Produced by Al Haines









[Frontispiece: THE OLD RAGMAN AND MRS. DEAN.]




  THE

  UNTEMPERED WIND



  BY

  JOANNA E. WOOD



  NEW YORK
  J. SELWIN TAIT AND SONS
  65 FIFTH AVENUE




  COPYRIGHT, 1894, BY
  J. SELWIN TAIT & SONS.

  _All Rights Reserved._




THE UNTEMPERED WIND.



CHAPTER I.

        ----"Consider this,--
  That, in the course of justice, none of us
  Should see salvation:"--


It was early spring, the maples were but budding, the birds newly come
and restless, the sky more gray than blue, and the air still sharp with
a tang of frost.  Jamestown's streets, however, looked both bright and
busy.

Groups of children went to school, hurrying out to the street, and
looking this way and that for a companion.  A mother came to a gate
with a little girl, and pointing now to right, now to left, seemed to
give her directions which way to go.  The little girl started bravely.
She wore a pink cap, and carried a new school-bag.  "Hurry on!" a girl
called to her, and she advanced uncertainly.  A hesitating dignity born
of the new school-bag forbade a decided run; her friend's haste forbade
her to linger.  They met and passed on together.

An old man, with ophthalmia, feeling his way with a stick and muttering
to himself with loose lips, went by.  Two brothers crossed the street
together, one swinging along easily, smoking a pipe, and carrying an
axe over his shoulder; the other advancing with that spasmodic
appearance of haste which seems the only gait to which crutches can be
compelled.

An alert dog rushed madly up the middle of the street, pausing abruptly
now and then to look round him with sharp interrogation, as if daring
anything to "come on!"  His challenge was vain, and he was fain to
solace himself by scattering a convention of sparrows, dashing into the
midst of them and sending the birds up into the maples, followed by
insulting yelps, in reply to which they twittered in derision.

Homer Wilson drove his team of heavy brown horses through the street at
a trot, his sinewy frame clad in weather-beaten blue jeans, his hat
pushed far back on his head, as if to emphasize the defiant breadth of
his forehead.

The woman still strained her eyes after the little girl, now only
distinguishable by the brightness of her cap.  They say that mothers
often watch by the gateways of life.

The groceryman passed to open his store--the baker and butcher were
already busy.

Through this scene of busy commonplace interest and bustle passed a
woman, somewhat below the average height, and of strong but symmetrical
build.  Her face was down-bent and almost hidden in the depths of a
dark sunbonnet of calico.  All that could well be discerned in this
shadow were two soft, sorrowful eyes, pale cheeks, and down-drooped
lips.  No one spoke to her, and she addressed no one.  She went from
place to place, out of one shop into another, with downcast eyes, and
with something of that swift directness with which a bird, startled
from its nest at evening, darts with folded wings from covert to
covert.  She was Myron Holder--a mother, but not a wife.

When under no more sacred canopy than the topaz of a summer sky--with
no other bridal hymn than the choral of the wind among the trees--in
obedience to no law but the voice of nature--and the pleading of loved
lips--with no other security than the unwitnessed oath of a man--a
woman gives herself utterly, then she is doubtless lost.  But it must
be remembered that the law she breaks is an artificial law enacted
solely for her protection: and it must be conceded that there may be a
great and self-subversive generosity which permits her to give her all,
assuming bonds of sometimes dreadful weight, whilst the recipient goes
his way unshackled--uncondemned.

There may be nothing to be said in defence of Myron Holder; but there
is much that could be told only with bleeding lips, written only by a
pen dipped in wormwood, of the attitude of her fellows towards her.

The world of to-day sees its Madonna, with haloed head, standing amid
lilies.  The world of her day saw neither nimbus nor flowers; they saw
what, to their unbelieving eyes, was but her shame.  Let those who jeer
with righteous lips at women such as this poor village outcast,
remember that the meek Maid-Mother whom they adore perchance shrank
before the cruel taunts and pointing fingers of women at the doorways
and the wells.

Myron Holder left the butcher's to go to the grocery store; from thence
she crossed diagonally to Mrs. Warner's, the woman who, half an hour
before, had looked so lingeringly after her child.  Myron stood at the
back door waiting, whilst Mrs. Warner came down stairs to answer her
knock.  "Mrs. Deans wanted to know if Mrs. Warner would lend her the
quilting-frames."  Mrs. Warner would.

Mrs. Warner was a very good woman, therefore she looked unutterable
contempt at Myron Holder, and left her on the doorstep, whilst she
brought out the heavy wooden quilting-frames.  Mrs. Warner's husband
drove the mail wagon which made one trip daily to the city and back to
Jamestown.  He would in one hour, as his wife very well knew, pass Mrs.
Deans' door, but she did not consider that; and as she had watched her
own child out of sight, so she watched Myron Holder's laden form pass
down the street, out into the country--a large basket in one hand, and
the heavy quilting-frames over her shoulder, pressing sorely upon "the
sacred mother-bosom," already yearning for the easing child lips.

When clear of the village, Myron Holder slackened her pace a little and
setting the basket down for a moment turned back the deep scoop of her
sunbonnet, that the cooling wind might breathe its benison upon her
cheeks, flushed with shame and hot from the exertion of her rapid walk
with her burden.  Stooping slowly down sideways, she reached her basket
and taking it up proceeded on her way.  Her face shone forth from the
dark folds of her sunbonnet, and seemed by its purity of line and
expression to give the lie to the eyes filmed by acknowledged shame;
only filmed, however, for the eyes themselves held no vile meanings, no
defiant avowal of guilt, no hint of sinful knowledge, no glance of
callous indifference.  She walked on steadily, the spongy earth beneath
her feet seeming to breathe forth the essence of spring as it inhaled
the warmth of the sunshine.

[Illustration: SHE PAUSED TO REST.]

Presently the sound of wheels came to her.  She strove with her
burdened hand to brush forward the sheltering folds of her sunbonnet,
but in vain, as her haste defeated its object.  Her cheeks were
shrouded but in a flaming blush as Homer Wilson drove past.  He stared
at her steadily; but she did not raise her eyes, and he passed on.  His
springless wagon jolted over all the stones and inequalities of the
country roads; just as Homer Wilson neither brushed aside obstacles nor
skirted them when they opposed his path, but, in his obstinate,
hard-headed way, rode rough-shod over them, feeling, perhaps, the hurt
of their opposition, but never showing that he did.

Again there was silence on the road.  It was too early yet for any
insect life, and the sparrows did not fly so far from the houses, but

  "Above in the wind was the swallow
  Chasing itself at its own wild will."


The flush for a space died out of her cheeks.  As she continued on her
way the snake-fence changed to a neat board one, that in turn gave
place to one of ornate wire.  In the middle of this was a little gate,
which she passed; then came a wider five-barred gate through which she
entered, and found her way to the rear of a large white frame house,
standing in an old apple orchard.

Her steps were bent to the "cook house," an erection of unplaned pine
boards, where, in summer, the kitchen-work of Mrs. Deans' household was
carried on.  Before Myron Holder crossed its threshold, she sent one
long look over to the left, where, leafless yet and gray--save where a
cedar made a sullen blotch of green--the trees of Mr. Deans' woodland
bounded her vision in a semi-circular sweep.  As she turned her to the
doorway, a new expression had found place within her eyes--upon her
lips--poignant but indecipherable.  For resolution, resignation, and
despair are sometimes so analogous as to be inseparable.




CHAPTER II.

  "A treasure of the memory, a joy unutterable."

  "Her tears fell with the dews at even;
    Her tears fell ere the dews were dried.
  She could not look at the sweet heaven
    Either at morn or eventide."


Myron Holder's father was Jed Holder, the broom-maker.  His death
occurred when Myron was eighteen years old.  He had clung to his quaint
occupation to the last, after factory-made brooms stood even at the
store doors in Jamestown.

His fortunes had fallen off sadly in the last few years of his life,
but he worked away as steadily at his trade as in the old days, when,
looking from his door, his eyes were met by the mast-like masses of a
Kentish hop orchard.  He had planted hopvines all about the fence of
his little house in Jamestown.  They clambered up the sides of the
house, twined insinuatingly about the disdainful sunflowers, and
throwing their tendrils abroad from the roots wound round and round the
tall stalks of grass, weighing them down with the burden of their
unsought embrace.

Little Myron was often impressed with the truth that a single leaf
broken from a growing hopvine kills the whole spray.  She learned to
"pick up her feet," as her father expressed it, and step daintily
between the wandering vines, so that no slurring footstep might injure
them.

Jed Holder had carried on the broom-making for many years very
systematically.  Year by year he rented from Sol Disney a bit of the
virgin soil of the woodland, and the tall brown tassel of the broom
corn overtopped the stamps in the clearing.  Year by year the little
patch of corn crept nearer and nearer the limit of Disney's diminishing
woodland--seeming, as Jed Holder said, "to sweep the trees off before
it," but being in its turn swept aside by waves of golden grain.

It was a sore day to Jed Holder when he sent off his first order for
Western broom corn, forced to do so by the impossibility of renting
ground rich enough to perfect and mature his crop.

In the short winter days Jed used to work in Disney's brush helping to
"clear" it.  In return for his services he received all the young
maples they encountered: out of these in the long winter evenings he
fashioned his broom handles.

Jed never could remember how the knowledge was conveyed to him that
broom handles were being made by the thousands by a machine out of the
refuse in the wake of logging camps.

If the recognition of this iconoclastic fact was not an intuition, it
must have been something very like one--some transmission of a half
contemptuous thought from the brain of the smart groceryman in the city
when he ridiculed the price Jed asked for his hand-made brooms.  Jed
pondered over the matter much, but never could recall the source of his
information.  But when he lay in his last illness, watching the shadow
of the hopvine on the blinds, all these tormenting thoughts vanished.
The murmurs that fell from his lips were all of other days, of hop
picking, of England, of Kentish lanes and birds, of one whom he named
lovingly as "Myron lass" and yet did not seem to identify with the girl
who waited upon him so untiringly, under the direction of her
grandmother, an old, old woman, bent with rheumatism, and hard of face
and heart, whose lips set cruelly and eyes grew stony when her
gray-haired son babbled of "Myron lass."  When he lay in his coffin she
could not grieve, for raging that he was not to lie with all his kin in
Kent.

She made Myron suffer vicariously for her long dead mother, whose death
coming soon after Myron's birth had driven Jed Holder to seek strange
scenes, away from where he had known the fullest happiness of which he
was capable.

But Myron bore her grandmother's bad temper with patience and without
bitterness.  Her father often said to her, "The yeast is bitter, but it
is the yeast that makes bread sweet."

Jed Holder died one day in autumn, when the aromatic green cones had
been picked from the hops and lay browning upon paper-covered boards in
the sun.  The last breath Jed Holder drew savored of their fragrance,
and the aroma of the hops dispelled the faint odor of mortality in the
death chamber.

The winter succeeding his death was a long and bitter one.  Fuel was
high; and however sparingly bought, still the plainest provisions cost
money.  Albeit Myron and her grandmother lived frugally, yet they
exhausted Jed's poor hoardings very soon.  Spring found them penniless.

But in summer, life is more easily sustained, and Myron found various
occupations which sufficed to keep her grandmother in tolerable
comfort.  Hoeing and weeding, cleaning house and berrying, doing extra
washings, cooking for threshers and harvesters, all had their part in
Myron's busy life.  Her grandmother was never satisfied either with her
ability or her willingness to work; but for all that she worked, and
worked well too.

There was soon proof positive of this given her grandmother, for after
Myron had helped in the half yearly saturnalia of work Mrs. Deans
called "house cleaning," the latter arranged to have Myron come to the
farm daily to help the bound girl.

For that summer Mrs. Deans had boarders--boarders who read, and walked,
and brought in great bunches of golden rod, and masses of wild aster,
and long trails of virgin bower clematis.

There were Mrs. and Miss Rexton, Miss Carpenter and Dr. Henry Willis, a
young medico.  They had all driven to the lake one day from the Mineral
Spring Hotel, where they were stopping.  The lake curved in a shining
semi-circle round Jamestown, and swept off in ever-widening curves far
away, until sky and water blended in a band of blinding silver
radiance.  The party of four had been caught in a thunderstorm, and
sought refuge on Mrs. Deans' veranda.

Then and there they had decided that they must come there for the rest
of the summer, and with one accord set about persuading Mrs. Deans to
give her consent.  Of a truth their persuasion would have had little
effect upon that worthy woman, had not the remuneration suggested
seemed to her quite extravagantly sufficient; therefore she was pleased
at length to accede to their request, and a few days later found the
quartette comfortably settled at Mrs. Deans'.

Miss Carpenter was Dr. Willis' maiden aunt.  Miss Rexton believed
herself to be his affinity and hoped that he agreed with her.  Mrs.
Rexton was a chattel of her daughter's.

Myron Holder's duties were now made more manifold than ever, but she
was well content that it should be so; only the long mile she walked
night and morning from and to the village tired her greatly, taking the
edge off her vitality in the morning and utterly exhausting her at
night.  So Mrs. Deans proposed that she should stay all night at the
farm; not actuated by any kindly thought for Myron, but because, like
the good financier that she was, she wanted to get her money's worth
out of her.

As for old Mrs. Holder, she had no timid qualms about staying alone:
she missed the little scraps of news, however, that Myron always had to
tell, and--unconsciously--suffered from lack of some one to berate.

The summer passed slowly--autumn came.  Mrs. Deans' boarders departed.
Myron Holder once more walked the mile night and morning; she had had a
hard summer's work.  Her hands and wrists were reddened and coarsened;
her face was very pale, and _bistre_ shades lingered about her eyes.
But she and her grandmother had to live, and after December snows were
blowing she still trudged the mile back and forth.

It was only by great chance that Mrs. Deans retained Myron's services;
but her son, a loutish young man of twenty-two, had fallen from a
hickory-nut tree and dislocated his hip.

The increasing attention he demanded, and the care of her poultry, and
her accumulated sewing kept Mrs. Deans fully occupied.  So Myron Holder
continued her daily attendance at the Deans farm.  January and February
passed.  March was blowing its wildest, when one day Myron Holder did
not come to Mrs. Deans'.

The latter waited fuming, resolved, as she expressed it, to "give Myron
Holder a fine hearing when she did come."

Mrs. Deans was always promising somebody or other a "hearing," which,
by the bye, was an exceedingly misleading term, for in the conversation
thus referred to the other party did the listening whilst Mrs. Deans
talked.

The wild wind of the morning had intensified into a bitter sleet, which
darted its blasts into the face like sharp-pointed lashes, when Mrs.
Deans heard a knock at the side door.  She opened it herself to find
old Mrs. Holder, bent, wet, furious, standing in the slush.  Mrs. Deans
bade her come in, with a meaning look at the corn husk mat before the
door.

Mrs. Holder paid no heed to the look, but with muddy feet stepped into
the room fair upon Mrs. Deans' new rag carpet, and standing there, a
quaint old figure, clad in the forgotten fashion of thirty years back,
proceeded to give Mrs. Deans what that lady herself would have called
"a hearing."

Mrs. Deans had a ready tongue, an inventive imagination, a fund of
vituperative imagery, and a pleasant habit of drowning the voice of any
one who chose to contradict her; but in one's own house, to be
confronted in this way, abused for some unknown crime, covered with
contumely, and showered with contemptuous epithets, and all from an old
woman whose granddaughter was honored in doing one's kitchen work, was
not conducive to dignity and presence of mind.

Mrs. Deans was too old a scold, however, to be routed without an effort
to vindicate herself.  Finding it vain to wait an opportunity for
speech (Mrs. Holder never seemed to pause for breath), she simply began
to talk also--Myron's non-appearance, Mrs. Holder's impertinence, and
her own mystification giving ample subject-matter for her eloquence to
do justice to.

But Mrs. Holder talked on, apparently unconscious of Mrs. Deans'
remarks--finally she hurled one direct question at the latter: "Did you
know--that's what I want to find out--did ye?  And if ye did, what d'ye
think of yourself?  You----"

She was about to branch off into a personal description of Mrs.
Deans--somewhat unflattering--when the latter seized her cue.

"Did I know what?" she demanded.

Mrs. Holder came to a dead stop and looked at her.

"Did I know what?" reiterated Mrs. Deans majestically.

"Did you know--Myron--" she stopped, this thing was difficult to frame
in words.

"Well?" said Mrs. Deans.

"Did you know Myron was--would be--had--" again the voluble Mrs. Holder
faltered.  Mrs. Deans looked at Mrs. Holder--and something whispered to
her what Mrs. Holder could not say.  "Do you mean to tell me--" she
paused--filling up the hiatus with an eloquent look.

Then she loosened the tides of her indignation, and sweeping aside all
memories of Myron's honesty, and faithful service, and patience,
launched against her the full flood of her invective.

Presently Mrs. Holder chimed in: there was something absurd yet
tragically repulsive in these two women, but a moment before reviling
each other, now absorbed only in the desire to outvie each other in the
epithets they hurled against the girl--the granddaughter of the one,
the uncomplaining servant of the other.

Their attitude, however, was prophetically typical of the treatment
Myron Holder was to receive.  The whole village forgot its private
quarrels to point the finger at its common victim.  Beset with all the
frightful anticipations of motherhood, bowed beneath the burden of a
shame she appreciated and accepted, hounded nearly to madness by her
grandmother's jibes and reproaches, Myron Holder's heart was wellnigh
desperate.

The spring winds brought her dreadful suggestions of despair.  The
first hepaticas shone up at her as balefully as the lighted fagots to a
martyr's eye.  The springing hopvines seemed to twine their tendrils
tight and tighter about her heart.  All the scents and sounds of spring
were ever after to her an exquisite torture.  But her soul was of
strong fibre.

Before all the scorn of the village, all the rebukes of Mrs. Deans, all
the wrath of her grandmother, all the bitterness and misery and
hopelessness of her own heart, Myron Holder was mute.

No murmur escaped her lips against the man who had forsaken her.  The
village knew her shame, but it could not fathom her secret.  Myron
Holder was deaf to all commands, entreaties, persuasions, sneers.  Her
face, holy with the divine shadow of coming maternity, turned to her
questioners an indecipherable page--writ large with characters of shame
and sorrow, but telling naught else.

* * * * * *

There came a night when Myron Holder descended into that hell of
suffering called child-birth--struggled with prolonged agony--helpless
and alone--and cried aloud--to that dead father--to that unknown
mother--to God--for Death.

Myron Holder was a woman and had come to years of knowledge, and her
fall was doubtless a sin and a shame to her--black and unforgivable;
but far as Myron Holder had fallen, deep as was her humiliation, black
as was her shame, inexcusable her error, she still shines in effulgent
whiteness when compared with those women who refused her aid that long
night through, demanding as recompense for their ministering the
betrayal of her betrayer.  Myron Holder would not pay their price.

The dim gray dawn lighted the pain-scarred face of a sleeping mother,
by whose side reposed a fair-haired child; a child the secret of whose
parentage was still locked within its mother's heart.

* * * * * *

"Them kind always lives," Mrs. Warner said to her husband, when, on a
June morning, she saw Myron Holder totter past her door.  Mrs. Warner
should have thanked the God she worshipped, fasting, that it was so:
had Myron Holder died, no woman in all Jamestown would have been free
from blood-guiltiness.  They had beheld a woman in such extremity as
moved the hearts of Inquisitors, stayed the torch of persecution,
shackled the relentless rack, deferred the vengeance of the law, and
had withheld their hands from helping.

Those same hands which wrought garments for the heathen and shamed not
to offer their alms to God!




CHAPTER III.

  "It is a wild and miserable world,
  Thorny and full of care,
  Which every friend can make his prey at will."

  "Know how sublime a thing it is
    To suffer and be strong."


Beneath the quietness of Myron Holder's manner there raged a very chaos
of reckless, despairing thought.  It is undeniable that at this time no
maternal love warmed her heart towards her child.

There was one night--one dreadful night--whose memory stained forever
even the dark pages of her retrospect.  A night through the long hours
of which she lay and thought of death--not to herself--but to the
sleeping infant at her side.  All the tales she had ever heard of
desperate women's crimes came to her, assailing her weakened will and
tired brain with insidious suggestions of safety, and freedom, and
immunity from blame.

Pallid, she rose in the early dawn.  As she passed the old English
mirror in its shabby gilt frame, she caught a fleeting glimpse of
burning cheeks, cracking parched lips and bloodshot eyes.  She withdrew
her glance shuddering.

It was very early in the morning.  She crossed the kitchen, and softly
opening the door looked forth upon the unawakened world.  The air was
somewhat chilly, but sweet and soft.  A heavy dew spread a pearly film
over the grass, broken here and there by a silvery shield, where the
spider webs held the moisture: gossamers they are in these early
morning hours when the world is pure and quiet,--shreds of the
Madonna's winding sheet, as we all know.  But what are they when the
dew is gone and they are laden with the dust and soot and grime of the
long hot day?  Gossamers still?

Down between the trees she could see the dull glimmer of the lake,
awaiting the sun to strike it into silver; a few pale stars lingered,
loath to bid the world good-by before the moon, which, a wraith-like
orb, still soared on high, white and diaphanous.  All was calm,
passionless, and pure.  As Myron Holder looked there grew within her
soul a sick shuddering against the woman of the past night.  She saw
herself vile where all was holy, passionate where all was peace.  And
from her soul, a plea, indefinite in aspiration, and vaguely voyaging
to some unknown haven, went forth, that her old heart might be
vouchsafed to her, her own suffering, fearing, trusting, loving,
betrayed heart, instead of this throbbing centre of pain with its
bitter blood of despair and hate.

Slow resolutions began to stir in her heart: she would go through the
world "spending and being spent" for others: she would be patient to
her grandmother, always remembering she had shamed her: she would be
true and faithful and self-sacrificing in every relation she assumed to
others; she would be sympathetic to all and she would die soon, very
soon, she thought, and the village would mourn her and at last speak of
her with loving kindness.  Poor Myron!  Like "many mighty men," she did
not realize the utter barrenness of a posthumous joy or understand how
diffident Death can be when wooed.

Her mood was jarred by the child's cry and the grandmother's querulous
complaint.  She turned from the morning just as the sun's rays shot
across the lake.

As soon as she was able to do so she resumed her work--bending over her
toil, a patient figure in a worn blue print gown and dark sunbonnet, a
humble mark she seemed for public scorn: yet all the scandal and spite
of the scurrilous little village played about her.

As Mrs. Disney expressed it, old Mrs. Holder "took it most terrible
hard": therefore the village matrons contracted a habit of running in
at all hours to the little hop-clad house and condoling with Mrs.
Holder, and with her speculating as to the identity of the child's
father.

Now and then these zealous comforters rather overdid the matter,
notably when Mrs. Weaver, with a view of exonerating Mrs. Holder from
all blame and relieving her of all responsibility for Myron's behavior,
remarked that "It did seem as if bad was born in some people."

Old Mrs. Holder rose at that, and speedily made Mrs. Weaver aware that
Myron's badness was purely sporadic, and that heredity had nothing to
do with it.  She did not express herself in this way, but conveyed the
same idea much more forcibly.

It is possible that, being Myron's grandmother, she felt a slight
reflection from Mrs. Weaver's well-meant suggestion that Myron had
inherited vice as her birthright; be that as it may, she speedily made
Mrs. Weaver aware that if there was any truth in such an idea, she
herself must be in a perilous state: the old Englishwoman had managed
to glean pretty accurate data about the Jamestown people, and she knew
that Mrs. Weaver's mother had "tript in her time."  Mrs. Weaver called
no more upon Mrs. Holder, but the others showed no abatement of their
zeal.

These good Jamestown women had a pleasant habit of sitting with Mrs.
Holder until Myron's form appeared at noon or night.  They gazed at her
while she opened the gate, trod the little path past the front door,
and until she turned the corner: when Vice in the person of Myron
entered the back door, Virtue embodied in one or more of Jamestown's
matrons fled from the front door, hearing, ere the gate was reached,
the first measures of the jeremiad with which her grandmother greeted
her.  There was little wonder that Myron Holder grew morbidly nervous
and supersensitive.  She would scarce have been responsible for any
deed, however evil.

All the morning the anticipated agony of the ordeal of walking up the
path, under these scathing eyes, oppressed and tortured her.  No martyr
ever contemplated with greater dread the red-hot ploughshares than
Myron Holder did those few yards of red trodden earth, bordered by fox
grass and burdock leaves.

Through the long hours of the slow afternoons she braced herself for
the return home at night, but she did not try to elude any of the
humiliations of her position.  The garden gate was terrible to her as
the surgeon's knife to the sufferer--for the hasp was loosened and
twisted, the gate had to be lifted before it could be opened, and
sometimes she was kept fumbling with the fastening until the blood swam
before her eyes in a red mist.

Doubtless she should have considered all these painful contingencies
and walked more heedfully, but the thought, which the Jamestown matrons
often quoted, did not, as they seemed to think it should, dull the pain
of the thousand stings she received daily--it only pressed them home.
There are many

    "Dainty themes of grief
  In sadness to outlast the morn;"

but the tale of Myron Holder's expiation is not one of them--it is a
sordid theme, yet, being human, not too sordid to be writ out.  It is a
painful relation; but when one woman lived it, we may not shrink from
contemplating it, nor hesitate to view step by step the way one woman
trod.

The first summer of her child's life wore away.  Autumn came before
Myron Holder was goaded into any demonstration of her suffering.

She was one day working for Mr. Disney, who worked old Mr. Carroll's
place on shares.  It was the time of the apple harvest.  All day long
they had been picking, gathering, sorting, and carrying the heavy
fruit.  Between Mr. Carroll and Mr. Disney was waged a continual war of
wits, each endeavoring to get the better of the other.  The afternoon
was far spent when old Mr. Carroll came, limping out, bent and thin,
only his erectness of poise when he stood still evidencing the old
soldier.

The fruit had been divided into two long heaps, alike in their
dimensions, but, as all the pickers knew, of widely different quality.

The grass was sere and yellowed, the sapless apple leaves fell in
rustling showers at the lightest breath of wind, and now and then an
apple fell with a dull sound upon the earth.  The brown side of the
drive-house formed a neutral background into which all the sombre tints
of the little scene blended, save the brilliant reds and yellows of the
two long piles of apples.

"Well, Mr. Disney--got the apples sorted?" asked Mr. Carroll with
affected geniality.  Mr. Disney, a shallow-witted man, was betrayed by
the smile on the lips into disregard of the cold eyes, and replied with
rash effusiveness:

"Yes--picked, sorted, divided, sold, almost cooked and eaten."  Old Mr.
Carroll's smile froze.

"Which is my pile?" he asked with an indescribable intonation of
sarcastic contempt, which pierced even Disney's denseness and made a
slow red gather to his cheeks as he answered--"That one."

"Then I'll take this one," replied Mr. Carroll, indicating the other.
Disney faltered then--wanted to re-divide--and managed to confuse
himself completely.  Mr. Carroll listened contemptuously; his keen old
eyes had discerned the mud on the apples in the heap assigned to him,
and he had decided, rightly enough, that they were windfalls.

Disney's half-hearted plea for a re-division was manifestly absurd, and
the caustic old man enjoyed a pleasant half-hour in ridiculing the
idea.  For once he had his enemy fairly "on the hip."

The end of it was that presently, when Mr. Warner drove past, he saw
old Mr. Carroll enthroned upon an upturned bushel basket, his cynical
old eyes gleaming with amusement, his feet shifting restlessly with
delight, his tongue irritating Disney almost beyond endurance.

He had placed himself on the side of the drive-house door and demanded
that his apples be carried in then and there.  Disney longed to refuse,
but his agreement provided that he perform all the labor of harvesting
and storing Mr. Carroll's share.  There was nothing for it, therefore,
but to obey the irascible old man, who, in numerous playful ways, made
the carrying in of the fruit a weariness of the flesh to Disney.  He
stopped him to pull stray wisps of grass out of his pails, or to
examine a purely imaginary blemish in an apple.  He let his cane slip
down so that Disney tripped over it.  He took one of the pails, and
pretended to fix one of the handles, which was perfectly secure as it
was--and all the time he talked, gently, irritatingly, making the most
innocent of pauses for replies that Disney felt he must make, but which
he made as briefly as possible.

The afternoon waned; finally the last apple of the heap was transferred
to the drive-house.  Then Mr. Carroll rose, trying his best to conceal
the stiffness of his joints from Disney, locked the drive-house door
and limped off to his lonely house, solitary but triumphant.

A little later he watched the departure of the disgusted Disney and his
pickers--Myron Holder dragging wearily home alone, body and heart alike
aching; the rest slyly nudging one another, with meaning looks at
Disney's sullen face.

Still later, when Mr. Carroll blew out his yellow wax candle, he pushed
aside the limp white blind, raised the many-paned window and looked
forth into the moonlight.  It was very clear and quiet.  Disney's pile
of apples lay roughly outlined beneath its covering of old sacks.  Mr.
Carroll looked at it amusedly--as he looked a stray apple, left
swinging unseen, fell.  As the sound reached his ears a malevolent
smile irradiated his face.  Still smiling, he put the window down, let
the blind fall and sought sleep.

That night Myron Holder traversed the road home in the deepest
dejection; forced to endure all day the covert sneers of the other
pickers, with extreme bodily weariness added to her mental burden,
helpless as a fly from which a wanton hand has torn the wings, she
felt, as she trod her solitary way home, utterly despairing.

Ere she was fairly within the doors her grandmother's taunting words
met her.  Roused from her long apathy of mute endurance, she tore her
sunbonnet from her head and flashed one dreadful look of rage and
defiance at the old woman--such a look as made Mrs. Holder' stagger
back, holding up her hand as if to shield herself from a blow.
Terrified at the turmoil in her own breast, Myron turned and fled into
her room.  She saw the boy's little form upon the blue and white
checked counterpane of her bed, she rushed up to the couch, her hands
were clenched, her heart seemed throbbing in her throat.  Dreadful
thoughts circled about her, wild and diverse, but all hung upon the one
axis of pain.  Half in delirium, she bent over the child.  It looked up
at her and smiled, and stirred feebly, but yet as if its impulses made
towards her.  With a cry she caught it to her bosom.

There was one creature that yet smiled upon her.  Thereafter, from day
to day, throughout the long winter, her adoration of her child waxed
stronger and stronger.

Every instant she could spare from her toiling she held it in her arms.
On Sunday, when good Jamestown people did no extra work, Myron Holder
had her only pleasure.  For then she shut herself into her room with
the child, whispering to it, caressing it, soothing it when awake, and
during its long sleep holding it with loving avarice in her arms, too
greedy of the cherished weight to relinquish it to the couch.

Her grandmother managed even from this tenderness to distill some
bitter drops to add to Myron's cup.  She dwelt long and eloquently upon
the wrong Myron had done the child.  Slowly the winter passed, and Mrs.
Deans once more hired Myron Holder to come to the farm daily.  The
child was left with old Mrs. Holder, while Myron earned a subsistence
for all three.

What Myron Holder endured daily no words can tell.  By what written
sign may we symbolize the agony of a heart, bruised and pierced and
crushed day after day?  By what language express the torture of a pure
soul, stifled in a chrysalis of shame?

Some souls may be purified by fire, doubtless, as the old Greeks
cleansed their asbestos fabrics; but we should be wary how we thrust
our fellows into the furnace, for no base tissue will stand the fire,
and a soul, to emerge unsmirched and undestroyed, must be of strong
fibre indeed.




CHAPTER IV.

  "O Jesus, if thou wilt not save my soul,
  Who may be saved?  Who is it may be saved?
  Who may be made a saint if I fail here?"

  "As who should say: 'I am Sir Oracle,
  And when I ope my lips, let no dog bark!'"


There are doubtless a few of us in the world capable of judging and
pronouncing sentence upon the rest.

It is unfortunately inevitable, however, that such capabilities remain
forever underestimated, and the possessors rarely receive the
acknowledgments due from an ungrateful world.

Mrs. Deans was one of the chosen few who recognize their own
infallibility, and accept as a sacred trust the knowledge that they are
indispensable.  To be a god, Mrs. Deans only lacked the minor attribute
of immortality--a want of which she was herself unconscious.

Mrs. Deans strove earnestly to better her neighbors and cause them to
conform to her standards of what was right.  She was a firm believer
that "open rebuke is better than secret love," and whatever risk Myron
ran, under Mrs. Deans' rule she incurred no danger of being "carried to
the skies on flowery beds of ease"--a thing much to be dreaded.  Nor
was there any possibility of her forgetting, for a half-hour at a time,
the light in which Mrs. Deans viewed her, which was, of course, the
somewhat trying illumination that the Children of Light project upon
the Children of Darkness.

Mrs. Deans had a modestly good opinion of herself.  "Thou art the salt
of the earth" impressed her with all the directness of a personal
remark.  Those who enjoyed the privileges of Mrs. Deans' household
were, first and least, her husband--Henry Deans.  He was a small man,
with "a little wee face, with a little yellow beard, a Cain-colored
beard."  It was five years since his horses, running away as he
returned from the market town, capsized him over a steep bank, down
which the barrel of salt he had bought rolled also, and, striking him
in the back, partially paralyzed him.

Since that time he had sat under his wife's ministry.  In summer the
back porch held his chair, in winter the kitchen.  By keeping a careful
eye upon the bound girl, he sometimes discovered her in a dereliction;
it was a happy hour for him when this was the case.  It had the effect
of distracting his wife's attention from him, for one thing--and when
too closely centred upon any one person, Mrs. Deans' regard was apt to
prove embarrassing; it also won him much commendation from her--being
convinced of the utter depravity of the bound girl, both "individually
and collectively," it gratified Mrs. Deans to have her "moral
certainty" attested by positive proofs.  It made her realize her
seer-like qualities.

Mrs. Deans' son, Gamaliel, known to his fond mother as "Maley," and to
Jamestown as "Male," stood first in his mother's regard.

Gamaliel was Mrs. Deans' idea of a "fancy" name.  She had hesitated
long before bestowing it upon her boy, wavering between Gamaliel and
Ambrose.  She finally decided upon the former, it being more uncommon.
The son of Mrs. Deans' sister-in-law's brother was called Ambrose--and,
also, Gamaliel was, as Mrs. Deans said, "more suitable," whether to her
son's mental or physical endowments she did not specify.  Old Mrs.
Holder once said she never could "picture out" any one else being
called Gamaliel, nor believe that Mrs. Deans' son could have had any
other name.

He was a stubborn young lout, whose strong will was only subjective to
his mother's because he did not recognize his own strength.  She had
curbed him as he bitted the huge young Clydesdale colts.  Sometimes a
well-broken horse realizes its own strength, and we hear a horrid story
of torn flesh and trampled limbs when it turns to rend its master.  If
Gamaliel Deans ever revolted, his mother would suffer.

However, he was quiescent enough, for his mother's schemes were all for
his benefit.  Besides, he appreciated the charms of a quiet life, and
had inherited a liberal share of the diplomacy his paralytic father
displayed when he feigned sleep for long hours at a stretch, hoping
that he might entrap the bound girl into some piece of unwary
carelessness.  Both Henry Deans and his son Gamaliel had a deeply
rooted belief in the value of the bound girl as a counter-irritant.

Mrs. Deans had had just a "pigeon pair" of children, as Jamestown put
it, but her girl had died when an infant.  Mrs. Deans was too good a
woman not to bear up under the loss, especially as she did not care for
girls.

The bound girl made up the regular trio which Mrs. Deans drove before
her over roads of her choosing.

It is unnecessary to say much of the bound girl.  Mrs. Deans described
them often--"Evil incarnate," she called them.  Mrs. Deans changed her
bound girls now and then.  They came to her with all the different
merits and various vices of their unhappy class.  They left her
different incarnations of the same weary, broken, deadened spirit of
labor and endurance.  Their individual characteristics, capabilities
and tendencies had nothing whatever to do with their case.  Woman and
mother as Mrs. Deans was, she was never moved by their peculiar needs.

It is requisite, doubtless, to the "Great Plan" that there be bound
ones among us, enduring--like the hereditary embalmer--the parischite
of Egypt--a loathsome heritage--and yet--the pity of it!  But Mrs.
Deans was not one to question the Providence which ordained for these
bound girls their lot in life.

"They're born bad, and bad they are, and bad they'll be--every one of
them--evil, root and branch; you can't be up to them and their ways."
These were Mrs. Deans' sentiments upon the subject of bound girls, and
other opinions do not matter.

The hired men Mrs. Deans treated with the deference due to those who
must be conciliated and who are free agents.  Mrs. Deans, if not
exactly harmless as the traditional dove, had at least a smattering of
the wisdom of the serpent.

Mrs. Deans was distinctly a leader in Jamestown society.  She was a
very good woman, liberal to the Church, foremost in collecting for
missions, ready to head a donation list at any time; therefore every
one said Myron Holder was very lucky to have won Mrs. Deans' help.
That this "help" consisted in being allowed to do the hardest work
under the most intolerable circumstances for very meagre pay, they did
not stop to consider.  Mrs. Deans said she felt it a "duty" to have
Myron Holder.  We are all so thoroughly acquainted with the fact that
duties are unpleasant, that the Jamestown women are not to be blamed
for looking upon Mrs. Deans in the light of a martyr.

Mrs. Warner expressed the sense of the village view of the matter when
she said, "It beats me how Mrs. Deans can put up with that Myron
Holder!  Going about as if she was injured, bless your heart, with a
face as long as a fiddle and looking as if she was half killed, when
she ought to be thankful to be let into a decent house to work."

And indeed the hopeless face Myron Holder bore above her aching heart
was a public reproach; but we do not see rebuke where we do not look
for it, and Jamestown felt itself above censure.

In the old Puritan graveyards in the New England States there was a
place set apart, where in a common receptacle were buried those who
held a different faith from the Puritans, or who avowed no faith at
all.  This was called the "damned corner."  Whether the Puritans, out
of zeal to do their Master's work, intended in this way to facilitate
the business of separating the sheep from the goats, or whether it was
with a view of securing their own sacred dust from contamination, does
not appear.  But it is a custom which still survives.  We all have a
"damned corner," where, beneath the intolerable burden of our
disapprobation, we deposit those we know are wrong.  Of course, common
decency requires that we keep these spots swept with our criticism,
garnished with invective; and when it is considered that in Mrs. Deans'
eyes even Gamaliel sometimes showed faults, it will be understood the
worthy woman had no sinecure.

Mrs. Deans' mind was somewhat "out of drawing" to her body, which was
broad, large, fair, and of generous proportions.  Why fat and
good-temper should have been so long proverbially associated is
difficult to discern; in so far as the ordinary mind can analyze, it
would seem as if adipose was a distinct excuse for bad temper.  To be
hotter than other people in summer and not so cold in winter is one of
the simplest and most obvious results of fat--yet who shall say this is
conducive to sympathy with other people?

Mrs. Deans had been a Warner, and was inclined to goitre.  Her large
head, with its oily bands of fair hair, was always somewhat inclined
backwards.  Her general appearance suggested, in a remote way, a
colossal and bad-tempered pouter pigeon--a likeness absurdly emphasized
sometimes by the redness of her eyes.

When Myron Holder crossed the threshold with the quilting-frames, a
scene characteristic of the place greeted her.  Mrs. Deans stood in the
foreground, holding the floor; her husband listened to her eloquence,
blinking appreciatively if somewhat apprehensively.  You never knew--to
use one of her own expressions--when you "had Mrs. Deans, and when you
hadn't."  She was apt to deflect suddenly from the chase she was
engaged in, and start full cry after another's shortcomings.  More than
once Henry Deans, enjoying himself hugely while his wife browbeat the
bound girls, had his joy turned to mourning by suddenly discovering
that the peroration of his wife's address had for its inspiration his
own shortcomings.

His wife was, as he confided to Gamaliel, "onsartain"; it was a
perilous joy to listen to her, and, therefore, perhaps, the more
exhilarating.

The bound girl--a slight, tow-headed child with high, unequal
shoulders, and arms, and wrists, developed by her life of toil into
absurd disproportion to her body--stood by the stove, listening with a
dazed look in her weary eyes.  She had broken a seven-cent lamp-glass.

Myron put aside the basket of groceries, took the quilting-frames to an
empty corner, and set about her preparations for the weekly washing.
The bound girl still stood motionless by the fire, and Mrs. Deans still
talked; her husband was shifting uneasily in his chair, for her remarks
were beginning to wander from the case in point, and her condemnations
and criticisms were becoming too sweeping to be altogether pleasant,
when, much to the relief of her hearers, Mrs. Deans' attention was
distracted by the arrival of the ragman, with his noisy, rattling van,
piled high with coarse, bulging sacks of canvas.  Mrs. Deans assumed
her sunbonnet, and went out to him.  He was a man of sixty or so, thin,
good-humored, and with what Mrs. Deans called, "An eye to the main
chance."  Perched high upon the seat of his old-fashioned blue van, he
was exposed to all the variableness of the weather; but he took
sunshine and rain in good part, and seemed little the worse, save that
he was tanned to a fine mahogany tint.

He went regular rounds through the country, gathering rags and
scrap-iron.  His calling is a survival of the old classic system of
barter.  The interior of his van was filled with an array of pans and
pails and all sorts of tin-ware; a drawer at the back held common
cutlery, horn-handled knives and forks, and tin spoons, such as his
customers used.  With these wares he paid for the rags and old iron.
Many a thousand pounds of each had he and his old black horse collected.

He had a faculty for gauging the weight of a bag of rags that was truly
impressive.  "That'll go thirty pound," he would say; then weighing it
hastily, "Turned at thirty and a half," he would announce with an air
of surprise at his own mistake.  Then, by a quick fling, the bag would
be skillfully bestowed upon the top of the van; his load was always
one-sided, but never fell off.

Mrs. Deans always had rags for him, and invariably bought pie-plates.

"Who is that?" said he to Mrs. Deans, after the chaffering process was
over, and she stood, pie-plates in hand, watching him put the wooden
peg through the staple to keep the hasp tight.  He had caught a glimpse
of Myron Holder.

"That--oh, Jed Holder's Myron," returned Mrs. Deans, assuming the face
with which she taught Sunday school.

"'Tis, eh?  What do you have her for?"

"I feel a duty to have her here, but it goes ag'in me, Mr. Long--it
does that; but there, we all have our cross and we must help along as
well as we can.  Are you going to call at old Mrs. Holder's?  She takes
it most terrible hard."

"Yes, I'll call there; it's a lucky job for the girl she's got such a
backer as you, Mrs. Deans.  'Twould be a good thing if there was more
like you.  It beats all what wimmen is coming to these days!  Who's the
man?"

"Don't ask me--ask her; that's the only place I know to find out; she's
that close, though!  And stubborn!  Even I, for all I've done for her,
and put up with, don't know!  No more does her grandmother.  But I'll
find out."

"Well, well--that's curious," said the ragman, by this time perched
aloft again and shaking the reins over the high, lean haunches of his
horse; "good day, Mrs. Deans; you have a fine place here."

"Good morning.  When'll you be back?  Be sure you call."

"I'll be round in a couple of months again.  Good morning," he replied,
as his van jolted away.

"It seems to me," said he, soliloquizing, "that Mrs. Deans has washed
more'n she can hang out!  Jed Holder's daughter can keep her month shet
if she makes up her mind to it; I knowed Jed."

This ragman had not gathered the rags of Jamestown for thirty years
without acquiring some knowledge of the people.  "I kin read 'em by
their rags," he used to tell his wife.

He was justified in doubting Mrs. Deans' ability to perform the task
she had set herself--to fathom Myron's secret.

"That girl of Jed Holder's has made a fine job of herself!" the ragman
said to old Mr. Carroll, as he drove homeward in the evening.

"Yes," said old Carroll; "women are a bad lot, a bad, scheming lot."

"Oh, come, come; you'll be getting married to some young girl one of
these fine days," retorted the astute ragman.

"I--no, sir; not such a fool," snorted the old man, highly pleased.
"Will you come in and have a drop?"

The ragman would; they entered the house together, the black horse
meantime reaching down to nibble at the last year's grass, through
which the first tender blades of the new growth were pointing.

Presently the ragman emerged, looking much happier and warmer; the wind
was chill in the evenings yet, and Mr. Carroll's "drop" meant a good,
stiff glass of gin.

Mr. Carroll came to the door after him.  "Mrs. Deans declares she'll
find out, but the job will puzzle even her, I'll warrant," the ragman
was saying as he climbed nimbly up over the front wheel.

"Trust her for that; women are all alike.  'Set a thief to catch a
thief,'" replied his host with a sardonic chuckle.  (If Mrs. Deans
could have heard him!)

The ragman loudly evidenced his appreciation of this fine wit, and
departed, calling out, "Evening--good evening--you've got a fine, snug
place here, Mr. Carroll."

His homeward way led through quiet country roads, and long grass-grown
"concessions."

The promise of spring made sweet the air, and although the night felt
gray and chill, it did not numb, as do autumn nights of the same
temperature.

The ragman's house stood on the outskirts of a little town, and was
dwarfed and overshadowed by the barn, which occupied the main portion
of the lot.  One little corner of this barn was devoted to the big
black horse; the rest was given over to rags.  If the rags are not sent
to the mills as they are collected, they are "sorted," which means that
buttons, hooks, and eyes are cut off, and the woollen separated from
the cotton rags.  The former are sent to the shoddy mills; the paper
factories absorb the others.

The ragman's trade has its traditions and romances; and the tales of
fortunes found by ragpickers are beautiful truths to all of their
calling; so this ragpicker, like all others, carefully felt the pockets
and linings of the garments that came to him.  During his thirty years
of rag-picking he had found one two-dollar bill, seven ten-cent pieces,
eighteen five-cent bits, one pair of gloves and an average of one lead
pencil a year--but he still hoped.

Finding a fortune in rags, however, is a little like trying to locate
the pot of gold at the rainbow's foot.

Myron Holder had heard plainly the ragman's query and Mrs. Deans'
reply.  Old Henry Deans, blossoming forth like a snail out of its
shell, as soon as his wife's back was turned, said with leering
facetiousness, "Ah--a fellow askin' after you, Myron," and pointed his
fist with a look that made the blood spring to the woman's cheeks and
linger there, a painful blot as though the face had been smitten.  She
bent over her tub in silence, her heart hot within her.  The regard of
such men and women as Myron Holder lived among may not seem of much
moment to us, nor their criticisms of any import at all, but it must be
remembered that they formed Myron Holder's world; and their verdict
upon her was terrible, inasmuch as with them lay the power of
inflicting the penalty they pronounced.

Mrs. Deans bustled in, rattling her pie-plates.  Every one was at work
and unhappy, so after scathing her husband with a contemptuous look, on
general principles, she betook herself to the kitchen proper, and soon
getting the quilting-frames into position, proceeded to "tie" her
quilts, which process consisted in dotting their resplendent red and
blue surfaces with fuzzy knots of yellow yarn.

That night, when Myron Holder went home, she thought for the first
time, once or twice rebelliously, of the portion meted out to her; but
that unaccustomed mood passed and left her in her normal condition of
self-reproach.

It is perhaps true that martyrdom is a form of beatitude; but, if
compulsory, it rarely has a spiritualizing effect.  Myron Holder was
condemned to endure all the "slings and arrows" that a spiteful,
narrow-minded village can aim.  She arose in the morning and ate her
hasty breakfast to the sound of bitter words, directed with the
unerring malignity of long-suppressed dislike, at last given an excuse
for expression.  She worked all day, subject to the taunts of a vulgar
virago, the coarseness of that unlicked cub, Gamaliel, the intolerable
leers and jibes of the half-paralyzed Henry Deans.  She returned at
night to be greeted by her grandmother's venomous reproaches.
Doubtless she deserved all this--but her acceptance of it might have
been different, for Myron Holder had come of no slavish race of
down-trodden serfs.  She had sprung from a long line of sturdy English
forbears, lowly indeed, but free and bold.  It would scarcely be a
matter for wonder had Myron Holder fought with her back against the
wall, defied the world she knew, utterly--its narrow prejudices,
cramped conventions, traditionary decencies; but she did not.  At this
time she neither rebelled nor struggled--she endured; so did Prometheus.




CHAPTER V.

  "Oh, the waiting in the watches of the night!
  In the darkness, desolation, and contrition and affright;
  The awful hush that holds us shut away from all delight;
  The ever-weary memory that ever weary goes,
  Recounting ever over every aching loss it knows,
  The ever-weary eyelids gasping ever for repose--
    In the dreary, weary watches of the night!"

  "The flower that smiles to-day
    To-morrow dies;
  All that we wish to stay
    Tempts, and then flies.
  What is this world's delight?
  Lightning that mocks the night,
    Brief even as bright."


One day, shortly after the ragman's call, old Mr. Carroll came to have
a talk with Mr. Deans.  He did this often.  It was not that he had any
particular liking for Henry Deans or his wife, but the forced inaction
of the former left him unoccupied all day long, and Mr. Carroll dearly
liked "to have his talk out" when once he commenced.  As a prelude to
the talk proper, they discussed for an hour or so the affairs of the
village, the crops of their neighbors, the scarcity of pasture and the
great number of tramps.  Into this part of the conversation Mrs. Deans
entered heartily.  After these matters were canvassed thoroughly, the
men settled themselves more easily in their chairs, and took up the
more serious business of the hour.

Now there were only two subjects that Mr. Carroll thoroughly enjoyed
talking about--politics and war; the former he regarded as the "root of
all evil," the latter as the only means of reform.  Mr. Deans only
cared to discuss religion and crops.

Each talked in his own strain about his own hobby, without regard to
what his companion was saying.  While one was speaking the other
waited, absent-eyed, for the first pause for breath, when he promptly
took up his parable where he had left off when forced to pause for
breath himself.  The one never heard what the other said, each being
too much occupied in thinking what he should say next to bother about
listening to any one else.  They derived much of the same mutual
benefit and amusement from these conversations as two dogs do when they
race madly up and down opposite sides of a fence, barking at each
other.  Many learned arguments, held in high places, are conducted upon
these same lines.

The sunny afternoon wore along.  Mrs. Deans had yawned several times,
yawned audibly and significantly; but her husband, in full cry after
the errors of the Catholics and the bigotry of the Church of England,
disregarded the danger signal, and went on his conversational way
rejoicing.  Mr. Carroll, winding his way through the intricacies of the
bribery and corruption and scandals of the last election, was oblivious
of her yawns, their meaning, and even--ungallant as it may seem--of her
presence.

Gamaliel, coming in from his plough to refill his water-jug, looked
slyly through the door at the trio.

"She's putting her ears back," said he to himself, with pleasurable
anticipation of a row, as he looked at his mother.  He waited a few
moments in expectation of a crisis, but at the instant when his hopes
were highest an interruption occurred in the arrival of Mrs. Wilson.

Mr. Carroll loathed Mrs. Wilson, a well-fed-looking but lugubrious
woman, chronically aggrieved.  From her own account, she had inherited
and endured "all the ills the flesh is heir to," but nevertheless she
was plump and comfortable-looking.  Her dark eyes were bright, her red
cheeks rosy, her nose a pug; her lips showed red against the whiteness
of her false teeth--when the teeth were in her lips pouted, when the
teeth were out her lips pursed.

Mrs. Wilson was somewhat perilously given over to vanities, and had
fringe on her black merino dress and a white muslin rose in her black
bonnet.  She had her knitting with her, an index of her intention to
stay for tea, and an encouragement to Mrs. Deans to insist that she
should remain.  Mrs. Wilson protested she had had no intention of
staying, and Mrs. Deans insisted that she should stay.  Mrs. Wilson's
protestations continued all the while she was laying off her bonnet,
and Mrs. Deans' persuasive eloquence flowed freely; finally, with a
fine assumption of compulsion, Mrs. Wilson ceased protesting, and
allowed herself, knitting in hand, to be led back to the dining-room.

By the time the two ladies emerged, Mr. Carroll was hobbling out of the
gate and Mr. Deans was enjoying a long-deferred chew.  The two women
sat down opposite each other in rocking-chairs.  Mrs. Wilson produced a
black apron, which she donned, and then felt in her pocket for the
goose-quill she carried to hold the end of her knitting needle, stuck
it in her belt, and proceeded to turn the heel of a carpet-warp sock;
at the same time to give Mrs. Deans a full and particular account of
her sufferings from erysipelas.  Mrs. Deans herself had had some
experience with that disease, having once seen a woman in St. Ann's who
was bald from its effects.

Mrs. Wilson's needles clicked; Mrs. Deans' waxed thread hummed as she
vigorously sewed carpet-rags; a distant thud-thud told that Myron
Holder was churning.

The sun began to sink.  Suddenly Mrs. Wilson dropped her hands and her
knitting into her lap, and asked, with an explosive abruptness only
excusable as an indication of the startling character of the question:

"Say, Jane--I want to ask you something!  Has Myron Holder named her
young one?"

Mrs. Deans struck one hand into the other.

"Well, it beats all!  I never!  If you'll believe me, I don't know."

"I just wondered whether she had or not, but I never saw you to ask, or
if I saw you I forgot, and I didn't hear tell of its being named yet.
Now what do you suppose, Jane, speaking confidential between ourselves,
and knowing it'll go no further--if you was asked, now, what would you
say she'd call it, if 'twas put to you?"

"Well, Marian," replied Mrs. Deans, with the air of a baffled
astrologer, "since you ask me plain, I'll tell you one thing--I can see
as far through a ladder as most people, and if I go falling it ain't
through going about with my eyes shut; but all I know about it is one
thing, and that ain't two; whatever Myron Holder calls the young one
she won't call it Jed, for that old Mrs. Holder won't allow at no
rate--for no favor.  Not that Myron said anything about it; that ain't
her way.  She's close--terrible close is Myron, and deep beyond belief.
But old Mrs. Holder says--and what she says she'll stick to, being
stubborn and fixed in her notions--she says, 'No naming of such brats
after my son.'  No--not if Myron asks on bended knee, Mrs. Holder won't
give in."

"But say, Jane," hazarded Mrs. Wilson, as one who advances an
improbable and wild suggestion, "supposing Myron Holder don't ask, but
just does it?  Do you suppose she'd dare?"

"'Tain't hardly likely," returned Mrs. Deans, looking judicial; "that
would be pretty serious, even for Myron Holder.  But I don't know;
she's bad clean through--that's easy enough seen; why she makes the
greatest time over that young one you ever seen.  Why, Mrs. Warner told
me that the other Sunday, when she went to Holder's well for a pail of
water, that the house being very quiet, she went and looked in the
windows, knowing old Mrs. Holder was out to Disney's for milk.  She
couldn't see nothing in the front room nor the kitchen, but in the
bedroom there she seen Myron Holder with the boy.  The boy was asleep,
and she was kneeling by the bed, talking away to the sleeping
child!--'s good's praying to it, Mrs. Warner said."

"I've no patience with such goings on as them," said Mrs. Wilson,
clicking her needles agitatedly.  "I should think she'd be ashamed to
act up like that, considering all that's come and gone."

"Well, you'd think so," agreed Mrs. Deans, winding up her ball of rags.
"But there, Marian!  There's no use talking, her kind don't care for
nothing."

"Well, it's to be hoped she don't throw no slurs on any decent fellow,
like your Male or my Homer," said Mrs. Wilson, with dismal foreboding
in her voice.  "It would be just like her to pick on some fine name.
But I warn her of one thing: slurs is something I can't abide and won't
put up with."

"Nor me, Marian, nor me," said Mia. Deans, her spirit rising in
anticipation of the imaginary fray.  "Let Myron Holder call her brat
Gamaliel, and I'll let her know for once, in her life, that respectable
people has their rights.  Just only let her, once, and that's all.  If
I don't show her pretty prompt what's what, blame me!"

"Well, 'twould be a most terrible slur on any fellow, that's all I can
say," returned Mrs. Wilson.

After tea Homer Wilson called for his mother and drove her away, her
white muslin rose nodding above the black barége veil she tied across
her forehead to ward off neuralgia, her hands clasping lovingly a
bottle of liniment distilled from dried "smartweed," which Mrs. Deans
had bestowed upon her.  Mrs. Deans watched their departure from the
veranda; presently she voiced her reflections aloud:

"Marian don't crack up Homer as much as she used to do; guess that shoe
pinches a bit.  Well, served her right!  Nobody but a fool gives away
his clothes before he's done with them!  They shouldn't have been so
smart giving Homer the deed."

"No, I don't hold with doing that.  Don't catch me doing any such
business, not I," said Mr. Deans' voice from the kitchen.

Mrs. Deans jerked her shoulders impatiently, and took herself and her
meditations out of her husband's hearing.  She was gone some little
time, having walked down to the pasture to look at the lambs.  As she
entered the cook-house she murmured to herself, "I can't make my mind
up to it somehow, but she was anxious, was Marian, terrible anxious
about the name--Homer Wilson."

Homer Wilson and his mother drove homeward.  They passed Myron Holder
entering the gate of her home.  She had taken off her sunbonnet and
held it by the strings, as she fastened the gate.  Her hair, loosened
and roughened, was massed about her head in such a way as to form a
soft, shadowy background, from which the pale oval of her face shone
forth almost startlingly.

"Guess Mrs. Deans is taking her money's worth out of Myron Holder,"
said Homer after they passed.  "She looks mighty tired out."

"Oh, goodness, Homer," said his mother, "don't take up with that girl.
'Tired out!'  Serve her right if she is!  It's pure charity Jane Deans'
having her; and as for stubbornness and badness, Jane says she can't be
beat.  I guess her old grandmother has a tough time of it!  Old folks
has a poor chance when young ones get the whip-hand.  Give--give--and
when you've given all you've got you're no more good!  Well, time's
short here any way, and a good thing it is!  No pleasure after one gets
old--only burdens on other people."  Here Mrs. Wilson sniffed loudly,
and ostentatiously wiped away an imaginary tear.

