Produced by David Widger







THE MONK AND THE HANGMAN’S DAUGHTER

By Adolphe Danziger De Castro and Ambrose Bierce

1911

Under the name of G. A. Danziger I wrote in the year 1889 a story
founded on a German tale, which I called _The Monk and the Hangman’s
Daughter_. The story was tragic but I gave it a happy ending. Submitting
it to the late Ambrose Bierce, asking him to revise the story, he
suggested the retention of the tragic part and so revised it. The story
was published and the house failed.

When in 1900 a publisher desired to bring out the story provided I gave
it a happy ending, I submitted the matter to Bierce and on August 21,
1900, he wrote me a long letter on the subject of which the following is
an extract:

‘I have read twice and carefully, your proposed addition to _The Monk_,
and you must permit me to speak plainly, if not altogether agreeably, of
it. It will not do for these reasons and others:

‘The book is almost perfect as you wrote it; the part of the work that
pleases me least is _my_ part (underscores Bierce’s). I am surprised
that you should yield to the schoolgirl desire for that shallowest of
all literary devices, a “happy ending,” by which all the pathos of the
book is effaced to “make a woman holiday.” It is unworthy of you. So
much vii did I feel this unworthiness that I hesitated a long time
before even deciding to have so much of “odious ingenuity” and “mystery”
 as your making Benedicta the daughter of the Saltmaster and inventing
her secret love for Ambrosius instead of Rochus.

‘“Dramatic action,” which is no less necessary in a story than in a
play, requires that so far as is possible what takes place shall be
_seen_ to take place, not related as having previously taken place....
Compare Shakespeare’s _Cymbeline_ with his better plays. See how he
spoiled it the same way. You need not feel ashamed to err as Shakespeare
erred. Indeed, you did better than he, for his explanations were of
things already known to the reader, or spectator, of the play. _Your_
explanations are needful to an understanding of the things explained; it
is _they_ that are needless. All “explanation” is unspeakably tedious,
and is to be cut as short as possible. Far better to have nothing to
explain--to _show_ everything that occurs, in the very act of occurring.
We cannot always do that, but we should come as near to doing it as we
can. Anyhow, the “harking back” should not be done at the end of the
book, when the dénouement is already known and the reader’s interest in
the action exhausted....

‘Ambrosius and Benedicta are unique in letters. Their nobility, their
simplicity, their sufferings--everything that is theirs stamps them
as “beings apart.” They live in the memory sanctified and glorified by
these qualities and sorrows. They are, in the last and most gracious
sense, children of nature. Leave them lying there in the lovely valley
of the gallows, where Ambrosius shuddered as his foot fell on the spot
where he was destined to sleep....

‘Let _The Monk and the Hangman’s Daughter_ alone. It is great work and
_you_ should live to see the world confess it. Let me know if my faith
in your faith in me is an error. You once believed in my judgment; I
think it is not yet impaired by age.

‘Sincerely yours,

‘(Signed) Ambrose bierce.’

I can only add that my faith in Bierce’s judgment of letters is as firm
to-day as it was then, when I gave him power of attorney to place
my book with a publisher. This publisher embodied _The Monk and the
Hangman’s Daughter_ in Bierce’s collected works, then sold the right to
Messrs. Albert and Charles Boni who without knowledge of the true facts
brought out an edition under Bierce’s name.

ADOLPHE de CASTRO.




THE MONK AND THE HANGMAN’S DAUGHTER

1

On the first day of May in the year of our Blessed Lord 1680, the
Franciscan monks Ægidius, Romanus and Ambrosius were sent by their
Superior from the Christian city of Passau to the Monastery of
Berchtesgaden, near Salzburg. I, Ambrosius, was the strongest and
youngest of the three, being but twenty-one years of age.

The Monastery of Berchtesgaden was, we knew, in a wild and mountainous
country, covered with dismal forests, which were infested with bears
and evil spirits; and our hearts were filled with sadness to think what
might become of us in so dreadful a place. But since it is Christian
duty to obey the mandates of the Church, we did not complain, and were
even glad to serve the wish of our beloved and revered Superior.

Having received the benediction, and prayed for the last time in the
church of our Saint, we tied up our cowls, put new sandals on our feet,
and set out, attended by the blessings of all. Although the way was
long and perilous, we did not lose our hope, for hope is not only the
beginning and the end of religion, but also the strength of youth and
the support of age. Therefore our hearts soon forgot the sadness of
parting, and rejoiced in the new and varying scenes that gave us our
first real knowledge of the beauty of the earth as God has made it. The
colour and brilliance of the air were like the garment of the Blessed
Virgin; the sun shone like the Golden Heart of the Saviour, from which
streameth light and life for all mankind; the dark blue canopy that hung
above formed a grand and beautiful house of prayer, in which every blade
of grass, every flower and living creature praised the glory of God.

As we passed through the many hamlets, villages and cities that lay
along our way, the thousands of people, busy in all the vocations of
life, presented to us poor monks a new and strange spectacle, which
filled us with wonder and admiration. When so many churches came into
view as we journeyed on, and the piety and ardour of the people were
made manifest by the acclamations with which they hailed us and their
alacrity in ministering to our needs, our hearts were full of gratitude
and happiness. All the institutions of the Church were prosperous and
wealthy, which showed that they had found favour in the sight of the
good God whom we serve. The gardens and orchards of the monasteries
and convents were well kept, proving the care and industry of the pious
peasantry and the holy inmates of the cloisters. It was glorious to hear
the peals of bells announcing the hours of the day: we actually breathed
music in the air--the sweet tones were like the notes of angels singing
praise to the Lord.

Wherever we went we greeted the people in the name of our patron Saint.
On all sides were manifest humility and joy: women and children hastened
to the wayside, crowding about us to kiss our hands and beseech a
blessing. It almost seemed as if we were no longer poor servitors of God
and man, but lords and masters of this whole beautiful earth. Let us,
however, not grow proud in spirit, but remain humble, looking carefully
into our hearts lest we deviate from the rules of our holy Order and sin
against our blessed Saint.

I, Brother Ambrosius, confess with penitence and shame that my soul
caught itself upon exceedingly worldly and sinful thoughts. It seemed to
me that the women sought more eagerly to kiss my hands than those of my
companions--which surely was not right, since I am not more holy than
they; besides, I am younger and less experienced and tried in the fear
and commandments of the Lord. When I observed this error of the women,
and saw how the maidens kept their eyes upon me, I became frightened,
and wondered if I could resist should temptation accost me; and often I
thought, with fear and trembling, that vows and prayer and penance alone
do not make one a saint; one must be so pure in heart that temptation is
unknown. Ah me!

At night we always lodged in some monastery, invariably receiving a
pleasant welcome. Plenty of food and drink was set before us, and as we
sat at table the monks would crowd about, asking for news of the great
world of which it was our blessed privilege to see and learn so much.
When our destination was learned we were usually pitied for being
doomed to live in the mountain wilderness. We were told of ice-fields,
snow-crowned mountains and tremendous rocks, roaring torrents, caves and
gloomy forests; also of a lake so mysterious and terrible that there was
none like it in the world. God be with us!

On the fifth day of our journey, while but a short distance beyond the
city of Salzburg, we saw a strange and ominous sight. On the horizon,
directly in our front, lay a bank of mighty clouds, with many grey
points and patches of darker hue, and above, between them and the blue
sky, a second firmament of perfect white. This spectacle greatly puzzled
and alarmed us. The clouds had no movement; we watched them for hours
and could see no change. Later in the afternoon, when the sun was
sinking into the west, they became ablaze with light. They glowed and
gleamed in a wonderful manner, and looked at times as if they were on
fire!

No one can imagine our surprise when we discovered that what we had
mistaken for clouds was simply earth and rocks. These, then, were the
mountains of which we had heard so much, and the white firmament was
nothing else than the snowy summit of the range--which the Lutherans say
their faith can remove. I greatly doubt it.

2

When we stood at the opening of the pass leading into the mountains we
were overcome with dejection; it looked like the mouth of Hell. Behind
us lay the beautiful country through which we had come, and which now
we were compelled to leave forever; before us frowned the mountains with
their inhospitable gorges and haunted forests, forbidding to the sight
and full of peril to the body and the soul. Strengthening our hearts
with prayer and whispering anathemas against evil spirits, we entered
the narrow pass in the name of God, and pressed forward, prepared to
suffer whatever might befall.

As we proceeded cautiously on our way giant trees barred our progress
and dense foliage almost shut out the light of day, the darkness being
deep and chill. The sound of our footfalls and of our voices, when we
dared to speak, was returned to us from the great rocks bordering the
pass, with such distinctness and so many repetitions, yet withal so
changed, that we could hardly believe we were not accompanied by troops
of invisible beings who mocked us and made sport of our fears. Great
birds of prey, startled from their nests in the treetops and the sides
of the cliffs, perched upon high pinnacles of rock and eyed us malignly
as we passed; vultures and ravens croaked above us in hoarse and savage
tones that made our blood run cold. Nor could our prayers and hymns
give us peace; they only called forth other fowl and by their own echoes
multiplied the dreadful noises that beset us. It surprised us to observe
that huge trees had been plucked out of the earth by the roots and
hurled down the sides of the hills, and we shuddered to think by what
powerful hands this had been done. At times we passed along the edges of
high precipices, and the dark chasms that yawned below were a terrible
sight. A storm arose, and we were half-blinded by the fires of heaven
and stunned by thunder a thousand times louder than we had ever heard.
Our fears were at last worked up to so great a degree that we expected
every minute to see some devil from Hell leap from behind a rock in our
front, or a ferocious bear appear from the undergrowth to dispute our
progress. But only deer and foxes crossed our path, and our fears were
somewhat quieted to perceive that our blessed Saint was no less powerful
in the mountains than on the plains below.

At length we reached the bank of a stream whose silvery waters presented
a most refreshing sight. In its crystal depths between the rocks we
could see beautiful golden trout as large as the carp in the pond of
our monastery at Passau. Even in these wild places Heaven had provided
bountifully for the fasting of the faithful.

Beneath the black pines and close to the large lichen-covered rocks
bloomed rare flowers of dark blue and golden yellow. Brother Ægidius,
who was as learned as pious, knew them from his herbarium and told us
their names. We were delighted by the sight of various brilliant beetles
and butterflies which had come out of their hiding-places after the
rain. We gathered handfuls of flowers and chased the pretty winged
insects, forgetting our fears and prayers, the bears and evil spirits,
in the exuberance of our joy.

For many hours we had not seen a dwelling nor a human being. Deeper and
deeper we penetrated the mountain region; greater and greater became the
difficulties we experienced in forest and ravine, and all the horrors of
the wilderness that we had already passed were repeated, but without so
great an effect upon our souls, for we all perceived that the good God
was preserving us for longer service to His holy will. A branch of the
friendly river lay in our course, and, approaching it, we were delighted
to find it spanned by a rough but substantial bridge. As we were about
to cross I happened to cast my eyes to the other shore, where I saw a
sight that made my blood turn cold with terror. On the opposite bank
of the stream was a meadow, covered with beautiful flowers, and in the
centre a gallows upon which hung the body of a man! The face was turned
toward us, and I could plainly distinguish the features, which, though
black and distorted, showed unmistakable signs that death had come that
very day.

I was upon the point of directing my companions’ attention to the
dreadful spectacle, when a strange incident occurred: in the meadow
appeared a young girl, with long golden hair, upon which rested a wreath
of blossoms. She wore a bright red dress, which seemed to me to light up
the whole scene like a flame of fire. Nothing in her actions indicated
fear of the corpse upon the gallows; on the contrary, she glided toward
it barefooted through the grass, singing in a loud but sweet voice, and
waving her arms to scare away the birds of prey that had gathered
about it, uttering harsh cries and with a great buffeting of wings and
snapping of beaks. At the girl’s approach they all took flight, except
one great vulture, which retained its perch upon the gallows and
appeared to defy and threaten her. She ran close up to the obscene
creature, jumping, dancing, screaming, until it, too, put out its wide
wings and flapped heavily away. Then she ceased her dancing, and, taking
a position at the gibbet’s foot, calmly and thoughtfully looked up at
the swinging body of the unfortunate man.

The maiden’s singing had attracted the attention of my companions, and
we all stood watching the lovely child and her strange surroundings with
too much amazement to speak.

While gazing on the surprising scene, I felt a cold shiver run through
my body. This is said to be a sure sign that someone has stepped upon
the spot which is to be your grave. Strange to say, I felt this chill at
the moment the maiden stepped under the gallows. But this only shows how
the true beliefs of men are mixed up with foolish superstitions; for how
could a sincere follower of Saint Franciscus possibly come to be buried
beneath a gallows?

‘Let us hasten,’ I said to my companions, ‘and pray for the soul of the
dead.’

We soon found our way to the spot, and, without raising our eyes, said
prayers with great fervour; especially did I, for my heart was full of
compassion for the poor sinner who hung above. I recalled the words of
God, who said, ‘Vengeance is mine,’ and remembered that the dear Saviour
had pardoned the thief upon the cross at His side; and who knows that
there were not mercy and forgiveness for this poor wretch who had died
upon the gallows?

On our approach the maiden had retired a short distance, not knowing
what to make of us and our prayers. Suddenly, however, in the midst of
our devotions, I heard her sweet, bell-like tones exclaim: ‘The vulture!
the vulture!’ and her voice was agitated, as if she felt great fear. I
looked up and saw a great grey bird above the pines, swooping downward.
It showed no fear of us, our sacred calling and our pious rites. My
brothers, however, were indignant at the interruption caused by the
child’s voice, and scolded her. But I said: ‘The girl is probably a
relation of the dead man. Now think of it, brothers; this terrible bird
comes to tear the flesh from his face and feed upon his hands and his
body. It is only natural that she should cry out.’

One of the brothers said: ‘Go to her, Ambrosius, and command her to be
silent that we may pray in peace for the departed soul of this sinful
man.’

I walked among the fragrant flowers to where the girl stood with her
eyes still fixed upon the vulture, which swung in ever narrowing circles
about the gallows. Against a mass of silvery flowers on a bush by which
she stood the maid’s exquisite figure showed to advantage, as I wickedly
permitted myself to observe. Perfectly erect and motionless, she watched
my advance, though I marked a terrified look in her large, dark eyes, as
if she feared that I would do her harm. Even when I was quite near her
she made no movement to come forward, as women and children usually did,
and kiss my hands.

‘Who are you?’ I said, ‘and what are you doing in this dreadful place
all alone?’

She did not answer me, and made neither sign nor motion; so I repeated
my question:

‘Tell me, child, what are you doing here?’

‘Scaring away the vultures,’ she replied, in a soft, musical voice,
inexpressibly pleasing.

‘Are you a relation of the dead man?’ I asked.

She shook her head.

‘You knew him?’ I continued, ‘and you pity his unchristian death?’

But she was again silent, and I had to renew my questioning: ‘What was
his name, and why was he put to death? What crime did he commit?’

