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CHASTE AS ICE, PURE AS SNOW.

A NOVEL.


BY

MRS. M. C. DESPARD.


 _Ham._ If thou dost marry, I'll give thee this plague for thy dowry: Be
 thou as chaste as ice, as pure as snow, thou shalt not escape calumny.
                                             ----HAMLET, Act III. Scene I.


[1874]




CONTENTS.


 PART I.

 A WOMAN FACE TO FACE WITH THE WORLD.


 CHAP.

 I.      A PICTURE AND A FACE.

 II.     ADÈLE AND MARGARET.

 III.    A WOMAN FACE TO FACE WITH THE WORLD.

 IV.     MORNING THOUGHTS--A RESOLVE TAKEN.

 V.      FOUND--A FRIEND.

 VI.     THE YOUNG HEIR.

 VII.    A CUNNING TEMPTER.

 VIII.   ARTHUR FALLS INTO THE SNARE.

 IX.     ARTHUR'S SECRET.

 X.      HOW ADÈLE RECEIVES THE DISCLOSURE.

 XI.     A FACE AT THE WINDOW.

 XII.    FLIGHT.

 XIII.   LESSONS IN WORLD-WISDOM.

 XIV.    LAURA.

 XV.     A DREAM OF THE SEA.

 XVI.    UNEXPECTED VISITORS AT MIDDLETHORPE.


 PART II.

 A MAN AT WAR WITH HIMSELF.


 I.      MAURICE GREY.

 II.     SOCIETY VERSUS SOLITUDE.


 PART III.

 A DOUBLE MYSTERY.


 I.      PARTIAL DISCOVERIES.

 II.     GO AND SEE HER.

 III.    THE HOUSE IS EMPTY.

 IV.     JANE'S REVENGE.

 V.      THE LAWYER IN HIS OWN DOMAIN.

 VI.     MR. ROBINSON PROMISES TO DO HIS BEST.

 VII.    THE TWO FRIENDS.

 VIII.   THE INDIAN SCARF.

 IX.     ARTHUR ARRIVES AT MIDDLETHORPE.

 X.      ON THE BRINK OF MADNESS.

 XI.     THE ACCOLADE OF KNIGHTHOOD.

 XII.    "I SHALL LIVE AND NOT DIE."

 XIII.   ARTHUR AT WORK.

 XIV.    TWO INTERVIEWS.

 XV.     THE YOUNG PEOPLE UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER AT LAST.

 XVI.    A STORM.

 XVII.   WHAT THE STORM BROUGHT.

 XVIII.  LIGHT IN DARKNESS.

 XIX.    GOOD-NIGHT AND GOOD-BYE.


 PART IV.

 AT WORK WITH A WILL.


 I.      LAURA'S TASK.

 II.     A WASTED LIFE.

 III.    A TALE ABOUT THE STARS.

 IV.     MOSCOW.

 V.      A GLIMPSE OF MARGARET'S CHILD.

 VI.     THE LIFE OF A SOLITARY.

 VII.    THE WORK OF MARGARET'S MESSENGER BEGUN.

 VIII.   A TÊTE-À-TÊTE DINNER AT THE HOTEL.

 IX.     A TORMENTED SPIRIT.

 X.      PEACE, BE STILL.

 XI.     HAUNTING MEMORIES.

 XII.    TOLD AMONG THE SNOWS.


 PART V.

 THE MYSTERY SOLVED--THE WORKERS REWARDED.


 I.      WAITING.

 II.     THE LAWYER GAINS HIS POINT.

 III.    THREATENED SEPARATION.

 IV.     A DREAM INTERRUPTED, AND A STRANGE REVELATION MADE.

 V.      ES IST NUR EIN KINDLEIN--ONLY A CHILD.

 VI.     HADST THOU THE SECOND SIGHT?

 VII.    FOR A SECOND TIME SAVED FROM HIMSELF.

 VIII.   A PARTING.

 IX.     THE NEST IS EMPTY.

 X.      LAURA AND HER FATHER.

 XI.     UNITED AT LAST.

XII.     A LONG SLEEP.




PART I.

A WOMAN FACE TO FACE WITH THE WORLD.

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CHAPTER I.

_A PICTURE AND A FACE._

    There was a woman, beautiful as morning,
    Sitting beneath the rocks upon the sand
    Of the waste sea--fair as one flower adorning
    An icy wilderness--each delicate hand
    Lay crossed upon her bosom, and the band
    Of her dark hair had fallen, and so she sat
    Looking upon the waves.


London and May. What visions of gayety and beauty, of life and
brightness, the conjunction of those two words brings before the mind!
London in May, when, as it might almost seem, the first gleam of
sunshine had called forth, from the essential nothing of obscurity,
gay flutterers of a million colored hues, to spread their wings and
float joyously in an atmosphere of hope.

For, let who will speak of the balmy breezes and deep azure skies of
the children of the South, there are some who would maintain that in
the resurrection of the fashionable corners of England's great city
from their winter sleep, in the sometimes keen wind that rouses the
island spirit of opposition and braces the nerves of the idlers,
even in the rapid changes that pass over the sky, there is more
exhilaration, more strong incitement to courage and hope, than in the
full flush of radiant summer which May often brings in climes held to
be more highly favored by Nature.

London, in May, when the streets are filled with gay equipages, whose
prancing steeds seem to rejoice in the dignity of their position,
taking a part in the great saturnalia of rank and fashion--when the
dresses of the ladies are only eclipsed by the brilliancy of the
shop-windows which they daily haunt--when the artist and musician
bring forth their choicest wares to delight the senses and gratify the
perceptions of the great and the little who throng busy London in this
fairest season of the year.

It was in London, then, and the month was May. So much being said,
little more description is needful: like bold divers, we must leave
the coast, and plunge at once into the great sea of humanity, drawing
thence, it may be, a pearl which but for our efforts had remained
there still. For all this humanity, which our vast London so fitly
represents, is composed of individuals; each individual has a separate
tale to tell, though all have not the voice to tell it; and in the tale
of the hidden life there is sometimes a beauty and pathos, a dignity
and wonder, that the dramatist and poet might do well to seize. But
it is seldom that they are caught and transferred. Beside the hidden
tragedies and heartrending emotions of the every-day life of humanity
these transcripts are often pale and colorless--a body that waits for
the breath of life to kindle it into beauty.

It was early in the afternoon of a bright May day. Even for that season
London seemed unusually crowded. In Regent street the difficulty was to
move forward at all, and in Pall Mall and the Strand matters were not
much better. Woe to the unlucky foreigners or country cousins who found
crossing the street an absolute necessity! They might have been seen
generally at the most crowded spots, shivering on the brink of what for
the moment was worse than the vague, shadowy Jordan of the pilgrims,
and too often submitting ignominiously to the guidance of that being
almost superhuman in his callous indifference to rattling wheels and
horses' heads--the policeman.

But in and about a certain corner of Charing Cross the crowd seemed
to culminate. To tell of the pedestrians of every shade and hue, the
carriages, the omnibuses, which kept up a constant stream in this
direction, would take volumes, for the Exhibition of the Royal Academy
had only been open a week, and had not, therefore, lost the first charm
of novelty.

Thither many were hastening, mostly ladies of the fashionable class,
gayly dressed in all the freshness of early summer coloring. But those
who thronged to the Royal Academy on this May afternoon were not all
of the fashionable class; there were besides some who went from a true
love of art, a patient thirst for the beautiful--pale students, whose
eyes had long grown used to dusky streets, and to whom the yearly
vision of the something that always lies beyond was a revelation and a
power; governesses and female artisans who had taken a holiday for the
express purpose of enjoying the image of that which hard reality had
denied to them. Many of these were shabbily dressed, and pallid from
the wasting effects of hard work and care; they enjoyed, however, more
perhaps than their brilliant sisters, who could glibly criticise this
style and that, with the true art-jargon and an appearance of intimate
knowledge, but to whom this, that charmed those others, was only a
matter of course, a somewhat tiresome routine, that must of necessity
be performed as a part of the season's work.

On a corner of a seat in a central hall one seemingly of this latter
class had found a place. She could not certainly have belonged to
the fashionable world, for her scanty black dress was made with no
pretension to style, and she wore a close bonnet, from under which a
plain white border, that resembled a widow's cap, was peeping. There
was one detail, however, in her dress that drew the attention of some
who passed her. She wore, fastened gracefully round her shoulders in
rather a foreign style, a silk Indian scarf of the richest coloring and
workmanship. It harmonized strangely with the rest of her dress and her
general appearance, but it was not unbecoming. Those who, attracted by
this incongruity, looked at her attentively, saw a face that was almost
startling in its pure beauty of outline, and a form whose refined
grace did not require the assistance of the toilet to add to its
charms.

"That woman could wear anything," was the reflection of one or two who
glanced at her in passing.

She knew nothing of their criticism. Hour after hour passed away, and
still she remained in the same place--a solitude to her, peopled by
the multitude of thoughts to which the sight of one small picture had
given rise. And that picture was, to many of those who had admired
her in their rapid transit from one flower of art to another, a very
commonplace affair. We see with such different eyes, for is not the
perception of beauty a birthright of spirit? Where soul illumines there
beauty lies, but only for the soul that sees.

Her eyes saw the picture, and her _spirit_ saw beyond it. Hence the
beauty that drew and enchained her. Besides, the picture had a history.
From her own consciousness she translated its meaning.

Probably few will remember the picture, for it did not write its name
on the art-history of the period, and its author is unknown to fame;
but it certainly possessed power. Perhaps it was one of those flashes
thrown off in the fire of youth by what might have been a grand genius
if it had not been swamped in the great ocean of modern realism, thus
losing for ever the divine breath of imaginative power. The picture was
small. In its quiet corner it lived its life unnoticed by the crowd.

This is what it represented. In the background a sea just tinged with
the gold of sunset, and skirting it a barren, rocky shore; on the
shore a woman in an attitude of eager, waiting expectation; in the far
distance a sail that has gathered on its whiteness some of the bright
evening coloring; overhead a deepening sky, in which faint stars seem
to be struggling into sight. The woman's face is traced sharply against
the sky. It is beautiful, the blessed dawning of a new-born hope
seeming to glimmer faintly from the deep horrors of a past despair.
She leans over a projecting ledge of rock, not heeding in her rapt
eagerness the sharp point that seems to pierce her tender hand, only
gazing, as if her soul were in her eye, at the white point in the
distance, which holds, as she imagines, the object of her hope.

There were pictures in the close neighborhood of this one that, to the
art-critic, possessed far greater claims to admiration, but the woman
with the shabby dress saw none of them. She sat on her crimson-covered
seat, her hands folded and her eyes fixed, looking at the one picture
that had touched her; she looked at it until she saw it no longer; a
film gathered over her eyes; the picture, the room, the crowds, all
her surrounding, had vanished. She was living in the region of thought
alone, busying herself with the problem which the picture had evoked.

And as she sat rooted to the one spot, herself a fairer picture
than any which that roof covered, the afternoon waned away and the
galleries thinned. The fashionable crowd were beginning to think of
their dinner-toilet. The woman was left alone on her seat in the centre
of one of the halls, a somewhat conspicuous object, for her singular
style of dress and her strange beauty would have gained her observation
anywhere.

It was at about this time that a young gentleman dressed in the height
of fashion, with an eye-glass carefully adjusted in his right eye,
strolled leisurely through the hall. He was evidently a very young man,
one who had not yet been aroused from the delusion so pleasing while it
lasts of his own vast superiority to--almost everything; it is scarcely
necessary to particularize--his own sex, with perhaps a few exceptions,
certainly all women and lesser creatures. His walk revealed this small
weakness to any one who chose to take the trouble of observing him
closely and the carriage of his head, which was held very erect, the
chin being slightly elevated.

He held a catalogue in his hand, but he very seldom consulted it. To
have compared the number of the picture with that of its description
would have been, to use a pet phrase with young men, an awful bore. And
an awful bore he seemed to find the whole affair as he walked through
the picture-lined galleries, smothering a yawn from time to time. He
was evidently looking out for some one who had appointed this place
as a rendezvous, and as evidently he was rather more indignant than
disappointed at not finding directly the object of his search.

At last, as it seemed, he had enough of it. Considering himself a
sufficiently conspicuous object not to be lightly passed by by any who
had once been favored with the honor of his acquaintance, he threw
himself on one of the seats, fully determined to take no more trouble
in the matter, but to leave the _dénouement_ to fate.

There was one other on the seat he had chosen, but our young gentleman,
in spite of his small vanities, was too truly a gentleman to honor the
solitary woman who occupied it with that supercilious stare which,
unconsciously to herself, had more than once been cast on her that day.
In sheer idleness, and for want of something better to do, he looked
rather attentively at the picture which faced him, and presently he too
had fallen under its spell.

The beauty of the woman by the sea-shore, her sadness, her desolation,
attracted him powerfully. Before many moments had passed he found
himself tracing every line of her face and form, and dreaming out the
tragedy which her face revealed.

He was awoke from his reverie by a faint sobbing sigh, and looking
round he discovered that the woman who shared his seat was struggling
with a faintness that seemed gradually to be overpowering her. Before
he could rise to offer her assistance her head had fallen back upon the
crimson cushion, the little close bonnet had dropped off, and the white
face, in its chiselled beauty, lay stricken with a death-calm close to
his shoulder.




CHAPTER II.

_ADÈLE AND MARGARET._

    In the spring a young man's fancy lightly turns to thoughts of love.


Very young men are not, as a rule, passionate admirers of the fair
sex. They like to be flattered and caressed by women, they delight
in imaginary conquests, treating the sex generally with a sort of
compassionate condescension. Their chief cultus is the _ego_ that is to
do and to dare such great things in the untried future.

There are some who cherish this pet delusion through life, who are
always superior. Should such have women dependent upon them the fate
of those women is scarcely enviable. They are expected to walk through
life inferior. But in the lives of most men there is an awakening.
Sometimes the favorite pursuit--science, art, literature--rising
gradually into vaster proportions as it is more ardently followed,
dwarfs the man in his own estimation by contrast with what he seeks.
The ideal being ever so far in advance, he begins to take a truer
estimate of his powers and to try to enlarge them. Sometimes it is
the world of life, contact with other minds and the feeling of their
superiority; sometimes it is the world of nature, its beauty and its
mystery. These are the majority.

To a few perhaps--a very few--the awakening comes from another power.
It _is_ a power, whatever may be said to the contrary, a great power
for good or for evil--the power of beauty, as it rests brooding on
God's last and fairest gift to man--woman.

The mind, the imagination, the heart, all that had lain hidden under
the crust of self-seeking, rises into play in a moment, and the man is
changed. Such a man can never despise woman, for the one particular
star--distant, unattainable in all probability--sheds its lustre upon
all that partake of its nature.

If the woman who has gained this power can only use it, not selfishly,
but grandly, truly, the change for the man is a resurrection into new
life. If not--Who shall say how many young souls have been ruined,
perhaps for ever, by this same "if not"?

To return to the May afternoon and the scene in the picture-gallery. If
any painter had been near he could scarcely have chosen a more powerful
subject. The young man who had first discovered the fainting woman did
not consider himself a very emotional person, but for a moment he was
absolutely staggered. He had risen hastily to his feet and stooped
over her unconsciously. There he remained, helpless as a child in the
presence of a mystery it is unable to solve. It was only for a moment
that the stupor held him; then, with a feeling that was very strange
and new, he summoned courage to raise her head upon his arm, and with
trembling fingers to loosen her scarf and bonnet-strings.

What was to be done next? Water, smelling-salts, a fan--he had not
one of these appliances to restore her, and he shrank painfully from
gathering a crowd by asking assistance; for as yet the back of the seat
had hidden her from the very few who were still walking through the
galleries, those few being mostly lovers of art, and too much absorbed
in the pictures to have ears or eyes for anything beyond them.

If he could only manage the matter alone! and rapidly the various
modes of treating fainting-fits passed through his mind. He lifted the
beautiful head and laid it down upon the seat, raising her feet to the
same level; then, kneeling beside her, he opened her white fingers and
rubbed the palms of her hands, watching eagerly for a sign of life.
But it would not do: the dark eyelashes rested still on the pale, calm
face, no quivering of the eyelids showed dawning consciousness. If he
could have imparted to her some of his own exuberant life--for the
warm blood was throbbing and tingling through his veins till his very
finger-tips seemed instinct with consciousness--he would have stooped
and breathed into her lips; but he dared not: there was a majesty in
her helpless beauty that only a very coarse mind could have resisted.

It takes long to relate, but in reality only a few moments had passed
from the time of the woman's first faintness to the instant when the
young man, finding his efforts fruitless, turned with a sigh to seek
assistance from any lady who might be passing through the gallery.
The first face that greeted him was one he knew. It was that of a
young girl, very bright and pleasant in appearance, decked out in
the brilliancy of light muslin and fluttering ribbons. She saw him
instantly, and went smilingly across the room with extended hand. "Oh,
Arthur, you naughty boy!" she began, but catching sight of the fainting
woman, she broke off hastily: "Some one in a faint? Heavens! what a
lovely face! Poor thing! it is the heat. Go off quickly and get some
water, Arthur; I should think you could get it at the door: you boys
are such helpless beings."

She was down on her knees as she spoke, fluttering her fan gently and
applying her smelling-salts; but her volubility had already collected
in a little crowd the few people who remained in the galleries. She put
them off with pretty gestures and ready wit: "My friend wants air; I
assure you it is only a fainting-fit--nothing to alarm."

But she was relieved when Arthur's appearance with the water put
the lookers-on to a sudden flight, and they were once more left to
themselves.

"Oh, Arthur," said the young girl earnestly, "how beautiful she is!
I _must_ give her a little kiss before she awakes, as she will, I am
sure, with the water. There, there, my beauty!" for the kiss seemed to
be the most effectual remedy. Her eyelids quivered, causing thereby
such excitement to Arthur that part of the contents of the glass of
water he held fell over her feet, and Adèle--for that was the name of
the young lady who had given such timely assistance--told him with mock
indignation to go off, and not come again till he was called. Without
a word Arthur turned away. He would scarcely have been so obedient the
day before, but the incident of that afternoon seemed to have robbed
him of his power. He stood in the entrance of the hall, watching until
he should be sent for by the ladies.

For the first time in his life Arthur wished he had been a girl. His
thoughts, to tell the truth, were rapidly becoming very sentimental.
Adèle, happy Adèle! he thought of her with a new respect. She could
carry on these gentle ministries impossible to the rougher hands of
men. With what tenderness and skill she had used her remedies! And then
the kiss! Yes, women, after all, possessed certain advantages. And her
first look would be for Adèle. If he had been more expert, it might
have been for him. Had any one told Arthur, even an hour before, that
he could ever have been jealous of his cousin, he would certainly have
scorned the idea: he had always considered himself so vastly superior
to women in general, and his pretty little playmate in particular. He
had not much time, however, to indulge in these brilliantly novel
ideas, for before many moments had passed Adèle appeared. "You may
offer her your arm," she said. "I want to get her out of this place as
quickly as possible."

"Have you found out anything about her?"

"Only that her name is Margaret Grey. A letter dropped out of her
pocket, and I saw the signature, or rather she pointed it out to me as
I handed it back to her. I fancy she is a widow, though she has not
actually told me so. She is staying in lodgings at some distance. Poor
thing! I am afraid she is very poor."

Adèle's pretty face was clouded as she spoke, but she said no more, for
they were very near the spot where Margaret had been left.

"Margaret!" thought Arthur, "Margaret!" and the one word seemed to
cling about his brain like a sweet, indefinable music as awkwardly
enough, it must be confessed, he approached her to offer his arm.

She rose when she saw him, a slight blush on her cheek, but as she
looked up at his frank young face the blush faded and her composure
returned.

"I have to thank you for great kindness, sir," she said with a gentle
dignity. "I cannot think what came over me just now. It must have
been the heat of the place; but I feel much stronger now, and if you
will add to your goodness the further favor of giving me your arm for
the length of the galleries, I can find my way home without any more
assistance."

Her voice was almost as overpowering to Arthur as her face had been.
He tried to stammer out a reply, when Adèle came happily to his
assistance. Taking one of the lady's hands in her own, she said with
gentle earnestness, "Pray allow me to manage for you. My cousin will
tell you how much I like to arrange everything for my neighbors; it is
my pet weakness. Then, you know, you are my patient, and I expect you
to be obedient. Mamma has sent the carriage for me, for she was not
quite certain that I should meet Arthur. We can drive you to any point
you like to mention. Please do not deny me this pleasure."

The lady blushed again, but Adèle's gentle delicacy triumphed. She
bowed her head in acquiescence, and took Arthur's arm, leaning on it
somewhat heavily, for she was still weak. Adèle walked on her other
side, slightly supporting her from time to time; and so they passed
through the gallery, with not many thoughts for the pictures, just as
the daylight was beginning to wane.

"---- street, Islington," said Arthur to the stately coachman when,
having at last emerged from the galleries, the trio stood beside a
small, well-appointed carriage.

The coachman looked dignifiedly astonished. He took note of an
exceedingly shabby person who was evidently connected with this
strange fancy. Had his young lady been alone, he might have
respectfully demurred; but as Mr. Arthur was a trusted person in the
establishment--one, moreover, whom it was not safe to offend--he
hazarded no remark, and after one protest in the shape of repetition,
in an inquiring key, of the obnoxious address, turned his horses' heads
in this very unwonted direction.

He had to ask his way several times before he could find the
out-of-the-way street indicated by Arthur's brief order; but for at
least one of those inside the carriage the drive could not have been
too long. Arthur Forrest would have found it extremely difficult to
explain his feelings, even to himself. Happily, for the moment it was
not necessary. To analyze our enjoyment or its sources would be very
often to rob it of its charm.

Why is the transparent greenness of spring or its first balmy breeze
so delicious to the senses? Why does a certain melody echo and re-echo
in the brain with a sweetness we cannot fathom? Why does beauty--pure
outline, graceful form, rich coloring--awaken a thrill of gladness in
our being? We cannot tell. We can only rejoice that such things are.

And Arthur was very young, full of the freshness of youth and
inexperience. He would have been highly indignant could he have heard
such a remark applied to him, for he looked upon himself as a man
of the world whom it would be difficult to astonish in any way; but
nevertheless it was true. The very novelty of his sensations as he sat
on the back seat of the brougham, looking anywhere rather than in the
fair face before him, proved this.

It was well for him that the vision came when it did, when his heart
was young and his life vigorous, when the chivalry of youth had not
passed away, with other beautiful things, in the numbing surroundings
of a fashionable life.

At last the carriage stopped at the entrance of a dingy street in a
region where "apartments" looked out from almost every window. The lady
would not suffer her new friends to take her to her own door, and they
possessed sufficient refinement of feeling to refrain from pressing
the point. She seemed even to shrink from the prospect of any further
acquaintance.

"We live in different worlds," she said with a sad smile when Adèle,
in her girlish enthusiasm, pressed her to allow them at least to
inquire after her. For Adèle was almost as much in love as her cousin,
certainly more gushingly so; but there was no possibility of resisting
the quiet firmness with which all efforts after further intimacy were
set aside by the lady they had helped.

With warm thanks she bade them farewell, but they both noticed, with
youth's sympathetic insight, that her eyelids drooped as though she had
been weary, and her lips slightly quivered before she turned away.

Adèle's eyes filled with tears, and Arthur had to swallow a most
uncomfortable lump that seemed to impede his utterance. Then the
cousins became more sympathetic than they had ever been before in
discussing their adventure and forming theory after theory about the
mysterious stranger.

But Adèle was the talker, Arthur the listener, and perhaps his cousin's
conversation had never before been so much to his mind.




CHAPTER III.

_A WOMAN FACE TO FACE WITH THE WORLD._

    How tedious, false, and cold seem all things! I
    Have met with much injustice in this world.


Choking back the tears that seemed as if they _would_ well forth
from a fountain that had long been sealed, Margaret Grey turned from
her companions of an hour to go home. To a very desolate home in
truth. Walled in and bricked out from the fair sights and sounds of
Nature, even the sunbeams as they touched it seemed only to reveal its
dinginess.

But four walls cannot make a home, any more than a casket can enrich
its jewelled contents. The most desolate exterior may be endeared by
what it holds. It might be so with Margaret's home, yet no light came
into her pale face as she caught sight of her dwelling. For a moment
she even hesitated--it seemed bitter to meet its dull blankness--only a
moment; then with a half smile at her own weakness she walked languidly
up a few dirty steps and rang the bell.

It was answered by a servant in keeping with the steps, and passing
her by, Margaret went into her rooms. They consisted of a bed- and
sitting-room, separated by folding doors. The sitting-room was very
much what the exterior of the house had promised--very dull, very
shabby. A cracked mirror was over the chimney-piece, its frame
carefully veiled by yellow muslin that had lost its primal brightness.
A chandelier in the centre of the room was also enveloped with the same
dingy covering. A few shells and gay china ornaments were scattered
about on unsteady stands. On a table beside the window was a group of
dusty-looking paper flowers.

Tea was laid, the one cup and saucer telling their pathetic tale of a
lonely life. Margaret had left her lodgings that morning, desperate
with the feeling that either her eyes and her senses must have some
relief or her mind must give way. When she returned and looked round
her once more, she began to fear that her experiment had been worse
than useless. The force of contrast had increased the bitterness of her
lot.

She sank wearily into a stiff pretence of an arm-chair, and began again
thinking out the problem that beauty and dreariness alike presented to
her mind--the uncertain future. And then came over her like a flood the
vision of days and years without hope, without joy. Burying her face
in her hands, she gave way for a few moments to unrestrained weeping.
It was an unwonted exercise, for Margaret was brave, and none of the
last and deepest bitterness, that of remorse, cast its shadow on her
retrospect of the past. Thoughtless she might have been, sinning she
was not: of this thing the secret court of her inner consciousness, so
pitiless to the true offender, had freely acquitted her.

It would be a long story to tell what it was that overcame Margaret
Grey till she sobbed out her sadness alone in the stillness of the May
evening. Partly, perhaps, the squalor of her present surroundings,
for the beautiful face and form encased a soul attuned to highest
harmonies; partly the sweet womanly sympathy, which she had looked upon
only and then put resolutely away from her; partly the daily pinpricks
of disappointment and repulse that she had encountered in prosecuting
the business which had led her to London. For, like a multitude of
helpless women, Margaret was on the look-out for employment.

She had one little girl, a child about six years of age. With such a
sweet tie children-lovers might wonder at her utter desolation. Strange
to say, this tie, so sweet to many, was to her more of a care than a
pleasure. The future of her little one weighed heavily on her mind.

In the lonely seaside village where she had left her it would be
scarcely possible to educate her to fill the position that might be
hers in the future. Margaret's scanty means did not allow her to think
of a residence in town, or of the expenses of a school education for
her daughter, unless, indeed, she could earn the necessary money.

Hence her visit to London. She had been well educated herself; of
course her first thought was that by educating others she could pay
for the education of her child. If she had loved her little one very
much, perhaps she would have judged differently. She might have thought
it better to make a home for her child in any spot, however lonely,
feeling that the lack of some accomplishment would be well compensated
by the refining influence of a mother's constant love and care.

But Margaret did _not_ love her child so deeply as to find her presence
a sweet necessity. There was a cloud over her motherhood, which robbed
it of some of its fair charm. Duty to her child, not pleasure in her,
was her one idea of the tie that alone, at this period of her history,
bound her to life. It was _this_ made her anxiety that, whatever
her own lot might be, Laura should have every advantage in the way
of education and training. And with the anxiety came the need for
exertion. Up to the moment when the child's growth and development made
the mother think of that bugbear of mothers--her education--Margaret
had not been troubled with any money difficulties. She had lived in
her retirement, the one trouble of her life wrapping her in its gloomy
folds, but with no care for the provision of herself and her child in
the future. Suddenly, inexplicably, one source of income had failed.
Margaret had not been accustomed to trouble herself about money: the
sufficient came to her--that was all she required to know--and this
poverty was a new and dreadful thing which she found it very difficult
to realize.

She tried to fathom the mystery, but it eluded her; only this remained
as a hard fact: eighty pounds a year was all she received or seemed
likely to receive, and Laura had to be educated.

The spirit of self-sacrifice is strong in some women; it was very
strong in Margaret. She had loved her solitude by the great sea, and
had succeeded in making it almost pleasant. There she pondered and wept
and hoped; there, if anywhere, she thought that her trial must end.
She would not enter the great world, to be swamped and lost in its
multitude. Hiding her loss where none could know and none would blame,
she would live in the midst of a savage loneliness which seemed almost
sympathetic to her mood.

This suited her, but would it do for Laura? Was she a fit companion
for her child, already dreamy and imaginative beyond her years? No,
Margaret told herself; and, leaving the little one in the care of the
woman from whom she hired their little cottage, she went to London
alone, to try and find some occupation for herself.

She had been directed to Islington as a cheap neighborhood; and there
she had stayed in a wretched lodging-house for about three weeks--three
ages to poor Margaret, filled with dismal memories of humiliation and
disappointment. She was reviewing it all that evening--the rudeness,
the repulses, the cruel cross-examinations; for with these came the
fresher scenes which that day had brought--the chivalrous admiration
that had shone out of Arthur's young eyes, the gentle, womanly
tenderness of Adèle.

Employers--so it seemed to poor Margaret; they were a very new class
to her--were cast in a different mould. It was their duty to ask
disagreeable questions and to probe unhealed wounds; it was their
duty to be stiff and cross, and not at all impressed with the outward
advantages which Margaret knew she possessed. It seemed very hopeless,
but she felt it necessary to persevere, at least for a little while
longer. The thought aroused her. She raised her head, and became
suddenly conscious of the fact of hunger. She had not eaten a morsel
since breakfast. No wonder, she thought, that faintness had overpowered
her. So she went into her bedroom and washed away the traces of tears,
that the dirty maid-of-all-work might not read her weakness, then rang
the bell to order an egg or something a little more substantial than
usual for her tea.

The girl came in, holding out a card that had not been improved, in
point of coloring, by its transit through her fingers. She informed
Margaret that a lady had left it half an hour ago with a message.

The message, not very lucidly delivered, was to the effect that the
lady whose name appeared in minute letters on the card would, in all
probability, call again in the course of the evening.

Poor Margaret! she looked at the card. "Mrs. Augustus Brown." It had
not a very encouraging sound, but it might mean business, and business
meant provision for Laura's needs. But the thought of the impending
interview had robbed her of all appetite; so, after hastily swallowing
a cup of tea with a dry biscuit, she again rang the bell, had the
tea-apparatus cleared away, and then sat by the window trying to read.

The apparition of a yellow chariot which seemed to fill the narrow
street interrupted her, and before many minutes a thundering rap at the
door made her aware of the fact that the dreaded visitor was at hand.
Margaret's cheek burned. For one moment she longed desperately for a
refuge where she could hide her head from these intrusions, then she
remembered that she had invited them, and strove to brace her nerves
to endurance. When, therefore, the door was thrown open to its fullest
extent by the servant, who, never having seen so grand a person in her
life as Mrs. Augustus Brown, thought it necessary to give her plenty of
room, Margaret was herself again--the heightened color the struggle had
called forth alone testifying to her recent emotion.

Mrs. Augustus Brown was a little round individual, almost as broad as
she was long, decked out in flounces and laces and ribbons: it was one
of the chief trials of her life that none of these things made her look
important. Mrs. Augustus Brown was governess-hunting, for she possessed
no less than seven small likenesses of herself, who began to be unruly,
and to require, as she would have expressed it, a stricter hand over
them.

And this governess-hunting was by no means an uncongenial occupation
to Mrs. Brown. It could not but be pleasing, especially as the yellow
chariot and its attendant luxuries were of comparatively recent origin,
to dash up to registry-offices and through quiet streets, and to watch
the effect produced on the untutored minds of inferior persons by her
brilliant _tout ensemble_. But as yet she had not suited herself. In
a governess, as she said, "tong" was essential; _her_ children would
have to be brought up suitably, that they might adorn the position
Providence had evidently prepared for them, and "tong" seemed to be a
rare article in the market of female labor.

On the previous day Mrs. Augustus had dilated very largely upon this
point at a registry-office. She had been directed, in consequence, to
Mrs. Grey--a prize, as she was assured, in point of appearance and
manner. Curiosity was strong in Mrs. Brown. Certain allusions and hints
about Mrs. Grey's antecedents attracted her, and she lost no time in
looking her up; hence the apparition of the yellow chariot.

But Mrs. Augustus Brown has been left in the doorway to introduce
herself to Mrs. Grey. As she entered Margaret rose, with the true
instinct of a lady, and went forward to meet her, with a bow to which
her visitor did not deign to respond.

Mrs. Augustus Brown flattered herself that she had tact enough to put
people in their own places and keep them there--a notable piece of
wisdom, truly; the only difficulty being as to certain doubts about
what is the "own place." Were those rightly solved, perhaps a few
fine ladies would be slightly astonished by finding a level at some
unexpected layer of the social crust.

It was not Mrs. Brown's way to trouble herself with doubts. She waddled
across the room with great satisfaction to herself, but in a manner
that to the uninitiated could hardly have been called dignified, sank
down on a chair which directly faced Margaret, and began divesting
herself quietly of some of her wraps.

Never to appear too eager with any of these people was, in the code
of Mrs. Augustus, an essential point in their management. When this
business had been performed, and she had settled herself as comfortably
as might be in a not very luxurious arm-chair, Mrs. Brown felt for a
pair of gold-rimmed eye-glasses, adjusted them and looked Margaret
over from head to foot. "Bless me, how handsome!" was her mental
ejaculation: "my word for it, _she's_ no good."

It was not wonderful that this coarse mind found it difficult to
understand the strange anomaly, for Margaret was one of those rarely
beautiful beings who seem only made for the tenderest handling. Her
face might have been a poet's ideal, for the traces of suffering and
conflict it only too plainly revealed had removed it far from the
meaningless glory of mere form and coloring; and yet she was too young
perhaps for these to have bereft her of any charm; they rather endowed
her pale fair beauty with a certain refinement, an appealing pathos,
which spoke powerfully to the imagination.

She possessed a form, too, whose every line was perfect, well
developed, yet fragile--womanly, yet full of grace. And the deep
crimson which Mrs. Brown's studied rudeness had called to her face
heightened the effect of her beauty.

She sat before her visitor, her eyes cast down, her hands crossed in
her lap, like a fair Greek slave in the barbarian's market-place,
waiting for the decree of fate.

It was a relief when Mrs. Augustus Brown began to give her attention to
the ponderous carriage-bag in her hand. Some of its fastenings, being
the latest patents and the height of convenience, were difficult to
manage.

"Your name," she said, hunting for a letter--"ah, here it is!--_Mrs._
Grey."

Margaret bowed, shivering slightly. That fatal emphasis. This was the
way in which the inquisitions generally began.

Mrs. Augustus here coughed slightly, and looked over her gold-rimmed
spectacles in a way intended to be severe. Alas! how we deceive
ourselves! The look was only comic. "A married woman, I presume?"

Margaret bowed again.

Here Mrs. Brown consulted a set of ivory tablets: "With one little
girl, I am told, and small income, anxious to make enough for her
education. Is this correct?"

"Perfectly so, madam."

"A very laudable object: then, Mrs. Grey, you are, I presume, a widow?"

There was a moment's hesitation. Margaret pressed her hand to her side
as if she were in pain, and Mrs. Augustus eyed her suspiciously: "My
question, Mrs. Grey, is a simple one."

"And my answer, madam, can be equally simple. I am _not_ a widow."

"_Not_ a widow!" Mrs. Brown drew back her chair and took another long
look--one that expressed incredulous horror. "Not a widow! And pray,
Mrs. Grey, where is your husband?"

In spite of herself, Margaret smiled feebly, but the smile was a
nervous one. She looked up and shook her head: "I am sorry to say,
madam, that I cannot tell."

"Then," and Mrs. Brown again receded, as if to put as much space as
possible between herself and this naughty person--"then, Mrs. Grey, you
are separated from your husband?"

"I am."

The answer was spoken in a low, clear voice, very calmly, but with
a certain intonation of sadness that would have struck upon a more
sensitive ear. To Mrs. Augustus Brown this very quietness of demeanor
was in the highest degree brazen. She fluttered her fan, drew herself
up to her full height, and looked virtuous as a Roman matron (in her
own opinion, be it said parenthetically).

