_The Hampstead Mystery._

  A Novel.

  BY

  FLORENCE MARRYAT,

  AUTHOR OF ‘LOVE’S CONFLICT,’ ‘VÉRONIQUE,’ ‘MY OWN
  CHILD,’ ‘MY SISTER THE ACTRESS,’ ‘HOW LIKE
  A WOMAN,’ ‘PARSON JONES,’ ETC., ETC.


  _IN THREE VOLUMES._

  VOL. III.


  LONDON:
  F. V. WHITE & CO.,
  14 BEDFORD STREET, STRAND, W.C.

  1894.




_CONTENTS._


                   PAGE

  CHAPTER I.,         1

  CHAPTER II.,       24

  CHAPTER III.,      46

  CHAPTER IV.,       67

  CHAPTER V.,        91

  CHAPTER VI.,      114

  CHAPTER VII.,     138

  CHAPTER VIII.,    163

  CHAPTER IX.,      184

  CHAPTER X.,       208




_The Hampstead Mystery._




CHAPTER I.


Hannah Hindes did not know what answer to make to this direct appeal.
She was an honest woman, to whom a lie was an abhorrence, but she was
also a woman who held her husband’s reputation, perhaps his life, in
her hands. She hesitated so visibly, that Captain Hindes began to think
his brother’s disorder must be such as she found it impossible to speak
to him upon.

‘Well, never mind,’ he said presently, ‘I see you are unwilling to
mention it, but I shall soon get it out of old Hal. But you make me
feel rather anxious, Hannah. If my brother has not consulted a doctor,
I must make him do so. His health is too valuable to you and the
children to be trifled with. By the way, talking of children, what
induced you to send those two little fairies, Elsie and Laurie, away
from home to be educated? I thought that was altogether against your
principles, Hannah. Edith says she remembers your giving her a long
lecture on the subject when Fanny was born, and cautioning her never to
let a daughter be educated anywhere but at home. She has dinned it into
my ears whenever I have hinted the young lady was old enough to go to
school.’

‘Yes!’ replied Hannah, with a sigh. ‘Those have always been my
sentiments, Arthur, and are so still. But Henry has grown so irritable
of late, that the noise of the children playing about The Hall
disturbed him, so I thought it best to let them go. They are with an
old friend of mine, where I can see them almost every day. I daresay,’
she continued, timidly, ‘that you thought it very strange that we
could not receive you at The Old Hall, as we did before. It cost me
more than I can tell you to write and put off your coming here. But
it was for the same reason. My husband cannot bear the least noise
or confusion. I am afraid he has over-taxed his brain, and, when he
returns home, he requires absolute rest.’

‘Don’t say anything more about it, Hannah,’ replied her sister-in-law.
‘Of course, Artie and I knew there was some unavoidable reason for the
refusal. And, much as we should have liked to renew our former pleasant
relations with you, everything must give way to Henry’s health.’

‘What are your plans?’ inquired Hannah.

‘We have hardly fixed them yet,’ said Captain Hindes. ‘We thought of
staying in town for a while, just to see a few theatres and other
amusements, while we look out for a country cottage to spend the summer
in. But if my brother is seriously ill, I shall not dream of going far
away from him.’

‘Oh, Arthur! he is not so ill as that!’ exclaimed Hannah; ‘it is his
mind that is suffering, rather than his body. He works so hard at the
business, and now, of course, everything falls on his shoulders. He
seldom gets to the City before noon, and, when he comes home, he is so
exhausted, he cares for nothing but to go to bed.’

‘But neuralgia is generally due to physical weakness, Hannah. The
doctors always give Edie a tonic for it the first thing. Is Hal taking
nothing to strengthen him?’

‘I don’t think he takes anything but morphia when the pain becomes
intolerable,’ replied Hannah; ‘but, Arthur, don’t argue with him on the
subject. Nothing makes Henry so irritable as to be talked to about his
health. When you see him, treat him as if you saw no difference in his
appearance. He won’t let even _me_ mention the subject to him.’

‘He must be mightily changed,’ said Captain Hindes, sighing; ‘however,
I will take your advice, and keep silence on the matter. I shall call
at his office the first thing to-morrow. When do you think I shall
find him there?’

‘Not before twelve, Arthur; if then. Will not you and Edith have some
refreshment before you go back?’

‘No, thank you, Hannah. We are both tired, and should not have moved
out except to see you. Tell old Hal all about us when he wakes up, and
say I shall be in Sise Lane early to-morrow. Good-night, my dear. I’m
awfully sorry about his illness. It’s quite spoilt my coming home,
but I hope I may be able to cheer him up. If it is due, as you seem
to imagine, to his over-working himself, I think I shall be able to
persuade him to come out a little with me, and brush the cobwebs off
his brain. What need has he to ruin his health by work? He has made
plenty of money, to say nothing of the handsome legacy that Mr Crampton
left the son and heir. By the way, how is the prodigy? I conclude he
has not left home as well as the girls.’

‘No,’ said Hannah, with a wintry smile; he is not quite old enough
for that yet. He will not be three till his next birthday. He is quite
well, thank you, Arthur; but I have to keep him at the top of the
house, for fear he should disturb his father.’

‘Why, Henry was always so devoted to Master Wally. Edie and I have
often laughed together over his letters about his little son, and said,
surely no man had ever had a boy before. At one time he could write of
nothing else.’

‘Oh! yes, and he loves the child as much as ever, perhaps more, but he
cannot stand his noise. It jars upon his nerves. Sometimes I long for
the time when Wally shall be able to go too. It is a dull life for a
young child to be confined to the company of his nurse.’

‘You grieve me more and more with each word you say, Hannah,’ replied
her brother-in-law; ‘however, I shall see Henry for myself to-morrow.
Come! Edie, we must make tracks for our hotel.’

‘Won’t you wait for the carriage to take you back,’ asked Hannah
anxiously, for she was distressed at not being able to show them more
hospitality.

‘No, thanks, dear. We shall get home quicker by the Metropolitan. We
shall see you again soon. Good-night!’ and, with his wife’s arm snugly
tucked under his own, Captain Hindes walked off again.

As soon as she was sure that they were gone, Hannah sat down and
indulged in the luxury of ‘a good cry.’ It was seldom that she
permitted her feelings to get the better of her, but this interview had
upset her.

The semi-deceit she had been compelled to practise--the determination
of Captain Hindes to find out what was the matter with his brother,
and the evident suspicion with which he had received her statements,
all combined to make her fear that a crisis of some sort was at hand.
She dreaded what her husband might do or say if his brother pressed
him too hard for an explanation of the alteration in his demeanour and
appearance. His brain was at times so muddled, even in the day-time,
that he spoke more like a madman than a sane person, and if Arthur took
it upon himself to consult medical men on Henry’s behalf, or to have
him privately watched, what terrible _dénouement_ might not be the
consequence. She wished heartily that her brother and sister-in-law had
not returned home just at that particular moment, that they had given
her time to coax her husband to leave England for a while, as he had
seemed so well disposed to do, but wishing was futile. They were there,
in their midst, and she must set all her wits to work to conceal the
real state of affairs from them.

She visited her husband’s bed-chamber at once, to find him sunk into
a slumber, from which she could only rouse him to a semi-torpid
condition. So she wisely let him sleep until the morning, when he was
able to listen to her story, and conceive a hazy idea that his brother
and his wife had paid The Old Hall a visit whilst he was asleep.

When Captain Arthur Hindes walked into the office the following day,
he found his brother had not yet arrived. Naturally he was well-known
there, by Mr Bloxam and all the older employés of the firm, and he
received a hearty welcome, for he was a general favourite. Arthur
was taller and fairer than Henry--had a handsomer face and a neater
figure--was possessed, moreover, of a bright, happy temperament, and
had always a kind word or a jest on hand.

‘Not arrived yet?’ he exclaimed in answer to Bloxam’s intimation of the
‘governor’s’ absence, ‘and nearly half-past twelve! What makes him so
late, Bloxam? He used to be called “the early bird” at one time.’

‘Ah! Master Arthur, things are changed since then,’ replied the old
cashier. ‘Mr Henry’s not been nearly so active of late. I often think
he’s not well. He seems so mopey and dull. Perhaps it will be different
now you’ve come home, Mr Arthur. You’ll cheer him up a bit. He has
felt Mr Crampton’s death terribly, and Miss Jenny’s too, for the
matter of that, they came so quickly, one after the other, and he ought
to have taken a change long ago. I’m very glad you’ve come back, sir.
You’ll do him more good than anyone else could do.’

‘I am glad also, Bloxam, for Mrs Hindes’s account of him quite alarmed
me. But do you think he is really ill?’

‘I think he is very, _very_ ill, Mr Arthur,’ returned Bloxam,
mysteriously; ‘but here he is, so I will leave you together.’

Saying thus, the cashier retreated by a side door into his particular
sanctum, as the glass doors from the front swung slowly on their
hinges, as though propelled by an enfeebled hand, to admit Henry
Hindes. He entered, looking much as he had always done of late,
slouching along with a bent figure and a shaking frame. He had made
some attempt, at the instigation of his wife, to brighten up his
general appearance by assuming a frock coat and a tall hat, but they
only served to make the difference in him more apparent. Captain
Hindes could not for a moment believe the evidence of his senses, but
when he was convinced that it was his brother who stood before him, he
started forward to greet him with a slight cry.

‘Good God! Hal, my dear old fellow!’ he exclaimed, ‘is this you?’

‘Who else?’ demanded Henry, with an attempt at jocularity, as he held
out his hand and grasped that of Arthur.

The younger man looked him in the face for a few minutes without
speaking. He could not trust himself to do so. He was too infinitely
shocked. _This_ Henry? Henry, whose devotion to his personal appearance
had passed into a family proverb--who had always been the ‘nattiest’
youth, and the most perfectly-dressed young man, and the most faultless
gentleman in the City--whose irreproachable garb and spotless linen and
glossy hats had been cast in his teeth in bygone days, as witnesses
that he was not fit for business or anything but a _cavalier des
dames_. This limp, untidy, slovenly-looking man, with bloodshot eyes,
and unhealthy complexion, his brother Henry, of whom he used to be so
proud? Arthur felt a great lump rise in his throat, and could have sat
down and cried to see the difference a few years had made in him. But
he held his hand as in a vice instead, and replied in as hearty a voice
as he could manage,--

‘Why, dear old chap, you’re not looking yourself at all. You took me
quite by surprise, though Hannah did prepare Edie and me last night to
see a change in you.’

‘Hannah, Hannah!’ cried his brother quickly; ‘what had she to say of
me? What did she tell you? How dared she--I mean, why did she mention
me at all?’

‘My dear Henry, it would have been very extraordinary, surely, if she
had not mentioned you, considering that we went over to Hampstead to
see you, and were much disappointed to find you had already retired to
bed. You want shaking up, old fellow, that’s what it is. You’ve been
worrying yourself over this big business too much. Your late partner’s
death has thrown too much responsibility upon your shoulders. How I
wish I were not such a fool, and could help you a little. But now that
I have returned, you must come out more, Henry. It is quite time you
came back to the world. It is--let me see!--quite nine months or more,
surely, since that poor girl met with her death--’

‘Stop! stop!’ cried Henry suddenly. ‘What poor girl? What are you
talking about?’

Arthur looked bewildered.

‘Why! Miss Crampton, or rather Mrs Walcheren, of course. It was
her death, wasn’t it, that led to the other. You must have felt it
terribly. Such a sudden shock, and when you regarded her as almost one
of the family.’

‘Oh! no, I didn’t,’ replied Hindes, in an incoherent manner. ‘Why
should I have felt it? She was nothing to me. I didn’t care about her.
Why, to hear you talk in that extravagant way,’ he continued, turning
his suspicious eyes upon his brother, ‘one would think--one would
almost imagine that I had had something to do with it all.’

‘Something to do with it,’ repeated Arthur, in a distressed tone of
voice. ‘Oh, Henry! how can you say such a thing! But you felt it
deeply, I am sure. Anyone could see that from your altered appearance.
But, my dear brother, there is such a thing, you know, as giving way
too much to our feelings. You have lost two of your dearest friends,
but you have your wife and children left. You must think of them,
Henry, and also a little of me, of whom you are the last surviving
relative. For all our sakes, dear old chap, try and rouse yourself from
this morbid condition. A little amusement and gaiety will do you good.
Hannah should have urged you to go out again before this. But, now that
I have come home, I mean to persuade you to it, for my own sake as well
as yours. Will you?’

‘Of course I will,’ replied Henry, sitting upright in his chair, and
trying to look as if there were nothing the matter with him; ‘we will
go out together, Arthur, and have some larks as we used to do. I’m as
fit as a fiddle. It’s only Hannah who will have it I’m ill. Women are
such coddles. But, now you are come, it will be all right. Let’s make
a night of it. Where shall we go? Tivoli first, and a little supper at
Gatti’s afterwards. Will that suit you, Artie? By Jove! the very sight
of you has done me good.’

‘I’d rather go to the theatre to-night, Henry. I shouldn’t like to
leave my little woman at home by herself, the first evening she spends
in England. We will do the music-halls afterwards. What do you say to
this? Come straight to Haxells’ from the office, and dine with us. I
will wire for Hannah to join us, and we’ll make a party to the Lyceum
in the evening. I can go now and secure a box. Will you do it, Henry?
Do say yes!’

‘Of course I’ll do it, Arthur. What has my wife been telling you--that
I’m not able to go to theatres and places of that sort? It’s lies, I
tell you--all lies. I’m as fit as they’re made. All right, Bloxam.
I’ll attend to you in a minute.’

‘I’d better go now, Henry, and leave you to your work,’ said Captain
Hindes, with a perplexed face, ‘you’ll get on better without me. Don’t
forget. Haxells’ at five, and we’ll dine there, and spend the evening
at the theatre. And I’ll telegraph to your wife at once that she may
make no engagement for to-night. Good-bye for the present, dear old
fellow. I’m awfully glad to have met you again Hal. Good-bye till this
evening.’

But though he had said he was awfully glad, Captain Hindes looked
awfully sad as he took his way back to the hotel to tell his wife of
his interview with his brother. He fulfilled his engagements, secured
a box at the theatre, sent Hannah an invitation by wire, and ordered a
good dinner to be ready for the party at six.

But Hannah came, and the dinner came, yet there was no appearance of
Henry Hindes. After some delay, Arthur volunteered to go back to the
City and see if he had yet left the office. On reaching it, he was
told that the ‘governor’ had been gone some time, and the clerk, who
carried his papers to the hansom, had heard him distinctly give the
order to drive to Hampstead, so the only thing his brother could do,
was to jump into another hansom and follow him there. He expected to
find Henry had mistaken the time of meeting, or had returned home to
dress for the theatre, which, he had told him, was unnecessary. The man
who opened the door of The Old Hall looked so surprised to see him,
that Arthur’s first inquiry was,--

‘Has not your master returned?’

‘Yes, sir, he has been home the best part of an hour.’

‘Where is he?’

‘In the library, I think, sir.’

Captain Hindes did not wait to be announced, but hastened to the
library by himself. He found his brother seated in an arm-chair doing
nothing, with his hands folded on his lap.

‘Hullo!’ cried Arthur.

Henry started as if he had been shot, and exclaimed,--

‘Good God!’ Then, turning towards the intruder, said angrily. ‘How dare
you startle me in that way? I have told you again and again--’

‘Hal! Hal! it is I--Arthur,’ replied the captain, quickly.

Henry Hindes turned a lack-lustre eye upon him, and said in a tone of
surprise,--

‘Arthur? but where have you come from? Why didn’t you let me know you
were coming home? We should have sent the carriage or something to meet
you.

‘Henry, old boy, what are you talking of?’ said Captain Hindes. ‘Why,
I saw you at the office this morning, and you promised to dine with us
this evening, and go to the theatre afterwards. Your wife is already
in town, and I have come to see why you have not joined us. Had you
forgotten your engagement? Why did you not come straight to Haxells’,
as you promised?’

‘Did I promise?’ asked his brother in a stupid way. ‘I suppose I have
forgotten it! I have so much business to think of. But I had better
tell Hannah I am going with you, or she will wait dinner for me.’

‘I left Hannah with Edith, Hal, and the sooner we join them the better.
I have my cab at the door, so come at once, like a good fellow,’ said
Arthur Hindes, who was beginning to feel seriously uneasy about his
brother.

He persuaded him to accompany him back to town, however, and in another
half-hour they had all sat down to dinner. Captain Hindes marked the
anxious look in his sister-in-law’s eye, as he related how he had
found his brother; but Henry picked up considerably during dinner, and
even attempted some feeble attempts towards jocularity, which were
accompanied, however, by such a silly, cackling laugh, that his wife’s
cheeks burned with shame to listen to him, and Arthur tried by all
means in his power to cover his shortcomings by talking a great deal
more nonsense than was his wont.

‘I am sorry,’ he said, as they started for the theatre, ‘that I was
unable to procure a box at the Lyceum. Everything was booked there for
three weeks in advance, but I got seats at another theatre, which I
daresay will prove just as amusing.’

‘I shall like anything, naturally,’ replied Edith; ‘but you, Hannah,
see so many pieces, I suppose, that you may be fastidious.’

‘Indeed, you are mistaken,’ said Hannah, with her quiet smile. ‘Henry
does not care, as a rule, to go out after dinner, and I cannot, of
course, go without him. An evening at the theatre is almost as great a
treat to me as to you, Edith.’

The theatre which Captain Hindes had selected was one of those which
provide melodrama for the public amusement. There happened to be a very
stirring piece on there at that moment, full of sensational scenes of
murder, assault, and robbery. The murder was committed in the prologue,
and the story dragged through three long acts afterwards, during which
the assassin was being hunted down until he was finally brought to
justice.

As soon as Hannah understood what they were likely to see, she became
anxious and troubled on her husband’s account, although she took great
pains to conceal her feelings. The two ladies were seated in front of
the box, whilst the gentlemen occupied the spaces behind their chairs.
She could not, therefore, see her husband’s face, but she sympathised
with him all through the play. She fancied that the conversation
between the brothers grew less and less as the piece proceeded, but
that might be due to the fact that they had become interested in it.
Her worst fears were, however, realised, when, as they were watching a
scene in which the murderer betrayed himself to a woman, who had been
on his track from the beginning, she suddenly heard Henry exclaim,--

‘This is an insult! I will stand it no longer. I consider you had no
right to bring my wife to see such a piece as this.’

Captain Hindes started to his feet at once, the two ladies looked round
in amazement, and Hannah said, in an agonised whisper,--

‘Hush, Henry, hush, for Heaven’s sake! You will attract public notice.
I am enjoying the play immensely. Do sit down and be quiet.’

‘I will not sit down,’ he continued, loudly. ‘I will not stay another
moment in this damned place. Here, Hannah, put on your cloak and bonnet
at once, and come home with me. You sha’n’t hear another line of it.’

Hannah glanced at her brother and sister-in-law with infinite distress,
which their looks returned, but, rising hastily, she whispered to
Arthur,--

‘Don’t make any fuss. Let me go home with him. He is not well. Forgive
me, Arthur; forgive us both, but don’t try to persuade him to stay.’

She threw her mantle over her shoulders as she spoke, and, putting her
hand through her husband’s arm, said gently,--

‘Come, dear, I am quite ready to go home. Good-night, dear Arthur and
Edie. Thanks so much,’ and, with that, she drew him quickly away.

When they had disappeared, Captain and Mrs Hindes looked at each other
in sorrowful surprise.

‘What _is_ the matter with him?’ asked Edith of Arthur. ‘Is he _mad_?’

‘I am very much inclined to believe it,’ replied her husband. ‘There is
certainly something very wrong about him, and I shall speak to a doctor
on the subject to-morrow. Hannah says he has refused to see anybody,
but, when a man begins to be as unreasonable as this, it is time his
friends acted for him. I have not had time to tell you how I found him
this afternoon, but I will when we get home.’

‘I would rather return now if you have no objection, dearest,’ said Mrs
Hindes. ‘This _contretemps_ has taken away all my interest in the play.
Poor Hannah! how I pity her.’




CHAPTER II.


Henry and Arthur Hindes had been the only children of their parents,
and, as young men, had been much attached to each other; Arthur,
perhaps, caring for Henry more than Henry did for him, as he joined
admiration of his elder brother’s abilities and address to his
affection. His principal thought in coming home had been the meeting
with Henry again, and the reality proved a bitter disappointment
to him. He lay awake half the night trying to find some reason for
his brother’s unaccountable conduct, but was unable to think of any
illness, except that of the brain, that could make him behave in so
extraordinary a manner.

He determined, therefore, that, whether Henry liked it or not, it
was his duty to consult a specialist on his behalf, and get him, if
possible, to pay him a visit. His first action, therefore, in the
morning was to inquire for and gain an interview with an eminent brain
doctor, to whom he related, as well as he was able, all that had
occurred since his arrival in England.

The great man listened to him with polite attention and in perfect
silence. He was a slender, delicate-looking man, with a bald head,
mild eyes and a pale complexion. No novice, to look at him, would have
imagined that that quiet eye of his had the power to quell the ravings
of the greatest lunatic who ever tried to dash his keeper’s brains out.
But, as he sat quietly with clasped hands and gazed at him, Captain
Hindes felt his influence without inviting it.

‘A sad story, Captain Hindes,’ he said, when Arthur had finished; ‘and
it may be you have guessed the truth. But no disease is so subtle
as that of the brain, and I can give no opinion without seeing your
brother.’

‘I am so afraid he would not admit you,’ replied Arthur. ‘His wife
tells me he has such an abhorrence (forgive the term) of all medical
men. But someone _must_ see him. I feel sure of that.’

‘Could you not introduce me as a friend of your own? Under any
circumstances, you could not tell him who I am. It would defeat my
efforts. I must observe him quietly and by myself,’ said Doctor Govan.

‘He is so morose and apparently averse to any company,’ replied Arthur.
‘I suppose you could not manage to see him at his office on pretence of
doing business?’

‘No, I’m afraid I should not play the _rôle_ of a business man
sufficiently well to escape detection. But, if you approve of the plan,
I might pay him a visit at his own house some evening, in company with
yourself, and be introduced as a fellow-passenger of yours from India.
I have travelled in the East, so am equal to the occasion. Only give me
half-an-hour in which to observe him at my leisure in his own home,
and I shall be able to satisfy you if your surmises are correct or not.’

‘Very good,’ replied Captain Hindes. ‘What evening will suit you,
doctor?’

‘I can go to-night, if you are sure your brother will be at home.’

‘I will wire to my sister-in-law, and let you know the result at once.’

‘Very well, sir. I will hold the time at your disposal for, say, the
next hour.’

Arthur thanked him, and withdrew to the nearest telegraph office,
whence he sent a wire to Hannah, waiting there till he had received her
reply. It was satisfactory.

 ‘We shall be at home this evening, and glad to see you.’

With this, Arthur hastened back to Doctor Govan, and received his
promise to meet him at the entrance of The Old Hall gates at eight
o’clock that night. They were both punctual, and walked up the drive
together. The servant admitted them to the library, where his master
and mistress usually spent their evenings, and they found Hannah
sitting at her needlework by the lamplight, whilst her husband lounged
in a chair with a newspaper on his knees, but apparently doing nothing.

‘Well, Hal!’ exclaimed Arthur, cheerfully, after he had saluted his
sister-in-law, ‘how are you? I should have looked you up before
this, but I have been occupied half the day with a friend and
fellow-passenger of mine, Doctor Govan. Let me make you known to one
another. Doctor, this is my brother, Mr Hindes.’