‘His name was Nathaniel Alfinger, and he killed a man for a woman,’ said
the maiden, distinctly and in the most unconcerned manner that it is
possible to conceive, as if murder and hanging were the commonest and
most uninteresting of all events. I was astounded, and gazed at her
sharply, but her look was passive and calm, denoting nothing unusual.
‘Did you know Nathaniel Alfinger?’

‘No.’

‘Yet you came here to protect his corpse from the fowls?’

‘Yes.’

‘Why do you do that service to one whom you did not know?’

‘I always do so.’

‘How--!’

‘Always when any one is hanged here I come and frighten away the birds
and make them find other food. See--there is another vulture!’

She uttered a wild, high scream, threw her arms above her head, and ran
across the meadow so that I thought her mad. The big bird flew away,
and the maiden came quietly back to me, and, pressing her sunburnt hands
upon her breast, sighed deeply, as from fatigue. With as much mildness
as I could put into my voice, I asked her:

‘What is your name?’

‘Benedicta.’

‘And who are your parents?’

‘My mother is dead.’

‘But your father--where is he?’

She was silent. Then I pressed her to tell me where she lived, for
I wanted to take the poor child home and admonish her father to have
better care of his daughter and not let her stray into such dreadful
places again.

‘Where do you live, Benedicta? I pray you tell me.’

‘Here.’

‘What! here? Ah, my child, here is only the gallows.’

She pointed toward the pines. Following the direction of her finger, I
saw among the trees a wretched hut which looked like a habitation more
fit for animals than human beings. Then I knew better than she could
have told me whose child she was.

When I returned to my companions and they asked me who the girl was, I
answered: ‘The hangman’s daughter.’

3

Having commended the soul of the dead man to the intercession of the
Blessed Virgin and the Holy Saints, we left the accursed spot, but as
we withdrew I looked back at the lovely child of the hangman. She stood
where I had left her, looking after us. Her fair white brow was still
crowned with the wreath of primroses, which gave an added charm to her
wonderful beauty of feature and expression, and her large, dark eyes
shone like the stars of a winter midnight. My companions, to whom the
hangman’s daughter was a most unchristian object, reproved me for the
interest that I manifested in her; but it made me sad to think this
sweet and beautiful child was shunned and despised through no fault of
her own. Why should she be made to suffer blame because of her father’s
dreadful calling? And was it not the purest Christian charity which
prompted this innocent maiden to keep the vultures from the body of a
fellow-creature whom in life she had not even known and who had been
adjudged unworthy to live? It seemed to me a more kindly act than that
of any professed Christian who bestows money upon the poor. Expressing
these feelings to my companions, I found, to my sorrow, that they did
not share them; on the contrary, I was called a dreamer and a fool who
wished to overthrow the ancient and wholesome customs of the world.
Everyone, they said, was bound to execrate the class to which the
hangman and his family belonged, for all who associated with such
persons would surely be contaminated. I had, however, the temerity to
remain steadfast in my conviction, and with due humility questioned the
justice of treating such persons as criminals because they were a part
of the law’s machinery by which criminals were punished. Because in the
church the hangman and his family had a dark corner specially set apart
for them, that could not absolve us from our duty as servants of the
Lord to preach the gospel of justice and mercy and give an example of
Christian love and charity. But my brothers grew very angry with me, and
the wilderness rang with their loud vociferations, so that I began to
feel as if I were very wicked, although unable to perceive my error. I
could do nothing but hope that Heaven would be more merciful to us all
than we are to one another. In thinking of the maiden it gave me comfort
to know that her name was Benedicta. Perhaps her parents had so named
her as a means of blessing to one whom no one else would ever bless.

But I must relate what a wonderful country it was into which we were now
arrived. Were we not assured that all the world is the Lord’s, for He
made it, we might be tempted to think such a wild region the kingdom of
the Evil One.

Far down below our path the river roared and foamed between great
cliffs, the grey points of which seemed to pierce the very sky. On our
left, as we gradually rose out of this chasm, was a black forest of
pines, frightful to see, and in front of us a most formidable peak.
This mountain, despite its terrors, had a comical appearance, for it was
white and pointed like a fool’s cap, and looked as if some one had put a
flour-sack on the knave’s head. After all, it was nothing but snow. Snow
in the middle of the glorious month of May!--surely the works of God are
wonderful and almost past belief! The thought came to me that if this
old mountain should shake his head the whole region would be full of
flying snow.

We were not a little surprised to find that in various places along our
road the forest had been cleared away for a space large enough to build
a hut and plant a garden. Some of these rude dwellings stood where
one would have thought that only eagles would have been bold enough to
build; but there is no place, it seems, free from the intrusion of Man,
who stretches out his hand for everything, even that which is in the
air. When at last we arrived at our destination and beheld the temple
and the house erected in this wilderness to the name and glory of our
beloved Saint, our hearts were thrilled with pious emotions. Upon the
surface of a pine-covered rock was a cluster of huts and houses, the
monastery in the midst, like a shepherd surrounded by his flock. The
church and monastery were of hewn stone, of noble architecture, spacious
and comfortable.

May the good God bless our entrance into this holy place.

4

I have now been in this wilderness for a few weeks, but the Lord, too,
is here, as everywhere. My health is good, and this house of our beloved
Saint is a stronghold of the Faith, a house of peace, an asylum for
those who flee from the wrath of the Evil One, a rest for all who bear
the burden of sorrow. Of myself, however, I cannot say so much. I am
young, and although my mind is at peace, I have so little experience of
the world and its ways that I feel myself peculiarly liable to error and
accessible to sin. The course of my life is like a rivulet which draws
its silver thread smoothly and silently through friendly fields and
flowery meadows, yet knows that when the storms come and the rains fall
it may become a raging torrent, defiled with earth and whirling away to
the sea the wreckage attesting the madness of its passion and its power.

Not sorrow nor despair drew me away from the world into the sacred
retreat of the Church, but a sincere desire to serve the Lord. My only
wish is to belong to my beloved Saint, to obey the blessed mandates of
the Church, and, as a servant of God, to be charitable to all mankind,
whom I dearly love. The Church is, in truth, my beloved mother, for, my
parents having died in my infancy I, too, might have perished without
care had she not taken pity on me, fed and clothed me and reared me as
her own child. And, oh, what happiness there will be for me, poor monk,
when I am ordained and receive holy orders as a priest of the Most High
God! Always I think and dream of it and try to prepare my soul for
that high and sacred gift. I know I can never be worthy of this great
happiness, but I do hope to be an honest and sincere priest, serving God
and Man according to the light that is given from above. I often pray
Heaven to put me to the test of temptation, that I may pass through
the fire unscathed and purified in mind and soul. As it is, I feel the
sovereign peace which, in this solitude, lulls my spirit to sleep, and
all life’s temptations and trials seem far away, like perils of the sea
to one who can but faintly hear the distant thunder of the waves upon
the beach.

5

Our Superior, Father Andreas, is a mild and pious gentleman. Our
brothers live in peace and harmony. They are not idle, neither are they
worldly nor arrogant. They are temperate, not indulging too much in the
pleasures of the table--a praiseworthy moderation, for all this region,
far and wide--the hills and the valleys, the river and forest, with all
that they contain--belongs to the monastery. The woods are full of all
kinds of game, of which the choicest is brought to our table, and we
relish it exceedingly. In our monastery a drink is prepared from malt
and barley--a strong, bitter drink, refreshing after fatigue, but not,
to my taste, very good.

The most remarkable thing in this part of the country is the
salt-mining. I am told that the mountains are full of salt--how
wonderful are the works of the Lord! In pursuit of this mineral Man
has penetrated deep into the bowels of the earth by means of shafts and
tunnels, and brings forth the bitter marrow of the hills into the
light of the sun. The salt I have myself seen in red, brown and yellow
crystals. The works give employment to our peasants and their sons, with
a few foreign labourers, all under the command of an overseer, who is
known as the Saltmaster. He is a stern man, exercising great power, but
our Superior and the brothers speak little good of him--not from any
unchristian spirit, but because his actions are evil. The Saltmaster has
an only son. His name is Rochus, a handsome but wild and wicked youth.

6

The people hereabout are a proud, stubborn race. I am told that in an
old chronicle they are described as descendants of the Romans, who
in their day drove many tunnels into these mountains to get out the
precious salt; and some of these tunnels are still in existence. From
the window of my cell I can see these giant hills and the black forests
which at sunset burn like great firebrands along the crests against the
sky.

The forefathers of these people (after the Romans) were, I am told, more
stubborn still than they are, and continued in idolatry after all the
neighbouring peoples had accepted the cross of the Lord our Saviour.
Now, however, they bow their stiff necks to the sacred symbol and soften
their hearts to receive the living truth. Powerful as they are in body,
in spirit they are humble and obedient to the Word. Nowhere else did the
people kiss my hand so fervently as here, although I am not a priest--an
evidence of the power and victory of our glorious faith.

Physically they are strong and exceedingly handsome in face and figure,
especially the young men; the elder men, too, walk as erect and proud as
kings. The women have long golden hair, which they braid and twist about
their heads very beautifully, and they love to adorn themselves with
jewels. Some have eyes whose dark brilliancy rivals the lustre of the
rubies and garnets they wear about their white necks. I am told that
the young men fight for the young women as stags for does. Ah, what
wicked passions exist in the hearts of men! But since I know nothing of
these things, nor shall ever feel such unholy emotions, I must not judge
and condemn.

Lord, what a blessing is the peace with which Thou hast filled the
spirits of those who are Thine own! Behold, there is no turmoil in my
breast; all is calm there as in the soul of a babe which calls ‘Abba,’
dear Father. And so may it ever be.

7

I have again seen the hangman’s beautiful daughter. As the bells were
chiming for mass I saw her in front of the monastery church. I had just
come from the bedside of a sick man, and as my thoughts were gloomy the
sight of her face was pleasant, and I should have liked to greet her,
but her eyes were cast down: she did not notice me. The square in front
of the church was filled with people, the men and youths on one side, on
the other the women and maidens all clad in their high hats and adorned
with their gold chains. They stood close together, but when the poor
child approached all stepped aside, whispering and looking askance at
her as if she were an accursed leper and they feared infection.

Compassion filled my breast, compelling me to follow the maiden, and,
overtaking her, I said aloud:

‘God greet you, Benedicta.’

She shrank away as if frightened, then, looking up, recognised me,
seemed astonished, blushed again and again and finally hung her head in
silence.

‘Do you fear to speak to me?’ I asked.

But she made no reply. Again I spoke to her: ‘Do good, obey the Lord and
fear no one: then shall you be saved.’

At this she drew a long sigh, and replied in a low voice, hardly more
than a whisper: ‘I thank you, my lord.’

‘I am not a lord, Benedicta,’ I said, ‘but a poor servant of God, who
is a gracious and kind Father to all His children, however lowly their
estate. Pray to Him when your heart is heavy, and He will be near you.’

While I spoke she lifted her head and looked at me like a sad child that
is being comforted by its mother. And, still speaking to her out of the
great compassion in my heart, I led her into the church before all the
people.

But do thou, O holy Franciscus, pardon the sin that I committed during
that high sacrament! For while Father Andreas was reciting the solemn
words of the mass my eyes constantly wandered to the spot where the poor
child knelt in a dark corner set apart for her and her father, forsaken
and alone. She seemed to pray with holy zeal, and surely thou didst
grace her with a ray of thy favour, for it was through thy love of
mankind that thou didst become a great saint, and didst bring before the
Throne of Grace thy large heart, bleeding for the sins of all the world.
Then shall not I, the humblest of thy followers, have enough of thy
spirit to pity this poor outcast who suffers for no sin of her own? Nay,
I feel for her a peculiar tenderness, which I cannot help accepting as a
sign from Heaven that I am charged with a special mandate to watch over
her, to protect her, and finally to save her soul.

8

Our Superior has sent for me and rebuked me. He told me I had caused
great ill-feeling among the brothers and the people, and asked what
devil had me in possession that I should walk into church with the
daughter of the public hangman.

What could I say but that I pitied the poor maiden and could not do
otherwise than as I did?

‘Why did you pity her?’ he asked.

‘Because all the people shun her,’ I replied, ‘as if she were mortal
sin itself, and because she is wholly blameless. It certainly is not her
fault that her father is a hangman, nor his either, since, alas, hangmen
must be.’

Ah, beloved Franciscus, how the Superior scolded thy poor servant for
these bold words.

‘And do you repent?’ he demanded at the close of his reproof. But how
could I repent of my compassion--incited, as I verily believe, by our
beloved Saint?

On learning my obduracy, the Superior became very sad. He gave me a long
lecture and put me under hard penance. I took my punishment meekly
and in silence, and am now confined to my cell, fasting and chastising
myself. Nor in this do I spare myself at all, for it is happiness to
suffer for the sake of one so unjustly treated as the poor friendless
child.

I stand at the grating of my cell, looking out at the high, mysterious
mountains showing black against the evening sky. The weather being mild,
I open the window behind the bars to admit the fresh air and better
to hear the song of the stream below, which speaks to me with a divine
companionship, gentle and consoling.

I know not if I have already mentioned that the monastery is built upon
a rock high over the river. Directly under the windows of our cells are
the rugged edges of great cliffs, which none can scale but at the peril
of his life. Imagine, then, my astonishment when I saw a living figure
lift itself up from the awful abyss by the strength of its hands, and,
drawing itself across the edge, stand erect upon the very verge! In the
dusk I could not make out what kind of creature it was; I thought
it some evil spirit come to tempt me; so I crossed myself and said a
prayer. Presently there is a movement of its arm, and something flies
through the window, past my head, and lies upon the floor of my cell,
shining like a white star. I bend and pick it up. It is a bunch of
flowers such as I have never seen--leafless, white as snow, soft as
velvet, and without fragrance. As I stand by the window, the better to
see the wondrous flowers, my eyes turn again to the figure on the cliff,
and I hear a sweet, low voice, which says: ‘I am Benedicta, and I thank
you.’

Ah, Heaven! it was the child, who, that she might greet me in my
loneliness and penance, had climbed the dreadful rocks, heedless of the
danger. She knew, then, of my punishment--knew that it was for her.

She knew even the very cell in which I was confined. O holy Saint!
surely she could not have known all this but from thee; and I were worse
than an infidel to doubt that the feeling which I have for her signifies
that a command has been laid upon me to save her.

I saw her bending over the frightful precipice. She turned a moment and
waved her hand to me and disappeared. I uttered an involuntary cry--had
she fallen? I grasped the iron bars of my window and shook them with all
my strength, but they did not yield. In my despair I threw myself upon
the floor, crying and praying to all the saints to protect the dear
child in her dangerous descent if still she lived, to intercede for her
unshriven soul if she had fallen. I was still kneeling when Benedicta
gave me a sign of her safe arrival below. It was such a shout as these
mountaineers utter in their untamed enjoyment of life--only Benedicta’s
shout, coming from far below in the gorge, and mingled with its own
strange echoes, sounded like nothing I had ever heard from any human
throat, and so affected me that I wept, and the tears fell upon the wild
flowers in my hand.