"You seem strangely forgetful, Mrs. Grey, of the importance of the
position which you seek to fill in my household. With the utmost
coolness you describe yourself as a woman living separated from her
husband. Goodness knows why. For all I can tell, you may have done
something very wrong." Here Mrs. Brown coughed and hid an imaginary
blush behind her fan. "And yet," she continued, when the blush had
been given time to fade, "you wish to take the entire charge of little
innocents, the eldest of whom is only ten, and seven of them. I had
my children so quick." Here Mrs. Brown lost her thread. To mothers of
large families these reminiscences are always bewildering.

Margaret's eyes were looking very weary; she filled up the pause:
"Perhaps it would be better then to inquire no farther. From what you
say I fear that I shall scarcely suit you." She rose as she spoke.

Mrs. Brown did not take the hint; she remained where she was, rooted to
the place by sheer astonishment. For a young woman to make so light of
such a position as that of governess in _her_ family was an unheard-of
thing. But Mrs. Grey rose in her estimation from that moment. Then she
was curious. "Sit down again, my dear," she said in a manner that was
intended to be gracious. "Mrs. Townley spoke highly of you, and you
certainly _look_ a respectable person. I'm not one always to blame my
own sex. I believe in these affairs the men are very often in fault.
You may not be aware that Mr. Augustus Brown and myself consider salary
no object, and masters for every branch. Rudiments and style, Mrs.
Grey, and of course character with children, you understand. If it
were as my confidential maid, now, I might not be so particular; but,
unfortunately, the young person I have I brought from Paris, and can't
get rid of her under three months. Not half so handy as I was given to
understand."

She fluttered her fan again, and waited for an answer. Margaret
hesitated. Had she consulted her own inclinations she would have
refused decidedly to have anything further to do with this vulgar
woman. Already she felt by anticipation what the yoke of servitude
in such a house as hers would be; but Laura--the high salary. The
servitude, though bitter, might be shortened. It ended in a compromise.
"Will you be kind enough to allow me a day or two's delay?" she asked.
"I have friends who will certainly not refuse to give me the necessary
references; but I have not seen many of them for some time, and they do
not know of my present position."

Mrs. Augustus Brown got up, her dignity gone for the time in her
anxiety to make this striking-looking person one of her household.

"Yes, yes," she said, "that's the best plan; I'm sick of looking up
governesses--one more pasty-looking and unstylish than the other--and
I fancy you'll suit. Let me hear soon, for the children get more
headstrong every day. I'm too gentle with them. And then so much in
society. Why, we have three engagements of an evening sometimes,
turning night into day, _I_ say. And the servants can no more manage
them than fly. I shall lose my health, as I tell Mr. Brown, if I'm
referred to every hour of the day by servants and children. Too great a
strain, Mrs. Grey. Well, good-bye, my dear."

She waddled off to the yellow chariot, and Margaret was left
alone--headstrong children, references, explanations, pictures and
unexpected kindness making one great riot in her brain. She went to bed
early that night, and the events of the day grouped themselves together
into fantastic dreams.

In the brain of Mrs. Augustus Brown one thought was pre-eminent; it
haunted her among the cream-colored cushions of the yellow chariot,
was present in the drawing-room, slightly interfering with her mild
contemplation of the sleeping face of a sandy-haired individual on the
sofa; it followed her even to the marital couch, mingling with her
dreams.

"She's mighty handsome: I hope to goodness Brown won't fall in love
with her."

Brown was calmly unconscious of this want of conjugal trust. Had he
known to what it bore reference, he might have been slightly excited,
for Mr. Augustus, though his hair was sandy and his nose a decided
snub, was an admirer of female beauty, and considered himself highly
irresistible. Mrs. Brown was totally unaware of this fact.

"After years of life together" they were, on this point at least,
"strangers yet."

Sentimental young ladies, who croon over these pathetic words, thinking
perhaps, with an approach to soft melancholy, of the desolation
reserved for themselves in the future, when, their finest feelings
unappreciated, they must shut themselves up in mystery, might learn a
lesson from Mr. and Mrs. Augustus.

To be "strangers yet" on some points with that nearest and dearest,
the unappreciative husband of the future, may possibly be conducive to
harmony rather than desolation.




CHAPTER IV.

_MORNING THOUGHTS--A RESOLVE TAKEN._

    Soul of our souls and safeguard of the world,
    Sustain--Thou only canst--the sick of heart!
    Restore their languid spirits, and recall
    Their lost affections unto Thee and Thine.


Margaret awoke early the next morning. It was a sad waking. For the
first moment she could have wished to shut her eyes again, never to
open them more in this world. Life looked so blank. And what wonder?

However brave the spirit, it must be affected by its surroundings,
and to open one's eyes in a stifling room, with the consciousness
that the raised blind will show nothing but a dingy yard, and beyond
and on every side of it deserts of dingy yards, the yards shut in
by black-looking houses, in all of which the like stifling rooms
may reasonably be expected to be found, is, to say the least of it,
disheartening.

Margaret's troubles in the little cottage by the seaside, of which she
fondly thought as home, had not been less; but there was something in
the wide breadths of sea, in its fresh curling waves and in the grand
expanse of sky to soothe the dull aching of heart and brain, to give
scope to the great doctrine of possibilities, and freedom to dreams
that sometimes appeared wild and unreal.

Here it was different. In the narrowness of wall and enclosure life
itself was narrowed down till it seemed nothing but a dreary blank of
good; in the dull monotony of wood and brick what had been melancholy
became bitterness, what had been prayers for help and guidance became
one passionate outcry against Providence--one bitter complaint against
what the tortured heart too often calls cruel fate.

Young curates are fond of preaching about resignation, notifying to
their aged friends the desirability of persevering to the end. I think
if ever they come to feel this, that Fate and all her myrmidons are
against them, that life is cruel beyond measure, that even faith itself
can find no standing-point, they will speak less on this strange, sad
theme; but when the victory has been won, when fate and necessity have
taken a true place for them in the economy of nature, what they say
will be worth far more.

The first discouragement gone by, Margaret felt that she must act, and
then came the consciousness that something very disagreeable was before
her. She had promised Mrs. Brown to set herself right with her as far
as character was concerned, and for this it would be necessary to give
references.

A new trouble, and, strange to say, unthought of before. Margaret
was little used to the ways of the world: she had hitherto cherished
a vague notion that to present herself would be sufficient for the
attainment of her object. That she was a lady she imagined (and in this
she was not mistaken) could be seen at a glance.

That a lady's character should be looked into like a servant's had not
entered into her mind as a necessary part of that to which those who
seek for employment must subject themselves. And yet her common sense
told her, as she thought it all over in the gray of early morning, that
this was perfectly right, and only what she ought to have expected.

The necessity might certainly have been more delicately revealed than
by Mrs. Augustus Brown; but Margaret, in her morning review of ways
and means, thoroughly recognized the justice of the demand. To answer
it was none the less a great difficulty to one of her nature. The long
separation from all her friends, who before and after her marriage had
been very numerous; the solitary nature of her life during the last
four years; above all, that cloud, barely acknowledged even to herself,
which rested on her fair fame (she could not tell if _it_ had affected
her in the opinion of her former world, if many-tongued Rumor had
magnified it),--all these things made her task a very difficult one,
and as she thought she felt inclined to give up the struggle, to return
to her lonely lot and do her best for her child herself.

She had almost come to this conclusion, even the note refusing Mrs.
Brown's magnanimous offer was written in her mind, when suddenly an
idea flitted across her brain which caused her to hesitate. The thought
was of one who in all probability would stand her friend, whose word
was worth something, and who knew enough of the circumstances of her
history to render it unnecessary for her to enter into painful details.

The friend was a lawyer, the man who managed her affairs. He was well
known to her, not so much personally as in a business capacity, and she
felt great confidence in his friendliness and judgment. Then she knew
that he held a high position, especially in the religious world. Before
she rose she had decided at least to consult Mr. Robinson.

If he thought his reference would be sufficient guarantee of
respectability to ensure her an entrance into the carefully guarded
fold of Mrs. Augustus Brown, she would try to obtain the position; if
not, she would make no further effort.




CHAPTER V.

_FOUND--A FRIEND._

    Most delicately hour by hour
    He canvassed human mysteries,
    And trod on silk, as if the winds
    Blew his own praises in his eyes,
    And stood aloof from other minds
    In impotence of fancied power.


Mr. Robinson was a man whom women trusted almost instinctively, for, in
the first place, he was tall and well made, possessing the advantage of
strong, square shoulders and straight, capable-looking legs.

A rogue, especially in the lawyer world, is apt to be thought of as a
man of small type, with sharp features, sallow complexion and little,
piercing eyes.

Mr. Robinson was florid in complexion, large and muscular in type,
fair and frank in manner. He had a way of speaking about business
as if everything he did might, with no drawback to himself, remain
open for the inspection of men and angels; perhaps best of all, at
least so far as ladies and clergymen were concerned, was the pleasing
habit he possessed of throwing religion into everything: testamentary
dispositions, settlements, conveyancing, chancery suits, all could
be conveniently ticketed with a text, and laid away in the capacious
recesses of Mr. Robinson's memory, to be brought out on some suitable
occasion as notable proofs of his own high position in the favor of
Providence.

Mr. Robinson was married. He had thought it incumbent on him to leave
progeny on the earth when, to use his lightly-spoken phrase, "himself
should be gathered to his fathers." That he possessed, or had once
possessed, a father, was a self-evident fact. With regard to the
plural number some might be tempted to ejaculate, "The fathers! where
are they?" but these were skeptical individuals, verging no doubt on
infidelity, for Mr. Robinson considered faith a cardinal virtue, and
possessed a genealogical tree which threw its branches far and wide,
and traced back to unknown antiquity, or at least to William the
Conqueror and Rollo the Norman, the ancestors of the Robinson family,
and of those who had been so happy as to form any connection with it.

This famous specimen of art hung up in Mr. Robinson's office, and was
frequently exhibited in all its fulness of detail to lady-clients.
They were often obliging enough to interest themselves specially in
the lowest branch, where Mr. Robinson had written in a small clear
handwriting the names of six boys, happy fruit of wedlock, destined
no doubt to be illustrious, and--not elevate; that would scarcely be
possible, considering their antecedents, but--preserve the character of
the Robinson family and honor its traditions.

"In the mean time," Mr. Robinson would say, opening the account-book,
settlement or will which his lady-client had come to consult, and
laughing out a clear hearty laugh which told of no _arrière-pensée_, "I
keep the young beggars in good order."

Mr. Robinson was always very busy. If clients, ladies principally,
did not happen to be with him during the whole morning, he had a
vast arrear of letters to finish. He therefore possessed a large
gloomy-looking room, where applicants for the favor of admission to a
private interview generally waited until he could be disengaged.

It was into this room that Margaret was shown when, her determination
having outlasted dressing and breakfast, she presented herself to ask
if she might see Mr. Robinson.

The clerk said that a gentleman was with Mr. Robinson, but no doubt
he would be disengaged presently. He took up her card, and Margaret
sat down in the waiting-room, rather glad of the opportunity afforded
her of collecting her thoughts, and considering how she could open the
subject, for, now that she was actually bound on the errand of asking a
guarantee of respectability from the man she had hitherto looked upon
simply as the person who sent her money and transacted her business, it
seemed rather harder than she had imagined.

She had a longer time for preparation than she could have desired. Mr.
Robinson, as he afterward informed her, was literally overwhelmed with
work.

He rose when she entered, set a chair for her, then resumed his own.
His manner was nonchalant, even, some might have said, unpolished in
its freedom, as he expressed his pleasure at seeing Mrs. Grey, and his
hope that nothing unpleasant had brought her so far from home.

Mr. Robinson was much commended for his easy natural manners, but
on this occasion, as on a few others, an acute observer might have
detected something of nervousness underlying his expansive gestures.

When he had exhausted his vocabulary, Mrs. Grey spoke. Lifting her
veil, she fixed her soft brown eyes on Mr. Robinson's face. "I have
come to consult you," she said.

"Most happy, I am sure," he replied briskly--"any assistance in my
power. It was an unfortunate business. Happily, we secured enough for
maintenance."

"You allude to my losses, Mr. Robinson. I am, unfortunately, no woman
of business, so I have scarcely understood how it comes that my income
is so diminished; but I assure you that I have full confidence in your
judgment. Perhaps, as I have come, you will be able to explain these
matters to me."

"And delighted," he answered with some eagerness; "it is one of my
peculiar crotchets in business to keep all my clients very conversant
with their own affairs. Others act differently, but 'Do unto others,'
you know, is one of my chief rules. I live by rule, Mrs. Grey--the
highest of all rules, I hope. See here, now," and he laid his hand on a
pile of account-books, "this is a case in point. Mrs. Herbert, a widow,
large estates, before consulting me scarcely knew what she possessed;
now looks regularly over the books, spends an hour here once a month.
Danvers, again: young lady about to be married, sent for me to draw up
the settlement. 'You know all about me, Mr. Robinson,' she said; 'draw
it up as you like.' 'Excuse me, Miss Danvers,' said I. 'I should prefer
you to use your own judgment in the matter.' She has done so, and in
the course of conversation on the subject has made some very sensible
suggestions."

Mr. Robinson did not say to how many different interviews the sensible
suggestions had given rise; certainly, however, he had been no loser by
them.

"I could quote hundreds of instances, all tending the same way," he
continued.

Poor Margaret shook her head: "I am afraid I should find it very
difficult to understand."

"Not at all, not at all. Look here, now. What are you anxious to know?
I venture to say I'll make it clear to you before you leave this room."

Margaret smiled. This man's frankness pleased her. His manner, though a
little unpolished, was, she thought, anything but displeasing; then he
seemed to understand business thoroughly. Perhaps he would show that,
after all, her affairs were not so desperate as they seemed.

"I am first anxious to know what you mean by writing to me that one of
the mortgages has turned out badly," she said.

"Easy to explain," he answered, with a self-satisfied smile. "Only,
perhaps, by the bye, I shall have to begin with the A B C, as one may
say, and acquaint you with the nature of a mortgage."

"If you please, Mr. Robinson; I am afraid I am ignorant even to that
extent."

"So much the better, Mrs. Grey, so much the better: 'A little
knowledge'--you know the proverb. Ladies take up _such_ ideas when they
know, as they imagine, something of business! I had far rather deal
with total ignorance on these points; but don't be discouraged. We must
begin at the very beginning. Forsaking business terms altogether for
the moment, I will, if you please, put this to you simply. You take me,
Mrs. Grey?" He smiled with a frankness that was charming to behold. "Do
at Rome as Rome does. With ladies talk of business as they are able to
understand."

Mrs. Grey smiled her acquiescence.

"Agreed," cried the lawyer effusively. "Well, then, to work. Say now,
by way of illustration"--he took a pencil as he spoke and drew a line,
writing A at the one end, B at the other and C in the centre--"A
represents a person who has a landed estate, houses, what not; B has
no landed property, but the value of A's estate in money. B wants
to put out his money in some safe way; A, who does not care to sell
his property, wants money; steps in C, the intermediate person--a
lawyer, we shall say--known to both parties. He negotiates between
them, finally arranging for B to lend his money to A on the security
of A's property. A deed of mortgage is then drawn up, which makes
the agreement binding. A has B's money, pays a half-yearly interest,
and if, after a six months' notice, the sum originally lent is not
forthcoming, A's property may be sold to make good the default. Do you
follow me, Mrs. Grey?"

"Perfectly, Mr. Robinson. You have made clear to me what I never
understood before; but under these circumstances I cannot see how my
money was actually lost. The property would always be there."

"True, Mrs. Grey." Mr. Robinson gave a somewhat peculiar smile. "I am
glad to see that you understand me so thoroughly; your suggestion is
in the highest degree practical; there is one consideration, however,
which we have not taken into account. Land, unfortunately, depreciates
in value, so that at times it would be highly dangerous to the
interests of the mortgagee to press a sale. At other times the title
of the mortgagor is not perfectly clear. All these things should be
carefully looked into beforehand. In your case everything was done, but
one cannot be always certain. However, excuse me for correcting your
slight inaccuracy. I _think_ I never said that this sum of money was
lost. I like to be perfectly certain on these points. Perhaps you can
refer to the passage in my letter in which I announced this unfortunate
business."

He looked at her with some anxiety--nervousness perhaps an acute
observer might have said, but Margaret was not an acute observer.

She smiled and shook her head: "Quite impossible, Mr. Robinson. I never
keep my letters, especially business ones. I _have_ been told that this
habit is a bad one; but _à quoi bon?_ It is really too much trouble."

The lawyer showed his teeth. "A lady's view of matters," he said
briskly; "and, after all, full of common sense. Why _should_ you
trouble yourself? However, to return _à nos moutongs_, as the French
would say" (Mr. Robinson had spent a year in a French school, and
considered himself a perfect master of the language), "I am happy to
say that your affairs are likely to take a favorable turn. I have
a hold on the fellow for another little matter; indeed, I may say
that he is completely in my power. With your permission I will open
proceedings against him."

Mr. Robinson always spoke the truth--at least, as some one said in
the House of Commons lately, "what he thought the truth." But, though
his affairs were open to the inspection of men and angels, he did not
consider mental reservation a sin, even where it would seriously affect
the character of a truth which he had ingenuously stated. He guarded
himself from telling Mrs. Grey that the other little business was a
large sum owed to himself by Mrs. Grey's debtor, and that he was fully
determined to screw this out of him before another debt should be paid.

The knowledge of want or of something approaching it--want rather of
the refinements of life than of its necessities--had made Margaret
look with far more interest on money than she had ever done before.
Formerly, it had been a certain something that always came at the right
moment--for Mr. Robinson was as regular as clockwork in the transaction
of his business--and that came in amounts amply sufficient to meet
every need. What wonder that she thought little of how it came, and was
tolerably lavish in its expenditure?

Now, everything was changed. Money meant education for Laura, the
refinements and amenities of life for herself; above all, independence.
The want of it meant servitude, drudgery, perhaps even the squalor
of poverty. But she was not sufficiently acquainted with business to
imagine that some one might be to blame for the failing mortgage--that
it could be possible to call her solicitor to account.

She trusted Mr. Robinson implicitly. For was he not a good man?
Righteous overmuch, some people said; one who conducted his business in
an open, off-hand kind of way, which savored more of the harmlessness
of the dove than of the wisdom of the serpent? Did not his frank smile
and cheerful greeting speak of a quiet conscience? Did not worthy
people of all denominations consult him in the management of their
affairs?

Margaret could not have suspected Mr. Robinson, and his cheerful way of
suggesting proceedings and their mysterious effect filled her with new
hope. She looked up eagerly: "Oh, Mr. Robinson, then you really think
there is hope?"

"My dear lady," he answered in his peculiarly lively way, "I have not
the smallest doubt of it. Be content, for the time being, with your
small income, and, take my word for it, before six months have passed
over our heads we shall (by the Divine assistance--of course, we must
never forget that, Mrs. Grey) be able to pay back into your account the
larger part, if not all, of the sum in question."

The tears filled Margaret's eyes. Had she grown so very mercenary,
then? I scarcely think so. _Her_ delight was that of the escaped
captive. There would be no necessity now to prosecute her painful
search for employment. The yoke that already, by anticipation, was
galling her might be thrown off with a clear conscience. Mr. Robinson's
word meant more than that of most people, and he gave six months as
the duration of her penury. During that time her little daughter would
scarcely require more instruction than she could give; they had still
sufficient to enable them to live quietly; and even should she be a
loser to some extent, there would no doubt be sufficient left for
Laura's education. If not, it would be time enough then to think of
ways and means.

She gave a sigh of intense relief, then looked up, smiling through a
mist of gathering tears: "I am very foolish, Mr. Robinson, but your
words have taken _such_ a load from my mind! I had come here to-day to
consult you about taking a situation as governess. They wanted--that
is, I mean," she blushed as she spoke, "a reference, you know, was
necessary, so I came to you about it."

"To give you a reference," replied he, with a smile that made Margaret
wince, there was so much assurance in its cordiality. "You could not
have come to a better person. My connection is very large, and, I may
say without unduly boasting (these earthly gifts must all be looked
upon as coming from above), where the name of Robinson is known it
is respected. A curious proof of this occurred yesterday." Here Mr.
Robinson was interrupted by one of his clerks, who brought up the
intimation that Lord ---- was waiting to see him. "Say I am with a
lady-client; beg his lordship to wait a few moments." Then, as the
clerk went down with the message, "You see," he continued, turning to
Mrs. Grey, "all my clients stand on the same footing. If the prince
of Wales came here to consult me on business-matters, I should request
him to wait his turn. But as we need not keep any one unnecessarily
in suspense, my little anecdote must be narrated on another occasion.
Remarkable circumstance, too--fresh proof, if that were needed, of the
existence of an overruling Providence."

Margaret rose from her seat, scarcely perhaps so impressed as she might
have been with the noble impartiality of her solicitor.

"One moment," he said, drawing out his cheque-book. Now, Mr. Robinson
loved his cheque-book. It was his sceptre, the insignia of his power.
He always produced it with a certain consciousness of superiority, and
made over the trifling pieces of paper which his name had rendered
valuable as if they had been princely gifts.

"While this affair is pending," he continued pompously, "you are no
doubt somewhat straitened. I shall be glad to relieve you from undue
embarrassment. I will write out a cheque for twenty pounds. And you may
draw upon me--from time to time--always in moderation, of course."

A blush dyed Margaret's cheek. For a moment she felt disinclined to
put herself under any obligation to this man, whose style of offering
assistance was not very palatable to her high spirits. Then she
remembered that this was business--a thing, no doubt, done every day.
And his manner--Well, it was simply that of a man not quite accustomed
to polite society. It arose from ignorance, and was a proof, if any
were needed, of his honesty. His worst faults lay evidently on the
surface, covering over, as in many cases, a good and noble nature.

These, allow me to say, were Margaret's reflections; it does not,
therefore, follow that they were absolutely correct. Women have a trick
of rushing to conclusions. A man weighs and balances, sets this quality
against that, thinks out the effect of one upon the other, and in many
cases comes to a conclusion slowly and with difficulty. It is well. He
is not so often deceived. A woman has generally a preconceived idea, a
prejudice for or against. This being so, it is more than natural that
some expression of countenance, some tone of voice, some trick of
manner, should fall in with her preformed judgment, and cause, in the
shortest time imaginable, a conclusion which scarcely anything will
shake. She believes even against proof self-evident to the rest of the
world. This, no doubt, is partly the reason why helpless, lonely women
are so often cheated and robbed.

Margaret was in this position. I do not mean to say that she had been
cheated and robbed. Her position was that of full confidence in the man
who transacted her business. She had thought of him as a friend: she
had found him frank and honest, no suspicion of the legal rogue in his
face or manner. Therefore she came to this conclusion: Mr. Robinson
was her friend, he looked after her interests very carefully, he would
set her affairs right if any one could. This being so, what mattered a
little want of polish? She could very well afford to dispense with it.

"Thank you," she said as Mr. Robinson handed her the cheque; "I cannot
deny that this will be of present assistance to me."

Mr. Robinson then rose in his turn, shook his fair client's hand with
perhaps more than necessary empressement, and escorted her to the door.




CHAPTER VI.

_THE YOUNG HEIR._

                   But the ground
    Of all great thoughts is sadness.


Arthur Forrest was certainly developing a taste for art--not at all a
bad taste, his friends said one to the other, for a young man who had
amply sufficient to live upon. It would fill up his time, keep him
from the dangers of idleness, give him, in fact, something to think
about. For art could easily be pursued in a most gentlemanlike manner.
A person who fills the position, not of an artist indeed, but of an
intelligent patron of the fine arts, is not only a useful member of
society, but one who is held in some estimation by the world.

There were many who took a very close interest in the affairs of
young Arthur Forrest, for he was, or would be in a few weeks--that
was all the period that divided him from his majority--a young man of
property. Then he was an orphan. What more natural than that tender,
sympathetic young ladies and pious, well-conducted matrons should watch
his proceedings with affectionate interest, and strive to do what lay
within their power to save him from the evil influences which were
popularly supposed to be immediately surrounding him?

Unfortunately for the pious matrons and sympathetic young ladies,
Arthur was well taken care of.

Mrs. Churchill was his aunt. She had tended him in his infancy, as she
often said pathetically to a circle of admirers; she had the first
claim on his love and gratitude. The gratitude Mrs. Churchill was
anxious to keep as her inalienable right in Arthur: the love she had
already passed on to her daughter and representative, pretty Adèle.

And hitherto Arthur had shown himself dutifully content with the
arrangement. He did not think much of girls as a class, and certainly
Adèle was as good a specimen of them as he had ever met. Then he was
accustomed to her; she generally knew how to keep him amused; she was
pretty, lively and well dressed. Till Arthur met Margaret he had never
admired a shabby person. In fact, he was languidly grateful to Aunt
Ellen and the Fates for having arranged matters so comfortably, because
matters were actually arranged.

Mrs. Churchill knew the world she lived in too well to allow such a
thing as a tacit understanding between the cousins, which a young
man's whim could break through in a moment. She did not intend that
her daughter's first youth and beauty should be spent in a devotion
which was destined to meet with no adequate return. Adèle was rich
and pretty--she would have no difficulty in meeting with a suitable
partner; only to keep Arthur and his money in the family was desirable.
Besides, he was young; he would make an amenable son-in-law; then
he was already accustomed to the yoke--no small point this, in Mrs.
Churchill's estimation.

When, therefore, Adèle had reached the age of eighteen and Arthur
that of twenty--events which had happened almost simultaneously
shortly before my story opens--Mrs. Churchill, as she fondly hoped
and believed, put the finishing stroke to the edifice she had been
forming. It had been her aim, during the few years that had passed
since Arthur had emerged into young manhood, to make her house the most
agreeable place in the world to him, and in this she had been eminently
successful. Adèle had ably assisted her, for she, poor child! had
always cherished affection for her handsome cousin--an affection which
the dawn of womanhood and her mother's fostering influence ripened
without much difficulty into a tenderer feeling.

She found it not easy, then, when wise eighteen had arrived, to
understand her mother's tactics, for Arthur the welcome guest began
from that date to be less warmly received, and obstacles were thrown
in the way of their meetings, which had been so delightfully frequent
and unembarrassed. They came notably from Mrs. Churchill, and yet her
personal affection for her nephew seemed only to have increased; there
was a tinge of gentle regret in her manner even while she appeared to
be sending him from them.

It was almost more inexplicable to Arthur than to Adèle and at last he
could bear it no longer.

With the love of universal popularity so common to his age, he hated
the idea of being in his relative's bad graces; besides, the charms
of his cousin's society increased tenfold in his imagination as
difficulties cropped up to interfere with his quiet enjoyment of them.

"By Jove!" he said to himself in the course of a cigar-fed meditation,
"I must have it out with Aunt Ellen at once."

That was a memorable moment in his history. With the impulsiveness
of youth he extinguished his cigar and repaired in haste to Mrs.
Churchill's handsome residence. He found her alone in her drawing-room,
pensive but loftily kind, and soon extracted from her what she
would so much rather have kept to herself--that she was acting in
Adèle's interests; the dear girl was impressionable, the relationship
dangerous; much as she loved her nephew, she must not forget that a
mother's first duty was to watch over her child; and much more of a
like nature, to all of which Arthur listened dutifully. Of course
he was no match for his aunt; before the evening of that day had
arrived he occupied the position of an accepted lover, blessed by
a happy parent, and possessed what perhaps, on some future day, he
might possibly be led to imagine the dear-bought privilege of a free
_entrée_ into Aunt Ellen's house. Since then matters had progressed
satisfactorily, as far as Mrs. Churchill was concerned, though Adèle,
who took almost a motherly interest in her lover and future husband,
was inclined to lament the absolute aimlessness of his life.

Women, generally speaking, have a quicker mental growth than men. The
mind of a girl of eighteen is in many cases more mature than that
of a man of twenty. Arthur had passed his twenty years without much
thought beyond himself. Adèle, with the like luxurious surroundings,
had already begun to look past herself--to feel that there was a world
of which she knew nothing, but with which, nevertheless, she was very
closely connected--a world of want and suffering, where wrong was too
often triumphant.

She was fond of reading. Perhaps some of these thoughts had crept in
through the medium of poet and historian. For Adèle's insight told her
that there were many higher and nobler lives for a man and woman to
lead than that of self-pleasing. She sometimes longed to be a man, that
she might do something worth doing in a world that wanted the active
and the strong. But the little she could do she did, and had she known
how many blessed her for her gentle words and timely aid, she might
have been less desponding about a woman's ability to take some place in
the world.

For the rest she looked to Arthur, the hero of her imagination.
Poor Adèle! Her hero did not quite see as she did the necessity for
exertion. He took life languidly, and could not conceive why people
should excite themselves about what did not concern them; at least this
was what he always said when she tried to instill into him some of her
ideas about human wrongs and human service.

But Adèle did not despair; she had a woman's supreme faith in "the
to-come." Something would arouse Arthur's dormant energies and bring
out the latent fire of his nature.

In the mean time she, with the rest of his world, was pleased to
notice his growing interest in the fine arts, though she, wiser
than they, felt inclined to put down his constant haunting of the
picture-galleries to a growing restlessness that meant uneasiness
with the aimless life of self-gratification he was leading and a
stretching-out after something higher.

And Adèle was partially right. Arthur was changed. Perhaps it was more
the sadness than the beauty of that fair woman's face which haunted him
so strangely, mingling with all his thoughts a certain self-reproach
which he found it very difficult to understand.

It may have been that in the pale, calm face, resolute in endurance,
he saw for one moment what was going on for ever around him; he read
the mystic law of nature--sacrifice of self. For life is glad; where
gladness is not life may be borne, but not loved or rejoiced in, and in
the calm surrender of life's gladness to the call of life's necessity
there is a surrender of life itself, the most beautiful part of life.

Something of this he had seen in Margaret's pale face. A joy put away,
surrendered, a burden taken up and patiently borne. This it was that
filled his mind when the first impression of her loveliness had in a
manner passed. He saw the suffering, and beside the suffering he saw
himself, self-indulgent, careless, free of hand, light of spirit, with
no thought, in a general way, beyond the enjoyment of the present hour.

Often before Arthur had expressed something of this: lolling in a
luxurious arm-chair with his feet on the fender, while Adèle amused him
by a song or read to him something that had been charming her, he would
say with a comfortable sigh, "What a good-for-nothing sort of fellow I
am, Adèle!"

But then he had scarcely felt it, or if he had it had been only with a
kind of impression that the good-for-nothingness sat elegantly on the
shoulders of a young man of property.

Clever Mrs. Churchill rather encouraged the impression. Young men with
ideas are apt to become unmanageable, and she was earnestly desirous of
keeping Arthur in her invisible leading-strings.

But this time Arthur felt it. There was suffering, sorrow, wrong in
the world; he was doing nothing but vegetate on its surface, keeping
his comforts, his gladness, his fresh young life for his own selfish
gratification. And the worst of it all was that he did not see a way
out of it. In the days of chivalry young knights went out armed to
fight for defenceless women and redress human wrongs. Arthur felt sure
that his mysterious lady had been in some way cruelly wronged, and he
longed to constitute himself her protector and knight; but in the first
place she had persistently denied herself to him; in the second place
her wrongs might prove to be such as he would find himself utterly
unable to redress.

He was bound to Adèle, and if it had not been so he felt instinctively
that he was scarcely a suitable husband for the beautiful widow.
(Arthur had made up his mind that Margaret _was_ a widow.) Under
such circumstances, even if so minor an evil as poverty were her
trouble, there would be a certain incongruity in offering her half his
fortune, and she would probably resent such a step. He could offer it
anonymously, but even in such case it would be quite possible that she
might think it right to decline acceptance, and Mrs. Churchill would
reasonably consider Adèle and any children she might have wronged by
the proceeding. Arthur, in fact, had wandered into a maze whence there
really seemed to be no exit. His only hope was to see Margaret again.
One more glimpse of her fair face might do more toward unravelling the
mystery than hours of lonely pondering. This, then, it was, rather more
than love of art, that led him to haunt the picture-galleries, and
especially the one where he had first seen her.

But if it were this that led him, something else kept him. Wandering
hither and thither by these trophies of mind, with this new earnestness
in his spirit, he began to feel in them a power unsuspected in his
former languid visits. They represented work, conflict, triumph. Each
picture had its history, into each were wrought the mingled threads
of human experience. In the dim glory that shone from one or two of
these transcripts of Nature Arthur read the struggle of soul to express
itself worthily, and his young spirit was stirred within him.

In the loving detail, all beautiful of its kind, with which the artist
surrounded the fair queen of his homage, he saw the earnestness of
genius, and bowing his head he worshipped in the great temple of
Humanity.

The young man's thoughts began to run, not on his own elegance and
superiority, but on the great problems of Nature and Art. Self was
removed from its lofty pedestal. What the fair woman's face had begun
human genius carried on. Arthur Forrest was changed.




CHAPTER VII.

_A CUNNING TEMPTER._

                      Thou art woman;
    And that is saying the best and worst of thee.


Margaret's business in London was over. The more she thought about
her visit to Mr. Robinson, the more certain she felt that her affairs
were in capable hands, and that her money difficulties would very soon
disappear.

She wrote, therefore, to Mrs. Augustus Brown, declining the honor of
becoming a member of her household.

That lady was considerably annoyed at first. Afterward she consoled
herself by the reflection that her own presence of mind had saved her
sweet innocents from a terrible danger. It was only too evident, she
remarked to the passive Brown, that Mrs. Grey's antecedents would not
bear looking into. It was a fresh instance of the danger to which the
inexperienced were subjected in London. Had she not been very watchful
she might have been misguided by that woman's remarkable appearance.

Mr. Augustus pricked up his ears at this.

"In what way was she remarkable, my love?" he blandly inquired.

To which civil question Mrs. Brown, recalling her former uneasiness,
only replied by shaking her fat shoulders and descanting volubly on the
fruitful theme of male curiosity.

It is highly probable that Margaret had a happy escape, in spite of
"salary no object, and masters for every branch."

As soon as the letter had been despatched she began to think of
home and Laura, and to lay her plans for return. But, first, various
articles of wearing apparel would have to be procured, for Margaret was
not at all fond of shabbiness for its own sake, and her little girl's
wardrobe was, she knew, sadly in need of replenishment.

So she put off her departure for a day or two, that this business, so
much more pleasing than what had hitherto been occupying her, might be
satisfactorily accomplished. Between shopping and needlewomen the next
few days passed by with considerable rapidity and far more brightness
of spirit; and then Margaret thought that before leaving London she
might pay a farewell visit to the pictures, and, especially, to the one
which had so powerfully attracted her.

Dressing herself with far more care than on the previous occasion--for
the black stuff was replaced by silk, and over it the rich Indian
scarf, for which Margaret seemed to cherish a peculiar affection,
looked more in keeping--she started on a bright afternoon in an omnibus
that took her to the very door of the Exhibition.

For this once Margaret wished to enjoy without fatigue. And she
certainly _did_ enjoy. Coming from the brightness and life of the May
day into the cool shade of the galleries (it was too early in the day
for the fashionable crowd), with the wealth of coloring and suggestive
beauty on every side, nothing to do but to wander from one gem of art
to the other,--all this was really delightful to Margaret. It was easy
work at first, but as the day wore on the usual crowds began to pour
into the galleries, and moving about became somewhat more difficult.

Margaret was there to see the pictures and refresh herself with their
beauty. She did not, therefore, pay much attention to the many who were
coming and going, and was in consequence perfectly unconscious of the
notice she herself attracted; for many who caught a glimpse of her fair
face in passing turned instinctively and looked again. There was one
who admired her specially.

He was a little sandy-haired individual who had been wandering about
rather disconsolately with his wife. Having at last been able to escort
her to a seat, he was venturing to look round when he caught sight of
Margaret Grey. It was a happy moment. She was looking up at one of
Millais' suggestive pieces; the full appreciation of its meaning gave a
certain spirituality to her face, and her lips were parted in a smile
of calm enjoyment.