Homer's face burned in the dusk; his heart rose hot against the
reflection his mother's speech was meant to cast upon him.  But he made
no answer; he was used to such things; they drove on without further
speech.  The loose links in the horses' traces jingled; their
hoof-beats sounded soft on the sandy road.  They drew near the house
before Mrs. Wilson spoke again; then she said briskly: "Homer, don't go
speaking to Myron Holder if you meet her; she's a dangerous girl."

"She looks it," said Homer, with a touch of sarcasm.  "I don't think
I'll be hurt by passing a good day with her, though."

"That's right--I might have known as much.  Get mixed up with her next,
as if I hadn't had enough trouble," whined his mother.

Homer was getting exasperated.  The knowledge that he had that very
morning passed Myron Holder in absent-minded silence added to the
irritation of his mood.  His mother's persistent misconstruction of his
motives and actions was at times almost unbearable.  He answered out of
pure perversity: "She's the best looking girl in the village, by long
odds; and as for not speaking to her, I fancy the women do plenty of
'passing by on the other side' business without the men helping them.
You won't find many men, I reckon, unwilling to speak to Myron Holder."

A strange conviction of the absolute truth of what he was saying smote
across his mind, and suddenly Myron Holder's pale face seemed to show
out of the gloom before him, as he had seen it a little while before
against the dark background of her hair.  His mother almost groaned
aloud; a dreadful thought flittered momentarily through her mind, but
Homer was already pulling up the horses.

He helped her out carefully, and she entered the house absorbed in
peevish self-pity.

Old Mr. Wilson was ready to receive her and eager to hear the "news."
When Homer finished attending to his horses and came into the house, he
found they had already retired.  He heard the murmur of his mother's
voice, broken only by a sharp exclamation or a short interrogation from
his father.  He blew out the lamp and sat down at the open window,
laying his head on his hands.  The frogs in the pond were uttering
their weird and dismal note.  No other sound has a more melancholy
echo, a more desolate tone.  An earthy breath of wind was wafted from
across the newly ploughed land near the house.  In the sunshine the
aroma from fresh furrows is sweeter than the breath of sweet grass; at
night it brings the odor of the charnel.

The wind died down; it was very still and dark.  The dew fell.
Presently Homer Wilson rose, and, still in the dark, found his way
softly upstairs.  His thick brown hair was laden with the night damps,
but even the first heavy dews of spring do not leave long, glistening,
smarting furrows on the cheeks--do not fall in slow-wrung, scalding
drops upon clinched hands, do not linger in salt traces about the lips
they touch.

When Homer Wilson avowed conversion in the little Methodist Church, his
mother confided to Mrs. Deans that she was exceedingly glad thereat.
"I can let him go to the city with an easier mind, now that I know he's
got religion," she said.  Homer had gone to the anxious-seat the night
before, during the revival meeting, had been prayed over, and sung
over, and had avowed, in a few jerky, hesitating sentences, that "he
felt better--happier--there is a load off my mind--I--"  But his
testimony had been interrupted at this point, greatly to his own relief
and his mother's wrath, by enthusiastic Sister Warner beginning to
sing, in a high, shrill treble:

      "Once I was blind,
      But now I can see;
  The Light of the World is Jesus."


Homer retired from the meeting feeling a little dazed.  He knew he had
done what was expected of him, and believed it was the right thing to
do, but was a bit confused as to the impulse which had prompted him to
take the step.

The next morning he started for the commercial college, where he was
about to take a course.  He was alert to the possibilities of life, and
was clear-headed enough to see that without education his chances were
nil.

He had gone, winter after winter, to the village school, and had a wide
reputation among the villagers as a mathematician.

"It's pretty hard to fool Homer Wilson on figgers," was the general
verdict.

He was too progressive to dream of spending his life in that little
hamlet, so he saved all his earnings, and at last had enough to cover
the low expenses of a two-year course at the business college--an
institution which, among its numerous advantages, promised "to secure
good situations for such of the students as shall obtain our diploma."

When Homer Wilson started from the village, he was a good specimen of
the country Hercules; tall, sinewy, resolute, with unflinching will and
bulldog courage.  His conversion, if it had not sprung from his inmost
soul or stirred the deepest depths of his heart, had at least awakened
and strengthened his better resolutions; his mind was eager to receive
the knowledge that he knew meant power.  His hopes were high, his heart
and temper generous.

He met _Her_ shortly after he commenced his course.  Her brother was
attending the college and took Homer to his home one night.  Homer
thought her perfection, for his standard of comparison was not high.
She had fluffy yellow hair, and pretty eyes, and pretty ways, and
pretty speeches galore.  She was winning and cordial, and he thought
her absurd questions about country ways and country doings very
entertaining.  She was bright and quick and quite charmed this keen
young man, who, for all his shrewdness, proved an easy prey to these
trivial acts which girls of her caste exercise so unsparingly.  He
confided to her all his ambitions, and she listened eagerly.

Perhaps he gave her a rather too glowing account of the farm at home.
The peaches and grapes were, perhaps, hardly so plentiful, and
certainly were not so easily obtained.  The harvests were, perhaps, not
quite so golden, the garden perhaps not so lovely, as he depicted it,
nor his father so admirable, nor his mother so benevolently kind to
everybody.  But he had left home for the first time, and, after all,
despite his ambitions, his heart was yet in the country, with the
fields, the sun, the birds and the trees.

Under these circumstances a man is prone to forget the tedious process
of planting and nursing and cultivating the peach trees until they are
fit for fruiting--to overlook the ploughing and sowing and harrowing,
and the long days of toil before the fields "whiten to the harvest,"
and to think and speak of both fruit and grain as springing, with all
the beauty of spontaneity, from the gracious Mother Earth.  And his
listener, if she be a selfish, shallow creature, unthinking and
unheeding, is prone to think only of results, and not at all of the
toil they represent.

So life slipped along with Homer Wilson, studying and loving and
writing home.  Then came a summer day when he took _Her_ for a day's
trip to his home in Jamestown.  His mother had outdone herself
preparing country dainties.  It was the time of strawberries, and there
were strawberries and cream, and strawberry shortcake, and crullers,
and pies, and boiled ham, and the sun was shining, and _She_ fluttered
about, genuinely pleased with many things and affecting to be delighted
by everything.

Old Mr. Wilson had been at his best.  Mrs. Wilson was urbane in a new
dress, and Homer strode about, showing _Her_ the farm, erect and
happily excited.  It was the halcyon day of his life.  In the evening
there was the trip back to the city, Homer taking care of the basket of
strawberries his mother had bestowed upon _Her_.

That night she promised to marry him.  He wrote to his people, and his
mother returned a somewhat unintentionally lugubrious epistle,
conveying their good wishes and consent.

Weeks and months sped, and Homer had never been home since that day.
His old people did not take that amiss, for travelling, as they knew,
cost money.

But there came a day when his course was completed, the coveted diploma
bestowed upon him, and a situation secured for him as bookkeeper in a
lumber-yard, at thirty-five dollars a month.  He made up his mind to go
home for a day or two before starting work.  He reached the village
elate--fortune seemed within his grasp.

His father was surly and harassed-looking; his mother's face looked
older and with genuine lines of trouble about the lips, far more
significant than the peevish wrinkles of self-pity that creased her
brow.

He soon learned the cause of these things.  The mortgage, which had
always seemed as much a matter of course to him as the taxes or the
road-work, was about to be foreclosed.  The man who had lent them the
money would not renew it; he hinted that he feared for his interest, as
it seemed there was no young man to take hold of the place, and in the
event of the property deteriorating he feared for his principal.

The old people before this dilemma seemed numbed.  They could think of
no expedient, and were apparently incapable of deciding what course to
pursue.

Homer listened to it all in sick wonder that he had not been told,
rejoicing inwardly that he had cost them nothing at least for two years
back, though he also realized with bitterness that he had helped them
none.  He went to his old room that night to fight a hard battle with
himself, and to conquer--to give up his ambitions, which, humble as
they seem, were yet great to him; to relinquish the joy of seeing _Her_
daily; to return to the old, hopeless struggle of striving to make ends
meet, to bend his energies to the circumscribed field of making the
most of the few acres of the old farm; to come back and be called a
failure by his friends; to have to wait a long, long time before he
could call Her "wife."  But while that last idea held the bitterest
thought of all, in it also lay the kernel of the hope which was to keep
his heart alive.  He felt he had a sure and certain hope of a happy
future, no matter how long deferred, and he remembered, with a pang of
pity, that his father and mother had only a past.

His brothers and sisters were all married long since, and each had
struggle enough to keep the wolf from the door.  No help from any one
but himself could relieve his old people.

The dawn found him resolved.  He told his father and mother at the
breakfast-table.  They were both delighted, but did not know very well
how to express it.  To a stranger's mind there might have been some
doubt as to whether they appreciated the sacrifice or not.  They did
not in full.  No one save, perhaps, a woman who loved him could have
known the magnitude of his renunciation.

His father and he went that day to see the old man who held the
mortgage.  He was a shrewd old miser, and was fain to secure himself in
every way against anxiety and loss.  He insisted that the new mortgage
should be made out in Homer's name.  He wanted this open-browed,
strong, resolute young man for his debtor, and not the vacillating old
man, who looked as if no responsibility would trouble him long.  So the
farm was transferred to Homer's name, and the mortgage also.

Homer resumed his old life unfalteringly.  He wrote and told _Her_ all
about his change of plans, and she replied to his letters regularly.
Her letters were not very satisfying; women of her fibre are not
usually very fascinating on paper.  So Homer felt trebly the sacrifice
he was making, for he attributed none of his sense of loss to the lack
of real feeling in her letters.  On the contrary, he thought those
letters, with their stilted beginning and spidery writing, the sweetest
of all epistles; and thought to himself how altogether lovely she was,
when even such letters as these left him unsatisfied and with
heart-hunger unappeased.

Homer was not one to put his hand to the plough and then draw back.  He
threw into his work all the energy of his resolute will, and backed it
by the severest physical toil he was capable of.  It was up-hill and
disheartening work, but he toiled on.  He had disappointments enough
and to spare, but he wrote them all down to _Her_, and forgot them when
he read that she was "so sorry."

He had progressive ideas which sometimes worried him sorely, for it was
trying to see others availing themselves of modern appliances for
cultivating, etc., while Homer felt bound to struggle on with the old
implements his father possessed, which called for double the
expenditure of labor and time, and even then did not yield satisfactory
results.

In the spring, too, it took the heart out of him to walk the rows of
his peach orchard and find a third of the trees killed, girdled by the
teeth of the field-mice.  Homer's heart almost failed him when he
discovered this last mishap, for he was oppressed by the knowledge that
he could have prevented it.  It was true that he could not afford the
expensive shields of metal for his trees that some of his neighbors
had, but if, immediately after that heavy snowstorm of last winter, he
had gone out and tramped the snow tightly round each tree, then they
would not have been girdled; for the snow, if left undisturbed, never
clings close to a peach tree; there is always a space between, and the
mice creep round and round the tree in this space, gnawing it to the
height of the snow.  The peach trees next the fence, where the snow had
drifted, were girdled completely up to a height of three or four feet.

Homer had visited _Her_ in the winter.  The week after the heavy
snowstorm had been spent with her.  His mother reminded him of this,
and he flung out of the house angrily.  He was fairly sick over the
loss of his trees, and to have anything cold said about Her was too
much.  He wrote _Her_ all about it; perhaps in his desperate longing
for sympathy, loving sympathy and comprehension, he depicted the
disaster as even more serious than it really was.

He waited for her letter eagerly.  It came.  Her frivolous, mercenary
soul had taken fright.  She sheltered herself behind the old excuse for
disloyalty--worn thread-bare by women of all stations.  She wrote that
she felt she "did not love him as she should if she was to be his wife."

He had sent the little Home-boy to the Post-Office for the letter; he
brought it to the field where Homer was planting out tomato-plants.
Homer Wilson read his letter twice or thrice, put it carefully in its
envelope, and then safely in his pocket.  He went on with his
task--slowly--slowly, though, with none of the tremulous haste with
which he had been exhausting himself for months.  He packed the roots
with soil; it was some relief, the hard, resistent pressure of the
earth; there was something left to battle against, if nothing left to
fight for.  So he continued his row, feeling a fierce wrath if one of
the shaky little plants would not stand straight, and hushing the
Home-boy's chatter with a terrible, pale look.

He completed his task, and went about his other work in an atmosphere
of enforced calm that was torture.  By some chance none of his tasks
that day called for any output of physical strength.  It was a day of
small things, trivial tasks which maddened him by their helpless need
for patience, not strength.

But the weariest hours pass, and night fell over the village as a veil.
Then he wrote to Her a few straightforward, manly lines, setting her
free; telling her she had acted rightly if she did not love him.  Then
he lay down for another night of poignant thought.  He recalled Her
visit to the farm, and remembered how impatient he had felt when his
mother maundered on about sending back the basket the strawberries went
in.  He had felt a little ashamed of his mother's thrift just then.

When the morning came Homer was ready for work, but there had been a
distinct decadence in him during the night that was past.  He had no
longer anything to live for but money; he rose to search for this only
good with eager, greedy eyes.  For this poor countryman had come of a
long race of penurious, grasping men and women, and that mercenary
craving for money and land had been latent in his nature since his
birth.  When he went to the business college it stirred within him
vaguely, and might then have developed, but better ambitions ousted it.
But these aspirations were gone, and in their place flourished--grown
to its full height in a single night--the Upas Tree of Greed.

He told his people next day.  His mother promptly said, "I knowed how
it would be!  A big-feeling, handless creature, idle and good for
nothing!  With her airified ways and her notions; I told you so all
along, Homer," etc., etc.  But Homer, ere even the second word was
spoken, was out of the house and striding along with black brows to his
tomatoes.  The row he had planted the day before looked limp; by night
they were yellow--withered--dead.  In replanting them he found each
stalk broken clean off below the earth; he had indulged his strength
too much in packing the earth about them.  Day by day the change in him
went on--gradually, almost imperceptibly, but startlingly apparent, had
any one contrasted the Homer of the present with the man of the past.
It was very pitiful.  Worst of all, he was conscious himself of the
change, but could not analyze it, so could do nothing to arrest the
atrophy of his soul.

He began to prosper by fits and starts; later more steadily.  He had a
balance at the end of the summers now, and invested it in better stock,
new implements and fine varieties of fruit.  He hid his aching heart
under an offensively blustering manner, and was so morbidly afraid of
any one knowing his secret that he was too carelessly gay--too full of
pointless jests.  Often, after a gathering of the village young people,
he strolled home under the stars, dazed and wondering, his throat harsh
with much speech, his head aching with tuneless laughter.  Was he
really the man who had chattered on so a few minutes since? he asked
himself.  And the other young people said, among themselves, "Homer
Wilson does like to show off so!"

It was an anguish to him when he saw, now and then, a young man leave
the village, win what he considered success, and come back smiling,
content, and well dressed, for a brief holiday; then back to the world
outside again.

His temper became irascible.  When his horses were refractory he was
unmerciful; but after any outbreak against a dumb animal his stifled
manhood rose against this last, worst outrage against it.  But the
horses did not recall the extra feeding and light work as they did the
blow, and they shrank and shivered and started nervously when he
approached.  He noted this, and it cut him to the heart, or stung him
into dull wrath against them, as his mood was.

The farm did better and better, and well it might; all the honest and
generous part of a man's nature was being sunk in it.  He began to pay
the principal of the loan in instalments; at last he had the farm clear.

His brothers and sisters murmured against him.  Homer had stolen their
birthright, they whispered; he had got hold of the farm just when the
hard times were past; he had wheedled the old people into giving it all
to him, they said, and they each and every one had worked as hard as he
had, and besides he had all his own way, while they had had to work
under the old man's orders.

So the boys came home with their families, and paid long visits and
impressed upon the old man how Homer had "bested him."  And the girls
returned with their children, and condoled with their mother.  They
departed, leaving the old man morose, irritable and repining, the old
woman in tearful self-pity; and Homer saw it all and smiled grimly, but
said no word.

So the old people saw grudgingly his hard-won success, although they
shared it fully, and spoke of their other children always with the
prefix "poor," as if contrasting Homer's prosperous and happy lot with
theirs.

He had, after all, a grim sense of humor, and this Jacob-like light in
which his family viewed him filled him with sneering mirth.  Verily
they were a miserable tribe of Esaus.  But the mirth died out at last,
leaving a residuum of rage against his kin, who so persistently
misjudged him, and one bitter night he lay and cursed the resolution
which had brought him back to rescue his old people from the slough of
despond.

With the acknowledgment of this regret, the disintegration of his soul
would seem to be complete.




CHAPTER VI.

  "And oh, the carven mouth, with all its great
    Intensity of longing frozen fast
  In such a smile as well may designate
    The slowly murdered heart, that, to the last,
  Conceals each newer wound, and back at fate
  Throbs Love's eternal lie:--'Lo, I can wait!'"

    "And all that now is left me, is to bear."


That night in the darkness, Homer Wilson's lip curled as he thought of
his mother's too ready fears for him, nor could he refrain a sneer at
the idea of Mrs. Deans' disinterested benevolence.  But after that, he
set himself to slumber, but in vain.  Sleep, that

        "Comfortable bird,
  That broodeth o'er the troubled sea of the mind
  Till it is hush'd and smooth,"

would not bestow its benison upon his tired brain and weary heart, for
he was haunted by the memory of Myron Holder's hopeless face.

It had been, these past years, no unusual thing for this poor
countryman to lie the long nights through, tortured by the vision of a
woman's face: but it had ever been a fair, pretty, laughing face that
had thus enthralled him within the bounds of painful thought; a face
that by its brightness cast a shadow upon every other vision that
strove to tempt him to forget; a face he had worshipped, and thought on
tenderly, as his own; a face he had striven to imagine old; a face he
had even dared to think of, dead, and always--always as his own
precious possession.

But this night his reverie was no selfish one of bygone bliss, or
present pain, or future hopelessness; it was wholly of a woman's pale
face, carven cameo-like against a night of hair, and exceeding
sorrowful.  He recalled Myron Holder as she had been, a plump and
pretty girl; one whom all the boys in Jamestown had liked, but who had
been kept rigidly away from all the village gatherings by her
grandmother.  He recalled the cadence of her voice, softened always and
made richer than the strident Jamestown voice by the English accent she
had inherited.  He remembered having heard her singing once as he drove
past the little hop-clad cottage; as he thought of it, the words came
back to him in part:

  "Where the bee sucks, there suck I;
  In a cowslip's bell I lie.
    * * * * * *
  Merrily, merrily, shall I live now
  Under the blossom that hangs on the bough."

He recollected how a rippling laugh prolonged the song.  He had caught
a glimpse of her that day; she was standing beneath a cherry tree--her
upstretched arms held a blossomed bough, and she gave it little jerks
in time to her singing--the white petals of the cherry blooms showered
down upon her hair in fragrant snow.  Her grandmother called her
in--scolding her as an "idle maid"; Myron had fled into the house still
laughing, and with the cherry blooms clinging to her dark hair; and as
Homer drove on, he thought what a light-hearted girl she was.  That was
in the first year of his sacrifice--now he caught his breath as he
mentally compared the girl beneath the cherry tree finishing her song
with thrills of laughter with the woman standing mute in the moonlight
as he had so late beheld her.

How utterly incongruous it seemed to think of Myron Holder now in
connection with that heart-whole girl.  How much she had lost!  That
day when he heard her laughter and her singing, he had compared Myron
for a moment to _Her_,--now, alas! she was more like him.  This set him
off into another train of thought: How much he too had lost!  He began
to wonder dimly if he had been guilty of any cowardice.  A phrase of
Jed Holder's came back to him; he was full of trite saws, that little
English broom-maker, and when any one lost their courage before
misfortune, he used to say they "let their bone go with the dog."  Had
not he--Homer--let slip some of his self-respect before the loss of his
love?  He hazily perceived the difference between self-respect and
self-seeking, but he could not condemn himself just yet; he began to
dissuade himself from this dissatisfaction with himself; he recounted
his achievements--the paying off the mortgage--restocking the
farm--planting the new orchard--and reshingling the barn--sinking the
cistern--his successful experiments--his prudential management--his
economy; he marshalled all these arguments against the feeble voice
that strove to speak of a narrowed mind, a hardened heart, a bitter
spirit, and for the nonce stilled it, only stilled it, however; happily
for Homer Wilson, it was not yet stifled utterly.

It was pitiable, but natural in one so generous as in reality Homer
was, that he should overlook completely his real claims to credit: his
patience with his whining mother, his generosity to his father, his
tolerance of his ungrateful brothers and sisters.  He attained a
quasi-self-content after a time, but still tossed restlessly.  At last
he could endure it no longer; he sprang up, dressed, and going to his
window, drew aside the curtain and looked forth toward the village.
The dusk of night had given way to the cold darkness of the hour before
dawn; as he looked, a dull yellow light illumined the panes of one low
window, then it faded out to reappear outside the house; it went (for
at that distance its feeble glow did not reveal the hand that bore
it)--it went waveringly along some hundred yards, then was lowered, and
vanished.  There was a space of darkness, then the light was raised,
and proceeded back to the house; it vanished round the corner, gleamed
a moment from the window, and again journeyed forth in the dusk, again
was lowered--again lost to sight--again its feeble gleam traced its
pathway toward the dwelling.

Homer Wilson knew by the location what house sent forth this wandering
light, and following a swift impulse, ran downstairs, pulled on an old
pair of soft shoes, let himself out quietly, and sped along the highway
to the village.

The streets were silent, the dwellings dark, Jamestown still slumbered.
As he reached the house where the light was, he entered the garden
through a gap in the dilapidated fence, walked along in the darkest
shadow until he came to the corner at the point where the light's
journeyings ceased, and stood there hidden by an overgrown bush of
privet; and then he saw the light come forth: it was a queer old
lantern Myron Holder carried, one, indeed, brought from England.  It
had lighted her mother's happy footsteps along Kentish lanes; but how
differently that long dead Myron had sped!  "Merry heart makes light
foot," her husband used to say; alas, that their child should lack that
happy impetus!  Myron advanced slowly, unsteadily almost--the four
little panes of the lantern lighted dimly by the end of a tallow
candle.  She carried in her other hand a large pail.

Homer could not understand her errand, creeping forth thus in the
sleeping night.  She came nearer and nearer, and at last he understood.

She reached the old well (the best well in Jamestown, and the deepest);
set down her lantern, and taking the handle of the windlass began to
lower the bucket; creak--creak went the wooden windlass; at last there
came a faint splash, and Myron painfully rewound the chain; she emptied
the well bucket into her pail, lifted it (throwing, as Homer thought,
all her physical strength into the lifting of the heavy pail, and
seeming to move by the force of her will alone), and bending far over,
proceeded to the house.  He traced her footsteps by the lantern's gleam
to the kitchen door; he heard the plash of water, and then once more
the weary light emerged.  Myron Holder was carrying the water for her
grandmother's washing before starting for her mile's walk and
subsequent day's work at Deans'.  Homer Wilson's familiarity with
household affairs told him this--whispered also something of her
motherhood and its demands upon her, with which this cruel toil so ill
accorded.

He was only a young countrymen, rough and not refined to careful phrase.

"It's damnable!" he said below his breath, and ground his heel into the
sand.

As she approached the well a second time, he waited till she set down
her lantern and pail, and then stepped forth from the shadow--a tall,
strong figure in the gloom, uttering her name softly:

"Myron--Myron Holder!"

For a heart-beat she stood rigid, then her hands clasped: an instant
thus she stood, and then stretched forth her arms with an infinitude of
yearning helplessness, an agony of tenderness and pleading, a world of
relief in the gesture.

"You have come," she said.

[Illustration: "YOU HAVE COME!"]

In all his after-life, Homer Wilson never forgot the awful accent in
which these words--meant-to-be-welcoming words to the man for whom she
had suffered so much--were uttered.  Horrified at the cruel mistake he
had caused, he stood for a moment motionless; the next, he had sprung
forward--for Myron Holder fathomed her mistake and fell without a sound.

Homer caught her before she touched the ground, and holding her in his
arms, distraught with self-reproach, strove to awaken her by calling
her name.

"Myron--Myron," he whispered, with all the intensity of suppressed
feeling, "Myron--Myron."

Her eyes unclosed; she did not stir, nor flush, nor speak.  She only
looked at him out of eyes which were terrible in their tragic despair;
eyes which seemed to accuse him of his manhood, that rendered him akin
to her betrayer.

As Homer Wilson looked upon that pallid face, which the wan light of
dawn illumined palely, his soul was suddenly smitten with
self-contempt.  What was the grief before which he had abased himself?
What was it to endure beside open shame?  Life had seemed to him almost
insupportable, endurable only because he felt he had not merited the
pain.  What must it be to this woman, knowing she had bought contempt
at the price of her own folly?

He recalled with what morbid care he had concealed the pangs he felt;
how he had dreaded lest any eye discern his pain.  What must it be to
endure, not only sorrow and desertion and betrayal, but to endure it
all openly; to meet in every eye a question, to hear on every lip a
sneer, to know that every heart held scorn?

This is the doom that has driven hermits to the desert, that has
tempted women to--

        "From the world's bitter wind,
  Seek shelter in the shadow of the tomb,"

These thoughts did not formulate themselves in his brain; they rushed
upon him--instantaneous impressions--and vanished, leaving ineffable
compassion in his heart, as he looked at the anguished face of Myron
Holder.  She was weakly trying to steady herself, and at last said in a
lifeless voice, "I can stand alone now."

"Forgive me, Myron," said Homer, too much moved to feel any
awkwardness; "forgive me--I frightened you."

"No," she said, "you did not frighten me; I thought----"  She paused.

"You thought----" He began, but hesitated.

"I thought you were _he_" she said, in breathless tones.  Homer
shuddered at the inflection of the words.  In such accents might one
acknowledge Death's dominion over one well-beloved.  He threw off the
chill at his heart and caught her hands.

"Myron," he said, "who is he?"

"I cannot tell you," she answered.

"Tell me," he urged; "tell me, and be he far or near, high or low, I
will bring him to you."

"I cannot tell you," she repeated.  Then for once moved beyond her
self-control, "Oh, that I could!"

"Why can't you?" he asked hotly.  "It is but common justice--let him
bear his part."

"I promised," she replied simply, regaining her calm, the momentary
glow of impatience dying out of her voice.

"Promised!" he echoed.  "What's a promise given to _him_ worth?
Nothing--absolutely nothing.  Promised!  He did some fine promising, I
dare swear.  A promise to him!"

"I promised," she said again; then pushing back her head a little that
she might look him in the face (for she was hardly of the common height
of women), she went on: "I promised, and I will keep my promise; he
will come, and I can wait."  In an instant her head sank.  Her own
words had brought before her a terrible mirage of what that waiting
meant.  He let fall her hands, and stepped back a pace.  The action
seemed to break the bond that had held at bay the memory of the world.
Constraint fell upon Homer Wilson, and Myron's face burned in the dusky
light.

"Did you want anything?" she asked in uncertain tones.

"No," he answered.  "I saw your light from the window at home, and I
came to see what work was going on so early."

"I always do what I can before I go to Mrs. Deans'," she said; "this is
wash-day."

"You will kill yourself," he cried angrily.  "What's your grandmother
thinking of?"

Myron's head sank.  "I deserve it all, you know," she said.  "I----"

"You've no call to kill yourself," retorted Homer hotly.  "Mrs. Deans
is an old wretch, and your grandmother's a----"

"She's good to my baby," said Myron, checking his speech with a
gesture.  He recalled the child's existence, and, moved by an odd
impulse, said gently:

"How is your child, Myron?"

She glanced at him with a gratitude so intense that he flushed and
moved uneasily--as one accredited with a worthy deed he has not done.

"Oh, so well," she said.  "He----"  She paused, her face flaming.  "Oh,
do go----"

"Let me carry that pailful for you?" he asked, hesitatingly.

"No--no--do go!" she returned.

Both were now painfully constrained and eager to be alone.

"Well, I may as well be going, then," said Homer; and turning, made
toward the gap in the fence, through which he had entered the garden.
Once on the street, he quickly ran across the two streets of the
village, and made his way through the fields, reaching his own barns
just as his mother came to the kitchen door.  She was looking toward
the village, and saying shrilly to her husband:

"What did I tell you?  Up and gone at this time!  Fine doings these, I
must say!  Oh, I knowed it by the way he spunked up last night when I
jest was giving him a hint to look out for her.  I tell ye no such
woman as that sets her foot in these doors; no, not if he laws on it.
I tell ye----"

"Did you want me, mother?" asked Homer, showing himself at the
stable-door, curry-comb and brush in hand.

"Oh, you're there, be ye?" said his mother, with a gasp of surprise.

"Yes," said Homer; "do you want me?"

"No; oh, no.  I was just looking at the morning," said his mother, and
vanished.

"Just got back in time," soliloquized Homer, contemptuously, as he went
back to his work.

Left alone, Myron Holder stood a moment motionless.  Then she took a
few steps forward, into the shadow of the bush that but lately had held
for her such cruel delusion.  The mists of the morning that still
lingered about the bush parted at her passage and clung round her,
chill shreds of vapor.

The evanescent flush died out of her face; her eyes were dazed with
pain--she locked her hands (stained with the rust of the windlass
chain) and wrung them cruelly; now she pressed her quivering lips
together--now they parted in shuddering respirations.  How many tides
of hope had swelled within her heart!  How stony were the shores on
which they had spent themselves!  How salt the memory of their floods!
But never a wave of them all had risen so high as this one, which had
swept her forward to the very haven of hope only to leave her fast upon
the sands of despair.

She looked from side to side, with pitiable helplessness in her eyes,
over the desolate garden.  Each bush seemed a mocking sentinel
appointed to watch her misery; nay, to her stricken heart each seemed
the abiding place of some new cheat that in time would issue forth to
delude and torture her.  Unfailing tears gathered in her eyes; she let
her face fall in her hands and breathed forth a name--

  "Like the yearning cry of some bewildered bird
  Above an empty nest";

but more softly than any plaint of bird was that name uttered,
whispered so faintly that no cadence of its sound trembled even amidst
the leaves that brushed her down-bent head.

Presently Myron Holder stood erect, her face masked by a patience more
poignant than pain, more sublime than sorrow, more dreadful than
despair.

Not all heroic souls are cast in heroic shapes.  There was something in
this woman's hard-wrought hands, and simple garb, and weary eyes, and
tender mouth--nay, in the undefinable meekness of her attitude, that
belied her courage.  She filled her pail and bore it to the house,
setting her face as resolutely toward her fate as she set her hand to
carrying the heavy pail; and, heavy as her burden was, she rebelled no
more against bearing it than she did against the weight of the pail
that she herself had filled.

        "Earth has seen
  Love's brightest roses on the scaffold bloom,
  Mingling with freedom's fadeless laurels there."


But easier indeed were it to lay Love's roses in full blossom on a
scaffold than to cherish them, as this woman did and other women have
done, in the wastes of a betrayed trust--their blossoms dyed a
frightful scarlet by the blood of a breaking heart.  Love's roses grow
in bitter soil ofttimes; their petals are soon spent, but their thorns
are amaranthine.




CHAPTER VII.

  "We rest--a dream has power to poison sleep;
  We rise--one wandering thought pollutes the day."

  "Life, like a dome of many-colored glass,
  Stains the white radiance of eternity
  Until death tramples it to fragments."


"The silent workings of the dawns" were past, and the whole sky pearled
to an exquisite soft grayness when Myron Holder set out that day to go
to Mrs. Deans'.  The road swam dizzily before her; the snake fence
zig-zagged wildly; the trees whirled round; the very stones appeared as
if rolling over and over in awkward gambols; the wayside cows loomed
gigantic to her uncertain vision.  Her head throbbed heavily--her knees
trembled; the physical reaction following supreme mental effort had set
in, and her nerves, denied outward expression of the strain put upon
them, were racking her frame sorely.  She persevered, however, holding
a wavering course from one side of the road to the other; at last she
reached the little graveyard of Jamestown, wedged in between the farms
of Mr. White and Mr. Deans.  Its picket-fence was garlanded with long
trails of the native virgin-bower clematis, just putting forth its
first leaf-buds.  The hepaticas, their blossoms past, showed circular
clumps of broad, green leaves, standing erect on downy stalks over the
prostrate copper-colored ones of last year; the blood-root had lost all
its white petals, and its spear-pointed seed-pods and single, broad,
green leaves stood in thick masses, like miniature stands of arms,
spear and shield; but the trilliums were nodding their triune-leaved
blossoms; the wild phlox swayed daintily its cluster of fragile azure
blooms; the meadow violets were clustered in dark-blue masses; the
bracken ferns were uncoiling their fuzzy fronds; the May apples
(mandrake) were pointing through the mellow soil, like so many small
wax candles.  Now and then a pungent odor came to her as she trod upon
the fresh-springing pennyroyal, or bruised the stems of the mint that
grew everywhere.

She was late already, as she knew, but was moved to go to see her
father's sleeping-place.  She went slowly between the graves, carefully
avoiding treading on any of them.  Her father had told her of the
ill-luck that follows the foot that treads upon a grave and the hand
that casts away bread.  By what fearful sacrilege had this woman
purchased her fate?

Her eyes were clearing now; and as she stood beside her father's grave,
she looked upon it steadily enough.  She felt a rapt sense of his
presence--he had been very good to her in his absent-minded way.  If he
had lived!  The woman found herself grateful that he died before.  She
rested her thoughts here to ask herself a question: If her father had
lived, would she have lost herself?  She held her breath for an
instant--then turned and sped from his grave.  She felt that her gaze
defiled it--for, throbbing in each artery, tingling through every vein,
poisoning her heart, she felt her whole being rise to affirm its
shame--to give the damning answer "Yes" to that poignant
self-interrogation.

She was certainly late that morning, and Mrs. Deans met her with
flushed face and angry eyes.

"Well, this is a nice time of day!  'Laziness is much worth when it's
well guided.'  It would seem to me, Myron Holder, as if you'd try to
make some return for the favors I've shown you, and what I've done for
you, and what I've put up with.  Time and time again, I've said to
myself, says I, 'Let her go--what's the good of her?  What's the good
of keeping a dog and doing your own barking?'  But being sorry for you,
I never said nothing.  But now, I tell you, Myron Holder, this thing's
got to quit--either you can come here in decent time, or you can stay
home!"  Then, in a more insulting tone of voice, she asked: "What time
did ye start this morning?  I'll ask your grandmother.  Pretty doings
these, loitering along the roads!  I'd have thought you'd had enough of
that.  Well, don't look at me like that!  You're too good to be spoken
to, I suppose; it's a pity you didn't do some blushing before now!
It's rather late in the day for such delikit feelings--you what?
Stopped in the graveyard?  I wouldn't wonder, nothing more likely; were
you alone?  Well 'twasn't your fault, if you were.  I guess Jed Holder
thinks himself lucky to be rid of the world and such doings as yours.
Poor Jed!  Little did he know what shame he was leaving behind him.
How your grandmother stands it and how she abides that brat, _I_ can't
see.  One thing I've always said: 'Don't bring me no such brats as
them, for I won't be concerned with no such doings!'  But there, what's
the use of talking?  I never say nothing, but I think a lot.  I guess
your mother must have been a beauty from all I hear tell.  Certainly
you didn't get your bad blood off Jed Holder, and you must have took it
somewhere.  'Like mother, like child'--well--none of such worry for
me!"  Then, stepping aside suddenly, and thus clearing the passage she
had hitherto barred, she went on: "What are you standing looking at?
Ain't you going to scrub to-day, or are you come visiting?  I'm sorry
if you have"--here a fine sarcasm echoed in her tone--"because I can't
go and set down and entertain you, for I have my bread and butter to
earn.  But don't mind me--go right into the setting-room and make
yourself at home."

Myron having availed herself of the first opportunity to move from
under Mrs. Deans' insulting glances, had already divested herself of
her sunbonnet, and was getting cloths and water for her scrubbing.
Soon she escaped from Mrs. Deans' eyes, but the sound of her jibing
tongue came harshly to her in every pause of her work.

The forenoon passed.  After dinner the hired man brought the newspaper
in and gave it to Mrs. Deans.  She looked at the price of butter and
eggs, and passed it to her husband.

He sat blinking by the half-open window: upon the window-sill was a
bottle of sarsaparilla, a patch-work pin-cushion, and two or three
potatoes Homer Wilson had brought to the Deans as samples--he being
agent for a seedsman.  Mrs. Deans brought out a big canvas-bag of
carpet-balls, and, placing two chairs back to back, began winding the
balls into huge skeins.  She was going to dye them.  Mrs. Deans worked
away with her hanks, tying them carefully in separate strands, so that
they would dye equally.  Mr. Deans read his paper, its leaves rustling
in his tremulous fingers.  The sound of Myron Holder's scrubbing came
raspingly through the air.  The bound girl was out in the "yard" raking
together dead leaves, bits of old bones, and emptied sarsaparilla
bottles, making it tidy for the summer.

"Well, Jane!" ejaculated Henry Deans, in a tone of pleased surprise,
"who d'ye think's dead?"

"Who?  Old Mrs. White?  Is it her?  Or Mrs. Warner's sister up in Ovid?
She was took terrible bad a week ago Friday.  It's young Emmons!  I
know it!  But say, isn't he owing for that last cord of wood?  I never
seen anything like it, the way people cheat!  It's something awful!
But I'll have that four dollars, though, out of Mame Emmons.  If she
can afford flannel at fifty cents a yard (and Ann White saw her pricing
it), she can afford to pay her debts.  Well, them Emmonses always was
shiftless, but----"

"It ain't Emmons, though Homer Wilson says he looks most terrible bad;
it's Follett!"

"You don't say!" said Mrs. Deans; "you don't say!  When was he took?"

"It don't tell," answered her husband, screwing his eyes horribly as he
read the obituary over again.  "It don't tell--oh--yes it does!
'Caught a heavy cold a month ago and settled on his lungs.'   Well,
he's gone, then."

"Not much loss, his kind ain't," said Mrs. Deans contemptuously.

"Wonder if he forgot me before he went?" said her husband, with a
reflective enjoyment.  "That was a pretty good one, wasn't it, Jane?"

"Yes; no mistake about it, Henry, you hit the nail on the head that
time.  I declare it does beat all how time flies.  Just think! it's six
years full since then----"

"Six years full--no, seven," assented Mr. Deans.

"No, six," said his wife; "it was just the year before your accident."

"So 'twas."  A pause, then he said, "I think I'll have some
sarsaparilly, Jane."

Mrs. Deans got a spoon from the table-drawer, drew out the gummy cork,
and gave him a spoonful.

"Better have a taste yourself," he suggested.

"Don't know but I will," she said, and helped herself to a dram.

The cork was replaced; silence fell upon the pair.  Henry Deans and his
wife had partaken of the closest communion they knew.  Mrs. Deans left
her rags presently to go out to superintend the placing of some new
chicken-coops, and Mr. Deans dozed off into a pleasurable reverie,
evoked by the death of Dan Follett.

Around the name of Dan Follett clustered the recollections of Mr.
Deans' happiest achievement--for, using Dan Follett as an unworthy
instrument, he had purged Jamestown of malt and spirituous liquors and
brought the village within the temperance fold.

It was thus: Dan Follett had come to "keep tavern" in the old Black
Horse Inn.  This was a quaint brick building that stood at the corner
of the Front Street nearest the lake.  It had but a narrow frontage on
the Front Street, but stretched back, a long building, on the side
street.  From the corner of the inn hung a sign-board, depending from
an iron rod.  The sign was a jet black horse, rampant, with the legend,
"Black Horse Inn."  The front of the inn, rising abruptly, as it did,
from the side-walk, was more quaint than inviting, but the side view
was very hospitable, for all along the side street a veranda (floored
with oak and roofed by the second story of the inn, which overhung it)
extended, approached by broad, generous steps.  It was an old, old
building, with queer nooks and corners in it, quaint brass newel-posts
in the stairway, odd sideboards built into the walls, and dark,
hardwood floors.  It was by far the oldest building in Jamestown, and
the huge, untidy willow tree before the door had grown from a switch
thrown down by one of the soldiers, when he and his comrades departed
after their long billet in Jamestown.

Jamestown was not called Jamestown in those days, but Kingsville.
Times had changed with the village, and its name with them; but the
Black Horse Inn remained unchanged--only the bricks had reddened the
mortar between them, so that its walls were all one dark, rich red.
"Many a summer's silent fingering" had wrought a green lace-work of ivy
over the front and at the corners, and about the chimneys a vivid green
stain showed the minute mosses that were gathering there.  It was
having indeed a green old age; and if the second story was beginning to
sag a little between the centre-posts, it conveyed no hint of decay, or
lack of safety.  The droop only showed a kindly and protective attitude
towards the open-armed chairs that stood on the veranda beneath.

In the little garden behind the inn, long neglected and overrun, were
bushes of acrid wormwood, stray wisps of thyme, straggling roots of
rosemary, and bushes of flowering currants.  In the spring, from among
its springing grasses came whiffs of perfume; for the English violets,
planted long, long ago, had spread through and through the tangle of
weeds, unkempt grass, and untrimmed bushes.

The one ambition that had lived in Jed Holder's saddened breast after
he came to Jamestown was to be able to rent the Black Horse Inn.  But
it was only a vague, purposeless wish to possess the right of that
little square garden, amid whose desolation he discerned the traces of
an English hand.  Like so many of Jed's dreams, this one never
materialized.

To this house, then, came Dan Follett--displayed his license to sell
"wine, beer, malt and other spirituous liquors," set out some
hospitable armchairs, erected a horse-trough before the door, and,
having assumed a huge and glistening white apron, strode about, a
jolly, good-natured, guardian spirit.  His rubicund face was always
beaming, his little eyes always blinking away tears of laughter.  There
was but little trade in Jamestown, but Follet managed to make ends
meet, for the lake was noted for its fishing, and parties of fishermen
were right glad to find a place where they could leave their horses and
refresh themselves.  But Dan Follett and Dan Follett's business were
sore rocks of offence in the eyes of the Jamestown brethren.

At "after meeting" many plans were discussed for the discomfiture of
Dan Follett, and, incidentally, the devil.  Many a "class meeting"
evolved an indignation caucus which dealt with the enormity of Dan
Follett's calling, which was cited, with many epithets, as the cause of
every evil under the sun.  But of all this righteous indignation jolly
Dan Follett took no heed, and was as ready to lend his stout brown
horse to Mr. Deans or Mr. White when their own "odd" horse was busy as
he was to hire it to the few fishermen who fancied a ride along the
lake shore.

Henry Deans brooded long over this unholy thing in their midst, and
finally hit upon a plan to put the devil, in the person of Dan Follett,
to some discomfiture.  Mr. Deans was senior deacon in the Methodist
Church and, as such, took it upon himself to provide the bread and wine
for sacramental purposes.  One Saturday, the day before the spring
communion, Mrs. Deans stood admiring her bread.

"I reckon Ann White'll open her eyes when she tastes that to-morrow,"
she said.  "There's nothing like making your own yeast--good hop-yeast.
I don't take no account with salt-rising bread; may be sure enough, but
hops for me every time."

These audible meditations were interrupted by a tramp's voice at the
open door--a forlorn-looking object, asking for something to eat.  Mrs.
Deans gave him some good advice about idleness, drinking, and begging,
and sent him off.  Then she turned her face to the bread again,
separating the loaves carefully, and wrapping two of them up in clean
towels.  A verse flitted through her mind about taking the children's
bread and giving it to the dogs; it struck her as apposite, but her
good memory, strangely enough, failed to recall anything about "a cup
of cold water."

"Them tramps!" soliloquized Mrs. Deans.  "A likely thing I was goin' to
break into the bread for the Lord's table for the like of him!"  She
was just putting the bread into the tin on the pantry floor, where she
kept it, when a sudden thought made her drop the bread and stand
upright.

"I declare!" she said.  "Henry'll never remember the wine!  I forgot to
tell him when he went away!  What in the world will we do now?  Borrow
it of Ann White I won't; that's settled.  Well, if it don't beat all!"

Henry Deans returned from the Saturday market about three o'clock; Mrs.
Deans met him in the yard and asked him, before the horses stopped:

"Did you remember the wine?"

A slow smile crept over Henry Deans' face.  He pulled up his horses
deliberately.

"Did you remember the wine?" asked his wife again.

"Yes, I remembered it," he answered, still smiling slowly.

"Well," said Mrs. Deans, "why didn't you say so at first?  I've just
been nearly out of my mind a-worrying about it all day.  Where is it?
Hand it here and I'll take it in."

"I haven't got it yet," said her husband, descending nimbly from his
perch, and then, for it was dangerous to prolong a joke too far with
his wife, he went and whispered in her ear.

Mrs. Deans' face slowly became irradiate with a joyful and appreciative
glow.

"Well, Henry," she said, "you're no slouch, I tell you; I always knew
your head was level."

"Guess that'll sicken him, eh?" chuckled Henry Deans, and began to
unbuckle his harness-straps.

For the rest of the afternoon Henry Deans and his wife went about in
smiling content, chuckling irrepressibly if they chanced to meet.

They had supper at six.  Night was already setting in, for the days
were not at their longest yet.  About half-past seven, Henry Deans got
his hat, and, his wife letting him softly out of the front door, took
his way to the village.  He soon reached its outskirts.  Down the
unlighted back street he went, across the short transverse one, until
the side door of the Black Horse Inn was reached.  Dan Follett answered
his knock in person.  There was a short colloquy between the two; then
Dan went his way to the darkened bar-room, and, having declined an
invitation to go inside, Henry Deans waited.  Presently Dan returned
with a bottle and, after a generous demur, accepted the money which Mr.
Deans insisted on paying, saying:

"I'm not a church-goer myself, Mr. Deans, but I wouldn't begrudge
giving a little now and again;" then after repeating his invitation,
bade Mr. Deans a cheery "Good-night," and closed the door.

Henry Deans went home, hardly able to restrain his mirth.  From far
down the road he saw a narrow slit of light, showing the front door
ajar for him.  He slipped inside, to be immediately greeted by his wife.

"Did you get it?" she asked, breathlessly.

"I got it, and him, too," said Henry Deans; and they laughed together,
as they put the bread and wine for the Lord's table in a basket.

The next day, a sweet and sunshiny Sunday, the mystery of the Lord's
Supper was yet again enacted in Jamestown--the symbolic wine, clear and
ruddy as heart's blood; the bread, white as an infant's brow.

Next day Henry Deans drove to the market town.  On Tuesday Dan Follett
was served with a summons to appear before the Court to show why he had
broken the law by selling a bottle of wine to one Henry Deans in
unlawful hours.

Follett's rage was intense, and could only be gauged by the height of
Henry Deans' satisfaction.  Of course Follett was fined.  He had no
defence and offered none, but was fain to relieve his mind by
attempting to thrash Deans, which only resulted in his being laid under
bonds to keep the peace.  The whole affair had completely sickened
Follett of Jamestown.  He departed to new scenes, and the Black Horse
Inn again was tenantless.

The exploit covered Henry Deans with glory, and he bore the honor with
the conscious front of one who feels he is not overestimated.  Dan
Follett was dead now, and Henry Deans slept the sleep of the just in
musing over his memories.  And from the lonely garden of the Black
Horse Inn the English sweet violets sent up their fragrance to the
unperceiving night.




CHAPTER VIII.

  "Oh, yet we trust that somehow good
    Will be the final goal of ill,
  To pangs of nature, sins of will,
    Defects of doubt and taints of blood."


Next day, early in the afternoon, Mrs. Deans put away her sewing, and,
donning a black bonnet and a large broche shawl folded corner-wise,
betook herself out of the house.  She went quietly, even
sneakingly--this caution was exercised with an object.  Mrs. Deans did
not want the bound girl to know she had gone.  Such knowledge would be
too conducive to a sinful peace of mind.

Mrs. Deans took her way to the village, intent on getting some dye from
the store.  She hesitated before the gate of the Holder cottage, then,
assuming a look calculated to show the beholder that the milk of human
kindness had in her case turned to cream, she entered the garden.
Partly out of a desire to show old Mrs. Holder that this was really a
neighborly visit, and partly to come upon her unawares if possible and
see what she was doing, and also to have an opportunity of seeing the
child without asking to see it, Mrs. Deans followed the little footpath
round to the back door.  It was open.  The small kitchen was
scrupulously clean; some washtubs stood in one corner full of soapy
water, awaiting the return of Myron to empty them.  Mrs. Holder had
deferred her washing, evidently.  A line hung diagonally across one
corner of the room, and upon it a row of little ill-shaped garments
hung drying, fluttered by the slight breeze from the open door.  The
rest of the scanty washing Mrs. Deans could see in the garden; old Mrs.
Holder never hung a garment of the child's outside.

Mrs. Deans scrutinized all these things, standing at the open door, but
not knowing where Mrs. Holder might be; and fearful lest the sharp-eyed
old Englishwoman had already seen her spying out the land, she felt
impelled to knock.  This she did, and in a moment Mrs. Holder came from
the front room.  Seeing Mrs. Deans, she greeted her with the nearest
approach to warmth she was capable of displaying, and placed a wooden
rocking-chair for her, sitting down herself in a narrow high-backed
wooden chair, bolt upright and with her arms folded.  Presently she let
fall her hands into her lap, twisting them nervously, one within the
other; they were bleached an unhealthy pallor, and their palms and
fingers tips crinkled like crape, from her washing.

"And how are you, Mrs. Deans?" she asked.  Her voice held a strong
English accent.

"Oh, well; for which I ought to be thankful," returned Mrs. Deans.
"Considering them as is took that is unprepared, _we_ ought to be
grateful that _we're_ spared, for it would seem as if them that _is_
ready would go the first.  Dan Follett died last Thursday.  How do you
find yourself, Mrs. Holder?"

"Not well--not at all well," returned the old woman, her voice
querulous.  "I was took cruel queer last night, a-gasping after breath
as wouldn't come.  I'm nigh tired enough o' living, if I could die
mind-easy, but I can't."

"Yes," said Mrs. Deans, pursing her lips and shaking her head, "we all
have our troubles; but you have had a terrible affliction, and, as I
have often said to Henry, 'Old Mrs. Holder does take it terrible hard.'"

"It do be hard," said Mrs. Holder.  Then came a pause.

Mrs. Deans was in certain ways clever; she knew the futility of
attempting to force Mrs. Holder's confidence, therefore she contented
herself with a lugubrious shake of her head, a sympathetic expression
of eye, and murmured:

"Yes--it's terrible hard!"

"Yes," began Mrs. Holder, almost reflectively, "to think as it should
come to me, being afraid o' being buried, due to not knowing who's
going to lay along o' me.  It do seem main hard"--here the speaker's
tones grew hard and her beady eyes venomous--"but I'll find a way
somehow.  Myron Kind's daughter and her bastard brat don't never lay
alongside o' my son and me."

Light now dawned upon Mrs. Deans.  She fully appreciated Mrs. Holder's
attitude in the matter; she rose to the occasion.

"It's the lot up in the cemetery that's worrying you," she said.
"Well, so 'twould me, to think a young one sich as that was going to be
next hand, touching me in my grave!"

At that moment there came a sound from the adjoining bedroom, the door
was ajar, a chubby hand reached through the opening, and pulled the
door wide, and the next instant, Myron's baby, roused from his sleep by
the sound of their voices, came out, and, walking totteringly across
the floor, took hold of his grandmother's dress, and stood eying Mrs.
Deans with the frank impertinence of babyhood.

His yellow hair was tossed and tangled; his blue eyes, a little heavy
yet from sleep, were placid and happy; his face was round and dimpled,
one cheek flushed a deep rose from the pressure of the pillow.  He
looked indeed perfect as any cherubic picture.  However such children
as he may develop--undoubtedly the blond, rosy, dimpled type is the
ideal baby.

There was something grotesque in these two women: their souls grimed
with the dust of their own sins, their hearts hardened beneath a crust
of their own self-seeking lusts, their bodies calloused by the world,
defiled by their own passions, fearing contamination, living or dead,
from too near vicinity to that child.

"Run away, My," said his grandmother, giving him a little push.  The
baby stood still a moment.  A gray cat peeped in at the door, and then
withdrew its head; with a gurgle of laughter, the child trotted after
it.

Mrs. Deans had been eying him steadily since his appearance.

"Now, who does that young one look like?" said she with emphasis, as if
to force an answer by her earnestness.

"Nobody," said Mrs. Holder.  "He do be 'witched, I think.  I never see
a child like him afore.  You could always see a likeness in some trick
or other, but that young one has no tricks with him; them's his ways,
such as you've seen: eat--smile--sleep."

"Well, it beats all," said Mrs. Deans, feeling exasperated.

A trill of inarticulate laughter interrupted them, and the baby
appeared at the door, the gray cat in his arms, wriggling to free
itself.  It did.  Putting its hind legs against the baby's breast, it
sprang out of his arms; the recoil sent the boy down, but he picked
himself up and again began the pursuit.

"Now, Mrs. Holder, you was telling me about the cemetery lot," said
Mrs. Deans.

"Yes;" returned her hostess.  "It's this way: there's four graves in
the lot, and only one took up.  I can't abear to think on it; to think
whether I will or no that I have to lie wi' such a lot an' rise wi' 'em
at the day."

"Well," said Mrs. Deans, in a meditative voice, "well"--a long pause,
then she added: "Now, if 'twasn't for offending you, Mrs. Holder, I
think I can see my way!"

"I'll be right glad if you do," said Mrs. Holder, eagerly; "it's vexing
me sore."

"Well," began Mrs. Deans, "it's this way.  I've done a lot of business,
one way and another, and I'm used to seeing through things, and this is
what I would suggest, Mrs. Holder--not that I want to make or meddle
with other folks' business, but being always willing to do what I can
to help along, and what I would suggest is this: Get Muir to call here
and fix it with him, so as he'll do whatever's necessary when the time
comes; and you give him half the lot for it, so, if anything happens,
why everything'll be done up proper; and then he'll stake off half the
lot and you needn't be scared; he'll not let it out of his hands.
That's what I would suggest, Mrs. Holder, not that I pretend to be
anything more than common--but I've done a heap of business in my time."

"It do seem fair wonderful, Mrs. Deans," said Mrs. Holder, her face
lighting with an ugly expression of gratified malice; "it do be fair
wonderful, the mind you have; but how'll I get word to Muir?  I don't
want Myron to know, of course, and I won't go down street with My
flaunting the family shame--and there I be fair stuck."

"I'm passing Muir's as I go to the store," said Mrs. Deans, rising.
"Oh, no thanks, please; don't thank me.  We must all do what we can to
help other folks along, you know, in this world, and I don't take it no
trouble to do my share."

"Well, I take it rare kindly," returned the old woman.

"Oh," said her guest, pausing, "I meant specially to ask you about
Myron; she was terrible late yesterday morning.  I spoke to her about
it, and she spunked up dreadful; got 's red 's fire and never said a
word.  I thought it my duty to tell you, Mrs. Holder, being anxious for
her good and knowing you couldn't look after her, when she was out of
jour sight."

"She was late yesterday morning in starting," said Mrs. Holder, "but I
be fair ashamed she should show herself like that to you, after your
goodness to her, and bearing with her, as you have done.  Oh, Myron has
her mother's ways--sulky she is, and close-mouthed."  (Alas! was this
all the memory left of Myron Kind's gentleness and sweet patience!)
"You can see what I have to put up with day in and day out.  Come here,
My!"  This to the child, as she saw him going along the path.

"Yes, you have your own times, I'll warrant," said Mrs. Deans.  "What
did you call the young one?"

"My," replied Mrs. Holder.  "That's what she always calls it, and I'm
bound it's most fitting, being near her own name.  I fair hate that
name, Mrs. Deans.  Myron's mother took my son away from me and she
brought me shame; it's fit and well to call the brat that too."

"Yes, indeed, you're right there," agreed Mrs. Deans, at once relieved
and disappointed; relieved that her Gamaliel was left in undisturbed
possession of his name, disappointed that Myron Holder had not given
some more definite name to her child--Homer, for instance.

Mrs. Deans took her way down street, filled with righteous
self-congratulation.  The scheme of debarring Myron Holder from ever
lying beside her father seemed to her most admirable.  Doubtless, from
a strictly legal point of view, there might have been difficulties in
the way, but who was going to tell Myron that?  Mrs. Deans smiled to
think of Myron's surprise when she found out.  Myron Holder had never
done Mrs. Deans any injury, but the latter cherished against her that
inexplicable hatred, that alien from rhyme or reason, sometimes
fearfully fostered in the human heart.  This feeling, mature and
enfranchised, made the streets of Paris red with blood; has nerved the
hand that hurled a bomb; has steadied the aim of the assassin and,
developed by heredity and indulged by training and opportunity, has
made the Thugs a people.  To inflict what others endure with pain is
their life.

Half-way down the street Mrs. Deans paused before a door overshadowed
by a green painted veranda, supported by spindling posts; upon each
side of the door was a window.  In one was displayed a mortuary wreath,
made of white stucco flowers and a star formed of six nickel-plated
coffin-plates, tastefully disposed against a black background, the same
being the beaver covering stripped from one of Mr. Muir's defunct tall
hats.  In the other window was placed a small coffin.  This cheerful
display was intended to indicate that the Jamestown undertaker was to
be found within.