As Hannah heard the profession of the stranger mentioned, she threw a
quick glance towards Henry, to see how he would take it, but seemingly
he had forgotten the breach of good manners of which he had been guilty
the night before, and recovered his good temper, for he welcomed both
his brother and his friend heartily.

‘Delighted to see you both,’ he said. ‘Hannah, my dear, ring for brandy
and soda. My wife says I behaved like a bear last night, Artie, in
breaking up your party so soon; but I was confoundedly sleepy, old
chap, and that’s a fact, so you must forgive me.’

‘Why, Hal, I don’t think you need begin making excuses to me at
this time of day,’ replied his brother, who looked at the doctor,
nevertheless, to see how he took this very brief mention of a great
insult.

But Doctor Govan’s face was imperturbable, and no index to his
feelings. He accepted a glass of brandy-and-soda, and entered into a
pleasant conversation with Henry Hindes respecting his business and
shipping prospects, whilst Arthur maintained small talk with Hannah.
At last a diversion was effected by the sound of a child’s whimpering
outside.

‘Wally being carried off to bed,’ said his mother, smiling. ‘He is a
very spoilt boy, I am sorry to say, and it is seldom effected without a
controversy.’

‘Wally,’ cried his uncle. ‘Oh, do have him in, Hannah! You forget I
have not been introduced to my nephew yet.’

‘It is so late,’ she said, demurringly, as she glanced at the clock,
‘eight o’clock. He ought to have been in bed half an hour ago. And he
may worry Doctor Govan.’

‘I’m sure he won’t,’ replied Arthur, as he sprang towards the door;
‘here, nurse, bring that youngster this way. His mamma wants him,’ he
continued, and in another minute the little fellow ran into the room
and hid his face in his mother’s lap.

It was evident how his father loved him. Henry Hindes’s features
lighted up with paternal affection as his little son appeared, and he
called the child to him and placed him on his knee, that all the room
might admire him. Master Wally was really a splendid specimen of a boy,
notwithstanding his plainness, with his head of thick, curly hair, his
large, dark eyes, and dimpled neck and shoulders showing above his
embroidered frock.

‘This is not a bad specimen to carry on the family of the Hindes, eh,
Arthur?’ inquired his father, proudly, as he passed his hand over the
infant’s curls.

‘He is a magnificent boy,’ said his brother, enthusiastically, ‘and I
don’t wonder you are proud of him, Henry. Why, he would make two of our
little Charlie! And how fat he is! He must weigh about fifty pounds.’

‘And he is really very intelligent for such a baby,’ interposed Hannah;
‘he has taught himself all his letters from his picture alphabet, and
draws wonderfully for so young a child.’

‘Yes,’ added Henry Hindes, proudly, ‘we are not at all ashamed of our
son and heir. We consider he is as good as most.’

‘I don’t remember ever to have seen a finer child,’ said Doctor Govan,
willing to add his meed of admiration for the parents’ pleasure, ‘but
you must be careful how you press so active a brain. Never forget that
the body and the brain cannot grow together, unless at the expense of
one or the other. Let him do nothing but play now! Half a dozen years
hence will be plenty of time to begin cramming him. If the true history
of most murderers could be traced back, it would be found that their
brains had been unduly charged when young, and broken down, or become
abnormal under the process. You don’t want this little man to develop
into a criminal, I’m sure,’ said the doctor, as he kindly patted the
boy’s shoulder.

But Henry Hindes’s manner had completely changed. He snatched the child
from the stranger’s reach, and rose majestically from his seat.

‘What do you mean?’ he demanded, ‘by coupling my child’s name with that
of a murderer? Have you come here to insult me? I will not let you
touch him again. I never heard of such a thing in my life! Perhaps you
are a murderer yourself, since it comes so pat to you to talk of them.
Leave my house at once! I will not have my children’s ears contaminated
by hearing of such things!’

‘Henry! Henry!’ pleaded his wife, ‘what are you saying? This gentleman
is our guest--a friend of Arthur’s. You must not speak to him like
that! You can’t be well!’

‘Not well!’ he exclaimed vehemently, ‘that’s what you’re always
cramming down my throat nowadays. What is there about me that is not
well? I suppose you want to get rid of me, and hope, by always dinning
the lie, that I’m not well, into my ears, that you’ll frighten me into
dying. But you’re mistaken! I’ll live in spite of you! And is this the
reason,’ he continued, turning fiercely upon Arthur, ‘that you brought
this man to my house? You know I hate doctors. I told you yesterday
that I don’t believe in them. Why is he here? Tell me the truth at
once!’

‘There is nothing to tell, Henry,’ replied his brother, in a tone
of vexation, ‘except that, since you choose to behave so unlike a
gentleman, it will be the last time my friends ever intrude on you. I
thought, in bringing Doctor Govan to my brother’s house, that I was
ensuring him the treatment due to his name and profession, but I see I
was mistaken. We will not stay to be affronted any longer, so I will
bid you good-night.’

He was turning away, wounded and unhappy, as he spoke, when a yell from
little Wally arrested his footsteps. Henry, in his excitement, had
dropped the child heedlessly on the carpet, where it lay screaming,
whilst its father rubbed his hand in a bewildered manner through his
hair. Hannah rushed to her baby and picked it up.

‘That is always the way,’ she said, indignantly, as she soothed the
boy. ‘He pretends to be so fond and proud of Wally, and yet, at the
slightest provocation, he hurts or frightens him. That is why I did not
wish to have him down, Arthur,’ she whispered to her brother-in-law; ‘I
never bring him in contact with his father, if I can help it.’

‘I am so sorry. I did not know,’ said Arthur, with a look of
commiseration. ‘Come, Doctor Govan, I think we have been here long
enough.’

‘Yes, my object is effected,’ returned the doctor, as he followed him
out of the room.

Hannah ran off, at the same moment, with her child to the nursery, and
Henry Hindes was left standing in the library alone. Captain Hindes did
not speak until they were clear of The Old Hall and its surroundings,
and then, as he and the doctor were finding their way back to the
railway station, his tongue was loosed.

‘Well, doctor?’ he said, interrogatively, ‘I suppose, after what has
happened, that you have no doubt of the case.’

‘Not the slightest, my dear sir! Your brother is no more mad than you
are!’

Arthur turned round short, and regarded him with astonishment.

‘Not mad?’ he ejaculated. ‘Then what makes him behave in so
extraordinary a manner?’

‘That I cannot tell you. There may be a dozen causes for it. I went
there simply to satisfy you with regard to danger to his brain. Well,
as far as I can see at present, there is none! He has recourse to
stimulant of some sort or another. It may be spirits, or it may be a
narcotic, which has shattered his nerves and weakened his control over
himself. But he is not mad; you may rest assured of that; nor do I
think he will ever go mad. The brain is more stupefied than excited.’

‘But what, then, makes him behave so strangely? Doctor, if you will
believe me, my brother was one of the most pleasant-mannered men
about town. He was always scrupulously well-dressed, and had all the
bearing and appearance of a courtier. He was remarkable for it, being a
business man. Now, he is rude, uncertain and slovenly. He seems to have
lost his memory, too, and his business habits are, I am told, falling
off. What can be the reason?’

‘Drink, my dear sir--you will excuse my saying so, for I am not at
all prepared to say that Mr Hindes takes more liquor than is good for
him--but stimulant in any shape, be it alcohol or morphia, will have
all the effect you describe on a man. May I ask if your brother has
experienced any great shock lately, that may account for his having
recourse to sedatives?’

‘Well! about nine or ten months ago, his partner’s daughter was killed
by a fall, which so much affected her father that he died also a few
weeks afterwards. Henry was a great friend of old Crampton’s, and had
known the girl from a child, so he naturally felt their loss, so did
his wife, but hardly, I should imagine, to such a degree as to make
him take to intemperate habits. Of course, it was a shock, because it
happened so suddenly; but our father died of heart disease--was well
one hour, and dead the next--yet it did not affect my brother in this
terrible fashion.’

‘Has he had any trouble in business, Captain Hindes--any monetary
losses?’

‘I am sure not. On the contrary, when Mr Crampton died, he left half
his fortune, a very large one, to that little chap we saw this evening.
I heard it was a stipulation that the money was to accumulate in the
business till the boy comes of age. I should say my brother was never
so well off, with regard to money, as he is at the present moment.’

‘Well, of course these things are not to be accounted for, unless
one knows all the inner workings of a man’s mind, but that Mr Hindes
is in the habit of taking more morphia than is good for him, I am
certain. _Why_ he takes it, opens up a different question! He has a
very powerful brain, and, naturally, a well regulated one, and it must
have taken a large quantity of drugs, or he has indulged in them for a
considerable time, to bring him to his present condition. I have said
he is not mad, and I repeat my dictum, but I do not say that, if he
continues his habits of taking morphia (or some other drug as deadly
in its effects), that he will not reduce his brain to the level of
madness, or a condition equally deplorable.’

‘Good Heavens! how horrible!’ cried Arthur.

‘You have sought my opinion, Captain Hindes, and I have given you a
faithful one,’ said Doctor Govan, as they parted at the station; ‘if
you have your brother’s welfare at heart, wean him, if possible, from
this most pernicious habit, otherwise he will assuredly kill himself by
it.’

Arthur Hindes returned to his hotel in the lowest spirits. He had never
kept a secret from his wife, who was truly one with him in every sense
of the word, so he told her all that had transpired between him and the
doctor, and asked her what she would advise in the matter.

Edith thought for a moment, and then replied,--

‘Since we have been talking about going into the country, Artie,
wouldn’t it be better if we went to Switzerland, or some mountainous
district instead, and persuaded Henry and Hannah to accompany us? Away
from London, and living under your own eye, you would be able to exert
a better influence over him than here. Perhaps, then, you might, as the
doctor said, wean your brother from this dreadful habit. I am sure poor
Hannah is unhappy about it. The tears were standing in her eyes several
times at the theatre last evening.’

‘How can she be otherwise than miserable to see such a change in him?
But have you calculated, my darling, what your proposal will entail on
you? To live in the same house, for months, perhaps, with a man who may
be as obnoxious to you as a drunkard. For this craving for morphia is
very like drunkenness in its effects. It renders a man irresponsible
for his actions, and may be the occasion of many unpleasant scenes
between us. Am I justified in exposing you and the children to such
things?’

‘He is your only brother, Arthur, and you love him. That is enough for
me. Were the consequences to be twice as disagreeable, I would risk
them for your sake. Do what you think right in the matter, and trust me
to do all I can to second your efforts.’

‘You’re the dearest wife a man ever had,’ replied her husband, kissing
her pretty face, ‘and I thank you very much. Your plan is an excellent
one, if I can only get Hal to accede to it. He will make all sorts of
excuses about the business, of course, but I will not leave him alone
until he consents to take a change. If it were only for a few weeks, it
would be better than nothing.’

‘Artie, dear, take my advice and don’t speak to Henry about it first.
Go and see Hannah. She is a sensible woman, and you can tell her all
the doctor said, and enlist her on your side. She loves her husband--I
am sure of that--and will be delighted to second any plan that is for
his benefit.’

‘Yes, dear, you are right again. To gain Hannah’s consent will be
gaining another ally. We shall be three against one. Henry must yield
to us then. I will go over and speak to her to-morrow morning. You have
lifted a load off my mind, Edith. I feel as if we must succeed now.’

Accordingly, the following morning, as Hannah was sitting at home, with
little Wally playing at her feet, her brother-in-law was announced. Her
first thought was to make some excuse for her husband’s behaviour of
the night before.

‘Oh, Arthur, I am glad to be able to speak to you alone,’ she
commenced. ‘It shocked me that poor Henry was so irritable last
evening. Your friend must have thought he was insane. But that is the
worst part about his illness. You can never be certain of him for ten
minutes together. What did Doctor Govan think of such an outburst? What
did he say?’

‘He didn’t say much, Hannah. You see, he is a medical man and used to
such things.’

‘But it made me feel so ashamed,’ continued the wife, with the
suspicious moisture in her eyes, ‘and I hope you will not think me
ungracious, Arthur, if I ask you not to bring any more of your friends
here without giving us notice. Henry had been irritable all the
afternoon, and if I had known a stranger was coming, I should have
coaxed him to go to bed before you arrived.’

‘I am very glad you didn’t, Hannah, for I am going to tell you a
secret. Doctor Govan is no friend of mine. I never set eyes on him
till yesterday morning. I brought him here expressly that he should see
Henry in his own home, and be able to report on his health, without his
being aware he was examined by an expert.’

‘An expert!’ exclaimed Hannah, paling. ‘What do you mean?’

‘A specialist, then, if you prefer the term--anyway, a medical man who
is at the top of the tree.’

‘But why--why?’ she said, with a startled gaze.

‘Because I felt very much alarmed about his condition. His conduct
at the theatre the other night, joined to his altered manners and
appearance, all combined to make me think that he must have had some
shock to addle his brain. Hannah, don’t be angry, but Henry has behaved
to me, ever since I came home, like nothing short of a madman, and it
made me very uneasy about him.’

‘And was--this--this gentleman a mad doctor, and did you bring him here
to examine my husband?’ she inquired with surprise.

‘He was; and I certainly brought him here that he might give me a
truthful report on Henry’s condition,’ replied Captain Hindes.

‘How dared you?--how dared you?’ she panted.

‘Why, Hannah, I never thought you would take it like this! I consider
that you have somewhat neglected your duty, in not having called in a
doctor to him long ago. I think my brother is in a very critical state.
Doctor Govan does not, I am glad to say, consider him mad, but he says
he will drive himself so if he is not carefully watched in the future.
He pronounces him to be suffering from the effects of opium, or some
other narcotic, and that he has weakened his brain by its use, and
is hardly responsible for his actions. Henry is my brother, you must
remember, Hannah, as well as your husband, and it is my duty to look
after him. Doctor Govan says that, if we cannot wean him from the habit
he has fallen into, he will inevitably kill himself by it. Now, Edith
and I have been talking the matter over, and came to the conclusion
that we must all act in concert. I am willing to take my wife and
family to Switzerland, or any distant place we may agree upon, if you
and Henry will join us there, so that I may have him under my own eye,
and do my best to restore him to health. You will do your part, I am
sure, Hannah, and persuade your husband to consent to this arrangement.’

‘_I will not!_’ replied Hannah, with closed lips.




CHAPTER III.


Arthur looked at her in amazement. Was this his gentle sister-in-law?
Her very voice seemed changed, and her frame was shaking with her
unusual emotion.

‘What do you mean?’ he asked. ‘Surely you have Henry’s welfare at heart
as much as we have.’

‘I think I have, Arthur; but I will not attempt to persuade him to go
to Switzerland, or any other place, unless it should be alone with me.
I have already told you that he cannot bear the noise of children, even
that of his own, neither does he care for company. I was sorry and
surprised that, knowing his state of health, you should have introduced
a stranger at The Old Hall without giving us notice, but now that I
find he was a mad doctor, brought here to examine my husband without
my leave or cognisance, I think it little short of an insult.’

‘An insult? Oh! Hannah! that is too hard a word,’ interposed her
brother-in-law.

‘I don’t say you meant it so, but at the least it was a piece of great
officiousness on your part. How dared you think, or let others think,’
she went on, suddenly flaring up, ‘that my husband--is _mad_? Is that
brotherly solicitude? For shame! For shame! Had I known who your
_friend_ was, I would have turned him from my door.’

‘Then there is no chance, I suppose,’ said Arthur, sorrowfully, ‘of
persuading you to join your forces to ours, and inducing Henry to go
away with us for a change?’

‘Not the slightest. He does not need change. If he does, we will go
away quietly together. Don’t think me unkind, Arthur, but I have
already told you what Henry’s illness arises from. I know he sometimes
takes a little dose of morphia, or smokes a pipe of opium; he does it
to allay the pain of neuralgia, which often unfits him for business;
many other neuralgic patients do the same. The pain he endures unfits
him for society also; it upsets his nerves and makes him irritable. But
to call him mad--to bring a mad doctor to see him, without asking his
consent, or mine-- Oh! it was cruel--cruel!’

She turned her back upon her brother-in-law, and went on with her work,
whilst he sat there, hardly knowing what to do or say.

‘How am I to persuade you, Hannah,’ he resumed at last, ‘that I acted
in all love and kindness towards my brother and you? I believed that,
living always by his side, you could not have noticed what is so very
palpable to me--the extraordinary change in poor Henry--’

‘Not seen it?’ she interrupted him with. ‘Not wept over it, and prayed
over it for months past! Why not say at once that I do not love my
husband, Arthur? I know far more of him than you do, and could have
saved you the trouble of bringing a _mad_ doctor to gloat upon his
infirmities. Henry is unhappy, poor darling! He has been unhappy ever
since his partner’s death, and his nerves have become unstrung. He is
foolish, perhaps, to take so much morphia, but it soothes and relieves
him, and anything is better than that he should suffer. But you will
not cure him--neither you nor your doctors! Only time and affection
will do that, with perfect quiet. I will not, therefore, have him
disturbed, nor worried in any way, either by relations or strangers. I
will not let him go to public amusements again, which only tire him,
but he shall stay at home with me till God, in His own good time, sees
fit to cure him of his complaint.’

‘Forgive me, Hannah,’ said Captain Hindes, after a pause, ‘I daresay I
have been very officious, but I did it for the best. Won’t you believe
that?’

‘Yes, I believe that.’

‘And I will leave Henry for the future to you. But, oh! do try to wean
him from that dreadful habit. And look here, my dear, under these
circumstances, what is the use of my remaining in London? I cannot
afford the expense of an hotel, and came here, as you must know, only
to be near you and Henry. But it can be no pleasure to me to continue
to see him in this condition, especially if I can do him no good. It
unnerves me, Hannah. He is a wreck of his former self. We shall only
quarrel if we continue to meet, so the sooner I take my wife and little
ones into the fresh country, the better. Don’t be surprised, then, if
we start almost immediately, but I shall, of course, run up and say
good-bye to you and Henry before we go.’

He held out his hand to her as he spoke, but, to his surprise, instead
of taking it, Hannah covered her face with her own, and burst into a
flood of tears.

‘Oh! it is so hard--so hard,’ she sobbed, ‘to see him so unlike
himself, and find no remedy on any side. I would--I would,’ she
continued hysterically, ‘give my life to see him as he used to be. But
it is in vain wishing for it--all in vain--in vain!’

Arthur sat down beside her again, and took her hand.

‘My dear Hannah,’ he said, ‘I feel sure that all the dear old man wants
is a complete change. He has been brooding over these sad deaths of the
Cramptons, and that, added to business matters being a great anxiety,
and this confounded neuralgia driving him half crazy, has had a great
effect upon his mind. But, if he went right away, it would work a
miracle for him. Come, dear girl, think over my proposal a second time,
and bring him to Switzerland, with Edie and me.’

‘No, no, no; anything but that,’ said Hannah, shaking her head. ‘I
will pray for him, and strive for him at home, but he must not go into
society. Oh, Arthur, cease worrying me about it! I am so miserable--so
miserable.’

‘My poor sister, I can see you are. Well, as you say, we must trust him
to God. Good-bye for the present. Edie shall give you proper notice of
our next visit. But this isn’t as it used to be--eh, Hannah?’

‘No; nothing is as it used to be,’ she responded, as she wished him
farewell.

As soon as her brother-in-law was out of sight and hearing, poor Hannah
gave vent to her tears in right earnest. How was all this to end, she
thought. What would become of her hapless husband if it went on much
longer? His condition had already attracted public notice. The next
thing would be that he was declared unfit to conduct his business, and
their affairs would have to be handed over to the care of a stranger.
She foresaw nothing in the future but misery for herself and her
children. She saw no prospect of ever having her daughters to live
at home, for every day strengthened her resolve not to bring them in
contact with so depraved and uncertain a father. Nothing remained for
her but a life of servitude and loneliness, while she pandered to
a sin she abhorred for the sake of the children she loved. Even so
innocent a pleasure as the society of her brother and sister-in-law was
denied her. Henry’s conduct had estranged them. Little by little, she
foresaw she would be called upon to relinquish everything that had made
her existence pleasant to her.

When her husband returned home and she communicated the fact of his
brother’s proposed departure to him, he became as angry as if he
had been doing everything in his power to make their stay in town
agreeable. He called Arthur ungrateful, and Edith a fool, and wanted to
know why they had ever returned to England if they intended to spend
their furlough apart from the only relations they had in the world.

‘I think you forget, Henry,’ interposed his wife, ‘that Arthur is not
very rich, and to live in London with five children is rather expensive
work. Their weekly bills must amount to something terrific. I don’t
wonder at his being anxious to get them all off into the country. He
talks of going to Switzerland.’

‘Switzerland! Bosh!’ exclaimed Henry Hindes. ‘Why don’t he bring the
lot of them to The Old Hall? There’s plenty of room for them here!
I should like to see the children running about! The place has been
infernally dull since you sent the girls away. Just write and tell
Arthur that the old place is at his disposal whenever he likes. Why
didn’t they come here from the beginning? What was the obstacle?’

‘_You_ were, Henry!’ said Hannah, looking at him steadily. ‘Have you
forgotten that already?’

The man shivered, and turned away. But, the next moment, he was braving
it out.

‘_You_ were, you mean, confound you!’ he retorted. ‘But if I choose to
have my brother here, I shall do so without asking your leave, and that
I tell you.’

‘I don’t think he would care to accept your invitation now,’ she
said, ‘for you have behaved so rudely to him--once at the theatre and
yesterday, when his friend was present,--that he would, I fancy, be
rather afraid of subjecting himself to the daily risk of renewing such
scenes. Arthur told me this afternoon that--’

‘What?--what?’ cried Hindes, quickly, ‘what did he tell you? He doesn’t
suspect, does he, Hannah--he doesn’t think--you haven’t _told_ him,’ he
continued, grasping her arm as if he held it in a vice. ‘You haven’t
betrayed me--speak, speak, for God’s sake! Don’t keep me in suspense!’

He looked so abject as he put the question with trembling eagerness,
that her heart went out to him with a great burst of pity. He was a
murderer--but she loved him.

‘No, no, darling!’ she replied, with unwonted tenderness, as she bent
down and kissed his haggard face, ‘how can you think so for a moment? I
shall never, never betray you, Harry; not even at the bar of Heaven.
If I am brought up there as witness against you, I will go to hell
sooner than open my mouth. Don’t think it of me! You are not safer with
God Himself than you are with me, my poor Harry!’

‘I know it, I know it!’ he muttered; ‘but why can’t Arthur come here,
then?’

‘Because--oh! there are many reasons; don’t make me reiterate them. But
one is, that I am afraid your conduct would excite his attention and,
perhaps, his suspicions. You are not master of yourself, Henry! That
dreadful morphia makes you just the same as if you were intoxicated. It
is killing you, body and soul. You take far too much of it. You must
give it up. Oh! do promise me, Hal, to try and do without it. Half your
time you are so stupid, you don’t know what you are saying or doing.
Even the servants see the alteration in you. _Do_ give it up, Henry. I
would ask it of you on my bended knees if I thought it would have any
effect. Promise me you will throw the horrid bottle away, and never
take any more of it.’

‘I cannot, I cannot!’ he replied in a despairing whisper. ‘I take it to
keep _her_ away. Directly I leave it off for a night _she_ comes and
reproaches me with--you know what--and I cannot bear her eyes, they
drive me mad.’

