“I should think so--yes,” answered Katharine, without much hesitation.
“I only said what any one would have thought who happened to see you
just then. I didn’t think there was any harm in it. I shall certainly
never say it again, since you’re displeased.”

“Oh--that doesn’t matter!” exclaimed Hester, with a little scornful
laugh. “As we’re not to be friends any more, you can displease me as
much as you like now. It doesn’t matter in the least!”

“How strange you are, Hester!” Katharine said, thoughtfully. “I don’t in
the least understand you.”

“We never really understood each other,” replied Hester. “We only
thought we did. But--as I say--since we’re not to be friends any more,
it’s of no consequence.”

“You can’t say that--that we never understood each other,” said
Katharine. “It’s not true.”

“Oh yes, it is! We never understood--never, what I mean by
understanding. So I blush, and stare, and behave like a schoolgirl, when
Walter comes in singing! I didn’t know it. I am glad you’ve told me, for
I don’t like to do foolish things in public.”

“I don’t think it’s always foolish to show what one feels. It’s better
to feel something, and show it, than to feel nothing at all.”

“I should think so!” Hester laughed rather contemptuously again, and
glanced at Katharine’s face.

The young girl moved, as though she were about to rise,--the little
preliminary movement which most women make, as a clock gives warning
five minutes before it strikes. It is often a tentative measure, and
there is some expectation on the part of her who moves that her friend
will make at least a show of detaining her. When she does not mean to do
so, she herself generally moves a little, which precipitates matters. If
men could understand this, they would more often be able to understand
whether they are wanted any longer or not. But, instead, they rarely
give warning, but seize their hats, in countries where it is manners to
carry them, and rise with one movement, giving the lady no choice about
detaining them or not.

On the present occasion, as soon as Katharine moved, Hester did
likewise, sitting up straight, and pushing the small tea-table a little
away from her, in order to make room for herself to rise. Katharine did
not fail to notice the fact, and got up at once.

“I’m sorry we can’t make it up, Hester,” she said, regretfully. “I’m
sorry if we’re both changed so much in such a short time. I shouldn’t
have thought it possible.”

“The world’s full of surprises,” observed Hester, rising and slipping
out from behind the tea-table.

“Oh--really, Hester!” exclaimed Katharine, impatiently. “You needn’t
make it worse by saying such things as that, you know!”

“What things? Isn’t it true, my dear? I’m sure I’ve found the world a
very surprising place to live in. Haven’t you?”

Katharine said nothing, but turned her face away a little, and made
haste over her gloves, which she had forgotten to put on before rising,
in her sudden haste to get away. Hester looked down at the tea-table,
and absently took up a teaspoon and moved a little leaf that lay in the
bottom of the empty cup. Katharine was only just beginning to use her
right hand a little, and had difficulty in buttoning the glove on her
left. She tried once or twice, and then turned to Hester.

“I wish you’d button it for me,” she said. “I can’t do anything with my
right hand, it’s so weak.”

She held out her left, and Hester bent over it. But before she had
fastened two buttons, she started, and looked at the door. Her quick ear
had caught her husband’s footfall as he came downstairs again, doubtless
in search of her. She paused, and held her breath, listening, though he
was not singing now. The footsteps came nearer, the handle of the door
turned, and Crowdie entered the room.

“Oh--Miss Lauderdale!” he exclaimed. Then he smiled at Hester, who held
out her hand, and he touched it with his lips, in a foreign fashion.
“You’re not going away?” he asked, turning to Katharine again. “Just as
I’ve come in. Do sit down again! Now, please give me a cup of tea,
Hester--I’m tired and thirsty--and I’ve been awfully bored. Do sit down,
Miss Lauderdale! Just a minute, to please me!”

“Well--I would,” answered Katharine, affecting a hesitation she did not
feel, in order not to seem ungracious. “I would--but I really must be
going. I’ve been here ever so long, already.”

“Yes--but you’ve got another welcome to wear out--mine,” he said,
letting his voice soften and dwell on the last word.

“I really think Katharine’s in a hurry,” said Hester, who was pale.

Katharine glanced at her in some surprise. She had never in her life
been so plainly told to go away, and she was inclined to resent the
rudeness. She might never enter the house again, but she did not choose
to be turned out of it by a woman who a few weeks earlier had professed
with protestations that she was her dearest and closest friend.

“You can’t be in such a hurry as all that,” objected Crowdie, who
supposed that Katharine had really said that she was pressed for time.
“Besides, I’ve got something to show you.”

“Have you?” asked Katharine, suddenly glad of an excuse for staying a
few moments, in spite of Hester’s anxiety to get rid of her.

Hester looked at her husband in surprise, and her finely chiselled lips
moved and almost trembled.

“What do you mean, Walter?” she asked, in an uncertain tone.

“Oh--don’t you know? That head of poor uncle Robert, I did last night. I
want to show it to Miss Lauderdale--she knew his face better than any of
us.”

Katharine tried to detect a shade of irony in the words; but they were
spoken quite naturally, without the least underthought.

“I should like to see it,” she answered, quietly, after an instant’s
silence.

“I’ll get it,” said Crowdie, “if you don’t mind waiting a minute. It’s
in your dressing-room, isn’t it, Hester?” he asked, turning to his wife.
“You were looking at it last night, just before you went to bed. I did
it late in the evening,” he added, explaining to Katharine.

“Certainly,” she replied. “I’ll wait while you get it. I should really
like to see it.”

Crowdie left the room, and her eyes followed him, and she disliked the
undulating, feminine swing of his walk. He was badly made, having low,
sloping shoulders, and being heavy about the waist, though he was not
stout. He left the door open, and the two women waited in silence, not
looking at one another. A moment later they heard Crowdie moving about
overhead, where Hester’s dressing-room was situated, corresponding with
the sitting-room in which they were. Hester listened intently, her eyes
turned upwards towards the ceiling, as though they could help her to
hear.

“He can’t find it,” she said. “I’d better go and help him--he’ll never
find it alone.”

She made a step towards the door, paused, and listened again. The
wrathful instinct grew stronger in Katharine. She imagined that Hester
had thought of going upstairs in order to escape from the unpleasantness
of being alone with her a little longer.

“If you’d finish buttoning my glove,” she said, calmly, “I’ll go without
waiting. I’m very sorry, but I can’t do it myself.”

Hester’s eyebrows twitched irritably, but she bent over the outstretched
hand, for she could not do otherwise. A moment later Crowdie’s footstep
was heard on the stairs again, and he came in through the open door.

“I’ve hunted everywhere!” he exclaimed. “I can’t think where you’ve put
it. I wish you’d go and find it for me, dear. It’s awfully stupid of me,
I know!”

“Oh--I know just where it is,” answered Hester. “You must have seen
it--why, I set it up on the toilet-table, on one side of the
looking-glass, turned to the light.”

“Well--it’s not there now,” said Crowdie, “because I’ve just looked.”

“I’m sure it’s there,” replied Hester, going towards the door. “Nobody
could have moved it.”

“Go and see, darling--I assure you I’ve looked everywhere for it, and I
don’t believe it’s in the room at all.”

It was one of those absurd little discussions which occur between two
people, the one who has seen, and the other who believes. Hester left
the room rather impetuously, being absolutely sure that she was right.
She, also, left the door open behind her.

“Can’t I button your glove for you?” asked Crowdie. “I saw that Hester
was doing it when I came in.”

Crowdie’s touch was intensely disagreeable to Katharine, but she held
out her hand to him, in spite of the fact. Just then, she felt that she
should almost prefer to let him do it, rather than let Hester help her.
She was standing in the middle of the room, half turned away from the
door.

“I thought you would like to see the sketch,” said Crowdie, fastening
the button nearest to her wrist with his deft, pointed fingers, skilful
as any woman’s. “I did it on a board last night--just a crayon thing
from memory, with an old photograph to help me. Hester thought it was
very like. If you approve of it, I’ll paint a picture from it.”

“I wish you would!” answered Katharine. “There never was anything good
of him--I should so like to have something--”

She checked herself, having momentarily forgotten that Crowdie had been
a very heavy loser, through his wife, by the decision in the case of the
will, and that he could hardly be expected to make a present to one of
her family, under the circumstances.

“Why do you hesitate?” he asked, pausing at the last button and looking
into her face.

“Oh--because--I don’t know!” She was a little embarrassed. “I was afraid
I’d spoken as though I meant to ask for the sketch.”

“You didn’t!” laughed Crowdie, softly. “You’re going to have it anyway.
I made it for you.”

“I don’t believe that,” answered Katharine, quickly, but smiling.
“You’re only trying to help me out of my rudeness. But it’s very
generous of you to think of giving me anything, after all that’s
happened.”

“Why? Do you mean about the will? Really, Miss Lauderdale, if you think
I’m that sort of person--”

He stopped and laughed again, so naturally and easily that she hardly
doubted his sincerity. His womanish eyes looked innocently into hers. He
held her left wrist in both his hands, just as he had paused in the act
of buttoning the glove.

Overhead, Hester’s light footstep was audible in the short silence that
followed, as she moved about the room, searching for the sketch, which
had evidently not been in the place where she had left it.

“Besides,” added Crowdie, after a short pause, “you’re not your father.
And if you were,” he continued, lightly, “that wouldn’t be a reason for
being horrid. The law decided it, and I suppose the law was right. Mr.
Lauderdale didn’t make the law, and it gave him his rights. Hester and
I shall get along just as well on what we’ve always had. I don’t
complain. Of course it would be nice to buy Greek islands, and play with
marble palaces and Oriental luxury. But after all, I’m a painter. I
suppose it’s an assumption, or a boast, or something. But I don’t
care--before you--I like painting, and I should always paint, and I
should always want to sell my pictures, if I had a hundred millions.
What could Hester and I do with five or six hundred thousand a year?
That would have been about our share. I shouldn’t feel like myself, if I
didn’t earn money by what I do. I suppose you can’t understand that, can
you?”

“Oh yes, I can,” answered Katharine, quickly. “I understand it, and I
like it in you. It’s because you’re not an amateur that you feel like
that.”

“I’m not exactly an amateur,” said Crowdie, with a smile. “As for the
sketch, or the picture, if I paint it, they’re yours. You were the old
gentleman’s favourite, and it’s right that you should have a portrait of
him--that is--if you’ll accept it.”

“Thank you very much. I don’t know about taking it, exactly--it’s much
too generous of you.”

She knew what Crowdie’s work was worth, for he was a very successful man
at portrait painting, and he had never seemed to care much for any other
variety of the art. He was more or less of a specialist in his own
department, but so far as he went, he brought an amount of experience
and a richness of conception to bear upon what he did, which had carried
him beyond most rivals. Possibly he had not in him the stuff which makes
the greatest artists--the manly, ascetic, devoted nature which has in it
a touch of the fanatic, the absolute concentration of all faculties upon
a single but many-sided task. He was, in a way, the product of the age,
an artist and a good one, but a specialist--an expert in the painting of
portraits. All his gifts favoured and strengthened the tendency.

“I don’t see anything generous in offering you one of my daubs!” he
laughed, in answer to what Katharine had said last. “Hester can’t find
it--I knew it wasn’t where she said it was,” he added, after a short
pause, during which he listened for his wife’s footstep.

“Please button the last button, too,” said Katharine, who had listened
also, but had heard nothing. “You’re so awfully clever at it.”

“Am I?” he asked, still smiling. “This is evidently my day of grace and
favour in your royal eyes.”

His beautiful voice had an inflection of something like tenderness in
it, which displeased Katharine. She pushed his hands lightly with hers
as he held it, to remind him of what he was doing.

“Please button it!” she said, a little imperiously, and looking at the
button in question as she spoke, but quite conscious of his eyes.

He inclined his head dutifully, after gazing at her an instant longer,
and then bent over the hand again and quietly slipped the button through
the button-hole, touching it very delicately and in evident fear of
tightening the glove so as to pinch her arm. Gloves with buttons chanced
to be the fashion just then, in an interval between two fits of the
Biarritz gauntlet. When he had performed the little operation, he
glanced at each of the others in turn, touching each with his finger,
while Katharine watched him carelessly. Then, before she could withdraw
her hand, he bent his head a little more and lightly kissed the button
at her wrist, releasing it instantly.

Katharine drew it back almost before he had let it go, with a quick
movement of displeasure.

“Don’t do that!” she cried, in a low voice.

But as he raised his head Crowdie turned ashy pale. Even his lips lost
some of their over-brilliant colour, and his eyes lost their light.
Hester had descended the stairs noiselessly and stood in the open door,
her face whiter than his. As their glances met, she dropped the sheet of
pasteboard she held in one hand by her side, and steadied herself
against the door-post. Katharine turned quickly and saw her. It did not
strike the young girl that such agitation could be due to having seen
what Crowdie had done. Katharine herself had been annoyed, but, after
all, it was an innocent offence, she thought, especially for a man who
had lived long abroad, and could not be supposed to attach much
importance to the act of touching a glove with his lips, when he had
been long familiar with the custom of kissing a lady’s hand instead of
shaking it at meeting and parting, if the hand were offered to him.

“Why, Hester!” she exclaimed. “What’s the matter? Are you ill?”

“No--it’s nothing,” answered Hester, twisting her lips to form the
words. “Here’s the drawing. I ran--I’m out of breath.”

She held it out as she spoke, and Crowdie took it from her mechanically.
His hand trembled as he did so, for he was a coward. Hester turned from
them both and went to the open window. She lifted one hand and rested it
on the sash at the level of her head. They could not see that the other
was pressed to her heart, for she kept the elbow close to her side.
Crowdie was still pale and trembling, and he glanced uneasily towards
her, as he held up the drawing to Katharine to look at.

“Give it to me,” said the young girl, unconsciously speaking in a low
voice. “Your hand shakes.”

She began to wonder exactly what had taken place, and could find no
explanation except Crowdie’s small offence. Instantly, she understood
that Hester was desperately jealous of her. It sometimes takes longer to
understand such things in real life, when they are very far from one’s
thoughts, than to guess them from the most meagre description of what
has taken place. Katharine almost laughed when she realized the truth.
She looked intently at the drawing.

“It’s wonderfully like!” she exclaimed, feeling that matters would be
worse if she did not express some admiration of the work, though she
found it hard to concentrate her attention upon the familiar features.
“Especially the”--she did not know what she was saying--“the beard,” she
added, completing her sentence.

“Ah, yes--the beard--as you say,” responded Crowdie, in a rather
tremulous tone, and glancing at his wife’s figure. Then he laughed very
nervously. “Yes--the beard’s like, isn’t it?” he said.

“Oh, very!” answered Katharine, looking quickly at Hester and then
intently at the pasteboard again. “Every hair--”

“Yes.” And Crowdie tried to laugh again, as though it would help him.
“There are hairs in the pasteboard, too--sticking up here and there--it
helps the illusion, doesn’t it?”

“Why, so there are!” Katharine looked at the drawing in silence for a
moment and collected herself. “The expression’s very good,” she said. “I
like a picture when the eyes look right at you.”

She raised her own mechanically as she spoke, and she realized how white
he was. She held out the drawing to him.

“Thanks, so much,” she said. “I’m glad to have seen it. It was so good
of you. I really must be going now. It’s getting late.”

He took the drawing and laid it carefully upon the table, with the
instinctive forethought of the artist for the safety of his work.

“Good-bye, Hester,” said Katharine, moving a step towards the window.

Hester turned abruptly. There were deep shadows under her eyes, and
there was a bright colour in her face now, but not like that which had
come to it when her husband had passed the door, singing. As she stood
with her back against the bright light of the window, however, Katharine
could hardly distinguish her features.

“Oh--good-bye,” said Hester in a strange, cold voice, not moving and not
holding out her hand.

But Katharine extended her own, for she entirely refused to be treated
as though she had injured her friend, just as a little while earlier,
she had chosen to stay a few minutes rather than to take a hint so broad
that it sounded like an order to go. She went nearer to the window.

“Good-bye, Hester,” she repeated, holding out her hand in such a way
that Hester could not refuse to take it.

And Hester took it, but dropped it again instantly. Katharine nodded
quietly, turned, nodded again to Crowdie in exactly the same way, and
passed out through the open door, calmly and proudly, being quite sure
that she had done nothing to be ashamed of. She knew, at the moment,
that all hope of ever renewing her friendship was gone, at least for the
present, and she regretted the fact to the last minute, and was willing
to show that she did. Hester’s behaviour had been incomprehensible from
the first, and it was still a mystery to Katharine when she left the
house. One thing only was clear, and that was the woman’s uncontrollable
jealousy during the little scene which had taken place. The idea of
connecting that jealousy with former events never crossed the young
girl’s mind, and of finding an original cause for it in the fact of
Crowdie’s having sung at Mrs. Bright’s on a certain evening three weeks
earlier. Still less could she have guessed that it had begun long ago,
during the preceding winter, when she had sat for her portrait in
Crowdie’s studio, while Hester lay extended upon the divan where she
could watch her husband’s face, and note every passing look of
admiration that crossed it, as he of necessity studied the features of
his model. Such an idea was altogether too far removed from Katharine,
in her ignorance of human nature--as far as Hester’s passion for her
husband, which went beyond the limits of what the young girl had ever
dreamed of in its excessive sensitiveness.

Katharine closed the front door behind her and went out into the street.
As she descended the neat white stone steps she was close to the open
windows of the little sitting-room and could have heard anything which
might have been said within. But no sound of voices reached her. She
could not help glancing over her shoulder towards the window, as she
turned away, and she could see that Hester was still standing with her
back to it, as she had stood when Katharine had insisted upon taking
leave of her.

