[Illustration: “COSMO CONDUCTED HER TO THE STABLE”]

WARLOCK O’GLENWARLOCK

A HOMELY ROMANCE

BY

GEORGE MACDONALD

AUTHOR OF “ANNALS OF A QUIET NEIGHBORHOOD,” “A SEABOARD PARISH,”
ETC.




CONTENTS.


   CHAPTER.

   1.   Castle Warlock
   2.   The Kitchen
   3.   The Drawing-room
   4.   An Afternoon Sleep
   5.   The School
   6.   Grannie’s Cottage
   7.   Dreams
   8.   Home
   9.   The Student
   10.  Peter Simon
   11.  The new Schooling
   12.  Grannie’s Ghost Story
   13.  The Storm-Guest
   14.  The Castle Inn
   15.  That Night
   16.  Through the Day
   17.  That same Night
   18.  A Winter Idyl
   19.  An “Interlunar Cave”
   20.  Catch yer Naig
   21.  The Watchmaker
   22.  That Luminous Night
   23.  At College
   24.  A Tutorship
   25.  The Gardener
   26.  Lost and Found
   27.  A Transformation
   28.  The Story of the Knight who spoke the Truth
   29.  New Experience
   30.  Charles Jermyn, M. D.
   31.  Cosmo and the Doctor
   32.  The Naiad
   33.  The Garden-House
   34.  Catch your Horse
   35.  Pull his Tail
   36.  The thick Darkness
   37.  The Dawn
   38.  The Shadow of Death
   39.  The Labourer
   40.  The Schoolmaster
   41   Grannie and the Stick
   42.  Obstruction
   43.  Grizzie’s Rights
   44.  Another Harvest
   45.  The final Conflict
   46.  A Rest
   47.  Help
   48.  A common Miracle
   49.  Defiance
   50.  Discovery and Confession
   51.  It is Naught saith the Buyer
   52.  An old Story
   53.  A small Discovery
   54.  A greater Discovery
   55.  A great Discovery
   56.  Mr. Burns
   57.  Too Sure comes too late
   58.  A little Life well rounded
   59.  A Breaking Up
   60.  Repose
   61.  The third Harvest
   62.  A duet, Trio, and Quartette
   

Transcriber’s Note

In the original text, there are two chapters numbered 37 (XXXVII) - “The
Dawn” and “Home Again”. The latter was left out of the table of contents
and that has been replicated here.




CHAPTER I.

CASTLE WARLOCK.

A rough, wild glen it was, to which, far back in times unknown to
its annals, the family had given its name, taking in return no
small portion of its history, and a good deal of the character of
its individuals. It lay in the debatable land between highlands and
lowlands; most of its inhabitants spoke both Scotch and Gaelic; and
there was often to be found in them a notable mingling of the chief
characteristics of the widely differing Celt and Teuton. The
country produced more barley than wheat, more oats than barley,
more heather than oats, more boulders than trees, and more snow
than anything. It was a solitary, thinly peopled region, mostly of
bare hills, and partially cultivated glens, each with its small
stream, on the banks of which grew here and there a silver birch, a
mountain ash, or an alder tree, but with nothing capable of giving
much shade or shelter, save cliffy banks and big stones. From many
a spot you might look in all directions and not see a sign of human
or any other habitation. Even then however, you might, to be sure,
most likely smell the perfume--to some nostrils it is nothing less
than perfume--of a peat fire, although you might be long in finding
out whence it came; for the houses, if indeed the dwellings could
be called houses, were often so hard to be distinguished from the
ground on which they were built, that except the smoke of fresh
peats were coming pretty freely from the wide-mouthed chimney, it
required an experienced eye to discover the human nest. The valleys
that opened northward produced little; there the snow might some
years be seen lying on patches of oats yet green, destined now only
for fodder; but where the valley ran east and west, and any
tolerable ground looked to the south, there things put on a
different aspect. There the graceful oats would wave and rustle in
the ripening wind, and in the small gardens would lurk a few
cherished strawberries, while potatoes and peas would be tolerably
plentiful in their season.

Upon a natural terrace in such a slope to the south, stood Castle
Warlock. But it turned no smiling face to the region whence came
the warmth and the growth. A more grim, repellant, unlovely
building would be hard to find; and yet, from its extreme
simplicity, its utter indifference to its own looks, its repose,
its weight, and its gray historical consciousness, no one who loved
houses would have thought of calling it ugly. It was like the
hard-featured face of a Scotch matron, suggesting no end of story,
of life, of character: she holds a defensive if not defiant face to
the world, but within she is warm, tending carefully the fires of
life. Summer and winter the chimneys of that desolate-looking house
smoked; for though the country was inclement, and the people that
lived in it were poor, the great, sullen, almost unhappy-looking
hills held clasped to their bare cold bosoms, exposed to all the
bitterness of freezing winds and summer hail, the warmth of
household centuries: their peat-bogs were the store-closets and
wine-cellars of the sun, for the hoarded elixir of physical life.
And although the walls of the castle, as it was called, were so
thick that in winter they kept the warmth generated within them
from wandering out and being lost on the awful wastes of homeless
hillside and moor, they also prevented the brief summer heat of the
wayfaring sun from entering with freedom, and hence the fires were
needful in the summer days as well--at least at the time my story
commences, for then, as generally, there were elderly and aged
people in the house, who had to help their souls to keep their
bodies warm.

The house was very old. It had been built for more kinds of shelter
than need to be thought of in our days. For the enemies of our
ancestors were not only the cold, and the fierce wind, and the
rain, and the snow; they were men also--enemies harder to keep out
than the raging storm or the creeping frost. Hence the more
hospitable a house could be, the less must it look what it was: it
must wear its face haughty, and turn its smiles inward. The house
of Glenwarlock, as it was also sometimes called, consisted of three
massive, narrow, tall blocks of building, which showed little
connection with each other beyond juxtaposition, two of them
standing end to end, with but a few feet of space between, and the
third at right angles to the two. In the two which stood end to
end, and were originally the principal parts, hardly any windows
were to be seen on the side that looked out into the valley; while
in the third, which, though looking much of the same age, was of
later build, were more windows, but none in the lowest story.
Narrow as were these buildings, and four stories high, they had a
solid, ponderous look, suggesting a thickness of the walls such as
to leave little of a hollow within for the indwellers--like great
marine shells for a small mollusk. On the other side was a kind of
a court, completed by the stables and cowhouses, and towards this
court were most of the windows--many of them for size more like
those in the cottages around, than suggestive of a house built by
the lords of the soil. The court was now merely that of a farmyard.

There must have been at one time outer defences to the castle, but
they were no longer to be distinguished by the inexperienced eye;
and indeed the windowless walls of the house itself seemed strong
enough to repel any attack without artillery--except indeed the
assailants had got into the court. There were however some signs of
the windows there having been enlarged if not increased at a later
period.

In the block that stood angle-wise to the rest, was the kitchen,
the door of which opened immediately on the court; and behind the
kitchen, in that part which had no windows to the valley, was the
milk-cellar, as they called the dairy, and places for household
storage. A rough causeway ran along the foot of the walls,
connecting the doors in the different blocks. Of these, the kitchen
door for the most part stood open: sometimes the snow would be
coming fast down the wide chimney, with little soft hisses in the
fire, and the business of the house going on without a thought of
closing it, though from it you could not have seen across the yard
for the falling flakes.

But when my story opens, the summer held the old house and the
older hills in its embrace. The sun was pouring torrents of light
and heat into the valley, and the slopes of it were covered with
green. The bees were about, contenting themselves with the flowers,
while the heather was getting ready its bloom for them, and a boy
of fourteen was sitting in a little garden that lay like a dropped
belt of beauty about the feet of the grim old walls. This was on
the other side--that to the south, parting the house from the slope
where the corn began--now with the ear half-formed. The boy sat on
a big stone, which once must have had some part in the house
itself, or its defences, but which he had never known except as a
seat for himself. His back leaned against the hoary wall, and he
was in truth meditating, although he did not look as if he were. He
was already more than an incipient philosopher, though he could not
yet have put into recognizable shape the thought that was now
passing through his mind. The bees were the primary but not the
main subject of it. It came thus: he thought how glad the bees
would be when their crop of heather was ripe; then he thought how
they preferred the heather to the flowers; then, that the one must
taste nicer to them than the other; and last awoke the question
whether their taste of sweet was the same as his. “For,” said he,
“if their honey is sweet to them with the same sweetness with which
it is sweet to me, then there is something in the make of the bee
that’s the same with the make of me; and perhaps then a man might
some day, if he wanted, try the taste of being a bee all out for a
little while.” But to see him, nobody would have thought he was
doing anything but basking in the sun. The scents of the flowers
all about his feet came and went on the eddies of the air, paying
my lord many a visit in his antechamber, his brain; the windy
noises of the insects, the watery noises of the pigeons, the noises
from the poultry yard, the song of the mountain river, visited him
also through the portals of his ears; but at the moment, the boy
seemed lost in the mere fundamental satisfaction of existence.

Neither, although broad summer was on the earth, and all the
hill-tops, and as much of the valleys as their shadows did not
hide, were bathed in sunlight, although the country was his native
land, and he loved it with the love of his country’s poets, was the
consciousness of the boy free from a certain strange kind of
trouble connected with, if not resulting from the landscape before
him. A Celt through many of his ancestors, and his mother in
particular, his soul, full of undefined emotion, was aware of an
ever recurring impulse to song, ever checked and broken, ever
thrown back upon itself. There were a few books in the house,
amongst them certain volumes of verse--a copy of Cowly, whose
notable invocation of Light he had instinctively blundered upon;
one of Milton; the translated Ossian; Thomson’s Seasons--with a few
more; and from the reading of these, among other results, had
arisen this--that, in the midst of his enjoyment of the world
around him, he found himself every now and then sighing after a
lovelier nature than that before his eyes. There he read of
mountains, if not wilder, yet loftier and more savage than his own,
of skies more glorious, of forests of such trees as he knew only
from one or two old engravings in the house, on which he looked
with a strange, inexplicable reverence: he would sometimes wake
weeping from a dream of mountains, or of tossing waters. Once with
his waking eyes he saw a mist afar off, between the hills that
ramparted the horizon, grow rosy after the sun was down, and his
heart filled as with the joy of a new discovery. Around him, it is
true, the waters rushed well from their hills, but their banks had
little beauty. Not merely did the want of trees distress him, but
the nature of their channel; most of them, instead of rushing
through rocks, cut their way only through beds of rough gravel, and
their bare surroundings were desolate without grandeur--almost mean
to eyes that had not yet pierced to the soul of them. Nor had he
yet learned to admire the lucent brown of the bog waters. There
seemed to be in the boy a strain of some race used to a richer
home; and yet all the time the frozen regions of the north drew his
fancy tenfold more than Italy or Egypt.

His name was Cosmo, a name brought from Italy by one of the line
who had sold his sword and fought for strangers. Not a few of the
younger branches of the family had followed the same evil
profession, and taken foreign pay--chiefly from poverty and
prejudice combined, but not a little in some cases from the inborn
love of fighting that seems to characterize the Celt. The last
soldier of them had served the East India Company both by sea and
land: tradition more than hinted that he had chiefly served
himself. Since then the heads of the house had been peaceful
farmers of their own land, contriving to draw what to many farmers
nowadays would seem but a scanty subsistence from an estate which
had dwindled to the twentieth part of what it had been a few
centuries before, though even then it could never have made its
proprietor rich in anything but the devotion of his retainers.

Growing too hot between the sun and the wall, Cosmo rose, and
passing to the other side of the house beyond the court-yard, and
crossing a certain heave of grass, came upon one unfailing delight
in his lot--a preacher whose voice, inarticulate, it is true, had,
ever since he was born, been at most times louder in his ear than
any other. It was a mountain stream, which, through a channel of
rock, such as nearly satisfied his most fastidious fancy, went
roaring, rushing, and sometimes thundering, with an arrow-like,
foamy swiftness, down to the river in the glen below. The rocks
were very dark, and the foam stood out brilliant against them. From
the hill-top above, it came, sloping steep from far. When you
looked up, it seemed to come flowing from the horizon itself, and
when you looked down, it seemed to have suddenly found it could no
more return to the upper regions it had left too high behind it,
and in disgust to shoot headlong to the abyss. There was not much
water in it now, but plenty to make a joyous white rush through the
deep-worn brown of the rock: in the autumn and spring it came down
gloriously, dark and fierce, as if it sought the very centre, wild
with greed after an absolute rest.

The boy stood and gazed, as was his custom. Always he would seek
this endless water when he grew weary, when the things about him
put on their too ordinary look. Let the aspect of this be what it
might, it seemed still inspired and sent forth by some essence of
mystery and endless possibility. There was in him an unusual
combination of the power to read the hieroglyphic internal aspect
of things, and the scientific nature that bows before fact. He knew
that the stream was in its second stage when it rose from the earth
and rushed past the house, that it was gathered first from the
great ocean, through millions of smallest ducts, up to the
reservoirs of the sky, thence to descend in snows and rains, and
wander down and up through the veins of the earth; but the sense of
its mystery had not hitherto begun to withdraw. Happily for him,
the poetic nature was not merely predominant in him, but dominant,
sending itself, a pervading spirit, through the science that else
would have stifled him. Accepting fact, he found nothing in its
outward relations by which a man can live, any more than by bread;
but this poetic nature, illuminating it as with the polarized ray,
revealed therein more life and richer hope. All this was as yet
however as indefinite as it was operative in him, and I am telling
of him what he could not have told of himself.

He stood gazing now in a different mood from any that had come to
him before: he had begun to find out something fresh about this
same stream, and the life in his own heart to which it served as a
revealing phantasm. He recognized that what in the stream had drawn
him from earliest childhood, with an infinite pleasure, was the
vague sense, for a long time an ever growing one, of its
_mystery_--the form the infinite first takes to the simplest and
liveliest hearts. It was because it was _always_ flowing that he
loved it, because it could not stop: whence it came was utterly
unknown to him, and he did not care to know. And when at length he
learned that it came flowing out of the dark hard earth, the
mystery only grew. He imagined a wondrous cavity below in black
rock, where it gathered and gathered, nobody could think how--not
coming from anywhere else, but beginning just there, and nowhere
beyond. When, later on, he had to shift its source, and carry it
back to the great sky, it was no less marvellous, and more lovely;
it was a closer binding together of the gentle earth and the awful
withdrawing heavens. These were a region of endless hopes, and ever
recurrent despairs: that his beloved, an earthly finite thing,
should rise there, was added joy, and gave a mighty hope with
respect to the unknown and appalling. But from the sky, he was sent
back to the earth in further pursuit; for, whence came the rain,
his books told him, but from the sea? That sea he had read of,
though never yet beheld, and he knew it was magnificent in its
might; gladly would he have hailed it as an intermediate betwixt
the sky and the earth--so to have the sky come first! but, alas!
the ocean came first in order. And then, worse and worse! how was
the ocean fed but from his loved torrent? How was the sky fed but
from the sea? How was the dark fountain fed but from the sky? How
was the torrent fed but from the fountain? As he sat in the hot
garden, with his back against the old gray wall, the nest of his
family for countless generations, with the scent of the flowers in
his nostrils, and the sound of the bees in his ears, it had begun
to dawn upon him that he had lost the stream of his childhood, the
mysterious, infinite idea of endless, inexplicable, original birth,
of outflowing because of essential existence within! There was no
production any more, nothing but a mere rushing around, like the
ring-sea of Saturn, in a never ending circle of formal change! Like
a great dish, the mighty ocean was skimmed in particles invisible,
which were gathered aloft into sponges all water and no sponge; and
from this, through many an airy, many an earthy channel, deflowered
of its mystery, his ancient, self-producing fountain to a holy
merry river, was _fed_--only _fed_! He grew very sad, and well he
might. Moved by the spring eternal in himself, of which the love in
his heart was but a river-shape, he turned away from the deathened
stream, and without knowing why, sought the human elements about
the place.




CHAPTER II.

THE KITCHEN.

He entered the wide kitchen, paved with large slabs of slate. One
brilliant gray-blue spot of sunlight lay on the floor. It came
through a small window to the east, and made the peat-fire glow red
by the contrast. Over the fire, from a great chain, hung a
three-legged pot, in which something was slowly cooking. Between
the fire and the sun-spot lay a cat, content with fate and the
world. At the corner of the fire sat an old lady, in a chair
high-backed, thick-padded, and covered with striped stuff. She had
her back to the window that looked into the court, and was knitting
without regarding her needles. This was Cosmo’s grandmother. The
daughter of a small laird in the next parish, she had started in
life with an overweening sense of her own importance through that
of her family, nor had she lived long enough to get rid of it. I
fancy she had clung to it the more that from the time of her
marriage nothing had seemed to go well with the family into which
she had married. She and her husband had struggled and striven, but
to no seeming purpose; poverty had drawn its meshes closer and
closer around them. They had but one son, the present laird, and he
had succeeded to an estate yet smaller and more heavily encumbered.
To all appearance he must leave it to Cosmo, if indeed he left it,
in no better condition. From the growing fear of its final loss, he
loved the place more than any of his ancestors had loved it, and
his attachment to it had descended yet stronger to his son.

But although Cosmo the elder wrestled and fought against encroaching
poverty, and with little success, he had never forgot small rights
in anxiety to be rid of large claims. What man could he did to keep
his poverty from bearing hard on his dependents, and never master or
landlord was more beloved. Such being his character and the condition
of his affairs, it is not very surprising that he should have passed
middle age before thinking seriously of marriage. Nor did he then fall
in love, in the ordinary sense of the phrase; he reflected with himself
that it would be cowardice so far to fear poverty as to run the boat
of the Warlocks aground, and leave the scrag end of a property and a
history without a man to take them up, and possibly bear them on to
redemption; for who could tell what life might be in the stock yet!
Anyhow, it would be better to leave an heir to take the remnant in
charge, and at least carry the name a generation farther, even should
it be into yet deeper poverty than hitherto. A Warlock could face his
fate. Thereupon, with a sense of the fitness of things not always
manifested on such occasions, he had paid his addresses to a woman of
five and thirty, the daughter of the last clergyman of the parish, and
had by her been accepted with little hesitation. She was a capable and
brave woman, and, fully informed of the state of his affairs, married
him in the hope of doing something to help him out of his difficulties.
A few pounds she had saved up, and a trifle her mother had left her,
she placed unreservedly at his disposal, and he in his abounding
honesty spent it on his creditors, bettering things for a time, and,
which was of much more consequence, greatly relieving his mind, and
giving the life in him a fresh start. His marriage was of infinitely
more salvation to the laird than if it had set him free from all his
worldly embarrassments, for it set him growing again--and that is the
only final path out of oppression.

Whatever were the feelings with which he took his wife home, they were
at least those of a gentleman; and it were a good thing indeed, if, at
the end of five years, the love of most pairs who marry for love were
equal to that of Cosmo Warlock to his middle-aged wife; and now that
she was gone, his reverence for her memory was something surpassing.
From the day almost of his marriage the miseries of life lost half
their bitterness, nor had it returned at her death. Instinctively he
felt that outsiders, those even who respected him as an honest man,
believed that, somehow or other, they could only conjecture how, he
must be to blame for the circumstances he was in--either this, or
providence did not take care of the just man. Such was virtually the
unuttered conclusion of many, who nevertheless imagined they understood
the Book of Job, and who would have counted Warlock’s rare honesty,
pride or fastidiousness or unjustifiable free-handedness. Hence they
came to think and speak of him as a poor creature, and soon the man,
through the keen sensitiveness of his nature, became aware of the fact.
But to his sense of the misprision of neighbours and friends, came the
faith and indignant confidence of his wife like the closing and binding
up and mollifying of a wound with ointment. The man was of a far finer
nature than any of those who thus judged him, of whom some would
doubtless have got out of their difficulties sooner than he--only he
was more honorable in debt than they were out of it. A woman of strong
sense, with an undeveloped stratum of poetry in the heart of it, his
wife was able to appreciate the finer elements of his nature; and she
let him see very plainly that she did. This was strength and a lifting
up of the head to the husband, who in his youth had been oppressed by
the positiveness, and in his manhood by the opposition, of his mother,
whom the neighbours regarded as a woman of strength and faculty. And
now, although, all his life since, he had had to fight the wolf as
constantly as ever, things, even after his wife’s death, continued very
different from what they had been before he married her; his existence
looked a far more acceptable thing seen through the regard of his wife
than through that of his neighbours. They had been five years married
before she brought him an heir to his poverty, and she lived five years
more to train him--then, after a short illness, departed, and left the
now aging man virtually alone with his little child, coruscating spark
of fresh vitality amidst the ancient surroundings. This was the Cosmo
who now, somewhat sore at heart from the result of his cogitations,
entered the kitchen in search of his kind.

Another woman was sitting on a three-legged stool, just inside the
door, paring potatoes--throwing each, as she cut off what the old lady,
watching, judged a paring far too thick, into a bowl of water. She
looked nearly as old as her mistress, though she was really ten years
younger. She had come with the late mistress from her father’s house,
and had always taken, and still took her part against the opposing
faction--namely the grandmother.

A second seat--not over easy, but comfortable enough, being simply a
wide arm-chair of elm, with a cushion covered in horse-hair, stood
at the opposite corner of the fire. This was the laird’s seat, at
the moment, as generally all the morning till dinner-time, empty:
Cosmo, not once looking up, walked straight to it, diagonally across
the floor, and seated himself like one verily lost in thought. Now
and then, as she peeled, Grizzie would cast a keen glance at him out
of her bright blue eyes, round whose fire the wrinkles had gathered
like ashes: those eyes were sweet and pleasant, and the expression of
her face was one of lovely devotion; but otherwise she was far from
beautiful. She gave a grim smile to herself every time she glanced up
at him from her potatoes, as much as to say she knew well enough what
he was thinking, though no one else did. “He’ll be a man yet!” she said
to herself.

The old lady also now and then looked over her stocking at the boy,
where he sat with his back to the white deal dresser, ornate with
homeliest dishes.

“It’ll be lang or ye fill that chair, Cossie, my man!” she said at
length,--but not with the smile of play, rather with the look of
admonition, as if it was the boy’s first duty to grow in breadth in
order to fill the chair, and restore the symmetry of the world.

Cosmo glanced up, but did not speak, and presently was lost again in
the thoughts from which his grandmother had roused him as one is roused
by a jolt on the road.

“What are you dreaming about, Cossie?” she said again, in a tone
wavering but imperative.

Her speech was that of a gentlewoman of the old time, when the highest
born in Scotland spoke Scotch.

Not yet did Cosmo reply. Reverie does not agree well with manners,
but it would besides have been hard for him to answer the old lady’s
question--not that he did not know something at least of what was going
on in his mind, but that, he knew instinctively, it would have sounded
in her ears no hair better than the jabber of Jule Sandy.

“Mph!” she said, offended at his silence; “Ye’ll hae to learn manners
afore ye’re laird o’ Glenwarlock, young Cosmo!”

A shadow of indignation passed over Grizzie’s rippled, rather than
wrinkled face, but she said nothing. There was a time to speak and a
time to be silent; nor was Grizzie indebted to Solomon, but to her own
experience and practice, for the wisdom of the saw. Only the pared
potatoes splashed louder in the water as they fell. And the old lady
knew as well what that meant, as if the splashes had been articulate
sounds from the mouth of the old partisan.

The boy rose, and coming forward, rather like one walking in his sleep,
stood up before his grandmother, and said,

“What was ye sayin’, gran’mamma?”

“I was sayin’ what ye wadna hearken till, an that’s enouch,” she
answered, willing to show offence.

“Say ’t again, gran’mamma, if you please. I wasna noticin’.”

“Na! I s’ warran’ ye frae noticin’! There ye winna gang, whaur yer ain
fule fancy does na lead the w’y. Cosmo, by gie ower muckle tether to
wull thoucht, an’ someday ye’ll be laid i’ the dub, followin’ what has
naither sense intil ’t, nor this warl’s gude. --What was ye thinkin’
aboot the noo?--Tell me that, an’ I s’ lat ye gang.”

“I was thinkin’ aboot the burnie, gran’mamma.”

“It wad be tellin’ ye to lat the burnie rin, an’ stick to yer buik,
laddie!”

“The burnie wull rin, gran’mamma, and the buik ’ill bide,” said Cosmo,
perhaps not very clearly understanding himself.

“Ye’re gettin’ on to be a man, noo,” said his grandmother, heedless of
the word of his defence, “an’ ye maun learn to put awa’ bairnly things.
There’s a heap depen’in’ upo’ ye, Cosmo. Ye’ll be the fift o’ the name
i’ the family, an’ I’m feart ye may be the last. It’s but sma’ honour,
laddie, to ony man to be the last; an’ gien ye dinna gaither the wit
ye hae, and du the best ye can, ye winna lang be laird o’ Glenwarlock.
Gien it wasna for Grizzie there, wha has no richt to owerhear the
affairs o’ the family, I micht think the time had come for enlichtenin’
ye upo’ things it’s no shuitable ye should gang ignorant o’. But we’ll
put it aff till a mair convenient sizzon, atween oor ain twa lanes.”

“An’ a mair convanient spokesman, I houp, my leddy,” said Grizzie,
deeply offended.

“An’ wha sud that be?” rejoined her mistress.

“Ow, wha but the laird himsel’?” answered Grizzie, “Wha’s to come
atween father an’ son wi’ licht upo’ family-affairs? No even the
mistress hersel’ wad hae prezhunt upo’ that!”

“Keep your own place, Grizzie,” said the old lady with dignity.

And Grizzie, who, had gone farther in the cause of propriety, than
propriety itself could justify, held her peace. Only the potatoes
splashed yet louder in the bowl. Her mistress sat grimly silent, for
though she had had the last word and had been obeyed, she was rebuked
in herself. Cosmo, judging the specialty of the interview over, turned
and went back to his father’s chair; but just as he was seating himself
in it, his father appeared in the doorway.

The form was that of a tall, thin man, a little bent at the knees and
bowed in the back, who yet carried himself with no small dignity,
cloaked in an air of general apology--as if he would have said, “I
am sorry my way is not yours, for I see very well how wrong you must
think it.” He wore large strong shoes--I think a description should
begin with the feet rather than the head--fit for boggy land; blue,
ribbed, woollen stockings; knee-breeches of some home-made stuff: all
the coarser cloth they wore, and they wore little else, was shorn from
their own sheep, and spun, woven, and made at home; an old blue dress
coat with bright buttons; a drab waistcoat which had once been yellow;
and to crown all, a red woollen nightcap, hanging down on one side with
a tassel.

“Weel, Grizzie!” he said, in a gentle, rather sad voice, as if the days
of his mourning were not yet ended, “I’m ower sune the day!”

He never passed Grizzie without greeting her, and Grizzie’s devotion to
him was like that of slave and sister mingled.

“Na, laird,” she answered, “ye can never be ower sune for yer ain fowk,
though ye may be for yer ain stamack. The taties winna be lang bilin’
the day. They’re some sma’.”

“That’s because you pare them so much, Grizzie,” said the grandmother.

Grizzie vouchsafed no reply.

The moment young Cosmo saw whose shadow darkened the doorway, he rose
in haste, and standing with his hand upon the arm of the chair, waited
for his father to seat himself in it. The laird acknowledged his
attention with a smile, sat down, and looked like the last sitter grown
suddenly old. He put out his hand to the boy across the low arm of the
chair, and the boy laid his hand in his father’s, and so they remained,
neither saying a word. The laird leaned back, and sat resting. All were
silent.

Notwithstanding the oddity of his dress, no one who had any knowledge
of humanity could have failed to see in Cosmo Warlock, the elder,
a high bred gentleman. His face was small, and the skin of it was
puckered into wrinkles innumerable; his mouth was sweet, but he had
lost his teeth, and the lips had fallen in; his chin, however, was
large and strong; while his blue eyes looked out from under his narrow
high forehead with a softly piercing glance of great gentleness and
benignity. A little gray hair clustered about his temples and the back
of his head--the red nightcap hid the rest. There was three days’
growth of gray beard on his chin, for _now that he had nobody_, he
would say, he had not the heart to shave every morning.

For some time he sat looking straight before him, smiling to his
mother’s hands as they knitted, she casting on him now and then a look
that seemed to express the consciousness of blame for not having made a
better job of him, or for having given him too much to do in the care
of himself. For neither did his mother believe in him farther than that
he had the best possible intentions in what he did, or did not do. At
the same time she never doubted he was more of a man than ever his son
would be, seeing they had such different mothers.

“Grizzie,” said the laird, “hae ye a drappy o’ soor milk? I’m some dry.”

“Ay, that hae I, sir!” answered Grizzie with alacrity, and rising
went into the darker region behind the kitchen, whence presently she
emerged with a white basin full of rich milk--half cream, it was
indeed. Without explanation or apology she handed it to her master, who
received and drank it off.

“Hoots, woman!” he said, “ye wad hae me a shargar (_a skin-and-bone
calf_)! That’s no soor milk!”

“I’m vexed it’s no to yer taste, laird!” returned Grizzie coolly, “but
I hae nane better.”

“Ye tellt me ye had soor milk,” said the laird--without a particle of
offence, rather in the tone of apology for having by mistake made away
with something too good for him.

“Weel, laird,” replied Grizzie, “it’s naething but the guidman’s milk;
an’ gien ye dinna ken what’s guid for ye at your time o’ life, it’s
weel there sud be anither ’at does. What has a man o’ your ’ears to du
drinkin’ soor milk--eneuch to turn a’ soor thegither i’ the inside o’
ye! It’s true I win’ ye weel a sma’ bairn i’ my leddy’s airms--

“Ye may weel du that!” interrupted her mistress.

“I wasna weel intil my teens, though, my leddy!” returned Grizzie. “An’
I’m sure,” she added, in revenge for the insinuation as to her age, “it
wad ill become ony wuman to grudge a man o’ the laird’s stan’in a drap
o’ the best milk in ’s ain cellar!”

“Who spoke of refusing it to him?” said his mother.

“Ye spak yersel’ sic an’ siclike,” answered Grizzie.

“Hoots, Grizzie! haud yer tongue, my wuman,” said the laird, in the
gentlest tone, yet with reproof in it. “Ye ken weel it’s no my mother
wad grudge me the milk ye wad gie me. It was but mysel’ ’at didna think
mysel’ worthy o’ that same, seein’ it’s no a week yet sin’ bonny Hawkie
dee’d!”

“An’ wad ye hae the Lord’s anintit depen’ upo’ Hawkie?” cried Grizzie
with indignation.

The contest went no farther, and Grizzie had had the best of it, as
none knew better than she. In a minute or two the laird rose and went
out, and Cosmo went with him.

Before Cosmo’s mother died, old Mrs. Warlock would have been indignant
at the idea of sitting in the kitchen, but things had combined to
bring her to it. She found herself very lonely seated in state in the
drawing-room, where, as there was no longer a daughter-in-law to go and
come, she learned little or nothing of what was doing about the place,
and where few that called cared to seek her out, for she had never been
a favourite with the humbler neighbours. Also, as time went on, and
the sight of money grew rarer and rarer, it became more desirable to
economize light in the winter. They had not come to that with firing,
for, as long as there were horses and intervals of less labour on
the farm, peats were always to be had--though at the same time, the
drawing-room could not be made so warm as the kitchen. But for light,
even for train-oil to be burned in the simplest of lamps, money had to
be paid--and money was of all ordinary things the seldomest seen at
Castle Warlock. From these operative causes it came by degrees, that
one winter, for the sake of company, of warmth, of economy, Mistress
Warlock had her chair carried to the kitchen; and the thing once
done, it easily and naturally grew to a custom, and extended itself
to the summer as well; for she who had ceased to stand on ceremony in
the winter, could hardly without additional loss of dignity reascend
her pedestal only because it was summer again. To the laird it was a
matter of no consequence where he sat, ate, or slept. When his wife
was alive, wherever she was, that was the place for him; when she was
gone, all places were the same to him. There was, besides, that in
the disposition of the man which tended to the homely:--any one who
imagines that in the least synonymous with the coarse, or discourteous,
or unrefined, has yet to understand the essentials of good breeding.
Hence it came that the other rooms of the house were by degrees almost
neglected. Both the dining-room and drawing-room grew very cold,
cold as with the coldness of what is dead; and though he slept in
the same part of the house by choice, not often did the young laird
enter either. But he had concerning them, the latter in particular, a
notion of vastness and grandeur; and along with that, a vague sense
of sanctity, which it is not quite easy to define or account for. It
seems however to have the same root with all veneration for place--for
if there were not a natural inclination to venerate place, would any
external reason make men capable of it? I think we shall come at length
to feel all places, as all times and all spaces, venerable, because
they are the outcome of the eternal nature and the eternal thought.
When we have God, all is holy, and we are at home.




CHAPTER III.

THE DRAWING-ROOM.

As soon as they were out of the kitchen-door, the boy pushed his hand
into his father’s; the father grasped it, and without a word spoken,
they walked on together. They would often be half a day together
without a word passing between them. To be near, each to the other,
seemed enough for each.

Cosmo had thought his father was going somewhere about the farm, to see
how things were getting on; but, instead of crossing to the other side
of the court, where lay the sheds and stables, etc., or leaving it by
the gate, the laird turned to the left, and led the way to the next
block of building, where he stopped at a door at the farther end of the
front of it. It was a heavy oak door, studded with great broad iron
knobs, arranged in angular patterns. It was set deep in the thick wall,
but there were signs of there having been a second, doubtless still
stronger, flush with the external surface, for the great hooks of the
hinges remained, with the deep hole in the stone on the opposite side
for the bolt. The key was in the lock, for, except to open the windows,
and do other necessary pieces of occasional tendance, it was seldom
anybody entered the place, and Grizzie generally turned the key, and
left it in the lock. She would have been indignant at the assertion,
but I am positive it was not _always_ taken out at night. In this part
of the castle were the dining and drawing rooms, and immediately over
the latter, a state bedroom in which nobody had slept for many years.

It was into a narrow passage, no wider than itself, the door led.
From this passage a good-sized hall opened to the left--very barely
furnished, but with a huge fireplace, and a great old table, that
often had feasted jubilant companies. The walls were only plastered,
and were stained with damp. Against them were fixed a few mouldering
heads of wild animals--the stag and the fox and the otter--one ancient
wolf’s-head also, wherever that had been killed. But it was not into
this room the laird led his son. The passage ended in a stone stair
that went up between containing walls. It was much worn, and had so
little head-room that the laird could not ascend without stooping.
Cosmo was short enough as yet to go erect, but it gave him always a
feeling of imprisonment and choking, a brief agony of the imagination,
to pass through the narrow curve, though he did so at least twice every
day. It was the oldest-looking thing about the place--that staircase.

At the top of it, the laird turned to the right, and lifted the
latch--all the doors were latched--of a dark-looking door. It screaked
dismally as it opened. He entered and undid a shutter, letting an
abiding flash of the ever young light of the summer day into the
ancient room. It was long since Cosmo had been in it before. The aspect
of it affected him like a withered wall-flower.

It was a well-furnished room. A lady with taste must at one time
at least have presided in it--but then withering does so much for
beauty--and that not of stuffs and _things_ only! The furniture of
it was very modern compared with the house, but not much of it was
younger than the last James, or Queen Anne, and it had all a stately
old-maidish look. Such venerable rooms have been described, and
painted, and put on the stage, and dreamed about, tens of thousands
of times, yet they always draw me afresh as if they were as young as
the new children who keep the world from growing old. They haunt me,
and if I miss them in heaven, I shall have one given me. On the floor
was an old, old carpet, wondrously darned and skilfully patched, with
all its colours faded into a sweet faint ghost-like harmony. Several
spider-legged, inlaid tables stood about the room, but most of the
chairs were of a sturdier make, one or two of rich carved work of
India, no doubt a great rarity when first brought to Glenwarlock. The
walls had once had colour, but it was so retiring and indistinct in
the little light that came through the one small deep-set window whose
shutter had been opened, that you could not have said what it was.
There were three or four cabinets--one of them old Japanese; and on a
table a case of gorgeous humming birds. The scarlet cloth that covered
the table was faded to a dirty orange, but the birds were almost as
bright as when they darted like live jewels through the tropical
sunlight. Exquisite as they were however, they had not for the boy half
the interest of a faded old fire-screen, lovelily worked in silks, by
hands to him unknown, long ago returned to the earth of which they were
fashioned. A variety of nick-nacks and ornaments, not a few of which
would have been of value in the eyes of a connoisseur, crowded the
chimney-piece--which stood over an iron grate with bulging bars, and a
tall brass fender. How still and solemn-quiet it all was in the middle
of the great triumphant sunny day--like some far-down hollow in a rock,
the matrix of a gem! It looked as if it had done with life--as much
done with life as if it were a room in Egyptian rock, yet was it full
of the memories of keenest life, and Cosmo knew there was treasure upon
treasure of wonder and curiosity hid in those cabinets, some of which
he had seen, and more he would like to see. But it was not to show him
any of these that his father had now brought him to the room.

Not once yielding the right hand of the boy which was clasped to and
in his own, the laird closed the door of the room, and advancing the
whole length of it, stopped at a sofa covered with a rich brocade, and
seating himself thereon, slowly, and with a kind of care, drew him
between his thin knees, and began to talk to him. Now there was this
difference between the relation of these two and that of most fathers
and sons, that, thus taken into solemn solitude by his old father,
the boy felt no dismay, no sense of fault to be found, no troubled
expectation of admonition. Reverence and love held about equal sway in
his feeling towards his father. And while the grandmother looked down
on Cosmo as the son of his mother, for that very reason his father in a
strange lovely way reverenced his boy: the reaction was utter devotion.

Cosmo stood and looked in his father’s eyes--their eyes were of the
same colour--that bright sweet soft Norwegian blue--his right hand
still clasped in his father’s left, and his left hand leaning gently
on his father’s knee. Then, as I say, the old man began to talk to the
young one. A silent man ordinarily, it was from no lack of the power of
speech, for he had a Celtic gift of simple eloquence.

“This is your birthday, my son.”

“Yes, papa.”

“You are now fourteen.”

“Yes, papa.”

“You are growing quite a man.”

“I don’t know, papa.”

“So much of a man, at least, my Cosmo, that I am going to treat you
like a man this day, and tell you some things that I have never talked
about to any one since your mother’s death.--You remember your mother,
Cosmo?”

This question he was scarcely ever alone with the boy without
asking--not from forgetfulness, but from the desire to keep the boy’s
remembrance of her fresh, and for the pure pleasure of talking of
her to the only one with whom it did not seem profane to converse
concerning his worshipped wife.

“Yes, papa, I do.”

The laird always spoke Scotch to his mother, and to Grizzie also,
who would have thought him seriously offended had he addressed her
in book-English; but to his Marion’s son he always spoke in the best
English he had, and Cosmo did his best in the same way in return.

“Tell me what you remember about her,” said the old man.

He had heard the same thing again and again from the boy, yet every
time it was as if he hoped and watched for some fresh revelation
from the lips of the lad--as if, truth being one, memory might go on
recalling, as imagination goes on foreseeing.

“I remember,” said the boy, “a tall beautiful woman, with long hair,
which she brushed before a big, big looking-glass.”

The love of the son, kept alive by the love of the husband, glorifying
through the mists of his memory the earthly appearance of the mother,
gave to her the form in which he would see her again, rather than that
in which he had actually beheld her. And indeed the father saw her
after the same fashion in the memory of his love. Tall to the boy of
five, she was little above the middle height, yet the husband saw her
stately in his dreams; there was nothing remarkable in her face except
the expression, which after her marriage had continually gathered
tenderness and grace, but the husband as well as the child called her
absolutely beautiful.

“What colour were her eyes, Cosmo?”

“I don’t know; I never saw the colour of them; but I remember they
looked at me as if I should run into them.”

“She would have died for you, my boy. We must be very good that we may
see her again some day.”

“I will try. I do try, papa.”

“You see, Cosmo, when a woman like that condescends to be wife to one
of us and mother to the other, the least we can do, when she is taken
from us, is to give her the same love and the same obedience after
she is gone as when she was with us. She is with her own kind up in
heaven now, but she may be looking down and watching us. It may be God
lets her do that, that she may see of the travail of her soul and be
satisfied--who can tell? She can’t be very anxious about me now, for I
am getting old, and my warfare is nearly over; but she may be getting
things ready to rest me a bit. She knows I have for a long time now
been trying to keep the straight path, as far as I could see it, though
sometimes the grass and heather has got the better of it, so that it
was hard to find. But _you_ must remember, Cosmo, that it is not enough
to be a good boy, as I shall tell her you have always been: you’ve got
to be a good man, and that is a rather different and sometimes a harder
thing. For, as soon as a man has to do with other men, he finds they
expect him to do things they ought to be ashamed of doing themselves;
and then he has got to stand on his own honest legs, and not move an
inch for all their pushing and pulling; and especially where a man
loves his fellow man and likes to be on good terms with him, that is
not easy. The thing is just this, Cosmo--when you are a full-grown
man, you must be a good boy still--that’s the difficulty. For a man
to be a boy, and a good boy still, he must be a thorough man. The man
that’s not manly can never be a good boy to his mother. And you can’t
keep true to your mother, except you remember Him who is father and
mother both to all of us. I wish my Marion were here to teach you as
she taught me. She taught me to pray, Cosmo, as I have tried to teach
you--when I was in any trouble, just to go into my closet, and shut
to the door, and pray to my Father who is in secret--the same Father
who loved you so much as to give you my Marion for a mother. But I am
getting old and tired, and shall soon go where I hope to learn faster.
Oh, my boy! hear your father who loves you, and never do the thing
you would be ashamed for your mother or me to know. Remember, nothing
drops out; everything hid shall be revealed. But of all things, if ever
you should fail or fall, don’t lie still because you are down: get up
again--for God’s sake, for your mother’s sake, for my sake--get up and
try again.

“And now it is time you should know a little about the family of which
you come. I don’t doubt there have been some in it who would count me a
foolish man for bringing you up as I have done, but those of them who
are up there don’t. They see that the business of life is not to get
as much as you can, but to do justly, and love mercy, and walk humbly
with your God--with your mother’s God, my son. They may say I have made
a poor thing of it, but I shall not hang my head before the public of
that country, because I’ve let the land slip from me that I couldn’t
keep any more than this weary old carcase that’s now crumbling away
from about me. Some would tell me I ought to shudder at the thought
of leaving you to such poverty, but I am too anxious about yourself,
my boy, to think much about the hardships that may be waiting you.
I should be far more afraid about you if I were leaving you rich. I
have seen rich people do things I never knew a poor gentleman do. I
don’t mean to say anything against the rich--there’s good and bad of
all sorts; but I just can’t be so very sorry that I am leaving you to
poverty, though, if I might have had my way, it wouldn’t have been so
bad. But he knows best who loves best. I have struggled hard to keep
the old place for you; but there’s hardly an acre outside the garden
and close but was mortgaged before I came into the property. I’ve been
all my life trying to pay off, but have made little progress. The house
is free, however, and the garden; and don’t you part with the old
place, my boy, except you see you _ought_. But rather than anything not
out and out honest, anything the least doubtful, sell every stone. Let
all go, if you should have to beg your way home to us. Come clean, my
son, as my Marion bore you.”

Here Cosmo interrupted his father to ask what _mortgaged_ meant. This
led to an attempt on the part of the laird to instruct him in the
whole state of the affairs of the property. He showed him where all
the papers were kept, and directed him to whom to go for any requisite
legal advise. Weary then of business, of which he had all his life had
more than enough, he turned to pleasanter matters, and began to tell
him anecdotes of the family.

“What in mercy can hae come o’ the laird, think ye, my leddy?” said
Grizzie to her mistress. “It’s the yoong laird’s birthday, ye see, an’
they aye haud a colloguin’ thegither upo’ that same, an’ I kenna whaur
to gang to cry them till their denner.”

“Run an’ ring the great bell,” said the grandmother, mindful of old
glories.

“’Deed, I s’ du naething o’ the kin’,” said Grizzie to herself; “it’s
eneuch to raise a regiment--gien it camna doon upo’ my heid.”

But she had her suspicion, and finding the great door open, ascended
the stair.

The two were sitting at a table, with the genealogical tree of the
family spread out before them, the father telling tale after tale, the
son listening in delight. I must confess, however--let it tell against
the laird’s honesty as it may--that, his design being neither to
glorify his family, nor to teach records, but to impress all he could
find of ancestral nobility upon his boy, he made a choice, and both
communicated and withheld. So absorbed were they, that Grizzie’s knock
startled them both a good deal.

“Yer denners is ready, laird,” she said, standing erect in the doorway.

“Verra weel, Grizzie, I thank ye,” returned the laird.--“Cosmo, we’ll
take a walk together this evening, and then I’ll tell you more about
that brother of my grandfather’s. Come along to dinner now.--I houp
ye hae something in honour o’ the occasion, Grizzie,” he added in a
whisper when he reached the door, where the old woman waited to follow
them.

“I teuk it upo’ me, laird,” answered Grizzie in the same tone, while
Cosmo was going down the stair, “to put a cock an’ a leek thegither,
an’ they’ll be nane the waur that ye hae keepit them i’ the pot a
whilie langer.--Cosmo,” she went on when they had descended, and
overtaken the boy, who was waiting for them at the foot, “the Lord
bless ye upo’ this bonnie day! An’ may ye be aye a comfort to them ’at
awes ye, as ye hae been up to this present.”

“I houp sae, Grizzie,” responded Cosmo humbly; and all went together to
the kitchen.

There the table was covered with a clean cloth of the finest of
homespun, and everything set out with the same nicety as if the meal
had been spread in the dining-room. The old lady, who had sought to
please her son by putting on her best cap for the occasion, but who
had in truth forgot what day it was until reminded by Grizzie, sat
already at the head of the table, waiting their arrival. She made a
kind speech to the boy, hoping he would be master of the place for many
years after his father and she had left him. Then the meal commenced.
It did not last long. They had the soup first, and then the fowl that
had been boiled in it, with a small second dish of potatoes--the year’s
baby Kidneys, besides those Grizzie had pared. Delicate pancakes
followed--and dinner was over--except for the laird, who had a little
toddy after. But as yet Cosmo had never even tasted strong drink--and
of course he never desired it. Leaving the table, he wandered out,
pondering some of the things his father had been telling him.




CHAPTER IV.

AN AFTERNOON SLEEP.

Presently, without having thought whither he meant to go, he found
himself out of sight of the house--in a favourite haunt, but one in
which he always had a peculiar feeling of strangeness and even
expatriation. He had descended the stream that rushed past the end
of the house, till it joined the valley river, and followed the
latter up, to where it took a sudden sharp turn, and a little
farther. Then he crossed it, and was in a lonely nook of the glen,
with steep _braes_ about him on all sides, some of them covered with
grass, others rugged and unproductive. He threw himself down in the
clover, a short distance from the stream, and straightway felt as
if he were miles from home. No shadow of life was to be seen.
Cottage-chimney nor any smoke was visible--no human being, no work
of human hands, no sign of cultivation except the grass and clover.

Now whether it was that in childhood he had learned that here he
was beyond his father’s land, or that some early sense of
loneliness in the place had been developed by a brooding fancy into
a fixed feeling, I cannot well say; but certainly, as often as he
came--and he liked to visit the spot, and would sometimes spend
hours in it--he felt like a hermit of the wilderness cut off from
human society, and was haunted with a vague sense of neighbouring
hostility. Probably it came of an historical fancy that the nook
ought to be theirs, combined with the sense that it was not. But
there had been no injury done _ab extra_: the family had suffered
from the inherent moral lack of certain of its individuals.

This sense of _away-from-homeness_, however, was not strong enough to
keep Cosmo from falling into such a dreamful reverie as by degrees
naturally terminated in slumber. Seldom is sleep far from one who
lies on his back in the grass, with the sound of waters in his
ears. And indeed a sleep in the open air was almost an essential
ingredient of a holiday such as Cosmo had been accustomed to make
of his birthday: constantly active as his mind was, perhaps in part
because of that activity, he was ready to fall asleep any moment
when warm and supine.

When he woke from what seemed a dreamless sleep, his half roused
senses were the same moment called upon to render him account of
something very extraordinary which they could not themselves
immediately lay hold of. Though the sun was yet some distance above
the horizon, it was to him behind one of the hills, as he lay with
his head low in the grass; and what could the strange thing be
which he saw on the crest of the height before him, on the other
side of the water? Was it a fire in a grate, thinned away by the
sunlight? How could there be a grate where there was neither house
nor wall? Even in heraldry the combination he beheld would have
been a strange one. There stood in fact a frightful-looking
creature half consumed in light--yet a pale light, seemingly not
strong enough to burn. It could not be a phoenix, for he saw no
wings, and thought he saw four legs. Suddenly he burst out
laughing, and laughed that the hills echoed. His sleep-blinded eyes
had at length found their focus and clarity.

“I see!” he said, “I see what it is! It’s Jeames Gracie’s coo ’at’s
been loupin’ ower the mune, an’s stucken upo’ ’t!”

In very truth there was the moon between the legs of the cow! She
did not remain there long however, but was soon on the cow’s back,
as she crept up and up in the face of the sun. He bethought him of
a couplet that Grizzie had taught him when he was a child:

  Whan the coo loups ower the mune,
  The reid gowd rains intil men’s shune.

And in after-life he thought not unfrequently of this odd vision he
had had. Often, when, having imagined he had solved some difficulty
of faith or action, presently the same would return in a new shape,
as if it had but taken the time necessary to change its garment, he
would say to himself with a sigh, “The coo’s no ower the mune yet!”
and set himself afresh to the task of shaping a handle on the
infinite small enough for a finite to lay hold of. Grizzie, who was
out looking for him, heard the roar of his laughter, and, guided by
the sound, spied him where he lay. He heard her footsteps, but
never stirred till he saw her looking down upon him like a
benevolent gnome that had found a friendless mortal asleep on
ground of danger.

“Eh, Cosmo, laddie, ye’ll get yer deid o’ caul’!” she cried. “An’
preserve ’s a’! what set ye lauchin’ in sic a fearsome fashion as
yon? Ye’re surely no fey!”

“Na, I’m no fey, Grizzie! Ye wad hae lauchen yersel’ to see Jeames
Gracie’s coo wi’ the mune atween the hin’ an’ the fore legs o’ her.
It was terrible funny.”

“Hoots! I see naething to lauch at i’ that. The puir coo cudna help
whaur the mune wad gang. The haivenly boadies is no to be
restricket.”

Again Cosmo burst into a great laugh, and this time Grizzie,
seriously alarmed lest he should be in reality _fey_, grew angry, and
seizing hold of him by the arm, pulled lustily.

“Get up, I tell ye!” she cried. “Here’s the laird speirin’ what’s
come o’ ye, ’at ye come na hame to yer tay.”

But Cosmo instead of rising only laughed the more, and went on
until at length Grizzie made use of a terrible threat.

“As sure ’s sowens!” she said, “gien ye dinna haud yer tongue wi’
that menseless-like lauchin’, I’ll no tell ye anither auld-warld
tale afore Marti’mas.”

“Will ye tell me ane the nicht gien I haud my tongue an’ gang hame
wi’ ye?”

“Ay, that wull I--that’s gien I can min’ upo’ ane.”

He rose at once, and laughed no more. They walked home together in
the utmost peace.

After tea, his father went out with him for a stroll, and to call
on Jeames Gracie, the owner of the cow whose _inconstellation_ had so
much amused him. He was an old man, with an elderly wife, and a
grand-daughter--a weaver to trade, whose father and grandfather
before him had for many a decade done the weaving work, both in
linen and wool, required by “them at the castle.” He had been on
the land, in the person of his ancestors, from time almost
immemorial, though he had only a small cottage, and a little bit of
land, barely enough to feed the translunar cow. But poor little
place as Jeames’s was, if the laird would have sold it, the price
would have gone a good way towards clearing the rest of his
property of its encumbrances. For the situation of the little spot
was such as to make it specially desirable in the eyes of the next
proprietor, on the border of whose land it lay. He was a lord of
session, and had taken his title from the place, which he inherited
from his father; who, although a laird, had been so little of a
gentleman, that the lordship had not been enough to make one of his
son. He was yet another of those trim, orderly men, who will
sacrifice anything--not to beauty--of that they have in general no
sense--but to tidiness: tidiness in law, in divinity, in morals, in
estate, in garden, in house, in person--tidiness is in their eyes
the first thing--seemingly because it is the highest creative
energy of which they are capable. Naturally the dwelling of James
Gracie was an eyesore to this man, being visible from not a few of
his windows, and from almost anywhere on the private road to his
house; for decidedly it was not tidy. Neither in truth was it
dirty, while to any life-loving nature it was as pleasant to know,
as it was picturesque to look at. But the very appearance of
poverty seems to act as a reproach on some of the rich--at least
why else are they so anxious to get it out of their sight?--and
Lord Lickmyloof--that was not his real title, but he was better
known by it than by the name of his land: it came of a nasty habit
he had, which I need not at present indicate farther--Lord
Lickmyloof could not bear the sight of the cottage which no painter
would have consented to omit from the landscape. It haunted him
like an evil thing.

[Illustration: COSMO ON HIS WAY TO SCHOOL.]




CHAPTER V.

THE SCHOOL.


The next morning, by the steep farm road, and the parish road,
which ran along the border of the river and followed it downward,
Cosmo, on his way to school, with his books in a green baize bag,
hung by the strings over his shoulder, came out from among the
hills upon a comparative plain. But there were hills on all sides
round him yet--not very high--few of them more than a couple of
thousand feet--but bleak and bare, even under the glow of the
summer sun, for the time of heather was not yet, when they would
show warm and rich to the eye of poet and painter. Most of the
farmers there, however, would have felt a little insulted by being
asked to admire them at any time: whatever their colour or shape or
product, they were incapable of yielding crops and money! In truth
many a man who now admires, would be unable to do so, if, like
those farmers, he had to struggle with nature for little more than
a bare living. The struggle there, what with early, long-lasting,
and bitter winters, and the barrenness of the soil in many parts,
was a severe one.

Leaving the river, the road ascended a little, and joined the
highway, which kept along a level, consisting mostly of land lately
redeemed from the peat-moss. It went straight for two miles, fenced
from the fields in many parts by low stone walls without mortar,
abhorrent to the eye of Cosmo; in other parts by walls of earth,
called dykes, which delighted his very soul. These were covered
with grass for the vagrant cow, sprinkled with loveliest little
wild flowers for the poet-peasant, burrowed in by wild bees for the
adventurous delight of the honey-drawn school-boy. Glad I am they
had not quite vanished from Scotland before I was sent thither, but
remained to help me get ready for the kingdom of heaven: those
dykes must still be dear to my brothers who have gone up before me.
Some of the fields had only a small ditch between them and the
road, and some of them had no kind of fence at all. It was a dreary
road even in summer, though not therefore without its loveable
features--amongst which the dykes; and wherever there is anything
to love, there is beauty in some form.

A short way past the second milestone, he came to the first straggling
houses of the village. It was called Muir of Warlock, after the moor
on which it stood, as the moor was called after the river that ran
through it, and that named after the glen, which took its name from the
family--so that the Warlocks had scattered their cognomen all around
them. A somewhat dismal-looking village it was--except to those that
knew its people: to some of such it was beautiful--as the plainest face
is beautiful to him who knows a sweet soul inside it. The highway ran
through it--a broad fine road, fit for the richest country under the
sun; but the causeway along its edges, making of it for the space a
street, was of the poorest and narrowest. Some of the cottages stood
immediately upon the path, some of them receded a little. They were
almost all of one story, built of stone, and rough-cast--_harled_,
they called it there, with roofs of thick thatch, in which a half
smothered pane of glass might hint at some sort of room beneath. As
Cosmo walked along, he saw all the trades at work; from blacksmith to
tailor, everybody was busy. Now and then he was met by a strong scent,
as of burning leather, from the oak-bark which some of the housewives
used for fuel, after its essence had been exhausted in the tan-pit,
but mostly the air was filled with the odour of burning peat. Cosmo
knew almost everybody, and was kindly greeted as he went along--none
the less that some of them, hearing from their children that he had
not been to school the day before, had remarked that his birthday
hardly brought him enough to keep it with. The vulgarity belonging
to the worship of Mammon, is by no means confined to the rich; many
of these, having next to nothing, yet thought possession the one
thing, money, houses, lands the only inheritances. It is a marvel
that even world-loving people should never see with what a load they
oppress the lives of the children to whom, instead of bringing them
up to earn their own living, and thus enjoy at least _the game_ of
life, they leave a fortune enough to sink a devil yet deeper in hell.
Was it nothing to Cosmo to inherit a long line of ancestors whose
story he knew--their virtues, their faults, their wickedness, their
humiliation?--to inherit the nobility of a father such as his? the
graciousness of a mother such as that father caused him to remember
her? Was there no occasion for the laird to rejoice in the birth of a
boy whom he believed to have inherited all the virtues of his race,
and left all their vices behind? But none of the villagers forgot,
however they might regard the holiday, that Cosmo was the “yoong laird”
notwithstanding the poverty of his house; and they all knew that in old
time the birthday of the heir had been a holiday to the school as well
as to himself, and remembered the introduction of the change by the
present master. Indeed, throughout the village, although there were not
a few landed proprietors in the neighbourhood whose lands came nearer,
all of whom of course were lairds, and although the village itself had
ceased to belong to the family, Glenwarlock was always called _the_
laird; and the better part in the hearts of even the money-loving and
money-trusting among its inhabitants, honoured him as the best man in
the country, “thof he hed sae little skeel at haudin’ his ain nest
thegither;” and though, besides, there is scarce a money-making man
who does not believe poverty the cousin, if not the child of fault;
and the more unscrupulous, _within the law_, a man has been in making
his money, the more he regards the man who seems to have lost the race
he has won, as somehow or other to blame: “People with naught are
naughty.” Nor is this judgment confined to the morally unscrupulous.
Few who are themselves permitted to be successful, care to conjecture
that it may be the will of the power, that in part through their
affairs, rules men, that some should be, in that way, unsuccessful:
better can be made of them by preventing the so-called success. Some
men rise with the treatment under which others would sink. But of the
inhabitants of Muir of Warlock, only a rather larger proportion than of
the inhabitants of Mayfair would have taken interest in such a theory
of results.

They all liked, and those who knew him best, loved the young laird;
for if he had no lands, neither had he any pride, they said, and was
as happy sitting with any old woman, and sharing her tea, as at a
lord’s table. Nor was he less of a favourite at school, though, being
incapable of self-assertion, his inborn consciousness of essential
humanity rendering it next to impossible for him to _claim_ anything,
some of the bigger boys were less than friendly with him. One point in
his conduct was in particular distasteful to them: he seemed to scorn
even an honest advantage. For in truth he never could bring himself,
in the small matters of dealing that pass between boys at school, to
make the least profit. He had a passion for fair play, which, combined
with love to his neighbour, made of an advantage, though perfectly
understood and recognized, almost a physical pain: he shrank from it
with something like disgust. I may not, however, conceal my belief,
that there was in it a rudimentary tinge of the pride of those of his
ancestors who looked down upon commerce, though not upon oppression,
or even on robbery. But the true man will change to nobility even the
instincts derived from strains of inferior moral development in his
race--as the oyster makes, they say, of the sand-grain a pearl.

Greeting the tailor through his open window, where he sat cross-legged
on his table, the shoemaker on his stool, which, this lovely summer
morning, he had brought to the door of his cottage, and the smith
in his nimbus of sparks, through the half-door of his smithy, and
receiving from each a kindly response, the boy walked steadily on till
he came to the school. There, on the heels of the master, the boys
and girls were already crowding in, and he entered along with them.
The religious preliminaries over, consisting in a dry and apparently
grudging recognition of a sovereignty that required the homage, and
the reading of a chapter of the Bible in class, the _secular_ business
was proceeded with; and Cosmo was sitting with his books before him,
occupied with a hard passage in _Cæsar_, when the master left his desk
and came to him.

“You’ll have to make up for lost time to-day, Cosmo,” he said.

Now if anything was certain to make Cosmo angry, it was the appearance,
however slight, or however merely implied, of disapproval of anything
his father thought, or did, or sanctioned. His face flushed, and he
answered quickly,

“The time wasn’t lost, sir.”

This reply made the master in his turn angry, but he restrained himself.

“I’m glad of that! I may then expect to find you prepared with your
lessons for to-day.”

“I learned my lessons for yesterday,” Cosmo answered; “but my father
says it’s no play to learn lessons.”

“Your father’s not master of this school.”

“He’s maister o’ me,” returned the boy, relapsing into the
mother-tongue, which, except it be spoken in good humour, always sounds
rude.

The master took the youth’s devotion to his father for insolence to
himself.

“I shall say no more,” he rejoined, still using the self-command which
of all men an autocrat requires, “till I find how you do in your class.
That you are the best scholar in it, is no reason why you should be
allowed to idle away hours in which you might have been laying up store
for the time to come.”--It was a phrase much favoured by the master--in
present application foolish.--“But perhaps your father does not mean to
send you to college?”

“My father hasna said, an’ I haena speirt,” answered Cosmo, with his
eyes on his book.

Still misinterpreting the boy, the conceit and ill-temper of the master
now overcame him, and caused him to forget the proprieties altogether.

“Haud on that gait, laddie, an’ ye’ll be as great a fule as yer father
himsel’,” he said.

Cosmo rose from his seat, white as the wall behind him, looked in the
master’s eyes, caught up his _Cæsar_, and dashed the book in his face.
Most boys would then have made for the door, but that was not Cosmo’s
idea of bearing witness. The moment the book left his hand, he drew
himself up, stood still as a statue, looked full at the master, and
waited. Not by a motion would he avoid any consequence of his act.

He had not long to wait. A corner of the book had gone into the
master’s eye; he clapped his hand to it, and for a moment seemed lost
in suffering. The next, he clenched for the boy a man’s fist, and
knocked him down. Cosmo fell backward over the form, struck his head
hard on the foot of the next desk, and lay where he fell.

A shriek arose, and a girl about sixteen came rushing up. She was the
grand-daughter of James Gracie, befriended of the laird.

“Go to your seat, Agnes!” shouted the master, and turning from her,
stood, with his handkerchief to one eye, looking down on the boy. So
little did he know him, he suspected him of pretending to be more hurt
than he was.

“Touch me gien ye daur,” cried Agnes, as she stooped to remove his legs
from the form.

“Leave him alone,” shouted the master, and seizing her, pulled her
away, and flung her from him that she almost fell.

But by this time the pain in his eye had subsided a little, and
he began to doubt whether indeed the boy was pretending as he had
imagined. He began also to feel not a little uneasy as to the possible
consequences of his hasty act--not half so uneasy, however, as he
would have felt, had the laird been as well-to-do as his neighbour,
Lord Lickmyloof--who would be rather pleased than otherwise, the
master thought, at any grief that might befall either Cosmo or the
lass Gracie. Therefore, although he would have been ready to sink had
the door then opened and the laird entered, he did not much fear any
consequences to be counted serious from the unexpected failure of his
self-command. He dragged the boy up by the arm, and set him on his
seat, before Agnes could return; but his face was as that of one dead,
and he fell forward on the desk. With a second great cry, Agnes again
sprang forward. She was a strong girl, accustomed to all kinds of work,
out-door and in-door. She caught Cosmo round the waist from behind,
pulled him from the seat, and drew him to the door, which because of
the heat stood open. The master had had enough of it, and did not
attempt to hinder her. There she took him in her arms, and literally
ran with him along the street.




CHAPTER VI.

GRANNIE’S COTTAGE.


But she had not to pass many houses before she came to that of her
grandfather’s mother, an aged woman, I need not say, but in very
tolerable health and strength nevertheless. She sat at her spinning
wheel, with her door wide open. Suddenly, and, to her dulled sense,
noiselessly, Aggie came staggering in with her burden. She dropped him
on the old woman’s bed, and herself on the floor, her heart and lungs
going wildly.

“I’ the name o’ a’!” cried her great-grandmother, stopping her wheel,
breaking her thread, and letting the end twist madly up amongst the
revolving iron teeth, emerging from the mist of their own speed, in
which a moment before they had looked ethereal as the vibration-film of
an insect’s wings.

She rose with a haste marvellous for her years, and approaching, looked
down on the prostrate form of the girl.

“It can never be my ain Aggie,” she faltered, “to rush intil my quaiet
hoose that gait, fling a man upo’ my bed, an’ fa’ her len’th upo’ my
flure!”

But Agnes was not yet able to reply. She could only sign with
her hand to the bed, which she did with such energy that her
great-grandmother--_Grannie_, she called her, as did the whole of the
village--turned at once thitherward. She could not see well, and the
box-bed was dark, so she did not at first recognize Cosmo, but the
moment she suspected who it was, she too uttered a cry--the cry of old
age, feeble and wailful.

“The michty be ower ’s! what’s come to my bairn?” she said.

“The maister knockit him doon,” gasped Agnes.

“Eh, lassie! rin for the doctor.”

“No,” came feebly from the bed. “I dinna want ony notice ta’en o’ the
business.”

“Are ye sair hurtit, my bairn?” asked the old woman.

“My heid’s some sair an’ throughither-like; but I’ll jist lie still a
wee, and syne I’ll be able to gang hame. I’m some sick. I winna gang
back to the school the day.”

“Na, my bonnie man, that ye sanna!” cried Grannie, in a tone mingled of
pity and indignation.

A moment more, and Agnes rose from the earth, for earth it was, quite
fresh; and the two did all they could to make him comfortable. Aggie
would have gone at once to let his father know; she was perfectly
able, she said, and in truth seemed nothing the worse for her fierce
exertion. But Cosmo said, “Bide a wee, Aggie, an’ we’ll gang hame
thegither. I’ll be better in twa or three minutes.” But he did not get
better so fast as he expected, and the only condition on which Grannie
would consent not to send for the doctor, was, that Agnes should go and
tell his father.

“But eh, Aggie!” said Cosmo, “dinna lat him think there’s onything to
be fleyt aboot. It’s naething but a gey knap o’ the heid; an’ I’m sure
the maister didna inten’ duin me ony sarious hurt.--But my father’s
sure to gie him fair play!--he gies a’ body fair play.”

Agnes set out, and Cosmo fell asleep.

He slept a long time, and woke better. She hurried to Glenwarlock, and
in the yard found the laird.

“Weel, lassie!” he said, “what brings ye here this time o’ day? What
for are ye no at the school? Ye’ll hae little eneuch o’ ’t by an’ by,
whan the hairst’s come.”

“It’s the yoong laird!” said Aggie, and stopped.

“What’s come till ’im?” asked the laird, in the sharpened tone of
anxiety.

“It’s no muckle, he says himsel’. But his heid’s some sair yet.”

“What maks his heid sair? He was weel eneuch whan he gaed this mornin’.”

“The maister knockit ’im doon.”

The laird started as if one had struck him in the face. The blood
reddened his forehead, and his old eyes flashed like two stars. All
the battle-fury of the old fighting race seemed to swell up from
ancient fountains amongst the unnumbered roots of his being, and rush
to his throbbing brain. He clenched his withered fist, drew himself up
straight, and made his knees strong. For a moment he felt as in the
prime of life and its pride. The next his fist relaxed, his hand fell
by his side, and he bowed his head.

“The Lord hae mercy upo’ me!” he murmured. “I was near takin’ the
affairs o’ ane o’ his into _my_ han’s!”

He covered his face with his wrinkled hands, and the girl stood beside
him in awe-filled silence. But she did not quite comprehend, and was
troubled at seeing him stand thus motionless. In the trembling voice of
one who would comfort her superior, she said,

“Dinna greit, laird. He’ll be better, I’m thinkin’, afore ye win till
’im. It was Grannie gart me come--no him.”

Speechless the laird turned, and without even entering the house,
walked away to go to the village. He had reached the valley-road before
he discovered that Agnes was behind him.

“Dinna ye come, Aggie,” he said; “ye may be wantit at hame.”

“Ye dinna think I wad ley ye, laird!--’cep’ ye was to think fit to
sen’ me frae ye. I’m maist as guid ’s a man to gang wi’ ye--wi’ the
advantage o’ bein’ a wuman, as my mither tells me:”--She called her
grandmother, _mother_.--“ye see we can daur mair nor ony man--but,
Guid forgie me!--no mair nor the yoong laird whan he flang his _Cæsar_
straucht i’ the maister’s face this verra mornin’.”

The laird stopped, turned sharply round, and looked at her.

“What did he that for?” he said.

“’Cause he ca’d yersel’ a fule,” answered the girl, with the utmost
simplicity, and no less reverence.

The laird drew himself up once more, and looked twenty years younger.
But it was not pride that inspired him, nor indignation, but the
father’s joy at finding in his son his champion.

“Mony ane’s ca’d me that, I weel believe, lassie, though no to my ain
face or that o’ my bairn. But whether I deserve ’t or no, nane but
ane kens. It’s no by the word o’ man I stan’ or fa’; but it’s hoo my
maister luiks upo’ my puir endeevour to gang by the thing he says. Min’
this, lassie--lat fowk say as they like, but du ye as _he_ likes, an’,
or a’ be dune, they’ll be upo’ their k-nees to ye. An’ sae they’ll
be yet to my bairn--though I’m some tribbled he sud hae saired the
maister--e’en as he deserved.”

“What cud he du, sir? It was na for himsel’ he strack! An’ syne he
never muved an inch, but stud there like a rock, an’ liftit no a han’
to defen’ himsel’, but jist loot the maister tak his wull o’ ’im.”

The pair tramped swiftly along the road, heeding nothing on either
hand as they went, Aggie lithe and active, the laird stooping greatly
in his forward anxiety to see his injured boy, but walking much faster
“than his age afforded.” Before they reached the village, the mid-day
recess had come, and everybody knew what had happened. Loud were most
in praise of the boy’s behaviour, and many were the eyes that from
window and door watched the laird, as he hurried down the street to
“Grannie’s,” where all had learned the young laird was lying. But no
one spoke, or showed that he was looking, and the laird walked straight
on with his eyes to the ground, glancing neither to the right hand nor
the left; and as did the laird, so did Aggie.

The door of the cottage stood open. There was a step down, but the
laird knew it well. Turning to the left through a short passage, in
the window of which stood a large hydrangea, over two wooden pails of
water, he lifted the latch of the inner door, bowed his tall head, and
entered the room where lay his darling. With a bow to Grannie, he went
straight up to the bed, speedily discovered that Cosmo slept, and stood
regarding him with a full heart. Who can tell but him who knows it, how
much more it is to be understood by one’s own, than by all the world
beside! By one’s own one learns to love all God’s creatures, and from
one’s own one gets strength to meet the misprision of the world.

The room was dark though it was summer, and although it had two
windows, one to the street, and one to the garden behind: both
ceiling and floor were of a dark brown, for the beams and boards of
the one were old and interpenetrated with smoke, and the other was
of hard-beaten clay, into which also was wrought much smoke and an
undefinable blackness, while the windows were occupied with different
plants favoured of Grannie, so that little light could get in, and that
little was half-swallowed by the general brownness. A tall eight-day
clock stood in one corner, up to which, whoever would learn from it
the time, had to advance confidentially, and consult its face on
tip-toe, with peering eyes. Beside it was a beautifully polished chest
of drawers; a nice tea-table stood in the centre, and some dark-shiny
wooden chairs against the walls. A closet opened at the head of the
bed, and at the foot of it was the door of the room and the passage, so
that it stood in a recess, to which were wooden doors, seldom closed. A
fire partly of peat, partly of tan, burned on the little hearth.

Cosmo opened his eyes, and saw those of his father looking down upon
him. He stretched out his arms, and drew the aged head upon his bosom.
His heart was too full to speak.

“How do you find yourself, my boy?” said the father, gently releasing
himself. “I know all about it; you need not trouble yourself to tell me
more than just how you are.”

“Better, father, much better,” answered Cosmo. “But there is one
thing I must tell you. Just before it happened we were reading in the
Bible-class about Samson--how the spirit of the Lord came upon him, and
with the jaw-bone of an ass he slew ever so many of the Philistines;
and when the master said that bad word about you, it seemed as if the
spirit of the Lord came upon me; for I was not in a rage, but filled
with what seemed a holy indignation; and as I had no ass’s jaw-bone
handy, I took my _Cæsar_, and flung it as hard and as straight, as I
could in the master’s face. But I am not so sure about it now.”

“Tak ye nae thoucht anent it, Cosmo, my bairn,” said the old woman,
taking up the word; “it’s no a hair ayont what he deserved ’at daured
put sic a word to the best man in a’ the country. By the han’ o’ a
babe, as he did Goliah o’ Gath, heth the Lord rebuked the enemy.--The
Lord himsel’ ’s upo’ your side, laird, to gie ye siccan a brave son.”

“I never kent him lift his han’ afore,” said the laird, as if he would
fain mitigate judgment on youthful indiscretion,--“excep’ it was to the
Kirkmalloch bull, when he ran at him an’ me as gien he wad hae pitcht
’s ower the wa’ o’ the warl’.”

“The mair like it _was_ the speerit o’ the Lord, as the bairn himsel’
was jaloosin,” remarked Grannie, in a tone of confidence to which the
laird was ready enough to yield;--“an’ whaur the speerit o’ the Lord
is, there’s leeberty,” she added, thinking less of the suitableness
of the quotation, than of the aptness of words in it. Glenwarlock
stooped and kissed the face of his son, and went to fetch the doctor.
Before he returned, Cosmo was asleep again. The doctor would not have
him waked. From his pulse and the character of his sleep he judged he
was doing well. He had heard all about the affair before, but heard
all now as for the first time, assured the laird there was no danger,
said he would call again, and recommended him to go home. The boy must
remain where he was for the night, he said, and if the least ground for
uneasiness should show itself, he would ride over, and make his report.

“I don’t know what to think,” returned the laird: “it would be trouble
and inconvenience to Grannie.”

“’Deed, laird, ye sud be ashamt to say sic a thing: it’ll be naething
o’ the kin’!” cried the old woman. “Here he s’ bide--wi’ yer leave,
sir, an’ no muv frae whaur he lies! There’s anither bed i’ the cloaset
there. But, troth, what wi’ the rheumatics, an’--an’--the din o’ the
rottans, we s’ ca’ ’t, mony’s the nicht I gang to nae bed ava’; an’
to hae the yoong laird sleepin’ i’ my bed, an’ me keepin’ watch ower
’im, ’ill be jist like haein’ an angel i’ the hoose to luik efter. I’ll
be somebody again for ae nicht, I can tell ye! An’ oh! it’s a lang
time, sir, sin’ I was onybody i’ this warl’! I houp sair they’ll hae
something for auld fowk to du i’ the neist.”

“Hoots, mistress Forsyth,” returned the laird, “the’ ’ll be naebody
auld there!”

“Hoo am I to win in than, sir? I’m auld, gien onybody ever was auld!
An’ hoo’s yersel’ to win in, sir--for ye maun be some auld yersel’ by
this time, thof I min’ weel yer father a bit loonie in a tartan kilt.”

“What wad ye say to be made yoong again, auld frien’?” suggested the
laird, with a smile of wonderful sweetness.

“Eh, sir! there’s naething to that effec’ i’ the word.”

“Hoot!” rejoined the laird, “wad ye hae me plaguit to tell the laddie
there a’ thing I wad du for him, as gien he hadna a hert o’ his ain to
tell ’im a score o’ things--ay, hun’ers o’ things? Dinna ye ken ’at the
speerit o’ man’s the can’le o’ the Lord?”

“But sae mony for a’ that follows but their ain fancies!--That ye maun
alloo, laird; an’ what comes o’ yer can’le than?”

“That’s sic as never luik whaur the licht fa’s, but aye some ither
gait, for they carena to walk by the same. But them ’at orders their
wy’s by what licht they hae, there’s no fear o’ them. Even sud they
stummle, they sanna fa’.”

“’Deed, laird, I’m thinkin’ ye may be richt. I hae stummlet mony’s
the time, but I’m no doon yet; an’ I hae a guid houp ’at maybe, puir
dissiple as I am, the Maister may lat on ’at he kens me, whan that
great and terrible day o’ the Lord comes.”

Cosmo began to stir. His father went to the bed-side, and saw at
a glance that the boy was better. He told him what the doctor had
decreed. Cosmo said he was quite able to get up and go home that
minute. But his father would not hear of it.

“I can’t bear to think of you walking back all that way alone, papa,”
objected Cosmo.

“Ye dinna think, Cosmo,” interposed Aggie, “’at I’m gauin to lat the
laird gang hame himlane, an’ me here to be his body-gaird! I ken my
duty better nor that.”

But the laird did not go till they had all had tea together, and the
doctor had again come and gone, and given his decided opinion that all
Cosmo needed was a little rest, and that he would be quite well in a
day or two. Then at length his father left him, and, comforted, set out
with Aggie for Glenwarlock.




CHAPTER VII.

DREAMS.


The gloamin’ came down much sooner in Grannie’s cottage than on the
sides of the eastward hills, but the old woman made up her little fire,
and it glowed a bright heart to the shadowy place. Though the room was
always dusky, it was never at this season quite dark any time of the
night. It was not absolutely needful, except for the little cooking
required by the invalid--for as such, in her pride of being his nurse,
Grannie regarded him--but she welcomed the excuse for a little extra
warmth to her old limbs during the night watches. Then she sat down in
her great chair, and all was still.

“What for arena ye spinnin’, Grannie?” said Cosmo. “I like fine to hear
the wheel singin’ like a muckle flee upo’ the winnock. It spins i’
my heid lang lingles o’ thouchts, an’ dreams, an’ wad-be’s. Neist to
hearin’ yersel’ tell a tale, I like to hear yer wheel gauin’. It has a
w’y o’ ’ts ain wi’ me!”

“I was feart it micht vex ye wi’ the soomin’ o’ ’t,” answered Grannie,
and as she spoke she rose, and lighted her little lamp, though she
scarcely needed light for her spinning, and sat down to her wheel.

For a long unweary time Cosmo lay and listened, an aerial Amphion,
building castles in the air to its music, which was so monotonous that,
like the drone of the bag-pipes, he could use it for accompaniment to
any dream-time of his own.

When a man comes to trust in God thoroughly, he shrinks from
castle-building, lest his faintest fancy should run counter to that
loveliest Will; but a boy’s dreams are nevertheless a part of his
education. And the true heart will not leave the blessed conscience
out, even in its dreams.

Those of Cosmo were mostly of a lovely woman, much older than himself,
who was kind to him, and whom he obeyed and was ready to serve like
a slave. These came, of course, first of all, from the heart that
needed and delighted in the thought of a mother, but they were bodied
out from the memory, faint, far-off, and dim, of his own mother, and
the imaginations of her roused by his father’s many talks with him
concerning her. He dreamed now of one, now of another beneficent power,
of the fire, the air, the earth, or the water--each of them a gracious
woman, who favoured, helped, and protected him, through dangers and
trials innumerable. Such imaginings may be--nay must be unhealthy for
those who will not attempt the right in the face of loss and pain and
shame; but to those who labour in the direction of their own ideal,
dreams will do no hurt, but foster rather the ideal.

When at length the spinning-wheel ceased with its hum, the silence was
to Cosmo like the silence after a song, and his thoughts refused to do
their humming alone. The same moment he fell--from a wondrous region
where he dwelt with sylphs in a great palace, built on the tree-tops
of a forest ages old; where the buxom air bathed every limb, and was
to his ethereal body as water--sensible as a liquid; whose every room
rocked like the baby’s cradle of the nursery rime, but equilibrium was
the merest motion of the will; where the birds nested in its cellars,
and the squirrels ran up and down its stairs, and the woodpeckers
pulled themselves along its columns and rails by their beaks; where the
winds swung the whole city with a rhythmic roll, and the sway as of
tempest waves, music-ruled to ordered cadences; where, far below, lower
than the cellars, the deer, and the mice, and the dormice, and the
foxes, and all the wild things of the forest, ran in its caves--from
this high city of the sylphs, watched and loved and taught by the most
gracious and graceful and tenderly ethereal and powerful of beings, he
fell supine into Grannie’s box-bed, with the departed hum of her wheel
spinning out its last thread of sound in his disappointed brain.

In after years when he remembered the enchanting dreams of his boyhood,
instead of sighing after them as something gone for ever, he would say
to himself, “What matter they are gone? In the heavenly kingdom my own
mother is waiting me, fairer and stronger and real. I imagined the
elves; God imagined my mother.”

The unconscious magician of the whole mystery, who had seemed to the
boy to be spinning his very brain into dreams, rose, and, drawing near
the bed, as if to finish the ruthless destruction, and with her long
witch-broom sweep down the very cobwebs of his airy phantasy, said,

“Is ye waukin’, Cosmo my bairn?”

“Ay am I,” answered Cosmo, with a faint pang, and a strange sense of
loss: when should he dream its like again!

“Soon, soon, Cosmo,” he might have heard, could he have interpreted
the telephonic signals from the depths of his own being; “wherever the
creative pneuma can enter, there it enters, and no door stands so wide
to it as that of the obedient heart.”

“Weel, ye maun hae yer supper, an’ syne ye maun say yer prayers, an’
hae dune wi’ Tyseday, an’ gang on til’ Wudens-day.”

“I’m nae wantin’ ony supper, thank ye,” said the boy.

“Ye maun hae something, my bonny man; for them ’at aits ower little,
as weel ’s them ’at aits ower muckle, the night-mear rides--an’ she’s
a fearsome horse. Ye can never win upo’ the back o’ her, for as guid
a rider as ye’re weel kent to be, my bairn. Sae wull ye hae a drappy
parritch an’ ream? or wad ye prefar a sup of fine gruel, sic as yer
mother used to like weel frae my han’, whan it sae happent I was i’ the
hoose?” The offer seemed to the boy to bring him a little nearer the
mother whose memory he worshipped, and on the point of saying, for the
sake of saving her trouble, that he would have the porridge, he chose
the gruel.

He watched from his nest the whole process of its making. It took
a time of its own, for one of the secrets of good gruel is a long
acquaintance with the fire.--Many a time the picture of that room
returned to him in far different circumstances, like a dream of quiet
and self-sustained delight--though his one companion was an aged woman.

When he had taken it, he fell asleep once more, and when he woke again,
it was in the middle of the night. The lamp was nearly burned out: it
had a long, red, disreputable nose, that spoke of midnight hours and
exhausted oil. The old lady was dozing in her chair. The clock had just
struck something, for the sound of its bell was yet faintly pulsing
in the air. He sat up, and looked out into the room. Something seemed
upon him--he could not tell what. He felt as if something had been
going on besides the striking of the clock, and were not yet over--as
if something was even now being done in the room. But there the old
woman slept, motionless, and apparently in perfect calm! It could not,
however, have been perfect as it seemed, for presently she began to
talk. At first came only broken sentences, occasionally with a long
pause; and just as he had concluded she would say nothing more, she
would begin again. There was something awful to the fancy of the youth
in the issuing of words from the lips of one apparently unconscious
of surrounding things; her voice was like the voice of one speaking
from another world. Cosmo was a brave boy where duty was concerned,
but conscience and imagination were each able to make him tremble. To
tremble, and to turn the back, are, however, very different things:
of the latter, the thing deserving to be called cowardice, Cosmo knew
nothing; his hair began to rise upon his head, but that head he never
hid beneath the bed-clothes. He sat and stared into the gloom, where
the old woman lay in her huge chair, muttering at irregular intervals.

Presently she began to talk a little more continuously. And now also
Cosmo’s heart had got a little quieter, and, no longer making such
a noise in his ears, allowed him to hear better. After a few words
seemingly unconnected, though probably with a perfect dependence of
their own, she began to murmur something that sounded like verses.
Cosmo soon perceived that she was saying the same thing over and over,
and at length he had not only made out every word of the few lines, but
was able to remember them. This was what he afterwards recalled--by
that time uncertain whether the whole thing had not been a dream:

  Catch yer naig an’ pu’ his tail:
  In his hin’ heel ca’ a nail;
  Rug his lugs frae ane anither--
  Stan’ up, an’ ca’ the king yer brither.

When first he repeated them entire to himself, the old woman still
muttering them, he could not help laughing, and the noise, though
repressed, yet roused her. She woke, not, like most young people, with
slow gradation of consciousness, but all at once was wide awake. She
sat up in her chair.

“Was I snorin’, laddie, ’at ye leuch?” she asked, in a tone of slight
offence.

“Eh, na!” replied Cosmo. “It was only ’at ye was sayin’ something rale
funny--i’ yer sleep, ye ken--a queer jingle o’ poetry it was.”

Therewith he repeated the rime, and Grannie burst into a merry
laugh--which however sobered rather suddenly.

“I dinna won’er I was sayin’ ower thae fule words,” she said, “for
’deed I was dreamin’ o’ the only ane I ever h’ard say them, an’ that
was whan I was a lass--maybe aboot thirty. Onybody micht hae h’ard
him sayin’ them--ower and ower til himsel’, as gien he cudna weary o’
them, but naebody but mysel’ seemed to hae ta’en ony notice o’ the
same. I used whiles to won’er whether he fully un’erstude what he was
sayin’--but troth! hoo cud there be ony sense in sic havers?”

“Was there ony mair o’ the ballant?” asked Cosmo.

“Gien there was mair; I h’ard na ’t,” replied Grannie. “An’ weel I wat!
he was na ane to sing, the auld captain.--Did ye never hear tell o’
’im, laddie?”

“Gien ye mean the auld brither o’ the laird o’ that time, him ’at cam
hame frae his sea-farin’ to the East Indies--”

“Ay, ay; that’s him! Ye hae h’ard tell o’ ’im! He hed a ship o’ ’s
ain, an’ made mony a voyage afore ony o’ ’s was born, an’ was an auld
man whan at len’th hame cam he, as the sang says--ower auld to haud
by the sea ony more. I’ll never forget the luik o’ the man whan first
I saw him, nor the hurry an’ the scurry, the rinnin’ here, an’ the
routin’ there, ’at there was whan the face o’ ’m cam in at the yett!
Ye see they a’ thoucht he was hame wi’ a walth ayont figures--stowed
awa’ somewhaur--naebody kent whaur. Eh, but he was no a bonny man, an’
fowk said he dee’d na a fairstrae deith: hoo that may be, I dinna weel
ken: there _war_ unco things aboot the affair--things ’at winna weel
bide speykin’ o’. Ae thing’s certain, an’ that is, ’at the place has
never thriven sin syne. But, for that maitter, it hedna thriven for
mony a lang afore. An’ there was a fowth o’ awfu’ stories reengin’ the
country, like ghaists ’at naebody cud get a grip o’--as to hoo he had
gotten the said siller, an’ sic like--the siller ’at naebody ever saw;
for upo’ that siller, as I tell ye, naebody ever cuist an e’e. Some
said he had been a pirate upo’ the hie seas, an’ had ta’en the siller
in lumps o’ gowd frae puir ships ’at hadna men eneuch to haud the grip
o’ ’t; some said he had been a privateer; an’ ither some said there was
sma’ differ atween the twa. An’ some wad hae ’t he was ane o’ them ’at
tuik an’ sauld the puir black fowk, ’at cudna help bein’ black, for as
ootlandish as it maun luik--I never saw nane o’ the nation mysel’--ony
mair nor a corbie can help his feathers no bein’ like a doo’s; an’ gien
they turnt black for ony deevilry o’ them ’at was their forbeirs, I
kenna, an’ it maks naething to me or mine, --I wad fain an’ far raither
du them a guid turn nor tak an’ sell them; for gien their parents had
sinned, the mair war they to be pitied. But as I was sayin’, naebody
kent hoo he had gethert his siller, the mair by token ’at maybe there
was nane, for naebody, as I was tellin’ ye, ever had the sma’est glimp
o’ siller aboot ’im. For a close-loofed near kin’ o’ man he was, gien
ever ony! Aye ready was he to borrow a shillin’ frae ony fule ’at wad
len’ him ane, an’ lang had him ’at len’ ’t forgotten to luik for ’t,
er’ he thoucht o’ peyin’ the same. It was mair nor ae year or twa ’at
he leeved aboot the place, an’ naebody cared muckle for his company,
though a’ body was ower feart to lat him ken he was na welcome here or
there; for wha cud tell he micht oot wi’ the swoord he aye carriet, an’
mak an’ en’ o’ ’im! For ’deed he fearna God nor man, ony mair nor the
jeedge i’ the Scriptur’. He drank a heap--as for a’ body at he ca’d
upo’ aye hed oot the whisky-bottle well willun’ to please the man they
war feart at.”

The voice of the old woman went sounding in the ears of the boy, on
and on in the gloom, and through it, possibly from the still confused
condition of his head, he kept constantly hearing the rimes she had
repeated to him. They seemed to have laid hold of him as of her,
perhaps from their very foolishness, in an odd inexplicable way:--

  Catch yer naig an’ pu’ his tail;
  In his hin’ heel ca’ a nail;
  Rug his lugs frae ane anither--
  Stan’ up, an’ ca’ the king yer brither.

On and on went the rime, and on and on went the old woman’s voice.

“Weel, there cam’ a time whan an English lord begud to be seen aboot
the place, an’ that was nae comon sicht i’ oor puir country. He was a
frien’, fowk said, o’ the yoong Markis o’ Lossie, an’ that was hoo he
cam to sicht. He gaed fleein’ aboot, luikin’ at this, an’ luikin’ at
that; an’ whaur or hoo he fell in wi’ _him_, I dinna ken, but or lang
the twa o’ them was a heap thegither. They playt cairts thegither,
they drank thegither, they drave oot thegither--for the auld captain
never crossed beast’s back--an’ what made sic frien’s o’ them nobody
could imaigine. For the tane was a rouch sailor chield, an’ the tither
was a yoong lad, little mair, an’ a fine gentleman as weel ’s a bonny
man. But the upshot o’ ’t a’ was an ill ane; for, efter maybe aboot a
month or sae o’ sic friendship as was atween them, there cam a nicht
’at brouchtna the captain hame; for ye maun un’erstan’, wi’ a’ his
rouch w’ys, an’ his drinkin’, an’ his cairt-playin’, he was aye hame
at nicht, an’ safe intil ’s bed, whaur he sleepit i’ the best chaumer
i’ the castle. Ay, he wad come hame, aften as drunk as man cud be, but
hame he cam. Sleep intil the efternune o’ the neist day he wad, but
never oot o’ ’s nain bed--or if no aye in his ain nakit _bed_, for I
fan’ him ance mysel’ lyin’ snorin’ upo’ the flure, it was aye intil ’s
ain room, as I say, an’ no in ony strange place drunk or sober. Sae
there was some surprise at his no appearin’, an’ fowk spak o’ ’t, but
no that muckle, for naebody cared i’ their hert what cam o’ the man.
Still whan the men gaed oot to their wark, they bude to gie a luik
gien there was ony sign o’ ’m. It was easy to think ’at he micht hae
been at last ower sair owertaen to be able to win hame. But that wasna
it, though whan they cam upo’ ’m lyin’ on ’s back i’ the howe yon’er
’at luiks up to my daughter’s bit gerse for her coo’, they thoucht he
bude to hae sleepit there a’ nicht. Sae he had, but it was the sleep
’at kens no waukin--at least no the kin’ o’ waukin’ ’at comes wi’ the
mornin’!”

Cosmo recognized with a shudder his favourite spot, where on his
birthday, as on many a day before, he had fallen asleep. But the old
woman went on with her story.

“Deid was the auld captain--as deid as ever was man ’at had nane
left to greit for him. But thof there was nae greitin’, no but sic a
hullabaloo as rase upo’ the discovery! They rade an’ they ran; the
doctor cam’, an’ the minister, an’ the lawyer, an’ the grave-digger.
But whan a man’s deid, what can a’ the warl’ du for ’im but berry ’im?
puir hin’er en’ thof it be to him’ at draws himsel’ up, an’ blaws
himsel’ oot! There was mony a conjectur as to hoo he cam by his deith,
an’ mony a doobt it wasna by fair play. Some said he dee’d by his ain
han’, driven on til ’t by the enemy; an’ it was true the blade he
cairriet was lyin’ upo’ the grass aside ’im; but ither some ’at exem’t
him, said the hole i’ the side o’ ’im was na made wi’ that. But o’ a’
’at cam to speir efter ’im, the English lord was nane. He hed vainished
the country. The general opinyon sattled doon to this, ’at they twa
bude till hae fa’en oot at cairts, an’ fouchten it oot, an’ the auld
captain, for a’ his skeel an’ exparience, had had the warst o’ ’t, an’
so there they faun’ ’im.--But I reckon, Cosmo, yer father ’ill hae
tellt ye a’ aboot the thing, mony’s the time, or noo, an’ I’m jist
deivin’ ye wi’ my clavers, an haudin ye ohn sleepit!”

“Na, Grannie,” answered Cosmo, “he never tellt me what ye hae tellt me
noo. He did tell me ’at there was sic a man, an’ the ill en’ he cam
til; an’ I think he was jist gaein’ on to tell me mair, whan Grizzie
cam to say the denner was ready. That was only yesterday--or the day
afore, I’m thinkin’, by this time.--But what think ye could hae been in
’s heid wi’ yon jingle aboot the horsie?”

“Ow! what wad be intil ’t but jist fulish nonsense? Ye ken some
fowk has a queer trick o’ sayin’ the same thing ower an’ ower again
to themsel’s, wi’oot ony sense intil ’t. There was the auld laird
himsel’; he was ane o’ sic. Aye an’ ower again he wad be sayin’ til
himsel’, ‘A hun’er poun’! Ay, a hun’er poun’!’ It maittered na what
he wad be speikin’ aboot, or wha til, in it wad come!--i’ the middle
o’ onything, ye cudna tell whan or whaur,--‘A hun’er poun’!’ says he;
‘Ay, a hun’er poun’!’ Fowk leuch at the first, but sune gat used til
’t, an’ cam hardly to ken ’at he said it, for what has nae sense has
little hearin’. An’ I doobtna thae rimes wasna even a verse o’ an auld
ballant, but jist a cletter o’ clinkin’ styte (_nonsense_) ’at he had
learnt frae some blackamore bairn, maybe, an’ cudna get oot o’ ’s heid
ony ither gait, but bude to say ’t to hae dune wi’ ’t--jist like a cat
whan it gangs scrattin’ at the door, ye hae to get up, whether ye wull
or no, an’ lat the cratur oot.”

Cosmo did not feel quite satisfied with the explanation, but he made no
objection to it.

“I maun alloo, hooever,” the old woman went on, “’at ance ye get a haud
o’ _them_, they tak a grip o’ _you_, an’ hae a queer w’y o’ hauntin’ ye
like, as they did the man himsel’, sae ’at ye canna get rid o’ them. It
comes only at noos an’ thans, but whan the fit’s upo’ me, I canna get
them oot o’ my heid. The verse gangs on tum’lin’ ower an’ ower intil
’t, till I’m jist scunnert wi’ ’t. Awa’ it wanna gang, maybe for a
haill day, an’ syne it mayna come again for months.”

True enough, the rime was already running about in Cosmo’s head like a
mouse, and he fell asleep with it ringing in the ears of his mind.

Before he woke again, which was in the broad daylight, he had a curious
dream.

He dreamed that he was out in the moonlight. It was a summer
night--late. But there was something very strange about the night:
right up in the top of it was the moon, looking down as if she knew
all about it, and something was going to happen. He did not like the
look of her--he had never seen her look like that before! and he went
home just to get away from her. As he was going up the stairs to his
chamber, something moved him--he could not tell what--to stop at the
door of the drawing-room, and go in. It was flooded with moonlight, but
he did not mind that, so long as he could keep out of her sight. Still
it had a strange, eerie look, with its various pieces of furniture
casting different shadows from those that by rights belonged to them.
He gazed at this thing and that, as if he had never seen it before. The
place seemed to cast a spell over him, so that he could not leave it.
He seated himself on the ancient brocaded couch, and sat staring, with
a sense, which by degrees grew dreadful, that he was where he would not
be, and that if he did not get up and go, something would happen. But
he could not rise--not that he felt any physical impediment, but that
he could not make a resolve strong enough--like one in irksome company,
who wants to leave, but waits in vain a fit opportunity. Delay grew to
agony, but still he sat.

He became aware that he was not alone. His whole skin seemed to
contract with a shuddering sense of presence. Gradually, as he gazed
straight in front of him, slowly, in the chair on the opposite side
of the fire-place, grew visible the form of a man, until he saw it
quite plainly--that of a seafaring man, in a blue coat, with a red
sash round his waist, in which were pistols, and a dagger. He too sat
motionless, fixing on him the stare of fierce eyes, black, yet glowing,
as if set on fire of hell. They filled him with fear, but something
seemed to sustain him under it. He almost fancied, when first on waking
he thought over it, that a third must have been in the room--for
his protection. The face that stared at him was a brown and red and
weather-beaten face, cut across with a great scar, and wearing an
expression of horror trying not to look horrible. His fear threatened
to turn him into clay, but he met it with scorn, strove against it,
would not and did not yield. Still the figure stared, as if it would
fascinate him into limpest submission. Slowly at length it rose, and
with a look that seemed meant to rivet the foregone stare--a look of
mingled pain and fierceness, turned, and led the way from the room,
whereupon the spell was so far broken or changed, that he was able
to rise and follow him: even in his dreams he was a boy of courage,
and feared nothing so much as yielding to fear. The figure went on,
nor ever turned its head, up the stair to the room over that they had
left--the best bedroom, the guest-chamber of the house--not often
visited, and there it entered. Still following, Cosmo entered also. The
figure walked across the room, as if making for the bed, but in the
middle of the floor suddenly turned, and went round by the foot of the
bed to the other side of it, where the curtains hid it. Cosmo followed,
but when he reached the other side, the shade was nowhere to be seen,
and he woke, his heart beating terribly.

By this time Grannie was snoring in her chair, or very likely, in his
desire to emerge from its atmosphere, he would have told her his dream.
For a while he lay looking at the dying fire, and the streak from the
setting moon, that stole in at the window, and lay weary at the foot of
the wall. Slowly he fell fast asleep, and slept far into the morning:
long after lessons were begun in the school, and village-affairs were
in the full swing of their daily routine, he slept; nor had he finished
his breakfast, when his father entered.

“I’m quite well, papa,” answered the boy to his gentle yet eager
inquiry;--“perfectly able to go to school in the afternoon.”

“I don’t mean you to go again, Cosmo,” replied his father gravely. “It
could not be pleasant either for yourself or for the master. The proper
relation between you is destroyed.”

[Illustration: COSMO’S DREAM.]

“If you think I was wrong, papa, I will make an apology.”

“If you had done it for yourself, I should unhesitatingly say you must.
But as it was, I am not prepared to say so.”

“What am I to do then? How am I to get ready for college?”

The laird gave a sigh, and made no answer. Alas! there were more
difficulties than that in the path to college.

He turned away, and went to call on the minister, while Cosmo got up
and dressed: except a little singing in his head when he stooped, he
was aware of no consequences of the double blow.

Grannie was again at her wheel, and Cosmo sat down in her chair to
await his father’s return.

“Whaur said ye the captain sleepit whan he was at the castle?” he
inquired across the buzz and whiz and hum of the wheel. Through the low
window, betwixt the leaves of the many plants that shaded it, he could
see the sun shining hot upon the bare street; but inside was soft gloom
filled with murmurous sound.

“Whaur but i’ the best bedroom?” answered Grannie. “Naething less wad
hae pleased _him_, I can assure ye. For ance ’at there cam the markis
to the hoose--whan things warna freely sae scant aboot the place as
they hae been sin’ yer father cam to the throne--there cam at his back
a fearsome storm, sic as comes but seldom in a life lang as mine, an’
sic ’at his lordship cudna win awa’. Thereupon yer father, that is,
yer gran’father,--or it wad be yer grit-gran’father--I’m turnin’ some
confused amo’ ye: ye aye keep comin’!--onyhoo, he gae the captain a
kent like, ’at he wad du weel to offer his room til ’s lordship. But
wad he, think ye? Na, no him! He grew reid, an’ syne as white ’s the
aisse, an’ luikit to be i’ the awfu’est inside rage ’at mortal wessel
cud weel haud. Sae yer gran’father, no ’at he was feart at ’im, for
I s’ be bun’ he never was feart afore the face o’ man, but jest no
wullin’ to anger his ain kin, an’ maybe no willin’ onybody sud say he
was a respecter o’ persons, heeld his tongue an’ said nae mair, an’ the
markis hed the second best bed, for he sleepit in Glenwarlock’s ain.”

Cosmo then told her the dream he had had in the night, describing the
person he had seen in it as closely as he could. Now all the time
Grannie had been speaking, it was to the accompaniment of her wheel,
but Cosmo had not got far with his narrative when she ceased spinning,
and sat absorbed--listening as to a real occurrence, not the feverish
dream of a boy. When he ended,

“It maun hae been the auld captain himsel’!” she said under her breath,
and with a sigh; then shut up her mouth, and remained silent, leaving
Cosmo in doubt whether it was that she would take no interest in such
a foolish thing, or found in it something to set her thinking; but
he could not help noting that there seemed a strangeness about her
silence; nor did she break it until his father returned.




CHAPTER VIII.

HOME.


Cosmo was not particularly fond of school, and he was particularly
fond of holidays; hence his father’s resolve that he should go to
school no more, seemed to him the promise of an endless joy. The
very sun seemed swelling in his heart as he walked home with his
father. A whole day of home and its pleasures was before him--only
the more welcome that he had had a holiday so lately, and that so
many more lay behind it. Every shadow about the old place was a
delight to him. Never human being loved more the things into which
he had been born than did Cosmo. The whole surrounding had to him a
sacred look, such as Jerusalem, the temple, and its vessels, bore
to the Jews, even those of them who were capable of loving little
else. There was hardly anything that could be called beauty about
the building--strength and gloom were its main characteristics--but
its very stones were dear to the boy. There never were such bees,
there never were such thick walls, there never were such storms,
never such a rushing river, as those about his beloved home! And
this although, all the time, as I have said, he longed for more
beauty of mountain and wood than the country around could afford
him. Then there were the books belonging to the house!--was there
any such a collection in the world besides! They were in truth very
few--all contained in a closet opening out of his father’s bedroom;
but Cosmo had a feeling of inexhaustible wealth in them--partly
because his father had not yet allowed him to read everything
there, but restricted him to certain of the shelves--as much to
cultivate self-restraint in him as to keep one or two of the books
from him,--partly because he read books so that they remained books
to him, and he believed in them after he had read them, nor
imagined himself capable of exhausting them. But the range of his
taste was certainly not a limited one. While he revelled in _The
Arabian Nights_, he read also, and with no small enjoyment, the
_Night Thoughts_--books, it will be confessed, considerably apart
both in scope and in style. But while thus, for purest pleasure,
fond of reading, to enjoy life, it was to him enough to lie in the
grass; in certain moods, the smell of the commonest flower would
drive him half crazy with delight. On a holiday his head would be
haunted with old ballads like a sunflower with bees: on other days
they would only come and go. He rejoiced even in nursery rimes,
only in his head somehow or other they got glorified. The swing and
hum and _bizz_ of a line, one that might have to him no discoverable
meaning, would play its tune in him as well as any mountain-stream
its infinite water-jumble melody. One of those that this day
kept--not coming and going, but coming and coming, just as Grannie
said his foolish rime haunted the old captain, was that which two
days before came into his head when first he caught sight of the
moon playing bo-peep with him betwixt the cows legs:

  Whan the coo loups ower the mune,
  The reid gowd rains intil men’s shune.

I think there must at one time have been a poet in the Glenwarlock
nursery, for there were rimes, and modifications of rimes, floating
about the family, for which nobody could account. Cosmo’s mother
too had been, in a fragmentary way, fond of verse; and although he
could not remember many of her favourite rimes, his father did, and
delighted in saying them over and over to her child--and that long
before he was capable of understanding them. Here is one:

  Make not of thy heart a casket,
    Opening seldom, quick to close;
  But of bread a wide-mouthed basket,
    And a cup that overflows.

Here is another:

  The gadfly makes the horse run swift:
  “Speed,” quoth the gadfly, “is my gift.”

One more, and it shall be the last for the present: They serve as
dim lights on the all but vanished mother, of whom the boy himself
knew so little.

  In God alone, the perfect end,
  Wilt thou find thyself or friend.

Cosmo’s dream of life was, to live all his days in the house of his
forefathers--or at least and worst, to return to it at last, how
long soever he might have been compelled to be away from it. In his
castle-building, next to that of the fairy-mother-lady, his
fondest fancy was--not the making of a fortune, but the returning
home with one, to make the house of his fathers beautiful, and the
heart of his father glad. About the land he did not think so much
yet: the country was open to him as if it had been all his own.
Still, he had quite a different feeling for that portion which yet
lay within the sorely contracted marches; to have seen any smallest
nook of that sold, would have been like to break his heart. In him
the love of place was in danger of becoming a disease. There was in
it something, I fear, of the nature, if not of the avarice that
grasps, yet of the avarice that clings. He was generous as few in
the matter of money, but then he had had so little--not half enough
to learn to love it! Nor had he the slightest idea of any mode in
which to make it. Most of the methods he had come in contact with,
except that of manual labour, in which work was done and money paid
immediately for it, repelled him, as having elements of the
unhandsome where not the dishonest: he was not yet able to
distinguish between substance and mode in such matters. The only
way in which he ever dreamed of coming into possession of money--it
was another of his favourite castles--was finding in the old house
a room he had never seen or heard of before, and therein a hoard of
riches incredible. Such things had been--why might it not be?