As Mrs. Deans entered a bell hung over the top of the door rang, and as
its note died away in a harsh tinkle steps began to come from the rear
of the shop--slow, solemn footsteps, the echo of one dying away before
the other succeeded it, which gave a sepulchral effect to the tread of
Mr. Muir.  They were indeed a fitting herald of the little undertaker's
appearance, which distinctly suggested his vocation.

He was short and broad, without being in the least stout.  He had a
sandy colored beard, so shaggy as to be almost woolly, and which he
wore parted in the middle and brushed on either side into the semblance
of a gigantic Dundreary.  He wore habitually a broadcloth suit, and of
these he had always three, one in the last stages of dilapidation that
he wore when doing his "chores" in the morning, attending to his two
spare-ribbed black horses, oiling the wheels of the hearse, etc.;
another he wore when he "kept shop," and when attending to the private
offices of his profession; the third was the holiest, and reserved for
his public functions at the funerals.  The suit always consisted of a
frock coat, which fell below his knees and hung around him in folds; a
waistcoat buttoned up to the neck, and a pair of trousers that were
always too short, but which made up in width for that deficiency.  An
odd little bird of ill-omen he was.  His face was settled into an
expression of unalleviated gloom; his features had assumed an attitude
of mournful resignation.  From this funereal countenance his eyes shone
forth strangely--little bright eyes, keen and acquisitive.

He advanced, rubbing his hands slowly together.  "Mrs. Deans," he said,
and bowed.

This bow was an acquirement much thought of in Jamestown.  What more
palliating to bereaved feelings than to behold Mr. Muir, in all the
black glory of grief, ushering in the funeral guests with a succession
of these bows!  He had a clever knack of including the "remains" in
each of these genuflections, which were always performed at the door of
the room where the dead lay.  His appearance upon these official
occasions was little less than sublime; the way in which he removed his
tall hat from his head was in itself a poem--hardly ostentatious, yet
most impressive--exalting the act to a ceremonial and dignifying the
performance unspeakably.

Mrs. Deans never cared much for Mr. Muir.  The little man's eye held a
certain proprietary look that chilled one's blood; it was as though he
viewed one in the light of prospective "remains"--as who should say,
"Go your way in your own fashion _now_; some day you will go _my_ way
in _my_ fashion."  A tape-line always showed itself from one of his
pockets, and this in itself brought as grewsome a suggestion as any one
cared to contemplate.

"How d'ye do, Mr. Muir?" said Mrs. Deans.  "How d'ye do?  How's the
world treating you these days?"

"Oh, well, very well," replied Mr. Muir solemnly, still rubbing his
hands together; then he nodded towards the rear of the shop: "Will you
go in?" he asked.  This was Mr. Muir's way of inviting customers to
inspect the coffins.

"No, not to-day," said Mrs. Deans hastily.  "I haven't called about any
work for you, Mr. Muir, but on business."

Mr. Muir looked puzzled, the terms evidently bearing some relation to
each other in his estimation.

"It's for old Mrs. Holder," went on Mrs. Deans.

"If it's to do any burying for her, I won't do it unless the council
guarantees it," interrupted Mr. Muir, with decision.  "Here I have
waited and waited for Jed's money, and only got the last of it last
week--got it by fifty centses.  It ain't satisfying, getting a bill in
fifty-cent pieces; it ain't business.  They get the coffin in a lump;
they ought to pay in a lump.  No, I can't do it, Mrs. Deans, not
meaning to disoblige you, though; and I hope you won't hold it against
me and keep back the favor of your business.  Of course doing for you
and doing for such as Holders is two stories.  Now, for you or your
husband, something more after the style of General----"

Mrs. Deans broke in hastily.  Once upon a time, Mr. Muir had travelled
seven hundred miles to see the funeral of a great general.  That
funeral was to Mr. Muir what a visit to Rome is to an artist; and his
description of it was a story to outlast the passing of the pageant it
pictured.  All Jamestown knew the story, and Mrs. Deans felt that
prompt action alone could save her.

"It don't concern burying people at all, Mr. Mnir, but burying ground."
Mrs. Deans gurgled over her own joke.  "And I'll just tell you about
it, if you'll wait a minute.  You see," looking confidential, "it's
like this: Mrs. Holder takes it terrible hard about Myron's goings-on,
and when she dies she can't bear to think her and her young one is
going to be put right a-touching her, as you may say, which ain't to be
wondered at when one considers the importance of the thing."  Mrs.
Deans paused for breath and to give this time to have due effect upon
Mr. Muir, who was once known to complain because people spent more on
marrying than on burying.

Mr. Muir nodded his approval, and Mrs. Deans continued:

"That being the case, Mr. Muir, as I said, it ain't to be wondered at
that Mrs. Holder is uneasy and wants to fix it so she 'n' her son'll be
undisturbed.  So, having asked me about the matter, I siggested to her
that you could fix it, if any one could; and so she wants you to call
up to see her, because she can't leave My, and she won't bring him out."

"Who's My?" asked Mr. Muir.

"Why, that's the young one!  Didn't you know?  That's more of Myron
Holder's slyness.  But pshaw!  What's the use of talking?  Them kind's
all alike.  But fancy naming it after herself!  Well, as I said, old
Mrs. Holder, she wanted you should come up to see her and make a trade.
Now, I hope you'll go, Mr. Muir, being as I specially siggested t' her
that you could help her out."

"I'll go, Mrs. Deans; I'll go," said Mr. Muir.  "Think I'll just slip
up by White's and see the lot first; nigh-hand to Warner's, ain't it?"

"Yes, nigh close to old man Warner's, which was filled when Ann Eliza
was buried.  Mr. White did say that Ann Eliza overlapped his lot.  But
there! it doesn't do to say them things; it ain't me to spread talk.
She had a queer look, though, Ann Eliza did when she was laid out,
hadn't she, Mr. Muir?"  Here Mrs. Deans nodded with much sinister
meaning at Mr. Muir.

"Yes, a very wretched-looking body she made.  I like to see a
cheerful-looking corpse; something more after the style of Jed Holder.
Now, when he was ready, he was a real credit to me, though his pay was
onsatisfactory--very onsatisfactory."

"Yes, Jed did smooth out most wonderful," agreed Mrs. Deans.  "Then
you'll go up to Mrs. Holder's?  Better go soon, Mr. Muir; old Warner'll
be after more lots some of these days."

"Yes, without a doubt, Mrs. Deans," said Mr. Muir.  Mrs. Deans pulled
the door open, again the harsh bell rang, and she heard its dying
tinkle through Mr. Muir's farewells, for he came outside the door with
her, and after she betook herself down the street, he still lingered,
gloating critically over the arrangement of the coffin-plates in his
window.

Mrs. Deans proceeded down the street, and soon reached the store.  As
she paused at the store door, she looked back and saw the undertaker
just entering his shop.

"He'll never handle any job for me," Mrs. Deans said, recalling the
rudeness of his interruption during their conversation.  "I'll get
Foster from Ovid for Henry."

She entered the store, purchased her dyestuffs quickly, and then, all
business cares off her mind, set her face steadfastly to go to Mrs.
Wilson's.

Now, Mrs. Deans was extremely eager to find out if Mrs. Wilson's
anxiety about the naming of Myron Holder's child sprang from any
knowledge or suspicion of the boy's parentage.  As she trod heavily
along the sandy footpath to the Wilson farm, she turned the matter over
in her mind and considered the best means of getting at the truth, or
at least all Mrs. Wilson knew of it.  Gossip is something more,
perhaps, than a vulgar propensity--there is art in it, as in everything
else.  There are several ways of inducing others to talk freely of
their affairs.  Mrs. Deans thoroughly appreciated the distinctions
between the methods.  One way which Mrs. Deans had found very effective
in some cases is to assume high ground; treat the discussion with the
careless condescension of one to whom it is an old story; acknowledge
every tid-bit of information with a nod signifying thorough
acquaintance with the whole matter; the victim, oftentimes irritated by
your show of superior knowledge, goes on supplying detail after detail,
in the hope of startling you out of your apathy.  This plan has
however, as Mrs. Deans knew, been known to miss fire, and when it
fails, it fails completely.  She hesitated to try it with Mrs. Wilson.

Another very seductive plan is to assume an air of great meekness and
draw your subject out by seeming to believe she knows all about the
mooted question--whilst lowly you know nothing.  Few women can resist
this--the desire to flaunt the knowledge imputed to them is too strong
to be denied.

Mrs. Deans slowly entered the Wilson gate.  The path from the road led
up to the house between two rows of large stones, placed at regular
intervals from each other, upon the grass at the side of the path.
These stones were whitewashed every now and then by Mrs. Wilson, and
were considered to give quite an "air" to the place.  The spring
house-cleaning being just over, they shone dazzlingly white from a
fresh coat; their ranks were broken half-way up to the house by two
small "rockeries," over which grew "Live Forever," "Old Man," "Winter
Verbena," and "Lemon Balm;" they were each crowned by a geranium, the
one a sweet-scented one, the other a single scarlet.  Close to the
house grew two plum trees, one on each side of the path.  From the
branches of one was suspended a hanging-basket made out of half of a
cocoanut-shell, in which grew "Creeping Charlie," whilst the other tree
was adorned by a tin pan filled with the luxuriantly-growing jointed
stems of the "Wandering Jew."  On each side of the steps--for Mrs.
Wilson was fond of uniformity--stood a brown shilling crock, one almost
hidden beneath a green mat of a trailing vine called "Jacob's Ladder,"
the other holding an upright and sturdy "Jerusalem Cherry Tree" (known
to unimaginative botanists as Solanum), around whose roots were
appearing the tiny rosettes of portulaca seedlings.

Mrs. Deans noted these things not altogether approvingly, Marian Wilson
being in her estimation somewhat perilously given up to vanities.

Her knock brought a speedy answer in the person of Mrs. Wilson.  "Well,
Jane," she ejaculated, "come right in.  I was jest expectin' you some
of these days; come right into the setting room and lay off your
things, and we'll visit together for a spell."

"Oh, I ain't come to stop," said Mrs. Deans, suffering herself to be
led into the sitting-room.  "I ain't come to stop, only as I was just
at the store for dye, I thought I'd come on and see you."

"You done right," said Mrs. Wilson; "you done right there, and I'm real
glad you've come.  Got your rags all sewed?"

"Yes, forty-two pounds," replied Mrs. Deans, who all this time had been
mechanically untying her bonnet-strings and affecting to be oblivious
of the actions of Mrs. Wilson, who was unpinning her shawl.  Presently,
the bonnet-strings being unloosened, Mrs. Wilson dexterously switched
away bonnet and shawl, and said triumphantly:

"Now, Jane, come and set down."  Then, and not till then, Mrs. Deans
awoke with a start to the fact that her outdoor garb had been removed.

"Why, Marian, I declare," she said, "you do beat all!"

Having suffered herself to be led to and installed in a rocking-chair,
Mrs. Deans settled herself comfortably for a talk.

"What colors are you going to dye, Jane?" asked Mrs. Wilson.

"Well," said Mrs. Deans, checking off the list on her fingers, "I've
got hickory bark for yellow, and walnut shucks that I saved last fall
for brown, and barberry stems to mix with bluing for green; and I've
bought red and magenta and blue, and I was thinking that, being as I
didn't want much color, that would be enough."

"Yes," said Mrs. Wilson, "I never care for a carpet that is just a mess
of colored rags.  I like a good deal of yellow, though.  I seen one in
the market the other day; a woman from Ovid had it for sale, and it was
real neat-looking.  It had a brier twist of yellow and black in the
middle of the pattern, and a stripe of red at each side; then there was
a wide piece of purple and a narrow stripe of green; the filling up was
mixed, with a lot of blue in it, and she had it wove with red warp."

"I didn't get any purple," said Mrs. Deans, "but I might get it----"

"Say, wouldn't red and blue mix for purple?" asked Mrs. Wilson.

"Why, I don't know but they would!  Where did she have hers wove?"

"Up to Skinner's at the Pinewoods," said Mrs. Wilson.  "They do say the
Skinnerses keeps back the rags and helps themselves to the warp; but
the way I do is to weigh the warp and the rags, and then when I get the
carpet back I weigh that."

"A very good way, too," agreed Mrs. Deans.  "I'd like to see the
carpet-wearer that would cheat me!"

"Have to get up early in the morning, eh, Jane?" said Mrs. Wilson,
approvingly.

"Yes, earlier than before night," chuckled Mrs. Deans.  "Suppose you
heard Dan Follett was gone?"

"Yes, Homer seen the funeral; 'twas a most terrible big one, and
nothing would do Homer but he must follow on with it to the cemetery.
It do seem hard to think how one's son'll go on doing sich things.  The
idea!"  Mrs. Wilson concluded between a sniff and a snort.

"Yes," said Mrs. Deans, sympathetically.  "Well, there's one good
thing, no one would hold you responsible for Homer's doings now.  I
tell you when men gets his age, they're bound to go their own ways."
Then abruptly, "I was at Mrs. Holder's to-day."  Here Mrs. Deans looked
full at Mrs. Wilson.

"You was?" said her hostess.  "You was?  Who did you see?"

"I seen old Mrs. Holder and the young one; it's named----"

"What?" asked Mrs. Wilson, breathlessly.

"Well, you'd never guess," said Mrs. Deans, maliciously prolonging her
hostess' agony.  "You'd never guess.  I'm sure I never suspicioned
she'd call it that.  I suppose it's fitting, most fitting, I should
say--but there!  What's the odds what it's called?  I wouldn't let it
worry me, no matter what she called it."

"What is its name, Jane?" asked Mrs. Wilson, with such directness that
Mrs. Deans could not disregard it.

"My," answered she, "My--short for Myron."

"Well, Jane," gasped Mrs. Wilson, in relief, and affecting that her
exclamation was one of surprise; "well, it beats all!"

Mrs. Deans felt satisfied on one point: Mrs. Wilson had certainly had
grave fears in regard to the naming of the child--too grave to be
causeless, Mrs. Deans assured herself.  Well, Mrs. Deans had never
thought much of Homer Wilson--he was altogether too conceited, and he
never spoke in revival meeting any more than that once; and he was too
sure of himself, and too independent.  So it was Homer Wilson, then!
Why hadn't he married her?  Why hadn't Myron told?  Now, if she--Mrs.
Deans--could only expose the two of them, how meritorious that would
be!  A hazy plan to attack Homer on the question flitted through her
brain; to ask him suddenly, when he was unprepared, point-blank--would
that startle him into a confession or a betrayal of the truth in spite
of himself?

Mrs. Deans and Mrs. Wilson talked the afternoon away, peaceably and
amicably, and in the twilight Mrs. Deans went home.  She met Myron half
way to the village and stopped her.

"I been in to see your grandmother to-day," she said.  "I wonder at
you, Myron Holder, that you ain't ashamed to show your face; she's
failing fast, your grandmother is, and no wonder!  Well, I wouldn't
have your conscience for something.  Poor old woman, slaving herself to
death over a young one like that.  But you'll be found out yet, Myron
Holder; and when you do, don't look to me, thinking I'll back you up,
for I won't; the time for that's past, unless you want to take your
last chance and own up the whole of it now."  Mrs. Deans paused--her
very attitude an interrogation.

"Good-night, Mrs. Deans," said Myron, in her soft English voice, and
passed on with down-bent head.

Mrs. Deans stood for quite a minute amazed, looking after the quiet
form going wearily into the dusk of the gathering night--to be left
thus was a trifle too much.  "I'll take it out of her for that!" said
Mrs. Deans, flushing with wrath.  "I'll let her know what's what, or my
name ain't Deans.  The idea!  She'll walk off and leave me standing
talking to her, will she?  Well,----"

Mrs. Deans resumed her irate way.  Myron Holder held on her path to the
village.  She was numb alike in mind and body; the accumulated
weariness of days of toil and nights of painful thought pressed upon
her; it was marvellous how she endured the fatigues of her life without
breaking down physically.  "As thy days so shall thy strength be!" has
hidden a germ of bane as well as blessing.  Does it not often seem as
if sorrow imbued life with its own bitter tenacity?  Was ever such a
fearful doom pictured as that of the Eternal Wanderer "mocked with the
curse of immortality"?

So Myron Holder went home in the twilight, and Mrs. Deans went home
revolving fresh schemes for her humiliation, inventing new burdens for
her overtaxed shoulders.  "God," they say, "builds the nest of the
blind bird."  Is it man who lines it with thorns?




CHAPTER IX.

  "A sleepy land, where under the same wheel,
  The same old rut would deepen year by year."

  "A life of nothings--nothing worth
  From that first nothing ere his birth
  To that last nothing under earth."


The Jamestown people, in making a pariah of Myron Holder, were not
urged to the step by any imperative feeling of hurt honor or pained
surprise.

Such faults as hers were not uncommon there; but never before had the
odium rested upon one only.  Besides, there had always been some
"goings on" and some "talk" indicative of the affair.  In Myron
Holder's case, the Jamestown people had been caught napping.  In such
cases a marriage and reinstatement into public favor was the usual
sequel, arrived at after much exhilarating and spicy gossip, much
enjoyable speculation, much mediation upon the part of the matrons, and
much congratulation that all had ended so well.

For another thing, Myron Holder was an outsider, and there was no
danger that a word spoken against her would provoke any one else to
anger.  The Jamestown people were all the descendants of some
half-dozen families, the original settlers of the country.  They had
stagnated year after year, generation after generation marrying and
intermarrying.  The Jamestown people of Myron Holder's day bore a
strange resemblance to one another.  The descendants of the same
families, subjected to the same mental influences, the same conditions
of life, the same climate, the same religion--it was not to be wondered
at that every prominent or individualized feature of mind and body had
been obliterated and averaged down to a commonplace uniformity.

Distinct physical types were rare here, very dark or very fair people
being seldom seen.  The features were coarse and ill-defined, the
nostrils merging into the cheeks, the chins into the necks, the pale
lips into the dull-colored faces, with no clear line of demarcation, no
pure curve to define form.

Certain peculiarities appertained to certain families, however.  When
one of the few--very few--Jamestown men who had gone forth to the
outside world returned, he had not much difficulty in approximating at
least the parentage of the children he encountered in the streets; for
one had the Deans nose, a pinched-in, miserly, censorious feature,
given to the smelling out of scandal; another had the Warner walk, a
gait that in a horse would be termed racking; a third might have the
Wilson scowl, a peculiar expression that seemed to emanate from
sulkiness; a fourth was evidently a scion of the Disney stock, for he
gazed out of the Disney eyes, always rheumy and without lashes.

There appeared in Jamestown families every now and then an imbecile,
presenting, as in a terrible composite picture, the mental and moral
weaknesses of his related ancestors.

Nearly every family counted, in some of its branches, one or more of
these unfortunates.

Jamestown's attitude towards these maimed souls was characteristically
utilitarian; they were fed and clothed until they arrived at an age
when, if they were harmless, they became useful, or if they were
violent, their mania became dangerous.  In the former case they were
given a full quota of work, and kept out of sight so far as possible,
toiling early and late, horrible brownies, working unseen, unpaid,
unthanked, unpitied.  If they were violent, they were sent as paupers
to the governmental institutions and forgotten.

Jamestown was stirred by no noble ambition, thrilled by no eager hope,
excited by no generous impulse, moved by no patriotic enthusiasm,
undisturbed by visions, unmoved by wars,--craved neither glory nor
fame--

        "Though fame is smoke,
  Its fumes are frankincense to human thought."

And how poor a potsherd the human temple is, when savored with no
incense of endeavor!  Better the bitter breath of failure than the dank
vapor of stagnating faculties.  The haloes of defeated effort are
sweeter than the lotus of inaction.

Jamestown's religion?  If the God of whom preachers prate so familiarly
really exists, with what awful scorn must _He_ behold such worship!  As
monkeys, mowing and moping, might mock a pageant, so did these people
simulate religion.  Old Eliza--Mrs. Wilson's mad cousin--worshipped
better when she dabbled her hands in the wayside horse-trough,
rejoicing in its coolness; when she smoothed with tender fingers the
torn fur of a half-shot rabbit; when she replaced the unfledged birds
in the nest from which they had fallen--nay, even when she sped across
the sunlit fields, her sodden face irradiate with an inarticulate
feeling of the warmth and freedom of the air.

Nature spread about and before these people all her beauties, unfolded
to their gaze all the enchantment of her seasons, but in vain; their
eyes were darkened, their hearts hardened; the magical mystery of
Spring left them ineloquent; Summer came and lingered, and went
reluctantly; Autumn browned, and Winter fulfilled its bitterness, and
they were unmoved save by the effect upon the crops.

The site of Jamestown and the country surrounding it was historic
ground.  Here men had fought and bled and died.  The fathers and
mothers of the present generation told how, when children, they had
been hurried off to the woods, to hide there whilst the soldiers
ransacked the deserted houses, eating and appropriating all they
fancied, and spitefully spilling milk, wantonly cutting holes in the
cheeses, and throwing the frying-pans and flatirons down the wells for
mischief.  These leisurely warriors were not, however, the ones whose
blood had darkened the soil in so many adjacent spots.  The Jamestown
people had no personal reminiscences or knowledge of these sterner
fighters, but evidences of their existence and warfare were plentiful.

Year by year, the neighboring farmers, in tilling their land, found
bullets, broken bayonets, portions of old-fashioned guns, military
buttons, and Indian arrow heads of flint.  These latter relics were
often defaced, pointless, and chipped, but sometimes they had preserved
in perfection their venomous pointed form, sharp to sting to the death
when hurled through the air from a hostile bow.  Year after year, these
tokens of conflict were found in the fresh furrows; the supply seemed
inexhaustible.  It was as though the earth was determined to cast forth
from her bosom those deadly fragments whose mission had been to maim
and slay her children.  Yet Mother Earth is but a cruel stepdame to
some of us, less kindly than the bullet, more cruel than the flint
arrowhead.

The people in Jamestown thought little enough of these relics, though
in springtime they were to be found in the pockets of every ploughman;
but little Bing White had a collection of some hundreds of them.  They
had a strange fascination for the little elfish boy.  People said he
had just escaped being an idiot: that was far from the truth.

A keen and acute intelligence shone from his eyes, but perverted by
morbid and horrible cravings.  He was of a Newtonian and speculative
turn of mind also, and was perpetually pondering upon problems of
weighty import, suggested to him by the simplest manifestations of
every-day life: Why dogs barked at bakers?  Why blacksmith-shops were
never new?  Why buttered bread falls butter-side down? were questions
that he strove with.  The wonder of the arrowheads appearing year after
year in the furrows was to him a source of never-ceasing thought.  How
was it they came to the surface?  What strange grinding went on below
the grain and the grass, to produce that flinty grist each springtime?
He brooded much over the matter, turning his many specimens over and
over with lingering, affectionate touches.

Bing kept his treasures in the space between the lath and plaster of
the second story and the roof of his father's house.  There was no room
for garrets there--but there was a space in which Bing's diminutive
figure could stand erect.  The ingress to this long, low, dark chamber
was through a tiny trap-door, in the ceiling of one of the back rooms.
Through this, he would wriggle swiftly, replace the trap-door (in
reality only a broad board), speed like a cat from joist to joist
across the whole length of the house to where, through the round panes
of the little gable window, the light fell full upon his collection,
laid out in rows upon boards placed across the joists.

Each arrowhead of the lot had an individuality for this boy; every
misshapen fragment a story.  Indeed he dwelt longer over the pointless
and defaced specimens than over the others, for more fascinating than
any perfection of curve or point was the speculation as to where the
fragments of the broken ones rested.  Could it be possible that the
long tapering point of the arrowhead he held in his hand had pierced
some red-clad bosom, some dusky naked breast brought low, some helmeted
head, some feather-decked crown, and won a costly coffin for itself to
be buried in?  Those notches on the side of the heavy white flint one,
were they the scars of a conflict between the arrow and armor?

Bing White was not an imbecile, but he had strange fancies in that
dusky treasure chamber of his, gloating over his arrowheads, whispering
to himself of bloody deeds wrought and cruel blows dealt by these
flints he held in his palms.

There was one long, narrow arrowhead, sharp and keen-edged, that he had
a great affection for.  He used to take it up lovingly and, baring his
forearm, draw it lightly--lightly--close to the skin, his eyes
dilating, his nostrils quivering; now and then, his hand faltering, he
let it touch the flesh, and the keen edge swiftly brought blood.

At the pain he would drop the flint, but at the crimson drops which
showed its bite he would gaze hungrily, delightedly, tracing them out
in tiny red lines upon the white flesh of his meagre arm until the last
vestige had disappeared; and then he would start and tremble, his
fingers twitching strangely, his eyes peering here and there through
the dusky perspective of his refuge, as if hoping to see some blur of
the crimson fluid he loved.  Then he would kiss the vicious arrowhead,
and fondle it, until, hearing his mother's call, he would lay it down
gently and flee across the joists, surefooted and nimble, to the
trap-door.

By the time he descended his face would have lost the wild irradiation
of his hidden joy; but his eyes followed any small creature, the cats,
the chickens, the self-satisfied ducks.  He whispered to himself in his
dreams of a day when he would not deny his desire for blood.

A strange impish development of character was his: dangerous by reason
of the stubbornness of his race, and strangely blended and nurtured
with and by a love of vivid and bright color.  This latter
characteristic was instilled into the White blood, when one of the
far-back Whites, who had been to the war, returned, bringing with him a
gypsy camp-follower as his wife, making her the great-grandmother of
this boy, who cherished the flint arrowheads for the pain they could
inflict, and who dreamt long dreams, the atmosphere of which was
crimsoned with blood and vocal with cries of pain.

This unhealthy mental state found for itself plenty of sustenance, as
all vile plants and animals do, sucking the virus of its unhealthy
existence from every phase of nature, every homely incident in village
life.  He let no chance escape him to enjoy his ghoulish pleasure; the
killing of the poultry twice a week for market was a festival he never
missed.

At the village shambles he was a frequent guest; at a pig-sticking he
was always on hand, interested, helpful; no scientist in a clinic ever
watched with greater enthusiasm the performance of a new experiment
than did Bing White the bleeding of a horse--of all these events he had
accurate information.  If all these failed him, he sped far down the
margin of the lake, to where the gillnets were, and appeased his
craving by watching the slow, turgid drops that fell when they prepared
the fish.

In autumn, when the paths through the ample woods were overhung with
crimson canopies of leaves, which the winds brought down like blots of
blood to be trodden under foot; when the brambles clung red about the
fences or trailed scarlet along the ground; when the bitter-sweet hung
in vermilion clusters from its bare stems, and the Virginian creeper
clothed the cedars in a fiery mantle--at this time Bing White's eyes
were ever gleaming with unholy happiness, only no one ever noticed it.

It is from such material as this boy that those morbid murderers are
evolved who do murder for murder's sake.  Just where in his ante-natal
history the love of color flamed into a love of blood, who shall say?
But it burned within him, a consuming fire; if quenched, to be quenched
only by the annihilation of the being that embodied it.  If left to
burn? ...

He had much knowledge of and liking for animals, but it was the liking
of the instinctive vivisector.  Inexplicable cases of maimed and killed
animals attested his devotion to the gratification of his curiosity.
The sudden elongation and apparent telescoping of a cat's paw was a
subject that for hours had kept him sleepless.

He had solved the riddle first by putting it down to some trick of his
eyesight, but the keenness of his vision was proverbial in Jamestown,
and that did not long content him.  Then he took a tape-line and
measured a paw, and waited for the stretching process.  It came.  The
huge Maltese stretched out his forepaws in languorous indolence.  Bing
promptly caught one and began to measure; the cat instantly contracted
its muscles.  Bing strove to hold the paw out by force, with the result
that the cat (which was of the giant order, and no degenerate
descendant of its wild progenitors) fixed its teeth through the fleshy
part of his thumb, from which it was with difficulty disengaged.  The
wound inflamed and festered, but the symptoms disappeared in a week or
two.  Shortly after the cat died in a fit.

The dilation and contraction of the eyes of animals was a source of
continual speculation to Bing; a matter he strove in horrid ways to
elucidate.  There was something hideously repulsive in this boy's
secret cruelties, horrible to relate, sickening to contemplate.  But
the creatures he tormented, maimed, killed, knew neither anticipation
nor remembrance; the "corporeal pang" was all.

There was a strange and horrible parallel between his nature and the
nature of the women who tortured so ceaselessly the woman whom fate had
made their victim; a little difference in method, a little divergence
of application, a slight change from the physical to the mental
world--that was all save a dreadful difference in the victim; but the
instinct of cruelty was the same.

There is an organized society in one of our great cities for putting
dumb animals out of pain--out of existence.  It had been well for Myron
Holder had she been one of those creatures to which a merciful death is
vouchsafed.  The lilied purity of her womanhood might be gone, but we
do not rend the petals of even spent flowers.  It is hard to tread upon
even a crushed blossom, and painful to see a broken lily flung to
smother in a sewer.




CHAPTER X.

        "Desolation is a delicate thing.
    It walks not on the earth, it floats not on the air,
  But treads with killing footsteps, and fans with silent wing,
    The tender hopes which in their hearts the best and gentlest bear;
  Who, soothed to false repose by the fanning plumes above,
    And the music-stirring motion of its soft and busy feet,
  Dream visions of aerial joy, and call the monster Love,
    And wake, and find the shadow Pain...."


"The smoke is falling, the ducks and geese are flying about, the maple
leaves are turned underside up, the cocks are crowing, the cat is
eating grass, the gulls have left the lake and fly over the land, the
flies sting, and the cement on the cellar floor is damp, so I think
it's going to rain; and if it does, I ain't a-going to begin to color
my rags," said Mrs. Deans, standing arms akimbo on the doorstep.

"Yes," said her husband, "it's a deal like rain; the moon had a shroud
on it last night, and the frogs croaked terrible, and my rheumatics has
just been ramping."

"Yes," went on Mrs. Deans, "my corns has ached intolerable, and the
cows have been lowing since daybreak; there's no doubt but what it's
going to rain.  I wonder if Myron Holder is a-coming, or if she ain't!"

"Oh, she'll be here in time for breakfast!" said Mr. Deans, with
would-be sarcasm.  "How you can abide that girl and Liz I don't know,
Jane; no mortal good's fur's I see.  That Liz eats her head off every
day she rises, and as for Myron Holder, she picks and pecks and turns
up her nose as if the eatin' wasn't good enough for her; it beats me
what's the good of 'em."

"Well," said his wife, sharply, "there ain't no great call, fur's I
see, for you to see whether they're any good or not, an' no need for
you to worry over the victuals, for that I'll make shift to attend to.
I suppose you'd like me to slave myself to death, and git along without
'em?  Well, if that's what's on your mind, just relieve your feelings
of it right away--for be a slave to no man I won't, and that settles
that!" with which Mrs. Deans betook herself out to the gate to look for
further manifestations bearing upon the weather, and to see if Myron
Holder was coming.

Mr. Deans shrunk up in his chair, blinking as he chewed, and taking his
rebuff very philosophically.  He was accustomed to his wife's
"onsartainness," and when any of his remarks proved a boomerang, he
simply consoled himself with the thought of "better luck next time" and
subsided.

Mrs. Deans went out to the gate.  It was early morning, and the sun was
rising unseen behind heavy masses of water-charged clouds; there was a
soft grayness of impending rain in the air, a fresh smell of springing
grass, and new leaves, and newly turned earth; the gulls had deserted
the lake, and were soaring in oblique circles through the gray,
glisteningly white; the swallows from under the eaves of the barn were
journeying forth to the pond for the clay to coat their nests; the
sparrows were chirping saucily, as they robbed the young chicks of the
grain scattered for them; from the field behind the barn came the
bleating of the lambs, and now and then there sounded a distant voice
as Gamaliel or the hired men shouted to their horses.

The bound girl, coming in from milking, paused to make grimaces at the
unconscious back of her benefactress, an accomplishment at which Liz
was an adept.  After contorting her face horribly for a few moments,
accompanying herself mentally with unflattering epithets addressed to
the same unconscious back, Liz went on her way to the cellar, having
very much enjoyed the relaxation of her facial muscles.  Mrs. Deans
stood looking down the road.  Her eyes were red and watery this
morning, and she wiped them on the corner of her apron.  Far down
towards the village she could descry a vehicle of some kind, but no one
on the footpath.  She returned to the house, and, satisfied that Myron
Holder would not arrive for some time at least, went up to the garret
to "sort over" the contributions that had been sent in for the
mission-box that was going to the far West.  First, however, she called
to her husband to watch for Myron Holder's appearance, and rap on the
wall with his stick when he saw her, so that she might come down and
"be ready for her."  Mrs. Deans always welcomed Myron Holder with
sneers or rage in the morning, just as her grandmother greeted her with
reproaches or revilings at night.  There would have been something
comic, had it not been so cruel and so sad, in the way these women
played battledore with this girl as shuttlecock and tossed her from one
to the other to be buffeted.

That morning Myron Holder had just got clear of the village, when she
heard behind her the rumble of wheels; they drew nearer, and at last
her down-cast eyes caught the image of a wagon, but she did not look
up, and did not know whose it was until she heard Homer Wilson's voice.

"Good-morning, Myron," he said; "are you going out to Deans'?"

"Good-morning.  Yes," she answered, blushing and ill at ease, for he
had pulled up his horses.

"Then climb in and have a ride; I'm going to town," he said.

"Oh, no; no, thank you!" said Myron, hanging back.

"What for?  Come, get in," he said.

Myron was so well used to being told what to do, and so little used to
refusing, that she half made a step towards the wagon then--"No, I
mustn't"--she paused--"you know--I----"

"Don't be a goose, Myron," returned he with decision.  "Climb in here!
I never see you these days, and we used to be good friends----"  The
infrequent tears rushed to her eyes.  Without more ado, she went to the
side of the wagon and set a foot on the step; the impatient horses
started, and she felt herself half lifted in by Homer's strong arm.
The horses sprang forward, to be soon checked, though, for Homer was
evidently in no hurry that morning; indeed, the horses were restrained
to an unwilling walk.

"How's things getting on with you, Myron?" asked Homer, trying to speak
in a commonplace tone.

"Oh, just the same," she answered, unsteadily.  "Mrs. Deans kindly
keeps me on."

"Oh, she does, does she?" asked Homer.  "Very good of her, I'm sure;
she's a most charitable woman, Mrs. Deans is!"

Myron somehow felt her heart sink at this.  Of late, aroused from the
first bewilderment of her shame, she had wondered once or twice if Mrs.
Deans was so wholly admirable in her life and intentions as she said
she was; if she herself was so utterly vile.  Homer's reply showed her,
or so she thought, that she was wrong in doubting Mrs. Deans.

"Yes," went on Homer, "Mrs. Deans is what Ma calls a 'mother in
Israel,' and no mistake.  How many she's mothered!  All these Home
girls!  And now struggling with you!  Really, Myron, you might be
thought most fortunate to get into such a household."  Something in his
voice gave Myron courage to look up.  She did--but let her eyes fall
before the bitter sneer that lurked on his lip, the scorn that shone in
his eyes.  In that instant she gathered, however, that none of it was
for her; the next she was conscious of a desire to say something to
Homer of Mrs. Deans' meanness, backbiting, insincerity, hypocrisy.
Myron Holder had naturally a sweet disposition, but the happiest of us,
even, have sometimes a longing desire to pull another down, and for a
moment this temptation assailed her with almost irresistible strength.
She was so inured to blame herself, that to hear another dispraised,
and that other the woman who embittered each hour of the day for her,
was perilously sweet.  She half parted her lips, but the generous
spirit that had survived so many blows, so much injustice, yet endured
and stifled the impulse.  She sat silent.  A jingling of loose tires, a
rattling of loose bolts, and the uneven beating of a lame horse's hoofs
struck upon their ears; some one was coming from the village.

"Hullo," said Homer, without looking round, "here's old Crow Muir
coming!"  The young men of Jamestown had an irreverent habit of calling
Mr. Muir "Crow"--due to the solemn hue of his garb.  A poor compliment
any self-respecting crow would have deemed it, at least, when Mr. Muir
was attired, as he was this morning, in his oldest suit of black.

Mr. Muir's vocation compelling him to travel usually in a silent and
slow way, he liked, when not bent upon an official errand, to go as
swiftly and noisily as he could.  He had an old piebald mare, the
original plan of whose anatomy was so obscured by lumps and distorted
by twists as to be almost obliterated; she was very lame in the nigh
forefoot and had the stringhalt in her off hind leg, so that her gait
was somewhat startling to behold; her neck was long and lean, her head
heavy, her nose Roman, her eyes set close together in a bald face, her
tail was more like a mule's than a horse's; but despite these
peculiarities, which by some people might have been considered
disabilities, she was the fastest animal in Jamestown, and her progeny
was noted far and wide among the local sports.  The vehicle behind this
gallant steed was as direct a contradiction to the stately hearse as
could be imagined.  It was a light wagon, set upon ridiculously high
wheels, which, being always adjusted loosely at the axle, had a lateral
as well as an onward movement; the body of the wagon was not more than
five inches deep and painted a bright green (the same paint that coated
the undertaker's veranda made his wagon a thing of vernal beauty).  The
seat was uncushioned and had rungs in the back, like a chair--in fact,
it was a section taken from one of the long, old-fashioned desks that
had been removed from the school a few years before this time.

In this state and equipage, then, did Mr. Muir overtake Homer and Myron.

"Homer, good-morning!" said Mr. Muir, solemnly, as he came abreast of
them; and then he was past, his wagon jingling crazily, his knees
nearly touching his chin, each wheel running at a different angle and
leaving wavering tracks in the dust.

"Oh, Homer," said Myron.

"Well," said Homer, "what's the matter?"

"Mr. Muir--he'll talk," she said.

"You're quite right there," said Homer, with a vicious tightening of
the lips.  "It'll do him good."  He gave the restive horses a slap with
the reins, but the next moment checked their sudden speed.

"Don't mind me, Myron," he said, flushing under his brown skin as he
felt her nervous start.  "I am in a bad temper this morning, and
disgusted with the way people gabble about nothing."  And then they
drove on in silence again.  As they passed the little cemetery, they
saw the piebald mare, in a ridiculous "stand at ease" position, tied
beside the gate.

"Hear of any one dead?" asked Homer.

"No, not a word," said Myron, her thoughts reverting painfully to her
last visit to her father's grave.

"Well, maybe old Crow's gone to see if any of 'em are coming up," said
Homer.  Then, the thought suggested to him by the field of young
springing grain opposite, he added, "Not much of a crop from old Crow's
planting."  After this grim speech there were no further words until
they were opposite the wire fence of Deans' so-called garden.

"Myron," said Homer hastily, "any time you want a friend for anything,
come to me, will you?"

"Yes," she said simply, looking at him with ineffable gratitude and
wonder in her eyes.  "But have you forgotten----"

"My memory's as good as most folks' is," said Homer gruffly; then,
wishing once for all to let her see he accepted the facts of her life,
he said: "What do you call your child, Myron?"

"My," she answered, with the indescribable mother-voice of love,
"little My."

"A very good name, too," said Homer, with conviction.  "I'm coming in
to see him some day."

Myron fairly gasped in terror.

"Oh, no," she said, with entreaty in her tones and eyes; "oh, no,
promise you won't think of such a thing--promise you won't"--he was
drawing up the horses at the Deans' gate, and she clasped both hands
over his arm in her urgency.  "Promise," she urged.  He looked down at
her, his face sombre; he gathered the beauty of her face and pleading
eyes, his old self awakened for an instant from its bath of bitterness,
and his old natural smile made his stern face bright and gentle as he
said:

"Of course, I won't, if you don't want me to.  Is it your grandmother?"

"Yes, and----" she unclasped her hands and began to descend.  "Thank
you so much," she said.

"For not coming?" he asked.  His face was dark again.

"No; for speaking to me," she answered, as she turned quickly to the
house, and he went on to the city, as fast now as his horses could
spurn the miles, and he had gone some distance before his face lost the
expression caused by her last speech; but long ere he reached the town,
the old gloom again settled upon his countenance.

From the high window Mrs. Deans had watched Myron and Homer as they
drove from the foot of the garden; as they passed the corner of the
house she sped to a more advantageous window, arriving in time to see
Myron unclasp her hands from his arm and descend from the wagon.  Mrs.
Deans could hardly restrain herself from calling aloud to them, and
proclaiming her discovery of their "brazenness," if not from the
house-top, at least from the attic window; but with much strength of
will she denied herself and kept silent until Homer's wagon vanished,
and she heard a vigorous rap-rap down stairs.  Then she collapsed upon
a heap of winter quilts that were piled in the attic, and communed with
herself.

"She was doin' some rare begging, but the Wilsons is strong set when
they've made up their minds.  But such cheek!  To drive her up to my
door as bold as brass, and in no hurry out of sight, either; at least,"
bethinking herself, "he did drive off mighty quick, when once she got
out; wonder if she wanted me to see him!  Well, if that's her idea,
'twon't do her no good!  She should have told me when I asked her; I
won't take no notice, now; she can't get me to back down from what I've
said; it's a terrible disgrace on Marian Wilson--well, they _did_ talk
about Marian and that stonecutter one time, but he went away, and it
was all smothered up, but I had my own thoughts.  Well, this is a
judgment on her now; she was too set up when Homer came back to the
farm; like's not, he was druv to it!  Fine goin's on, I warrant, he had
in the city!  Thank the Lord, Maley's not sich as Homer Wilson; but
then he's been brought up different, and it's all in the bringin' up.
And there was something very queer about that stonecutter business;
that would account for Homer's being so bad."

Mrs. Deans went about her work dreamily, struggling with the problem of
Homer's depravity; her philosophy--like some other philosophies--first
created a result, and then strove to invent circumstances to justify
and explain it.

Mrs. Deans was sorely tried to decide what course was best to pursue:
she would have liked to go at once to Mrs. Wilson, and proclaim her
son's iniquity to her and see "how she took it"; she longed to go to
Mrs. Holder's and announce that she had discovered the secret which had
so puzzled the village; she would have dearly loved to shower upon
Myron Holder the new and expressive epithets that were trembling upon
the tip of her tongue, but the peculiar view she had adopted of the
situation suggested to her that Myron Holder wanted the secret she had
kept so long and so well discovered; and greater than her desire to see
her lifelong friend disgraced by the proof of her son's fault--greater
than her desire to vindicate her own superior cunning--greater even
than her desire to berate Myron Holder, was her determination to make
Myron Holder suffer; so she decided to take no active step in the
affair, no matter how hard the repression of her righteous wrath might
prove.

She felt, however, there could be no harm in giving Mrs. White a hint
of how things stood, for the Sunday before this Homer Wilson had tied
up young Ann White's buggy shafts when he found her at a standstill on
the way home from church.  Here Mrs. Deans wandered a little from the
main track, and dwelt a while on the enormity of Homer Wilson tearing
along the roads, or through the woods, or along the lake shore, the
whole Sabbath day, instead of going to church; here she recalled, with
a shock, that Myron Holder never went to church either, and Mrs. Deans,
putting two and two together, decided that not only of sin, but of
sacrilege, were these two guilty.

Mrs. Deans felt fired with a great zeal for young Ann White's soul: if
she should be led into marrying Homer Wilson, what a dreadful thing it
would be!  Not but what the Whites needed something to take them down a
peg; still the pleasure of balking Homer, if he had any thoughts in Ann
White's direction, would be something.  Besides, although Mrs. Deans
did not formulate this to herself, it would relieve the pressure of
restraint to tell Mrs. White the circumstances, and Mrs. Deans
concluded to herself: "It can't do no harm to let Ann White know.  I
miss my guess if she has her sorrows to seek; that Bing isn't ten
removes off an idiot."

So Mrs. Deans contented herself all the forenoon by staring at Myron
Holder with a concentrated glare of contempt and triumph, varied only
by sudden calls to Liz to "come back from there" whenever she
approached Myron, and when Liz "came back," which she did in a hasty
and indefinite way, not knowing very well why Myron had suddenly become
so dangerous, Mrs. Deans would say:

"Haven't you got enough evil in you, but what you must learn more bad
off of her?" or, "There ain't no use my striving to bring you up
decent, when your natural bent is to be bad," or some other remark to
the same effect.

In the afternoon, the rain heralded by so many infallible signs made
its appearance, and Mrs. Deans perforce remained at home.  She took her
sewing to the kitchen, and set Myron and the bound girl to work to mend
the grain bags; and as the storm outside whipped the maples, and
struggled with the oaks, and stripped the horse-chestnut trees of their
brittle blossoms, so the storm of Mrs. Deans' vituperation raged over
the heads of the two girls sitting on the floor surrounded by the dusty
grain bags.  Liz was in such a state of nervousness that she was
sticking her needle into her fingers at every second stitch, when Myron
Holder began to feel the floor rising with her--the bags whirled round
and round in a circle of which she was the centre; the floor ceased to
rise evenly and tilted up--up--on one edge--tilted until it was
perpendicular, and flung Myron Holder off--a long distance off--into an
abyss of darkness, through which whirled great wheels of light that
rushed toward her as if they would utterly destroy her, but always
passed by a hair's breadth; the last one passed, its light vanished,
the whirring of its rapid flight died away, even the darkness
disappeared--Myron Holder had fainted.  She still sat, needle in one
hand, bag in the other.  Liz reached across for another bag and chanced
to knock against her slightly; Myron fell over like a log.

"She's dead!" screamed Liz, and sprang up with hysterical cries.

Mrs. Deans' face blanched.

"You fool, get out of the way!" she said, and pushed Liz aside
savagely, as she rushed toward Myron's prostrate figure.  "Take hold of
her," ordered Mrs. Deans, in a voice that quelled the bound girl's
hysterics.  Together they got her to the door; Mrs. Deans flung it
wide, and Myron opened her eyes with the summer rain beating in her
face and the waving masses of green trees and tossing branches before
her eyes.  To that blankness succeeded a quick memory of its approach,
a shuddering recollection of that final plunge into darkness, to be
obliterated by physical weakness and nausea; she clung to the door to
support herself, and Mrs. Deans released her hold of her arms.

"You can go lie down on Liz's bed till you come to," said Mrs. Deans,
"and then you can go home for the rest of the day."

"Thank you," said Myron, and Mrs. Deans went to the dining-room, while
Myron crept to the tiny kitchen bedroom--each unaware of the horrible
bathos of Myron's speech.  Mrs. Deans did not come to the kitchen for
some time, and when she did Myron was gone--out into the storm unseen
of any, to struggle through rain and mud to the village, "a reed shaken
by the wind" indeed.




CHAPTER XI.

  "All things rejoiced beneath the sun--the weeds,
  The river, and the cornfields, and the reeds,
  The willow leaves that glanced in the light breeze,
  And the firm foliage of the larger trees."


The rain that brought back sense and sound to Myron Holder lasted for
three days, falling steadily during that time; it was succeeded by the
most joyous of weather.  The spring was past; the grass grew lush and
green beside the little waterways that the rain had created by the
roadside; these mimic rivers had in miniature all the diversities and
beauties of their greater brethren.  There was a gradual decline from
the inland to the lake, and adown this many of these evanescent streams
found their way.

The stream that passed the Deans farm was the very epitome of Life.
Now a large stone obstructed its course and divided its shallow flood,
which crept sadly round either side of this rocky islet, to gush gayly
together beyond it; after a short space of calm it rushed against an
upturned sod and, broken and ragged, fell in tatters over the brink
into the little pool below, in whose tiny vortex floated twigs and bits
of last year's grass, and perchance a glistening white feather from the
breast of a gull; freed from its durance in the pool and not yet
schooled to peace and patience, the stream sped on hastily and noisily,
striving to find its way between the interlaced red roots of a cedar;
its haste to get out into the sunlight defeated its object, and the
close-knit fibres flung it back again and again, but it returned to the
charge with tiny banners of foam and ripples of defiance; so the strife
continued until the gathering ranks of water rose strong enough to toss
the foremost clear over the barriers, and the stream went on its way
cheerily until the dark culvert that took it across the road was
reached, and as souls that plunge into the darkness of death leave all
behind them, so this little stream left its foam, its ripples, its
burden of twigs and wisps of grass and all its infinitesimal flotsam
and jetsam, and essayed the darksome passage, a naked little stream;
once out in the light again, it rippled on reflectively, until at last,
its "tribute wave delivered," it merged its identity in the
lake--losing (and here we cry with breathless lips, "Let it be like the
soul in this also!") losing all puny consciousness of individual
existence, only aware of being a part of that shining reservoir,
dispensing beneficent gifts to air, and blessing and being blessed by
the sun, that shone down more sweetly now upon it than when it was a
vain and fretting brook.

The broad burdock leaves grew so rapidly in these days that their
unstable stalks could not sustain them, and they trailed near the
ground, bleached and unhealthy-looking, defacing the plant they should
have adorned, like purposes unfulfilled for lack of will.

The wood violets spent all their surplus sap in leaves, and their later
blooms were smothered in this luxuriance of foliage, as good resolves
die 'mid many words.

In the maples, besides the singing of birds, there was now to be heard
the "lisp of leaves" murmuring nature's alphabet.  The swallows did not
fly about so wildly, nor the bob-o-link, singing, soar so high--for the
swallows hovered ever near the gray eaves of the barns, where, in their
clay houses, the white eggs were being patiently warmed to life, and
the bob-o-link (that slyest of birds) lingered ever in the grass
meadows, where, upon a nest hid most cunningly, its mate sat listening
to its singing.  The ponds and the margins of the lake were alive with
wriggling tadpoles, and Bing White hung enchanted over a pool left at
the foot of his father's field where, when the sun was high, the water
spiders darted hither and thither.  It was not the insects Bing
watched, but the shadows cast by them upon the sandy bottom of the
pool; for, by a conspiracy between the water and the sun, the minute
disks that form the feet of these creatures, and enable them to "walk
upon the water" in very truth, were magnified a thousand times, and
this enlarged refraction, like spots of gold, wavered through the water
in consonance with the spiders' movements on the surface.  When the sun
shone brightly, the spiders came out in force, and darted about
untiringly; it was as though the spiders wove a web of shining water,
flinging round golden bobbins through the woof and weft of their fabric.

A little fawn-colored wild duck, belated in its journey to the north,
came to this pool, a solitary but contented little bird, until Bing
stoned it so persistently that it flew away one day, never to return.
The spring grains were growing strongly, and the fall wheat was tall
and vividly green, except that patches, bare save for knotty roots
upthrown upon the surface, showed where, upon the high ground, it had
been "winter killed," or spaces of bleached and yellowed blades
indicated where, in the hollows, the heavy rains had "drowned it out."
The blossoming of the fruit trees was past, that marvellous season of
efflorescence and beauty, when the air is heavy with perfume and the
paths strewn with petals--the rose and white of the apples, the
mother-o'-pearl purity of the cherry, the fragrant ivory of the pears,
loose-leaved plum flowers, and the hiding, faint-pink quince
blooms--these and the peach blows that made gay and glad the gardens
and the orchards.

And the woodlands and the lanes rejoiced also--for theirs were the
cloyingly sweet blooms of the pea tree and the insignificant-looking
but honey-smelling flowers of the locust, the bitter-sweet blossoms of
the wild plum, so finely cut in tiny petals, so filled with snow-white
stamens, so thickly massed together as to make the tree seem a fragrant
snow cloud; then there was the red and pink of the "natural" apples,
the ungrafted trees that had sprung up in every neighboring woodland;
their taste was insipid, and had a peculiar, smoky flavor, but their
blossoms were not less sweet than those of their cultured kinsfolk, and
side by side with them stood the "choke cherry" with its long sprays of
fragile blossoms that nauseate with their odor.  Best of all, either in
woodland or garden, orchard or lane, there was the wild crab-apple,
upon whose gnarled and thorny branches grew its unspeakably sweet
flower.  The pink-veined petals folded about its perfumed centre, or
opening but an hour or two, to disclose its golden heart, then, paling
and falling, overcome by its own breath; for in the perfume of the wild
crab-apple there lies all the story of the year, all the life of love;
it has taken to itself all the sweetness, the bitterness, the languors,
the fever, the desire, the satiety, the distaste, the joy, the sting of
winter, the swoon of summer, the expectancy of spring, the overcoming
of autumn, taken all, and mingling it with that we dream of, but know
not, offers it to us upon thorny branches.  And the fruit of these
blossoms is bitter.

When the bloom was gone from all the trees, then the bees began to hum
about the currant bushes, sipping the sweets of their green flowers,
and there rose from orchard and field the savor of grape bloom.  For
Jamestown sent many hundred tons of grapes to the wine factories every
year, and around the fences or over the cedars, there grew the "fox"
grape, the "chicken" grape, and the bitter wild grape from which they
distill a syrup for the throat.

Mrs. Deans' garden was "made," planted from side to side with
vegetables, daily growing higher; the leaves were thickening on the
currant bushes, and the young grape leaves were losing their downy
whiteness and growing green and thick.  Young turkeys, goslings, ducks,
and baby chickens disputed with each other for the food dispensed so
liberally to them; but Mrs. Deans ruled her poultry-yard, as she did
her other belongings, with a rod of iron.  The turkeys were the
aristocrats of the place; they ate milk, white curds and chopped
lettuce, and boiled eggs minced fine, with pepper; the rest fared on
common meal--only all the spare time the bound girl had was spent in
digging worms for the ducks.

"See that big worm there, Myron," she said one day, pointing to a huge,
wriggling worm that two ducks were disputing possession of; "see that
worm?  Well, that's Mrs. Deans; of all the trouble that contrary
critter give me I can't tell!  It near wore me out, a-digging and
a-digging; now it's in trouble its own self--you see--it'll be torn in
two yet, yes--glad of it--there it goes!  That'll happen to Mrs. Deans
some day, when the Lord gets hold of her.  Hush?  I won't hush!  Ain't
she always a jangling?  Jangling is something I can't abide, and how
she goes it about nothing at all!  She'll be tore in two along o' her
ways, see if she ain't."  With which satisfactory and encouraging
prophecy Liz betook herself indoors.

Mrs. Deans had never found the time to go to Mrs. White's, but when one
day her son Gamaliel told her he had seen Homer Wilson and Myron
talking together in the "open village street" the heart of Mrs. Deans
burned within her, and she reproached herself that she had not gone
sooner; if she waited any longer it might be stale news; if they were
brazen enough to talk to each other on the street--people--Jamestown
people--would not fail to notice it; now that there was a possibility
of other lips telling "young Ann White" of Homer Wilson's badness Mrs.
Deans felt it incumbent upon her to act at once, to arise in her
strength and baffle the designs of the evil one upon the unsuspecting
citadel of young Ann White's heart.  Mrs. Deans called it, to herself,
"putting Homer Wilson's nose out of joint in that quarter anyhow," but
the phrase matters little, the intention expressed being identical.

To "stir up the lazy and strengthen the weak" is a proceeding much to
be admired doubtless, being enjoined by no less authoritative edict
than the Westminster Confession; and however Mrs. Deans regarded the
latter half of the injunction, she had nothing to reproach herself with
in view of one of its requirements.  That Mrs. Deans regarded all
people under her as being lazy, as well as the majority of her
neighbors, may be taken as granted; it will therefore be seen that she
had little time for the latter half of the command.  Before she left
for Mrs. White's that day, she went to the kitchen and gave Liz and
Myron an eloquent extempore narration of their past sins and
shortcomings, their present delinquencies, their future state of sin
and misery, proceeding to a peroration regarding the probabilities of
their immortal lives, and rounding off her address with a pleasant
prediction of eternal perdition for both of them.  Having given them
tasks they could not possibly perform before her return, Mrs. Deans
turned her attention to her husband.  As he could not move about much,
and as he had a maddening gift for holding his tongue, Mrs. Deans was
often exasperated by him; upon this occasion, having absolutely no
handle to hinge her remarks upon, she contented herself with a few
well-considered and audible reflections upon his utter uselessness,
"either to God or man" as she put it, which threw such a burden upon
her "helpless" shoulders; then she picked up his plug of chewing
tobacco and narrowly regarded how much of it was gone, with a view to
gauging the quantity he consumed in her absence.  He squirmed under
this; it affected him more than bitter words.

Having made every one as uncomfortable as possible, Mrs. Deans went her
way.

Myron and Liz went out to their hoeing, Liz saying when once out of
earshot of Mr. Deans:

"Did ye hear her jist, Myron, with that talk about 'eternal lakes of
burning'--what's 'eternal' but 'continual?'--an' if Mrs. Deans ain't a
continual burning torment her own self, I'll never drink water!  Ain't
she now, Myron?  Why don't you speak out and say what you think?  Keep
still?  Told us not to talk?  Of course she did!  She'd stop the dogs
from barking if she could; I'll talk all I like!  Old Stiffen can't see
me till I get past the third currant bush, and I'll take care to be
quiet then--old wretch he is!  I'd like to scald him some day to see if
that would limber him up and take him out of the kitchen, a-watchin'
and a-watchin'."  Liz, as a matter of fact, talked more than she hoed;
but she had worked hard in a compulsory silence since daybreak, so it
was hardly to be wondered at that she should be both slow and voluble
now.

Myron's own eyes were heavy, and as she bent above her hoeing, her
hands were none too eager for the toil, nor her feet too ready to
advance; she worked on steadily though, and was beginning a new row
before Liz completed her first one; as Liz passed her after some time
to begin her second row, she said in an explosive undertone:

"You can't scare me with no hell-fire after living along o' Mrs.
Deans;" then seeing Myron paid no heed, she muttered to herself, "and
old Stiffen, too, he'd sicken any devil, a-watchin' and a-watchin'."

