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THE BRIGHT MESSENGER




    OTHER WORKS BY
    ALGERNON BLACKWOOD

    JULIUS LeVALLON
    THE WAVE: An Egyptian Aftermath
    TEN MINUTE STORIES
    DAY AND NIGHT STORIES
    THE PROMISE OF AIR
    THE GARDEN OF SURVIVAL
    THE LISTENER and Other Stories
    THE EMPTY HOUSE and Other Stories
    THE LOST VALLEY and Other Stories
    JOHN SILENCE: Physician Extraordinary

    _With Violet Pearn_
    KARMA: A Reincarnation Play

    _With Wilfred Wilson_
    THE WOLVES OF GOD and other Fey Stories

    E. P. DUTTON & COMPANY




    THE BRIGHT MESSENGER
    BY
    ALGERNON BLACKWOOD

    AUTHOR OF
    "JULIUS LeVALLON," "THE WOLVES OF GOD," ETC.

    NEW YORK
    E. P. DUTTON & COMPANY
    681 FIFTH AVENUE




    Copyright 1922, by
    E. P. DUTTON & COMPANY

    _All Rights Reserved_

    _Printed in the United States of America_




To the Unstable




THE BRIGHT MESSENGER

CHAPTER I


Edward Fillery, so far as may be possible to a man of normal passions
and emotions, took a detached view of life and human nature. At the age
of thirty-eight he still remained a spectator, a searching, critical,
analytical, yet chiefly, perhaps, a sympathetic spectator, before the
great performance whose stage is the planet and whose performers and
auditorium are humanity.

Knowing himself outcast, an unwelcome deadhead at the play, he had yet
felt no bitterness against the parents whose fierce illicit passion had
deprived him of an honourable seat. The first shock of resentment over,
he had faced the situation with a tolerance which showed an unusual
charity, an exceptional understanding, in one so young.

He was twenty when he learned the truth about himself. And it was his
wondering analysis as to why two loving humans could be so careless of
their offspring's welfare, when the rest of Nature took such pains in
the matter, that first betrayed, perhaps, his natural aptitude. He had
the innate gift of seeing things as they were, undisturbed by personal
emotion, while yet asking himself with scientific accuracy why and how
they came to be so. These were invaluable qualities in the line of
knowledge and research he chose for himself as psychologist and doctor.
The terms are somewhat loose. His longing was to probe the motives of
conduct in the first place, and, in the second, to correct the results
of wrong conduct by removing faulty motives. Psychiatrist and healer,
therefore, were his more accurate titles; psychiatrist and healer, in
due course, he became.

His father, an engineer of ability and enterprise, prospecting in the
remoter parts of the Caucasus for copper, and making a comfortable
fortune in so doing, was carried off his feet suddenly by the beauty of
a Khaketian peasant girl, daughter of a shepherd in these lonely and
majestic mountains, whose intolerable grandeur may well intoxicate a
man to madness. A dangerous and disgraceful episode it seems to have
been between John Fillery, hitherto of steady moral fibre, and this
strange, lovely pagan girl, whose savage father hunted the pair of them
high and low for weeks before they finally eluded him in the azalea
valleys beyond Artvine.

Great passion, possibly great love, born of this enchanted land whose
peaks touch heaven, while their lower turfy slopes are carpeted with
lilies, azaleas, rhododendrons, contributed to the birth of Edward,
who first saw the light in a secret chamber of a dirty Tiflis house,
above the Koura torrent. That same night, when the sun dipped beneath
the Black Sea waters two hundred miles to the westward, his mother had
looked for the last time upon her northern lover and her wild Caucasian
mountains.

Edward, however, persisted, visible emblem of a few weeks' primal
passion in a primal land. Intense desire, born in this remote
wilderness of amazing loveliness, lent him, perhaps, a strain of
illicit, almost unearthly yearning, a secret nostalgia for some lost
vale of beauty that held fiercer sunshine, mightier winds and fairer
flowers than those he knew in this world.

At the age of four he was brought to England; his Russian memories
faded, though not the birthright of his primitive blood. Settling in
London, his father increased his fortune as consulting engineer, but
did not marry. To the short vehement episode he had given of his very
best; he remained true to his gorgeous memory and his sin; the cream
of his life, its essence and its perfume, had been spent in those wild
wind-swept azalea valleys beyond Artvine. The azalea honey was in his
blood, the scent of the lilies in his brain; he still heard the Koura
and Rion foaming down towards ancient Colchis. Edward embodied for him
the spirit of these sweet, passionate memories. He loved the boy, he
cherished and he spoilt him.

But Edward had stuff in him that rendered spoiling harmless. A
vigorous, independent youngster, he showed firmness and character
as a lad. To the delight of his father he knew his own mind early,
reading and studying on his own account, possessed at the same time
by a vehement love of nature and outdoor life that was far more than
the average English boy's inclination to open air and sport. There lay
some primal quality in his blood that was of ancient origin and leaned
towards wildness. There seemed almost, at the same time, a faunish
strain that turned away from life.

As a tiny little fellow he had that strange touch of creative
imagination other children have also known--an invisible playmate. It
had no name, as it, apparently, had no sex. The boy's father could
trace it directly to no fairy tale read or heard; its origin in the
child's mind remained a mystery. But its characteristics were unusual,
even for such fanciful imaginings: too full-fledged to have been
created gradually by the boy's loneliness, it seemed half goblin and
half Nature-spirit; it replaced, at any rate, the little brothers and
sisters who were not there, and the father, led by his conscience,
possibly, to divine or half divine its origin, met the pretence with
sympathetic encouragement.

It came usually with the wind, moreover, and went with the wind, and
wind accordingly excited the child. "Listen! Father!" he would exclaim
when no air was moving anywhere and the day was still as death. Then:
"Plop! So there you are!" as though it had dropped through empty space
and landed at his feet. "It came from a tremenjus height," the child
explained. "The wind's up _there_, you see, to-day." Which struck the
parent's mind as odd, because it proved later true. An upper wind, far
in the higher strata of air, came down an hour or so afterwards and
blew into a storm.

Fire and flowers, too, were connected with this invisible playmate.
"_He'll_ make it burn, father," the child said convincingly, when the
chimney smoked and the coals refused to catch, and then became very
busy with his friend in the grate and about the hearth, just as though
he helped and superintended what was being invisibly accomplished.
"It's burning better, anyhow," agreed the father, astonished in spite
of himself as the coals began to glow and spurt their gassy flames.
"Well done; I am very much obliged to you and your little friend."

"But it's the only thing he can do. He likes it. It's his work really,
don't you see--keeping up the heat in things."

"Oh, it's his natural job, is it? I see, yes. But my thanks to him, all
the same."

"Thank you very much," said grave Edward, aged five, addressing his
tiny friend among the fire-irons. "I'm much mobliged to you."

Edward was a bit older when the flower incident took place--with the
geranium that no amount of care and coaxing seemed able to keep alive.
It had been dying slowly for some days, when Edward announced that he
saw its "inside" flitting about the plant, but unable to get back into
it. "It's got out, you see, and can't get back into its body again, so
it's dying."

"Well, what in the world are we to do about it?" asked his father.

"I'll ask," was the solemn reply. "Now I know!" he cried, delighted,
after asking his question of the empty air and listening for the
answer. "Of course. Now I see. Look, father, there it is--its spirit!"
He stood beside the flower and pointed to the earth in the pot.

"Dear me, yes! Where d'you see it? I--don't see it quite."

"He says I can pick it up and put it back and then the flower will
live." The child put out a hand as though picking up something that
moved quickly about the stem.

"What's it look like?" asked his father quickly.

"Oh, sort of trinangles and things with lines and corners," was the
reply, making a gesture as though he caught it and popped it back
into the red drooping blossoms. "There you are! Now you're alive
again. Thank you very much, please"--this last remark to the invisible
playmate who was superintending.

"A sort of geometrical figure, was it?" inquired the father next day,
when, to his surprise, he found the geranium blooming in full health
and beauty once again. "That's what you saw, eh?"

"It was its spirit, and it was shiny red, like fire," the child
replied. "It's heat. Without these things there'd be no flowers at all."

"Who makes everything grow?" he asked suddenly, a moment later.

"You mean _what_ makes them grow."

"Who," he repeated with emphasis. "Who builds the bodies up and looks
after them?"

"Ah! the structure, you mean, the form?"

Edward nodded. His father had the feeling he was not being asked for
information, but was being cross-examined. A faint pressure, as of
uneasiness, touched him.

"They develop automatically--that means naturally, under the laws of
nature," he replied.

"And the laws--who keeps them working properly?"

The father, with a mental gulp, replied that God did.

"A beetle's body, for instance, or a daisy's or an elephant's?"
persisted the child undeceived by the theological evasion. "Or mine, or
a mountain's----?"

John Fillery racked his brain for an answer, while Edward continued his
list to include sea-anemones, frost-patterns, fire, wind, moon, sun
and stars. All these forms to him were bodies apparently.

"I know!" he exclaimed suddenly with intense conviction, clapping his
hands together and standing on his toes.

"Do you, indeed! Then you know more than the rest of us."

"_They do_, of course," came the positive announcement. "The other
kind! It's their work. Yours, for instance"--he turned to his playmate,
but so naturally and convincingly that a chill ran down his father's
spine as he watched--"is fire, isn't it? You showed me once. And water
stops you, but wind helps you ..." and he continued long after his
father had left the room.

With advancing years, however, Edward either forgot his playmate or
kept its activities to himself. He no longer referred to it, at any
rate. His energies demanded a bigger field; he roamed the fields and
woods, climbed the hills, stayed out all night to see the sunrise, made
fires even when fires were not exactly needed, and hunted with Red
Indians and with what he called "Windy-Fire people" everywhere. He was
never in the house. He ran wild. Great open spaces, trees and flowers
were what he liked. The sea, on the other hand, alarmed him. Only wind
and fire comforted him and made him happy and full of life. He was a
playmate of wind and fire. Water, in large quantities at any rate, was
inimical.

With concealed approval, masking a deep love fulfilled yet incomplete,
his father watched the growth of this fiercer strain that mere covert
shooting could not satisfy, nor ordinary sporting holidays appease.

"England's too small for you, Edward, isn't it?" he asked once
tentatively, when the boy was about fifteen.

"The English people, you mean, father?"

"You find them dull, don't you? And the island a bit cramped--eh?"

Edward waited without replying. He did not quite understand what his
indulgent father intended, or was leading up to.

"You'd like to travel and see things and people for yourself, I mean?"

He watched the boy without, as he thought, the latter noticing. The
answer pleased but puzzled him.

"We're all much the same, aren't we?" said Edward.

"Well--with differences--yes, we are. But still----"

"It's only the same over and over again, isn't it?" Then, while his
father was thinking of this reply, and of what he should say to it, the
boy asked suddenly with arresting intensity:

"Are we the only people--the only sort of beings, I mean? Just men
and women like us all over the world? No others of any sort--bigger,
for instance, or--more wild and wonderful?" Then he added, a thrust
of strange yearning in his face and eyes: "More beautiful?" He almost
whispered the last words.

His father winced. He divined the origin of that strange inquiry.
Upon those immense and lonely mountains, distant in space and time
for him, imagination, rich and pagan, ran, he well knew, to vast and
mighty beings, superior to human, benignant and maleficent, akin to
the stimulating and exhilarating conception of the gods, and certainly
non-human.

"Nothing, Edward, that we know of. Why should there be?"

"Oh, I don't know, dad. I just wondered--sometimes. But, as you say,
we've not a scrap of evidence, of course."

"Not a scrap," agreed his father. "Poetic legends ain't evidence."

The mind ruled the heart in Edward; he had his father's brains, at any
rate; and all his powers and longings focused in a single line that
indicated plainly what his career should be. The Public Schools could
help him little; he went to Edinburgh to study medicine; he passed
eventually with all possible honours; and the day he brought home the
news his father, dying, told him the secret of his illegitimate birth.




CHAPTER II


The subsequent twenty years or so may be summarized.

Alone in the world, of a loving, passionate nature, he deliberately set
all thought of marriage on one side as an impossibility, and directed
his entire energy into the acquirement of knowledge; reading, studying,
experimenting far outside the circle of the ordinary medical man. The
attitude of detachment he had adopted became a habit. He believed it
was now his nature.

The more he learned of human frailty and human faculties, the greater
became the charity he felt towards his fellow-kind. In his own being,
it seemed, lay something big, sweet, simple, a generosity that longed
to share with others, a tolerance more ready to acquit than to condemn,
above all, a great gift of understanding sympathy that, doubtless, was
the explanation of his singular insight. Rarely he found it in him to
blame; forgiveness, based upon the increasing extent of his experience,
seemed his natural view of human mistakes and human infirmities. His
one desire, his one hope, was to serve the Race.

Yet he himself remained aloof. He watched the Play but took no part in
it. This forgiveness, too, began at home. His grievance had not soured
or dejected him, his father's error presenting itself as a problem to
be pondered over, rather than a sin to blame. Some day, he promised
himself, he would go and see with his own eyes the Khaketian tribe
whence his blood was partially derived, whence his un-English yearnings
for a wilder scale of personal freedom amid an unstained, majestic
Nature were first stolen. The inherited picture of a Caucasian vale of
loveliness and liberty lay, indeed, very deep in his nature, emerging
always like a symbol when he was profoundly moved. At any crisis in his
life it rose beckoning, seductive, haunting beyond words.... Curious,
ill-defined emotions with it, that drove him towards another standard,
another state, to something, at any rate, he could neither name nor
visualize, yet that seemed to dwarf the only life he knew. About it
was a touch of strange unearthly radiance that dimmed existence as he
knew it. The shine went out of it. There was involved in this symbolic
"Valley" something wholly new both in colour, sound and outline, yet
that remained obstinately outside definition.

First, however, he must work, develop himself, and broaden, deepen,
extend in every possible way the knowledge of his kind that seemed his
only love.

He began in a very practical way, setting up his plate in a mean
quarter of the great metropolis, healing, helping, learning with his
heart as well as with his brain, observing life at closest quarters
from its beginning to its close, his sympathies becoming enriched the
more he saw, and his mind groping its way towards clearer insight the
more he read, thought, studied. His wealth made him independent; his
tastes were simple; his wants few. He observed the great Play from the
Pit and Gallery, from the Wings, from Behind the Scenes as well.

Moving then, into the Stalls, into a wealthier neighbourhood, that
is, he repeated the experience among another class, finding, however,
little difference except in the greater artificiality of his types,
the larger proportion of mental and nervous ailments, of hysteria,
delusion, imaginary troubles, and the like. The infirmities due to
idleness, enflamed vanity and luxury offered a new field, though to him
a less attractive one. The farther from simplicity, from the raw facts
of living, the more complicated, yet the more trivial, the resulting
disabilities. These, however, were quite as real as those, and harder,
indeed, to cure. Idle imagination, fostered by opportunity and means,
yet forced by conventionality to wear infinite disguises, brought a
strange, if far from a noble, crop of disorders into his ken. Yet he
accepted them for serious treatment, whatever his private opinion may
have been, while his patience, tact and sympathy, backed by his insight
and great knowledge, brought him quick success. He was soon in a fair
way to become a fashionable doctor.

But the field, he found, was restricted somewhat. His quest was
knowledge, not fame or money. He chose his cases where he could,
though actually refusing nothing. He specialized more and more with
afflictions of a mental kind. He was immensely successful in restoring
proportion out of disorder. He revealed people to themselves. He
taught them to recover lost hope and confidence. He used little
medicine, but stimulated the will towards a revival of fading vitality.
Auto-suggestion, rather than suggestion or hypnotism, was his method.
He healed. He began to be talked about.

Then, suddenly, his house was sold, his plate was taken down, he
vanished.

Human beings object to sudden changes whose secret they have not been
told and cannot easily guess; his abrupt disappearance caused talk and
rumours, led, of course, by those, chiefly disappointed women, who
had most reason to be grateful for past services. But, if the words
charlatan and quack were whispered, he did not hear them; he had taken
the post of assistant in a lunatic asylum in a northern town, because
the work promised him increase of knowledge and experience in his own
particular field. The talk he left behind him mattered as little as the
small pay attached to the humble duties he had accepted.

London forgot him, but he did not forget what London had taught him.

A new field opened, and in less than two years, opportunity, combined
with his undoubted qualifications, saw him Head of an establishment
where he could observe at first hand the facts and phenomena that
interested him most. Humane treatment, backed by profound insight into
the derangements of the poor human creatures under his charge, brought
the place into a fame it had never known before. He spent five years
there in profound study and experiment; he achieved new results and
published them. His _Experimental Psychology_ caused a sensation. His
name was known. He was an Authority.

At this time he was well past thirty, a tall, dark,
distinguished-looking man, of appearance grave and even sombre;
imposing, too, with his quiet, piercing eyes, but sombre only until the
smile lit up his somewhat rugged face. It was a face that nobody could
lie to, but to that smile the suffering heart might tell its inmost
secrets with confidence, hope, trust, and without reserve.

There followed several years abroad, in Paris, Rome, St. Petersburg,
Moscow; Vienna and Zurich he also visited to test there certain lines
of research and to meet personally their originators.

This period was partly a holiday, partly an opportunity to know at
first hand the leaders in mental therapeutics, psychology and the
rest, and also that he might find time to digest and arrange his
own accumulation of knowledge with a view, later, to undertaking
the life-work to which his previous experience was but preliminary.
Fame had come to him unsought; his published works alone ensured his
going down to posterity as a careful but daring and original judge
of the human species and its possibilities. It was the supernormal
rather than the merely abnormal powers that attracted him. In the
subconscious, as, equally, in the superconscious, his deep experience
taught him, lay amazing powers of both moral and physical healing,
powers as yet but little understood, powers as limitless as they seemed
incredible, as mysterious in their operation as they were simple in
their accessibility. And auto-suggestion was the means of using them.
The great men whom he visited welcomed him with open arms, added to
his data, widened yet further his mental outlook. Sought by high and
low in many countries and in strangest cases, his experience grew and
multiplied, his assortment of unusual knowledge was far-reaching; till
he stood finally in wonder and amazement before the human being and its
unrealized powers, and his optimism concerning the future progress of
the race became more justified with every added fact.

Yet, perhaps, his greatest achievement was the study of himself; it was
probably to this deep, intimate and honest research into his own being
that his success in helping others was primarily due. For in himself,
though mastered and co-ordinated by his steady will, rendered harmless
by his saving sense of humour and (as he believed) by the absence of
any harboured grievance against others--in his very own being lay all
those potential elements of disorder, those loose unravelled threads
of alien impulse and suppressed desire, which can make for dangerous
disintegration, and thus produce the disturbing results classed
generally under alienation and neurosis.

The incongruous elements in him were the gift of nature; γνῶθι σεαυτόν
was the saving attitude he brought to that gift, redeeming it. This
phrase, borrowed, he remembered with a smile, for the portal of the
ancient Mysteries, remained his watchword. He was able to thank the
fierce illicit love that furnished his body and his mental make-up
for a richer field of first-hand study than years of practice among
others could have supplied. He belonged by temperament to the unstable.
But--he was aware of it. He realized the two beings in him: the
reasoning, scientific man, and the speculative dreamer, visionary,
poet. The latter wondered, dreamed among a totally different set of
values far below and out of sight. This deeper portion of himself was
forever beating up for recognition, clamouring to be used, yet with
the strange shyness that reminded him of a loving woman who cannot be
certain her passion is returned. It hinted, threatened, wept and even
sulked. It rose like a flame, bringing its own light and wind, blessed
his whole being with some divine assurance, and then, because not
instantly accepted, it retired, leaving him empty, his mind coloured
with unearthly yearnings, with poignant regrets, yet perfumed as though
the fairness of Spring herself had lit upon his heart and kissed it
into blossom on her passage north. It presented its amazing pictures,
and withdrew. Elusive, as the half memory of some radiant dream, whose
wonder and sweetness have been intense to the point of almost pain, it
hovered, floating just out of reach. It lay waiting for that sincere
belief which would convince that its passion was returned. And a
fleeting picture of a wild Caucasian valley, steeped in sunshine and
flowers, was always the first sign of its awakening.

Though not afraid of reason, it seemed somehow independent of the
latter's processes. It was his reason, however, he well knew that
dimmed the light in its grand, terrible eyes, causing it to withdraw
the instant he began to question. Precise, formal thinking shut the
engines off and damped the furnaces. His love, his passion, none the
less, were there, hiding with belief, until some bright messenger,
bringing glad tidings, should reveal the method of harmonious union
between reason and vision, between man's trivial normal faculties and
his astounding supernormal possibilities.

"This element of feeling in our outlook on Nature is a satisfaction in
itself, but our plea for allowing it to operate in our interpretation
of Nature is that we get closer to some things through feeling than
we do through science. The tendency of feeling is always to see
things whole. We cannot, for our life's sake, and for the sake of our
philosophical reconstruction, afford to lose in scientific analysis
what the poets and artists and the lovers of Nature all see. It is
intuitively felt, rather than intellectually perceived, the vision of
things as totalities, root and all, all in all; neither fancifully, nor
mystically, but sympathetically in their wholeness."

To these words of Professor T. Arthur Thomson's, he heartily
subscribed, applying their principle to his own particular field.




CHAPTER III


The net result of his inquiries and research, when, at the age of
nearly forty, he established his own Private Home for unusual,
so-called hopeless cases in North-West London--it was free to all, and
as Spiritual Clinique he thought of it sometimes with a smile--may be
summed up in the single sentence that man is greater than he knows, and
that completer realization of his full possibilities lies accessible to
his subconscious and superconscious powers. Herein he saw, indeed, the
chief hope of progress for humanity.

And it was to the failures, the diseased, the evil and the broken
that he owed chiefly his inspiring optimism, since it was largely in
collapse that occurred the sporadic upheaval of those super-normal
forces which, controlled, co-ordinated, led, must eventually bring
about the realization he foresaw.

The purpose, however, of these notes is not to furnish a sensational
story of various patients whom he studied, healed, or failed to heal.
Its object is to give some details of one case in particular whose
outstanding peculiarities affected his theories and convictions,
leaving him open-minded still, but with a breath of awe in his heart
perhaps, before a possibility his previous knowledge had ruled entirely
out of court, even if--which is doubtful--he had ever considered it as
a possibility at all.

He had realized early that the individual manifests but an
insignificant portion of his being in his ordinary existence, the
normal self being the tip of his consciousness only, yet whose fuller
expression rises readily to adequate evocation; and it was the study
of genius, of prodigies, so-called, and of certain faculties shown
sometimes in hysteria, that led him to believe these were small jets
from a sea of power that might, indeed ought, to be realizable at
will. The phenomena all pointed, he believed, to powers that seemed as
superior to cerebral functions as they were independent of these.

Man's possible field of being, in other words, seemed capable of
indefinite extension. His heart glowed within him as he established,
step by step, these greater powers. He dared to foresee a time when the
limitations of separate personality would have been destroyed, and the
vast brotherhood of the race become literally realized, its practical
unity accomplished.

The difficulties were endless and discouraging. The inventive powers of
the bigger self, its astonishing faculty for dramatizing its content in
every conceivable form, blocked everywhere the search for truth.

It could, he found, also detach a portion of its content into a series
of separate personalities, each with its individual morals, talents,
tendencies, each with its distinct and separate memory. These fragments
it could project, so to speak, masquerading convincingly as separate
entities, using strange languages, offering detailed knowledge of
other conditions, distant in time and space, suggesting, indeed, to
the unwary that they were due to obsessing spirits, and leaving the
observer in wonder before the potential capacity of the central self
disgorging them.

The human depths included, beyond mere telepathy and extended
telepathy, an expansion of consciousness so vast as to be, apparently,
limitless. The past, on rare occasions even the future, lay open; the
entire planetary memory, stored with rich and pregnant accumulated
experience, was accessible and shareable. New aspects of space and time
were equally involved. A vision of incredible grandeur opened gradually
before his eyes.

The surface consciousness of to-day was really rather a trumpery
affair; the gross lethargy of the vast majority _vis à vis_ the
greater possibilities afflicted him. To this surface consciousness
alone was so-called evil possible--as ignorance. As "ugly is only
half-way to a thing," so evil is half-way to good. With the greater
powers must come greater knowledge, shared as by instantaneous wireless
over the entire planet, and misunderstanding, chief obstacle to
progress always, would be impossible. A huge unity, sense of oneness
must follow. Moral growth would accompany the increase of faculty.
And here and there, it seemed to him, the surface ice had thawed
already a little; the pressure of the great deeps below caused cracks
and fissures. Auto-suggestion, prototype of all suggestion, offered
mysterious hints of the way to reach the stupendous underworld, as the
Christian Scientists, the miraculous healers, the New Thought movement,
saints, prophets, poets, artists, were finding out.

The subliminal, to state it shortly, might be the divine. This was the
hope, though not yet the actual belief, that haunted and inspired him.
Behind his personality lurked this strange gigantic dream, ever beating
to get through....

In his Private Home, helping, healing, using his great gifts of
sympathy and insight, he at the same time found the material for
intimate study and legitimate experiment he sought. The building
had been altered to suit his exact requirements; there were private
suites, each with its door and staircase to the street; one part of it
provided his own living quarters, shut off entirely from the patients'
side; in another, equally cut off and self-contained, yet within easy
communication of his own rooms, lived Paul Devonham, his valued young
assistant. There was a third private suite as well. The entire expenses
he defrayed himself.

Here, then, for a year or two he worked indefatigably, with the measure
of success and failure he anticipated; here he dreamed his great dream
of the future of the race, in whose progress and infinite capacities
he hopefully believed. Work was his love, the advancement of humanity
his god. The war availed itself of his great powers, as also of his
ready-made establishment, both of which he gave without a thought of
self. New material came as well from the battlefields into his ken.

The effect of the terrible five years upon him was in direct proportion
to his sincerity. His mind was not the type that shirks conclusions,
nor fears to look facts in the face. For really new knowledge he was
ever ready to yield all previous theories, to scrap all he had held
hitherto for probable. His mind was open, he sought only Truth.

The war, above all the Peace, shook his optimism. If it did not wholly
shatter his belief in human progress, it proved such progress to be so
slow that his Utopia faded into remotest distance, and his dream of
perfectibility became the faintest possible star in his hitherto bright
sky of hope.

He felt shocked and stupefied. The reaction was greater than at
first he realized. He had often pitied the mind that, aware only
of its surface consciousness, uninformed by thrill or shift of the
great powers below and above, lived unwarned of its own immenser
possibilities. To such, the evidence for extended human faculties must
seem explicable by fraud, illusion, derangement, to be classed as
abnormal rubbish worthy only of the alienist's attention as diseases.
To him such minds, though able, with big intellects among them, had
ever seemed a prejudiced, fossilized, prehistoric type. Restricted by
their very nature, violently resisting new ideas, they might be intense
within their actual scope, but, with vision denied them, they never
could be really great.

One effect of the shock he had undergone will be evident by merely
stating that he now understood this type of mind a good deal better
than before.




CHAPTER IV


The war was over, though the benefits of the long anticipated peace
still kept provocatively, exasperatingly, out of reach, when, about the
middle of September, Dr. Fillery received a letter that interested him
deeply.

The shattered world was still distraught, uneasy. Nervously eager to
resume its former activities, it was yet waiting for the word that
should give it the necessary confidence to begin. Doubt, insecurity,
uncertainty everywhere dominated human minds. Those who hoped for a
renewal of the easy, careless mood of pre-war days were dismayed to
find this was impossible; others who had allowed an optimistic idealism
to prophesy a New Age, looked about them bewilderingly and in vain for
signs of its fair birth. The latter, to whom, perhaps, Dr. Fillery
belonged, were more bitterly disappointed, more cruelly shocked, than
the former. The race, it seemed to many unshirking eyes, had leaped
back centuries at a single spring; the gulf of primal savagery which
had gaped wide open for five years, proving the Stone Age close beneath
the surface of so-called civilization, had not yet fully closed. Its
jaws still dripped blood, hatred, selfishness; the Race was still
dislocated by the convincing disproof of progress, horrified at the
fierce reality which had displaced the two-pence coloured dream it had
been complacently worshipping hitherto. Men in the mass undoubtedly
were savages still.

To Dr. Fillery, an honest, though not a necessarily fundamental
pessimism, seemed justified. He believed in progress still, but as
his habit was, he faced the facts. His attitude lost something of its
original enthusiasm. Looking about him, he saw no big constructive
movement; the figure who more than any other was altering the face
of the world with his ideas as well as his armies, was avowedly
destructive only. He found himself a sobered and a saddened man.

His Private Home, having accomplished splendid work, had just
discharged its last shell-shocked patient; it was now empty again,
the staff, carefully chosen and proved by long service, dismissed
on holidays, the building itself renovated and repaired against the
arrival later of new patients that were expected.

Devonham, his assistant, away for a period of rest in Switzerland,
would be back in a week or two, and Dr. Fillery, before resuming his
normal work, found himself with little to do but watch the progress of
the cleaners, painters and carpenters at work.

Into this brief time of leisure dropped the strange, perplexing letter
with an effect distinctly stimulating. It promised an unusual case, a
patient, if patient the case referred to could properly be called, a
young man "who if you decide after careful reflection to reject, can
be looked after only by the State, which means, of course, an Asylum
for the Insane. I know you are no longer head of the Establishment in
Liverpool, but that you confine yourself to private work along similar
lines, though upon a smaller scale, and that you welcome only cases
that have been given up as hopeless. I honour your courage and your
sympathy, I know your skill. So far as a cure is conceivable, this one
is hopeless certainly, but its unusual, indeed, its unique character,
entitles it, I believe, to be placed among your chosen few. Love,
sympathy, patience, combined with the closest observation, it urgently
demands, and these qualities, associated with unrivalled skill, you
must allow me, again, to think you alone possess among healers and
helpers of strange minds.

"For over twenty years, in the solitudes of these Jura forests and
mountains, I have cared for him as best I could, and with a devotion a
child of my own might have expected. But now, my end not far away, I
cannot leave him behind me here uncared for, yet the alternative, the
impersonal and formal care of an Institute, must break my heart and
his. I turn to you.

"My advanced age and growing infirmities, in these days of unkind
travel, prohibit my bringing him over. Can your great heart suggest a
means, since I feel sure you will not refuse the care of this strange
being whose nature and peculiarities indicate your especial care, and
yours alone? Is it too much to wonder if you yourself could come and
see him--here in the remote mountain châlet where I have tended and
cared for him ever since his mother died in bearing him over twenty
years ago?

"I have taught him what seemed wise and best; I have guarded and
observed him; he knows little or nothing of an outside world of men and
women, and is ignorant of life in the ordinary meaning of the word.
What precisely he may be, to what stratum of consciousness he belongs,
what kind of being he is, I mean...." The last two lines were then
scored through, though left legible. "I feel with Arago, that he is
a rash man who pronounces the word 'impossible' anywhere outside the
sphere of pure mathematics." More sentences were here scored through.

"Dare I say--to you, as master, teacher, great open-minded soul--that
to _human_ life, as we know it, he does not, perhaps, belong?

"In writing--in this letter--I find it impossible to give you full
details. I had intended to set them down; my pen refuses; in the
plain English at my disposal--well, simply, it is not credible. But I
have kept full notes all these years, and the notes belong to you. I
enclose an imperfect painting I made of him some four years ago. I am
no artist; for background you must imagine what lay beyond my little
skill--the blazing glory of the immense wood-fires that he loves to
make upon the open mountain side, usually at dawn after a night of
prayer and singing, while waiting for the strange power he derives
(as we all do, indeed, at second or third hand), from the worship of
what is to him his mighty father, the life-giving sun. Wind, as the
'messengers' of the sun, he worships too.... Both sun and wind, that
is, produce an unusual state approaching ecstasy.

"Counting upon you, I have hypnotized him, suggesting that he forget
all the immediate past (in fact to date), and telling him he will like
you in place of me--though with him it is an uncertain method.

"I am now old in years. I have lived and loved, suffered and dreamed
like most of us; my hands have been warmed at the fires of life, of
which, let me add, I am not ignorant. You have known, I believe,
my serious, as also my lighter imaginative books; my occasional
correspondence with your colleague Paul Devonham has been of help and
guidance to me. We are not, therefore, wholly strangers.

"The twenty years spent in these solitudes among simple peasant folk,
with a single object of devotion to fill my days, have been, I would
tell you, among the best of my long existence. My renouncement of the
world was no renouncement. I am enriched with wonder and experience
that amaze me, for the world holds possibilities few have ever dreamed
of, and that I myself, filled as I am with the memory of their
contemplation, can hardly credit even now. Perhaps in an earlier stage
of evolution, as Delboeuf believes, man was fully aware of _all_ that
went on within himself--a region since closed to us, owing to attention
being increasingly directed outwards. Into some such region I have had
a glimpse, it seems. I feel sometimes there was as much fact as fancy,
perhaps, in the wise old Hebrew who stated poetically--recently, too,
compared with the stretch of time my science deals with--'The Sons of
God took to themselves daughters of the children of men...."

The letter here broke off, as though interrupted by something
unexpected and unusual; it was signed, indeed, "John Mason," but signed
in pencil and at the bottom of an unwritten blank sheet. It had not
all been written, either, at one time, or on the same day; there were
intervals, evidently, perhaps of hours, perhaps of days, between the
paragraphs. Dr. Fillery read, re-read, then read again the strange
epistle, coming each time to the same conclusion--the writer was dying
in the very act of forming the last sentences. Their incoherence, the
alteration in the style, were thus explained. He had felt the end of
life so close that he had written his signature, probably addressed the
envelope as well, knowing the page might never be filled up. It had not
been filled up.

Something behind the phrases, behind the intensity of the actual
words, beyond the queer touches that revealed a mind betrayed by
solitude, the hints possibly of a deluded intelligence--there was
something that rang true and stimulated him more than ordinarily. The
reference to Devonham, too, was definite enough. Dr. Fillery remembered
vaguely a correspondence during recent crowded years with a man named
Mason, living away in Switzerland somewhere, and that Devonham had
asked him questions from time to time about what he called, with his
rough-and-ready and half-humorous classification, "pagan obsession,"
"worshipper of fire and wind," referring it to the writer of the
letters, named John Mason. "Non-human delusion," he had also called it
sometimes. They had come to refer to it, he remembered, as "N. H." in
fact.

He now looked up those Notes, for the mention of the books caused him
an uncomfortable feeling of neglected opportunity, and John Mason was
an honoured name.

"You know, I believe ... my books," the writer said. Could this
be, he asked himself anxiously, John Mason, the eminent geologist?
Had Devonham not realized who he was? Must he blame his assistant,
whose jealous care and judgment saved him so many foolish, futile,
un-real cases, reserving what was significant and important only?

The Notes established his mistakes and his assistant's--perhaps
intentional?--ignorance. The writer of this curious letter was
unquestionably the author of those fairy books for children, old
and young, whose daring speculations had suggested that other types
and races, ages even before the Neanderthal man, had dwelt side by
side with what is known as modern man upon this time-worn planet.
Behind the literary form of legend and fairy tale, however, lay a
curious conviction. Atlantis was of yesterday compared with earlier
civilizations, now extinct by fire and flood and general upheaval,
which once may have inhabited the globe. The present evolutionary
system, buttressed by Darwin and the rest, was but a little recent
insignificant series, trivial both in time and space, when set beside
the mightier systems that had come and gone. Their evidence he
found, not in clumsy fossils and footprints on cooled rocks, but in
the _minds_ of those who had followed and eventually survived them:
memories of Titan Wars and mighty beings, and gods and goddesses of
non-human kind, to whose different existence the physical conditions of
an over-heated planet presented no impossibility. The human species,
this trumpery, limited, self-satisfied super-animal man, was not the
only type of being.

Yet John Mason, in his day, had held the chair at Edinburgh University,
his lectures embodied common-sense and knowledge, with acutest
imaginative insight. His earliest writings were the text-books of the
time. His name, when Edward Fillery was medical student there, still
hovered like well-loved incense above the old-town towers.

The Notes now intrigued him. No blame attached to Devonham for having
missed the cue, Devonham could not know everything; geology was not in
his line of work and knowledge; and Mason was a common name. Rather
he blamed himself for not having been struck by the oddness of the
case--the Mason letters, the pagan obsession, worshipper of wind and
fire, the strange "N. H."

"A competent indexer, at any rate," he said to himself with a smile, as
he turned up the details easily.

These were very scanty. Devonham evidently had deemed the case of
questionable value. The letters from Mason, with the answers to them,
he could not find.

The slight record was headed "_Mason_, John," followed by an
address "Chez Henri Petavel, peasant, Jura Mountains, Vaud, French
Switzerland," and details how to reach this apparently remote valley by
mule and carriage and foot-path. Name of Mason's protégé not given.

"_Sex, male_; age--born 1895; parentage, couple of mystical
temperament, sincere, but suffering from marked delusions, believers in
Magic (various, but chiefly concerned with Nature and natural forces,
once known, forgotten to-day, of immense potency, accessible to certain
practices of logical but undetailed kind, able apparently to intensify
human consciousness).

"_Subject_, of extremely quick intelligence, yet betrays ignorance of
human conditions; intelligence superior to human, though sometimes
inferior; long periods of quiescence, followed by immense, almost
super-human, activity and energy; worships fire and air, chiefly the
former, calling the sun his father and deity.

"Abhors confined space; this shown by intense desire for heat, which,
together with free space (air), seem conditions of well-being.

"Fears (as in claustrophobia) both water and solidity (anything
massive).

"Has great physical power, yet indifferent to its use; women
irresistibly attracted to him, but his attitude towards other sex seems
one of gentleness and pity; love means nothing. Has, on the other hand,
extraordinarily high ideal of service. Is puzzled by quarrels and
differences of personal kind. Half-memories of vast system of myriad
workers, ruled by this ideal of harmonious service. Faithful, true,
honest; falseness or lies impossible ... lovable, pathetic, helpless
type----"

The Notes broke off abruptly.

Dr. Fillery, wondering a little that his subordinate's brief but
suggestive summary had never been brought to his notice before, turned
a moment to glance at the rough water-colour drawing he held in his
hand. He looked at it for some moments with absorption. The expression
of his face was enigmatical. He was more than surprised that Devonham
had not drawn his attention to the case in detail. Placing his hand so
as to hide the lower portion of the face, he examined the eyes, then
turned the portrait upside down, gazing at the eyes afresh. He seemed
lost in thought for a considerable time. A faint flush stole into his
cheek, and a careful observer might have noticed an increase of light
about the skin. He sighed once or twice, and presently, laying the
portrait down again, he turned back to the _dossier_ upon the table in
front of him.

"Very accurate and careful," he said to himself with satisfaction as
he noticed the date Devonham had set against the entries--"June 20th,
1914."

The war, therefore, had interrupted the correspondence.

Devonham had made further notes of his own in the margin here and there:

"Does this originate primarily from Mason's mind, communicated thence
to his protégé?" He agreed with his assistant's query.

"If so, was it transferred to Mason's mind before that? By the father
or mother? The mother was, obviously, his--Mason's--great love. Yet the
father was his life friend. Mason's great passion was suppressed. He
never told it. It found no outlet."

"Admirable," was the comment spoken below his breath.

"Boy born as result of some 'magical' experiment intensely believed
(not stated in detail), during course of which father died suddenly.

"Mason tended mother, then lived alone in remote place where all had
occurred.

"Did Mason inherit entire content of parents' beliefs, dramatizing this
by force of unexpressed but passionate love?

"Did not Mason's mind, thus charged, communicate whole business to the
young mind he has since formed, a plastic mind uninfluenced by normal
human surroundings and conditions of ordinary life?

"Transfer of a sex-inspired mania?"

Then followed another note, summarizing evidently Devonham's judgment:

"Not worth F.'s investigation until examined further. N.B.--Look up
Mason first opportunity and judge at first hand."

Dr. Fillery, glancing from the papers to the portrait, smiled a little
again as he signified approval.

But the last entry interested him still more. It was dated July 13,
1914.

"Mason reports boy's prophecy of great upheaval coming. Entire
race slips back into chaos of primitive life again. Entire Western
Civilization crumbles. Modern inventions and knowledge vanish. Nature
spirits reappear.... Desires return of all previous letters. These sent
by registered post."

A few scattered notes on separate sheets of paper lay at the end of
the carefully typed _dossier_, but these were very incomplete, and
Devonham's handwriting, especially when in pencil, was not of the
clearest.

"Non-human claim, though absurd, not traceable to any antecedent
causes given by letters. What is Mason's past mental and temperamental
history? Is he not, through the parents, the cause? Mania seems
harmless, both to subject and others. No suffering or unhappiness.
Therefore not a case for F., until further examined by self. Better see
Mason and his subject first. Wrote July 24th proposing visit."

Dr. Fillery's eyes twinkled. His forehead relaxed. He looked back. He
remembered details. Devonham's holiday that year, he recalled, was
due on August 1st; he had intended going out mountain climbing in
Switzerland.

The final note of all, also in half-legible writing, seemed to refer
to the treatment Mason had asked advice about, and the line Devonham
had suggested:

"Natural life close to Nature cannot hurt him. But I advise watch him
with fire and with heights--heat, air! That is, he may decide his
physical body is irksome and seek to escape it. Teach him natural
history--botany, geology, insects, animals, even astronomy, but always
giving him reasons and explanations. _Above all_--let him meet girls of
his own age and fall in love. Fullest natural expression, but guarded
without his knowing it...."

For a long time Dr. Fillery sat with the notes and papers before him,
thinking over what he had read. Devonham's advice was clever enough,
but without insight, sound and astute, yet lacking divination.

The twinkle in his eyes, caused by the final entry, died away. His
face was grave, his manner preoccupied, intense. He gazed long at the
portrait in his hand.... It was dusk when he finally rose, replaced
the _dossier_, locked the cabinet, and went out into another room, and
thence into the hall. Taking his hat and stick, he left the house,
already composing in his mind the telegram instructing Devonham, while
apologizing for the interrupted holiday, to bring the subject of the
Notes to England with him. A telegraph girl met him on the very steps
of the house. He took the envelope from her, and opened it. He read the
message. It was dated Bâle, the day before:

    "Arriving end week with interesting patient. Details index
    under Mason. Prepare private suite.
                                     "DEVONHAM."




CHAPTER V


It was, however, some two weeks later before Dr. Fillery was on his
way to the station to meet Devonham and his companion. A slight delay,
caused apparently by the necessity of buying an outfit, had intervened
and given time for an exchange of letters, but Devonham had contented
himself chiefly with telegrams. He did not wish his chief to know
too much about the case in advance. "Probably he regrets the Notes
already," thought the doctor, as the car made its way slowly across
crowded London. "He wants my first unbiased judgment; he's right, of
course, but it's too late for that now."

The delay, however, had been of value. The Home was in working order
again, the staff returned, the private suite all ready for its
interesting occupant, whom in thought he had already named "N. H."; for
in the first place he did not know his name as yet, and in the second
he felt towards him a certain attitude of tolerant, half-humorous
scepticism.

Cut off from his own kind for so many years, educated, perhaps
half-educated only, by too speculative and imaginative a mind,
equally warped by this long solitude, a mind unduly stretched by the
contemplation of immense geological perspectives, filled, too, with
heaven knows what strange stories of pantheistic Nature-feeling--"N.
H." might be distinctly interesting, but hardly all that Mason had
thought him. "Unique" was a word rarely justified; the peculiarities
would prove to be mere extravagances that had, of necessity, remained
uncorrected by the friction of intercourse with his own kind. The rest
was inheritance, equally unpruned; a mind living in a side-eddy, a
backwater with Nature....

At the same time Dr. Fillery admitted a certain anticipatory excitement
he could not wholly account for, an undercurrent of wonder he ascribed
to his Khaketian blood.

He had written once only to his assistant, sending briefest
instructions to say the rooms would be ready, and that the young man
must believe he was an invited guest coming on a visit. "Let him expect
complete freedom of movement and occupation without the smallest idea
of restraint in any way. He is merely coming to stay for as long as
he pleases with a friend of Mason. Impress him with a sense of hearty
welcome." And Devonham, replying, had evidently understood the wisdom
of this method. "He is also greatly pleased with your name--the sound
of it," was stated in the one letter that he wrote, "and as names mean
a lot to him, so much the better. The sound of it gives him pleasure;
he keeps repeating it over to himself; he already likes you. My name he
does not care about, saying it quickly, sharply. But he trusts me. His
trust in anyone who shows him kindness is instantaneous and complete.
He invariably expects kindness, however, from everyone--gives it
himself equally--and is baffled and puzzled by any other treatment."

So Devonham, with "N. H.", who attached importance to names and
expected kindness from people as a natural thing, would be in London
town within the hour. Straight from his forests and mountains for the
first time in his life, he would find himself in the heart of the
greatest accumulation of human beings on the planet, the first city of
the world, the final expression of civilization as known to the human
race.

"'N. H.' in London town," thought Dr. Fillery, his mouth twitching
with the smile that began in his quiet eyes. "Bless the lad! We must
make him feel at home and happy. He shall indeed have kindness. He'll
need a woman's touch as well." He reflected a moment. "Women are a
great help in doubtful cases--the way a man reacts to them," he mused.
"Only they must be distinct in type to be of value." And his mind ran
quickly, comprehensively over the women of his acquaintance, pausing,
as it did so, upon two in particular--a certain Lady Gleeson, and
Iraida--sometimes called Nayan--Khilkoff, the daughter of his Russian
friend, the sculptor.

His mind pondered for some moments the two he had selected. It was not
the first time he had made use of them. Their effect respectively upon
a man was invariably instinctive and illuminating.

The two were radically different feminine types, as far removed from
one another as pole from pole, yet each essentially of her sex. Their
effect, respectively, upon such a youth must be of value, and might be
even illuminating to the point of revelation. Both, he felt sure, would
not be indifferent to the new personality.

It was, however, of Nayan Khilkoff that he thought chiefly. Of that
rare, selfless, maternal type which men in all ages have called saint
or angel, she possessed that power which evoked in them all they could
feel of respect, of purity, of chivalry, that love, in a word, which
holds as a chief ingredient, worship. Her beauty, beyond their reach,
was of the stars; it was the unattainable in her they loved; her beauty
was of the soul. Nayan was spiritual, not as a result of painful effort
and laborious development, but born so. Her life, moreover, was one of
natural service. Personal love, exclusive devotion to an individual,
concentration of her being upon another single being--this seemed
impossible to her. She was at the same time an enigma: there was an
elusive flavour about her that made people a little in awe of her, a
flavour not of this earth, quite. She carried an impersonal attitude
almost to the point of seeming irresponsive to common human things and
interests.

The other woman, Lady Gleeson, Angela her Christian name, was equally
a simple type, though her simplicity was that of the primitive female
who is still close to the Stone Age--a savage. She adorned herself to
capture men. She was the female spider that devours its mates. She
wanted slaves. To describe her as selfish were inadequate, for she was
unaware that any other ideal existed in life but that of obtaining
her own pleasure. There was instinct and emotion, but, of course, no
heart. Without morals, conscience or consideration, she was the animal
of prey that obeys the call of hunger in the most direct way possible,
regardless of consequences to herself or others. Her brain was quick,
her personality shallow. When talking she "rattled on." Devonham had
well said once: "You can hear her two thoughts clicking, both of them
in trousers!" Sir George, recently knighted, successful with large
concessions in China, was indulgent. The male splendour of the youth
was bound to stimulate her hunger, as his simplicity, his loneliness,
and in a sense his pathetic helplessness, would certainly evoke the
tenderness in Nayan. "He'll probably like her dear, ridiculous name,
too," Dr. Fillery felt, "the nickname they gave her because she's the
same to everybody, whichever way you take her--Nayan Khilkoff." Yet
her real name was more beautiful--Iraida. And, as he repeated it half
aloud, a soft light stole upon his face, shone in the deep clear eyes,
and touched even the corners of the rather grim mouth with another, a
tenderer expression, before the sternness quickly returned to it.

"N. H." would meet, thus, two main types of female life. He, apparently
an exceedingly male being, would face the onslaught of passion and
heart, of lust and love, respectively; and it was his reactions to
these onslaughts that Fillery wished to observe. They would help his
diagnosis, they might guide his treatment.

It was a warm and muggy afternoon, the twilight passing rapidly into
darkness now; one of those late autumn days when summer heat flits
back, but light is weak. The covered sky increased the clammy warmth,
which was damp, unhealthy, devitalizing. No wind stirred. The great
city was sticky and depressing. Yet people approved the heat, although
it tired them. "It shortens the winter, anyhow," was the general
verdict, when expressed at all. They referred unconsciously to the
general dread of strikes.

London was hurried and confused. An air of feverish overcrowding
reigned in the great station, when he left the car and went in on foot.
No sign of order, system, direction, was visible. The scene might have
been a first rehearsal of some entirely new experiment. Grumbling and
complaint rose from all sides in an exasperated chorus. He tried to
ascertain how late the train was and on which platform it might be
expected, but no one knew for certain, and the grudging replies to
questions seemed to say, "You've no right to ask anything, and if you
keep on asking there will be a strike. So that's that!"

He listened to the talk and watched the facial expressions and the
movements of the half-resigned and half-excited concourse of London
citizens. The clock was accurate, and everyone was kind to ladies;
stewed tea, stale cake with little stones in it, vile whisky and very
weak beer were obtainable at high prices. There were no matches. The
machine for supplying platform-tickets was broken. He saw men paying
more thought and attention to the comfort of their dogs than to their
own. The great, marvellous, stupid, splendid race was puzzled and
exasperated. Then, suddenly, the train pulled in, full of returned
exiles longing to be back again in "dear old England."

"Thank God, it's come," sighed the crowd. "Good! We're English. Forgive
and forget!" and prepared to tip the porters handsomely and carry their
own baggage.

The confusion that followed was equally characteristic, and equally
remarkable, displaying greatness side by side with its defects. There
was no system; all was muddled, yet all was safe. Anyone could claim
what luggage they liked, though no one did so, nor dreamed, it seemed,
of doing so. There was an air of decent honesty and trust. There were
ladies who discovered that all men are savages; there were men--and
women--who were savages. People shook hands warmly, smiled with honest
affection, said light, careless good-byes that hid genuine emotion;
helped one another with parcels, offered one another lifts. There
were few taxicabs, one perhaps to every thirty people. And in this
general scrimmage, Dr. Fillery, at first, could see no sign of his
expected arrivals; he walked from end to end of the platform littered
with luggage and thronged with bustling people, but nowhere could he
discover the familiar outline of Devonham, nor anyone who answered to
the strange picture that already stood forth sharply in his mind.

"There's been a mistake somewhere," he said to himself; "I shall find
a telegram when I get back to the house explaining it"--when, suddenly
and without apparent cause, there stole upon him a curious lift of
freedom--a sharp sense of open spaces he was at a loss to understand.
It was accompanied by an increase of light. For a second it occurred
to him that the great enclosing roof had rolled back and blown away,
letting in air and some lost ray of sunshine. A lovely valley flitted
across his thought. Almost he was aware of flowers, of music, of
rhythmic movement.

"Edward! there you are. I thought you hadn't come," he heard close
behind him, and, turning, saw the figure of Devonham, calm and alert as
usual. At his side stood a lean, virile outline of a young man, topping
Devonham by several inches, with broad but thin shoulders, figure
erect yet flexible, whose shining and inquiring eyes of blue were the
most striking feature in a boyish face, where strength, intensity and
radiant health combined in an unusual degree.

"Here is our friend, LeVallon," added Devonham, but not before the
figure had stepped lightly and quickly forward, already staring at him
and shaking his outstretched hand.

So this was "N. H.," and LeVallon was his name. The calm, searching
eyes held a touch of bewilderment in them, the eyes of an honest,
intelligent animal, thought Fillery quickly, adding in spite of
himself and almost simultaneously, "but of a divine animal." It was
a look he had never in his life before encountered in any human
eyes. Mason's water-colour sketch had caught something, at least, of
their innocence and question, of their odd directness and intensity,
something, too, of the golden fire in the hair. He wore a broad-brimmed
felt hat of Swiss pattern, a Bernese overcoat, a low, soft-collared
shirt, with blue tie to match.

Buffeted and pushed by the frenzied travellers, they stood and faced
each other, shaking hands, eyes looking into eyes, two strangers,
doctor and patient possibly, but friends most certainly, both felt
instantly. They liked one another. Once again the scent of flowers
danced with light above the piled-up heaps of trunks, rugs, packages. A
cool wind from mountains seemed to blow across the dreadful station.

"You've arrived safely," began Dr. Fillery, a little taken aback
perhaps. "Welcome! And not too tired, I hope----" when the other
interrupted him in a man's deep voice, full of pleasant timbre:

"Fill-er-y," he said, making the "F" sound rather long, "I need you. To
see you makes me happy."

"Tired," put in Devonham breathlessly, "good heavens, not he! But I am.
Now for a porter and the big luggage. Have you got a taxi?"

"The car is here," said Fillery, letting go with a certain reluctance
the hand he held, and paying little attention to anything but the
figure before him who used such unexpected language. What was it? What
did it mean? Whence came this sudden sense of intensity, light, of
order, system, intelligence into the racial scene of muddled turmoil
all about him? There seemed an air of speeding up in thought and action
near him, compared to which the slow stupidity, unco-ordinated and
confused on all sides, became painful, gross, and even ludicrous.

Someone bumped against him with violence, but quite needlessly, since
the simplest judgment of weight and distance could have avoided the
collision. In such ordinary small details he was aware of another, a
higher, standard close. A man on his left, trying to manage several
bundles, appeared vividly as of amazing incompetence, with his
miscalculation, his clumsy movement, his hopeless inability to judge
cause and effect. Yet he had two arms, ten fingers, two legs, broad
shoulders and deep chest. Misdirection of his great strength made it
impossible for him to manage the assortment of light parcels. Next
to him, however, stood a woman carrying a baby--there was no error
there. The panting engine just beyond them, again, set a standard of
contemptuous, impersonal intelligence that, obeying Nature's laws,
dwarfed the humans generally. But it was another, a quasi-spiritual
standard that had flashed to him above all. In some curious way
the competent "dead" machinery that obeyed the Law with faultless
efficiency, and the woman obeying instinct with equally unconscious
skill--these two energies were akin to the new standard he was now
startlingly aware of.

He looked up, as though to trace this sudden new consciousness of
bright, quick, rapid competence--almost as of some immense power
building with consistent scheme and system--that had occurred to him;
and he met again the direct, yet slightly bewildered eyes that watched
him, watched him with confidence, sweetness, and with a questioning
intensity he found intriguing, captivating, and oddly stimulating. He
felt happiness.

"By yer leave!" roared a porter, as they stepped aside just in time to
save being pushed by the laden truck--just in time to save himself,
that is, for the other, Fillery noticed, moved like a chamois on its
native rocks, so surely, lightly, swiftly was he poised.

"This! Ah, you must excuse it," the doctor exclaimed with a smile of
apology almost, "we've not yet had time to settle down after the war,
you see." He pointed with a sweep of his hand to the roaring, dim-lit
cavern where confusion reigned supreme, the G.H.Q. of travel in the
biggest city of the Empire.

"I've got a porter," cried Devonham, beckoning vigorously a little
further down the platform. "You wait there. I'll be along in a minute
with the stuff." He was hot, flustered, exhausted.

"You struggle. It was like this all the way. Is there no knowledge?"
LeVallon asked in his deep, quiet tones.

"We do," said Fillery. "With us life is always struggle. But there is
more system than appears. The confusion is chiefly on the surface."

"It is dark and there is so little air," observed the other. "And they
all work against each other."

Fillery laughed into the other's eyes; they laughed together; and it
seemed suddenly to the doctor that their beings somehow merged, so
that, for a second, he knew the entire content of his companion's
mind--as if there was nothing in LeVallon he did not understand.

"You--are a builder," LeVallon said abruptly. But as he said it his
companion caught, on the wing as it were, another meaning. He became
curiously aware of the smallness, of the remote insignificance of the
little planet whereon this dialogue took place, yet at the same time of
its superb seductive loveliness. In him rose a feeling, as on wings,
that he was not chained in his familiar, daily personality, but that an
immense, delicious freedom lay within reach. He could be everywhere at
once. He could do everything.

"Wait here while I help Devonham. Then we'll get into the car and be
off." He moved away, threading a path with difficulty.

"I wait in peace. I am happy," was the reply.

And with those few phrases, uttered in the quiet, deep voice, sounding
in his ears and in his very blood, the older man went towards the spot
where Devonham struggled with a porter, a pile of nondescript luggage
and a truck: "I wait in peace.... You struggle, you work against each
other.... It is dark, there is little air.... You are a builder...."

But not these singular words alone remained alive in his mind; there
remained in his heart the sense of that vitality of open spaces, keen
air and brighter light he had experienced--and, with it, the security
of some higher, faultless standard. His brain, indeed, had recognized
a consciousness of swifter reactions, of surer movements, of more
intelligent co-ordination, compared to which the people about him
behaved like stupid, almost like half-witted beings, the one exception
being the instinctive action of the mother in carrying her baby, and
the other, the impersonal, accurate, competence of the dead machinery.

But, more than this reasoned change, there burned suddenly in his heart
an inexplicable exhilaration and brightness, a wonder that he could
attribute only to another mode of life. His Khaketian blood, he knew,
might be responsible for part of it, but not for all. The invigorating
mountain wind, the sunlight, the rhythmic sound, the scent of wild
flowers, these were his own personal interpretations of a quickened
sense he could not analyse as yet. As he held the young man's hand,
as he gazed into his direct blue eyes, this sense had increased in
intensity. LeVallon had some marvellous quality or power that was new
to him, while yet not entirely unfamiliar. What was it? And how did the
youth perceive this sense in him so surely that he took its presence
for granted, accepted, even played upon it? He experienced, as it were,
a brilliant intensification of spirit. Some portion of him already knew
exactly what LeVallon was.

Across the ugly turmoil and confusion of the huge dingy railway
terminus had moved wondrously some simple power that brought
in--Beauty. Some very deep and ancient conception had touched him and
gone its way again. The stupendous beauty of a simple, common day
appeared to him. His subconscious being, of course, was deeply stirred.
That was the truth, phrase it as he might. His heart was lifted as by
a primal wind at dawn upon some mountain top. The heaviness of the
day was gone. Fatigue, too, vanished. The "civilized" folk appeared
contemptible and stupid. Something direct from Nature herself poured
through him. And it was from the atmosphere of LeVallon this new
vitality issued radiating.

He found a moment or two, while alone with Devonham, to exchange a few
hurried sentences. As they bent over bags and bundles he asked quick
questions. These questions and answers between the two experienced men
were brief but significant:

"Yes, quiet as a lamb. Just be kind and sympathetic. You looked up the
Notes? Well, that can't be helped now, though I had rather you knew
nothing. My mistake, of course."

"The content of his mind is accessible to me--telepathically--in any
case."

"But at one remove more distant, because unexpressed."

Fillery laughed. "Quite right. I admit it's a pity. But tell me more
about him--anything I ought to know--at once."

"Quiet as a lamb, I told you," repeated the other, "and most of the
way over too. But puzzled--my God, Edward, his criticisms would make
a book."

"Normal? Intelligent criticisms?"

"Intelligent above ordinary. Normal--no."

"Hysteria?"

"Not a sign."

"Health?"

"Perfect, magnificent, as you see. He's less tired now than when we
started three days ago, whereas I'm fagged out, though in climbing
condition."

"Origin of delusions--any indication?"

Devonham looked up quickly. His eyes flashed a peculiarly searching
glance--something watchful in it perhaps. "No delusion at all of any
sort. As for origin of his ideas--the parents probably, but stimulated
and allowed unchecked growth by Mason. Affected by Nature beyond
anything _we_ know."

"By Nature. Ah!" He checked himself. "And what peculiarities?" he
asked.

"His terror of water, for instance. Crossing the Channel he was like a
frightened child. He hid from it, kept his hands over his eyes even, so
as not to see it."

"Give any reason?"

"All he said was 'It is unknown, an enemy, and can destroy me, I cannot
understand its secret ways. Fire and wind are not in it. I cannot work
with it.' No, it was not fear of drowning that he meant. He found
comfort, too, in the repetition of your name."

"Appetite, pulse, temperature?" asked Fillery, after a brief pause.

"First two very strong; temperature always slightly above normal."

"Other peculiarities?"

"He became rather excited before a lighted match once--tried to kneel,
almost, but I stopped it."

"Fire?"

"That's it. Instinct of worship presumably."

The barrow was laden, the porter was asking where the car was. They
prepared to move back to the companion, whom Fillery had never failed
to observe carefully over his shoulder during this rapid conversation.
"N. H." had not moved the whole time: he stood quietly, looking about
him, a curious figure, aloof somehow from his surroundings, so tall
and straight and unconcerned he seemed, yet so poised, alert, virile,
vigorous. It was not his clothes that made him appear unusual, nor was
it his eyes and hair alone, though all three contributed their share.
Yet he seemed dressed up, his clothes irksome to him. He was uncommon,
an attractive figure, and many a pair of eyes, female eyes especially,
Fillery noticed, turned to examine him with undeniable curiosity.

"And women?" the doctor asked quickly in a lowered voice, as they
followed the porter's barrow towards LeVallon, who already smiled at
their approach--the most engaging, trustful, welcoming smile that
Fillery had ever seen upon a human countenance.

He lowered his head to catch the reply. But Devonham only laughed and
shrugged his shoulders. "All attracted," he mumbled in a half whisper,
"and eager to help him."

"And he----?"

"Gentle, astonished, but indifferent, oh, supremely indifferent."

LeVallon came forward to meet them, and Fillery took his hand and led
him to the car. The luggage was bundled in, some behind and some on the
roof. Fillery and LeVallon sat side by side. The car started.

"We shall get home in half an hour," the doctor mentioned, turning to
his companion. "We'll have a good dinner and then get to bed. You are
hungry, I know."

"Thank you," was the reply, "thank you, dear Fillery. I want sleep
most. Will there be trees and air near me? And stars to see?"

"Your windows open on to a garden with big trees, there will be plenty
of fresh air, and you will hear the sparrows chattering at dawn. But
London, of course, is not the country. Oh, we'll make you comfortable,
never fear."

"Dear Fillery, I thank you," said LeVallon quietly, and without more
ado lay back among the soft cushions and closed his eyes. Hardly a
word was said the whole way out to the north-west suburb, and when
they arrived the "patient" was too overcome with sleep to wish to eat.
He went straight to his room, found a hot bath into which he tumbled
first, and then leaped into his bed and was sound asleep almost before
the door was closed. Upon a table beside the bed Dr. Fillery, with
his own hands, arranged bread, butter, eggs and a jug of milk in case
of need. Nurse Robbins, an experienced, tactful young woman, he put
in special charge. He thought of everything, divining his friend's
possible needs instinctively, noticing with his keen practised eye
several details for himself at the same time. The splendid physical
condition, frame-work, muscular development he noted--no freakish
bulky masses produced by gymnastic exercises, but the muscles laid
on flowingly, smooth and firm and ample, without a trace of fat, and
the whole in the most admirable proportion possible. The leanness
was deceptive; the body was of immense power. The quick, certain,
unerring movements he noticed too; perfect, swift co-ordination between
brain and physical response, no misdirection, no miscalculation, the
reactions extremely rapid. He thought with a smile of something between
deer and tiger. The poise and balance and accuracy conveyed intense joy
of living. Yet above and beyond these was something else he could not
name, something that stirred in him wonder, love, a touch of awe, and a
haunting suggestion of familiarity.

He saw him into bed, he saw him actually asleep. The strong blue eyes
looked up into his own with their intense and innocent gaze for a
moment; he held the firm, dry muscular hand; ten seconds later the eyes
were closed in sleep, the grip of the powerful but slender fingers
relaxed.

"Good night, my friend, and sleep deeply. To-morrow we'll see to
everything you need. Be happy here and comfortable with us, for you are
welcome and we love you." His voice trembled slightly.

"Good night, dear Fill-er-y," the musical tones replied, and he was off.

The windows were wide open. "N. H." had thrown aside the pyjamas and
blankets. On this cool, damp night of late autumn he covered his big,
warm, lithe body with a single sheet only.

Fillery went out quietly, an expression of keen approval and enjoyment
on his face--not a smile exactly, but that look of deep content,
betraying a fine inner excitement of happiness, which is the mother of
all smiles. As he softly opened the door the draught blew through from
the open windows, stirring the white curtains by the bed. It came from
the big damp garden where the trees stood, already nearly leafless,
and where no flowers were. And yet a scent of flowers came faintly
with it. He caught an echo of faint sound like music. There was the
invigorating hint of forests too. It seemed a living wind that blew
into the house.

Dr. Fillery paused a moment, sniffed with surprise and sharp enjoyment,
listened intently, then switched the light off and went out, closing
the door behind him. There was a flash of wonder in his eyes, and a
thrill of some remote inexplicable happiness ran through his nerves.
An instant of complete comprehension had been his, as if another
consciousness had, for that swift instant, identified itself with his
own.




CHAPTER VI


Edward Fillery was glad that Paul Devonham, good friend and skillful
colleague, was his assistant; for Devonham, competent as himself in
knowledge and experience, found explanations for all things, and had
in his natural temperament a quality of sane judgment which corrected
extravagances.

Devonham was agnostic, because reason ruled his life. Devoid of
imagination, he had no temptations. Speculative, within limits, he
might be, but he belonged not to the unstable. Not that he thought he
knew everything, but that he refused to base action on what he regarded
as unknown. A clue into the unknown he would follow up as keenly,
carefully, as Fillery himself, but he went step by step, with caution,
declining to move further until the last step was of hardened concrete.
To the powers of the subconscious self he set drastic limits, admitting
their existence of course, but attaching small value to their use or
development. His own deeper being had never stirred or wakened. Of
this under-sea, this vast background in himself, he remained placidly
uninformed. A comprehensive view of a problem--the flash of vision
he never knew--thus was perhaps denied him, but so far as he went he
was very safe and sure. And his chief was the first to appreciate his
value. He appreciated it particularly now, as the two men sat smoking
after their late dinner, discussing details of the new inmate of the
Home.

Fillery, aware of the strong pull upon his own mixed blood, aware of
a half-wild instinctive sympathy towards "N. H.," almost of a natural
desire now, having seen him, to believe him "unique" in several ways,
and, therefore, conscious of a readiness to accept more than any
evidence yet justified--feeling these symptoms clearly, and remembering
vividly his experiences in the railway station, he was glad, for
truth's sake, that Devonham was there to clip extravagance before it
injured judgment. A weak man, aware of his own frailties, excels a
stronger one who thinks he has none at all. The two colleagues were a
powerful combination.

"In your view, it's merely a case of a secondary--anyhow of a
divided--personality?" he asked, as soon as the other had recovered a
little from his journey, and was digesting his meal comfortably over a
pipe. "You have seen more of him than I have. Of insanity, at any rate,
there is no sign at all, I take it? His relations with his environment
are sound?"

"None whatever." Devonham answered both questions at once. "Exactly."

He took off his pince-nez, cleaned them with his handkerchief, and then
replaced them carefully. This gave him time to reflect, as though he
was not quite sure where to begin his story.

"There are certainly indications," he went on slowly, "of a divided
personality, though of an unusual kind. The margin between the
two--between the normal and the secondary self--is so very slight.
It is not clearly defined, I mean. They sometimes merge and
interpenetrate. The frontier is almost indistinguishable."

Fillery raised his eyebrows.

"You feel uncertain which is the main self, and which the split-off
secondary personality?" he inquired, with surprise.

Devonham nodded. "I'm extremely puzzled," he admitted. "LeVallon's
most marked self, the best defined, the richest, the most fully
developed, seems to me what _we_ should call his Secondary Self--this
'Nature-being' that worships wind and fire, is terrified by a large
body of water, is ignorant of human ways, probably also quite
_un_-moral, yet alive with a kind of instinctive wisdom we credit
usually to the animal kingdom--though far beyond anything animals can
claim----"

"Briefly, what we mean by the term 'N. H.,'" suggested Fillery, not
anxious for too many details at the moment.

"Exactly. And I propose we always refer to that aspect of him as
'N. H.,' the other, the normal ordinary man, being LeVallon, his
right name." He smiled faintly.

"Agreed," replied his chief. "We shall always know then exactly which
one we're talking of at a given moment. Now," he went on, "to come
to the chief point, and before you give me details of what happened
abroad, let me hear your own main conclusion. What is LeVallon? What is
'N. H.'?"

Devonham hesitated for some time. It was evident his respect for his
chief made him cautious. There was an eternal battle between these
two, keen though always good-natured, even humorous, the victory not
invariably perhaps with the assistant. Later evidence had often proved
Fillery's swifter imagination correct after all, or, alternately, shown
him to be wrong. They kept an accurate score of the points won and lost
by either.

"You can always revise your conclusions later," Fillery reminded him
slyly. "Call it a preliminary conclusion for the moment. You've not had
time yet for a careful study, I know."

But Devonham this time did not smile at the rally, and his chief
noticed it with secret approval. Here was something new, big, serious,
it seemed. Devonham, apparently, was already too interested to care who
scored or did not score. His Notes of 1914 indeed betrayed his genuine
zeal sufficiently.

"LeVallon," he said at length--"to begin with him! I think
LeVallon--without any flavour of 'N. H.'--is a fine specimen of a
normal human being. His physique is magnificent, as you have seen, his
health and strength exceptional. The brain, so far as I have been able
to judge, functions quite normally. The intelligence, also normal, is
much above the average in quickness, receptivity of ideas, and judgment
based on these. The emotional development, however, puzzles me; the
emotions are not entirely normal. But"--he paused again, a grave
expression on his face--"to answer your question as well as my limited
observation of him, of LeVallon, allows--I repeat that I consider him a
normal young man, though with peculiarities and idiosyncrasies of his
own, as with most other normal young fellows who are individuals, that
is," he added quickly, "and not turned out in bundles cut to measure."

"So much for LeVallon. Now what about 'N. H.'?"

He repeated the question, fixing the assistant with his steady gaze. He
had noticed the confusion in the reply.

"My dear Edward----" began Devonham, after a considerable pause. Then
he stuck fast, sighed, settled his glasses carefully upon his aquiline,
sharp nose, and relapsed into silence. His forehead became wrinkled,
his mouth much pursed.

"Out with it, Paul! This isn't a Court of Law. I shan't behead you if
you're wrong." Yet Fillery, too, spoke gravely.

The other kept his eyes down; his face still wore a puzzled look.
Fillery detected a new expression on the keen, thoughtful features, and
he was pleased to see it.

"To give you the truth," resumed his assistant, "and all question
of who is right or who is wrong aside, I tell you frankly--I am not
sure. I confess myself up against it. It--er--gives me the creeps a
little----" He laughed awkwardly. That swift watchful look, as of a man
who plays a part, flashed and vanished.

"Your feeling, anyhow?" insisted his friend. "Your general feeling?"

"A general judgment based on general feeling," said the other in a
quiet tone, "has little value. It is based, necessarily, as you know,
upon intuition, which I temperamentally dislike. It has no facts to
go upon. I distrust generalizations." He took a deep breath, inhaled
a lot of smoke, exhaled it with relief, and made an effort. It went
against the grain in him to be caught without an explanation.

"'N. H.' in my opinion, and so far as my limited observation of him----"

Fillery allowed himself a laugh of amused impatience. "Leave out the
personal extras for once, and burn your bridges. Tell me finally what
you think about 'N. H.' We're not scoring points now."

Thus faced with an alternative, Devonham found his sense of humour
again and forgot himself. It cost him an effort, but he obeyed the
bigger and less personal mind.

"I really don't know exactly _what_ he is," he confessed again. "He
puzzles me completely. It _may_ be"--he shrugged his shoulders,
compelled by his temperament to hedge--"that he represents, as I first
thought, the content of his parents' minds, the subsequent addition of
Mason's mind included."

"That's possible, usual and comprehensible enough," put in the doctor,
watching him with amused concentration, but with an inner excitement
scarcely concealed.

"Or" resumed Devonham, "it _may_ be that through these----"

"Through his mental inheritance from his parents and from Mason,
yes----"

"----he taps the most primitive stores and layers of racial memory we
know. The world-memory, if I dare put it so, full proof being lacking,
is open to him----"

"Through his subconscious powers, of course?"

"That is your usual theory, isn't it? We have there, at any rate,
a working hypothesis, with a great mass of evidence--generally
speaking--behind it."

"Don't be cynical, Paul. Is this 'N. H.' merely a Secondary
Personality, or is it the real central self? That's the whole point."