He was struck dumb with astonishment. Had it not been for the presence
of his wife and a snub-nosed olive-branch he would have improved the
occasion by trying to find out something about this new beauty.

As it was, he turned away his eyes from beholding vanity, and looked
down on the opposite virtue, his wife, whose eyes, strange to say, were
beholding vanity too. With the assistance of her eye-glasses they were
scanning the object that had previously attracted the attention of her
lord.

The heart of the sandy-haired throbbed with unusual excitement, but
(oh the treachery of the male sex!) he smothered excitement under an
appearance of utter indifference.

"Do you know that lady, my love?" he inquired in his blandest tones.

"Lady, indeed!" replied Mrs. Brown, for the moment forgetting her
prudence in her indignation. "It's Mrs. Grey, who _was_ to have been my
children's governess, Mr. Brown. Now I hope you _see_!"

Mr. Augustus did _not_ precisely see, but for the sake of peace and
quietness he professed to be very much enlightened, and proceeded with
a man's temerity to make some other trifling observation about the
pseudo-governess.

He met with a smart rebuke for his pains, and then Mrs. Brown, feeling
no doubt that the locality was dangerous, requested that her carriage
should be found.

When the unhappy Brown returned dutifully to escort her to where it was
in waiting for its dainty burden the vision of female loveliness had
vanished, and though he paid more visits to the Exhibition of the Royal
Academy than he had ever done before, the vision never returned. Alas,
the cruelty of human nature as exemplified by watchful wives!

Margaret did not know what mischief she was causing. She had found her
way to the little sea-piece which had already spoken so powerfully to
her imagination. And there it was that at last Arthur Forrest's eyes
were gladdened once more with a sight of the face that had haunted him.

He was standing near the entrance of the room, lost in the crowd, which
was every moment increasing, when she passed by him so closely that her
silk dress touched him. He had been watching for her daily, but at the
fateful moment her appearance took him by surprise.

He had formed plans without number for addressing her, without showing
himself obtrusive or inquisitive. The very words of polite inquiry
after her health, the manner in which, by courtesy and chivalrous
deference, all her fears would be set at rest, had been rehearsed again
and again in colloquy between himself and a Margaret evoked by his
dream; but when the moment had come, when the real Margaret was near,
all his plans vanished like mists before the sun--he was bashful and
timid as a young _débutante_. Instead of emerging from the crowd which
seemed to swallow up his identity and claiming acquaintance with her,
he drew farther back into its friendly shelter. He could not address
her yet, he said to himself; he must seize the opportunity of gazing
once more on her fair face.

He saw her walk quietly through the gallery and pause near one of
the seats, the scene of their memorable rencontre only a few days
previously. It was full, so she stood beside it, gazing with dreamy
pleasure at the picture of the westering sea.

_She_ looked at the picture, and Arthur in his safe retirement looked
at her; indeed, he was so absorbed in the contemplation that it needed
a very smart tap on the shoulder from a gentleman who had come up
behind him, and who had already addressed one or two remarks to him
utterly in vain, to awake him to a sense of things as they were, and
to the consciousness of the existence of some few people in the world
besides himself and Margaret Grey.

As he looked round he reddened with annoyance, and yet Captain
Mordaunt, the gentleman who had broken in upon his reverie, was a man
with whom most young men liked to be seen. Not that he was particularly
attractive, for his hair was turning gray, his face was blotchy, his
neck red and long, and his nose beginning to take the hue of the purple
grape. Then, too, his manner was apt to be snappish and sarcastic,
especially to young men. But what was all this when it was a certain
fact that he knew, as they would have said, "an awful lot;" that he
was the fashion; that he counted his intrigues by the hundred? Indeed
it was whispered, and not without foundation, some said, that not only
actresses and inferior people of that description were concerned in
them; the names of ladies of high rank had been associated with that of
Alfred Mordaunt. But this of course may have been only rumor, for rumor
is thousand-tongued and not particularly charitable. In any case, the
gallant captain did not seem to care to deny the soft imputations. He
considered it his chief mission in life to be a lady-killer.

Arthur was not above the weaknesses of his day and generation; he had
often courted Captain Mordaunt in the past. The past! How soon those
few days had become the past, the great blank of existence, when he had
lived without having seen _her_!

What annoyed Arthur so particularly was this. He saw in a moment that
he had betrayed his secret by his own folly--that Captain Mordaunt, the
last person in the world to whom he would have spoken of his romantic
devotion, had traced the direction of his glance, and with eye-glass
fixed was taking a look on his own account. The look was followed by
another tap, a congratulatory one, on Arthur's shoulder. "By Jove,
Master Arthur! you have taste! The finest woman I've seen for some
time, 'pon my solemn word and honor! And beauties are something in my
line too. Not of the pink-and-white sort either, that generally goes
down with you young fellows. There's refinement, intelligence, and what
d'you call it, that painters make a fuss about, in that face."

His comments sent the indignant blood to the very roots of young
Arthur's hair. He made an heroic effort at indifference. "I am really
at a loss to understand you, Captain Mordaunt," he stammered.

The gallant captain laughed, holding his sides as if the merriment
overpowered him utterly.

"_Very_ good! _Very_ good!" he cried between the paroxysms. "Sly boy!
Didn't know you were so deep. Want to keep all to yourself, eh? I'll
warrant the fair cousin knows nothing."

The color faded from Arthur's face, but there came a dangerous light
into his eyes. "I wish you would keep your remarks and your ill-timed
jokes to yourself, Captain Mordaunt," he said sullenly.

The captain looked astonished, and whistled softly for a moment.
"Gently, gently, young spitfire!" he said lightly. "But come, who
is she? Let an old friend into the secret. Why, I declare, ----"
(mentioning a lady of more repute for beauty than character) "couldn't
hold a candle to her."

This was almost too much for Arthur. He turned round with flashing
eyes, and there was a subdued force in his voice as he answered, using
the first rash words that came to his lips, "How _dare_ you speak
of _her_ in such a connection? I am a younger man than you, but, by
Heaven! if you should repeat such an insult I could strike you down
where you stand."

The captain laughed again, with a trifle of uneasiness this time, and
he turned a little pale. Rumor said that he was a coward, but probably
his fear in the present instance was of a row in this public place.
However that might be, he certainly took Arthur's challenge rather
coolly. "Calm yourself, young man," he said more seriously than he had
yet spoken. "I scarcely knew I was treading on such dangerous ground,
and certainly could not mean to insult any friend of yours. You know
this lady, I presume, since you are so hot in her defence?"

Again Arthur blushed. What a fool he felt himself! Captain Mordaunt in
this mood was less easy to escape than in his former one. "I know her,"
he answered after a pause, "only very slightly."

"Very slightly, I imagine so," replied the other satirically. "It is
not the first time _I_ have seen her, though," he added _sotto voce_.

Arthur was all attention in a moment: "_Where_ have you met her,
Captain Mordaunt?"

"Oh, that is _my_ secret. We can all be close when it suits our
turn. A word in your ear, young man. Ultra modesty, faith in the
immaculate--you take me?--never goes down with women. I know something
of them, and they're all alike. There! don't look indignant. Follow up
your advantage, if you've gained any, and before long you may find out
that I am right, and thank me for the hint."

Margaret had found a place at last on the crimson seat. As the last
words were spoken she was leaning forward, her head resting on one of
her hands, from which she had taken the glove. There was marvellous
grace in her position. The long white fingers, the flushed cheek, the
dark weary eyes and the slender bowed form made such a picture as few
could have looked upon unmoved.

Captain Mordaunt, whose eyes had never stirred from her face, smiled
softly (a smile that made Arthur writhe mentally), and clapped his
thumb-nails together as though he had been applauding some favorite
actress.

"Bravo!" he said in a low tone to his companion: "there's a pose for
you--knows she's being admired. Bless you, lad! it's women's way; and
so innocent all the time, the pretty pets! By ----, I'd like awfully
to follow this up on my own account. But," and he gave a deep sigh,
"I've too many on hand already--won't do. Like the Yankee, I shall be
'crowded out.' I leave the field clear for a younger knight. By-bye,
old fellow--best wishes. I must be off--was due at Lady ----'s an hour
ago."

In another moment he was gone, but before he left the hall he turned
and looked at his young companion, and as he looked his lips curled.
Arthur did not see him, nor did he hear his muttered comment: "Poor
fool! he'll have his wings singed for him, but serve him right for his
impertinence. Knock _me_ down, indeed!"

In Arthur's mind very different thoughts and feelings were struggling
for ascendency. Indignation, disgust, loathing of this world-sated man
and his wisdom--these the better side of his nature prompted, rejecting
with spiritual insight the unholy poison; but there was a lurking demon
within him, the _ego_ Arthur had been striving to trample upon, and to
it all this was sympathetic.

Perhaps, after all, Captain Mordaunt was right. Chivalry and its
attendant virtues belonged rather to the region of the imagination
than to the matter-of-fact life of humanity. It was the way of the
world for men to amuse themselves while they could. It had been Captain
Mordaunt's way, and what a pleasant life _he_ led! Petted, caressed,
flattered, at home in some of the noblest mansions in England, his word
law in all matters of etiquette, grand ladies considering it an honor
to entertain him. He had not gained this position by squeamishness:
_that_ point he allowed every one to know.

Arthur's heart told him that all this was false--that whatever or
whoever the light loves of Captain Mordaunt might have been, the
lady whom he admired was pure, true, unconscious of evil. He felt
instinctively, with the insight lively sympathy often gives to the
young, that to take advantage in any way of her lonely position would
be to shut himself out from the place he had been so happy as to gain
in her kindly remembrance, and to preclude himself from all hope of
rendering her any further assistance in the future.

But the demon of self is strong, and the voice of the heart when
opposed to it is weak. The pathetic voice of Arthur's heart was soon
silenced by the echo which self-love gave to Captain Mordaunt's words
of falsest wisdom. He looked at his fair ideal, but his feelings had
changed. The animal within him was loudly asserting its right to be
heard; the self-indulgent nature, which a life of luxury had fostered,
persuaded itself easily that all was right, and his fair woman only
as others. Cherishing such feelings, he could not look calmly on her
face. With a new fire in his veins he turned away to wait outside the
building until Margaret should make her appearance.

The waiting seemed long, but it did not cool his ardor or recall
his former wisdom. Backward and forward he paced, up and down, with
careful observation of all who left the building, until at last he
began to fear either that he had suffered her to escape him, and thus
lost all chance of finding out more about her--this was the vague
way in which his plans were laid--or that something had delayed her,
another fainting-fit perhaps. The bare idea maddened him; he put his
hand to his head, he felt dizzy; this was very different from his
nonchalant waiting for Adèle a few days previously, even from that
daily hope--calm through all its earnestness--of looking once more on
the face of his ideal.

That fatal tree! How many young souls are lost by the passionate
craving for its fruit! The man of the world had held its beautiful
poison to the young man's lips, and he could not tell that beneath the
glory lay dust and ashes.




CHAPTER VIII.

_ARTHUR FALLS INTO THE SNARE._

    Let me not think I have thought too well of thee.
    Be as thou wast.


She came out at last. Arthur saw her, and began with feverish anxiety
to trace every line of her face and form. Her veil was thrown back, he
noticed that, and even while he did so hated himself for his suspicion.
"She knows her beauty," said the false self within him; "it will not be
difficult to show her that others know it too."

But he noticed something more, something that aroused the warm
sympathies of his nature: the face that a few moments ago had glowed
with excitement was very pale, and the sweet lips were quivering
slightly--it might be with fatigue, it might be with nervousness. A
woman feels so lonely in great London, and loneliness in a crowd is the
bitterest kind of loneliness to a sensitive nature.

In a very few moments Arthur's measures were taken. Waiting until she
had passed on her way, he hailed a hansom, shouted out to the driver
the address of the shabby street which he had visited with his cousin
a few days previously, and was presently on his way to Margaret's
temporary home.

With what view? She had requested him expressly not to follow up the
acquaintanceship--she was living by herself in close retirement. She
might very probably be offended at his visit.

Arthur was young and impulsive: he said nothing of all this to
himself, or rather, with Captain Mordaunt's hateful hints in his
mind, he persuaded himself that it would be only too easy to gain her
forgiveness for his disobedience. As he was whirled along through the
streets the young man's heart throbbed. Be it remembered that he was
inexperienced in the world's ways, and had lived up to this time under
strict petticoat-government. The very breaking free was exhilarating to
his senses--so much so, indeed, that he did not even stop to reflect
on the course he should pursue when, as he hoped and trusted, he would
meet her face to face.

And Margaret in the mean time, knowing nothing of the temporary madness
her face had caused, was making her way as quickly as she could through
the throng and bustle of London to her lodgings in Islington.

Arthur had purposely delayed, and she arrived at the house before him.
As the hansom dashed into the street, the young man caught a glimpse of
her black dress disappearing behind one of the dingiest doors.

Now first he began to tremble a little at the thought of his own
impulsive folly. He stood irresolute; he half made up his mind to
return at once. But the voice of the tempter, "I know something of
women, and they're all alike," rang in his ear.

"I will at least try," said the foolish young man to himself, and with
a certain tremor at his heart he rang the door-bell.

The dirty maid-servant looked at him in astonishment. Mrs. Grey had
received some distinguished visitors, notably the brilliant owner of
the yellow chariot, but as yet no handsome, fashionably-dressed young
gentleman had presented himself.

Margaret, as we know, had only one sitting-room. Judging from the
elegance of his appearance that this visitor would be surely welcome,
the girl took upon herself, without waiting for Mrs. Grey's permission,
to usher the young gentleman into the dingy parlor.

Margaret was seated there. She had thrown off her bonnet, and smiling
half pleasantly, half sadly, was examining a little frock, which had
just been sent home by the dressmaker she employed.

Instinctively, Arthur paused on the threshold. This rapid crowning
of his hopes was so unexpected as almost to take his breath away.
But looking at her he dared not presume. There was in the solitary
woman's face at the moment that beautiful mother-look, that calm
Madonna tenderness, which makes the human charm of Raphael's divine
conceptions of the Virgin. Feeling that he had been presumptuous and
vain, Arthur would fain have turned and fled from this calm woman's
presence, but now it was too late.

The opening of the door had disturbed Margaret's dream. She turned
round, the tender mother-look changed into utter astonishment. Poor
Arthur! She did not even seem to know him. Certainly, the room was
rather dark, and his appearance had taken her completely by surprise;
still, this swift forgetfulness was a terrible blow to his youthful
vanity.

Scarcely knowing what to do with himself or how to account for his
visit, he advanced, awkwardly enough, into the little dull room, and
Margaret rose from her seat. To the excited imagination of the young
man the lonely, shabby woman had passed suddenly into a stately queen
of society.

As if awaiting his explanation she stood, but now his lips were sealed,
his fine phrases deserted him, he could not stammer out a word of
explanation.

It was Margaret who broke the embarrassing silence: "Sir, to what do I
owe--"

He broke her short: "Mrs. Grey, you are cruel. Surely you must
remember, you must know, I mean--understand--the interest, the
enthusiasm--"

She was looking at him fixedly as he spoke, and at last his confusion
became so overpowering that he stopped short. Then he could have bit
out his tongue for his audacity, for the astonishment in her face was
replaced by a keen and bitter pain.

"I remember you now," she said very slowly. "Yes, you are the young
gentleman who some few days ago received the fervent thanks of a lonely
woman for his chivalrous kindness."

The red blood mounted to Arthur's cheek. Unable longer to bear the gaze
of those mournful eyes, he threw himself down on the nearest chair and
covered his face with his hands.

"You did not understand me then," she continued very sadly; "you
thought that--"

"Stop, for pity's sake, stop!" cried the young man, lifting up an
agitated face. "I know all you would say. I am a weak, miserable fool,
not worthy of having even been allowed to assist you; but if you only
knew."

His penitence seemed to subdue her indignation. "Foolish boy!" she said
with one of her rarely beautiful smiles. "I know perfectly well, and
therefore it is that I forgive this impertinence. A little experience
of the world will teach you your mistake. Three days ago I read in
your young frank face that you judged me rightly, and I thanked you in
my heart. I will not retract the judgment I formed of you then; but
remember, what you have done is foolish and ought never to be repeated."

"I know it--I know it," moaned Arthur; "but may I never see you again?
Ah! if by any service, however hard, I could make you happier than you
are!"

She put out her hand, smiling kindly into his earnest face: "The best
service you can render me now is to shake hands and say good-bye. As I
said to you before, we move in different worlds. You will soon forget
this infatuation, or only remember it as a warning against taking any
advantage, however slight, of an unprotected woman. In that case I
shall have rendered you a service."

Where was Captain Mordaunt's wisdom? Banished by a few words from a
weak but noble woman. Happy for Arthur that the fair face hid a fairer
soul! The poison was drawn out of his heart, and youth's own chivalry
took its right place in his nature.

Bowing low over the offered hand, he answered in a broken voice, "I
obey you, and I thank you. I cannot promise to forget, but from this
time all my thoughts of you shall be tinged by the deep respect which
is your due."




CHAPTER IX.

_ARTHUR'S SECRET._

                     And I loved her--loved her, certes,
    As I loved all heavenly objects, with uplifted eyes and hands--
    As I loved pure inspiration, loved the Graces, loved the Virtues,
    In a love content with writing his own name on desert sands.


A luxurious drawing-room, furnished with all the taste and elegance
that money can command; flowers here, there and everywhere--flowers in
the deep recesses of lace-veiled windows, flowers on the multitude of
tables that stood in every corner, flowers--and these the sweetest of
them all--in the lap of a young fair-haired girl who filled a corner of
one of the sofas.

She was paying no great attention to the flowers, only bathing one
of her hands in them from time to time, as though to refresh herself
with their cool fragrance. The other hand, her eyes and her whole soul
appeared to be given to the book she held, an elegant little volume
bound in fawn-colored calfskin.

She was so deeply engrossed that she did not hear the door open, and
her cousin had time to cross the long room, sit down by her side and
take possession of the hand that was trifling with the flowers before
she was aware of his presence.

Then she looked up, blushed charmingly and closed her book: "Arthur
dear, how delightful! I began to think you were never coming near us
again, and I wanted particularly to speak to you about something that
has been in my head ever since our visit to the Academy."

"Four days!" answered Arthur, languidly, throwing himself back on the
sofa--"an enormous time, as young ladies would say, for one subject to
engross them, especially in this age of progress."

"I suppose it would be absurd to imagine that _you_ even remember,
Master Arthur," replied Adèle, quite equal to the occasion--"_boys_, as
mamma always says, are _so_ volatile."

"Boys!" Arthur shrugged his shoulders contemptuously. "You are very
polite to-day, Adèle."

There was a shade of annoyance in his voice, which made Adèle look up
at him, for she was a kind little lady who never carried her jokes too
far. The result of the look was a rapid movement from her side of the
sofa to Arthur's, and an earnest inquiry: "Arthur dear, something is
wrong with you, you must surely be ill."

For Arthur's face was pale, and there was a wan, anxious contraction on
his broad white brow.

His only answer was a faint smile. Then, after a pause, "You were
reading, Adèle. Oh!" lifting the book from the small reading-table
that stood conveniently near the sofa, "_The Faërie Queene_. I thought
it would be something of the kind. Read some of it aloud, like a good
girl; I'm too done up with this hot weather to talk just now."

"Poor old fellow!" Adèle smoothed back his curly hair and imprinted
a kiss, that did not seem to excite her cousin particularly, between
his temples. "Your forehead is so hot, dear, let me bathe it with
eau-de-cologne for you."

She opened a little bottle of richly-cut, ruby-colored glass, and
pouring some of its sweet contents on her handkerchief pressed it again
and again to his brow, Arthur submitting with the delicate grace of an
invalid.

"There," he said at last, "that'll do, dear; you can read now."

And the obedient Adèle, having first carefully lowered one of the
Venetian blinds that no glare might offend her cousin's eyes, proceeded
to read her favorite book in a soft, measured cadence that suited it
admirably. There was no stumbling over the old English words. Adèle was
so thoroughly acquainted with the style that the quaint language came
naturally from her lips, even with a kind of delicate grace. Love had
given her the art, for she loved, more than any book she had ever read,
this dreamy, old-world poem, with its fair women, its armed knights,
its dragons and its myths. Perhaps the force of contrast made these
things specially dear to the young girl's soul, for there was not much
romance in the fashionable life her mother taught her to think the best
and wisest of all lives for a nineteenth-century young lady to lead.

Her voice sounded like the echo of a dream in the wide room, and she
herself, in her light summer dress, might well have answered to the
description of one of the fair "maydes" whose woes and joys the gentle
poet of another age has illumined with his silvery pen, while Arthur,
as he rested on the sofa in an attitude of careless grace, his dark,
lazy-looking eyes half closed, his head thrown back upon the cushions,
might have been one of the brave young knights refreshing himself in
his lady's bower after some terrible encounter with the many-headed,
many-handed monster from whom it was his grand mission to free humanity
in general, fair womankind in particular.

But the afternoon wore away. Adèle had just finished the account of a
mighty encounter between Arthur of the magic sword and three unknightly
knights who had attacked him together.

It had apparently aroused Arthur, for he rose suddenly and stood by her
side, looking down upon her with a certain earnestness.

"Shut the book for the present, Adèle," he said, "I am ready to talk
now; it has awoke me."

"What has awoke you, dear?"

"Your favorite poet, I suppose, my little cousin; but come, what were
you so anxious to say to me when I came in just now?"

"Oh, Arthur, you cannot surely have forgotten. I wanted to speak to you
about that beautiful fainting lady in the Academy."

"Perhaps I have _not_ forgotten, Adèle." Arthur turned away from his
cousin as he spoke, for he did not wish her to see the sudden flush
which not all the proud consciousness of manhood and superiority had
been strong enough to restrain.

"Well," he continued after a pause, as his cousin remained thoughtfully
silent, "I _do_ remember; but what of her?"

"I have been thinking of her, Arthur." Adèle's eyes looked sorrowful.
"And whenever I think of her I remember those miserable houses, the
shabby black dress and the quiet sadness in her face. Oh, Arthur, _do_
you think it would be possible to help her in any way?"

"For you it might be," said Arthur with an appearance of sudden
interest. "Unfortunately," he added bitterly, "women have the habit of
looking upon any attempt at friendliness in one of the opposite sex as
a species of insult."

This was rather too much for Adèle. With every respect for her cousin
and fiancé, he was still too young, in her estimation, to be capable of
exciting indignation in the breast of any woman. She laughed merrily:
"I like your vanity, sir. As if any one could be insulted with you! You
would have to pin on a false moustache, draw your hat over your brows
to hide those ingenuous-looking eyes of yours, and button an enormous
rough great coat up to your chin, before any one--any stranger, I
mean--could imagine you even grown up. Why _I_ look ages older than
you!"

Adèle got up and looked at herself in the mirror.

"Yes, _ages_!" she repeated, with provoking emphasis and in eager
expectation of a delightful torrent of self-vindication from her
cousin. They often indulged in this kind of wordy war, and Adèle's
feminine volubility and quickness of wit generally gave her the
advantage.

No answer came from Arthur to the rash challenge. He was standing
behind her, not looking into the mirror, but, as though utterly
unconscious of her light words, gazing away into vacancy. Adèle caught
sight of his face in the mirror, and a sudden silence seized her, for
even as she spoke she saw that in her young cousin's face which warned
her he was a boy no longer.

He had drawn himself up to his full height, and stood seemingly rapt
in earnest thought, for his brows were slightly contracted, and his
ingenuous-looking eyes had taken a deep, fixed look that strangely
moved his cousin. With the quickness of a woman's insight she saw that
her jest had been ill-timed, that a certain indescribable change,
perhaps that for which she had hoped and longed, had come to the
beautiful boy whom she had loved and caressed with almost maternal
tenderness, for manhood's strength of purpose was written on his face.
Her first feeling was a sense of foreboding. If Arthur was indeed
changed, would he be changed to her?

The next was a determination, strong as the womanhood which with her
love the young girl had put on early, to share his secret, whatever it
might be.

She was too young and too inexperienced to understand all that
this change, which she certainly felt, might mean; she could not
reason about the new earnestness, nor trace it to any cause which
he might think it well to hide, for Adèle was eminently generous
and unsuspicious. She was accustomed to her cousin's light, boyish
affection, and did not expect him to be a passionate lover; she was
therefore ready with all her soul to rejoice in anything that would
make him less frivolous, less absorbed in self and the mere enjoyment
of life.

For a few moments she stood silently at the mirror, looking into it,
but looking absently, for her mind was engaged in the problem of how to
approach him, how to gain his confidence at this time which the young
girl instinctively felt to be critical in her cousin's history. If he
had ambitious dreams, was it not right that she should share them? She
had always been his confidante; the bare idea, indeed, of being shut
out from any of Arthur's secrets gave Adèle keen pain.

Deciding at last that frankness was her best policy, she turned to her
cousin and putting both hands on his shoulders looked earnestly into
his eyes. "Arthur," she said with a slight tremor in her voice, "what
are you thinking about? Tell me."

He might have been called from a distant land, so great was the
interval that separated his mind from hers at that moment, and at first
he seemed even to have difficulty in recalling his scattered ideas.

She repeated the question, with an added earnestness that lent pathos
to her voice.

Then he looked down upon her:

"Why do you wish so much to know, Adèle?"

"Oh, Arthur, how can you ask?" Her voice trembled, she was very near
tears. "Dear," she continued in a lower voice, taking his hand in
hers, "if I thought you had _one_ corner in your heart of which I knew
nothing, I scarcely know what I should do. 'Trust me all in all,'
Arthur. I say it in all sincerity." She smiled faintly. "I promise not
to be like that naughty Vivien, wrapping you up in spells, even if--if
you should have any secret--"

"That would pain you very much to know, little cousin."

Adèle looked up bravely: "I should prefer to know it, Arthur--indeed
I should; I think, dear--I _think_--I could put myself out of the
question altogether, and help you as a sister might."

He did not notice the tremulousness, the slight choking of voice with
which her brave little sentence ended.

"I wish with all my heart that you were my sister, Adèle: then I could
tell you without any hesitation."

Adèle turned a little pale: "I _am_ your sister, Arthur. Tell me."

He looked down upon her kindly: "I will tell you, Adèle, for in these
matters I believe frankness to be the best policy; and, after all, it
may be only a dream. I was thinking of Margaret Grey."




CHAPTER X.

_HOW ADÈLE RECEIVES THE DISCLOSURE._

                  The woman who loves should indeed
    Be the friend of the man that she loves. She should heed
    Not her selfish and often mistaken desires,
    But his interest whose fate her own interest inspires.


And this, then, was the awakening? Like almost every thing in this
wayward world of ours, it scarcely chimed in with the ideas and plans
that had been formed concerning it.

Adèle had often mourned her cousin's frivolity, but she was young and
hopeful. He was only a boy, she had told herself. Some of the great
things in the world--its art, its literature, its science, the grand
sphere of politics or the grander field of benevolence--would sooner or
later throw chains about his spirit, so that, following where it led,
he too, with herself perhaps as a twin attendant star, like the "Laon
and Laone" of Shelley, might take a place in the poet's divine temple
of genius, and live a life not utterly in vain in its influences on
humanity.

She had even thought to arouse him herself, that by love he might rise,
as others had done before him, to something higher than the fashionable
life of self-pleasing. But of this she had never thought--that love
indeed, but the love of another woman, should be the motive-power
rousing his soul to earnestness. For she could not be mistaken. The
change that had come to him--which change, she could not but remember
as she cast her thoughts over the past few days, had dated from that
memorable afternoon at the Academy--the impressive way in which he
had told her of his thought, the quiet earnestness of his manner, all
tended to the revelation of a fact--one that she would have put away
indignantly had she not been forced to look it in the face. Arthur was
in love, and not with her.

The beautiful woman whom in her youthful enthusiasm she had
admired--loved even for her very loveliness--had won her cousin's
heart. He loved Margaret Grey as he had never loved her, his cousin,
the friend of his youth and childhood: with _her_ he had remained a
boy; her beautiful rival had roused the dormant fire within him, and
suddenly the boy had put on his manhood.

These were some of the thoughts that crowded bewilderingly on Adèle's
brain as they sat together on the sofa--she and her cousin--with his
strange confession between them. _He_ was waiting to hear what she
would say; _she_ was for the first few moments unable to speak. On the
table before them lay the forgotten volume of the _Faërie Queene_; at
their feet, in sweet confusion, were the scattered flowers fallen from
Adèle's lap. She sat perfectly still, her hands crossed and her eyes
cast down; he looked at her with some earnestness, and perhaps a little
surprise.

Arthur's affection for Adèle was of a calm, brotherly kind, and he had
always imagined that she cared for him in very much the same manner.

Hitherto, indeed, he had not been in a position to gauge the heights
and depths of that mysterious, volatile essence which young mortals
dignify by the fair name of love. But now, with this new light in his
own heart, he was better able to understand his cousin's, and in her
downcast face he thought he read her secret.

It made him tender instantly. Young men and old men are alike in this.
Whether loving or not themselves, they are pleased when they find out,
by indubitable signs, that they have inspired the sentiment; and this
knowledge makes them, for the moment, strangely gentle and sympathetic.

Arthur drew nearer to his cousin, and put his arm around her waist. To
his surprise again, she pushed his arm gently aside.

"Not now, dear Arthur!" she said, in a soft, clear voice, lifting her
blue eyes to his face; "I want you to tell me all about it."

"About what?" said Arthur, somewhat taken aback at the result of his
impulsive frankness.

"Your love for Margaret Grey," she said gently, but not without a faint
tremor in her voice.

"Did I say I _loved_ her, Adèle?" It was Arthur's turn to speak with
a trembling voice and flushed face, but these told his tale only too
eloquently.

"Not in so many words," replied Adèle; "but, dear, you have revealed
your secret, and I am glad. It was like yourself, Arthur--frank and
true. I might have guessed it before, for she is beautiful as a dream,
like the lady Una; and I can imagine so well how a man's heart would go
out to that kind of sadness and helplessness. I wish I had been a man;"
Adèle sighed as she spoke; "but, perhaps, as a woman I shall be able
to help you more. Strange--isn't it?--I was thinking of her, her face
haunted me so, and longing to find out more about her--all for her own
sake; now I will do it for yours."

The words were spoken very quietly and with a certain determination,
that Arthur found it very difficult to understand.

"But, Adèle," he stammered out, "you forget--"

"That you and I are betrothed in a kind of way--is that what you mean?
Thank you for thinking of it; but I should be grieved for _that_ to
stand in your way." She smiled a rather watery smile. "I promised not
to be like Vivien, so, rather than make a prison of my spells, I shall
cast them all to the winds." Then, more gravely, "We were too young,
Arthur--I told my mother so--too young to know our own minds, as people
say--at least you were." Here Adèle stopped suddenly; she was on the
point of betraying the secret which--brave little maiden!--she thought
she had preserved so well. But her calmness had reassured Arthur.

"You are right, Adèle," he answered gravely--and for the moment, with
the unreasoning impulse of womanhood, she hated him for his quick
acquiescence--"we were both too young; we had seen too little of the
world; and even now I scarcely know how we ought to act. Our engagement
has been announced; then my aunt--"

Adèle smiled faintly: "It will be best to say nothing to mamma at
present, nor to anybody; we can surely be what we have been to one
another--brother and sister; we have never been more--we could not wish
to be less."

There was a tinge of bitterness in Adèle's voice as she said the last
words, but the ears of very young men, when not quickened by any
stronger feeling than brotherly affection, are not swift to catch these
slight intonations.

"You must let me be your friend and confidante, Arthur," she continued
more gently; "I shall still like to be the first to know everything
that nearly concerns you."

Her gentleness touched Arthur. He took one of her hands in his: "You
shall always be what you are to me, Adèle--my dearest friend and
counsellor. I shall come to you for advice and sympathy."

She rose, and stooping began to collect the fallen flowers--a pretext
only, for the tears were beginning to force their way to her eyes, and
she was determined to show no weakness in her cousin's presence.

"My poor flowers!" she said lightly, "they have been forgotten: go and
fetch another vase from the breakfast-room, like a good old fellow. I
have filled all here, and I want these up stairs."

By the time her cousin had returned with the vase Adèle was herself
again. Grouping the flowers delicately, with clever fingers well
accustomed to this kind of work, she began her gentle catechism: "Have
you seen her again, Arthur?"

Perhaps it was a relief to him to unburden himself, to pour out to
another the torrent of self-condemnation that had been oppressing him.

"Don't ask me, Adèle," he said, pacing the room excitedly. "I am a
wretch--a fool--an idiot! I mistook _her_--think of it! I wonder will
she ever be able to bear the sight of me again? I took the advice of a
villain, who knows nothing whatever about women like her."

"What _can_ you mean, Arthur?" broke in Adèle, whose flowers had fallen
from her hands in her astonishment.

He did not seem to hear the interruption. "I did knowingly what I knew
would offend her," he continued, clenching his fists and drawing his
brows together, as though challenging himself for his misconduct.

Adèle sighed: "I _wish_ you would explain yourself, dear."

"Explain myself!" Arthur came suddenly down from the heroic with a
little laugh: "Ah, yes, by the bye, you don't know, and really it's not
a very creditable story. Well--to make a clean breast of it--I went
to the Academy yesterday. _She_ was there, and I had the happiness of
seeing her. She didn't see me, but while I was looking at her with
feelings that you can imagine, Captain Mordaunt came up behind me."

"Not at all a good companion for you, dear," interrupted Adèle with the
wise air of a little mother, but blushing, girl like, as she spoke, for
Captain Mordaunt was an admirer of hers: he had once or twice seized a
quiet opportunity of looking into her blue eyes in a way that offended
as much as it bewildered her. "Please have nothing to do with him,
Arthur," she continued pleadingly.

"Why, Adèle, what have you against Captain Mordaunt? I thought you had
only met him once or twice."

"That once or twice was enough. He is one of those men who believe in
nothing good, who seem to delight in the wickedness of the world. I
always think such people must be particularly bad themselves. But it's
no use reasoning about it. I dislike Captain Mordaunt."

"A case, in fact, of 'I do not like you, Doctor Fell,'" put in Arthur
provokingly. "I shall send him to you when he wants a character, Adèle;
but, do you know, amongst ladies your opinion would be considered
rather singular? I certainly have never been able to see what they find
to admire in him."

"Nor I, and I must say I pity their taste; he's ugly and conceited.
But what did he say about her--Margaret Grey, I mean?"

Arthur's manner grew excited again: "What he said was not so bad as
what he implied with his odious hints. I was idiot enough to listen to
him, to believe him partially. I disobeyed her, Adèle, and called on
her in that wretched place at Islington."

Adèle looked up bewildered: "But I can't see why that should offend
her. Of course you were never properly introduced, but then the
circumstances were peculiar, and she must have seen that we were
tolerably respectable people."

"What a simple, innocent little girl you are, Adèle!" said Arthur
rather grandly. "You see what I say is quite true--with all your
romantic notions you know nothing whatever of the world. I can't very
well explain, as you don't seem to understand; but, anyway, what I did
was very stupid and wrong, and she showed me that in a moment. Oh, if I
could tell you how she looked--so beautiful, so sad!"

The remembrance was overpowering. Arthur hid his burning face in both
his hands, and Adèle was silent. To her pure young heart this passion,
which an older and more experienced woman would certainly have laughed
to scorn, was a sacred thing.

"She forgave me," he continued after a pause. "She said I would soon
_forget_ the infatuation."

There was a mournful incredulity in the boy's voice to which the young
girl's heart responded. That he could ever _forget_ the infatuation
seemed, for the moment, as impossible to one cousin as to the other.

Neither of them spoke for some minutes, then Adèle raised to her cousin
a face that was streaming with tears. "I can't help it, Arthur," she
said simply, "and please don't think it's for myself. I have everything
to make me happy. I was thinking of you and of her. You know they say
women's wits are sharper than men's in these matters. I will try and
help you in some way, for you _must_ meet her again, dear; but just
now everything seems confused. Mamma expects you to dinner, so you had
better go home at once and dress. I can easily arrange for a quiet talk
in the course of the evening, and then perhaps I shall have thought of
some plan, for we must lose no time, as I know she is only staying
temporarily in London."