Liz, it will be seen, was not the model child of story book fame; the
girl was the ordinary type of her class, with a thousand inherited
failings, a dozen minor vices; but against these she had a heart that
ached for love, a tongue that told the truth though it earned a blow; a
generous and impulsive soul: but, alas, in Mrs. Deans' house she
absorbed naught of good to offset her faults, save the virtue of
courage and endurance, which, seeing Myron Holder's bravery, she
cultivated through shame.

The hours passed.

Watching the girls as closely as he could, Henry Deans sat blinking in
the sun, like a malevolent lizard lying in wait for flies.

Mrs. Deans meantime made her way along the road to Mrs. White's.  The
White house stood back some distance from the road, and was approached
by a long, narrow lane, bordered by weather-beaten rail fences, none
too well kept, Mrs. Deans thought wrathfully, as she stumbled over a
broken rail; the grass had grown so rank about it that it was almost
entirely hidden.  Mrs. Deans inveighed against shiftlessness in
general, and the White type in particular, all the way to the front
door, whose iron handle and heavy knocker bespoke the age of the house;
it was, indeed, one of the old landmarks, built at a time when the
settlers hewed the finest oak trees in the wood for their kitchen
rafters, and begrudged not to use the magnificent black walnuts for
their stairs.  This house had been the first one in Jamestown to have
shutters--massive, solid affairs of oak, adjusted and held in place by
heavy bars of iron that extended diagonally across them; the Whites,
however, were much distressed by the old style of these shutters, and a
year or two previously had substituted modern green slatted shutters
upon the front of the house.

[Illustration: MRS. DEANS CALLS ON MRS. WHITE.]

Young Ann White answered Mrs. Deans' knock, and ushered her in with
awkward cordiality.  Young Ann White's name was Ossie Annie Abbie Maria
White, named after "four aunts and her pa" as Mrs. White said.  The
Jamestown people pronounced the first three names with a strong accent
upon the first syllable, and the middle syllable of Maria they clung to
until they lost breath and relinquished it with a gasp; as they uttered
it, Miss White's name was a sentence by itself.

Mrs. White came bustling in before Mrs. Deans got seated, and after
expressing her pleasure at seeing her, saying, "I declare, Jane, the
sight of you's good for sore eyes!" entered with great zest into the
discussion of village gossip.  Mrs. White's sitting room was an
apartment that evidenced loudly the taste and industry of Mrs. White
and her daughter.  It had a "boughten" carpet on the floor, and upon
this were strewn hooked mats of strange and wonderful design, trees
with roses, daisies and blue flowers of name unknown, growing
luxuriantly upon every branch; bright yellow horses and green dogs
stood together upon the same mat in millenium-like peace, undisturbed
by the red birds and white cats that enjoyed the same vantage ground
with them; but finer than any of the others was the black mat placed in
the centre of the floor, as being less likely to be trodden upon there;
its design was a salmon-pink girl in a green dress.  By what was little
less than inspiration, Mrs. White had formed the eyes out of two large
and glistening black buttons.  The chairs were black haircloth, each
adorned with a crocheted tidy worked by Miss White; the making of these
tidies was her life--by means of them she divided her life into times
and seasons.  Her one tragedy was compassed by the unholy fate of one
which, being just completed, fell into the paws and from thence to the
jaws of a mischievous collie puppy, and was speedily reduced to rags.
Her great achievement was the making of a "Rose of Sharon" tidy out of
No. 100 thread.  She could always fix any date by recalling what tidy
she was engaged upon at the time.  There was the "Spider-web tidy," the
"Sheaves of Wheat," the "Rose of Sharon," the "Double Wheel"; one she
called a "Fancy patterning tidy," and another was known as the "One in
strips."

The room had a large old-fashioned mantel-piece of heavy oak; beneath
it had been a huge square fireplace, big enough to hold a roaring fire
of logs, but the massive fire-board stood before it winter and summer
now, for it was never used.  The fire-board was also of oak, darkened
to that tint that the virtuoso loves and the dealer in spurious
antiques strives after in vain.  But this year, Mrs. White had papered
it over with wall paper, pink roses on a white ground, and a blue
border.

"It does look so much more genteel and cheerful!" said Mrs. White, and
Mrs. Deans agreed with her.

The mantel was decked with a gaudy china vase, with paper flowers in
it; a lamp, in the oil of which was a piece of red flannel, thought to
be decorative as it showed through the glass; a cross cut out of
perforated cardboard, and two curious round objects like spheres of
finely carven wood; these were clove apples.  It was common in polite
society in Jamestown to ask "How old is your clove apple?"  The answer
was usually given in years, and would have greatly surprised any
stranger to clove apples.  To make a clove apple, they selected the
largest specimen of apple to be found (and in Jamestown that meant a
very big apple indeed).  Having got the apple, the next proceeding was
to stick it full of cloves, as closely as possible; that was all--the
cloves absorbed and dried the juices of the apple--the apple shrunk and
shrunk, wedging the cloves tighter and tighter together; until at last
they became so tightly welded together by the pressure that it was
absolutely impossible to pull, pry, or cut one out; they were popular
ornaments in Jamestown sitting-rooms.  Mrs. White, when any reference
to clove apples was made, invariably said that she remembered the time
when tomatoes were called love apples, and kept for "ornamings," by
which she meant ornaments.

The walls of Mrs. White's sitting-room were hung with pictures; there
was a highly colored print representing a pair of white kittens against
a red velvet background, playing with dominoes; there was a glazed
chromo of a preternaturally blonde baby, sleeping in a preternaturally
green field, bestrewn with preternaturally white daisies; a woodcut of
Abraham Lincoln, one of Queen Victoria, and a diploma for the
excellence of Mr. White's fat cattle completed the decoration of the
walls, except above the door, where purple wools on a perforated
cardboard asked again the piercing question, "What is Home Without a
Mother?"

There was a centre-table, with a large Bible overlaid with a crocheted
mat upon it, and a home-made foot-stool that tripped you up every time
you entered the room.

Mrs. Deans had brought no work with her, and when Mrs. White produced a
basket and began to piece a block of a quilt, Mrs. Deans begged for
thread and needle.  Young Ann White rose to get them, and Mrs. Deans
said:

"Well, Ann, now who's this quilt for?"  The girl bridled and tossed her
head until her rough hair stood on end; her dull skin and phlegmatic
temperament made blushing an impossibility.  Mrs. White broke in with
boisterous good humor:

"Oh, Ann knows who it's fer all right enough; it's a poor hen can't
scratch fer one chick, and that's all Sam and me has got--one
apiece--Ann and Bing.  Ann's got eight quilts all pieced now; this is
the album pattern.  When I finish this, I'm going to work on a 'Rising
Sun' and--show Mrs. Deans that lace you made fer pilly cases, Ann."

Ann went to obey.

"She's so set on them things," continued her mother in an undertone,
with many nods and headshakings; "so set on 'em.  It's really
wonderful; it makes me real nervous sometimes.  There was Sarah--my
cousin twice removed by marriage on Sam's side--and when she had
consumpting, nothing would do but she must have a boughten feather;
time and time again I argued with her, but never to no account--a
boughten feather she would have, and being near the end, and being the
only one the Clem Whiteses had, why they took to it that they'd humor
her.  So one day off Clem started and got the feather; he went to a
millingnery store, and he says, says he, 'If the feather don't suit the
lady--if it ain't becomin,' he said, for the clerk looked up sharp; 'If
it ain't becomin,' Clem said, being always one to use fine language,
'if it ain't becomin,' I'll bring it back and change it for something
else.'

"So he took the feather home, and three days after Sarah died, real
reconciled 'cause she'd got the feather; they was real afraid she'd ask
them to bury it with her, she thought so much of it, but they'd head
her off if they thought she was going to speak of it, and remind her
her end was near, which didn't make her enjoy the feather any the less,
but just made her say less about it.  Well, when the end came, it came
suddent and she had no time to ask any promises; but she held on to it
and when they drawed the pilly away, she still had it in her hand;
well, her mother took it back to the millingnery store and got a whole
black bunnit for the price of that feather.  It's terrible what they do
ask for them; they say Sam Warner's wife had more than an idea of
getting one in the city when they went down to sell the wool, but I
guess she thought that would be just a little more than his people
would stand, and give up the idea--but pshaw!  I wouldn't be surprised
any day to see her with a feather; she's bought buttoned shoes for that
young one of hers; why, my land! our Ann never had a pair of buttoned
shoes till long after she had spoke in after-meeting.

"But Ann's so set on them things, it fairly makes me wonder if it ain't
a warning that she'll be cut down.  You know how 'tis with us all,
Jane, 'the flower fadeth.'"  Here Ann returned with various rolls of
crochet trimming for Mrs. Deans to see; she unpinned the ends, extended
them upon her black apron, and waited the praise she deserved.  Mrs.
Deans gave it liberally, but did not fail to describe the work she had
seen at Mrs. Wilson's, left there by one of her market customers who
came out to spend the day.  Mrs. Deans described this production in
such marvellous terms that Ann gathered up her treasures quite sadly,
and as she pinned up each fat little roll wondered if by any
possibility she could get the pattern.

Ann sat down to a tidy of intricate design--her mother babbled on about
Bing and Ann, and her chickens and her garden; Mrs. Deans felt
irritated.  The door of the sitting-room opened upon the veranda; it
was flung wide open, and held back by a cloth-covered brick, and the
sunshine streamed gloriously across the gaudy mats.

Mrs. White was flowery of speech, being much given to the quoting of
Scripture and apt to indulge in poetical similes drawn from the poetry
of Mrs. Hemans, as used in the school-books.  She was herself a poet of
wide local repute, having composed the epitaph for a son lost in
babyhood; engraved upon his tombstone it read:

  "Good-by, young William Henry White,--
  The fever took you from me quite.
  The time has come for us to sever;
  But, William Henry, not forever."


Mrs. White wore her hair, still dark and abundant, in rows of curls.
It was only after Ann grew up that she discarded the blue ribbon she
had affected since her own girlhood.

Sitting in the sunshine, Mrs. Deans felt this comfortable
self-satisfaction to be an unholy thing upon the part of the Whites.
So she said abruptly:

"Isn't it a terrible thing about Homer Wilson?  Well, it'll teach
Marian a lesson; she set too much store on Homer altogether.  I knowed
what Homer Wilson was long before this came out!"

"Why, Jane, I never heard anything against Homer!  What do you mean?"
asked Mrs. White, looking over her spectacles at Mrs. Deans.

"Why, they say--but I don't want this mentioned, Ann; I want this kept
particular confidential between us two, and no one else to be the
wiser, though the talk's getting round, as others can tell beside me.
But what folks tell is that if Myron Holder's young one ain't named
Homer, it ain't because it hadn't ought to be."

"Well, my lands!" said Mrs. White, whilst her daughter said nothing,
but got up and went out of the room.

"Yes," said Mrs. Deans, "that's what they say, and I could tell things.
But standing in the light of one who's tried to do the best she can for
everybody, I never said a word!  But there--there's no use talking over
them; the point was, I felt it a duty when I heard he was sitting up
with your Ann."

Mrs. Deans paused--there was no reply--so she continued: "I felt you
ought to know the truth of how things stood; so putting aside my own
feelings, as I have to do very often, I came to let you know what sort
of a fellow Homer Wilson is."

"To think of it!" said Mrs. White.  "Truly 'this life is but a fleeting
show!'  Homer Wilson!  What he has said to Ann I can't say, not
knowing; but as for sitting up, whatever sitting up was done was done
irregular, now and then, as luck chanced; there was nothing regular, no
promising, no conversational lozenges, no buggy drives.  No, Ann ain't
no call to be worried, though it's terrible to think how he'll suffer
when he knows Ann is not for him, can never be his; no, that hope is
gone--no, Homer Wilson, thou must go thy ways withouten help from Ann."

Mrs. Deans felt exasperated.  "Such stuff and nonsense," she thought.
"Homer Wilson would never look at Ann White, if he could get another
girl; Ann White, indeed!"  She woke from her silence with a start.

"Well, I'm glad it's no worse," she said; "only you'd better tell Ann
to be careful, for people are so ready with their tongues."

"Jest let me hear any one mention Ann's name and his'n," said Mrs.
White; "jest let me hear 'em, they'll have to prove their sayings!
'Tell it in the country, tell it in the court,' is my motto.  I'd never
stand no creepin', sneakin' talk about my folks!"  Here she was
interrupted by her son Bing, who dashed along the veranda, flung
himself down on the open door-step, and ejaculated:

"Bats bring bedbugs."

"What?" said Mrs. Deans.

"For the land's sake, Bing, what are you talking about?" asked his
mother.

"Bats," said Bing, chattering his words out with his customary
rapidity.  "Caught one in the back bedroom, between the shatter and the
window; bites like the mischief; got round ears that stick up--got fur
on it--got leather wings, and bedbugs under 'em."

"Well, it beats all," said his mother, and Mrs. Deans looked at him
curiously.  But keen as her eyes were, they saw no change in him from
the boy of four or five years back.  For although Bing was between
sixteen and seventeen, he was no larger than a child of twelve: an
ill-conditioned, withered, hard little figure.  His frame was spare,
his little face, with its high cheek-bones, was always flushed, as
though fevered by a dry and burning heat; his eyes were very light
blue, very small, very cruel-looking.  They were set in a network of
wrinkles.  His hands were horny and thin.  He stayed but a moment, then
rushed off as quickly as he had come.

"Bing don't grow much," said Mrs. Deans, with a curious intonation in
her voice and a covert glance at Mrs. White.

Mrs. White looked a little uncomfortable, and answered rather hastily:

"No, the Whites is all slow growers.  Sam grew after we was married,
and Sam's brother grew till he began to get bald!"

Mrs. Deans preserved a disagreeable silence.

Young Ann entered the room as composedly as she had left it.

"Where have you been, Ann?" asked her mother, a little sharply.

"Fixing curds for the turkeys," said the girl, placidly.

"Well, I declare, I'd forgotten it entire!" said Mrs. White.  "I am
glad to find that you have such a thoughtful mind."

"Oh, ma!" said young Ann, in an acme of admiration.  Mrs. White smiled,
as who should say, "I can't restrain my muse," and continued in the
same voice: "Shall we go out and see the feathered tribe eat their
humble portion?"

Mrs. Deans rose gladly, and out they went into the sunshine.  It was
one of those days--so perfect, if one can enjoy it without toil, in
darkened rooms or shady nooks--so intolerable, if bodily toil beneath
the blazing sun is demanded.  They went about leisurely, watched the
melancholy young turkeys picking daintily at their food, encouraged to
the attack by the solitary little chicken that was domiciled in their
coop.  When the turkey eggs were hatching, careful poultry-keepers put
one hen egg in with them, so that the chicken might "show them how to
eat."  This one, vigorous little black Spanish chick, certainly
performed its duties nobly--its compact little body darting here and
there among the turkeys, staggering about on their long, fragile legs.
They passed Bing, lying on his back under a chestnut tree.

Mrs. Deans and Mrs. White grew very affable over the poultry, and the
clouds dropped down, with the dewy darkness of a moonless summer night,
before Mrs. Deans went home.

She was, upon the whole, dissatisfied with her visit.  Those Whites
were so disgustingly equable--so ridiculously pleased with
themselves--and that Bing White! of all the objects!  Mrs. Deans slept
at last, her brows drawn in the ill-natured pose her thoughts suggested.

The Whites slumbered peacefully, save where Bing lay, his eyes gleaming
in the dark, as he dreamt long, waking dreams of ghastly pleasures; but
he too slept at last, his fingers twitching as he slept, his lips like
two streaks of blood.

Myron Holder slept the too-sound sleep of weariness, her yellow-haired
baby on her breast, her face placid and calmed into severe lines of
beauty.

Homer Wilson tossed and flung his strong arm above his head and
murmured a woman's name, and crossed it with another, clinched his
upraised hand; and, murmuring, slept.

Deeper and deeper fell the silence; darker and darker grew the
midnight; heavier and heavier sleep sank upon those different hearts;
until they all beat with the measured cadence of oblivion--until,
albeit delayed by devious paths and difficult gates, they all reached
the poppied meadow of deep sleep.




CHAPTER XII.

  "Lo! where is the beginning, where the end,
  Of living, loving, longing?"

  "But were there ever any
  Writhed not at passed joy?
  To know the change and feel it,
  When there is none to heal it,
  Nor numbed sense to steal it,
  Was never said in rhyme."


It was late summer.  The whirring of reaping-machines sounded upon
every side; the roads were strewn with grain from the harvest wagons;
the air was murmurous with insects; the ground, parched and thirsty;
the grass, sere and harsh; the leaves, laden with dust; the birds sang
only in the hours of earliest dawn or in the twilight.  At noontide,
the horses' flanks dripped sweat, and the men's faces and necks were
blistered with the heat.  The cows stood knee deep in the ponds, and
flicked at the flies with their long tails.  The ponds were low, and
their wide margins of mud were alive with tiny frogs, that hopped about
in thousands.  Upon the surface of the water was a glaze of curious
animalculæ, as red as blood.  Clumps of bullrushes and tasselled tufts
of reeds grew in the water, and dragon-flies flitted through the green
stems, like darting flashes of blue light.  The Jamestown children
called them darning-needles; and being assured of their propensity for
sewing one's ears up, viewed them with serious apprehension.  Often the
birds, their breasts panting with heat, came to the ponds, and,
fluttering to the margin, splashed the water over their little backs.
They were timid, though, and liked better to find a spot where the deep
imprint of a hoof was filled with water than to bathe in the ponds.

The little streams by the roadside had long since disappeared, and the
famous stream on the Wilson farm, that welled up from the "living
rock," stole along so sluggishly that it scarce stirred the
watercresses that grew along its course.

It was the culmination of the year's endeavors: a hard season on man
and beast; from day-dawn to dark was heard the shouting of men, the
trampling of horses, the noise of machines--a feverish season, the
fruition of a twelvemonth's expectancy.

"A good harvest, and fine harvest weather," said one and all.

It was natural that these weeks of incessant labor should tell upon the
men--indeed many of them looked utterly worn out, with red rims
encircling their eyes, and faces from which each drop of moisture
seemed to have oozed; but Homer Wilson, during the excessive heats of
that summer, looked worse than any of his neighbors.  His blue jeans
hung loose upon him; and when he threw aside his smock, his shoulders
seemed sharp and thin under his shirt.  The outline of his strong jaw
was clearly defined, and by reason of the lack of superfluous flesh the
contour of his head was strikingly apparent, and suggested almost
unpleasantly the dominant force of his character.  His eyes were
sunken; and although at the end of a long day's work his face might
grow ashen, his muscles twitch nervously, and his strong fingers
tremble, yet the fire in his eyes remained undimmed.

He could not sleep.  At night he used to go to the lake--very solitary
then, when the fishing season was past--and plunging into the water
swim far out in the moonlight.  Sometimes he beat his arms upon the
water at each stroke, striving to communicate his own excitement to the
water, that shone up with such maddening placidity to the stars.
Sometimes he would swim out until the shore behind him was but a
dimness, seeming as unsubstantial as the clouds; then, turning on his
back, he would float there, silent, his eyes searching the sky.  The
harvest moon--

  "The loveliest moon that ever silver'd o'er
  A shell for Neptune's goblet; she did soar
  So passionately bright,"

floated above him.  Silence was upon the face of the water, and he, in
the embrace of the wave and the night, was alone indeed.

"The lidless train of planets" passed him by; the moon drew a mantle of
mist about her and sailed away.  A premonitory shiver crept along his
limbs; he reached the shore, chilled to the bone; but the heat at his
heart still parched him with thirst, for there had awakened within him
a great longing for loving eyes, a great hunger for woman's touches, a
great dread of his own solitariness, a great disgust of himself.  He
was realizing slowly, numbly, his own decadence, groping for some rope
by which he might pull himself up out of the abyss into which he had
fallen.

It is doubtless nobler to dispense with the rope and climb out of the
pit unaided; the rockiest precipice may be hewn into painful steps, but
in shifting sands who can form a stairway?

"Seems to me, Homer," said Mrs. Wilson one day, as she stood moulding
her bread in the early morning, "seems to me you need something; now
there's yarbs just hanging up and spilin' for the want of drinking;
there ain't anything more buildin' than yarbs is--'The yarbs of the
field,' it says in the Bible, which means all yarbs, and I have them
mostly there."  Here she glanced at the long row of paper bags which,
tied round the stems of the dried plants, hung along one side of the
kitchen.  "Maybe it's ague workin' on you, or m'laria you're sickening
for; I'll make up some boneset agin noon and----"

"Don't make any brews for me, mother," said Homer.  "I don't need any;
it's the heat."  He was putting oatmeal into the water-pails for the
men to take to the field.

"There," said his mother, "I knowed it!  I'd no hope as you'd be led by
me in this any more'n anything else.  Well, it's to be expected, I
suppose.  I know who the nursin' and settin' up will fall on, but I kin
stand it; I've had to bear with a good deal in my time, and the Lord
'll give me strength for this, too--but it does seem hard."  She
sniffed, and, wiping away an imaginary tear with her floury apron, left
a smudge of white upon her rubicund countenance.

"It is hard," said Homer, very quietly, and went out, pails in hand, to
where the horses stood ready harnessed for the day.  The hired men were
sticking branches of walnut leaves on their bridles and in the
backhands, and bathing their flanks and breasts with smartweed oil, to
keep off the flies.

Homer gave the men their pail of oatmeal and water, and went to his own
team.  As he passed his horses, he put out his hand to take the nearest
one by the bridle.  It started and swerved nervously from his extended
hand.  His face lowered for an instant; the next moment it flushed as
though his swarthy cheek felt the impatient blow he had given the horse
the day before.  He took the lid off his pail and let the horses drink
the contents, giving them the pail alternately; each pushed its nose
down through the cool water to get at the meal at the bottom, making a
great sucking as it did so, and resisting stubbornly the efforts of the
other to usurp the pail.  They made short work of the draught, but were
loath to give up the pail, and stretched their noses after Homer as he
hung it upon a fence-stake.  He took their bridles and proceeded to the
field, their harness-chains clinking, the leaves on their heads and
backs rustling, their noses quivering as they licked at the grains of
oatmeal sticking to their bits.

Homer was reaping the west field.  A forty-acre expanse of growing
grain it had been a few days before, but now it was all down save a
little square in the hollow, at one corner of which stood the
self-binder, an ungainly affair, with its windmill-like arrangement for
pushing the sheaves along.

The shocks of grain stood round and round this square of standing
wheat, as if they fain would protect it from the fate that had laid
them low; but Homer and his horses threaded their ranks, and soon the
lumbering machine was in motion, leaving a track of prostrate sheaves
that presently the men would take in pairs, and, putting eight
together, leave them for the sun to dry.

Through all that long forenoon Homer thought of his mother.  It was not
"yarb tea" he needed, but

  "To take in draughts of life from the gold fount
  Of kind and passionate looks."


The heat grew intense.  The horses were panting, the sweat lathering
from beneath the harness-straps; a stifling dust was rising from the
wheels and covering Homer's face with a grayish veil; the grasshoppers
fled in thousands before the machine; the grain gleamed dizzily golden
in the sun.  It was just the color of her hair--perhaps the
feverishness of the heat made the thought unpleasant.  That hair had
been bright enough to drive him almost mad, but it was not brightness
he wanted now, nor gayety, nor laughter; he wanted the benison of calm
eyes, the shadow of cool hair, the tenderness of tears, the strength of
a tried soul, and out of this chaos of longing was slowly evolved a
figure.

Beginning with a dark cloud, that hovered for a time before him and
then floated away fragment by fragment till all was gone save enough to
halo round a pale and steadfast face, with dark locks of hair, and the
face at first only outlined by the curving tresses, gradually assumed
features--dark eyes and

        "most tender brows,
  Meant for men's lips, to make them glad of God
  Who gives them such to kiss"--

pale, sorrowful lips, and a chin which told of strength to endure, yet
pleaded most eloquently against a test; and then came patient shoulders
and the bosom of a mother.  He gazed at this figure long--or so it
seemed.  It eased his eyes, and the heat was really blinding; even this
vision could not blot it out.  He closed his eyes.  The next moment
frightful sounds confused his ears, he felt a sharp pain in his head,
heard a cry--surely from the lips he had just seen in his waking
dream....  With a great gasp, Homer Wilson came back from his momentary
swoon to find himself lying on the ground, his machine a few yards in
advance, and Myron Holder bending with tears raining down her white
lace.

"Oh, Homer--Homer," she cried, "are you killed?"

"What is it, Myron?" he said, and tried to put his hand to where the
pain was--but failing to reach his head, it faltered and fell upon one
of Myron's arms, over which it closed.  He realized that her arm was
under his head, and that he was leaning heavily upon her.  He tried to
gather himself together, but one of his feet was held fast.  He looked
at her inquiringly.  At that moment she was the source of
life--knowledge--everything to him.  The blood was streaming from a cut
in his temple.  She replied to his unspoken question promptly.

"The reins are tangled round your feet," she said.  "Oh, I thought I
couldn't get here in time!  I thought they would surely drag you to
death; and you fell so near the wheels, I----" here she gave way to a
paroxysm of tears.  She tried to stifle them.  The sight set Homer's
manhood for a moment again upon its throne.  He untied the neckerchief
he wore, clumsily dried her tears, and then applied it to his own head.
She rose.  Just then two men came in sight; they had been on their way
home to dinner.  Turning at the gate, they had seen something was
wrong, and hastened back.  As they approached, Myron snatched up her
sunbonnet from where it had fallen and tied it on with trembling
fingers.

"How was it, Homer?  What's up?" called the men as they drew near.
Homer's evanescent strength was gone; he was supporting himself on one
elbow, upon which he seemed to be whirling, as on a pivot.  He looked
at Myron, and she answered for him:

"I was looking for Mrs. Deans' turkeys; they've strayed," she said.
"As I came over the knoll, I saw him drop the reins and fall; I ran as
hard as I could and stopped the horses; they were dragging him; he must
have struck on a stone when he fell."  She paused; her voice was
trembling.  "It's the sun," she said; and, turning, was over the crest
of the knoll, her sunbonnet disappearing among the stacks on the
opposite side, before the men made any comment.

As she disappeared, Homer's long-tried elbow gave way, and his head
sank upon the stubble.

The men untied the leather rein from his foot, tied up his head as well
as they could, steadied him as he rose to his feet, and helped him to
mount the gray horse.

A day's rest set him right.  The touch of sunstroke had been
neutralized by the cut, whose bleeding had relieved the pressure on the
brain and in a measure from his heart, for he no longer battled with
intangible desires and maddening uncertainties of purpose; he yearned
with his whole heart for the clasp of Myron's Holder's arms.

His mother heard the story of his accident and by whom a much more
serious one was averted.  She was thoroughly enraged and excited.  She
harped upon the one string until Homer's new-found store of patience
reached an end, and he was fain to betake himself out of doors in the
evenings until sleep stilled his mother's tongue.

It was a week or so after his fall--the wound on his temple had already
healed in the wholesome skin--when, one night as dusk fell, he was
beset with desire to see Myron.  The vision he had had in the field
returned to him often now; that strange vision--compound of reality and
dream, part wrought of the needs of his own heart, part woven of the
glimpses his reeling eyes caught of the woman's figure in the distance.
As he had emerged from the chaos of indefinite yearnings to a definite
desire, so he had put aside all women for one woman; to his credit be
it told, he thought of Myron Holder as she was--the disgraced mother of
a fatherless child.  He could draw no fine distinction between letter
and spirit, deduce no hair-splitting arguments to bear out his views,
being only a rough countryman, unused to subtle mental processes.  But
he decided for himself that it was not muttered rites and outward forms
that made the mother, but all the dolorous agonies of maternity.  Which
of them had this woman not endured?  What jot or tittle of woman's
horrible heritage had not been hers?  And what more holy than a mother?

"God knows," he said to himself, as he strode along that night to the
village, "a woman needs to be pretty bad before she's not good enough
for the average man!"  He had reached the fence round the Holder
cottage--that fence in which the gaps grew greater and greater as old
Mrs. Holder used the pickets for kindling-wood--and was just about to
enter quietly, when Gamaliel Deans drove up.  He recognized Homer and
called out:

"Hi, there!  Ho!  What are you lookin' for?"

"A lift out to old Carroll's," said Homer promptly, cursing Gamaliel in
his heart.

"Well, I'm yer man, then," said Gamaliel.  "I'm just goin' for the vet.
The sorrel mare's bad--sunstroke."

"Too bad," said Homer, springing into the light wagon.  "Who was
driving her?"

"I was--worse luck," said Gamaliel, sulkily.  "I seen her stagger, but
I thought she could make it to the end of the swathe; but she dropped
in her tracks, and there she's laid since, with us pouring water on her
head.  It don't seem to do her much good, though, and she was beginning
to kick out when I hitched up and started."

"Well," said Homer, and he had a grim satisfaction in saying it, "if
she was beginning to strike out, you may as well go home, for she'll
die!"

"I guess she will," said Gamaliel, philosophically; "but things was
gettin' pretty hot round there, and I thought it safe to make tracks.
Marm's in a regular ramp over it!"

"No wonder," said Homer severely; "she's a fine mare."

The twinkling lights of Mr. Carroll's window were in view.  They neared
them swiftly.  Gamaliel half-pulled up and Homer sprang out.

"So 'long!" said Gamaliel.  "This is a matter of life and death, ye
know," he added, chuckling at his own wit.  He drove on quickly,
speculating as to whether the mare was dead.  She was.

Homer meanwhile stood a moment irresolute, as the wagon disappeared.
He had spoken upon impulse when, in answer to Gamaliel's inquiry, he
said he was going to Mr. Carroll's.  It was the first name that entered
his head, and chosen for that reason.

Homer had once gone a great deal to old Mr. Carroll's, but never had
resumed the visits since his return to the farm.  He shrank morbidly
from observation then, and old Mr. Carroll's eyes were sharp.  This
night, however, he decided to go in; he feared no man's eyes now.  He
rapped at the door and waited.  He could hear the tapping of the old
man's cane, then saw a light beneath the door, as Mr. Carroll called
out in well-rounded tones for so old a man:

"Who goes there?"

"Homer Wilson!" shouted Homer.

"Pass Homer Wilson!" said the old soldier, and pulling back the simple
bolt, let his visitor enter.  Through a dusky narrow hall, to a room
with very heavy wooden rafters and whitewashed walls, he led the way.

Those walls were a great saving of paper to him, Mr. Carroll was wont
to say; and that there was reason in his statement could be readily
seen, for all the farm accounts, the taxes, the mill accounts, the
dates of any events he wished to remember, with any stray memorandum of
a chance reflection or idea he wished to see in words, were pencilled
upon the walls.

On the last night of the old year, Mr. Carroll had the walls
whitewashed, and began a "clean sheet with four big pages," as he said,
every New-Year's.

One of his pleasantest reflections was that he had never yet needed to
begin the new year with any debts staring him in the face, "and no one
owing me, either," he would say, as though that too were a triumph; but
certain people said old Mr. Carroll was a fool in this; he was so set
on carrying out his whim that he whitewashed over accounts that were
still due him, because, of course, it was for his own selfish
gratification, and not from any generosity that he forgave certain
needy families the little debts they owed for flour, and hams, and
chicken-feed!

Mrs. Deans considered this sinful; and, impelled by her usual sense of
self-sacrificing duty, spoke to him upon the subject once, saying, to
clinch her argument, that "he'd have more money for foreign missions,
if he didn't throw his substance away on those miserable, ailing,
complaining paupers over Stedham way."  But Carroll had speedily
brought the discussion to a close by demanding, with some heat, what
possible interest he could have in "a batch of naked niggers,
ma'am"--an irreverent way of referring to the interesting heathen,
surely.

"Sit down, Homer; sit down!" said his host, pushing a chair toward him
with a gesture of genuine hospitality; "sit down, and we'll have a
glass of something."

He went to a cupboard, whose diamond-shaped glass panes were backed by
faded green silk, produced an old-fashioned heavy glass decanter, two
glasses, some sugar and old silver spoons--talking all the time.  His
lameness necessitated several trips to the cupboard, and as he brought
each object and set it down on the table he would pause a moment, feign
a start, and say--"Tut--tut--how forgetful I am!" and jauntily journey
back, until he had all the requisites for a brewing of hot whiskey.  So
well he did the little by-play that he almost believed himself that it
was forgetfulness that caused him to make repeated trips for the few
articles and not the necessity for a cane, which left him only one free
hand.

"A cold drink for a cold day, and a hot drink for a hot day; that's my
idea," said the old man, settling himself into his chair with a
suppressed twinge as he twisted his lame leg.  "So now, you put a match
to the fire, and we'll see if it's a good one."

Homer lit the fire, already laid, and the copper kettle placed upon the
stove soon began to sing.  Homer had talked readily enough at first,
but he was growing absent-minded, his thoughts wandering back to that
dilapidated cottage in the village.  Presently the glasses of hot
whiskey steamed between them.  During the process of concoction Mr.
Carroll related, with many strong expressions and much richness of
detail, the idiocy of Male Deans, by whom he had sent to town for lump
sugar.  Lump sugar was an unknown commodity to Male, and he insisted
there was no such thing, and declared Mr. Carroll couldn't "get the
laugh on him that way."  At last Mr. Carroll resorted to strategy.  He
wrote out a list of things he wanted from the grocery store, and
smuggling loaf sugar in at the bottom of the list, gave it to Male and
told him the grocery man would have all ready for him as he passed from
the mill.  So he got the lump sugar.  Homer was a little hazy himself
as to the existence of, or necessity for, lump sugar, but evidently it
was of vital import to Mr. Carroll.

"Yes," the old man said, splashing another lump into his second glass
of hot whiskey, "the ass!  I've no doubt he'd put filthy loose sugar in
this--floor-sweepings."  Then came silence.  Homer felt he must say
something; he cast about for a subject; an accident of the day
suggested itself.

"We killed a copperhead snake in the rye, to-day," he said; "the first
I've seen in years.  I was cutting a road round the field for the
machine with the cradle, and it darted at me.  I killed it with a
fence-rail.  It was an ugly beggar, and a good three-foot long."

"A snake!" said old Carroll.  "A snake!  There's many kinds of snakes.
Copperheads are dangerous, and rattlesnakes are, but there's worse
snakes than either.  You killed it with a stick?  Did I ever tell you
about the man I knew who killed so many snakes?"

"No," said Homer, looking at him, for his tone was strange.  "No.  Who
was he?"

"He was a man," said Mr. Carroll, looking fixedly at his guest, "he was
a man that overcame many snakes of many different kinds, and how he
fared at last I'll tell you."

He rose, snuffed the two candles, snipping off their wicks adroitly
with a pair of old brass snuffers, and sat down, again fixing his gaze
upon Homer's face.  The tinderwood fire in the stove had died away to a
mere glow of crisping embers; the kettle sang in dying cadence; its
steam and the steam from the glasses floated athwart Homer's vision of
Mr. Carroll's body, seeming to give greater keenness to the alert face,
and the eyes which, always bright, seemed to glint to-night with
absolute brilliancy.

"It was some time ago," said Mr. Carroll, "that this man I speak of
used to kill the snakes.  He had a peculiar dislike to all snakes, for
a friend of his had had the life squeezed out of him in the folds of a
serpent, and another friend had been bitten by one, so that he too
died, having first gone mad; and another had the very breath of life
sucked from him by a sly snake, so that he died--died himself, body and
soul, and never knew it: only his friends saw the corpse of his old
self, and knew their friend to be gone from their midst and only his
semblance left, and they rejoiced much when at last this semblance died
also, and they could bury it decently, like other corpses.

"There was no wonder my friend hated snakes.

"He waged war upon them; and it was his method when he found one, to
take it by the tail and, with a sudden jerk, snap its head off.  He
killed a great many in this way; and it was always his habit to search
for the head.  He longed to look into the eyes, and learn wherein the
power lay by which they deceived and deluded men until they stung them;
but he never could find the head.  Between disappointment at this, and
despair because the more snakes he destroyed the more there seemed to
be, my friend grew very sad.  He had a horrible pain at his heart too,
that no drug could ease.  Time went on and the pain grew no better--it
even shot through his head sometimes; but my friend persevered, and no
snake escaped him.

"Well, one day he was walking in his garden, under his own trees,
within his own walls, where it would be thought no snake could come,
when a snake, more brilliant in color than any he had ever seen,
crossed his path.  For the first time, he understood a little of the
feeling that makes a man spare a snake because it is beautiful; but he
put the thought from him, and, catching it by the tail, jerked off its
head and flung aside the body.  Then he began to search for the head,
feeling if he could but look into the jewel eyes of that snake that all
the mystery of men's delusions would be revealed to him; and, knowing
the secret of their delusions, surely he could dispel them.

"He bent to his search, but felt such a great pain in his heart that he
stood up, casting his eyes down upon himself, for the pain was so great
it seemed his heart would burst the bonds of his ribs; and as he
looked, he saw the swelled eyes and forked tongue of the snake's head,
for it had fastened on his breast above his heart.  He looked again; it
was gone.  With wild haste, he tore off his coat.

"It was not there.  His waistcoat--no sign of it.  He dragged his
clothing from him till he stood like Adam in the garden, and then he
knew that that snake's head and all the others were in his own heart.
Standing naked in his garden, he felt the snakes in his heart, and knew
that his labor for mankind was vain--knew that not till he could rend
and read his own living heart would he understand and dispel the
delusions of men.  The disappointment made him mad.  It was the
disappointment, nothing else--not the pain of the snakes, for many men
have snakes in their breasts, she snakes, that amuse themselves by
seeing how tight they can tie their hair about the heart."

The old man drained his glass.  Homer was glad there was a little left
in his tumbler--he swallowed it hastily.

"Rattlesnake oil is a grand thing for weak eyes," Mr. Carroll said,
composedly; "and for horses' eyes it hasn't any equal."

"That's true," said Homer, "but it's pretty expensive--five dollars an
ounce."

"Yes," returned his host, "old Dargo used to try out the oil and then
eat the cracklings; but the best oil for medicine is got after letting
the snake hang a while."

"So they say," said Homer; "but I never could bring myself to have
anything more to do with a snake than to smash it with the first thing
I could catch hold of."

They talked on a little longer, then Homer rose.  "I must be getting
along," he said; "I've quite a walk before me."

"Well, come back soon," said Mr. Carroll, lighting him to the door with
a wavering candle.  Homer had his hand on the latch, when the old man
said suddenly:

"Hold the candle a minute."  He felt in his pocket, and drew forth a
small black case, opened it, and thrust it before Homer's eyes.  "Look
at it," he said, "look at it well, and then you'll know a snake the
next time you see one--one of the dangerous kind, not a simple
copperhead, or a gentle rattler."  In the midst of the glow of a golden
background, dimmed here and there by a pearl, was a painted face--fair
enough to woo a king, false enough to sell a kingdom.  Homer looked,
and somehow understood all its beauty and treachery.

[Illustration: "LOOK AT IT," HE SAID, "LOOK AT IT WELL!"]

Mr. Carroll shut the case with a snap, took the candle, and Homer let
himself out.

"Good-night, Homer," called the old man.  "Come back soon."

"Good-night.  I will," said Homer, and the door closed between them.




CHAPTER XIII.

  "Pleasure is oft a visitant, but pain
  Clings cruelly to us--"

          "Whoso encamps
  To take a fancied city of delight--
  Oh, what a wretch is he!"


Church was in.  That meant that all the respected and self-respecting
people of Jamestown had come forth, morally and physically clothed in
their best, and bestowed themselves as comfortably as circumstances
permitted in the wooden pews of Jamestown's only church.

From the preacher's desk, the congregation looked like a human theme
with variations, the original motif being a stolid, expressionless mask
of flesh, unanimated, immobile, with rudely carven features, and no
decided tints.  Upon this primitive scale nature had rung every change
her shackled hands could compass; but between the highest note, struck
perhaps in Ossie Annie Abbie Maria White, whose face was inoffensive,
and the lowest personified by old Ann Lemon, whose countenance was a
mere mass of flesh, there was but a short thought.  The men were
sandy-haired, meagre, undersized; or heavy, florid, dark, with
lack-lustre eyes and coarse lips.

It was a delightful autumnal day--a day more provocative of tears than
laughter, more suggestive of retrospect than anticipation; a day to
dream old dreams, feel old heartaches, read old books, tell old tales,
hear bygone singing, recall lost voices; a pure, sweet day--the air
rarefied by the first touch of frost; a day, in short, to remind one of
the sweet, the sad, the strange in life; but withal, a day to perfect
the tint on the apples, mellow the juices of the late grapes, and
promising a "fine spell of good weather for the fall ploughing," as
each male member of the congregation had said to each other male member
that morning.

Mother Earth got but little rest at the hands of these eager seekers.
Hardly had her bosom been shorn of its crop of a yellow grain before
the keen ploughshares were again plunged into the soil and it was
lacerated afresh, and the man looked best content that morning behind
whose plough there lay the greatest number of brown furrows, for the
fall ploughing was of great furtherance when the rush of the spring
came on; so the horses, loosed from the lumbering reaping machine, were
yoked to the plough, that most graceful of all farmer's implements, and
strained at their collars as it turned the furrow, sending its earthy
fragrance to mingle with the fruity savor from the vineyards.

Light mists, prophetic of the later haze, floated in shreds and wisps
across the fields, and gathered and lingered about the trunks of the
trees in the woodland.

The birds were silent, and daily V-shaped flights of ducks and wild
geese passed over the village, winging their way to the south.

Service went on in the church, to the staid and sedate measure of
well-understood and long-established usage.

Ann Lemon was nodding off the intoxication of the night before in a pew
well to the front.  Ann felt she needed to assert her religious
feelings lest there be some doubt of their existence.

Behind her sat Mr. and Mrs. White, young Ann, and Bing--the first three
mentioned of the family looking as gloomy and downcast as their
self-complacency permitted.  Bing blinked wickedly in his corner,
making sly swoops at the sluggish flies, and tearing them in bits when
he captured any.

Across the aisle Clem Humphries flourished.  Clem was one of those
world-worn wrecks that are cast away and left stranded in nearly every
small village the world over.  How they drift there no one knows;
whence they come no one cares; why they stay they could not tell
themselves.  Fate rattles us all in her dice-box, and we lie where we
fall.

Clem was by turns a fisherman, Mr. Muir's assistant, a knife-grinder, a
peddler; he had superior skill in making axe-handles, and out of wire
he could twist and twine the cunningest of traps.  He was acute and
wise in his day and generation--at heart a scoffing old vagabond; yet
he professed to be most religious, and evidenced it in the same way as
the people about him did, by going to church with painful regularity,
where he sat, a sore rock of offence to Mrs. Deans, for Clem was fain
to relieve the tedium of the service and aggravate Mrs. Deans (whom he
hated) by a succession of tricks that irritated her almost beyond
endurance.

Mrs. Deans sat immediately behind Clem, and pursed her already
pursed-up mouth, sniffed her already pinched-in nose, and glared at him
fiercely from her chronically inflamed eye, but all to no effect.  He
was full of offence, and Mrs. Deans had several times accused him in
after-meeting of "conduct misbecoming in a Christian," but Clem had
answered to the charge so volubly, so diplomatically, so humbly that
the rest of the church members, and particularly Mr. Prew, the minister
(to whom Clem always ostentatiously removed his hat), decided that Mrs.
Deans had "a pick" at Clem, and regretted a little that such a pious
woman should stain her noble record by such complaints as she made
against this humble follower.

He had an evil habit of setting his stout stick upright beside him in
the pew, balancing it with a skill all the boys of Jamestown emulated
in vain, and then placing his hat upon it, so that in full sight of the
congregation, it stood perilously balanced, but never falling, during
the entire time of service.

A strange minister had once been sadly disconcerted by the sight of the
immovable hat in that pew.  He could see nothing of what supported it,
and could hardly restrain his wrath at the irreverence of the dwarfish
individual who sat covered in the Lord's house.  Animated by the
thought, he seized the sword of the Spirit and began to fight against
this evil one.  He dilated upon the perils of irreverence until the
majority of his listeners dared hardly breathe.  He thundered forth the
denunciation of the wicked and stubborn of heart until all the women
wept, led by Ann Lemon, who, by reason of excessive piety and much gin,
had no nerves left at all, and who showed her emotion by a series of
subdued howls.  He exhausted vituperation and himself, and sat down--a
beaten man, for the hat was unmoved, whilst Clem beside it was rolling
up his eyes and trying to induce a tear--an effort beyond even his art.

When the preacher discovered the true state of affairs, which he did
when he saw Clem pick up the cane and its burden, carry it to the door,
give it a jerk, bending his head at the same time, and so receive the
hat at his own peculiar angle, he felt as if all good was but a dream
and a delusion.

Clem every Sunday produced a large and not over-clean handkerchief tied
in many intricate knots.  These he untied painfully and laboriously
with teeth and fingers, until he reached the last, which, when untied,
disclosed a copper cent, which was his weekly contribution.  This
performance he made an absolute torment to Mrs. Deans, but with the
cent he made her life a burden.  He dropped it, and scrambled around on
his hands and knees for it.  He polished it on his trousers until it
seemed as if he might wear the fabric through.  Worst of all, he put it
on the back of the seat before him, where Mrs. Wilson's plump back must
inevitably knock it off.  Mrs. Wilson, despite her many trials and the
multitude of diseases she believed were concealed about her person, was
very stout, and therefore subject to all the fatigues incident to
bearing such a burden of flesh.  In spite of this, however, Mrs. Wilson
was animated by an eager desire to do her duty as became a "mother in
Israel," and by her deportment convey the impressive lesson of example
to the less holy members of the flock.  With this end in view, she
strove to attain an upright and rigid position of an uncomfortable
piety; but the flesh is weak.  Presumably the weakness increases in
ratio to the flesh, for before the first prayer was over Mrs. Wilson
was beginning to settle.  When the preacher announced his text, she
usually took a fresh grip of her failing resolution, and assumed a
ramrod-like pose, but it was of short duration.  She gradually
collapsed, her shoulders drooped, the back of the pew dented further
and further into the broad black expanse that leaned against it.

Clem's penny crept nearer and nearer the edge as the encroaching back
advanced.  Presently Mrs. Wilson, worn out in her efforts to listen to
the sermon and fight against her own lassitude at one and the same
time, gave way, and, with a sigh, leaned back restfully.  The penny
flew off, and Clem, whilst apparently gazing at the preacher so
attentively as to be oblivious of all else, reached forward and caught
it adroitly, to place it again in jeopardy, and then again to lose
sight of its peril.  This performance, being repeated a half-dozen
times during one service, enraged Mrs. Deans beyond expression.  One
unlucky day, she prodded Clem in the back with a rigid forefinger, and
upon his turning round, which he did with an exaggerated start that
vibrated through the whole congregation, she made a sharp gesture of
withdrawal, and gazing at the offending penny, just then trembling on
the edge, left the rest to Clem's understanding--a perilous thing to
do, for Clem chose to interpret the signal in quite a different way
than she intended.

Down Mrs. Wilson's black merino back there strayed a long light brown
hair.  To Mrs. Deans' consternation, Clem reached gingerly forward,
took the hair, and, with the suddenness Mrs. Deans' gesture had
indicated, withdrew his hand.  Now the hair had merely strayed, and was
not lost from Mrs. Wilson's knot, hence the sharp jerk brought a
smothered exclamation and a sudden start from her--a start which sent
the detestable copper spinning.  Clem caught the coin dexterously with
one hand, whilst he turned to offer Mrs. Deans the hair with the other.
That worthy woman looked positively apoplectic, and, giving Clem just
one look, turned her attention markedly to the preacher.  Clem turned,
with a fine expression of bewildered disappointment upon his face,
replaced the hair on Mrs. Wilson's shoulder and the coin on the ledge,
and lost himself in pious meditation.

This occurred some time before this autumn Sunday, but Mrs. Deans had
suffered in silence since then.  She was prone to leave church with her
temper thoroughly on edge.  Clem was surpassing himself that day: he
wore a long-tailed coat of the fashion of many years before, and, when
he arrived, which he did just as the first psalm was announced, he
deliberately stood up, and, pulling round first one coat-tail and then
the other, emptied them of a multitude of small articles--tobacco,
pipes, balls of twine, lead sinkers, little twists of wire, a big
jack-knife, stray nails, and a varied assortment of bits of iron and
buttons.  Having put these all on the seat beside him, he deposited
himself with the air of a man who puts aside worldly things to listen
to better.  Hardly was he seated before he imagined the flies were
troubling him.  He made several spasmodic slaps at his bald head, and
then drawing forth his handkerchief, folded it carefully in four and
laid it on the top of his head.  Thus adorned, he rose to sing, knelt
to pray, and finally listened with reverential attention to the sermon.

  "Few are thy days, and full of woe,
    O man, of woman born;
  Thy doom is written, 'Dust thou art
    And shalt to dust return.'"


So they sang; and the wailing air, upborne by the harsh, untrained
voices, reverberated from the bare walls of the church, its jangling
cadence pierced by one pure and bell-like voice, for Bing White, with
the heart of a vulture, had the voice of a lark.

One passing outside smiled--half amusedly, half sadly--as he heard the
singing, and went on his way with the music following him in ever
fainter notes, forcing itself upon him.

* * * * * *

On Sunday Myron Holder had her only relaxation.  Her grandmother,
preserving the prejudices of the little Kentish village from which she
had come, detested all other religions save the Episcopal.  Her folks
had all been strong for Church and State, and she scorned the idea of
going to the Methodist church, or, as she contemptuously said, "to
chapel."  Her vocabulary knew no more derisive epithet than "a
Methody."  This in itself was enough to isolate the Holders in the
midst of a community that regarded Episcopalians as being "next door to
out-and-out Catholics," and Catholics as surely doomed.  As Mrs. Holder
did not go to church herself, neither did she allow Myron to go after
the work for the day was done, so she was free to lavish her heart on
her child.  It was her custom, whilst church was in and the streets
empty, to take the boy and go out into the fields or lanes with him,
severing herself from the house that had held such agony for her and
from the woman whose stinging tongue kept her wound raw.  Once with her
boy--alone in the air and sunshine--she gave herself up to
introspective soul-searchings.  Upon one side she set herself, and upon
the other all things good; in the great gulf between there hovered the
shade of the man to whom she owed her misery.  In the abandonment of
her self-abasement, she did not place herself even upon his level,
whilst as for little My--he shone amongst the holiest of those things
to which it seemed to her she was herself in such direct opposition and
contradiction.  The great marvel of her life was this child, who owed
its existence to her.  She looked at it with eyes of adoration--touched
it almost humbly, as the Madonna we are told of may have tended the
Christ-child on her breast.  The child seemed to embody all the dead
delight of her own girlhood, to have absorbed all the peace, all the
calm, all the gayety she had lost.  There seemed no varying moods to
cross its baby mind; it was the embodiment of trusting love.

Myron, in the face of this miracle, this perfect blossom which sunned
itself in her eyes only and expanded beneath her tenderness, was
bewildered and amazed.  She began to ponder over the matter, and
presently to wonder if there was any phase of the entire situation that
made her less blameless--to ask herself in what way she could possibly
obliterate shame from her record for his sake.

        "Are your garments spotless?
        Are they white as snow?
  Are you washed in the blood of the Lamb?"


The words came to her as a personal and crushing query as the
congregation energetically sang them.  Little My clapped his hands and
laughed delightedly; the music pleased him.  So Myron stood outside
until the voices died away, and the murmur of prayer succeeded; then
taking My up in her arms, that they might make greater speed, she went
rapidly out of the village.  She turned to her left, and, going a short
distance along the road, lifted My over the fence into Mr. Warner's
grass meadow.  Through the centre of this field ran a deep ditch, to
carry off the surface drainage in spring.  Its course was marked by a
thick growth of low-growing shrubs, among which grew short stubby oaks,
whilst here and there great graceful elms sprang up in lofty columns,
crowned with drooping branches; parasitic vines, sucking the life-juice
of the tree they adorned, crept up these elms; their delicate leaves,
already scarlet, showed vividly against the gray bark of the trees, and
looked like thin streams of blood trickling down.  Particularly was
this the case where, upon one of the elms, the creeping-vine had
reached the point where a branch had been broken off by the wind.  The
semblance was thus complete: there was the wound--there the blood, and
above, the sighing leaves deplored the pain.  At the foot of this tree
was a huge and brightly green mound, which, as Myron approached, seemed
almost artificial, so close were the leaves set, so impenetrably were
the tendrils woven together; for this mound was formed of two oak trees
over which, completely hiding them, grew a huge wild grape vine,
forming a perfect canopy of dense green, and, more honest than the vine
that sapped the elm tree, the grapevine, by its luxuriant growth and
the vigor of its stem and branches, seemed to proclaim its settled
purpose to smother the trees that supported it if possible.

To this Myron bent her footsteps.  Pressing into the shrubs some
distance below, she won her way through them until she came to the foot
of the elm tree, and entered the green tent formed by the grapevine.
Between the trunks of the two scrubby oaks was a space of heavy green
grass, which, springing up before the vine leaves had shut off the sun,
kept green and fresh in their shadow through all the heats of summer.
Here she and her child sat down; they were completely shielded from
observation--the grape garlands at their backs, before them the masses
of shrubs on the other side of the ditch.

Myron took a biscuit from her pocket and gave it to the boy, and then,
clasping her hands about her knees, lost herself in dreams.  She had
cast aside her sun-bonnet, and the light, with difficulty piercing the
shade, shone upon her in pearly lights and gleams--a colder radiance
than shone elsewhere.

The soft characterless face of the young girl had been frozen into the
enforced calm of passionless despair.  Her face gave a strange
impression, as of features that would remain unchanged no matter how
long time endured for their possessor; as if the voice of pain and
shame had bade her life stand still, nor evidence its aging in her
countenance.  No network of wrinkles, no deep marks of care, could have
been half so sad as these youthful outlines veiled by such grief.  Her
eyes were heavy; her mouth would have been bitter, but that the
patience of the face belied all bitterness save that of self-contempt.
Underneath this mask of arrested life, vivifying it with tragic meaning
and rendering it inexpressibly sad, burned an intense suppressed
expectancy, as of one who doth

              "Espy
  A hope beyond the shadow of a dream."


This lent her face the artistic value of motive, and transformed what
might, without it, have been but a sad-faced woman, such as the world
holds in countless thousands, into a creature of tragic force.

Myron pondered in the shadow, whilst her child played at her side.  It
was very still.  The child's soft breathing as he plucked at the soft
grass was the only sound that broke the listening silence; opposite her
was a little maple tree; a single leaf near the top was whirling round
and round, caught in some miniature tempest that left unmoved the
leaves on either side.  In the midst of universal calm, this lonely
leaf was tossed and troubled, singled out for unrest, as Myron Holder
had been set apart for pain.  But Myron's thoughts were not upon the
leaf, albeit she saw it fluttering.  She was struggling against a
futile wrath, which welled up in her heart and at times nearly mastered
reason--a hot rage against herself--_him_--the village.  Her cheeks
flushed--her hands involuntarily closed.

Why had this lot been meted out to her?  In what was she different from
these other women whose fault had been no less than hers?  Why was
continual bitterness her portion whilst they dwelt at ease?  Simply
because, though tardily, their children had been given a name.  She
felt a bitter wish spring up within her breast that all those jibing at
her were such as she; that all those cruel women might feel the touch
of shame; that they might be brought low, and taste the bitter bread
that was her portion, and drink the cup they held to her lips.  And
then she sank into an evil dream.  In it she beheld herself sitting in
the judgment seat of respectability and meting out judgment to those
who so lately had been her judges; for, in her dream, he had returned
and justified her; she had risen, and all the rest had fallen; and as
they toiled along the thorny path her feet had known, she beheld
herself pass by on the other side.  How she would withdraw from them
(her eyes grew cold)!  How she would avert her head (her lips were
scornful)!  How she would look them up and down with contemptuous
condemnation, and turn and whisper her verdict into willing ears.  That
would bring the blood to their cheeks.  That would--she paused,
arresting her thoughts with a sudden knowledge of their shame; the cold
eyes filled with tears, the scornful lips drooped and trembled; she
realized the horrible wickedness of her own thoughts--thoughts--no
hope, she owned to herself, and crying aloud, "I am wicked, shameless!"
she flung herself upon her face in the grass and wept out the
bitterness of her soul.  The child crept to her side and strove to turn
her face toward him; she kept it hidden, but stretched forth her arm
and clasped his little form.

My, frightened at the silence with which his overtures were met and at
his mother's unusual attitude, and shaken by her sobs, began to cry.
Myron roused herself, and taking him in her arms, held him to her
breast, rocking back and forth in the abandonment of her grief.  The
motion soothed and reassured the already drowsy child, and in a few
moments he slept, whilst his mother, stilling her sobs that she might
not disturb his slumber, bent above him a face wrung by pain.

She mused over her late vision of retaliation.  With what cruelty had
she hit upon the mode of showing her revenge!  Alas, the lesson had
been well taught her, for she had known the averted gaze, the scornful
lip, the contemptuous regard.  She had simply chosen those means from
which she herself had suffered moat keenly.  There came back to her the
memory of an early morning, when, standing in the doorway, she had
looked out into the dawn and had seen

            "The horizontal sun
  Heave his bright shoulders o'er the edge of the world,"

and had vowed herself to the service of others, and to the atonement of
her sin, and hoped for an early death.

Here, under the cold rays, of the autumnal sun, and abased before the
memory of her late musings, she renewed those vows and scourged her
soul with stripes of self-reproach.

When My woke, they went forth from their refuge, across the fields, up
the street to the village; the streets were empty.  A shambling figure
in the distance, bespeaking Clem Humphries by the length of the
coat-tails and the thinness of the legs, was making toward the lake.
It was indeed Clem, going to indulge in a little surreptitious sport as
an antidote to the sermon.  Clem looked upon his churchgoing as one of
his many professions, like the making of wire snares and the digging of
graves.  "Only," he said to himself as he reflected upon the matter,
"give me a grave to dig for choice."