As they walked, his father told him he had been thinking all night
what it would be best to do with him, now that the school was
closed against him; and that he had come to the conclusion to ask
his friend Peter Simon--the wits of the neighbourhood called him
Simon Peter--to take charge of his education.

“He is a man of peculiar opinions,” he said, “as I daresay you may
have heard; but everything in him is, practice and theory, on a
scale so grand, that to fear harm from him would be to sin against
the truth. A man must learn to judge for himself, and he will teach
you that. I have seen in him so much that I recognize as good and
great, that I am compelled to believe in him where the things he
believes appear to me out of the way, or even extravagant.”

“I have heard that he believes in ghosts, papa!” said Cosmo.

His father smiled, and made him no answer. He had been born into an
age whose incredulity, taking active form, was now fast approaching
its extreme, and becoming superstition; and the denial of many
things that had long been believed in the country had penetrated at
last even to the remote region where his property lay: like that
property, his mind, because of the age, lay also in a sort of
border-land. An active believer in the care and providence of God,
with no conscious difficulty in accepting any miracle recorded in
the Bible, he was, where the oracles were dumb, in a measure
inclined to a scepticism, which yet was limited to the region of
his intellect;--his imagination turned from its conclusions, and
cherished not a little so-called weakness for the so-called
supernatural--so far as any glimmer of sense or meaning or reason
would show itself therein. And in the history of the world, the
imagination has, I fancy, been quite as often right as the
intellect, and the things in which it has been right, have been of
much the greater importance. Only, unhappily, wherever Pegasus has
shown the way through a bog, the pack-horse which follows gets the
praise of crossing it; while the blunders with which the pack-horse
is burdened, are, the moment each is discovered, by the plodding
leaders of the pair transferred to the space betwixt the wings of
Pegasus, without regard to the beauty of his feathers. The laird
was therefore unable to speak with authority respecting such
things, and was not particularly anxious to influence the mind of
his son concerning them. Happily, in those days the platitudes and
weary vulgarities of what they call _spiritualism_, had not been
heard of in those quarters, and the soft light of imagination yet
lingered about the borders of that wide region of mingled false and
true, commonly called Superstition. It seems to me the most killing
poison to the imagination must be a strong course of “spiritualism.”
For myself, I am not so set upon entering the unknown, as,
instead of encouraging what holy visitations faith, not in the
spiritual or the immortal, but in the living God, may bring, to
creep through the sewers of it to get in. I care not to encounter
its mud-larkes, and lovers of garbage, its thieves, impostors,
liars, and canaille, in general. That they are on the other side,
that they are what men call dead, does not seem to me sufficient
reason for taking them into my confidence, courting their company,
asking their advice. A well-attested old-fashion ghost story, where
such is to be had, is worth a thousand seances.

“Do _you_ believe in ghosts, papa?” resumed Cosmo, noting his
father’s silence, and remembering that he had never heard him utter
an opinion on the subject. “The master says none but fools believe in
them now; and he makes such a face at anything he calls superstition,
that you would think it must be somewhere in the commandments.”

“Mr. Simon remarked the other day in my hearing,” answered his father,
“that the dread of superstition might amount to superstition, and
become the most dangerous superstition of all.”

“Do you think so, papa?”

“I could well believe it. Besides, I have always found Mr. Simon so
reasonable, even where I could not follow him, that I am prejudiced in
favor of anything he thinks.”

The boy rejoiced to hear his father talk thus, for he had a strong
leaning to the marvellous, and hitherto, from the schoolmaster’s
assertion and his father’s silence, had supposed nothing was to be
accepted for belief but what was scientifically probable, or was told
in the Bible. That we live in a universe of marvels of which we know
only the outsides,--and which we turn into the incredible by taking
the mere outsides for all, even while we know the roots of the seen
remain unseen--these spiritual facts now began to dawn upon him, and
fell in most naturally with those his mind had already conceived and
entertained. He was therefore delighted at the thought of making
the closer acquaintance of a man like Mr. Simon--a man of whose
peculiarities even, his father could speak in such terms. All day long
he brooded on the prospect, and in the twilight went out wandering over
the hills.

There was no night there at this season, any more than all the year
through in heaven. Indeed we have seldom real positive night in this
world--so many provisions have been made against it. Every time we
say, “What a lovely night!” we speak of a breach, a rift in the old
night. There is light more or less, positive light, else were there no
beauty. Many a night is but a low starry day, a day with a softened
background against which the far-off suns of millions of other days
show themselves: when the near vision vanishes the farther hope awakes.
It is nowhere said of heaven, there shall be no twilight there.




CHAPTER IX.

THE STUDENT.


The twilight had not yet reached the depth of its mysteriousness, when
Cosmo, returning home from casting a large loop of wandering over
several hills, walked up to James Gracie’s cottage, thinking whether
they would not all be in bed.

But as he passed the window, he saw a little light, and went on to the
door and knocked: had it been the daytime, he would have gone straight
in. Agnes came, and opened cautiously, for there were occasionally such
beings as tramps about.

“Eh! it’s you?” she cried with a glad voice, when she saw the shape
of Cosmo in the dimness. “There’s naething wrang I houp,” she added,
changing her tone.

“Na, naething,” answered Cosmo. “I only wantit to lat ye ken ’at I
wasna gaein’ back to the schuil ony mair.”

“Weel, I dinna won’er at that!” returned Agnes with a little sigh.
“Efter the w’y the maister behaved til ye, the laird cud ill lat ye
gang there again. But what’s he gaein’ to du wi’ ye, Maister Cosmo,
gien a body micht speir ’at has nae richt to be keerious?”

“He’s sen’in’ me to maister Simon,” answered Cosmo.

“I wuss I was gaein’ tu,” sighed Aggie. “I’m jist feart ’at I’ll come
to hate the maister efter ye’re no to be seen there, Cosmo. An’ we
maunna hate, for that, ye ken, ’s the hin ’er en’ o’ a’ thing. But it
wad be a heap easier no to hate him, gien I had naething tu du wi’ him.”

“That maun be confest,” answered Cosmo.--“But,” he added, “the
hairst-play ’ill be here sune, an’ syne the hairst itsel’; an’ whan ye
gang back ye’ll hae won ower ’t.”

“Na, I doobt no, Cosmo; for, ye see, as I hae h’ard my father say,
the Gracies are a’ terrible for min’in’. Na, there’s no forgettin’ o’
naething. What for sud onything be forgotten? It’s a cooardly kin’ o’
a’ w’y, to forget.”

“Some things, I doobt, hae to be forgotten,” returned Cosmo,
thoughtfully. “Gien ye forgie a body for enstance, ye maun forget
tu--no sae muckle, I’m thinkin’, for the sake o’ them ’at did ye the
wrang, for wha wad tak up again a fool (_foul_) thing ance it was
drappit?--but for yer ain sake; for what ye hae dune richt, my father
says, maun be forgotten oot ’o sicht for fear o’ corruption, for
naething comes to stink waur nor a guid deed hung up i’ the munelicht
o’ the memory.”

“Eh!” exclaimed Aggie, “but ye’re unco wice for a lad o’ yer ’ears.”

“I wad be an unco gowk,” remarked Cosmo, “gien I kent naething, wi’ sic
a father as yon o’ mine. What wad ye think o’ yersel’ gien the dochter
o’ Jeames Gracie war nae mair wice-like nor Meg Scroggie?”

Agnes laughed, but made no reply, for the voice of her mother came out
of the dark:

“Wha’s that, Aggie, ye’re haudin’ sic a confab wi’ in the middle o’ the
nicht? Ye tellt me ye had to sit up to yer lessons!”

“I was busy at them, mither, whan Maister Cosmo chappit at the door.”

“Weel, what for lat ye him stan’ there? Ye may hae yer crack wi’ _him_
as lang ’s ye like--in rizzon, that is. Gar him come in.”

“Na, na, mistress Gracie,” answered Cosmo; “I maun awa’ hame; I hae had
a gey lang walk. It’s no ’at I’m tired, but I’m gey and sleepy. Only I
was sae pleased ’at I was gaein’ to learn my lessons wi’ Maister Simon,
’at I bude to tell Aggie. She micht ha’ been won’erin’, an’ thinkin’ I
wasna better, gien she hadna seen me at the schuil the morn.”

“I s’ warran’ her ohn gane to the schuil ohn speirt in at the Castle
the first thing i’ the mornin’, an’ seein’ gien the laird had ony
eeran’ to the toon. Little cares she for the maister, gien onybody at
the Hoose be in want o’ her!”

“Is there naething I cud help ye wi’, Aggie, afore I gang?” asked
Cosmo. “Somebody tellt me ye was tryin’ yer han’ at algebra.”

“Naebody had ony business to tell ye ony sic a thing,” returned
Aggie, rather angrily. “It’s no at the schuil I wad think o’ sic
a ploy. They wad a’ lauch fine! But I _wad_ fain ken what’s intil
the thing. I can_not_ un’erstan’ hoo fowk can coont wi’ letters an’
crosses an’ strokes in place o’ figgers. I hae been at it a haill ook
noo--by mysel’, ye ken--an’ I’m nane nearer til ’t yet. I can add an’
subtrac’, accordin’ to the rules gien, but that’s no un’erstan’in’, an’
un’erstan’ I canna.”

“I’m thinkin’ it’s something as gien _x_ was a horse, an’ _y_ was a
coo, an’ _z_ was a cairt, or onything ither ye micht hae to ca’ ’t;
an’ ye bargain awa’ aboot the _x_ an’ the _y_ and the _z_, an’ ley the
horse i’ the stable, the coo i’ the byre, an’ the cairt i’ the shed,
till ye hae sattlet a’.”

“But ye ken aboot algebra”--she pronounced the word with the accent on
the second syllable--“divna ye, maister Cosmo?”

“Na, no the haif, nor the hun’ert pairt. I only ken eneuch to haud me
gaein’ on to mair. A body maun hae learnt a heap o’ onything afore the
licht breaks oot o’ ’t. Ye maun win throu’ the wa’ first. I doobt gien
onybody un’erstan’s a thing oot an’ oot, sae lang ’s he’s no ready at
a moment’s notice to gar anither see intil the hert o’ ’t; an’ I canna
gar ye see what’s intil ’t the minute ye speir ’t at me!”

“I’m thinkin’, hooever, Cosmo, a body maun be nearhan’ seein’ o’
himsel’ afore anither can lat him see onything.”

“Ye may be richt there,” yielded Cosmo. “--But jist lat me see whaur ye
are,” he went on. “I may be able to help ye, though I canna lat ye see
a’ at once. It wad be an ill job for them ’at needs help, gien naebody
could help them but them ’at kent a’ aboot a thing.”

[Illustration: ALGEBRA.]

Without a word, Aggie turned and led the way to the “but-end.” An iron
lamp, burning the coarsest of train oil, hung against the wall, and
under that she had placed the one movable table in the kitchen, which
was white as scouring could make it. Upon it lay a slate and a book of
algebra.

“My cousin Willie lent me the buik,” said Aggie.

“What for didna ye come to me to len’ ye ane? I could hae gien ye a
better nor that,” expostulated Cosmo.

Aggie hesitated, but, open as the day, she did not hesitate long. She
turned her face from him, and answered,

“I wantit to gie ye a surprise, Maister Cosmo. Divna ye min’ tellin’ me
ance ’at ye saw no rizzon hoo a lassie sudna un’erstan’ jist as weel ’s
a laddie? I wantit to see whether ye was richt or wrang; an’ as algebra
luiket the maist oonlikly thing, I thoucht I wad taikle that, an’ sae
sattle the queston at ance. But, eh me! I’m sair feart ye was i’ the
wrang, Cosmo!”

“I maun du my best to pruv mysel’ i’ the richt,” returned Cosmo. “I
never said onybody cud learn a’ o’ themsel’s, wantin’ help, ye ken.
There’s nae mony laddies cud du that, an’ feower still wad try.”

They sat down together at the table, and in half an hour or so, Aggie
had begun to see the faint light of at least the false dawn, as they
call it, through the thickets of algebra. It was nearly midnight when
Cosmo rose, and then Aggie would not let him go alone, but insisted on
accompanying him to the gate of the court.

It was a curious relation between the two. While Agnes looked up to
Cosmo, about two years her junior, as immeasurably her superior in
all that pertained to the intellect and its range, she assumed over
him a sort of general human superiority, something like that a mother
will assert over the most gifted of sons. One has seen, with a kind
of sacred amusement, the high priest of many literary and artistic
circles, set down with rebuke by his mother, as if he had been still
a boy! And I have heard the children of this world speak with like
superiority of the child of light whom they loved--allowing him
wondrous good, but regarding him as a kind of God’s chicken: nothing
is so mysterious to the children of this world as the ways of the
children of light, though to themselves they seem simple enough. That
Agnes never treated Cosmo with this degree of protective condescension,
arose from the fact that she was very nearly as much a child of light
as he; only, being a woman, she was keener of perception, and being
older, felt the more of the mother that every woman feels, and made the
most of it. It was to her therefore a merely natural thing to act his
protector. Indeed with respect to the Warlock family in general, she
counted herself possessed of the right to serve any one of them to the
last drop of her blood. From infancy she had heard the laird spoken
of--without definite distinction between the present and the last--as
the noblest, best, and kindest of men, as the power which had been for
generations over the family of the Gracies, for their help and healing;
and hence it was impressed upon her deepest consciousness, that one of
the main reasons of her existence was her relation to the family of
Glenwarlock.

Notwithstanding the familiarity I have shown between them--Agnes had
but lately begun to put the _Master_ before Cosmo’s name, and as often
forgot it--the girl, as they went towards the castle, although they
were walking in deep dusk, and entirely alone, kept a little behind
the boy--not behind his back, but on his left hand in the next rank.
No spy most curious could have detected the least love-making between
them, and their talk, in the still, dark air, sounded loud all the way
as they went. Strange talk it would have been counted by many, and
indeed unintelligible, for it ranged over a vast surface, and was the
talk of two wise children, wise not above their own years only, but
immeasurably above those of the prudent. Riches indubitably favour
stupidity; poverty, where the heart is right, favours mental and moral
development. They parted at the gate, and Cosmo went to bed.

But, although his father allowed him such plentiful liberty, and would
fain have the boy feel the night holy as the day--so that no one ever
asked where he had been, or at what hour he had come home--a question
which, having no watch, he would have found it hard to answer--not an
eye was closed in the house until his entering footsteps were heard.
The grandmother lay angry at the unheard of liberty her son gave his
son; it was neither decent nor in order; it was against all ancient
rule of family life; she must speak about it! But she never did speak
about it, for she was now in her turn afraid of the son who, without a
particle of obstinacy in his composition, yet took what she called his
own way. Grizzie kept grumbling to herself that the laddie was sure
to come to “mischief;” but the main forms of “mischief” that ruled in
her imagination were tramps, precipices, and spates. The laird, for
his part, spent most of the time his son’s absence kept him awake, in
praying for him--not that he might be the restorer of the family, but
that he might be able to accept the will of God as the best thing for
family as for individual. If his boy might but reach the spirit-land
unsoiled and noble, his prayers were ended.

In such experiences, the laird learned to understand how the catholics
come to pray to their saints, and the Chinese to their parents and
ancestors; for he frequently found himself, more especially as
drowsiness began to steal upon his praying soul, seeming to hold
council with his wife concerning their boy, and asking her help towards
such strength for him as human beings may minister to each other.

But Cosmo went up to bed without a suspicion that the air around him
was full of such holy messengers heavenward for his sake. He imagined
none anxious about him--either with the anxiety of grandmother or of
servant-friend or of great-hearted father.

As he passed the door of the spare room, immediately above which was
his own, his dream, preceded by a cold shiver, came to his memory. But
he scorned to quicken his pace, or to glance over his shoulder, as he
ascended the second stair. Without any need of a candle, in the still
faint twilight which is the ghosts’ day, he threw off his clothes, and
was presently buried in the grave of his bed, under the sod of the
blankets, lapt in the death of sleep.

The moment he woke, he jumped out of bed: a new era in his life was
at hand, the thought of which had been subjacently present in his
dreams, and was operative the instant he became conscious of waking
life. He hurried on his clothes without care, for this dressing was but
temporary. Going down the stairs like a cataract, for not a soul slept
in that part but himself, and there was no fear of waking any one,
then in like manner down the hill, he reached the place where, with a
final dart, the torrent shot into the quiet stream of the valley, in
whose channel of rock and gravel it had hollowed a deep basin. This
was Cosmo’s bath--and a splendid one. His clothes were off again more
quickly than he put them on, and head foremost he shot like the torrent
into the boiling mass, where for a few moments he yielded himself the
sport of the frothy water, and was tossed and tumbled about like a dead
thing. Soon however, down in the heart of the boil, he struck out, and
shooting from under the fall, rose to the surface beyond it, panting
and blowing. To get out on the bank was then the work of one moment,
and to plunge in again that of the next. Half a dozen times, with
scarce a pause between, he thus plunged, was tossed and overwhelmed,
struggled, escaped, and plunged again. Then he ran for a few moments
up and down the bank to dry himself--he counted the use of a towel
effeminacy, and dressing again, ran home to finish his simple toilet.
If after that he read a chapter of his Bible, it was no more than was
required by many a parent of many a boy who got little good of the
task; but Cosmo’s father had never enjoined it on him; and when next he
knelt down at his bedside, he did not merely “say his prayers.” Then
he took his slate, to try after something Aggie had made him know he
did not understand:--for the finding of our own intellectual defects,
nothing is like trying to teach another. But before long, certain
sensations began to warn him there was an invention in the world called
breakfast, and laying his slate aside, he went to the kitchen, where he
found Grizzie making the porridge.

“Min’ ye pit saut eneuch in ’t the day, Grizzie,” he said. “It was unco
wersh yesterday.”

“An’ what was ’t like thestreen (_yestere’en_), Cosmo?” asked the old
woman, irritated at being found fault with in a matter wherein she
counted herself as near perfection as ever mortal could come.

“I had nane last nicht, ye min’,” answered Cosmo, “I was oot a’ the
evenin’.”

“An’ whaur got ye yer supper?”

“Ow, I didna want nane. Hoot! I’m forgettin’! Aggie gied me a quarter
o’ breid as I cam by, or rather as I cam awa’, efter giein’ her a han’
wi’ her algebra.”

“What ca’ ye that for a lass bairn to be takin’ up her time wi’! I
never h’ard o’ sic a thing! What’s the natur’ o’ ’t, Cosmo?”

He tried to give her some far-off idea of the sort of thing algebra
was, but apparently without success, for she cried at length,

“Na, sirs! I hae h’ard o’ cairts, an’ bogles, an’ witchcraft, an’
astronomy, but sic a thing as this ye bring me noo, I never did hear
tell o’! What can the warl’ be comin’ till!--An’ dis the father o’ ye,
laddie, ken what ye spen’ yer midnicht hoors gangin’ teachin’ to the
lass-bairns o’ the country roon’?”

She was interrupted by the entrance of the laird, and they sat down to
breakfast. The grandmother within the last year had begun to take hers
in her own room.

Grizzie was full of anxiety to know what the laird would say to the
discovery she had just made, but she dared not hazard allusion to
the _conduct_ of his son, and must therefore be content to lead the
conversation in the direction of it, hoping it might naturally appear.
So, about the middle of Cosmo’s breakfast, that is, about two minutes
after he had attacked his porridge, she approached her design, if not
exactly the object she desired, with the remark,

“Did ye never hear the auld saw, sir--

  Whaur’s neither sun nor mune,
  Laich things come abune--?”

“I ’maist think I have, Grizzie,” answered the laird. “But what gars
ye come ower ’t noo?”

“I canna but think, sir,” returned Grizzie, “as I lie i’ the mirk,
o’ the heap o’ things ’at gang to nae kirk, oot an’ aboot as sharp
as a gled, whan the yoong laird is no in his bed--oot wi’ ’s
algibbry an’ astronomy, an’ a’ that kin’ o’ thing! ’Deed, sir, it
wadna be canny gien they cam to ken o’ ’t.”

“Wha come to ken o’ what, Grizzie?” asked the laird with a twinkle
in his eye, and a glance at Cosmo, who sat gazing curiously at the
old woman.

“Them ’at the saw speyks o’, sir,” said Grizzie, answering the
first part of the double question, as she placed two boiled eggs
before her master.

The laird smiled: he was too kind to laugh. Not a few laughed at
old Grizzie, but never the laird.

“Did _ye_ never hear the auld saw, Grizzie,” he said:

  “Throu’ the heather an’ how gaed the creepin’ thing,
  But abune was the waught o’ an angel’s wing--?”

“Ay, I hae h’ard it--naegait ’cep’ here i’ this hoose,” answered
Grizzie: she would disparage the authority of the saying by a doubt
as to its genuineness. “But, sir, ye sud never temp’ providence.
Wha kens what may be oot i’ the nicht?”

“To _him_, Grizzie, the nicht shineth as the day.”

“Weel, sir,” cried Grizzie, “Ye jist pit me ’at I dinna ken mysel’!
Is ’t poassible ye hae forgotten what’s sae weel kent to a’ the
cuintry roon’?--the auld captain, ’at canna lie still in ’s grave,
because o’--because o’ whatever the rizzon may be? Onygait he’s no
laid yet; an’ some thinks he’s doomed to haunt the hoose till the
day o’ jeedgment.”

“I suspec’ there winna be muckle o’ the hoose left for him to haunt
’gen that time, Grizzie,” said the laird. “But what for sud ye put
sic fule things intil the bairn’s heid? An’ gien the ghaist haunt
the hoose, isna he better oot o’ ’t? Wad ye hae him come hame to
sic company?”

This posed Grizzie, and she held her peace for the time.

“Come, Cosmo,” said the laird rising; and they set out together for
Mr. Simon’s cottage.




CHAPTER X.

PETER SIMON.


This man was not a native of the district, but had for some two
years now been a dweller in it. Report said he was the son of a
small tradesman in a city at no great distance, but, to those who
knew him, he made no secret of the fact, that he had been found by
such a man, a child of a few months, lying on a pavement of that
city, one stormy, desolate Christmas-eve, when it was now dark,
with the wind blowing bitterly from the north, and the said
tradesman seemingly the one inhabitant of the coldest city in
Scotland who dared face it. He had just closed his shop, had
carried home to one of his customers a forgotten order, and was
returning to his wife and a childless hearth, when he all but
stumbled over the infant. Before stooping to lift him, he looked
all about to see if there was nobody to do it instead. There was
not a human being, or even what comes next to one, a dog in sight,
and the wind was blowing like a blast from a frozen hell. There was
no help for it: he must take up the child! He did, and carried it
home, grumbling all the way. What right had the morsel to be lying
there, a trap and a gin for his character, in the dark and the
cold? What would his wife say? And what would the neighbours think?
All the way home he grumbled.

[Illustration: HE CARRIED IT HOME.]

What happened there, how his wife received him with his burden, how
she scolded and he grumbled, how it needed but the one day--the
Christmas Day, in which nothing could well be done--to reconcile
them to the gift, and how they brought him up, blessing the day
when they found him, would be a story fit to make the truehearted
of my readers both laugh and cry; but I have not room or time for
it.

Of course, as they were in poor circumstances, hardly able indeed,
not merely to make both ends meet, but to bring them far enough
round the parcel of their necessities to let them see each other,
their friends called their behaviour in refusing to hand over the
brat to the parish authorities--which they felt as a reflection
upon all who in similar circumstances would have done so--utter
folly. But when the moon-struck pair was foolish enough to say they
did not know that he might not have been sent them instead of the
still-born child that had hitherto been all their offspring, this
was entirely too much for the nerves of the neighbours in
general--that peculiar people always better acquainted with one’s
affairs, down to his faults and up to his duties, than he is
himself. It was rank superstition! It was a flying in the face of
Providence! How could they expect to prosper, when they acted with
so little foresight, rendering the struggle for existence severer
still! They did not reckon what strength the additional motive,
what heart the new love, what uplifting the hope of help from on
high, kindled by their righteous deed, might give them--for God
likes far better to help people from the inside than from the
outside. They did not think that this might be just the fresh sting
of life that the fainting pair required. To mark their disapproval,
some of them immediately withdrew what little custom they had given
them: one who had given them none, promised them the whole of hers,
the moment they sent the child away; while others, with equal
inconsistency, doubled theirs, and did what they could to send them
fresh customers: they were a pair of good-natured fools, but they
ought not to be let starve! From that time they began to get on a
little better. And still as the boy grew, and wanted more, they had
the little more. For it so happened that the boy turned out to be
one of God’s creatures, and it looked as if the Maker of him, who
happened also to be the ruler of the world, was not altogether
displeased with those who had taken him to their hearts, instead of
leaving him to the parish. The child was the light of the house and
of the shop, a beauty to the eyes, and a joy in the heart of both.
But perhaps the best proof that they had done right, lay in the
fact that they began to love each other better from the very next
day after they took him in, for, to tell the truth, one cause of
their not getting on well, had been that they did not pull well
together. Thus we can explain the improvement in their
circumstances by reference to merest “natural causes,” without
having recourse to the distasteful idea that a power in the land of
superstition, with a weakness called a special providence, was
interested in the matter.

But foolishness such as theirs is apt to increase with years; and
so they sent the foundling to the grammar-school, and thence to
college--not a very difficult affair in that city. At college he
did not greatly distinguish himself, for his special gifts, though
peculiar enough, were not of a kind to _distinguish_ a man much,
either in that city or in this world. But he grew and prospered
nevertheless, and became a master in one of the schools. His father
and mother, as he called them, would gladly have made a minister of
him, but of that he would never hear. He lived with them till they
died, always bringing home to them his salary, minus only the
little that he spent on books. His life, his devotion and loving
gratitude, so wrought upon them, that the kingdom of heaven opened
its doors to them, and they were the happiest old couple in that
city. Of course this was all an accident, for the kingdom of heaven
being but a dream, the dignity of natural cause can scarcely
consent to work to the end of delusion; but the good natured pair
were foolish enough to look upon their miserable foundling as a
divine messenger, an angel entertained not for long unawares, and
the cause of all the good luck that followed his entrance. They
never spent a penny of his salary, but added to it, and saved it
up, and when they went, very strangely left all they had to this
same angel of a beggar, instead of to their own relations, who
would have been very glad of it, for they had a good deal more of
their own.

The foundling did not care to live longer in any city, but sought a
place as librarian, and was successful. In the family of an English
lord he lived many years, and when time’s changes rendered it
necessary he should depart, he retired to the cottage on the
Warlock. There he was now living the quietest of quiet lives,
cultivating the acquaintance of but a few--chiefly that of the
laird, James Gracie, and the minister of the parish. Among the
people of the neighbourhood he was regarded as “no a’ thegither
there.” This judgment possibly arose in part from the fact that he
not unfrequently wandered about the fields from morning to night,
and sometimes from night to morning. Then he never drank anything
worthy of the name of drink--seldom anything but water or milk!
That he never ate animal food was not so notable where many never
did so from one year’s end to another’s. As he was no propagandist,
few had any notion of his opinions, beyond a general impression
that they were unsound.

Cosmo had heard some of the peculiarities attributed to him, and
was filled with curious expectation as to the manner of man he was
about to meet, for, oddly enough, he had never yet seen him except
at a distance; but anxiety, not untinged with awe, was mingled with
his curiosity.

Mr. Simon’s cottage was some distance up the valley, at an angle
where it turned westward. It stood on the left bank of the Warlock,
at the foot of a small cliff that sheltered it from the north,
while in front the stream came galloping down to it from the
sunset. The immediate bank between the cottage and the water was
rocky and dry, but the ground on which the cottage stood was soil
washed from the hills. There Mr. Simon had a little garden for
flowers and vegetables, with a summer seat in which he smoked his
pipe of an evening--for, however inconsistent the habit may seem
with the rest of the man, smoke he did: slowly and gently and
broodingly did the man smoke, thinking a great deal more than he
smoked, and making his one pipe last a long time. His garden was
full of flowers, but of the most ordinary kinds; rarity was no
recommendation to him. Some may think that herein he was unlike
himself, seeing his opinions were of the rarest; but in truth never
once did Peter Simon, all his life, adopt an opinion because of its
strangeness. He never _adopted_ an opinion at all; he believed--he
loved what seemed to him true: how it looked to others he concerned
himself little.

The cottage was of stone and lime, nowise the less thoroughly built
that the stones were unhewn. It was _harled_, that is rough-cast, and
shone very white both in sun and moon. It contained but two rooms
and a closet between, with one under the thatch for the old woman
who kept house for him. Altogether it was a very ordinary, and not
very promising abode.

But when they were shown _ben_ to the parlour, Cosmo was struck with
nothing less than astonishment: the walls from floor to ceiling
were covered with books. Not a square foot all over was vacant.
Even the chimney-piece was absorbed, assimilated, turned into a
book-shelf, and so obliterated. Mr. Simon’s pipe lay on the hob;
and there was not another spot where it could have lain. There was
not a shelf, a cupboard to be seen. Books, books everywhere, and
nothing but books! Even the door that led to the closet where he
slept, was covered over, and, like the mantleshelf, obliterated
with books. They were but about twelve hundred in all; to the eyes
of Cosmo it seemed a mighty library--a treasure-house for a royal
sage.

There was no one in the room when they entered, and Cosmo was yet
staring in mute astonishment, when suddenly Mr. Simon was
addressing his father. But the door had not opened, and how he came
in seemed inexplicable. To the eyes of the boy the small man before
him assumed gigantic proportions.

But he was in truth below the middle height, somewhat
round-shouldered, with long arms, and small, well-shaped hands. His
hair was plentiful, grizzled, and cut short. His head was large and
his forehead wide, with overhanging brows; his eyes were small,
dark, and brilliant; his nose had a certain look of decision--but a
nose is a creature beyond description; his mouth was large, and his
chin strong; his complexion dark, and his skin rugged. The only
_fine_ features about him were his two ears, which were delicate
enough for a lady. His face was not at first sight particularly
attractive; indeed it was rather gloomy--till he smiled, not a
moment after; for that smile was the true interpreter of the mouth,
and, through the mouth, of the face, which was never the same as
before to one that had seen it. After a word or two about the book
he had borrowed, the laird took his departure, saying the sooner he
left master and pupil to themselves the better. Mr. Simon
acquiesced with a smile, and presently Cosmo was facing his near
future, not without some anxiety.




CHAPTER XI.

THE NEW SCHOOLING.


Without a word, Mr. Simon opened a drawer, and taking from it about
a score of leaves of paper, handed one of them to Cosmo. Upon it,
in print, was a stanza--one, and no more.

“Read that,” he said, with a glance that showed through his eyes
the light burning inside him, “and tell me if you understand it. I
don’t want you to ponder over it, but to say at a reading whether
you know what it means.”

Cosmo obeyed and read.

“I dinna mak heid nor tail o’ ’t, sir,” he answered, looking over
the top of the paper like a prisoned sheep.

Mr. Simon took it from him, and handed him another.

“Try that,” he said.

Cosmo read, put his hand to his head, and looked troubled.

“Don’t distress yourself,” said Mr. Simon. “The thing is of no
consequence for judgment; it is only for discovery.”

The remark conveyed but little consolation to the pupil, who would
gladly have stood well in his own eyes before his new master.

One after another Mr. Simon handed him the papers he held. About
the fifth or sixth, Cosmo exclaimed,

“I do understand that, sir.”

“Very well,” returned Mr. Simon, without showing any special
satisfaction, and immediately handed him another.

This was again a non-luminous body, and indeed cast a shadow over
the face of the embryo student. One by one Mr. Simon handed him all
he held. Out of the score there were three Cosmo said he
understood, and four he thought he should understand if he were
allowed to read them over two or three times. But Mr. Simon laid
them all together again, and back into the drawer.

“Now I shall know what I am about,” he said. “Tell me what you have
been doing at school.”

Were my book a treatise on education, it might be worth while to
give some account of Peter Simon’s ways of furthering human growth.
But intellectual development is not my main business or interest,
and I mean to say little more concerning Cosmo’s than that, after
about six weeks’ work, the boy one day begged Mr. Simon to let him
look at those papers again, and found to his delight that he
understood all but three or four of them.

That first day, Mr. Simon gave him an ode of Horace, and a poem by
Wordsworth to copy--telling him to put in every point as it was in
the book exactly, but to note any improvement he thought might be
made in the pointing. He told him also to look whether he could see
any resemblance between the two poems.

As he sat surrounded by the many books, Cosmo felt as if he were in
the heart of a cloud of witnesses.

That first day was sufficient to make the heart of the boy cleave
to his new master. For one thing Mr. Simon always, in anything
done, took note first of the things that pleased him, and only
after that proceeded to remark on the faults--most of which he
treated as imperfections, letting Cosmo see plainly that he
understood how he had come to go wrong.

Such an education as Mr. Simon was thus attempting with Cosmo, is
hardly to be given to more than one at a time; and indeed there are
not a great many boys on whom it would be much better than lost
labour. Cosmo, however, was now almost as eager to go to his
lessons, as before to spend a holiday. Mr. Simon never gave him
anything to do at home, heartily believing it the imperative duty
of a teacher to leave room for the scholar to grow after the
fashion in which he is made, and that what a boy does by himself is
of greater import than what he does with any master. Such leisure
may indeed be of comparatively small consequence with regard to the
multitude of boys, but it is absolutely necessary wherever one is
born with his individuality so far determined, as to be on the
point of beginning to develop itself. When Cosmo therefore went
home, he read or wrote what he pleased, wandered about at his will,
and dreamed to his heart’s content. Nor was it long before he
discovered that his dreams themselves were becoming of greater
import to him--that they also were being influenced by Mr. Simon.
And there were other witnesses there, quite as silent as those
around him in the library, and more unseen, who would not remain
speechless or invisible always.

One day Cosmo came late, and to say there were traces of tears on
his cheeks would hardly be correct, for his eyes were swollen with
weeping. His master looked at him almost wistfully, but said
nothing until he had settled for a while to his work, and was a
little composed. He asked him then what was amiss, and the boy told
him. To most boys it would have seemed small ground for such
heart-breaking sorrow.

Amongst the horses on the farm, was a certain small mare, which,
although she worked as hard as any, was yet an excellent one to
ride, and Cosmo, as often as there was not much work doing, rode
her where he would, and boy and mare were much attached to each
other. Sometimes he would have her every day for several weeks, and
that would be in the prime of the summer weather, when the harvest
was drawing nigh, and the school had its long yearly holiday.
Summer, the harvest--“play,” and Linty!--oh, large bliss! my heart
swells at the thought. They would be out for hours together,
perhaps not far from home all the time--on the top of a hill it
might be, whence Cosmo could see when he would the castle below.
There, the whole sleepy afternoon, he would lie in the heather,
with Linty, the mare, feeding amongst it, ready to come at his
call, receive him on her back, and carry him where he would!

But alas! though supple and active, Linty was old, and the day
could not be distant when they must part company: she was then nine
and twenty. And now--the night before, she had been taken ill:
there was a disease about amongst the horses. The men had been up
with her all night, and Grizzie too: she had fetched her own pillow
to put under her head, then sat by her for hours. When Cosmo left,
she was a little better, but great fears were entertained as to the
possibility of her recovery.

“She’s sae terrible aul’! ye see, sir,” said Cosmo, as he ended his
tale of woe, and burst out crying afresh.

“Cosmo,” said Mr. Simon,--and to a southern ear the issuing of such
sweet solemn thoughts in such rough northern speech, might have
seemed strange, though, to be sure, the vowels were finely sonorous
if the consonants were harsh,--“Cosmo, your heart is faithful to
your mare, but is it equally faithful to him that made your mare?”

“I ken it’s his wull,” answered Cosmo:--his master never took
notice whether he spoke in broad Scotch or bastard English--“I ken
mears maun dee, but eh! _she_ was sic a guid ane!--Sir! I canna bide
it.”

“Ye ken wha sits by the deein’ sparrow?” said Mr. Simon, himself
taking to the dialect. “Cosmo there was a better nor Grizzie, an’
nearer to Linty a’ the lang nicht. Things warna gangin’ sae ill wi’
her as ye thoucht. Life’s an awfu’ mystery, Cosmo, but it’s jist
the ae thing the maker o’ ’t can haud nearest til, for it’s nearest
til himsel’ i’ the mak o’ ’t.--Fowk may tell me,” he went on, more
now as if he were talking to himself than to the boy, “’at I sud
content mysel’ wi’ what I see an’ hear, an’ lat alane sic eeseless
speculations! wi’ deein’ men an’ mears a’ aboot me, hoo can I!
They’re onything but eeseless to me, for gien I had naething but
what I see an’ hear, gran’ an’ bonny as a heap o’ ’t is, I wad jist
smore for want o’ room.”

“But what’s the guid o’ ’t a’, whan I’ll never see her again?”
sobbed Cosmo.

“Wha says sic a thing, laddie?”

“A’ body,” answered Cosmo, a good deal astonished at the question.

“Maister A’ body has a heap o’ the gawk in him yet, Cosmo,” replied
his master. “In fac’ he’s scarce mair nor an infant yet, though he
wull speyk as gien the haill universe o’ wisdom an’ knowledge war
open til ’im! There’s no a word o’ the kin’ i’ the haill Bible, nor
i’ the hert o’ man--nor i’ the hert o’ the Maker, do I, i’ the hert
o’ me, believe it. Cosmo, can _ye_ believe ’at that wee bit foal o’ an
ass ’at carriet the maister o’ ’s a’, alang yon hill-road frae
Bethany to Jerus’lem, cam to sic an ill hin ’er en’ as to be
forgotten by him he cairriet? No more can I believe that jist
’cause it carriet him it was ae hair better luiket efter nor ony
ither bit assie foalt i’ the lan’ o’ Isr’el.”

“The disciples micht hae min’t it til the cratur, an’ liukit efter
’t for him,” suggested Cosmo.

His master looked pleased.

“They could but work the will o’ him that made the ass,” he said,
“an does the best for a’ thing an’ a’ body. Na, na, my son! gien I
hae ony pooer to read the trowth o’ things, the life ’at’s gien is
no taen; an’ whatever come o’ the cratur, the love it waukent in a
human breist ’ill no more be lost than the objec’ o’ the same. That
a thing can love an’ be loved--an’ that’s yer bonnie mearie,
Cosmo--is jist a’ ane to sayin’ ’at it’s immortal, for God is love,
an’ whatever partakes o’ the essence o’ God canna dee, but maun
gang on livin’ till it please him to say haud, an’ that he’ll never
say.”

By this time the face of the man was glowing like an altar on which
had descended the fire of the highest heaven. His confidence
entered the heart of Cosmo, and when the master ceased, he turned,
with a sigh of gladness and relief, to his work, and wept no more.
The possible entrance of Linty to an enlarged existence, widened
the whole heaven of his conscious being; the well-spring of
personal life within him seemed to rush forth in mighty volume; and
through that grief and its consolation, the boy made a great stride
towards manhood.

One day in the first week of his new schooling, Cosmo took occasion
to mention Aggie’s difficulty with her algebra, and her anxiety to
find whether it was true that a girl could do as well as a boy. Mr.
Simon was much interested, and with the instinct of the true hunter,
whose business it is to hunt death for the sake of life,
began to think whether here might not be another prepared to
receive. He knew her father well, but had made no acquaintance with
Agnes yet, who indeed was not a little afraid of him, for he looked
as if he were always thinking about things nobody else knew of,
although, in common with every woman who saw it, she did find his
smile reassuring. No doubt the peculiar feeling of the neighbours
concerning him had caused her involuntarily to associate with him
the idea of something “no canny.” Not the less, when she heard from
Cosmo what sort of man his new master was, would she have given all
she possessed to learn of him. And before long, she had her chance.
Old Dorothy, Mr. Simon’s servant and housekeeper, was one day taken
ill, and Cosmo mentioning the fact in Aggie’s hearing, she ran,
with a mere word to her mother, and not a moments’ cogitation, to
offer her assistance till she was better.

It turned out that “auld Dorty,” as the neighbours called her, not
without some hint askance at the quality of her temper, was not
very seriously ailing, yet sufficiently so to accept a little help
for the rougher work of the house; and while Aggie was on her knees
washing the slabs of the passage that led through to the back door,
the master, as she always called him now that Cosmo was his pupil,
happened to come from his room, and saw and addressed her. She rose
in haste, mechanically drying her hands in her apron.

“How’s the algebra getting on, Agnes?” he said.

“Naething’s gettin’ on verra weel sin’ maister Cosmo gaed frae the
schuil, sir. I dinna seem to hae the hert for the learnin’ ’at I
had sae lang as he was there, sae far aheid o’ me, but no
a’ thegither oot ’o my sicht, like.--It soon’s a conceitit kin’ o’ a
thing to say, but I’m no meanin’ onything o’ that natur’, sir.”

“I understand you very well, Agnes,” returned the master. “Would
you like to have some lessons with me? I don’t say along with
Cosmo; you would hardly be able for that at present, I fancy--but
at such times as you could manage to come--odd times, when you were
not wanted.”

“There’s naething upo’ the airth, sir,” said Aggie, “’at I wad like
half sae weel. Thae jist a kin’ o’ a hoonger upo’ me for un’erstan’in’
things. Its frae bein’ sae muckle wi’ Maister Cosmo, I’m
thinkin’--ever sin’ he was a bairn, ye ken, sir; for bein’ twa
year aul’er nor him, I was a kin’ o’ a wee nursie til him; an’ ever
sin’ syne we hae had nae secrets frae ane anither; an’ ye ken what
he’s like--aye wantin’ to win at the boddom o’ things, an’ that’s
infeckit me, sae ’at I canna rist whan I see onybody un’erstan’in’
a thing, till I set aboot gettin’ a grip o’ ’t mysel’.”

“A very good infection to take, Agnes,” replied the master, with a
smile of thorough pleasure, “and one that will do more for you than
the cow-pox. Come to me as often as you can--and as you like. I
think I shall be able to tell you some things to make you happier.”

“’Deed, sir. I’m in no want o’ happiness! O’ that I hae full mair
nor I deserve; but I want a heap for a’ that. I canna say what it
is, for the hoonger is for what I haena.”

“Another of God’s children!” said the master to himself, “and full
of the groanings of the spirit! The wilderness and the solitary
place shall be glad for them.”

He often quoted scripture as the people of the New Testament
did--not much minding the original application of the words. Those
that are filled with the spirit, have always taken liberties with
the letter.

That very evening before she went home, they had a talk about
algebra, and several other things. Agnes went no more to school,
but almost every day to see the master, avoiding the hours when
Cosmo would be there.




CHAPTER XII.

GRANNIE’S GHOST STORY.


Things went on very quietly. The glorious days of harvest came and
went, and left the fields bare for the wintry revelling of great
blasts. The potatoes were all dug up, and again buried--deeper than
before, in pits, with sheets of straw and blankets of earth to
protect them from the biting of the frost. Their stalks and many
weeds with them were burned, and their ashes scattered. Some of the
land was ploughed, and some left till the spring. Before the autumn
rains the stock of peats was brought from the hill, where they had
been drying through the hot weather, and a splendid stack they
made. Coal was carted from the nearest sea-port, though not in such
quantity as the laird would have liked, for money was as scarce as
ever, and that is to put its lack pretty strongly. Everything
available for firewood was collected, and, if of any size, put
under saw and axe, then stored in the house. Good preparation was
thus made for the siege of the winter.

In their poverty, partly no doubt from consideration, they seemed
to be much forgotten. The family was like an old thistle-head,
withering on its wintry stalk, alone in a wind-swept field. All the
summer through not a single visitor, friend or stranger, had slept
in the house. A fresh face was more of a wonder to Cosmo than to
desert-haunting Abraham. The human heart, like the human body, can
live without much variety to feed on, but its house is built on a
lordly scale for hospitality, and is capable of welcoming every new
face as a new revelation. Steadily Cosmo went to his day’s work
with the master, steadily returned to his home; saw nothing new,
yet learned day by day, as he went and came, to love yet more, not
the faces of the men and women only, but the aspects of the country
in which he was born, to read the lines and shades of its varying
beauty: if it was not luxuriant enough to satisfy his ideal, it had
yet endless loveliness to disclose to him who already loved enough
to care to understand it. When the autumn came, it made him sad,
for it was not in harmony with the forward look of his young life,
which, though not ambitious, was vaguely expectant. But when the
hoar frosts appeared, when the clouds gathered, when the winds
began to wail, and the snows to fall, then his spirits rose to meet
the invading death. The old castle grew grayer and grayer outside,
but ruddier and merrier within. Oh, that awful gray and white
Scottish winter--dear to my heart as I sit and write with window
wide open to the blue skies of Italy’s December!

Cosmo kept up his morning bath in “the pot” as long as he could,
but when sleet and rain came, and he could no longer dry himself by
running about, he did not care for it longer, but waited for the
snow to come in plenty, which was a sure thing, for then he had a
substitute. It came of the ambition of hardy endurance, and will
scarcely seem credible to some of my readers. In the depth of the
winter, when the cold was at its strongest, provided only the snow
lay pretty deep, he would jump from his warm bed with the first
glimmer of the morning, and running out, in a light gray with the
grayness of what is frozen, to a hollow on the hillside a few yards
from the house, there pull off his night-garment, and roll in the
snow, kneading handfuls of it, and rubbing himself with it all
over. Thus he believed he strengthened himself to stand the cold of
the day; and happily he was strong enough to stand the
strengthening, and so increased his hardihood: what would have been
death to many was to him invigoration. He knew nothing of boxing,
or rowing, or billiards, but he could run and jump well, and ride
very fairly, and, above all, he could endure. In the last harvest
he had for the first time wielded a scythe, and had held his own
with the rest, though, it must be allowed, with a fierce struggle.
The next spring--I may mention it here--he not only held the
plough, but by patient persistence and fearless compulsion trained
two young bulls to go in it, saving many weeks’ labour of a pair of
horses. It filled his father with pride, and hope for his boy’s
coming fight with the world. Even the eyes of his grandmother would
after that brighten at mention of him; she began to feel proud that
she had a share in the existence of the lad: if he did so well when
a hobbledehoy, he might be something by the time he was a man! But
one thing troubled her: he was no sportsman; he never went out to
hunt the otter, or to shoot hares or rabbits or grouse or
partridges! and that was unnatural! The fact was, ever since that
talk with the master about Linty, he could not bear to kill
anything, and was now and then haunted by the dying eyes of the
pigeon he shot the first time he handled a gun. The grandmother
thought it a defect in his manhood that he did not like shooting;
but, woman, and old woman as she was, his heart was larger and
tenderer than hers, and got in the way of the killing.

His father had never troubled his young life with details
concerning the family affairs; he had only let him know that, for
many years, through extravagance and carelessness in those who
preceded his father, things had been going from bad to worse. But
this was enough to wake in the boy the desire, and it grew in him
as he grew, to rescue what was left of the estate from its burdens,
and restore it to independence and so to honour. He said nothing of
it, however, to his father, feeling the presumption of proposing to
himself what his father had been unable to effect.

He went oftener to the village this winter than before, and rarely
without going to see Mistress Forsyth, whom he, like the rest,
always called Grannie. She suffered much from rheumatism, which she
described as a sorrow in her bones. But she never lost her
patience, and so got the good of a trouble which would seem
specially sent as the concluding discipline of old people for this
world, that they may start well in the next. Before the winter set
in, the laird had seen that she was provided with peats--that much
he could do, because it cost him nothing but labour; and indeed
each of the several cart-loads Cosmo himself had taken, with mare
Linty between the shafts. But no amount of fire could keep the
frost out of the old woman’s body, or the sorrow out of her bones.
Hence she had to be a good deal in bed, and needed her
great-grandchild, Agnes, to help her to bear her burden. When the
bitter weather came, soon after Christmas, Agnes had to be with her
almost constantly. She had grown a little graver, but was always
cheerful, and, except for anxiety lest her mother should be
overworked, or her father take cold, seemed as happy with her
grandmother as at home.

One afternoon, when the clouds were rising, and the wind blew keen
from the north, Cosmo left Glenwarlock to go to the village--mainly
to see Grannie. He tramped the two miles and a half in all the joy
of youthful conflict with wind and weather, and reached the old
woman’s cottage radiant. The snow lay deep and powdery with frost,
and the struggle with space from a bad footing on the world had
brought the blood to his cheeks and the sparkle to his eyes. He
found Grannie sitting up in bed, and Aggie getting her tea--to
which Cosmo contributed a bottle of milk he had carried her--an
article rare enough in the winter when there was so little grass
for the cows. Aggie drew the old woman’s chair to the fire for him,
and he sat down and ate barley-meal scons, and drank tea with them.
Grannie was a little better than usual, for every disease has its
inconsistencies, and pain will abate before an access; and so, with
storm at hand, threaded with fiery flying serpents for her bones,
she was talking more than for days previous. Her voice came feebly
from the bed to Cosmo’s ears, while he leaned back in her great
chair, and Aggie was removing the tea-things.

“Did ye ever dream ony mair aboot the auld captain, Cosmo?” she
asked: from her tone he could not tell whether she spoke seriously,
or was amusing herself with the idea.

“No ance,” he answered. “What gars ye speir, Grannie?”

She said nothing for a few minutes, and Cosmo thought she had
dismissed the subject. Aggie had returned to her seat, and he was
talking with her about Euclid, when she began again; and this time
her voice revealed that she was quite in earnest.

“Ye’re weel nigh a man noo, Cosmo,” she said. “A body may daur
speyk to ye aboot things a body wadna be wullin’ to say till a
bairn for fear o’ frichtin’ o’ ’im mair nor the bit hert o’ ’m cud
stan’. Whan a lad can warstle wi’ a pair o’ bills, an’ get the
upper han’ o’ them, an’ gar them du his biddin’, he wadna need to
tak fricht at--” There she paused.

This preamble was enough in itself--not exactly to bring Cosmo’s
heart into his mouth, but to send a little more of his blood from
his brain to his heart than was altogether welcome there. His
imagination, however, was more eager than apprehensive, and his
desire to hear far greater than his dread of the possible
disclosure. Neither would he have turned his back on any terror,
though he knew well enough what fear was. He looked at Aggie as
much as to say, “What can be coming?” and she stared at him in turn
with dilated pupils, as if something dreadful were about to be
evoked by the threatened narrative. Neither spoke a word, but their
souls got into their ears, and there sat listening. The hearing was
likely to be frightful when so prefaced by Grannie.

“There’s no guid ever cam’ o’ ca’in’ things oot o’ their ain
names,” she began, “an’ it’s my min’ ’at gien ever ae man was a
willain, an’ gien ever ae man had rizzon no to lie quaiet whan he
was doon, that man was your father’s uncle--his gran’ uncle, that
is, the auld captain, as we ca’d him. Fowk said he saul’ his sowl
to the ill ane: hoo that may be, I wadna care to be able to tell;
but sure I am ’at his was a sowl ill at ease,--baith here an’
herefter. Them ’at sleepit aneth me, for there was twa men-servan’s
aboot the hoose that time--an’ troth there was need o’ them an’
mair, sic war the gangin’s on! an’ they sleepit whaur I’m tauld ye
sleep noo, Cosmo--them ’at sleepit there tellt me ’at never a nicht
passed ’at they h’ardna soons ’aneth them ’at there was no mainner
o’ accoontin’ for nor explainin’, as fowks sae set upo’ duin’
nooadays wi’ a’ thing. That explainin’ I canna bide: it’s jist a
love o’ leasin’, an’ taks the bluid oot o’ a’ thing, lea’in’ life as
wersh an’ fusionless as kail wantin’ saut. Them ’at h’ard it, tellt
me ’at there was _no_ accoontin’, as I tell you, for the reemish they
baith h’ard--whiles douf-like dunts, an’ whiles speech o’ mou’,
beggin’ an’ groanin’ as gien the enemy war bodily present to the
puir sinner.”

“He micht hae been but jabberin’ in ’s sleep,” Cosmo, with his love
of truth, ventured to suggest: Aggie gave him a nudge of warning.

“Ay micht it,” returned the old woman with calm scorn; “an’ it
micht nae doobt hae been snorin’, or a cat speykin’ wi’ man’s
tongue, or ony ane o’ mony things ’cep’ the trowth ’at ye’re no
wullin’ to hear.”

“I _am_ wullin’--to hear the warst trowth ye daur tell me, Grannie,”
cried Cosmo, terrified lest he had choked the fountain. He was more
afraid of losing the story than of hearing the worst tale that
could be told even about the room he slept in last night, and must
go back to sleep in again to-night.

Grannie was mollified, and went on.

“As I was sayin’, he micht weel be ill at ease, the auld captain,
gien ae half was true ’at was said o’ ’im; but I ’maist think yer
father coontit it priven ’at he had led a deevilich life amo’ the
pirates. Only, gien he did, whaur was the wauges o’ his ineequity?
Nae doobt he got the wauges ’at the apostle speyks o’, whilk is, as
ye well ken, deith--‘the wauges o’ sin is deith.’ But, maistly,
sic-like sinners get first wauges o’ anither speckle frae the
maister o’ them. For troth! he has no need to be near in ’s dealin’s
wi’ them, seein’ there’s nae buyin’ nor sellin’ whaur he is, an’ a’
the gowd he has doon yon’er i’ the booels o’ the yird, wad jist lie
there duin’ naething, gien he sent na ’t up abune, whaur maist
pairt it works his wull. Na, he seldom scrimps ’t to them ’at
follows his biddin’. But i’ this case, whaur, I say, was the
wauges? Natheless, he aye carriet himsel’ like ane ’at cud lay doon
the law o’ this warl’, an cleemt no sma’ consideration; yet was
there never sign or mark o’ the proper fundation for sic assumption
o’ the richt to respec’.

“It turnt oot, or cam to be said, ’at the Englishman ’at fowk
believed to hae killt him, was far-awa’ sib to the faimily, an’ the
twa had come thegither afore, somewhaur i’ foreign pairts. But
that’s naither here nor there, nor what for he killed him, or wha’s
faut was that same: aboot a’ that, naething was ever kent for
certain.

“Weel, it was an awfu’ like thing, ye may be sure, to quaiet fowk,
sic as we was a’--’cep’ for the drinkin’ an’ sic like, sin’ ever
the auld captain cam, wi’ his reprobat w’ys--it was a sair thing,
I’m sayin’, to hae a deid man a’ at ance upo’ oor han’s; for, lat
the men du ’at they like, the warst o’ ’t aye comes upo’ the women.
Lat a bairn come to mischance, or the guidman turn ower the kettle,
an’ it’s aye, ‘Rin for Jean this, or Bauby that,’ to set richt what
they hae set wrang. Even whan a man kills a body, it’s the women
hae to mak the best o’ ’t, an’ the corp luik dacent. An’ there’s
some o’ them no that easy to mak luik dacent! Troth, there’s mony
ane luiks bonnier deid nor alive, but that wasna the case wi’ the
auld captain, for he luikit as gien he had dee’d cursin’, as he
bude to du, gien he dee’d as he lived. His moo’ was drawn fearfu’,
as gien his last aith had chokit him. Nae doobt they said ’at wad
hae ’t they kent, ’at hoo that’s the w’y wi’ deith frae slayin’ wi’
the swoord; but I wadna hear o’ ’t; I kenned better. An’ whether he
had fair play or no, the deith he dee’d was a just ane; for them
’at draws the swoord maun periss by the swoord. Whan they faun’
’im, the richt han’ o’ the corp was streekit oot, as gien he was
cryin’ to somebody rinnin’ awa’ to bide an’ tak ’im wi’ ’im. But
there was anither at han’ to tak ’im wi’ ’im. Only, gien he tuik
’im that same nicht, he cudna hae carried him far. ’Deed, maybe, the
auld sinner was ower muckle aven for _him_.

“They brocht him hame, an’ laid the corp o’ him upo’ his ain bed,
whaur, I reckon, up til this nicht, he had tried mair nor he had
sleepit. An’ that verra nicht, wha sud I see--but I’m jist gaein’
to tell ye a’ aboot it, an’ hoo it was, an’ syne ye can say
yersel’s. Sin’ my ain auld mither dee’d, I haena opent my moo’ to
mortal upo’ the subjec’.”

The eyes of the two listeners were fixed upon the narrator in the
acme of expectation. A real ghost-story, from the lips of one they
knew, and must believe in, was a thing of dread delight. Like
ghosts themselves, they were all-unconscious of body, rapt in
listening.

“Ye may weel believe,” resumed the old woman after a short pause,
“at nane o’ ’s was ower wullin’ to sit wi’ the corp oor lane, for,
as I say, he wasna a comely corp to be a body’s lane wi’. Sae auld
auntie Jean an’ mysel’, we agreed ’at we wad tak the thing upo’
oorsel’s, for, huz twa, we cud lippen til ane anither no to be ower
feart to min’ ’at there was twa o’ ’s. There hadna been time yet
for the corp to be laid intil the coffin, though, i’ the quaiet o’
the mirk, we thoucht, as we sat, we cud hear the tap-tappin’ as
they cawed the braiss nails intil ’t, awa’ ower in Geordie Lumsden’s
chop, at the Muir o’ Warlock, a twa mile, it wad be. We war
sittin’, auntie Jean an’ mysel’, i’ the mids o’ the room, no wi’
oor backs til the bed, nor yet wi’ oor faces, for we daurna turn
aither o’ them til ’t. I’ the ae case, wha cud tell what we micht
see, an’ i’ the ither, wha cud tell what micht be luikin’ at hiz!
We war sittin’, I say, wi’ oor faces to the door o’ the room, an’
auntie was noddin’ a wee, for she was turnin’ gey an’ auld, but _I_
was as wide waukin’ an ony baudrins by a moose-hole, whan suddent
there cam a kin’ o’ a dirlin’ at the sneck, ’at sent the verra sowl
o’ me up intil the garret o’ my heid; an’ afore I had time to ken
hoo sair frichtit I was, the door begud to open; an’, glower as I
wad, no believin’ my ain e’en, open that door did, langsome,
langsome, quaiet, quaiet, jist as my auld Grannie used to tell o’
the deid man comin’ doon the lum, bit an’ bit, an’ jinin’ thegither
upo’ the flure. I was turnt to stane, like, ’at I didna believe I
cud hae fa’en frae the cheir gien I had swarfed clean awa’. An’ eh
but it tuik a time to open that door! But at last, as sure as ye
sit there, you twa, an’ no anither,--”--At the word, Cosmo’s heart
came swelling up into his throat, but he dared not look round to
assure himself that they were indeed two sitting there and not
another--“in cam the auld captain, ae fit efter anither! Speir
gien I was sure o’ ’im! Didna I ken him as weel as my ain
father--as weel ’s my ain minister--as weel as my ain man? He cam
in, I say, the auld captain himsel’--an’ eh, sic an evil luik!--the
verra luik deith-frozen upo’ the face o’ the corp! The live bluid
turned to dubs i’ my inside. He cam on an’ on, but no straucht for
whaur we sat, or I dinna think the sma’ rizzon I had left wad hae
bidden wi’ me, but as gien he war haudin’ for ’s bed. To tell God’s
trowth, for I daurna lee, for fear o’ haein’ to luik upo’ ’s like
again, my auld auntie declaret efterhin ’at she saw naething. She
bude til hae been asleep, an’ a mercifu’ thing it was for her, puir
body! but she didna live lang efter. He made straucht for the bed,
as I thoucht. ‘The Lord preserve ’s!’ thoucht I, ‘is he gaein to lie
doon wi’ ’s ain corp?’ but he turnt awa’, an’ roon’ the fit o’ the
bed to the ither side o’ ’t, an’ I saw nae mair; an’ for a while,
auntie Jean sat her lane wi’ the deid, for I lay upo’ the flure,
an’ naither h’ard nor saw. But whan I cam to mysel’, wasna I
thankfu’ ’at I wasna deid, for he micht hae gotten me than, an’
there was nae sayin’ what he micht hae dune til me! But, think ye,
wad auntie Jean believe ’at I had seen him, or that it was onything
but a dream ’at had come ower me, atween waukin’ an’ sleepin’? Na,
no she! for she had sleepit throu’ ’t hersel’!”

For some time silence reigned, as befitted the close of such a
story. Nothing but the solemn tick of the tall clock was to be
heard. On and on it went, as steady as before. Ghosts were nothing
special to the clock: it had to measure out the time both for
ghosts and unghosts.

“But what cud the ghaist hae been wantin’? No the corp, for he
turnt awa’, ye tell me, frae hit,” Cosmo ventured at length to
remark.

“Wha can say what ghaists may be efter, laddie! But, troth to tell,
whan ye see live fowk sae gien ower to the boady, ’at they’re never
happy but whan they’re aitin’ or drinkin’ or sic like--an’ the auld
captain was seldom throu’ wi’ his glaiss, ’at he wasna cryin’ for
the whisky or the het watter for the neist--whan the boady’s the
best half o’ them, like, an’ they maun aye be duin’ something wi’
’t, ye needna won’er ’at the ghaist o’ ane sic like sud fin’
himsel’ gey an’ eerie an’ lonesome like, wantin’ his seck to fill,
an’ sae try to win back to hae a luik hoo it was weirin’.”

“But he gaed na to the corp,” Cosmo insisted.

“’Cause he wasna alloot,” said Grannie. “He wad hae been intil ’t
again in a moment, ye may be certain, gien it had been in his
pooer. But the deevils cudna gang intil the swine wantin’ leave.”

“Ay, I see,” said Cosmo.

“But jist ye speir at yer new maister,” Grannie went on, “what he
thinks aboot it, for I ance h’ard him speyk richt wise words to my
gudeson, James Gracie, anent sic things. I min’ weel ’at he said
the only thing ’at made agen the viouw I tiuk--though I spakna o’
the partic’lar occasion--was, ’at naebody ever h’ard tell o’ the
ghaist o’ an alderman, wha they say’s some grit Lon’on man, sair
gien to the fillin’ o’ the seck.”




CHAPTER XIII.

THE STORM-GUEST.


Again a deep silence descended on the room. The twilight had long
fallen, and settled down into the dark. The only thing that
acknowledged and answered the clock was the red glow of the peats
on the hearth. To Cosmo, as he sat sunk in thought, the clock and
the fire seemed to be holding a silent talk. Presently came a great
and sudden blast of wind, which roused Cosmo, and made him bethink
himself that it was time to be going home. And for this there was
another reason besides the threatening storm: he had the night
before begun to read aloud one of Sir Walter’s novels to the
assembled family, and Grizzie would be getting anxious for another
portion of it before she went to bed.

“I’m glaid to see ye sae muckle better, Grannie,” he said. “I’ll
say gude nicht noo, an’ luik in again the morn.”

“Weel, I’m obleeged to ye,” replied the old woman. “There’s been
but feow o’ yer kin, be their fau’ts what they micht, wad forget
ony ’at luikit for a kin’ word or a kin’ deed!--Aggie, lass, ye’ll
convoy him a bittock, willna ye?”

All the few in whom yet lingered any shadow of retainership towards
the fast-fading chieftainship of Glenwarlock, seemed to cherish the
notion that the heir of the house had to be tended and cared for
like a child--that was what they were in the world for. Doubtless a
pitying sense of the misfortunes of the family had much to do with
the feeling.

“There’s nae occasion,” and “I’ll du that,” said the two young
people in a breath.

Cosmo rose, and began to put on his plaid, crossing it over back
and chest to leave his arms free: that way the wind would get least
hold on him. Agnes went to the closet for her plaid also--of the
same tartan, and drawing it over her head and pinning it under her
chin, was presently ready for the stormy way. Then she turned to
Cosmo, and was pinning his plaid together at the throat, when the
wind came with a sudden howl, rushed down the chimney, and drove
the level smoke into the middle of the room. It could not shake the
cottage--it was too lowly: neither could it rattle its windows--
they were not made to open; but it bellowed over it like a
wave over a rock, and as in contempt blew its smoke back into its
throat.

“It’ll be a wull nicht, I’m doobtin’, Cosmo,” said Agnes; “an’ I
wuss ye safe i’ the ingle-neak wi’ yer fowk.”

Cosmo laughed. “The win’ kens me,” he said.

“Guid farbid!” cried the old woman from the bed. “Kenna ye wha’s
the prence o’ ’t, laddie? Makna a jeist o’ the pooers ’at be.”

[Illustration: THE CLOCK AND THE PIPE SEEMED TO BE HOLDING A SILENT
TALK.]

“Gien they binna ordeent o’ God, what are they but a jeist?”
returned Cosmo. “Eh, but ye wad mak a bonny munsie o’ me, Grannie,
to hae me feart at the deil an’ a’! I canna a’ thegither help it
wi’ the ghaists, an’ I’m ashamed o’ mysel’ for that; but I _am not_
gaein to heed the deil. I defy him an’ a’ his works. He’s but a
cooerd, ye ken, Grannie, for whan ye resist him, he rins.”

She made no answer. Cosmo shook hands with her, and went, followed
by Agnes, who locked the door behind her, and put the key in her
pocket.

It was indeed a wild night. The wind was rushing from the north,
full of sharp stinging pellicles, something between snow-flakes and
hail-stones. Down the wide village street it came right in their
faces. Through it, as through a thin shifting sheet, they saw on
both sides the flickering lights of the many homes, but before them
lay darkness, and the moor, a chaos, a carnival of wind and snow.
Worst of all the snow on the road was not _binding_, and their feet
felt as if walking on sand. As long as the footing is good, one can
get on even in the face of a northerly storm; but to heave with a
shifting fulcrum is hard. Nevertheless Cosmo, beholding with his
mind’s eye the wide waste around him, rejoiced; invisible through
the snow, it was not the less a presence, and his young heart
rushed to the contest. There was no fear of ghosts in such a storm!
The ghosts might be there, but there was no time to heed them, and
that was as good as their absence--perhaps better, if we knew all.

“Bide a wee, Cosmo,” cried Agnes, and leaving him in the middle of
the street where they were walking, she ran across to one of the
houses, and entered--lifting the latch without ceremony. No
neighbour troubled another to come and open the door; if there was
no one at home, the key in the lock outside showed it.

Cosmo turned his back to the wind, and stood waiting. From the door
which Aggie opened, came through the wind and snow the sound of the
shoemaker’s hammer on his lapstone.

“Cud ye spare the mistress for an hoor, or maybe twa an’ a half, to
haud Grannie company, John Nauchty?” said Agnes.

“Weel that,” answered the _sutor_, hammering away. He intended no
reflection on the bond that bound the mistress and himself.

“I dinna see her,” said Aggie.

“She’ll be in in a minute. She’s run ower the ro’d to get a doup o’
a can’le,” returned the man.

“Gien she dinna gae speedier, she’ll hae to licht it to fin’ her
ain door,” said Agnes merrily, to whom the approaching fight with
the elements was as welcome as to Cosmo. She had made up her mind
to go with him all the way, let him protest as he might.

“Ow na! she’ll hearken, an’ hear the hemmer,” replied the
shoemaker.

“Weel, tak the key, an’ ye winna forget, John?” said Aggie, laying
the key amongst his tools. “Grannie’s lyin’ there her lee-lane, an’
gien the hoose was to tak fire, what wad come o’ her?”

“Guid forbid onybody sud forget Grannie!” rejoined the man
heartily; “but fire wad hae a sma’ chance the nicht.”

Agnes thanked and left him. All the time he had not missed a single
stroke of his hammer on the ben-leather between it and his lapstone.

When she rejoined Cosmo, where he stood leaning his back against
the wind in the middle of the road,

“Come nae farther, Aggie,” he said. “It’s an ill nicht, an’ grows
waur. There’s nae guid in ’t naither, for we winna hear ane anither
speyk ohn stoppit, an’ turnt oor backs til ’t. Gang to yer Grannie;
she’ll be feart aboot ye.”

“Nae a bit. I maun see ye oot o’ the toon.”

They fought their way along the street, and out on the open moor,
the greater part of which was still heather and swamp. Peat-bog and
ploughed land was all one waste of snow. Creation seemed but the
snow that had fallen, the snow that was falling, and the snow that
had yet to fall; or, to put it otherwise, a fall of snow between
two outspread worlds of snow.

“Gang back, noo, Aggie,” said Cosmo again. “What’s the guid o’ twa
whaur ane only need be, an’ baith hae to fecht for themsel’s?”

“I’m no gaein’ back yet,” persisted Aggie. “Twa’s better at
onything nor ane himblane. The sutor’s wife’s gaein’ in to see
Grannie, an’ Grannie ’ll like her cracks a heap better nor mine.
She thinks I hae nae mair brains nor a hen, ’cause I canna min’ upo’
things at war nearhan’ forgotten or I was born.”

Cosmo desisted from useless persuasion, and they struggled on
together, through the snow above and the snow beneath. At this
Aggie was more than a match for Cosmo. Lighter and smaller, and
perhaps with larger lungs in proportion, she bored her way through
the blast better than he, and the moment he began to expostulate,
would increase the distance between them, and go on in front where
he knew she could not hear a word he said.

At last, being then a little ahead, she turned her back to the
wind, and waited for him to come up.

“Noo, ye’ve had eneuch o’ ’t!” he said. “An’ I maun turn an’ gang
back wi’ ye, or ye’ll never win hame.”

Aggie broke into a loud laugh that rang like music through the
storm.

“A likly thing!” she cried; “an’ me wi’ my back a’ the ro’d to the
win’! Gang back yersel’, Cosmo, an’ sit by Grannie’s fire, an’ I’ll
gang on to the castle, an’ lat them ken whaur ye are. Gien ye dinna
that, I tell ye ance for a’, I’m no gaein’ to lea’ ye till I see ye
safe inside yer ain wa’s.”

“But Aggie,” reasoned Cosmo, with yet greater earnestness, “what’ll
ye gar fowk think o’ me, ’at wad hae a lassie to gang hame wi’ me,
for fear the win’ micht blaw me intil the sea? Ye’ll bring me to
shame, Aggie.”

“A lassie! say ye?” cried Aggie,--“I think I hear ye!--an’ me auld
eneuch to be yer mither! I s’ tak guid care there s’ be nae affront
intil ’t. Haud yer hert quaiet, Cosmo; ye’ll hae need o’ a’ yer
breath afore ye win to yer ain fireside.”

As she spoke, the wind pounced upon them with a fiercer gust than
any that had preceded. Instinctively they grasped each other, as if
from the wish, if they should be blown away, to be blown away
together.

“Eh, that’s a rouch ane!” said Cosmo, and again Aggie laughed
merrily.

While they stood thus, with their backs to the wind, the moon rose.
Far indeed from being visible, she yet shed a little glimmer of
light over the plain, revealing a world as wild as ever the frozen
north outspread--as wild as ever poet’s despairing vision of
desolation. I see it! I see it! but how shall I make my reader see
it with me? It was ghastly. The only similitude of life was the
perplexed and multitudinous motion of the drifting, falling flakes.
No shape was to be seen, no sound but that of the wind to be heard.
It was like the dream of a delirious child after reading the
ancient theory of the existence of the world by the rushing
together of fortuitous atoms. Wan and thick, tumultuous,
innumerable to millions of angels, an interminable tempest of
intermingling and indistinguishable vortices, it stretched on and
on, a boundless hell of cold and shapelessness--white thinned with
gray, and fading into gray blackness, into tangible darkness.

The moment the fury of the blast abated, Agnes turned, and without
a word, began again her boring march, forcing her way through the
palpable obstructions of wind and snow. Unable to prevent her,
Cosmo followed. But he comforted himself with the thought, that, if
the storm continued he would get his father to use his authority
against her attempting a return before the morning. The sutor’s
wife was one of Grannie’s best cronies, and there was no fear of
her being deserted through the night.

Aggie kept the lead she had taken, till there could be no more
question of going on, and they were now drawing near the road that
struck off to the left, along the bank of the Warlock river,
leading up among the vallies and low hills, most of which had once
been the property of the house of Warlock, when she stopped
suddenly, this time without turning her back to the wind, and Cosmo
was immediately beside her.

“What’s yon, Cosmo?” she said--and Cosmo fancied consternation in
the tone. He looked sharply forward, and saw what seemed a glimmer,
but might be only something whiter in the whiteness. No! it was
certainly a light--but whether on the road he could not tell. There
was no house in that direction! It moved!--yet not as if carried in
human hand! Now it was gone! There it was again! There were two of
them--two huge pale eyes, rolling from side to side. Grannie’s
warning about the Prince of the power of the air, darted into
Cosmo’s mind. It was awful! But anyhow the devil was not to be run
from! That was the easiest measure, no doubt, yet not the less the
one impossible to take. And now it was plain that the something was
not away on the moor, but on the road in front of them, and coming
towards them. It came nearer and nearer, and grew vaguely
visible--a huge blundering mass--animal or what, they could not
tell, but on the wind came sounds that might be human--or animal
human--the sounds of encouragement and incitation to horses. And
now it approached no more. With common impulse they hastened
towards it.

It was a travelling carriage--a rare sight in those parts at any
time, and rarer still in winter. Both of them had certainly seen
one before, but as certainly, never a pair of lighted
carriage-lamps, with reflectors to make of them fiendish eyes. It
had but two horses, and, do what the driver could, which was not
much, they persisted in standing stock-still, refusing to take a
single step farther. Indeed they could not. They had tried and
tried, and done their best, but finding themselves unable to move
the carriage an inch, preferred standing still to spending
themselves in vain struggles, for all their eight legs went
slipping about under them.

Cosmo looked up to the box. The driver was little more than a boy,
and nearly dead with cold. Already Aggie had a forefoot of the near
horse in her hand. Cosmo ran to the other.

“Their feet’s fu’ o’ snaw,” said Aggie.

“Ay; it’s ba’d hard,” said Cosmo. “They maun hae come ower a saft
place: it wadna ba’ the nicht upo’ the muir.”

“Hae ye yer knife, Cosmo?” asked Aggie.

Here a head was put out of the carriage-window. It was that of a
lady in a swansdown travelling-hood. She had heard an
unintelligible conversation--and one intelligible word. They must
be robbers! How else should they want a knife in a snowstorm? Why
else should they have stopped the carriage? She gave a little cry
of alarm. Aggie dropped the hoof she held, and went to the window.

“What’s yer wull, mem?” she asked.

“What’s the matter?” the lady returned in a trembling voice, but
not a little reassured at the sight, as she crossed the range of
one of the lamps, of the face of a young girl. “Why doesn’t the
coachman go on?”

“He canna, mem. The horse canna win throu’ the snaw. They hae ba’s
o’ ’t i’ their feet, an’ they canna get a grip wi’ them, nae mair
nor ye cud yersel’, mem, gien the soles o’ yer shune war roon’ an’
made o’ ice. But we’ll sune set that richt.--Hoo far hae ye come,
mem, gien I may speir? Aigh, mem, its an unco nicht!”

The lady did not understand much of what Aggie said, for she was
English, returning from her first visit to Scotland, but, half
guessing at her question, replied, that they had come from
Cairntod, and were going on to Howglen. She told her also, now
entirely reassured by Aggie’s voice, that they had been much longer on
the way than they had expected, and were now getting anxious.

“I doobt sair gien ye’ll win to Howglen the nicht,” said Aggie.--
“But ye’re not yer lone?” she added, trying to summon her English,
of which she had plenty of a sort, though not always at hand.

“My father is with me,” said the lady, looking back into the dark
carriage, “but I think he is asleep, and I don’t want to wake him
while we are standing still.”

Peeping in, Aggie caught sight of somebody muffled, leaning back in
the other corner of the carriage, and breathing heavily.

To Aggie’s not altogether unaccustomed eye, it seemed he might have
had more than was good for him in the way of refreshment.

Cosmo was busy clearing the snow from the horses’ hoofs. The
driver, stupid or dazed, sat on the box, helpless as a parrot on a
swinging perch.

“You’ll never win to Howglen to-night, mem,” said Aggie.

“We must put up where we can, then,” answered the lady.

“I dinna know of a place nearer, fit for gentlefowk, mem.”

“What are we to do then?” asked the lady, with subdued, but evident
anxiety.

“What’s the guid o’ haein’ a father like that--sleepin’ and snorin’
whan maist ye’re in want o’ ’im!” thought Aggie to herself; but
what she replied was, “Bide, mem, till we hear what Cosmo has to
say til ’t.”

“That is a peculiar name!” remarked the lady, brightening at the
sound of it, for it could, she thought, hardly belong to a peasant.

“It’s the name the lairds o’ Glenwarlock hae borne for
generations,” answered Aggie; “though doobtless it’s no a name, as
the maister wad say, indigenous to the country. Ane o’ them broucht
it frae Italy, the place whaur the Pop’ o’ Rom’ bides.”

“And who is this Cosmo whose advice you would have me ask?”

“He’s the yoong laird himsel’, mem:--eh! but ye maun be a stranger
no to ken the name o’ Warlock.”

“Indeed I am a stranger--and I can’t help wishing, if there is much
more of this weather between us and England, that I had been more
of a stranger still.”

“’Deed, mem, we hae a heap o’ weather up here as like this as ae
snow-flake is til anither. But we tak what’s sent, an’ makna mony
remarks. Though to be sure the thing’s different whan it’s o’ a
body’s ain seekin’.”

This speech--my reader may naturally think it not over-polite--was
happily not over-intelligible to the lady. Aggie, a little wounded
by the reflection on the weather of her country, had in her emotion
aggravated her Scottish tone.

“And where is this Cosmo? How are we to find him?”

“He’ll come onsoucht, mem. It’s only ’at he’s busy cleanin’ oot yer
puir horse’ hivs ’at he disna p’y his respec’s to ye. But he’ll be
blythe eneuch!”

“I thought you said he was a lord!” remarked the lady.

“Na, I saidna that, mem. He’s nae lord. But he’s a laird, an’ some
lairds is better nor ’maist ony lords--an’ _he’s_ Warlock o’
Glenwarlock--at least he wull be--an’ may it be lang or come the
day.”

Hard as the snow was packed in them, all the eight hoofs were now
cleared out with Cosmo’s busy knife, which he had had to use
carefully lest he should hurt the frog. The next moment his head
appeared, a little behind that of Aggie, and in the light of the
lamp the lady saw the handsome face of a lad seemingly about
sixteen.

“Here he is, mem! This is the yoong laird. Ye speir at _him_ what
ye’re to du, and du jist as he tells ye,” said Aggie, and drew
back, that Cosmo might take her place.

“Is that girl your sister?” asked the lady, with not a little
abruptness, for the _best bred_ are not always the most polite.

“No, my lady,” answered Cosmo, who had learned from the lad on the
box her name and rank; “she is the daughter of one of my father’s
tenants.”

Lady Joan Scudamore thought it very odd that the youth should be on
such familiar terms with the daughter of one of his father’s
tenants--out alone with her in the heart of a hideous storm! No
doubt the girl looked up to him, but apparently from the same
level, as one sharing in the pride of the family! Should she take
her advice, and seek his? or should she press on for Howglen? There
was, alas! no counsel to be had from her father just at present: if
she woke him, he would but mutter something not so much unlike an
oath as it ought to be, and go to sleep again!

“We want very much to reach Howglen--I think that is what you call
the place,” she said.

“You can’t get there to-night, I’m afraid,” returned Cosmo. “The
road is, as you see, no road at all. The horses would do better if
you took their shoes off, I think--only then, if they came on a bit
of frozen dub, it might knock their hoofs to pieces in such a
frost.”

The lady glanced round at her sleeping companion with a look
expressive of no small perplexity.

“My father will make you welcome, my lady,” continued Cosmo, “if
you will come with us. We can give you only what English people
must think poor fare, for we’re not--”

She interrupted him.

“I should be glad to sit anywhere all night, where there was a
fire. I am nearly frozen.”

“We can do a little better for you than that, though not so well as
we should like. Perhaps, as we can’t make any show, we are the more
likely to do our best for your comfort.”

Their pinched circumstances had at one time and another given rise
to conversation in which the laird and his son sought together to
sound the abysses of hospitality: the old-fashioned sententiousness
of the boy had in it nothing of the prig.

“You are very kind. I will promise to be comfortable,” said the
lady.

She began to be a trifle interested in this odd specimen of the
Scotch calf.

“Welcome then to Glenwarlock!” said Cosmo. “Come, Aggie; tak ane o’
them by the heid: they’re gaein’ wi’ ’s.--We must turn the horses’
heads, my lady. I fear they won’t like to face the wind they’ve
only had their backs to yet. I can’t make out whether your driver
is half dead or half drunk or more than half frozen; but Aggie and
I will take care of them, and if he tumble off, nobody will be the
worse.”

“What a terrible country!” said the lady to herself. “The coachmen
get drunk! the boys are prigs! there is no distinction between the
owners of the soil and the tenants who farm it! and it snows from
morning to night, and from one week’s end to another!”

Aggie had taken the head of the near horse, and Cosmo took that of
the off one. Their driver said nothing, letting them do as they
pleased. With some difficulty, for they had to be more than
ordinarily cautious, the road being indistinguishable from the
ditches they knew here bounded it on both sides, they got the
carriage round. But when the weary animals received the tempest in
their faces, instead of pulling they backed, would have turned
again, and for some time were not to be induced to front it. Agnes
and Cosmo had to employ all their powers of persuasion, first to
get them to stand still, and then to advance a little. Gradually,
by leading, and patting, and continuous encouraging in language
they understood, they were coaxed as far as the parish road, and
there turning their sides to the wind, and no longer their eyes and
noses, they began to move with a little will of their own; for
horses have so much hope, that the mere fact of having made a turn
is enough to revive them with the expectation of cover and food and
repose. They reached presently a more sheltered part of the road,
and if now and then they had to drag the carriage through deeper
snow, they were no longer buffeted by the cruel wind or stung by
its frost-arrows.

All this time the gentleman inside slept--nor was it surprising;
for, lunching at the last town, and not finding the wine fit to
drink, he had fallen back upon an accomplishment of his youth, and
betaken himself to toddy. That he had found that at least fit to
drink was proved by the state in which he was now carried along.

They reached at last the steep ascent from the parish road to
Castle Warlock. The two conductors, though they had no leisure to
confer on the subject, were equally anxious as to whether the
horses would face it; but the moment their heads came round,
whether only that it was another turn with its fresh hope, or that
the wind brought some stray odour of hay or oats to their wide
nostrils, I cannot tell, but finding the ground tolerably clear,
they took to it with a will, and tore up with the last efforts of
all but exhausted strength, Cosmo and Aggie running along beside
them, and talking to them all the way. The only difficulty was to
get the lad on the box to give them their heads.




CHAPTER XIV.

THE CASTLE INN.


The noise of their approach, heard from the bottom of the ascent,
within the lonely winter castle, awoke profound conjecture, and
Grizzie proceeded to light the lanthern that she might learn the
sooner what catastrophe could cause such a phenomenon: something
awful must have taken place! Perhaps they had cut off the king’s
head as they did in France! But such was the rapidity of the
horses’ ascent in the hope of rest, and warmth, and supper, that
the carriage was in the close, and rattling up to the door, ere she
had got the long wick of the tallow candle to acknowledge the
dominion of fire. The laird rose in haste from his arm-chair, and
went to the door. There stood the chaise, in the cloud of steam
that rose from the quick-heaving sides of the horses. And there
were Cosmo and Agnes at the door of it, assisting somebody to
descend. The laird was never in a hurry. He was too thorough a
gentleman to trouble approach by uneasy advance, and he had no fear
of anything Cosmo had done. He stood therefore in the kitchen door,
calmly expectant.

A long-cloaked lady got down, and, turning from the assistant hand
of his son, came towards him--a handsome lady, tall and somewhat
stately, but weary, and probably in want of food as well as rest.
He bowed with old-fashioned worship, and held out his hand to
welcome her. She gave him hers graciously, and thanked him for the
hospitality his son had offered them.

“Come in, come in, madam,” said the old man. “The fireside is the
best place for explanations. Welcome to a poor house but a warm
hearth! So much we can yet offer stranger-friends.”

He led the way, and she followed him into the kitchen. On a small
piece of carpet before the fire, stood the two chairs of state,
each protected by a large antique screen. From hers the grandmother
rose with dignified difficulty, when she perceived the quality of
the entering stranger.

“Mother,” said the laird, “it is not often we have the pleasure of
visitors at this time of the year!”

“The more is the rare foot welcome,” answered she, and made Lady
Joan as low a courtesy as she dared: she could not quite reckon on
her power of recovery.

Lady Joan returned her salute, little impressed with the honour
done her, but recognizing that she was in the presence of a
gentlewoman. She took the laird’s seat at his invitation, and,
leaning forward, gazed wearily at the fire.

The next moment, a not very pleasant-looking old man entered,
supported on one side by Cosmo and on the other by Agnes. They had
had no little difficulty in waking him up, and he entered, vaguely
supposing they had arrived at an inn where they were to spend the
night. If his grumbling and swearing as he advanced was _sotto voce_,
the assuagement was owing merely to his not being sufficiently
awake to use more vigour. The laird left the lady and advanced to
meet him, but he took no notice of him, regarding his welcome as
the obsequiousness of a landlord, and turned shivering towards the
fire, where Grizzie was hastening to set him a chair.

“The fire’s the best flooer i’ the gairden, an’ the pig’s the best
coo i’ the herdin’, my lord,” she said--an old saw to which his
lordship might have been readier to respond, had he remembered that
the _pig_ sometimes meant the stone jar that held the whisky.

As soon as Lord Mergwain was seated, Cosmo drew his father aside,
told him the names of their guests, and in what difficulty he had
found them, and added that the lady and the horses were sober
enough, but for the other two he would not answer.

“We have been spending some weeks at Canmore Castle in Ross-shire,
and are now on our way home,” said Lady Joan to Mistress Warlock.

“You have come a long way round,” remarked the old lady, not so
pleased with the manners of her male visitor, on whom she kept
casting, every now and then, a full glance.

“We have,” replied Lady Joan. “We turned out of our way to visit an
old friend of papa’s, and have been storm-bound till he--I mean
papa--could bear it no longer. We sent our servants on this
morning. They are, I hope, by this time, waiting us at Howglen.”

The fire had been thawing the sleep out of Lord Mergwain, and now
at length he was sufficiently awake to be annoyed that his daughter
should hold so much converse with the folk of the inn.

“Can’t you show us to a room?” he said gruffly, “and get us
something to eat?”

“We are doing the best we can for your lordship,” replied the
laird. “But we were not expecting visitors, and one of the rooms
you will have to occupy, has not been in use for some time. In such
weather as this, it will take two or three hours of a good fire to
render it fit to sleep in. But I will go myself, and see that the
servant is making what haste she can.”

He put on his hat over his night-cap, and made for the door.

“That’s right, landlord,” cried his lordship; “always see to the
comfort of your guests yourself--But bless me! you don’t mean we
have to go out of doors to reach our bedrooms?”

“I am afraid we cannot help it,” returned the laird, arresting his
step. “There used to be a passage connecting the two houses, but
for some reason or other--I never heard what--it was closed in my
father’s time.”

“He must have been an old fool!” remarked the visitor.

“My lord!”

“I said your father must have been an old fool,” repeated his
lordship testily.

“You speak of my husband!” said Mistress Warlock, drawing herself
up with dignity.

“I can’t help that. _I_ didn’t give you away. Let’s have some supper,
will you? I want a tumbler of toddy, and without something to eat it
might make me drunk.”

Lady Joan sat silent, with a look half of contempt, half of
mischievous enjoyment on her handsome face. She had too often to
suffer from her father’s rudeness not to enjoy its bringing him
into a scrape. But the laird was sharper than she thought him, and
seeing both the old man’s condition and his mistake, humoured the
joke. His mother rose, trembling with indignation. He gave her his
arm, and conducted her to a stair which ascended immediately from
the kitchen, whispering to her on the way, that the man was the
worse of drink, and he must not quarrel with him. She retired
without leave-taking. He then called Cosmo and Agnes, who were
talking together in a low voice at the other end of the kitchen,
and taking them to Grizzie in the spare room, told them to help
her, that she might the sooner come and get the supper ready.

“I am afraid, my lord,” he said, returning, “we are but poorly
provided for such guests as your lordship, but we will do what we
can.”

“A horrible country!” growled his lordship; “but look you, I don’t
want jaw--I want drink.”

“What drink would your lordship have? If it be in my power--”

“I doubt, for all your talk, if you’ve got anything but your
miserable whisky!” interrupted Lord Mergwain.

Now the laird had some remnants of old wine in the once well stored
cellar, and, thankless as his visitor seemed likely to turn out,
his hospitality would not allow him to withhold what he had.

“I have a few bottles of claret,” he said, “--if it should not be
over-old!--I do not understand much about wine myself.”

“Let’s have it up,” cried his lordship. “We’ll see. If you don’t
know good wine, I do. I’m old enough for any wine.”

The laird would have had more confidence in recommending his port,
which he had been told was as fine as any in Scotland, but he
thought claret safer for one in his lordship’s condition--one who
having drunk would drink again. He went therefore to the wine
cellar, which had once been the dungeon of the castle, and brought
thence a most respectable-looking magnum, dirty as a burrowing
terrier, and to the eye of the imagination hoary with age. The eyes
of the toper glistened at the sight. Eagerly he stretched out both
hands towards it. They actually trembled with desire. Hardly could
he endure the delay of its uncorking. No sooner did the fine
promissory note of the discharge of its tompion reach his ear, than
he cried out, with the authority of a field-officer at least:

“Decant it. Leave the last glass in the bottom.”

The laird filled a decanter, and set it before him.

“Haven’t you a mangum-jug?”

“No, my lord.”

“Then fill another decanter, and mind the last glass.”

“I have not another decanter, my lord.”

“Not got two decanters, you fool?” sneered his lordship, enraged at
not having the whole bottle set down to him at once. “But after
all,” he resumed, “it mayn’t be worth a rush, not to say a
decanter. Bring the bottle. Set it down. Here!--Carefully! Bring a
glass. You should have brought the glasses first. Bring three; I
like to change my glass. Make haste, will you!”

The laird did make haste, smiling at the exigence of his visitor.
Lord Mergwain listened to the glug-glug in the long neck of the
decanter as if it had been a song of love, and the moment it was
over, was holding the glass to his nose.

“Humph! Not much aroma here!” he growled, “I ought to have made the
old fool”--the laird must have been some fifteen years younger than
he.--“set it down before the fire--only what would have become of
me while it was thawing? It’s no wonder though! By the time I’ve
been buried as long, I shall want thawing too!”

The wine, however, turned out more satisfactory to the palate of
the toper than to his nostrils--which in truth, so much had he
drunk that day, were at present incapable of doing it justice--and
he set himself to enjoy it. How that should be possible to a man
for whom the accompanying dried olives of memory could do so
little, I find it difficult to understand. One would think, to
enjoy his wine alone, a man must have either good memories or good
hopes: Lord Mergwain had forgotten the taste of hope; and most men
would shrink from touching the spring that would set a single scene
of such a panorama unrolling itself, as made up the past of Lord
Mergwain. However there he sat, and there he drank, and, truth to
tell, now and then smiled grimly.

The laird set a pair of brass candlesticks on the table--there were
no silver utensils any more in the house of Glenwarlock; years ago
the last of them had vanished--and retired to a wooden chair at the
end of the hearth, under the lamp that hung on the wall. But on his
way he had taken from a shelf an old, much-thumbed folio which Mr.
Simon had lent him--the journal of George Fox, and the panorama
which then for a while kept passing before his mind’s eye, was not
a little different from that passing before Lord Mergwain’s. What a
study to a spirit able to watch the unrolling of the two side by
side!

In a few minutes Grizzie entered, carrying a fowl newly killed, its
head almost touching the ground at the end of its long, limp neck.
She seated herself on a stool, somewhere about the middle of the
large space, and proceeded to pluck, and otherwise prepare it for
the fire. Having, last of all, split it open from end to end,
turning it into something like an illegible heraldic crest, she
approached the fire, the fowl in one hand, the gridiron in the
other.

“I doobt I maun get his lordship to sit a wee back frae the fire,”
she said. “I maun jist bran’er this chuckie for his supper.”

Lady Joan had taken Mrs. Warlock’s chair, and her father had taken
the laird’s, and pulled it right in front of the fire, where a
small deal table supported his bottle, his decanter, and his three
glasses.

“What does the woman mean?” said his lordship. “--Oh! I see; a
spread-eagle!--But is my room not ready yet? Or haven’t you one to
sit in? I don’t relish feasting my nose so much in advance of my
other senses.”

“Ow! nae fear o’ yer lordship’s nose, ’cep’ it be frae yer
lordship’s hose, my lord!” said Grizzie, “for I doobt ye’re
birstlin’ yer lordship’s shins! I’ll tak the cratur oot to the
cairt-shed, an’ sing’ ’t there first. But ’deed I wadna advise ye
to gang to yer room a minute afore ye need, for it winna be that
warm the nicht. I hae made a fire ’at’s baith big an’ bricht, an’
fit to ro’st Belzebub--an’ I beg yer pardon, laird--but it’s some
days--I micht say ooks--sin’ there was a fire intil ’t, an’ the
place needs time to tak the heat intil its auld neuks.”

She might have said years not a few, instead of some weeks, but her
truthfulness did not drive her so far. She turned, and left the
house, carrying with her the fowl to singe.

“Here,” said his lordship to his host, “move back this table and
chair a bit, will you? I don’t relish having the old witch fussing
about my knees. What a mistake it is not to have rooms ready for
whoever may come!”

The laird rose, laid his book down, and moved the table, then
helped his guest to rise, moved his chair, and placed the screen
again betwixt him and the door. Lord Mergwain re-settled himself to
his bottle.

In the meantime, in the guest-chamber, which had for so long
entertained neither friend nor stranger, Cosmo and Aggie were
busy--too busy to talk much--airing the linen, dusting the
furniture, setting things tidy, and keeping up a roaring fire. For
this purpose the remnants of an old broken-down cart, of which the
axle was anciently greasy, had been fetched from the winter-store,
and the wood and peats together, with a shovelful of coal to give
the composition a little body, had made a glorious glow. But the
heat had hardly yet begun to affect sensibly the general atmosphere
of the place. It was a large room, the same size as the
drawing-room immediately under it, and still less familiar to
Cosmo. For, if the latter filled him with a kind of loving awe, the
former caused him a kind of faint terror, so that, in truth, even
in broad daylight, at no time was he willing to enter it. Now and
then he would open the door in passing, and for a moment stand
peering in, with a stricken, breath-bating enjoyment of the vague
atmosphere of dread, which, issuing, seemed to envelope him in its
folds; but to go in was too much, and he neither desired nor
endured even the looking in for more than a few seconds. For so
long it was to him like a page in a book of horrors: to go to the
other end of it, and in particular to approach the heavily
curtained bed, was more than he cared to do without cogent reason.
At the same time he rejoiced to think there was such a room in the
house, and attached to it an idea of measureless value--almost as
if it had a mysterious window that looked out upon the infinite.
The cause of this feeling was not to himself traceable. Until old
Grannie’s story, he had heard no tale concerning it that he
remembered: he may have heard hints--a word dropped may have made
its impression, and roused fancies outlasting the memory of their
origin; for feelings, like memories of scents and sounds, remain,
when the related facts have vanished. What it was about the room
that scared him, he could not tell, but the scare was there. With a
companion like Aggie, however, even after hearing Grannie’s
terrible reminiscence, he was able to be in the room without
experiencing worse than that same milder, almost pleasant degree of
dread, caused by the mere looking through the door into the strange
brooding silence of the place. But, I must confess, this applies
only to the space on the side of the bed next the fire. The bed
itself--not to mention the shadowy region beyond it--on which the
body of the pirate had lain, he could not regard without a sense of
the awfully gruesome: itself looked scared at its own consciousness
of the fact, and of the feeling it caused in the beholder.

[Illustration: COSMO AND AGGIE DUSTING.]

In the strength of Aggie’s presence, he was now able to take a
survey of the room such as never before. Over walls, floor, and
ceiling, his eyes were wandering, when suddenly a question arose on
which he desired certainty: “Is there,” he said to himself, “a door
upo’ the ither side o’ the bed?”

“Did Grannie mak mention o’ sic a door?” he asked himself next, and
could not be certain of the answer. He gazed around him, and saw no
door other than that by which they had entered, but at the head of
the bed, on the other side, was a space hidden by the curtain: it
might be there! When they went to put the sheets on the bed, he
would learn! He dared not go till then! “Dare not!” he repeated to
himself--and went at once.

He saw and trembled. It was the strangest feeling. If it was not
fear, it was something very like it, but with a mixture of wondrous
pleasure: there was the door! The curtains hid Aggie, and for a
moment he felt as if he were miles alone, and must rush back to the
refuge of her presence. But he would not yield to the
folly--compelled himself to walk to the door.

Whether he was more disappointed or relieved, he could not, the
first instant, have told: instead of a door, scarcely leaning
against the wall, was an old dark screen, in stamped leather, from
which the gilding was long faded. Disappointment and not relief was
then his only sense.

“Aggie,” he called, still on the farther side of the bed--he called
gently, but trembled at the sound of his own voice--“did ye ever
hear--did Grannie mak mention o’ a door ’at the auld captain gaed
oot at?”

“Whisht, whisht!” cried Aggie, in a loud hissing whisper, which
seemed to pierce the marrow of Cosmo’s bones, “I rede ye say nae
thing aboot that i’ this chaumer. Bide till we’re oot o’ ’t: I hae
near dune. Syne we’ll steek the door, an’ lat the fire work. It’ll
hae eneuch adu afore it mak the place warm; the cauld intil this
room’s no a coamon ane. There’s something by ord’nar intil ’t.”

Cosmo could no longer endure having the great, old, hearse-like bed
between him and Aggie. With a shiver in the very middle of his
body, he hastened to the other side: there lay the country of air,
and fire, and safe earthly homeliness: the side he left was the
dank region of the unknown, whose march-ditch was the grave.

They hurried with the rest of their work. Aggie insisted on being
at the farther side of the bed when they made it. Not another word
was spoken between them, till they were safe from the room, and had
closed its door behind them.

They went up to Cosmo’s room, to make it something fitter for a
lady’s bower. Opening a certain chest, they took from it--stored
there by his mother, Cosmo loved to think--another set of curtains,
clean blankets, fine sheets, and a counterpane of silk patchwork,
and put them all on the bed. With these, a white toilet-cover, and
a chair or two from the drawing-room, they so changed the room that
Cosmo declared he would not have known it. They then filled the
grate with as much fuel as it would hold, and running fast down the
two stairs, went again to the kitchen. At the door of it, however,
Aggie gave her companion the slip, and set out to go back to her
grannie at Muir o’ Warlock.

Cosmo found the table spread for supper, the English lord sitting
with his wine before him, and the lady in his grandmother’s chair,
leaning back, and yawning wearily. Lord Mergwain looked muddled,
and his daughter cast on him now and then a look that had in it
more of annoyance than affection. He was not now a very pleasant
lord to look on, whatever he might once have been. He was red-faced
and blear-eyed, and his nose, partly from the snuff which he took
in large quantity, was much injured in shape and colour: a closer
description the historical muse declines. His eyes had once been
blue, but tobacco, potations, revellings day and night--everything
but tears, had washed from them almost all the colour. It added
much to the strange unpleasantness of his appearance, that he wore
a jet-black wig, so that to the unnatural came the untimely, and
enhanced the withered. His mouth, which was full of false teeth,
very white, and ill-fitting, had a cruel expression, and Death
seemed to look out every time he grinned.

As soon as he and Lady Joan were seated at the supper-table, with
Grizzie to wait upon them, the laird and Cosmo left the kitchen,
and went to the spare-room, for the laird judged that, in the
temper and mistake her father was in, the lady would be more
comfortable in their absence.

“Cosmo,” he said, standing with his back to the fire, when he had
again made it up, “I cannot help feeling as if I had known that man
before. But I can recall no circumstances, and it may be a mere
fancy. _You_ have never seen him before, my boy, have you?”

“I don’t think I have, papa; and I don’t care if I never see him
again,” answered Cosmo. “The lady is pretty, but not very pleasant,
I think, though she is a lord’s daughter.”

“Ah, but such a lord, Cosmo!” returned his father. “When a man goes
on drinking like that, he is no better than a cheese under the
spigot of a wine-cask; he lives to keep his body well soaked--that
it may be the nicer, or the nastier for the worms. Cosmo, my son,
don’t you learn to drown your soul in your body, like the poor Duke
of Clarence in the wine-butt.”

The material part of us ought to keep growing gradually thinner, to
let the soul out when its time comes, and the soul to keep growing
bigger and stronger every day, until it bursts the body at length,
as a growing nut does its shell; when, instead, the body grows
thicker and thicker, lessening the room within, it squeezes the
life out of the soul, and when such a man’s body dies, his soul is
found a shrivelled thing, too poor to be a comfort to itself or to
anybody else. Cosmo, to see that man drink, makes me ashamed of my
tumbler of toddy. And now I think of it, I don’t believe it does me
any good; and, just to make sure that I am in earnest, from this
hour I will take no more.--Then,” he added, after a short pause,
“I shall be pretty sure you will not take it.”

“Oh, papa!” cried Cosmo, “take your toddy all the same: I promise
you--and a Warlock will not break his word--never to taste strong
drink while I live.”

“I should prefer the word of a man to that of a Warlock,” said his
father. “A Warlock is nothing except he be a man. Some Warlocks
have been men.”

From that day, I may here mention, the laird drank nothing but
water, much to the pleasure of Peter Simon, who was from choice a
water-drinker.

“What a howling night it is, Cosmo!” he resumed. “If that poor old
drinker had tried to get on to Howglen, he would have been frozen
to death; when the drink is out of the drunkard, he has nothing to
resist with.”

By this time Lord Mergwain had had his supper, and had begun to
drink again. Grizzie wanted to get rid of him, that she might “redd
up” her kitchen. But he would not move. He was quite comfortable
where he was, he said, and though it was the kitchen! he wouldn’t
stir a peg till he had finished the magnum. My lady might go when
she pleased; the magnum was better company than the whole houseful!

Grizzie was on the point of losing her temper with him altogether,
when the laird returned to the kitchen. He found her standing
before him with her two hands on her two hips, and lingered a
moment at the door to hear what she was saying.

“Na, na, my lord!” expostulated Grizzie, “I canna lea’ ye here. Yer
lordship’ll sune be past takin’ care o’ yersel--no ’at ye wad be a
witch at it this present! Ye wad be thinkin’ ye was i’ yer bed whan
ye was i’ the mids’ o’ the middin’, or pu’in’ the blankets o’ the
denk dub ower yer heid! Lord! my lord, ye micht set the hoose o’
fire, an’ burn a’, baith stable an’ byre, an’ horses an’ cairts,
an’ cairt-sheds, an’ hiz a’ to white aisse in oor nakit beds!”

“Hold your outlandish gibberish,” returned his lordship. “Go and
fetch me some whisky. This stuff is too cold to go to sleep on in
such weather.”

“Deil a drap or drap o’ whusky, or oucht else, yer lordship s’ hae
frae my han’ this nicht--nae mair nor gien ye war a bairn ’at wantit
poother to blaw himsel’ up wi’! Ye hae had ower muckle a’ready,
gien ye war but cawpable o’ un’erstan’in’, or failin’ that, o’
believin’ an honest wuman ’at kens what state ye are in better nor
ye du yersel’.--A bonny lordship!” she muttered to herself as she
turned from him.

The laird thought it time to show himself, and went forward. Lord
Mergwain had understood not the half of what Grizzie said; but had
found sufficient provocation in the tone, and was much too angry
for any articulate attempt at speech beyond swearing.

“My lord,” said the laird, “I think you will find your room
tolerably comfortable now: shall I have the pleasure of showing you
the way?”

“No, indeed! I’m not going to stir. Fetch me a bottle of your
whisky--that’s pretty safe to be good.”

“Indeed, my lord, you shall have no more drink to-night,” said the
laird, and taking the bottle, which was nearly empty, carried it
from the table.

Though nearly past everything else, his guest was not yet too far
gone to swear with vigour, and the volley that now came pouring
from his outraged heart was such, that, for the sake of Grizzie and
Cosmo, the laird took the bottle again in his hand, and said, that,
if his lordship would drink it in his own room, he should have what
was left of it.

Not too drunk to see where his advantage lay, Lord Mergwain
yielded; the thunder of imprecation from bellowing sank to
growling, then to muttering, and the storm gradually subsided. The
laird gave him one arm, Cosmo another, and Grizzie came behind,
ready to support or push, and so in procession they moved from the
kitchen along the causeway, his lordship grumbling and slipping,
hauled, carried, and shoved--through the great door, as they called
it, up the stairs, past the drawing-room, and into “the muckle
chaumer.” There he was deposited in an easy chair, before the huge
fire, and was fast asleep in a moment. Lady Joan had followed them,
and while they were in her father’s room, had passed up to her
own, so that when they re-entered the kitchen, there was nobody
there. With a sigh of relief the laird sank into his mother’s
chair. After a little while, he sent Cosmo to bed, and, rejoicing
in the quiet, got again the journal of George Fox, and began to
read. When Grizzie had pottered about for a while, she too went to
bed, and the laird was alone.

When he had read about an hour, he thought it time to see after his
guest, and went to his room. He found him still asleep in his chair
before the fire; but he could not be left there through such a
night, for the fire would go out, and then a pack of wolves would
hardly be worse than the invading cold. It was by no means an easy
task to rouse him, however, and indeed remained in large measure
unaccomplished--so far so, that, after with much labour and
contrivance relieving him of his coat and boots, the laird had to
satisfy his hospitality with getting him into bed in the remainder
of his clothes. He then heaped fresh fuel on the fire, put out the
candles, and left him to what repose there might be for him.
Returning to his chair and his book, the laird read for another
hour, and then went to bed. His room was in the same block, above
that of his mother.