She walked slowly homewards, wondering what was taking place since she
had left the two together, and going over in her mind the details of the
scene. She remembered Crowdie’s face very distinctly. She was not sure
that she had ever in her life seen a man badly frightened before, and it
had produced a very vivid impression upon her at the time. And she
recalled the picture of Hester, standing in the doorway, the pasteboard
at her feet, and her hand raised to support herself against the doorway.
She had heard of ‘domestic tragedies,’ as they are called in the
newspapers, and she wondered whether they ever began in that way.




CHAPTER XXX.


Hester Crowdie heard Katharine’s footfall outside, and did not move from
her position at the window until she had listened to the last retreating
echo of the young girl’s light step upon the pavement. It was very still
after that, for Lafayette Place is an unfrequented corner--a quiet
island, as it were, round which the great rivers of traffic flow in all
directions. Only now and then a lumbering van thunders through it, to
draw up at the great printing establishment at the southeast corner, or
a private carriage rolls along and stops, with a discreet clatter, at
the Bishop’s House, on the west side, almost opposite the Crowdies’
dwelling.

But as Hester stood in silence, with her back to the window, her eyes
rested with a fixed look on her husband’s face. He was pale, and his own
beautiful eyes had lost their self-possessed calm. He looked at her, but
his glance shifted quickly from one point to another--from her throat to
her shoulder, from her hair to the window behind her--in a frightened
and anxious way, avoiding her steady gaze.

What he had done was harmless enough, if not altogether innocent, in
itself. That there had been something not exactly right about it, or
about the way in which he had done it, was indirectly proved by
Katharine’s own quick displeasure. But he knew, himself, how much it had
meant to Hester, over, above and beyond any commonly simple
interpretation which might be put upon it. His face and manner showed
that he knew it, long before she spoke the first word of what was to
come.

“Walter!”

She uttered his name in a low tone that quivered with the pain she felt,
full of suffering, and reproach, and disappointment. Instantly his eyes
fell before hers, but he answered nothing. He looked at his own white
hand as it rested on the back of a chair.

“Look at me!” she said, almost sharply, with a rising intonation.

He looked up timidly, and a slight flush appeared on his pale forehead,
but not in his cheeks.

“I don’t know why you make such a fuss about nothing,” he said, in the
colourless voice of a frightened boy, caught in mischief before he has
had time to invent an excuse.

“Don’t use such absurd words!” cried Hester, with sudden energy. “It’s
bad enough as it is. You love her. Say so! Be a man--be done with it!”

“I certainly won’t say that,” answered Crowdie, regaining a little
self-possession under the exaggerated accusation. “It wouldn’t be true.”

“I’ve seen--I know!” She turned from him again and rested her forehead
on her hands against the raised sash of the window.

He gained courage, when he no longer felt her eyes upon him, and he
found words.

“You’ve no right to say that I love Katharine Lauderdale,” he said. “You
saw what I did, and all I did. Well--what harm was there in kissing her
hand--not her hand, her glove, when I had fastened it?”

“What harm!” she repeated, in a low voice, without turning to him, and
moving her head a little against her hands.

“Yes--what harm was there, I ask? Wasn’t it a perfectly natural thing to
do? Haven’t you seen me--”

“Natural!” Hester turned again very quickly and came forward two steps
into the room. “Natural!” she repeated. “Yes--that’s it--it was
natural--oh, too natural! What else could you do? Buttoning her
glove--her hand in yours--and you, loving her--you kissed it! Ah,
yes,--I know how natural it was! And you tell me there was no harm in
it! What’s harm, then? What does the word mean to you? Nothing? Is there
no harm in hurting me?”

“But Hester, love--”

“And as though you did not know it--as though you had not turned white
when you saw me at the door there, looking at you! If there were no
harm, you needn’t have been afraid of me. You’d have smiled instead of
getting pale; you’d have held her hand still, instead of dropping it,
and you’d have kissed it again, to show me how little it meant. No harm,
indeed!”

“Your face was enough to scare any one, sweetheart. I thought you were
ill and were going to faint.”

He spoke softly now, in his golden voice, and threw more persuasion into
the thin excuse than its words held.

“Don’t--don’t!” she cried. “You’re tearing love to pieces with every
word you say--if you know what you’re saying! I tell you I’ve seen, and
I know! This is the end--not the beginning. I saw it beginning long
ago--last winter, when she sat to you day after day, and I lay in my
corner and watched you watching her, and your eyes lighting up, and that
smile of yours that was only for me--”

“But I was painting her portrait--I had to look at her--”

“Not like that! Oh, no, not like that! There’s no reason, there never
was any reason, why you should look at any woman like that--as you’ve
looked at me. What a fool I was to let it go on, to trust myself, to
believe that I could be the only woman in the world for you! And then,
the other day, when you sang to her before all those people; do you
remember what you once promised me? Do you remember at all that you
swore to me by all you held sacred that you’d never, never sing, unless
I were there to hear you? How you told me that your voice was mine, and
only for me, and for no one else, because that at least you could keep
for me, though you couldn’t keep your art and make that all mine, too?
And then you sang to her--I know, for they told me--you sang my song,
the one I loved, from Lohengrin! Why did you do that?”

“Why--I told you the other day--we talked of it, don’t you remember? Why
do you go back to it now, dear?”

“Because it’s part of it all,” she cried, passionately. “Because it was
only one of so many things that have all led up to this that you’ve done
now. I told you how I hated her, the other day, and I made you say that
you hated her, too, though you didn’t want to say it. But you did, and
you meant it for a little minute--just while it lasted. But you can’t
hate her when she’s here--you can’t because you love her, and one can’t
hate and love at the same time, though I do--but that’s different. You
love her, Walter! You love her--you love her--”

“You’re beside yourself, darling,” said Crowdie, softly. “Don’t talk
like this! Be reasonable! Listen to me, sweet!”

He knelt down beside her as she threw herself into a low chair, and he
tried to take her hands. But she drew them away, wringing them as though
to shake something from her fingers, and turning her face from him, as
she clasped the back of the chair on the opposite side.

“No, no!” she cried, quivering all over. “I’m not mad. I know what I’m
saying--God knows, I wish I didn’t.”

Her voice sank to a whisper, and her head fell against her hands.
Crowdie laid one of his upon her arm, and she quivered again, like a
nervous thoroughbred. Crowdie’s own voice was full of soft pleading as
he spoke to her.

“My sweet--my precious! Listen to me, love; don’t think I don’t love
you, not even for one instant, nor that I ever loved you even a little
less. Hester, look at me, darling--don’t turn your face away as though
you were always going to be angry--it’s all a wretched mistake, dear!
Won’t you try and believe me?”

But Hester would not turn to him.

“What has she got that I haven’t?” she asked, in a low monotonous tone,
as though speaking to herself.

“Nothing, beloved--not half of all you have, not a quarter nor a
hundredth part--”

“Yes--she’s more beautiful, I suppose,” continued Hester, speaking into
the chair as she buried her face. “But surely that’s all--oh, what is
it? What else is it that she has, and that I haven’t, and that you love
in her?”

“But I don’t love her--I don’t care for her--I don’t even like her--I
hate her since she’s come between you and me, dear.”

“No--you love her. I’ve seen it in your eyes--you can’t hide it in your
eyes. You do! You love her!” she cried, suddenly raising her face and
turning upon him for a moment, then looking away again almost instantly.
“Oh, what has she got that I haven’t? What’s her secret--oh, what is
it?”

Crowdie bent over her shoulder and kissed the stuff of her frock softly.

“Darling! Don’t make so much of so very little!” he whispered, close to
her ear. “I tell you I love you, sweet--you must believe me--you shall
believe me! I’ll kiss you till you do.”

“No!” she exclaimed, almost fiercely. “You shan’t kiss me!”

And she rose with a spring, and left him kneeling beside the empty
chair. He struggled to his feet, cut by the ridicule of his own
attitude. But he could not move easily and swiftly as she could, being
badly made. She stood back, looking at him over the chair, and her eyes
flashed angrily. He moved towards her, but she drew further back.

“Don’t come near me!” she cried. “I won’t let you touch me!”

“Hester!” His voice trembled as he uttered her name.

“No--I know what you can do with your voice! I don’t believe you any
longer--you’ve spoken to her just like that--you’ve called her
Katharine, just as you call me Hester! Oh no, no! It’s all false--it
doesn’t ring true any more. Go--I don’t want to see you--I don’t want to
know you’re here--”

But still he tried to get nearer to her with pleading eyes that were
beginning to light up as he moved, making his feet slide upon the
carpet, rather than walking.

“Don’t!” she cried. “Don’t come near me! If you touch me--I’ll kill
you!”

Her hands went out to resist him, and her low, passionate cry of warning
vibrated in the little room. Crowdie was startled, even then, and he
paused, checked as though cold water had been thrown in his face. Then,
very much discomfited, he turned and, thrusting his hands into the
pockets of his jacket, began to walk up and down, passing and repassing
her as she stood back against the fireplace. Her eyes followed him
fiercely, and she breathed audibly with a quick, sob-like breath, with
parted lips, between her teeth.

“I don’t know what to say to you,” he said, in a tone of a man who is
at his wit’s end and is debating with himself.

“Say nothing--go--what could you say?”

“I could say a great many things,” he answered, growing calm again in
the attempt to argue the case. “In the first place, it’s all a piece of
the most extraordinary exaggeration on your part--the whole
thing--pretending that a man can’t kiss a girl’s glove without being in
love with her! As though there had been any secret about it! Why, the
door was wide open--of course you might have come in at any moment, just
as you did. And then--the way you talk! You couldn’t be more angry if
I’d run away with the girl. Besides--she can’t abide me. I only did it
to tease her, and she didn’t like it a bit--upon my word, you’re making
a crime out of the merest chaff. It’s not like you to be so
unreasonable.”

He stopped in his walk and stood opposite to her, near the chair in
which she had sat.

“I’m not unreasonable,” she answered. “And you know I’m not. You know
what you meant--”

“I meant nothing!” cried Crowdie, with sudden energy. “You’ve got an
absolutely wrong idea of the whole thing from beginning to end. You
began by saying that I stared at her last winter, when I was painting
her. Of course I did. Do you expect me to turn my back on my sitter, and
imagine a face I can’t see? It’s perfectly absurd. I looked at her, and
stared at her, just as you’ve seen me stare at Mrs. Brett, who’s young
and quite as handsome as your cousin, and at Mrs. Trehearne, who’s old
and hideous. You’re out of your mind, I tell you! You’re ill, or
something! How in the world am I to paint people if I don’t look at
them? As for having sung the other night, I couldn’t help it. It was
aunt Maggie’s fault, and Katharine told me not to, when she heard I’d
made a promise--”

“I know--the little snake!” exclaimed Hester. “She knew well enough that
was the best way--”

“She didn’t know anything of the kind. She spoke perfectly naturally,
and merely didn’t want me to displease you--”

“Then why did you do it?” asked Hester, fiercely. “It wasn’t to delight
poor dear old mamma, nor to charm four or five men, most of whom you
hate--was it? Then it was for Katharine, and for no one else--”

“It was not for Katharine,” answered Crowdie, with emphasis. “It wasn’t
for any one of them. I sang to please myself, because I didn’t choose to
have them laugh at me, as though I were a boy out of school--”

“You mean that you didn’t choose to let them think that you cared enough
for me to give such a promise--to keep your voice for me, instead of
singing about in other people’s houses like a mere amateur, who pays
for his supper with a song. You were afraid they’d laugh at you if you
said you cared for me, and for what I’d asked of you--and you were
really afraid, because you didn’t really care. Oh, I know now--I see it
all, and I know! You can’t deceive me any longer.”

“I tell you, you’re utterly and entirely mistaken!” cried Crowdie,
angrily. “You’re making a mountain out of a mole hill. You’re losing
your temper over it, and working yourself into a passion, till you don’t
know what’s true and what isn’t. It’s madness in you, and it isn’t fair
to me. When have I ever looked at another woman--”

“It had to begin some time--so it’s begun now--in the worst way it could
begin, with Katharine Lauderdale!”

“I hate Katharine Lauderdale--her and the sound of her name! How often
must I say it before you’ll believe me?”

“Oh--saying it won’t make it true! Do you think I didn’t see your
face--just now?”

“I don’t know what you thought you saw--but I know what there was to be
seen, and if you weren’t beside yourself with jealousy you wouldn’t have
thought twice about it. I never knew what jealousy meant before--”

“And you don’t now. I’m not jealous of her--I hate her. I despise her
for trying to steal you from me, but since she’s got you--since you love
her so that you’ll lie for her, and be a coward for her, and be angry
for her--just as it suits you--oh no, indeed! I’m not jealous of
Katharine. That’s quite another thing. Jealous! And you reproach me, and
cast it in my teeth, because I say I hate her, when she’s taken
everything I cared for in this earth, everything I had! Ah--I could kill
her! But I’m not jealous. One must care for oneself to be jealous; one
must be wounded, hurt, insulted, to be jealous! Do you think I want you,
if you don’t want me? How little you’ve ever understood me!”

She drew herself up, leaning back against the shelf of the mantelpiece,
and her lips curled scornfully, though they trembled a little, and she
fixed her eyes upon his face with a strange, frightened fierceness, like
that of a delicate wild animal driven to bay, but determined to resist.
Crowdie met her glance steadily now, leaning with both hands upon the
back of the chair between them and bending his body a little, in the
attitude of a man who means to speak very earnestly.

“I don’t think any one could understand you now,” he began, in a quiet,
but determined tone. “I can’t, I confess. But I know you’re not
yourself, and you don’t know what you’re saying. I’m not going to argue
as to whether you’re jealous of Katharine Lauderdale, or not. It’s too
absurd! You’ve no right to be, at all events--”

“No right!” cried Hester, with a half hysterical laugh. “If ever a woman
had a right to be jealous of another--”

“No, you’ve not--not the shadow of a right. You know how I’ve loved you
for years--well--you know how, and what sort of love there’s been
between us. You’re mad to think that anything I’ve done--”

“That’s all your argument--that I’m mad! You say it again and again, as
though it comforted you! Yes--I am mad in one way--I’m mad not to hate
you ten thousand times more than I do--and I do hate you--for what
you’ve done! You’ve torn up my heart by the roots and thrown it to that
wretched girl--you’ve twisted, and wrenched, and broken everything that
was tender in me, everything that was for you, and was yours--and it
won’t grow again! You’ve taken everything--have I ever refused you
anything? You’ve taken it all, and I thought that you’d never had it
before, and that for its sake you loved me, because I loved you so--that
you’d wear me in your heart, and carry me in your hands, and love me all
your life--and for that girl, that creature with her grey eyes--oh, what
is it? What has she got that I haven’t, and that makes you love
her--what? What?”

She covered her eyes with a desperate gesture, and her voice almost
broke as she repeated the last word. Below her hand her lips trembled,
and Crowdie watched them. Then before she looked at him again, he had
passed the chair and was trying to take her in his arms. For an instant
she struggled with him, holding her face back from him and thrusting him
away. But his small white hands had more strength in them than hers.

“Walter--don’t!” she cried, pushing against him with all her might.
“Don’t! Don’t!” she repeated.

But in spite of her, he got near to her face, and kissed her on the
cheek. She started violently, and then wrenched herself free.

“How dare you?” she exclaimed, angrily, retreating half across the room
with the rush of the effort she had made.

Crowdie laughed, not naturally, and not at all musically. There was a
curious hoarseness in the tone, and his eyes glittered.

“And how dare you laugh at me?” she asked, moving still further back,
towards the door, as he advanced. “Have you no heart, no feeling--no
sense? Can’t you understand how it hurts when you touch me?”

“I don’t want to understand anything so foolish,” answered Crowdie,
suddenly growing coldly angry again. “If you’re afraid of me--well, I
won’t go near you until you see how silly you are. There’s no other
word--it’s silly.”

“Silly! When it’s all my life.” Her voice shook. “Oh, Walter, Walter!
You’re breaking my heart!”

A passionate sob struggled with the words, and she fell into a chair by
the door, covering her face with her hands again. Then came another sob,
and the convulsion of her strength as she tried to choke it down, and it
broke the barrier and burst out with a wild storm of scalding tears.

Crowdie was a very sensitively organized man in one direction, but
singularly hard to move in another. So long as the passions of others
appealed to his own, the response was ready and impulsive. But in him
mere sympathy was not easily roused. Once freed from self, his faculties
were critical, comparative, quick to seek causes and explain their
connection with effects. Hester’s words wakened his love, roused his
anger, called out his powers of opposition, and touched him to the quick
by turns; but her tears said nothing to him at first, except that she
was suffering. He was only with her in happiness, never in unhappiness.
He stood still for a moment watching her, and asking himself with
considerable calmness what was best to be done.

It is not always easy to judge and decide exactly how far a woman could
control herself if she thought it wise to do so, and for that reason the
genuineness of her tears often seems doubtful. It would be as fair to
doubt that a tortured man suffers if he does not groan in his agony, or
because he does.

But although at that moment he felt no sympathy with her, though he
loved her in his own way, yet his instinct and experience of women told
him that with the tears there must come a change of mood. He went slowly
to her side, and though she did not look up he knew that she felt his
presence, and would not drive him from her again just then. He bent over
her, laying his arm upon her shoulders, and looking at the hands that
covered her eyes. He did not speak at once, but waited for her to look
up. She was sobbing as though her heart would really break. At last,
between the sobs, words began to come at last.

“Oh, Walter, Walter!” she wailed, repeating his name.

“Yes--sweetheart--look at me, dear,” he answered, pressing her to him.