She said it all in a broken way through the tears she could not keep
back. He tried to kiss her then, but she slipped out of his arms.

Poor child! The aching at her heart was too great to be borne any
longer. She finished her cry in her own room, but what she had said was
true--it was not all for herself.

The beautiful lonely stranger and her cousin's passion, which her
woman's insight told her was not very hopeful, had their share in
causing her sorrow. She could not indulge long, however, in the luxury
of tears. She too had to make her dinner-toilet, and that evening her
mother was not the only person at the dinner-table who thought she
looked even fairer than usual.




CHAPTER XI.

_A FACE AT THE WINDOW._

                                    Sympathy
    Must call her in love's name, and then, I know,
    She rises up and brightens as she should,
    And lights her smile for comfort, and is slow
    In nothing of high-hearted fortitude.


Adèle kept her word. She set her wits to work with such good effect
that the next morning found her and her cousin in the carriage, under
the conduct of the stately coachman, on their way to that unfashionable
locality, the neighborhood of Islington.

They had started, presumably, on a shopping excursion, the delusion
being maintained by two or three stoppages in Regent street, after
which, by Arthur's direction, they drove to the vicinity of The Angel,
where carriage and coachman were left in waiting, the remainder of the
way being made on foot for the sake of the preservation of their secret.

It had been agreed between them that Adèle should pay a visit to
Margaret, Arthur waiting for her at the entrance of the narrow street
where she lodged. The object of her visit was in the present instance
only to inquire after Mrs. Grey's health, to take a kindly interest
in her welfare, and to try and persuade her to accept their offer of
friendship: it had been decided between them that upon this occasion
Arthur's name should not be mentioned. Adèle had taken upon herself the
office of simply paving the way for further intercourse--of preventing
Mrs. Grey from escaping them altogether. This, with her quiet tact
and gentle sympathy, she did not despair of accomplishing, if fate
would only be commonly propitious, for Adèle was really in earnest.
Putting self out of the way, she had thrown herself heart and soul into
her cousin's scheme, and all the more readily, it may be, from the
affection which had arisen spontaneously in her own heart at the sight
of Margaret's pure, calm beauty.

Adèle was only eighteen, and eighteen is an impressionable age, open
not only to accesses of what is called the tender passion, but to
feelings perhaps much tenderer and fairer, for the souls of the very
young, especially among women, are keenly susceptible to the subtle
influences of beauty and grace; it is not uncommon for a young girl
to be deeply, jealously enamored of one of her own sex; to experience
the delights, the tremors, the anxieties of love itself, and far more
palpably than in any of the necessary flirtations that diversify her
budding womanhood. Beauty is the embodiment of the young girl's dream,
and beauty she finds more visibly in her own sex than in the other.

The first loving emotion of Milton's Eve was for the fair watery
image that represented herself in all the radiant charms of female
loveliness. It was only afterward that she discovered

    "How beauty is excelled by manly grace,
    And wisdom, which alone is truly fair."

Adèle was in this first stage, and Margaret seemed to her the living
embodiment of all that had so often won and fascinated her in poetry
and romance. The evident mystery that surrounded the fair stranger, her
sadness, her lonely friendless position, all added to the spell.

The first emotion of wounded self-love over, Adèle ceased to wonder at
Arthur's desertion, or even to grieve over it, and was ready to go
through fire and water for their common divinity.

In spite of her grand resolutions, however, she felt rather nervous
when, Arthur having been left at the top of the dull-looking row of
houses, she stood alone on the doorstep of the one indicated by him,
inquiring for Mrs. Grey.

Mrs. Grey was at home. The servant-girl threw open the door of the
small sitting-room without previous warning, and showed Margaret
herself on her knees before an obstinate trunk, which apparently
refused to be fastened. At the sound of the opening door she rose in
some embarrassment, looked at the card which the girl had thrust into
her hand, and then at Adèle, who was standing, with some hesitation in
her manner, on the threshold of the room. The card had been an enigma,
but Adèle's pleasant girlish face solved it in a moment.

"Come in," she said warmly, going forward to meet her. "It is
exceedingly kind of you to have thought of paying me a visit; but you
find me in great disorder. Let me see," looking round the room; "I must
try and find you an unoccupied chair."

"Forgive me," said Adèle with gentle courtesy. "I know it is too early
for a call, but ever since we met the other day I have been so anxious
to see you once more, and this is the only time in the day when I can
manage to come so far."

She blushed as she spoke, and Margaret was too kind to add to her
embarrassment by any expression of surprise at her unexpected visit.
She smiled pleasantly, and sat down by her side. "I am only too
delighted to see you, my dear Miss Churchill; my visitors are never
numerous, and they do not always come on such pleasant errands as
yours. You see I am preparing for flight; I can really stand London no
longer."

Adèle's sympathetic eyes were fixed on Margaret's face. She gave a
little sigh: "Yes, I am sure it must be very lonely for you, living all
by yourself here."

"Sometimes it is, I must confess. In my present home, a seaside
village, I know most of the country-people, and I have my little
Laura to go about with me. Then (at least this is _my_ feeling) the
loneliness of the country is very different from the loneliness of
towns."

"I can _quite_ understand that," said Adèle earnestly, "although I have
very little experience of loneliness of any kind. I sometimes wish,
indeed, to have a little more time to myself. But I must not forget
what specially brought me here to-day. My cousin and I have been very
anxious about you, Mrs. Grey, for your fainting-fit lasted so long we
feared it was the commencement of a serious illness."

Margaret smiled: "Thanks to your timely help, my dear Miss Churchill,
I have felt no after ill effects whatever. I scarcely know how it
might have been with me had I had to find my way home alone; but it
all arose from my own stupidity. The time passed so rapidly in the
picture-galleries that I forgot all about lunch. When I reached home I
remembered that breakfast had been my only meal that day. My faintness
must have been caused by want of food, so you see it was not very
interesting after all."

She spoke the words lightly, but Adèle wondered with a sudden pang
whether the want of food had anything to do with her poverty, for the
interior of the shabby-looking house confirmed her worst fears. To put
up with such a miserable place could be the result of nothing but dire
necessity.

Her voice was very tender as she spoke again after a little pause,
laying her hand affectionately on Margaret's arm and looking up
earnestly into her pale, sad face: "Dear Mrs. Grey, you look very
delicate, indeed you do; you should take more care of yourself."

Perhaps it was the sympathy that shone out of the young girl's
glistening eyes, a human longing for something like this warm young
love, that seemed to be offering itself so spontaneously, or a sudden
sickness of the self-contained life she had been leading, for Adèle's
gentle words and gestures broke the crust of calm reserve with which
Margaret had striven to surround herself. "Ah, child," she said, tears
in her eyes and in her voice, "it is for the young and happy to take
care of themselves; their lives are precious. From mine too much of
the sweetness has gone to make it worthy of preservation. How strange
it is! I used to live and to enjoy life; now, even pleasures are like
apples of Sodom--they turn to dust and ashes in my mouth. I feel
inclined to write 'Vanity of vanities' upon everything." She smiled
through her tears: "I should not speak of such things to you."

But tears, real, large, glistening tears, were in Adèle's eyes. "Why
not?" she said impetuously. Then, after another pause, for though the
young can give tears to sorrow, they are helpless very often to give
words (if they only knew it, how much more eloquent those tears are
than the after commonplaces with which the world teaches them to treat
suffering!), "Oh, Mrs. Grey, I wish I could help you in some way. Will
you let me be your friend?"

Margaret smiled: "You have done me good already, dear; your sympathy is
very sweet, and especially, I think, to me, for it brings back to my
mind a time when sympathy was never wanting. I had a friend once, but
she has gone, like other beautiful things, out of my life."

"Tell me about her," said Adèle.

Margaret shook her head: "No, no; enough of miseries for one day. I
scarcely know when I have talked so much about myself; and do you know
I am the least bit in the world curious?"

"What about, Mrs. Grey?"

"I want you to tell me honestly what brought you here to-day."

Adèle blushed. "Please don't be vexed with me, or think that my visit
was from idle curiosity. What I say is really true," her admiration
shone out of her eyes as she spoke: "ever since I saw you in the
Academy, your face has haunted me. You know one reads of those kinds of
attraction. Have you any spells, Mrs. Grey? I could not rest, in fact,
until I had seen you once more."

Margaret was sitting near the window, a faint smile, half of pleasure,
half of surprise, on her lips as she listened to Adèle's impulsive
words, but before she could frame an answer they both became aware by a
sudden intuition--the effect of that inexplicable mesmeric power which
the human eye possesses--that they were being watched. Instinctively
they looked out. A tall, dark-looking man, somewhat of an _élégant_ in
his appearance, was leaning quietly on the small iron railings that
skirted the area and kitchen steps. In this position his chin was on a
level with the top of the muslin blind; he could have a full view of
all that took place in the room.

He was availing himself without stint or scruple of the advantage.




CHAPTER XII.

_FLIGHT._

    Next a lover--with a dream
    'Neath his waking eyelids hidden,
    And a frequent sigh unbidden,
    And an idlesse all the day,
    And a silence that is made
    Of a word he dares not say.


Adèle gave a little scream. She looked at Margaret. Her face had turned
as pale as ashes. She had not generally much color, but this was no
ordinary pallor: a gray, livid look seemed to spread itself gradually
over her features till even her lips were blanched. For a moment she
seemed to be stunned. Then she rose, apparently with difficulty, and
leaning forward on the window-sash seized the blind to put it between
themselves and the audacious watcher.

He did not wait for it to be drawn down. Turning slowly, he passed away
down the quiet street, but before he did so, Adèle saw that his lips
curled themselves into a mocking smile. Astonishment and a vague sense
of alarm had rendered her helpless for the moment. When the blind was
drawn down and the man had gone, she leapt to her feet and threw both
her arms round Margaret's waist, for, leaning still as if for support
against the window-sash, Adèle saw that her friend was tottering, and
that in her widely-opened eyes there was a dazed, bewildered look. She
drew her down gently to the nearest seat, then, kneeling by her side,
rubbed one of her cold hands in both her own. "Mrs. Grey, what is it?"
she cried almost piteously. "Can I do anything for you?"

Her voice seemed to arouse Margaret. She passed one of her hands over
her forehead. "Was it a dream?" she said in a faint, low voice. "I
thought I saw him; and I had vowed, sworn that he should never set
eyes on me again; and he was smiling, I thought, a mocking, triumphant
smile, such as--" Then suddenly she caught sight of the lowered blind:
"Why did I draw down the blind? the sun is not on the street. Ah yes,"
with a heavy sigh, "I remember now. He was standing there--he has
tracked me; but, thank God! I am not at home. I am in big, endless
London. He shall find out no further; I will leave this place at once.
Oh! Maurice, Maurice!"

It might have been the cry of a tormented spirit passed away for ever
from hope and peace and joy. The misery of those last words was so deep
and poignant that the young girl shuddered.

She could not speak: she knelt helpless by her friend's side, not even
attempting consolation, while Margaret, covering her face with both
hands, wept hot tears, that streamed through her fingers and on to
Adèle's hand, which rested still upon her knees. And so they remained
for a few moments--moments that seemed ages to poor Adèle; then, unable
to bear it longer, she rose to her feet, and putting her arms round
Margaret's neck kissed her on the brow. It was the impulsive movement
of a helpless sympathy, a girl-like action. She could not help, but she
could comfort.

Mrs. Grey had forgotten her presence. The touch aroused her. She looked
up suddenly, and shaking off the flowing tears took the young girl's
hands in hers. "Poor child!" she said gently, "it is too bad of me to
frighten you like this. I fear I am very selfish and forgetful; but
you know nothing--God grant you never may!--of miseries like mine. And
now--will you think me ungrateful?--I fear I must ask you to leave me.
It is necessary for me to go from here at once. And yet," she continued
meditatively, "if you _could_ stay till the last; he might return--"

"I shall not think of leaving you till I see you out of this place,
Mrs. Grey," said Adèle authoritatively. "Listen," she continued, more
rapidly; "I can arrange it all. I told you before of my talent for
management, and now it has all come into my head quite suddenly. Ah, I
should have made a first-rate diplomatist. You want to escape this rude
man, and no wonder. If you do as I say we shall be off in a quarter
of an hour. Leave your boxes with their address; I can see to their
being sent after you. I see they are nearly packed. My cousin is at the
end of the street waiting for me; he will fetch the carriage, which
is only a few yards distant, and we can drive you to any station you
like to mention. There you can take a ticket--not, if you like, to your
own village, but to some place at no great distance, in case this man
should follow us, and to-morrow you can go on to your own home."

There was something enlivening in Adèle's energy. Margaret's face
brightened, she wiped away the remaining tears, and turning aside
renewed the struggle which Adèle's entrance had interrupted with the
obstinate trunk.

"Your plan would be perfection but for one thing," she said with the
quiet dignity which had characterized her before this excitement had
come. "My dear Miss Churchill, forgive me, you are young. I am a
total stranger to you. Your mother, your friends--would they not be
displeased? Is it right for you to do this?"

"It is, it is," said Adèle eagerly; "indeed, dear Mrs. Grey, mamma
allows me to go everywhere with Arthur. She has full confidence in him."

"And Arthur?"

"Is my cousin. You saw him the other day. He is waiting for me now." In
spite of herself Adèle blushed as she spoke.

Margaret looked at her in some surprise, but the ingenuous young face
told its own tale. In her turn she was filled with admiration and
love. She held out her hand. "Thank you," she said. That was all for
a moment, as the tears were ready to flow; then after a pause, "What
you have seen to-day will tell you more eloquently than I could that
neither you nor your friends need have any fear on my account. If
Arthur should become unmanageable at any future time, send him to me;
I promise to cure him. And now, dear, I suppose we must be setting to
work; I will accept your kind offer: it seems, after all, the best
course to pursue."

It was done without the slightest awkwardness.

Margaret might have been a queen accepting a favor from one of her
courtiers, and it was in this light that Adèle thought of the service
she was rendering to her friend, for Margaret was, in her young,
inexperienced eyes, a very queen by means of her beauty and charm.
And then they set themselves to work without further delay. In a very
few moments Margaret's hasty toilette was complete--a black shawl,
the little close bonnet, a crape veil, the bright Indian scarf,
from which she did not seem to care to separate herself, a tiny
morocco-leather case, which might contain valuables of some kind, and
a carpet-bag, which by Adèle's aid had been hastily filled with a few
necessaries,--these were all; then the boxes were locked and labelled,
the landlady's account was settled, and orders given to her to keep
the boxes until they should be called for, Adèle promising that Arthur
should perform this little service. It did not take very long. Adèle
had scarcely been half an hour in the house when they left it together,
Margaret closely veiled and not venturing to look around, Adèle gazing
right and left to assure herself that they were not followed. Not a
person was in sight on either side of the way, and she breathed more
freely.

Arthur meanwhile had been pacing the thoroughfare upon which the
street in which Mrs. Grey had been lodging opened out. He was not very
impatient, for his head had been full of Margaret; he had been forming
and reforming, always unsuccessfully to himself, her image in his
brain, and dreaming all kinds of mad dreams about the services he would
render her in the future, and the sweet returns of love and gratitude
he might be blest enough to gain. Adèle's concurrence in his plans was,
he felt, a grand step in the right direction; thenceforth everything
would go swimmingly, for it was not possible that she could set aside
Adèle's offered friendship--indeed, the very length of time that was
elapsing was a favorable sign.

But, not even in his wildest dreams, had he imagined that he should see
her again that very day, that the means of doing her a service would
immediately be put into his hands; when, therefore, he saw two ladies
instead of one emerging from ---- street, he was beyond measure
astonished.

They stopped to let him reach them, and, rather embarrassed through
all his delight, he offered his greeting to Margaret Grey. She was
herself calm and quiet, only the heightened color in her beautiful face
betraying in any way a sign of her recent emotion.

Adèle was by far the more excited of the two. "Fetch the carriage,
Arthur," she said, "as quickly as ever you can. We shall follow slowly
to the place where we left it; you can come back with it to meet us.
Don't stop to ask why, like a good old fellow. There's no time to lose."

It was evidently for Margaret, so Arthur started off at such headlong
speed that many of the foot-passengers stood still to look after him,
wondering at his excitement. If some of his languid friends in that
other world, London of the West, could have seen him, I greatly fear he
would have been degraded for ever in their estimation; undue activity
or a public display of ultra eagerness is not among the list of
fashionable failings; in fact, it is bad form. But Arthur did not think
at the moment of his position in the world of fashion, and it was not
likely that any of his friends would have been benighted enough to put
such a space as that which separates Islington from Hyde Park between
themselves and their daily haunts.

Breathless he hailed the coachman, who crossed the street with unusual
alacrity. He could only imagine from Mr. Arthur's state of excitement
that Miss Adèle had fallen down in a fit or that some similar
misfortune had happened. He was an old servant, and took, as he often
said in the servants' hall, "a deep hinterest in the family."

"Nothing wrong sir, I 'ope," he said, stooping down confidentially from
his exalted position on the top of the coach-box.

"No," replied Arthur impatiently. "Drive me along this road until I
tell you to stop."

He jumped in, and the mystified coachman obeyed, stopping instinctively
at the sight of his young mistress with a person carrying a carpet-bag.
Even if Arthur had not used the check-string vigorously, astonishment
would have brought the worthy man to a stand-still. Imagination was not
his strong point, and it was difficult for him even to conceive what
all this meant.

"The Great Northern Station, and then home," said Adèle, not wishing
to mystify him too far; "and _please_ drive quickly."

He obeyed, and as easily and rapidly they drove along the streets
Margaret leant back among the cushions, closed her eyes and
sighed deeply. It was a sigh of intense relief. "To-morrow," she
said--"to-morrow I shall be at home."

Very little more passed between the three until the carriage stopped
before the station; there Adèle held out her hand very reluctantly.
"I am afraid I must say good-bye," she said gently; "I ought to be at
home. Mamma will be expecting me. I shall leave Arthur to take care of
you and see you into your carriage." With a glance Margaret thanked
Adèle for her noble trustfulness.

"We shall meet again?" said the young girl earnestly.

"I trust so, dear; you know my address. If anything should bring you in
my direction I shall be only too delighted to see you; but," and her
voice grew low and tender, "if we never should meet again, remember
this--I shall _never_ cease to thank you in my heart for the way in
which you have acted to-day."

She had got out of the carriage and was standing near the door, one
hand still in Adèle's, who seemed to wish to retain it to the last
moment. Arthur was beside them, looking interested but helpless, and
once more tempted to indulge in that very vain and foolish wish that
Providence had made him a woman.

Here was his cousin already Margaret Grey's dear friend: he was nothing
to her--a lacquey who might be permitted to see after luggage, to get
her ticket, to wait upon her. Nothing! Was that nothing? he asked
himself suddenly as Adèle closed the carriage door, waved her last
farewell and left him alone with Margaret in the busy station. Alone
and in a crowd, he her protector, she dependent upon him, he was a man
at once, gentle, thoughtful, considerate, ready for any emergency. Only
there was one drawback. All his attentions were received so pleasantly,
in such a matter-of-fact way--not as a something that was offered
personally, a tribute of homage to her whom he admired above all other
women, but as the most commonplace thing in the world, a lady's right
from the gentleman who has taken upon himself the task of helping her.

The fact was that Margaret Grey knew more of the world than her shabby
black dress and general want of style might have seemed to indicate.
Certain it is that she had hit upon the very best method of keeping her
young knight in his true place.

His heart was burning to show in some way the enthusiasm that devoured
him as he stood by her side on the platform, only venturing to glance
at her furtively from time to time, but abundantly laden with her small
items of property, of all of which she had allowed him to possess
himself without the smallest demur. None of this did he dare to show.
He could feel in anticipation the look of quiet surprise with which she
would greet any presumptuous speech.

Curious glances were cast on them by those who were not too busy in
the important stages of arrival and departure to give a thought to
anything but their own concerns, for Margaret was one of those women
who always attract notice, and once or twice, when she became conscious
of such observation, Arthur saw that she started painfully and turned
to scan the watcher. He cast his scowls to the right hand and to the
left, being quite ready to pick a quarrel with any one for the sake
of his divinity; but his scowls were shed abroad in vain; they did
not seem to have the slightest effect upon the situation, and at last
all necessity for such exercise of his faculties was over. The train,
longed for so eagerly by the one, dreaded by the other of these two
companions of an hour, came slowly, with majestic quiet, into the
station; porters, with anything but majestic quiet, began to bundle and
bustle the unfortunate luggage into the vans, lady passengers rushed
madly from various corners of the station, gentlemen passengers walked
leisurely with a defiant look at the engine (it could not start without
them) from the refreshment-rooms, where they had been taking in a stock
of strength that might enable them to live through the ennui of a six
hours' journey; parties that were about to part gathered woefully
together, tears in the eyes of some, an appearance of put-on sadness,
covering satisfaction, in the faces of others, and sounding along the
line came the voice of the stately guard, "Take your places, ladies and
gentlemen."

Then Margaret put out her hand. They had stopped together before a
second-class carriage, in which, with all the deference of a young
courtier, Arthur had taken her seat, arranged her parcels, placed
everything she might need within her reach, even to the little packet
of delicate ham sandwiches, flask of sherry and magazine of light
reading which he had obtained surreptitiously to add to her comfort
during the journey.

She smiled when she got in and saw what he had done. "Thank you," she
said, still in the same easy, pleasant way, a queen addressing her
subject; "I chose my knight well; and now good-bye. Tell your cousin
that I will send her a few lines to let her know of my safe arrival."

Arthur pressed the hand she held out to him. He could not resist it,
and then, shriek! puff! the waving of a flag, and the train was gone,
carrying her away from his lingering gaze. He turned aside with a
sigh and a singular contraction of heart; she, looking round at his
thoughtful arrangements, smiled faintly, then, leaning back on the hard
seat, closed her eyes and murmured almost audibly, "Thank God! escaped!"

Her thanksgiving, perhaps, was premature, for in her late
dwelling-place this was what was happening in the mean time.

She and Adèle had scarcely reached the top of ---- street before the
landlady, anxious to lose no time, ordered "Apartments" to be hoisted
in its usual place, the front-parlor window.

A tall, dark-looking man, who was walking in a leisurely manner down
the street with a cigar in his mouth, stopped suddenly and looked at
it with some attention. From below the landlady looked at him, and
feeling his earnestness prophetic arrayed herself hastily in clean cap
and apron, and smoothed from her brow the unquiet look which Betsy's
awkwardness had caused. She did not get herself up in vain; he rang the
bell and asked to see her rooms.

The landlady dropped a curtsey. This was a grand-looking gentleman
in her opinion, with a fine commanding manner--"looked a mili_tairy_
hofficer retired," she said afterward to a neighbor, describing
the interview. "They're not in the best of horder, sir," she said
deprecatingly--"not for a gentleman the likes of you to see; but
there," fearful of losing a lodger, "it _hain't_ all gold as glitters,
and if so be has you'll make hallowances, the lady--quite a lady and
lived very quiet, not gone above half an hour--says she, a going out of
that door, and a givin' me of her hand--"

"Show me the rooms as they are," broke in the gentleman, frowning with
impatience; but even this did not check the flow of the landlady's
eloquence.

"The lady as has gone--" she began.

"Show me the rooms, woman, without any more jabber," interrupted he so
fiercely that, as Mrs. Jones said afterward to a neighbor, "she was all
of a tremble, and her feet as nigh as possible giv' way under her from
fright."

She did not hazard another remark, but threw open the door of
Margaret's sitting-room, still warm, as it were, with the evidences of
her presence. The sight appeared to excite the gentleman; he breathed
hard and his eyes sparkled; then, not appearing to notice the landlady,
who stood respectfully in the doorway, he cast round the room one
searching glance.

It seemed to satisfy him. He turned to the landlady, took out his
pocket-book and pencil, as if to make a note of her answers, and asked,
"Your name, Mrs.--"

"Jones, sir, at your service," she answered, curtseying.

"Mrs. Jones? ah!" He wrote down something in his pocket-book, then
looked at her again: "Your rent?"

"Thirty shillin's _hand_ hextras," she replied, audaciously clapping on
ten shillings for the military appearance.

"Ah!" he answered once more, nothing else; no bargaining, as Mrs.
Jones informed her next-door neighbor, nothing of the kind; he only
shut up his pocket-book with a snap and turned aside, apparently quite
satisfied. Mrs. Jones flattered herself that his satisfaction arose
from prepossession with her rooms and her personal appearance. Quite
other was the consideration that caused the prospective lodger such a
pleasant glow of satisfaction.

Something indeed was written down in his note-book by that busy-looking
pencil. It was not Mrs. Jones's name and address, nor even her
exceedingly moderate terms.

If the solitary lady who was leaving London that day to hide her sorrow
and loneliness could only have known what was written there, her
satisfaction would have flown, for she had left her secret behind her,
tacked in large letters to the boxes that were to follow her the next
day, and the secret had been transferred to the pocket-book of the man
she thought she had escaped.

Poor Adèle's diplomacy! It had given way at only one point, but
unhappily that point was all important.




CHAPTER XIII.

_LESSONS IN WORLD-WISDOM._

    With a little hoard of maxims preaching down a daughter's heart;
    They were dangerous guides, the feelings: she herself was not exempt.


"Well, Adèle, what have you done with Arthur?"

The speaker was a comely, elderly lady who had sailed, in the full
magnificence of brocade and lace, into the dining-room of her handsome
house. A substantial lunch was on the table, an obsequious butler was
in waiting, a fair-haired girl was seated in one of the arm-chairs, her
head resting on her hand.

At the sound of her mother's voice she looked up. "Dropped him _en
route_, mamma," she said pleasantly.

"And why did you not bring him in?"

"He had business, I believe, in town."

"Business, indeed! You should be his first business. Mark my words,
Adèle--though it seems impossible to instill worldly wisdom into _your_
brain--boys are volatile and require keeping in hand. A girl ought to
be tolerably _exigeante_ if she would either make or keep a conquest,
especially when a boy of Arthur's age and character is in question."
Then to the butler: "Take the covers, James; after that you can go
down stairs. Miss Churchill and I will wait upon ourselves to-day. One
always forgets James," she continued as he retired, "he is so quiet and
unobtrusive; but then--faithful creature!--I feel very sure _he_ could
make no mischief of anything he hears."

"I wish, all the same, mamma," said Adèle rather fretfully, "that you
would not always talk of my affairs and Arthur's before the servants.
Burton, James, Elizabeth, it seems not to matter at all before which of
them you speak."

"My dear Adèle, you are a child. These people know your character and
mine, and are pretty well acquainted with all our affairs, without our
taking the trouble of informing them. I wonder who leaves Arthur's
letters about sometimes."

"Arthur's letters?" Adèle shrugged her shoulders almost imperceptibly.
"All the world is at liberty to see them."

"There it is again, my dear; we return to the subject we were
discussing a few minutes ago. When do you intend to make a lover
of your cousin? You know you cannot possibly remain in this
brother-and-sisterly stage. You must give him one or two lessons or
he'll slip through your fingers yet."

Adèle was accustomed to her mother's style of conversation, so it did
not particularly shock her; she only smiled rather strangely: "Arthur
wants no lessons from _me_, mamma."

"Ah! then you are further advanced than I thought; but really, Adèle,
you have been brought up so simply I wonder sometimes if you know at
all what it means to have a lover. _I_ was very different with _my_
first lover, a cousin too, though we didn't marry after all. A very
good thing; he was poor and idle: I should have been a wretched woman.
Now, Arthur is well off, and not at all extravagant; no strong tastes
either; just the kind of man whom a woman can mould to her will; but
then she must know how, and I fear, Adèle, you are a sad baby in these
matters."

"It's not for want of instruction, mamma," said Adèle rather
maliciously.

But the good-natured Mrs. Churchill scarcely saw the point of her
daughter's satire. "You are right," she said. "I have done my very
best to instill into your mind some knowledge of the world you live
in, Adèle. I considered it a duty," she sighed faintly. "Had your poor
father been alive, the case might have been different. Women who are
thrown on their own resources, like you and me, my child, _must_ be
equal to the task of taking care of themselves."

It was a task in which, apparently, Mrs. Churchill had never failed:
she did not certainly look the worse for care and anxiety. She pressed
her handkerchief to her eyes--a habit, simply, for not the faintest
moisture was there to remove, but to mention the departed Mr. Churchill
without paying this tribute of regard to his dear memory would have
been most unseemly. A pause for this trivial operation then Mrs.
Churchill continued: "I have wished for some time to speak to you about
this matter, Adèle. I have managed for you so far; I can do so no
further."

The last words seemed to astonish the young girl. She looked up: "_You_
have managed, mamma? What _can_ you mean?"

"Why, little goose! to whom do you think you owe your lover? Not to
Arthur, certainly. He would have gone on droning about the house for
ever, without the slightest consideration for your feelings or mine,
engrossing you and shutting out others. I brought him to book and
showed him his duty." (The fond mother showed her white teeth at the
remembrance.) "When they were all laying themselves out to entrap
him, too! Lady Lacy and her pretty nieces, Mrs. Campbell and her ugly
daughters; even gaunt Mr. Godolphin, with that extensive motherless
child of his. Ha! ha! it was _too_ good!"

But Adèle did not seem to join in her mother's mirth. She had dropped
her knife and fork in a kind of despair, while a sudden pallor, quickly
succeeded by a vivid flush, showed her distress.

"Good gracious, child! what is wrong?" cried her mother.

Her answer was given through a flood of tears: "Oh, mamma! mamma! how
could you? And I was so happy, and I thought he liked me a little--only
a very little--and that, in spite of everything, it might be all right
some day? Now--now--"

The last part of the sentence was lost in the folds of her
pocket-handkerchief.

Poor Adèle was rather upset with the events of the morning, following
as they did upon the knowledge of what she looked upon as Arthur's
desertion; to hear now that even their engagement, in which she had
rejoiced as a proof of his real affection for her, as a kind of pledge
for his return, was due not to his own unbiassed freedom of choice,
but to her mother's machinations,--this was a kind of finishing-stroke
to her misfortunes. She continued to sob, somewhat to her mother's
annoyance.

"What a perfect baby you are still, Adèle!" she said; "it's well, after
all, that I sent James out of the room. Come, dry up your eyes, and
tell me what is the meaning of this. To say that anything I told you
just now could have caused such an outburst is perfectly absurd. What
has Arthur been saying or doing? _I_ shall have to take him in hand."

Adèle lifted up her glistening eyes and carmine cheeks from the
grateful shade of her pocket-handkerchief. "You must do nothing of the
kind, mamma," she said indignantly--she was quite unlike herself for
the moment--"you have done mischief enough already."

"Mischief enough!" Mrs. Churchill's glass paused half-way between the
table and her lips; she was absolutely petrified with surprise. Adèle
was an only daughter, and something of a spoilt child; but hitherto
she had always been gentle and obedient, for she was naturally docile;
then she and her mother had such different tastes that their wills very
seldom clashed. This vigorous assertion of personality was a new thing,
and for the moment clever, good-natured Mrs. Churchill, with all the
knowledge of human nature upon which she plumed herself, scarcely knew
how to treat it.

"This is what comes of romantic notions," she said severely. "I always
thought the poetry-reading bad; if this kind of thing goes on I shall
have to put a stop to it altogether. Now-a-days it seems to be the idea
for young ladies and gentlemen to fall desperately in love, indulge in
pretty poetic love-scenes and do a little wasting away for the benefit
of one another. I suppose something of this has got into your silly
little head, Adèle. You and Arthur should have been moved spontaneously
to fall into one another's arms, like the hero and heroine of a play.
Bah, child! there's a behind-the-scenes to life as well as the stage,
and lovers are generally only puppets; they _act_ the drama and
other people pull the strings. Don't look so very woebegone: I tell
you more than half the marriages in the world would never have taken
place without some such helping hand as mine. You ought to be grateful
instead of indignant."

Adèle had dried her eyes. She was rather ashamed of her outburst; she
ought to have known long ago that her mother's matter-of-fact nature
and keen common sense would never chime in with her own ultra-refined,
high-flown notions of life and action; and hers, after all, were
the ideas of a young girl to whom the great world was still a land
of visions and dreams; her mother's were those of a woman who knew
something of the world, who had passed through very varied experiences,
who, with all her good-nature--for Mrs. Churchill was what might
have been called a comfortable matron--had grown a little hard and
unsympathetic by reason of the rubs and raps she had encountered,
making some of her fine gold dim.

"We need not discuss the matter," said Adèle; "what is done _is_ done,
and after all perhaps it makes very little difference in the end. I am
sorry if I was rude to you, mamma, as no doubt you do what you think
best for me; but in these matters I do wish that you would let me have
_some_ voice. If I had known Arthur's proposal was brought about by
you, I should have certainly refused him without any hesitation."

"So I supposed, my dear; therefore I was wise enough not to let either
of the wise young people see my hand. Why, you romantic child! without
me you would soon float on to misery. Grand notions are all very well
in their way, but they can scarcely carry one through the world with
any satisfaction to one's self, Adèle; you'll find that out sooner or
later. But come, enough of worldly wisdom for one day. Wash your eyes
and make yourself look nice; I want you to pay some visits with me this
afternoon."

Poor little Adèle! she obeyed, but it was with a languid step. A few
days before her life had been all sunshine; her love, her pleasant
tastes, her bright hopes--everything had combined to make her happy;
now, a change seemed impending--unreality was around her; what she
had thought to be a firm standing-point turned out only shifting
quicksands; the love was departing, and the revelation of how it had
come robbed its past of all charm; even her pleasant tastes seemed
deceptive, for if her mother's views of life were correct, farewell
to the _Faërie Queene_, farewell to poetic imagery: it was the mirage
that betrays the unwary soul, and in spite of the poet's vision the sad
knowledge which that day's glimpse of another life had brought showed
too clearly that beauty and joy were only too often divorced.

Adèle appeared in the drawing-room in the course of half an hour
dressed in pale silk, a rose-colored bonnet crowning her fair hair
and pink-tinted gloves on her small hands, but nothing for the moment
could remove the gloomy veil through which she viewed life and its
surroundings.

Her mother was obliged to reprove her a little sharply. "My dear
Adèle," she said as they left one of the houses to which they had
been bound, "you must really make an effort to be more agreeable and
sprightly; melancholy does not suit you. Dark girls, with chiselled
features and creamy complexions, may be allowed to move through society
like beautiful mutes, but with golden hair and bright blue eyes like
yours vivacity, let me tell you, is the only rôle. Sulking makes you
look absolutely plain."

No girl likes to look "absolutely plain," and although Adèle loudly
disclaimed any sort of regard for what would or would not suit her
style, she made an effort, and that evening Arthur, who came back, pale
and exhausted, from the parting scene at the station, and who looked to
Adèle for sympathy, was rather hurt with what he was pleased to term
her frivolity. Young men are so selfish!

Mrs. Churchill saw the little by-play--Adèle's forced gayety, Arthur's
sentimental-looking eyes following her inquiringly, and somewhat
reproachfully, round the room. She congratulated herself on the success
of her lesson.




CHAPTER XIV.

_LAURA._

    Thou art a dew-drop which the morn brings forth,
    Not framed to undergo unkindly shocks,
    Or to be trailed along the soiling earth--
    A gem that glitters while it lives.


Margaret was at home. In a little village on the coast of Yorkshire,
far from any town, not fashionable even in the season, and somewhat
dull at all times, was the cottage to be found which she fondly looked
upon as home. The village consisted of one street running up into the
land, where butcher and baker and grocer, who all of them sold a medley
of articles, displayed their small wares; a collection of fisher-huts
on the coast, and some few respectable little houses, whitewashed and
green-shuttered, which were only tenanted in the summer months. It was
not even a particularly pretty place. Of course there was the sea, the
grand wide ocean, stretching its interminable breadths away to the
horizon, and it crept up upon yellow sands that were a perfect delight
to the eye and to the feet, they were so bright and clean and smooth.
But for this the scenery was somewhat monotonous; no mountains or hilly
grounds were to be seen far or near, save, indeed, the few sand-cliffs
that rose up gradually from the borders of the sea to a vast table-land
of moor and meadow, stretching into the distance with scarcely a tree
to break the line. A few huge boulders carved by time and water into
fantastic shapes, a little scanty herbage on the sandhills, some
stunted shrubs and trailing yellow flowers,--these were all that broke
the monotony of sea and moor; in fact, it was a desolate place, but
its desolation in no way resembled that of a city like London, the
dreary monotony of a human desert. It was Nature's desolation, grand
and weird, and, to the soul that could understand, full of ever-varied
mystery and charm.