CHAPTER XV.

THAT NIGHT.


Cosmo’s temporary quarters were in one of two or three chambers
above his own, formerly occupied by domestics, when there were many
more of them about the place. He went to bed, but, after about
three hours, woke very cold--so cold that he could not go to sleep
again. He got up, heaped on his bed everything protective he could
find, and tried again. But it was of no avail. Cosmo could keep
himself warm enough in the open air, or if he could not, he did not
mind; but to be cold in bed was more than he would willingly
endure. He got up again--with an idea. Why should he not amuse
himself, rather than lie shivering on couch inhospitable? When
anything disturbed him of a summer night, as a matter of course he
got up and went out; and although naturally he was less inclined on
such a night as this, when the rooks would be tumbling dead from
the boughs of the fir-trees, he yet would, rather than lie
sleepless with cold.

On the opposite side of the court, in a gap between the stable and
the byre, the men had heaped up the snow from the rest of the yard,
and in the heap Cosmo had been excavating. For snow-balling he had
little inclination, but the snow as a plastic substance, a thing
that could be compelled into shapes, was an endless delight to him,
and in connection with this mound he had conceived a new fancy,
which, this very night, but for the interruption of their visitors,
he would already have put to the test.

Into the middle of the mound he had bored a tunnel, and then
hollowed out what I may call a negative human shape--the mould, as
it were, of a man, of life-size, with his arms thrown out, and his
feet stretched straight, like one that had fallen, and lay in
weariness. His object was to illuminate it, in the hope of “a man
all light, a seraph man,” shining through the snow. That very night
he had intended, on his return from Muir of Warlock, to light him
up; and now that he was driven out by the cold, he would brave, in his
own den, in the heart of the snow, the enemy that had roused
him, and make his experiment.

He dressed himself, crept softly out, and, for a preparation, would
have a good run. He trotted down the hill, beating his feet hard,
until he reached the more level road, where he set out at full
speed, and soon was warm as any boy need care to be.

About three o’clock in the morning, the laird woke suddenly,
without knowing why. But he was not long without knowing why he
should not go to sleep again. From a distance, as it seemed,
through the stillness of the night, in rapid succession, came three
distinct shrieks, one close on the other, as from the throat of a
human being in mortal terror. Never had such shrieks invaded his
ears. Whether or not they came from some part of his own house, he
could not tell. He sprung upon the floor, thinking first of his
boy, and next of the old man whom he had left drunk in his bed, and
dressed as fast as he could, expecting every moment a fresh assault
of horrible sound. But all he heard was the hasty running of far
off feet. He hurried down, passing carefully his mother’s door, but
listening as he passed, in the hope of finding she had not been
disturbed. He heard nothing, and went on. But in truth the old lady
lay trembling, too terrified to move or utter a sound. In the next
room he heard Grizzie moving, as if, like himself, getting up with
all speed. Down to the kitchen he ran, in haste to get out and
reach the great door. But when he opened the kitchen door, a
strange sight met his eyes, and for a moment arrested him.

The night was dark as pitch, for, though the snow had ceased to
fall, great clouds of it yet filled the vault of the sky, and
behind them was no moon from which any smallest glimmer might come
soaking through. But, on the opposite side of the court, the heap
of snow familiar to his eyes was shining with an unknown, a faint,
phosphorescent radiance. The whole heap was illuminated, and was
plainly visible: but the strangest thing was, that the core of the
light had a vague _shadowy_ resemblance--if one may use the word of a
shape of _light_--to the form of a man. There were the body and
out-stretched limbs of one who had cast himself supine in sorest
weariness, ready for the grave which had found him. The vision
flickered, and faded and revived, and faded again, while, in his
wonder forgetting for one brief moment the cries that had roused
him, the laird stood and gazed. It was the strangest, ghostliest
thing he had ever seen! Surely he was on the point of discovering
some phenomenon hitherto unknown! What Grizzie would have taken it
for, unhappily we do not know, for, just as the laird heard her
footsteps on the stair, and he was himself starting to cross the
frozen space between, the light, which had been gradually paling,
suddenly went out. With its disappearance he bethought himself, and
hurried towards the great door, with Grizzie now at his heels.

He opened it. All was still. Feeling his way in the thick darkness, he
went softly up the stair.

Cosmo had but just left the last remnants of his candle-ends
burning, and climbed glowing to his room, delighted with the
success of his experiment, when those quick-following, hideous
sounds rent the night, like flashes from some cloud of hellish
torture. His heart seemed to stand still. Without knowing why,
involuntarily he associated them with what he had been last about,
and for a moment felt like a murderer. The next he caught up his
light, and rushed from the room, to seek, like his father, that of
their guest.

As he reached the bottom of the first stair, the door of his own
room opened, and out came Lady Joan, with a cloak thrown over her
night-gown, and looking like marble, with wide eyes. But Cosmo felt it
was not she who had shrieked, and passing her without a second
look, led the way down, and she followed.

When the laird opened the door of the guest-chamber, there was his
boy in his clothes, with a candle in his hand, and the lady in her
night-gown, standing in the middle of the floor, and looking down
with dismayed countenances. There lay Lord Mergwain!--or was it but
a thing of nought--the deserted house, of a living soul? The face
was drawn a little to one side, and had a mingled expression, of
horror--which came from within, and of ludicrousness, which had an
outside formal cause. Upon closer investigation, the laird almost
concluded he was dead; but on the merest chance something must be
done. Cosmo seemed dazed, and Lady Joan stood staring with lost
look, more of fright than of sorrow, but there was Grizzie, peeping
through between them, with bright searching eyes! On her
countenance was neither dismay, anxiety, nor distraction. She
nodded her head now and then as she gazed, looking as if she had
expected it all, and here it was.

“Rin an’ fess het watter as fest ’s ye can, Grizzie,” said the
laird. “My dear Lady Joan, go and dress, or you will be frozen to
death. We will do all we can. Cosmo, get the fire up as quickly as
possible--it is not quite out. But first you and I must get him
into bed, and cover him up warm, and I will rub his hands and feet
till the hot water comes.”

As the laird said, everyone did. A pail of hot water was soon
brought, the fire was soon lighted, and the lady soon returned more
warmly clad. He made Grizzie put the pail on a chair by the
bed-side, and they got his feet in without raising him, or taking
him out of the blankets. Before long he gave a deep sigh, and
presently showed other signs of revival. When at length he opened
his eyes, he stared around him wildly, and for a moment it seemed
to all of them he had lost his reason. But the laird said he might
not yet have got over the drink he had taken, and if he could be
got to sleep, he would probably wake better. They therefore removed
some more of his clothes, laid him down again, and made him as
comfortable as they could, with hot bottles about him. The laird
said he would sit with him, and call Lady Joan if needful. To judge
by her behaviour, he conjectured such a catastrophe was not
altogether strange to her. She went away readily, more like one
relieved than anxious.

But there had arisen in the mind of the laird a fear: might not
Cosmo unwittingly have had some share in the frightful event? When
first he entered the room, there was Cosmo, dressed, and with a
light in his hand: the seeming phosphorescence in the snow must
have been one of his _ploys_, and might not that have been the source
of the shock to the dazed brain of the drinker?

His lordship was breathing more softly and regularly, though every
now and then half waking with a cry--a dreadful thing to hear from
a sleeping _old man_. They drew their chairs close to the fire and to
each other, and Cosmo, as was usual with him, laid his hand on his
father’s knee.

“Did you observe that peculiar appearance in the snow-heap, on the
other side of the court, Cosmo?” asked the laird.

“Yes, papa,” replied the boy: “I made it myself.” And therewith he
told him all about it. “You’re not vexed with me, are you, papa?”
he added, seeing the laird look grave.

“No, my son,” answered his father; “I am only uneasy lest that
should have had anything to do with this sad affair.”

“How could that be, papa?” asked Cosmo.

“He may have looked out of the window and seen it, and, in the
half-foolish state he was in, taken it for something supernatural.”

“But why should that have done him any harm?”

“It may have terrified him.”

“Why should it terrify him?” said Cosmo.

“There may be things we know nothing of,” replied his father, “to
answer that question. I cannot help feeling rather uneasy about
it.”

“Did _you_ see anything frightful about my man of light, papa?”
inquired Cosmo.

“No,” answered his father, thoughtfully; “but the thing, you see,
was in the shape of a man--a man lying at full length as if he were
dead, and indeed in his grave: he might take it for his wraith--an
omen of his coming end.”

“But he is an Englishman, papa, and the English don’t believe in
the second sight.”

“That does make it less likely.--Few lowlanders do.”

“Do you believe in it, papa?”

“Well, you see,” returned the laird, with a small smile, “I, like
yourself, am neither pure highlander nor pure lowlander, and the
natural consequence is, I am not very sure whether I believe in it
or not. I have heard stories difficult to explain.”

“Still,” said Cosmo, “my lord would be more to blame than me, for
no man with a good conscience would have been so frightened as that,
even if it had been his wraith.”

“That may be true;--still, a man cannot help being especially sorry
anything should happen to a stranger in his house. You and I,
Cosmo, would have our house a place of refuge.--But you had better
go to bed now. There is no reason in tiring two people, when one is
enough.”

“But, papa, I got up because I was so cold I could not sleep. If
you will let me, I would much rather sit with you. I shall be much
more comfortable here.”

That his son should have been cold in the night distressed the
laird. He felt as if, for the sake of strangers, he had neglected
his own--the specially sent. He would have persuaded Cosmo to go to
his father’s bed, which was in a warmer room, but the boy begged so
to be allowed to remain that he yielded.

They had talked in a low voice for fear of disturbing the sleeper,
and now were silent. Cosmo rolled himself in his plaid, lay down at
his father’s feet, and was soon fast asleep: with his father there,
the chamber had lost all its terrors, and was just like any other
home-feeling room of the house. Many a time in after years did that
night, that room, that fire, and the feeling of his father over his
head, while the bad lord lay snoring within the dark curtains, rise
before him; and from the memory he would try to teach himself,
that, if he were towards his great Father in his house as he was
then towards his earthly father in his, he would never fear
anything.

To know one’s-self as safe amid storm and darkness, amid fire and
water, amid disease and pain, even during the felt approach of
death, is to be a Christian, for that is how the Master felt in the
hour of darkness, because he knew it a fact.

All night long, at intervals, the old man moaned, and every now and
then would mutter sentences unintelligible to the laird, but sown
with ugly, sometimes fearful words. In the gray of the morning he
woke.

“Bring me brandy,” he cried in a voice of discontent.

The laird rose and went to him. When he saw the face above him, a
horror came upon his--a look like that they found frozen on it.

“Who are you?” he gasped. “Where am I?”

“You came here in the storm last night, my lord,” said the laird.

“Cursed place! I never had such horrible dreams in my life. Where
am I--do you hear? Why don’t you answer me?”

“You are at Castle Warlock, my lord,” replied the laird.

At this he shrieked, and, throwing off the clothes, sprung from the
bed.

“I entreat you, my lord, to lie down again. You were very ill in
the night,” expostulated the laird.

“I don’t stop another hour in the blasted hole!” roared his guest,
in a fierce quaver. “Out of my way you fool! Where’s Joan? Tell her
to get up and come directly. I’m off, tell her. I’d as soon go to
bed in the drifts as stop another hour in this abominable old
lime-kiln.”

The laird let him rave on: it was useless to oppose him. He flew at
his clothes to dress himself, but his poor old hands trembled with
rage, fear, drink, and eagerness. The laird did his best to help
him, but he seemed nowise recognizant.

“I will get you some hot water, my lord,” he said at length, and
was moving towards the door.

“No,--you!--everybody!” shrieked the old man. “If you go out of
that door, I will throw myself out of this window.”

The laird turned at once, and in silence waited on him like a
servant. “He must be in a fit of delirium tremens!” he said to
himself. He poured him out some cold water, but he would not use
it. He would neither eat nor drink nor wash till he was out of the
horrible dungeon, he said. The next moment he cried for water,
drank three mouthfuls eagerly, threw the tumbler from him, and
broke it on the hearth.

The instant he was dressed, he dropped into the great chair and
closed his eyes.

“Your lordship must allow me to fetch some fuel,” said the laird;
“the room is growing cold.”

“No, I tell you!” cried Lord Mergwain, opening his eyes and sitting
up. “When I’m cold I’ll go to--. If you attempt to leave the room,
I’ll send a bullet after you.--God have mercy! what’s that at my
feet?”

“It is only my son,” replied the laird gently. “We have been with
you all night--since you were taken ill, that is.”

“When was that? What do you mean by that?” he said, looking up
sharply, with a face of more intelligence than he had yet shown.

“Your lordship had some sort of fit in the night, and if you do not
compose yourself, I dread a return of it.”

“You well may, if I stop here,” he returned--then, after a pause,
“Did I talk?” he asked.

“Yes, my lord--a good deal.”

“What did I say?”

“Nothing I could understand, my lord.”

“And you did your best, I don’t doubt!” rejoined his lordship with
a sneer. “But you know nothing is to be made of what a man says in
a fit.”

“I have told your lordship I heard nothing.”

“No matter; I don’t sleep another night under your roof.”

“That will be as it may, my lord.”

“What do you mean?”

“Look at the weather, my lord.--Cosmo!”

The boy was still asleep, but at the sound of his name from his
father’s lips, he started at once to his feet.

“Go and wake Grizzie,” said the laird, “and tell her to get
breakfast ready as fast as she can. Then bring some peat for the
fire, and some hot water for his lordship.”

Cosmo ran to obey. Grizzie had been up for more than an hour, and
was going about with the look of one absorbed in a tale of magic
and devilry. Her mouth was pursed up close, as if worlds should not
make her speak, but her eyes were wide and flashing, and now and
then she would nod her head, as for the Q. E. D. to some unheard
argument. Whatever Cosmo required, she attended to at once, but not
one solitary word did she utter.

He went back with the fuel, and they made up the fire. Lord
Mergwain was again lying back exhausted in his chair, with his eyes
closed.

“Why don’t you give me my brandy--do you hear?” all at once he
cried. “--Oh, I thought it was my own rascal! Get me some brandy,
will you?”

“There is none in the house, my lord,” said his host.

“What a miserable sort of public to keep! No brandy!”

“My lord, you are at Castle Warlock--not so good a place for your
lordship’s needs.”

“Oh, that’s it, yes! I remember! I knew your father, or your
grandfather, or your grandson, or somebody--the more’s my curse!
Out of this I must be gone, and that at once! Tell them to put the
horses to. Little I thought when I left Cairntod where I was going
to find myself! I would rather be in--and have done with it! Lord!
Lord! to think of a trifle like that not being forgotten yet! Are
there no doors out? Give me brandy, I say. There’s some in my
pocket somewhere. Look you! I don’t know what coat I had on
yesterday! or where it is!”

He threw himself back in his chair. The laird set about looking if
he had brought the brandy of which he spoke; it might be well to
let him have some. Not finding it, he would have gone to search the
outer garments his lordship had put off in the kitchen; but he
burst out afresh:

“I tell you--and confound you, I see that you have to be told
twice--I will not be left alone with that child! He’s as good as
nobody! What could _he_ do if--” Here he left the sentence
unfinished.

“Very well, my lord,” responded the laird, “I will not leave you.
Cosmo shall go and look for the brandy-flask in your lordship’s
greatcoat.”

“Yes, yes, good boy! you go and look for it. You’re all Cosmos, are
you? Will the line never come to an end! A cursed line for me--if
it shouldn’t be a rope-line! But I had the best of the game after
all!--though I did lose my two rings. Confounded old cheating son
of a porpus! It was doing the world a good turn, and Glenwarlock a
better to--Look you! what are you listening there for!--Ha! ha! ha!
I say, now--would you hang a man, laird--I mean, when you could get
no good out of it--not a ha’p’orth for yourself or your family?”

“I’ve never had occasion to consider the question,” answered the
laird.

“Ho! ho! haven’t you? Let me tell you it’s quite time you
considered it. It’s no joke when a man has to decide without time
to think. He’s pretty sure to decide wrong.”

“That depends, I should think, my lord, on the way in which he has
been in the habit of deciding.”

“Come now! none of your Scotch sermons to me! You Scotch always
were a set of down-brown hypocrites! Confound the whole nation!”

“To judge by your last speech, my lord,--”

“Oh, by my last speech, eh? By my dying declaration? Then I tell
you ’tis fairer to judge a man by anything sooner than his speech.
That only serves to hide what he’s thinking. I wish I might be
judged by mine, though, and not by my deeds. I’ve done a good many
things in my time I would rather forget, now age has clawed me in
his clutch. So have you; so has everybody. I don’t see why I should
fare worse than the rest.”

Here Cosmo returned with the brandy-flask, which he had found in
his greatcoat. His lordship stretched out both hands to it, more
eagerly even than when he welcomed the cob-webbed magnum of
claret--hands trembling with feebleness and hunger for strength.
Heedless of his host’s offer of water and a glass, he put it to his
mouth, and swallowed three great gulps hurriedly. Then he breathed
a deep breath, seemed to say with Macbeth, “Ourselves again!” drew
himself up in a chair, and glanced around him with a look of
gathering arrogance. A kind of truculent question was in his
eyes--as much as to say, “Now then, what do you make of it all?
What’s your candid notion about me and my extraordinary behaviour?”
After a moment’s silence,--

“What puzzles me is this,” he said, “how the deuce I came, of all
places, to come just here! I don’t believe, in all my wicked
life, I ever made such a fool of myself before--and I’ve made many
a fool of myself too!”

Receiving no answer, he took another pull at his flask. The laird
stood a little behind and watched him, harking back upon old
stories, putting this and that together, and resolving to have a
talk with old Grannie.

A minute or two more, and his lordship got up, and proceeded to
wash his face and hands, ordering Cosmo about after the things he
wanted, as if he had been his valet.

“Richard’s himself again!” he said in a would-be jaunty voice, the
moment he had finished his toilet, and looked in a crow-cocky kind
of a way at the laird. But the latter thought he saw trouble still
underneath the look.

“Now, then, Mr. Warlock, where’s this breakfast of yours?” he said.

“For that, my lord,” replied the laird, “I must beg you to come to
the kitchen. The dining-room in this weather would freeze the very
marrow of your bones.”

“And look you! it don’t want freezing,” said his lordship, with a
shudder. “The kitchen to be sure!--I don’t desire a better place.
I’ll be hanged if I enter this room again!” he muttered to
himself--not too low to be heard. “My tastes are quite as simple as
yours, Mr. Warlock, though I have not had the same opportunity of
indulging them.”

He seemed rapidly returning to the semblance of what he would have
called a gentleman.

He rose, and the laird led the way. Lord Mergwain followed; and
Cosmo, coming immediately behind, heard him muttering to himself
all down the stairs: “Mere confounded nonsense! Nothing whatever
but the drink!--I must say I prefer the day-light after all.--Yes!
that’s the drawing-room.--What’s done’s done--and more than done,
for it can’t be done again!”

It was a nipping and an eager air into which they stepped from the
great door. The storm had ceased, but the snow lay much deeper, and
all the world seemed folded in a lucent death, of which the white
mounds were the graves. All the morning it had been snowing busily,
for no footsteps were between the two doors but those of Cosmo.

When they reached the kitchen, there was a grand fire on the
hearth, and a great pot on the fire, in which the porridge Grizzie
had just made was swelling in huge bubbles that burst in sighs. Old
Grizzie was bright as the new day, bustling and deedy. Her sense of
the awful was nowise to be measured by the degree of her dread: she
believed and did not fear--much. She had an instinctive
consciousness that a woman ought to be, and might be, and was a
match for the devil.

“I am sorry we have no coffee for your lordship,” said the laird,
“To tell the truth, we seldom take anything more than our country’s
porridge. I hope you can take tea? Our Grizzie’s scons are good,
with plenty of butter.”

His lordship had in the meantime taken another pull at the
brandy-flask, and was growing more and more polite.

“The man would be hard to please,” he said, “who would not be
enticed to eat by such a display of good victuals. Tea for me,
before everything!--How am I to pretend to swallow the stuff?” he
murmured, rather than muttered, to himself.--“But,” he went on
aloud, “didn’t that cheating rascal leave you--”

He stopped abruptly, and the laird saw his eyes fixed upon
something on the table, and following their look, saw it was a
certain pepper-pot, of odd device--a piece of old china, in the
shape of a clumsily made horse, with holes between the ears for the
issue of the pepper.

“I see, my lord,” he said, “you are amused with the pepper-pot. It
is a curious utensil, is it not? It has been in the house a long
time--longer than anybody knows. Which of my great-grandmothers let
it take her fancy, it is impossible to say; but I suppose the
reason for its purchase, if not its manufacture, was, that a horse
passant has been the crest of our family from time immemorial.”

“Curse the crest, and the horse too!” said his lordship.

The laird started. His guest had for the last few minutes been
behaving so much like a civilized being, that he was not prepared
for such a sudden relapse into barbarity. But the entrance of Lady
Joan, looking radiant, diverted the current of things.

The fact was, that, like not a few old people, Lord Mergwain had
fallen into such a habit of speaking in his worse moods without the
least restraint, that in his better moods, which were indeed only
good by comparison, he spoke in the same way, without being aware
of it, and of himself seldom discovering that he had spoken.

The rest of the breakfast passed in peace. The visitors had tea,
oatcake, and scons, with fresh butter and jam; and Lady Joan, for
all the frost and snow, had yet a new-laid egg--the only one; while
the laird and Cosmo ate their porridge and milk--the latter very
scanty at this season of the year, and tasting not a little of
turnip--and Grizzie, seated on a stool at some distance from the
table, took her porridge with treacle. Mrs. Warlock had not yet
left her room.

When the meal was over, Lord Mergwain turned to his host, and said,

“Will you oblige me, Mr. Warlock, by sending orders to my coachman
to have the horses put to as quickly as possible: we must not
trespass more on your hospitality.--Confound me if I stop an hour
longer in this hole of a place, though it be daylight!”

“Papa!” cried Lady Joan.

His lordship understood, looked a little confused, and with much
readiness sought to put the best face on his blunder.

“Pardon me, Mr. Warlock,” he said; “I have always had a bad habit
of speech, and now that I am an old man, I don’t improve on it.”

“Don’t mention it, my lord,” returned the laird. “I will go and see
about the carriage; but I am more than doubtful.”

He left the kitchen, and Cosmo followed him. Lord Mergwain turned
to his daughter and said,

“What does the man mean? I tell you, Joan, I am going at once. So
don’t you side with him if he wants us to stop. He may have his
reasons. I knew this confounded place before you were born, and I
hate it.”

“Very good, papa!” replied Lady Joan, with a slight curl of her
lip. “I don’t see why you should fancy I should like to stop.”

They had spoken aloud, regardless of the presence of Grizzie.

“May it be lang afore ye’re in a waur an’ a warmer place, my lord
an’ my lady,” said the old woman, with the greatest politeness of
manner she knew how to assume. When people were rude, she thought
she had a right to be rude in return. But they took no more notice
than if they had not heard.




CHAPTER XVI.

THROUGH THE DAY.


It was a glorious morning. The wind had fallen quite, and the sun
was shining as if he would say, “Keep up your hearts; I am up here
still. I have not forgotten you. By and by you shall see more of
me.” But Nature lay dead, with a great white sheet cast over face
and form. Not dead?--Just as much dead as ever was man, save for
the inner death with which he kills himself, and which she cannot
die. It is only to the eyes of his neighbours that the just man
dies: to himself, and to those on the other side, he does not die,
but is born instead: “He that liveth and believeth in me shall
never die.” But the poor old lord felt the approaching dank and
cold of the sepulchre as the end of all things to him--if indeed he
would be permitted to lie there, and not have to get up and go to
worse quarters still.

“I am sorry to have to tell you, my lord,” said the laird,
re-entering, “that both our roads and your horses are in such a
state that it is impossible you should proceed to-day.”

His guest turned white through all the discoloration of his
countenance. His very soul grew too white to swear. He stood
silent, his pendulous under lip trembling.

“Though the wind fell last night,” resumed the laird, “the snow
came on again before the morning, and it seems impossible you
should get through. To attempt it would be to run no small risk of
your lives.”

“Joan,” said Lord Mergwain, “go and tell the rascal to put the
horses to.”

Lady Joan rose at once, took her shawl, put it over her head, and
went. Cosmo ran to open the door for her. The laird looked on, and
said not a word: the headstrong old man would find the thing could
not be done!

“Will you come and find the coachman for me, Cosmo?” said Lady Joan
when they reached the door--with a flash of her white teeth and her
dark eyes that bewitched the boy. Then first, in the morning light,
and the brilliance of the snow-glare, he saw that she was
beautiful. When the shadows were dark about her, the darkness of
her complexion obscured itself; against the white sheen she stood
out darkly radiant. Specially he noted the long eyelashes that made
a softening twilight round the low horizon-like luminousness of her
eyes.

Through the deep snow between the kitchen and the stable, were none
but his father’s footsteps. He cast a glance at her small feet,
daintily shod in little more than sandals: she could not put down
one of them anywhere without sinking beyond her ankle!

“My lady,” he said, “you’ll get your feet soaking wet! They’re so
small, they’ll just dibble the snow! Please ask your papa if I
mayn’t go and give his message. It will do just as well.”

“I must go myself,” she answered. “Sometimes he will trust nobody
but me.”

“Stop then a moment,” said Cosmo. “Just come to the drawing-room. I
won’t keep you more than two minutes. The path there, you see, is
pretty well trodden.”

He led the way, and she followed.

The fire was alight, and burning well; for Grizzie, foreseeing how
it must be, and determined she would not have strangers in the
kitchen all day, had lighted it early. Lady Joan walked straight to
it, and dropped, with a little shiver, into a chair beside it. To
Cosmo the sight of the blaze brought a strange delight, like the
discovery of a new loveliness in an old friend. To Lady Joan the
room looked old-fashioned dreariness itself, to Cosmo an ancient
marvel, ever fresh.

He left her, and ran to his own room, whence presently he returned
with a pair of thick woollen stockings, knitted in green and red by
the hands of his grandmother. These he carried to Lady Joan, where
she sat on the low chair, and kneeling before her, began, without
apology or explanation, to draw one of them over the dainty foot
placed on the top of the other in front of the fire. She gave a
little start, and half withdrew her foot; then looking down at the
kneeling figure of service before her, recognized at once the
utterly honest and self-forgetful earnestness of the boy, and
submitted. Carefully he drew the stockings on, and she neither
opposed nor assisted him. When he had done, he looked up in her
face with an expression that seemed to say--“There now! can’t I do
it properly?” but did not speak. She thanked him, rose, and went
out, and Cosmo conducted her to the stable, where he heard the
coachman, as she called him, not much better than a stable-boy,
whistling. She gave him her father’s order.

[Illustration: “COSMO CONDUCTED HER TO THE STABLE.”]

The lad stared with open mouth, and pointed to one of the stalls.
There stood an utterly wretched horse, swathed in a cloth, with his
head hanging down, heedless of the food before him. It was clear no
hope lay there. She turned and looked at Cosmo.

“The better for us, my lady!” replied Cosmo to her look; “we shall
have your beautiful eyes the longer! They were lost in the dark
last night, because they are made out of it, but now we see them,
we don’t want to part with them.”

She looked at him and smiled, saying to herself the boy would be
dangerous by and by, and together they went back to the kitchen,
where since they left, not a word had been spoken. Grizzie was
removing the breakfast things; Lord Mergwain was seated by the
fire, staring into it; and the laird had got his Journal of George
Fox, and was reading diligently: when nothing was to be done, the
deeper mind of the laird grew immediately active.

When Lady Joan entered, her father sat up straight in his chair: he
expected opposition!

“One of the horses, my lord, is quite unfit,” she said.

“Then, by my soul! we’ll start with the other,” he replied, in a
tone that sounded defiance to heaven or earth or whatever said him
nay.

“As your lordship pleases,” returned Joan.

“My lord,” said the laird, lowering his book to his knee, “if I
thought four cart-horses would pull you through to Howglen
to-night, you should have them; but you would simply stick fast,
horses and all, in the snow-wreaths.”

The old man uttered an exclamation with an awful solemnity, and
said no more, but collapsed, and sat huddled up, staring into the
fire.

“You must just make the best of your quarters here; they are
entirely at your service, my lord,” said the laird. “We shall not
starve. There are sheep on the place, pigs and poultry, and plenty
of oatmeal, though very little flour. There is milk too--and a
little wine, and I think we shall do well enough.”

Lord Mergwain made no answer, but in his silence seemed to be
making up his mind to the ineludible.

“Have you any more of that claret?” he asked.

“Not much, I am sorry to say,” answered the laird, “but it is your
lordship’s while it lasts.”

“If this lasts, I shall drink your cellar dry,” rejoined his
lordship with a feeble grin. “I may as well make a clean breast of
it. From my childhood I have never known what it was not to be
thirsty. I believe thirst to be the one unfailing birth-mark of the
family. I was what the methodists call a drunkard before I was
born. My father died of drink. So did my grandfather. You must have
some pity on me, if I should want more than seems reasonable. The
only faculty ever cultivated in our strain was drinking, and I am
sorry to say it has not been brought to perfection yet. Perfection
is to get drunk and never know it; but I have bad dreams, sir! I
have bad dreams! And the worst of it is, if once I have a bad
dream, I am sure to have it again; and if it come first in a
strange place, it will come every night until I leave that place. I
had a very bad one last night, as you know. I grant it came because
I drank too much yesterday, but that won’t keep it from coming
again to-night.”

He started to his feet, the muscles of his face working frightfully.

“Send for your horses, Mr. Warlock,” he cried. “Have them put to at
once. Four of them, you said. At once--at once! Out of this I must
go. If it be to ---- itself, go I must and will.”

“My lord,” said the laird, “I cannot send you from my house in this
weather. As my guest, I am bound to do my best for you; especially
as I understand the country, and you do not. I said you should have
my horses if I thought they could take you through, but I do not
think it. Besides, the change, in my judgment, is a deceitful one,
and this night may be worse than the last. Poor as your
accommodation is, it is better than the open road between this and
Howglen; though, doubtless, before to-morrow morning you would be
snug in the heart of a snow-wreath.”

“Look here, sir,” said Lord Mergwain, and rising, he went up to the
laird, and laid his hand on his shoulder; “if I stop, will you give
me another room, and promise to share it with me to-night? I am
aware it is an odd request to make, but, as I tell you, we have
been drinking for generations, and my nerves are the worse for it.
It’s rather hard that the sins of the fathers should be visited on
the children! Before God, I have enough to do with my own, let
alone my fathers’! Every one should bear his own burden. I can’t
bear mine. If I could, it’s not much my fathers’ would trouble me!”

“My lord, I will do anything I can for you--anything but consent to
your leaving Castle Warlock to-day.”

“You will spend the night with me then?”

“I will.”

“But not in that room, you know.”

“Anywhere you please in the house, my lord, except my mother’s
room.”

“Then I’ll stop.--Joan, you may amuse yourself; we are not going
till to-morrow.”

The laird smiled; he could not flatter himself with the hope of so
speedy a departure. Joan turned to Cosmo.

“Will you take me about the place?” she said.

“If you mean in-doors,” interposed the laird. “It is a curious old
house, and might interest you a little.”

“I should like nothing better. May I go with Cosmo?”

“Certainly: he will be delighted to attend your ladyship.--Here are
the keys of the cabinets in the drawing-room, Cosmo. Her ladyship
may like to look at some of their contents.”

“I hardly know enough about them,” returned Cosmo. “Won’t you come
yourself, father, and show them to us?”

It was the first time the boy used the appellation.

“If they are not worth looking at in themselves, the facts about
them cannot be of much consequence, my boy,” answered the laird.

He was unwilling to leave Lord Mergwain. Lady Joan and Cosmo went
without him.

“Perhaps we may follow you by and by,” said the laird.

“Is the place very old, Cosmo?” asked Lady Joan on their way.

“Nobody knows how old the oldest part of it is,” answered Cosmo,
“though dates are assigned to the most of what you will see to-day.
But you must ask my father; I do not know much of the history of
it. I know the place itself, though, as well as he does. I fancy I
know nearly every visible stone of it.”

“You are very fond of it, then?”

“There never could be any place like it to me, my lady. I know it
is not very beautiful, but I love it none the less for that. I
sometimes think I love it the more for its ruggedness--ugliness, if
you please to call it so. If my mother had not been beautiful, I
should love her all the same.”--“and think there wasn’t anybody
like her,” he was going to add, but checked himself, remembering
that of course there was not.

Arrived in the drawing-room, whither Cosmo led her first, Lady Joan
took her former place by the fire, and sat staring into it. She did
not know what to make of what she saw and heard. How _could_ people
be happy, she thought, in such a dreary, cold, wretched country,
with such poverty-stricken home-surroundings, and nothing to amuse
them from one week’s end to another? Yet they seemed to be happy to
a degree she knew nothing of! For alas, her home was far from a
blessed one; and as she had no fountain open in herself, but looked
entirely to foreign supply for her life-necessities, and as such
never can be so supplied, her life was not a flourishing one.

There are souls innumerable in the world, as dry as the Sahara
desert--souls which, when they look most gay and summer-like, are
only flaunting the flowers gathered from other people’s gardens,
stuck without roots into their own unproducing soil. Oh, the
dreariness, the sandy sadness of such poor arid souls! They are
hungry, and eat husks; they are thirsty, and drink hot wine; their
sleep is a stupor, and their life, if not an unrest, then a yielded
decay. Only when praised or admired do they feel as if they lived!
But Joan was not yet of such. She had had too much discomfort to
have entered yet into their number. There was water not yet far
from the surface of her consciousness.

With no little pleasure and some pride, Cosmo proceeded to take the
family treasures from their shelves; but, alas! most of them were
common to the eyes of one who also had a family and a history,
lived in a much larger, if not half so old a house, and had had
amongst her ancestors more than one with a liking for antiquities,
oddities, and _bibelots_. Lady Joan regarded them listlessly, willing
to seem to attend to the boy, but, with her thoughts far away,
while now and then she turned a weary gaze towards the next window:
all she saw thence was a great, mounded country, dreary as sunshine
and white cold could make it. Storm, driving endless whirls of
spectral snow, would have been less dreary to her than the smiling
of this cold antagonism. It was a picture of her own life. Evil
greater than she knew had spread a winter around her. If her father
suffered for the sins of his fathers, she suffered for his, and had
for them to dwell in desolation and loneliness.

One thing after another Cosmo brought her, but none of them seemed
much to interest her. She knew the sort of most of them.

“This is said to be solid silver,” he remarked, as he laid on a
chair beside her a curious little statuette of a horse, trapped and
decorated in Indian graving, and having its whole surface covered
with an involved and rich ornamental design. Its eyes were, or
seemed to be rubies, and saddle and bridle and housing were studded
with small gems. There was little merit in the art of it beyond the
engraving, but Cosmo saw the eyes of the lady fixed upon it, with a
strange look in them.

“That is the only thing they say the old captain ever gave his
brother, my great-grand-father,” said Cosmo. “But I beg your
pardon,” he added, “I have never told you the story of the old
captain!”

The boy already felt as if he had known their guest of a night for
years; the hearts of the young are divinely hospitable, which is
one of the things that make children the _such_ of the kingdom of
heaven.

Lady Joan took the horse in her hand, and looked at it more
closely.

“It is very heavy!” she remarked.

“It is said to be solid silver,” repeated Cosmo.

She laid it down, and put her hand to her forehead, but said
nothing.

They heard the steps and voices of the two gentlemen ascending the
stair. Lady Joan caught up the horse, rose hastily, and holding it
out to Cosmo, said,

“Quick! quick! put it away. Don’t let my father see it.”

Cosmo cast on her one look of surprise, and obeyed at once,
restored it to its place, and had just closed the doors of the
cabinet, when Lord Mergwain and his father entered the room.

They were a peculiar-looking pair--Lord Mergwain in antiquated
dress, not a little worn, and neither very clean nor in very good
condition--a snuffy, dilapidated, miserable, feeble old man, with a
carriage where doubt seemed rooted in apprehension, every other
moment casting about him a glance of enquiry, as if an evil spirit
came running to the mouth of his eye-caves, looked out, and
retreated; and the laird behind him, a head higher, crowned with
his red night-cap, and dressed as I have already described, looking
older than his years, but bearing on his face the repose of
discomfort accepted, his eye keen and clear, and, when turned on
his guest, filled with compassion rather than hospitality. He was
walking more erect than usual, either in recognition of the lady’s
presence, or from a feeling of protection towards her father.

“Now, my lord,” he said, as they advanced from the door, “we will
set you in a warm corner by the fire, and you must make the best of
it. We can’t have things all as we should like them. That is not
what the world was made for.”

His lordship returned him no answer, but threw a queer look from
under his black wig--a look of superior knowledge--of the wisdom of
this world.

“You are an old fool,” it said; “but you are master here! Ah! how
little you know!”

He walked tottering to the fire where Cosmo had already set for him
a chair. Something in the look of it displeased him. He glanced
round the room.

“Fetch me that chair, my boy,” he said, not unkindly, and Cosmo
hastened to substitute the one he indicated. The laird placed a
tall screen behind it. His lordship dropped into the chair, and
began to rub his knees with his hands, and gaze into the fire. Lady
Joan rearranged her skirts, and for a moment the little circle
looked as if each was about to settle down to some mild enjoyment
of the others. Cosmo drew a chair as near Lady Joan as he judged
politeness would permit. The laird made up the fire, and turned
away, saying he must go and see the sick horse.

“Mr. Warlock!” said Lord Mergwain, and spoke with a snarl, “you
will not deprive us of the only pleasure we have--that of your
company?”

“I shall be back in a few minutes, my lord,” replied his host; and
added, “I must see about lunch too.”

“That was wonderful claret!” said his lordship, thoughtfully.

“I shall see to the claret, my lord.”

“If I _might_ suggest, let it be brought here. A gentle airing under
my own eye, just an introduction to the fire, would improve what is
otherwise perfect.--And look here,” he added, as, with a kindly bow
of assent, the laird was going, “--you haven’t got a pack of cards,
have you?”

“I believe there is a pack somewhere in the house,” replied the
laird, “but it is very old, and I fear too much soiled for your
lordship’s hands.”

“Oh, confound the dirt!” said his lordship. “Let us have them.
They’re the only thing to make the time pass.”

“Have you a library?” asked Lady Joan--mainly to say something, for
she was not particularly fond of books; like most people she had
not yet learned to read.

“What do you want with a library?” growled her father. “Books are
nothing but a pack of lies, not half so good for killing time as a
pack of cards. You’re going to play a rubber, not to read books!”

“With pleasure, papa,” responded Lady Joan.

“_I_ don’t want to kill the time. I should like to keep it alive
for ever,” said Cosmo, with a worshipping look at the beautiful
lady--a summer-bird of heaven that had strayed into their lonely
winter.

“Hold your tongue; you are an idiot!” said his lordship angrily.
“--Old and young,” he went on, unaware of utterance, “the breed is
idiotic. ’Tis time it were played out.”

Cosmo’s eyes flashed. But the rudesby was too old to be served as
he had served the schoolmaster! He was their guest too, and the
father of the lady by his side!

The hand of the lady stole to his, and patting it gently, said, as
plainly as if it had been her mouth, “Don’t mind him; he is an old
man, and does not know what he is saying.” He looked up in her
face, and his anger was gone.

“Come with me,” he said, rising; “I will show you what books we
have. There may be one you would like another time. We shall be
back before the cards come.”

“Joan!” cried her father, “sit still.”

She glanced an appeal for consideration to Cosmo, and did not move.
Cosmo sat down again. A few minutes passed in silence. Father and
daughter stared into the fire. So did Cosmo. But into what
different three worlds did the fire stare! The old man rose and
went to the window.

“I _must_ get away from this abominable place,” he said, “if it cost
me my life.”

He looked out and shuddered. The world seemed impassable as a dead
world on which the foot of the living could take no hold, could
measure no distance, make no progress. Not a print of man or of
beast was visible. It was like a world not yet discovered.

“I am tied to the stake; I hear the fire roaring!” he muttered. “My
fate has found me--caught me like a rat, and is going to make an
end of me! In my time nobody believed such things! Now they seem to
be coming into fashion again!”

Whoever would represent what is passing in a mind, must say more
than the man himself knows how to say.

The laird re-entered.

“Well, have you brought the cards?” said Lord Mergwain, turning
from the window.

“I have, my lord. I am sorry it is such a poor pack, but we never
play.--I think, Cosmo, you had better come with me.”

“Hold you, laird, we’re going to have a rubber!”

“Cosmo does not understand the game.”

“I will teach him,” said Lady Joan. “He shall be live dummy for a
few rounds; that will be enough.”

“My lord will not care to play for counters,” persisted the laird,
“and we cannot play for money.”

“I don’t care what the points are,” said Lord Mergwain, “--sixpence,
if you like--so long as it is money. None but a fool cares for
victory where nothing is to be got by it.”

“I am sorry to disappoint your lordship,” returned the laird, “but
play for money neither my son nor myself will. But perhaps you
would like a game of draughts, or backgammon?”

“Will you bet on the game or the gammon?”

“On nothing, my lord.”

“Oh, confound you!”

He turned again and went to the window.

“This is frightful!” he said to himself. “Nothing whatever to help
one to forget! If the day goes on like this, I shall out with
everything.--Maybe I had better!--How the clodpoles would stare! I
believe I should laugh in the middle of it.--And that fellow
lurking somewhere all the time about the place, watching his chance
when the night comes!--It’s horrible. I shall go mad!” This last he
spoke aloud.

“Papa!” said his daughter sharply.

Lord Mergwain started, and looked troubled. What he might have
uttered, he could not tell.

“A rubber, then,” he said, approaching the fire again, “--on any
terms, or no terms at all!”

He took up the cards.

“Ha, there’s blood on them,” he cried, and dashing them on the
table, turned once more to the window.

He was like a bird in a cage that knows he cannot get out, and yet
keeps trying, as if he dared not admit the impossibility. Twenty
times that morning he went to the window, saying, “I must get out
of this!” and returned again to his seat by the fire. The laird had
removed the pack, and he said nothing more about a rubber. Lady
Joan tried to talk, and Cosmo did his best to amuse her. The laird
did his endeavour with his lordship, but with small success. And so
the morning crept away. It might have been a pleasant one to the
rest, but for the caged lord’s misery. At last came Grizzie.

“Sir, an’ my lord,” she said, “come ye doon the stair. The kail’s
het, an’ the cheirs is set, an’ yer denner’s waitin’ ye there.”

It may have been already observed, that to Grizzie came not
unfrequently an odd way of riming what she said. She was unaware of
this peculiarity. The suggestion of sound by sound was as hidden
from her as it was deep-seated in her and strong. And this was not
all: the riming might have passed unperceived by others too, but
for the accompanying tendency to rhythm as well. Nor was this by
any means all yet: there was in her a great leaning to poetic
utterance generally, and that arising from a poetic habit of
thought. She had in her everything essential to the making of a
poetess; yet of the whole she was profoundly ignorant; and had any
one sought to develop the general gift, I believe all would have
shrunk back into her being.

The laird rose and offered his arm to Lady Joan. Lord Mergwain gave
a grunt, and looked only a little pleased at the news: no
discomfort or suffering, mental or spiritual, made him indifferent
to luncheon or dinner--for after each came the bottle; but the
claret had not been brought to the drawing-room as he had
requested!

When they reached the kitchen, he looked first eagerly, then
uneasily round him: no bottle, quart or magnum was to be seen! A
cloud gathered, lowering and heavy, on the face of the toper. The
laird saw it, remembered that, in his anxiety to amuse him, he had
forgotten his dearest delight, and vanished in the region behind.

Mrs. Warlock, according to her custom, was already seated at the
head of the table. She bowed just her head to his lordship, and
motioned him to a chair on her right hand. He took it with a
courteous acknowledgment, of which he would hardly have been
capable, had he not guessed on what errand his host was gone: he
had no recollection of having given her offence.

“I hope your ladyship is well this morning?” he said.

“Ye revive an auld custom, my lord,” returned his hostess, not
without sign of gratification, “--clean oot o’ fashion noo-a-days,
excep’ amang the semple. A laird’s wife has no richt to be ca’d _my
leddy_, ’cep’ by auncient custom.”

“Oh, if you come to that,” returned his lordship, “three fourths of
the titles in use are merely of courtesy. Joan there has no more
right than yourself to be called _my lady_. Neither has my son
Borland the smallest right to the title; it is mine, and mine only,
as much as Mergwain.”

The old lady turned her head, and fixed a stolen but searching gaze
on her guest, and to the end of the meal took every opportunity of
regarding him unobserved. Her son from the other end of the table
saw her looks, and guessed her suspicions; saw also that she did
not abate her courtesy, but little thought to what her calmness was
owing.

Mrs. Warlock, ready to welcome anything marvellous, had held with
Grizzie much conference concerning what had passed in the
night--one accidental result of which was the disappearance for the
time of all little rivalries and offences between them in the
common interest of an awful impending denouement. She had never
heard, or had forgotten the title to which Lord Borland of the old
time was heir; and now that all doubt as to the identity of the man
was over, although, let her strain her vision as she might, she
could not, through the deformation of years, descry the youthful
visage, she felt that all action on the part of the generation in
possession was none the less forestalled and precluded by the
presence of one in the house who had evidently long waited his
arrival, and had certainly but begun his reprisals. More would be
heard ere the next dawn, she said to herself; and with things in
such a train she would not interfere by the smallest show of feud
or offence. Who could tell how much that certain inmate of the
house--she hesitated to call him a member of the family--and, in
all righteous probability, of a worse place as well, had to do with
the storm that drove Borland thither, and the storms that might
detain him there! already there were signs of a fresh onset of the
elements! the wind was rising; it had begun to moan in the wide
chimney; and from the quarter whence it now blew, it was certain to
bring more storm, that is snow!

The dinner went on. The great magnum before the fire was gathering
genial might from the soft insinuation of limpid warmth, renewing
as much of its youth as was to be desired in wine; and redeveloping
relations, somewhat suppressed, with the slackening nerves and
untwisting fibres of an old man’s earthly being!

But there was not a drop to drink on the table, except water; and
the toper found it hard to lay solid foundation enough for the wine
that was to follow, and grumbled inwardly. The sight of the bottle
before the fire, however, did much to enable him, not to be
patient, but to suppress the shows of impatience. He eyed it, and
loved it, and held his peace. He saw the water at his elbow, and
hated it the worse that it was within his reach--hated its cold
staring rebuke as he hated virtue--hated it as if its well were in
the churchyard where the old captain was buried sixty years ago.
--Confound him! why wouldn’t he lie still? He made some effort to
be polite to the old hag, as he called her, in that not very secret
chamber of his soul, whose door was but too ready to fall ajar, and
allow its evil things to issue. He searched his lumber-room for old
stories to tell, but found it difficult to lay hold on any fit for
the ears present, though one of the ladies was an old woman--old
enough, he judged, not to be startled at anything, and the other
his own daughter, who ought to see no harm when her father made the
company laugh! It was a miserable time for him, but, like a much
enduring magician awaiting the moment of power, he kept eying the
bottle, and gathering comfort.

Grizzie eyed him from behind, almost as he eyed the bottle. She
eyed him as she might the devil caught in the toils of the
arch-angel; and if she did not bring against him a railing
accusation, it was more from cunning than politeness. “Ah, my fine
fellow!” her eyes said, “he is after you! he will be here
presently!”

Grizzie afforded a wonderfully perfect instance of a relation which
is one of the loveliest in humanity--absolute service without a
shade of servility. She would have died for her master, but even to
him she must speak her mind. Her own affairs were nothing to her,
and those of her master as those of the universe, but she was
vitally one of his family, as the toes belong to the head! In
truth, she was of the family like a poor relation, with few
privileges, and no end of duties; and she thought ten times more of
her duties than her privileges. She would have fed, and sometimes
did feed with perfect satisfaction on the poorest scraps remaining
from meals, but a doubt of the laird’s preference of her porridge
to that of any maker in broad Scotland, would have given her a sore
heart. She would have wept bitter tears had the privilege of
washing the laird’s feet been taken from her. If reverence for the
human is an essential element of greatness, then at least greatness
was possible to Grizzie. She dealt with no abstractions; she
worshipped one living man, and that is the first step toward the
love of all men; while some will talk glowingly about humanity, and
be scornful as a lap-dog to the next needy embodiment of it that
comes in their way. Such as Grizzie will perhaps prove to be of
those last foredoomed to be first. With the tenderness of a
ministering angel and mother combined, her eyes waited upon her
master. She took her return beforehand in the assurance that the
laird would follow her to the grave, would miss her, and at times
think nobody could do something or other so much to his mind as old
Grizzie. And if, like the old captain, she might be permitted to
creep about the place after night-fall, she desired nothing better
than the chance of serving him still, if but by rolling a stone out
of his way. The angels might bear him in their hands--she could not
aspire to that, but it would be much the same whether she got the
stone out of the way of his foot, or they lifted his foot above the
stone!

Dinner over, the laird asked his guest whether he would take his
wine where he was, or have it carried to the drawing-room. The
offering of this alternative the old lady, to use an Elizabethan
phrase, took in snuff; for although she never now sat in the
drawing-room, and indeed rarely crossed its threshold, it was _her_
room; and, ladies having been banished from the dining-room while
men drank, what would be left them if next, bottle in hand, the men
invaded the drawing-room? But happily their guest declined the
proposal, and that on the very ground of respect for her ladyship’s
apartment; the consequence of which was that she very nearly
forgave him the murder of which she never doubted him guilty,
saying to herself that, whatever he might be when disguised, poor
man--and we all had our failings--he knew how to behave when sober,
and that was more than could be said for everybody! So the old lord
sat in the kitchen and drank his wine; and the old lady sat by the
fire and knitted her stocking, went to sleep, and woke up, and went
to sleep again a score of times, and enjoyed her afternoon. Not a
word passed between the two: now, in his old age, Lord Mergwain
never talked over his bottle; he gave his mind to it. The laird
went and came, unconsciously anxious to be out of the way of his
guest, and consciously anxious not to neglect him, but nothing was
said on either side. The old lady knitted and dozed, and his
lordship sat and drank, now and then mingling the aesthetic with
the sensual, and holding his glass to the light to enjoy its colour
and brilliancy,--doing his poor best to encourage the presence of
what ideas he counted agreeable, and prevent the intrusion of their
opposites. And still as he drank, the braver he grew, and the more
confident that the events of the past night were but the foolish
consequences of having mingled so many liquors, which, from the
state of the thermometer, had grown cold in his very stomach, and
bred rank fancies! “With two bottles like this under my belt,” he
said to himself, “I would defy them all, but this wretched
night-capped curmudgeon of a host will never fetch me a second! If
he had not been so niggardly last night, I should have got through
well enough!”

Lady Joan and Cosmo had been all over the house, and were now
sitting in the drawing-room, silent in the firelight. Lady Joan did
not yet find Cosmo much of a companion, though she liked to have
him beside her, and would have felt the dreariness more penetrating
without him. But to Cosmo her presence was an experience as
marvellous and lovely as it was new and strange. He had never save
in his dreams before been with one who influenced him with beauty;
and never one of his dreams came up to the dream-like reality that
now folded him about with bliss. For he sat, an isolating winter
stretched miles and miles around him, in the old paradise of his
mother’s drawing-room, in the glorious twilight of a peat and wood
fire, the shadows flickering about at their own wild will over all
the magic room, at the feet of a lady, whose eyes were black as the
night, but alive with a radiance such as no sun could kindle, whose
hand was like warm snow, whose garments were lovely as the clouds
that clothe a sunset, and who inhabited an atmosphere of evanescent
odours that were themselves dreams from a region beyond the stars,
while the darkness that danced with the firelight played all sorts
of variations on the theme of her beauty.

How long he had sat lost in the dream-haunted gorgeous silence he
did not know, when suddenly he bethought himself that he ought to
be doing something to serve or amuse, or at least interest the
heavenly visitant. Strangers and angels must be entertained, nor
must the shadow of loneliness fall upon them. Now to that end he
knew one thing always good, always at hand, and specially fitting
the time.

“Shall I tell you a story, my lady?” he said, looking up to her
from the low stool on which he had taken his place at her feet.

“Yes, if you please,” she answered, finding herself in a shoal of
sad thoughts, and willing to let them drift.

“Then I will try. But I am sorry I cannot tell it so well as
Grizzie told it me. Her old-fashioned way suits the story. And then
I must make English of it for your ladyship, and that goes still
worse with it.”

Alas! alas! the speech of every succeeding generation is a falling
away from the pith and pathos of the preceding. Speech gains in
scope, but loses in intensity.

“There was once a girl in the Highlands,” began Cosmo, “--not very
far from here it was--who was very beautiful, so that every young
man in the neighbourhood fell in love with her. She was as good as
she was beautiful, and of course would not let more than one be her
lover, and said no to every one else; and if after that they would
go on loving her, she could not help it. She was the daughter of a
sheep-farmer, who had a great many sheep that fed about over the
hills, and she helped her father to look after them, and was as
good and obedient as any lamb of his flock. And her name was Mary.
Her other name I do not know.

“Now her father had a young shepherd, only a year or two older than
Mary, and he of course was in love with her as well as the rest,
and more in love with her than any of them, because he was the most
to be trusted of all in that country-side. He was very strong and
very handsome, and a good shepherd. He was out on the hills all
day, from morning to night, seeing that the sheep did their duty,
and ate the best grass, so as to give plenty of good wool, and good
mutton when it was wanted.--That’s the way Grizzie tells the story,
my lady, though not so that you would understand her.--When any of
the lambs were weakly or ill, they were brought home for Mary to
nurse, and that was how the young shepherd came to know Mary, and
Mary to know him. And so it came to pass that they grew fond of
each other, and saw each other as often as they could; and Mary
promised, if her father would let her, she would marry Alister. But
her father was too well-off to show favour to a poor shepherd lad,
for his heart had got so full of his money that there was not room
enough for the blood in it. If Alister had had land and sheep like
himself, he would have had no objection to giving him Mary; but a
poor son-in-law, however good he might be, would make him feel
poor, whereas a rich son-in-law, if he were nothing but an old
miser, would make him feel rich! He told Alister, therefore, that
he had nothing to say to him, and he and Mary must have nothing to
say to each other. Mary felt obliged to do what her father told
her, but in her heart she did not give up Alister, and felt sure
Alister did not give up her, for he was a brave and honest youth.

“Of course Alister was always wanting to see Mary, and often he saw
her when nobody, not even Mary herself, knew it. One day she was
out rather late on the hill, and when the gloaming came down, sat
wishing in her heart that out of it Alister would come, that she
might see him, though she would not speak to him. She was sitting
on a stone, Grizzie says, with the gloamin’ coming down like a gray
frost about her; and by the time it grew to a black frost, out of
it came some one running towards her.

“But it was not Alister; it was a farmer who wanted to marry her.
He was a big, strong man, rich and good-looking, though twice
Mary’s age. Her father was very friendly to him. But people said he
was a coward.

“Now just at that time, only it had not yet reached the glen, a
terrible story was going about the country, of a beast in the
hills, that went biting every living thing he could get at, and
whatever he bit went raving-mad. He never ate any creature he
attacked, never staid to kill it, but just came up with a rush, bit
it, and was out of sight in a moment. It was generally in the
twilight he came. He appeared--nobody ever saw from where--made his
gnash, and was gone. There was great terror and dismay wherever the
story was heard, so that people would hardly venture across their
thresholds after sun-down, for terror lest the beast should dash
out of the borders of the dark upon them, and leave his madness in
them. Some said it was a sheep-dog, but some who thought they had
seen it, said it was too large for any collie, and was, they
believed, a mad wolf; for though there are no wolves in Scotland
now, my lady, there were at one time, and this is a very old
story.”

Lady Joan gaped audibly.

“I am wearying you, my lady!” said Cosmo, penitently.

“No, no! dear boy,” answered Lady Joan, sorry, and a little
ashamed. “It is only that I am very weary. I think the cold tires
one.”

“I will tell you the rest another time,” said Cosmo cheerily. “You
must lie down on the sofa, and I will cover you up warm.”

“No, no; please go on. Indeed I want to hear the rest of it.”

“Well,” resumed Cosmo, “the news of this wolf, or whatever it was,
had come to the ears of the farmer for the first time that day at a
fair, and he was hurrying home with his head and his heart and his
heels full of it, when he saw Mary sitting on the white stone by
the track, feeling as safe as if she were in paradise, and as sad
as if she were in purgatory.--That’s how Grizzie tells it--I
suppose because some of her people are papists.--But, for as much
as he wanted to marry her, you could hardly say he was in love with
her--could you, Lady Joan?--when I tell you that, instead of
stopping and taking her and her sheep home, he hurried past her,
crying out, ‘Gang hame, Mary. There’s a mad beast on the hill. Rin,
rin--a’ ’t ye can. Never min’ yer sheep.’ His last words came from
the distance, for he never stayed a step while he spoke.

“Mary got up at once. But you may be sure, my lady, a girl like
that was not going to leave her sheep where she dared not stop
herself. She began to gather them together to take them out of
harm’s way, and was just setting out with them for home, when a
creature like a huge dog came bounding upon her out of the edge of
the night. The same instant, up from behind a rock, a few yards
away, jumped Alister, and made at the beast with his crook; and
just as the wolf was upon Mary, for Alister was not near enough to
get between the beast and her, he heaved a great blow at him, which
would have knocked him down anyhow. But that instant Mary threw
herself towards Alister, and his terrible blow came down upon her,
and not upon the wolf, and she fell dead in his arms--that’s what
Grizzie says--and away went the wolf, leaping and bounding, and
never uttering a cry.

“What Alister did next, Grizzie never says--only that he came
staggering up to her father’s door with dead Mary in his arms,
carried her in, laid her on the bed, and went out again. They found
the blow on her head, and when they undressed her, they found
also the bite of the wolf; and they soon guessed how it had been,
and said it was well she had died so, for it was much better than
going mad first: it was kind of Death, they said, to come and
snatch her away out of the arms of Madness. But the farmer, because
he hated Alister, and knew that Alister must have seen him running
away, gave it out, that he himself was rushing to defend Mary, and
that the blow that killed her was meant for him. Nobody however
believed him.

“What people might think, was, however, a matter of little
consequence to Alister, for from that day he never spoke to human
being, never slept under a roof. He left his shepherding, and gave
himself to the hunting of the mad wolf: such a creature should not
be allowed to live, and he must do some good thing for Mary’s sake.
Mary was so good, that any good thing done would be a thing done
for her. So he followed and followed, hunting the horrible creature
to destroy him. Some said he lived on his hate of the wolf, and
never ate anything at all. But some of the people on the hills,
when they heard he had been seen, set out of their doors at night
milk and cakes; and in the morning, sometimes, they would be gone,
and taken as if by a human being, and not an animal.

“By and by came a strange story abroad. For a certain old woman,
whom some called a witch, and whom all allowed to have the second
sight, told that, one night late, as she was coming home from her
daughter’s house, she saw Alister lying in the heather, and another
sitting with him; Alister she saw plainly with her first or bodily
eyes; but with her second eyes, in which lay the second sight, she
saw his head lying on a woman’s lap--and that woman was Mary, whom
he had killed. He was fast asleep, and whether he knew what pillow
he had, she could not tell; but she saw the woman as plainly as if
with her bodily eyes,--only with the difference which there always
was, she said, and which she did not know how to describe, between
the things seen by the one pair of eyes, and the things seen by the
other. She stood and regarded them for some time, but neither
moved. It was in the twilight, and as it grew darker she could see
Alister less and less clearly, but always Mary better and
better--till at last the moon rose, and then she saw Alister again,
and Mary no more. But, through the moonlight, three times she heard
a little moan, half very glad, and half a little sad.

“Now the people had mostly a horror of Alister, and had shunned
him--even those who did not believe him to blame for what he had
done--because of his having killed a human being, one made like
himself, and in the image of God; but when they heard the wise
woman’s story, they began to feel differently towards Alister, and
to look askance upon Mary’s father, whose unkindness had kept them
asunder. They said now it had all come through him, and that God
had sent the wolf to fetch Mary, that he might give her and Alister
to each other in spite of him--for God had many a way of doing a
thing, every one better than another.

“But that did not help Alister to find the wolf. The winter came,
however, and that did help him, for the snow let him see the trail,
and follow faster. The wonder was that the animal, being mad, lived
so long; but some said that, although the wolf was mad, he was not
mad in any ordinary way--if he had been, he would indeed have been
dead long ago; he was a wolf into which an evil spirit had entered;
and had he been a domestic animal, or one for the use of man, he
would immediately have destroyed himself; but, being a wild and
blood-thirsty animal, he went on very much like his natural self,
without knowing what sort of a fellow-tenant he had with him in the
house.

“At last, one morning in the month of December, when the snow lay
heavy on the ground, some men came upon a track which they all
agreed must be that of the wolf. They went and got their weapons,
and set out in chase. They followed, and followed, and better than
followed, and the trail led them high into the hills, wondering
much at the huge bounds with which the beast had galloped up the
steepest places. They concluded that Alister had been after him,
and that the beast knew it, and had made for the most inaccessible
spot he was acquainted with. They came at length to a point where a
bare-foot human track joined that of the wolf for a little way, and
after that they came upon it again and again. Up and up the
mountain they went--sometimes losing the track from the great
springs the wolf took--now across a great chasm which they had to
go round the head of, now up the face of a rock too steep for the
snow to lie upon, so that there was no print of his horrid feet.

“But at last, almost at the top of the mountain, they saw before
them two dark spots in a little hollow, and when they reached it,
there was the wolf, dead in a mass of frozen blood and trampled
snow. It was a huge, gaunt, gray, meagre carcass, with the foam
frozen about its jaws, and stabbed in many places, which showed the
fight had been a close one. All the snow was beaten about, as if
with many feet, which showed still more plainly what a tussle it
had been. A little farther on lay Alister, as if asleep, stretched
at full length, with his face to the sky. He had been dead for many
hours, they thought, but the smile had not faded which his spirit
left behind as it went. All about his body were the marks of the
brute’s teeth--everywhere almost except on his face. That had been
bespattered with blood, but it had been wiped away. His dirk was
lying not far off, and his skene dhu close by his hand.

“There is but one thing more--and I think that is just the thing
that made me want to tell you the story. The men who found Alister
declared when they came home, and ever after when they told the
story--Grizzie says her grandmother used always to say so--that,
when they lifted him to bring him away, they saw in the snow the
mark of the body, deep-pressed, but only as far as the shoulders;
there was no mark of his head whatever. And when they told this to
the wise woman, she answered only, ‘Of coorse! of coorse!--Gien I
had been wi’ ye, lads, I wad hae seen mair.’ When they pressed her
to speak more plainly, she only shook her head, and muttered,
‘Dull-hertit gowks!’--That’s all, my lady.”

In the kitchen, things were going on even more quietly than in the
drawing-room. In front of the fire sat the English lord over his
wine; Mistress Warlock sat in her arm-chair, knitting and
dozing--between her evanescent naps wide awake, and ever and anon
sliding her eyes from the stocking which did not need her attention
to the guest who little desired it; the laird had taken his place
at the other corner, and was reading the Journal of George Fox; and
Grizzie was bustling about with less noise than she liked, and
wishing heartily she were free of his lordship, that she might get
on with her work. Scarcely a word was spoken.

It began to grow dark; the lid of the night was closing upon them
ere half a summer-day would have been over. But it mattered little:
the snow had stayed the work of the world. Grizzie put on the
kettle for her mistress’s tea. The old lady turned her forty winks
into four hundred, and slept outright, curtained in the shadows.
All at once his lordship became alive to the fact that the day was
gone, shifted uneasily in his chair, poured out a bumper of claret,
drank it off hurriedly, and hitched his chair a little nearer to
the fire. His hostess saw these movements with satisfaction: he had
appeased her personal indignation, but her soul was not hospitable
towards him, and the devil in her was gratified with the sight of
his discomposure: she hankered after talion, not waited on
penitence. Her eyes sought those of Grizzie.

“Gang to the door, Grizzie,” she said, “an’ see what the nicht’s
like. I’m thinkin’ by the cry o’ the win’, it ’ll be a wull mirk
again.--What think ye, laird?”

Her son looked up from his book, where he had been beholding a
large breadth of light on the spiritual sky, and answered, somewhat
abstractedly, but with the gentle politeness he always showed her,
“I should not wonder if it came on to snow again!”

Lord Mergwain shifted uneasily. Grizzie returned from her inspection
of the weather.

“It’s black theroot, an’ dingin’ ’oot, wi’ great thuds o’ win’,”
she said, quite unaware as usual of the style of her utterance.

“God bless me!” murmured his lordship, “what an abominable
country!”

“Had we not better go to the drawing-room, my lord?” said the
laird. “I think, Grizzie,” he went on, “you must get supper early.
--And, Grizzie,” he added, rising, “mind you bring Lady Joan a cup
of tea--if your mistress will excuse her,” he concluded, with a
glance to his mother.

Mistress Warlock was longing for a talk with Grizzie, and had no
wish for Lady Joan’s presence at tea.

“An old woman is bare company for a young one, Cosmo,” she said.

His lordship sat as if he did not mean to move.

“Will you not come, Lord Mergwain?” said the laird. “We had better
go before the night gets worse.”

“I will stay where I am.”

“Excuse me, my lord, that can hardly be. Come, I will carry your
wine. You will finish your bottle more at your ease there, knowing
you have not to move again.”

“The bottle is empty,” replied his lordship, gruffly, as if
reproaching his host for not being aware of the fact, and having
another at hand to follow.

“Then--” said the laird, and hesitated.

“Then you’ll fetch me another!” adjoined his lordship, as if
answering an unpropounded question that ought not to be put.
Seeing, however, that the laird stood in some hesitation still, he
added definitively, “I don’t stir a peg without it. Get me another
bottle--another _magnum_, I mean, and I will go at once.”

Yet a moment the laird reflected. He said to himself that the
wretched man had not had nearly so much to drink that day as he had
the day before; that he was used to soaking, and a great diminution
of his customary quantity might in its way be dangerous; and that
anyhow it was not for him to order the regimen of a passing guest,
to whom first of all he owed hospitality.

“I will fetch it, my lord,” he said, and disappeared in the
milk-cellar, from which a steep stone-stair led down to the ancient
dungeon.

“The maister’s gane wantin’ a licht,” muttered Grizzie; “I houp he
winna see onything.”

It was an enigmatical utterance, and angered Lord Mergwain.

“What the deuce should he see, when he has got to feel his way with
his hands?” he snarled.

“There’s some things, my lord, ’at can better affoord to come oot i’
the dark nor the licht,” replied Grizzie.

His lordship said nothing in rejoinder, but kept looking every now
and then towards the door of the milk-cellar--whether solely in
anxiety for the appearance of the magnum, may be doubtful. The
moment the laird emerged from his dive into darkness, bearing with
him the pearl-oyster of its deep, his lordship rose, proud that for
an old man he could stand so steady, and straightened himself up to
his full height, which was not great. The laird set down the bottle
on the table, and proceeded to wrap him in a plaid, that he might
not get a chill, nor heeded that his lordship, instead of showing
recognition of his care, conducted himself like an ill-conditioned
child, to whom his mother’s ministrations are unwelcome. But he did
not resist, he only grumbled. As soon as the process was finished,
he caught up the first bottle, in which, notwithstanding his
assertion, he knew there was yet a glass or two, while the laird
resumed the greater burden of the second, and gave his guest an
arm, and Grizzie, leaving the door open to cast a little light on
their way, followed close behind, to see them safe in.

When they reached the drawing-room, his lordship out of breath with
the long stair, they found Lady Joan teaching and Cosmo learning
backgammon, which they immediately abandoned until they had him in
his former chair, with a small table by him, on it the first
bottle, and the fresh one at his feet before the fire: with the
contents of one such inside him, and another coming on, he looked
more cheerful than since first he entered the house. But a
fluctuating trouble was very visible in his countenance
notwithstanding.

A few poverty-stricken attempts at conversation followed, to which
Lord Mergwain contributed nothing. Lost in himself, he kept his
eyes fixed on the ripening bottle, waiting with heroic self-denial,
nor uttering a single audible oath, until the sound of its opening
should herald the outbursting blossom of the nightly flower of
existence. The thing hard to bear was, that there were no fresh
wine-glasses on the table--only the one he had taken care to bring
with the old bottle.

Presently Grizzie came with the tea-things, and as she set them
down, remarked, with cunningly devised look of unconsciousness:

“It’s a gurly nicht; no a pinch o’ licht; an’ the win’ blawin’ like
deevils; the Pooer o’ the air, he’s oot wi’ a rair, an’ the snaw
rins roon’ upo’ sweevils.”

“What do you mean, woman? Would you drive me mad with your
gibberish?” cried his lordship, getting up, and going to the
window.

“Ow, na, my lord!” returned Grizzie quietly; “mad’s mad, but
there’s waur nor mad.”

“Grizzie!” said the laird, and she did not speak again.

Lurking in Grizzie was the suspicion, less than latent in the minds
of the few who had any memory of the old captain, that he had been
robbed as well as murdered--though nothing had ever been missed
that was known to belong to him, except indeed an odd walking-stick
he used to carry; and if so, then the property, whatever it was,
had been taken to the loss of his rightful heir, Warlock o’
Glenwarlock. Hence mainly arose Grizzie’s desire to play upon the
fears of the English lord; for might he not be driven by terror to
make restitution? Therefore, although obedient to the will of her
master and leaving the room in silence, she cast on the old man, as
she turned away, a look, which, in spite of the wine he had drunk,
and the wine he hoped to drink, he felt freeze his very vitals--a
look it was of inexplicable triumph, and inarticulate doom.

The final effect of it on her victim, however, was different from
what she intended. For it roused suspicion. What if, he thought
with himself, he was the victim of a conspiracy? What if the
something frightful that befell him the night before, of which he
had but a vague recollection, had been contrived and executed by
the people of the house? This horrible old hag might remember
else-forgotten things! What if they had drugged his wine? the first
half of the bottle he had yesterday was decanted!--But the one he
had just drunk had not been touched! and this fresh one before the
fire should not be carried from his sight! he would not take his
eyes off it for a moment! he was safe so far as these were
concerned! only if after all----if there should be no difference----if
something were to happen again all the same--ah, then indeed!--then
it would only be so much the worse!--Better let them decant the
bottle, and then he would have the drug to fall back upon!

Just as he heard the loud bang of Grizzie’s closure of the great
door, the wind rushed all at once against the house, with a
tremendous bellow, that threatened to drive the windows into the
room. An immediate lull followed, through which as instantly came
strange sounds, as of a distant staccato thunder. The moment the
laird heard the _douf thuds_, he started to his feet, and made for
the door, and Cosmo rose to follow.

“Stop! stop!” shouted Lord Mergwain, in a quavering, yet, through
terror, imperative voice, and looked as if his hair would have
stood on end, only that it was a wig.

Lady Joan gave Cosmo a glance of entreaty: the shout was
ineffectual, the glance was not. The laird scarcely heard his
visitor’s cry, and hastened from the room, taking huge strides with
his long thin legs; but Cosmo resumed his seat as if nothing were
the matter.

Lord Mergwain was trembling visibly; his jaw shook, and seemed
ready to drop.

“Don’t be alarmed, my lord,” said Cosmo; “it is only one of the
horses kicking against his stall.”

“But why should the brute kick?” said his lorship, putting his hand
to his chin, and doing his best to hide his agitation.

“My father will tell us. He will soon set things right. He knows
all about horses. Jolly may have thrown his leg over his halter,
and got furious. He’s rather an ill-tempered horse.”

Lord Mergwain swallowed a great glass of wine, the last of the
first bottle, and gave a little shiver.

“It’s cold! cold!” he said.

The wine did not seem to be itself somehow this evening!

The game interrupted, Lady Joan forgot it, and stared into the
fire. Cosmo gave his eyes a glorious holiday on her beautiful face.

It was some time before the laird returned. He brought the news
that one of the strange horses was very ill.

“I thought he looked bad this morning,” said Cosmo.

“Only it’s not the same horse, my boy,” answered his father. “I
believe he has been ill all day; the state of the other has
prevented its being noticed. He was taken suddenly with violent
pain; and now he lies groaning. They are doing what they can for
him, but I fear, in this weather, he will not recover. Evidently he
has severe inflammation; the symptoms are those of the worst form
of the disease now about.”

“Hustled here in the dark to die like a rat!” muttered his
lordship.

“Don’t make a trap of the old place, my lord,” said the laird
cheerily. “The moment the roads will permit, I will see that you
have horses.”

“I don’t doubt you’ll be glad enough to get rid of me.”

“We shall not regret your departure so much, my lord, as if we had
been able to make your lordship comfortable,” said the laird.

With that there came another great howling onset of wind. Lord
Mergwain started almost to his feet, but sat down instantly, and
said with some calmness,

“I should be obliged, Mr. Warlock, if you would order a wine-glass
or two for me. I am troublesome, I know, but I like to change my
glass; and the wine will be the worse every moment more it stands
there.--I wish you would drink! We should make a night of it.”

“I beg your pardon, my lord,” said the laird. “What was I thinking
of!--Cosmo, run and fetch wine-glasses--and the cock-screw.”

But while Cosmo was returning, he heard the battery of iron shoes
recommence, and ran to the stable. Just as he reached the door of
it, the horse half reared, and cast himself against the side of his
stall. With a great crash it gave way, and he fell upon it, and lay
motionless.

“He’s deid!” cried one of the men, and Cosmo ran to tell his
father.

While he was gone, the time seemed to the toper endless. But the
longer he could be kept from his second magnum, the laird thought
it the better, and was not troubled at Cosmo’s delay.

A third terrible blast, fiercer and more imperious than those that
preceded it, shook the windows as a dog shakes a rat: the house
itself it could shake no more than a primeval rock. The next minute
Cosmo entered, saying the horse was dead.

“What a beastly country!” growled his lordship.

But the wine that was presently gurgling from the short neck of the
apoplectic magnum, soon began to console him. He liked this bottle
better than the last, and some composure returned to him.

The laird fetched a book of old ballads, and offered to read one or
two to make the time pass. Lord Mergwain gave a scornful grunt; but
Lady Joan welcomed the proposal: the silent worship of the boy,
again at her feet, was not enough to make her less than very weary.
For more than an hour, the laird read ballad after ballad; but
nobody, not even himself, attended much--the old lord not at all.
But the time passed. His lordship grew sleepy, began to nod, and
seemed to forget his wine. At length he fell asleep. But when the
laird would have made him more comfortable, with a yell of defiance
he started to his feet wide awake. Coming to himself at once, he
tried to laugh, and said from a child he had been furious when
waked suddenly. Then he settled himself in the chair, and fell fast
asleep.

Still the night wore on, and supper-time came. His lordship woke,
but would have no supper, and took to his bottle again. Lady Joan
and Cosmo went to the kitchen, and the laird had his porridge
brought to the drawing-room.

At length it was time to go to bed. Lady Joan retired. The laird
would not allow Cosmo to sit up another night, and he went also.
The lord and the laird were left together, the one again asleep,
and dreaming who knows what! the other wide awake, but absorbed in
the story of a man whose thoughts, fresh from above, were life to
himself, and a mockery to his generation.




CHAPTER XVII.

THAT SAME NIGHT.


The wind had now risen to a hurricane--a rage of swiftness. The
house was like a rock assaulted by the waves of an ocean-tempest.
The laird had closed all the shutters, and drawn the old curtains
across them: through windows and shutters, the curtains waved in
the penetrating blasts. The sturdy old house did not shake, for
nothing under an earthquake could have made it tremble. The snow
was fast gathering in sloped heaps on the window-sills, on the
frames, on every smallest ledge where it could lie. In the midst of
the blackness and the roaring wind, the house was being covered
with spots of silent whiteness, resting on every projection, every
roughness even, of the building. In his own house as he was, a
sense of fierce desolation, of foreign invasion and siege, took
possession of the soul of the laird. He had made a huge fire, and
had heaped up beside it a great store of fuel, but, though his body
was warm and likely to be warm, his soul inside it felt the
ravaging cold outside--remorseless, and full of mock, the ghastly
power of negation and unmaking. He had got together all the screens
he could find, and with them inclosed the fireplace, so that they
sat in a citadel within a fortress. By the fire he had placed for
his lordship the antique brocade-covered sofa, that he might lie
down when he pleased, and himself occupied the great chair on the
other side. From the centre of this fire-defended heart, the room
itself outside looked cold and waste: it demanded almost courage to
leave the stockade of the screens, and venture into the campaign of
the floor beyond. And then the hell of wind and snow that raved
outside that! and the desert of air surrounding it, in which the
clouds that garnered the snow were shaken by mad winds, whirled and
tossed and buffeted, to make them yield their treasures! Lord
Mergwain heard it, and drank. The laird listened, and lifted up his
heart. Not much passed between them. The memories of the English
lord were not such as he felt it fit to share with the dull old
Scotchman beside him, who knew nothing of the world--knew neither
how pitilessly selfish, nor how meanly clever a man of this world
might be, and bate not a jot of his self admiration! Men who salute
a neighbour as a man of the world, paying him the greatest
compliment they know in acknowledging him of their kind, recoil
with a sort of fear from the man alien to their thoughts, and
impracticable for their purposes. They say “He is beyond me,” and
despise him. So is there a great world beyond them with which they
hold a frightful relationship--that of unrecognized, unattempted
duty! Lord Mergwain regarded the odd-looking laird as a fool; the
laird looked on him with something of the pity an angel must feel
for the wretch to whom he is sent to give his last chance, ere
sorer measures be taken in which angels are not the ministers.

But the wine was at last beginning to work its too oft repeated and
now nearly exhausted influence on the sagging and much frayed
nerves of the old man. A yellowish remnant of withered rose began
to smear his far-off west: he dared not look to the east; that lay
terribly cold and gray; and he smiled with a little curl of his lip
now and then, as he thought of this and that advantage he had had
in the game of life, for alas! it had never with him risen to the
dignity of a battle. He was as proud of a successful ruse, as a
hero of a well fought and well won field. “I had him there!” stood
with him for the joy of work done and salvation wrought. It was a
repulsive smile--one that might move even to hatred the onlooker
who was not yet divine enough to let the outrushing waves of pity
swamp his human judgment. It only curled the cruel-looking upper
lip, while the lower continued to hang thick, and sensual, and
drawn into a protuberance in the middle.

Gradually he seemed to himself, as he drank, to be recovering the
common sense of his self-vaunted, vigorous nature. He assured
himself that now he saw plainly the truth and fact of things--that
his present outlook and vision were the true, and the horrors of
the foregone night the weak soul-gnawing fancies bred of a
disordered stomach. He was a man once more, and beyond the sport of
a foolish imagination.

Alas for the man who draws his courage from wine! the same _alas_ for
the man whose health is its buttress! the touch of a pin on this or
that spot of his mortal house, will change him from a leader of
armies, or a hunter of tigers in the jungle, to one who shudders at
a centipede! That courage also which is mere insensibility crumbles
at once before any object of terror able to stir the sluggish
imagination. There is a fear, this for one, that for another, which
can appall the stoutest who is not one with the essential.

Lord Mergwain emerged from the influence of his imagination and his
fears, and went under that of his senses and himself. He took his
place beside the Christian in his low, common moods, when the
world, with its laws and its material insistence, presses upon him,
and he does not believe that God cares for the sparrow, or can
possibly count the hairs of his head; when the divine power, and
rule, and means to help, seem nowhere but in a passed-away fancy of
the hour of prayer. Only the Christian is then miserable, and Lord
Mergwain was relieved; for did he not then come to himself? and did
he know anything better to arrive at than just that wretched self
of his?

A glass or two more, and he laughed at the terror by night. He had
been a thorough fool not to go to bed like other people, instead of
sitting by the fire with a porridge-eating Scotchman, who regarded
him as one of the wicked, afraid of the darkness. The thought may
have passed from his mind to that of his host, for the self-same
moment the laird spoke:

“Don’t you think you had better go to bed when you have finished
your bottle, my lord?”

With the words, a cold swell, as from the returning tide of some
dead sea, so long ebbed that men had ploughed and sown and built
within its bed, stole in, swift and black, filling every cranny of
the old man’s conscious being.

“My God!” he cried; “I thought better of you than that, laird! I
took you for a man of your word! You promised to sit up with me!”

“I did, my lord, and am ready to keep my promise. I only thought
you looked as if you might have changed your mind; and in such a
night as this, beyond a doubt, bed is the best place for everybody
that has got one to go to.”

“That depends,” answered his lordship, and drank.

The laird held his peace for a time, then spoke again:

“Would your lordship think me rude if I were to take a book?”

“I don’t want a noise. It don’t go well with old wine like this:
such wine wants attention! It would spoil it. No, thank you.”

“I did not propose to read aloud, my lord--only to myself.”

“Oh! That alters the matter! That I would by no means object to. I
am but poor company!”

The laird got his “Journal,” and was soon lost in the communion of
a kindred soul.

By and by, the boat of his lordship’s brain was again drifting
towards the side of such imagination as was in him. The half-tide
restoring the physical mean was past, and intoxication was setting
in. He began to cast uneasy glances towards the book the laird was
reading. The old folio had a look of venerable significance about
it, and whether it called up some association of childhood,
concerned in some fearful fancy, or dreamfully he dreaded the
necromancer’s art, suggested by late experience, made him uneasy.

“What’s that you are reading?” he said at length. “It looks like a
book of magic.”

“On the contrary,” replied the laird, “it is a religious book of
the very best sort.”

“Oh, indeed! Ah! I have no objection to a little religion--in its
own place. There it is all right. I never was one of those
mockers--those Jacobins, those sans-culottes! Arrogant fools they
always seemed to me!”

“Would your lordship like to hear a little of the book, then?”

“No, no; by no means! Things sacred ought not to be mixed up with
things common--with such an uncommon bottle of wine, for instance.
I dictate to no one, but for my own part I keep my religion for
church. That is the proper place for it, and there you are in the
mood for it. Do not mistake me; it is out of respect I decline.”

He drank, and the laird dropt back into the depths of his volume.
The night wore on. His lordship did not drink fast. There was no
hope of another bottle, and the wine must cover the period of his
necessity: he dared not encounter the night without the sustaining
knowledge of its presence. At last he began to nod, and by slow
degrees sank on the sofa. Very softly the laird covered him, and
went back to his book.

The storm went raging on, as if it would never cease. The sense of
desolation it produced in the heart of the laird when he listened
to it was such, that with an inward shudder he closed his mind
against it, and gave all his attention to George Fox, and the
thoughts he roused. The minutes crawled slowly along. He lost all
measure of time, because he read with delight, and at last he found
himself invaded by that soft physical peace which heralds the
approach of sleep. He roused himself; he wanted to read: he was in
one of the most interesting passages he had yet come to. But
presently the sweet enemy was again within his outworks. Once more
he roused himself, heard the storm raving on--over buried graves
and curtained beds, heedless of human heeding--fell a-listening to
its shriek-broken roar, and so into a soundless and dreamless
sleep.

He woke so suddenly that for a moment he knew himself only for
somebody he knew. There lay upon him the weight of an indefinable
oppression--the horror of a darkness too vague to be combated. The
fire had burned low, and his very bones seemed to shiver. The
candle-flames were down in the sockets of the candlesticks, and the
voice of the storm was like a scream of victory. Had the cold then
won its way into the house? Was it having its deathly will of them
all? He cast his eyes on his guest. Sleeping still, he half lay,
half leaned in the corner of the sofa, breathing heavily. His face
was not to be well seen, because of the flapping and flickering of
the candle-flames, and the shadows they sent waving huge over all,
like the flaunting of a black flag. Through the flicker and the
shadow the laird was still peering at him, when suddenly, without
opening his eyes, the old man raised himself to a sitting
posture--all of a piece, like a figure of wood lifted from behind.
The laird then saw his face, and upon it the expression as of one
suffering from some horrible nightmare--so terrified was it, so
wrathful, so disgusted, all in one--and rose in haste to rouse him
from a drunken dream. But ere he reached him he opened his eyes,
and his expression changed--not to one of relief, but to utter
collapse, as if the sleep-dulled horrors of the dream had but grown
real to him as he woke. His under lip trembled like a dry yellow
leaf in a small wind; his right arm rose slowly from the shoulder
and stuck straight out in the direction of his host, while his hand
hung from the wrist; and he stared as upon one loosed from hell to
speak of horrors. But it did not seem to the laird that, although
turned straight towards him, his eyes rested on him; they did not
appear to be focused for him, but for something beyond him. It was
like the stare of one demented, and it invaded--possessed the
laird. A physical terror seized him. He felt his gaze returning
that of the man before him, like to like, as from a mirror. He felt
the skin of his head contracting; his hair was about to stand on
end! The spell must be broken! He forced himself forward a step to
lay his hand on Lord Mergwain, and bring him to himself. But his
lordship uttered a terrible cry, betwixt a scream and a yell, and
sank back on the sofa. The same instant the laird was himself
again, and sprang to him.

Lord Mergwain lay with his mouth wide open, and the same look with
which they found him the night before prostrate in the
guest-chamber. His arm stuck straight out from his body. The laird
pressed it down, but it rose again as soon as he left it. He could
not for a moment doubt the man was dead; there was that about him
that assured him of it, but what it was he could not have told.

The first thought that came to him was, that his daughter must not
see him so. He tied up his jaw, laid him straight on the sofa,
lighted fresh candles, left them burning by the dead, and went to
call Grizzie: a doctor was out of the question.

He felt his way down the dark stair, and fought it through the wind
to the kitchen, whence he climbed to Grizzie’s room. He found she
was already out of bed, and putting on her clothes. She had not
been asleep, she said, and added something obscure, which the laird
took to mean that she had been expecting a summons.

“Whan Ane’s oot, there’s nane in!” she said. “Hoo’s the auld
reprobat, laird--an’ I beg yer pardon?”

“He’s gane til ’s accoont, Grizzie,” answered the laird, in a
trembling voice.

“Say ye sae, laird?” returned Grizzie with perfect calmness. “Eh,
sirs!”

Not a single remark did she then offer. If she was cool, she was
not irreverent before the thought of the awful thing that lay
waiting her.

“Ye winna wauk the hoose, will ye, sir?” she added presently. “I
dinna think it wad be ony service to deid or livin’.”

“I’ll no du that, Grizzie; but come ye an’ luik at him,” said the
laird, “an’ tell me what ye think. I makna a doobt he’s deid, but
gien ye hae ony, we’ll du what we can; an’ we’ll sit up wi’ the
corp thegither, an’ lat yoong an’ auld tak the rist they hae mair
need o’ nor the likes o’ you an’ me.”

It was a proud moment in Grizzie’s life, one never forgotten, when
the laird addressed her thus. She was ready in a moment, and they
went together.

“The prince is haein’ his ain w’y the nicht!” she murmured to
herself, as they bored their way through the wind to the great
door.

When she came where the corpse lay, she stood for some moments
looking down upon it without uttering a sound, nor was there any
emotion in the fixed gaze of her eye. She had been brought up in a
stern and nowise pitiful school. She made neither solemn
reflection, nor uttered hope which her theology forbade her to
cherish.

“Ye think wi’ me ’at he’s deid--dinna ye, Grizzie?” said the laird,
in a voice that seemed to himself to intrude on the solemn silence.

She removed the handkerchief, and the jaw fell.

“He’s gane til ’s accoont,” she said. “It’s a great amoont; an’ mair
on ae side nor he’ll weel bide. It’s sair eneuch, laird, whan we
hae to gang at the Lord’s call, but whan the messenger comes frae
the laich yett (_low gate_), we maun jist lat gang an’ forget. But
sae lang’s he’s a man, we maun do what we can--an’ that’s what we
did last nicht; sae I’ll rin an’ get het watter.”

She did so, and they used every means they could think of for his
recovery, but at length gave it up, heaped him over with blankets,
for the last chance of spontaneous revival, and sitting down,
awaited the slow-travelling, feeble dawn.

After they had sat in silence for nearly an hour, the laird spoke:

“We’ll read a psalm thegither, Grizzie,” he said.

“Ay, du ye that, laird. It’ll haud them awa’ for the time bein’,
though it can profit but little i’ the hin’er en’.”

The laird drew from his pocket a small, much worn Bible which had
been his Marion’s, and by the body of the dead sinner, in the heart
of the howling storm and the waste of the night, his voice,
trembling with a strange emotion, rose upborne upon the glorious
words of the ninety-first psalm.

When he ended, they were aware that the storm had begun to yield,
and by slow degrees it sank as the morning came on. Till the first
faintest glimmer of dawn began to appear, nothing more was said
between them. But then Grizzie rose in haste, like one that had
overslept herself, and said:

“I maun to my wark, laird--what think ye?”

The laird rose also, and by a common impulse they went and looked
at the corpse--for corpse it now was, beyond all question, cold as
the snow without. After a brief, low-voiced conference, they
proceeded to carry it to the guest-chamber, where they laid it upon
the bed, and when Grizzie had done all that custom required, left
it covered with a sheet, dead in the room where it dared not sleep,
a mound cold and white as any snow-wreath outside. It looked as if
Winter had forced his way into the house, and left this one drift,
in signal of his capture. Grizzie went about her duties, and the
laird back to his book.

A great awe fell upon Cosmo when he heard what visit and what
departure had taken place in the midst of the storm and darkness.
Lady Joan turned white as the dead, and spoke not a word. A few
tears rolled from the luminous dark of her eyes, like the dew
slow-gathering in a night of stars, but she was very still. The
bond between her and her father had not been a pleasant one; she
had not towards him that reverence which so grandly heightens love.
She had loved him pitifully--perhaps, dreadful thought! a little
contemptuously. The laird persuaded her not to see the body; taking
every charge concerning it.

All that day things went on in the house much as usual, with a
little more silence where had been much. The wind lay moveless on
the frozen earth; the sun shone cold as a diamond; and the fresh
snow glittered and gleamed and sparkled like a dead sea of
lightning.

The laird was just thinking which of his men to send to the
village, when the door opened and in came Agnes. Grannie had sent
her, she said, to enquire after them. Grannie had had a troubled
night, and the moment she woke began to talk about the laird, and
his visitors, and what the storm must have been round lonely Castle
Warlock. The drifts were tremendous, she said, but she had made her
way without much difficulty. So the laird, partly to send Cosmo
from the house of death into the world of life, told him to go with
Aggie, and give directions to the carpenter, for the making of a
coffin.

How long the body might have to lie with them, no one could tell,
for the storm had ceased in a hard frost, and there could be no
postal communication for many days. The laird judged it better,
therefore, as soon as the shell arrived, to place the body in a
death-chapel prepared for it by nature herself. With their spades
he and Cosmo fashioned the mound, already hollowed in sport, into
the shape of a huge sarcophagus, then opened wide the side of it,
to receive the coffin as into a sepulchre in a rock. The men
brought it, laid it in, and closed the entrance again with snow.
Where Cosmo’s hollow man of light had shone, lay the body of the
wicked old nobleman.




CHAPTER XVIII.

A WINTER IDYLL.


Lady Joan the same day wrote to her brother Borland, now Mergwain,
telling him what had taken place. But it must be some time before
she received his answer, for the post from England reached the
neighbouring city but intermittently, and was there altogether
arrested, so far as Howglen and Muir o’ Warlock were concerned. The
laird told her she must have patience, and assured her that to them
her presence was welcome.

And now began for Cosmo an episode of enchantment, as wondrous as
any dream of tree-top, or summer wave city--for if it was not so
full of lighter marvel around, it had at the heart of it a deeper
marvel, namely a live and beautiful lady.

She was a girl of nearly eighteen, but looked older--shapely,
strong, and graceful. But both her life-consciousness and her
spirits--in some only do the words mean the same thing--had been
kept down by the family relations in which she found herself. Her
father loved her with what love was in him, and therefore was
jealous; trusted, and therefore enslaved her; could make her
useful, and therefore oppressed her. Since his health began to
decline he would go nowhere without her, though he spoke seldom a
pleasant, and often a very unpleasant word to her. He never praised
her to her face, but swore deeply to her excellence in ears that
cared little to hear of it. When at home she must always be within
his reach, if not within his call; but he was far from slow to
anger with her, and she dreaded his anger, not so much from love or
fear as from nicety, because of the ugly things he would say when
he was offended with her. One hears of ruling by love and ruling by
fear, but this man ruled by disgust. At home he lived much as we
have seen him in the house of another, cared for nobody’s comfort
but his own, and was hard to keep in good humour--such good humour
as was possible to him. He paid no attention to business or
management: his estates had long been under trustees; lolled about
in his room, diverting himself with a horrible monkey which he
taught ugly tricks; drank almost constantly; and would throw dice
by himself for an hour together--doing what he could, which was
little, towards the poor object of killing Time. He kept a poor
larder but a rich cellar; almost always without money, he yet
contrived to hold his bins replenished, and that from the farther
end: he might have been expecting to live to a hundred and twenty,
for of visitors he had none, except an occasional time-belated
companion of his youth, whom the faint, muddled memories of old
sins would bring to his door, when they would spend a day or two
together, soaking, and telling bad stories, at times hardly
restrained until Joan left the room--that is, if her brother was
not present, before whom her father was on his good behaviour.

The old man was in bad repute with the neighbours, and they never
called upon him--which they would have found it hard to justify,
seeing some who were not better were quite respectable. No doubt he
was the dilapidated old reprobate they counted him, but if he had
not made himself poor, they would have found his morals no business
of theirs. They pitied the daughter, or at least spoke pityingly of
her, but could not for her sake countenance the father! Neglecting
their duty towards her, they began to regard her with a blame which
was the shadow of their neglect, thinking of her as defiled in her
father’s defilement. The creeping things--those which God hath not
yet cleansed--call the pure things unclean. But it was better to be
so judged than to run the risk of growing after the pattern of her
judges. I suspect the man who leads a dissolute, and the man who
leads a commonly selfish life, will land from the great jump pretty
nearly in the same spot. What if those who have despised each the
other’s sins, are set down to stare at them together, until each
finds his own iniquity to be hateful.

Of the latter, the respectably selfish class, was Borland her
brother. He knew his presence a protection to his sister, yet gave
himself no trouble to look after her. As the apple of his eye would
he cherish the fluid in which he hoped to discover some secret
process of nature; but he was not his sister’s keeper, and a drop
of mud more or less cast into her spirit was to him of no
consequence. Yet he would as soon have left a woman he wanted to
marry within reach of the miasms that now and then surrounded Joan,
as unwarned in the dark by the cage of a tiger.

At home, therefore, because of the poverty of the family, the
ill-repute of her father, and the pride and self-withdrawal of her
brother, she led a lonely life where everything around her was left
to run wild. The lawn was more of a meadow than a lawn, and the
park a mere pasture for cattle. The shrubbery was an impassable
tangle, and the flower garden a wilderness. She could do nothing to
set things right, and lived about the place like a poor relation.
At school, which she left at fifteen, she had learned nothing so as
to be of any vital use to her--possibly left it a little less
capable than she went. For some of her natural perceptions could
hardly fail to be blunted by the artificial, false, and selfish
judgments and regards which had there surrounded her. Without a
mother, without a companion, she had to find what solace, what
pastime she could. In the huge house there was not a piano fit to
play upon; and her only source of in-door amusement was a library
containing a large disproportion of books in old French bindings,
with much tarnished gilding on the backs. But a native purity of
soul kept her lovely, and capable of becoming lovelier.

[Illustration: COSMO AND LADY JOAN CLIMBING.]

The mystery of all mysteries is the upward tendency of so many
souls through so much that clogs and would defile their wings,
while so many others _seem_ never even to look up. Then, having so
begun with the dust, how do these ever come to raise their eyes to
the hills? The keenest of us moral philosophers are but poor,
mole-eyed creatures! One day, I trust, we shall laugh at many a
difficulty that now seems insurmountable, but others will keep
rising behind them. Lady Joan did not like ugly things, and so
shrank from evil things. She was the less in danger from liberty,
because of the disgust which certain tones and words of her father
had repeatedly occasioned her. She learned self-defence early--and
alone, without even a dog to keep her company, and help her to the
laws of the world outside herself.

With none of the conventionalities of society, Lady Joan saw no
reason for making a difficulty when, the day after that on which
her father died, Cosmo proposed a walk in the snow. He saw her
properly provided for what seemed to her an adventure--with short
skirts, and stockings over her shoes--and they set out together, in
the brilliant light of a sun rapidly declining toward the western
horizon, though it had but just passed the low noon. The moment she
stepped from the threshold, Joan was invaded by an almost giddy
sense of freedom. The keen air and the impeding snow sent the warm
blood to her cheeks, and her heart beat as if new-born into a
better world. She was annoyed with herself, but in vain she called
herself heartless; in vain she accused herself of indifference to
the loss of her father, said to herself she was a worthless girl:
there was the sun in the sky--not warm, but dazzling-bright and
shining straight into her very being! while the air, instinct with
life, was filling her lungs like water drunk by a thirsty soul, and
making her heart beat like the heart of Eve when first she woke
alive, and felt what her Maker had willed! Life indeed was good! it
was a blessed thing for the eyes to behold the sun!--Let death do
what it can, there is just one thing it cannot destroy, and that is
life. Never in itself, only in the unfaith of man, does life
recognize any sway of death.--A fresh burst of healthy vigour
seemed born to answer each fresh effort. Over the torrent they
walked on a bridge of snow, and listening could hear, far down,
below the thick white blanket, the noise of its hidden rushing.
Away and up the hill they went; the hidden torrent of Joan’s blood
flowed clearer; her heart sang to her soul; and everything began to
look like a thing in a story--herself a princess, and her attendant
a younger brother, travelling with her to meet the tide of
in-flowing lovely adventure. Such a brother was a luxury she had
never had--very different from an older one. He talked so strangely
too--now like a child, now like an old man! She felt a charm in
both, but understood neither. Capable, through confidence in his
father, of receiving wisdom far beyond what he could have thought
out for himself, he sometimes said things because he understood
them, which seemed to most who heard them beyond his years. Some
people only understand enough of a truth to reject it, but Cosmo’s
reception by faith turned to sight, as all true faith does at last,
and formed a soil for thought more immediately his own.

They had been climbing a steep ascent, very difficult in the snow,
and had at length reached the top, where they stood for a moment
panting, with another ascent beyond them.

“Aren’t you always wanting to climb and climb, Lady Joan?” said the
boy.

“Call me Joan, and I will answer you.”

“Then, Joan,--how kind you are! Don’t you always want to be getting
up?--up higher than you are?”

“No; I don’t think I do.”

“I believe you do, only you don’t know it. When I get on the top of
yon hill there, it always seems to me such a little way up!--and
Mr. Simon tells me I should feel much the same, if it were the top
of the highest peak in the Himmalays.”

Lady Joan did not reply, and Cosmo too was silent for a time.

“Don’t you think,” he began again, “though life is so very good--to
me especially with you here--you would get very tired if you
thought you had to live in this world always--for ever and ever and
ever, and never, never get out of it?”

“No, I don’t,” said Joan. “I can’t say I find life so nice as you
think it, but one keeps hoping it may turn to something better.”

She was amused with what she counted childish talk for a boy of his
years--so manly too beyond his years!

“That is very curious!” he returned. “Now I am quite happy; but
this moment I should feel just in a prison, if I thought I should
never get to another world; for what you can never get out of, is
your prison--isn’t it?”

“Yes--but if you don’t want to get out?”

“Ah, that is true! but as soon as that comes to a prisoner, it is a
sign that he is worn out, and has not life enough in him to look
the world in the face. I was talking about it the other day with
Mr. Simon, else I shouldn’t have got it so plain. The blue roof so
high above us there, is indeed very different from the stone vault
of a prison, for there is no stop or end to it. But if you can
never get away from under it, never get off the floor at the bottom
of it, I feel as if it might almost as well be something solid that
held me in. There would be no promise in the stars then: they look
now like promises, don’t they? I do not believe God would ever show
us a thing he did not mean to give us.”

“You are a very odd boy, Cosmo. I am almost afraid to listen to
you. You say such presumptuous things!”

Cosmo laughed a little gentle laugh.

“How can you love God, Joan, and be afraid to speak before him? I
should no more dream of his being angry with me for thinking he
made me for great and glad things, and was altogether generous
towards me, than I could imagine my father angry with me for
wishing to be as wise and as good as he is, when I know it is wise
and good he most wants me to be.”

“Ah, but he is your father, you know, and that is very different!”

“I know it is very different--God is so much, much more my father
than is the laird of Glenwarlock! He is so much more to me, and so
much nearer to me, though my father is the best father that ever
lived! God, you know, Joan, God is more than anybody knows what to
say about. Sometimes, when I am lying in my bed at night, my heart
swells and swells in me, that I hardly know how to bear it, with
the thought that here I am, come out of God, and yet not _out_ of
him--close to the very life that said to everything _be_, and it was!
--you think it strange that I talk so?”

“Rather, I must confess! I don’t believe it can be a good thing at
your age to think so much about religion. There is a time for
everything. You talk like one of those good little children in
books that always die--at least I have heard of such books--I never
saw any of them.”

Cosmo laughed again.

“Which of us is the merrier--you or me? Which of us is the
stronger, Joan? The moment I saw you, I thought you looked like one
that hadn’t enough of something--as if you weren’t happy; but if
you knew that the great beautiful person we call God, was always
near you, it would be impossible for you to go on being sad.”

Joan gave a great sigh: her heart knew its own bitterness, and
there was little joy in it for a stranger to intermeddle with. But
she said to herself the boy would be a gray-haired man before he
was twenty, and began to imagine a mission to help him out of these
morbid fancies.

“You must surely understand, Cosmo,” she said, “that, while we are
in this world, we must live as people of this world, not of
another.”

“But you can’t mean that the people of this world are banished from
Him who put them in it! He is all the same, in this world and in
every other. If anything makes us happy, it must make us much
happier to know it for a bit of frozen love--for the love that
gives is to the gift as water is to snow. Ah, you should hear our
torrent sing in summer, and shout in the spring! The thought of God
fills me so full of life that I want to go and do something for
everybody. I am never miserable. I don’t think I shall be when my
father dies.”

“Oh, Cosmo!--with such a good father as yours! I am shocked.”

Her words struck a pang into her own heart, for she felt as if she
had compared his father and hers, over whom she was not miserable.
Cosmo turned, and looked at her. The sun was close upon the
horizon, and his level rays shone full on the face of the boy.

“Lady Joan,” he said slowly, and with a tremble in his voice, “I
should just laugh with delight to have to die for my father. But if
he were taken from me now, I should be so proud of him, I should
have no room to be miserable. As God makes me glad though I cannot
see him, so my father would make me glad though I could not see
him. I cannot see him now, and yet I am glad because my father
_is_--away down there in the old castle; and when he is gone from me,
I shall be glad still, for he will be _somewhere_ all the same--with
God, as he is now. We shall meet again one day, and run at each
other.”

It was an odd phrase with which he ended, but Lady Joan did not
laugh.

The sun was down, and the cold, blue gray twilight came creeping
from the east. They turned and walked home, through a luminous
dusk. It would not be dark all night, though the moon did not rise
till late, for the snow gave out a ghostly radiance. Surely it must
be one of those substances that have the power of drinking and
hoarding the light of the sun, that with their memories of it they
may thin the darkness! I suspect everything does it more or less.
Far below were the lights of the castle, and across an unbroken
waste of whiteness the gleams of the village. The air was keen as
an essence of points and edges, and the thought of the kitchen fire
grew pleasant. Cosmo took Joan’s hand, and down the hill they ran,
swiftly descending what they had toilsomely climbed.

As she ran, the thought that one of those lights was burning by the
body of her father, rebuked Joan afresh. She was not glad, and she
could not be sorry! If Cosmo’s father were to die, Cosmo would be
both sorry and glad! But the boy turned his face, ever and again as
they ran, up to hers--she was a little taller than he--and his
every look comforted her. An attendant boy-angel he seemed, whose
business it was to rebuke and console her. If he were her brother,
she would be well content never more to leave the savage place! For
the strange old man in the red night-cap was such a gentleman! and
this odd boy, absolutely unnatural in his goodness, was
nevertheless charming! She did not yet know that goodness is the
only nature. She regarded it as a noble sort of disease--as
something at least which it was possible to have too much of. She
had not a suspicion that goodness and nothing else is life and
health--that what the universe demands of us is to be good boys and
girls.

To judge religion we must have it--not stare at it from the bottom
of a seeming interminable ladder. When she reached the door, she
felt as if waking out of a dream, in which she had been led along
strange paths by a curious angel. But not to himself was Cosmo like
an angel! For indeed he was a strong, viguorous, hopeful, trusting
boy of God’s in this world, and would be just such a boy in the
next--one namely who did his work, and was ready for whatever was
meant to come.

When, from all that world of snow outside, Joan entered the kitchen
with its red heart of fire, she knew for a moment how a little bird
feels when creeping under the wing of his mother. Those old
Hebrews--what poets they were! Holy and homely and daring, they
delighted in the wings of the Almighty; but the Son of the Father
made the lovely image more homely still, likening himself to the
hen under whose wings the chickens would not creep for all her
crying and calling. Then first was Joan aware of simple confidence,
of safety and satisfaction and loss of care; for the old man in the
red nightcap would see to everything! Nought would go amiss where
he was at the head of affairs! And hardly was she seated when she
felt a new fold of his protection about her: he told her he had had
her room changed, that she might be near his mother and Grizzie,
and not have to go out to reach it.

