THE LONG ROAD OF WOMAN’S MEMORY




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                           THE LONG ROAD OF
                            WOMAN’S MEMORY


                                  BY

                              JANE ADDAMS

                AUTHOR OF “TWENTY YEARS AT HULL HOUSE”
                     “THE SPIRIT OF YOUTH AND THE
                          CITY STREETS,” ETC.


                               New York
                         THE MACMILLAN COMPANY
                                 1916

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                       BY THE MACMILLAN COMPANY.

           Set up and electrotyped. Published October, 1916.


                             Norwood Press
                J. S. Cushing Co.--Berwick & Smith Co.
                        Norwood, Mass., U.S.A.




                           TO MY DEAR FRIEND

                           MARY H. WILMARTH

            WHOSE MEMORY STORED WITH THE BEST IN LITERATURE
             AND WHOSE FINE PUBLIC SPIRIT ARE DAILY PLACED
                 AT THE SERVICE OF HER FRIENDS AND OF
                     HER CITY, WITH A GALLANT AND
                            GENTLE COURTESY




                               CONTENTS


                                                                    PAGE

  INTRODUCTION                                                        ix

  I. WOMEN’S MEMORIES--TRANSMUTING THE PAST, AS ILLUSTRATED BY THE
  STORY OF THE DEVIL BABY                                              1

  II. WOMEN’S MEMORIES--REACTING ON LIFE, AS ILLUSTRATED BY THE
  STORY OF THE DEVIL BABY                                             25

  III. WOMEN’S MEMORIES--DISTURBING CONVENTIONS                       53

  IV. WOMEN’S MEMORIES--INTEGRATING INDUSTRY                          84

  V. WOMEN’S MEMORIES--CHALLENGING WAR                               115

  VI. A PERSONAL EXPERIENCE IN INTERPRETATIVE MEMORY                 141




                             INTRODUCTION


For many years at Hull-House I have at intervals detected in certain
old people, when they spoke of their past experiences, a tendency to an
idealization, almost to a romanticism suggestive of the ardent dreams
and groundless ambitions we have all observed in the young when they
recklessly lay their plans for the future.

I have, moreover, been frequently impressed by the fact that
these romantic revelations were made by old people who had really
suffered much hardship and sorrow, and that the transmutation of
their experiences was not the result of ignoring actuality, but was
apparently due to a power inherent in memory itself.

It was therefore a great pleasure when I found this aspect of memory
delightfully portrayed by Sir Gilbert Murray in his life of Euripides.
He writes that the aged poet, when he was officially made one of
the old men of Athens, declared that he could transmute into song
traditional tales of sorrow and wrong-doing because, being long past,
they had already become part mystery and part music: “Memory, that
Memory who is the Mother of the Muses, having done her work upon them.”

Here was an explanation which I might have anticipated; it was the
Muses again at their old tricks,--the very mother of them this
time,--thrusting their ghostly fingers into the delicate fabric of
human experience to the extreme end of life. I had known before that
the Muses foregathered with the Spirit of Youth and I had even made a
feeble attempt to portray that companionship, but I was stupid indeed
not to see that they are equally at home with the aged whose prosaic
lives sadly need such interference.

Even with this clue in my hands, so preoccupied are we all with our own
practical affairs, I probably should never have followed it, had it not
been for the visit of a mythical Devil Baby who so completely filled
Hull-House with old women coming to see him, that for a period of six
weeks I could perforce do little but give them my attention.

When this excitement had subsided and I had written down the
corroboration afforded by their eager recitals in the first two
chapters of this book, I might have supposed myself to be rid of the
matter, incidentally having been taught once more that, while I may
receive valuable suggestions from classic literature, when I really
want to learn about life, I must depend upon my neighbors, for, as
William James insists, the most instructive human documents lie along
the beaten pathway.

The subject, however, was not so easily disposed of, for certain
elderly women among these selfsame neighbors disconcertingly took quite
another line from that indicated by Euripides. To my amazement, their
reminiscences revealed an additional function of memory, so aggressive
and withal so modern, that it was quite impossible, living as I was in
a Settlement with sociological tendencies, to ignore it.

It was gradually forced upon my attention that these reminiscences
of the aged, even while softening the harsh realities of the past,
exercise a vital power of selection which often necessitates an onset
against the very traditions and conventions commonly believed to find
their stronghold in the minds of elderly people. Such reminiscences
suggested an analogy to the dreams of youth which, while covering the
future with a shifting rose-colored mist, contain within themselves the
inchoate substance from which the tough-fibred forces of coming social
struggles are composed.

In the light of this later knowledge, I was impelled to write the
next two chapters of this book, basing them upon conversations held
with various women of my acquaintance whose experience in family
relationships or in the labor market had so forced their conduct to a
variation from the accepted type that there emerged an indication of a
selective groping toward another standard. They inevitably suggested
that a sufficient number of similar variations might even, in Memory’s
leisurely fashion of upbuilding tradition, in the end establish a new
norm.

Some of these women, under the domination of that mysterious
autobiographical impulse which makes it more difficult to conceal
the truth than to avow it, purged their souls in all sincerity and
unconsciously made plain the part borne in their hard lives by
monstrous social injustices.

These conversations proved to be so illustrative of my second thesis
that it seemed scarcely necessary to do more than record them. The
deduction was obvious that mutual reminiscences perform a valuable
function in determining analogous conduct for large bodies of people
who have no other basis for like-mindedness.

So gradual is this process, so unconsciously are these converts under
Memory’s gentle coercion brought into a spiritual fellowship, that the
social changes thus inaugurated, at least until the reformers begin
to formulate them and to accelerate the process through propaganda,
take on the aspect of beneficent natural phenomena. And yet, curiously
enough, I found that the two functions of Memory--first, its important
rôle in interpreting and appeasing life for the individual, and second
its activity as a selective agency in social reorganization--were
not mutually exclusive, and at moments seemed to support each other.
Certain conversations even suggested that the selective process itself
might be held responsible for the softened outlines of the past to
one looking back, by the natural blurring of nonessentials and the
consequent throwing into high relief of common human experiences.

The insistence of Memory upon the great essentials, even to the
complete sacrifice of its inherent power to appease, was most
poignantly brought to my attention during two months I spent in Europe
in the summer of 1915. Desolated women, stripped by war of all their
warm domestic interests and of children long cherished in affectionate
solicitude, sat shelterless in the devastating glare of Memory. Because
by its pitiless light they were forced to look into the black depths of
primitive human nature, occasionally one of these heart-broken women
would ignore the strident claims of the present and would insist that
the war was cutting at the very taproots of the basic human relations
so vitally necessary to the survival of civilization. I cannot hope
to have adequately reproduced in Chapter V those conversations which
themselves partook of the grim aspect of war.

It was during this cataclysmic summer in Europe that I sometimes sought
for a solace, or at least for a source of sanity, by resting my mind
on the immemorial monuments of ancient Egypt, from which I had once
received an almost mystic assurance of the essential unity of man’s
age-long spiritual effort. But because such guarding of continuity as
Egypt had afforded me had been associated with an unexpected revival
of childish recollections, I found that Memory was a chief factor
also in this situation. Therefore, in spite of the fact that these
reminiscences of my childhood were vividly resuscitated in Egypt by
a process which postulates a reversal of the one described in the
first two chapters of this book, I venture to incorporate my personal
experience in the last chapter. It may suggest one more of our
obligations to Memory, that Protean Mother, who first differentiated
primitive man from the brute; who makes possible our complicated modern
life so daily dependent on the experiences of the past; and upon whom
at the present moment is thrust the sole responsibility of guarding,
for future generations, our common heritage of mutual good-will.




                    THE LONG ROAD OF WOMAN’S MEMORY

                               CHAPTER I

WOMEN’S MEMORIES--TRANSMUTING THE PAST, AS ILLUSTRATED BY THE STORY OF
                            THE DEVIL BABY


Quite as it would be hard for any one of us to select the summer in
which he ceased to live that life, so ardent in childhood and early
youth, when all the real happenings are in the future, so it must be
difficult for old people to tell at what period they began to regard
the present chiefly as a prolongation of the past. There is no doubt,
however, that such instinctive shiftings and reversals have taken place
for many old people who, under the control of Memory, are actually
living much more in the past than in the ephemeral present.

It is most fortunate, therefore, that in some subtle fashion these
old people, reviewing the long road they have travelled, are able to
transmute their own untoward experiences into that which seems to make
even the most wretched life acceptable. This may possibly be due to an
instinct of self-preservation, which checks the devastating bitterness
that would result did they recall over and over again the sordid detail
of events long past; it is even possible that those people who were not
able thus to inhibit their bitterness have died earlier, for as one old
man recently reminded me, “It is a true word that worry can kill a cat.”

This permanent and elemental function of Memory was graphically
demonstrated at Hull-House during a period of several weeks when we
were reported to be harboring within its walls a so-called “Devil Baby.”

The knowledge of his existence burst upon the residents of Hull-House
one day when three Italian women, with an excited rush through the
door, demanded that he be shown to them. No amount of denial convinced
them that he was not there, for they knew exactly what he was like with
his cloven hoofs, his pointed ears and diminutive tail; the Devil Baby
had, moreover, been able to speak as soon as he was born and was most
shockingly profane.

The three women were but the forerunners of a veritable multitude;
for six weeks from every part of the city and suburbs the streams of
visitors to this mythical baby poured in all day long and so far into
the night that the regular activities of the settlement were almost
swamped.

The Italian version, with a hundred variations, dealt with a pious
Italian girl married to an atheist. Her husband in a rage had torn
a holy picture from the bedroom wall saying that he would quite as
soon have a devil in the house as such a thing, whereupon the devil
incarnated himself in her coming child. As soon as the Devil Baby was
born, he ran about the table shaking his finger in deep reproach at
his father, who finally caught him and, in fear and trembling, brought
him to Hull-House. When the residents there, in spite of the baby’s
shocking appearance, wishing to save his soul, took him to church
for baptism, they found that the shawl was empty and the Devil Baby,
fleeing from the holy water, was running lightly over the backs of the
pews.

The Jewish version, again with variations, was to the effect that the
father of six daughters had said before the birth of a seventh child
that he would rather have a devil in the family than another girl,
whereupon the Devil Baby promptly appeared.

Save for a red automobile which occasionally figured in the story and
a stray cigar which, in some versions, the new-born child had snatched
from his father’s lips, the tale might have been fashioned a thousand
years ago.

Although the visitors to the Devil Baby included persons of every
degree of prosperity and education, even physicians and trained nurses,
who assured us of their scientific interest, the story constantly
demonstrated the power of an old wives’ tale among thousands of men
and women in modern society who are living in a corner of their
own, their vision fixed, their intelligence held by some iron chain
of silent habit. To such primitive people the metaphor apparently is
still the very “stuff of life,” or rather no other form of statement
reaches them; the tremendous tonnage of current writing for them has no
existence. It was in keeping with their simple habits that the reputed
presence of the Devil Baby should not reach the newspapers until the
fifth week of his sojourn at Hull-House--after thousands of people had
already been informed of his whereabouts by the old method of passing
news from mouth to mouth.

For six weeks as I went about the house, I would hear a voice at the
telephone repeating for the hundredth time that day, “No, there is no
such baby”; “No, we never had it here”; “No, he couldn’t have seen
it for fifty cents”; “We didn’t send it anywhere, because we never
had it”; “I don’t mean to say that your sister-in-law lied, but there
must be some mistake”; “There is no use getting up an excursion from
Milwaukee, for there isn’t any Devil Baby at Hull-House”; “We can’t
give reduced rates, because we are not exhibiting anything”; and so
on and on. As I came near the front door, I would catch snatches of
arguments that were often acrimonious: “Why do you let so many people
believe it, if it isn’t here?” “We have taken three lines of cars to
come and we have as much right to see it as anybody else”; “This is a
pretty big place, of course you could hide it easy enough”; “What are
you saying that for, are you going to raise the price of admission?”

We had doubtless struck a case of what the psychologists call the
“contagion of emotion” added to that “æsthetic sociability” which
impels any one of us to drag the entire household to the window when
a procession comes into the street or a rainbow appears in the sky.
The Devil Baby of course was worth many processions and rainbows, and
I will confess that, as the empty show went on day after day, I quite
revolted against such a vapid manifestation of even an admirable human
trait. There was always one exception, however; whenever I heard the
high eager voices of old women, I was irresistibly interested and left
anything I might be doing in order to listen to them. As I came down
the stairs, long before I could hear what they were saying, implicit in
their solemn and portentous old voices came the admonition:--

  “Wilt thou reject the past
  Big with deep warnings?”

It was a very serious and genuine matter with the old women, this
story so ancient and yet so contemporaneous, and they flocked to
Hull-House from every direction; those I had known for many years,
others I had never known and some whom I had supposed to be long dead.
But they were all alive and eager; something in the story or in its
mysterious sequences had aroused one of those active forces in human
nature which does not take orders, but insists only upon giving them.
We had abruptly come in contact with a living and self-assertive human
quality!

During the weeks of excitement it was the old women who really seemed
to have come into their own, and perhaps the most significant result
of the incident was the reaction of the story upon them. It stirred
their minds and memories as with a magic touch, it loosened their
tongues and revealed the inner life and thoughts of those who are so
often inarticulate. They are accustomed to sit at home and to hear the
younger members of the family speak of affairs quite outside their
own experiences, sometimes in a language they do not understand, and
at best in quick glancing phrases which they cannot follow; “More
than half the time I can’t tell what they are talking about,” is an
oft-repeated complaint. The story of the Devil Baby evidently put into
their hands the sort of material with which they were accustomed to
deal. They had long used such tales in their unremitting efforts at
family discipline, ever since they had frightened their first children
into awed silence by tales of bugaboo men who prowled in the darkness.

These old women enjoyed a moment of triumph--as if they had made good
at last and had come into a region of sanctions and punishments which
they understood. Years of living had taught them that recrimination
with grown-up children and grandchildren is worse than useless, that
punishments are impossible, that domestic instruction is best given
through tales and metaphors.

As the old women talked with the new volubility which the story of the
Devil Baby had released in them, going back into their long memories
and urging its credibility upon me, the story seemed to condense
that mystical wisdom which becomes deposited in the heart of man by
unnoticed innumerable experiences.

Perhaps my many conversations with these aged visitors crystallized
thoughts and impressions I had been receiving through years, or the
tale itself may have ignited a fire, as it were, whose light illumined
some of my darkest memories of neglected and uncomfortable old age,
of old peasant women who had ruthlessly probed into the ugly depths
of human nature in themselves and others. Many of them who came to
see the Devil Baby had been forced to face tragic experiences, the
powers of brutality and horror had had full scope in their lives and
for years they had had acquaintance with disaster and death. Such old
women do not shirk life’s misery by feeble idealism, for they are long
past the stage of make-believe. They relate without flinching the most
hideous experiences: “My face has had this queer twist for now nearly
sixty years; I was ten when it got that way, the night after I saw my
father do my mother to death with his knife.” “Yes, I had fourteen
children; only two grew to be men and both of them were killed in the
same explosion. I was never sure they brought home the right bodies.”
But even the most hideous sorrows which the old women related had
apparently subsided into the paler emotion of ineffectual regret, after
Memory had long done her work upon them; the old people seemed, in some
unaccountable way, to lose all bitterness and resentment against life,
or rather to be so completely without it that they must have lost it
long since.

None of them had a word of blame for undutiful children or heedless
grandchildren, because apparently the petty and transitory had fallen
away from their austere old age, the fires were burnt out, resentments,
hatreds, and even cherished sorrows had become actually unintelligible.

Perhaps those women, because they had come to expect nothing more
from life and had perforce ceased from grasping and striving, had
obtained, if not renunciation, at least that quiet endurance which
allows the wounds of the spirit to heal. Through their stored-up habit
of acquiescence, they offered a fleeting glimpse of the translucent
wisdom, so often embodied in the old, but so difficult to portray. It
is doubtless what Michael Angelo had in mind when he made the Sybils
old, what Dante meant by the phrase “those who had learned of life,”
and the age-worn minstrel who turned into song a Memory which was more
that of history and tradition than his own.

In contrast to the visitors to the Devil Baby who spoke only such words
of groping wisdom as they were able, were other old women who, although
they had already reconciled themselves to much misery, were still
enduring more: “You might say it’s a disgrace to have your son beat
you up for the sake of a bit of money you’ve earned by scrubbing--your
own man is different--but I haven’t the heart to blame the boy for
doing what he’s seen all his life, his father forever went wild when
the drink was in him and struck me to the very day of his death. The
ugliness was born in the boy as the marks of the Devil was born in the
poor child up-stairs.”

Some of these old women had struggled for weary years with poverty and
much childbearing, had known what it was to be bullied and beaten by
their husbands, neglected and ignored by their prosperous children, and
burdened by the support of the imbecile and the shiftless ones. They
had literally gone “Deep written all their days with care.”