‘Dear husband, it is only your fancy. She is far too happy, by this
time, not to have forgotten and forgiven long ago. Only pray for
God’s forgiveness and all will be right. Or come away with me, as you
proposed once before, and let us try to be at peace with our children
again, in a new land.’

‘Not now,’ he said, shaking his head, ‘not while Arthur is in England.
He would suspect--he would come too. Wait!--wait, till he is gone away
again.’

‘Oh! Harry, never mind him. He may not go back to India for years. And
your health is getting worse and worse. New scenes and interests would
drive these feverish fancies out of your head. What is anything worth,
in comparison to that? Leave the business to take care of itself! Sell
it for anything it may fetch; only come away from England, and let me
try to help you to overcome the dreadful habit you have contracted.’

‘It is too late, my dear. I could not do without it now. I should go
mad.’

‘Henry, you _will_ go mad if you do not leave it off! That Doctor
Govan, who came here last evening, detected your fondness for morphia
at once, and he told Arthur--’

But the idea that he was watched, raised the devil in Henry Hindes at
once.

‘How _dare_ Arthur set traps to catch me!’ he exclaimed furiously, ‘and
you are aiding and abetting him. _Who_ told you what the doctor said?
When have you seen my brother since? Are you all in league against me?’

‘No! no! Henry; don’t be so foolish,’ replied his wife. ‘No one says
or thinks anything except for your good. But your brother is anxious
on your account. Anyone would be who had known you in former days. You
cannot know how ill you look. And so he brought his friend to see you,
hoping he might suggest a remedy. But Doctor Govan said nothing will do
you any good until you leave off morphia.’

‘D--n his impudence!’ exclaimed Hindes, angrily; ‘that’s what he was
sneaking round here for, was it? I’ll teach him to lay siege to me in
my own house. The next time he shows his face here, I’ll kick him out,
and Arthur into the bargain. But it’s all your fault,’ he continued,
turning round upon her. ‘If you didn’t go about with that long face of
yours, people wouldn’t be trying to find out what was the matter with
me. Sending the children away from home, too; why, that in itself is
enough to raise any one’s suspicion--you, who always advocated home
education, especially for girls. It is abominable--infamous--that a man
cannot have any dependence even on his wife!’

The injustice of this attack, coming so immediately upon her kindness
to him, stirred all the resentment of which she was capable in Hannah’s
breast.

‘You are unjust to me,’ she cried, ‘most unjust! What other woman
would have done for you what I have done? What other woman would have
stayed by your side, after she knew what _I_ know? I sent the girls
away because I felt it was impossible they should be brought up in the
same house with you, and the sequel has proved I was right. If any
suspicions have been aroused, it is by your own conduct. The fatal
habit you have contracted is as bad as that of drinking. It deprives a
man of all self-respect--all forethought--all control over himself, or
his temper. The scenes which took place in the theatre, and here, last
night, are horrible to me and degrading to yourself. I have offered to
exile myself with you in order to help you fight against the demon that
possesses you, and you have refused. I can do no more. Henceforward,
you must go your own way, without aid from me! I can only wait and
watch for the end.’

She turned from him indignantly as she concluded, and Henry Hindes felt
for the first time as if he were indeed deserted by God and man.

The idea rendered him frantic. He dashed out of the room and stumbled
upstairs. At the top he met little Wally coming to bid papa and mamma
good-night, carefully feeling his way down the broad stairs by holding
on tight to the banisters. Master Wally was, as his nurse said, ‘quite
a man.’ He highly objected to being led, or held by the hand. ‘Let
Wally go, all by his self,’ he would say, and so, clad in his white
frock and blue ribbons, he was laboriously making his way downwards,
whilst his nurse followed, smiling proudly at his independence.

Just as he had commenced to descend the last flight, he encountered
his father, mad with rage and fear and morphia. He did not even seem
to see the little figure he so dearly loved, as he stumbled upstairs,
and half fell, half brushed rudely against it. The baby lost his slight
hold of the railings at once, and fell to the very bottom, where he lay
motionless.

A shriek from the nurse brought Hannah quickly out of the library, when
she found her little son lying on the mat in the hall. As she raised
him, she glanced upwards and saw her husband standing at the head of
the staircase, paralysed with fright. She had only time to ask, ‘Is
this _your_ doing?’ when he threw his arms wildly above his head, and
exclaiming, ‘The cliffs! the cliffs! A judgment! a judgment!’ rushed
away and locked himself into his own room.

Hannah had no care, at that moment, but for her little child. The nurse
was sobbingly informing her how the dear baby was coming downstairs so
beautifully, and how the master fell against him and upset his balance,
and she hoped her mistress wouldn’t fancy it was by any fault of hers,
when Hannah interrupted her by saying,--

‘Go and tell James to fetch Doctor Sewell at once, Annie, and I will
lay Wally on the library sofa.’

She carried her little son away as she spoke, and sat down with him
in her arms. Wally had not yet given any signs of consciousness, but
lay like a bruised lily on his mother’s lap. His face was very white,
and his eyes were closed, but there was no appearance of his having
sustained any injury. But when Dr Sewell arrived, he looked very
serious over the misadventure. He measured the height of the fall, and
examined the child’s head and temples carefully. Then he said, as Wally
stirred and moaned, and gave signs of returning consciousness,--

‘You had better put the little fellow to bed, Mrs Hindes, and let his
nurse sit up with him during the night. I will send a draught for him
to take, and will be here early to-morrow.’

‘But, doctor,’ said Hannah, anxiously, ‘you don’t think this fall will
have any bad effects, do you? He has so often tumbled about before.’

‘Of course, of course,’ replied the doctor, cheerfully, ‘and will do so
again, no doubt, but there is no harm in taking a little precaution. He
is getting a heavy boy now, you know, and a fall is, consequently, more
risky. But, doubtless, he will be all right after a few days’ rest. Get
him to bed, and don’t take him out again till I have seen him in the
morning.’

He left her with this sorry bit of comfort, and she carried her little
boy up to her own bed, and prepared to watch by him for the night
herself. As long as the nurse attended on her and Wally, she was
undisturbed, but when she had dismissed her, and all the house was
quiet, she heard the door between her room and that of her husband
softly unclose, and Henry Hindes’s haggard face appeared in the
opening. Hannah felt so much disgust for him at that moment, that she
could not help showing the feeling in her face and manner.

‘Oh, go away, go away!’ she exclaimed with averted eyes, ‘I can’t bear
to see you or hear your voice. You have done enough mischief, God
knows! Go away and leave me in peace with my child. It is the least
thing you can do.’

‘Is he dead?’ demanded Hindes, in an awed whisper.

‘He is not; but it is not your fault that he still lives. And what
terrible results may follow this unnatural fall, no one knows. I told
you what your habits would lead to. You have the consolation of knowing
that you have injured, and perhaps killed, your favourite child by your
fatal indulgence.’

‘No! not killed--not _killed_--’ he repeated hoarsely, ‘it is
impossible. God cannot have so little mercy.’

‘Mercy!’ cried Hannah, shrilly, for the accident to her baby had dried
up, for the time being, every drop of the milk of human kindness in
her, ‘what mercy have you a right to expect at His hand--_you_, who
showed none? You are not satisfied with making _one_ mother childless.
You must try and take the only joy left in my wretched life from me.
You deprived me of the society of my girls, and now you want to murder
my boy.’

She had used the word inadvertently, but it stabbed the unfortunate
man before her to the heart. He glared wildly at her for a minute, and
then, with a low cry like the protest of a wounded animal, he slammed
the door between them, and locked it on the other side. Hannah had a
bolt on hers, and she rose at once and drew it. She felt she could not
endure his presence again that night. So she sat by Wally’s side, and
watched his feverish slumbers alone till daylight.




CHAPTER IV.


Doctor Sewell’s report, the next morning, was not entirely satisfactory.

It was true that Wally was quite conscious, and had eaten a good
breakfast, but he cried when he was moved, and did not seem to wish to
get up, which was so far fortunate, because the medical man strictly
forbade his doing so. But it made Hannah very uneasy, since it plainly
denoted that he had sustained more injury than was outwardly apparent.

She did not see her husband all the day, during which he kept strictly
to his own room, and she was glad of it, for she felt that she could
not have spoken to him as she ought. She was already ashamed of her
outburst of the day before, but did not feel as if she could speak
much differently even now. For, as she sat by Wally’s side, trying to
soothe his fretfulness under pain, her thoughts would revert to sweet,
beautiful Jenny, struck down through the same hand. Was this really a
judgment on her husband for his unconfessed crime? Was _his_ child to
be taken from him, in the same way and by the same hand that had made
other parents, as loving as himself, childless? But it was hard on
her--very, very hard, that she should suffer, through her little son,
for his father’s sins. Hannah sat by the baby’s side, thinking these
sad thoughts throughout the day, and when night fell, and Wally was
asleep, she wrestled with Heaven in prayer that the cup might pass away
from her. Yet she knew, even while she prayed, that it is part of the
world’s plan that the innocent shall suffer for the guilty, and often
more than they suffer themselves.

When the household was once more sunk in sleep, Hannah bethought her of
her husband, of whom she had heard nothing since the previous night.
What was he doing? Whom had he spoken to? What had he had to eat? She
felt she must ascertain these points before she went to rest herself,
for the doctor had told her, since the boy was out of immediate danger,
it must be days, perhaps weeks, before he could finally pronounce on
the ultimate effects of the accident, and therefore it behoved her not
to try her strength more than was absolutely needful. With the purpose
of seeing her husband, she tried the door between them, but found it
was still locked on his side, therefore she went round to that which
opened into the passage, which he had left unfastened, and went softly
in. The sight which met her eyes was a pitiable one. Henry Hindes was
on his knees beside the bed, moaning in the agony of his spirit. Yet,
such is the force of a mother’s love, that the expression of his pain
did not move her as it had done that evening in the library. For since
then had he not injured _her_ child, which had awakened a twofold
repulsion in her breast against him; one for herself and the other for
Mrs Crampton. Hannah had never realised till now what _her_ agony of
loss had been. As she approached him, Hindes lifted his bloodshot eyes
and muttered,--

‘Say it at once, for God’s sake! Is he gone?’

‘Wally? No!’

‘Thank Heaven!’

‘Don’t be too quick to do that, Henry. He is in pain. There is no
knowing what injuries he may not have sustained. Dr Sewell will give no
opinion. He says time only can show; pray that God may have mercy upon
us, and not visit your sins on the head of your unoffending child.’

Hindes groaned.

‘What would the worst be--the worst that could happen to him?’

‘Spinal disease. A cripple for life, or a lingering death,’ replied
Hannah, sternly.

She could not find it in her heart to lighten the blow to the author of
it.

‘A cripple for life--a lingering death--my Wally, my darling Wally!’
sobbed the father. ‘Oh, Hannah, my punishment is heavier than I can
bear.’

‘You will _have to_ bear it, if God wills; so shall I--as the Cramptons
had to bear--’

‘No, no, Hannah, for Heaven’s sake, no!’ screamed Henry Hindes, as he
cowered beside the bedclothes. ‘I have seen his face--Mr Crampton’s
face--before me ever since, saying, “_Now_ you will know! _Now_ you
will know!” I drugged myself with morphia last night, but it was no
good. He was there all the time--all the time.’

‘This is your fancy, Henry. I have told you so before. It is your own
thoughts that take bodily shape to haunt you. But this sad accident
calls loudly for reparation and repentance. Confess your sins to God,
Henry. Ask Him to forgive them--tell Him everything--your unhallowed
wishes and desires, your hasty temper and revenge, your disregard
of advice and entreaty. He knows all your weakness, and will have
compassion on it, and, perhaps, for the sake of your penitence and
desire of amendment, He may mercifully spare our little one, and avert
the possible consequences of your muddled senses.’

‘I _will_ pray, I _will_ repent,’ moaned the unhappy man, with his face
still hidden, ‘and I will confess, Hannah, everything--everything--if
God will only hear and forgive me.’

‘He is sure to do that,’ said Hannah, more kindly; ‘though it is
impossible to say in what way He may answer your prayers. But we will
both pray, Henry, will we not, that this miserable affair may leave no
bad effects behind it? And, should our prayers be granted, you will
promise me to give up taking morphia, for the future, and keep your
brain clear for the duties of everyday life. This would never have
happened, remember, except that you were too stupefied, to see the
child’s danger, or that you were in his way.’

‘I know, I know,’ he answered, ‘but he is better to-night, is he not?’

‘There is no knowing--Doctor Sewell says it is impossible to say,’ she
said, as she turned and left him to his own reflections.

Many more days passed in this miserable uncertainty. Doctor Sewell
brought two more doctors with him, to make a thorough examination of
the little child, but, though they all agreed that the spine had been
injured, they could not decide to what extent. All they could say
was, that Wally must be kept on his back till the real extent of the
mischief was ascertained. It might be months, even years, before the
matter was finally decided; meanwhile, he must be kept perfectly still
while indoors, and only taken out in the air, lying flat on his back,
in a wheeled chair. It was a pleasant prospect to have to keep a sturdy
child of Wally’s age amused from morn to night, whilst in a recumbent
position; but it was the only chance for him, so it must be done. The
poor mother sat down patiently to await the verdict, but Henry Hindes
raved like a madman at the doctors’ orders, and declared he should
shoot himself before the best or worst was made known to him. Hannah
insisted that he should return to his duties, and leave her to the
melancholy charge of looking after the child.

‘You are worse than useless here, Henry. In fact, your presence and
loud lamentations over him disturb Wally, and make him fretful and
restless. Besides, you have your own duties to attend to, and must
neglect them no longer. If you are sincere in your sorrow over this
accident, prove it by doing your duty like a man, and attending the
office as usual.’

For Henry Hindes had shut himself up since the night he had thrown his
child down the stairs, and refused to meet anybody, on business or
otherwise. Mr Abercorn, the chief clerk, and Mr Bloxam, the cashier,
had been up to Hampstead together to inquire the reason of their
employer’s non-appearance in the city, and Mrs Hindes had been obliged
to tell them that her husband was confined to his room and quite unfit
to see them, or attend to business for the present. She was obliged
to invent this fiction, for the reason that, for some days, Hindes was
imbibing opium to such an extent, and raving of what distressed his
conscience so freely, that she felt, at all hazards, she must keep
everybody from him but herself.

Captain Hindes and his wife came over, as soon as they heard of
poor Hannah’s fresh trouble, and would have done anything in their
power to help her, but it was a case where the assistance of one’s
fellow-creatures could avail nothing, and the only thing was to wait
and hope. Arthur did not see his brother on the occasion, for Henry
had shut himself up in his own room, as usual, and refused to open the
door. He had come chiefly to tell Hannah that they had found a little
cottage to suit them in the Isle of Wight, and intended moving into it
at once. She was not sorry to hear their news. She longed to get them,
and everybody connected with her husband, out of the way, so that she
might have him to herself, and shield him from all prying eyes and
ears. During his short period of seclusion, she had carried all his
meals to his room with her own hands, and coaxed him to eat them by
every means in her power. And, now that the first shock was over, she
ordered him to return to his official duties as she would have ordered
a boy to return to school. He had reduced himself to such a state that
he was no longer capable of regulating his actions. His reappearance in
the office was so far beneficial that a business never proceeds so well
and regularly as when the head of it is absent; but Hindes had almost
rendered himself incapable, by this time, of taking any active part in
the management of affairs, which he left entirely to his two chief men,
Abercorn and Bloxam, whilst he sat brooding in his private room, or
wandered restlessly about the streets, waiting for the doctors’ verdict
respecting Wally, and wondering how much longer they would keep him in
suspense. He consulted the best known physicians about the child, and
brought the cleverest surgeons to see him, but the answer of each one
was the same, ‘Wait, wait! This is a case for time. No one can foretell
the upshot of such a fall until the child has, in a measure, done
growing.’

_Done growing!_ And Wally was not yet three years old. Henry Hindes
would groan within himself, and say that it was impossible. He could
not be kept so long in suspense. He must know at once. He almost felt
sometimes as if he would rather his boy had been killed outright, than
condemned to such a lingering illness as this promised to be. He could
not bear it! He could not! He could not!

During those days of mortification and miserable impatience, how more
than vividly Jenny Crampton’s fair image returned to his memory to
torture him. His wife had advised him to confess all his unhallowed
desires and wishes regarding her, but even Hannah knew little of what
he had hoped, in his maddest moments, regarding Jenny. She had been
a flirt--no doubt of that, though her errant heart had been caught
fast at last by Frederick Walcheren. But before those days, when Henry
Hindes had had no reason to affront her by the expression of his
jealousy, she had not disdained to flirt a little with him on her own
account.

She had meant her expressions of regard for him as nothing but a flash
of coquetry; but he, with his secret passion for the beautiful girl,
and the mad dreams he sometimes indulged in concerning her, had chosen
to translate her kindness in a far warmer manner than she intended he
should. And these tender moments, which were seared upon his memory,
came back with irritating persistency to him now that they were over
for ever--that even the remembrance of them had been dispelled by the
terrible knowledge that his hand had quenched them for ever!

One day that he had brought her a little souvenir for her
birthday--merely an _étui_ of velvet, filled with scissors and thimble,
and the rest of the rubbish provided for the work of ladies who
_don’t_ work, mounted in gold, and encrusted with turquoises--Jenny
had kissed him--had advanced her ripe, pouting lips of her own accord,
and pressed them upon his. He could recall to this day how the piece
of coquetry affected him. She had guessed, well enough, her power over
this apparently staid, sensible man of business, and liked to show it.
She had smiled on him the while in her saucy way and made his head
swim. It was this circumstance, and one or two others like it, that had
caused Jenny to turn against him and say hard things about him directly
she had gained a lover whose heart she wished to keep. It was the
remembrance of such things that had made her fear the expression of his
jealousy, and declare he took an unwarrantable interest in her affairs.

Yet, the feeling her kiss had raised in his breast haunted the wretched
man long after he had caused her death. Sometimes the one memory pained
him more than the other. He would wonder, if he had been bold enough
to speak openly to Jenny of his feelings regarding her, whether she
would have listened to his story and requited his affection, just a
little, in return. She would dance before him, like an airy phantom,
all through the dull, old streets of the city, beckoning him, with her
dimpled little hand, to come nearer and nearer, and taste her lips
once more! And then, when he had worked his imagination up to a pitch
of frenzy, the scene would change, and he would see, instead, Jenny
lying still and white in her shroud, with the purple marks of foul
decomposition upon her cheeks and brow. Yet, dead as she appeared, her
wraith would still have the power to unclose its lustreless eyes and
livid lips to say, ‘_These_ are the lips with which I kissed you, and
_you_ it was who rendered them like this, unfit for anyone but the
worms to touch again.’

He would see her in the sunshine, and in the gloaming--in the crowded
streets and by the deserted river-side--in the Mart and in his private
office--till he nearly went mad with the longing to stamp her out from
his brain, or to plunge himself into the silent river and follow her
wherever she might be.

Much as she had haunted and pursued him since that fatal moment when he
pushed her over the Dover cliff, never had he seen her as he had done
since Wally’s accident! She seemed to come now with a mocking smile
upon her lips--a smile which said, ‘_I_ did it! _I_ made him fall! _I_
did for you what you did for me! Who was it made you drink morphia
until you had paralysed your brain? _I!_ Who was it drove you wild as
you stumbled up these stairs? The remembrance of _me_! You killed me,
and I have subjected your boy to a living death--a death far worse than
mine--a death which will numb his nerves and his brain, and keep him a
prisoner for life, tied to a sofa, inert in mind and muscle. Wally’s
accident was due to me! _You_ made my parents childless. I have robbed
you of your son and heir.’

He suffered extra torture from the daily inquiries which met him as he
entered the office. Of course, every clerk there had heard the story of
his child’s fall, and was anxious to learn what the effects might be.
The constant question of, ‘How is the little boy to-day, sir? I trust
he is better;’ or, ‘Have the doctors given any decided opinion about
Master Wally, sir? Is he any worse this morning?’ drove the unfortunate
father nearly out of his senses, and often caused him to swear, in a
most unfatherly manner, in return for the kindly inquiries made on the
child’s behalf.

He could not banish the thought, even for a moment. His brother had
migrated to the Isle of Wight, and he never saw his wife, except by
Wally’s bedside. The boy, too, who had been so strong and sturdy was
fast being reduced, under the effect of inertion and confinement, to a
thin and sickly-looking child. His hands, that used to be so chubby,
had grown white and limp; his abundant hair had been cropped to make
him more comfortable, and his temper was fractious and irritable. In
fact, he was no longer the little Wally of whom he had been so proud.
He was almost as much changed, for the worse, as Henry Hindes himself.
Sometimes, as his father sighed the long days away, Hannah’s admonition
would recur to his mind: ‘Confess your sins to God, Henry! Tell Him
everything! He knows your weakness and will have compassion on it!’

But where should he confess? To whom could he pour out the tale of
his sins and his follies? He could not trust a private person, and
the parsons of the Protestant church, though they professed to hear
the confessions of the dying, who were passing into the very Presence
of the great Father-Confessor of us all, and had no need of any more
ministrations of man, would not hear a word from the living and the
strong, who were still battling with the difficulties of life. He
recalled what Mr Bloxam had told him one day, not so long before, of
the consolation Catholics found in confession, and how it relieved
their souls and consciences to receive absolution from their priests.
Hindes wondered how they set about it, whether it was a difficult task,
or easily accomplished. In the course of the long walks he frequently
took round the City, when his conscience would not let him sit still in
the office any longer, he had often come across a little Roman Catholic
church, in the East-end of London, where the congregation seemed of a
poorer class than the generality. One afternoon he had peeped inside
it, and looked, with wonder, at the brass ornaments and artificial
flowers on the altar, at the dimly-lighted swinging lamp before the
Virgin’s shrine, at the confessional on either side the building,
covered in dingy red cloth, with the name of the priest, who occupied
it, in white letters over the portal.

Henry Hindes had tried to confess his sins to God. He had poured out
his soul in prayer, as well as he knew how, but the words had sounded
hollow and meaningless in his own ears. He did not know God. He had
never been used to talk to Him, and now that he had so great necessity
of His reply, he did not know how to address Him. True, he had been a
constant attendant at church, but the service had been a mockery to
him. He had never really prayed from his heart. And now his prayers
seemed to come back upon himself, unanswered, as if he had uttered them
to the empty air. Wally grew no better for them. He still lay in his
mother’s bed, weary, languid and fretful. God had certainly not yet
seen fit to answer any prayers on his behalf. Hindes wondered within
himself if confession would really do any good--whether he would feel
easier after it--and whether he should please Heaven by the effort, and
gain some good from it for Wally? It was against all his preconceived
ideas of comfort or right, and he shrunk from the notion with aversion.
What person, not brought up to the practice from childhood, does not? A
priest will tell you that therein lies the merit of the sacrifice, but
the sins that are usually confided to the keeping of the confessional
are very innocent ones. Few criminals take the burden of their crimes
there. They are either too hardened, or too fearful. The confessionals
are, generally speaking, occupied by women, who bring the same list of
follies, week after week, to be absolved from. But that does not prove
that there are not plenty of heavier burdens lying at the bottom of the
lust of the eye and the pride of life.