Cosmo heard with delight that his father had given up his room to
Lady Joan, and would share his. To sleep with his father was one of
the greatest joys the world held for him. Such a sense of safety
and comfort--of hen’s wings--was nowhere else to be had on the face
of the great world! It was the full type of conscious well-being,
of softness and warmth and peace in the heart of strength. His
father was to him a downy nest inside a stone-castle.

They all sat together round the kitchen fire. The laird fell into a
gentle monologue, in which, to Joan’s thinking, he talked even more
strangely than Cosmo. Things born in the fire and the smoke, like
the song of the three holy children, issued from the furnace
clothed in softest moonlight. Joan said to herself it was plain
where the boy got his oddity; but what she called oddity was but
sense from a deeper source than she knew the existence of. He read
them also passages of the book then occupying him so much: Joan
wondered what attraction such a jumble of good words and no sense
could have for a man so capable in ordinary affairs. Then came
supper; and after that, for the first time in her life, Joan was
present when a man had the presumption to speak to his Maker direct
from his own heart, without the mediation of a book. This she found
odder than all the rest; she had never even heard of such a thing!
So peculiar, so unfathomable were his utterances, that it never
occurred to her the man might be meaning something; farther from
her still was the thought, that perhaps God liked to hear him, was
listening to him and understanding him, and would give him the
things he asked. She heard only an extraordinary gibberish,
supposed suitable to a religious observance--family prayers, she
thought it must be! She felt confused, troubled, ashamed--so
grievously out of her element that she never knew until they rose,
that the rest were kneeling while she sat staring into the fire.
Then she felt guilty and shy, but as nobody took any notice,
persuaded herself they had not observed. The unpleasantness of all
this, however, did not prevent her from saying to herself as she
went to bed, “Oh, how delightful it would be to live in a house
where everybody understood, and loved, and thought about everybody
else!” She did not know that she was wishing for nothing more, and
something a little less, than the kingdom of heaven--the very thing
she thought the laird and Cosmo so strange for troubling their
heads about. If men’s wishes are not always for what the kingdom of
heaven would bring them, their miseries at least are all for the
lack of that kingdom.

That night Joan dreamed herself in a desert island, where she had
to go through great hardships, but where everybody was good to
everybody, and never thought of taking care except of each other;
and that, when a beautiful ship came to carry her away, she cried,
and would not go.

Three weeks of all kinds of weather, except warm, followed, ending
with torrents of rain, and a rapid thaw; but before that time Joan
had got as careless of the weather as Cosmo, and nothing delighted
her more than to encounter any sort of it with him. Nothing kept
her in-doors, and as she always attended to Grizzie’s injunctions
the moment she returned, she took no harm, and grew much stronger.
It is not encountering the weather that is dangerous, but
encountering it when the strength is not equal to the encounter.
These two would come in wet from head to foot, change their
clothes, have a good meal, sleep well, and wake in the morning
without the least cold. They would spend the hours between
breakfast and dinner ascending the bank of a hill-stream, dammed by
the snow, swollen by the thaw, and now rushing with a roar to the
valley; or fighting their way through wind and sleet to the top of
some wild expanse of hill-moorland, houseless for miles and
miles--waste bog, and dry stony soil, as far as eye could reach,
with here and there a solitary stock or bush, bending low to the
ground in the steady bitter wind--a hopeless region, save that it
made the hope in their hearts glow the redder; or climbing a gully,
deep-worn not by the few wheels of a month but the many of centuries,
and more by the torrents that rushed always down its trench when it
rained heavily, or thawed after snow--hearing the wind sweep across
it above their heads, but feeling no breath of its presence, till
emerging suddenly upon its plane, they had to struggle with it for
very foot-hold upon the round earth. In such contests Lady Joan
delighted. It was so nice, she said, to have a downright good
fight, and nobody out of temper! She would come home from the windy
war with her face glowing, her eyes flashing, her hair challenging
storm from every point of the compass, and her heart merry with
very peacefulness. Her only thoughts of trouble were, that her
father’s body lay unburied, and that Borland would come and take
her away.

When the thaw came at last, the laird had the coffin brought again
into the guest-chamber, and there placed on trestles, to wait the
coming of the new Lord Mergwain.

Outstripping the letter that announced his departure, he arrived at
length, and with him his man of business. Lady Joan’s heart gave a
small beat of pleasure at sight of him, then lay quiet, sad, and
apprehensive: the cold proper salute he gave her seemed, after the
life she had of late been living, to belong rather to some sunless
world than the realms of humanity. He uttered one commonplace
concerning his father’s death, and never alluded to it again;
behaved in a dignified, recognizant manner to the laird, as to an
inferior to whom he was under more obligation than he saw how to
wipe out; and, after the snub with which he met the boy’s friendly
approach, took no farther notice of Cosmo. Seated three minutes, he
began to require the laird’s assistance towards the removal of the
body; could not be prevailed upon to accept refreshment; had a
messenger dispatched instantly to procure the nearest hearse and
four horses; and that same afternoon started for England, following
the body, and taking his sister with him.




CHAPTER XIX.

AN “INTERLUNAR CAVE.”


And so the moon died out of Cosmo’s heaven. But it was only the
moon. The sun remained to him--his father--visible type of the
great sun, whose light is too keen for souls, and heart and spirit
only can bear. But when he had received Joan’s last smile, when she
turned away her face, and the Ungenial, who had spoiled everything
at Glenwarlock, carried her away, then indeed for a moment a great
cloud came over the light of his life, and he sought where to hide
his tears. It was a sickening time, for suddenly she had come,
suddenly entered his heart, and suddenly departed. But such things
are but clouds, and cannot but pass. Ah, reader! it may be your
cloud has not yet passed, and you scorn to hear it called one,
priding yourself that your trouble is eternal. But just because you
are eternal, your trouble cannot be. You may cling to it, and brood
over it, but you cannot keep it from either blossoming into a
bliss, or crumbling to dust. Be such while it lasts, that, when it
passes, it shall leave you loving more, not less.

There was this difference between Cosmo and most young men of clay
finer than ordinary, that, after the first few moments of the
seemingly unendurable, he did not wander about moody, nursing his
sorrow, and making everybody uncomfortable because he was
uncomfortable; but sought the more the company of his father, and
of Mr. Simon, from whom he had been much separated while Lady Joan
was with them. For such a visit was an opportunity most precious in
the eyes of the laird. With the sacred instinct of a father he
divined what the society of a lady would do for his boy--for the
ripening of his bloom, and the strengthening of his volition. Two
days had not passed before he began to be aware of a softening and
clearing of his speech; of greater readiness and directness in his
replies; of an indescribable sweetening of the address, that had
been sweet, with a rose-shadow of gentle apology cast over every
approach; of a deepening of the atmosphere of his reverence, which
yet as it deepened grew more diaphanous. And when now the episode
of angelic visitation was over, with his usual wisdom he understood
the wrench her abrupt departure must have given his whole being,
and allowed him plenty of time to recover himself from it. Once he
came upon him weeping: not with faintest overshadowing did he
rebuke him, not with farthest hint suggest weakness in his tears.
He went up to him, laid his hand gently on his head, stood thus a
moment, then turned without a word, and left him. Nowise because of
his sorrow did he regret the freedom he had granted their
intercourse. He knew what the sharp things of life are to the human
plant; that its frosts are as needful as its sunshine, its great
passion-winds as its gentle rains; that a divine result is
required, and that his son was being made divinely human; that in
aid of this end the hand of man must humbly follow the great lines
of Nature, ready to withhold itself, anxious not to interfere. Most
people resist the marvellous process; call in the aid of worldly
wisdom for low ends; and bring the experience of their own failures
to bear for the production of worse. But there is no escaping the
mill that grinds slowly and grinds small; and those who refuse to
be living stones in the living temple, must be ground into mortar
for it.

The next day, of his own choice, Cosmo went to Mr. Simon. He also
knew how to treat the growing plant. He set him such work as should
in a measure harmonize with his late experience, and so drew him
gently from his past: mere labour would have but driven him deeper
into it. Yesterday is as much our past as the bygone century, and
sheltering in it from an uncongenial present, we are lost to our
morrow. Thus things slid gently back with him into their old
grooves. An era of blessedness had vanished, but was not lost; it
was added to his life, gathered up into his being; it was dissolved
into his consciousness, and interpenetrated his activity. Where
there is no ground of regret, or shame, or self-reproach, new joy
casts not out the old; and now that the new joy was old, the older
joys came softly trooping back to their attendance. Nor was this
all. The departing woman left behind her a gift that had never been
hers--the power of verse: he began to be a poet. The older I grow
the more am I filled with marvel at the divine idea of the mutual
development of the man and the woman. Many a woman has made of a
man, for the time at least, and sometimes for ever, a poet, caring
for his verses never a cambric handkerchief or pair of gloves! A
wretched man to whom a poem is not worth a sneer, may set a woman
singing to the centuries!

Any gift of the nature of poetry, however poor or small, is of
value inestimable to the development of the individual, ludicrous
even though it may show itself, should conceit clothe it in print.
The desire of fame, so vaunted, is the ruin of the small, sometimes
of the great poet. The next evil to doing anything for love of
money, is doing it for the love of fame. A man may have a wife who
is all the world to him, but must he therefore set her on a throne?
Cosmo, essentially and peculiarly practical, never thought of the
world and his verses together, but gathered life for himself in the
making of them.

These children of his, like all real children, strengthened his
heart, and upheld his hands. In them Truth took to him shape; in
them she submitted herself to his contemplation. He grew faster,
and from the days of his mourning emerged more of a man, and abler
to look the world in the face.

From that time also he learned and understood more rapidly, though
he never came to show any great superiority in the faculties most
prized of this world, whose judgment differs from that of God’s
kingdom in regard to the comparative value of intellectual gifts
almost as much as it does in regard to the relative value of the
moral and the intellectual. Not the less desirable however did it
seem in the eyes of both his father and his tutor, that, if it
could anyhow be managed, he should go the next winter to college.
As to how it could be managed, the laird took much serious thought,
but saw no glimmer of light in the darkness of apparent
impossibility. An unsuspected oracle was however at hand.

Old servants of the true sort, have, I fancy, a kind of family
instinct. From the air about them almost, from the personal
carriage, from words dropped that were never meant for them, from
the thoughtful, troubled, or eager look, and the sought or avoided
conference, they get possessed by a notion both of how the wind is
blowing, and of how the ship wants to sail. But Grizzie was capable
of reasoning from what she saw. She marked the increase of care on
the brow of her master; noted that it was always greater after he
and Mr. Simon had had a talk at which Cosmo, the beloved of both,
was not present; and concluded that their talk, and the laird’s
trouble, must be about Cosmo. She noted also that both were as much
pleased with him as ever, and concluded therefore it was his
prospects and not his behaviour that caused the uneasiness. Then
again she noted how fervently at prayers her master entreated
guidance to do neither more nor less than the right thing; and from
all put together, and considered in the light of a tolerably
accurate idea of the laird’s circumstances, Grizzie was able not
only to arrive at a final conclusion, but to come to the resolution
of offering--not advice--that she would never have presumed
upon--but a suggestion.




CHAPTER XX.

CATCH YER NAIG.


One night the laird sat in the kitchen revolving in his mind the
whole affair for the many hundredth time. Was it right to spend on
his son’s education what might go to the creditors? Was it not
better for the world, for the creditors, and for all, that one of
Cosmo’s vigour should be educated? Was it not the best possible
investment of any money he could lay hold of? As to the creditors,
there was the land! the worst for him was the best for them; and
for the boy it was infinitely better he should go without land than
without education! But, all this granted and settled, _where was the
money to come from_? That the amount required was small, made no
difference, when it was neither in hand, nor, so far as he could
see, anywhere near his hand.

He sat in his great chair, with his book open upon his knees. His
mother and Cosmo were gone to bed, and Grizzie was preparing to
follow them: the laird was generally the last to go. But Grizzie,
who had been eying him at intervals for the last half hour, having
now finished her preparations for the morning, drew near, and stood
before him, with her hands and bare arms under her apron. Her
master taking no notice of her, she stood thus in silence for a
moment, then began. It may have been noted that the riming tendency
appeared mostly in the start of a speech, and mostly vanished
afterwards.

“Laird,” she said, “ye’re in trouble, for ye’re sittin’ double, an’
castna a leuk upo’ yer buik. Gien ye wad lat a body speyk ’at kens
naething, ’cep’ ’at oot o’ the moo’ o’ babes an’ sucklin’s--an’ troth
I’m naither babe nor sucklin’ this mony a lang, but I’m a
muckle eneuch gowk to be ane o’ the Lord’s innocents, an’ hae him
perfec’ praise oot o’ the moo’ o’ me!--”

She paused a moment, feeling it was time the laird should say
something--which immediately he did.

“Say awa’, Grizzie,” he answered; “I’m hearin’ ye. There’s nane has
a better richt to say her say i’ this hoose; what ither hae ye to
say ’t intil!”

“I hae _no_ richt,” retorted Grizzie, almost angrily, “but what ye
alloo me, laird; and I wadna wuss the Lord to gie me ony mair. But
whan I see ye in tribble--eh, mony’s the time I haud my tongue till
my hert’s that grit it’s jist swallin’ in blobs an’ blawin’ like
the parritch whan its dune makin’, afore tak it frae the fire! for
I hae naething to say, an’ naither coonsel nor help intil me. But
last nicht, whan I leukit na for ’t, there cam a thoucht intil my
heid, an’ seein’ it was a stranger, I bad it walcome. It micht hae
come til a far wysser heid nor mine, but seein’ it did come to
mine, it wad luik as gien the Lord micht hae pitten’ t’ there--to
the comfort an’ consolation o’ ane, ’at, gien she be a gowk, is
muckle the same as the Lord made her wi’ ’s ain bliss-it han’. Sae,
quo’ I, I s’ jist submit the thing to the laird. He’ll sune discern
whether it be frae the Lord or mysel’!”

“Say on, Grizzie,” returned the laird, when again she paused. “It
sud surprise nane to get a message frae the Lord by the mou’ o’ ane
o’ his handmaidens.”

“Weel, it’s this, laird.--I hae often been i’ the gran’ drawin’
room, when ye wad be lattin’ the yoong laird, or somebody or
anither ye wantit to be special til, see the bonny things ye hae
sic a fouth o’ i’ the caibnets again the wa’s; an’ I hae aye h’ard
ye say o’ ane o’ them--yon bonny little horsie, ye ken, ’at they say
the auld captain, ’at’s no laid yet, gied to yer gran’father--I hae
aye h’ard ye say o’ that, ’at hoo it was solid siller--‘_said to be_,’
ye wad aye tack to the tail o’ ’t.”

“True! true!” said the laird, a hopeful gleam beginning to break
upon his darkness.

“Well, ye see, laird,” Grizzie went on, “I’m no sic a born idiot
as think ye wad set the possession o’ sic a playock again’ the yoong
laird’s edication; sae ye maun hae some rizzon for no meltin’ ’t
doon--seein’ siller maun aye be worth siller,--an’ gowd, gien there
be eneuch o’ ’t. Sae, like the minister, I come to the
conclusion--But I hae yer leave, laird, to speyk?”

“Gang on, gang on, Grizzie,” said the laird, almost eagerly.

“Weel, laird--I winna say _feart_, for I never saw yer lairdship”
--she had got into the way of saying _lordship_, and now not
unfrequently said _lairdship_!--“feart afore bull or bully, but I
cud weel believe ye wadna willin’ly anger ane ’at the Lord lats
gang up and doon upo’ the earth, whan he wad be far better intil ’t,
ristin’ in ’s grave till the resurrection--only he was never ane o’
the sancts! But anent that, michtna ye jist ca’ to min’, laird, ’at
a gi’en gift’s yer ain, to du wi’ what ye like; an’ I wad na heed
man, no to say a cratur ’at belangs richtly to nae warl’ ava’, ’at
wad play the bairn, an’ want back what he had gi’en. For him, he’s
a mere deid man ’at winna lie still. Mony a bairn canna sleep,
’cause he’s behavet himsel’ ill the day afore! But gi’en, by
coortesy like, he hed a word i’ the case, he cudna objec’--that is,
gien he hae onything o’ the gentleman left intil him, which nae
doobt may weel be doobtfu’--for wasna he a byous expense wi’ his
drink an’ the gran’ ootlandish dishes he bude to hae! Aften hae I
h’ard auld Grannie say as muckle, an’ she kens mair aboot that
portion o’ oor history nor ony ither, for, ye see, I cam raither
late intil the faimily mysel’. Sae, as I say, it wad be but fair
the auld captain sud contreebit something to the needcessities o’
the hoose, war it his to withhaud, which I mainteen it is not.”

“Weel rizzont, Grizzie!” cried the laird. “An’ I thank ye mair for
yer thoucht nor yer rizzons; the tane I was in want o’, the tither
I was na. The thing sall be luikit intil, an’ that the first thing
the morn’s mornin’! The bit playock cam never i’ my heid! I maun be
growin’ auld, Grizzie, no to hae thoucht o’ a thing sae plain! But
it’s the w’y wi’ a’ the best things! They’re sae guid whan ye get a
grip o’ them, ’at ye canna un’erstan’ hoo ye never thoucht o’ them
afore.”

“I’m aul’er nor you, sir; sae it maun hae been the Lord himsel’ ’at
pat it intil me.”

“We’ll see the morn, Grizzie. I’m no that sure there’s onything
mair intil ’t nor a mere fule word. For onything I ken, the thing
may be nae better nor a bit o’ braiss. I hae thoucht mony a time it
luikit, in places, unco like braiss. But I s’ tak it the morn’s
mornin’ to Jeemie Merson. We’ll see what he says til ’t. Gien ony
body i’ these pairts hae ony authority in sic maitters, it’s
Jeemie. An’ I thank ye hertily, Grizzie.”

But Grizzie was not well pleased that her master should so lightly
pass the reasoned portion of her utterance; like many another
prophet, she prized more the part of her prophecy that came from
herself, than the part that came from the Lord.

“Sae plain as he cam an’ gaed, laird, I thoucht ye micht hae been
considerin’ him.”

The laird replied to her tone rather than her words.

“Hoots, Grizzie, wuman!” he said, “was na ye jist tellin’ me no to
heed him a hair? An’ no ae hair wad I heed him, ’cep’ it wad gie ony
rist til ’s puir wan’erin’ sowl.”

“I but thoucht the thing worth a thoucht, laird,” said Grizzie,
humbly and apologetically; and with a kind “Guid nicht to ye,
laird,” turned away, and went up the stairs to her room.

The moment she was gone, the laird fell on his knees, and gave God
thanks for the word he had received by his messenger--if indeed it
pleased him that such Grizzie should prove to be.

“O Lord,” he said, “with thee the future is as the present, and the
past as the future. In the long past it may be thou didst provide
this supply for my present need--didst even then prepare the answer
to the prayers with which thou knewest I should assail thine ear.
Never in all my need have I so much desired money as now for the
good of my boy. But if this be but one of my hopes, not one of thy
intents, give me the patience of a son, O Father.”

With these words he rose from his knees, and taking his book, read
and enjoyed into the dead of the night.

That same night, Cosmo, who, again in his own chamber, was the more
troubled with the trouble of his father that he was no longer with
him in his room, dreamed a very odd, confused dream, of which he
could give himself but little account in the morning--something
about horses shod with shoes of gold, which they cast from their
heels in a shoe-storm as they ran, and which anybody might have for
the picking up. And throughout the dream was diffused an
unaccountable flavour of the old villain, the sea-captain, although
nowhere did he come into the story.

When he came down to breakfast, his father told him, to his
delight, that he was going to Muir of Warlock, and would like him
to go with him. He ran like a hare up the waterside to let Mr.
Simon know, and was back by the time his father was ready.




CHAPTER XXI.

THE WATCHMAKER.


It was a lovely day. There would be plenty of cold and rough
weather yet, but the winter was over and gone, and even to that
late region of the north, the time of the singing of birds was
come. The air was soft, with streaks of cold in it. The fields lay
about all wet, but there was the sun above them, whose business it
was to dry them. There were no leaves yet on the few trees and
hedges, but preparations had long been made, and the sap was now
rising in their many stems, like the mercury in all the
thermometers. Up also rose the larks, joy fluttering their wings,
and quivering their throats. They always know when the time to
praise God is come, for it is when they begin to feel happy: more
cannot be expected of them. And are they not therein already on the
level of most of us Christians who in this mood and that praise
God? And indeed are not the birds and the rest of the creatures
Christians in the same way as the vast mass of those that call
themselves such? Do they not belong to the creation groaning after
a redemption they do not know? Men and women groan in misery from
not being yet the sons and daughters of God, who regard nothing
else as redemption, but the getting of their own way, which the
devil only would care to give them.

As they went, the laird told Cosmo what was taking him to the
village, and the boy walked by his father’s side as in a fairy
tale; for had they not with them a strange thing that might prove
the talismanic opener of many doors to treasure-caves?

They went straight to the shop, if shop it could be called, of
Jeames Merson, the watchmaker of the village. There all its little
ornamental business was done--a silver spoon might be engraved, a
new pin put to a brooch, a wedding ring of sterling gold purchased,
or a pair of earings of lovely glass, representing amethyst or
topaz. There a second-hand watch might be had, with choice amongst
a score, taken in exchange from ploughmen or craftsmen. Jeames was
poor, for there was not much trade in his line, and so was never
able to have much of a stock; but he was an excellent
watchmaker--none better in the great city--so at least his
town-folk believed, and in a village it soon appears whether a
watchmaker has got it in him.

He was a thin, pale man, with a mixed look of rabbit and ferret, a
high narrow forehead, and keen gray eyes. His work-shop and
show-room was the kitchen, partly for the sake of his wife’s
company, partly because there was the largest window the cottage
could boast. In this window was hung almost his whole stock, and a
table before it was covered with his work and tools. He was
stooping over it, his lens in his eye, busy with a watch, of which
several portions lay beside him protected from the dust by footless
wine-glasses, when the laird and Cosmo entered. He put down pinion
and file, pushed back his chair, and rose to receive them.

“A fine mornin’, Jeames!” said the laird. “I houp ye’re weel, and
duin’ weel.”

“Muckle the same as usual, laird, an’ I thank ye,” answered Jeames,
with a large smile. “I’m no jist upo’ the ro’d to be what they ca’
a millionaire, an’ I’m no jist upon the perris--something atween
the twa, I’m thinkin’.”

“I doobt there’s mair o’ ane’s in like condition, Jeames,”
responded the laird, “or we wad na be comin’ to tax yer skeel at
this present.”

“Use yer freedom, laird; I’m yer heumble servan’. It wadna be a
watch for the yoong laird? I kenna--”

He stopped, and cast an anxious eye towards the window.

“Na, na,” interrupted the laird, sorry to have raised even so much
of a vain hope in the mind of the man, “I’m as far frae a watch as
ye are frae the bank. But I hae here i’ my pooch a bit silly
playock, ’at’s been i’ the hoose this mony a lang; an’ jist this
last nicht it was pitten intil my heid there micht be some guid
intl the chattel, seein’ i’ the tradition o’ the faimily it’s aye
been hauden for siller. For my ain pairt I hae my doobts; but gien
onybody here aboot can tell the trowth on ’t, yersel’ maun be the
man; an’ sae I hae brought it, to ken what ye wad say til ’t.”

“I’ll du my best to lowse yer doobt, laird,” returned Jeames.
“Lat ’s hae a luik at the article.”

The laird took the horse from his pocket, and handed it to him.
Jeames regarded it for some time with interest, and examined it
with care.

“It’s a bonny bit o’ carved work,” he said; “--a bairnly kin’ o’ a
thing for shape--mair like a timmer horsie; but whan ye come to the
ornamentation o’ the same, it’s o’ anither character frae the roon’
spots o’ reid paint--an’ sae’s the sma’ rubies an’ stanes intil ’t.
This has taen a heap o’ time, an’ painsfu’ labour--a deal mair nor
some o’ ’s wad think it worth, I doobt! It’s the w’y o’ the
haithens wi’ their graven eemages, but what for a horsie like this,
I dinna ken. Hooever, that’s naither here nor there: ye didna come
to me to speir hoo or what for it was made; it’s what is ’t made o’
’s the question. It’s some yallow-like for siller; an’ it’s unco
black, which is mair like it--but that may be wi’ dirt.--An’ dirt
I’m thinkin’ it maun be, barkit intil the gravin’,” he went on,
taking a tool and running the point of it along one of the fine
lines. “Troth ohn testit, I wadna like to say what it was. But it’s
an unco weicht!--I doobt--na, I mair nor doobt it canna be siller.”

So saying he carried it to his table, put it down, and went to a
corner-cupboard. Thence he brought a small stoppered phial. He gave
it a little shake, and took out the stopper. It was followed by a
dense white fume. With the stopper he touched the horse underneath,
and looked closely at the spot. He then replaced the stopper and
the bottle, and stood by the cupboard, gazing at nothing for a
moment. Then turning to the laird, he said, with a peculiar look
and a hesitating expression:

“Na, laird, it’s no siller. Aquafortis winna bite upo’ ’t. I wad mix
’t wi’ muriatic, an’ try that, but I hae nane handy, an’ forby it
wad tak time to tell. Ken ye whaur it cam frae?--Ae thing I’m sure
o’--it’s no siller!”

“I’m sorry to hear it,” rejoined the laird, with a faint smile and
a little sigh.--“Well, we’re no worse off than we were, Cosmo!--But
poor Grizzie! she’ll be dreadfully disappointed.--Gie me the bit
horsie, Jeames; we’ll e’en tak’ him hame again. It’s no his fau’t,
puir thing, ’at he’s no better nor he was made!”

“Wad ye no tell me whaur the bit thing cam frae, or is supposit to
hae come frae, sir? H’ard ye it ever said, for enstance, ’at the
auld captain they tell o’ had broucht it?”

“That’s what I hae h’ard said,” answered the laird.

“Weel, sir,” returned Jeames, “gien ye had nae objection, I wad
fain mak’ oot what the thing _is_ made o’.”

“It matters little,” said the laird, “seein’ we ken what it’s
_no_ made o’; but tak’ yer wull o’ ’t, Jeames.”

“Sit ye doon than, laird, gien ye hae naething mair pressin’, an’
see what I mak’ o’ ’t,” said the watchmaker, setting him a chair.

“Wullin’ly,” replied the laird, “--but I dinna like takin’ up yer
time.”

“Ow, my time’s no sae dooms precious! I can aye win throu’ wi’ my
work ohn swatten,” said Jeames, with a smile in which mingled a
half comical sadness. “An’ it wad set me to waur ’t (_puzzle me to
spend it_) better to my ain min’ nor servin’ yersel’, i’ the
sma’est, sir.”

The laird thanked him, and sat down. Cosmo placed himself on a
stool beside him.

“I hae naething upo’ han’ the day,” Jeames Merson went on, “but a
watch o’ Jeames Gracie’s, up at the Know--ane o’ yer ain fowk,
laird. He tells me it was your gran’father, sir, gied it til his
gran’father. It’s a queer auld-fashiont kin’ o’ a thing--some
complicat; an’ whiles it’s ’maist ower muckle for me. Ye see auld
age is aboot the warst disease horses an’ watches can be ta’en wi’:
there’s sae little left to come an’ gang upo’!”

While the homely assayer thus spoke, he was making his
preparations.

“What for no men as weel ’s horses an’ watches?” suggested the
laird.

“I wadna meddle wi’ men. I lea’ them to the doctors an’ the
ministers,” replied Jeames, with another wide, silent laugh.

By this time he had got a pair of scales carefully adjusted, a
small tin vessel in one of them, and balancing weights in the
other. Then he went to the rack over the dresser, and mildly
lamenting his wife’s absence and his own inability to lay his hand
on the precise vessels he wanted, brought thence a dish and a
basin. The dish he placed on the table with the basin in it and
filled the latter with water to the very brim. He then took the
horse, placed it gently in the basin, which was large enough to
receive it entirely, and set basin and horse aside. Taking then
the dish into which the water had overflowed, he poured its
contents into the tin vessel in the one scale, and added weights to
the opposite until they balanced each other, upon which he made a
note with a piece of chalk on the table. Next, he removed
everything from the scales, took the horse, wiped it in his apron,
and weighed it carefully. That done, he sat down, and leaning back
in his chair, seemed to his visitors to be making a calculation,
only the conjecture did not quite fit the strange, inscrutable
expression of his countenance. The laird began to think he must be
one of those who delight to plaster knowledge with mystery.

“Weel, laird,” said Jeames at length, “the weicht o’ what ye hae
laid upo’ me, maks me doobtfu’ whaur nae doobt sud be. But I’m b’un’ to
say, ootside the risk o’ some mistak, o’ the gr’un’s o’
which I can ken naething, for else I wadna hae made it, ’at this bit
horsie o’ yours, by a’ ’at my knowledge or skeel, which is naither
o’ them muckle, can tell me--this bit horsie--an’ gien it binna as
I say, I can_not_ see what for it sudna be sae--only, ye see, laird,
whan we think we ken a’ thing, there’s a heap ahint oor _a’ thing_; an’
feow ken better, at least feow hae a richt to ken better, nor I du
mysel’, what a puir cratur is man, an hoo liable to mak mistaks,
e’en whan he’s duin’ his best to be i’ the richt; an for oucht ’at
I ken, there may hae been grit discoveries made, ohn ever come to
my hearin’, ’at upsets a’ thing I ever was gien to tak, an’ haud by
for true; an’ yet I daurna withhaud the conclusion I’m driven til,
for maybe whiles the hert o’ man may gang the wrang gait by bein’
ower wise in its ain conceit o’ expeckin’ ower little, jist as
weel ’s in expeckin’ ower muckle, an’ sae I’m b’un’ to tell ye,
laird, ’at yer expectations frae this knot o’ metal,--for metal we
maun alloo it to be, whatever else it be or bena--yer expectations,
I say, are a’ thegither wrang, for it’s no more siller nor my wife’s
kitchie-poker.”

“Weel, man!” said the laird, with a laugh that had in it just a
touch of scorn, “gien the thing be sae plain, what gars ye gang
that gait aboot the buss to say ’t? Du ye tak me and Cosmo here for
bairns ’at wad fa’ a greetin’ gien ye tellt them their ba-lamb
wasna a leevin’ ane--naething but a fussock o’ cotton-’oo’, rowed
roon’ a bit stick? We’re naither o’ ’s complimentit.--Come, Cosmo.
--I’m nane the less obleeged to ye, Jeames,” he added as he rose,
“though I cud weel wuss yer opingon had been sic as wad hae
pitten ’t i’ my pooer to offer ye a fee for ’t.”

“The less said aboot that the better, laird,” replied Jeames with
imperturbability, and his large, silent smile; “the trowth’s the
trowth, whether it’s paid for or no. But afore ye gang it’s but
fair to tell ye--only I wadna like to be hauden ower strickly
accoontable for the opingon, seein’ its no my profession, as they
ca’ ’t, but I hae dune my best, an gien I be i’ the wrang, I
naither hae nor had ony ill design intil ’t.--”

“Bless my soul!” cried the laird, with more impatience than Cosmo
had ever seen him show, “is the man mad, or does he take me for a
fool?”

“There’s some things, laird,” resumed Jeames, “that hae to be
approcht oontil, wi’ circumspection an’ a proaper regaird to the
impression they may mak. Noo, disclaimin’ ony desire to luik like
an ill-bred scoon’rel, whilk I wad raither luik to onybody nor to
yersel’, laird, I ventur to jaloose ’at maybe the maitter o’ a feow
poun’s micht be o’ some consequence to ye,--”

“Ilka fule i’ the country kens that ’at kens Glenwarlock,”
interrupted the laird, and turned hastily. “Come, Cosmo.”

Cosmo went to open the door, troubled to see his father annoyed
with the unintelligibility of the man.

“Weel, gien ye _wull_ gang,” said Jeames, “I maun jist tak my life i’
my han’, an’--”

“Hoot, man! tak yer tongue i’ yer teeth; it’ll be mair to the
purpose,” cried the laird laughing, for he had got over his ill
humour already. “My life i’ my han’, quo’ he!--Man, I haena carriet
a dirk this mony a day! I laid it aff wi’ the kilt.”

“Weel, it micht be the better ’at ye hadna, gien ye binna gaein
hame afore nicht, for I saw some cairds o’ the ro’d the day.--Ance
mair, gien ye wad but hearken til ane ’at confesses he oucht to
ken, even sud he be i’ the wrang, I tell ye that horsie is _not_
siller--na, nor naething like it.”

“Plague take the man!--what is it, then?” cried the laird.

“What for didna ye speir that at me afore?” rejoined Jeames. “It
wad hae gien me leeberty to tell ye--to the best o’ my abeelity
that is. Whan I’m no cocksure--an’ its ower muckle a thing to be
cocksure aboot--I wadna volunteer onything. I wadna say naething
till I was adjured like an evil speerit.”

“Weel,” quoth the laird, entering now into the humour of the thing,
“herewith I adjure thee, thou contrairy and inarticulate speerit,
that thou tell me whereof and of what substance this same toy-horse
is composed, manufactured, or made up.”

“Toy here, toy there!” returned Jeames; “sae far as ony
cawpabeelity o’ mine, or ony puir skeel I hae, will alloo o’
testimony--though min’ ye, laird, I winna tak the consequences o’
bein’ i’ the wrang--though I wad raither tak them, an’ ower again,
nor be i’ the wrang,--”

The laird turned and went out, followed by Cosmo. He began to think
the man must have lost his reason. But when the watchmaker saw them
walking steadily along the street in the direction of home, he
darted out of the door and ran after them.

“Gien ye _wad_ gang, laird,” he said, in an injured tone, “ye mecht
hae jist latten me en’ the sentence I had begun!”

“There’s nae en’ to ony o’ yer sentences, man!” said the laird;
“that’s the only thing i’ them ’at was forgotten, ’cep’ it was the
sense.”

“Weel, guid day to ye laird!” returned Jeames. “Only,” he added,
drawing a step nearer, and speaking in a subdued confidential
voice, “dinna lat yer harsie rin awa’ upo’ the ro’d hame, for I
sweir til ye, gien there be only trowth i’ the laws o’ natur, he’s
no siller, nor onything like it--”

“Hoots!” said the laird, and turning away, walked off with great
strides.

“But,” the watchmaker continued, almost running to keep up with
him, and speaking in a low, harsh, hurried voice, as if thrusting
the words into his ears, “naither mair nor less nor solid
gowd--pure gowd, no a grain o’ alloy!”

That said, he turned, went back at the same speed, shot himself
into his cottage, and closed the door.

The father and son stopped, and looked at each other for a moment.
Then the laird walked slowly on. After a minute or two, Cosmo
glanced up in his face, but his father did not return the glance,
and the boy saw that he was talking to another. By and by he heard
him murmur to himself, “The gifts of God are without repentance.”

Not a word passed between them as they went home, though all the
time it seemed to both father and son that they were holding
closest converse. The moment they reached the castle, the laird
went to his room--to the closet where his few books lay, and got
out a volume of an old cyclopædia, where he read all he could find
about gold. Thence descending to the kitchen, he rummaged out a
rusty old pair of scales, and with their help arrived at the
conclusion that the horse weighed about three pounds avoirdupois:
it might be worth about a hundred and fifty pounds. Ready money,
this was a treasure in the eyes of one whose hand had seldom indeed
closed upon more than ten pounds at once. Here was large provision
for the four years of his boy’s college life! Nor was the margin it
would leave for his creditors by any means too small for
consideration! It is true the golden horse, hoofs, and skin, and
hair of jewels, could do but little towards the carting away of the
barrow of debt that crushed Glenwarlock; but not the less was it a
heavenly messenger of good will to the laird. There are who are so
pitiful over the poor man, that, finding they cannot lift him
beyond the reach of the providence which intends there shall always
be the poor on the earth, will do for him nothing at all.

“Where is the use?” they say. They treat their money like their
children, and would not send it into a sad house. If they had
themselves no joys but their permanent ones, where would the hearts
of them be? Can such have a notion of the relief, the glad rebound
of the heart of the poor man, the in-burst of light, the
re-creation of the world, when help, however temporary, reaches
him? A man like the laird of Glenwarlock, capable of a large
outlook, one that reaches beyond the wide-spread skirts of his
poverty, sees in it an arc of the mighty rainbow that circles the
world, a well in the desert he is crossing to the pastures of red
kine and woolly sheep. It is to him a foretaste of the final
deliverance. While the rich giver is saying, “Poor fellow, he will
be just as bad next month again!” the poor fellow is breathing the
airs of paradise, reaping more joy of life in half a day than his
benefactor in half a year, for help is a quick seed and of rapid
growth, and bourgeons in a moment into the infinite æons.
Everything in this world is but temporary: why should temporary
help be undervalued? Would you not pull out a drowning bather
because he will bathe again to-morrow? The only question is--_does
it help_? Jonah might grumble at the withering of his gourd, but if
it had not grown at all, would he ever have preached to Nineveh? It
set the laird on a Pisgah-rock, whence he gazed into the promised
land.

The rich, so far as money-needs are concerned, live under a
cloudless sky of summer--dreary rather, and shallow, it seems to me,
however lovely its blue light; when for the poor man a breach is
made through a vaporous firmament, he sees deeper into the blue
because of the framing clouds--sees up to worlds invisible in the
broad glare. I know not how the born-rich, still less those who
have given themselves with success to the making of money, can
learn that God is the all in all of men, for this world’s needs as
well as for the eternal needs. I know they may learn it, for the
Lord has said that God can even teach the rich, and I have known of
them who seemed to know it as well as any poor man; but speaking
generally, the rich have not the same opportunity of knowing
God--nor the same conscious need of him--that the poor man has. And
when, after a few years, all, so far as things to have and to hold
are concerned, are alike poor, and all, as far as any need of them
is concerned, are alike rich, the advantage will all be on the side
of such as, neither having nor needing, do not desire them. In the
meantime, the rich man who, without pitying his friend that he is
not rich also, cheerfully helps him over a stone where he cannot
carry him up the hill of his difficulty, rejoicing to do for him
what God allows, is like God himself, the great lover of his
children, who gives a man infinitely, though he will not take from
him his suffering until strength is perfected in his weakness.

The laird called Cosmo, and they went out together for a walk in
the fields, where they might commune in quiet. There they talked
over the calculation the laird had made of the probable worth of
the horse; and the father, unlike most prudent men, did not think
it necessary to warn his son against too sure an expectation, and
so prepare him for the consequence of a possible mistake; he did
not imagine that disappointment, like the small-pox, requires the
vaccination of apprehension--that a man, lest he should be more
miserable afterwards, must make himself miserable now. In matters
of hope as well as fear, he judged the morrow must look after
itself; believed the God who to-day is alive in to-morrow, looks
after our affairs there where we cannot be. I am far from sure that
the best preparation for a disappointment is not the hope that
precedes it.

Friends, let us hold by our hopes. All colours are shreds of the
rainbow. There is a rainbow of the cataract, of the paddle-wheel,
of the falling wave: none of them is the rainbow, yet they are all
of it; and if they vanish, so does the first, the arch-rainbow, the
bow set in the cloud, while that which set it there, and will set
it again, vanishes never. All things here pass; yet say not they
are but hopes. It is because they are not the thing hoped for that
they are precious--the very opals of the soul. By our hopes are we
saved. There is many a thing we could do better without than the
hope of it, for our hopes ever point beyond the thing hoped for.
The bow is the damask flower on the woven tear-drops of the world;
hope is the shimmer on the dingy warp of trouble shot with the
golden woof of God’s intent. Nothing almost sees miracles but
misery.

Cosmo never forgot that walk in the fields with his father. When
the money was long gone after the melted horse, that hour spent
chiefly amongst the great _horse-gowans_ that adorned the thin soil
of one of the few fields yet in some poor sense their own, remained
with him--to be his for ever--a portion of the inheritance of the
meek. The joy had brought their hearts yet closer to each other, for
one of the lovelinesses of true love is that it may and must
always be more. In a gravelly hollow, around which rose hillocks,
heaped by far off tides in times afar, they knelt together on the
thin grass, among the ox-eyes, and gave God thanks for the golden
horse on which Cosmo was to ride to the temple of knowledge.

After, they sat a long time talking over the strange thing. All
these years had the lump of gold been lying in the house, ready for
their great need! For what was lands, or family, or ancient name,
to the learning that opens doors, the hand-maiden of the
understanding, which is the servant of wisdom, who reads in the
heart of him who made the heaven and the earth and the sea and the
fountains of water and the conscience of man! Then they began to
imagine together how the thing had come to pass. It could hardly be
that the old captain did not know what a thing he gave! Doubtless
he had intended sometime, perhaps in the knowledge of approaching
death, to say something concerning it, and in the meantime,
probably, with cunning for its better safety, had treated it as a
thing of value, but of value comparatively slight! How had it come
into existence, they next asked each other. Either it had belonged
to some wealthy prince, they concluded, or the old captain had got
it made for himself, as a convenient shape in which to carry with
him, if not ready money, yet available wealth. Cosmo suggested that
possibly, for better concealment, it had been silvered; and the
laird afterwards learned from the jeweller to whom he sold it, that
such was indeed the case. I may mention also that its worth
exceeded the laird’s calculation, chiefly because of the tiny
jewels with which it was studded.

Cosmo repeated to his father the rime he had learned from dreaming
Grannie, and told him how he heard it that time he lay a night in
her house, and what Grannie herself said about it, and now the
laird smiled, and now he looked grave; but neither of them saw how
to connect the rime with the horse of gold. For one thing, great as
was the wealth it brought them, the old captain could hardly have
expected it to embolden any one to the degree of arrogance
specified. What man would call the king his brother on the strength
of a hundred and fifty pounds?

When Grizzie learned the result of her advice, she said “Praise be
thankit!” and turned away. The next moment Cosmo heard her
murmuring to herself,

  “Whan the coo loups ower the mune,
  The reid gowd rains intil men’s shune.”




CHAPTER XXII.

THE LUMINOUS NIGHT.


That night Cosmo could not sleep. It was a warm summer night,
though not yet summer--a soft dewy night, full of genial magic and
growth--as if some fire-bergs of summer had drifted away out into
the spring, and got melted up in it. He dressed himself, and went
out. It was cool, deliciously cool, and damp, but with no shiver.
The stars were bright-eyed as if they had been weeping, and were so
joyously consoled that they forgot to wipe away their tears. They
were bright but not clear--large and shimmering, as if reflected
from some invisible sea, not immediately present to his eyes. The
gulfs in which they floated were black blue with profundity. There
was no moon, but the night was yet so far from dark, that it seemed
conscious throughout of some distant light that illumined it
without shine. And his heart felt like the night, as if it held a
deeper life than he could ever know. He wandered on till he came to
the field where he had so lately been with his father. He was not
thinking; any effort would break the world-mirror in which he
moved! For the moment he would be but a human plant, gathering
comfort from the soft coolness and the dew, when the sun had ceased
his demands. The coolness and the dew sank into him, and made his
soul long for the thing that waits the asking. He came to the spot
where his father and he had prayed together, and there kneeling
lifted up his face to the stars. Oh mighty, only church! whose roof
is a vaulted infinitude! whose lights come burning from the heart
of the Maker! church of all churches--where the Son of Man prayed!
In the narrow temple of Herod he taught the people, and from it
drove the dishonest traders; but here, under the starry roof, was
his house of prayer! church where not a mark is to be seen of human
hand! church that is all church, and nothing but church, built
without hands, despised and desecrated through unbelief! church of
God’s building! thou alone in thy grandeur art fitting type of a
yet greater, a yet holier church, whose stars are the burning eyes
of unutterable, self-forgetting love, whose worship is a ceaseless
ministration of self-forgetting deeds--the one real ideal church,
the body of the living Christ, built of the hearts and souls of men
and women out of every nation and every creed, through all time and
over all the world, redeemed alike from Judaism, paganism, and all
the false Christianities that darken and dishonor the true.

Cosmo, I say, knelt, and looked up. Then will awoke, and he lifted
up his heart, sending aloft his soul on every holy sail it could
spread, on all the wings it could put forth, as if, through the
visible, he would force his way to the invisible.

Softly through the blue night came a gentle call:

“Cosmo.”

He started, not with fear, looked round, but saw no one.

“Cosmo!” came the call again.

The sky was shining with the stars, and that other light that might
be its own; other than the stars and the sky he saw nothing. He
looked all round his narrow horizon, the edge of the hollow between
him and the sky, where the heaven and the earth met among the stars
and the grass, and the stars shimmered like glow-worms among the
thin stalks: nothing was there; its edge was unbroken by other
shape than grass, daisies, ox-eyes, and stars. A soft dreamy wind
came over the edge, and breathed once on his cheek. The voice came
again--

“Cosmo!”

It seemed to come from far away, so soft and gentle was it,
and yet it seemed near.

“It has called me three times!” said Cosmo, and rose to his feet.

There was the head of Simon Peter, as some called him, rising like
a dark sun over the top of the hollow! In the faint light Cosmo
knew him at once, gave a cry of pleasure, and ran to meet him.

“You called so softly,” said Cosmo, “I did not know your voice.”

“And you are disappointed! You thought it was a voice from some
region beyond this world! I am sorry. I called softly, because I
wanted to let you know I was coming, and was afraid of startling
you.”

[Illustration: A VAULTED INFINITUDE.]

“I confess,” replied Cosmo, “a little hope was beginning to
flutter, that perhaps I was called from somewhere in the
unseen--like Samuel, you know; but I was too glad to see you to be
much disappointed. I do sometimes wonder though, that, if there is
such a world beyond as we sometime talk about, there should be so
little communication between it and us. When I am out in the still
time of this world, and there is nothing to interfere,--when I am
not even thinking, so as to close my doors, why should never
anything come? Never in my life have I had one whisper from that
world.”

“You are saying a great deal more than you can possibly know,
Cosmo,” answered Mr. Simon. “You have had no communication
recognized by you as such, I grant. And I, who am so much older
than you, must say the same. If there be any special fitness in the
night, in its absorbing dimness, and isolating silence, for such
communication--and who can well doubt it?--I have put myself in the
heart of it a thousand times, when, longing after an open vision, I
should have counted but the glimpse of a ghostly garment the
mightiest boon, but never therefrom has the shadow of a feather
fallen upon me. Yet here I am, hoping no less, and believing no
less! The air around me may be full of ghosts--I do not know; I
delight to think they may somehow be with us, for all they are so
unseen; but so long as I am able to believe and hope in the one
great ghost, the Holy Ghost that fills all, it would trouble me
little to learn that betwixt me and the visible centre was nothing
but what the senses of men may take account of. If there be a God,
he is all in all, and filleth all things, and all is well. What
matter where the region of the dead may be? Nowhere but here are
they called the dead. When, of all paths, that to God is alone
always open, and alone can lead the wayfarer to the end of his
journey, why should I stop to peer through the fence either side of
that path? If he does not care to reveal, is it well I should make
haste to know? I shall know one day, why should I be eager to know
now?”

“But why might not something show itself once--just for once, if
only to give one a start in the right direction?” said Cosmo.

“I will tell you one reason,” returned Mr. Simon, “--the same why
everything is as it is, and neither this nor that other
way--namely, that it is best for us it should be as it is. But I
think I can see a little way into it. Suppose you saw something
strange--a sign or a wonder--one of two things, it seems to me
likely, would follow:--you would either doubt it the moment it had
vanished, or it would grow to you as one of the common things of
your daily life--which are indeed in themselves equally wonderful.
Evidently, if visions would make us sure, God does not care about
the kind of sureness they can give, or for our being made sure in
that way. A thing that gained in one way might be of less than no
value to us, gained in another, might, as a vital part of the
process, be invaluable. God will have us sure of a thing by knowing
the heart whence it comes; that is the only worthy assurance. To
know, he will have us go in at the great door of obedient faith;
and if anybody thinks he has found a backstair, he will find it
land him at a doorless wall. It is the assurance that comes of
inmost beholding of himself, of seeing what he is, that God cares
to produce in us. Nor would he have us think we know him before we
do, for thereby thousands walk in a vain show. At the same time I
am free to imagine if I imagine holily--that is, as his child. And
I imagine space full of life invisible; imagine that the young man
needed but the opening of his eyes to see the horses and chariots
of fire around his master, an inner circle to the horses and
chariots that encompassed the city to take him. As I came now
through the fields, I lost myself for a time in the feeling that I
was walking in the midst of lovely people I have known, some in
person, some by their books. Perhaps they were with me--are with
me--are speaking to me now. For if all our thoughts, from whatever
source, whether immediately from God, or through ourselves, seem to
enter the chamber of our consciousness by the same door, why may it
not be so with some that come to us from other beings? Why may not
the dead speak to me, and I be unable to distinguish their words
from my thoughts? The moment a thought is given me, my own thought
rushes to mingle with it, and I can no more part them. Some stray
hints from the world beyond may mingle even with the folly and
stupidity of my dreams.”

“But if you cannot distinguish, where is the good?” Cosmo ventured
to ask.

“Nowhere for deductive certainty. For, if the things themselves are
not worth remembering, or worthy of influencing us, is there any
good in enquiring concerning them? Shall I mind a thing that is not
worth minding, because it came to me in a dream, or was told me by
a ghost? It is the quality of a thing, not how it arrived, that is
the point. But true things are often mingled with things grotesque.
For aught I know, at one and the same time, a spirit may be taking
advantage of the door set ajar by sleep, to whisper a message of
love or repentance, and the troubled brain or heart or stomach may
be sending forth fumes that cloud the vision, and cause evil echoes
to mingle with the hearing. When you look at any bright thing for a
time, and then close your eyes, you still see the shape of it, but
in different colours. This figure has come to you from the outside
world, but the brain has altered it. Even the shape itself is
reproduced with but partial accuracy: some imperfection in the
recipient sense, or in the receptacle, sends imperfection into the
presentation. In a way something similar may our contact with the
dwellers beyond fare in our dreams. My unknown mother may be
talking to me in my sleep, and up rises some responsive but stupid
dream-cloud of my own, and mingles with and ruins the descended
grace. But it is well to remind you again that the things around us
are just as full of marvel as those into which you are so anxious
to look. Our people in the other world, although they have proved
these earthly things before, probably now feel them strange, and
full of a marvel the things about them have lost.”

“All is well. The only thing worth a man’s care is the will of God,
and that will is the same whether in this world or in the next.
That will has made this world ours, not the next; for nothing can
be ours until God has given it to us. Curiosity is but the
contemptible human shadow of the holy thing wonder. No, my son, let
us make the best we can of this life, that we may become able to
make the best of the next also.”

“And how make the best of this?” asked Cosmo.

“Simply by falling in with God’s design in the making of you. That
design must be worked out--cannot be worked out without you. You
must walk in the front of things with the will of God--not be
dragged in the sweep of his garment that makes the storm behind
him! To walk with God is to go hand in hand with him, like a boy
with his father. Then, as to the other world, or any world, as to
the past sorrow, the vanished joy, the coming fear, all is well;
for the design of the making, the loving, the pitiful, the
beautiful God, is marching on towards divine completion, that is, a
never ending one. Yea, if it please my sire that his infinite be
awful to me, yet will I face it, for it is his. Let your prayer, my
son, be like this: ‘O Maker of me, go on making me, and let me help
thee. Come, O Father! here I am; let us go on. I know that my words
are those of a child, but it is thy child who prays to thee. It is
thy dark I walk in; it is thy hand I hold.’”

The words of his teacher sank into the heart of Cosmo, for his
spirit was already in the lofty condition of capacity for receiving
wisdom direct from another.

It is a lofty condition, and they who scorn it but show they have
not reached it--nor are likely to reach it soon. Such as will not
be taught through eye or ear, must be taught through the skin, and
that is generally a long as well as a painful process. All Cosmo’s
superiority came of his having faith in those who were higher than
he. True, he had not yet been tried; but the trials of a pure,
honest, teachable youth, must, however severe, be very different
from those of one unteachable. The former are for growth, the
latter for change.




CHAPTER XXIII.

AT COLLEGE.


The summer and autumn had yet to pass before he left home for the
university of the north. He spent them in steady work with Mr.
Simon. But the steadier his work, and the greater his enjoyment of
it, the dearer was his liberty, and the keener his delight in the
world around him. He worked so well that he could afford to dream
too; and his excursions and his imaginings alike took wide and
wider sweeps; while for both, ever in the near or far distance, lay
the harbour, the nest of his home. It drew him even when it lay
behind him, and he returned to it as the goal he had set out to
seek. It was as if, in every excursion or flight, he had but sought
to find his home afresh, to approach it by a new path. But--the
wind-fall?--nay, the God-send of the golden horse, gave him such a
feeling of wealth and freedom, that he now began to dream in a
fresh direction, namely, of things he would do if he were rich; and
as he was of a constructive disposition, his fancies in this
direction turned chiefly on the enlarging and beautifying of the
castle--but always with the impossibility understood of destroying
a feature of its ancient dignity and historic worth.

A portion of the early summer he spent in enlarging the garden on
the south side or back of the house. One portion of the ground
there seemed to him to have been neglected--the part which lay
between the block in which was the kitchen, and that in which was
the drawing-room. These stood at right angles to each other, their
gables making two sides of a square. But he found the rock so near
the surface, that he could not utilize much of it. This set him
planning how the space might be used for building. In the angle,
the rock came above ground entirely, and had been made the
foundation of a wall connecting the two corners, to defend the
court--a thick strong wall of huge stones, that seemed as solid as
the rock. He grew fond of the spot, almost forsaking for it his
formerly favoured stone, and in the pauses of his gardening would
sit with his back against this wall, dreaming of the days to come.
Here also he would bring his book, and read or write for hours,
sometimes drawing plans of the changes and additions he would make,
of the passages and galleries that might be contrived to connect
the various portions of the house, and of the restoration of old
defences. The whole thing was about as visionary as his dream of
Tree-top-city, but it exercised his constructive faculty, and
exercise is growth, and growth in any direction, if the heart be
true, is growth in all directions.

The days glided by. The fervid Summer slid away round the shoulder
of the world, and made room for her dignified matron sister; my
lady Autumn swept her frayed and discoloured train out of the great
hall-door of the world, and old brother Winter, who so assiduously
waits upon the house, and cleans its innermost recesses, was
creeping around it, biding his time, but eager to get to his work.
The day drew near when Cosmo must leave the house of his fathers,
the walls that framed almost all his fancies, the home where it was
his unchanging dream to spend his life, until he went to his mother
in heaven.

I will not follow his intellectual development. The _real_ education
of the youth is enough for my narrative.

His mind was too much filled with high hopes and lofty judgments,
to be tempted like a common nature in the new circumstances in
which he found himself. There are not a few who, believing of
others as they are themselves, and teaching as they practise,
represent the youth of the nation as necessarily vile; but let not
the pure thence imagine there is no one pure but himself. There is
life in our nation yet, and a future for her yet, none the less
that the weak and cowardly and self-indulgent neither enter into
the kingdom of God, nor work any salvation in the earth. Cosmo left
the university at least as clean as he went to it.

He had few companions. Those whom he liked best could not give him
much. They looked up to him far more than he knew, for they had a vague
suspicion that he was a genius; but they ministered almost
only to his heart. The unworthy amongst his fellow-students scorned
him with looks askance, and called him Baby Warlock--for on more
than one of them he had literally turned his back when his
conversation displeased him. None of them however cared to pick a
quarrel with him. The devil finds it easier to persuade fools that
there is dignity in the knowledge of evil, and that ignorance of it
is contemptible, than to give them courage. Truly, if ignorance is
the foundation of any man’s goodness, it is not worth the wind that
upsets it, but in its mere self, ignorance of evil is a negative
good. It is those who do not love good that require to be handed
over to evil. The grinders did not care about Cosmo, for neither
was he of their sort. Now and then, however, one of them would be
mildly startled by a request from him for assistance in some
passage, which, because he did not _go in_ for what they counted
scholarship, they could hardly believe him interested. Cosmo
regarded everything from amidst associations of which they had
none. In his instinctive reach after life, he assimilated all food
that came in his way. His growing life was his sole impulsive after
knowledge. And already he saw a glimmer here and there in regions
of mathematics from which had never fallen a ray into the corner of
an eye of those grinding men. That was because he read books of
poetry and philosophy of which they had never heard. For the rest,
he passed his examinations creditably, and indeed, in more than one
case, with unexpected as unsought distinction. I must mention,
however, that he did all his set work first, and thoroughly, before
giving himself what he hungered after.

Of society in the city he had no knowledge. Amongst the
tradespeople he made one or two acquaintances.

His father had been so much pleased with the jeweller to whom he
parted with the golden horse, that he requested Cosmo to call upon
him as soon as he was settled. Cosmo found him a dignified old
gentleman--none the less of a gentleman, and all the more of a man,
that he had in his youth worked with his own hands. He took a
liking to Cosmo, and, much pleased with his ready interest in
whatever he told him, for Cosmo was never tired of listening to
anyone who talked of what he knew, made him acquainted with many
things belonging to his trade, and communicated many of his
experiences. Indifferent to the opinion of any to whom he had not
first learned to look up, nobody ever listened better than Cosmo to
any story of human life, however humble. Everybody seemed to him of
his own family. The greater was the revulsion of his feeling when
he came upon anything false in character or low in behaviour. He
was then severe, even to utter breach. Incapable of excusing
himself, he was incapable also of excusing others. But though
gentleness towards the faults of others is an indispensable fruit
of life, it is perhaps well it should be a comparatively late one:
there is danger of foreign excuse reacting on home conduct. Excuse
ought to be rooted in profoundest obedience, and outgoing love. To
say _anything_ is too small to matter, is of the devil; to say
anything is too great to forgive, is not of God. He who would
soonest die to divide evil and his fellows, will be the readiest to
make for them all _honest_ excuse.

Cosmo liked best to hear Mr. Burns talk about precious stones.
There he was great, for he had a passion for them, and Cosmo was
more than ready to be infected with it. By the hour together would
he discourse of them; now on the different and comparative merits
of individual stones which had at one time and another passed
through his hands, and on the way they were cut, or ought to have
been cut; now on the conditions of size, shape, and water, as
indicating the special best way of cutting them; now on the various
settings, as bringing out the qualities of different kinds and
differing stones.

One day he came upon the subject of the weather in relation to
stones: on such a sort of day you ought to buy this or that kind of
stone; on such another you must avoid buying this or that kind, and
seek rather to sell.

Up to this moment, and the mention of this last point, Cosmo had
believed Mr. Burns an immaculate tradesman, but here the human gem
was turned at that angle to the light which revealed the flaw in
it. There are tradesmen not a few, irreproachable in regard to
money, who are not so in regard to the quality of their wares in
relation to the price: they take and do not give the advantage of
their superior knowledge; and well can I imagine how such a one
will laugh at the idea that he ought not: to him every customer is
more or less of a pigeon.

“If I could but buy plenty of such sapphires,” said Mr. Burns, “on
a foggy afternoon like this, when the air is as yellow as a
cairngorm, and sell them the first summer-like day of spring, I
should make a fortune in a very few years.”

“But you wouldn’t do it, Mr. Burns?” Cosmo ventured to suggest, in
some foreboding anxiety, caused by the tone in which the man had
spoken: he would fain have an express repudiation of the advantage
thus to be obtained.

“Why not?” rejoined Mr. Burns, lifting his keen gray eyes, with
some wonder in them, and looking Cosmo straight in the face. His
mind also was crossed by a painful doubt: was the young man a mere
innocent? was he “_no a’ there_?”

“Because it is not honest,” replied Cosmo.

“Not honest!” exclaimed the jeweller, in a tone loud with anger,
and deep with a sense of injury--whether at the idea that he should
be capable of a dishonest thing, or at the possibility of having,
for honesty’s sake, to yield a money-making principle, I do not
know; “I present the thing as it is, and leave my customer to judge
according to his knowledge. Is mine to be worth nothing to me?
There is no deception in the affair. A jeweller’s business is not
like a horse-dealer’s. The stone is as God made it, and the day is
as God made it, only my knowledge enables me to use both to better
purpose than my neighbour can.”

“Then a man’s knowledge is for himself alone--for his own behoof
exclusively--not for the common advantage of himself and his
neighbour?” said Cosmo.

“Mine is so far for my neighbour, that I never offer him a stone
that is not all I say it is. He gets the advantage of his
knowledge, let us say, in selling me wine, which he understands to
fit my taste with; and I get the advantage of my knowledge in
selling him the ring that pleases him. Both are satisfied. Neither
asks the other what he paid for this or that. But why make any
bones about it; the first acknowledged principle in business is, to
buy in the cheapest market and sell in the dearest.”

“Where does the love of your neighbour come in then?”

“That has nothing to do with business; it belongs to the relations
of social life. No command must be interpreted so as to make it
impossible to obey it. Business would come to a stand-still--no man
could make a fortune that way.”

“You think then that what we are sent here for is to make a
fortune?”

“Most people do. I don’t know about _sent for_. That’s what, I fancy,
I find myself behind this counter for. Anyhow the world would
hardly go on upon any other supposition.”

“Then the world had better stop. It wasn’t worth making,” said
Cosmo.

“Young man,” rejoined Mr. Burns, “if you are going to speak
blasphemy, it shall not be on my premises.”

Bewildered and unhappy, Cosmo turned away, left the shop, and for
years never entered it again.

Mr. Burns had been scrupulous to half a grain in giving Mr. Warlock
the full value of his gold and of his stones. Nor was this because
of the liking he had taken to the old gentleman. There are not a
few who will be carefully honest, to a greater or less compass,
with persons they like, but leave those they do not like to protect
themselves. But Mr. Burns was not of their sort. His interest in
the laird, and his wounded liking for Cosmo, did, however, cause
him to take some real concern in the moral condition of the latter;
while, at the same time, he was willing enough to think evil of him
who had denounced as dishonest one of his main principles in the
conduct of affairs. It but added venom to the sting of Cosmo’s
words that although the jeweller was scarcely yet conscious of the
fact, he was more unwilling to regard as wrong the mode he had
defended, than capable of justifying it to himself. That same
evening he wrote to the laird that he feared his son must have
taken to keeping bad company, for he had that day spoken in his
shop in a manner most irreverent and indeed wicked--so as he would
never, he was certain, have dared to speak in his father’s hearing.
But college was a terrible place for ruining the good principles
learned at home. He hoped Mr. Warlock would excuse the interest he
took in his son’s welfare. Nothing was more sad than to see the
seed of the righteous turning from the path of righteousness--and
so on.

The laird made reply that he was obliged to Mr. Burns for his
communication and the interest he took in his boy, but could only
believe there had been some mistake, for it was impossible his boy
should have been guilty of anything to which his father would apply
the epithets used by Mr. Burns. And so little did the thing trouble
the laird, that he never troubled Cosmo with a word on the
matter--only, when he came home, asked him what it meant.

But in after days Cosmo repented of having so completely dropped
the old gentleman’s acquaintance; he was under obligation to him;
and if a man will have to do only with the perfect, he must needs
cut himself first, and go out of the world. He had learned a good
deal from him, but nothing of art: his settings were good, but of
the commonest ideas. In the kingdom of heaven tradesmen will be
teachers, but on earth it is their business to make fortunes! But a
stone, its colour, light, quality, he enjoyed like a poet. Many
with a child’s delight in pure colours, have no feeling for the
melodies of their arrangement, or the harmonies of their mingling.
So are there some capable of delight in a single musical tone, who
have but little reception for melody or complicate harmony. Whether
a condition analogical might not be found in the moral world, and
contribute to the explanation of such as Mr. Burns, I may not now
enquire.

The very rainbow was lovelier to Cosmo after learning some of the
secrets of precious stones. Their study served also his
metaphysico-poetic nature, by rousing questions of the relations
between beauty fixed and beauty evanescent; between the beauty of
stones and the beauty of flowers; between the beauties of art, and
the beauties of sunsets and faces. He saw that where life entered,
it brought greater beauty, with evanescence and reproduction,--an
endless fountain flow and fall. Many were the strange, gladsome,
hopeful, corrective thoughts born in him of the gems in Mr. Burns’s
shop, and he owed the reform much to the man whose friendship he
had cast from him. For every question is a door-handle.

Cosmo lived as simply as at home--in some respects more hardly,
costing a sum for his maintenance incredibly small. Some may hint
that the education was on a par with the expense; and, if education
consists in the amount and accuracy of facts learned, and the worth
of money in that poor country be taken into the account, the hint
might be allowed to pass. But if education is the supply of
material to a growing manhood, the education there provided was all
a man needed who was man enough to aid his own growth; and for
those who have not already reached that point, it is matter of
infinite inconsequence what they or their parents find or miss. But
I am writing of a period long gone by.

In his second year, willing to ease his father however little, he
sought engagements in teaching; and was soon so far successful that
he had two hours every day occupied--one with a private pupil, and
the other in a public school. The master of that school used
afterwards to say that the laird of Glenwarlock had in him the
elements of a real teacher. But indeed Cosmo had more teaching
power than the master knew, for not in vain had he been the pupil
of Peter Simon--whose perfection stood in this, that he not only
taught, but taught to teach. Life is propagation. The perfect
thing, from the Spirit of God downwards sends _itself_ onward, not
its work only, but its life. And in the reaction Cosmo soon found
that, for making a man accurate, there is nothing like having to
impart what he possesses. He learned more by trying to teach what
he thought he knew, than by trying to learn what he was sure he did
not know.

In his third year it was yet more necessary he should gain what
money he could. For the laird found that his neighbour, Lord
Lick-my-loof, had been straining every means in his power to get
his liabilities all into his own hands, and had in great part
succeeded. The discovery sent a pang to the heart of the laird, for
he could hardly doubt his lordship’s desire was to foreclose every
mortgage, and compel him to yield the last remnant of the
possessions of his ancestors. He had refused him James Gracie’s
cottage, and he would have his castle! But the day was not yet
come; and as no one knew what was best for his boy, no one could
foretell what would come to pass, or say what deliverance might not
be in store for them! The clouds must break somehow, and then there
was the sun! So, as a hundred times before, he gathered heart, and
went on, doing his best, and trusting his hardest.

The summers at home between the sessions, were times of paradise to
Cosmo. Now first he seemed to himself to begin to understand the
simple greatness of his father, and appreciate the teaching of Mr.
Simon. He seemed to descry the outlines of the bases on which they
stood so far above him.

And now the question came up, what was Cosmo to do after he had
taken his degree. It was impossible he should remain at home. There
was nothing for him to do there, except the work of a farm
labourer. _That_ he would have undertaken gladly, had the property
been secure, for the sake of being with his father; but the only
chance of relieving the land was to take up some profession. The
only one he had a leaning to was that of chemistry. This science
was at the time beginning to receive so much attention in view of
agricultural and manufacturing purposes, that it promised a sure
source of income to the man who was borne well in front upon its
rising tide. But alas, to this hope, money was yet required! A
large sum must yet be spent on education in that direction, before
his knowledge would be of money-value, fit for offer in the
scientific market! He must go to Germany to Liebig, or to Edinburgh
to Gregory! There was no money, and the plan was not, at least for
the present, to be entertained. There was nothing left but go on
teaching.




CHAPTER XXIV.

A TUTORSHIP.


It cannot but be an unpleasant change for a youth, to pass from a
house and lands where he is son--ah, how much better than master!
and take a subordinate position in another; but the discipline is
invaluable. To meet what but for dignity would be humiliation, to
do one’s work in spite of misunderstanding, and accept one’s
position thoroughly, entrenching it with recognized duty, is no
easy matter. As to how Cosmo stood this ordeal of honesty, I will
only say that he never gave up trying to do better.

His great delight and consolation were his father’s letters, which
he treasured as if they had been a lover’s, as indeed they were in
a much deeper and truer sense than most love-letters. The two wrote
regularly, and shared their best and deepest with each other. The
letters also of Mr. Simon did much to uplift him, and enable him to
endure and strive.

Nobody knows what the relation of father and son may yet come to.
Those who accept the Christian revelation are bound to recognize
that there must be in it depths infinite, ages off being fathomed
yet. For is it not a reproduction in small of the loftiest mystery
in human ken--that of the infinite Father and infinite Son? If man
be made in the image of God, then is the human fatherhood and
sonship the image of the eternal relation between God and Jesus.

One happy thing was that he had a good deal of time to himself. He
set his face against being with the children beyond school hours,
telling their parents it would be impossible for him otherwise to
do his work with that freshness which was as desirable for them as
for him.

The situation his friends of the university had succeeded in
finding for him, was in the south of Scotland, almost on the
borders. His employers were neither pleasant nor interesting--but
more from stupidity than anything worse. Had they had some
knowledge of Cosmo’s history, they would have taken pains to be
agreeable to him, for, having themselves nothing else, they made
much of birth and family. But Cosmo had no desire to come nearer
where it was impossible to be near, and was content with what they
accorded him as a poor student and careful teacher. They lived in
the quietest way; for the heir of the house, by a former marriage,
was a bad subject, and kept them drained of more than the
superfluous money about the place.

Cosmo remained with them two years, and during that time did not go
home, for so there was the more money to send; but as he entered
his third year, he began to feel life growing heavy upon him, and
longed unspeakably after his father.

One day, the last of the first quarter, Mr. Baird sent a message,
desiring his presence, and with some hesitation and difficulty
informed him that, because of certain circumstances over which
unhappily he had no control, he was compelled to dispense with his
services. He regretted the necessity much, he said, for the
children were doing well with him. He would always be glad to hear
from him, and know that he was getting on. A little indignant, for
his father’s sake more than his own, Cosmo remarked that it was
customary, he believed, to give a tutor a quarter’s notice, which
brought the reply, that nothing would please Mr. Baird better than
that he should remain another quarter--if it was any convenience to
him; but he had had great misfortunes within the last month, and
had no choice but beg him to excuse some delay in the payment of
his quarter’s salary now due. In these circumstances he had thought
it the kindest thing to let him look out for another situation.

Hearing this, Cosmo was sorry, and said what he could to make the
trouble, so far as he was concerned, weigh lightly. He did not know
that what he had fairly earned went to save a rascal from the
punishment he deserved--the best thing man could give him. Mr.
Baird judged it more for the honour of his family to come between the
wicked and his deserts, than to pay the workman his wages. Of
that money Cosmo never received a farthing. The worst of it to
him was, that he had almost come to the bottom of his purse--had
not nearly enough to take him home.

[Illustration: THE LETTER FROM LADY JOAN.]

He went to his room in no small perplexity. He could not, would not
trouble his father. There are not a few sons, I think, who would be
more considerate, were they trusted like Cosmo from the first, and
allowed to know thoroughly the circumstances of their parents. The
sooner mutual confidence is initiated the better. A servant knocked
at the door, and, true to the day, came the expected letter from
his father--this time enclosing one from Lady Joan.

The Warlocks and she had never had sight of each other since the
dreary day she left them, but they had never lost hearing of each
other. Lady Joan retained a lively remembrance of her visit, and to
both father and son the occasional letter from her was a rare
pleasure. Some impression of the dignity and end of life had been
left with Joan from their influences, old man as was the one, and
child as was the other; and to the imagination of Cosmo she was
still the type of all beauty--such as his boyish eyes had seen her,
and his boyish heart received her. But from her letters seemed to
issue to the inner ear of the laird a tone of oppression for which
they gave him no means of accounting; while she said so little
concerning her outward circumstances, hardly ever even alluding to
her brother, that he could not but fear things did not go well with
her at home. The one he had now sent was even sad, and had so
touched his heart, that in his own he suggested the idea of Cosmo’s
paying her a visit in his coming holidays. It might comfort her a
little, he said, to see one who cared so much, though he could do
so little for her.

Cosmo jumped up, and paced about the room. What better could he do
than go at once! He had not known what to do next, and here was
direction! He was much more likely to find a situation in England
than in Scotland! And for his travelling expenses, he knew well how
to make a little go a great way! He wrote therefore to his father
telling him what had occurred, and saying he would go at once. The
moment he had dispatched his letter, he set about his preparations.
Like a bird the door of whose cage had been opened, he could hardly
endure his captivity one instant longer. To write and wait a reply
from Joan was simply impossible. He must start the very next
morning. Alas, he had no wings either real or symbolic, and must
foot it! It would take him days to reach Yorkshire, on the northern
border of which she lived, but the idea of such a journey, with
such a goal before him, not to mention absolute release from books
and boys, was entrancing. To set out free, to walk on and on for
days, not knowing what next would appear at any turn of the
road--it was like reading a story that came to life as you read it!
And then in the last chapter of it to arrive at the loveliest lady
in the world, the same whose form and face mingled with his every
day-dream--it was a chain of gold with a sapphire at the end of
it--a flowery path to the gate of heaven!

That night he took his leave of the family, to start early in the
morning. The father and mother were plainly sorry; the children
looked grave, and one of them cried. He wrote to Mr. Baird once
after, but had no answer--nor ever heard anything of them but that
they had to part with everything, and retire into poverty.
It was a lovely spring morning when with his stick and his knapsack
he set out, his heart as light as that of the sky-lark that seemed
for a long way to accompany him. It was one after another of them
that took up the song of his heart and made it audible to his ears.
Better convoy in such mood no man could desire. He walked twenty
miles that day for a beginning, and slept in a little village,
whose cocks that woke him in the morning seemed all to have throats
of silver, and hearts of golden light. He increased his distance
walked every day, and felt as if he could go on so for years.

But before he reached his destination, what people call a
misfortune befell him. I do not myself believe there is any
misfortune; what men call such is merely the shadow-side of a good.

He had one day passed through a lovely country, and in the evening
found himself upon a dreary moorland. As night overtook him, it
came on to rain, and grew very cold. He resolved therefore to seek
shelter at the first house he came to; and just ere it was quite
dark, arrived at some not very inviting abodes on the brow of the
descent from the moor, the first of which was an inn. The landlady
received him, and made him as comfortable as she could, but as he
did not find his quarters to his taste, he rose even earlier than
he had intended, and started in a pouring rain. He had paid his
bill the night before, intending to break his fast at the first
shop where he could buy a loaf.

The clouds were sweeping along in great gray masses, with yellow
lights between, and every now and then they would let the sun look
out for a moment, and the valley would send up the loveliest smile
from sweetest grass or growing corn, all wet with the rain that
made it strong for the sun. He saw a river, and bridges, and
houses, and in the distance the ugly chimneys of a manufacturing
town. Still it rained and still the sun would shine out. He had
grown very hungry before at length he reached a tiny hamlet, and in
it a cottage with a window that displayed loaves. He went in, took
the largest he saw, and was on the point of tearing a great piece
out of it, when he thought, it would be but polite to pay for it
first, and put his hand in his pocket. It was well he did so, for
in his pocket was no purse! Either it had been stolen at the inn,
or he had lost it on the way. He put down the loaf.

“I am very sorry,” he said, “but I find I have lost my purse.”

The woman looked him in the face with keen enquiring eyes; then
apparently satisfied with her scrutiny, smiled, and said,

“Ne’er trouble yoursel’, sir. Yo can pey mo as yo coom back. Awhope
you ’n lost noan so mich?”

“Not much, but all I had,” answered Cosmo. “I am much obliged to
you, but I’m not likely ever to be this way again, so I can’t
accept your kindness. I am sorry to have troubled you, but after
all, I have the worst of it,” he added, smiling, “for I am very
hungry.”

[Illustration: COSMO PROPOSES TO WORK FOR HIS DINNER.]

As he spoke, he turned away, and had laid his hand on the latch of
the door, when the woman spoke again.

“Tak th’ loaf,” she said; “it’ll be aw the same in less than a
hunder year.”

She spoke crossly, almost angrily. Cosmo seemed to himself to
understand her entirely. Had she looked well-to-do, he would have
taken the loaf, promising to send the money; but he could not bring
himself to trouble the thoughts of a poor woman, possibly with a
large family, to whom the price of such a loaf must be of no small
consequence. He thanked her again, but shook his head. The woman
looked more angry than before: having constrained herself to give,
it was hard to be refused.

“Yo micht tak what’s offered yo!” she said.

Cosmo stood thinking: was there any way out of the difficulty?
Almost mechanically he began searching his pockets: he had very few
_things_ either in his pockets or anywhere else. All his fingers
encountered was a penknife too old and worn to represent any value,
a stump of cedar-pencil, and an ancient family-seal his father had
given him when he left home. This last he took out, glanced at it,
felt that only the duty of saving his life could make him part with
it, put it back, turned once more, said “Good morning,” and left
the shop.

He had not gone many steps when he heard the shop-bell ring; the
woman came running after him. Her eyes were full of tears. What
fountain had been opened, I cannot tell; perhaps only that of
sympathy with the hungry youth.

“Tak th’ loaf,” she said again, but in a very different voice this
time, and held it out to him. “Dunnot be vexed with a poor woman.
Sometimes hoo dunnot knaw wheer to get the bread for her own.”

“That’s why I wouldn’t take it,” rejoined Cosmo. “If I had thought
you were well off, I would not have hesitated.”

“Oh! aw’m noan so pinched at present,” she answered with a smile.
“Tak th’ loaf, an’ welcome, an’ pey mo when yo’ can.”

Cosmo put down her name and address in his pocket-book, and as he
took the loaf, kissed the toil-worn hand that gave it him. She
uttered a little cry of remonstrance, threw her apron over her
head, and went back to the house, sobbing.

The tide rose in Cosmo’s heart too, but he left the hamlet eating
almost ravenously. Another might have asked himself where dinner
was to come from, and spared a portion; but that was not Cosmo’s
way. He would have given half his loaf to any hungry man he met,
but he would not save the half of it in view of a possible need
that might never come. Every minute is a to-morrow to the minute
that goes before it, and is bound to it by the same duty-roots that
make every moment one with eternity; but there is no more occasion
to bind minute to minute with the knot-grass of anxiety, than to
ruin both to-day and the grand future with the cares of a poor
imaginary to-morrow. To-day’s duty is the only true provision for
to-morrow; and those who are careful about the morrow are but the
more likely to bring its troubles upon them by the neglect of duty
which care brings. Some say that care for the morrow is what
distinguishes the man from the beast; certainly it is one of the
many things that distinguish the slave of Nature from the child of
God.

Cosmo ate his loaf with as hearty a relish as ever Grizzie’s
porridge, and that is saying as much for his appetite, if not
necessarily for the bread, as words can. He had swallowed it almost
before he knew, and felt at first as if he could eat another, but
after a drink of water from a well by the road-side, found that he
had had enough, and strode on his way, as strong and able as if he
had had coffee and eggs and a cutlet, and a dozen things besides.

He was passing the outskirts of the large manufacturing town he had
seen in the distance, leaving it on one hand, when he became again
aware of the approach of hunger. One of the distinguishing features
of Cosmo’s character, was a sort of childlike boldness towards his
fellow-men; and coming presently to a villa with a smooth-shaven
lawn, and seeing a man leaning over the gate that opened from the
road, he went up to him and said,

“Do you happen to have anything you want done about the place, sir?
I want my dinner and have no money.”

The man, one with whom the world seemed to have gone to his wish,
looked him all over.

“A fellow like you ought to be ashamed to beg,” he said.

“That is precisely what I was not doing,” returned Cosmo, “--except
as everybody more or less must be a beggar. It is one thing to beg
for work, and another to beg for food. I didn’t ask you to make a
job for me; I asked if there was any work about the place you
wanted done. Good morning, sir.”

He turned, and the second time that day was stopped as he went.

“I say!--if you can be as sharp with your work as you are with
your tongue, I don’t care if I give you a job. Look here: my
coachman left me in a huff this morning, and it was time too, as I
find now he is gone. The stable is in a shocking mess: if you clean
it out, and set things to rights--but I don’t believe you can--I
will give you your dinner.”

“Very well, sir,” returned Cosmo. “I give you warning: I’m very
hungry; only on the other hand, I don’t care what I have to eat.”

“Look here,” said the man: “your hands look a precious sight more
like loafing than work! I don’t believe your work will be worth
your dinner.”

“Then don’t give me any,” rejoined Cosmo, laughing. “If the proof
of the pudding be in the eating, the proof of the stable must be in
the cleaning. Let me see the place.”

Much pondering what a fellow scouring the country with a decent
coat and no money could be, the dweller in the villa led the way to
his stable.

In a mess that stable certainly was.

“The new man is coming this evening,” said the man, “and I would
rather he didn’t see things in such a state. He might think
anything good enough after this! The rascal took to drink--and
that, young man,” he added in a monitory tone, “is the end of all
things.”

“I’ll soon set the place to rights,” said Cosmo. “Let’s see--where
shall I find a graip?”

“A grape? what the deuce do you want with grapes in a stable?”

“I forgot where I was, sir,” answered Cosmo, laughing. “I am a
Scotchman, and so I call things by old-fashioned names. That is
what we call a three or four-pronged fork in my country. The word
comes from the same root as the German _greifen_, and our own
_grip_, and _gripe_, and _grope_, and _grab_--and _grub_ too!”
he added, “which in the present case is significant.”

“Oh, you are a scholar--are you? Then you are either a Scotch
gardener on the tramp after a situation, or a young gentleman who
has made a bad use of his privileges!”

“Do you found that conclusion on my having no money, or on my
readiness to do the first honest piece of work that comes to my
hand?” asked Cosmo, who having lighted on a tool to serve his
purpose, was already at work. “--But never mind! here goes for a
clean stable and a good dinner.”

“How do you know your dinner will be good?”

“Because I am so ready for it.”

“If you’re so sharp set, I don’t mind letting you have a snack
before you go further,” said his employer.

“No, thank you, sir,” replied Cosmo; “I am too self-indulgent to
enjoy my food before I have finished my work.”

“Not a bad way of being self-indulgent, that!” said the man. “--But
what puzzles me is, that a young fellow with such good principles
should be going about the country like--”

“Like a tinker--would you say, sir--or like Abraham of old when he
had no abiding city?”

“You seem to know your Bible too!--Come now, there must be some
reason for your being adrift like this!”

“Of course there is, sir; and if I were sure you would believe me,
I would tell you enough to make you understand it.”

“A cautious Scotchman!”

“Yes. Whatever I told you, you would doubt; therefore I tell you
nothing.”

“You have been doing something wrong!” said the man.

“You are rude,” returned Cosmo quietly, without stopping his work.
--“But,” he resumed, “were _you_ never in any difficulty? Have you
always had your pockets full when you were doing right? It is not
just to suspect a man because he is poor. The best men have rarely
been rich.”

Receiving no reply, Cosmo raised his head. The man was gone.

“Somebody has been telling him about me!” he said to himself, and
went. For the stable Cosmo was then cleaning out, the horses that
lived in it, and the house to which it belonged, were the proceeds
of a late judicious failure.

He finished his job, set everything right as far as he could, and
going to the kitchen door, requested the master might be invited to
inspect his work. But the master only sent orders to the cook to
give the young man his dinner, and let him go about his business.

Cosmo ate none the less heartily, for it was his own; and cook and
maid were more polite than their master. He thanked them and went
his way, and in the strength of that food walked many miles into
the night--for now he set no goal before him but the last.

It was a clear, moonless, starry night, cold after the rain, but
the easier to walk in. The wind now and then breathed a single
breath and ceased; but that breath was piercing. He buttoned his
coat, and trudged on. The hours went and went. He could not be far
from Cairncarque, and hoped by break of day to be, if not within
sight of it, at least within accurate hearing of it.

Midnight was not long past when a pale old moon came up, and looked
drearily at him. For some time he had been as if walking in a
dream; and now the moon mingled with the dream right strangely.
Scarce was she above the hill when an odd-shaped cloud came upon
her; and Cosmo’s sleep-bewildered eyes saw in the cloud the body
and legs of James Gracie’s cow, straddling across the poor,
withered heel-rind of the moon. Then another cloud, high among the
stars, began to drop large drops of rain upon his head. “That’s the
reid gowd rainin’,” he said to himself. He was gradually sinking
under the power of invading sleep. Every now and then he would come
to himself for the briefest instant, and say he must seek some
shelter. The next moment he was asleep again. He had often wondered
that horses could get over the road and sleep: here he was doing it
himself and not wondering at all! The wind rose, and blew sharp
stings of rain in his face, which woke him up a little. He looked
about him. Had he been going through a town, who would have taken
him in at that time of the midnight-morning? and here he was in a
long lane without sign of turning! To him it had neither beginning
nor end, like a lane in a dream. It might be a lane in a dream! He
could remember feeling overwhelmed with sleep in a dream! Still he
did not think he was dreaming: for one thing, he had never been so
uncomfortable in a dream!

The lane at last opened on a triangular piece of sward, looking
like a village green. In the middle of it stood a great old tree,
with a bench round it. He dropped on the bench and was asleep in a
moment.

The wind blew, and the rain fell. Cold and discomfort ruled his dim
consciousness, but he slept like one of the dead. When the sun
rose, it found him at full length on the bare-worn earth at the
foot of the tree. But, shining full upon him, it did not for a long
time break his sleep. When at last it yielded and he came to
himself, it was to the consciousness of a body that was a burden,
of a tabernacle that ached as if all its cords were strained, yet
all its stakes loosened. With nightmare difficulty he compelled his
limbs to raise him, and then was so ill able to govern them, that
he staggered like a drunken man, and again and again all but
dropped. Such a night’s-rest after such a day’s-weariness had all
but mastered him.

[Illustration: “HE DROPPED ON THE BENCH.”]

Seeing a pond in the green, he made for it, and having washed his
face, felt a little revived. On the other side of the green, he saw
a little shop, in the unshuttered window of which was bread.
Mechanically he put his hand in his pocket. To his surprise, he
found there sixpence: the maid that waited on him at dinner had
dropped it in. Rejoiced by the gift, he tried to run, to get some
warmth into his limbs, but had no great success. The moment the
shop was opened, he spent his sixpence, and learned that he was but
about three miles off the end of his journey. He set out again
therefore with good courage; but alas! the moment he tried to eat,
mouth and throat and all refused their office. He had no
recollection of any illness, but this was so unlike his usual self,
that he could not help some apprehension. As he walked he got a
little better, however, and trudged manfully on. By and by he was
able to eat a bit of bread, and felt better still. But as he
recovered, he became aware that with fatigue and dirt his
appearance must be disreputable in the extreme. How was he to
approach Lady Joan in such a plight? If she recognized him at once,
he would but be the more ashamed! What could she take him for but a
ne’er-do-weel, whose character had given way the moment he left the
guardianship of home, and who now came to sponge upon her! And if
he should be ill! He would rather lie down and die on the roadside
than present himself dirty and ill at Cairncarque!--rather go to
the workhouse, than encounter even the momentary danger of such a
misunderstanding! These reflections were hardly worthy of the faith
he had hitherto shown, but he was not yet perfect, and unproved
illness had clouded his judgment.

Coming to a watering-place for horses on the roadside, he sat down
by it, and opening his bag, was about to make what little of a
toilet was possible to him--was thinking whether he might venture,
as it seemed such a lonely road, to change his shirt, when round a
near corner came a lady, walking slowly, and reading as she came.
It was she! And there he stood without coat or waistcoat! To speak
to her thus would be to alarm her! He turned his back, and began to
wash in the pool, nor once dared look round. He heard her slowly
pass, fancied he heard her stop one step, felt her presence from
head to foot, and washed the harder. When he thought she was far
enough off, he put on the garments he had removed, and hastened
away, drying himself as he went.

At the turn of the road, all at once rose the towers of
Cairncarque. There was a castle indeed!--something to call a
castle!--with its huge square tower at every corner, and its still
huger two towers in the middle of its front, its moat, and the
causeway where once had been its drawbridge!--Yes! there were the
spikes of the portcullis, sticking down from the top of the
gateway, like the long upper teeth of a giant or ogre! That was a
real castle--such as he had read of in books, such as he had seen
in pictures!

Castle Warlock would go bodily into half a quarter of it--would be
swallowed up like a mouthful, and never seen again! Castle Warlock
was twice as old--that was something! but why had not Lady Joan
told him hundreds of stories about Cairncarque, instead of letting
him gabble on about their little place? But she could not love her
castle as he did his, for she had no such father in it! That must
be what made the difference! That was why she did not care to talk
about it! Was he actually going to see her again? and would she be
to him the same as before? For him, the years between had vanished;
the entrancing shadows of years far away folded him round, and he
was no more a man, but the boy who had climbed the wintry hills
with her, and run down them again over the snow hand in hand with
her. But as he drew nigh the great pile, which grew as he
approached it, his heart sank within him. His head began to ache: a
strange diffidence seized him; he could not go up to the door. He
would not mind, he said to himself, if Joan would be there the
moment the door opened. But would any servant in England admit a
fellow like him to the presence of a grand lady? How could he walk
up to the great door in the guise of one who had all night had his
lodging on the cold ground! He would reconnoitre a little, find
some quiet way of approaching the house, perhaps discover some
shelter where he might rectify what was worst in his personal
appearance! He turned away therefore from the front of the castle,
and following the road that skirted the dilapidated remnants of
fortification, passed several farmlike sheds, and arrived at a door
in a brick wall, apparently that of a garden--ancient, and green
and gray with lichens. Looking through it with the eyes of his
imagination, he saw on the other side the loveliest picture of
warmth, order, care, and ancient peace,--regions stately with yews
and cedars, fruit-trees and fountains, clean-swept walks and shady
alleys. The red wall, mottled and clouded with its lichens, and
ruffed with many a thready weed, looked like the reverse of some
bit of gorgeous brocade, on the sunny side of which must hang
blossoming peaches and pears, nectarines and apricots and apples,
on net-like trees, that spread out great obedient arms and
multitudinous twigs against it, holding on by it, and drinking in
the hot sunshine it gathered behind them. Ah, what it would be to
have such a garden at Glenwarlock!

He turned to the door, with difficulty opened it, and the vision
vanished. Not a few visions vanish when one takes them for fact,
and not for the vision of fact that has to be wrought out with the
energy of a God-born life.

[Illustration: HE TURNED TO THE DOOR.]




CHAPTER XXV.

THE GARDENER.


There was a garden indeed, but a garden whose ragged, ugly,
degraded desolation looked as if the devil had taken to gardening
in it. Rather than a grief, it was a pain and disgust to see.
Fruit-trees there were on the wall, but run wild with endless
shoots, which stuck like a hog’s mane over the top of it, and out
in every direction from the face of it with a look of impertinent
daring. All the fastenings were broken away, and only the old
branches, from habit, kept their places against it. Everything all
about seemed striving back to a dear disorder and salvage liberty.
The walks were covered with weeds, and almost impassable with
unpruned branches, while here lay a heap of rubbish, there a
smashed flower-pot, here a crushed water-pot, there a broken
dinner-plate. Following a path that led away from the wall, he came
upon a fountain without any water, in a cracked basin dry as a
lizard-haunted wall, a sundial without a gnomon, leaning wearily
away from the sun, a marble statue without a nose, and streaked
about with green: like an army of desolation in single file, they
revealed to Cosmo the age-long neglect of the place. Next appeared
a wing built out from the back of the inner court of the castle--in
a dilapidated, almost dangerous condition. Then he came to a great
hedge of yew, very lofty, but very thin, like a fence of old wire
that had caught cart-loads of withered rubbish in its meshes. Here
he heard the sound of a spade, and by the accompanying sounds
judged the implement was handled by an old man. He peeped through
the hedge, and caught sight of him. Old he was--bent with years,
but tough, wiry, and sound, and it seemed to Cosmo that the sighs
and groans, or rather grunts, which he uttered, were more of
impatience and discontent than oppression or weakness. As he stood
regarding him for a moment, anxious to discover with what sort of
man he had to deal, he began to mutter. Presently he ceased
digging, drew himself up as straight as he could, and, leaning on
his spade, went on, as if addressing his congregation of cabbages
over the book-board of a pulpit. And now his muttering took, to the
ears of Cosmo, an indistinct shape like this:

“Wha cares for an auld man like me? I kenna what for there sud be
auld men made! The banes o’ me micht melt i’ the inside o’ me, an’
never a sowl alive du mair for me nor berry me to get rid o’ the
stink! No ’at I’m that dooms auld i’ mysel’ them ’at wad hae my
place wad hae me!”

Here was a chance for him, Cosmo thought; for at least here was a
fellow-countryman. He went along the hedge therefore until he found
a place where he could get through, and approached the man, who had
by this time resumed his work, though after a listless fashion,
turning over spadeful after spadeful, as if neither he nor the
cabbages cared much, and all would be in good time if done by the
end of the world. As he came nearer, Cosmo read peevishness and
ill-temper in every line of his countryman’s countenance, yet he
approached him with confidence, for Scotchmen out of their own
country are of good report for hospitality to each other.

“Hoo’s a’ wi’ ye?” he cried, sending his mother-tongue as a
pursuivant in advance.

“Wha’s speirin? an’ what richt hae ye to speir?” returned the old
man in an angry voice, and lifting himself quickly, though with an
aching sigh, looked at him with hard blue eyes.

“A countryman o’ yer ain,” answered Cosmo.

“Mony ane’s that ’at’s naething the better nor the walcomer. Gie an
accoont o’ yersel’, or the doags’ll be lowsed upo’ ye here in a
jiffey. Haith, this is no the place for lan’loupers!”

“Hae ye been lang aboot the place?” asked Cosmo.

“Langer nor ye’re like to be, I’m thinkin’, gien ye keep na the
ceeviler tongue i’ yer heid, my man--Whaur come ye frae?”

The old man had dropt his spade; Cosmo took it up, and began to
dig.

“Lay doon that spaud,” cried its owner, and would have taken it
from him, but Cosmo delayed rendition.

“Hoot, man!” he said, “I wad but lat ye see I’m nae lan’louper, an’
can weel han’le a spaud. Stan’ ye by a bit, an’ rist yer banes,
till I caw throu’ a trifle o’ yer wark.”

“An’ what du ye expec’ to come o’ that? Ye’re efter something, as
sure ’s the deevil at the back yett, though ye’re nae freely sae
sure to win at it.”

“What I expec’, it wad be ill to say; but what I dinna expec’ is to
be traitit like a vaggabon. Come, I’ll gie ye a guid hoor’s wark
for a place to wash mysel’, an’ put on a clean sark.”

“Hae ye the sark?”

“I _hae_ ’t here i’ my bag.”

“An’ what du ye want to put on a clean sark for? What’ll ye du whan
ye hae ’t on?”

“Gie ye anither hoor’s wark for the heel o’ a loaf an’ a drink o’
watter.”

“Ye’ll be wantin’ to be taen on, I s’ wad (_wager_) ye a worm!”

“Gien ye cud gie me a day’s wark, or maybe twa,--” began Cosmo,
thinking how much rather he would fall in with Lady Joan about the
garden than go up to the house.

“I weel thoucht there sud be mair intil ’t nor appeart! Ye wad fain
hae the auld man’s shune, an’ mak sur o’ them afore he kickit them
frae him! Ay! It’s jist like the likes o’ ye! Mine’s a place the
like o’ you’s keen set efter! Ye think it’s a’ ait an’ play! Gang
awa’ wi’ ye, an’ latna me see the face o’ ye again, or I s’ ca’ to
them ’at ’ll tak accoont o’ ye.”

“Hoot, man!” returned Cosmo, and went on turning the ground over,
“ye’re unco hard upon a neebor!”

“Neebor! ye’re no neebor o’ mine! Gang awa’ wi’ ye, I tell ye!”

“Did naebody never gie’ _you_ a helpin’ han’, ’at ye’re sae dooms hard
upo’ ane ’at needs ane?”

“Gien onybody ever did, it wasna you.”

“But dinna ye think ye’re a kin’ o’ b’un’ to du the like again?”

“Ay, to him ’at did it--but I tell ye ye’re no the man; sae gang
aboot yer business.”

“Someday ye may want somebody ance mair to du ye a guid turn!”

“I hae dune a heap to gie me a claim on consideration. I hae grown
auld upo’ the place. What hae _ye_ dune, my man?”

“I wadna hae muckle chance o’ duin’ onything, gien a’ body was like
you. But did ye never hear tell o’ ane ’at said: ‘Ye wad du naething
for nane o’ mine, sae ye refeesed mysel’?”

“Deed, an’ I wull refeese yersel’,” returned the old man. “Sic a
chield for jaw an’ cheek--saw I never nane--as the auld sang says!
Whaur on this earth cam ye frae?”

As he spoke, he gave Cosmo a round punch on the shoulder next him
that made him look from his work, and then began eying him up and
down in the most supercilious manner. He was a small, withered,
bowed man, with a thin wizened face, crowned by a much worn fur
cap. His mouth had been so long drawn down at each corner as by
weights of discontent, that it formed nearly a half-circle. His
eyebrows were lifted as far as they would go above his red-lidded
blue eyes, and there was a succession of ripply wrinkles over each
of them, which met in the middle of his forehead, so that he was
all over arches. Under his cap stuck out enormous ears, much too
large for his face. Huge veiny hands hung trembling by his sides,
but they trembled more from anger than from age.

“I tellt ye a’ready,” answered Cosmo; “I come frae the auld
country.”

“Deil tak the auld country! What care I for the auld country! It’s
a braid place, an’ langer nor it’s braid, an’ there’s mony ane
intil ’t an’ oot on ’t ’at’s no warth the parritch his mither pat
intil ’im. Eh, the fowth o’ fushionless beggars I hae seen come to
me like yersel’!--Ow ay! it was aye wark they wad hae!--an’ cudna
du mair nor a flee amo’ triacle!--What coonty are ye frae, wi’ the
lang legs an’ the lang back-bane o’ ye?”

Cosmo told him. The hands of the old man rose from his sides, and
made right angles of his elbows.

“Weel,” he said slowly, “that’s no an ill coonty to come frae. I
may say _that_, for I belang til ’t mysel’. But what pairt o’ ’t ran
ye frae whan ye cam awa’?”

“I ran frae nae pairt, but I cam frae hame i’ the north pairt o’
that same,” answered Cosmo, and bent again to his work.

The man came a step nearer, and Cosmo, without looking up, was
aware he was regarding him intently.

“Ay! ay!” he said at last, in a tone of reflection mingled with
dawning interest, “I ance kent a terrible rascal cam frae owerby
that gait: what ca’ they the perris ye’re frae?”

Cosmo told him.

“Lord bless me!” cried the old man, and came close up to him.--“But
na!” he resumed, and stepped a pace back, “somebody’s been tellin
ye!”

Cosmo gave him no answer. He stood a moment expecting one, then
broke out in a rage.

“What for mak ye nae answer whan a body speirs ye a queston? That
wasna mainners whan I was a bairn. Lord! ye micht as weel be
ceevil! Isna it easy eneuch to lee?”

“I would answer no man who was not prepared to believe me,” said
Cosmo quietly.

The dignity of his English had far more effect on the man than the
friendliness of their mother-tongue.

“Maybe ye wadna objec’ to mak mention by name o’ the toon nearest
to ye whan ye was at hame?” said the old man, and from his altered
manner and tone Cosmo felt he might reply.

“It was ca’d Muir o’ Warlock,” he answered.

“Lord, man! come into the hoose. Ye maun be sair in need o’
something to put intil ye! A’ the gait frae Muir o’ Warlock! A
toonsman o’ my ain! Scotlan’ ’s a muckle place--but Muir o’
Warlock! Guid guide ’s! Come in, man; come in!”

So saying he took the spade from Cosmo’s hands, threw it down with
a contemptuous cast, and led the way towards the house.

The old man had a heart after all! Strange the power of that
comparatively poor thing, local association, to bring to light the
eternal love at the root of the being! Wonderful sign also of the
presence of God wherever a child may open eyes! This man’s heart
was not yet big enough to love a Scotsman, but it was big enough to
love a Muir-o’-Warlock-man; and was not that a precious beginning?
--a beginning as good as any? It matters nothing where or how one
begins, if only one does begin! There are many, doubtless, who have
not yet got farther in love than their own family; but there are
others who have learned that for the true heart there is neither
Frenchman nor Englishman, neither Jew nor Greek, neither white nor
black--only the sons and daughters of God, only the brothers and
sisters of the one elder brother. There may be some who have
learned to love all the people of their own planet, but have not
yet learned to look with patience upon those of Saturn or Mercury;
while others there must be, who, wherever there is a creature of
God’s making, love each in its capacity for love--from the
arch-angel before God’s throne, to the creeping thing he may be
compelled to destroy--from the man of this earth to the man of some
system of worlds which no human telescope has yet brought within
the ken of heaven-poring sage. And to that it must come with every
one of us, for not until then are we true men, true women--the
children, that is, of him in whose image we are made.

Cosmo followed very willingly, longing for water and a
clothes-brush rather than for food. The cold and damp, fatigue and
exposure of the night were telling upon him more than he knew, and
all the time he was at work, he had been cramped by hitherto
unknown pains in his limbs.

The gardener brought him to the half-ruinous wing already
mentioned, to a small kitchen, opening under a great sloping
buttress, and presented him to his wife, an English woman, some ten
years younger than himself. She received him with a dignified
retraction of the feelers, but the moment she understood his needs,
ministered to them, and had some breakfast ready for him by the
time he had made his toilet. He sat down by her little fire, and
drank some tea, but felt shivery, and could not eat. In dread lest,
if he yielded a moment to the invading sickness, it should at once
overpower him, he made haste to get out again into the sun, and
rejoined the old man, who had gone back to his cabbage-ground.
There he pulled off his coat, and once more seized the spade, for
work seemed the only way of meeting his enemy hand to hand. But the
moment he began, he was too hot, and the moment he took breath he
was ready to shiver. As long as he could stand, however, he would
not give in.

“How many years have you been gardener here?” he asked, forcing
himself to talk.

“Five an’ forty year, an’ I’m nearhan’ tired o’ ’t.”

“The present lord is a young man, is he not?”

“Ay; he canna be muckle ayont five an’ thirty.”

“What sort of a man is he?”

“Weel, it’s hard to say. He’s ane o’ them ’at naebody says weel o’,
an’ naebody’s begud to say ill o’--yet.”

“There can’t be much amiss with him then, surely!”’

“Weel, I wadna gang freely sae far as say that. You ’at’s a man o’
sense, maun weel un’erstan’, gien it was only frae yer carritchis
(_catechism_), ’at there’s baith sins o’ o-mission, an’ sins o’
co-mission. Noo, what sins o’ co-mission may lie at my lord’s door,
I dinna ken, an’ feow can ken, an’ we’re no to jeedge; but for the
o-mission, ye hae but to see hoo he neglects that bonny sister o’
his, to be far eneuch frae thinkin’ a sant o’ ’im.”

Silence followed. Cosmo would go no farther in that direction: it
would be fair neither to Lady Joan nor the gardener, who spoke as
to one who knew nothing of the family.

“Noo the father,” resumed his new friend, “--puir man, he’s deid an’
damned this mony a day!--an’ eh, but he was an ill ane!--but as to
Leddy Joan, he wad hardly bide her oot o’ his sicht. He cudna be
jist that agreeable company to the likes o’ her, puir leddy! for he
was a rouch-spoken, sweirin’ auld sinner as ever lived, but sic as
he had he gae her, an’ was said to hae been a fine gentleman in ’s
yoong days. Some wad hae ’t he cheenged a’ thegither o’ a suddent.
An’ they wad hae ’t it cam o’ bluid-guiltiness--for they said he
had liftit the reid han’ agen his neebor. An’ they warnt me, lang
as it was sin’ I left it, no to lat ’im ken I cam frae yon pairt o’
the country, or he wad be rid o’ me in a jiffey, ae w’y or anither.
--Ay, it was a gran’ name that o’ Warlock i’ thae pairts! though
they tell me it gangs na for sae muckle noo. I hae h’ard said, ’at
ever sin’ the auld lord here made awa’ wi’ the laird o’
Glenwarlock, the faimily there never had ony luck. I wad like to
ken what you, as a man o’ sense, think o’ that same. It appears to
me a’ some queer kin’ o’ justice! No’ ’at I’m daurin’ or wad daur
to say a word agen the w’y ’at the warl’s goverrnt, but there’s
some things ’at naebody can un’erstan’--I defy them!--an’ yon’s ane
o’ them--what for, cause oor graceless auld lord--he was yoong
than--tuik the life o’ the laird o’ Glenwarlock, the faimily o’
Warlock sud never thrive frae that day to this!--Read me that
riddle, yoong man, gien ye can.”

“Maybe it was to haud them ’at cam efter frae ony mair keepin’ o’
sic ill company,” Cosmo ventured to suggest; for, knowing what his
father was, and something also of what most of those who preceded
him were, he could see no such inscrutable dispensation in the fact
mentioned.

“That wad be hard lines, though,” insisted the gardener, unwilling
to yield the unintelligibility of the ways of providence.

“But,” said Cosmo, “they say doon there, it was a brither o’ the
laird, no the laird himsel’, ’at the English lord killt.”

“Na, na; they’re a’ wrang there, whaever says that. For auld Jean,
wham I min’ a weel faured wuman, though doobtless no sae bonny as
whan he broucht her wi’ ’im a yoong lass--maybe to gar her haud her
tongue--auld Jean said as I say. But that was lang efter the thing
was ower auld to be ta’en ony notice o’ mair. Forby, you ’at’s a
man o’ sense, gien it wasna the laird himsel’ ’at he killt, hoo wad
there, i’ that case, be onything worthy o’ remark i’ their no
thrivin’ efter ’t? I’ that case, the no thrivin’ cud hae had
naething ava to du wi’ the killin’. Na, na, it was the laird
himsel’ ’at the maister killt--the father o’ the present laird, I’m
thinkin’. What aged-man micht he be--did ye ever hear tell?”