"You jump ahead, as usual," replied Devonham, really smiling for the
first time, though his face instantly grew serious again. "Edward," he
went on, "I do not know, I cannot say, I dare not--dare not guess. 'N.
H.' is something entirely new to me, and I admit it." He seemed to find
his stride, to forget himself. "I feel far from cynical. 'N. H.,' in my
opinion, is exceptional. My notes suggested it long ago. He has, for
instance--at least, so it seems to me--peculiar powers."

"Ah!"

"Of suggestion, let us put it."

"Of suggestion, yes. Get on with it, there's a good fellow. I felt
myself an extraordinary vitality about him. I noticed it at once at
Charing Cross."

"I saw you did." Devonham looked hard at him. "You were humming to
yourself, you know."

"I didn't know," was the surprised reply, "but I can well believe it. I
felt a curious pleasure and exhilaration."

Devonham, shrugging his shoulders slightly, resumed: "During the
'LeVallon' periods he is ordinary, though unusually observant,
critical and intelligent; during the 'N. H.' periods he
becomes--er--super-normal. If you felt this--felt anything in the
station, it was because something in you--called up the 'N. H.' aspect."

"It's quick of you to guess that," said Fillery, with quick
appreciation. "You noticed a change in me, well--but the other----? He
divined my 'foreign' blood, you think?"

"It is enough that you responded and felt kinship. Put it that way. 'N.
H.' seems to me"--he took a deeper breath and gave a sort of gasp--"in
some ways--a unique--being--as I said before."

"Tell me, if you can," said Fillery, lighting his own pipe and settling
back into his chair, "tell me a little about your first meeting with
him in the Jura Mountains, what happened and so forth. I remember,
of course, your Notes. After your telegram, I read 'em carefully."
He glanced round at his companion. "They were very honest, Paul, I
thought. Eh?" He was unable to refuse himself the pleasure of the
little dig. "Honest you always are," he added. "We couldn't work
together otherwise, could we?"

Devonham, deep in his own thoughts, did not accept the challenge. He
turned in his chair, puffing at his pipe.

"I can give you briefly what happened and how things went," he said.
"The place, then, first: an ordinary peasant châlet in a remote Jura
valley, difficult of access, situated among what they call the upper
pastures. I reached it by _diligence_ and mule late in the afternoon.
A peasant in a lower valley directed me, adding that 'le monsieur
anglais' was dead and buried two days before----"

"Mason, that is?"

The other nodded. "And adding that 'le fou'----"

"LeVallon, of course?"

"----would eat me alive at sight. He spoke with respect, however, even
awe. He hoped I had come to take him away. The countryside was afraid
of him.

"The valley struck me as intolerably lonely, but of unusual beauty. Big
forests, great rocks, and tumbling streams among cliffs and pastures
made it exceptional. The châlet was simple, clean and comfortable. It
was really an ideal spot for a thinker or a student. The first thing I
noticed was a fire burning on a pile of rock in front of the building.
The sun was setting, and its last rays lit the entire little glen--a
mere gully between precipices and forest slopes--but especially lit up
the pile of rocks where the fire burned, so that I saw the smoke, blue,
red and yellow, and the figure kneeling before it. This figure was a
man, half naked, and of magnificent proportions. When I shouted----"

"You _would_ shout, of course." Yet he did not say it critically.

"----the figure rose and turned and came to meet me. It was LeVallon."

Devonham paused a moment. Fillery's eyes were fixed upon him.

"I admit," Devonham went on, conscious of the other's inquiring and
intent expression, "I was surprised a bit." He smiled his faint,
unwilling smile. "The figure made me start. I was aware of an emotion
I am not subject to--what I called just now the creeps. I thought, at
last, I had really seen a--a vision. He looked so huge, so wonderful,
so radiant. It was, of course, the effect of coloured smoke and
magnifying sunset, added to his semi-nakedness. To the waist he was
stripped. But, at first, his size, his splendour, a kind of radiance
borrowed from the sunlight and the fire, seemed to enlarge him beyond
human. He seemed to dominate, even to fill the little valley.

"I stood still, uncertain of my feelings. There was, I think, a trace
of fear in me. I waited for him to come up to me. He did so. He
stretched out a hand. I took it. And what do you think he said?"

Fillery, the inner excitement and delight increasing in him as he
listened, stared in silence. There was no lightness in him now.

"'Are you Fillery?' That's what he said, and the first words he
uttered. 'Are you Fillery?' But spoken in a way I find difficult to
reproduce. He made the name sound like a rush of wind. 'F,' of course,
involves a draught of breath between the teeth, I know. But _he_ made
the name sound exactly like a gush of wind through branches--that's the
nearest I can get to it."

"Well--and then?"

"Don't be impatient, Edward. I try to be accurate. But really--what
happened next is a bit beyond any experience that we--I--have yet come
across. And, as to what I felt--well, I was tired, hungry, thirsty. I
wanted, normally, rest and food and drink. Yet all these were utterly
forgotten. For a moment or two--I admit it--I felt as if I had come
face to face with something not of this earth quite." He grinned. "A
touch of gooseflesh came to me for the first time in my life. The
fellow's size and radiance in the sunlight, the fact that he stood
there worshipping fire--always, to me, the most wonderful of natural
phenomena--his grandeur and nakedness--the way he pronounced your name
even--all this--er--upset my judgment for the moment." He paused again.
He hesitated. "A visual hallucination, due to fatigue, can be, of
course, very detailed sometimes," he added, a note of challenge in his
tone.

Fillery watched his friend narrowly, as he stumbled among the
details of what he evidently found a difficult, almost an impossible
description.

"Natural enough," he put in. "You'd hardly be human yourself if you
felt nothing at such a sight."

"The loneliness, too, increased the effect," went on the other, "for
there was no one nearer than the peasants who had directed me a
thousand feet below, nor was there another building of any sort in
sight. Anyhow, it seemed, I managed my strange emotions all right, for
the young man took to me at once. He left the fire, if reluctantly,
singing to himself a sort of low chanting melody, with perhaps five or
six notes at most in it, and far from unmusical----"

"He explained the fire? Was he actually worshipping, I mean?"

"It was certainly worship, judging by the expression of his face and
his gestures of reverence and happiness. But I asked no questions. I
thought it best just to accept, or appear to accept, the whole thing as
natural. He said something about the Equinox, but I did not catch it
properly and did not ask. This had evidently been taught him. It was,
however, the 22nd of September, oddly enough, though the gales had not
yet come."

"So you got into the châlet next?" asked the other, noticing the gaps,
the incoherence.

"He put his coat on, sat down with me to a meal of bread and milk and
cheese--meat there seemed none in the building anywhere. This meal was,
if you understand me, obeying a mere habit automatically. He did just
what it had been his habit to do with Mason all these years. He got
the stuff himself--quickly, effectively, no fumbling anywhere--and,
from that moment, hardly spoke again until we left two days later. I
mean that literally. All he said, when I tried to make him talk, was,
'You are not Fillery,' or 'Take me to Fillery. I need him.'

"I almost felt that I was living with some marvellously trained animal,
of extraordinary intelligence, gentle, docile, friendly, but unhappy
because it had lost its accustomed master. But on the other hand--I
admit it--I was conscious of a certain power in his personality beyond
me to explain. That, really, is the best description I can give you."

"You mentioned the name of Mason?" asked Fillery, avoiding a dozen more
obvious and natural questions.

"Several times. But his only reply was a smile, while he repeated the
name himself, adding your own after it: 'Mason Fillery, Mason Fillery,'
he would say, smiling with quiet happiness. 'I like Fillery!'"

"The nights?"

"Briefly--I was glad to see the dawn. We had separate rooms, my own
being the one probably where Mason had died a few days before. But it
was not that I minded in the least. It was the feeling--the knowledge
in fact--that my companion was up and about all night in the building
or out of doors. I heard him moving, singing quietly to himself, the
wooden veranda creaked beneath his tread. He was active all through the
darkness and cannot have slept at all. When I came down soon after dawn
he was running over the slopes a mile away, running towards the châlet,
too, with the speed and lightness of a deer. He had been to some
height, I think, to see the sun rise and probably to worship it----"

"And your journey? You got him away easily?"

"He was only too ready to leave, for it meant coming to _you_. I
arranged with the peasants below to have the châlet closed up, took
my charge to Neuchâtel, and thence to Berne, where I bought him an
outfit, and arrived in due course, as you know, at Charing Cross."

"His first sight of cities, people, trains, steamers and the rest, I
take it. Any reactions?"

"The troubles I anticipated did not materialize. He came like a lamb,
the most helpless and pathetic lamb I ever saw. He stared but asked no
questions. I think he was half dazed, even stupefied with it all."

"Stupefied?"

"An odd word to use, I know. I should have said perhaps 'automatic'
rather. He was so open to my suggestions, doing what my mind expected
him to do, but nothing more--ah! with one exception."

Fillery meant to hear an account of that exception, though the other
would willingly have foregone its telling evidently. It was related,
Fillery felt sure, to the unusual powers Devonham had mentioned.

"Oh, you shall hear it," said the latter quickly, "for what it's
worth. There's no need to exaggerate, of course." He told it rapidly,
accurately, no doubt, because his mind was honest, yet without comment
or expression in his voice and face. He supplied no atmosphere.

"I had got him like a lamb, as I told you, to Paris, and it was during
the Customs examination the--er--little thing occurred. The man,
searching through his trunk, pulled out a packet of flat papers and
opened it. He looked them over with puzzled interest, turning them
upside down to examine them from every possible angle. Then he asked a
trifle unpleasantly what they were. I hadn't the smallest idea myself,
I had never seen them before; they were very carefully wrapped up.
LeVallon, whose sudden excitement increased the official's interest,
told him that they were star-and-weather maps. It doubtless was the
truth; he had made them with Mason; but they were queer-looking papers
to have at such a time, hidden away, too, at the bottom of the trunk;
and LeVallon's manner and expression did not help to disarm the man's
evident suspicion. He asked a number of pointed questions in a very
disagreeable way--who made them, for what purpose, how they were used,
and whether they were connected with aviation. I translated, of course.
I explained their innocence----"

"LeVallon's excitement?" asked Fillery. "What form did it take?
Rudeness, anger, violence of any sort?" He was aware his friend would
have liked to shirk these details.

"Nothing of the kind." He hesitated briefly, then went on. "He behaved,
rather, as though--well, as a devout Catholic might have behaved if his
crucifix or some holy relic were being mauled. The maps were sacred.
Symbols possibly. Heaven knows what! He tried to take them back. The
official, as a natural result, became still more suspicious and, of
course, offensive too. My explanations and expostulations were quite
useless, for he didn't even listen to them."

Devonham was now approaching the part of the story he least wished
to describe. He played for time. He gave details of the ensuing
altercation.

"What happened in the end?" Fillery at length interrupted. "What did
LeVallon do? There were no arrests, I take it?" he added with a smile.

Paul coughed and fidgeted. He told the literal truth, however.

"LeVallon, after listening for a long time to the conversation he could
not understand, suddenly took his fingers off the papers. The man's
dirty hand still held them tightly on the grimy counter. LeVallon
began--or--he suddenly began to breathe--well--heavily rather."

"Rhythmically?"

"Heavily," insisted the other. "In a curious way, anyhow," he added,
determined to keep strictly to the truth, "not unlike Heathcote when he
put himself automatically into trance and then told us what was going
on at the other end of England. You remember the case." He paused a
moment again, as if to recall exactly what had occurred. "It's not
easy to describe, Edward," he continued, looking up. "You remember that
huge draughty hall where they examine luggage at the Lyons Station.
I can't explain it. But that breathing somehow caught the draughts,
used them possibly, in any case increased them. A wind came through
the great hall. I can't explain it," he repeated, "I can only tell you
what happened. That wind most certainly came pouring steadily through,
for I felt it myself, and saw it blow upon the fluttering papers. The
heat in the _salle_ at the same moment seemed to grow intense. Not an
oppressive heat, though. Radiant heat, rather. It felt, I mean, like
a fierce sunlight. I looked up, almost expecting to see a great light
from which it came. It was then--at this very moment--the Frenchman
turned as if someone touched him."

"_You_ felt anything, Paul?"

"Yes," admitted the other slowly.

Fillery waited.

"A--what I must call--a thrill." His voice was lower now.

"Of----?" his Chief persisted.

Devonham waited a full ten seconds before reply. He again shrugged his
shoulders a little. Apparently he sought his words with honest care
that included also intense reluctance and disapproval:

"Loveliness, romance, enchantment; but, above all, I think--power." He
ground out the confession slowly. "By power I mean a sort of confidence
and happiness."

"Increase of vitality, call it. Intensification of your consciousness."

"Possibly. A bigger perspective suddenly, a bigger scale of life;
something--er--a bit wild, but certainly--er--uncommonly stimulating.
The best word, I think, is liberty, perhaps. An immense and careless
sense of liberty." And Fillery, knowing the value of superlatives in
Devonham's cautious mind, felt satisfied. He asked quietly what the
official did next.

"Stood stock still at first. Then his face changed; he smiled; he
looked up understandingly, sympathetically, at LeVallon. He spoke: 'My
father, too,' he said with admiration, 'had a big telescope. Monsieur
is an astronomer.'

"'One of the greatest,' I added quickly; 'these charts are of infinite
value to France.' No sense of comedy touched me anywhere, the ludicrous
was absent. The man bowed, as carefully, respect in every gesture, he
replaced the maps, marked the trunk with his piece of chalk, and let us
go, helping in every way he could."

Devonham drew a long breath, glad that he had relieved himself of his
unwelcome duty. He had told the literal truth.

"Of course, of course," Fillery said, half to himself perhaps.
"A breath of bigger consciousness, his imagination touched, the
subconscious wakened, and intelligence the natural result." He turned
to his colleague. "Interesting, Paul, very," he added in a louder tone,
"and not easy to explain, I grant. The official we do not know, but
you, at any rate, are not a good subject for hypnotic suggestion!"

For some time Devonham said nothing. Presently he spoke:

"Fillery, I tell you--really I love the fellow. He's the most lovable
thing in human shape I ever saw. He gets into your heart so strangely.
We must heal him."

The other sighed, quickly smothering it, yet not before Devonham had
noticed it. They did not look at one another for some seconds, and
there was a certain tenseness, a sense of deep emotion in the air that
each, possibly, sought to hide from the other.

Devonham was the first to break the silence that had fallen between
them.

"To be quite frank--it's LeVallon that appeals most to me," he said,
as if to himself, "whereas you, Edward, I believe, are more--more
interested in the other aspect of him. It's 'N. H.' that interests you."

No challenge was intended, yet the glove was flung. Fillery said
nothing for a minute or two. Then he looked up, and their eyes met
across the smoke-laden atmosphere. It was close on midnight. The world
lay very still and hushed about the house.

"It is," he said quietly, "a pathetic and inspiring case. He is
deserving of"--he chose his words slowly and with care--"our very
best," he concluded shortly.

"And now," he added quickly, "you're tired out, and I ought to have let
you have a night's sleep before taxing you like this." He poured out
two glasses of whisky. "Let us drink anyhow to success and healing of
body, mind--and soul."

"Body, mind and--nerves," said Devonham slowly, as he drank the toast.

"The reason I had none of the trouble I anticipated," remarked
Devonham, as he sipped the reviving liquor, "is simple enough."

"There are two periods, of course. I guessed that."

"Exactly. There is the LeVallon period, when he is quiescent, normal,
very charming into the bargain, more like a good child or trained
animal or happy peasant, if you like it better, than a grown man. And
there is the 'N. H.' period, when he is--otherwise."

"Ah!"

"I arrived just at the transition moment, so to speak. It was during
the change I reached the châlet."

"Precisely." Fillery looked up, smiled and nodded.

"That's about the truth," repeated Devonham, putting his glass down. He
thought for a moment, then added slowly, "I think that fire of his, the
worship, singing--at the autumnal equinox--marked the change. 'N. H,'
at once after that, slipped back into the unconscious state. LeVallon
emerged. It was with LeVallon only or chiefly, _I_ had to deal. He
became so very quiet, dazed a little, half there, as we call it, and
almost entirely silent. He retained little, if any, memory of the 'N.
H.' period, although it lies, I think, just beneath the surface only.
The LeVallon personality, you see, is not very positive, is it? It
seems a quiet, negative state, a condition almost of rest, in fact."

Fillery listening attentively, made no rejoinder.

"We may expect," continued Devonham, "these alternating states, I
think. The frontier between them is, as I said, a narrow one. Indeed,
often they merge or interpenetrate. In my judgment, the main, important
part of his consciousness, that parent Self, is LeVallon--_not_ 'N.
H.'" The voice was slightly strident.

"Ah!"

It so happened that, in the act of exchanging these last words, they
both looked up toward the ceiling, where a moth buzzed round and round,
banging itself occasionally against the electric light. Whether it was
this that drew their sight upwards simultaneously, or whether it was
that some other sound in the stillness of the night had caught their
strained attention, is uncertain. The same thought, at any rate, was
in both minds at that instant, the same freight of meaning trailing
behind it invisibly across the air. Their hearts burned within them;
the two faces upward turned, the lips a little parted as when listening
is intense, the heads thrown back. For in the room above that ceiling,
asleep at this moment, lay the subject of their long discussion; only
a few inches of lath and plaster separated them from the strange being
who, dropping out of space, as it were, had come to make his home with
them. A being, lonely utterly in the world, unique in kind perhaps, his
nature as yet undecipherable, lay trustingly unconscious in that upper
chamber. The two men felt the gravity, the responsibility of their
charge. The same thought had vividly touched them both at the same
instant.

A few minutes later they were still standing, facing one another.
They were of a height, but compared to Fillery's big frame and rugged
head, his friend's appearance was almost slight. Devonham, for all his
qualifications, looked painfully like a shopwalker. They exchanged this
steady gaze for a few seconds without speaking. Then the older man
said quietly:

"Paul, I understand, and I respect your reticence. I think I can agree
with it."

He placed a hand upon the other's shoulder, smiling gently, even
tenderly.

"You have told me much, but you have not told me all! The chief
part--you have intentionally omitted."

"For the present, at any rate," was the reply, given without flinching.

"Your reasons are sound, your judgment perhaps right. I ask no
questions. What happened, what you saw, at the châlet; the 'peculiar
powers' you mentioned; all, in fact, that you think it wise to keep to
yourself for the moment, I leave there willingly."

He spoke gravely, sincere emotion in the eyes and tone. It was in a
lower voice he added:

"The responsibility, of course, is yours."

Devonham returned the steady gaze, pondering his reply a moment.

"I can--and do accept it," he answered. "You have read my thoughts
correctly as usual, Edward. I think you know quite enough already--what
with my Notes and Mason's letter--even too much. Besides, why
complicate it with an account of what were doubtless mere mental
pictures--hallucinations--on my part? This is a matter," he went on
slowly, "a case, we dare not trifle with; there may be strange and
terrible afflictions in it later; we must remain unbiased." The anxiety
deepened on his face.

"True, true," murmured the other. "God bless the boy! May his own gods
bless him!"

"In other words, it will need your clearest, soundest judgment, your
finest skill, your very best, as you said yourself just now." He used
a firmer, yet also a softer tone suddenly: "Edward, you know your own
mind, its contents, its suppressions, its origin; your refusal of the
love of women, your deep powerful dreams that you have suppressed and
put away. Promise me"--the voice and manner were very earnest--"that
you will not communicate these to him in any way, and that you will
keep your judgment absolutely unbiased and untainted." He looked at his
old friend and paused. "Only your purest judgment of what is to come
can help. You promise."

Fillery sighed a scarcely noticeable sigh. "I promise you, Paul. You
are wise--and you are right," he said. "On the other hand, let me say
one thing to you in my turn. This theory of heredity and of mental
telepathic transference--the idea that all his mind's content is
derived from his parents and from Mason--we cannot, remember, force
this transference and interchange _too_ far. I ask only this: be fair
and open yourself with all that follows."

Devonham raised his voice: "Nor can we, apparently, set limits to it,
Edward. But--to be fair and open-minded--I give my promise too."

Thus, in the little downstairs room of a Private Home for Incurable
Mental Cases, _not_ a Lunatic Asylum, though sometimes perhaps next
door to it, these two men, deeply intrigued by a new "Case" that
passed their understanding, as it exceeded their knowledge, practice
and experience, swore to each other to observe carefully, to report
faithfully, and to experiment, if experiment proved necessary, with
honest and affectionate uprightness.

Their views were, obviously, not the same. Devonham, temperamentally
opposed to radical innovations, believed it was a case of divided
personality--hundreds of such cases had passed through their hands.
Forced to accept extended telepathy--that all minds can on occasion
share one another's content, and that even a racial and a world-memory
can be tapped--he feared that his Chief might influence LeVallon, and
twist, thus, the phenomena to a special end. He knew Edward Fillery's
story. He feared, for the sake of truth, the mental transference. He
had, perhaps, other fears as well.

Fillery, on the other hand, believing as much, and knowing more than
his colleague, saw in "N. H." a unique possibility. He was thrilled
and startled with a half-impossible hope. He felt as if someone ran
beside his life, bearing impossible glad tidings, an unexpected,
half-incredible figure, the tidings marvellously bright. He hoped, he
already wished to think, that "N. H." might shadow forth a promise of
some magical advance for the ultimate benefit of the Race....

The thinkers were crying on the housetops that progress was a myth,
that each wave of civilization at its height reached the same average
level without ever passing further. The menace to the present
civilization, already crumbling, was in full swing everywhere;
knowledge, culture, learning threatened in due course with the chaos
of destruction that has so far been the invariable rule. The one hope
of saving the world, cried religion, lay in substituting spiritual for
material values--a Utopian dream at best. The one chance, said science,
on the other hand, was that civilization to-day is continuous and not
isolated.

The best hope, believed Fillery, the only hope, lay in raising the
individual by the drawing up into full consciousness of the limitless
powers now hidden and inactive in his deeper self--the so-called
subliminal faculties. With these greater powers must come also greater
moral development.

Already, with his uncanny insight, derived from knowledge of himself,
he had piercingly divined in "N. H." a being, whatever he might be,
whose nature acted automatically and directly upon the subconscious
self in everybody.

That bright messenger, running past his life, had looked, as with fire
and tempest, straight into his eyes.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was long after one o'clock when the two men said good-night, and
went to their rooms. Devonham was soon in bed, though not soon asleep.
Exhausted physically though he was, his mind burned actively. His
recent memories were vivid. All he had purposely held back from
Fillery returned with power....

The uncertainty whether he had experienced hallucination, or had
actually, as by telepathic transfer from LeVallon, touched another
state of consciousness, kept sleep far away....

His brain was far too charged for easy slumber. He feared for his dear,
faithful friend, his colleague, the skilful, experienced, yet sorely
tempted mind--tempted by Nature and by natural weaknesses of birth and
origin--who now shared with him the care and healing of a Case that
troubled his being too deeply for slumber to come quickly.

Yet he had done well to keep these memories from Edward Fillery. If
Fillery once knew what _he_ knew, his judgment and his scientific
diagnosis must be drawn hopelessly away from what he considered the
best treatment: the suppression of "N. H." and the making permanent of
"LeVallon."...

He fell asleep eventually, towards dawn, dreaming impossible, radiant
dreams of a world he might have hoped for, yet could not, within the
limits of his little cautious, accurate mind, believe in. Dreams that
inspire, yet sadden, haunted his release from normal consciousness.
Someone had walked upon his life, leaving a growth of everlasting
flowers in their magical tread, though his mind--his stolid, cautious
mind--had no courage for the plucking....

And while he slept, as the hours slipped from west to east, his chief
and colleague, lying also sleepless, rose suddenly before the late
autumn dawn, and walked quietly along the corridor towards the Private
Suite where the new patient rested. His mind was quiet, yet his inner
mind alert. His thoughts, his hopes, his dreams, these lay, perhaps,
beyond human computation. He was calmer far than his assistant, though
more strangely tempted.

It was just growing light, the corridor was cold. A cool, damp air came
through the open windows and the linoleum felt like ice against the
feet. The house lay dead and silent. Pausing a moment by a window, he
listened to the chattering of early sparrows. He felt chill and hungry,
unrested too, though far from sleepy. He was aware of London--bleak,
heavy, stolid London town. The troubles of modern life, of Labour,
Politics, Taxes, cost of living, all the common, daily things came in
with the cheerless morning air.

He reached the door he sought, and very softly opened it.

The radiance met him in the face, so that he almost gasped. The scent
of flowers, the sting of sharp, keen forest winds, the exhilaration of
some distant mountain-top. There was, actually, a tang of dawn, known
only to those who have tasted the heights at sunrise with the heart.
And into his heart, singing with happy confidence, rose a sense of
supreme joy and confidence that mastered all little earthly woes and
pains, and walked among the stars.

The occupant of the bed lay very still. His shining hair was spread
upon the pillow. The splendid limbs were motionless. The chest and arms
were bare, the single covering sheet tossed off. The strange, wild face
wore happiness and peace upon its skin, the features very calm, the
mouth relaxed. It almost seemed a god lay sleeping there upon a little
human bed.

How long he stood and stared he did not know, but suddenly, the light
increased. The curtains stirred about the bed.

With a marvellous touch the separate details merged and quickened into
life. The room was changed. The occupant of the bed moved very swiftly,
as through the open window came the first touch of exhilarating light.
Gold stole across the lintel, breaking over the roofs of slates beyond.
The leafless elm trees shimmered faintly. The telegraph wires shone.
There was a running sparkle. It was dawn.

The figure leaped, danced--no other word describes it--to the open
window where the light and air gushed in, spread wide its arms, lowered
its radiant head, began to sing in low, melodious rhythmic chant--and
Fillery, as silently as he had come, withdrew and closed the door
unseen. His heart moved strangely, but--his promise held him....




CHAPTER VII


The following days it seemed to both Fillery and Devonham that their
discussion of the first night had been pitched in too intense, too
serious a key. Their patient was so commonplace again, so ordinary. He
made himself quite at home, seemed contented and uncurious, taking it
for granted he had come to stay for ever, apparently.

Apart from his strange beauty, his size, virility and a general
impression he conveyed of immense energies he was too easy-going to
make use of, he might have passed for a peasant, a countryman to
whom city life was new; but an educated, or at least half-educated,
countryman. He was so big, yet never gauche. He was neither stupid
nor ill-informed; the garden interested him, he knew much about the
trees and flowers, birds and insects too. He discussed the weather,
prevailing wind, moisture, prospects of change and so forth with a
judgment based on what seemed a natural, instinctive knowledge. The
gardener looked on him with obvious respect.

"Such nice manners and such a steady eye," Mrs. Soames, the matron,
mentioned, too, approvingly to Devonham. "But a lot in him he doesn't
understand himself, unless I'm wrong. Not much the matter with his
nerves, anyhow. Once he's married--unless I'm much mistaken--eh, sir?"

He was quiet, talking little, and spent the morning over the books
Fillery had placed purposely in his sitting-room, books on simple
physics, natural history and astronomy. It was the latter that absorbed
him most; he pored over them by the hour.

Fillery explained the situation so far as he thought wise. The young
man was honesty and simple innocence, but only vaguely interested in
the life of the great city he now experienced for the first time. He
had in his luggage a copy of the Will by which Mason had left him
everything, and he was pleased to know himself well provided for. Of
Mason, however, he had only a dim, uncertain, almost an impersonal
memory, as of someone encountered in a dream.

"I suppose something's happened to me," he said to Fillery, his
language normal and quite ordinary again. He spoke with a slight
foreign accent. "There was somebody, of course, who looked after me and
lived with me, but I can't remember who or where it was. I was very
happy," he added, "and yet ... I miss something."

Dr. Fillery, remembering his promise, did not press him.

"It will all come back by degrees," he remarked in a sympathetic tone.
"In the meantime, you must make yourself at home here with us, for as
long as you like. You are quite free in every way. I want you to be
happy here."

"I live with you always," was the reply. "There are things I want to
tell you, ask you too." He paused, looking thoughtful. "There was
someone I told all to once."

"Come to me with everything. I'll help you always, so far as I can." He
placed a hand upon his knee.

"There are feelings, big feelings I cannot reach quite, but that make
me feel different"--he smiled beautifully--"from--others." Quick as
lightning he had changed the sentence at the last word, substituting
"others" for "you." Had he been aware of a slight uneasy emotion in
his listener's heart? It had hardly betrayed itself by any visible
sign, yet he had instantly divined its presence. Such evidences of a
subtle, intimate, understanding were not lacking. Yet Fillery admirably
restrained himself.

"There are bright places I have lost," he went on frankly, no sign of
shy reserve in him. "I feel confused, lost somewhere, as if I didn't
belong here. I feel"--he used an odd word--"doubled." His face shaded a
little.

"Big overpowering London is bound to affect you," put in Fillery,
who had noticed the rapid discernment, "after living among woods and
mountains, as you have lived, for years. All will come right in a
little time; we must settle down a bit first----"

"Woods and mountains," repeated the other, in a half-dreamy voice,
his eyes betraying an effort to follow thought elsewhere. "Of course,
yes--woods and mountains and hot living sunlight--and the winds----"

His companion shifted the conversation a little. He suggested a line of
reading and study.... They talked also of such ordinary but necessary
things as providing a wardrobe, of food, exercise, companionship of
his own age, and so forth--all the commonplace details of ordinary
daily life, in fact. The exchange betrayed nothing of interest, nothing
unusual. They mentioned theatres, music, painting, and, beyond the
natural curiosity of youth that was ignorant of these, no detail was
revealed that need have attracted the attention of anybody, neither
of doctor, psychologist, nor student of human nature. With the single
exception that the past years had been obliterated from memory, though
much that had been acquired in them remained, there was not noticeable
peculiarity of any sort. Both language and point of view were normal.

This was obviously LeVallon. The "N. H." personality scarcely cast a
shadow even. Yet "N. H.," the doctor was quick to see, lay ready and
waiting just below the surface. There was no doubt in _his_ mind which
was the central self and which its transient projection, the secondary
personality. Again, as he sat and talked, he had the odd impression
that someone with bright tidings ran swiftly past his life, perhaps
towards it.

The swift messenger was certainly not LeVallon. LeVallon, indeed, was
but a shadow cast before this glad, bright visitant. Thus he felt,
at any rate. LeVallon was an empty simulacrum left behind while "N.
H." rested, or was active upon other things, things natural to him,
elsewhere. LeVallon was an arm, a limb, a feeler that "N. H." thrust
out. At Charing Cross, for instance, for a brief moment only, "N.
H." had peered across his shoulder, then withdrawn again. In the car
had sat by his side LeVallon. The being he now chatted with was also
LeVallon only.

But in his own heart, deep down, hidden yet eager to break loose, lay
his own deeper self that burned within him. This, the important part
of him, yearned towards "N. H." And up rose the strange symbol that
always appeared when his deepest, perhaps his subliminal self was
stirred. That lost radiant valley in the haunted Caucasus shone close
and brimming over ... with light, with flowers, with splendid winds and
fire, symbols of a vaster, grander, happier life, though perhaps a life
not yet within the range of normal human consciousness.... The fiery
symbol flashed and passed.

Curious thoughts and pictures rose flaming in his mind, persistent
ideas that bore no possible relation to his intellectual, reasoning
life. Passing across the background of his brain, as with waves of
heat and colour, they were correlated somewhere with harmonious sound.
Music, that is, came with them, as though inspiration brought its own
sound with it that made singing natural. They haunted him, these vague,
pleasurable phantasmagoria that were connected, he felt sure, with
music, as with childhood's lost imaginings. For a long time he searched
in vain for their source and origin. Then, suddenly, he remembered.
He heard his father's gruff, humorous voice: "There's not a scrap of
evidence, of course...." And, sharply, vividly, the buried memory gave
up its dead. His childish question went crashing through the air: "Are
we the only beings in the world?"

"Nothing is ever lost," he reminded himself with a smile that Devonham
assuredly never saw. "Every seed must bear its fruit in time."

And emotion surged through him from the remorseless records of his
underself. The childhood's love, with its correlative of deep, absolute
belief, returned upon him, linked on somehow to that old familiar
symbol he knew to mean his awakening subconscious being--a flowering
Caucasian vale of sun and wind. A belief, he realized, especially a
belief of childhood, remains for ever inexpugnable, eternal, prolific
seed of future harvests.

The unstable in him betrayed its ineradicable, dangerous streak. There
rose upon him in a cloud strange notions that inflamed imagination
sweetly. Later reading, indeed, had laid flesh upon the skeleton of
the boyish notion, though derived in the first instance he certainly
knew not whence. The literature and tradition of the East, he recalled,
peopled the elements with conscious life, to which the world's
fairy-tales--remnant of lost knowledge possibly--added nerves and heart
and blood. In all human bodies, at any rate, dwelt not necessarily
always human spirits, human souls....

He checked himself with a smile he would have liked to call a chuckle,
but that yet held some inexplicable happiness at its heart. His
rugged, eager face, its expression bitten deeply by experience, turned
curiously young. There rushed through him the Eastern conception
of another system of life, another evolution, deathless, divine,
important, the Order of the _Devas_, a series of Nature Beings entirely
apart from human categories. They included many degrees, from fairies
to planetary spirits, the gods, so called; and their duties, work and
purposes were concerned, he remembered, with carrying out the Laws
of Nature, the busy tending of all forms and structures, from the
elaborately marvellous infusoria in a drop of stagnant water, the
growth of crystals, the upbuilding of flowers and trees, of insects,
animals, humans, to the guidance and guardianship of those vaster forms
of heavenly bodies, the stars, the planets and the mighty suns, whose
gigantic "bodies," inhabited by immenser consciousness, people empty
space.... A noble, useful, selfless work, God's messengers....

He checked himself again, as the rich, ancient notion flitted across
his stirring memory.

"Delightful, picturesque conceptions of the planet's young, fair
ignorance!" he reminded himself, smiling as before.

Whereupon rose, bursting through his momentary dream, with full-fledged
power, the great hope of his own reasoned, scientific Dream--that
man is greater than he knows, and that the progress of the Race was
demonstrable.

For, to the subliminal powers of an awakened Race these Nature Beings
with their special faculties, must lie open and accessible. The
human and the non-human could unite! Nature must come back into the
hearts of men and win them again to simple, natural life with love,
with joy, with naked beauty. Death and disease must vanish, hope and
purity return. The Race must develop, grow, become in the true sense
_universal_. It could know God!

The vision flashed upon him with extraordinary conviction, so that he
forgot for the moment how securely he belonged to the unstable. The
smile of happiness spread, as it were, over his entire being. He glowed
and pulsed with its delicious inward fire. Light filled his being for
an instant--an instant of intoxicating belief and certainty and vision.
The instant inspiration of a dream went lost and vanished. He had drawn
upon childhood and legendary reading for the substance of a moment's
happiness. He shook himself, so to speak. He remembered his patients
and his duties, his colleague too....

Nothing, meanwhile, occurred to arouse interest or attention. LeVallon
was quite docile, ordinary; he needed no watching; he slept well, ate
well, spent his leisure with his books and in the garden. He complained
often of the lack of sunlight, and sometimes he might be seen taking
some deep breaths of air into his lungs by the open window or on the
balcony. The phases of the moon, too, interested him, and he asked
once when the full moon would come and then, when Devonham told him,
he corrected the date the latter gave, proving him two hours wrong.
But, on the whole, there seemed little to differentiate him from the
usual young man whose physique had developed in advance of his mental
faculties; his knowledge in some respects certainly was backward, as in
the case of arrested development. He seemed an intelligent countryman,
but an unusually intelligent countryman, though all the time another
under-intelligence shone brightly, betraying itself in remarks and
judgments oddly phrased.

Dr. Fillery took him, during the following day or two, to concerts,
theatres, cinemas. He enjoyed them all. Yet in the theatres he was
inclined to let his attention wander. The degree of alertness varied
oddly. His critical standard, moreover, was curiously exacting; he
demanded the real creative interpretation of a part, and was quick to
detect a lack of inspiration, of fine technique, of true conception in
a player. Reasons he failed to give, and argument seemed impossible to
him, but if voice or gesture or imaginative touch failed anywhere, he
lost interest in the performer from that moment.

"He has poor breath," he remarked. "He only imitates. He is outside."
Or, "She pretends. She does not feel and know. Feeling--the feeling
that comes of fire--she has not felt."

"She does not understand her part, you mean?" suggested Fillery.

"She does not burn with it," was the reply.

At concerts he behaved individually too. They bored as well as puzzled
him; the music hardly stirred him. He showed signs of distress at
anything classical, though Wagner, Debussy, the Russians, moved him and
produced excitement.

"He," was his remark, with emphasis, "has _heard_. He gives me freedom.
I could fly and go away. He sets me free ..." and then he would say no
more, not even in reply to questions. He could not define the freedom
he referred to, nor could he say where he could go away _to_. But
his face lit up, he smiled his delightful smile, he looked happy.
"Stars," he added once in a tone of interest, in reply to repeated
questions, "stars, wind, fire, away from _this!_"--he tapped his head
and breast--"I feel more alive and real."

"It's real and true, that music? That's what you feel?"

"It's beyond this," he replied, again tapping his body. "_They have
heard._"

The cinema interested him more. Yet its limits seemed to perplex him
more than its wonder thrilled him. He accepted it as a simple, natural,
universal thing.

"They stay always on the sheet," he observed with evident surprise.
"And I hear nothing. They do not even sing. Sound and movement go
together!"

"The speaking will come," explained Fillery. "Those are pictures
merely."

"I understand. Yet sound is natural, isn't it? They ought to be heard."

"Speech," agreed his companion, "is natural, but singing isn't."

"Are they not alive enough to sing?" was the reply, spoken to himself
rather than to his neighbour, who was so attentive to his least
response. "Do they only sing when"--Fillery heard it and felt something
leap within him--"when they are paid or have an audience?" he finished
the sentence quickly.

"No one sings naturally of their own accord--not in cities, at any
rate," was the reply.

LeVallon laughed, as though he understood at once.

"There is no sun and wind," he murmured. "Of course. They cannot."

It was the cinemas that provided most material for observation, Fillery
found. There was in a cinema performance something that excited his
companion, but excited him more than the doctor felt he was justified
in encouraging. Obviously the other side of him, the "N. H." aspect,
came up to breathe under the stimulus of the rapid, world-embracing,
space-and-time destroying pictures on the screen. Concerts did not
stimulate him, it seemed, but rather puzzled him. He remained wholly
the commonplace LeVallon--with one exception: he drew involved patterns
on the edge of his programmes, patterns of a very complicated yet
accurate kind, as though he almost saw the sounds that poured into
his ears. And these ornamented programmes Dr. Fillery preserved.
Sound--music--seemed to belong to his interpretation of movement. About
the cinema, however, there seemed something almost familiar, something
he already knew and understood, the sound belonging to movement only
lacking.

Apart from these small incidents, LeVallon showed nothing unusual,
nothing that a yokel untaught yet of natural intelligence might not
have shown. His language, perhaps, was singular, but, having been
educated by one mind only, and in a region of lonely forests and
mountains, remote from civilized life, there was nothing inexplicable
in the odd words he chose, nor in the peculiar--if subtle and
penetrating--phrases that he used. Invariably he recognized the
spontaneous, creative power as distinguished from the derivative that
merely imitated.

He found ways of expressing himself almost immediately, both in speech
and writing, however, and with a perfection far beyond the reach of a
half-educated country lad; and this swift aptitude was puzzling until
its explanation suddenly was laid bare. He absorbed, his companion
realized at last, as by telepathy, the content of his own, of Fillery's
mind, acquiring the latter's mood, language, ideas, as though the two
formed one being.

The discovery startled the doctor. Yet what startled him still more
was the further discovery, made a little later, that he himself could,
on occasions, become so identified with his patient that the slightest
shade of thought or feeling rose spontaneously in his own mind too.

He remained, otherwise, almost entirely "LeVallon"; and, after a full
report made to Devonham, and the detailed discussion thereon that
followed, Dr. Fillery had no evidence to contradict the latter's
opinion: "LeVallon is the real true self. The other personality--'N.
H.' as we call it--is a mere digest and accumulation of material
supplied by his parents and by Mason."

"Let us wait and see what happens when 'N. H.' appears and _does_
something," Fillery was content to reply.

"If," answered Devonham, with sceptical emphasis, "it ever does appear."

"You think it won't?" asked Fillery.

"With proper treatment," said Devonham decisively, "I see no reason
why 'N. H.' should not become happily merged in the parent self--in
LeVallon, and a permanent cure result."

He put his glasses straight and stared at his chief, as much as to say
"You promised."

"Perhaps," said Fillery. "But, in my judgment, 'LeVallon' is too slight
to count at all. I believe the whole, real, parent Self is 'N. H.,'
and the only life LeVallon has at all is that which peeps up through
him--from 'N. H.'"

Fillery returned his serious look.

"If 'N. H.' is the real self, and I am right," he added slowly, "you,
Paul, will have to revise your whole position."

"I shall," returned Devonham. "But--you will allow this--it is a lot to
expect. I see no reason to believe in anything more than a subconscious
mind of unusual content, and possibly of unusual powers and extent," he
added with reluctance.

"It is," said Fillery significantly, "a lot to expect--as you said just
now. I grant you that. Yet I feel it possible that----" he hesitated.

Devonham looked uncomfortable. He fidgeted. He did not like the pause.
A sense of exasperation rose in him, as though he knew something of
what was coming.

"Paul," went on his chief abruptly in a tone that dropped instinctively
to a lower key--almost a touch of awe lay behind it--"you admit no
deity, I know, but you admit purpose, design, intelligence."

"Well," replied the other patiently, long experience having taught him
iron restraint, "it's a blundering, imperfect system, inadequately
organized--if you care to call that intelligence. It's of an extremely
intricate complexity. I admit that. Deity I consider an unnecessary
assumption."

"The love and hate of atoms alone bowls you over," was the unexpected
comment. "The word 'Laws' explains nothing. A machine obeys the laws,
but intelligence conceived that machine--and a man repairs and keeps
it going. Who--what--keeps the daisy going, the crystal, the creative
thought in the imagination? An egg becomes a leaf-eating caterpillar,
which in turn becomes a honey-eating butterfly with wings. A yolk turns
into feathers. Is that accomplished without intelligence?"

"Ask our new patient," interrupted Devonham, wiping his glasses with
unnecessary thoroughness.

"Which?"

Devonham startled, looked up without his glasses. It seemed the
question made him uneasy. Putting the glasses on suddenly, he stared at
his chief.

"I see what you mean, Edward," he said earnestly, his interest deeply
captured. "Be careful. We know nothing, remember, nothing of life.
Don't jump ahead like this or take your dreams for reality. We have our
duty--in a case like this."

Fillery smiled, as though to convey that he remembered his promise.

"Humanity," he replied, "is a very small section of the universe.
Compared to the minuter forms of life, which _may_ be quite as
important, if not more so, the human section is even negligible;
while, compared to the possibility of greater forms----" He broke off
abruptly. "As you say, Paul, we know nothing of life after all, do we?
Nothing, less than nothing! We observe and classify a few results,
that's all. We must beware of narrow prejudice, at any rate--you and I."

His eyes lost their light, his speech dried up, his ideas, dreams,
speculations returned to him unrewarded, unexpressed. With natures in
whom the subconscious never stirred, natures through whom its magical
fires cast no faintest upward gleam, intercourse was ever sterile,
unproductive. Such natures had no background. Even a fact, with them,
was detached from its true big life, its full significance, its divine
potentialities!...

"We must beware of prejudice," he repeated quietly. "We seek truth
only."

"We must beware," replied Devonham, as he shrugged his shoulders,
"of suggestion--of auto-suggestion above all. We must remember
how repressed desires dramatize themselves--especially," he added
significantly, "when aided by imagination. We seek only facts." On his
face appeared swiftly, before it vanished again, an expression of keen
anxiety, almost of affliction, yet tempered, as it were, by surprise
and wonder, by pity possibly, and certainly by affection.




CHAPTER VIII


To Devonham, meanwhile, LeVallon's behaviour was polite and kind and
distant; he did not show distrust of any sort, but he betrayed a
certain diffidence, reserve and caution. Trust he felt; sympathy he did
not feel. To the amusement of Fillery, he suggested almost a kind of
mild contempt when dealing with him, and this amusement was increased
by the fact that it obviously annoyed Devonham, while it gratified
his chief. For towards Fillery, LeVallon behaved with an intimate and
understanding sympathy that proved his instantaneous affection based
upon mutual comprehension. It seemed that LeVallon and Fillery had
known one another always.

It was doubtless, due to this innate sympathy between them that Edward
Fillery's rare gift of absorbing the content of another's mind, even to
the point of taking on that other's conditions, physical and emotional
at the same time, was so successful. By means of a highly developed
power of auto-suggestion, he had learned so to identify his own mind,
thought, feeling with those of a patient, that there resulted a kind of
merging by which he literally became that patient. He felt with him.
As a subject sees the pictures in the hypnotiser's mind, perceives
his thoughts, divines his slightest will, so Fillery, reversing the
process, could realize for the moment exactly what his patient was
thinking, feeling, desiring. It was of great use to him in his strange
practice.

This gift, naturally, varied in degree, and was not invariably
successful. In some cases he only felt, the emotion alone being thus
transferred; in others he only saw what the patient saw, or thought
he saw, the accompanying emotion being omitted; in others again, as
in cases of vision at a distance, either of time or space, he had
been able to follow the "travelling sight" of his patient, whose
consciousness in trance was operating far away, and thus to check for
subsequent verification exactly what that patient saw. He had shared
strange experiences with others--with a man, for instance, in whom
sight was transferred to the tip of his index finger, so that he could
read a book by passing that finger along the printed line; with a
woman, again, in whom "exteriorized consciousness" manifested itself,
so that, if the air several inches from her face was pinched or struck,
the impact was received and an actual bruise produced upon her skin.

This extension of consciousness, its seeds already in his nature,
he had trained and developed to a point where he could almost rely
upon auto-suggestion bringing about quickly the desired conditions.
Its success, however, as mentioned, was variable. With "N. H.,"
especially now, this variableness was marked; sometimes it was so
easily accomplished as to seem natural and without a conscious effort,
while at other times it failed completely. Since it was in no sense an
attempt to transfer anything from his own mind to that of the patient,
Fillery felt that his promise to his colleague was not involved.

The following scene describes the first time in which the process
took place with his new patient. Fillery himself wrote down the
words, supplied the detailed description, filled in the emotion and
psychology, but exactly as these occurred and as he felt them, both
when these took place, respectively, in his own consciousness and in
that of his patient. Part of the time he was present, part of it he
was not visibly so, being screened from observation, yet so placed
that he could note everything that happened. It is clear, however,
that his mind was so intimately _en rapport_ with the thoughts and
feelings of "N. H.," that he experienced in his own being all that
"N. H." experienced. The description was written immediately after
the occurrence, though some of it, the spoken language in particular,
was jotted down in his hiding place at the actual moment.

The interlacing of the two minds, their interpenetration, as it were,
one occasionally dominating the other, is curious to trace and far from
difficult to disentangle. Similarly the interweaving of LeVallon and
"N. H." is noticeable. The description given by Devonham of the portion
of the occurrence he witnessed personally, or heard about from Nurse
Robbins and the attendants--this description reduces the whole thing
to the commonplace level of "a slight seizure accompanied by signs of
violence and moments of delirium due to excitement and fatigue, and
soon cured by sleep."

The occurrence took place precisely at the period when the moon was at
the full.




CHAPTER IX


The body I'm in and using is 22, as they call it, and from a man named
Mason, a geologist, I receive sums of money, regularly paid, with which
I live. They call it "live." A roof and walls protect me, who do not
need protection; my body, which it irks, is covered with wool and cloth
and stuff, fitting me as bark fits a tree and yet not part of me; my
feet, which love the touch of earth and yearn for it, are cased in dead
dried skin called leather; even my head and hair, which crave the sun
and wind, are covered with another piece of dead dried skin, shaped
like a shell, but an ugly shell, in which, were it shaped otherwise,
the wind and rustling leaves might sing with flowers.

Before 22 I remember nothing--nothing definite, that is. I opened my
eyes in a soft, but not refreshing case standing on four iron legs,
and well off the ground, and covered with coarse white coverings piled
thickly on my body. It was a bed. Slabs of transparent stuff kept out
the living sunshine for which I hungered; thick solid walls shut off
the wind; no stars or moon showed overhead, because an enormous lid hid
every bit of sky. No dew, therefore, lay upon the sheets. I smelt no
earth, no leaves, no flowers. No single natural sound entered except
the chattering of dirty sparrows which had lost its freshness. I was in
a hospital.

One comely figure alone gave me a little joy. It was soft and slim
and graceful, with a smell of fern and morning in its hair, though
that hair was lustreless and balled up in ugly lumps, with strips of
thin metal in it. They called it nurse and sister. It was the first
moving thing I saw when my eyes opened on my limited and enclosed
surroundings. My heart beat quicker, a flash of thin joy came up
in me. I had seen something similar before somewhere; it reminded
me, I mean, of something I had known elsewhere; though but a shabby,
lifeless, clumsy copy of this other glorious thing. Though not real, it
stirred this faint memory of reality, so that I caught at the skirts
of moonlight, stars and flowers reflected in a forest pool where my
companion played for long periods of happiness between our work. The
perfume and the eyes did that. I watched it for a bit, as it moved
away, came close and looked at me. When the eyes met mine, a wave of
life, but of little life, surged faintly through me.

They were dim and pitiful, these eyes; mournful, unlit, unseeing. The
stars had set in them; dull shadows crowded. They were so small. They
were hungry too. They were unsatisfied. For some minutes it puzzled
me, then I understood. That was the word--unsatisfied. Ah, but I could
alter that! I could comfort, help, at any rate. My strength, though
horribly clipped and blocked, could manage a little thing like that! My
smaller rhythms I could put into it.

The eyes, the smile, the whole soft comely bundle, so pitifully hungry
and unsatisfied, I rose and seized, pressing it close inside my own
great arms, and burying it all against my breast. I crushed it, but
very gently, as I might crush a sapling. My lips were amid the ferny
hair. I breathed upon it willingly, glad to help.

It was a poor unfinished thing, I felt at once, soft and yielding where
it should have been resilient and elastic as fresh turf; the perfume
had no body, it faded instantly; there was so little life in it.

But, as I held it in my big embrace, smothering its hunger as best I
could within my wave of being, this bundle, this poor pitiful bundle,
screamed and struggled to get free. It bit and scratched and uttered
sounds like those squeaks the less swift creatures make when the
swifter overtake them.

I was too surprised to keep it to me; I relaxed my hold. The instant I
did so the figure, thus released, stood upright like a young birch the
wind sets free. The figure looked alive. The hair fell loose, untidily,
the puny face wore colour, the eyes had fire in them. I saw that fire.
It was a message. Memory stirred faintly in me.

"Ah!" I cried. "I've helped you anyhow a little!"

The scene that followed filled me with such trouble and bewilderment
that I cannot recall exactly what occurred. The figure seemed to
spit at me, yet not with grace and invitation. There was no sign of
gratitude. I was entirely misunderstood, it seemed. Bells rang, as the
figure rushed to the door and flung it open. It called aloud; similar,
though quite lifeless figures came in answer and filled the room. A
doctor--Devonham, they called him--followed them. I was most carefully
examined in a dozen curious ways that tickled my skin a little so
that I smiled. But I lay quite still and silent, watching the whole
performance with a confusion in my being that baffled my comprehending
what was going on. Most of the figures were frightened.

Then the doctor gave place to Fillery, whose name has rhythm.

To him I spoke at once:

"I wished to comfort and revive her," I told him. "She is so starved. I
was most gentle. She brings a message only."

He made no reply, but gazed at me with the corners of his mouth both
twitching, and in his eyes--ah, his eyes had more of the sun in them--a
flash of something that had known fire, at least, if it had not kept it.

"My God! I worship thee," I murmured at the glimpse of the Power I must
own as Master and creator of my being. "Even when thou art playful, I
adore thee and obey."

Then four other figures, shaped like the doctor but wholly mechanical,
a mere blind weight operating through them, held my arms and legs. Not
the least desire to move was in me luckily. I say "luckily," because,
had I wished it, I could have flung them through the roof, blown down
the little walls, caught up a dozen figures in my arms, and rushed
forth with them towards the Powers of Fire and Wind to which I belonged.

Could I? I felt that I could. The sight of the true fire, small though
it was, in the comely figure's and the doctor's eyes, had set me in
touch again with my home and origin. This touch I had somehow lost;
I had been "ill," with what they called nervous disorder and injured
reason. The lost touch was now restored. But, luckily, as I said, there
was no desire in me to set free these other figures, to help them in
any way, after the reception my first kindly effort had experienced. I
lay quite still, held by these four grotesque and puny mechanisms. The
comely one, with the others similar to her, had withdrawn. I felt very
kindly towards them all, but especially towards the doctor, Fillery,
who had shown that he knew my deity and origin. None of them were worth
much trouble, anyhow. I felt that too. A mild, sweet-toned contempt was
in me.

"Dangerous," was a word I caught them whispering as they went. I
laughed a little. The four faces over me made odd grimaces, tightening
their lips, and gripping my legs and arms with greater effort. The
doctor--Fillery--noticed it.

"Easy, remember," he addressed the four. "There's really no need to
hold. It won't recur." I nodded. We understood one another. And, with a
smile at me, he left the room, saying he would come back after a short
interval. A link with my source, a brother as it were, went with him. I
was lonely....

I began to hum songs to myself, little fragments of a great natural
music I had once known but lost, and I noticed that the four figures,
as I sang, relaxed their grip of my limbs considerably. To tell the
truth, I forgot that they were holding me; their grip, anyhow, was
but a thread I could snap without the smallest effort. The songs
were happiness in me. Upon free leaping rhythms I careered with an
exhilarating rush of liberty; all about space I soared and sank; I
was picked up, flung far, riding the crest of immense waves of orderly
vibration that delighted me. I let myself go a bit, let my voice out,
I mean. No effort accompanied my singing. It was automatic, like
breathing almost. It was natural to me. These rhythmical sounds and the
patterns that they wove in space were the outlines of forms it was my
work to build. This expressed my nature. Only my power was blocked and
stifled in this confining body. The fire and air which were my tools I
could not control. I have forgotten--forgotten----!

"Got a voice, ain't he?" observed one of the figures admiringly.

"Lunies can do 'most anything they have a mind to."

"Grand Opera isn't it."

"Yes," mentioned the fourth, "but he'll lift the roof off presently.
We'd better stop him before there's any trouble."

I stopped of myself, however: their remarks interested me. Also while I
had been singing, although I called it humming only, they had gradually
let go of me, and were now sitting down on my bed and staring with
quite pleasant faces. All their dim eight eyes were fixed on me. Their
forms were not built well.

"Where did you get that from, Guv'nor?" asked the one who had spoken
first. "Can you give me the name of it?"

The sound of his own voice was like the scratching of a pin after the
enormous rhythm that now ceased.

"Ain't printed, is it?" he went on, as I stared, not understanding what
he meant. "I've got a sister at the Halls," he explained. "She'd make a
hit with that kind of thing. Gave me quite a twist inside to hear it,"
he added, turning to the others.

The others agreed solemnly with dull stupid faces. I lay and listened
to their talk. I longed to help them. I had forgotten how.

"A bit churchy, I thought it," said one. "But, I confess, it stirred me
up."

"Churchy or not, it's the stuff," insisted the first.

"Oh, it's the stuff to give 'em, right enough." And they looked at me
admiringly again. "Where did you get it, if I may ask?" replied Number
One in a more respectful tone. His face looked quite polite. The lips
stretched, showing yellow teeth. It was his smile. But his eyes were
a little more real. Oh, where was my fire? I could have built the
outline better so that he was real and might express far more. I have
forgotten----!

"I hear it," I told him, "because I'm in it. It's all about me. It
never stops. It's what we build with----"

Number One seemed greatly interested.

"Hear it, do you? Why, that's odd now. You see"--he looked at his
companions apologetically, as though he knew they would not believe
him--"my father was like that. He heard his music, he always used to
say, but we laughed at him. He was a composer by trade. Oh, his stuff
was printed too. Of course," he added, "there's musical talent in the
family," as though that explained everything. He turned to me again.
"Give us a little more, Mister--if you don't object, that is," he
added. And his face was soft as he said it. "Only gentle like--if you
don't mind."

"Yes, keep it down a bit," another put in, looking anxiously in the
direction of the closed door. He patted the air with his open palm,
slowly, carefully, as though he patted an animal that might rise and
fly at him.

I hummed again for them, but this time with my lips closed. The waves
of rhythm caught me up and away. I soared and flew and dropped and rose
again upon their huge coloured crests. Curtains and sheets of quiet
flame in palest gold flared shimmering through the sound, while winds
that were full of hurricanes and cyclones swept down to lift the fire
and dance with it in spirals. The perfume of great flowers rose. There
were flowers everywhere, and stars shone through it all like showers of
gold. Ah! I began to remember something. It was flowers and stars as
well as human forms we worked to build....

But I kept the fire from leaping into actual flame; the mighty winds
I held back. Even thus pent and checked, their powerful volume made
the atmosphere shake and pulse about us. Only I could not control them
now.... With an effort I came back, came down, as it were, and saw
the funny little faces staring at me with opened eyes and mouths, and
yellow teeth, pale gums, their skins gone whitish, their figures rigid
with their tense emotion. They were so poorly made, the patterns so
imperfect. The new respect in their manner was marked plainly. Suddenly
all four turned together towards the door. I stopped. The doctor had
returned. But it was Fillery again. I liked the feel of him.

"He wanted to sing, sir, so we let him. It seemed to relieve him a
bit," they explained quickly and with an air of helpless apology.

"Good, good," said the doctor. "Quite good. Any normal expression that
brings relief is good." He dismissed them. They went out, casting back
at me expressions of puzzled thanks and interest. The door closed
behind them. The doctor seated himself beside me and took my hand. I
liked his touch. His hand was alive, at any rate, although within my
own it felt rather like a dying branch or bunch of leaves I grasped.
The life, if thin, was real.

"Where's the rest of it?" I asked him, meaning the music. "I used to
have it all. It's left me, gone away. What's cut it off?"

"You're not cut off really," he said gently. "You can always get
into it again when you really need it." He gazed at me steadily for
a minute, then said in his quiet voice--a full, nice tone with wind
through a forest running in it: "Mason.... Dr. Mason...."

He said no more, but watched me. The name stirred something in me I
could not get at quite. I could not reach down to it. I was troubled by
a memory I could not seize.

"Mason," I repeated, returning his strong gaze. "What--who--was Mason?
And where?" I connected the name with a sense of liberty, also with
great winds and pools of fire, with great figures of golden skin and
radiant faces, with music, too, the music that had left me.

"You've forgotten for the moment," came the deep running voice I liked.
"He looked after you for twenty years. He gave his life for you. He
loved you. He loved your mother. Your father was his friend."

"Has he gone--gone back?"

"He's dead."

"I can get after him though," I said, for the name touched me with a
sense of lost companionship I wanted, though the reference to my father
and mother left me cold. "I can easily catch him up. When I move with
my wind and fire, the fastest things stand still." My own speed, once
I was free again, I knew outpaced easily the swiftest bird, outpaced
light itself.

"Yes," agreed the doctor; "only he doesn't want that now. You can
always catch him up when the time comes. Besides, he's waiting for you
anyhow."

I knew that was true. I sank back comforted upon the stuffy pillows and
lay silent. This tinkling chatter wearied me. It was like trickling
wind. I wanted the flood of hurricanes, the pulse of storms. My
building, shaping powers, my great companions--oh! where were they?

"He taught you himself, taught you all you know," I heard the tinkling
go on again, "but he kept you away from life, thinking it was best. He
was afraid for you, afraid for others too. He kept you in the woods
and mountains where, as he believed, you could alone express yourself
and so be happy. A hundred times, in babyhood and early childhood, you
nearly died. He nursed you back to life. His own life he renounced. Now
he is dead. He has left you all his money."

He paused. I said no word. Faint memories passed through my mind, but
nothing I could hold and seize. The money I did not understand at all,
except that it was necessary.

"He thought at first that you could not possibly live to manhood. To
his surprise you survived everything--illness, accident, disaster of
every sort and kind. Then, as you grew up, he realized his mistake.
Instead of keeping you away from life, he ought to have introduced you
to it and explained it--as I and Devonham are now trying to do. You
could not live for ever alone in woods and mountains; when he was gone
there would be no one to look after you and guide you."

The trickling of wind went on and on. I hardly listened to it. He
did it for his own pleasure, I suppose. It pleased and soothed him
possibly. Yet I remembered every syllable. It was a small detail to
keep fresh when my real memory covered the whole planet.

"Before he died, he recognized his mistake and faced the position
boldly. It was some years before the end; he was hale and hearty
still, yet the end, he knew, was in sight. While the power was still
strong in him, therefore, he did the only thing left to him to do. He
used his great powers. He used suggestion. He hypnotized you, telling
you to forget--from the moment of his death, but not before--forget
everything---- It was only partially successful."

The door opened, the comely figure glanced in, then vanished.

"She wants more help from me," I interrupted the monotonous tinkling
instantly, for pity stirred in me again as I saw her eager, hungry and
unsatisfied little eyes. "Call her back. I feel quite willing. It is
one of the lower forms we made. I can improve it."

Dr. Fillery, as he was called, looked at me steadily, his mouth
twitching at the corners as before, a flash of fire flitting through
his eyes. The fire made me like and trust him; the twitching, too, I
liked, for it meant he knew how absurd he was. Yet he was bigger than
the other figures.

"You can't do that," he said, "you mustn't," and then laughed outright.
"It isn't done, you know--here."

"Why not, sir?" I asked, using the terms the figures used. "I feel like
that."

"Of course, you do. But all you feel can't be expressed except
at the proper times and places. The consent of the other party
always is involved," he went on slowly, "when it's a question of
expressing--anything you feel."

This puzzled me, because in this particular instance the other party
had asked me with her eyes to comfort her. I told him this. He laughed
still more. Caught by the sound--it was just like wind passing among
tall grasses on a mountain ridge--I forgot what he was talking about
for the moment. The sound carried me away towards my own rhythms.

"You've got such amazing insight," he went on tinkling to himself, for
I heard, although I did not listen. "You read the heart too easily, too
quickly. You must learn to hide your knowledge." The laughter which
ran with the words then ended, and I came back to the last thing I had
definitely listened to--"express, expressing," was the phrase he used.

"You told me that self-expression is the purpose for which I'm
here----?"

"I believe it is," he agreed, more solemnly.

"Only sometimes, then?"

"Exactly. If that expression involves another in pain or trouble or
discomfort----"

"Ah! I have to choose, you mean. I have to know first what the other
feels about it."

I began to understand better. It was a game. And all games delighted me.

"You may put it roughly so, yes," he explained, "you're very quick.
I'll give you a rule to guide you," he went on. I listened with an
effort; this tinkling soon wearied me; I could not think long or much;
my way, it seemed, was feeling. "Ask yourself always how what you do
will affect another," Dr. Fillery concluded. "That's a safe rule for
you."

"That is of children," I observed. We stared at each other a moment.
"Both sides keep it?" I asked.

"Childish," he agreed, "it certainly is. Both sides, yes, keep it."

I sighed, and the sigh seemed to rise from my very feet, passing
through my whole being. He looked at me most kindly then, asking why I
sighed.

"I used to be free," I told him. "This is not liberty. And why are we
not all free together?"

"It is liberty for two instead of only for one," he said, "and so, in
the long run, liberty for all."

"So that's where they are," I remarked, but to myself and not to him.
"Not further than that." For what I had once known, but now, it seemed,
forgotten, was far beyond such a foolish little game. We had lived
without such tiny tricks. We lived openly and unafraid. We worked in
harmony. We lived. Yes--but who was "we"? That was the part I had
forgotten.

"It's the growth and development of civilization," I heard the little
drift of wind go whistling thinly, "and it won't take you long to
become quite civilized at this rate, more civilized, indeed, than
most--with your swift intelligence and lightning insight."

"Civilization," I repeated to myself. Then I looked at his eyes which
hid carefully in their depths somewhere that tiny cherished flame I
loved. "Your ways are really very simple," I said. "It's all easy
enough to learn. It is so small."

"A man studying ants," he tinkled, "finds them small, but far from
simple. You may find complications later. If so, come to me."

I promised him, and the fire gleamed faintly in his eyes a moment. "He
entrusted you to me. Your mother," he added softly, "was the woman he
loved."

"Civilization," I repeated, for the word set going an odd new rhythm in
me that I rather liked, and that tired me less than the other things he
said. "What is it then? You are a Race, you told me."

"A Race of human beings, of men and women developing----"

"The comely ones?"

"Are the women. Together we make up the Race."

"And civilization?"

"Is realizing that we are a community, learning, growing, all its
members living for the others as well as for themselves."

Dr. Fillery told me then about men and women and sex, how children are
made, and what enormous and endless work was necessary merely to keep
them all alive and clothed and sheltered before they could accomplish
anything else of any sort at all. Half the labour of the majority was
simply to keep alive at all. It was an ugly little system he described.
Much I did not hear, because my thinking powers gave out. Some of it
gave me an awful feeling he called pain. The confusion and imperfection
seemed beyond repair, even beyond the worth of being part of it, of
belonging to it at all. Moreover, the making of children, without
which the whole thing must end, gave me spasms of irritation he called
laughter. Only the Comely Ones, and what he told me of them, made me
want to sing.

"The men," I said, "but do they see that it is ugly and ludicrous
and----"

"Comic," he helped me.

"Do they know," I asked, taking his unknown words, "that it's comic?"

"The glamour," he said, "conceals it from them. To the best among them
it is sacred even."

"And the Comely Ones?"

"It is their chief mission," he replied. "Always remember that. It's
sacred." He fixed his kind eyes gravely on my face.

"Ah, worship, you mean," I said. "I understand." Again we stared for
some minutes. "Yet all are not comely, are they?" I asked presently.

The fire again shone faintly in his eyes as he watched me a moment
without answering. It caught me away. I am not sure I heard his words,
but I think they ran like this:

"That's just the point where civilization--so far--has always stopped."

I remember he ceased tinkling then; our talk ceased too. I was
exhausted. He told me to remember what he had said, and to lie down and
rest. He rang the bell, and a man, one of the four who had held me,
came in.

"Ask Nurse Robbins to come here a moment, please," he said. And a
moment later the Comely One entered softly and stood beside my bed. She
did not look at me. Dr. Fillery began again his little tinkling. "...
wishes to apologize to you most sincerely, nurse, for his mistake. He
meant no harm, believe me. There is no danger in him, nor will he ever
repeat it. His ignorance of our ways, I must ask you to believe----"

"Oh, it's nothing, sir," she interrupted. "I've quite forgotten it
already. And usually he's as good as gold and perfectly quiet." She
blushed, glancing shyly at me with clear invitation.

"It will not recur," repeated the Doctor positively. "He has promised
me. He is very, very sorry and ashamed."

The nurse looked more boldly a moment. I saw her silver teeth. I saw
the hint of soft fire in her poor pitiful eyes, but far, far away and,
as she thought, safely hidden.

"Pitiful one, I will not touch you," I said instantly. "I know that you
are sacred."

I noticed at once that her sweet natural perfume increased about her
as I said the words, but her eyes were lowered, though she smiled a
little, and her little cheeks grew coloured. I saw her small teeth of
silvery marble again. Our work was visible. I liked it.

"You have promised me," said Dr. Fillery, rising to go out.

"I promise," I said, while the Comely One was arranging my pillows and
sheets with quick, clever hands, sometimes touching my cheek on purpose
as she did so. "I will not worship, unless it is commanded of me first.
The increased sweetness of her smell will tell me."

But indeed already I had forgotten her, and I no longer realized who
it was that tripped about my bed, doing numerous little things to make
me comfortable. My friend, the understanding one, companion of my big
friend, Mason, who was dead, also had left the room. His twitching
mouth, his laughter, and his shining eyes were gone. I was aware that
the Comely One remained, doing all manner of little things about me and
my bed, unnecessary things, but my pity and my worship were not asked,
so I forgot her. My thinking had wearied me, and my feeling was not
touched. I began to hum softly to myself; my giant rhythms rose; I went
forth towards my Powers of Wind and Fire, full of my own natural joy. I
forgot the Race with its men, its women, its rules and games, its tiny
tricks, its civilization. I was free for a little with my own.

One detail interfered a little with the rhythms, but only for a second
and very faintly even then. The Comely One's face grew dark.

"He's gone off asleep--actually," I heard her mutter, as she left the
room with a fling of her little skirts, shutting the door behind her
with a bang.

That bang was far away. I was already rising and falling in that
natural happy state which to me meant freedom. It is hard to tell
about, but that dear Fillery knows, I am sure, exactly what I know,
though he has forgotten it. He has known us somewhere, I feel. He
understands our service. But, like me, he has forgotten too.

What really happened to me? Where did I go, what did I see and feel
when my rhythms took me off?

Thinking is nowhere in it--I can tell him that. I am conscious of the
Sun.

One difficulty is that my being here confuses me. Here I am already
caught, confined and straitened. I am within certain limits. I can only
move in three ways, three measurements, three dimensions. The space I
am in here allows only little rhythms; they are coarse and slow and
heavy, and beat against confining walls as it were, are thrown back,
cross and recross each other, so that while they themselves grow less,
their confusion grows greater. The forms and outlines I can build with
them are poor and clumsy and insignificant. Spirals I cannot make. Then
I forget.

Into these small rhythms I cannot compress myself; the squeezing hurts.
Yet neither can I make them bigger to suit myself. I would break forth
towards the Sun.

Thus I feel cramped, confused and crippled. It is almost impossible
to tell of my big rhythms, for it is an attempt to tell of one thing
in terms of another. How can I fix fire and wind upon the point of a
pin, for instance, and examine them through a magnifying-glass? The Sun
remains. What I experience, really, when I go off into my own freedom
is release. My rhythms are of the Sun. They are his messengers, they
are my law, they are my life and happiness. By means of them I fulfill
the purpose of my being. I work, so Fillery calls it. I build.

That, at any rate, is literally true. My thinking stops at that
point, perhaps; but "I think" I mean by "release"--that I escape back
from being trapped by all these separate little individualities,
human beings each working on his own, for his own, and against all
the others--escape from this stifling tangle into the sweep of my
big rhythms which work together and in unison. I search for lost
companions, but do not find them--the golden skins and radiant faces,
the mighty figures and the splendid shapes.

_They_ work without effort, however. That is another difference.

I, too, work, only I work with them, and never against them. I can
draw upon them as they can draw upon me. We do draw on one another. We
know harmony. Service is our method and system.

My dear Fillery also wants to know who "we" are. How can I tell him?
The moment I try to "think," I seem to forget. This forgetting,
indeed, is one of the limits against which I bang myself, so that I am
flung back upon the tangle of criss-cross, tiny rhythms which confuse
and obliterate the very thing he wants to know. Yet the Sun I never
forget--father of fire and wind. My companions are lost temporarily.
I am shut off from them. It seems I cannot have them and the Race at
the same time. I yearn and suffer to rejoin them. The service we all
know together is great joy. Of love, this love between two isolated
individuals the Race counts the best thing they have--we know nothing.

Now, here is one thing I can understand quite clearly:

I have watched and helped the Race, as he calls it, for countless ages.
Yet from outside it. Never till now have I been inside its limits with
it. And a dim sense of having watched it through a veil or curtain
comes to me. I can faintly recall that I tried to urge my big rhythms
in among its members, as great waves of heat or sound might be launched
upon an ant-heap. I used to try to force and project my vast rhythms
into their tiny ones, hoping to make these latter swell and rise and
grow--but never with success. Though a few members, here and there,
felt them and struggled to obey and use their splendid swing, the rest
did not seem to notice them at all.... Indeed, they objected to the
struggling efforts of the few who did feel them, for their own small
accustomed rhythms were interfered with. The few were generally broken
into little pieces and pushed violently out of the way.

And this made me feel pitiful, I remember dimly; because these
smaller rhythms, though insignificant, were exquisite. They were of
extraordinary beauty. Could they only have been increased, the Race
that knew and used them must have changed my own which, though huge
and splendid of their kind, lacked the intense, perfect loveliness of
the smaller kind.

The Race, had it accepted mine and mastered them, must have carried
themselves and me towards still mightier rhythms which I alone could
never reach.

This, then, is clear to me, though very faint now. Fillery, who can
think for a long time, instead of like me for seconds only, will
understand what I mean. For if I tell him what "we" did, he may be able
to think out what "we" were.