One old woman actually came from the poorhouse, having heard of the
Devil Baby “through a lady from Polk Street visiting an old friend who
has a bed in our ward.” It was no slight achievement for the penniless
and crippled old inmate to make her escape. She had asked “a young
bar-keep in a saloon across the road” to lend her ten cents, offering
as security the fact that she was an old acquaintance at Hull-House who
could not be refused so slight a loan. She marvelled at some length
over the goodness of the young man, for she had not had a dime to
spend for a drink for the last six months, and he and the conductor
had been obliged to lift her into the street car by main strength. She
was naturally much elated over the achievement of her escape. To be
sure, from the men’s side, they were always walking off in the summer
and taking to the road, living like tramps they did, in a way no one
from the woman’s side would demean herself to do; but to have left in
a street car like a lady, with money to pay her own fare, was quite
a different matter, although she was indeed “clean wore out” by the
effort. However, it was clear that she would consider herself well
repaid by a sight of the Devil Baby and that not only the inmates of
her own ward, but those in every other ward in the house would be made
to “sit up” when she got back; it would liven them all up a bit, and
she hazarded the guess that she would have to tell them about that baby
at least a dozen times a day.

As she cheerfully rambled on, we weakly postponed telling her there was
no Devil Baby, first that she might have a cup of tea and rest, and
then through a sheer desire to withhold a blow from a poor old body who
had received so many throughout a long, hard life.

As I recall those unreal weeks, it was in her presence that I found
myself for the first time vaguely wishing that I could administer
comfort by the simple device of not asserting too dogmatically that the
Devil Baby had never been at Hull-House.

Our guest recalled with great pride that her grandmother had possessed
second sight; that her mother had heard the Banshee three times and
that she, herself, had heard it once. All this gave her a certain
proprietary interest in the Devil Baby and I suspected she cherished a
secret hope that when she should lay her eyes upon him, her inherited
gifts might be able to reveal the meaning of the strange portent. At
the least, he would afford a proof that her family-long faith in such
matters was justified. Her misshapen hands lying on her lap fairly
trembled with eagerness.

It may have been because I was still smarting under the recollection
of the disappointment we had so wantonly inflicted upon our visitor
from the poorhouse that the very next day I found myself almost
agreeing with her whole-hearted acceptance of the past as of much more
importance than the mere present; at least for half an hour the past
seemed endowed also for me with a profounder and more ardent life.

This impression was received in connection with an old woman, sturdy
in her convictions, although long since bedridden, who had doggedly
refused to believe that there was no Devil Baby at Hull-House, unless
“herself” told her so. Because of her mounting irritation with the
envoys who one and all came back to her to report “they say it ain’t
there,” it seemed well that I should go promptly before “she fashed
herself into the grave.” As I walked along the street and even as I
went up the ramshackle outside stairway of the rear cottage and through
the dark corridor to the “second floor back” where she lay in her
untidy bed, I was assailed by a veritable temptation to give her a full
description of the Devil Baby, which by this time I knew so accurately
(for with a hundred variations to select from I could have made a
monstrous infant almost worthy of his name), and also to refrain from
putting too much stress on the fact that he had never been really and
truly at Hull-House.

I found my mind hastily marshalling arguments for not disturbing
her belief in the story which had so evidently brought her a vivid
interest long denied her. She lived alone with her young grandson, who
went to work every morning at seven o’clock and save for the short
visits made by the visiting nurse and by kind neighbors, her long day
was monotonous and undisturbed. But the story of a Devil Baby, with
his existence officially corroborated as it were, would give her a
lodestone which would attract the neighbors far and wide and exalt her
once more into the social importance she had had twenty-four years
before when I had first known her. She was then the proprietor of
the most prosperous second-hand store on a street full of them, her
shiftless, drinking husband and her jolly, good-natured sons doing
exactly what she told them to do. This, however, was long past, for
“owing to the drink,” in her own graphic phrase, “the old man, the
boys, and the business, too, were clean gone” and there was “nobody
left but little Tom and me and nothing for us to live on.”

I remember how well she used to tell a story when I once tried to
collect some folk-lore for Mr. Yeats to prove that an Irish peasant
does not lose his faith in the little people nor his knowledge of
Gaelic phrases simply because he is living in a city. She had at that
time told me a wonderful tale concerning a red cloak worn by an old
woman to a freshly dug grave. The story of the Devil Baby would give
her material worthy of her powers, but of course she must be able to
believe it with all her heart. She could live only a few months at the
very best, I argued to myself; why not give her this vivid interest and
through it awake those earliest recollections of that long-accumulated
folk-lore with its magic power to transfigure and eclipse the sordid
and unsatisfactory surroundings in which life is actually spent? I
solemnly assured myself that the imagination of old age needs to be fed
and probably has quite as imperious a claim as that of youth, which
levies upon us so remorselessly with its “I want a fairy story, but I
don’t like you to begin by saying that it isn’t true.” Impatiently I
found myself challenging the educators who had given us no pedagogical
instructions for the treatment of old age, although they had fairly
overinformed us as to the use of the fairy tale with children.

The little room was stuffed with a magpie collection, the usual odds
and ends which compose an old woman’s treasures, augmented in this
case by various articles which a second-hand store, even of the most
flourishing sort, could not sell. In the picturesque confusion, if
anywhere in Chicago, an urbanized group of the little people might
dwell; they would certainly find the traditional atmosphere which they
strictly require, marvelling faith and unalloyed reverence. At any
rate, an eager old woman aroused to her utmost capacity of wonder and
credulity was the very soil, prepared to a nicety, for planting the
seed-thought of the Devil Baby. If the object of my errand had been
an hour’s reading to a sick woman, it would have been accounted to me
for philanthropic righteousness, and if the chosen reading had lifted
her mind from her bodily discomforts and harassing thoughts so that
she forgot them all for one fleeting moment, how pleased I should have
been with the success of my effort. But here I was with a story at my
tongue’s end, stupidly hesitating to give it validity, although the
very words were on my lips. I was still arguing the case with myself
when I stood on the threshold of her room and caught the indomitable
gleam of her eye, fairly daring me to deny the existence of the Devil
Baby, her slack dropsical body so responding to her overpowering
excitement that for the moment she looked alert in her defiance and
positively menacing.

But, as in the case of many another weak soul, the decision was taken
out of my hands, my very hesitation was enough, for nothing is more
certain than that the bearer of a magic tale never stands dawdling on
the door-step. Slowly the gleam died out of the expectant old eyes, the
erect shoulders sagged and pulled forward, and I saw only too plainly
that the poor old woman had accepted one more disappointment in a life
already overflowing with them. She was violently thrown back into all
the limitations of her personal experience and surroundings, and that
larger life she had anticipated so eagerly was as suddenly shut away
from her as if a door had been slammed in her face.

I never encountered that particular temptation again, though she was no
more pitiful than many of the aged visitors whom the Devil Baby brought
to Hull-House. But, perhaps as a result of this experience, I gradually
lost the impression that the old people were longing for a second
chance at life, to live it all over again and to live more fully and
wisely, and I became more reconciled to the fact that many of them had
little opportunity for meditation or for bodily rest, but must keep on
working with their toil-worn hands, in spite of weariness or faintness
of heart.

The vivid interest of so many old women in the story of the Devil
Baby may have been an unconscious, although powerful, testimony that
tragic experiences gradually become dressed in such trappings in order
that their spent agony may prove of some use to a world which learns
at the hardest; and that the strivings and sufferings of men and
women long since dead, their emotions no longer connected with flesh
and blood, are thus transmuted into legendary wisdom. The young are
forced to heed the warning in such a tale, although for the most part
it is so easy for them to disregard the words of the aged. That the
old women who came to visit the Devil Baby believed that the story
would secure them a hearing at home was evident, and as they prepared
themselves with every detail of it, their old faces shone with a timid
satisfaction. Their features, worn and scarred by harsh living, as
effigies built into the floor of an old church become dim and defaced
by rough-shod feet, grew poignant and solemn. In the midst of their
double bewilderment, both that the younger generation was walking in
such strange paths and that no one would listen to them, for one moment
there flickered up the last hope of a disappointed life, that it may
at least serve as a warning, while affording material for an exciting
narrative.

Sometimes in talking to a woman who was “but a hair’s breadth this
side of the darkness,” I realized that old age has its own expression
for the mystic renunciation of the world. Their impatience with all
non-essentials, the craving to be free from hampering bonds and soft
conditions, recalled Tolstoy’s last impetuous journey, and I was once
more grateful to his genius for making clear another unintelligible
impulse of bewildered humanity.

Often, in the midst of a conversation, one of these touching old women
would quietly express a longing for death, as if it were a natural
fulfilment of an inmost desire, with a sincerity and anticipation so
genuine that I would feel abashed in her presence, ashamed to “cling
to this strange thing that shines in the sunlight and to be sick with
love for it.” Such impressions were, in their essence, transitory, but
one result from the hypothetical visit of the Devil Baby to Hull-House
will, I think, remain: a realization of the sifting and reconciling
power inherent in Memory itself. The old women, with much to aggravate
and little to soften the habitual bodily discomforts of old age,
exhibited an emotional serenity so vast and so reassuring, that I
found myself perpetually speculating upon how soon the fleeting and
petty emotions which now seem unduly important to us might be thus
transmuted; at what moment we might expect the inconsistencies and
perplexities of life to be brought under this appeasing Memory with its
ultimate power to increase the elements of beauty and significance and
to reduce, if not to eliminate, all sense of resentment.




                              CHAPTER II

 WOMEN’S MEMORIES--REACTING ON LIFE AS ILLUSTRATED BY THE STORY OF THE
                              DEVIL BABY


During the weeks when the Devil Baby seemed to occupy every room in
Hull-House, I was conscious that all human vicissitudes are, in the
end, melted down into reminiscence, and that a metaphorical statement
of the basic experiences which are implicit in human nature itself,
however crude in form the story may be, has a singular power of
influencing daily living.

At moments we also seemed to glimpse the process through which such
tales had been evolved. As our visitors to the Devil Baby came day by
day, it gradually became evident that the simpler women were moved
not wholly by curiosity, but that many of them prized the story as a
valuable instrument in the business of living. From them and from
the surprising number of others who had been sent by the aged and the
bed-ridden to secure an exact history and description of the child,
the suggestion finally became quite irresistible that such a story,
outlining a great abstraction, may once have performed the high service
of tradition and discipline in the beginnings of a civilized family
life.

The legend exhibited all the persistence of one of those tales which
has doubtless been preserved through the centuries because of its
taming effects upon recalcitrant husbands and fathers. Shamefaced men
brought to Hull-House by their women folk to see the baby, but ill
concealed their triumph when there proved to be no such visible sign of
retribution for domestic derelictions. On the other hand, numbers of
men came by themselves, one group from a neighboring factory on their
“own time” offered to pay twenty-five cents, a half dollar, two dollars
apiece to see the child, insisting that it must be at Hull-House
because “the women had seen it.” To my query as to whether they
supposed we would, for money, exhibit a poor little deformed baby, if
one had been born in the neighborhood, they replied: “Sure, why not?”
and “it teaches a good lesson, too,” they added as an afterthought, or
perhaps as a concession to the strange moral standards of a place like
Hull-House. All the members in this group of hard-working men, in spite
of a certain swagger towards one another and a tendency to bully the
derelict showman, wore a hang-dog look betraying that sense of unfair
treatment which a man is so apt to feel when his womankind makes an
appeal to the supernatural. In their determination to see the child,
the men recklessly divulged much more concerning their motives than
they had meant to do. Their talk confirmed my impression that such a
story may still act as a restraining influence in the sphere of marital
conduct which, next to primitive religion, has always afforded the most
fertile field for irrational taboos and savage punishments.

What story could be better than this to secure sympathy for the mother
of too many daughters and contumely for the irritated father; the
touch of mysticism, the supernatural sphere in which it was placed,
would render a man quite helpless.

The story of the Devil Baby, evolved in response to the imperative
needs of anxious wives and mothers, recalls the theory that woman first
fashioned the fairy story, that combination of wisdom and romance,
in an effort to tame her mate and to make him a better father to her
children, until such stories finally became a crude creed for domestic
conduct, softening the treatment men accorded to women. Because such
stories, expressing the very essence of human emotion, did not pretend
to imitate the outside of life, they were careless of verisimilitude
and absolutely indifferent to the real world. They did, however, meet
an essential requirement of the good story, in that they dealt with
fundamental experiences.

These first pitiful efforts of women were so widespread and powerful
that we have not yet escaped their influence. As subconscious memories,
they still cast vague shadows upon the vast spaces of life, shadows
that are dim and distorted because of their distant origin. They remind
us that for thousands of years women had nothing to oppose against
unthinkable brutality save “the charm of words,” no other implement
with which to subdue the fiercenesses of the world about them. Only
through words could they hope to arouse the generosity of strength,
to secure a measure of pity for themselves and their children, to so
protect the life they had produced that “the precious vintage stored
from their own agony” might not wantonly be spilled upon the ground.
Possibly the multitude of life’s failures, the obscure victims of
unspeakable wrong and brutality, have embodied their memories in a
literature of their own, of which the story of the Devil Baby is a
specimen, crude and ugly in form, as would be inevitable, but still
bringing relief to the surcharged heart.

During the weeks that the Devil Baby drew multitudes of visitors to
Hull-House, my mind was opened to the fact that new knowledge derived
from concrete experience is continually being made available for the
guidance of human life; that humble women are still establishing rules
of conduct as best they may, to counteract the base temptations of a
man’s world. I saw a new significance in the fact that thousands of
women, for instance, make it a standard of domestic virtue that a man
must not touch his pay envelope, but bring it home unopened to his
wife. High praise is contained in the phrase, “We have been married
twenty years and he never once opened his own envelope,” or covert
blame in the statement, “Of course he got to gambling; what can you
expect from a man who always opens his own pay?”

These humble domestic virtues, of which women see the need so much more
vividly than men do, have furthermore developed their penalties. The
latter, too, are put into aphorisms which, in time, when Memory has
done her work upon them, may become legendary wisdom.

Such a penalty was recently illustrated in our neighborhood by the
fate of an old man who was found in his room almost starved to death.
He was pointed out by many of our neighbors as an example of the
inevitable fate of one who deserts his family and therefore, “without
a woman to keep him straight,” falls into drink and shiftlessness and
the endless paths of wrong-doing, so that loneliness and destitution
inevitably overtake his old age.

The women were so fatalistically certain of this relation of
punishment to domestic sin, of reward to domestic virtue, that when
they talked about them, as they so constantly did in connection with
the Devil Baby, it often sounded as if they were using the words of a
widely known ritual. Among the visitors to the Devil Baby were many
foreign-born peasant women who, when they had come to America, had
been suddenly subjected to the complicated and constantly changing
environment of city life, and, finding no outlet for many inherited
tendencies, might easily have been thrown into that state described by
psychologists as one of “baulked disposition.” To them this simple
tale, with its direct connection between cause and effect, between
wrong-doing and punishment, brought soothing and relief, and restored
a shaken confidence as to the righteousness of the universe. They used
the story not only to tame restless husbands, but mothers threatened
their daughters that if they went to dance halls or out to walk with
strange young men, they would be eternally disgraced by devil babies.
As the story grew, the girls themselves seized upon it as a palpable
punishment to be held over the heads of reckless friends. That the
tale was useful was evidenced by many letters similar to the anonymous
epistle here given.

 “me and my friends we work in talor shop and when we are going home on
 the roby street car where we get off that car at blue island ave. we
 will meet some fellows sitting at that street where they drink some
 beer from pail. they keep look in cars all time and they will wait and
 see if we will come sometimes we will have to work, but they will wait
 so long they are tired and they dont care they get rest so long but a
 girl what works in twine mill saw them talk with us we know her good
 and she say what youse talk with old drunk man for we shall come to
 thier dance when it will be they will tell us and we should know all
 about where to see them that girl she say oh if you will go with them
 you will get devils baby like some other girls did who we knows. she
 say Jane Addams she will show one like that in Hull House if you will
 go down there we shall come sometime and we will see if that is trouth
 we do not believe her for she is friendly with them old men herself
 when she go out from her work they will wink to her and say something
 else to. We will go down and see you and make a lie from what she say.”

Because the Devil Baby embodied an undeserved wrong to a poor mother
whose tender child had been claimed by the forces of evil, his merely
reputed presence had power to attract to Hull-House hundreds of women
who had been humbled and disgraced by their children; mothers of the
feeble-minded, of the vicious, of the criminal, of the prostitute.
In their talk it was as if their long rôle of maternal apology and
protective reticence had at last broken down, as if they could speak
out freely because for once a man responsible for an ill-begotten
child had been “met up with” and had received his deserts. Their
sinister version of the story was that the father of the Devil Baby had
married without confessing a hideous crime committed years before, thus
basely deceiving both his innocent young bride and the good priest who
performed the solemn ceremony; that the sin had become incarnate in his
child which, to the horror of the young and trusting mother, had been
born with all the outward aspects of the devil himself.

As if drawn by a magnet, these forlorn women issued forth from the
many homes in which dwelt “the two unprofitable goddesses, Poverty
and Impossibility.” Occasionally it seemed to me that the women were
impelled by a longing to see one good case of retribution before they
died, as a bullied child hopes to deal at least one crushing blow at
his tormentor when he “grows up,” but I think, on the whole, such an
explanation was a mistake; it is more probable that the avidity of the
women demonstrated that the story itself, like all interpretative art,
was “one of those free, unconscious attempts to satisfy, outside of
life, those cravings which life itself leaves unsatisfied.” At moments,
however, baffled desires, sharp cries of pain, echoes of justices
unfulfilled, the original material from which such tales are fashioned,
would defy Memory’s appeasing power and break through the rigid
restraints imposed by all Art, even that unconscious of itself.