9

As a follower of Saint Francisais, I am not permitted to own anything
dear to my heart, so I have disposed of my most precious treasure; I
have presented to my beloved Saint the beautiful flowers which were
Benedicta’s offering. They are so placed before his picture in the
monastery church as to decorate the bleeding heart which he carries upon
his breast as a symbol of his suffering for mankind.

I have learned the name of the flower: because of its colour, and
because it is finer than other flowers, it is called Edelweiss--noble
white. It grows in so rare perfection only upon the highest and wildest
rocks--mostly upon cliffs, over abysses many hundred feet in depth,
where one false step would be fatal to him who gathers it.

These beautiful flowers, then, are the real evil spirits of this wild
region; they lure many mortals to a dreadful death. The brothers here
have told me that never a year passes but some shepherd, some hunter or
some bold youth, attracted by these wonderful blossoms, is lost in the
attempt to get them.

May God be merciful to all their souls!

10

I must have turned pale when one of the brothers reported at the supper
table that upon the picture of Saint Franciscus had been found a bunch
of edelweiss of such rare beauty as grows nowhere else in the country
but at the summit of a cliff which is more than a thousand feet high,
and overhangs a dreadful lake. The brothers tell wondrous tales of the
horrors of this lake--how wild its waters and how deep, and how the most
hideous spectres are seen along its shores or rising out of it.

Benedicta’s edelweiss, therefore, has caused great commotion and wonder,
for even among the boldest hunters there are few, indeed, who dare
to climb that cliff by the haunted lake. And the tender child has
accomplished the feat! She has gone quite alone to that horrible place,
and has climbed the almost vertical wall of the mountain to the green
spot where the flowers grow with which she was moved to greet me. I
doubt not that Heaven guarded her against mishap in order that I might
have a visible sign and token that I am charged with the duty of her
salvation.

Ah, thou poor sinless child, accurst in the eyes of the people, God hath
signified His care of thee, and in my heart I feel already something of
that adoration which shall be thy due when for thy purity and holiness
He shall bestow upon thy relics some signal mark of His favour, and the
Church shall declare thee blessed!

I have learned another thing that I will chronicle here. In this country
these flowers are the sign of a faithful love: the youth presents them
to his sweetheart, and the maidens decorate the hats of their lovers
with them. It is clear that, in expressing her gratitude to a humble
servant of the Church, Benedicta was moved, perhaps without knowing it,
to signify at the same time her love of the Church itself, although,
alas, she has yet too little cause.

As I ramble about here, day after day, I am becoming familiar with
every path in the forest, in the dark pass, and on the slopes of the
mountains.

I am often sent to the homes of the peasants, the hunters and the
shepherds, to carry either medicine to the sick or consolation to the
sad. The most reverend Superior has told me that as soon as I receive
holy orders I shall have to carry the sacraments to the dying, for I am
the youngest and the strongest of the brothers. In these high places it
sometimes occurs that a hunter or a shepherd falls from the rocks,
and after some days is found, still living. It is then the duty of the
priest to perform the offices of our holy religion at the bedside of
the sufferer, so that the blessed Saviour may be there to receive the
departing soul.

That I may be worthy of such grace, may our beloved Saint keep my heart
pure from every earthly passion and desire!

11

The monastery has celebrated a great festival, and I will report all
that occurred.

For many days before the event the brothers were busy preparing for
it. Some decorated the church with sprays of pine and birch and with
flowers.

They went with the other men and gathered the most beautiful Alpine
roses they could find, and as it is midsummer they grow in great
abundance. On the day before the festival the brothers sat in the
garden, weaving garlands to adorn the church; even the most reverend
Superior and the Fathers took pleasure in our merry task. They walked
beneath the trees and chatted pleasantly while encouraging the brother
butler to spend freely the contents of the cellars.

The next morning was the holy procession. It was very beautiful to see,
and added to the glory of our holy Church. The Superior walked under a
purple silken canopy, surrounded by the worthy Fathers, and bore in his
hands the sacred emblem of the crucifixion of our Saviour. We brothers
followed, bearing burning candles and singing psalms. Behind us came a
great crowd of the people, dressed in their finest attire.

The proudest of those in the procession were the mountaineers and the
salt-miners, the Saltmaster at their head on a beautiful horse adorned
with costly trappings. He was a proud-looking man, with his great sword
at his side and a plumed hat upon his broad, high brow. Behind him rode
Rochus, his son. When we had collected in front of the gate to form
a line I took special notice of that young man. I judged him to be
self-willed and bold. He wore his hat on the side of his head and cast
flaming glances upon the women and the maidens. He looked contemptuously
upon us monks. I fear he is not a good Christian, but he is the most
beautiful youth that I have ever seen: tall and slender like a young
pine, with light brown eyes and golden locks.

The Saltmaster is as powerful in this region as our Superior. He is
appointed by the Duke and has judicial powers in all affairs. He has
even the power of life and death over those accused of murder or any
other abominable crime. But the Lord has fortunately endowed him with
good judgment and wisdom.

Through the village the procession moved out into the valley and down to
the entrances of the great salt mines. In front of the principal mine an
altar was erected, and there our Superior read high mass, while all the
people knelt. I observed that the Salt-master and his son knelt and bent
their heads with visible reluctance and this made me very sad. After
the service the procession moved toward the hill called ‘Mount Calvary,’
which is still higher than the monastery, and from the top of which one
has a good view of the whole country below. There the reverend Superior
displayed the crucifix in order to banish the evil powers which abound
in these terrible mountains; and he also said prayers and pronounced
anathemas against all demons infesting the valley below. The bells
chimed their praises to the Lord, and it seemed as if divine voices were
ringing through the wilderness. It was all, indeed, most beautiful and
good.

I looked about me to see if the child of the hangman were present, but I
could not see her anywhere, and knew not whether to rejoice that she was
out of reach of the insults of the people or to mourn because deprived
of the spiritual strength that might have come to me from looking upon
her heavenly beauty.

After the services came the feast. Upon a meadow sheltered by trees
tables were spread, and the clergy and the people, the most reverend
Superior and the great Saltmaster partook of the viands served by the
young men. It was interesting to see the young men make big fires of
pine and maple, put great pieces of beef upon wooden spits, turn them
over the coals until they were brown, and then lay them before the
Fathers and the mountaineers. They also boiled mountain trout and carp
in large kettles. The wheaten bread was brought in immense baskets, and
as to drink, there was assuredly no scarcity of that, for the Superior
and the Saltmaster had each given a mighty cask of beer. Both of these
monstrous barrels lay on wooden stands under an ancient oak. The boys
and the Saltmaster’s men drew from the cask which he had given, while
that of the Superior was served by the brother butler and a number of
us younger monks. In honour of Saint Franciscus I must say that the
clerical barrel was of vastly greater size than that of the Saltmaster.

Separate tables had been provided for the Superior and the Fathers,
and for the Saltmaster and the best of his people. The Saltmaster and
Superior sat upon chairs which stood upon a beautiful carpet, and
their seats were screened from the sun by a linen canopy. At the table,
surrounded by their beautiful wives and daughters, sat many knights, who
had come from their distant castles to share in the great festival. I
helped at table. I handed the dishes and filled the goblets and was able
to see how good an appetite the company had, and how they loved that
brown and bitter drink. I could see also how amorously the Saltmaster’s
son looked at the ladies, which provoked me very much, as he could not
marry them all, especially those already married.

We had music, too. Some boys from the village, who practise on various
instruments in their spare moments, were the performers. Ah, how they
yelled, those flutes and pipes, and how the fiddle bows danced and
chirped! I do not doubt the music was very good, but Heaven has not seen
fit to give me the right kind of ears.

I am sure our blessed Saint must have derived great satisfaction from
the sight of so many people eating and drinking their bellies full.
Heavens! how they did eat--what unearthly quantities they did away with!
But that was nothing to their drinking. I firmly believe that if every
mountaineer had brought along a barrel of his own he would have emptied
it, all by himself. But the women seemed to dislike the beer, especially
the young girls. Usually before drinking a young man would hand his cup
to one of the maids, who barely touched it with her lips, and, making a
grimace, turned away her face. I am not sufficiently acquainted with the
ways of woman to say with certainty if this proved that at other times
they were so abstemious.

After eating, the young men played at various games which exhibited
their agility and strength. Holy Franciscus! what legs they have, what
arms and necks! They leapt, they wrestled with one another; it was like
the fighting of bears. The mere sight of it caused me to feel great
fear. It seemed as if they would crush one another. But the maidens
looked on, feeling neither fear nor anxiety; they giggled and appeared
well pleased. It was wonderful, too, to hear the voices of these young
mountaineers; they threw back their heads and shouted till the echoes
rang from the mountain-sides and roared in the gorges as if from the
throats of a legion of demons.

Foremost among all was the Saltmaster’s son. He sprang like a deer,
fought like a fiend, and bellowed like a wild bull. Among these
mountaineers he was a king. I observed that many were jealous of his
strength and beauty, and secretly hated him; yet all obeyed. It was
beautiful to see how this young man bent his slender body while leaping
and playing the games--how he threw up his head like a stag at gaze,
shook his golden locks and stood in the midst of his fellows with
flaming cheeks and sparkling eyes. How sad to think that pride and
passion should make their home in so lovely a body, which seems created
for the habitation of a soul that would glorify its Maker!

It was near dusk when the Superior, the Saltmaster, the Fathers and all
the distinguished guests parted and retired to their homes, leaving the
others at drink and dance. My duties compelled me to remain with the
brother butler to serve the debauching youths with beer from the great
cask. Young Rochus remained too. I do not know how it occurred, but
suddenly he stood before me. His looks were dark and his manner proud.

‘Are you,’ he said, ‘the monk who gave offence to the people the other
day?’

I asked humbly--though beneath my monk’s robe I felt a sinful anger:
‘What are you speaking of?’

‘As if you did not know!’ he said, haughtily. ‘Now bear in mind what I
tell you; if you ever show any friendship toward that girl I shall teach
you a lesson which you will not soon forget. You monks are likely to
call your impertinence by the name of some virtue; but I know the trick,
and will have none of it. Make a note of that, you young cowl=wearer,
for your handsome face and big eyes will not save you.’

With that he turned his back upon me and went away, but I heard his
strong voice ringing out upon the night as he sang and shouted with the
others. I was greatly alarmed to learn that this bold boy had cast his
eyes upon the hangman’s lovely daughter. His feeling for her was surely
not honourable, or, instead of hating me for being kind to her, he would
have been grateful and would have thanked me. I feared for the child,
and again and again did I promise my blessed Saint that I would watch
over and protect her, in obedience to the miracle which he has wrought
in my breast regarding her. With that wondrous feeling to urge me on,
I cannot be slack in my duty, and, Benedicta, thou shalt be saved--thy
body and thy soul!

12

Let me continue my report.

The boys threw dry brushwood into the fire so that the flames
illuminated the whole meadow and shone red upon the trees. Then they
laid hands upon the village maidens and began to turn and swing them
round and round. Holy saints! how they stamped and turned and threw
their hats in the air, kicked up their heels, and lifted the girls from
the ground, as if the sturdy wenches were nothing but feather balls!
They shouted and yelled as if all the evil spirits had them in
possession, so that I wished a herd of swine might come, that the devils
might leave these human brutes and go into the four-legged ones. The
boys were quite full of the brown beer, which for its bitterness and
strength is a beastly drink.

Before long the madness of intoxication broke out; they attacked one
another with fists and knives, and it looked as if they would do murder.
Suddenly the Saltmaster’s son, who had stood looking on, leaped among
them, caught two of the combatants by the hair and knocked their heads
together with such force that the blood started from their noses, and I
thought surely their skulls had been crushed like egg-shells; but they
must have been very hard-headed, for on being released they seemed
little the worse for their punishment. After much shouting and
screaming, Rochus succeeded in making peace, which seemed to me, poor
worm, quite heroic. The music set in again: the fiddles scraped and
the pipes shrieked, while the boys with torn clothes and scratched and
bleeding faces, renewed the dance as if nothing had occurred. Truly,
this is a people that would gladden the heart of a Bramarbas or a
Holofernes!

I had scarcely recovered from the fright which Rochus had given me, when
I was made to feel a far greater one. Rochus was dancing with a tall and
beautiful girl, who looked the very queen of this young king. They made
such mighty leaps and dizzy turns, but at the same time so graceful,
that all looked on with astonishment and pleasure. The girl had a
sensuous smile on her lips and a bold look in her brown face, which
seemed to say: ‘See! I am the mistress of his heart!’ But suddenly he
pushed her from him as in disgust, broke from the circle of dancers, and
cried to his friends: ‘I am going to bring my own partner. Who will go
with me?’

The tall girl, maddened by the insult, stood looking at him with the
face of a demon, her black eyes burning like flames of hell! But her
discomfiture amused the drunken youths, and they laughed aloud.

Snatching a firebrand and swinging it about his head till the sparks
flew in showers, Rochus cried again: ‘Who goes with me?’ and walked
rapidly away into the forest. The others seizing firebrands also, ran
after him, and soon their voices could be heard far away, ringing out
upon the night, themselves no longer seen. I was still looking in the
direction which they had taken, when the tall girl whom Rochus had
insulted stepped to my side and hissed something into my ear. I felt her
hot breath on my cheek.

‘If you care for the hangman’s daughter, then hasten and save her from
that drunken wretch. No woman resists him!’

God! how the wild words of that woman horrified me! I did not doubt the
girl’s words, but in my anxiety for the poor child I asked: ‘How can I
save her?’

‘Run and warn her, monk,’ the wench replied: ‘she will listen to you.’

‘But they will find her sooner than I.’

‘They are drunk and will not go fast. Besides, I know a path leading to
the hangman’s hut by a shorter route.’

‘Then show me and be quick!’ I cried.

She glided away, motioning me to follow. We were soon in the woods,
where it was so dark I could hardly see the woman’s figure; but she
moved as fast and her step was as sure as in the light of day. Above us
we could see the torches of the boys, which showed that they had taken
the longer path along the mountain-side. I heard their wild shouts, and
trembled for the child. We had walked for some time in silence, having
left the youths far behind, when the young woman began speaking to
herself. At first I did not understand, but soon my ears caught every
passionate word:

‘He shall not have her! To the devil with the hangman’s whelp! Every one
despises her and spits at the sight of her. It is just like him--he
does not care for what people think or say. Because they hate he loves.
Besides, she has a pretty face. I’ll make it pretty for her! I’ll mark
it with blood! But if she were the daughter of the devil himself he
would not rest until he had her. He shall not!’

She lifted her arms and laughed wildly--I shuddered to hear her! I
thought of the dark powers that live in the human breast, though I know
as little of them, thank God, as a child.

At length we reached the Galgenberg, where stands the hangman’s hut, and
a few moments’ climb brought us near the door.

‘There she lives,’ said the girl, pointing to the hut, through the
windows of which shone the yellow light of a tallow candle; ‘go warn
her. The hangman is ill and unable to protect his daughter, even if he
dared. You’d better take her away--take her to the Alpfeld on the Göll,
where my father has a house. They will not look for her up there.’

With that she left me and vanished in the darkness.