"Your work?" he asked me too.

I'm not sure I know what he means by "work." We were incessantly
active, but not for ourselves. There was no effort. There was easy and
sure accomplishment--in the sense that nothing could stop or hinder
our fulfilling our own natures. Obstacles, indeed, helped our power
and made it greater, for everything feeds fire and opposition adds to
the pressure of wind. Our main activity was to make perfect forms. We
were form-builders. Apart from this, our "work" was to maintain and
keep active all rhythms less than our own, yet of our kind. I speak of
my own kind alone. We had no desire to be known outside our kind. We
worked and moved and built up swiftly, but out of sight--an endless
service.

"You are the Powers behind what we call Nature, then?" the dear Fillery
asked me. "You operate behind growing things, even behind inanimate
things like trees and stones and flowers. Your big rhythms, as you call
them, are our Laws of Nature. Your own particular department, your own
elements evidently, were heat and air."

I could not answer that. But, as he said it, I saw in his grey eyes the
flash of fire which so few of his Race possessed; and I felt vaguely
that he was one of the struggling members who was aware of the big
rhythms and who would be put away in little pieces later by the rest.
It made me pitiful. "Forget your own tiny rhythms," I said, "and come
over to us. But bring your tiny rhythms with you because they are so
exquisitely lovely. We shall increase them."

He did not answer me. His mouth twitched at the corners, and he had an
attack of that irritation which, he says, is relieved and expressed by
laughter. Yet the face shone.

The laughter, however, was a very quick, full, natural answer, all
the same. It was happy and enthusiastic. I saw that laughter made his
rhythms bigger at once. Then laughter was probably the means to use. It
was a sort of bridge.

"Your instantaneous comprehension of our things puzzles me," he said.
"You grasp our affairs in all their relations so swiftly. Yet it is all
new to you." His voice and face made me wish to stroke and help him, he
was so dear and eager. "How do you manage it?" he asked point blank.
"Our things are surely foreign to your nature."

"But they are of children," I told him. "They are small and so very
simple. There are no difficulties. Your language is block letters
because your self-expression, as you call it, is so limited. It all
comes to me at a glance. I and my kind can remember a million tiniest
details without effort."

He did not laugh, but his face looked full of questions. I could not
help him further. "A scrap, probably, of what you've taught us," I
heard him mumble, though no further questions came. "Well," he went on
presently, while I lay and watched the pale fire slip in tiny waves
about his eyes, "remember this: since our alphabet is so easy to you,
follow it, stick to it, do not go outside it. There's a good rule that
will save trouble for others as well as for yourself."

"I remember and I try. But it is not always easy. I get so cramped and
stiff and lifeless with it."

"This sunless, chilly England, of course, cannot feed you," he said.
"The sense of beauty in our Race, too, is very poor."

Once he suddenly looked up and fixed his eyes on my face. His manner
became very earnest.

"Now, listen to me," he said. "I'm going to read you something; I want
you to tell me what you make of it. It's private; that is, I have no
right to show it to others, but as no one would understand it--with the
exception possibly of yourself--secrecy is not of importance." And his
mouth twitched a little.

He drew a sheaf of papers from an inner pocket, and I saw they were
covered with fine writing. I laughed; this writing always made me
laugh--it was so laborious and slow. The writing I knew best, of
course, lay all over and inside the earth and skies. The privacy
also made me laugh, so strange seemed the idea to me, and so
impossible--this idea of secrecy. It was such an admission of ignorance.

"I will understand it quickest by reading it," I said. "I take in a
page at once--in your block letters."

But he preferred to read it out himself, so that he could note the
effect upon me, he explained, of definite passages. He saw that I
guessed his purpose, and we laughed together a moment. "When you tire
of listening," he said, "just tell me and I'll pause." I gave him my
hand to hold. "It helps me to stay here," I explained, and he nodded as
he grasped me in his warm firm clasp.

"It's written by one who _may_ have known you and your big rhythms,
though I can't be sure," he added. "One of--er--my patients wrote it,
someone who believed she was in communication with a kind of immense
Nature-spirit."

Then he began to read in his clear, windy voice:

"'I sit and weave. I feel strange; as if I had so much consciousness
that words cannot explain it. The failure of others makes my work more
hard, but my own purposes never fail, I am associated with those who
need me. The universal doors are open to me. I compass Creation.'"

But already I began to hum my songs, though to please him I kept
the music low, and he, dear Fillery, did not bid me stop, but only
tightened his grasp upon my hand. I listened with pleasure and
satisfaction. Therefore I hummed.

"'I am silent, seeking no expression, needing no communication,
satisfied with the life that is in me. I do not even wish to be known
about----'"

"That's where your Race," I put in, "is to me as children. All they do
must be shouted about so loud or they think it has not happened."

"'I do not wish to be forced to obtrude myself,'" he went on. "'There
are hosts like me. We do not want that which does not belong to us. We
do not want that hindrance, that opposition which rouses an undesirable
consciousness; for without that opposition we could never have known of
disobedience. We are formless. The formless is the real. That cannot
die. It is eternal.'"

Again he tightened his grasp, and this time also laid his eyes a moment
on my own, over the top of his paper, so that I kept my music back with
a great effort. For it was hard not to express myself when my own came
calling in this fashion.

He continued reading aloud. He selected passages now, instead of going
straight through the pages. The words helped memory in me; flashes of
what I had forgotten came back in sheets of colour and waves of music;
the phrases built little spirals, as it were, between two states. Of
these two states, I now divined, he understood one perfectly--his own,
and the other--mine--partially. Yet he had a little of both, I knew,
in himself. With me it was similar, only the understood state was not
the same with us. To the Race, of course, what he read would have no
meaning.

"The Comely One and the four figures," I said, "how they would turn
white and run if they could hear you, showing their yellow teeth and
dim eyes!"

His face remained grave and eager, though I could see the laughter
running about beneath the tight brown skin as he went on reading his
little bits.

"'We heard nothing of man, and were rarely even conscious of him,
although he benefited by our work in all that sustained and conditioned
him. The wise are silent, the foolish speak, and the children are thus
led astray, for wisdom is not knowledge, it is a realization of the
scheme and of one's own part in it.'"

He took a firmer, broader grip of my hand as he read the next bit. I
felt the tremble of his excitement run into my wrist and arm. His voice
deepened and shook. It was like a little storm:

"'Then, suddenly, we heard man's triumphant voice. We became conscious
of him as an evolving entity. Our Work had told. We had built his form
and processes so faithfully. We knew that when he reached his height we
must be submissive to his will.'"

A gust of memory flashed by me as I heard. Those small but perfect,
exquisite, lovely rhythms!

"Who called me here? Whose voice reached after me, bringing me into
this undesirable consciousness?" I cried aloud, as the memory went
tearing by, then vanished before I could recover it. At the same time
Fillery let go my hand, and the little bridge was snapped. I felt what
he called pain. It passed at once. I found his hand again, but the
bridge was not rebuilt. How white his skin had grown, I noticed, as I
looked up at his face. But the eyes shone grandly. "I shall find the
way," I said. "We shall go back together to our eternal home."

He went on reading as though I had not interrupted, but I found it less
easy to listen now.

I realized then that he was gone. He had left the room, though I had
not seen him go. I had been away.

It was some days ago that this occurred. It was to-day, a few hours
ago, that I seized the Comely One and tried to comfort her, poor hungry
member of this little Race.

But both occurrences help us--help dear Fillery and myself--to
understand how difficult it is to answer his questions and tell him
exactly what he wants to know.

"How long, O Lord, how long!" I hear his yearning cry. "Yet other
beings cannot help us; they can only tell us what their own part is."

After the door had clicked I knew release for a bit--release from a
state I partially understood and so found irksome, into another where
I felt at home and so found pleasurable. In the big rhythms my nature
expressed itself apparently. I rose, seeking my lost companions.
They--the Devonham and his busy little figures--called it sleep. It
may be "sleep." But I find there what I seek yet have forgotten, and
that with me were dear Fillery and another--a Comely One whom _he_
brings--as though we belong together and have a common origin. But this
other Comely One--who is it?




CHAPTER X


About a week after the arrival of LeVallon in London, Dr. Fillery came
out of the Home one morning early, upon some uninteresting private
business. He had left "LeVallon" happy with his books and garden,
Devonham was with him to answer questions or direct his energies; the
other "cases" in the establishment were moving nicely towards a cure.

The November air was clear and almost bright; no personal worries
troubled him. His mind felt free and light.

It was one of those mornings when Nature slips, very close and sweet,
into the heart, so close and sweet that the mind wonders why people
quarrel and disagree, when it is so easy to forgive, and the planet
seems but a big, lovely, happy garden, evil an impossible nightmare,
and personal needs few and simple.

He walked by cross roads towards Primrose Hill, entering Regent's Park
near the Zoo. An early white frost was rapidly melting in the sun. The
sky showed a faint tinge of blue. He saw floating sea-gulls. These, and
a faint breeze that stirred the yellowing last leaves of autumn, gave
his heart a sudden lift.

And this lift was in the direction of a forbidden corner. He was aware
of some exquisite dawn-wind far away stirring a million flowers,
dew sparkled, streams splashed and murmured. A valley gleamed and
vanished, yet left across his mind its shining trail.... For this lift
of his heart made him soar into a region where it was only too easy
to override temptation. Fillery, however, though his invisible being
soared, kept both visible feet firmly on the ground. The surface
was slippery, being melted by the sun, but frost kept the earth hard
and frozen underneath. His balance never was in danger. He remained
detached and a spectator.

She walked beside him nevertheless, a figure of purity and radiance,
perfumed, soft, delicious. She was so ignorant of life. That was her
wonder partly; for beauty was her accident and, while admirable, was
not a determining factor. Life, in its cruder sense, she did not know,
though moving through the thick of it. It neither touched nor soiled
her; she brushed its dirt and dust aside as though a non-conducting
atmosphere surrounded her. Her emotions, deep and searching, had
remained untorn. A quality of pristine innocence belonged to her, as
though, in the noisy clamour of ambitious civilized life, she remained
still aware of Eden. Her grace, her loveliness, her simplicity moved by
his side as naturally, it seemed to him, as air or perfume.

"Iraida," he murmured to himself, with a smile of joy. "Nayan Khilkoff.
All the men worship and adore you, yet respect you too. They cannot
touch you. You remain aloof, unstained." And, remembering LeVallon's
remarks in cinema and theatre, he could have sung at this mere thought
of her.

"Untouched by coarseness, something unearthly about your loveliness
of soul, a baby, a saint, and to all the men in Khilkoff's Studio,
a mother. Where do you really come from? Whence do you derive? Your
lovely soul can have no dealings with our common flesh. How many
young fellows have you saved already, how many floundering characters
redeemed! They crave your earthly, physical love. Instead you surprise
and disappoint and shock them into safety again--by giving to them
Love...!"

And, as he half repeated his vivid thoughts aloud, he suddenly saw her
coming towards him from the ornamental water, and instantly, wondering
what he should say to her, his mind contracted. The thing in him that
sang went backward into silence. He put a brake upon himself. But he
watched her coming nearer, wondering what brought her so luckily into
Regent's Park, and all the way from Chelsea, at such an hour. She moved
so lightly, sweetly; she was so intangible and lovely. He feared her
eyes, her voice.

They drew nearer. From looking to right and left, he raised his head.
She was close, quite close, a hundred yards away. That walk, that
swing, that poise of head and neck he could not mistake anywhere. His
whole being glowed, thrilled, and yet contracted as in pain.

A sentence about the weather, about her own, her father's, health,
about his calling to see them shortly, rose to his lips. He turned his
eyes away, then again looked up. They were now not twenty yards apart;
in another moment he would have raised his hat, when, with a sensation
of cold disappointment in him, she went past in totally irresponsive
silence. It was a stranger--a shop girl, a charwoman, a bus-conductor's
wife--anybody but she whom he had thought.

How could he have been so utterly mistaken? It amazed him. It was,
indeed, months since they had met, yet his knowledge of her appearance
was so accurate and detailed that such an error seemed incredible. He
had experienced, besides, the actual thrill.

The phenomenon, however, was not new to him. Often had he experienced
it, much as others have. He knew, from this, that she was somewhere
near, coming deliciously, deliberately towards him, moving every minute
firmly nearer, from a point in great London town which she had left
just at the precise moment which would time her crossing his own path
later. They would meet presently, if not now. Fate had arranged all
details, and something in him was aware of it before it happened.

The phenomenon, as a matter of fact, was repeated twice again in the
next half-hour: he saw her--on both occasions beyond the possibility
of question--coming towards him, yet each time it was a complete
stranger masquerading in her guise.

It meant, he knew, that their two minds--hearts, too, he wondered,
with a sense of secret happiness, enjoyed intensely then instantly
suppressed--were wirelessing to one another across the vast city, and
that both transmitter and receiver, their physical bodies, would meet
shortly round the corner, or along the crowded street. Strong currents
of desiring thought, he knew, he hoped, he wondered, were trying to
shape the crude world nearer to the heart's desire, causing the various
intervening passers-by to assume the desirable form and outline in
advance.

He reflected, following the habit of his eager mind; this wireless
discovery, after all, was the discovery of a universal principle in
Nature. It was common to all forms of life, a faint beginning of
that advance towards marvellous intercommunicating, semi-telepathic
brotherhood he had always hoped for, believed in.... Even plants, he
remembered, according to Bose....

Then, suddenly, half-way down Baker Street he found her close beside
him.

She was dressed so becomingly, so naturally, that no particular detail
caught his eye, although she wore more colour than was usual in the
dull climate known to English people. There was a touch of fur and
there were flowers, but these were part of her appearance as a whole,
and the hat was so exactly right, though it was here that Englishwomen
generally went wrong, that he could not remember afterwards what it
was like. It was as suitable as natural hair. It looked as if she had
grown it. The shining eyes were what he chiefly noticed. They seemed to
increase the pale sunlight in the dingy street.

She was so close that he caught her perfume almost before he recognized
her, and a sense of happiness invaded his whole being instantly, as he
took the slender hand emerging from a muff and held it for a moment.
The casual sentences he had half prepared fled like a flock of birds
surprised. Their eyes met.... And instantly the sun rose over a far
Khaketian valley; he was aware of joy, of peace, of deep contentment,
London obliterated, the entire world elsewhere. He knew the thrill, the
ecstasy of some long-forgotten dawn....

But in that brief second while he held her hand and gazed into her
eyes, there flashed before him a sudden apparition. With lightning
rapidity this picture darted past between them, paused for the tiniest
fraction of a second, and was gone again. So swiftly the figure shot
across that the very glance he gave her was intercepted, its angle
changed, its meaning altered. He started involuntarily, for he knew
that vision, the bright rushing messenger, someone who brought glad
tidings. And this time he recognized it--it was the figure of "N. H."

The outward start, the slight wavering of the eyelids, both were
noticed, though not understood, much less interpreted by the young
woman facing him.

"You are as much surprised as I am," he heard the pleasant, low-pitched
voice before his face. "I thought you were abroad. Father and I came
back from Sark only yesterday."

"I haven't left town," he replied. "It was Devonham went to
Switzerland."

He was thinking of her pleasant voice, and wondering how a mere voice
could soothe and bless and comfort in this way. The picture of the
flashing figure, too, preoccupied him. His various mind was ever busy
with several trains of thought at once, though all correlated. Why, he
was wondering, should that picture of "N. H." leave a sense of chill
upon his heart? Why had the first radiance of this meeting thus already
dimmed a little? Her nearness, too, confused him as of old, making
his manner a trifle brusque and not quite natural, until he found his
centre of control again. He looked quickly up and down the street,
moved aside to let some people pass, then turned to the girl again.
"Your holiday has done you good, Iraida," he said quietly; "I hope your
father enjoyed it too."

"We both enjoyed ourselves," she answered, watching him, something of
a protective air about her. "I wish you had been with us, for that
would have made it perfect. I was thinking that only this morning--as I
walked across Hyde Park."

"How nice of you! I believe I, too, was thinking of you both, as I
walked through Regent's Park." He smiled for the first time.

"It's very odd," she went on, "though you can explain it probably,"
she added, with a smile that met his own, increasing it, "or, at any
rate, Dr. Devonham could--but I've seen you several times this morning
already--in the last half-hour. I've seen you in other people in the
street, I mean. Yet I wasn't thinking of you at the actual moment, it's
two months since we've met, and I imagined you were abroad."

"Odd, yes," he said, half shyly, half curtly. "It's an experience many
have, I believe."

She gazed up at him. "It's very natural, I think, when people like each
other, Edward, and are in sympathy."

"Yet it happens with people who don't like each other too," he
objected, and at the same moment was vexed that he had used the words.

Iraida Khilkoff laughed. He had the feeling that she read his thoughts
as easily as if they were printed in red letters on his grey felt hat.

"There must be _some_ bond between them, though," she remarked, "an
emotion, I mean, whatever it may be--even hatred."

"Probably, Nayan," he agreed. "It's you now, not Devonham, that wants
to explain things. I think I must take you into the Firm, you could
take charge of the female patients with great success."

Whereupon she looked up at him with such a grave mothering expression
that he was aware of her secret power, her central source of strength
in dealing with men. Her innocence and truth were an atmosphere about
her, protecting her as naturally and neatly as the clothes upon her
body. She believed in men. He felt like a child beside her.

"I'm in the Firm already," she said, "for you made me a partner years
ago when I was so high," and her small gloved hand indicated the
stature of a little girl. "You taught me first."

He remembered the bleak northern town where fifteen years ago he
had known her father as a patient for some minor ailment, and the
friendship that grew out of the relationship. He remembered the child
of nine or ten who sat on his knee and repeated to him the Russian
fairy tales her mother told her; he recalled the charm, the wonder,
the extraordinary power of belief. Her words brought back again that
flowered Caucasian valley in the sunlight and this, again, flashed upon
the screen the strange bright figure that had already once intercepted
their glance, as though it somehow came between them....

"You have one advantage over me," he rejoined presently, "for in my
Clinique the people know that they need treatment, whereas in the
Studio you catch your patients unawares. They do not know they're ill.
You heal them without their being aware that they need healing."

"Yet some of our _habitués_ have found their way later to your
consulting-room," she reminded him.

"Merely to finish what you had first begun--a sort of convalescence.
You work in the big, raw world, I in a mere specialized corner of it."

He turned away, lest the power in her eyes overcome him. The traffic
thundered past, the people crowded, jostling them. He could have stood
there talking to her all day long, the London street forgotten or full
of flowers and Eden's trees and rippling summer streams. The pale
sunlight caught her face beside him and made it shine....

He longed to take her in his arms and fly through the dawn for ever,
for his clean mind saw her without clothing, her hair loose in the
wind, her white shape fleeing from him, yet beckoning across a gleaming
shoulder that he must overtake and capture her....

"I'm on my way to St. Dunstan's," he heard the musical voice. "A friend
of father's.... Come with me, will you?" And with her muff she touched
his arm, trying to make him turn her way. But just as he felt the touch
he saw the bright figure again. Swifter than himself and far more
powerful, it leaped dancing past and carried her away before his very
eyes. She waved her hand, her eyes faded like stars into the distance
of some unearthly spring--and she was gone. A pang of peculiar anguish
seized him, as the mental picture flashed with the speed of light and
vanished. For the figure seemed of elemental power, taking its own with
perfect ease....

He shook his head. "I'll come to see you to-morrow instead," he told
her. "I'll come to the Studio in the afternoon, if you'll both be in.
I'd like to bring a friend with me, if I may."

"Good-bye then." She took his hand and kept it. "I shall expect you to
tell me all about this--friend. I knew you had something on your mind,
for your thoughts have been elsewhere all the time."

"Julian LeVallon," he replied quickly. "He's staying with me
indefinitely." His face grew stern a moment about the mouth. "I think
he may need you," he added with abrupt significance.

"Julian LeVallon," she repeated, the name sounding very musical the way
her slightly foreign accent touched it "And what nationality may that
be?"

Dr. Fillery hesitated. "His parents, Nayan, I believe, were English,"
he said. "He has lived all his life in the Jura Mountains, alone with
an old scholar, poet and geologist, who brought him up. Of our modern
life he knows little. I think you may----" He broke off. "His mother
died when he was born," he concluded.

"And of women he knows nothing," she replied, understandingly, "so that
he will probably fall in love with the first he sees--with Nayan."

"I hope so, Nayan, and he will be safe with you."

She watched her companion's face for a minute or two with her clear
searching eyes. She smiled. But his own face wore a mask now; no figure
this time flashed between their deep understanding gaze.

"A woman, you think, can teach and help him more than a man," she said,
without lowering her eyes.

"Probably--perhaps, at any rate. The material, I must warn you at once,
is new and strange. I want him to meet you."

"Then I _am_ in the Firm," was all she answered, "and you can't do
without me." She let go the hand she had held all this time, and turned
from him, looking once across her shoulder as he, too, went upon his
way.

"About three o'clock we shall expect you--and Mr. Julian LeVallon," she
added. "The Prometheans are coming too, as of course you know, but that
won't matter. Father has let the Studio to them."

"The more the merrier," he answered, raised his hat, and went on at a
rapid pace up Baker Street.

But with him up the London street went a flock of thoughts, hopes,
fears and memories that were hard to disentangle. Lost, forgotten
dreams went with him too. He had known that one day he must be
"executed," yet with his own hands he had just slipped the noose
about his neck. Detachment from life, he realized, keeping aloof from
the emotions that touch one's fellow beings, can only be, after all,
a pose. In his case it was evidently a pose assumed for safety and
self-protection, an artificial attitude he wore to keep his heart
from error. His love, born of some far unearthly valley, undoubtedly
consumed him, while yet he said it nay....

He had himself suggested bringing together the girl and "N. H." There
had been no need to do this. Yet he had deliberately offered it, and
she had instantly accepted. Even while he said the words there was
a volcano of emotion in him, several motives fighting to combine.
The fear for himself, being selfish, he had set aside at once; there
was also the fear for her--the odd certainty in him that at last her
woman's nature would be waked; lastly, the fear for "N. H." himself.
And here he clashed with his promise to Devonham. Behind the simple
proposal lay these various threads of motive, emotion and qualification.

Now, as he hurried along the street, they rushed to and fro about his
mind, each at its own speed and with its own impetuous strength. It
was the last one, however, the certainty that her mere presence must
evoke the "N. H." personality, banishing the commonplace LeVallon; it
was this that, in the end, perhaps troubled him most. An intuitive
conviction assured him that this was bound to be the result of their
meeting. LeVallon would sink down out of sight; "N. H." would emerge
triumphant and vital, bringing his elemental power with him. The girl
would summon him....

"I must tell Paul first," he decided. "I must consult his judgment.
Otherwise I'm breaking my promise. If Paul is against it, I will send
an excuse...."

With this proviso, he dismissed the matter from his mind, noting only
how clearly it revealed his own keen desire to let LeVallon disappear
and "N. H." become active. He himself yearned for the interest,
stimulus and companionship of the strange new being that was "N. H."

The other aspect of the problem he dismissed quickly too: he would
lose Nayan. Yes, but he had never possessed the right to hold her.
He was strong, indifferent, detached.... His life in any case was a
sacrifice upon the altar of a mistake with regard to which he had
not been consulted. His whole existence must be passed in worship
before this altar, unless he was to admit himself a failure. His ideal
possession of the girl, he consoled himself, need know no change. To
watch her womanhood, hitherto untouched by any man, to watch this
bloom and ripen at the bidding of another must mean pain. But he faced
the loss. And a curious sense of compensation lay in it somewhere--the
strange notion that she and he would share "N. H." in a sense between
them. He was already aware of a deep subtle kinship between the three
of them, a kinship hardly of this physical world. And, after all, the
interests of "N. H." must come first. He had chosen his life, accepted
it, at any rate; he must remain true to his high ideal. This strange
being, blown by the winds of chance into his keeping, must be his first
consideration.

"LeVallon" needed no special help, neither from himself, nor from her,
nor from others. "LeVallon" was ordinary enough, if not commonplace,
his only interest being at those thin places in his being where the
submerged personality of "N. H." peeped through. Paul Devonham, he
felt convinced, was wrong in thinking "N. H." to be the transient
manifestation.

It was the reverse that Dr. Fillery believed to be the truth. He saw
in "N. H." almost a new type of being altogether. In that physical
body warred two personalities certainly, but "N. H." was the important
one, and LeVallon merely the transient outer one, masquerading on
the surface merely, a kind of automatic and mechanical personality,
gleaned, picked up, trained and educated, as it were, by the few years
spent among the human herd.

And this "N. H." needed help, the best, the wisest possible. Both male
and female help "N. H." demanded. He, Edward Fillery, could supply the
former, but the latter could be furnished only by some woman in whom
innocence, truth and a natural mother-love--the three deepest feminine
qualities--were happily combined. Nayan possessed them all. "N. H.,"
the strange bright messenger, bringing perhaps glad tidings into life,
had need of her.

And Fillery, as his thoughts ran down these sad and happy paths of
that lost valley in his blood, realized the meaning of the flashing
intuition that had pained yet gladdened him half an hour before with
its convincing symbolic picture.

This private Eden secreted in his depths he revealed to no one, though
Paul, his intimate friend and keen assistant, divined its general
neighbourhood and geography to some extent. It was the girl who
invariably opened its ivory gates for him. They had but to meet and
talk a moment, when, with a sudden drift of wonder, beauty, wildness,
this Khaketian inheritance rose before him. Its sunny brilliance, its
flowers, its perfumes seduced and caught him away. The unearthly mood
stole over him. Thought took wings of imagination and soared beyond
the planet. He foresaw, easily, the effect she would produce upon
"LeVallon."...

He came back to earth again at the door of the Home, smiling, as
so often before, at these brief wanderings in his secret Eden, yet
perfectly able to pigeon-hole the experience, each detail explained,
labelled, docketed, and therefore harmless....

He found Devonham in the study and at once told him of his suggestion
and its possible results, and his assistant, resting before lunch after
a long morning's work, looked up at him with his quick, observant air.
Noticing the light in the eyes, the softer expression about the mouth,
the general appearance of a strong and recent stimulus, he easily
divined their origin, and showed his pleasure in his face. He longed
for his old friend to be humanized and steadied by some deep romance.
There was a curious new watchful attitude also about him, though
cleverly concealed.

"I'm glad the Khilkoffs are back in town," he said easily. "As for
LeVallon--he's been quiet and uninteresting all the morning. He
needs the human touch, as I already said, and the Studio atmosphere,
especially if the Prometheans are to be there, seems the very thing."

"And Nayan----?"

"Her influence is good for any man, young or old, and if LeVallon
worships at her shrine like the rest of 'em, so much the better. You
remember my Notes. Nothing will help towards his finding his real self
quicker than an abandoned passion--unreturned."

"Unreturned?"

"You can't think she will give to LeVallon what so many----?"

"But may she not," the other interrupted, "stimulate 'N. H.' rather
than LeVallon?"

Devonham was surprised--he had quickly divined the subconscious fear
and jealousy. For this detached, impersonal attitude he was not
prepared. Only the keenest observer could have noticed the sharp,
anxious watchfulness he hid so well.

"Edward, there's only one thing I feel we--you rather--have to be
careful about. And the girl has nothing to do with _that_. In your
blood, remember, lies an unearthly spiritual vagrancy which you must
not, dare not, communicate to him, if you ever hope to see him cured."

Devonham regarded him keenly as he said it. He was as earnest as his
chief, but the difference between the two men was fundamental, probably
unbridgeable as well. The affection, trust, respect each felt for the
other was sincere. Devonham, however, having never known a thought, a
feeling, much less an actual experience, outside the normal gamut of
humanity, regarded all such as pathogenic. Fillery, who had tasted the
amazing, dangerous sweetness of such experiences, in his own being, had
another standard.

"You must not exaggerate," observed Fillery, slowly. "Your phrase,
though, is good. 'Spiritual vagrancy' is an apt description, I admit.
Yet to the 'spiritual,' if it exists, the whole universe lies open,
remember, too."

They laughed together. Then, suddenly, Devonham rose, and a new
inexpressible uneasiness was in his face. He thrust his hands deep
into his trouser pockets, turned his eyes hard upon the floor, stood
with his legs apart. Abruptly turning, he came a full step closer.
"Edward," he said, furious with himself, and yet fiercely determined
to be honest, "I may as well tell you frankly--though explanation lies
beyond me--there's something in this--this case I don't quite like."
Behind his lowered eyelids his observation never failed.

Quick as a flash, his companion took him up. "For yourself, for others,
or for himself?" he asked, while a secret touch of joy ran through him.

"For myself perhaps," was the immediate rejoinder. "It's intolerable.
It's the panic sense he touches in me. I admit it frankly. I've
had--once or twice--the desire to turn and run. But what I mean
is--we've got to be uncommonly careful with him," he ended lamely.

"LeVallon you refer to? Or 'N. H.'?"

"'N. H.'"

"The panic sense," repeated Fillery to himself more than to his friend.
"The old, old thing. I understand."

"Also," Devonham went on presently, "I must tell you that since he came
here there's been a change in every patient in the building--without
exception." He looked over his shoulder as though he heard a sound. He
listened certainly, but his mind was sharply centred on his friend.

"For the better, yes," said Fillery at once. "Increased vitality, I've
noticed too."

"Precisely," whispered the other, still listening.

There came a pause between them.

"And when we have found the real, the central self," pursued Fillery
presently. "When we have found the essential being--what is it?"

"Exactly," replied Devonham with extraordinary emphasis. "_What is
it?_" But even then he did not look up to meet the other's glance.




CHAPTER XI


The meeting with Dr. Fillery and his friends, the Khilkoffs, father
and daughter, had, for one reason or another, to be postponed for a
week, during which brief time even, no single day wasted, LeVallon's
education proceeded rapidly. He was exceedingly quick to learn the
usages of civilized society in a big city, adapting himself with
an ease born surely of quick intelligence to the requirements and
conventions of ordinary life.

In his perception of the rights of others, particularly, he showed
a natural aptitude; he had good manners, that is, instinctively; in
certain houses where Fillery took him purposely, he behaved with
a courtesy and tact that belong usually to what England calls a
gentleman. Except to Fillery and Devonham, he talked little, but was
an excellent and sympathetic listener, a quality that helped him to
make his way. With Mrs. Soames, the stern and even forbidding matron,
he made such headway, that it was noticed with a surprise, including
laughter. He might have been her adopted son.

"She's got a new pet," said Devonham, with a laugh. "Mason taught him
well. His aptitude for natural history is obvious; after a few years'
study he'll make a name for himself. The 'N. H.' side will disappear
now more and more, unless _you_ stimulate it for your own ends----" He
broke off, speaking lightly still, but with a carelessness some might
have guessed assumed.

"You forget," put in his Chief, "I promised."

Devonham looked at him shrewdly. "I doubt," he said, "whether you can
help yourself, Edward," the expression in his eyes for a moment almost
severe.

Fillery remained thoughtful, making no immediate reply.

"We must remember," he said presently, "that he's now in the quiescent
state. Nothing has again occurred to bring 'N. H.' uppermost again."

Devonham turned upon his friend. "I see no reason why 'N. H.'"--he
spoke with emphasis--"should ever get uppermost again. In my opinion we
can make this quiescent state--LeVallon--the permanent one."

"We can't keep him in a cage like Mrs. Soames's mice and parrot. Are
you, for instance, against my taking him to the Studio? Do you think
it's a mistake to let him meet the Prometheans?"

"That's just where Mason went wrong," returned Devonham. "He kept him
in a cage. The boy met only a few peasants, trees, plants, animals and
birds. The sun, making him feel happy, became his deity. The rain he
hated. The wind inspired and invigorated him. If we now introduce the
human element wisely, I see no danger. If he can stand the Khi--the
Studio and the Prometheans, he can stand anything. He may be considered
cured."

The door opened and a tall, radiant figure with bright eyes and untidy
shining hair came into the room, carrying an open book.

"Mrs. Soames says I've nothing to do with stars," said a deep musical
voice, "and that I had better stick to animals and plants. She says
that star-gazing never was good for anyone except astronomers who warn
us about tides, eclipses and dangerous comets."

He held out the big book, open at an enlarged stellar photograph.
"What, please, is a galaxy, a star that is suddenly brilliant, then
disappears in a few weeks, and a nebula?"

Before either of the astonished men could answer, LeVallon turned to
Devonham, his face wearing the gravity and intense curiosity of a
child. "And, please, are _you_ the only sort of being in the universe?
Mrs. Soames says that the earth is the only inhabited place. Aren't
there other beings besides you anywhere? The Earth is such a little
planet, and the solar system, according to this book, is one of the
smallest too."

"My dear fellow," Devonham said gently, "do not bother your head with
useless speculations. Our only valuable field of study is this planet,
for it is all we know or ever can know. Whether the universe holds
other beings or not, can be of no importance to us at present."

LeVallon stared fixedly at him, saying nothing. Something of his
natural radiance dimmed a little. "Then what are all these things that
I remember I've forgotten?" he asked, his blue eyes troubled.

"It will take you all your lifetime to understand beings like me, and
like yourself and like Dr. Fillery. Don't waste time speculating about
possible inhabitants in other stars."

He spoke good-humouredly, but firmly, as one who laid down certain
definite lines to be followed, while Dr. Fillery, watching, made no
audible comment. Once long ago he had asked his own father a somewhat
similar question.

"But I shall so soon get to the end of you," replied LeVallon, a
disappointed expression on his face. "I may speculate _then_?" he asked.

"When you get to the end of me and of yourself and of Dr. Fillery--yes,
then you may speculate to your heart's content," said Devonham in a
kindly tone. "But it will take you longer than you think perhaps.
Besides, there are women, too, remember. You will find them more
complicated still."

A curious look stole into the other's eager eyes. He turned suddenly
towards the older man who had his confidence so completely. There was
in the movement, in the incipient gesture that he made with his arms,
his hands, almost with his head and face as well, something of appeal
that set the doctor's nerves alert. And the change of voice--it was
lower now and more musical than before--increased the nameless message
that flashed to his brain and heart. There was a hint of song, of
chanting almost, in the tone. There was music in him. For the voice,
Fillery realized suddenly, brought in the over-tones, somewhat in the
way good teachers of singing and voice production know. There was the
depth, sonority, singing quality which means that the "harmonics" are
made audible, as with a violin played in perfect tune. The sound seemed
produced not by the vocal cords alone, but by the entire being, so to
speak. Yet, "LeVallon's" voice had not this rich power, he noticed.
Its appearance was a sign that "N. H." was stirring into activity and
utterance.

"Women, yes," the young man repeated to himself. "Women--bring back
something. Their eyes make me remember----" he turned abruptly to the
open book upon the doctor's knee. "It's something to do with stars,
these memories," he went on eagerly, the voice resonant. "Stars, women,
memories ... where are they all gone to...? Why have I lost...? What is
it that...?"

It seemed as if a veil passed from his face, a thin transparency
that dimmed the shining effect his hair and eyes and radiant health
produced. A far-away expression followed it.

"'N. H.'!" Devonham quickly flashed the whispered warning. And in the
same instant, Fillery rose, holding out the open book.

"Come, LeVallon," he said, putting a hand upon his shoulder, "we'll go
into my room for an hour, and I'll tell you all about the galaxies and
nebulæ. You shall ask as many questions as you like. Devonham is a very
busy man and has duties to attend to just now."

He moved across to open the door, and LeVallon, his face changing more
and more, went with him; the light in his eyes increased; he smiled,
the far-away expression passed a little.

"Dr. Devonham is quite right in what he says about useless
speculations," continued Fillery, as they went out arm in arm together,
"but we can play a bit with thought and imagination, for all that--you
and I. 'Let your thought wander like an insect which is allowed to fly
in the air, but is at the same time confined by a thread.' Come along,
we'll have an hour's play. We'll travel together among the golden
stars, eh?"

"Play!" exclaimed the youth, looking up with flashing eyes. "Ah! in the
Spring we play! Our work with sap, roots, crystals, fire, all finished
out of sight, so that their results followed of their own accord."
He was talking at great speed in a low voice, a deep, rolling voice,
and half to himself. "Spring is our holiday, the forms made perfect
and ready for the power to rush through, and we rush with it, playing
everywhere----"

"Spring is the wine of life, yes," put in Fillery, caught away
momentarily by something behind the words he listened to, as though a
rhythm swept him. "Creative life racing up and flooding into every form
and body everywhere. It brings wonder, joy--play, as you call it."

"We--we build the way----" The youth broke off abruptly as they reached
the study door. Something flowed down and back in him, emptying face
and manner of a mood which had striven for utterance, then passed. He
returned to the previous talk about the stars again:

"Who attends to them? Who looks after them?" he inquired, a deep,
peculiar interest in his manner, his eyes turning a little darker.

"What we call the laws of Nature," was the reply, "which are, after
all, merely our 'descriptive formulæ summing up certain regularities
of recurrence,' the laws under which they were first set alight and
then sent whirling into space. Under these same laws they will all
eventually burn out and come to rest. They will be dead."

"Dead," repeated the other, as though he did not understand. "They are
the children of the laws," he stated, rather than asked. "Are the laws
kind and faithful? They never tire?"

Fillery explained with one-half of his nature, and still as to a
child. The other half of him lay under firm restraint according to his
promise. He outlined in general terms man's knowledge of the stars.
"The laws never tire," he said.

"But the stars end! They burn out, stop, and die! You said so."

The other replied with something judicious and cautious about time and
its immense duration. But he was startled.

"And those who attend to the laws," came then the words that startled
him, "who keeps them working so that they do not tire?"

It was something in the tone of voice perhaps that, once again,
produced in his listener the extraordinary sudden feeling that Humanity
was, after all, but an insignificant, a microscopic detail in the
Universe; that it was, say, a mere ant-heap in the colossal jungle
crowded with other minuter as well as immenser life of every sort and
kind, and, moreover, that "N. H." was aware of this "other life," or at
least of some vast section of it, and had been, if he were not still,
associated with it. The two letters by which he was designated acquired
a deeper meaning than before.

A rich glow came into the young face, and into the eyes, growing ever
darker, a look of burning; the skin had the effect of radiating; the
breathing became of a sudden deep and rhythmical. The whole figure
seemed to grow larger, expanding as though it extended already and half
filled the room. Into the atmosphere about it poured, as though heat
and light rushed through it, a strange effect of power.

"You'd like to visit them, perhaps--wouldn't you?" asked Fillery gently.

"I feel----" began the other, then stopped short.

"You feel it would interest you," the doctor helped--then saw his
mistake.

"I feel," repeated the youth. The sentence was complete. "I am there."

"Ah! when you feel you're there, you _are_ there?"

The other nodded.

He leaned forward. "_I_ know," he whispered as with sudden joy. "_You_
help me to remember, Fillery." The voice, though whispering, was
strong; it vibrated full of over-tones and under-tones. The sound of
the "F" was like a wind in branches. "You wonderful, _you_ know too!
It is the same with flowers, with everything. We build with wind and
fire." He stopped, rubbing a hand across his forehead a moment. "Wind
and fire," he went on, but this time to himself, "my splendid mighty
ones...." Dropping his hand, he flashed an amazing look of enthusiasm
and power into his companion's face. The look held in concentrated
form something of the power that seemed pulsing and throbbing in his
atmosphere. "Help me to remember, dear Fillery," his voice rang out
aloud like singing. "Remember with me why we both are here. When we
remember we can go back where we belong."

The glow went from his face and eyes as though an inner lamp had been
suddenly extinguished. The power left both voice and atmosphere. He
sank back in his chair, his great sensitive hands spread over the table
where the star charts lay, as through the open window came the crash
and clatter of an aeroplane tearing, like some violent, monstrous
insect, through the sunlight.

A look of pain came into his eyes. "It goes again. I've lost it."

"We were talking about the stars and the laws of Nature," said Fillery
quickly, though his voice was shaking, "when that noisy flying-machine
disturbed us." He leaned over, taking his companion's hand. His heart
was beating. He smelt the open spaces. The blood ran wildly in his
veins. It was with the utmost difficulty he found simple, common words
to use. "You must not ask too much at once. We will learn slowly--there
is so much we have to learn together."

LeVallon's smile was beautiful, but it was the smile of "LeVallon"
again only.

"Thank you, dear Fillery," he replied, and the talk continued as
between a tutor and his backward pupil.... But for some time afterwards
the "tutor's" mind and heart, while attending to LeVallon now, went
travelling, it seemed, with "N. H." There was this strange division
in his being ... for "N. H." appealed with power to a part of him,
perhaps the greatest, that had never yet found expression, much less
satisfaction.

Many a talk together of this kind, with occasional semi-irruptions of
"N. H.," he had already enjoyed with his new patient, and LeVallon was
by now fairly well instructed in the general history of our little
world, briefly but picturesquely given. Evolution had been outlined
and explained, the rise of man sketched vividly, the great war, and
the planet's present state of chaos described in a way that furnished
a clear enough synopsis of where humanity now stood. LeVallon was
able to hold his own in conversation with others; he might pass for a
simple-minded but not ill-informed young man, and both Paul Devonham
and Edward Fillery, though each for different reasons, were, therefore,
well satisfied with the young human being entrusted to their care, a
human being to be eventually discharged from the Home, healed and cured
of extravagances, made harmonious with himself, able to make his own
way in the world alone. To Devonham it appeared already certain that,
within a reasonable time, LeVallon would find himself happily at home
among his fellow kind, a normal, even a gifted young man with a future
before him. "N. H." would disappear and be forgotten, absorbed back
into the parent Self. To his colleague, on the other hand, another
vision of his future opened. Sooner or later it was LeVallon that would
disappear and "N. H." remain in full control, a strange, possibly a
new type of being, not alone marvellously gifted, but who might even
throw light upon a vista of research and knowledge hitherto unknown to
humanity, and with benefits for the Race as yet beyond the reach of any
wildest prophecy.

Both men, therefore, went gladly with him to the Khilkoff Studio
that early November afternoon, anxious to observe him, his conduct,
attitude, among the curious set of people to be found there on the
Prometheans' Society day, and to note any reactions he might show in
such a milieu. Each felt fully justified in doing so, though they would
have kept an ordinary "hysterical" patient safely from the place.
LeVallon, however, betrayed no trace of hysteria in any meaning of the
word, big or little; he was stable as a navvy, betraying no undesirable
reaction to the various well-known danger points. The visit might be
something of an experiment perhaps, but an experiment, a test, they
were justified in taking. Yet Devonham on no account would have allowed
his chief to go alone. He had insisted on accompanying them.

And to both men, as they went towards Chelsea, their quiet companion
with them, came the feeling that the visit might possibly prove one
of them right, the other wrong. Fillery expected that Nayan Khilkoff
alone, to say nothing of the effect of the other queer folk who might
be present, must surely evoke the "N. H." personality now lying
quiescent and inactive below the threshold of LeVallon. The charm
and beauty of the girl he had never known to fail with any male, for
she had that in her which was bound to stimulate the highest in the
opposite sex. The excitement of the wild, questing, picturesque, if
unbalanced, minds who would fill the place, must also, though in quite
another way, affect the _real_ self of anyone who came in contact with
their fantastic and imaginative atmosphere. Attraction or repulsion
must certainly be felt. He expected at any rate a vital clue.

"Ivan Khilkoff," he told LeVallon, as they went along in the car, "is
a Russian, a painter and sculptor of talent, a good-hearted and silent
sort of old fellow, who has remained very poor because he refuses to
advertise himself or commercialize his art, and because his work is
not the kind of thing the English buy. His daughter, Nayan, teaches
the piano and Russian. She is beautiful and sweet and pure, but of an
independent and rather impersonal character. She has never fallen in
love, for instance, though most men fall in love with her. I hope you
may like and understand each other."

"Thank you," said LeVallon, listening attentively, but with no great
interest apparently. "I will try very much to like her and her father
too."

"The Studio is a very big one, it is really two studios knocked into
one, their living rooms opening out of it. One half of the place, being
so large, they sometimes let out for meetings, dances and that sort of
thing, earning a little money in that way. It is rented this evening by
a Society called the Prometheans--a group of people whose inquisitive
temperaments lead them to believe, or half believe----"

"To imagine, if not deliberately to manufacture," put in Devonham.

"----to imagine, let us call it," continued the other with a
twinkle, "that there are other worlds, other powers, other states of
consciousness and knowledge open to them outside and beyond the present
ones we are familiar with."

"They _know_ these?" asked LeVallon, looking up with signs of interest.
"They have experienced them?"

"They know and experience," replied Fillery, "according to their
imaginations and desires, those with a touch of creative imagination
claiming the most definite results, those without it being merely
imitative. They report their experiences, that is, but cannot--or
rarely show the results to others. You will hear their talk and judge
accordingly. They are interesting enough in their way. They have,
at any rate, one thing of value--that they are open to new ideas.
Such people have existed in every age of the world's history, but
after an upheaval, such as the great war has been, they become more
active and more numerous, because the nervous system, reacting from
a tremendous strain, produces exaggeration. Any world is better
than an uncomfortable one in revolution, they think. They are, as
a rule, sincere and honest folk. They add a touch of colour to the
commonplace----"

"Tuppence coloured," murmured Devonham below his breath.

"And they believe so much in other worlds to conquer, other regions,
bigger states of consciousness, other powers," concluded Fillery,
ignoring the interruption, "that they are half in this world, half in
the next. Hence Dr. Devonham's name, the name by which he sometimes
laughs at them--of Half Breeds."

LeVallon's eyes, he saw, were very big; his interest and attention were
excited.

"They will probably welcome you with open arms," he added, "if you
care to join them. They consider themselves pioneers of a larger life.
They are not mere spiritualists--oh no! They are familiar with all the
newest theories, and realize that an alternative hypothesis can explain
all so-called psychic phenomena without dragging spirits in. It is in
exaggerating results they go mostly wrong."

"Eccentrics," Devonham remarked, "out of the circle, and hysterical
to a man. They accomplish nothing. They are invariably dreamers,
usually of doubtful morals and honesty, and always unworthy of serious
attention. But they may amuse you for an hour."

"We all find it difficult to believe what we have never experienced,"
mentioned Fillery, turning to his colleague with a hearty laugh, in
which the latter readily joined, for their skirmishes usually brought
in laughter at the end. Just now, moreover, they were talking with a
purpose, and it was wise and good that LeVallon should listen and take
in what he could--hearing both sides. He watched and listened certainly
with open eyes and ears, as he sat between them on the wide front seat,
but saying, as usual, very little.

The car turned down a narrow lane with slackening speed and slowed up
before a dingy building with faded Virginia creepers sprawling about
stained dirty walls. The neighbourhood was depressing, patched and
dishevelled, and almost bordering on a slum. The November light was
passing into early twilight.

"You," said LeVallon abruptly, turning round and staring at Devonham,
"make everything seem unreal to me. I do not understand you. You know
so much. Why is so little real to you?"

But Devonham, in the act of getting out of the car, made no reply, and
probably had not heard the words, or, if he had heard, thought them
more suitable for Fillery.




CHAPTER XII


The Prometheans were evidently in full attendance; possibly the rumour
had reached them that Dr. Fillery was coming. No one announced the
latter's arrival, there was no servant visible; the party hung up their
hats and coats in a passage, then walked into the lofty, dim-lit studio
which was already filled with people and the hum of many voices.

At once, standing in a hesitating group beside the door, they were
observed by everyone in the room. All asked, it seemed, "Who is this
stranger they have brought?" Fillery caught the curious atmosphere
in that first moment, an instant whiff, as it were, of excitement,
interest, something picturesque, if possibly foolish, fantastic, too,
yet faintly stimulating, breathing along his extremely sensitive nerves.

He glanced at his companions. Devonham, it struck him, looked more than
ever like a floor-walker come to supervise, say, a Department where
the sales and assistants were not satisfactory or--he laughed inwardly
as the simile occurred to him--a free-thinker entering a church
whose teaching he disapproved, even despised, and whose congregation
touched his contemptuous pity. "Who would ever guess," thought his
friend and colleague, "the sincerity and depth of knowledge in that
insignificant appearance? Paul hides his value well!" He noticed, in
his quick fashion, touched by humour, the hard challenging eyes, the
aquiline nose on which a pair of pince-nez balanced uneasily, the
narrow shoulders, the poorly fitting clothes. The heart, of course,
remained invisible. Yet suddenly he felt glad that Devonham was with
him. "Nothing unstable there," he reflected, "and stability combined
with competence is rare." This rapid judgment, it occurred to him,
was possibly a warning from his own subconscious being.... A red flag
signalled, flickered, vanished.

He glanced next at LeVallon, towering above the other. LeVallon was
now well dressed in London clothes that suited him, though, for that
matter, any clothes must have looked well upon a male figure so
virile and upstanding. His great shoulders, his leanness, covered so
beautifully with muscle, his height, his colouring, his radiant air;
above all, his strange, big penetrating eyes, marked him as a figure
one would notice anywhere. He stood, somehow, alone, apart, though the
ingredients that contributed to this strange air of aloofness would be
hard to define.

It was chiefly, perhaps, the poise of the great powerful frame that
helped towards this odd setting in isolation and independence.
Motionless, he gazed about him quietly, but it was the way he stood
that singled him out from other men. Even in his stillness there was
grace; neither hands nor feet, though it was difficult to describe
exactly how he placed them or used them, were separate from this poise
of perfect balance. To put it colloquially, he knew what to do with
his extremities. Self-consciousness, in sight of this ardent throng,
the first he had encountered at close, intimate quarters, was entirely
absent.

This Fillery noticed instantly, but other impressions followed during
the few brief seconds while they waited by the door; and first, the odd
effect of tremendous power he managed to convey. Nothing could have
been less aggressive than the tentative, questioning, half inquiring,
half wondering attitude in which he stood, waiting to be introduced
to the buzzing throng of humans; yet there hung about him like an
atmosphere this potential strength, of confidence, of superiority, even
of beauty too, that not only contributed much to the aloofness already
mentioned, but also contrived to make the others, men and women, in the
crowded room--insignificant. Somehow they seemed pale and ineffective
against a larger grandeur, a scale entirely beyond their reach.

"Gigantic" was the word that leaped into the mind, but another perhaps
leaped with it--"elemental."

Fillery was aware of envy, oddly enough, of pride as well. His heart
warmed more than ever to him. Almost, he could have then and there
recalled his promise given to Devonham, cancelling it contemptuously
with a word of self-apology for his smallness and his lack of faith....

LeVallon, aware of a sympathetic mind occupied closely with himself,
turned in that moment, and their eyes met squarely; a smile of deep,
inner understanding passed swiftly between them over Devonham's
head and shoulders. In which moment, exactly, a short, bearded man,
detaching himself from the crowd, came forward and greeted them with
sincere pleasure in his voice and manner. He was broad-shouldered,
lean, his clothes hung loosely; his glance was keen but kindly.
Introductions followed, and Khilkoff's sharp eye rested for some
seconds with unconcealed admiration upon LeVallon, as he held his hand.
His discerning sculptor's glance seemed to appraise his stature and
proportions, while he bade him welcome to the Studio. His big head and
short neck, his mane of hair, the width of his face, with its squat
nose and high cheek-bones, the half ferocious eyes, the heavy jaw and
something sprawling about the mouth, gave him a leonine expression. And
his voice was not unlike a deep-toned growl, for all its cordiality.

A stir, meanwhile, ran through the room, more heads turned in their
direction; they had long ago been observed; they were being now
examined.

"Nayan," Khilkoff was saying, while he still held LeVallon's hand as
though its size and grip contented him, "had a late Russian lesson.
She will be here shortly, and very glad to make your acquaintance,"
looking up at LeVallon, as the new-comer. His gruffness and brevity had
something pleasing in them. "To-day the Studio is not entirely mine,"
he explained. "I want you to come when I'm alone. Some studies I made
in Sark this summer may interest you." He turned to Fillery. "That
lonely place was good for both of us," he said; "it gave me new life
and inspiration, and Nayan benefited immensely too. She looks more like
a nymph than ever."

He shook hands with Devonham, smiling more grimly. "I'm surprised you,
too, have honoured us," he exclaimed with genuine surprise. "Come
to damn them all as usual, probably! Good! Your common-sense and
healthy criticism are needed in these days--cool, cleaning winds in an
over-heated conservatory." He broke off abruptly and looked down at
LeVallon's hand he was still holding. He examined it for a second with
care and admiration, then turned his eye upon the young man's figure.
He grunted.

"When I know you better," he said, with a growl of earnest meaning, "I
shall ask a favour, a great favour, of you. So, beware!"

"Thank you," replied LeVallon, and at the sound of his voice the
sculptor's interest deepened. A gleam shone in his eye.

"You've begun some work," said Fillery, "and models are hard to come
by, I imagine." His eye never left LeVallon.

Khilkoff chuckled. "Thought-reader!" he exclaimed. "If Povey heard
that, he'd make you join the Society at once--as honorary member or
vice-president. Anything to get you in. Dr. Fillery understands us all
_too_ well," he went on to LeVallon. "In Sark, that lonely island in
the sea, I began four figures--four elemental figures--of earth, air,
fire and water--a group, of course. The air figure, I've done----"

"With Nayan as model," suggested Fillery, smiling.

"One morning, yes, I caught her bathing from a rock, hair streaming in
the wind, no clothes on, white foam from the big breakers fluttering
about her, slim, shining, unconscious and half dancing, fierce sunlight
all over her. Ah"--he broke off--"here's Povey coming. I mustn't
monopolize you all. Devonham, you know most of 'em. Make yourselves at
home." He turned to LeVallon again, with a touch of something gentler,
almost of respect, thought Fillery, as he noticed the delicate change
of voice and manner quickly. "Come, Mr. LeVallon," he said courteously,
"I should like to show you the figure as I've done it. We'll go for a
moment into my own private rooms. But it's a model for fire I'm looking
for, as Fillery guessed. You may be interested." He led him off.
LeVallon went with evident content, and the advance of skirmishes that
were already approaching for introductions was temporarily defeated.

For the three men standing by the door had formed a noticeable group,
and Khilkoff's presence added to their value. Dr. Fillery, known and
much respected, regarded with a touch of awe by many, had not come for
nothing, it was doubtless argued; his colleague, moreover, accompanied
him, and he, too, was known to the Society, though not much cultivated
by its members owing to his downright, critical way of talking. They
deemed him prejudiced, unsympathetic. It was the third member of the
group, LeVallon, who had quickly caught all eyes, and the attention
immediately paid to him by their host set the value of a special
and important guest upon him instantly. All watched him led away by
Khilkoff to the private quarters of the Studio, where none at first
presumed to follow them; but it was the eyes of the women that remained
glued to the open door where they had disappeared, waiting with careful
interest for their reappearance. In particular Lady Gleeson, the
"pretty Lady Gleeson," watched from the corner where she sat alone,
sipping some refreshment.

Fillery and Devonham, having observed the signs about them, exchanged
a glance; their charge was safe for the moment, at any rate; they felt
relieved; yet it was for the entry of Nayan, the daughter, that both
waited with interest and impatience, as, meanwhile, the bolder ones
among the crowd came up one by one and captured them.

"Oh, Dr. Fillery, I _am_ glad to see you here. I thought you were
always too busy for unscientific people like us. Yet, in a way, we're
all seekers, are we not? I've been reading your Physiology book, and I
_did_ so want to ask you about something in it. I wonder if you'd mind."

He shook hands with a young-old woman, wearing bobbed hair and glasses,
and speaking with an intense, respectful, yet self-apologetic manner.

"You've forgotten me, but I _quite_ understand. You see _so_ many
people. I'm Miss Lance. I sent you my little magazine, 'Simplicity,'
once, and you acknowledged it _so_ sweetly, though, of course, I
understood you had not the time to write for it." She continued for
several minutes, smiling up at him, her hands clasping and unclasping
themselves behind a back clothed with some glittering coloured material
that rather fascinated him by its sheen. She kept raising herself on
her toes and sinking back again in a series of jerky rhythms.

He gave her his delightful smile.

"Oh, Dr. Fillery!" she exclaimed, with pleasure, leading him to a
divan, upon which he let himself down in such a position that he could
observe the door from the street as well as the door where LeVallon had
disappeared. "This is really too good-natured of you. Your book set
me on fire simply"--her eyes wandering to the other door--"and what a
wonderful looking person you've brought with you----"

"I fear it's not very easy reading," he interposed patiently.

"To me it was too delightful for words," she rattled on, pleased by the
compliment implied. "I devour _all_ your books and always review them
myself in the magazine. I wouldn't trust them to anyone else. I simply
can't tell you how physiology stimulates me. Humanity needs imaginative
books, especially just now." She broke off with a deprecatory smile. "I
do what I can," she added, as he made no remark, "to make them known,
though in such a very small way, I fear." Her interest, however, was
divided, the two powerful attractions making her quite incoherent.
"Your friend," she ventured again, "he must be Eastern perhaps? Or is
that merely sunburn? He looks _most_ unusual."

"Sunburn merely, Miss Lance. You must have a chat with him later."

"Oh, thank you, _thank_ you, Dr. Fillery. I do so love unusual
people...."

He listened gravely. He was gentle, while she confided to him her
little inner hopes and dreams about the "simple life." She introduced
adjectives she believed would sound correct, if spoken very quickly,
until, between the torrent of "psychical," "physiological" and once or
twice, "psychological," she became positively incoherent in a final
entanglement from which there was no issue but a convulsive gesture.
None the less, she was bathed in bliss. She monopolized the great man
for a whole ten minutes on a divan where everybody could see that they
talked earnestly, intimately, perhaps even intellectually, together
side by side.

He observed the room, meanwhile, without her noticing it, scanning the
buzzing throng with interest. There was confusion somewhere, something
was lacking, no system prevailed; he was aware of a general sense of
waiting for a leader. All looked, he knew, for Nayan to appear. Without
her presence, there was no centre, for, though not a member of the
Society herself, she was the heart always of their gatherings, without
which they straggled somewhat aimlessly. And "heart," he remembered,
with a smile that Miss Lance took proudly for herself, was the
appropriate word. Nayan mothered them. They were but children, after
all....

"When you talk of a 'New Age,' what _exactly_ do you mean? I wish
you'd define the term for me," Devonham meanwhile was saying to an
interlocutor, not far away, while with a corner of his eye he watched
both Fillery and the private door. He still stood near the entrance,
looking more than ever like a disapproving floor-walker in a big
department store, and it was with H. Millington Povey that he talked,
the Honorary Secretary of the Society. The Secretary had aimed at
Fillery, but Miss Lance had been too quick for him. He was obliged
to put up with Devonham as second best, and his temper suffered
accordingly. He was in aggressive mood.

Povey, facing him, was talking with almost violent zeal. A small,
thin, nervous man, on the verge of middle age, his head prematurely
bald, with wildish tufts of patchy hair, a thin, scraggy neck that
he lengthened and shortened between high hunched shoulders, Povey
resembled an eager vulture. His keen bright eyes, hooked nose, and
a habit of twisting head and neck apart from his body, which held
motionless, increased this likeness to a bird of prey. Possessed of
considerable powers of organization, he kept the Society together. It
was he who insisted upon some special "psychic gift" as a qualification
of membership; an applicant must prove this gift to a committee of
Povey's choosing, though these proofs were never circulated for general
reading in the Society's Reports. Talkers, dreamers, faddists were not
desired; a member must possess some definite abnormal power before he
could be elected. He must be clairvoyant or clairaudient, an automatic
writer, trance-painter, medium, ghost-seer, prophet, priest or king.

Members, therefore, stated their special qualification to each
other without false modesty: "I'm a trance medium," for instance;
"Oh, really! _I_ see auras, of course"; while others had written
automatic poetry, spoken in trance--"inspirational speakers," that
is--photographed a spirit, appeared to someone at a distance,
or dreamed a prophetic dream that later had come true. Mediums,
spirit-photographers, and prophetic dreamers were, perhaps, the most
popular qualifications to offer, but there were many who remembered
past lives and not a few could leave their bodies consciously at will.

Memberships cost two guineas, the hat was occasionally passed round
for special purposes, there was a monthly dinner in Soho, when members
stood up, like saved sinners at a revivalist meeting, and gave personal
testimony of conversion or related some new strange incident. The
Prometheans were full of stolen fire and life.

Among them were ambitious souls who desired to start a new religion,
deeming the Church past hope. Others, like the water-dowsers and
telepathists, were humbler. There was an Inner Circle which sought to
revive the Mysteries, and gave very private performances of dramatic
and symbolic kind, based upon recovered secret knowledge, at the
solstices and equinoxes. New Thought members despised these, believing
nothing connected with the past had value; they looked ahead; "live
in the present," "do it now" was their watchword. Astrologers were
numerous too. These cast horoscopes, or, for a small fee, revealed
one's secret name, true colour, lucky number, day of the week and
month, and so forth. One lady had a tame "Elemental." Students of Magic
and Casters of Spells, wearers of talismans and intricate designs in
precious or inferior metal, according to taste and means, were well
represented, and one and all believed, of course, in spirits.

None, however, belonged to any Sect of the day, whatever it might be;
they wore no labels; they were seekers, questers, inquirers whom no set
of rules or dogmas dared confine within fixed limits. An entirely open
mind and no prejudices, they prided themselves, distinguished them.

"Define it in scientific terms, this New Age--I cannot," replied Povey
in his shrill voice, "for science deals only with the examination of
the known. Yet you only have to look round you at the world to-day to
see its obvious signs. Humanity is changing, new powers everywhere----"

Devonham interrupted unkindly, before the other could assume he had
proved something by merely stating it:

"What _are_ these signs, if I may ask?" he questioned sharply. "For if
you can name them, we can examine them--er--scientifically." He used
the word with malice, knowing it was ever on the Promethean lips.

"There you are, at cross-purposes at once," declared Povey. "I
refer to hints, half-lights, intuitions, signs that only the most
sensitive among us, those with psychic divination, with spiritual
discernment--that only the privileged and those developed in advance
of the Race--can know. And, instantly you produce your microscope, as
though I offered you the muscles of a tadpole to dissect."

They glared at one another. "We shall never get progress your way,"
Povey fumed, withdrawing his head and neck between his shoulders.

"Returning to the Middle Ages, on the other hand," mentioned Devonham,
"seems like advancing in a circle, doesn't it?"

"Dr. Devonham," interrupted a pretty, fair-haired girl with an intense
manner, "forgive me for breaking up your interesting talk, but you
come so seldom, you know, and there's a lady here who is dying to be
introduced. She has just seen crimson flashing in your aura, and she
wants to ask--do you mind _very_ much?" She smiled so sweetly at him,
and at Mr. Povey, too, who was said to be engaged to her, though none
believed it, that annoyance was not possible. "She says she simply
_must_ ask you if you were feeling anger. Anger, you know, produces red
or crimson in one's visible atmosphere," she explained charmingly. She
led him off, forgetting, however, her purpose _en route_, since they
presently sat down side by side in a quiet corner and began to enjoy
what seemed an interesting tête-à-tête, while the aura-seeing lady
waited impatiently and observed them, without the aid of clairvoyance,
from a distance.

"And _your_ qualifications for membership?" asked Devonham. "I wonder
if I may ask----?"

"But you'd laugh at me, if I told you," she answered simply, fingering
a silver talisman that hung from her neck, a six-pointed star with
zodiacal signs traced round a rose, _rosa mystica_, evidently. "I'm so
afraid of doctors."

Devonham shook his head decidedly, asserting vehemently his interest,
whereupon she told him her little private dream delightfully, without
pose or affectation, yet shyly and so sincerely that he proved his
assertion by a genuine interest.

"And does that protect you among your daily troubles?" he asked,
pointing to her little silver talisman. He had already commented
sympathetically upon her account of saving her new puppies from
drowning, having dreamed the night before that she saw them gasping in
a pail of water, the cruel under-gardener looking on. "Do you wear it
always, or only on special occasions like this?"

"Oh, Miss Milligan made that," she told him, blushing a little. "She's
rather poor. She earns her living by designing----"

"Oh!"

"But I don't mean _that_. She tells you your Sign and works it in metal
for you. I bought one. Mine is Pisces." She became earnest. "I was born
in Pisces, you see."

"And what does Pisces do for you?" he inquired, remembering the
heightened colour. The sincerity of this Rose Mystica delighted him,
and he already anticipated her reply with interest. Here, he felt, was
the credulous, religious type in its naked purity, forced to believe in
something marvellous.

"Well, if you wear your Sign next your skin it brings good luck--it
makes the things you want happen." The blush reappeared becomingly. She
did not lower her eyes.

"Have your things happened then?"

She hesitated. "Well, I've had an awfully good time ever since I wore
it----"

"Proposals?" he asked gently.

"Dr. Devonham!" she exclaimed. "How ever did you guess?" She looked
very charming in her innocent confusion.

He laughed. "If you don't take it off at once," he told her solemnly,
"you may get another."

"It was two in a single week," she confided a little tremulously.
"Fancy!"

"The important thing, then," he suggested, "is to wear your talisman at
the right moment, and with the right person."

But she corrected him promptly.

"Oh, no. It brings the right moment and the right person together,
don't you see, and if the other person is a Pisces person, you
understand each other, of course, at once."

"Would that I too were Pisces!" he exclaimed, seeing that she
was flattered by his interest. "I'm probably"--taking a sign at
random--"Scorpio."

"No," she said with grave disappointment, "I'm afraid you're
Capricornus, you know. I can tell by your nose and eyes--and
cleverness. But--I wanted really to ask you," she went on half shyly,
"if I might----" She stuck fast.

"You want to know," he said, glancing at her with quick understanding,
"who _he_ is." He pointed to the door. "Isn't that it?"

She nodded her head, while a divine little blush spread over her face.
Devonham became more interested. "Why?" he asked. "Did he impress you
so?"

"_Rather_," she replied with emphasis, and there was something in
her earnestness curiously convincing. A sincere impression had been
registered.

"His appearance, you mean?"

She nodded again; the blush deepened; but it was not, he saw, an
ordinary blush. The sensitive young girl had awe in her. "He's a friend
of Dr. Fillery's," he told her; "a young man who's lived in the wilds
all his life. But, tell me--why are you so interested? Did he make any
particular impression on you?"

He watched her. His own thoughts dropped back suddenly to a strange
memory of woods and mountains ... a sunset, a blazing fire ... a hint
of panic.

"Yes," she said, her tone lower, "he did."

"Something _very_ definite?"

She made no answer.

"What did you see?" he persisted gently. From woods and mountains,
memory stepped back to a railway station and a customs official....

Her manner, obviously truthful, had deep wonder, mystery, even worship
in it. He was aware of a nervous reaction he disliked, almost a chill.
He listened for her next words with an interest he could hardly account
for.

"Wings," she replied, an odd hush in her voice. "I thought of wings. He
seemed to carry me off the earth with great rushing wings, as the wind
blows a leaf. It was too lovely: I felt like a dancing flame. I thought
he was----"

"What?" Something in his mind held its breath a moment.

"You _won't_ laugh, Dr. Devonham, will you? I thought--for a
second--of--an angel." Her voice died away.

For a second the part of his mood that held its breath struggled
between anger and laughter. A moment's confusion in him there certainly
was.

"That makes two in the room," he said gently, recovering himself. He
smiled. But she did not hear the playful compliment; she did not see
the smile. "You've a delightful, poetic little soul," he added under
his breath, watching the big earnest eyes whose rapt expression met his
own so honestly. Having made her confession she was still engrossed,
absorbed, he saw, in her own emotion.... So this was the picture that
LeVallon, by his mere appearance alone, left upon an impressionable
young girl, an impression, he realized, that was profound and true
and absolute, whatever value her own individual interpretation of it
might have. Her mention of space, wind, fire, speed, he noticed in
particular--"off the earth ... rushing wind ... dancing flame ... an
angel!"

It was easy, of course, to jeer. Yet, somehow, he did not jeer at all.

She relapsed into silence, which proved how great had been the
emotional discharge accompanying the confession, temporarily exhausting
her. Dr. Devonham keenly registered the small, important details.

"Entertaining an angel unawares in a Chelsea Studio," he said,
laughingly; then reminding her presently that there was a lady who
was "dying to be introduced" to him, made his escape, and for the
next ten minutes found himself listening to a disquisition on auras
which described "visible atmospheres whose colour changes with emotion
... radioactivity ... the halo worn by saints" ... the effect of
light noticed about very good people and of blackness that the wicked
emanated, and ending up with the "radiant atmosphere that shone round
the figure of Christ and was believed to show the most lovely and
complicated geometrical designs."

"God geometrizes--you, doubtless, know the ancient saying?" Mrs. Towzer
said it like a challenge.

"I have heard it," admitted her listener shortly, his first opportunity
of making himself audible. "Plato said some other fine things too----"

"I felt sure you were feeling cross just now," the lady went on,
"because I saw lines and arrows of crimson darting and flashing through
your aura while you were talking to Mr. Povey. He _is_ very annoying
sometimes, isn't he? I often wonder where all our subscriptions go to.
I never could understand a balance-sheet. Can you?"

But Devonham, having noticed Dr. Fillery moving across the room, did
not answer, even if he heard the question. Fillery, he saw, was now
standing near the door where Khilkoff and LeVallon had disappeared to
see the sculpture, an oddly rapt expression on his face. He was talking
with a member called Father Collins. The buzz of voices, the incessant
kaleidoscope of colour and moving figures, made the atmosphere a little
electric. Extricating himself with a neat excuse, he crossed towards
his colleague, but the latter was already surrounded before he reached
him. A forest of coloured scarves, odd coiffures, gleaming talismans,
intervened; he saw men's faces of intense, eager, preoccupied
expression, old and young, long hair and bald; there was a new perfume
in the air, incense evidently; tea, coffee, lemonade were being served,
with stronger drink for the few who liked it, and cigarettes were
everywhere. The note everywhere was _exalté_ rather.

Out of the excited throng his eyes then by chance, apparently, picked
up the figure of Lady Gleeson, smoking her cigarette alone in a big
armchair, a half-empty glass of wine-cup beside her. She caught his
attention instantly, this "pretty Lady Gleeson," although personally
he found neither title nor adjective justified. The dark hair framed
a very white skin. The face was shallow, trivial, yet with a direct
intensity in the shining eyes that won for her the reputation of being
attractive to certain men. Her smile added to the notoriety she loved,
a curious smile that lifted the lip oddly, showing the little pointed
teeth. To him, it seemed somehow a face that had been over-kissed;
everything had been kissed out of it; the mouth, the lips, were worn
and barren in an appearance otherwise still young. She was very
expensively dressed, and deemed her legs of such symmetry that it
were a shame to hide them; clad in tight silk stockings, and looking
like strips of polished steel, they were now visible almost to the
knee, where the edge of the skirt, neatly trimmed in fur, cut them off
sharply. Some wag in the Society, paraphrasing the syllables of her
name, wittily if unkindly, had christened her _fille de joie_. When she
heard it she was rather pleased than otherwise.

Lady Gleeson, too, he saw now, was watching the private door. The same
moment, as so often occurred between himself and his colleague at some
significant point in time and space, he was aware of Fillery's eye upon
his own across the intervening heads and shoulders. Fillery, also, had
noticed that Lady Gleeson watched that door. His changed position in
the room was partly explained.

A slightly cynical smile touched Dr. Devonham's lips, but vanished
again quickly, as he approached the lady, bowed politely, and asked
if he might bring her some refreshment. He was too discerning to say
"more" refreshment. But she dotted every i, she had no half tones.

"Thanks, kind Dr. Devonham," she said in a decided tone, her voice
thin, a trifle husky, yet not entirely unmusical. It held a strange
throaty quality. "It's so absurdly light," she added, holding out the
glass she first emptied. "The mystics don't hold with anything strong
apparently. But I'm tired, and you discovered it. That's clever of you.
It'll do me good."

He, malevolently, assured her that it would.

"Who's your friend?" she asked point blank, with an air that meant
to have a proper answer, as he brought the glass and took a chair
near her. "He looks unusual. More like a hurdle-race champion than a
visionary." A sneer lurked in the voice. She fixed her determined clear
grey eyes upon his, eyes sparkling with interest, curiosity in life,
desire, the last-named quality of unmistakable kind. "I think I should
like to know him perhaps." It was mentioned as a favour to the other.

Devonham, who disliked and disapproved of all these people
collectively, felt angry suddenly with Fillery for having brought
LeVallon among them. It was after all a foolish experiment; the
atmosphere was dangerous for anyone of unstable, possibly of hysterical
temperament. He had vengeance to discharge. He answered with deliberate
malice, leading her on that he might watch her reactions. She was so
transparently sincere.