With an understanding quickened, perhaps, through my own acquaintance
with the mysterious child, I listened to many tragic reminiscences
from the visiting women; of premature births, “because he kicked me
in the side”; of children maimed and burnt because “I had no one to
leave them with when I went to work”; women had seen the tender flesh
of growing little bodies given over to death because “he wouldn’t let
me send for the doctor,” or because “there was no money to pay for the
medicine.” But even these mothers, rendered childless through insensate
brutality, were less pitiful than some of the others, who might well
have cried aloud of their children as did a distracted mother of her
child centuries ago:

  “That God should send this one thing more
  Of hunger and of dread, a door
  Set wide to every wind of pain!”

Such was the mother of a feeble-minded boy who said: “I didn’t have
a devil baby myself, but I bore a poor ‘innocent’ who made me fight
devils for twenty-three years.” She told of her son’s experiences from
the time the other little boys had put him up to stealing that they
might hide in safety and leave him to be found with “the goods on him,”
until grown into a huge man he fell into the hands of professional
burglars; he was evidently the dupe and stool-pigeon of the vicious and
criminal until the very day he was locked into the State Penitentiary.
“If people played with him a little, he went right off and did anything
they told him to, and now he’s been sent up for life. We call such
innocents ‘God’s Fools’ in the old country, but over here the Devil
himself gets them. I’ve fought off bad men and boys from the poor lamb
with my very fists; nobody ever came near the house except such-like
and the police officers, who were always arresting him.”

There were a goodly number of visitors to the Devil Baby of the type of
those to be found in every large city, who are on the verge of nervous
collapse, or who exhibit many symptoms of mental aberration, and yet
are sufficiently normal to be at large most of the time, and to support
themselves by drudgery which requires little mental effort, although
the exhaustion resulting from the work they are able to do is the one
thing from which they should be most carefully protected. One such
woman, evidently obtaining inscrutable comfort from the story of the
Devil Baby even after she had become convinced that we harbored no such
creature, came many times to tell of her longing for her son, who had
joined the army eighteen months before and was now stationed in Alaska.
She always began with the same words.

“When Spring comes and the snow melts so that I know he could get out,
I can hardly stand it. You know I was once in the Insane Asylum for
three years at a stretch, and since then I haven’t had much use of
my mind except to worry with. Of course I know that it is dangerous
for me, but what can I do? I think something like this: ‘The snow is
melting, now he could get out, but his officers won’t let him off and
if he runs away he’ll be shot for a deserter--either way I’ll never
see him again; I’ll die without seeing him’--and then I begin all over
again with the snow.” After a pause, she said: “The recruiting officer
ought not to have taken him, he’s my only son and I’m a widow. It’s
against the rules, but he was so crazy to go that I guess he lied a
little--at any rate, the government has him now and I can’t get him
back. Without this worry about him my mind would be all right; if he
were here he would be earning money and keeping me and we would be
happy all day long.”

Recalling the vagabondish lad, who had never earned much money and had
certainly never “kept” his hard-working mother, I ventured to suggest
that, even if he were at home, he might not have work these hard times,
that he might get into trouble and be arrested--I did not need to
remind her that he had already been arrested twice--that he was now fed
and sheltered and under discipline, and I added hopefully something
about his seeing the world. She looked at me out of her withdrawn,
harried eyes, as if I were speaking a foreign tongue. “That wouldn’t
make any real difference to me--the work, the money, his behaving well
and all that, if I could cook and wash for him. I don’t need all the
money I earn scrubbing that factory. I only take bread and tea for
supper and I choke over that, thinking of him.”

She ceased to speak, overcome by a thousand obscure emotions which
could find no outlet in words. She dimly realized that the facts in
the case, to one who had known her boy from childhood, were far from
creditable, and that no one could understand the eternally unappeased
idealism which, for her, surrounded her son’s return. She was even
afraid to say much about it, lest she should be overmastered by her
subject and be considered so irrational as to suggest a return to the
Hospital for the Insane.

Those mothers who have never resisted fate nor buffeted against the
black waters, but have allowed the waves to close over them, worn and
bent as they are by hard labor, subdued and misshapen by the brutality
of men, are at least unaffrighted by the melodramatic coarseness
of life, which Stevenson more gently describes as “the uncouth and
outlandish strain in the web of the world.” The story of the Devil Baby
may have made its appeal through its frank presentation of this very
demoniac quality, to those who live under the iron tyranny of that
poverty which threatens starvation, and under the dread of a brutality
which may any dark night bring them or their children to extinction;
to those who have seen both virtue and vice go unrewarded and who have
long since ceased to explain.

This more primitive type embodies the eternal patience of those humble,
toiling women who through the generations have been held of little
value, save as their drudgery ministered to their men. One of them
related her habit of going through the pockets of her drunken son
every pay day, and complained that she had never found so little as
the night before, only twenty-five cents out of fifteen dollars he had
promised for the rent, long overdue. “I had to get that as he lay in
the alley before the door; I couldn’t pull him in, and the copper who
helped him home, left as soon as he heard me coming and pretended he
didn’t see me. I have no food in the house, nor coffee to sober him up
with. I know perfectly well that you will ask me to eat something here,
but, if I can’t carry it home, I won’t take a bite nor a sup. I have
never told you so much before. Since one of the nurses said he could
be arrested for my non-support, I have been awful close-mouthed. It’s
the foolish way all the women in our street are talking about the Devil
Baby that’s loosened my tongue, more shame to me.”

A sorrowful woman clad in heavy black, who came one day, exhibited such
a capacity for prolonged weeping that it was evidence in itself of the
truth of at least half her statement, that she had cried herself to
sleep every night of her life for fourteen years in fulfilment of a
“curse” laid upon her by an angry man, that “her pillow would be wet
with tears as long as she lived.” Her respectable husband had a shop
in the Red Light district because he found it profitable to sell to
the men and women who lived there. She had kept house in the room over
the “store” from the time she was a bride newly come from Russia, and
her five daughters had been born there, but never a son to gladden her
husband’s heart.

She took such a feverish interest in the Devil Baby that, when I was
obliged to disillusion her, I found it hard to take away her comfort in
the belief that the Powers that Be are on the side of the woman when
her husband resents too many daughters. But, after all, the birth of
daughters was but an incident in her tale of unmitigated woe, for the
scoldings of a disappointed husband were as nothing to the curse of a
strange enemy, although she doubtless had a confused impression that if
there were retribution for one in the general scheme of things, there
might be for the other. When the weeping woman finally put the events
of her disordered life in some sort of sequence, it became clear that
about fifteen years ago she had reported to the police a vicious house
whose back door opened into her own yard. Her husband had forbidden
her to do anything about it and had said that it would only get them
into trouble, but she had been made desperate one day when she saw her
little girl, then twelve years old, come out of the door, gleefully
showing her younger sister a present of money. Because the poor woman
had tried for ten years without success to induce her husband to move
from the vicinity of such houses, she was certain that she could save
her child only by forcing out “the bad people” from her own door yard.
She therefore made her one frantic effort, found her way to the city
hall and there reported the house to the chief himself. Of course,
“the bad people stood in with the police” and nothing happened to them
save, perhaps, a fresh levy of blackmail, but the keeper of the house,
beside himself with rage, made the dire threat and laid the curse upon
her. In less than a year from that time he had enticed her daughter
into a disreputable house in another part of the district. The poor
woman, ringing one doorbell after another, had never been able to find
her, but her sisters, who in time came to know where she was, had been
dazzled by her mode of life. The weeping mother was quite sure that
two of her daughters, while still outwardly respectable and “working
downtown,” earned money in the devious ways which they had learned all
about when they were little children, although for the past five years
the now prosperous husband had allowed the family to live in a suburb,
where the two younger daughters were “growing up respectable.”

Certain of the visitors, although confronted by those mysterious and
impersonal wrongs which are apparently inherent in the very nature of
things, gave us glimpses of another sort of wisdom than that expressed
in the assumptions that the decrees of Fate are immutable.

Such a glimpse came to me through a conversation with a woman whose
fine mind and indomitable spirit I had long admired; I had known her
for years, and yet the recital of her sufferings, added to those the
Devil Baby had already induced other women to tell me, pierced me
afresh. The story of the Devil Baby may have incited these women to
put their experiences more vividly than they had hitherto been able to
do. It may have been because they were unconsciously spurred by the
hope that a supernatural retribution might intervene even for them, or
because they were merely comforted by the knowledge that it had once
done so for some one else that they spoke with more confidence than
they had ever done before.

“I had eleven children, some born in Hungary and some born here, nine
of them boys; all of the children died when they were little but my
dear Liboucha. You know all about her. She died last winter in the
Insane Asylum. She was only twelve years old when her father, in a fit
of delirium tremens, killed himself after he had chased us around
the room, trying to kill us first. She saw it all, the blood splashed
on the wall stayed in her mind the worst; she shivered and shook all
that night through, and the next morning she had lost her voice,
couldn’t speak out loud for terror. After a while she went to school
again and her voice came back, although it was never very natural.
She seemed to do as well as ever and was awful pleased when she got
into High School. All the money we had I earned scrubbing in a public
dispensary, although sometimes I got a little more by interpreting for
the patients, for I know three languages, one as well as the other.
But I was determined that whatever happened to me, Liboucha was to be
educated. My husband’s father was a doctor in the old country, and
Liboucha was always a clever child. I wouldn’t have her live the kind
of life I had, with no use for my mind except to make me restless and
bitter. I was pretty old and worn out for such hard work, but when
I used to see Liboucha on a Sunday morning ready for church in her
white dress, with her long yellow hair braided round her beautiful pale
face, lying there in bed as I was, being brought up a free-thinker,
and needing to rest my aching bones for the next week’s work, I’d feel
almost happy, in spite of everything. But of course no such peace could
last in my life; the second year at High School Liboucha began to seem
different and to do strange things. You know the time she wandered
away for three days and we were all wild with fright, although a kind
woman had taken her in and no harm came to her. I could never be easy
after that; she was always gentle, but she was awful sly about running
away and at last I had to send her to the asylum. She stayed there off
and on for five years, but I saw her every week of my life and she was
always company for me, what with sewing for her, washing and ironing
her clothes, cooking little things to take out to her, and saving a bit
of money to buy fruit for her. At any rate, I had stopped feeling so
bitter, and got some comfort out of seeing the one thing that belonged
to me on this side of the water, when all of a sudden she died of
heart failure and they never took the trouble to send for me until the
next day.”

She stopped as if wondering afresh that the Fates could have been so
casual, but with a sudden illumination, as if she had been awakened
out of the burden and intensity of her restricted personal interests
into a consciousness of those larger relations that are, for the most
part, so strangely invisible. It was as if the young mother of the
grotesque Devil Baby, that victim of wrong doing on the part of others,
had revealed to this tragic woman much more clearly than soft words had
ever done, that the return of a deed of violence upon the head of the
innocent is inevitable; as if she had realized that, although she was
destined to walk all the days of her life with the piteous multitude
who bear the undeserved wrongs of the world, she would walk henceforth
with a sense of companionship.

At moments it seemed possible that these simple women, representing
an earlier development, eagerly seized upon the story because it
was primitive in form and substance. Certainly, one evening, a
long-forgotten ballad made an unceasing effort to come to the surface
of my mind as I talked to a feeble woman who, in the last stages of an
incurable disease from which she soon afterwards died, had been helped
off the street car in front of Hull-House. The ballad tells how the
lover of a proud and jealous mistress, who demanded as a final test of
devotion that he bring her the heart of his mother, had quickly cut
the heart from his mother’s breast and impetuously returned to his
lady, bearing it upon a salver; and how, when stumbling in his gallant
haste, he stooped to replace upon the silver plate his mother’s heart,
which had rolled to the ground, the heart, still beating with tender
solicitude, whispered the hope that her child was not hurt. The ballad
itself was scarcely more exaggerated than the story of our visitor that
evening, who had made the desperate effort of a journey from home in
order to see the Devil Baby. I was familiar with her vicissitudes; the
shiftless, drinking husband and the large family of children, all of
whom had brought her sorrow and disgrace, and I knew that her heart’s
desire was to see again, before she died, her youngest son, who was
a life prisoner in the penitentiary. She was confident that the last
piteous stage of her disease would secure him a week’s parole, founding
this forlorn hope upon the fact that “they sometimes let them out to
attend a mother’s funeral, and perhaps they’d let Joe come a few days
ahead; he could pay his fare afterwards from the insurance money. It
wouldn’t take much to bury me.” Again we went over the hideous story:
Joe had violently quarrelled with a woman, the proprietor of the house
in which his disreputable wife was living, because she had withheld
from him a part of his wife’s “earnings,” and in the altercation had
killed her--a situation, one would say, which it would be difficult for
even a mother to condone. But not at all, her thin gray face worked
with emotion, her trembling hands restlessly pulled at her shabby
skirt as the hands of the dying pluck at their sheets, but she put
all the vitality she could muster into his defence. She told us he had
legally married the girl, who supported him, “although Lily had been
so long in that life that few men would have done it. Of course, such
a girl must have a protector or everybody would fleece her. Poor Lily
said to the day of her death that he was the kindest man she ever knew,
and treated her the whitest; that she herself was to blame for the
murder because she told on the old miser, and Joe was so hot-headed
she might have known that he would draw a gun for her.” The gasping
mother concluded: “He was always that handsome and had such a way. One
winter, when I was scrubbing in an office building, I’d never get home
much before twelve o’clock, but Joe would open the door for me just
as pleasant as if he hadn’t been waked out of a sound sleep.” She was
so triumphantly unconscious of the incongruity of a sturdy son in bed
while his mother earned his food, that her auditors said never a word,
and in silence we saw a hero evolved before our eyes, a defender of
the oppressed, the best beloved of his mother, who was losing his high
spirits and eating his heart out behind prison bars. He could well defy
the world even there, surrounded as he was by that invincible affection
which assures both the fortunate and unfortunate alike that we are
loved, not according to our deserts, but in response to some profounder
law.

This imposing revelation of maternal solicitude was an instance of what
continually happened in connection with the Devil Baby. In the midst
of the most tragic reminiscences, there remained that something in the
memories of these mothers which has been called the great revelation
of tragedy, or sometimes the great illusion of tragedy; that which has
power in its own right to make life palatable and at rare moments even
beautiful.




                              CHAPTER III

               WOMEN’S MEMORIES--DISTURBING CONVENTIONS


In sharp contrast to the function of woman’s long memory as a
reconciler to life, revealed by the visitors to the Devil Baby, are
those individual reminiscences which, because they force the possessor
to challenge existing conventions, act as a reproach, even as a
social disturber. When these reminiscences, based upon the diverse
experiences of many people unknown to each other, point to one
inevitable conclusion, they accumulate into a social protest, although
not necessarily an effective one, against existing conventions, even
against those which are most valuable and those securely founded upon
cumulative human wisdom. But because no conventionalized tradition is
perfect, however good its intent, most of them become challenged in
course of time, unwittingly illustrating the contention that great
social changes are often brought about less by the thinkers than by “a
certain native and independent rationalism operating in great masses of
men and women.”

The statement is well founded that a convention is at its best,
not when it is universally accepted, but just when it is being so
challenged and broken that the conformists are obliged to defend it and
to fight for it against those who would destroy it. Both the defenders
of an old custom and its opponents are then driven to a searching of
their own hearts.

Such searching and sifting is taking place in the consciences of
many women of this generation whose sufferings, although strikingly
influencing conduct, are seldom expressed in words until they are
told in the form of reminiscence after the edges have been long since
dulled. Such sufferings are never so poignant as when women have
been forced by their personal experiences to challenge the valuable
conventions safeguarding family life.

A woman whom I had known slightly for many years came to Hull-House
one day escorted by her little grandson. Her delicate features, which
were rather hard and severe, softened most charmingly as the little boy
raised his cap in good-by from the vanishing automobile. In reply to
my admiring comment upon the sturdy lad and his affectionate relation
to her, she startled me by saying abruptly, “You know he is really not
my grandson. I have scarcely admitted the doubt before, but the time
is coming when I must face it and decide his future. If you are kind
enough to listen, I want to tell you my experience in all its grim
sorrow.

“My husband was shot twenty-seven years ago, under very disgraceful
circumstances, in a disreputable quarter of Paris; you may remember
something of it in the newspapers, although they meant to be
considerate. I was left with my little son, and with such a horror of
self-indulgence and its consequences, that I determined to rear my
child in strict sobriety, chastity, and self-restraint, although all
else were sacrificed to it. Through his school and college days, which
I took care should be far from his father’s friends and associations,
I always lived with him, so bent on rectitude and so distressed by any
lack of self-control that I see now how hard and rigorous his life
must have been. I meant to sacrifice myself for my child, in reality I
sacrificed him to my narrow code.

“The very June that he took his master’s degree, I myself found him,
one beautiful morning, lying dead in his own room, shot through the
temple. No one had heard the report of the revolver, for the little
house we had taken was so on the edge of the college town that the
neighbors were rather remote, and he must have killed himself while I
sat in the moonlight, on the garden bench, after he had left me, my
mind still filled with plans for his future.