13

Looking in at the window of the hut, I saw the hangman sitting in a
chair, with his daughter beside him, her hand upon his shoulder. I could
hear him cough and groan, and knew that she was trying to soothe him
in his pain. A world of love and sorrow was in her face, which was more
beautiful than ever.

Nor did I fail to observe how clean and tidy were the room and all in
it. The humble dwelling looked, indeed, like a place blessed by the
peace of God. Yet these blameless persons are treated as accurst and
hated like mortal sin! What greatly pleased me was an image of the
Blessed Virgin on the wall opposite the window at which I stood. The
frame was decorated with flowers of the field, and the mantle of the
Holy Mother festooned with edelweiss.

I knocked at the door, calling out at the same time: ‘Do not fear; it is
I--Brother Ambrosius.’

It seemed to me that, on hearing my voice and name, Benedicta showed a
sudden joy in her face, but perhaps it was only surprise--may the saints
preserve me from the sin of pride. She came to the window and opened it.

‘Benedicta,’ said I, hastily, after returning her greeting, ‘wild and
drunken boys are on their way hither to take you to the dance. Rochus
is with them, and says that he will fetch you to dance with him. I have
come before them to assist you to escape.’ At the name of Rochus I saw
the blood rise into her cheeks and suffuse her whole face with crimson.
Alas, I perceived that my jealous guide was right: no woman could resist
that beautiful boy, not even this pious and virtuous child. When her
father comprehended what I said he rose to his feet and stretched out
his feeble arms as if to shield her from harm, but, although his soul
was strong, his body, I knew, was powerless. I said to him: ‘Let me take
her away; the boys are drunk and know not what they do. Your resistance
would only make them angry, and they might harm you both. Ah, look!
See their torches; hear their boisterous voices! Hasten, Benedicta--be
quick, be quick!’

Benedicta sprang to the side of the now sobbing old man and tenderly
embraced him. Then she hurried from the room, and after covering my
hands with kisses ran away into the woods, disappearing in the night,
at which I was greatly surprised. I waited for her to return, for a
few minutes, then entered the cabin to protect her father from the wild
youths who, I thought, would visit their disappointment upon him.

But they did not come. I waited and listened in vain. All at once I
heard shouts of joy and screams that made me tremble and pray to the
blessed Saint. But the sounds died away in the distance, and I knew that
the boys had retraced their steps down the Galgenberg to the meadow of
the fires. The sick man and I spoke of the miracle which had changed
their hearts, and we were filled with gratitude and joy. Then I returned
along the path by which I had come. As I arrived near the meadow, I
could hear a wilder and madder uproar than ever, and could see through
the trees the glare of greater fires, with the figures of the youths
and a few maids dancing in the open, their heads uncovered, their hair
streaming over their shoulders, their garments disordered by the fury
of their movements. They circled about the fires, wound in and out among
them, showing black or red according to how the light struck them, and
looking altogether like Demons of the Pit commemorating some infernal
anniversary or some new torment for the damned. And, holy Saviour!
there, in the midst of an illuminated space, upon which the others did
not trespass, dancing by themselves and apparently forgetful of all
else, were Rochus and Benedicta!

14

Holy Mother of God! what can be worse than the fall of an angel? I
saw--I understood, then, that in leaving me and her father, Benedicta
had gone willingly to meet the very fate from which I had striven to
save her!

‘The accurst wench has run into Rochus’ arms,’ hissed someone at my
side, and, turning, I saw the tall brown girl who had been my guide,
her face distorted with hate. ‘I wish that I had killed her. Why did you
suffer her to play us this trick, you fool of a monk?’

I pushed her aside and ran toward the couple without thinking what I
did. But what could I do? Even at that instant, as though to prevent
my interference, though really unconscious of my presence, the drunken
youths formed a circle about them, bawling their admiration and clapping
their hands to mark the time.

As these two beautiful figures danced they were a lovely picture. He,
tall, slender and lithe, was like a god of the heathen Greeks, while
Benedicta looked like a fairy. Seen through the slight mist upon the
meadows, her delicate figure, moving swiftly and swaying from side to
side, seemed veiled with a web of purple and gold. Her eyes were cast
modestly upon the ground; her motions, though agile, were easy and
graceful; her face glowed with excitement, and it seemed as if her whole
soul were absorbed in the dance. Poor, sweet child! her error made me
weep, but I forgave her. Her life was so barren and joyless; why should
she not love to dance? Heaven bless her! But Rochus--ah, God forgive
him!

While I was looking on at all this, and thinking what it was my duty to
do, the jealous girl--she is called Amula--had stood near me, cursing
and blaspheming. When the boys applauded Benedicta’s dancing Amula made
as if she would spring forward and strangle her. But I held the furious
creature back, and, stepping forward, called out: ‘Benedicta!’

She started at the sound of my voice, but though she hung her head a
little lower, she continued dancing. Amula could control her rage no
longer, and rushed forward with a savage cry, trying to break into
the circle. But the drunken boys prevented. They jeered at her, which
maddened her the more, and she made effort after effort to reach her
victim. The boys drove her away with shouts, curses and laughter. Holy
Franciscus, pray for us!--when I saw the hatred in Amula’s eyes a cold
shudder ran through my body. God be with us! I believe the creature
capable of killing the poor child with her own hands, and glorying in
the deed!

I ought now to have gone home, but I remained, I thought of what might
occur when the dance was over, for I had been told that the youths
commonly accompanied their partners home, and I was horrified to think
of Rochus and Benedicta alone together in the forest and the night.

Imagine my surprise when all at once Benedicta lifted her head, stopped
dancing, and, looking kindly at Rochus, said in her sweet voice, so like
the sound of silver bells: ‘I thank you, sir, for having chosen me for
your partner in the dance in such a knightly way.’

Then, bowing to the Saltmaster’s son, she slipped quickly through the
circle, and, before anyone could know what was occurring, disappeared
in the black spaces of the forest. Rochus at first seemed stupefied with
amazement, but when he realized that Benedicta was gone he raved like a
madman. He shouted: ‘Benedicta!’ He called her endearing names; but all
to no purpose--she had vanished. Then he hurried after her and wanted
to search the forest with torches, but the other youths dissuaded him.
Observing my presence, he turned his wrath upon me; I think if he had
dared he would have struck me. He cried: ‘I’ll make you smart for this,
you miserable cowl-wearer!’

But I do not fear him. Praise be to God! Benedicta is not guilty, and
I can respect her as before. Yet I tremble to think of the many perils
which beset her. She is defenceless against the hate of Amula as well as
against the lust of Rochus. Ah, if I could be ever at her side to
watch over and protect her! But I commend her to Thee, O Lord: the poor
motherless child shall surely not trust to Thee in vain.

15

Alas! my unhappy fate!--again punished and again unable to find myself
guilty.

It seems that Amula has talked about Benedicta and Rochus. The brown
wench strolled from house to house telling how Rochus went to the
gallows for his partner in the dance. And she added that Benedicta
had acted in the most shameless manner with the drunken boys. When the
people spoke to me of this I enlightened them regarding the facts, as it
seemed to me my duty to do, and told all as it had occurred.

By this testimony, in contradiction of one who broke the Decalogue by
bearing false witness against her neighbour I have, it seems, offended
the Superior. I was summoned before him and accused of defending the
hangman’s daughter against the statements of an honest Christian girl. I
asked, meekly, what I should have done--whether I should have permitted
the innocent and defenceless to be calumniated.

‘Of what interest,’ I was asked, ‘can the hangman’s daughter be to you?
Moreover, it is a fact that she went of her own will to associate with
the drunken boys.’

To this I replied: ‘She went out of love to her father, for if the
intoxicated youths had not found her they would have maltreated him--and
she loves the old man, who is ill and helpless. Thus it happened, and
thus I have testified.’

But His Reverence insisted that I was wrong, and put me under severe
penance. I willingly undergo it: I am glad to suffer for the sweet
child. Nor will I murmur against the revered Superior, for he is my
master, against whom to rebel, even in thought, is sin. Is not obedience
the foremost commandment of our great saint for all his disciples? Ah,
how I long for the priestly ordination and the holy oil! Then I
shall have peace and be able to serve Heaven better and with greater
acceptance.

I am troubled about Benedicta. If not confined to my cell I should go
toward the Galgenberg: perhaps I should meet her. I grieve for her as if
she were my sister.

Belonging to the Lord, I have no right to love anything but Him who died
upon the cross for our sins--all other love is evil. O blessed Saints in
Heaven! what if it be that this feeling which I have accepted as a sign
and token that I am charged with the salvation of Benedicta’s soul is
but an earthly love?

Pray for me, O dear Franciscus, that I may have the light, lest I stray
into the road which leads down to Hell. Light and strength, beloved
Saint, that I may know the right path, and walk therein forever!

16

I stand at the window of my cell. The sun sinks and the shadows creep
higher on the sides of the mountains beyond the abyss. The abyss itself
is filled with a mist whose billowy surface looks like a great lake. I
think how Benedicta climbed out of these awful depths to fling me the
edelweiss; I listen for the sound of the stones displaced by her daring
little feet and plunging into the chasm below. But night after night has
passed. I hear the wind among the pines; I hear the water roaring in the
deeps; I hear the distant song of the nightingale; but her voice I do
not hear.

Every evening the mist rises from the abyss. It forms billows; then
rings; then flakes, and these rise and grow and darken until they are
great clouds. They cover the hill and the valley, the tall pines and the
snow-pointed mountains. They extinguish the last remaining touches of
sunlight on the higher peaks, and it is night. Alas, in my soul also
there is night--dark, starless and without hope of dawn!

To-day is Sunday. Benedicta was not in church--‘the dark corner’
remained vacant. I was unable to keep my mind upon the service, a sin
for which I shall do voluntary penance.

Amula was among the other maidens, but I saw nothing of Rochus. It
seemed to me that her watchful black eyes were a sufficient guard
against any rival, and that in her jealousy Benedicta would find
protection. God can make the basest passions serve the most worthy ends,
and the reflection gave me pleasure, which, alas, was of short life.

The services being at an end, the Fathers and friars left the church
slowly in procession, moving through the vestry, while the people went
out at the main entrance. From the long covered gallery leading out of
the vestry one has a full view of the public square of the village. As
we friars, who were behind the Fathers, were in the gallery, something
occurred which I shall remember even to the day of my death as an unjust
deed which Heaven permitted for I know not what purpose. It seems that
the Fathers must have known what was coming, for they halted in the
gallery, giving us all an opportunity to look out upon the square.

I heard a confused noise of voices. It came nearer, and the shouting and
yelling sounded like the approach of all the fiends of Hell. Being at
the farther end of the gallery I was unable to see what was going on
in the square, so I asked a brother at a window near by what it was all
about.

‘They are taking a woman to the pillory,’ he answered.

‘Who is it?’

‘A girl.’

‘What has she done?’

‘You ask a foolish question. Whom are pillories and whipping-posts for
but fallen women?’

The howling mob passed farther into the square, so that I had a full
view. In the front were boys, leaping, gesticulating and singing vile
songs. They seemed mad with joy and made savage by the shame and pain of
their fellow-creature. Nor did the maids behave much better. ‘Fie upon
the outcast!’ they cried. ‘See what it is to be a sinner! Thank heaven,
we are virtuous.’

In the rear of these yelling boys, surrounded by this mob of screaming
women and girls--O God! how can I write it? How can I express the
horror of it? In the midst of it all--she, the lovely, the sweet, the
immaculate Benedicta!

O my Saviour! how did I see all this, yet am still living to relate
it? I must have come near to death. The gallery, the square, the people
seemed whirling round and round; the earth sank beneath my feet, and,
although I strained my eyes open to see, yet all was dark. But it must
have been for but a short time; I recovered, and, on looking down into
the square, saw her again.

They had clothed her in a long gray cloak, fastened at the waist with a
rope. Her head bore a wreath of straw, and on her breast, suspended by
a string about the neck, was a black tablet bearing in chalk the word
‘Buhle’--harlot.

By the end of the rope about her waist a man led her. I looked at him
closely, and--O most holy Son of God, what brutes and beasts Thou didst
come to save!--it was Benedicta’s father! They had compelled the poor
old man to perform one of the duties of his office by leading his own
child to the pillory! I learned later that he had implored the Superior
on his knees not to lay this dreadful command upon him, but all in vain.

The memory of this scene can never leave me. The hangman did not remove
his eyes from his daughter’s face, and she frequently nodded at him and
smiled. By the grace of God, the maiden smiled!

The mob insulted her, called her vile names and spat upon the ground in
front of her feet. Nor was this all. Observing that she took no notice
of them, they pelted her with dust and grass. This was more than the
poor father could endure, and, with a faint, inarticulate moan, he fell
to the ground in a swoon.

Oh, the pitiless wretches!--they wanted to lift him up and make him
finish his task, but Benedicta stretched out her arm in supplication,
and with an expression of so ineffable tenderness upon her beautiful
face that even the brutal mob felt her gentle power and recoiled before
her, leaving the unconscious man upon the ground. She knelt and took
her father’s head in her lap. She whispered in his ear words of love and
comfort. She stroked his gray hair and kissed his pale lips until she
had coaxed him into consciousness and he had opened his eyes. Benedicta,
thrice blessed Benedicta, thou surely art born to be a saint, for thou
didst show a divine patience like that with which our Saviour bore His
cross and with it all the sins of the world!

She helped her father to rise, and smiled brightly in his face when he
made out to stand. She shook the dust from his clothing, and then, still
smiling and murmuring words of encouragement, handed him the rope. The
boys yelled and sang, the women screamed, and the wretched old man led
his innocent child to the place of shame.

17

When I was back again in my cell I threw myself upon the stones
and cried aloud to God against the injustice and misery that I had
witnessed, and against the still greater misery of which I had been
spared the sight. I saw in my mind the father binding his child to the
post. I saw the brutal populace dance about her with savage delight.
I saw the vicious Amula spit in the pure one’s face. I prayed long and
earnestly that the poor child might be made strong to endure her great
affliction.

Then I sat and waited. I waited for the setting of the sun, for at
that time the sufferer is commonly released from the whipping-post. The
minutes seemed hours, the hours eternities. The sun did not move; the
day of shame was denied a night.

It was in vain that I tried to understand it all; I was stunned and
dazed. Why did Rochus permit Benedicta to be so disgraced? Does he think
the deeper her shame the more easily he can win her? I know not, nor do
I greatly care to search out his motive. But, God help me! I myself feel
her disgrace, most keenly.

And, Lord, Lord, what a light has come into the understanding of Thy
servant! It has come to me like a revelation out of Heaven that my
feeling for Benedicta is more and less than what I thought it. It is
an earthly love--the love of a man for a woman. As first this knowledge
broke into my consciousness my breath beat quick and hard; it seemed to
me that I should suffocate. Yet such was the hardness of my heart from
witnessing so terrible an injustice tolerated by Heaven, that I was
unable wholly to repent. In the sudden illumination I was blinded: I
could not clearly see my degree of sin. The tumult of my emotions was
not altogether disagreeable; I had to confess to myself that I would not
willingly forego it even if I knew it wicked. May the Mother of Mercy
intercede for me!