"I hardly think Mr. LeVallon would interest you," he said lightly. "He
is neither modern nor educated. He has spent his life in the backwoods,
and knows nothing but plants and stars and weather and--animals. You
would find him dull."

"No man with a face and figure like that can be dull," she said
quickly, her eyes alight.

He glanced at her rings, the jewelry round her neck, her expensive
gown that would keep a patient for a year or two. He remembered her
millionaire South African husband who was her foolish slave. She lived,
he knew, entirely for her own small, selfish pleasure. Although he
meant to use her, his gorge rose. He produced his happiest smile.

"You are a keen observer, Lady Gleeson," he remarked. "He doesn't look
quite ordinary, I admit." After a pause he added, "It's a curious
thing, but Mr. LeVallon doesn't care for the charms that we other men
succumb to so easily. He seems indifferent. What he wants is knowledge
only.... Apparently he's more interested in stars than in girls."

"Rubbish," she rejoined. "He hasn't met any in his woods, that's all."

Her directness rather disconcerted him. At the same time, it charmed
him a little, though he did not know it. His dislike of the woman,
however, remained. The idle, self-centred rich annoyed him. They were
so useless. The fabulous jewelry hanging upon such trash now stirred
his bile. He was conscious of the lust for pleasure in her.

"Yet, after all, he's rather an interesting fellow perhaps," he told
her, as with an air of sudden enthusiasm. "Do you know he talks of
rather wonderful things, too. Mere dreams, of course, yet, for all
that, out of the ordinary. He has vague memories, it seems, of another
state of existence altogether. He speaks sometimes of--of marvellous
women, compared to whom our women here, our little dressed-up dolls,
seem commonplace and insignificant." And, to his keen enjoyment, Lady
Gleeson took the bait with open mouth. She recrossed her shapely
legs. She wriggled a little in her chair. Her be-ringed fingers began
fidgeting along the priceless necklace.

"Just what I should expect," she replied in her throaty voice, "from a
young man who looks as he does."

She began to play her own cards then, mentioning that her husband
was interested in Dr. Fillery's Clinique. Devonham, however, at once
headed her off. He described the work of the Home with enthusiasm.
"It's fortunate that Dr. Fillery is rich," he observed carelessly,
"and can follow out his own ideas exactly as he likes. I, personally,
should never have joined him had he been dependent upon the mere
philanthropist."

"How wise of you," she returned. "And I should never have joined this
mad Society but for the chance of coming across unusual people. Now,
your Mr. LeVallon is one. You may introduce him to me," she repeated as
an ultimatum.

Her directness was the one thing he admired in her. At her own level,
she was real. He was aware of the semi-erotic atmosphere about these
Meetings and realized that Lady Gleeson came in search of excitement,
also that she was too sincere to hide it. She wore her insignia
unconcealed. Her talisman was of base metal, the one cheap thing
she wore, yet real. This foolish woman, after all, might be of use
unwittingly. She might capture LeVallon, if only for a moment, before
Nayan Khilkoff enchanted him with that wondrous sweetness to which no
man could remain indifferent. For he had long ago divined the natural,
unspoken passion between his Chief and the daughter of his host, and
with his whole heart he desired to advance it.

"My husband, too, would like to meet him, I'm sure," he heard her
saying, while he smiled at the reappearance of the gilded bait. "My
husband, you know, is interested in spirit photography and Dr. Frood's
unconscious theories."

He rose, without even a smile. "I'll try and find him at once," he
said, "and bring him to you. I only hope," he added as an afterthought,
"that Miss Khilkoff hasn't monopolized him already----"

"She hasn't come," Lady Gleeson betrayed herself. Instinctively she
knew her rival, he saw, with an inward chuckle, as he rose to fetch the
desired male.

He found him the centre of a little group just inside the door leading
into the sculptor's private studio, where Khilkoff had evidently been
showing his new group of elemental figures. Fillery, a few feet away,
observing everything at close range, was still talking eagerly with
Father Collins. LeVallon and Kempster, the pacifist, were in the
middle of an earnest talk, of which Devonham caught an interesting
fragment. Kempster's qualification for membership was an occasional
display of telepathy. He was a neat little man exceedingly well
dressed, over-dressed in fact, for his tailor's dummy appearance
betrayed that he thought too much about his personal appearance.
LeVallon, towering over him like some flaming giant, spoke quietly,
but with rare good sense, it seemed. Fillery's condensed education
had worked wonders on his mind. Devonham was astonished. About the
pair others had collected, listening, sometimes interjecting opinions
of their own, many women among them leaning against the furniture or
sitting on cushions and movable, dump-like divans on the floor. It was
a picturesque little scene. But LeVallon somehow dwarfed the others.

"I really think," Kempster was saying, "we might now become a
comfortable little third-rate Power--like Spain, for instance--enjoy
ourselves a bit, live on our splendid past, and take the sun in ease."
He looked about him with a self-satisfied smirk, as though he had
himself played a fine rôle in the splendid past.

LeVallon's reply surprised him perhaps, but it surprised Devonham
still more. The real, the central self, LeVallon, he thought with
satisfaction, was waking and developing. His choice of words was odd
too.

"No, no! _You_--the English are the leaders of the world; the
best quality is in you. If _you_ give up, the world goes down and
backwards." The deep, musical tones vibrated through the little room.
The speaker, though so quiet, had the air of a powerful athlete, ready
to strike. His pose was admirable. Faces turned up and stared. There
was a murmur of approval.

"We're so tired of that talk," replied Kempster, no whit disconcerted
by the evident signs of his unpopularity. "Each race should take its
turn. We've borne the white man's burden long enough. Why not drop it,
and let another nation do its bit? We've earned a rest, I think."
His precise, high voice was persuasive. He was a good public speaker,
wholly impervious to another point of view. But the resonant tones of
LeVallon's rejoinder seemed to bury him, voice, exquisite clothes and
all.

"There _is_ no other--unless you hand it back to weaker shoulders. No
other race has the qualities of generosity, of big careless courage of
the unselfish kind required. Above all, you alone have the chivalry."

Two things Devonham noted as he heard: behind the natural resonance
in the big voice lay a curious deepness that made him think of
thunder, a volume of sound suppressed, potential, roaring, which, if
let loose, might overwhelm, submerge. It belonged to an earnestness
as yet unsuspected in him, a strength of conviction based on a great
purpose that was evidently subconscious in him, as though he served it,
belonged to it, without realizing that he did so. He stood there like
some new young prophet, proclaiming a message not entirely his own.
Also he said "you" in place of the natural "we."

Devonham listened attentively. Here, too, at any rate, was an exchange
of ideas above the "psychic" level he so disliked.

LeVallon, he noticed at once, showed no evidence of emotion, though his
eyes shone brightly and his voice was earnest.

"America----" began Kempster, but was knocked down by a fact before he
could continue.

"Has deliberately made itself a Province again. America saw the ideal,
then drew back, afraid. It is once more provincial, cut off from the
planet, a big island again, concerned with local affairs of its own.
Your Democracy has failed."

"As it always must," put in Kempster, glad perhaps to shift the point,
when he found no ready answer. "The wider the circle from which
statesmen are drawn, the lower the level of ability. We should be
patriotic for ideas, not for places. The success of one country means
the downfall of another. That's not spiritual...." He continued at
high speed, but Devonham missed the words. He was too preoccupied with
the other's language, penetration, point of view. LeVallon had, indeed,
progressed. There was nothing of the alternative personality in this,
nothing of the wild, strange, nature-being whom he called "N. H."

"Patriotism, of course, is vulgar rubbish," he heard Kempster finishing
his tirade. "It is local, provincial. The world is a whole."

But LeVallon did not let him escape so easily. It was admirable really.
This half-educated countryman from the woods and mountains had a clear,
concentrated mind. He had risen too. Whence came his comprehensive
outlook?

"Chivalry--you call it sporting instinct--is the first essential of
a race that is to lead the world. It is a topmost quality. Your race
has it. It has come down even into your play. It is instinctive in you
more than any other. And chivalry is unselfish. It is divine. You have
conquered the sun. The hot races all obey you."

The thunder broke through the strange but simple words which, in
that voice, and with that quiet earnestness, carried some weight of
meaning in them that print cannot convey. The women gazed at him with
unconcealed, if not with understanding admiration. "Lead us, inspire
us, at any rate!" their eyes said plainly; "but love us, O love us,
passionately, above all!"

Devonham, hardly able to believe his ears and eyes, turned to see if
Fillery had heard the scrap of talk. Judging by the expression on his
face, he had not heard it. Father Collins seemed saying things that
held his attention too closely. Yet Fillery, for all his apparent
absorption, had heard it, though he read it otherwise than his somewhat
literal colleague. It was, nevertheless, an interesting revelation
to him, since it proved to him again how unreal "LeVallon" was; how
easily, quickly this educated simulacrum caught up, assimilated and
reproduced as his own, yet honestly, whatever was in the air at the
moment. For the words he had spoken were not his own, but Fillery's.
They lay, or something like them lay, unuttered in Fillery's mind just
at that very moment. Yet, even while listening attentively to Father
Collins, his close interest in LeVallon was so keen, so watchful, that
another portion of his mind was listening to this second conversation,
even taking part in it inaudibly. LeVallon caught his language from the
air....

Devonham made his opportunity, leading LeVallon off to be introduced to
Lady Gleeson, who still sat waiting for them on the divan in the outer
studio.

As they made their way through the buzzing throng into the larger
room, Devonham guessed suddenly that Lady Gleeson must somehow have
heard in advance that LeVallon would be present; her flair for new men
was singular; the sexual instinct, unduly developed, seemed aware of
its prey anywhere within a big radius. He owed his friend a hint of
guidance possibly. "A little woman," he explained as they crossed over,
"who has a weakness for big men and will probably pay you compliments.
She comes here to amuse herself with what she calls 'the freaks.'
Sometimes she lends her great house for the meetings. Her husband's a
millionaire." To which the other, in his deep, quiet voice, replied:
"Thank you, Dr. Devonham."

"She's known as 'the pretty Lady Gleeson.'"

"That?" exclaimed the other, looking towards her.

"Hush!" his companion warned him.

As they approached, Lady Gleeson, waiting with keen impatience, saw
them coming and made her preparations. The frown of annoyance at the
long delay was replaced by a smile of welcome that lifted the upper lip
on one side only, showing the white even teeth with odd effect. She
stared at LeVallon, thought Devonham, as a wolf eyes its prey. Deftly
lowering her dress--betraying thereby that she knew it was too high,
and a detail now best omitted from the picture--she half rose from
her seat as they came up. The instinctive art of deference, though
instantly corrected, did not escape Paul Devonham's too observant eye.

"You were kind enough to say I might introduce my friend," murmured he.
"Mr. LeVallon is new to our big London, and a stranger among all these
people."

LeVallon bowed in his calm, dignified fashion, saying no word, but
Lady Gleeson put her hand out, and, finding his own, shook it with her
air of brilliant welcome. Determination lay in her smile and in her
gesture, in her voice as well, as she said familiarly at once: "But,
Mr. LeVallon, how tall _are_ you, really? You seem to me a perfect
giant." She made room for him beside her on the divan. "Everybody here
looks undersized beside you!" She became intense.

"I am six feet and three inches," he replied literally, but without
expression in his face. There was no smile. He was examining her as
frankly as she examined him. Devonham was examining the pair of them.
The lack of interest, the cold indifference in LeVallon, he reflected,
must put the young woman on her mettle, accustomed as she was to quick
submission in her victims.

LeVallon, however, did not accept the offered seat; perhaps he had not
noticed the invitation. He showed no interest, though polite and gentle.

"He towers over all of us," Devonham put in, to help an awkward pause.
Yet he meant it more than literally; the empty prettiness of the
shallow little face before him, the triviality of Miss Rosa Mystica,
the cheapness of Povey, Kempster, Mrs. Towzer, the foolish air of
otherworldly expectancy in the whole room, of deliberate exaggeration,
of eyes big with wonder for sensation as story followed story--all this
came upon him with its note of poverty and tawdriness as he used the
words.

Something in the atmosphere of LeVallon had this effect--whence did it
come? he questioned, puzzled--of dwarfing all about him.

"All London, remember, isn't like this," he heard Lady Gleeson saying,
a dangerous purr audible in the throaty voice. "Do sit down here
and tell me what you think about it. I feel you don't belong here
quite, do you know? London cramps you, doesn't it? And you find the
women dull and insipid?" She deliberately made more room, patting the
cushions invitingly with a flashing hand, that alone, thought Devonham
contemptuously, could have endowed at least two big Cliniques. "Tell me
about yourself, Mr. LeVallon. I'm dying to hear about your life in the
woods and mountains. Do talk to me. I _am_ so bored!"

What followed surprised Devonham more than any of the three perhaps. He
ascribed it to what Fillery had called the "natural gentleman," while
Lady Gleeson, doubtless, ascribed it to her own personal witchery.

With that easy grace of his he sat down instantly beside her on the low
divan, his height and big frame contriving the awkward movement without
a sign of clumsiness. His indifference was obvious--to Devonham, but
the vain eyes of the woman did not notice it.

"That's better," she again welcomed him with a happy laugh. She edged
closer a little. "Now, do make yourself comfortable"--she arranged
the cushions again--"and please tell me about your wild life in the
forests, or wherever it was. You know a lot about the stars, I hear."
She devoured his face and figure with her shining eyes.

The upper lip was lifted for a second above a gleaming tooth. Devonham
had the feeling she was about to eat him, licking her lips already in
anticipation. He himself would be dismissed, he well knew, in another
moment, for Lady Gleeson would not tolerate a third person at the meal.
Before he was sent about his business, however, he had the good fortune
to hear LeVallon's opening answer to the foolish invitation. Amazement
filled him. He wished Fillery could have heard it with him, seen the
play of expression on the faces too--the bewilderment of sensational
hunger for something new in Lady Gleeson's staring eyes, arrested
instantaneously; the calm, cold look of power, yet power tempered by
a touch of pity, in LeVallon's glance, a glance that was only barely
aware of her proximity. He smiled as he spoke, and the smile increased
his natural radiance. He looked extraordinarily handsome, yet with a
new touch of strangeness that held even the cautious doctor momentarily
almost spellbound.

"Stars--yes, but I rarely see them here in London, and they seem so far
away. They comfort me. They bring me--they and women bring me--nearest
to a condition that is gone from me. I have lost it." He looked
straight into her face, so that she blinked and screwed up her eyes,
while her breathing came more rapidly. "But stars and women," he went
on, his voice vibrating with music in spite of its quietness, "remind
me that it is recoverable. Both give me this sweet message. I read it
in stars and in the eyes of women. And it is true because no words
convey it. For women cannot express themselves, I see; and stars, too,
are silent--here."

The same soft thunder as before sounded below the gently spoken words;
Lady Gleeson was trembling a little; she made a movement by means of
which she shifted herself yet nearer to her companion in what seemed a
natural and unconscious way. It was doubtless his proximity rather than
his words that stirred her. Her face was set, though the lips quivered
a trifle and the voice was less shrill than usual as she spoke, holding
out her empty glass.

"Thank you, Dr. Devonham," she said icily.

The determined gesture, a toss of the head, with the glare of sharp
impatience in the eyes, he could not ignore; yet he accepted his curt
dismissal slowly enough to catch her murmured words to LeVallon:

"How wonderful! How wonderful you are! And what sort of women...?"
followed him as he moved away. In his heart rose again an
uncomfortable memory of a Jura valley blazing in the sunset, and of a
half-naked figure worshipping before a great wood fire on the rocks....
He fancied he caught, too, in the voice, a suggestion of a lilt, a
chanting resonance, that increased his uneasiness further. One thing
was certain: it was not quite the ordinary "LeVallon" that answered the
silly woman. The reaction was of a different kind. Was, then, the other
self awake and stirring? Was it "N. H." after all, as his colleague
claimed?

Allowing a considerable interval to pass, he returned with a glass--of
lemonade--reaching the divan in its dim-lit corner just in time to see
a flashing hand withdrawn quickly from LeVallon's arm, and to intercept
a glance that told him the intrigue evidently had not developed
altogether according to Lady Gleeson's plan, although her air was one
of confidence and keenest self-satisfaction. LeVallon sat like a marble
figure, cold, indifferent, looking straight before him, listening, if
only with half an ear, to a stream of words whose import it was not
difficult to guess.

This Devonham's practised eye read in the flashing look she shot at
him, and in the quick way she thanked him.

"Coffee, dear Dr. Devonham, I asked for."

Her move was so quick, his desire to watch them a moment longer
together so keen, that for an instant he appeared to hesitate. It
was more than appearance; he did hesitate--an instant merely, yet
long enough for Lady Gleeson to shoot at him a second swift glance of
concentrated virulence, and also long enough for LeVallon to spring
lightly to his feet, take the glass from his hand and vanish in the
direction of the refreshment table before anything could prevent. "I
will get your coffee for you," still sounded in the air, so quickly
was the adroit manoeuvre executed. LeVallon had cleverly escaped.

"How stupid of me," said Devonham quickly, referring to the pretended
mistake. Lady Gleeson made no reply. Her inward fury betrayed itself,
however, in the tight-set lips and the hard glitter of her brilliant
little eyes. "He won't be a moment," the other added. "Do you find
him interesting? He's not very talkative as a rule, but perhaps with
you----" He hardly knew what words he used.

The look she gave him stopped him, so intense was the bitterness in
the eyes. His interruption, then, must indeed have been worse--or
better?--timed than he had imagined. She made no pretence of speaking.
Turning her glance in the direction whence the coffee must presently
appear, she waited, and Devonham might have been a dummy for all the
sign she gave of his being there. He had made an enemy for life, he
felt, a feeling confirmed by what almost immediately then followed.
Neither the coffee nor its bearer came that evening to pretty Lady
Gleeson in the way she had desired. She laid the blame at Devonham's
door.

For at that moment, as he stood before her, secretly enjoying her anger
a little, yet feeling foolish, perhaps, as well, a chord sounded on
the piano, and a hush passed instantly over the entire room. Someone
was about to sing. Nayan Khilkoff had come in, unnoticed, by the door
of the private room. Her singing invariably formed a part of these
entertainments. The song, too, was the one invariably asked for, its
music written by herself.

All talk and movement stopped at the sound of the little prelude, as
though a tap had been turned off. Even Devonham, most unmusical of men,
prepared to listen with enjoyment. He tried to see Nayan at the piano,
but too many people came between. He saw, instead, LeVallon standing
close at his side, the cup of coffee in his hand. He had that instant
returned.

"For Lady Gleeson. Will you pass it to her? Who's going to sing?" he
whispered all in the same breath. And Devonham told him, as he bent
down to give the cup. "Nayan Khilkoff. Hush! It's a lovely song. I know
it--'The Vagrant's Epitaph.'"

They stood motionless to listen, as the pure voice of the girl,
singing very simply but with the sweetness and truth of sincere
feeling, filled the room. Every word, too, was clearly audible:

    "Change was his mistress; Chance his counsellor.
      Love could not hold him; Duty forged no chain.
    The wide seas and the mountains called him,
      And grey dawns saw his camp-fires in the rain.

    "Sweet hands might tremble!--aye, but he must go.
      Revel might hold him for a little space;
    But, turning past the laughter and the lamps,
      His eyes must ever catch the luring Face.

    "Dear eyes might question! Yea, and melt again;
      Rare lips a-quiver, silently implore;
    But he must ever turn his furtive head,
      And hear that other summons at the door.

    "Change was his mistress; Chance his counsellor.
      The dark firs knew his whistle up the trail.
    Why tarries he to-day?... And yesternight
      Adventure lit her stars without avail."




CHAPTER XIII


Lady Gleeson, owing to an outraged vanity and jealousy she was unable
to control, missed the final scene, for before the song was actually
finished she was gone. Being near a passage that was draped only by a
curtain, she slipped out easily, flung herself into a luxurious motor,
and vanished into the bleak autumn night.

She had seen enough. Her little heart raged with selfish fury. What
followed was told her later by word of mouth.

Never could she forgive herself that she had left the studio before the
thing had happened. She blamed Devonham for that too.

For LeVallon, it appears, having passed the cup of coffee to her
through a third person--in itself an insult of indifference and
neglect--stood absorbed in the words and music of the song. Being head
and shoulders above the throng, he easily saw the girl at the piano. No
one, unless it was Fillery, a few yards away, watched him as closely as
did Devonham and Lady Gleeson, though all three for different reasons.
It was Devonham, however, who made the most accurate note of what he
saw, though Fillery's memory was possibly the truer, since his own
inner being supplied the fuller and more sympathetic interpretation.

LeVallon, tall and poised, stood there like a great figure shaped in
bronze. He was very calm. His bright hair seemed to rise a little;
his eyes, steady and wondering, gazed fixedly; his features, though
set, were mobile in the sense that any instant they might leap into
the alive and fluid expression of some strong emotion. His whole
being, in a word, stood at attention, alert for instant action of some
uncontrollable, perhaps terrific kind. "He seemed like a glowing
pillar of metal that must burst into flame the very next instant," as a
Member told Lady Gleeson later.

Devonham watched him. LeVallon seemed transfixed. He stared above
the intervening tousled heads. He drew a series of deep breaths that
squared his shoulders and made his chest expand. His very muscles
ached apparently for instant action. An intensity of wondering joy
and admiration that lit his face made the eyes shine like stars. He
watched the singing girl as a tiger watches the keeper who brings its
long-expected food. The instant the bar is up, it springs, it leaps, it
carries off, devours. Only, in this case, there were no bars. Nor was
the wild desire for nourishment of a carnal kind. It was companionship,
it was intercourse with his own that he desired so intensely.

"He divines the motherhood in her," thought Fillery, watching closely,
pain and happiness mingled in his heart. "The protective, selfless,
upbuilding power lies close to Nature." And as this flashed across him
he caught a glimpse by chance of its exact opposite--in Lady Gleeson's
peering, glittering eyes--the destructive lust, the selfish passion,
the bird of prey.

"_The dark firs knew his whistle up the trail_," the song in that soft
true voice drew to its close. LeVallon was trembling.

"Good Heavens!" thought Devonham. "Is it 'N. H.'? Is it 'N. H.,' after
all, waking--rising to take possession?" He, too, trembled.

It was here that Lady Gleeson, close, intuitive observer of her
escaping prey, rose up and slipped away, her going hardly noticed by
the half-entranced, half-dreaming hearts about her, each intent upon
its own small heaven of neat desire. She went as unobtrusively as an
animal that is aware of untoward conditions and surroundings, showing
her teeth, feeling her claws, yet knowing herself helpless. Not even
Devonham, his mind ever keenly alert, observed her going. Fillery,
alone, conscious of LeVallon's eyes across the room, took note of it.
She left, her violent little will intent upon vengeance of a later
victory that she still promised herself with concentrated passion.

Yet Devonham, though he failed to notice the slim animal of prey in
exit, noticed this--that the face he watched so closely changed quickly
even as he watched, and that the new expression, growing upon it as
heat grows upon metal set in a flame, was an expression he had seen
before. He had seen it in that lonely mountain valley where a setting
sun poured gold upon a burning pyre, upon a dancing, chanting figure,
upon a human face he now watched in this ridiculous little Chelsea
studio. The sharpness of the air, the very perfume, stole over him as
he stared, perplexed, excited and uneasy. That strange, wild, innocent
and tender face, that power, that infinite yearning! LeVallon had
disappeared. It was "N. H." that stood and watched the singer at the
little modern piano.

Then with the end of the song came the rush, the bustle of applause,
the confusion of many people rising, trotting forward, all talking
at once, all moving towards the singer--when LeVallon, hitherto
motionless as a statue, suddenly leaped past and through them like a
vehement wind through a whirl of crackling dead leaves. Only his deft,
skilful movement, of poise and perfect balance combined with accurate
swiftness, could have managed it without bruised bodies and angry
cries. There was no clumsiness, no visible effort, no appearance of
undue speed. He seemed to move quietly, though he moved like fire. In
a moment he was by the piano, and Nayan, in the act of rising from her
stool, gazed straight up into his great lighted eyes.

It was singular how all made way for him, drew back, looked on.
Confusion threatened. Emotion surged like a rising sea. Without a
leader there might easily have been tumult; even a scene. But Fillery
was there. His figure intervened at once.

"Nayan," he said in a steady voice, "this is my friend, Mr. LeVallon.
He wants to thank you."

But, before she could answer, LeVallon, his hand upon her arm, said
quickly, yet so quietly that few heard the actual words, perhaps--his
voice resonant, his eyes alight with joy: "You are here too--with me,
with Fillery. We are all exiles together. But you know the way out--the
way back! You remember!..."

She stared with delicious wonder into his eyes as he went on:

"O star and woman! Your voice is wind and fire. Come!" And he tried to
seize her. "We wilt go back together. We work here in vain!..." His
arms were round her; almost their faces touched.

The girl rose instantly, took a step towards him, then hung back; the
stool fell over with a crash; a hubbub of voices rose in the room
behind; Povey, Kempster, a dozen Members with them, pressed up; the
women, with half-shocked, half-frightened eyes, gaped and gasped over
the forest of intervening male shoulders. A universal shuffle followed.
The confusion was absurd and futile. Both male and female stood aghast
and stupid before what they saw, for behind the mere words and gestures
there was something that filled the little scene with a strange shaking
power, touching the panic sense.

LeVallon lifted her across his shoulders.

The beautiful girl was radiant, the man wore the sudden semblance of
a god. Their very stature increased. They stood alone. Yet Fillery,
close by, stood with them. There seemed a magic circle none dared cross
about the three. Something immense, unearthly, had come into the room,
bursting its little space. Even Devonham, breaking with vehemence
through the human ring, came to a sudden halt.

In a voice of thunder--though it was not actually loud--LeVallon cried:

"Their little personal loves! They cannot understand!" He bore Nayan
in his arms as wind might lift a loose flower and whirl it aloft.
"Come back with me, come home! The Sun forgets us here, the Wind is
silent. There is no Fire. Our work, our service calls us." He turned to
Fillery. "You too. Come!"

His voice boomed like a thundering wind against the astonished
frightened faces staring at him. It rose to a cry of intense emotion:
"We are in little exile here! In our wrong place, cut off from the
service of our gods! We will go back!" He started, with the girl flung
across his frame. He took one stride. The others shuffled back with one
accord.

"_The other summons at the door._ But, Edward!--you--you too!"

It was Nayan's voice, as the girl clung willingly to the great neck
and arms, the voice of the girl all loved and worshipped and thought
wonderful beyond temptation; it was this familiar sound that ran
through the bewildered, startled throng like an electric shock. They
could not believe their eyes, their ears. They stood transfixed.

Within their circle stood LeVallon, holding the girl, almost embracing
her, while she lay helpless with happiness upon his huge enfolding
arms. He paused, looked round at Fillery a moment. None dared approach.
The men gazed, wondering, and with faculties arrested; the women
stared, stock still, with beating hearts. All felt a lifting, splendid
wonder they could not understand. Devonham, mute and motionless before
an inexplicable thing, found himself bereft of judgment. Analysis and
precedent, for once, both failed. He looked round in vain for Khilkoff.

Fillery alone seemed master of himself, a look of suffering and joy
shone in his face; one hand lay steady upon LeVallon's arm.

Within the little circle these three figures formed a definite
group, filling the beholders, for the first time in their so-called
"psychic" experience, with the thrill of something utterly beyond their
ken--something genuine at last. For there seemed about the group,
though emanating, as with shining power, from the figure of LeVallon
chiefly, some radiating force, some elemental vigour they could not
comprehend. Its presence made the scene possible, even right.

"Edward--you too! What is it, O, what is it? There are flowers--great
winds! I see the fire----!"

A searching tenderness in her tone broke almost beyond the limits of
the known human voice.

There swept over the onlookers a wave of incredible emotion then, as
they saw LeVallon move towards them, as though he would pass through
them and escape. He seemed in that moment stupendous, irresistible.
He looked divine. The girl lay in his arms like some young radiant
child. He did not kiss her, no sign of a caress was seen; he did no
ordinary, human thing. His towering figure, carrying his burden almost
negligently, came out of the circle "like a tide" towards them, as one
described it later--or as a poem that appeared later in "Simplicity"
began:

    "With his hair of wind
    And his eyes of fire
    And his face of infinite desire ..."

He swept nearer. They stirred again in a confused and troubled shuffle,
opening a way. They shrank back farther. They shivered, like crying
shingle a vast wave draws back. Only Fillery stood still, making no
sign or movement; upon his face that look of joy and pain--wild joy and
searching pain--no one, perhaps, but Devonham understood.

"Wind and fire!" boomed LeVallon's tremendous voice. "We return to our
divine, eternal service. O Wind and Fire! We come back at last!" An
immense rhythm swept across the room.

Then it was, without announcement of word or action, that Nayan,
suddenly leaping from the great enfolding arms, stood upright between
the two figures, one hand outstretched towards--Fillery.

At which moment, emerging apparently from nowhere, Khilkoff appeared
upon the scene. During the music he had left the studio to find certain
sketches he wished to show to LeVallon; he had witnessed nothing,
therefore, of what had just occurred. He now stood still, staring
in sheer surprise. The people in a ring, gazing with excited, rapt
expression into the circle they thus formed, looked like an audience
watching some performance that dazed and stupefied them, in which
Fillery, LeVallon and Nayan--his own daughter--were the players. He
took it for an impromptu charade, perhaps, something spontaneously
arranged during his absence. Yet he was obviously staggered.

As he entered, the girl had just leaped from the arms that held her,
and run towards Fillery, who stood erect and motionless in the centre
of the circle; and LeVallon's wild splendid cry in that instant shook
its grand music across the vaulted room. So well acted, so dramatic,
so real was the scene thus interrupted that Khilkoff stood staring in
silence, thinking chiefly, as he said afterwards, that the young man's
pose and attitude were exactly--magnificently--what he wanted for the
figure of Fire and Wind in his elemental group.

This enthusiastic thought, with the attempt to engrave it permanently
in his memory, filled his mind completely for an instant, when there
broke in upon it again that resonant voice, half cry, half chant,
vibrating with depth and music, yet quiet too:

"Wind and Fire! My Wind and Fire! O Sun--your messengers are come for
us!... Oh, come with power and take us with you!..." Its rhythm was
gigantic.

So extraordinary was the volume, yet the sweetness, too, in the voice,
though its actual loudness was not great--so arresting was its quality,
that Khilkoff, as he put it afterwards, thought he heard an entirely
new sound, a sound his ears had never known before. He, like the rest
of the astonished audience, was caught spell-bound. But for an instant
only. For at once there followed another voice, releasing the momentary
spell, and, with the accompanying action, warned him that what he saw
was no mere game of acting. This was real.

"_I hear that other summons at the door!..._"

Her hands were outstretched, her eyes alight with yearning, she was
oblivious of everyone but Fillery, LeVallon and herself.

And her father, then, breaking through the crowding figures, packed
shoulder to shoulder nearest to him, entered the circle. His mind
was confused, perhaps, for vague ideas of some undesirable hypnotic
influence, of some foolish experiment that had become too real, passed
through it. He knew one thing only--this scene, whether real or acted,
pretence or sincere, must be stopped. The look on his daughter's
face--entirely new and strange to him--was all the evidence he needed.
He shouldered his way through like an angry bear, making inarticulate
noises, growling.

But, before he reached the actors, before Nayan reached Fillery's
side, and while the voice of the girl and of LeVallon still seemed
to echo simultaneously in the air, a new thing happened that changed
the scene completely. In these few brief seconds, indeed, so much
was concentrated, and with such rapidity, that it was small wonder
the reports of individual witnesses differed afterwards, almost as
if each one had seen a separate detail of the crowded picture. Its
incredibility, too, bewildered minds accustomed to imagined dreams
rather than to real action.

LeVallon, at any rate, all agreed, turned with that ease and swiftness
peculiarly his own, caught Nayan again into the air, and with one arm
swung her back across his shoulder. He moved, then, so irresistibly,
with a great striding rush in the direction of the door into the
street, and so rapidly, that the onlookers once more drew back
instinctively pell mell, tumbling over each other in their frightened
haste.

This, all agreed, had happened. One second they saw LeVallon carrying
the girl off, the next--a flash of intense and vivid brilliance entered
the big studio, flooding all detail with a blaze of violent light.
There was a loud report, there was a violent shock.

"The Messengers! Our Messengers!..." The thunder of LeVallon's cry was
audible.

The same instant this dazzling splendour, so sparkling it was almost
painful, became eclipsed again. There was complete obliteration.
Darkness descended like a blow. An inky blackness reigned. No single
thing was visible. There came a terrific splitting sound.

The effect of overwhelming sudden blackness was natural enough. In
every mind danced still the vivid memory of that last amazing picture
they had seen: Khilkoff, with alarmed face, breaking violently into
the circle where his daughter, Nayan, swinging from those giant
shoulders, looked back imploringly at Dr. Fillery, who stood motionless
as though carved in stone, a smile of curious happiness yet pain
upon his features. Yet the figure of LeVallon dominated. His radiant
beauty, his air of superb strength, his ease, his power, his wild
swiftness. Something unearthly glowed about him. He looked a god. The
extraordinary idea flashed into Fillery's mind that some big energy as
of inter-stellar spaces lay about him, as though great Sirius called
down along his light-years of distance into the little tumbled Chelsea
room.

This was the picture, set one instant in dazzling violet brilliance,
then drowned in blackness, that still hung shining with intense reality
before every mind.

The following confusion had a moment of real and troubling panic; women
screamed, some fell upon their knees; men called for light; various
cries were heard; there was a general roar:

"To the door, all men to the door! He's controlled! There's an
Elemental in him!" It was Povey's shrill tones that pierced.

"Strike a match!" shouted Kempster. "The electric light has fused. Stay
where you are. Don't move--everybody."

"Lightning," the clear voice of Devonham was heard. "Keep your heads.
It's only a thunderstorm!"

Matches were struck, extinguished, lit again; a patch of dim light
shone here and there upon a throng of huddled people; someone found a
candle that shed a flickering glare upon the walls and ceiling, but
only made the shadows chiefly visible. It was an unreal, fantastic
scene.

A moment later there descended a hurricane gust of wind against the
building, with splintering glass as though from a hail of bullets, that
extinguished candle and matches, and plunged the scene again into total
darkness. A terrific clap of thunder, followed immediately by a rushing
sound of rain that poured in a flood upon the floor, completed the
scene of terror and confusion. The huge north window had blown in.

The consternation was, for some moments, dangerous, for true panic may
become an unmanageable thing, and this panic was unquestionably real.
The superstitious thread that lies in every human being, stretched and
shivered, beginning to weave its swift, ominous pattern. The elements
dominated the human too completely just then even for the sense of
wonder that was usually so active in the Society's mental make-up
to assert itself intelligently. Most of them lost their heads. All
associated that picture of LeVallon and the girl with this terrific
demonstration of overpowering elemental violence. Povey's startled cry
had given them the lead. The human touch thus added the flavour of
something both personal and supernatural.

Some stood screaming, whimpering, unable to move; some were numb;
others cried for help; not a few remained on their knees; the name
of God was audible here and there; many collapsed and several women
fainted. To one and all came the realization of that panic fear which
dislocates and paralyses. This was a manifestation of elemental power
that had intelligence somewhere driving too suggestively behind it....

It was Devonham and Khilkoff who kept their heads and saved the
situation. The sudden storm was, indeed, of extreme violence and
ferocity; the force of the wind, with the nearness of the terrible
lightning and the consequent volume of the overwhelming thunder, were
certainly bewildering. But a thunderstorm, they began to realize, was a
thunderstorm.

"Everyone stay exactly where he is," suddenly shouted Khilkoff
through the darkness. His voice brought comfort. "I'll light candles
in the inner studio." He did so a moment later; the faint light was
reassuring; a pause in the storm came to his assistance, the wind
had passed, the rain had ceased, there was no more lightning. With a
whispered word to Devonham, he disappeared through the door into the
passage: "You look after 'em; I must find my girl."

"One by one, now," called Devonham. "Take careful steps! Avoid the
broken glass!"

Voices answered from dark corners, as the inner room began to fill;
all saw the candle light and came to it by degrees. "Povey, Kempster,
Imson, Father Collins! Each man bring a lady with him. It's only a
thunderstorm. Keep your heads!"

The smaller room filled gradually, people with white faces and staring
eyes coming, singly or in couples, within the pale radiance of the
flickering candle light. Feet splashed through pools of water; the
furniture, the clothing, were soaked; the heat in the air, despite the
great broken window, was stifling. One or two women were helped, some
were carried; there were cries and exclamations, a noise of splintered
glass being trodden on or kicked aside; drinks were brought for
those who had fainted; order was restored bit by bit. The collective
consciousness resumed gradually its comforting sway. The herd found
strength in contact. A single cry--in a woman's voice--"Pan was among
us!..." was instantly smothered, drowned in a chorus of "Hush! Hush!"
as though a mere name might bring a repetition of a terror none could
bear again.

The entire scene had lasted perhaps five minutes, possibly less. The
violent storm that had hung low over London, accumulating probably
for hours, had dissipated itself in a single prodigious explosion,
and was gone. Through the gaping north window, torn and shattered,
shone the stars. More candles were brought and lighted, food and drink
followed, a few cuts from broken glass were attended to, and calm in a
measure came back to the battered and shaken yet thrilled and delighted
Prometheans.

But all eyes looked for a couple who were not there; a hundred heads
turned searching, for in every heart lay one chief question. Yet,
oddly enough, none asked aloud; the names of Nayan and LeVallon
were not spoken audibly; some touch of awe, it seemed, clung to a
memory still burning in each individual mind; it was an awe that none
would willingly revive just then. The whole occurrence had been too
devastating, too sudden; it all had been too real.

There was little talk, nor was there the whispered discussion even that
might have been expected; individual recovery was slow and hesitating.
What had happened lay still too close for the comfort of detailed
comparison or analysis by word of mouth. With common accord the matter
was avoided. Discussions must wait. It would fill many days with wonder
afterwards....

It was with a sense of general relief, therefore, that the throng of
guests, bedraggled somewhat in appearance, eyes still bright with
traces of uncommon excitement, their breath uneven and their attitude
still nervous, saw the door into the passage open and frame the figure
of their returning host. He held a lighted candle. His bearded face
looked grim, but his slow deep voice was quiet and reassuring--he
smiled, his words were commonplace.

"You must excuse my daughter," he said firmly, "but she sends her
excuses, and begs to be forgiven for not coming to bid you all
good-night. The lightning--the electricity--has upset her. I have
advised her to go to bed."

A sigh of relief from everybody came in answer. They were only too glad
to take the hint and go.

"The little impromptu act we had prepared for you we cannot give now,"
he added, anticipating questions. "The storm prevented the second part.
We must give it another time instead."




CHAPTER XIV


Khilkoff, Edward Fillery and Paul Devonham, between them, it seems,
were wise in their generation. The story spread that the scene in
the Studio had been nothing but a bit of inspired impromptu acting,
to which the coincidence of the storm had lent a touch of unexpected
conviction where, otherwise, all would have ended in a laugh and a
round or two of amused applause.

The spreading of an undesirable story, thus, was to a great extent
prevented, its discussion remaining confined, chiefly, among the few
startled witnesses. Yet the Prometheans, of course, knew a supernatural
occurrence when they saw one. They were not to be so easily deprived
of their treasured privilege. Thrilled to their marrows, individually
and collectively, they committed their versions to writing, drew up
reports, compared notes and, generally, made the feast last as long as
possible. It was, moreover, a semi-sacred feast for them. Its value
increased portentously. It bound the Society together with fresh life.
It attracted many new members. Povey and his committee increased the
subscription and announced an entrance fee in addition.

The various accounts offered by the Members, curious as these were, may
be left aside for the moment, since the version of the occurrence as
given by Edward Fillery comes first in interest. His report, however,
was made only to himself; he mentioned it in full to no one, not even
to Paul Devonham. He felt unable to share it with any living being.
Only one result of his conclusions he shared openly enough with his
assistant: he withdrew his promise.

Upon certain details, the two men agreed with interest--that everybody
in the room, men and women, were on the _qui vive_ the moment LeVallon
made his entrance. His appearance struck a note. All were aware of an
unusual presence. Interest and curiosity rose like a vapour, heads all
turned one way as though the same wind blew them, there was a buzz and
murmur of whispered voices, as though the figure of LeVallon woke into
response the same taut wire in every heart. "Who on earth is that? What
is he?" was legible in a hundred questioning eyes. All, in a word, were
aware of something unaccustomed.

Upon this detail--and in support of the Society's claim to special
"psychic" perception, it must be mentioned--Fillery and Devonham were
at one. But another detail, too, found them in agreement. It was not
the tempest that caused the panic; it was LeVallon himself. Something
about LeVallon had produced the abrupt and singular sense of panic
terror.

Fillery was glad; he was satisfied, at any rate. The transient, unreal
personality called "LeVallon" had disappeared and, as he believed,
for ever; a surface apparition after all, it had been educated,
superimposed, the result of imitation and quick learning, a phantom
masquerading as an intelligent human being. It was merely an acquired
surface-self, a physical, almost an automatic intelligence. The deep
nature underneath had now broken out. It was the sudden irruption of
"N. H." that touched the subconscious self of everyone in the room with
its strange authentic shock. "N. H." was in full possession.

Towards this real Self he felt attraction, yearning, even love. He
had felt this from the very beginning. Why, or what it was, he did
not pretend to know as yet. Towards "N. H." he reacted as towards
his own son, as to a comrade, ancient friend, proved intimate and
natural playmate even. The strange tie was difficult to describe. In
himself, though faint by comparison, lay something akin in sympathy and
understanding.... They belonged together in the same unknown region.
The girl, of course, belonged there too, but more completely, more
absolutely, even than himself. He foresaw the risks, the dangers. His
heart, with a leap of joy, accepted the responsibilities.

Unlike Devonham, he had not come that afternoon to scoff; his smile
at the vagaries of what his assistant called "hysterical psychics"
had no bitterness, no contempt. If their excesses were pathogenic
often, he believed with Lombroso that genius and hysteria draw upon
a common origin sometimes, also that, from among this unstable
material, there emerged on occasions hints of undeniable value. To
the want of balance was chiefly due the ineffectiveness of these
hints. This class, dissatisfied with present things, kicking over the
traces which herd together the dull normal crowd into the safe but
uninteresting commonplace, but kicking, of course, too wildly, alone
offered hints of powers that might one day, obedient to laws at present
unknown, become of value to the race. They were temperamentally open
to occasional, if misguided, inspiration, and all inspiration, the
evidence overwhelmingly showed, is due to an intense, but hidden mental
activity. The hidden nine-tenths of the self peeped out here and there
periodically. These people were, at heart, alert to new ideas. The herd
instinct was weak in them. They were individuals.

Fillery had not come to scoff. His chief purpose on this particular
occasion had been to observe any reactions produced in LeVallon by
the atmosphere of these unbalanced yet questing minds, and by the
introduction to a girl, whose beauty, physical and moral, he considered
far far above the standard of other women. Iraida Khilkoff, as he saw
her, rose head and shoulders, like some magical flower in a fairy-tale,
beyond her feminine kind.

His hopes had in both respects proved justified. LeVallon was gone. "N.
H." had swept up commandingly into full possession.

If it is the attitude of mind that interprets details in a given
scene, it is the heart that determines their selection. Devonham saw
collective hallucination, delusion, humbug--useless and undesirable
weeds, where his chief saw strange imperfect growths that might one
day become flowers in a marvellous garden. That this garden blossomed
upon the sunny slopes of a lost Caucasian valley had a significance he
did not shirk. Always he was honest with himself. It was this symbolic
valley he longed to people. Its radiant loveliness stirred a forgotten
music in his heart, he watched golden bees sipping that wild azalea
honey, of which even the natives may not rob them without the dangerous
delight of exaltation; his nostrils caught the delicious perfumes, his
cheek felt the touch of happy winds ... as he stood by the door with
Devonham and LeVallon, looking round the crowded Chelsea studio.

Aware of this association stirring in his blood, he believed he had
himself well in hand; he knew already in advance that a spirit moved
upon the face of those waters that were his inmost self; he had that
intuitive divination which anticipates a change of spiritual weather.
The wind was rising, the atmosphere lay prepared, already the flowers
bent their heads one way. All his powers of self-control might well
be called upon before the entertainment ended. Glancing a moment at
LeVallon, tall, erect and poised beside him, he was conscious--it
was an instant of vivid self-revelation--that he steadied himself in
doing so. He borrowed, as it were, something of that poise, that calm
simplicity, that potential energy, that modest confidence. Some latent
power breathed through the great stalwart figure by his side; the
strength was not his own; LeVallon emanated this power unconsciously.

Khilkoff, as described, had then led the youth away to see the
sculpture, Devonham was captured by a Member, and Fillery found himself
alone. He looked about him, noticing here and there individuals whom he
knew. Lady Gleeson he saw at once on her divan in the corner, with her
cigarette, her jewels, her glass, her background of millions through
which an indulgent husband floated like a shadow. His eye rested on her
a second only, then passed in search of something less insignificant.
Miss Lance, who had heard of his books and dared to pretend knowledge
of them, monopolised him for ten minutes. A little tactful kindness
managed her easily, while he watched the door where LeVallon had
disappeared with Khilkoff, and through which Nayan might any moment now
enter. Already his thoughts framed these two together in a picture; his
heart saw them playing hand in hand among the flowers of the Hidden
Valley, one flying, the other following, a radiance of sunny fire and a
speed of lifting winds about them both, yet he himself, oddly enough,
not far away. He, too, was somehow with them. While listening with his
mind to what Miss Lance was saying, his heart went out playing with
this splendid pair.... He would not lose her finally, it seemed; some
subtle kinship held them together in this trinity. The heart in him
played wild against the mind.

He caught Devonham's eye upon him, and a sudden smile that Miss Lance
fortunately appropriated to herself, ran over his too thoughtful
face. For Devonham's attitude towards the case, his original Notes,
his obvious concealment of experiences in the Jura Mountains, flashed
across him with a flavour of something half comic, half pathetic. "With
all that knowledge, with all the accumulation of data, Paul stops short
of Wonder!" he thought to himself, his eyes fixed solemnly upon Miss
Lance's face. He remembered Coleridge: "All knowledge begins and ends
with wonder, but the first wonder is the child of ignorance, while
the second wonder is the parent of adoration." A thousand years, and
the dear fellow will still regard adoration as hysteria! He chuckled
audibly, to his companion's surprise, since the moment was not
appropriate for chuckling.

Making his peace with his neighbour, he presently left her for a
position nearer to the door, Father Collins providing the opportunity.

Father Collins, as he was called, half affectionately, half in awe, as
of a parent with a cane, was an individual. He had been evangelical,
high church, Anglican, Roman Catholic, in turn, and finally Buddhist.
Believing in reincarnation, he did not look for progress in humanity;
the planet resembled a form at school--individuals passed into it and
out of it, but the average of the form remained the same. The fifth
form was always the fifth form. Earth's history showed no advance as
a whole, though individuals did. He looked forward, therefore, to no
Utopia, nor shared the pessimism of the thinkers who despaired of
progress.

A man of intense convictions, yet open mind, he was not ashamed
to move. Before the Buddhist phase, he had been icily agnostic.
He thought, but also he felt. He had vision and intuition; he had
investigated for himself. His mind was of the imaginative-scientific
order. Buddhism, his latest phase, attracted him because it was "a
scientific, logical system rather than a religion based on revelation."
He belonged eminently to the unstable. He found no resting place. He
came to the meetings of the Society to listen rather than to talk. His
net was far flung, catching anything and everything in the way of new
ideas, experiments, theories, beliefs, especially powers. He tested
for himself, then accepted or discarded. The more extravagant the
theory, the greater its appeal to him. Behind a grim, even a repulsive
ugliness, he hid a heart of milk and honey. In his face was nobility,
yet something slovenly ran through it like a streak.

He loved his kind and longed to help them to the light. Although a
rolling stone, spiritually, his naked sincerity won respect. He was
composed, however, of several personalities, and hence, since these
often clashed, he was accused of insincerity too. The essay that
lost him his pulpit and parish, "The Ever-moving Truth, or Proof
Impossible," was the poignant confession of an honest intellect where
faith and unbelief came face to face with facts. The Bishop, naturally,
preferred the room of "Father" Collins to his company.

"I should like you to meet my friend," Fillery mentioned, after some
preliminary talk. "He would interest you. You might help him possibly."
He mentioned a few essential details. "Perhaps you will call one
day--you know my address--and make his acquaintance. His mind, owing to
his lonely and isolated youth, is _tabula rasa_. For the same reason, a
primitive Nature is his Deity."

Father Collins raised his bushy dark eyebrows.

"I took note of him the moment he came in," he replied. "I was
wondering who he was--and what! I'll come one day with pleasure. The
innocence on his face surprised me. Is he--may I ask it--friend or
patient?"

"Both."

"I see," said the other, without hesitation. He added: "You are
experimenting?"

"Studying. I should value the help--the view of a religious
temperament."

Father Collins looked grim to ugliness. The touch of nobility appeared.

"I know your ideals, Dr. Fillery; I know your work," he said gruffly.
"In you lies more true religion than in a thousand bishops. I should
trust your treatment of an unusual case. If," he added slowly, "I can
help him, so much the better." He then looked up suddenly, his manner
as if galvanized: "Unless _he_ can perhaps help us."

The words struck Fillery on the raw, as it were. They startled him. He
stared into the other's eyes. "What makes you think that? What do you
mean exactly?"

Father Collins returned his gaze unflinchingly. He made an odd reply.
"Your friend," he said, "looks to me--like a man who--might start a new
religion--Nature for instance--back to Nature being, in my opinion,
always a possible solution of over-civilization and its degeneracy."
The streak of something slovenly crept into the nobility, smudging it,
so to speak, with a blur.

Dr. Fillery, for a moment, waited, listening with his heart.

"And find a million followers at once," continued the other, as though
he had not noticed. "His voice, his manner, his stature, his face, but
above all--something he brings with him. Whatever his nature, he's a
natural leader. And a sincere, unselfish leader is what people are
asking for nowadays."

His black bushy eyebrows dropped, darkening the grim, clean-shaven
face. "You noticed, of course--_you_--the women's eyes?" he mentioned.
"It isn't, you know, so much what a man says, nor entirely his
looks, that excite favour or disfavour with women. It's something he
emanates--unconsciously. They can't analyze it, but they never fail to
recognize it."

Fillery moved sideways a little, so that he could watch the inner
studio better. The discernment of his companion was somewhat
unexpected. It disconcerted him. All his knowledge, all his experience
clustered about his mind as thick as bees, yet he felt unable to
select the item he needed. The sunshine upon his Inner Valley burned a
brighter fire. He saw the flowers glow. The wind ran sweet and magical.
He began to watch himself more closely.

"LeVallon is an interesting being," he admitted finally, "but you make
big deductions surely. A mind like yours," he added, "must have its
reasons?"

"Power," replied the other promptly; "power. 'The earlier generations,'
said Emerson, 'saw God face to face; _we_ through their eyes. Why
should not we also enjoy an original relation to Nature?' Your friend
has this original relation, I feel; he stands close--terribly close--to
Nature. He brings open spaces even into this bargain sale----" He drew
a deep breath. "There is a power about him----"

"Perhaps," interrupted the other.

"Not of this earth."

"You mean that literally?"

"Not of this earth quite--not of humanity, so to speak," repeated
Father Collins half irritably, as though his intelligence had been
insulted. "That's the best way I can describe how it strikes me. Ask
one of the women. Ask Nayan, for instance. Whatever he is, your friend
is elemental."

Like a shock of fire the unusual words ran deep into Fillery's heart,
but, at that same instant a stirring of the figures beyond the door
caught his attention. His main interest revived. The inner door of the
private studio, he thought, had opened.

"Elemental!" he repeated, his interest torn in two directions
simultaneously. He looked at his companion keenly, searchingly. "You--a
man like you--does not use such words----" He kept an eye upon the
inner studio.

"Without meaning," the other caught him up at once. "No. I mean it. Nor
do I use such words idly to a man--Fillery--like you." He stopped. "He
has what you have," came the quick blunt statement; "only in your case
it's indirect, while in his it's direct--essential."

They looked at each other. Two minds, packed with knowledge and
softened with experience of their kind, though from different points
of view, met each other fairly. A bridge existed. It was crossed. Few
words were necessary, it seemed. Each understood the other.

"Elemental," repeated Fillery, his pulse quickening half painfully.

At which instant he knew the inner door _had_ opened. Nayan had
come in. The same instant almost she had gone out again. So quick,
indeed, was the interval between her appearance and disappearance,
that Fillery's version of what he then witnessed in those few seconds
might have been ascribed by a third person who saw it with him to his
imagination largely. Imaginative, at any rate, the version was; whether
it was on that account unreal is another matter. The swift, tiny scene,
however, no one witnessed but himself. Even Devonham, unusually alert
with professional anxiety, missed it; as did also the watchful Lady
Gleeson, whom jealousy made clairvoyante almost. Khilkoff and LeVallon,
standing sideways to the door, were equally unaware that it had opened,
then quickly closed again. None saw, apparently, the radiant, lovely
outline.

It was a curtained door leading out of the far end of the inner studio
into a passage which had an exit to the street; Fillery was so placed
that he could see it over his companion's shoulder; Khilkoff, LeVallon
and the little group about them stood in his direct line of sight
against the dark background of the curtain. The light in this far
corner was so dim that Fillery was not aware the curtained door had
swung open until he actually saw the figure of Nayan Khilkoff framed
suddenly in the clear space, the white passage wall behind her. She
wore gloves, hat and furs, having come, evidently, straight from the
street. Ten seconds, perhaps twenty, she stood there, gazing with a
sudden fixed intensity at LeVallon, whose figure, almost close enough
for touch, was sideways to her, the face in profile.

She stopped abruptly as though a shock ran through her. She remained
motionless. She stared, an expression in her eyes as of life
momentarily arrested by wild, glorious, intense surprise. The lips were
parted; one gloved hand still held the swinging curtained door. To
Fillery it seemed as if a flame leaped into her eyes. The entire face
lit up. She seemed spellbound with delight.

This leap of light was the first sign he witnessed. The same second her
eyes lifted a fraction of an inch, changed their focus, and, gazing
past LeVallon, looked straight across the room into his own.

In his mind at that instant still rang the singular words of Father
Collins; in his heart still hung the picture of the flowered valley: it
was across this atmosphere the eyes of the girl flashed their message
like a stroke of lightning. It came as a cry, almost a call for help,
an audible message whose syllables fled down the valley, yearning
sweet, yet a tone of poignant farewell within the following wind.
It was a moment of delicious joy, of exquisite pain, of a blissful,
searching dream beyond this world....

He stood spellbound himself a moment. The look in the girl's big
eloquent eyes threatened a cherished dream that lay too close to his
own life. He was aware of collapse, of ruin; that old peculiar anguish
seized him. He remembered her words in Baker Street a few days before:
"Please bring your friend"--the accompanying pain they caused. And now
he caught the echo on that following wind along the distant valley. The
cry in her eyes came to him:

"Why--O why--do you bring this to me? It must take your place. It must
put out--You!"

The reasoning and the inspirational self in him knew this momentary
confusion, as the cry fled down the wind.

    "O follow, follow
    Through the caverns hollow
    As the song floats, thou pursue
    Where the wild bee never flew...."

The curtained door swung to again; the face and figure were no longer
there; Nayan had withdrawn quickly, noticed by none but himself. She
had gone up to make herself ready for her father's guests; in a few
minutes she would come down again to play hostess as her custom was....
It was so ordinary. It was so dislocating.... For at that moment it
seemed as if all the feminine forces of the universe, whatever these
may be, focused in her, and poured against him their concentrated
stream to allure, enchant, subdue. He trembled. He remembered
Devonham's admission of the panic sense.

"It's the air," said a voice beside him, "all this tobacco smoke and
scent, and no ventilation."

Father Collins was speaking, only he had completely forgotten that
Father Collins was in the world. The steadying hand upon his arm made
him realize that he had swayed a moment.

"The perfume chiefly," the voice continued. "All this cheap nasty stuff
these women use. It's enough to sicken any healthy man. Nobody knows
his own smell, they say." He laughed a little.

Collins was tactful. He talked on easily of nothing in particular, so
that his companion might let the occasion slip, or comment on it, as he
wished.

"Worse than incense." Fillery gave him the clue perhaps intentionally,
certainly with gratitude. He made an effort. He found control. "It
intoxicates the imagination, doesn't it?" That note of sweet farewell
still hung with enchanting sadness in his brain. He still saw those
yearning eyes. He heard that cry. And yet the conflict in his nature
bewildered him--as though he found two persons in him, one weeping
while the other sang.

Father Collins smiled, and Fillery then knew that he, too, had seen the
girl framed in the doorway, intercepted the glance as well. No shadow
of resentment crossed his heart as he heard him add: "She, too, perhaps
belongs elsewhere." The phrase, however, brought to his own personal
dream the conviction of another understanding mind. "As you yourself
do, too," was added in a thrilling whisper suddenly.

Fillery turned with a start to meet his eye. "But _where_?"

"That is _your_ problem," said Father Collins promptly. "You are the
expert--even though you think--mistakenly--that your heart is robbed."
His voice held the sympathy and tenderness of a woman taught by
suffering. The nobility was in his face again, untarnished now. His
words, his tone, his manner caught Fillery in amazement. It did not
surprise him that Father Collins had been quick enough to understand,
but it did surprise him that a man so entangled in one formal creed
after another, so netted by the conventional thought of various
religious Systems, and therefore stuffed with old, rigid, commonplace
ideas--it did, indeed surprise him to feel this sudden atmosphere of
vision and prophecy that abruptly shone about him. The extravagant,
fantastic side of the man he had forgotten.

"Where?" he repeated, gazing at him. "Where, indeed?"

"Where the wild bee never flew ... perhaps!"

Father Collins's eyebrows shot up as though worked by artificial
springs. His eyes, changing extraordinarily, turned very keen.
He seemed several persons at once. He looked like--contradictory
description--a spiritual Jesuit. The ugly mouth--thank Heaven, thought
Fillery--showed lines of hidden humour. His sanity, at any rate, was
unquestioned. Father Collins watched the planet with his soul, not with
his brain alone. But which of his many personalities was now in the
ascendancy, no man, least of all himself, could tell. His companion,
the expert in him automatically aware of the simultaneous irruption and
disruption, waited almost professionally for any outburst that might
follow. "Arcades ambo," he reflected, making a stern attempt to keep
his balance.

"The subconscious, remember, doesn't explain everything," came
the words. "Not everything," he added with emphasis. "As with
heredity"--he looked keenly half humorously, half sympathetically at
the doctor--"there are gaps and lapses. The recent upheaval has been
more than an inter-tribal war. It was a planetary event. It has shaken
our nature fundamentally, radically. The human mind has been shocked,
broken, dislocated. The prevalent hysteria is not an ordinary hysteria,
nor are the new powers--perhaps--quite ordinary either."

"Mental history repeats itself," Fillery put in, now more master of
himself again. "Unbalance has always followed upheaval. The removal
of known, familiar foundations always lets in extravagance of wildest
dissatisfaction, search and question."

"Upheaval of this kind," rejoined the other gravely, "there has never
been since human beings walked the earth. Our fabulous old world
trembles in the balance." And, as he said it, the dreamer shone in the
light below the big, black eyebrows, noticed quickly by his companion.
"Old ideals have been smashed beyond recovery. The gods men knew have
been killed, like Tommy, in the trenches. The past is likewise dead,
its dreams of progress buried with it by a Black Maria. The human mind
and heart stand everywhere empty and bereft, while their hungry and
unanswered questions search the stars for something new."

"Well, well," said Fillery gently, half stirred, half amused by the
odd language. "You may be right. But mental history has always shown
a desire for something new after each separate collapse. Signs and
wonders are a recurrent hunger, remember. In the days of Abraham, of
Paul, of Moses it was the same."

"Questions to-day," replied the other, "are based on an immense
accumulated knowledge unknown to Moses or to Abraham's time. The
phenomenon, I grant you, is the same, but--the shock, the dislocation,
the shattering upheaval comes in the twentieth century upon minds
grounded in deep scientific wisdom. It was formerly a shock to the
superstitious ignorance of intuitive feeling merely. To-day it is
organized scientific knowledge that meets the earthquake."

"You mentioned gaps and lapses," said Fillery, deeply interested, but
still half professionally, perhaps, in spite of his preoccupations.
"You think, perhaps, those gaps----?" One eye watched the inner studio.
The unstable in him gained more and more the upper hand.

"I mean," replied Father Collins, now fairly launched upon his secret
hobby, evidently his qualification for membership in the Society,
"I mean, Edward Fillery, that the time is ripe, if ever, for a new
revelation. If Man is the only type of being in the universe, well and
good. We see his finish plainly, for the war has shown that progress
is a myth. Man remains, in spite of all conceivable scientific
knowledge, a savage, of low degree, irredeemable, and intellect, as a
reconstructive force, but of small account."

"It seems so, I admit."

"But if"--Father Collins said it as calmly as though he spoke of
some new food or hygienic treatment merely--"if mankind is not the
only life in the universe, if, for instance, there exist--and why
not?--other evolutionary systems besides our own somewhat trumpery
type--other schemes and other beings--perhaps parallel, perhaps quite
different--perhaps in more direct contact with the sources of life--a
purer emanation, so to say----"

He hesitated, realizing perhaps that in speaking to a man of Edward
Fillery's standing he must choose his words, or at least present his
case convincingly, while aware that his inability to do so made him
only more extravagant and incoherent.

"Yes, quite so," Fillery helped him, noting all the time the suppressed
intensity, the half-concealed conviction of an _idée fixe_ behind the
calmness, while the balance of his own attention remained concentrated
on the group about LeVallon. "If, as you suggest, there _are_ other
types of life----" He spoke encouragingly. He had noticed the slovenly
streak spread and widen, breaking down, as it were, the structure of
the face. He was aware also of the increasing insecurity in himself.

"Now is the moment," cried the other; "now is the time for their
appearance."

He turned as though he had hit a target unexpectedly.

"Now," he repeated, "is the opportunity for their manifestation. The
human mind lies open everywhere. It is blank, receptive, ready. On all
sides it waits ready and inviting. The gaps are provided. If there is
any other life, it should break through and come among us--_now_!"

Fillery, startled, withdrew for the first time his attention from that
inner room. With keen eyes he gazed at his companion. With an abrupt,
unpleasant shock it occurred to him that all he heard was borrowed,
filched, stolen out of his own mind. Before words came to him, the
other spoke:

"Your friend," he mentioned quietly, but with intentional significance,
"and patient."

"LeVallon!"

But it was at this moment that Nayan Khilkoff, entering again without
her hat and furs, had moved straight to the piano, seated herself, and
began to sing.




CHAPTER XV


To retail the following scene as Dr. Fillery saw it in detail is not
necessary, the sequence of acts, of physical events being already
known. The reactions of his heart and mind, however, have importance.
What he felt, thought, hoped and feared, what he believed as well, his
point of view in a word, remain essential.

Edward Fillery, being what he was, witnessed it from his own individual
angle; his mind, with his heredity, his soul, with its mysterious
background, these held the glasses to his eyes, adjusting, as with a
Zeiss instrument, each eye separately. In his case the analyst and
thinker checked the unstable dreamer with acute exactitude. This was
his special gift. He studied himself best while studying others. His
sight, moreover, was exceptionally keen, his glasses of consummate
workmanship. He saw, it seems, considerably beyond the normal range. He
believed, at least, that he did so.

He saw, for instance, that the girl, while her fingers ran over the
keys before she sang, searched the room and found LeVallon in a second.
Following her rapid glance, he took in the picture that she also
saw--LeVallon, coffee cup in hand, before Lady Gleeson languishing
on the divan, and Devonham just beside them. LeVallon was obviously
unaware of Lady Gleeson's presence; he had forgotten her existence.
Devonham, a floor-walker with nothing particular to do at the moment,
looked uncomfortable and ill at ease, scared a little, fearing a scene,
a possible outbreak even. The meaning of the group was easily read. The
girl herself, undoubtedly, read it clearly too.

This flashed upon the cinema screen, and Fillery divined it without the
help of tedious letterpress.

The same instant he was aware that the girl and LeVallon looked for
the first time straight into each other's faces, and that both seemed
simultaneously caught into the air as though a star had lifted them.
Not even a question lay in their clear eyes. It was an instantaneous
understanding, so complete and perfect that the expression of happy
surprise was too convincing to be missed even by the slow-witted
Lady Gleeson. Vanity usually delays intelligence, and her vanity was
abnormal. But she saw the expression on the two faces, and interpreted
it aright. Fillery noticed that she squirmed; she would presently, he
felt positive, disappear. Before the singing ended he had seen her
slink away.

The song began. He had heard it before, "The Vagrant's Epitaph,"
sung by the same clear, sweet voice, had felt his heart stirred by
the true simple feeling she put into it. He knew every word and
every bar; the music was her own. He loved it. Both words and music
awoke in him invariably a picture of his own lost valley, a physical
desire to be over the hills and far away with the homeless liberty
of winds and stars and waters, and at the same time, its spiritual
equivalent--a yearning that the Race should discover the immense fair
region of its greater hidden self and enjoy its new powers without
restraint. All this was familiar to him. But now, as she sang, there
came another, deeper meaning that sublimated the essential spirit of
it, lifting it out of the known ditch of space and time. Never yet
had he heard such yearning passion, such untold desire in her voice.
The physical vagrancy changed subtly, exquisitely, to a symbol of a
vaster meaning--a spiritual vagrancy that suddenly captured him in
bitter pain. "Love could not hold him, Duty forged no chain"--as he
listened to the sweetness, struck him between the joints of armour he
had not realized before was so insecurely bound about him. The anguish
of lonely souls, alien among their kind, hungry for companionship
they might not find, unclothed, uncared for, desired of none and
understanding none--this rose tumultuously in his blood. "The wide
seas and the mountains called him ..." the words and music pierced
him like a flame. "Revel might hold him for a little space ..."--her
voice made it sound like a description of man's brief moment on the
whirling planet, tasting adventure with men and women, playing a moment
with love and hope and fear, till, "turning past the laughter and the
lamps," he heard that "other summons at the door."

This bigger version, this deeper meaning, caught at him with power
as he heard the song in the sweet, familiar voice, and realized in
a flash that what he felt faintly LeVallon felt terrifically. His
own detachment was a pose, a shadow, at best a bodiless yearning; in
LeVallon it was a reality of consuming fire. Also it was an explanation
of the girl's own singular aloofness from the world of admiring men.
Both belonged, as Father Collins put it, "elsewhere."

He watched them. LeVallon's eyes, he saw, remained fixed and motionless
on the singer; her own did not leave the notes for a single moment;
the words and music poured into the room like a shower of dancing
silver. The personality of the girl flowed out with them to meet the
newly-found companion they addressed. An extraordinary thing then
happened: to Fillery it almost seemed that there formed then and there
between them a new vehicle--as it were, a body--that gave expression to
their own great secret. Something in each of them, unable to manifest
through their minds, their brains, their earthly bodies, formed for
itself an elastic subtle vehicle, using the sound, the words, the
feeling for this purpose--and as literally as a human spirit uses the
familiar physical body for its manifestation.

The experience was amazing, but it was real. He watched it carefully.
In the room about him, formed on the waves of this sweet singing,
shaped by feeling that found normally no other expression, inspired
by emotions, yearnings, desires alien to their normal kind, these two
created between them a new vehicle or body that could and did express
all this.

They heard that "other summons at the door...." And they were off.

Yet he, too, heard the summons, and in the depths of his being he
answered to it. His essential weakness, wearing the guise of strength,
rose naked....

These thoughts and feelings lay unexpressed, perhaps--too deep
actually, too remote from any experience he had yet known, to find
actual words, even in his mind. What did find expression, in thought
at any rate, was that, before his very eyes, he witnessed the
transfiguring change come over Nayan. Like some flower that has been
growing in the shade, then meets the flood of sunshine for the first
time, she knew a fresh tide of life sweep over her entire being. She
seemed to blossom, breaking almost into flower and fruit before his
very eyes, as though sun and wind brought her into a sudden bloom of
exquisite maturity. He was aware of rich, deep purple, the faint gold
of fruits and flowers, the creamy softness of a rose, the amber of wild
grapes bathed in sparkling dew. The luscious promise of the Spring
matured about her whole presentment into full summer glory. And it was
the sun and wind of LeVallon's enigmatic, stimulating presence close to
her that caused the miracle. The essential flower of her life poured
forth to meet his own, as he had always felt it must. LeVallon's was
the mighty wind that lifted her, was the sun in whose heat she basked,
expanded, soared. She experienced a strange increase of her natural
vitality and being. Her consciousness knew an abrupt intensification.

The signs, in that brief moment, were as clear to Fillery's divining
heart as though he read them in black printed letters on a page of
whitest paper. He knew the cipher and the code. He watched the signals
flash. They had not even spoken, yet the relationship was established
beyond doubt. He witnessed the first exchange; the wireless message of
joy and sympathy that flashed he intercepted.

Through his extremely rapid mind, as he watched, poured memories,
reflections, judgments in concentrated form, yet calmly, steadily,
though against a background of deep and troubled emotion. There seemed
actually a disruption of his personality. Father Collins, standing
beside him, divined nothing, he believed, of his agitation, standing,
mere figure of a man, listening to the music with attentive pleasure;
at least, he gave no outward sign....

The song drew to its close. Once Nayan raised her eyes, instantly
finding those of LeVallon across the room, then shifting again for a
fleeting second with a rapidly changing focus to his own. He met them
without a quiver; he caught again her tender, searching question; he
sent no answer back.

In his own heart burned, however, a score of questions that beat
against his soul for answers. What was it that each had found thus
intuitively within the other? Was it her maternal instinct only that
was reached as with all other men hitherto, was it at last the woman in
her that leaped towards its own divine, creative sun, or was it that
hidden, nameless aspect of her which had never yet found a vehicle for
manifestation among her own kind and had therefore remained hitherto
unexpressed--bodiless?

The answer to this he found easily enough. No jealousy stirred; pain
for himself had been long ago uprooted. Yet pain of a kind he felt.
Would LeVallon injure, drag her down, bring suffering, perhaps of
an atrocious sort, into her hitherto so innocent life? Was she yet
qualified to withstand the fierce fire, the rushing wind, that the full
force of his strange nature must bring to bear upon her?

His questions went prophesying, flying like swift birds to such great
distances that no audible answers could return. His pain, at any
rate, chiefly was for her. He divined that she was frightened, yet
exhilarated, before the unexpected apparition of an unusual presence.
Accustomed to smaller jets of admiration from smaller men, this deep
flood overwhelmed her. This motionless figure watching her among
the shadows, listening to her singing, devouring her beauty with an
innocence, power, worship she had never yet encountered--could she,
Fillery asked himself, withstand its elemental flood and not be broken
by its waves?

For at the back of all his questions, haunting his prophecies, filling
his hopes and fears with substance, stood one outstanding certainty:

The motionless figure in the shadows was not LeVallon. It was "N. H."

The thing he had expected had now happened. Instinctively he turned to
find his colleague.

For what followed, Fillery, of course, was as unprepared as anyone.
In some way, difficult to describe, the whole thing had a strangely
natural, almost an inevitable touch. The exaggeration that others felt
he was not conscious of. He never, for a single moment, lost his head.
The wonder of the elemental violence appealed and stimulated without
once touching the sense of fear, much less of panic, in him.

Searching for Devonham's familiar figure, he found it in the seat that
Lady Gleeson had vacated shortly before, but the face turned away
towards the inner room, so that it was not possible to catch his eye.
It was an attentive, critical, almost anxious expression his chief
surprised, and while a faint smile perhaps flitted across his own
mouth, he became aware that Father Collins--he had again completely
forgotten his proximity--was staring with a curious intentness at him.
The same instant the song came to an end. Into the brief pause of a
second before the applause burst forth, Father Collins's voice was
suddenly audible in his ear:

"LeVallon's gone," Fillery was saying to himself, "'N. H.' is in
control," when his neighbour's words broke in. The two sentences were
simultaneously in his mind:

"A man in _his own place_ is the Ruler of his Fate!"

And Fillery's astonishment was only equalled by the fact that the grim
face was soft with sympathy, and that in the eyes shone moisture that
was close to tears. Before he could reply, however, the applause burst
forth, making an uproar against which no voice could possibly contend.
The subsequent events, following so swiftly, made rejoinder equally out
of the question, nor did he see Father Collins again that evening.