“I have gone over every word of our conversation that evening in the
garden a thousand times; we were planning to come to Chicago for his
medical course, and I had expressed my exultant confidence in him to
withstand whatever temptation a city might offer, my pride in his
purity of thought, his rectitude of conduct. It was then he rose rather
abruptly and went into the house to write the letter to me which I
found on his table next morning. In that letter he told me that he was
too vile to live any longer, that he had sinned not only against his
own code of decency and honor, but against my lifelong standards and
teachings, and that he realized perfectly that I could never forgive
him. He evidently did not expect any understanding from me, either for
himself or for ‘the young and innocent girl’ about to become the mother
of his child, and in his interpretation of my rigid morals he was quite
sure that I would never consent to see her, but he wrote me that he
had told her to send the little baby to me as soon as it was born,
obviously hoping that I might be tender to the innocent, although I was
so harsh and unpitying to the guilty. I had apparently never given him
a glimpse beyond my unbending sternness, and he had all unwittingly
pronounced me too self-righteous for forgiveness; at any rate, he
faced death rather than my cold disapprobation.

“The girl is still leading the life she had led for two years before
my son met her. She is glad to have her child cared for and hopes
that I will make him my heir, but understands, of course, that his
paternity could never be established in court. So here I am, old and
hard, beginning again the perilous experiment of rearing a man child. I
suppose it was inevitable that I should hold the girl responsible for
my son’s downfall and for his death. She was one of the wretched young
women who live in college towns for the express purpose of inveigling
young men, often deliberately directing their efforts toward those
who are reputed to have money. I discovered all sorts of damaging
facts about her, which enabled me to exonerate my son from intentional
wrong-doing, and to think quite honestly that he had been lured and
tempted beyond his strength. The girl was obliged to leave the little
town, which was filled with the horror and scandal of the occurrence,
but even then, in that first unbridled public censure against the ‘bad
woman’ who had been discovered in the midst of virtuous surroundings,
there was a tendency to hold me accountable for my son’s death,
whatever the girl’s earlier responsibility may have been.

“In my loathing of her I experienced all over again the harsh and
bitter judgments through which I had lived in the first years after
my husband’s death. I had secretly held the unknown woman responsible
for his end, but of course it never occurred to me to find out about
her, and I certainly could never have brought myself to hear her name,
much less to see her. I have at least done better than that in regard
to the mother of my ‘grandson,’ and Heaven knows I have tried in all
humility and heartbreak to help her. She fairly hated me, as she did
anything that reminded her of my son--the entire episode had seemed to
her so unnatural, so monstrous, so unnecessary--she considered me his
murderer, and I never had the courage to tell her that I agreed with
her. Perhaps if I had done that, really abased myself as I was willing
she should be abased, we might have come into some sort of genuine
relation born of our companionship in tragedy. But I couldn’t do that,
possibly because the women of my generation cannot easily change the
traditional attitude towards what the Bible calls ‘the harlot.’ At any
rate, I didn’t succeed in ‘saving’ her. She so obviously dreaded seeing
me, and our strained visits were so unsatisfactory and painful, that I
finally gave it up, and her son has apparently quite forgotten her. I
am sure she tries to forget him and all the tragic scenes associated
with his earliest babyhood, when I insisted not only upon ‘keeping
mother and child together’ but also on keeping them with me.”

After a moment’s pause she resumed: “It would have been comparatively
easy for me to die when my child was little, when I still had a
right to believe that he would grow up to be a good and useful man,
but I lived to see him driven to his death by my own stupidity. I
have encountered the full penalty for breaking the commandment to
judge not. I passed sentence without hearing the evidence; I gave up
the traditional rôle of the woman who loves and pities and tries to
understand; I forgot that it was my mission to save and not to judge.

“As I have gone back over my unmitigated failure again and again,
I am sure at last that it was the sorry result of my implacable
judgment of the woman I held responsible for my husband’s sin. I did
not realize the danger nor the inevitable recoil of such a state of
self-righteousness upon my child.”

As she paused in the recital I rashly anticipated the conclusion,
that her bitter experiences had brought the whole question to that
tribunal of personal conduct whose concrete findings stir us to our
very marrow with shame and remorse; that she had frantically striven as
we all do, to keep herself from falling into the pit where the demons
of self-reproach dwell, by clinging to the conventional judgments
of the world. I expected her to set them forth at great length in
self-justification, and perhaps, belonging, as she so obviously did,
to an older school, she might even assure me that the wrong to those to
whom it was now impossible to make reparation had forever lifted her
above committing another such injustice. I found, however, that I was
absolutely mistaken and that whatever might be true of her, it still
lay within me to commit a gross injustice, when she resumed with these
words: “It is a long time since I ceased to urge in my own defence that
I was but reflecting the attitude of society, for, in my efforts to get
at the root of the matter I have been convinced that the conventional
attitude cannot be defended, certainly not upon religious grounds.”

She stopped as if startled by her own reflections upon the subject of
the social ostracism so long established and so harshly enforced that
women seem to hold to it as through an instinct of self-preservation.

She was, perhaps, dimly conscious that the tradition that the unchaste
woman should be an outcast from society rests upon a solid basis of
experience, upon the long struggle of a multitude of obscure women
who, from one generation to another, were frantically determined to
establish the paternity of their children and to force the father to
a recognition of his obligations; and that the living representatives
of these women instinctively rise up in honest rebellion against
any attempt to loosen the social control which such efforts have
established, bungling and cruel though the control may be.

Further conversation showed that she also realized that these stern
memories inherited from the past have an undoubted social value and
that it is a perilous undertaking upon which certain women of this
generation are bent in their efforts to deal a belated justice to the
fallen woman. It involves a clash within the very mass of inherited
motives and impulses as well as a clash between old conventions and
contemporary principles. On the other hand, it must have been obvious
to her in her long effort to get at “the root of the matter” that the
punishment and hatred of the bad woman has gone so far as to overreach
its own purpose; it has become responsible for such hardness of heart
on the part of “respectable” women towards the so-called fallen ones,
that punishment is often inflicted not only without regard to justice,
but in order to feed the spiritual pride, “I am holier than thou.”
Such pride erects veritable barricades, deliberately shutting out
sympathetic understanding.

The very fact that women remain closer to type than men do and are
more swayed by the past, makes it difficult for them to defy settled
conventions. It adds to their difficulty that the individual women,
driven to modify a harsh convention which has become unendurable
to them, are perforce those most sensitive to injustice. The sharp
struggle for social advance, which is always a struggle between ideas,
long before it becomes embodied in contending social groups, may thus
find its arena in the tender conscience of one woman who is pitilessly
rent and pierced by her warring scruples and affections. Even such a
tentative effort in the direction of social advance exacts the usual
toll of blood and tears.

Fortunately the entire burden of the attempt to modify a convention
which has become unsupportable, by no means rests solely upon
such self-conscious women. Their analytical efforts are steadily
supplemented by instinctive conduct on the part of many others. A
great mass of “variation from type,” accelerating this social change,
is contributed by simple mothers who have been impelled by the
same primitive emotion which the Devil Baby had obviously released
in so many old women. This is an overwhelming pity and sense of
tender comprehension, doubtless closely related to the compunction
characteristic of all primitive people which in the earliest stage
of social development long performed the first rude offices of a
sense of justice. This early trait is still a factor in the social
struggle, for as has often been pointed out, our social state is like a
countryside--of a complex geological structure, with outcrops of strata
of very diverse ages.

Such compunction sometimes carries the grandmother of an illegitimate
child to the point of caring for the child when she is still utterly
unable to forgive her daughter, the child’s mother. Even that is a step
in advance from the time when the daughter was driven from the house
and her child, because a bastard, was conscientiously treated as an
outcast both by the family and by the community.

Such an instance of compunction was recently brought to my attention
when Hull-House made an effort to place a subnormal little girl twelve
years old in an institution in order that she might be protected from
certain designing men in the neighborhood. The grandmother who had
always taken care of her savagely opposed the effort step by step. She
had scrubbed the lavatories in a public building during the twenty-five
years of her widowhood, and because she worked all day had been unable
to protect her own feeble-minded daughter who, when barely fifteen
years old, had become the mother of this child. When her granddaughter
was finally placed in the institution, the old woman was absolutely
desolated. She found it almost impossible to return home after her
day’s work because “it was too empty and lonesome, and nothing to come
back for. You see,” she explained, “my youngest boy wasn’t right in his
head either and kept his bed for the last fifteen years of his life.
During all that time I took care of him the way one does of a baby,
and I hurried home every night with my heart in my mouth until I saw
that he was all right. He died the year this little girl was born and
she kind of took his place. I kept her in a day nursery while she was
little, and when she was seven years old the ladies there sent her
to school in one of the subnormal rooms and let her come back to the
nursery for her meals. I thought she was getting along all right and I
took care never to let her go near her mother.” The old woman made it
quite clear that this was because her daughter was keeping house with
a man with whom there had been no marriage ceremony. In her simple
code, to go to such a house would be to connive at sin, and while she
was grateful that the man had established a control over her daughter
which she herself had never been able to obtain, she always referred
to her daughter as “fallen,” although no one knew better than she how
unguarded the girl had been. As I saw how singularly free this mother
was from self-reproach and how untouched by any indecisions or remorses
for the past, I was once more impressed by the strength of the stout
habits acquired by those who early become accustomed to fight off black
despair. Such habits stand them in good stead in old age, and at least
protect them from those pensive regrets and inconsolable sorrows which
inevitably tend to surround whatever has once made for early happiness,
as soon as it has ceased to exist.

Many individual instances are found in which a woman, hard pressed by
life, includes within her tenderness the mother of an illegitimate
child. A most striking example of this came to me through a woman
whom I knew years ago when she daily brought her three children to
the Hull-House day nursery, obliged to support them by her work in a
neighboring laundry because her husband had deserted her. I recall her
fatuous smile as she used to say that “Tommy is so pleased to see me at
night that I can hear him shout ‘Hello, ma’ when I am a block away.”
I had known Tommy through many years; periods of adversity when his
father was away were succeeded by periods of fitful prosperity when
his father returned from his wanderings with the circus with which “he
could always find work,” because he had once been a successful acrobat
and later a clown, and “so could turn his hand to anything that was
needed.”

Perhaps it was unavoidable that Tommy should have made his best friends
among the warm-hearted circus people who were very kind to him after
his father’s death, and that long before the Child Labor Law permitted
him to sing in Chicago saloons, he was doing a successful business
singing in the towns of a neighboring state. He was a droll little
chap “without any sense about taking care of himself,” and in those
days his mother not only missed his cheerful companionship but was
constantly anxious about his health and morals. When he grew older and
became a professional he sent his mother money occasionally, although
never very much and never with any regularity. She was always so
pleased when it came that the two daughters supporting her with their
steady wages were inclined to resent her obvious gratification, as they
did the killing of the fatted calf on those rare occasions when the
prodigal returned “between seasons” to visit his family.

It is possible that his mother thus early acquired the habit of
defending him, the black sheep, against the strictures of the good
children who so easily become the self-righteous when they feel “put
upon.” However that may be, five years ago, after one daughter had been
married to a skilled mechanic and the other, advanced to the position
of a forewoman, was supporting her mother in the comparative idleness
of keeping house for two people in three rooms, a forlorn girl appeared
with a note from Tommy asking his mother “to help her out until the
kid came and she could work again.”

The steady daughter would not permit “such a girl to cross the
threshold,” and the little household was finally broken up upon the
issue. The daughter went to live with her married sister, while the
mother, having moved into one room with “Tommy’s girl,” went back to
the laundry in order to support herself and her guest.

The daughters, having impressively told their mother that she could
come to live with them whenever she “was willing to come alone,”
dropped the entire situation. In doing this, they were doubtless
instinctively responding to a habit acquired through years of “keeping
clear of the queer people father knew in the circus and the saloon
crowds always hanging around Tommy,” in their secret hope to come
to know respectable young men. Conscious that they had back of them
the opinion of all righteous people they could not understand why
their mother, for the sake of a bad girl, had deserted them in this
praiseworthy effort in which hitherto she had been the prime mover.

Tommy had sent his “girl” to his mother on the eve of his departure
for “a grand tour to the Klondike region,” and since then, almost four
years ago, she has heard nothing further from him. During the first
half of the time the two women struggled on together as best they
could, supporting themselves and the child who was brought daily to the
nursery by his grandmother. But the pretty little mother, gradually
going back to her old occupation of dancing in the vaudeville, had
more and more out-of-town engagements, and while she always divided
her earnings with the baby, the grandmother suspected her of losing
interest in him, a situation which was finally explained when she
confessed that she was about to be married to a cabaret manager who
“knew nothing of the past,” and to beg that the baby might stay where
he was. “Of course, I will pay board for him, but his father can be
made to do something, too, if we can only get the law on him.”

It was at this point that I had the following conversation with the
grandmother, who was shrewd enough to see that the support of the
baby was being left upon her hands, and that she could expect help
from neither his father nor his mother, although she stoutly refused
the advice that the whole matter be taken into the Court of Domestic
Relations. “If I could only see Tommy once I think I could get him to
help, but I can’t find out where he is, and he may not be alive for
all I know; he was always that careless about himself. If he put on
a new red necktie he’d never know if his bare toes were pushing out
of his shoes. He probably didn’t get proper clothes for ‘the Klondike
region’ and he may have been frozen to death before this. But whatever
has happened to him, I can’t let his baby go. I suppose I’ve learned
to think differently about some things after all my years of living
with a light-minded husband. Maggie came to see me last week, for she
means to be a good daughter. She said that Carrie and Joe were buying a
house way out on the West Side, that they were going to move into it
this month, and that she and I could have a nice big room together. She
said, too, that Carrie would charge only half rate board for me, and
would be glad to have my help with her little children, for they both
think that nobody has such a way with children as I have. The night
before, when she and Carrie were playing with the little boys, they
remembered some of the funny songs father used to teach Tommy, and how
jolly we all were when he came home good-natured and would stand on his
head to make the candy fall out of his pockets. I know the two girls
really want me to come back, and that they are often homesick, but when
I pointed to the bed where the baby was and asked, ‘What about him?’
Maggie turned as hard as nails and said as quick as a flash, ‘We’re
all agreed that you’ll have to put him in an institution. We’ll never
have any chance with the nice people in a swell neighborhood like ours
if you bring the baby.’ She looked real white then, and I felt sorry
for her when she said, ‘Why, they might even think he was my child,
you never can tell,’ although she was ashamed of that afterwards and
cried a little before she left. She told me that she and Carrie, when
they were children, were always talking of what they would do when they
got old enough to work, how they would take care of me and move to a
part of the city where nobody would know anything about the outlandish
way their father and Tommy used to carry on. Of course, it was almost
telling me that they didn’t want me to come to see them if I kept the
baby.”

My old friend was quite unable to formulate the motives which underlay
her determination, but she implied that clinging to this helpless child
was part of her unwavering affection for her son when, without any
preamble, she concluded the conversation with the remark, “It’s the way
I always felt about him,” as if further explanation were unnecessary.

It was all doubtless a manifestation of Nature’s anxious care--so
determined upon survival and so indifferent to morals--that had induced
her long devotion to her one child least equipped to take care of
himself; and for the same reason the helpless little creature whose
existence no one else was deeply concerned to preserve had become so
entwined in her affections that separation was impossible.

From time to time a mother goes further than this, in her determination
to deal justly with the unhappy situation in which her daughter is
placed. When the mother of a so-called fallen girl is of that type
of respectability which is securely founded upon narrow precepts,
inherited through generations of careful living, it requires genuine
courage to ignore the social stigma in order to consider only the moral
development of her child, although the result of such courage doubtless
minimizes the chagrin and disgrace for the girl herself.

In one such instance the parents of the girl, who had been prevented
from marrying her lover because the families on both sides objected
to differences of religion, have openly faced the situation and made
the baby a beloved member of the household. The pretty young mother
arrogates to herself a hint of martyrdom for her faith’s sake, but the
discipline and responsibility are working wonders for her character.
In her hope of earning money enough for two, she has been stirred to
new ambition and is eagerly attending a business college. She suffers
a certain amount of social ostracism but at the same time her steady
courage excites genuine admiration.

In another case a fearless mother exacts seven dollars a week in
payment of the board for her daughter and the baby, although the
girl earns but eight dollars a week in a cigar factory and buys such
clothing for two as she can with the remaining dollar. She admits that
it is “hard sledding,” but that the baby is “mighty nice.” Whatever
her state of mind, she evidently has no notion of rebelling against
her mother’s authority, and is humbly grateful that she was not turned
out of doors when the situation was discovered. It is possible that
the mother’s remorse at her failure to guard her daughter from wrong
doing enables her thus grimly to defy social standards which, although
they are based upon stern and narrow tenets, nevertheless epitomize the
bitter wisdom of generations. Such mothers, overcoming that timidity
which makes it so difficult to effect changes in daily living, make a
genuine contribution to the solution of the vexed problem.

In spite of much obtuseness on the part of those bound by the iron
fetters of convention, these individual cases suggest a practical
method of procedure. For quite as pity and fierce maternal affection
for their own children drove mothers all over the world to ostracize
and cruelly punish the “bad woman” who would destroy the home by
taking away the breadwinner and the father, so it is possible that,
under the changed conditions of modern life, this same pity for little
children, this same concern that, even if they are the children of the
outcast, they must still be nourished and properly reared, will make
good the former wrongs. There has certainly been a great modification
of the harsh judgments meted out in such cases, as women all over the
world have endeavored, through the old bungling method of trial and
error, to deal justly with individual situations. Each case has been
quietly judged by reference to an altered moral standard, for while the
ethical code like the legal code stands in need of constant revision,
the remodeling of the former is always private, tacit and informal in
marked contrast to the public and ceremonious acts of law-makers and
judges when the latter is changed.