“He’s a man well on to seventy,” answered Cosmo, with a pang at the
thought.

“Ay; that’ll be aboot it! There can be no doobt it was his father
oor lord killt--an’ as little ’at efter he did it he gaed doon the
braid ro’d to the deevil as fest ’s ever he cud rin. It was jist
like as wi’ Judas--he maun gang till ’s ain. Some said he had sellt
himsel’ to the deevil, but I’m thinkin’ that wasna necessar’. He
was to get him ony gait! An’ wad ye believe ’t, it’s baith said and
believt--’at he cam by ’s deith i’ some exterordnar w’y, no
accoontable for, but plainly no canny. Ae thing’s sure as deith
itsel’, he was ta’en suddent, an’ i’ the verra hoose whaur, mony a
lang year afore, he commitit the deed o’ darkness!”

A pause followed, and then the narrator, or rather commentator,
resumed.

“I’m thinkin’ whan he begud to ken himsel’ growin’ auld, his deed
cam back upon ’im fresh-like, an’ that wad be hoo he cudna bide to
hae my lady oot o’ the sicht o’ his een, or at least ayont the cry
o’ his tongue. Troth! he wad whiles come aboot the place efter her,
whaur I wad be at my wark, as it micht be the day, cursin’ an’
sweirin’ as gien he had sellt his sowl to a’ the deevils thegither,
an’ sae micht tak his wull o’ onything he cud get his tongue roon’!
But I never heedit him that muckle, for ye see it wasna him ’at
peyt me--the mair by token ’at gien it had been him ’at had the
peyin’ o’ me, it’s never a baubee wad I hae seen o’ my ain siller;
but the trustees peyt me, ilka plack, an’ sae I was indepen’ent
like, an’ luit him say his say. But it was aye an oonsaitisfactory
kin’ o’ a thing, for the trustees they caredna a bodle aboot
keepin’ the place dacent, an’ tuik sae sma’ delicht in ony
pleesurin’ o’ the auld lord, ’at they jist allooed him me, an’ no a
man mair nor less--to the gairden, that is. That’s hoo the place
comes to be in sic a disgracefu’ condeetion. Gien it hadna been for
rizzons o’ my ain, I wad hae gane, mony’s the time, for the sicht
o’ the ruin o’ things was beyon’ beirin’. But I bude to beir ’t; sae
I bore ’t an’ bore ’t till I cam by beirin’ o’ ’t to tak it verra
quaiet, an’ luik upo’ the thing as the wull o’ a Providence ’at
sudna be meddlet wi’. I broucht mysel’ in fac’ to that degree o’
submission, ’at I gae mysel’ no trouble more, but jist confint my
ainergies to the raisin’ o’ the kail an’ cabbage, the ingons an’
pitawtas wantit aboot the place.”

“And are things no better,” asked Cosmo, “since the present lord
succeeded?”

“No a hair--’cep’ it be ’at there’s no sae mony ill words fleein’
aboot the place. My lord never sets his nose intil the gairden, or
speirs--no ance in a twal-month, hoo’s things gangin’ on. He does
naething but rowt aboot in ’s boaratory as he ca’s ’t--bore-a-whig,
or bore-a-tory, it’s little to me--makin’ stinks there fit to
scomfish a whaul, an’ gar ’im stick his nose aneth the watter for a
glamp o’ fresh air. He’s that hard-hertit ’at he never sae muckle
as aits his denner alongside o’ his ain sister, ’cep’ it be whan he
has company, an’ wad luik like ither fowk. Gien it gaedna ower weel
wi’ her i’ the auld man’s time, it gangs waur wi’ her noo; for sae
lang as he was abune the yird there was aye somebody to ken whether
she was livin’ or deid. To see a bonnie lass like her strayin’
aboot the place nae better companied nor wi’ an auld buik--it’s
jist eneuch to brak a man’s hert, but that age kills rage.”

“Do the neighbours take no notice of her?”

“Nane o’ her ain dignity, like. Ye see she’s naething but bonny.
She _has_ naething. An’ though she’s as guid a cratur as ever lived,
the cauld grun’ o’ her poverty gaithers the fog o’ an ill report.
Troth, for her faimily, the ill’s there, report or no report; but,
a’ the same, gien she had been rich, an’ her father--I’ll no say
the hangman, but him ’at he last hangt, there wad be fowth (_plenty_)
o’ coonty-fowk wad hae her til her denner wi’ them. An’ I’m
thinkin’ maybe she’s the prooder for her poverty, an’ winna gang
til her inferriors sae lang as her aiquals dinna invete her. She
gangs whiles to the doctor’s--but he’s a kin’ o’ a freen’ o’ the
yerl’s, ’cause he likes stinks--but that’s the yoong doctor.”

“Does her brother never go out to dinner anywhere, and take her
with him?”

“Naebody cares a bodle aboot his lordship i’ the haill
country-side, sae far as I can learn. There’s ane or twa--great
men, I daursay--whiles comes doon frae Lon’on, to smell hoo he’s
gettin’ on wi’ ’s stinks, but deil a neebor comes nigh the hoose.
Ow, he’s a great man, I mak nae doobt, awa’ frae hame! He’s aye
writin’ letters to the newspapers, an’ they prent them--aboot this
an’ aboot that--aboot beasties i’ the watter, an’ lectreesity, an’
I kenna what a’; an’ some says ’at hoo he’ll be a rich man some
day, the moment he’s dune fin’in’ oot something or ither he’s
been warslin’ at for the feck o’ a ten year or sae; but the gentry
never thinks naething o’ a man sae lang as he’s only duin’ his
best--or his warst, as the case may be--to lay his han’ upo’ the
siller ’at’s fleein’ aboot him like a snaw-drift. Bide ye a bit,
though! _Whan_ he’s gotten ’t, it’s doon they’re a’ upo’ their k-nees
til ’im thegither. But gien they be prood, he’s prooder, an’ lat
him ance get his heid up, an’ rid o’ the trustees, an’ fowk upo’
their marrow-banes til ’im, haith, he’ll lat them sit there, or
I’m mistaen in ’im.”

“Then has my lady no companions at all?”

“She gangs whiles to see the doctor’s lass, an’ whiles she comes
here an’ has her denner wi’ her, themsel’s twa: never anither comes
near the place.”

All this time, Cosmo had been turning over the cabbage-ground,
working the harder that he still hoped to work off the sickness
that yet kept growing upon him. The sun was hot, and his head,
which had been aching more or less all day, now began to throb
violently.

The spade dropt from his hands, and he fell on his face in the soft
mould.

“What’s this o’ ’t?” cried the old man, going up to him in a fright.

He caught hold of him by an arm, and turned him on his back. His
face was colourless, and the life seemed to have gone out of him.




CHAPTER XXVI.

LOST AND FOUND.


When Cosmo came to himself, he had not a notion where he was,
hardly indeed knew what he was. His chief consciousness was of an
emptiness and a weight combined, that seemed to paralyze him. He
would have turned on his side, but felt as if a ponderous heap of
bed-clothes prevented him from even raising an arm--and yet he was
cold. He tried to think back, to find what he knew of himself last,
but could for a long time recall only a confused dream of
multitudinous discomfort and painful effort. At last, however, came
the garden, the spade-work, and the old man’s talk; and then it
seemed as if the cracked complaining voice had never left his ears.

“I’ve been ill!” he said to himself. “Perhaps I dropped down. I
hope they haven’t buried me!”

With a straining agony of will he got in motion an arm, which was
lying like that of another man outside the coverlid, and felt
feebly about him. His hand struck against something solid, and what
seemed a handful of earth fell with a hollow rumble. Alas, this
seemed ominous! Where could he be but in his coffin? The thought
was not a pleasant one, certainly, but he was too weak, and had
been wandering too long in the miserable limbo of vain fancies, to
be much dismayed. He said to himself he would not have to suffer
long--he must soon go to sleep, and so die.

Fatigued with that one movement, he lay for some time motionless.
His eyes were open, though he did not know it, and by and by he
became aware of light. Thin, dim, darkly gray, a particle at a
time, it grew about him. For some minutes his eyes seemed of
themselves, without any commission from him, to make inquiry of his
surroundings. They discovered that, if he was in a coffin, or even
in a sepulchre without a coffin, it was a large one: there was a
wall--miles away! The light grew, and with it the conviction that
he was in no sepulchre. But there the consolation ceased, for the
still growing light revealed no sign of ministration or comfort.
Above him was a bare, dirty, stained ceiling, with a hole in it,
through which stuck skeleton ribs of lath; around him were bare,
dirty-white walls, that seemed to grow out of the gray light of a
wet morning as the natural deposit from such a solution. Two
slender poles, meant to support curtains, but without a rag of
drapery upon them, rose at his feet, like the masts of Charon’s
boat. Was he indeed in the workhouse he had preferred to
Cairncarque? It could hardly be, for there was the plaster fallen
in great patches from the walls as well as the ceiling, and surely
no workhouse would be allowed to get into such a disrepair! He
tried again, and this time succeeded in turning on his side,
discovering in the process how hard the bed was, and how sharp his
bones. A wooden chair stood a little beyond his reach, and upon it
a bottle and teacup. Not another article could he discover. Right
under the hole in the ceiling a board was partly rotted away in the
floor, and a cold, damp air, smelling of earth, and decaying wood,
seemed to come steaming up through it. A few minutes more, he said
to himself, and he would get up, and out of the hideous place, but
he must lie a little longer first, just to come to himself!--Now he
would try!--What had become of his strength? Was it gone utterly?
Could one night’s illness have reduced him thus?

He seemed to himself unable to think, yet the profoundest thought
went on as if thinking itself in him. Where had his strength lain
before he lost it? Could that ever have been _his_ which he could not
keep? If a thing were ours, nothing could ever take it from us! Was
his strength ever his then? Yes, for God had given it him. Then he
could not have lost it! He had it still! The branches of it were
gone, but the root remained, hid in God. All was well. If God chose
that his child should lie there, for this day, and to-morrow, or
till the next year, or if it pleased him that he should never rise
again with the same body, was that a thing to trouble him? He
turned his back on the ugly room, and was presently fast asleep
again.

Not a few read the poems of a certain king brought up a shepherd
lad. From Sunday to Sunday they read them. Amongst them, in their
turn, they read this: “I will both lay me down in peace and sleep,
for thou, Lord, only makest me to dwell in safety.” Yet not only do
these readers never have such a feeling in their own hearts in
consequence, but they never even imagine that David really had it
in his. Deeper and grander things still, uttered by this same
shepherd-warrior, do they read, and yet in their wisdom will
declare it preposterous that any Scotch lad should have such a
feeling towards God as I have represented! “Doth God care for
oxen?” says St. Paul. Doth God care for kings? I ask, or for
Jew-shepherds? Or does he not care all over for all of us--oxen and
kings and sparrows and Scotch lairds? According to such blind
seers, less is to be expected of humanity since the son of David
came, than it was capable of in his father David. Such men build
stone houses, but never a spiritual nest. They cannot believe the
thing possible which yet another man _does_. Nor ever may they
believe it before they begin to do it. I wonder little at so many
rejecting Christianity, while so many would-be champions of it hold
theirs at arm’s length--in their Bibles, in their theories, in
their church, in their clergyman, in their prayer-books, in the
last devotional page they have read--a separable thing--not in
their hearts on their beds in the stillness; not their comfort in
the night-watches; not the strength of their days, the hope and joy
of their conscious being! God is nearer to me than the air I
breathe, nearer to me than the heart of wife or child, nearer to me
than my own consciousness of myself, nearer to me than the words in
which I speak to him, nearer than the thought roused in me by the
story of his perfect son--or he is no God at all. The unbelievers
might well rejoice in the loss of such a God as many Christians
would make of him. But if he be indeed the Father of our Lord
Christ, of that Jew who lived and died doing the will of his
Father, and nothing but that will, then, to all eternity, “Amen,
thy will be done, O God! and nothing but thy will, in or through
me!”

Cosmo had been ill a whole week--in fever and pain, and was now
helpless almost as an infant. The old man had gone for his wife,
and between them they had persuaded him, though all but
unconscious, to exert himself sufficiently to reach the house. This
effort he could recall, in the shape of an interminable season
during which he supported the world for Atlas, that he might get a
little sleep; but it was only the aching weight of his own
microcosm that he urged Atlanlean force to carry. They took him
direct to the room where he now lay, for they had themselves but
one chamber, and if they took him there, what would become of the
old bones to which the gardener was so fond of referring in his
colloquies with himself? Also, it might be some fever he had taken,
and their own lives were so much the more precious that so much of
them was gone! Like most of us, they were ready to do _their next
best_ for him. They spared some of their own poor comforts to
furnish the skeleton bed for him; and there he lay, like one adrift
in a rotten boat on the ebbing ocean of life, while the old woman
trudged away to the village to tell the doctor that there was a
young Scotch gardener taken suddenly ill at their quarters in the
castle.

The doctor sent his son, a man about thirty, who after travelling
some years as medical attendant to a nobleman, had settled in his
native village as his father’s partner. He prescribed for Cosmo,
and gave hope that there was nothing infectious about the case.
Every day during the week he had come to see him, and the night
before had been with him from dark to dawn.

The gardener’s wife had informed Lady Joan that a young Scotchman
who had come to her husband seeking employment, had been taken
suddenly ill, and was lying in a room in the old wing; and Lady
Joan had said she would speak to the housekeeper to let her have
whatever she wanted for him. The doctor saw Lady Joan most every
time he came to see Cosmo, and she would enquire how his patient
was going on; she would also hear the housekeeper’s complaints of
the difficulty she had in getting wine from the butler--of which
there was no lack, only he grudged it, for he was doing his best to
drink up the stock the old lord had left behind him, intending to
take his departure with the last bottle--but she took no farther
interest in the affair. The castle was like a small deserted
village, and there was no necessity for a person in one part of it
knowing what was taking place in another.

But that same morning she had a letter from the laird, saying he
was uneasy about his boy. He had been so inconsiderate, he informed
her, as to set out to visit her without asking her leave, or even
warning her of his intent; and since the letter announcing his
immediate departure, received a fortnight before, he had not heard
of or from him. This set Joan thinking. And the immediate result
was, that she went to the gardener’s wife, and questioned her
concerning the appearance of her patient. In the old woman’s
answers she certainly could recognize no likeness to Cosmo; but he
must have altered much in seven years, and she could not be
satisfied without seeing the young man.

Cosmo lay fast asleep, and dreaming--but pleasant dreams now, for
the fever gone, life was free to build its own castles. He thought
he was dead, and floating through the air at his will, volition all
that was necessary to propel him like a dragon-fly, in any
direction he desired to take. He was about to go to his father, to
receive his congratulations on his death, and to say to him that
now the sooner he too died the better, that the creditors might
have the property, everybody be paid, and they two and his mother
be together for always. But first, before he set out, he must have
one sight of Lady Joan, and in that hope was now hovering about the
towers of the castle. He was slowly circling the two great ones of
the gateway, crossing a figure of eight over the gallery where
stood the machinery of the portcullis, when down he dropped, and
lay bruised and heavy, unable by fiercest effort of the will to
move an inch from the spot. He was making the reflection how
foolish it was to begin to fly before assuring himself that he was
dead, and was resolving to be quite prudent another time, when he
felt as if a warm sunny cloud came over him, which made him open
his eyes. They gradually cleared, and above him he saw the face of
his many dreams--a little sadder than it was in them, but more
beautiful.

Cosmo had so much of the childlike in him that illness made him
almost a very child again, and when he saw Joan’s face bending over
him like a living sky, just as any child might have done, he put
his arms round her neck, and drew her face down to his. Hearts get
uppermost in illness, and people then behave as they would not in
health. More is in it than is easily found. There is such a dumb
prayer in the spirit to be _taken_!

Till he opened his eyes Lady Joan had been unable to satisfy
herself whether the pale, worn, yet grand-looking youth could
indeed be the lad Cosmo, and was not at all prepared for such
precipitate familiarity: the moment she was released, she drew back
with some feeling, if not of offence, yet of annoyance. But such a
smile flooded Cosmo’s face, mingled with such a pleading look of
apology and excuse, which seemed to say, “How _could_ I help
it?” that she was ashamed of herself. It was the same true face as
the boy’s, with its old look of devotion and gentle worship! To
make all right she stooped of her own accord, and kissed his
forehead.

“Thank you,” murmured Cosmo, his own voice sounding to him like
that of another. “Don’t be vexed with me. I am but a baby, and have
no mother. When I saw you, it was as if heaven had come down into
hell, and I did not think to help it. How beautiful you are! How
good of you to come to me!”

“Oh, Cosmo!” cried Lady Joan--and now large silent tears were
running down her cheeks--“to think of the way you and your father
took me and mine in, and here you have been lying ill--I don’t know
how long--in a place not fit for a beggar!”

“That’s just what I am!” returned Cosmo with a smile, feeling
already almost well. “I have such a long story to tell you, Joan! I
remember all about it now.”

“Why didn’t you write,--?” said Joan, and checked herself, for
alas! if he had written, what would she not have found herself
compelled to do!--“Why didn’t you send for me at once? They told me
there was a young gardener lying ill, and of course I never dreamed
it could be you. But I know if you had heard at Castle Warlock that
a stranger was lying ill somewhere about the place, you would have
gone to him at once! It was very wrong of me, and I am sorely
punished!”

“Never mind,” said Cosmo; “it’s all right now. I have you, and it
makes me well again all at once. When I see you standing there,
looking just as you used, all the time between is shrivelled up to
nothing, and the present joins right on to the past. But you look
sad, Joan!--I _may_ call you Joan still, mayn’t I?”

“Surely, Cosmo. What else? I haven’t too many to call me Joan!”

“But what makes you look sad?”

“Isn’t it enough to think how I have treated you?”

“You didn’t know it was me,” said Cosmo.

“That is true. But if, as your father taught you, I had done it to
_Him_--”

“Well, there’s one thing, Joan--you’ll do differently another
time.”

“I can’t be sure of that, for my very heart grows stupid, living
here all alone.”

“Anyhow, you will have trouble enough with me for awhile, fast as
your eyes can heal me,” said Cosmo, who began to be aware of a
reaction.

Lady Joan’s face flushed with pleasure, but the next moment grew
pale again at the thought of how little she could do for him.

“The first thing,” she said, “is to write to your father. When he
knows I have got you, he won’t be uneasy. I will go and do it at
once.”

Almost the moment she left him, Cosmo fell fast asleep again.

But now was Lady Joan, if not in perplexity, yet in no small
discomfort. It made her miserable to think of Cosmo in such a
place, yet she could not help saying to herself it was well he had
not written, for she must then have asked him not to come: now that
he was in the house, she dared not tell her brother; and were she
to move him to any comfortable room in the castle, he would be sure
to hear of it from the butler, for the less faith carried, the more
favour curried! One thing only was in her power: she could make the
room he was in comparatively comfortable. As soon, therefore, as
she had written a hurried letter to the laird, she went hastily
through some of the rooms nearest the part in which Cosmo lay,
making choice of this and of that for her purpose: in the great,
all but uninhabited place there were naturally many available
pieces of stuff and of furniture. These she then proceeded, with
her own hands, and the assistance of the gardener and his wife, to
carry to his room; and when she found he was asleep, she put forth
every energy to get the aspect of the place altered before he
should wake. With noiseless steps she entered and left the room
fifty times; and by making use of a door which had not been opened
for perhaps a hundred years, she avoided attracting the least
attention.




CHAPTER XXVII.

A TRANSFORMATION.


When Cosmo the second time opened his eyes, he was afresh
bewildered. Which was the dream--that vision of wretchedness, or
this of luxury? If it was not a dream, how had they moved him
without once disturbing his sleep? It was as marvellous as anything
in the Arabian Nights! Could it be the same chamber? Not a thing
seemed the same, yet in him was a doubtful denial of transportance.
Yes, the ceiling was the same! The power of the good fairy had not
reached to the transformation of that! But the walls! Instead of
the great hole in the plaster close by the bed, his eyes fell on a
piece of rich old tapestry! Curtains of silk damask, all bespotted
with quaintest flowers, each like a page of Chaucer’s poetry, hung
round his bed, quite other than fit sails for the Stygian boat.
They had made the bed as different as the vine in summer from the
vine in winter. A quilt of red satin lay in the place of the
patchwork coverlid. Everything had been changed. He thought the
mattress felt soft under him--but that was only a fancy, for he saw
before the fire the feather-bed intended to lie between him and it.
He felt like a tended child, in absolute peace and bliss--or like
one just dead, while yet weary with the struggle to break free. He
seemed to recall the content, of which some few vaguest filaments,
a glance and no more, still float in the summer-air of many a
memory, wherein the child lies, but just awaked to consciousness
and the mere bliss of being, before wrong has begun to cloud its
pure atmosphere. For Cosmo had nothing on his conscience to trouble
it; his mind was stored with lovely images and was fruitful in
fancies, because in temperament, faith, and use, he was a poet; the
evil vapours of fever had just lifted from his brain, and were
floating away, in the light of the sun of life; he felt the
pressure of no duty--was like a bird of the air lying under its
mother’s wing, and dreaming of flight; his childhood’s most
cherished dream had grown fact: there was the sylph, the oriad, the
naiad of all his dreams, a living lady before his eyes--nor the
less a creature of his imagination’s heart; from her, as the centre
of power, had all the marvellous transformation proceeded; and the
lovely strength had kissed him on the forehead! The soul of Cosmo
floated in rapturous quiet, like the evening star in a rosy cloud.

But I return to the earthly shore that bordered this heavenly sea.
The old-fashioned, out-swelling grate, loose and awry in its
setting, had a keen little fire burning in it, of which, summer as
it was, the mustiness of the atmosphere, and the damp of the walls,
more than merely admitted. The hole in the floor had vanished under
a richly faded Turkey carpet; and a luxurious sofa, in blue damask,
faded almost to yellow, stood before the fire, to receive him the
moment he should cease to be a chrysalis. And there in an easy
chair by the corner of the hearth, wonder of all loveliest wonders,
sat the fairy-godmother herself, as if she had but just waved her
wand, and everything had come to her will!--the fact being,
however, that the poor fairy was not a little tired in legs and
arms and feet and hands and head, and preferred contemplating what
she had already done, to doing anything more for the immediate
present.

Cosmo lay watching her. He dared not move a hand, lest she should
move; for, though it might be to rise and come to him, would it not
be to change what he saw?--and what he saw was so much enough, that
he would see it forever, and desired nothing else. She turned her
eyes, and seeing the large orbs of the youth fixed upon her, smiled
as she had not smiled before, for a great weight was off her heart
now that the room gave him a little welcome. True, it was after all
but a hypocrite of a room,--a hypocrite, however, whose meaning was
better than its looks!

He put out his hand, and she rose and came and laid hers in it.
Suddenly he let it go.

“I beg your pardon,” he said. “I don’t know when my hands were
washed! The last I remember is digging in the garden. I wish I
might wash my face and hands!”

“You mustn’t think of it! you can’t sit up yet,” said Lady Joan.
“But never mind: some people are always clean. You should see my
brother’s hands sometimes! I will, if you like, bring you a towel
with a wet corner. I dare say that will do you good.”

She poured water into a basin from a kettle on the hob, and dipping
the corner of a towel in it, brought it to him. He tried to use it,
but his hands obeyed him so ill that she took it from him, and
herself wiped with it his face and hands, and then dried them--so
gently, so softly, he thought that must be how his mother did with
him when he was a baby. All the time, he lay looking up at her with
a grateful smile. She then set about preparing him some tea and
toast, during which he watched her every motion. When he had had
the tea, he fell asleep, and when he woke next he was alone.

An hour or so later, the gardener’s wife brought him a basin of
soup, and when he had taken it, told him she would then leave him
for the night: if he wanted anything, as there was no bell, he must
pull the string she tied to the bed-post. He was very weary, but so
comfortable, and so happy, his brain so full of bright yet
soft-coloured things, that he felt as if he would not mind being
left ages alone. He was but two and twenty, with a pure conscience,
and an endless hope--so might he not well lie quiet in his bed?

By the middle of the night, however, the tide of returning health
showed a check; there came a strong reaction, with delirium; his
pulse was high, and terrible fancies tormented him, through which
passed continually with persistent recurrence the figure of the old
captain, always swinging a stick about his head, and crooning to
himself the foolish rime,

  “Catch yer naig an’ pu’ his tail;
  In his hin’ heel caw a nail;
  Rug his lugs frae ane anither;
  Stan’ up, an’ ca’ the king yer brither.”

At last, at the moment when once more his persecutor was commencing
his childish ditty, he felt as if, from the top of a mountain a
hundred miles away, a cold cloud came journeying through the sky,
and descended upon him. He opened his eyes: there was Joan, and the
cold cloud was her soft cool hand on his forehead. The next thing
he knew was that she was feeding him like a child. But he did not
know that she never left him again till the morning, when, seeing
him gently asleep, she stole away like a ghost in the gray dawn.

The next day he was better, but for several nights the fever
returned, and always in his dreams he was haunted by variations on
the theme of the auld captain; and for several days he felt as if
he did not want to get better, but would lie forever a dreamer in
the enchanted palace of the glamoured ruin. But that was only his
weakness, and gradually he gained strength.

Every morning and every afternoon Lady Joan visited him, waited on
him, and staid a longer or shorter time, now talking, now reading
to him; and seldom would she be a whole evening absent--then only
on the rare occasion when Lord Mergwain, having some one to dine
with him of the more ordinary social stamp, desired her presence as
lady of the house. Even then she would almost always have a peep at
him one time or another. She did not know much about books, but
would take up this or that, almost as it chanced to her hand in the
library; and Cosmo cared little what she read, so long as he could
hear her voice, which often beguiled him into the sweetest sleep
with visions of home and his father. If the story she read was
foolish, it mattered nothing; he would mingle with it his own
fancies, and weave the whole into the loveliest of foolish dreams,
all made up of unaccountably reasonable incongruities: the sensible
look in dreams of what to the waking mind is utterly incoherent, is
the most puzzling of things to him who would understand his own
unreason. And the wild _mӓrchenhaft_ lovelinesses that fashioned
themselves thus in his brain, outwardly lawless, but inwardly so
harmonious as to be altogether credible to the dreamer, were not
lost in the fluttering limbo of foolish invention, but, in altered
shape and less outlandish garments, appeared again, when, in after
years, he sought vent for the all but unspeakable. During this time
he would often talk verse in his sleep, such as to Lady Joan, at
least, sometimes seemed lovely, though she never could get a hold
of it, she said; for always, just as she seemed on the point of
understanding it, he would cease, and her ears would ache with the
silence.

One warm evening, when now a good deal better, and able to sit up a
part of the day, Cosmo was lying on the sofa, watching her face as
she read. Through the age-dusted window came the glowing beams of
the setting sun, lined and dulled and blotted. They fell on her
hands, and her hands reflected them, in a pale rosy gleam, upon her
face.

“How beautiful you are in the red light, Joan!” said Cosmo.

“That’s the light, not me,” she returned.

“Yes, it _is_ you. The red light shows you more as you are. In the
dark even _you_ do not look beautiful. Then you may say if you like,
‘That is the dark, not me.’ Don’t you remember what Portia says in
The Merchant of Venice,

  ‘The crow doth sing as sweetly as the lark
   When neither is attended; and I think
   The nightingale, if she should sing by day
   When every goose is cackling, would be thought
   No better a musician than the wren.
   How many things by reason reasoned are
   To their right praise and true perfection!’

You see he says, not that beautiful things owe their beauty, but
the right seeing of their beauty, to circumstance. So the red light
makes me _see_ you more beautiful--not than you are--that could not
be--but than I could see you in another light--a gray one for
instance.”

“You mustn’t flatter me, Cosmo. You don’t know what harm you may do
me.”

“I love you too much to flatter you,” he said.

She raised the book, and began to read again.

Cosmo had gone on as he began--had never narrowed the channels that
lay wide and free betwixt his soul and his father and Mr. Simon;
Lady Joan had no such aqueducts to her ground, and many a bitter
wind blew across its wastes; it ought not therefore to be matter of
surprise that, although a little younger, Cosmo should be a good
way ahead of Joan both in knowledge and understanding. Hence the
conversations they now had were to Joan like water to a thirsty
soul--the hope of the secret of life, where death had seemed
waiting at the door. She would listen to the youth, rendered the
more enthusiastic by his weakness, as to a messenger from the land
of truth. In the old time she had thought Cosmo a wonderful boy,
saying the strangest things like common things everybody knew: now
he said more wonderful things still, she thought, but as if he knew
they were strange, and did his best to make it easier to receive
them. She wondered whether, if he had been a woman with a history
like hers, he would have been able to keep that bright soul shining
through all the dreariness, to see through the dusty windows the
unchanged beauty of things, and save alive his glorious hope. She
began to see that she had not begun at the beginning with anything,
had let things draw her this way and that, nor put forth any effort
to master circumstance by accepting its duty.

On Cosmo’s side, the passion of the believer in the unseen had laid
hold upon him; and as the gardener awaits the blossoming of some
strange plant, of whose loveliness marvellous tales have reached
his ears, so did he wait for something entrancing to issue from the
sweet twilight sadnesses of her being, the gleams that died into
dusk, the deep voiceless ponderings into which she would fall.

They talked now about any book they were reading, but it mattered
little more what it was, for even a stupid book served as well as
another to set their own fountains flowing. That afternoon Joan was
reading from one partly written, partly compiled, in the beginning
of the century, somewhat before its time in England. It might have
been the work of an imitator at once of de la Motte Fouqué, and the
old British romancers. And this was what she read.




CHAPTER XXVIII.

THE STORY OF THE KNIGHT WHO SPOKE THE TRUTH.


There was once a country in which dwelt a knight whom no lady of
the land would love, and that because he spake the truth. For the
other knights, all in that land, would say to the ladies they
loved, that of all ladies in the world they were the most
beautiful, and the most gracious, yea in all things the very first;
and thereby the ladies of that land were taught to love their own
praise best, and after that, the knight who was the best praiser of
each, and most enabled her to think well of herself in spite of
doubt. And the knight who would not speak save truly, they
mockingly named Sir Verity, which name some of them did again
miscall _Severity_,--for the more he loved, the more it was to him
impossible to tell a lie. And thus it came about that one after
another he was hated of them all. For so it was, that, greedy of his
commendation, this lady and that would draw him on to speak of that
wherein she made it her pleasure to take to herself excellences;
but nowise so could any one of them all gain from him other than a
true judgment. As thus: one day said unto him a lady, “Which of us,
think you, Sir Verity, hath the darkest eyes of all the ladies here
at the court of our lord the king?”

And he thereto made answer, “Verily, methinketh the queen.”

Then said she unto him, “Who then hath the bluest eyes of all the
ladies at the court of our lord the king?”--for that her own were
of the colour of the heavens when the year is young. And he
answered, “I think truly the Lady Coryphane hath the bluest of all
their blue eyes.”

Then said she, “And I think truly by thine answer, Severity, that
thou lovest me not, for else wouldst thou have known that mine eyes
are as blue as Coryphane’s.”

“Nay truly,” he answered; “for my heart knoweth well that thine
eyes are blue, and that they are lovely, and to me the dearest of
all eyes, but to say they are the bluest of all eyes, that I may
not, for therein should I be no true man.” Therewith was the lady
somewhat shamed, and seeking to cover her vanity, did answer and
say, “It may well be, sir knight, for how can I tell who see not
mine own eyes, and would therefore know of thee, of whom men say,
some that thou speakest truly, other some that thou speakest
naughtily. But be the truth as it may, every knight yet saith to
his own mistress that in all things she is the paragon of the
world.”

“Then,” quoth the knight, “she that knoweth that every man saith
so, must know also that only one of them all saith the thing that
is true. Not willingly would I add to the multitude of the lies
that do go about the world!”

“Now verily am I sure that thou dost not love me,” cried the lady;
“for all men do say of mine eyes--” Thereat she stayed words, and
said no more, that he might speak again. “Lady,” said Sir Verity,
and spake right solemnly, “as I said before I do say again, and in
truth, that thine eyes are to me the dearest of all eyes. But they
might be the bluest or the blackest, the greenest or the grayest,
yet would I love them all the same. For for none of those colours
would they be dear to me, but for the cause that they were thine
eyes. For I love thine eyes because they are thine, not thee
because thine eyes are or this or that.” Then that lady brake forth
into bitter weeping, and would not be comforted, neither thereafter
would hold converse with the knight. For in that country it was the
pride of a lady’s life to lie lapt in praises, and breathe the air
of the flatteries blown into her ears by them who would be counted
her lovers. Then said the knight to himself, “Verily, and yet
again, her eyes are not the bluest in the world! It seemeth to me
as that the ladies in this land should never love man aright,
seeing, alas! they love the truth from no man’s lips; for save they
may each think herself better than all the rest, then is not life
dear unto them. I will forsake this land, and go where the truth
may be spoken nor the speaker thereof hated.” He put on his armour,
with never lady nor squire nor page to draw thong or buckle spur,
and mounted his horse and rode forth to leave the land. And it came
to pass, that on his way he entered a great wood. And as he went
through the wood, he heard a sobbing and a crying in the wood. And
he said to himself, “Verily, here is some one wronged and lamenteth
greatly! I will go and help.”

So about he rode searchingly, until he came to the place whither he
was led. And there, at the foot of a great oak, he found an old
woman in a gray cloak, with her face in her hands, and weeping
right on, neither ceased she for the space of a sigh. “What aileth
thee, good mother?” he said.

“I am not good, and I am not thy mother,” she answered, and began
again to weep.

“Ah!” thought the knight, “here is one woman that loveth the truth,
for she speaks the truth, and would not that aught but the truth be
spoken!”--

“How can I help thee, woman,” he said then, “although in truth thou
art not my mother, and I may not call thee good?”

“By taking thyself from me,” she answered.

“Then will I ride on my way,” said the knight, and turning, rode on
his way. Then rose the woman to her feet, and followed him.

“Wherefore followest thou me,” said the knight, “if I may do
nothing to serve thee?”

“I follow thee,” she answered him, “because thou speakest the
truth, and because thou art not true.”

“If thou speakest the truth, in a mystery speakest thou it,” said
he.

“Wherefore then ridest thou about the world?” she asked.

And he replied, “Verily, to succour them that are oppressed, for I
have no mistress to whom I may do honour.”

“Nay, sir knight,” said she, “but to get thee a name and great
glory, thou ridest about the world. Verily thou art a man who
loveth not the truth.”

At these words of the woman the knight clapped spurs to his horse,
and would have ridden from her, for he loved not to be reviled, and
so he told her. But she followed him, and kept by his stirrup, and
said to him as she ran, “Yea, thine own heart whispereth unto thee
that I speak but the truth. It is from thyself thou wouldst flee.”

Then did the knight listen, and, lo! his own heart was telling him
that what the woman said was indeed so. Then drew he the reins of
his bridle, and looked down upon the woman and said to her, “Verily
thou hast well spoken, but if I be not true, yet would I be true.
Come with me. I will take thee upon my horse behind me, and
together we will ride through the world; thou shalt speak to me the
truth, and I will hear thee, and with my sword will plead what
cause thou hast against any; so shall it go well with thee and me,
for fain would I not only love what is truly spoken, but be in
myself the true thing.” Then reached he down his hand, and she put
her hand in his hand, and her foot upon his foot, and so sprang
lightly up behind him, and they rode on together. And as they rode,
he said unto her, “Verily thou art the first woman I have found who
hath to me spoken the truth, as I to others. Only thy truth is
better than mine. Truly thou must love the truth better than I!”
But she returned him no answer. Then said he to her again, “Dost
thou not love the truth?” And again she gave him no answer, whereat
he marvelled greatly. Then said he unto her yet again, “Surely it
may not be thou art one of those who speak the truth out of envy
and ill-will, and on their own part love not to hear it spoken, but
are as the rest of the children of vanity! Woman, lovest thou the
truth, nor only to speak it when it is sharp?”

“If I love not the truth,” she answered, “yet love I them that love
it. But tell me now, sir knight, what thinkest thou of me?”

“Nay,” answered the knight, “that is what even now I would fain
have known from thyself, namely what to think of thee.”

“Then will I now try thee,” said she, “whether indeed thou speakest
the truth or no.--Tell me to my face, for I am a woman, what thou
thinkest of that face.”

Then said the knight to himself, “Never surely would I, for the
love of pity, of my own will say to a woman she was evil-favoured.
But if she will have it, then must she hear the truth.”

“Nay, nay!” said the woman, “but thou wilt not speak the truth.”

“Yea, but I will,” answered he.

“Then I ask thee again,” she said, “what thinkest thou of me?”

And the knight replied, “Truly I think not of thee as of one of the
well-favoured among women.”

“Dost thou then think,” said she, and her voice was full of anger,
which yet it seemed as she would hide, “that I am not pleasant to
look upon? Verily no man hath yet said so unto me, though many have
turned away from me, because I spoke unto them the truth!”

“Now surely thou sayest the thing that is not so!” said the knight,
for he was grieved to think she should speak the truth but of
contention, and not of love to the same, inasmuch as she also did
seek that men should praise her.

“Truly I say that which is so,” she answered.

Then was the knight angered, and spake to her roughly, and said
unto her, “Therefore, woman, will I tell thee that which thou
demandest of me: Verily I think of thee as one, to my thinking, the
worst favoured, and least to be desired among women whom I have yet
looked upon; nor do I desire ever to look upon thee again.”

Then laughed she aloud, and said to him, “Nay, but did I not tell
thee thou didst not dare speak the thing to my face? for now thou
sayest it not to my face, but behind thine own back!”

And in wrath the knight turned him in his saddle, crying, “I tell
thee, to thy ill-shaped and worse-hued countenance, that--” and
there ceased, and spake not, but with open mouth sat silent. For
behind him he saw a woman the glory of her kind, more beautiful
than man ever hoped to see out of heaven.

“I told thee,” she said, “thou couldst not say the thing to my
face!”

“For that it would be the greatest lie ever in this world uttered,”
answered the knight, “seeing that verily I do believe thee the
loveliest among women, God be praised! Nevertheless will I not go
with thee one step farther, so to peril my soul’s health, except,
as thou thyself hast taught me to inquire, thou tell me thou lovest
the truth in all ways, in great ways as well as small.”

“This much will I tell thee,” she answered, “that I love thee
because thou lovest the truth. If I say not more, it is that it
seemeth to me a mortal must be humble speaking of great things.
Verily the truth is mighty, and will subdue my heart unto itself.”

“And wilt thou help me to do the truth?” asked the knight.

“So the great truth help me!” she answered. And they rode on
together, and parted not thereafter. Here endeth the story of the
knight that spoke the truth.

Lady Joan ceased, and there was silence in the chamber, she looking
back over the pages, as if she had not quite understood, and Cosmo,
who had understood entirely, watching the lovely, dark, anxious
face. He saw she had not mastered the story, but, which was next
best, knew she had not. He began therefore to search her
difficulty, or rather to help it to take shape, and thereon
followed a conversation neither of them ever forgot concerning the
degrees of truth: as Cosmo designated them--the truth of fact, the
truth of vital relation, and the truth of action.




CHAPTER XXIX.

NEW EXPERIENCE.


Soon Cosmo began to recover more rapidly--as well he might, he told
Joan, with such a heavenly servant to wait on him! The very next
day he was up almost the whole of it. But that very day was Joan
less with him than hitherto, and therefrom came not so often and
stayed a shorter time. She would bring him books and leave them,
saying he did not require a nurse any more now that he was able to
feed himself. And Cosmo, to his trouble, could not help thinking
sometimes that her manner towards him was also a little changed.
What could have come between them he asked himself twenty times a
day. Had he hurt her anyhow? Had he unconsciously put on the
schoolmaster with her? Had he presumed on her kindness? With such
questions he plagued himself, but found to them no answer. At times
he could even have imagined her a little cross with him, but that
never lasted. Yet still when they met, Joan seemed farther off than
when they parted the day before. It is true they almost always
seemed to get back to nearly the same place before they parted
again, and Cosmo tried to persuade himself that any change there
might be was only the result of growing familiarity; but not the
less did he find himself ever again mourning over something that
was gone--a delicate colour on the verge of the meeting sky and sea
of their two natures.

But how differently the hours went when she was with him, and when
he lay thinking whether she was coming! His heart swelled like a
rose-bud ready to burst into a flaming flower when she drew near,
and folded itself together when she went, as if to save up all its
perfume and strength for her return! Everything he read that
pleased him, must be shared with Joan--must serve as an atmosphere
of thought in which to draw nigh to each other. Everything
beautiful he saw twice--with his own eyes namely, and as he
imagined it in the eyes of Joan: he was always trying to see things
as he thought she would see them. Not once while recovering did he
care to read a thing he thought she would not enjoy--though
everything he liked, he said to himself, she must enjoy some day.

Soon he made a discovery concerning himself that troubled him
greatly: not once since he was ill had he buried himself in the
story of Jesus! not once had he lost himself in prayer! not once
since finding Joan had he been flooded with a glory as from the
presence of the living One, or had any such vision of truth as used
every now and then to fill him like the wine of the new world which
is the old! Lady Joan saw that he was sad, and questioned him. But
even to her he could not open his mind on such a matter: near as
they were, they had not yet got near enough to each other for that.

In the history, which is the growth, of the individual man, epochs
of truth and moods of being follow in succession, the one for the
moment displacing the other, until the mind shall at length have
gained power to blend the new at once with the preceding whole. But
this can never be until our idea of the Absolute Life is large
enough and intense enough to fill and fit into every necessity of
our nature. A new mood is as a dry well for the water of life to
fill. The man who does not yet understand God as the very power of
his conscious as well as unconscious being, as more in him than
intensest consciousness of bliss or of pain, must have many a
treeless expanse, many a mirage-haunted desert, many an empty
cistern and dried up river, in the world of his being! There was
not much of this kind of waste in Cosmo’s world, but God was not
yet inside his growing love to Joan--that is, consciously to
him--and his spirit was therefore of necessity troubled. Was it not
a dreadful thing, he thought with himself, and was right in so
thinking, that love to any lovely thing--how much more to the
loveliest being God had made!--whose will is the soul of all
loveliness, should cause him, in any degree, or for any time, to
forget him and grow strange to the thought of him? The lack was
this, that, having found his treasure, he had not yet taken it home
to his Father! Jesus, himself, after he was up again, could not be
altogether at home with his own, until he had first been home to
his Father and their Father, to his God and their God. For as God
is the source, so is he the bond of all love. There are Christians
who in portions of their being, of their life, their judgments, and
aims, are absolute heathens, for with these, so far as their
thought or will is concerned, God has nothing to do. There God is
not with them, for there they are not with God. Do they heed St.
Paul when he says, “Whatsoever is not of faith is sin”?

So, between these two, an unrest had come in, and they were no more
sure of ease in each other’s presence, although sometimes, for many
minutes together, thought and word would go well between them, and
all would be as simple and shining as ever.




CHAPTER XXX.

CHARLES JERMYN, M. D.


The only house in the neighbouring village where Lady Joan
sometimes visited, was, as the gardener had told Cosmo, that of the
doctor, with whose daughter she had for some years, if not
cultivated, yet admitted a sort of friendship. Their relation
however would certainly have been nothing such, so different were
the two, had it not been that Joan had no other acquaintance of her
own age, and that Miss Jermyn had reasons for laying herself out to
please her--the principal of which was that her brother, a man
about thirty, had a great admiration for Lady Joan, and to please
him his sister would do almost anything. Their father also favoured
his son’s ambition, for he hated the earl, and would be glad of his
annoyance, while he liked Lady Joan, and was far from blind to the
consequence his family would gain by such an alliance. But he had
no great hope, for experience, of which few have more than a
country doctor, had taught him that, in every probability, his
son’s first advance would be for Lady Joan the signal to retire
within the palisades of her rank; for there are who will show any
amount of familiarity and friendliness with agreeable inferiors up
to the moment when the least desire of a nearer approach manifests
itself: that moment the old Adam, or perhaps rather the old Satan,
is up in full pride like a spiritual turkey-cock, with swollen
neck, roused feathers, and hideous gabble. His experience however
did not bring to his mind in the company of this reflection the
fact that such a reception was precisely that which he had himself
given to a prayer for the hand of his daughter from one whom he
counted her social inferior. But the younger man, who also had had
his experiences, reflected that the utter isolation of Lady Joan,
through the ill odour of her family, the disgraceful character of
her father, the unamiability of her brother, and the poverty into
which they had sunk, gave him incalculable advantages.

The father had been for many years the medical adviser of the
house; and although Lord Mergwain accorded the medical practice of
his day about the same relation to a science of therapeutics that
old alchemy had to modern chemistry, yet the moment he felt ill, he
was sure to send for young Jermyn. Charles had also attended Lady
Joan in several illnesses, for she had not continued in such health
as when she used to climb hills in snow with Cosmo. It is true she
had on these occasions sent for the father, but for one reason and
another, more likely to be false than true, he had always, with
many apologies, sent his son in his stead. She was at first
annoyed, and all but refused to receive him; but from dislike of
seeming to care, she got used to his attendance, and to him as
well. He gained thus the opportunity of tolerably free admission to
her, of which he made use with what additional confidence came of
believing that at least he had no rival.

Nor indeed was there anything absurd in his aspiring in those her
circumstances to win her. He was a man of good breeding, and more
than agreeable manners--with a large topographical experience, and
a social experience far from restricted, for, as I have already
mentioned, he had travelled much, and in the company of persons of
high position; and had Joan been less ignorant of things belonging
to her proper station, she would have found yet more to interest
her in him. But being a man of some insight, and possessed also of
considerable versatility, so that, readily discovering any
peculiarity, he was equally ready to meet it, he laid himself out
to talk to her of the things, and in the ways, which he thought she
would like. To discover, however, is not to understand. No longer
young enough, as he said to himself, to be greatly interested in
anything but _getting on_, he could yet, among the contents of the
old property-room in his brain, easily lay his hands on many things
to help him in the part he chose as the fittest to represent
himself. The greater part of conventionally honest men try to look
the thing they would like to be--that being at the same time the
way they would like others to see them; others, along with what
they would like to be, act that which they would only like to
appear; the downright rascal cares only to look what will serve his
purpose; and the honest man thinks only of being, and of being to
his fellows.

But even had Jermyn only taken upon him to imagine himself in love
with a woman like Lady Joan, he must soon have become, more or
less, actually in love with her. This did not however destroy his
caution; and so far as his attentions had gone, they were pleasant
to her;--they were at least a break in the ennui of her daily life,
helping her to reach the night in safety. She was not one of those
who, unable to make alive the time, must kill it lest it kill them;
but neither was she of those who make their time so living, that
the day is too short for them. Hence it came when he called, that
by and by she would offer him tea, and when he went, would walk
with him into the garden, and at length even accompany him as far
as the lodge on his way home.

Charles Jermyn was a tall, well-made man, with a clever and refined
face, which, if not much feeling, expressed great intelligence. By
the ladies of the neighbourhood he was much admired, by some of
them pronounced very manly and good-looking, by others declared to
be _beautiful_. Certain of them said he was much too handsome for a
doctor. He had a jolly air with him, which was yet far from
unrefined, and a hearty way of shaking hands which gave an
impression of honesty; and indeed I think honesty would have been
comparatively easy to him, had he set himself to cultivate it; but
he had never given himself trouble about anything except “getting
on.” You might rely on his word if he gave it solemnly, but not
otherwise. Absolute truth he would have felt a hindrance in the
exercise of his profession, neither out of it did he make his yea
yea, and his nay nay. His oath was better than his word, and that
is a human shame.

Women, even more than men, I presume, see in any one who interests
them, not so much what is there, as a reflection of what they
construct from the hints that have pleased them. Some of them it
takes a miserable married lifetime to undeceive; for some, not even
that will serve; they continue to see, if not an angel, yet a very
pardonable mortal, therefore altogether loveable man, in the
husband in whom everybody else sees only a vile rascal. Whether
sometimes the wife or the world be nearer the truth, will one day
come out: the wife _may_ be a woman of insight, and see where no one
else can.

In his youth the doctor had read a good deal of poetry, and enjoyed
it in a surface-sort of fashion: discovering that Lady Joan had a
fine taste in verse, he made use of his acquaintance there; and
effected the greater impression, that one without experience is
always ready to take familiarity as indicative of real knowledge,
and think that he, for instance, who can quote largely, must have
vital relation with the things he quotes. But it had never entered
the doctor’s head that poetry could have anything to do with
life--even in the case of the poet himself--how much less in that
of his admirer! Never once had it occurred to him to ask how he
could be such a fool as enjoy anything false--beingless save in the
brain of the poet--a mere lie! For that which has nothing to do
with life, what can it be but a lie? Not the less Jermyn got down
book after book, for many a day undusted on his shelves, and read
and re-read many a passage which had once borne him into the
seventh heaven of feeling, suggesting somewhere a better world, in
which lovely things might be had _without too much trouble_: now as
he read, he was struck with a mild surprise at finding how much had
lost even the appearance of the admirable; how much of what had
seemed bitter, he could thoroughly accept. He did not ask whether
the change came of a truer vision or a sourer judgment, put all
down to the experience that makes a man wise, none to a loss
within. He was not able to imagine himself in anything less than he
had been, in anything less than he would be. Yet poetry was to him
now the mere munition of war! mere feathers for the darts of Cupid!
--that was how the once poetic man to himself expressed himself! He
was laying in store of weapons, he said! For when a man will use
things in which he does not believe, he cannot fail to be vulgar.
But Lady Joan saw no vulgarity in the result--it was hid in the man
himself. To her he seemed a profound lover of poetry, who knew much
of which she had never even heard. Once he contrived to spend a
whole afternoon with her in the library, for of the outsides of
books, their title-pages, that is, he had a good deal of knowledge,
and must make opportunity to show it. One of his patients, with
whom he first travelled, then for a time resided, was a
book-collector, and with him he learned much, chiefly from
old-book-catalogues. With Lady Joan this learning, judiciously
poured out, passed for a marvellous knowledge of books, and the
country doctor began to assume in her eyes the proportions of a man
of universal culture. He knew at least how to bring all he had into
use, and succeeded in becoming something in the sweet lonely life,
so ignorant and unsupported. He could play the violin too, and that
with no mean expression--believing only in the expression, nowise
in the feeling expressed: this accomplishment also he contrived she
should, as if by accident, become acquainted with.

In the judgment of most who knew him, he was an excellent and
indeed admirable man. “No nonsense about him, don’t you know?--able
to make himself agreeable, but not losing sight of the main chance
either!” men would say; and “A thorough family-doctor, knowing how
to humour patients out of their fancies!” would certain mammas add,
who, instead of being straight-forward with their children, were
always scheming, and dodging, and holding private confabulations
about them with doctor and clergyman.

In that part of his professional duty which bordered on that of the
nurse, the best that was in Jermyn came out. Few men could handle a
patient at the same time so firmly and tenderly as he; few were
less sparing of self in the endeavour to make him comfortable. And
from the moment when the simple-minded Cosmo became aware of his
attendance and ministration, his heart went out to him--from the
moment, that is, when, in the afternoon of the same day on which
Joan transformed his chamber, he lifted him in his arms that the
gardener and his wife might place a feather-bed and mattress under
him, obliterating in softness the something which had seemed to
find out every bone in his body: as soon as he was laid down again,
his spirit seemed to rise on clouds of ease to thank his minister.
And Cosmo was one in whom the gratitude was as enduring as ready.
Next to the appearance of Lady Joan, all the time he was
recovering, he looked for the daily visit of the doctor. Nor did
the doctor ever come without receiving his reward in an interview
with the lady. And herein Jermyn gained another advantage. For Joan
found herself compelled to take him into her confidence concerning
her brother’s ignorance of the presence of Cosmo in the house; and
so he shared a secret with her. He did not, of course, altogether
relish the idea of this Scotch cousin, but plainly he was too young
for Joan, and he would soon find out whether there was any need to
beware of him, by which time he would know also what to do with
him, should action be necessary.

For the first week or so Joan did not mind how often the doctor
found her with Cosmo, but after that she began to dislike it, she
could scarcely have told why, and managed to be elsewhere when he
came. After the third time the doctor began to cherish suspicion,
and called cunning to his aid. Having mentioned an hour at which he
would call the next day, he made his appearance an hour earlier,
and with an excuse on his lips for the change he had been
“compelled to make,” walked into the room without warning, as of
course he might without offence, where his patient was a young man.
There, as he had feared, he found Lady Joan. But she had heard or
felt his coming, and as he entered she was handing Cosmo the
newspaper, with the words,

“There! you are quite able to read to yourself to-day. I will go and
have another search for the book you wanted;” and with that she
turned, and gave a little start, for there stood the doctor!

“Oh, Doctor Jermyn!” she exclaimed, “I did not know you were
there!” and held out her hand. “Our patient is going on wonderfully
now. You will let me see you before you leave the castle?”

Therewith she left the room, and hastening to her own, saw in the
mirror the red of a lie, said to herself, “What will Cosmo think?”
and burst into tears--the first she had shed since the day she
found him.

The doctor was not taken in, but Cosmo was troubled and puzzled. In
Jermyn’s talk, however, and his own simplicity, he soon forgot the
strangeness of this her behaviour.




CHAPTER XXXI.

COSMO AND THE DOCTOR.


To the eyes of Jermyn, Cosmo appeared, mainly from his simplicity,
younger than he was, while the doctor’s manners, and his knowledge
of the world, made Cosmo regard him as a much greater man than, in
any sense or direction, he really was. His kindness having gained
the youth’s heart, he was ready to see in him everything that love
would see in the loved.

“You are very good to me, Doctor Jermyn,” he said, one day, “--so
good, that I am the more sorry though the less unwilling--”--The
doctor could not keep his hold of the thread of Cosmo’s speech, yet
did not interrupt him--“to tell you what is now weighing on my
mind: I do not know how or when I shall be able to hand you your
fees. I hope you will not come to see me once more than is
necessary; and the first money I earn, you shall be paid part at
least of what I owe you.”

The doctor laughed. It was such a school-boy speech, he thought! It
was a genuine relief to Cosmo to find him take the thing so
lightly.

“You were robbed on the way, Lady Joan tells me,” Jermyn said.

“I am not sure that I was robbed,” returned Cosmo; “but in any
case, even had I brought every penny I started with, I could not
have paid you. My father and I are very poor, Mr. Jermyn.”

“And my father and I are pretty well to do,” said the doctor,
laughing again.

“But,” resumed Cosmo, “neither condition is a reason why you should
not be paid. Mine is only the cause why you are not paid at once.”

“My dear fellow,” said the doctor, laying his hand on the boy’s, “I
am not such a very old man--it is not so very long since I was a
student myself--in your country too--at Edinburgh--that I should
forget what it is to be a student, or how often money is scarce in
the midst of every other kind of plenty and refinement.”

“But I am not exactly a student now. I have been making a little
money as tutor; only--”

“Don’t trouble your head about it, I beg of you,” interrupted the
doctor. “It is the merest trifle. Besides, I should never have
thought of taking a fee from you! I am well paid in the pleasure of
making your acquaintance.--But there is one way,” he added, “in
which you could make me a return.”

“What is that?” asked Cosmo eagerly.

“To borrow a little money of me for a few months? I am not at all
hard up at present. I had to borrow many a time when I was in
Edinburgh.”

The boy-heart of Cosmo swelled in his bosom, and for a time he
could not answer. He thought with himself, “Here is a man of the
true sort!--a man after my father’s own heart! who in the ground of
his rights plants fresh favours, and knows the inside of a fellow’s
soul as well as his body! This is a rare man!”

But he felt it would be to do Joan a wrong to borrow money from the
doctor and not from her. So with every possible acknowledgment he
declined the generous offer. Now the doctor was quite simple in
behaving thus to Cosmo. He was a friendly man and a gentleman, and
liked Cosmo as no respectable soul could help liking him. It had
not yet entered into him to make him useful. That same night,
however, he began to ask himself whether he might not make Cosmo
serve instead of hindering his hope, and very soon had thought the
matter out. He was by no means too delicate to talk at once about
his love, but would say nothing of it until he had made more sure
of Cosmo, and good his ground by sowing another crop first: he must
make himself something in the eyes of the youth, plant himself
firmly in his estimation, cause his idea of him to blossom; and
for the sake of this he must first of all understand the boy!

Nor was it long before the doctor imagined he did understand the
boy; and indeed, sceptical as both his knowledge of himself and of
the world had made him, he did so far understand him as to believe
him as innocent of evil as the day he was born. His eyes could not
shine so, his mouth could not have that childlike--the doctor
called it childish--smile otherwise. He put out various feelers to
satisfy himself there was no pretence, and found his allusions
either passed over him like a breath of merest air, or actually
puzzled him. It was not always that Cosmo did not know what the
suggestion _might_ mean, but that he could not believe Jermyn meant
that; and perceiving this, the doctor would make haste to alter the
shadow into something definitely unobjectionable. Jermyn had no
design of corrupting the youth; he was above that, even could he
have fancied anything to be gained by it, whereas his interest lay
in the opposite direction, his object being to use the lad
unconsciously to himself. He discovered also concerning him that he
had lofty ideas of duty in everything; that he was very trusting,
and unready to doubt; and that with him poetry was not, as with
Lady Joan, a delight, but an absolute passion. After such
discoveries, he judged it would not be hard to make for himself,
as for an idol, a high place in the imagination of the boy. For
this end he brought to bear upon him his choicest fragments of
knowledge, and all his power to interest; displayed in pleasing
harmonies his acquaintance with not a few of the more delicate
phases of humanity, and his familiarity with the world of
imagination as embodied in books; professed much admiration he did
not feel, in the line of Cosmo’s admiration, going into raptures,
for instance, over Milton’s profoundest gems, whose beauty he felt
only in a kind of reflected cold-moony way, through the external
perfection of their colour and carving; brought to his notice
Wordsworth’s _Happy Warrior_, of which he professed, and truly, that
he had pasted it on his wall when a student, that at any moment he
might read it; and introduced him to the best poems of Shelley, a
favour for which alone Cosmo felt as if he must serve him for life.

Cosmo was so entire, so utterly honest, so like a woman, that he
could not but regard the channel through which anything reached
him, as of the nature of that which came to him through it; how
could that serve to transmit which was not one in spirit with the
thing transmitted? To his eyes, therefore, Jermyn sat in the reflex
glory of Shelley, and of every other radiant spirit of which he had
widened his knowledge. How could Cosmo for instance regard him as a
common man through whom came to him first that thrilling
trumpet-cry, full of the glorious despair of a frustrate divinity,
beginning,

  O wild west wind, thou breath of autumn’s being,

--the grandest of all pagan pantheistic utterances he was ever
likely to hear! The whole night, and many a night after, was Cosmo
haunted with the aeolian music of its passionate, self-pitiful
self-abandonment. And in his dreams, the “be thou me, impetuous
one!” of the poem, seemed fulfilled in himself--for he and the wind
were one, careering wildly along the sky, combing out to their
length the maned locks of the approaching storm, and answering the
cry of weary poets everywhere over the world.

As he sat by his patient’s bed, Jermyn would also tell him about
his travels, and relate passages of adventure in various parts of
the world; and he came oftener, and staid longer, and talked more
and more freely, until at length in Cosmo’s vision, the more
impressible perhaps from his weakness, the doctor seemed a hero, an
admirable Crichton; a paragon of doctors.

In all this, Jermyn, to use his own dignified imagery, was
preparing an engine of assault against the heart of the lady. He
had no very delicate feeling of the relation of man and woman,
neither any revulsion from the loverly custom in low plays of
making a friend of the lady’s maid, and bribing her to chaunt the
praises of the briber in the ears of her mistress. In his
intercourse with Lady Joan, something seemed always to interfere
and prevent him from showing himself to the best advantage--which
he never doubted to be the truest presentation; but if he could
send her a reflection of him in the mind of such an admirer as he
was making of Cosmo, she would then see him more as he desired to
be seen, and as he did not doubt he was.




CHAPTER XXXII.

THE NAIAD.


At length Cosmo was able to go out, and Joan did not let him go by
himself. For several days he walked only a very little, but sat a
good deal in the sun, and rapidly recovered strength. At last, one
glorious morning of summer, they went out together, intending to
have a real little walk.

Lady Joan had first made sure that her brother was occupied in his
laboratory, but still she dared not lead her patient to any part of
the garden or grounds ever visited by him. She took him, therefore,
through walks, some of them wide, and bordered with stately trees,
but all grown with weeds and moss, to the deserted portion with
which he had already made a passing acquaintance. There all lay
careless of the present, hopeless of the future, and hardly
dreaming of the past. It was long since foot of lady had pressed
these ancient paths, long since laugh or merry speech had been
heard in them. Nothing is lovelier than the result of the
half-neglect which often falls upon portions of great grounds, when
the owner’s fancy has changed, and his care has turned to some
newer and more favoured spot; when there is moss on the walks, but
the weeds are few and fine; when the trees stand in their old
honour, yet no branch is permitted to obstruct a path; when flowers
have ceased to be sown or planted, but those that bloom are not
disregarded; while yet it is only through some stately door that
admission is gained, and no chance foot is free to stray in. But
here it was altogether different. That stage of neglect was long
past. The place was ragged, dirty, overgrown. There was between the
picture I have drawn and this reality, all the painful difference
between stately and beautiful matronhood, and the old age that, no
longer capable of ministering to its own decencies, has grown
careless of them.

“At this time of the day there is plenty of sun here,” said his
nurse, in a tone that seemed to savour of apology.

“I think,” said Cosmo, “the gardener told me some parts of the
grounds were better kept than this.”

“Yes,” answered Joan, “but none of them are anything like what they
should be. My brother is so poor.”

“I don’t believe you know what it is to be poor,” said Cosmo.

“Oh, don’t I!” returned Joan with a sigh. “You see Constantine
requires for his experiments all the little money the trustees
allow.”

[Illustration: LADY JOAN AND COSMO IN THE GARDEN.]

“I know this part,” said Cosmo. “I made acquaintance with it the
last thing as I was growing ill. It looks to me so melancholy! If I
were here, I should never rest till I had with my own hands got it
into some sort of order.”

“Are you as strong as you used to be, Cosmo--I mean when you are
well?” asked Joan, willing to change the direction of the
conversation.

“A good deal stronger, I hope,” answered Cosmo. “But I am glad it
is not just this moment, for then I should have no right to be
leaning on you, Joan.”

“Do you like to lean on me, Cosmo?”

“Indeed I do; I am proud of it!--But tell me why you don’t take me
to a more cheerful part.”

She made him no answer. He looked in her face. It was very pale,
and tears were in her eyes.

“Must I tell you, Cosmo?” she said.

“No, certainly, if you would rather not.”

“But you might think it something wrong.”

“I should never imagine you doing anything wrong, Joan.”

“Then I must tell you, lest it should be wrong.--My brother does not
know that you are here.”

Now Cosmo had never imagined that Lord Mergwain did not know he was
at the castle. It was true he had not come to see him, but nothing
was simpler if Lord Mergwain desired to see Cosmo as little as
Cosmo desired, from his recollection of him at Castle Warlock, to
see Lord Mergwain. It almost took from him what little breath he
had to learn that he had been all this time in a man’s house
without his knowledge. No doubt, in good sense and justice, the
house was Joan’s too, however little the male aristocracy may be
inclined to admit such a statement of rights, but there must be
some one at the head of things, and, however ill he might occupy
it, that place was naturally his lordship’s, and he had at least a
right to know who was in the house. Huge discomfort thereupon
invaded Cosmo, and a restless desire to be out of the place. His
silence frightened Joan.

“Are you very angry with me, Cosmo,” she said.

“Angry! No, Joan! How could I be angry with you? Only it makes me
feel myself where I have no business to be--rather like a thief in
fact.”

“Oh, I am so sorry! But what could I do? You don’t know my brother,
or you would not wonder. He seems to have a kind of hatred to your
family!--I do not in the least know why. Could my father have said
anything about you that he misunderstood?--But no, that could not
be!--And yet my father did say he knew your house many years
before!”

“I don’t care how Lord Mergwain regards me,” said Cosmo; “what
angers me is that he should behave so to you that you dare not tell
him a thing. Now I _am_ sorry I came without writing to you first!--I
don’t know though!--and I can’t say I am sorry I was taken ill, for
all the trouble I have been to you; I should never have known
otherwise how beautiful and good you are.”

“I’m not good! and I’m not beautiful!” cried Joan, and burst into
tears of humiliation and sore-heartedness. What a contrast was
their house and its hospitality, she thought, to those in which
Cosmo lived one heart and one soul with his father!

“But,” she resumed the next moment, wiping away her tears, “you
must not think I have no right to do anything for you. My father
left all his personal property to me, and I know there was money in
his bureau, saved up for me--I _know_ it; and I know too that my
brother took it! I said never a word about it to him or any
one--never mentioned the subject before; but I can’t have you
feeling as if you had been taking what I had no right to give!”

They had come to the dry fountain, with its great cracked basin, in
the centre of which stood the parched naiad, pouring an endless
nothing from her inverted vase. Forsaken and sad she looked. All
the world had changed save her, and left her a memorial of former
thoughts, vanished ways, and forgotten things: she, alas! could not
alter, must be still the same, the changeless centre of change. All
the winters would beat upon her, all the summers would burn her;
but never more would the glad water pour plashing from her dusty
urn! never more would the birds make showers with their beating
wings in her cool basin! The dead leaves would keep falling year
after year to their rest, but she could not fall--must, through the
slow ages, stand, until storm and sunshine had wasted her atom by
atom away.

On the broad rim of the basin they sat down. Cosmo turned towards
the naiad, such thoughts as I have written throbbing in his brain
like the electric light in an exhausted receiver, Joan with her
back to the figure, and her eyes on the ground, thinking Cosmo
brooded vexed on his newly discovered position. It was a sad
picture. The two were as the type of Nature and Art, the married
pair, here at strife--still together, but only the more
apart--Oberon and Titania, with ruin all about them. Through the
straggling branches appeared the tottering dial of Time where not a
sun-ray could reach it; for Time himself may well go to sleep where
progress is but disintegration. Time himself is nothing, does
nothing; he is but the medium in which the forces work. Time no
more cures our ills, than space unites our souls, because they
cross it to mingle.

Had Cosmo suspected Joan’s thought, he would have spoken; but the
urn of the naiad had brought back to him his young thoughts and
imaginations concerning the hidden source of the torrent that
rushed for ever along the base of Castle Warlock: the dry urn was
to him the end of all life that knows not its source--therefore,
when the water of its consciousness fails, cannot go back to the
changeless, ever renewing life, and unite itself afresh with the
self-existent, parent spring. A moment more and he began to tell
Joan what he was thinking--gave her the whole metaphysical history
of the development in him of the idea of life in connection with
the torrent and its origin ever receding, like a decoy-hope that
entices us to the truth, until at length he saw in God the one only
origin, the fountain of fountains, the Father of all lights--that
is, of all things, and all true thoughts.

“If there were such an urn as that,” he said, pointing to the
naiad’s, “ever renewing the water inside it without pipe or spring,
there would be what we call a miracle, because, unable to follow
the appearance farther back, we should cease thought, and wonder
only in the presence of the making God. And such an urn would be a
true picture of the heart of God, ever sending forth life of
itself, and of its own will, into the consciousness of us receiving
the same.”

He grew eloquent, and talked as even Joan had never heard him
before. And she understood him, for the lonely desire after life
had wrought, making her capable. She felt more than ever that he
was a messenger to her from a higher region, that he had come to
make it possible for her to live, to enlarge her being, that it
might no more be but the half life of mere desire after something
unknown and never to be attained.

Suddenly, with that inexplicable breach in the chain of association
over which the electric thought seems to leap, as over a mighty
void of spiritual space, Cosmo remembered that he had not yet sent
the woman whose generous trust had saved him from long pangs of
hunger, the price of her loaf. He turned quickly to Joan: was not
this a fresh chance of putting trust in her? What so precious thing
between two lives as faith? It is even a new creation in the midst
of the old. Would he not be wrong to ask it from another? And ask
it he must; for there was the poor woman, on whom he had no claim
of individual, developed friendship, in want of her money! Would he
not feel that Joan wronged him, if she asked some one else for any
help he could give her? He told her therefore the whole story of
his adventures on his way to her, and ending said,

“Lend me a half-sovereign--please--to put in a letter for the first
woman. I will find something for the girl afterwards.”

Joan burst into tears. It was some time before she could speak, but
at last she told him plainly that she had no money, and dared not
ask her brother, because he would want to know first what she meant
to do with it.

“Is it possible?” cried Cosmo. “Why, my father would never ask me
what I wanted a little money for!”

“And you would be sure to tell him without his asking!” returned
Joan. “But I dare not tell Constantine. Last week I could have
asked him, because then, for your sake, I would have told a lie;
but I dare not do that now.”

She did not tell him she gave her last penny to a beggar on the
road the day he came, or that she often went for months without a
coin in her pocket.

Cosmo was so indignant he could not speak; neither must he give
shape in her hearing to what he thought of her brother. She looked
anxiously in his face.

“Dear Cosmo,” she said, “do not be angry with me. I will borrow the
money from the housekeeper. I have never done such a thing, but for
your sake I will. You shall send it to-morrow.”

“No, no, dearest Joan!” cried Cosmo. “I will not hear of such a
thing. I should be worse than Lord Mergwain to lay a feather on the
burden he makes you carry.”

“I shouldn’t mind it _much_. It would be sweet to hurt my pride for
your sake.”

“Joan, if you do,” said Cosmo, “I will not touch it. Don’t trouble
your dear heart about it. God is taking care of the woman as well
as of us. I will send it afterwards.”

They sat silent--Cosmo thinking how he was to escape from this
poverty-stricken grandeur to his own humble heaven--as poor, no
doubt, but full of the dignity lacking here. He knew the state of
things at home too well to imagine his father could send him the
sum necessary without borrowing it, and he knew also how painful
that would be to him who had been so long a borrower ever
struggling to pay.

Joan’s eyes were red with weeping when at length she looked
pitifully in his face. Like a child he put both his arms about her,
seeking to comfort her. Sudden as a flash came a voice, calling her
name in loud, and as it seemed to Cosmo, angry tones. She turned
white as the marble on which they sat, and cast a look of agonized
terror on Cosmo.

“It is Constantine!” said her lips, but hardly her voice.

The blood rushed in full tide from Cosmo’s heart, as it had not for
many a day, and coloured all his thin face. He drew himself up, and
rose with the look of one ready for love’s sake to meet danger
joyously. But Joan threw her arms round him now, and held him.

“No, no!” she said; “--this way! this way!” and letting him go,
darted into the pathless shrubbery, sure he would follow her.

Cosmo hated turning his back on any person or thing, but the danger
here was to Joan, and he must do as pleased her. He followed
instantly.




CHAPTER XXXIII.

THE GARDEN-HOUSE.


She threaded and forced her way swiftly through the thick-grown
shrubs, regardless of thorns and stripping twigs. It was a
wilderness for many yards, but suddenly the bushes parted, and
Cosmo saw before him a neglected building, overgrown with ivy, of
which it would have been impossible to tell the purpose, for it was
the product of a time when everything was made to look like
something else. The door of it, thick with accumulated green paint,
stood half open, as if the last who left it had failed in a feeble
endeavour to shut it. Like a hunted creature Joan darted in, and up
the creaking stair before her. Cosmo followed, every step
threatening to give way under him.

The place was two degrees nearer ruin than his room. Great green
stains were on the walls; plaster was lying here and there in a
heap; the floors, rotted everywhere with damp, were sinking in all
directions. Yet there had been no wanton destruction, for the glass
in the windows was little broken. Merest neglect is all that is
required to make of both man and his works a heap; for will is at
the root of well-being, and nature speedily resumes what the will
of man does not hold against her.

At the top of the stair, Joan turned into a room, and keeping along
the wall, went cautiously to the window, and listened.

“I don’t think he will venture here,” she panted. “The gardener
tells me his lordship seems as much afraid of the place as he and
the rest of them. I don’t mind it much--in the daytime.--You are
never frightened, Cosmo!”

As she spoke, she turned on him a face which, for all the speed she
had made, was yet pale as that of a ghost.

“I don’t pretend never to be frightened,” said Cosmo; “all I can
say is, I hope God will help me not to turn my back on anything,
however frightened I may be.”

But the room he was in seemed to him the most fearful place he had
ever beheld. His memory of the spare room at home, with all its age
and worn stateliness and evil report, showed mere innocence beside
this small common-looking, square room. If a room dead and buried
for years, then dug up again, be imaginable, that is what this was
like. It was furnished like a little drawing-room, and many of the
niceties of work and ornament that are only to be seen in a lady’s
room, were yet recognizable here and there, for everything in it
was plainly as it had been left by the person who last occupied it.
But the aspect of the whole was indescribably awful. The rottenness
and dust and displacement by mere decay, looked enough to scare
even the ghosts, if they had any scare left in them. No doubt the
rats had at one time their share in the destruction, but it was
long since they had forsaken the house. There was no disorder. The
only thing that looked as if the room had been abandoned in haste,
was the door of a closet standing wide open. The house had a worse
repute than ghost could give it--worse than Joan knew, for no one
had ever told her what must add to her father’s discredit.

Something in a corner of the closet just mentioned, caught Cosmo’s
eye, and he had taken one step towards it, when a sharp moan from
the lips of his companion arrested him. He turned, saw her face
agonized with fresh fear, and was rushing to the window, when she
ran _at_ him, pushed him back, and stood shaking. He thought she
would have fallen, and supported her. They stood listening
speechless, with faces like two moons in the daytime. Presently
Cosmo heard the rustling of twigs, and the sounds of back-swinging
branches. These noises came nearer and nearer. Joan gazed with
expanding eyes of terror in Cosmo’s face, as if anywhere else she
must see what would kill her.

“Joan!” cried the same voice Cosmo had heard in the garden. She
shook, and held so to Cosmo’s arm that she left as sure marks of
her fingers there as ever did ghost. The sympathy of her fear
invaded him. He would have darted to meet the enemy, but she would
not let him go. The shudder of a new resolve passed through her,
and she began to pull him towards the closet. Involuntarily for a
moment he resisted, for he feared the worse risk to her; but her
action and look were imperative, and he yielded.

They entered the closet and he pulled the door to close it upon
them. It resisted; he pulled harder; a rusted hinge gave way, and
the door dropped upon its front corner, so that he had partly to
lift it to get it to. Just as he succeeded, Joan’s name on the
voice of her fear echoed awfully through the mouldy silences of the
house. In the darkness of the closet, where there was just room for
two to stand, she clung like a child to Cosmo, trembling in his
arms like one in a fit of the ague. It is mournful to think what a
fear many men are to the women of their house. The woman-fear in
the world is one of its most pitiful outcries after a saviour.

Hesitating steps were heard below. They went from one to another of
the rooms, then began to ascend the stair.

“Now, Joan,” said Cosmo, holding her to him, “whatever you do, keep
quiet. Don’t utter a sound. Please God, I will take care of you.”

She pressed his shoulder, but did not speak.

The steps entered the room. Both Cosmo and Joan seemed to feel the
eyes that looked all about it. Then the steps came towards the
closet. Now was the decisive moment! Cosmo was on the point of
bursting out, with the cry of a wild animal, when something checked
him, and suddenly he made up his mind to keep still to the very
last. He put a hand on the lock, and pressed the door down against
the floor. In the faint light that came through the crack at the
top of it, he could see the dark terror of Joan’s eyes fixed on his
face. A hand laid hold of the lock, and pulled, and pulled, but in
vain. Probably then Mergwain saw that the door was fallen from its
hinge. He turned the key, and the door had not altered its position
too far for his locking them in. Then they heard him go down the
stair, and leave the house.

“He’s not gone far!” said Cosmo. “He will have this closet open
presently. You heard him lock it! We must get out of it at once!
Please, let me go, Joan, dear! I must get the door open.”

She drew back from him as far as the space would allow. He put his
shoulder to the door, and sent it into the middle of the room with
a great crash, then ran and lifted it.

“Come, Joan! Quick!” he cried. “Help me to set it up again.”

The moment something was to be done, Joan’s heart returned to her.
In an instant they had the door jammed into its place, with the
bolt in the catch as Mergwain had left it.

“Now,” said Cosmo, “we must get down the stair, and hide somewhere
below, till he passes, and comes up here again.”

They ran to the kitchen, and made for a small cellar opening off
it. Hardly were they in it when they heard him re-enter and go up
the stair. The moment he was safely beyond them, they crept out,
and keeping close to the wall of the house, went round to the back
of it, and through the thicket to a footpath near, which led to the
highway. It was a severe trial to Cosmo’s strength, now that the
excitement of adventure had relaxed, and left him the weaker. Again
and again Joan had to urge him on, but as soon as she judged it
safe, she made him sit, and supported him.

“I believe,” she said, “that wretched man of his has put him up to
it. Constantine has found out something. I would not for the world
he should learn all! You don’t know--you are far too good to know
what he would think--yes, and tell me to my face! It was not an
easy life with my father, Cosmo, but I would rather be with him
now, wherever he is, than go on living in that house with my
brother.”

“What had we better do?” said Cosmo, trying to hide his exhaustion.

“I am going to take you to the Jermyns’. They are the only friends
I have. Julia will be kind to you for my sake. I will tell them all
about it. Young Dr. Jermyn knows already.”

Alas, it was like being let down out of paradise into purgatory!
But when we cannot stay longer in paradise, we must, like our first
parents, make the best of our purgatory.

“You will be able to come and see me, will you not, Joan,” he said
sadly.

“Yes, indeed!” she answered. “It will be easier in some ways than
before. At home I never could get rid of the dread of being found
out. As soon as I get you safe in, I must hurry home. Oh, dear! how
shall I keep clear of stories! Only, when you are safe, I shall not
care so much.”

In truth, although she had seemed to fear all for herself, her
great dread had been to hear Cosmo abused.

“What you must have gone through for me!” said Cosmo. “It makes me
ache to think of it!”

“It will be only pleasant to look back upon, Cosmo,” returned Joan
with a sad smile. “But oh for such days again as we used to have on
the frozen hills! There are the hills again every winter, but will
the old days ever come again, Cosmo?”

“The old days never come again,” answered Cosmo. “But do you know
why, Joan?”

“No,” murmured Joan, very sadly.

“Because they would be getting in the way of the new better days,
whose turn it is,” replied Cosmo. “You tell God, Joan, all about
it; he will give us better days than those. To some, no doubt, it
seems absurd that there should be a great hearing Life in the
world; but it is what you and I need so much that we don’t see how,
by any possibility, to get on without it! It cannot well look
absurd to us! And if you should ever find you can_not_ pray any more,
tell me, and I will try to help you. I don’t think that time will
ever come to me. I can’t tell--but always hitherto, when I have
seemed to be at the last gasp, things have taken a turn, and it has
grown possible to go on again.”

“Ah, you are younger than me, Cosmo!” said Joan, more sadly than
ever.

Cosmo laughed.

“Don’t you show me any airs on that ground,” he said. “Leave that
to Agnes. She is two years older than I, and used always to say
when we were children, that she was old enough to be my mother.”

“But I am more than two years older than you, Cosmo,” said Joan.

“How much, then--exactly?” asked Cosmo.

“Three years and a whole month,” she answered.

“Then you must be old enough to be my grandmother! But I don’t mean
to be sat upon for that. Agnes gave me enough of that kind of
thing!”

Whether Joan began to feel a little jealous of Agnes, or only more
interested in her, it would be hard to say, but Cosmo had now to
answer a good many questions concerning her; and when Joan learned
what a capable girl Agnes was, understanding Euclid and algebra, as
Mr. Simon said, better than any boy, Cosmo himself included, he had
ever had to teach, the earl’s daughter did feel a little pain at
the heart because of the cotter’s.

They reached at last the village and the doctor’s house, where, to
Joan’s relief, the first person they met was Charles, to whom at
once she told the main part of their adventure that day. He
proposed just what Joan wished, and was by no means sorry at the
turn things had taken--putting so much more of the game, as he
called it, into his hands.

Things were speedily arranged, all that was necessary told his
father and sister, and Joan invited to stay to lunch, which was
just ready. This she thought it better to do, especially as Jermyn
and his sister would then walk home with her. What the doctor would
say if he saw Mergwain, she did not venture to ask: she knew he
would tell any number of stories to get her out of a scrape, while
Cosmo would only do or endure anything, from thrashing her brother
to being thrashed himself.

A comfortable room was speedily prepared for Cosmo, and Jermyn made
him go to bed at once. Nor did he allow him to see Joan again, for
he told her he was asleep, and she had better not disturb
him--which was not true--but might have been, for all the doctor
knew as he had not been to see.

Joan did not fall in with her brother for a week, and when she saw
him he did not allude to the affair. What was in his mind she did
not know for months. Always, however, he was ready to believe that
the mantle of the wickedness of his fathers, which he had so
righteously refused to put on, had fallen upon his sister instead.
Only he had no proof.




CHAPTER XXXIV.

CATCH YOUR HORSE.


When Cosmo was left alone in his room, with orders from the doctor
to put himself to bed, he sank wearily on a chair that stood with
its back to the light; then first his eye fell upon the stick he
carried. Joan had brought him his stick when he was ready to go
into the garden, but this was not that stick. He must have caught
it up somewhere instead of his own! Where could it have been? He
had no recollection either of laying down his own, or of thinking
he took it again. After a time he recalled this much, that, in the
horrible room they had last left, at the moment when Joan cried out
because of the sound of her brother’s approach, he was walking to
the closet to look at something in it that had attracted his
attention--seeming in the dusk, from its dull shine, the hilt of a
sword. The handle of the walking stick he now held must be that
very thing! But he could not tell whether he had caught it up with
any idea of defence, or simply in the dark his hand had come into
contact with it and instinctively closed upon it, he could not even
conjecture. But why should he have troubled his head so about a
stick? Because this was a notably peculiar one: the handle of that
stick was in form a repetition of the golden horse that had carried
him to the university! Their common shape was so peculiar, that not
only was there no mistaking it, but no one who saw the two could
have avoided the conviction that they had a common origin, and if
any significance, then a common one. There was an important
difference however: even if in substance this were the same as the
other, it could yet be of small value: the stick thus capped was a
bamboo, rather thick, but handle and all, very light.

Proceeding to examine it, Cosmo found that every joint was
double-mounted and could be unscrewed. Of joints there were three,
each forming a small box. In the top one were a few grains of
snuff, in the middle one a little of something that looked like
gold dust, and the third smelt of opium. The top of the cane had a
cap of silver, with a screw that went into the lower part of the
horse, which thus made a sort of crutch-handle to the stick. He had
screwed off, and was proceeding to replace this handle, when his
eye was arrested, his heart seemed to stand still, and the old
captain’s foolish rime came rushing into his head. He started from
his chair, took the thing to the window, and there stood regarding
it fixedly. Beyond a doubt this was his great grand-uncle’s, the
auld captain’s, stick, the only thing missed when his body was
found! but whence such an assured conviction? and why did the old
captain’s rime, whose application to the golden horse his father
and he had rejected, return at sight of this one, so much its
inferior? In a word, whence the eagerness of curiosity that now
possessed Cosmo?

In turning the handle upside down, he saw that from one of the
horse’s delicately finished shoes, a nail was missing, and its hole
left empty. It was a hind shoe too!

  “Catch yer naig, an’ pu’ his tail;
  In his hin’ heel caw a nail!

I do believe,” he said to himself, “this is the horse that was in
the old villain’s head every time he uttered the absurd rime!”

There must then be in the cane a secret, through which possibly the
old man had overreached himself! Had that secret, whatever it was,
been discovered, or did it remain for him now to discover?

A passion of curiosity seized him, but something held him back.
What was it? The stick was not his property; any discovery
concerning or by means of it, ought to be made with the consent and
in the presence of the owner of it--her to whom the old lord had
left his personal property!

And now Cosmo had to go through an experience as strange as it was
new, for, in general of a quietly expectant disposition, he had now
such a burning desire to conquer the secret of the stick, as
appeared to him to savour of _possession_. It was so unlike himself,
that he was both angry and ashamed. He set it aside and went to
bed. But the haunting eagerness would not let him rest; it kept him
tossing from side to side, and was mingled with strangest fears
lest the stick should vanish as mysteriously as it had come--lest
when he woke he should find it had been carried away. He got out of
bed, unscrewed the horse, and placed it under his pillow. But there
it tormented him like an aching spot. It went on drawing him,
tempting him, mocking him. He could not keep his hands from it. A
hundred times he resolved he would not touch it again, and of
course kept his resolution so long as he thought of it; but the
moment he forgot it, which he did repeatedly in wondering why Joan
did not come, the horse would be in his hand. Every time he woke
from a moment’s sleep, he found it in his hand.

On his return from accompanying Lady Joan, Jermyn came to him,
found him feverish, and prescribed for him. Disappointed that Joan
was gone without seeing him, his curiosity so entirely left him
that he could not recall what it was like, and never imagined its
possible return. Nor did it reappear so long as he was awake, but
all through his dreams the old captain kept reminding him that the
stick was his own. “Do it; do it; don’t put off,” he kept saying;
but as often as Cosmo asked him what, he could never hear his
reply, and would wake yet again with the horse in his hand. In the
morning he screwed it on the stick again, and set it by his
bed-side.




CHAPTER XXXV.

PULL HIS TAIL.


About noon, when both the doctors happened to be out, Joan came to
see him, and was more like her former self than she had been for
many days. Hardly was she seated when he took the stick, and said,

“Did you ever see that before, Joan?”

“Do you remember showing me a horse just like that one, only
larger?” she returned. “It was in the drawing-room.”

“Quite well,” he answered.

“It made me think of this,” she continued, “which I had often seen
in that same closet where I suppose you found it yesterday.”

Cosmo unscrewed the joints and showed her the different boxes.

“There’s nothing in them,” he said; “but I suspect there is
something about this stick more than we can tell. Do you remember
the silly Scotch rime I repeated the other day, when you told me I
had been talking poetry in my sleep?”

“Yes, very well,” she answered.

“Those are words an uncle of my father, whom you may have heard of
as the old captain, used to repeat very often.”--At this Joan’s
face turned pale, but her back was to the light, and he did not see
it.--“I will say them presently in English, that you may know what
sense there may be in the foolishness of them. Now I must tell you
that I am all but certain this stick once belonged to that same
great uncle of mine--how it came into your father’s possession I
cannot say--and last night, as I was looking at it, I saw something
that made me nearly sure this is the horse, insignificant as it
looks, that was in my uncle’s head when he repeated the rime. But
I would do nothing without you.”

“How kind of you, Cosmo!”

“Not kind; I had no right; the stick is yours.”

“How can that be, if it belonged to your great uncle?” said Joan,
casting down her eyes.

“Because it was more than fifty years in your father’s possession,
and he left it to you. Besides, I cannot be absolutely certain it
is the same.”

“Then I give it to you, Cosmo.”

“I will not accept it, Joan--at least before you know what it is
you want to give me.--And now for this foolish rime--in English!

  “Catch your horse and pull his tail;
  In his hind heel drive a nail;
  Pull his ears from one another:
  Stand up and call the king your brother!

What’s to come of it, I know no more than you do, Joan,” continued
Cosmo; “but if you will allow me, I will do with this horse what
the rime says, and if they belong to each other, we shall soon
see.”

“Do whatever you please, Cosmo,” returned Joan, with a tremble in
her voice.

Cosmo began to screw off the top of the stick. Joan left her chair,
drew nearer to the bed, and presently sat down on the edge of it,
gazing with great wide eyes. She was more moved than Cosmo; there
was a shadow of horror in her look; she dreaded some frightful
revelation. Her father’s habit of muttering his thoughts aloud, had
given her many things to hear, although not many to understand.
When the horse was free in Cosmo’s hand, he set the stick aside,
looked up, and said,

“The first direction the rime gives, is to pull his tail.”

With that he pulled the horse’s tail--of silver, apparently, like
the rest of him--pulled it hard; but it seemed of a piece with his
body, and there was no visible result. The first shadow of
approaching disappointment came creeping over him, but he looked up
at Joan, and smiled as he said,

“He doesn’t seem to mind that! We’ll try the next thing--which is,
to drive a nail in his hind heel.--Now look here, Joan! Here, in
one of his hind shoes, is a hole that looks as if one of the nails
had come out! That is what struck me, and brought the rime into my
head! But how drive a nail into such a hole as that?”

“Perhaps a tack would go in,” said Joan, rising. “I shall pull one
out of the carpet.”

“A tack would be much too large, I think,” said Cosmo. “Perhaps a
brad out of the gimp of that chair would do.--Or, stay, I know!
Have you got a hair-pin you could give me?”

Joan sat down again on the bed, took off her bonnet, and searching
in her thick hair soon found one. Cosmo took it eagerly, and
applied it to the hole in the shoe. Nothing the least larger would
have gone in. He pushed it gently, then a little harder--felt as if
something yielded a little, returning his pressure, and pushed a
little harder still. Something gave way, and a low noise followed,
as of a watch running down. The two faces looked at each other, one
red, and one pale. The sound ceased. They waited a little, in
almost breathless silence. Nothing followed.

“Now,” said Cosmo, “for the last thing!”

“Not quite the last,” returned Joan, with what was nearly an
hysterical laugh, trying to shake off the fear that grew upon her;
“the last thing is to stand up and call the king your brother.”

“That much, as non-essential, I daresay we shall omit,” replied
Cosmo.--“The next then is, to pull his ears from each other.”

He took hold of one of the tiny ears betwixt the finger and thumb
of each hand, and pulled. The body of the horse came asunder,
divided down the back, and showed inside of it a piece of paper.
Cosmo took it out. It was crushed, rather than folded, round
something soft. He handed it to Joan.

“It is your turn now, Joan,” he said; “you open it. I have done my
part.”

Cosmo’s eyes were now fixed on the movements of Joan’s fingers
undoing the little parcel, as hers had been on his while he was
finding it. Within the paper was a piece of cotton wool. Joan
dropped the paper, and unfolded the wool. Bedded in the middle of
that were two rings. The eyes of Cosmo fixed themselves on one of
them--the eyes of Joan upon the other. In the one Cosmo recognized
a large diamond; in the other Joan saw a dark stone engraved with
the Mergwain arms.

“This is a very valuable diamond,” said Cosmo, looking closely at
it.

“Then that shall be your share, Cosmo,” returned Joan. “I will keep
this if you don’t mind.”

“What have you got?” asked Cosmo.

“My father’s signet-ring, I believe,” she answered. “I have often
heard him--bemoan the loss of it.”

Lord Mergwain’s ring in the old captain’s stick! Things began to
put themselves together in Cosmo’s mind. He lay thinking.

The old captain had won these rings from the young lord and put
them for safety in the horse; Borland suspected, probably charged
him with false play; they fought, and his lordship carried away the
stick to recover his own; but had failed to find the rings, taking
the boxes in the bamboo for all there was of stowage in it.

It was by degrees, however, that this theory formed itself in his
mind; now he saw only a glimmer of it here and there.

In the meantime he was not a little disappointed. Was this all the
great mystery of the berimed horse? It was as if a supposed opal
had burst, and proved but a soap-bubble!

Joan sat silent, looking at the signet-ring, and the tears came
slowly in her eyes.

“I _may_ keep this ring, may I not, Cosmo?” she said.

“My dear Joan!” exclaimed Cosmo, “the ring is not mine to give
anybody, but if you will give me the stick, I shall be greatly
obliged to you.”

“I will give it you on one condition, Cosmo,” answered Joan, “--that
you take the ring as well. I do not care about rings.”

“I do,” answered Cosmo; “but sooner than take this from you, Joan,
I would part with the hope of ever seeing you again. Why, dear
Joan, you don’t know what this diamond is worth!--and you have no
money!”

“Neither have you,” retorted Joan. “--What is the thing worth?”

“I do not like to say lest I should be wrong. If I could weigh it,
I should be better able to tell you. But its worth must anyhow be,
I think--somewhere towards two hundred pounds.”

“Then take it, Cosmo. Or if you won’t have it, give it to your
father, with my dear love.”

“My father would say to me--‘How could you bring it, Cosmo!’ But I
will not forget to give him the message. _That_ he will be delighted
to have.”

“But, Cosmo! it is of no use to me. How could I get the money you
speak of for it? If I were to make an attempt of the kind, my
brother would be sure to hear of it. It would be better to give it
him at once.”

“That difficulty is easily got over,” answered Cosmo. “When I go, I
will take it with me; I know where to get a fair price for it--not
always easy for anything; I will send you the money, and you will
be quite rich for a little while.”

“My brother opens all my letters,” replied Joan. “I don’t think he
cares to read them, but he sees who they are from.”

“Do you have many letters, Joan?”

“Not many. Perhaps about one a month, or so.”

“I could send it to Dr. Jermyn.”

Joan hesitated a moment, but did not object. The next instant they
heard the doctor’s step at the door, and his hand on the lock. Joan
rose hastily, caught up her bonnet, and sat down a little way off.
Cosmo drew the ring and the pieces of the horse under the
bed-clothes.

Jermyn cast a keen glance on the two as he entered, took for
confusion the remains of excitement, and said to himself he must
make haste. He felt Cosmo’s pulse, and pronounced him feverish,
then, turning to Joan, said he must not talk, for he had not got
over yesterday; it might be awkward if he had a relapse. Joan rose
at once, and took her leave, saying she would come and see him the
next morning. Jermyn went down with her, and sent Cosmo a draught.

When he had taken it, he felt inclined to sleep, and turned himself
from the light. But the stick, which was leaning against the head
of the bed, slipped, and fell on a part of the floor where there
was no carpet; the noise startled and roused him, and the thought
came that he had better first of all secure the ring--for which
purpose undoubtedly there could be no better place than the horse!
There, however, the piece of cotton wool would again be necessary,
for without it the ring would rattle. He put the ring in the heart
of it, replaced both in the horse, and set about discovering how to
close it again.

This puzzled him not a little. Spring nor notch, nor any other
means of attachment between the two halves of the animal, could he
find. But at length he noted that the tail had slipped a little way
out, and was loose; and experimenting with it, by and by discovered
that by holding the parts together, and winding the tail round and
round, the horse--how, he could not tell--was restored to its
former apparent solidity.

And now where would the horse be safest? Clearly in its own place
on the stick. He got out of bed therefore to pick the stick up, and
in so doing saw on the carpet the piece of paper which had been
round the cotton. This he picked up also, and getting again into
bed, had begun to replace the handle of the bamboo, when his eyes
fell again on the piece of paper, and he caught sight of crossing
lines on it, which looked like part of a diagram of some sort. He
smoothed it out, and saw indeed a drawing, but one quite
unintelligible to him. It must be a sketch or lineation of
something--but of what? or of what kind of thing? It might be of
the fields constituting a property; it might be of the stones in a
wall; it might be of an irregular mosaic; or perhaps it might be
only a school-boy’s exercise in trigonometry for land-measuring. It
must mean something; but it could hardly mean anything of
consequence to anybody! Still it had been the old captain’s
probably--or perhaps the old lord’s: he would replace it also where
he had found it. Once more he unscrewed the horse from the stick,
opened it with Joan’s hair-pin, placed the paper in it, closed all
up again, and lay down, glad that Joan had got such a ring, but
thinking the old captain had made a good deal of fuss about a small
matter. He fell fast asleep, slept soundly, and woke much better.

In the evening came the doctor, and spent the whole of it with him,
interesting and pleasing him more than ever, and displaying one
after another traits of character which Cosmo, more than prejudiced
in his favour already, took for additional proofs of an altogether
exceptional greatness of character and aim. Nor am I capable of
determining how much or how little Jermyn may have deceived himself
in regard of the same.

Now that Joan had this ring, and his personal attachment to the
doctor had so greatly increased, Cosmo found himself able to revert
to the offer Jermyn once made of lending him a little money, which
he had then declined. He would take the ring to Mr. Burns on his
way home, and then ask Joan to repay Dr. Jermyn out of what he sent
her for it. He told Jermyn therefore, as he sat by his bed-side,
that he found himself obliged after all to accept the said generous
proposal, but would return the money before he got quite home.

The doctor smiled, with reasons for satisfaction more than Cosmo
knew, and taking out his pocket-book, said, as he opened it,

“I have just cashed a cheque, fortunately, so you had better have
the money at once.--Don’t bother yourself about it,” he added, as
he handed him the notes; “there is no hurry. I know it is safe.”

“This is too much,” said Cosmo.

“Never mind; it is better to have too much than too little; it will
be just as easy to repay.”

Cosmo thanked him, and put the money under his pillow. The doctor
bade him good night, and left him.

The moment he was alone, a longing greater than he had ever yet
felt, arose in his heart to see his father. The first hour he was
able to travel, he would set out for home! His _camera obscura_
haunted with flashing water and speedwells and daisies and
_horse-gowans_, he fell fast asleep, and dreamed that his father and
he were defending the castle from a great company of pirates, with
the old captain at the head of them.




CHAPTER XXXVI.

THE THICK DARKNESS.


The next day he was still better, and could not think why the
doctor would not let him get up. As the day went on, he wondered
yet more why Joan did not come to see him. Not once did the thought
cross him that it was the doctor’s doing. If it had, he would but
have taken it for a precaution--as indeed it was, for the doctor’s
sake, not his. Jermyn would have as little intercourse between them
as might be, till he should have sprung his spiritual mine. But he
did all he could to prevent him from missing her, and the same
night opened all his heart to Cosmo--that is, all the show-part of
it.

[Illustration: THE NEXT DAY HE WAS STILL BETTER.]

In terms extravagant, which he seemed to use because he could not
repress them, he told his frozen listener that his whole nature,
heart and soul, had been for years bound up in Lady Joan; that he
had again and again been tempted to deliver himself by death from
despair; that if he had to live without her, he would be of no use
in the world, but would cease to care for anything. He begged
therefore his friend Cosmo Warlock, seeing he stood so well with
the lady, to speak what he honestly could in his behalf; for if she
would not favour him, he could no longer endure life. His had never
been over full, for he had had a hard youth, in which he had often
been driven to doubt whether there was indeed a God that cared how
his creatures went on. He must not say all he felt, but life, he
repeated, would be no longer worth leading without at least some
show of favour from Lady Joan.

At any former time, such words would have been sufficient to
displace Jermyn from the pedestal on which Cosmo had set him. What!
if all the ladies in the world should forsake him, was not God yet
the all in all? But now as he lay shivering, the words entering his
ears seemed to issue from his soul. He listened like one whom the
first sting has paralyzed, but who feels the more every succeeding
invasion of death. It was a silent, yet a mortal struggle. He held
down his heart like a wild beast, which, if he let it up for one
moment, would fly at his throat and strangle him. Nor could the
practiced eye of the doctor fail to perceive what was going on in
him. He only said to himself--“Better him than me! He is young and
will get over it better than I should.” He read nobility and
self-abnegation in every shadow that crossed the youth’s
countenance, telling of the hail mingled with fire that swept
through his universe; and said to himself that all was on his side,
that he had not miscalculated a hair’s-breadth. He saw at the same
time Cosmo’s heroic efforts to hide his sufferings, and left him to
imagine himself successful. But how Cosmo longed for his departure,
that he might in peace despair!--for such seemed to himself his
desire for solitude.

What is it in suffering that makes man and beast long for
loneliness? I think it is an unknown something, more than self,
calling out of the solitude--“Come to me!--Come!” How little of the
tenderness our human souls need, and after which consciously or
unconsciously they hunger, do we give or receive! The cry of the
hurt heart for solitude, seems to me the call of the heart of
God--changed by the echo of the tiny hollows of the heart of his
creature--“Come out from among them: come to me, and I will give
you rest!” He alone can give us the repose of love, the peace after
which our nature yearns.

Hurt by the selfishness and greed of men, to escape from which we
must needs go out of the world, worse hurt by our own indignation
at their wrong, and our lack of patience under it, we are his
creatures and his care still. The _right_ he claims as his affair,
and he will see it done; but the wrong is by us a thousand times
well suffered, if it but drive us to him, that we may learn he is
indeed our very lover.

That was a terrible night for Cosmo--a night billowy with black
fire. It reminded him afterwards of nothing so much as that word of
the Lord--_the power of darkness_. It was not merely darkness with no
light in it, but darkness alive and operative. He had hardly dared
suspect the nature, and only now knew the force, and was about to
prove the strength of the love with which he loved Joan. Great
things may be foreseen, but they cannot be known until they arrive.
His illness had been ripening him to this possibility of loss and
suffering. His heart was now in blossom: for that some hearts must
break;--I may not say in _full_ blossom, for what the full blossom of
the human heart is, the holiest saint with the mightiest
imagination cannot know--he can but see it shine from afar.

It was a severe duty that was now required of him--I do not mean
the performance of the final request the doctor had made--that
Cosmo had forgotten, neither could have attempted with honesty; for
the emotion he could not but betray, would have pleaded for
himself, and not for his friend; it was enough that he must yield
the lady of his dreams, become the lady as well of his waking and
hoping soul. Perhaps she did not love Jermyn--he could not tell;
but Jermyn was his friend and had trusted in him, confessing that
his soul was bound up in the lady; one of them must go to the
torture chamber, and when the _question_ lay between him and another,
Cosmo knew for which it must be. He alone was in Cosmo’s hands; his
own self was all he held and had power over, all he could offer,
could yield. Mr. Simon had taught him that, as a mother gives her
children money to give, so God gives his children _selves_, with
their wishes and choices, that they may have the true offering to
lay upon the true altar; for on that altar nothing else will burn
than _selves_.

“Very hard! A tyrannical theory!” says my reader? So will it
forever appear to the man who has neither the courage nor the sense
of law to enable him to obey. But that man shall be the eternal
slave who says to Duty _I will not_. Nor do I care to tell such a
man of the “_thousand fold_”--of the truth concerning that altar, that
it is indeed the nest of God’s heart, in which the poor, unsightly,
unfledged offering shall lie, until they come to shape and loveliness,
and wings grow upon them to bear them back to us divinely precious.
Cosmo _thought_ none of all this now--it had vanished from his
consciousness, but was present in his life--that is, in his action: he
did not feel, he _did_ it all--did it even when nothing seemed worth
doing.

How much greater a man than he was Jermyn! How much more worthy of
the love of a woman like Joan! How good he had been to him! What a
horrible thing it would be if Jermyn had saved his life that he
might destroy Jermyn’s! Perhaps Joan might have come one day to
love him; but in the meantime how miserable she was with her
brother, and when could he have delivered her! while here was one,
and a far better than he, who could, the moment she consented, take
her to a house of her own where she would be a free woman! For him
to come in the way, would be to put his hand also to the rack on
which the life of Joan lay stretched!

Again I say I do not mean that all this passed consciously through
the mind of Cosmo during that fearful night. His suffering was too
intense, and any doubt concerning duty too far from him, to allow
of anything that could be called thought; but such were the
fundamental facts that lay below his unselfquestioned resolve--such
was the soil in which grew the fruits, that is, the deeds, the
outcome of his nature. For himself, the darkness billowed and
rolled about him, and life was a frightful thing.

For where was God this awful time? Nowhere within the ken of the
banished youth. In his own feeling Cosmo was outside the city of
life--not even among the dogs--outside with bare nothingness--cold
negation. Alas for him who had so lately offered to help another to
pray, thinking the hour would never come to him when he could not
pray! It had _come_! He did not try to pray. The thought of prayer
did not wake in him! Let no one say he was punished for his
overconfidence--for his presumption! There was no presumption in
the matter; there was only ignorance. He had not learned--nor has
any one learned more than in part--what awful possibilities lie in the
existence we call _we_. He had but spoken from what he knew--that
hitherto life for him had seemed inseparable from prayer to his
Father. And was it separable? Surely not. He could not pray,
true--but neither was he alive. To live, one must chose to live. He
was dead with a death that was heavy upon him. There is a far worse
death--the death that is content and suffers nothing; but
annihilation is not death--is nothing like it. Cosmo’s condition
had no evil in it--only a ghastly imperfection--an abyssmal
lack--an exhaustion at the very roots of being. God seemed away, as
he could never be and be God. But every commonest day of his life,
he who would be a live child of the living has to fight with the
God-denying look of things, and believe that in spite of that look,
seeming ever to assert that God has nothing to do with them, God
has his own way--the best, the only, the live way, of being in
everything, and taking his own pure, saving will in them; and now
for a season Cosmo had fallen in the fight, and God seemed gone,
and _things_ rushed in upon him and overwhelmed him. It was death. He
did not yet know it--but it was not the loss of Joan, but the
seeming loss of his God, that hollowed the last depth of his
misery. But that is of all things the surest to pass; for God
changing not, his life must destroy every false show of him. Cosmo
was now one of those holy children who are bound hand and foot in
the furnace, until the fire shall have consumed their bonds that
they may pace their prison. Stifled with the smoke and the glow, he
must yet for a time lie helpless; not yet could he lift up his
voice and call upon the ice and the cold, the frost and the snow to
bless the Lord, to praise and exalt him forever. But God was not
far from him. Feelings are not scientific instruments for that
which surrounds them; they but speak of themselves when they say,
“I am cold; I am dark.” Perhaps the final perfection will be when
our faith is utterly and absolutely independent of our feelings. I
dare to imagine this the final victory of our Lord, when he
followed the cry of _Why hast thou forsaken me?_ with the words,
_Father, into thy hands I commend my spirit_.