These Fillery witnessed much as already described through Devonham's
eyes. The storm, the panic took place as told. Yet a detail here and
there belong to Fillery's version, for they were a part of his own
being. He had, for instance, a warning that something was about to
happen, although warning seems not quite the faithful word. He saw
the Valley for one fleeting second, the three familiar figures, Nayan,
"N. H.," himself, flying through the bright sunshine before a wind that
stirred a million flowers. In the farthest possible background of his
mind it shone an instant. The shutter dropped again, it vanished.

Yet enough to set him on the alert. Into the air about him, into his
heart as well, fell an exhilarating and immense refreshment. It rose,
as it were, from the most deeply submerged portion of his own hidden
being, now stirred, even actually summoned, into activity.

The shutter meanwhile rose and fell and rose again; the Valley
reappeared and vanished, then reappeared again.

For the truth came smashing against him--smashing his being open, and
bursting the doors of his carefully instructed, carefully guarded
nature. The doors flung from their hinges and a blinding light poured
in and flooded the strangest possible hidden corners.

He saw what followed with an accuracy of observation impossible
to anyone else, with an intimate sympathy the others could not
feel--because he himself took part in the entire scene. But the scene,
for him, was not the Chelsea studio with its tobacco smoke and perfume,
it was the Caucasian valley whence his own blood derived. Clean,
fragrant winds swept past him across mighty space. The walls melted
into distances of forest and mountain peaks, the ceiling was a dome of
stainless blue, the floor ran deep in flowers. A drenching sunshine of
crystal purity bathed the world. It was across bright emerald turf that
he saw "N. H." dance forward like a wind of power, cry with a joyful
resonant voice to the radiant girl who stood laughing, half hiding, yet
at the same time beckoning, that she should fly with him. He caught and
lifted her, her hair, the whiteness of her skin flashing in the sun
like some marvellous bird in the act of taking wing, for before he had
touched her she leapt through the air to meet his outstretched arms.
Yet one hand, one silvery arm, waved towards himself, towards Fillery;
their fingers met and clasped; the three of them, three dancing, free
and joyful figures, fled like the wind across the enormous mountains,
but fled, he knew beyond all question--_home_.

He saw this in the space of those few seconds in which Nayan was
swung over the youth's shoulders beside the piano. The two scenes ran
parallel, as it were, before his eyes, outer and inner sight keeping
equal pace together. His balance and judgment here were never once
disturbed. In the studio: he had just introduced LeVallon to the girl
and the latter had caught her up. In the valley: she had leapt into his
arms and the three of them were off.

It was this inner interpretation, keeping always level pace with what
was happening outwardly, that furnished Fillery with the hint of an
astounding explanation. The figure in the valley, it flashed to him,
was, of course, "N. H." in all his natural splendour, but a figure
unknown surely to all records of humanity as such. Here danced and sang
a happy radiant being, by whom the limitations of the human species
were not experienced, even if the species were familiar to him at all.
A being from another system, another evolution, an elemental being,
whose ideal, development, mode of existence, were not those of men and
women. "N. H." was not a human being, a human soul, a human spirit. He
belonged elsewhere and otherwise. Under the guise of LeVallon he had
drifted in. He inhabited LeVallon's frame.

In the Studio, at this instant, Fillery heard him using the singular
words already noted, and in the Studio they sounded, indeed, senseless,
foolish, even mad. It was, he realized, an attempt to stammer in human
language some meaning that lay beyond, outside it. In the Valley,
however, and at the same moment, they sounded natural and true. The
evolutionary system to which "N. H." belonged, from which he had
in some as yet unknown manner passed into humanity, but to which,
though almost entirely forgotten, he yearned with his whole being
to return--this other system had, it seemed, its own conditions,
its own methods of advance, its ideals and its duties. Were, then,
its inhabitants--this flashed upon him in the delicious wind and
sunshine--the workers in what men call the natural kingdoms, the
builders of form and structure, the directing powers that expressed
themselves through the elemental energies everywhere behind the laws of
Nature? Was this their tireless and wondrous service in the planet, in
the universe itself?

"N. H." called the girl to service, not to personal love. Alone, cut
off from his own kind, alien and derelict amid the conditions of a
humanity strange, perhaps unknown to him, he sought companionship
where he could. Drawn instinctively to the more impersonal types, such
as Fillery and the girl, he felt there the nearest approach to what
he recognized as his own kind; their ideal of selfless service was a
beacon that he understood; he would return to his own kingdom, carrying
them both with him. From somewhere, at any rate, this all flashed into
his too willing mind....

At which second precisely in Fillery's valley-vision, Khilkoff entered,
and--yet before he could take action--the lightning struck and the
sudden explosion of the ferocious storm blackened out both the outer
and the inner scene.

The shock of elemental violence, the astounding revelation as well
that an entirely new type had possibly come within his ken, this,
combined with the emotional disturbance caused by the change produced
in Nayan, seemed enough to upset the equilibrium of even the most
balanced mind. The darkness added its touch of helplessness besides.
Yet Fillery never for a moment lost his head. Two natures in him, cause
of his radical instability, merged for a moment in amazing harmony. The
panic now dominating all about him seemed so small a thing compared
to the shattering discovery life had just offered to him. Across it,
finding his way past kneeling women and shrieking girls, drenched to
the skin by the flood of entering rain, moving over splintered glass,
he found the figure he sought, as though by some instinctive sympathy.
They came together in the darkness. Their hands met easily. A moment
later they were in the street, and "N. H.'s" instinctive terror amid
the sheets of falling water, an element hostile to his own natural
fire, made it a simple matter to get him home--in Lady Gleeson's motor
car.




CHAPTER XVI


When relative order had been restored, Devonham realized, of course,
that his colleague had cleverly spirited away their "patient"; also
that the sculptor had carried off his daughter. Relieved to escape
from the atmosphere of what he considered collective hysteria, he
had borrowed mackintosh and umbrella, and declining several offers
of a lift, had walked the four miles to his house in the rain and
wind. The exercise helped to work off the emotion in him; his mind
cleared healthily; personal bias gave way to honest and unprejudiced
reflection; there was much that interested him deeply, at the same time
puzzled and bewildered him beyond anything he had yet experienced. He
reached the house with a mind steady if unsatisfied; but the emotions
caused by prejudice had gone. His main anxiety centred about his chief.

He was glad to notice a light in an upper window, for it meant, he
hoped, that LeVallon was now safely home. While his latchkey sought its
hole, however, this light was extinguished, and when the door opened,
it was Fillery himself who greeted him, a finger on his lips.

"Quietly!" he whispered. "I've just got him to bed and put his light
out. He's asleep already." Paul noticed his manner instantly--its
happiness. There was a glow of mysterious joy and wonder in his
atmosphere that made the other hostile at once.

They went together towards that inner room where so often together
they had already talked both moon and sun to bed. Cold food lay on the
table, and while they satisfied their hunger, the rain outside poured
down with a steady drenching sound. The wind had dropped. The suburb
lay silent and deserted. It was long past midnight. The house was
very still, only the occasional step of a night-nurse audible in the
passages and rooms upstairs. They would not be disturbed.

"You got him home all right, then?" Paul asked presently, keeping his
voice low.

He had been observing his friend closely; the evident pleasure and
satisfaction in the face annoyed him; the light in the eyes at the
same time profoundly troubled him. Not only did he love his chief for
himself, he set high value on his work as well. It would be deplorable,
a tragedy, if judgment were destroyed by personal bias and desire. He
felt uneasy and distressed.

Fillery nodded, then gave an account of what had happened, but
obviously an account of outward events merely; he did not wish,
evidently, to argue or explain. The strong, rugged face was lit up,
the eyes were shining; some inner enthusiasm pervaded his whole being.
Evidently he felt very sure of something--something that both pleased
and stimulated him.

His account of what had happened was brief enough, little more than a
statement of the facts.

Finding himself close to LeVallon when the darkness came, he had kept
hold of him and hurried him out of the house at once. The sudden
blackness, it seemed, had made LeVallon quiet again, though he kept
asking excitedly for the girl. When assured that he would soon see her,
he became obedient as a lamb. The absence of light apparently had a
calming influence. They found, of course, no taxis, but commandeered
the first available private car, Fillery using the authoritative
influence of his name. And it was Lady Gleeson's car, Lady Gleeson
herself inside it. She had thought things over, put two and two
together, and had come back. Her car might be of use. It was. For the
rain was falling in sheets and bucketfuls, the road had become a river
of water, and Fillery's automobile, ordered for an hour later, had not
put in an appearance. It was the rain that saved the situation....

An exasperated expression crossed Devonham's face as he heard this
detail emphasized. He had meant to listen without interruption. The
enigmatical reference to the rain proved too much for him.

"Why 'the rain'? What d'you mean exactly, Edward?"

"Water," was the reply, made in a significant tone that further annoyed
his listener's sense of judgment. "You remember the Channel, surely!
Water and fire mutually destroy each other. They are hostile elements."

There was a look almost of amusement on his face as he said it.
Devonham kept a tight hold upon his tongue. It was not impatience or
surprise he felt, though both were strong; it was perhaps sorrow.

"And so Lady Gleeson drove you home?"

He waited with devouring interest for further details. The throng of
questions, criticisms and emotions surging in him he repressed with
admirable restraint.

Lady Gleeson, yes, had driven the party home. Fillery made her sit on
the back seat alone, while he occupied the front one, LeVallon beside
him, but as far back among the deep cushions as possible. The doctor
held his hand. At any other time, Devonham could have laughed; but he
saw no comedy now. Lady Gleeson, it seemed, was awed by the seriousness
of the "Chief," whom, even at the best of times, she feared a little.
Her vanity, however, persuaded her evidently that she was somehow the
centre of interest.

Yet Devonham, as he listened, had difficulty in persuading himself that
he was in the twentieth century, and that the man who spoke was his
colleague and a man of the day as well.

"LeVallon talked little, and that little to himself or to me. He seemed
unaware that a third person was present at all. Though quiet enough,
there was suppressed vehemence still about him. He said various things:
that '_she_ belonged to us,' for instance; that he 'knew his own'; that
_she_ was 'filled with fire in exile'; and that he would 'take her
back.' Also that I, too, must go with them both. He often mentioned
the sun, saying more than once that the sun had 'sent its messengers.'
Obviously, it was not the ordinary sun he referred to, but some source
of central heat and fire he seems aware of----"

"You, I suppose, Edward," put in his listener quickly, "said nothing to
encourage all this? Nothing that could suggest or stimulate?"

Fillery ignored, even if he noticed, the tone of the question. "I kept
silence rather. I said very little. I let him talk. I had to keep an
eye on the woman, too."

"You certainly had your hands full--a dual personality and a
nymphomaniac."

"She helped me, without knowing it. All he said about the girl, she
evidently took to herself. When he begged me to keep the water out, she
drew the window up the last half-inch.... The water frightened him; she
was sympathetic, and her sympathy seemed to reach him, though I doubt
if he was aware of her presence at all until the last minute almost----"

"And 'at the last minute'?"

"She leaned forward suddenly and took both his hands. I had let go
of the one I held and was just about to open the door, when I heard
her say excitedly that I must let her come and see him, or that he
must call on her; she was sure she could help him; he must tell her
everything.... I turned to look.... LeVallon, startled into what I
believe was his first consciousness of her presence, stared into her
eyes, and leaned forward among his cushions a little, so that their
faces were close together. Before I could interfere, she had flung
her bare arms about his neck and kissed him. She then sat back again,
turning to me, and repeating again and again that he needed a woman's
care and that she must help and mother him. She was excited, but she
knew what she was saying. She showed neither shame nor the least
confusion. She tasted--of course with her it cannot last--a bigger
world. She was most determined."

"_His_ reaction?" inquired Devonham, amused in spite of his graver
emotions of uneasiness and exasperation.

"None whatever. I scarcely think he realized he had been kissed. His
interest was so entirely elsewhere. I saw his face a moment among the
white ermine, the bare arms and jewels that enveloped him." Fillery
frowned faintly. "The car had almost stopped. Lady Gleeson was leaning
back again. He looked at me, and his voice was intense and eager: 'Dear
Fillery,' he said, 'we have found each other, I have found her. She
knows, she remembers the way back. Here we can do so little.'

"Lady Gleeson, however, had interpreted the words in another way.

"'I'll come to-morrow to see you,' she said at once intensely. 'You
_must_ let me come,'--the last words addressed to me, of course."

The two men looked at one another a moment in silence, and for the
first time during the conversation they exchanged a smile....

"I got him to bed," Fillery concluded. "In ten minutes he was sound
asleep." And his eyes indicated the room overhead.

He leaned back, and quietly began to fill his pipe. The account was
over.

As though a great spring suddenly released him, Paul Devonham stood up.
His untidy hair hung wild, his glasses were crooked on his big nose,
his tie askew. His whole manner bristled with accumulated challenge and
disagreement.

"_Who?_" he cried. "_Who?_ Edward, I ask you?"

His colleague, yet knowing exactly what he meant, looked up
questioningly. He looked him full in the face.

"Hush!" he said quietly. "You'll wake him."

He gazed with happy penetrating eyes at his companion. "Paul," he added
gently, "do you really mean it? Have you still the faintest doubt?"

The moment had drama in it of unusual kind. The conflict between these
two honest and unselfish minds was vital. The moment, too, was chosen,
the place as well--this small, quiet room in a commonplace suburb of
the greatest city on the planet, drenched by earthly rain and battered
by earthly wind from the heart of an equinoctial storm; the mighty
universe outside, breaking with wondrous, incredible impossibilities
upon a mind that listened and a mind that could not hear; and upstairs,
separated from them by a few carpenter's boards, an assortment of
"souls," either derelict and ruined, or gifted supernormally, masters
of space and time perhaps, yet all waiting to be healed by the best
knowledge known to the race--and one among them, about whom the
conflict raged ... sound asleep ... while wind and water stormed, while
lightning fires lit the distant horizons, while the great sun lay
hidden, and darkness crept soundlessly to and fro....

"Have you still the slightest doubt, Paul?" repeated Fillery. "You know
the evidence. You have an open mind."

Then Devonham, still standing over his Chief, let out the storm that
had accumulated in him over-long. He talked like a book. He talked like
several books. It seemed almost that he distrusted his own personal
judgment.

"Edward," he began solemnly--not knowing that he quoted--"you, above
all men, understand the lower recesses of the human heart, that gloomy,
gigantic oubliette in which our million ancestors writhe together
inextricably, and each man's planetary past is buried alive----"

Fillery nodded quietly his acquiescence.

"You, of all men, know our packed, limitless subterranean life,"
Devonham went on, "and its impenetrable depths. You understand
telepathy, 'extended telepathy' as well, and how a given mind may tap
not only forgotten individual memories, but memories of his family, his
race, even planetary memories into the bargain, the memory, in fact, of
every being that ever lived, right down to Adam, if you will----"

"Agreed," murmured the other, listening patiently, while he puffed his
pipe and heard the rain and wind. "I know all that. I know it, at any
rate, as a possible theory."

"You also know," continued Devonham in a slightly less strident
tone, "your own--forgive me, Edward--your own idiosyncrasies, your
weaknesses, your dynamic accumulated repressions, your strange physical
heritage and spiritual--I repeat the phrase--your spiritual vagrancies
towards--towards----" He broke off suddenly, unable to find the words
he wanted.

"I'm illegitimate, born of a pagan passion," mentioned the other
calmly. "In that sense, if you like, I have in me a 'complex' against
the race, against humanity--as such."

He smiled patiently, and it was the patience, the evident conviction of
superiority that exasperated his cautious, accurate colleague.

"If I love humanity, I also tolerate it perhaps, for I try to heal it,"
added Fillery. "But, believe me, Paul, I do not lose my scientific
judgment."

"Edward," burst out the other, "how can you think it possible,
then--that _he_ is other than the result of tendencies transmitted by
his mad parents, or acquired from Mason, who taught him all he knows,
or--if you will--that he has these hysterical faculties--supernormal
as we may call them--which tap some racial, even, if you will, some
planetary past----"

He again broke off, unable to express his whole thought, his entire
emotion, in a few words.

"I accept all that," said Fillery, still calmly, quietly, "but perhaps
now--in the interest of truth"--his tone was grave, his words obviously
chosen carefully--"if now I feel it necessary to go beyond it! My
strange heritage," he added, "is even possibly a help and guide. How,"
he asked, a trace of passion for the first time visible in his manner,
"shall we venture--how decide--for we are not wholly ignorant, you and
I--between what is possible and impossible? Is this trivial planet,
then," he asked, his voice rising suddenly, ominously perhaps, "our
sole criterion? Dare we not venture--beyond--a little? The scientific
mind should be the last to dogmatize as to the possibilities of this
life of ours...."

The authority of chief, the old tie of respectful and affectionate
friendship, the admiring wonder that pertained to a daring speculator
who had often proved himself right in face of violent opposition--all
these affected Devonham. He did not weaken, but for an instant he knew,
perhaps, the existence of a vast, incredible horizon in his friend's
mind, though one he dared not contemplate. Possibly, he understood in
this passing moment a huger world, a new outlook that scorned limit,
though yet an outlook that his accurate, smaller spirit shrank from.

He found, at any rate, his own words futile. "You remember," he
offered--"'We need only suppose the continuity of our own consciousness
with a mother sea, to allow for exceptional waves occasionally pouring
over the dam.'"

"Good, yes," said Fillery. "But that 'mother sea,' what may it not
include? Dare we set limits to it?"

And, as he said it, Fillery, emotion visible in him, rose suddenly from
his chair. He stood up and faced his colleague.

"Let us come to the point," he said in a clear, steady voice. "It all
lies--doesn't it?--in that question you asked----"

"_Who?_" came at once from Devonham's lips, as he stood, looking oddly
stiff and rigid opposite his Chief. There was a touch of defiance in
his tone. "_Who?_" He repeated his original question.

No pause intervened. Fillery's reply came sharp and firm:

"'N. H.,'" he said.

An interval of silence followed, then, between the two men, as they
looked into each other's eyes. Fillery waited for his assistant to
speak, but no word came.

"LeVallon," the older man continued, "is the transient, acquired
personality. It does not interest us. There is no real LeVallon. The
sole reality is--'N. H.'"

He spoke with the earnestness of deep conviction. There was still no
reply or comment from the other.

"Paul," he continued, steadying his voice and placing a hand upon
his colleague's shoulder, "I am going to ask you to--consider our
arrangement--cancelled. I must----"

Then, before he could finish what he had to say, the other had said it
for him:

"Edward, I give you back your promise."

He shrugged his shoulders ever so slightly, but there was no
unpleasant, no antagonistic touch now either in voice or manner. There
was, rather, a graver earnestness than there had been hitherto, a hint
of reluctant acquiescence, but also there was an emotion that included
certainly affection. No such fundamental disagreement had ever come
between them during all their years of work together. "You understand,"
he added slowly, "what you are doing--what is involved." His tone
almost suggested that he spoke to a patient, a loved patient, but one
over whom he had no control. He sighed.

"I belong, Paul, myself to the unstable--if that is what you mean,"
said his old friend gently, "and with all of danger, or of wonder, it
involves."

The faint movement of the shoulders again was noticeable. "We need not
put it that way, Edward," was the quiet rejoinder; "for that, if true,
can only help your insight, your understanding, and your judgment."
He hesitated a moment or two, searching his mind carefully for words.
Fillery waited. "But it involves--I think"--he went on presently in a
firmer voice--"_his_ fate as well. He must become permanently--one or
other."

No pause followed. There was a smile of curious happiness on Fillery's
face as he instantly answered in a tone of absolute conviction:

"There lies the root of our disagreement, Paul. There is no 'other.' I
am positive for once. There is only one, and that one is--'N. H.'"

"Umph!" his friend grunted. Behind the exclamation hid an attitude
confirmed, as though he had come suddenly to a big decision.

"You see, Paul--I _know_."




CHAPTER XVII


It was not long after the scene in the Studio that the Prometheans
foregathered at dinner in the back room of the small French restaurant
in Soho and discussed the event. The prices were moderate, conditions
free and easy. It was a favourite haunt of Members.

To-night, moreover, there was likely to be a good attendance. The word
had gone out.

The Studio scene had, of course, been the subject of much discussion
already. The night of its occurrence it had been talked over till dawn
in more than one flat, and during the following days the Society, as a
whole, thought of little else. Those who had not been present had to be
informed, and those who had witnessed it found it an absorbing topic of
speculation. The first words that passed when one member met another in
the street was: "What _did_ you make of that storm? Wasn't it amazing?
Did your solar plexus vibrate? Mine did! And the light, the colour,
the vibrations--weren't they terrific? What do you think _he_ is?" It
was rumoured that the Secretary was asking for individual reports.
Excitement and interest were general, though the accounts of individual
witnesses differed extraordinarily. It seemed impossible that all had
seen and heard the same thing.

The back room was pleasantly filled to-night, for it was somehow
known that Millington Povey, and possibly Father Collins, too, were
coming. Miss Milligan, the astrologist, was there early, arriving with
Mrs. Towzer, who saw auras and had already, it was rumoured, painted
automatically a strange rendering of "forces" that were visible to her
clairvoyantly during the occurrence. Miss Lance, in shining beads and
a glittering scarf, arrived on their heels, an account of the scene in
her pocket--to be published in her magazine "Simplicity" after she had
modified it according to what she picked up from hearing other, and
better, descriptions.

Kempster, immaculate as ever, ordering his food as he ordered his
clothes, like a connoisseur, was one of the first to establish himself
in a comfortable seat. He knew how to look after himself, and was
already eating in his neat dainty way while the others still stood
about studying the big white _menu_ with its illegible hieroglyphics in
smudged violet ink. He supplemented his meals with special patent foods
of vegetarian kind he brought with him. He had dried bananas in one
pocket and spirit photographs in another, and he was invariably pulling
out the wrong thing. Meat he avoided. "A man is what he eats," he held,
and animal blood was fatal to psychic development. To eat pig or cow
was to absorb undesirable characteristics.

Next to him sat Lattimer, a lanky man of thirty, with loose clothes,
long hair, and eyes of strange intensity. Known as "occultist and
alchemist," he was also a chemist of some repute. His life was ruled by
a master-desire and a master-fear: the former, that he might one day
project his double consciously; the latter, that in his next earthly
incarnation he might be--the prospect made him shudder--a woman. He
sought to keep his thought as concrete as possible, the male quality.

He believed that the nervous centre of the physical body which
controlled all such unearthly, if not definitely "spiritual," impulses,
was the solar plexus. For him it was _the_ important portion of his
anatomy, the seat of intuition. Brain came second.

"The fellow," he declared emphatically, "stirred my solar plexus, my
_kundalini_--that's all I know." He referred, as all understood, to the
latent power the _yogis_ claim lies coiled, but only rarely manifested,
in that great nervous centre.

His statement, he knew, would meet with general approval and
understanding. It was the literal Kempster who spoiled his opening:

"Paul Devonham," said the latter, "thinks it's merely a secondary
personality that emerged. I had a long argument with him about it----"

"Never argue with the once-born," declared Povey flatly, producing
his pet sentence. "It's waste of time. Only older souls, with
the experience of many earthly lives stored in their beings, are
knowledgeable." He filled his glass and poured out for others, Lattimer
and Mrs. Towzer alone declining, though for different reasons.

"It destroys the 'sight,'" explained the former. "Alcohol sets up
coarse vibrations that ruin clairvoyance."

"I decided to deny myself till the war is over," was Mrs. Towzer's
reason, and when Povey reminded her of the armistice, she mentioned
that Turkey hadn't "signed yet."

"I think his soul----" began Miss Lance.

"If he _has_ a soul," put in Povey, electrically.

"--is hardly in his body at all," concluded Miss Lance, less
convincingly than originally intended.

"It was love at first sight. His sign is Fire and hers is Air," Miss
Milligan said. "That's certain. _Of course_ they came together."

"A clear case of memory, at any rate," insisted Kempster. "Two old
souls meeting again for the first time for thousands of years,
probably. Love at first sight, or hate, for that matter, is always
memory, isn't it?" He disliked the astrology explanation; it was not
mysterious enough, too mathematical and exact to please him.

"Secondary personalities _are_ invariably memories of former selves, of
course," agreed young Dickson, the theosophist, who was on the verge
now of becoming a psycho-analyst and had already discarded Freud for
Jung. "If not memories of past lives, then they're desires suppressed
in this one."

"The less you think, the more you know," suggested Miss Lance. She
distrusted intellect and believed that another faculty, called instinct
or intuition, according to which word first occurred to her, was the
way to knowledge. She was about to quote Bergson upside down, when
Povey, foreseeing an interval of boredom, took command:

"One thing we know, at any rate," he began judiciously; "we aren't the
only beings in the universe. There are non-human intelligences, both
vast and small. The old world-wide legends can't be built on nothing.
In every age of history--the reports are universal--we have pretty good
evidence for other forms of life than humans----"

"Though never yet in human _form_," put in Lattimer, yet
sympathetically. "Their bodies, I mean, aren't human," he added.

"Exactly. That's true. But the gods, the fauns, the satyrs, the
elemental beings, as we call 'em--sylphs, undines, gnomes and
salamanders--to say nothing of fairies et hoc genus omne--there must
be _some_ reasonable foundation for their persistence through all the
ages."

"They all belong to the _Deva_ Evolution," Dickson mentioned with
conviction. "In the East it's been known and recognized for centuries,
hasn't it? Another evolutionary system that runs parallel to ours.
From planetary spirits down to elementals, they're concerned with the
building up of form in the various kingdoms----"

"Yes, yes," Povey interrupted impatiently. Dickson was stealing what he
had meant to say himself and to say, he flattered himself, far better.
"We know all _that_, of course. They stand behind what we call the laws
of nature, non-human activities and intelligences of every grade and
kind. They work for humanity in a way, are in other space and time,
deathless, of course, yet--in some strange way, always eager to cross
the gulf fixed between the two and so find a soul. They are impersonal
in a sense, as impersonal as, say, wind and fire through which some of
them operate as bodies."

He paused and looked about him, noting the interested attention he
awaked.

"There _may_ be times," he went on, "there probably _are_ certain
occasions, when the gulf is more crossable than others." He laid down
his knife and fork as a sympathetic murmur proved that the point he was
leading up to was favourably understood already. "We have had this war,
for instance," he stated, his voice taking on a more significant and
mysterious tone. "Dislodged by the huge upheaval, man's soul is on the
march again." He paused once more. "_They_," he concluded, lowering his
voice still more, and emphasizing the pronoun, "are possibly already
among us! Who knows?"

He glanced round. "We do; we know," was the expression on most faces.
All knew precisely what he meant and to whom he referred, at any rate.

"You might get him to come and lecture to us," said Dickson, the first
to break the pause. "You might ask Dr. Fillery. _You_ know him."

"That's an idea----" began the Secretary, when there was a commotion
near the door. His face showed annoyance.

It was the arrival of Toogood that at this moment disturbed the
atmosphere and robbed Povey of the effect he aimed at. It provided
Kempster, however, with an idea at the same time. "Here's a
psychometrist!" he exclaimed, making room for him. "He might get a bit
of his hair or clothing and psychometrize it. He might tell us about
his past, if not exactly _what_ he is."

The suggestion, however, found no seconder, for it seemed that the new
arrival was not particularly welcomed. Judging by the glances, the
varying shades of greeting, too, he was not fully trusted, perhaps,
this broad, fleshy man of thirty-five, with complexion blotchy, an
over-sensual mouth and eyes a trifle shifty. His claim to membership
was two-fold: he remembered past lives, and had the strange power of
psychometry. An archæologist by trade, his gift of psychometry--by
which he claimed to hold an object and tell its past, its pedigree,
its history--was of great use to him in his calling. Without further
trouble he could tell whether such an object was genuine or sham.
Dealers in antiquities offered him big fees--but "No, no; I cannot
prostitute my powers, you see"--and he remained poor accordingly.

In his past lives he had been either a famous Pharaoh, or
Cleopatra--according to his audience of the moment and its male or
female character--but usually Cleopatra, because, on the whole, there
was more money and less risk in her. He lectured--for a fee. Lately,
however, he had been Pharaoh, having got into grave trouble over the
Cleopatra claim, even to the point of being threatened with expulsion
from the Society. His attitude during the war, besides, had been
unsatisfactory--it was felt he had selfishly protected himself on the
grounds of being physically unfit. Apart from archæology, too, his
chief preoccupation, derived from past lives of course, was sex, in the
form of other men's wives, his own wife and children being, naturally,
very recent and somewhat negligible ties.

His gift of psychometry, none the less, was considered proved--in spite
of the backward and indifferent dealers. His mind was quick and not
unsubtle. He became now au fait with the trend of the conversation in
a very few seconds, but he had not been present at the Studio when the
occurrence all discussed had taken place.

"Hair would be best," he advised tentatively, sipping his
whisky-and-soda. He had already dined. "It's a part of himself, you
see. Better than mere clothing, I mean. It's extremely vital, hair. It
grows after death."

"If I can get it for you, I will," said Povey. "He may be lecturing for
us before long. I'll try."

"With psychometry and a good photograph," Kempster suggested, "a time
exposure, if possible, we ought to get _some_ evidence, at any rate.
It's first-hand evidence we want, of course, isn't it? What do you
think of this, for instance, I wonder?" He turned to Lattimer, drawing
something from his pocket and showing it. "It's a time exposure at
night of a haunted tree. You'll notice a queer sort of elemental form
_inside_ the trunk and branches. Oh!" He replaced the shrivelled banana
in his pocket, and drew out the photograph without a smile. "This," he
explained, waving it, "is what I meant." They fell to discussing it.

Meanwhile, Povey, anxious to resume his lecture, made an effort
to recover his command of the group-atmosphere which Toogood had
disturbed. The latter had a "personal magnetism" which made the women
like him in spite of their distrust.

"I was just saying," he resumed, patting the elbow of the
psychometrist, "that this strange event we've been discussing--you
weren't present, I believe, at the time, but, of course, you've heard
about it--has features which seem to point to something radically new,
or at least of very rare occurrence. As Lattimer mentioned, a human
body has never yet, so far as we know, been occupied, obsessed, by
a non-human entity, but that, after all, is no reason why it should
not ever happen. What is a body, anyhow? What is an entity, too?"
Povey's thought was wandering, evidently; the thread of his first
discourse was broken; he floundered. "Man, anyway, is more than a mere
chemical machine," he went on, "a crystallization of the primitive
nebulæ, though the instrument he uses, the body he works through, is
undoubtedly thus describable. Now, we know there are all kinds of
non-human intelligences busy on our planet, in the Universe itself as
well. Why, then, I ask, should not one of these----?"

He paused, unable to find himself, his confusion obvious. He was as
glad of the interruption that was then provided by the arrival of Imson
as his audience was. Toogood certainly was not sorry; he need find no
immediate answer. He sipped his drink and made mental notes.

Imson arrived in a rough brown ulster with the collar turned up about
his ears, a low flannel shirt, not strictly clean, lying loosely round
his neck. His colourless face was of somewhat flabby texture, due
probably to his diet, but its simple, honest expression was attractive,
the smile engaging. The touch of foolishness might have been childlike
innocence, even saintliness some thought, and though he was well over
forty, the unlined skin made him look more like thirty. He enjoyed a
physiognomy not unlike that of a horse or sheep. His big, brown eyes
stared wide open at the world, expecting wonder and finding it. His
hobby was inspirational poems. One lay in his breast pocket now. He
burned to read it aloud.

Pat Imson's ideal was an odd one--detachment; the desire to avoid all
ties that must bring him back to future incarnations on the earth, to
eschew making fresh Karma, in a word. He considered himself an "old
soul," and was rather weary of it all--of existence and development,
that is. To take no part in life meant to escape from those tangles
for whose unravelling the law of rebirth dragged the soul back again
and again. To sow no Causes was to have no harvest of Effects to reap
with toil and perspiration. Action, of course, there must be, but
"indifference to results of action" was the secret. Imson, none the
less, was always entangled with wives and children. Having divorced one
wife, and been divorced by another, he had recently married a third;
a flock of children streamed behind him; he was a good father, if a
strange husband.

"It's old Karma I have to work off," he would explain, referring to
the wives. "If I avoid the experience I shall only have to come back
again. There's no good shirking old Karma." He gave this explanation to
the wives themselves, not only to his friends. "Face it and it's done
with, worked off, you see." That is, it had to be done nicely, kindly,
generously.

An entire absence of the sense of humour was, of course, his natural
gift, yet a certain quaint wisdom helped to fill the dangerous vacuum.
He was known usually as "Pat."

"Come on, Pat," said Povey, making room for him at his side. "How's
Karma? We're just talking about LeVallon and the Studio business. What
do you make of it? You were there, weren't you?" The others listened,
attentively, for Imson had a reputation for "seeing true."

"I saw it, yes," replied Imson, ordering his dinner with
indifference--soup, fried potatoes, salad, cheese and coffee--but
declining the offered wine. The group waited for his next remark, but
none was forthcoming. He sat crumbling his bread into the soup and
stirring the mixture with his spoon.

"Did you see the light about him, Mr. Imson?" asked Miss Lance. "The
brilliant aura of golden yellow that he wore? _I_ thought--it sounds
exaggerated, I know--but to me it seemed even brighter than the
lightning. Did you notice it?"

"Well," said Imson slowly, putting his spoon down. "I'm not often
clairvoyant, you know. I did notice, however, a sort of radiance about
him. But with hair like that, it's difficult to be certain----"

"Full of lovely patterns," said Mrs. Towzer. "Geometrical patterns."

"Like astrological designs," mentioned Miss Milligan. "He's Leo, of
course--fire."

"Almost as though he brought or caused the lightning--as if it actually
emanated out of his atmosphere somehow," claimed Miss Lance, for it was
_her_ conversation after all.

"I saw nothing of that," replied Imson quietly. "No, I can't say I saw
anything _exactly_ like that." He added honestly, with his engaging
smile that had earned for him in some quarters the nickname of "The
Sheep": "I was looking at Nayan, you see, most of the time."

A smile flickered round the table, for rumour had it that the girl had
once seemed to him as possible "Karma."

"So was I," put in Kempster with kindly intention, though his
sympathy was evidently not needed. Imson was too simple even to
feel embarrassment. "She came to life suddenly for the first time
since I've known her. It was amazing." To which Imson, busy over his
salad-dressing, made no reply.

Povey, lighting his pipe and puffing out thick clouds of smoke,
was cleverer. "LeVallon's effect upon her, whatever it was, seemed
instantaneous," he informed the table. "I never saw a clearer case of
two souls coming together in a flash."

"As I said just now," Kempster quickly mentioned.

"They are similar," said Imson, looking up, while the group waited
expectantly.

"Similar," repeated Kempster. "Ah!"

"It was the surprise in her face that struck me most," observed Povey
quickly, making an internal note of Imson's adjective, but knowing
that indirect methods would draw him out better than point-blank
questions. "LeVallon showed it too. It was an unexpected recognition
on both sides. They are 'similar,' as you say; both at the same stage
of development, whatever that stage may be. The expression on both
faces----"

"Escape," exclaimed Imson, giving at last the kernel of what he had to
say. And the effect upon the group was electrical. A visible thrill ran
round the Soho table.

"The very word," exclaimed Povey and Miss Lance together. "Escape!" But
neither of them knew exactly what they meant, nor what Imson himself
meant.

"LeVallon has, of course, already escaped," the latter went on quietly.
"He is no longer caught by causes and effects as we are here. He's got
out of it all long ago--if he was ever in it at all."

"If he ever was in it at all," said Povey quickly. "You noticed that
too. You're very discerning, Pat."

"Clairvoyant," mentioned Miss Lance.

"I've seen them in dreams like that," returned Imson calmly. "I often
see them, of course." He referred to his qualification for membership.
"The great figures I see in dream have just that unearthly expression."

"Unearthly," said Mrs. Towzer with excitement.

"Non-human," mentioned Kempster suggestively.

"Not of this world, anyhow," suggested Miss Lance mysteriously.

"Divine?" inquired Miss Milligan below her breath.

"Really," murmured Toogood, "I must get a bit of his hair and
psychometrize it at once." He was sipping a second glass of whisky.

Imson looked round at each face in turn, apparently seeing nothing that
need increase his attachment to the planet by way of fresh Karma.

"The _Deva_ world," he said briefly, after a pause. "Probably he's come
to take Nayan off with him. She--I always said so--has a strong strain
of the elemental kingdom in her. She may be his _Devi_. LeVallon, I'm
sure, is here for the first time. He's one of the non-human evolution.
He's slipped in. A _Deva_ himself probably." It was as though he said
that the waiter was Swiss or French, or that the proprietor's daughter
had Italian blood in her.

Povey looked round him with an air of triumph.

"Ah!" he announced, as who should say, "You all thought my version a
bit wild, but here's confirmation from an unbiased witness."

"Oh, well, I can't be certain," Imson reminded the group. If he
deceived them enough to change their lives in any respect, it involved
fresh Karma for himself. Care was indicated. "I can't be positive, can
I?" he hedged. "Only--I must say--the great deva-figures I've seen in
dream have exactly that look and expression."

"That's interesting, Pat," Povey put in, "because, before you came, I
was suggesting a similar explanation for his air of immense potential
power. The elemental atmosphere he brought--we all noticed it, of
course."

"Elemental _is_ the only word," Miss Lance inserted. "A great Nature
Being." She was thinking of her magazine. "He struck me as being so
close to Nature that he seemed literally part of it."

"That would explain the lightning and the strange cry he gave about
'messengers,'" replied Imson, wiping the oil from his chin and
sprinkling his _petit suisse_ with powdered sugar. "It's quite likely
enough."

"I wish you'd jot down what you think--a little report of what you saw
and felt," the Secretary mentioned. "It would be of great value. I
thought of making a collection of the different versions and accounts."

"They might be published some day," thought Miss Lance. "Let's all,"
she added aloud with emphasis.

Imson nodded agreement, making no audible reply, while the conversation
ran on, gathering impetus as it went, growing wilder possibly, but also
more picturesque. A man in the street, listening behind a curtain,
must have deemed the talkers suffering from delusion, mad; a good
psychologist, on the other hand, similarly screened, and knowing the
antecedent facts, the Studio scene, at any rate, must have been struck
by one outstanding detail--the effect, namely, upon one and all of the
person they discussed. They had seen him for an hour or so among a
crowd, a young man whose name they hardly knew; only a few had spoken
to him; there had been, it seemed, neither time nor opportunity for
him to produce upon one and all the impression he undoubtedly had
produced. For in every mind, upon every heart, LeVallon's mere presence
had evidently graven an unforgettable image, scored an undecipherable
hieroglyph. Each felt, it seemed, the hint of a personality their
knowledge could not explain, nor any earthly explanation satisfy.
The consciousness in each one, perhaps, had been quickened. Hence,
possibly, the extravagance of their conversation. Yet, since all
reported differently, collective hysteria seemed discounted.

       *       *       *       *       *

Meanwhile, as the talk continued, and the wings of imaginative
speculation fanned the thick tobacco smoke, others had dropped in, both
male and female members, and the group now filled the little room to
the walls. The same magnet drew them all, in each heart burned the same
huge question mark: Who--what--is this LeVallon? What was the meaning
of the scene in Khilkoff's Studio?

Here, too, was a curious and significant fact about the gathering--the
amount of knowledge, true or otherwise, they had managed to collect
about LeVallon. One way or another, no one could say exactly how, the
Society had picked up an astonishing array of detail they now shared
together. It was known where he had spent his youth, also how, and
with whom, as well as something of the different views about him held
by Dr. Devonham and Edward Fillery. To such temperaments as theirs the
strange, the unusual, came automatically perhaps, percolating into
their minds as though a collective power of thought-reading operated.
Garbled, fanciful, askew, their information may have been, but a great
deal of it was not far wrong.

Imson, for instance, provided an account of LeVallon's birth, to which
all listened spellbound. He evaded all questions as to how he knew of
it. "His parents," he assured the room, "practised the old forgotten
magic; his father, at any rate, was an expert, if not an initiate, with
all the rites and formulæ of ancient times in his memory. LeVallon
was born as the result of an experiment, its origins dating back so
far that they concerned life upon another planet, I believe, a planet
nearer to the sun. The tremendous winds and heat were vehicles of
deity, you see--_there_."

"The parents, you mean, had former lives upon another planet?" asked
someone in a hushed tone. "Or he himself?"

"The parents--and Mason. Mason was involved in the experiment that
resulted in the birth of LeVallon here to-day."

"The experiment--what was it exactly?" inquired Lattimer, while Toogood
surreptitiously made notes on his rather dirty cuff.

Imson shrugged his shoulders very slightly.

"Some of it came to me in sleep," he mentioned, producing a paper from
his pocket and beginning to read it aloud before anyone could stop him.

    "When the sun was younger, and moon and stars
       Were thrilled with my human birth,
     And the winds fled shouting the wondrous news
       As they circled the sea and the earth,

    "From the fight for money and worldly fame
       I drew one magical soul
     Who came to me over the star-lit sea
       As the needle turns to the Pole.

    "Conceived in the hour the stars foretold,
       This son of the winds I bore,
     And I taught him the secrets of----"

"Yes," interrupted Povey audaciously, "but the experiment you were
telling us about----?"

A murmur of approving voices helped him.

"Oh, the experiment, yes, well--all I know is," he went on with
conviction, calmly replacing the poem in his pocket, "that it concerned
an old rite, involving the evocation of some elemental being or
nature-spirit the three of them had already evoked millions of years
before, but had not banished again. The experiment they made to-day
was to restore it to its proper sphere. In order to do so, they had
to evoke it again, and, of course"--he glanced round, as though all
present were familiar with the formula of magical practices--"it could
come only through the channel of a human system."

"Of course, yes," murmured a dozen voices, while eyes grew bigger and a
pin dropping must have been audible.

"Well"--Imson spoke very slowly now, each word clear as a bell--"the
father, who was officiating, failed. He could not stand the strain. His
heart stopped beating. He died--just when _it_ was there, he dropped
dead."

"What happened to _it_?" asked Povey, too interested to care that he
no longer led the room. "You said it could only use a human system as
channel----"

"It did so," explained Imson.

The information produced a pause of several seconds. Some of the
members, like Toogood, though openly, were making pencil notes upon
cuffs or backs of envelopes.

"But the channel was neither Mason nor the woman." The effect of this
negative information was as nothing compared to the startling interest
produced by the speaker's next words: "It took the easiest channel, the
line of least resistance--the unborn body of the child."

Povey, seizing his opportunity, leaped into the silence:

"Whose body, now full grown, and named LeVallon, came to the Studio!"
he exclaimed, looking round at the group, as though he had himself
given the explanation all had just listened to. "A human body tenanted
by a nature-spirit, one of the form-builders--a _Deva_...."




CHAPTER XVIII


For all the wildness of the talk, this group of the Unstable was a
coherent and consistent entity, using a language each item in it
understood. They knew what they were after. Alcohol, coffee, tobacco,
underfeeding, these helped or hindered, respectively, the expression of
an ideal that, nevertheless, was common to them all; and if the minds
represented were unbalanced, or merely speculative, poetic, one genuine
quest and sympathy bound all together into a coherent, and who shall
say unintelligent or valueless, unit. The unstable enjoyed an extreme
sensitiveness to varied experience, with flexible adaptability to all
possible new conditions, whereas the stable, with their rigid mental
organizations, remained uninformed, stagnant, even fossilized.

In other rooms about the great lamp-lit city sat, doubtless, other
similar groups at the very same moment, discussing the shibboleths
of other faiths, of other dreams, of other ideas, systems, notions,
philosophies, all interpretative of the earth in which little humanity
dwells, cut off and isolated, apparently, from the rest of the
stupendous universe. A listener, screened from view, a listener not in
sympathy with the particular group he observed, and puzzled, therefore,
by the language used, must have deemed he listened to harmless,
if boring, madness. For each group uses its own language, and the
lowest common denominator, though plainly printed in the world's old
scriptures, has not yet become adopted by the world at large.

Into this particular group, a little later in the evening, and when the
wings of imagination had increased their sweep a trifle dangerously
perhaps--into the room, like the arrival of a policeman rather, dropped
Father Collins. He came rarely to the Prometheans' restaurant. There
was a general sense of drawing breath as he appeared. A pause followed.
Something of the cold street air came with him. He wore his big black
felt hat, his shabby opera cloak, and clutched firmly--he had no
gloves on--the heavy gnarled stick he had cut for his collection in
a Cingalese forest years ago, when he was studying with a Buddhist
priest. The folds of his voluminous cloak, as he took it off, sent the
hanging smoke-clouds in a whirl. His personality stirred the mental
atmosphere as well. The women looked up and stared, respectful welcome
in their eyes; several of the men rose to shake hands; there was a
general shuffling of chairs.

"Bring another _moulin à vent_ and a clean glass," Povey said at once
to the hovering waiter.

"It's raw and bitter in the street and a fog coming down thickly,"
mentioned Father Collins. He exhaled noisily and with comfortable
relief, as he squeezed himself towards the chair Povey placed for
him and looked round genially, nodding and shaking hands with those
he knew. "But you're warm and cosy enough in here"--he sat down with
unexpected heaviness, and smiled at everybody--"and well fed, too, I'll
be bound."

"'The body must be comfortable before the mind can enjoy itself,'"
said Phillipps, an untidy member who disliked asceticism. "Starvation
produces hallucination, not vision." His glance took in the unused
glasses. His qualification was a vision of an uncle at the moment
of death, and the uncle had left him money. He had written a wordy
pamphlet describing it.

"I'll have an omelette, then, I think," Father Collins told the waiter,
as the red wine arrived. "And some fried potatoes. A bit of cheese to
follow, and coffee, yes." He filled his glass. He had not come to argue
or to preach, and Phillipps's challenge passed unnoticed. Phillipps,
who had been leading the talk of late, resented the new arrival, but
felt his annoyance modify as he saw his own glass generously filled.
Povey, too, accepted a glass, while saying with a false vehemence, "No,
no," his finger against the rim.

A change stole over the room, for the new personality was not
negligible; he brought his atmosphere with him. The wild talk, it
was felt now, would not be quite suitable. Father Collins had the
reputation of being something of a scholar; they were not quite sure of
him; none knew him very intimately; he had a rumoured past as well that
lent a flavour of respect. One story had it that "dabbling in magic"
had lost him his position in the Church. Yet he was deemed an asset to
the Society.

Whatever it was, the key changed sharply. Imson's eyes and ears grew
wider, the hand of Miss Lance went instinctively to her hair and combs,
Miss Milligan sought through her mind for a remark at once instructive
and uncommon, Mrs. Towzer looked past him searchingly lest his aura
escape her before she caught its colour, and Kempster, smoothing his
immaculate coat, had an air of being in his present surroundings merely
by chance. Toogood, quickly scanning his notes, wondered whether, if
called upon, he was to be Pharaoh or Cleopatra. One and all, that is,
took on a soberer gait. This semi-clerical visit complicated. The
presence of Father Collins was a compliment. What he had to say--about
LeVallon and the Studio scene--was, anyhow, assured of breathless
interest.

Povey led off. "We were just talking over the other night," he
observed, "the night at the Studio, you remember. The storm and so
on. It was a singular occurrence, though, of course, we needn't, we
_mustn't_ exaggerate it." And while he thus, as Secretary, set the
note, Father Collins sipped his wine and beamed upon the group. He made
no comment. "You were there, weren't you?" continued Povey, sipping
his own comforting glass. "I think I saw you. Fillery, you may have
noticed," he added, "brought--a friend."

"LeVallon, yes," said the other in a tone that startled them. "A most
unusual fellow, wasn't he?" He was attacking the omelette now. "A Greek
God, if ever I saw one," he added. And the silence in the crowded room
became abruptly noticeable. Miss Milligan, feeling her zodiacal garter
slipping, waited to pull it up. Imson's brown eyes grew wider. Kempster
held his breath. Toogood borrowed a cigar and waited for someone to
offer him a match before he lit it.

"Delicious," added Father Collins. "Cooked to a turn." The omelette
slid about his plate.

But the silence continued, and he realized the position suddenly.
Emptying his glass and casually refilling it, he turned and faced the
eager group about him.

"You want to know what _I_ thought about it all," he said. "You've
been discussing LeVallon, Nayan and the rest, I see." He looked round
as though he were in the lost pulpit that was his right. After a pause
he asked point blank: "And what do _you_ all think of it? How did
it strike you all? For myself, I confess"--he took another sip and
paused--"I am full of wonder and question," he finished abruptly.

It was Imson, the fearless, wondering Pat Imson, who first found his
tongue.

"We think," he ventured, "LeVallon is probably of _Deva_ origin."

The others, while admiring his courage, seemed unsympathetic suddenly.
Such phraseology, probably meaningless to the respected guest, was out
of place. Eyes were cast down, or looked generally elsewhere. Povey,
remembering that the Society was not solely Eastern, glared at the
speaker. Father Collins, however, was not perturbed.

"Possibly," he remarked with a courteous smile. "The origin of us
all is doubtful and confused. We know not whence we come, of course,
and all that. Nor can we ever tell exactly who our neighbour is, or
what. LeVallon," he went on, "since you all ask me"--he looked round
again--"is--for me--an undecipherable being. I am," he added, his
words falling into open mouths and extended eyes and ears, "somewhat
puzzled. But more--I am enormously stimulated and intrigued."

All gazed at him. Father Collins was in his element. The rapt silence
that met him was precisely what he had a right to expect from his lost
pulpit. He had come, probably, merely to listen and to watch. The
opportunity provided by a respectful audience was too much for him. An
inspiration tempted him.

"I am inclined to believe," he resumed suddenly in a simple tone, "that
he is--a Messenger."

The sentence might have dropped from Sirius upon a listening planet.
The babble that followed must, to an ordinary man, have seemed
confusion. Everyone spoke with a rush into his neighbour's ear. All
bubbled. "I always thought so, I told you so, that was exactly what I
meant just now"--and so on. All found their tongues, at any rate, if
Povey, as Secretary, led the turmoil:

"Something outside our normal evolution, you mean?" he asked
judiciously. "Such a conception is possible, of course."

"A Messenger!" ran on the babel of male and female voices.

It was here that Father Collins failed. The "unstable" in him came
suddenly uppermost. The "ecstatic" in his being took the reins. The
wondering and expectant audience suited him. The red wine helped as
well. When he said "Messenger" he had meant merely someone who brought
a message. The expression of nobility merged more and more in the
slovenly aspect. Like a priest in the pulpit, whom none can answer and
to whom all must listen, he had his text, though that text had been
suggested actually by the conversation he had just heard. He had not
brought it with him. It occurred to him merely then and there. His
mind reflected, in a word, the collective idea that was in the air
about him, and he proceeded to sum it up and give expression to it.
This was his gift, his fatal gift--a ready sensitiveness, a plausible
exposition. He caught the prevailing mood, the collective notion,
then dramatized it. Before he left the pulpit he invariably, however,
convinced himself that what he had said in it was true, inspired, a
revelation--for that moment.

"A Messenger," he announced, thrusting his glass aside with an
impatient gesture as though noticing for the first time that it was
there. "A Messenger," he repeated, the automatic emphasis in his voice
already persuading him that he believed what he was about to say,
"sent among us from who knows what distant sphere"--he drew himself up
and looked about him--"and for who can guess on what mysterious and
splendid mission."

His eye swept his audience, his hand removed the glass yet farther
lest, it impede free gesture. It was, however, as Povey noticed, empty
now. "We, of course," he went on impressively, lowering his voice,
"_we_, a mere handful in the world, but alert and watchful, all of
us--we know that some great new teaching is expected"--he threw out
another challenging glance--"but none of us can know whence it may come
nor in what way it shall manifest." His voice dropped dramatically.
"Whether as a thief in the night, or with a blare of trumpets, none
of us can tell. But--we expect it and are ready. To _us_, therefore,
perhaps, as to the twelve fishermen of old, may be entrusted the
privilege of accepting it, the work of spreading it among a hostile and
unbelieving world, even perhaps the final sacrifice of--of suffering
for it."

He paused, quickly took in the general effect of his words, picked up
here and there a hint of question, and realized that he had begun on
too exalted a note. Detecting this breath of caution in the collective
mind that was his inspiration, he instantly shifted his key.

"LeVallon," he resumed, instinctively emphasizing the conviction
in his voice so that the change of key might be less noticeable,
"undoubtedly--believes himself to be--some such divine Messenger...."
It was consummate hedging.

The sermon needs no full report. The audience, without realizing
it, witnessed what is known as an "inspirational address," where a
speaker, naturally gifted with a certain facile eloquence, gathers
his inspiration, takes his changing cues as well, from the collective
mind that listens to him. Father Collins, quite honestly doubtless,
altered his key automatically. He no longer said that LeVallon _was_
a Messenger, but that he "believed himself" to be one. Like Balaam,
he said things he had not at first thought of saying. He talked for
some ten minutes without stopping. He said "all sorts of things,"
according to the expression of critical doubt, of wonder, of question,
of rejection or acceptance, on the particular face he gazed at. At
regular intervals he inserted, with considerable effect, his favourite
sentence: "A man in his _own_ place is the Ruler of his Fate."

He developed his idea that LeVallon "believed himself to be such and
such ..." but declared that the conception had been put into the youth
during his life of exile in the mountains--the Society had already
acquired this information and extended it--and had "_felt himself
into_" the rôle until he had become its actual embodiment.

"He does not think, he does not reason," he explained. "He feels--he
_feels with_. Now, to 'feel with' anything is to become it in the end.
It is the only way of true knowledge, of course, of true understanding.
If I want to understand, say, an Arab, I must _feel with_ that Arab to
the point--for the moment--of actually becoming him. And this strange
youth has spent his time, his best years, mark you--his creative years,
_feeling with_ the elemental forces of Nature until he has actually
becomes--at moments--one with them."

He paused again and stared about him. He saw faces shocked, astonished,
startled, but not hostile. He continued rapidly: "There lies the
danger. One may get caught, get stuck. Lose the desire to return to
one's normal self. Which means, of course, remaining out of relation
with one's environment--mad. Only a man in his _own_ place is the ruler
of his luck...."

He noticed suddenly the look of disappointment on several faces. He
swiftly hedged.

"On the other hand," he went on, making his voice and manner more
impressive than before, "it may be--who can say indeed?--it may be that
he is in relation with another environment altogether, a much vaster
environment, an extended environment of which the rest of humanity is
unaware. The privilege of tasting something of an extended environment
some of us here already enjoy. What we all know as _human_ activities
are doubtless but a fragment of life--the conscious phenomena merely of
some larger whole of which we are aware in fleeting seconds only--by
mood, by hint, by suggestive hauntings, so to speak--by faint shadows
of unfamiliar, nameless shape cast across our daily life from some
intenser sun we normally cannot see! LeVallon may be, as some of us
think and hope, a Messenger to show us the way into a yet farther field
of consciousness....

"It is a fine, a noble, an inspiring hope, at any rate," he assured the
room. "Unless some such Messenger comes into the world, showing us how
to extend our knowledge, we can get no farther; we shall never know
more than we know now; we shall only go on multiplying our channels for
observing the same old things...."

He closed his little address finally on a word as to what attitude
should be adopted to any new experience of amazing and incredible kind.
To a Society such as the one he had the honour of belonging to was left
the guidance of the perverse and ignorant generations outside of it,
"the lethargic and unresponsive majority," as he styled them.

"We must not resist," he declared bravely. "We must accept with
confidence, above all without fear." He leaned back in his chair,
somewhat exhausted, for the source of his inspiration was evidently
weakening. His words came less spontaneously, less easily; he
hesitated, sighed, looked from face to face for help he did not find.
His glass was empty. "We're here," he concluded lamely, "without being
consulted, and we may safely leave to the Powers that brought us here
the results of such acceptance."

"Quite so," agreed Povey, sighing audibly. "Denial will get us
nowhere." He filled up Father Collins's glass and his own. "I think
most of us are ready enough to accept any new experience that comes,
and to accept it without fear." He drained his own glass and looked
about him. "But the point is--how did LeVallon produce the effect upon
us all--the effect he did produce? He may be non-human, or he may be
merely mad. He may, as Imson says, come to us by some godless chance
from another evolutionary system--of which, mind you, we have as yet
no positive knowledge--or he may be a Messenger, as Father Collins
suggests, from some divine source, bringing new teaching. But, in the
name of Magic, how did he manage it? In other words--what is he?"

For Povey could be very ruthless when he chose. It was this
ruthlessness, perhaps, that made him such an efficient secretary. The
note of extravagance in his language had possibly another inspiration.

An awkward pause, at any rate, followed his remarks. Father Collins had
comforted and blessed the group. Povey introduced cold water rather.

"There's this--and there's that," remarked Miss Milligan, tactfully.

"Those among us," added Miss Lance with sympathy, "who have The Sight,
know at least what they have seen. Still, I think we are indebted to
Father Collins for--his guidance."

"If we knew exactly what he is," mentioned Mrs. Towzer, referring to
LeVallon, "we should know exactly where we are."

They got up to go. There was a fumbling among crowded hat-pegs.

"What is he?" offered Kempster. "He certainly made us all sit up and
take notice."

"No mere earthly figure," suggested Imson, "could have produced the
effect _he_ did. In my poem--it came to me in sleep----"

Father Collins held his glass unsteadily to the light. "A Messenger,"
he interrupted with authority, "would affect us all differently,
remember."

The talk continued in this fashion for a considerable time, while all
searched for wraps and coats. The waiter brought the bill amid general
confusion, but no one noticed him. All were otherwise engaged. Povey
paid it finally, putting it down to the Entertainment Account.

"Remember," he said, as they stood in a group on the restaurant steps,
each wondering who would provide a lift home, "remember, we have all
got to write out an account of what we saw and heard at the Studio.
These reports will be valuable. They will appear in our 'Psychic
Bulletin' first. Then I'll have them bound into a volume. And I shall
try and get LeVallon to give us a lecture too. Tickets will be extra,
of course, but each member can bring a friend. I'll let you all know
the date in due course."




CHAPTER XIX


While the Prometheans thus, individually and collectively fermenting,
floundered between old and new interpretations of a strange occurrence,
in another part of London something was happening, of its kind so
real, so interesting, that one and all would eagerly have renounced a
favourite shibboleth or pet desire to witness it. Kempster would have
eaten a raw beefsteak, Lattimer have agreed to rebirth as a woman, Mrs.
Towzer have swallowed whisky neat, and even Toogood have written a
signed confession that his "psychometry," was intelligent guesswork.

It is the destiny, however, of such students of the wonderful to
receive their data invariably at second or third hand; the data may
deal with genuine occurrences, but the student seems never himself
present at the time. From books, from reports, from accounts of someone
who knew an actual witness, the student generally receives the version
he then proceeds to study and elaborate.

In this particular instance, moreover, no version ever reached their
ears at all, either at second or third hand, because the only witness
of what happened was Edward Fillery, and he mentioned it to no one. Its
reality, its interpretation likewise, remained authoritative only for
that expert, if unstable, mind that experienced the one and divined the
other.

His conversation with Devonham over, and the latter having retired to
his room, Fillery paid a last visit to the patient who was now his
private care, instead of merely an inmate of the institution that was
half a Home and half a Spiritual Clinique. The figure lay sleeping
quietly, the lean, muscular body bare to the wind that blew upon it
from the open window. Graceful, motionless, both pillow and coverings
rejected, "N. H." breathed the calm, regular breath of deepest slumber.
The light from the door just touched the face and folded hands, the
features wore no expression of any kind, the hair, drawn back from the
forehead and temples, almost seemed to shine.

Through the window came the rustle of the tossing branches, but the
night air, though damp, was neither raw nor biting, and Fillery did not
replace the sheets upon the great sleeping body. He withdrew as softly
as he entered. Knowing he would not close an eye that night, he left
the house silently and walked out into the deserted streets....

The rain had ceased, but the wet wind rushed in gusts against him, the
soft blows and heavy moisture acting as balm to his somewhat tired
nerves. As with great elemental hands, the windy darkness stroked him,
soothing away the intense excitement he had felt, muting a thousand
eager questions. They stroked his brain into a gentler silence
gradually. "Don't think, don't think," night whispered all about him,
"but feel, feel, feel. What you want to know will come to you by
feeling now." He obeyed instinctively. Down the long, empty streets he
passed, swinging his stick, tapping the lampposts, noting how steady
their light held in the wind, noting the tossing trees in little
gardens, noting occasionally rifts of moonlight between the racing
clouds, but relinquishing all attempt to think.

He counted the steps between the lamp-posts as he swung along, leaving
the kerb at each crossing with his left foot, taking the new one with
his right, planting each boot safely in the centre of each paving
stone, establishing, in a word, a sort of rhythm as he moved. He
did so, however, without being consciously aware of it. He was not
aware, indeed, of anything but that he swung along with this pleasant
rhythmical stride that rested his body, though the exercise was
vigorous.

And the night laid her deep peace upon him as he went....

The streets grew narrower, twisted, turned and ran uphill; the houses
became larger, spaced farther apart, less numerous, their gardens
bigger, with groups of trees instead of isolated specimens. He emerged
suddenly upon the open heath, tasting a newer, sweeter air. The huge
city lay below him now, but the rough, shouting wind drowned its
distant roar completely. For a time he stood and watched its twinkling
lights across the vapours that hung between, then turned towards the
little pond. He knew it well. Its waves flew dancing happily. The
familiar outline of Jack Straw's Castle loomed beyond. The square
enclosure of the anti-aircraft gun rattled with a metallic sound in the
wind....

He had been walking for the best part of two hours now, thinking
nothing but feeling only, and his surface-consciousness, perhaps, lay
still, inactive. The mind was quiescent certainly, his being subdued
and lulled by the rhythmic movement which had gained upon his entire
system. The sails of his ship hung idly, becalmed above the profound
deeps below. It was these deeps, the mysterious and inexhaustible
region below the surface, that now began to stir. There stole upon him
a dim prophetic sense as of horizons lifting and letting in new light.
He glanced about him. The moon was brighter certainly, the flying scud
was thinning, though the dawn was still some hours away. But it was not
the light of moon or sun or stars he looked for; it was no outer light.

The little waves fell splashing at his feet. He watched them for a long
time, keeping very still; his heart, his mind, his nerves, his muscles,
all were very still.... He became aware that new big powers were alert
and close, hovering above the world, feathering the Race like wings of
mighty birds. The waters were being troubled....

He turned and walked slowly, but ever with the same pleasant rhythm
that was in him, to the pine trees, where he paused a minute, listening
to the branches shaking and singing, then retraced his steps along the
ridge, every yard of which, though blurred in darkness, he knew and
recognized. Below, on his left lay London, on his right stretched the
familiar country, though now invisible, past Hendon with its Welsh
Harp, Wembley, and on towards Harrow, whose church steeple would catch
the sunrise before very long. He reached the little pond again and
heard its small waves rushing and tumbling in the south-west wind. He
stood and watched them, listening to their musical wash and gurgle.

The waters, yes, were being troubled.... Despite the buffeting wind,
the world lay even stiller now about him; no single human being had he
seen; even stiller than before, too, lay heart and mind within him;
the latter held no single picture. He was aware, yes, of horizons
lifting, of great powers alert and close; the interior light increased.
He felt, but he did not think. Into the empty chamber of his being,
swept and garnished, flashed suddenly, then, as in picture form, the
memory of "N. H." All that he knew about him came at once: Paul's
notes and journey, the London scenes and talks, his own observations,
deductions, questionings, his dreams, and fears and yearnings, his hope
and wonder--all came in a clapping instant, complete and simultaneous.
Into his opened subconscious being floated the power and the presence
of that bright messenger who brought glad tidings to his life.

"N. H." stood beside him, whispering with lips that were the darkness,
and with words that were the wind. It was the power and presence
of "N. H." that lifted the horizon and let in light. His body lay
sleeping miles away in that bed against an open window. This was his
real presence. Without words, as without thought, understanding came.
The appeal of "N. H." was direct to the subliminal mind; it was the
hidden nine-tenths he stimulated; hence came the intensification of
consciousness in all who had to do with him. And it operated now.
Fillery was aware of defying time and space, as though there were no
limits to his being. Faith lights fires.... Perception wandered down
those dusky by-ways _behind_ the mind that lead through trackless
depths where the massed heritage of the world-soul, lit sometimes by a
flashing light, reveal incredible, incalculable things. One of those
flashes came now. Through the fissures, as it were, of his unstable
being rose the marvellous, uncanny gleam. His eyes were opened and he
saw.

The label, he realized, was incorrect, inadequate--"N. H." was a
misnomer; more than human, both different to and greater than, came
nearer to the truth. A being from other conditions certainly, belonging
to another order; an order whose work was unremitting service rendered
with joy and faithfulness; a hierarchy whose service included the
entire universe, the stars and suns and nebulæ, earth with her frail
humanity but an insignificant fraction of it all....

He came, of course, from that central sea of energy whence all life,
pushing irresistibly outwards into form, first arises. Like human
beings, he came thence undoubtedly, but more directly than they, in
more intimate relations, therefore, with the elemental powers that
build up form and shape the destinies of matter. One only of a mighty
host of varying degrees and powers, his services lay interwoven with
the very heart and processes of Nature herself. The energies of heat
and air, essentials of all life everywhere, were his handmaidens; he
worked with fire and wind; in the forms he helped to build he set
enthusiasm and energy aglow....

From stars and fire-mist he came now into humanity, using the limited
instrument of a human mechanism, a mechanism he must learn to master
without breaking it. A human brain and nerves confined him. He could
deal with essences only, those essential, buried, semi-elemental
powers that lie ever waiting below the threshold of all human
consciousness, linking men, did they but know it, direct with the sea
of universal life which is inexhaustible, independent of space and
time. The fraction of his nature which had manifested as a transient
surface-personality--LeVallon--was gone for ever, merged in the real
self below.

His origin was already forgotten; no memory of it lay in his present
brain; he must suffer training, education, and he turned instinctively
to those whose ideal, like his own, was one of impersonal service. To
a woman he turned, and to a man. His recognition, guided by Nature,
was sure and accurate. It must take time and patience, sympathy and
love, faith, belief and trust, and the labour must be borne by one
man chiefly--by Fillery, into whose life had come this strange bright
messenger carrying glad tidings ... to prove at last that man was
greater than he knew, that the hope for Humanity, for the deteriorating
Race, for crumbling Civilization, lay in drawing out into full
practical consciousness the divine powers concealed below the threshold
of every single man and woman....

But how, in what practical manner, what instrument could they use?
The human mechanism, the brain, the mind, afforded inadequate means
of manifestation; new wines into old skins meant disaster; knowledge,
power beyond the experience of the Race needed a better instrument than
the one the Race had painfully evolved for present uses. New powers
of unknown kinds, as already in those rare cases when the supernormal
forces emerged, could only strain the machinery and cause disorder. A
new order of consciousness required another, a different equipment.
And the idea flashed into him, as in the Studio when he watched "N.
H." and the girl--Father Collins had divined its possibility as
well--the idea of a group consciousness, a collective group-soul.
What a single individual might not be able to resist at first without
disaster, many--a group in harmony--two or three gathered together in
unison--these might provide the way, the means, the instrument--the
body.

"The personal merged in the impersonal," he exclaimed to the night
about him, already aware that words, expression, failed even at this
early stage of understanding. "Beauty, Art! Where words, form, colour
end, we shall construct, while yet using these as far as they go, a new
vehicle, a new----"

"Good evenin'," said a gruff voice. "Good evenin', sir," it added more
respectfully, after a second's inspection. "Turned out quite fine after
the storm."

Aware of the policeman suddenly, Fillery started and turned round
abruptly. Evidently he had uttered his thoughts aloud, probably had
cried and shouted them. He could think of nothing in the world to say.

"It was a terrible storm. I hardly ever see the likes of it." The man
was looking at him still with doubtful curiosity.

"Extraordinary, yes." Dr. Fillery managed to find a few natural words.
It was an early hour in the morning to be out, and his position by the
pond, he now realized, might have suggested an undesirable intention.
"It made sleep impossible, and I came out to--to take a walk. I'm a
doctor, Dr. Fillery--the Fillery Home."

"Yes, sir," said the man, apparently satisfied. He looked at the sky.
"All blown away again," he remarked, "and the moon that nice and
bright----"

Fillery offered something in reply, then moved away. The moon, he
noticed, was indeed nice and bright now; the heavy lower vapours all
had vanished, and thin cirrus clouds at a great height moved slowly
before an upper wind; the stars shone clearly, and a faint line of
colour gave a hint of dawn not far away.

He glanced at his watch. It was nearly half-past four.

"It's impossible, impossible," he thought to himself, the pictures
he had been seeing still hanging before his eyes. "It was all
feeling--merely feeling. My blood, my heritage asserting themselves
upon an over-tired system! Too much repression evidently. I must find
an outlet. My Caucasian Valley again!"

He walked rapidly. His mind began to work, and thinking made
an effort to replace feeling. He watched himself. His everyday
surface-consciousness partially resumed its sway. The policeman, of
course, had interrupted the flow and inrush of another state just at
the moment when a flash of direct knowledge was about to blaze. It
concerned "N. H.," his new patient. In another moment he would have
known exactly what and who he was, whence he came, the purpose and the
powers that attended him. The policeman--and inner laughter ran through
him at this juxtaposition of the practical and the transcendental--had
interfered with an interesting expansion of his being. An extension
of consciousness, perhaps a touch of cosmic consciousness, was on the
way. The first faint quiver of its coming, magical with wondrous joy,
had touched him. Its cause, its origin, he knew not, yet he could trace
both to the effect produced upon him by "N. H." Of that he was sure.
This effect his reasoning mind, with busy analysis and criticism,
had hitherto partially suppressed, even at its first manifestation
in Charing Cross Station. To-night, criticism silent and analysis
inactive, it had found an outlet, his own deep inner stillness had been
its opportunity. Then came the practical, honest, simple policeman,
the censor, who received so much a week to keep people in the way they
ought to follow, the safe, broad way....

He smiled, as he walked rapidly along the deserted streets. He knew so
well the method and process of these abnormal states in others. As he
swung along, not tired now, but rested, rather, and invigorated, the
rhythm of motion established itself again. "N. H." a Nature Spirit! A
Nature Being! Another order of life entering humanity for the first
time, that humanity for whose welfare it--or was it he?--had worked,
with hosts of similar beings, during incalculable ages....

He smiled, remembering the policeman again. There was always a
policeman, or a censor. Oh, the exits beyond safe normal states of
being, the exits into extended fields of consciousness, into an outer
life which the majority, led by the best minds of the day, deny with an
oath--these were well guarded! His smile, as he thought of it, ran from
his lips and settled in the eyes, lingering a moment there before it
died away....

How quiet, yet unfamiliar, the suburb of the huge city lay about him
in pale half-light. The Studio scene, how distant it seemed now in
space and time; it had happened weeks ago in another city somewhere.
Devonham, his cautious, experienced assistant, how far away! He
belonged to another age. The Prometheans were part of a dream in
childhood, a dream of pantomime or harlequinade whose extravagance
yet conveyed symbolic meaning. Two figures alone retained a reality
that refused to be dismissed--a mysterious, enigmatic youth, a radiant
girl--with perhaps a third--a broken priest....

The rhythm, meanwhile, gained upon him, and, as it did so, thinking
once more withdrew and feeling stole back softly. His being became more
harmonized, more one with itself, more open to inspiration.... "N. H.,"
whose work was service, service everywhere, not merely in that tiny
corner of the universe called Humanity.... "N. H.," who could neither
age nor die.... What was the hidden link that bound them? Had they not
served and played together in some lost Caucasian valley, leaped with
the sun's hot fire, flown in the winds of dawn ... sung, laughed and
danced at their service, with a radiant sylph-like girl who had at
last enticed them into the confinement of a limited human form?... Did
not that valley symbolize, indeed, another state of existence, another
order of consciousness altogether that lay beyond any known present
experience or description...?

The dawn, meanwhile, grew nearer and a pallid light ran down the
dreadful streets.... He reached at length the foot of the hill upon
whose shoulder his own house stood. The familiar sights stirred more
familiar currents of feeling, and these in turn sought words....