Her head rested against him as she sobbed. Then one hand left her eyes
and sought his hand, but was instantly withdrawn again. He found it and
brought it, resisting but a little, to his lips. In all such actions he
had the gentleness, almost boyish, which some women love so well, and
which is so kingly in the very strong--for they say that it is sweeter
to be caressed by the hand that could kill, than by one that at its
worst and strongest could only scratch.

Presently she uncovered her eyes and looked up to his face, and the
sobbing almost stopped. Her cheeks were flushed through their whiteness
and were wet, and her eyes were dark and shadowy, but the light in them
was not hard. The tide of anger had ebbed as the tears flowed, and its
wave was far off.

“Tell me you really love me, dear,” she said, still tearfully.

“Ah, sweet! You know I do--I love you--so! Is that right? Doesn’t it
ring true now?” He laughed softly, looking into her face. “When did I
ever sing false?”

A shade of returning annoyance passed over her features, as her brow
contracted at the allusion to his singing, and though she still allowed
her head to rest against his side, her face was turned away once more.

“Don’t speak of singing, dear,” she said, trying to smile, though he
could not see whether she did or not.

“No, darling--forgive me. I’ll never speak of it again. I’ll never sing
again as long as I live, if you don’t want me to.”

“I didn’t mean that,” she answered. “It’s only now--till I forget. And,
Walter, dear--I don’t want you to promise it any more--I’d rather not,
really.”

Still she turned away, but he bent over, drawing her closer to him, and
he lifted her face with his hand under her chin. The eyelids drooped as
she suffered her head to fall back over his arm, and she shut out the
sight of his eyes from her own. He murmured soft words in his low voice,
in golden tones.

“Darling--precious--sweet one!”

And he repeated the words and others, as her features softened, and her
parted lips smiled at his. And still he pressed her to him, and spoke to
her, and looked at her with burning eyes. So they might have been
reconciled then and there, had Fate willed it. But Fate was there with
her little creeping hand full of the tiny mischief that decides between
life and death when no one knows.

Fate willed that at that moment Crowdie should be irritated by something
in his throat. Just as he was speaking so softly, so sweetly that the
exquisite sound almost lulled her to sleep, while the passionate tears
still wet her cheek,--just as his face was near hers, he felt it coming,
insignificant in itself, ridiculous by reason of the moment at which it
came, yet irresistible in its littleness. He struggled against it, and
grew conscious of what he was saying, and his voice lost its passionate
tenderness. He strove to fight it down, that horrible little tickling
spasm just in the vocal chords, for he knew how much it might mean both
to her and to him, that her forgiving mood should carry them both to
the kiss of peace. But Fate was there, irresistible and little, as
surely as though she had stalked gigantic, sword in hand, through the
door, to smite them both. In the midst of the very sweetest word of all,
it came--the word rang false, he turned his face away and coughed to
clear his throat. But the false note had rung.

Hester sprang to her feet, and thrust him from her. To her it had all
been false,--the words, the tone, the caresses. How could a man in the
earnestness of passion, midway in love’s eloquence, wish to stop--and
cough? She did not think nor reason, as she turned upon him in the
anguish of her disappointment.

“How could I believe you--even for a moment?” she cried, standing back
from him. “Oh, what an actor you are!”

But he had not been acting, save that he had done what his instinct had
at first told him was wisest, in beginning to speak to her when she had
burst into tears. With the first word, the first caress, with the touch
of her, and the sweet, unscented, living air of her, the passion that
had truly ruled his faultful life for years took hold of him with
strength and main, and rang the leading changes of his being. And then
she broke it short.

As he stood up before her, he shook with emotion stronger than hers,
such as women rarely feel, and such as even strong men dread.
Unconsciously he held out his hands towards her and uttered a half
articulate cry, trying once more to catch her in his arms.

“Kiss me--love me--oh, Hester!”

But he met her angry eyes, for she had lost the hand of reality in the
labyrinth of her own imaginings and disappointments and jealousies, and
she knew no longer the good from the evil, nor the truth from the acted
lie.

“No--you’re acting,” she answered, cruelly--trying to be as cruel as the
hurt she felt.

And she stared hardly at him. But even as she looked, a deep, purple
flush rose in his white cheeks, and overspread his face, even to his
forehead, and darkened all his features. And his eyes turned upwards in
their sockets, as he fell forward against her, with wet, twisted lips
and limp limbs--a hideous sight for woman or man to look upon.

She uttered a low, broken cry as she caught him in her arms, and he
dragged her down to the floor by his weight. There he lay, almost black
in the face, contorted and stiffened, yet not quite motionless, but far
more repulsive by the spasmodic and writhing motion of his body than if
he had lain stiff and stark as a dead body.

She had seen him thus once before now, on a winter’s night, upstairs in
the studio. She did not know that it was epilepsy. She knelt beside
him, horror-struck, now, for a few moments. It seemed worse in the
evening glow than it had looked to her before, under the soft,
artificial light in the great room.

She only hesitated a few seconds. Then she got a cushion and thrust it
under his head, using all her strength to lift him a little with one arm
as she did so. But she knew by experience that the unconsciousness would
last a long time, and she was glad that it had come at once. On the
first occasion the convulsion that preceded it had been horrible. Her
own face was drawn with the anguish of intense sympathy, and she felt
all the horror of her last cruel words still ringing in her ears.

She did not rise from her knees, but bent over him, and looked at him,
seeing himself, as she dreamed him, through the mask of his hideous
face. She touched his hands, and tried to draw them out of their
contortion, but the in-turned thumbs and stiffened joints were too rigid
for her to move. But she lifted his body again, straining her strength
till she thought his weight must tear the slight sinews of her arms at
the elbow, and she tried to turn his head to a comfortable position on
the silken pillow, and stroked his silk-fine hair with gentle hands. As
she did her best for him, her throat was parched, and she felt her dry
lips cleaving to her teeth, and the sight of her eyes was almost
failing, being burned out with horror. But no tears came to put out the
fire.

At last she rose to her feet, steadying herself against the chair in
which she had last sat, for she was dizzy with pain and with bending
down. She gazed at him an instant; then turned and went and closed the
open windows, and pulled down the shades and drew the thick curtains
together. After that, groping, she found matches and lit one candle, and
set it so that the light should not fall upon his eyes, if by any chance
their conscious sight returned. Then she looked at him once more and
left the room, softly closing the door behind her, and turning the key
with infinite pains, lest any servant in the house should hear the
sound. She took the key with her and went upstairs.




CHAPTER XXXI.


Katharine was sincerely distressed by the result of her interview with
Hester, and she walked slowly homeward, thinking it all over and asking
herself whether she had left undone anything which she ought to have
done. But as she thought, it was always the last scene which rose before
her eyes, and she saw distinctly before her Hester’s white face staring
at her through the open doorway. There was a great satisfaction in
feeling sure that she had been wholly innocent in the matter of
Crowdie’s kissing her hand; yet felt that the resentment Hester had
shown on re-entering the room had not been anything different in its
essential nature from the coldness she had already shown when Katharine
had spoken of renewing their friendship. But the young girl could not
understand either, though the supposition that Hester must be jealous of
her thrust itself upon her forcibly.

Ralston helped her. He had asked for her at the house in Clinton Place,
and having been told that she was still out, he had hung about the
neighbourhood in the hope of meeting her, and had been at last rewarded
by seeing her coming towards him from the other side of Fifth Avenue. In
a moment they met.

“Oh, I’m so glad to see you, Jack, dear!” she cried as she took his
hand. “I’ve got such lots to tell you!”

“So have I,” answered Ralston. “Where shall we go? Should you like to
walk?”

“Yes--in some quiet place, where we can talk, and not meet people, and
not be run over too often.”

“All right,” answered John. “Let’s go west. There are lots of quiet
streets on that side, and it’s awfully respectable. The worst that can
happen to us will be to meet Teddy Van De Water looking after his
tenants, or Russell Vanbrugh going to administer consolation to the
relations of his favourite criminal. Something’s happened, Katharine,”
he added suddenly, as they turned westward, and the strong evening light
illuminated her features through her veil. “I can see it in your face.”

“Yes,” answered Katharine. “I want to tell you. I’ve had such a time
with Hester! You don’t know!”

“Tell me all about it.”

They walked along, and Katharine told her story with all the details she
could remember, doing her best to make clear to him what was by no
means clear to herself. When she had finished, she looked at John
interrogatively.

“That fellow Crowdie’s a brute!” he exclaimed, with energy.

“Well--I don’t like him, you know. But was it so very bad? Tell me,
Jack--you’re my natural protector.” She laughed happily. “It’s your
business to tell me what’s right and what’s wrong. Was it so very bad of
him to kiss my glove after he’d buttoned it? I almost boxed his ears at
the time--I was so angry! But I want to be fair. Was it exactly--wrong?
I wish you’d tell me.”

“Wrong? No; it wasn’t exactly wrong.” Ralston paused thoughtfully.
“Kissing women’s hands is one of those relative things,” he continued.
“It’s right in one part of the world, it’s indifferent in another, and
it’s positively the wrong thing to do somewhere else--whatever it’s
meant to mean. We don’t do that sort of thing much over here. As he did
it, I suppose it was simply the wrong thing to do. At least, I want to
suppose so, but I can’t. The man’s half in love with you, you know.”

“Oh, nonsense, Jack! It’s only because we dislike him so. If ever a man
was in love with his wife, he is.”

“Yes, I know,” answered Ralston, in the same thoughtful tone. “That’s
quite true. But it doesn’t prevent him from being half in love with
lots of other women at the same time. It’s not the same thing. Oh, yes!
he loves Hester. She’s quite mad about him, of course. We all know that,
in the family. But Crowdie’s peculiar--and it’s not a nice peculiarity,
either. One sees it in his manner somehow, and in his eyes. I can’t
exactly explain it to you. He admires every woman who’s beautiful, and
it’s a little more than admiration. He has a way with him which we men
don’t like. And when he does such things as he did to-day there’s always
a suggestion of something disagreeable in his way of doing them, so that
if they’re not positively wrong, they’re not positively innocent.
They’re on the ragged edge between the two, as Frank Miner says.”

“I think it’s more in the way he looks at one than in anything else,”
said Katharine. “He has such a horrid mouth! But it’s absurd to say that
he’s in love with me, Jack.”

“Oh, no, it’s not! That night at aunt Maggie’s, when he sang, you
know--it was for you and nobody else. What a queer evening that was, by
the way! There were five of us men there, all in love with you in one
way or another.”

“Jack! It’s positively ridiculous! The idea of such a thing!”

“Not at all. There was Ham, in the first place. You admit that he’s one,
don’t you?”

“I suppose I must, since he proposed,” answered Katharine, reluctantly,
and turning her face away.

“And you’re not going to deny Archie Wingfield?” Ralston tried to see
her eyes. “I’m sure he’s offered himself.”

Katharine said nothing, but John saw through her veil and was sure that
a little colour rose in her face.

“Of course!” he said. “That’s two of them. And Crowdie’s three. I count
him. And you mustn’t forget me. I’m what they call in love with you, I
suppose. That’s four.”

Katharine smiled, and glanced at him, looking away again immediately.

“At least,” she said, “you’ll leave me dear old Mr. Griggs--”

“Griggs!” laughed Ralston. “He’s the worst of the lot. He’s madly,
fearfully, desperately, fantastically in love with you.”

“Jack! What do you mean?” Katharine laughed, but her face expressed
genuine surprise. “Not that I should mind,” she added. “Dear old man!
I’m so fond of him!”

“Well--he returns your fondness with interest. He makes no secret of it
to anybody, because he’s old, or says he is,--but he’s old like an old
wolf. I like him, too. He goes about saying that you’re his ideal of
beauty and cleverness and soul--and good taste. Oh, Griggs!” He laughed
again. “He’s quite off his head about you! He’ll put you into one of
his books if you’re not careful. I should like to see your father’s
expression if he did.”

“Don’t be a goose, Jack!” suggested Katharine, by way of good advice.
“Of course, I understand what a dear old silly idiot you are, you know.
But don’t talk such nonsense to other people. They’ll laugh at you.”

“No, I’m not going to. I let Griggs do the talking, and people laugh at
him. But there’s nothing silly in it, as a matter of fact. Everybody
loves you--except some of the people who should. And I must say, with
the exception of Crowdie, we were a very presentable lot the other
night. And even Crowdie--well, he’s a celebrity, if he’s nothing else,
and that counts for something with some women. I say, Katharine--are you
and Hester going to quarrel for the rest of your lives?”

“I’m afraid so,--at least, we shan’t quarrel exactly. But we can never
be just as we were.”

“I’m rather glad,” said Ralston. “I never believed much in that
friendship between you two.”

“Oh, Jack! We loved each other so dearly! And it was so nice--we told
each other everything, you know.”

“Yes--but you’ve outgrown each other.”

Katharine looked at him quickly, in surprise.

“That’s exactly what Hester said to-day,” she answered. “It seemed to me
to be such nonsense.”

“Well--you have, and she’s quite right if she says so. That sort of
school-girlish friendship doesn’t amount to anything when you begin to
grow up. I’ve seen lots of them in society. They always break up as soon
as one of the two marries and has other things to think about. Besides,
between you and Hester, there’s Crowdie. It’s perfectly clear from what
you’ve told me that she’s jealous. If you’re not careful she’ll try and
do you some mischief or other. She’s jealous, and she has a streak of
cruelty in her. She’ll make you suffer somehow--trust the ingenuity of a
woman like that! She’d burn her most intimate friend at a slow fire for
Crowdie any day.”

“Well--isn’t she right?” asked Katharine. “I would, for you, I’m
sure--if it would do you any good.”

“It wouldn’t,” laughed Ralston. “Those cases don’t arise nowadays.
Sometimes one wishes they might. We’ve all got a lot of cruelty and
romance in us somewhere. We all believe in the immutability of the
affections, more or less.”

“Don’t laugh, Jack!” said Katharine. “Love has nothing to do with
friendship. Besides, you and I aren’t like other people. We’re always
going to care--just as we always have. We’re faithful people, you and
I.”

“Yes. I think we are.” He spoke quietly, as though from a long and
familiar conviction.

A short silence followed, and they walked along side by side in the soft
evening air, so close that their elbows touched, as they kept step
together--a mode of courtship not usually practised by their kind, and
which they would have been ashamed of in a more frequented quarter of
the city. They would probably have noticed it unfavourably in another
couple, and would have set the pair down as a dry-goods clerk and a
shopgirl. But when the ‘stiff and proud’ Four Hundred are very much in
love, and when they are quite sure that none of the remaining Three
Hundred and Ninety-eight are looking, they behave precisely like human
beings, which is really to their credit, though they would be so much
ashamed to have it generally known.

“But then, we’re married, you know,” said Katharine, as though she had
solved a difficult problem.

Ralston glanced at the face he loved and smiled happily.

“There’s a good deal besides that,” he said. “There are a great many
things that tie us together. You’ve made a man of me. That’s one thing.
But for you, I don’t know where I should have been now--in a bad way, I
fancy.”

“No, you wouldn’t,” protested Katharine. “A man who can do the things
you’ve done doesn’t come to grief.”

“It isn’t anything I’ve done,” Ralston answered. “It’s what you’ve made
me feel. If I’ve done anything at all, it’s been for your sake. You know
that as well as I do. And if there were big things to be done, it would
be the same.”

“You’ve done the biggest thing that any man can do. You don’t need to
have me tell you that.”

“Oh--about reforming my ways, you mean?” He affected to laugh. “That
wasn’t anything. You made it nice and easy.”

“Especially when I didn’t believe in you, and treated you like a brute,”
said Katharine, with an expression of pain at the recollection. “Don’t
talk about it, Jack. I’ve never forgiven myself--I never shall.”

“But it was so nice when it was over!” This time the little laugh was
genuine. “I’d go through it all again, just to see your face when you
found out that you’d been mistaken--and afterwards, when we sat behind
the piano at the Van De Waters’--do you remember? Oh, yes! I’d like to
have it all over again.”

“Jack--you’re an angel, dear! But don’t talk about that night. I
suppose, though, that those things have helped to bind us together and
make us more each other’s. Yes--of course they have. And then--we’re
such good friends, you know. Doesn’t that make a difference? I’m sure
there are people who care very much, but who are never good friends.
Look at papa and my mother. They’re like that. They’re not at all good
friends. They never tell each other anything if they can help it. But
they care all the same. We could never be like that together, could we?
Jack--where does friendship end and love begin?”

“What a beautiful question!” exclaimed Ralston, very much amused. “Of
all the impossible ones to answer!”

“I know it is. I’ve often wondered about it. You know, I can’t at all
remember when I began to care for you in this way. Can you? It must have
been ever so long ago, before we ever said anything--because, when we
did, it seemed quite natural, you know. And it always grows. It goes on
growing like a thing that’s planted in good earth and that has lots of
life in it and is going to last forever. But it really does grow. I know
that I’m ever so much more glad to see you when we meet now than I was a
month ago. If it goes on like this I don’t know where it’s going to end.
Hester and her husband won’t be anywhere, compared with us, will they?”

“They’re not, as it is. They’re quite different. When they’re old,
they’ll quarrel--if not sooner.”

“Oh, Jack--I don’t believe it’s quite fair to say that!”

“Well--wait and see. We’re warranted to wear, you and I. They’re not.
There’s no staying power in that sort of thing. Not but what they’re in
earnest. Even Crowdie is, though he’s half in love with you, at the same
time.”