Even now I cannot think that in supposing myself to have a divine
mandate to save the soul of Benedicta, and prepare her for a life of
sanctity, I was wholly in error. This other human desire--comes it not
also of God? Is it not concerned for the good of its object? And what
can be a greater good than salvation of the soul?--a holy life on earth,
and in Heaven eternal happiness and glory to reward it. Surely the
spiritual and the carnal love are not so widely different as I have been
taught to think them. They are, perhaps, not antagonistic, and are but
expressions of the same will. O holy Franciscus, in this great light
that has fallen about me, guide thou my steps. Show to my dazzled eyes
the straight, right way to Benedicta’s good!

At length the sun disappeared behind the cloister. The flakes and
cloudlets gathered upon the horizon; the haze rose from the abyss and,
beyond, the purple shadow climbed higher and higher, the great slope of
the mountain, extinguishing at last the gleam of light upon the summit.
Thank God, oh, thank God, she is free!

18

I have been very ill, but by the kind attention of the brothers am
sufficiently recovered to leave my bed. It must be God’s will that I
live to serve Him, for certainly I have done nothing to merit His great
mercy in restoring me to health. Still, I feel a yearning in my soul for
a complete dedication of my poor life to Him and His service. To embrace
Him and be bound up in His love are now the only aspirations that I
have. As soon as the holy oil is on my brow, these hopes, I am sure,
will be fulfilled, and, purged of my hopeless earthly passion for
Benedicta, I shall be lifted into a new and diviner life. And it may be
that then I can, without offence to Heaven or peril to my soul, watch
over and protect her far better than I can now as a wretched monk.

I have been weak. My feet, like those of an infant, failed to support
my body. The brothers carried me into the garden. With what gratitude
I again looked upward into the blue of the sky! How rapturously I gazed
upon the white peaks of the mountains and the black forests on their
slopes! Every blade of grass seemed to me of special interest, and I
greeted each passing insect as if it were an old acquaintance.

My eyes wander to the south, where the Galgenberg is, and I think
unceasingly of the poor child of the hangman. What has become of her?
Has she survived her terrible experience in the public square? What is
she doing? Oh, that I were strong enough to walk to the Galgenberg! But
I am not permitted to leave the monastery, and there is none of whom I
dare ask her fate. The friars look at me strangely; it is as if they
no longer regarded me as one of them. Why is this so? I love them, and
desire to live in harmony with them. They are kind and gentle, yet they
seem to avoid me as much as they can. What does it all mean?

19

I have been in the presence of the most reverend Superior, Father
Andreas. ‘Your recovery was miraculous,’ said he. ‘I wish you to be
worthy of such mercies, and to prepare your soul for the great blessing
that awaits you. I have, therefore, my son, ordained that you leave us
for a season, to dwell apart in the solitude of the mountains, for the
double purpose of restoring your strength and affording you an
insight into your own heart. Make a severe examination apart from any
distractions, and you will perceive, I do not doubt, the gravity of your
error. Pray that a divine light may be shed upon your path, that you may
walk upright in the service of the Lord as a true priest and apostle,
with immunity from all base passions and earthly desires.’

I had not the presumption to reply. I submit to the will of His
Reverence without a murmur, for obedience is a rule of our Order. Nor
do I fear the wilderness, although I have heard that it is infested with
wild beasts and evil spirits. Our superior is right: the time passed in
solitude will be to me a season of probation, purification and healing,
of which I am doubtless in sore need. So far I have progressed in sin
only; for in confession I have kept back many things. Not from the fear
of punishment, but because I could not mention the name of the maiden
before any other than my holy and blessed Francisais, who alone can
understand. He looks kindly down upon me from the skies, listening to
my sorrow; and whatever of guilt there may be in my compassion for the
innocent and persecuted child he willingly overlooks for the sake of our
blessed Redeemer, who also suffered injustice and was acquainted with
grief.

In the mountains it will be my duty to dig certain roots and send them
to the monastery. From such roots as I am instructed to gather the
Fathers distil a liquor which has become famous throughout the land,
even as far, I have been told, as the great city of Munich. This liquor
is so strong and so fiery with spices that after drinking it one feels
a burning in his throat as if he had swallowed a flame from Hell; yet it
is held in high esteem everywhere by reason of its medicinal properties,
it being a remedy for many kinds of ills and infirmities; and it is said
to be good also for the health of the soul, though I should suppose
a godly life might be equally efficacious in places where the liquor
cannot be obtained. However this may be, from the sale of the liquor
comes the chief revenue of the monastery.

The root from which it is chiefly made is that of an Alpine plant
called _gentiana_, which grows in great abundance on the sides of the
mountains. In the months of July and August the friars dig the roots and
dry them by fire in the mountain cabins, and they are then packed and
sent to the monastery. The Fathers have the sole right to dig the root
in this region, and the secret of manufacturing the liquor is jealously
guarded.

As I am to live in the high country for some time, the Superior
has directed me to collect the root from time to time as I have the
strength. A boy, a servant in the monastery, is to guide me to my
solitary station, carrying up my provisions and returning immediately.
He will come once a week to renew my supply of food and take away the
roots that I shall have dug.

No time has been lost in dispatching me on my penitential errand. This
very evening I have taken leave of the Superior, and, retiring to
my cell, have packed my holy books, the _Agnus_ and the _Life of St.
Franciscus_, in a bag. Nor have I forgotten my writing-materials with
which to continue my diary. These preparations made, I have fortified my
soul with prayer, and am ready for any fate, even an encounter with the
beasts and demons.

Beloved Saint, forgive the pain I feel in going away without having seen
Benedicta, or even knowing what has become of her since that dreadful
day. Thou knowest, O glorious one, and humbly do I confess, that I long
to hasten to the Galgenberg, if only to get one glimpse of the hut
which holds the fairest and best of her sex. Take me not, holy one, too
severely to task, I beseech thee, for the weakness of my erring human
heart!

20

As I left the monastery with my young guide all was quiet within its
walls; the holy Brotherhood slept the sleep of peace, which had so long
been denied to me. It was early dawn, and the clouds in the east were
beginning to show narrow edges of gold and crimson as we ascended the
path leading to the mountain. My guide, with bag upon his shoulder, led,
and I followed, with my robe fastened back and a stout stick in my hand.
This had a sharp iron point which might be used against wild beasts.

My guide was a light-haired, blue-eyed young fellow with a cheerful and
amiable face. He evidently found a keen delight in climbing his native
hills toward the high country whither we were bound. He seemed not to
feel the weight of the burden that he bore; his gait was light and
free, his footing sure. He sprang up the steep and rugged way like a
mountain-goat.

The boy was in high spirits. He told me strange tales of ghosts and
goblins, witches and fairies. These last he seemed to be very well
acquainted with. He said they appeared in shining garments, with bright
hair and beautiful wings, and this description agrees very nearly with
what is related of them in books by certain of the Fathers. Anyone to
whom they take a fancy, says the boy, they are able to keep under their
spell, and no one can break the enchantment, not even the Holy Virgin.
But I judge that this is true of only such as are in sin, and that the
pure in heart have nothing to fear from them.

We travelled up hill and down, through forests and blooming meadows and
across ravines. The mountain-streams, hastening down to the valleys,
full-banked and noisy, seemed to be relating the wonderful things that
they had seen and the strange adventures they had met with on their way.
Sometimes the hillsides and the woods resounded with nature’s various
voices, calling, whispering, sighing, chanting praises to the Lord of
all. Now and again we passed a mountaineer’s cabin, before which played
children, yellow-haired and unkempt. On seeing strangers, they ran away.
But the women came forward, with infants in their arms, and asked for
benedictions. They offered us milk, butter, green cheese, and black
bread. We frequently found the men seated in front of their huts,
carving wood, mostly images of the Saviour upon the cross. These are
sent to the city of Munich, where they are offered for sale, bringing, I
am told, considerable money and much honour to their pious makers.

At last we arrived at the shore of a lake, but a dense fog prevented a
clear view of it. A clumsy little boat was found moored to the bank; my
guide bade me enter it, and presently it seemed as if we were gliding
through the sky in the midst of the clouds. I had never before been
on the water, and felt a terrible misgiving lest we should capsize and
drown. We heard nothing but the sound of the ripples against the sides
of the boat. Here and there, as we advanced, some dark object became
dimly visible for a moment, then vanished as suddenly as it had
appeared, and we seemed gliding again through empty space. As the mist
at times lifted a little, I observed great black rocks protruding from
the water, and not far from shore were lying giant trees half submerged,
with huge limbs that looked like the bones of some monstrous skeleton.
The scene was so full of horrors that even the joyous youth was silent
now, his watchful eye ever seeking to penetrate the fog in search of new
dangers.

By all these signs I knew that we were crossing that fearful lake which
is haunted by ghosts and demons, and I therefore commended my soul to
God. The power of the Lord overcomes all evil. Scarcely had I said my
prayer against the spirits of darkness, when suddenly the veil of fog
was rent asunder, and like a great rose of fire the sun shone out,
clothing the world in garments of colour and gold!

Before this glorious eye of God the darkness fled and was no more. The
dense fog, which had changed to a thin, transparent mist, lingered a
little on the mountain-sides, then vanished quite away. Except in the
black clefts of the hills, no vestige of it stayed. The lake was as
liquid silver; the mountains were gold, bearing forests that were like
flames of fire. My heart was filled with wonder and gratitude.

As our boat crept on I observed that the lake filled a long, narrow
basin. On our right the cliffs rose to a great height, their tops
covered with pines, but to the left and in front lay a pleasant land,
where stood a large building. This was Saint Bartholomæ, the summer
residence of his Reverence, Superior Andreas.

This garden spot was of no great extent: it was shut in on all sides but
that upon which the lake lay by cliffs that rose a thousand feet into
the air. High in the front of this awful wall was set a green meadow,
which seemed like a great jewel gleaming upon the gray cloak of the
mountain. My guide pointed it out as the only place in all that region
where the edelweiss grew. This, then, was the very place where Benedicta
had culled the lovely flowers that she had brought to me during my
penance. I gazed upward to that beautiful but terrible spot with
feelings that I have no words to express. The youth, his mood
sympathetic with the now joyous aspect of nature, shouted and sang, but
I felt the hot tears rise into my eyes and flow down upon my cheeks, and
concealed my face in my cowl.

21

After leaving the boat we climbed the mountain. Dear Lord, nothing comes
from Thy hand without a purpose and a use, but why Thou shouldst have
piled up these mountains, and why Thou shouldst have covered them
with so many stones, is a mystery to me, since I can see no purpose in
stones, which are a blessing to neither man nor beast.

After hours of climbing we reached a spring, where I sat down, faint
and footsore and out of breath. As I looked about me the scene fully
justified all that I had been told of these high solitudes. Wherever I
turned my eyes was nothing but gray, bare rocks streaked with red and
yellow and brown. There were dreary wastes of stones where nothing
grew--no single plant nor blade of grass--dreadful abysses filled with
ice, and glittering snowfields sloping upward till they seemed to touch
the sky.

Among the rocks I did, however, find a few flowers. It seemed as if
the Creator of this wild and desolate region had Himself found it too
horrible, and, reaching down to the valleys, had gathered a handful
of flowers and scattered them in the barren places. These flowers, so
distinguished by the Divine hand, have bloomed with a celestial beauty
that none others know. The boy pointed out the plant whose root I am to
dig, as well as several strong and wholesome herbs serviceable to man,
among them the golden-flowered arnica.

After an hour we continued our journey, which we pursued until I was
hardly able to drag my feet along the path. At last we reached a lonely
spot surrounded by great black rocks. In the centre was a miserable hut
of stones, with a low opening in one side for an entrance, and this, the
youth told me, was to be my habitation. We entered, and my heart sank to
think of dwelling in such a place. There was no furniture of any kind. A
wide bench, on which was some dry Alpine grass, was to be my bed.
There was a fireplace, with some wood for fuel, and a few simple
cooking-utensils.

The boy took up a pan and ran away with it, and, throwing myself down in
front of the hut, I was soon lost in contemplation of the wildness and
terror of the place in which I was to prepare my soul for service of
the Lord. The boy soon returned, bearing the pan in both hands, and on
seeing me he gave a joyful shout, whose echoes sounded like a hundred
voices babbling among the rocks on every side. After even so short a
period of solitude I was so happy to see a human face that I came near
answering his greeting with unbecoming joy. How, then, could I hope to
sustain a week of isolation in that lonely spot?

When the boy placed the pan before me it was full of milk, and he
brought forth from his clothing a pat of yellow butter, prettily adorned
with Alpine flowers, and a cake of snow-white cheese wrapped in aromatic
herbs. The sight delighted me, and I asked him, jokingly: ‘Do butter
and cheese, then, grow on stones up here, and have you found a spring of
milk?’

‘You might accomplish such a miracle,’ he replied, ‘but I prefer to
hasten to the Black Lake and ask this food of the young women who live
there.’ He then got some flour from a kind of pantry in the hut, and,
having kindled a fire on the hearth, proceeded to make a cake.

‘Then we are not alone in this wilderness,’ I said. ‘Tell me where is
that lake on the shore of which these generous people dwell?’

‘The Black Lake,’ he replied, blinking his eyes, which were full of
smoke, ‘is behind that _Kogel_ yonder, and the dairy-house stands on the
edge of the cliff above the water. It is a bad place. The lake reaches
clear down to Hell, and you can hear, through the fissures of the rocks,
the roaring and hissing of the flames and the groans of the souls. And
in no other place in all this world are there so many fierce and
evil spirits. Beware of it! You might fall ill there in spite of your
sanctity. Milk and butter and cheese can be obtained at the Green Lake
lower down; but I will tell the women to send up what you require. They
will be glad to oblige you; and if you will preach them a sermon every
Sunday, they will fight the very devil for you!’

After our meal, which I thought the sweetest I had ever eaten, the boy
stretched himself in the sunshine and straightway fell asleep, snoring
so loudly that, tired as I was, I could hardly follow his example.

22

When I awoke the sun was already behind the mountains, whose tops were
fringed with fire. I felt as one in a dream, but was soon recalled to my
senses, and made to feel that I was alone in the wilderness by shouts
of the young man in the distance. Doubtless he had pitied my condition,
for, instead of disturbing me, he had gone away without taking leave,
being compelled to reach the dairy on the Green Lake before nightfall.
Entering the cabin, I found a fire burning lustily and a quantity of
fuel piled beside it. Nor had the thoughtful youth forgotten to prepare
my supper of bread and milk. He had also shaken up the grass on my hard
bed, and covered it with a woollen cloth, for which I was truly grateful
to him.

Refreshed by my long sleep, I remained outside the cabin till late in
the evening. I said my prayers in view of the gray rocks beneath the
black sky, in which the stars blinked merrily. They seemed much more
brilliant up here than when seen from the valley, and it was easy to
imagine that, standing on the extreme summit, one might touch them with
his hands.