Homer Wilson passed the church that day just as they were singing that
lugubrious paraphrase.  He smiled a little to himself, and went on,
saying, "Very cheerful that--very; but they haven't anymore idea of
returning to dust than I have, at least not for a while."  But it
seemed he could not get beyond the echo of the singing.  The voices
followed him far through the rarefied air; there came to him little
snatches of the gloomy words, persistently forcing themselves upon him.
He quickened his pace, and was soon beyond the farthest-reaching note,
and yet it seemed to vibrate in his ears.  Once clear of the village,
he struck across country.

The sorrel showed red, the ragweed white, between the short stalks of
the yellow stubble; here and there in the lanes and by the gateways
were spots of bright green verdure, looking unhealthily brilliant among
these dull browns and yellows.

This was where the over-ripe grain, falling to earth, had sprung up to
wither at the touch of the first frost.  Homer frowned a little at
this.  It bespoke careless management, and the instinct of the farmer
was strong in him; but his brow speedily cleared, for his thoughts were
of far other things.  His walk was very silent; the earth had indeed
"grown mute of song," and all these resting fields were dumb; no
crisping cricket, no whirring insect, no singing bird, nothing
disturbed the serenity of the hour.  It seemed a hiatus in the
processes of nature--a suspension of all activity, a breathless pause
of ecstasy or pain, like the instant before a first kiss or the moment
before a final farewell.

Under these conditions thought was easy, and Homer went on and on, his
mind dwelling upon the one all-absorbing theme.

"Myron--Myron," he said once, aloud, but his voice seemed at fret with
the quietude, and he walked on swiftly, to escape its cheerless echo.
Presently he found himself entering the woodland, and knew he was a
full ten miles from Jamestown.  A straight course through the woodland
brought him to the margin of the lake, which bayed in here in a sharp
curve.

Close to the margin lay great prostrate logs, whitened by wind and
weather till they looked like huge bleached bones.  Beyond these were
stones and a narrow strip of gravelly beach, broken here and there by
boulders, against which the water lapped softly in a thousand ripples,
wearing away the rock into tiny cells, and honey-combing them with
gentle but resistless touches.  Stretching out into the water, a
succession of large stones showed their stubborn heads, leading by
irregular steps out to where the last one, large enough to be a tiny
rocky islet, showed two feet high above the encircling water.

Homer made his way across these perilous stepping-stones, until he
reached the largest; sitting down, he sank into a reverie so profound
that he scarcely seemed to breathe.  His face grew pale as he sat there
minute after minute, the water lap-lapping among the rocks, the trees
silent behind him, the sky mute above.  Once he murmured a few words,
paraphrased with no thought of irreverence: "As a lamb before its
shearer is dumb, so she opened not her mouth."  His voice faltered in
what might have been a sob, but was resolutely forced back.

The sun began to fall behind the trees before Homer rose.  As he did
so, he cast a look at the rock upon which he had been resting; there,
caught in a crevice, lay an old-fashioned bullet.  He picked it up and
looked at it lying in his palm.  One could scarcely imagine it speeding
through the air upon a hurtful mission.  It had wandered on to find a
victim, until, its impetus spent, it had fallen ingloriously to lie
upon this rock, mocked by the sunlight which it had been meant to
darken forever for some living creature.  Homer slipped it into his
pocket and began to make his way shoreward, leaping lightly from stone
to stone.  As he sprang to land again, he said between his teeth, "I'd
like to hear any she-cat in the crowd open her lips to my wife!"  It
will be seen his reverie had developed its subject.

Homer held his way home happily, his eyes alight, his face aglow with
his old generous spirit.  He was once more the Homer of the past.
Realizing this, he recognized the debt he owed Myron Holder, and paid
homage to that strong soul whose mute endurance of ignominy and
betrayal had shamed his own sleeping soul into life.  It is plain to us
that Myron Holder's shame was Homer Wilson's salvation.  It is an ugly
thought, but inevitable, that such instances may not be rare.  But may
not that virtue we hold "too high and good for human nature's daily
food"--may not even that be bought too dear?  What an ugly complexion
it would put upon our intolerant attitude to those fallen ones, if we
dreamed for one moment that our immaculate virtue was preserved by
their vice!  It would be hard to ask us to renounce heaven, but if
heaven for one meant hell for another, it were at least well for us not
to blow the fire.

But Homer Wilson was not thinking of any generalizations; he was simply
concerned with the debt he owed Myron Holder and how to pay it; for,
and be it told with no thought of disparaging Homer Wilson, he felt he
would bestow an inestimable benefit upon Myron Holder by making her his
wife.  He believed he would, at one blow, free her from the shackles of
shame.  He never thought of the woman-soul that strove to justify
itself by rigid adherence to those vows that had seemed so sacred,
uttered, as they were, by lips that were almost divine to the listening
heart they had betrayed.

It must be remembered that Homer was nothing but a plain countryman.
It was therefore natural that he should look upon himself somewhat in
the light of a deliverer when he considered himself in relation to
Myron; and yet, inarticulate but existent, there was a hesitancy in his
heart, not born of self-conceit or paltry self-seeking, but rooted in
the knowledge of his own weakness in time of trial.  But he put aside
all this; and as he pushed on towards Jamestown mused happily upon the
happiness that was his, for he loved Myron Holder.  Poor Homer!

        "Whoso encamps
  To take a fancied city of delight,
  Oh, what a wretch is he!"




CHAPTER XIV.

  "For thy life shall fall as a leaf, and be shed as the rain;
  And the veil of thine head shall be grief, and the crown shall be pain."


It was late autumn.  The grapes were all out, although their aroma
still filled the air, for stray bunches, super-ripened by the frost,
hung visible now upon the leafless stems where they had been concealed
by the foliage from the cutters.  The late apples were all picked, and
in the orchards were great piles of new barrels ready to be filled.

Bright green fields checkered the face of the sombre countryside with
vivid squares, showing the advance of the fall-sown wheat.  The
chestnut-burs had opened in the woods, and the hickory-nuts were strewn
thick beneath the trees.  All the boys in Jamestown had brown-stained
fingers, from the shelling of walnuts and butternuts.  The Indian corn
was being cut and bound into tent-shaped shocks, so that the fields had
the appearance of a plain, set thick with tiny wigwams.  Now and then,
along the roads, a great wagon passed, piled high with apples,
windfalls and culls going to the cider mills.  Their drivers went out
to Ezra Harmon's and loitered about in his big barn where the cider
press stood, and watched their apples poured into the wide hopper,
heard them grinding and groaning between the wheels, and saw their
juices drain out through the clean rye straw into the pails beneath.

People began to talk about the threshing of the grain, to bank up their
cellars, and to speak of the portents of a severe winter.  The leaves
were all down.  They lay a foot deep along the roads, where the maples
grew in regular avenues, and rustled, wind-blown, between the tree
trunks in the woodland.  The squirrels skimmed about in their efforts
to secure their winter hoard.  In the woods, great heaps of hickory-nut
hulls and emptied chestnut-burs, showed where, with their sharp teeth
and persistent paws, they had removed the superfluous covering before
storing away the nuts.

The horses were growing shaggy and the dogs' fur lengthening.  In
short, winter was drawing near.

In Homer Wilson's orchard all was noise, confusion, and work.  Homer
himself was packing the apples--putting in a layer of newspapers, then
carefully "laying" by hand several rows of apples, before emptying in
the pailfuls of picked fruit that were brought to him, for the bottom
of a barrel in the orchard is the top of the barrel when it is opened
by the dealers.  Next in order to Homer was Sam Warner, who was heading
the barrels, the tap-tapping of his hammer ringing clear in the frosty
air, Homer shouting out directions every now and then in a sepulchral
voice from the depths of the barrel.  There was a great gathering in
the orchard of the neighbors, for a fruit dealer had bought up all the
apples in Jamestown to send to England, and they were to be shipped by
the car-load upon a certain date.  So, following the suggestion of the
buyer (to whom time meant money), they had agreed to help each other
with the fruit.  This was not a usual custom in Jamestown; there was
too much jealousy to admit of such interchange of labor.

It was Homer Wilson's benefit this day, and both outside in the orchard
and within doors all was happy, hurrying confusion.  There was nothing
remarkable about the day or the scene; but exactly a year after this,
Homer Wilson was to act in a somewhat different scene, and after he
played his part in that his neighbors recalled this day "just a year
ago."  They said, "Who would have thought it?"

Bing White was in the Wilson orchard, and Si Warner, and other of their
cronies.  No one ever expected Bing to work; his idleness was looked
upon with tolerant indifference, a perilous indication in this
neighborhood, where to be a hard worker and a good church-goer meant
perfection, and to fail in either grace was to be utterly lost.  People
began to look at Bing White attentively now and then, and shake their
heads with ominous import, for the son and heir of the Whites was daily
becoming more elfish-looking, more evil-eyed, more mocking of speech,
more stubborn of purpose.  After racing here and there over the
orchard, he climbed (not without scratched hands and torn clothes) into
the heart of a juniper tree that grew in the corner, and, hidden there,
began to make what was known among school children in Jamestown as a
"wolf-bite" upon his arm.  This he did simply by baring the arm,
putting his lips to the flesh, and sucking at it until the blood showed
in red pin-points at every pore; this was a wolf-bite.  There was a
thread of savagery running through these Jamestown children--hardly one
of them but had a mark of this kind upon his arm.  But Bing White's
meagre arms looked hideously repulsive--like raw flesh almost--so
completely was the skin disfigured by his vampire-like amusement.  The
fading marks were of an ugly unhealthy color, like a livid bruise, the
fresh ones fierily encarnadined and inflamed; for Bing pursued this
pastime to a perilous pitch.

Another custom indulged in every now and then by the boys and girls in
Jamestown was the making of "fox-bites," which meant simply the rubbing
with a moistened finger of a spot upon the back of the hand until the
skin was worn away and a spot of red flesh left; this was a
fox-bite--no cut, burn, or bruise took so long to heal, and in the
little schoolhouse there were always some of those hungry-looking
sores, attesting the perseverance and fortitude of the sufferers.
Rather grewsome pastimes these seem--sprung perhaps from some Indian
custom, witnessed by some early settler, described by him to his
breathless circle of little ones, by them to be practised in their play
and perpetuated in the mysterious manner that makes a meaningless
mummery survive as a sacred rite.

Myron Holder's grandmother had been failing during the entire summer.
She sank rapidly as the autumn advanced, her strength ebbing as the
days shortened.  Myron went no more to Mrs. Deans', but stayed at home
to wait upon her grandmother.  The old woman was a querulous invalid,
with no specific disease, only a gradual decline of her vitality.
Myron waited upon her untiringly, giving her every possible comfort she
could devise out of their scanty means and her scantier knowledge.
Bitter as her grandmother's tongue had been, harsh as had been her
rule, Myron yet shrunk with a sick feeling of defenselessness from the
hour when that tongue would be forever silenced, from the moment when,
that rule ceasing, she would be left rudderless.

In these days of autumn quietude, little My grew dearer and dearer to
his mother; she caught him to her in the pauses of her work, to kiss
him for a moment.

          "O soft knees clinging,
  O tender treadings of soft feet,
  Cheeks warm with little kissings--
  O child, child, what have we made each other?"


This was the translation of her heart's mute cry above her boy.  Myron
Holder, denied the religion of those about her, given no other in its
place, founded for herself a new sect, and created for herself a god,
and the god was this yellow-haired child, and the worship she accorded
him was expressed in every tender tendance of her loving hand.  He
chattered away to her ceaselessly when he was awake, and the echo of
his uncertain tones mingling with her grandmother's bitter words robbed
them of their sting.

Mrs. Holder sank daily.  Her tongue was silent now, save for murmurs of
discontent or chiding, for her strength did not permit of much speech;
but her eyes shone balefully as they followed Myron's figure about the
room; and sometimes, when Myron bent over her, their depths were
lighted by malignant mirth, for her thoughts were turned to that little
plot in the graveyard where two tiny pine stakes stood now, marking a
new boundary.

The day the first snow fell, Mrs. Holder's mind, hitherto fixed solely
upon her sorrows and Myron's shame, began to wander.  She too, like her
dead son, began to speak of England, but not so sweetly as he.  Old
bits of village scandal, flashes of old spites against this one or
that, the expression of old dislikes, broke from her lips with painful
force, together with reflections upon household affairs and daily
needs, which told that she was in spirit back amid the old manners and
the old people.

One day Myron watched her fall asleep, and then crept out to the
kitchen to steal a look at the boy, who was also sleeping.  She
returned in an instant, but in that time a change had come to her
grandmother's bewildered brain.  She was awake again, and her eyes met
Myron's with cruel scorn, as she paused involuntarily upon the
threshold of the bedroom; it was an expression that spoke not only of
dislike, but loathing, fury, hatred.  Myron would have approached to
replace the coverlets that were falling from the couch, but her
grandmother grew furious if she advanced a step.

"Out of my sight, Myron Kind!" she cried.  "Out wi' ye!  What?  Ye'll
follow my son within his own doors, to win him?  Out, you!
Go--ou--out----"

Myron retreated, seeing her grandmother was confusing her with the
memory of her mother.  Thrice she tried to enter, and thrice withdrew
before the rage that seemed to shake the sick woman's frail form so
cruelly.  Then, feeling she must have aid, Myron hurried to the street,
and going to the nearest house, which happened to be Mrs. Warner's,
knocked at the door.

"Will you come over?" she said, when Mrs. Warner answered her knock.
"Grandmother's out of her head; she thinks I'm my mother, and won't let
me go near her."

"Poor old woman!" said Mrs. Warner, catching at a clean white apron.
"Poor old woman!  You've made her life a burding to her between you,
I'll be bound."

In a few moments they were in the cottage again, and Mrs. Warner
installed herself in the sickroom, somewhat disconcerted because Mrs.
Holder persisted in calling her "Bet," but delighted that circumstances
had brought her to the front at such a time, for Mrs. Warner was one of
the matrons of the village who, not yet attained to the elect, like
Mrs. Deans, Mrs. White and Mrs. Wilson, was yet far in advance of the
young wives in experience, and thought herself quite capable of
sustaining any responsibility.

To be present and assisting at the coming of a life or the passing of a
soul was the highest excitement and most precious pleasure these women
knew; but this was a height to be attained only after many years of
wifehood.  And what novitiate of suffering experience--years,
knowledge--might fitly prepare for these mysteries!  The taking up and
laying down of the burden, the beginning and the ending of the
spinning--for, from our first moments, our hands are bound to the loom;
we must weave our own webs, but Fate doles out the thread and
Circumstance dyes the fabric, not as we will, but as Destiny designs,
and Death spares no pattern, however lovely, but stops the shuttle when
our reel of thread is spun.

By what holy purification, by what fastings, by what soul-searchings
may we prepare to enter Nature's holy of holies?  Surely, ere entering
the meanest hut of clay and wattles wherein life springs or withers, we
should put the shoes from off our feet.

But of all this Mrs. Warner recked nothing.  It was not the spirit she
was interested in, but the body it was casting off; the gasping lips,
and not the vital breath that already almost eluded them.

Mrs. Holder sank rapidly.  The women began to gather in; Mrs. Warner
maintained her place as chiefest in the synagogue, and put aside, with
judicial firmness, all hands but her own.  Most of the women
congregated in the kitchen, where they eyed the scanty furniture and
whispered of Myron's hard-heartedness, for she did not weep.  She was
feeling bitterly her impending loneliness and isolation, for deep down
in her heart there yet lived that marvellous tenderness for kith and
kin that takes so much to kill.  Of a verity, "blood is thicker than
water."  The woman dying so fast in that inner room was her
grandmother, the woman who had borne for her father what she had borne
for My.  She clasped My in her arms and hid her face in his curls.
Mrs. Holder's voice came fitfully through the half-closed door to the
women outside.  Mrs. Warner came to the door just as Mrs. Deans entered
the kitchen, hurrying in from the outer air, and bringing a new
excitement with her to intensify the suspense.  Mrs. Warner beckoned
and whispered:

"She's speaking of hearing music and singing, now; they mostly don't
last long after that."

"They," not "we"!  Oh, strange race of dying people, that are set apart
from all men by death's approach, that we never identify with
ourselves!  Oh, weird world to which they go, which doubtless we shall
never enter!  Oh, dreary passage they must tread, upon whose threshold
we shall never stand!  Oh, awful pang of severance they must endure,
which we will never have to bear--and yet

  "Fear not then, Spirit, Death's disrobing hand;
  'Tis but the voyage of a darksome hour;
  The transient gulf--dream of a startling sleep!"


Mrs. Deans and Mrs. Warner entered the room.  Mrs. Deans' experienced
eye told her how nearly time was ended for the dying woman.  She turned
to the kitchen.

"You better come in, Myron," she said.

Myron, with her child in her arms, entered, fearful yet of her
grandmother denying her; but the old woman's eyes held no knowledge of
her presence now.  They wandered from one to the other of the throng of
women impartially, and then as they fastened upon the child and
lightened, as eyes might do which behold long-lost ones once dear, she
held out wavering arms to the child.

"Jed, my own little lad," she said.

Myron went swiftly forward and laid My by her grandmother's side.  He
nestled to her lovingly, and she muttered tender words to him, calling
him "Jed" and caressing him with fluttering fingers.  He clasped his
warm arms about hers, in which the blood was already chilling, and
smilingly fell asleep, and a little later sleep came to her also.

It was the night after her grandmother's death, and Myron Holder, with
a sinking heart, had watched the form of the last visitor pass out of
the gate.  The early dusk of winter enveloped the house and promised a
long, dreary night--a night of terror she was to endure alone, for the
Jamestown women had gone each to her own house and left her with her
dead and her child.  Her imagination, stored with transmitted
superstitions, peopled each familiar corner with horrors.  She saw in
every flickering light a death fire, in every shadow a shroud; each
breath of wind spoke of ghostly visitants, each sound seemed to herald
a light.  She lit the lamp in the kitchen, and proceeded to undress My
and put him in his cradle for the night, pausing to listen between each
movement.

She had been anticipating and fearing this ordeal for days; now that it
had come upon her, she sickened at heart.

The definite darkness of night set in, and the child slept.  She began
to hear soft stirrings succeeded by shuddering silences.  Beset by a
thousand fears, she pursued the worst possible plan: she constrained
herself to absolute inaction, and sat--her hands clasped in her lap--an
image of fear.  The silence about her gradually gave way to a babel of
weird voices, through which there suddenly sounded the muffled
pat-patting of light footsteps.  As she became conscious of this
definite sound, all the imaginary murmurs died, and she found herself
in deep silence, broken only by the muffled repetition of the soft
sound that chilled her heart.  This noise, which she recognized as
actually existent, stood out against the background of those imaginary
fears with frightful distinctness.  All the time of fear which had
passed seemed now to have been but an interval of listening for what
had come.

At this moment, the flame of the little lamp which had been for some
time burning palely suddenly flared up--once--twice; grew for an
instant bluish, then went out, leaving her, in the acme of her terror,
in darkness.  She closed her eyes and listened to the soft
sounds--coming now at intervals only, but linked each to each by fear
of the last and anticipation of the next, forming a chain that bound
her in the Place of Fear.  But at last silence fell again, a silence
most horrible.  She felt impelled to open her eyes, and did so, gazing
with wide lids straight into the gloom; there was nothing there.  For a
moment her heart was reassured: then came the thought of that open door
behind her; slowly she turned her head.  Does any one live who has not,
at one time or other, recognized that it may require, under certain
circumstances, the supremest effort of will to look behind one?

That effort Myron Holder made, but sustained the gaze but a moment;
for, gleaming from the death chamber, nay, from the very couch of
death, shone two balls of livid light.  With a moan of extreme terror,
Myron slid from her chair and, catching at the boy's cradle, fell
helpless to the floor.

Homer Wilson did not stand long knocking at the cottage door: his heart
misgave him when he saw there was no light.  Homer had returned from
town late that night; his mother had told him of Mrs. Holder's death.
She said no word of Myron, and Homer forebore to question.  As he
passed his father's and mother's room that night, he heard his mother
close the shutters and say:

"It's a mighty spooky night.  I wouldn't like to be in Myron Holder's
shoes, a-settin' death-watch all alone over a woman I had worried into
her grave."

Homer's heart stood still.  Could it be possible those women had left
Myron alone?  Surely not!  When it was customary for five or six to go
and stay over night in the house where death was?  Surely not!  And
yet--"The hags!" said Homer to himself, and went down stairs.

He was soon on the road, with a lantern.  He recalled the death of his
sister, and remembered how the neighbor women had sat whispering
together in the brilliantly lighted kitchen, brewing tea for
themselves, and now and then stealing on tip-toe to look in upon the
silent one.

Arriving at the gate, the darkness of the cottage gave color to all his
vague fears of ill to Myron.  As he crossed the little garden, slinking
cats, drawn by their ghoulish instincts to the house of death, fled
before the light, but pausing as he passed, followed to the threshold,
their breath white in the frosty air, their phosphorescent eyes
gleaming in the dark.

When he saw Myron, lying prostrate and silent, his first sensation was
one of relief.  He had feared that she had fled into the desolate
night; he realized that she had been frightened and had fainted.
Raising her in his arms, he called her name softly.  Her senses were
already reasserting themselves.  She soon stirred, looking up at him
with eyes of blank terror, which faded slowly into wonderment as she
recognized him.  She held her hands up to him, and pressed closer to
the shelter of his breast.  He caught both her hands in one of his, and
groped for a chair with the other.  In turning, his eyes caught a
vision of the open door of the death chamber.  He saw dimly the couch,
with its rigid burden, and saw those dreadful glaring eyes.  For a
moment, he caught his breath.  Myron, seeing the direction of his gaze,
clung shudderingly to him, and hid her face on his arm.  An instant
more, and Homer perceived the outline behind those gleaming spots.

"It's a brute of a cat," he said; and Myron, understanding all at once
the origin of the sound, broke down in sobs of relief.  She caught up
the lantern, whilst he went in and seized the bristling creature,
crouching upon the corpse, and flung it out among its lurking
companions.

"How is it you are in the dark?" asked Homer.

"The lamp went out," she answered.  "There's some oil in the cupboard."

He held the lantern, whilst she filled and re-lit the lamp.  Then he
explained his presence.

"How good you are!" said Myron.

"Good?" he said, his eyes fastening upon her forlorn figure bending
over the cradle, for My was stirring.

"Good?"  Then he burst forth, "What beasts these women are to leave you
alone!"

"It was dreadful," she said, trembling.  "The darkness, the noises, the
loneliness--those eyes, and _her_!" looking towards the inner room.
Then suddenly she caught his sleeve: "Don't leave me till daylight,
will you?  Oh, don't!  I can't stay alone; I am frightened!  I--oh,
don't leave me, will you?"

"Leave you?  Of course not.  I wish----," he checked himself abruptly.
It was on his tongue to say, "I wish I might never leave you," but a
sense of her absolute isolation smote him so keenly that the words
stuck in his throat.  Had he spoken then, how many things might have
been different, for Myron, in her utter loneliness, was ready to cling
to any outstretched hand.

"I'm going to make you some tea," he said.

Going to the bedroom door, he closed it, took his lantern out to the
little "lean-to" woodshed, and split up some bits of lightwood; with
these he roused the dying fire to life.  With much precision, he put on
the kettle, and when it boiled asked in a matter-of-fact way for the
tea.

Myron rose, with My half awake in her arms, and went to the
pantry-shelf to get it.  It was chill there; she wrapped her apron
about My's bare toes.  He soon went to sleep again, and Myron Holder
and Homer Wilson sat down together to drink the tea.  Her eyes rested
upon him, as if well content, and he noted this with delight.  The
truth was they dared not yet stray elsewhere, lest the spectres he had
banished might jibber at her from the dusky corners of the room.

Love is served on strange altars, and the sacrifice of a heart was
again proffered in that lonely cottage, whose atmosphere was chill with
the dreadful influence of death, whose silence was broken by the soft
breathing of a child of shame.  Homer looked upon the woman of his
heart and loved her.  When the first breaking of the skies ushered in
the dawn, he left.

The women returned early, for it was considered an honorable thing to
have the ordering of a funeral--to be able to speak _ex cathedra_ of
the mode of procedure.

Mr. Muir came.  The last ghastly toilet for the grave was made.
Nothing remained but to wait for the morrow, when the funeral was to be.

The women looked at her curiously when they came that morning, and Mrs.
Warner expressed the sentiment of the rest when she said: "That Myron
Holder is bad clean through.  Any other woman would have been drove
crazy last night; but look at her!  She's a hardened one!"  Mrs. Warner
did not consider that this speech cast any reflection upon herself and
her friends who had subjected a woman to an ordeal calculated to drive
her crazy.

Night sank slowly down; and once more the women, departing, cast
wondering glances at Myron's pale face, steadfast in the knowledge that
she would have some one near her to chase those horrid visions away.

When Homer arrived, she was sitting beside her sleeping child, sewing
upon an old black skirt of her grandmother's that some of the women,
with an eye to funeral effects, had pinned up to suit her shorter
stature, and bade her sew, that she might be properly clothed on the
morrow.  The work was nearly done, and the needle hung loosely between
her listless fingers.  Her eyes ached for lack of sleep; every joint
trembled from fatigue; every nerve tingled from overstrain.

She greeted Homer more by a gesture than by speech, and perceiving her
exhaustion, he insisted upon her resting.  She made some demur, but he
overruled it with a word.  She rose a little unsteadily, and bent over
My.

"Where do you want him taken?" asked Homer, and lifted him in his arms.

She led the way to the little bedroom off the kitchen, opposite to the
one in which in which her grandmother lay.

Homer laid My down upon the blue and white checked counterpane--spun in
England by Myron's mother.

"Good-night!" he said.  "Good-night, Myron!"

"Good-night!" she answered in almost a whisper, for she was
inexpressibly weary.  Almost before he had reached the next room, she
had sunk down upon her bed.

It was broad daylight when Myron awoke and rose, chilled and stiff.
Utter weariness had overcome the discomfort of her cramped position;
she had slept as she had first thrown herself down; she shivered, as
one does who has slept in his clothes.  The morning air was cold, and
the window-panes glistened with frost.

Hurrying out to the kitchen, she found Homer had done what he could for
her comfort before leaving.  The stove held a glowing mass of hardwood
embers; evidently the fire had been well banked up before he stole away
at dawn.  The kettle stood singing on the stove; the table was drawn up
by the fire, and awkwardly set out with dishes for her solitary
breakfast.

* * * * * *

The hour of the funeral was at hand.

Mr. Muir, determined to have nothing to blame himself for in regard to
his bargain, had come dressed in his official broadcloth.  His horses
stood outside the gate in all the panoply of sable plumes and black
fly-netting, the latter surely superfluous, but ornamental.  These
horses looked as if they had never appeared before a less stately
equipage than a hearse, yet every one had seen them pass that very
morning dragging an unpainted lumber-wagon.  They looked as if they had
never known a baser burden than "stained cherry with mahogany finish,
plated handles and bevelled glass," yet an unplaned pine box had
constituted their load that morning; and as they passed, each on-looker
had said, to the other, "There goes old Mrs. Holder's shell."

"Who's Myron Holder goin' with?" said Gamaliel Deans to his mother, as
they drove along to the village the day of Mrs. Holder's funeral.

"I don't know," answered his mother.  "Mrs. Warner's took a mighty lot
to do with everything, so like's not she'll take her."

"Seems to me Mrs. Warner's been putting herself forward some,"
suggested Gamaliel, diplomatically.

"Indeed she has," agreed Mrs. Deans; "enough sight more'n she's got any
call for--considerin' all things."

They passed the little graveyard, silent beneath the light snow.

"Is there any track?" asked Mrs. Deans, looking across the white
expanse, with her hands shielding her rheumy eyes.

"Yes," said Gamaliel, "the shell was took out this morning; you can see
it from here."  He gazed interestedly across to where the corner of an
unpainted pine box showed as the terminus of an ugly black track which
the wheels of Mr. Muir's wagon had scarred upon the snow.

They drove on without further speech.  The first snow had fallen in the
night.  It lay now white and untrodden, over field and lane, over bush
and tree, over house and barn.  The air seemed spaced in vistas of
cloudy whiteness, a purity which suffused itself in the atmosphere, and
seemed to fill it with particles of impalpable white dust that the
motionless air held in suspension.  The trees glistened in the sun,
whose rays were silver instead of gold.  All the world was rimed with
hoar frost--nature presented, in beautiful parable, the story of the
iron hand in the velvet glove; for, despite the whiteness, the
softness, and the silvery sun, it was intensely cold.

Presently through this white world there wended the gloomy little
funeral, the more gloomy for the lack of any real grief.  They reached
the graveyard, where gaped an ugly brown gash, beside which the earth
lay in frozen clods.

Mr. Frew's brief prayer was ended, and he departed, stamping his feet.
There was the bustle as the coffin was lowered; then, one by one, the
onlookers straggled away; one by one the vehicles departed, until Myron
Holder was left alone by the grave--yet not wholly so, for My shivered
in her arms, and old Clem Humphries was hastily pushing the earth atop
the coffin.  And presently Myron became aware that there was another
patient one also, for Homer Wilson came to her side, carrying a buffalo
robe in his arms.  He laid it down on the frozen ground, and, taking
her arm, drew her gently towards it.  She looked mute thanks to him
from eyes round which the slow tears lingered, rimming them with grief.
He came nearer and held out his arms to My, but the child cowered
closer to his mother, and looked at Homer from the vantage of her
shoulder.

The little group embodied all the stages in life's progression.  There
was the child, cowering in a world already cold to him.  There was the
woman, bearing in her countenance the ineffaceable traces of woman's
agony.  There was the young man, strong in the choice of will and
heart; the old man, drawing the last coverlet over the last sleep; and,
severed from these by only a short depth of kindred substance, she who
had passed, her bed rapidly rounding to a grave.

At last, Clem began patting the mound with the back of his spade; his
work was nearly done.  Each echoless blow struck upon Myron's heart;
and, thinking of the shame she had wrought the dead woman, she dealt
herself those blows that she had been accustomed to endure from her
grandmother's bitterness.

Homer broke the silence, which seemed deepened instead of lightened by
the thud-thud of the spade.

"Come, Myron," he said; "you better go home."

"Yes," she answered, heavily, "I may as well;" and she turned to the
footpath that led across the graveyard to the road.

"Not that way," said Homer; "the horses are here."

"The horses!" she said; "the horses!  Is your mother waitin' for me?"

"No," he answered, a little grimly.  "No, she isn't; but I am, and the
horses are."

He recalled the stormy little scene his mother had made but a little
while ago: her contemptuous words when he asked her to wait; the
scornful and bitter accusation she had flung at him; it had leaped
forth from her lips like an arrow held long at the bowstring.  It was
barbed with all the poison of accumulated suspicion, and winged by the
impulse of unreasoning anger, such as springs within mean breasts
against hands that succor them; but it had reacted swiftly upon
herself, for at the words something came into her son's eyes not good
to see--a blending of surprise, indignation, denial, that paled his
face, and made it implacable.  Before it Mrs. Wilson faltered in her
tirade, wavered in her steps, and finally turned and, crossing quickly
to where Gamaliel was waiting for his mother, was soon seated with Mrs.
Deans in the back seat.  Gamaliel backed his horses slowly out of the
throng, and they drove away.

The incident had not been unnoticed, but no comment had been made,
although meaning looks, of which Homer now knew the interpretation,
were exchanged.  He had seen some such looks pass between his neighbors
of late.  A hot, impotent rage filled his heart against the false
position in which he was placed, but it did not alter his determination.

"Are you waiting for anything, Homer?" Mr. Warner could not refrain
from calling out before starting.

"Yes.  What of it?" said Homer, turning round sharply.  His brows were
knit, his lips firm; an interrogation, not defiant, but direct, was
expressed in every line of face and figure.  "Yes," he said again, and
unmistakable interrogation this time made the answer a question.

Mr. Warner shook the reins hastily over his horses.

"Oh, nothing--nothing," he said, "I was only wondering."

Homer turned away abruptly.  "Better keep his wonderment to himself,"
he muttered, with a frown.  "They better all keep their amazement to
themselves or----" his hand clinched in a very suggestive fashion.
Then he had gone for the buffalo robe for Myron to stand on, and as he
gazed at her forlorn figure his anger changed to deep and abiding pity,
to stern and righteous wrath.  So Homer drove Myron home to the empty
cottage, with Clem Humphries sitting in the bottom of the wagon, with
his feet dangling over the tailboard, a quid of tobacco in his mouth,
peace within his bosom.  Clem was, as he expressed it, "a dollar to the
good," and he was meditating unctuously upon the quantity of good
Canadian Rye he could buy with the money, and speculating where he
could beg, borrow, or (be it admitted) steal a jug.  He had no mind to
pay for one out of the dollar.

Mr. Prew, the minister, passed.  He regarded Homer and Myron with
incredulous horror, and returned Homer's somewhat brusque greeting in a
very scandalized way.  Clem took off his hat with a labored flourish;
Mr. Prew returned his salute with condescending affability, and drove
on to Mrs. Deans', where, presently, over hot soda-biscuits, doughnuts,
and other good things, he praised Clem as "an humble, but very worthy
old man."

"Humbugging old hypocrite!" ejaculated the "worthy old man," as soon as
his pastor was out of hearing.  "Miserable, designing old cuss he is.
I'd like to use him for bait!"  Then this humble follower relapsed into
his reverie upon the _modus operandi_ of getting a jug.

No other words were uttered during the ride.  Homer and Myron were both
silent; both knew that Homer had flung down the gauntlet to the
gossips; both realized the import of the step; both pondered upon its
significance from the village point of view.

Clem jumped off nimbly when they were opposite Mr. Muir's verdant
veranda.

"You are not angry with me, Myron?" asked Homer.

"Oh, no," she cried; "you are so good to me."

"I'm good to you for my own sake," he answered.  "Don't you see that?
Don't you suppose I am looking out for my own happiness?"  He paused.
"Don't you think I am?" he resumed, an insistent note in his voice.

They were near the cottage, but she felt obliged to answer.

"But, Homer," she said, "I have no happiness to give anyone!  What
return can I make for this sacrifice?"

They were opposite the cottage.  Clustered heads in the window of the
Warner house showed how their return had been waited for; Homer
discerned the white muslin rose in his mother's black bonnet, and if
the sight made his face hard, it softened the touch of his hands as he
lifted Myron down from the high seat, and then put the boy in her arms.

The little gate stood leaning against the fence.  It had been lifted
off its hinges, to leave free room for the coffin and its bearers to
pass.  Myron paused between the gate-posts; Homer bent above her.

"I will tell you some day," he said, "what you can give me."

[Illustration: "I WILL TELL YOU SOME DAY WHAT YOU CAN GIVE ME."]

"Good-by," she said; and, turning, passed down the desolate garden,
feeling remorseful that she had left him unthanked.

Homer, now that the tenderness evoked by her presence was left
unsustained, felt a spiteful defiance waken in his heart.  He walked
slowly to his horses' heads, pretending to adjust the harness; then,
after inspecting them with critical deliberateness, drove slowly past
the curious eyes at the window.

"Might as well give them the full benefit of the sight," he said to
himself; "it seems to strike them as interesting."

All day long, as he swung his axe in the woodland, he mused upon Myron
as he had seen her last, with pure, uplifted brow and chin, as she said
good-by.

He returned at night, calm, and braced, as he thought, to receive a
storm of reproaches.  He found a table "coldly furnished forth" for his
supper; the kitchen was deserted, and from his mother's room came the
hum of voices.

Mrs. Wilson expected to crush her son utterly by this isolation, but it
was a treatment he could endure much longer than she could suffer to
inflict it, for to women of her type the expression of anger in words
is essential; any repression of speech is a physical pang.  It was
well, though, for this one night that it should be so, for Homer's calm
was but as the brittle crust that forms on seething lava, that neither
controls nor cools it; that melts at a touch, and offers no restraint
to the force beneath.  Too hot an anger yet filled his heart to admit
of peaceful argument; his hand was too ready to clinch yet when he
thought of Warner's tentative question.  He ate his supper, smoked a
peaceful pipe, and soon slept, dreaming, even as he had done all day,
of the calm sweetness of those patient eyes.

Myron was having her first of solitude, passing it in brief watches of
wakefulness and shorter spaces of sleep.

And in the lonely little graveyard a new-made mound was slowly
whitening under the falling snow.




CHAPTER XV.

  "This above all--to thine own self be true;
  And it must follow, as the night the day,
  Thou canst not then be false to any man."

  "Though Allah and Earth pardon Sin, remaineth forever Remorse."


Winter lay white over the land--a bitter winter.  The road, beaten to a
glassy whiteness, glistened between unbroken plains of dull, lustreless
white, for the fences were hidden by the heaviest snowfall ever known
in Jamestown.  The cold was intense; for twenty days the icicles had
hung unmelted in the sun.  The crows, tamed by hunger, flapped their
sluggish wings over the barnyards.  Here and there in the fields a
black blotch showed where one of them had fallen, half-starved,
half-frozen.

The foxes, grown bold amid the silence, came to pillage the henroosts
in broad daylight.  The rabbits, traced by their uneven tracks in the
snow, were easy game; numbed by the cold, they were quickly overtaken.
The sparrows clustered close together in the barns, winning their way
in at every cranny.

The last year of Jed Holder's life, he had one day run into the
cottage, excitedly calling to Myron and his mother to "Come out and see
the sparrow--a real little English sparrow, a regular old-fashioned
little spadger."  Tears ran over his thin, browned face as he watched
it upon the sharp ridge of the cottage roof.  He could not cut his wood
that day for listening to the familiar fluttering of its wings as it
flitted hither and thither in the cottage garden, pushing its way
inquisitively into the thickest branches of the privet bushes and
bustling out indignantly when it found nothing there worthy of its
impertinent scrutiny.

It eyed Jed with much friendliness.  Two English exiles indeed these
were--banished from the red-tiled cottages, the hop orchards, the old
meadows, the sunken lanes, the hawthorns, the hollies; but in a few
days there came another fluttering sparrow, and resemblance ceased
between Jed and the important, bustling bird, busy now in building the
nest.  Ere the summer was gone there was a chattering little flight of
them to swoop down among the placid hens and snatch the grain from
their very mouths.

Now these birds were regarded by the farmers as a pest, and an
overzealous government offered a bounty for their little feathered
heads.  Clem Humphries proved himself a valiant hunter of this puny
prey.  He boiled barley and then drew a stiff bristle through each
grain.  The sparrows ate and died, and Clem drank their blood-money.

But they still flourished.  The cats waged war against them, and many a
palpitant little breast was torn by their pointed teeth.  The old
Maltese cat at Deans' had perpetually a downy feather sticking to his
cruel mouth, and his strong paws were ever stained with red.  An ugly
brute he was: half of one ear was gone; from the other, hung a tiny
blue wool tassel fastened through a hole like an earring; his nose was
always scarred and torn, and of his tail only an inch or two survived
the teeth of the dogs with which he had waged war.

He lay in wait for the sparrows by the hour at the doorstep of the
henhouse, and with depressed back and evil eye stole between the fowls
as they pecked at the grain; then came a pounce, the hens flounced
about hysterically, and the cat, with his captive, came out to sit in
the woodshed and devour it at his leisure.  The first time he caught a
bird, he had tried to torment it after the tender manner of his kind;
but at the first toss with his paws the terrified bird had soared far
beyond his most vaulting ambition.  But, alas, evil minds learn wisdom
soon.  It was long since then, and now he always gave them short shrift.

It was a bitter winter.  The horses and cows were covered with
exceptionally long hair, and the dogs were shaggy as bears.  The hens
straggled about with bleeding, frozen combs; the yellow feet of the
ducks were white from frostbites; the turkeys' wings drooped
dejectedly, and many died; the geese were disconsolate, their white
plumage soiled and unsightly, for there was no water for them to bathe
in.

The snowbirds twittered cheerily for a short space at noontide, but
vanished as the day waned.  Only where any crumbs or grain might be
likely to fall, their tiny footprints were woven in delicate tracery on
the snow.

The gulls flew over the village, until, their wings wearied, they
turned them again to the lake, to rest upon a cake of ice.  A long rest
it proved to many, for their feet froze to the ice, and they uttered
their hoarse cries as they strove in vain to rise.

It was a bitter winter.  Every pond in Jamestown was frozen solid to
the bottom.  All day long there were slow processions of cattle passing
to and from the lake.

The pumps were all frozen, and a great boiler stood on every kitchen
stove, melting snow for household uses.  The rats swarmed in the houses
and the barns.  Each person had tales to tell of frozen noses,
frostbitten ears, numbed fingers, aching feet.  Mrs. Wilson brewed
"yarbs" and drank them all day long.  Henry Deans grew stiffer and
stiffer, and seemed shrunk to a mere shell.  Bing White had already
killed enough sparrows to buy him a pair of skates.

But in the midst of all the winter's white desolation, there glowed the
hearth fires of home.  Used to the cold, these hardy farmer folk defied
it; and if they might not brave its blasts, stayed warm and close
indoors.

There were tea-meetings and socials, temperance meetings and the
half-yearly revivals, shooting matches with poultry as the prize, and
raffles for turkeys.  Then there was the threshing to be done, and the
pig-killing, and next summer's fuel to cut in the woods.

The women sewed carpet-rags, patched quilts, and knitted mittens and
heavy socks of homemade yarn.  It was a terrible winter, and it was
going hard with Myron Holder.

She had to endure all the rigors of the cold, all the solitude of
shame, all the privations of poverty, all the terrors of night's
loneliness, all the anxieties of motherhood, all the regrets of
remorse, all the hopelessness of dead Hope, all the apprehensions of
want: this in a solitary cottage, creaking at every blast, shivering in
every wind, swaying in every storm.

Think of it, you holy women, who fare delicately, sleeping on soft
couches, guarded and consoled, caressed and kept from all evil!  For
you are like Myron Holder in one thing: Not in suffering, nor shame,
nor sorrow; not perhaps in humbleness of heart, nor meekness of spirit,
nor in courage, in patience, in faithfulness, nor in hopelessness; not
in poverty, nor in endurance; but with her you share, despite
yourselves, a common womanhood.  Remember that!

Remember also she bore upon her brow the marks of motherhood's crown of
thorns.  Remember who with tears washed Jesus' feet, and do not forget
to whom, we are told, He said, "Neither do I condemn thee."

Homer Wilson, in defiance of his mother, public opinion, and Myron's
own objections, had taken her ample wood for the winter.  Old Mr.
Carroll had given her a supply of flour and a ham, and hired her to
clean up his house and whitewash his kitchen walls against the New Year.

She milked Mrs. Warner's cows at night and morn, receiving for this
service a small can of milk daily.  This was for My.  No drop softened
the harsh mullein tea she drank herself.  Her life was inexpressibly
desolate.  The wind whistling over the cottage brought her the
loneliness of the lost.  Sometimes for days she saw no one to speak to,
and, worse than all, she began to lack the necessaries of life.  Flour
means much, so does a ham; but for a woman and a young child more is
needed.  My began to look white, and at times his face had that
expression we called "peaked."

Seeing this, Myron took a resolution.  It cost her much, for her
grandmother had often spoken of the disgrace of "going on the parish,"
as she put it; but the sight of My's face was too much for his mother,
and she resolved to apply to the council for township aid.

It was a bitter day's cold when she came to this resolution.  Pile the
wood as high as she might in the stove, she could not banish the rime
from the windows.  The latch of the door stuck to her fingers every
time she opened it.  A tiny slanting rift of snow lay in the little
bedroom, where it had crept in through the badly jointed windows.

It was Saturday.  On Saturday nights the youths of Jamestown went
courting.  As twilight deepened into night, she heard the frequent
jingle of sleigh-bells.  They tingled through her heart and awakened a
new loneliness in her breast.  She sat always in the dark now, for oil
cost money.  She had but a lampful in the house, and that must be kept
in case of emergency.  The light from the hearth of the wood fire shot
forth dusky little flashes into the darkness of the room.  These feeble
shafts were not strong enough to banish the hosts of shadows, but they
so far prevailed as to leave them lurking in the corners of the room
only.  But there they held silent carnival--mocking at the lonely woman
sitting silent within the wavering circle of the feeble light,
stretching out impalpable arms to embrace her, extending icy fingers to
touch her, waving their draperies over her head, and always biding
their time, until weariness should drive her to her bed; then they
sallied forth in their strength, and danced and gestured about her
until sleep closed her eyes to fears.

My slept upon her knees.  The sound of the latest sleigh-bells dying
away left the silence seeming still more profound, as a momentary light
intensifies the succeeding darkness.  She heard footsteps crunching on
the snow; then a knock.

"Come in," she said.

Despite herself, she felt a momentary hope flicker in her heart.

The door opened and, entering, Homer said:

"It's me, Myron; Homer Wilson."

So faint had been her hope that she scarce felt a sting in
relinquishing it.

"Yes," she said.  "Wait until I light the lamp."

She did so, and Homer came forward into the light, his broad shoulders
seeming to fill the room as he stood, clad in a rough frieze coat that
enveloped him from shoulder to heel.  He took it off silently, laid it
over the chair she had placed for him, and, going at once to her side,
put his hands upon her shoulders.

"Well, Myron," he said, "do you remember asking what you could do to
repay me for what I had done?"

"Yes," she said, knowing that her time of trial had come.

"Then," he said, bending over her, his face flushing, his tones
vibrant, "I can tell you in a moment."  He paused, to steady his voice.
"Will you marry me, Myron?"

There was a moment of breathless suspense--an instant of absolute
silence.

"No," she said, firmly enough; but her hands closed tremblingly upon
his sleeve.

"Myron!" he ejaculated.  "Myron!  You do not mean it!  Why--I love you,
Myron!" he broke forth, with passion; "I will have you!  Do you think I
would be bad to you?  Do you think I would be unkind to the boy?  I
can't stand to see you live like this!"  He glanced at the bare room,
which suddenly seemed to show all its gaunt corners, all its angles,
all the scantiness of its meagre comforts.  It was the very skeleton of
a home.

"Myron!"  He stopped--she was looking at him with words upon her lips.

"Listen," she said.  "Do not be angry with me, but tell me one thing:
Would you ask Suse Weaver to marry you, or Jenny Church, or Eliza
Disney?"

"Why, Myron, they're married already," said he, in a maze.

"So am I," said Myron, throwing back her head so that her eyes met his,
whilst the color flooded her face, giving it a dangerous and triumphant
charm.  "So am I.  When he bade me be silent, he bade me be true.  He
swore that he would be.  He explained to me how little the saying of
marriage vows meant.  He said it was the keeping of them that made the
marriage.  I have kept them.  I believed his promise under the sky,
whilst we were alone, was as true and binding as mine when I said I
would be silent and do all he wished me to; and he taught me to see
that in this twofold faith lay the real marriage, and not in words
spoken before people.  He told me the stars were truer witnesses than
men.  That heaven was nearer there, among the trees, than in the
churches; and it did seem near--so near I almost entered in.  I
believed we were married as sacredly as though Mr. Prew had married us.
Believing that, I gave myself to him.  He has been false to his
promise, but I will never be to mine.  I thought myself married then.
I will hold myself in marriage bonds until he comes--or death.  For the
rest, let him look to it!"

As she had spoken, Homer's face changed with her changing words, but
the resignation of her last words inspired no calm in him; it woke
instead a fierce resentment.  He was to lose her.  She was to continue
to suffer the old ignominy; the village was still to have its
victim--and all for a brute who had deliberately deluded and deserted
her.  Homer's next speech began with an impatient oath, but half
stifled.

"Myron," he said, his tones so determined as to be almost harsh, "have
you not realized yet how false his promises were?  How wrong his
persuasions?  How utterly false and untrue all this fine talk about the
'stars as witnesses' and 'heaven being near' was?  The stars are very
convenient witnesses for curs of his stamp, being silent in face of any
perjury.  Do you not see the pit he prepared for you?  Do you not fall,
pierced by the stakes at the bottom?  Do you not see that his promises
are all lies?  Can you not understand, then, that the rest of his
twaddle was no better?  Why will you continue to bind yourself with a
wisp of straw?  Your hands are free--give them to me!"

"I realize all--I see everything," she cried, "and feel--God! what have
I not felt?  But--oh, Homer, don't you see how it is?  I could not kiss
my child--I could not endure to see my own face as I bend over the
well, if I thought of another man.  Don't you see I would then be vile?"

"No, I don't," said Homer.  "Marry me--you and the boy will have my
name, and let me hear man or woman say one word against it!"

"I can't," she said.

"Marry me," he urged.  "Let me take care of you.  Let me show you what
a man is.  Let me give you a heart and a home.  You are lonely, you
will be lonely no more; defenseless, I will protect you; sad, I will
make you happy; shamed, I will compel them to respect you.  Myron"--he
held out his arms--"marry me!"

Myron Holder had thought of this hour ever since the day of her
grandmother's funeral.  Her thoughts had all been of his pain.  She had
never realized how it might mean almost intolerable temptation to
herself.

The contrast between the picture his words presented and her own life
was poignant.  She stayed a moment, gazing at that brighter scene, then
put it by and turned herself to the reality that she had accepted as
her bounden duty.

The sense of sacrifice with which she did this showed her how strong
was the sorcery of the thought.

"No," she said.

"Myron," said Homer, paling, "don't you understand?  I will take My as
my own.  I will give him a name in very truth.  I--for My's sake,
Myron!"

It was the supreme temptation.  In a moment Myron saw what it meant,
the materialization of her evil dream in the meadow--the stilling of
the scandal that else must attach itself forever to My; the ending of
all her own shame and solitude, or as much of it, at least, as appeared
to other's eyes.  But sorrow and shame teach subtle truths; etched
clear upon the metal of this woman's soul, burned deep upon the tablets
of her heart, their acids had graven the symbols of their teachings.
Myron had battled against many fears, and knew, with the absolute
certainty of conviction, that after the first triumph there would come
a bitter reaction.  She knew she would be forever at war with her own
conscience.  She knew that life held no prize high enough to pay for
infidelity.  There came suddenly athwart the dreary room the mirage of
another scene: A wide stretch of sky and water, blended in a far-off
blue, a mass of tossing tree-tops, a scent of fresh green ferns and
flowering grasses, a swimming sense of light, exhilaration, freedom....
Homer was speaking.  She did not hear his words; his voice was but an
obligato to other tones that struck across it.  She paid no more heed
to Homer's voice than she had done that day to the rustle of the
leaves, the whispering of the water far below....

"Trust me," a voice was saying in her ear.  "Trust me, I will never
leave you; believe me, I will never fail you.  Why do you distrust me?
You do not love me.  Do you not understand this is the real church,
more holy than any building made with hands.  Do you not understand it
is the mutual faith makes marriage, and not mere maundering words?
Don't you? ... So long as you are true to me, you are in very truth my
wife?" ... The voice ceased there, it had said enough.

The sky, the water, the tree-tops, and the fresh fragrance of the
woodland weeds passed in an instant; but they had left behind an
unfaltering resolution.

"No," she said; and so brief a time had sufficed for that retrospective
vision that Homer did not remark any delay in her reply.  Only his
heart shrank, for something in her tone bespoke the finality of her
decision.

The disappointment was cruel.  He dropped into a chair and buried his
face in his hands.  She knelt before him, and pulling his hands from
his face clasped them close against her breast.  She looked up into his
face from eyes that spoke of tears held back by bitterness.

"You understand, Homer?" she said.  "If I cannot justify myself in my
own eyes, I shall go mad.  To do so, I must indeed remain as I am.  I
must act as though I were in very truth his wife.  What does a wife do
for her husband?  Give up all?  Have not I?  Suffer?  I have suffered.
Obey him?  I have obeyed him.  Be true to him?  I have chosen him
before myself.  Trust him?  I have.  I have trusted and waited.  I will
wait to the end."

She ceased.

Homer's eyes left her face, to look about the desolate room.  The wood
fire was dying for lack of attention, and the air was growing colder.

"But how am I to make it easier for you?" he asked, at length.

"You can't make it easier for me," she said.  "'I have made my own
bed,' as grandmother often said, and must lie on it.  I went against
the world's ways, and I suppose it's only right now to expect the world
to be against me.  No one can help me but him."

"Who is he, Myron?" asked Homer; and she saw a sly, venomous look light
his eyes.

"Homer!" she said, her voice holding reproach and interrogation.

"Yes, I would," he said.  "I would kill him as readily as I would set
my heel on a snake.  _Widows_ marry!"  There was an ugly emphasis on
the word, an emphasis that held unconsciously somewhat of the derision
of a sneer.  But the sneer was turned against his own impotence.

"You are frightening me," said Myron, and the words brought him to
himself.

He rose, drawing her to her feet beside him.  "You are right, of
course, Myron," he said.  "But--this is the second time I have
loved--you remember the girl I brought to the farm one day?  Well, I
loved her.  She and I were to have been married, but I had to come back
to the farm, and she changed her mind.  Since then I have been a
fool--worse, indeed.  I have set aside everything for the sake of
money.  I was fast getting to be such another as old Haines or Jacob
Latshem--all pocket and no heart.  But I saw your courage, and it made
me think shame of myself.  You saved me--I thought to save you.  It
would seem as if I had offered you another shame.  You know how little
I care what people say of you!  Poor girl, they can't say worse than
they have done.  So, will you let me do what I can to make things
better for you?  You know I have plenty.  Will you let me be your
friend, to help you, comfort you, and to see you and talk with you, as
friend does with friend?"

"Dare you?" she asked.

"Try me," he answered.

She held out her hand.  He took it.  It trembled in his grasp.

"To think," she said, "of my having a friend!"  The smile that lit her
face transfigured it.

Homer put from him the desire that swelled within his heart to take her
in his arms, and began, to talk of her position.

"You can't go on like this," he said.

"If it was only summer," sighed Myron.

"I'll tell you what," he went on, after a moment.  "Clem Humphries and
Ann Lemon have both applied for help to the township.  They'll have to
be boarded somewhere.  Supposing I get them sent to you to board.  The
township would allow something for yourself also."  Then he added,
hastily, "Won't you let me give you enough to put you through the
winter?  Do, Myron."

"No," she said, answering his last proposition first, "but I would be
so glad if they'd let me work for Clem and Ann."

"Well, I'll see about it," said Homer.

A day or two after that, the council, of which Homer was a member, met,
and the applications of Ann Lemon and Clem Humphries were laid before
them.  Homer rose and made a formal proposition on the lines which he
had suggested to Myron.  It was carried at once.  Mr. White was the
other Jamestown member of the council, and he was much more concerned
about getting home to take his cattle to the lake to water them than
about anything else.  He made no objection, and the other members of
the council had matters relative to their own districts that they were
anxious to have considered.  The council meetings were open to every
one, and the school-house was crowded with village people.  Homer
observed the looks that passed from one to another, and could not beat
back the blood that reddened his swarthy cheeks as he put the formal
motion before the council "on behalf of one Myron Holder."

"What about the kid?  Don't it need any allowance?" a voice said in the
corner of the room, and another answered, "Oh, Homer'll attend to
that."  A roar of laughter followed.  Homer grew white enough when he
heard this, and turned a look toward the corner whence the voices had
come that made the group occupying it stir and shift about uneasily and
start fragmentary conversations among themselves, as if to disarm that
bitter look and disavow the speech that provoked it.

In this group Homer discerned Gamaliel Deans and Lou Disney, the latter
the bully of the county.  Lou and Gamaliel had been running together
all winter, and rumor spoke not very flatteringly of their errands.

The meeting dragged along wearisomely to an end, and the men thronged
out from the close, warm schoolroom, where the air was heavy with the
fumes of tobacco and reeking with the moisture evaporating from the
coats hung against the wall, for it had been snowing when the meeting
began.

Night was just beginning to fall.  It had ceased to snow, and the air
was keen with intense frost, that crackled under foot and squeaked
beneath the runners of the sleighs.

There was much stretching and talking and laughing as they went out,
and Homer, among the first, heard his own name uttered, followed by a
laugh.  Then he heard Lou Disney's voice in a disjointed sentence--

"Pretty cheeky, that!  First"--Homer lost the words here--"and then ask
the council to keep 'em."

Homer turned in an instant, flinging himself through the crowd with the
relentless impetus of fury.  He swept the throng aside regardless of
any obstacle, and seized Lou Disney's throat whilst the words still
lingered on his lips, choking in that first fierce grasp the laugh that
gurgled up to echo its own wit.

In a silence that appalled the crowd, used at such a time to much
speech and few blows, Homer tore him from the door, to which, with the
instinct of a fighter, he had put his back.  Pressing him backward
through the throng, Homer loosed him, with a curse, when fairly outside
the straggling group.

"Now," said Homer, "eat your words, Disney, this minute--every lying
syllable of them--or I'll thrash the soul out of you!"

Disney was no coward.  The words had not left Homer's lips before he
was tearing off his coat.  The next moment they rushed at each other.

The fight was so fierce, so furious, so short, that few there could
afterwards tell the story of it.  Disney was the bigger man, and quite
as clever with his hands as Homer; but the latter's arm was nerved by
every insult Myron Holder had endured.  As Disney sprang forward, he
uttered her name, coupled with an epithet that simply maddened Homer.
There was no resisting the fury of his attack....  Many hands dragged
Homer from the man he had knocked insensible and bade fair to kill, if
left alone.