“I wish you wouldn’t keep saying that,” said Katharine. “It makes me
feel so uncomfortable when we meet. Besides, it’s absurd, as I told you.
A man can’t be madly in love with his wife and care for any one else at
the same time.”

“That depends on the man--and the way of caring,” answered Ralston.
“Crowdie’s a brute. I hate him. The only thing I can’t understand about
Griggs is his liking for the man. It’s incomprehensible to me.”

“I don’t think Mr. Griggs really likes him,” said Katharine. “There’s a
mystery about it. But I’m almost sure he doesn’t really like him. I
believe he thinks he’s responsible for Crowdie in some way. They knew
each other long ago.”

“Nobody knows much about Crowdie’s antecedents, anyway. I never could
understand the match.”

“Oh--it’s easily understood. They fell in love with each other. Of
course he would have been delighted to marry her, if he hadn’t cared a
straw for her, for the sake of the social position and all that. Then he
had a sister--at least, people said so, but nobody ever saw her that I
know of--somewhere in New Jersey. She didn’t come to the wedding, I
know, for I was Hester’s bridesmaid. Charlotte and I were the only two.”

“She didn’t come to the wedding because she was dead,” said Ralston.
“That’s an awfully good reason.”

“I didn’t know. I’ve often wondered about her, but I didn’t like to ask
questions. One doesn’t you know, about people who don’t turn up. They
always are dead, or something--and then one feels so uncomfortable.”

“Yes,” answered Ralston, as though meditating on the fact. “At all
events,” he continued, “nobody ever knew much about Crowdie, nor where
he came from. So I don’t exactly see how Griggs could be responsible for
him. But, as you say, there’s a mystery about it all--so there is about
Griggs, for that matter.”

“Oh, no! Mr. Griggs is all right. There’s nothing mysterious about him.
He was born abroad, that’s all, and I believe he was awfully poor as a
boy--a sort of orphan lying about loose on the world, you know. But he’s
got a lot of tremendously proper relations in Rhode Island. He goes to
see some of them now and then. He’s told me.”

“Well--it’s very queer about Crowdie, anyhow,” said Ralston,
thoughtfully. “But there’s something I wanted to talk to you about,
dear,” he continued after a little pause. “It’s about our marriage
certificate. You know we’re living in danger of an explosion at any
moment. That thing is tucked away somewhere amongst poor uncle Robert’s
papers. We’ve spoken of it once or twice, you know. They’re going
through everything, and sooner or later it’s sure to turn up. It’s just
as well to be prepared beforehand. I don’t know what will happen if we
tell your father now, but he’s got to be told, and it’s my place to do
it.”

“No, Jack,” answered Katharine. “It’s my place. I made you do it--I’ve
never made up my mind whether it was the wisest thing we could do, or
whether it was a piece of egregious folly. Suppose that we had
quarrelled after it was done. We should have been bound all our lives by
a mere ceremony.”

“But we knew we shouldn’t,” protested Ralston.

“Nobody knows anything,” said Katharine, wisely. “We know now, because
we know each other so much better. But I made you take a tremendous
risk, and you didn’t want to do it at all--”

“It wasn’t on account of the risk--”

“No--of course it wasn’t. But you’re quite right now. That thing may
turn up any day. I shall go to papa this very evening and tell him that
we’re married. It’s the only sensible thing to do.”

“Indeed, you shan’t do that!” cried Ralston, anxiously. “You know him--”

“Shan’t?” repeated Katharine, looking up into his face and smiling. “I
will if I please,” she said with a little laugh.

“Will you?” asked John, meeting her eyes with an expression of
determination, but smiling, too, in spite of himself.

“Of course!” answered Katharine, promptly. “Especially as I think it’s a
matter of duty. Of course I’ll do it--this very evening!”

“Don’t!” said Ralston. “There’ll be a row.”

“Not half such a row as if you try to do it,” observed Katharine.
“You’ll have each other by the throat in five minutes.”

“Oh, no, we shan’t. We’re very good friends now. I don’t see why there
should be any trouble at all. He wants us to marry. He said so in his
letter, and he’s taken a sort of paternal air of late, when I come to
the house. Besides, haven’t you noticed the way in which he turns his
back on us when we sit down to talk? If that doesn’t mean consent--well,
he won’t have the trouble of a wedding, that’s all, nor the expense,
either. He ought to be glad, if he’s logical.”

“I don’t think he’d mind the expense so much now,” said Katharine, with
perfect gravity. “I think he’s getting used to the idea of spending a
little more, now that we’re to be so rich. He was talking about having
a butler, last night. Fancy! But I do wish those administrators, or
whatever you call them, would hurry up and give us something. We’re
awfully hard up, my mother and I. We’ve had to get such a lot of
clothes, and I’m frightened to death about it. I’m sure the bills will
come in before the estate’s settled, and then papa will take the roof
off, as you always say--he’ll be so angry! But I don’t think he’ll make
such a fuss about our marriage.”

“No--that’s just what I say. That’s why I want to tell him myself.”

“Jack!” cried Katharine, reproachfully. “You just said there’d be a row
if I went to him about it.”

“Well--I think I can manage him better,” said Ralston. “You and he are
used to fighting every day as a matter of habit, so that you’re sure to
go at each other on the smallest provocation. But with him and me, it’s
been a sort of rare amusement--the kind of thing one keeps for Sundays,
and we don’t like it so much. Besides, since you say that he won’t be so
angry after all, why shouldn’t I?”

“Exactly. And I say, why shouldn’t I?--for the same reason. I shall just
say that we got married because we were afraid we should never get his
consent, but that since he’s given it frankly,--he did in that
letter,--we’ve agreed to tell.”

“That’s just what I should say,” answered Ralston. “Those are the very
words I had in my mind.”

“Of course they are. Don’t we always think alike? But I want to tell
him. I’d much rather.”

“So would I--much rather. It will end in our going together. That’s
probably the most sensible thing we can do. There’ll be a certain grim
surprise, and then the correct paternal blessing, and the luncheon or
dinner, according to the time of day.”

“It will be dinner, if we go home and do it now,” said Katharine,
thoughtfully.

“Come on! Let’s go!” answered Ralston. “There’s no time like the present
for doing this sort of thing. Where are we? Oh--South Fifth Avenue’s
over there to the left. That’s the shortest way, round that corner and
then straight up.”

They turned and walked in the direction he indicated, both silent for a
while as they thought of what was before them, and the final telling of
the secret they had kept so long.

“You don’t know how glad I shall be when everybody knows,” said
Katharine after a time, as they paused at a crossing to let a van pass
by.

“Not half so glad as I shall be,” answered Ralston. “But it couldn’t be
helped. I know it’s been hateful to have this secret--well, not exactly
hanging over us, but to have it a part of us all this time. Still--I
don’t see when we could have announced it. There’s been one thing after
another to make it impossible, and somehow we’ve got used to it. They
say there’s nothing like having a secret in common to make two people
fall in love with each other. It seems to me it’s true.”

“We didn’t need it, dear,” said Katharine, softly, as they began to
cross the street.

“No--not exactly.” Ralston laughed. “But it hasn’t made it any worse, at
all events. But what moments we’ve had. Do you remember when they began
to talk about secret marriages that night?”

“Don’t I!” laughed Katharine. “I thought I should have gone through the
floor! How well you behaved, Jack! I expected that you’d break out every
minute and fall upon poor cousin Ham. But you didn’t. As for me, I got
scarlet, and I don’t often blush, do I? Dark people don’t. Well--it’s
all over now.”

“Not till we’ve had our talk out with your father. We can’t be quite
sure of what will happen till then.”

“No--but he can’t unmarry us, can he? So what can he do? He can say that
he’ll disinherit me. That’s the worst he could possibly do, and what
difference would it make? You’re going to be one of the rich, rich, rich
men, Jack--with ever so many millions more than you can possibly spend
on onions and honey--like the wayward old man of Kilkenny, you know.
Besides, papa will not be angry at all. He’ll simply dance with delight.
I believe he’s secretly afraid that we’re cheating him, because we never
speak of ever announcing our engagement. He thinks we’re revenging
ourselves now, and each means to marry somebody else, and he’s in fits
lest he should lose you for a son-in-law. Isn’t it fun?”

“Yes--your beloved father in fits, as you call it--and dancing with
delight--it doesn’t lack the comic element. But it looks so simple now,
just to go and tell him, and be done with it. Why haven’t we done it
before?”

“Oh--we couldn’t. It wouldn’t have been safe until the will was settled.
He was really dreadfully nervous all that time. I never saw him in such
a state before. It really wouldn’t have been safe. No--this is our first
chance. We might have spoken a day or two ago, of course, but not much
sooner.”

“No--we couldn’t,” said Ralston. “But I’m glad--oh, tremendously glad
that it’s coming at last.”

“And then--Jack,” said Katharine, with some hesitation, “after we’ve
spoken, you know--what are we going to do?”

“You and I? Why, get married, of course--I mean--as if we were getting
married. There won’t be any people nor any cake, nor any gorgeous dress
for you--poor dear! But we shall have to pretend, I suppose--go off with
your mother and my mother, and as many more mothers as we can pick up,
to make us perfectly respectable, and then we shall come back married,
and choose a house to live in. That’s the first thing, you know. My
mother will never hear of our living with her, now that there’s to be
lots of money. She’s much too wise for that. Relations-in-law are just
bones for husband and wife to fight over. But of course my mother will
come very often.”

“And my mother,” said Katharine.

“Yes--your mother, too,” assented Ralston. “Naturally, they’ll both
come. So long as they don’t live with us, we shan’t mind.”

“But you’re very fond of your mother, Jack, aren’t you?” asked
Katharine.

“Of course I am. We’re more like brother and sister than anything else.
You see, we’ve always been together so much.”

“And yet you’d rather not have her live with us?”

“Certainly not. And she wouldn’t wish to.”

“It’s strange,” said Katharine, thoughtfully. “I don’t think I should
mind having my mother with us. She’d be such a comfort when you were
down town, you know.”

“Yes,” answered Ralston, in a doubtful tone. “I couldn’t take my mother
down town to comfort me at Beman’s, could I?”

“What an absurd idea! But, Jack,--shall you still go to Beman’s? You
can’t, you know. Everybody would laugh at you. A man with forty millions
or so, doing clerk’s work in a bank! It’s ridiculous!”

“No doubt! But what am I to do with myself? What do people like that do?
I can’t hang about the clubs all day.”

“You can stay at home and talk to me,” said Katharine. “We can tell each
other how much nicer it is than when we had to meet in Washington Square
in the early morning--when I had to put red ribbons in my window--do you
remember? It’s only three or four weeks ago, but it seems years.”

“It does, indeed. What tight places we’ve been through together since
your father refused to hear of me as a son-in-law! Holloa! There goes
Ham Bright! What in the world can he be doing down here at this time of
day?”

Bright was walking towards them, as quickly as it was natural for him to
walk, with his long, heavy stride.

“It’s of no use to run away--he’s seen us,” said Katharine.

“He looks in a better humour than I’ve seen him lately,” answered John
in a low voice, as they approached Bright.

They met and stood still a moment on the pavement. Even under his great
disappointment Hamilton Bright had never shown the least ill-temper,
though he had avoided the Lauderdales and the Ralstons as much as
possible, and had managed so that he scarcely ever saw John at the bank
except from a distance. But he had been very gloomy of late. Now,
however, as Ralston had said, he looked more cheerful.

“Going down town again?” asked John. “Not that I come from Boston, you
know, Ham--but when one meets a man going down South Fifth Avenue at
half past five in the afternoon, one’s naturally curious. What’s up?”

“Oh--nothing. I was just going as far as Grand Street about a house I’ve
bought there. Did you know they’d found the other will?”

“Found the other will?” repeated Ralston, in the utmost surprise.
“Well--what sort of a will is it? Will it be good?”

“I’m so glad!” exclaimed Katharine, thoughtlessly.

Bright fixed his clear, blue eyes on her with considerable curiosity,
and hesitated an instant before he spoke.

“Of course!” he exclaimed. “They always said you knew what was in it,
cousin Katharine.”

“Did they? I don’t know how they knew that I did,” she answered. “But
I’m glad it’s found, all the same.”

“Are you? Well--I hope it’s all right. Of course nobody knows what’s in
it. Allen wants to collect the family at your house to-morrow morning to
hear it read. It seems to me it might have been managed to-night, but he
said there wasn’t time to send round. I think cousin Alexander objected,
too. He wants all the family. Will you tell your mother, Jack? Eleven
o’clock at Clinton Place. Write a note to Beman to say why you don’t
turn up at the bank.”

“All right,” answered John, gravely. “I hope it will be all right, Ham,
old man,” he added, putting out his hand as Bright showed signs of being
in a hurry.

“Thank you, Jack,” answered the latter, heartily. “Not that you and I
shall ever quarrel about money. Good-bye, cousin Katharine.”

And he went on and left them to pursue their way in the opposite
direction. They walked slowly, and looked into one another’s eyes.

“I thought he’d burned it,” said Ralston at last, in a tone of wonder.

“So did I,” answered Katharine. “Jack,” she continued, after a slight
pause, “it won’t do to go and see papa now. Not till the will’s been
read to-morrow. You don’t know what a state of mind he’ll be in until
he’s heard it--and then--then I’m afraid it will be worse than ever.”

“Yes--let me see--how was it? You and Charlotte and I are to have
everything, and pay half the income to the parents. Isn’t that it?”

“That’s it. And there’s a million set aside for the Brights. But Heaven
only knows what that dreadful court will do this time!”

“I don’t much care,” answered Ralston. “But all the settling up will be
suspended again for ever so long. You’ll never get the money to pay for
your new frock, dear, with all your millions!”

“Oh, Jack--really? I’m frightened to death about those bills!”

“I was only laughing at you,” said John, laughing himself. “Besides, as
I’m really your husband, I’m responsible for your dressmaker’s bills in
the eye of the law. But, I confess, I begin to wonder whether any of us
will ever see any of that money.”




CHAPTER XXXII.


Long after midnight Hester Crowdie sat beside her sleeping husband,
watching him with unwinking eyes. The soft, coloured light was shaded so
that no ray could fall upon his face to disturb his rest, as he lay back
upon the yielding pillow, sleeping very soundly. The house was still,
but the servants were not all gone to bed, for Hester was anxious. At
any moment she might need to send for a doctor. But she sat watching the
unconscious man alone.

His eyes were closed, and his face was flushed. He breathed very
heavily, though she did not quite realize it; for the sound of his
breathing had increased very gradually during many hours, from having
been at first quite inaudible until it filled her ears with a steady,
rhythmic roar, loud and regular as the noise of a blacksmith’s bellows.
But she was scarcely conscious of it, because she had watched so long.

Hour after hour she had sat beside him, hardly changing her position,
and never leaving the room. To her the house seemed still, and only now
and then the echo of the steam horns reached her ears, made musical by
the distance, as it floated from the far river across the dozing city.

On a fine spring night New York is rarely asleep before two o’clock. It
dozes, as it were, turning, half awake, from time to time, and speaking
drowsily in its deep voice, like a strong man very tired, but still
conscious. It breathes, too, sometimes, as Crowdie was breathing, very
heavily, especially in the nights that come after days of passion and
struggling; and the breathing of a great city at night is not like any
other sound on earth.

Hester was conscious that all was not well with the man she loved,
though he had slept so long. She rose, and moved uneasily about the
room. She was very pale, and there were dark shadows in her pallor, the
shadows that fear’s giant wraith casts upon the human face when death is
stalking up and down, up and down, outside the door, waiting to see
whether he may take the little life that falls as a crumb from the table
of the master, or whether he must go away again to his own place, out of
sight.

But Hester did not know that he was there, as she rose and crossed the
room and came back to stand at the foot of the bed, gazing at Crowdie’s
face. She was anxious and uneasy, though she had watched him once before
in the same way. But at that first time she had not done what she had
done now, with feverish haste, thinking only of helping him.

All at once she shivered, and she turned to see whether the window were
not open. But it was closely shut. It was as though something very cold
had been laid upon her. She stared about, nervously, and the pupils of
her eyes grew very large, with a frightened look. She laid both hands
upon the foot of the bedstead, and grasped it with all her strength,
bending forwards and staring at Crowdie’s face, and the chill thrilled
very strangely across her shoulders and all through her, so that she
felt it in her elbows and in her heels. She glanced over her shoulder
into the softly shadowed corner farthest from the bed; for she was sure
that something was there, in the room, a bodily presence, which she must
presently see. The chill ran through her again and again, cold as ice,
but with a painful pricking.

She looked at Crowdie again and saw that his eyes were no longer tightly
closed. The lids were a little raised, and she could see the edge of the
dark iris, and the white below it and on each side of it. He had moved a
little just as she had turned to look into the corner. He ought not to
have moved, she thought, without reason. It was as though a dead man had
moved, she thought. And again the chill came. She was sure that the
window must be open, but she could not look round. Suddenly she
remembered how when she had been a little girl she had been taken to be
photographed, and the man had put a cold iron thing behind her head that
seemed to hold her with two frozen fingers just behind her ears. She
felt the frozen fingers now, in the same places, and they were pressing
her head down. For a moment everything swam with her, and then it all
passed. The iron hand was gone--the window was shut--there was nothing
in the corner.

But instantly the terrible, stertorous breathing rent her ears. It had
gone on for hours. The servants could hear it downstairs. The bedstead
trembled with it under her hands. But she had not been conscious of it.
The unnatural thing that had touched her--the thing that had come in
through the window and that had stood in the corner--it had unsealed her
hearing. She heard now, and fearfully.