Such measure of success as the organized Woman’s Movement has attained
in the direction of a larger justice has come through an overwhelming
desire to cherish both the illegitimate child and his unfortunate
mother. In addition to that, the widespread effort of modern women
to obtain a recognized legal status for themselves and their own
children has also been largely dependent upon this desire, at least in
the beginnings of the movement. Women slowly had discovered that the
severe attitude towards the harlot had not only become embodied in the
statutory law concerning her, as thousands of court decisions every
day bear testimony, but had become registered in the laws and social
customs pertaining to good women as well; the Code Napoleon, which
prohibited that search be made for the father of an illegitimate child,
also denied the custody of her children to the married mother; those
same states in which the laws considered a little girl of ten years
the seducer of a man of well-known immorality, did not allow a married
woman to hold her own property nor to retain her own wages.

The enthusiasm responsible for the worldwide Woman’s Movement was
generated in the revolt against such gross injustices. The most
satisfactory achievements of the movement have been secured in the
Scandinavian countries, where the splendid code of laws protecting
all women and children was founded on the instinct to defend the
weakest, and upon a determination to lighten that social opprobrium
which makes it so unreasonably difficult for a mother to support a
child born out of wedlock. In Germany, when the presence of over a
million illegitimate children under the age of fourteen years made
the situation acute, the best women of the nation, asserting that
all attempts to deal out social punishment upon the mothers resulted
only in a multitude of ill-nourished and weakened children, founded
“The Mutterchutz” Movement. Through its efforts to secure justice and
protection for these mothers, it has come to be the great defender of
the legal rights of all German women.

Many achievements of the modern movement demonstrate that woman deals
most efficiently with fresh experiences when she coalesces them into
the impressions Memory has kept in store for her. Eagerly seeking
continuity with the past by her own secret tests of affinity, she
reinforces and encourages Memory’s instinctive processes of selection.
If she develops her craving for continuity into a willingness to
subordinate a part to the whole and into a sustained and self-forgetful
search for congruity and harmony with a life which is greater than
hers, she may lift the entire selective process into the realm of Art;
at least so far as Art is dependent upon proportion and so far as
beauty hangs upon an ineffable balance between restraint and inclusion.
Hungry for this finely proportioned living, she may at length become a
disciple of Diotema, the wisest woman of antiquity, who asserted that
the life which above all we should live, must be discovered by faithful
and strenuous search for ever-widening kinds of beauty.

In woman’s search for “the eternal moment,” balanced independently of
time itself because so melted both into memories of the past and into
surmises of new beauty for the future of her children’s children, she
may recognize as one of the universal harmonies the touching devotion
of the endless multitude of mothers who were the humble vessels for
life’s continuance and who carried the burden in safety to the next
generation.

Maternal affection and solicitude, in woman’s remembering heart,
may at length coalesce into a chivalric protection for all that is
young and unguarded. This chivalry of women expressing protection for
those at the bottom of society, so far as it has already developed,
suggests a return to that idealized version of chivalry which was the
consecration of strength to the defence of weakness, unlike the actual
chivalry of the armed knight who served his lady with gentle courtesy
while his fields were ploughed by peasant women misshapen through toil
and hunger.

As an example of this new chivalry, the Hungarian women have recently
risen in protest against a proposed military regulation requiring that
all young women in domestic service, who are living in the vicinity
of barracks, be examined each week by medical officers in order to
protect the soldiers from disease. The good women in Hungary spiritedly
resented the assumption that these girls, simply because they are the
least protected of any class in the community, should be subjected to
this insult.

An instance of this sort once again illustrates that moral passion
is the only solvent for prejudice, and that women have come to feel
reproached and disturbed when they ignore the dynamic urgency of
memories as fundamental as those upon which prohibitive conventions are
based.




                              CHAPTER IV

                WOMEN’S MEMORIES--INTEGRATING INDUSTRY


If it has always been the mission of literature to translate the
particular act into something of the universal, to reduce the element
of crude pain in the isolated experience by bringing to the sufferer a
realization that his is but the common lot, this mission may have been
performed through such stories as that of the Devil Baby for simple,
hardworking women who at any given moment compose the bulk of the women
in the world.

Certainly some of the visitors to the Devil Baby attempted to
generalize and evidently found a certain enlargement of the horizon,
an interpretation of life as it were, in the effort. They exhibited
that confidence which sometimes comes to the more literate person
when, finding himself morally isolated among those hostile to his
immediate aims, his reading assures him that other people in the world
have thought as he does. Later when he dares to act on the conviction
his own experience has forced upon him, he has become so conscious of
a cloud of witnesses torn out of literature and warmed into living
comradeship, that he scarcely distinguishes them from the likeminded
people actually in the world whom he has later discovered as a
consequence of his deed.

In some of the reminiscences related by working women I was surprised,
not so much by the fact that memory could integrate the individual
experience into a sense of relation with the more impersonal aspects
of life, as that the larger meaning had been obtained when the
fructifying memory had had nothing to feed upon but the harshest and
most monotonous of industrial experiences.

I held a conversation with one such woman when she came to confess that
her long struggle was over and that she and her sister had at last
turned their faces to the poorhouse. She clearly revealed not only
that she had caught a glimpse of the great social forces of her day,
but that she had had the ability to modify her daily living by what she
had perceived.

Perhaps, under the shadow of a tragic surrender, she had obtained a
new sense of values, or at least had made up her mind that it was not
worth while any longer to conceal her genuine experiences, for she
talked more fully of her hard life than I had ever heard her before
in the many years I had known her. She related in illuminating detail
an incident in her long effort of earning, by ill-paid and unskilled
labor, the money with which to support her decrepit mother and her
imbecile sister. For more than fifty years she had never for a moment
considered the possibility of sending either of them to a public
institution, although it had become almost impossible to maintain such
a household after the mother, who lived to be ninety-four years old,
had become utterly distraught.

She was still sharing her scanty livelihood with the feeble-minded
sister, although she herself was unable to do anything but wash
vegetables and peel potatoes in a small restaurant of her neighborhood.
The cold water necessary to these processes made her hands, already
crippled with rheumatism, so bad that on some days she could not hold
anything smaller than a turnip, although the other people in the
kitchen surreptitiously helped her all they could and the cooks gave
her broken food to carry home to the ever hungry sister.

She told of her monotonous years in a box factory, where she had always
worked with the settled enmity of the other employes. They regarded her
as a pace setter, and she, obliged to work fast and furiously in order
to keep three people, and full of concern for her old mother’s many
unfulfilled needs, had never understood what the girls meant when they
talked about standing by each other.

She did not change in her attitude even when she found the prices of
piece work went down lower and lower, so that at last she was obliged
to work overtime late into the night in order to earn the small amount
she had previously earned by day. She was seventy years old when the
legality of the Illinois Ten Hour Law was contested, and her employer
wanted her to testify in court that she was opposed to the law because
she could not have supported her old mother all those years unless
she had been allowed to work nights. She found herself at last dimly
conscious of what it was that her long time enemies, the union girls,
had been trying to do, and a subconscious loyalty to her own kind made
it impossible for her to bear testimony against them. She did not
analyze her motives but told me that, fearing she might yield to her
employer’s request, in sheer panic she had abruptly left his factory
and moved her helpless household to another part of the city on the
very day she was expected to appear in court. In her haste she left
four days unpaid wages behind her, and moving the family took all the
money she had painstakingly saved for the coming winter’s coal. She had
unknowingly moved into a neighborhood of cheap restaurants, and from
that time on she worked in any of them which would employ her until now
at last she was too feeble to be of much use to anybody.

Although she had never joined the Union which finally became so
flourishing in the box factory she had left, she was conscious that in
a moment of great temptation she had refrained from seeking her own
advantage at the expense of others. As she bunglingly tried to express
her motives, she said: “The Irish--you know I was ten years old when we
came over--often feel like that; it isn’t exactly that you are sorry
after you have done a thing, nor so much that you don’t do it because
you know you will be sorry afterwards, nor that anything in particular
will happen to you if you do it, but that you haven’t the heart for it,
that it goes against your nature.”

When I expressed my admiration for her prompt action she replied:
“I have never told this before except to one person, to a woman who
was organizing for the garment workers and who came to my house one
night about nine o’clock, just as I was having my supper. I had it
late in those days because I used to scrub the restaurant floor after
everybody left. My sister was asleep back of the stove, I looked sharp
not to wake her up and I don’t believe the Union woman ever knew that
she wasn’t just like other people. The organizer was looking for some
of the women living in our block who had been taking work from the
shops ever since the strike was on. She was clean tired out, and when
I offered her a cup of tea she said as quick as a flash, ‘You are not
a scab, are you?’ I just held up my poor old hands before her face,
swollen red from scrubbing and full of chilblains, and I told her that
I couldn’t sew a stitch if my life depended on it.

“When I offered her the second cup of tea--a real educated-looking
woman she was, and she must have been used to better tea than mine
boiled out of the old tea leaves the restaurant cook always let me
bring home--I said to her, ‘My hands aren’t the only reason I’m not
scabbing. I see too much of the miserable wages these women around here
get for their sweatshop work, and I’ve done enough harm already with
my pace setting, and my head so full of my poor old mother that I never
thought of anybody else.’ She smiled at me and nodded her head over my
old cracked cup. ‘You are a Union woman all right,’ she said. ‘You have
the true spirit whether you carry a card or not. I am mighty glad to
have met you after all the scabs I have talked to this day.’”

The old woman repeated the words as one who solemnly recalls the great
phrase which raised him into a knightly order, revealing a secret pride
in her unavowed fellowship with Trades Unions, for she had vaguely
known at the time of the Ten Hour trial that powerful federations of
them had paid for the lawyers and had gathered the witnesses. Some
dim memory of Irish ancestors, always found on the side of the weak
in the unending struggle with the oppressions of the strong, may have
determined her action. She may have been dominated by a subconscious
suggestion “from the dust that sleeps,” a suggestion so simple, so
insistent and monotonous that it had victoriously survived its original
sphere of conduct.

It was in keeping with the drab colored experiences of her seventy hard
years that her contribution to the long struggle should have been one
of inglorious flight, nevertheless she had gallantly recognized the
Trades Union organizer as a comrade in a common cause. She cherished in
her heart the memory of one golden moment when she had faintly heard
the trumpets summon her and had made her utmost response.

When the simple story of a lifetime of sacrifice to family obligations
and of one supreme effort to respond to a social claim came to an
end, I reflected that for more than half a century the narrator had
freely given all her time, all her earnings, all her affections, and
yet during the long period had developed no habit of self-pity. At a
crucial moment she had been able to estimate life, not in terms of her
self-immolation but in relation to a hard pressed multitude of fellow
workers.

As she sat there, a tall, gaunt woman broken through her devotion, she
inevitably suggested the industrial wrongs and oppressions suffered by
the women who, forgotten and neglected, perform so much of the unlovely
drudgery upon which our industrial order depends. At the moment I could
recall only one of her starved ambitions which to my knowledge had ever
been attained. When a friend tenderly placed a pair of white satin
slippers upon the coffined feet of her old mother who for more than
ninety years had travelled a long hard road and had stumbled against
many stones, the loving heart of the aged daughter overflowed. “It is
herself would know how I prayed for white satin shoes for the burial,
thinking as how they might make it up to mother, she who never knew
where the next pair was coming from and often had to borrow to go to
Mass.” I remembered that as my friend and I left the spotless bare room
wrapped in the mystery of death and walked back to Hull-House together,
we passed a little child who proudly challenged our attention to his
new shoes, “shiny” in the first moment of joyous possession. We could
but recognize the epitome of the hard struggle of the very poor, from
the moment they scramble out of their rude cradles until they are
lowered into their “partial payment” graves, to keep shoes upon their
feet. The rare moments of touching pleasure when the simple desire for
“a new pair” is fulfilled are doubtless indicated in the early fairy
tales by the rewards of glistening red shoes or glass slippers to the
good child; in the religious allegories which turn life itself into
one long pilgrimage, by the promises to the faithful that they shall
be shod with the sandals of righteousness and to the blessed ones, who
having formally renounced the world, forswearing shoes altogether and
humbly walking on without them, that their bruised and torn feet shall
yet gleam lily-white on the streets of Paradise.

I suddenly saw in this worn old woman who sat before me, what George
Sand described as “a rare and austere production of human suffering”
and was so filled with a fresh consciousness of the long barren road
travelled by the patient mother and daughter, that it merged into the
Via Dolorosa of the Poor of the world. It may have been through this
suggestion of an actual street that my memory vividly evoked a group
of Russian pilgrims I had once seen in Holy Week as they triumphantly
approached Jerusalem. Their heads, garlanded in wild flowers still
fresh with early dew, were lifted in joyous singing but their broken
and bleeding feet, bound in white cloth and thrust into sandals of
stripped bark, were the actual sacrifice they were devoutly offering at
the Sepulchre.

As my mind swiftly came back from the blossoming fields of Palestine to
the crowded industrial district of Chicago, I found myself recalling
a pensive remark made by the gifted Rachel Varnhagen, a century ago.
“Careless Fate never requires of us what we are really capable of
doing.”

This overwhelming sense of the waste in woman’s unused capacity came
to me again during a Garment Workers’ strike, when some of the young
women involved were sitting in the very chairs occupied so recently
by the visitors to the Devil Baby. They brought a curious reminder of
the overworked and heavily burdened mothers who had yet been able to
keep the taste of life in their mouths and who could not be overborne,
because their endurance was rooted in simple and instinctive human
affections. During the long strike these young women endured all
sorts of privations without flinching; some of them actual hunger,
most of them disapprobation from their families, and all of them a
loss of that money which alone could procure for them the American
standards so highly prized. Through participation in the strike they
all took the risk of losing their positions, and yet, facing a future
of unemployment and wretchedness, they displayed a stubborn endurance
which held out week after week.

Perhaps because of my recent conversations with old women I received
the impression that the very power of resistance in such a socialized
undertaking as a strike, presents a marked contrast in both its
origin and motives to the traditional type of endurance exercised by
the mothers and grandmothers of the strikers or by their acquaintances
among domestic women living in the same crowded tenements.

When a mother cares for a sick child for days and nights without
relief, the long period of solicitude and dread exhausting every
particle of her vitality, her strength is constantly renewed from the
vast reservoirs of maternal love and pity whenever she touches the
soft flesh or hears the plaintive little voice. But such girls as the
strikers represent are steadily bending their energies to loveless
and mechanical labor, and are obliged to go on without this direct
and personal renewal of their powers of resistance. They must be
sustained as soldiers on a forced march are sustained, by their sense
of comradeship in high endeavor. Naturally, some of the young working
women are never able to achieve this and can keep on with the monotony
of factory work only when they persuade themselves that they are
getting ready, and have not yet begun their own lives, because real
living for them must include a home of their own and children to “do
for.”

Such unutilized dynamic power illustrates the stupid waste of those
impulses and affections, registered in the very bodily structure
itself, which are ruthlessly pushed aside and considered of no moment
to the work in which so many women are now engaged. My conversations
with these girls of modern industry continually filled me with surprise
that, required as they are to work under conditions unlike those
which women have ever before encountered, they have not only made a
remarkable adaptation but have so ably equipped themselves with a new
set of motives. The girl who stands on one spot for fifty-six hours
each week as she feeds a machine, endlessly repeating the identical
motions of her arms and wrists, is much further from the type of
woman’s traditional activity than her mother who cooks, cleans, and
washes for the household. The young woman who spends her time in
packing biscuits into boxes which come to her down a chute and are
whirled away from her on a miniature trolley, has never even seen how
the biscuits are made, for the factory proper is separated from the
packing room by a door with the sign “No Admittance.” She must work all
day without the vital and direct interest in the hourly results of her
labors which her mother had.

These girls present a striking antithesis to the visitors to the Devil
Baby who in their forlorn and cheerless efforts were merely continuing
the traditional struggle against brutality, indifference, and neglect
that helpless old people and little children might not be trampled
in the dust. For these simple women it is the conditions under which
the struggle is waged which have changed, rather than the nature of
the contest. Even in this unlovely struggle, the older women utilize
well-seasoned faculties, in contrast to the newly developed powers
required by the multitude of young girls who for the first time in the
long history of woman’s labor, are uniting their efforts in order to
obtain opportunities for a fuller and more normal living. Organizing
with men and women of divers nationalities they are obliged to form new
ties absolutely unlike family bonds. On the other hand, these girls
possess the enormous advantage over women of the domestic type of
having experienced the discipline arising from impersonal obligations
and of having tasted the freedom from economic dependence, so valuable
that too heavy a price can scarcely be paid for it.

This clash between the traditional conception of woman’s duty narrowed
solely to family obligations and the claims arising from the complexity
of the industrial situation, manifests scarcely a suggestion of
the latent war so vaguely apprehended from the earliest times as a
possibility between men and women. Even the restrained Greeks believed
that when the obscure women at the bottom of society could endure no
longer and “the oppressed women struck back, it would not be justice
which came but the revenge of madness.” My own observation has
discovered little suggesting this mood, certainly not among the women
active in the Labor Movement.

I recall the recent experience of an organizer whom I very much admire
for her valiant services in the garment trades and whom I have known
from her earliest girlhood. Her character confirms the contention that
our chief concern with the past is not what we have done, nor the
adventures we have met, but the moral reaction of bygone events within
ourselves.