He stood trembling, a great bruise darkening on his face, showing where
Disney's first savage blow, aimed at the jaw, had fallen.  Presently
Gamaliel drove Lou off in his cutter, and the throng melted away.  Clem
Humphries lifted Homer's coat and brought it to him.  The old sinner's
face glowed with excitement and gratification.

[Illustration: CLEM LIFTED HOMER'S COAT AND BROUGHT IT TO HIM.]

"You punched him well and he needed it bad," said he.  "Never seen a
man suffering for a licking more'n Lou Disney was; and he got the cure
for his complaint without asking twice, he did.  There's something," he
went on, keeping pace with Homer, as the latter began to move away,
"there's something so satisfying in seeing a man get what he wants, and
get it like that, too, and--you should have seen Male Deans' eyes,
sticking out like door-knobs, the boiled idiot!"

Clem paused in disgust, then went on again: "Why didn't you lick him,
too?  That would have been oncommon satisfactory!"

"There," said Homer hastily, "shut up, Clem!  I'm going home."
Whereupon he lengthened his stride and set forward at a pace which left
Clem far behind, to make his way towards the other end of the village,
with much complacency.  His wicked old heart was full of pleasure.  He
had danced from one foot to the other, howling out a stream of
encouragement and curses during the progress of the brief fight; had
protested vigorously against the hands that pulled Homer from Disney,
and had pushed Gamaliel Deans forward with all his might in Homer's
way, hoping to enjoy a continuance of the battle.  Failing this, he had
gone along behind Disney and Gamaliel for some distance, reviling them
as they drove off, until, remembering his religious principles, he had
arrested himself in the delivery of a choice gibe, to slink behind the
school-house corner until the crowd was gone.

"He woke up the wrong dog that time," chuckled Clem, thinking of Lou
Disney, "and got bit."

Clem had a bitter grudge against Gamaliel Deans and every one connected
with him.  The day of old Mrs. Holder's funeral Clem had searched over
all the barns he knew, in the hope of finding an empty jug that he
could take to get his dollar's worth of whiskey in.  But luck was
against him.  The cider-jars that had figured at the last threshings
had seemingly all been carried away.  He was quite disconsolate when,
in the late afternoon, he returned to Mr. Muir's.  He had hardly
arrived there before Mrs. Muir sent him on an errand to Mrs. Deans.
Having dispatched his message, Clem sought the barn, and the first
thing his eyes lit upon was a fat and capacious brown jug.  Gamaliel
was in the barn mending harness, and to Clem's request replied that he
might take it, adding that it was used at the last threshing.

Clem returned to the village late, partook of the somewhat meagre
supper Mrs. Muir tendered him, and, going out at once, got his jug,
rinsed it at the pump, and with it under his arm, trudged off to town
to get it filled.

Now, unfortunately for Clem, it had not contained cider, but black oil,
for the threshing machine.  There was a thick coating of the oil within
it, but the cold had fastened it stiff to the sides, and Clem's
somewhat perfunctory wash with the icy water from the pump did not
remove it.  All unconscious of this, Clem proceeded upon his errand,
got his whiskey, and started for Jamestown.

Manfully he resisted the temptation to take a drink.  Clem knew his own
weakness and the strength of his appetite when whetted by a taste.  He
hugged the jug close to him and trudged on.  At length he reached
Jamestown, and ensconced himself in the hay in Mr. Muir's stable-loft.
But the alcohol had acted very differently from the water.  It had
completely dissolved the oil and incorporated it with itself.  Clem's
first long mouthful was his last.

The mixture was atrocious.  Clem cursed till he exhausted himself,
arose and broke the jug into the smallest fragments, and ever after
hated Gamaliel Deans with a holy hatred, being firmly convinced that he
had been intentionally tricked.  Thus it was that Clem's delight was so
genuine as he made his way to Mr. Muir's barn, where for the present
his headquarters were.  He entered, and, with a view to a supper of
snacks from Mrs. Muir, proceeded to attend to the wants of the two
black horses and the piebald mare, stopping to slap his brown old hands
on his thin legs every now and then, ejaculating, "The boiled
idiot!"--a pet expression of Clem's, not inexpressive of mental
softness.

Clem moved about stiffly, and it was some time before he sought Mrs.
Muir's kitchen door, his knobby old hands stiffened and glazed from
holding the handle of the hay-fork.  But not only had Clem accomplished
his tasks in the barn, but eaten his supper, warmed himself and crawled
off to his bed in the hay before Homer Wilson arrested his headlong
walk.  He had gone far beyond his farm--far, far beyond the farthest
light of Jamestown.  But at last, his strength leaving him suddenly, he
paused and, reeling, turned towards home.  It took him hours to retrace
his steps.

The late dawn of the next wintry day fell upon Homer as he had flung
himself down upon his bed, fully dressed, and with shining drops drying
upon the livid bruise that disfigured his face.




CHAPTER XVI.

    "Piteous my rhyme is
  What while I muse of love and pain,
  Of love misspent, of love in vain,
  Of love that is not loved again;
    And is this all, then?
      As long as time is,
  Love loveth.  Time is but a span,
  The dalliance space of dying man;
  And is this all immortals can?
    The gain was small, then.

    "Love loves _forever_;
  And finds a sort of joy in pain,
  And gives with naught to take again,
  And loves too well to end in vain;
    Is the gain small, then?
      Love laughs at 'never,'
  Outlives our life, exceeds the span
  Appointed to mere mortal man:
  All which love is, and does, and can,
    Is all in all, then."


The talk that grew out of the fight at the school-house, the scandal
that succeeded the talk, the gossip that spread the scandal, occupied
the attention of the whole village for weeks, and the darkest shade
possible was cast upon Homer's share of the affair.  Every one felt it
a species of self-justification to rail at Homer and excuse Disney, who
had a devoted following among the young men of his own age and calibre.
His manner was more fortunate than Homer's, though his intentions were
far from being so generous.

Certain mental preoccupations had kept Homer somewhat apart from the
men of his own age in the district--first, his ambitious dreams of a
course at the commercial college, which led him to try to keep up his
studies during the long summers when he was kept out of school to work;
then came his absence in the city, when all his knowledge of the
village filtered from the unready pen of his mother.

Upon his return to the farm his eyes were yet blinded by the glamour of
_her_ hair, so that he found it sweeter to lie upon the grass, with his
hands beneath his head, gazing up at the skies and thinking of her,
than to join in any of the young people's enjoyments.  He saw her eyes
in every star, her hair in every moonbeam, her form in every graceful
cloud.  He felt her breath in every zephyr, he heard her voice in the
rippling of the leaves, her laugh in the babble of the brook or the
lapping of the lake.

Enchanted thus with his own imaginings, he made no effort to grasp the
swiftly slipping cable of sympathy with his fellows.  When his visions
were dispelled and desecrated by her infidelity, well--he had made one
or two futile snatches at the vanishing strand that had bound his heart
and interests to those of his old school friends.  But either it sped
too fast from him, or he strove to grasp it too rudely, for he withdrew
his hands from the task and found himself loath to make an effort in
that direction again.  This piteous outreaching for sympathy that is
withdrawn sears the soul deeply, even as sliding ropes sear the hands;
and yet we must not shrink from the lifeline that is to save us from
the flames.  We must endure the hurt to escape the greater peril.  And
it is better to live, even with torn and bleeding palms, than to
shrivel in agonizing flames or suffocate in smothering smoke.

Withdrawn from temptation, Homer did not go forth to seek it, for he
was nauseated of all desire.  Thus there was no danger of his soul
consuming in the evil fire of his own passions.  But how nearly he had
succumbed to the miasmatic exhalation that rose from the Slough of
Despond into which his faculties had sunk!  Now, indeed, he was winning
his way out.

  "Men may rise on stepping-stones
  Of their dead selves to higher things."


But it is a painful progress, for each stone must be won from the
strong edifice erected by ourselves to bar our way, of which each block
is a passion, a sin or a folly, cemented together by selfishness and
self-indulgence, based upon self-pity, garrisoned by prideful spirits
that mock at our efforts.  Driven from the ramparts, they throng about
our feet to jostle us from our hard-won stepping-stones.

The Sir Galahads of life are much to be admired, and yet shall we not
crown those also, who, having fallen, have again found firm
footing--those strong souls, overcome once, that have struggled through
all this and at last sprung to shore?  Let us hope, at least, that they
find those long-sought shores flowerful and pleasant.

Alas!  Homer Wilson looked but upon a barren prospect, waste and drear,
disappointing as the alkali lakes that mock the wanderer dying of
thirst in the desert.  Therefore it was not much wonder that he grew
sad-faced and silent.

Had the woman he loved been happy, his life would not have been wholly
desolate, for his love was of that unselfish type that desires rather
the happiness of its beloved than its own gratification.  But from
Myron's desolate heart-fires there could come no joyful radiance.  The
only light her life diffused across his path was a pale glimmer of
dying hope, that illumined the sorrows of their separate ways.  Myron
was indeed relieved from the pressure of actual want, for Clem
Humphries and Ann Lemon were domiciled with her; but of comfort or
peace of heart she had none.

Neither Clem nor Ann had ever been compelled before to seek township
aid, and, with the perversity of human nature, they agreed in
associating Myron with their downfall, and persisted in regarding her
as being in some way responsible for it.  They both were devoted to
stimulants--Clem's choice being whiskey, Ann's gin.  When the monthly
instalments of money from the council arrived, they both, with one
accord, set to work to wheedle some of it from Myron, with a view of
gratifying their spirituous desires.  In this, however, they were
entirely balked.  Beneath Myron's meekness and patience an iron will
was strengthening.

Homer had said: "Don't give either of them any money.  I'll give Clem
tobacco when he needs it, but don't you begin giving them the money, or
there'll be no stop to it."

That was enough.  No persuasion moved Myron after that, either to
yielding or to anger.

"She be a fair devil for obstinateness," said Clem upon one of these
occasions.

"Yes," agreed Ann, venomously, "and who be she to lord it over the
likes of us?  We're decent, if we be poor."

It was, however, only upon these occasions that Clem and Ann agreed at
all.  They quarrelled continually, taunting each other with a fondness
for liquor, and each making mock of the hypocrisy the other displayed
in going to church, much upon the principle of one negro calling
another a "black nigger."

The remarks they indulged in were, to say the least, personal, and each
displayed a fiendish aptitude for finding out the weak spots in the
other's armor.

Ann still cherished the shreds and patches of youthful vanities, mouldy
remnants of adornment with which she disfigured herself on high days
and holidays.  She had a little house in the village, and a lot with
some plum trees upon it.  In summer she made shift to live very
comfortably, what with the plums, and her chickens, and odd days' work.
Indeed, she might easily have saved sufficient to keep her during the
winter, but Ann was not of those who "go to the ant," and, after due
consideration of her ways, become wise.

Her habit was, when she had a few dollars by her, to adorn herself with
her best, go to town in the mail-wagon, get as much gin as she could
for the money, and then give herself over to the enjoyment of her
purchase.  Upon these days it was no small excitement for the Jamestown
children to watch the going and returning of Mr. Warner and his
mail-wagon.

Long before mail-time Ann might be seen arranging her finery.  She wore
a black merino skirt, draggled into a tattered fringe at the bottom,
and stained here and there by the drops that fell more swiftly as Ann's
hand grew less steady.  By some chance, she had once bought some bright
blue ribbon from a peddler.  She put two rows of this round her black
skirt.  Unfortunately the ribbon proved too short for the two rows, so
that in the second one there was a hiatus of some twelve inches between
the ends of the ribbon.  This to some people might have been a somewhat
insurmountable difficulty, but not to Ann.  Catching her skirt just at
that point where the ribbon failed to connect, she raised it gracefully
with one hand, displaying the edge of a red flannel petticoat and a
goodly length of robust limb.  It is not recorded that she was ever
seen so drunk as to forget herself sufficiently to loose her hold of
the skirt, although upon several occasions she was carried helpless
into her house, laid upon her bed, and left, as the good Samaritans of
Jamestown expressed it, to "sober up and be ashamed of herself."  Her
bodice was only an ordinary calico one, but she covered its
deficiencies by a black cashmere tippet of antiquated shape and ample
size.  It had a tassel between the shoulders, and certain lonely
sparkles here and there showed that in the days of its youth and beauty
it had been be-bugled.  At the neck of this she pinned a knot of faded
magenta ribbon, fastening it with a shell pin.

But the crowning glory of Ann's holiday toilet was her "front."  This
"front" was the only bit of false hair in Jamestown, and was regarded
as an unholy thing, a direct manifestation of "the Devil and his
works."  Mrs. Deans always declared that Mrs. Wilson had "as good as
owned up" that she would like a similar front; and indeed Mrs. Wilson,
good woman, had been moved almost to defiance of public opinion by the
evil fascinations of that sinful scrap of tousled hair.  As a matter of
fact, Ann's "front" was somewhat the worse for wear; the parting was a
parting indeed, and several curls being gone at one side, there was a
bare spot, where the black-net foundation showed.  But Ann's bleared
eyes looked out right jauntily from beneath this lopsided coiffure.

Perched upon her head was a bonnet.  Originally covered with red silk,
it had grown glossy and dark from much wear.  Upon one side of it was
stuck grotesquely a shapeless knot of black crape--limp, rusty, soiled
by mud and weather, yet a symbol still of the loss of husband and
child, and of a deeper loss than this--the loss of hope, the loss of
self-respect, the loss of self-control, and the triumph of an evil
appetite.

For long ago Ann had had a husband and a bonny daughter, and she
herself was a big, buxom woman, fresh-colored and wholesome.  But her
husband died, and the daughter was carried home dead to her one day,
with the water that had drowned her dripping from her long hair and
leaving a dotted line upon the floor as it ran from the hand that hung
over the edge of the rude bier.

Ann never "picked up" after that.  Despite the admonitions of her
Christian neighbors and their warnings against sinful repining, she yet
dwelt ever upon her loss, seeking oblivion when she could in drink.
Well, she was wrong, of course, but "the heart knoweth its own
bitterness," and in the empty niches of her heart there perhaps lurked
the shadow of an excuse for her.

In a certain old neckerchief, mottled with gay colors and bordered with
purple, were tied a few tawdry relics, a string of black wooden beads,
a knot of discolored blue ribbon that had clung to a tress of the
drowned girl's hair, a dark pipe with the tobacco still in it, a
waistcoat barred with bright stripes of yellow, a heavy plated
watchguard--these were all that remained to Ann of the joy of life, and
yet upon them fell as bitter tears as ever dimmed a diamond-set
portrait or a pearl-clasped lock of hair.

This woman, for whose coming husband and child had once watched, was
now an amusing spectacle for Jamestown boys.  As Mr. Warner drove along
the street Ann would go out and await his coming in all the dignity of
conscious grandeur.  She never started for town until she had enough to
pay for her ride there and back, besides the money for her gin, for, as
she often said, she wasn't much of a hand at walking.

Before getting into the mail-wagon, which was simply an ordinary
two-seated light wagon, with a flat canopy upheld at the corners by
iron rods, she paid Mr. Warner fifty cents, which was the fare to town
and back.  Then she mounted to the back seat, where she sat enthroned,
her feet upon the canvas mail bag.

She enjoyed the drive thoroughly, nodding with much affability to every
one they met, irrespective of whether she knew them or not, and saying,
"Poor crittur!  Who be he, I wonder.  He don't know me," when any one
failed to return her salute.

At the door of the Post-Office Ann got out, having paid no heed to the
gingerly hints Mr. Warner had given her about getting out when they
came to the town limits.

"Wouldn't you like to stretch a bit, Mrs. Lemon, before we get into
town?" he would say, tentatively.

"No, I ain't a mite stiffened up to-day," she would reply.

"Because I'll stop and let you out if you'd rather," Mr. Warner
continued.

"Oh, I wouldn't put you to no trouble," Ann demurred, politely.

"It wouldn't be no trouble," he would feebly protest.

But Ann only said: "I'm all right, Mr. Warner.  No rheumatics in my
knees, thank Providence and red flannels!  I can sit, walk, or ride
with the best of them yet."  Then, animated by sudden concern for him:
"But look here, if you're crippled up, jest get out and walk alongside
and I'll drive.  Do now, just reach the reins acrost here.  I can drive
as straight as a string."

But this ordering of affairs was still less to his liking; so,
resigning himself to the inevitable and comforting himself with the
thought of the fifty cents, he drove on to the Post-Office.

Here Ann alighted, and then began making inquiries as to the precise
time of leaving, which side of the street he would be on, whether any
one else was going, besides many other details that suggested
themselves to her as legitimate excuses for prolonging the
conversation, during which she surveyed Warner haughtily.  Finally she
sailed off, with, a last imperative injunction "to be punkshul."

When she returned, she was usually pretty far gone.  She rolled in her
walk, and fiery glances shot from her eyes.  The tippet was usually
screwed around, so that the tassel depended like an epaulet upon one
shoulder, and the magenta ribbon did duty upon the other.  Her bonnet
had a trick, that amounted to a habit, of cocking itself hilariously
over one ear, and the "front" usually pointed straight at the other.

Mr. Warner took care always to be ready to leave when she came.  He had
a painful recollection of a day when he loitered about the Post-Office
longer than usual, and came out at length, mailbag over his shoulders,
to find Ann the centre of an admiring group that applauded her whilst
she gave a full, particular (and, be it whispered, true) account of the
Warner family history.

In every little village there are certain stock stories that are told
about certain families.  If it be a scandal-monging little hole, the
stories usually have a tang to them.

The tales about the Warner family were particularly spicy ones, the men
being notoriously cruel to their horses and "close-fisted" in their
dealings.  Some of the women were not all they ought to be, and the
whole family connection so penurious as to be but one remove from
misers.

Ann was giving a veritable epic illustrative of each of these family
failings, and had just got to the point bearing upon their cruelty to
their horses.

"The bones of the horses the Warners killed stopped up the drains in
Jamestown."  Turning, she whipped up the bit of felt saddle-cloth under
the harness of the mail-wagon horse, and showed the galled patch on its
back; then she drew attention to the raw places on the shoulders that
Warner had smeared with black wagon-grease, to render them less
noticeable.  Warner was furious, and would right gladly have left her
there, but he did not know how far her tongue had taken her or how far
it could go, and he felt it safer to insist upon her getting into the
wagon.

Then her mood changed.  She insisted he was her best and only friend,
embraced him from behind with one arm round his neck until she nearly
strangled him, whilst she strove to give him a drink from her black
bottle with the other; wept because she could not climb over into the
front seat beside him, and finally subsided into maudlin tears of
repentance and retrospect, mingled with pious ejaculations of thanks
for the comfort she had that day received.

Warned by this experience, Warner was always ready, waiting for her
when she appeared, and had acquired some skill in persuading her to
mount into the wagon immediately upon her arrival.  Her untimely
demonstrations of affection, however, were never to be guarded against,
and his flesh crept upon his bones until he was clear of the town and
out into the country.  It was decidedly a trial to have Ann for a
passenger, only there was one saving mercy about it--afterward Warner
had fifty cents more.  To the Warner mind that meant a great deal.

It was a popular saying in Jamestown that "a Warner would take a
kicking for a quarter any day."

Without these occasional exhilarations Ann grew morose and vindictive.
She glowered at My as he played about the floor, gave Myron a myriad
pin-pointed stings anent his existence, saying, with pious unction,
that whatever little she had to be thankful for, she never should cease
being grateful that she was decent, and relieved the tension upon her
feelings by an active and aggressive warfare against Clem.

Clem returned her complimentary attentions in kind, and exhausted his
ingenuity in planning to torment Ann.  There were several battles royal
between the two that marked the history of their warfare, as great
victories star a campaign.  There was the evening, when they all sat
round the little table drawn up close to the fire, and Clem, nodding
his head with drowsy satisfaction, took the first morsel of a plug of
chewing tobacco Homer had given him.  Clem half-closed his eyes and
gave himself up to its enjoyment.  Myron rose softly, to carry the
sleeping baby to bed.  Ann's eyes wandered malignantly from Clem's
contented countenance to the plug of tobacco (so near her hand), and
from thence all round the room.  She looked longingly at the fire, but
shook her head; discovery would be too prompt.  Her eyes fell upon a
tub of water, set close to the fire to prevent its freezing against the
morrow.  Her face lighted--an evil inspiration had come to her.

Slowly--slowly--she put forth her hand.  Clem's eyelids wavered--she
withdrew it swiftly--there was a pause.  Again her itching fingers
approached the square of tobacco--again were withdrawn before a flicker
of those eyes.  Another breath--then carefully, stealthily, she grabbed
the tobacco, withdrew her hand, and, bending far over, slid her prize
into the tub of water.

Then, to all appearance, sleep suddenly overpowered her.  Her head
began to nod, her eyes to close, she breathed heavily, and her relaxed
hand fell limply by her side.

Clem rose presently to build a new fire, and, being extravagantly
inclined because of his plentitude of tobacco, ejected his "chew" into
the ashes, and, after putting on the wood, returned to his seat and put
out his hand for his tobacco.

Myron entered at that moment from the bedroom.  The fire crackled as it
caught the new fuel; old Ann sat like a nodding mandarin, oblivious
(outwardly) of everything.  Clem's astonishment at its disappearance
was great.  Nevertheless he did not grow wrathful until he had turned
out his many pockets and bestrewn the table with their varied contents.
He banged each article viciously upon the table, but Ann still slept.
She was somewhat overdoing her rôle, and Clem's smouldering wrath
flamed up into active indignation as she sat there calm amidst the
storm.

"Get up!" he said.  "Get up, you stovepipe, and let me see if it ain't
under your chair?  You know something about it, I'll swear you do!  If
'twas a glass of gin, I'll warrant you'd scent it out!  Get up, will
you?"  Saying this, he jerked her chair aside by the back, so that Ann,
who was feigning all the languor of one suddenly aroused from deep
sleep, slid off the chair to the floor.  She improved the occasion,
however, by knocking the chair over on Clem's corns as she rose.  Clem
gave a frightful oath, and Ann stood erect, with a jeering laugh.
Myron, anxious to preserve peace, joined Clem in his hunt, whilst Ann
stood by.

"Call me stovepipe, will you?" she asked.  "Stovepipe indeed, and me
the best figger of a woman in the village in my time!  Stovepipe!  With
my waist, too!  Stovepipe indeed!"  An indignant snort rounded off her
sentence.

The little kitchen was so bare that any search was either easy or
hopeless.  Myron and Clem searched and searched, going over and over
the same ground, as the wisest of us do when we look for something
lost--for pleasure in old pain, for joy in bygone voices, for hope in
withered joys.

Ann waxed more and more derisive.

"If 'twas a spoonful of whiskey, now," she began, plagiarizing and
paraphrasing his own words to her; "if 'twas a spoonful of whiskey now,
I'll go bail you'd nose it out.  You'd ha' run ag'in it long ago.
You're better at getting whiskey than at getting clean jugs to put it
in, though."

Clem turned to glare at her, and stubbed his toes against the tub.  He
cast his eyes down, with a curse, but his gaze was held by something
which, even as he looked, sank to the bottom, thoroughly saturated.

In a moment he had it out--his tobacco, bloated out of all semblance to
its dark-brown self.  One glance was enough.  With accurate aim, he
flung it with all his might at Ann's triumphant countenance.

It struck her across the lips, parted for another gibe.  She subsided,
sputtering, and Clem, gathering up his belongings from the table with
one sweep into his handkerchief, flung himself out of the room.

Myron's life was passed in a continual jar and fret because of these
quarrels.  She strove to interpose herself as much as possible between
them, for Ann's malice grew more and more venomous, and Clem's dislike
threatened to break bounds, and from speech become blows.  Ann was
persistent in her demands for "somethin' warmin'," and do what she
could Myron could not satisfy them.

But their bitter words did not sting as her grandmother's had done.
Love has a strong potency in pain and pleasure.

There is poison upon the tongue of a friend when it turns against us.
No dart pricks so deep as one launched by a hand we love.  Gall and
wormwood are mingled in the draught when the bitter cup is pressed to
our lips by the hand that has tended us in childhood.  No thorns are so
sharp set to pierce our feet as those implanted in our path by one we
love.

Some years ago there was a marvellous tale told of a woman in the
mountains of Africa, wondrous old and beautiful, and exceeding wise.
We are told that by the touch of her finger-tip _She_ blanched a snowy
streak athwart a girl's dark locks.  Later, with another malignant
gesture, she reft the girl of life, so that she fell dead in an instant.

Myron Holder's soul was being blanched by the pointing fingers of her
world.  Would they stop there?  Or would the cruel allegory be
completed?  Would those merciless mockers not cease until, deprived of
life and hope, Myron Holder faltered and fell to what they pictured
her?  For there was every chance she might.

Her face had gained a pale and--inapplicable as the word seems--lofty
beauty.  Her eyes held within their depths the secret of all pain, and
the storehouses of such knowledge are often more beautiful than those
that garner gayer truths.  Her lips, softened by the love of her child,
were warm and red; his kisses kept them so amid the pallor of her face,
like a little hearth in a waste of snow.  So small and sweet the mouth
was, so tremulous, so shrinking, it seemed the pallor of cheek and chin
encroached upon it daily.  It did not seem a month for speech: there
was but space for sobs and kisses, and yet--it had had kisses, and
kisses leave strange savors sometimes, and it had parted in many a sob.
Who, then, could tell if the pressure of those lips brought pain or
pleasure?  And what man but would dare all to know?

Behind her lids lay love, too, gleaming through the veil of her
sorrows, as the reflected sun shines from a well.  At present it was
all for her child--later?

Nowadays, when on every side they talk so much of the force of
"suggestion," it almost makes us wonder if our fellows' lives are not a
reflex of our conception of them--if a consensus of opinion that a
person is guilty does not tend to make him what we assume him to be.

It would seem the Jamestown people did the best they could to aid the
devil, whom they professed to sacrifice, when, with the pointed forks
of malice, they thrust Myron Holder forward to his fires.  Each time
Homer Wilson came to sit in the cottage his heart ached more and more
for this woman.  Against the background of Ann's slovenly form and
Clem's squalid coarseness she shone like a jewel in a rough clasp.
Each time he departed the wrench was greater, but he could not deny
himself the pleasure of seeing her.  As for her, his visits were the
only alleviation of her life, his visits and My.  For the child was
beginning to talk now, and pattered after her every step.  She had
taught him a meaningless baby jingle--"Mama's My," she said; "My's
mama," answered My--and when he got to know it well, he would chatter
it out in swift alternation with her, until the simple words,
expressive of the absolute inviolate bond that united them, pierced her
soul with a sense of their isolation, and she caught him to her as of
old Hagar may have pressed Ishmael to her dishonored bosom.

But out of Homer's visits fresh spite and scandal sprung.  For old Ann,
denied money for gin, grew bitter and revengeful, and took to going
from kitchen to kitchen with the song of her sorrows.  Finding her
welcome and entertainment proportioned exactly to the amount of news
she had to tell, she did her best, like a good laborer, to be worthy of
her hire.

Every incident of Myron's life was noted and enhanced by Ann's evil
imaginings--was bruited from lip to lip.  Myron knew this.  In the old
days, whatever bitterness had awaited her within the walls of the
cottage, they had at least shielded her from the curious eye and
whispering lip of the village.  They did so no longer.  Her last refuge
was taken from her.  She felt she lived in a veritable glass house,
pierced by day and night by relentless eyes.  The knowledge made her
restless and ill at ease.

Ann did her best, as has been said, to deserve the welcome she received
at Mrs. Dean's, Mrs. White's, Mrs. Warner's, and the other houses she
went to.  She crawled up from her warm couch to listen at Myron's door
at night, and crept back, shivering with cold, and angry that Myron did
not justify the vileness of her suspicions.

The "long glories of the winter moon" sent shafts of pale light to
illumine both the sleepers and the listener.  Within the chamber were
the two shamed ones--the sinful mother, the child of sin.  The two
faces close together, both calm--for one heart was ignorant of the
world and its cruelty, and the other for a brief space oblivious.  Two
hands were hidden, close clasped, beneath the coverlet; two lay palms
up, so that the moonshine lit them palely--the one pink-palmed,
unscarred, unstained; the other so worn, so hard, having lifted such
heavy loads and borne such bitter burdens, having been stung by flowers
that change to undying nettles, having so often shielded shamed eyes,
having so often pressed against a breaking heart, having so often been
raised in fruitless supplication, so often wrung in despair.

Without the door the listener, tremulous with eagerness, leant, holding
her breath, and longing for the confirmation of her evil thoughts.  She
caught only the cadence of the breathing of mother and child--a music
sweet to the old gods long ago, they say, and sacred still to us, the
incense of love's devotion and sacrifice of suffering.

And is the offering less sacred because ascending from an altar
differing in shape from the law's design?  In what strange quality were
these commingling breaths lacking that they should rise in vain?

Love bestows upon many things its own immortality.  Why not upon the
air, that gives it life?  The air that has been breathed by the mutual
lips of love can never again commingle with the grosser ether of our
earthly atmosphere.  It ascends afar, and perchance shall form the
winey atmosphere of that fabled Land of Compensation, where, we are
told, "the crooked shall be made straight."




CHAPTER XVII.

  "All the secret of the spring
  Moved in the chambers of the blood."

  "Lovely spring
  A brief sweet thing,
  Is swift on the wing."

  QUEEN ELEANOR--"...Some
    Flowers, they say, if one pluck deep enough.
          Bleed as you gather."
  BOUCHARD--"That means love, I think.
    You gather it, and there's the blood at root."


Winter was softening to spring.  It was the dismal transition period,
when half-frozen mud and icy slush take the place of snow.  The deep
drifts of the winter were gone; only in the fence-corners there yet
remained darkened icy ridges, showing their outline.

The fields were bare, but the discolored snow still lay in patches on
the roads, where it had been beaten hard.  The world never looks so
desolate and disreputable as at this time, when the earth, looking up
inquiringly to a comfortless sun, pleads--or so it would seem--for
heat, that its nakedness may be clothed with verdure.

The tree-tops in the woodlands clashed together, and the blows seemed
to start the sap within them, for their buds began to swell, and all
along their branches the satiny receptacles, wherein were coiled the
first leaves, glistened.

The sugar maples sparkled night and morning with tiny icicles, where
the sweet sap that oozed out at noon froze in the colder breath of
evening.  Every schoolboy in Jamestown had swollen lips from eating
these icicles--dainty morsels they were, too, their flavor the very
essence of sweetness.

All the trees in the forest seemed to stand at "attention," awaiting
the command of the sun to leap to life.  Only the low-growing
witch-hazel, that uncanny tree, associated with the Black Art from time
immemorial, had taken upon itself to bedeck its limbs with fuzzy little
yellow and brown tufts of bloom.

But none of the other trees followed its example.  They waited the heat
of the sun.  From all accounts, the root of the witch-hazel seeks less
celestial fires to draw its life from.  At any rate, this overwise tree
knows all subterranean secrets, all the wonders of the water, all the
wind's weird whisperings.  Passed along the surface of the earth, does
it not divine where, far beneath, the hidden springs gush forth?
Launched upon the water, does it not stop and tremble where the drowned
one lies?  Before the coming of the storm, do its leaves not dance, and
nod, and rustle, though moved by no perceptible influence save the
intoxication of their own evil sap?  Besides, what magical mysteries,
what eerie orgies, does it not share with hairs from black cats' tails,
and moss from gravestones, and teeth of dead people?  Ugh!  It is no
wonder that its deep, deep roots know where to seek for warmth.

The moss upon the rocks that faced the lake front was vividly green.
Last year's dead leaves had rotted beneath the snows, and the empty
seed-vessels of the tall weeds served as bells for the jesting wind.

Whatever suggestions of bygone beauty, whatever anticipations of unborn
flowers lurked in the woods, the village at this time looked
depressingly squalid.  Relying upon the snow's charity in covering a
multitude of sins, the untidy housekeepers had imposed upon it.  Now
they were shamed.  The melting snow left exposed all the debris of the
winter.  Heaps of tea-leaves cast forth by careless hands beside the
doors, ashes flung out hastily, bones, broken crockery, and the heads
of decapitated chickens bestrewed the streets.

Outwardly, at least, Jamestown had been quite a decent village before
the snow melted; now, it showed like a hypocrite from whom the robe has
been torn away.

With the first break in the winter weather, the men began to "go over"
the fences, rebuilding those the snow had broken, replacing the rails
and boards that the wind had torn off, and sinking new posts where the
frosts had heaved the old ones out of the earth.

Clem Humphries had long been impatient to leave Myron's and get out of
the reach of Ann's irritating tongue, and his eager search for work got
the reward of being hired by Mr. White to bore post-holes.

He stuck to his task until he earned a few dollars; then his long-saved
thirst drove him to town.  The money went for the old purpose, and Clem
got gloriously drunk.  A sudden brief but biting spring frost setting
in, he was found next morning in Mr. White's barnyard, lying by the
strawstack, his fingers clasping rigidly an empty bottle, his long
boots frozen to his feet.

They carried him in beside the kitchen stove, cut off his boots, and by
noon old Clem was as sprightly as ever; only he cursed sulphurously
when he saw the wreck they had made of his foot-gear.  This was
particularly annoying to him, because he knew that had he "only had
sense enough, he could have got a good quart more of rye for them very
boots they cut up, as if they weren't worth a cent."

Many men might have suffered from this experience, but alcohol has
great preservative qualities and old Clem's system was saturated with
it.

Clem being now "off the township" and exposed to all the inclemencies
of Fortune's variable winds, it behooved him to supply himself with a
new suit of religion, as the snake takes to himself a new skin.  This
he did.  He spoke piously of his failings, his experiences, his
backslidings and beliefs, so that Mrs. White held him in godly
commiseration, as one sore beset by the enemy.

So Clem fed and fattened, whined diligently, and worked as little as he
could help, and laughed in his sleeve at them all.

Mrs. Deans said to Homer Wilson, with sneering emphasis:

"If you should see that Myron Holder, Homer, I wish you'd tell her I
want to speak to her."

"Very well," said Homer, unmoved.

"Will you be likely to see her?" pursued Mrs. Deans.

"Yes," said Homer, in a matter-of-course tone.  "Oh, yes, of course
I'll see her."

"Still, after all," Mrs. Deans hesitated with a fine show of prayerful
reflection, "maybe I hadn't ought to ask you to call there?  There's no
use making things worse than they are, and I'd never forgive myself if
I thought I put you in the way of wrongdoing."

"I don't understand," said Homer, calmly.  "Is there anything wrong
about your message?"

"Not about my message," answered Mrs. Deans; "but, after all that's
come and gone, I dare say you would not like to go to the Holder place.
Well, I don't know as I blame you.  It's terrible discouragin' to be
mixed up with such a story; but there, never mind, I can send Maley.
No one would think anything of his going."

"Make your mind easy, Mrs. Deans," said Homer, contemptuously.  "Ann
Lemon, I am sure, has let you know that I am in the habit of going to
Myron's as often as she'll let me.  I'll be very glad of your message
as an excuse to go again."

With this Homer departed, leaving Mrs. Deans as nearly dumbstruck as it
was possible for her to be.

That afternoon Myron stood knocking at Mrs. Deans' kitchen-door,
holding My by the hand, whilst he struggled to get away to the collie
dog which lay on the porch, its front paws crossed in an attitude of
dignified leisure.

From the poultry-yard came the mingled babble of the fowls' cries.  A
thin blue banner of smoke uncoiled in a long spiral from behind the
house.  It diffused an aroma of herbs and withered grass: the rakings
of the garden were being burned.  Gamaliel and the hired men were
opening a ditch in the field next the house.  Their coarse voices and
coarser laughing came clearly through the spring air.  A sparrow flew
down and, laden with a long straw, flew up again to the woodshed eaves,
where its mate proceeded to help it to weave the straw into the walls
of their nest.  The old cat, thinner now than in the winter, looked up
at their toiling malignantly.  Every now and then the eye was conscious
of a dark speck above the line of direct vision, as the swallows soared
in long sweeps over the building.

The sky was bright, but not very warm; and when one of the many
floating clouds interposed a veil betwixt its rays and the earth, there
came a quick sense of chill.  The men's voices grew higher and more
confused.  Then, clear above the murmur that they made, came shrill
whistles and shouts of "Bob!  Bob!"  The collie sprang up, and,
throwing dignity to the wind, wriggled between the boards of the garden
fence and darted across the field, to enjoy presently a hilarious chase
after a pair of water-rats that the men had found in the stopped up
drain.

It was a spring day--all delicate sunshine and shimmering shadow, all
soft with tints of mother-o'-pearl, with hints of after-heats and
breaths of bygone bitterness.  Above floated "the wind-stirred robe of
roseate gray," and beneath the earth lay murmurous, sentient,
expectant, and eager, with little streams finding their way to the
lake, each seeming the bearer of sweeter secrets than we know.

  "O water, thou that wanderest, whispering,
    Thou keep'st thy counsel to the last!
    What spell upon thy bosom should Love cast,
  His message thence to wring?"


A spring day--yet somewhat sad, and strange with the uncertainty of
unfulfilled dreams.  It was but one minor note in Nature's glad
interlude between "winter's rains and ruins" and summer's languorous
perfections, fleeting to the eye, elusive to the memory, but lingering
long in the heart.

Myron knocked and waited.  Presently Liz opened the door.  She had a
knife in one hand, a potato in the other, and her fingers were stained
a deep brown.  Liz was cutting seed-potatoes, and even as she walked
back to her place by the window, dexterously sliced the potato she held
into angled bits, preserving in each an eye for growth to spring from.
Mrs. Deans came, and when Myron left she had arranged for another
summer's toil under her benign influence.

Mrs. Deans had decided to raise poultry more extensively than ever this
year, and, berate Myron as she might, she recognized fully how valuable
her faithful services were.  Mrs. Deans proposed that My should be left
with Ann Lemon during the day, but Myron said humbly but very decidedly
that the child must come with her.  Mrs. Deans demurred, but read
Myron's pale determination aright, and finally consented.  It gave her
an excuse, however, for still further reducing the meagre pay she had
given Myron the summer before.

Myron had been prepared for this, and did not grumble when Mrs. Deans
named the lower wage, whereat Mrs. Deans was wroth with herself that
she had not said still less.

Ann Lemon went back to her own house, and Myron once more went back and
forth to the village.  The winter had changed her.  She no longer
shrank from before the gaze of those cold eyes that met hers daily.
Instead, she met their glances with firm lips and unmoved eye, not
boldly, not appealingly, but with an acceptance of rebuke and scorn
that was stronger in its endurance than wrath, with a patience more
pathetic than any appeal.

No smile ever moved her lips, no anger ever raised her voice.  If tears
ever dimmed her eyes, they were unseen.  If any ray of hope yet
flickered within her breast, it was well hidden; its fires never
flushed her cheeks nor troubled her eyes, and those humble eyes were
"deeper than the depth of waters stilled at even."

The spring advanced.  Each evening whispered of a new beauty, each
night saw the birth of a new mystery, each morning revealed it in
nature's mirror, each day bespoke some completion of beauty, some
fulfillment of hope.

Spring--"all bloom and desire"--is not the time for love to end.  It is
rather the growing time of every tender joy, and Homer Wilson found
himself hoping against hope.  He contrived to meet Myron very often
now, in the early mornings or late twilight, as she traversed the road
between the village and Mrs. Deans'.  He had done what he could to
dissuade her from going to Mrs. Deans', but a refusal to do so meant a
full acceptance of his aid.  Myron held back her hand from such
overwhelming alms.  Homer had done, therefore, what he could for
her--ploughed the little lot about her house and planted it with
potatoes and vegetables for her, and mended the fence and piled great
heaps of split wood in the woodshed.

He pleaded with her sometimes, but to no avail--at least none that was
perceptible to him.  The water beating against a rock does not realize
its own victories; but we see the honeycombed cells that attest its
persistence, and predict that some day the water will have won a way
for itself over the fragments of the rocky barrier.  But the springs
run dry sometimes, and the rock remains unconquered, but barren and
parched, thirsting for the water that loved it once.  To each
successive plea Myron felt it harder and harder to say "No."

When Homer asked for her love, his face shone with that seraphic light
that never yet "has shone on land or sea," and she felt it very bitter
to banish it.  Sometimes he touched her to tears.  Sometimes, dry-eyed,
she begged him so piteously to desist that he felt himself a cur to
have urged her.

Indeed, in those calm spring weeks his heart was the abode of perpetual
conflict, the place of passion and pain, the home of love and longing--

  "O fretted heart, tossed to and fro,
  Rest was nearer than thou wist."


Through all these turbulent times Homer bore himself well.  He had
again the old genial manner, the old patience, the old generosity.  His
people presumed upon his unfaltering good-temper, and made their
demands more and more exacting.  He gave all they sought of his time,
trouble, and money, and to their reproaches replied not again.

Upon every subject under the sun he heard them patiently, save the one
subject next his heart.  That he held sacred.

His mother had said to him one day:

"You'll never marry her, Homer?"

"God knows I'm afraid I won't," he said.

"Do you mean to say----" began his mother.

"There is nothing but this to say," he answered, very quietly, but in a
voice that silenced her; "I would give my right hand--my
life--everything--if I could persuade Myron Holder to marry me."

So he left her; but his mother's incredulous exclamation, "You'll never
marry her!" cankered in his heart like a bitter prophecy.

Afterwards, when Mrs. Wilson thought over all the days and doings of
her son, she thought of this also, and told the conversation to her
neighbors, and they all then looked upon Myron Holder as one who,
having gotten a man's soul, would not let him assoil himself by
marrying her.

But this was after.

The old rag peddler going his rounds stopped once more at Mrs. Deans'
door.  Little My trotted out from the kitchen, and the old peddler eyed
him with the longing gaze of a childless man.  Mrs. Deans bargained for
her pie-plates, and My stood gazing reflectively at the big black horse.

"Say, Mrs. Deans," said the ragman, "whose young one is that?"

"Oh," answered Mrs. Deans, feelingly, "that's Myron Holder's brat!"

"You don't say!  Well, 'taint much like the Holders.  I knowed Jed," he
added, after a pause.

That night the ragman drove home, his van heavily laden, and his wife
helped him to bestow the canvas sacks in the barn, and later looked
over his stock of tins and ran over the book.  She was a queer little
figure.  Her dress was of dark woollen stuff that they gave her husband
at the shoddy-mills.  It was curiously and lavishly adorned with
buttons: there were rows of buttons on the sleeves from wrist to elbow,
a veritable breast-plate of them on the bodice; they jingled on her
shoulders and glistened on her skirts.

In a deep-down corner of her miserly little soul there lurked a taste
for finery.  Denied legitimate expression by her miserliness, it found
vent in this barbaric adorning of her gowns.  The pearl and crockery
buttons she did not use--those she sewed on cards to resell; but all
the fancy metal ones she found on the rags, being unsalable, she
appropriated toward the decoration of her penurious person, and let her
fancy run riot in the arrangement of them.

"Where's the little red tin mug?" she asked her husband, as she pored
over his ragged daybook.  "I don't see it in the van, and I don't see
it marked in the sales."

Her husband shifted uneasily.

"I give it to Myron Holder's young one.  He was playing about the wagon
at Deans'."

"You did!" said his wife.  "You did!  What for?"

"I knowed Jed," began her husband, apologetically; but he was cut short
by a contemptuous snub from his wife.

This was the chronicling of a little incident that gladdened Myron's
heart inexpressibly.

In Myron's mind there was slowly forming an idea at this time--an idea
of change.  It was but dimly shadowed forth yet; but when the time came
for it to take definite shape, it did so at once, and was so well
established that it seemed the settled and legitimate conclusion of
long reasoning.  In the mean time the thought only came to her
hazily--sometimes in the pauses of her work when she heard Mrs. Deans
speaking of the town; sometimes when, in the early morning, she saw far
away across the lake the smoke of a steamer; sometimes when, at
noontide, the whistle of far-off trains smote through the air, or when,
returning to the village at night, she noted the telegraph-poles, with
their single wire.  They seemed to incline from the village--away from
its self-righteous roof-trees and censorious chimneys; away and above
its babbling doorsteps and carping streets--and to point out into a
wider, freer, unknown world.

Often she turned to look along the way they pointed.  They took her
eyes eastward, and at night the eastern prospect is dull and gray.
From this forbidding outlook she would turn her eyes, with a shudder,
and they would fall upon the trees of Deans' woodland, illumined by the
sun which set behind them.

But if the eastern gray made her despond, the western glow behind those
trees made her despair.  She withdrew her gaze and hastened to the
blank twilight of the village.

It was summer, and Homer Wilson, walking through his fields, was
thinking of Myron Holder.  He had gone early to town that morning, and
as he passed the cottage she issued, with little My, from the door.

The dew lay heavy on the grass; the silence was stirred by the singing
of birds; the haze that lay over the land presaged a day of intense
heat.  The fires were being lighted in the village, and the first smoke
was lingering lazily above the roofs.  The hopvines about the cottage
glistened at every point with drops of dew, and, as the sparrows
twittered through the tendrils, they sent sparkling little showers
down.  The morning-glories that Myron had planted beneath the window
were covered with their cup-like blooms.  There is no flower on earth
more beautiful in delicate fragility of texture, in purity of tint, in
shape and translucent color than a morning-glory with the dew upon it.

It was a morning to live and love in.  And it seemed to Homer Wilson
that the whole gracious aspect of the day was completed by the forms of
Myron and her boy as they stood without the gate.

His heart yearned for her as he helped her into the wagon by his side.
At Mrs. Deans' he lifted her down, holding her for an instant in his
arms.  The keen "possessive pang" that thrilled him shook his spirit
with its sacred sweetness.

And to-night he was going to her with yet another prayer upon his lips.

The sultry day had fulfilled the prophecy of the misty morning.  The
air was heavy with odors.  Every weed and grass, each flower and vine,
each bush and tree, had given its quota of perfume to form the
frankincense that nature offers to the midsummer moon.  The exhalations
from a million tiny cells mingled together in that odorous oblation.

And as he crossed the fields Homer saw the moon, round and red, rising
slowly over the lake.  Slowly--slowly--it rose, paling as it attained
the higher heavens, until it soared--

  "In voluptuous whiteness, Juno-like,
    A passionate splendor"--

most worthy to be worshipped.

As Homer knocked at Myron's door the moon veiled itself behind some
close-wreathed clouds, so that from the dimness of the cloudy sky Homer
passed within the doorway.

* * * * * *

The moon was still obscured when he emerged, so that his face was hid.
But before him there stretched, at last seen with clear eyes, the
definite dreariness of a solitary life.  Behind him he knew a woman lay
prone upon a bare floor, sobbing and wrestling with the evil of her own
nature, with hard-wrought hands half-outstretched to
him--half-withdrawn, to cover her shamed eyes.  Within his breast he
bore the memory, not of rejection or of rebuke, but the echo of a plea
for mercy--the broken syllables of a woman's voice raised in an appeal
for help against her own weakness.

Nor had it been made in vain.  For Homer Wilson, in the moment of that
supreme temptation, had risen superior to himself--had put aside his
own strength to help her weakness--had overcome his passion with his
love.  He had uttered a passionate word or two of comprehension,
offered an incoherent pledge of aid--comfort--approval--and then,
stumbling out of the door, hastened away, disregarding, for her sake,
the cry of "Homer--Homer!" that seemed to follow him.

* * * * * *

Each of us has a wilderness and a temptation therein, although oft we
pass through it, unrecking of the devils that attend us until they have
stolen all they sought.  Sometimes our wilderness is a perfumed garden,
through which insidious devils dog our laggard footsteps.  Sometimes it
is a shaded pleasaunce, through which we tread with stately steps,
unwitting of the derisive demons that smile as they mock our pageantry
of pride.  With retrospective agony, we turn to gaze upon the mirages
of these scenes, as one views sunlit seas where wrecks have been, and
cry aloud, "Here much precious treasure was lost!"  But there are other
wildernesses wherein we wander, consciously beset with Evil Spirits
whose faces we know.

It was thus with Myron Holder.  Her wilderness was indeed "a land of
sand and thorns," thorns whose acrid sap was sucked from salt pools of
tears.  And the Spectre Demon that beset her there was the Devil of her
own passion.  By day it lingered round her steps, tempting her with
suggestions of the Lethean draught its pleasures would bring,
whispering to her how excusable she would be if she yielded to its
allurements; for it did not fail to point out that she had no debt of
kindness to repay with worthiness.

All day she fought against this Tempting One, who speedily enleagued
all the other evils of her nature to aid him.

The battle raged fiercely, the bright light in her eyes, the flaming
cheeks and trembling hands attesting the strife.  One night, when the
heat of summer made even the night winds sultry, when all nature was in
the full height of its development, when the fields were deep in grass
and the clover heavy with bloom--on such a night the door of a hop-clad
cottage in Jamestown opened softly and closed as gently, and through
the sleeping streets and out into the country a wild figure sped.  She,
for it was a woman, with flushed cheeks and loose-coiled hair, advanced
a short distance along the highway, and then, swiftly climbing the
fence, made her way diagonally across the fields of dew-drenched
grass--across one field, another, and another--holding her slanting
course as steadily and unswervingly as though she followed a beaten
track.

As she ran, the spirit of the night and the intoxicating odor of
flowers and grasses entered into her and steeped her senses in a
delirium of freedom.  She sprang on--now running, now half-dancing,
once going a rod or two in the old childish "hippety-hop" fashion.

She reached the boundary of Deans' woodland, and plunged into its
shadows with as little hesitation as she had entered the field of
clover.  She threaded the wood swiftly, her eyes fixed straight before
her, never seeming to see the obstacles which opposed her path,
although she avoided them unerringly.

Bats whose eyes have been pierced out exercise this same blind
avoidance of obstacles, and it was only this woman's heart that had
been wounded.

She held on her way.

At length she saw a far-off gleam of water, and knew she had all but
reached her destination.

On she went, and, pushing through the dense mass of witch-hazel bushes
that grew along the top of the lake bank, jumped.  It seemed a leap to
destruction, for Deans' woods bounded the lake here with high,
precipitous cliffs; but the path to that spot was marked by her
heart-blood, and she had made no error in following it.  She had a drop
of four feet or so; and then she stood upon a long, narrow, jutting
ledge, surrounded by the tops of the trees that grew below it on the
bank proper.  From the top of the bank it was almost
invisible--entirely so, unless the looker penetrated the witch-hazel
hedge.  From the lake it was plainly seen.

Here, then, she paused, looking forth over the water, and being scorned
by the moon--

  "For so it is, with past delights
    She taunts men's brains and makes them mad."

* * * * * *

She stood upon the rocky point and held out her clasped hands
despairingly.  Her hair, loosened by many a tugging branch, fell about
her in wild disorder--now blown across her flushed cheeks, wild eyes
and parted lips; now wrenched back by the high wind, its whole weight
streaming behind her; now framing her face in dusky convolutions.

In the mute agony of her gesture, she seemed a fit emblem of despairing
grief--the grief of Psyche for Adonis.

The moon broke from the embrace of its clouds and sailed high up into
the night, then faded towards the horizon.

And still she stood, outwearing her passion by her patience.  About her
surged all the weird melodies that loneliness and night and despair
smite from the heart-strings.  The blood sang in her ears, a monotonous
_obligato_ to those piercing notes.

* * * * * *

She looked out into the night.  Her eyes demanded from it some balm to
soothe their burning; her heart some solace for its pain.  Her soul
cried out against the silence without, which seemed such a maddening
environment to the fightings within.  Her whole being demanded an
answering emotion from some one or something.

  "Shake out, carols!
  Solitary here--the night's carols!
  Carols of lonesome love!  Death's carols!
  Carols under that lagging, yellow, waning moon--
  Oh, under that moon where she drops almost down into the sea!
  Oh, reckless, despairing carols!"


But the moon was mute, the night silent, and she was alone.  She could
not analyze her own emotions, nor vivisect her own soul; could not
separate shreds of Desire, fibres of loneliness, tissues of misery,
until she had disintegrated the whole mass of Despair that was crushing
her.

She could but suffer.

* * * * * *

She lay prone upon the ledge of rock, her hands clutching the short,
glossy mountain grass; resisting the wooing of the airy space below
that called her to oblivion, purchased by one leap outward--a leap--no,
one single step--out into the kindly air.

How small a price at which to buy immunity from those thorny roads she
trod with bleeding feet, alone!  Alone?  Ah!  Little My! ... The leaves
were stirring with the morning's breath; the birds had not begun to
sing yet, but were moving restlessly upon the branches and uttering
their first waking calls--those ineffably sad heraldings of earliest
dawn or latest night!

  "Ah, sad and strange as in dark summer dawns,
    The earliest pipe of half-awakened birds!"


The world lay silent under a reflectionless moonstone dome of gray when
Myron Holder, with dew-drenched skirts and hair, relaxed limbs and
pallid cheeks, entered the house where her child yet slept.  Of the
night's turmoil there was no trace save the signs of physical
exhaustion.  Her face was calm, her lips firm; her eyes shone undimmed
with tears, unblurred by passion.




CHAPTER XVIII.

  "Yea, then were all things laid within the scale--
    Pleasure and lust, love and desire of fame,
  Kindness, and hope, and folly, all the tale
    Told in a moment--as across him came
    That sudden flash, bright as the lightning flame,
  Showing the wanderer on the waste how he
  Has gone astray 'mid dark and misery."


Outwardly the lives of Myron Holder and Homer Wilson gave no sign of
these conflicts.  It is the petty worries and every-day griefs of life
that traces lines upon the brow.  A fretful discontent often leaves a
wrinkle when a great grief obscures itself behind the placidity of
despair.

Myron Holder's face now shone in unaltered--and it seemed
unalterable--calm.  That wild night had not been spent in vain.
Self-poised, if humble, her life seemed centred calmly at last.

As for Homer Wilson; it was different with him.  His heart was still
parched with the "thirst that thirsteth on," but he no longer sought
for draughts to slake it.  His attitude approximated that of those who,
dying of some dreadful disease, accept their fate and, looking the
inevitable in the face, long for the end.

One day he found in his pocket the old bullet he had picked up from the
crevice in the rock.  He turned it over, wondering where he got it;
then remembering, a bitter thought crossed his mind that he was like
that bullet.  His life-impetus gone, he was but a thing for the sun to
scorn.  Myron, no longer trembling for herself, felt a deep tenderness
spring within her heart for Homer, and sought to show him in every way
that he was her only friend and that she trusted him.

Myron had almost made up her mind to leave Jamestown, and a little
incident that occurred one day strengthened this thought to a
resolution.  The school-house was quite near the Holder cottage: the
playground bordered one side of the cottage garden; a fence of slackly
hung wires was between them; beyond the fence in the playground was a
little ditch with heaped-up sides, on which grew many yellow
buttercups.  This was a favorite haunt for the younger school children,
and their voices came in mingled cadences across Myron's rows of
vegetables.

One day in later summer Myron was at home from Mrs. Deans', having by
that lady's desire brought the weekly washing from the farm, to do it
in the cottage.  The windows were flung high, and through the rising
steam from her wash tubs Myron's eyes followed My's golden head as he
trotted about the garden.  Looking up once, she saw him standing by the
fence, holding to one swaying wire and peering through at the children
in the playground.  A momentary pang shot through her heart--he seemed
so isolated there; and yet the barrier that separated him from the
other Jamestown children was so slight--just a slack-wire fence--that
any one could see through, that hung irregularly between its supports,
now so low that it could be stepped over, again so high it seemed
impassable, only where it was so lofty the spaces between the wires
were wide enough to creep through.

The sunlight shone on both sides the same.  The buttercups straggled
through to the vegetables, seeming by their persistence to wish to
bloom there, and the singing of the catbird in the elm tree was as
sweet to My's ears as to Sammy Warner's upon the other side.

Nature made no difference; nevertheless there was a barrier.  My was
effectually severed from the rest of the village, but he himself had
not recognized that yet, and the next time Myron looked up she saw My
had gone through the fence and had seated himself beside the others.

They had taken their places in an irregular row among the buttercups,
jostling and nudging each other, saying "Gimme elbow room," and "Quit
pushin'," as they settled themselves comfortably to the business of the
moment.

This was the time-honored trial to decide which of them liked butter,
ascertained by holding a spray of buttercups against the throat, so
that the reflection was cast upon the uptilted chin.  The taste for
butter is proportionate to the yellowness of the reflection.

Little Jenny Muir was judge and the rest jury, craning their necks
forward to look as she passed from one to the other, holding a bunch of
buttercups against their chests whilst they tilted their chins far
back.  The dull blues, washed-out reds, and russet browns of the
children's frocks enhanced the brilliant yellow of the flowers.  The
shadows of the big pear tree, glossy of leaf but barren of fruit,
modulated the sunshine, so that the whole group showed in a soft,
subdued glow, an idyl of child life not unlovely, for the heads in the
row were not yet bent to the dust to search for money, nor lifted to
heaven in self-righteous conceit.  Time had not dulled the childish
gold to brown, nor deadened the flaxen heads to lustreless drab.

My placed himself at the end of the row, his head a golden period at
the end of the human sentence that spoke of life's beginnings.  With
unembarrassed childish mimicry, he emulated the gestures and laughter
of the others.

Myron's heart lightened.  She wondered for a moment if My might not in
time merge his life with those others and be no longer solitary.  The
hope soon vanished.  Looking out again, she saw My sitting alone, his
head tilted far back as he waited for his turn.  Just disappearing down
the slight decline to the school-house, she saw the other children,
their hands held over their mouths, their faces red with suppressed
laughter, stepping with elaborate pretence of quiet, and turning now
and then to look over their shoulders at My, sitting alone, his face
patiently uptilted to the sun, unconscious of his loneliness.  Beside
him lay the bunch of buttercups, flung down as Jenny Muir clapped her
hands over her mouth and fled across the soft sward.