But Henry Hindes had had no experience of the confessional, either as
a vanity or a relief. He knew what he had heard concerning it, and he
knew that, if he entered it, it would be strictly incognito, for he
knew no Catholics, nor any priests. One afternoon, when his sins were
lying on his mind, if possible, heavier than usual, he saw the door of
the little East-end church standing invitingly open, and walked in, and
took a seat to rest himself. The place was nearly empty. Two or three
women, clad in sober black, and a sprinkling of half-grown children,
were the only occupants, and they were all engaged in prayer. There
was a sense of drowsiness and a subtle smell of incense about the
little temple of God that was consonant with the man’s perturbed
feelings, and seemed to pacify them. Besides, he became interested in
what was going on around him, and it diverted his mind, for a few brief
moments, to watch it. Presently, the heavy baize curtain, that screened
one of the confessionals, parted, and a woman issued thence. She had
evidently been weeping, for she was wiping her eyes as she came out,
but her face was illumined with joy. She entered the body of the church
and took a seat just in front of Hindes. As she knelt down to return
thanks for her absolution, he ever heard her murmur, ‘Oh! the comfort!
the comfort! Thank God for it!’ He watched her earnestly after that,
saw her take out her rosary, and begin to tell her beads, with her
eyes raised and the same look of happiness irradiating her features.
He found himself wondering what she had had to confess, and if it was
anything like--like--what he might have to say. She looked a good,
kindly sort of woman, and when, after a few minutes spent in prayer,
she rose and left the church, Henry Hindes rose also and followed her
into the open street. She looked astonished when she saw him hurrying
after her--still more so when he began to speak. She thought at first
she must have dropped something in her seat, but her little hand-bag
and umbrella were safe. What could this stranger want with her? Her
surprise was still greater when he opened his lips.

‘Forgive me for addressing you,’ he commenced, ‘but do tell me, is
confession such a marvellous consolation to you?’

The woman looked as if she thought he wished to insult her.

‘Sir,’ she replied, ‘I saw you in church just now. Surely you can
answer that question from your own experience?’

‘I cannot. I was in the church, it is true, but I am not of your faith.
But you looked so happy, so grateful, as you left the confessional,
that you almost made me wish I were. Do tell me. Does confession
_really_ relieve your mind? Does it make your sins fall off you like an
old garment? My friends have told me so, but I cannot believe it.’

‘Oh, sir, your friends were right, indeed. It is the greatest comfort
anyone can have. Why, when the priest absolves you, they are all gone.
You not only need not trouble yourself about them again, but you are
strictly forbidden to do so. It would be doubting God’s goodness, and
the power He has imparted to His priests. Oh, sir, do try it, only just
once,’ continued the woman, who saw in Hindes a possible convert. ‘Just
go to dear Father Henniker on the right hand side of the church, and he
will explain it all to you so much better than I can.’

‘But will this father, as you call him, see my face?’

‘Oh, no; he sits behind a grating and you seem to be quite alone with
God. You must put your mouth close to the grating and whisper low, but
he will hear every word you say. And then the happiness of absolution!
You won’t know yourself afterwards. I feel to-day as if I could dance
and sing.’

‘Thank you, thank you, but I only asked for curiosity. You are very
good to have told me so much. Good-afternoon!’

And, raising his hat to her, Hindes went on his way. He had not meant
to take advantage of what he had heard, but somehow, whenever he went
out, his feet seemed drawn to the same little church, until it became
quite a habit of his to go and sit there and watch the penitents. And
one day, almost before he knew what he was doing, he had lifted the
baize curtain of one of the confessionals and walked inside.




CHAPTER V.


Frederick Walcheren had passed through his novitiate, and been
ordained. The die was cast. He was a priest. At first his duties
were much the same as they had been during his stay in college, with
the exception of ministering at the Mass. But, as he settled down
into his new position, they became more various. The church to which
he was attached was a very small one, belonging to his own sect of
the Servite fathers. It had only two priests attached to it, one of
whom was presently bound on a mission to the East. When he left,
Frederick Walcheren (or Father Walcheren as we must henceforward term
him) was to take his place. The novice entered on his new sphere of
action, dully, almost sullenly. He knew he was unfit for the office
he had undertaken, and was mad with himself for not having had more
moral courage than to accept it, and more moral fortitude to brave
the sneers, or the reproaches which would have accompanied his
relinquishment of the sacred office he had once believed himself able
and willing to fill. As he glanced round at his companions during their
hours of privacy, and read the indifference on one face, the weariness
on another, the melancholy on a third, and listened to the stilted
speech they considered it a sign of their calling to adopt, he felt
like the startled novice in Gustave Dore’s famous picture, who has his
eyes opened all at once to the earthliness of his surroundings--to the
truth that, Church or no Church, man’s nature is the same, and God can
subdue it just as well whilst he remains in the world, perhaps better,
than when he has given up the outward and visible sign of participation
in it.

One of Frederick’s first duties, naturally, lay amongst the poor of his
parish, and, in this department, he received a severe rebuke before
long, from his superior, Father Henniker, for not adopting a more
distinctly clerical form of speech when speaking with them of their
various ailments and troubles. In this dilemma, Frederick had recourse
to the counsel of his other priestly companion, Father Grogan.

Dennis Grogan was an Irishman, a man several years younger than
Frederick Walcheren, but who had entered the ministry some time before.
He was a genial, good-hearted young fellow, though somewhat unrefined,
as Irish priests are apt to be, and Walcheren felt less difficulty in
talking to him than to his superior.

‘Brother Grogan,’ he said one day when they found themselves, for a few
rare minutes, alone and at liberty, ‘how did you feel when you first
became a priest? Was it not all very strange to you?’

‘Strange!’ echoed Grogan, without raising his eyes from his missal,
‘how could that be, when my thoughts had been fixed on nothing else for
years beforehand?’

‘But it is so difficult all at once to shake off the habits and customs
of the world. For instance, I have been used all my life to plunge into
a bath as soon as I get out of bed, but Brother Henniker has given me a
long string of reasons, with none of which I agree, why it is desirable
that I should relinquish the habit.’

‘If he thinks so, you are bound to obey him! Why give another thought
to such a trifle?’

‘A trifle!’ cried Frederick, indignantly, ‘do you call cleanliness a
trifle? Why, it has been part of my religion! When I lost my wife--when
I had to give up all that made life endurable to me, I said there was
only one thing that might not go after it, and that was cold water! And
what harm can there be in it? I feel unfit for anything if I am not
clean.’

‘Perhaps the undue longing you have for this particular form of luxury
is the very reason you are now called upon to give it up, brother,’
replied Grogan. ‘Remember! there have been men so holy as to give up
washing altogether, for the love of God.’

‘Dirty beasts!’ cried Frederick, involuntarily, and then recalled to
the indiscretion of which he had been guilty, by the horror depicted in
his companion’s eyes, he added, ‘But you don’t really suppose that we
can please the Almighty by not washing our flesh, do you?’

‘I know that we cannot please Him, unless we pay the strictest
obedience to the commands of our superiors. You have not forgotten the
vows you have taken so lately already, surely, Brother Walcheren!’

‘Of course not, but I confess I was not prepared to find they included
the surveillance of my toilet. However, it will be all one a hundred
year hence. When I lost my wife, I lost everything!’

‘Brother,’ said Grogan, with his eyes still fixed on his book, ‘would
it not be wiser to leave off alluding to the time when you wallowed in
earthly sin? It seems to me that you think of it too much. You have
but one bride now, the holy Church, and you owe all your thoughts and
affections and aspirations to her.’

‘Do you mean that it is sin to think of, or allude to, my dear lost
angel?’ demanded Frederick.

‘I think our superior would say that it is your bounden duty to put all
the memories of the time when you lived with sinful companions, in a
sinful condition, on one side.’

‘Sinful companions!’ exclaimed Frederick, all the old man springing up
in him at once. ‘Do you mean to tell me you are alluding to my late
wife?’

‘I was certainly alluding to the time of sin, which, by God’s grace, we
trust you have put away from you for ever.’

‘_Sinful!_’ repeated Frederick, with a glowing face; ‘why, she was as
fresh and innocent as the dawn. She was worth all the priests that were
ever ordained put together! Sinful! It is all very well for you and me
to talk about our sins, acted and unacted, but never couple her memory
in my presence again with such a word, Brother Grogan, or I will not
answer for myself!’

And the newly-ordained priest rushed from the apartment to subdue his
unholy temper in the privacy of his own dormitory.

The conversation was duly reported to Father Henniker, who made a
note of it, with the intention of shipping Brother Walcheren to some
convenient station, a good distance from London, as soon as possible.
He was a brand plucked from the burning, but the brand was smoking
considerably still. The fire was not yet quenched, and required a good
deal more cold water poured on it before it should be. So he sent
Frederick much oftener amongst the poor. Here it was most palpably
borne in upon him that he had mistaken his mission. He found no
difficulty in talking to his poorer brethren, for he had a kind and
generous heart, and he felt deeply for their privations and sufferings.
But he found he was too apt to talk with them over their troubles, and
advise them on the best way to get out of them, instead of praying
with them and exhorting them to bless the Hand that had afflicted them.
He detected himself more than once lamenting that he had no private
purse from which he could have relieved their poverty, and telling them
not to rise when he entered the room, and pay him so much well-meant
attention when they were not fit to leave their seats. Once or twice he
gave vent to an expression, or a wish, that shocked himself--pulled him
up short, as it were, as he had been used to pull up his horses, in the
olden days, upon their haunches, in order to check their too animated
career. But, for a priest! Frederick’s constant inward cry now was,
‘Why did I ever suppose I was fit to become a priest?’

The face and form of his wife seemed to haunt him as much as they
did Henry Hindes, and he could not bring himself to confess, to his
fellow-priests, how constantly he thought and dreamed of her! He knew
he should do so--he had been reared in the belief that, if he omitted
one sin in confession, the whole was null and void, and absolution a
mockery. Yet, he could not, and he would not, mention Jenny’s name.
He consoled himself with the idea that it was not a sin; that she was
an angel in heaven, and he might dream of her just as soon as of the
Virgin Mary, or any other saint. Still, the fact remained that, where
he had sworn to render implicit obedience, he was thinking and acting
for himself, just as if he still inhabited that world which he had
voluntarily given up.

This tale is not written with the view of defending him. It only
endeavours to portray the workings of a mind that has promised to give
itself up into another man’s keeping, and finds that it cannot do so
without resigning its liberty of conscience--its rights as a man and a
child of God--all its strength, its decision and its humanity.

Frederick Walcheren had not yet been made a confessor. He was
considered to be too much of a novice--too young, and, perhaps, too
handsome for so difficult an office. And, in truth, he did not desire
it. He had received instruction in the duties of the confessional, and
they did not attract him. He said openly that he feared he should never
gain the _sangfroid_ necessary for such a delicate duty. He had been a
man of the world, accustomed to restrain his language and his allusions
before women, and the questions he was advised to put to young girls,
both of the educated and uneducated classes, shocked him to the last
degree. He felt that he never could ask them, never mind how long he
might be at the work--that he should feel himself blushing all over,
just as if he were in a drawing-room instead of a confessional. He
confided these scruples to his director, who begged him not to worry
himself on the subject--that it would all come natural to him in time,
and that, if his scruples did not vanish with custom, there were plenty
of other fields open to him beside the confessional.

The little church which he belonged to was called Saint Sebastian
del Torriano. Confessions were heard there on every day of the week,
if necessary, but the regular time for them was on Saturdays, between
three and six in the afternoon, when Fathers Henniker and Grogan were
always ready to receive their penitents, whilst Frederick conducted
Benediction. On one particular Saturday, however, just as the clock was
on the stroke of three, Father Grogan came hurriedly into the priests’
house, to tell Frederick that Father Henniker had been taken very ill
with spasms of the heart, and was totally unable to hear confessions.
_He_ was therefore to occupy the confessional instead of him, and they
had sent round to another church to ask the services of a brother
priest for Benediction, which did not commence until four o’clock.
Frederick was rather taken aback by this intelligence; however, there
was nothing to be done but to cast aside his book, don his priestly
vestment, and ensconce himself in Father Henniker’s confessional.

There were only two confessionals in Saint Sebastian del Torriano,
one on each side of the chancel. They were divided into two parts,
the closed box where the priest sat, and the open portion, which was
shaded by red baize curtains, where the penitent knelt. Between these
was a partition formed of perforated zinc. This rendered everything
behind it dark to the penitent. All he or she saw was the sheet of
zinc, through which their sins or troubles had to be whispered in the
confessor’s ear. The priest, on the contrary, could see the features
and expressions of the penitents plainly, on account of the light
thrown behind them by the opening of the curtains, which were too
narrow to draw quite close. Few of the penitents knew this. It gave
them confidence to believe they were unseen or recognised, and only
the _habitués_ of the church cared to discover their identity. Father
Walcheren walked into the confessional, feeling rather sheepish, and
a little shy. He soon found, however, that the penitents left him
but little to do. They provided all the talk themselves, and came
laden with a string of small vices to pour at his feet, with perfect
confidence of hearing the mechanical absolution pronounced over them
as soon as the list was completed. They were, for the most part,
women, both young and old. Some were in a tremendous hurry. He could
watch them from the body of the church fighting their way into the
confessional to get their business over as quickly as possible, almost
pushing their neighbours aside in order to reach him first. They were
accustomed to confess regularly every Saturday afternoon, and did it as
formally as they assumed their walking things to go out. But they were
in a bit of a hurry. They were going on to Mrs So-and-So’s afternoon
tea, or a flower _fête_ at the Botanical, or, perhaps, down to the
Crystal Palace to see a dog or cat show afterwards, and had promised
not to keep mamma waiting. Others, again, were old women, who brought
not only their own sins, but those of all their household, into the
confessional with them--related how bad their servants were, and what
difficulty they experienced in keeping their husbands in the straight
and narrow path. This sort of penitent showed no disposition whatever
to hasten, was deaf, indeed, to all the coughs that went on outside to
remind them that time was up, nor took any notice of the faces that
occasionally peered round the curtain to see if the confessor and
confessed had both fallen asleep, or died at their posts.

Frederick Walcheren felt sick and disgusted with his fellow-creatures
as he sat in Father Henniker’s place and listened to the mechanical
details of their faults and follies. Not one had approached him in a
sincere manner or an earnest voice. It had all been rattle, rattle,
prattle, prattle, get-it-over-as-quick-as-you-can sort of work, without
any evidences of faith, or feeling, or hearty repentance for the sins
they had committed. They had been told it was a religious duty--they
knew they couldn’t go to Holy Communion the next morning unless they
had confessed--and had they gone to bed that night without having done
so, they would have felt quite uneasy, because it had been their custom
for years, and not because they had any real penitence in their hearts.
Frederick Walcheren was musing much after this fashion, and pronouncing
the absolution upon one after another, wondering when the long string
would have come to an end, when the curtain was raised again and a man
stumbled into the confessional. He did not ask a blessing, but, as old
Catholics seldom do, knowing that as soon as they sink on their knees
it will be given them, Frederick pronounced it in the usual form, and
waited for the confession to follow. To his intense surprise, the first
words the man said were,--

‘I am not of your faith.’

His voice was so weak and husky that Frederick Walcheren did not at
first recognise it.

‘Indeed!’ he answered, in a low whisper. ‘Then why are you here?’

‘Because I have a burden on my soul, an intolerable burden, and I
am told that, if I confess it, it will leave me. Will you give me
absolution?’

Frederick now looked at the stranger more particularly. He thought he
had heard his voice before, and, now he saw him plainly, he recognised,
to his intense astonishment, Henry Hindes. Yes! decidedly Henry
Hindes--the man for whom he had always had such an invincible dislike,
without knowing why--but so changed, in the short space of a year, that
he thought he should never have known him again had he not heard him
speak. His first impulse was to reveal his identity; the next moment
he remembered where he was, and for what purpose, and shrunk further
back on his seat, as if it were possible that the penitent should see
him as plainly as he was seen. But, when he addressed him again, he was
careful to disguise his own voice, and to speak as low as possible.

‘I cannot say if I can give you absolution,’ he answered, ‘until I have
heard your confession. But God never refuses it to the truly penitent.’

‘I _am_ penitent, God knows!’ replied Hindes. ‘My life is a misery to
me on account of my sin. I would wash it out with my life’s blood if it
were possible.’

‘I am listening to you,’ was all the answer that the priest made.

‘Are you quite, _quite_ sure that no one will hear me?’ demanded the
unhappy man.

‘No one but the God you have offended and myself,’ said Frederick, in
the same assumed tone; ‘but place your mouth close to the grating, and
speak low.’

Hindes did as was required of him, and began,--

‘I have committed a murder! Is there any hope for me?’

‘A murder!’ exclaimed the priest, startled; and then, remembering
himself, he added, ‘there is hope for all!’

‘It was a girl,’ resumed Hindes, in a shaking voice; ‘I had known her
from her childhood, and I had secretly loved her. She taunted me whilst
we were standing near some cliffs, and in my rage I--God forgive me!--I
pushed her over them.’

Frederick Walcheren was nearly rushing out of the confessional and
seizing his penitent by the throat; but he restrained himself in time.
But he could not speak plainly. He sat in his box, paralysed with
horror and his desire for revenge. How could he fail to guess what was
coming! The murderer of his Jenny knelt before him. He knew it for a
certainty, but he forced himself to reply,--

‘Go on! Tell all!’

‘I loved her,’ wailed Henry Hindes; ‘I would have given my life for
hers at any time, but she preferred another man, and ran away and
married him. I was commissioned by her father to pursue them and
bring her back, if possible. I followed her to Dover, and met her on
the cliffs. She was so lovely, so haughty in her pride and love for
that other man, that she drove me mad. I reasoned with her. She said
she hated me--had always done so--should do so to the end. It was
her defiant words that raised the devil in me. I saw her standing
perilously near the edge of the cliffs as she spoke to me, and put out
my hand to prevent an accident. I grasped her by the wrist. She thought
I was going to lay violent hands on her, and calling out, “Don’t touch
me! Do you want to murder me?” wrenched her hand from mine. She put it
into my head. I swear before God I never thought of it before. But,
when she said those words, the idea of preventing anybody ever having
her, since _I_ could not, flashed into my brain, and I pushed her--God
forgive me! I put out my hand and pushed her over the cliff. That is
the whole truth; but I have been a miserable man ever since, and Heaven
has avenged itself upon me! My only son has fallen down a flight of
stairs, and is likely to be a cripple for life. Give me absolution! I
am truly penitent! Lift this awful burden off my soul, and let me feel
I am forgiven.’

The priest did not answer, but sat in his box, with set teeth and
clenched hands, thinking, if he had his will, what he would do to the
wretch who had robbed him, in so brutal a manner, of his beautiful
young wife.

‘Speak to me! I implore you,’ wailed Henry Hindes. ‘I thought this
confession would ease my soul, but it feels no better. I repeat I am
truly penitent! Why cannot I have absolution? Is it because I am not of
your faith? I will promise to become a Catholic to-morrow if that will
bring me any peace. Speak! pray, speak!’

At last Frederick Walcheren understood that he must say something, or
his conduct would be open to misconstruction, but his voice sounded
like that of an old man; no need to disguise it now.

‘Absolution,’ he replied, ‘is for the truly penitent. There, you are
right! But the truly penitent make amends, for the wrongs they have
committed, to the world as well as to God. A foul, uncalled-for murder
needs expiation according to the law, as well as before heaven. The
blood of your victim cries to you from the ground. I have no power to
pronounce absolution over you until you have made what reparation the
law demands.’

‘Do you mean that I must confess it before men?’ asked Hindes, in a
cold sweat with terror.

‘Most certainly! You owe it to all of whom you stole her life! You
think only of your own misery and fear! What of her husband’s--her
parents’--the society which delighted in her youth, and beauty, and
innocence? Make your peace with them first, and then ask forgiveness of
God.’

‘Oh! I cannot, I cannot! I am a married man myself. I have a wife and
children dependent on me! God cannot wish me to own this deed--this
accident--it was more an accident than anything else. I did not think
what I was doing. My rage--my desire of revenge overcame my better
feelings. Had I stopped to consider for a moment, I should never have
done it. But there was no time. It happened so suddenly, before I
realised what my hasty touch would do. Oh! father, surely it will not
be accounted against me as a murder. I was wrong to call it by such a
name. It was an accident! a pure accident!’

The priest’s voice came back like a judgment.

‘I do not believe you, Henry Hindes.’

‘You know my name,’ cried the penitent, starting. ‘Who are you?’

‘One whom you also know, or have known, but that is irrelevant to the
matter in hand.’

‘You are mistaken! I know no priest, nor have ever known one,’ replied
Hindes, trembling.

All his anxiety now was to get out of the confessional before the
priest, who had evidently recognised his voice, should also see his
face. He little knew that he had been gazing at it all the while,
noting its expression, and watching every change that passed over it.

‘You are quite mistaken,’ he continued hurriedly; ‘I am not the person
you mentioned, nor have I ever heard the name before. I am a tradesman
from the North of England, and am only passing through town. I hoped
to hear better news from you, but it is of no consequence. I cannot
stay any longer. Good-afternoon!’

And then, his cunning coming to his aid, he added,--

‘I have been only trying to see how far I could go with you. A friend
told me I could get absolution for every sin in the calendar, so I
thought I would make up a story about a murder. I suppose it was very
wrong of me, but we had a bet on the subject, and I wanted to prove to
him that I was right. I trust you will forgive me.’

As he said the last words, he left the confessional, and prepared
to fly from the church. But, as he did so, the door which admitted
the confessor to his portion of the confessional also opened, and
the face of Frederick Walcheren looked forth from it. Hindes turned
involuntarily, and met his gaze, and with a low cry turned round and
literally ran out of the sacred building.




CHAPTER VI.


He had known so little of Frederick Walcheren before Jenny’s death, and
he had so purposely avoided thrusting himself in his way afterwards,
that he had not had the slightest intimation that he had entered the
Catholic Church as a priest. The discovery was as great a shock to him
as his revelation had been to his auditor. How he ever got back to
Hampstead on that eventful afternoon, he never knew. His head and heart
were in as rapid a whirl as they had been when he committed the murder;
the murder which, he now made sure, would, sooner or later, land him on
the gallows. There was but one chance for him--the alleged secrecy of
the confessional. Could he trust to it? Would Frederick Walcheren’s
vows prove adamant against the awful news he had been called upon to
hear--the strong desire to avenge his wife’s death which must be raging
in his breast at the present moment, unless, on assuming his priestly
robes, he had parted with his manhood. Henry Hindes pondered over this
question, night and day, for a wonder, morphia-free.

The shock of discovering _who_ was his confessor had acted on him as it
might have done on a drunkard. It had sobered him, and, for a while,
he conceived a horror of the drug without which he had considered it
impossible he could live. Instinct came to his assistance, and made
him feel he must keep his wits about him, in readiness for what might
happen. After all, no one had, or could ever have, any proof against
him. And who would believe the word of a priest from evidence taken
in the confessional? What witness was there to what he had confessed?
Besides, had he not cancelled it all at the last, by saying it had been
the outcome of a bet between himself and a friend, and why should he
not stick to that story?

Still, the knowledge that he had shared his secret with any living
being rankled in his mind, and, after some days’ cogitation with
himself, he made up his mind to seek out Walcheren and ascertain
what he intended to do in the matter. If his position as confessor
prohibited him from taking any steps to disclose what had been confided
to him, things would remain as they were before; if, on the contrary,
he should betray the least disposition to bring him to justice, he
would fly the country at once and leave no trace behind him.