As an orphaned child she had been cared for by two aunts who owned
between them a little shop which pretended to be a tailoring
establishment, but which in reality was a distributing centre for home
work among the Italian women and newly immigrated Russian Jews living
in the neighborhood. Her aunts, because they were Americans, superior
in education and resources to the humble home workers, by dint of much
bargaining both with the wholesale houses from which they procured the
garments, and with the foreign women to whom they distributed them,
had been able to secure a very good commission. For many years they
had made a comfortable living, and in addition had acquired an exalted
social position in the neighborhood, for they were much looked up to by
those so dependent upon them for work.

Although my friend was expected to help in the shop as much as
possible, she was sent regularly to school and had already “graduated
from the eighth grade,” when a law was passed in the Illinois
legislature, popularly known as the Anti Sweat-shop Law, which, within
a year, had ruined her aunts’ business. After they had been fined in
court for violating the law, a case which obtained much publicity
because smallpox was discovered in two of the tenement houses in
which the home finishers were living, the aunts were convinced that
they could not continue to give out work to the Italian and Russian
Jewish women. Reluctantly foregoing their commissions they then tried
crowding their own house and shop with workers, only to be again taken
into court and fined when the inspector discovered their kitchen and
bedrooms full of half-finished garments. They both flatly refused to
go into a factory to work, and after a futile attempt to revive the
tailoring business, never very genuine, they were finally reduced
to the dimensions of the tiny shop itself, which, under the new
regulations as to light and air could accommodate but three people. My
friend was at once taken from school and made one of these ill-paid
workers and the little household was held together on the pittance the
three could earn.

It was but natural, perhaps, that as these displaced proprietors became
poorer they should ever grow more bitter against the reformers and
the Trades Unionists who, between them, had secured the “high-brow”
legislation which had destroyed their honest business.

The niece was married at eighteen to a clerk in a neighboring
department store who worked four evenings a week and every other Sunday
in his determination to get on. The bride moved into a more prosperous
neighborhood and I saw little of her husband or herself for ten
years, during which time they made four payments on the little house
they occupied fully three miles from the now abandoned sweat-shop. Her
husband worked hard with a consuming desire to rear his children in
good surroundings as much as possible unlike the slums, as he somewhat
brutally designated the neighborhood of his own youth. Through his
unrelieved years in the cheap department store where, however, he had
always felt a great satisfaction in being well dressed and had resisted
any attempts of his fellow clerks to shorten their preposterous hours
by trades-union organization, his health was gradually undermined and
he finally developed tuberculosis. He was unable to support his family
during the last decade of his life, and in her desperate need my friend
went back to the only trade she had, that of finishing garments. During
these years, although she sold the little house and placed her boy in
a semi-philanthropic institution, she steadily faced the problem of
earning insufficient wages for the support of the family, the pang
of her failure constantly augmented by the knowledge that, in spite
of her utmost efforts, the invalid never received the food and care
his condition required. The clothing factory in which she then worked
illustrated the lowest ebb in the fortune of the garment workers in
American cities when, the sweat shop having been largely eliminated
through the efforts of the factory inspectors, the workers from every
land were crowded into the hastily organized factories. Separated by
their diverse languages and through their long habits of home work,
they had become too secretive even to tell one another the amount
of wages each was receiving. It was as if the competition had been
transferred from the sweat shop contractors to the individual workers
themselves, sitting side by side in the same room, and perhaps it was
not surprising that the workers felt as if they had been hunted down
into their very kitchens and their poverty cruelly exposed to public
view.

My friend shared this wretchedness and carried into it the bitterness
of her early experience. She says now that she never caught even a
suggestion that this might be but a transitional period to a more
ordered sort of industrial life.

She did not tell me just when and how she had come to the conclusion
that wages must be higher, that legal enactment for better conditions
must be supplemented by the efforts of the workers themselves, but it
was absolutely clear that she had independently reached that conclusion
long before a strike in the clothing industry brought her into contact
with the organized Labor Movement. It was certainly not until the year
of her husband’s death that she became aware of the industrial changes
which had been taking place during the twenty-two years since her
aunts’ business had been ruined.

She was grateful that the knowledge had first come to her through
an Italian girl working by her side, for, as she explained, her old
attitude toward the “dagoes,” as a people to be exploited, had to be
thoroughly changed before she could be of much real use in organizing a
trade in which so many Italians were engaged. Even during the strike
itself, to which she was thoroughly committed, having been convinced
both of its inevitability and of the justice of its demands, she
resented the fact that the leadership was in the hands of Russian Jews
and, secure in her Americanism, she felt curiously aloof from the group
with which she was so intimately identified.

A few months after the strike my friend fortunately secured a place in
a manufactory of men’s clothing, in which there had been instituted
a Trade Board for the adjustment of grievances, and where wages and
hours were determined by joint agreement. When she was elected to
the position of shop representative she found herself in the midst
of one of the most interesting experiments being carried on in the
United States, not only from the standpoint of labor but from that of
applying the principles of representative government in a new field.
She felt the stimulus of being a part in that most absorbing of all
occupations--the reconstruction of a living world.

One evening, at Hull-House, as she came out of a citizenship class
she had been attending, she tried to express some of the implications
of the great undertaking in which more than ten thousand clothing
employes are engaged. She repeated the statement made by the leader
of the class that it was the solemn duty and obligation of the United
States not only to keep a republican form of government alive upon
the face of the earth and to fulfill the expectations of the founders
but to modify and develope that type of government as conditions
changed; he had said that the spirit of the New England town meeting
might be manifested through a referendum vote in a large city, and
that it must find some such vehicle of expression if it would survive
under changed conditions. Her eyes were quite shining as she made her
application to the experiment being carried on in the great clothing
factory, with its many shops and departments unified in mutual effort.
Evidently her attention had been caught by the similarity between the
town meeting in its relation to a more elaborated form of government
and the small isolated sweat-shop such as that formerly managed by
her aunts, in its relation to the “biggest clothing factory in the
world.” She had heard her fellow workers say that the “greenhorn” often
found much friendliness in a small shop where his own language was
spoken, and where he could earn at least a humble living until he grew
accustomed to the habits of a new country, whereas he would have been
lost and terrified in a factory. She felt very strongly the necessity
of translating this sense of comradeship and friendliness into larger
terms, and she believed that it could be done by the united workers.

As she sat by my desk, this woman who had not yet attained her fortieth
year looked much older, as if illustrating the saying that hard labor
so early robs the poor man of his youth that it makes his old age too
long. She seemed to me for the moment to have gathered up in her own
experience the transition from old conditions to new and to be standing
on the threshold of a great development in the lives of working women.

As if she were conscious that I was recalling her past with which I
had been so familiar, she began to speak again. “You know that I have
both of my children with me now; the girl graduates from the Normal
School in June and hopes to put herself through the University after
she has taught for a few years. She reminds me of her father in her
anxiety to know people of education, to get on in the world, and I am
sure she will succeed. The boy has caught the other motive of pulling
up with his own trade and of standing by the organized Labor Movement.
Of course, sewing was too dull for him, and besides he grew ambitious
to be a machinist when he was in the Industrial School where I put
him with such a breaking of the heart when he was only ten years old.
He has to admit, however, that even his own Machinists’ Union, with
its traditional trade agreements and joint boards, is far behind our
experiment. He went with me to the banquet on May Day. We had marched
through the Loop in celebration of our new agreement and had stirring
speeches at the Auditorium in the afternoon, but it was in the evening
that we really felt at home with each other. When he saw the tremendous
enthusiasm for our beloved leader--my boy, I am sorry to say, is a
little inclined to despise foreigners and also tailors because they
aren’t as big and brawny as the members of his dear Machinists’
Union--and really caught some notion of the statesmanlike ability
required for the successful management of such a complicated and
difficult industrial experiment, and when he realized that the ten per
cent increase provided for in the new agreement was to go in greater
proportion to those at the lower end of the scale, he suddenly forgot
his prejudices and I saw him applauding with his hands and feet as if
he had really let loose at last.

“Of course, it hasn’t been easy for me even during these later years
to keep Helen in school and to support my aunt who is now too old and
broken even to keep house for us. But we have got on, and quite aside
from everything else I am thankful to have had a small share in this
forward step in American democracy--at least, that’s what they called
it at the banquet,” she ended shyly.

The experience of my friend bore testimony that in spite of all their
difficulties and handicaps, something of social value is forced out
of the very situation itself among that vast multitude of women whose
oppression through the centuries has typified a sense of helpless and
intolerable wrongs. Many of them, even the older ones, are being made
slowly conscious of the subtle and impalpable filaments that secretly
bind their experiences and moods into larger relations, and they are
filled with a new happiness analogous to that of little children when
they are first taught to join hands in ordered play.

Is such enthusiastic participation in organized effort but one
manifestation of that desire for liberty and for a larger participation
in life, found in great women’s souls all over the world?

In pursuance of such a desire the working women have the enormous
advantage of constant association with each other, an advantage dimly
perceived even by pioneer women two hundred years ago.

The hostesses of the famous drawing-rooms of the eighteenth century
laid great stress on human intercourse as the individual’s best means
of cultivation. Certain French women gave as a _raison d’etre_ for
their brilliant salons that “people must come together in order to
exercise justice,” and they became enormously proud of the fact that by
the end of the century “all Europe was thrown into a state of agitation
if injustice were committed in any corner of it.”

This hypothesis was gallantly laid down a hundred years before the
industrial revolution which, in its consummation, has congregated
millions of women into factories all over the world. These myriad
women, most of them young and untrained and all of them working under
new industrial conditions, are gradually learning to “exercise justice”
if only because they have “come together.” Their association has been
accomplished under the stress of a common necessity, and they have
been tutored in a mass at the hard school of bitter experience.

Were the sheltered drawing-room ladies the forerunners of such
contemporary advocates of industrial justice or do we find a better
prototype in those simple old women who, having reared their own
children and having come to be regarded as a depository for domestic
wisdom, dispense sound advice to bewildered mothers which always
contains the admonition, “Never be partial to any one of them, always
be as just as you know how.”

Possibly women’s organizations of all types are but providing
ever-widening channels through which woman’s moral energy may flow,
revivifying life by new streams fed in the upper reaches of her
undiscovered capacities. In either case, we may predict that to
control old impulses so that they may be put to social uses, to serve
the present through memories hoarding woman’s genuine experiences,
may liberate energies hitherto unused and may result in a notable
enrichment of the pattern of human culture.




                               CHAPTER V

                   WOMEN’S MEMORIES--CHALLENGING WAR


I was sharply reminded of an obvious division between high tradition
and current conscience in several conversations I held during the
great European war with women who had sent their sons to the front
in unquestioning obedience to the demands of the State, but who,
owing to their own experiences, had found themselves in the midst of
that ever-recurring struggle, often tragic and bitter, between two
conceptions of duty, one of which is antagonistic to the other.

One such woman,[1] who had long been identified with the care of
delinquent children and had worked for many years towards the
establishment of a Children’s Court, had asked me many questions
concerning the psychopathic clinic in the Juvenile Court in Chicago,
comparing it to the brilliant work accomplished in her own city through
the coöperation of the university faculty. The Imperial government
itself had recently recognized the value of this work and at the
outbreak of the war was rapidly developing a system through which the
defective child might be discovered early in his school career, and
might not only be saved from delinquency but such restricted abilities
as he possessed be trained for the most effective use. “Through all
these years,” she said, “I had grown accustomed to the fact that the
government was deeply concerned in the welfare of the least promising
child. I had felt my own efforts so identified with it that I had
unconsciously come to regard the government as an agency for nurturing
human life and had apparently forgotten its more primitive functions.

[1] The following conversation is a composite made from several talks
held with each of two women representing both sides of the conflict.
Their opinions and observations are merged into one because in so many
particulars they were either identical or overlapping. Both women
called themselves patriots, but each had become convinced of the folly
of war.

“I was proud of the fact that my son held a state position as
professor of Industrial Chemistry in the University, because I knew
that the research in his department would ultimately tend to alleviate
the harshness of factory conditions, and to make for the well-being of
the working classes in whose children I had become so interested.

“When my son’s regiment was mobilized and sent to the front I think
that it never occurred to me, any more than it did to him, to question
his duty. His professional training made him a valuable member of the
Aviation Corps, and when, in those first weeks of high patriotism his
letters reported successful scouting or even devastating raids, I felt
only a solemn satisfaction. But gradually through the months, when
always more of the people’s food supply and constantly more men were
taken by the government for its military purposes, when I saw the state
institutions for defectives closed, the schools abridged or dismissed,
women and children put to work in factories under hours and conditions
which had been legally prohibited years before, when the very
governmental officials who had been so concerned for the welfare of the
helpless were bent only upon the destruction of the enemy at whatever
cost to their fellow-citizens, the State itself gradually became for me
an alien and hostile thing.

“In response to the appeal made by the government to the instinct of
self-preservation, the men of the nation were ardent and eager to
take any possible risks, to suffer every hardship, and were proud to
give their lives in their country’s service. But was it inevitable,
I constantly asked myself, that the great nations of Europe should
be reduced to such a primitive appeal? Why should they ignore all
the other motives which enter into modern patriotism and are such an
integral part of devotion to the state that they must in the end be
reckoned with?

“I am sure that I had reached these conclusions before my own tragedy
came, before my son was fatally wounded in a scouting aëroplane and
his body later thrown overboard into a lonely swamp. It was six weeks
before I knew what had happened and it was during that period that I
felt most strongly the folly and waste of putting men, trained as my
son had been, to the barbaric business of killing. This tendency in
my thinking may have been due to a hint he had given me in the very
last letter I ever received from him, of a change that was taking
place within himself. He wrote that whenever he heard the firing of
a huge field-piece he knew that the explosion consumed years of the
taxes which had been slowly accumulated by some hard-working farmer or
shopkeeper, and that he unconsciously calculated how fast industrial
research would have gone forward, had his department been given once
a decade the costs of a single day of warfare, with the government’s
command to turn back into alleviation of industrial conditions the
taxes which the people had paid. He regretted that he was so accustomed
to analysis that his mind would not let the general situation alone
but wearily went over it again and again; and then he added that this
war was tearing down the conception of government which had been so
carefully developed during this generation in the minds of the very men
who had worked hardest to fulfill that conception.

“Although the letter sounded like a treatise on government, I knew
there was a personal pang somewhere behind this sombre writing, even
though he added his old joking promise that when their fathers were no
longer killed in industry, he would see what he could do for my little
idiots.

“At the very end of the letter he wrote, and they were doubtless the
last words he ever penned, that he felt as if science herself in this
mad world had also become cruel and malignant.

“I learned later that it was at this time that he had been consulted
in the manufacture of asphyxiating gases, because the same gases
are used in industry and he had made experiments to determine
their poisonousness in different degrees of dilution. The original
investigation with which he had been identified had been carried on
that the fumes released in a certain industrial process might be
prevented from injuring the men who worked in the factory. I know how
hard it must have been for him to put knowledge acquired in his long
efforts to protect normal living to the brutal use of killing men. It
was literally a forced act of prostitution.”

As if to free her son’s memory from any charge of lack of patriotism,
after a few moments she continued: “These modern men of science are
red-blooded, devoted patriots, facing dangers of every sort in mines
and factories and leading strenuous lives in spite of the popular
conception of the pale anæmic scholar, but because they are equally
interested in scientific experiments wherever they may be carried on,
they inevitably cease to think of national boundaries in connection
with their work. The international mind, which really does exist in
spite of the fact that it is not yet equipped with adequate organs
for international government, has become firmly established, at least
among scientists. They have known the daily stimulus of a wide and free
range of contacts. They have become interpenetrated with the human
consciousness of fellow scientists all over the world.

“I hope that I am no whining coward--my son gave his life to his
country as many another brave man has done, but I do envy the mothers
whose grief is at least free from this fearful struggle of opposing
ideals and traditions. My old father, who is filled with a solemn pride
over his grandson’s gallant record and death, is most impatient with
me. I heard him telling a friend the other day that my present state
of mind was a pure demonstration of the folly of higher education for
women; that it was preposterous and more than human flesh could bear
to combine an intellectual question on the function of government with
a mother’s sharp agony over the death of her child. He said he had
always contended that women, at least those who bear children, had no
business to consider questions of this sort, and that the good sense
of his position was demonstrated now that such women were losing their
children in war. It was enough for women to know that government
waged war to protect their firesides and to preserve the nation from
annihilation; at any rate, they should keep their minds free from silly
attempts to reason it out. It’s all Bertha von Suttner’s book and other
nonsense that the women are writing, he exploded at the end.”

Then as if she were following another line of reminiscence she
began again. “My son left behind him a war bride, for he obeyed the
admonition of the statesmen, as well as the commands of the military
officers in those hurried heroic days. But the hasty wooing betrayed
all his ideals of marriage quite as fighting men of other nations
did violence to his notions of patriotism, and the recklessness of a
destructive air raid outraged his long devotion to science. Of course
his child will be a comfort to us and his poor little bride is filled
with a solemn patriotism which never questions any aspect of the
situation. When she comes to see us and I listen to the interminable
talk she has with my father, I am grateful for the comfort they give
each other, but when I hear them repeating those hideous stories of
the conduct of the enemy which accumulate every month and upon which
the war spirit continually feeds itself, I with difficulty refrain from
crying out upon them that he whose courage and devotion they praise so
loudly would never have permitted such talk of hatred and revenge in
his presence; that he who lived in the regions of science and whose
intrepid mind was bent upon the conquest of truth, must feel that he
had died in vain did he know to what exaggerations and errors the
so-called patriotism of his beloved country had stooped.