The crowding houses, with their tight-shut windows, followed and
pressed after as he climbed. They swarmed behind him. How choked and
airless it all was. He thought of the heavy-footed routine of the
thousands who occupied these pretentious buildings. Here lived a
section of the greatest city on the planet, almost a separate little
town, with marked characteristics, atmosphere, tastes and habits.
How many, he wondered, behind those walls knew yearning, belief,
imagination beyond the ruck and routine of familiar narrow thought?
Rows upon rows, with their stunted, manufactured trees, hideous
conservatories, bulging porches, ornamented windows--his wings beat
against them all with the burning desire to set their inmates free.
They caged themselves in deliberately. A few thousand years ago these
people lived in mud huts, before that in caves, before that again in
trees. Now they were "civilized." They dwelt in these cages. Oh, that
he might tear away the thick dead bricks, and let in light and dew and
stars, and the brave, free winds of heaven! Waken the deeper powers
they carried unwittingly about with them through all their tedious
sufferings! Teach them that they were greater than they knew!

The yearning was deep and true in him, as the houses followed and
tried to bar his way. Many of the occupiers, he knew, would welcome
help, would gaze with happy, astonished eyes at the wonder of their
own greater selves set free. Not all, of course, were wingless. Yet
the majority, he felt, were otherwise. They peered at him from behind
thick curtains, hostile, sceptical, contented with their lot, averse
to change. Mode, custom, habit chained them to the floor. He was
aware of a collective obstinate grin of smug complacency, of dull
resistance. Though a part of the community, of the race, of the world,
of the universe itself, they denied their mighty brotherhood, and
clung tenaciously to their idea of living apart, cut off and separate.
They belonged to leagues, societies, clubs and circles, but the bigger
oneness of the race they did not know. Of greater powers in themselves
they had no faintest inkling. At the first sign of these, they would
shuffle, sneer and turn away, grow frightened even.

The yearning to show them a bigger field of consciousness, to help them
towards a realization of their buried powers, to let them out of their
separate cages, beat through his being with a passionate sincerity....
In a hundred thousand years perhaps! Perhaps in a million! He knew the
slow gait that Nature loved. The trend of an Age is not to be stemmed
by one man, nor by twelve, who see over the horizon. The futility of
trying pained him. Yet, if no one ever tried! Oh, for a few swift
strokes of awful sacrifice--then freedom!

The words came back to him, and with them, from the same source, came
others: "I sit and I weave.... I sit and I weave."... Whose, then, was
this divine, eternal patience?...

There could be, it seemed, no hurried growth, no instant escape, no
sudden leap to heaven. Slowly, slowly, the Ages turned the wheel. "Nor
can other beings help," he remembered; "they can only tell what their
own part is."... And as his clear mind saw the present Civilization
like all its wonderful predecessors, tottering before his very eyes,
threatening in its collapse, the extinction of knowledge so slowly,
painfully, laboriously acquired, the deep heart in him rose as on wings
of wind and fire, questing the stars above. There was this strange
clash in him, as though two great divisions in his being struggled. A
way of escape seemed just within his reach, only a little beyond the
horizon of his actual knowledge. It fluttered marvellously; golden,
alight, inviting. Its coming glory brushed his insight. It was simple,
it was divine. There seemed a faint knocking against the doors of his
mental and spiritual understanding....

"'N. H.'!" he cried, "Bright Messenger!"

He paused a moment and stood still. A new sound lay suddenly in the
night. It came, apparently, from far away, almost from the air above
him. He listened. No, after all it was only steps. They came nearer.
A pedestrian, muffled to the ears, went past, and the steps died away
on the resounding pavement round the corner. Yet the sound continued,
and was not the echo of the steps just gone. It was, moreover, he now
felt convinced, in the air above him. It was continuous. It reminded
him of the musical droning hum that a big bell leaves behind it, while
a suggestion of rhythm, almost of melody, ran faintly through it too.

Somebody's lines--was it Shelley's?--ran faintly in his mind, yet it
was not his mind now that surged and rose to the new great rhythm:

    "'Tis the deep music of the rolling world
     Kindling within the strings of the waved air
     Æolian modulations....
     Clear, icy, keen awakening tones
     That pierce the sense
     And live within the soul...."

He listened. It was a simple, natural, happy sound--simple as running
water, natural as wind, happy as the song of birds....




CHAPTER XX


He became, again, vividly aware of the power and presence of "N. H."

He was not far from his house now on the shoulder of the hill. He
turned his eyes upwards, where the three-quarter moon sailed above
transparent cirrus clouds that scarcely dimmed her light. Like dappled
sands of silver, they sifted her soft shining, moving slowly across the
heavens before an upper wind. The sound continued.

For a moment or two, in the pale light of dawn, he watched and
listened, then lowered his gaze, caught his breath sharply, and stood
stock still. He stared in front of him. Next, turning slowly, he stared
right and left. He stared behind as well.

Yes, it was true. The lines and rows of crowding houses trembled,
disappeared. The heavy buildings dissolved before his very eyes. The
solid walls and roofs were gone, the chimneys, railings, doors and
porches vanished. There were no more conservatories. There were no
lamp-posts. The streets themselves had melted. He gazed in amazement
and delight. The entire hill lay bare and open to the sky.

Across the rising upland swept a keen fresh morning wind. Yet bare
they were not, this rising upland and this hill. As far as he could
see, the landscape flowed waist-deep in flowers, whose fragrance lay
upon the air; dew trembled, shimmering on a million petals of blue and
gold, of orange, purple, violet; the very atmosphere seemed painted.
Flowering trees, both singly and in groves, waved in the breeze, birds
sang in chorus, there was a murmur of streams and falling waters. Yet
that other sound rose too, rose from the entire hill and all upon it,
a continuous gentle rhythm, as though, he felt, the actual scenery
poured forth its being in spontaneous, natural expression of sound as
well as of form and colour. It was the simplest, happiest music he had
ever heard.

Unable to deal with the rapture of delight that swept upon him, he
stood stock still among the blossoms to his waist. Eyes, ears and
nostrils were inadequate to report a beauty which, simple though it
was, overbore nerves and senses accustomed to a lesser scale. Horizons
indeed had lifted, the joy and confidence of fuller life poured in.
His own being grew immense, stretched, widened, deepened, till it
seemed to include all space. He was everywhere, or rather everything
was happening somewhere in him all at once.... In place of the heavy
suburb lay this garden of primal beauty, while yet, in a sense, the
suburb itself remained as well. Only--it had flowered ... revealing the
subconscious soul the bricks and pavements hid.... Its potential self
had blossomed into loveliness and wonder.

The sound drew nearer. He was aware of movement. Figures were
approaching; they were coming in his direction, coming towards him over
the crest of the hill, nearer and nearer. Concealed by the forest of
tall flowers, he watched them come. Yet as Presences he perceived them,
rather than as figures, already borrowing power from them, as sails
borrow from a rising wind. His consciousness expanded marvellously to
let them in.

Their stature was conveyed to him, chiefly, at first, by the fact that
these flowers, though rising to his own waist, did not cover the feet
of them, yet that the flowers in the immediate line of their advance
still swayed and nodded, as though no weight had lain upon their
brilliance. The footsteps were of wind, the figures light as air; they
shone; their radiant presences lit the acres. Their own atmosphere,
too, came with them, as though the landscape moved and travelled with
and in their being, as though the flowers, the natural beauty, emanated
from them. The landscape _was_ their atmosphere. They created, brought
it with them. It seemed that they "expressed" the landscape and "were"
the scenery, with all its multitudinous forms.

They approached with a great and easy speed that was not measurable.
Over the crest of the living, sunlit hill they poured, with their bulk,
their speed, their majesty, their sweet brimming joy. Fillery stood
motionless watching them, his own joy touched with awed confusion, till
wonder and worship mastered the final trace of fear.

Though he perceived these figures first as they topped the skyline, he
was aware that great space also stretched behind them, and that this
immense perspective was in some way appropriate to their appearance.
Born of a greater space than his "mind" could understand, they
flowed towards him across that windy crest and at the same time from
infinitely far beyond it. Above the continuous humming sound, he heard
their music too, faint but mighty, filling the air with deep vibrations
that seemed the natural expression of their joyful beings. Each figure
was a chord, yet all combining in a single harmony that had volume
without loudness. It seemed to him that their sound and colour and
movement wove a new pattern upon space, a new outline, form or growth,
perhaps a flower, a tree, perhaps a planet.... They were creative. They
expressed themselves naturally in a million forms.

He heard, he saw. He knew no other words to use. But the "hearing" was,
rather, some kind of intimate possession so that his whole being filled
and overbrimmed; and the "sight" was greater than the customary little
irritation of the optic nerve--it involved another term of space. He
could describe the sight more readily than the hearing. The apparent
contradiction of distance and proximity, of vast size yet intimacy,
made him tremble in his hiding-place.

His "sight," at any rate, perceived the approaching figures all round,
all over, all at once, as they poured like a wave across the hill from
far beyond its visible crest. For into this space below the horizon he
saw as well, though, normally speaking, it was out of sight. Nor did he
see one side only; he saw the backs of the towering forms as easily as
the portion facing him; he saw behind them. It was not as with ordinary
objects refracting light, the back and underneath and further edges
invisible. All sides were visible at once. The space beyond, moreover,
whence the mighty outlines issued, was of such immensity that he could
think only of interstellar regions. Not to the little planet, then, did
these magnificent shapes belong. They were of the Universe. The symbol
of his valley, he knew suddenly, belonged here too.

Silent with wonder, motionless with worship, he watched the singing
flood of what he felt to be immense, non-human nature-life pour past
him. The procession lasted for hours, yet was over in a minute's flash.
All categories his mind knew hitherto were useless. The faces, in their
power, their majesty, the splendour even of their extent, were both
appalling, yet infinitely tender. They were filled with stars, blue
distance, flowers, spirals of fire, space and air, interwoven too,
with shining geometrical designs whose intricate patterns merged in a
central harmony. They brought their own winds with them.

Yet of features precisely, he was not aware. Each face was, rather,
an immense expression, but an expression that was permanent and could
not change. These were immutable, eternal faces. He borrowed from
human terms the only words that offered, while aware that he falsely
introduced the personal into that which was essentially impersonal.

There stole over him a strange certainty that what he worshipped was
the grandeur of joyful service working through unalterable law--the
great compassion of some untiring service that was deathless.... He
stood _within_ the Universe, face to face with its elemental builders,
guardians, its constructive artizans, the impersonal angelic powers
... the region, the state, he now felt convinced, to which "N. H."
belonged, and whence, by some inexplicable chance, he had come to
occupy a human body.... And the sounds--the flash came to him with
lightning conviction--were those essential rhythms which are the
kernels of all visible, manifested forms....

       *       *       *       *       *

He was not aware that he was moving, that he had left the spot where he
had stood--so long, yet for a single second only--and had now reached
the corner of a street again. The flowers were gone, and the trees and
groves gone with them; no waters rippled past; there was no shining
hill. The moon, the stars, the breaking dawn remained, but he saw
windows, walls and villas once again, while his feet echoed on dead
stone pavements....

Yet the figures had not wholly gone. Before a house, where he now
paused a moment, the towering, flowing outlines were still faintly
visible. Their singing still audible, their shapes still gently
luminous, they stood grouped about an open window of the second story.
In the front garden a big plane tree stirred its leafless branches; the
tree and figures interpenetrated. Slowly then, the outlines grew dim
and shadowy, indistinguishable almost from the objects in the twilight
near them. Chimneys, walls and roofs stole in upon the great shapes
with foreign, grosser details that obscured their harmony, confused
their proportion, as with two sets of values. The eye refused to focus
both at once. A roof, a chimney obtruded, while sight struggled,
fluttered, then ended in confusion. The figures faded and melted out.
They merged with the tree, the reddening sky, the murky air close
to the house which a street lamp made visible. Suddenly they were
lost--they were no longer there.

But the rhythmical sound, though fainter, still continued--and Fillery
looked up.

It was a sound, he realized in a flash, evocative and summoning. Type
called to type, brother to brother, across the universe. The house
before him was his own, and the open window through which the music
issued was the bedroom of "N. H."

He stood transfixed. Both sides of his complex nature operated
simultaneously. His mind worked more clearly--the entire history
of the "case" in that upstairs room passed through it: he was a
doctor. But his speculative, emotional aspect, the dreamer in him, so
greatly daring, all that poetic, transcendental, half-mystical part
which classed him, he well knew, with the unstable; all this, long
and dangerously repressed, worked with opposite, if equal pressure.
From the subconscious rose violent hands as of wind and fire,
lovely, fashioning, divine, tearing away the lid of the reasoning
surface-consciousness that confined, confused them.

To disentangle, to define these separate functions, were a difficult
problem even for the most competent psychiatrist. Creative imaginative
powers, hitherto merely fumbling, half denied as well, now stretched
their wings and soared. With them came a blinding clarity of sight
that enabled him to focus a vast field of detail with extraordinary
rapidity. Horizons had lifted, perspective deepened and lit up. In a
few brief seconds, before his front door opened, a hundred details
flashed towards a focus and shone concentrated:

The Vision, of course--the Figures had now melted into the night--had
no objective reality. Suppressed passion had created them, forbidden
yearnings had passed the Censor and dramatized a dream, set aside yet
never explained, that heredity was responsible for. Both were born
of his lost radiant valley. His Note Books held a thousand similar
cases....

But the speculative dreamer flashed coloured lights against this common
white. The prism blazed. From the inter-stellar spaces came these
radiant figures, from Sirius, immense and splendid sun, from Aldebaran
among the happy Hyades, from awful Betelgeuse, whose volume fills a
Martian orbit. Their dazzling, giant grandeur was of stellar origin.
Yet, equally, they came from the dreadful back gardens of those sordid
houses. Nature was Nature everywhere, in the nebulæ as in the stifled
plane tree of a city court. That he saw them as "figures" was but his
own private, personal interpretation of a prophecy the whole Universe
announced. They were not figures necessarily; they were Powers. And "N.
H." was of their kind.

He suddenly remembered the small, troubled earth whereon he lived--a
neglected corner of the universe that was in distress and cried
frantically for help.... Alcyone caught it in her golden arms perhaps;
Sirius thundered against its little ears....

He found his latchkey and fumblingly inserted it, but, even while he
did so, the state of the planet at the moment poured into his mind with
swift, concentrated detail; he remembered the wireless excitement of
the instant--and smiled. Not that way would it come. The new order was
of a spiritual kind. It would steal into men's hearts, not splutter
along the waves of ether, as the "dead" are said to splutter to the
"living." The great impulse, the mighty invitation Nature sent out to
return to simple, natural life, would come, without "phenomena" from
_within_.... He remembered Relativity--that space is local, space and
time not separate entities. He understood. He had just experienced
it. Another, a fourth dimension! Space as a whole was annihilated! He
smiled.

His latchkey turned.

The transmutation of metals flashed past him--all substance one. His
latchkey was upside down. He turned it round and reinserted it, and the
results of advanced psychology rushed at him, as though the sun rushed
over the horizon of some Eastern clime, covering all with the light of
a new, fair dawn.

In a few seconds this accumulation of recent knowledge and discovery
flooded his state of singular receptiveness--as thinker and as poet.
The Age was crumbling, civilization passing like its predecessors. The
little planet lay certainly in distress. No true help lay within it;
its reservoirs were empty. No adequate constructive men or powers were
anywhere in sight. It was exhausted, dying. Unless new help, powers
from a new, an inexhaustible source, came quickly ... a new vehicle for
their expression....

And wonder took him by the throat ... as the key turned in the lock
with its familiar grating sound, and the door, without actual pressure
on his part, swung open.

Paul Devonham, a look of bright terror in his eyes, stood on the
threshold.

       *       *       *       *       *

The expression, not only of the face but of the whole person, he had
seen once only in another human countenance--a climber, who had slipped
by his very side and dropped backward into empty space. The look of
helpless bewilderment as hands and feet lost final touch with solidity,
the air of terrible yet childlike amazement with which he began his
descent of a thousand feet through a gulf of air--the shock marked the
face in a single second with what he now saw in his colleague's eyes.
Only, with Devonham--Fillery felt sure of his diagnosis--the lost hold
was mental.

His outward control, however, was admirable. Devonham's voice,
apart from a certain tenseness in it, was quiet enough: "I've been
telephoning everywhere.... There's been a--a crisis----"

"Violence?"

But the other shook his head. "It's all beyond me quite," he said,
with a wry smile. "The first outbreak was nothing--nothing compared to
this." The continuous sound of humming which filled the hall, making
the air vibrate oddly, grew louder. Devonham seized his friend's arm.

"Listen!" he whispered. "You hear that?"

"I heard it outside in the street," Fillery said. "What is it?"

Devonham glared at him. "God knows," he said, "I don't. He's been doing
it, on and off, for a couple of hours. It began the moment you left, it
seems. They're all about him--these vibrations, I mean. He does it with
his whole body somehow. And"--he hesitated--"there's meaning in it of
some kind. Results, I mean," he jerked out with an effort.

"Visible?" came the gentle question.

Devonham started. "How did you know?" There was a thrust of intense
curiosity in the eyes.

"I've had a similar experience myself, Paul. You opened the front door
in the middle of it. The figures----"

"You saw figures?" Devonham looked thunderstruck. In his heart was
obviously a touch of panic.

As the two men stood gazing into each other's eyes a moment silently,
the sound about them increased again, rising and falling, its great
separate rhythmical waves almost distinguishable. In Fillery's mind
rose patterns, outlines, forms of flowers, spirals, circles....

"He knows you're in the house," said Devonham in a curious voice,
relieved apparently no answer came to his question. "Better come
upstairs at once and see him." But he did not turn to lead the way.
"That's not auditory hallucination, Edward, whatever else it is!" He
was still clinging to the rock, but the rock was crumbling beneath his
desperate touch. Space yawned below him.

"Visual," suggested Fillery, as though he held out a feeble hand to the
man whose whole weight already hung unsupported before the plunge. His
friend spoke no word; but his expression made words unnecessary: "We
must face the facts," it said plainly, "wherever these may lead. No
shirking, no prejudice of mine or yours must interfere. There must be
no faltering now."

So plainly was his passion for truth and knowledge legible in the
expression of the shocked but honest mind, that Fillery felt compassion
overpower the first attitude of privacy he had meant to take. This time
he must share. The honesty of the other won his confidence too fully
for him to hold back anything. There was no doubt in his mind that he
read his colleague's state aright.

"A moment, Paul," he said in a low voice, "before we go upstairs," and
he put his hand out, oddly enough meeting Devonham's hand already
stretched to meet it. He drew him aside into a corner of the hall,
while the waves of sound surged round and over them like a sea. "Let
me first tell you," he went on, his voice trembling slightly, "my own
experience." It seemed to him that any moment he must see the birth of
a new form, an outline, a "body" dance across before his very eyes.

"Neither auditory nor visual," murmured Devonham, burning to hear
what was coming, yet at the same time shrinking from it by the laws
of his personality. "Hallucination of any kind, there is absolutely
none. There's nothing transferred from your mind to his. This thing is
real--original."

Fillery tightened his grip a second on the hand he held.

"Paul," he said gravely, yet unable to hide the joy of recent ecstasy
in his eyes, "it is also--new!"

The low syllables seemed borne away and lifted beyond their reach by an
immense vibration that swept softly past them. And so actual was this
invisible wave that behind it lay the trough, the ebb, that awaits, as
in the sea, the next advancing crest. Into this ebb, as it were, both
men dropped simultaneously the same significant syllables: their lips
uttered together:

"N. H." The wave of sound seemed to take their voices and increase
them. It was the older man who added: "Coming into full possession."

The two stood waiting, listening, their heads turned sideways, their
bodies motionless, while the soft rhythmical uproar rose and fell about
them. No sign escaped them for some minutes; no words, it seemed,
occurred to either of them.

Through the transom over the front door stole the grey light of the
late autumn dawn; the hall furniture was visible, chairs, hat-rack,
wooden chests that held the motor rugs. A china bowl filled with
visiting cards gleamed white beside it. Soon the milkman, uttering
his comic earthly cry, would clatter down the area staircase, and the
servants would be up. As yet, however, but for the big soft sound, the
house was perfectly still. This part of it, almost a separate wing, was
completely cut off from the main building. No one had been disturbed.

Fillery moved his head and looked at his companion. The expression of
both face and figure arrested him. He had taken off his dinner jacket,
and the old loose golfing coat he wore hung askew; he had one hand in
a pocket of it, the other thrust deep into his trousers. His glasses
hung down across his crumpled shirt-front, his black tie made an untidy
cross. He looked, thought Fillery, whose sense of the ludicrous became
always specially alert in his gravest moments, like an unhappy curate
who had presided over some strenuous and worrying social gathering
in the local town hall. Only one detail denied this picture--the
expression of something mysterious and awed in the sheet-white face.
He was listening with sharp dislike yet eager interest. His repugnance
betrayed itself in the tightened lips, the set of the angular
shoulders; the panic was written in the glistening eyes. There were
things in his face he could never, never tell. The struggle in him was
natural to his type of mind: he had experienced something himself, and
a personal experience opens new vistas in sympathy and understanding.
But--the experience ran contrary to every tenet of theory and practice
he had ever known. The moment of new birth was painful. This was his
colleague's diagnosis.

Fillery then suddenly realized that the gulf between them was without a
bridge. To tell his own experience became at once utterly impossible.
He saw this clearly. He could not speak of it to his assistant. It was,
after all, incommunicable. The bridge of terms, language, feeling, did
not exist between them. And, again, up flashed for a second his sense
of the comic, this time in an odd touch of memory--Povey's favourite
sentence: "Never argue with the once-born!" Only to older souls was
expression possible.

For the first time then his diagnosis wavered oddly. Why, for
instance, did Paul persist in that curious, watchful stare...?

Devonham, conscious of his chief's eyes and mind upon him, looked up.
Somewhere in his expression was a glare, but nothing revealed his state
of mind better than the fact that he stupidly contradicted himself:

"You're putting all this into him, Edward," a touch of anger, perhaps
of fear, in the intense whispering voice. "The hysteria of the studio
upset him, of course. If you'd left him alone, as you promised, he'd
have always stayed LeVallon. He'd be cured by now." Then, as Fillery
made no reply or comment, he added, but this time only the anxiety of
the doctor in his tone: "Hadn't you better go up to him at once? He's
your patient, not mine, remember!"

The other took his arm. "Not yet," he said quietly. "He's best alone
for the moment." He smiled, and it was the smile that invariably won
him the confidence of even the most obstinate and difficult patient.
He was completely master of himself again. "Besides, Paul," he went on
gently. "I want to hear what you have to tell me. Some of it--if not
all. I want your Report. It is of value. I must have that first, you
know."

They sat on the bottom stair together, while Devonham told briefly what
had happened. He was glad to tell it, too. It was a relief to become
the mere accurate observer again.

"I can summarize it for you in two words," he said: "light and sound.
The sound, at first, seemed wind--wind rising, wind outside. With the
light, was perceptible heat. The two seemed correlated. When the sound
increased, the heat increased too. Then the sound became methodical,
rhythmical--it became almost musical. As it did so the light became
coloured. Both"--he looked across at the ghostly hat-rack in the
hall--"were produced--by him."

"Items, please, Paul. I want an itemized account."

Devonham fumbled in the big pockets of his coat and eventually lit
a cigarette, though he did not in the least want to smoke. That
watchful, penetrating stare persisted, none the less. Amid the anxiety
were items of carelessness that almost seemed assumed.

"Mrs. Soames sent Nurse Robbins to fetch me," he resumed, his voice
harshly, as it seemed, cutting across the waves of pleasant sound that
poured down the empty stairs behind them and filled the hall with
resonant vibrations. "I went in, turned them both out, and closed
the door. The room was filled with a soft, white light, rather pale
in tint, that seemed to emanate from nowhere. I could trace it to
no source. It was equally diffused, I mean, yet a kind of wave-like
vibration ran through it in faint curves and circles. There was a
sound, a sound like wind. A wind was in the room, moaning and sighing
inside the walls--a perfectly natural and ordinary sound, if it had
been outside. The light moved and quivered. It lay in sheets. Its
movement, I noticed, was in direct relation to the wind: the louder
the volume of sound, the greater the movement of the air--the brighter
became the light, and vice versa. I could not take notes at the actual
moment, but my memory"--a slight grimace by way of a smile indicated
that forgetting was impossible--"is accurate, as you know."

Fillery did not interrupt, either by word or gesture.

"The increase of light was accompanied by colour, and the increase of
sound led into a measure--not actual bars, and never melody, but a
distinct measure that involved rhythm. It was musical, as I said. The
colour--I'm coming to that--then took on a very faint tinge of gold
or orange, a little red in it sometimes, flame colour almost. The air
was luminous--it was radiant. At one time I half expected to see fire.
For there was heat as well. Not an unpleasant heat, but a comforting,
stimulating, agreeable heat like--I was going to say, like the heat
of a bright coal fire on a winter's day, but I think the better term
is sunlight. I had an impression this heat must burst presently into
actual flame. It never did so. The sheets of coloured light rose and
fell with the volume of the sound. There were curves and waves and
rising columns like spirals, but anything approaching a definite
outline, form, or shape"--he broke off for a second--"figures," he
announced abruptly, almost challengingly, staring at the white china
bowl in front of him, "I could _not_ swear to."

He turned suddenly and stared at his chief with an expression half
of question, half of challenge; then seemed to change his mind,
shrugging his shoulders a very little. But Fillery made no sign. He
did not answer. He laid one hand, however, upon the banisters, as
though preliminary to getting to his feet. The sound about them had
been gradually growing less, the vibrations were smaller, its waves
perceptibly decreasing.

Devonham finished his account in a lower voice, speaking rapidly, as
though the words burnt his tongue:

"The sound, I had already discovered, issued from himself. He was lying
on his back, the eyes wide open, the expression peaceful, even happy.
The lips were closed. He was humming, continuously humming. Yet the
sound came in some way I cannot describe, and could not examine or
ascertain, from his whole body. I detected no vibration of the body. It
lay half naked, only a corner of the sheet upon it. It lay quite still.
The cause of the light and heat, the cause of the movement of air I
have called wind--I could not ascertain. They came _through_ him, as it
were." A slight shiver ran across his body, noticed by his companion,
but eliciting no comment from him. "I--I took his pulse," concluded
Devonham, sinking his voice now to a whisper, though a very clear one;
"it was very rapid and extraordinarily strong. He seemed entirely
unconscious of my presence. I also"--again the faint shiver was
perceptible--"felt his heart. It was--I have never felt such perfect
action, such power--it was beating like an engine, like an engine. And
the sense of vitality, of life in the room everywhere was--electrical.
I could have sworn it was packed to the walls with--with others."
Devonham never ceased to watch his companion keenly while he spoke.

Fillery then put his first question.

"And the effect upon yourself?" he asked quietly. "I mean--any
emotional disturbance? Anything, for instance, like what you _saw_ in
the Jura forests?" He did not look at his colleague; he stood up; the
sound about them had now ceased almost entirely and only faint, dying
fragments of it reached them. "Roughly speaking," he added, making a
half movement to go upstairs. He understood the inner struggle going
on; he wished to make it easy for him. For the complete account he did
not press him.

Devonham rose too; he walked over to the china bowl, took up a card,
read it and let it fall again. The sun was over the horizon now, and
a pallid light showed objects clearly. It showed the whiteness of the
thin, tired face. He turned and walked slowly back across the hall. The
first cart went clattering noisily down the street. At the same moment
a final sound from the room upstairs came floating down into the chill
early air.

"My interest, of course," began Devonham, his hands in his pockets,
his body rigid, as he looked up into his companion's eyes, "was
very concentrated, my mind intensely active." He paused, then added
cautiously: "I may confess, however--I must admit, that is, a certain
increase of--of--well, a general sense of well-being, let me call it.
The heat, you see. A feeling of peace, if you like it better--beyond
the--fear," he blurted out finally, changing his hands from his coat to
his trouser pockets, as though the new position protected him better
from attack. "Also--I somehow expected--any moment--to see outlines,
forms, something new!" He stared frankly into the eyes of the man who,
from the step above him, returned his gaze with equal frankness. "And
_you_--Edward?" he asked with great suddenness.

"Joy? Could you describe it as joy?" His companion ignored the
reference to new forms. He also ignored the sudden question. "Any
increase of----?"

"Vitality, you want to say. The word joy is meaningless, as you know."

"An intensification of consciousness in any way?"

But Devonham had reached his limit of possible confession. He did not
reply for a moment. He took a step forward and stood beside Fillery on
the stairs. His manner had abruptly changed. It was as though he had
come to a conclusion suddenly. His reply, when it came, was no reply at
all:

"Heat and light are favourable, of course, to life," he remarked. "You
remember Joaquin Mueller: 'the optic nerve, under the action of light,
acts as a stimulus to the organs of the imagination and fancy.'"

Fillery smiled as he took his arm and they went quietly upstairs
together. The quoting was a sign of returning confidence. He said
something to himself about the absence of light, but so low it was
under his breath almost, and even if his companion heard it, he made no
comment: "There was no moon at all to-night till well past three, and
even then her light was of the faintest...."

No sound was now audible. They entered a room that was filled with
silence and with peace. A faint ray of morning sunlight showed the form
of the patient sleeping calmly, the body entirely uncovered. There was
an expression of quiet happiness upon the face whose perfect health
suggested perhaps radiance. But there was a change as well, though
indescribable--there was power. He did not stir as they approached the
bed. The breathing was regular and very deep.

Standing beside him a moment, Fillery sniffed the air, then smiled.
There was a perfume of wild flowers. There was, in spite of the cool
morning air, a pleasant warmth.

"You notice--anything?" he whispered, turning to his colleague.

Devonham likewise sniffed the air. "The window's wide open," was the
low rejoinder. "There are conservatories at the back of every house all
down the row."

And they left the room on tiptoe, closing the door behind them very
softly. Upon Devonham's face lay a curious expression, half anxiety,
half pain.




CHAPTER XXI


Dr. Fillery, lying on a couch in his patient's bedroom, snatched some
four to five hours' sleep, though, if "snatched," it was certainly
enjoyed--a deep, dreamless, reposeful slumber. He woke, refreshed in
mind and body, and the first thing he saw, even before he had time
to stretch a limb or move his head, was two great blue eyes gazing
into his own across the room. They belonged, it first struck him, to
some strange being that had followed him out of sleep--he had not yet
recovered full consciousness and the effects of sleep still hovered;
then an earlier phrase recurred: to some divine great animal.

"N. H.," in his bed in the opposite corner, lay gazing at him. He
returned the gaze. Into the blue eyes came at once a look of happy
recognition, of contentment, almost a smile. Then they closed again in
sleep.

The room was full of morning sunshine. Fillery rose quietly, and
performed his toilet in his own quarters, but on returning after a
hurried breakfast, the patient still slept soundly. He slept on for
hours, he slept the morning through; but for the obvious evidences of
perfect normal health, it might have been a state of coma. The body did
not even change its position once.

He left Devonham in charge, and was on his way to visit some of the
other cases, when Nurse Robbins stood before him. Miss Khilkoff had
"called to inquire after Mr. LeVallon," and was waiting downstairs in
case Dr. Fillery could also see her.

He glanced at her pretty slim figure and delicate complexion, her hair,
fine, plentiful and shiny, her dark eyes with a twinkle in them. She
was an attractive, intelligent, experienced, young woman, tactful too,
and of great use with extra sensitive patients. She was, of course,
already hopelessly in love with her present "case." His "singing,"
so she called it to Mrs. Soames, had excited her "like a glass of
wine--some music makes you feel like that--so that you could love
everybody in the world." She already called him Master.

"Please say I will be down at once," said Dr. Fillery, watching her for
the first time with interest as he remembered these details Paul had
told him. The girl, it now struck him, was intensely alive. There was
a gain, an increase, in her appearance somewhere. He recalled also the
matron's remark--she was not usually loquacious with her nurses--that
"he's no ordinary case, and I've seen a good few, haven't I? The way he
understands animals and flowers alone proves that!"

Dr. Fillery went downstairs.

His first rapid survey of the girl, exhaustive for all its
quickness--he knew her so well--showed him that no outward signs
of excitement were visible. Calm, poised, gentle as ever, the same
generous tenderness in the eyes, the same sweet firmness in the mouth,
the familiar steadiness that was the result of an inner surety--all
were there as though the wild scene of the night before had never been.
Yet all those were heightened. Her beauty had curiously increased.

"Come into my study," he said, taking her hand and leading the way. "We
shan't be disturbed there. Besides, it's ours, isn't it? We mustn't
forget that you are a member of the Firm."

He was aware of her soft beauty invading, penetrating him, aware, too,
somehow, that she was in her most impersonal mood. But for all that,
her nature could not hide itself, nor could signs of a certain, subtle
change she had undergone fail to obtrude themselves. In a single night,
it seemed, she had blossomed into a wondrous ripe maturity; like some
strange flower that opens to the darkness, the bud had burst suddenly
into full, sweet bloom, whose coming only moon and stars had witnessed.
There was moonlight now in her dark mysterious eyes as she glanced at
him; there was the gold of stars in her tender, yet curious smile, as
she answered in her low voice--"Of course, I always _was_ a partner in
the Firm"--there was the grace and rhythm of a wild flower swaying in
the wind, as she passed before him into the quiet room and sank into
his own swinging armchair at the desk. But there was something else as
well.

A detail of his recent Vision slid past his inner sight again while
he watched her.... "I thought--I felt sure--you would come," he said.
He looked at her admiringly, but peace strong in his heart. "The
ordeal," he went on in a curious voice, "would have been too much
for most women, but you"--he smiled, and the sympathy in his voice
increased--"you, I see, have only gained from it. You've mastered,
conquered it. I wonder"--looking away from her almost as if speaking to
himself--"have you wholly understood it?"

He realized vividly in that moment what she, as a young, unmarried
girl, had suffered before the eyes of all those prying eyes and
gossiping tongues. His admiration deepened.

She did not take up his words, however. "I've come to inquire," she
said simply in an even voice, "for father and myself. He wanted to know
if you got home all right, and how Julian LeVallon is." The tone, the
heightened colour in the cheek, as she spoke the name no one had yet
used, explained, partly at least, to the experienced man who listened,
the secret of her sudden blossoming. Also she used her father, though
unconsciously, perhaps. "He was afraid the electricity--the lightning
even--had"--she hesitated, smiled a little, then added, as though she
herself knew otherwise--"done something to him."

Fillery laughed with her then. "As it has done to you," he thought, but
did not speak the words. The need of formula was past. He thanked her,
adding that it was sweet yet right that she had come herself, instead
of writing or telephoning. "And you may set your--your father's mind at
rest, for all goes well. The electricity, of course," he added, on his
own behalf as well as hers, "was--more than most of us could manage.
Electricity explains everything except itself, doesn't it?"

He was inwardly examining her with an intense and accurate observation.
She seemed the same, yet different. The sudden flowering into beauty
was simply enough explained. It was another change he now became more
and more aware of. In this way a ship, grown familiar during the long
voyage, changes on coming into port. The decks and staircases look
different when the vessel lies motionless at the dock. It becomes half
recognizable, half strange. Gone is the old familiarity, gone also
one's own former angle of vision. It is difficult to find one's way
about her. Soon she will set sail again, but in another direction, and
with new passengers using her decks, her corners, hatchways ... telling
their secrets of love and hate with that recklessness the open sea and
sky make easy.... And now with the girl before him--he couldn't quite
find his way about her as of old ... it was the same familiar ship, yet
it was otherwise, and he, a new passenger, acknowledged the freedom of
sea and sky.

"And you--Iraida?" he asked. "It was brave of you to come."

She liked evidently the use of her real name, for she smiled, aware all
the time of his intent observation, aware probably also of his hidden
pain, yet no sign of awkwardness in her; to this man she could talk
openly, or, on the contrary, conceal her thoughts, sure of his tact and
judgment. He would never intrude unwisely.

"It was natural, Edward," she observed frankly in return.

"Yes, I suppose it was. Natural is exactly the right word. You have
perhaps found yourself at last," and again he used her real name,
"Iraida."

"It feels like that," she replied slowly. She paused. "I have found, at
least, something definite that I have to do. I feel that I--must care
for him." Her eyes, as she said it, were untroubled.

The well-known Nayan flashed back a moment in the words; he
recognized--to use his simile--a familiar corner of the deck where he
had sat and talked for hours beneath the quiet stars--to someone who
understood, yet remained ever impersonal. And the person he talked with
came over suddenly and stood beside him and took his hand between her
own soft gloved ones:

"You told me, Edward, he would need a woman to help him. That's what
you mean by 'natural'--isn't it? And I am she, perhaps."

"I think you are," came in a level tone.

"I know it," she said suddenly, both her eyes looking down upon his
face. "Yes, I suppose I know it."

"Because _you_--need him," his voice, equally secure, made answer.

Still keeping his hand tight between her own, her dark eyes still
searching his, she made no sign that his blunt statement was accepted,
much less admitted. Instead she asked a question he was not prepared
for: "You would like that, Edward? You wish it?"

She was so close against his chair that her fur-trimmed coat brushed
his shoulder; yet, though with eyes and touch and physical presence she
was so near, he felt that she herself had gone far, far away into some
other place. He drew his hand free. "Iraida," he said quietly, "I wish
the best--for him--and for you. And I believe this is the best--for him
and you." He put his patient first. He was aware that the girl, for all
her outer calmness, trembled.

"It is," she said, her voice as quiet as his own; and after a moment's
hesitation, she went back to her seat again. "If you think I can be of
use," she added. "I'm ready."

A little pause fell between them, during which Dr. Fillery touched an
electric bell beside his chair. Nurse Robbins appeared with what seemed
miraculous swiftness. "Still sleeping quietly, sir, and pulse normal
again," she replied in answer to a question, then vanished as suddenly
as she had come. He looked into the girl's eyes across the room. "A
competent, reliable nurse," he remarked, "and, as you saw, a pretty
woman." He glanced out of the window. "She is unmarried." He mentioned
it apparently to the sky.

The quick mind took in his meaning instantly. "All women will be drawn
to him irresistibly, of course," she said. "But it is not _that_."

"No, no, of course it is not that," he agreed at once. "I should like
you to see him, though not, however, just yet----" He went on after a
moment's reflection, and speaking slowly: "I should like you to wait
a little. It's best. There _has_ been a--a certain disturbance in his
being----"

"It's his first experience," she began, "of beauty----"

"Of beauty in women, yes," he finished for her. "It is. We must avoid
anything in the nature of a violent shock----"

"He has asked for me?" she interrupted again, in her quiet way.

He shook his head. "And we cannot be sure that it was you--as _you_--he
sought and is affected by. The call he hears is, perhaps, hardly the
call that sounds in most men's ears, I mean."

The hint of warning guidance was audible in his voice, as well as
visible in his eyes and manner. The laughter they both betrayed, a
grave and curious laughter perhaps, was brief, yet enough to conceal
stranger emotions that rose like dumb, gazing figures almost before
their eyes. Yet if she knew inner turmoil, emotion of any troubling
sort, she concealed it perfectly.

"I am glad," the girl said presently. "Oh, I am really glad. I think I
understand, Edward." And, even while he sat silent for a bit, watching
her with an ever-growing admiration that at the same time marvelled,
he saw the wonder of great questions riding through her face. The
recollection of what she had suffered publicly in the Studio a few
hours before came into his mind again. In these questions, perhaps, lay
the only signs of the hidden storm below the surface.

"Are there--are there such things as Nature-Beings, Edward?" she asked
abruptly. "We know this is his first experience. Are there then----?"

He was prepared a little for this kind of question by her eyes. "We
have no evidence, of course," he replied; "not a scrap of evidence for
anything of the sort. There are people, however, so close to Nature, so
intimate with her, that we may say they are--strangely, inexplicably
akin."

"Has he a soul--a human soul like ours?" she asked point blank.

"He is perhaps--not--quite--like us. That may be your task, Iraida," he
added enigmatically. He watched her more closely than she knew.

She appeared to ponder his words for a few minutes; then she asked
abruptly: "And when do you think I ought to come and see him? You will
let me know?"

"I will let you know. A few days perhaps, perhaps a week, perhaps
longer. Some education, I think, is necessary first." He gazed at her
thoughtfully, and she returned his look, her dark eyes filled with the
wonder that was both of a child and of a woman, and yet with a security
of something that was of neither. "It will be a--a great effort to
you," he ventured with significant and sympathetic understanding,
"after--what happened. It is brave and generous of you----" He broke
off.

She nodded, but at once afterwards shook her head. She rose then to go,
but Dr. Fillery stopped her. He rose too.

"Nayan, I now want _your_ help," he said with more emotion than he had
yet shown. "My responsibility, as you may guess, is not light--and----"

"And he is in your sole charge, you mean." She had willingly resumed
her seat, and made herself comfortable with a cushion he arranged for
her. He was aware chiefly of her eyes, for in them glowed light and
fire he had never seen there before--but still in their depths.

"Well--yes, partly," he replied, lighting a cigarette, "though Paul is
ready with help and sympathy whenever needed. But the charge, as you
call it, is not mine alone: it is ours."

"Ours!" She started, though almost imperceptibly, as she repeated his
word.

"Subconsciously," he said in a firm voice, "we three are similar. We
are together. We obey half instinctively the unknown laws of"--he
hesitated a moment--"of some unknown state of being." He added then a
singular sentence, though so low it seemed almost to himself: "Had we
been man and wife, Iraida, our child must have been--like him."

"Yes," she said, leaning forward a little in her chair, increased
warmth, yet no blush, upon her skin. "Yes, Edward, we three are somehow
together in this, aren't we? Oh, I feel it. It pours over me like a
great wind, a wind with heat in it." Her hands clasped her knee, as
they gazed at one another for a moment's silence. "I feel it," she
repeated presently. "I'm sure of it, quite sure."

She stretched out a spirit hand, as it were, for an instant across the
impersonal barrier between them, but he did not take it, pretending he
did not see it.

"Ours, Nayan," he emphasized, again using the name that belonged to
everyone. "Therefore, you see, I want you to tell me--if you will--what
you felt, experienced, perceived--in the Studio last night." After
watching her a little, he qualified: "Another day, if you would like
to think it over. But some time, without fail. For my part, I will
confess--though I think you already know it--that I brought him there
on purpose----"

"To see my effect upon him, Edward."

"But in _his_ interest, and in the interest of my possible future
treatment. His effect upon yourself was not my motive. You believe
that."

"I know, I know. And I will tell you gladly. Indeed, I want to."

He was aware, as she said it, that it would be a satisfaction to
her to talk; she would welcome the relief of confession; she could
speak to him as doctor now, as professional man, as healer, and this,
too, without betraying the impersonal attitude she evidently wore
and had adopted possibly--he wondered?--in self-protection. "Tell me
exactly what it is you would like to know, please, Edward," she added,
and instinctively moved to the sofa, so that he might occupy the
professional swinging chair at the desk.

"What you saw, Nayan," he began, accepting the change of position
without comment, because he knew it helped her. "What you saw is of
value, I think, first."

He had all his usual self-control again, for he was now on his
throne, his seat of power; his inner attitude changed subtly; he was
examining two patients--the girl and himself. She sat before him
demure, obedient, honest, very sweet but very strong; if her perfume
reached him he did not notice it, the appeal of her loveliness went
past him, he did not see her eyes. He had a very comely and intelligent
young woman facing him, and the glow, as it were, of an intense inner
activity, strongly suppressed, was the chief quality in her that he
noted. But his new attitude made other things, too, stand out sharply:
he realized there was confusion in her own mind and heart. Her being
was not wholly at one with itself. This impersonal rôle meant safety
until she was sure of herself; and so far she had been entirely and
admirably non-committal. No girl, he remembered, could look back upon
what she had experienced in the Studio, upon what she had herself
said and done, before a crowd of onlookers too, without deep feelings
of a mixed and even violent kind. That scene with a young man she had
never seen before must bring painful memories; if it was love at first
sight the memories must be more painful still. But was it a case of
this sudden, rapturous love? What, indeed, were her feelings? What at
any rate was her dominant feeling? She had felt his appeal beyond all
question, but was it as Nayan or as Iraida that she felt it?

She was non-committal and impersonal, conscious that therein safety
lay--until, having become one with herself, harmonious, she could
feel absolutely sure. One hint only had she dropped--it was Nayan
speaking--that her mothering, maternal instinct was needed and that she
must obey its prompting. She must "care" for him....

Dr. Fillery, meanwhile, though he might easily have probed and made
discoveries without her knowing that he did so, was not the man to use
his powers now. Unless she gave of her own free will, he would not ask.
He would close eyes and ears even to any chance betrayal or unconscious
revelation.

"When you first looked in, for instance? You had just come in from
the street, I think. You opened the door on your way upstairs. Do you
remember?"

She remembered perfectly. "I wanted to see who was there. You, I think,
were chiefly in my thoughts--I was wondering if you had come." Her
voice was even, her eyes quite steady; she chose her next words slowly:
"I saw--to my intense surprise--a figure of light."

"Shining, you mean? A shining figure?"

She nodded her head, as one little hand put back a straying wisp of
dark hair from her forehead. "A figure like flame," she agreed. "I
saw it quite clearly. I saw everything else quite clearly too--the
inner room, various people standing about, the piano, the thick smoke,
everything as usual. I saw you. You were in the big outer room beyond,
but your face was very distinct. You were staring--staring straight at
me."

"True," put in Dr. Fillery; "I saw you in the doorway plainly."

"In the foreground, by itself apart somehow, though surrounded
by people, was this shining, radiant outline. I thought it was a
Vision--the first thing of that sort I had ever seen in my life."

"That was your very first impression--even before you had time to
think?"

"Yes."

"It struck you as unusual?"

"I cannot say more than that. I knew by the light it was unusual. Then
it moved--talking to Povey or Kempster or someone--and I realized in
a flash who it was. I knew it must be your friend, the man you had
promised to bring--Ju----"

"And then----?" he asked quickly, before she could pronounce the name.

"And then----"

She stopped, and her eyes looked away from him, not in the sense
that they moved but that their focus changed as though she looked at
something else, at something within herself, no longer, therefore,
at the face in front of her. He waited; he understood that she was
searching among deep, strange, seething memories; he let her search;
and, watching closely, he presently saw the sight return into her eyes
from its inward plunge.

"And when you knew who it was," he asked very quietly, "were you still
surprised? Did he look as you expected him to look, for instance?"

"I had expected nothing, you see, Edward, because I had not been
consciously thinking about his coming. No mental picture was present
in me at all. But the moment I realized who it was, the light seemed
to go--I just saw a young man standing there, with his head turned
sideways to me. The light, I suppose, lasted for a second only--that
first second. As to how he looked? Well, he looked, not only bigger--he
_is_ bigger than most men," she went on, "but he looked"--her voice
hushed instinctively a little on the adjective--"different."

Her companion made a gesture of agreement, waiting in silence for what
was to follow.

"He looked so extraordinary, so wonderful," she resumed, gazing
steadily into his eyes, "that I--I can hardly put it into words,
Edward, unless I use childish language." She broke off and sighed,
and something, he fancied, in her wavered for a second, though it was
certainly neither the voice nor the eyes. A faint trembling again
perhaps ran through her body. Her account was so deliberately truthful
that it impressed him more than he quite understood. He was aware of
pathos in her, of some vague trouble very poignant yet inexplicable. A
breath of awe, it seemed, entered the room and moved between them.

"The childish words are probably the best, the right ones," he told her
gently.

"An angel," she said instantly in a hushed tone, "I thought of an
angel. There is no other word I can find. But somehow a helpless one.
An angel--out of place."

He looked hard at her, his manner encouraging though grave; he said no
word; he did not smile.

"Someone not of this earth quite," she added. "Not a man, at any rate."

Still more gently, he then asked her what she felt.

"At first I couldn't move," she went on, her voice normal again. "I
must have stood there ten minutes fully, perhaps longer"--her listener
did not correct the statement--"when I suddenly recovered and looked
about for you, Edward, but could not see you. I needed you, but could
not find you. I remember feeling somehow that I had lost you. I tried
to call for you--in my heart. There was no answer.... Then--then I
closed the door quietly and went upstairs to change from my street
clothes."

She paused and passed a hand slowly across her forehead. Dr. Fillery
asked casually a curious question:

"Do you remember _how_ you got upstairs, Nayan?"

Her hand dropped instantly; she started. "It's very odd you should ask
me that, Edward," she said, gazing at him with a slightly rising colour
in her face, an increase of fire glowing in her eyes; "very odd indeed.
I was just trying to think how I could describe it to you. No. Actually
I do not remember how I got upstairs. All I know is--I was suddenly in
my room." A new intensity appeared in voice and manner. "It seemed to
me I flew--or that--something--carried me."

"Yes, Nayan, yes. It's quite natural you should have felt like that."

"Is it? I remember so little of what I actually felt. I wonder--I
wonder," she went on softly, with an air almost of talking to herself,
"if it will ever come back again--what I felt then----"

"Such moments of subliminal excitement," Dr. Fillery reminded her
gently, "have the effect of obliterating memory sometimes----"

"Excitement," she caught him up. "Yes, I suppose it was excitement. But
it was more, much more, than that. Stimulated--I think that's the word
really. I felt caught away somewhere, caught away, caught up--as if
into the rest of myself--into the whole of myself. I became vast"--she
smiled curiously--"if you know what I mean--in several places at once,
perhaps, is better. It was an immense feeling--no, I mean a feeling of
immensity----"

"Happy?" His voice was low.

Her eyes answered even before her words, as the memory came back a
little in response to his cautious suggestion.

"A new feeling altogether," she replied, returning his clear gaze
with her frank, innocent eyes that had grown still more brilliant.
"A feeling I have never known before." She talked more rapidly now,
leaning forward a little in her chair. "I felt in the open air somehow,
with flowers, trees, hot burning sunshine and sweet winds rushing to
and fro. It was something bigger than happiness--a sort of intoxicating
joy, I think. It was liberty, but of an enormous spiritual kind. I
wanted to dance--I believe I did dance--yes, I'm sure I did, and with
hardly anything on my body. I wanted to sing--I sang downstairs, of
course----"

"I heard," he put in briefly. He did not add that she had never sung
like that before.

"The moment I came into the room, yes, I remember I went straight
to the piano without a word to anyone." She reflected a moment. "I
suppose I had to. There was something new in me I could only express by
music--rhythm, that is, not language."

"It was natural," Dr. Fillery said again. "Quite natural, I think."

"Yes, Edward, I suppose it was," she answered, then sank back in her
chair, as though she had told him all there was to tell.

Dr. Fillery smoked in silence for a few minutes, then rose and touched
the bell as before, and, as before, Nurse Robbins appeared with the
same miraculous speed. There was a brief colloquy at the door; the
woman was gone again, and the doctor turned back into the room with
a look of satisfaction on his face. All, apparently, was going well
upstairs. He did not sit down, however; he stood looking out of the
window at the drab wintry sky of motionless clouds, his back to his
companion. It was midday, but the light, while making all things
visible, was not light; there was no shine, no touch of radiance,
no hint of sparkle beneath the canopy of sullen cloud. The English
winter's day was visible, no more than that. Yet it was not the English
day, nor the clouds, nor the bleak dead atmosphere he looked at. In a
single second his sight travelled far, far away, covering an enormous
interval in space and time, in condition too. He saw a radiant world of
sun-drenched flowers "tossing with random airs of an unearthly wind";
he saw a foam of forest leaves shaking and dancing against a deep blue
sky; he say a valley whose streams and emerald turf knew not the touch
of human feet.... The familiar symbols he saw, but inflamed with new
meaning.

"Thank you, Edward, thank you"--she was just behind him, her hands upon
his shoulders. "You understand everything in the world!" she added,
"and out of it," but too low for him to hear.

He came back with an effort, turning towards her. They were standing
level now and very close, eyes looking into eyes. He felt her breath
upon his face, her perfume rose about him, her lips were moving just in
front of him--yet, for a second, he did not know who she was. It was as
though _she_ had not come with him out of that valley, not come back
with him.... An insatiable longing seized him--to return and find her,
stay with her. The ache of an intolerable yearning was in his heart,
yet a sudden flash of understanding that brought a bigger, almost an
unearthly joy in its train. At the call of some service, some duty,
some help to be rendered to humanity, the three of them together--he,
"N. H.," the girl--were in temporary exile from their rightful home.
The scent of wild flowers rose about him. He suddenly remembered,
recognized, and gave a little start. He had left her behind in the
valley--Iraida; it was Nayan who now stood before him.

He uttered a dry little laugh. "You startled me, Nayan. I was thinking.
I didn't hear you." She had just thanked him for something--oh,
yes--because he had left her alone for a moment, giving her time to
collect herself after the long cross-examination.

He took both her hands in his.

"_Our_ patient then--isn't it?" he asked in a firm voice, looking deep
into her luminous eyes. He saw no fire in them now.

"I'll do all I can, Edward."

She returned the pressure of his hands. His keen insight, operating
in spite of himself, had read her clearly. It was mother, child and
woman he had always known. The three, however, were already in process
of disentanglement. For the first time during their long acquaintance,
what now stood so close before him was--the woman. Yet behind the woman
like an enveloping shadow stood the mother too. And behind both, again,
stood another wild, gigantic, lovely possibility. Was it, then, the
child that he had left playing in the radiant valley?... The child, he
knew, was his always, always, even if the woman was another's.... He
laughed softly. These, after all, were but transitory states in human,
earthly evolution, concerned with play, with a production of bodies and
so forth....

He had lost himself in her deep eyes. Her gaze lay all over him, over
his entire being, like a warm soft covering that blessed and healed.
She was so close that it seemed he drew her breath in with his own. She
made a movement then, a tiny gesture. He let go the hands his own had
held so long. He turned from the window and from her. He was trembling.

"What came later," he resumed in his calm, almost in his professional
voice, "you probably do not remember?" He went towards his desk. "We
need not talk about that. No doubt, in your mind, it all remains a
blurred impression----"

She interrupted, following him across the room. "What happened,
Edward," she said very quietly in her lowest tone, "_I know_. It
was all told to me. But my memory, as you say, is so faint as to be
worthless really. What I do remember is this"--she tapped her open
palm with two fingers slowly, as she spoke the words--"light, heat, a
smell of flowers and a rushing wind that lifted me into some kind of
exhilarating liberty where I felt--the intense joy of knowing myself
somehow free--and greater, oh, far greater--than I am--now." Then she
suddenly whispered again too low for him to catch--"angelic." A smile,
as of glory, rippled across her face.

His voice, coming quickly, was cool, its tone measured:

"And you will come to see him the moment I let you know," he
interrupted abruptly. "It may be a few days, it may be a week. The
instant it seems wise----" He was entirely practical again.

She went to the door with him. "I'll come, of course," she answered, as
he opened the door.

"I'll let myself out, Edward--please. I know the way. There's no good
being a partner if one doesn't know the way out----" She laughed.

"And in, remember!" he called down the little passage after her, as,
with a smile and a wave of the hand, she was gone.

He went back to his desk, drew a piece of paper towards him, and jotted
a few notes down in briefest fashion. The expression on his rugged face
was enigmatical perhaps, but the sternness at least was clear to read,
and it was this, combining with an extraordinary tenderness, that drew
out its nobility:

"Intensification of consciousness, involving increased activity of
every centre; hearing, sight, touch and smell, all affected. Slight
exteriorization of consciousness also took place. No signs of split or
divided personality, but an increase of coherence rather. The central
self active--aware of greater powers in time and space, hence sense
of joy, heat, light, sound, motion. Distinct subliminal up-rush,
followed by customary loss of memory later. Her _whole_ being, together
with neglected tracts as yet untouched by experience--her _entire_
being--reached simultaneously. Knew herself for the first time a
woman--but something more as well. Unearthly complex, visible.

"Appeal made direct to subconscious self. Unfavourable reactions--none.
Favourable reactions--increased physical and mental strength...."

He laid down his pencil as with a gesture of impatience at its
uselessness, and sat back in the chair, thinking.

The effect "N. H." had upon other people was here again confirmed.
That, at least, seemed reasonably clear. Vitality was increased; heart
and mind caught up an extra gear; thought leaped, if extravagantly,
towards speculation; emotion deepened, if ecstatically, towards
belief. All the normal reactions of the system were speeded up and
strengthened. Consciousness was intensified.

More than this--with some it was extended, and subliminal powers were
set free. In his own experience this had been the case; the sight,
hearing, even a mild degree of divination, had opened in his being. It
had, similarly, taken place with Devonham, an unlikely subject, who
fought against acknowledging it. Father Collins, too, he suspected--he
recalled his behaviour and strange language--had known also a temporary
extension of faculty outside the normal field. He remembered, again,
the Customs official, Charing Cross Station, and a dozen other minor
instances.... Indications as yet were slight, he realized, but they
were valuable.

Such abnormal experiences, moreover, each one interpreted,
respectively, in the terms of his own individual being, of his own
temperament, his own personal shibboleths. The law governing unusual
experience operated invariably.

Was not his own particular "vision" easily explained? It might indeed,
had it happened earlier, have found a place in his own book of Advanced
Psychology. He reflected rapidly: He believed the industrial system lay
at the root of Civilization's crumbling, and that man must return to
Nature--therefore his yearnings dramatized themselves in personified
representations of the beauty of Nature.

He could trace every detail of his Vision to some intense but
unrealized yearning, to some deep hope, desire, dream, as yet
unfulfilled. Always these yearnings and wishes unfulfilled!

Colour, form and sound again--he used them one and all in his treatment
of special cases, and felt hurt by the ignorant scoffing and denial of
his brother doctors. Hence their present dramatization.

His immense belief, again, in the results upon the Race when once the
subliminal powers should have reached the stage where they could be
used at will for practical purposes--this, in its turn, led him to
hope, perhaps to believe, that this strange "Case" might prove to be
some fabulous bright messenger who brought glad tidings.... All, all
was explicable enough!

A smile stole over his face; he began to laugh quietly to himself....

Yes, he could explain all, trace all to something or other in his
being, yet--he knew that the real explanation ... well--his cleverest
intellectual explanation and analysis were worthless after all. For
here lay something utterly beyond his knowledge and experience....

The note of another searcher recurred to him.

"Each human being has within himself that restless creative phantasy
which is ever engaged in assuaging the harshness of reality.... Whoever
gives himself unsparingly and carefully to self-observation will
realize that there dwells within him something which would gladly hide
up and cover all that is difficult and questionable in life, and thus
procure an easy and free path. Insanity grants the upper hand to this
something. When once it is uppermost, reality is more or less quickly
driven out."

But he knew quite well that although he belonged to what he called the
"Unstable," the "something" which Jung referred to had by no means
obtained "the upper hand." The vista opening to his inner sight led
towards a new reality.... Ah! If he could only persuade Paul Devonham
to see what _he_ saw...!




CHAPTER XXII


Lady Gleeson had heard from a Promethean what had transpired in the
studio after she had left, and her interest was immensely stimulated.
These details she had not known when she had driven her hero home, and
had felt so strangely drawn to him that she had kissed him in front of
Dr. Fillery as though she caressed a prisoner under the eyes of the
warder.

She made her little plans accordingly. It was some days, however,
before they bore fruit. The telephone at last rang. It was Dr. Fillery.
The nerves in her quivered with anticipation.

Devonham, it appeared, had been away, and her "kind letters and
presents," he regretted to find, had remained unanswered and
unacknowledged. Mr. LeVallon had been in the country, too, with his
colleague, and letters had not been forwarded. Oh, it would "do him
good to see people." It would be delightful if she could spare a moment
to look in. Perhaps for a cup of tea to-morrow? No, to-morrow she
was engaged. The next day then. The next day it was. In the morning
arrived a brief letter from Mr. LeVallon himself: "You will come to tea
to-morrow. I thank you.--JULIAN LeVALLON."

Yet there was something both in Dr. Fillery's voice, as in this
enigmatic letter, that she did not like. She felt puzzled somewhere.
The excitement of a novel intrigue with this unusual youth, none the
less, was stimulating. She decided to go to tea. She put off a couple
of engagements in order to be free.

A servant let her in. She went upstairs. There was no sign of Dr.
Fillery nor, thank heaven, of Devonham either. Tea, she saw, was laid
for two in the private sitting-room. LeVallon, seated in an arm-chair
by the open window, looked "magnificent and overpowering," as she
called it. He rose at once to greet her. "Thank you," he said in his
great voice. "I am glad to see you." He said it perfectly, as though it
had been taught him. He took her hand. Her ravishing smile, perhaps, he
did not notice. His face, at any rate, was grave.

His height, his broad shoulders, his inexperienced eyes and manner
again delighted Lady Gleeson.

The effect upon her receptive temperament, at any rate, was
instantaneous. That he showed no cordiality, did not smile, and that
his manner was constrained, meant nothing to her--or meant what she
wished it to mean. He was somewhat overcome, of course, she reflected,
that she was here at all. She began at once. Sitting composedly on the
edge of the table, so that her pretty silk stockings were visible to
the extent she thought just right, she dangled her slim legs and looked
him straight in the eyes. She was full of confidence. Her attitude said
plainly: "I'm taking a lot of trouble, but you're worth it."

"Mr. LeVallon," she purred in a teasing yet determined voice, "why do
you ignore me?" There was an air of finality about the words. She meant
to know.

LeVallon met her eyes with a look of puzzled surprise, but did not
answer. He stood in front of her. He looked really magnificent, a
perfect study of the athlete in repose. He might have been a fine Greek
statue.

"Why," she repeated, her lip quivering slightly, "do you ignore me? I
want the truth," she added. She was delighted to see how taken aback he
was. "You don't dislike me." It was not a question.

Into his eyes stole an expression she could not exactly fathom. She
judged, however, that he felt awkward, foolish. Her interest doubtless
robbed him of any _savoir faire_ he might possess. This talk face to
face was a little too much for any young man, but for a simple country
youth it was, of course, more than disconcerting.

"I'm Lady Gleeson," she informed him, smiling precisely in the way
she knew had troubled so many other men. "Angela," she added softly.
"You've had my books and flowers and letters. Yet you continue to
ignore me. Why, please?" With a different smile and a pathetic,
childish, voice: "Have I offended you somehow? Do I displease you?"

LeVallon stared at her as though he was not quite certain who she
actually was, yet as though he ought to know, and that her words now
reminded him. He stared at her with what she called his "awkward and
confused" expression, but which Fillery, had he been present, would
have recognized as due to his desire to help a pitiful and hungry
creature--that, in a word, his instinct for service had been a little
stirred.

The scene was certainly curious and unusual.

LeVallon, with his great strength and dignity, yet something tender,
pathetic in his bearing, stood staring at her. Lady Gleeson, brimming
with a sense of easy victory, sat on the table-edge, her pretty legs
well forward, knowing herself divinely gowned. She had her victim,
surely, at a disadvantage. She felt at the same time a faint uneasiness
she could not understand. She concealed it, however.

"I suffer here," he said suddenly in a quiet tone.

She gave a start. It was the phrase he had used before. She thrilled.
She hitched her skirt a fraction higher.

"Julian, poor boy," she said--then stared at him. "How innocent you
are!" She said it with apparent impulse, though her little frenzied
mind was busy calculating. There came a pause. He said nothing. He was,
apparently, quite innocent, extraordinarily, exasperatingly innocent.

In a low voice, smiling shyly, she added--as though it cost her a great
effort:

"You do not recognize what is yours."

"You are sacred!" he replied with startling directness, as though he
suddenly understood, yet was stupidly perplexed. "You already have your
man."

Lady Gleeson gulped down a spasm of laughter. How slow these countrymen
could be! Yet she must not shock him. He was suffering, besides. This
yokel from the woods and mountains needed a little coaxing. It was
natural enough. She must explain and teach, it seemed. Well--he was
worth the trouble. His beauty was mastering her already. She loved, in
particular, his innocence, his shyness, his obvious respect. She almost
felt herself a magnanimous woman.

"My man!" she mentioned. "Oh, he's finished with me long ago. He's
bored. He has gone elsewhere. I am alone"--she added with an impromptu
inspiration--"and free to choose."

"It must be pain and loneliness to you."

LeVallon looked, she thought, embarrassed. He was struggling with
himself, of course. She left the table and came up close to him. She
stood on tiptoe, so that her breath might touch his face. Her eyes
shone with fire. Her voice trembled a little. It was very low.

"I choose--_you_," she whispered. She cast down her shining eyes. Her
lips took on a prim, inviting turn. She knew she was irresistible like
that. She stood back a step, as if expecting some tumultuous onslaught.
She waited.

But the onslaught did not come. LeVallon, towering above her, merely
stared. His arms hung motionless. There was, indeed, expression in his
face, but it was not the expression that she expected, longed for,
deemed her due. It puzzled her, as something entirely new.

"Me!" he repeated, in an even tone. He gazed at her in a peculiar way.
Was it appraisement? Was it halting wonder at his marvellous good
fortune? Was it that he hesitated, judging her? He seemed, she thought
once for an instant, curiously indifferent. Something in his voice
startled her.

The moment's pause, at any rate, was afflicting. Her spirit burned
within her. Only her supreme belief in herself prevented a premature
explosion. Yet something troubled her as well. A tremor ran through
her. LeVallon, she remembered, was--LeVallon.

His own thought and feeling lay hidden from her blunt perception since
she read no signs unless they were painfully obvious. But in his
mind--in his feeling, rather, since he did not think--ran evidently
the sudden knowledge of what her meaning was. He understood. But also,
perhaps he remembered what Fillery had told him.

For a long time he kept silent, the emotions in him apparently at
grips. Was he suddenly going to carry her away as he had done to that
"little Russian poseuse"? She watched him. He was intensely busy with
what occupied his mind, for though he did not speak, his lips were
moving. She watched him, impatience and wonder in her, impatience
at his slowness, wonder as to what he would do and say when at last
his simple mind had decided. And again the odd touch of fear stole
over her. Something warned her. This young man thrilled her, but he
certainly was strange. This was, indeed, a new experience. Whatever
was he thinking about? What in the world was he going to say? His lips
were still moving. There was a light in his face. She imagined the very
words, could almost read them, hear them. There! Then she heard them,
heard some at any rate distinctly: "You are an animal. Yet you walk
upright...."

The scene that followed went like lightning.

Before Lady Gleeson could move or speak, however, he also said another
thing that for one pulsing second, and for the first time in her life,
made her own utter worthlessness become appallingly clear to her.
It explained the touch of fear. Even her one true thing, her animal
passion, was a trumpery affair:

"There is nothing in you I can work with," he said with gentle, pitying
sympathy. "Nothing I can use."

Then Lady Gleeson blazed. Vanity instantly restored self-confidence. It
seemed impossible to believe her ears.

What had he done? What had he said that caused the explosion? He
watched her abrupt, spasmodic movements with amazement. They were so
ugly, so unrhythmical. Their violence was so wasteful.

"You insult me!" she cried, making these violent movements of her whole
body that, to him, were unintelligible. "How dare you? You----" The
breath choked her.

"Cad," he helped her, so suddenly that another mind not far away might
almost have dropped the word purposely into his own. "I am so pained,"
he added, "so pained." He gazed at her as though he longed to help.
"For you, I know, are valuable to him who holds you sacred--to--your
husband."

Lady Gleeson simply could not credit her ears. This neat, though
unintentional, way of transferring the epithet to her who deserved it,
left her speechless. Her fury increased with her inability to express
it. She could have struck him, killed him on the spot. Her face changed
from white to crimson like some toy with a trick of light inside it.
She seemed to emit sparks. She was transfixed. And the shiver that ran
through her was, perhaps, for once, both sexual and spiritual at once.

"You insult me," she cried again helplessly. "You insult me!"

"If there was something in you I could work with--help----" he began,
his face showing a tender sympathy that enraged her even more. He
started suddenly, looking closer into her blazing eyes. "Ah," he said
quickly below his breath, "the fire--the little fire!" His expression
altered. But Lady Gleeson, full of her grievance, did not catch the
words, it seemed.

"--In my tenderest, my most womanly feelings," she choked on, yet
noticing the altered expression on his face. "How _dare you_?" Her
voice became shrill and staccato. Then suddenly--mistaking the look
in his eyes for shame--she added: "You shall apologize. You shall
apologize at once!" She screamed the words. They were the only ones
that her outraged feelings found.

"You show yourself, my fire," he was saying softly in his deep resonant
voice. "Oh, I see and worship now; I understand a little."

His look astonished her even in the middle of her anger--the pity,
kindness, gentleness in it. The bewilderment she did not notice. It was
the evident desire to be of service to her, to help and comfort, that
infuriated her. The superiority was more than she could stand.

"And on your knees," she yelped; "on your knees, too!"

Drawing herself up, she pointed to the carpet with an air of some
tragedy queen to whom a lost self-respect came slowly back. "Down
there!" she added, as the gleaming buckle on her shoe indicated the
spot. She did not forget to show her pretty stockings as well.

The picture was comic in the extreme, yet with a pathetic twist about
it that, had she possessed a single grain of humour, must have made
her feel foolish and shamed until she died, for his kneeling position
rendered her insignificance so obvious it was painful in the extreme.
LeVallon clasped his hands; his face, wearing a dignity and tenderness
that emphasized its singular innocence and beauty, gazed up into her
trivial prettiness, as she sat on the edge of the table behind her,
glaring down at him with angry but still hungry eyes.

"I should have helped and worshipped," his deep voice thrilled. "I am
ashamed. Always--you are sacred, wonderful. I did not recognize your
presence calling me. I did not hear nor understand. I am ashamed."

The strange words she did not comprehend, even if she heard them
properly. For one moment she knew a dreadful feeling that they were
not addressed to her at all, but the sense of returning triumph, the
burning desire to extract from him the last ounce of humiliation, to
make him suffer as much as in her power lay, these emotions deadened
any perceptions of a subtler kind. He was kneeling at her feet,
stammering his abject apology, and the sight was wine and food to her.
Though she could have crushed him with her foot, she could equally
have flung herself in utter abandonment before his glorious crouching
strength. She adored the scene. He looked magnificent on his knees. He
was. She believed she, too, looked magnificent.

"You apologize to me," she said in a trembling voice, tense with
mingled passions.

"Oh, with what sadness for my mistake you cannot know," was his strange
reply. His voice rang with sincerity, his eyes held a yearning that
almost lent him radiance. Yet it was the sense of power he gave that
thrilled Lady Gleeson most. For she could not understand it. Again a
passing hint of something remote, incalculable, touched her sense of
awe. She shivered slightly. LeVallon did not move.

Appeased, yet puzzled, she lowered her face, now pale and intense with
eagerness, towards his own, hardly conscious that she did so, while the
faint idea again went past her that he addressed his astonishing words
elsewhere. Blind vanity at once dismissed the notion, though the shock
of its brief disthroning had been painful. She found satisfaction for
her wounded soul. A man who had scorned her, now squirmed before her
beauty on his knees, desiring her--but too late.

"You have _some_ manhood, after all!" she exclaimed, still fierce, the
upper lip just revealing the shining little teeth. Her power at last
had touched him. He suffered. And she was glad.

"I worship," he repeated, looking through her this time, if not
actually past her. "You are sacred, the source of all my life and
power." His pain, his worship, the aching passion in him made her
forget the insult. Upon that face upturned so close to hers, she now
breathed softly.

"I'll try," she said more calmly. "I'll try and forgive you--just this
once." The suffering in his eyes, so close against her own, dawned
more and more on her. "There, now," she added impulsively, "perhaps I
will forgive you--altogether!"

It was a moment of immense and queenly generosity. She felt sublime.

LeVallon, however, made no rejoinder; one might have thought he had not
heard; only his head sank lower a little before her.

She had him at her mercy now; the rapt and wonderful expression in
his eyes delighted her. She bent slightly nearer and made as though
to kiss him, when a new idea flashed suddenly through her mind. This
forgiveness was a shade too quick, too easy. Oh, she knew men. She was
not without experience.

She acted with instant decision upon her new idea, as though delay
might tempt her to yield too soon. She straightened up with a sudden
jerk, touched his cheek with her hand, then, with a swinging swish of
her skirts, but without a single further word, she swept across the
room. She went out, throwing him a last glance just before she closed
the door. At his kneeling figure and upturned face she flung this last
glance of murderous fascination.

But LeVallon did not move or turn his head; he made no sign; his
attitude remained precisely as before, face upturned, hands clasped,
his expression rapt and grave as ever. His voice continued:

"I worship you for ever. I did not know you in that little shape. O
wondrous central fire, teach me to be aware of you with awe, with joy,
with love, even in the smallest things. O perfect flame behind all
form...."

For a long time his deep tones poured their resonant vibration through
the room. There came an answering music, low, faint, continuous, a
long, deep rhythm running in it. There was a scent of flowers, of open
space, a fragrance of a mountain top. The sounds, the perfume, the
touch of cool refreshing wind rose round him, increasing with every
minute, till it seemed as though some energy informed them. At the
centre he knelt steadily, light glowing faintly in his face and on his
skin. A vortex of energy swept round him. He drew upon it. His own
energy was increased and multiplied. He seemed to grow more radiant....