Shall we then bemoan any darkness? Shall we not rather gird up our
strength to encounter it, that we too from our side may break the
passage for the light beyond? He who fights with the dark shall
know the gentleness that makes man great--the dawning countenance
of the God of hope. But that was not for Cosmo just yet. The night
must fulfil its hours. Men are meant and sent to be troubled--that
they may rise above the whole region of storm, above all
possibility of being troubled.




CHAPTER XXXVII.

THE DAWN.


Strange to say, there was no return of his fever. He seemed,
through the utter carelessness of mental agony, so to have
abandoned his body, that he no longer affected it. A man must have
some hope, to be aware of his body at all. As the darkness began to
yield he fell asleep.

Then came a curious dream. For ages Joan had been persuading him to
go with her, and the old captain to go with him--the latter angry
and pulling him, the former weeping and imploring. He would go with
neither, and at last they vanished both. He sat solitary on the
side of a bare hill, and below him was all that remained of Castle
Warlock. He had been dead so many years, that it was now but a
half-shapeless ruin of roofless walls, haggard and hollow and gray
and desolate. It stood on its ridge like a solitary tooth in the
jaw of some skeleton beast. But where was his father? How was it he
had not yet found him, if he had been so long dead? He must rise
and seek him! He must be somewhere in the universe! Therewith came
softly stealing up, at first hardly audible, a strain of music from
the valley below. He listened. It grew as it rose, and held him
bound. Like an upward river, it rose, and grew with a strong
rushing, until it flooded all his heart and brain, working in him a
marvellous good, which yet he did not understand. And all the time,
his eyes were upon the dead home of his fathers. Wonder of wonders,
it began to change--to grow before his eyes! It was growing out of
the earth like a plant! It grew and grew until it was as high as in
the old days, and then it grew yet higher! A roof came upon it, and
turrets and battlements--all to the sound of that creative music;
and like fresh shoots from its stem, out from it went wings and
walls. Like a great flower it was rushing visibly on to some mighty
blossom of grandeur, when the dream suddenly left him, and he woke.

But instead of the enemy coming in upon him like a flood as his
consciousness returned, to his astonishment he found his soul as
calm as it was sad. God had given him while he slept, and he knew
him near as his own heart! The first _thought_ that came was, that
his God was Joan’s God too, and therefore all was well; so long as
God took care of her, and was with him, and his will was done in
them both, all was on the way to be well so as nothing could be
better. And with that he knew what he had to do--knew it without
thinking--and proceeded at once to do it. He rose, and dressed
himself.

It was still the gray sunless morning. The dream, with its
dream-ages of duration, had not crossed the shallows of the dawn.
Quickly he gathered his few things into his knapsack--fortunately
their number had nowise increased--took his great-uncle’s bamboo,
saw that his money was safe, stole quietly down the stair, and
softly and safely out of the house, and, ere any of its inhabitants
were astir, had left the village by the southward road.

When he had walked about a mile, he turned into a road leading
eastward, with the design of going a few miles in that direction,
and then turning to the north. When he had travelled what to his
weakness was a long distance, all at once, with the dismay of a
perverse dream, rose above the trees the towers of Cairncarque. Was
he never to escape them, in the body any more than in the spirit?
He turned back, and again southwards.

But now he had often to sit down; as often, however, he was able to
get up and walk. Coming to a village he learned that a coach for
the north would pass within an hour, and going to the inn had some
breakfast, and waited for it. Finding it would pass through the
village he had left, he took an inside place; and when it stopped
for a moment in the one street of it, saw Charles Jermyn cross it,
evidently without a suspicion that his guest was not where he had
left him.

When he had travelled some fifty miles, partly to save his money,
partly because he felt the need of exercise, not to stifle thought,
but to clear it, he left the coach, and betook himself to his feet.
Alternately walking and riding, he found his strength increase as
he went on; and his sorrow continued to be that of a cloudy summer
day, nor was ever, so long as the journey lasted, again that of the
fierce wintry tempest.

At length he drew nigh the city where he had spent his student
years. On foot, weary, and dusty, and worn, he entered it like a
returning prodigal. Few Scotchmen would think he had made good use
of his learning! But he had made the use of it God required, and
some Scotchmen, with and without other learning, have learned to
think that a good use, and in itself a sufficient success--for that
man came into the world not to make money, but to seek the kingdom
and righteousness of God.

He walked straight into Mr. Burns’s shop.

The jeweller did not know him at first; but the moment he spoke,
recognized him. Cosmo had been dubious what his reception might
be--after the way in which their intimacy had closed; but Mr. Burns
held out his hand as if they had parted only the day before, and
said,

“I thought of the two you would be here before Death! Man, you
ought to give a body time.”

“Mr. Burns,” replied Cosmo, “I am very sorry I behaved to you as I
did. I am not sorry I said what I did, for I am no less sure about
that than I was then; but I am sorry I never came again to see you.
Perhaps we did not quite understand on either side.”

“We shall understand each other better now, I fancy,” said Mr.
Burns. “I am glad you have not changed your opinion, for I have
changed mine. If it weren’t for you, I should be retired by this
time, and you would have found another name over the door. But
we’ll have a talk about all that. Allow me to ask you whither you
are bound.”

“I am on my way home,” answered Cosmo. “I have not seen my father
for several--for more than two years.”

“You’ll do me the honour to put up at my house to-night, will you
not? I am a bachelor, as you know, but will do my best to make you
comfortable.”

Cosmo gladly assented; and as it was now evening, Mr. Burns
hastened the shutting of his shop; and in a few minutes they were
seated at supper.

As soon as the servant left them, they turned to talk of divine
righteousness in business; and thence to speak of the jeweller’s;
after which Cosmo introduced that of the ring. Giving a short
narrative of the finding of it, and explaining the position of Lady
Joan with regard to it, so that his host might have no fear of
compromising himself, he ended with telling him he had brought it
to him, and with what object.

“I am extremely obliged to you, Mr. Warlock,” responded the
jeweller, “for placing such confidence in me, and that
notwithstanding the mistaken principles I used to advocate. I have
seen a little farther since then, I am happy to say; and this is
how it was: the words you then spoke, and I took so ill, would keep
coming into my mind, and that at the most inconvenient moments,
until at last I resolved to look the thing in the face, and think
it fairly out. The result is, that, although I daresay nobody has
recognized any difference in my way of doing business, there is one
who must know a great difference: I now think of my neighbour’s
side of the bargain as well as of my own, and abstain from doing
what it would vex me to find I had not been sharp enough to prevent
him from doing with me. In consequence, I am not so rich this day
as I might otherwise have been, but I enjoy life more, and hope the
days of my ignorance God has winked at.”

Cosmo could not reply for pleasure. Mr. Burns saw his emotion, and
understood it. From that hour they were friends who loved each
other.

“And now for the ring!” said the jeweller.

Cosmo produced it.

Mr. Burns looked at it as if his keen eyes would pierce to the very
heart of its mystery, turned it every way, examined it in every
position relative to the light, removed it from its setting, went
through the diamond catechism with it afresh, then weighed it,
thought over it, and said,

“What do you take the stone to be worth, Mr. Warlock?”

“I can only guess, of course,” replied Cosmo; “but the impression
on my mind is, that it is worth more nearly two hundred than a
hundred and fifty pounds.”

“You are right,” answered Mr. Burns, “and you ought to have
followed my trade; I could make a good jeweller of you. This ring
is worth two hundred guineas, fair market-value. But as I can ask
for no one more than it is absolutely worth, I must take my profit
off you: do you think that is fair?”

“Perfectly,” answered Cosmo.

“Then I must give you only two hundred pounds for it, and take the
shillings myself. You see it may be some time before I get my money
again, so I think five per cent on the amount is not more than the
fair thing.”

“It seems to me perfectly fair, and very moderate,” replied Cosmo.

As soon as dinner was over, he sat down to write to Joan. While
there was nothing that must be said, he had feared writing. This
was what he wrote:

“My dearest Joan,

“As you have trusted me hitherto, so trust me still, and wait for
an explanation of my peculiar behaviour in going away without
bidding you good-by, till the proper time comes--which must come
one day, for our master said, more than once, that there was
nothing covered which should not be revealed, neither hid that
should not be known. I feel sure therefore, of being allowed to
tell you everything sometime.

“I herewith send you a cheque as good as bank-notes, much safer to
send, and hardly more difficult for Dr. Jermyn to turn into
sovereigns.

“I borrowed of him fifteen pounds--a good deal more than I wanted.
I have therefore got Mr. Burns, my friend, the jeweller, in this
city, to add five pounds to the two hundred which he gives for the
ring, and beg you, Joan, for the sake of old times, and new also,
to pay for me the fifteen pounds to Dr. Jermyn, which I would much
rather owe to you than to him. The rest of it, the other ten
pounds, I will pay you when I can--it may not be in this world. And
in the next--what then, Joan? Why then--but for that we will
wait--who more earnestly than I?

“To all the coming eternity, dear Joan, I shall never cease to love
you--first for yourself, then for your great lovely goodness to me.
May the only perfection, whose only being is love, take you to his
heart--as he is always trying to do with all of us! I mean to let
him have me out and out.

“Dearest Joan, Your far-off cousin, but near friend,

“COSMO WARLOCK.”




CHAPTER XXXVII.

HOME AGAIN.


Early the next day, while the sun was yet casting huge diagonal
shadows across the wide street, Cosmo climbed to the roof of the
Defiance coach, his heart swelling at the thought of being so soon
in his father’s arms. It was a lovely summer morning, cool and
dewy, fit for any Sunday--whence the eyes and mind of Cosmo turned
to the remnants of night that banded the street, and from them he
sank into metaphysics, chequered with the champing clank of the
bits, the voices of the ostlers, passengers, and guard, and the
perpendicular silence of the coachman, who sat like a statue in
front of him.

How dark were the shadows the sun was casting!

Absurd! the sun casts no shadows--only light.

How so? Were the sun not shining, would there be one single shadow?

Yes; there would be just one single shadow; all would be shadow.

There would be none of those things we call shadows.

True; all would be shade; there would be no shadows.

By such a little stair was Cosmo landed at a door of deep question.
For now _evil_ took the place of _shadow_ in his _solo_ disputation, and
the law and the light and the shadow and the sin went thinking
about with each other in his mind; and he saw how the Jews came to
attribute evil to the hand of God as well as good, and how St. Paul
said that the law gave life to sin--as by the sun is the shadow. He
saw too that in the spiritual world we need a live sun strong
enough to burn up all the shadows by shining through the things
that cast them, and compelling their transparency--and that sun is
the God who is light, and in whom is no darkness at all--which
truth is the gospel according to St. John. And where there is no
longer anything covered or hid, could sin live at all? These and
such like thoughts held him long--till the noisy streets of the
granite city lay far behind.

Swiftly the road flew from under the sixteen flashing shoes of the
thorough-breds that bore him along. The light and hope and strength
of the new-born day were stirring, mounting, swelling--even in the
heart of the sad lover; in every _honest_ heart more or less, whether
young or old, feeble or strong, the new summer day stirs, and will
stir while the sun has heat enough for men to live on the earth.
Surely the live God is not absent from the symbol of his glory! The
light and the hope are not there without him! When strength wakes
in my heart, shall I be the slave to imagine it comes only as the
sap rises in the stem of the reviving plant, or the mercury in the
tube of the thermometer? that there is no essential life within my
conscious life, no spirit within my spirit? If my origin be not
life, I am the poorest of slaves!

Cosmo had changed since first he sat behind such horses, on his way
to the university; it was the change of growth, but he felt it like
that of decay--as if he had been young then and was old now. Little
could he yet imagine what age means! Devout youth as he was, he
little understood how much more than he his father felt his
dependence on, that is, his strength in God. Many years had yet to
pass ere he should feel the splendour of an existence rooted in
changeless Life ripening through the growing weakness of the body!
It is the strength of God that informs every muscle and arture of
the youth, but it is so much his own--looks so natural to him--as
it well may, being God’s idea for him--that, in the glory of its
possession, he does not feel it _as_ the presence of the making God.
But when weakness begins to show itself,--a shadow-back-ground,
against which the strength is known and outlined--when every
movement begins to demand a distinct effort of the will, and the
earthly house presses, a conscious weight, not upon its own parts
only, but upon the spirit within, then indeed must a man _have_ God,
believe in him with an entireness independent of feeling, and going
beyond all theory, or be devoured by despair. In the growing
feebleness of old age, a man may well come to accept life only
because it is the will of God; but the weakness of such a man is
the matrix of a divine strength, whence a gladness unspeakable
shall ere long be born--the life which it is God’s intent to share
with his children.

Cosmo was on the way to know all this, but now his trouble sat
sometimes heavy upon him. Indeed the young straight back, if it
feels the weight less, feels the irksomeness of the burden more
than the old bowed one. With strength goes the wild love of
movement, and the cross that prevents the free play of a single
muscle is felt grievous as the fetter that chains a man to the oar.
But this day--and what man has to do with yesterday or to-morrow?
--the sun shone as if he knew nothing, or as if he knew all, and
knew it to be well; and Cosmo was going home, and the love of his
father was a deep gladness, even in the presence of love’s lack.
Seldom is it so, but between the true father, and true son it
always will be so.

When he came within a mile of Muir of Warlock, he left the coach,
and would walk the rest of the way. He desired to enjoy, in gentle,
unruffled flow, the thoughts that like swallows kept coming and
going between him and his nest as he approached it. Everything, the
commonest, that met him as he went, had a strange beauty, as if,
although he had known it so long, now first was its innermost
revealed by some polarized light from source unseen. How small and
poor the cottages looked--but how home-like! and how sweet the
smoke of their chimneys! How cold they must be in winter--but how
warm were the hearts inside them! There was Jean Elder’s Sunday
linen spread like snow on her gooseberry bushes; there was the
shoemaker’s cow eating her hardest, as if she would devour the very
turf that made a border to the road--held from the corn on the
other side of the low fence by a strong chain in the hand of a
child of seven; and there was the first dahlia of the season in
Jonathan Japp’s garden! As he entered the village, the road, which
was at once its street and the queen’s highway, was empty of life
save for one half-grown pig--“prospecting,” a hen or two picking
about, and several cats that lay in the sun. “There must be some
redemption for the feline races,” thought Cosmo, “when the cats
have learned so much to love the sun!--But, alas! it is only his
heat, not his light they love!” He looked neither on this side nor
that as he walked, for he was in no mood for the delay of converse,
but he wondered nevertheless that he saw nobody. It was the general
dinner hour, true, but that would scarcely account for the deserted
look of the street! Any passing stranger was usually enough to
bring people to their doors--their windows not being of much use
for looking out of! Sheltered behind rose-trees or geraniums or
hydrangeas, however, not a few of whom he saw nothing were peering
at him out of those windows as he passed.

The villagers had learned from some one on the coach that the young
laird was coming. But, strange to say, a feeling had got abroad
amongst them to his prejudice. They had looked to hear great things
of their favourite, but he had not made the success they expected,
and from their disappointment they imagined his blame. It troubled
them to think of the old man, whom they all honoured, sending his
son to college on the golden horse, whose history had ever since
been the cherished romance of the place, and after all getting no
good of him! so when they saw him coming along, dusty and
shabby--not so well dressed indeed as would have contented one of
themselves on a Sunday, they drew back from their peep-holes with
a sigh, let him pass, and then looked again.

Nothing of all this however did Cosmo suspect, but held on his way
unconscious of the regards that pursued him as a prodigal returning
the less satisfactorily that he had not been guilty enough to
repent.




CHAPTER XXXVIII.

THE SHADOW OF DEATH.


Every step Cosmo took after leaving the village, was like a
revelation and a memory in one. When he turned out of the main
road, the hills came rushing to meet and welcome him, yet it was
only that they stood there changeless, eternally the same, just as
they had been: that was the welcome with which they met the heart
that had always loved them.

When first he opened his eyes, they were as the nursing arms the
world spread out to take him; and now, returning from the far
countries where they were unknown, they spread them out afresh to
receive him home. The next turn was home itself, for that turn was
at the base of the ridge on which the castle stood.

The moment he took it, a strange feeling of stillness came over
him, and as he drew nearer, it deepened. When he entered the gate
of the close, it was a sense, and had grown almost appalling. With
sudden inroad his dream returned! Was the place empty utterly? Was
there no life in it? Not yet had he heard a sound; there was no
sign from cow-house or stable. A cart with one wheel stood in the
cart-shed; a harrow lay, spikes upward, where he had hollowed the
mound of snow. The fields themselves had an unwonted, a haggard
sort of look. A crop of oats was ripening in that nearest the
close, but they covered only the half of it: the rest was in
potatoes, and amongst them, sole show of labour or life, he saw
Aggie: she was pulling the _plums_ off their stems. The doors were
shut all round the close--all but the kitchen-door; that stood as
usual wide open. A sickening fear came upon Cosmo: it was more than
a week since he had heard from home! In that time his father might
be dead, and therefore the place be so desolate! He dared not enter
the house. He would go first into the garden, and there pray, and
gather courage.

He went round the kitchen-tower, as the nearest block was called,
and made for his old seat, the big, smooth stone. Some one was
sitting there, with his head bent forward on his knees! By the red
night-cap it must be his father, but how changed the whole aspect
of the good man! His look was that of a worn-out labourer--one who
has borne the burden and heat of the day, and is already half
asleep, waiting for the night. Motionless as a statue of weariness
he sat; on the ground lay a spade which looked as if it had dropped
from his hand as he sat upon the stone; and beside him on that lay
his Marion’s Bible. Cosmo’s heart sank within him, and for a moment
he stood motionless.

But the first movement he made forward, the old man lifted his head
with an expectant look, then rose in haste, and, unable to
straighten himself, hurried, stooping, with short steps, to meet
him. Placing his hands on his son’s shoulders, he raised himself
up, and laid his face to his; then for a few moments they were
silent, each in the other’s arms.

The laird drew back his head and looked his son in the face. A
heavenly smile crossed the sadness of his countenance, and his
wrinkled old hand closed tremulous on Cosmo’s shoulder.

“They canna tak frae me my son!” he murmured--and from that time
rarely spoke to him save in the mother-tongue.

Then he led him to the stone, where there was just room enough for
two that loved each other, and they sat down together.

The laird put his hand on his son’s knee, as, when a boy, Cosmo
used to put his on his father’s.

“Are ye the same, Cosmo?” he asked. “Are ye my ain bairn?”

“Father,” returned Cosmo, “gien it be possible, I loe ye mair nor
ever. I’m come hame to ye, no to lea’ ye again sae lang as ye live.
Gien ye be in ony want, I s’ better ’t gien I can, an’ share ’t ony
gait. Ay, I may weel say I’m the same, only mair o’ ’t.”

“The Lord’s name be praist!” murmured the laird. “--But du ye loe
_him_ the same as ever, Cosmo?” again he asked.

“Father, I dinna loe him the same--I loe him a heap better. He kens
noo ’at he may tak his wull o’ me. Naething ’at I ken o’ comes
’atween him an’ me.”

The old man raised his arm, and put it round his boy’s shoulders:
he was not one of the many Scotch fathers who make their children
fear more than love them.

“Then, Lord, let me die in peace,” he said, “for mine eyes hae seen
thy salvation!--But ye dinna luik freely the same, Cosmo!--Hoo is
’t?”

“I hae come throu’ a heap, lately, father,” answered Cosmo. “I hae
been ailin’ in body, an’ sair harassed in hert. I’ll tell ye a’
aboot it, whan we hae time--and o’ that we’ll hae plenty, I s’
warran’, for I tell ye I winna lea’ ye again; an’ gien ye had only
latten me ken ye was failin’, I wad hae come hame lang syne. It was
sair agen the grain ’at I baid awa’.”

“The auld sudna lie upo’ the tap o’ the yoong, Cosmo, my son.”

“Father, I wad willin’ly be a bed to ye to lie upo’, gien that wad
ease ye; but I’m thinkin’ we baith may lie saft upo’ the wull o’
the great Father, e’en whan that’s hardest.”

“True as trowth!” returned the laird. “--But ye’re luikin’ some
tired-like, Cosmo!”

“I _am_ some tired, an’ unco dry. I wad fain hae a drink o’ milk.”

The old man’s head dropped again on his bosom, and so for the space
of about a minute he sat. Then he lifted it up, and said, looking
with calm clear eyes in those of his son,

“I winna greit, Cosmo; I’ll say _yet_, the will o’ the Lord be dune,
though it be sair upo’ me the noo, whan I haena a drap o’ milk
aboot the place to set afore my only-begotten son whan he comes
hame to me frae a far country!--Eh, Lord! whan yer ain son cam hame
frae his sair warstle an’ lang sojourn amo’ them ’at kenned na him
nor thee, it wasna til an auld shabby man he cam hame, but til the
Lord o’ glory an’ o’ micht! An’ whan we a’ win hame til the Father
o’ a’, it’ll be to the leevin’ stren’th o’ the universe.--Cosmo,
the han’ o’ man’s been that heavy upo’ me ’at coo efter coo’s gane
frae me, an’ the last o’ them, bonny Yally, left only thestreen.
Ye’ll hae to drink cauld watter, my bairn!”

Again the old man’s heart overcame him; his head sank, and he
murmured,--“Lord, I haena a drap o’ milk to gie my bairn--me ’at
wad gie ’im my hert’s bluid! But, Lord, wha am I to speyk like that
to thee, wha didst lat thine ain poor oot his verra sowl’s bluid
for him an’ me!”

“Father,” said Cosmo, “I can du wi’ watter as weel ’s onybody. Du ye
think I’m nae mair o’ a man nor to care what I pit intil me? Gien
ye be puirer nor ever, I’m prooder nor ever to share wi’ ye. Bide
ye here, an’ I’ll jist rin an’ get a drink, an’ come back to ye.”

“Na; I maun gang wi’ ye, man,” answered the laird, rising.
“Grizzie’s a heap taen up wi’ yer gran’mither. She’s been weirin’
awa’ this fortnicht back. She’s no in pain, the Lord be praised!
an’ she’ll never ken the straits her hoose is com till! Cosmo, I
hae been a terrible cooard--dreidin’ day an’ nicht yer hame-comin’,
no submittin’ ’at ye sud see sic a broken man to the father o’ ye!
But noo it’s ower, an’ here ye are, an’ my hert’s lichter nor it’s
been this mony a lang!”

Cosmo’s own sorrow drew back into the distance from before the face
of his father’s, and he felt that the business, not the accident of
his life, must henceforth be to support and comfort him. And with
that it was as if a new well of life sprung up suddenly in his
being.

“Father,” he said, “we’ll haud on thegither i’ the stret ro’d.
There’s room for twa abreist in ’t--ance ye’re in!”

“Ay! ay!” returned the laird with a smile; “that’s the bonniest
word ye cud hae come hame wi’ til me! We maun jist perk up a bit,
an’ be patient, that patience may hae her perfe’t wark. I s’ hae
anither try--an’ weel I may, for the licht o’ my auld e’en is this
day restored til me!”

“An’ sae gran’mother’s weirin awa’, father!”

“To the lan’ o’ the leal, laddie.”

“Wull she ken me?”

“Na, she winna ken ye; she’ll never ken onybody mair i’ this warl’;
but she’ll ken plenty whaur she’s gaein’!”

He rose, and they walked together towards the kitchen. There was
nobody there, but they heard steps going to and fro in the room
above. The laird made haste, but before he could lay his hand on a
vessel, to get for Cosmo the water he so much desired, Grizzie
appeared on the stair, descending. She hurried down, and across the
floor to Cosmo, and seizing him by the hand, looked him in the face
with the anxiety of an angel-hen. Her look said what his father’s
voice had said just before--“Are ye a’ there--a’ ’at there used to
be?”

“Hoo’s gran’mamma?” asked Cosmo.

“Ow, duin’ weel eneuch, sir--weirin awa’ bonny. She has naither
pang nor knowledge o’ sorrow to tribble her. The Lord grant the
sowls o’ ’s a’ sic anither lowsin’!”

“Hae ye naething better nor cauld watter to gie ’im a drink o’,
Grizzie, wuman?” asked the laird, but in mere despair.

“Nae ’cep he wad condescen’ til a grainie meal intil ’t,” returned
Grizzie mournfully, and she looked at him again, with an anxious
deprecating look now, as if before the heir she was ashamed of the
poverty of the house, and dreaded blame. “--But laird,” she resumed,
turning to her master, “ye hae surely a drap o’ something i’ yer
cellar! Weel I wat ye hae made awa’ wi’ nane o’ ’t yersel!”

“Weel, there ye wat wrang, Grizzie, my bonny wuman!” replied the
laird, with the flicker of a humourous smile on his wrinkled face,
“for I sellt the last bottle oot o’ ’t a month ago to Stronach o’
the distillery. I thoucht it cudna du muckle ill there, for it
wadna mak his nose sae reid as his ain whusky. Whaur, think ye,
wad the sma’ things ye wantit for my mother hae come frae, gien I
hadna happent to hae that property left? We’re weel taen care o’,
ye see, Grizzie! That _wad_ hae tried my faith, to hae my mother gang
wi’oot things! But he never suffers us to be tried ayont what we’re
able to beir; an’ sae lang as my faith hauds the grup, I carena for
back nor belly! Cosmo, I can bide better ’at ye sud want. Ye’re
mair like my ain nor even my mother, an’ sae we bide it thegither.
It maun be ’cause ye’re pairt o’ my Mar’on as weel ’s o’ mysel’.
Eh, man! but this o’ faimilies is a won’erfu’ Godlike contrivance!
Gien he had taen ony ither w’y o’ makin’ fowk, whaur wad I hae been
this day wantin’ you, Cosmo?”

While he spoke, Cosmo was drinking the water Grizzie had brought
him--with a little meal on the top of it--the same drink he used to
give his old mare, now long departed to the place prepared for her,
when they were out spending the day together.

“There’s this to be said for the watter, father,” he remarked, as
he set down the wooden bowl in which Grizzie had thought proper to
supply it, “that it comes mair direc’ frae the han’ o’ God
himsel’--maybe nor even the milk. But I dinna ken; for I doobt
organic chemistry maun efter a’ be nearer his han’ nor inorganic!
Ony gait, I never drank better drink; an’ gien ae day he but
saitisfee my sowl’s hunger efter his richteousness as he has this
minute saitisfeed my body’s drowth efter watter, I s’ be a happier
man nor ever sat still ohn danced an’ sung.”

“It’s an innocent cratur’ at gies thanks for cauld watter--I hae
aye remarkit that!” said Grizzie. “But I maun awa’ to my bairn up
the stair; an’ may it please the Lord to lift her or lang, for they
maun be luikin for her yont the burn by this time. Whan she wauks
i’ the mornin’, the’ ’ill be nae mair scornin’!”

This was Grizzie’s last against her mistress. The laird took no
notice of it: he knew Grizzie’s devotion, and, well as he loved his
mother, could not but know also that there was some ground for her
undevised couplet.

Scarcely a minute had passed when the voice of the old woman came
from the top of the stair, calling aloud and in perturbation,

“Laird! laird! come up direc’ly. Come up, lairds baith! She’s
comin’ til hersel’!”

They hastened up, Cosmo helping his father, and approached the bed
together.

With smooth, colourless face, unearthly to look upon, the old lady
lay motionless, her eyes wide open, looking up as if they saw
something beyond the tester of the bed, her lips moving, but
uttering no sound. At last came a murmur, in which Cosmo’s ears
alone were keen enough to discern the articulation.

“Mar’on, Mar’on,” she said, “ye’re i’ the lan’ o’ forgiveness! I
hae dune the lad no ill. He’ll come hame to ye nane the waur for
ony words o’ mine. We’re no’ a’ made sae guid to begin wi’ as
yersel’, Mar’on!”

Here her voice became a mere murmur, so far as human ears could
distinguish, and presently ceased. A minute or so more and her
breathing grew intermittent. After a few long respirations, at long
intervals, it stopped.

“She’ll be haein’ ’t oot wi’ my ain mistress or lang!” remarked
Grizzie to herself as she closed her eyes.

“Mother! mother!” cried the laird, and kneeled by the bedside.
Cosmo kneeled also, but no word of the prayers that ascended was
audible. The laird was giving thanks that another was gone home,
and Cosmo was praying for help to be to his father a true son, such
as the Son of Man was to the Father of Man. They rose from their
knees, and went quietly down the stair; and as they went from the
room, they heard Grizzie say to herself,

“She’s gang whaur there’s mair--eneuch an’ to spare!”

The remains of Lady Joan’s ten pounds was enough to bury her.

They invited none, but all the village came to her funeral.




CHAPTER XXXIX.

THE LABOURER.


Such power had been accumulated and brought to bear against
Glenwarlock, that at length he was reduced almost to the last
extremity. He had had to part with his horses before even his crops
were all sown, and had therefore dismissed his men, and tried to
sell what there was as it stood, and get some neighbouring farmer
to undertake the rest of the land for the one harvest left him; but
those who might otherwise have bought and cultivated were afraid of
offending Lord Lick-my-loof, whose hand was pretty generally seen
in the turn of affairs, and also of involving themselves in an
unsecure agreement. So things had come to a bad pass with the laird
and his household. A small crop of oats and one of potatoes were
coming on, for which the laird did what little he could, assisted
by Grizzie and Aggie at such times when they could leave their
respective charges, but in the meantime the stock of meal was
getting low, and the laird did not see where more was to come from.

He and Grizzie had only porridge, with a little salt butter, for
two, and not unfrequently the third also of their daily meals.
Grizzie for awhile managed to keep alive a few fowls that picked
about everywhere, finally making of them broth for her invalid, and
persuading the laird to eat the little that was not boiled away,
till at length there was neither cackle nor crow about the place,
so that to Cosmo it seemed dying out into absolute silence--after
which would come the decay and the crumbling, until the castle
stood like the great hollow mammoth-tooth he had looked down upon
in his dream.

At once he proceeded to do what little could yet be done for the
on-coming crops, resolving to hire himself out for the harvest to
some place later than Glenwarlock, so that he might be able to mow
the oats before leaving, when his father and Grizzie with the help
of Aggie would secure them.

Nothing could now prevent the closing of the net of the last
mortgage about them; and the uttermost Cosmo could hope for
thereafter was simply to keep his father and Grizzie alive to the
end of their natural days. Shelter was secure, for the castle was
free. The winter was drawing on, but there would be the oats and
the potatoes, with what kail the garden would yield them, and they
had, he thought, plenty of peats. Yet not unfrequently, as he
wandered aimless through the dreary silence, he would be
speculating how long, by a judiciously ordered consumption of the
place, he could keep his father warm. The stables and cow-houses
would afford a large quantity of fuel; the barn too had a great
deal of heavy wood-work about it; and there was the third tower or
block of the castle, for many years used for nothing but stowage,
whose whole thick floors he would thankfully honour, burning them
to ashes in such a cause. In the spring there would be no land left
them, but so long as he could save the house and garden, and find
means of keeping his two alive in them, he would not grieve over
that.

Agnes was a little shy of Cosmo--he had been away so long! but at
intervals her shyness would yield and she would talk to him with
much the same freedom as of old when they went to school together.
In his rambles Cosmo would not pass her grandfather’s cottage
without going in to inquire after him and his wife, and having a
little chat with Aggie. Her true-hearted ways made her, next to his
father and Mr. Simon, the best comforter he had.

She was now a strong, well-grown, sunburnt woman, with rough hands
and tender eyes. Occasionally she would yet give a sharp merry
answer, but life and its needs and struggles had made her grave,
and in general she would, like a soft cloud, brood a little before
she gave a reply. She had by nature such a well balanced mind, and
had set herself so strenuously to do the right thing, that her
cross seemed already her natural choice, as indeed it always is--of
the deeper nature. In her Cosmo always found what strengthened him
for the life he had now to lead, though, so long as at any hour he
could have his father’s company, and saw the old man plainly
reviving in his presence, he could not for a moment call or think
it hard, save in so far as he could not make his father’s as easy
as he would.

When the laird heard that his son, the heir of Glenwarlock, had
hired himself for the harvest on a neighbouring farm, he was dumb
for a season. It was heavy both on the love and the pride of the
father, which in this case were one, to think of his son as a hired
servant--and that of a rough, swearing man, who had made money as a
butcher. The farm too was at such distance that he could not well
come home to sleep! But the season of this dumbness, measured by
the clock, at least, was but of a few minutes duration; for
presently the laird was on his knees thanking God that he had given
him a son who would be an honour to any family out of heaven: in
there, he knew, every one was an honour to every other!

Before the harvest on the farm of Stanewhuns arrived, Cosmo, to his
desire, had cut their own corn, with Grizzie to gather, Aggie to
bind, and his father to stook, and so got himself into some measure
of training. He found it harder, it is true, at Stanewhuns, where
he must keep up with more experienced scythe-men, but, just equal
to it at first, in two days he was a little more than equal, and able
to set his father’s heart at ease concerning his toil.

With all his troubles, it had been a blessed time so long as he
spent most of the day and every evening in his father’s company.
Not unfrequently would Mr. Simon make one, seated with them in the
old drawing-room or on some hillside, taking wisest share in every
subject of talk that came up. In the little council Cosmo
represented the rising generation with its new thought, its new
consciousness of need, and its new difficulties; and was delighted
to find how readily his notions were received, how far from strange
they were to his old-fashioned friends, especially his preceptor,
and how greatly true wisdom suffices for the hearing and
understanding of new cries after the truth. For what all men need
is the same--only the look of it changes as its nature expands
before the growing soul or the growing generation, whose hunger and
thirst at the same time grow with it. And, coming from the higher
to the lower, it must be ever in the shape of difficulty that the
most precious revelations first appear. Even Mary, to whom first
the highest revelation came, and came closer than to any other, had
to sit and ponder over the great matter, yea and have the sword
pass through her soul, ere the thoughts of her heart could be
revealed to her. But Cosmo of the new time, found himself at home
with the men of the next older time, because both he and they were
true; for in the truth there is neither old nor new; the well
instructed scribe of the kingdom is familiar with the new as well
as old shapes of it, and can bring either kind from his treasury.
There was not a question Cosmo could start, but Mr. Simon had
something at hand to the point, and plenty more within
digging-scope of his thought-spade.

But now that he had to work all day, and at night see no one with
whom to take sweet counsel, Cosmo did feel lonely--yet was it an
unfailing comfort to remember that his father was within his reach,
and he would see him the next Sunday. And the one thing he had
dreaded was spared him--namely, having to share a room with several
other men, who might prove worse than undesirable company. For the
ex-butcher, the man who was a byword in the country-side for his
rough speech, in this showed himself capable of becoming a
gentleman, that he had sympathy with a gentleman: he would neither
allow Cosmo to eat with the labourers--to which Cosmo himself had
no objection, nor would hear of his sleeping anywhere but in the
best bedroom they had in the house. Also, from respect to the heir
of a decayed family and valueless inheritance, he modified even his
own habits so far as almost to cease swearing in his presence.
Appreciating this genuine kindness, Cosmo in his turn tried to be
agreeable to those around him, and in their short evenings, for,
being weary, they retired early, would in his talk make such good
use of his superior knowledge as to interest the whole family, so
that afterwards most of them declared it the pleasantest
harvest-time they had ever had. Perhaps it was a consequence that
the youngest daughter, who had been to a boarding-school, and had
never before appeared in any harvest-field, betook herself to that
in which they were at work towards the end of the first week, and
_gathered_ behind Cosmo’s scythe. But Cosmo was far too much
occupied--thinking to the rhythmic swing of his scythe, to be aware
of the honour done him. Still farther was he from suspecting that
it had anything to do with the appearing of Agnes one afternoon,
bringing him a letter from his father, with which she had armed
herself by telling him she was going thitherward, and could take a
message to the young laird.

The harvest began upon a Monday, and the week passed without his
once seeing his father. On the Sunday he rose early, and set out
for Castle Warlock. He would have gone the night before, but at the
request of his master remained to witness the signing of his will.
As he walked he found the week had given him such a consciousness
of power as he had never had before: with the labour of his own
hands he knew himself capable of earning bread for more than
himself; while his limbs themselves seemed to know themselves
stronger than hitherto. On the other hand he was conscious in his
gait of the intrusion of the workman’s plodding swing upon the easy
walk of the student.

His way was mostly by footpaths, often up and down hill, now over a
moor, now through a valley by a small stream. The freshness of the
morning he found no less reviving than in the old boyish days, and
he sang as he walked, taking huge breaths of the life that lay on the
heathery hill-top. And as he sang the words came--nearly like the
following. He had never wondered at the powers of the
_improvvisatore_. It was easy to him to extemporize.

  Win’ that blaws the simmer plaid,
  Ower the hie hill’s shouthers laid,
  Green wi’ gerse, an’ reid wi’ heather,
  Welcome wi’ yer soul-like weather!
  Mony a win’ there has been sent
  Oot ’aneth the firmament;
  Ilka ane its story has;
  Ilka ane began an’ was;
  Ilka ane fell quaiet an’ mute
  Whan its angel wark was oot.
  First gaed ane oot ower the mirk,
  Whan the maker gan to work;
  Ower it gaed and ower the sea,
  An’ the warl’ begud to be.
  Mony ane has come an’ gane
  Sin’ the time there was but ane:
  Ane was great an’ strong, an’ rent
  Rocks an’ mountains as it went
  Afore the Lord, his trumpeter,
  Waukin’ up the prophet’s ear;
  Ane was like a steppin’ soun’
  I’ the mulberry taps abune;
  Them the Lord’s ain steps did swing,
  Walkin’ on afore his king;
  Ane lay doon like scoldit pup
  At his feet an’ gatna up,
  Whan the word the maister spak
  Drave the wull-cat billows back;
  Ane gaed frae his lips, an’ dang
  To the earth the sodger thrang;
  Ane comes frae his hert to mine,
  Ilka day, to mak it fine.
  Breath o’ God, oh! come an’ blaw
  Frae my hert ilk fog awa’;
  Wauk me up, an’ mak me strang,
  Fill my hert wi’ mony a sang,
  Frae my lips again to stert,
  Fillin’ sails o’ mony a hert,
  Blawin’ them ower seas dividin’
  To the only place to bide in.

“Eh, Mr. Warlock! is that you singin’ o’ the Sawbath day?” said the
voice of a young woman behind him, in a tone of gentle raillery
rather than expostulation.

Cosmo turned and saw Elspeth, his master’s daughter already
mentioned.

“Whaur’s the wrang o’ that, Miss Elsie?” he answered. “Arena we
tellt to sing an’ mak melody to the Lord?”

“Ay, but i’ yer hert, no lood oot--’cep’ it be i’ the kirk. That’s
the place to sing upo’ Sundays. Yon wasna a psalm-tune ye was at!”

“Maybe no. Maybe I was a bit ower happy for ony tune i’ the
tune-buiks, an’ bude to hae ane ’at cam o’ ’tsel’!”

“An’ what wad mak ye sae happy--gien a body micht speir?” asked
Elspeth, peeping from under long lashes, with a shy, half
frightened, sidelong glance at the youth.

She was a handsome girl of the milkmaid type, who wore a bonnet
with pretty ribbons, thought of herself as a young lady, and had
many admirers, whence she had grown a little bold, without knowing
it.

“Ye haena ower muckle at hame to make ye blithe, gien a’ be true,”
she added sympathetically.

“I hae a’ thing at hame to make me blithe--’cep’ it be a wheen mair
siller,” answered Cosmo; “but maybe that’ll come neist--wha kens?”

“Ay! wha kens?” returned the girl with a sigh. “There’s mony ane
doobtless wad be ready eneuch wi’ the siller anent what ye hae
wantin’ ’t!”

“I hae naething but an auld hoose--no sae auld as lat the win’ blaw
through ’t, though,” said Cosmo, amused. “But whaur are ye for sae
ear’, Miss Elsie?”

“I’m for the Muir o’ Warlock, to see my sister, the schuilmaister’s
wife. Puir man! he’s been ailin’ ever sin’ the spring. I little
thoucht I was to hae sic guid company upo’ the ro’d! Ye hae made an
unco differ upo’ my father, Mr. Warlock. I never saw man sae
altert. In ae single ook!”

She had heard Cosmo say he much preferred good Scotch to would-be
English, and therefore spoke with what breadth she could compass.
In her head, notwithstanding, she despised everything homely, for
she had been to school in the city, where, if she had learned
nothing else, she had learned the ambition to _appear_; of _being_
anything she had no notion. She had a loving heart, though--small
for her size, but lively. Of what really goes to make a _lady_--the
end of her aspiration--she had no more idea than the swearing
father of whom, while she loved him, as did all his family, she was
not a little ashamed. She was an honest girl too in a manner, and
had by nature a fair share of modesty; but now her heart was sadly
fluttered, for the week that had wrought such a change on her
father, had not been without its effect upon her--witness her
talking _vulgar, broad Scotch_!

“Your father is very kind to me. So are you all,” said Cosmo. “My
father will be grateful to you for being so friendly to me.”

“Some wad be gien they daured!” faltered Elspeth. “Was ye content
wi’ my getherin’ to ye--to your scythe, I mean, laird?”

“Wha could hae been ither, Miss Elsie? Try ’at I wad, I couldna
lea’ ye ahin’ me.”

“Did ye want to lea’ me ahin’ ye?” rejoined Elsie, with a sidelong
look and a blush, which Cosmo never saw. “I wadna seek a better to
gether til.--But maybe ye dinna like my han’s!”

So far as I can see, the suggestion was entirely irrelevant to the
gathering, for what could it matter to the mower what sort of hands
the woman had who gathered his swath. But then Miss Elspeth had, if
not very pretty, at least very small hands, and smallness was the
only merit she knew of in a hand.

What Cosmo might have answered, or in what perplexity between truth
and unwillingness to hurt she might have landed him before long, I
need not speculate, seeing all danger was suddenly swept away by a
second voice, addressing Cosmo as unexpectedly as the first.

They had just passed a great stone on the roadside, at the foot of
which Aggie had been for some time seated, waiting for Cosmo, whom
she expected with the greater confidence that, having come to meet
him the night before, and sat where she now was till it was dark,
she had had to walk back without him. Recognizing the voices that
neared her, she waited until the pair had passed her shelter, and
then addressed Cosmo with a familiarity she had not used since his
return--for which Aggie had her reasons.

“Cosmo!” she called, rising as she spoke, “winna ye bide for me? Ye
hae a word for twa as weel ’s for ane. The same sairs, whaur baith
hae lugs.”

The moment Cosmo heard her voice, he turned to meet her, glad
enough.

“Eh, Aggie!” he said, “I’m pleased to see ye. It was richt guid o’
ye to come to meet me! Hoo’s your father, an’ hoo’s mine?”

“They’re baith brawly,” she answered, “an’ blithe eneuch, baith, at
the thoucht o’ seein’ ye. Gien ye couldna luik in upo’ mine the
day, he wad stap doon to the castle. Sin’ yesterday mornin’ the
laird, Grizzie tells me, hasna ristit a minute in ae place, ’cep’ in
his bed. What for camna ye thestreen?”

As he was answering her question, Aggie cast a keen searching look
at his companion: Elsie’s face was as red as fire could have
reddened it, and tears of vexation were gathering in her eyes. She
turned her head away and bit her lip.

The two girls were hardly acquainted, nor would Elsie have dreamed
of familiarity with the daughter of a poor cotter. Aggie seemed
much farther below her, than she below the young laird of
Glenwarlock. Yet here was the rude girl addressing him as
Cosmo--with the boldness of a sister, in fact! and he taking it as
matter of course, and answering in similar style! It was unnatural!
Indignation grew fierce within her. What might she not have waked
in him before they parted but for this shameless hussey!

“Ye’ll be gaein’ to see yer sister, Miss Elsie?” said Agnes, after
a moment’s pause.

Elspeth kept her head turned away, and made her no answer. Aggie
smiled to herself, and reverting to Cosmo, presently set before him
a difficulty she had met with in her algebra, a study which, at
such few times as she could spare, she still prosecuted with the
help of Mr. Simon. So Elsie, who understood nothing of the subject,
was thrown out. She dropped a little behind, and took the role of
the abandoned one. When Cosmo saw this, he stopped, and they waited
for her. When she came up,

“Are we gaein’ ower fest for ye, Miss Elsie?” he said.

“Not at all;” she answered, English again; “I can walk as fast as
any one.”

Cosmo turned to Aggie and said,

“Aggie, we’re i’ the wrang. We had no richt to speik aboot things
’at only twa kent, whan there was three walkin’ thegither.--Ye see,
Miss Elsie, her an’ me was at the schuil thegither, an’ we happent
to tak’ up wi’ the same kin’ o’ thing, partic’larly algebra an’
geometry, an’ can ill haud oor tongues frae them whan we forgather.
The day, it’s been to the prejudice o’ oor mainners, an’ I beg ye
to owerluik it.”

“I didn’t think it was profitable conversation for the Sabbath
day,” said Elsie, with a smile meant to be chastened, but which
Aggie took for bitter, and laughed in her sleeve. A few minutes
more and the two were again absorbed, this time with a point in
conic sections, on which Aggie professed to require enlightenment,
and again Elsie was left out. Nor did this occur either through
returning forgetfulness on the part of Aggie, or the naturally
strong undertow of the tide of science in her brain. Once more
Elsie adopted the _neglected_ rôle, but being allowed to play it in
reality, dropped farther and farther behind, until its earnest grew
heavy on her soul, and she sat down by the roadside and wept--then
rising in anger, turned back, and took another way to the village.

Poor girl-heart! How many tears do not fancies doomed to pass cost
those who give them but as it were a night’s lodging! And the tears
are bitter enough, although neither the love, nor therefore the
sorrow, may have had time to develop much individuality. One
fairest soap-bubble, one sweetly devised universe vanishes with
those tears; and it may be never another is blown with so many
colours, and such enchanting changes! What is the bubble but air
parted from the air, individualized by thinnest skin of slightly
glutinous water! Does not swift comfort and ready substitution show
first love rather, the passion between man and woman than between a
man and a woman? How speedily is even a Romeo consoled to oblivion
for the loss of a Rosaline by the gain of a Juliet! And yet I mourn
over even such evanishment; mourn although I know that the bubble
of paradise, swift revolving to annihilation, is never a wasted
thing: its influence, its educating power on the human soul, which
must at all risks be freed of its shell and taught to live, remains
in that soul, to be, I trust, in riper worlds, an eternal joy. At
the same time therefore I would not be too sad over such as Elsie,
now seated by a little stream, in a solitary hollow, alone with her
mortification--bathing her red eyes with her soaked handkerchief,
that she might appear without danger of inquisition before the
sister whom marriage had not made more tender, or happiness more
sympathetic.

But how is it that girls ready to cry more than their eyes out for
what they call love when the case is their own, are so often
hard-hearted when the case is that of another? There is something
here to be looked into--if not by an old surmiser, yet by the young
women themselves! Why are such relentless towards every slightest
relaxation of self restraint, who would themselves dare not a
little upon occasion? Here was Agnes, not otherwise an ill-natured
girl, positively exultant over Elsie’s discomfiture and
disappearance! The girl had done her no wrong, and she had had her
desire upon her: she had defeated her, and was triumphant; yet this
was how she talked of her to her own inner ear: “The impident
limmer!--makin’ up til a gentleman like oor laird ’at is to be!
Cudna he be doon a meenute but she maun be upon ’im to devoor ’im!
--an’ her father naething but the cursin’ flesher o’ Stanewhuns!
--forby ’at a’body kens she was promised to Jock Rantle, the mason
lad, an wad hae hed him, gien the father o’ her hadna sworn at them
that awfu’ ’at naither o’ them daured gang a fit further! Gien I
had loed a lad like Jock, wad I hae latten him gang for a screed o’
ill words! They micht hae sworn ’at likit for me! I wad hae latten
them sweir! Na, na! Cosmo’s for Elsie’s betters!”

Elsie appeared no more in any field that season--staid at Muir o’
Warlock, indeed, till the harvest was over.

But what a day was that Sunday to Cosmo! Labour is the pursuivant
of joy to prepare the way before him. His father received him like
a king come home with victory. And was he not a king? Did not the
Lord say he was a king, because he came into the world to bear
witness to the truth?

They walked together to church--and home again as happy as two boys
let out of school--home to their poor dinner of new potatoes and a
little milk, the latter brought by Aggie with her father’s
compliments “to his lairdship,” as Grizzie gave the message. What!
was I traitor bad enough to call it a poor dinner? Truth and
Scotland forgive me, for I know none so good! And after their
dinner immediately, for there was no toddy now for the laird, they
went to the drawing-room--an altogether pleasant place now in the
summer, and full of the scent of the homely flowers Grizzie
arranged in the old vases on the chimney-piece--and the laird laid
himself down on the brocade-covered sofa, and Cosmo sat close
beside him on a low chair, and talked, and told him this and that,
and read to him, till at last the old man fell asleep, and then
Cosmo, having softly spread a covering upon him, sat brooding over
things sad and pleasant, until he too fell asleep, to be with Joan
in his dreams.

At length the harvest was over, and Cosmo went home again, and in
poverty-stricken Castle Warlock dwelt the most peaceful, contented
household imaginable. But in it reigned a stillness almost awful.
So great indeed was the silence that Grizzie averred she had to
make much more noise than needful about her affairs that she might
not hear the ghosts. She did not mind them, she said, at night;
they were natural then; but it was _ugsome_ to hear them in the
daytime! The poorer their fare, the more pains Grizzie took to make
it palatable. The gruel the laird now had always for his supper,
was cooked with love rather than fuel. With what a tender hand she
washed his feet! What miracles of the laundress-art were the old
shirts he wore! Now that he had no other woman to look after him,
she was to him like a mother to a delicate child, in all but the
mother’s familiarity. But the cloud was cold to her also; she
seldom rimed now; and except when unusually excited, never returned
a sharp answer.




CHAPTER XL.

THE SCHOOLMASTER.


It is time I told my readers something about Joan. But it is not
much I have to tell. Cosmo received from her an answer to his
letter concerning the ring within a week; and this is what she
wrote:

“MY DEAR COSMO, of course I cannot understand why you went away as
you did. It makes me very unhappy, lest I should be somehow to
blame. But I trust you _entirely_. I too hope for the day when it
will be impossible to hide anything. I always find myself when I
wake in the morning, trying to understand why you went away so, and
one reason after another comes, but I have not got the real one
yet--at least I think not. I will pay Dr. Jermyn the money with all
my heart. I cannot pay him just yet, because the same day you left
he was called to London upon medical business, and has not yet
returned. Give my love to your father. I hope you are safe and
happy with him by this time. I wish I were with you! Will that day
ever come again? I cannot tell you how I miss you. It is not
wonderful, if you will only think of it. I hope, dear Cosmo, it was
not my fault that you went away. I know my behaviour was such as to
most people would have seemed very strange, but you are not most
people, and I did and do think you understood it, and made all the
allowance for me that could be made. I had almost forgot to thank
you for the money. I do thank you, Cosmo, but I should have been
much more grateful had you kept it. It is all so stupid--and next
to no use without you or your father! And to know I have such a
large sum in the house that my brother knows nothing about, quite
frightens me sometimes. I wish you had left me the horse to hide it
in. I feel very much like a thief, and I am sure my brother would
think of me as one if he knew. I feel sometimes as if there were an
evil imp in the drawer where it lies. Mind you do not make the
slightest allusion to it in any of your letters, and ask your
father not to do so either. It has just one comfort in it--that I
could now, if driven to it, run away. My love to your father. Your
loving cousin,
  JOAN.”

Long before this letter arrived, Cosmo had told his father
everything; and he, although he could not believe there was
anything between Joan and the doctor, quite approved of his
conduct.

“Wait upon the Lord,” he said, after listening with the excitement
of a young heart, the ache of an old one, and the hope of a strong
one, to his son’s narrative; “wait patiently on him, and he will
give thee thy heart’s desire.”

They waited, and patiently.

What was there now that Cosmo could do to make a little money? With
Mr. Simon he held many an anxious conference on the matter, but
nothing could either think of except the heart-wearing endeavour
after favour with one or other of the magazines--involving an
outlay of much time, a sick deferment of hope, and great
discouragement; for how small were the chances of his work proving
acceptable to this or that man who, with the best intentions for
the _success_ of the magazine in his charge, and a keen enough
perception of the unworthy in literature, had most likely no
special love for the truth, or care to teach it, and was besides
under the incapacitating influence, the deadening, debilitating,
stupefying effect of having continually to judge--not to mention
the enervating hopelessness that at length falls, I presume, upon
every editor of a popular magazine, of finding one pearl among the
cartloads of oysters sent him by unknown divers in the gulf of
literature--filling him with amazement that there should be so many
to write so well, and so few to write better. Mr. Simon
nevertheless encouraged Cosmo to make the attempt, seeing that to
one who had nothing else to do, it involved no loss, and would be
certain gain to both head and heart, with just the possibility as
well of a little return in money. So he set to work, and wrote, and
wrote, and sent, and sent, but heard nothing and nothing.

The weeks came and went, and the frosts came and went, and then
came and staid: and the snow fell and melted, and then fell and
lay; and winter settled down with moveless rigour upon Castle
Warlock. Nor had it lasted long, before it became evident that the
natural powers of the laird had begun to fail more rapidly. But
sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof, and that in the matter
of death as well as of life; if we are not to forestall the
difficulties of living, surely we are not to forestall the sorrows
of dying. There was one thing, however, that did trouble him: the
good old man’s appetite had begun to fail, and how was he to get
for him what might tempt him to eat? He was always contented, nor
ever expressed a desire for anything not in the house; but this was
what sent Cosmo on his knees oftenest of all--oftener even than his
own spiritual necessities.

Never surely did household, even in Scotland, live upon less! Cosmo
had to watch Grizzie to know that she ate at all, and once came
nearly to the conclusion that she ate only dry meal.

He would have had his father take his grandmother’s room now she
was gone, but he would not leave the one he had last occupied with
his wife. From that he would go, he said, as she had gone. So Cosmo
took his grandmother’s, and there wrote and read--and when his
father could not, in the very cold weather, leave his bed, was
within the call of the slightest knock upon his floor. But every
now and then, when the cold would abate a little, the laird would
revive, and hope grow strong in the mind of his son: his father was
by no means an old man yet, he would persuade himself, and might be
intended to live many years; and thereupon he would set to work
with fresh vigour. But it is hard to labour without encouragement,
or apparent prospect of result.

Many a time did the Gracies go without milk that they might send
for the laird the little their cow gave; but, though Cosmo never
refused their kindness, as indeed he had no right, it went to his
heart that the two old people should go without what was as needful
for them as for his father. Mr. Simon too would every now and then
send something from his house or from the village--oftener than
Cosmo knew, for he had taken Grizzie into his confidence, and she
was discreet. But now at length fell a heavenly crumb to keep the
human sparrows picking.

The schoolmaster at the Muir, he who had behaved so insolently to
the Warlocks, father and son, had returned to his duties at the end
of the _hairst-play_, but had been getting worse for some time, and
was at length unable to go on. He must therefore provide a
substitute, and Cosmo heard that he was on the outlook for one.

Now Cosmo knew that, if he had desired to be made
parish-schoolmaster, the influence of Lord Lick-my-loof would have
been too strong against him, but it seemed possible that his old
master might have so far forgotten by-gones as to be willing to
employ him. He went to him therefore the same hour, and being shown
into the room where he sat wrapt in blankets, laid before him his
petition.

Now the schoolmaster, although both worldly in his judgment, and
hasty in his temper, was not a heartless man. Keen feelings are not
always dissociated from brutality even. One thing will reach the
heart that another will not; and much that looks like
heartlessness, may be mainly stupidity. He had never ceased, after
the first rush of passion, to regret he had used the word that
incensed the boy; and although he had never to his own heart
confessed himself wrong in knocking down the violator of the
sacredness of the master’s person, yet, unconsciously to himself,
he had for that been sorry also. Had he been sorrier, his pride
would yet have come between him and confession. When the boy, then,
on whom for years he had not set his eyes, stood unexpectedly
before him, a fine youth, down in the world, and come, as he
anticipated the moment he saw him, to beg a favour--behold an
opportunity, not only of making reparation without confession, but
of induing the dignity of forgiveness! He received Cosmo,
therefore, with the stiffness of a condescending inferior, it is
true, but with kindness notwithstanding, and, having heard his
request, accorded immediately a gracious assent, which so filled
Cosmo with gratitude that he could not help showing some emotion,
whereupon the heart of the schoolmaster in its turn asserted
itself; and from that moment friendly relations were established
between them.

Things were soon arranged. Cosmo was to be paid by the week, and
should commence his work the next morning. He returned therefore in
great consolation, carrying with him for his father one or two
simple luxuries the village afforded. That night he hardly could
sleep for joy.

He set about his new duties with zeal. Teaching itself is far from
easy work to anyone anxious to make it genuine; and Cosmo had
besides to leave home early in all kinds of wintry weather, and
walk to it through the bitterness of _black frost_, the shifting toil
of deep snow, or the assault of fierce storm. But he thought
nothing of the labour or its accessories of discomfort; the only
thing he felt hard was having to leave his father all the
winter-day alone, for it was generally five o’clock before he got
back to him.

And now in the heart of the laird arose a fresh gratitude for the
son God had given him. His hours passed mainly in devotion and
anticipation. Every time he received his son from the arms of the
winter to his own, it was like the welcoming of one lost and found
again.

Into the stern weather of their need had stolen a summer-day to
keep hope alive. Cosmo gave up his writing, and spent all the time
he had at home in waiting with mind and body upon his father. He
read to him--sometimes his own poetry,--and that his father liked
best of all, because therein he came nearer to his boy; now and
then, when he was too weary for thought, he would play backgammon
with him; and sometimes, when he was himself more tired than usual,
would get Grizzie to come and tell yet again the stories she used
to tell him when he was a child--some of which his father enjoyed
the more that he remembered having heard them when he was himself a
child. Upon one of these occasions, Grizzie brought from her
treasury a tale which the laird remembered his grandmother’s saying
she too had heard when she was a child, and therewith it came into
Cosmo’s head to write it out, as nearly as he could, in Grizzie’s
words, and try a magazine with it. For the first time he received
an answer--the most agreeable part of which was a small cheque, and
the next most agreeable the request that he would send another
paper of like character. Grizzie’s face, when she learned in what
way, and how largely, as it seemed to her, she had commenced
contributing to the income of the family, was a sight worth a good
deal more than a good dinner to both father and son. At first she
imagined Cosmo was making game of her, and stood upon the dignity
of her legends; but convinced at length of the fact of the case,
she stared into nowhere for a minute, and then said,

“Eh, sirs! Oot o’ the moo’ o’ babes an’ sucklin’s! The Lord be
praist, whan herts is raist!”

“Amen, Grizzie!” responded the laird. “Eh, wuman! gien ever ane
wan a place in a faimily, her ain by foreordeenment o’ the fatherly
providence ’at luiks efter the faimilies o’ men, Grizzie, ye’re
that wuman!”

Word to please Grizzie better the laird could not have found. It
sunk in and in, for her pleasure could make no show, there being no
room for any growth in the devotion of her ministrations.

And now Cosmo would take no more of the Gracies’ milk, but got
Aggie to go every day to a farm near, and buy what was required for
his father, and Aggie was regular as the clock, sunshine or storm.

But there was another thing in which she was not quite so regular,
but which yet she never missed when she could help it; so that, as
often as three and occasionally four times in the week, Cosmo would
find her waiting for him somewhere on his way home, now just
outside the village, now nearer Glenwarlock, according to the hour
when she had got through her work. The village talked, and Aggie
knew it, but did not heed it; for she had now in her own feeling
recovered her former position towards him; and it was one of the
comforts of Cosmo’s labour, when the dulness or contrariety of the
human animal began to be too much for him, to think of the talk
with Agnes he might hope was waiting him. Under Mr. Simon she had
made much progress, and was now a companion fit for any thinking
man. The road home was not half the length to Cosmo when Agnes
walked it too. Thinking inside, and labouring outside, she was, in
virtue of the necessities of her life, such a woman as not the most
vaunted means of education, without the weight and seeming
hindrances of struggle, can produce. One of the immortal women she
was--for she had set out to grow forevermore--for whom none can
predict an adequate future, save him who knows what he is making of
her.

Her behaviour to Cosmo was that of a half sister, who, born in a
humbler position, from which she could not rise, was none the less
his sister, and none the less loved him. Whether she had anything
to struggle with in order to keep this position, I am not prepared
to say; but I have a suspicion that the behaviour of Elspeth, which
so roused her scorn, had something to do with the restoring of the
old relation between them. The most jealous of _reasonable_ mothers
could hardly have complained of her behaviour in Cosmo’s company,
however much she might have disapproved of her seeking it as she
did. But it is well that God, and not even reasonable mothers, has
the ordering of those things in which they consider themselves most
interested, and are not unfrequently intrusive. Next to his father
and Mr. Simon, Agnes Gracie was the most valued of Cosmo’s friends.
Mr. Burns came next. For Lady Joan, he never thought of her by the
side of anybody else. If he had not learned to love her, I think he
might now very well have loved Agnes. And if Cosmo had asked her
now, when marriage was impossible, to marry him when he could
marry, I do not know what Agnes might have answered. But he did
not, and they remained the best of trusting friends.




CHAPTER XLI

GRANNIE AND THE STICK.


This winter, the wind that drops the ripened fruit not plucked
before, blew hard upon old Grannie, who had now passed her
hundredth year. For some time Agnes had not been able to do much
for her, but another great-grandchild, herself a widow and a
mother, was spending the winter with her. On his way to or from
school, Cosmo every day looked in to see or enquire after her; and
when he heard she had had a bad night he would always think how
with her would fail the earthly knowledge of not a little of the
past of his family, and upon one of these occasions resolved that
he would at least find out whether she remembered the bamboo he had
brought from Cairncarque.

Calling when school was over, he heard she was a little better, and
the next morning brought with him the cane. In the afternoon he
learned that she had had a better night, and going in found her in
her chair by the fireside, and took his place by her so that the
light from the window at her back should fall upon the stick.

He had not sat more than a minute, when he saw her eyes fixed upon
the horse.

“What’s that ye hae there, Cosmo?” she said.

“This?” returned Cosmo. “It’s a cane I pickit up upo’ my traivels.
What think ye o’ ’t?”

He held it out to her, but she did not move her hand towards it.

“Whaur got ye ’t?” she asked, her eyes growing larger as she looked.

“What gars ye speir, grannie?” he returned, with assumed
indifference.

“I dinna believe there was anither like the ane that’s like,” she
replied.

“In which case,” rejoined Cosmo, “it maun be the same. Ken ye
onything aboot it?”

“Ay; an’ sae du ye, or ye hae less sense nor I wad hae mintit o’ a
Warlock. That stick’s no a stick like ither sticks, an’ I wuss I
was nearer hame.”

“Ye dinna mean, grannie, there’s onything no canny aboot the
stick?” said Cosmo.

“I wadna like to think him near me ’at aucht it,” she replied.

“Wha aucht it, grannie?”

“Rive ’t a’ to bits, laddie; there’s something by ordnar aboot it.
The auld captain made o’ ’t as gien it had been his graven image.
That was his stick ye hae i’ yer han’, whaurever ye got it; an’ it
was seldom oot o’ his frae mornin’ till nicht. Some wad hae ’t he tuik
it til ’s bed wi’ him. I kenna aboot that; but gien by ony
accident he set it oot frae ’atween his knees, it was never oot o’
the sicht o’ his e’en. I hae seen him mysel’, missin’ ’t like, luik
up o’ a suddent as gien his sowl hed been requiret o’ ’im, an’ grip
at it as gien it hed been his proadigal son come hame oonexpeckit.”

Cosmo told her where he had found it.

“I tellt ye sae!” she cried. “The murderin’ villian cairriet it wi’
him, weel kennin what was intil ’t!”

Cosmo showed her the joints and their boxes, telling her he had
searched them all, but had found nothing. She shook her head.

“Ower late! ower late!” she murmured. “The rievin’ English lord was
aforehan’ wi’ the heir!”

She seemed then to fall into a kind of lethargic musing, and as
Cosmo had not yet made up his mind to show her the paper he had
found in the top of the cane, and ask her opinion concerning it,
for the present he bade her good-night--little thinking he was not
to see her again in this world. For that same night she died.

And now when his opportunity was over, and he could learn no more
from her, the mind of Cosmo was exercised afresh concerning the
bamboo. According to Grannie, its owner habitually showed anxiety
for its safety, and had it continually under his eye. It did not
seem likely that the rings had been in it long when it was taken
from him, neither that at any time he would have chosen to carry
like valuables about with him in such a receptacle. It could hardly
therefore be because of those or of similar precious things
concealed in it, that he was always so watchful over it. It was
possible, indeed, that from often using it for temporary
concealment, he had come to regard it with constant anxiety; but
the conjecture did not satisfy Cosmo. And as often as he turned the
thing over in his mind, his speculation invariably settled on the
unintelligible paper. It was true the said paper had seemed not so
much there for its own safety, as by chance employment for the
protection of the jewels round which it was, after all, rather
squeezed than folded; but a man may crumple up his notes and thrust
them in his pocket, yet care more for them than for anything else
in the same place.

Thinking of the thing one night after he was in bed, it occurred to
him suddenly to ask himself what he had done with the paper, for he
could not remember when he had last seen it. He got up, took the
stick, which being Joan’s gift he always carried to his room, and
opening the horse, which he could now do without his eyes, found it
empty. This made him uneasy, and he lay down again to think what he
could have done with it. It was dark night, and his anxiety was not
so great but that sleep presented its claim upon him. He resisted
it however, unwilling to yield until he had at least thought of
some probability with regard to the paper. But, like a soundless
tide, sleep kept creeping upon him, and he kept starting from it
with successive spur-pricks of the will which had not yet consented
to the nightly annihilation. Bethinking himself in one of these
revivals that he might have put it in his pocket-book, he stretched
his hand to the chair beside the bed on which lay his clothes. Then
came a gap in his consciousness, and the next thing he knew was the
pocket-book in his hand, with the memory or the dream, he could not
afterwards tell which, of having searched it in vain.

He now felt so anxious that he could rest no longer, but must get
up and look for the paper until he found it. He rose and lighted
his candle, went down the stair to the kitchen, and out of the
house--then began to doubt whether he was awake, but, like one
compelled, went on to the great door, and up to the drawing-room,
when first he became aware that the moon was shining, and all at
once remembered a former dream, and knew it was coming to him
again: there it was!--the old captain, seated in his chair, with
the moon on his face, and a ghastly look! He felt his hair about to
stand on end with terror, but resisted with all his might. The
rugged, scarred countenance gazed fixedly at him, and he did his
best to return the gaze. The appearance rose, and walked from the
room, and Cosmo knew he had to follow it to the room above, which
he had not once entered since his return. There, as before, it went
to the other side of the bed, and disappeared. But this time the
dream went a little farther. Despite his fear, Cosmo followed, and
in the wall, by the head of the bed, saw an open door. He hurried
up to it, but seemed to strike against the wall, and woke. He was
in bed, but his heart was beating a terribly quick march. His
pocket-book was in his hand: he struck a light, and searching in
it, found the missing paper.

The next night, he told his dream to his father and Mr Simon, and
they had a talk about dreams and apparitions; then all three pored
over the paper, but far from arriving at any conclusion, seemed
hardly to get a glimpse of anything that could be called light upon
its meaning.




CHAPTER XLII.

OBSTRUCTION.


All this time Cosmo had never written again to Joan; both his
father and he thought it better the former only should for the
present keep up the correspondence. But months had passed without
their hearing from her. The laird had written the third time, and
received no answer.

The day was now close upon them when the last of their land would
be taken, leaving them nothing but the kitchen-garden--a piece of
ground of about half an acre, the little terraced flower-garden to
the south of the castle, and the croft tenanted by James Gracie.
They applied to Lord Lick-my-loof to grant them a lease of the one
field next the castle, which the laird with the help of the two
women had cultivated the spring before, but he would not--his
resentment being as strong as ever, and his design deeper than they
saw.

The formal proceedings took their legal course; and upon and after
a certain day Lord Lick-my-loof might have been seen from not a few
of the windows of the castle, walking the fields to the north and
east, and giving orders to his bailiff concerning them. Within a
fortnight those to the north were no more to be entered from the
precincts of the castle except by climbing over a _dry-stane dyke_;
and before many additional days were gone by, they found him more
determined than they could have imagined, to give them annoyance.

He had procured a copy of an old plan of the property, and therein
discovered, as he had expected and hoped, that that part of the
road from the glen of the Warlock which passed the gate of the
castle, had been made by the present laird only about thirty years
before; whereupon--whether he was within his legal rights or not, I
do not know, but everybody knew the laird could not go to law--he
gave orders that it should be broken up from the old point of
departure, and a dry dyke built across the gate. But the persons to
whom the job was committed, either ashamed or afraid, took
advantage of an evening on which Cosmo had a class for
farm-labourers, to do the work after dark; whence it came that,
plodding homewards without a suspicion, he found himself as he
approached the gate all at once floundering among stones and broken
ground, and presently brought up standing, a man built out from his
own house by a mushroom wall--the entrance gone which seemed to him
as old as the hills around it, for it was older than his earthly
life. With a great shove he hurled half the height of it over, and
walking in, appeared before his father in such a rage as bewildered
and troubled him far more than any insolence of Lord Lick-my-loof
could have done.

“The scoundrel!” cried Cosmo; “I should like to give him a good
drubbing--only he’s an old man! But I’ll make him repent it--and
heartily, too!”

“Cosmo, my boy,” said the old man, “you are meddling with what does
not belong to you.”

“I know it’s your business, father, not mine; but--”

“It’s no more my business than yours, my son! ‘_Vengeance is mine,
saith the Lord._’--An’ the best o’ ’t is,” he went on, willing, by a
touch of humour in the truth he had to speak, to help turn the tide
of Cosmo’s wrath, “he’ll tak’ no more than’s guid for the sinner;
whereas yersel’, Cosmo, i’ the tune ye’re in noo, wad damn puir
auld Lick-my-loof for ever and ever! Man, he canna hurt me to the
worth o’ sic a heap o’ firin’!” Then changing his tone to absolute
seriousness, “Min’ ye tu, Cosmo,” he went on, “’at the maister never
threatent but aye left the thing, whatever it was, to him ’at
judges richteously. Ye want nothing but fair play, my son, an’
whether ye get it frae Lick-my-loof or no, there’s ane winna haud
it frae ye. Ye s’ get it, my son; ye s’ get it! The maister ’ll hae
a’ thing set richt at the lang last; an’ gien _he_ binna in a hurry,
we may weel bide. For mysel’, the man has smitten me upo’ the tae
cheek, an’ may hae the tither to lat drive at whan he likes. It’s
no worth liftin’ my auld airm to haud aff the smack.”

He laughed, and Cosmo laughed too--but grimly and out of tune. Then
the laird told him that just that piece of the road was an
improvement of his own, and had cost him a good bit of blasting: it
used to cross the stream twice before it got to the yard-gate. He
hardly thought, he said, that his lordship would like to have to
restore it; for, besides the expense, it would cost him so much out
of one of his best fields. In the meantime they must contrive how
to connect themselves with that part of the road which he dared not
touch. The worst of it was that there was no longer any direct
communication across the fields with James Gracie’s cottage. To
follow the road was to make a tremendous round.

Grizzie being already in bed when Cosmo came home, learned nothing
that night of the evil news.

At break of day Cosmo was up to see what could be done, and found
that a few steps cut in the rocky terraces of the garden would
bring one with ease to the road. He set about it immediately, and
before breakfast-time had finished the job.

The rage and indignation of Grizzie when she learned what had been
done, far surpassed Cosmo’s, and served to secure him from any
return of the attack. The flood of poetic abuse that she poured out
seemed inexhaustible, sweeping along with it tale after tale to the
prejudice of “that leein’ Lick-my-loof.” But, poetic as was her
speech, not a single rime did she utter for the space of an hour
during which she thus unloaded her heart.

“Ay!” she concluded, and thereafter sank into smouldering silence,
“there was a futpath there afore ye was born, laird, blast or no
blast; an’ to that I can fess them ’at can beir testimony, ane o’
them bein’ nane ither nor Jeames Gracie himsel’, wha’s ten lang
years aheid o’ yer lairdship! an’ lat me see man or dog ’at ’ll
haud me ohn taen my wull o’ my richts intil ’t! They canna hang me,
and for less I carena.”

The schoolmaster was at length fit to resume his labours, and about
a week after the event just recorded, Cosmo ceased to attend the
school in his stead.




CHAPTER XLIII.

GRIZZIE’S RIGHTS.


In those days Mistress Gracie fell sick, and though for a while
neither husband nor grand-daughter thought seriously of her
ailment, it proved more than her age, worn with labour, could
endure, and she began to sink. Then Grizzie must go and help nurse
her, for, Cosmo being at home all day long, the laird could well
enough spare her.

Father and son were now seldom out of each other’s sight. When
Cosmo was writing, the laird would be reading in the same room; and
when, after their dinner, the laird slept, Cosmo would generally
read his New-testament beside him, and as often as he woke fresh
from his nap, the two would talk about what the one had been
reading, and Cosmo would impart what fresh light the Greek had
given him. The capacity of the old man for taking in what was new,
was wonderful, and yet not to be wondered at, seeing it was the
natural result of the constant practice of what he learned--for all
truth understood becomes duty. To him that obeys well, the truth
comes easy; to him who does not obey, it comes not, or comes in
forms of fear and dismay. The true, that is, the obedient man,
cannot help seeing the truth, for it is the very business of his
being--the natural concern, the correlate of his soul. The religion
of these two was obedience and prayer; their theories only the
print of their spiritual feet as they walked homeward.

The road which Lord Lick-my-loof had broken up, went nearly
straight from Castle Warlock to the cottage of the Gracies, where
it joined the road that passed his lodge. And now came Grizzie’s
call to action! The moment she found her services required for
Mistress Gracie, she climbed the gate of the close, from the top of
it stepped upon the new wall, thence let herself down on the
disfeatured road, and set out to follow its track, turn for turn,
through the ploughed land. In the evening she came back the same
way, scrambled over the wall and the gate, and said never a word,
nor was asked a question. To visit his tenants the laird himself
went a mile about, but most likely he was not prepared to strain
his authority with Grizzie, and therefore was as one who knew
nothing.

Before the week was out, her steps, and hers alone, had worn a
visible and very practicable footpath across the enemy’s field; and
whether Lord Lick-my-loof was from home, or that he willed the
trespass to assume its most defined form and yield personal
detection ere he moved in the matter, the week went by without
notice taken.

On the Sunday morning however, as Grizzie was on her way to the
cottage, she suddenly spied, over the edge of a hollow through
which her path ran, the head of Lord Lick-my-loof: he was following
the track she had made, and would presently meet her. Wide spread
her nostrils, like those of the war-horse, for she too smelt the
battle from afar.

“Here’s auld Belzebub at last! ’gaein to an’ fro i’ the earth, an’
walkin’ up an’ doon intil ’t!” she said to herself. “Noo’s for me
to priv the trowth ’o Scriptur! Whether he’ll flee or no, we’ll
see: I s’ resist him. It’s no me ’at’ll rin, ony gait!”

His lordship had been standing by his lodge on the outlook, and
when he saw Grizzie approaching, had started to encounter her. As
she drew near he stopped, and stood in the path motionless. On she
came till within a single pace of him. He did not move. She
stopped.

“I doobt, my lord,” she said, “I’ll hae to mak the ro’d a bit
wider. There’s hardly room for yer lordship an’ anither. But I’m
gettin’ on fine!”

“Is the woman an idiot!” exclaimed his lordship.

“Muckle siclike ’s yersel’, my lord!” answered Grizzie;--“no that
muckle wit, but I micht hae mair, to guide my steps throu’ the
wilderness ye wad mak o’ no an ill warl’.”

“Are you aware, woman, that you have made yourself liable to a
heavy fine for trespass? This field is mine!”

“An’ this fitpath’s mine, my lord--made wi’ my ain feet, an’ I
coonsel ye to stan’ aside, an’ lat me by.”

“Woman, you are insolent.”

“Troth, I needna yer lordship to tell me that! Nane the less ae
auld wife may say ’at she likes til anither.”

“I tell you there is no thoroughfare here.”

“An’ I tell you there _is_ a thoroughfare, an’ ye hae but to wull the
trowth to ken ’at there is. There was a ro’d here lang or yer
lordship’s father was merried upo’ yer lordship’s mither, an’ the
law--what o’ ’t yer lordship hasna the makin’ o’--is deid agen ye:
that I can priv. Hae me up: I can tak my aith as weel ’s onybody
whan I’m sure.”

“I will do so; but in the meantime you must get off my property.”

“Weel, stan’ by, an’ I s’ be aff o’ ’t in less time nor yer
lordship.”

“You must go back.”

“Hooly an’ fairly! Bide till the gloamin’, an’ I s’ gang
back--never fear. I’ the mids o’ the meantime I’m gaein’ aff o’ yer
property the nearest gait--an’ that’s straucht efter my nose.”

She tried, for the tenth time or so, to pass, but turn as she
might, he confronted her. She persevered. He raised the stick he
carried, perhaps involuntarily, perhaps thinking to intimidate her.
Then was the air rent with such an outcry of assault as grievously
shook the nerves of his lordship.

“Hold your tongue, you howling jade!” he cried--and the epithet
sufficed to destroy every possible remnant of forbearance in the
mind of Grizzie.

“There’s them ’at tells me, my lord,” she said with sudden calm,
“’at that’s hoo ye misca’d Annie Fyfe, puir lass, whan she cam efter
ye, fifty year ago, to yer father’s hoose, an’ gat na a plack to
haud her an’ her bairn frae the roadside! Ye needna girn like that,
my lord! Spare yer auld teeth for the gnashin’ they’ll _hae_ to du.
--Though ye fear na God nor regaird man, yer hoor’ll come, an’ yer
no like to bid it walcome.”

Beside himself with rage, Lord Lick-my-loof would have laid hold of
her, but she uttered a louder cry than before--so loud that James
Gracie’s deaf colley heard her, and, having a great sense of
justice, more courage than teeth, and as little regard to the law
of trespass as Grizzie herself, came, not bounding, but tearing
over the land to her rescue, as if a fox were at one of his sheep.
He made straight for his lordship.

Now this dog was one of the chief offences of the cottage, for he
had the moral instinct to know and hate a bad man, and could not
abide Lord Lick-my-loof. He had never attacked him, for the colley
cultivated self-restraint, but he had made his lordship aware that
there was no friendship in his heart towards him.

Silent almost as swift, he was nearly on the enemy before either he
or Grizzie saw him. His lordship staggered from the path, and
raised his stick with trembling hand.

“Doon wi’ ye! doon, Covenant! doon, ye tyke!” cried Grizzie. “Haud
yer teeth gien ye wad keep the feow ye hae! Deil a bite but banes
is there i’ the breeks o’ ’im!”

The dog had obeyed, and now stood worshipping her with his tail,
while with his eyes he watched the enemy and his stick.

“Hark ye, Covenant,” she went on, “whan his sowl he selled him, the
deevil telled him, ’at never mair sud he turn a hair at cry or
moanin’ in highway or loanin’, for greitin’ or sweirin’ or grane o’
despair. Haud frae him, Covenant, my fine fallow, haud frae him.”

Grizzie talked to the dog nor lifted her eyes. When she looked up,
Lord Lick-my-loof was beyond the hollow, hurrying as if to fetch
help. In a few minutes she was safe in the cottage, out of breath,
but in high spirits; and even the dying woman laughed at her tale
of how she had served his lordship.

“But ye ken, Grizzie,” suggested Jeames, “we’re no to return evil
for evil, nor flytin’ for flytin’!”

“Ca’ ye that flytin’?” cried Grizzie. “Ye sud hear what I didna
say! That was flytin’! We’ll be tried by what we _can_ do, no by what
we canna! An’ for returnin’ evil, did I no haud the dog frae the
deithshanks o’ ’im?”

The laird and Cosmo had spent as usual a quiet and happy Sunday. It
was now halfway down the gloamin’ towards night, and they sat
together in the drawing-room, the laird on the sofa, and Cosmo at
one of the windows. The sky was a cold clear calm of thin blue and
translucent green, with a certain stillness which in my mind will
more or less for ever be associated with a Scotch Sunday. A long
low cloud of dark purple hung like a baldachin over the yet
glimmering coals on the altar of sunset, and the sky above it was
like a pale molten mass of jewels that had run together with heat,
and was still too bright for the stars to show. They were both
looking out at the sky, and a peace as of the unbeginnings of
eternity was sinking into their hearts. The laird’s thoughts were
with his Marion in the region beyond the dream; Cosmo’s with Joan
in the dream that had vanished into itself. If love be religion,
what matter whether its object be in heaven or on the earth! Love
itself is the only true nearness. He who thinks of his Saviour as
far away can have made little progress in the need of him; and he
who does not need much cannot know much, any more than he who is
not forgiven much can love much. They sat silent, their souls
belonging rather to the heaven over their heads than the earth
under their feet, when suddenly the world of stillness was invaded
with hideous discord, above which almost immediately rose the well
known voice of Grizzie in fierce opposition. They rushed out. Over the
gate and obstructing wall they descried, indistinct in the dull
light, several heads, and hurrying thither, found Grizzie in the
grasp of Lord Lick-my-loof’s bailiff, and his lordship looking on
with his hands in his pockets and the smile that was his own. But
it was not for her own sake Grizzie cried out: there were two more
in the group--two of the dog-kind, worrying each other with all the
fierceness of the devotion which renders a master’s quarrel more
than the dog’s own. They were, however, far from equally matched,
and that was the cause of Grizzie’s cry; for the one was the
somewhat ancient colley named Covenant, whose teeth were not what
they had been, and the other a mastiff belonging to Lord
Lick-my-loof, young and malevolent, loosed from the chain the first
time that night for a month. It looked ill for Covenant, but he was
a brave dog, incapable of turning his back on death itself when
duty called him, and what more is required of dog or man! Both the
dogs were well bred each in its kind; Covenant was the more human,
Dander the more devilish; and the battle was fierce.

The moment Cosmo descried who the combatants were, he knew that
Covenant had no fair chance, and was over the wall, and had thrown
himself upon them to part them; whereupon the bailiff, knowing his
master desired the death of Covenant, let Grizzie go, and would
have rushed upon Cosmo. But it was Grizzie’s turn now, and she
clung to the bailiff like an anaconda. He cursed and swore; nor
were there lacking on Grizzie’s body the next day certain bruises
of which she said nothing except to Aggie; but she had got hold of
his cravat, and did her best to throttle him. Cosmo did the same
for the mastiff with less effect, and had to stun him with a blow
on the head from a great stone, when he caught up Covenant in his
arms, and handed him over the wall and the gate to his father. The
same moment the bailiff got away from Grizzie, and made at him,
calling to the mastiff. But the dog, only half recovered from the
effects of Cosmo’s blow, either mistaking through bewilderment, or
moved by some influence ill explicable, instead of attacking Cosmo,
rushed at his master. Rage recalls dislike, and it may be he
remembered bygone irritations and teasings. His lordship, however,
suddenly became aware of his treacherous intent, and in a moment
his legs had _saved themselves_ over wall, and gate, and he stood
panting and shaking beside the laird, in his turn the trespasser.
The dog would have been over after him, had not Cosmo, turning his
back on the bailiff, who had not observed his master’s danger,
knocked the dog, in the act of leaping, once more to the earth,
when a rush of stones that came with him, and partly fell upon him,
had its share in cowing him.

“Haud him! haud him! haud the deevil, ye brute! Haud the brute, ye
deevil!” cried his lordship.

“It’s yer ain dog, my lord,” said the bailiff, whatever consolation
there might be in the assurance, as he took him by the collar.

“Am I to be worriet ’cause the dog’s my ain? Haud him the sickerer.
He s’ be ayont mischeef the morn!”

“He’s the true dog ’at sides wi’ the richt; he’ll be in bliss afore
his maister,” said Grizzie, as she descended from the gate, and
stood on her own side of the fence.

But the laird was welcoming his lordship with the heartiness of one
receiving an unexpected favour in the visit.

“Weel loupen, my lord!” he said. “Come in an’ rist yersel’ a bit,
an’ I s’ tak ye back on to yer ain property an easier gait nor ower
a dry-stane-dyke.”

“Gien it _be_ my property,” returned his lordship, “I wad be obleeged
to ye, laird, to haud yer fowk aff o’ ’t!”

“Grizzie, wuman,” said the laird, turning to her, “ye dinna surely
want to bring me to disgrace! The lan’ ’s his lordship’s--bought
and paid for, an’ I hae no more richt ower ’t nor Jeames Gracie’s
colley here, puir beast!”

“Ye may be richt aboot the lan’, laird, the mair’s the pity!”
answered Grizzie; “but the futpath, beggin’ the pardon o’ baith
lairdship and lordship, belangs to me as muckle as to aither o’ ye.
Here I stan’, alane for mysel’! That ro’d ’s my neebor, an’ I’m
bun’ to see til ’t, for it wad be a sair vex to mony a puir body
like mysel’ to louse the richt til ’t.”

“You’ll have to prove what you say, woman,” said his lordship.

“Surely, Grizzie,” expostulated the laird, “his lordship maun
un’erstan’ affairs o’ this natur’, as well ’s you or me!”

“As to the un’erstan’in’ o’ them, laird, I mak nae doobt,” returned
Grizzie; “an’ as little ’at he’s o’ the wrang side o’ the wa’ this
time.”

“Na, Grizzie--for he’s upo’ _my_ side o’ ’t, an’ walcome.”

“He’s jist as walcome, naither mair nor less, to the path I made
wi’ my ain feet throu’ the rouchest pleughed lan’ I ever crossed.”

Therewith Grizzie, who hated compromise, turned away, and went into
the kitchen.

“Come this way, my lord,” said the laird.

“Take the dog home,” said his lordship to the bailiff. “Have him
shot the first thing to-morrow morning. If it weren’t the Sabbath,
I’d have it done to-night.”

“He’s good watch, my lord,” interceded the man.

“He may be a good watch, but he’s a bad dog,” replied his lordship.
“I’ll have neither man nor dog about me that doesn’t know his
master. You may poison him if you prefer it.”

“Come awa’, come awa’, my lord!” said the laird. “This, as ye hae
said, ’s the Sabbath-nicht, an’ the thoucht o’ ’t sud mak us
mercifu’. I hae naething to offer ye but a cheir to rist ye in, an
syne we’ll tak the ro’d like neebors thegither an’ I’ll shaw ye the
w’y hame.”

His lordship yielded, for his poor thin legs were yet trembling
with the successful effort they had made under the inspiration of
fear, and now that spur was gone, the dyke seemed a rampart
insurmountable, and he dared not attempt it.

“What are you keeping that cursed dog there for?” he said, catching
sight, as he turned, of Cosmo, who held Covenant by the back of the
neck.

“I am only waiting till your lordship’s mastiff is out of the way,”
answered Cosmo.

“That you may set him at me again, as that old hag of yours did
this morning!” As he spoke they had neared the kitchen-door, open
as usual, and Grizzie heard what he said.

“That’s as big a lee as ever your lordship h’ard tell i’ the
coort,” she cried. “It’s the natur o’ dougs to tak scunners. They
see far ben. Fess the beast in here, Cosmo; I s’ be answerable for
’im. The puir animal canna bide my lord.”

“Hoot, hoot, Grizzie,” began the laird anew, with displeasure in
his tone, but already the dog was in, and the kitchen-door closed.

“Leave her alone, Mr. Warlock, if you don’t want to have the worst
of it,” said his lordship, trying to laugh. “But seriously, laird,”
he went on, “it is not neighbourly to treat me like this. Oblige me
by giving orders to your people not to trespass on my property. I
have paid my money for it, and must be allowed to do with it as I
please.”

“My lord,” returned the laird, “I have not given, and will not give
you the smallest annoyance in my own person.--I hope yet to possess
the earth,” he interjected, half unconsciously, to himself, but
aloud. “But--”

“Hey! hey!” said his lordship, thinking the man was sending his
reason after his property.

“But,” continued the laird, “I cannot interfere with the rights of
my neighbours. If Grizzie says she has a right of way--and I think
very probably she knows what she is about--I have no business to
interfere.”

“Confound your cant!” cried his lordship. “You care no more for
your neighbours than I do. You only want to make yourself
unpleasant to me. Show me the way out, and be damned.”

“My lord,” said Cosmo, “if you weren’t an old man, I would show you
the quickest way out! How dare you speak so to a man like my
father!”

“Hold your tongue, you young fool! _You_ stand up for your father!
--idling about at home and eating him up! Why don’t you list? With
your education you could work your way up. I warn you, if you fall
into my hands, I will not spare you. The country will be better to
live in when such as you are scarcer.”

“Cosmo,” said his father, “do not answer him. Show his lordship the
way out, and let him go.”

As they went through the garden, Lord Lick-my-loof sought to renew
the conversation, but Cosmo maintained a stern silence, and his
lordship went home incensed more than ever with the contumacious
paupers.

But the path in which Grizzie gloried as the work of her own feet,
hardened and broadened, and that although she herself had very
little _foot_ in it any more. For the following week Mistress Gracie
died; and the day after she was buried, the old cotter came to the
laird, and begged him to yield, if he pleased, the contested point,
and part with the bit of land he occupied. For all the neighbours
knew his lordship greatly coveted it, though none of them were
aware what a price he had offered for it.

“Ye see, sir,” he said, “noo ’at _she’s_ gane, it maitters naething
to Aggie or me whaur we are or what comes o’ ’s.”

“But wadna she hae said the same, gien it had been you ’at was
gane, Jeames?” asked the laird.

“’Deed wad she! She was aye a’ thing for ither fowk, an’ naething
for hersel’! The mair cause she sud be considered the noo!”

“An’ ca’ ye that considerin’ her--to du the minute she’s gane the
thing wad hae grieved her by ordinar’ whan she was wi’ ye?”

“Whan we war thegither,” returned Jeames with solemnity, “there was
a heap o’ things worth a hantle; noo ’at we’re pairted there’s jist
nearhan’ as mony ’at’s no worth a strae.”

“Weel du I un’erstan’ ye, Jeames!” returned the laird with a sigh.
“But what wad come o’ yersel’ an’ Aggie wi’oot a place to lay yer
heid? We’re no to mak oorsel’s a’ sae ill aff as was the Maister;
we maun lea’ that to his wull. Ye wadna hae _her_ luik doon an’ see
ye in less comfort nor whan she was wi’ ye!”

“Thereanent, sir, I had a word o’ proposal to mak,” rejoined
Jeames. “Ye hae nae men noo aboot the place: what for sudna Aggie
an’ me come and bide i’ the men’s quarters, and be at han’ to len’
a han’ whan it was wantit? Aggie an’ me wad help to get mair oot o’
the gairden; I wad hae mair time for weyvin’; an’ ye wad get a heap
for the bit grun’ frae Lick-my loof. It wadna be an ill muv, I do
believe, laird, for aither pairt. Consider o’ ’t, sir.”

The laird saw that they might at least be better accommodated at
the castle than the cottage. He would consult his son, he said.
Cosmo in his turn consulted Aggie, and was satisfied. In the winter
the wind blew through the cottage bitterly, she said.

As soon as it was settled, Cosmo went to call on his lordship, and
was shown into his library.

His lordship guessed his errand, for his keen eye had that same
morning perceived signs of change about the cottage. He received
him with politeness, and begged to know wherein he could serve him.
From his changed behaviour Cosmo thought he must be sorry for the
way he had spoken to the laird.

“My father sent me,” he said, “to inform your lordship that he is
now at length in a position to treat with your lordship concerning
the proposal to purchase James Gracie’s croft.”

“I am greatly obliged to your father,” replied Lord Lick-my-loof,
softly wiping one hand with the other, “for his attention, but I
have no longer any desire to secure the land. It has been so long
denied me, that at length I have grown indifferent to the
possession of it. That is a merciful provision of the Creator, that
the human mind should have the faculty of accommodating itself to
circumstances, even of positive nuisance.”

Cosmo rose.

“As soon as you have made up your mind,” added his lordship, rising
also, “to part with what remains of the property, _including the
castle_, I should be glad to have the refusal of that. It would make
a picturesque ruin from certain points of view on the estate.”

Cosmo bowed, and left his lordship grinning with pleasure.




CHAPTER XLIV.

ANOTHER HARVEST.


The harvest brought again the opportunity of earning a pound or
two, and Cosmo was not the man to let it slip. But he would not go
so far from home again, for, though his father never pined or
complained, Cosmo could see that his days shrunk more rapidly when
he was not with him: left alone, he began at once to go home the
faster--as if another dragging anchor were cast loose, and he was
drawn the more swiftly whither sets the tide of life. To the old
and weary man the life to come showed as rest; to the young and
active Cosmo it promised more work. It is all one; what we need for
rest as well as for labour is _life_; more life we want, and that is
everything. That which is would be more. The eternal root causes us
to long for more existence, more being, more of God’s making, less
of our own unmaking. Our very desire after rest comes of life, life
so strong that it recoils from weariness. The imperfect needs to be
more--must grow. The sense of growth, of ever enlarging existence,
is essential to the created children of an infinite Father; for in
the children the paternal infinite goes on working--by them
recognizable, not as infinitude, but as growth.

The best thing in sight for both father and son seemed to Cosmo a
place in Lord Lick-my-loof’s harvest--an engagement to reap,
amongst the rest, the fields that had so lately been his own. He
would then be almost within sight of his father when not with him.
He applied, therefore, to the _grieve_, the same man with whom he had
all but fought that memorable Sunday of Trespass. Though of a
coarse, the man was not of a spiteful nature, and that he had
quarrelled with another was not to him sufficient reason for
hating him ever after; yet, as he carried the application to his
lordship, for he dared not without his master’s leave engage to his
service the man he counted his enemy, it gave him pleasure to see
what he called poor pride brought to the shame of what he called
beggary--as if the labour of a gentleman’s hands were not a good
deal further from beggary than the living upon money gained anyhow
by his ancestors!

Lord Lick-my-loof smouldered awhile before giving an answer. The
question was, which would most gratify the feelings he cherished
towards the man of old blood, high station, and evil fortunes--to
accept or refuse the offered toil. His deliberation ended in his
giving orders to the bailiff to _fee_ the young laird, but to mind he
did not pay workmen’s wages for gentleman’s work--which injunction
the bailiff allowed to reach Cosmo’s ears.

The young laird, as they all called him, was a favourite with his
enemy’s men--partly, that they did not love their master, and were
the more ready to side with the man he oppressed; partly, because
they admired the gentleman who so cheerfully descended to their
level, and, showing neither condescension nor chagrin, was in all
simplicity friendly with them; and partly, because some of them had
been to his evening-school the last winter, and had become attached
to him. No honest heart indeed could be near Cosmo long and not
love him--for the one reason that humanity was in him so largely
developed. To him a man was a man whatever his position or calling;
he beheld neither in the great man a divinity, nor in the small man
a slave; but honoured in his heart every image of the living God it
had pleased that God to make--honoured every man as, if not already
such in the highest sense, yet destined to be one day a brother of
Jesus Christ.

In the arrangement of the mowers, the grieve placed Cosmo last, as
presumably the least capable, that he might not lower the rate of
the field. But presently Cosmo contrived to make his neighbour in
front a little uneasy about his legs, and when the man humourously
objected to having them cut off, asked him, for the joke of the
thing, to change places with him. The man at once consented; the
rest behaved with equal courtesy, showing no desire to contest with
him the precedence of labour; before the end of the long bout,
Cosmo swung the leading scythe; and many were the compliments he
received from his companions, as they stood sharpening for the
next, in which they were of one mind he must take the lead, some
begging him however to be considerate, as they were not all so
young as he, while others warned him that, if he went on as he had
begun, he could not keep it up, but the first would be the last
before the day was over. Cosmo listened, and thereafter restrained
himself, having no right to overwork his companions; yet
notwithstanding he had cause, many a time in after life, to
remember the too great exertion of that day. Even in the matter of
work a man has to learn that he is not his own, but has a master,
whom he must not serve as if he were a hard one. When our will goes
hand in hand with God’s, then are we fellow-workers with him in the
affairs of the universe--not mere discoverers of his ways, watching
at the outskirts of things, but labourers with him at the heart of
them.

The next day Lord Lick-my-loof’s shadow was upon the field, and
there he spent some time watching how things went.

Now Grizzie and Aggie, irrespective of Cosmo’s engagement, of which
at the time they were unaware, had laid their heads together, and
concluded that, although they could not both be at once away from
the castle, they might between them, with the connivance of the
bailiff, do a day’s work and earn a day’s wages; and although the
grieve would certainly have listened to no such request from
Grizzie in person, he was incapable of refusing it to Aggie. Hence
it followed that Grizzie, in her turn that morning, was gathering
to Cosmo’s scythe, hanging her labour on that of the young laird
with as devoted a heart as if he had been a priest at the high
altar, and she his loving acolyte. I doubt if his lordship would
have just then approached Cosmo, had he noted who the woman was
that went stooping along behind the late heir of the land, now a
labourer upon it for the bread of his household.

“Weel, Glenwarlock!” said the old man, giving a lick to the palm of
his right hand as he stopped in front of the nearing mower, “ye’re
a famous han’ at the scythe! The corn boos doon afore ye like the
stooks to Joseph.”

“I hae a guid arm an’ a sharp scythe, my lord,” answered Cosmo
cheerily.

“Whisht, whisht, my lord!” said Grizzie. “Gien the corn hear ye,
it’ll stan’ up again an’ cry out. Hearken til ’t.”

The morning had been very still, but that moment a gust of wind
came and set all the corn rustling.

“What! _you_ here!--Crawford, you rascal!” cried his lordship,
looking round, “turn this old cat out of the field.”

But he looked in vain; the grieve was nowhere in sight.

“The deil sew up yer lordship’s moo’ wi’ an awn o’ beer!” (_a beard
of barley_) cried Grizzie. “Haith, gien I be a cat, ye s’ hear me
curse!”

His lordship bethought himself that she would certainly disgrace
him in the hearing of his labourers if he provoked her further, for
a former encounter had revealed that she knew things not to his
credit. They were all working away as if they had not an ear
amongst them, but almost all of them heard every word.

“Hoots, wuman!” he said, in an altered tone, “canna ye tak a
jeist?”

“Na; there’s ower mony o’ yer lordship’s jeists hae turnt fearsome
earnest to them at tuik them!”

“What mean ye, wuman?”

“Wuman! quo’ he? My name’s Grisel Grant. Wha kens na auld Grizzie,
’at never turnt her back on freen’ or foe? But I’m no gaein til
affront yer lordship wi’ the sicht o’ yersel’ afore fowk--sae lang,
that is, as ye haud a quaiet souch. But gie the yoong laird there
ony o’ the dirt ye’re aye lickin’ oot o’ yer loof, an’ the auld cat
’ll be cryin’ upo’ the hoose-tap!”

“Grizzie! Grizzie!” cried Cosmo, ceasing his work and coming back
to where they stood, “ye’ll ruin a’!”

“What is there to ruin ’at he can ruin mair?” returned Grizzie.
“Whan yer back’s to the wa’, ye canna fa’. An angry chiel’ ’ill ca’
up the deil; but an angry wife ’ll gar him rin for ’s life. When I’m
angert, I fear no aiven his lordship there!”

Lord Lick-my-loof turned and went, and Grizzie set to work like a
fury, probably stung by the sense that she had gone too far. Old
woman as she was, she had soon overtaken Cosmo, but he was sorely
vexed, and did not speak to her. When after a while the heat of her
wrath was abated, Grizzie could not endure the silence, for in
every motion of Cosmo’s body before her she read that she had hurt
him grievously.

“Laird!” she cried at last, “my stren’th’s gane frae me. Gien ye
dinna speyk to me, I’ll drap.”

Cosmo stopped his scythe in mid swing, and turned to her. How could
he resist such an appeal!

“Grizzie,” he said, “I winna deny ’at ye hae vext me,--”

“Ye needna; I wadna believe ye. But ye dinna ken yon man as I du,
or ye wadna be sae sair angert at onything wuman cud say til ’im.
Gien I was to tell ye what I ken o’ ’im, ye wad be affrontit afore
me, auld wife as I am. Haith, ye wadna du anither stroke for ’im!”

“It’s for the siller, no for _him_, Grizzie. But gien he war as ill
as ye ca’ ’im, a’ the same, as ye weel ken, the Lord maks his sun
to rise on the evil an’ on the good, an’ sen’s rain on the just an’
on the unjust!”

“Ow ay! the Lord can afoord it!” remarked Grizzie.

“An’ them ’at wad be his, maun afoord it tu, Grizzie!” returned
Cosmo. “Whaur’s the guid o’ ca’in’ ill names, ’uman?”

“Ill’s the trowth o’ them ’at’s ill. What for no set ill names to
ill duers?”

“Cause a christian ’s b’un’ to destroy the warks o’ the evil ane;
an’ ca’in’ names raises mair o’ them. The only thing ’at maks awa’
wi’ ill, is the man himsel’ turnin’ again’ ’t, an’ that he’ll never
du for ill names. Ye wad never gar me repent that gait, Grizzie.
Hae mercy upo’ the auld sinner, ’uman.”

The pace at which they were making up for lost time was telling
upon Grizzie, and she was silent. When she spoke again it was upon
another subject.

“I cud jest throttle that grieve there!” she said. “To see ’im the
nicht afore last come hame to the verra yett wi’ Aggie, was enouch
to anger the sanct ’at I’m no.”

Jealousy sent a pang through the heart of Cosmo. Was not Aggie one
of the family--more like a sister to him than any other could ever
be? The thought of her and a man like Crawford was unendurable.

“She cudna weel help hersel’,” he rejoined; “an’ whaur’s the
maitter, sae lang as she has naething to say til ’im?”

“An’ wha kens hoo lang that may be?” returned Grizzie. “The hert o’
a wuman’s no deceitfu’ as the Buik says o’ a man’s, an’ sae ’s a
heap the easier deceivt. The chield’s no ill-luikin’! an’ I s’
warran’ he’s no sae rouch wi’ a yoong lass as wi’ an auld wife.”

“Grizzie, ye wadna mint ’at oor Aggie’s ane to be ta’en wi’ the
luiks o’ a man!”

“What for no--whan it’s a’ the man has! A wuman’s hert’s that saft,
whiles, ’at she’ll jist tak ’im, no to be sair upon ’im. I wadna
warran’ ony lass! Gien the fallow cairry a fair face, she’ll sweir
her conscience doon he maun hae a guid hert.”

Thus Grizzie turned the tables upon Cosmo, and sheltered herself
behind them. Scarcely a word did he speak the rest of the morning.

At noon, when toil gladly made way for dinner, they all sat down
among the stooks to eat and drink--all except Grizzie, who,
appropriating an oatcake the food she and Aggie had a right to
between them, carried it home, and laid the greater part aside.
Cosmo ate and drank with the rest of the labourers, and enjoyed the
homely repast as much as any of them. By the time the meal was
over, Aggie had arrived to take Grizzie’s place.

It was a sultry afternoon; and what with the heat and the annoyance
of the morning from Grizzie’s tongue and her talk concerning Agnes,
the scythe hung heavy in Cosmo’s hands, nor had Aggie to work her
hardest to keep up with him. But she was careful to maintain her
proper distance from him, for she knew that the least suspicion of
relaxing effort would set him off like a thrashing machine. He led
the field, nevertheless, at fair speed; his fellow labourers were
content; and the bailiff made no remark. But he was so silent, and
prolonged silence was so unusual between them, that Aggie was
disquieted.

“Are ye no weel, Cosmo?” she asked.

“Weel eneuch, Aggie,” he answered. “What gars ye speir?”

“Ye’re haudin’ yer tongue sae sair.--And,” she added, for she
caught sight of the bailiff approaching, “ye hae lost the last inch
or twa o’ yer stroke.”

“I’ll tell ye a’ aboot it as we gang hame,” he answered, swinging
his scythe in the arc of a larger circle.

The bailiff came up.

“Dinna warstle yersel’ to deith, Aggie,” he said.

“I maun haud up wi’ my man,” she replied.

“He’s a het man at the scythe--ower het! He’ll be fit for naething
or the week be oot. He canna haud on at this rate!”

“Ay can he--fine that! Ye dinna ken oor yoong laird. He’s worth twa
ordinar’ men. An’ gien ye dinna think me fit to gather til’ ’im, I
s’ lat ye see ye’re mistaen, Mr. Crawford.”

And Aggie went on gathering faster and faster.

“Hoots!” said the bailiff, going up to her, and laying his hand on
her shoulder, “I ken weel ye hae the spunk to work till ye drap.
But there’s na occasion the noo. Sit ye doon an’ tak yer breath
a meenute--here i’ the shaidow o’ this stook. Whan Glenwarlock’s at
the tither en’, we’ll set tu thegither an’ be up wi’ him afore he’s
had time to put a fresh edge on ’s scythe. Come, Aggie! I hae lang
been thinkin’ lang to hae a word wi’ ye. Ye left me or I kent whaur
I was the ither nicht.”

“My time’s no my ain,” answered Aggie.

“Whause is ’t than?”

“While’s it’s the laird’s, an’ while’s it’s my father’s, an’ noo
it’s his lordship’s.”

“It’s yer ain sae lang ’s I’m at the heid o’ ’s lordship’s affairs.”

“Na; that canna be. He’s boucht my time, an’ he’ll pey me for ’t,
an’ he s’ hae his ain.”

“Ye needna consider ’im mair nor rizzon: he’s been nae freen’ to
you or yours.”

“What’s that to the p’int?”