“I listen to them thinking that if I were either older or younger
it would not be so hard for me, and I have an unreal impression
that it would have been easier for my son if the war had occurred
in the first flush of his adventurous youth. Eager as he had been
to serve his country, he would not then have asked whether it could
best be accomplished by losing his life in a scouting aëroplane or
by dedicating a trained mind to industrial amelioration. He might
then easily have preferred the first and he certainly would never
have been tormented by doubts. But when he was thirty-one years old
and had long known that he was steadily serving his country through
careful researches, the results of which would both increase the
nation’s productivity and protect its humblest citizens, he could not
do otherwise than to judge and balance social values. I am, of course,
proud of his gallant spirit, that did not for a moment regret his
decision to die for his country, but I can make the sacrifice seem in
character only when I place him back in his early youth.

“At times I feel immeasurably old, and in spite of my father’s
contention that I am too intellectual, I am consciously dominated
by one of those overwhelming impulses belonging to women as such,
irrespective of their mental training, in their revolt against war.
After all, why should one disregard such imperative instincts? We
know perfectly well that the trend of a given period in history has
been influenced by ‘habits of preference’ and by instinctive actions
founded upon repeated and unrecorded experiences of an analogous kind;
that desires to seek and desires to avoid are in themselves the very
incalculable material by which the tendencies of an age are modified.
The women in all the belligerent countries who feel so alike in regard
to the horror and human waste of this war and yet refrain from speaking
out, may be putting into jeopardy that power inherent in human affairs
to right themselves through mankind’s instinctive shifting towards
what the satisfactions recommend and the antagonisms repulse. The
expression of such basic impulses in regard to human relationships may
be most important in this moment of warfare which is itself a reversion
to primitive methods of determining relations between man and man or
nation and nation.

“Certainly the women in every country who are under a profound
imperative to preserve human life, have a right to regard this maternal
impulse as important now as was the compelling instinct evinced by
primitive women long ago, when they made the first crude beginnings
of society by refusing to share the vagrant life of man because they
insisted upon a fixed abode in which they might cherish their children.
Undoubtedly women were then told that the interests of the tribe, the
diminishing food supply, the honor of the chieftain, demanded that they
leave their particular caves and go out in the wind and weather without
regard to the survival of their children. But at the present moment
the very names of the tribes and of the honors and glories which they
sought are forgotten, while the basic fact that the mothers held the
lives of their children above all else, insisted upon staying where the
children had a chance to live, and cultivated the earth for their food,
laid the foundations of an ordered society.

“My son used to say that my scientific knowledge was most irregular,
but profound experiences such as we are having in this war throw
to the surface of one’s mind all sorts of opinions and half-formed
conclusions. The care for conventions, for agreement with one’s
friends, is burned away. One is concerned to express only ultimate
conviction even though it may differ from all the rest of the world.
This is true in spite of the knowledge that every word will be caught
up in an atmosphere of excitement and of that nervous irritability
which is always close to grief and to moments of high emotion.

“In the face of many distressing misunderstandings I am certain
that if a minority of women in every country would clearly express
their convictions they would find that they spoke not for themselves
alone but for those men for whom the war has been a laceration,--‘an
abdication of the spirit.’ Such women would doubtless formulate the
scruples of certain soldiers whose ‘mouths are stopped by courage,’
men who months ago with closed eyes rushed to the defence of their
countries.

“It may also be true that as the early days of this war fused us all
into an overwhelming sense of solidarity until each felt absolutely
at one with all his fellow-countrymen, so the sensitiveness to
differences is greatly intensified and the dissenting individual has
an exaggerated sense of isolation. I try to convince myself that this
is the explanation of my abominable and constant loneliness, which is
almost unendurable.

“I have never been a Feminist and have always remained quite unmoved
by the talk of the peculiar contribution women might make to the
State, but during the last dreadful months, in spite of women’s
widespread enthusiasm for the war and their patriotic eagerness to
make the supreme sacrifice, I have become conscious of an unalterable
cleavage between Militarism and Feminism. The Militarists believe that
government finally rests upon a basis of physical force, and in a
crisis such as this, Militarism, in spite of the spiritual passion in
war, finds its expression in the crudest forms of violence.

“It would be absurd for women even to suggest equal rights in a world
governed solely by physical force, and Feminism must necessarily assert
the ultimate supremacy of moral agencies. Inevitably the two are in
eternal opposition.

“I have always agreed with the Feminists that, so far as force plays
a great part in the maintenance of an actual social order, it is
due to the presence of those elements which are in a steady process
of elimination; and of course as society progresses the difficulty
arising from woman’s inferiority in physical strength must become
proportionately less. One of the most wretched consequences of war is
that it arrests these beneficent social processes and throws everything
back into a coarser mould. The fury of war, enduring but for a few
months or years, may destroy slow-growing social products which it
will take a century to recreate--the ‘consent of the governed,’ for
instance....

“But why do I talk like this! My father would call it one of my
untrained and absurd theories about social progress and the functions
of government concerning which I know nothing, and would say that I
had no right to discuss the matter in this time of desperate struggle.
Nevertheless it is better for me in these hideous long days and nights
to drive my mind forward even to absurd conclusions than to let it
fall into one of those vicious circles in which it goes round and round
to no purpose.”

In absolute contrast to this sophisticated, possibly oversophisticated,
mother was a simple woman who piteously showed me a piece of shrapnel
taken from her son’s body by his comrades, which they had brought
home to her in a literal-minded attempt at comfort. They had told
her that the shrapnel was made in America and she showed it to me,
believing that I could at sight recognize the manufactured products
of my fellow-countrymen. She apparently wished to have the statement
either confirmed or denied, because she was utterly bewildered in her
feeling about the United States and all her previous associations with
it. In her fresh grief, stricken as she was, she was bewildered by a
sudden reversal of her former ideals. Many of her relatives had long
ago emigrated to America, including two brothers living in the Western
states, whom she had hoped to visit in her old age. For many reasons,
throughout her youth and early womanhood, she had thought of that
far-away country as a kindly place where every man was given his chance
and where the people were all friendly to each other irrespective of
the land in which they had been born. To have these same American
people send back the ammunition which had killed her son was apparently
incomprehensible to her.

She presented, it seemed to me, a clear case of that humble
internationalism which is founded not upon theories, but upon the
widespread immigration of the last fifty years, interlacing nation to
nation with a thousand kindly deeds. Her older brother had a fruit
ranch which bordered upon one of those co-operative Italian colonies
so successful in California, and he had frequently sent home presents
from his Italian neighbors with his own little cargoes. The whole had
evidently been prized by his family as a symbol of American good-will
and of unbounded opportunity. Her younger brother had attained some
measure of success as a contractor in an inland town, and when he had
written home of the polyglot composition of the gangs of men upon
whose labors his little fortune had been founded, she had taken it as
an example of all nationalities and religions working happily together.
He had also served one term as mayor, obviously having been elected
through his popularity with the same foreign colonies from which his
employes had been drawn.

For many reasons therefore she had visualized America as a land
in which all nationalities understood each other with a resulting
friendliness which was not possible in Europe, not because the people
still living in Europe were different from those who had gone to
America, but because the latter, having emigrated, had a chance to
express their natural good-will for everybody. The nations at war
in Europe suggested to her simple mind the long past days of her
grandmother’s youth when a Protestant threw stones at a Catholic just
because he was “different.” The religious liberty in America was
evidently confused in her mind with this other liberalism in regard to
national differences.

Holding this conception of actual internationalism as it had been
evolved among simple people, crude and abortive though it was, she had
been much more shocked by the fact that friendly Americans should make
ammunition to be used for killing any human being than by the actual
war itself, because the war was taking place in Europe, where it was
still quite natural for a German to fight against a Frenchman or an
Italian against an Austrian.

Her son had been a Socialist and from the discussions he sometimes held
with his comrades in her house, she had grown familiar with certain
phrases which she had taken literally and in some curious fashion had
solemnly come to believe were put into practice in her El Dorado of
America.

The arguments I had used so many times with her fellow-countrymen
to justify America’s sale of ammunition, ponderously beginning with
The Hague conventions of 1907, I found useless in the face of this
idealistic version of America’s good-will.

She was evidently one of those people whose affections go out to groups
and impersonal causes quite as much as to individuals, thus often
supplementing and enlarging harsh and narrow conditions of living. She
certainly obtained a curiously personal comfort out of her idealization
of America. Her conversation revealed what I had often vaguely felt
before when men as well as women talked freely of the war, that her
feelings had been hurt, that her very conception of human nature had
received a sharp shock and set-back. To her the whole world and America
in particular would henceforth seem less kind and her spirit would be
less at home. She was tormented by that ever recurring question which
perhaps can never be answered for any of us too confidently in the
affirmative, “Is the Universe friendly?” The troubled anguish in her
old eyes confirmed her statement that the thought of the multitude of
men who were being killed all over the world oppressed her day and
night. This old woman had remained faithful to the cause of moral unity
and bore her humble testimony to one of the noblest and profoundest
needs of the human spirit.

These efforts at spiritual adjustment necessitated by the war are
attempted by many people, from the simple souls whose hard-won
conceptions of a friendly universe have been brought tumbling about
their ears, to the thinking men who are openly disappointed to find
civilized nations so irrational. Such efforts are encountered in all
the belligerent nations as well as in the neutral ones, although in
the former they are often inhibited and overlaid by an overwhelming
patriotism. Nevertheless, as I met those women who were bearing their
hardships and sorrows so courageously, I often caught a glimpse of an
inner struggle, as if two of the most fundamental instincts, the two
responsible for our very development as human beings, were at strife
with each other. The first is tribal loyalty, such unquestioning
acceptance of the tribe’s morals and standards that the individual
automatically fights when the word comes; the second is woman’s
deepest instinct, that the child of her body must be made to live.

We are told that the peasants in Flanders, whose fields border upon
the very trenches, disconsolately came back to them last Spring and
continued to plough the familiar soil, regardless of the rain of
shrapnel falling into the fresh furrows; that the wine growers of
Champagne last Autumn insistently gathered their ripened grapes, though
the bombs of rival armies were exploding in their vineyards; why should
it then be surprising that certain women in every country have remained
steadfast to their old occupation of nurturing life, that they have
tenaciously held to their anxious concern that men should live, through
all the contagion and madness of the war fever which is infecting the
nations of the earth.

In its various manifestations the struggle in women’s souls suggests
one of those movements through which, at long historic intervals, the
human spirit has apparently led a revolt against itself, as it were,
exhibiting a moral abhorrence for certain cherished customs which, up
to that time, had been its finest expression. A moral rebellion of this
sort was inaugurated three thousand years ago both in Greece and Judea
against the old custom of human sacrifice. That a man should slay his
own child and stand unmoved as the burning flesh arose to his gods was
an act of piety, of courage, and of devotion to ideals, so long as he
performed the rite wholeheartedly. But after there had gradually grown
up in the minds of men first the suspicion, and then the conviction,
that it was unnecessary and impious to offer human flesh as a living
sacrifice, courage and piety shifted to the men who refused to conform
to this long-established custom. At last both the Greeks and the Jews
guarded themselves against the practice of human sacrifice with every
possible device. It gradually became utterly abhorrent to all civilized
peoples, an outrage against the elemental decencies, a profound
disturber of basic human relations. Poets and prophets were moved to
call it an abomination; statesmen and teachers denounced it as a
hideous barbarism, until now it is so nearly abolished by the entire
race that it is no longer found within the borders of civilization and
exists to-day only in jungles and hidden savage places.

There are indications that the human consciousness is reaching the same
stage of sensitiveness in regard to war as that which has been attained
in regard to human sacrifice. In this moment of almost universal
warfare there is evinced a widespread moral abhorrence against war,
as if its very existence were more than human nature could endure.
Citizens of every nation are expressing this moral compunction, which
they find in sharp conflict with current conceptions of patriotic duty.
It is perhaps inevitable that women should be challenged in regard
to it, should be called upon to give it expression in such stirring
words as those addressed to them by Romain Rolland, “Cease to be the
shadow of man and of his passion of pride and destruction. Have a clear
vision of the duty of pity! Be a living peace in the midst of war--the
eternal Antigone refusing to give herself up to hatred and knowing no
distinction between her suffering brothers who make war on each other.”

This may be a call to women to defend those at the bottom of society
who, irrespective of the victory or defeat of any army, are ever
oppressed and overburdened. The suffering mothers of the disinherited
feel the stirring of the old impulse to protect and cherish their
unfortunate children, and women’s haunting memories instinctively
challenge war as the implacable enemy of their age-long undertaking.




                              CHAPTER VI

            A PERSONAL EXPERIENCE IN INTERPRETATIVE MEMORY


Several years ago, during a winter spent in Egypt, I found within
myself an unexpected tendency to interpret racial and historic
experiences through personal reminiscences. I am therefore venturing to
record in this closing chapter my inevitable conclusion that a sincere
portrayal of a widespread and basic emotional experience, however
remote in point of time it may be, has the power overwhelmingly to
evoke memories of like moods in the individual.

The unexpected revival in my memory of long-forgotten experiences may
have been due partly to the fact that we have so long been taught
that the temples and tombs of ancient Egypt are the very earliest of
the surviving records of ideas and men, that we approach them with a
certain sense of familiarity, quite ready to claim a share in these
“family papers and title deeds of the race.”

We also consider it probable that these primitive human records
will stir within us certain early states of consciousness, having
learned, with the readiness which so quickly attaches itself to the
pseudo-scientific phrase, that every child repeats in himself the
history of the race. Nevertheless, what I, at least, was totally
unprepared to encounter, was the constant revival of primitive and
overpowering emotions which I had experienced so long ago that they had
become absolutely detached from myself and seemed to belong to some one
else--to a small person with whom I was no longer intimate, and who was
certainly not in the least responsible for my present convictions and
reflections. It gradually became obvious that the ancient Egyptians had
known this small person quite intimately and had most seriously and
naïvely set down upon the walls of their temples and tombs her earliest
reactions in the presence of death.

At moments my adult intelligence would be unexpectedly submerged by the
emotional message which was written there. Rising to the surface like a
flood, this primitive emotion would sweep away both the historic record
and the adult consciousness interested in it, leaving only a child’s
mind struggling through an experience which it found overwhelming.

It may have been because these records of the early Egyptians are so
endlessly preoccupied with death, portraying man’s earliest efforts to
defeat it, his eager desire to survive, to enter by force or by guile
into the heavens of the western sky, that the mind is pushed back into
that earliest childhood when the existence of the soul, its exact place
of residence in the body, its experiences immediately after death,
its journeyings upward, its relation to its guardian angel, so often
afforded material for the crudest speculation. In the obscure renewal
of these childish fancies, there is nothing that is definite enough
to be called memory; it is rather that Egypt reproduces a state of
consciousness which has so absolutely passed into oblivion that only
the most powerful stimuli could revive it.

This revival doubtless occurs more easily because these early records
in relief and color not only suggest in their subject-matter that a
child has been endowed with sufficient self-consciousness to wish to
write down his own state of mind upon a wall, but also because the
very primitive style of drawing to which the Egyptians adhered long
after they had acquired a high degree of artistic freedom, is the
most natural technique through which to convey so simple and archaic
a message. The square shoulders of the men, the stairways done in
profile, and a hundred other details, constantly remind one of a
child’s drawings. It is as if the Egyptians had painstakingly portrayed
everything that a child has felt in regard to death, and having, during
the process, gradually discovered the style of drawing naturally
employed by a child, had deliberately stiffened it into an unchanging
convention. The result is that the traveller, reading in these
drawings which stretch the length of three thousand years, the long
endeavor to overcome death, finds that the experience of the two--the
child and the primitive people--often become confused, or rather that
they are curiously interrelated.

This begins from the moment the traveller discovers that the earliest
tombs surviving in Egypt, the mastabas,--which resemble the natural
results of a child’s first effort to place one stone upon another,--are
concerned only with size, as if that early crude belief in the power
of physical bulk to protect the terrified human being against all
shadowy evils were absolutely instinctive and universal. The mastabas
gradually develop into the pyramids, of which Breasted says that “they
are not only the earliest emergence of organized men and the triumph of
concerted effort, they are likewise a silent, but eloquent, expression
of the supreme endeavor to achieve immortality by sheer physical
force.” Both the mastabas at Sahkara and the pyramids at Gizeh, in the
sense of Tolstoy’s definition of art as that which reproduces in the
spectator the state of consciousness of the artist, at once appeal to
the child surviving in every adult, who insists irrationally, after
the manner of children, upon sympathizing with the attempt to shut out
death by strong walls.

Certainly we can all vaguely remember, when death itself, or stories
of ghosts, had come to our intimate child’s circle, that we went about
saying to ourselves that we were “not afraid,” that it “could not come
here,” that “the door was locked, the windows tight shut,” that “this
was a big house,” and a great deal more talk of a similar sort.

In the presence of these primitive attempts to defeat death, and
without the conscious aid of memory, I found myself living over the
emotions of a child six years old, saying some such words as I sat
on the middle of the stairway in my own home, which yet seemed alien
because all the members of the family had gone to the funeral of a
relative and would not be back until evening, “long after you are
in bed,” they had said. In this moment of loneliness and horror, I
depended absolutely upon the brick walls of the house to keep out the
prowling terror, and neither the talk of kindly Polly, who awkwardly
and unsuccessfully reduced an unwieldy theology to child-language, nor
the strings of paper dolls cut by a visitor, gave me the slightest
comfort. Only the blank wall of the stairway seemed to afford
protection in this bleak moment against the formless peril.