The sunrise over the moor when, itself purple with the rich tints of
autumn coloring, it blushed into mistlike dreamy splendor; the mellower
sunset over the ocean, and after the sunset the pale streaks of
horizon-light and the broad ribbons of silvery moonbeams; the black
mystery of a winter night, space above, space around, space infinite on
every side; the clash and flash of foam-crowned waves shining through
the darkness,--these were some of the charms this little seaside
village possessed, these were what Margaret had missed in her miserable
visit to great, lonely London. She slept at a hotel in York on the
first night after leaving town. On the next day, partly by rail, partly
by carriage, she reached her own home.

They did not expect her. She wondered plaintively as she drove in the
little chaise, hired at the nearest station, along the low road that
skirted the sea, whether her little Laura would be pleased to see her
again--would have found the time long without her. Laura was not so
dear to her mother as she might have been, but she was her only tie to
life, the one creature who was dependent on her, to whom she was, in a
certain sense, a necessity. In the course of that long drive Margaret
began to reproach herself for having loved her child so little. Her
heart yearned over the tiny creature whose fate was bound up with her
own, fatherless, or worse than fatherless, in the tender dawning of
life--mysteries around her that her poor little soul might perhaps
already be trying to fathom, and trying in vain; for, as Margaret
recalled with a sudden pang, it was not an ordinary child's soul that
had looked at her once or twice out of Laura's dark, pensive eye. It
was a soul upon which the shadow seemed to have fallen--the shadow that
so early falls upon some, chilling their life in its first glad spring.
Margaret had shrunk from looking into this mystery; she had answered
the inquiring earnestness with which her little daughter had seemed to
look into her sadness by sweetmeats, toys and diversions, and the child
had gone back upon herself, dreaming her dreams alone.

Perhaps it is little known in the wise, busy world of grown-up people
how keen and sensitive are the sympathies and feelings of a child, how
easily the little soul can be driven in upon itself, and in some cases,
rare it may be, how great the suffering that follows.

Margaret had a vague consciousness of all this, but there was something
so bitter in her sadness that it shrank even from the light touch
of her child, and then the dark, pensive eyes that sometimes looked
so melancholy under their deep fringe veiled a memory--a memory that
cut and wounded, and that in some moods she felt herself absolutely
powerless to bear. So had another pair of eyes, dark too, and wistful
and infinitely sad, looked out at her on a stormy night long ago--the
night when her trouble had begun. Long ago--it looked long ago, yet
as mortals reckon time perhaps it could only have been said to be
short--one, two, three, four, long years. The remembrance of that
strange sadness in her little daughter's face had brought Margaret to
this again, as what did not? She reckoned the time and marvelled at its
flight.

As she pondered the little chaise progressed, with abundant clacking of
the whip and plunges forward and vigorous shouts from the boy-driver,
and scarcely a corresponding rate of speed, for Middlethorpe was an
out-of-the-way village, and no very stately vehicle of the hired
species would have been permitted, under some very large gratuity, to
explore its wilds. Evening was beginning to fall before the outskirts
of the village had been sighted, and between the jolting of the
carriage, the energy of the driver and the haunting thoughts that
tormented her, Margaret began to feel that any change would be a relief.

Her little cottage was rather out of the village. It lay at some little
distance, near the edge of one of the sandhills. When they entered the
village she stopped her driver and told him to take on her carpet-bag;
she would do the remainder of the way on foot. The boy listened to her
directions, nodded his head good-humoredly, and leaving her upon the
sands, started off in the direction indicated--to a little white point
at some distance reached by a road winding up through the village.
Margaret proceeded leisurely along the coast toward a narrow path that
led up the cliff to her cottage by a nearer way.

She gazed over the wide sea, for the gray which had been its abiding
characteristic through the not very brilliant May day was blushing
gradually into golden brightness under the magic touch of sunset, and
Margaret paused in the full enjoyment of its rich coloring. Then, with
the light still in her eyes, she looked landward on to the sandhills.

There was a little figure crouching under one of them, evidently that
of a child, and a child in sorrow, for the face was hidden by a pair of
tiny hands and the little frame was shaken with sobs. It looked like a
blot in the dazzle the sunset radiance had cast over Margaret's sight.
But the child was at her feet; her heart was moved for its little
trouble. She stooped to ask about the sorrow, and with a sudden shock
recognized in the weeping little one her own Laura. The child's dress
was in disorder; the pretty, fair hair was uncovered by hat or bonnet
and flying wildly over her face and neck; her cheeks were stained with
tears which seemed to have been flowing abundantly; her little hands
were red and sore.

She looked up, and a faint smile came into her weary little face as
she recognized her mother. "I thought you were never coming back,
mamma," she said in a voice so sad and low that it pierced her mother's
heart. "I am glad you're come, because now perhaps I sha'n't always be
naughty."

"Naughty! my little Laura naughty? Who says so?" The tears were in
Margaret's eyes, and a passion of penitence and love was welling
up in her heart. It was like the opening of a sealed-up fountain.
All the sweet motherliness that untoward circumstances seemed to
have stifled in Margaret's heart awoke suddenly at the sight of her
daughter's sorrow. She kissed the little flushed face, smoothed back
the disordered hair, and lulled the child to rest in her arms with the
pretty baby-language that mothers know. And at first the little Laura
looked surprised, then her tears ceased, she clasped her arms round her
mother's neck, and into the dark, wide-open, pensive eyes there came a
look of rest.

So they remained for a few moments--the mother and the child, with
the soft, cool yellow sand around them and the westering seas before
them; Margaret thinking only of these little clinging arms, of this
sweet child-love--of the blessing that was still left her; the little
one rejoicing, with the unreasonable delight of childhood, in the soft
pressure of her mother's arms. She had always been given a morning and
evening kiss, but this warm, protecting tenderness was, she could not
tell why, something new to her.

She looked up languidly at last from her mother's breast where her
head had been resting. "Jane says I've been very naughty, mamma," she
murmured; "she whipped me for telling a story, but I know I didn't take
the sugar."

Laura's tears began to break out afresh at the remembrance, but her
little simple story had aroused her mother, and indignation began to
mingle with sorrow in her heart. She started up: "_Who_ whipped you,
Laura? Jane? How could she have dared to do such a thing? There! there!
my sweet," for her vehemence had alarmed the child, "dry your eyes.
Mamma will never leave her little darling again; no one else shall have
anything to do with Laura."

Laura's tears gave place to a smile of contentment. "Yes, mamma dear,
it will be nice. I cried the day you went to London, a long time
ago, and Jane said it was naughty, and she locked the door and left
me by myself--oh, _such_ a long time! And she said you had gone away
because I was tiresome, and you didn't love me one little bit; and I
thought"--Laura wound her arms tightly round her mother's neck--"I
thought perhaps you'd never come back, and I was always to stay with
Jane. And oh, mamma, I was looking at the sea to-night--you know
gardener's little boy fell in, and when he came out I saw him; he was
white and quite cold, and they put him in the churchyard--and I thought
it would be better to fall in like poor little Jimmy than to live with
Jane."

"Poor little darling!" Margaret's tears were flowing fast. She rose
from her seat, but she would not loosen the pressure of those tiny arms.

Laura put her hand up to her mother's face: "Mamma, _you're_ crying
now. Is it about Jane? Poor mamma! never mind."

"Mamma is crying because they told her little daughter such dreadful
things," said Margaret as quietly as she could. "Listen, my child: you
must _never_ believe them. I love my Laura more than I can say. You are
_all_ that is left me, dear. It was for you I went to London, that you
might grow up wise and good, and learn like other little girls; and I
was going to such a wretched, miserable place or I would have taken my
child with me; but I will never leave her behind again, wherever I may
go."

Perfectly satisfied and with a little sigh of full content, Laura put
down her head again, and so they went back to the house, the child in
her mother's arms.

Jane Rodgers met them on the threshold of the front door. She had
looked forward to something like this when the boy had arrived with the
carpet-bag, notifying that the mistress was to follow, and she blamed
herself severely for her short-sightedness, which had arisen in this
way.

She had been shrewd enough to see that although Mrs. Grey never
neglected her daughter, yet there was none of that warm devotion
which mothers so often cherish for an only child; in fact, that the
very presence of her little one was sometimes a burden to her. The
circumstances of her lodger being peculiar and utterly unknown, so far
as she could learn, to any of her neighbors, Jane had come to certain
conclusions not very creditable to her ordinary good sense or knowledge
of human nature. When, therefore, for three weeks Mrs. Grey had
remained absent from her daughter, although her rent was fully paid up,
and amply sufficient had been left for the little Laura's maintenance,
Jane Rodgers, acting on her previous supposition, had come to this
conclusion: "The mother had left her child altogether. It would fall to
her" (Jane Rodgers's) "lot to take care of her and bring her up."

Now, Jane was by no means a cruel woman. Had any one told her that even
under such untoward circumstances she could have been absolutely unkind
to any child of seven years old, she would have indignantly repelled
the accusation. But Jane was a scrupulously conscientious woman (that
is, she thought herself so); she was unmarried, and hard by nature.
She had been a fine-looking girl in her youth--had been disappointed
in love, and as a domestic servant had perhaps had her full share
of the temptations incident to her position. She had preserved her
respectability, saved her money, and some years before the time when my
story opens had returned to her native village, the owner of a small
furnished house. Her living she was given in return for the service she
rendered, and the rent of the house was ample to keep her in clothes
and pocket-money, with a small sum accumulating year by year at the
savings bank.

Jane was a highly respectable person, and in this consisted her pride.
How people could ever be brought into the world the wrong way, or how
the hundred and one wicked actions so common in all societies, high
and low, could ever come to be committed, she professed herself wholly
unable to understand. _She_ had no sympathy for the tempted: her
theory was, that if they suffered in consequence of error, so much the
better--it served them right.

When, therefore, the little Laura was left on her hands--for Mrs.
Grey had scarcely been gone a week before Jane had made up her mind
that she would never return--a strict and stern course of education
was begun. That evil was very specially rooted in the heart of her
self-imposed charge was Jane's theory--that no indulgence should ever
be permitted her was the fit corrective. Laura very naturally resented
this treatment. She had been allowed to wander about as she liked; she
had never in her life been struck, and seldom punished. When she found
herself watched, corrected and snapped-up--her little sayings, that had
been admired and thought clever, snubbed and reproved--Laura became
first very angry, and then very miserable. The anger was punished by
whipping and bed--such perfectly new experiences to the lonely child
that her little heart throbbed with the agony of humiliation; the
misery was treated as sulkiness, and at last poor little Laura began to
think it was all true. As she plaintively said to her mother, she was
always naughty.

Jane had done it in good faith. She thought she was acting well, taking
a mother's part with the child--that when the evil in her heart had
been rooted out by strict discipline, she might in spite of her pretty
face and form, and the bad precedent of a mother whose antecedents
were not precisely known, turn out a good woman and a useful member of
society.

In the mean time she took the child into her own part of the house,
cleaned out Mrs. Grey's apartments, and was ready to offer them in the
summer time on moderate terms to that portion of the bathing public who
might find Middlethorpe a desirable watering-place.

These being her plans and ideas, the arrival of the boy and carpet-bag
on this May evening was somewhat disconcerting to Jane Rodgers. The
child was out sulking. She was ready with a rod in pickle, as she would
have said, to chastise her for running away without hat or bonnet after
she had been ordered to her room; but Mrs. Grey, should she find her on
the sands, might probably fail to take Jane's view of matters.

There would be time for revelations too, and Jane could scarcely
explain to her lodger all the reasons that had moved her to the mode of
treatment she had employed with her daughter in her absence. However,
matters being so, it was best to put a bold face on them. Jane prided
herself on her independence. Mrs. Grey was certainly a yearly lodger--a
rare kind of article at the seaside, and especially at Middlethorpe;
still, if she should choose to take offence she might go.

None of these latter reflections appeared in her face as she went
forward to meet Mrs. Grey, white-capped and aproned, the very picture
of quiet respectability.

"Glad to see you back, ma'am," she said respectfully, "and sorry you
should find Miss Laura in such a plight. She run out when my back was
turned. I was in such a fidget about putting on my bonnet to look after
her, when--"

"That will do, Jane," said Margaret quietly. "Bring up our tea and pay
the boy. When I have put Miss Laura to bed I will speak to you in the
parlor."

"As you please, ma'am."

Jane turned away with a slight toss of the head, quite determined to
let her lodger go. She was not a servant, she said to herself, to be
treated in such a way. But the sight of her comfortable kitchen and the
hour of delay brought calmer and more prudent thoughts to Jane's mind.
Instinctively she recalled the fate of Mrs. Brown and Miss Simpson, two
ladies of her calling, who, after trying in vain to make a living out
of their houses, had been obliged finally to sell their furniture and
take to service again; Mrs. Short, who let, indeed, in the summer, but
generally to large families, and had her things knocked about in such
a way that no charge for breakages could cover the necessary outlay
which followed their departure; Mrs. Dodd, who had taken in unaware a
lady recovering from the small-pox, and whose servant had taken the
disease, thus necessitating a general turn-out and white-washing before
her rooms could be considered habitable.

Whatever the antecedents or private history of _her_ lodger might
be, Jane Rodgers could not but recognize that she lived a quiet life
and gave wonderfully little trouble. Then, though she paid her rent
monthly, she was in reality a yearly lodger; she had already taken
Jane's house for more than a year, her rent having been all the time
regularly paid. It would manifestly be a pity to give her up by any
over-hastiness.

Jane resolved upon a compromise. She took up the tea, arranged the
bedrooms scrupulously, and then sat down in her kitchen to await Mrs.
Grey's summons.

Some time passed before it came, for Margaret would not leave her child
that evening until she had seen her in the quiet, peaceful sleep that
ought to come so readily at her age; and she noted with ever-increasing
indignation that her little daughter was feverish and restless, that
she started painfully now and then, and clung nervously to her hand.

Nothing calmed her like her mother's voice; so, after trying various
other methods, Margaret sang to her in a low, sweet undertone some of
the children's hymns she had taught her at different times.

It was long, long since Margaret had lifted her voice in song of any
kind, and tears once or twice almost choked her utterance as the "Sweet
Story of Old" and "Gentle Jesus" came falteringly from her pale lips.

She had sung them at her child's cradle with all the proud joy of a
young mother happy and beloved. Now all was changed--she and her child
were alone in the wide world. But the sweet old words were suggestive.
As she sang the spirit of the lonely woman grew calmer and her voice
faltered less.

_Then_--in that fair long ago--she had loved the words for their music,
their sweet, pleasant harmony; now she loved them for themselves, for
the healing rest they seemed to bring to her. Like the cool touch of a
loving mother on the fevered brow of a sick little one were the words
of these child-utterances to Margaret that evening. _She_ grew calmer
and her daughter slept.




CHAPTER XV.

_A DREAM OF THE SEA._

                     We dream what is
    About to happen to us.


The language in which Margaret condemned Jane Rodgers's conduct to her
daughter was not very bitter, but it was effective. She would listen
to no excuses, no recapitulation of the grievous faults of children in
general, and of Miss Laura (Jane was very respectful when addressing
her mother) in particular--of the urgent necessity for some kind of
discipline. All this she set aside with a quiet dignity that severely
impressed Jane.

"No one but myself," she said, "shall have power to correct my child.
If you cannot make up your mind to promise never to attempt anything
of the kind for the future, I will leave your house to-morrow, and
_you_ know very well that under the circumstances I might refuse even a
month's notice."

"I only acted for the best," replied Jane. "Miss Laura was that
unmanageable! For the future I won't try to look after her."

"That's all I require, Jane. I need not tell you that my confidence in
you is severely shaken: I could never trust you with such an important
charge again. I cannot even tell you whether I shall be able to make
up my mind to remain in your house. But I shall narrowly watch your
behavior, and may hope to be convinced that ignorance rather than
downright badness of heart was the cause of your cruelty to my little
daughter."

Jane's mouth was open to reply, but Margaret stopped her: "You have
said quite enough; you may leave me now. Only remember this: I must
never be forced to complain of you in this way again."

She turned to her writing-table as she spoke, and Jane with heightened
color walked to the door.

She did not attempt to answer, for Margaret's severity of manner awed
her; but if Mrs. Grey had looked her way she might have seen an ominous
frown on her brow and a gleam of anger in her cold gray eye.

Jane prided herself on her spirit. It was next to respectability in her
estimate of necessary virtues, but she seldom displayed it imprudently.
When the door was between her and her mistress she clenched her fist
and shook it at the senseless boards. "Her and her beggar's brat!" she
muttered; "but mayhap I'll teach them yet." And with that she retired
to the kitchen, leaving Margaret, very spent and sad, undisputed
mistress of the field.

Perhaps it was a dear-bought victory. It might have been better for
herself and Laura if she had acted upon her first determination, and
left Jane Rodgers's house on the next day. But we cannot know all our
kind, its varieties are so infinite, and Margaret believed in Jane
still to a great extent; then the difficulties of a change of residence
were very great.

Moving was an expensive business, one she could not well afford, and
so far as that village was concerned (she had a certain repugnance
to going elsewhere) she did not know of another place that would
suit them; so the matter was decided. Margaret went to bed fully
determined to remain where she was. Her bedroom window commanded the
sea. She lifted the blind that night, as her habit was, and looked away
wistfully over the waters. How she longed sometimes for the freedom of
the white sea-gull, that skims those restless waves and passes on, on,
through the light and through the darkness till it reaches the haven
where it would be!

There was a haven for which _she_ longed so passionately that at times
the longing was a bitter pain: her haven was not in the heavenly
country. In those days Margaret seldom thought of that, for even the
passing away from things visible might not possibly put an end to her
pain. It was a haven in which she had once rejoiced, but from which she
had passed out into the black darkness of a dreary, shoreless ocean.
The love and confidence of _one_ poor human heart--that was the whole
of her desire; and day by day, night by night, the wished-for haven
seemed drifted farther away, till even hope died down, and she ceased
to think she could ever reach it.

She had a dream that night: with the strange perversity of nightly
visions it seemed to mingle in one and confuse inextricably the
experiences and thoughts of those last few days. She saw the sea as she
had seen it that evening, streaked with night-born radiance, and on
it a small boat--in the boat the dark form of the man she dreaded; in
her dream she loved him, and was stretching out her arms for a place
by his side in the tiny skiff. Then a gradual change: the gleaming
silver passed into ruddy gold, which tinged ocean and sands and rock,
and she knew that it was the hour of sunset. She was sitting on the
yellow sands gazing out to sea, and suddenly as she looked into the
flood of color a white speck rose from its midst--a sail, which grew
larger and whiter till she saw that it was no sail, but the vast wings
of a gigantic bird that was leisurely skimming the water till it rested
at last at her feet. And its eyes were dark and lustrous, full of
love and confidence. Ah, how well she knew them! Another change: she
thought that she looked up again, and the bird was gone, but in its
place Laura's father stood before her stretching out his arms to her
longingly. And then she woke with a start and a shiver, to see the gray
dawning begin to struggle with the darkness, and to feel at her heart a
cold, cold chill.




CHAPTER XVI.

_UNEXPECTED VISITORS AT MIDDLETHORPE._

    And in pleading for life's fair fulfilment, I plead
    For all that you miss and all that you need.


After this the days passed on in the little village by the sea somewhat
slowly and lingeringly. Spring blushed into summer, the bright early
freshness of grass and foliage deepened into summer's maturity, the
gray ocean wore a mild blue appearance as it rolled in on the yellow
sands, and began to reveal its depths to those who skimmed it in the
boats--some bound on pleasure and some on business--that left the
shore from time to time. Over the dim, vast distance Summer cast her
misty veil, shutting in earth and sea with her soft halos and vapors,
and to the yellow sands came women and children, vanguard of the great
army that later in the season would swoop down upon this village and
others of the same type.

Margaret was often there with a book in her hand or a piece of work,
and her child by her side; but generally she was unoccupied, her
hands listless, her eyes growing daily deeper and more weary. For the
strain on heart and spirit was rapidly becoming more than her physical
strength could bear. She was fading visibly, but there was no loving
eye near to note how her step grew more languid and her white fingers
thinner, and her beautiful face more worn and sad till its very beauty
seemed to be passing away. One noted the change, however, and took full
advantage of it.

Jane Rodgers was becoming a kind of household tyrant; not that she ever
again attempted the management of Laura--_that_ would have aroused what
little spirit Margaret still possessed; her tyranny was exhibited in
other ways. She would do precisely what she chose, leaving everything
else undone--would spend days visiting her friends under the plea of
change being an absolute necessity, and leave Mrs. Grey, who could
not afford extra help, to manage matters for herself in the house;
she would even reply insolently at times to some simple request made
by her lodger, for she saw her power. A kind of indifference to life
and its comforts was creeping gradually over Margaret, a numbing sense
of weakness, a languid desire for rest--only rest. In such a frame
she could scarcely have roused herself to undertake the exertion of
moving. She felt that between herself and her landlady matters were not
so pleasant as they had formerly been, but Laura was happy, and for
herself she cared very little. The _one_ great sorrow, like an open
wound whose throbbing engrosses every sense, made her comparatively
indifferent to the little pin-pricks of her daily life.

She had one joy in these dark days. It was in the clinging affection of
her daughter. Since the day of her return Laura and her mother had been
far more to one another than ever before. The child opened her heart
to her mother, told of all her little dreams and fancies, and Margaret
began to talk to the little one even about the long sealed-up subject;
not indeed her trouble and its origin--that would have been impossible
as yet--but about the vague hope toward which in her darkness her
thoughts ever turned. She spoke to Laura about her father, drew from
her the story of her recollections, and tried to awaken and nourish in
her young heart a reverent love for the parent she might perhaps never
see.

For sometimes when Margaret felt her strength failing, a sudden fear
for Laura's future would take possession of her. If--if--God should
take her too from the little one! But that was a possibility at which
she dared not glance. To live as she was living, lonely, unloved, was
bad enough, but through all its darkness was a gleam of something
bright, the hope of a vague, dim to-come, that might possibly bring
back her joy. To die was to shut even this out, and for ever; to pass
away unforgiven, misunderstood, a stain on her fair fame.

Would not that be past endurance?

Margaret could not face the idea of death, but with the bitter
consciousness that it might come she did her duty to her child, and,
though painful at first, it became sweet after a time. She trained her
to think of the father who seemed to have cast her off--to love his
memory, to look forward to his return: then, in any case, if indeed
he too were in the land of the living, Laura would have a refuge. She
would not pass from her mother's care and tenderness to the protection
of one of whom she knew nothing; her father would _be_ her father,
the longed, the looked-for, and perhaps in after days (it was seldom
Margaret had strength to carry her thoughts so far), when she would
have long been cold, he might hear from the lips of his daughter the
tale of her ever-faithful love.

It was one of those warm, languid June days. The very sea seemed lazy
as ripple after ripple crept in sighing to the shore. There was a blue,
hazy vapor on even the near horizon, and scarcely a breath of air was
stirring.

Margaret and Laura had found an approach to shelter from the fierce
midday sun far up on one of the sand-cliffs, under a stunted shrub.
They were sitting there together, the little Laura rather stiller than
usual.

She had been running about on the sands with some small friends picked
up among the visitors, and the heat had tired her. She sat at her
mother's feet, with her head buried in her lap to hide it from the sun.

"Mamma," she cried from her safe retreat, "I had _such_ fun just now."

Margaret's thoughts were far away. She recalled them to interest
herself in her child's amusements: "Had you, darling? Who were you
playing with?--those little children in blue frocks?"

"One of them's bigger than me, mamma," said Laura reprovingly. "You saw
me _then_, but you didn't see the tall gentleman with a big dog, for we
were far away along the sands. He made his dog go in the water for his
stick, oh, ever so many times! and then--Mamma, are you listening?"

"Yes, dear; what then?"

"He took me up on his shoulder and carried me a long way."

Margaret smiled languidly: "He must have taken a fancy to my little
girl."

"But wasn't it funny?" said Laura meditatively; then starting up
suddenly in her eagerness: "Mamma, do you know what I thought when he
was so kind?"

"No, darling, how can I?"

"I thought"--Laura's eyes were sparkling with excitement--"that perhaps
it was papa come back."

Her eager voice roused Margaret from her languor. She rose from her
improvised couch among the branches, and resting one hand on the
child's shoulder said as quietly as she could, "What brought such an
idea into your little head?"

"Why, mamma, don't you see? I always think papa will come like that;
he'll want to surprise us and see if we remember him. This gentleman
asked me about my papa, and if he lived here. And when I said no, but
he was coming back, he looked at me so funnily; then, before he let me
go, he kissed me--a big kiss, mamma, like my papa used to give me long
ago, when he lived here."

Margaret's heart had been swelling as the little voice flowed on. She
could never have told why the childish fancy took such a hold upon her
mind, but so it was; with Laura, she could not help feeling that the
gentleman took more than a common interest in her. Was it true, then?
Had he come back to them? Was her trouble to end? for she did not fear
her Maurice; one short half hour, face to face, would be sufficient for
them both--sufficient to break the icy barrier that lay between them,
and to make them one again.

"Laura," she said, still with that forced quiet in her voice, "try and
tell me what the gentleman was like."

This was a difficult task for the little one. She looked up to the
sky for inspiration. "He was tall, mamma," she said at last, "and I
think--I think there was something funny about his eyes; but he looked
kind, and I haven't seen anybody like him before. Of course I don't
remember what papa was like. He had a great big dog--_so_ big" (she
extended both her arms by way of illustration)--"with a curly black
coat and brown eyes, and a tail that wagged so funnily."

The dog was evidently easier to describe than the gentleman. Perhaps
Laura was not singular in finding it rather difficult to string
together his merits and demerits, even physically considered. He had
been a puzzle to more than one in his transit through the world.

Margaret smiled at her child's enthusiasm. She was not much clearer
about the identity of the stranger than she had been before, but a
longing came over her to unravel the little mystery. She was ready to
ridicule her own folly for seeing any mystery in the matter. Probably
the gentleman was only some stray visitor at Middlethorpe's small hotel
who had been pleased with Laura's fair, childish beauty; and yet the
feeling was there. She must find him out and satisfy herself that he
_was_ a stranger.

"Run home, darling," she said to her little girl, "and tell Jane to
give you your dinner; afterward sit quietly in the parlor with your
new story-book; before tea-time I shall be at home."

Laura hesitated: "You won't go to London, mamma?"

"Certainly not, my little daughter; now run away like a good child."

There was no disputing this. Laura returned to the little cottage, and
Margaret remained alone on the cliff. She was anxious to find out her
daughter's friend, and thus put out of her mind at once the haunting
thoughts that Laura's simple fancy had implanted there.

It could not be a difficult task; there were few gentlemen with big
dogs at Middlethorpe, for the lords of creation had not begun to
indulge in the luxury of seaside idleness. They had sent some of their
womenkind before; themselves were still busy on the world's highways.
The gentleman who had taken so kindly an interest in her little
daughter would certainly be identified with ease.

With a view to his discovery Margaret looked below. The sands, so busy
a few minutes before, were dull and silent, for the flocks of little
ones, with their nurses and mammas, had gone in for the early dinner,
a necessary part of seaside life, and Middlethorpe might have been
perfectly empty.

It was the stillness of a summer noontide, strangely oppressive to a
restless heart. This way and that Margaret looked, up and down the
sands, across the sea; no gentleman or big dog was in sight, and with a
little sigh she turned to look for the book that had been lying by her
side, to while away in its company the hour of forced inaction.

She turned, and became suddenly conscious of the startling fact
that she was not alone--that while she had been looking down at the
sands and across over the sea she had been joined by an unlooked-for
companion, and he must have been there some minutes, for he had found
time to settle himself satisfactorily. He looked perfectly at his ease,
very near her in a reclining posture, his elbows on the sands and his
head in his hand; he was not looking at her. He seemed to be watching
the feathery clouds that were passing over the blue depths above or
counting the insects that flitted past unceasingly; but she, when she
caught sight of him, was not so calm. Her face blanched suddenly; she
covered it with her hands, and a low cry--it might be of anger, it
might be of dismay--came from her quivering lips.

At the sound he turned his gaze in her direction, showing as he did so
a broad square brow, deep-set eyes and a dark, strongly-lined face, its
plainness only relieved by the mouth, which was full yet delicately
formed, the lips soft and ripe as those of any woman. It was partially
veiled by a dark moustache, contrasting rather strangely with his
head, which was covered by a crop of short gray hair. He did not look
an Englishman; indeed, there was something strange in his appearance
which would have rendered the classification of his type a difficult
matter to the most skilful physiognomist. Only one point seemed to
be tolerably evident: he belonged to the ardent South rather than
the cold North, for even at the moment of her discovery, when he was
striving, with all the strength of a strong nature, to show nothing but
cool indifference, his breath was coming quick and hot, his eyes were
sparkling, his fine mouth was quivering with excitement, and in his
voice there was an unmistakable quiver as he spoke after a few moments'
silence, spent by her in averting her face from his gaze, by him in
watching curiously her every movement: "Marguerite!"

A deep musical voice and a slightly foreign accent. It seemed to excite
her. She trembled from head to foot, and tried to rise from her seat.
He put out his hand to detain her. "Not yet," he said sternly. "I must
know first what all this means."

She looked up wonderingly.

"Ah! you know well," he continued more rapidly, and his voice taking
a firmer timbre. "Why have you hid yourself? Why have you fled to the
outskirts of creation to avoid me? Why are you shocked, terrified, when
in my tenderest voice I speak the dear name you used to love to hear
from my lips? Have I grown so very monstrous, or do you wish to kill
yourself with this savage loneliness that your English nation so dearly
loves? Speak! speak!--or rather speak not at all. Let me sit here for
ever and feast my eyes on the loveliness a woman's whim has hid from me
so long. Marguerite! Marguerite! my white pearl, it will be difficult
for you to hide from me again."

She had risen to her feet, the angry color coming and going on her fair
face, but, crouching before her, he held her by the dress and refused
to let her stir.

"Marguerite," he cried, bitter pain in his voice, "I know I speak
folly; you are not one of _my_ warm race; you are a cold daughter of
proud England. But see, love, I will be patient. Sit down again. I
am not near you now; only," and his brow contracted into a frown so
fierce that it might mean a menace, "I am here now, and I must and
will be heard."

Margaret reseated herself, but her face grew pale with suppressed
anger. "If it is the manner of your race to insult the unprotected,"
she said bitterly, "I must congratulate myself on the fact that I do
_not_ belong to it."

His face kindled. "Spoken like yourself, _ma reine_," he said softly.
"I kiss your hands. I am, what I have ever been, your devoted servitor."

"If so, Mr. L'Estrange," she said, slowly and distinctly, but as if
speaking with some difficulty, "I must beg you to leave me at once."

He smiled--a smile that irradiated his face like sunshine: "I was rash,
_ma belle_; sometimes obedience is an impossibility. But see! what are
you afraid of? Look at me, devoted to you body and soul, your friend,
ready to do you the smallest service; only asking this in return, that
I may be permitted to stay where I can see you, can offer you kindly
greeting from time to time--a common acquaintance, nothing more."

She would not look at him. Her eyes were fixed on a distant speck
on the horizon--the sail of a ship or the long line of smoke from a
passing steamer.

"You have forced yourself upon me," she said in a low, constrained
voice; "you know your presence is distasteful, and you know why. But
for you these years of what you are pleased to call savage loneliness
would never have been."

He did not seem to hear her; he was carrying on a kind of soliloquy.
"She is changed," he said, gazing at her still, "yes, and fading. The
rich bloom in her cheek, the laughing sparkle in her eye, the fair
roundness of form, it is passing--passing; but, _hélas! mon Dieu!_ is
she not fairer than ever in her pure, sad whiteness? Ah, Marguerite, my
pearl! how could he ever have doubted you?"

Almost fiercely she answered, the fire of indignation giving back to
her eyes the sparkle of the olden days: "And _you_ can ask that--you
from whom all the misery came? _He_ knew what had passed between you
and me before our marriage. _He_ trusted me, my life was blest; _you_
came between us and destroyed my happiness."

"Gently, gently, my fair Marguerite," he said, pleadingly; "you English
are a justice-loving people. Is it not your law that allows what they
call extenuating circumstances? That meeting between you and me need
never have taken place. If you remember, I warned you. I received no
answer. Silence gives consent. Was I less or more than human not to
avail myself of it?"

It was true--too true. Margaret hid her face in her hands, and when she
next spoke her voice was low and pleading: "Mr. L'Estrange, you are
cruel. Yes--God forgive me!--I was to blame, and He has punished me
sorely; but have pity on me--leave me here."

A smile played over his lips, but she could not see it; he drew nearer
to her and touched the folds of her dress with a hand that was burning.

"It is time it should end," he said, trying to gaze into her hidden
face, "It was all a mistake, a grand mistake. I should never have
allowed it, only I wanted faith. I dared not drag _you_ into any
uncertain future. Ah, my white pearl! who understands you so well as I?
Do you remember--shall I, can I, ever forget?--those few blessed days?
We were happy, Margaret--happy as children to whom the present is all;
the future was not even named between us, for when a cloud, born of the
North, your childhood's home, passed over your gentle mind, I was able
to dispel it. Those moonlight excursions on the silver water of fair
Venice--your friends were with us, yet we were alone, for the kindly
darkness made us almost forget their presence; the serenades--ah! I see
your memory is no worse than mine; the soft harmonies dying away in the
far distance as we sat together in our gondola, our hands clasped, our
souls rapt to ecstasy; the lessons in astronomy on those clear spring
evenings when you and _notre chère fillette_ scanned in turns the deep,
star-spangled sky; that day spent in exploring, Margaret--your pretty
coquetry had vexed me, but the soft golden radiance of pictured glass,
the sculptured marbles in that beautiful church, the Scalzi, soothed
my soul and I was at rest, your softly gleaming eyes telling of your
sympathy in my joy; the pictures, Margaret--our delight when we were
able to trace the hand of the greatest masters, and pronounce, without
guide or cicerone, on the authorship of one of our favorites,--yes,
these were pleasures. I sometimes think that they were pleasures too
pure, too high, for any but the gods, and in their jealousy they
dashed the cup of bliss from our lips. But," his voice deepened; he
drew so near to her that his hot, passionate breath fanned her cheek,
"they have given us one more chance. Shall we be wise and seize it?
Ah, _ma belle_! I see it passing. Happiness! think what that is; it
is not often offered to the dull sons and daughters of humanity, and,
Margaret, we have once rejected it."

He spoke, and gradually the bitterness seemed to pass from Margaret's
face. There came into her eyes a lustrous shining to replace the fierce
light with which she had greeted his first words; she even leant over
toward him and allowed him to touch her pale face with his strong,
nervous hand. For all was on his side for the moment. The strange,
wellnigh overpowering fascination he possessed--memory, imagination,
present loneliness and a certain bitter rising of indignation which the
readiness of her husband's mistrust and desertion could not but cause
her at times.

He saw his advantage. "It is not all forgotten, then, _ma bien-aimée_?"
he whispered tenderly. "That past beautiful time is still there--there
in the shrine of your pure heart. Tell me once for all, shall it
return? _He_ has forsaken you, insulted you by his mistrust; you owe
him no duty; and what is it that I ask of you? The restoration of your
friendship--nothing more."

The voice was soft, thrilling, full of an unspeakable pathos, and at
first as she heard her brain felt dizzy and a delicious languor seemed
to steal over her senses. It would be so sweet to yield, to renew in
her dull prime some of the fair joys of youth. Could she not accept his
friendship, for that, after all, is an every-day matter? He knew her
too well to presume.

And while she pondered, with a weakness utterly new to this fair, proud
woman, he stood before her, looking down upon her fixedly. Her eyes
fell before his. What met them? Nothing more novel than the Indian
scarf she usually wore. It had dropped from her shoulders and was
hanging on her arm.