“A’ thing to the p’int--wi’ me here to haud it richt atween ye.”

“Ca’ ye that haudin’ o’ ’t richt, to temp’ me to wrang ’im?” said
Aggie, going steadily on at her gathering, while the grieve kept
following her step by step.

“Ye’re unco short wi’ a body, Aggie!”

“I weel may be, whan a body wad hae me neglec’ my paid wark.”

“Weel, I reckon ye’re i’ the richt o’ ’t efter a’, sae I’ll jist
fa’ tu, an’ len’ ye a han’.”

He had so far hindered her that Cosmo had gained a little; and now
in pretending to help, he contrived to hinder her yet more. Still
she kept near enough to Cosmo to prevent the grieve from saying
much, and by and by he left her.

When they dropped work for the night, he would have accompanied her
home, but she never left Cosmo’s side, and they went away together.

“Aggie,” said Cosmo, as soon as there was no one within hearing, “I
dinna like that chield hingin’ aboot ye--glowerin’ at ye as gien he
wad ate ye.”

“He winna du that, Cosmo; he’s ceevil eneuch.”

“Ye sud hae seen sae rouch as he was to Grizzie!”

“Grizzie’s some rouch hersel’ whiles,” remarked Aggie quietly.

“That’s ower true,” assented Cosmo; “but a man sud never behave
like that til a wuman.”

“Say that to the man,” rejoined Aggie. “The wuman can haud aff o’
hersel’.”

“Grizzie, I grant ye, ’s mair nor a match for ony man; but ye’re no
sae lang i’ the tongue, Aggie.”

“Think ye a lang tongue ’s a lass’s safety, Cosmo? I wad awe nane
til ’t! But what’s ta’en ye the nicht, ’at ye speyk to me sae? I ken
no occasion.”

“Aggie, I wadna willin’ly say a word to vex ye,” answered Cosmo;
“but I hae notit an h’ard ’at the best ’o wuman whiles tak
oonaccootable fancies to men no fit to haud a can’le to them.”

Aggie turned her head aside.

“I wad ill like you, for instance, to be drawn to yon Crawford,” he
went on. “It’s eneuch to me ’at he’s been lang the factotum o’ an
ill man.”

A slight convulsive movement passed across Aggie’s face, leaving
behind it a shadow of hurtless resentment, yielding presently to a
curious smile.

“I micht mak a better man o’ ’im,” she said, and again looked away.

“They a’ think that, I’m thinkin’!” returned Cosmo with a sad
bitterness. “An’ sae they wull, to the warl’s en’.--But, Aggie,” he
added, after a pause, “ye ken ye’re no to be oonaiqually yokit.”

“That’s what I hae to heed, I ken,” murmured Aggie. “But what do ye
un’erstan’ by ’t, Cosmo? There’s nae worshippers o’ idols the noo,
as i’ the days whan the apostle said that.”

“There’s idols visible, an’ idols invisible,” answered Cosmo.
“There’s heaps o’ idols amo’ them ’at ca’s themsel’s an’ ’s coontit
christians. Gien a man set himsel’ to lay by siller, he’s the
worshipper o’ as oogly an idol as gien he said his prayers to the
fish-tailt god o’ the Philistines.”

“Weel I wat that!” returned Agnes, and a silence followed.

“You an’ me’s aye been true til ane anither, Aggie,” resumed Cosmo
at length, “an’ I wad fain hae a promise frae ye--jist to content
me.”

“What aboot, Cosmo?”

“Promise, an’ I’ll tell ye, as the bairnies say.”

“But we’re no bairnies, Cosmo, an’ I daurna--even to you ’at I wad
trust like the Bible. Tell me what it is, an’ gien I may, I wull.”

“It’s no muckle atween you an’ me, Aggie. It’s only this--’at gien
ever ye fa’ in love wi’ onybody, ye’ll lat me ken.”

Agnes was silent for a moment; then, with a tremble in her voice,
which in vain she sought to smooth out, and again turning her head
away, answered:

“Cosmo, I daurna.”

“I want naething mair,” said Cosmo, thinking she must have
misapprehended, “nor the promise ’at what ye ken I sail ken. I wad
fain be wi’ ye at sic a time.”

“Cosmo,” said Aggie with much solemnity, “there’s ane at’s aye at
han’, ane that sticketh closer nor a brither. The thing ye require
o’ me, micht be what a lass could tell to nane but the father o’
her--him ’at’s in haiven.”

Cosmo was silenced, as indeed it was time and reason he should be;
for had she been his daughter, he would have had no right to make
such a request of her. He did it in all innocence, and might well
have asked her to tell him, but not to promise to tell him. He did
not yet understand however that he was wrong, and was the more
troubled about her, feeling as if, for the first time in their
lives, Aggie and he had begun to be divided.

They entered the kitchen. Aggie hastened to help Grizzie lay the
cloth for supper. Her grandfather looked up with a smile from the
newspaper he was reading in the window. The laird, who had an old
book in his hand, called out,

“Here, Cosmo! jist hearken to this bit o’ wisdom, my man--frae a
hert doobtless praisin’ God this mony a day in higher warl’s:--‘He
that would always know before he trusts, who would have from his
God a promise before he will expect, is the slayer of his own
eternity.’”

The words mingled strangely with what had just passed between him
and Agnes. Both they and that gave him food for thought, but could
not keep him awake.

The bailiff continued to haunt the goings and comings of Agnes, but
few supposed his attentions acceptable to her. Cosmo continued more
and less uneasy.

The harvest was over at length, and the little money earned mostly
laid aside for the sad winter, once more on its way. But no good
hope dies without leaving a child, a younger and fresher hope,
behind it. The year’s fruit must fall that the next year’s may
come, and the winter is the only way to the spring.




CHAPTER XLV.

THE FINAL CONFLICT.


As there was no more weekly pay for teaching, and no extra hands
were longer wanted for farm-labour, Cosmo, hearing there was a
press of work and a scarcity of workmen in the building-line,
offered his services, at what wages he should upon trial judge them
worth, to Sandy Shand, the mason, then erecting a house in the
village for a certain Mr. Pennycuik--a native of the same, who,
having left it long ago, and returned from India laden with riches,
now desired, if not to end, yet to spend his days amid the
associations of his youth. Upon this house, his offer accepted,
Cosmo laboured, now doing the work of a mason, now of a carpenter,
and receiving fair wages, until such time when the weather put a
stop to all but in-door work of the kind. But the strange thing
was, that, instead of reaping golden opinions for his readiness to
turn his hand to anything honest by which he could earn a shilling,
Cosmo became in consequence the object of endless blame--that a
young man of his abilities, with a college-education, should spend
his time--_waste_ it, people said--at home, pottering about at work
that was a disgrace to a gentleman, instead of going away and
devoting himself to some _honourable calling_. “Look at Mr.
Pennycuik!” they said. “See how he has raised himself in the social
scale, and that without one of the young laird’s advantages! There
he stands, a rich man and employer of labour, while the
poor-spirited gentleman is one of his hired labourers!” Such is the
mean idea most men have of the self-raising that is the duty of a
man! They speak after their kind, putting ambition in the place of
aspiration. Not knowing the spirit they were of, these would have
had Cosmo say to his father, _Korban_. They knew nothing of, and were
incapable of taking into the account certain moral refinements and
delicate difficulties entailed upon him by that father, such as
might indeed bring him to beggary, but could never allow him to
gather riches like those of Mr. Pennycuik. Like his father he had a
holy weakness for the purity that gives alms of the things within
us. If there is one thing a Christian soul recoils from, it is
meanness--of action, of thought, of judgment. What a heaven some
must think to be saved into! At the same time Cosmo would not have
left his father to make a fortune the most honourable.

Through stress of weather, Cosmo was therefore thrown back once
more upon his writing. But still, whether it was that there was too
little of Grizzie or too much of himself in these later stories,
his work seemed to have lost either the power or the peculiarity
that had recommended it. Things therefore did not look promising.
But they had a fair stock of oatmeal laid in, and that was the
staff of life, also a tolerable supply of fuel, which neighbours
had lent them horses to bring from the peat-moss.

With the cold weather the laird began again to fail, and Cosmo to
fear that this would be the last of the good man’s winters. As the
best protection from the cold he betook himself to bed, and Cosmo
spent his life almost in the room, reading aloud when the old man
was able to listen, and reading to himself or writing when he was
not. The other three of the household were mostly in the kitchen,
saving fuel, and keeping each other company. And thus the little
garrison awaited the closer siege of the slow-beleaguering winter,
most of them in their hearts making themselves strong to resist the
more terrible enemies which all winter-armies bring flying on their
flanks--the haggard fiends of doubt and dismay--which creep through
the strongest walls. To trust in spite of the look of being
forgotten; to keep crying out into the vast whence comes no voice,
and where seems no hearing; to struggle after light, where is no
glimmer to guide; at every turn to find a doorless wall, yet ever
seek a door; to see the machinery of the world pauseless grinding
on as if self-moved, caring for no life, nor shifting a
hair’s-breadth for all entreaty, and yet believe that God is awake
and utterly loving; to desire nothing but what comes meant for us
from his hand; to wait patiently, willing to die of hunger, fearing
only lest faith should fail--such is the victory that overcometh
the world, such is faith indeed. After such victory Cosmo had to
strive and pray hard, sometimes deep sunk in the wave while his
father floated calm on its crest: the old man’s discipline had been
longer; a continuous communion had for many years been growing
closer between him and the heart whence he came.

“As I lie here, warm and free of pain,” he said once to his son,
“expecting the redemption of my body, I cannot tell you how happy I
am. I cannot think how ever in my life I feared anything. God knows
it was my obligation to others that oppressed me, but now, in my
utter incapacity, I am able to trust him with my honour, and my
duty, as well as my sin.”

“Look here, Cosmo,” he said another time; “I had temptations such
as you would hardly think, to better my worldly condition, and
redeem the land of my ancestors, and the world would have
commended, not blamed me, had I yielded. But my God was with me all
the time, and I am dying a poorer man than my father left me,
leaving you a poorer man still, but, praised be God, an honest one.
Be very sure, my son, God is the only adviser to be trusted, and
you must do what he tells you, even if it lead you to a stake, to
be burned by the slow fire of poverty.--O my Father!” cried the old
man, breaking out suddenly in prayer, “my soul is a flickering
flame of which thou art the eternal, inextinguishable fire. I am
blessed because thou art. Because thou art life, I live. Nothing
can hurt me, because nothing can hurt thee. To thy care I leave my
son, for thou lovest him as thou hast loved me. Deal with him as
thou hast dealt with me. I ask for nothing, care for nothing but
thy will. Strength is gone from me, but my life is hid in thee. I
am a feeble old man, but I am dying into the eternal day of thy
strength.”

Cosmo stood and listened with holy awe and growing faith. For what
can help our faith like the faith of the one we most love, when,
sorely tried, it is yet sound and strong!

But there was still one earthy clod clinging to the heart of Cosmo.
There was no essential evil in it, yet not the less it held him
back from the freedom of the man who, having parted with
everything, possesses all things. The place, the things, the
immediate world in which he was born and had grown up, crowded with
the memories and associations of childhood and youth, amongst them
the shadowy loveliness of Lady Joan, had a hold of his heart that
savoured of idolatry. The love was born in him, had come down into
him through generation after generation of ancestors, had a power
over him for whose existence he was not accountable, but for whose
continuance, as soon as he became aware of its existence, he would
know himself accountable. For Cosmo was not one of those weaklings
who, finding in themselves certain tendencies with whose existence
they had nothing to do, and therefore in whose presence they have
no blame, say to themselves, “I cannot help it,” and at once create
evil, and make it their own, by obeying the inborn impulse.
Inheritors of a lovely estate, with a dragon in a den, which they
have to kill that the brood may perish, they make friends with the
dragon, and so think to save themselves trouble.

But I would not be misunderstood: I do not think Cosmo loved his
home too much; I only think he did not love it enough in God. To
love a thing divinely, is to be ready to yield it without a pang
when God wills it; but to Cosmo, the thought of parting with the
house of his fathers and the rag of land that yet remained to it,
was torture. This hero of mine, instead of sleeping the perfect
sleep of faith, would lie open-eyed through half the night,
hatching scheme after scheme--not for the redemption of the
property--even to him that seemed hopeless--but for the retention
of the house. Might it not at least go to ruin under eyes that
loved it, and with the ministration of tender hands that yet could
not fast enough close the slow-yawning chasms of decay? His dream
haunted him, and he felt that, if it came true, he would rather
live in the dungeon wine-cellar of the mouldering mammoth-tooth,
than forsake the old stones to live elsewhere in a palace. The love
of his soul for Castle Warlock was like the love of the Psalmist
for Jerusalem: when he looked on a stone of its walls, it was dear
to him. But the love of Jerusalem became an idolatry, for the Jews
no longer loved it because the living God dwelt therein, but
because it was _theirs_, and then it was doomed, for it was an idol.
The thing was somewhat different with Cosmo: the house was almost a
part of himself--an extension of his own body, as much his as the
shell of a snail is his. But because into this shell were not
continued those nerves of life which give the consciousness of the
body, and there was therefore no reaction from it of those feelings
of weakness and need which, to such a man as Cosmo, soon reveal the
fact that he is not lord of his body, that he cannot add to it one
cubit, or make one hair white or black, and must therefore leave
the care of it to him who made it, he had to learn in other ways
that his castle of stone was God’s also. His truth and humility and
love had not yet reached to the quickening of the idea of the old
house with the feeling that God was in it with him, giving it to
him. Not yet possessing therefore the soul of the house, its
greatest bliss, which nothing could take from him, he naturally
could not be content to part with it. It seemed an impossibility
that it should be taken from him--a wrong to things, to men, to
nature, that a man like Lick-my-loof should obtain the lordship
over it. As he lay in the night, in the heart of the old pile, and
heard the wind roaring about its stone-mailed roofs, the thought of
losing it would sting him almost to madness,--hurling him from his
bed to the floor, to pace up and down the room, burning, in the
coldest midnight of winter, like one of the children in the fiery
furnace, only the furnace was of worse fire, being the wrath which
worketh not the righteousness of God.

Suddenly one such night he became aware that he could not
pray--that in this mood he never prayed. In every other trouble he
prayed--felt it the one natural thing to pray! Why not in this?
Something must be wrong--terribly wrong!

It was a stormy night; the snow-burdened wind was raving; and Cosmo
would have been striding about the room but that now he was in his
father’s, and dreaded disturbing him. He lay still, with a stone on
his heart, for he was now awake to the fact that he could not say,
“Thy will be done.” He tried sore to lift up his heart, but could
not. Something rose ever between him and his God, and beat back his
prayer. A thick fog was about him--no air wherewith to make a cry!
In his heart not one prayer would come to life; it was like an old
nest without bird or egg in it.

It was too terrible! Here was a schism at the very root of his
being. The love of things was closer to him than the love of God.
Between him and God rose the rude bulk of a castle of stone! He
crept out of bed, laid himself on his face on the floor, and prayed
in an agony. The wind roared and howled, but the desolation in his
heart made of the storm a mere play of the elements. How few of my
readers will understand even the possibility of such a state! How
many of them will scorn the idea of it, as that of a man on the
high road to insanity!

“God,” he cried, “I thought I knew thee, and sought thy will; and I
have sought thy will in greater things than this wherein I now lie
ashamed before thee. I cannot even pray to thee. But hear thou the
deepest will in me, which, thou knowest, must bow before thine,
when once thou hast uttered it. Hear the prayer I cannot offer. Be
my perfect Father to fulfil the imperfection of thy child. Be God
after thy own nature, beyond my feeling, beyond my
prayer--according to that will in me which now, for all my trying,
refuses to awake and arise from the dead. O Christ, who knowest me
better a thousand times than I know myself, whose I am, divinely
beyond my notions of thee and me, hear and save me eternally, out
of thy eternal might whereby thou didst make me and give thyself to
me. Make me strong to yield all to thee. I have no way of
confessing thee before men, but in the depth of my thought I would
confess thee, yielding everything but the truth, which is thyself;
and therefore, even while my heart hangs back, I force my mouth to
say the words--_Take from me what thou wilt, only make me clean,
pure, divine._ To thee I yield the house and all that is in it. It
is thine, not mine. Give it to whom thou wilt. I would have nothing
but what thou choosest shall be mine. I have thee, and all things
are mine.”

Thus he prayed, thus he strove with a reluctant heart, forcing its
will by the might of a deeper will, that _would_ be for God and
freedom, in spite of the cleaving of his soul to the dust.

Then for a time thought ceased in exhaustion. When it returned, lo!
he was in peace, in the heart of a calm unspeakable. How it came he
could not tell, for he had not been aware of its approach; but the
contest was over, and in a few minutes he was fast asleep--ten
times his own because a thousand times another’s--one with him whom
all men in one could not comprehend, whom yet the heart of every
true child lays hold upon and understands.

I would not have it supposed that, although the crisis was past,
there was no more stormy weather.

Often it blew a gale--often a blast would come creeping in--almost
always in the skirts of the hope that God would never require such
a sacrifice of him. But he never again found he could not pray.
Recalling the strife and the great peace, he made haste to his
master, compelling the refractory slave in his heart to be free,
and cry, “Do thy will, not mine.” Then would the enemy withdraw,
and again he breathed the air of the eternal.

When a man comes to the point that he will no longer receive
anything save from the hands of him who has the right to withhold,
and in whose giving alone lies the value of possession, then is he
approaching the inheritance of the saints in light, of those whose
strength is made perfect in weekness. But there are those who for
the present it is needless to trouble any more than the chickens
about the yard. Their hour will come, and in the meantime they are
counted the fortunate ones of the earth.




CHAPTER XLVI.

A REST.


But now James Gracie fell sick. They removed him therefore from the
men’s quarters, and gave him Cosmo’s room, that he might be better
attended to, and warmer than in his own. Cosmo put up a bed for
himself in his father’s room, and Grizzie and Aggie slept together;
so now the household was gathered literally under one roof--that of
the kitchen-tower, as it had been called for centuries.

James’s attack was serious, requiring much attention, and involving
an increase of expenditure which it needed faith to face. But of
course Cosmo did not shrink from it: so long as his money lasted,
his money should go. James himself objected bitterly to such waste,
as he called it, saying what remained of his life was not worth it.
But the laird, learning the mood the old man was in, rose, and
climbed the stair, and stood before his bed, and said to him
solemnly, “Jeames, wha are ye to tell the Lord it’s time he sud tak
ye? what _kin’_ o’ faith is ’t, to refuse a sup, ’cause ye see na
anither spunefu’ upo’ the ro’d ahin’ ’t?”

James hid his old face in his old hands. The laird went back to his
bed, and nothing more ever passed on the subject.

The days went on, the money ran fast away, no prospect appeared of
more, but still they had enough to eat.

One morning in the month of January, still and cold, and dark
overhead, a cheerless day in whose bosom a storm was coming to
life, Cosmo, sitting at his usual breakfast of _brose_, the simplest
of all preparations of oatmeal, bethought himself whether some of
the curiosities in the cabinets in the drawing-room might not, with
the help of his friend the jeweller, be turned to account. Not
waiting to finish his breakfast, for which that day he had but
little relish, he rose and went at once to examine the family
treasures in the light of necessity.

The drawing-room felt freezing-dank like a tomb, and looked weary
of its memories. It was so still that it seemed as if sound would
die in it. Not a mouse stirred. The few pictures on the walls
looked perishing with cold and changelessness. The very shine of
the old damask was wintry. But Cosmo did not long stand gazing. He
crossed to one of the shrines of his childhood’s reverence, opened
it, and began to examine the things with the eye of a seller. Once
they had seemed treasures inestimable, now he feared they might
bring him nothing in his sore need. Scarce a sorrow at the thought
of parting with them woke in him, as one after another he set those
aside, and took these from their places and put them on a table. He
was like a miner searching for golden ore, not a miser whom hunger
had dominated. The sole question with him was, would this or that
bring money. When he had gone through the cabinet, he turned from
it to regard what he had found. There was a dagger in a sheath of
silver of raised work, with a hilt cunningly wrought of the same; a
goblet of iron with a rich pattern in gold beaten into it; a
snuff-box with a few diamonds set round a monogram in gold in the
lid: these, with several other smaller things that had an air of
promise about them, he thought it might be worth while to make the
trial with, and packed them carefully, thinking to take them at
once to Muir of Warlock, and commit them to the care of the
carrier. But when he returned to his father, he found he had been
missing him, and put off going till the next day.

As the sun went down, the wind rose, and the storm in the bosom of
the stillness came to life--the worst of that winter. It reminded
both father and son of the terrible night when Lord Mergwain went
out into the deep. The morning came, fierce with gray cold age, a
tumult of wind and snow. There seemed little chance the carrier
would go for days to come. But the storm might have been more
severe upon their hills than in the opener country, and Cosmo would
go and see. Certain things too had to be got for the invalids.

It was with no small difficulty he made his way through the snow to
the village, and there also he found it so deep, that the question
would have been how to get the cart out of the shed, not whether
the horses were likely to get it through the Glens o’ Fowdlan. He
left the parcel therefore with the carrier’s wife, and proceeded,
somewhat sad at heart, to spend the last of his money, amounting to
half-a-crown. Having done so, he set out for home, the wind
blowing fierce, and the snow falling thick.

Just outside the village he met a miserable-looking woman, with a
child in her arms. How she came to be there he could not think. She
moved him with the sense of community in suffering: hers was the
greater share, and he gave her the twopence he had left. Prudence
is but one of the minor divinities, if indeed she be anything
better than the shadow of a virtue, and he took no counsel with
her, knowing that the real divinity, Love, would not cast him out
for the deed. The widow who gave the two mites was by no means a
prudent person. Upon a certain ancient cabinet of carved oak is
represented _Charity_, gazing at the child she holds on her arm, and
beside her _Prudence_, regarding herself in a mirror.

Cosmo had not gone far, battling with wind and snow above and
beneath, before he began to feel his strength failing him. It had
indeed been failing for some time. Grizzie knew, although he
himself did not, that he had not of late been eating so well; and
he had never quite recovered his exertions in Lord Lick-my-loof’s
harvest-fields. Now, for the first time in his life, he began to
find his strength unequal to elemental war. But he laughed at the
idea, and held on. The wind was right in his face, and the cold was
bitter. Nor was there within him, though plenty of courage, good
spirits enough to supply any lack of physical energy. His breath
grew short, and his head began to ache. He longed for home that he
might lie down and breathe, but a long way and a great snowy wind
were betwixt him and rest. He fell into a reverie, and seemed to
get on better for not thinking about the exertion he had to make.
The monotony of it at the same time favoured the gradual absorption
of his thoughts in a dreamy meditation. Alternately sunk in himself
for minutes, and waking for a moment to the consciousness of what
was around him, he had walked, as it seemed, for hours, and at
length, all notion of time and distance gone, began to wonder
whether he must not be near the place where the parish-road turned
off. He stood, and sent sight into his eyes, but nothing was to be
seen through the drift save more drift behind it. Was he upon the
road at all? He sought this way and that, but could find neither
ditch nor dyke. He was lost! He knew well the danger of sitting
down, knew on the other hand that the more exhausted he was when he
succumbed, the sooner would the cold get the better of him, and
that even now he might be wandering from the abodes of men,
diminishing with every step the likelihood of being found. He
turned his back to the wind and stood--how long he did not know,
but while he stood thus ’twixt waking and sleeping, he received a
heavy blow on the head--or so it seemed--from something soft. It
dazed him, and the rest was like a dream, in which he walked on and
on for ages, falling and rising again, following something, he
never knew what. There all memory of consciousness ceased. He came
to himself in bed.

Aggie was the first to get anxious about him. They had expected him
home to dinner, and when it began to grow dark and he had not come,
she could bear it no longer, and set out to meet him. But she had
not far to go, for she had scarcely left the kitchen-door when she
saw some one leaning over the gate. Through the gathering twilight
and the storm she could distinguish nothing more, but she never
doubted it was the young laird, though whether in the body or out
of it she did doubt not a little. She hurried to the gate, and
found him standing between it and the wall. She thought at first he
was dead, for there came no answer when she spoke; but presently
she heard him murmur something about conic sections. She opened the
gate gently. He would have fallen as it yielded, but she held him.
Her touch seemed to bring him a little to himself. She supported
and encouraged him; he obeyed her, and she succeeded in getting him
into the house. It was long ere Grizzie and she could make him warm
before the kitchen-fire, but at last he came to himself
sufficiently to walk up the stairs to bed, though afterwards he
remembered nothing of it.

He was recovering before they let the laird understand in what a
dangerous plight Aggie had found him, but the moment he learned
that his son was ailing, the old man seemed to regain a portion of
his strength. He rose from his bed, and for the two days and three
nights during which Cosmo was feverish and wandering, slept only in
snatches. On the third day Cosmo himself persuaded him to return to
his bed.

The women had now their hands full--all the men in the house laid
up, and they two only to do everything! The first night, when they
had got Cosmo comfortable in bed, and had together gone down again
to the kitchen, in the middle of the floor they stopped, and looked
at each other: their turn had come! They understood each other, and
words were needless. Each had saved a little money--and now no
questions would be asked! Aggie left the room and came back with
her store, which she put into Grizzie’s hand. Grizzie laid it on
the table, went in her turn to her box, brought thence her store,
laid it on the other, took both up, closed her hands over them,
shook them together, murmured over them, like an incantation, the
words, “It’s nae mair mine, an’ it’s nae mair thine, but belangs to
a’, whatever befa’,” and put all in her pocket under her winsey
petticoat. Thence, for a time, the invalids wanted nothing--after
the moderate ideas of need, that is, ruling in the house.

When Cosmo came to himself on the third day, he found that self
possessed by a wondrous peace. It was as if he were dead, and had
to rest till his strength, exhausted with dying, came back to him.
Bodiless he seemed, and without responsibility of action, with that
only of thought. Those verses in _The Ancient Mariner_ came to him as
if he spoke them for himself:

  “I thought that I had died in sleep,
  And was a blessed ghost.”

His soul was calm and trusting like that of a bird on her eggs, who
knows her one grand duty in the economy of the creation is repose.
How it was he never could quite satisfy himself, but, remembering
he had spent their last penny, he yet felt no anxiety; neither,
when Grizzie brought him food, felt inclination to ask her how she
had procured it. The atmosphere was that of the fairy-palace of his
childish visions, only his feelings were more solemn, and the
fairy, instead of being beautiful, was--well, was dear old Grizzie.
His sole concern was his father, and the cheerful voice that
invariably answered his every inquiry was sufficient reassurance.

For three days more he lay in a kind of blessed lethargy, with
little or no suffering. He fancied he could not recover, nor did he
desire to recover, but to go with his father to the old world, and
learn its ways from his mother. In his half slumbers he seemed ever
to be gently floating down a great gray river, on which thousands
more were likewise floating, each by himself, some in canoes, some
in boats, some in the water without even an oar; every now and then
one would be lifted and disappear, none saw how, but each knew that
his turn would come, when he too would be laid hold of; in the
meantime all floated helpless onward, some full of alarm at the
unknown before them, others indifferent, and some filled with
solemn expectation; he himself floated on gently waiting: the
unseen hand would come with the hour, and give him to his mother.

On the seventh day he began to regard the things around him with
some interest, began to be aware of returning strength, and the
approach of duty: presently he must rise, and do his part to keep
things going! Still he felt no anxiety, for the alarum of duty had
not yet called him. And now, as he lay passive to the influences of
restoring strength, his father from his bed would tell him old
tales he had heard from his grandmother; and sometimes they made
Grizzie sit between the two beds, and tell them stories she had
heard in her childhood. Her stock seemed never exhausted. Now one,
now the other would say, “There, Grizzie! I never heard that
before!” and Grizzie would answer, “I daursay no, sir. Hoo sud ye
than? I had forgotten ’t mysel’!”

Here is one of the stories Grizzie told them.

“In a cauld how, far amo’ the hills, whaur the winter was a sair
thing, there leevit an honest couple, a man ’at had a gey lot o’
sheep, an’ his wife--fowk weel aff in respec’ o’ this warl’s gear,
an’ luikit up til amo’ the neebours, but no to be envyed, seein’
they had lost a’ haill bonny faimily, ane efter the ither, till
there was na ane left i’ the hoose but jist ae laddie, the bonniest
an’ the best o’ a’, an’ as a maitter o’ coorse, the verra aipple o’
their e’e.--Amo’ the three o’ ’s laird,” here Grizzie paused in her
tale to remark, “Ye’ll be the only ane ’at can fully un’erstan’ hoo
the hert o’ a parent maun cleave to the last o’ his flock.--Weel,
whether it was ’at their herts was ower muckle wrappit up i’ this
ae human cratur for the growth o’ their sowls, I dinna ken--there
bude to be some rizzon for ’t--this last ane o’ a’ begud in his turn
to dwine an’ dwin’le like the lave; an’ whaurever thae twa puir
fowk turnt themsel’s i’ their pangs, there stude deith, glowerin’
at them oot o’ his toom e’en. Pray they did, ye may be sure, an’
greit whan a’ was mirk, but prayers nor tears made nae differ; the
bairn was sent for, an’ awa’ the bairn maun gang. An’ whan at
len’th he lay streekit in his last clean claes till the robe o’
richteousness ’at wants na washin’ was put upon ’im, what cud they
but think the warl’ was dune for them!

“But the warl’ maun wag, though the hert may sag; an’ whan the deid
lies streekit, there’s a hoose to be theekit. An’ the freens an’
the neebours gaithert frae near an’ frae far, till there was a
heap o’ fowk i’ the hoose, come to the beeryin’ o’ the bonny bairn.
An’ fowk maun ait an’ live nane the less ’at the maitter they come
upo’ be deith; an’ sae the nicht afore the yerdin’, their denner
the neist day whan they cam back frae the grave, had to be
foreordeent.

“It was i’ the spring-time o’ the year, unco late i’ thae pairts.
The maist o’ the lambs hed come, but the storms war laith to lea’
the laps o’ the hills, an’ lang efter it begud to be something like
weather laicher doon, the sheep cudna be lippent oot to pick their
bit mait for themsel’s, but had to be keepit i’ the cot. Sae to the
cot the gudeman wad gang, to fess hame a lamb for the freens an’
the neebours’ denners. An’ as it fell oot, it was a fearsome nicht
o’ win’ an’ drivin’ snaw--waur, I wad reckon, nor onything we hae
hereawa’. But he turnt na aside for win’ or snaw, for little cared
he what cam til ’im or o’ ’im, wi’ sic a how in his hert. O’ the
contrar’, the storm was like a freenly cloak til ’s grief, for upo’
the ro’d he fell a greitin’ an’ compleenin’ an’ lamentin’ lood,
jeedgin’ nae doobt, gien he thoucht at a’, he micht du as he likit
wi’ naebody nigh. To the sheep cot, I say, he gaed wailin’ an’
cryin’ alood efter bonny bairn, the last o’ his flock, oontimeous
his taen.

“Half blin’ wi’ the nicht an’ the snaw an’ his ain tears, he cam at
last to the door o’ the sheep-cot. An’ what sud he see there but a
man stan’in’ afore the door--straucht up, an’ still i’ the mirk! It
was ’maist fearsome to see onybody there--sae far frae ony
place--no to say upo’ sic a nicht! The stranger was robed in some
kin’ o’ a plaid, like the gude-man himsel’, but whether a lowlan’
or a hielan’ plaid, he cudna tell. But the face o’ the man--that
was ane no to be forgotten--an’ that for the verra freenliness o’
’t! An’ whan he spak, it was as gien a’ the v’ices o’ them ’at had
gane afore, war mad up intil ane, for the sweetness an’ the pooer
o’ the same.

“‘What mak ye here in sic a storm, man?’ he said. An’ the soon’ o’
his v’ice was aye safter nor the words o’ his mooth.

“‘I come for a lamb,’ answered he.

“‘What kin’ o’ a lamb?’ askit the stranger.

“‘The verra best I can lay my han’s upo’ i’ the cot,’ answered he,
‘for it’s to lay afore my freens and neebours. I houp, sir, ye’ll
come hame wi’ me an’ share o’ ’t. Ye s’ be welcome.’

“‘Du yer sheep mak ony resistance whan ye tak the lamb? or whan
it’s gane, du they mak an ootcry?’

“‘No, sir--never.’

“The stranger gae a kin’ o’ a sigh, an’ says he,

“‘That’s no hoo they trait me! Whan I gang to my sheep-fold, an’
tak the best an’ the fittest, my ears are deavt an’ my hert torn
wi’ the clamours--the bleatin’, an’ ba’in’ o’ my sheep--my ain
sheep! compleenin’ sair agen me;--an’ me feedin’ them, an’ cleedin’
them, an’ haudin’ the tod frae them, a’ their lives, frae the first
to the last! It’s some oongratefu’, an’ some sair to bide.’

“By this time the man’s heid was hingin’ doon; but whan the v’ice
ceased, he luikit up in amaze. The stranger was na there. Like ane
in a dream wharvin he kenned na joy frae sorrow, or pleesur frae
pain, the man gaed into the cot, an’ grat ower the heids o’ the
’oo’y craters ’at cam croodin’ aboot ’im; but he soucht the best
lamb nane the less, an’ cairriet it wi’ ’im. An’ the next day he
cam hame frae the funeral wi’ a smile upo’ the face whaur had been
nane for mony a lang; an’ the neist Sunday they h’ard him singin’
i’ the kirk as naebody had ever h’ard him sing afore. An’ never
frae that time was there a moan or complaint to be h’ard frae the
lips o’ aither o’ the twa. They hadna a bairn to close their e’en
whan their turn sud come, but whaur there’s nane ahin’, there’s the
mair to fin’.”

Grizzie ceased, and the others were silent, for the old legend had
touched the deepest in them.

Many years after, Cosmo discovered that she had not told it quite
right, for having been brought up in the Lowlands, she did not
thoroughly know the ancient customs of the Highlands. But she had
told it well after her own fashion, and she could not have had a
fitter audience. [Footnote: See Mrs. Grant’s Essays on the
Superstitions of the Highlanders.]

“It’s whiles i’ the storm, whiles i’ the desert, whiles i’ the
agony, an’ whiles i’ the calm, whaurever he gets them richt them
lanes, ’at the Lord visits his people--in person, as a body micht
say,” remarked the laird, after a long pause.

Cosmo did not get well so fast as he had begun to expect. Nothing
very definite seemed the matter with him; it was rather as if life
itself had been checked at the spring, therefore his senses dulled,
and his blood made thick and slow. A sleepy weariness possessed
him, in which he would lie for hours, supine and motionless,
desiring nothing, fearing nothing, suffering nothing, only loving.
The time would come when he must be up and doing, but now he would
not think of work; he would fancy himself a bird in God’s nest--the
nest into which the great brother would have gathered all the
children of Jerusalem. Poems would come to him--little songs and
little prayers--spiritual butterflies, with wings whose spots
matched; sometimes humorous little parables concerning life and its
affairs would come; but the pity was that none of them would stay;
never, do what he might, could he remember so as to recall one of
them, and had to comfort himself with the thought that nothing true
can ever be lost; if one form of it go, it is that a better may
come in its place. He doubted if the best could be forgotten. A
thing may be invaluable, he thought, and the form in which it
presents itself worth but little, however at the moment it may
share the look of the invaluable within it. But happy is the
half-sleeper whose brain is a thoroughfare for lovely things--all
to be caught in the nets of Life, for Life is the one miser that
never loses, never can lose.

When he was able to get up for a while every day, Grizzie yielded a
portion of her right of nursing to Aggie, and now that he was able
to talk a little, the change was a pleasant one. And now first the
laird began to discover how much there was in Aggie, and expressing
his admiration of her knowledge and good sense, her intellect and
insight, was a little surprised that Cosmo did not seem so much
struck with them as himself. Cosmo, however, explained that her
gifts were no discovery to him, as he had been aware of them from
childhood.

“There are few like her, father,” he said. “Mony’s the time she’s
hauden me up whan I was ready to sink.”

“The Lord reward her!” responded the laird.

All sicknesses are like aquatic plants of evil growth: their hour
comes, and they wither and die, and leave the channels free. Life
returns--in slow, soft ripples at first, but not the less in
irresistible tide, and at last in pulses of mighty throb through
every pipe. Death is the final failure of all sickness, the
clearing away of the very soil in which the seed of the ill plant
takes root and prevails.

By degrees Cosmo recovered strength, nor left behind him the peace
that had pervaded his weakness. The time for action was at hand.
For weeks he had been fed like the young ravens in the nest, and,
knowing he could do nothing, had not troubled himself with the
useless _how_; but it was time once more to understand, that he might
be ready to act. Mechanically almost, he opened his bureau: there
was not a penny there. He knew there could not be--except some
angel had visited it while he lay, and that he had not looked for.
He closed it, and sat down to think. There was no work to be had he
knew of; there was little strength to do it with, had there been
any. As the spring came on, there would be labour in the fields,
and that he would keep in view, but the question was of present or
all but present need. One thing only he would not do. There were
many in the country around on friendly terms with his father and
himself, but his very soul revolted from any endeavour to borrow
money while he saw no prospect of repaying it. He would carry the
traditions of his family no further in that direction. Literally,
he would rather die. But rather than his father should want, he
would beg. “Where borrowing is dishonest,” he said to himself,
“begging may be honourable. The man who scorns to accept a gift of
money, and does not scruple to borrow, knowing no chance of
repaying, is simply a thief; the man who has no way of earning the
day’s bread, _has a divine right to beg_.” In Cosmo’s case, however,
there was this difficulty: he could easily make a living of some
sort, would he but leave his father, and that he was determined not
to do. Before absolute want could arrive, they must have parted
with everything, and then he would take him to some city or town,
where they two would live like birds in a cage. No; he was not
ready yet to take his _pack_ and make the rounds of the farm-houses
to receive from each his dole of a handful of meal! Something must
be possible! But then again, what?

Once more he fell a thinking; but it was only to find himself again
helplessly afloat where no shore of ways or means was visible.
Nothing but beggary in fact, and that for the immediate future,
showed in sight. Could it be that God verily intended for him this
last humiliation of all? But again, would such humiliation be equal
to that under which they had bowed for so many long years--the
humiliation of owing and not being able to pay? What a man gives,
he gives, but what a man lends, he lends expecting to be repaid! A
beggar may be under endless obligation, but a debtor who cannot pay
is a slave! He may be God’s free man all the while--that depends on
causes and conditions, but not the less is he his fellow’s slave!
His slavery may be to him a light burden, or a sickening misery,
according to the character of his creditor--but, except indeed
there be absolute brotherhood between them, he is all the same a
slave!

Again the immediately practical had vanished, lost in reasoning,
and once more he tried to return to it. But it was like trying to
see through a brick wall. No man can invent needs for others that
he may supply them. To write again to Mr. Burns would be too near
the begging on which he had not yet resolved. He never suspected
that the parcel he had left at the carrier’s house was lying there
still--safe in his wife’s press, under a summer-shawl! He could not
go to Mr. Simon, for he too was poor, and had now for some time
been far from well, fears being by the doctor acknowledged as to
the state of his lungs. He would go without necessaries even to
help them, and that was an insurmountable reason against
acquainting him with their condition!

All at once a thought came to him: why should he not, for present
need, pledge the labour of his body in the coming harvest? That
would be but to act on a reasonable probability, nor need he be
ashamed to make the offer to any man who knew him enough to be
friendly. He would ask but a part of the fee in advance, and a
charitable or kindly disposed man would surely venture the amount
of risk involved! True, when the time came he might be as much in
want of money as he was now, and there would be little or none to
receive, but on the other hand, if he did not have help now, he
could never reach that want, and when he did, there might be other
help! Better beg then than now! He would make the attempt, and that
the first day he was strong enough to walk the necessary distance!
In the meantime, he would have a peep into the meal-chest!

It stood in a dark corner of the kitchen, and he had to put his
hand in to learn its condition. He found a not very shallow layer
of meal in the bottom. How there could be so much after his long
illness, he scarcely dared imagine. He must ask Grizzie, he said to
himself, but he shrank in his heart from questioning her.

There came now a spell of warm weather, and all the invalids
improved. Cosmo was able to go out, and every day had a little walk
by himself. Naturally he thought of the only other time in his life
when he first walked out after an illness. Joan had been so near
him then it scarce seemed anything could part them, and now she
seemed an eternity away! For months he had heard nothing of her.
She must be married, and, knowing well his feelings, must think it
kinder not to write! Then the justice of his soul turned to the
devotion of the two women who had in this trouble tended him,
though the half of it he did not yet know; and from that he turned
to the source of all devotion, and made himself strong in the
thought of the eternal love.

From that time, the weather continuing moderate, he made rapid
progress, and the week following judged himself equal to a long
walk.




CHAPTER XLVII.

HELP.


He had come to the resolve to carry his petition first to the
farmer in whose fields he had laboured the harvest before the last.
The distance was rather great, but he flattered himself he would be
able to walk home every night. In the present state of his
strength, however, he found it a long trudge indeed; and before the
house came in sight, was very weary. But he bore up and held on.

“I was almost as ill-off,” he said to himself, “when I came here
for work the first time, yet here I am--alive, and likely to work
again! It’s just like going on and on in a dream, wondering what we
are coming to next.”

He was shown into the parlour, and had not waited long when the
farmer came. He scarcely welcomed him, but by degrees his manner
grew more cordial. Still the coldness with which he had been
received caused Cosmo to hesitate, and a pause ensued. The farmer
broke it.

“Ye didna gie ’s the fawvour o’ yer company last hairst!” he said.
“I wad hae thought ye micht hae f’un’ yersel’ fully mair at hame
wi’ the like o’ us nor wi’ that ill-tongued vratch, Lord
Lick-my-loof! Nane o’ ’s tuik it ower weel ’at ye gied na ’s the
chance o’ yer guid company.”

This explained his reception, and Cosmo made haste in his turn to
explain his conduct.

“Ye may be sure,” he answered, “it gaed some agen the grain to seek
wark frae _him_, an’ I had no rizzon upon earth for no comin’ to you
first but that I didna want to be sae far, at nicht especially,
frae my father. He’s no the man he was.”

“Verra nait’ral!” responded the farmer heartily, and wondered in
himself whether any of his sons would have considered him so much.
“Weel,” he went on, “I’m jist relieved to un’erstan’ the thing; for
the lasses wad hae perswaudit me I hed gien ye some offence wi’ my
free-spoken w’y, whan I’m sure naething cud hae been far’er frae
the thoucht o’ my hert.”

“Indeed,” said Cosmo, half rising in his eagerness, “I assure you,
Mr. Henderson, there is not a man from whom I should be less ready
to imagine offence than yourself. I do not know how to express my
feeling of the kindness with which you always treated me. Nor could
I have given you a better proof that I mean what I say than by
coming to you first, the moment I was able for the walk, with the
request I have now to make. Will you engage me for the coming
harvest, and pay me a part of the fee in advance? I know it is a
strange request, and if you refuse it, I doubt if there is another
to whom I shall venture to make it. I confess also that I have been
very ill, but I am now fairly on the mend, and there is a long time
to recover my strength in before the harvest. To tell you the
truth, we are much in want of a little money at the castle. We are
not greatly in debt now, but we have lost all our land; and a
house, however good, won’t grow corn. Something in my mind tells me
that my father, unlikely as it may seem, will yet pay everything;
and anyhow we want to hold on as long as we can. I am sure, if you
were in our place, you would not be willing to part with the house
a moment before you were absolutely compelled.”

“But, laird,” said the farmer, who had listened with the utmost
attention, “hoo can the thing be, ’at amo’ a’ the great fowk ye hae
kent, there sud be nane to say, ‘Help yersel’? I canna un’erstan’
hoo the last o’ sic an auld faimily sud na hae a han’ held oot to
help them!”

“It is not so very hard to explain,” replied Cosmo. “Almost all my
father’s _old_ friends are dead or gone, and a man like him,
especially in straitened circumstances, does not readily make new
friends. Almost the only person he has been intimate with of late
years is Mr. Simon, whom I daresay you know. Then he has what many
people count peculiar notions--so peculiar, indeed, that I have
heard of some calling him a fool behind his back because he paid
themselves certain moneys his father owed them. I believe if he had
rich friends they would say it was no use trying to help such a
man.”

“Weel!” exclaimed the farmer, “it jist blecks me to ken hoo there
can be ony trowth i’ the Bible, whan a man like that comes sae near
to beggin’ his breid!”

“He is very near it, certainly,” assented Cosmo, “but why not he as
well as another?”

“’Cause they tell me the Bible says the richteous man sall never
come to beg his breid.”

“Well, _near_ is not _there_. But I fancy there must be a mistake. The
writer of one of the psalms--I do not know whether David or
another, says he never saw the righteous forsaken or his seed
begging bread; but though he may not have seen it, another may.”

“Weel, I fancy gien he hed, he wadna hae been lang in puttin’ a
stop til ’t! Laird, gien a sma’ maitter o’ fifty poun’ or sae wad
tide ye ower the trible--weel, ye cud pay me whan ye likit.”

It was a moment or two before Cosmo could speak. A long
conversation followed, rising almost to fierceness, certainly to
oaths, on the part of the farmer, because of Cosmo’s refusal to
accept the offered loan.

“I do see my way,” persisted Cosmo, “to paying for my wages with my
work, but I see it to nothing more. Lend me two pounds, Mr. Henderson,
on the understanding that I am to work it out in the
harvest, and I shall be debtor to your kindness to all eternity;
but more I cannot and will not accept.”

Grumbling heavily, the farmer at length handed him the two pounds,
but obstinately refused any written acknowledgment or agreement.

Neither of them knew that, all the time the friendly altercation
proceeded, there was Elsie listening at the door, her colour coming
and going like the shadows in a day of sun and wind. Entering at
its close she asked Cosmo to stop and take tea with them, and the
farmer following it up, he accepted the invitation, and indeed was
glad to make a good meal. Elsie was sorely disappointed that her
father had not succeeded in making him his debtor to a larger
extent, but the meal passed with pleasure to all, for the relief of
having two pounds in his pocket, and those granted with such
genuine kindness, put Cosmo in great spirits, and made him more
than usually agreeable. The old farmer wondered admiringly at the
spirit of the youth who in such hardship could yet afford to be
merry. But I cannot help thinking that a perfect faith would work
at last thorough good spirits, as well as everything else that is
good.

Cosmo sat with his kind neighbours till the gloaming began to fall.
When he rose to go, they all rose with him, and accompanied him
fully half-way home. When they took their leave of him, and he was
again alone, his heart grew so glad that, weak as he yet was, and
the mists rising along his path, he never felt the slightest chill,
but trudged cheerily on, praying and singing and _making_ all the
way, until at length he was surprised to find how short it had
been.

For a great part of it, after his friends left him, he had glimpses
now and then of some one before him that looked like Aggie, but the
distance between them gradually lengthened, and before he reached
home he had lost sight of her. When he entered the kitchen, Aggie
was there.

“Was yon you upo’ the ro’d afore me, Aggie?” he said.

“Ay, was ’t.”

“What for didna ye bide?”

“Ye had yer company the first half o’ the ro’d, an’ yer sangs the
last, an’ I didna think ye wantit me.”

So saying she went up the stair.

As Cosmo followed, he turned and put his hand into the meal-chest.
It was empty! There was not enough to make their supper. He smiled
in his heart, and said to himself,

“The links of the story hold yet! When one breaks, the world will
drift.”

Going up to his father, he had to pass the door of his own room,
now occupied by James Gracie. As he drew near it, he heard the
voice of Aggie speaking to her grandfather. What she said he did
not know, but he heard the answer.

“Lassie,” said the old man, “ye can never see by (_past_) the Lord to
ken whaur he’s takin’ ye. Ye may jist as weel close yer e’en. His
garment spreads ower a’ the ro’d, an’ what we hae to du is to haud
a guid grip o’ ’t--no to try an’ see ayont it.”

Cosmo hastened up, and told his father what he had overheard.

“There’s naething like faith for makin’ o’ poets, Cosmo!” said the
laird. “Jeames never appeart to me to hae mair o’ what’s ca’d
intellec’ nor an ord’nar’ share; but ye see the man ’at has faith
he’s aye growin’, an’ sae may come to something even i’ this warl’. An’
whan ye think o’ the ages to come, truly it wad seem to maitter
little what intellec’ a man may start wi’. I kenned mysel’ ane ’at
in ord’nar’ affairs was coontit little better nor an idiot, ’maist
turn a prophet whan he gaed doon upo’ his knees. Ay! fowk may lauch
at what they haena a glimp o’, but it’ll be lang or their political
economy du sae muckle for sic a man! The economist wad wuss his
neck had been thrawn whan he was born.”

Here Cosmo heard Grizzie come in, and went down to her. She was
sitting in his father’s chair by the fire, and did not turn her
face when he spoke. She was either tired or vexed, he thought.
Aggie was also now in the kitchen again.

“Here, Grizzie!” said Cosmo, “here’s twa poun’; an’ ye’ll need to
gar ’t gang far’er nor it can, I’m thinkin’, for I dinna ken whaur
we’re to get the neist.”

“Ken ye whaur ye got the last?” muttered Grizzie, and made haste to
cover the words:

“Whaur got ye that, Cosmo?” she said.

“What gien I dinna tell ye, Grizzie?” he returned, willing to rouse
her with a little teazing.

“That’s as ye see proper, sir,” she answered. “Naebody has a richt
to say til anither ‘Whaur got ye that?’ ’cep’ they doobt ye hae
been stealin’.”

It was a somewhat strange answer, but there was no end to the
strange things Grizzie would say: it was one of her charms! Cosmo
told her at once where and how he had got the money; for with such
true comrades, although not yet did he know how true, he felt
almost that a secret would be a sin.

But the moment Grizzie heard where Cosmo had engaged himself, and
from whom on the pledge of that engagement he had borrowed money,
she started from her chair, and cried, with clenched and
outstretched hand,

“Glenwarlock, yoong sir, ken ye what ye’re duin’?--The Lord
preserve ’s! he’s an innocent!” she added, turning with an
expression of despair to Aggie, who regarded the two with a strange
look.

“Grizzie!” cried Cosmo, in no little astonishment, “what on earth
gars ye luik like that at the mention o’ ane wha has this moment
helpit us oot o’ the warst strait ever we war in!”

“Gien there had been naebody nearer hame to help ye oot o’ waur
straits, it’s waur straits ye wad be in. An’ it’s waur ye’ll be in
yet, gien that man gets his wull o’ ye!”

“He’s a fine, honest chiel’! An’ for waur straits, Grizzie--are na
ye at the verra last wi’ yer meal?”

As he spoke he turned, and, in bodily reference to fact, went to
the chest into which he had looked but a few minutes before. To his
astonishment, there was enough in it for a good many meals! He
turned again, and stared at Grizzie. But she had once more seated
herself in his father’s chair, with her back to him, and before he
could speak she went on thus:

“Shame fa’ him, say I, ’at made his siller as a flesher i’ the wast
wyn’ o’ Howglen, to ettle at a gentleman o’ a thoosan’ year for ane
o’ his queans! But, please the Lord, we s’ haud clear o’ ’im yet!”

“Hootoot, Grizzie! ye canna surely think ony sic man wad regaird
the like o’ me as worth luikin’ efter for a son-in-law! He wadna be
sic a gowk!”

“Gowk here, gowk there! he kens what ye are an’ what ye’re
worth--weel that! Hasna he seen ye at the scythe? Disna he ken
there’s ten times mair to be made o’ ae gentleman like you, wi’ siller
at his back, nor ten common men sic as he’s like to get for
his dothers? Weel kens he it’s nae faut o’ you or yours ’at ye’re
no freely sae weel aff as some ’at oucht an’ wull be waur, gien it
be the Lord’s wull, or a’ be dune! Disna he ken ’at Castle Warlock
itsel’ wad be a warl’s honour to ony leddy--no to say a lass
broucht up ower a slauchter-hoose? Shame upo’ him an’ his!”

“Weel, Grizzie,” rejoined Cosmo, “ye may say ’at ye like, but I
dinna believe he wad hae dune what he has dune--”

“Cha!” interrupted Grizzie; “what has he dune? Disna he ken the
word o’ a Warlock’s as guid as gowd? Disna he ken _your_ wark,
what wi’ yer pride an’ what wi’ yer ill-placed graititude, ’ill be
worth til ’im that o’ twa men? The man’s nae coof! He kens what
he’s aboot! Haith, ye needna waur (_spend_) muckle graititude
upo’ sic benefactions!”

“To show you, Grizzie, that you are unfair to him, I feel bound to
tell you that he pressed on me the loan of fifty pounds.”

“I tellt ye sae!” screamed Grizzie, starting again to her feet. “God
forbid ye took ’im at his offer!”

“I did not,” answered Cosmo; “but all the same--”

“The Lord be praised for his abundant an’ great mercy!” cried
Grizzie, more heartily than devoutly. “We may contrive to win ower
the twa poun’, even sud ye no work it oot; but _fifty!_--the
Lord be aboot us frae ill! so sure ’s deith, ye wad hae had to tak
the lass!--Cosmo, ye canna but ken the auld tale o’ muckle-moo’d
Meg?”

“Weel that,” replied Cosmo. “But ye’ll alloo, Grizzie, times are
altert sin’ the day whan the laird cud gie a ch’ice atween a wife
an’ the wuddie! Mr. Hen’erson canna weel hang me gien I sud say
_no_.”

“Say ye _no_, come o’ the hangin’ what like,” rejoined Grizzie.

“But, Grizzie,” said Cosmo, “I wad fain ken whaur that meal i’ the
kist cam frae. There was nane intil ’t an hoor ago.”

With all her faults of temper and tongue, there was one evil word
Grizzie could not speak. In the course of a not very brief life she
had tried a good many times to tell a lie, but had never been able;
and now, determined not to tell where the meal had come from, she
naturally paused unprepared. It was but for a moment. Out came the
following utterance.

“Some fowk says, sir, ’at the age o’ mirracles is ower. For mysel’ I
dinna preten’ to ony opingon; but sae lang as the needcessity was
the same, I wad be laith to think Providence wadna be consistent
wi’ itsel’. Ye maun min’ the tale, better nor I can tell ’t ye,
concernin’ yon meal-girnel--muckle sic like, I daursay, as oor ain,
though it be ca’d a barrel i’ the Buik--hit ’at never wastit, ye
ken, an’ the uily-pig an’ a’--ye’ll min’ weel--though what ony wuman
in her senses cud want wi’ sic a sicht o’ ile’s mair nor I ever cud
faddom! Eh, but a happy wuman was she ’at had but to tak her bowl
an’ gang to the girnel, as I micht tak my pail an’ gang to the
wall! An’ what for michtna the Almichty mak a meal-wall as weel ’s a
watter-wall, I wad like to ken! What for no a wall ’at sud rin
ile--or say milk, which wad be mair to the purpose? Ae thing maun
be jist as easy to him as anither--jist as ae thing’s as hard to us
as anither! Eh, but we’re helpless craturs!”

“I’ your w’y, Grizzie, ye wad keep us as helpless as ever, for ye
wad hae a’ thing hauden to oor han’, like to the bairnie in his
mither’s lap! It’s o’ the mercy o’ the Lord ’at he wad mak men an’
women o’ ’s--no haud ’s bairns for ever!”

“It may be as ye say, Cosmo; but whiles I cud maist wuss I was a
bairn again, an’ had to luik to my mither for a’ thing.”

“An’ isna that siclike as the Lord wad hae o’ ’s, Grizzie? We canna
aye be bairns to oor mithers--an’ for me I wasna ane lang--but we
can an’ maun aye be bairns to the great Father o’ ’s.”

“I hae an ill hert, I doobt, Cosmo, for I’m unco hard to content.
An’ I’m ower auld noo, I fear, to mak muckle better o’. But maybe
some kin’ly body like yersel’ ’ill tak me in han’ whan I’m deid,
an’ put some sense intil me!”

“Ye hae sense eneuch, Grizzie, an’ to spare, gien only ye wad--”

“Guide my tongue a wee better, ye wad say! But little ye ken the
temptation o’ ane ’at has but ae solitary wapon, to mak use o’ that
same! An’ the gift ye hae ye’re no to despise; ye maun turn a’ til
acoont.”

Cosmo did not care to reason with her further, and went back to his
father.

Grizzie had gained her point; which was to turn him aside from
questions about the meal.

For a little while they had now wherewith to live; and if it seem
to my reader that the horizon of hope was narrowing around them, it
does not follow that it must have seemed so to them. For what is
the extent of our merely rational horizon at any time? But for
faith and imagination it would be a narrow one indeed! Even what we
call experience is but a stupid kind of faith. It is a trusting in
impetus instead of in love. And those days were fashioning an
eternal joy to father and son, for they were loving each other a
little more ere each day’s close, and were thus putting time,
despite of fortune, to its highest use.




CHAPTER XLVIII.

A COMMON MIRACLE.


Until he was laid up, Cosmo had all the winter, and especially
after his old master was taken ill, gone often to see Mr. Simon.
The good man was now beginning, chiefly from the effects of his
complaint, to feel the approach of age; but he was cheerful and
hopeful as ever, and more expectant. As soon as he was able Cosmo
renewed his visits, but seldom stayed long with him, both because
Mr. Simon could not bear much talking, and because he knew his
father would be watching for his return.

One day it had rained before sunrise, and a soft spring wind had
been blowing ever since, a soothing and persuading wind, that
seemed to draw out the buds from the secret places of the dry
twigs, and whisper to the roots of the rose-trees that their
flowers would be wanted by and by. And now the sun was near the
foot of the western slope, and there was a mellow, tearful look
about earth and sky, when Grizzie, entering the room where Cosmo
was reading to his father, as he sat in his easy chair by the
fireside, told them she had just heard that Mr. Simon had had a bad
night and was worse. The laird begged Cosmo to go at once and
inquire after him.

The wind kept him company as he walked, flitting softly about him,
like an attendant that needed more motion than his pace would
afford, and seemed so full of thought and love, that, for the
thousandth time, he wondered whether there could be anything but
spirit, and what we call matter might not be merely the consequence
of our human way of looking at the wrong side of the golden tissue.
Then came the thought of the infinitude of our moods, of the hues
and shades and endless kinds and varieties of feeling, especially
in our dreams; and he said to himself “how rich God must be, since
from him we come capable of such inconceivable differences of
conscious life!”

“How poor and helpless,” he said to himself, “how mere a pilgrim
and a stranger in a world over which he has no rule, must he be who
has not God all one with him! Not otherwise can his life be free
save as moving in loveliest harmony with the will and life of the
only Freedom--that which wills and we are!”

“How would it be,” he thought again, “if things were to come and go
as they pleased in my mind and brain? Would that not be madness?
For is it not the essence of madness, that things thrust themselves
upon one, and by very persistence of seeming, compel and absorb the
attention, drowning faith and will in a false conviction? The soul
that is empty, swept, and garnished, is the soul which adorns
itself, where God is not, and where therefore other souls come and
go as they please, drawn by the very selfhood, and make the man the
slave of their suggestions. Oneness with the mighty All is at the
one end of life; distraction, things going at a thousand foolish
wills, at the other. God or chaos is the alternative; all thou
hast, or no Christ!”

And as he walked thinking thus, the stream was by his side,
tumbling out its music as it ran to find its eternity. And the wind
blew on from the moist west, where the gold and purple had fallen
together in a ruined heap over the tomb of the sun. And the stars
came thinking out of the heavens, and the things of earth withdrew
into the great nest of the dark. And so he found himself at the
door of the cottage, where lay one of the heirs of all things,
waiting to receive his inheritance.

But the news he heard was that the master was better; and the old
woman showed him at once to his room, saying she knew he would be
glad to see him. When he entered the study, in which, because of
his long illness and need of air, Mr. Simon lay, the room seemed to
grow radiant, filled with the smile that greeted him from the
pillow. The sufferer held out his hand almost eagerly.

“Come, come!” he said; “I want to tell you something--a little
experience I have just had--an event of my illness. Outwardly it is
nothing, but to you it will not be nothing.--It was blowing a great
wind last night.”

“So my father tells me,” answered Cosmo, “but for my part I slept
too sound to hear it.”

“It grew calm with the morning. As the light came the wind fell.
Indeed I think it lasted only about three hours altogether.

“I have of late been suffering a good deal with my breathing, and
it has always been worst when the wind was high. Last night I lay
awake in the middle of the night, very weary, and longing for the
sleep which seemed as if it would never come. I thought of Sir
Philip Sidney, how, as he lay dying, he was troubled, because, for
all his praying, God would not let him sleep: it was not the want
of the sleep that troubled him, but that God would not give it him;
and I was trying hard to make myself strong to trust in God
whatever came to me, sleep or waking weariness or slow death, when
all at once up got the wind with a great roar, as if the prince of
the power of the air were mocking at my prayers. And I thought with
myself, ‘It is then the will of God that I shall neither sleep nor
lie at peace this night!’ and I said, ‘Thy will be done!’ and laid
myself out to be quiet, expecting, as on former occasions, my
breathing would begin to grow thick and hard, and by and by I
should have to struggle for every lungsful. So I lay waiting. But
still as I waited, I kept breathing softly. No iron band ringed
itself about my chest; no sand filled up the passages of my lungs!

“The cottage is not very tight, and I felt the wind blowing all
about me as I lay. But instead of beginning to cough and wheeze, I
began to breathe better than before. Soon I fell fast asleep, and
when I woke I seemed a new man almost, so much better did I feel.
It was a wind of God, and had been blowing all about me as I slept,
renewing me! It was so strange, and so delightful! Where I dreaded
evil, there had come good! So, perchance, it will be when the time
which the flesh dreads is drawing nigh: we shall see the pale damps
of the grave approaching, but they will never reach us; we shall
hear ghastly winds issuing from the mouth of the tomb, but when
they blow upon us they shall be sweet--the waving of the wings of
the angels that sit in the antechamber of the hall of life, once
the sepulchre of our Lord. And when we die, instead of finding we
are dead, we shall have waked better!”

It was an experience that would have been nothing to most men
beyond its relief, but to Peter Simon it was a word from the
eternal heart, which, in every true and quiet mood, speaks into the
hearts of men. When we cease listening to the cries of self-seeking
and self-care, then the voice that was there all the time enters
into our ears. It is the voice of the Father speaking to his child,
never known for what it is until the child begins to obey it. To
him who has not ears to hear, God will not reveal himself: it would
be to slay him with terror.

Cosmo sat a long time talking with his friend, for now there seemed
no danger of hurting him, so much better was he. It was late
therefore when he rose to return.




CHAPTER XLIX.

DEFIANCE.


Aggie was in the kitchen when he entered. She was making the
porridge.

“What’s come o’ Grizzie?” asked Cosmo.

“Ye dinna like my parritch sae weel as hers!” returned Agnes.

“Jist as weel, Aggie,” answered Cosmo.

“Dinna ye tell Grizzie that.”

“What for no?”

“She wad be angert first, an’ syne her hert wad be like to brak.”

“There’s nae occasion to say ’t,” conceded Cosmo. “But what’s come
o’ her the nicht?” he went on. “It’s some dark, an’ I doobt
she’ll----”

“The ro’d atween this an’ the Muir’s no easy to lowse,” said Aggie.

But the same instant her face flushed hotter than ever fire or
cooking made it; what she had said was in itself true, but what she
had not said, yet meant him to understand, was not true, for
Grizzie had gone nowhere near Muir o’ Warlock. Aggie had never told
a lie in her life, and almost before the words were out of her
mouth, she felt as if the solid earth were sinking from under her
feet. She left the _spurtle_ sticking in the porridge, and dropped
into the laird’s chair.

“What’s the maitter wi’ ye, Aggie?” said Cosmo, hastening to her in
alarm, for her face was now white, and her head was hanging down.

“This is no to be borne!” she cried, and started to her feet.
“--Cosmo, I tellt ye a lee.”

“Aggie!” cried Cosmo, dismayed, “ye never tellt me a lee i’ yer
life.”

“Never afore,” she answered; “but I hae tellt ye ane noo--no to
live through! Grizzie’s no gane to Muir o’ Warlock.”

“What care I whaur Grizzie’s gane!” rejoined Cosmo. “Tell me or no
tell me as ye like.”

Aggie burst into tears.

“Haud yer tongue, Aggie,” said Cosmo, trying to soothe her, himself
troubled with her trouble, for he too was sorry she should _almost_
have told him a lie, and his heart was sore for her misery. Well he
knew how she must suffer, having done a thing so foreign to her
nature! “It _could_ be little mair at the warst,” he went on, “than a
slip o’ the wull, seein’ ye made sic haste to set it richt again.
For mysel’, I s’ bainish the thoucht o’ the thing.”

“I thank ye, Cosmo. Ye wad aye du like the Lord himsel’. But
there’s mair intil ’t. I dinna ken what to du or say. It’s a sair
thing to stan’ ’atween twa, an’ no ken what to du ohn dune
mischeef--maybe wrang!--There’s something it ’maist seems to me ye
hae a richt to ken, but I canna be sure; an yet----”

She was interrupted by the hurried opening of the door. Grizzie
came staggering in, with a face of terror.

“Tu wi’ the door!” she cried, almost speechless, and sank in her
turn upon a chair, gasping for breath, and dropping at her feet a
canvas bag, about the size of a pillow-case.

Cosmo closed the door as she requested, and Aggie made haste to get
her some water, which she drank eagerly. After a time of panting
and sighing, she seemed to come to herself, and rose, saying, as if
nothing had happened,

“I maun see to the supper.”

Cosmo stooped and would have taken up the bag, but she pounced upon
it, and carried it with her to the corner of the fire, where she
placed it beyond her. In the meantime the porridge had begun to
burn.

“Eh, sirs!” she cried, “the parritch’ll be a’ sung--no to mention
the waste o’ guid meal! Aggie, hoo cud ye be sae careless!”

“It was eneuch to gar onybody forget the pot to see ye come in like
that, Grizzie!” said Cosmo.

“An’ what’ll ye say to the tale I bring ye!” rejoined Grizzie, as
she turned the porridge into a dish, careful not to scrape too hard
on the bottom of the pot.

“Tell ’s a’ aboot it, Grizzie, an’ bena lang aither, for I maun gang
to my father.”

“Gang til ’im. Here’s naebody wad keep ye frae ’im!”

Cosmo was surprised at her tone, for although she took abundant
liberty with the young laird, he had not since boyhood known her
rude to him.

“No till I hear yer tale, Grizzie,” he answered.

“An’ I wad fain ken what ye’ll say til ’t, for ye never wad alloo o’
kelpies; an’ there’s me been followed by a sure ane, this last
half-hoor--or it may be less!”

“Hoo kenned ye it was a kelpie--it’s maist as dark ’s pick?”

“Kenned! quo’ he? Didna I hear the deevil ahin’ me--the tramp o’ a’
the fower feet o’ ’im, as gien they had been fower an’ twinty!”

“I won’er he didna win up wi’ ye than, Grizzie!” suggested Cosmo.

“Guid kens hoo he didna; I won’er mysel’. But I trow I ran; an’ I
tak ye to witness I garred ye steik the door.”

“But they say,” objected Cosmo, who could not fail to perceive from
what Aggie said that there was something going on which it behooved
him to know, “that the kelpie wons aye by some watter-side.”

“Weel, cam I no by the tarn o’ the tap o’ Stieve Know?”

“What on earth was ye duin’ there efter dark, Grizzie?”

“What was I duin’? I saidna I was there efter dark, but the cratur
micht hae seen me pass weel eneuch. Wasna I ower the hill to my ain
fowk i’ the How o’ Hap? An’ didna I come hame by Luck’s Lift? Mair
by token, wadna the guidman o’ that same hae me du what I haena
dune this twa year, or maybe twenty--tak a dram? An’ didna I tak
it? An’ was I no in need o’ ’t? An’ didna I come hame a’ the better
for ’t?”

“An’ get a sicht o’ the kelpy intil the bargain--eh, Grizzie?”
suggested Cosmo.

“Hoots! gang awa up to the laird, an’ lea’ me to get my breath an’
your supper thegither,” said Grizzie, who saw to what she had
exposed herself. “An’ I wuss ye may see the neist kelpy yersel’!
Only whatever ye du, Cosmo, dinna m’unt upo’ the back o’ ’im, for
he’ll cairry ye straucht hame til ’s maister; an’ we a’ ken wha _he_
is.”

“I’m no gaein’,” said Cosmo, as soon as the torrent of her speech
allowed him room to answer, “till I ken what ye hae i’ that pock o’
yours.”

“Hoot!” cried Grizzie, and snatching up the bag, held it behind her
back, “ye wad never mint at luikin’ intil an auld wife’s pock! What
ken ye what she michtna hae there?”

“It luiks to me naither mair nor less nor a meal-pock,” said
Cosmo.

“Meal-pock!” returned Grizzie with contempt: “what neist!”

He made another movement to seize the bag, but she caught the
spurtle from the empty porridge-pot and showed fight with it, in
genuine earnest beyond a doubt for the defence of her pock.
Whatever the secret was, it looked as if the pock were somehow
connected with it. Cosmo began to grow very uncomfortable. So
strange were his nascent suspicions that he dared not for a time
allow them to take shape in his brain lest they should thereby
start at once into the life of fact. His mind had, for the last few
days, been much occupied with the question of miracles. Why, he
thought with himself, should one believing there is in very truth a
live, thinking, perfect Power at the heart and head of affairs,
count it impossible that, in their great and manifest need, their
meal-chest should be supplied like that of the widow of Zarephath?
If he could believe the thing was done then, there could be nothing
absurd in hoping the thing might be done now. If it was possible
once, it was possible in the same circumstances always. It was
impossible, however, for him or any human being to determine
concerning any circumstances whether they were or were not the
same. Wherever the thing was not done, did it not follow that the
circumstances could not be the same? One thing he was able to
see--that, in the altered relations of man’s mind to the facts of
Nature, a larger faith is necessary to believe in the constantly
present and ordering will of the Father of men, than in the unusual
phenomenon of a miracle. In the meantime it was a fact that they
had all hitherto had their daily bread.

But now this strange behaviour of Grizzie set him thinking of
something very different. And why did not the jeweller make some
reply to his request concerning the things he had sent him? He said
to himself for the hundredth time that he must have found it
impossible to do anything with them, and have delayed writing from
unwillingness to cause him disappointment, but he could not help a
growing soreness that his friend should take no notice of the
straits he had confessed himself in. The conclusion of the whole
matter was, that it must be the design of Providence to make him
part with the last clog that fettered him; he was to have no ease
in life until he had yielded the castle! If it were so, then the
longer he delayed the greater would be the loss. To sell everything
in it first would but put off the evil day, preparing for them so
much the more poverty when it should come; whereas if he were to
part with the house at once, and take his father where he could
find work, they would be able to have some of the old things about
them still, to tincture strangeness with home. The more he thought
the more it seemed his duty to put a stop to the hopeless struggle
by consenting in full and without reserve to the social degradation
and heart-sorrow to which it seemed the will of God to bring them.
Then with new courage he might commence a new endeavour, no more on
the slippery slope of descent, but with the firm ground of the
Valley of Humiliation under their feet. Long they could not go on
as now, and he was ready to do whatever was required of him, only
he wished God would make it plain. The part of discipline he liked
least--a part of which doubtless we do not yet at all understand
the good or necessity--was uncertainty of duty, the uncertainty of
what it was God’s will he should do. But on the other hand, perhaps
the cause of that uncertainty was the lack of perfect readiness;
perhaps all that was wanted to make duty plain was absolute will to
do it.

These and other such thoughts went flowing and ebbing for hours in
his mind that night, until at last he bethought himself that his
immediate duty was plain enough--namely, to go to sleep. He yielded
his consciousness therefore to him from whom it came, and did
sleep.




CHAPTER L.

DISCOVERY AND CONFESSION.


In the morning he woke wondering whether God would that day let him
know what he had to do. He was certain he would not have him leave
his father; anything else in the way of trouble he could believe
possible.

The season was now approaching the nominal commencement of summer,
but the morning was very cold. He went to the window. Air and earth
had the look of a black frost--the most ungenial, the most killing
of weathers. Alas! that was his father’s breathing: his bronchitis
was worse! He made haste to fetch fuel and light the fire, then
leaving him still asleep, went down stairs. He was earlier than
usual, and Grizzie was later; only Aggie was in the kitchen. Her
grandfather was worse also. Everything pointed to severer
straitening and stronger necessity: this must be how God was
letting him know what he had to do!

He sat down and suddenly, for a moment, felt as if he were sitting
on the opposite bank of the Warlock river, looking up at the house
where he was born and had spent his days--now the property of
another, and closed to him forever! Within those walls he could not
order the removal of a straw! could not chop a stick to warm his
father! “The will of God be done!” he said, and the vision was
gone.

Aggie was busy getting his porridge ready--which Cosmo had by this
time learned to eat without any accompaniment--and he bethought
himself that here was a chance of questioning her before Grizzie
should appear.

“Come, Aggie,” he said abruptly, “I want to ken what for Grizzie
was in sic a terror aboot her pock last nicht. I’m thinkin’ I hae a
richt to ken.”

“I wish ye wadna speir,” returned Aggie, after but a moment’s
pause.

“Aggie,” said Cosmo, “gien ye tell me it’s nane o’ my business, I
winna speir again.”

“Ye _are_ guid, Cosmo, efter the w’y I behaved to ye last nicht,” she
answered, with a tremble in her voice.

“Dinna think o’ ’t nae mair, Aggie. To me it is as gien it had
never been. My hert’s the same to ye as afore--an’ justly. I
believe I un’erstan’ ye whiles ’maist as weel as ye du yersel’.”

“I houp whiles ye un’erstan’ me better,” answered Aggie. “Sair do I
m’urn ’at the shaidow o’ that lee ever crossed my min’.”

“It was but a shaidow,” said Cosmo.

“But what wad ye think o’ yersel’, gien it had been you ’at sae
near--na, I winna nibble at the trowth ony mair--gien it had been
you, I wull say ’t, ’at lee’d that lee--sic an’ ane as it was?”

“I wad say to mysel’ ’at wi’ God’s help I was the less lik’ly ever
to tell a lee again; for that noo I un’erstude better hoo a
temptation micht come upon a body a’ at ance, ohn gien ’im time to
reflec’--an’ sae my responsibility was the greater.”

“Thank ye, Cosmo,” said Aggie humbly, and was silent.

“But,” resumed Cosmo, “ye haena tellt me yet ’at it’s nane o’ my
business what Grizzie had in her pock last nicht.”

“Na, I cudna tell ye that, ’cause it wadna be true. It is yer
business.”

“What was i’ the pock than?”

“Weel, Cosmo, ye put me in a great diffeeculty; for though I never
said to Grizzie I wadna tell, I made nae objection--though at the
time I didna like it--whan she tellt me what she was gaein’ to du;
an’ sae I canna help fearin’ it may be fause to her to tell ye.
Besides, I hae latten ’t gang sae lang ohn said a word, ’at the guid
auld body cud never jaloose I wad turn upon her noo an’ tell!”

“You are dreadfully mysterious, Aggie,” said Cosmo, “and in truth
you make me more than a little uncomfortable. What can it be that
has been going on so long, and had better not be told me! Have I a
right to know or have I not?”

“Ye hae a richt to ken, I do believe, else I wadna tell ye,”
answered Aggie. “I was terrified, frae the first, to think what ye
wad say til ’t! But ye see, what was there left? You, an’ the
laird, an’ my father was a’ laid up thegither, heaps o’ things
wantit, the meal dune, an’ life depen’in’ upo’ fowk haein’ what
they cud ait an’ drink!”

As she spoke, shadowy horror was deepening to monster presence; the
incredible was gradually assuming shape and fact; the hair of
Cosmo’s head seemed rising up. He asked no more questions, but sat
waiting the worst.

“Dinna be ower hard upo’ Grizzie an’ me, Cosmo,” Aggie went on. “It
wasna for oorsel’s we wad hae dune sic a thing; an’ maybe there was
nane but them we did it for ’at we wad hae been able to du ’t for.
But I hae no richt to say _we_. Blame, gien there be ony, I hae my
share o’; but praise, gien there be ony, she has ’t a’; for, that
the warst michtna come to the warst, at the last she tuik the
meal-pock,” said Aggie, and burst into tears as she said it, “an’
gaed oot wi’ ’t.”

“Good God!” cried Cosmo, and for some moments was dumb. “Lassie!”
he said at length, in a voice that was not like his own, “didna ye
ken i’ yer ain sowl we wad raither hae dee’d?”

“There ’tis! That’s jist what for Grizzie wadna hae ye tellt! But
dinna think she gaed to ony place whaur she was kent,” sobbed
Agnes, “or appeart to ony to be ither than a puir auld body ’at
gaed aboot for hersel’. Dinna think aither ’at ever she tellt a
lee, or said a word to gar fowk pity her. She had aye afore her the
possibility o’ bein’ ca’d til accoont some day. But I’m thinkin’
gien ye had applyt to her an’ no to me, ye wad hae h’ard anither
mak o’ a defence frae mine! Ae thing ye may be sure o’--there’s no
a body a hair the wiser.”

“What difference does that make?” cried Cosmo. “The fact remains.”

“Hoot, Cosmo!” said Agnes, with a revival of old authority, “ye’re
takin’ the thing in a fashion no worthy o’ a philosopher--no to say
a Christian. Ye tak it as gien there was shame intil ’t! An’ gien
there wasna shame, I daur ye to priv there can be ony disgrace!
Gien ye come to that wi’ ’t, hoo was the Lord o’ a’ himself
supportit whan he gaed aboot cleanin’ oot the warl’? Wasna it the
women ’at gaed wi’ ’im ’at providit a’ thing?”

“True; but that was very different! They knew him, all of them, and
loved him--knew that he was doing what no money could pay for; that
he was working himself to death for them and for their people--that
he was earning the whole world. Or at least they had a far off
notion that he was doing as never man did, for they knew he spake
as never man spake. Besides there was no begging there. He never
asked them for anything.”--Here Aggie shook her head in unbelief,
but Cosmo went on.--“And those women, some of them anyhow, were
rich, and proud to do what they did for the best and grandest of
men. But what have we done for the world that we should dare look
to it to help us?”

“For that maitter, Cosmo, are na we a’ brithers an’ sisters? A’
body ’s brithers an’ sisters wi’ a’ body. It’s but a kin’ o’ a some
mean pride ’at wadna be obleeged to yer ain fowk, efter ye hae dune
yer best. Cosmo! ilka han’fu’ o’ meal gi’en i’ this or ony hoose by
them ’at wadna in like need accep’ the same, is an affront frae
brither to brither. Them ’at wadna tak, I say, has no richt to
gie.”

“But nobody knew the truth of where their handful of meal was
going. They thought they were giving it to a poor old woman, when
they were in fact giving it to men with a great house over their
heads. It’s a disgrace, an’ hard to beir, Aggie!”

“’Deed the thing’s hard upon ’s a’! but whaur the disgrace is, I
will not condescen’ to see. Men in a muckle hoose! Twa o’ them
auld, an’ a’ three i’ their beds no fit to muv! Div ye think
there’s ane o’ them ’at gied to Grizzie, ’at wad hae gi’en
less--though what less nor the han’fu’ o’ meal, which was a’ she
ever got, it wad be hard to imaigine--had they kent it was for the
life o’ auld Glenwarlock--a name respeckit, an’ mair nor respeckit,
whaurever it’s h’ard?--or for the life o’ the yoong laird, vroucht
to deith wi’ labourers’ wark, an’ syne ’maist smoored i’ storm?--or
for auld Jeames Gracie, ’at’s led a God-fearin’ life till he’s
’maist ower auld to live ony langer? I say naething aboot Grizzie
an’ me, wha cud aye tak care o’ oorsel’s gien we hadna three dowie
men to luik efter. We did oor best, but whan a’ oor ain siller was
awa’ efter the lave, we cudna win awa’ oorsel’s to win mair. Gien
you three cud hae dune for yersel’s, we wad hae been sen’in’ ye
hame something.”

“You tell me,” said Cosmo, as if in a painful dream, through which
flashed lovely lights, “that you and Grizzie spent all your own
money upon us, and then Grizzie went out and begged for us?”

“’Deed there’s no anither word for ’t--nor was there ae thing ither
to be dune!” Aggie drew herself up, and went on with solemnity.
“Div ye think, Cosmo, whaur heid or hert or fit or han’ cud du
onything to waur aff want or tribble frae you or the laird, ’at
Grizzie or mysel’ wad be wantin’ that day? I beg o’ yer grace ye
winna lay to oor chairge what we war driven til. As Grizzie says,
we war jist at ane mair wi’ desperation.”

Cosmo’s heart was full. He dared not speak. He came to Aggie, and
taking her hand, looked her in the face with eyes full of tears.
She had been pale as sun-browned could be, but now she grew red as
a misty dawn. Her eyes fell, and she began to pull at the hem of
her apron. Grizzie’s step was on the stair, and Cosmo, not quite
prepared to meet her, walked out.

The morning was neither so black nor so cold as he had imagined it.
He went into the garden, to the nook between the two blocks, there
sat down, and tried to think. The sun was not far above the
horizon, and he was in the cold shade of the _kitchen-tower_, but he
felt nothing, and sat there motionless. The sun came southward,
looked round the corner, and found him there. He brought with him a
lovely fresh day. The leaves were struggling out, and the birds had
begun to sing. Ah! what a day was here, had the hope of the boy
been still swelling in his bosom! But the decree had gone forth! no
doubt remained! no refuge of uncertainty was left! The house must
follow the land! Castle Warlock and the last foothold of soil must
go, that wrong should not follow ruin! Were those divine women to
spend money, time, and labour, that he and his father should hold
what they had no longer any right to hold? Or in beggary, were they
to hide themselves in the yet lower depth of begging by proxy, in
their grim stronghold, living upon unacknowledged charity, as their
ancestors on plunder! He dared not tell his father what he had
discovered until he had taken at least the first step towards
putting an end to the whole falsehood. To delay due action was of
all things what Cosmo dreaded; and as the loss mainly affected
himself, the yielding of the castle must primarily be his deed and
not his father’s. He rose at once to do it.

The same moment the incubus of Grizzie’s meal-pock was lifted from
his bosom. The shame was, if shame was any, that they should have
been living in such a house while the thing was done. When the
house was sold, let people say what they would! In proportion as a
man cares to do what he ought, he ceases to care how it may be
judged. Of all things why should a true man heed the unjust
judgment?

“If there be any stain upon us,” he said to himself, “God will see
that we have the chance of wiping it out!”

With that he got over gate and wall, and took his way along
Grizzie’s path, once more, for the time at least, an undisputed
possession of the people.

But while he was thinking in the garden, Grizzie, who knew from
Aggie that her secret was such no more, was in dire distress in the
kitchen, fearing she had offended the young laird beyond remedy. In
great anxiety she kept going every minute to the door, to see if he
were not coming in to have his breakfast. But the first she saw of
him was his back, as he leaped from the top of the wall. She ran
after him to the gate.

“Sir! sir!” she cried, “come back; come back, an’ I’ll gang doon
upo’ my auld knees to beg yer pardon.”

Cosmo turned the moment he heard her, and went back.

When he reached the wall, over the top of the gate he saw Grizzie
on her knees upon the round paving stones of the yard, stretching
up her old hands to him, as if he were some heavenly messenger just
descended, whose wrath she deprecated. He jumped over wall and
gate, ran to her, and lifted her to her feet, saying,

“Grizzie, wuman, what are ye aboot! Bless ye, Grizzie, I wad ’maist
as sune strive wi’ my ain mither whaur she shines i’ glory, as wi’
you!”

Grizzie’s face began to work like that of a child in an agony
between pride and tears, just ere he breaks into a howl. She
gripped his arm hard with both hands, and at length faltered out,
gathering composure as she proceeded,

“Cosmo, ye’re like an angel o’ God to a’ ’at hae to du wi’ ye! Eh,
sic an accoont o’ ye as I’ll hae to gie to the mither o’ ye whan I
win to see her! For surely they’ll lat me see her, though they may
weel no think me guid eneuch to bide wi’ her up there, for as lang
as we was thegither doon here! Tell me, sir, what wad ye hae me du.
But jist ae thing I maun say:--gien I hadna dune as I did du, I do
not see hoo we cud hae won throu’ the winter.”

“Grizzie,” said Cosmo, “I ken ye did a’ for the best, an’ maybe it
was the best. The day may come, Grizzie, whan we’ll gang thegither
to ca’ upo’ them ’at pat the meal i’ yer pock, an’ return them
thanks for their kin’ness.”

“Eh, na, sir! That wad never du! What for sud they ken onything
aboot it! They war jist kin’-like at lairge, an’ to naebody in
partic’lar, like the man wi’ his sweirin’. They gae to me jist as
they wad to ony unco beggar wife. It was to me they gae ’t, no to
you. Lat it a’ lie upo’ me.”

“That canna be, Grizzie,” said Cosmo. “Ye see ye’re ane o’ the
faimily, an’ whatever ye du, I maun haud my face til.”

“God bless ye, sir!” exclaimed Grizzie, and turned towards the
house, entirely relieved and satisfied.

“But eh, sir!” she cried, turning again, “ye haena broken yer fast
the day!”

“I’ll be back in a feow minutes, an’ mak a brakfast o’ ’t by
or’nar’,” answered Cosmo, and hastened away up the hill.




CHAPTER LI.

IT IS NAUGHT, SAITH THE BUYER.


When Cosmo reached the gate of his lordship’s _policy_, he found it
closed, and although he rang the bell, and called lustily to the
gate-keeper, no one appeared. He put a hand on the top of the gate,
and lightly vaulted over it. But just as he lighted, who should
come round a bend in the drive a few yards off, but Lord
Lick-my-loof himself, out for his morning walk! His irritable
cantankerous nature would have been annoyed at sight of anyone
treating his gate with such disrespect, but when he saw who it was
that thus made nothing of it--clearing it with as much contempt as
a lawyer would a quibble not his own--his displeasure grew to
indignation and anger.

“I beg your pardon, my lord,” said Cosmo, taking the first word
that apology might be immediate, “I could make no one hear me, and
therefore took the liberty of describing a parabola over your
gate.”

“A verra ill fashiont parabola in my judgment, Mr. Warlock! I fear
you have been learning of late to think too little of the rights of
property.”

“If I had put my foot on your new paint, my lord, I should have
been to blame; but I vaulted clean over, and touched nothing more
than if the gate had been opened to me.”

“I’ll have an iron gate!”

“Not on my account, my lord, I hope; for I have come to ask you to
put it out of my power to offend any more, by enabling me to leave
Glenwarlock.”

“Well?” returned his lordship, and waited.

“I find myself compelled at last,” said Cosmo, not without some
tremor in his voice, which he did his best to quench, “to give you
the refusal, according to your request, of the remainder of my
father’s property.”

“House and all?”

“Everything except the furniture.”

“Which I do not want.”

A silence followed.

“May I ask if your lordship is prepared to make me an offer?--or
will you call on my father when you have made up your mind?”

“I will give two hundred pounds for the lot.”

“Two hundred pounds!” repeated Cosmo, who had not expected a large
offer, but was unprepared for one so small; “why, my lord, the bare
building material would be worth more than that!”

“Not to take it down. I might as well blast it fresh from the
quarry. I know the sort of thing those walls of yours are!
Vitrified with age, by George! But I don’t want to build, and
standing, the place is of no use to me. I should but let it crumble
away at its leisure!”

Cosmo’s dream rose again before his mind’s eye; but it was no more
with pain; for if the dear old place was to pass from their hands,
what other end could be desired for it!

“But the sum you mention, my lord, would not, after paying the
little we owe, leave us enough to take us from the place!”

“That I should be sorry for; but as to paying, many a better man
has never done that. You have my offer: take it or leave it. You’ll
not get half as much if it come to the hammer. To whom else would
it be worth anything, bedded in my property? If I say I don’t want
it, see if anybody will!”

Cosmo’s heart sank afresh. He dared not part with the place off
hand on such terms, but must consult his father: his power of
action was for the time exhausted; he could do no more alone--not
even to spare his father.

“I must speak to the laird,” he said. “I doubt if he will accept
your offer.”

“As he pleases. But I do not promise to let the offer stand. I make
it now--not to-morrow, or an hour hence.”

“I must run the risk,” answered Cosmo. “Will you allow me to jump
the gate?”

But his lordship had a key, and preferred opening it.

When Cosmo reached his father’s room, he found him not yet thinking
of getting up, and sat down and told him all--to what straits they
were reduced; what Grizzie had felt herself compelled to do in his
illness; how his mind and heart and conscience had been exercised
concerning the castle; how all his life, for so it seemed now, the
love of it had held him to the dust; where and on what errand he
had been that morning, with the result of his interview with Lord
Lick-my-loof. He had fought hard, he said, and through the grace of
God had overcome his weakness--so far at least that it should no
more influence his action; but now he could go no further without
his father. He was equal to no more.

“I would not willingly be left out of your troubles, my son,” said
the old man, cheerfully. “Leave me alone a little. There is one,
you know, who is nearer to each of us than we are to each other: I
must talk to him--your father and my father, in whom you and I are
brothers.”

Cosmo bowed in reverence, and withdrew.

After the space of nearly half an hour, he heard the signal with
which his father was in the habit of calling him, and hastened to
him.

The laird held out his old hand to him.

“Come, my son,” he said, “and let us talk together as two of the
heirs of all things. It’s unco easy for me to regaird wi’
equanimity the loss o’ a place I am on the point o’ leavin’ for the
hame o’ a’ hames--the dwellin’ o’ a’ the loves, withoot the dim
memory or foresicht o’ which--I’m thinkin’ they maun be aboot the
same thing--we could never hae lo’ed this auld place as we du, an’
whaur, ance I’m in, a’ thing doon here maun dwindle ootworthied by
reason o’ the glory that excelleth--I dinna mean the glory o’
pearls an’ gowd, or even o’ licht, but the glory o’ love an’
trowth. But gien I’ve ever had onything to ca’ an ambition, Cosmo,
it has been that my son should be ane o’ the wise, wi’ faith to
believe what his father had learned afore him, an’ sae start
farther on upo’ the narrow way than his father had startit. My
ambition has been that my endeavours and my experience should in
such measure avail for my boy, as that he should begin to make his
own endeavours and gather his own experience a little nearer that
perfection o’ life efer which oor divine nature groans an’ cries,
even while unable to know what it wants. Blessed be the voice that
tells us we maun forsake all, and take up our cross, and follow
him, losing our life that we may find it! For whaur wad he hae us
follow him but til his ain hame, to the verra bosom o’ his God an’
oor God, there to be ane wi’ the Love essential!”

Such a son as Cosmo could not listen to such a father saying such
things, and not drop the world as if it were no better than the
burnt out cinder of the moon.

“When men desire great things, then is God ready to hear them,” he
said; “and so it is, I think, father, that he has granted your
desires for me: I desire nothing but to fulfil my calling.”

“Then ye can pairt wi’ the auld hoose ohn grutten?”

“As easy, father, as wi’ a piece whan I wasna hungry. I do not say
that another mood may not come, for you know the flesh lusteth
against the spirit as well as the spirit against the flesh; but in
my present mood of light and peace, I rejoice to part with the
house as a victory of the spirit. Shall I go to his lordship at
once and accept his offer? I am ready.”

“Do, my son. I think I have not long to live, and the money, though
little, is large in this, that it will enable me to pay the last of
my debts, and die in the knowledge that I leave you a free man. You
will easily provide for yourself when I am gone, and I know you
will not forget Grizzie. For Jeames Gracie, he maun hae his share
o’ the siller because o’ the croft: we maun calculate it fairly.
He’ll no want muckle mair i’ this warl’. Aggie ’ill be as safe ’s an
angel ony gait. An’, Cosmo, whatever God may mean to du wi’ you i’
this warl’, ye’ll hae an abundant entrance ministered to ye intil
the kingdom’ o’ oor Lord an’ Saviour. Wha daur luik for a better
fate nor that o’ the Lord himsel’! But there was them ’at by faith
obtained kingdoms, as weel as them wha by faith were sawn asunder:
they war baith martyrdoms; an’ whatever God sen’s, we s’ tak.”

“Then you accept the two hundred for croft and all, father?”

“Dinna ettle at a penny more; he micht gang back upo’ ’t. Regaird
it as his final offer.”

Cosmo rose and went, strong-hearted, and without a single thought
that pulled back from the sacrifice. There was even a certain
pleasure in doing the thing just because in another and lower mood
it would have torn his heart: the spirit was rejoicing against the
flesh. To be rid of the castle would be to feel, far off, as the
young man would have felt had he given all to the poor and followed
the master. With the strength of a young giant he strode along.

When he reached the gate, there was my lord leaning over it.

“I thought you would be back soon! I knew the old cock would have
more sense than the young one; and I didn’t want my gate scrambled
over again,” he said, but without moving to open it.

“My father will take your lordship’s offer,” said Cosmo.

“I was on the point of making a fool of myself, and adding another
fifty to be certain of getting rid of you; but I came to the
conclusion it was a piece of cowardice, and that, as I had so long
stood the dirty hovel at my gate because I couldn’t help it, I
might just as well let you find your own way out of the parish.”

“I am sure from your lordship’s point of view you were right,” said
Cosmo. “We shall content ourselves, anyhow, with the two hundred.”

“Indeed you will not! Did I not tell you I would not be bound by
the offer? I have changed my mind, and mean to wait for the sale.”

“I beg your pardon. I did not quite understand your lordship.”

“You do now, I trust!”

“Perfectly, my lord,” replied Cosmo, and turning away left his
lordship grinning over the gate. But he had a curious look, almost
as if he were a little ashamed of himself--as if he had only been
teasing the young fellow, and thought perhaps he had gone too far.
For Cosmo, in such peace was his heart, that he was not even angry
with the man.

On his way home, the hope awoke, and began once more to whisper
itself, that they might not be able to sell the place at all; that
some other way would be provided for their leaving it; and that,
when he was an old man, he would be allowed to return to die in it.
But up started his conscience, jealously watchful lest hope should
undermine submission, or weaken resolve. God _might_ indeed intend
they should not be driven from the old house! but he kept Abraham
going from place to place, and never let him own a foot of land,
except so much as was needful to bury his dead. And there was our
Lord: he had not a place to lay his head, and had to go out of
doors to pray to his father in secret! The only things to be
anxious about were, that God’s will should be done, and that it
should not be modified by any want of faith or obedience or
submission on his part. Then it would be God’s very own will that
was done, and not something composite, in part rendered necessary
by his opposition. If God’s pure will was done, he must equally
rejoice whether that will took or gave the castle!

And so he returned to his father.

When he told him the result of his visit, the laird expressed no
surprise.

“He maketh the wrath o’ man to praise him,” he said. “This will be
for our good.”

The whole day after, there was not between them another allusion to
the matter. Cosmo read to his father a ballad he had just written.
The old man was pleased with it; for what most would have counted a
great defect in Cosmo’s imagination was none to him--this namely,
that he never could get room for it in this world; to his way of
feeling, the end of things never came here; what end, or seeming
end came, was not worth setting before his art as a goal for which
to make; in its very nature it was no _finis_ at all, only the merest
close of a chapter.

This was the ballad, in great part the result of a certain talk
with Mr. Simon.

    The miser he lay on his lonely bed,
        Life’s candle was burning dim,
            His heart in his iron chest was hid,
            Under heaps of gold and a well locked lid,
    And whether it were alive or dead,
        It never troubled him.

    Slowly out of his body he crept,
        Said he, “I am all the same!
            Only I want my heart in my breast;
            I will go and fetch it out of the chest.”
    Swift to the place of his gold he stept--
        He was dead but had no shame!

    He opened the lid--oh, hell and night!
        For a ghost can see no gold;
            Empty and swept--not a coin was there!
            His heart lay alone in the chest so bare!
    He felt with his hands, but they had no might
        To finger or clasp or hold!

    At his heart in the bottom he made a clutch--
        A heart or a puff-ball of sin?
            Eaten with moths, and fretted with rust,
            He grasped but a handful of dry-rotted dust:
    It was a horrible thing to touch,
        But he hid it his breast within.

    And now there are some that see him sit
        In the charnel house alone,
            Counting what seems to him shining gold,
            Heap upon heap, a sum ne’er told:
    Alas, the dead, how they lack of wit!
        They are not even bits of bone!

    Another miser has got his chest,
        And his painfully hoarded store;
            Like ferrets his hands go in and out,
            Burrowing, tossing the gold about;
    And his heart too is out of his breast,
        Hid in the yellow ore.

    Which is the better--the ghost that sits
        Counting shadowy coin all day,
            Or the man that puts his hope and trust
            In a thing whose value is only his lust?
    Nothing he has when out he flits
        But a heart all eaten away.

That night, as he lay thinking, Cosmo resolved to set out on the
morrow for the city, on foot, and begging his way if necessary.
There he would acquaint Mr. Burns with the straits they were in,
and require of him his best advice how to make a living for himself
and his father and Grizzie. As for James and Agnes, they might stay
at the castle, where he would do his best to help them. As soon as
his father had had his breakfast, he would let him know his
resolve, and with his assent, would depart at once. His spirits
rose as he brooded. What a happy thing it was that Lord
Lick-my-loof had not accepted their offer! all the time they saw
themselves in a poor lodging in a noisy street, they would know
they had their own strong silent castle waiting to receive them, as
soon as they should be able to return to it! Then the words came to
him: “Here we have no continuing city, but we seek one to come.”

The special discipline for some people would seem to be that they
shall never settle down, or feel as if they were at home, until
they are at home in very fact.

“Anyhow,” said Cosmo to himself, “such a castle we have!”

To be lord of space, a man must be free of all bonds to place. To
be heir of all things, his heart must have no _things_ in it. He must
be like him who makes things, not like one who would put everything
in his pocket. He must stand on the upper, not the lower side of
them. He must be as the man who makes poems, not the man who
gathers books of verse. God, having made a sunset, lets it pass,
and makes such a sunset no more. He has no picture-gallery, no
library. What if in heaven men shall be so busy growing, that they
have not time to write or to read!

How blessed Cosmo would live, with his father and Grizzie and his
books, in the great city--in some such place as he had occupied
when at the university! The one sad thing was that he could not be
with his father all day; but so much the happier would be the
home-coming at night! Thus imagining, he fell fast asleep.

He dreamed that he had a barrow of oranges, with which he had been
going about the streets all day, trying in vain to sell them. He
was now returning home, the barrow piled, as when he set out in the
morning, with the golden fruit. He consoled himself however with
the thought, that his father was fond of oranges, and now might
have as many as he pleased. But as he wheeled the barrow along, it
seemed to grow heavier and heavier, and he feared his strength was
failing him, and he would never get back to his father. Heavier and
heavier it grew, until at last, although he had it on the
pavement--for it was now the dead of the night--he could but just
push it along. At last he reached the door, and having laboriously
wheeled it into a shed, proceeded to pick from it a few of the best
oranges to take up to his father. But when he came to lift one from
the heap, lo, it was a lump of gold! He tried another and another:
every one of them was a lump of solid gold. It was a dream-version
of the golden horse. Then all at once he said to himself, nor knew
why, “My father is dead!” and woke in misery. It was many moments
before he quite persuaded himself that he had but dreamed. He rose,
went to his father’s bed-side, found him sleeping peacefully, and
lay down comforted, nor that night dreamed any more.

“What,” he said to himself, “would money be to me without my
father!”

Some of us shrink from making plans because experience has shown us
how seldom they are realized. Not the less are the plans we do make
just as subject to overthrow as the plans of the most prolific and
minute of projectors. It was long since Cosmo had made any, and the
resolve with which he now fell asleep was as modest as wise man
could well cherish; the morning nevertheless went differently from
his intent and expectation.




CHAPTER LII.

AN OLD STORY.


He was roused before sunrise by his father’s cough. After a bad
fit, he was very weary and restless. Now, in such a condition,
Cosmo could almost always put him to sleep by reading to him, and
he therefore got a short story, and began to read. At first it had
the desired effect, but in a little while he woke, and asked him to
go on. The story was of a king’s ship so disguising herself that a
pirate took her for a merchant-man; and Cosmo, to whom it naturally
recalled the Old Captain, made some remark about him.

“You mustn’t believe,” said his father, “all they told you when a
boy about that uncle of ours. No doubt he was a rough sailor
fellow, but I do not believe there was any ground for calling him a
pirate. I don’t suppose he was anything worse than a privateer,
which, God knows, is bad enough. I fancy, however, for the most of
his sea-life he was captain of an East Indiaman, probably trading
on his own account at the same time. That he made money I do not
doubt, but very likely he lost it all before he came home, and was
too cunning, in view of his probable reception, to confess it.”

“I remember your once telling me an amusing story of an
adventure--let me see--yes, that was in an East Indiaman: was he
the captain of that one?”

“No--a very different man--a cousin of your mother’s that was. I
was thinking of it a minute ago; it has certain points, if not of
resemblance, then of contrast with the story you have just been
reading.”

“I should like much to hear it again, when you are able to tell
it.”

“I have got it all in writing. It was amongst my Marion’s papers.
You will find, in the bureau in the book-closet, in the pigeon-hole
farthest to the left, a packet tied with red tape: bring that, and
I will find it for you.”

Cosmo brought the bundle of papers, and his father handed him one
of them, saying, “This narrative was written by a brother of your
mother’s. The Captain Macintosh who is the hero of the story, was a
cousin of her mother, and at the time of the event related must
have been somewhat advanced in years, for he had now returned to
his former profession after having lost largely in an attempt to
establish a brewery on the island of St. Helena!”

Cosmo unfolded the manuscript, and read as follows:

“‘An incident occurring on the voyage to India when my brother went
out, exhibits Captain Macintosh’s character very practically, and
not a little to his professional credit.

“‘On a fine evening some days after rounding the cape of Good Hope,
sailing with a light breeze and smooth water, a strange sail of
large size hove in sight, and apparently bearing down direct upon
the “Union,” Captain Macintosh’s ship; evidently a ship of war, but
showing _no colours_--a very suspicious fact. All English ships at
that time trading to and from India, by admiralty rules, were
obliged to carry armaments proportioned to their tonnage, and crew
sufficient to man and work the guns carried. The strange sail was
_nearing_ them, or “the big stranger,” as the seamen immediately
named her. My brother, many years afterwards, more than once told
me, that the change, or rather the _transformation_, which Captain
Macintosh _under_went, was one of the most remarkable facts he had
ever witnessed; more bordering on the _marvellous_, than anything
else. When he had carefully and deliberately viewed the “big
stranger,” and deliberately laying down his glass, his eyes seemed
to have catched _fire_! and his whole countenance lighted up; a new
spirit seemed to possess him, while he preserved the utmost
coolness: advancing deliberately to what is called the poop
railing, and steadily looking forward--“Boatswain! Pipe to
quarters.” Muster roll called.--“Now, my men, we shall _fight_! I
know you will do it well!--Clear ship for action!” I have certainly
but my brother’s word and judgment upon the fact, who had never
been _under fire_; but his opinion was, that no British ship of war
could have been more speedily, or more completely cleared for
action, both in rigging, decks, and guns,--guns _double shotted_ and
run out into position. “The big stranger” was now _nearing_,--no
ports opened, and no colours shewn--_all_ increased cause of
suspicion that there was some ill intent in the wind--and it was
very evident, from the _size_ of “the big stranger”--nearly _thrice_
the size of the little “Union,”--that, one broad side from the
former, might send the latter at once to the bottom:--the whole
crew, my brother related, were in the highest spirits, more as if
preparing for a _dance_, than for work of life and death. Suddenly,
the captain gives the command,--“Boarders,--Prepare to board!
--Lower away, boarding Boats”--and no sooner said than done. The
stranger was now at musket-shot. It was worthy the courage of a
_Nelson_ or a _Cochrane_, to think of boarding at such odds;--a mere
handful of men, to a full complement of a heavy Frigate’s crew! The
idea was altogether in keeping with the best naval tactics and
skill. Foreseeing that one broadside from such an enemy would sink
him, he must _anticipate_ such a crisis. Boarding would at least
divert the enemy from their _guns_; and he knew what British seamen
could do, in clearing an enemy’s decks! _There was_ British spirit in
those days. Let us hope it shall again appear, should the occasion
arise. The captain himself was the first in the foremost Boarding
Boat--and the first in the enemy’s main chains, and to set his foot
on the enemy’s main deck! when a most magic-like scene saluted the
Boarders; but did not _yet_ allay suspicion:--not a single enemy on
deck!--Here, a characteristic act of a British _tar_--the Union’s
Boatswain,--must not be omitted--an old man of war’s man:--no
sooner had his foot touched the _enemy’s_ deck, than _rushing aft_--(or
towards the ship’s _stern_)--to the _wheel_,--the _only man on deck_
being he at the wheel,--a big, lubberly looking man,--the Union’s
boatswain in less than a _moment_ had his hands to the steersman’s
throat,--and with one _fell shove_, sent him spinning, heels over
head--all the full length of the ship’s quarter-deck, to land on
the main deck;--one may suppose rather _astonished_! The manly
boatswain himself was the only man _hurt_ in the affair--his boarding
pistol, by some untoward accident, went off,--its double shot
running up his fore-arm, and lodging in the bones of his elbow.
Amputation became necessary; and the dear old fellow soon
afterwards died.