Many hours of that night I passed under the sky and the stars, examining
my conscience and questioning my heart. I felt as if in church, kneeling
before the altar and feeling the awful presence of the Lord. And at last
my soul was filled with a divine peace, and as an innocent child presses
its mother’s breast, even so I leaned my head upon thine, O Nature,
mother of us all!

23

I had not before seen a dawn so glorious! The mountains were rose-red,
and seemed almost transparent. The atmosphere was of a silver lucidity,
and so fresh and pure that with every breath I seemed to be taking new
life. The dew, heavy and white, clung to the scanty grass-blades like
rain and dripped from the sides of the rocks.

It was while engaged in my morning devotions that I involuntarily became
acquainted with my neighbours. All night long the marmots had squealed,
greatly to my dismay, and they were now capering to and fro like hares.
Overhead the brown hawks sailed in circles with an eye to the birds
flitting among the bushes and the wood-mice racing along the rocks.
Now and again a troop of chamois passed near, on their way to the
feeding-grounds on the cliffs, and high above all I saw a single eagle
rising into the sky, higher and higher, as a soul flies heavenward when
purged of sin.

I was still kneeling when the silence was broken by the sound of voices.
I looked about, but, although I could distinctly hear the voices and
catch snatches of song, I saw no one. The sounds seemed to come from the
heart of the mountain and, remembering the malevolent powers that infest
the place, I repeated a prayer against the Evil One and awaited the
event.

Again the singing was heard, ascending from a deep chasm, and presently
I saw rising out of it three female figures. As soon as they saw me they
ceased singing and uttered shrill screams. By this sign I knew them to
be daughters of the earth, and thought they might be Christians, and so
waited for them to approach.

As they drew near I observed that they carried baskets on their heads,
and that they were tall, good-looking lasses, light-haired, brown in
complexion and black-eyed. Setting their baskets upon the ground, they
greeted me humbly and kissed my hands, after which they opened the
baskets and displayed the good things they had brought me--milk, cream,
cheese, butter and cakes.

Seating themselves upon the ground, they told me they were from the
Green Lake, and said they were glad to have a ‘mountain brother’ again,
especially so young and handsome a one; and in saying so there were
merry twinkles in their dark eyes and smiles on their red lips, which
pleased me exceedingly.

I inquired if they were not afraid to live in the wilderness, at which
they laughed, showing their white teeth. They said they had a hunter’s
gun in their cabin to keep off bears, and knew several powerful
sentences and anathemas against demons. Nor were they very lonely, they
added, for every Saturday the boys from the valley came up to hunt wild
beasts, and then all made merry. I learned from them that meadows and
cabins were common among the rocks, where herdsmen and herdswomen lived
during the whole summer. The finest meadows, they said, belonged to the
monastery, and lay but a short distance away.

The pleasant chatting of the maidens greatly delighted me, and the
solitude began to be less oppressive. Having received the benediction,
they kissed my hand and went away as they had come, laughing, singing
and shouting in the joy of youth and health. So much I have already
observed: the people in the mountains lead a better and happier life
than those in the damp, deep valleys below. Also, they seem purer in
heart and mind, and that may be due to their living so much nearer to
Heaven, which some of the brothers say approaches more closely to the
earth here than at any other place in the world excepting Rome.

24

The maidens having gone, I stowed away the provisions which they had
brought me, and, taking a short pointed spade and a bag, went in search
of the gentiana roots. They grew in abundance, and my back soon began
to ache from stooping and digging; but I continued the labour, for I
desired to send a good quantity to the monastery to attest my zeal and
obedience. I had gone a long distance from my cabin without observing
the direction which I had taken, when suddenly I found myself on the
brink of an abyss so deep and terrible that I recoiled with a cry of
horror. At the bottom of this chasm, so far below my feet that I was
giddy to look down, a small circular lake was visible, like the eye of
a fiend. On the shore of it, near a cliff overhanging the water, stood a
cabin, from the stone-weighted roof of which rose a thin column of blue
smoke. About the cabin, in the narrow and sterile pasture, a few cows
and sheep were grazing. What a dreadful place for a human habitation!

I was still gazing down with fear into this gulf when I was again
startled: I heard a voice distinctly call a name! The sound came from
behind me, and the name was uttered with so caressing sweetness that I
hastened to cross myself as a protection from the wiles of the fairies
with their spells and enchantments. Soon I heard the voice again, and
this time it caused my heart to beat so that I was near suffocation, for
it was Benedicta’s! Benedicta in this wilderness, and I alone with her!
Surely I now had need of thy guidance, blessed Franciscus, to keep, my
feet in the path of the Divine purpose.

I turned about and saw her. She was now springing from rock to rock,
looking backward and calling the name that was strange to me. When she
saw that I looked at her she stood motionless. I walked to her, greeting
her in the name of the Blessed Virgin, though, God forgive me! hardly
able in the tumult of my emotions to articulate that holy title.

Ah, how changed the poor child was! The lovely face was as pale as
marble; the large eyes were sunken and inexpressibly sad. Her beautiful
hair alone was unaltered, flowing over her shoulders like threads of
gold. We stood looking at each other, silent from surprise; then I again
addressed her: ‘Is it, then, you, Benedicta, who live in the cabin down
there by the Black Lake--near the waters of Avemus? And is your father
with you?’

She made no reply, but I observed a quivering about her delicate mouth,
as when a child endeavours to refrain from weeping. I repeated my
question: ‘Is your father with you?’

She answered faintly, in a tone that was hardly more than a sigh:

‘My father is dead.’

I felt a sudden pain in my very heart, and was for some moments unable
to speak further, quite overcome by compassion. Benedicta had turned
away her face to hide her tears, and her fragile frame was shaken by her
sobs. I could no longer restrain myself. Stepping up to her, I took her
hand in mine, and, trying to crush back into my secret heart every human
desire, and address her in words of religious consolation, said: ‘My
child--dear Benedicta--your father is gone from you, but another Father
remains who will protect you every day of your life. And as far as may
accord with His holy will I, too, good and beautiful maiden, help you to
endure your great affliction. He whom you mourn is not lost; he is gone
to the mercy seat, and God will be gracious to him.’

But my words seemed only to awaken her sleeping grief. She threw herself
upon the ground and gave way to her tears, sobbing so violently that I
was filled with alarm. O Mother of Mercy! how can I bear the memory
of the anguish I suffered in seeing this beautiful and innocent child
overwhelmed with so great a flood of grief? I bent over her, and my own
tears fell upon her golden hair. My heart urged me to lift her from
the earth, but my hands were powerless to move. At length she composed
herself somewhat and spoke, but as if she were talking to herself rather
than to me: ‘Oh, my father, my poor, heart-broken father! Yes, he is
dead--they killed him--he died long ago of grief. My beautiful mother,
too, died of grief--of grief and remorse for some great sin, I know
not what, which he had forgiven her. He could only be compassionate and
merciful. His heart was too tender to let him kill a worm or a beetle,
and he was compelled to kill men. His father and his father’s father had
lived and died in the Galgenberg. They were hangmen all, and the awful
inheritance fell to him: there was no escape, for the terrible people
held him to the trade. I have heard him say that he was often tempted to
kill himself, and but for me I am sure he would have done so. He could
not leave me to starve, though he had to see me reviled, and at last, O
Holy Virgin! publicly disgraced for that of which I was not guilty.’

As Benedicta made this reference to the great injustice that she had
been made to suffer, her white cheeks kindled to crimson with the
recollection of the shame which for her father’s sake she had, at the
time of it, so differently endured.

During the narrative of her grief she had partly risen and had turned
her beautiful face more and more toward me as her confidence had grown;
but now she veiled it with her hair, and would have turned her back but
that I gently prevented her and spoke some words of comfort, though God
knows my own heart was near breaking through sympathy with hers. After
a few moments she resumed: ‘Alas, my poor father! he was unhappy every
way. Not even the comfort of seeing his child baptised was granted him.
I was a hangman’s daughter, and my parents were forbidden to present me
for baptism; nor could any priest be found who was willing to bless me
in the name of the Holy Trinity. So they gave me the name Benedicta, and
blessed me themselves, over and over again.

‘I was only an infant when my beautiful mother died. They buried her
in unconsecrated ground. She could not go to the Heavenly Father in the
mansions above, but was thrust into the flames. While she was dying my
father had hastened to the Reverend Superior, imploring him to send a
priest with the sacrament. His prayer was denied. No priest came, and my
poor father closed her eyes himself, while his own were blind with tears
of anguish for her terrible fate.

‘And all alone he had to dig her grave. He had no other place than near
the gallows, where he had so often buried the hanged and the accurst.
With his own hands he had to place her in that unholy ground, nor could
any masses be said for her suffering soul.

‘I well remember how my dear father took me then to the image of the
Holy Virgin and bade me kneel, and, joining my little hands, taught me
to pray for my poor mother, who had stood undefended before the terrible
Judge of the Dead. This I have done every morning and evening since that
day, and now I pray for both; for my father also has died unshriven, and
his soul is not with God, but burns in unceasing fire.

‘When he was dying I ran to the Superior, just as he had done for my
dear mother. I besought him on my knees. I prayed and wept and embraced
his feet, and would have kissed his hand but that he snatched it away.
He commanded me to go.’

As Benedicta proceeded with her narrative she gained courage. She rose
to her feet and stood erect, threw back her beautiful head and lifted
her eyes to the heavens as if recounting her wrongs to God’s high angels
and ministers of doom. She stretched forth her bare arms in gestures of
so natural force and grace that I was filled with astonishment, and
her unstudied words came from her lips with an eloquence of which I had
never before had any conception. I dare not think it inspiration, for,
God forgive us all! every word was an unconscious arraignment of Him and
His Holy Church; yet surely no mortal with lips untouched by a live coal
from the altar ever so spake before! In the presence of this strange and
gifted being I so felt my own unworth that I had surely knelt, as before
a blessed saint, but that she suddenly concluded, with a pathos that
touched me to tears.

‘The cruel people killed him,’ she said, with a sob in the heart of
every word. ‘They laid hands upon me whom he loved. They charged me
falsely with a foul crime. They attired me in a garment of dishonour,
and put a crown of straw upon my head, and hung about my neck the black
tablet of shame. They spat upon me and reviled me, and compelled him
to lead me to the pillory, where I was bound and struck with whips
and stones. That broke his great, good heart, and so he died, and I am
alone.’

25

When Benedicta had finished I remained silent, for in the presence of
such a sorrow what could I say? For such wounds as hers religion has
no balm. As I thought of the cruel wrongs of this humble and harmless
family there came into my heart a feeling of wild rebellion against
the world, against the Church, against God! They were brutally unjust,
horribly, devilishly unjust!--God, the Church, and the world.

Our very surroundings--the stark and soulless wilderness, perilous with
precipices and bleak with everlasting snows--seemed a visible embodiment
of the woeful life to which the poor child had been condemned from
birth; and truly this was more than fancy, for since her father’s death
had deprived her of even so humble a home as the hangman’s hovel she had
been driven to these eternal solitudes by the stress of want. But below
us were pleasant villages, fertile fields, green gardens, and homes
where peace and plenty abided all the year.

After a time, when Benedicta was somewhat composed, I asked her if she
had anyone with her for protection.

‘I have none,’ she replied. But observing my look of pain, she added:
‘I have always lived in lonely, accurst places; I am accustomed to that.
Now that my father is dead, there is no one who cares even to speak to
me, nor any whom I care to talk with--except you.’ After a pause she
said: ‘True, there is one who cares to see me, but he----’

Here she broke off, and I did not press her to explain lest it should
embarrass her. Presently she said: ‘I knew yesterday that you were here.
A boy came for some milk and butter for you. If you were not a holy man
the boy would not have come to me for your food. As it is, you cannot
be harmed by the evil which attaches to everything I have or do. Are
you sure, though, that you made the sign of the cross over the food
yesterday?’

‘Had I known that it came from you, Benedicta, that precaution would
have been omitted,’ I answered.

She looked at me with beaming eyes, and said:

‘Oh, dear sir, dear Brother!’

And both the look and the words gave me the keenest delight--as, in
truth, do all this saintly creature’s words and ways.

I inquired what had brought her to the cliff-top, and who the person was
that I had heard her calling.

‘It is no person,’ she answered, smiling; ‘it is only my goat. She has
strayed away, and I was searching for her among the rocks.’

Then nodding to me as if about to say farewell, she turned to go, but I
detained her, saying that I would assist her to look for the goat.

We soon discovered the animal in a crevice of rock, and so glad was
Benedicta to find her humble companion that she knelt by its side, put
her arms about its neck and called it by many endearing names. I thought
this very charming, and could not help looking upon the group with
obvious admiration.

Benedicta, observing it, said: ‘Her mother fell from a cliff and broke
her neck. I took the little one and brought it up on milk, and she
is very fond of me. One who lives alone as I do values the love of a
faithful animal.’

When the maiden was about to leave me I gained courage to speak to her
of what had been so long in my mind. I said: ‘It is true, is it not,
Benedicta, that on the night of the festival you went to meet the
drunken boys in order to save your father from harm?’

She looked at me in great astonishment. ‘For what other reason could you
suppose I went?’

‘I could not think of any other,’ I replied, in some confusion.

‘And now good-bye, Brother,’ she said, moving away.

‘Benedicta,’ I cried. She paused and turned her head.

‘Next Sunday I shall preach to the dairy women at the Green Lake; will
you come?’

‘Oh, no, dear Brother,’ she replied hesitating and in low tones.

‘You will not come?’

‘I should like to come, but my presence would frighten away the dairy
women and others whom your goodness would bring there to hear you. Your
charity to me would cause you trouble. I pray you, sir, accept thanks,
but I cannot come.’

‘Then I shall come to you.’

‘Beware, oh pray, beware!’

‘I shall come.’

26

The boy had taught me how to prepare a cake. I knew all that went to the
making of it, and the right proportions, yet when I tried to make it I
could not. All that I was able to make was a smoky, greasy pap, more fit
for the mouth of Satan than for a pious son of the Church and follower
of Saint Franciscus. My failure greatly discouraged me, yet it did not
destroy my appetite; so, taking some stale bread, I dipped it in sour
milk and was about to make my stomach do penance for its many sins, when
Benedicta came with a basketful of good things from her dairy. Ah, the
dear child! I fear that it was not with my heart only that I greeted her
that blessed morning.

Observing the smoky mass in the pan, she smiled, and quietly throwing
it to the birds (which may Heaven guard!) she cleansed the pan at the
spring, and, returning arranged the fire. She then prepared the material
for a fresh cake. Taking two handfuls of flour, she put it into an
earthen bowl, and upon the top of it poured a cup of cream. Adding a
pinch of salt, she mixed the whole vigorously with her slender white
hands until it became a soft, swelling dough. She next greased the pan
with a piece of yellow butter, and, pouring the dough into it, placed
it on the fire. When the heat had penetrated the dough, causing it to
expand and rise above the sides of the pan, she deftly pierced it here
and there that it should not burst, and when it was well browned she
took it up and set it before me, all unworthy as I was. I invited her
to share the meal with me, but she would not. She insisted, too, that I
should cross myself before partaking of anything that she had brought me
or prepared, lest some evil come to me because of the ban upon her;
but this I would not consent to do. While I ate she culled flowers from
among the rocks, and, making a wreath, hung it upon the cross in front
of the cabin; after which, when I had finished, she employed herself in
cleansing the dishes and arranging everything in order as it should
be, so that I imagined myself far more comfortable than before, even in
merely looking about me. When there was nothing more to be done, and my
conscience would not permit me to invent reasons for detaining her, she
went away, and O my Saviour! how dismal and dreary seemed the day when
she was gone. Ah, Benedicta, Benedicta, what is this that thou hast done
to me?--making that sole service of the Lord to which I am dedicated
seem less happy and less holy than a herdsman’s humble life here in the
wilderness with thee!