With one slender arm under the pillow she raised him, for she thought
that he might breathe more easily if his head were higher. His laboured
breath deafened her, and she could feel it through her sleeve upon her
other arm. Desperately she hastened to arrange the pillows. But the
dreadful sound roared at her like the flames of a great fire. In sudden
and overwhelming terror she left him as he was, half uncovered, and ran
to the door, calling wildly for help, again and again, down into the
dimly-lighted staircase. Then she came back in a new terror, lest her
screams should have waked him. But he slept on. In the movement of the
pillow as she had withdrawn her arm, his head had fallen on one side.
His eyes were half open, and the breath was rough and choking.

She had never known how heavy a man’s head was. Her small, bloodless
hands made an effort to turn him--then some one was with her, helping
her, anxiously and clumsily.

“Not so! Not that way!” she whispered, hoarsely, with drawn, dry lips,
and her little hands touched the servant’s rough ones with uncertain
direction, in haste and fear.

Then he breathed more easily, and she herself drew breath. But she had
been terrified, and she sent for old Doctor Routh, and sat down in her
old place to wait and watch until he should come. It was better now. The
coming of the servant had broken the loneliness, and there was life in
the air again, instead of death. Her heart fluttered still, like a wild
bird tired out with beating its wings against the bars. But there was no
chill, and presently the heart rested. He was better. She was quite sure
that he was better. The rough breathing would cease presently, he would
sleep till morning, and then he would waken and be himself again, just
as though nothing had happened. Now that the fear was gone, she rose and
went to the window and let the shade run up so that she could see the
stars. They had a soft and sleepy look, like children’s eyes at
bed-time. The musical echo of the horns came to her from the river. In
the old Colonnade House opposite and to the right, a single window was
lighted high up. Perhaps some one was ill up there--all alone. Then the
city moved in its dozing rest, with a subdued thumping, rumbling noise
that lasted a few seconds. Perhaps there was a fire far away, and the
engines and the hook-and-ladder carts were racing away from the
lumbering water-tank down one of the quiet eastern avenues. The light in
the window of the Colonnade House went out suddenly--no one was ill
there--it had only been some one sitting up late. Hester missed the
light, and the great long building looked black against the dim sky, and
the stars blinked more sleepily. She drew the shade down again and
turned back into the room.

She started. Crowdie had seemed better when she had left his side for a
moment. It had eased him to move his head. But now he was worse again,
and the room almost shook with the noise of his breathing. It was as
though he were inhaling water that choked him and gurgled in his throat
and nostrils. She was frightened again, and ran to his side. She took
her little handkerchief which lay on the small table at her elbow, and
passed it delicately over his mouth. Her hand trembled as soon as she
had done it, and the handkerchief fell upon the woollen blanket, and
gently unfolded itself a little after it had fallen. It caught the light
and seemed to be alive, as though it had taken some of the sleeping
man’s life from him. She started again, and seized it to crumple it and
thrust it away, with something between fear and impatience in her
movement, and she bent over her husband’s face once more, and realized
where her real fear was, as she tenderly smoothed his fair hair and
softly touched his temples.

There was nothing to be done but to wait, and she waited, not patiently.
Sometimes the noise of his breathing hurt her, and she pressed her hand
to her side, and hid her eyes for a moment. The dismal minutes that
would not go by, nor make way for one another, dragged on through a long
half-hour, and more. Then there was a rumbling of wheels on the cobble
stones, and she was at the window in an instant, flattening her face
against the glass as she tried to look northward, whence the sound
should come. It was Routh’s carriage. That was a certainty, even before
she caught sight of the yellow glare of the lamps, moving fan-like along
the broad way. It was not likely that any other carriage should stray
into the loneliness of Lafayette Place at that time of night. The
carriage stopped. Hester saw a man get out, and heard the clap of the
door of the brougham as it was sharply closed behind him. Immediately
she was at the door, her hand on the handle, but her eyes turned
anxiously upon Crowdie’s face. The steps came up the stairs, and she
looked out. It was Doctor Routh himself, for she had sent a very urgent
message.

Without going upon the landing, she stretched out her hand and almost
dragged him into the room, for somehow her terror increased to a frenzy
as she saw him, and she felt that her heart could not go on beating long
enough for him to speak. Her face was very grave, but she was only
conscious of his deep violet-blue eyes that glanced at her keenly as he
passed her. He had half guessed what was the matter, for the terrible
breathing could be heard on the stairs.

Without hesitation he took the shade from the light, and held the little
lamp close to Crowdie’s face. He raised first one eyelid and then the
other. The pupils were enormously dilated. Then he felt the pulse,
listened to the heart, and shook his head almost imperceptibly. A moment
later he was scratching words hastily in his note-book.

“Why didn’t you send word that it was morphia?” he asked, sharply,
without looking up. “Send that by the carriage, and tell them to be
quick!” He thrust the note into her hands and almost pushed her from the
room. “Make haste! I must have the things at once!” he called after her
as she flew downstairs.

Then he tried such means as he had at hand, though he knew how useless
they must be, doing everything possible to rouse the man from the
poisoned sleep. He smiled grimly at his own folly, and laid the head
upon its pillow again. Hester was in the room in a moment.

“It’s morphia,” he said, “and he’s had an overdose. How did he come to
get it? Who gave it to him?”

“I did,” answered Hester, in a clear voice, and her lips were white.
“Will he die?” she whispered, with sudden horror.

She almost sprang at Routh as she asked the question, grasping his arm
in both her hands.

“I don’t know,” he answered, slowly. “I’ll try to bring him round.
Control yourself, Mrs. Crowdie. This isn’t the time for crying. Tell me
what happened.”

She told him something, brokenly, her memory half gone from fear--how
something had happened to distress him, and he had turned red and
fallen, twisted and unconscious--she did not know what she told him.

“Has it ever happened before?” asked Routh, who was holding her hands to
quiet her, while she moved her feet nervously.

It had happened once, she told him, on a winter’s evening when they had
been alone. She could say that much, and then her eyes were drawn to
Crowdie’s face, and to the horror of it, as a bent spring flies back to
its own line when released. Routh pressed her hand.

“Look at me, please,” he said, authoritatively. “We can’t do anything
for him till my things come. Tell me why you gave him morphia.”

She had thought it was the right thing. Her husband had told her that he
had formerly taken a great deal of it. He had suffered great pain when
he had been younger, from an accident, and had fallen into the habit
that kills. But before they had been married he had given it up--for her
sake.

Her eyes turned to him again. She snatched her hands from Routh’s and
pressed them desperately to her ears to keep out the sound of his
breathing. But Routh drew her away and made her look at him again.

And these attacks came from having given up morphia, she told him.
Crowdie had said so. He had told her that, of course, a dose of the
poison would stop one of them, but that he was determined not to begin
taking it again. It would ruin his life and hers if he did. The attacks
gave him no pain, he had said. He did not remember afterwards what had
happened to him. But of course they were bad for him, and might come
more frequently. He had been terribly distressed. It had seemed to be
breaking his heart, because it must give her pain. He had made her
promise never to give him morphia when he was unconscious. He was
determined not to fall back into the habit of it.

“Then why did you do it?” asked Routh, scrutinizing her pale face and
frightened eyes.

She had imagined that it would save him pain, though he had told her
that he recollected nothing of his sensations after the attack was past.

“He was all stiff and twisted!” she cried, in broken tones. “His hands
were all twisted--his eyes turned up.”

“But where did you get the morphia?” asked the physician, holding her
before him, kindly, but so that she had to face him.

“He had it,” she said. “I made him show it to me once. He kept it in a
drawer with the little instrument for it. He showed me how to pinch the
skin and prick it--it was so easy! There was the mixture in a
bottle--the cork wouldn’t come out--I did it with a hairpin--”

“How much did you give him?” enquired the doctor, bringing her back to
her story, as her mind groped, terror-struck amongst its details.

“Why--the little syringe full--wasn’t that right?” She saw the despair
of life in his eyes. “Oh, God! My God!” she shrieked, breaking from his
hands. “I’ve killed him!”

“I’m afraid you have,” said Routh, but under his breath, and she could
not have heard him speak.

She threw herself wildly upon her husband’s breast, clutching him with
her small white hands, lifting herself upon them, staring into his face,
and then shrieking as she fell forwards again, her hands tearing at her
own thick brown hair. Routh knew that Crowdie could not be disturbed. He
stood back from the bedside and watched her with far-seeing, dreaming
eyes, while the first fever of despair burned itself out in a raving
delirium. He had seen such sights many times in his life, but he
remembered nothing more terrible than the grief of this woman who had
killed her husband by a hideous mistake, thinking to save him pain,
thinking it well to break a promise he had taken of her for his safety,
and which she had believed had been only for his self-respect.

Crowdie was past saving. Routh did all that his science could do, trying
in turn every known means of breaking the death sleep, trying to hem in
the life before it was quite gone out, that the very least breath of it
might be imprisoned in the body. But it was of no use. The poison was in
the veins, in the brain, the subtle spirit of the opium devil distilled
to an invisible enemy. The little hand of Fate, that had been so small
and noiseless a few hours earlier, spread, gigantic, and grasped Science
by the throat and shook her off. There was not anything to be done. And
Hester twisted her hands, and moaned and shrieked, and beat her breast,
like a woman mad, as indeed she was.

Routh had understood. Crowdie was an epileptic. He had perhaps believed
himself cured when he had married his wife, and had been horrified by
the first attack. He loved her, and he would naturally wish to hide from
her the secret of his life. The general feeling about epilepsy is not
like what is felt for any other human weakness. An epileptic is hardly
regarded as a natural being, and the belief that the disease is
hereditary brands it with an especial horror. It had been ingenious on
Crowdie’s part to invent the story about the morphia, and to carry it
out and impress it on her by showing her the instrument and the bottle
of poison. It was possible that there might have been some foundation of
truth in the tale. He might have had the implements from a physician.
But Routh, who had known him long, was convinced, for many reasons, that
he had never been a victim to the habit of using the drug regularly. It
had been very ingenious of the poor man. Hester could hardly have known
anything of the after effects of breaking off such a habit, still less
was it probable that she should know much about epilepsy, and trusting
him as she did, it was natural that she should never have reported what
he had told her to any one who might have explained the truth. The only
mistake he had made had been in not throwing away the poison, and
refilling the bottle with pure water. He had miscalculated the anxiety
she would feel to relieve him, if he ever had an attack again. The
mistake had cost him his life.

Towards morning the house in Lafayette Place was very still again,
though there were lights in the windows, and the shadows of people
moving about within passed and repassed upon the shades. Only the
policeman on his beat, looking up eastward and seeing the dawn in the
sky and glancing at the windows, knew that there had been trouble in the
house during the night, and guessed that for a day or two the blinds
would not be raised. But all the great city began to breathe again,
turning in its sleep, and waking drowsily in the cool spring dawning to
begin its daily life of work and play and passion, unconscious of such
trifles as the loss of a man, or the madness of a frantic woman’s
grief.




CHAPTER XXXIII.


It would have needed more imagination than Katharine Lauderdale
possessed to suppose that the scene in which she acted a part during the
afternoon could possibly lead to serious consequences. Had she been told
how jealous Hester really was of her, she could not have realized what
such jealousy meant. She had gone away much more hurt by Hester’s
coolness, and by her refusal to return to the old terms of friendship,
than disturbed by the thought of the domestic quarrel she had left
behind her. If Hester was jealous, foolishly, and if Crowdie had
displeased both her and Katharine, the young girl considered it only
fair that they should talk the matter over, and if Hester were angry, it
might teach her husband to be more careful in future.

What had really affected her was the disenchantment she had felt when
she found that Hester had no intention of renewing the relations which
had existed before the affair of the will had produced a temporary
estrangement. It had been another blow to another ideal, and another
possibility of life was wiped away from the future.

Little by little her whole existence was being narrowed to one thought,
one happiness, one belief, all centred in John Ralston. Of all the many
people who had come into her young life, he alone had not brought her
any permanent pain, nor any pain at all, save once, when she had been
terribly mistaken about something he had done during the previous
winter. More than once, indeed, and even within the past few weeks, they
had been near to what would have made a disagreement between most
lovers. But only near--no more. Just at that point when others might
have taken offence foolishly, or spoken the hasty word that sets the
whole fabric of love vibrating, and sometimes makes it rock and topple
over and fall--just at that point one or the other of them had always
yielded, and the danger had been over in an instant and as soon
forgotten. It seemed as though they could never quarrel; and when they
were weary, as they often had been of late, it rested them to be
together even for a few moments.

So it had happened on that day when Ralston had met Katharine as she was
coming from the Crowdies’, and they had walked together, and made a plan
which would have been put into execution at once, but for the news
Bright had given them, and which momentarily checked them when they were
on the point of disclosing their long-kept secret. Then they had parted,
judging it wiser that John should stay away from the house that
evening, and avoid the danger of irritating Alexander Junior’s temper,
which had most probably been more or less roused by the finding of
another will.

Katharine went into the library before going to her room, with a vague
idea of ascertaining the state of the family humour, if any one happened
to be there. She was not disappointed, for her father and mother were
together, Alexander sitting upright in Katharine’s favourite chair, and
Mrs. Lauderdale lying upon the sofa and staring at the ceiling.
Katharine saw her first, and understood her mother’s warning glance. It
was clear that there had been a pause in the conversation. Alexander’s
face was cold and expressionless as he looked at his wife.

“Well,” he said, in a tone of repressed but righteous indignation, “have
you heard the news, Katharine? They’ve found another will.”

“Yes,” she answered, kissing her mother by force of habit rather than
from any other motive. “I just met Hamilton Bright in the street. He
told me.”

“Oh, yes; he knows all about it.” Alexander spoke with profound
resentment, as though Bright were personally responsible for the second
will. “Katharine, my dear, I don’t think you’ve kissed me to-day. I
didn’t see you this morning.”

Katharine looked at him in some surprise, smiled a little foolishly, as
people do when they cannot understand exactly what is wanted of them,
and then rose almost before she had sat down. She went to him and laid
her cheek against his with precision, and both he and she kissed the air
audibly and simultaneously. Alexander Junior had always detested
anything like demonstration, but he insisted, on the other hand, upon
the punctual execution of certain affectionate practices, as a matter of
household discipline. Early or late the air must be kissed when the
cheeks were in contact.

“I thought I’d seen you,” said Katharine, as she retired again to her
seat.

“No,” answered Alexander, meditatively. “No--I think not. My child,” he
continued, in a tone unusually gentle for him, “do you think that
without feeling that you are betraying my poor uncle Robert’s
confidence, you could tell me what that will contains?”

She fancied from the way in which he spoke that he had framed the
question at his leisure before she had come home, so as neither to
offend her nor to refer to his previous attempts to gain her confidence.
She hesitated a moment before answering him, but he did not appear to be
impatient. In her quick weighing of the case, she could see little or no
reason for not satisfying his curiosity.

“Recollect, my dear, that I only wish you to speak about it, if you feel
that you can do so with a perfectly clear conscience,” he said.

“Oh, yes; of course!” she answered, repressing a smile. “But I don’t
really see why you shouldn’t know. I think, while he was alive--well,
that was different. But now--I think it’s quite fair. Of course, I don’t
know what will this is. He may have made several, for all we know. But
the one he told me about was like this. His idea was to make three
trusts, all equal. Oh!--in the first place there was to be one million
for the Brights, amongst the three, aunt Maggie, Hamilton, and Hester.
Then the three equal shares of the rest were to go in trust to Charlotte
and Jack Ralston and me--what did you say, papa?”

Alexander Junior had uttered an indistinct exclamation.

“Nothing,” he said. “Go on.”

“Each of us three was to pay half the income of a share to one of you
three, you and mother, and Mrs. Ralston. But before that--I forgot to
say it--each of us was to contribute something to make up an income for
grandpapa--about fifty thousand dollars altogether, I think. Then the
fortune was all to be in trust for our possible children. That was all.
I don’t think there was anything else.”

“Do you mean to say that there was nothing left outright to any of us
older ones?” asked Alexander, in a tone of stupefaction.

“Well--you three had half the income amongst you,” answered Katharine.

“What an absurd will!” exclaimed her father.

Then he bit his lip and sat in silence, looking at his clasped hands.

“But it may not be that will, after all,” he said, in a low voice, after
a long pause. “A man who will leave one old will behind him may leave
twenty. Lawyers always say that any one who changes his will once is
sure to do it again and again.”

He drew little consolation from the thought, however, and he was
suffering all that his arid nature was capable of feeling, in the
anticipation of losing the control of the fortune which had been
practically within his grasp. But he had grown used to uncertainty and
emotion within the last two months, and his face was set and hard.
Nevertheless, he felt that he could not long bear the eyes of the two
women upon him in his trouble, unless he made an effort of some sort.

“Did the will say nothing about the trusteeship? Who were to be the
trustees?” He asked the question with a revival of interest.

“I don’t know,” answered Katharine. “I never saw the will, of course. He
only told me what I have told you.”

Alexander said nothing, but he slowly rose to his feet, with less of
energy and directness than he usually showed in his movements.

“We’ll talk about it this evening,” he said, and left the room.

When he was gone Katharine rose and went over and sat upon the sofa at
her mother’s feet. Mrs. Lauderdale had said nothing during the brief
interview, but had watched her husband’s face anxiously when he spoke,
as though she had anticipated some outbreak of temper, at least.

“I’m glad you told him at once, dear,” she said. “I’m very much troubled
about him. I was afraid he’d be angry.”

“Isn’t it dreadful that any one should care so much?” Katharine spoke
thoughtfully, and looked at the floor.