In a moment Myron was out of the house, running down the path to the
fence side.  Ere she reached it, My's tired little neck relaxed, and he
looked about him wonderingly, the light fading from his face.  His eyes
were filled with tears, and his lips quivered when his mother called
him.  There was a hasty scramble over the ditch, a struggle through the
fence, and My was back on his mother's side of the barrier.  That
straggling fence was, after all, not so easily crossed.

My had forgotten the whole affair ten minutes after, as he excitedly
chased grasshoppers along the paths; but all day long the laughter of
the playing children smote Myron's heart like the crack of a whip that
stings.

After that day it became a matter of conscience for Myron to play the
"buttercup game" with My, and a feverish eagerness fairly consumed her
to get away from a place where even the children were cruel.  She began
to scrimp and save every penny she could, hoarding her meagre
gatherings in the bottom of the old clock-case that stood on the shelf
beside the window.

* * * * * *

It was late autumn.  Between the tree-tops were skyey lakes of blue
more brilliant than any blue of summer sky, more evanescent than any of
spring.  The sun shone through the tree-tops with an ineffable, clear,
cold light, displaying every fibre in their leaves and imparting to
them a fragility wholly sad.

A light uncertain wind rippled through the sumachs, giving their leaves
a delicate, lateral movement, as though upon some aerial lyre they
harped their own requiem, touching its invisible strings lightly with
blood-tipped fingers, for the autumn coloring stained the green.

Between the boughs of the trees glistened those huge octagonal webs
that the wood-spiders spin so persistently at this season.  There was
no sound of birds, only the cheerless shrilling of the autumnal
crickets and the dry rustle of dead leaves as the few grasshoppers left
alive hopped torpidly from place to place till they came to the spot to
die.

The katydids, that six weeks before had prophesied so cheerily the
frost that was to kill them, lay here and there, little pale-green
corpses, wrapped in their lace-like wings.

The tall weeds by the pathway, that in summer had disguised themselves
with blossoms of different colors and shapes, now stood confessed, with
panicles of burs crowning their dishonored heads.

It was upon such a day that Homer walked through his woods, searching
for a young hickory tree suitable to cut down for axe-handles.  His
heart, caught in the embrace of the surrounding silence, suddenly
stilled its throbbing to a steadier rhythm than it had known of late.
He thought out clearly the motive that must actuate his life, the
inspiration that must point his path.

Passion was indeed eliminated from his heart, but not forgotten.  They
tell us that when an arm or leg is amputated, one still feels shadowy
aches and ghostly pangs, intensifying the desolate sense of
incompleteness and loss.  The maiming of one part of the body may
preserve the whole alive, but yet one looks back with anguished regret
to the days when he stood complete.

Homer Wilson was learning that each must "dree his ain weird," and the
only complaint he made against his Fate was that he could not alter
Myron's.

Night fell soon and swiftly now.  The sun seemed glad to sink out of
sight.  Its feeble rays brought no heat to the leaves it had called to
life.  The sad silence of the trees seemed a mute reproach against the
light that brought forth but could not sustain, their foliage.

That evening in the chill twilight, Homer overtook Myron and her boy
returning from Mrs. Deans'.  Slackening his pace, he walked with them
to the village.  The air was very quiet, "silent as a nun breathless
with adoration."  As they passed along the road there came an earthy
breath from the fresh-turned soil in the fields, where they had been
lifting the potatoes and the turnips.  It had none of the fresh
fruitiness of spring: instead it was redolent with sad suggestions, an
atmosphere in which one involuntarily lowered the voice and stilled a
laugh.

They passed the little graveyard where the virgin bower clematis,
already denuded of leaves, garlanded the pickets with brittle, bare,
brown branches, softened here and there by the downy whorls of seed.
Myron was telling Homer of her wish to leave Jamestown, and asking his
advice.  He had long felt this to be one possible solution of the
position, but there were points that troubled him sorely.  It was
obvious that the best that could happen to Myron would be the return of
the man for whom she had suffered so much.  Homer confessed to himself
that he had no hope that he would return, but yet had grown very
uncertain and humble about his own judgment, and he thought Myron still
believed in her betrayer's return.  If he should return and Myron be
gone?  Would that not afford him a somewhat tenable excuse for
continued infidelity?  Suppose he should return and inquire for Myron
Holder in the village?  Homer sickened to think of the distorted
picture that would then be drawn of her patient life.

As has been said, Homer had not a shadow of hope that he would return,
but he thought Myron had.  Sharpened as Homer's perceptions were by
pain and love, they were not yet keen enough to grasp clearly how
slight a shred of hope remained of all her brave fabric of belief.  He
could not understand how much of Myron's faithfulness was due to her
own womanhood, how little now to any hope of reparation.  He therefore
hesitated when, laying everything before him, she asked him to decide.

As they neared the village they walked yet more slowly.  They had much
to say, and since that midsummer night Homer had never entered the
cottage door.  There seemed to issue from its portals forever a voice
calling, "Homer, Homer," a voice whose infinite longings and needs
shook his soul with a sense of his own impotency.

Little My wearied, and Homer raised him in his arms.  So they made
their way to the cottage--they two alone, for the child slept, and a
strange loneliness lay over the quiet road and empty street.  Myron
took My within doors, and, coming out, she and Homer paced, side by
side, up and down the little centre path.  On either side were
vegetables and withering grass, and down in the far corner the huge
yellow globes of the pumpkins showed solidly through the dusk.

"Indeed, Myron dear, it would be easier for you if you went," he said,
as they stood together in the shadow of the elm tree; "and later on My
might have a happier time.  For my part, I would have spoken of it long
since, only--only----"  He paused, and added in lower tones, "I knew
the hope you lived in."

She bent toward him and said, very quietly but steadily, "I have no
vestige of that hope left, Homer."

He looked down at her, an eagerness that strove against repression in
his eyes.

"No," she continued, "My and I must hold our way alone.  Tell me, then,
Homer, do you think it would be ever so little easier if we went away
from here?"

Her eyes held his, pleadingly, and filled with tears.  It was one of
the rare times when she felt self-pity.

"Yes, dear," he said, taking her hands, that fluttered nervously; "yes,
we will make it easier--we will find a way for you to leave all this
behind.  You shall go and lose yourself, so that their prying eyes
shall never find you, their itching ears never hear of you, their lying
lips have nothing to tell of you--only, Myron, you will never try to
hide from me, will you?"

"Oh, Homer!" she cried, "I would be lost indeed then.  Oh, no!  I could
not bear to have you forget me."

His face lighted in the dusk with a happiness that had long been a
stranger--a chastened light, perhaps, when compared with the radiance
evoked by his first love, but a steadier flame, lit in the heart, not
in the eyes alone.

"Well, I will think it all out, Myron; to-morrow will surely find me
with a way planned for you.  I wish, indeed, that I too could go with
you, that I also could find a road out of Jamestown."

He said good-night, and turned to go.  He was almost at the gate when
she ran after him.

"Wait a moment, Homer," she called softly; "wait!"

He turned quickly.

"You know how I think of you?" she asked.  "You know you are my only
friend--my dear friend--my brother?  You know this?  Do you think that
going away from Jamestown will make up for not seeing you?  I am
afraid--I--I--I think, Homer, I will stay."

Homer gave a little laugh, so sweet these words were to him.

"My dear, you shall go away, and yet shall see me too, sometimes.  I
could not stand it to be without a sight of My and you now and then."

She clasped her hands.

"Oh, could I see you sometimes?  Then think hard to-night, Homer, and
find out the way to-morrow."

There was another good-night, and they parted.

The next day Myron, having been sent to the village by Mrs. Deans, went
to the grocery store to buy some things for herself, for it was
Saturday, and she did not go to Mrs. Deans' on Sunday.  Whilst she
stood waiting until Mrs. Wilson was served, My ran in and out of the
door, a little, tottering figure, clad in a queerly made blue and white
checked pinafore.  Mrs. Wilson did her shopping leisurely, discoursing
upon the pros and cons of asthma the while, for which she strongly
recommended the smoking of cigars made of mullein-leaves.  She turned
from the counter at length, and, passing Myron Holder with uplifted
chin, made her way to the door.  It was encumbered with an open barrel
of salt mackerel, by which stood little My, balancing slowly back and
forth on his uncertain feet, the sun glinting on his yellow head.  Mrs.
Wilson pushed the little form roughly aside and went out.  My swayed
and fell, striking his head on the step.

Hot anger flushed Myron's cheeks at the incident.  She picked up the
boy, soothed him with a word or two, and gave him a biscuit from the
bag the groceryman was weighing for her.  My trotted off to the door,
and presently crossed the threshold into the street.

Myron Holder was just opening the shiny old purse to pay for her small
purchase when a confused sound of shouting and exclamations came to
her.  Through the hum of voices sounded the thud-thud of flying
hoof-beats.  Her eyes sought My.  He was not there!

She and the groceryman reached the door in an instant.  The street
seemed thronged with people.  Mrs. Wilson had just emerged from Mrs.
Warner's, and stood with her at the door.

Homer Wilson was about to untie his team, that stood before the
harness-shop just opposite the grocery store.

At the same moment that Myron emerged from the store Homer turned his
eyes to the street.  He saw and understood what Myron's anguished eyes
had perceived at the first glance.  In the middle of the sandy street,
the biscuit in one hand, the corner of his pinafore in the other, his
head shining in the sun which bedazzled his eyes, stood little My.

Thundering down the street, almost upon the child already, came
Disney's great black horse, its huge head outstretched, its nostrils
distended--two glowing scarlet pits--its lips drawn back, exposing the
gleaming teeth flecked with blood-stained foam, flinging its forefeet
out so madly that the glitter of its shoes could be seen from the
front.  Shreds of its harness clung to it and lashed it to greater fury.

Without a second's hesitation, Myron Holder rushed to her child--to
death, as she doubted not.  But another form sprang forward also.
Homer Wilson darted diagonally across the street until he was directly
in the pathway of the horse, but a yard or two beyond My.  He had not
time to steady himself before the brute was upon him.  He grasped at
the distended nostrils of the horse, caught them, but in a sliding
grip,--the horse reared upright.  There came two sounds--of hoofs,
striking not on the resonant roadway, but with the horrible echoless
blow that falls upon flesh, and then the horse swept on; but only one
of his shoes was shining now, the rest were dim with blood and dust.

[Illustration: HE HAD NO TIME TO STEADY HIMSELF BEFORE THE BRUTE WAS
UPON HIM.]

Myron snatched her child out of the way as the horse passed by a hand's
breadth, and in a moment she was kneeling by Homer's side.

He was dying, but a flicker of life bespoke the want that could only go
out with life.  She raised his head from the dust and kissed him on the
mouth.  He opened his eyes; they met hers, and an ineffable and
unearthly radiance overspread his face.

That was all.  He had found his way out of Jamestown.  Myron's was
still to seek.

He was quite dead when the others reached him.  His chest was battered
in, and the calk of one hind shoe had pierced through the thick brown
hair and brought death.

  "He has outsoared the shadow of our night,
    Envy, and calumny, and hate, and pain;
  And that unrest which men miscall delight
    Can touch him not and torture not again.
  From the contagion of the world's slow stain
    He is secure; and now can never mourn
  A heart grown cold, a head grown gray in vain."


Myron knelt by him, calling his name and imploring him to answer her.
Rough hands pushed her aside.  She fell, half-dazed.  When she came to
herself, My was crying by her, and a slow throng was moving towards
Homer's wagon, where it stood before the harness-shop.

Myron rose and ran after them, but was met by a frightful figure of
rage.  The mother of the dead man, who had witnessed his death, rushed
at her, shrieking out names of which "murderess" was the least hard,
and would have struck her, but some one caught the upraised arm and
bade Myron, with a curse, be gone.

Affrighted and bewildered, she caught up My and fled to the cottage.

Homer Wilson was carried in due time to the little graveyard.  There
followed a great train of slowly moving vehicles, for the Wilson family
connection was a large one, and his tragic death drew people to come
through morbid curiosity.  Mr. Prew preached and prayed at length, and
the throng lingered long about the grave.

Away behind the stone wall that flanked the far side of the graveyard
two figures stood hidden, watching the funeral rites from afar.

Myron had been refused admittance to the Wilson home when she had gone
to plead for one look at Homer's face.  She had been forbidden to enter
the graveyard.  But they could not prevent her bringing My through the
desolate fields to watch with baby eyes the burial of the man who had
saved his life.

There were many black-clad figures that day in the graveyard--many wet
eyes--many lamenting lips; but the real mourners stood afar off, as we
are told they did one day long ago when a cross with a living Burden
was upreared upon a hill.

Mrs. Wilson wept that Homer had been "took unprepared."  But who can
tell what penitence or prayer purged his soul when, between the
hoof-beats, he looked death in the eyes?  Who can say there was not
time for both plea and pardon in those seconds--if, indeed, there be
One to whom prayers go, from whom pardons come--if there be One to whom
a thousand years are but as yesterday when it is past, and as a watch
in the night?

Well, all these things are for us to strive with, and few there be that
bring back any trophy of truth from that warfare; yet "still we peer
beyond with craving face."

As for Homer Wilson--

  "Peace, peace!--he doth not sleep;
  He hath awakened from the dream of life."




CHAPTER XIX.

  "The road to death is life, the gate of life is death;
    We who wake shall sleep, we shall wax who wane.
  Let us not vex our souls for stoppage of a breath,
    The fall of a river that turneth not again."

  "All things are vain that wax and wane,
    For which we waste our breath;
  Love only doth not wane and is not vain--
    Love only outlives death."


The winter set in--a dreary, desolate winter of wind and rain, mud and
slush.  The snow never lay upon the ground for two days together, and
the air, unpurified by frosts, hung heavy and dank over the land.

A black New Year makes a green graveyard, says the old proverb; and the
wisdom of these old saws was demonstrated yet again that year in
Jamestown, for there was much sickness.  There was hardly a family that
had not lost a member, scarcely a house in which there was no illness.

"There's a turrible lot of sickness," said Mrs. Deans to Mrs. Wilson
one day at the church door.

"Yes, a turrible sight of it," agreed Mrs. Wilson.  "The old folks is
droppin' fast; but what's an ordinary sickness to what I've bore with?"

"That's so," said Mrs. Deans.  "But a living sorrow's worse than a dead
one, they say; and it's turrible when one's own flesh and blood goes
wrong."

"Yes," replied Mrs. Wilson; "but it's turrible discouragin' when
they're cut down in the midst and no one can say, 'What doest Thou?'"

Mrs. Wilson's tone implied that there might be some consolation if she
were permitted to "talk back" at the Lord.  Mrs. Deans noticed this and
said warningly:

"Don't murmur; whatever you do, don't murmur; we can't tell what a day
may bring forth.  Look at me, what I have to put up with--Henry all
crippled up and not able to earn salt for his bread.  No, don't murmur,
whatever you do."

"I ain't a-murmuring," said Mrs. Wilson, somewhat aggrieved.  "I'm sure
it ain't Homer; it's his soul I'm thinking on.  Might's well be took
off in a fiery chariot as killed the way he was."

"Oh, it's discouragin', I'm bound to say it is," condescended Mrs.
Deans.  "Enough to take the ambition out of one altogether.  I suppose
you haven't heard about old Mr. Carroll, have you?"

"Why, no," said Mrs. Wilson, abruptly suspending the task of sniffling
into her handkerchief under pretence of weeping.  "Why, no; you don't
tell me he's sick?"

"Yes, it seems he was taken last night with spasms, and they say he
might have died and no one been the wiser; but one of that Dedham tribe
he was always feeding up came over to beg something, and there he laid
on the floor."

"Well, for the land's sake!" ejaculated Mrs. Wilson.

"Yes, I'm going over after dinner.  I sent Myron Holder over to do
what's needed this morning.  They say the only words the old man's
spoke sence he was took was to tell them to send to town for a doctor."

Here Mrs. Wilson and Mrs. Deans parted, each joining different groups
and spreading the news of Mr. Carroll's seizure.

The women resolved to go and see the ins and outs of his house for
themselves--sickness is such an admirable excuse for impertinent
curiosity to gratify itself.

The men speculated as to what would become of his property.  There had
been a story at the time he bought the property, some hint of family
trouble, some whisper that he had "money back of him"--a hazy tale that
he had come to hide from some sorrow that pursued him.  But all
conjecture was so vague that, instead of giving birth to any definite
idea, it died away, only to be aroused when the village wondered at
some act of generosity upon his part.

Old Carroll lived among them quietly--paying his taxes, going his own
way and expressing himself freely upon every subject but his own
affairs.

A week after his seizure he died, and a lawyer's clerk came from town
and took possession of the house and charge of the funeral--in very
different fashion from what his neighbors expected, for the body was
taken away and sent to the great city, which in their eyes typified
Babylon with all its sin and splendor.

The lawyer's clerk spoke with much deference of the dead man, and
signified that the name of Carroll was high in the land; whereat the
villagers bethought themselves that they had entertained an angel
unawares, and were inclined to accuse the dead man of "doing" them.

Mrs. Deans boasted much of the intimacy of her husband with the old
soldier, and speedily forgot the latter's impious sneers at foreign
missions.

The farm was advertised for sale, and Disney bought the land he had so
long worked on shares.  Disney and his family moved into the empty
house.  Conjecture and interest gradually died away.

In the great city a woman with brittle, dyed hair and simpering lips
and powdered throat laughed as, turning over a trunk full of odds and
ends packed by the lawyer's clerk, she came upon a miniature set in
pearls--laughed and looked at the picture long; but the laugh died as
she noted the freshness of the pictured face.  Crossing the room, she
set the miniature against her own cheek and leaned close to a mirror,
comparing the two.  And presently she cast the painting from her and
fled from the mirror with widened eyes.

"I am old--old!" she said.  "He is dead, and I am old!  It is this
room, which is too light--it is glaring--horrible!"  And she drew even
closer the shades of silk, through which the light shone with a soft
roseate glow.  Then she searched for and found the picture where it had
fallen on a soft rug, and again went to the mirror.

But if the dimmer light softened the lines in her face, it gave the
pictured face another charm--the soft illusion of mystery and youth.
The woman gazed at the dual reflection long until her breath blurred
the mirror, so that all was blotted out save the brightness of the gold
frame and a pair of wild, questioning eyes.  A sharp sob parted her
lips, and the mirror was empty.

Not long after, this woman was found dead.  By her side was an empty
bottle, such as they sell poison in, and in her hand was a painting of
a beautiful woman framed in gold.  Those who found her said the picture
resembled her a little.

But this was far away from Jamestown, where Myron lived and suffered.
That winter was a very busy one for her.  Tender of touch, strong of
arm, brave of heart, she was an ideal nurse.  It is said a great grief
has before now made a poet out of what was only a man.  Myron's sorrows
had changed her from a commonplace woman to a creature of most subtle
sympathies.  The pleading of pained eyes was eloquent to her, and the
curves of dumb lips told her the tale of their sufferings.  The touch
of her hand brought rest, the pressure of her palms, peace; whilst the
infinite sympathy from a heart that had itself been smitten eased those
pangs which, keener than any physical anguish, rend those that are near
death.

But Myron herself reaped no blessing of peace from these duties.  What
a strange fantasy it is to dream, as many do, that the occupation of
nursing is one which heals a hurt heart and reconciles yearning hands
to their emptiness!  What dreary days did Myron not know!  What solemn,
silent nights, when alone, she sat at Misery's banquet and supped with
Sorrow--with shame, regret, and betrayed trust to hand the dish.

  "We live in deeds, not years; in thoughts, not breaths;
  In feelings, not in figures on a dial.
  We should count time by heart-throbs."


So some one says; and, reckoning by this higher notation, how many
centuries of weariness had not Myron lived?  The spring months came,
scarce changed in sky from those of winter, only the gathering heat of
the sun sent up "sorrow from the ground."  Malaria, influenza, and
typhoid overspread the country.  The whole neighborhood was gloomy.
The rain fell day after day.  The plough horses splashed through mud,
and the furrows filled with water behind the plough.

Myron had been working at a cousin's of Mrs. Warner's, whose baby was
sick unto death.  The child died, and its mother, in the first
rebellion of grief, had said to Myron:

"'Tain't just--I can't think it is--nor right, neither--for my baby to
be taken when there's so many left alive that ain't any use.  There's
old Humphries, and paralytic Henry Deans, and drunken Ann Lemon--what's
the good of them to anybody--it's a shame!"

Myron soothed her as well as she could, but she burst forth again:

"Fancy my child dead!  If it had been that young one of yours, now,
there would have been some sense in it--a young one without even a
name--that would have been a good riddance--but mine--mine!"

For once Myron's very soul was shaken with rage.  She turned where she
stood, and looked the other woman in the face.

"Oh!" she cried, "you wicked, wicked woman!"

The words carried all the accusation of outraged motherhood in their
tones.  The woman shrank back, and Myron, taking her boy, set off to
the village.

It began to rain before they were half way.  Myron's thoughts turned to
Homer.  She never forgot him for long at a time.  It falls to the lot
of few to be so sincerely sorrowed for.

She and My were both wet through when they reached the cottage, and
Myron was very weary with the boy's weight.  She lit the fire, and My
played about in the kitchen.  He was of a peculiarly sunny and equable
disposition--

        "One of those happy souls
  Which are the salt of the earth, and without whom
  The world would smell like what it is--a tomb."


Myron was glad when the time came for bed, for she was utterly weary.

The old clock on the wall was pointing to one o'clock, when Myron
suddenly started up, wide awake.  The mother instinct, keener than her
other faculties, had awakened her, not the boy.  For the strange, low,
gurgling sound he made would scarce have aroused the lightest sleeper,
and Myron had been sunk in the deep sleep of exhaustion.

In a moment she had the lamp alight.  The boy lay, his blue eyes wide
open, his round cheeks scarlet with the fatal flush of fever, his lips
swollen and parted in gasping respirations, his body almost rigid with
the efforts he made for breath.  One glance showed her this.  The next
instant she was undoing the little nightdress and shirt.  With
tremulous haste she placed some goose-grease in a little tin and strove
to melt it by holding it over the lamp.  The light was weak and
wavering.  She removed the chimney, and thrust the cup into the flame.
Her fingers scorched till the skin cracked; she did not know it.  She
applied the melted oil and flew to wet his parched lips.  The horrible,
croupy cough cut her to the heart as it issued from My's swollen
throat.  She used every remedy her homely skill suggested, some of them
efficacious enough often--but little My was dying.  His blue eyes were
filming; his baby lips twitching; the little hands, that had of late
grasped her fingers so firmly as to suggest protection, made wavering,
feeble movements toward her face and bosom, or clutched with waning
strength at his own tortured throat.

She knelt beside the bed.  She hardly dared touch the little form
before her lest the mother in her, which had grown fierce in her dread,
should cause her to clasp it too close.  She lifted her voice in
prayer, and cried aloud in frightful accents of despair, entreaty,
expostulation, nay, even of threatening.  No prayer more eloquent of
human agony ever beat against deaf skies, yet it was but the repetition
of one word--"My--My!"

An hour crept by.  The flush had deepened on My's cheeks; his eyes were
glazed.  Once again, in surpassing pain, Myron Holder called aloud her
child's name.  There came no heavenly answer; but the true little
heart, beating so faintly, responded once more to the beloved voice.
Little My's eyes cleared a space and his fingers closed round his
mother's.

"My's mama!"  He uttered the alliterative little babble in strange,
shackled tones.  The woman--his mother--felt a stricture at her throat;
she strove in vain to force it down as she answered:

"Mama's My."

A strange change passed over the little gray face, like a gleam of
sunlight on a wintry day--hardly that--like the watery nimbus of the
sun through a cloud.  It was little My's last smile.

"Mama's My," the woman whispered; and, true to his love-taught lesson,
My strove to give the answer, "My's mama."  The first word was
articulate, the last but half-shaped ere the stiffening lips were drawn
in the convulsion which ended time for little My.

Over him "the eclipsing curse of birth" had lost its power.

At daybreak nest morning a messenger knocked long at the door of the
Holder cottage.  He had been sent in haste to summon Myron back to the
house she had left in such anger the day before.  Finding he could get
no response, he lifted the latch and entered the kitchen.  It was
empty.  There was a strong odor of kerosene oil, and absolute silence
reigned.  The man crossed the kitchen to an open door, and looking in
saw the bedroom.  Upon a little table stood a lamp which had evidently
burned itself out.  The chimney was off, and a great sooty blotch
against the wall showed how the wick had smoked.  In a chair by the bed
sat Myron Holder, her eyes fixed straight before her--her pose
rigid--her face pale as that of the dead child she held upon her knees.

"What is it, Myron?" he gasped.

"He's dead," said Myron, in the hoarse tones of one whose throat
muscles are constrained and swollen.

The man turned and made for Mrs. Warner's.  The cottage soon filled.
Myron neither stirred nor spoke.  They took the child and prepared it
for burial.  They told her to eat, and she swallowed the bread and tea
they placed before her.  All her faculties were benumbed, absorbed in
an effort to realize her loss.

* * * * * *

The little plain coffin was in the kitchen, surrounded by a group of
people that filled the room--those who considered it part of a
Christian's bounden duty to attend funerals.  Mr. Prew, sent for by
Mrs. Deans, had just finished his address.  Myron, with bare head, and
hands clasped on her knees, was seated by the coffin, gazing down at
the face there, when there was a sudden stir at the door, and Mrs.
Wilson pushed herself through the throng.

"Wait!" she said, authoritatively, to Mr. Muir, who was advancing to
screw down the coffin-lid.  "Wait!"  Then she turned to Myron Holder.
"Listen to me, Myron Holder," she said.  "Is that child my grandson?"

"No," said Myron, rising to her feet, and giving a helpless look around
at the curious faces about her.

"What!" said Mrs. Wilson.  "What, you'll lie in the very face of your
dead child!  Lay your hand on that coffin, Myron Holder, and then tell
me if that ain't Homer's son!"

Myron sank by the coffin and flung her arms athwart it.

"_He is not!_" she cried.  Then her long calm gave way, and she began
to sob and cry.  "He belongs to none of you; he is mine--my own
baby--my own child--My--My!"

Mrs. Wilson left the house.  Mr. Muir put aside the clinging arms and
prepared the coffin for burial.  Some one led Myron to a wagon and she
got in.

Mr. Muir was not free from fears when they stopped at the paupers'
corner of the graveyard.  Myron looked around, half-dazed, when she
alighted, and, touched Mr. Muir's arm.

"Why here?" she asked, pointing to the open grave.  "Why not by father?"

"Your grandmother sold the other half of the lot," said Mr. Muir
hastily.

Mrs. Deans watched the little scene with much inward satisfaction.
Myron made no further sign, uttered no other word.  The coffin was
lowered into the grave.

Mr. Prew put up a prayer, in which petitions for the "child of sin" and
the "sinful mother" were about equally balanced.  The throng departed
each to his own place.  Old Humphries filled up the grave, and Myron
was left alone.

The next day she went to Mr. Muir's and inquired how much she owed him.
He told her, and to his surprise she paid him at once.  Then she set
out for town, along dreary country roads, betwixt desolate fields,
until she came to the outskirts of the straggling town; through these,
until she was absorbed in the hurrying throng that crowded the narrow
streets.

It was very late when she returned to Jamestown, and as she passed the
Deans place she encountered Gamaliel, just returning from some
expedition with his bosom friend.

"Hullo, Myron; where've you been?" he asked.

"I've been to town," said Myron, still in those strange, hard tones,
and passed on.

There was much speculation as to her errand, which was set at rest when
a few days later a wagon entered the little graveyard and the men who
came with it proceeded to put up a tiny white tablet at the head of a
new-made grave.  On it there was carved only one word, and that a short
one--MY--a word which in its brevity and meaning was not unsuitable as
an inscription over that grave.  Myron had spent the last penny of her
painful savings in marking the spot where her child lay.

  "Let grief be her own mistress still.
    She loveth her own anguish deep
  More than much pleasure.  Let her will
    Be done--to weep or not to weep."


So says the humanest of our poets; but such luxurious grieving is for
those who fare delicately and live in kings' courts.  Myron Holder had
her bread to earn--her feet were tied to the treadmill of toil.

So she fared forth on her journey as best she might; and then, and for
long after, Jamestown women told how Myron Holder perjured herself with
her hand on her dead child's coffin.




CHAPTER XX.

  "When some beloved voice, that was to you
    Both sound and sweetness, faileth suddenly,
    And silence, against which you dare not cry,
  Aches round you like a strong disease and new--
    What hope?  What help?  What music will undo
    That silence to your sense?"

  "I'll tell you, hopeless grief is passionless."


It was the season of the half-yearly revival meetings in Jamestown.
The little Methodist Church filled rapidly.  There was a _soupçon_ of
pleasurable excitement about a revival which was very enticing to the
youth of Jamestown.  Besides, all the "stiddy" young men were expected
to go, and they always did what was expected of them.

Mrs. Deans came in with the minister, her face, with its self-important
expression, irradiated with the glow of spiritual as well as worldly
well-being.  She had proffered her bid for the company of the
officiating ministers in good season, and the first of them had been
knocked down to her in consequence, much to the chagrin of the Mesdames
White, Wilson, Disney, and the rest, for they knew that the second
minister on the list was an old personal friend of Mrs. Deans and would
doubtless elect to stay at her house; thus they would have no
opportunity to display their pious zeal and forehanded housekeeping.

Mrs. Deans' self-complacency was veiled, but not obscured, by an
anxious air, as who should say, "I am not free of responsibility if all
does not go off well."

It is a weakness of such women to consider themselves divinely
appointed judges of the souls of their neighbors and friends.

The minister with her was pretty well hidden among the cluster of men
and women to whom Mrs. Deans was introducing him.  She introduced him
with discrimination, however.  She did not propose giving any one the
chance of prefixing a remark with "The other night when I was speaking
to Mr. Hardman," or "Mr. Hardman said to me the other day," unless she
felt quite sure the recipient of the honor was worthy of it.

But to her consternation, Mr. Hardman broke bounds, passed the confines
of the little group of important church members, and went out from one
to another of the men and women, picking out, with the unerring
divination of a man whose heart is in sympathy with the sorrows rather
than the joys of mankind, the oldest, most forlorn, most
miserable-looking of his prospective hearers.

To see the minister thus throwing away the apostolic benediction of his
smile upon old Ann Lemon and Clem Humphries whilst Mrs. White stood
with uplifted nose in the doorway, unnoticed, was an unholy thing, more
particularly as Mrs. White, willing to have her discomfiture shared by
some one else, turned to Mrs. Deans with a surprised air, and said:

"Why, I thought the minister was with you?"

"So he is," Mrs. Deans was fain to avow.  "We came a few minutes ago.
He is great on missions, I think, and young."  The latter half of her
sentence was given in the tone of a hostess who excuses a guest.  For
the rest, it is probable that both ladies regarded his present
occupation as distinctly a missionary effort.

Presently the minister straightened himself and proceeded up the aisle
to the platform.  Mrs. Deans' expression changed from an anxious,
proprietary one to one of spiritualized commiseration.  Was the
misguided man actually going to begin service without asking one word
about the ordinary routine of services in Jamestown Methodist Church?
If so, he would make a fine hash of it.

Besides she had not informed him that a collection was to be taken up
to defray the cost of extra lighting, etc., and she had promised Mr.
White at class-meeting to do so.  She had thought of telling Mr.
Hardman, but preferred waiting until the minister sought for
information before imparting it.  His opportunity for that was now
past, unless, indeed, he descended from the platform to do so.  A
pleasing thrill, inspired by this idea, turned to a chill as she saw
Mr. Hardman take from his pocket a well-thumbed and shabby little
Testament, and, opening it, seem to find a place.  Then he laid it
down, open, upon the big church Bible, and rose to pray.

Mrs. Deans' expression of anxiety was now unalleviated by any spiritual
exaltation; it was unvariegated gloom.  Any man who could disregard the
gilt edges, thick covers, and ornate binding of that book, and leave it
closed whilst he read from what her experienced eye told her was a
Bible Society Testament that probably cost ten cents, was certainly in
need of anxious watching.  Nor was it to be supposed that a discourse
begun upon lines like these would be productive of much good.  How many
sermons she had heard rounded off by the banging of those covers
together!  How many final injunctions had been given a dramatic and
artistic interest by the holding of that book, half-open, ready to put
a period to the peroration by a sanctified thud!

Well--Mrs. Deans sighed audibly.

Mr. Hardman began to read in a deep and sympathetic voice.  He was a
tall man, of twenty-eight, muscularly built, but not brawny; his
studies had been too close to admit of that.  He had square shoulders,
rather higher than they should be, and rounded with the stoop that the
scholar and the ploughman share.  His hands, as he raised them in
infrequent gestures, were seen to be rather broad and short--hands, it
would seem, of a mechanic, but not toil-stained.  Indeed, their
whiteness so ill agreed with their shape that a sense of something
incongruous forced itself upon one when looking at them.  His hair was
almost black, and was tossed and disarranged by his habit of running
his fingers through it.  His face was pale.

His brow was square and overhanging--of the penthouse order, rather
forbidding; the brow inherited from a generation of toilers, men who,
from their own bleak corner of the world, looked forth at the panorama
of life with sombre eyes, intrenching themselves behind a barrier of
silent endurance, concealing their weakness, their wants, their hopes
and fears, their few joys and pitiful ambitions behind an impenetrable
mask, until it would seem that their lineaments adjusted themselves to
their mental attitudes; and this, their son, presented to the world
this square brow, strong, secret, sad.  But its sternness, and alas! a
great deal of its strength, was negatived by the eyes which looked out
from beneath it.  Very dark-gray these eyes were, and made eloquent by
the expression of infinite love and sympathy for his kind; but their
dilating pupils evidenced an emotional nature, and they were somewhat
too soft for a man.  Yet, looking in steady kindness at the world, they
often seemed fit eyes for a strong, calm soul.

But Philip Hardman felt himself neither calm nor strong.  As he looked
upon the expectant faces of those before him, the doubt which was
gnawing at the heart-strings of belief suddenly seemed to grip his own
heart and brain and threaten each.

He had no message to give these people!  What were they there for?  Was
it not all a myth and a delusion?  Was it?

Then he broke the spell which held him, and his words rushed forth.
His congregation stirred and swayed and yielded--not to persuasion, for
of that there was none; not to the minister's personality, for they had
forgotten him; not in the hope of reward, for he spoke but of wrath and
pitiless requital of sin, and merciless judgment, and endless woe--they
yielded to their own fears.

For this man was lashing his own soul with the copy-righted invective
of his sect, pronouncing against himself and (as in the midst of his
mental agony he realized) against all mankind a doom of woe and wrath
if they did not believe.  He strove to terrify his own soul into the
submission it denied, and strove to awaken in the people before him a
reflex of the emotion he fain would feel.  They responded to his words,
but not to his feeling.  They wept and abased themselves because of the
fear, not because they feared unbelief.

Cold drops trickled down Mrs. Deans' face and be-dabbled her
second-best bonnet-strings.  Mrs. Wilson,  grew almost hysterical.  Ann
Lemon wondered vaguely if she had "the horrors," and held on to the pew
with both hands, whilst she looked about her with bewildered,
lack-lustre eyes.  Clem Humphries sat outwardly unmoved, but inwardly
vowing if he "once got out of this he'd never be wheedled into a
revival meeting again."

The younger men thought revival meetings "no slouch," as Gamaliel Deans
expressed it; and, comparing the excitement with that of a cock-fight
he had attended _sub rosa_ in the old brewery, he decided in favor of
the revival.

The minister's voice failed and faltered.  Like all magnetic natures,
his exhausted itself.  He paused, looked at the men and women before
him, and, realizing the shallowness of their facile emotions, felt the
pall of self-disgust envelop his soul.  A horrible contempt for himself
and them, even for the religion that had inspired this mental debauch,
overwhelmed him.  He shuddered as he realized the impiousness of his
own thought, left the platform, went swiftly down the aisle and out
into the darkness.

Mr. White closed the meeting, and prayed enthusiastically for the
"young brother who had so awakened them," and ended amid a chorus of
ejaculations.

Mrs. Deans, finding herself so agreeably disappointed, went home
content.  She wished to-morrow night were come.  What crises of emotion
might not be expected then!  She found Mr. Hardman pacing the veranda
slowly, his brow bare to the stars; his frame was relaxed and weary,
his eyes tired.  He refused any refreshment, and long into the night
Mrs. Deans heard him pacing back and forth.

* * * * * *

Another night had come, and Philip Hardman was again to stand before an
assembly of his fellows and voice the truths they held eternal.  Mrs.
Deans had no doubts now as to his competency.  She anticipated an
exciting struggle with spiritual foes, and the better to gird herself
for the fray, went early, leaving Mr. Hardman to follow.  She felt this
implied a delicate compliment to the preacher, recognizing in it a
simulacrum of John the Baptist's mission in the wilderness.

So Philip Hardman was left to walk the mile from the Deans farm-house
to the village alone.  It was evening--late evening in summer.  The air
was filled with that indefinite, receptive murmur the earth gives forth
as it opens its pores to the dew.  Without wind, there was yet a sense
of motion in the atmosphere, at once calming and exhilarating.  It
brought a keen sense of the fact that the world is rushing through
space, with its puny burden of men and their works.  The sun had set,
but the western sky was radiant with an amber afterglow, against which
the tree-tops in Mr. Deans' woodland showed a mass of dark, billowy
green, the light behind them intensifying the depth of their color, so
that they showed sombrely against the sky.

Before him stretched the dusty road, the grass at either side parched
by the heat; now and then a maple overshadowed him; now and then he
startled nested birds from out the low-growing trees of the wild plum.
He walked swiftly, the grasshoppers and little whirring insects and
dragon-flies flitting about his path.

At a turn in the road, where Mr. Deans' land joined Mr. White's, was
wedged in the little cemetery of Jamestown.  It was fenced with
sharp-pointed palings, over which the native virgin bower clematis
clung in feathery festoons, just blossoming out in fragile
greenish-white flowers.  Within, he saw the untidy graves and
inebriated gravestones of a country churchyard.  Those slanting stones
and graves, almost obliterated by masses of periwinkle and white-leaved
balm and ribbon grass, appealed to him strongly.

He looked at his watch.  He had started in fair time, but, lost in
thought, had walked very quickly.  He had time to linger a few minutes
here.  Perhaps amid the graves of Jamestown's dead he might learn the
open sesame to the hearts of the living.

He entered through a gap in the palings, pushing his way through a
little thicket of thorny locust bushes that had sprung up in a
scattered cluster.  The graves were nearly all marked by gravestones.
In Jamestown it was considered a mark of respectability to erect a
memorial to one's dead, but this done, all care for their graves
ceased.  Philip Hardman wandered about, noting the weather-beaten
grayness of the older stones and reading their inscriptions almost
mechanically.  One broad, thin slab, with a weeping-willow sculptured
upon it, bore a legend in memory of "Amelia Warner, beloved wife of
Josiah Warner, aged sixteen years."  Poor little wife!  In the fifty
years of her rest her grave had sunken almost level with the path; the
lichen on the stone was striving to obliterate her name there, even as
it had been long ago forgotten upon earth.  A wild hawthorn bush was
springing from under one corner of her tombstone and tilting it over
perilously.

Some of the more recent graves had odd little jingles of original rhyme
carven upon their stones.  One, of but a year before, bore the brief
prayer, too human for its glistening coldness, "Meet me in Heaven."
Hardman read the name on this grave with a little start--"Jennie Best,
wife of William Best."  Yesterday Mrs. Deans had pointed out William
Best and his new-made bride.  How futile and absurd the little legend
seemed!  But Jennie Best slept as securely and as sweetly as though her
husband still cherished in his inmost heart these last words of hers
and walked as though he hoped to realize them, instead of writing them
upon her tombstone and marrying within a year of her death.

There were graves of old and young in this little churchyard--men and
women, boys and girls, infants of days, and men of many years.  Beneath
one stone slept seven friends, who "perished in the yacht _Foam_ off
the coast"--a narrow space, truly, for seven to occupy, set in this
out-of-the-way village; seven such as these who had hoped to fill great
places in the world before their lives were laughed out by the little
ripples of the lake.

The shadows lengthened.  Gleaming through the dusk, Hardman noticed a
white stone with gilt lettering.  "Homer Wilson" was the name it bore,
but it meant nothing to the preacher; only he sighed as he noted the
age of the man sleeping there, and a half-envious thought crossed him,
as he looked around, that "these had completed their journey."

Philip Hardman turned his steps to the road again, but he paused yet
once more.  Close under the shadow of the high stone wall which bounded
the graveyard on the village side, he almost stumbled over a woman's
figure, which, in the deepening gloom, he had not observed.  She was
almost prone beside a little mound whereon the sods had not yet taken
root.  The woman's arms were outstretched toward the grave--almost
embraced it.  Her whole attitude spoke eloquently of a hopeless and
passive despair.

Hardman stopped a moment irresolutely; she had not observed him.

"You are in great trouble," he said, bending down and touching her
shoulder.

"Yes," she answered, raising her head without a start.  "Yes."

Her voice was painfully constrained.  The words seemed to issue with
difficulty, and the tones were harsh.  Speech seemed strangely
dissonant with the hour and place.  Her mute despair seemed the only
fitting emotion for the scene.  Her eyes, from out a pallid face,
looked up at him, filmed by misery.  Her cheeks were hollowed in
delicate shadows.  Her pale lips drooped.  She seemed the Mourning
Spirit of the place.

"Come and pray," he said, looking at her with infinite pity in his kind
eyes.  "Come," he urged.

He waited for her reply, but none came.  She was sitting by the grave
now, her hands locked round her knees, her eyes looking hungrily into
vacancy and seeing neither hope nor recompense for her pain.

A bat held its angled flight past them.  He roused himself to a sense
of time.  He looked down upon the woman at his feet, an expression of
ineffable compassion lit his face; then he turned to go.

As his eyes left that pallid face the scene seemed to darken suddenly.
He realized the lateness of the hour, and, finding his way out of the
graveyard, strode rapidly to the church.

After all, he was in time--indeed, had a few minutes to spare.  He did
not, however, again shock Mrs. Deans by a promiscuous friendliness.  He
went straight to the platform and sat down behind the reading-desk.
His thoughts reverted to the woman whom he had just seen, and he felt
he ought to have made a more eloquent appeal to her to come to church.
Mental habit led him to decide at once that prayer was the only
efficacious cure for grief such as hers.  It was thus with this man
always.  In calm moments, when all went well with him, he strove to
elucidate those problems of reason and right which presented themselves
to him in season and out of season--strove to live a life of austere
truth without factitious aid of self-delusion, without hope of ultimate
reward.

But in times of distress or pain, whether his own or others', he turned
again to his old beliefs, and prayer appealed to him as the only
panacea.  Orthodox folk plead this as a triumphant and sure vindication
of the truth of their creeds.  It may be in some cases, but in Philip
Hardman's it was only the result of inherent weakness of will and
vacillating decision, and, alas! a cowardly shrinking from mental
torture.  Face to face with grief such as this woman's, he could not
bear to look the inevitability of such bereavements in the face; could
not endure to think of the irreparable loss of a vanished life; could
not calmly recognize one single instance of what he was ever mourning
over--the sadness and futility of life.

He must hallow each blow as a "merciful dispensation;" muffle it from
prying eyes with the tabooed veil of "sacred predestination"; set it
beyond close scrutiny by asserting to himself the impiety of
questioning "divine will"; and at such times the beauty of his solacing
faith lit in his soul fresh fervor for the cause.

For a few moments Philip Hardman sat motionless.  The hands of the
clock reached the hour for service to begin.  His audience settled
themselves in the pews and stilled themselves to attention.

Mrs. Deans ostentatiously ceased her whispered remarks to Mrs. Wilson,
straightened herself in her seat, looked about with a critical and
judicial eye, and then, convinced that all was well, hemmed several
times expectantly.

Philip Hardman rose, and, in brief words, asked for Divine guidance
through the service.  He ceased.  The bowed heads were raised.  He was
about to begin the reading of the Scriptures, when, silently, slowly,
Myron Holder entered the open door and, advancing only to the nearest
seat, which happened to be in the farthest back pew, sat down.  So
quiet were her movements that, save by a few of the young men who had
taken the rear seats the better to observe the antics of the elect, she
was unobserved.

Philip Hardman, however, had seen her.  He changed his intention of
reading, and announced a hymn instead.  He wanted a few minutes to
familiarize himself with that tragic face before attempting to utter
any message of love or hope to the woman who had thus obeyed his
suggestion.  While the singing went on he looked at his audience, and,
in a flash, their narrow, sordid, often miserable lives seemed revealed
to him.  These were the people he had lashed with spiritual fears the
night before.  As he recalled it, his heart smote him with terrible
reproach.  His eyes grew dim as he looked at the people before him and
saw, shining through their midst, the pallid face of Myron Holder.

By what strange chance had this woman come to Jamestown?  For he
decided at once she was no native of the village.  The purely cut,
martyr face; the broad brow, sensitive lips, and cameo-like nostrils
were too utterly unlike the other faces in the church to be for one
moment associated with them.

There came to him a fantastic thought, that this woman was sent to bear
the griefs of this village, even as One long since--the Carpenter's
Son--had borne the griefs of the world and become a "Man of Sorrows and
acquainted with grief."  But alas! this woman had no divine message to
give; instead, she was wandering in the wilderness of hopeless despair.
But--and Hardman's hand tightened on his Testament--a message she
should have.

  "Other refuge have I none,
    Hangs my helpless soul on Thee.
  Leave, oh, leave me not alone!
    Oh, protect and comfort me!"

So they sang.  Philip Hardman found his place--

  "All my hopes on Thee are stayed,
    All my wants to Thee I bring;
  Cover my defenceless head
    With the shadow of Thy wing."


Rapt in an infinite sorrow for his kind--inspired by the need of this
woman of help--exalted by the dependence and confidence expressed in
the hymned words--seeing in all his audience but one pallid
face--Philip Hardman rose to speak.

This choosing of a subject upon the spur of the moment, to meet the
needs of one woman, was no disadvantage to him, for he was a fluent and
ready speaker, and his whole training had been that spontaneity was
absolutely essential.  He had none of the measured method that develops
a subject into "three heads and an application."  The evangelistic sect
to which he belonged abjures notes, and hops along to the halting
cadence of a quasi-inspiration.

Happily, however, it has now and then a man like Philip Hardman, whose
words flow freely forth, and never so eloquently as when heart and
sympathies are touched.  Hardman was never at a loss for words of his
own to translate his feelings into language; but this night his sermon
was but the enunciation of a sweet and comforting doctrine uttered in
the language of the Book which has preserved it.

"Come unto me, all ye that labor and are heavy laden, and I will give
you rest," he said, and held out as a free gift the inestimable boon of
peace.  "I will not leave you comfortless," uttered in his vibrant
tones, bore the assurance of divinest aid.  "Let not your heart be
troubled," he voiced as a sacred command to cease from grief, and then
the general invitation, "Let whosoever will drink of the water of life
freely."

With these words as a thesis, a human heart to be comforted, a soul
alight with belief and confidence, a rare natural eloquence to frame
his plea--was there any wonder that the sermon was effective, any
wonder that to the weary heart of the listening woman it appealed
almost irresistibly?

Perhaps Philip Hardman dwelt too exclusively upon the blessings of his
religion, ignored too utterly the thorn in the crown--offered it too
freely, avowed it too confidently.  But what will you?  Even the
greatest purists in religions faith find it hard to disabuse their
minds of the idea that martyrdom means and merits the Kingdom, and
Philip Hardman's theology was not of the sternest sort.

He felt, somehow, that this woman had suffered enough to win Heaven,
whether she merited it in other respects or not.  So he set himself to
present his faith to her in the most glowing aspect, always seconding
his message with his eyes.

Just as Philip Hardman saw but one face in his audience, so Myron
Holder was, after the first few moments, unconscious of any other
presence save his.  Her eyes had won a straight path to his face
between the heads and shoulders, and her gaze never faltered.  There
was a tall, white-shaded lamp on each side of the desk.  As she looked,
his figure, in strong relief against the light-blue background of the
walls, seemed to absorb and radiate the light.  It was simply an
ordinary optical effect, and Myron Holder herself recognized vaguely
that it was "only the light," and yet that pale irradiation around his
head seemed to add a dignity and sanctity to the man and lend his
utterance a deeper, higher import.

Her eyes never left his face--that kind, weak face, so full of
contradictions, whose beetling brow seemed ready to do battle for his
Faith, whose lips quivered with the feeling in his own voice.

Her eyes were hot and dilated from the long strain when, with hands
upraised above the standing people, he uttered the benediction, "Peace
I leave with you, My peace I give unto you; not as the world giveth
give I unto you.  Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be
afraid.  Amen."


Philip Hardman descended from the platform and strove to make his way
toward Myron, but he was hemmed in by outstretched hands, and had to
make his way slowly through a throng, all eager to say "Good-bye," for
he left on the morrow.  Myron was just stepping out of the shelter of
the porch when he overtook her.  He held out his hand, which she took,
her own toil-hardened one trembling in the clasp of his softer fingers.
He looked down at her and spoke with great gentleness:

"Did you take the message I gave you to-night?"

"Is it for me?" she asked.

"Surely," he answered.

"You do not know me; you cannot tell.  If you knew"----

"Whosoever will," he replied, with steady emphasis.  And in his heart
he marvelled at the humbleness of this woman, whose candid brow and
clear eyes bespoke her life.

Then, the man mingling with the priest in him, he continued, still more
gently:

"The message is even to the greatest sinner.  To see you is to know you
have the right of one of the least."

She put up two hands, clasped in miserable deprecation; her cheeks
flamed red an instant, then paled to a ghastly white; she turned
silently, and swiftly went down two steps of the broad entrance stair;
then pausing and looking back at him with a gaze such as one might fix
upon the flames before he steps into them, she said clearly:

"Ask Mrs. Deans who Myron Holder is!"  She slipped away, the gloom of
the unlighted street absorbing her figure, as though it gathered to
itself its righteous belonging.




CHAPTER XXI.

  "We are the voices of the wandering wind,
  Which seek for quiet, and quiet can never find.
  Lo! as the wind is, so is mortal life--
  A moan, a sob, a sigh, a storm, a strife."


Next morning Philip Hardman left Mrs. Deans' early.  He was leaving by
the first train from the little flag station which was at the far end
of the village; besides, he was determined to see Myron Holder.

Mrs. Deans had endeavored to dissuade him from this, but he was firm,
and, recognizing this, Mrs. Deans suggested that she accompany him upon
his mission; but he stated gently, but firmly, that he could achieve
better results alone.  Mrs. Deans felt bitterly aggrieved at being
treated thus, for behind his gentle words she read a settled
determination "to keep her out of it," as she phrased it to herself.

She bade him good-bye, however, with well-affected geniality, as he
stood upon her doorstep; but the shallow smile died very soon, and a
malevolent expression replaced it upon her fat features.

"I'll speak to Brother Fletcher about this," she said.  "That Hardman
is sorely puffed up in his own conceit and vainglorious!  Well, by
himself he can do nothing," she concluded, piously.

But whether it was the absence of the Lord or herself from Hardman's
side that was going to militate against his success she left
undetermined.  There might also have been some doubt in the mind of the
impartial hearer as to whether she was glad or sorry that his mission
was likely to be a failure.  Certainly her tone was not indicative of
any great grief.

She betook herself indoors, and set about preparing a fresh supply of
country dainties for the Reverend Fletcher.

Philip Hardman's face changed also after he turned it from Mrs. Deans'
self-contented countenance, and the new expression was not far removed
from one of disgusted contempt; and, it must be confessed, a somewhat
sneering bitterness made his keen eyes sombre.  He had asked Mrs. Deans
the night before who Myron Holder was, and had been told--told! but in
such a fashion!  Mrs. Deans' evil words still stung his heart with
shame for his kind.  He felt as though one had smitten his lips with
nettles.

And the pious speeches with which Mrs. Deans had besprent her
tale--bah!  It was like sprinkling a weak disinfectant over a heap of
filth.  It was indeed the "poison of asps" to hear Scripture--nay, the
very words of his Master--so defiled.

Well, Hardman compressed his lips and hurried on.

The morning was sweet and calm, the "shoreless air" very clear and
still, and, little by little, his spirit attuned itself to the hour;
shred by shred, the mantle of bitterness, fell from him.  The memories
of the evening mingled with the hopes of the morning, into a draught
that was very sweet to him.  When he reached the cottage door his eyes
were exalted, his lips calm, his heart confident.

The door was open, and through it he saw a bare room, the walls stained
a deep yellow with ochre; a carpetless floor, comfortless but clean; a
square table, with a coarse white cloth covering it, stood in the
middle of the room; upon it was some food.  Myron sat there alone, but
there was another plate laid, beside which stood a battered tin mug.
All this he took in at a glance, and then his eyes fastened upon the
woman's face.  She was as yet unconscious of his presence.  She sat at
the table in such position that the profile of her face was outlined
sharply against the bright yellow of the walls.

Her face, as he beheld it thus for the first time in clear daylight,
struck him with swift remembrance of an exquisite picture he had once
seen, a meek-mouthed Madonna painted on a bright brass plaque.  There
was the same pose of head, the same heavy knot of nut-brown hair, the
same outward sweep of the lashes from the same drooped lids, the same
exquisite line where the cheek softened to the throat.  But, alas!
there was no heavenly nimbus round this living head, no holy glow of
happy maternity, no pure halo of womanhood.

[Illustration: A MEEK-MOUTHED MADONNA.]

At that moment Myron turned towards the doorway, and, as her eyes met
his, his imagination suddenly supplied the aureole that before she
seemed to lack, and, in completion of the picture, a stray line or two
of poetry came back to him with all the happy force of applicability:

            "Eh, sweet,
  You have the eyes men choose to paint, you know;
  And just that soft turn in the little throat,
  And bluish color in the lower lid,
  They make saints with."


He started as he realized that he was comparing the Madonna to this
unblest mother--an ideal of saintly beauty to this sinning one.  But
all in an instant there came to him a swift certainty that this was not
the face of an evil woman.  This woman bore in her countenance the
indelible lines of pain and suffering, the ineffaceable traces of
bodily and mental anguish.  She had been bowed beneath the burden of
woman's inalienable heritage of agony, had lived through the Gethsemane
of childbirth and won to the heights of motherhood's Golgotha--a
child's grave.  But in all this, remember, there is nothing vile; it is
only infinitely pitiful.

Whilst he gazed and thought these things swiftly, she had risen from
her place and stood with clasped hands and down-bent head--so like a
prisoner awaiting sentence that he felt a great throb of pity.  He took
a step forward and held out his hand.

"I am going to the train," he said; "but I came away early, that I
might see you."

"You are very good," she faltered; "but"--she hesitated.

"But what?" he urged gently, holding both her hands and looking down at
her.

"Do you know who I am?" she asked.

"Yes," he answered, "I know everything."

"You asked Mrs. Deans!" she said in an incredulous voice.

He flushed at the tone.  It told so clearly that she fully understood
what Mrs. Deans would say; and somehow it seemed to link him with Mrs.
Deans, as if he and that worthy woman stood on one side of a river and
Myron Holder alone on the other.  He could not bear that.

"Yes, but I always judge for myself," he said quickly.

"Oh!" she said.  "You are----"  She stopped, but gave the note of those
swift glances of ineffable gratitude that had so often stirred Homer's
heart.

And, looking at her thus, Hardman forgave her everything, "for Love
pardons the unpardonable past;" and this man from that moment loved
her, although he did not yet know it.

"Your child was very dear to you," he said, glancing at the table,
where the two plates stood, although there was but one to sit at the
board.

"Ah, so dear!" she answered.

Then, after a moment's pause, she went on swiftly:

"Oh, you can understand what it was--surely you can see--you are so
good!  He was everything to me, absolutely everything!  The thought of
him kept me from greater sin!  I was nearly blind with weariness, and
the way was getting dimmer and dimmer to my eyes; but his laugh showed
me where the right road lay, and, when I found it again, his steps kept
me company!  Oh, can you think what it is to see the only creature--the
only living thing in all the world--that loves you--die?"  She looked
at him, an interrogation so poignant as to be imperative in her eyes.

"Yes," he said, "we are two lonely souls, Myron.  In all the wide earth
there is none who cares whether I live or die."

"I am so sorry," she said.  "Only, you are so good you can have friends
for the seeking.  As for me, I am not fit to be any one's friend.  I
had one friend here, but he is dead too"--she added the last sentence
with a strange, swift sense of justice.  Even though Homer was dead,
she could not bear that he be classed with those others who had been so
cruel.

"Yes," answered Hardman, "I heard of him."

"Did she tell you that he died to save My's life?" she asked.

"Yes, she told me," he answered.

There was a pause, then Myron said:

"It was so good of you to come!"  He noticed the harsh tones of her
voice.

"Have you a sore throat?" he asked.

"No," she said; "but my child died of suffocation.  His throat was
swollen with inflammation and croup, and when he tried to speak to me
his voice was hard, like mine is now.  It made my own throat ache; and
ever since, the pain has been there and I have spoken in this way."

Thus, simply, Myron told of that marvel, that extraordinary instance of
the power of Love.  For this was indeed so.  In Myron's case had been
made manifest one of those marvellous mysteries of the human mechanism
that now and again thrills the scientist with a burning zeal to
discover the real relation between mind and matter, to enter the
penetralia of humanity and learn its secret.  That desolate night in
the cottage the mother-heart apprehended each pang of the choking
child, and the mother endured in her own organism a like agony.  How
sad to think she had no Divine license to do so!  How strange that such
a love should spring from shame!