A few minutes later the door opened softly and Dr. Fillery looked in,
hesitated for a second, then advanced into the room. He paused before
the kneeling figure. It was noticeable that he was not startled and
that his face wore no expression of surprise. A smile indeed lay on his
lips. He noticed the scent of flowers, a sweetness in the air as after
rain; he felt the immense vitality, the exhilaration, the peace and
power too. He had made no sound, but the other, aware of his presence,
rose to his feet.

"I disturbed you," said Fillery. "I'm sorry. Shall I go?"

"I was worshipping," replied "N. H." "No, do not go. There was a
little flash"--he looked about him for an instant as if slightly
bewildered--"a little sign--something I might have helped--but it has
gone again. Then I worshipped, asking for more power. _You_ notice it?"
he asked, with a radiant smile.

"I notice it," said Fillery, smiling back. He paused a moment. His
eye took in the tea-things and saw they were untouched; he felt the
tea-pot. It was still warm. "Come," he said happily; "we'll have some
tea together. I'll send for a fresh brew." He rang the bell, then
arranged the chairs a little differently. "Your visitor?" he asked.
"You are expecting someone?"

"N. H." looked round him suddenly. "Oh!" he exclaimed, "but--she has
gone!"

His surprise was comical, but the expression on the face changed in his
rapid way at once. "I remember now. Your Lady Gleeson came," he added,
a touch of gentle sadness in his voice, "I gave her pain. You had told
me. I forgot----"

"You did well," Fillery commented with smiling approval as though the
entire scene was known to him, "you did very well. It is a pity, only,
that she left too soon. If she had stayed for your worship--your wind
and fire might have helped----"

"N. H." shook his head. "There is nothing I can work with," he replied.
"She is empty. She destroys only. Why," he added, "does she walk
upright?"

But Lady Gleeson held very different views upon the recent scene.
This magnificent young male she had put in his place, but she had not
finished with him. No such being had entered her life before. She was
woman enough to see he was unusual. But he was magnificent as well,
and, secretly, she loved his grand indifference.

She left the house, however, with but an uncertain feeling that the
honours were with her. Two days without a word, a sign, from her would
bring him begging to her little feet.

But the "begging" did not come. The bell was silent, the post brought
no humble, passionate, abandoned letter. She fumed. She waited. Her
husband, recently returned to London and immensely preoccupied with his
concessions, her maid too, were aware that Lady Gleeson was impatient.
The third, the fourth day came, but still no letter.

Whereupon it occurred to her that she had possibly gone too far. Having
left him on his knees, he was, perhaps, still kneeling in his heart,
even prostrate with shame and disappointment. Afraid to write, afraid
to call, he knew not what to do. She had evidently administered too
severe a lesson. Her callers, meanwhile, convinced her that she was
irresistible. There was no woman like her in the world. She had, of
course, been too harsh and cruel with this magnificent and innocent
youth from the woods and mountains....

Thus it was that, on the fourth day, feeling magnanimous and generous,
big-hearted too, she wrote to him. It would be foolish, in any case, to
lose him altogether merely for a moment's pride:

    "DEAR MR. LeVALLON,--I feel I must send you a tiny
    word to let you know that I really have forgiven you. You
    behaved, you know, in a way that no man of my acquaintance
    has ever done before. But I feel sure now you did not really
    mean it. Your forest and mountain gods have not taught you to
    understand civilized women. So--I forgive.

    "Please forget it all, as I have forgotten it.--Yours,
                                                        "ANGELA GLEESON.

    "P. S.--And you may come and see me soon."

To which, two days later, came the reply:

    "DEAR LADY GLEESON,--I thank you.
                                   "JULIAN LeVALLON."

Within an hour of its receipt, she wrote:

    "DEAR JULIAN,--I am so glad you understand. I knew you
    would. You may come and see me. I will prove to you that you
    are really forgiven. There is no need to feel embarrassed. I
    am interested in you and can help you. Believe me, you need a
    woman's guidance. All--_all_ I have, is yours.

    "I shall be at home this afternoon--alone--from 4 to 7 o'clock.
    I shall expect you. My love to you and your grand wild
    gods!--Yours,
               "ANGELA.

    "P. S.--I want you to tell me more about your gods. Will you?"

She sent it by special messenger, "Reply" underlined on the envelope.
He did not appear at the appointed hour, but the next morning she
received his letter. It came by ordinary post. The writing on the
envelope was not his. Either Devonham or Fillery had addressed it. And
a twinge of unaccustomed emotion troubled her. Intuition, it seems,
survives even in the coarsest, most degraded feminine nature, ruins of
some divine prerogative perhaps. Lady Gleeson, at any rate, flinched
uneasily before she opened the long expected missive:

    "DEAR LADY GLEESON,--Be sure that you are always
    under the protection of the gods even if you do not know them.
    They are impersonal. They come to you through passion but not
    through that love of the naked body which is lust. I can
    work with passion because it is creative, but not with lust,
    for it is destructive only. Your suffering is the youth and
    ignorance of the young uncreative animal. I can strive with
    young animals and can help them. But I cannot work with them. I
    beg you, listen. I love in you the fire, though it is faint and
    piti-ful.
               "JULIAN."

Lady Gleeson read this letter in front of the looking-glass, then
stared at her reflection in the mirror.

She was dazed. But in spite of the language she thought "silly,"
she caught the blunt refusal of her generous offer. She understood.
Yet, unable to believe it, she looked at her reflection again--then,
impulsively, went downstairs to see her husband.

It really was more than she could bear. The man was mad, but that did
not excuse him.

"He is a beast," she informed her husband, tearing up the letter
angrily before his eyes in the library, while he watched her with a
slavish admiration that increased her fury. "He is nothing but an
animal," she added. "He's a--a----"

"Who?" came the question, as though it had been asked before. For Sir
George wore a stolid and a patient expression on his kindly face.

"That man LeVallon," she told him. "One of Dr. Fillery's cases I tried
to--to help. Now he's written to me----"

George looked up with infinite patience and desire in his kindly gaze.

"Cut him out," he said dryly, as though he was accustomed to such
scenes. "Let him rip. Why bother, anyway, with 'patients'?"

And he crossed the room to comfort her, knowing that presently the
reaction must make him seem more desirable than he really was....

"Never in my house again," she sighed, as he approached her lovingly,
his fingers in his close brown beard. "He is simply a beast--an
animal!"




CHAPTER XXIII


It was, perhaps, some cosmic humour in the silent, beautiful stars
which planned that Nayan's visit should follow upon the very heels of
Lady Gleeson's call. Those vast Intelligences who note the fall of
even a feather, watching and guarding the Race so closely that they
may be said in human terms to love it, arranged the details possibly,
enjoying the result with their careless, sunny laughter. At any rate,
Dr. Fillery quickly sent her word, and she came. To lust "N. H." had
not reacted. How would it be with love?

The beautiful girl entered the room slowly, shyly, as though, certain
of herself, she was not quite certain what she was about to meet.
Fillery had told her she could help, that she was needed; therefore she
came. There was no thought of self in her. Her first visit to Julian
LeVallon after his behaviour in the Studio had no selfish motive in
it. Her self-confidence, however, went only to a certain point; in
the interview with Fillery she had easily controlled herself; she was
not so sure that her self-control would be adequate now. Though calm
outwardly, an inexpressible turmoil surged within.

She remembered his strength, virility and admiration--as a woman; his
ingenuous, childlike innocence, an odd appealing helplessness in it
somewhere, touched the mother in her. That she divined this latter was,
perhaps, the secret of her power over men. Independent of all they had
to offer, she touched the highest in them by making them feel they had
need of the highest in herself. She obtained thus, without desiring
it, the influence that Lady Gleeson, her antithesis, lacked. They
called her Nayan the Impersonal. The impersonal in her, nevertheless,
that which had withstood the cunning onslaught of every type of male
successfully, had received a fundamental shock. Both her modesty and
dignity had been assailed, and in public. Others, women among them, had
witnessed her apparent yielding to LeVallon's violence and seen her
carried in his arms; they had noted her obvious willingness, had heard
her sympathetic cry. She knew quite well what the women thought--Lady
Gleeson had written a little note of sympathy--the men as well, and yet
she came at Fillery's call to visit, perhaps to help, the offender who
had caused it all.

As she opened the door every nerve she possessed was tingling. The
mother in her yearned, but the woman in her sent the blood rushing from
her heart in pride, in resentment, in something of anger as well. How
had he dared to seize her in that awful way? The outrage and the love
both tore at her. Yet Nayan was not the kind to shirk self-revelation
when it came. She brought some hidden secret with her, although as yet
herself uncertain what that secret was.

Fillery met her on the threshold with his sweet tact and sympathy
as usual. He had an authoritative and paternal air that helped and
comforted her, and, as she took his hand at once, the look she gave him
was more kind and tender than she knew. The last trace of self, at any
rate, went out of her as she felt his touch.

"Here I am," she said; "you sent for me. I promised you."

He replied in a low tone: "There's no need to refer to anything, of
course. Assume--I suggest--that he has forgotten all that happened, and
you--have forgotten too."

He was aware of nothing but her eyes. The softness, the delicate
perfume, the perfect voice, even the fur and flowers--all were summed
up in her eyes alone. In those eyes he could have lost himself perhaps
for ever.

He led her into the room, a certain abruptness in his manner.

"I shall leave you alone," he whispered, using his professional voice.
"It is best that he should see you quite alone. I shall not be far
away, but you will find him perfectly quiet. He understands that you
are"--his tone changed upon the adjective--"sacred."

"Sacred," she murmured to herself, repeating the word, "sacred."

They smiled. And the door closed behind her. Across the room rose the
tall figure of the man she had come to see, dressed in dark blue, a low
white shirt open at the neck, a blue tie that matched the strong, clear
eyes, the wondrous hair crowning the whole like a flame. The slant of
wintry sunlight by chance just caught the great figure as it rose,
lightly, easily, as though it floated up out of the floor before her.

And, as by magic, the last uncertainty in her disappeared; she
knew herself akin to this radiant shape of blue and gold; knew
also--mysteriously--in a way entirely beyond her to explain--knew why
Edward Fillery was dear to her. Was it that something in the three of
them pertained to a common origin? The conviction, half thought, half
feeling, rose in her as she looked into the blue eyes facing her and
took the outstretched hand.

"You strange lost being! No one will understand you--here...."

The words flashed through her mind of their own accord, instantly,
spontaneously, yet were almost forgotten the same second in the surge
of more commonplace feeling that rose after. Only the "here" proved
their origin not entirely forgotten. It was the selfless, mothering
instinct that now dominated, but the division in her being had, none
the less, been indicated as by a white piercing light that searched her
inmost nature. That added "here" laid bare, she felt, some part of her
which, with all other men, was clothed and covered away.

Realized though dimly, this troubled her clear mind, as she took the
chair he offered, the conviction that she must tend and care for,
even love this strange youth, as though he were in exile and none but
herself could understand him. She heard the deep resonant voice in the
air in front of her:

"I am not lost now," he said, with his radiant smile, and as if he
perceived her thought from the expression in her face. "I wished to
take you away--to take you back. I wish it still."

He stood gazing down at her. The deep tones, the shining eyes,
the towering stature with its quiet strength--these, added to the
directness of the language, confused her for a moment. The words were
so entirely unexpected. Fillery had led her to suppose otherwise. Yet
before the blazing innocence in his face and manner, her composure at
once returned. She found no words at first. She smiled up into his
eyes, then pointed to a chair. Seated he would be more manageable, she
felt. His upright stature was so overpowering.

"You had forgotten----" he went on, obeying her wish and sitting down,
"but I could not know that you had forgotten. I apologize"--the word
sounded oddly on his lips, as though learned recently--"for making you
suffer."

"Forgotten!"

A swift intuition, due to some as yet undecipherable kinship, told
her that the word bore no reference to the Studio scene. Some larger
meaning, scaled to an immenser map, came with it. An unrealized emotion
stirred faintly in her as she heard. Her first sight of him as a figure
of light returned.

"But that is all forgiven now," she replied calmly in her firm, gentle
voice. "We need not speak of it. You understand now"--she ended
lamely--"that it is not possible----"

He listened intently, gravely, as though with a certain effort, his
head bent forward to catch every syllable. And as he bent, peering,
listening, he might have been some other-worldly being staring down
through a window in the sky into the small confusions of earth's
affairs.

"Yes," he said, the moment she stopped speaking, "I understand now. I
shall never make you suffer again. Only--I could not know that you had
forgotten--so completely."

"Forgotten?" she again repeated in spite of herself, for the way he
uttered the word again stirred that nameless, deep emotion in her.
Their attitudes respectively were changing. She no longer felt that she
could "mother" this great figure before her.

"Where we belong," he answered in his great quiet voice. "_There_," he
added, in a way that made it the counterpart of her own spontaneous and
intuitive "here." "It is so easy. I had forgotten too. But Fillery,
dear Fillery, helps me to remember, and the stars and flowers and
wind, these help me too. And then you--when I saw _you_ I suddenly
remembered more. I was so happy. I remembered what I had left to come
among men and women. I knew that Fillery and you belonged 'there' with
me. You, both, had come down for a little time, come down 'here,' but
had remained too long. You had become almost as men and women are. I
remembered everything when I saw your eyes. I was so happy in a moment,
as I looked at you, that I felt I must go back, go home. The central
fire called me, called us all three. I wanted to escape and take
you with me. I knew by your eyes that you were ready. You called to
Fillery. We were off."

He paused a moment, while she listened in breathless silence.

"Then, suddenly, you refused. You resisted. Something prevented. The
Messengers were there when suddenly"--an expression of yearning pain
clouded his great eyes a moment--"you forgot again. I forgot too,
forgot everything. The darkness came. It was cold. My enemy, the water,
caught me."

He stopped, and passed his hands across his forehead, sighing, his eyes
fixed upon vacancy as with an intense effort to recover something. "And
I still forget," he went on, the yearning now transferred from the
eyes to the lowered voice. "I can remember nothing again. All, all is
gone from me." The light in his face actually grew dimmer as he slowly
uttered the words. He leaned back in his big arm-chair. Again, it
occurred to her, it was as if he drew back from that window in the sky.

A curious hollow, empty of life, seemed to drop into the room between
them as his voice ceased.

While he had been speaking, the girl watched and listened with intense
interest and curiosity. She remembered he was a "patient," yet no touch
of uneasiness or nervousness was in her. His strange words, meaningless
as they might seem, woke deep echoes of some dim buried recognition in
her. It amazed and troubled her. This young man, this sinner against
the conventions whom she had come to comfort and forgive, held the
reins already. What had happened, what was happening, and how did he
contrive it? She was aware of a clear, divining knowledge in him, a
power, a directness she could not fathom. He seemed to read her inside
out. It was more than uncanny; it was spiritual. It mastered her.

During his speech he remained very still, without gesture, without
change of expression in his face; he made no movement; only his voice
deepened and grew rhythmical. And a power emanated from him she hardly
dared resist, much less deny. His voice, his words, reached depths in
her she scarcely knew herself. He was so strong, so humble, so simple,
yet so strangely peaceful. And--suddenly she realized it--so far
beyond her, yet akin. She became aware that the figure seated in the
chair, watching her, talking, was but a fraction of his whole self. He
was--the word occurred to her--immense. Was she, too, immense?

More than troubled, she was profoundly stimulated. The mothering
instinct in her for the first time seemed to fail a little. The woman
in her trembled, not quite sure of itself. But, besides these two,
there was another part of her that listened and felt joy--a white,
radiant joy which, if she allowed, must become ecstasy. Whence came
this hint of unearthly rapture? Again there rose before her the two
significant words: "There" and "Here."

"I do not quite understand," she replied, after a moment's pause,
looking into his eyes steadily, her voice firm, her young face very
sweet; "I do not fully understand, perhaps. But I sympathize." Then she
added suddenly, with a little smile: "But, at any rate, I did not come
to make you apologize--Julian. Please be sure of that. I came to see if
I might be of any use--if there was anything I might do to make----"

His quick interruption transfixed her.

"You came," he said in a distinct, low tone, "because you love me and
wish me to love you. But we do love already, you, dear Fillery, and
I--only our love is in that great Service where we all three belong. It
is not of this--it is not _here_----" making an impatient gesture with
his hand to indicate his general surroundings.

He broke off instantly, noticing the expression in her face.

She had realized suddenly, as he spoke, the blind fury of reproduction
that sweeps helpless men and women everywhere into union, then flings
them aside exhausted, useless, its purpose accomplished. Though herself
never yet caught by it, the vivid realization made her turn from life
with pity and revulsion. Yet--were these thoughts her own? Whence did
they come, if not? And what was this new blind thing straining in
her mind for utterance, bursting upwards like a flame, threatening
to split it asunder even in its efforts to escape? "What are these
words we use?" darted across her. "What do they mean? What is it we're
talking about _really_? I don't know quite. Yet it's real, yes, real
and true. Only it's beyond our words. It's something I know, but have
forgotten...." That was _his_ word again: "Forgotten"! While they used
words together, something in her went stumbling, groping, thrusting
towards a great shining revelation for which no words existed. And a
strange, deep anguish seized her suddenly.

"Oh!" he cried, "I make you suffer again. The fire leaves you. You
are white. I--I will apologize"--he slipped on to his knees before
her--"but you do not understand. It was not your sacredness I spoke
of." Already on his knees before her, but level with her face owing
to his great stature, gazing into her eyes with an expression of deep
tenderness, humility, almost suffering, he added: "It was our other
love, I meant, our great happy service, the thing we have forgotten.
You came, I thought, to help me to remember _that_. The way home--I saw
you knew." The light streamed back into his face and eyes.

The tumult and confusion in the girl were natural enough. Her
resourcefulness, however, did not fail her at this curious and awkward
moment. His words, his conduct were more than she could fathom, yet
behind both she divined a source of remote inspiration she had never
known before in any "man." The beauty and innocence on the face
arrested her faculties for a second. That nameless emotion stirred
again. A glimmer of some faint, distant light, whose origin she could
not guess, passed flickering across her inner tumult. Some faculty she
could not name, at any rate, blew suddenly to white heat in her. This
youth on his knees before her had spoken truth. Without knowing it even
herself, she had given him her love, a virgin love, a woman's love
hitherto unawakened in her by any other man, but a love not of this
earth quite--because of him who summoned it into sudden flower.

Yet at the same time he denied the need of it! He spoke of some
marvellous great shining Service that was different from the love of
man and woman.

This too, as some forgotten, lost ideal, she knew was also true.

Her mind, her heart, her experience, her deepest womanly nature, these,
she realized in a glowing instant of extraordinary divination, were at
variance in her. She trembled; she knew not what to do or say or think.
And again, it came to her, that the visible shape before her was but
the insignificant fraction of a being whose true life spread actively
and unconfined through infinite space.

She then did something that was prompted, though she did not know it
thus, by her singleness of heart, her purity of soul and body, her
unique and natural instinct to be of use, of service, to others--the
accumulated practice and effort of her entire life provided the action
along a natural line of least resistance: she bent down and put her arm
and hand round his great shoulder. She lowered her face. She kissed him
most tenderly, with a mother's love, a woman's secret passion perhaps,
but yet with something else as well she could not name--an unearthly
yearning for a greater Ideal than anything she had yet known on earth
among humanity.... It was the invisible she kissed.

And LeVallon, she realized with immense relief, justified her action,
for he did not return the kiss. At the same time she had known quite
well it would be thus. That kiss trembled, echoed, in her own greater
unrealized self as well.

"What is it," she whispered, a mysterious passion surging up in her as
she raised him to his feet, "that you remember and wish to recover--for
us all? Can you tell me? What is this great, happy, deathless service
that we have forgotten?" Her voice trembled a little. An immense sense
of joy, of liberty, shook out its sunlit wings.

His expression, as he rose, was something between that of a child and a
faithful yearning animal, but of a "divine animal," though she did not
know the phrase. Its purity, its sweetness, its power--it was the power
she noticed chiefly--were superb.

"I cannot tell, I cannot remember," his voice said softly, for all its
resonant, virile depth. "It is some state we all have come from--into
this. We are strangers here. This brain and intellect, this coarse,
thick feeling, this selfishness, this want of harmony and working
together--all this is new and strange to us. It is of blind and
clumsy children. This love of one single person for one other single
person--it is so pitiful. We three have come into this for a time, a
little time. It is pain and misery. It is prison. Each one works only
for himself. There is no joy. They know nothing of our great Service.
We cannot show them. Let us go back----"

Another pause fell between them, another of those singular hollows she
had felt before. But this time the hollow was not empty. It was brimmed
with surging life. The gulf between her earthly state and another that
was nameless, a gulf usually unbridgeable, the fixed gulf, as an old
book has it, which may not be crossed without danger to the Race, for
whose protection it exists--this childhood simile occurred to her. And
a sense of awe stirred in her being. It was the realization that this
gulf or hollow now brimmed with life, that it could be crossed, that
she might step over into another place--the sense of awe rose thence,
yet came certainly neither from the woman nor the mother in her.

"I am of another place," LeVallon went on, plucking the thought naked
from her inmost being. "For I am come here recently, and the purpose
of my coming is hidden from me, and memory is dark. But it is not
entirely dark. Sometimes I half remember. Stars, flowers, fire, wind,
women--here and there--bring light into the darkness. Oh," he cried
suddenly, "how wonderful they are--how wonderful you are--on that
account to me!"

The voice held a strange, evoking power perhaps. A thousand yearnings
she had all her life suppressed because they interfered with her
duty--as she conceived it--here and now, fluttered like rising flames
within her as she listened. His voice now increased in volume and
rhythm, though still quiet and low-pitched; it was as if a great wind
poured behind it with tremendous vibrations, through it, lifting her
out of a limited, cramped, everyday self. A delicious warmth of happy
comfort, of acceptance, of enthusiasm glowed in her. And LeVallon's
face, she saw, had become radiant, almost as though it emanated light.
This light entered her being and brought joy again.

"Joy!" he said, reading her thought and feeling. "Joy!"

"Joy! Another place!" she heard herself repeating, her eyes now fixed
upon his own.

She felt lighter, caught up and away a little, lifted above the solid
earth; as if it was heat that lightened, and wind that bore her
upwards. Everything in her became intensified.

"Another state, another place"--her voice seemed to borrow something of
the rhythm in his own, though she did not notice it--"but not away from
earth, this beautiful earth?" With a happy smile she added, "I love the
dear kind earth, I love it."

The light on his face increased:

"The earth we love and serve," he said, "is beautiful, but here"--he
looked about him round the room, at the trees waving through the
window, at the misty sky above draping the pale light of the sun--"here
I am on the surface only. There is confusion and struggle. Everything
quarrels against everything else. It is discord and disorder. There is
no harmony. Here, on the surface, everything is separate. There is no
working together. It is all pain, each little part fighting for itself.
Here--I am outside--there is no joy."

It was the phrase "I am outside" that flashed something more of his
meaning into her. His full meaning lay beyond actual words perhaps;
but this phrase fell like a shock into that inmost self which she had
deliberately put away.

"_You are from inside_, yes," she exclaimed, marvelling afterwards that
she had said it; "within--nearer to the centre----!"

And he took the abrupt interruption as though they both understood and
spoke of the same one thing together, having found a language born of
similar great yearnings and of forgotten knowledge, times, states,
conditions, places.

"I come," he said, his voice, his bright smile alive with the pressure
of untold desire, "from another place that is--yes--inside, nearer to
the centre. I have forgotten almost everything. I remember only that
there was harmony, love, work and happiness all combined in the perfect
liberty of our great service. We served the earth. We helped the life
upon it. There was no end, no broken fragments, no failure." The voice
touched chanting. "There was no death."

He rose suddenly and came over to her side, and instinctively the girl
stood up. What she felt and thought as she heard the strange language
he used, she hardly knew herself. She only knew in that moment an
immense desire to help her kind, an intensification of that great ideal
of impersonal service which had always been the keynote of her life.
This became vividly stimulated in her. It rose like a dominating,
overmastering passion. The sense of ineffectual impotence, of inability
to accomplish anything of value against the stolid odds life set
against her, the uselessness of her efforts with the majority, in a
word, seemed brushed away, as though greater powers of limitless extent
were now at last within her reach. This blazed in her like fire. It
shone in her big dark eyes that looked straight into his as they stood
facing one another.

"And that service," he went on in his deep vibrating, half-singing
tone, "I see in dear Fillery and in you. I know my own kind. We three,
at least, belong. I know my own." The voice seemed to shake her like a
wind.

At the last two words her soul leaped within her. It seemed quite
natural that his great arm should take her breast and shoulder and that
his lips should touch her cheek and hair. For there was worship in both
gestures.

"Our greater service," she whispered, trembling, "tell me of that. What
is it?" His touch against her was like the breath of fire.

Her womanly instincts, so-called, her maternal love, her feminine
impulses deserted her. She was aware solely at that moment of the
proximity of a being who called her to a higher, to, at any rate, a
different state, to something beyond the impoverished conditions of
humanity as she had hitherto experienced it, to something she had ever
yearned and longed for without knowing what it was. An extraordinary
sense of enormous liberty swept over her again.

His voice broke and the rhythm failed.

"I cannot tell you," he replied mournfully, the light fading a little
from his eyes and face. "I have forgotten. That other place is hidden
from me. I am in exile," he added slowly, "but with you and--Fillery."
His blue eyes filled with moisture; the expression of troubled
loneliness was one she had never seen before on any human face. "I
suffer," he added gently. "We all suffer."

And, at the sight of it, the yearning to help, to comfort, to fulfil
her rôle as mother, returned confusingly, and rose in her like a tide.
He was so big and strong and splendid. He was so helpless. It was,
perhaps, the innocence in the great blue eyes that conquered her--for
the first time in her life.

But behind, beside the mother in her, stirred also the natural woman.
And beyond this again, rose the accumulated power of the entire Race.
The instinct of all the women of the planet since the world began drove
at her. Not easily may an individual escape the deep slavery of the
herd.

The young girl wavered and hesitated. Caught by so many emotions that
whirled her as in a vortex, the direction of the resultant impetus hung
doubtful for some time. During the half hour's talk, she had entered
deeper water than she had ever dared or known before. Life hitherto,
so far as men were concerned, had been a simple and an easy thing that
she had mastered without difficulty. Her real self lay still unscarred
within her. Freely she had given the mothering care and sympathy that
were so strong in her, the more freely because the men who asked of her
were children, one and all, children who needed her, but from whom she
asked nothing in return. If they fell in love, as they usually did, she
knew exactly how to lift their emotion in a way that saved them pain
while it left herself untouched. None reached her real being, which
thus remained unscathed, for none offered the lifting glory that she
craved.

Here, for the first time facing her, stood a being of another type; and
that unscathed self in her went trembling at the knowledge. Here was
a power she could not play with, could not dominate, but a power that
could play with her as easily as the hurricane with the flying leaf. It
was not his words, his strange beauty, his great strength that mastered
her, though these brought their contribution doubtless. The power she
felt emanated unconsciously from him, and was used unconsciously. It
was all about him. She realized herself a child before him, and this
realization sweetened, though it confused her being. He so easily
touched depths in her she had hardly recognized herself. He could so
easily lift her to terrific heights.... Various sides of her became
dominant in turn....

The inmost tumult of a good woman's heart is not given to men to read,
perhaps, but the final impetus resulting from the whirlpool tossed her
at length in a very definite direction. She found her feet again. The
determining factor that decided the issue of the struggle was a small
and very human one. He appealed to the woman in her, yet what stirred
the woman was the vital and afflicting factor that--he did not need her.

He wished to help, to lift her towards some impersonal ideal that
remained his secret. He wished to _give_--he could give--while she, for
her part, had nothing that he needed. Indeed, he asked for nothing. He
was as independent of her as she was independent of these other men.

And the woman, now faced for the first time with this entirely new
situation, decided automatically--that he should learn to need her. He
must. Though she had nothing that he wanted from her, she must on that
very account give all. The sacrifice which stands ready for the fire
in every true feminine heart was lighted there and then. She had found
her master and her god. Half measures were not possible to her. She
stood naked at the altar. But in her sacrifice he, too, the priest, the
deity, the master, he also should find love.

Such is the woman's power, however, to conceal from herself the truth,
that she did not recognize at first what this decision was. She
disguised it from her own heart, yet quite honestly. She loved him and
gave him all she had to give for ever and ever: even though he did
not ask nor need her love. This she grasped. Her rôle must be one of
selfless sacrifice. But the deliberate purpose behind her real decision
she disguised from herself with complete success. It lay there none the
less, strong, vital, very simple. She would teach him love.

Alone of all men, Edward Fillery could have drawn up this motive from
its inmost hiding place in her deep subconscious being, and have made
it clear to her. Dr. Fillery, had he been present, would have discerned
it in her, as, indeed, he did discern it later. He had, for that
matter, already felt its prophecy with a sinking heart when he planned
bringing them together: Iraida might suffer at LeVallon's hands.

But Fillery, apparently, was not present, and Nayan Khilkoff remained
unaware of self-deception. LeVallon "needs your care and sympathy; you
can help him," she remembered. This she believed, and Love did the rest.

So intricate, so complex were the emotions in her that she realized
one thing only--she must give all without thought of self. "When
half gods go the gods arrive" sang in her heart. She was a woman,
one of a mighty and innumerable multitude, and collective instinct
urged her irresistibly. But it hid at the same time with lovely
care the imperishable desire and intention that the arriving god
should--_must_--love her in return.

The youth stood facing her while this tumult surged within her heart
and mind. Outwardly calm, she still gazed into the clear blue eyes that
shone with moisture as he repeated, half to himself and half to her:

"We are in exile here; we suffer. We have forgotten."

His hands were stretched towards her, and she took them in her own and
held them a moment.

"But you and I," he went on, "you and I and Fillery--shall remember
again--soon. We shall know why we are here. We shall do our happy work
together here. We shall then return--escape."

His deep tones filled the air. At the sound of the other name a breath
of sadness, of disappointment, touched her coldly. The familiar name
had faded. It was, as always, dear. But its potency had dimmed....

The sun was down and a soft dusk covered all. A faint wind rustled in
the garden trees through the open window.

"Fillery," she murmured, "Edward Fillery!---- He loved me. He has loved
me always."

The little words--they sounded little for the first time--she uttered
almost in a whisper that went lost against the figure of LeVallon
towering above her through the twilight.

"We are together," his great voice caught her whisper in the immense
vibration, drowning it. "The love of our happy impersonal service
brings us all together. We have forgotten, but we shall remember soon."

It seemed to her that he shone now in the dusky air. Light came about
his face and shoulders. An immense vitality poured into her through his
hands. The sense of strange kinship was overpowering. She felt, though
not in terms of size or physical strength, a pigmy before him, while
yet another thing rose in gigantic and limitless glory as from some
inner heart he quickened in her. This sense of exaltation, of delirious
joy that tempted sweetly, came upon her. He _must_ love her, need her
in the end....

"Julian," she murmured softly, drawn irresistibly closer. "The gods
have brought you to me." Her feet went nearer of their own accord, but
there was no movement, no answering pressure, in the hands she held.
"You shall never know loneliness again, never while I am here. The
gods--your gods--have brought us together."

"_Our_ gods," she heard his answer, "are the same." The words
trembled against her actual breast, so close she was now leaning
against him. "Even if lost, it is they who sent us here. I know their
messengers----"

He broke off, standing back from her, dropping her hands, or, rather,
drawing his own away.

"Hark!" he cried. The voice deep and full, yet without loudness,
thrilled her. She watched him with terror and amazement, as he turned
to the open window, throwing his arms out suddenly to the darkening
sky against which the trees loomed still and shapeless. His figure was
wrapped in a faint radiance as of silvery moonlight. She was aware of
heat about her, a comforting, inspiring warmth that pervaded her whole
being, as from within. The same moment the bulk of the big tree shook
and trembled, and a steady wind came pouring into the room. It seemed
to her the wind, the heat, poured through that tree.

And the inner heart in her grew clear an instant. This wind, this heat,
increased her being marvellously. The exaltation in her swept out and
free. She saw him, dropped from alien skies upon the little teeming
earth. The sense of his remoteness from the life about them, of her own
remoteness too, flashed over her like wind and fire. An immense ideal
blazed, then vanished. It flamed beyond her grasp. It beckoned with
imperishable loveliness, then faded instantly. Wind caught it up once
more. With the fire an overpowering joy rose in her.

"Julian!" she cried aloud. "Son of Wind and Fire!"

At the words, which had come to her instinctively, he turned with
a sudden gesture she could not quite interpret, while there broke
upon his face a smile, strange and lovely, that caught up the effect
of light about him and seemed to focus in his brilliant eyes. His
happiness was beyond all question, his admiration, wonder too; yet the
quality she chiefly looked and expected--was _not_ there.

She chilled. The joy, she was acutely conscious, was not a personal joy.

"You," he said gently, happily, emphasizing the word, "you are not
pitiful," and the rustle of the shaking trees outside the window merged
their voice in his and carried it outward into space. It was as if the
wind itself had spoken. Across the garden dusk there shot a sudden
effect of light, as though a flame had flickered somewhere in the sky,
then passed back into the growing night. There was a scent of flowers
in the air. "You," he cried, with an exultation that carried her again
beyond herself. "You are not pitiful."

"Julian----!" she stammered, longing for his arms. She half drew away.
The blood flowed down and back in her. "Not pitiful!" she repeated
faintly.

For it was to her suddenly as if that sighing wind that entered the
room from the outer sky had borne him away from her. That wind was a
messenger. It came from that distant state, that other region where
he belonged, a state, a region compared to which the beings of earth
were trumpery and tinsel-dressed. It came to remind him of his home
and origin. The little earth, the myriad confused figures struggling
together on its surface, he saw as "pitiful." From that window in the
sky whence he looked down he watched them...!

She knew the feeling in him, knew it, because some part of her, though
faint and deeply hidden, was akin. Yet she was not wholly "pitiful."
He had discerned in her this faint, hidden strain of vaster life, had
stirred and strengthened it by his words, his presence. Yet it was not
vital enough in her to stand alone. When wind and fire, his elements,
breathed forth from it, she was afraid.

"You are not pitiful," he had said, yet pitiful, for all that, she
knew herself to be. On that breath of sighing wind he swept away from
her, far, far away where, as yet, she could not follow. And her dream
of personal love swept with it. Some ineffable hint of a divine,
impersonal glory she had known went with him from her heart. The
personal was too strong in her. It was human love she desired both to
give and ask.

Unspoken words flared through her heart and being: "Julian, you have
no soul, no human soul. But I will give you one, for I will teach you
love----"

He turned upon her like a hurricane of windy fire.

"Soul!" he cried, catching the word out of her naked heart. "Oh, be not
caught with that pitiful delusion. It is this idea of soul that binds
you hopelessly to selfish ends and broken purposes. This thing you call
soul is but the dream of human vanity and egoism. It is worse than
love. Both bind you endlessly to limited desires and blind ambitions.
They are of children."

He rose, like some pillar of whirling flame and wind, beside her.

"Come out with me," he cried, "come back! You teach me to remember!
Our elemental home calls sweetly to us, our elemental service waits.
We belong to those vast Powers. They are eternal. They know no binding
and they have no death. Their only law is service, that mighty service
which builds up the universe. The stars are with us, the nebulæ and
the central fires are their throne and altar. The soul you dream of in
your little circle is but an idle dream of the Race that ties your feet
lest you should fly and soar. The personal has bandaged all your eyes.
Nayan, come back with me. You once worked with me there--you, I and
Fillery together."

His voice, though low, had that which was terrific in it. The volume of
its sound appalled her. Its low vibrations shook her heart.

"Soul," she said very softly, courage sure in her, but tears close in
her burning eyes, "is my only hope. I live for it. I am ready to die
for it. It is my life!"

He gazed at her a moment with a tenderness and sympathy she hardly
understood, for their origin lay hidden beyond her comprehension. She
knew one thing only--that he looked adorable and glorious, a being
brought by the wise powers of life, whatever these might be, into the
keeping of her love and care. The mother and the woman merged in her.
His redemption lay within her gentle hands, if it lay at the same time
upon an altar that was her awful sacrifice.

"Son of wind and fire!" she cried, though emotion made her voice
dwindle to a breathless whisper. "You called to my love, yet my love is
personal. I have nothing else to give you. Julian, come back! O stay
with me. Your wind and fire frighten, for they take you away. Service
I know, but your service--O what is it? For it leaves the bed, the
hearthstone cold----"

She stopped abruptly, wondering suddenly at her own words. What was
this rhythm that had caught her mind and heart into an unknown, a
daring form of speech?

But the wind ran again through the open window fluttering the curtains
and the skirts about her feet. It sighed and whispered. It was no
earthly wind. She saw him once again go from her on its quiet wings.
He left her side, he left her heart. And an icy realization of _his_
loneliness, his exile, stirred in her.... For a moment, as she looked
up into his shining face silhouetted in the dusk against the window,
there rose tumultuously in her that maternal feeling which had held all
men safely at a distance hitherto. Like a wave, it mastered her. She
longed to take him in her arms, to shield him from a world that was not
his, to bless and comfort him with all she had to give, to have the
right to brush that wondrous hair, to open those lids at dawn and close
them with a kiss at night. This ancient passion rose in her, bringing,
though she did not recognize it, the great woman in its train. She
walked up to him with both hands outstretched:

"All my nights," she said, with no reddening of the cheek, "are as our
wedding night!"

He heard, he saw, but the words held no meaning for him.

"Julian! Stay with me--stay here!" She put her arms about him.

"And forget----!" he cried, an inexpressible longing in his voice. He
bent, none the less, beneath the pressure of her clinging arms; he
lowered his face to hers.

"I will teach you love," she murmured, her cheek against his own. "You
do not know how sweet, how wonderful it is. All your strange wisdom
you shall show me, and I will learn willingly, if only I may teach
you--love."

"You would teach me to forget," he said in a voice of curious pain,
"just as you--are forgetting now."

He gently unclasped her hands from about his neck, and went over to the
open window, while she sank into a chair, watching him. She again heard
the wind, but again no common, earthly wind, go singing past the walls.

"But _I_ will teach you to remember," he said, his great figure half
turning towards her again, his voice sounding as though it were in that
sighing breath of wind that passed and died away into the silence of
the sky.

The strange difficulty, the immensity, of her self-appointed task, grew
suddenly crystal clear in her mind. Amid the whirling, aching pain
and yearning that she felt it stood forth sharp and definite. It was
imperious. She loved, and she must teach _him_ love. This was the one
thing needful in his case. Her own deep, selfless heart would guide her.

There was pain in her, but there was no fear. Above the conventions she
felt herself, naked and unashamed. The sense of a new immense liberty
he had brought lifted her into a region where she could be natural
without offence. He had flung wide the gates of life, setting free
those strange, ultimate powers which had lain hidden and unrealized
hitherto, and with them was quickened, too, that mysterious and awful
hint which, beckoning ever towards some vaster life, had made the world
as she found it unsatisfactory, pale, of meagre value.

As the strange drift of wind passed off into the sky, she moved across
the room and stood beside him, its dying chant still humming in her
ears. That song of the wind, she understood, was symbolic of what she
had to fight, for his being, though linked to a divine service she
could not understand, lay in Nature and apart from human things:

"Think, Julian," she murmured, her face against his shoulder so
that the sweet perfume as of flowers he exhaled came over her
intoxicatingly, "think what we could do together for the world--for all
these little striving ignorant troubled people in it--for everybody!
You and I together working, helping, lifting them all up----!"

He made no movement, and she took his great arm and drew it round her
neck, placing the hand against her cheek. He looked down at her then,
his eyes peering into her face.

"That," he said in a deep, gentle voice that vibrated through her
whole body, "yes, that we will do. It is the service--the service of
our gods. It is why I called you. From the first I saw it in you, and
in----"

Before he could speak the name she kissed his lips, pulling his head
lower in order to reach them: "Think, Julian," she whispered, his eyes
so close to hers that they seemed to burn them, "think what our child
might be!"

The wind came back across the tossing trees with a rush of singing. Her
hair fluttered across their two faces, as it entered the room, drove
round the inner walls, then, with a cry, flew out again into the empty
sky. She felt as if the wind had answered her, for other answer there
came none. Far away in the spaces of that darkening sky the wind rushed
sailing, sailing with its impersonal song of power and of triumph....
She did not remember any further spoken words. She remembered only, as
she went homewards down the street, that Julian had opened the door
upon some unspoken understanding that she had lost him because she
dared not follow recklessly where he led, and that the steady draught,
it seemed, had driven forcibly behind her--as though the wind had blown
her out.

It was only much later she realized that the figure who had then
overtaken her, supported, comforted with kind ordinary words she hardly
understood at the moment and yet vaguely welcomed, finally leaving her
at the door of her father's house in Chelsea, was the figure of Edward
Fillery.




CHAPTER XXIV


As upon a former occasion some twenty-four hours before, "N. H." seemed
hardly aware that his visitor had left, though this time there was
the vital difference--that what was of value had not gone at all. The
essence of the girl, it seemed, was still with him. It remained. The
physical presence was to him apparently the least of all.

He returned to his place at the open window of the darkening room,
while night, with her cooler airs, passed over the world on tiptoe.
He drew deep breaths, opened his arms, and seemed to shake himself,
as though glad to be free of recent little awkward and unnatural
gestures that had irked him. There was happiness in his face. "She is
a builder, though she has forgotten," ran his thought with pleasure,
"and I can work with her. Like Fillery, she builds up, constructs; we
are all three in the same service, and the gods are glad. I love her
... yes ... but she"--his thoughts grew troubled and confused--"she
speaks of another love that is a tight and binding little thing ...
that catches and confines. It is for one person only ... one person for
one other.... For two ... only for two persons!... What is its meaning
then?"

Of her words and acts he had understood evidently a small part only;
much that she had said and done he had not comprehended, although in it
somewhere there had certainly lain a sweet, faint, troubling pleasure
that was new to him.

His thought wavered, flickered out and vanished. For a long time he
leaned against the window with his images, thinking with his heart,
for when alone and not stirred by the thinking of others close to
him, he became of a curious childlike innocence, knowing nothing. His
"thinking" with others present seemed but a reflection of _their_
thinking. The way he caught up the racial thinking, appearing swiftly
intelligent at the time (as with Fillery's mind), passed the instant
he was alone. He became open, then, to bigger rhythms that the little
busy thinkers checked and interrupted. But this greater flow of images,
of rhythms, this thinking with the heart--what was it, and with what
things did it deal? He did not know. He had forgotten. To his present
brain it was alien. He grasped only that it was concerned with the
rhythms of fire and wind apparently, though hardly, perhaps, of that
crude form in which men know them, but of an inner, subtler, more
vital heat and air which lie in and behind all forms and help to shape
them--and of Intelligences which use these as their vehicles, their
instruments, their bodies.

In his "images" he was aware of these Intelligences, perceived them
with his entire being, shared their activities and nature: behind all
so-called forms and shapes, whether of people, flowers, minerals,
of insects or of stars, of a bird, a butterfly or a nebula, but
also of those _mental_ shapes which are born of thought and mood
and heart--this host of Intelligences, great and small, all delving
together, building, constructing, involved in a vast impersonal service
which was deathless. This seemed the mighty call that thundered through
him, fire and wind merely the agencies with which he, in particular,
knew instinctively his duties lay.

For his work, these images taught him, was to increase life by making
the "body" it used as perfect as he could. The more perfect the form,
the instrument, the greater the power manifesting through it. A poor,
imperfect form stopped the flow of this manifesting life, as though
a current were held up and delayed. For instance, his own form, his
present body, now irked, delayed and hampered him, although he knew
not how or why or whence he had come to be using it at this moment on
the earth. The instinctive desire to escape from it lay in him, and
also the instinctive recognition that two others, similarly caught and
imprisoned, must escape with him....

The images, the rhythms, poured through him in a mighty flood, as he
leaned by the open window, his great figure, his whole nature too,
merging in the space, the wind, the darkness of the soft-moving night
beyond.... Yet darkness troubled him too; it always seemed unfamiliar,
new, something he had never been accustomed to. In darkness he became
quiet, very gentle, feeling his way, as it were, uneasily.

He was aware, however, that Fillery was near, though not, perhaps,
that he was actually in the room, seated somewhere among the shadows,
watching him. He felt him close in the same way he felt the girl still
close, whether distance between them in space was actually great
or small. The essential in all three was similar, their yearnings,
hopes, intentions, purposes were akin; their longing for some service,
immense, satisfying, it seemed, connected them. The voice, however, did
not startle when it sounded behind him from an apparently empty room:

"The love she spoke of you do not understand, of course. Perhaps you do
not need it...."

The voice, as well as the feeling that lay behind, hardly disturbed
the images and rhythms in their wondrous flow. Rather, they seemed a
part of them. "N. H." turned. He saw Dr. Fillery distinctly, sitting
motionless among the shadows by the wall.

"It is, for you, a new relationship, and seems small, cramping and
unnecessary----"

"What is it?" "N. H." asked. "What is this love she seeks to hold me
with, saying that I need it? Dear Fillery," he added, moving nearer,
"will you tell me what it is? I found it sweet and pleasant, yet I fear
it."

"It is," was the reply, "in its best form, the highest quality _we_
know----"

"Ah! I felt the fire in it," interrupted "N. H." smiling. "I smelt the
flowers." His smile seemed faintly luminous across the gloom.

"Because it was the best," replied the other gently. "In its best
form it means, sometimes, the complete sacrifice of one being for the
welfare of another. There is no self in it at all." He felt the eyes of
his companion fixed upon him in the darkness of the quiet room; he felt
likewise that he was bewildered and perplexed. "As, for instance, the
mother for her child," he went on. "That is the purest form of it we
know."

"One being feels it for _one_ other only," "N. H." repeated apparently
ignoring the reference to maternal love. "Each wants the other for
himself _alone_! Each lives for the other only, the rest excluded! It
is always two and two. Is that what she means?"

"She would not like it if you had the same feeling for another--woman,"
Fillery explained. "She would feel jealousy--which means she would
grudge sharing you with another. She would resent it, afraid of losing
you."

"Two and two, and two and two," the words floated through the shadows.
The ideal seemed to shock and hurt him; he could not understand it.
"She asks for the whole of me--all to herself. It is lower than
insects, flowers even. It is against Nature. So small, so separate----"

"But Nature," interrupted Dr. Fillery, after an interval of silence
between them, "is not concerned with what we call love. She is
indifferent to it. Her purpose is merely the continuance of the Race,
and she accomplishes this by making men and women attractive to one
another. This, too," he explained, "we call love, though it is love in
its weakest, least enduring form."

"That," replied "N. H.," "I know and understand. She builds the best
form she can."

"And once the form is built," agreed the other, "and Nature's aim
fulfilled, this kind of love usually fades out and dies. It is a
physical thing entirely, like the two atoms we read about together a
few days ago which rush together automatically to produce a third
thing." He lowered his voice suddenly. "There was a great teacher
once," he went on, "who told us that we should love everybody,
everybody, and that in the real life there was no marriage, as we call
it, nor giving in marriage."

It seemed that, as he said the words, the darkness lifted, and a faint
perfume of flowers floated through the air.

"N. H." made no comment or reply. He sat still, listening.

"I love her," he whispered suddenly. "I love her in _that_ way--because
I want everybody else to love her too--as I do, and as you do. But I do
not want her for myself alone. Do you? You do not, of course. I feel
you are as I am. You are happy that I love her."

"There is morality," said Fillery presently in a low voice, glad at
that moment of the darkness. "There is what we call morality."

"Tell me, dear Fillery, what that is. Is it bigger than your 'love'?"

Dr. Fillery explained briefly, while his companion listened intently,
making no comment. It was evidently as strange and new to him as
human love. "We have invented it," he added at the end, "to protect
ourselves, our mothers, our families, our children. It is, you see,
a set of rules devised for the welfare of the Race. For though a few
among us do not need such rules, the majority do. It is, in a word, the
acknowledgment of the rights of others."

"It had to be invented!" exclaimed "N. H.," with a sigh that seemed to
trouble the darkness as with the sadness of something he could scarcely
believe. "And these rules are needed still! Is the Race at that stage
only? It does not move, then?"

Into the atmosphere, as the low-spoken words were audible, stole
again that mysterious sense of the insignificance of earth and all
its manifold activities, human and otherwise, and with it, too, a
remarkable breath of some larger reality, starry-bright, that lay
shining just beyond all known horizons. Fillery shivered in spite of
himself. It seemed to him for an instant that the great figure looming
opposite through the darkness extended, spread, gathering into its
increased proportions the sky, the trees, the darkened space outside;
that it no longer sat there quite alone. He recalled his colleague's
startling admission--the touch of panic terror.

"Slowly, if at all," he said louder, though wondering why he raised his
voice. "Yet there is _some_ progress."

He had the feeling it would be better to turn on the light, as though
this conversation and the strange sensations it produced in him would
be impossible in a full blaze. He made a movement, indeed, to find the
switch. It was the sound of his companion's voice that made him pause,
for the words came at him as though a wave of heat moved through the
air. He knew intuitively that the other's intense inner activity had
increased. He let his hand drop. He listened. Their thoughts, he was
convinced, had mingled and been mutually shared again. There was a
faint sound like music behind it.

"We have worked such a little time as yet," fell the words into the
silence. "If only--oh! if only I could remember more!"

"A little time!" thought Fillery to himself, knowing that the other
meant the millions of years Nature had used to evoke her myriad forms.
"Try to remember," he added in a whisper.

"What I do remember, I cannot even tell," was the reply, the voice
strangely deepening. "No words come to me." He paused a moment, then
went on: "I am of the first, the oldest. I know that. The earth was hot
and burning--burning, burning still. It was soft with heat when I was
summoned from--from other work just completed. With a vast host I came.
Our Service summoned us. We began at the beginning. I am of the oldest.
The earth was still hot--burning, burning----"

The voice failed suddenly.

"I cannot remember. Dear Fillery, I cannot remember. It hurts me. My
head pains. Our work--our service--yes, there _is_ progress. The ages,
as you call them--but it is such a little time as yet----" The voice
trailed off, the figure lost its suggestion of sudden vastness, the
darkness emptied. "I am of the oldest--_that_ I remember only...." It
ceased as though it drifted out upon the passing wind outside.

"Then you have been working," said Fillery, his voice still almost
a whisper, "you and your great host, for thousands of years--in the
service of this planet----" He broke off, unable to find his words, it
seemed.

"Since the beginning," came the steady answer. "Years I do not know.
Since the beginning. Yet we have only just begun--oh!" he cried, "I
cannot remember! It is impossible! It all goes lost among my words,
and in this darkness I am confused and entangled with your own little
thinking. I suffer with it." Then suddenly: "My eyes are hot and wet,
dear Fillery. What happens to them?" He stood up, putting both hands to
his face. Fillery stood up too. He trembled.

"Don't try," he said soothingly; "do not try to remember any more. It
will come back to you soon, but it won't come back by any deliberate
effort."

He comforted him as best he could, realizing that the curious dialogue
had lasted long enough. But he did not produce a disconcerting blaze
by turning the light on suddenly; he led his companion gently to the
door, so that the darkness might pass more gradually. The lights in the
corridor were shaded and inoffensive. It was only in the bedroom that
he noticed the bright tears, as "N. H.," examining them with curious
interest in the mirror, exclaimed more to himself than to Fillery: "She
had them too. I saw them in her eyes when she spoke to me of love, the
love she will teach me because she said I needed it."

"Tears," said Fillery, his voice shaking. "They come from feeling pain."

"It is a little thing," returned "N. H.," smiling at himself, then
turning to his friend, his great blue eyes shining wonderfully through
their moisture. "Then she felt what I felt--we felt together. When she
comes to-morrow I will show her these tears and she will be glad I
love. And she will bring tears of her own, and you will have some too,
and we shall all love together. It is not difficult, is it?"

"Not very," agreed Fillery, smiling in his turn; "it is not very
difficult." He was again trembling.

"She will be happy that we all love."

"I--hope so."

       *       *       *       *       *

It was curious how easily tears came to the eyes of this strange being,
and for causes so different that they were not easy to explain. He did
not cry; it was merely that the hot tears welled up.

Even with Devonham once it happened too. The lesson in natural history
was over. Devonham had just sketched the outline of the various
kingdoms, with the animal kingdom and man's position in it, according
to present evolutionary knowledge, and had then said something about
the earth's place in the solar system, and the probable relation of
this system to the universe at large--an admirable bird's-eye view, as
it were, without a hint of speculative imagination in it anywhere--when
"N. H.," after intent listening in irresponsive silence, asked abruptly:

"What does it believe?" Then, as Devonham stared at him, a little
puzzled at first, he repeated: "That is what the Race _knows_. But what
does it _believe_?"

"Believe," said Devonham, "believe. Ah! you mean what is its religion,
its faith, its speculations!"--and proceeded to give the briefest
possible answer he felt consistent with his duty. The less his pupil's
mind was troubled with such matters, the better, in his opinion.

"And their God?" the young man inquired abruptly, as soon as the
recital was over. He had listened closely, as he always did, but
without a sign of interest, merely waiting for the end, much as a child
who is bored by a poor fairy tale, yet wishes to know exactly how it
is all going to finish. "They _know_ Him?" He leaned forward.

Devonham, not quite liking the form of the question, nor the more eager
manner accompanying it, hesitated a moment, thinking perhaps what he
ought to say. He did not want this mind, now opening, to be filled
with ideas that could be of no use to it, nor help in its formation;
least of all did he desire it to be choked and troubled with the dead
theology of man-made notions concerning a tumbling personal Deity.
Creeds, moreover, were a matter of faith, of auto-suggestion as he
called it, being obviously divorced from any process of reason. He
had, nevertheless, a question to answer and a duty to perform. His
hesitation passed in compromise. He was, as has been seen, too sincere,
too honest, to possess much sense of humour.

"The Race," he said, "or rather that portion of it into which you have
been born, believes--on paper"--he emphasized the qualification--"in
a paternal god; but its real god, the god it worships, is Knowledge.
Not a Knowledge that exists for its own sake," he went on blandly,
"but that brings possessions, power, comfort and a million needless
accessories into life. That god it worships, as you see, with energy
and zeal. Knowledge and work that shall result in acquisition, in
pleasure, that is the god of the Race on this side of the planet where
you find yourself."

"And the God on paper?" asked "N. H.," making no comment, though he had
listened attentively and had understood. "The God that is written about
on paper, and believed in on paper?"

"The printed account of this god," replied Devonham, "describes an
omnipotent and perfect Being who has existed always. He created the
planet and everything upon it, but created it so imperfectly that he
had to send later a smaller god to show how much better he _might_
have created us. In doing this, he offered us an extremely difficult
and laborious method of improvement, a method of escaping from his own
mistake, but a method so painful and unrealizable that it is contrary
to our very natures--as he made them first." He almost smacked his lips
as he said it.

"The big God, the first one," asked "N. H." at once. "Have they seen
and known Him? Have they complained?"

"No," said Devonham, "they have not. Those who believe in him accept
things as he made them."

"And the smaller lesser God--how did He arrive?" came the odd question.

"He was born like you and me, but without a father. No male had his
mother ever known."

"He was recognized as a god?" The pupil showed interest, but no
emotion, much less excitement.

"By a few. The rest, afraid because he told them their possessions were
worthless, killed him quickly."

"And the few?"

"They obeyed his teaching, or tried to, and believed that they would
live afterwards for ever and ever in happiness----"

"And the others? The many?"

"The others, according to the few, would live afterwards for ever and
ever--in pain."

"It is a demon story," said "N. H.," smiling.

"It is printed, believed, taught," replied Devonham, "by an immense
organization to millions of people----"

"Free?" inquired his pupil.

"The teachers are paid, but very little----"

"The teachers believe it, though?"

"Y-yes--at least some of them--probably," replied Devonham, after brief
consideration.

"And the millions--do they worship this God?"

"They do, on paper, yes. They worship the first big God. They go once
or twice a week into special buildings, dressed in their best clothes
as for a party, and pray and sing and tell him he is wonderful and they
themselves are miserable and worthless, and then ask him in abject
humility for all sorts of things they want."

"Do they get them?"

"They ask for different things, you see. One wants fine weather for his
holidays, another wants rain for his crops. The prayers in which they
ask are printed by the Government."

"They ask for this planet only?"

"This planet conceives itself alone inhabited. There are no other
living beings anywhere. The Earth is the centre of the universe, the
only globe worth consideration."

Although "N. H." asked these quick questions, his interest was
obviously not much engaged, the first sharp attention having passed.
Then he looked fixedly at Devonham and said, with a sudden curious
smile: "What you say is always dead. I understand the sounds you use,
but the meaning cannot get into me--inside, I mean. But I thank you for
the sound."

There was a moment's pause, during which Devonham, accustomed to
strange remarks and comments from his pupil, betrayed no sign of
annoyance or displeasure. He waited to see if any further questions
would be forthcoming. He was observing a phenomenon; his attitude was
scientific.

"But, in sending this lesser God," resumed "N. H." presently, "how did
the big One excuse himself?"

"He didn't. He told the Race it was so worthless that nothing else
could save it. He looked on while the lesser God was killed. He is very
proud about it, and claims the thanks and worship of the Race because
of it."

"The lesser God--poor lesser God!" observed "N. H." "He was bigger than
the other." He thought a moment. "How pitiful," he added.

"Much bigger," agreed Devonham, pleased with his pupil's acumen, his
voice, even his manner, changing a little as he continued. "For then
came the wonder of it all. The lesser God's teachings were so new and
beautiful that the position of the other became untenable. The Race
disowned him. It worshipped the lesser one in his place."

"Tell me, tell me, please," said "N. H.," as though he noticed and
understood the change of tone at once. "I listen. The dear Fillery
spoke to me of a great Teacher. I feel a kind, deep joy move in me.
Tell me, please."

Again Devonham hesitated a moment, for he recognized signs that made
him ill at ease a little, because he did not understand them. Following
a scientific textbook with his pupil was well and good, but he had
no desire to trespass on what he considered as Fillery's territory.
"N. H." was his pupil, not his patient. He had already gone too far,
he realized. After a moment's reflection, however, he decided it was
wiser to let the talk run out its natural course, instead of ending it
abruptly. He was as thorough as he was sincere, and whatever his own
theories and prejudices might be in this particular case, he would not
shirk an issue, nor treat it with the smallest dishonesty. He put the
glasses straight on his big nose.

"The new teachings," he said, "were so beautiful that, if faithfully
practised by everybody, the world would soon become a very different
place to what it is."

"Did the Race practise them?" came the question in a voice that held a
note of softness, almost of wonder.

"No."

"Why not?"

"They were too difficult and painful and uncomfortable. The new God,
moreover, only came here 2,000 years ago, whereas men have existed on
earth for at least 400,000."

"N. H." asked abruptly what the teachings were, and Devonham, growing
more and more uneasy as he noted the signs of increasing intensity
and disturbance in his pupil, recited, if somewhat imperfectly, the
main points of the Sermon on the Mount. As he did so "N. H." began
to murmur quietly to himself, his eyes grew large and bright, his
face lit up, his whole body trembled. He began that deep, rhythmical
breathing which seemed to affect the atmosphere about him so that his
physical appearance increased and spread. The skin took on something of
radiance, as though an intense inner happiness shone through it. Then,
suddenly, to Devonham's horror, he began to hum.

Though a normal, ordinary sound enough, it reminded him of that other
sound he had once shared with Fillery, when he sat on the stairs,
staring at a china bowl filled with visiting cards, while the dawn
broke after a night of exhaustion and bewilderment. That sound,
of course, he had long since explained and argued away--it was an
auditory hallucination conveyed to his mind by LeVallon, who originated
it. Interesting and curious, it was far from inexplicable. It was
disquieting, however, for it touched in him a vague sense of alarm, as
though it paved the way for that odd panic terror he had been amazed to
discover hidden away deeply in some unrealized corner of his being.

This humming he now listened to, though normal and ordinary
enough--there were no big vibrations with it, for one thing--was
too suggestive of that other sound for him to approve of it. His
mind rapidly sought some way of stopping it. A command, above all
an impatient, harsh command, was out of the question, yet a request
seemed equally not the right way. He fumbled in his mind to find the
wise, proper words. He stretched his hand out, as though to lay it
quietly upon his companion's shoulder--but realized suddenly he could
not--almost he dared not--touch him.

The same instant "N. H." rose. He pushed his chair back and stood up.

Devonham, justly proud of his equable temperament and steady nerves,
admits that only a great effort of self-control enabled him to sit
quietly and listen. He listened, watched, and made mental notes to the
best of his ability, but he was frightened a little. The outburst was
so sudden. He is not sure that his report of what he heard, made later
to Fillery, was a verbatim, accurate one:

"Justice we know," cried "N. H." in his half-chanting voice that seemed
to boom with resonance, "but this--this mercy, gentle kindness,
beauty--this unknown loveliness--we did not know it!" He went to the
open window, and threw his arms wide, as though he invoked the sun.
"Dimly we heard of it. We strive, we strive, we weave and build and
fashion while the whirl of centuries flies on. This lesser God--he
came among us, too, making our service sweeter, though we did not
understand. Our work grew wiser and more careful, we built lovelier
forms, and knew not why we did so. His mighty rhythms touched us with
their power and happy light. Oh, my great messengers of wind and fire,
bring me the memory I have lost! Oh, where, where----?"

He shook himself, as though his clothes, perhaps his body even, irked
him. It was a curious coincidence, thought Devonham, as he watched and
listened, too surprised and puzzled to interfere either by word or act,
that a cloud, at that very moment, passed from the face of the sun, and
a gust of wind shook all the branches of the lime trees in the garden.
"N. H." stood drenched in the white clear sunshine. His flaming hair
was lifted by the wind.

"Behind, beyond the Suns He dwells and burns for ever. Oh, the mercy,
kindness, the strange beauty of this personal love--what is it? These
have been promised to _us_ too----!"

He broke off abruptly, bowed his great head and shoulders, and sank
upon his knees in an attitude of worship. Then, stretching his arms out
to the sky, the face raised into the flood of sunlight, while his voice
became lower, softer, almost hushed, he spoke again:

"Our faithful service, while the circles swallow the suns, shall lift
us too! You, who sent me here to help this little, dying Race, oh, help
me to remember----!"

His passion was a moving sight; the words, broken through with
fragments of his chanting, singing, had the blood of some infinite,
intolerable yearning in them.

Devonham, meanwhile, having heard outbursts of this strange kind before
with others, had recovered something of his equanimity. He felt more
sure of himself again. The touch of fear had left him. He went over to
the window. The attack, as he deemed it, was passing. A thick cloud hid
the sun again. "There, there," he said soothingly, laying both hands
upon the other's shoulders, then taking the arms to help him rise. "I
told you His teachings were very beautiful--that the world would become
a kind of heaven if people lived them." His voice seemed not his own;
beside the volume and music of the other's it had a thin, rasping, ugly
sound.

"N. H." was on his feet, gazing down into his face; to Devonham's
amazement there were tears in the eyes that met his own.

"And many people _do_ live them--try to, rather," he added gently.
"There are thousands who really worship this lesser God to-day. You
can't go far wrong yourself if you take Him as your model an----"

"How He must have suffered!" came the astonishing interruption, the
voice quiet and more natural again. "There was no way of telling what
he knew. He had no words, of course. You are all so difficult, so
caged, so--dead!"

Devonham smiled. "He used parables." He paused a moment, then went on
"Men have existed on the planet, science tells us, for at least 400,000
years, whereas _He_ came here only 2,000 years ago----"

"Came _here_," interrupted the pupil, as though the earth were but one
of a thousand places visited, a hint of contempt and pity somewhere
in his tone and gesture. "We made His way ready then! We prepared, we
built! It was for that our work went on and on so faithfully."

He broke off....

Devonham experienced a curious sensation as he heard. In that instant
it seemed to him that he was conscious of the movement of the earth
through space. He was aware that the planet on which he stood was
rushing forward at eighteen miles a second through the sky. He felt
himself carried forward with it.

"What was His name?" he heard "N. H." asking. It was as though he was
aware of the enormous interval in space traversed by the rolling earth
between the first and last words of the sudden question. It trailed
through an immense distance towards him, after him, yet at the same
time ever with him.

"His name--oh--Jesus Christ, we call him," wondering at the same moment
why he used the pronoun "we."

"Jesus--Christ!"

"N. H." repeated the name with such intensity and power that the sound,
borne by deep vibrations, seemed to surge and circle forth into space
while the earth rushed irresistibly onwards. A faintly imaginative idea
occurred to Devonham for the first time in his life--it was as though
the earth herself had opened her green lips and uttered the great
name. With this came also the amazing and disconcerting conviction
that Nature and humans were expressions of one and the same big simple
energy, and that while their forms, their bodies, differed, the life
manifesting through them was identical, though its degree might vary.
For an instant this was of such overpowering conviction as to be merely
obvious.

It passed as quickly as it came, though he still was dimly conscious
that he had travelled with the earth through another huge stretch of
space. Then this sense of movement also passed. He looked up. "N.
H." was in his chair again at the table, reading quietly his book
on natural history. But in his eyes the moisture of tears was still
visible.

Devonham adjusted his glasses, blew his nose, went quickly to another
room to jot down his notes of the talk, the reactions, the general
description, and in doing so dismissed from his mind the slight uneasy
effects of what had been a "curious hallucination," caused evidently by
an "unexplained stimulation" of the motor centres in the brain.




CHAPTER XXV


The full account of "N. H.," with all he said and did, his effect upon
others, his general activities in a word, it is impossible to compress
intelligibly into the compass of these notes. A complete report Edward
Fillery indeed accumulated, but its publication, he realized, must
await that leisure for which his busy life provided little opportunity.
His eyes, mental and physical, were never off his "patient," and
"N. H.," aware of it, leaped out to meet the observant sympathy, giving
all he could, concealing nothing, yet debarred, it seemed, by the rigid
limitations of his own mental and physical machinery, as similarly
by that of his hearers, from contributing more than suggestive and
tantalizing hints. Of the use of parable he, obviously, had no
knowledge.

His relations with others, perhaps, offered the most significant
comments on his personality. Fillery was at some pains to collect
these. The reactions were various, yet one and all showed this in
common, a curious verdict but unanimous: that his effect, namely, was
greatest when he was not there. Not in his actual presence, which
promised rather than fulfilled, was his power so dominating upon
mind and imagination as after the door was closed and he was gone.
The withdrawal of his physical self, its absence--as Fillery had
himself experienced one night on Hampstead Heath as well as on other
occasions--brought his real presence closer.

It was Nayan who first drew attention to this remarkable
characteristic. She spoke about him often now with Dr. Fillery, for as
the weeks passed and she realized the uselessness, the impossibility,
of the plan she had proposed to herself, she found relief in talking
frankly about him to her older friend.

"Always, always after I leave him," she confessed, "a profound and
searching melancholy gets hold of me, poignant as death, yet an
extraordinary unrealized beauty behind it somewhere. It steals into my
very blood and bones. I feel an intense dissatisfaction with the world,
with people as they are, and a burning scorn for all that is small,
unworthy, petty, mean--and yet a hopelessness of ever attaining to that
something which _he_ knows and lives so easily." She sighed, gazing
into his eyes a moment. "Or of ever making others see it," she added.

"And that 'something,'" he asked, "can you define it?"

She shook her head. "It's in me, within reach even, but--the word he
used is the only one--forgotten."

"Perhaps--has it ever occurred to you?--that he simply cannot describe
it. There are no words, no means at his disposal--no human terms?"

"Perhaps," she murmured.

"Desirable, though?" he urged her gently.

She clasped her hands, smiling. "Heavenly," she murmured, closing her
eyes a moment as though to try and recall it. "Yet when I'm with him,"
she went on, "he never _quite_ realizes for me the state of wonder and
delight his presence promises. His personality suggests rather than
fulfils." She paused, a wistful, pained expression in her dark eyes.
"The failure," she added quickly, lest she seem to belittle him of
whom she spoke, "of course lies in myself. I refuse, you see--I can't
say why, though I feel it's wise--to let myself be dominated by that
strange, lost part of me he stimulates."

"True," interposed Dr. Fillery. "I understand. Yet to have felt this
even is a sign----"

"That he stirs the deepest, highest in me? This hint of divine beauty
in the unrealized under-self?"

He nodded. There was an odd touch of sadness in their talk. "I've
watched him with many types of people," he went on thoughtfully,
almost as though thinking aloud in his rapid way, "I've talked with him
on many subjects. The meanness, jealousy, insignificance of the Race
shocks and amazes him. He cannot understand it. He asked me once 'But
is no one _born_ noble? To be splendid is such an effort with them!'
Splendour of conduct, he noticed, is a calculated, rarely a spontaneous
splendour. The general resistance to new ideas also puzzles him. 'They
fear a rhythm they have never felt before,' as he put it. 'To adopt
a new rhythm, they think, must somehow injure them.' That the Race
respects a man because he possesses much equally bewilders him. 'No
one serves willingly or naturally,' he observed, 'or unless someone
else receives money for drawing attention loudly to it.' Any notion
of reward, of advertisement, in its widest meaning, is foreign to his
nature."

He broke off. Another pause fell between them, the girl the first to
break it:

"He suffers," she said in a low voice. "Here--he suffers," and her
face yearned with the love and help she longed to pour out beyond all
thought of self or compensation, and at the same time with the pain of
its inevitable frustration; and, watching her, Dr. Fillery understood
that this very yearning was another proof of the curious impetus, the
intensification of being, that "N. H." caused in everyone. Yet he
winced, as though anticipating the question she at once then put to him:

"You are afraid for him, Edward?" her eyes calmly, searchingly on his.
"His future troubles you?"

He turned to her with abrupt intensity. "If _you_, Iraida, could not
enchain him----" He broke off. He shrugged his shoulders.

"I have no power," she confessed. "An insatiable longing burns like a
fire in him. Nothing he finds here on earth, among men and women, can
satisfy it." A faint blush stole up her neck and touched her cheeks.
"He is different. _I_ have no power to keep him here." Her voice sank
suddenly to a whisper, as though a breath of awe passed into her. "He
is here now at this very moment, I believe. He is with us as we talk
together. I feel him." Almost a visible thrill passed through her. "And
close, so very close--to _you_."

Dr. Fillery made no sign by word or gesture, but something in his very
silence gave assent.

"And not alone," she added, still under her breath. It seemed she
looked about her, though she did not actually move or turn her head.
"Others--of his kind, Edward--come with him. They are always with
him--I think sometimes." Her whisper was fainter still.

"You feel that too!" He said it abruptly, his voice louder and almost
challenging. Then he added incongruously, as though saying it to
himself this time, "That's what I mean. I've known it for a long
time----"

He looked at the girl sharply with unconcealed admiration. "It does not
frighten you?" he asked, and in reply she said the very thing he felt
sure she would say, hoping for it even while he shrank:

"Escape," he heard in a low, clear voice, half a question, half an
exclamation, and saw the blood leave her face.

The instinctive "Hush!" that rose to his lips he did not utter. The
sense of loss, of searching pain, the word implied he did not show.
Instead, he spoke in his natural, everyday tone again:

"The body irks him, of course, and he may try to rid himself of it. Its
limitations to him are a prison, for his true consciousness he finds
outside it. The explanation," he added to himself, "of many a case of
suicidal mania probably. I've often wondered----"

He took her hand, aware by the pallor of her face what her feelings
were. "Death, you see, Nayan, has no meaning for him, as it has for us
who think consciousness out of the body impossible, and he is puzzled
by our dread of it. 'We,' he said once, 'have nothing that decays. We
may be stationary, or advance, or retreat, but we can never end.' He
derives--oh, I'm convinced of it--from another order. Here--amongst
us--he is inarticulate, unable to express himself, hopeless, helpless,
in prison. Oh, if only----"

"He loves _you_," she said quickly, releasing her hand. "I suppose he
realizes the eternal part of you and identifies himself with that. In
you, Edward, lies something very close to what he is, akin--he needs it
terribly, just as you----" She became confused.

"Love, as we understand it," he interrupted, his voice shaking a
little, "he does not, cannot know, for he serves another law, another
order of being."

"That's how I feel it too."

She shivered slightly, but she did not turn away, and her eyes kept all
their frankness.