27

Life up here is less disagreeable than I thought. What seemed to me
a dreary solitude seems now less dismal and desolate. This mountain
wilderness, which at first filled me with awe, gradually reveals its
benign character. It is marvellously beautiful in its grandeur, with a
beauty which purifies and elevates the soul. One can read in it, as in a
book, the praises of its Creator. Daily, while digging gentiana roots, I
do not fail to listen to the voice of the wilderness and to compose and
chasten my soul more and more.

In these mountains are no feathered songsters. The birds here utter only
shrill cries. The flowers, too, are without fragrance, but wondrously
beautiful, shining with the fire and gold of stars. I have seen slopes
and heights here which doubtless were never trodden by any human foot.
They seem to me sacred, the touch of the Creator still visible upon
them, as when they came from His hand.

Game is in great abundance. Chamois are sometimes seen in such droves
that the very hillsides seem to move. There are steinbocks, veritable
monsters, but as yet, thank Heaven, I have seen no bears. Marmots play
about me like kittens, and eagles, the grandest creatures in this high
world, nest in the cliffs to be as near the sky as they can get.

When fatigued, I stretch myself on the Alpine grass, which is as
fragrant as the most precious spices. I close my eyes and hear the wind
whisper through the tall stems, and in my heart is peace. Blessed be the
Lord!

28

Every morning the dairy women come to my cabin, their merry shouts
ringing in the air and echoed from the hills. They bring fresh milk,
butter and cheese, chat a little while and go away. Each day they relate
something new that has occurred in the mountains or been reported from
the villages below. They are joyous and happy, and look forward with
delight to Sunday, when there will be divine service in the morning and
a dance in the evening.

Alas, these happy people are not free of the sin of bearing
false witness against their neighbour. They have spoken to me of
Benedicta--called her a disgraceful wench, a hangman’s daughter and (my
heart rebels against its utterance) the mistress of Rochus! The pillory,
they said, was made for such as she.

Hearing these maidens talk so bitterly and falsely of one whom they so
little knew, it was with difficulty that I mastered my indignation. But
in pity of their ignorance I reprimanded them gently and kindly. It was
wrong, I said, to condemn a fellow-being unheard. It was unchristian to
speak ill of any one.

They do not understand. It surprises them that I defend a person like
Benedicta--one who, as they truly say, has been publicly disgraced and
has not a friend in the world.

29

This morning I visited the Black Lake. It is indeed an awful and
accursed place, fit for the habitation of the damned. And there lives
the poor forsaken child! Approaching the cabin, I could see a fire
burning on the hearth, and over it was suspended a kettle. Benedicta was
seated on a low stool, looking into the flames. Her face was illuminated
with a crimson glow, and I could observe heavy tear-drops on her cheeks.

Not wishing to see her secret sorrow, I hastened to make known my
presence, and addressed her as gently as I could. She was startled, but
when she saw who it was, smiled and blushed. She rose and came to greet
me, and I began speaking to her almost at random, in order that she
might recover her composure. I spoke as a brother might speak to his
sister, yet earnestly, for my heart was full of compassion.

‘O Benedicta,’ I said, I know your heart, and it has more love for that
wild youth Rochus than for our dear and blessed Saviour. I know how
willingly you bore infamy and disgrace, sustained by the thought that he
knew you innocent. Far be it from me to condemn you, for what is holier
or purer than a maiden’s love? I would only warn and save you from the
consequence of having given it to one so unworthy.’

She listened with her head bowed, and said nothing, but I could hear
her sighs. I saw, too, that she trembled. I continued: ‘Benedicta, the
passion which fills your heart may prove your destruction in this life
and hereafter. Young Rochus is not one who will make you his wife in the
sight of God and Man. Why did he not stand forth and defend you when you
were falsely accused?’

‘He was not there,’ she said, lifting her eyes to mine; ‘he and his
father were at Salzburg. He knew nothing till they told him.’

May God forgive me if at this I felt no joy in another’s acquittal of
the heavy sin with which I had charged him. I stood a moment irresolute,
with my head bowed, silent.

‘But, Benedicta,’ I resumed, ‘will he take for a wife one whose good
name has been blackened in the sight of his family and his neighbours?
No, he does not seek you with an honourable purpose. O Benedicta,
confide in me. Is it not as I say?’

But she remained silent, nor could I draw from her a single word. She
would only sigh and tremble; she seemed unable to speak. I saw that she
was too weak to resist the temptation to love young Rochus; nay, I saw
that her whole heart was bound up in him, and my soul melted with pity
and sorrow--pity for her and sorrow for myself, for I felt that my power
was unequal to the command that had been laid upon me. My agony was so
keen that I could hardly refrain from crying out.

I went from her cabin, but did not return to my own. I wandered about
the haunted shore of the Black Lake for hours, without aim or purpose.

Reflecting bitterly upon my failure, and beseeching God for greater
grace and strength, it was revealed to me that I was an unworthy
disciple of the Lord and a faithless son of the Church. I became more
keenly conscious than I ever had been before of the earthly nature of my
love for Benedicta, and of its sinfulness. I felt that I had not given
my whole heart to God, but was clinging to a temporal and human hope.
It was plain to me that unless my love for the sweet child should be
changed to a purely spiritual affection, purified from all the dross of
passion, I could never receive holy orders, but should remain always a
monk and always a sinner. These reflections caused me great torment,
and in my despair I cast myself down upon the earth, calling aloud to
my Saviour. In this my greatest trial I clung to the Cross. ‘Save me, O
Lord!’ I cried. ‘I am engulfed in a great passion--save me, oh, save me,
or I perish forever!’

All that night I struggled and prayed and fought against the evil
spirits in my soul, with their suggestions of recreancy to the dear
Church whose child I am.

‘The Church,’ they whispered, ‘has servants enough. You are not as yet
irrevocably bound to celibacy. You can procure a dispensation from your
monastic vows and remain here in the mountains, a layman. You can learn
the craft of the hunter or the herdsman, and be ever near Benedicta to
guard and guide her--perhaps in time to win her love from Rochus and
take her for your wife.’

To these temptations I opposed my feeble strength and such aid as
the blessed Saint gave me in my great trial. The contest was long and
agonising, and more than once, there in the darkness and the wilderness,
which rang with my cries, I was near surrender; but at the dawning of
the day I became more tranquil, and peace once more filled my heart,
even as the golden light filled the great gorges of the mountain where
but a few moments before were the darkness and the mist. I thought then
of the suffering and death of our Saviour, who died for the redemption
of the world, and most fervently I prayed that Heaven would grant me the
great boon to die likewise, in a humbler way, even though it were for
but one suffering being--Benedicta.

May the Lord hear my prayer!

30

The night before the Sunday on which I was to hold divine service great
fires were kindled on the cliffs--a signal for the young men in the
valley to come up to the mountain dairies. They came in great numbers,
shouting and screaming, and were greeted with songs and shrill cries by
the dairy maidens, who swung flaming torches that lit up the faces
of the great rocks and sent gigantic shadows across them. It was a
beautiful sight. These are indeed a happy people.

The monastery boy came in with the rest. He will remain over Sunday,
and, returning, will take back the roots that I have dug. He gave me
much news from the monastery. The reverend Superior is living at Saint
Bartholomæ, fishing and hunting. Another thing--one which gives me great
alarm--is that the Saltmaster’s son, young Rochus, is in the mountains
not far from the Black Lake. It seems he has a hunting-lodge on the
upper cliff, and a path leads from it directly to the lake. The boy told
me this, but did not observe how I trembled when hearing it. Would that
an angel with a flaming sword might guard the path to the lake, and to
Benedicta!

The shouting and singing continued during the whole night, and between
this and the agitation in my soul I did not close my eyes. Early the
next morning the boys and girls arrived in crowds from all directions.
The maidens wore silken kerchiefs twisted prettily about their heads,
and had decorated themselves and their escorts with flowers.

Not being an ordained priest, it was not permitted me either to read
mass or to preach a sermon, but I prayed with them and spoke to them
whatever my aching heart found to say. I spoke to them of our sinfulness
and God’s great mercy; of our harshness to one another and the Saviour’s
love for us all; of His infinite compassion. As my words echoed from the
abyss below and the heights above I felt as if I were lifted out of
this world of suffering and sin and borne away on angel’s wings to the
radiant spheres beyond the sky! It was a solemn service, and my little
congregation was awed into devotion and seemed to feel as if it stood in
the Holy of Holies.

The service being concluded, I blessed the people and they quietly went
away. They had not been long gone before I heard the lads send forth
ringing shouts, but this did not displease me. Why should they not
rejoice? Is not cheerfulness the purest praise a human heart can give?

In the afternoon I went down to Benedicta’s cabin and found her at the
door, making a wreath of edelweiss for the image of the Blessed Virgin,
intertwining the snowy flowers with a purple blossom that looked like
blood.

Seating myself beside her, I looked on at her beautiful work in silence,
but in my soul was a wild tumult of emotion and a voice that cried:
‘Benedicta, my love, my soul, I love you more than life! I love you
above all things on earth and in Heaven!’

31

The Superior sent for me, and with a strange foreboding I followed his
messenger down the difficult way to the lake and embarked in the boat.
Occupied with gloomy reflections and presentiments of impending evil,
I hardly observed that we had left the shore before the sound of merry
voices apprised me of our arrival at St. Bartholomæ. On the beautiful
meadow surrounding the dwelling of the Superior were a great number of
people--priests, friars, mountaineers and hunters. Many were there who
had come from afar with large retinues of servants and boys. In the
house was a great bustle--a confusion and a hurrying to and fro, as
during a fair. The doors stood wide open, and people ran in and out,
clamouring noisily. The dogs yelped and howled as loud as they could. On
a stand under the oak was a great cask of beer, and many of the people
were gathered about it, drinking. Inside the house, too, there seemed to
be much drinking, for I saw many men near the windows with mighty cups
in their hands. On entering, I encountered throngs of servants carrying
dishes of fish and game. I asked one of them when I could see the
Superior. He answered that His Reverence would be down immediately after
the meal, and I concluded to wait in the hall. The walls were hung with
pictures of some large fish which had been caught in the lake. Below
each picture the weight of the monster and the date of its capture,
together with the name of the person taking it, were inscribed in
large letters. I could not help interpreting these records--perhaps
uncharitably--as intimations to all good Christians to pray for the
souls of those whose names were inscribed.

After more than an hour the Superior descended the stairs. I stepped
forward, saluting him humbly, as became my position. He nodded, eyed
me sharply, and directed me to go to his apartment immediately after
supper. This I did.

‘How about your soul, my son Ambrosius?’ he asked me, solemnly. ‘Has the
Lord shown you grace? Have you endured the probation?’ Humbly, with my
head bowed, I answered: ‘Most reverend Father, God in my solitude has
given me knowledge.’

‘Of what? Of your guilt?’ This I affirmed.

‘Praise be to God!’ exclaimed the Superior. ‘I knew, my son, that
solitude would speak to your soul with the tongue of an angel. I have
good tidings for you. I have written in your behalf to the Bishop of
Salzburg. He summons you to his palace. He will consecrate you and give
you holy orders in person, and you will remain in his city. Prepare
yourself, for in three days you are to leave us.’

The Superior looked sharply into my face again, but I did not permit him
to see into my heart. I asked for his benediction, bowed and left him.
Ah, then, it was for this that I was summoned! I am to go away forever.
I must leave my very life behind me; I must renounce my care and
protection of Benedicta. God help her and me!

32

I am once more in my mountain home, but tomorrow I leave it forever. But
why am I sad? Does not a great blessing await me? Have I not ever looked
forward to the moment of my consecration with longing, believing it
would bring me the supreme happiness of my life? And now that this great
joy is almost within my grasp, I am sad beyond measure.

Can I approach the altar of the Lord with a lie on my lips? Can I
receive the holy sacrament as an impostor? The holy oil upon my forehead
would turn to fire and burn into my brain, and I should be for ever
damned.

I might fall upon my knees before the Bishop and say: ‘Expel me, for
I do not seek after the love of Christ, nor after holy and heavenly
things, but after the things of this world.’

If I so spoke, I should be punished, but I could endure that without a
murmur.

If only I were sinless and could rightly become a priest, I could be of
great service to the poor child. I should be able to give her infinite
blessings and consolations. I could be her confessor and absolve her
from sin, and, if I should outlive her--which God forbid!--might by my
prayers even redeem her soul from Purgatory. I could read masses for the
souls of her poor dead parents, already in torment.

Above all, if I succeeded in preserving her from that one great and
destructive sin for which she secretly longs; if I could take her with
me and place her under thy protection, O Blessed Virgin, that would be
happiness indeed.

But where is the sanctuary that would receive the hangman’s daughter?
I know it but too well: when I am gone from here, the Evil One, in the
winning shape he has assumed, will prevail, and she will be lost in time
and in eternity.

33

I have been at Benedicta’s cabin.

‘Benedicta,’ I said, ‘I am going away from here--away from the
mountains--away from you.’

She grew pale, but said nothing. For a moment I was overcome with
emotion; I seemed to choke, and could not continue. Presently I said:
‘Poor child, what will become of you? I know that your love for Rochus
is strong and, love is like a torrent which nothing can stay. There is
no safety for you but in clinging to the cross of our Saviour. Promise me
that you will do so--do not let me go away in misery, Benedicta.’

‘Am I, then, so wicked?’ she said, without lifting her eyes from the
ground. ‘Can I not be trusted?’

‘Ah, but, Benedicta, the enemy is strong, and you have a traitor to
unbar the gates. Your own heart, poor child, will at last betray you.’

‘He will not harm me,’ she murmured. ‘You wrong him, sir, indeed you
do.’

But I knew that I did not, and was all the more concerned to judge that
the wolf would use the arts of the fox. Before the sacred purity of
this maiden the base passions of the youth had not dared to declare
themselves. But none the less I knew that an hour would come when she
would have need of all her strength, and it would fail her. I grasped
her arm and demanded that she take an oath that she would throw herself
into the waters of the Black Lake rather than into the arms of Rochus.
But she would not reply. She remained silent, her eyes fixed upon mine
with a look of sadness and reproach which filled my mind with the most
melancholy thoughts, and, turning away, I left her.