“‘But what did all this _hullybaloo_ come to? Breathe--and we shall
hear! “The Big Stranger” turned out to be a large, heavy armed
Portuguese Frigate!--Actually the _war-ship solitary_ of the
Portuguese navy then afloat!--a fine specimen of Portuguese naval
discipline, no doubt!--not a _watch_ even on deck!--They had seen
immediately on seeing her, that the “Union” was _English_, and a
merchant ship--which a practised seaman’s eye can do at once; and
they had quietly gone to take their _siesta_, after their country’s
fashion--Portugal, at that time, being one of Britain’s allies, and
not an enemy;--a grievous _disappointment_ to the crew of the “Union.”’

“My uncle seems to have got excited as he went on,” said Cosmo, “to
judge by the number of words he has underlined!”

“He enters into the spirit of the thing pretty well for a
clergyman!” said the laird.




CHAPTER LIII.

A SMALL DISCOVERY.


When they had had a little talk over the narrative, the laird
desired Cosmo to replace the papers, and rising he went to obey. As
he approached the closet, the first beams of the rising sun were
shining upon the door of it. The window through which they entered
was a small one, and the mornings of the year in which they so fell
were not many. When he opened the door, they shot straight to the
back of the closet, lighting with rare illumination the little
place, commonly so dusky that in it one book could hardly be
distinguished from another. It was as if a sudden angel had entered
a dungeon. When the door fell to behind him, as was its custom, the
place felt so dark that he seemed to have lost memory as well as
sight, and not to know where he was. He set it open again, and
having checked it so, proceeded to replace the papers. But the
strangeness of the presence there of such a light took so great a
hold on his imagination, and it was such a rare thing to see what
the musty dingy little closet, which to Cosmo had always been the
treasure-chamber of the house, was like, that he stood for a
moment with his hand on the cover of the bureau, gazing into the
light-invaded corners as if he had suddenly found himself in a
department of Aladdin’s cave. Old to him beyond all memory, it yet
looked new and wonderful, much that had hitherto been scarcely
known but to his hands now suddenly revealed in radiance to his
eyes also. Amongst other facts he discovered that the bureau stood,
not against a rough wall as he had imagined, but against a plain
surface of wood. In mild surprise he tapped it with his knuckles,
and almost started at the hollow sound it returned.

“What can there be ahin’ the bureau, father?” he asked, re-entering
the room.

“I dinna ken o’ onything,” answered the laird. “The desk stan’s
close again’ the wa’, does na ’t?”

“Ay, but the wa’ ’s timmer, an’ soon’s how.”

“It may be but a wainscotin’; an’ gien there was but an inch atween
hit an’ the stane, it wad soon’ like that.”

“I wad like to draw the desk oot a bit, an’ hae a nearer luik. It
fills up a’ the space, ’at I canna weel win at it.”

“Du as ye like, laddie. The hoose is mair yours nor mine. But noo
ye hae putten ’t i’ my heid, I min’ my mother sayin’ ’at there was
ance a passage atween the twa blocks o’ the hoose: could it be
there? I aye thoucht it had been atween the kitchen an’ the dinin’
room. My father, she said, had it closed up.”

Said Cosmo, who had been gazing toward the closet from where he
stood by the bedside,

“It seems to gang farther back nor the thickness o’ the wa’!” He
went and looked out of the western window, then turned again
towards the closet. “I canna think,” he resumed, with something
like annoyance in his tone, “hoo it cud be ’at I never noticed that
afore! A body wad think I had nae heid for what I prided mysel’
upo’--an un’erstan’in’ o’ hoo things are putten thegither,
specially i’ the w’y o’ stane an’ lime! The closet rins richt intil
the great blin’ wa’ atween the twa hooses! I thoucht that wa’ had
been naething but a kin’ o’ a curtain o’ defence, but there may
weel be a passage i’ the thickness o’ ’t!”

So saying he re-entered the closet, and proceeded to move the
bureau. The task was not an easy one. The bureau was large, and so
nearly filled the breadth of the closet, that he could attack it
nowhere but in front, and had to drag it forward, laying hold of it
where he could, over a much-worn oak floor. The sun had long
deserted him before he got behind it.

“I wad sair like to brak throu’ the buirds, father?” he said, going
again to the laird.

“Onything ye like, I tell ye, laddie! I’m growin’ curious mysel’,”
he answered.

“I’m feart for makin’ ower muckle din, father.”

“Nae fear, nae fear! I haena a sair heid. The Lord be praist,
that’s a thing I’m seldom triblet wi’. Gang an’ get ye what tools
ye want, an’ gang at it, an’ dinna spare. Gien the hole sud lat in
the win’, ye’ll mar nae mair, I’m thinkin’, nor ye’ll be able to
mak again. What timmer is ’t o’?”

“Only deal, sae far as I can judge.”

Cosmo went and fetched his tool-basket, and set to work. The
partition was strong, of good sound pine, neither rotten nor
worm-eaten--inch-boards matched with groove and tongue, not quite
easy to break through. But having, with a centre-bit and brace,
bored several holes near each other, he knocked out the pieces
between, and introducing a saw, soon made an opening large enough
to creep through. A cold air met him, as if from a cellar, and on
the other side he seemed in another climate.

Feeling with his hands, for there was scarcely any light, he
discovered that the space he had entered was not a closet, inasmuch
as there was no shelf, or anything in it, whatever. It was
certainly most like the end of a deserted passage. His feet told
him the floor was of wood, and his hands that the walls were of
rough stone without plaster, cold and damp. With outstretched arms
he could easily touch both at once. Advancing thus a few paces, he
struck his head against wood, felt panels, and concluded a door.
There was a lock, but the handle was gone. He went back a little,
and threw himself against it. Lock and hinges too gave way, and it
fell right out before him. He went staggering on, and was brought
up by a bed, half-falling across it. He was in the spare room, the
gruesome centre of legend, the dwelling of ghostly awe. Not yet
apparently had its numen forsaken it, for through him passed a
thrill at the discovery. From his father’s familiar room to this,
was like some marvellous transition in a fairy-tale; the one was
home, a place of use and daily custom; the other a hollow in the
far-away past, an ancient cave of Time, full of withering history.
Its windows being all to the north and long unopened, it was
lustreless, dark, and musty with decay.

Cosmo stood motionless a while, gazing about him as if, from being
wide awake, he suddenly found himself in a dream. Then he turned as
if to see how he had got into it. There lay the door, and there was
the open passage! He lifted the door: the other side of it was
covered with the same paper as the wall, from which it had brought
with it several ragged pieces. He went back, crept through, and
rejoined his father.

In eager excitement, he told him the discovery he had made.

“I heard the noise of the falling door,” said his father quietly.
“I should not wonder now,” he added, “if we discovered a way
through to the third block.”

“Oh, father,” said Cosmo with a sigh, “what a comfort this door
would have so often been! and now, just as we are like to leave the
house forever, we first discover it!”

“How well we have got on without it!” returned his father.

“But what could have made grandfather close it up?”

“There was, I believe, some foolish ghost-story connected with
it--perhaps the same old Grannie told you.”

“I wonder grandmamma never spoke of it!”

“My impression is she never cared to refer to it.”

“I daursay she believed it.”

“Weel, I daursay! I wadna won’er!”

“What for did ye ca’ ’t foolish, father?”

“Jist for thouchtlessness, I doobt. But wha could hae imagined to
kep a ghaist by paperin’ ower a door, whan, gien there be ony
trowth i’ sic tales, the ghaist gangs throu’ a stane wa’ jist as
easy ’s open air! But surely o’ a’ fules a ghaist maun be the warst
o’ things on aboot a place!”

“Maybe it’s to haud away frae a waur. The queer thing, father, to
me wad be ’at the ghaist, frae bein’ a fule a’ his life, sud grow a
wise man the minute he was deid! Michtna it be a pairt o’ his
punishment to be garred see hoo things gang on efter he’s deid!
What could be sairer, for instance, upon a miser, nor to see his
heir gang to the deevil by scatterin’ what he gaed to the deevil by
gatherin’?”

“’Deed ye’re richt eneuch, there, my son!” answered the old man.
Then after a pause he resumed. “It’s aye siller or banes ’at fesses
them back. I can weel un’erstan’ a great reluctance to tak their
last leave o’ the siller, but for the banes--eh, but I’ll be unco
pleased to be rid o’ mine!”

“But whaur banes are concernt, hasna there aye been fause play?”
suggested Cosmo.

“Wad it be revenge, than, think ye?”

“It micht be: maist o’ the stories o’ that kin’ en’ wi’ bringin’
the murderer an’ justice acquant. But the human bein’ seems in a’
ages to hae a grit dislike to the thoucht o’ his banes bein’ left
lyin’ aboot. I hae h’ard gran’mamma say the dirtiest servan’ was
aye clean twa days o’ her time--the day she cam an’ the day she
gaed.”

“Ye hae thoucht mair aboot it nor me, laddie! But what ye say wadna
haud wi’ the Parsees, ’at lay oot their deid to be devoored by the
birds o’ the air.”

“They swipe up their banes at the last. An’, though the livin’
expose the deid, the deid mayna like it.”

“I daursay. Ony gait it maun be a fine thing to lea’ as little dirt
as possible ahin’ ye, an’ tak nane wi’ ye. I wad fain gang clean
an’ lea’ clean!”

“Gien onybody gang clean an’ lea’ clean, father, ye wull.”

“I luik to the Lord, my son.--But noo, whan a body thinks o’ ’t,”
he went on after a pause, “there wad seem something curious i’ thae
tales concernin’ the auld captain! Sometime we’ll tak Grizzie intil
oor coonsel, an’ see hoo mony we can gaither, an’ what we can mak
o’ them whan we lay them a’ thegither. Gien the Lord hae ’t in his
min’ to keep ’s i’ this place, yon passage may turn oot a great
convanience.”

“Ye dinna think it wad be worth while openin’ ’t up direc’ly?”

“I wad bide for warmer weather. I think the room’s jist some caller
now by rizzon o’ ’t.”

“I’ll close ’t up at ance,” said Cosmo.

In a few minutes he had screwed a box-lid over the hole in the
partition, and shut the door of the closet.

“Noo,” he said, “I’ll gang an’ set up the door on the ither side.”

Before he went however, he told his father what he had been
thinking of, saying, if he approved and was well enough, he should
like to go the next day.

“It’s no an ill idea,” said the laird; “but we’ll see what the morn
may be like.”

When Cosmo entered the great bedroom of the house from the other
side, he stood for a moment staring at the open passage and
prostrate door as if he saw them for the first time, then proceeded
to examine the hinges. They were broken; the half of each remained
fast to the door-post, the other half to the door. New hinges were
necessary; in the meantime he must prop it up. This he did; and
before he left the room, as it was much in want of fresh air, he
opened all the windows.

His father continuing better through that day, he went to bed early
that he might start at sunrise.




CHAPTER LIV.

A GREATER DISCOVERY.


In the middle of the night he was wakened by a loud noise. Its
nature he had been too sound asleep to recognize; he only knew it
had waked him. He sprang out of bed, was glad to find his father
undisturbed, and stood for a few moments wondering. All at once he
remembered that he had left the windows of the best bedroom open;
the wind had risen, and was now blowing what sailors would call a
gale: probably something had been blown down! He would go and see.
Taking a scrap of candle, all he had, he crept down the stair and
out to the great door.

As he approached that of the room he sought, the faint horror he
felt of it when a boy suddenly returned upon him as fresh as ever,
and for a moment he hesitated, almost doubting whether he were not
dreaming: was he actually there in the middle of the night? But,
with an effort he dismissed the folly, was himself again, entering
the room, if not with indifference yet with composure. There was
just light enough to see the curtains of the terrible bed waving
wide in the stream of wind that followed the opening of the door.
He shut the windows, lighted his candle, and then saw the door he
had set up so carefully flat on the floor: the chair he had put
against it for a buttress, he thought, had not proved high enough,
and it had fallen down over the top of it. He placed his candle
beside it, and proceeded once more to raise it. But, casting his
eyes up to mark the direction, he caught a sight which made him lay
it down again and rise without it. The candle on the floor shone
halfway into the passage, lighting up a part of one wall of it, and
showing plainly the rough gray stones of which it was built.
Something in the shapes and arrangement of the stones drew and
fixed Cosmo’s attention. He took the candle, examined the wall,
came from the passage with his eyes shining, and his lips firmly
closed, left the room, and went up a story higher to that over it,
still called his. There he took from his old secretary the
unintelligible drawing hid in the handle of the bamboo, and with
beating heart unfolded it. Certainly its lines did, more or less,
correspond with the shapes of those stones! He must bring them face
to face!

Down the stair he went again. It was the dead of the night, but
every remnant of childhood’s awe was gone in the excitement of the
hoped discovery. He stood once more in the passage, the candle in
one hand, the paper in the other, and his eyes going and coming
steadily between it and the wall, as if reading the rough stones by
some hieroglyphic key. The lines on the paper and the joints of the
stones corresponded with almost absolute accuracy.

But another thing had caught his eye--a thing yet more promising,
though he delayed examining it until fully satisfied of the
correspondence he sought to establish: on one of the stones, one
remarkable neither by position nor shape, he spied what seemed the
rude drawing of a horse, but as it was higher than his head, and
the candle cast up shadows from the rough surfaces, he could not
see it well. Now he got a chair, and, standing on it, saw that it
was plainly enough a horse, like one a child might have made who,
with a gift for drawing, had had no instruction. It was scratched
on the stone. Beneath it, legible enough to one who knew them so
well, were the lines--

  catch your Nag, & pull his Tail
  in his hind Hele caw a Nail
  rug his Lugs frae ane anither
  stand up, & ca’ the King yer Brither

How these directions were to be followed with such a horse
as the one on the flat before him would be scanned! Probably the wall
must be broken into at that spot. In the meantime he would set up
the door again, and go to bed.

For he was alarmed at the turmoil the sight of these signs caused
in him. He dreaded _possession_ by any spirit but the one. Whatever
he did now he must do calmly. Therefore to bed he went. But before
he gave himself up to sleep, he prayed God to watch him, lest the
commotion in his heart and the giddiness of hope should make
something rise that would come between him and the light eternal.
The man in whom any earthly hope dims the heavenly presence and
weakens the mastery of himself, is on the by-way through the meadow
to the castle of Giant Despair.

In the morning he rose early, and went to see what might be
attempted for the removing of the stone. He found it, as he had
feared, so close-jointed with its neighbours that none of his tools
would serve. He went to Grizzie and got from her a thin old knife;
but the mortar had got so hard since those noises the servants used
to hear in the old captain’s room, that he could not make much
impression upon it, and the job was likely to be a long one. He
said to himself it might be the breaking through of the wall of his
father’s prison and his own, and wrought eagerly.

As soon as his father had had his breakfast, he told him what he
had discovered during the dark hours. The laird listened with the
light of a smile, not the smile itself, upon his face, and made no
answer; but Cosmo could see by the all but imperceptible motion of
his lips that he was praying.

“I wish I were able to help you,” he said at length.

“There is na room for mair nor ane at a time, father,” answered
Cosmo; “an’ I houp to get the stane oot afore I’m tired. You can be
Moses praying, while I am Joshua fighting.”

“An’ prayin’ again’ waur enemies nor ever Joshua warstled wi’,”
returned his father; “for whan I think o’ the rebound o’ the
spirit, even in this my auld age, that cudna but follow the mere
liftin’ o’ the weicht o’ debt, I feel as gien my sowl wad be
tum’led aboot like a bledder, an’ its auld wings tak to lang slow
flaggin’ strokes i’ the ower thin aether o’ joy. The great God
protec’ ’s frae his ain gifts! Wi’oot him they’re ten times waur
nor ony wiles o’ the deevil’s ain. But I’ll pray, Cosmo; I’ll
pray.”

The real might of temptation is in the lower and seemingly nearer
loveliness as against the higher and seemingly farther.

Cosmo went back to his work. But he got tired of the old knife--it
was not tool enough, and had to fashion on the grindstone a
screw-driver to a special implement. With that he got on better.

The stone,--whether by the old captain’s own hands, his ghost best
knew--was both well fitted and fixed, but after Cosmo had worked at
it for about three hours, his tool suddenly went through. It was
then easy to knock away from the edge gained, and on the first
attempt to prize it out, it yielded so far that he got a hold with
his fingers, and the rest was soon done. It disclosed a cavity in
the wall, but the light was not enough to let him see into it, and
he went to get a candle.

Now Grizzie had a curious dislike to any admission of the poverty
of the house even to those most interested, and having but one
small candle-end left, was unwilling both to yield it, and to
confess it her last.

“Them ’at burns daylicht, sune they’ll hae nae licht!” she said.
“What wad ye want wi’ a can’le? I’ll haud a fir-can’le to ye, gien
ye like.”

“Grizzie,” repeated Cosmo, “I want a can’le.”

She went grumbling, and brought him the miserable end.

“Hoot, Grizzie!” he expostulated, “dinna be sae near. Ye wadna,
gien ye kenned what I was aboot.”

“Eh! what are ye aboot, sir?”

“I’m no gaein’ to tell ye yet. Ye maun hae patience, an’ I maun hae
a can’le.”

“Ye maun tak what’s offert ye.”

“Grizzie, I’m in earnest.”

“’Deed an’ sae am I! Ye s’ hae nae mair nor that--no gien it was to
scrape the girnel--an’ that’s dune lang syne, an’ twise ower!”

“Grizzie, I’m feart ye’ll anger me.”

“Ye s’ get nae mair!”

Cosmo burst out laughing.

“Grizzie,” he said, “I dinna believe ye hae an’ inch mair can’le i’
the hoose!”

“It needs na a Warlock to tell that! Gien I had it, what for sud na
ye hae ’t ’at has the best richt?”

Cosmo took his candle, and was as sparing of it as Grizzie herself
could have wished.




CHAPTER LV.

A GREAT DISCOVERY.


The instant the rays of the candle-end were thrown into the cavity,
he saw what, expectant as he was, made him utter a cry. He seemed
to be looking through a small window into a toy-stable--a large one
for a toy. Immediately before him was a stall, in which stood a horse,
with his tail towards the window. He put in his hand and
felt it over. For a toy it would have been of the largest size
below a rocking horse. It was covered with a hairy skin. So far all
was satisfactory, but alas! more stones must be removed ere it
could be taken from its prison stall, where, like the horses of
Charlemagne, it had been buried so many years. He extinguished the
precious candle-end, and set to work once more with a will and what
light the day afforded. Nor was the task much easier than before.
Every one of the stones was partly imbedded in the solid of the
wall, projecting but a portion of its bulk over the hollow of the
stable. The old captain must indeed have worked hard! for assuredly
he was not the man to call for help where he desired
secrecy--though doubtless it was his sudden death, and the nature
of it, which prevented him from making disclosure concerning the
matter before he left the world: the rime, the drawing, the
scratches on the stone, all indicated the intention. Cosmo took
pleasure in thinking that, if indeed his ghost did “walk,” as
Grannie and others had affirmed, it must be more from desire to
reveal where his money was hid, than from any gloating over the
imagined possession of it.

But it was now dinner-time, and he must rest, for he was tired as
well as hungry--and no wonder, the work having been so awkward as
well as continuous! He locked the door of the room, went first to
tell his father what he had further found, and then made haste over
his meal, for the night was coming, and there were no candles.
Persistently he laboured; “the toil-drops fell from his brow like
rain;” and at last he laid hold of the patient animal by the hind
legs, with purpose to draw it gently from the stall. A little way
it came, then no farther, and he had to light the candle. Peeping
into the stall he perceived a chain stretching from its head to
where the manger might be. This he dared not try to break, lest he
might injure the mechanism he hoped to find in it. But clearly the
horse could not have been so fastened as the stall then stood. The
stall must have been completed after the horse was thus secured.
More than ever he now needed a candle--and indeed one held for him;
but he was not prepared either to take Grizzie into his confidence,
or to hurt her by perferring Agnes. He therefore examined the two
stones forming the sides of the stall, and led by the appearance of
one of them, proceeded to attempt its removal almost in the dark,
compelled indeed now and then to feel for the proper spot where to
set his tool before he struck it. For some time he seemed to make,
little or no progress; but who would be discouraged with the end in
sight!

The stone at length moved, and in a minute he had it out. For the
last time he lighted his candle, and there was just enough of it
left to show him how the chain was fastened. With a pair of pincers
he detached it from the wall--and I may mention that his life after
he wore it at his watch.

And now he had the horse in his arms and would have borne it
straight to his father, in whose presence it must be searched, but
that, unwilling to carry it through the kitchen, he must first go
to the other end of the passage and open that way.

The laird was seated by the fire when Cosmo went through, and
returning with the horse, placed it on a chair beside him. They
looked it all over, wondering whether the old captain could have
made it himself, and Cosmo thought his father prolonged the inquiry
from a wish to still his son’s impatience. But at length he said,

“Noo, Cosmo, i’ the name o’ God, the giver o’ ilka guid an’ perfec’
gift, see gien ye can win at the entrails o’ the animal. It canna be
fu’ o’ men like the Trojan horse, or they maun be enchantit sma’,
like the deevils whan they war ower mony for the cooncil ha’; but
what’s intil ’t may carry a heap waur danger to you an’ me nor ony
nummer o’ airmit men!”

“Ye min’ the rime, father?” asked Cosmo.

“No sae weel as the twenty-third psalm,” replied the laird with a
smile.

“Weel, the first line o’ ’t is, ‘Catch yer naig, an’ pu’ his tail.’
Wi’ muckle diffeeclety we hae catcht him, an’ noo for the tail o’
’im!--There! that’s dune!--though there’s no muckle to shaw for ’t.
The neist direction is--‘In his hin’ heel caw a nail:’ we s’ turn
up a’ his fower feet thegither, ’cause they’re cooperant; an’ noo
lat ’s see the proper spot whaur to caw the said nail!”

The horse’s shoes were large, and the hole where a nail was missing
had not to be sought. Cosmo took a fine bradawl, and pushed it
gently into the hoof. A loud, whirring noise followed, but with no
visible result.

“The next direction,” said Cosmo, “is--‘Rug his lugs frae ane
anither.’ Noo, father, God be wi’ ’s! an’ gien it please him we be
disap’intit, may he gie ’s grace to beir ’t as he wad hae ’s beir
’t.’

“I pray the same,” said the laird.

Cosmo pulled the two ears of the animal in opposite directions. The
back began to open, slowly, as if through the long years the cleft
had begun to grow together. He sprang from his seat. The laird
looked after him with a gentle surprise. But it was not to rush
from the room, nor yet to perform a frantic dance with the horse
for a partner.

One of the windows looked westward into the court, and at this
season of the year, the setting sun looked in at that window. He
was looking in now; his rays made a glowing pool of light in the
middle of the ancient carpet. Beside this pool Cosmo dropped on the
floor like a child with his toy, and pulled lustily at its ears.
All at once into the pool of light began to tumble a cataract as of
shattered rainbows, only brighter, flashing all the colours visible
to human eye. It ceased. Cosmo turned the horse upside down, and a
few stray drops followed. He shook it, and tapped it, like Grizzie
when she emptied the basin of meal into the porridge-pot, then
flung it from him. But the cataract had not vanished. There it lay
heaped and spread, a storm of conflicting yet harmonious hues, with
a foamy spray of spiky flashes, and spots that ate into the eyes
with their fierce colour. In every direction shot the rays from it,
blinding; for it was a mound of stones of all the shapes into which
diamonds are fashioned. It makes my heart beat but to imagine the
glorious show of deep-hued burning, flashing, stinging light! The
heaviest of its hues was borne light as those of a foam-bubble on
the strength of its triumphing radiance. There pulsed the mystic
glowing red, heart and lord of colour; there the jubilant yellow,
light-glorified to ethereal gold; there the loveliest blue, the
truth unfathomable, profounder yet than the human red; there the
green, that haunts the brain with Nature’s soundless secrets! all
together striving, yet atoning, fighting and fleeing and following,
parting and blending, with illimitable play of infinite force and
endlessly delicate gradation. Scattered here and there were a few
of all the coloured gems--sapphires, emeralds, and rubies; but they
were scarce of note in the mass of ever new-born, ever dying colour
that gushed from the fountains of the light-dividing diamonds.

Cosmo rose, left the glory where it lay, and returning to his
father, sat down beside him. For a few moments they regarded in
silence the shining mound, where, like an altar of sacrifice, it
smoked with light and colour. The eyes of the old man as he looked
seemed at once to sparkle with pleasure, and quail with some kind
of fear. He turned to Cosmo and said,

“Cosmo, are they what they luik?”

“What luik they, father?” asked Cosmo.

“Bonny bits o’ glaiss they luik,” answered the old man. “But,” he
went on, “I canna but believe them something better, they come
til ’s in sic a time o’ sair need. But, be they this or be they
that, the Lord’s wull be dune--noo an’ for ever, be it, I say, what
it like!”

“I wuss it, father!” rejoined Cosmo. “But I ken something aboot
sic-like things, frae bein’ sae muckle in Mr. Burns’s shop, an’
hauding a heap o’ conference wi’ im about them; an’ I tell ye, sir,
they’re maistly a’ di’mon’s; an’ the nummer o’ thoosan’ poun’ they
maun be worth gien they be worth a saxpence, I daurna guess!”

“They’ll be eneuch to pey oor debts ony gait, ye think, Cosmo?”

“Ay, that wull they--an’ mony a hun’er times ower. They’re maistly
a guid size, an’ no a feow o’ them lairge.”

“Cosmo, we’re ower lang ohn thankit. Come here, my son; gang doon
upo’ yer knees, an lat’s say to the Lord what we’re thinkin’.”

Cosmo obeyed, and knelt at his father’s knee, and his father laid
his hand upon his head that so they might pray more in one.

“Lord,” he said, “though naething a man can tak in his han’s can
ever be his ain, no bein’ o’ his nature, that is, made i’ thy
eemage, yet, O Lord, the thing ’at’s thine, made by thee efter thy
holy wull an’ pleesur, man may touch an’ no be defiled. Yea, he may
tak pleesur baith in itsel’ an’ in its use, sae lang as he han’les
’t i’ the how o’ thy han’, no grippin’ at it an’ ca’in’ ’t his ain,
an’ lik a rouch bairn seekin’ to snap it awa’ ’at he may hae his
fule wull o’ ’t. O God, they’re bonny stanes an’ fu’ o’ licht:
forbid ’at their licht sud breed darkness i’ the hert o’ Cosmo an’
me. O God, raither nor we sud du or feel ae thing i’ consequence o’
this thy gift, that thoo wadna hae us do or feel, we wad hae thee
tak again the gift; an’ gien i’ thy mercy, for it’s a’ mercy wi’
thee, it sud turn oot, efter a’, ’at they’re no stanes o’ thy
makin’, but coonterfeit o’ glaiss, the produc’ o’ airt an’ man’s
device, we’ll lay them a’ thegither, an’ keep them safe, an’ luik
upon them as a token o’ what thoo wad hae dune for ’s gien it hadna
been ’at we warna yet to be trustit wi’ sae muckle, an’ that for
the safety an’ clean-throuness o’ oor sowls. O God, latna the
sunshiny Mammon creep intil my Cosmo’s hert an’ mak a’ mirk; latna
the licht that is in him turn to darkness. God hae mercy on his wee
bairns, an’ no lat the play ocks he gies them tak their e’en aff o’
the giein’ han’! May the licht noo streamin’ frae the hert o’ the
bonny stanes be the bodily presence o’ thy speerit, as ance was the
doo ’at descendit upo’ the maister, an’ the buss ’at burned wi’
fire an’ wasna consumed. Thoo art the father o’ lichts, an’ a’
licht is thine. Gar oor herts burn like them--a’ licht an’ nae reek!
An’ gien ony o’ them cam in at a wrang door, may they a’ gang oot
at a richt ane. Thy wull be dune, which is the purifyin’ fire o’ a’
thing, an’ a’ sowl! Amen.”

He ceased, and was silent, praying still. Nor did Cosmo yet rise
from his knees: the joy, and yet more the relief at his heart
filled him afresh with fear, lest, no longer spurred by the same
sense of need, he should the less run after him from whom help had
come so plentifully. Alas! how is it with our hearts that in
trouble they cry, and in joy forget! that we think it hard of God
not to hear, and when he has answered abundantly, turn away as if
we wanted him no more!

When Cosmo rose from his knees, he looked his father in the face
with wet eyes.

“Oh, father!” he said, “how the fear and oppression of ages are
gone like a cloud swallowed up of space. Oh, father! are not all
human ills doomed thus to vanish at last in the eternal fire of the
love-burning God?--An’ noo, father, what’ll we du neist?” resumed
Cosmo after a pause, turning his eyes again on the heap of jewels.
The sunrays had now left them, and they lay cold and almost
colourless, though bright still: even in the dark some of them
would shine! “It pleases me, father,” he went on, “to see nane o’
them set. It pruvs naething, but maks ’t jist a wheen mair likly he
got them first han’ like. Eh, the queer things! sae hard, an’ yet
’maist bodiless! naething but skinfu’s o’ licht!”

“Hooever they war gotten,” rejoined the laird, “there can be no
question but the only w’y o’ cleansin’ them is to put them to the
best use we possibly can.”

“An’ what wad ye ca’ the best use, father?”

“Whatever maks o’ a man a neebour. A true life efter God’s notion
is the sairest bash to Sawtan. To gie yer siller to ither fowk to
spread is to jink the wark laid oot for ye. I’ the meantime hadna
ye better beery yer deid again? They maun lie i’ the dark, like
human sowls, till they’re broucht to du the deeds o’ licht.”

“Dinna ye think,” said Cosmo, “I micht set oot the morn efter a’,
though on a different eeran’, an’ gang straucht to Mr. Burns? He’ll
sune put ’s i’ the w’y to turn them til accoont. They’re o’ sma’
avail as they lie there.”

“Ye canna du better, my son,” answered the old man.

So Cosmo gathered the gems together into the horse, lifting them in
handfuls. But, peeping first into the hollow of the animal, to make
sure he had found all that was in it, he caught sight of a bit of
paper that had got stuck, and found it a Bank of England note for
five hundred pounds. This in itself would have been riches an hour
ago--now it was only a convenience.

“It’s queer to think,” said Cosmo, “’at though we hae a’ this
siller, I maun tramp it the morn like ony caird. Wha is there in
Muir o’ Warlock could change ’t, an’ wha wad I gang til wi’ ’t gien
he could?”

His father replied with a smile,

“It brings to my min’ the words o’ the apostle--‘Noo I say, that
the heir, sae lang as he’s but a bairn, differeth naething frae a
servan’, though he be lord o’ a’.’ Eh, Cosmo, but the word admits
o’ curious illustration!”

Cosmo set the horse, as soon as he had done giving him his supper
of diamonds, again in his old stall, and replaced the stones that
had shut him in as well as he could. Then he wedged up the door,
and having nothing to make paste, glued the paper again to the wall
which it had carried with it. He next sought the kitchen and
Grizzie.




CHAPTER LVI.

MR. BURNS.


“Grizzie,” he said, “I’m gaein’ a lang tramp the morn, an’ I’ll
need a great poochfu’ o’ cakes.”

“Eh, sirs! An’ what’s takin’ ye frae hame this time, sir?” returned
Grizzie.

“I’m no gaein’ to tell ye the nicht, Grizzie. It’s my turn to hae a
secret noo! But ye ken weel it’s lang sin’ there’s been onything to
be gotten by bidin’ at hame.”

“Eh, but, sir! ye’re never gaein’ to lea’ the laird! Bide an’ dee
wi’ him, sir.”

“God bless ye, Grizzie! Hae ye ony baubees?”

“Ay; what for no! I hae sax shillin’s, fower pennies, an’ a
baubee fardin’!” answered Grizzie, in the tone of a millionaire.

“Weel, ye maun jist len’ me half a croon o’ ’t.”

“Half a croon!” echoed Grizzie, staggered at the largeness of the
demand. “Haith, sir, ye’re no blate (_bashful_)!”

“I dinna think it’s ower muckle,” said Cosmo, “seein’ I hae to
tramp five an’ thirty mile the morn. But bake ye plenty o’ breid,
an’ that’ll haud doon the expence. Only, gien he can help it, a
body sudna be wantin’ a baubee in ’s pooch. Gien ye had nane to gie
me, I wad set oot bare. But jist as ye like, Grizzie! I cud beg to
be sure--noo ye hae shawn the gait,” he added, taking the old woman
by the arm with a laugh, that she might not be hurt, “but whan ye
ken ye sudna speir, an’ whan ye hae, ye hae no richt to beg.”

“Weel, I’ll gie ye auchteen pence, an’ considerin’ a’ ’at’s to be
dune wi’ what’s left, ye’ll hae to grant it’s no an oonfair
portion.”

“Weel, weel, Grizzie! I’m thinkin’ I’ll hae to be content.”

“’Deed, an’ ye wull, sir! Ye s’ hae nae mair.”

That night the old laird slept soundly, but Cosmo, ever on the
brink of unconsciousness, was blown back by a fresh gust of
gladness. The morning came golden and brave, and his father was
well enough to admit of his leaving him. So he set out, and in the
strength of his relief walked all the way without spending a
half-penny of Grizzie’s eighteen pence: two days before, he would
consult his friend how to avoid the bitterest dregs of poverty; now
he must find from him how to make his riches best available!

He did not tell Mr. Burns, however, what his final object was--only
begged him, for the sake of friendship and old times, to go with
him for a day or two to his father’s.

“But, Mr. Warlock,” objected the jeweller, “that would be taking
the play, and we’ve got to be diligent in business.”

“The thing I want you for is business,” replied Cosmo.

“But what’s to be done with the shop? I have no assistant I can
trust.”

“Then shut it up, and give your men a holiday. You can put up a
notice informing the great public when you will be back.”

“Such a thing was never heard of!”

“It is quite time it should be heard of then. Why, sir, your
business is not like a doctor’s, or even a baker’s. People can live
without diamonds!”

“Don’t speak disrespectfully of diamonds, Mr. Warlock. If you knew
them as I do, you would know they had a thing or two to say.”

“Speak of them disrespectfully you never heard me, Mr. Burns.”

“Never, I confess. I was only talking from the diamond side. Like
all things else, they give us according to what we have. To him
that hath shall be given. The fine lady may see in her fine
diamonds only victory over a rival; the philosopher may read
embodied in them law inexorably beautiful; and the Christian
poet--oh, I have read my Spenser, Mr. Warlock!--will choose the
diamond for its many qualities, as the best and only substance
wherein to represent the shield of the faith that overcometh the
world. Like the gospel itself, diamonds are a savour of life unto
life, or a savour of death unto death, according to the character
of them that look on them.”

“That is true enough. Every gift of God is good that is received
with faith and thanksgiving, and whatsoever is not of faith is sin.
But will you come?”

Mr. Burns did at length actually consent to close his shop for
three days, and go with Cosmo.

“It will not be a bad beginning,” he said, as if in justification
of himself to himself, “towards retiring from business
altogether--which I might have done long ago,” he added, “but for
you, sir!”

“It is very well for me you did not,” rejoined Cosmo, but declined
to explain. This piqued Mr. Burns’s curiosity, and he set about his
preparations at once.

In the mean time things went well at Castle Warlock, with--shall I
say?--one exception: Grizzie had a severe fit of repentance,
mourning bitterly that she had sent away the youth she worshipped
with only eighteen pence in his pocket.

“He’s sure to come to grief for the want o’ jist that ae shillin’
mair!” she said over and over to herself; “an’ it’ll be a’ an’ only
my wite! What gien we never see ’im again! Eh, sirs! it’s a
terrible thing to be made sae contrairy! What’ll come o’ me in the
neist warl’, it wad be hard for onybody to say!”

On the evening of the second day, however, while she was “washing
up” in the gloomiest frame of mind, in walked Cosmo, and a
gentleman after him.

“Hoo’s my father, Grizzie?” asked Cosmo.

“Won’erfu’ weel, sir,” answered Grizzie, with a little more show
of respect than usual.

“This is Grizzie, Mr. Burns,” said Cosmo. “I have told you about
Grizzie that takes care of us all!”

“How do you do, Grizzie?” said Mr. Burns, and shook hands with her.
“I am glad to make your acquaintance.”

“Here, Grizzie!” said Cosmo; “here’s the auchteen pence ye gae me
for expences: say ye’re pleased I haena waured it.--Jist a word wi’
ye, Grizzie!--Luik here--only dinna tell!”

He had drawn her aside to the corner where stood the meal-chest,
and now showed her a bunch of banknotes. So many she had never
seen--not to say in a bunch, but scattered over all her life! He
took from the bunch ten pounds and gave her.

“Mr. Burns,” he said aloud, “will be staying over to-morrow, I
hope.”

Grizzie _glowered_ at the money as if such a sum could not be canny,
but the next moment, like one suddenly raised to dignity and power,
she began to order Aggie about as if she were her mistress, and an
imperious one. Within ten minutes she had her bonnet on, and was
setting out for Muir o’ Warlock to make purchases.

But oh the pride and victory that rose and towered and sank weary,
only to rise and tower again in Grizzie’s mind, as she walked to
the village with all that money in her pocket! The dignity of the
house of Warlock had rushed aloft like a sudden tidal wave, and on
its very crest Grizzie was borne triumphing heavenwards. From one
who begged at strange doors for the daily bread of a decayed
family, all at once she was the housekeeper of the most ancient and
honourable castle in all Scotland, steering the great ship of its
fortunes! With a reserve and a dignity as impressive as provoking
to the gossips of the village, from one shop to another she went,
buying carefully but freely, rousing endless curiosity by her look
of mystery, and her evident consciousness of infinite resource. But
when at last she went to the Warlock Arms, and bought a half dozen
of port at the incredible price of six shillings a bottle, there
was not a doubt left in the Muir that “the auld laird” had at last
and somehow come in for a great fortune. Grizzie returned laden
herself, and driving before her two boys carrying a large basket
between them. Now she was equal to the proper entertainment of the
visitor, for whom, while she was away, Aggie, obedient to her
orders, was preparing the state bedroom--thinking all the time of
that night long ago when she and Cosmo got it ready for Lord
Mergwain.

Cosmo and Mr. Burns found the laird seated by the fire in his room;
and there Cosmo recounted the whole story of the finding of the
gems, beginning far back with the tales concerning the old captain,
as they had come to his knowledge, just touching on the acquisition
of the bamboo, and the discovery of its contents, and so descending
to the revelations of the previous two days. But all the time he
never gave the jeweller a hint of what was coming. In relating the
nearer events, he led him from place to place, acting his part in
them, and forestalling nothing, never once mentioning stone or gem,
then suddenly poured out the diamonds on the rug in the firelight.

Leaving the result to the imagination of my reader, I will now tell
him a thing that took place while Cosmo was away.




CHAPTER LVII.

TOO SURE COMES TOO LATE.


The same day Cosmo left, Lord Lick-my-loof sent to the castle the
message that he wanted to see young Mr. Warlock. The laird returned
the answer that Cosmo was from home, and would not be back till the
day following.

In the afternoon came his lordship, desiring an interview with the
laird; which, not a little against his liking, the laird granted.

“Set ye doon, my lord,” said Grizzie, “an’ rist yer shins. The ro’d
atween this an’ the ludge, maun be slithery.”

His lordship yielded and took the chair she offered, for he would
rather propitiate than annoy her, seeing he was more afraid of
Grizzie than aught in creation except dogs. And Grizzie,
appreciating his behaviour, had compassion upon him and spared him.

“His lairdship,” she said, “maunna be hurried puttin’ on his
dressin’-goon. He’s no used to see onybody sae ear’. I s’ gang an’
see gien I can help him; he never wad hae a man aboot ’im ’cep’ the
yoong laird himsel’.”

Relieved by her departure, his lordship began to look about the
kitchen, and seeing Aggie, asked after her father. She replied that
he was but poorly.

“Getting old!”

“Surely, my lord. He’s makin’ ready to gang.”

“Poor old man!”

“What wad yer lordship hae? Ye wadna gang on i’ this warl’ for
ever?”

“’Deed and I would have no objection--so long as there were pretty
girls like you in it.”

“Suppose the lasses had a ch’ice tu, my lord?”

“What would they do?”

“Gang, I’m thinkin’.”

“What makes you so spiteful, Aggie? I never did you any harm that I
know of.”

“Ye ken the story o’ the guid Samaritan, my lord?” said Aggie.

“I read my Bible, I hope.”

“Weel, I’ll tell ye a bit mair o’ ’t nor ye’ll get there. The
Levite an’ the Pharisee--naebody ever said yer lordship was like
aither o’ them--”

“No, thank God! nobody could.”

“--they gaed by o’ the ither side, an’ loot him lie. But there was
ane cam up, an’ tuik ’im by the legs, ’cause he lay upo’ his lan’,
an’ wad hae pu’d him aff. But jist i’ the nick o’ time by cam the
guid Samaritan, an’ set him rinnin’. Sae it was sune a sma’ maitter
to onybody but the ill neebour, wha couldna weel gang straucht to
Paradise. Abraham wad hae a fine time o’ ’t wi’ sic a bairn in ’s
bosom!”

“Damn the women! Young and old they’re too many for me!” said his
lordship to himself,--and just then Grizzie returning invited him
to walk up to the laird’s room, where he made haste to set forth
the object of his visit.

“I said to your son, Glenwarlock, when he came to me the other
morning, that I would not buy.”

“Yes, my lord.”

“I have however, lawyer though I be, changed my mind, and am come
to renew my offer.”

“In the meantime, however, we have changed our minds, my lord, and
will not sell.”

“That’s very foolish of you.”

“It may seem so, my lord; but you must allow us to do the best with
what modicum of judgment we possess.”

“What can have induced you to come to such a fatal resolution! I am
thoroughly acquainted with the value of the land all about here,
and am convinced you will not get such a price from another, be he
who he may.”

“You may be right, my lord, but we do not want to sell.”

“Nobody, I repeat, will make you a better--I mean an equal offer.”

“I could well believe it might not be worth more to anyone else--so
long, that is, as your lordship’s property shuts it in on every
side; but to your lordship--”

“That is my affair; what it is worth to you is the question.”

“It is worth more to us than you can calculate.”

“I daresay, where sentiment sends prices up! But that is not in the
market. Take my advice and a good offer. You can’t go on like this,
you know. You will lose your position entirely. Why, what are you
thinking of!”

“I am thinking, my lord, that you have scarcely been such a
neighbour as to induce us to confide our plans to you. I have said
we will not sell--and as I am something of an invalid--”

Lord Lick-my-loof rose, feeling fooled--and annoyed with himself
and everybody in “the cursed place.”

“Good morning, Glenwarlock,” he said. “You will live to repent this
morning.”

“I hope not, my lord. I have lived nearly long enough. Good
morning!”

His lordship went softly down the stair, hurried through the
kitchen, and walked slowly home, thinking whether it might not be
worth his while to buy up Glenwarlock’s few remaining debts.




CHAPTER LVIII.

A LITTLE LIFE WELL ROUNDED.


“Pirate or not, the old gentleman was a good judge of diamonds!”
said Mr. Burns, laying down one of the largest. “Not an inferior
one in all I have gone over! Your uncle was a knowing man, sir:
diamonds are worth much more now than when he brought them home.
These rough ones will, I trust, turn out well: we cannot be so sure
of them.”

“How much suffering the earlier possession of them would have
prevented!” said the laird. “And now they are ten times more
welcome that we have the good of that first.”

“Sapphires and all of the finest quality!” continued Mr. Burns, in
no mood for reflection. “I’ll tell you what you must do, Mr. Cosmo:
you must get a few sheets of tissue paper, and wrap every stone up
separately--a long job, but the better worth doing! There must be a
thousand of them!”

“How can they hurt, being the hardest things in the world?” said
Cosmo.

“Put them in any other company you please--wheel them to the
equator in a barrowful of gravel, or line their box with
sand-paper, and you may leave them naked as they were born! But,
bless thy five wits! did you never hear the proverb, ‘Diamond cut
diamond’? They’re all of a sort, you see! I’d as soon shut up a
thousand game-cocks in the same cellar. If they don’t scratch each
other, they may, or they might, or they could, or they would, or at
any rate they should scratch each other. It was all very well so
long as they lay in the wall of this your old diamond-mine. But now
you’ll be for ever playing with them! No, no! wrap each one up by
itself, I say.”

“We’re so far from likely to keep fingering them, Mr. Burns,” said
Cosmo, “that our chief reason for wishing you to see them was that
you might, if you would oblige us, take them away, and dispose of
them for us!”

“A-ah!” rejoined Mr. Burns, “I fear I am getting too old for a
transaction of such extent! I should have to go to London--to
Paris--to Amsterdam--who knows where?--that is, to make the best of
them--perhaps to America! And here was I thinking of retiring!”

“Then let this be your last business-transaction. It will not be a
bad one to finish up with. You can make it a good thing for
yourself as well as for us.”

“If I undertake it, it shall be at a fixed percentage.”

“Ten?” suggested Cosmo.

“No; there is no risk, only labour in this. When I took ten for
that other diamond, I paid you the money for it, you will remember:
that makes a difference. I wish you would come with me; I could
help you to see a little of the world.”

“I should like it greatly, but I could not leave my father.”

Mr. Burns was a little nervous about the safety of the portmanteau
that held such a number of tiny parcels in silver paper, and would
not go inside the coach although it rained, but took a place in
sight of his luggage. I will not say what the diamonds brought. I
would not have my book bristle with pounds like a French novel with
francs. They more than answered even Mr. Burns’s expectations.

When he was gone, and all hope for this world vanished in the
fruition of assured solvency, the laird began to fail. While Cosmo
was yet on the way with Mr. Burns and the portmanteau to meet the
coach, he said to his faithful old friend,

“I’m tired, Grizzie; I’ll gang to my bed, I think. Gien ye’ll gie
me a han’, I winna bide for Cosmo.”

“Eh, sir, what for sud ye be in sic a hurry to sleep awa’ the bonny
daylicht?” remonstrated Grizzie, shot through with sudden fear, nor
daring allow to herself she was afraid. “Bide till the yoong laird
comes back wi’ the news: he winna be lang.”

“Gien ye haena time, Grizzie, I can manage for mysel’. Gang yer
wy’s, lass. Ye hae been a richt guid freen’ to yer auld mistress!
Ye hae dune yer best for him ’at she left!”

“Eh, sir! dinna speyk like that. It’s terrible to hearken til!--I’
the verra face o’ the providence ’at’s been takin’ sic pains to mak
up to ye for a’ ye hae gang throu’--noo whan a’ ’s weel, an’ like to
be weel, to turn roon’ like this, an’ speyk o’ gaein’ to yer bed!
It’s no worthy o’ ye, laird!”

He was so amused with her expostulation that he laughed heartily,
brightened up, and did not go to bed before Cosmo came--kept up,
indeed, a good part of the day, and retired with the sun shining in
at his western window.

The next day, however, he did not rise. But he had no suffering to
speak of, and his face was serene as the gathering of the sunrays
to go down together; a perfect yet deepening peace was upon it.
Cosmo scarcely left him, but watched and waited, with a cold spot
at his heart, which kept growing bigger and bigger, as he saw his
father slowly drifting out on the ebb-tide of this earthly life.
Cosmo had now to go through that most painful experience of
all--when the loved seem gradually withdrawing from human contact
and human desires, their cares parting slowly farther and farther
from the cares of those they leave--a gulf ever widening between,
already impassable as lapsing ages can make it. But when final
departure had left the mind free to work for the heart, Cosmo said
to himself--“What if the dying who seem thus divided from us, are
but looking over the tops of insignificant earthly things? What if
the heart within them is lying content in a closer contact with
ours than our dull fears and too level outlook will allow us to
share? One thing their apparent withdrawal means--that we must go
over to them; they cannot retrace, for that would be to retrograde.
They have already begun to learn the language and ways of the old
world, begun to be children there afresh, while we remain still the
slaves of new, low-bred habits of unbelief and self-preservation,
which already to them look as unwise as unlovely. But our turn will
come, and we shall go after, and be taught of them. In the meantime
let us so live that it may be the easier for us in dying to let the
loved ones know that we are loving them all the time.”

The laird ceased to eat, and spoke seldom, but would often
smile--only there was in his smile too that far-off something which
troubled his son. One word he often murmured--_peace_. Two or three
times there came as it were a check in the drift seaward, and he
spoke plainly. This is very near what he said on one of these
occasions:

“Peace! peace! Cosmo, my son, ye dinna ken hoo strong it can be!
Naebody can ken what it’s like till it comes. I hae been troubled
a’ my life, an’ noo the verra peace is ’maist ower muckle for me!
It’s like as gien the sun wad put oot the fire. I jist seem whiles
to be lyin’ here waitin’ for ye to come intil my peace, an’ be ane
wi’ me! But ye hae a lang this warl’s life afore ye yet. Eh! winna
it be gran’ whan it’s weel ower, an’ ye come! You an’ me an’ yer
mother an’ God an’ a’! But somehoo I dinna seem to be lea’in’ ye
aither--no half sae muckle as whan ye gaed awa’ to the college, an’
that although ye’re ten times mair to me noo than ye war than.
Deith canna weel be muckle like onything we think aboot it; but
there maun surely be a heap o’ fowk unco dreary an’ fusionless i’
the warl’ deith taks us til; an’ the mair I think aboot it, the
mair likly it seems we’ll hae a heap to du wi’ them--a sair wark
tryin’ to lat them ken what they are, an’ whaur they cam frae, an’
hoo they maun gang to win hame--for deith can no more be yer hame
nor a sair fa’ upo’ the ro’d be yer bed. There may be mony ane
there we ca’d auld here, ’at we’ll hae to tak like a bairn upo’ oor
knees an’ bring up. I see na anither w’y o’ ’t. The Lord may ken a’
better, but I think he’s shawn me this. For them ’at are Christ’s
maun hae wark like his to du, an’ what for no the personal
ministrations o’ redemption to them ’at are deid, that they may
come alive by kennin’ him? Auld bairns as weel as yoong hae to be
fed wi’ the spune.”

The day before that on which he went, he seemed to wake up
suddenly, and said,--

“Cosmo, I’m no inclined to mak a promise wi’ regaird to ony
possible communication wi’ ye frae the ither warl’, nor do I
the least expec’ to appear or speyk to ye. But ye needna for that
conclude me awa’ frae ye a’ thegither. Fowk may hae a hantle o’
communication ohn aither o’ them kent it at the time, I’m thinkin’.
Min’ this ony gait: God’s oor hame, an’ gien ye be at hame an’ I be
at hame, we canna be far sun’ert!”

As the sun was going down, closing a lovely day of promise, the
boat of sleep, with a gentle wind of life and birth filling its
sail, bore, softly gliding, the old pilgrim across the faint border
between this and that. It may be that then, for a time, like a babe
new-born, he needed careful hands and gentle nursing; and if so,
there was his wife, who must surely by now have had time to grow
strong. Cosmo wept and was lonely, but not broken-hearted; for he
was a live man with a mighty hope and great duties, each of them
ready to become a great joy. Such a man I do not think even
diamonds could hurt, although, where breathes no wind of life,
those very crystals of light are amongst the worst in Beelzebub’s
army to fly-blow a soul into a thing of hate and horror.




CHAPTER LIX.

A BREAKING UP.


Things in the castle went on in the same quiet way as before for
some time. Cosmo settled himself in his father’s room, and read and
wrote, and pondered and aspired. The household led the same homely
simple life, only fared better. The housekeeping was in Grizzie’s
hands, and she was a liberal soul--a true _bread-giver_.

James Gracie did not linger long behind his friend. His last words
were, “I won’er gien I hae a chance o’ winnin’ up wi’ the laird!”

On the morning that followed his funeral, as soon as breakfast was
over, Aggie sought Cosmo, where he sat in the garden with a book in
his hand.

“Whaur are ye gaein’, Aggie?” he said, as she approached prepared
for walking.

“_My_ hoor’s come,” she answered. “It’s time I was awa’.”

“I dinna un’erstan’ ye, Aggie,” he returned.

“Hoo sud ye, sir? Ilka body kens, or sud ken, what lies to their
ain han’. It lies to mine to gang. I’m no wantit langer. Ye wadna
hae me ait the breid o’ idleness?”

“But, Aggie,” remonstrated Cosmo, “ye’re ane o’ the faimily! I wad
as sune think o’ seein’ my ain sister, gien I had ane, gang frae
hame for sic a nae rizzon at a’!”

The tears rose in her eyes, and her voice trembled:

“It canna be helpit; I maun gang,” she said.

Cosmo was dumb for many moments; he had never thought of such a
possibility; and Aggie stood silent before him.

“What hae ye i’ yer heid, Aggie? What thoucht ye o’ duin’ wi’
yersel’?” he asked at length, his heart swelling so that he could
scarcely bring out the words.

“I’m gaein’ to luik for a place.”

“But, Aggie, gien it canna be helpit; and gang ye maun, _ye_ ken I’m
rich, an’ _I_ ken there’s naebody i’ the warl’ wi’ a better richt
to share in what I hae: wadna ye like to gang til a ladies’ school,
an’ learn a heap o’ things?”

“Na, I wadna. It’s hard wark I need, to haud me i’ the richt ro’d. I
can aye learn what I hunger for, an’ what ye dinna desire ye’ll
never learn. Thanks to yersel’ an’ Maister Simon, ye hae putten me
i’ the w’y o’ that! It’s no kennin’ things--it’s kennin’ things
upo’ the ro’d ye gang, ’at’s o’ consequence to ye. The lave I mak
naething o’.”

“But a time micht come whan ye wad want mony a thing ye micht hae
learnt afore.”

“Whan that time comes, I’ll learn them than, wi’ half the trouble,
an’ in half the time,--no to mention the pleesur o’ learnin’ them.
Noo, they wad but tak me frae the things I can an’ maun mak use o’.
Na, Cosmo, I’m b’un’ to du something wi’ what I hae, an’ no bide
till I get mair. I’ll be aye gettin’.”

“Weel, Aggie, I daurna temp’ ye to bide gien ye oucht to gang; an’
ye wad but despise me gien I was fule eneuch to try ’t. But ye
canna refuse to share wi’ me. That wadna be like ane ’at had the
same father an’ the same maister. Tak a thoosan’ poun’ to begin
wi’, an’ gang an’--an’ du onything ye like, only dinna work yersel’
to deith wi’ rouch wark. I canna bide to think o’ ’t.”

“A thoosan’ poun’! No ae baubee! Cosmo, I wad hae thoucht ye had
mair sense! What wad baudrins (_pussy-cat_) there du wi’ a silk goon?
Ye can gie me the twa poun’ ten I gae to Grizzie to help haud the
life in ’s a’. A body maun hae something i’ their pooch gien they
can, an’ gien they canna, they maun du wi’ naething. It’s won’erfu’
hoo little’s railly wantit!”

Cosmo felt miserable.

“Ye winna surely gang ohn seein’ Maister Simon!”

“I tried to see him last nicht, but auld Dorty wadna lat me near
him. I _wad_ fain say fareweel til him.”

“Weel, put aff gaein’ awa’ till the morn, an’ we’ll gang thegither
the nicht an’ see him. Dorty winna haud _me_ oot.”

Aggie hesitated, thought, and consented. Leaving Cosmo more
distressed than she knew, she went to the kitchen, took off her
bonnet, and telling Grizzie she was not going till the morrow, sat
down, and proceeded to pare the potatoes.

“Ance mair,” said Grizzie, resuming an unclosed difference, “what
for ye sud gang’s clean ’ayont me. It’s true the auld men are awa’,
but here’s the auld wife left, an’ she’ll be a mither to ye, as
weel ’s she kens hoo, an’ a lass o’ your sense is easy to mither. I’
the name o’ God I say ’t, the warl’ micht as weel objec’ to twa
angels bidin’ i’ h’aven thegither as you an’ the yoong laird in ae
hoose! Say ’at they like, ye’re but a servan’ lass, an’ here am I
ower ye! Aggie, I’m grouin’ auld, an’ railly no fit to mak a bed my
lane--no to mention scoorin’ the flure! It’s no considerate o’ ye,
Aggie!--jist ’cause yer father--hoots, he was but yer gran’father!
--’s deid o’ a guid auld age, an’ gaithert til _his_ fathers, to gang
an’ lea’ me my lane! Whaur am I to get a body I cud bide to hae i’
my sicht, an’ you awa’--you ’at’s been like bane o’ my bane to me!
It’s no guid o’ ye, Aggie! There maun be temper intil ’t! I’m sure
I ken no cause ever I gae ye.”

Aggie said not a word; she had said all she could say, over and
over; so now she pared her potatoes, and was silent. Her heart was
sore, but her mind was clear, and her will strong.

Up and down the little garden Cosmo walked, revolving many things.
“What is this world and its ways,” he said, “but a dream that
dreams itself out and is gone!”

The majority of men, whether they think or not, worship solidity
and fact: to such Cosmo’s conclusion must seem both foolish and
dangerous--though a dream may be filled with truth, and a fact be a
mere shred for the winds of the limbo of vanities. Everything that
_can_ pass belongs to the same category with the dream. The question
is whether the passing body leaves a live soul; whether the dream
has been dreamed, the life lived aright. For there is a reality
beyond all facts of suns and systems; solidity itself is but the
shadow of a divine necessity; and there may be more truth in a
fable than in a whole biography. Where life and truth are one,
there is no passing, no dreaming more. To that waking, all dreams
truly dreamed are guiding the dreamer. But the last thing--and this
was the conclusion of Cosmo’s meditation--any dreamer needs regard,
is the judgment of other dreamers upon his dreams. The
all-pervading, ill-odoured phantom called Society is but the ghost
of a false God. The fear of man, the trust in man, the deference to
the opinion of man, is the merest worship of a rag-stuffed idol.
The man who _seeks_ the judgment of God can well smile at the
unsolicited approval or condemnation of self-styled Society. There
_is_ a true society--quite another thing. Doubtless the judgment of
the world is of even moral value to those capable of regarding it.
To deprive a thief of the restraining influence of the code of
thieves’ honour, would be to do him irreparable wrong; so with the
tradesman whose law is the custom of the trade; but God demands an
honesty, a dignity, a beauty of being, altogether different from
that demanded by man of his fellow; and he who is taught of God is
set out of sight above such law as that of thieves’ honour,
trade-custom, or social recognition--all of the same
quality--subjected instead to a law which obeyed is liberty,
disobeyed is a hell deeper than Society’s attendant slums.

“Here is a woman,” said Cosmo to himself, “who, with her earnings
and her labour both, ministered to the very bodily life of my
father and myself! She has been in the house the angel of God--the
noblest, truest of women! She has ten times as much genuine
education as most men who have been to college! Her brain is second
only to her heart!--If it had but pleased God to make her my
sister! But there is a way of pulling out the tongue of Slander!”

The evening was Mr. Simon’s best time, and they therefore let the
sun go down before they left the castle to visit him. On their way
they had a right pleasant talk about old things, now the one now
the other bringing some half faded event from the store-closet of
memory.

“I doobt ye winna min’ me takin’ ye oot o’ the Warlock ae day there
was a gey bit o’ a spait on?” said Agnes at length, looking up in
Cosmo’s face.

“Eh, I never h’ard o’ that, Aggie!” replied Cosmo.

“I canna think to this day hoo it was ye fell in,” she went on: “I
had the chairge o’ ye at the time. Ye maun hae run oot o’ the
hoose, an’ me efter ye. I was verra near taen awa’ wi’ ye. Hoo we
wan oot o’ the watter I canna un’erstan’. A’ ’at I ken is ’at whan
I cam to mysel’, we war lyin’ grippit til ane anither upon a laich
bit o’ the bank.”

“But hoo was ’t ’at naebody ever said a word aboot it efterhin’?”
asked Cosmo.

“I never tellt onybody, an’ ye wasna auld eneuch no to
forget a’ aboot it.”

“What for didna ye tell?”

“I was feart they wad think it my wite, an’ no lat me tak chairge
o’ ye ony mair, whauras I kent ye was safer wi’ me nor wi’ ony
ither aboot the place. Gien it had been my wite, I cudna hae hauden
my tongue; but as it was, I didna see I was b’un’ to tell.”

“Hoo did ye hide it?”

“I ran wi’ ye hame to oor ain hoose. There was naebody there. I
tuik aff yer weet claes, an’ pat ye intil my bed till I got them
dry.”

“An’ hoo did ye wi’ yer ain?”

“By the time yours was dry, mine was dry tu.”

When they arrived at the cottage, Dorty demurred, but her master
heard Cosmo’s voice and rang his bell.

“I little thought your father would have gone before me,” said Mr.
Simon. “I think I was aware of his death. I saw nothing, heard
nothing, neither was I thinking about him at the moment; but he
seemed to come to me, and I said to myself, ‘He is on his way home.
I shall have a talk with him by and by.’”

Agnes told him she had come to bid him good-bye; she was going
after a place.

“Well,” he answered, after a thoughtful pause, “so long as we obey
the light in us, and that light is not darkness, we can’t go wrong.
If we should mistake, he will turn things round for us; and if we
be to blame, he will let us see it.”

He was weak, and they did not stay long.

“Don’t judge my heart by my words, my dear scholars,” he said. “My
heart is right toward you, but I am too weary to show it. God bless
you both. I may not see you again, Agnes, but I shall think of you
there, and if I can do anything for you, be sure I will.”

When they left the cottage, the twilight was halfway towards the
night, and a vague softness in the east prophesied the moon. Cosmo
led Agnes through the fields to the little hollow where she had so
often gone to seek him. There they sat down in the grass, and
waited for the moon. Cosmo pointed out the exact spot where she
rose that night she looked at him through the legs of the cow.

“Ye min’ Grizzie’s rime,” he said:

  “‘Whan the coo loups ower the mune,
  The reid gowd rains intil men’s shune’?

I believe Grizzie took the queer sicht for a guid omen. It’s unco
strange hoo fowk’ll mix up God an’ chance, seein’ there could
hardly be twa mair contradictory ideas! I min’ ance hearin’ a man
say, ‘It’s almost a providence!’”

“I doobt wi’ maist fowk,” said Aggie, “it’s only ‘There’s almost a
God.’ For my pairt I see nae room atween no believin’ in him at a’,
an’ believin’ in him a’ thegither an’ lattin him du what he likes
wi’ ’s.”

“I’m o’ your min’ there, Aggie, oot an’ oot,” responded Cosmo.

As he spoke the moon came peering up, and, turning to Agnes to
share the sight with her, he saw the yellow light reflected from
tears. “Aggie! Aggie!” he said, in much concern, “what are ye
greitin’ for?”

She made no answer, but wiped away her tears, and tried to smile.
After a little pause,

“Ony body wad think, Cosmo,” she said, “’at gien I believed in a
God, he maun be a sma’ ane! What for sud onybody greit ’at has but
a far awa’ notion o’ sic a God as you an’ the laird an’ Maister
Simon believes in!”

“Ye may weel say that, Aggie!” rejoined Cosmo--yet sighed as he
said it, for he thought of Lady Joan. A long pause followed, and
then he spoke again.

“Aggie,” he said, “there canna weel be twa i’ this warl’ ’at ken
ane anither better nor you an’ me. We hae been bairns thegither; we
hae been to the schuil thegither; we hae had the same maister; we
hae come throu’ dour times thegither--I doobt we hae been hungry
thegither, though ye saidna a word; we hae warstlet wi’ poverty,
an’ maybe wi’ unbelief; we loe the same fowk best; an’ abune a’ we
set the wull o’ God. It wad be sair upo’ baith o’ ’s to pairt--an’
to me a vex forby ’at the first thing w’alth did for me sud be to
tak you awa’. It wad ’maist brak my hert to think ’at her ’at cam
throu’ the lan’ o’ drowth wi’ me--ay, tuik me throu’ ’t, for,
wantin’ her, I wad hae fa’en to rise nae mair, sud gang on climmin’
the dry hill-ro’d, an’ me lyin’ i’ the bonny meadow-gerse at the
fut o’ ’t. It canna be rizzon, Aggie! What for sud ye gang? Merry
me, Aggie, an’ bide--bide an’ ca’ the castel yer ain.”

“Hoots! wad ye merry yer mither!” cried Agnes, and to Cosmo’s fresh
dismay burst into laughter and tears together. I believe it was the
sole time in her life she ever gave way to discordant emotion.

Cosmo stared speechless. It was as if an angel had made a poor
human joke! He was much too bewildered to feel hurt, especially as
he was aware of no committed absurdity.

But Aggie was not pleased with herself. She choked her tears,
crushed down her laughter, and conquered. She took his hand in
hers.

“I beg yer pardon, Cosmo,” she said; “I shouldna hae lauchen.
Lauchin’, I’m sure, ’s far eneuch frae my hert! I kenna hoo I cam to
du ’t. But ye’re sic a bairn, Cosmo! Ye dinna ken what ye wad hae!
An’ bein’ a kin’ o’ a mither to ye a’ yer life, I maun lat ye see
what ye’re aboot--I wadna insist ower sair upo’ the years atween ’s,
though that’s no a sma’ maitter, but surely ye haena to be tellt at
this time o’ day, ’at for fowk to merry ’at dinna loe ane anither,
is little gien it be onything short o’ a sin.”

“_I_ hae aye loed _you_, Aggie,” said Cosmo, with some reproach in
his tone.

“Weel du I ken that. An ill hert wad be mine gien it didna tell me
that! But, Cosmo, whan ye said the word, didna _your_ hert tell ye ye
meant by ’t something no jist the verra same as ye inten’ it me to
un’erstan’ by ’t?”

“Aggie, Aggie!” sighed Cosmo, “I wad aye loe ye better an’ better.”

“Ay, ye wad, gien ye cud, Cosmo. But ye’re ower honest to see
throu’ yersel’; an’ I’m no sae honest but I can see throu’ you. Ye
wad merry me ’cause ye’re no wullin’ to pairt wi’ me, likin’ me
better nor ony but ane, an’ her ye canna get! Gien I was a leddy,
Cosmo, maybe I michtna be ower prood to tak ye upo’ thae terms, but
no bein’ what I am. It wad need love as roon ’s a sphere for that.
Eh, but there micht come a time o’ sair repentance! Ance merried
upo’ you, gien I war to tak it intil my heid ’at I was ae hair i’
yer gait, or ’at ye was ae hair freer like wi me oot o’ yer sicht,
I wad be like to rin to the verra back-wa’ o’ creation! Na; it was
weel eneuch as we hae been, but _merried_! Ye wad be guid to me aye, I
ken that, but I wad be aye wantin’ to be deid, ’at ye micht loe me
a wee better. I say naething o’ what the warl’ wad say to the laird
o’ Glenwarlock merryin’ his servan’ lass; for ye care as little for
the warl’ as I du, an’ we’re baith some wiser nor it. But efter a’,
Cosmo, I wad be some oot o’ my place--wadna I noo? The hen-birds
nae doobt are aye the soberer to luik at, an’ haena the gran’
colours nor the gran’ w’ys wi’ them ’at the cocks hae; but still
there’s a measur in a’ thing: it wad ill set a common hen to hae a
peacock for her man. My sowl, I ken, wad gang han’ in han’, in a
heumble w’y, wi’ yours, for I un’erstan’ ye, Cosmo; an’ the day may
come whan I’ll luik fitter for yer company nor I can the noo; but
wha like me could help a sense o’ unfitness, gien it war but gaein’
to the kirk side by side wi’ you? Luik at the twa o’ ’s noo i’ the
munelicht thegither! Dinna ye see ’at we dinna match?”

“A’ that wad be naething gien ye loed me, Aggie.”

“Gien _ye_ loed _me_, say, Cosmo--loed me eneuch to be prood o’ me! But
that ye dinna. Exem’ yer ain hert, an’ ye’ll see ’at ye dinna.--An’
what for sud ye!”

Here Aggie broke down. A burst of silent weeping, like that of one
desiring no comfort, followed. Suddenly she ceased and rose, and
they walked home without a word.

When Cosmo came down in the morning, Aggie was gone.




CHAPTER LX.

REPOSE.


Cosmo had no need of a very searching examination of his heart to
know that it was mainly the wish to make her some poor return for
her devotion, conjoined with the sincere desire to retain her
company, that had influenced him in the offer she had been too wise
and too genuinely loving to accept. He did not fall into any depths
of self-blame, for, whatever its kind, his love was of quality pure
and good. The only bitterness his offer bore was its justification
of Agnes’s departure.

But Grizzie saw no justification of it anywhere.

“What I’m to du wantin’ her, I div not ken. _No becomin’_, quo’ he,
_for a lass like her to bide wi’ a bachelor like himsel’!_

“H’ard ever onybody sic styte! As gien she had been a lady
forsooth! I micht wi’ jist as muckle sense objec’ to bidin’ wi’ him
mysel’! But I s’ du what I like, an’ lat fowk say ’at they like, sae
lang as I’m na fule i’ my ain e’en!

  I’m ower white, Mr. Gled, for you.
  Ow na! ye’re no that, bonny doo.”

But by degrees Cosmo grew gently ashamed of himself that he had so
addressed Agnes. He saw in the thing a failure in respect, a wrong
to her dignity. That she had taken it so sweetly did not alter its
character. Seeming at the time to himself to be going against the
judgment of the world, and treating it with the contempt it always
more or less deserves, he had in reality been acting in no small
measure according to it! For had there not been in him a vague
condescension operant all the time? Had he not been all but
conscious of the feeling that his position made up for any want in
his love? Had she been conventionally a lady, instead of an angel
in peasant form, would he have been so ready to return her kindness
with an offer of marriage? There was little conceit in supposing
that some, even of higher position than his own, would have
accepted the offer on lower terms; but knowing Aggie as he did, he
ought not to have made it to her: she was too large and too fine
for such an experiment. This he now fully understood; and had he
not been brought up with her from childhood as with an elder
sister, she might even now have begun to be a formidable rival to
the sweet memories of Joan’s ladyhood. For he saw in her that which
is at the root, not only of all virtue, but of all beauty, of all
grandeur, of all growth, of all attraction. Every charm--in its
essence, in its development, in its embodiment, is a flower of the
tree of life, whose root is the truth. I see the smile of the
shallow philosopher, thinking of a certain lady to him full of
charm, who has no more love for the truth than a mole for the
light. But that lady’s charm does not spring out of her; it has
been put upon her, and she will soon destroy it. It comes of truth
otherwhere, and will one day leave her naked and not lovely. The
truth was in Agnes merely supreme. To have asked such a one to
marry him for reasons lower than the highest was good ground for
shame. Not therefore even then was he _painfully_ ashamed, for he
felt safe with Agnes, as with the elder sister that pardons
everything.

It was some little time before they had any news of her; but they
heard at last that she had rented Grannie’s cottage from her
grand-daughter, her own aunt, and was going to have a school there
for young children. Cosmo was greatly pleased, for the work would
give scope to some of her highest gifts and best qualities, while
it would keep her within reach of possible service. Nothing however
can part those who are of the true mind towards the things that
_are_.

Cosmo betook himself heartily to study, and not only read but wrote
regularly every day--no more with the design of printing, but in
the hope of shaping more thoroughly and so testing more truly his
contemplations and conclusions. I scorn the idea that a man cannot
think without words, but Cosmo thus improved his thinking, and
learned to utter accurately, that is, to say the thing he meant,
and keep from saying the thing he did not mean.

The room over the kitchen, which had first in his memory been his
grandmother’s, then became his own, and returned to his disposal
when James Gracie died, he made his study; and from it to the
drawing-room, with the assistance of a village mason, excavated a
passage--for it was little less than excavation--in the wall
connecting the two blocks, under the passage in which had lain the
treasure.

The main issue Grizzie’s new command of money found was in a
torrent of cleaning. If she could have had her way, I think she
would have put up scaffolds all over the outside of the house, and
scrubbed it down from chimneys to foundations.

On the opposite side of the Warlock river, the laird rented a
meadow, and there Grizzie had the long disused satisfaction of
seeing two cows she could call hers, the finest cows in the
country, feeding with a vague satisfaction in the general order of
things. The stable housed a horse after Cosmo’s own heart, on which
he made excursions into the country round, partly in the hope of
coming upon some place not too far off where there was land to be
bought.

All that was known of the change in his circumstances was that he
had come into a large fortune by the death--date not mentioned--of
a relative with whom his father had not for years had
communication, and Cosmo never any. Lord Lick-my-loof, after
repeated endeavours to get some information about this relative,
was perplexed, and vaguely suspicious.

How the spending of the money thus committed to him was to change
the earthly issues of his life, Cosmo had not yet learned, and was
waiting for light on the matter. For a man is not bound to walk in
the dark, neither must, for the sake of doing something, run the
risk of doing wrong. He that believeth shall not make haste; and he
that believeth not shall come no speed. He had nothing of the
common mammonistic feeling of the enormous importance of money,
neither felt that it laid upon him a heavier weight of duty than
any other of the gifts of God. And if a poet is not bound to rush
into the world with his poem, surely a rich man is not bound to
rush into the world with his money. Rather set a herd of wild
horses loose in a city! A man must know first how to _use_ his money,
before he begin to spend it. And the way to use money is not so
easily discovered as some would think, for it is not one of God’s
ready means of doing good. The rich man as such has no reason to
look upon himself as specially favoured. He has reason to think
himself specially tried. Jesus, loving a certain youth, did him the
greatest kindness he had in his power, telling him to give his
wealth to the poor, and follow him in poverty. The first question
is not how to do good with money, but how to keep from doing harm
with it. Whether rich or poor, a man must first of all do justice,
love mercy, and walk humbly with his God; then, if he be rich, God
will let him know how to spend. There must be ways in which, even
now, a man may give the half, or even the whole of his goods to the
poor, without helping the devil. Cosmo, I repeat, was in no haste:
it is not because of God’s poverty that the world is so slowly
redeemed. Not the most righteous expenditure of money will save it,
but that of life and soul and spirit--it may be, to that of nerve
and muscle, blood and brain. All these our Lord spent--but no
money. Therefore I say, that of all means for saving the world, or
doing good, as it is called, money comes last in order, and far
behind.

Out of the loneliness in which his father left him, grew a great
peace and new strength. More real than ever was the other world to
him now. His father could not have vanished like a sea-bubble on
the sand! To have known a great man--perhaps I do not mean such a
man as my reader may be thinking of--is to have some assurance of
immortality. One of the best of men said to me once that he did not
feel any longing after immortality, but, when he thought of certain
persons, he could not for a moment believe they had ceased. He had
beheld the lovely, believed therefore in the endless.

Castle Warlock was scarcely altered in appearance. In its worst
poverty it had always looked dignified. There was more life about
it and freedom, but not so much happiness. The diamonds had come,
but his father was gone, Aggie was gone, Mr. Simon was going, and
Joan would not come! Cosmo had scarce a hope for this world; yet
not the less did he await the will of The Will. What that was, time
would show, for God works in time.




CHAPTER LXI.

THE THIRD HARVEST.


As the days went by, Cosmo saw his engagement to Mr. Henderson
drawing near, nor had the smallest inclination to back out of it.
The farmer would have let him off at once, no doubt, but he felt,
without thinking, that it would be undignified, morally speaking,
to avoid, because he was now in plenty, the engagement granted by
friendship to his need. Nor was this all, for, so doing, he would
seem to allow that, driven by necessity, he had undertaken a thing
unworthy, or degrading; for Cosmo would never have allowed that any
degree of hunger could justify a poor man in doing a thing
disgraceful to a rich man. No true man will ever ask of fellow
creature, man or woman, on terms however extravagant, the doing of
a thing he could not do himself without a sense of degradation.
There is no leveller like Christianity--but it levels by lifting to
a lofty table-land, accessible only to humility. He only who is
humble can rise, and rising lift.

In thus holding to what he had undertaken, a man of lower nature
might have had respect to the example he would so give: Cosmo
thought only of honourable and grateful fulfilment of his contract.
Not only would it have been a poor return for Mr. Henderson’s
kindness to treat his service as something beneath him now, but,
worst of all, it would have been to accept ennoblement at the hands
of Mammon, as of a power able to alter his station in God’s world.
To change the spirit of one’s ways because of money, is to confess
onesself a born slave, a thing of outsides, a knight of Riches,
with a maggot for his crest.

When the time came, therefore, Cosmo presented himself. With a look
of astonishment shadowed by disappointment, the worthy farmer held
out his hand.

“Laird,” he said, “I didna expec’ _you_!”

“What for no?” returned Cosmo. “Haena I been yer fee’d man for
months!”

“Ye put me in a kin’ o’ a painfu’ doobt, laird. Fowk tellt me ye
had fa’en heir til a sicht o’ siller!”

“But allooin’, hoo sud that affec’ my bargain wi’ you, Mr.
Henderson? Siller i’ the pooch canna tak obligation frae the back.”

“Drivin’ things to the wa’, nae doobt!” returned the farmer. “I
micht certainly hae ta’en the law o’ ye, failin’ yer appearance.
But amo’ freen’s, that cudna be; an’ ’deed, Mr. Warlock, gien a
body wad be captious, michtna he say it wad hae been mair freen’ly
to beg aff?”

“A bargain’s a bargain,” answered Cosmo; “an’ to beg aff o’ ane
’cause I was nae langer i’ the same necessity as whan I made it,
wad hae been a mere shame. Gien my father hed been wi’ me, an’ no
weel eneuch to like me oot o’ ’s sicht, I wad hae beggit aff fest
eneuch, but wi’ no rizzon, it wad hae been ill-mainnert, no to say
dishonest an’ oongratefu’. Gien ye hae spoken to ony ither i’ my
place, he s’ hae the fee, an’ I s’ hae the wark. Lat things stan’,
Mr. Henderson.”

“Laird!” answered the farmer, not a little moved, “there’s no a man
I wad raither see at my wark nor yersel’. A’ o’ them, men an’
women, work the better whan ye’re amo’ them. They wad be affrontit
no to haud up wi’ a gentleman! Sae come awa’ an’ walcome!--ye’ll
tak something afore we fa’ tu?”

Cosmo accepted a jug of milk, half cream, from the hand of Elsie.

The girl was much improved, having partially unlearned a good deal
of the nonsense gathered at school, and come to take a fair share
with her sisters in the work of the house and farm--enlightened
thereto doubtless by her admiration for Cosmo. It is not from those
they marry people always learn most.

When Cosmo reached the end of the first bout, and stood to sharpen
his scythe, he was startled to see, a little way off, gathering
after one of the scythes, a form he could not mistake. _She_ had
known he would keep his troth! She did not look up, but he knew her
figure and every motion of it too well to take her for another than
Aggie.

That she thus exposed herself to misrepresentation, Aggie was well
enough aware, but with the knowledge of how things stood between
her and Cosmo, she was far above heeding the danger. Those who do
the truth are raised even above defying the world. Defiance betrays
a latent respect, but Aggie gave herself no more trouble about the
opinion of the world than that of a lower animal. Those who are of
the world may defy, but they cannot ignore it.

She had declined being a party to Cosmo’s marrying his mother, but
was not therefore prepared to expose him undefended to any one
whatever who might wish to take him, even should she be of age
unobjectionable; and she knew one who would at least be hampered by
no scruples arising from conscious unfitness. Agnes might well have
thought it better he should marry the cottar’s than the farmer’s
daughter! Anyhow she was resolved to keep an eye on the young woman
so long as Cosmo was within her swoop. He was chivalrous and
credulous, and who could tell what Elsie might not dare! Her
refusal to be his wife did not deprive her of antecedent rights.
And there she was, gathering behind Cosmo, as two years ago!

The instant she was free, Aggie set out for home, not having
exchanged a word with Cosmo, but intending to linger on the way in
the hope of his overtaking her. The Hendersons would have had him
stay the night, but he had given his man orders to wait him with
his horse at a certain point on the road; and Aggie had not gone
far before he got up with her.

Whatever was or had been the state of her feelings towards Cosmo,
she had never mistaken his towards her; neither had she failed to
see that his heart was nowise wounded by her refusal of his offer:
it would have been a little comfort to her, having to be severe
with herself, to see some sign of suffering in him, but she had got
over much, and now was nowise annoyed at the cheery unembarrassed
tone in which he called out when he saw her, and turning greeted
him with the same absence of constraint.

“An’ sae ye’re gaein’ to tak the bairnies un’er yer wing, Aggie!”
said Cosmo, as they walked along. “They’re lucky little things
’at’ll gang to your schuil! What pat it i’ yer heid?”

“Mr. Simon advised it,” answered Aggie; “but I believe I pat it in
his heid first, sayin’ hoo little was dune for the bairnies jist at
the time they war easiest to guide. Rouch wark maks the han’s
rouch, and rouch words maks the hert rouch.”

“The haill country-side ’ill be gratefu’ to ye, Aggie.--Ye’ll lat
me come an’ see ye whiles?”

“Nane sae welcome,” answered Aggie. “But wull ye be bidin’ on, noo
’at ye haena him ’at’s gane? Winna ye be gaein’ awa’, to write
buiks, an’ gar fowk fin’ oot what’s the maitter wi’ them?”

“I dinna ken what I’m gaein’ to du,” answered Cosmo. “But for
writin’ buiks, I could do that better at hame nor ony ither gait,
wi’ a’ thing min’in’ me o’ my father, an’ you nearhan’ to gie me
coonsel.”

“I hae aye been yours to comman’, Cosmo,” replied Aggie, looking
down for one moment, then immediately up again in his face.

“An’ ye’re no angert wi’ me, Aggie?”

“_Angert!_” repeated Aggie, and looked at him with a glow angelic in
her honest, handsome face, and her eyes as true as the heavens. “It
was only ’at ye didna ken what ye war aboot, an’ bein’ sae muckle
yoonger nor mysel’, I was b’un’ to tak care o’ ye; for a wuman as
weel ’s a man maun be her brither’s keeper. Ye see yersel’ I was
richt!”

“Ay was ye, Aggie,” answered Cosmo, ashamed and almost vexed at
having to make the confession.

He did not see the heave of Aggie’s bosom, nor how she held back
and broke into nothing the sigh that would have followed.

“But,” she resumed, after a moment’s pause, “a’ lasses michtna ken
sae weel what was fittin’ them, nor care sae muckle what was guid
for you; naebody livin’ can ken ye as I du! an’ gien ye war to lat
a lass think ye cared aboot her--it micht be but as a freen’, but
she micht be sae ta’en’ wi’ ye--’at--’at maybe she micht gar ye
think ’at hoo she cudna live wantin’ ye--an’ syne, what ye du than,
Cosmo?”

It was a situation in which Cosmo had never imagined himself, and
he looked at Aggie a little surprised.

“I dinna freely un’erstan’ ye,” he said.

“Na, I reckon no! Hoo sud ye! Ye’re jist ower semple for this
warl’, Cosmo! But I’ll put it plainer:--what wad ye du gien a lass
was to fa’ a greitin’, an’ a wailin’, an’ fling hersel’ i’ yer
airms, an’ mak as gien she wad dee?--what wad ye du wi’ her,
Cosmo?”

“’Deed I dinna ken,” replied Cosmo with some embarrassment. “What
wad ye hae me du, Aggie?”

“I wad hae ye set her doon whaur ye stude, gien upo’ the ro’d, than
upo’ the dyke, gien i’ the hoose, than upo’ the nearest chair, and
tak to yer legs an’ rin. Bide na to tak yer bonnet, but rin an’ rin
till ye’re better nor sure she can never win up wi’ ye. An’
specially gien the name o’ the lass sud begin wi’ an’ _E_ an’ gang on
till an _l_, I wad hae ye rin as gien the auld captain was efter ye.”

“I hae had sma’ occasion,” said Cosmo, “to rin fra _him_.”

And therewith, partly to change the subject, for he now understood
Aggie, and did not feel it right to talk about any girl as if she
could behave in the manner supposed, partly because he had long
desired an opportunity of telling her, he began, and gave her the
whole history of the discovery of the diamonds, omitting nothing,
even where the tale concerned Lady Joan. Before he got to the end
of it, they were at the place where the man was waiting with his
horse, and as that was the place where Aggie had to turn off to go
to Muir o’ Warlock, there they parted.




CHAPTER LXII.

A DUET, TRIO, AND QUARTET.


The next day things went much the same, only that Elsie was not in
the field. Cosmo, who had been thinking much over what Aggie had
said, and was not flattered that she should take him for the goose
he did not know himself to be, could hardly wait for the evening to
have another talk with her.

“Aggie,” he said, as he overtook her in a hollow not many yards
from the verge of the farm, “I dinna like ye to think me sic a
gowk! What gars ye suppose a lass could hae her wull o’ me in sic a
w’y ’s you? No ’at I believe ony lass wad behave like that! It’s no
like yersel’ to fancy sae ill o’ yer ain kin’! I’m sure ye didna
discover thae things i’ yer ain hert! There’s nae sic a lass.”

“What maitter whether there be sic a lass or no, sae lang as gien
there was ane, she wad be ower muckle for ye?”

“That’s ower again what I’m compleenin’ o’! an’ gien it war onybody
but yersel’ ’at has a richt, I wad be angry, Aggie.”

“Cosmo,” said Agnes solemnly, “ye’re ower saft-hertit to the
women-fowk. I do believe--an’ I tell ye ’t again in as mony
words--ye wad merry ony lass raither nor see her in trible on your
accoont.”

“Ance mair, Aggie, what gies ye a richt to think sae ill o’ me?”
demanded Cosmo.

“Jist the w’y ye behaved to mysel’.”

“_Ye_ never tellt me ye couldna du wantin’ me!”

“I houp no, for it wadna hae been true. I can du wantin’ ye weel
eneuch. But ye allooed ye wasna richt!”

“Ay--it was a presumption.”

“Ay! but what made it a presumption?”

Cosmo could not bear to say plainly to the girl he loved so much,
that he had not loved her so as to have a right to ask her to marry
him. He hesitated.

“Ye didna loe me eneuch,” said Aggie, looking up in his face.

“Aggie,” returned Cosmo, “I’m ready to merry ye the morn gien ye’ll
hae me!”

“There noo!” exclaimed Aggie, in a sort of provoked triumph, “didna
I tell ye! There ye are, duin’ ’t a’ ower again! Wasna I richt?
Ye’re fit to tak care o’ onybody but yersel’--an’ the lass ’at wad
fain hae ye! Eh, but sair ye need a sensible mitherly body like
mysel’ to luik efter ye!”

“Tak me, than, an’ luik efter me at yer wull, Aggie; I mean what I
say!” persisted Cosmo, bewildered with embarrassment and a
momentary stupidity.

“Ance mair, Cosmo, dinna be a gowk,” said Agnes with severity. “Ye
loe _me_ ower little, an’ I loe _you_ ower muckle for that.”

“Ye’re no angry at me, Aggie?” said Cosmo, almost timidly.

“Angry at ye, my bonny lad!” cried Aggie, and looking up with a
world of tenderness in her eyes, and a divine glow of affection,
for hers was the love so sure of itself that it maketh not ashamed,
she threw her two strong, shapely honest arms round his neck; he
bent his head, she kissed him heartily on the mouth, and burst into
tears. Surely but for that other love that lay patient and hopeless
in the depth of Cosmo’s heart, he would now have loved Aggie in a
way to satisfy her, and to justify him in saying he loved her! And
to that it might have come in time, but where is the use of saying
what might have been, when all things are ever moving towards the
highest and best for the individual as well as for the universe!
--not the less that hell may be the only path to it for some--the
hell of an absolute self-loathing.

Just at that moment, who should appear on the top of a broken mound
of the moorland, where she stood in the light of the setting sun,
but Elsie, neatly dressed, glowing and handsome! A moment she
stood, then descended, a dark scorn shadowing in her eyes, and a
smile on her mouth showing the whitest of teeth.

“Mr. Warlock,” she said, and took no notice of his humble
companion, “my father sent me after you in a hurry as you may see,”
--and she heaved a deep breath--“to say he doesn’t think the bear
o’ the Gowan Brae ’ill be fit for cutting this two days, an’
they’ll gang to the corn upo’ the heuch instead. He was going to
tell you himsel’, but ye was in such a hurry!”

“I’m muckle obleeged to ye, Miss Elsie,” replied Cosmo. “It’ll save
me a half-mile i’ the mornin’.”

“An’ my father says,” resumed Elsie, addressing Agnes, “yer wark’s
no worth yer wages.”

Aggie turned upon her with flashing eyes and glowing face.

“I dinna believe ye, Miss Elsie,” she said. “I dinna believe yer
father said ever sic a word. He kens my wark’s worth my wages
whatever he likes to set me til. Mair by token he wad hae tellt me
himsel’! I s’ jist gang straucht back an’ speir.”

She turned, evidently in thorough earnest, and set off at a rapid
pace back towards the house. Cosmo glanced at Elsie. She had turned
white--with the whiteness of fear, not of wrath. She had not
expected such action on the part of Aggie. She would be at once
found out! Her father was a man terrible in his anger, and her
conscience told her he would be angry indeed, angrier than she had
ever seen him! She stood like a statue, her eyes fixed on the
retreating form of the indignant Agnes, who reached the top of the
rising ground, and was beginning to disappear, before the spell of
her terror gave way. She turned with clasped hands to Cosmo, and
murmured, her white lips hardly able to fashion the words,

“Mr. Warlock, for God’s sake, cry her back. Dinna lat her gang to
my father.”

“Was the thing ye said no true?” asked Cosmo.

“Weel,” faltered Elsie, searching inside for some escape from
admission, “maybe he didna jist say the verra words,--”

“Aggie maun gang,” interrupted Cosmo. “She maunna lat it pass.”

“It was a lee! It was a lee!” gasped Elsie.

Cosmo ran, and from the top of the rise called aloud,

“Aggie! Aggie! come back.”

Beyond her he saw another country girl approaching, but took little
heed of her. Aggie turned at his call, and came to him quickly.

“She confesses it’s a lee, Aggie,” he said.

“She wadna, gien she hadna seen I was gaein’ straucht til her
father!” returned Agnes.

“I daursay; but God only kens hoo to mak the true differ ’atween
what we du o’ oorsel’s, an’ what we’re gart. We maun hae mercy, an’
i’ the meantime she’s ashamed eneuch. At least she has the luik o’
’t.”

“It’s ae thing to be ashamed ’cause ye hae dune wrang, an’ anither
to be ashamed ’cause ye’re f’un’ oot!”

“Ay; but there compassion comes in to fill up; an’ whan ye treat a
body wi’ generosity, the hert wauks up to be worthy o’ ’t.”

“Cosmo, ye ken maist aboot the guid in fowk, an’ I ken maist aboot
the ill,” said Aggie.

Here the young woman who had been nearing them scarce observed
while they talked, came up, and they turning to go back to Elsie,
where she still stood motionless, followed them at her own pace
behind.

“I beg yer pardon, Aggie,” said Elsie, holding out her hand. “I was
ill-natert, an’ said the thing wasna true. My father says there
isna a better gatherer i’ the countryside nor yersel’.” Aggie took
her offered hand and said,

“Lat by-ganes be by-ganes. Be true to me an’ I’ll be true to you.
An’ I winna lee whether or no.”

Here the stranger joined them. She was a young woman in the garb of
a peasant, but with something about her not belonging to the
peasant. To the first glance she was more like a superior servant
out for a holiday, but a second glance was bewildering. She stopped
with a half timid but quiet look, then dropped her eyes with a
flush.

“Will you please tell me if I am on the way to Castle Warlock?” she
said, with a quiver about her mouth which made her like a child
trying not to smile.

Cosmo had been gazing at her: she reminded him very strangely of
Joan; but the moment he heard her voice, which was as different
from that of a Scotch peasant as Tennyson’s verse is from that of
Burns, he gave a cry, and was on his knees before her.

“Joan!” he gasped, and seizing her hand, drew it to his lips, and
held it there.

She made no sound or movement. Her colour went and came. Her head
drooped. She would have fallen, but Cosmo received her, and rising
with her, as one might with a child in his arms, turned, and began
to walk swiftly homeward.

Aggie had a short fierce struggle with her rising heart, then
turned to Elsie, and said quietly,

“Ye see we’re no wantit!”

“I see,” returned Elsie. “But eh! she’s a puir cratur.”

“No sae puir!” answered Aggie. “Wad _ye_ dress up like a gran’ leddy
to gang efter yer yoong man?”

“Ay wad I--fest eneuch!” answered Elsie with scorn.

Aggie saw her mistake.

“Did ye tak notice o’ her han’s?” she said.

“No, I didna.”

“Ye never saw sic han’s! Did ye tak notice o’ her feet?”

“No, I didna.”

“Ye never saw sic feet! Yon’s ane ’at canna gather, nor stock, nor
bin’, but she’s bonny a’ throu’, an’ her v’ice is a sang, an’
she’ll gang throu’ fire an’ watter ohn blinkit for her love’s sake.
Yon’s the lass for oor laird! The like o’ you an’ me sudna trible
heid nor hert aboot the likes o’ _him_.”

“Speyk for yersel’, lass,” said Elsie.

“I tellt ye,” returned Aggie, quietly but with something like scorn,
“’at gien ye wad be true to me, I wad be true to you; but gie yersel’
airs, an’ I say guid nicht, an’ gang efter my fowk.”

She turned and departed, leaving Elsie more annoyed than repentant:
it may take a whole life to render a person capable of shame, not
to say sorrow, for the meanest thing of many he has done.

And now, Aggie’s heart lying stone-like within her as she followed
Cosmo with his treasure, her brain was alive and active for his
sake. Joan was herself again, Cosmo had set her down, and they were
walking side by side. “What are they going to do?” thought Aggie.
“Are they going straight home together? Why does she come now the
old laird is gone?” Such and many other questions she kept asking
herself in her carefulness over Cosmo.

They passed the turning Aggie would have taken to go home; she
passed it too, following them steadily.--That old Grizzie was no
good! She must go home with them herself! If the reason for which
she left the castle was a wise one, she must now, for the same
reason, go back to it! Those two must not be there with nobody to
make them feel comfortable and taken care of! They must not be left
to feel awkward together! She must be a human atmosphere about
them, to shield them, and make home for them! Love itself may be
too lonely. It needs some reflection of its too lavish radiation.
--This was practically though not altogether in form what Agnes
thought.

In the meantime, the first whelming joy-wave having retired, and
life and thought resumed their operations, they had begun to talk.

“Where have you come from?” asked Cosmo.

“From Cairntod, the place I came from that wild winter night,”
answered Joan.

“But you are....  when were you....  how long....  have
you been married?”

“_Married!_” echoed Joan. “Cosmo, how could you!”

She looked up in his face wild and frightened.

“Well, you never wrote! and--”

“It was you never wrote!”

“_I_ did not, but my father did, and got no answer.”

“I wrote again and again, and _begged_ for an answer, but none came.
If it hadn’t been for the way I dreamed about you, I don’t know
what would have become of me!”

“The devil has been at old tricks, Joan!”

“Doubtless--and I fear I have hardly to discover his agent.”

“And Mr. Jermyn?” said Cosmo, with a look half shy, half fearful,
as if after all some bolt must be about to fall.

“I can tell you very little about him. I have scarcely seen him
since he brought me the money.”

“Then he didn’t.... ?”

“Well, what didn’t he?”

“I have no right to ask.”

“Ask me _anything_.”

“Didn’t he ask you to marry him?”

Joan laughed.

“I had begun to be afraid he had something of the kind in his head,
when all at once I saw no more of him.”

“How was that?”

“I can only guess: he may have spoken to my brother, and that was
enough.”

“Didn’t you miss him?”

“Life _was_ a little duller.”

“If he _had_ asked you to marry him, Joan?”

“Well?”

“Would you?”

“Cosmo!”

“You told me I might ask you anything!”

She stood, turned to the roadside, and sat down on the low
earth-dyke. Her face was white.

“Joan! Joan!” cried Cosmo, darting to her side; “what is it, Joan?”

“Nothing; only a little faintness. I have walked a long way and am
getting tired.”

“What a brute I am!” said Cosmo, “to let you walk! I will carry you
again.”

“Indeed you will not!” she answered, moving a little from him.

“Do you think you could ride on a man’s saddle?”

“I think so. I could well enough if I were not tired. But let me be
quiet a little.”

They were very near the place where Cosmo’s horse must be waiting
him. He ran to take him and send the groom home with a message.

To Joan it was a terrible moment. Had she, most frightful of
thoughts! been acting on a holy faith that yet had no foundation?
She had come to a man who asked her whether she would not have
married his friend! She had taken so much for understood that had
not been understood!

When Joan sat down Agnes stopped--a good way off: till the moment
of service arrived she would be nothing. Several times she started
to run to her, for she feared something had gone wrong, but checked
herself lest she should cause more mischief by interfering. When
she saw her sink sideways on the dyke, she did run, but seeing
Cosmo hurrying back to her, stopped again.

Before Cosmo reached her Joan had sat up. The same faith, or
perhaps rather hope, which had taken shape in her dreams, now woke
to meet the necessity of the hour. She rose as Cosmo came near,
saying she felt better now, and let him put her on the horse.

But now Joan was determined to face the worst, to learn her
position and know what she must do.

“Has the day not come yet, Cosmo?” she said. “Cannot you now tell
me why you left me so suddenly?”

“It may come with your answer to the question I put to you,”
replied Cosmo.

“You are cruel, Cosmo!”

“Am I? How? I do not understand.”

This was worse and worse, and Joan grew rather more than almost
angry. It is so horrid when the man you love _will_ be stupid! She
turned her face away, and was silent. A man must sometimes take his
life in his hand, and at the risk of even unpardonable presumption,
suppose a thing yielded, that he may know whether it be or not. But
Cosmo was something of the innocent Aggie took him for.

“Joan, I don’t see how I am wrong, after the permission you gave
me,” persisted he, too modest. “Agnes would have answered me
straight out.”

He forgot.

“How do you know that? What have you ever asked her?”

Joan, for one who refused an answer, was tolerably exacting in her
questions. And as she spoke she moved involuntarily a step farther
from him.

“I asked her to marry me,” replied Cosmo.

“_You asked her to marry you!_”

“Yes, but she wouldn’t.”

“Why wouldn’t she?”

Joan’s face was now red as fire, and she was biting her lip hard.

“She had more reasons against it than one. Oh, Joan, she _is_ so
good!”

“And you are going to marry her?”

Instead of answering her question, Cosmo turned and called to
Agnes, some thirty yards behind them:

“Come here, Aggie.”

Agnes came quickly.

“Tell Lady Joan,” he said, “what for ye wadna merry me.”

“’Deed, my lady,” said Agnes, her face also like a setting sun, “ye
may believe onything he tells ye, jist as gien it war gospel. He
disna ken hoo to mak a lee.”

“I know that as well as you,” replied Lady Joan.

“Na, ye canna du that, ’cause ye haena kent him sae lang.”

“Will you tell me why you would not marry him?”

“For ae thing, ’cause he likit you better nor me, only he thoucht ye
was merried, an’ he didna like lattin’ me gang frae the hoose.”

“Thank you, Agnes,” said Joan, with a smile nothing less than
heavenly. “He was so obstinate!”

And with that she slipped from the saddle, threw her arms round
Aggie’s neck, and kissed her.

Aggie returned her embrace with simple truth, then drawing gently
away, said, putting her hand before her eyes as if she found the
sun too strong, “It’s verra weel for you, my lady; but it’s some
sair upo’ me; for I tellt him he sudna merry his mither, an’ ye’re
full as auld as I am.”

Joan gave a sigh.

“I am a year older, I believe,” she answered, “but I cannot help
it. Nor would I if I could, for three years ago I was still less
worthy of him than I am now; and after all it is but a trifle.”

“Na, my leddy, it’s no a trifle, only some fowk carry their years
better nor ithers.”

Here Cosmo set Joan up again, and a full explanation followed
between them, neither thinking of suppression because of Aggie’s
presence. She would indeed have fallen behind again, but Joan would
not let her, so she walked side by side with them, and amongst the
rest of the story heard Cosmo tell how he had yielded Joan because
poor Jermyn loved her. Agnes both laughed and cried as she
listened, and when Cosmo ceased, threw her arms once more around
him, saying, “Cosmo, ye’re worth it a’!” then releasing him, turned
to Joan and said,

“My lady, I dinna grudge him to ye a bit. Noo ’at he’s yours, an’
a’ ’s come roon’ as it sud, I’ll be mysel’ again--an’ that ye’ll
see! But ye’ll mak allooance, my lady; for ye hae a true hert, an’
maun ken ’at whan a wuman sees a man beirin’ a’ thing as gien it was
naething, ’maist like a God, no kennin’ he’s duin’ onything by
or’nar’, she can no more help loein’ him nor the mither ’at bore
her, or the God ’at made her. An’ mair, my lady, I mean to loe him
yet; but, as them ’at God has j’ined man nor wuman maunna sun’er, I
winna pairt ye even in my min’; whan I think o’ the tane, it’ll be
to think o’ the tither, an’ the love ’at gangs to him ’ill aye rin
ower upo’ you--forby what I beir ye on yer ain accoont. Noo ye’ll
gang on thegither again, an’ I’ll come ahin’.”

It was now to Aggie as if they were all dead and in the blessed
world together, only she had brought with her an ache which it
would need time to tune. All pain is discord.

“Ye see, my lady,” she said, as she turned aside and sat down on
the bordering turf, “I hae been a mither til ’im!”

Who will care to hear further explanation!--how Joan went to visit
distant relatives who had all at once begun to take notice of her;
how she had come with them, more gladly than they knew, on a visit
to Cairntod; and how such a longing seized her there that, careless
of consequences, she donned a peasant’s dress and set out for
Castle Warlock; how she had lost her way, and was growing very
uneasy when suddenly she saw Cosmo before her!

“But what am I to do now, Cosmo?” she said. “What account of myself
can I give my people?”

“You can tell them you met an old lover, and finding him now a rich
man, like a prudent woman, consented at once to marry him.”

“I must not tell a story.”

“Pray who asks you to tell a story?”

“You do, telling me to say I have a rich lover.”

“I do not. I am rich.”

“Not in money?”

“Yes, in money.”

“Why didn’t you tell me before?”

“I forgot. How could I think of riches with you filling up all the
thinking-place!”

“But what am I to do to-night?”

“To-night?--oh!--I hadn’t thought of that!--We’ll ask Aggie.”

So Aggie was once more called, and consulted. She thought for a
minute, then said,--

“Cosmo, as sune’s ye’re hame, ye’ll sen’ yer man straucht awa’ upo’ the
horse to lat my lady’s fowk ken. She better write them a bit
letter, an’ tell them she’s fa’en in wi’ an auld acquaintance, a
lass ca’d Agnes Gracie, a dacent yoong wuman, an’ haein’ lost her
ro’d an’ bein’ unco tired, she’s gaein’ hame wi’ her to sleep; an’
the laird o’ Glenwarlock was sae kin’ ’s to sen’ his man upo’ his
horse to cairry the letter. That w’y there’ll be nae lees tellt,
an’ no ower muckle o’ the trowth.”

Cosmo began to criticise, but Joan insisted it should be as Aggie
said.

When they arrived at the castle, Grizzie was not a little
scandalized to see her young master with a country lass on his
horse, and making so much of her. But when she came to understand
who she was, and that she had dressed up to get the easier to
Castle Warlock she was filled with approbation even to delight.

“Eh, but ye’re a lass to mak a man prood! I cudna hae dune better
mysef’ gien I had been a gran’ lady wi’ a’ the wits o’ a puir wife!
Sit ye doon, my lady, an’ be richt walcome! Eh, but ye’re bonny, as
ever was ony! an’ eh, but ye’re steady as never was leddy! May the
Lord bless ye, an’ the laird kiss ye!”

This outbreak of benediction rather confused Cosmo, but Joan
laughed merrily, being happy as a child. Aggie turned her face to
Grizzie in dread of more; but the true improviser seldom, I fancy,
utters more than six lines. They had supper, and then a cart came
rumbling to the door, half full of straw, into which Joan got with
Aggie. A few things the latter had borrowed of Grizzie to help make
the former comfortable, were handed in and they set out for Muir o’
Warlock. In the morning Lady Joan declared she had never slept
better than in old Grannie’s box-bed.

They were married almost immediately, and nobody’s leave asked.
Cosmo wrote to acquaint Lord Mergwain with the event, and had in
return, from his lordship’s secretary, an acknowledgment of the
receipt of his letter.

Of what they had to tell each other, of the way they lived, of how
blessed they were even when not altogether happy--of these matters
I say nothing, leaving them to the imagination of him who has any,
while for him who has none I grudge the labour, thinking too he
would very likely rather hear how much Cosmo got for his diamonds,
and whether, if Lord Mergwain should not marry, Cairncarque will
come to Lady Joan. But such things even he is capable of employing
his fancy upon, and it would be a pity to prevent him from doing
what he can.

I will close my book with a little poem that Cosmo wrote--not that
night, but soon after. The poet may, in the height of joy, give out
an extempore flash or two, but he writes no poem then. The joy must
have begun to be garnered, before the soul can sing about it. How
we shall sing when we absolutely believe that _our life is hid with
Christ in God_!

Here is my spiritual colophon.

    All things are shadows of thee, Lord;
        The sun himself is but a shade;
    My soul is but the shadow of thy word,
        A candle sun-bedayed!

    Diamonds are shadows of the sun;
        They drink his rays and show a spark:
    My soul some gleams of thy great shine hath won,
        And round me slays the dark.

    All knowledge is but broken shades--
        In gulfs of dark a wandering horde:
    Together rush the parted glory-grades--
        And lo, thy garment, Lord!

    My soul, the shadow, still is light,
        Because the shadow falls from thee;
    I turn, dull candle, to the centre bright,
        And home flit shadowy.

    Shine, shine; make me thy shadow still--
        The brighter still the more thy shade;
    My motion be thy lovely moveless will!
        My darkness, light delayed!

(THE END.)