A trifle at such a time, but do not life and its issues hang
sometimes on a thread? The scarf recalled Margaret to herself, for it
brought another past to her mind. It had been her husband's gift to
her--presented on the occasion of the little Laura's birth--and as
she glanced on it there came to her mind a host of gentle memories.
_His_ words, _his_ looks, his pride in her, the glad confidence of his
strong, young manhood,--she felt them once more around her like the
pale ghosts of a happy time gone by for ever; but they had been real
once, warm, living flesh and blood; and with their holy power they
warded off the tempter's influence.

Her first feeling was of burning shame and penitence. Was she then so
absolutely weak? Should it be possible for misery and loneliness even
to degrade her, to take from her that in which, through all her misery,
she had rejoiced--the proud consciousness of unshaken rectitude? For
even to listen to this man's blandishments was infinite degradation,
the dragging down of her white soul to the base level of his.

Thoughts like these rushed tumultuously into her mind as she looked
down still upon her husband's gift; and suddenly she drew herself back
shivering, as one might do who had been standing unconsciously close to
the edge of a great abyss.

He did not understand her gesture. The soft look was still in his eyes,
and he made a movement to take her in his arms. But the new strength of
her soul, born of the agonizing penitence for that _one_ weak thought,
seemed to have given to her the power she needed. She thrust out both
her hands before her, pushing him back so rudely that he stumbled some
steps down the sand-cliff; but he soon recovered his footing. With
a look in which pleading and indignation were mingled he tried to
approach her; she kept him off still.

"Leave me! leave me!" she cried "What have I said, what have I done,
that you should look at me like this?" And then she covered her face
with both hands. "My God! my God!" she moaned, piteously; "has even
good forsaken me?"

Middlethorpe dinner-hour was over. The sun had passed its meridian
height, the shadows of shrub and cliff were beginning to lengthen,
and with the drawing on of evening came a moaning, sighing wind that
ruffled the pale waters at their feet. It seemed an echo of Margaret's
wail.

Her persecutor had turned from her; apparently he could control himself
no longer. Taking a stone, he threw it far out into the sea: it was
the angry gesture of a child whose will has been crossed. He walked a
few steps along the path that skirted the cliff, but it seemed as if
he could not go finally. He went back to where he had left her sitting
mute and helpless.

"I thought you had gone," she said, flashing up at him a glance that
was not pleasant to meet.

He looked down upon her with apparent calmness, though all his pulses
were quivering with rage and disappointment: "I have not much more to
say, _ma belle_, for I fear you are in earnest this time. What a fool I
was to imagine for one moment that you possessed a heart! Go your own
way, then; starve yourself of all happiness, die, for the sake of your
husband, the man who has cast you off. But--you remember the old days;
I was always something of a prophet, and my predictions came to pass--I
tell you this: a trouble--one _I_ could have averted--is hanging over
you still. You shake your head, you have suffered to the extent of
suffering. Bah! in all hearts there is one assailable point. You are
not superhuman, _ma reine_. It is possible that your husband, the man
who loved you once, may be nearer than you dream, and thinking other
thoughts than yours."

What could he mean? Margaret looked up wildly, for he was turning from
her to the winding path that led down the sand-cliff to the sea. "Stay,
stay!" she cried.

He looked round at her. "Madam," he said politely, with the bow of
a courtier, "it is my turn to be obdurate. I would fain obey you--I
cannot: your refusal of all friendly offices has sealed my lips, and
time presses. Farewell! The humblest of all your devotees kisses your
hands and wishes you joy."




PART II.

A MAN AT WAR WITH HIMSELF.

       *       *       *       *       *

CHAPTER I.

_MAURICE GREY._

    But the living and the lost--
      For _them_ our souls must weep;
    For them we suffer a yearning pain
      That will not let us sleep.


A change. From the shores of the gray British seas to those of the
grayer Baltic--from the yellow sands and purple moors of Yorkshire to
the wellnigh boundless forests and plains of Western Russia--thousands
of miles of wood, lake and river, only diversified by some few castles
and villages.

It was July, hot and radiant, but in the depths of those woods coolness
is always attainable. By one of the broad silver lakes, under a group
of birches that rose gracefully from its shores, a young man was
resting through the noontide.

He appeared to be a hunter, for his horse was tethered to one of the
trees and a brace of fine hounds were baying out their impatience at
his side. But for these dumb companions he seemed to be alone, and
yet all the accessories spoke of comfort. A kind of table had been
extemporized at his feet, and on it a large meat-pasty, some bread and
salt, a knife and fork and a flask of sherry were lying. He had not
done much justice to the provisions; he was leaning back against the
tree and looking out over the lake, a kind of disgust in his fine face.
Suddenly, bethinking himself, he raised two fingers to his lips and
gave a prolonged whistle.

It brought from the surrounding woods two stately-looking Russians,
long-bearded and sedate. Their master pointed to the provisions before
him--a gesture which was evidently understood without difficulty, for
they carried away the food, retired respectfully to some distance, and
soon made a great inroad into both pasty and bread, packing up what was
left in a small haversack which one of them carried on his back. The
other then approached his master and made a low bow.

"Time to mount?" said the young man, evidently English from his
appearance and accent. "Ha! so much the better."

The horse was untethered, wiped down admiringly, and held in readiness
by the bearded Russian, his companion in the mean time bringing out
two stout little ponies from the trees. And in a few moments the small
cavalcade was ranging the woods.

The black eagle was flapping its great wings above them, feathered
fowl of a thousand varieties were twittering on the branches of the
trees. Many of the coverts might harbor the wolf or lynx; in the reach
of meadow to which a forest-glade might lead the gigantic elk would
probably be resting with her young.

It was a position to exhilarate the coldest brain, and the Englishman,
who took the lead into the forest, did not look particularly torpid.

He was monarch, too, of all he surveyed, for one of the hospitable
nobles of Courland had given his guest a free permission to shoot not
only through his estates, which were sufficiently vast, but through
those of his neighbors; indeed, the whole province was free to Maurice
Grey. With gun and dogs he might traverse the wilds of Courland in all
their length and breadth.

To an Englishman, a lover of sport for its own sake, could any position
be more delightful? He seemed to feel this. Mounted on his horse, a
fine little mare of Arab extraction, his keen sportsman's eye scanning
the depths of wood, his ear intent on the faintest sound, he looked
another man from the jaded, weary traveller resting listlessly on the
shores of the silver lake.

But the dogs looked uneasy; there was a rustling in the underwood; the
dry fallen leaves crackled ominously. He cocked his gun. Hist! a long,
gray-looking animal, gliding ghost-like out of the bush, but not within
range. It was a fierce she-wolf--the terror of the neighborhood; this
the Englishman discovered, and then the chase began. The wily dogs
urged her out into the open; bewildered she fled before them--long,
swift, seemingly untiring. With bellies to the ground, and legs that
seemed barely to skim it, followed the noble hounds, and after them
their master, urging them on by his voice, till dogs, wolf and horseman
seemed to fly over the plain.

On, on, leaving the Russian servants and ponies in the far distance,
the forest behind, the blue distance before them, till at last the wolf
grew weary, her pace perceptibly flagged: she tried to stand at bay,
but exhaustion overcame her; the hounds were on her haunches; they
pinned her to the ground till the voice of their master called them
off, and a shot put an end for ever to the robber of Russian hen-roosts
and the terror of Russian babies.

Various other feats were performed that day, each exciting in its kind;
and when the young Englishman, who had ridden far into the short,
bright night of that season, rested at last in a kind of log-built
hunting-lodge, where the hospitable owner of the estate had always a
few necessaries in readiness for the guests of the hunt, he was quite
ready for refreshment and repose. He partook of the provisions put
before him by his servants, bathed in the river that flowed at no great
distance, and laid himself down to rest, rejoicing in the glorious
solitude, in the freedom from anxiety, in the triumph of having found
one pursuit that could put to flight, even for a time, haunting care
and cruel retrospect.

But the triumph was short. The few hours of night passed, and kindly
sleep would hold his restless spirit no longer. With the gray dawning
Maurice lifted his head from his couch and looked around him. The
Russian servants, wrapped in sheepskins, were lying on mats at his
feet, fast asleep; even the hounds were silent and motionless, wearied
with their day of hard work. The neighborhood of the sleepers was
oppressive. He rose and wandered out into the little clearing in the
midst of which the hut was built.

Yes, this was solitude, true solitude, without excitement of any kind
to fill it; and as Maurice looked listlessly at the sun rising over the
woods he tried to persuade himself that it was delightful. Far from the
babble of false men and falser women, not even the rising of a thin
wreath of smoke in the far distance telling of their existence,--this
was what he had been seeking, and hitherto seeking in vain. He seated
himself on the trunk of a fallen tree to look this great loneliness in
the face and realize the comfort of his position, but it would not do.

Insensibly, as he thought and gazed, came visions of the past, dreams
of the future, like weird, shapeless demons whom memory had robed in
horrors to rob him of his peace and fill his solitude with care. For
Maurice Grey had loved as some men can and do love, throwing all the
strength of their nature into this one thing. And he had lost, not by
the hand of death--so pitiless when put forth to take the loved--but
by a something more dread, more pitiless still--the discovery of his
lady's falsehood. Oh, he had honored her, trusted her, given her his
all; and what had he found? That through the long years they had passed
together in such perfect harmony her heart had been not his, but
another's. He had given all; she had given nothing--worse than nothing.
And in the bitter revulsion of feeling consequent on the discovery he
had not waited for explanations; he had left her, vowing, in a vow that
came from the very depths of his stricken heart, not to look upon her
fair, false face again.

Since then he had been striving after forgetfulness. He would not hear
of her, he would not ask about her. In the various business letters
that necessarily passed between him and his solicitor in England--for
he was a man of some property--_her_ name was never mentioned. He had
left amply sufficient for her maintenance. The property she had brought
was paid over to her without the slightest reference to him. Thus, he
considered, bare duty was fulfilled, and for anything further--bah!
woman-like, would she not rejoice in the absence of restraint? It was
possible that he might desire to have a voice in the education of his
child; about his wife he would trouble himself no further.

But the mind is volatile and independent; it receives not the "Thou
shalt not" with which poor mortals would fetter it. Over flood and
field, through cities and solitudes, Maurice had been wandering with
this one idea--to banish for ever from his mind the beautiful, haunting
face of his lost Margaret--and all was in vain. More persistently than
ever it returned on this morning in the wilds, looking at him with her
lustrous eyes, speaking to him with her sweet, low voice, maddening him
with the cruel recollections it brought of loss and shame.

For in a case of this kind the man is, perhaps, a greater sufferer than
the woman. True, he can wander hither and thither, throwing himself
into the stirring life of the world--business, pleasure, excitement;
but in the deep, strong nature the sting remains, bitter, poignant,
ever present; not the soft sadness of the weaker sex, which in many
cases, stooping down under the stroke, reaps the reward of submission
in a certain gradual dulling of the pain; but the fierce, angry
plunging of a soul that will not yield to dire necessity--that will not
look its sorrow in the face and bear it.

And no trial is fitter to raise this ceaseless tempest in the spirit
than that under which Maurice was smarting. He had trusted in her as he
trusted in his God; she had been to him the embodiment of all that is
good, pure, beautiful in womankind, and the discovery of her treachery
was like the breaking away of solid ground from beneath his feet.

From that moment he believed in nothing. Writhing under the bitter pain
of the wound inflicted on him, he would yet show no signs of weakness.
He would forget; he would cut the ties that bound him to the past; he
would tear her from his heart. In the struggle his nature seemed to
change. He whom Margaret had loved for his gentle thoughtfulness, his
manly courage, his geniality, his bright, joyous spirit, became another
man. Irritable, morose, cynical, gayest among the gay at the festive
season, though of his laughter it might have been said that it was mad,
of his mirth that it was "the crackling of thorns under a pot;" at
other times dull and listless, uneasy, changeable, passionate. These
were some of his characteristics after many months' wandering. And
he felt the change; sometimes he professed to rejoice in it. He told
himself that he was getting hardened--that soon, soon, the past would
be as though it had not been; but there was a secret consciousness
within which told him that this could not be.

Such was the feeling which spoke to him on that still July morning
through the solitude till he could bear his own society no longer.
He returned to the hut, awoke his servants with some roughness, and
intimated to them, in the best Russian he could command, that he was
tired of wandering; he would return to their lord's castle that day,
and then join him and his family in St. Petersburg.

The Russians bowed simultaneously. They were accustomed to the caprices
of their lord, and did not show the least surprise at this sudden
termination, after two or three days, of an excursion that was to have
lasted at least a fortnight.

They escorted their lord's guest to the castle, and on the same evening
Maurice Grey left it for a St. Petersburg mansion.




CHAPTER II.

_SOCIETY VERSUS SOLITUDE._

    Come, let us to the hills, where none but God
    Can overlook us; for I hate to breathe
    The breaths and think the thoughts of other men.


A few days later and the wilds of Courland were given up, as far as
Maurice Grey was concerned, to the animals that ranged them; he was in
St. Petersburg, installed as a welcome guest in the grand city mansion
of Count ----, one of the Courland nobles, his son, who had mixed in
the best society of both London and Paris, having been for some time
one of Maurice Grey's warmest friends.

Into the gay life of his brilliant city the young man welcomed his
English friend with the utmost cordiality, and Maurice was soon
immersed in a round of gayeties. It was a good time to see St.
Petersburg, for all the misery of the spring melting of ice and snow
was over. The stately Neva, clear as crystal and covered with craft of
every description, was flowing in full magnificence after its winter
sleep through the streets and piazzas of the city. The highways were
full of vehicles, from the grand carriage-and-four of the general or
prince to the plain hired droshki that seemed ubiquitous. Pleasure was
the order of the day in the city, for all, high and low, rich and poor,
were revelling in the charms of the short-lived summer-time.

Maurice threw himself into this new life with the utmost eagerness.
French is the language of the _crème de la crème_ in St. Petersburg,
and as he was master of the seductive mistress of conversation, his
ignorance of Russian by no means interfered with any of his amusements.
And he entered into them thoroughly. Lounging about on the Prospekt or
Grand English Quay in the morning with a few young Russians; flirting
with pretty French coquettes, or rarer Russian beauties, in the ladies'
afternoon receptions; floating at night in the grand barge of one of
the princes on the wide Neva, in company of the fair and gay and to the
sounds of delicious music; dancing far into the morning and supping
with the dawn;--this was the life of St. Petersburg, and for some days
he enjoyed it thoroughly. One thing was certain: it allowed very little
time for thought. But he had not the constitution or power of endurance
of some of his Russian friends. A week or two of this hard life knocked
him up. He was compelled to rest, whether he would or no. And then
reaction came. The crowd and bustle were once more hateful to him.
Biliousness, that great foe of the fashionable, cast its jaundiced veil
over his eyes. He began to loathe the luxurious saloons and crowded
rooms and made-up beauties--to long again for his own society, for the
scenes of Nature, for the solitude from which he had only just escaped.

    "Be thine own heart thy palace, or the world's a jail,"

said the great Shakespeare. The world was a jail to Maurice Grey
because of the bitterness his heart contained; and, unhappily, go where
we will, we cannot escape the world, or that throbbing, torturing
consciousness of good and evil, of pain and delight, that mortals call
the heart. He could not hide his cynicism; like the thorn that the
rose-leaves conceal, it peeped out when it was least expected, and
the fair ladies with whose society he pleased himself began gayly to
question him on the mysterious cause of his gloomy ideas.

This alarmed Maurice. His wound was of such a kind as to be sensitive
to the lightest touch. He could not bear that what he looked upon as
his dishonor should be the common talk of his associates. It was this
that had made him leave England and break all connection with those
who had known him there. When, therefore, it became the custom of his
fair St. Petersburg friends to question him curiously about his past,
to suggest a probable history in his dark, melancholy eyes, to speak
to him with sentimental pathos about life and love, he took fright;
and to the grief of his many friends--for the Englishman had become
the fashion in St. Petersburg--announced his intention of departure.
Loud and long was the opposition, and Maurice grew weary of the delay
and sick of the great city before his friends would allow him to go;
but at last they were left behind him. With no companion, not even a
servant this time, he was travelling through the length and breadth of
Russia, by her scattered cities and vast plains, to Moscow, the ancient
capital; there only a few hours, and then on once more, for Russia had
become distasteful to him.

He would scarcely pause, for he was in a fever to be on, on and away,
far from the vexations of "towered cities" and their "busy hum"--far,
if it were possible, even from men. There was a little village that he
had known in happier days. It was far up in the Swiss mountains; it was
lonely, save for the coming and going of tourists, and even these did
not honor it with their presence for long. Two glaciers stooped down
into its valley, and it was watched evermore by pillars of purest snow.
There, perhaps, in the savage grandeur of holy Nature, he might find
the rest for which he craved, and with a feverish anxiety he pressed on
to his goal.

Switzerland at last!--a mountain-pass, snow-crowned hills, land-locked
lakes and white foaming torrents. A certain satisfaction glowed in the
breast of the world-weary man as he looked out upon it all.

He and his sorrow seemed dwarfed, for the moment, by the grand
magnificence of the world as God made it--not the world of cities, but
the world of Nature. _His_ hand was visible in the grouping of the
Alpine giants, in the variegated beauty of their hidden vales, and
beneath that hand the traveller felt himself.

Of carriages and mules he would have none. With his staff in his hand
he crossed the mountains, courting the healthy physical weariness,
sure precursor of that which denies itself to the brain overwrought by
excitement--blessed sleep. And with the exertion and consequent rest
his health returned, his muscles played freely, Life carried on her
great functions with ease. By the time he had reached Grindelwald, the
little village in which he intended to stay for some time, even some
of his cynicism had melted. Doubtless it was only for the time. Nature
can do much, but she cannot really draw the sting of bitter aching from
the heart, or give back to the spirit the brightness and elasticity of
that fresh time when men are divine and women are earth-angels, and
the world is a region of enchantment, a "palace of delights;" even the
eternal snows and the grand sights and sounds of the mountain-country
may pall upon the eyes and sicken the disappointed heart. For in human
nature are the elements of the divine--its infinite cravings only the
Infinite can fill. Beautiful as God's world may be, it is powerless to
fill the heart or satisfy the soul of man. Hither and thither he may
wander; like the dying poet Shelley's marvellous creation,

    "Nature's most secret steps
    He, like her shadow, may pursue;"

and yet for the haunting vision, the great unfound loveliness, the
unfelt joy, his spirit may sicken unceasingly.




PART III.

A DOUBLE MYSTERY.

       *       *       *       *       *

CHAPTER I.

_PARTIAL DISCOVERIES._

                 She seemed to be all nature,
    And all varieties of things in one;
    Would set at night in clouds of tears, and rise
    All light and laughter in the morning; fear
    No petty customs nor appearances,
    But think what others only dreamed about,
    And say what others did but think, and do
    What others would but say, and glory in
    What others dared but do.


"I have no sympathy for you, Adèle--not the slightest."

So spoke Mrs. Churchill, standing by a sofa in her boudoir with a glass
of port in the one hand and a bottle of quinine in the other, giving
careful attention to the dripping of a certain number of drops from the
bottle to the glass.

Her young daughter was on the sofa, looking rather languid and worn.
She raised her head, supporting it on her elbow, and her voice was a
little peevish as she answered, "I have told you, mamma, that I don't
want either sympathy or medicine."

"In the name of all that's sensible try and tell me what you _do_ want,
child!"

"I want to see Arthur." Adèle blushed as she spoke.

"To see Arthur, indeed!" Here Mrs. Churchill passed the
carefully-prepared dose to her daughter. "You are a pretty pair! I
imagine he wants quinine and sea-air as much as you do. And now,
forsooth, he must turn studious, ambitious of literary distinction,
and what not. The next thing I shall hear about him is that he has
taken to the editing of a popular journal. Really, young people of
the present day are past my comprehension altogether, and, Adèle, you
and Arthur carry matters to the verge of absurdity. You fall in love
simultaneously with a pretty widow--whether a widow or not, Goodness
alone knows--you suspend your own engagement for a time, as you assure
one another, by mutual consent, and then begin the process of fading
away, Arthur throwing himself into literature, and you into so-called
charity; but, my dear"--here Mrs. Churchill grew severe--"_I_ have
always heard that charity begins at home. If charity consists in making
your mother's life miserable, and allowing all kinds of absurd notions
in the head of the man who is to be your husband (for I believe that
these new follies can't possibly outlive your teens), then, so far as I
am concerned, the less of charity the better."

Adèle during this harangue had turned her face from her mother. The
answer came from the depths of the sofa-cushion in which she had buried
her face: "I wish I hadn't told you, mamma."

"Happily, I found out the greater part for myself." Mrs. Churchill was
still severe. "Upon my word, Adèle, it was dutiful to begin such a
correspondence without your mother's consent or knowledge; but perhaps
I have spoken and thought enough on that subject already. Apropos of
this Mrs. Grey of yours, I have heard something which will probably
interest you. Of course it is not for me to say whether her name is
really Mrs. Grey, but some of the incidents in the stories I heard seem
to fit in rather strangely."

"Mamma!" In Adèle's excitement she rose to a sitting posture on the
sofa and her cheeks flamed suddenly into an angry crimson. "You may say
what you like; _I_ know that Margaret Grey is good and true, and it's
too bad to believe in nobody."

Her excitement rather alarmed good Mrs. Churchill. "Adèle! Adèle!" she
said, "_do_, like a good child, make an effort to be reasonable. The
next thing will be brain fever if you excite yourself in this way.
Silly little goose! try and believe that your mother knows more of the
world than you do. Some of these days you will be wiser."

"Never so wise, I hope, as to think ill of everybody," said Adèle, half
sobbing after her excitement.

"Well! well!" said her mother soothingly, "only be patient and I will
admit that everybody is angelic; indeed, after all, why should I take
the trouble of pointing out the fallacy? Circumstances will do that
for you before you have lived many more years in the world. But about
this Mrs. Grey. Very good I must call her to spare your feelings, and
doubtless very beautiful, or she could not have taken such violent
possession of the heart and head of my impulsive little daughter. It
is a pity, by the bye, Adèle, that Providence did not see fit to make
you a boy. It would have been possible then for you to have devoted
life and fortune to this interesting person, only I'm not so sure that
there's not a lingering weakness for Arthur in your contradictory
little heart. There, my dear! don't blush about it; you will certainly
have no roses for the evening if you expend them so liberally now, and
pale cheeks don't suit your style."

"As if I cared about my style, mamma!"

"Well, if you don't, Adèle, I do; and as, at your age, rouge would be
rather absurd, I must beg you to give us some of those pretty little
blushes this evening. Perhaps you may be able to persuade Arthur to
leave his books for a few hours and escort us to Lady C----'s. Is
music, by the bye, among the vanities to which he has sworn undying
hatred? Signor Mario has promised her a song, and--ah! I am so bad at
names!--the great violinist--you remember, Mr. Godolphin was so wild
about him--has promised to attend. But really, Adèle," Mrs. Churchill
gave an impatient sigh, "one might think you a worn-out woman of the
world, or six seasons out at least; you take not the slightest interest
in anything I tell you."

Adèle reddened: "I beg your pardon, mamma. No doubt it will be
pleasant, and the beautiful new necklace you gave me to-day will be the
very thing to wear. If Arthur comes in I shall ask him; but what were
you saying a few minutes ago about Mrs. Grey?"

"That interests you far more than either soirée or necklace, I do
believe. I wonder how it is, Adèle, that you are so _very_ different
from other girls at your age? What I have heard is, after all, not
much; and mind, if it excites you I shall leave off telling you _at
once_. It does not redound particularly to the credit of your friend."

Again Adèle buried her face in the sofa-pillow: "Who told you, mamma?"

"You remember that handsome young Russian at Mrs. Gordon's the other
night. He took me in to supper, and we got into conversation. Very
frank and open these foreigners are--there is none of that English
reserve about them. He told me at once what brought him to London. It
seems he is in search of an English friend, a certain Maurice Grey,
who, after having made himself quite the rage in St. Petersburg (he
was staying with the young count's father), suddenly disappeared,
leaving no trace behind him. He would not let his friends know where
he was going, nor did he write a single line to tell of his safe
arrival at any point in his journey. It appears that one and another
in St. Petersburg began talking about him, and it came out that he had
let fall certain mysterious hints about a great sorrow, weariness of
life, and so on--in your romantic style, Adèle. Whether he only wished
to make himself interesting to the ladies--who seem to have been the
chief movers of the rumor--does not precisely appear: I should think
it highly probable. However, St. Petersburg society took a different
view. When a week passed and nothing was heard of Maurice Grey, his
friends killed him--that is, they determined among themselves that he
had killed himself. There seems to have been quite a fever of anxiety
about the young man's fate. At last the young count, to satisfy his
fair relatives and friends--himself also, for he firmly believes in his
English guest, mystery and all--came over here, thinking that in London
he might find some clue to his whereabouts. And now comes the part of
the story which may perhaps fit in with yours. There are a good many
Greys, so I did not particularly interest myself until Count ----
informed me by way of sequel that during a former visit of his to London
his friend, Maurice Grey, had married one of the most beautiful women he
had ever seen. It was, of course, the prevailing idea in St. Petersburg
that a woman had something to do with the Englishman's gloom, and as
he never made the faintest allusion to his wife, it had been presumed
that her conduct after marriage had caused a separation or a scandal
of some kind. Count ---- has set on foot an inquiry about this person.
Mrs. Grey--Margaret, he told me, was her Christian name--must certainly
be still living. He heard of her from her man of business, but her
place of residence is, for some reason, kept a profound secret."

Adèle had risen from the sofa. She was listening to her mother's tale
with earnest eyes fixed on her face. When it was over she gave a low,
deep-drawn sigh: "Maurice, mamma? Are you sure his name was Maurice?"

"The Englishman's, Adèle? Yes, Count ---- called him by that name once
or twice in the course of our conversation."

Adèle clasped her hands: "Then there can be no doubt it is the same.
That will explain her sadness. Some fearful misunderstanding has come
between them. Oh how I wish I could see Count ----! or if Arthur would
only come! Perhaps--mamma, how delightful it would be!--perhaps we
shall be able to set it all right--to make her happy again!"

Mrs. Churchill groaned: "I thought my story would have had the effect
of curing you, Adèle; and now I believe you are actually farther gone
than ever with your enthusiasm and your poetic notions. _When_ shall
I teach you that all this is childish? '_Perhaps_ you will set all
right'--'make her life happy!' Perhaps, rather, you will obey your
mother, and have nothing further to do with a person who has deceived
her husband and is otherwise not at all correct. Why, if I don't very
much mistake--and I can say, without boasting, I think that I am always
pretty well up in these matters--before the season is over your Mrs.
Grey will be the talk of every dinner-table in London, for Count ----
tells his story freely, and he seems to have the _entrée_ everywhere.
'Miss Churchill's particular friend'--that would be a pleasant addition
to the tale when repeated with sundry additions, my dear, in our circle
of acquaintance. Thank Goodness! Arthur is the only person who knows
anything of your absurd adventure, and his tongue is happily tied."

Adèle looked up indignantly: "Don't think that _I_ shall hide from
anybody my friendship for Margaret Grey," she said; "_you_ may feel
ashamed--_I_ glory in it. All I regret is that I did so little for her
when I had the opportunity." Then, softening, "If you had once seen
her, mamma, you could never have believed these cruel tales."

"I should have instantly fallen under the spell, no doubt, like you
and Arthur? No, Adèle, it is long since a pretty face affected me so
powerfully; indeed, I never remember being so absurdly romantic as
you are. But, dear me! there are visitors; you look rather pale, so I
suppose, for this one afternoon, I must let you off and leave you here
with your book."

Mrs. Churchill really loved her daughter, though she did not quite
understand her, but she was certainly tolerably gentle toward what she
looked upon as her follies. She stooped and kissed her on the brow
before she left the room, saying, with something between a smile and a
sigh, "Ah, my dear, perhaps some day you will understand your mother
better."

Adèle returned the caress affectionately, but it was a relief to her
when the door of her mother's boudoir closed behind her and she was
left alone to think and plan, for the story of the Russian had thrown a
new light on the subject that had engrossed her so much since that May
afternoon in the Academy.




CHAPTER II.

_GO AND SEE HER._

    Love's very pain is sweet.


Miss Churchill was not allowed to indulge long in the luxury of
solitude. Her mother had scarcely left her before there was a
well-known knock at the hall door, followed after a few moments'
interval by a short, intimate tap at the door of the sitting-room, and
Adèle rose from her sofa and held out both hands eagerly to greet her
cousin.

Perhaps he did not respond with sufficient warmth to her impulsive
welcome, for the light of pleasure died quickly out of her face, she
sank languidly into a chair and plunged headlong into commonplaces.
"Are you going to Lady C----'s to-night, Arthur?" she asked; "I hear
there's to be some first-rate music."

"That means, I suppose, that you and Aunt Ellen want an escort."

"That _means_ nothing of the kind, Arthur. Surely mamma is old enough
to take care of herself and me without _your_ assistance."

"Pray don't take offence at such a small thing, Adèle. They say, you
know, that people who take offence lightly are in want of a real
grievance."

"Heaven knows I needn't look far for a grievance when you are
concerned," said Adèle bitterly.

"You are the most forbearing of your sex, my fair cousin," returned he
with provoking coolness. "In humble emulation of your patience behold
me a willing listener to this list of grievances."

He spoke with a half smile, then threw himself back in an arm-chair
and assumed an appearance of rapt attention; but Adèle turned away to
hide a treacherous tear. "I wonder how it is that we never meet without
quarrelling now," she said plaintively.

He shrugged his shoulders: "That, I fancy, is your affair, my little
cousin; you seem to take a delight in snapping me up, now-a-days; which
being the case, what can I do but submit and give your woman's wit
material to work upon?"

Adèle pouted: "Of course it is anybody's fault but your own, Arthur;
but that's always the way with boys--_they_ can't possibly be in fault."

Arthur rose from his seat: "This may be, and no doubt is, highly
interesting to you, Adèle. I can't say that I feel the charm of
sparring; but then, as you politely observe, I am only a boy, and boys
are often unappreciative of women's fine sallies, therefore I think the
_boy_ must beg to be excused."

He held out his hand. Adèle was on the point of taking him at his
word and allowing him to leave her, but when she looked up at him
her mood changed suddenly, for, after all, only her affection had
made her peevish. It was a difficult task Adèle had set herself on
that day when Arthur first let her into the secret of his love. She
had begun grandly. In her, as in many of her sisters, the spirit of
self-sacrifice was strong. On the altar of her great love for her
cousin, her enthusiastic admiration for the woman of his choice,
she had been ready to immolate everything; she would throw her own
wishes, her hopes, her future joy to the winds, so that they might
be happy; and if in that first moment she could have consummated her
sacrifice, could have given them one to the other, she would have done
it freely, whatever it might have cost herself. But the daily annoyance
her sacrifice entailed; the obligation of listening to her cousin's
rhapsodies; the knowledge that though with her in body his mind was far
away; even the light way in which he treated her unselfish exertions in
his interest,--all these were somewhat hard to bear.

In the conflict Adèle's health was giving way; she grew peevish and
irritable. Her gayety and lightheartedness departed, she was not the
amusing companion she had once been, and her cousin's visits were in
consequence fewer. When he _did_ come, it was only to pour out his
heart on the subject which engrossed him--Margaret Grey. Generally she
listened patiently, with an appearance of interest and sympathy; and
this was all he desired. Arthur did not mean to be unkind--he was one
of the most good-natured of his sex--but he had been so much accustomed
to consider that what interested him would of necessity interest Adèle
that he could not have thought he was giving her pain, and with his
every visit planting pin-pricks in her poor little heart.

When, therefore, as sometimes happened in these days--for Adèle's
weakness was beginning to prey upon her nerves--she showed herself
impatient, was unsympathetic or irritable, Arthur was, as on this
occasion, surprised and offended, and deprived her for some days of the
pleasure of his society.

But this time Adèle would not let him go off in ill-temper. She looked
up, and her woman's heart was moved to self-forgetfulness. "Don't go
yet, dear," she said, her voice trembling in spite of strenuous efforts
to be calm; "you must forgive my pettishness. I think what mamma says
is true. I can't be very well just now. And _you_ look pale and ill,
my poor old fellow; you shut yourself up too much with your books. You
should leave London and go to some seaside place for a time."

"I scarcely think the _books_ are to blame, Adèle." Arthur gave a
little sigh and glanced furtively at the mirror. Through all his new
earnestness he had preserved the boyish weakness of a certain pleasure
in interesting delicacy. "One must do something," he continued, pacing
the room restlessly, "and I've been too long an idle good-for-nothing.
I think I have literary tastes. I have been looking up the classics
with a view to a novel--something in Bulwer's style, you know, the
scene laid in Athens during her palmy days; or perhaps Palmyra, with
all the details in the true antique. My heroine must be Greek, fine
classic features, and that kind of thing. I have a grand description in
my head. Shall I give it to you?"

Adèle smiled: "I think I could give it myself. Certainly I know the
model. Am I right?"

Arthur had taken a seat again; he buried his head in his hands: "I
have had such a mad idea, Adèle. But no; to do _her_ justice in any
description would be impossible, absolutely impossible. It's easy
enough to write about dark eyes and fine features and golden hair, but
that would not be Margaret. It is the wonderful look in her face, that
kind of spiritual beauty belonging neither to form nor coloring, which
gives it its chief charm."

"You are eloquent, dear," said Adèle with a little sigh; "if you write
your book in that way, I think it must certainly be a success."

"Yes," said he pensively, "the public like reality, but, you see, one
can't always give it. These kinds of things look cold on paper. If I
could show you my multitudinous attempts in prose and verse to give
some idea of her! but they were all poor and wishy-washy. The greater
number enriched the ashes of my grate. I am a good-for-nothing, and I
_shall be_ a good-for-nothing to the end of the chapter."

There was something of weariness and bitter self-contempt in Arthur's
voice. It made Adèle's heart ache for him. She knelt down by his side
and put one of her arms round his neck. It was more the gesture of a
tender little mother with her child than of a woman with the man she
loves, for this protecting motherliness was one great element in the
affection of Adèle for her cousin. No doubt it was this in a great
measure that rendered it so unselfish. As a little child she had taken
upon herself the punishment of his small faults--as a grown-up girl she
sought to shield him from every kind of ill.

"Don't despair, dear," she said gently; "there is something for you to
do--to do for _her_, if you can be wise and generous, and put yourself
out of the way altogether. Do you remember, Arthur" (Adèle's voice
grew soft and the tears were in her eyes), "how you used to come and
sit here in the afternoon while I read to you from the _Faërie Queene_
about those grand young knights going out in search of adventures--to
rescue women and kill dragons and evil things? And sometimes we used
to wish that those days would come back, and I imagined how I would
send you out, all clothed in bright armor, to do great deeds in the
world. Dear, I think your time for this has come. You are a true
knight, you will forget yourself, you will burn to redress a great
wrong--especially when she, your Margaret, is the victim."

Adèle's words were exciting. Arthur could barely listen with patience
to the end of her tender little harangue, for a great light was burning
behind it which set his spirit on flame. "Adèle," he cried eagerly,
"you have heard something new about her. Tell me at once."

"I heard it from mamma," she answered. And then, in as few words as
possible, she repeated the story of the young Russian. "I have no doubt
whatever about Margaret Grey being the Mrs. Grey in question," she
said in conclusion. "You remember what I told you about her strange
cry when she thought she was alone in the room. Maurice Grey must be
her husband. My idea is this: a misunderstanding is at the bottom of
their misery--for _he_ is evidently as miserable as she is--brought
about by some one who was in love with her before--that tall man,
very likely, who looked in at the window and frightened her so much.
A person who knew them both might possibly remove this and restore
them to happiness. Arthur, _you_ must be that person. There is only
_one_ drawback: _if_ the people in St. Petersburg should be right? if
he has killed himself? Can you conceive anything more dreadful, she
loving him all the time, as I know she does?" The idea turned Adèle
pale, but the hopefulness of youth reasserted itself. "I can't bring
myself to believe it," she said earnestly. "He got tired of all his
friends and the gayety, and they teased him, I dare say. It's not like
an Englishman to put an end to himself in that kind of way. No; I feel
convinced that he will be found yet; and, Arthur, _you_ must find him."