“I’m very anxious,” answered Mrs. Lauderdale, not noticing what her
daughter had said. “He has talked in his sleep all night. He talks of
nothing but the money. Of course, it’s incoherent, and I can’t make out
half of what he says. It’s all the worse. I’m afraid his brain will be
seriously affected if this goes on much longer.”

“Mother--hasn’t every one got some great passion like that, locked up
inside of them, and trying to get out?”

Katharine looked up as she asked the question. Neither she nor her
mother thought of those months of insane envy, which had almost
separated them in heart forever.

“I never did,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, innocently. “I never cared for
anything like that.”

“I have,” said Katharine. “I do. It’s just like my caring for Jack. You
might as well try to face an express train as to stand in the way of it.
I know just how papa feels--now. Only with him it’s money. He’ll upset
the whole world to have it, as I’d turn the universe inside out rather
than lose Jack. I suppose that’s the meaning of the word passion--I’m
beginning to understand it.”

“It sounds much more like the meaning of sin,” observed Mrs. Lauderdale.
“I don’t mean in your case, dear. Love’s quite another thing. Perhaps I
shouldn’t have said it at all.”




CHAPTER XXXIV.


Even Alexander Junior, more than preoccupied by his hopes and fears in
regard to the will, was profoundly shocked by the news of Walter
Crowdie’s sudden death. Doctor Routh, as a friend of the family, took it
upon himself to notify all the relations of what had taken place in the
night, for during the first hours Hester had been incapable of any
thought. He had undertaken to inform Hester’s mother, and he wrote to
the Lauderdales and the Ralstons at once, in order that they might not
learn the news from the papers and accidentally.

No one of the family had ever liked poor Crowdie, but all of them had
been fond of Hester at one period or another of her life, though she had
never seemed to possess the power of keeping upon terms of intimacy with
more than one of them at a time, and never with any for very long. The
fact that the loss was hers softened every judgment of the man who was
gone, and in the first anxiety which every one felt to show a sympathy
which was genuine, Alexander Junior was perhaps the only one who
remembered that Mr. Allen was coming at eleven o’clock to open the
document which had been found, before the eyes of the whole family. With
a delicacy which might be attributed to the implacability of
circumstances, but for which he was afterwards willing to take more
credit than he got, he sent a message down town, explaining what had
happened, and putting off the meeting until the afternoon. Alexander
spent his morning in making sure that every one could be present, except
Mrs. Bright. Hamilton would represent his mother and sister.

It seemed heartless to Katharine that no one--not even Hamilton Bright
himself--should have suggested putting off the reading of the paper at
least until the next day, and once more the ruthlessness of humanity was
thrust upon her so that she could not help seeing it. It was true, she
admitted, that in reality Crowdie had been the husband of a very distant
cousin, and in theory neither the Lauderdales nor the Ralstons would be
expected to suspend a curiosity which concerned the fate of a colossal
fortune, for the matter of a death which hardly touched them. Yet
Katharine thought that in practice people might show some feeling in
such a case. What she saw was that the first shock was real and
startling, but that half an hour after hearing the news her father and
mother were discussing Crowdie’s character with about as much
consideration as though he had been a dead Chinaman, or a foreign prime
minister. She registered another bit of strong evidence against the
efficacy of professed religion, and shut herself up in her room for the
morning, for the mere satisfaction of being alone and of asking herself
what she had really thought of Crowdie.

She had detested him. She had no doubt of that. When she recalled a
certain smile of his, and thought of the redness of his lips, she
shivered and was disgusted. She did not like to remember his undulating,
womanish gait, nor the pallor of his face. Everything about him had
repelled her intensely. And yet, when she thought of him lying dead at
that moment, she felt a sharp pang, which was very like what she might
have felt if she had really missed him. She could not understand that.
Then she remembered his voice, and the enchantment of his singing on
that night at the Brights’ the song of Lohengrin--the song of the swan,
she thought, as it had turned out to be in truth, so far as she was
concerned. She wondered whether it were his voice that she was really
thinking of with regret. For she certainly felt the little pang. It came
again when she remembered that he was dead. She tried it two or three
times. It came once more, then very faintly, then not at all, try as she
might to think of him as he probably looked. She had never seen any one
dead except old Robert Lauderdale, but that was a recent memory. All the
details of death were fresh in her mind, and she could picture to
herself the quiet household, the subdued voices, the darkened rooms, the
flowers. The faint smell of them came back to her. She wondered whether
the smell had been so peculiar, and faint, and sickening, because they
had been almost all white. But there was no pang of ‘missing’ when she
thought of the old man. Yet she had been fond of him, and she had
detested Crowdie. She did not understand, as she sat all alone thinking
about it. She came to the conclusion that when people die they are
missed in proportion to their vitality by those who have not really
loved them. Perhaps she was right. The nature and causes of those sudden
thrusts which ordinarily sensitive people feel have been very little
studied.

But Katharine was sincerely sorry for Hester. She did not know whether
to go to her at once, or to wait until the next day. Her impulse was to
go immediately, though she asked herself whether Hester could possibly
wish to see her, and she tried to put herself in Hester’s place. But the
thought that John Ralston might die brought such a burst of pain with it
that she rose from her seat and walked about the room, breathing a
little faster. Then, having risen, she went downstairs and consulted her
mother.

“If I were you, I should go,” said Mrs. Lauderdale. “I’ll go with you,
if you like. You’ve always been her best friend. I’m sure she’s been
much nearer to you than your sister ever was, hasn’t she? Of course she
has. It can’t do any harm to go and ask for aunt Maggie, and if Hester
wants to see you, you can go up and I’ll come home alone, or stay
downstairs with aunt Maggie until you’re ready.”

“That sounds very sensible,” said Katharine. “I’ll get ready.”

At the house in Lafayette Place everything seemed familiar to the young
girl. It was just as she had anticipated. The blinds were drawn down.
Old Fletcher, the butler, shuffled and looked red and lachrymose, as he
opened the door. There was a strong smell of white flowers.

Presently Mrs. Bright appeared, pale and very grave, in a black frock
which was too tight for her and rather old-fashioned--the last one she
had worn in her long mourning for her husband. They went into the little
room which had been the scene of the trouble on the previous evening.
The drawing of old Robert Lauderdale still lay upon the table, where
Crowdie had placed it; only the little tea-table was gone. Again
Katharine felt that thrust at her heart which she could not explain. It
all seemed so near, and yet what was upstairs made such a great
difference.

They talked together in subdued tones for a few minutes. Aunt Maggie
said that Hester was behaving very strangely, and that she was anxious
about her. Walter had always seemed to possess a strange influence over
her. Mrs. Bright could not understand it. She herself had never quite
approved of the match, and Walter had never endeared himself to her, in
spite of his talent and apparent devotion to his wife. Hester was acting
very strangely. She was not wild now, She did not scream nor throw
herself about. On the contrary, she was so calm that her quiet was
positively terrifying. The people--by which term aunt Maggie meant the
undertakers--could do nothing without her. She would hardly let them
touch poor Walter--she wanted to do everything herself. She must
certainly break down, and perhaps lose her reason. People sometimes went
mad in that way, but it would be a pity--especially for such a man as
Crowdie. No. Walter had never endeared himself to Mrs. Bright.

Katharine looked at the kind-hearted, stout, elderly woman, with her
refined face and her air of superiority over the common herd, and
wondered whether she had any real feelings. She hardly made a pretence
of regret for the young life that had been cut short, though she seemed
really anxious for her daughter. She was like the rest of them, thought
Katharine, and she really had no heart. That was clear. She asked
whether Hester would be willing to see her.

“Really,” answered Mrs. Bright, “she’s behaving so strangely, poor
child, that there’s no knowing what she may do. She may be angry if I
don’t tell that you’re here. She’s insisted on having him carried into
the studio. Poor darling! I let her do as she pleases. But I’ll go and
ask her if she’d like to see you. It can’t do any harm, at all events.”

Aunt Maggie left the room, walking on tiptoe and listening before she
actually went out, after opening the door.

“Mother, is everybody as heartless as that?” asked Katharine when she
was gone, in a tone which seemed to expect no answer.

“Heartless?” repeated Mrs. Lauderdale. “I don’t think she’s heartless.
She’s dreadfully anxious about Hester.”

“Yes; but about poor Mr. Crowdie--she doesn’t seem to care in the
least.”

“Oh, no--she never liked him. Why should she? Take care, though!
somebody might hear us talking.”

Katharine sighed and was silent. Her mother did not seem to understand
what she meant any more than any one else. After the first shock they
all appeared to be perfectly indifferent. Crowdie was dead. Bury him!
Doubtless they were already wondering whether Hester would marry again,
and if so, when. Yet Katharine knew that they would all be shocked if
Hester wore mourning less than three years. It was her business to
mourn; it was theirs, in the interest of society, to see that she
mourned long and decently for a man whom they had all disliked.

Before long Mrs. Bright returned, softly as she had gone, shut the door
noiselessly behind her, and looked round the room as though she thought
that some fourth person might be present and listening. Then, with an
air of secrecy, she spoke to Katharine.

“My dear, she’ll see you if you’ll come upstairs.”

“Certainly,” answered Katharine. “I’ll go at once.”

“But you mustn’t be surprised by anything she does,” said Mrs. Bright,
anxiously. “She’ll want you to see him, I think. She’s looking very
quiet, but she’s very strange. Humour her, Katharine--humour her a
little.”

Katharine nodded, but said nothing.

“She’s waiting for you on the landing outside the studio,” added Mrs.
Bright. “I needn’t go up with you, need I? I’ve just been up all those
stairs.”

“Of course not,” Katharine answered.

As she went something oddly like fear got hold of her, and her heart
fluttered unexpectedly. She was conscious that she was pale as she
ascended to the top of the house. Probably, she thought, it was the idea
of seeing the dead man’s face that affected her unpleasantly. She nerved
herself to make an effort and went on, wondering that it should be so
strangely hard to go.

As she began to go up the last flight of stairs she was conscious that
Hester was standing at the top, waiting for her. She wished that she had
not offered to come. Then she looked up and met the deep eyes, and saw
the ghastly face turned towards her. Hester was excessively pale, and
even her lips were colourless. Her slight figure looked taller than
usual in the straight loose gown of black, and her hands, clasped
together upon the banister, had the emaciated, nervous look of some
hands in pictures by the early painters. Exhaustion, in some people,
shows itself in the hands before it appears in the face.

Katharine reached the top of the flight and stood still, looking at her,
wishing to speak but not finding words just then. They had parted
almost, if not quite, as enemies, on the previous day. Katharine went a
step nearer. Her face showed well enough the deep sympathy she felt, but
Hester did not exactly look at her face, but only into her eyes, with a
fixed stare that made the young girl feel uneasy. That stare alone would
have justified Mrs. Bright in saying that her daughter was behaving
strangely. The transparent hands unclasped one another, but they fell
straight to her sides. As Katharine extended her own, Hester drew back,
the stare became more fixed, the eyes opened more, till they were very
wide, the finely pencilled brows were raised haughtily, and the shadowy
figure seemed to grow taller. Then she spoke, slowly and distinctly, in
a voice that did not tremble.

“I wanted to see you. Come with me.”

She turned and opened the door of the studio, leading the way. Katharine
was startled by what she saw. The great room had been darkened as much
as possible by drawing all the thick shades, which had been made to keep
out the sun in summer, and a great number of candles were burning with a
dim, yellow light. The air was thick with the smoke of burning perfumes,
which rose in tall, straight, grey plumes, from two censers placed upon
the hearth before the huge chimney-piece. In the absolutely still
atmosphere the smoke rose to the height of a man before it broke and
opened, hanging then like draped grey curtains in the heavy air. The
strange, cool smell of burning myrrh predominated, but in spite of it
the drowsy, overpowering odour of frankincense reached Katharine’s
nostrils. She stood still and stared through the smoke.

In the middle of the room Crowdie lay dead, clothed in a long garment
of stuff that was soft and dark. The couch was covered with a silken
carpet which hung down to the floor. The pale light of death softened
and beautified the repulsive features, in their solemn calm, to a degree
which Katharine would not have believed possible, had she been capable
of thought just then. But she was taken by surprise; she was a little
frightened, and she was dazed by the glare of the many candles, and
dizzy with the sudden breathing of the perfume-laden air. She stood
still at a little distance from the couch and looked at the dead face,
stretching her head forward with a sort of timid curiosity, holding her
body back with the instinctive dread of death which the young feel in
spite of themselves.

Hester did not stand beside her. With slow steps, as though she were
moving with a solemn procession to the rhythm of a funeral march,
sweeping her long black gown noiselessly behind her, she passed to the
other side, and came up to the couch and stood over her husband’s body,
facing Katharine. In the shadowy smoke of the incense, with the flaring
light of the wax candles upon her, she was like a supernatural being.
She might have been the freed soul of the dead man, come back to look
once more at Katharine’s face.

“Come nearer to me,” she said, in deadly calm, without a tremor.

An older woman might not have obeyed the summons, and might have
realized that Hester Crowdie was to all intents and purposes mad, since
it could not be supposed that she had planned a tragic scene, with a
theatrical instinct nowhere at fault, even in a single detail. But there
was something really terrible and grand in it, as it struck Katharine;
and there was the grim reality of death lying there and vouching for the
widowed woman’s sincerity. To those not familiar with the dead, nothing
can seem like comedy in their silent presence. To those for whom death
has lost all horror, there is scarcely anything but comedy, anywhere.

Katharine obeyed and went nearer, but not as near as Hester herself.
Instinctively she held back her skirts, as though fearing even the
contact of the carpet on which Crowdie lay. Her right hand she still
carried in a scarf.

Hester’s fixed gaze met her again, and she was conscious that her own
eyes were uncertain. There was an irresistible something which drew them
to the dead man’s face. But when Hester spoke again the young girl
looked at her.

“Katharine Lauderdale, this is your doing, and this is what you have
done to me.”

The words came clearly, like those she had spoken before, monotonously
and distinctly, as though she had learned them by rote. Katharine
started at first, and opened her eyes wider, as though doubting whether
she were in her senses. But she found no word to say, though her lips
were parted.

“You have killed my husband. You have destroyed my life. I have brought
you here to see what you have done.”

Katharine did not start this time, but she drew back a little, with an
indescribable horror that was not fear.

“You must be mad,” she said, in a low voice, keeping her eyes on
Hester’s.

A strange, fantastic smile played upon the pale lips, and looked more
than unnatural in the yellow glare of the candles.

“I wish I were mad,” she said.

In the long silence which followed, Katharine glanced at the dead man’s
face. Its set, waxen smile was like Hester’s, and the girl felt a
creeping shudder in her shoulders. She bent her body a little.

“He cannot hurt you,” said Hester, holding her with inexorable eyes. “He
knows that you have killed him, but he cannot hurt you. If he could, he
would--for my sake. Come close to him and look at him.”

Katharine came forward again, more because she was brave and would not
even seem afraid, than for any other reason.

“My dear Hester,” she said, trying to speak naturally, but in a low
voice, “you’re beside yourself with grief. You don’t know what you’re
saying.”

“I know what I am saying,” answered the widowed woman, solemnly. “You
shall listen to all I have to say. Then you shall go, and I will never
see you again until you are dead. Then I will come and look at you, for
his sake. You tried to steal him from me while he was living. He is mine
now, to keep forever. You cannot get him. Look at him, for he is mine.
The last words he ever heard me speak were cruel, unkind words. Then he
fell. He did not speak afterwards. I gave him the morphia. I told you my
story once--but it was not the true story. It killed him. It was my hand
that killed him, through your soul, and your soul shall pay me. I am not
mad. You have done this to me. You know it now. You made me speak those
last words he heard.”

Katharine listened in silence--chilled with a sort of horror of which
she had never dreamt. There was an unnatural terror for her in the
woman’s deadly calm. There was no passion in the voice, no hatred, no
jealousy. It was as though she were possessed by an unseen power that
used her mouth to speak with, and controlled her, and against which she
could do nothing.

“Have you heard? Do you know now?” she asked after a pause.

Still Katharine did not speak. A new sensation of fear crept upon her.
She began to think that the dead man’s lips moved and that the quiet
lids trembled, and she could not take her eyes from the face.

“You have no heart,” said the voice. “You are the worst woman alive
to-day, anywhere in the whole world. You said you were my friend, and
you have done this thing to me. You have done it. No one else has done
it. It is all your fault. You pretended that you loved me like a sister,
and you came often, and he saw you. You are more beautiful than I am,
and he saw that you were. But he did not love you. Oh, no! He loved me.
You pleased his eyes as everything beautiful pleased him. He did not
know how bad you were. But I made him say that he hated you,--he said it
twice before he died,--and you had only pleased his eyes. But now they
are closed, and you cannot please him any more, because he cannot see
you.”

Katharine looked up slowly, realizing that the woman was insane. She had
never seen an insane person, and it had been hard to understand at
first. She did not know what to do. Her blood froze at her throat--she
could feel the cold at her collar. Still the monotonous voice went on
speaking, while the incense and the myrrh sent up their straight plumes
of smoke into the cloudy air, and the heavy perfumes grew more and more
oppressive and stupefying.

“You pleased him so much that he broke his promise to me, and it was
almost the only promise I had ever asked of him. He sang to you, because
you pleased him so much. I will not forgive you. I never will. But he is
dead now. See! I kiss him. He does not open his eyes as he used to do
when I kissed him softly.”

The dark figure bent down and Hester kissed the dead face, and again her
unnatural smile seemed to be reflected in it.