Meanwhile, he had left Frederick in a state of mind hardly more
enviable. He was unable to quit the confessional directly the murderer
of his wife disappeared. Several people were waiting to push their way
into his presence, directly he was at liberty. So he was compelled
to sit there, whilst they poured their plaints into his deaf ears,
and he pronounced the absolution over sins of which he had taken no
heed. Who can blame him? He was a priest, it is true, but he was a
man still, a lover, and a widower. Hindes’ hateful confession had
revived all the holiest, the tenderest, the most passionately-mourned
portion of his existence. He was no longer in the confessional. He
was with his beloved and murdered Jenny, in the Castle Warden at
Dover--in the ballrooms of Hampstead--out on the breezy heath, or in
her pretty phaeton. She was with her lover and her husband once more,
not as an angel from Heaven, or a pale corpse lying in her cambric
shroud, but as Jenny--his laughing, saucy, living, lovely Jenny, in
whom he had taken such rapturous delight, and of whom this man--this
fiend--this devil--had robbed him in the basest and most cruel
manner. He could think of nothing else. His heart throbbed as though
he should suffocate. He longed to rush out into the open air, but he
was condemned to keep his place until Benediction was concluded and
the confessions were over. Then he went straight to the sacristy and
disrobed. He could not go through the mockery of a prayer. Rage was
causing his whole frame to tremble. Curses, not blessings, were on his
lips. He would not insult his Maker by addressing Him whilst in so
earthly a mood. Father Grogan, who usually remained on his knees for
about an hour after service, heaved a sigh as he saw the newly-ordained
priest tear out of the church as if he had had more than enough of
it, and put up an extra petition, good soul, for his impatient and
undisciplined companion.

But Frederick Walcheren knew nothing of it. He was hastening with
all dispatch, and in a state of the greatest excitement, to seek an
interview with his superior. But Father Henniker was unable to see him.
The heart spasms, which he occasionally suffered from, had been more
violent than usual, and the doctor had ordered him to see no one that
evening. So Father Walcheren sent up an entreaty for leave of absence
on business of an important nature, which was immediately granted him.
He was bursting with the intelligence which had been communicated
to him. He felt that he must consult some friend as to the action he
should take concerning it. He could not wait until the morning. It was
coming between him and all his duties. Since he could not see Father
Henniker, he would ask for an interview with his old friend, Father
Tasker. So it was at his residence that he presented himself, late in
the evening.

‘What is the matter, my dear brother?’ demanded Father Tasker. ‘You
look agitated.’

‘Agitated!’ echoed Frederick, ‘I am bewildered--mad!’

‘Why, whatever can be the reason? You alarm me by such violent
expressions.’

‘Father Tasker, you have known my story from the beginning--all my
fears, hopes, misery and despair. You know how my beloved wife was
snatched from me; how I mourned her loss, and wondered over the mystery
of it.’

‘Yes, yes; but forgive me, my dear friend, I hoped these sad thoughts
had all been swallowed up in the love of God and the blessings of His
holy Church.’

‘They will never be swallowed up by anything so long as my life lasts,’
cried Frederick, in his old impetuous way, ‘but while I believed God
had taken her from me, I could be, in a measure, resigned to His will.
But to-day I have found out that it was _not_ by His will that we were
so cruelly separated. She was murdered! Killed by a man! Pushed over
those cruel cliffs!--oh! my poor darling, why did I let you leave my
sight for one moment? Why was I not there to protect you from his
villainy?--and dashed to pieces on the beach beneath, out of a spirit
of wicked jealousy and revenge! And I have come to ask you to tell me,
as a man, _what shall I do_? Think of the days when you were free, when
you, too, perhaps, loved and lost, and advise me how to act, to bring
this murderer to justice?’

Father Tasker was visibly affected by this recital. He had not yet
forgotten what it was to feel like a man, and the distress of poor
Frederick Walcheren touched him to the quick.

‘My poor lad,’ he replied, forgetting for the moment the sacred office
which his young friend had taken upon himself, ‘I am deeply grieved to
hear this story. I had so hoped that your new and blessed duties would
completely drive all such memories from your mind. To have them renewed
in this painful manner is most distressing. But where did you hear this
intelligence, Frederick? Are you sure that it is correct, or only a
base rumour set up to annoy you?’

‘I heard it in the confessional,’ replied the young priest.

‘In the confessional?’

‘Yes; Father Henniker was taken suddenly ill this afternoon, with one
of his heart attacks, and I was called upon to take his place. After a
while a man entered, whom I recognised at the first glance. It was--’

‘Hush! hush! stop my dear brother; what are you thinking of?’
exclaimed the elder priest, warningly. ‘You must not repeat any names.
Remember, the confessional is sacred.’

‘All right, father, I won’t; but it will have to come out some day.
Well, this man entered, and after telling me he was not a Catholic,
said he had a great burden on his mind and wished to try if confession
would ease it. He then went on to give me the whole details of my
darling’s murder--how he had gone down to Dover and met her on the
cliffs, and she had repulsed and taunted him--I can see her doing it,
my poor, brave girl!--and how he had pushed her deliberately over the
rocks to the shingles below. He said he had been miserable ever since,
as well he may have been, the brute! and had the audacity to ask me for
absolution for his crime.’

‘Did you give it him?’

‘Not I! I felt much more like giving him his quietus for evermore! I
told him, if he were penitent, to go and make his peace with the law
first, and then ask for the forgiveness of Heaven. It was all I could
do to speak to him with any degree of decency.’

‘Do you think he did not recognise you, brother?’

‘Not till the last, when I opened the half door and looked at him.
He knew me then and ran away, horrified, no doubt, at his own
indiscretion. And now, father, tell me what steps can I take? To whom
should I go? I feel as if I could not pass through the Sunday services
with this black secret in my keeping. Tell me downright, what shall I
do?’

Father Tasker looked at him sadly.

‘You should know better than to ask me. You can do nothing!’

‘_Nothing?_ Are you laughing at my agony?’

‘God forbid! I am grieving for this fresh pain you are called upon to
endure, more than I can say. But I repeat, you can do nothing. Have you
forgotten the solemn vows you have taken not to reveal anything you
may hear in the confessional? You would not have dreamt of coming to me
with a story you might have heard concerning a stranger. Your hands are
just as much tied when the revelation affects yourself!’

‘You mean that I can do nothing to set this matter right--that I am
bound to let the murderer of my wife go free?’

‘Certainly, since he has confessed the deed to you in your sacred
office as confessor! You are bound by your own oath to maintain an
utter silence on the subject.’

‘And he, this brute, is to walk about the world, prosperous and
esteemed--triumphing, perhaps, in his secret crimes--whilst my innocent
darling lies unavenged in her grave? Oh! it is too, _too_ cruel! I
cannot believe it would be a duty!’

‘It is a duty, a duty which you could only overcome by breaking your
most solemn word, by violating your sanctity as a priest, by disgracing
your holy office and bringing discredit on the sacrament of confession.
What are you thinking of Frederick? What would you have thought in the
olden days if _I_, for example, had revealed to the world what you have
told me in the confessional?’

‘Oh, that was different,’ exclaimed the young priest passionately.
‘My confessions--most people’s confessions--are of trivial, everyday
faults. But this--this heinous murder, which cries aloud to God’s
Throne for vengeance--is not the same thing. If murderers and such
like criminals are to believe that, by coming to us and depositing
their vile secrets in the confessional, they may obtain relief and
absolution, the Church will be turned into a depository for crime--a
sink hole of wickedness without any judgment to follow.’

‘Whatever you may think, Frederick, the fact remains that, as a priest,
you cannot reveal this terrible secret, nor even breathe a hint that
you have heard it. With me you are safe, but to no one else must you
mention the subject. Go home, my dear brother, and pray to forget it,
even to forgive it.’

‘_Never!_’ cried the young man, emphatically. ‘I should lie if I said
I should ever do either one or the other. Father Tasker, I have had
many doubts, as you know, since entering the Church, whether I have
not made a grave mistake, but I have none at the present moment. I see
that I have put myself in a wrong position. Had I had the least idea
of what I have heard to-day--had I imagined, however vaguely, that my
precious wife had come unfairly by the death which I always believed
to be due to an accident, nothing would have induced me to bind myself
by any vows but those which should bring her murderer to justice. And
now that the bitter truth has been accidentally revealed to me--that I
have met the villain face to face--you tell me I must be silent, that
I must brood over my deep wrongs for a lifetime, praying the while,
perhaps, for the welfare of the brute who goes scot-free. But I cannot
do it--I cannot! I wear the vestments of a priest, but I am a man
all the same, a man who loves and has lost, who knows his enemy and
thirsts for revenge! And you bid me have patience and keep silence.
It is impossible! unnatural! You lay a task on me that I am unable to
fulfil.’

‘You shock me,’ said the old priest. ‘You are indeed right, with such
feelings, to say you should never have accepted the office you fill.
What are you saying? You cannot, and you will not, and it is unnatural
that you should. You forget you are no longer a free agent, but must do
as the Church commands you--not as you think, or feel.’

‘The Church may unfrock me, but she cannot unmake me a man, with all
a man’s feelings and desires. My love I buried in the grave with my
darling, cheerfully, for the Church’s sake. All my earthly amusements
and luxuries I have been willing to give up in the same way. Life has
nothing much left in it for me now, and I am desirous to dedicate
the rest of it, if needful, to the good of my brethren. But this is
something quite different. This is a duty, in my own estimation--the
blood of my dearest possession crying out to me for vengeance from the
ground. I say, her murderer shall not live to murder other victims,
perhaps in the same cold-blooded, heartless manner! God’s justice and
the world’s laws demand it. It would be a sacrilege to let him go free!’

‘And I repeat, Frederick, that if the man had confessed to slaying the
Christ Himself, in the confessional, you could not, as a priest, have
betrayed him. If he comes to you again, you can counsel him to make the
only reparation in his power, by confessing his sin to the world, and
bearing the penalty, but you can go no further.’

‘As if a mean-spirited cur like that, who would stoop to wage war
against a helpless girl, would be brave enough to swing for it!’ cried
Frederick, contemptuously. ‘Not he! When I told him I knew his name, he
tried to get out of what he had said, by pretending he had confessed
a made-up story for a bet, but, when he saw my face, his told a
different tale. What man, born of woman, could remain dumb under such
circumstances? It shames his manhood to think of it. There is not a
creature in this vast city that, knowing what I know, would not deliver
the criminal up to justice.’

‘Perhaps so. To conceal a crime under ordinary circumstances is to
be a partner in its guilt. Had this wretched man told you of his sin
anywhere else than where he did--had you been with him in the open
street, or in your private rooms, you would be justified in refusing
to keep his secret for him, even though you are a priest. But he came
to you, believing that he was safe in speaking openly to a confessor;
therefore, to betray his confidence would be to perjure yourself,
and without effecting your object. You could not take the secrets
of the confessional into an open court of law as witness of a man’s
guilt. Who would accept your testimony? How easy it would be for the
murderer to turn round, as you say he attempted to do, and deny that
it was anything but a jest. Where would you be then? Disgraced, but
unavenged.’

‘You are right, father,’ said Frederick, with a deep sigh, as he
rose to leave, ‘and I have been an impetuous idiot. Thanks for all
your kindness and patience with me. I fear I try it sorely at times.
Good-night!’

He went back to his residence, but the father’s last words rung in
his ears meanwhile. ‘Had this man told you of his guilt anywhere
else.’ Would it be possible to induce Hindes to repeat what he had
said in the confessional elsewhere? Would he be too astute, too
cunning, too incredulous of the safety of such a thing, to repeat his
story? Or might he, if Frederick could only conceal his hatred of him
sufficiently well, be cajoled into believing that ‘once a priest was
always a priest,’ and that the oath of silence was as obligatory out
of the confessional as in? The young man shuddered as he thought of
encountering Hindes again, yet, for Jenny’s sake--Jenny, who had said,
poor child, almost prophetically, how she hated and mistrusted this
man--he could manage, he thought, to hide his aversion and loathing,
if it would serve the purpose of causing him to betray himself, with
confidence, under conditions when he could take advantage of it to
deliver him over to justice.

‘Oh, what feelings are these?’ cried Frederick, in his inmost soul.
‘Why did I ever become a priest? I had much better have enlisted in
the army. I am not fitted for my position. I told them all so, but
they would drive me into it. How can I go on offering the Mass, and
attending all the services of the Church, with these burning desires
for revenge in my heart? In another fashion I am as bad as this brute
Hindes. He goes about the world as a whited sepulchre, and so do I. I
wonder if I shall ever have the courage to break off my fetters. It
would be one bold stroke and I should be free again. People would say,
“How shocking. Fancy, he was a Catholic priest!” and poor dear Father
Tasker and my cousin Philip would declare I was lost for evermore;
but would their saying so, or thinking so, make it a fact? Which is
better, that I should give up an office for which I am not only unfit,
but in which I am a living lie, or go on with it, dissatisfied with
myself and all my surroundings? After all, God, who knows my thoughts
and my intentions, is the only Person Whose opinion I should fear, and
I know that He hates hypocrisy. One thing I am sure of, that I cannot
live a life of inactivity whilst my angel’s death is unavenged, and
her murderer goes at large. The prayers would blister my tongue. I am
unfit for any of my sacred duties whilst such thoughts fill my mind. I
wish--I wish, from my inmost soul, that I was a better man, but I am
very earthly yet. Every thought proves it. And yet, oh, my God! I shall
not serve Thee worse in the world than here. Thou knowest, Who knowest
all things, that I shall not return to the world I left. That has fled
with all its pleasures, but this life cramps me. I am not myself. I
have made a mistake. Show me how to remedy it.’

These were the thoughts that occupied the mind of Frederick Walcheren,
and he was not a hypocrite in giving vent to them. He had been a very
wild and self-seeking man before he knew Jenny Crampton, thinking
only of the gratification of his senses, and caring nothing for the
things of the other world. But the Catholic Church makes religion so
much more realistic than any other. She depicts the saints and angels
as being so much nearer to us in an earthly sense--walking by our
sides as we journey through life, and taking an interest in all our
troubles and pleasures (as, indeed, all the souls departed do), that
her votaries, especially those who have been reared in her faith,
find it most difficult to shake off her influence, or to forget her
precepts. It is said that a Protestant may be converted to Catholicism,
or Mahommedanism, or Spiritualism, or any other ‘ism’; but a Catholic,
if he once rejects the faith of his fathers, becomes nothing but a
total disbeliever. He either believes all or nothing. This may or may
not be true, but the exception proves the rule. At all events, though
his wife’s death had not fitted Frederick Walcheren to be a priest, it
had made him think very deeply, and the lessons he had learned in his
youth had returned with twofold force upon his mind, and made him view
his past life in a light which would prevent his ever returning to it.
He viewed his past career now as it really had been--the outcome of his
selfish desires--and he mourned over its effects sincerely.

Amongst his other sins, the one he had committed against Rhoda Berry
haunted him. The other women he had trifled with had either been very
well able to take care of themselves, or they had been more sinning
than sinned against. Rhoda Berry, of them all, had used only the weapon
of her own love against him, had suffered the most in consequence, and
had complained the least. It was strange that he--a priest--should
find his thoughts turning most to her--a simple, uneducated girl--in
this dilemma. But he saw plainly that he must expect no help from
his fellow-clergy. They had relinquished the world, with all things
pertaining thereto, and would only advise him to pray and be patient,
and regard his present state of miserable uncertainty as a trial
sent from Heaven out of loving-kindness, and his thirsting to avenge
the cruel murder of his wife as a sore temptation from the Enemy of
Mankind, which it was his solemn duty to trample under foot. And then
this inability to disclose anything heard under the seal of confession!
If that were true, Frederick felt he could not lend himself to be the
depositary of state secrets, the keeping of which might be, perhaps, a
wrong to his sovereign, his country and the people at large.

So he sat down and wrote a note to Rhoda Berry, in which he called
her his dear friend, and said that, if she were likely to be visiting
London again, he would much like to see her for a few minutes and
receive her in the common parlour of the priests’ house, or call upon
her at any place she might prefer. Rhoda showed this letter to her
mother, and her mother, as usual, went to the cards for advice. The
oracle said, decidedly, ‘Yes.’ Rhoda was to visit town for the express
purpose of seeing her late lover, and the journey would be productive
of good for both of them.

‘I can’t say I see what luck can come of it,’ said Rhoda. ‘If Fred were
not yet ordained, I might dissuade him from it, but I said all I could
last time we met, and I might as well have talked to the table. I can’t
fancy him a priest, mother! It seems too ridiculous. I often think what
baby will look like some day, when he is grown up and bothers to know
who his father is, and I tell him a Catholic priest. He’ll think I’m
out of my mind.’

‘Don’t worry over that now, my girl,’ replied Mrs Berry, ‘there’s
plenty of time before you. Little Fred won’t trouble himself about
his father for many years to come. And there’s no saying what may
happen before that comes to pass! I often fancy things will turn out
different from what you imagine. You’ll have a happy life after all.
I’m sure of that, whoever you may pass it with.’

‘It’ll never be happy passed away from Fred, mother. You may take your
oath of that,’ said Rhoda, shaking her head; ‘but I’ll go up and see
him, poor fellow, all the same. I never refused him anything yet, worse
luck! and I can’t begin now.’




CHAPTER VII.


Frederick Walcheren did not rest satisfied with the ultimatum which
Father Tasker had passed on his conduct, with regard to what he had
learned in the confessional. He had no hope of obtaining a different
opinion, but he considered it right, before he acted on his own
responsibility, to leave no stone unturned to vindicate his idea of
what was just and right. As soon as Father Henniker was sufficiently
recovered to be able to resume his duties, he sought an audience with
him, and told him the whole story, carefully withholding any details
that might lead to the identification of the parties concerned.

The older priest was very much shocked by the recital. He felt for his
young brother keenly, so he said, but he had no further consolation
to give him. It was a terrible trial for him--sent by Almighty God
to test his faith and endurance of suffering. It was a high honour
conferred on him by Heaven; he was called upon to take up the cross in
imitation of the Saviour of Mankind, and to carry it, maybe, through
life. But there was no remedy except the medicines which had been
already prescribed for him--Prayer and Patience, and rejoicing in
Suffering!

And he was a man with a burning, aching heart, bowed down beneath a
sense of an irreparable loss, brought on him by a fellow-man, and he
writhed under these recommendations to inactivity like a strong man
would writhe and chafe to rend apart the cords that bound him, whilst
what he loved best was being cruelly tortured under his very eyes.

He did not answer the father for a few minutes, but sat with his head
bowed down and his eyes fixed upon the ground.

‘I fear you do not see this matter in its proper light, brother,’ said
Father Henniker, after a long pause.

‘If yours is the proper light, I cannot!’ replied Frederick.

‘It is not my light. It is the light of the Church,’ said his companion.

‘But it has not shined on me,’ retorted Frederick, quickly. ‘You
make me feel I am unfit for our holy office! I am a man still, not a
neutral creature, without feelings, or passions, or warm, human blood
running through my veins. If I imagined that ordination would cure me
of all this, I was mistaken! It has failed to do so. On every side I
receive the same advice. Don’t feel--don’t think--don’t remember! Be
patient--be calm--be silent! Act, live, do your duty as if such things
had never been, as if everything were right within you, and God had not
taken the only thing which made your life worth living from you at one
cruel blow!’

‘Hush! hush!’ interposed the priest. ‘When you compare the love you
conceived for a sinful woman, whose charms only appealed to the lust of
the eye, to the duty which you owe to the Almighty, you are uttering
blasphemy.’

‘A sinful woman!’ echoed Frederick. ‘Who presumes to call her so? You
forget she was my wife, father! No one shall ever call her “sinful” in
my hearing, were it the Holy Father himself!’

‘I will not listen to such talk any longer,’ exclaimed Father Henniker,
indignantly. ‘You are right when you say you have mistaken your
vocation, Brother Walcheren! Leave my presence, and never enter it
again whilst such feelings obtain the mastery over you!’

Frederick did as he was desired, biting his lips with indignation at
the rebuff, and, retreating to his own room, did not speak to his
superior for some days to come.

It was while he was still warring with the human passions which had
been raised in his breast, that he was informed one evening that
a gentleman desired to speak with him, and on demanding his name,
received the card of Henry Hindes. A close observer might have seen
Father Walcheren’s hands clench as he read the name on the card, but
he told the man to admit the visitor to his private sanctum, in as calm
a voice as he could muster. Whilst Henry Hindes was being conducted
through the long stone passages, Frederick tried to make up his mind
how he should address him, but his thoughts were all chaos. He stood
like a statue, with his mind a blank, to receive--the murderer of his
wife.

Hindes entered, looking very cringing and humiliated. He glanced
round the small, bare chamber on entering, to see if there was any
third person present to listen to their conversation, but perceiving
they were alone, he plucked up courage to advance a little nearer.
He had made up his mind to learn the worst, for he could wrestle no
longer with his agony of suspense. As he advanced, Frederick Walcheren
retreated till the distance of the room lay between them.

‘Not a step nearer, Mr Hindes,’ he ejaculated; ‘give me some chance of
remaining master of myself! Now, what have you to say to me?’

‘Are you sure we are quite alone?’ inquired his visitor, glancing
around him fearfully; ‘that we shall not be overheard?’

‘No one will hear you,’ replied Frederick.

‘I know you--you recognised my voice the other day,’ commenced Hindes,
‘and I felt I must speak to you on the subject. I have understood that
every word uttered in the confessional is sacred--that a priest dare
not reveal it, even if he would. Is that true?’

‘It is true!’ replied the other.

‘And that a priest’s word would not be taken, even if he did repeat
what he heard as a confessor--that he would be disgraced and stripped
of his cloth in consequence, so that the secrets told in confession are
as inviolate as the grave!’

‘You have been informed aright. Were it not so, the sacrament of
confession would be at a discount. Penitents would be afraid to tell of
their sins, the greatest of which they confide to the ears of their
confessor without the slightest fear.’

‘I wanted to make sure I had been informed aright,’ continued Hindes,
with the sweat of fear and agitation standing thick upon his brow, ‘so
I thought I would come and ask you straight. You must be aware that I
did not know I was addressing you last week, Mr Walcheren; in fact, I
had not heard that you had entered the Church. Naturally, you would
have been the last person I should have chosen for such a confidence.’

‘Naturally!’ repeated Frederick.

‘It was an awful thing to have to say,’ said Hindes, trembling; ‘but
you assure me it will go no further. I will do anything to ensure this.
Become a Catholic to-morrow, or leave the country and promise not to
return to it. I am truly penitent, Mr Walcheren, indeed I am, and ready
to prove my sincerity in any way you may choose to point out to me!’

‘I have already told you, sir, that the secrets of the confessional
are inviolate, and the Church demands no penance except such as shall
be pleasing to Almighty God! Since you say you are penitent, you have,
doubtless, said the same to Him.’

‘Yes, indeed! I have tried to pray, but heaven seems so far off for
such as I. But it was hardly a crime. It was more an accident than
anything else. If I could only make you believe this.’

‘I always did believe it, until your own lips told me otherwise.’

‘Yes, yes! but in confession I wished to make the worst of my error, in
order to see if I should have absolution for the worst. But it really
_was_ an accident! I assure you, on my honour.’

‘Mr Hindes,’ said Father Walcheren, sternly, ‘let us have no fooling,
if you please! I cannot listen to two stories. Last week you said,
distinctly, that you did it by design. Now you want to make out it was
an accident. But I shall choose to believe that what you said in the
confessional, when you thought you were speaking to a stranger, was
the true version of the story.’