While Adèle had been speaking Arthur had turned away from her. He was
standing by the window, apparently watching the passers-by, but she
could see, by the glimpse of his face that was still visible, that he
was listening with intense interest.

A fierce struggle was going on in his heart. Adèle had often let him
know that in her earnest belief all his hopes were futile. Arthur had
hoped against hope. In spite of all she could say--in spite even of the
cruel facts that supported her theory--he reared in secret his airy
fabric of hopes and dreams. He would work--work day by day and hour by
hour. He should be known for a student, an author, a man of genius; not
as a boy, but as a man, with an acknowledged place in the world--a man
worthy of her, if that were possible (which fact the ardent lover of
both sexes is wont to doubt)--he would present himself before her with
the tale of his ever-faithful love.

She would be weary of solitude, she would be touched with his
perseverance, she would grant him all he could desire. It was thus he
always crowned his edifice, though the number of ways to its summit
might have been named Legion. Now painting, now poetry, now science,
now politics, would be the friendly genius that might bring him at last
to her feet.

And in one moment the whole was changed. He was called upon to forget
his dream or to expunge his own name from the fluted columns of his
mansion in the clouds--never an easy task. I wonder who builds these
_châteaux en Espagne_ without self for at least one of the habitants.

Unhappily, Adèle's tale carried conviction. But "None are so blind
as those who _will_ not see." Arthur _could_ not believe, because
he would not. He did not answer for a few moments, then he turned,
with a light laugh that sorely belied a certain haggard look in his
young face: "_You_ had better turn novelist, Adèle. Your _plots_ would
certainly be first-rate. Why, you have reared a mountain of certainty
out of a grain of conjecture. I don't believe it," he continued
fiercely. But in his very fierceness was the contradiction of his
words. "You pretend to care for her, and yet you can listen to all
these foolish tales!"

It was rather an unkind accusation, since Adèle had been doing her very
utmost to show how implicitly she believed in Margaret's innocence and
truth; but pain blinded Arthur for the moment, and made him cruel and
unjust.

Adèle saw how it was with him, and she did not even appear to resent
his words. "Sit down again, Arthur dear," she said gently. "I am as
anxious as you can be to get to the bottom of this mystery, but if we
would do anything we must be calm and have our wits about us."

"Say, rather, _I_ must," returned Arthur, throwing himself down on a
small chair at her feet and seizing one of her hands in a sudden access
of penitence. "What a brute I am, exciting you in this way, my poor
pale little cousin! Adèle, you are wise and kind: I put myself in your
hands. What shall I do?"

Adèle's lips quivered as if with a sudden pain, but the answer came
out clear and firm: "Go and see her, Arthur; find out the truth about
all this. I think when you have once heard her story you will be in no
further difficulty."

Arthur started up, his eyes glittering: "Shall I, Adèle? Can I? What if
I offend her?"

"You will not, Arthur. Take my advice; this time, I think, it coincides
with your own will. Pass me my writing-desk, dear. Here! this is the
address I have kept from you so long. Take it, my poor old fellow, and
go."

He took it up and looked at it with gleaming eyes, for behind it he
seemed to see the vision for which he had been thirsting so long. Adèle
had thrown herself back upon the sofa; she looked pale and exhausted.
From the little piece of paper Arthur had been studying so earnestly
he turned his eyes to her. Something in her pale face touched him. He
felt a sudden pang of self-reproach, and kneeling down by her side he
pressed one of her hands to his lips: "Adèle, you are an angel! I say
it in sober earnest, worthy of one far better and worthier and nobler
than I. Dear little cousin, I will take your advice. You shall see me
again only when my fate is sealed--when I have seen her. Forgive me,
and keep a little corner of your heart for me till my return."

"Good-bye, dear."

It was all Adèle could say for the tears that would not be restrained.
But she was happier. There was a feeling of settled calm in her heart
to which it had long been a stranger. She had done what she could; she
was willing to leave the rest.

He left her then, and she rose from the sofa to prepare for dinner and
the gayeties of the evening.




CHAPTER III.

_THE HOUSE IS EMPTY._

    All within is dark as night,
    In the windows is no light,
    And no murmur at the door,
    So frequent on its hinge before.


And in the mean time what was _she_ doing, the object of all this
solicitude, the unconscious origin of so many storms of feeling?

We left her on the sea-shore, the wide ocean before her, the cool
sands around her, with a white face and quivering nerves, and a heart
that was sick with aching. For the interview had tried her sorely, and
it left behind it no luminous trail, but rather a deep shadow that
seemed for the moment to kill even the faint hope which her spirit had
cherished through all its woe.

What she looked upon as her own miserable weakness terrified
her--filled her with a certain vague fear of such depths of darkness
before her as hitherto she had never known. Pitfalls seemed yawning
on every side. She was to herself like one who was drifting on alone,
unprotected--not even shielded by her woman's weakness--to meet
some terrible fate. Sitting there, her head buried in her hands, she
shivered and moaned, for the remembrance of that moment of weakness,
when, as it seemed, only a trifle had saved her from listening to the
honeyed words of the tempter, and putting herself partially, at least,
in his power, filled her with the bitterest humiliation.

Another remembrance agitated her cruelly as she cast her thoughts over
the interview. His last words had implied a mystery which her tortured
brain strove in vain to fathom.

Her husband, Laura's father! had the child's instinct been true? Could
he be near them? and if so, what did the threat mean? Could he, her
Maurice, have sought her with any but a friendly object? Yet this was
what her tormentor had foreshadowed in his mysterious words. She could
not cast them aside as unmeaning, the poison thrown out in the anger of
disappointment, for she knew L'Estrange. He never spoke meaninglessly,
and therefore his words had weight. Besides, he was one who understood
his kind--who could trace with the keen eye of a master the purposes of
those with whom he came into contact.

Observation and deduction had been carried by this strange man to such
an extent in the course of his ceaseless wanderings, that at last they
had reached almost the rank of a science. In ancient days his acuteness
would have earned for him the unenviable notoriety of the wizard; men
would have imagined that he had dealings with the powers of darkness.
Indeed, as it was, Margaret and her friends had often been perfectly
astounded by the accuracy of his predictions, based on grounds to them
undiscoverable, for they never failed of verification.

Connecting the past with the present, Margaret's brain--unhealthily
active in this her hour of deepest misery--began to trace for itself
a theory to account for the mysterious words, which clung to it like
a subtle poison. He had met her husband, she said to herself; he had
found out, by the marvellous power he possessed, that no friendly
purpose had brought him to the vicinity of his wife--that he was
hostile to her still, that some new misery was in store for her.

But what could it be? _Could_ her sufferings be increased? She had
risen from her seat. In the restlessness of her spirit movement
seemed a necessity. She had walked with unconscious rapidity to some
distance along the shore. Suddenly, as she reached this point in her
theory of possibilities, she stopped; covering her face with both
hands, she uttered a low cry and sank down upon the grassy edge of the
cliff. There had come to her mind, like a fatal knell, one sentence
of her tormentor's speech--"In all hearts there is _one_ assailable
point"--and it brought a picture to her mind.

She seemed to see the pensive, half-melancholy eyes, the golden curls,
the graceful, childish form of her little Laura, and as she saw she
realized what her affection for the child had become during the last
few weeks--how the little one was her hope, her joy, the sheet-anchor
of her soul.

But Laura was his. Could it be that he would take away her treasure
and punish her afresh by an added loneliness--by letting her know that
he felt her unworthy to be the guardian of his child after the age
when the young soul is plastic and open to impressions? It was unlike
Maurice. Ah, how unlike! pleaded the weary heart; but misery had been
known to change men utterly was the answer of the brain, grown morbid
by lonely pondering; and that Maurice, with his earnest craving for
sympathy, could have been anything but miserable through those long
months was impossible.

But he could not remove her without warning. He would see his wife,
he would speak to her; Heaven, in its mercy, would give her one more
opportunity. This she said to herself as she sat almost helpless by the
cliff, crushed by the dreary possibilities which this new presentiment
of evil had brought to her mind. And with this idea came a desire for
action. Even at that moment, as she sat there inert, he might be at the
cottage waiting with impatience for her return, wondering at her long
absence from his child.

She sprang to her feet and began rapidly to retrace her steps, skirting
the sand-cliff that rose up from the shore. By this time evening had
come. The little ones were being marshalled by their nurses for home
and bed, two or three loving pairs were pacing the yellow sands, the
sun was stooping down in ruddy glory to the rest of his ocean bed,
there was a fragrant steam from the fields of clover and cowslip, a
hush as of coming repose upon everything; but what can stay the tumult
of the soul?

Like the fabled Io of the Greek, she may wander hither and thither, the
lulling sounds and the restful sights of Nature may wrap their calm
around her, but only externally. When the gad-fly of stinging misery
follows evermore in her track, what are all these? Nothing, less than
nothing, or a mocking echo of that to which she can never attain.

Something of this Margaret felt that evening as, through the torturing
consciousness of a new possibility of anguish, she looked upon the fair
outer world. Nature was too calm, too fair--she was antagonistic to the
mood of the lonely, suffering woman.

Margaret had wandered farther than she thought, and the sun had
already dipped below the western horizon before she saw her cottage.
It was lying in the shadow, not touched by the sunset glory. To her
imagination, distraught by the experiences of the day, it looked cold
and blighted.

She stopped when she saw it. Almost it appeared to her as if she could
not go farther to meet the realization of her dread. Everything looked
so still--no little white fairy at the garden gate watching for mamma,
not a sound among the trees. How could she go on into the desolate
solitude? But, after a moment's pause, her strength returned. If the
blow had indeed fallen no delay could avert it. On then, up to the
little gate, through the garden, with still the same chilling silence.
No little face at the window, no sound of merry laughter, no light
bounding steps. The hall door was open; she passed in. With haggard
face she peered into the rooms, hoping against hope for a sight of that
tiny figure.

The child would be asleep perhaps, wearied out by the pleasant
fatigue of the bright day: she would be found behind sofa or ottoman
or curtains, curled up like a kitten, or tired out with watching for
mamma, she had thrown herself down on her little bed. Like one who
seeks thirstily for hid treasure, Margaret looked, her soul in her
eyes, into every nook and corner of her little domain: corners possible
and impossible she searched, for the mother's heart within was crying
out, and she could not despair until nothing else would be possible.
She was so absorbed in her hopeless task that she did not know she was
being watched, that a pair of lynx eyes, in which cool triumph was
shining, noted her every movement; that when at last, worn out and
despairing, she crept, like one who has received a death-wound, into
her sitting-room and threw herself down, almost lost to the knowledge
of what she was doing, upon hands and knees to the ground in her
exceeding agony, her servant was glorying in her fall, triumphing at
her expense; but so it was. Jane Rodgers's hour had come. Her lodger
was paying, and paying dearly, for her insolence.

She did not wish to be discovered, and she had seen enough to assure
herself that the blow had told. Retreating softly from the hall, with
a smile on her lips that was not a pleasant one to look upon, she
returned to her comfortable kitchen, leaving her mistress alone in her
agony.

Jane Rodgers had one anxiety. She muttered its import to herself as
she stooped over the fire to turn a piece of bacon which was frizzing
merrily for her tea. "Trouble _do_ sometimes kill people; it wouldn't
do to have a death in the house, and she looked queer; but there!
_she'll_ get over it, and perhaps be a trifle civiller for the future."

So even this anxiety, as it appeared, did not affect Jane very
severely. She lifted the frying-pan carefully from the fire, placed its
contents in a plate that had been warming in the oven, and sat down to
enjoy her tea in peace.

To Margaret it seemed as if all the glory had gone from earth. True,
her desolation had been grievous at times, but she had ever possessed
_some_ consolation; now in a moment all seemed rent from her. _Hope_,
for if he had ever wished to see her again in this world he would not
have taken away her little one; _love_, for the clinging affection
which had become so precious would nevermore surround her--Laura would
be taught to forget, perhaps even to despise, her mother; _peace_, for
if her husband was so terribly changed, how would he bring up their
daughter? and, doing his very best, _could_ he surround her with the
watchful care of a woman--a mother?--Laura, as her mother had learned,
was so sensitive and tender; _joy_, for she was alone, uncared for, a
widowed wife, a childless mother.

One after another came these cruel thoughts to crush her as she
crouched down upon the ground, plucking with nervous, aimless fingers
at the sofa-trimmings. For the last stroke had told. The poor heart
was incapable of bearing more. Margaret's mind was in danger. She was
standing, though she knew it not, on the border-land which skirts the
dark region of insanity. A little more of this heart-dissecting torture
and that numbing, more to be dreaded than the keenest pain, would
of necessity be the result, and the beautiful, fair-souled woman be
changed, by the mysterious action of disease, into a maniac, a pitiable
object in the sight of God and men. Was this last, this bitterest woe
reserved for her?

No: suddenly the consciousness of the new danger dawned upon her. She
caught the wild, wandering thoughts and sternly brought them to bay;
then, shuddering, she threw herself on her knees.

"My God," she cried piteously, "send me death in thy mercy--death
before madness--for I can bear no more, no more."

Her voice sank to a sobbing sigh, but the prayer seemed to have stayed
the fever of her brain. The white terror left her face; she even smiled
to feel the pain deadening, though with the deadening came a chill
that froze the warm life-blood in her veins. Her satisfaction was but
momentary. She staggered to her feet. Was this, then, the death she
had craved? And with a pang she recognized her folly, she would fain
have recalled her prayer; for life, sweet life, is precious, even to
the wretched, when they are called upon to face the dark reality we
call death. Life cannot be utterly reft of hope. To the most forlorn
it holds out a future, and what is this future but the possibility of
better things to come? The time might yet come when Margaret would be
able to look for another and more certain future--a future to which
death is but the prelude. That time had not yet arrived. Her treasures,
though swept from her grasp by the hand of a wayward fate, were still
in the warm lap of earth; and warm is that lap to the heart when its
withdrawal is threatened as a something not vaguely distant, but near
and certain.

It took but a moment for these thoughts to flash through Margaret's
brain, for stealthily the chill crept over her. She made a few steps
forward to gain the window, but it was too rapid for her. Gasping, she
fell back heavily to the ground.




CHAPTER IV.

_JANE'S REVENGE._

    For very fear unnethës may she go,
    She weeped, wailed, all a day or two,
    And swooned, that it ruthe was to see.


Jane Rodgers had discussed the bacon, and, as she was a tidy woman, the
plate was put carefully aside for washing while she ruminated quietly
over her last cup of tea--a particularly good one, black as ink, hot as
an earthenware pot that had been some time on the hob could make it,
rendered delicate by a few drops of rich, yellow cream, and extremely
palatable by two lumps of white sugar.

Jane was not always so extravagant, but tea was her weak point. Her
hard face looked almost pleasant for the moment, she was so thoroughly
comfortable.

Apparently the meditations that enlivened the kindly cup were of an
agreeable nature, for she smiled once or twice, and occasionally cast
a glance of infinite content on the dresser, where, nestling among the
bright crockery, lay a little knitted purse, from the meshes of which
something closely resembling yellow gold was gleaming. A large black
cat was purring by the fire; in her satisfaction Jane stooped and
stroked its soft fur caressingly. But nothing in the house seemed to be
stirring, and, in spite of her pleasant reflections and the abundant
comfort that surrounded her, Jane began to feel, as the darkness
gathered, a certain creeping sense of uneasiness. She addressed the
cat, for when people feel this loneliness even a dumb creature seems
a companion. "Pussy," she said, stooping again to caress it, "it's
lonesome here to-night. What's _she_ doing, I wonder, up there by
herself? We'll light the candles and take them up."

As Jane spoke she rose from her seat and stretched out her hand to take
the lucifer matches from the chimney-piece. But she did not draw it
back so quickly. Her hand was stayed by a sudden horror. The stillness
in the house was broken. There came from overhead the sound of a dull
thud, as if a body had fallen heavily to the ground. The sound was
followed by a silence more oppressive even than before.

Jane Rodgers was a coward, and like many uneducated people extremely
superstitious. The sound came from the room where she had left her
mistress about half an hour before, "looking," as she had expressed
it, "rather queer." She was the only person in the room; the sound had
come from a heavy fall. It must, then, have been Mrs. Grey herself who
had fallen. Had the trouble crushed her utterly? Was she dead? The bare
supposition sent every particle of blood from Jane's face. She turned
as pale as death. There rose up, in a grim host before her mind, some
of the many ghost-stories that are the terror of the ignorant. If she
were dead she would certainly return again to haunt the unfaithful
servant, for Jane had a vague idea that death could clear up mysteries.
And in what form would the injured lady come? Perhaps every evening at
nightfall that sound of heavy falling would be heard, only muffled and
terror-laden; perhaps as a sheeted ghost she would haunt the bedside
of her unfaithful servant; perhaps--But Jane could scarcely bear to
conjecture further; even certainty, however dreadful, would be better
than this vague sense of horror.

With a hand made tremulous by fear she lit a candle. From Ajax downward
human nature is the same. Whatever be the danger, darkness gives it an
added horror. Jane Rodgers with her candle in her hand felt much braver
than Jane Rodgers in the dark.

She paused for a moment on the threshold of Mrs. Grey's sitting-room,
and applied first her ear and then her eye to the keyhole. Her ear told
her that there was within the room a silence as of death; her eye could
distinguish nothing through the gloom. In her superstitious horror she
was on the point of running away from the door and from the house, but
there came another dim perspective of future uneasiness to delay her.

If the lady were indeed dead--and Jane had almost come to this
conclusion--it was a fact that could not be hidden. Her body would
be found, then the neighbors would talk, the inquest would follow,
and the cross-examination about her own whereabouts, as the landlady
and servant, at the time of the accident. How would she be able to
stand this? Then, if it should be found out that she, the pattern of
strong-mindedness, she who talked in the village about her experience
and knowledge of the world, who was known far and near as a person
equal to any emergency--that she had turned tail like a frightened dog
and fled from imaginary dangers, how would she bear the ridicule and
contempt of her fellows?

These last considerations decided her; she opened the door of her
mistress's sitting-room and peered in cautiously.

What she saw realized for the moment her worst fears. Margaret was
stretched on the carpet rigid and motionless, her hands were clenched,
her feet were drawn up under her; the attitude was that of one who had
suddenly yielded in a struggle with dire agony.

Shading her candle with her hand, for the night-winds were sweeping
through the room, and with a face almost as white as that she
looked on, Jane Rodgers crept near to the prostrate lady. Jane had
seen something of illness, and in her days of domestic service
had been considered a good nurse; indeed, she had looked, and
looked unflinchingly, on the face of death itself more than once
in her life. What alarmed her so much on this occasion was the
attendant circumstances, which had called into play the cowardly
and superstitious side of her nature. The white face of her wronged
mistress seemed to call for vengeance, while something whispered to
Jane that the vengeance would come, and in a terrible form.

But as she drew near to Margaret her terror grew less. Her experienced
eye, as soon as she was sufficiently herself to look at the matter
calmly, told her that this was not death, but only a kind of
fainting-fit, produced probably by strong mental excitement. Her first
feeling was one of intense relief--her second, of indignation against
the unconscious cause of her alarm.

"A body would think," she muttered, "that she'd done it a purpose."

As she spoke she lifted the fainting lady--without much difficulty,
for Margaret had grown very thin, and Jane's physical strength was
extraordinary--and laid her on the bed in the next room. Then with some
roughness she proceeded to use the various remedies--splashed water in
unnecessary quantities into her mistress's face, and rubbed Margaret's
soft palms with her bony fingers.

It was a rough and ready mode of proceeding, but it proved effectual.
Margaret opened her eyes and looked round her, perfectly bewildered at
her position. Jane Rodgers's hard face was the first object that met
her gaze; feeling round her, she discovered that water was dripping
from her face and hair.

She tried to rise. "Where am I?" she said faintly.

"Lie still," replied Jane authoritatively, holding her down with that
vice-like grasp which is so irritating to the weak. "You've been
and fainted," she continued sullenly--"Goodness knows for why--and
frightening the very breath out of my body; but if this kind of thing
is to go on, you must find some other place, or else get a woman in.
I've too much to do in the house to be giving _my_ time continual to
nurse-tending."

The rude speech was almost lost upon Margaret, for memory was awaking
from its sleep; the events of the day were returning gradually to her
mind. "Yes," she said slowly; "I remember now. I suppose I fainted."
Then rising to a sitting posture she fixed her large eyes on her
servant's face.

The face was so white in its strange chiselled beauty, the eyes were
so wild and mournful, that for the moment Jane's superstitious fears
returned.

"Lor!" she said hastily, "_don't_ look at a body like that, there's a
dear. Come--Miss Laura'll come back, never you fear. Children isn't
lost in that way."

"Where _is_ Miss Laura gone?" Margaret's voice was very low, her eyes
were still fixed on her servant's face.

Jane placed the candle on the table and turned aside to pull down the
window-blind and arrange the curtains. "I'll tell you all about it,"
she said soothingly, "if you'll lie down quiet. Miss Laura, she came
in alone, and I give her her dinner; after dinner she sits down with
her picture-book. Presently a gentleman came in at the garden-gate;
I, as it might be in the kitchen, see Miss Laura, from the window, a
running out, quite pleased like to meet him. Them two go into the
sitting-room, and then Miss Laura, she come running down into the
kitchen. 'Jane,' she says, 'my hat, quick; it's my papa, and we're
going to meet mamma on the sands,' Miss Laura, as your orders is,
mustn't never be contradicted, so I get her hat, and off they go
together through the garden-gate. I see them walk along the sands, and
thinks I to myself, 'I'll get tea ready, for they'll find missis, and
all come in together.' So now you know as much as I do, for Miss Laura
ain't come back all the afternoon."

As Jane spoke she turned her face, which expressed nothing but
conscious virtue, to her mistress. Margaret was writhing on the bed as
if she had been suffering from some keen physical pain.

"What was he like--this gentleman who came in I mean?" she asked in a
low, weak voice. A last hope, a very faint one, was struggling with her
misery.

"Difficult to say _exact_," replied Jane, rather hesitatingly; then,
as though repeating a lesson, "He be tall, as far as I remember, and
good-looking, dark hair and whiskers, and eyes like Miss Laura's own."

It was all Margaret wanted to know. "Thank you, Jane," she replied
quietly, "you may go now. Don't be alarmed," she continued, half
smiling, as the woman hesitated on the threshold, "I shall not faint
again."

"But you'll take something," said Jane, a certain feeling of
compunction pricking the small remnant of a heart she still possessed;
"come, have a glass of wine, like a dear."

"You may bring a glass and put it down by the bedside," she replied,
so calmly that Jane went away quite bewildered and a little frightened
still. "There," when she returned with the glass, "that will do; thank
you. Now good-night." When Jane had left her Margaret looked round, and
her worst enemy would have felt a pang of remorse could he have noted
the white, haggard desolation which that day's suffering had left upon
her face. Holding by the bed-post for support, she raised herself and
felt along by the bits of furniture till she came to Laura's little
cot. There she paused. Kneeling down beside it, she kissed the pillow
where the child's head had rested only the night before.

"My Laura," she murmured faintly, "my child--mine--mine;" and then
again, "His, not mine--mine no longer. God forgive me! I did not prize
my treasure, and now it is taken from me for ever."

The little pillow was clasped to the breast of the bereaved mother as
if it had been her child, for she scarcely knew what she was doing;
that torpor of brain had seized her once more. Sinking to the ground,
she rocked it to and fro in her arms, murmuring over it soft words of
endearment.

And thus at last sleep, the nursing-mother of the wretched, found
Margaret Grey. Well for her that it came when it did, for her mind
could scarcely have borne at this time a more continued pressure. With
her cheek resting on the pillow, which was wet with her abundant tears,
and her back against the iron supports of her child's bed, Margaret
forgot all her sorrow for the time in the arms of "Nature's sweet
restorer, balmy sleep."




CHAPTER V.

_THE LAWYER IN HIS OWN DOMAIN._

_Overreach._  'Tis a rich man's pride! there having ever been
              More than a feud, a strange antipathy,
              Between us and true gentry.


Mr. Robinson had not forgotten Mrs. Grey, nor the little business
which she had confided to him. With his usual tact and judgment he had
secured his bird, the bird in this case being their common debtor. Like
a clap of thunder, one fine morning the news reached this worthy that
his account had been attached at the bank by the man who for some time
had acted as his solicitor.

He was on his knees at once with abject entreaties, and Mr. Robinson,
who was too Christian-hearted to wish to crush a fellow-creature,
consented to act for him again, thereby in a measure restoring his
credit, but only on one condition--that he should receive without delay
the amount owing for his somewhat exorbitant lawyer's bill.

"But what am I to do, my good sir?" faltered the man; "all I possess is
in your hands."

"And nothing much to boast about," replied the lawyer quietly; "but,
sir, you will not presume to tell me that all you possess is in the
hands of your banker? Pray reflect a moment. In the dealings between
man and man, especially when they hold the relation of solicitor and
client--a relation which I trust will be resumed between us when this
matter is adjusted--there must be frankness, honesty. Come now"--he
spoke jovially--"about that fine house of furniture?"

"My wife's, I assure you--bought with her money."

The lawyer's face fell perceptibly: "Settled then?"

"Not precisely, but the same thing; you see it was in fact a
wedding-present from her father, a man in an excellent position, Mr.
Robinson."

"Ah!" Mr. Robinson showed his teeth. "Law doesn't recognize sentiment,
my dear sir--a pity, clearly, but so it is. The furniture is yours to
dispose of as you will."

The unfortunate man first flushed, then turned pale. "And what has this
to do with it?" he asked rather angrily.

The lawyer raised his hand: "Calmly, calmly. These matters should be
looked in the face, sir--looked in the face. I only speak in your
own interest: that little balance at the bank--very little indeed,
I think--is all you have to look to if you wish to set up again. I
(remember, sir, I too have a wife and children) must be firm in this
matter. A bill of sale on this furniture of yours--or of your wife's,
if you will--can be given to me as security; I will then release your
account and set you on your feet again. What do you say?"

"If it must be, it must be," replied the man with something between a
groan and a sneer.

Mrs. Grey's name, or that unfortunate mortgage of the interest on which
not a penny had been seen for the last year, was not, as it will be
noticed, mentioned between them. One allusion only was made to it.

"We'll allow you to make a start," said Mr. Robinson benevolently,
"and after that it will be time enough to look into those other little
matters that are between us still."

"Those other little matters!" The bare mention of them made the
unfortunate wince, especially when the reference was made to the
accompaniment of Mr. Robinson's hard smile and cold, blue-steel gaze;
but he hoped on, as men in his position will hope, for a stroke of
luck, a good speculation, something to raise his status in the monetary
world.

He drew on his gloves hurriedly: "Yes, yes, my good friend, as you so
kindly say, time enough; I must feel my legs before I disburse, and to
pay up at present would be out-and-out ruin. In the mean time _you_ may
rely upon me. My affairs are in your hands."

So Mr. Robinson felt, and he rubbed his hands pleasantly. The
consciousness of power was always agreeable to him. "I hope so, I hope
so," he replied briskly. "Let me assure you, sir, that I shall watch
you narrowly. In my client's interests you know it is incumbent on me
to be firm."

"But in your own firmer," muttered the man between his teeth as he
went down stairs. "What precious humbugs these lawyers are! If I were
only out of this one's hands!" He clenched his fist and his brows
contracted. That "bill of sale" was rankling in his mind, but moaning
could not mend matters, and he was by no means the only one whom Mr.
Robinson held that day, writhing but submissive, under his cunning hand.

He smiled when the door closed behind his client. This man's
tastefully-decorated house had often awakened in the lawyer's mind not
envy, malice, guile and all uncharitableness, for Mr. Robinson was a
consistent man, but a certain keen admiration that perhaps, looking at
it in the light of the sequel, might have passed very well for their
counterfeit.

The furniture he had admired was in his power; this made the lawyer
smile, but the smile passed into a business frown as a timid rap at the
door announced the approach of one of his clerks.

He was bringing in the letters from the last post, and presenting
those that had been written for the signature of the head of the firm.
Mr. Robinson proceeded slowly to inspect his letters, the young man
standing near him in a quietly respectful attitude.

"Mr. Moon been written to?" he inquired curtly.

"Yes, sir."

"And Mrs. Grey?"

"A letter from her, sir, on the table."

"Right!--wait a moment."

Mr. Robinson did everything in a quiet, business-like way. He proceeded
with great deliberation to open his letters one by one, using a
paper-cutter for the purpose, until he came to the one in question.

"Have you got Mrs. Grey's letter there? Ah!" He tore it across, and
threw the pieces into the waste-paper basket at his side. "Tell Wilson
I will write myself--something wrong there. What are you waiting for?
Do you want anything?"

"Only to say, sir, that you promised--that is, I mean--"

"Say what you mean--can't you?--and don't stand there wasting my time
and your own."

The young fellow's features twitched nervously. He was of good birth
and breeding, though so poor as to accept, and accept thankfully, the
miserable pittance of a lawyer's clerk.

"I have been with you three years, sir," he said with some dignity;
"you promised my mother that if I gave you satisfaction you would give
me my articles. My mother has requested me to ask you whether this
promise is to be fulfilled. My poor father--"

The young man spoke easily now; he was warming to his theme. His poor
father had made Mr. Robinson's fortunes.

As a man of the world he had taken him up, introduced him to his
circle, a large one and influential, and by his recommendations gained
for him clients innumerable.

He was dead, and before his death, by an unfortunate series of
speculations, had ruined his family. His sons had been trained at
school and college, they were at home in the hunting-field, they
excelled in all kinds of manly sports, their pleasant accomplishments
and gentlemanly ease made them welcome in every society, but as men of
business they were practically useless.

Mr. Robinson had been accustomed, only when their father's back was
turned, to sneer at them for fine gentlemen. Nothing aroused his
jealous ire so much as the sight of what he was pleased to call a fine
gentleman, for Mr. Robinson had a certain innate consciousness which
more of his class possess than we generally imagine. It was this: he
knew that in the world he might do his own will, coin money by the
handful (for in his temperament and constitution were all the elements
of success), become rich, powerful, sought out: _one_ distinction
he could never reach. The quiet ease, the graceful nonchalance, the
tone of high breeding which a fine gentleman possesses, as it were,
by instinct, was and would always remain beyond him. And therefore he
professed to despise the class.

"Tush! tush!" he said, breaking short the young man's allusion to him
who had been his friend in those days when he, the great Mr. Robinson,
had been climbing painfully; "don't you attempt to bring home tales to
me or I'll make short work with you. There shall be no snivelling here.
Mind you, it is only respect for your father's memory that induces me
to keep you at all. You're not worth your salt. As to giving you your
articles, what good do you suppose that would do you? Be off! mind your
work, and let me have no more of such whining."

James Robinson was enjoying himself. His blue-gray eyes flashed and
a smile curled his lips. To put down a fine gentleman was the finest
piece of fun in the world, but this time he had gone too far. Suddenly
the boy changed; manhood and manly purposes seemed to look out from
his eyes, the obsequious attitude had gone, he approached his master,
and dared to look him fully and fearlessly in the face: "Then, Mr.
Robinson, hear me. I will sit down no more to your desk; I will bear
your insolence no longer. My mother and I believed you had offered me
a situation out of kindness and gratitude; yes--glare at me if you
will; I repeat it--gratitude to my father's memory. We thought your
intentions honest, and the peculiar ungentlemanliness of your conduct
to be attributed only to your want of good breeding. I may tell you
that yesterday I was offered, and offered pressingly, what you refuse
so insultingly to-day, and by a far better and older firm than yours. I
thought I owed you a certain duty, and would not accept it until I had
put you in mind of your promise. Now I have heard you, and once and for
ever I shake myself free of you, only humiliated that for three long
years I should have associated daily with so base and low a nature."

He turned on his heel, he was gone, leaving Mr. Robinson in a white
heat of rage and indignation. He had been hearing home-truths for once,
and, what was still worse, hearing them in his own domain, the kingdom
he had been accustomed to rule with a rod of iron. For a moment he was
utterly taken aback, breathless, but lest the contagion should spread
self-control and swift action were necessary.

"Let him go, the insolent young beggar!" he muttered; then turning
he rang his bell. The office-boy appeared: "Send Mr. Wilson here."
There was a notable change in his voice; the bully had gone from it,
preparation was being made for the impressive chapel tone.

Mr. Wilson, the head-clerk of the firm, found his chief rather pale and
exhausted, leaning back in his chair.

"Sit down, Wilson," he said with unusual urbanity; "I must have a few
words with you."

The flattered Wilson obeyed.

"You noticed, I dare say," he continued after a pause, "that young
McArthur went out in something of a hurry just now?"

"Yes, sir."

"I am sorry to say that I have been obliged to perform a very
painful duty. I will not enter into details. My deep respect for the
unfortunate youth's family, and especially the memory of his father--a
true Christian, Wilson, one who sleeps in peace--makes me wish that as
far as possible this should be kept a profound secret. Of course I have
dismissed McArthur. It was a duty, and _from_ duty, however painful,
the Christian never shrinks." Mr. Robinson paused to draw his white
handkerchief over his brow. The force of habit is strong. He imagined
himself for the moment on the platform of a gospel-hall. "If he had
been my own son"--Mr. Robinson's face expressed proud consciousness
that a Robinson could never demean himself in so mysterious a way--"if
he had been my own son I could not have felt the matter more keenly;
nor indeed could I have acted differently; the position I hold enforces
upon me a certain responsibility. But this is all to no purpose--a
few words drawn from me, as I might say, by excess of feeling on this
painful occasion. What I particularly wished to say to you, Wilson,
is this: it is my desire that no questions shall be asked in the
house about this unfortunate boy or his sudden dismissal. You may
say, if you like, that he was discontented, tired of the monotony of
office-life--anything; my only wish is that he should be shielded from
exposure. I would give him a chance of buckling to once more. Heaven
grant, if only for his poor mother's sake, that he may see the error
of his ways! But we are wasting time over this unhappy youth. Well,
human nature _is_ human nature, and my feelings toward him were those
of a father. Ah! I remember one thing more. It is my special wish
that none of my clerks shall have intercourse of any kind with young
McArthur. You will understand me, Wilson. The young man is indignant at
discovery--not as yet, I fear, truly penitent. He may wish to injure
the firm. We must be on our guard."

Mr. Wilson was clever as a man of business, but he did not possess
much penetration. He cherished a blind admiration for his chief, and
was quite ready to look upon his every statement as gospel. On this
occasion he did not even stop to consider how very vague and guarded
was all that Mr Robinson had said about the young man he professed to
have dismissed; he was satisfied in his own mind that something dark
lay behind these vague phrases, and was ready to help his chief to
neutralize the mischief.

"All right, sir," he replied quietly; "I will see to the young fellows,
but I scarcely think Mr. McArthur will venture to show his face here.
A pity, too--a fine young man, and tolerably smart, his bringing-up
considered."

"Ah! there it is," replied Mr. Robinson, with unction. "Pride, Wilson,
pride, the crying sin of our fallen nature. His bringing-up was his
ruin. But enough about him. Anything particular for me to-morrow?"

"No, sir; we can manage very well. You think of going into the country?"

"On business. Mrs. Grey is in some new trouble. Unfortunate woman! I
suppose I had better see after the matter myself. I verily believe she
has no friend in the wide world but me. Queer person, too--can't quite
make her out. Send up the rest of the letters, Wilson, and if there
should be anything of importance, telegraph to this address. I may
probably be two or three days away."

Wilson retired, and Mr. Robinson proceeded to inspect the time tables
of the Great Northern. A little change in the early summer weather
would do him a world of good, and Mrs. Grey's business could easily be
prolonged.

Before the letters came in for signature he had decided on an
early-morning train, and was already enjoying by anticipation the
luxury of a series of drives along the coast.




CHAPTER VI.

_MR. ROBINSON PROMISES TO DO HIS BEST._

    But all was false and hollow; though his tongue
    Dropp'd manna, and could make the worse appear
    The better reason, to perplex and dash
    Maturest counsels.