Doubtless these huge tombs were built to preserve from destruction
the royal bodies which were hidden within them at the end of tortuous
and carefully concealed passages; but both the gigantic structures in
the vicinity of Memphis, and the everlasting hills, which were later
utilized at Thebes, inevitably give the impression that death is defied
and shut out by massive defences.

Even when the traveller sees that the Egyptians defeated their object
by the very success of the Gizeh pyramids--for when their overwhelming
bulk could not be enlarged and their bewildering labyrinths could
not be multiplied, effort along that line perforce ceased--there is
something in the next attempt of the Egyptians to overcome death which
the child within us again recognizes as an old experience. One who
takes pains to inquire concerning the meaning of the texts which were
inscribed on the inner walls of the pyramids and the early tombs, finds
that the familiar terror of death is still there although expressed
somewhat more subtly; that the Egyptians are trying to outwit death by
magic tricks.

These texts are designed to teach the rites that redeem a man from
death and insure his continuance of life, not only beyond the grave
but in the grave itself. “He who sayeth this chapter and who has been
justified in the waters of Natron, he shall come forth the day after
his burial.” Because to recite them was to fight successfully against
the enemies of the dead, these texts came to be inscribed on tombs, on
coffins, and on the papyrus hung around the neck of a mummy. But woe
to the man who was buried without the texts: “He who knoweth not this
chapter cannot come forth by day.” Access to Paradise and all its joys
was granted to any one, good or bad, who knew the formulæ, for in the
first stages of Egyptian development, as in all other civilizations,
the gods did not concern themselves with the conduct of a man toward
other men, but solely with his duty to the gods themselves.

The magic formulæ alone afforded protection against the shadowy dangers
awaiting the dead man when first he entered the next world and enabled
him to overcome the difficulties of his journey. The texts taught him
how to impersonate particular gods and by this subterfuge to overcome
the various foes he must encounter, because these foes, having at one
time been overcome by the gods, were easily terrified by such pretence.

When I found myself curiously sympathetic with this desire “to
pretend,” and with the eager emphasis attached by the Egyptians to
their magic formulæ, I was inclined to put it down to that secret
sympathy with magic by means of which all children, in moments of
rebellion against a humdrum world, hope to wrest something startling
and thrilling out of the environing realm of the supernatural; but
beyond a kinship with this desire to placate the evil one, to overcome
him by mysterious words, I found it baffling to trace my sympathy to a
definite experience. Gradually, however, it emerged, blurred in certain
details, surprisingly alive in others, but all of it suffused with the
selfsame emotions which impelled the Egyptian to write his Book of the
Dead.

To describe it as a spiritual struggle is to use much too dignified
and definite a term; it was the prolonged emotional stress throughout
one cold winter when revival services--protracted meetings, they were
then called--were held in the village church night after night. I was,
of course, not permitted to attend them, but I heard them talked about
a great deal by simple adults and children, who told of those who
shouted aloud for joy, or lay on the floor “stiff with power” because
they were saved; and of others--it was for those others that my heart
was wrung--who, although they wrestled with the spirit until midnight
and cried out that they felt the hot breath of hell upon their cheeks,
could not find salvation. Would it do to pretend? I anxiously asked
myself, why didn’t they say the right words so that they could get up
from the mourners’ bench and sit with the other people, who must feel
so sorry for them that they would let them pretend? What were these
words that made such a difference that to say them was an assurance
of heavenly bliss, but if you failed to say them you burned in hell
forever and ever? Was the preacher the only one who knew them for sure?
Was it possible to find them without first kneeling at the mourners’
bench and groaning? These words must certainly be in the Bible
somewhere, and if one read it out loud all through, every word, one
must surely say the right words in time; but if one died before one was
grown up enough to read the Bible through--to-night, for instance--what
would happen then? Surely nothing else could be so important as these
words of salvation. While I did not exactly scheme to secure them, I
was certainly restrained only by my impotence, and I anxiously inquired
from everyone what these magic words might be; and only gradually did
this childish search for magic protection from the terrors after death
imperceptibly merge into a concern for the fate of the soul.

Perhaps, because it is so impossible to classify one’s own childish
experiences or to put them into chronological order, the traveller
at no time feels a lack of consistency in the complicated attitude
toward death which is portrayed on the walls of the Egyptian temples
and tombs. Much of it seems curiously familiar; from the earliest
times, the Egyptians held the belief that there is in man a permanent
element which survives--it is the double, the Ka, the natural soul in
contradistinction to the spiritual soul, which fits exactly into the
shape of the body but is not blended with it. In order to save this
double from destruction, the body must be preserved in a recognizable
form.

This insistence upon the preservation of the body among the Egyptians,
antedating their faith in magic formulæ, clearly had its origin, as in
the case of the child, in a desperate revolt against the destruction of
the visible man.

Owing to this continued insistence upon corporeal survival, the
Egyptians at length carried the art of embalming to such a state of
perfection that mummies of royal personages are easily recognized
from their likenesses to portrait statues. Such confidence did they
have in their own increasing ability to withhold the human frame from
destruction that many of the texts inscribed on the walls of the tombs
assure the dead man himself that he is not dead, and endeavor to
convince his survivors against the testimony of their own senses; or
rather, they attempt to deceive the senses. The texts endlessly repeat
the same assertion, “Thou comest not dead to thy sepulchre, thou comest
living”; and yet the very reiteration, as well as the decorations
upon the walls of every tomb, portray a primitive terror lest after
all the body be destroyed and the element of life be lost forever.
One’s throat goes dry over this old fear of death expressed by men who
have been so long dead that there is no record of them but this, no
surviving document of their once keen reactions to life.

Doubtless the Egyptians in time overcame this primitive fear concerning
the disappearance of the body, as we all do, although each individual
is destined to the same devastating experience. The memory of mine
came back to me vividly as I stood in an Egyptian tomb: I was a tiny
child making pothooks in the village school, when one day--it must
have been in the full flush of Spring, for I remember the crab-apple
blossoms--during the afternoon session, the A B C class was told that
its members would march all together to the burial of the mother of
one of the littlest girls. Of course, I had been properly taught that
people went to heaven when they died and that their bodies were
buried in the cemetery, but I was not at all clear about it, and I was
certainly totally unprepared to see what appeared to be the person
herself put deep down into the ground. The knowledge came to me so
suddenly and brutally that for weeks afterward the days were heavy with
a nameless oppression and the nights were filled with horror.

The cemetery was hard by the school-house, placed there, it had always
been whispered among us, to make the bad boys afraid. Thither the A B C
class, in awestruck procession, each child carefully holding the hand
of another, was led by the teacher to the edge of the open grave and
bidden to look on the still face of the little girl’s mother.

Our poor knees quaked and quavered as we stood shelterless and
unattended by family protection or even by friendly grown-ups; for
the one tall teacher, while clearly visible, seemed inexpressively
far away as we kept an uncertain footing on the freshly spaded earth,
hearing the preacher’s voice, the sobs of the motherless children,
and, crowning horror of all, the hollow sound of three clods of earth
dropped impressively upon the coffin lid.

After endless ages the service was over and we were allowed to go down
the long hill into the familiar life of the village. But a new terror
awaited me even there, for our house stood at the extreme end of the
street and the last of the way home was therefore solitary. I remember
a breathless run from the blacksmith shop, past the length of our
lonely orchard until the carriage-house came in sight, through whose
wide-open doors I could see a man moving about. One last panting effort
brought me there, and after my spirit had been slightly reassured by
conversation, I took a circuitous route to the house that I might
secure as much companionship as possible on the way. I stopped at
the stable to pat an old horse who stood munching in his stall, and
again to throw a handful of corn into the poultry yard. The big turkey
gobbler who came greedily forward gave me great comfort because he
was so absurd and awkward that no one could possibly associate him
with anything so solemn as death. I went into the kitchen where the
presiding genius allowed me to come without protest although the
family dog was at my heels. I felt constrained to keep my arms about
his shaggy neck while trying to talk of familiar things--would the cake
she was making be baked in the little round tins or in the big square
one? But although these idle words were on my lips, I wanted to cry
out, “Their mother is dead; whatever, whatever will the children do?”
These words, which I had overheard as we came away from the graveyard,
referred doubtless to the immediate future of the little family, but in
my mind were translated into a demand for definite action on the part
of the children against this horrible thing which had befallen their
mother.

It was with no sense of surprise that I found this long-forgotten
experience spread before my eyes on the walls of a tomb built four
thousand years ago into a sandy hill above the Nile, at Assuan. The
man so long dead, who had prepared the tomb for himself, had carefully
ignored the grimness of death. He is portrayed as going about his
affairs surrounded by his family, his friends, and his servants;
grain is being measured before him into his warehouse, while a scribe
by his side registers the amount; the herdsmen lead forth cattle for
his inspection; two of them, enraged bulls, paying no attention to
the sombre implication of tomb decoration, lower their huge heads,
threatening each other as if there were no such thing as death in the
world. Indeed, the builder of the tomb seems to have liked the company
of animals, perhaps because they were so incurious concerning death.
His dogs are around him, he stands erect in a boat from which he spears
fish, and so on from one marvelous relief to another, but all the time
your heart contracts for him, and you know that in the midst of this
elaborately prepared nonchalance he is miserably terrified by the fate
which may be in store for him, and is trying to make himself believe
that he need not leave all this wonted and homely activity; that if his
body is but properly preserved he will be able to enjoy it forever.

Although the Egyptians, in their natural desire to cling to the
familiar during the strange experience of death, portrayed upon the
walls of their tombs many domestic and social habits whose likeness to
our own household life gives us the quick satisfaction with which the
traveller encounters the familiar and wonted in a strange land, such a
momentary thrill is quite unlike the abiding sense of kinship which is
founded upon the unexpected similarity of ideas, and it is the latter
which are encountered in the tombs of the eighteenth century dynasty.
The paintings portray a great hall, at the end of which sits Osiris,
the god who had suffered death on earth, awaiting those who come before
him for judgment. In the center of the hall stands a huge balance
in which the hearts of men are weighed, once more reminiscent of a
childish conception, making clear that as the Egyptians became more
anxious and scrupulous they gradually made the destiny of man dependent
upon morality, and finally directed the souls of men to heaven or hell
according to their merits.

There is a theory that the tremendous results of good and evil,
in the earliest awakening to them, were first placed in the next
world by a primitive people sore perplexed as to the partialities
and injustices of mortal life. This simple view is doubtless the one
the child naturally takes. In Egypt I was so vividly recalled to my
first apprehension of it, that the contention that the very belief in
immortality is but the postulate of the idea of reward and retribution,
seemed to me at the moment a perfectly reasonable one.

The incident of my childhood around which it had formulated itself was
very simple. I had been sent with a message--an important commission it
seemed to me--to the leader of the church choir that the hymn selected
for the doctor’s funeral was “How blest the righteous when he dies.”
The village street was so strangely quiet under the summer sun that
even the little particles of dust beating in the hot air were more
noiseless than ever before. Frightened by the noonday stillness and
instinctively seeking companionship, I hurried toward two women who
were standing at a gate talking in low tones. In their absorption they
paid no attention to my somewhat wistful greeting, but I heard one of
them say with a dubious shake of the head that “he had never openly
professed nor joined the church,” and in a moment I understood that she
thought the doctor would not go to heaven. What else did it mean, that
half-threatening tone? Of course the doctor was good, as good as any
one could be. Only a few weeks before he had given me a new penny when
he had pulled my tooth, and once I heard him drive by in the middle of
the night when he took a beautiful baby to the miller’s house; he went
to the farms miles and miles away when people were sick, and everybody
sent for him the minute they were in trouble. How could any one be
better than that?

In defiant contrast to the whispering women, there arose in my mind,
composed doubtless of various Bible illustrations, the picture of an
imposing white-robed judge seated upon a golden throne, who listened
gravely to all those good deeds as they were read by the recording
angel from his great book, and then sent the doctor straight to heaven.

I dimly felt the challenge of the fine old hymn in its claim of
blessings for the righteous, and was defiantly ready at the moment to
combat the theology of the entire community. Of my own claim to heaven
I was most dubious, and I simply could not bring myself to contemplate
the day when my black sins should be read aloud from the big book; but
when the claim of reward in the next world for well-doing in this, came
to me in regard to one whose righteousness was undoubted, I was eager
to champion him before all mankind and even before the judges in the
shadowy world to come.

This state of mind, this mood of truculent discussion, was recalled by
the wall paintings in the tomb of a nobleman in the Theban hills. In
an agonized posture he awaits the outcome of his trial before Osiris.
Thoth, the true scribe, records on the wall the just balance between
the heart of the nobleman, which is in one pan of the scale, and
the feather of truth which is in the other. The noble appeals to his
heart, which has thus been separated from him, to stand by him during
the weighing and not to bear testimony against him. “Oh, heart of my
existence, rise not up against me; be not an enemy against me before
the divine powers; thou art my Ka that is in my body, the heart that
came to me from my mother.” The noble even tries a bribe by reminding
the Ka that his own chance of survival is dependent on his testimony
at this moment. The entire effort on the part of the man being tried
is to still the voice of his own conscience, to maintain stoutly his
innocence even to himself.

The attitude of the self-justifying noble might easily have suggested
those later childish struggles in which a sense of hidden guilt, of
repeated failure in “being good,” plays so large a part, and humbles a
child to the very dust. That the definite reminiscence evoked by the
tomb belonged to an earlier period of rebellion may indicate that the
Egyptian had not yet learned to commune with his gods for spiritual
refreshment.

Whether it is that the long days and magical nights on the Nile lend
themselves to a revival of former states of consciousness, or that I
had come to expect landmarks of individual development in Egypt, or,
more likely still, that I had fallen into a profoundly reminiscent
mood, I am unable to state; but certainly, as the Nile boat approached
nearer to him “who sleeps in Philæ,” something of the Egyptian feeling
for Osiris, the god to whom was attributed the romance of a hero
and the character of a benefactor and redeemer, came to me through
long-forgotten sensations. Typifying the annual “great affliction,”
Osiris, who had submitted himself to death, mutilation, and burial in
the earth, returned each Spring when the wheat and barley sprouted,
bringing not only a promise of bread for the body but healing and
comfort for the torn mind; an intimation that death itself is
beneficent and may be calmly accepted as a necessary part of an ordered
universe.

Day after day, seeing the rebirth of the newly planted fields on the
banks of the Nile, and touched by a fresh sense of the enduring miracle
of Spring with its inevitable analogy to the vicissitudes of human
experience, one dimly comprehends how the pathetic legends of Osiris,
by providing the Egyptian with an example for his own destiny, not only
opened the way for a new meaning in life, but also gradually vanquished
the terrors of death.

Again there came a faint memory of a child’s first apprehension
that there may be poetry out-of-doors, of the discovery that myths
have a foundation in natural phenomena, and at last a more definite
reminiscence.

I saw myself a child of twelve standing stock-still on the bank of a
broad-flowing river, with a little red house surrounded by low-growing
willows on its opposite bank, striving to account to myself for a
curious sense of familiarity, for a conviction that I had long ago
known it all most intimately, although I had certainly never seen the
Mississippi River before. I remember that, much puzzled and mystified,
at last I gravely concluded that it was one of those intimations of
immortality that Wordsworth had written about, and I went back to my
cousin’s camp in so exalted a frame of mind that the memory of the
evening light shining through the blades of young corn growing in a
field passed on the way has remained with me for more than forty years.

Was that fugitive sense of having lived before nearer to the fresher
imaginations of the Egyptians, as it is nearer to the mind of a child?
and did the myth of Osiris make them more willing to die because the
myth came to embody a confidence in this transitory sensation of
continuous life?

Such ghosts of reminiscence, coming to the individual as he visits
one after another of the marvellous human documents on the banks of
the Nile, may be merely manifestations of that new humanism which is
perhaps the most precious possession of this generation, the belief
that no altar at which living men have once devoutly worshipped, no
oracle to whom a nation long ago appealed in its moments of dire
confusion, no gentle myth in which former generations have found
solace, can lose all significance for us, the survivors.

Is it due to this same humanism that, in spite of the overweight of
the tomb, Egypt never appears to the traveller as world-weary, or as
a land of the dead? Although the slender fellaheen, whom he sees all
day pouring the water of the Nile on their parched fields, use the
primitive shaduf of their remote ancestors, and the stately women bear
upon their heads water-jars of a shape unchanged for three thousand
years, modern Egypt refuses to belong to the past and continually makes
the passionate living appeal of those hard-pressed in the struggle for
bread.

Under the smoking roofs of the primitive clay houses lifted high above
the level of the fields, because resting on the ruins of villages which
have crumbled there from time immemorial, mothers feed their children,
clutched by the old fear that there is not enough for each to have
his portion; and the traveller comes to realize with a pang that the
villages are built upon the bleak, barren places quite as the dead are
always buried in the desert because no black earth can be spared, and
that each new harvest, cut with sickles of a curve already ancient when
Moses was born, in spite of its quick ripening, is garnered barely in
time to save the laborer from actual starvation.

Certain it is that through these our living brothers, or through the
unexpected reactions of memory to racial records, the individual
detects the growth within of an almost mystical sense of the life
common to all the centuries, and of the unceasing human endeavor to
penetrate into the unseen world. These records also afford glimpses
into a past so vast that the present generation seems to float upon its
surface as thin as a sheet of light which momentarily covers the ocean
and moves in response to the black waters beneath it.


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