Hardman's mind grasped the significance of her words upon the instant.
For a moment the realization of this woman's strength held him silent.
Then he remembered her loneliness and bent towards her.

"Myron," he said, "will you be my friend?"

"Oh, do you mean it?" she asked, breathlessly.

"Assuredly," he said.

Then once more Myron gave her hands as a seal of friendship.

There was only a short time left after that--a few moments of earnest
prayer from Philip Hardman--a few words asking her to go to the rest of
the meetings--a brief promise from her and briefer acknowledgments of
his goodness faltering between her sobs--then Hardman had said
good-bye, and his form was already vanishing from sight before Myron
realized that she was once more alone.

Philip Hardman hurried to the station and caught his train.  The first
stage of his journey was short, only some fifty miles to the city,
where he was to meet the Reverend Mr. Fletcher.  He found him at the
depot, ready to go to Jamestown.  In a few hurried words Hardman told
him of Myron Holder--of her sin--her punishment--her sorrow.  He
commended her to Mr. Fletcher's prayers, and asked him to preach so
that her diffident heart might find some message in his words.

Mr. Fletcher promised, and expressed with some little emphasis a hope
that Hardman's own labors might be blest.

Then he departed.  His train was just pulling out when Hardman ran up
to the open window, by which Mr. Fletcher had settled himself.

"You'll be gentle with her, Brother Fletcher?  She is indeed a bruised
reed."

There was no time for answer.  Mr. Hardman did not witness the scorn
with which this advice--no entreaty--was received.  He stood looking
after the swiftly vanishing train somewhat sadly; then, rousing
himself, went to find out about the train that was to take him to his
new charge.

Philip Hardman's father had been a mechanic, a life-long worker in one
of those sooty, befouling foundries where the great furnaces gleam like
so many mouths of the Pit--where all day long there is the roar of
flames, the blast of hot air, the clang of metal, the heat of Hades,
the hiss of molten iron, the angry flight of sparks struck from huge
anvils; all the haste and fury and dumb-brutish endurance of men
working at the top notch of physical exertion, rushing hither and
thither like demons before the fires, or clad in grotesque masks and
armor, turning great masses of glowing, cooling metal so that the
steam-hammers may forge them into shape.

In this atmosphere Philip Hardman's father had spent all his life since
he was a little lad, carrying water to the workers--water in which
flying sparks quenched themselves, hissing.  It would be no wonder if
from a race of fathers, such as these blackened workers, gnome-like
children were to be born, all action and no thought; swift, tireless,
inhuman.  But these men, darting about in the glare of the dusky fires,
like devil-ridden spectres, had, some of them, time for thought.
Indeed, the man who moves unmoved amid these masses of incarnate heat,
steps over and around streams of liquid fire, watches those infernal
lakes, plumbago-shored, which one single drop of water converts into
death-dealing volcanoes, and stands beside a torrent of molten iron as
it flows from the crucible, ready to dam its resistless tide on the
instant, may well be credited with capacity, if not time, for thought.

To Philip Hardman's father during those long, hot hours of breathless
haste there came ideas--distorted, meagre, and ill-developed,
perhaps--which, when he left the works at night, pallid-faced beneath
the grime, still bore him company: nebulous visions of great
labor-saving devices by which men forever would be exempt from the
dreadful toil that scorched both soul and body.

There was many a rich germ dormant in these ideas of his, but lacking
the cohesion of long, uninterrupted thought, and wanting the quickening
of accurate knowledge.  For there lay Philip Hardman's great
stumbling-block.  To perfect his inventions, he required a knowledge of
chemicals and of different forces and their application, and an insight
into the cause of the effects he wished to produce.

How blindly, painfully and heart-brokenly he toiled after this
knowledge no one ever fully appreciated.  His son, long years after his
death, realized it in some fashion.  He did not ask assistance of any
one, for he feared, with the traditional dread of the inventor, lest
the one from whom he sought advice should steal his idea.  He saved, to
buy books that were useless to him, and pored over their misleading
pages with eyes from which all moisture seemed scorched away, until the
very eyeballs themselves felt hot and hard; but he kept them painfully
fastened upon those pages from which he strove to wrest a secret they
did not hold, to learn those things which would enable him to set free
forever his fellows from the necessity of enduring that soul-baking
heat.

Perhaps his invention, even if perfected, would not have compassed all
he dreamed it would, for he was prone to endow it almost with thinking
as well as executive powers, and to think of it as animated by a great
zeal for mankind as, with its nerveless phalanges, it performed those
awful tasks.  Perhaps there may be greater ideals than the thought of
setting men free from one of the most terrible and exhaustive forms of
labor; but none knew better than this man the terrors of heat, none
understood more clearly how the mind narrowed as the body shrank before
the stifling blasts.  And, after all, if we all set ourselves to
alleviate the special misery we understand, there would be fewer
misshapen lives in the world.

Well--

  "How many a vulgar Cato has compelled
  His energies, no longer tameless then,
  To mould a pin, or fabricate a nail!"


Philip Hardman's mother was a woman of a hysteric nature, who scarcely
thought enough of this world to make her husband and children
comfortable in it.  The children were narrow-chested, weak little
creatures.  They heard from her lips terrible tales of the wrath to
come, couched in symbolism they well understood, for their father
worked daily amid just such scenes as their mother depicted the abode
of the damned to be.  The parallel between the Hades her words pictured
forth and her husband's life never struck Mrs. Hardman.

Even when her husband died--going to his grave a broken-hearted man,
barren of achievement, leaving not one labor-saving device, not one
little bolt or wheel called by his name--she did not regret or realize
the hard life he had had, nor think she might have made it easier.  She
only tortured herself daily by wondering if she had sufficiently
represented to him his lost condition.

It is to be feared that she was more interested in convincing herself
that she was free of responsibility than that he was saved.

In time, however, she began to feel that she had done her best, and,
feeling it would be too much like "them Catholics" to pray for the soul
of a dead man, she turned all her attention to her own.  Doubtless she
was right; and yet, is it not a beautiful myth to think that prayer
from a loving heart may benefit those we love, even if they have passed
"beyond these voices"?

If we must needs pick and choose delusions, why not take those
unselfish ones, so beautiful, if inutile?  Is it not an idea really
worthy of a Divinity to think that by our self-flagellations our loved
ones may be freed from stripes?  Are there not some of us who would
gladly thus requite debts of incalculable benefits received--some of us
who would dare accept even a Hell to know our loved one had a Heaven?

Philip Hardman's father had belonged to various insurance societies,
such as workmen form for mutual benefit.  It would have sufficed to
keep life in all the children until such time as they became
self-supporting; but one by one they died, until only Philip was left.
He worked in the "pattern-shop" in the works until he was twenty, when
his mother died.  Then he took the residue of his father's insurance
money and his own savings and went to school.

It is not strange that he should choose the ministry.  He had inherited
all his father's love for his kind and much of his mother's fervor of
purpose, added to which he had his own birthright of lofty idealism;
but he had also something of the weaknesses of both parents.  His
mother's instability clung to him and made him vacillating, and the
secrecy of his father in regard to his inventions survived in him under
the guise of habitual reticence.  He was deeply impressed with the
sadness of life, and thought he saw in religion the one panacea for
pain.  Besides, he too wished to flee from the wrath to come.

He had been preaching some seven years when he visited Jamestown, and
during that time he had bitten through to the ashes more than once.
The fruit he held against his lips was losing even its fair seeming.

His charges were always amid the poor, and he was beginning to rebel
against a doctrine that accused a Divine Being of all the cruelties
life holds.  "The poor have the Gospel preached to them" he had once
looked upon as the expression of Divine benefaction; now it struck him
as being redolent of a peculiar and brutal sarcasm.

Philip Hardman had all his life thought of his religion as only true
when environed in an atmosphere of severity.  One day, just after a
tumult of doubt and a corresponding influx of faith and confidence, he
went into a Roman Catholic cathedral.  The exact reason for this is
hard to divine.  Perhaps it may have been some mad thought of attacking
Rome in her own citadel.  At any rate, he went in and sat down, looking
about him with righteous contempt at the "idolatrous images" in their
carven niches.  His religious dreams had ever been barren of that
ecstasy which springs from the grandeur and dignity of gorgeous
ceremonials, sonorous chanting, vibrating music.  He had never
experienced the breathless hush of suspense between the intoned
invocation of priests and the thrilling choral response.  He had never,
at the clear-tongued ringing of a bell, let fall his head and abased
his spirit.  But now he experienced an emotion such as possessed the
monks of the Rosy Cross, when to their fervid vision the stony walls of
their cells parted and disclosed vistas of heavenly beauty.  He adored
with the fervor of the true fanatic The Church--saw her for the first
time in the light of a beautiful mistress, to be worshipped alone--for
herself--her beauty--her charm--her power.

Philip Hardman left the cathedral, his eyes kindled, his step light.
He had had doubts of his love, but they were all gone now.  He had been
dwelling apart from her; he had but heard echoes of her voice; he had
never seen her as he should have seen her, at home--mystical, with dim,
subdued and vaporous light, clad in gorgeous vestments; incensed with
heavenly odors, irradiate with a hundred colors as the sunlight fell
through the painted windows and the altar lights smote answering flames
from the gold of the altar; served by humble servitors made holy by
their service.

He had regarded her as a poor bride, without a wedding garment, chilled
by the cold breath of the world, abashed by the insulting sneers of the
ungodly.  He now beheld her as she was, a Queen upon a throne, in all
the regal magnificence of her regal state.

He was no longer the cherisher of a feeble flame, striving to make it
shine in darkness; he was an humble slave of a great lamp, blessed if
the farthest-reaching rays from the sacred centre of light shone upon
his unworthy head or gilded his outstretched hands.  He had thought of
his creed pitifully as a "torn leaf out of an old book trampled in the
dirt."  There was none of that here--no apology--no plea; there was
only a triumphant pæan of a glorious creed, a sad mourning over those
that were without it.

This spiritual exaltation working upon his eager nature imparted to him
a physical stimulus exhilarating and strange.  He strode along
vigorously.  He felt that he was "strong and fleet" in spirit, mind,
and body.  He walked on; the day waned; distinct thought had long since
departed.  His mood, which in an Oriental would have induced the coma
of the hasheesh eater, prompted him hazily to form great plans for the
good of his kind.  The good of his kind?  No, the glory of The Church.
He followed few of these plans to any conclusion.  They ended as they
had begun, in nebulous imaginings of glory.  And, as glory is easily
transferable from the worshipped to the worshipper, the ending of his
dreams included a cloud of incense to himself--the incense of approval,
admiration, and the sweet savor of self-inflicted martyrdom.

He walked on, pitiably unaware of the St. Simeon Stylites attitude he
had assumed.  Night dimmed down; the wind rose, dead elm leaves were
blown across his path, rustling under foot.  The night wind, chill with
first frosts, aroused him with a shiver to remember where he was.  He
found himself in the country; long vistas of barren fields stretched
out before him a dreary panorama.

The gray sky was darkened by crows flying silently towards their
nightly roosts.  He passed pools of lifeless water, choked with sodden
leaves.  A laborer slouched by--a laborer from the railway going home,
content because he had earned double pay for a Sunday's work.  The odor
of decaying vegetables somewhere near struck painfully upon Hardman's
senses.  This, he thought, with disgust, was the odor of nature--of the
world.

The night suddenly dropped down from the clouds, and the darkness urged
him to seek shelter.  He approached a cottage he observed dimly,
finding his way to it up an uneven lane bordered by a fantastic fence
of uprooted stumps, whose ragged branch-like roots, twisted and
distorted, stood out in solid black masses against the insubstantial
mist of the night.  He shuddered.

It seemed to his supersensitive fancy that these grotesque shapes were
huge simulacra of the animalculæ that the microscope discovers in
water.  His muscles shrank as he imagined these huge shapes, unseen but
not unseeing, writhing through the air, flourishing their weird forms
over and around his head, embracing him with their elastic antennas and
moving with him encircled in their horrible, impalpable embrace.  With
what devilish skill they swept nearer and nearer to him, avoiding him
by a hair's breadth, and perceiving how his spirit shrank from their
approach!  He gazed up into the night, striving to see there the
dreadful shapes his fancy had woven into a Dante-like vision.  The side
glimpses his eyes held of the fantastic forms of the roots projected
themselves upon the curtains of the night before him.  His breath
quickened; he felt stifled; he withdrew his gaze from the clouds and
fastened it upon his path, which, to his distorted fancy, seemed to
contract until it narrowed down to an impassable barrier of
threatening, twining arms.

He stumbled on.

As he staggered across the threshold of the cottage he brushed through
a mass of dried, sweet grass, cut down and left to wither in the
pathway.  Its snuff-like odor brought back the incense of the
afternoon.  With a strong revulsion of feeling, he threw off alike the
sensuous charm of the odor and the horrid phantasmagoria that his
imagination had conjured up.

He knocked at the door, feeling a self-disgust that amounted almost to
physical nausea.

Philip Hardman after this was especially bitter in his sermons against
Rome--her priests--her altars--her incense--her teachings.  He regarded
himself as having escaped, hardly by the skin of his teeth, from the
clutches of the Scarlet Woman that sitteth upon the Seven Hills, and
besought his hearers oft, with all his own peculiar eloquence, to keep
themselves withdrawn from the temptations of Rome, of which, he avowed
almost with tears, he had felt the power.

This experience has no bearing upon the story of Myron Holder, save
inasmuch as it indicates the emotional instability of Philip Hardman.
Poor Myron!




CHAPTER XXII.

  "Behold, we know not anything!
    I can but trust that good shall fall
    At last--far off--at last, to all;
  And every winter change to spring."

  "O Wind, if winter comes, can spring be far behind?"


Mr. Fletcher arrived in Jamestown in due time and was met at the
station by Mrs. Deans.  Hardly had they started upon their drive to
Mrs. Deans' before Mr. Fletcher inquired about Myron Holder.  Mrs.
Deans launched forth eloquently, and Mr. Fletcher was soon in
possession of the same facts and fancies concerning Myron Holder as
Philip Hardman had been deluged with; but the Reverend Fletcher viewed
the recital differently.  He regarded Mrs. Deans' indignation as being
the natural feeling of a good woman toward a bad one, and saw in this
drawing away of the skirts nothing derogatory to Mrs. Deans' womanhood.

The church was filled that evening, and many eyes watched the door
eagerly, for the probable appearance of Myron Holder had been a much
discussed theme that day.  Many of them had missed seeing her the night
before, but there certainly was no danger that the like would occur
again.

The Reverend Mr. Fletcher entered with his hostess, and, like the
clever church diplomat that he was, spoke to the class-leaders and the
elect, and smiled benignly but condescendingly upon the lesser lights,
and then proceeded, without further parley, to the platform.  He was a
hard-faced man, with hawk-like features, coarsened by wind and weather;
keen, hard eyes, wherein passion had left its light but not its warmth;
strong, square jaws, that indicated at once the tenacity and
stubbornness of the man.  The Reverend Fletcher was indeed a good
specimen of the evangelist who goes forth with the Sword of the Smiter
rather than the Balm of the Healer.  There was no fear of his beguiling
any one by false promises of perilous peace.

When he had taken his position behind the reading-desk, he too began to
watch the door.  From Mrs. Deans' description of Myron Holder he had
formed an idea of her appearance.  He looked to see some flaunting,
rustic beauty, bold of eye, brazen of deportment, gayly dressed
perhaps, and defiant of bearing.

It lacked but a moment or two of the time for service when Myron Holder
entered the church.  She paused a moment in the doorway, looking about
her for an inconspicuous seat.  There was one but a step from the
doorway; she sank into it.

The Reverend Fletcher observed her pale face shine, star-like, for a
moment against the darkness of the unlighted porch ere she stepped
within the church.  He decided instantly that this was indeed one of
the elect, and gave no further thought to her.  His whole attention was
absorbed in looking for the sinner for whose soul he was to do battle.
He thirsted for the fray, but the minutes passed and no one else
entered, so he took up his discourse, and soon had his congregation in
a spiritual tumult.  Ejaculations came thick and fast from his hearers,
and there were as many weeping women as any preacher could desire; but
the heart of the Reverend Fletcher was hot within him against She, the
godless one, who sat at home whilst the warnings and threatenings
prepared for her were poured into the ears of every one else in the
village.

Meantime Myron sat half-dazed.  Truly this was another doctrine than
the one she had listened to the night before.  Where, amid all these
words, was the promise of the pitying Christ?  She was out and away the
moment Mr. Fletcher uttered his last Amen.  As he stood mopping the
perspiration from his brow she was speeding through the silent street,
and by the time the church was empty she had flung herself, sobbing, on
her bed.

When the Reverend Mr. Fletcher discovered that, after all, Myron Holder
had been in the church, he was decidedly disgusted.  He always liked
aiming his remarks at some particular person, and always felt as though
he were firing blank cartridges when he could not see the target.
Therefore he was more than annoyed to find that he had so scattered his
fire when he might have taken accurate aim at Myron.  He remarked to
Mrs. Deans, with some irascibility, that her description of Myron
Holder had been somewhat misleading.

"Oh, she's deep," said Mrs. Deans; "and that sly there's no being up to
her.  Always goin' about as if butter wouldn't melt in her mouth; but
as for wickedness and genuine, inborn badness!  Why, Brother Fletcher,
it's my belief and solemn opinion that she was jest makin' a set at
Brother Hardman with them eyes of her'n.  I'm glad, Brother Fletcher,
that Brother Hardman was called away.  He was very young, Brother
Hardman was--very."

The Reverend Mr. Fletcher, recalling Hardman's words at the depot,
decided that Myron was a dangerous creature--a sly serpent, evidently,
in a dove's disguise.  The Reverend Fletcher girded his loins to the
fray, and was fain to look well to his breastplate of righteousness and
to give thanks that it had fallen to his fate to emulate Saint Anthony.

Mrs. White and Mrs. Wilson were invited to take tea "along with the
minister" next day, and Mrs. Wilson played her role of sorrowing mother
to perfection.  The two other ladies paid her the delicate compliment
of looking fixedly at her for a moment, then shaking their heads
lugubriously and exchanging a meaning glance with each other.  When the
cockles of their hearts were warmed by the Japan tea, they began making
allusions to "dispensations," and "afflictions," and "merciful
Providences" (terms which in the vocabulary of the sanctified seem to
mean the same thing); and Mrs. Wilson began making remarks about
"troubles" which were not very intelligible, owing to her beginning
them with a sniff and ending in a snivel.

All this fired the zeal of the preacher to no small degree.  He
resolved they should see the strength of the spiritual sword when
wielded by his hands.  He assured them that the stubborn neck of the
offender should be bowed beneath the Scriptural yoke; that the flinty
heart of the sinner should be broken, and that the cause of all this
trouble and scandal should be made to do penance.

These cheerful predictions filled the hearts of his hearers with much
joy, and they parted in a little flutter of excitement to meet again at
the church, where they anticipated, as Mrs. White expressed it, that
"Brother Fletcher would show that Myron Holder up in her true colors."

That night Myron sat again in that far-back seat, and again the
spiritual thunders of the Reverend Fletcher spent themselves over her
head.  In all his harangue there was no word to touch her soul.

Death--death--death--was the burden of it all.  Now death is a bogy to
fright happy children with, not weary women.  Life had been so bitter
to this woman that its antithesis could not be aught but alluring.

* * * * * *

It was the last night of the Reverend Fletcher's ministration in
Jamestown.  For three nights he had fired volleys of fire and brimstone
at Myron Holder; for three nights she had sat patient, pale,
unmoved--her eyes growing wearier and wearier, her face sadder and
sadder, as her hope of finding peace grew less and less.  It was such a
vague hope, not concerned with repentance of sin at all, but wholly
comprehended in an ineffable longing for the fabled rest of Philip
Hardman's preaching.  She had heard no further word of it, and she was
beginning to doubt if she had heard aright that night when the
sweetness of the words had left a tiny germ of hope behind.

The Reverend Mr. Fletcher was also sorely troubled.  His reputation as
a revivalist was at stake.  The eyes of the village were upon him.  It
is true that he had had a great measure of success.  Every night the
anxious-seat had been filled with weeping women.  Ossie Annie Abbie
Maria White had waxed fairly hysterical as she avowed her sins; Ann
Lemon had howled forth a lengthy lamentation of her wickedness; Sol
Disney had professed conversion, after "resisting the workings of the
spirit within him for twenty-seven years," as he testified.  But all
this garnered grain was but as tares in the sight of the Reverend
Fletcher because of that one stubborn thistle that refused to bow its
head to the Scriptural sickle.

But the Reverend Fletcher was a strategist as well as a fighter.  He
recalled what Mrs. Deans had said regarding Myron's inordinate love for
her child, and, remembering, resolved to win Myron Holder's soul
despite herself.

With this resolution strong within him, he took his place for the last
time before a Jamestown audience.  It ought to have been very
gratifying to the ministerial eye--that audience--for all the village
was there.  All--save with one notable exception.  Clem Humphries'
place before Mrs. Deans' was vacant, and never again would he vex that
worthy woman's soul by his presence in the Jamestown Tabernacle.  Clem
had left Jamestown.  The night before this last meeting Clem, willing
to sustain his role of a religious individual, rose in his place and in
sepulchral tones asked for the prayers of the congregation.  It is
probable that such a request was never so promptly granted before, for
hardly had he resumed his seat before Ann Lemon was upon her feet.

Always voluble, Ann had no difficulty in finding words wherewith to
address the Lord, which she proceeded to do upon Clem's behalf, as
follows: "O Lord," she commenced.  "save this sinful man who seeks Thy
aid!  You know what he is, O Lord!  You know his pretences, his
hypocrisy, his sinfulness; but save him, for You can!  You know what a
sinful man he is, far beyond any hope of good in this world; but, oh,
save him!  You know he drinks, putting an enemy into his mouth to steal
away his soul!  You know he lies, and is lazy, and is a
Sabbath-breaker, spending in sinful sport the hours when he should
worship Thee!  You know he makes his religion just a cloak for his
deceit!  You know all this, for nothing is hid from Thee!  You know he
oppressed the widow all last winter; but save him, Lord, for You can!
Save him now, whilst he seeks Thy aid!  You know he did it for his own
ends, to make people believe in his goodness; but save him now--now, O
Lord, when he can't get out!  Save him in spite of himself--make him
indeed one of Your sheep!"

Ann sat down, amid a chorus of Amens, and Clem was eagerly besought to
testify; but Clem was literally dumb with rage, and sat mute whilst the
Reverend Fletcher prayed that the "new-found brother might be given the
gift of holy speech" that he might "show forth the mercy he had found,"
concluding by giving thanks for the conversion of this great sinner.
And this to a man who had been so long a favored one with the godly in
the land!  It was too much.  Clem trembled with rage.  Ann's life would
hardly have been safe at that moment could Clem have laid hands on her.
As it was, she did not fall in his way, and old Clem took French leave
of Jamestown that night, shaking the dust from off his feet as a
testimony against it.  He resolved as he left the village never again
to try to keep up with the religious folk.  Clem decided they made the
place too hot for him.

The Reverend Fletcher rose and began his address.  Robbed of its
exuberance of expression it was an effective one.  He concluded with an
impassioned appeal to his hearers to accept the truth.

"Is there," he said, "none among you to whom there appears a little,
lonely grave, whose whispering grasses plead to you to think of the
little one buried there?  Wandering alone in Heaven, seeking there the
love it had on earth, already wearied by its long waiting, already
faltering as it searches for the loved face, already heart-sick as it
listens to the angels singing the names of the saved on earth--but
never, never hears that loved name in the heavenly roll-call?  Is there
none among you who has an empty heart?  Is there none among you who
feels, in memory only, the loving touch of baby fingers?  Is there none
among you who, in dreams only, hears a baby voice cry 'Mother--Mother'?
If there is such a mother, will she sit stubbornly silent here whilst
her lonely child--orphaned even in Heaven because of her
hard-heartedness--searches ever on and on for the mother that will not
come to him?"

Mr. Fletcher paused.  There was breathless silence for a moment, then
there was a stir far back near the door.  The congregation moved,
looked round, and murmured.  A woman's figure came swiftly down the
aisle, reached the clear space before the platform--stood--wavered.
The next moment Myron Holder had fallen to the floor, prostrate as a
novice beneath the pall.

Myron Holder and the Reverend Fletcher stood alone in the empty church.
Mrs. Deans waited impatiently outside.  She had never dreamed Mr.
Fletcher would treat her thus!  The noise of the departing congregation
was dying away, and Mr. Fletcher was carrying out a stern resolution he
had made.  He was talking to Myron Holder of her sin and its enormity;
upbraiding her for the past, and cautioning her against the future.
She listened meekly, admitting her sin and saying no single word in
palliation of it.  He was giving her stern advice regarding her
attitude towards the rest of the village, when she interrupted him for
the first time.

"I am leaving Jamestown to-morrow," she said.

"What?" said Mr. Fletcher.

"I am leaving Jamestown to-morrow,"

The Reverend Fletcher's brow grew stern.

"Is that how you are going to evidence the new mercy you have found--by
going out into the world to deceive people?"

"I will deceive no one," she said.  "I can do nothing here.  In winter
I shall have to go on the township again.  I must go to earn my living."

"Evil will come of it.  Your influence will not be for good.  You will
spread a moral pestilence.  Once I took a long journey in the cars; the
car was very dirty, and there was much soot and smoke, and the black
coat I wore absorbed the dust and grime.  Well, it lost nothing of its
good appearance; it was a black coat, like other black coats--to look
at.  But listen!  One day soon after, in a crowded train, I sat next a
woman with a white dress on.  What was the result?  Her dress was
smirched and darkened where her sleeve touched mine.  So it was always.
That coat defiled everything it touched, until I put it from me.  It
was a good coat, and I could ill afford to do it, but still less could
I afford to pollute whatever I touched.  It is thus with you.  Out of
evil, evil will come.  We do not gather figs of thistles.  Your life
has been evil; your heart is bad.  Can good emanate from this?  You
will go forth to the world in fair seeming, no trace of your sin
visible to the eye, and you will spread the contagion of your sin.
Listen to me, Myron Holder.  Do not dare go forth in silence!  Do not
dare conceal your real nature!  Do not dare!  Say to each man and woman
with whom you have more than the most brief association, 'Lo, I am one
who has sinned; I have been a mother but not a wife!'"

Myron gazed at him with horror-wide eyes.  His were implacable.

"Am I so dreadful?" she said.  "Oh, must I proclaim my shame aloud?"

"You must," he said.  "What!  Would you deny your child on earth and
hope to meet him in Heaven?"

She let fall her face in her hands.  There was silence for a space,
then she raised her head.

"Very well," she said, "I will do as you say."

She turned from his side, and made her way down the church.  A strange
and new distinction of manner seemed to have enveloped her--a dignity
of absolute isolation.  She passed through the door, and for the last
time Mrs. Deans' eyes looked into hers.  That steady gaze lasted some
seconds, and then Myron Holder went out into the night.

But in that last meeting of eyes Myron Holder's were not the ones that
faltered.  As Cain went forth with his curse, did his eyes fall before
any living face?  He was subject only to fear of his fate.  Myron
Holder feared only the years she had to live.

That night, in her cottage, Myron Holder sat sewing, fashioning a tiny
bag out of one of My's misshapen aprons.  When completed, she put
something carefully in it and hung it round her neck, concealing it
beneath her gown.  She folded up her few articles of clean clothing and
tied them up, with My's little tin mug, into a neat parcel.  She took a
last look around the silent rooms, and then went out, closing the door
gently behind her, as if heedful not to awaken one who slept.

All along the little path voices seemed to bear her company: the voices
of her father, her grandmother, Homer's strong, tender tones, and My's
uncertain voice, and each awoke a loving echo in her heart--yes, even
the strident voice of her grandmother.  They each and all whispered
"Good-bye--Good-bye," save the little child's: that was inarticulate,
and babbled but of childish love and confidence.

She made her way along the road she had trodden so many times in
anguish.  She reached the graveyard, and there held her last vigil by
the side of My's grave.

The stars were yet in the sky--the mysterious stars of morning
skies--when she rose to her feet.  She went to each of the other graves
that her heart held, and then came back to this one, the newest and
smallest of the four.  She looked down upon it with the pain of
childbirth in her eyes, then up to the "mindful stars."  She turned
away with a prayer upon her lips--the same in which was uttered her
agony in the cottage; the same prayer that had faltered from her lips
in the church--not "Lord--Lord," but "My--My!"

So Myron Holder left Jamestown, and with her we leave it also.  There
is much yet that might be told of the place--of the strange death that
befell Bing White; of the marriage of Gamaliel Deans to Liz, the bound
girl; of the penance of pain that was meted out to Mrs. Deans for the
evil she had wrought; of how Mr. and Mrs. Wilson were turned out of
their farm by those of their children who had so pitied them whilst
Homer lived; of how, after all, the old ragman found a fortune in rags,
though not in the way he had dreamed of; of how the new church was
built, and of how the old Holder cottage still stands, a ruin amid its
garden, peopled only by sparrows; of how a new railway runs through the
school playground, and banishes the buttercups by its cinders to the
other side of the broken-down fence.  There they run riot, having
spread even up to the doorstep of the old cottage, where they cluster
about the roots of the hopvines.

There have been many changes in Jamestown--great factories disfigure
the margin of the lake, defile the streams with their refuse, and
befoul the atmosphere with their smoke.  A long row of workmen's
cottages, depressingly alike in gable and window, has crowded the Black
Horse Inn out of existence.  Its old bricks pave the paths over which
the mill-hands go to work; the last vestige of its violets has vanished.

The hearts of the Jamestown women, however, have not changed.  The same
merciless virtue that hounded Myron Holder pursues the poor factory
girl who falters on her way.  The same pointing fingers sting her soul.
The same condemnation, the same cruelty, the same scorn, greet her as
were meted out to Myron Holder.

In the olden days it was the vestal virgins, charged with keeping
alight the fires that burned upon the altars sacred to home, that
doomed the fallen gladiator to death; their inflexible gesture
negatived the pleading of the upraised hand.  There is no single
instance given where they exercised the power of pardon vested in them.
And to-day the verdict upon the fallen comes from women also; and is
there any record of pardons?

But, O women, think well before you utter a harsh judgment!  Your
verdict is the more sacred by virtue of being pronounced upon your own
sex, for woman is more nearly allied to woman than man to man.  Each
woman is linked to her sister women by the indissoluble bond of common
pain.  "For men must work and women must weep" may have its exceptions
as to men who, by favoring fortune or a kindly fate, may escape their
heritage of labor; but did a woman ever elude her birthright of tears?

It rests with women whether the bitter cup these unhappy ones drink be
brimmed to the lip or not.

Ah, well! there are many Jamestowns, and many women therein.  "By their
works ye shall know them."

To the Jamestown women we have known through their treatment of Myron
Holder we say farewell gladly, only asking them--

  "HAVE YE DONE WELL?  They moulder flesh and bone,
  Who might have made this life's envenomed dream
  A sweeter draught than ye shall ever taste, I deem."




CHAPTER XXIII.

  "God gives him painful bread, and for all wine
  Doth feed him on sharp salt of simple tears,
  And bitter fast of blood."

  "Come--pain ye shall have and be blind to the ending!
    Come--fear ye shall have 'mid the sky's overcasting!
  Come--change ye shall have, for far are ye wending!
    Come--no crown ye shall have for your thirst and your fasting!"


Myron Holder, in the blue garb of a professional nurse, stood one
spring morning looking out of one of the high windows in the great
hospital where she worked.  Three years had passed since that daybreak
when she turned her back on Jamestown.  With what trembling steps she
had made her way to town, to the house of the doctor who had attended
old Mr. Carroll!  He had suggested to her the vocation of professional
nursing, having observed her natural aptitude for it when she was
tending Mr. Carroll.  He had given her his address, and bade her come
to him if she decided to adopt the course he had indicated.  She had
done so, and, through his recommendation, she had obtained admittance
to this hospital.  Since then she had worked and studied hard, and had
gained her certificate as a trained nurse.

She had gone forth from Jamestown "lonely as a cloud," and not without
sorrow.  The wild flower that grows by the bleakest roadside wilts and
droops for a time, at least, when transplanted to even the most
sheltered garden.  The stunted cedar, clinging to a crevice in the
granite, drawing its meagre juices hardly from the niggard soil,
yellows and dies when rent by the resistless wind from its rocky
resting-place.  The barrenness of the mountain-side seems kinder to it
than the green meadows to which it is hurled.

For some little time Myron was bewildered by the strange world which
she had entered, but it did not remain long strange; it soon developed
familiar phases.

She bore forever the burden of the hateful pledge the Reverend Mr.
Fletcher had wrung from her.  In the old, harsh days of Puritanical
prudery and intolerance, the Evil Woman bore upon her breast a flamy
insignia of shame--a beacon warning all not to trust their hopes or
fears or joys to that perfidious bosom which had been false to its own
womanhood, a something which could be seen afar off, a mute, yet
eloquent, cry: "Unclean--Unclean!"

But the milder methods of modern Christianity were far different.  They
fastened no physical sign of degradation upon the object of their
righteous wrath; no burning letter or brand.  Hers was no torch of
shame to light the beholder to other paths than that which lay by her
side.

Hawthorne's stately Evil Woman bore an implacable face above that fatal
mark; strode upon her way with "the stern step of vanquished will,"
defied by her mien her accusers and her judges.  Upon her countenance
was writ in all the varied hieroglyphics of tint and expression, line
and curve, the story of her passion and her shame.

Not so this humble village outcast.  Her mien showed rather the tender
sorrow of a face created for tears--a face whose lips held pain enough
prisoned behind their paleness to wail the woe of the whole world; eyes
which had looked at death unflinchingly through the pangs of the
sublimest torture womanhood knows rather than betray the coward who had
forsaken her; eyes which had looked at misery and pain, suffering and
death, so often that they seemed to have lost the power of reflecting
aught else; eyes which held in their depths nothing but the
resignation, despair, and the settled purpose of undeviating will.
Sometimes, when the child was alive, there had shone in their depths
varying shadows; then there were moments when she allowed herself to
wish and hope and fear.  But that was past, just as was her mad
rebellion against his death.

Such was Myron Holder--meek, quiet, hopeless; bearing the burden
imposed upon her by convention's unsparing, if righteous, hand.  Men,
looking at her, instinctively felt their own vileness; and women saw in
her a refuge from their own weakness and sins until they knew of hers;
then, rejoicing that they yet had power to wound something, crucified
her afresh.  Many a time her heart bled from stings implanted by lips
she had moistened night after night.  Many a time her face flushed
before the scorn expressed in eyes that would have been forever
darkened but for her untiring skill and patience.

Truly, to lay upon this woman the task of avowing her guilt to each
human being who should ever look upon her with kindly tolerance was a
measure that the old Puritans would not have adopted.  The stake had
not receded quite so far into the dim perspective of the past as it has
now; and if they had deemed her worthy of the supremest torture, they
would probably have chosen the more merciful flames.

Myron indeed stood within the shadow of the cross.  But it must be
remembered that whilst the cross has been the emblem of much mercy, it
was also the symbol beneath which the Inquisition sat in council.  It
must be conceded that the Church is not very lenient with women.  We
remember its attitude when chloroform was introduced.

The mercy that the Reverend Mr. Fletcher had proffered Myron Holder was
much like the salt that Eastern torturers rub into the wounds of their
victims.

There was little to be seen from the high window where Myron stood--the
topmost branches of a horse-chestnut tree just leafing out; a wide arch
of gray-blue sky; and, far off, a confused mass of chimneys, where the
city lay beneath its veil of smoke.

But Myron was not thinking of the busy city, of the tapping chestnut
boughs, nor even of the overspan of pellucid sky.  She was thinking of
a cruel, sordid, babbling little village and of the silent, unkempt
field wherein its dead lay.  Her musings were interrupted by the
ringing of a bell.  She turned and hastened from the room--blue-clad,
white-capped, capable--to find a new patient had arrived in her ward; a
new patient, with thin, broad, stooped shoulders, overhanging
pent-house brow, sad and secret, above sunken gray eyes that shone with
unalterable love for mankind; a patient who, when he saw her coming,
held out his hands and whispered "Myron--Myron!" and gave her such a
look as banished all the bitterness of her barren belief and again
bestowed the blessed benediction of peace.

Thus Philip Hardman and Myron Holder met again.

Philip Hardman was no longer a recognized minister of the Church.  His
doubts had grown too strong for his belief, or his beliefs had grown
greater than his creed; and he had gone forth from the church to become
an itinerant preacher, like the man Christ Jesus.  He was miserably
uncertain and unsettled.

Little bands of devotees gathered about him in every town he visited.
They were those who were mentally maimed, or halt, or blind; those
whose aspirations exceeded their capabilities; those in whose hearts a
never-healing sore throbbed in unison with the suffering of mankind;
those who were, like Philip Hardman, striving to flee from the wrath to
come and found themselves bewildered amid the crossways.  His followers
were, in all places, strangely alike.  They gathered to him gradually,
and when he left they scattered.  There was no unity of purpose among
them, no common determination toward one end, to bind them together.

The Western worlds are not ready yet for those creedless, formless,
Eastern doctrines of Universal Love.  Poor Philip Hardman, in an
Oriental world, would have made an excellent devotee, to dream away his
years in spiritual abstraction with the best of them; nay, he might
even have found courage to release his soul by fire from its earthly
charnel like the old East Indians; but he made a poor minister; he was
a good enough _preacher_, eloquent enough, and earnest enough, pitiful
towards others, merciless to himself; but, constantly bewildered by the
indefiniteness of his own aspirations, he could not minister any
healing balm to the sorrows he deplored.

He never felt awkward nor constrained with his followers, only
desperately unhappy.  They looked to him for a message, and he had none
to give them; he raised hopes in their breasts which he could not
justify; held out a cup which proved empty when thirsty lips drew near.

When he left a town he was haunted for days by the yearning eyes he had
left unlit by hope; yet he could not bring himself to desert the cross
utterly, for

  "Ever on the faint and flagging air
    A doleful spirit with a dreary note
  Cried in his fearful ear, 'Prepare--Prepare!'"


So he had stumbled on, the strong in him strong only to discern the
needs, the wants, the sadness and cruelty of the world, not strong
enough to evolve a creed of Truth to alleviate its misery; the weak in
him only weak enough to make him shrink from giving up utterly the old
dogmas that hampered his hands, not weak enough to permit him to steep
himself in scriptural ease and spend all his time striving to save his
own miserable soul.

Hardman had come to the charity ward of the hospital to be treated for
that common and troublesome disease familiarly known as "preacher's
sore throat."  It was a very natural result of speaking night after
night in all sorts of weathers in the open air.  He had persisted in
his preaching, however, until his voice had become attenuated almost to
a whisper; then suddenly realizing the gravity of his case, he had fled
to the hospital in a panic.  Myron's post was in the charity ward, by
far the most arduous department in the hospital.  Thus Hardman came
directly under her care.

Relieved from the nervous excitement of his occupation, Hardman's
fictitious strength suddenly collapsed, and, having squandered his
resources recklessly, he was now left with very little stamina to fall
back upon.  But Myron tended him night and day, throwing into her
efforts all the determination of her strong nature; and, little by
little, she conquered.  Philip Hardman himself had been as passive
during the struggle as a bone for which two dogs fight; but after the
fever left him he began to realize how nearly his doubts and surmises
had been all solved, and looking at Myron's weary face read in a moment
all the meaning of its weariness.  From that time her care was seconded
by his eager desire for health.

Then there fell upon those two that strange enchantment which entered
the world when the first bird sang its first love song, which will
endure till "the last bird fly into the last night."

  "What time the mighty moon was gathering light,
    Love paced the thymy plots of Paradise."


What strange paths he has trodden since then!  What devious ways he has
threaded!  What strait gates he has entered!  Upon how many sandy
shores he has left his immortal footprints!  For all the oceans of
human life, all its flood tides of hope, all its ebb tides of despair,
cannot efface them.  Let love once set his signet seal upon a brow, and
all the gilding of glory, all the blackness of shame, the rose wreath
nor the crown of thorns--nay, even Death itself--cannot blot it out.

Life--Love--Death--the true Trinity, teaching all things, could we but
decipher them.  Of Life we know the ending; of Death, the beginning; of
Love, nothing.  It springs without sowing, and bears many harvests.  To
these two lonely souls it brought a gift of "unhoped, great delight."

"Love, that all things doth redress," blotted out for a space the toil
and moil of their lives.  Hardman told Myron how he had loved her ever
since he saw her; told her how her name had been mentioned in every
prayer his lips had uttered since he left Jamestown; told her how he
had written to her, and of how the letter had been, after many days,
returned to him from the Dead Letter Office.  Myron smiled a little at
that; she understood so well the pang it must have cost Mrs. Warner to
return it.  Indeed, Mrs. Warner (who was postmaster in Jamestown) had
suffered real tortures of curiosity and kept the letter twice the
regulation time before she sent it to the Dead Letter Office.  But "The
Government" was a vague and awful power in Mrs. Warner's eyes, and, as
she expressed it to her husband, "You never know what it knows, and
what it don't."

Philip did not tell Myron about his doubts, nor that he had voluntarily
forfeited his standing in the orthodox church.  And she did not tell
him of the promise that the Reverend Mr. Fletcher had exacted from her.
Perhaps it was this mutual reticence that wrecked them.  But for a
short space they were indeed happy.

But as Philip grew stronger the inevitable problem of the future
presented itself.

Philip asked Myron one day if she had attended the rest of the meetings
after he left Jamestown.

"Yes," she said; "I am a Christian."

That calm statement of hers seemed to impose an impassable barrier
between them.  She had attained the peace he had lost.  She held fast
the hope that he was all but relinquishing.  She was strong in the
faith in which he was so weak.

She told him of her first struggle in the hospital; of the difficulty
she had had in mastering the "book learning" of her profession; of the
weariness she endured and the hopelessness she had overcome; and,
listening, he thought his heart would break.  How could he take from
her the Faith that had made this possible?  How deprive her of the
inspiration that kept her worthy?  Poor Philip Hardman thought he had
alienated himself from his church utterly; but he had in no wise cast
off its bonds; he still clung to the enervating doctrine of dependence
upon supernatural help, and could not realize that in Myron's womanhood
alone lay the strength, the purity of purpose, and the endurance that
had brought her thus far upon her way.

Sometimes he wondered if it were possible that he could pass the cup
from lip to lip, and the morsel from mouth to mouth, and yet be himself
athirst and hungry.  Now and then the thought came to him that he was
but suffering from some spiritual sickness that would pass from him
like a physical disease, and leave him weak, perhaps, but safe in his
old beliefs.  When he thought of this, he pictured himself in his old
position as minister and wondered if to marry Myron would conserve the
interests of his Faith.  This was the one unworthy thought of which he
was guilty.  The man was weak, but this was shameful.

It seems incredible to us that this man, having, as he knew, this
woman's happiness in the hollow of his hand, loving her as he
undoubtedly did, should have hesitated.  Had he fully understood the
conditions of her life, it is impossible to believe he would have done
so; but so few of us know each other "face to face."

And Philip Hardman was very humble in his estimate of himself.  He did
not allow himself to think that his life would compensate to Myron
Holder for the spiritual benefits she might lose by marrying him.
Indeed, this poor, tossed soul sometimes recalled with a shudder that
mysterious Sin for which there is no forgiveness, and wondered if he
had been guilty of it; then he trembled when Myron Holder approached
lest she be contaminated.

It seems this poor man was incapable of understanding the true beauty
of Love.  So that now he would wonder if Myron Holder as his wife would
stultify his efforts for the Faith, and presently tremble lest he drag
her down to the perdition he feared.  At this juncture he deliberately
shifted the burden from his own shoulders to those of Myron Holder.  He
asked her to decide, expressing his own love for her and saying
tenderly:

"And you, Myron, you love me?"

She only looked her answer, but the eloquence of her look seemed to
argue and decide the whole case.

This conversation occurred in the morning.  In the evening, just as
dusk fell, Myron came to the ward and sat by him for a little space.
Now that the burden was shifted off his own shoulders Philip felt calm
and happy.

He lay long, and gazed upon her as she sat beside him, gathered the
tender strength of her face, the sweet womanliness of her form, the
resolution and patience that made bright her brow, and noted all the
beauty of her eyes.  He pictured their future life together; he thought
of her sitting by him in the twilight; of her bidding him good-bye in
the morning; of her welcoming him at night; he thought of her looking
up at him in the pauses of some household task; he imagined her eyes as
they would turn to him for guidance; he dreamed of their comfort when
he looked to them for love.  He thought of all these things, and then
abased himself before the vision of a holy, patient face,--the face of
the mother of his child.

'Mid these thoughts speech does not find ready way.  They were together
silent, hand in hand.

The time came for Myron to go.  It was almost dark in the ward, and an
angled screen hid them from view.

"Myron," whispered Philip, and looked at her pleadingly.

She looked at him--her head sank near his--he kissed her--her lips were
trembling.  He passed an arm about her shoulder and gave her a tender,
reassuring pressure.

"I will know in the morning?" he said.

"Yes," she answered, and turned to leave him.  She hesitated at the
foot of the bed and then turned toward him again.  "Good-night," she
said.  "Good-night, Philip."

Then she turned and went swiftly from the ward, passing the night nurse
at the door.

Hardman felt a moisture on his hand, the hand she had held as she said
"Good-night."

"She was crying, bless her, and I never knew it," he thought.

He soon slept.  It would seem that he was content so long as Myron made
the decision and thus relieved him from the responsibility and
consequences of doing so.  Well, we cannot tell.  "The heart knoweth
its own bitterness," and it is not for us to judge Hardman.  But whilst
withholding judgment upon him we need not spare to pity Myron, who,
prone upon the narrow couch in the bare dormitory, was face to face
with her own soul.

Whilst Hardman slept, having cast off his burden, she was tasting the
bitterness of death.  Myron Holder's agony would have indeed bewildered
him could he have witnessed it.  It was in such strong contrast to the
peace of that perfect hour just past.  He could not have realized the
battle Myron had done with herself, her tears, her fears, whilst she
sat by him; and he comforted himself with visions of an illusive
future.  Alas!  Poor Myron--poor Hardman!  Not for them was "The House
of Fulfillment of Craving," not for them the "Cup with the roses around
it."

We cannot trace step by step the progress of the struggle.

"A sign--a sign!" she cried in her pain.  "Oh, what shall I do?"

It was at midnight when the sign was given her and the path pointed
out.  The clock in her room had just struck twelve when the electric
bell at her bedside rang, summoning her downstairs.  She rose hastily,
and quickly dashing a little cold water in her face, assumed her cap
and hurried out.  She found the entire staff of nurses assembling.
They were gathering about the medical officer in charge of the
hospital.  He held a telegram in his hand.  When they had all come, he
read it aloud.  It was brief.  An urgent appeal from a quarantine
station asking for volunteer nurses for cholera patients.  The doctor
read it and waited.  The little crowd of women before him murmured
confusedly.  Some faces reddened, some paled.  The doctor read the
telegram again, and said quietly:

"The need is urgent, but I advise no one.  If, however, any of you will
go, she must be ready in an hour.  The express leaves then."

He paused.  There was no answer.  His face paled a little.  He had been
very proud of his intrepid nurses, this doctor, and somehow, in this
time of trial, they seemed about to be found wanting.

"As soon as each one makes up her mind," he said, "she will return to
her duties or acquaint me with her determination to go."

The group before him parted as if by a single impulse, each seeking to
escape unseen to her place.  Only one came forward quietly, and said
steadily:

"I will go, sir, if you will let me."

The departing ones stayed their steps and listened.

"It is Nurse Myron," they said to each other.

"Yes," said the doctor, catching one of these remarks, "it is Nurse
Myron, of whom you have made a pariah.  Go back to your duties,
please."  His voice, usually so gentle, was stern and peremptory.  They
went.


An hour later, Myron Holder left the hospital.  As she came down from
the dormitory, clad in the blue serge gown with its cape and
close-fitting hat, she went into the charity ward.  Quietly she stole
along its length until she came to the bed in the corner.  A straight
shaft of moonlight fell upon the pillow.  It made visible all the
strength and beauty of Hardman's brow and showed all the sweetness of
his mouth, all the kindly expression of his face.  His brow was placid;
his lips smiled.  To the woman's eyes there was nothing weak, nothing
cowardly, in the man before her.  He was her saint among men.

"He will know in the morning," she said.  The doctor beckoned from the
door.  She murmured again, "He will know in the morning," and so bade
him an eternal farewell.

[Illustration: "HE WILL KNOW IN THE MORNING."]

* * * * * *

Next morning Philip Hardman learned from the doctor of Myron's act.

"The nurses say you are a minister, and that she loved you," said the
doctor.  "If praying is your trade, pray for her, man; she has need of
it."  Then he passed on.  He was a little bitter and stern, the good
doctor, that morning.

There comes a time to some of us,

  "When happy dreams have just gone by
  And left us without remedy
  Within the unpitying hands of life."

Those of us who have lived through such an hour can understand what had
come to Philip Hardman.  He saw now clearly what he ought to have done,
but it was too late.  He tried to comfort himself with the hope that
she would come back, and _then_, he told himself, no power in earth or
heaven should come between them.

How vain this hope was the event proved; but it was well he had it at
the moment, else his self-reproach would have been too poignant.  As it
was, his fever returned and it was many days before his last tidings of
Myron Holder.  He was told, and lived.  That is all we need say or care
to hear of Philip Hardman.

  "Perplext in faith, but pure in deeds,
    At last he beat his music out."




CHAPTER XXIV.

  "Death comes to set thee free,
  Oh, meet him cheerily
    As thy true friend;
  Then all thy cares shall cease
  And in eternal peace
    Thy penance end."

  "Even the weariest river
  Winds somewhere safe to the sea."


The arrival of the new nurse had been announced to the doctor in charge
of the quarantine station.  He waited for her coming in his office.
She entered the room, paused for a moment on the threshold, and then
came forward.  The light, to which his back was turned, fell full upon
her face,--a face devoid of bitterness as it was of joy.  Her form,
clad in the regulation nurse's garb of blue, showed in strong relief
against the unpainted pine walls of the great doctor's office--a
somewhat broad, low figure, not slight, nor lissome, but most
eloquently womanly.  Her lips parted in a question which he did not
hear.

Time had gone back with him.  He stood upon a jutting ledge of rock,
which from the ridge hung out into the blue.  He was alone, and
waiting--waiting with every faculty of his will strained to the utmost;
looking through a parting in the leaves between the tree-trunks, he
watched for a girl's figure.  Far away there was a glimmer of water;
somewhere a village band was practising, but distance deadened all
sound from it save the throb of the heavy drum which pulsed through the
air and seemed to add motion to the heavy, odorous vapor of the summer
night and send it eddying up in perfumed waves about the craggy
platform.  Then he saw one coming, flushed, and "foot gilt with all the
blossom dust" of wild venollia, fleabane and spent moondaisies.  And
then he held once more a trembling maiden form within his clasp.  Again
from out the hollow of his arm there looked up at him two eyes of
clearest, purest glance.  Again he dwelt upon the smooth forehead with
its faint upraised brows.  Again he kissed the white throat bent
outward like a singing bird's, as her head rested against him and her
eyes met his.  Again he saw those eyes grow dim and moist.  Again he
felt the encircled form tremble.  Again he stilled the appealing lips
with a kiss.  Again he vowed eternal faith.  Again he heard her say--

"Will you be good enough to tell me my duties?" the new nurse was
saying, in low, strained tones, in a voice without modulation and
suggestive of reiteration.

"What is your name?" he asked, with unstrung joints.

"I am Myron Holder," she said, and looked at him.

Her lips did not quiver.  Her cheeks did not flush.  Her eyes did not
falter.  All the majesty of a wronged womanhood shone upon her brow.
Her glance spoke of a dignity far beyond the gift of man, above the
world's honor--a dignity bought at a terrible price and sealed with a
terrible seal of loneliness and separation.

"Ah!" he said, and leaned upon the table at his side, mentally
acknowledging the strength of her presence.  "I am Henry Willis," he
said.  "Did you know me?"

"I recognized you when I came into the room," she answered, in a
monotonous tone.

There was a pause.  Her eyes rested upon him unwaveringly, and sent
from their depths intolerable meanings of contempt and righteous
indignation and hopeless reproach.

He came a step nearer.

"Let me--" he began.  She stepped back--her nostrils dilated.

"Would you be good enough to tell me my duties?" she said.

"Tell me how you came here."

"I am Nurse Myron," she said, and uttered no further word.

He waited in a silence she did not break.

"If you will come with me," he said at length.

She signified her acquiescence and followed him.

Days passed--long days and nights which seemed to outlast eternity in
their dreary passage.  Day by day the nurses and physicians did battle
with the foul pestilential scourge they were striving to stifle.  The
great Dr. Willis, the eminent bacteriologist, peered and pried
incessantly over his gelatin films, striving to win the secret of
infection and its origin from the minute particles of matter he held
prisoned there.  But yet more earnestly did he strive to learn the
secret of one strong, brave soul, hut in vain.

The quality Dr. Willis most admired, respected and understood was Will,
but here it reigned in such transcendent strength that he stood
appalled before it.  From that moment of retrospect and recognition he
had awakened with a galling sense of his own inferiority.  Never before
had Henry Willis owned the domination of a living will.  Now the wide
earth held no sweetness, all his achievements no triumph for him,
unless he could once more possess the woman who had, so long ago, been
wholly his.

They worked side by side.  As the cases multiplied, and two of the men
nurses were stricken with the disease, Henry Willis, perforce threw
aside his experiments and flung himself into the fray.  Day by day saw
these two drawn closer and closer together by the exigencies of their
peculiar and dreadful position.  No more volunteers were forthcoming.
The force in the quarantine station was weakening.  The physician,
albeit wiry and of an iron physique, was pale and thin.

Myron Holder's strong frame and brave heart were giving way; only her
will sustained each.  Her eyes shone neither steadily nor calmly now,
but burned with desperate courage.

Dr. Willis came to her one day with a newspaper containing reports of
their work.  The names of Dr. Henry Willis and Nurse Myron were coupled
with honorable and enduring encomiums.  She read it standing in the
corridor before his office door.  As she read and gathered the import
of the words, a change overspread her face.  Her eyes, of late so hot
and dry, grew moist; her lips trembled; from brow to chin the color
flushed her face, bringing back to it all the charm of a crushed and
subordinate womanhood.  She read the article over and looked him full
in the face.

"My name is here and yours," she said.  Then, in a voice which had
burst from its shackles at last, and rang out clear and high, "They
should be read above the grave of a nameless child."

She paused a moment--long enough for the man before her to gather the
meaning of her words--long enough to allow memory to whelm her own
heart and break it at last, and then she sank upon the floor, weeping
and crying aloud for her dead child.

When Henry Willis carried her to the office, the first paroxysmal
symptoms of cholera had set in.

* * * * * *

All hope was over.  Nurse Myron was dying.  Every remedy despairing
skill could suggest had been resorted to, but in vain.  Transfusion of
blood had brought not even an evanescent strength.  The disease had
culminated, and death was simply a question of minutes--an hour at most.

Her face had become olive in tint, and shone up with Murillo-like
beauty of tint and form from the pillow.  Beside her, in all the
abandon of shattered hope, knelt Henry Willis.  But to all his pleading
Myron Holder was deaf, until, by the inspiration of despair, he cried
aloud:

"For his sake, to give him a name!"

Then she consented.  In the presence of the remnant of nurses left,
blessed by the devoted minister who also lived among these dangers,
Myron Holder and Henry Willis took each other for man and wife.

They were alone.  He held her hand, awed by the supernal brightness of
her eyes.

"You will write his name above his grave?" she said.  "His real
name--Henry Willis?  Do you know what I called him?  My--little My."

"Live," he murmured.  "Live to let me atone--to be happy--to be adored.
Live--you can if you will."

"Could I?" she said.  "Life holds nothing for me; Death him, or
forgetfulness."

Her eyes began to film.  He bent over her distractedly, calling her
tender names, pleading for a look--a sign.

"Speak to me--forgive me," he cried.  "Myron--Myron!"

"I forgive you," she said, looking at him once again with calm and
steadfast eye of divine forgetfulness.  She sank into a stupor, through
which she murmured "My--little My"--tenderly, as to a sleeping child.
Then suddenly her eyes opened, a flood of ineffable brightness
illumined her face, she stretched forth her arms and uttered a name in
a cry of joyous hope, and sank back.  The world was over for her.
There but remained the involuntary efforts of life against
annihilation, efforts which, happily, were few and brief.  Twenty
minutes after she became a wife, Myron Willis had passed--

  "'And surely,' all folk said,
  'None ever saw such joy on visage dead.'"


They buried her, as the law required, with the rest of those who died
of the pest.  Upon her breast they found an ill-made little bag of
checked blue and white cotton.  Within it was a flossy skein of child's
hair tangled by many tears and kisses.  They brought it to Dr.  Willis,
and he replaced it upon the dead breast with whose secret sobs and
sighs it had risen and fallen for so long.

The newspapers gave a pathetic account of the "Romance in a Quarantine
Station," and told how the famous Dr. Willis, meeting his "girl love"
in the hospital, had married her on her deathbed.  The tale cast quite
a romantic lustre over the doctor's somewhat prosaic career of medical
achievement.

There was no word said, however, of their first meeting and parting,
nor of a little grave that to this day is unmarked save for a tiny
tablet whereon is carven one syllable--MY.