‘It was, it was; but it is safe with you!’ cried Hindes, as though he
felt himself beaten, and declined to fight any longer. ‘I will tell you
the whole truth, indeed I will! It will be a comfort to get it clean
off my soul.’

At this critical moment it flashed through Father Walcheren’s mind that
he should warn his penitent that he was not in the confessional, but he
could not. Jenny--his murdered Jenny, seemed to flit before him, with
her beautiful features all soiled with the damps of death and almost
indistinguishable through corruption, crying aloud for justice on her
assassin, and, right or wrong, he could not, and he did not, speak.

‘It happened just as I told you the other day,’ continued Henry Hindes.
‘I loved her--don’t be angry with me, it is all over now, you know--and
I would not have harmed her for the world, but I loved her long before
she ever knew you, and her marriage made me jealous as well as angry.
Mr Crampton deputed me to follow her down to Dover and make her an
offer to return home, on the condition that she gave you up and allowed
her father to annul the marriage, on a plea that you took a false oath
concerning her age. When I arrived at the hotel she had gone out, and I
wandered on the cliffs to beguile the time, and there I met her.’

‘Go on!’ said Frederick, curtly.

‘I told you the rest,’ replied Hindes, beginning to feel uneasy at the
other’s manner.

‘I wish to hear it again. Whilst you are about it, you had better tell
all.’

‘I had no intention of injuring her, Mr Walcheren; indeed, you must
believe that! I told her all her father had commissioned me to say, and
she laughed in my face at the idea. She wanted to know what business
it was of mine to interfere in her affairs, and why her father had not
gone down himself to make his proposals in person. And then, I was mad
enough to tell her the reason that I took such an interest in all that
concerned her. I told her how long I had loved her.’

‘You insulted her, in fact,’ exclaimed Frederick, making a step forward.

‘No, Mr Walcheren, no,’ cried the coward, cringing before him; ‘I did
not, upon my honour.’

‘Your honour,’ sneered the other.

‘I did not insult her; indeed I thought too highly of her for that. But
she goaded me on to saying what I did. And then she turned round on
me with such bitter scorn that she drove me beside myself. She almost
spurned me from her in her mocking pride, and I saw she was perilously
near the edge of the cliff. I stretched out my hand and laid it on her
arm to save her from falling backward. But she wrenched her wrist from
my grasp, crying out, “You brute! You want to push me over the cliffs
now, I suppose.” Upon my soul, Mr Walcheren, I had never dreamt of such
an awful thing before. But, as she said the words, I suppose the devil
entered into me,--something did, at any rate--and I thought, “And if
I do, no one will have you evermore. If _I_ can never hope to call you
mine, I can prevent Walcheren doing so.” I was mad--I must have been
mad--for I had loved her so dearly, ever since she was a little child,
and yet, at that moment, I seemed to have but one wish--to see her out
of the reach of everybody, even myself--to know she would be unable
ever again to taunt me, or despise me, or laugh over my infatuation.
So, without thinking of the consequences, I gave her a push backwards
instead of a pull forwards, and you know the rest. She fell--and I have
never known a happy hour since. I don’t think I shall ever have a happy
hour again.’

‘Not if I can help it!’ replied Frederick, with emphasis.

Hindes started, and changed colour.

‘But you cannot betray me. My revelation is sacred. You said yourself
that the secrets of the confessional are inviolate.’

‘I know I did. But _this_ is not a confessional, Mr Hindes.’

The wretched man glared round him like a rat who has been trapped.

‘Do you mean to say that you are not bound to keep secrets told _out_
of the church?’

‘A priest is bound to maintain utter silence on all matters revealed
under the seal of confession, whether in the church or out of it,
but you and I are in the position of two private individuals. You
came to call on me like any other person; therefore, it lies in my
discretionary power to keep what you have told me this evening to
myself, or not.’

‘My God!’ cried Hindes, ‘I am lost!’

Then the nerve which he had ruined by the use of morphia entirely
forsook him, and he fell on his knees and crawled to the feet of the
man he had so sorely wronged, like an abject animal.

‘Mercy! mercy!’ he groaned, ‘don’t visit my crime upon my head, for the
sake of my poor wife and children. I loved her.’

‘Silence, sir!’ thundered Frederick, ‘remember you are speaking of _my
wife_! Mercy!’ he continued, after a pause, ‘what mercy did you have on
me, when you cut my dream of love so cruelly short, and in so devilish
a manner? What mercy had you on her, my sweet, innocent, loving Jenny,
when your accursed hand hurled her over those awful rocks? My love! my
darling!’ he continued, pacing the floor of his room in his agitation,
‘why was I not by your side at that fatal moment, that I might have
made this fiend pay the penalty of his crime by sharing your fate? My
wife--my wife--and he asks me to show mercy upon him!’

‘Mr Walcheren! I will do anything--anything--if you will only keep my
secret now. It can do you no good to publish it, nor _her_ either. Let
me go free and I will pay any penalty you like. I am a rich man. If
your Church demands it, I will pay half my fortune into her coffers,
or, if you wish it, I will sign a paper, promising to leave England at
once--to-morrow, if you insist upon it--and never show my face in the
country again; I will perform any penance you may put upon me, only
don’t make the matter public property after this length of time.’

He had forgotten, in his cowardly fear, that Walcheren had no witness
against him, that his crime had been committed in secret, and that an
English jury had acquitted him, and all men, from blame. His conscience
had turned him into such a sorry poltroon that his memory had departed
with his manliness. He grovelled before his opponent on the ground--he
even attempted to kiss his feet, but Frederick Walcheren spurned him
from him with his boot.

‘Don’t touch me, you brute!’ he exclaimed, using involuntarily the very
words poor Jenny had blurted forth in her indignation, ‘your very lips
are contamination! Once for all, I will _not_ spare you. If you escape
to the uttermost ends of the earth, I will pursue you there! You shall
walk no longer among your fellow-men like a whited sepulchre. If I
unfrock myself in order to obtain it, I will have my revenge!’

‘I have tried to make amends,’ groaned Henry Hindes, who was still
upon his knees. ‘I have not used the money Mr Crampton left to my son.
It is all there; I intend to endow a church or an hospital with it.
But it was _hers_. It more justly belongs to you; you shall have it,
every farthing, with double interest, if you will only consider your
intention again and contemplate how little good you will do yourself
and others by carrying it out.’

‘You would bribe me with money, you miserable cur!’ replied Frederick,
witheringly--‘pay me for my wife’s murder--satisfy my craving for
revenge by so many pounds, shillings and pence! But you will find I
am not such an usurer as you imagine. I have not been brought up to
trade, and if I had, I should not trade in my heart’s affections. Be
silent! I will listen to no more from your accursed lips. You have said
enough! Leave my presence; but don’t think to hide yourself from me. I
will leave the priesthood to-morrow--I will leave the Church itself--I
will resign my hopes of salvation, if need be, but you shall not go
unpunished for this hideous crime!’

So speaking, Frederick Walcheren left the room suddenly, slamming the
door after him, whilst Henry Hindes remained on the floor, with the
tears running down his cheeks. When he found himself alone, he rose
from his knees and slowly quitted the apartment, not knowing what to do
or where to go, or whom to consult, on the unhappy position in which he
found himself.

The young priest was still pacing the floor of his dormitory, in the
greatest disquietude, when a lay brother appeared, to tell him that a
lady wished to speak to him in the common parlour, where the clergy
usually receive their female visitors. Frederick tried to calm himself
as he went down to meet her, but he felt very unequal to administering
comfort, or giving advice to anyone. But what was his relief, on
entering the parlour, to find that his visitor was Rhoda Berry. She
was robed all in black, and looked so quiet and graceful that he was
not surprised that the brother had called her a lady. Half his care
seemed to fall off his shoulders as he recognised her.

‘Oh! Rhoda,’ he exclaimed, coming forward eagerly to greet her, ‘how
good it is of you to answer my appeal so soon. Were you surprised that
I should wish to see you again? I am in great trouble, and I long for
your advice and counsel. You were always giving me good advice in the
old days, Rhoda, so you must do the same now.’

‘Certainly, if I can,’ replied the girl, in an astonished tone; ‘but
what advice of mine can benefit you, now that you are a priest, so high
above me and so far, far away?’

‘Do you think I must necessarily be so high above you, Rhoda, just
because I have been ordained,’ said Frederick, sadly. ‘I, on the
contrary, have but lately found out that I am lower than I even
believed myself to be; full of the old worldliness, the old envy,
malice and all uncharitableness.’

‘I don’t believe it,’ replied Rhoda, stoutly, ‘you were never anything
like that, Fred--I beg your pardon, I meant Mr Walcheren--’

‘Nonsense! call me Fred, Rhoda. What else should I be to you than that?’

‘But _now_--’ said Rhoda, dubiously, ‘it sounds so disrespectful.’

‘Does it? Never mind. It eases my heart to hear it. I feel very much
alone sometimes, Rhoda, and as if I had isolated myself from all who
loved me.’

‘I suppose you do, but perhaps the feeling will wear off with time. But
I do not like to hear you accuse yourself of faults of which you were
never guilty. I am sure you were never either envious or malicious. You
were always the most kind-hearted and generous of men, at least to me.
So I am sure you cannot have become uncharitable now.’

‘Perhaps I have had more cause lately to bring my bad qualities into
play. I have had a great shock, the last week, Rhoda! I have discovered
that my dear wife did not meet her death by an accident, but was
foully murdered.’

The girl sprung from her seat with a genuine exclamation of horror.

The dead woman had been more than her rival. She had actually ousted
her from her lover’s affections, and she had had many bitter and
envious thoughts about them both. But, when she heard that she had been
murdered, all her resentment vanished in a flood of pity so vast, that
she felt, at that moment, as if she would have laid down her own life
to bring her back again. And how she pitied _him_ too--her poor lover,
whose infidelity to herself had met with so terrible an ending.

‘Oh! my poor, poor boy!’ she cried, forgetful of his priesthood and
everything, except that once he had been her own; ‘how sorry I am for
you. How did you hear it? Who did the awful deed? What reason could
anyone have had to injure you so fearfully?’

And then the tender-hearted girl sat down in her chair again and burst
into tears--partly for poor dead Jenny, and partly for herself.

‘I knew you would feel for me,’ replied Frederick. ‘You have been a
good friend to me all along. I cannot answer all your questions. If I
could, I should not have need of your advice. But listen to me, and I
will tell you the whole story.’

He drew a chair opposite to her on the other side of the table, and
leaned his arms across it.

‘You have heard of the confessional, Rhoda, where Catholics tell their
sins to a priest, and, when truly penitent, receive absolution. Last
Saturday week, Father Henniker, one of our priests, was ill, and I was
ordered to take his place in the confessional, and as the people who
confess cannot see the face of the confessor, no one knew but that
Father Henniker was in his usual place. Do you understand?’

‘Perfectly!’

‘Whilst I was engaged thus, a man entered the confessional, and, to
my horror and amazement, told me the whole history of my darling
wife’s--You don’t mind my calling her that before you, do you, Rhoda?’

‘No, no; call her just what you like. I should not love you--I mean,
I should not _have_ loved you--Fred, if you had married her without
caring for her.’

‘I did you an injustice by the question. You are too true-hearted a
woman to mind it. Well, this man related the whole dreadful story
to me, and told me that he had killed her himself--that she had not
fallen over the cliffs by mistake, but that he had pushed her over--the
villain!--on purpose, and with the design of killing her!’

‘Oh, Fred, what did you do?’ exclaimed Rhoda, with her blue eyes opened
to their widest extent.

‘My dear, I could do nothing. That was the terrible part of it. I had
to sit there and listen to the account of his villainy and make no
sign. But, as he left the confessional, I opened the half door on my
side and showed my face, and he looked as though the heavens had opened
to rain down judgment on him.’

‘You knew the man, then, and he knew you,’ said Rhoda.

‘Yes! but I am bound by the most solemn oaths not to tell the name nor
communications of any penitent who confesses to me. Oh! Rhoda, pity me!
You can fancy what I felt, cooped up there, and compelled to listen
to perhaps a dozen more confessions, without the slightest idea of
what they were all saying. I think some of them must have been rather
astonished to have been let off so easily, for I absolved the whole lot
without a murmur. All I could think of was how I could escape and take
counsel of someone. My head and my heart were on fire! Had I followed
my natural inclination, I should have rushed down the aisle after the
brute and seized him by the throat, and squeezed his life out of him
then and there. But I had to wait till I was set at liberty, and then
I rushed to Father Tasker, an old friend of mine, and asked him what I
ought to do about it.’

‘And he told you--?’

‘That I could do nothing, that, by reason of my office, I must sit down
like a dummy, and let this murderer walk about the world scot-free.
That I must pray and hope, and trust that someone else might bring him
to justice, or try and persuade him to confess his crime to the law,
but failing this, I could do nothing but be patient under my heinous
wrongs. _Patient!_ when my beautiful girl lies in her grave, murdered,
in the spring-time of her youth, by a jealous brute who could not bear
to see our happiness; when my married bliss has been cut short, and
all my earthly hopes shattered for ever; when I have pledged myself,
in my despair, to be quiescent and forego my revenge. Rhoda! it has
nearly driven me mad! I feel like that poor husband, of whom we read
during the Indian mutinies, who was bound with cords whilst his lovely
young wife was outraged and murdered before his eyes, the while the
foam and blood dropped from his mouth in his rage and agony. Here am I,
chained--bound--helpless, and all through my own folly. I cannot bear
it! I cannot--I cannot!’

‘Hush! hush, dear Fred, someone will hear you!’ exclaimed the girl,
cautiously, as she rose and listened at the door. ‘I believe there is
somebody in the passage now. Cannot I see you somewhere else, in order
to talk over this unhappy business? May you not leave this place?’

‘Certainly! I am free to go and come as I choose. Where are you staying
in town?’

‘At my old address. The landlady knows me, and is very kind. I do not
intend to remain over to-morrow, unless you want me. You see, I have
to leave the--the--little one with mother, and he is getting rather
troublesome now.’

‘Is he quite well?’ inquired Frederick, wistfully.

‘Yes; but can you come and see me to-night?’

‘I can, and I will, at seven o’clock. Till then, good-bye.’

And he let her cautiously out of the front door.




CHAPTER VIII.


The young priest was punctual to his appointment, and found Rhoda ready
to receive him. She was alone, and in the room where they had so often
met before, yet she displayed no self-consciousness of the fact. It was
evident that she had accepted the position, in which they now stood to
one another, as final. Frederick Walcheren a priest was as dead to her
as if he lay in his grave. She saw in him only a friend, whom she had
once dearly loved and trusted in, to be advised, comforted and maybe
led aright. Had she been a Catholic, this state of mind would not have
been extraordinary on her part, since, for a Catholic to think of a
priest otherwise than a priest, would be sacrilege. But Rhoda was a
Protestant, who had been brought up to detest Popery, and everything
connected with it, so that the reverential attitude she now assumed
towards her former lover was due, not to his Church, but himself. She
cared nothing, individually, for his office, but she still cared too
much for him to tempt him to say a word, or do an act, which should
become a reproach to him. She rose as he entered, but did not even hold
out her hand in greeting. All the courtesy she extended, was to ask him
if he would like a cup of tea after his walk.

‘Thanks, Rhoda,’ he replied; ‘I think it would be very refreshing, for
I have just come off a long round of visits. The women of the poorer
classes I can see at any time, but it is only in the evenings that I
can catch the men.’

‘But there is not nearly so much trouble to induce the men to go to
church in your religion as there is in ours, or so I have heard,’ said
the girl, as she busied herself with the kettle and the teapot.

‘No, I suppose not, because they are reared from infancy to believe
that it is a mortal sin not to attend Mass once on a Sunday. And a
mortal sin, unconfessed, means, with us, eternal damnation. But what is
the use, Rhoda, of a duty performed under such a dread? If it is only
done from fear of hell, it may as well not be done at all.’

‘We have not met to-night to discuss religion,’ said Rhoda, as she
placed his cup of tea before him, ‘and you would never convert me if
we had. You may remember that was one of the matters we used to argue
about in the past, and finally agreed that each of us was to have our
own way. But I quite agree with you, that a duty performed from the
fear of man’s opinion, or of future punishment, is just worth nothing
in the eyes of God. There is only one person we have to please, or to
account for our actions to, and that is Himself.’

‘You used not to think so much of God when I first knew you, Rhoda,’
said Frederick, ‘or, at all events, I do not remember ever hearing you
speak of Him.’

The tears filled Rhoda’s eyes.

‘No, perhaps not. But things that have happened since then may have
drawn my thoughts more that way. You must feel yourself, Fred, that
when one knows trouble and loss, one naturally goes to Heaven for
comfort. It has been the same with you. That is why people say that it
is sent to turn us to God.’

‘Yes, for such as I, perhaps, Rhoda, who was so selfishly absorbed in
my own joy as to forget the unhappiness I caused to others--I seemed
to have no resource but to devote the rest of my life to Heaven. But
you are young, and your loss has not been like mine! I have had to give
up a wife who was far too good for me, whilst you lost only a most
worthless friend, unworthy of the name, who did his best to ensure your
destruction with his own.’

‘Let us talk of what we were doing this afternoon,’ responded the girl,
quietly. ‘I have thought of nothing else since we parted. It is so
dreadful, so very, very sad; so terrible for you to hear so suddenly,
and when you had no idea of such a thing. You told me that you had
applied for counsel to your fellow-priests, and all they could advise
you was to have patience. Patience for _what_, Frederick?’

‘For nothing, Rhoda. Patience to see the murderer of my poor wife
walking about the world as usual, beloved by his family, respected
by his friends, and honoured by his fellow-men. That is all. I may
live for the next fifty years--so may he--eating my heart out to know
my great wrong goes unavenged, and pacifying myself with prayer the
while--prayer that my enemy may find grace hereafter, I suppose, as
well as here.’

‘Fred,’ said Rhoda, leaning her elbows on the table opposite to him,
and looking him steadily in the face, ‘if you had your whole will in
this matter, what would you do?’

‘Hang the brute fifty times, and gloat over his agony all the while.’

‘Oh, no, you wouldn’t,’ she replied, shaking her head.

‘I would, Rhoda, I would. What! spare him who had no mercy on my lost
darling? You do not know me.’

‘I think I do, better than you know yourself. You feel like that now,
certainly, but when it came to actually _doing_ it, you would draw back
and say, “This is not my work. Leave him to God.”’

‘And let my darling lie in her bloody grave unavenged? Never!’

‘Is she not avenged? You have described to me what an abject,
trembling, miserable object her murderer is! Do you suppose he has not
suffered such tortures of remorse as would make the gallows a welcome
relief to him? There is no hell, Frederick, like that which we carry
within ourselves--the worm that dieth not. Leave this wretched man
to his own remorse! That will prove a greater hell to him than the
hangman’s rope, and be a jewel in your heavenly crown.’

‘But _why_ should I do this, Rhoda? I can understand the priests
telling me I must forego my revenge because I must not violate
the secrets of the confessional, yet, even they said that, if the
confession were made to me in private, as it was this afternoon, it
would be legitimate for me to bring the criminal to justice. But you
say just the opposite. Why?’

‘Because I am not speaking according to any formula, Frederick, of what
the Church will, or will not, permit you to do. I am talking to you as
a friend who thinks only of your individual good, and nothing of what
people or Churches will say. I am thinking only of how God will view
the matter, and what He might say when you had brought this murderer to
earthly justice. “Well! and now that you are satisfied with regard to
him who robbed you, how about yourself? Have _you_ never robbed your
neighbour? Have _you_ murdered no good thing which he prized?--never
taken from him anything which you can never give back again? Is there
no murder but that of the mortal life?” Oh! Fred, I do not mean or wish
to reproach you, but I want you to consider your own past life--your
life and mine--and see if we are not liable to make amends in the sight
of God as well as our fellow-creatures--even this poor murderer, on
whom you thirst to take your revenge.’

The young man had hidden his face in his hands as she spoke to him,
and, for a few moments, was too absorbed in thought to answer her.
Here was what the world would have called his victim--the girl he
had betrayed under a promise of eternal fidelity--who had trusted in
him and been deceived--who had never blamed nor reproached him, but
accepted her sad fate in all humility, teaching him true Christianity
as no one had ever taught him before.

He had robbed her of her good name and her virtue. He had murdered her
belief and faith in him. He had taken from her that which he could
never restore--her spotless reputation, and her pride in herself. He
had left her to support her shame and sorrow alone--the reproaches of
her family, the scorn of her companions--whilst he had been revelling
in Jenny’s beauty and Jenny’s love, and mourning over her death and his
own exceeding loss.

Yet, Rhoda had forgiven him in the divinest manner. She had felt with
him in his sorrow, but never asked him to share hers. She had listened,
with all sympathy to his tale of misery, but never once alluded to her
own. She had been a true friend to him in all things, and, if his life
could do her any good, he owed it to her; and then, with a deep groan,
he came back to himself and remembered that he was dead to the world;
he could benefit no one in it any more; he had made himself a cipher,
a machine, an automaton, to be moved only by the will of others, and
never to think or act for himself. The groan alarmed Rhoda. She feared
she had said too much.

‘Forgive me,’ she said softly, ‘if I was over bold. I forgot, for the
moment, what a gulf there is between us, and fancied I was scolding you
as of yore. You will not think too much of what I said. It is only a
girl’s opinion, after all, and you should know so much better than I.’

‘Yes, _should_,’ echoed Frederick Walcheren, moodily; ‘but the
question is if I do! Don’t blame yourself, Rhoda. You have put things
in a new light before me, and I thank you for it. I will go home and
think over the matter again. After all, you are right! What real good
would this man’s swinging do me? It cannot restore my murdered wife nor
my own peace of mind. I should be none the better for it.’

‘I am sure you would not, and especially if you had been the means of
bringing him to justice. It would only add another link to your chain
of sorrow. Besides, Fred, it would cast, as it were, a blot on your
ministry. I feel shy of touching on such a delicate subject, but you
will stand even this, I know, coming from me. The first fault, my dear,
was your own. Had you not married that young lady without the consent
of her parents, she would never have been placed in so dangerous a
position. This man would not have followed her, and she would have
had no chance of enraging him. There have been faults on all sides.
How can you tell, if you had been placed under the same circumstances
as this wretched murderer, whether you might not stand at this moment
in the same position? You know I am not attempting to defend him. His
crime excites the greatest abhorrence in my eyes, especially as it
has so cruelly hurt you. But I cannot help feeling the same about all
murderers--that, but for God’s grace, we might have encountered the
same lot. How many hasty blows are given, how many more intended--any
one of which might, if dealt a few inches nearer or farther, cause
death instead of mere pain. You say this man told you that his life had
been a curse to him ever since--that he was in despair. Is that not
sufficient punishment for his sin? What can be more terrible than a
life of remorse? The gallows would be preferable a thousand times over.
Don’t try to hurry him out of the world before he has repented and
tried to make such amends as may be in his power. Perhaps God may send
the thought to him. Perhaps your leniency may have the same effect! At
any rate, Fred, whatever may be his ultimate fate, don’t _you_ have a
hand in it! _Don’t_, for the sake of the old days!’

The tears were standing in her bright eyes as she leaned across the
table and put her hand upon his arm. He placed his own hand over it.

‘Were the old days very dear to you, Rhoda?’ he asked.