“He smiles,” she said. “But he cannot kiss me. And he cannot sing to you
any more. You made him do it once. He will not do it again. Once you
made him break his promise. He will not break it again. He will keep it.
The dead keep their promises, and he has promised to be mine always now.
I am not so sorry that he is dead, because he will be always mine. He
smiles, you see. He knows it. He does not want you, because you cannot
please him now that his eyes are shut so fast. He does not want you now.
Go away, Katharine Lauderdale. Walter does not want you.”

There was no rising intonation in the voice that spoke, no emphasis, no
authority. But the calm, unchanging tone was far more terrifying than
any passionate outburst could have been. Katharine shrank back, and then
stood still a moment.

“Why do you stay?” asked the voice. “We hate you. Go away. You see that
we want to be alone together. We do not want you.”

Katharine felt herself growing white with the horror of it all. She
bowed her head in silence and went to the door, turning a moment to look
back as her hand was on the spring. She felt as though she were in some
mysterious tomb of ancient days, where the living and the dead were
buried together--the rigid dead upon his couch, the living beside him,
flexible, mad, dangerous with the overstrain of an incredible,
inexpressible grief.

The dark figure stood erect with dropped and folded hands. The white
face stood out luminously pale against the grey smoke-clouds of the
incense and myrrh, the yellow flaming candles flickered still from the
draught of Katharine’s dress as she had passed and threw an uncertain,
moving light upon the motionless mask of the dead man.

“Leave us alone together. We want to be alone together. Go away and
never come back to us again.”

Katharine was going, but her terror suddenly overcame her, and she
opened the door, went out, and closed it behind her in a flash, gasping
for a breath of unscented air. She reeled as she came out, under the
clear daylight of the glass roof which covered the staircase, and she
steadied herself against the door-post, stupidly staring at the
tapestry on the opposite wall. She felt sick and faint, and for a moment
she knew that she could not get downstairs without falling. She felt
that she was full of the perfume-loaded air she had breathed, that it
clung to her like a blanket, and hindered her from drawing a full
breath. She raised her left arm to her face mechanically, and smelled
it. The stuff was full of the incense, and she threw her head back with
parted lips, to draw in freshness if she could.

She was so strong that she did not faint, but stood erect against the
door-post until she could trust herself to walk. She listened at the
door for a moment to hear whether the mad woman were still talking over
her dead husband, or whether, perhaps, the madness had suddenly yielded
to the merciful tide of tears. But there was no sound. They were alone
together, as Hester had said that they wished to be.

Katharine pressed her hand to her eyes with all her might, as though to
crush out the memory of what she had seen. Then she went forward at
last, and began to go down the stairs.

She heard a man’s footstep, swift, nervous and strong, coming up from
below, and as she reached the first landing she came face to face with
Paul Griggs. His weather-beaten face was so grey and drawn that she
should hardly have known him in a crowd, and the weary, dark eyes that
met hers had something in them which she could not understand. He stood
aside to let her pass, but would have said nothing had she not spoken.

“She’s alone with him, up there,” she said in a sort of scared whisper.
“She’s going mad--it’s dreadful.”

Griggs looked as though he would have gone on without answering, though
he did not actually make a step. His dark eyes were dull and glassy, and
his jaws were set, as though he were in great pain.

“Can’t you do something for her?” asked Katharine, hesitating.
“Shouldn’t we send for Doctor Routh? He might give her something.”

She made the suggestion vaguely, as women do. There is something
pathetic about their blind faith in medicine, though they may have seen
it fail a hundred times.

“If you like,” answered Griggs, in a far-away tone, as though he
scarcely knew what she was saying. “Send for him if you like. I don’t
care.”

Katharine stared at him in surprise. He was sometimes a little
absent-minded, but she could not understand his being so at that moment.
She laid her left hand upon his arm with a gesture half of appeal, half
of authority.

“Something must be done,” she said. “She’s really going mad. She
mustn’t be left alone with it any longer.”

“I don’t think she’ll go mad,” Griggs answered. “But I shall,” he added,
with an unnatural smile, which recalled Hester’s.

“You!” exclaimed Katharine, in a sudden astonishment which made her
forget everything else for an instant. “Why? I know you liked him--”

“Liked him!” repeated Paul Griggs, in a voice that was almost loud, and
the dull eyes flashed for a moment, and then became glassy again. “I
can’t talk now,” he said, rapidly. “Forgive me--I can’t stop!”

Without waiting for her to go down, he sprang up the stairs. Katharine
looked after him with wonder. A moment later she heard the door of the
studio open and shut quickly, and she was sure that she heard one word,
a name--Walter--spoken in the broken accent of a man’s despair.

Again she paused before she went downstairs, and hesitated, not as to
what she should do, but as to what she should think. At least, she felt
that her friend Griggs was not without heart, whatever the true ground
of his extraordinary emotion might be. She had stumbled upon one of
those mysteries which lie so near the dull surface of society around us,
and had seen a human soul at that moment of all others when it would not
have been seen. As she thought of it, she felt at the same moment the
instinct to tell no one, not even Ralston, of the few words she had
exchanged with Griggs on the stairs. The resolution formed itself in her
mind unintentionally, as a natural prompting of honour against the
betrayal of a secret accidentally learned. What the secret could be she
could not guess, and it was long before she knew, but she did not break
the promise which had formulated and pledged itself. Long afterwards,
when she learned the strange story of Griggs’ life, which no one had
ever suspected, she wondered that on that day he had not killed her with
his hands rather than be delayed the smallest fraction of an instant on
his way up those stairs. In his place, woman as she was, she would have
been less merciful, and she would not have been courteous at all.

But she knew nothing of the wanderer’s existence, save that he had of
late strayed into her own, and that he had seemed oddly attached to a
man who was almost universally disliked without any well-defined reason.
Her intuition told her that he had something to conceal, and her faith
in him, such as it was, led her to believe that it was something not
wrong, but sacred almost beyond anything imaginable.

She went quietly downstairs, and many things happened to her, good and
bad, before she saw the face of Paul Griggs again. She found her mother
and Mrs. Bright sitting side by side, and aunt Maggie was holding Mrs.
Lauderdale’s hand, and admiring her bonnet. A death which does not come
too near to them draws certain types of women together. As Katharine
entered the room and saw the two together, she wondered whether the
death of Walter Crowdie was to have the effect of reconciling the
Lauderdales and the Brights.

“Well, child, have you seen her?” asked Katharine’s mother, with a
considerable show of interest.




CHAPTER XXXV.


“People don’t often really go mad from grief,” said Mrs. Lauderdale, as
she and Katharine walked slowly homeward in the bright spring afternoon.
“I shouldn’t be surprised if Hester married again in a few years. Not
very soon, of course--but in time. She’s very young yet. She’ll be very
young still in five years--for a widow.”

“I don’t think she can ever get over it,” answered Katharine, rather
coldly, being displeased at her mother’s careless way of speaking.

“It’s a mistake to take things too hard,” said the elder woman. “And
it’s a great mistake to underrate time. A great many curious things can
happen to one in five years.”

Katharine was not in search of unbelief, nor of encouragement in not
believing that human nature could really feel. Her faith in it had been
terribly undermined during the past winter, and she had just been with
two persons, Hester Crowdie and Paul Griggs, whose behaviour had at
least tended to restore it. She did not wish the recuperative effort of
her charity towards mankind to be checked. So she did not argue the
point, but walked on in silence.

She had not recovered, and could not recover for many days, from the
impression produced upon her by the ghastly scene in the studio. Her
young vitality abhorred death, and its contrary and hostile principle,
and when she thought of what she had seen, she felt the same sickening,
shrinking horror which had led her to hold back her skirt from any
possible contact with the carpet on which Crowdie’s body had been lying.
She might have been willing to admit that her mother, who had seen
nothing, but had sat downstairs talking with the comfortable, fat and
refined aunt Maggie, was not called upon to feel what she herself felt
after going through such a strange experience. But since her mother felt
nothing, her mother could not understand; and if she could not
understand, it was better to walk on in silence and to make her hasten
her indolent, graceful steps.

In reality, Mrs. Lauderdale was much more preoccupied about the
possibilities of the second will turning out to be favourable to her
husband or the contrary, and her preoccupation was not at all sordid,
though it was by no means unselfish. She was anxious about him, in her
unobtrusive, calm way. He talked of money in his sleep, as she had told
Katharine, and he was growing nervous. She had even noticed once or
twice of late that his hand shook a little as he held the morning paper
after breakfast, during the ten minutes which he devoted to its perusal.
That was a bad sign, she thought, for a man who had been famous for his
good nerve, and who had been known all his life as an unerring shot. She
did not like to think what consequences a great disappointment might
have upon his temper, which had shown itself so frequently of late,
after nearly a quarter of a century of comparative quiescence. Nor was
it pleasant to contemplate the new means of economy which he would
certainly introduce into his household if by any evil chance he got no
share of the Lauderdale fortune. But that, she told herself, was
impossible, as indeed it seemed to be.

It was of no use to be in a hurry, she told Katharine, as they had at
least an hour to get rid of before the time at which Mr. Allen was to be
expected. The Ralstons and Hamilton Bright would only come a few minutes
earlier. Every one would understand how unpleasant it might be to be
shut up together in such suspense for half an hour before the truth
could be known--each hoping to get the other’s money, as Mrs. Lauderdale
observed with a little laugh that had hardly any cruelty in it. But, of
course, nobody would be late on such an occasion. There was no fear of
that. And she laughed again, and stepped gracefully aside on the
pavement to let a boy with a big bundle go by.

She had not been deceived in her calculations, for there was still
plenty of time to spare when they reached the house in Clinton Place.
Katharine disappeared to her room, glad to be alone at last. There was a
hushed expectation in the air of the house, which reminded her of the
place she had just left, but she herself felt not the smallest interest
in the will. So far as she was concerned, she was perfectly well
satisfied with the course taken by the law, independently of any will at
all.

The Ralstons and Hamilton Bright came almost at the same moment, though
not together, and Katharine had no chance of exchanging a word with John
out of hearing of the rest. They all met in the library. The old
philanthropist was there, and every one was secretly surprised to
discover what a very fine-looking old man he was in a perfectly new
frock coat with a great deal of silk in front. But his heavy, shapeless
shoes betrayed his lingering attachment to the little Italian shoemaker
in South Fifth Avenue, whose conscientiously durable works promised to
outlast old Alexander’s need for them.

Alexander Junior stood before the empty fireplace, coldly nervous. He
could not have sat still for five minutes just then. When he spoke of
Crowdie’s death to Hamilton Bright, and immediately afterwards of the
weather, his steel-trap mouth opened and closed mechanically, emitting
metallic sounds--it could not be called speaking--and his glittering
grey eyes went restlessly from the window to the door and back again,
without even resting on Bright’s face.

Bright himself was grave, manly, quiet, as he generally was. He was
eminently the man who could be reckoned with and counted upon. He would
make no attempt to conceal his disappointment if he were disappointed,
nor his satisfaction if he were pleased, but the expression of either
would be simple, quiet and manly, with few words, if any.

Mrs. Ralston watched the two as they stood side by side. From her
position on the sofa she could see Alexander Junior’s hands twitching
nervously behind him. But she was talking with Mrs. Lauderdale at the
same time. She made no pretence of being very sorry to hear of Crowdie’s
sudden death. She rarely saw him and she had never liked him. To her, he
was merely the husband of a very distant cousin--of a descendant of her
great-grandfather through a female branch. It was too much to expect
that she should be profoundly affected by what had happened. But her
dark, clearly cut features were grave, and there was a certain
expectancy in her look, which showed that she was not really indifferent
to the nature of the events momentarily expected. She admitted frankly
to herself that it would make an enormous difference in her future
happiness to be very rich instead of being almost poor, and she had told
her son so as they came to the house.

John was trying to talk to Katharine near the window, but he found it
impossible to shake off Alexander Senior, whose fondness for his
favourite granddaughter was proverbial in the family. The old gentleman
stood by, approvingly, and insisted upon leading the conversation which,
with old-fashioned grandfatherly wit--or what passed for wit in the
families of our grandfathers--he constantly directed upon the subject of
matrimony, with an elephantine sprightliness most irritating to John
Ralston, though Katharine bore it with indifferent serenity, and smiled
when the old man looked at her, her features growing grave again as soon
as he turned to John. She could not shake off the terrible impression
she had brought with her, and yet she longed to explain to John why she
felt and looked so sad. She, also, glanced often at the door. The
arrival of the family lawyer would put a stop to her grandfather’s
playful persecution of her, and give her a chance to say three words to
John without being overheard.

Ralston stood ready, knowing that she wished to speak to him alone, and
he paid little attention to Alexander Senior’s jokes. He glanced about
the room and said to himself that the members of the Lauderdale tribe
were a very good-looking set, from first to last. He was proud of his
family just then, for he had rarely seen so many of them assembled
together without the presence of any stranger, and he was most proud of
Katharine’s beauty. Pallor was becoming to her, for hers was fresh and
clear and youthful. It ruined her mother’s looks to be pale, especially
of late, since the imperceptible lines had been drawn into very fine but
clearly discernible wrinkles. Mrs. Lauderdale had told herself with
tears that they were really wrinkles, but she would have been sorry to
know that John, or any one else, called them by that name.

At last the lawyer came, and there was a dead silence as he entered--a
tall, lantern-jawed man, clean shaven, almost bald, with prominent
yellow teeth, over which his mobile lips fitted as though they had been
made of shrivelled pink indiarubber. He had very light blue eyes and
bushy brows that stood out in contrast to his bald scalp and beardless
face like a few shaggy firs that have survived the destruction of a
forest.

He spoke in an impressive manner, for he was deaf, emphasizing almost
every word in every sentence. He was a New Englander by birth, as keen
and provincial in New York as ever was a Scotchman in London.

Having been duly welcomed, and provided with a seat in the midst of the
assembled tribe, he leisurely produced a pair of gold-rimmed glasses
and a handkerchief, and proceeded to the operation of polishing the one
with the other. He was provokingly slow. His chair was placed so that he
sat with his back to the window, facing Mrs. Lauderdale and Mrs.
Ralston, who occupied the sofa on the right of the fireplace. The two
Alexanders and Bright completed the circle, while Katharine and John
placed themselves behind the lawyer. John could see over his shoulder.

Not a word was spoken while Mr. Allen made his careful preparations. It
could hardly be supposed that he had any traditional remnant of the
old-fashioned attorney’s vanity, which made him anxious to produce an
effect by taking as long as possible in settling himself to his work. He
was simply a leisurely man, who had been born before the days of hurry,
and was living to see hurry considered as an obsolete affectation, no
longer necessary, and no longer the fashion. There is haste in some
things, still, in New York, but not the haste that we of the generation
in middle age remember when we were young men. Mr. Allen, however, had
never been hasty; and he found himself fashionable in his old age, as he
had been in his youth, long before the civil war.

When his glasses were fairly pinching the lower part of his thin grey
nose, he thrust one bony hand into his breast-pocket, leaning forward as
he did so, and quietly scanning the faces of his audience, one after
the other. He was so very slow that John and Katharine looked at one
another and smiled. From his pocket he brought out a great bundle of
papers and letters, and calmly proceeded to look through them from the
beginning, in search of what he wanted. Of course, the big blue envelope
was the last of a number of big blue envelopes, and the last but one of
all the papers.

“This is it, I think,” said Mr. Allen, with dignity and caution.

The two elder women drew two short little breaths of expectation, sat
forward a little, and then thoughtfully smoothed their frocks over their
knees. Alexander Junior’s knuckles cracked audibly, as he silently
twined his fingers round one another, and pulled at them in his anxiety.
Hamilton Bright uncrossed his legs, and recrossed them in the opposite
way. Katharine sighed. She was tired of it all, before it had begun.

“Yes,” said Mr. Allen, with even more dignity, but with less caution in
making the assertion, “I believe this is it.”

“Thank the Lord!” exclaimed John Ralston from behind the lawyer, who was
deaf.

Mrs. Ralston smiled a little, and avoided her son’s eyes. Hamilton
Bright looked absolutely impassive.

“You all see what it is,” said Mr. Allen. “It is a large blue envelope,
gummed without a seal, marked ‘Will,’ in a handwriting which may be that
of the late Mr. Lauderdale, though I should not be prepared to swear to
it, and dated ‘March’ of this year. It is reasonable to suppose that it
contains a will made in that month, and therefore prior to the one of
which we have knowledge. Mr. Lauderdale”--he turned to Alexander
Senior--“and you, Mrs. Ralston--with your consent, I will open this
document in your presence.”

“By all means--open it,” said Alexander Junior, with evident impatience.

“Certainly, certainly, Mr. Allen,” said his father. “That’s what we
expect.”

Mrs. Ralston contented herself with nodding her assent, when the lawyer
looked at her. He searched for a penknife in his pocket, found it,
opened it, and with infinite care slit the envelope from end to end.
After carefully shutting the knife, and returning it to his pocket
again, he withdrew a thick, folded sheet of heavy foolscap. As he did
so, a smaller piece of paper, folded only once, fluttered to the ground
at his feet. It might have been a note of old Robert Lauderdale’s,
expressing some particular last wish of such a nature as not to have
found its proper place in a document of such importance as the will
itself. The eyes of every one being intent upon the latter, as Mr. Allen
opened it, no one paid any attention to the bit of paper.

Mr. Allen was old and formal, and he had no intention of bestowing a
preliminary glance at the contents of the paper before reading it. He
began at the beginning, for the first words proved it to be a will, and
nothing else. It began, as many American wills do, with the words, “In
the name of God. Amen.” Then followed the clause revoking all previous
wills, each and every one of them; and then the other, relating to the
payment of just debts and funeral expenses. Then Mr. Allen paused, and
drew breath.