"Our humanity," she murmured, "writes upon his heart in ink that
quickly fades----"

"And leaves no trace," he caught her up hurriedly. "His one idea is
to help, to render service. It is as natural to him as for water to
run down hill. He seeks instinctively to become one with the person
he seeks to aid. As with us an embrace is an attempt at union,
so he seeks, by some law of his own being, to become identified
with those whom he would help. And he helps by intensifying their
consciousness--somewhat as heat and air increase ordinary physical
vitality. Only, first there must be something for him to work on.
Energy, even bad, vicious, wrongly used, he can work on. Mere emptiness
prevents him. You remember Lady Gleeson----"

"We--most of us--are too empty," she put in with quiet resignation.
"Our sense of that divine beauty is too faint----"

"Rather," came the quick correction, "he stands too close to us. His
effect is too concentrated. The power at such close quarters disturbs
and overbalances."

"That's why, then, I always feel it strongest when he's left."

He glanced at her keenly.

"In his presence," she explained, "it's always as though I saw only a
part of him, even of his physical appearance, out of the corner of my
eye, as it were, and sometimes----" She hesitated. He did not help her
this time. "As if those others, many others, similar to himself, but
invisible, crowding space about us, were intensely active." Her voice
hushed again. "He brings them with him--as now. I feel it, Edward, now.
I feel them close." She looked round the empty room, peering through
the window into the quiet evening sky. Dr. Fillery also turned away.
He sighed again. "Have you noticed, too," he went on presently, yet
half as if following his own thoughts, and a trifle incongruously, "the
speed and lightness his very movements convey, and how he goes down the
street with that curious air of drawing things after him, along with
him, as trains and motors draw the loose leaves and dust----"

"Whirling," her quick whisper startled him a little, as she turned
abruptly from the window and gazed straight at him. He smiled,
instantly recovering himself. "A good word, yes--whirling--but in the
plural. As though there were vortices about him."

It was her turn to smile. "That might one day carry him away," she
exclaimed. They smiled together then, they even laughed, but somewhere
in their laughter, like the lengthening shadows of the spring day
outside, lay an incommunicable sadness neither of them could wholly
understand.

"Yet the craving for beauty," she said suddenly, "that he leaves behind
in me"--her voice wavered--"an intolerable yearning that nothing can
satisfy--nothing--here. An infinite desire, it seems, for--for----"

Dr. Fillery took her hand again gently, looking down steadily into
the clear eyes that sought his own, and the light glistening in their
moisture was similar, he fancied for a moment, to the fire in another
pair of shining eyes that never failed to stir the unearthly dreams in
him.

"It lies beyond any words of ours," he said softly. "Don't struggle
to express it, Iraida. To the flower, the star, we are wise to leave
their own expression in their own particular field, for we cannot
better it."

A sound of rising wind, distant yet ominous, went past the window,
as for a moment then the girl came closer till she was almost in his
arms, and though he did not accept her, equally he did not shrink from
the idea of acceptance--for the first time since they had known one
another. There was a smell of flowers; almost in that wailing wind he
was aware of music.

"Together," he heard her whisper, while a faint shiver--was it of
joy or terror?--ran through her nerves. "All of us--when the time
comes--together." She made an abrupt movement. "Just as we are together
now! Listen!" she exclaimed.

"We call it wind," she whispered. "But of course--really--it's
behind--beyond--inside--isn't it?"

Dr. Fillery, holding her closely, made no answer. Then he laughed,
let go her hands, and said in his natural tone again, breaking an
undesirable spell intentionally, though with a strong effort: "We are
in space and time, remember. Iraida. Let us obey them happily until
another certain and practical thing is shown us."

The faint sound that had been rising about them in the air died down
again.

They looked into each other's eyes, then drew apart, though with a
movement so slight it was scarcely perceptible. It was Nayan and Dr.
Fillery once more, but not before the former had apparently picked out
the very thought that had lain, though unexpressed, in the latter's
deepest mind--its sudden rising the cause of his deliberate change of
attitude. For she had phrased it, given expression to it, though from
an angle very different to his own. And her own word, "escape," used
earlier in the conversation, had deliberately linked on with it, as of
intentional purpose.

"He must go back. The time is coming when he must go back. We are not
ready for him here--not yet."

Somewhat in this fashion, though without any actual words, had the
idea appeared in letters of fire that leaped and flickered through
a mist of anguish, of loss, of loneliness, rising out of the depths
within him. He knew whence they came, he divined their origin at once,
and the sound, though faint and distant at first, confirmed him.
Swiftly behind them, moreover, born of no discoverable antecedents, it
seemed, rose simultaneously the phrase that Father Collins loved: "A
Being in his own place is the ruler of his fate." Father Collins, for
all his faults and strangeness, was a personality, a consciousness,
that might prove of value. His extraordinarily swift receptiveness,
his undoubted telepathic powers, his fluid, sensitive, protean
comprehension of possibilities outside the human walls, above the
earthly ceiling, so to speak.... Value suddenly attached itself to
Father Collins, as though the name had been dropped purposely into his
mind by someone. He was surprised to find this thought in him. It was
not for the first time, however, Dr. Fillery remembered.

       *       *       *       *       *

In Nayan's father, again, an artist, though not a particularly
subtle one perhaps, lay a deep admiration, almost a love, he could
not explain. "There's something about him in a sense immeasurable,
something not only untamed but untamable," he phrased it. "His
gentleness conceals it as a summer's day conceals a thunderstorm. To
me it's almost like an incarnation of the primal forces at work in the
hearts of my own people"--he grew sad--"and as dangerous probably."
He was speaking to his daughter, who repeated the words later to Dr.
Fillery. The study of Fire in the elemental group had failed. "He's
too big, too vast, too formless, to get into any shape or outline _my_
tools can manage, even by suggestion. He dominates the others--Earth,
Air, Water--and dwarfs them."

"But fire ought to," she put in. "It's the most powerful and splendid,
the most terrific of them all. Isn't it? It regenerates. It purifies. I
love fire----"

Her father smiled in his beard, noticing the softness in her manner,
rather than in her voice. The awakening in her he had long since
understood sympathetically, if more profoundly than she knew, and
welcomed.

"He won't hurt you, child. He won't harm Nayushka any more than a
summer's day can hurt her. I see him thus sometimes," he mumbled on
half to himself, though she heard and stored the words in her memory;
"as an entire day, a landscape even, I often see him. A stretch of
being rather than a point; a rushing stream rather than a single
isolated wave harnessed and confined in definite form--as _we_
understand being here," he added curiously. "No, he'll neither harm nor
help you," he went on; "nor any of us for that matter. A dozen nations,
a planet, a star he might help or harm"--he laughed aloud suddenly in
a startled way at his own language--"but an individual never!" And he
abruptly took her in his arms and kissed her, drying her tears with his
own rough handkerchief. "Not even a fire-worshipper," he added with
gruff tenderness, "like you!"

"There's more of divinity in fire than in any other earthly thing
we know," she replied as he held her, "for it takes into itself the
sweetest essence of all it touches." She looked up at him with a smile.
"That's why you can't get it into your marble perhaps." To which her
father made the significant rejoinder: "And because none of us has the
least conception what 'divine' and 'divinity' really mean, though we're
always using the words! It's odd, anyhow," he finished reflectively,
"that I can model the fellow better from memory than when he's standing
there before my eyes. At close quarters he confuses me with too many
terrific unanswerable questions."

To multiply the verdicts and impressions Fillery jotted down is
unnecessary. In his own way he collected; in his own way he wrote them
down. About "N. H.," all agreed in their various ways of expressing it,
was that vital suggestion of agelessness, of deathlessness, of what men
call eternal youth: the vigorous grace of limbs and movements, the
deep simple joy of confidence and power. None could picture him tired,
or even wearing out, yet ever with a faint hint of painful conflict due
to immense potentialities--"a day compressed into a single minute,"
as Khilkoff phrased it--straining, but vainly, to express themselves
through a limited form that was inadequate to their use. A storm of
passionate hope and wonder seemed ever ready to tear forth from behind
the calm of the great quiet eyes, those green-blue changing eyes,
which none could imagine lightless or unlamping; and about his whole
presentment a surplus of easy, overflowing energy from an inexhaustible
source pressing its gifts down into him spontaneously, fire and wind
its messengers; yet that the human machinery using these--mind, body,
nerves--was ill adapted to their full expression. To every individual
having to do with him was given a push, a drive, an impetus that
stimulated that individual's chief characteristic, intensifying it.

This to imaginative and discerning sight. But even upon ordinary folk,
aware only of the surface things that deliberately hit them, was left
a startling impression as of someone waving a strange, unaccustomed
banner that made them halt and stare before passing on--uncomfortably.
He had that nameless quality, apart from looks or voice or manner,
which arrested attention and drew the eyes of the soul, wonderingly,
perhaps uneasily, upon itself. He left a mark. Something defined him
from all others, leaving him silhouetted in the mind, and those who
had looked into his eyes could not forget that they had done so. Up
rose at once the great unanswerable questions that, lying ever at
the back of daily life, the majority find it most comfortable to
leave undisturbed--but rose in red ink or italics. He started into an
awareness of greater life. And the effect remained, was greatest even,
after he had passed on.

       *       *       *       *       *

It was, of course, Father Collins, a frequent caller now at the Home,
betraying his vehement interest in long talks with Dr. Fillery and in
what interviews with "N. H." the latter permitted him--it was this
protean being whose mind, amid wildest speculations, formed the most
positive conclusions. The Prometheans, he believed, were not far wrong
in their instinctive collective judgment. "N. H." was not a human
being; the occupant of that magnificent body was not a human spirit
like the rest of us.

"Nor is he the only one walking the streets to-day," he affirmed
mysteriously. "In shops and theatres, trains and buses, tucked in
among the best families," he laughed, although in earnest, "and even
in suburbia I have come across other human bodies similarly inhabited.
What they are and where they come from exactly, we cannot know, but
their presence among us is indubitable."

"You mean you recognize them?" inquired Dr. Fillery calmly.

"One unmistakable sign they possess in common--they are invariably
inarticulate, helpless, lost. The brain, the five senses, the human
organs--all they have to work through--are useless to express the
knowledge and powers natural to them. Electricity might as well try to
manifest itself through a gas-pipe, or music through a stone. One and
all, too, possess strange glimmerings of another state where they are
happy and at home, something of the glory à la Wordsworth, a Golden
Age idea almost, a state compared to which humanity seems a tin-pot
business, yet a state of which no single descriptive terms occur to
them."

"Of which, however, they can tell us nothing?"

"Memory, of course, is lost. Their present brain can have no records,
can it? Only those of us who have perhaps at some time, in some earlier
existence possibly, shared such a state can have any idea of what
they're driving at."

He glanced at Fillery with a significant raising of his bushy eyebrows.

"There have been no phenomena, I'm glad to say," put in the doctor,
aware some comment was due from him, "no physical phenomena, I mean."

"Nor could there be," pursued the other, delighted. "He has not got the
apparatus. With all such beings, their power, rather than perceived, is
_felt_. Sex, as with us, they also cannot know, for they are neither
male nor female." He paused, as the other did not help him. "Enigmas
they must always be to us. We may borrow from the East and call them
_devas_, or class them among nature spirits of legend and the rest, but
we can, at any rate, welcome them, and perhaps even learn from them."

"Learn from them?" echoed Fillery sharply.

"They are essentially _natural_, you see, whereas we are artificial,
and becoming more so with every century, though we call it
civilization. If we lived closer to nature we might get better results,
I mean. Primitive man, I'm convinced, did get certain results, but he
was a poor instrument. Modern man, in some ways, is a better, finer
instrument to work through, only he is blind to the existence of any
beings but himself. A bridge, however, might be built, I feel. 'N. H.'
seems to me in close touch with these curious beings, if"--he lowered
his voice--"he is not actually one of them. The wind and fire he talks
about are, of course, not what _we_ mean. It is heat and rhythm, in
some more essential form, he refers to. If 'N. H.' is some sort of
nature spirit, or nature-being, he is of a humble type, concerned with
humble duties in the universe----"

"There are, you think, then, higher, bigger kinds?" inquired the
listener, his face and manner showing neither approval nor disapproval.

Father Collins raised his hands and face and shoulders, even his
eyebrows. His spirits rose as well.

"If they exist at all--and the assumption explains plausibly the
amazing intelligence behind all natural phenomena--they include
every grade, of course, from the insignificant fairies, so called,
builders of simple forms, to the immense planetary spirits and
vast Intelligences who guide and guard the welfare of the greater
happenings." His eyes shone, his tone matched in enthusiasm his
gestures. "A stupendous and magnificent hierarchy," he cried, "but
all, all under God, of course, who maketh his angels spirits and his
ministers a flaming fire. Ah, think of it," he went on, becoming
lyrical almost as wonder fired him, "think of it now especially in the
spring! The vast abundance and insurgence of life pouring up on all
sides into forms and bodies, and all led, directed, fashioned by this
host of invisible, yet not unknowable, Intelligences! Think of the
prolific architecture, the delicacy, the grandeur, the inspiring beauty
that are involved...!"

"You said just now a bridge might be built," Dr. Fillery interrupted,
while the other paused a second for breath.

Father Collins, nailed down to a positive statement, hesitated and
looked about him. But the hesitation passed at once.

"It is the question merely," he went on more composedly, "of providing
the apparatus, the means of manifestation, the instrument, the--body.
Isn't it? Our evolution and theirs are two separate--different things."

"I suppose so. No force can express itself without a proper apparatus."

"Certain of these Intelligences are so immense that only a series of
events, long centuries, a period of history, as we call it, can provide
the means, the body indeed, through which they can express themselves.
An entire civilization may be the 'body' used by an archetypal power.
Others, again--like 'N. H.' probably--since I notice that it is usually
the artist, the artistic temperament _he_ affects most--require beauty
for their expression--beauty of form and outline, of sound, of colour."

He paused for effect, but no comment came.

"Our response to beauty, our thrill, our lift of delight and wonder
before any manifestation of beauty--these are due only to our
perception, though usually unrecognized except by artists, of the
particular Intelligence thus trying to express itself----"

Dr. Fillery suddenly leaned forward, listening with a new expression
on his face. He betrayed, however, no sign of what he thought of his
voluble visitor. An idea, none the less, had struck him like a flash
between the eyes of the mind.

"You mean," he interposed patiently, "that just as your fairies use
form and colour to express themselves in nature, we might use beauty of
a mental order to--to----"

"To build a body of expression, yes, an instrument in a collective
sense, through which 'N. H.' might express whatever of knowledge,
wisdom and power he has----"

"Will you explain yourself a little more definitely?"

Father Collins beamed. He continued with an air of intense conviction:

"The Artist is ever an instrument merely, and for the most part an
unconscious one; only the greatest artist is a conscious instrument. No
man is an artist at all until he transcends both nature and himself;
that is, until he interprets both nature and himself in the unknown
terms of that greater Power whence himself and nature emanate. He is
aware of the majestic source, aware that the universe, in bulk and in
detail, is an expression of it, itself a limited instrument; but aware,
further--and here he proves himself great artist--of the stupendous,
lovely, central Power whose message stammers, broken and partial,
through the inadequate instruments of ephemeral appearances.

"He creates, using beauty in form, sound, colour, a better and more
perfect instrument, provides this central Power with a means of fuller
expression.

"The message no longer stammers, halts, suggests; it flows, it pours,
it sings. He has fashioned a vehicle for its passage. His art has
created a body it can use. He has transcended both nature and himself.
The picture, poem, harmony that has become the body for this revelation
is alone great art."

"Exactly," came the patient comment that was asked for.

"One thing is certain: only human knowledge, expressed in human terms,
can come through a human brain. No mind, no intellect, can convey a
message that transcends human experience and reason. Art, however, can.
It can supply the vehicle, the body. But, even here, the great artist
cannot communicate the secret of his Vision; he cannot talk about it,
tell it to others. He can only _show_ the result."

"Results," interrupted Dr. Fillery in a curious tone; "what results,
exactly, would you look for?" There was a burning in his eyes. His skin
was tingling.

"What else but a widening, deepening, heightening of our present
consciousness," came the instant reply. "An extension of faculty, of
course, making entirely new knowledge available. A group of great
artists, each contributing his special vision, respectively, of form,
colour, words, proportion, could together create a 'body' to express a
Power transcending the accumulated wisdom of the world. The race could
be uplifted, taught, redeemed."

"You have already given some attention to this strange idea?" suggested
his listener, watching closely the working of the other's face. "You
have perhaps even experimented---- A ceremonial of some sort, you mean?
A performance, a ritual--or what?"

Father Collins lowered his voice, becoming more earnest, more
impressive:

"Beauty, the arts," he whispered, "can alone provide a vehicle for
the expression of those Intelligences which are the cosmic powers.
A performance of some sort--possibly--since there must be sound and
movement. A bridge between us, between our evolution and their own,
might, I believe, be thus constructed. Art is only great when it
provides a true form for the expression of an eternal cosmic power. By
combining--we might provide a means for their manifestation----"

"A body of thought, as it were, through which our 'N. H.' might become
articulate? Is that your idea?"

Behind the question lay something new, it seemed, as though, while
listening to the exposition of an odd mystical conception, his mind
had been busy with a preoccupation, privately but simultaneously, of
his own. "In what way precisely do you suggest the arts might combine
to provide this 'body'?" he asked, a faint tremor noticeable in the
lowered voice.

"That," replied Father Collins promptly, never at a loss, "we should
have to think about. Inspiration will come to us--probably through
_him_. Ceremonial, of course, has always been an attempt in this
direction, only it has left the world so long that people no longer
know how to construct a real one. The ceremonials of to-day are ugly,
vulgar, false. The words, music, colour, gestures--everything must
combine in perfect harmony and proportion to be efficacious. It is a
forgotten method."

"And results--how would they come?"

"The new wisdom and knowledge that result are suddenly there _in_ the
members of the group. The Power has expressed itself. Not through the
brain, of course, but, rather, that the new ideas, having been _acted_
out, are suddenly there. There has been an extension of consciousness.
A group consciousness has been formed, and----"

"And there you are!" Dr. Fillery, moving his foot unperceived, had
touched a bell beneath the table. The foot, however, groped and
fumbled, as though unsure of itself.

"You learn to swim--by swimming, not by talking about it." Father
Collins was prepared to talk on for another hour. "If we can devise the
means--and I feel sure we can--we shall have formed a bridge between
the two evolutions----"

Nurse Robbins entered with apologies. A case upstairs demanded the
doctor's instant attendance. Dr. Devonham was engaged.

"One thing," insisted Father Collins, as they shook hands and he got up
to go, "one thing only you would have to fear." He was very earnest.
Evidently the signs of struggle, of fierce conflict in the other's
face he did not notice.

"And that is?" A hand was on the door.

"If successful--if we provide this means of expression for him--we
provide also the means of losing him."

"Death?" He opened the door with rough, unnecessary violence.

"Escape. He would no longer need the body he now uses. He would
_remember_--and be gone. In his place you would have--LeVallon again
only. I'm afraid," he added, "that he already _is_ remembering----!"

His final words, as Nurse Robbins deftly hastened his departure in
the hall, were a promise to communicate the results of his further
reflections, and a suggestion that his cottage by the river would be a
quiet spot in which to talk the matter over again.

But Dr. Fillery, having thanked Nurse Robbins for her prompt attendance
to his bell, returned to the room and sat for some time in a strange
confusion of anxious thoughts. A singular idea took shape in him--that
Father Collins had again robbed his mind of its unspoken content. That
sensitive receptive nature had first perceived, then given form to the
vague, incoherent dreams that lurked in the innermost recesses of his
hidden self.

Yet, if that were so----and if "N. H." already was "remembering"----!

A wave of shadow crept upon him, darkening his hope, his enthusiasm,
his very life. For another part of him knew quite well the value to be
attributed to what Father Collins had said.

Instinctively his mind sought for Devonham. But it did not occur to him
at the moment to wonder why this was so.




CHAPTER XXVI


Spring had come with her sweet torment of delight, her promises, her
passion, and London lay washed and perfumed beneath April's eager sun.
An immense, persuasive glamour was in the sky. The whole earth caught
up a swifter gear, as the magic of rich creative life poured out of
"dead" soil into flower, insect, bird and animal. The prodigious stream
omitted no single form; every "body" pulsed and blossomed at full
strength. The hidden powers in each seed emerged. And it was from the
inanimate body of the earth this flood of increased vitality rose.

Into Edward Fillery, strolling before breakfast over the wet lawn of
the enclosed garden, the tide of new life rose likewise. It was very
early, the flush of dawn still near enough for the freshness of the new
day to be everywhere. The greater part of the huge city was asleep.
He was alone with the first birds, the dew, the pearl and gold of the
sun's slanting rays. He saw the slates and chimneys glisten. Spring,
like a visible presence, was passing across the town, bringing the
amazing message that all obey yet no man understands.

    "This is its touch upon the blossomed rose,
       The fashion of its hand shaped lotus-leaves;
     In dark soil and the silence of the seeds
       The robe of spring it weaves.

    "It maketh and unmaketh, mending all;
       What it hath wrought is better than had been;
     Slow grows the splendid pattern that it plans,
       Its wistful hands between."

The lines came to his memory, while upon his mind fell lovely and
wonderful impressions. It was as though the subconsciousness of
the earth herself emerged with the spring, producing new life, new
splendour everywhere. Out of a single patch of soil the various roots
drew material they then fashioned into such different and complicated
outlines as daisy, lily, rose, and a hundred types of tree. From the
same bit of soil emerged these intricate patterns and designs, these
different forms. At this very moment, while his feet left dark tracks
across the silvery lawn, the process was going steadily forward all
over England. Beneath those very feet up rushed the power into all
conceivable bodies. Colour, music, form, marvellously organized, making
no mistakes, were turning the world into a vast, delicious garden.

Form, colour, sound! From his own hidden region rose again the flaming
hope and prophecy. He stooped and picked a daisy, examining with rapt
attention its perfect little body. Who, what made this astonishing
thing, that was yet among the humbler forms? What intelligence devised
its elaborate outline, guarded, cared for, tended it, ensured its
growth and welfare? He gazed at its white rays tipped with crimson,
its several hundred florets, its composite design. The spring life had
been pouring through it until he picked it. Through the huge mass of
earth's body its tiny roots had drawn the life it needed. This power
was now cut off. It would die. The process, as with everything else,
was "automatic and unintelligent!" It seemed an incredible explanation.
The old familiar question troubled him, but he saw it abruptly now from
a new angle.

"We built it," came a voice so close that it seemed behind him, for
when at first he turned, startled, and yet not startled, he saw no
figure standing; "we who work in darkness, yet who never die, the
Hidden Ones who build and weave inside and out of sight. You have
destroyed our work of ages...."

A pang of sudden regret and anguish seized him. He stood still and
stared in the direction whence he thought the voice had come, but
no form, no outline, no body that could have produced a sound, a
voice, was visible. A blackbird flew with its shrill whistle over the
enclosing wall, and the gardener, up unusually early, was now moving
slowly past the elms at the far end, some two hundred yards away. The
old man, he remembered, had been telling him only the day before that
the life in his plants this year had been prodigious and successful
beyond his whole experience. It puzzled him. Something of reverence, of
superstition almost, had lain in the man's voice and eyes.

"Who are you?" whispered Fillery, still holding the "dead" broken
flower in his hand and staring about him. He was aware that the sound
from which the voice had come, detaching itself, as it were, into
articulate syllables out of a general continuous volume, had not
ceased. It was all about him, softly murmuring. Was it in himself
perhaps? An intense inner activity, like the pressure of an enveloping
tide, that was also in space, in the soil, the body of the planet, rose
in him too. And it seemed to him that his mind was suddenly in process
of being shaped and fashioned into a new "body of understanding"; a new
instrument of understanding.

    "This is its work upon the things ye see:
       The unseen things are more; men's hearts and minds,
     The thoughts of peoples and their ways and wills,
       These, too, the great Law binds."

"I know," he exclaimed, this time with acceptance that omitted the
doubt he had first felt. "I know who you are" ... and even as he said
the words, there dropped into him, it seemed, some knowledge, some
hint, some wonder that lay, he well knew, outside all human experience.
It was as though some cosmic power brushed gently against and through
his being, but a power so alien to known human categories that to
attempt its expression in human terms--language, reason, imagination
even--were to mutilate it. Yet, even for its partial, broken
manifestation, human terms were alone available, since without these it
must remain unperceived, he himself unaware of its existence.

He _was_, however, aware of its presence, its existence. All that
was left to him therefore was his own personal interpretation.
Herein, evidently, lay the truth for him; this was the meaning of his
"acceptance." It was, in some way, a renewal of that other vision he
called the Flower Hill and Flower Music experience.

"I know you," he repeated, his voice merging curiously in the general
underlying murmur of the morning. "You belong to the bodiless, the
deathless ones who work and build and weave eternally. Form, sound,
colour are your instruments, the elements your tools. You wove this
flower," he fingered the dying daisy, "as you also shaped this
body"--he tapped his breast--"and--you built as well this mind----"

He stopped dead. Two things arrested him: the feeling that the ideas
were not primarily his own, but derived from a source outside himself;
and a sudden intensification of the flaming hope and prophecy that
burst up as with new meaning into the words "mind" and "body."

The broken body of the flower slipped from his fingers and fell upon
the body of the earth. He looked down at its now empty form through
which no life flowed, and his eye passed then to his own body beating
with intense activity, and thence to the bodies of the trees, the
darting birds, the gigantic sun now peering magnificently along the
heavens. Body! A body was a form through which life expressed itself, a
vehicle of expression by means of which life manifested, an instrument
it used. But a body of thought was a true phrase too. And with the
words, shaped automatically in his brain, a new light flashed and
flooded him with its waves.

"A body of thought, a mental body"--the phrase went humming and
flowing strangely through him. A body of thought! Father Collins, he
remembered, had used some such wild language, only it had seemed empty
words without intelligible meaning. Whence came the intense new meaning
that so suddenly attached itself to the familiar phrase? Whence came
the thrilling deep conviction that new, greater knowledge was hovering
near, and that for its expression a new body must be devised? And
what was this new knowledge, this new power? Whence came the amazing
certainty in him that a new way was being shown to him, a means of
progress for humanity that must otherwise flounder always to its
average level of growth, development, then invariably collapse again?

"_We_ built it," ran past him through the air again, or rose perhaps
from the stirred depths of his own subconscious being, or again,
dropped from a hidden rushing star. "The more perfect and adequate
the form, the greater the flow of life, of knowledge, of power it can
express. No mind, no intellect, can convey a message that transcends
human experience. Yet there is a way."

The new knowledge was there, if only the new vehicle suited to its
expression could be devised....

The stream of life pouring through him became more and more intense;
some power of perception seemed growing into white heat within him;
transcending the limited senses; becoming incandescent. This tide of
sound, inaudible to ordinary ears, was the music which is inseparable
from the rhythm that underlies all forms, the music of the earth's
manifold activities now pouring in vibrations huge and tiny all round
and through him. He turned instinctively.

"You...!" exclaimed the doctor in him, as though rebuke, reproval
stirred. "You here...!"

It seemed to him that the figure of "N. H.," embodying as it were a ray
of sunlight, stood beside him.

"We," came the answer, with a smile that took the sparkling sunlight
through the very face. "We are all about you," added the voice with
a rhythm that swamped all denial, all objection, bringing an exultant
exhilaration in their place. "We come from what always seems to
you a Valley of sun and flowers, where we work and play behind the
appearances you call the world."

"The world," repeated Fillery. "The universe as well."

The voice, the illusion of actual words, both died away, merging in
some perplexing fashion into another appearance, perhaps equally an
illusion so far as the senses were concerned--the phenomenon men call
sight. Instead of hearing, that is, he now suddenly saw. Something in
the arrangement of light caught his attention, holding it. The deep,
central self in him, that which interprets and de-codes the reports the
senses bring, employed another mode.

The figure of "N. H." still was definite enough in form indeed, yet
at the same time taking the rays into itself as though it were a body
of light. There was no transparency, of course, nor was this clear
radiance seen by Fillery for the first time, but rather that his
natural shining was caught up and intensified by the morning sunshine.
A body of light, none the less, seemed a true description of what
Fillery now saw. This sunshine filled the air, the space all round
him, the entire lawn and garden shone in a sparkling flood of dancing
brilliance. It blazed. The figure of "N. H." was merely a portion of
this blazing. As a focus, but one of many, he now thought of it. And
about each focus was the toss and fling of lovely, ever-rising spirals.

Across the main stream came then another pulsing movement, hardly
discernible at first, and similar to an under-swell that moves the
sea against the wave--so that the eye perceives it only when not
looking for it. This contrary motion, it soon became apparent, went in
numerous, almost countless directions, so that, within and below its
complicated wave-tracery, he was aware of yet other motions, crossing
and interlacing at various speeds, until the space about him seemed
to whirl with myriad rhythms, yet without the least confusion. These
rhythms were of a hundred different magnitudes, from the very tiny to
the gigantic, and while the smallest were of a radiant brilliance that
made the sunshine pale, the larger ones seemed distant, their light
of an intenser quality, though of a quality he had never seen before.
These were strangely diffused, these bigger ones--"distant" was the
word that occurred to him, although that inner brilliance which occurs
in dreams, in imaginative moments, the nameless glow that colours
mental vision, described them better. Moreover they wore colours the
human eye had never seen, while the smallest rhythms were lit with the
familiar colours of the prism.

He stood absorbed, fascinated, drinking in the amazing spectacle, as
though the glowing spirals of fire communicated to his inmost being a
heat and glory of creative power. He was aware of the creative stream
of spring in his own heart, pouring from the body of the earth on which
he stood, drenching mind, nerves and even muscles with concentrated
life. His subconscious being rose and stretched its wings. All, all
was possible. A sensation of divine deathlessness possessed him. The
limitations of his ordinary human faculties and powers were overborne,
so that he felt he could never again face the mournful prison that
caged him in. The meaning of escape became plain to him.

He saw the invisible building Intelligences at work.

He was aware then suddenly of purpose, of intention. The seeming welter
of the waves of coloured light, of the immense and tiny rhythms, the
intricate streams of vibrating, pulsing, throbbing movements were, he
now perceived, marvellously co-ordinated. There was a focus, a vortex,
towards which all rushed with a power so prodigious that a sense of
terror touched him. He suddenly became conscious of a pattern forming
before his eyes, hanging in empty space, shining, soft with light and
beauty. It became, he saw, a geometric design. An idea of crystals,
frost-forms, a spider's web hung with glistening dewdrops shot across
his memory. The spirals whirled and sang about it.

This outline, he next perceived, was the focus to which the light,
heat, colour all contributed their particular touch and quality. It
glowed now in the centre of the vortex. So overwhelming, however, was
the sense of the stupendous power involved that, as he phrased it
afterwards, it seemed he watched the formation of some mighty sun. It
was the whirling of those billion-miled sheets of incandescent fires
that attend the birth of a nebula he watched. The power, at any rate,
was gigantic.

He stood trembling before a revelation that left him lost, shelterless,
bereft of any help that his little self might summon--when, suddenly,
with an emotion of strange tenderness, he saw the great rhythms become
completely dominated by the very smallest of all. The same instant
the pattern grew sharply outlined, perfect in every detail, as though
the focus of powerful glasses cleared--and the pattern hung a moment
exquisitely fashioned in space beneath his eyes before it sank slowly
to the ground. It remained in an upright position on the grass at his
feet--a daisy, growing in the earth, alive, its tiny delicate face
taking the sunlight and the morning wind.

With a shock he then realized another thing: it was the very daisy he
had broken, uprooted, killed a few minutes before.

He stooped, one hand outstretched as though to finger its wee white
petals, but found instead that he was listening--listening to a sweet
faint music that rose from the surface of the lawn, from grass and
flowers, running in waves and circles, like the vibrations of gentle
wind across a thousand strings. It was similar, though less in volume,
to the sound he had heard in the presence of "N. H." He rose slowly to
an upright position, dazed, bewildered, yet rapt with the wonder of the
whole experience.

"N. H.!" he heard his voice exclaim, its sound merging in the growing
volume of music all about him. "N. H.!" he cried again. "This is your
work, your service...!"

But he could not see him; his figure was no longer differentiated from
the ever-moving sea of light that filled space wherever he looked. The
same play of brilliance shone and glistened everywhere, whirling, ever
shifting as in vortices of intricate geometrical designs, dancing,
interpenetrating, and with a magnificence of colour that caught
his breath away. There were remarkable flashings, and two of these
flashings blazed suddenly together, forming an immense physiognomy, an
expression, rather, as of a mighty face. The same instant there were
a hundred of these mighty brilliant visages that pierced through the
sea of whirling colour and gazed upon him, close, terrific, with a
power and beauty that left thought without even a ghost of language to
describe them. Their glory lay beyond all earthly terms. He recognized
them. These mighty outlines he had seen before.

His mind then made an effort; he tried to think; memory and reason
strove with emotion and sensation. The forms, the faces, the powers at
once grew fainter. They faded slowly. The whirling vortices withdrew in
some extraordinary way, the colour paled, the sound grew thinner, ever
more distant, the great weaving designs dissolved. The lovely spirals
all were gone. He saw the garden trees again, the flower beds. Space
emptied, showing the morning sunshine on roofs and chimney-pots.

"We have rebuilt, remade it," he heard faintly, but he heard also the
roar and boom of the gigantic rhythms as they withdrew, not spatially,
so much as from his consciousness that was now contracting once more,
till only the fainter sounds of the smaller singing patterns, the
Flower Music as he had come to call it, reached his ears. Words and
music, like voices known in dreams, seemed interwoven. He remembered
the huge faces, with their bright confidence and glory, rising through
the sunlight, peering as through a mirror at him, radiant and of
imperishable beauty. The words, perhaps, he attached himself, his own
interpretations of their ringing motions.

The sounds died away. He reeled. The expansion and subsequent
contraction of consciousness had been too rapid, the whole experience
too intense. He swayed, unsure of his own identity. He remembered
vaguely that tears filled his eyes and rolled down his cheeks, that
the destruction of a lovely form had caused him a peculiar anguish,
and that its recreation produced an intolerable joy, bringing tears of
happiness. An arm caught him as he swayed. The accents of a voice he
knew were audible close beside him. But at first he did not understand
the words, feeling only a dull pain they caused.

"Their imperishable beauty! Their divine loveliness!" he stammered,
recognizing the face and voice. He flung his arms wide, gazing into
the now empty air above the London garden. "The great service they
eternally fulfil--oh, that we all might----" He made a gesture towards
the other houses with their sightless, shuttered windows.

"I know, I know," came in the familiar tones. "But come in now, come
in, Edward, with me. I beg you--before it is too late." Paul Devonham's
voice shook so that it was hardly recognizable. The skin of his face
was white. He wore a haggard look.

"Too late!" repeated the other; "it is always too late. The world will
never see. Their eyes are blinded." An intolerable emotion swept him.
He stared suddenly at his colleague, an immense surprise in him. "But
you, Paul!" he exclaimed. "You understand! Even you----!"

Devonham led him slowly into the house. There was protection in his
manner, in voice and gesture there was deep affection, respect as
well, but behind and through these flickered the signs of another
unmistakable emotion that Fillery at first could hardly credit--of
pity, was it? Of something at any rate he dared not contemplate.

"Even I," came in quick, low tones, "even I, Edward, understand.
You forget. I was once alone with him"--the voice sank to a rapid
whisper--"in the mountain valley." Devonham's expression was curious.
He raised his tone again. "But--not now, not now, I beg of you. Not
yet, at any rate. You will be cast out, judged insane, your work
destroyed, your career ruined, your reputation----" His excitement
betrayed itself in his bright eyes and unusual gestures. He was shaken
to the core. Fillery turned upon him. They were in the corridor now. He
flung his arm free of the restraining hand.

"You know!" he cried, "yet would keep silent!" His voice choked.
"You saw what I saw: new sources open, the offer made, the channels
accessible at our very door, yet you would refuse----"

"Not one in ten million," came the hard rejoinder, "would believe."
The voice trembled. "We have no proof. Their laws of manifestation
are unknown to us, and such glimpses are but glimpses--useless and
dangerous." He whispered suddenly: "Besides--what are they? What, after
all, are we dealing with?"

"We can experiment," interrupted his companion quickly.

"How? Of what possible value?"

"You felt what I felt? In your own being you experienced the revelation
too, and yet you use such words! New forces, new faculties, Beings from
another order of incalculable powers to ennoble, to bless, to inspire!
The creation of higher forms through which new, greater life and
knowledge, shall manifest!"

He could hardly find the words he sought, so bright was the hope and
wonder in his heart still. "Think--at a time like this--what humanity
might gain. _Creative_ powers, Paul, creative! Acting directly on
the subconscious selves of everybody, intensifying every individual,
whether he understands and believes or not! The gods, Paul--and nothing
less---- You saw the daisy----"

Devonham seized both of his companion's hands, as he heard the torrent
of wild, incoherent words: "You'll have the entire world against you,"
he interrupted. "Why seek crucifixion for a dream?" Then, as his hands
were again flung off, he turned, a finger suddenly on his lips. "Hush,
hush, Edward!" he whispered. "The house is sleeping still. You'll wake
them all."

There was a new, strange authority about him. Dr. Fillery controlled
himself. They went upstairs on tiptoe.

"Listen!" murmured Devonham, as they reached the first-floor landing.
"That's what woke me first and led me to his room, but only to find it
empty. He was already gone. I saw him join you on the lawn. I watched
from the open window. Then--I lost him.... Listen!" He was trembling
like a child.

The sound still echoed faintly, distant, rising and falling, sweet and
very lovely, and hardly to be distinguished from the musical hum of
wind that sighs and whispers across the strings of an æolian harp. To
one man came incredible sensations as they paused a moment. Dim though
the landing was, there still seemed a tender luminous glow pervading it.

"They're everywhere," murmured Fillery, "everywhere and always about
us, though in different space. Through and behind and inside everything
that happens, helping, building, constructing ceaselessly. Oh, Paul,
how can you doubt and question value? Behind every single form and
body, physical or mental, they operate divinely----"

"Mental! Edward, for God's sake----"

Devonham stepped nearer to him with such abruptness that his companion
stopped. The pallor of the assistant's face so close arrested his
words a moment. They held their breath, listening together side by
side. The sounds grew fainter, died away in the stillness of the early
morning, then ceased altogether. It was not the first time they had
listened thus to the strange music, nor was it the first time that
Fillery entered the room alone. As once before, his colleague remained
outside, watching, waiting, half seduced, it seemed, yet vehemently
against a sympathetic attitude. He watched his chief go in, he saw the
expression on his face. Upon his own, behind a mild expectancy, lay a
look of pain.

"Empty!" He heard the startled exclamation.

And instantly Devonham was at his side, a firm hand upon his arm, his
eyes taking in an unused bed, a window opened wide, a glow of light
and heat the early sunshine could not possibly explain. The perfume,
as of flowers in the air, he noted too, and a sense of lightness,
freshness, sweetness about the atmosphere that produced happiness,
exhilaration. The room throbbed, as it were, with invisible waves of
some communicable power even he could not deny. But of "N. H.," the
recent occupant, there was no sign.

"In the garden still. I lost sight of him somehow. I told you."

Fillery crossed quickly to the window, his colleague with him, looking
out upon a lawn and paths that held no figure anywhere. The gardener
was not in sight. Only the birds were visible among the daisies. The
quiet sunlight lay as usual upon leaves and flowers waving in the
breeze. "He came in," Fillery went on rapidly under his breath. "He
must have slipped back when----"

The sound of steps and voices behind them in the corridor brought both
men round with a quick movement, as Nurse Robbins, her arm linked in
that of "N. H.," stood in the open doorway. Her face was radiant, her
eyes alight, her breath came unevenly, and one might have thought her
caught midway in some ecstatic dance that still left its joy and bliss
stamped on her pretty face. Only she looked more than pretty; there
was beauty, a fairy loveliness about her that betrayed an intense
experience of some inner kind.

At the sight of the two doctors she rapidly composed herself, leading
her companion quietly into the room. "He was upstairs, sir," she said
respectfully but breathlessly somewhat, and addressing herself, Fillery
noticed, to Devonham and not to himself. "He was going from room to
room, talking to the patients--er--singing to them. It was the singing
woke me----"

"Upstairs!" exclaimed Devonham. "He has been up there!"

She broke off as Fillery came forward and took "N. H." by the hands,
dismissing her with a gesture she was quick to understand. Devonham
went with her hurriedly, intent upon a personal inspection at once.

"Your service called you," said Fillery quietly, the moment they were
alone. "I understand!" Through the contact of the hands waves of power
entered him, it seemed. About the face was light, as though fire glowed
behind the very skin and eyes, producing the effect almost of a halo.

"They came for me, and I must go." The voice was deep and wonderful,
with prolonged vibrations. "I have found my own. I must return where my
service needs me, for here I can do so little."

"To your own place where you are ruler of your fate," the other said
slowly. "Here you----"

"Here," came the quick interruption, while the voice lost its
resonance, fading as it were in sadness, "here I--die." Even the
radiance of his face, although he smiled, dimmed a little on that final
word. "I can help where I belong--not here." The light returned, the
music came back into the amazing voice.

"The daisy," whispered Fillery, joy rising in him strangely.

"Nature," floated through the air like music, "is my place. With human
beings I cannot work. It is too much, and I only should destroy. They
are not ready yet, for our great rhythms injure them, and they cannot
understand."

Trembling with emotions he could neither define nor control, Fillery
led him to the window.

"Even in this little back-garden of a London house," he murmured,
"among, so to speak, the humble buttercups and daisies of our life! The
creative Intelligences at work, building, ever building the best forms
they can. You re-make a broken daisy"--his voice rose, as the great
shining face so close lit with its flaming smile--"you re-make as well
our broken minds. In the subconscious hides our creative power that you
stimulate. It is with that and that alone you work. It hides in all of
us, though the artist alone perceives or can use it. It is with that
you work----"

"With you, dear Fillery, I can work, for you help me to remember. You
feel the big rhythms that we bring."

Dr. Fillery started, peered about him, listened hard. Was it the
trees, shaking in the morning wind, that rustled? Was it a voice? The
dancing leaves reflected the sunshine from a thousand facets. The sound
accompanied, rather than interrupted, his own speech. He turned back to
"N. H." with passionate enthusiasm.

"Using beauty--the artists--the creative powers of the Race," he went
on, "we shall create together a new body, a new vehicle, through which
your powers can express themselves. The intellect cannot serve you ...
it is the creative imagination of those who know beauty that you seek.
You are inarticulate in this wretched body. We shall make a new one----"

"They have come for me and I must go----"

"We will work together. Oh, stay--stay with me----!"

"I have found the way. I have remembered. I must go back----"

The wind died down, the leaves stopped rustling, the sunshine seemed
to pale as though a cloud passed over the sky. The words he had heard
resolved themselves into the morning sounds, the singing of the birds.
Had they been words at all? Bewilderment, like a pain, rushed over him.
He knew himself suddenly imprisoned, caught.

"I have remembered," he heard in quiet tones, but the voice dead, no
resonance, no music in it. And across the room he saw suddenly Paul
Devonham just inside the door, returned from his inspection. Beside him
stood--LeVallon.

An extraordinary reaction instantly took place in him. A lid was
raised, a shutter lifted, a wall fell flat. He hardly knew how to
describe it. Was it due to the look of anxiety, of tenderness, of
affectionate, of protective care he saw plainly upon his colleague's
face? He could not say. He only knew for certain in that instant that
Paul Devonham's main preoccupation was with--himself; that the latter
regarded him exactly as he regarded any other--yes, that was the only
word--any other patient; that he looked after him, tended, guarded,
cared for him--and that this watchful, experienced observation had been
going on now for a long, long time.

The authority in his manner became abruptly clear as day. Devonham
watched over him; also he watched him. For days, for weeks, this had
been his attitude. For the first time, in this instant, as he saw him
lead away LeVallon into his own room and close the door, Fillery now
perceived this. He experienced a violent revulsion of mind. In a flash
a hundred details of the recent past occurred to him, chief among
them the fact that, more and more, the control of the Home and its
occupants had been taken over, Fillery himself only too willing, by his
assistant. A moment of appalling doubt rose like a black cloud....

He heard Paul telling LeVallon to begin his breakfast, just as the door
closed, and he noted the authoritative tone of voice. The next minute
he and his colleague were alone together.

"Paul," said the chief quickly, but with a calm assurance that
anticipated a favourable answer, "_they_, at any rate, are all right?"

Devonham nodded his head. "No harm done," he replied briefly. "In fact,
as you know, he rather stimulates them than otherwise."

"I know."

He felt, for the first time in their years of close relationship, a
breath of suspicion enter him. There was a look upon his colleague's
face he could not quite define. It baffled him.

"Of course, I know----"

He stopped, for the undecipherable look had strengthened suddenly. He
thought of a gaoler.

"Paul," he said quickly, "what's the matter? What's wrong with you?"

He drew back a pace or two and watched him.

"With me--nothing, Edward. Nothing at all." The tone was grave with
anxiety, yet had this new authority in it.

A feeling of intolerable insecurity came upon him, a sensation as
though he balanced on air, yet its cause, its origin, easily explained:
the support of his colleague's mind was taken from him. Paul's attitude
was clear as day to him. He _was_ a gaoler.... He recalled again the
recent detail, brightly significant--that Nurse Robbins had turned to
Paul, rather than to himself.

"With--_me_, then--you think?" His voice hardly sounded like his own.
He looked about him for support, found an arm-chair, sat down in it.
"You're strange, Paul, very strange," he whispered. "What do you mean
by 'there's something wrong with _me_'?"

Devonham's expression cleared slightly and a kindly, sympathetic
smile appeared, then vanished. The grave look that Fillery disliked
reappeared.

"What d'you mean, Paul Devonham?" came the repetition, in a louder,
more challenging voice. "You're watching me--as though I were"--he
laughed without a trace of mirth--"a patient." He leaned forward.
"Paul, you've been watching me for a long time. Out with it, now. What
is it?"

Devonham, who had kept silent, drew some papers from his pocket, a
bundle of rolled sheets.

"Of course," he said gently, "I always watch you. For that's how I
learn. I learn from you, Edward, more than from anybody I know."

But Dr. Fillery, his eyes fixed upon the sheaf of papers, had
recognized them. His own writing was visible along the uneven edges.
They were the description he had set down of his adventure on Flower
Hill, of the scenes between "N. H." and Lady Gleeson, between "N. H."
and Nayan, the autobiographical description with "N. H." and Nurse
Robbins soon after his arrival, when Fillery had so amazingly found his
own mind--as he believed--identified with his patient's.

Devonham snapped off the elastic band that held the sheaf together.
"Edward, I've read them. We have no secrets, of course. I've read them
carefully. Every word--my dear fellow."

"Yes, yes," replied the other, while something in him wavered horribly.
"I'm glad. They were meant for you to read, for of course we have no
secrets. I--I do not expect you to agree. We have never quite seen eye
to eye--have we?" His voice shook. "You terrible iconoclast," he added,
betraying thus the nature of the fear that changed his voice, then
recognizing with vexation that he had done so. "You believe nothing.
You never will believe anything. You cannot understand. With joy you
would destroy what I and others believe--wouldn't you, Paul----?"

The deep sadness, the gravity on the face in front of him stopped the
tirade.

"I would save you, Edward," came the earnest, gentle words,
"from yourself. The powers of auto-suggestion, as we know in our
practice--don't we?--are limitless. If you call that destroying----"

From the adjoining room the clatter of knives and forks was audible.
Dr. Fillery listened a moment with a smile.

"Paul," he asked, his voice firm and sure again, "is your chief patient
in that room," indicating the door with his head, "or--in this?"

"In this," was the reply. "A wise man is always his own patient and
'Physician, heal thyself' his motto." He sat down beside his chief.
His manner changed; there was affection, deep solicitude, something
of passionate entreaty even in voice and eyes and gestures. "There
are features here," he said in lowered tones, "Edward, we have not
understood, perhaps even we can never understand; but we have not, I
think, sufficiently guarded against one thing--auto-suggestion. The
rôle it plays in life is immense, incalculable; it is in everything
we do and think, above all in everything we believe. It is peculiarly
powerful and active in--er--unusual things----"

"The sound--the sounds--you've heard them yourself," broke in his
companion.

Devonham shrugged his thin shoulders. "He sings--in a peculiar way." As
an aside, he said it, returning to his main sermon instantly. "Let us
leave details out," he cried; "it is the principle that concerns us.
Edward, your complex against humanity lies hard and rigid in you still.
It has never found that full recognition by yourself which can resolve
it. Your work, your noble work, is but a partial expression. The kernel
of this old complex in you remains unrelieved, undischarged--because
still unrecognized. And, further, you are continually adding to the
repression which"--even Devonham paused a second before using such a
word to such a man--"is poisoning you, Edward, poisoning you, I repeat."

"You saw--you saw the rebuilding of--the daisy"--an odd whisper of
insecurity ran through the quiet words, a statement rather than a
question--"you realize, at any rate, that chance has brought us into
contact with Powers, creative Powers, of a new order----"

"Let us omit all details just now," interrupted the other, a troubled,
indecipherable look on his face. "The undoubted telepathy between your
mind and mine nullifies any such----"

"----powers of which we all have some faint counterpart, at any rate,
in our subliminal selves." Fillery had not heard the interruption.
"Powers by means of which we may build for the Race new forms,
new mental bodies, new vehicles for life, for God, to manifest
through--more perfect, more receptive----"

Devonham had suddenly seized both his hands and was leaning closer to
him. Something compelling, authoritative, peculiarly convincing for a
moment had its undeniable effect, again stopping the flow of hurried,
passionate, eager words.

"There is one new form, new body," and the intensity in voice and eyes
drove the meaning deep, deep into his listener's mind and heart. "I
wish to see you build. One, and one only--physical, mental, spiritual.
But you cannot build it, Edward--alone!"

"Paul!" The other held up a warning hand; the expression in his eyes
was warning too. Their effect upon Devonham, however, was nil. He was
talking with a purpose nothing could alter.

"She is still waiting for you," he went on with determination, "and
already you have kept her waiting--overlong." In the tone, in the hard
clear eyes as well, lay a suggestion almost of tears.

He opened the door into the breakfast-room, but Fillery caught his
arm and stopped him. They could hear Nurse Robbins speaking, as she
attended as usual to her patient's wants. Coffee was being poured out.
There was a sound of knives and plates and cups.

"One minute, Paul, one minute before we go in." He drew him aside. "And
what, _Doctor_ Devonham, may I ask, would you prescribe?" There was a
curious mixture of gentle sarcasm, of pity, of patient tolerance, yet
at the same time of sincere, even anxious, interest in the question.
The face and manner betrayed that he waited for the answer with
something more than curiosity.

There was no hesitancy in Devonham. He judged the moment ripe, perhaps;
he was aware that his words would be listened to, appreciated,
understood certainly, and possibly, obeyed.

"Expression," he said convincingly, but in a lowered voice. "The
fullest expression, everywhere and always. Let it all come. Accept the
lot, believe the lot, welcome the lot, and thus"--he could not conceal
the note of passionate entreaty, of deep affection--"avoid every atom
of _repression_. In the end--in the long run--your own best judgment
_must_ prevail."

They smiled into each other's eyes for a moment in silence, while,
instinctively and automatically, their hands joined in a steady clasp.

"Bless you, old fellow," murmured the chief. "As if I didn't know! It's
the treatment you've been trying on me for weeks and months. As if I
hadn't noticed!"

As they entered the breakfast-room, Nurse Robbins, with flushed face
and sparkling eyes, was pouring out the coffee, leaning close over her
patient's shoulder as she did so. Fresh roses were in her cheeks as
well as on the table.

"This is its touch upon the blossomed maid," whispered Fillery, with
the quick hint of humour that belongs only to the sane. At the same
time the light remark was produced, he well knew, by a part of himself
that sought to remain veiled from recognition. Any other triviality
would have done as well to cloak the sharp pain that swept him, and
to lead his listener astray. For in that instant, as they entered, he
saw at the table not "N. H.," but LeVallon--the backward, ignorant,
commonplace LeVallon, an empty, untaught personality, yet so receptive
that anything--_anything_--could be transferred to him by a strong,
vivid mind, a mind, for instance, like his own....

The sight, for a swift instant, was intolerable and devastating. He
balanced again on air that gave him no support. He wavered, almost
swayed. "N. H.," in that horrible and painful second, did not exist,
and never had existed. The unstable mind, he comforted himself,
experiences dislocating extremes of attitude ... for, at the same time
as he saw himself shaking and wavering without solid support, he saw
the figure of Paul Devonham, big, important, authoritative, dominating
the uncertainties of life with calm, steady power.

In a fraction of a second all this came and went. He sat down beside
LeVallon, his eyes still twinkling with his trivial little joke.

"'N. H.,'" he whispered to Devonham quickly, "has--escaped at last."

"LeVallon," came the whispered reply as quickly, "is cured at last."
And, to conceal an intolerable rush of pain, of loss, of loneliness
that threatened tears, he pointed to the dropped eyes and blushing
cheeks of the pretty nurse across the table.




CHAPTER XXVII


To Edward Fillery, the deep pain of frustration baffling all his mental
processes, the end had come with a strange, bewildering swiftness. He
knew there had been a prolonged dislocation of his being, possibly,
even a partial loss of memory with regard to much that went on about
him, but he could not, did not, admit that no value or reality had
attached to his experiences. The central self in him had projected a
limb, an arm, that, feeling its way across the confining wall of the
prison house, groping towards an unbelievably wonderful revelation of
new possibilities, had abruptly now withdrawn again. The dissociation
in his personality was over. He was, in other words, no longer aware
of "N. H." Like Devonham, he now did not "perceive" "N. H.," but only
LeVallon. But, unlike Devonham, he _had_ perceived him....

He had met half-way a mighty and magnificent Vision. Its truth and
beauty remained for him enduring. The revelation had come and gone.
That its close was sudden, simple, undramatic, above all untheatrical,
satisfied him. "N. H." had "escaped," leaving the commonplace
LeVallon in his place. But, at least, he had known "N. H."

His whole being, an odd, sweet, happy pain in him, yearned ever to
the glorious memory of it all. The melancholy, the peculiar shyness
he felt, were not without an indefinite pleasure. His nature still
vibrated to those haunting and inspiring rhythms, but his normal,
earthly faculties, he flattered himself, were in no sense permanently
disorganized. Professionally, he still cared for LeVallon, disenchanted
dust though he might be, compared to "N. H." ... He approved of
Devonham's proposal to take him for a few days to the sea. He also
approved of Paul's advice that he should accept Father Collins'
invitation to spend a day or two at his country cottage. The Khilkoffs
would be there, father and daughter. The Home, in charge of an
assistant, could be reached in a few hours in case of need. The magic
of Devonham's wise, controlling touch lay in every detail, it seemed....

He saw the trio--for Nurse Robbins was of the party--off to Seaford.
"The final touches to his cure," Paul mentioned slyly, with a smile, as
the guard whistled. But of whose cure he did not explain. "He'll bathe
in the sea," he added, the reference obvious this time. "And--when
we return--I shall be best man. I've already promised!" There was a
triumph of skilled wisdom in both sentences.

"The time isn't ripe yet, Edward, for too magnificent ideas. And
your ideas have been a shade too magnificent, perhaps." He talked on
lightly, even carelessly. And, as usual, there was purpose, meaning,
"treatment"--his friend easily discerned it now--in every detail of his
attitude.

Fillery laughed. Through his mind ran Povey's sentence, "Never argue
with the once-born!" but aloud he said, "At any rate, I've no idea that
I'm Emperor of Japan or--or the Archangel Gabriel!" And the other,
pleased and satisfied that a touch of humour showed itself, shook hands
firmly, affectionately, through the window as the train moved off.
LeVallon raised his hat to his chief and smiled--an ordinary smile....

       *       *       *       *       *

With the speed and incongruity of a dream these few days slipped by,
their happenings vivid enough, yet all set to a curiously small scale,
a cramped perspective, blurred a little as by a fading light. Only
one thing retained its brilliance, its intense reality, its place in
the bigger scale, its vast perspective remaining unchanged. The same
immense sweet rhythm swept Iraida and himself inevitably together. Some
deep obsession that hitherto prevented had been withdrawn.

She had called that very morning--Paul's touch visible here again, he
believed, though he had not asked. He looked on and smiled. After the
ordeal of breakfast with Devonham and LeVallon her visit was announced.
It was Paul, after a little talk downstairs, who showed her in. With
the radiance of a spring wild-flower opening to the early sunshine,
her unexpected visit to his study seemed clothed. Unexpected, yes, but
surely inevitable as well. With the sweet morning wind through the
open window, it seemed, she came to him, the letter of invitation from
Father Collins in her hand. His own lay among his correspondence, still
untouched. Her perfume rose about him as she explained something he
hardly heard or followed.

"You'll come, Edward, won't you? You'll come too."

"Of course," he answered. But it was a song he heard, and no dull
spoken words. She ran dancing towards him through a million flowers;
her hair flew loose along the scented winds; her white limbs glowed
with fire. He danced to meet her. It was in the Valley that he caught
her hands and met her eyes. "It's happened," he heard himself saying.
"It's happened at last--just as you said it must. _Escape!_ He has
escaped!"

"But we shall follow after--when the time comes, Edward."

"Where the wild bee never flew!"...

"When the time comes," she repeated.

Her voice, her smile, her eyes brought him back sharply into the little
room. The furniture showed up again. The Valley faded. He noticed
suddenly that for the first time she wore no flowers in her dress as
usual.

"Iraida!" he exclaimed. "Then--you knew!"

She bent her head, smiling divinely. She took both his hands in hers.
At her touch every obstacle between them melted. His own private,
personal inhibition he saw as the trivial barriers a little child
might raise. His complex against humanity, as Paul called it, had
disappeared. Their minds, their beings, their natures became most
strangely one, he felt, and yet quite naturally. There was nothing
they did not share.

"With the first dawn," he heard her say in a low voice. "Never--never
again," he seemed to hear, "shall we destroy his--their--work of ages."

"A flower," he whispered, "has no need to wear a flower!" He was
convinced that she too had shared an experience similar to his own,
perhaps had even seen the bright, marvellous Deva faces peering,
shining.... He did not ask. She said no more. Life flowed between them
in an untroubled stream....

       *       *       *       *       *

Like the flow of a stream, indeed, things went past him, yet with
incidents and bits of conversation thus picked out with vivid
sharpness. The dissociation of his being was still noticeable here and
there, he supposed. The swell after the storm took time to settle down.
Slowly, however, the waves that had been projected, leaping to heaven,
returned to the safe, quiet dead level of the normal calm.... The
depths lay still once more. And his melancholy passed a little, lifted.
He knew, at any rate, those depths were now accessible.

"I've seen over the wall a moment," he said to himself. "Paul is both
right and wrong. What I've seen lies too far ahead of the Race to be
intelligible or of use. I should be cast out, crucified, my other,
simpler work destroyed. To control rhythms so powerful, so different to
anything we now know, is not yet possible. They would shatter, rather
than construct." He smiled sadly, yet with resignation. There was pain
and humour in his eyes. "I should be regarded as a Promethean merely,
an extremist Promethean, and probably be locked up for contravening
some County Council bye-law or offending Church and State. That's
where he, perhaps, is right--Paul!" He thought of him with affection
and pity, with understanding love. "How wise and faithful, how patient
and how skilled--within his limits. The stable are the useful; the
stable are the leaders; the stable rule the world. People with steady
if unvisioned eyes like Paul, with money like Lady Gleeson.... But,
oh!"--he sighed--"how slow, ye gods! how slow!" ...

       *       *       *       *       *

The visit was a strange one. Nayan sat between him and her father in
the motor. It was not far from London, the ancient little house among
the trees where Father Collins secreted himself from time to time upon
occasional "retreats."

Within the grounds it might have been the centre of the New Forest,
but for the sound of tramcar bells that sometimes came jangling
faintly through the thick screen of leaves. There were old-world paved
courtyards with sweet playing fountains, miniature lawns, tangles of
flowers, small sunken gardens with birds of cut box and yew, stone
nymphs, and a shaggy, moss-grown Pan, whose hand that once held the
pipes had broken off. Suburbia lay outside, yet, by walking wisely, it
was possible to move among these delights for half an hour, great trees
ever rustling overhead, and a clear small stream winding peacefully in
and out with gentle lapping murmurs. Nature here lay undisturbed as it
had lain for centuries.

The little ancient house, moreover, seemed to have grown up with the
green things out of the soil, so naturally, it all belonged together.
The garden ran indoors, it seemed, through open doors and windows.
Butterflies floated from courtyard into drawing-room and out again,
leaves blew through dining-room windows, scurrying to another little
bit of lawn; the sun and wind, even the fountains' spray, found the
walls no obstacle as though unaware of them. Bees murmured, swallows
hung below the eaves. It was, indeed, a healing spot, a natural
retreat....

"I really believe the river rises in your library," exclaimed Fillery,
after a tour of inspection with his host, "and my bedroom is in the
heart of that big chestnut across the lawn. Do my feet touch carpet,
grass, or bark when I get out of bed in the morning?"

"I've learnt more here," began Father Collins, "than at all the
conferences and learned meetings I ever attended...."

The group of four stood in the twilight by the playing fountain where
the dignified stone Pan watched the paved little court, listening to
the splash of the water and the wind droning among the leaves. The lap
of the winding stream came faintly to them. The stillness cast a spell
about them, dropping a screen against the outer world.

"Hark!" said Father Collins, holding a curved hand to his ear. "You
hear the music...?"

    "'Why, in the leafy greenwood lone
     Sit you, rustic Pan, and drone
     On a dulcet resonant reed?'"

He paused, peering across to the stone figure as for an answer. All
stood listening, waiting, only wind and water breaking the silence.
The bats were now flitting; overhead hung the saffron arch of fading
sunset. In a deep ringing voice, very gruff and very low, Father
Collins gave the answer:

    "'So that yonder cows may feed
     Up the dewy mountain passes,
     Gathering the feathered grasses.'

"That's Pan's work," he said, laughing pleasantly, "Pan and all his
splendid hierarchy. Always at work, though invisibly, with music,
colour, beauty!..."

It was scraps like this that stood out in Fillery's memory, adding to
his conviction that Paul had enlisted even this strange priest in his
deep-laid plan....

"Each man is saturated with certain ideas, thoughts, phrases in a
line of his own. These constitute his groove. To go outside it makes
him feel homeless and uncomfortable. Accustomed to its measurements
and safe within them, he interprets all he hears, reads, observes,
according to his particular familiar shibboleths, to which, as to
a standard of infallible criticism, he brings slavishly all that
is offered for the consideration of his judgment. A new Idea stands
little chance of being comprehended, much less adopted. Tell him new
things about the stars, the Stock Exchange, the Stigmata--up crops
his Standard of approval or disapproval. He cannot help himself. His
judgment, based upon the limited content of his groove, operates
automatically. He condemns. An entirely new idea is barely glanced at
before it is rejected for the rubbish heap. How, then, can progress
come swiftly to a Race composed of such individuals? Mass-judgment,
herd-opinion governs everything. He who has original ideas is outcast,
and dwells lonely as the moon. How slow, ye Gods! How slow!" ...

Only Fillery could not remember, could not be certain, whether it was
his host or himself that used the words. Father Collins, as usual,
was saying "all sorts of things," but addressed himself surely, to
old Khilkoff most of the time, the Russian, half angry, half amused,
growling out his comments and replies as he sat smoking heavily and
enjoying the peaceful night scene in his own fashion....

It was odd, none the less, how much that the wild priest gabbled
coincided with his own, with Fillery's, thoughts at the moment. A
peculiar melancholy, a mood of shyness never known before, lay still
upon him. The beauty of the silent girl beside him overpowered him
a little; too wonderful to hold, to own, she seemed. Yet they were
deliciously, uncannily akin. All his former self-created denials and
suppressions, hesitations and refusals had vanished. "N. H."--He
wondered?--had provided him with the fullest expression he had ever
known. A boundless relief poured over him. He was aware of wholesome
desire rising behind his old high admiration and respect....

He watched her once standing close to Pan's broken outline among the
shadows, touching the mossy arm with white fingers, and he imagined for
an instant that she held the vanished pipes.

"After an experience with Other Beings," Father Collins's endless drone
floated to him, "shyness, they say, is felt. Silence descends upon the
whole nature" ... to which, a little later, came the growling comment
with its foreign accent: "Talk may be pleasurable--sometimes--but it is
profitable rarely...."

The talk flowed past and over him, occasional phrases, like islands
rising out of a stream, inviting his attention momentarily to land and
listen.... The girl, he now saw, no longer stood beside the broken
stone figure. She was wandering idly towards the farther garden and the
trees.

He burned to rise and go to her, but something held him. What was it?
What could it be? Some strange hard little obstacle prevented. Then,
suddenly, he knew what it was that stopped him: he was waiting for that
familiar pet sentence. Once he heard that, the impetus to move, the
power to overcome his strange shyness, the certainty that his whole
being was at last one with itself again, would come to him. It made him
laugh inwardly while he recognized the validity of the detail--final
symptoms of the obstructing inhibitions, of the obstinate original
complex.

The outline of the girl was lost now, merged in the shadows beyond.
He stirred, but could not get up to go. A fury of impatience burned
in him. Father Collins, he felt, dawdled outrageously. He was
talking--jawing, Fillery called it--about extraordinary experiences.
"Gradually, as consciousness more and more often extends, the organs
to record such extensions will be formed, you see.... If our inventive
faculties were turned inwards, instead of outwards for gain and comfort
as they now are, we might know the gods...."

The sculptor's growl, though the words were this time inaudible, had a
bite in them. The other voice poured on like thick, slow oil:

"What, anyhow, is it, then, that urges us on in spite of all obstacles,
denials, failures...?"

Then came something that seemed leading up to the pet sentence that
was the signal he waited for--nearer to it, at any rate:

"... It's childish, surely, to go on merely seeking more of what we
have already. We should seek something new...."

A call, it seemed, came to him on the wind from the dark trees. But
still he could not move.

But, at last, out of a prolonged jumble of the two voices, one
growling, the other high pitched, came the signal he somehow waited
for. Even now, however, the speaker delayed it as long as possible. He
was doing it, of course, on purpose. This was intentional, obviously.

"... Yes, but a thing out of its right place is without power,
life, means of expression--robbed of its context which alone gives
it meaning--robbed, so to speak, of its arms and legs--_without a
body_...."

There, at least, was the definite proof that Father Collins was doing
this of deliberate, set purpose!

"Go on! Yes, but, for God's sake, say it! I want to be off!" Fillery
believed he shrieked the words, but apparently they were inaudible.
They remained unnoticed, at any rate.

"... Hence the value of order, tidiness, you see. Often a misplaced
thing is invisible until replaced where it belongs. It is, as we say,
lost. No movement is meaningless, no walk without purpose. All your
movements tend towards your proper place...."

A breeze blew the fountain spray aside so that its splashing ceased for
a brief second. From the rustling leaves beyond came a faint murmur
as of distant piping. But--into the second's pause had leaped the pet
sentence:

"Only a being in his _own_ place is the ruler of his fate."

The signal! He was aware that the Russian cleared his throat and
spat unmusically, aware also that Father Collins, a queer smile just
discernible on his face in the gloom, turned his head with a gesture
that might well have been an understanding nod. Both sound and gesture,
however, were already behind him. He was released. He was across the
paved courtyard, past the fountain, past the stone figure of the silent
old rough god--and off!

And as he went, finding his way instinctively among the dark trees,
that pet sentence went with him like a clarion call, as though sweet
piping music played it everywhere about him. A thousand memories shut
down with a final snap. In the stage of his mind came a black-out upon
a host of inhibitions. There was an immense and glorious sense of
relief as though bitter knots were suddenly disentangled, and some iron
kernel of resistance that had weighted him for years flowed freely at
last in a stream of happy molten gold....

He found her easily. Where the trees thinned at the farther edge he
saw her figure, long before he came up with her, outlined against the
fading saffron. He saw her turn. He saw her arms outstretched. He came
up with her the same minute, and they stood in silence for a long time,
watching the darkness bend and sink upon the landscape.

For, here, at this one edge of the tiny estate, the real open country
showed. Beyond them, in the twilight, lay the silent fields like a
gigantic brown and yellow carpet whose shaken folds still seemed to
tremble and run on beneath the growing moon. Along a farther ridge the
trees and hedges passed in a ragged procession of strange figures,
defined sharply against the sky--witches, queens and goblins on the
prowl, the ancient fairyland of the English countryside.

They still stood silent, side by side, touching almost, their heat and
perfume and atmosphere intermingling, looking out across the quiet
scene. He was aware that her mind stole into his most sweetly, and that
without knowing it his hand had found her own, and that, presently, she
leaned a little against him. Their eyes, their mental sight as well,
saw the same things, he knew. The first stars peeped out, and they
looked up at them as one being looks, together.

"The wonder that you saw--in him," he heard himself saying. It was a
statement, not a question.

"Was yourself, of course," her voice, like his own, in the rustle of
the leaves, came softly. It continued his own thought rather than
replied to it. "The part you've held down and hidden away all these
years."

Her divination came to him with staggering effect. "You always knew
then?"

"Always. The first day we met you took me into the firm."

He was aware that everything about him pulsed and throbbed with life,
intelligence in every stick and stone. Angelic beings marched on
their wondrous business through the sky. A mighty host pursued their
endless service with a network of huge and tiny rhythms. The spirals of
creative fire soared and danced....

The moon emerged, sailing, sailing, as though no wind could stop her
lovely flight. She fled the stars themselves. The clouds turned round
to look at her, as, clearing their hair, she passed onwards with her
radiant smile. Heading into the bare bosom of the sky, she blazed in
her triumph of loneliness, her icy prow set towards some far, unknown,
unearthly goal, which is the reason why men love her so.

"And my theories--our theories?" he murmured into the ear against his
lips. "The way that has been shown to us?"

Both arms were now about her, and he held her so close that her words
were but a warm perfumed breath to cover his face as her hair was
covering his eyes.

"We shall follow it together ... dear."

It was as if some angel, stepping down the sky, came near enough to
fold them in a great rhythm of fire and wind. Bright, mighty faces in a
crowd rose round them, and, through her hair, he saw familiar visible
outlines of all the common things melt out, showing for one gorgeous
instant the flashings and whirlings that was the workshop of Their
deathless service.

"Look! Look!" he whispered, pointing from the darkening earth to the
stars and sailing moon above. "They're everywhere! You can see them
too? The bright messengers?"

For answer, she came yet closer against his side, holding him more
tightly to her, lifting her lips to his, so that in her very eyes he
saw the marvellous fire shine and flash. "We shall build together, you
and I," she whispered very softly, "and with Their help, the sweetest
and most perfect body ever known...."

But behind the magic of her words and voice, behind their meaning
and the steadying, understanding sympathy he easily divined, he
heard another sound, familiar as a dream, yet fraught with some
haunting significance he already was forgetting--almost _had_
entirely forgotten. From the centre of the earth it seemed to rise,
a magnificent, deep, stupendous rhythm that created, at least, the
impression of a voice:

"I weave and I weave...!" rolled forth, as though the planet uttered.
He stood waiting, transfixed, listening intently.

"You heard?" he whispered.

"Everything," she said, tight in his arms at once again, her lips on
his. "The very beating of your heart--your inmost thoughts as well."


THE END




    Transcriber's Note:

    Punctuation has been standardised. Hyphenation and spelling has been
    retained as in the original publication except as follows:

    Page 30
    Khilkoff, the daugher of his _changed to_
    Khilkoff, the daughter of his

    Page 38
    Butt puzzled--my God _changed to_
    But puzzled--my God

    Page 59
    sets limits to it, Edward _changed to_
    set limits to it, Edward

    Page 70
    Le Vallon was quite docile _changed to_
    LeVallon was quite docile

    Page 72
    Yets its limits seemed _changed to_
    Yet its limits seemed

    Page 105
    according to Bosé.... _changed to_
    according to Bose....

    Page 153
    reaching the divan in its dimlit _changed to_
    reaching the divan in its dim-lit

    Page 157
    went as unobstrusively as an animal _changed to_
    went as unobtrusively as an animal

    Page 185
    was too convicing to be missed _changed to_
    was too convincing to be missed

    Page 282
    with amazemnt. They were so _changed to_
    with amazement. They were so

    Page 299
    Le Vallon went on, plucking the _changed to_
    LeVallon went on, plucking the

    all her life suppressed (because _changed to_
    all her life suppressed because

    Page 302
    young girl wavered and hestitated _changed to_
    young girl wavered and hesitated

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    planetary spirits and vast Intelligenes _changed to_
    planetary spirits and vast Intelligences





End of Project Gutenberg's The Bright Messenger, by Algernon Blackwood