‘You know they were, but it is of no use talking of it. Since your lot
in life is fixed, it would be foolish to revert to the time when you
thought otherwise from now. I hear your voice, and fancy I have got
my old friend again, but, when I look at you, dressed in that strange
manner, and with your beautiful brown hair cropped off, I can hardly
believe you are the same Fred I knew. And it is best so, is it not?’

‘But what I am afraid of, Rhoda, is that my face and clothes are the
only things that are changed about me. That is one thing I wanted to
talk to you about. I fear I have made a terrible mistake in becoming
a priest. You see, this time last year, I was so mad with grief, the
shock I experienced had so shattered my nerves, that I was not myself.
All I wanted was to find forgetfulness, even at the sacrifice of
worldly good. My friends and relations worked largely on my frame of
mind, by assuring me the peace I longed for was to be found only in the
Church. My mother and godfather had intended me for that profession,
and I was in too despondent a state of mind to care what they did with
me, or made of me. So I drifted into ordination, not from a love of
God, but of despairing grief for my great loss. And now, I am sure,
I am unfitted for it. I am not nearly good enough. My thoughts and
desires are all with the world I have left. I have no vocation for
the ministry. What am I to do? Tell me, Rhoda. I have faith in your
sincerity and purity of teaching. Don’t consider anything, except how
I can please Heaven best. I don’t want to please myself so much, as not
to disgrace my calling.’

‘If you ask my advice, Fred, I can only give it in the words of your
favourite Shakespeare:--

        “To thine own self, be true!
  It follows, as the night the day,
  Thou canst not then be false to any man.”’

‘Be true to myself!’ mused Frederick Walcheren. ‘Yes, Rhoda, you are
right! That must be the only true test of any man’s conduct.’

‘Be true to the divinity that is in you, Fred. If _you_ feel--if your
soul--your very self feels that you will live an honester and better
life by leaving the Church--a life nearer God, and more in accordance
with the nature which He has given you--then don’t go by what any
priest, or Church, or law says, but be a law to yourself--and act
like not only a Christian, but _a man_, with free thoughts, and free
aspirations, and a God-given right to regulate his own life as he may
see best for himself and others.’

‘Oh, you little heretic!’ said Frederick, laughing, ‘what would they
have done to you a few centuries ago if you had been overheard uttering
such blasphemies! You would have been condemned to be burnt at the
stake!’

‘Should I?’ retorted Rhoda. ‘Well, I should not think much of a
religion that could do that!’

‘They both did it,’ replied Frederick, ‘the Protestants as well as the
Catholics! Everyone who differed from them in opinion, had to pay the
penalty of their rashness.’

‘Then I shouldn’t have thought much of either of them,’ said the girl.
‘Fred! religion was meant to bring us nearer God, not farther from Him.
The Church is not God, the priests are not God, the Bible, prayer--all
these--are only so many helps to bring us nearer Him. Why think about
what _they_ will say then. Think only what God will say, and He speaks
to you through your own conscience, and not through your fellow-men.’

‘Rhoda, you astound me,’ exclaimed her companion; ‘where have you
learned all this wisdom? You used not to talk to me like this when we
knew each other before. Who has taught you so much? With whom have you
been associating?’

The girl looked down and reddened.

‘With no one but myself,’ she answered gently. ‘I have been very much
alone. You see, I have been too much ashamed to go amongst the other
girls. But I think I have learned a great deal from my little baby. He
came, you know, Fred, when I was so very unhappy and despairing, and
he seemed like a little messenger of God to me, so sweet and innocent
and sinless, and yet, all mine, who was so wicked and ungrateful and
repining. I suppose I ought to have been very much ashamed of him,
but I never was. He seemed to say to me, when he looked up in my face
and smiled, whilst I was weeping over him: “Yes, you have been very
wicked, and you are very unhappy, but here I am, you see, sent straight
from God to comfort you. And, if you will be good for the future, He
will let me stay to make up to you for all you have lost.” It was silly
of me, wasn’t it? to fancy such things, but they comforted me, and so I
go on fancying them, even to this day. And baby has seemed to make me
think of God and bring me nearer to Him than I have ever been before.
And oh! Fred,’ she continued, bursting out into a sudden enthusiasm,
which she had never permitted herself to exhibit before, ‘he is such
a darling little creature, you can’t think, so fat and strong, and he
can toddle all over the place by himself. He was fourteen months old
yesterday. But I forgot,’ said Rhoda, suddenly checking herself; ‘I
oughtn’t to mention him to you now. It will hurt you to remember it.
Please forgive me, Fred. I should not have done it. It was a mistake.’

She looked at him, and, to her pity and surprise, saw that tears were
standing in his eyes.

‘Talk to me just as you will, Rhoda,’ he said, ‘I love to hear you. How
can I say I am glad you have this little child to comfort you, when I
remember all the shame and sorrow he has brought you, and of which I
am the cause? Yet, perhaps, God knows best, and sent him with a holy
purpose. May He bless you both, and reward you for your sweet, womanly
goodness to me. I cannot. Will you tell me some more about him?’ he
added, humbly.

‘Why, yes, of course, Fred, if you care to hear it! But mother says, if
I once begin talking of my black crow, as she calls him, I never stop.’

‘Is he so very dark, then?’ asked the young man, gazing at the girl’s
golden hair.

‘Oh! yes, not a bit like me, thank goodness! His eyes are like black
velvet, and so is his hair. I am glad of that. He reminds me of you!
And he has six teeth, and eats crusts like anything! And he can say
“muvver” and “danny” quite well!’

‘Nothing else?’ inquired Frederick, wistfully.

‘Only “sugar”,’ replied Rhoda, looking at him as much as to say, ‘How
can I teach him of a father he will never know?’

‘And your mother,’ continued Walcheren, ‘did she pronounce Anathema
Maranatha on me, Rhoda, for the shabby trick I played you?’

‘She was very, very angry at first, Fred. She could hardly help being
that; but she has been an angel of goodness to me all through. And she
is really very fond of Freddy, now!’

‘You called him after me!’ cried the young man, eagerly.

‘Was I wrong? Are you angry?’ said Rhoda, colouring from cheek to brow.

‘Angry! No! why should I be, only you might have called the poor
bantling after a better man.’

‘_I_ did not think so,’ said Rhoda, simply.

There was a long pause between them before the young man rose to take
his leave. How strange it seemed that, all at once, he had become timid
in the presence of this young girl who had such faith in him. They had
been so much to each other, and now they were so little; such a wide
gulf separated their interests and lives. And yet there was one tiny
link between them which neither could ever forget.

‘It is getting late! I must go,’ said Frederick, as he stood up and
held out his hand to her.

Rhoda took it in a lifeless manner. She dared not press it--it was the
hand of a priest, not of her lover. Yet, not to press it, and when he
was in trouble, seemed so hard. But she dropped it instead, as if her
own had no power to retain it.

‘Good-night!’ she murmured. ‘God bless you, Frederick, and help you
out of this new trouble. I shall go back to Luton by the first train
to-morrow.’

He longed to say ‘Don’t,’ but he dared not. Whatever lay in the future
for him, he must not say a word more than necessary to her, whilst he
wore those robes. So he said ‘Good-night!’ also, in an awkward manner,
as if he were ashamed to part with her so coldly, and turned away. But,
as he reached the door, he halted for a moment to add,--‘You have done
me so much good, I feel quite hopeful since I have seen you! God bless
you!’ and, nodding kindly, went his way.

And when he had disappeared, Rhoda sank down on her knees, and thanked
God that she had seen him again, and that he still thought of and
regarded her as a friend.




CHAPTER IX.


When Henry Hindes left the presence of Frederick Walcheren, he hailed a
hansom and ordered the driver to take him back to Hampstead. He was not
only unable to stand or walk, he was incapable of thinking. He lolled
back in the hansom like a dead body, and had barely strength to alight
at his own door. The servant who admitted him, used as he had been to
see his master look ill of late, ran down to the lower regions to say
that he believed ‘The guv’ner was dying, he seemed that bad.’ Hannah,
who, having heard his entrance, came smiling out into the hall to meet
him, was struck by his altered appearance, and exclaimed,--

‘What is the matter with you? Have you been ill? Are you in any pain?’

To all which, Hindes only said in answer,--

‘Be quiet! Hold your tongue! Am I destined never to have any peace?’

He pushed his way past her to the library, where she followed him.

‘How can you be so unkind and ungrateful, Henry? I was coming to tell
you a piece of good news, that I knew you would be glad to hear.’

‘Good news! What good news can there ever be for me again?’

‘I believe you will think it the very best you could receive. Doctor
Sewell has been here this afternoon, and brought Mr Lyndhurst with
him. They made a thorough examination of Wally, and Mr Lyndhurst says
we may set our minds completely at rest with regard to his spine being
permanently affected. It received a great shock by the concussion, but
all the dangerous symptoms have abated, and I am to let him get up for
a few hours to-morrow, and so gradually put him on his feet again. Now,
isn’t that good news?’ Hannah said sweetly, as she put her hand upon
her husband’s arm.

But Hindes did not smile, nor look at her. He jerked his arm roughly
from her detaining clasp instead, and, sinking down upon a sofa,
murmured,--

‘Too late! too late!’

‘Too late!’ exclaimed his wife, in a tone of surprise, ‘what do you
mean, Henry? Too late to have our dear child restored to us, safe and
sound again. I thought that was what you were praying for, with myself.
I thought the news would make you wild with joy. What are you thinking
of?’

‘Just what I say! I am thankful for the child’s sake, of course, but
the news comes too late for me. My secret is known, Hannah! I have
betrayed myself. The bloodhounds of justice are on my track.’

‘Good God!’ she said under her breath, ‘how did it happen? To whom did
you speak? What made you do it?’

‘My evil genius, I suppose,’ replied Hindes, grovelling on the sofa. ‘I
could not bear the misery and the suspense any longer. It was burning
into my soul like a red-hot iron, and I thought, if I confessed it, I
might find consolation. So I went into a Roman Catholic confessional
one day last week, and told my story to the priest. And who do you
suppose he turned out to be?’

‘How can I tell? I know no priests.’

‘Frederick Walcheren!’

‘Frederick Walcheren!’ cried his wife; ‘but how came he to be in a
confessional?’

‘He _is_ a priest! He entered the Church, it seems, after--after--you
know what! And I happened to enter his confessional! Was it not the
irony of Fate? The finger of Heaven, or the devil tracking me to my
destruction?’

‘But, Henry, the secrets of the confessional are sacred! I know so
much! It was most unfortunate that you should have committed such an
error as to confess your sin to _him_. But he cannot make any use of
his knowledge. So far, you are safe!’

‘But that is not the worst of it, Hannah! He recognised my voice and,
as I was leaving the accursed place, he showed his face at the open
door. It made me dread the worst. I thought he might find means to let
others learn what he had, or perhaps reveal it altogether. You never
know what these Roman Catholics may do. They have no honour!’

‘Don’t blame others, Henry,’ interposed Hannah, gently, ‘whilst you are
blameworthy yourself. Remember how deeply you have wronged this man.
Yet, Mr Walcheren was always a gentleman and a man of honour, and I do
not believe he would reveal a secret, however terrible, that had come
to his knowledge through such a channel.’

‘I wish I had thought the same. I wish I had consulted you before,’
groaned her husband, ‘but I feared the worst, and it weighed so on
my mind that I determined to visit him privately, and learn what he
intended to do. When I asked him, he said, as you do, that he was
forbidden, under the most heavy penalties, to repeat anything that he
might hear during his office as confessor. If I had only been content
with that. But his manner made me feel secure, and I wanted to make
myself look as little guilty as possible in his eyes, so I told him the
story over again, and then--’

‘Well, what then, Henry? Was there any harm in that?’ inquired Hannah.

‘I have d--d myself by it, that’s all!’ exclaimed Hindes, despairingly.
‘I had hardly finished when he told me that, although secrets told
under the seal of confession were inviolate, we were not in a
confessional at that moment, and it lay within his discretionary powers
to make what use of my revelation he chose.’

‘Oh! Henry, Henry!’ cried Hannah, ‘what have you done? What misery and
disgrace have you not brought upon us all?’

‘Yes, that’s right,’ he answered roughly; ‘think of the children and
yourself before me. And it’s all your fault, from beginning to end. Who
was it urged me to confess my sins and obtain forgiveness for them? Who
was it said that, if I humiliated myself, Heaven might have mercy on
Wally and give us back his health in exchange?’

‘And so He has!’ said Hannah, joyfully. ‘He _has_ accepted the painful
effort you have made, Henry, and rewarded it by giving us this fresh
hope of the boy’s recovery. Oh! my poor husband! have I been harsh to
you? I did not mean it! I was only shocked to think of the danger you
ran! But have no fear, dearest! I feel sure that God, who put it into
your heart to confess, will not let it lead you to public disgrace.
Frederick Walcheren will not betray your secret. I am sure of it! Let
_me_ go to him, Henry, and plead to him for mercy and forbearance in
the name of myself and my little children. I feel certain he will not
refuse me, if it were only for dear Jenny’s sake, and my great love for
her.’

‘No, no!’ said Hindes, hoarsely; ‘you must do no such thing! You don’t
know him. He would spurn you from him. A woman cannot realise a man’s
feelings in such a matter. He loved her--he must feel like a wild
beast deprived of his prey. He would tread on you, or anyone who stood
in his path. He is thirsting for his revenge! He told me so, and when
I craved him for mercy in your name and the children’s, he only asked
what mercy I had shown him. Hannah! it is useless to ignore the fact.
My doom is fixed! If it is not the gallows, it is public and utter
disgrace.’

All the woman rose in Hannah’s breast at these words, and the man
before her was one to be protected and solaced and thought for.

‘It shall be neither, my dearest,’ she answered firmly; ‘only trust to
me. I have pondered over the difficulties that might happen in your
case, Henry, and I think I have found a way out of them. You are tired
and worn out with misery and suspense, my poor love. Let me think
for you. You must go to your room now, and try to rest. I will bring
you some dinner myself, for you mustn’t let the servants see you in
this state. I will sit up to-night, and get your clothes ready, and
pack your portmanteau, and to-morrow, instead of going to the city,
you shall take the train for Liverpool, and the first steamer for the
Argentine Republic. _There_ you will be safe from English laws, and
pursuit will be useless. As soon as you are fairly off, I will wind up
your affairs, and join you with the children. Trust everything to me.
Only look after your own safety.’

Henry Hindes raised his tear-stained face from the sofa cushions, and
stared at his wife.

‘_You!_’ he exclaimed, wonderingly. ‘_You_ will undertake to do all
this? But you have never been used to business in your life, Hannah.
How do you propose to take such a burden on your shoulders, and to
accomplish it?’

‘My love for you will teach me, Henry,’ she said simply. ‘Besides, do
not think I am so presumptuous as to suppose I can do it all by myself.
My uncle, Bailey, is an excellent man of business, remember, and our
solicitor will help me. The business may be sold something under value,
perhaps, but I promise I will consent to nothing rash, and all I shall
strive for is to realise the bulk of your money, and transmit it to
you in the Argentine, that you may make a home for me and the children
there.’

‘But it will be exile for life, Hannah. I shall never be able to show
my face in England again, remember.’

‘I only remember that I would rather spend the rest of my life in
the desert with you, Henry, than live without you anywhere,’ replied
Hannah, with a watery smile.

‘And you can feel thus for _me_--a murderer!’ said Hindes, wonderingly.

But she laid her hand upon his mouth.

‘I will not let you call yourself by that name, Henry,’ she said. ‘I
never think of you as such. I begin to believe, as you have sometimes
told me, that it was the effects of an unfortunate accident.’

‘God bless you! God bless you!’ cried the wretched man, bursting into
tears, as she took him in her arms and laid his weary head upon her
faithful bosom.

They talked over the plan she had suggested a little longer, and then
Hannah persuaded him to take some refreshment and to go upstairs to
his own room and rest. But, left alone again, all his fears returned.
The presence of his wife had a magnetic effect upon him, but, as soon
as she had withdrawn, he became a prey to the phantoms raised by his
uneasy conscience. He could not rest in his bed, but kept starting up,
fancying that he heard voices in the hall, or on the stairs, people
inquiring for him, demanding to see and speak with him, forcing their
way up to his bedroom, whilst Hannah tried in vain to bar their ingress.

She, on the contrary, though feeling a little nervous and uneasy at the
story her husband had brought home, fancied she saw a happier future
before them than she had dared to hope for. It was better for them
all, she thought, that matters had come to a crisis, and they were
compelled to leave the country, where they could never again live in
any comfort.

Once Henry was out of England, she would seek an interview with Mr
Walcheren, and ask his forbearance for the sake of her poor children,
who would have their innocent lives stained by the publicity of their
father’s crime. Once her husband was safe, she was sure she could
arrange everything to her own satisfaction, and, when she joined him,
they would begin a new life, unshadowed by fear or deceit.

She sat down quite cheerfully to her dinner, at which the master so
seldom appeared now that his absence was nothing remarkable, and
succeeded in making the attendants think that there was nothing more
wrong than usual. After dinner, she carried a cup of coffee up to her
husband with her own hands, but found him in an unaccountably nervous
condition, considering how hopeful he had been when she parted with
him.

‘Who is that downstairs?’ he asked, glancing fearfully at the door by
which she had entered, as if he thought someone would steal in after
her. ‘I heard voices. Whom have you been talking to?’

‘No one, dear, except the servants,’ replied his wife. ‘I met Ellen on
the stairs just now coming from Wally’s room, and she says the little
rogue is so free from pain to-night that he has been romping over the
bed.’

‘No, no! Not that!’ replied Hindes, fretfully. ‘There was someone else.
Don’t try to deceive me. A man’s voice. I heard it distinctly.’

‘Why should I deceive you, Henry?’ said Hannah, mildly. ‘I assure you,
you are mistaken. I have been quite alone since you came upstairs.’

‘I don’t believe it! You’re lying to me!’ he answered, glaring at her
with demoniacal eyes.

She was used to his vagaries, and found it best not to argue against
them. So she put the bedclothes over him carefully again, and,
stooping down, kissed him, and bade him go to sleep.

‘I shall come up very early to-night, you know, dear, in order to
arrange your things, and, if you wish it, I will rouse you then, but it
will be much better if you will try and sleep. You said just now, you
know, that you would be good, and let me manage everything for you--and
so I will. Only try and rest, for you will have so much fatigue
to-morrow.’

Her soothing had its usual effect on him, and he lay down and closed
his eyes, and murmured something about not deserving to have so good a
wife, which was eminently true.

Hannah occupied herself a little about the adjoining apartment, until
she thought he had dropped off again, and then went softly downstairs
again. What was her amazement to be met at the foot by one of her
servants, with the intelligence that a gentleman was waiting in the
drawing-room to see her.

‘A gentleman!’ she echoed; ‘what is his name, James?’

‘He did not give his name, ma’am. He asked for the master first, but I
said I thought he had gone up to bed, and then he said he would wait
and see. I think he’s some sort of a priest, if you please, ma’am; at
least, he looks like it.’

_Some sort of a priest!_ Hannah’s heart stood still at the words,
but she resolved to know what he came for. Perhaps it was Frederick
Walcheren himself, and, in that case, she would plead her own cause
to him. Without a moment’s delay, she passed down the corridor, and
entered the drawing-room. It _was_ Walcheren who stood before her!
Altered as he was by his dress, and the terrible experience he had
passed through, she recognised him at once. But he seemed rather taken
aback at her appearance. He had evidently not expected to see her,
and he neither came forward to meet her nor offered his hand. As for
Hannah, she stood trembling before him, as if he had been a judge.

‘Mrs Hindes, I believe,’ began Frederick, courteously, ‘but I am sorry
they troubled you, madam. It was your husband I came to see. I have a
little business with him.’

‘Yes, yes, I know. He has told me,’ replied poor Hannah. ‘We have no
secrets from each other, Mr Walcheren, and Henry has related to me the
whole account of his seeing you in the confessional and visiting you at
your private residence afterwards.’

‘He has told you his motives and what has passed between us?’ said the
young man, in astonishment.

‘Everything, sir, and I have known it from the beginning. Oh, Mr
Walcheren,’ she went on rapidly, ‘I was going to see you about it. I
wanted to plead to you for mercy for my poor children and myself. I
have no excuses to make for my unhappy husband. How could I have, when
Jenny’--here Hannah’s tears commenced to flow and her utterance became
choked with her sobs--‘when she was my very, very dearest friend? No
one mourned her loss more than I did, and to think--to think-- But my
wretched husband has lived in hell since that miserable day. He has
never known one happy moment. If any man ever repented a sin, he has
done his. Can you not find it in your heart, Mr Walcheren, to show him
a little mercy? It would be very noble of you if you would. Henry shall
never annoy you by his presence again. We are intending to leave the
country, never to return. Only, if you could find it in your heart to
spare him--to forgive as you hope to be forgiven--for the sake of his
little children, sir--’

She attempted to fall at his feet, but he raised her.

‘Mrs Hindes, you greatly distress me,’ he said. ‘I did not expect, nor
wish to see you when I came here to-night. I had but one object in
doing so--’

‘Yes, yes,’ she interposed, ‘I know it. To tell him to prepare for the
worst--to say you must, in justice to yourself and _her_ dear memory,
let the law take its course--and if you had only waited a few days, I
should have got him out of your reach.’

‘But, indeed, you are mistaken,’ replied Walcheren, ‘that was not my
intention. Of course, I don’t pretend to deny the awful feelings for
revenge which his story evoked in my breast against him. I loved--I
loved _her_ very dearly, Mrs Hindes--’

‘Oh, my darling, my darling,’ broke out Hannah.

‘And you loved her too,’ he proceeded, tenderly, ‘and must understand
what I felt on first hearing the awful story of her death. But that was
my first impression. I have reflected since--a friend of mine has been
probing my heart and motives for me, and setting things generally in a
clearer light, and the conclusion I have arrived at is, that I shall do
nothing more in the matter. I will bury my resentment in my lost wife’s
grave, and, though you must feel that I could never see, nor speak to
your husband again, yet he is safe from me. His secret is also safe, as
far as I am concerned. My lips shall never disclose it. I came here
to-night to tell him so.’

‘How--how can we ever thank you,’ whispered Hannah, through her tears.

‘Your thanks are not due to me, but to my friend. If she had not led my
thoughts the right way, they would not have gone there by themselves.
Set your mind at rest, therefore, Mrs Hindes. The matter is done with.
Will you tell your husband so from me?’

‘Oh! gladly, thankfully, Mr Walcheren. You have saved him. You have
saved us all. May God bless you and your friend for it!’

‘Thank you,’ he returned quietly, as he bowed and walked out into the
hall.

Hannah followed him there.

‘Do you go back by the station?’ she inquired. ‘May I send you home in
the carriage?’

‘No thank you!’ he answered, shuddering at the idea of using anything
that belonged to Henry Hindes. ‘I am a poor man now, and not used to
such luxuries. The station will suit me best.’

And then, without any greeting less formal than an inclination of his
head, Frederick Walcheren passed out of the hall door and went on his
way. Hannah guessed the reason. Dearly as she had loved the dead girl,
he could not persuade himself to shake hands with the wife of her
murderer. Perhaps it was best so. Frederick Walcheren would now pass
out of their lives for ever.