The tension in the atmosphere of the room was high, at that moment of
supreme anxiety.

“ ‘It is my purpose,’ ” Mr. Allen read, “ ‘to so distribute the wealth
which has accumulated in my hands as to distribute it amongst those of
my fellow creatures who stand most directly in need of such help--’ ”

There was a general movement in the circle. Everybody started. Alexander
Junior’s hands dropped by his sides, and his steel-trap mouth relaxed
and opened.

“Go on!” he said, breathlessly.

Mr. Allen went on, shaking his head from time to time, as his only
expression of overwhelming stupefaction. It was by far the most
extraordinary will he had ever seen; but it was legally and properly
worded, with endlessly long, unpunctuated sentences, all of which tended
to elucidate the already sufficiently clear meaning. In half-a-dozen
words, it is sufficient to say that the will constituted the whole
fortune, without legacies, and without mention of heirs or relatives,
into a gigantic trust, to be managed, for the final extinction of
poverty in the city of New York, by a board of trustees, to exist in
perpetuity. Many conditions were imposed, and many possible cases
foreseen. There were elaborate rules for filling vacancies in the
trusteeship, and many other clauses necessary for the administration of
such a vast charitable foundation, all carefully thought out and clearly
stated. The perspiration stood upon the old lawyer’s astonished head, as
he continued to read.

Alexander Junior seemed to be absolutely paralyzed, and stared like a
man distracted, who sees nothing, with wide-open eyes. Even Mrs. Ralston
bent her dark brows, and bit her even lips, in disappointment. Hamilton
Bright bent down, leaning his elbows upon his knees, and looked at the
fourth page of the vast sheet of closely written foolscap.

“We’re a pack of fools!” he exclaimed, suddenly. “The will isn’t
signed.”

Alexander Junior uttered a loud exclamation, sprang to his feet, and
snatched the will from the lawyer’s hand so roughly as to brush the
gold-rimmed glasses from his thin nose, on which they had pinched their
unsteady hold, and they fell to the ground.

“Eh? What?” he asked, very much disturbed by such rude interruption.

Alexander had turned to the end, and had seen that it was a blank,
without signatures either of testator or witnesses.

“Thank God!” he exclaimed, fervently, as he dropped back into his chair.
“That almost killed me,” he added in a low voice, regardless of the
others.

But no one paid much attention to him. Hamilton Bright remained
impassive. Each of the others uttered an exclamation, or breathed a sigh
of relief. For some minutes afterwards there was a dead silence.

Mr. Allen was fumbling on the floor for his gold-rimmed glasses, still
very much confused. They had managed to get under the low chair in which
he sat, and which had a long fringe on it, reaching almost to the
ground, so that he took some time in finding them.

“Of course he would never have signed such a thing!” said Hamilton
Bright, with emphasis. “He had too much sense.”

“I should think so!” exclaimed Mrs. Lauderdale. “The only thing I can’t
understand is how it ever was kept and marked ‘Will.’ ”

“Uncle Robert once told me that he had often made sketches of wills
leaving all his money in trust to the poor,” said Katharine. “He never
meant to sign one, though. This must be one of them--of course--it can’t
be anything else!”

“His secretary probably put it away, supposing he wanted to keep it,”
said Ralston, from behind Mr. Allen. “Then he forgot all about it, and
so it turned up among the papers. It’s simple enough.”

“Oh, quite simple!” assented Alexander Junior, with a half-hysterical
laugh.

Mrs. Ralston was watching the lawyer as he felt for his glasses on the
carpet. He paused, wiped his brow--for it was a warm afternoon, and he
had been nervously excited himself in reading the document. Then he
continued his search.

“There’s a bit of paper there on the floor, beside your hand,” said Mrs.
Ralston. “I saw it drop when you opened the envelope. Perhaps it’s
something more important.”

Mr. Allen recovered his glasses at that moment, and with the other hand
took up the little folded sheet. With the utmost care and precision he
went through the same preparations for reading which had been
indispensable on the first occasion.

“Let us see, let us see,” he said. “This is something. ‘I hereby
certify,’--oh, an old marriage certificate of yours, Mrs. Ralston. John
Ralston and Katharine Lauderdale--married--dear me! I don’t understand!
This year, too! This is very strange.”

Again every one present started, but with very different expressions.
Hamilton Bright grew slowly red. There was a short pause. Then John
Ralston rose to his feet and bent over Mr. Allen’s shoulder.

“It’s our certificate,” he said, quietly. “Katharine’s and mine. We were
married last winter.”

And he took the paper from the hands of the wondering lawyer, and held
it in his own.

“Katharine!” cried Mrs. Lauderdale, when she had realized the meaning of
Ralston’s words.

“Katharine!” cried Alexander Junior, almost at the same moment.

At any other time some one of all those present might have smiled at the
difference in intonation between Mrs. Lauderdale’s cry of unmixed
astonishment, and her husband’s deprecatory but forgiving utterance of
his daughter’s name. Both conveyed, in widely differing ways, as much as
whole phrases could have told, namely, that Mrs. Lauderdale was
sincerely pleased, in spite of all her former opposition to the
marriage, and that her husband, while he would much rather have his
daughter married to Ralston secretly than not at all, felt that his
dignity and parental authority had been outraged, and that he would be
glad to have an apology, if any were to be had, of which condition his
voice also expressed a doubt.

“I’ll tell you all about it, from the beginning,” said John Ralston.

He told the story in as few words as he could, omitting, as he had done
in telling his mother, to give Katharine her full share of
responsibility. She bent far forward in her seat while he was speaking,
and leaned upon the back of Mr. Allen’s chair, never taking her eyes
from her husband’s face. More than once her eyes brightened with a sort
of affectionate indignation, and her lips parted as though she would
speak. But she did not interrupt him. When he had finished he stood
still in his place, looking at his father-in-law, and still holding the
certificate of his marriage in his hand.

Alexander Junior would have found it hard to be angry just at that
moment. He had his desire. In the course of five minutes he had been
cast down from a position of enormous wealth and power, since there
could be no question but that the half of the great estate would really
be in his control if there were no will; he had been plunged into such a
depth of despair as only the real miser can understand when his hundreds
or his millions, as the case may be, are swept out of sight and out of
reach by a breath; and he had been restored to the pinnacle of happiness
again, almost before there had been time to make his suffering seem more
than the passing vision of a hideous dream. Moreover, the marriage being
already accomplished and a matter of fact, made it a positive certainty
that all that part of the fortune which belonged to the Ralstons would
return to his own grandchildren. His outraged sense of parental
importance was virtuously, but silently, indignant, and he admitted
that, on the whole, the causes of satisfaction outnumbered any reasons
there might be for displeasure. Something, however, must be done to
propitiate the prejudices of the world, which had much force with him.

“I think we’d better all go into the country as soon as possible,” he
observed, thinking aloud.

But no one heard him, for Katharine had risen and come forward and stood
beside her husband, slipping her arm through his, and invisibly pressing
him to her--unconsciously, too, perhaps--whenever she wished to
emphasize a word in what she said.

“I want to say something,” she began, raising her voice. “It’s all my
fault, you know. I did it. I persuaded Jack one evening, here in this
very room--and it was awfully hard to persuade him, I assure you! He
didn’t like it in the least. He said it wasn’t a perfectly fair and
honest thing to do. But I made him see it differently. I’m not sure that
I was right. You see, we should have been married, anyway, as it’s
turned out, because papa’s been so nice about it in the end. That’s all
I wanted to say.”

There was probably no malice in her diplomatic allusion to her father.
The only person who smiled at it was Mrs. Ralston.

“Except,” added Katharine, by an afterthought, “that the reason why we
did it was because we wanted to be sure of getting each other in the
end.”

“Well,” said Hamilton Bright, who was very red, “I suppose the next
thing to do is to congratulate you, isn’t it? Here goes. Jack, I’m sorry
I slated secret marriages the other day. You see, one doesn’t always
know.”

“No,” observed Mrs. Lauderdale, who had her arms around her daughter’s
neck. “One doesn’t--as Ham says.”

“That’s all right, Ham,” said John Ralston. “I didn’t mind a bit.”

But Hamilton Bright minded very much, in his quiet way, for he had
played a losing game of late, and the same hour had deprived him of all
hope of marrying Katharine, faint as it had been since she had so
definitely refused him, and of all prospect of ever getting a share of
the Lauderdale fortune. But he was a very brave man, and better able
than most of those present to bear such misfortunes as fell to his lot.
As for marrying, he put it out of his thoughts; and so far as fortune
was concerned, he was prosperous and successful in all that he undertook
to do himself, unaided, which is, after all, the most satisfactory
success a man can have in the long run. The right to say ‘I did it
alone’ compensates for many fancied and real wrongs. And that was
something which Hamilton Bright had very often been able to say with
truth. But his love for Katharine Lauderdale had been honest, enduring
and generally silent. Never had he spoken to her of love until he had
fancied that his friend John Ralston had no intention, nor she, either,
of anything serious.

It was with the consent and approval of all her family that Katharine
entered upon her married life at last, after having been secretly and in
name the wedded wife of John Ralston for more than five months. The
world thought it not extraordinary that there should be no public
ceremony, considering the recent decease of Robert Lauderdale and the
shockingly sudden death of Walter Crowdie. The Lauderdales, said the
world, had shown good taste, for many reasons, in having a private
wedding. Having always lived quietly, it would have been unbecoming in
them to invite society to a marriage of royal splendour, when he who had
left them their wealth had not been dead two months. On the other hand,
the union of forty millions with twenty could hardly have been decently
accomplished by means of two carriages from the livery stable and a man
from the greengrocer’s. The world, therefore, said that the Lauderdales
and the Ralstons had done perfectly right, a fact which pleased some
members of the tribe and was indifferent to others. The only
connections who were heard to complain at all were the three Miss
Miners, whose old-maidenly souls delighted in weddings and found
refreshment in funerals.

And the only person whom Katharine missed, and cared to miss, amongst
all those who congratulated her was Paul Griggs. She did not see him,
after they had met on the stairs of the house in Lafayette Place, for a
long time. During the summer which followed the announcement of her
marriage, she heard that he was in the East again--a vague term applied
to Cairo, Constantinople and Calcutta. At all events, he was not in New
York, but had taken his weary eyes and weather-beaten face to some
remote region of the earth, and gave no further sign of life for some
time, though a book which he had written before Crowdie’s death appeared
soon after his departure. Katharine received one letter from him during
the summer--a rather formal letter of congratulation upon her marriage,
and bearing a postmark in Cyrillic characters, though the stamp was not
Russian, but one she had never seen.

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Here ends an act of Katharine’s life-comedy, and the chronicler leaves
her with her beauty, her virtues and her imperfections to the judgment
of that one reader, if perchance there be even one, who has had the
patience to follow her so far, with little entertainment and no
advantage to himself. And to that one reader--an ideal creation of the
chronicler’s mind, having no foundation in his experience of
humanity--the said chronicler makes apology for all that has been amiss
in the telling of the events recorded, conscious that a better man could
have done it better, and that better men are plentiful, but stout in
asserting that the events were not, in themselves and in reality,
without interest, however poorly they have been narrated.

Moral, there is none, nor purpose, save to please; and if any one be
pleased, the writer has his reward. But besides moral and purpose in
things done with ink and paper, there is consequence to be considered,
or at least to be taken into account. In real life we take more thought
of that than of anything else; for, consciously or unconsciously, man
hardly performs any action, however insignificant, without
intention--and intention is the hope of consequence.

All that happened to Katharine Lauderdale, and all that she caused to
happen by her own will, had an effect upon her existence afterwards. She
was entering upon married life with a much more varied experience than
most young women of her age. She had been brought into direct and close
relation with people influenced by some of the strongest passions that
can rouse the heart. She had been hated by those who had loved her, and
for little or no fault of hers. She had seen envy standing in the high
place of a mother’s love, and she had seen the friendship of her
girlhood destroyed by unreasoning jealousy. Above all, she had known the
base hardness and the revolting cruelty which the love of money could
implant in an otherwise upright nature. The persons with whom she had to
do were not of the kind to commit crimes, but in her view there was
something worse, if possible, than crime in some of the things they had
done.

So much for the evil by which she had passed. For the good, she had
love, good love, pure love, honest love--the sort of love that may last
a lifetime. And if love can weather life it need not fear the whirlpool
of death, nor the quicksands of the uncertain shore beyond. It is life
that kills love--not death.

Therefore, as the chronicler closes his book and offers it to his single
long-suffering reader, he says that more remains to be told of Katharine
and of the men and women among whom she lived; namely, the consequences
of her girlhood in her married life.

                  THE END.

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KATHARINE LAUDERDALE.

By F. MARION CRAWFORD,

AUTHOR OF “SARACINESCA,” “PIETRO GHISLERI,” ETC.

WITH ILLUSTRATIONS.

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The first of a series of novels dealing with New York life.

“_Katharine Lauderdale_ is essentially a dramatic novel, possessing the
unity of time and place and of action.... It is a love story, pure and
simple, with no straining after the moral that Mr. Crawford so
denounces.... _Katharine Lauderdale_ is a thoroughly artistic novel. The
characters are boldly drawn; even those of minor importance are vivid
and real.”--_Louisville Evening Post._

“While it is a love story, it is much more. It is an accurate picture of
certain circles of New York society to-day, and in the analyses of
character and motive Mr. Crawford has done nothing better than this book
gives us.... Mr. Crawford is always happy in his sense of locality, and
the familiar scenes of Washington Park, Clinton Place, and Lafayette
Place are brought distinctly before the reader.”--_Living Church._

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“Mr. Crawford at his best is a great novelist, and in _Katharine
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“A most admirable novel, excellent in style, flashing with humor, and
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“It is the first time, we think, in American fiction that any such
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“_Katharine Lauderdale_ is a tale of New York, and is up to the highest
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best. None of his works, with the exception of Mr. Isaacs, show so
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SARACINESCA.

“The work has two distinct merits, either of which would serve to make
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SANT’ ILARIO.

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analysis, and absorbing in interest.”--_New York Tribune._

DON ORSINO.

A Sequel to _SARACINESCA_ and _SANT’ ILARIO_.

“Perhaps the cleverest novel of the year.... There is not a dull
paragraph in the book, and the reader may be assured that once begun,
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PIETRO CHISLERI.

“The imaginative richness, the marvellous ingenuity of plot, the power
and subtlety of the portrayal of character, the charm of the romantic
environment,--the entire atmosphere, indeed,--rank this novel at once
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A TALE OF A LONELY PARISH.

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MR. ISAACS.

A Tale of Modern India.

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rather romance, that has been given to the world for a very long
time.”--_The American._

DR. CLAUDIUS.

A True Story.

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exceedingly improbable and romantic one, is told with much skill; the
characters are strongly marked without any suspicion of caricature, and
the author’s ideas on social and political subjects are often brilliant
and always striking. It is no exaggeration to say that there is not a
dull page in the book, which is peculiarly adapted for the recreation of
student or thinker.”--_Living Church._

TO LEEWARD.

“A story of remarkable power.”--_The Review of Reviews._

“The four characters with whose fortunes this novel deals, are, perhaps,
the most brilliantly executed portraits in the whole of Mr. Crawford’s
long picture gallery, while for subtle insight into the springs of human
passion and for swift dramatic action none of the novels surpasses this
one.”--_The News and Courier._

THE THREE FATES.

“Mr. Crawford has manifestly brought his best qualities as a student of
human nature and his finest resources as a master of an original and
picturesque style to bear upon this story. Taken for all in all it is
one of the most pleasing of all his productions in fiction, and it
affords a view of certain phases of American, or perhaps we should say
of New York, life that have not hitherto been treated with anything like
the same adequacy and felicity.”--_Boston Beacon._

A CIGARETTE-MAKER’S ROMANCE.

“The interest is unflagging throughout. Never has Mr. Crawford done more
brilliant realistic work than here. But his realism is only the case and
cover for those intense feelings which, placed under no matter what
humble conditions, produce the most dramatic and the most tragic
situations.... This is a secret of genius, to take the most coarse and
common material, the meanest surroundings, the most sordid material
prospects, and out of the vehement passions which sometimes dominate all
human beings to build up with these poor elements, scenes, and passages,
the dramatic and emotional power of which at once enforce attention and
awaken the profoundest interest.”--_New York Tribune._

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THE WITCH OF PRAGUE.

A Fantastic Tale.

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GREIFENSTEIN.

“ ...Another notable contribution to the literature of the day. It
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on a stage could possibly do.”--_The New York Times._

A ROMAN SINGER.

“One of the earliest and best works of this famous novelist.... None but
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KHALED.

A Story of Arabia.

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and highly finished example of the story-teller’s art.... That it is
beautifully written and holds the interest of the reader, fanciful as it
all is, to the very end, none who know the depth and artistic finish of
Mr. Crawford’s work need be told.”--_The Chicago Times._

CHILDREN OF THE KING.

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Crawford has produced. The picturesque setting, Calabria and its
surroundings, the beautiful Sorrento and the Gulf of Salermo, with the
bewitching accessories that climate, sea, and sky afford, give Mr.
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“We have repeatedly had occasion to say that Mr. Crawford possesses in
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proportion is just, and his narrative flows along with ease and
perspicuity. It is as if it could not have been written otherwise, so
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Typographical errors corrected by the etext transcriber:

Her mother had been Margarate Lauderdale=> Her mother had been Margaret
Lauderdale {pg 21}

clap you in jug=> clap you in the jug {pg 53}






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