34

Lord, Saviour of my soul, whither hast Thou led me? Here am I in the
culprit’s tower, a condemned murderer, and to-morrow at sunrise I shall
be taken to the gallows and hanged! For who so slays a fellow being, he
shall be slain; that is the law of God and man.

On this the last day of my life I have asked that I be permitted to
write, and my prayer is granted. In the name of God and in the truth I
shall now set down all that occurred.

Leaving Benedicta, I returned to my cabin, and, having packed
everything, waited for the boy. But he did not come: I should have to
remain in the mountains another night. I grew restless. The cabin seemed
too narrow to hold me; the air was too heavy and hot to sustain life.
Going outside, I lay upon a rock and looked up at the sky, dark and
glittering with stars. But my soul was not in the heavens; it was at the
cabin by the Black Lake.

Suddenly I heard a faint, distant cry, like a human voice. I sat upright
and listened, but all was still. It may have been, I thought, the note
of some night-bird. I was about to lie down again, when the cry was
repeated, but it seemed to come from another direction. It was the
voice of Benedicta! It sounded again, and now it seemed to come from the
air--from the sky above my head, and distinctly it called my name; but,
O Mother of God, what anguish was in those tones!

I leapt from the rock. ‘Benedicta, Benedicta!’ I cried aloud. There was
no reply.

‘Benedicta, I am coming to thee, child!’

I sprang away in the darkness, along the path to the Black Lake. I ran
and leapt, stumbling and falling over rocks and stumps of trees. My
limbs were bruised, my clothing was torn, but I gave no heed; Benedicta
was in distress, and I alone could save and guard her. I rushed on until
I reached the Black Lake. But at the cabin all was quiet; there was
neither light nor sound; everything was as peaceful as a house of God.

After waiting a long time I left. The voice that I had heard calling me
could not have been Benedicta’s, but must have been that of some evil
spirit mocking me in my great sorrow. I meant to return to my cabin, but
an invisible hand directed my steps another way; and although it led me
to my death, I know it to have been the hand of the Lord.

Walking on, hardly knowing whither, and unable to find the path by which
I had descended, I found myself at the foot of a precipice. Here was a
narrow path leading steeply upward along the face of the cliff, and I
began ascending it. After I had gone up some distance I looked above,
and saw outlined against the starry sky a cabin perched upon the very
verge. It flashed through my mind that this was the hunting-lodge of
the Saltmaster’s son, and this the path by which he visited Benedicta.
Merciful Father! he, Rochus, was certain to come this way; there could
be no other. I would wait for him here.

I crouched in the shadow and waited, thinking what to say to him and
imploring the Lord for inspiration to change his heart and turn him from
his evil purpose.

Before long I heard him approaching from above. I heard the stones
displaced by his foot roll down the steep slopes and leap into the lake
far below. Then I prayed God that if I should be unable to soften the
youth’s heart he might miss his footing and fall, too, like the stones;
for it would be better that he should meet a sudden and impenitent
death, and his soul be lost, than that he should live to destroy the
soul of an innocent girl.

Turning at an angle of the rock, he stood directly before me as, rising,
I stepped into the faint light of the new moon. He knew me at once, and
in a haughty tone asked me what I wanted.

I replied mildly, explaining why I had barred his way, and begging him
to go back. He insulted and derided me.

‘You miserable towler,’ he said, ‘will you never cease meddling in my
affairs? Because the mountain maids are so foolish as to praise your
white teeth and your big black eyes, must you fancy yourself a man, and
not a monk? You are no more to women than a goat!’

I begged him to desist and to listen to me. I threw myself on my knees
and implored him, however he might despise me and my humble though holy
station, to respect Benedicta and spare her. But he pushed me from
him with his foot upon my breast. No longer master of myself, I sprang
erect, and called him an assassin and a villain.

At this he pulled a dagger from his belt, saying: ‘I will send you to
Hell!’

Quick as a flash of lightning my hand was upon his wrist. I wrested the
knife from him and flung it behind me, crying: ‘Not with weapons,
but unarmed and equal, we will fight to the death, and the Lord shall
decide!’

We sprang upon each other with the fury of wild animals, and were
instantly locked together with arms and hands. We struggled upward and
downward along the path, with the great wall of rock on one side, and
on the other the precipice, the abyss, the waters of the Black Lake! We
writhed and strained for the advantage; but the Lord was against me for
He permited my enemy to overcome me and throw me down on the edge of the
precipice. I was in the grasp of a strong enemy, whose eyes glowed
like coals of fire. His knee was on my breast and my head hung over the
edge--my life was in his hands. I thought he would push me over, but he
made no attempt to do so. He held me there between life and death for a
dreadful time, then said, in a low, hissing voice: ‘You see, monk, if I
but move I can hurl you down the abyss like a stone. But I care not to
take your life, for it is no impediment to me. The girl belongs to me,
and to me you shall leave her; do you understand?’

With that he rose and left me, going down the path toward the lake. His
footfalls had long died away in the silent night before I was able to
move hand or foot. Great God! I surely did not deserve such defeat,
humiliation and pain. I had but wished to save a soul, yet Heaven
permitted me to be conquered by him who would destroy it!

Finally I was able to rise, although in great pain, for I was bruised by
my fall, and could still feel the fierce youth’s knee upon my breast
and his fingers about my throat. I walked with difficulty back along
the path, downward toward the lake. Wounded as I was, I would return to
Benedicta’s cabin and interpose my body between her and harm. But my
progress was slow, and I had frequently to rest; yet it was near dawn
before I gave up the effort, convinced that I should be too late to do
the poor child the small service of yielding up my remnant of life in
her defence.

At early dawn I heard Rochus returning, with a merry song upon his lips.
I concealed myself behind a rock, though not in fear, and he passed
without seeing me.

At this point there was a break in the wall of the cliff, the path
crossing a great crevice that clove the mountain as by a sword-stroke
from the arm of a Titan. The bottom was strewn with loose boulders and
overgrown with brambles and shrubs, through which trickled a slender
stream of water fed by the melting snows above. Here I remained for
three days and two nights. I heard the boy from the monastery calling
my name as he traversed the path searching for me, but I made no answer.
Not once did I quench my burning thirst at the brook nor appease my
hunger with blackberries that grew abundantly on every side. Thus I
mortified the sinful flesh, killed rebellious nature and subdued my
spirit to the Lord until at last I felt myself delivered from all evil,
freed from the bondage of an earthly love and prepared to devote my
heart and soul and life to no woman but thee, O Blessed Virgin!

The Lord having wrought this miracle, my soul felt as light and free
as if wings were lifting me to the skies. I praised the Lord in a loud
voice, shouting and rejoicing till the rocks rang with the sound. I
cried: ‘Hosanna! Hosanna! I was now prepared to go before the altar and
receive the holy oil upon my head. I was no longer myself. Ambrosius,
the poor erring monk, was dead; I was an instrument in the right hand of
God to execute His holy will. I prayed for the delivery of the soul of
the beautiful maiden, and as I prayed, behold! there appeared to me
in the splendour and glory of Heaven the Lord Himself, attended by
innumerable angels, filling half the sky! A great rapture enthralled my
senses; I was dumb with happiness. With a smile of ineffable benignity
God spake to me:

‘Because that thou hast been faithful to thy trust, and through all the
trials that I have sent upon thee hast not faltered, the salvation of
the sinless maiden’s soul is now indeed given into thy hand.’

‘Thou, Lord, knowest,’ I replied, ‘that I am without the means to do
this work, nor know I how it is to be done.’

The Lord commanded me to rise and walk on, and, turning my face away
from the glorious Presence, which filled the heart of the cloven
mountain with light, I obeyed, leaving the scene of my purgation and
regaining the path that led up the face of the cliff. I began the
ascent, walking on and on in the splendour of the sunset, reflected from
crimson clouds.

Suddenly I felt impelled to stop and look down, and there at my feet,
shining red in the cloudlight, as if stained with blood, lay the sharp
knife of Rochus. Now I understood why the Lord had permitted that wicked
youth to conquer me, yet had moved him to spare my life. I had been
reserved for a more glorious purpose. And so was placed in my hands the
means to that sacred end. My God, my God, how mysterious are Thy ways!

35

‘You shall leave her to me.’ So had spoken the wicked youth while
holding me between life and death at the precipice. He permitted me
to live, not from Christian mercy, but because he despised my life, a
trivial thing to him, not worth taking. He was sure of his prey; it did
not matter if I were living or dead.

‘You shall leave her to me.’ Oh, arrogant fool! Do you not know that the
Lord holds His hand over the flowers of the field and the young birds
in the nest? Leave Benedicta to you?--permit you to destroy her body and
her soul? Ah, you shall see how the hand of God shall be spread above
her to guard and save. There is yet time--that soul is still spotless
and undefiled. Forward, then, to fulfil the command of the Most High
God!

I knelt upon the spot where God had given into my hand the means of her
deliverance. My soul was wholly absorbed in the mission entrusted to
me. My heart was in ecstasy, and I saw plainly, as in a vision, the
triumphant completion of the act which I had still to do.

I arose, and, concealing the knife in my robe, retraced my steps, going
downward toward the Black Lake. The new moon looked like a divine wound
in the sky, as if some hand had plunged a dagger into Heaven’s holy
breast.

Benedicta’s door was ajar, and I stood outside a long time, gazing upon
the beautiful picture presented to my eyes. A bright fire on the hearth
lit up the room. Opposite the fire sat Benedicta, combing her long
golden hair. Unlike what it was the last time I had stood before her
cabin and gazed upon it, her face was full of happiness and had a glory
that I had never imagined in it. A sensuous smile played about her
lips while she sang in a low, sweet voice the air of a love song of the
people. Ah me! she was beautiful; she looked like a bride of Heaven. But
though her voice was that of an angel, it angered me, and I called out
to her: ‘What are you doing, Benedicta, so late in the evening? You sing
as if you expected your lover, and arrange your hair as for a dance. It
is but three days since I, your brother and only friend, left you, in
sorrow and despair. And now you are as happy as a bride.’

She sprang up and manifested great joy at seeing me again, and hastened
to kiss my hands. But she had no sooner glanced into my face than she
uttered a scream of terror and recoiled from me as if I had been a fiend
from Hell!

But I approached her and asked: ‘Why do you adorn yourself so late in
the night?--why are you so happy? Have the three days been long enough
for you to fall? Are you the mistress of Rochus?’ She stood staring at
me in horror. She asked: ‘Where have you been and why do you come? You
look so ill! Sit, sir, I pray you, and rest. You are pale and you shake
with cold. I will make you a warm drink and you will feel better.’

She was silenced by my stern gaze. ‘I have not come to rest and be
nursed by you,’ I said. ‘I am here because the Lord commands. Tell me
why you sang.’

She looked up at me with the innocent expression of a babe, and replied:
‘Because I had for the moment forgotten that you were going away, and I
was happy.’

‘Happy?’

‘Yes--he has been here.’

‘Who? Rochus?’

She nodded. ‘He was so good,’ she said. ‘He will ask his father to
consent to see me, and perhaps take me to his great house and persuade
the Reverend Superior to remove the curse from my life. Would not that
be fine? But then.’ she added, with a sudden change of voice and manner,
lowering her eyes, ‘perhaps you would no longer care for me. It is
because I am poor and friendless.’

‘What! he will persuade his father to befriend you?--to take you to his
home?--you, the hangman’s daughter? He, this reckless youth, at war
with God and God’s ministers, will move the Church! Oh, lie, lie, lie! O
Benedicta--lost, betrayed Benedicta! By your smiles and by your tears I
know that you believe the monstrous promises of this infamous villain.’

‘Yes,’ she said, inclining her head as if she were making a confession
of faith before the altar of the Lord, ‘I believe him.’

‘Kneel, then,’ I cried, ‘and praise the Lord for sending one of His
chosen to save your soul from temporal and eternal perdition!’

At these words she trembled as in great fear.

‘What do you wish me to do?’ she exclaimed.

‘To pray that your sins may be forgiven.’

A sudden rapturous impulse seized my soul. ‘I am a priest,’ I cried,
‘anointed and ordained by God Himself, and in the name of the Father,
and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit, I forgive you your only sin,
which is your love. I give you absolution without repentance. I free
your soul from the taint of sin because you will atone for it with your
blood and life.’

With these words, I seized her and forced her down upon her knees. But
she wanted to live; she cried and wailed. She clung to my knees and
entreated and implored in the name of God and the Blessed Virgin. Then
she sprang to her feet and attempted to run away. I seized her again,
but she broke away from my grasp and ran to the open door, crying:
‘Rochus! Rochus! help, oh help!’

Springing after her, I grasped her by the shoulder, turned her
half-round and plunged the knife into her breast.

I held her in my arms, pressed her against my heart and felt her warm
blood upon my body. She opened her eyes and fixed upon me a look of
reproach, as if I had robbed her of a life of happiness. Then her eyes
slowly closed, she gave a long, shuddering sigh, her little head turned
upon her shoulder, and so she died.

I wrapped the beautiful body in a white sheet, leaving the face
uncovered, and laid it upon the floor. But the blood tinged the linen,
so I parted her long golden hair, spreading it over the crimson roses
upon her breast. As I had made her a bride of Heaven, I took from the
image of the Virgin the wreath of edelweiss and placed it on Benedicta’s
brow; and now I remembered the edelweiss which she had once brought me
to comfort me in my penance.

Then I stirred the fire, which cast upon the shrouded figure and the
beautiful face a rich red light, as if God’s glory had descended there
to enfold her. It was caught and tangled in the golden tresses that lay
upon her breast, so that they looked a mass of curling flame.

And so I left her.

36

I descended the mountain by precipitous paths, but the Lord guided my
steps so that I neither stumbled nor fell into the abyss. At the dawning
of the day I arrived at the monastery, rang the bell and waited until
the gate was opened. The brother porter evidently thought me a fiend,
for he raised a howl that aroused the whole monastery. I went straight
to the room of the Superior, stood before him in my bloodstained
garments, and, telling him for what deed the Lord had chosen me,
informed him that I was now an ordained priest. At this they seized me,
put me into the tower, and, holding court upon me, condemned me to death
as if I were a murderer. Oh, the fools, the poor demented fools!

One person has come to me to-day in my dungeon, who fell upon her
knees before me, kissed my hands and adored me as God’s chosen
instrument--Amula, the brown maiden. She alone has discovered that I
have done a great and glorious deed.

I have asked Amula to chase away the vultures from my body, for
Benedicta is in Heaven.

I shall soon be with her. Praise be to God! Hosanna! Amen.

*****

[To this old manuscript are added the following lines in another hand:
‘On the fifteenth day of October, in the year of our Lord, 1680, in this
place, Brother Ambrosius was hanged, and on the following day his body
was buried under the gallows, close to that of the girl Benedicta, whom
he killed. This Benedicta, though called the hangman’s daughter, was (as
is now known through declarations of the youth Rochus) the bastard child
of the Saltmaster by the hangman’s wife. It is also veritably attested
by the same youth that the maiden cherished a secret and forbidden love
for him who slew her in ignorance of her passion. In all else Brother
Ambrosius was a faithful servant of the Lord. Pray for him, pray for
him!]