Henry Hindes, with his ears quickened by fear, had heard the opening
and shutting of the front door, and the slight conversation passing in
the hall. He had sprung out of his bed to listen, and crouched behind
his bedroom door. He had recognised Frederick Walcheren’s voice, and
caught the word ‘station’ twice repeated. Why had he come? What was
he there for? And what ‘station’ could he be speaking off? There was
but one solution of the mystery in the morbid ideas of Henry Hindes.
The conscience that makes cowards of us all, had transformed him
into a trembling poltroon, incapable of judging or arguing. Frederick
Walcheren was in The Old Hall, and there could be but one reason for
his coming there--to publicly denounce him as a murderer--to have him
arrested and dragged to prison--to pursue him until he landed him on
the scaffold, and saw the rope pulled that should hang him by the neck
till he was dead. But he shouldn’t--he shouldn’t--he had means by
which he could escape it yet. Why didn’t Hannah come up to tell him
what was going on? Could she be in league with his tormentors, after
all the protestations she had made to him an hour ago? Perhaps--it was
not unlikely--women were such arch deceivers, they would smile in your
face one moment, and draw a knife across your throat the next. Well!
he would escape her too!--no one should triumph over his public fall.
As he thought thus, Henry Hindes crept round to his chest of drawers
and groped in the dark for the lock, which he opened with the keys he
kept beneath his pillow. He found a bottle there--a bottle the shape
of which he knew full well, for had it not been his daily and nightly
companion for many months past? He knew it, and it knew him, he said
to himself, with a sardonic smile, that was half a sneer, and they
had never known each other better, nor valued each other more, than
they would do that night. But as he was about to re-enter his bed, he
remembered his little Wally lying in the next room, and thought he
would like to take a look at him first. So he crept into the adjoining
chamber, where the boy lay fast asleep, with one arm, thinned by
sickness, thrown above his head. Hindes put his lips reverently on the
little arm and then softly lay down beside his child.

Meanwhile, Hannah was feeling almost too thankful for words. How happy
she would make poor Henry when he next woke. No need for packing up in
a hurry now, and slinking out of England like a condemned criminal.
He might stay on in safety till he had wound up his own affairs, and
could start for the new land surrounded by his family.

‘What a relief! what a relief!’ she thought, as she went upstairs. ‘I
shall love and pray for the name of Walcheren to the last day of my
life!’

She peeped into Wally’s chamber first! There lay her child flushed with
sleep, and beside him, with one arm thrown round the boy’s body, was
her husband, white and weary looking, but apparently sound asleep as
well.

‘Poor fellow!’ mused Hannah, as she stood and gazed at him. ‘He is
utterly worn-out. I wonder what made him fancy getting into bed with
the child. Perhaps it was to make sure that I should not come up
without waking him. Henry dear,’ she said aloud, as she touched the
sleeper gently. ‘Henry! I have such good news, such lovely news for
you. Our worst troubles are over, darling! Wake up and hear what I have
to tell you!’

She stooped and kissed his cold cheek as she spoke, and the truth was
instantly revealed to her. Her husband slept so deeply that he would
never wake in this world again.

At the very moment when his doubts and fears were to be set at rest, he
had taken the law into his own hands and gone from this sphere to work
out his life’s punishment in another.




CHAPTER X.


A few days after this occurrence, Rhoda Berry was seated in her
mother’s cottage at Luton, plaiting straw. It was interesting to watch
her deft fingers weaving and interweaving the fine splits of straw,
until they formed a plait as delicate as that of a woman’s hair. The
operation appeared as intricate as that of lace-making, until the ends
were worked in and the Grecian pattern became visible.

At her feet sat, or rather tumbled, her baby boy, amusing himself also
with the ends of straw his mother dropped. Mrs Berry was bustling in
and out of the little kitchen meanwhile, occupied with her domestic
duties, and discussing, with some vehemence, the contents of a letter
she had received that morning.

‘I can’t think why you object to the idea, Rhoda,’ she said. ‘Here’s a
fine opportunity for us both to live like ladies again, and you almost
turn up your nose at it! My brother Will is not one to go from his
word, and you heard what he said, that since his wife is dead and he is
so lonely, with his only son at sea, he would be grateful if you and
I would take up our abode at King’s Farm for the rest of our lives. I
know what that means, Rhoda! That he intends to leave all he has to us.
Will is not the fellow to invite two women to his house like that, and
then leave them to starve. And this is next door to starvation. It’s
drudging from morning to night, and making a penny how and when we can.
And my brother keeps two house-servants, fancy that! And I should have
the management of them both!’

‘Mother, dear! why don’t you go, and leave me here? I am quite capable
of earning my own living, and you know the obstacle to my going to
King’s Farm. How could I take my baby there, to disgrace my uncle and
all his family? But it is a shame that my fault should be the means of
keeping you from a good home. Do write and accept this offer, mother,
and I shall do well enough in Luton, never fear. Why! I’m earning
thirty shillings a week now, even in the worst times. I shall do well
enough. That’s more than sufficient for me and baby. But I’ll never
take him into another man’s house to be scorned and pointed at.’

‘Now, Rhoda, what nonsense you talk!’ exclaimed Mrs Berry, impatiently.
‘As if anything would tempt me to part from you and the little crow! As
if you hadn’t suffered enough without your mother forsaking you, poor
girl! No, I’m not made of such stuff as that! Either we go to King’s
Farm together, or we don’t go at all. But I must say I would like to
see the roses back in your cheeks, Rhoda! You used to have such a fine
colour before you went up to London. It would do you and the little
crow such a world of good, too, to be running about the green fields
and lanes of Somersetshire, and to live amongst the cows and sheep and
chickens. You’d be another woman in a fortnight.’

‘I know I should, mother, but, you see, this is one of the good things
of this life that I have put away from me by my sin. It is part of the
penance God has called upon me to perform. And that I must prevent your
taking advantage of Uncle Will’s offer, also, makes it doubly hard to
bear.’

‘Why, you don’t suppose I could have any pleasure in it all whilst my
only girl was moping down here by herself, do you? It’s that bothering
little crow that sticks in the way. Suppose we get rid of him, Rhoda?’
said Mrs Berry, playfully. ‘Let’s drown him in the water-butt. No one
will be any the wiser, and it would be a blessing to get rid of him,
wouldn’t it, now?’

She expected to see Rhoda shake her head sadly at the proposal, but
she was not prepared to see her catch her child up and press it
passionately to her bosom, whilst she burst into a flood of tears.
That was so unlike her patient, humble, quiet Rhoda, that Mrs Berry
was fairly taken aback.

‘Why, my dear, my dear,’ she cried, ‘what is the matter? What have I
said to upset you so? I was only in fun, Rhoda. Surely you know that?
I wouldn’t harm a hair of the child’s head for all the wealth of the
Indies.’

‘Yes, mother, yes; I know it,’ replied the girl, still sobbing.
‘Only, I feel, I foresee that my poor bairn will be my curse and
yours, perhaps, through life. The trouble and the expense are
nothing--nothing. But it’s the shame that is so hard to bear, not only
for myself, but for you and him, poor lamb, when he is old enough to
understand.’

‘Ay, Rhoda, it’s what was prophesied long ago--the sins of the fathers
being visited on the children, but you mustn’t make too much of it.
You’ve had your share of fretting, goodness knows! and you’ll kill
yourself if you get no rest from it. You’re not over strong, my girl,
as it is. I’ve watched your cheeks grow thinner for many a day past,
and it’s worried me more than enough. This Mr Walcheren is as much dead
to you, Rhoda, as if he was in his grave, where I’m sure I wish to
goodness he had been before he had ever met you, and so you must try
not to think of him, and that’s why I’d like to see a few more miles
put between you. It does you no good to live so near London.’

‘Mother,’ said the girl, as she dried her wet eyes, ‘if you imagine for
a moment that I think of Fred in any other light than that of another
woman’s husband, you are very much mistaken. If he were free to marry
to-morrow, he wouldn’t ask _me_ to be his wife.’

(‘More shame for him,’ interpolated Mrs Berry.)

‘He is grieving too much to dream of marrying again, even if he were in
the world. His heart is buried in his wife’s grave.’

‘More shame for him,’ repeated her mother, ‘and with that poor little
child running about without a father to his name.’

‘Such a thing has never entered my imagination for a minute,’ continued
Rhoda. ‘I am glad that we are friends, and proud that he should
consider me worthy to give him advice, but there will never be anything
more between us. How could there be?’

‘I understood he had some idea of leaving the Church.’

‘He alluded to it, mother, but I do not suppose he will have the
courage to carry it out. It would take the spirit of a hero, or a
martyr, to brave the sneers and contempt and abuse of the world for
taking such a step. And Frederick was never very strong-minded. He must
have altered greatly since I knew him if he has the courage of his own
opinions.’

‘He’s not like you, then, my dear, who have, I verily believe, the
courage of a lion. But I mustn’t stop chattering any longer, or we
shall have no dinner to-day. But think over Uncle Will’s proposal
again, Rhoda, before you finally make up your mind. He’s too good a man
to throw a girl’s misfortune in her teeth. And we shall never get such
a chance again--never.’

Rhoda smiled faintly, but she shook her head all the same. Never had
her sin stared her so unpleasantly in the face before. To be disgraced
for Frederick’s sake--to bear her shame silently and alone--to have to
toil through life to maintain her child--all this she had realised long
ago, and made up her mind to bear courageously.

But to stand in the way of her mother’s well-doing--to have to see her
toiling, even to old age, because of her daughter’s fault--to know that
she stood between her and comfort, between her and the love of her own
family, between her and rest, and a home more fitted to her position
than the one they had occupied since Rhoda’s father died--_this_ was
the bitterest portion of the cup she had been called upon to drink.

When Mrs Berry had left her, the poor girl wept long and bitterly, as
she tried to decide whether it might not be her duty to bear the shame
and contempt which would be her share if she took her child amongst her
mother’s relations. It was hard to contemplate. She had hoped the worst
was over--that, the inhabitants of Luton having agreed to overlook her
misfortune, there would be no more unpleasantness to encounter, but if
it was to be for her mother’s sake--her dear mother, who had clung to
her through everything--she would pass through the fire a second time.
It was less than she deserved, she knew that, and, if needful, she
would be brave and bear it.

She dried her eyes again, and turned to recommence her work. But the
baby had got hold of her plait of straw, which had fallen to the
ground, and taken advantage of his mother’s abstraction to undo half of
it, and spoil the rest.

‘Oh, baby, baby!’ she cried. ‘How naughty you are. You have spoiled
poor mother’s work.’

As she spoke, and lifted the child in her arms, a shadow darkened the
threshold of the open door, and, glancing up, she encountered the
eyes of Frederick Walcheren fixed upon her. Rhoda rose in the utmost
confusion. She did not know what to say to him. She was as timid of
being caught with the child in her arms as if Frederick had never heard
of its existence. The first words she stammered were,--

‘_You!_ Oh, why have you come down here?’

‘Expressly to see you, Rhoda,’ he replied, ‘seeing that I know no one
else in Luton. And so this is the little chap, is it? He is a sturdy
fellow. And his eyes and hair are very dark, Rhoda.’

‘Yes,’ she answered in a low voice.

She could not understand why, under their present circumstances,
Frederick should care to allude to the likeness between her child and
himself. It jarred upon her. She put the baby down on the ground and
began plaiting the straw again.

‘Mayn’t I come in? Are you not going to ask me to sit down? I am
rather tired,’ said Frederick Walcheren, ‘and I have a good many things
to talk to you about.’

‘Oh! yes, forgive me,’ she replied, as she rose and set a chair for her
visitor at the opposite side of the little room.

‘Are you very much surprised to see me here, Rhoda?’ he commenced.

‘Yes! very! It is so unexpected. I don’t know what mother will say,’
replied the girl, in an uncertain tone.

‘I hope I may be able to relieve her mind. But you haven’t looked at
me, Rhoda.’

She raised her eyes then, and gave a little exclamation of surprise.

‘Oh! what is changed in you? What have you done to yourself? You look
so different!’

‘Cannot you see? I am in plain clothes.’

She recognised the alteration then. He wore a rough suit of grey tweed,
such as gentlemen sport in the country, with a coloured tie, and a
round hat.

‘You have discarded your cassock! What does this mean? Have you--can
you really have left the Church?’

‘I have indeed, Rhoda! Whatever my friends or enemies may think of
my determination, I have resolved to follow the dictates of my own
conscience, and be accountable to no one for my actions except God.’

The soft rose colour mounted to the girl’s cheeks with pleasure.

‘I am so glad,’ she whispered.

‘So you ought to be, for it is all your doing. Ever since I saw you
last, I have been unable to get those words out of my ears:

        “To thine own self be true,
  It follows, as the night, the day,
  Thou canst not then be false to any man.”

I was untrue to myself, Rhoda, when I allowed my friends to persuade me
to become a priest, but, at the time, I was in no fit state to judge of
anything. But I think I might have remained in it for ever, had it not
been for your encouragement and brave advice. I suppose I shall make a
great scandal amongst my brethren by leaving it, but they will not make
it more public than necessary. The churches always hush up anything
that does not redound to their credit. But I am willing, in this case,
to take all the blame on myself.’

‘And what are you going to do, Fred? You will not prosecute that
unfortunate man, I hope,’ said Rhoda, wistfully.

‘Ah! Rhoda, there is no need to do it! The temptation has been removed
from my way. He is dead.’

‘_Dead!_’ she echoed, wonderingly.

‘Yes. It is true. After I left you that evening, I found your
persuasions and arguments had taken such hold upon my mind that I
resolved to go on to this man’s dwelling at once and tell him he had
nothing to fear from me.’

‘Oh, Fred, how good of you!’ cried the girl, with tears in her eyes.

‘I did so, therefore, and saw the man’s wife, whom I found knew the
whole story, and thought I had come to accuse her husband openly of
the murder. I set her mind at rest on the subject, and she told me
he had determined to leave England the following day. He had retired
to rest, so I did not attempt to disturb him, knowing his wife would
tell him everything. The next day I received a letter from her to say
that, on going up to her husband’s room to communicate the news to
him, she found him lying dead on the same bed as his little child.
She tried to make out his was an ordinary sudden death, but, at the
coroner’s inquest that followed, I see they brought it in as suicide.
Undoubtedly, the poor wretch had taken poison under the fear of
detection. I had heard he was greatly addicted to the use of morphia.
Remorse had driven him out of his mind.’

‘And the poor wife and children--what will become of them?’ asked Rhoda.

‘They have plenty of this world’s goods, child, with which to make
themselves comfortable, and the peace of mind, let us hope, will come
with time. She has a very kind brother and sister-in-law, who flew
to her directly they heard the news of her husband’s death, and they
will doubtless be her firm friends in the future. And she has three
children, Rhoda, to look to for comfort. I am very glad of it, for she
is a good woman and wife and mother, and, I am told, believed in him to
the last.’

‘Poor lady,’ sighed Rhoda, ‘how sad for her to find him worthless of
her regard. The worst thing we can be called upon to bear is, to find
our love has been thrown away.’

‘As you threw yours away on me, Rhoda.’

‘No, I didn’t mean that,’ she answered, colouring. ‘I shouldn’t have
said it before you if I had.’

‘But _I_ mean it, Rhoda. I have been a scoundrel to you. I never saw
it more plainly than I do to-day, to find you hard at work, with this
child crawling at your feet.’

‘Don’t speak of it, Fred, please. It is past. Let the subject be
tabooed between us. What are your plans? Tell me what you intend to
do?’

‘I am going to leave the country, Rhoda. I don’t wish to bring more
discredit on my faith and family than I need, so I shall make my home
in a new land, and never offend their sight or hearing again. I am
penniless, as you know. Every farthing of my fine fortune has gone into
the coffers of the Church. I can’t say I don’t regret it, for I do; but
I must accept the loss as part of the penalty of not knowing my own
mind.’

‘Money does not make all the happiness of this world,’ said Rhoda,
softly.

‘No, but a considerable portion of it. However, least said, in this
case, soonest mended. Failing it, I must work with my hands for my
daily bread, which, perhaps, will be all the better for me. I shall
begin low, but shall hope to rise by-and-by. An old chum of mine has
lent me sufficient money to take me out of the country and settle me
down a bit, and I am going straight to another chum, who has a big
ranch out in the Rocky Mountains, and who, I know, will find me some
sort of work to do.’

‘But, Fred--’ began Rhoda, eagerly.

‘Wait a minute, my dear. I have something more to say to you. I shall
have to go, of course, any way, but you would make me so much happier
if you would go with me.’

‘_Go with you!_’ exclaimed Rhoda, looking up with startled eyes.

‘Yes, as my wife, of course. You didn’t suppose I was brute enough to
add an insult to the wrong I have done you.’

‘But, Fred, I am not worthy,’ cried the girl, with crimsoned cheeks.

‘Not worthy! Don’t make me feel a greater villain than I do, by saying
such a thing. Rhoda, dear, I never deceived you. You know I never
made what is called “love” to you in the old, thoughtless days, which
ended so disastrously for you. I didn’t love anybody at that time,
unless it was myself and my own selfish pleasures. I adored my poor
wife. I am not afraid to say that before you, because you are not
like other women. You like a man to speak the truth, not a lot of
lies and flattery. But, if ever I loved a woman in my life, you have
made me love you. If ever I felt that anyone was absolutely necessary
to my existence, I feel that of you. If ever a fellow-creature has
been a true, unselfish, trustworthy friend to me, it is you; and I am
only speaking the plain truth when I say, if you will come with me to
America and share my rough life there, you will make me far happier
than I ever expected to be again.’

Rhoda had slipped from her seat and was kneeling by his side, hiding
her face upon his hands.

‘Oh, my love, my love!’ she sobbed, ‘I cannot believe it. It is too
wonderful for me to believe. Oh! take me with you as your servant, your
slave, anything, so as I may remain near you in sickness or health, to
look after your comfort and minister to your wants.’

But he raised her up and sat her on his knee.

‘As my slave. Yes!’ he answered as he kissed her, ‘all wives who love
their husbands become slaves, but a slave that will be very near my
heart, Rhoda--a slave that shall be honoured above everyone in my
household. Is that a bargain, my dear? That we shall promise to be true
friends and counsellors to our lives’ end.’

‘Oh! Fred, I am so happy. I never thought or dreamt that it could come
to this. I should have been content to be your friend only for ever.’

‘Oh, no! you wouldn’t,’ he said, shaking his head; ‘and if you would,
I shouldn’t. But remember, I am a beggar, Rhoda. All those magic
bank-notes, that procured us so much pleasure in the old days, are gone
for ever. It is a hard lot I ask you to share with me. You are marrying
a gentleman who has nothing but the title to recommend him.’

‘But, Fred, it is not so,’ said the girl; ‘you forget that you made
Mr Sinclair invest five thousand pounds for baby. I never touched it,
darling! I never should have touched it during your lifetime. I told
Mr Sinclair so, and it is there for you to take when you choose. And,
though it is little to what you used to have, still, it is better than
nothing, isn’t it?’

‘Better than nothing! I should rather think so! Why, under the
circumstances, it is a fortune. But it is not mine, Rhoda! It belongs
to the little chap there!’

‘Oh, Fred, what nonsense! Who gave it him? Who has a better right to it
than you? Besides, you have given him value in exchange, twice told.’

‘What is that?’ inquired Frederick.

‘A father,’ she whispered.

At this juncture in bustled Mrs Berry from the kitchen, bearing a
smoking beefsteak pudding in her hands.

‘Now, Rhoda, my girl, it’s past two. Where’s the cloth?’ she began, but
finished up with, ‘My gracious! whom have we got here?’

Rhoda was too excited and happy to wait for introductions.

‘Mother! mother!’ she cried, springing to Mrs Berry’s arms, and nearly
upsetting the pudding altogether, ‘it’s my Fred, and he’s going to
marry me, and we’re going to the Rocky Mountains together, and oh,
mother! you will be able to go and keep Uncle Will’s house for him now
whilst we’re away.’

She clung to her mother, sobbing and laughing at the same time, whilst
Mrs Berry and Frederick Walcheren could only stand and gaze at one
another in astonishment.

‘Rhoda, Rhoda, my dear! be reasonable!’ at last said Frederick, as he
took her hand and tried to pull her away.

‘Reasonable! well, I wish she would!’ exclaimed Mrs Berry; ‘how am I to
be expected to understand all this scrimmage, when you’ve never had the
decency to tell me the man was in the house? _Your_ Fred, indeed! Why,
I thought your Fred was a Roman priest. Are you imposing on me, child?
and putting another young man on me instead of him?’

‘No, no! indeed, mother!’ said Rhoda, as she caught up her baby, and
prepared to leave the room. ‘Oh, Fred! explain the whole thing to
mother, and I’ll be back in a minute.’

She flew upstairs, and spent some time crying and cooing over her
child, and telling him, amidst her frantic kisses, what a dear, good
father he had, and how very, very much his mother loved them both. She
bathed her own eyes, too, and smoothed her golden hair, and descended
to the little parlour, blushing like a rose, but with eyes beaming with
gratitude and affection.

‘Well, here’s a pretty kettle of fish!’ exclaimed Mrs Berry, as her
daughter appeared; ‘and so you’re to be off to the United States in
another fortnight, and leave your poor mother to go to King’s Farm by
herself. A nice, dutiful daughter you are, upon my word!’

‘Oh, mother darling! you know it is the very thing you would have
chosen had you been given your wish!’ said the girl. ‘It is sad to
part, dear, but it is all for the best! You will be so happy and
comfortable with Uncle Will, and the next time I see England,’ she
added, in a whisper, ‘I shall not be ashamed, you know, to go down and
pay you and him a visit.’

‘Ah, my poor lamb!’ said her mother, looking fondly at her. ‘Thank God!
the shame you have borne so bravely is to be lifted off your brow at
last. Mr Walcheren, she has been a true and steadfast wife to you! God
grant you may reward her!’

Frederick Walcheren stretched out his hand, and drew Rhoda and her
child within the shelter of his arms.

‘May God forsake me,’ he answered, ‘if I ever make her weep again!’


THE END.


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Transcriber’s note

Minor punctuation errors have been changed without notice. The
following Printer errors have been changed.


  =CHANGED=  =FROM=                             =TO=
  Page 4:    “when be comes home”               “when he comes home”
  Page 8:    “England for awhile”               “England for while”
  Page 35:   “no more mad that you”             “no more mad than you”
  Page 59:   “his face here, I’l”               “his face here, I’ll”
  Page 70:   “his blood-shot eyes”              “his bloodshot eyes”
  Page 72:   “of every-day life”                “of everyday life”
  Page 80:   “its lustre less eyes”             “its lustreless eyes”
  Page 90:   “wont know yourself”               “won’t know yourself”
  Page 122:  “he had a great burthen”           “he had a great burden”
  Page 139:  “it’s proper light”                “its proper light”
  Page 149:  “push backwards insteads”          “push backwards instead”
  Page 157:  “meet ber death”                   “meet her death”
  Page 158:  “where Catholics tells”            “where Catholics tell”
  Page 162:  “dear Fred, some one”              “dear Fred, someone”
  Page 173:  “--any-one of which”               “--any one of which”
  Page 174:  “effect! At anyrate,”              “effect! At any rate,”
  Page 217:  “why have you came”                “why have you come”
  Page 224:  “ranche out in the Rocky”          “ranch out in the Rocky”
  Page 235:  “MAURICE GRIEFFENHAGEN”            “MAURICE GREIFFENHAGEN”
  Page 247:  “GRAVE LADY JANE. by”              “GRAVE LADY JANE. By”
  Page 248:  “Its Action is o  a”               “Its Action is of a”
  Page 248:  “in their way, w th”               “in their way, with”