"Let us look at the matter in this light, Mrs. Grey." The speaker was
Mr. Robinson, and his tone was particularly lively. "Your husband has
cause, fancied or real--for the sake of argument we must put that
part of the question aside--your husband, we shall say, has cause of
complaint against you. He has ceased to consider you a fit guardian for
his daughter after the first unconsciousness of childhood. What ought
to be his method of proceeding in such a case? Why, clearly this. He
should advertise you, through your solicitor, of his desire, and allow
him to negotiate between you. Had he done so, my advice no doubt would
have been of some service. I should have suggested that Miss Laura
should be placed, for the time being, in some educational establishment
where both parents could have had access to her, even, if Mr. Grey had
insisted upon this point, under certain restrictions on your side."

Mr. Robinson paused at this point as if for consideration. Mrs. Grey
shivered slightly, and drew her shawl more closely round her shoulders.
It was a beautiful July day. The sun was shining brightly, the birds
were singing, there was the warm breath of summer upon everything, but
Margaret was like one stricken with a chill. Her face was pale and
haggard, her dark mournful eyes were sunken, her long white fingers,
almost transparent, twitched nervously from time to time.

"But Mr. Grey has _not_ acted in this way," she said with some
fretfulness in her tone.

"Patience, my dear lady," he answered in the lively manner with
which he had entered upon the subject; "we are coming to that point
presently. Affliction, you know, cometh not forth of the dust. Job
suffered grievously, but held fast his integrity. In _this_ world
tribulation; your trials are sent; you must ask for the grace of
patience, that you may be enabled to bear them worthily. But to return.
The first point we should consider is this: Who was actually the person
that removed your daughter from your care? the second, How and in
what method was such removal accomplished? In this you must help me.
Will you try and make a concise statement of the events of the day
in question--what your occupations were, how your child came to be
alone--giving me also the grounds of your suspicion that Mr. Grey is a
party to the kidnapping of his child?--Rather amusing, by the bye, when
one comes to think of it--a father running away with his own daughter."
Mr. Robinson laughed pleasantly at his own joke, which did not seem to
impress his companion so agreeably.

Margaret rose from her chair impatiently, rang the bell and walked to
the door of the room: "I shall send you the servant, Mr. Robinson; she
was the only person in the house when my daughter was taken away."

She went out into the garden and stood under the trees. The sun was
falling on her hair, the soft wind swept it back from her brow, but
her pale lips quivered, and from her eyes came no responsive gladness
to meet the beauty of the summer morning. She was wondering why she
had sent for this man, why she had laid bare her bleeding heart. Would
it not have been better, a thousand times better, to have hidden this
last anguish as she had hidden the others--to have suffered and wept
in silence? For the lawyer's keen criticism and unsparing common sense
had been like a kind of analysis of her torture--had added to her
sorrow the agony of undeserved humiliation. Her husband _had_ insulted
her. This was the bitterest drop in her cup of anguish, and this Mr.
Robinson, a representative of the world, which is given to harsh
judgment of the weak, had not failed to bring clearly before her mind.
It was bitterly hard to be borne.

She thought, and bowed her head upon her breast with a sigh that seemed
to drain the life-blood from her heart. How was it that everything
grated upon her, wounded her? What had she expected, then? she
asked herself. That this man, a man of business, with interests and
affections of his own, would enter tenderly and religiously into the
sanctuary of her grief, would touch her wound lightly, would bring help
without adding suffering? Was it not folly, madness? But she would cast
this morbid sentimentality aside; Heaven would grant her in time the
hardness she needed.

She sat down on a seat under the tree. She could see through the
parlor-window that Jane was taking full advantage of her position.
She was interviewing the lawyer to some effect, talking volubly and
illustrating her statement with expressive gestures.

Margaret could not help smiling faintly. As a calmer mood returned
she felt she had put herself in a somewhat ridiculous position. She
returned to the house, breaking in upon a florid account of Jane's
terror on the night following Laura's disappearance. "That's quite
enough, Jane," she said, some of her old dignity in her voice and
manner; "you may go down stairs now."

The landlady by no means approved of the interruption. She had been
giving the lawyer her statement, in keen and hungry expectation of his.
He would probably, she thought, unfold to her some of the mysteries
that had been perplexing her, and now she was summarily dismissed.

There was some malignity in the glance she cast upon her mistress, but
Margaret was too much engrossed in the business upon which she was bent
to take the slightest notice of her. Jane retired--as far as the next
room, that is to say, hoping some fragments of the conversation would
reach her.

She was disappointed. Mrs. Grey opened the French window and led her
solicitor into the garden.

"That's a most sensible woman," Mr. Robinson said when they had seated
themselves outside; "she has a good head and evidently a good heart;
her feeling for you is quite remarkable. You see, Mrs. Grey, the
goodness of Providence?--friends raised up for the friendless. We are
all apt to overlook our mercies and over-estimate our trials. You don't
agree? Ah! one day I trust you will come round to my opinion. But to
business. Will you be kind enough to tell me what you wish me to do in
this matter?"

"I thought I had explained it already, Mr. Robinson." Mrs. Grey looked
tired and spoke with a certain languor. "I do not wish to dispute my
husband's will. If it is his desire to remove my daughter from my care
altogether, I submit. I wish simply to communicate with him on my own
account, and for this reason I want you to find out his address for me.
It cannot surely be a very difficult matter. These affairs, I know,
are sometimes expensive. I desire that no expense shall be spared. Let
any capital I may still possess be sold out and used. I believe I have
this power. I have some jewelry too; I had wished to keep it, but that
desire has gone entirely." She drew off two or three rings, one of
diamonds and emeralds apparently very valuable, and placed a casket in
his hands, saying as she did so, "Do what is to be done as quickly as
possible; there is no time to lose." Her cheek flushed painfully, and
she pressed her hand to her side.

Mr. Robinson had taken the jewelry with some empressement. He looked
at it curiously: "I shall have these trifles valued on my return, Mrs.
Grey. We shall hope to have no occasion for the use of them. Of course
these inquiries, especially when time is a matter of such moment, cost
something, and capital can scarcely be realized at so short a notice.
However, set your mind at rest: everything that lies in human power
to accomplish shall be done; the result we must leave to higher hands
than ours. And, by the bye, as we _are_ on the subject of business, you
will be glad to hear that your debtor the mortgagee--you will remember
if you cast your mind back to our last interview--is completely in my
power. I shall certainly realize the greater part of the sum lent. Do
you follow me, Mrs. Grey?" for Margaret's attention seemed to flag.
She had forgotten the mortgage, the debt, the threatened poverty, for
her whole force of mind was centred on the one anxiety--to find out
her husband, to appeal to his memories of the past, to persuade him at
least to see her; and that fainting-fit with the succeeding weakness
had frightened her, making her feel that possibly her time on earth
might be short.

"Yes," she said absently; "but, Mr. Robinson, tell me how soon you will
be likely to hear of Mr. Grey?"

"Impossible to say accurately, my dear lady, and it is quite against
my principles to encourage false hope. If I were a doctor, I should
frankly tell my patients of their danger, relying on a higher power
than mine to temper the wind and prepare the mind of my patient for the
shock, though, indeed, if we all lived in a state of preparation, the
approach of death would be little or no shock--shuffling off the mortal
coil, going home. But to return: I was saying, I think, that I make it
a rule never to encourage false hopes. I have lost clients by it, Mrs.
Grey; you would really be amazed at the pertinacity of some folks. It
is in this way: A man comes to me. 'Shall I succeed if I go to law in
this matter?' he asks. If hopeless, I answer candidly, No. Sometimes
my client will insist upon my taking up the business. If not against
the dictum of my conscience--an article, by the bye, which we lawyers
are not supposed to possess--I submit and do my best, leaving the
result. Sometimes he will go off to a more unscrupulous practitioner.
It matters very little. What, after all, is so much worth having as the
answer of a good conscience?"

Mrs. Grey sighed. This torrent of words wearied her beyond measure.
"You have not answered my question, Mr. Robinson," she said; "under
favorable circumstances how long would such an inquiry take?"

"And who is to guarantee us favorable circumstances?" replied the
lawyer, smiling pleasantly. "My dear lady, I must beg you to be
patient. We _may_ fail absolutely. Mind you, I do not mean to assert
that I apprehend we _shall_ fail. Come! a promise. As soon as ever
I receive intelligence of _any_ kind I will transmit it to you by
telegraph. Will that satisfy you?"

"I suppose it _should_," she replied sadly, but there was a feeling of
dissatisfaction at her heart that belied her words.

She had not quite the same confidence in Mr. Robinson as she had once
had.

In the light of that fever of anxiety which consumed her his trite
commonplaces, his rapidly-given assurances looked hollow and vague. She
felt as if another standing-point were being cut ruthlessly from under
her feet, and yet what could she do? She had no friend, no hope in the
wide world, but this man.

She looked up at him, fixing on his rather hard face her mournful eyes,
in which unshed tears were swimming. "Mr. Robinson," she said, "you are
a Christian man. I can trust you; you will do your very best for me."

He answered by a frank smile and a cordial hand-grip: "You are a little
upset, Mrs. Grey, or I should be apt to resent the want of confidence
which those words imply. Of course you can rely on me. Now good-bye: I
must be off to my wife. I left her at the hotel here, close at hand.
She came along with me merely for the trip, and is particularly anxious
for a drive before her return; but duty first, pleasure afterward, I
told her."

"Good-bye," said Mrs. Grey.

She was reassured once more, ready to blame herself for the momentary
distrust.

Mr. Robinson went away with a light swinging step and a cheerful smile.
He was no villain, at least in his own eyes, for his small villainies
were disguised under such pleasing names that he really thought himself
a very good man.

"Poor woman!" he said to himself as he walked along, "what an absurd
notion! She'll never find that husband of hers; and if she did, where
would be the use?"

And all this meant, "I shall take no particular pains to find him, and
certainly not yet; it might be awkward."

Thought is strange in its working. There is the surface action,
employed on that which holds it for the moment--the book, the work, the
occupation; that which flows under, memory of what has just passed,
planning for something in the new future; and often, beneath both
these, a deeper undercurrent, its existence scarcely acknowledged even
to the mind itself.

It was in this undercurrent that James Robinson hid thoughts which
would not hear the light, and thus to the world, to his family, and
even to himself, he continued to be an upright and strictly honorable
man.

It was a dangerous game. Thought has a volcanic tendency. It is apt to
force its way upward, to cleave suddenly the superincumbent strata that
holds it from the surface.

Many such a man as James Robinson, quiet, respectable and respected,
even to all appearance devout, has been astonished by waking up some
fine morning and finding himself a villain.




CHAPTER VII.

_THE TWO FRIENDS._

    Friend of my heart! away with care,
    And sing and dance and laugh.


On the day succeeding that of the interview between Margaret and her
solicitor, Arthur Forrest was preparing in his chambers for a short
absence from town. The memorable conversation with his cousin had taken
place on the previous afternoon. Since then he had made all needful
arrangements, and was to start by the afternoon mail for York. He was
busy about his room, his portmanteau open before him, picking out the
few necessaries he would require.

He looked rather different from the moonstruck individual who had so
sorely tried his good little cousin's patience only a few hours before,
for determination and action have a certain power. They can brace the
nerves and give courage to the spirit. There was fresh, buoyant life
in young Arthur's face; there was light in his eyes; there was healthy
activity in his movements.

He was whistling lightly over his task and the pleasing meditations
induced, when he was interrupted by a knock at the door. The knock was
followed by the appearance on the threshold of a young man probably
of about his own age, only that the pallor of his face and a general
delicacy of appearance made him seem younger.

Arthur leapt over the portmanteau, upset in his transit two or three
chairs laden with linen and clothing of various kinds, and grasping
the new-comer warmly by the hand drew him into the room:

"Why, Mac, old boy! who would have thought of seeing you, and in the
middle of the day, too? Has your old tyrant played the truant, or have
discipline and responsibility run wild in his establishment?"

The young man laughed: "Neither. But the fact is this--I have grown
tired of my master at last; and yesterday--or the day before it must
have been--I told him a few wholesome truths and turned my back on the
firm, leaving my last few pounds of salary in his hands as a parting
gift."

Arthur had been gathering some of his shirts together. He dropped them
suddenly and gave a rapturous bound: "At last! You don't surely mean to
say so? All my prophecies come true. Bravo, old fellow! I congratulate
you heartily. But come, I am all impatience. I must have a full, true
and particular account of the whole. What was the last drop? How did
you resent its introduction? For, upon my word, Mac, you took him so
patiently that I began to fear your old spirit had gone. I longed at
times to show all those muffs in that confounded hole of an office what
you could do when the blood was up. But why don't you say something?"

"Because, old fellow, you won't let a man get in a word edgeways. And
then, you see, my memory's short. I was never good at learning by
heart, especially my own efforts at composition. He spoke insultingly
when I asked him to keep his word to my mother and give me my articles.
In reply I let him know, in good strong English, what I thought of him
generally and of his present conduct in particular. Finally, I left his
place in a fine rage, I can assure you. I imagine Robinson was ditto,
but his after-thoughts he didn't reveal. There! will that satisfy you?"

Arthur gave a long whistle: "Spoke insultingly, did he? I wonder who
that fellow thinks himself? Well, I needn't enter into particulars;
you're well aware of my sentiments. And now, old man, what's to be the
next step?"

"Perplexing," replied young McArthur, knitting his brows. "There's
_your_ man of business--Golding. You heard of the kind offer he made me
the other day. I was scarcely, as I thought, in a position to accept
it. I wish to Goodness I had, though; my cutting remarks would have had
double force. By the bye, Arthur, that was prompted by you, I imagine.
Do you think he would renew it?"

"Not the faintest doubt in the world. Golding is an excellent old
fellow, and honester, I sincerely believe, than the ordinary race of
lawyers. Then, don't you see, it would scarcely suit his book to break
with me just now. I shall be of age in a few weeks, and he takes a
fatherly interest in my affairs. Joking apart, though, I believe he
does. It's a better firm altogether than Robinson's. But come, I was
just off to lunch. Take a little something with me and we can talk it
over by the way. Then, if you like, I shall have time to go with you as
far as Golding's. I know your mind will be easier when this matter is
settled. Now, don't be a humbug. I can see in your face that you have
not lunched, and for once in the way you are, like myself, an idle man."

McArthur smiled, and pointed to the chairs and table.

"But what about all this? Do you intend to leave it so? And--you're off
somewhere?"

"Only to York on a little matter of business," replied Arthur, who
had turned to the mirror, and was occupying himself in imparting a
certain air of fascination to the set of his budding moustache. "I
must get the old woman here--a motherly body in her way, and useful
when a fellow can get out of reach of her tongue--to finish for me.
Yes, that's decidedly the best plan. Come along, Mac! If my coming of
age is worthy of being made a festival, certainly your breaking loose
from that rascal--whose whining is enough to sicken the healthiest
person--is trebly so. We must have a bottle of champagne and a general
jollification on the strength of it; then we can go to Golding's
together, and after that I shall still have time to catch the afternoon
mail."

"I didn't know you had friends in York."

"Did I _say_ I had friends there?"

"No, but what can _your_ business be? I always thought it consisted in
carrying out and bringing to a successful end a rather laborious system
of amusement."

"Come, Mac, don't be severe. I'm turning over a new leaf, and am fast
becoming a most useful member of society. I have already two pictures,
a score of elaborate novels, a series of scientific works and books of
travel innumerable in my eye."

"As your own performance or your neighbor's?"

"My own, of course. Do you mean to be insulting, Mac, or have you
fallen so low as to imagine a solicitor's office the _only_ path to
fame? But don't apologize, old fellow; I forgive you in consideration
of a certain derangement of brain, the result, no doubt, of your late
experiences."

"What have _you_ been doing to yourself, Forrest?" The young man looked
at his friend with some curiosity. Arthur's face was flushed and his
eyes were beaming with excitement. "Your spirits have been at rather
a low ebb whenever I have had the opportunity of seeing you lately;
now they are perfectly exuberant. I think there must be something more
in this visit to York than is quite apparent to the casual observer.
Blushing, too! Why, old fellow, I thought your blushing days were over
long ago, like mine."

Arthur turned away in some impatience: "Don't be absurd, Mac,
or I shall certainly be cross, and at present I feel generally
genial--sympathetic, as I shall remark in my first novel, with the
sweet influences of the balmy breezes. By the bye, that would be rather
neat, wouldn't it?"

"Uncommonly. You're improving, old fellow. Heigh-ho! _my_ sentimental
days are gone by. Nothing like office-life for rubbing off that kind of
bloom. Do you remember the girls' school, and my deep indignation when
you would insist upon singing about 'the merry little maiden of sweet
sixteen'?"

"An awfully good song, by the bye," put in Arthur.

His friend did not notice the interruption. "I am not so sure, after
all," he said thoughtfully, "that hard work is not the best thing
at our age. Everybody could not pass as you have done through the
temptations of an idle youth."

Arthur laughed, but he looked at his companion affectionately: "Come,
come, Mac, that kind of thing won't quite fit in, you know--philosophy
and compliment in one breath. But here we are. Now, if you're not
hungry I am; so a truce to reflections. They shall come, if you still
feel anxious for them, in the shape of dessert."

The young men sat down to dinner together, and Arthur took care it
should be a particularly good one. He and McArthur had been chums at
Eton, and although the very different circumstances of their after-life
had necessarily thrown them apart, they had still kept up their
friendship in a certain spasmodic way.

It had been broken at times by a slight want of consideration on the
one side, and a certain pride, the growth of poverty, on the other;
but real mutual affection and respect had been strong enough to heal
the different little breaks, and the young men had reached the point
of understanding each other, and of making mutual allowance for the
weaknesses engendered by circumstances.

They did not often meet, for their lives were very differently spent,
and McArthur was wise enough to know that for him to enter at all into
his friend's pursuits or to frequent his circle would be sheer folly.
This it was that occasionally hurt and fretted Arthur. But a meeting
such as that of this day was a source of real pleasure to both.

During the short hour everything life held of weariness and discontent
was forgotten. They rattled on as if they had been still school-boys,
with no present care to oppress their lives and a brilliant future
before them.




CHAPTER VIII.

_THE INDIAN SCARF._

    A man in love sees wonders.


A few hours later, and Arthur Forrest was lodged for the night in an
hotel which looked out upon one of the quaint, old-fashioned streets in
the ancient city of York.

The journey had by no means diminished his excitement. He was literally
aflame with the fever of anxiety and suspense that consumed him,
for this was his first young dream, and it mastered him with an
absoluteness which only that first in the series that often diversifies
the adolescence of humanity, male and female, can possess.

Afterward we know what to expect; then everything is new, wonderful,
incomprehensible--the sweet waking up to a heavenly mystery. And
it comes generally at a time when life is at its fullest; when
imagination, passion, sentiment reign in the soul with undisputed
sway; when the heart is uncontaminated--at least partially so--by the
influences which those to whom youth's Eden is a forgotten land delight
to throw round the inexperienced, giving them lessons, they would say,
in the great art of living--lessons, alas! which the young are only too
ready to receive and put into practice.

Arthur was in this first ecstatic stage. No doubt to the experienced
onlooker it might appear highly ridiculous; to himself it was intensely
real. His very existence seemed to have changed in the dazzling glamour
that the treacherous little god had cast over his vision. He saw all
his past, his present, his future in relation to this _one_ thing--his
chances of success with the fair Margaret.

It was late when he reached York--too late for him to think of going
farther that night.

He ordered a private sitting-room, for no particular reason but the
necessity he felt for quiet meditation, that he might unravel the
tormenting problems of the how, the why and the wherefore which, in
spite of Adèle's encouraging assurance, had begun to embarrass him
sorely. How should he present himself to Mrs. Grey? What could he give
as a reason for having left London to seek her out? In what light would
she look upon his intrusion? These thoughts perplexed him as far into
the night he paced the floor of his sitting-room, resting himself by
the continual movement, but sorely interfering with the rest of the
gentleman who occupied the room below his. He had taken many turns
up and down before any light had dawned upon his mind, and in final
despair he was about to retire to his bedroom and try the effect of
darkness, when suddenly his eyes fell on something that had hitherto
escaped them. It was an Indian scarf of great brilliancy which had been
left lying on a small low chair in one of the corners of the room.

It brought a certain memory to Arthur's mind. He took it up, handling
it with reverential tenderness. Where had he seen it before? Why
did the sight of it affect him so strangely? He looked at it, he
touched it; he laid it down and retiring to some distance examined
it again. Then by degrees the sought-for link returned. The pictures,
the crimson-covered seat, the pale woman, her shabby dress, and in
striking contrast with it, the costly fabric on her shoulders. It was
a coincidence, he said to himself--a very strange one--that here,
when he was seeking Margaret, he should find the fac-simile of what
she had worn on the occasion of their first meeting. Could it be the
same--hers, left behind her? If so, here was an opening thrown by kind
Fate into his lap.

The silken scarf should be his excuse; with it he would present himself
to Mrs. Grey. It was valuable in itself, and she had evidently had some
other reason besides its intrinsic worth for prizing it. She would be
grateful for its preservation, and the bearer of her treasure would
have a certain claim on her consideration.

Arthur determined to discover the history of the scarf on the next
day, and if he should find it at all fit in with his ideas to take
it back to its owner in triumph. For that night it was too late to
do anything. He looked despairingly at the little French clock over
the chimney-piece. It was two o'clock A. M., and an absolute silence
reigned in the house.

But he possessed the sanguine nature of youth. He could not doubt that
he had found a solution to the problem which had been agitating his
mind. His anxieties being thus partially set at rest, he began to feel
tired. With the silk scarf close to his hand he fell asleep; its colors
mingled in confusion inextricable with all his dreams; it was the first
object that met his gaze on the following morning.

He felt inclined to ring at once and make inquiries, but on second
thought he decided that to take such a step would scarcely be wise.
Young men in Arthur Forrest's position are keenly susceptible to
ridicule. Undue anxiety might possibly seem suspicious. He controlled
himself so far as to dress, to walk into his sitting-room, and to
restore the scarf to the place it had occupied on the previous evening;
then he rang for breakfast.

While the waiter was busy about the table he looked across the room as
though for the first time the appearance of the scarf had struck him;
then he took it up and examined it with apparent curiosity.

The waiter noticed his movement. "Ah! sir," he said briskly, "queer
thing that."

"This scarf?" said Arthur carelessly; "it's certainly a very handsome
one."

"I didn't mean the scarf, sir, but the tale, as one may say, that hangs
on to it. It was left in this very room, identical, some four or five
days ago, it may be, and I was the waiter as attended on the gentleman
and little girl: a pretty creature she was too, with--"

"A gentleman and little girl?" broke in Arthur, forgetful of his
prudence in his astonishment.

"Yes, sir; a gentleman not young, as one might say, to be the father
of the little lady; and a lady she was, every inch of her, so pretty
and well-behaved. It's _my_ belief"--here the waiter lowered his voice
and looked confidential--"there was somethink there over and above what
met the eye, as one might say, sir." Then he disappeared to fetch the
tea-pot.

Arthur was strangely interested in the little tale. "Stop," he said as
the waiter was about to leave the room again; "what makes you think
there was something mysterious about these people?"

The waiter smiled pleasantly. His loquaciousness was natural to
him, but it had so often received rude checks that he had long ago
been taught to control it. "It interests you, do it, sir?" he said
cheerfully. "Well, now, to speak confidential, it's _my_ belief as
that gentleman wasn't father at all to that there little lady. She
cried considerable that first night, for the chambermaid had been given
somethink a little extra by the gentleman when he came into the hotel
that every care might be taken of the little lady. And it was all on
and off, so she says, the little lady a-crying and a-sobbing, and 'Oh,
my mamma! I want my mamma; take me home.' Not much sleep had the little
lady, or Jane either, for the matter of that. She has an uncommon soft
heart, has Jane, and the little lady's sobs, she says, would have
melted a heart of stone, let alone hers. Well, sir, as I was a-saying,
it looked queer; but next morning the gentleman--He was a fine man,
sir, he was, but had a look with him as if from foreign parts, which,
as one may say, looked queer again, the little lady being very fair,
with hair the color of that there frame, sir, all in curls over her
face, and the loveliest complexion you ever see. What was I a-telling
you of? Oh! The next morning the gentleman, he ordered breakfast, and
he _and_ the little lady had it in this very room, as it might be now,
sir, and certainly it wasn't no later, I being the waiter, Jane coming
in now and again to see if little missy wanted for anythink. Seemed to
us, Jane and me, that the gentleman said somethink in private, as it
might be, to the little lady, for they seemed more friendlier-like,
and after a bit little missy she write a letter and she look a deal
cheerfuler, as one might say. The poor little dear hadn't so much--not
as a change with her, sir." Again the waiter lowered his voice: "Looked
queer, it did, and so says Jane to me in that very passage out there.
Strange to tell, sir, the words is scarcely so much as out of our
mouths before the bell rings violent-like, and Jane is sent out by
that there gentleman, twenty pounds in her hand, and cart blank to
get everythink ready made, and expense no object, as might be thought
necessary for a young lady. It didn't take her long, I can answer for
that. She come back with the things packed in a small portmanter, and
her accounts made out all proper and business-like. It's Jane all over,
sir. She do like to have everythink square and correct. 'But,' says
the gentleman as grand as you please, 'I didn't want no accounts, and
divide the change between yourself and the garçong;' by which he meant
me, sir. It's the French way. They started that morning, and the little
lady tell Jane, 'I shall come back very soon, I shall,' and then she
puts her arms round her neck, 'Thank you,' she says in such a pretty
way that Jane was quite upset like. And when she and the gentleman's
gone there's this kind of shawl, as you have just remarked upon, sir,
a-lying here in this room, and here it's been ever since. That's the
story, sir, and I think you'll agree with me that it looks queer."

"It _is_ strange," said Arthur very thoughtfully, "I can't understand
it at all. Do you know," he continued, turning to the waiter, "I am
almost sure I know the owner of this scarf. It is, I see, a thing of
some value, but if the proprietor of the hotel will put it in my charge
for a time, I will leave a deposit to any amount he may think fit in
its place, and restore it to him faithfully if I should prove to have
been mistaken."

"I can't see for myself as how he can make any objection, sir; however,
with your permission I must leave you now--there's my bell."

The waiter did not stay away longer than he could possibly help.
Arthur's interest in the scarf seemed to him a new link in the story
which had so powerfully excited the curiosity of various members of the
establishment. On his return he found the young man still holding the
scarf in his hand, with a thoughtful look on his face. But his patient
receptivity of the waiter's good-humored chat seemed to have passed. "I
wish to speak to the proprietor of the hotel," he said shortly.

"At once, sir?" asked the man in a disappointed tone. He was full to
the brim of fresh particulars, hastily set in order during his journey
from one breakfast-table to another.

"As soon as possible," was the reply, "I must leave York by an early
train."

For Arthur Forrest could scarcely control his impatience. The waiter's
dramatic little tale had awakened his interest. He had a kind of fancy
that it was connected in some way with Margaret.

The proprietor found him pacing the room excitedly. He was politely
surprised at the interest taken by the young gentleman in this small
item of property left in his house, agreed with him that it was an
article of some value, but refused to receive any deposit in exchange
for it, with the exception of the young gentleman's card, and his
assurance that they should hear whether or no the owner had been found,
and finally presented his little bill, swollen in various items to
fit in reasonably with the importance the young gentleman appeared
to attach to the discovery he had made in the establishment. The
landlord might have asked for double the amount; Arthur would have
been perfectly unconscious. He was only anxious to get away with his
treasure--to unearth the mystery it seemed to hide.

In all haste he sent for the friendly waiter, pressed half a sovereign
into his willing hand, urging him to order a fly and get his traps
together without delay.

In an incredibly short space of time the lumbering vehicle, as light as
any that could be found in the ancient city, was bearing him through
the narrow streets and overhanging gates to the station--a fresh stage
on his journey to _her_.




CHAPTER IX.

_ARTHUR ARRIVES AT MIDDLETHORPE._

    Thank God, bless God, all ye who suffer not
    More grief than ye can weep for.


Margaret Grey was sitting in her garden. It was a warm day. A faint
haze, born of the vapor, paled the deep blue of the sky; not a breath
of wind stirred the languid foliage of the trees; the flowers were
bathed in light and color; through a gap in the trees came the glimmer
of the sea, and faintly on the still air rose the murmur of lulling
waves--scarcely waves, perhaps only movement, stir, the manifestation
of ocean's ceaseless life. It was a day to rejoice in--a day when the
pulses quicken and the heart is glad with unconscious, unreasoning
gladness; when lovers look into one another's eyes and creep more
closely together; when children laugh and sing, and even the dumb
creatures seem to rejoice in being.

In _her_ face was no sense of gladness. She sat under the trees, a book
in her hand, a shawl wrapt closely round her shoulders.

Every particle of color had left her face, even her lips were pale.
The golden coronal of hair with which Nature had endowed her seemed
to throw a ghastly shade over her face. It looked unnatural, like
the glory of youth when its life and gladness have gone by. Only her
eyes retained their beauty, for through their mournful wistfulness,
their sometimes wild eagerness, the beautiful soul still shone, and in
the week of hope, of beauty, of life itself, that soul was learning,
slowly and painfully, it is true, but learning still, the lesson
that, consciously or unconsciously, all must learn,--submission to the
Supreme Will first and above all; not the mild sentimental "Thy will
be done" of which hymnists and sermon-coiners discourse so glibly, nor
even that "grace of patience" which her solicitor had recommended her
to seek as a panacea for all her ills, but a something far above and
beyond these--a something that, perhaps, only those who have suffered
keenly can ever know--the laying down of self-will altogether, the
recognition, through sorrows and contradictions manifold, of a Divine
Love

    "Shaping the ends of life."

A book was in Margaret's hand, but she did not often look at it, at
least not for long. There seemed to be a disturbing cause at work that
prevented her from fixing her attention on anything but the absorbing
anxiety which held her.

It was toward the afternoon of the long day, and she had been sitting
there since early morning waiting and watching. From time to time she
would take out her watch and consult it, and once she pressed her hand
to her side, murmuring, "Patience, patience! My God, shall I ever learn
it?"

And the song-birds flitted backward and forward over her head, and the
sea smiled and the earth rejoiced. There was no answer to the cry of
the lonely heart. Patience; yes, patience, poor stricken one! for "when
night is darkest, then dawn is near." I wonder who thinks of it when
the black darkness is closing around them? Certainly Margaret did not.

She was sitting in the back part of the little garden; from her
position she could hear the door-bell and the click of the latch of the
front gate, but she could not see those who came in or went out, and
through that long day there had been no sound of outside life to break
in upon her solitude. It had begun to sicken her as she sat under the
trees looking out upon the sunshine.

There was a sound at last--the stopping of wheels at the garden-gate,
the latch pushed back with something of impatience, a ring at the
door-bell that echoed through the house.

Margaret leapt to her feet and tried to rush forward. It was surely
that for which she had been looking--a telegram to tell her something
had been done. He had promised to use all possible despatch.

Alas, poor Margaret! The "he" in question was at that moment exciting
himself very little about her or her concerns. He was not very far from
her. He could have been seen by any who had chosen to take the trouble
of looking for him, seated on a strong little black pony, jogging along
with great contentment--a conspicuous object on the yellow sands.

In moments of strong excitement physical power sometimes abandons us:
perhaps it is that the spirit would master the body, and forgetting its
bonds rush forward alone to meet the coming fate, and that then the
weakness of its natural home draws it back to its humanity.

It was something like this Margaret experienced. She rose, she would
have pressed forward. In an incredibly short time she would have had
the message in her hands, but her limbs refused to bear her. She
sank back on the garden-seat, compelled, whether she would or no, to
wait--to wait.

The delay was not long, but it seemed to her as if the moments were
ages, each laden with an agony of suspense, while she sat still in her
forced inaction.

Jane crossed the lawn at last with something in her hand, and Margaret
covered her face and moaned faintly. If this should be disappointment,
how could she bear it? It _was_ disappointment. The message turned out
to be a card which Jane put into her hands, explaining as she did so
that the young gentleman had come on important business, and wished
particularly to see her, if only for a few moments.

"A young gentleman--important business," said Margaret faintly; "then
it is not a telegram?"

"Who said it were?" asked Jane rather rudely. She knew very well that
speak as she might her mistress would take very little notice of her
now. "I said a young gentleman was in the parlor," she continued in a
higher key, as if Margaret had been deaf, "and I've too much to do to
be wasting _my_ time argufying. Everybody can't set doing nothing all
day like _some_ folk I could tell of. Are you going to see him or are
you not?"

"I will see him," replied Margaret quietly. "Ask him to wait a few
minutes."

She had wondered only a moment before how she could bear the
disappointment. It came, and she neither fainted nor wept, only there
fell a chiller shadow over her heart--the darkness of her lot on earth
seemed to deepen.

She watched with eyes from which all the light had gone out until
Jane had re-entered the house, then she rose again, and this time no
ultra-impetuousness delayed her. The name on the card puzzled her. She
had a vague notion she had seen it somewhere before, but in her trouble
her London remembrances were partially swamped. She scarcely knew even
why she had decided to grant this young man an interview. She was only
obeying a secret impulse: he might possibly be the bearer of a message.

She had not thought at the moment she left her seat that the
parlor-window looked out upon the little garden; but so it was, and as
languidly and with apparent pain she crossed the lawn its temporary
occupant was gazing upon her.

Her appearance shocked him terribly. He had been in no way prepared for
the change which that week of misery and loneliness had brought about.
She did not look the same. Then, indeed, she had been sad, but the
sadness had not absorbed her utterly--had not written on her face the
haggard, weary hopelessness which it now bore.

The young man's heart contracted painfully; a sudden dismay seized
him. He would have turned and fled. How could he bear to face this
suffering? In its presence he felt weak and helpless as a child.

But he looked at her again, the white patient face with its halo of
golden color, the weak languid steps, the beautiful outlines, the
never-failing, unconscious grace, and as he looked the love of his
heart surged in a great wave over his being. Unconsciously he clasped
his hands, his brows knit, his form dilated.

"God helping me," he said in a low impassioned voice that swept upward
from the innermost depths of his spirit--"God helping me, I will help
her!"

Scarcely was the vow made before the door opened and Margaret and he
were face to face. She looked at him for a moment, then held out her
hand, smiling her recognition. "Sit down," she said with the quiet
graciousness Arthur remembered so well, taking a seat herself at the
same time; then suddenly she caught sight of what he brought, for
Arthur had the scarf on his arm. Her quietness fled, she rose to her
feet, and seizing his arm pointed to it eagerly: "Where did you find
it? Whose is it? Why did you bring it here?"

She spoke and fell back on her chair, gasping for breath.




CHAPTER X.

_ON THE BRINK OF MADNESS._

    My eyes are full of tears, my heart of love;
    My heart is breaking, and my eyes are dim,
    And I am all aweary of my life.


Arthur's instinct had not erred. There was something more than the
recovery of what she valued that made the sudden reappearance of her
scarf a matter of great moment to Mrs. Grey. The facts of the case were
these: The voice of many-tongued Rumor had been busy in the village
with the wonderful history of the disappearance of the pretty child,
whose vivacity and pleasant friendly ways had made her well known in
the neighborhood. Through the medium of her laundress and a little girl
from the National School, who came in the morning to help Jane, some of
these little bits of gossip had made their way to Margaret.

The laundress poured into her ears the tale of how the little one had
been met on the sands with a gentleman and a big dog on the afternoon
of the day of her disappearance; the little girl chimed in with a true,
full, and particular account of every item of the dress and appearance
of both. One of these items puzzled Margaret. The girl declared
positively that Miss Laura had carried her mamma's scarf upon her arm.
Now, Margaret could not but remember that on that ever-memorable day
she had worn the scarf herself. She had reason for connecting it with
the interview between herself and L'Estrange. Strangely enough, from
that very moment she had missed it.

In her first horror at the discovery of Laura's departure the lesser
loss had naturally escaped her; when the girl mentioned the scarf,
however, she remembered that she had not brought it home with her.
But how could Laura have obtained possession of it? Margaret wearied
herself with conjectures, but at last she came to this conclusion--she
had left it on her seat among the bushes, Laura had gone there with her
father anxious to find her, they had seen the scarf, and the little one
had picked it up to take it back, for that Laura had willingly left
her Margaret never imagined for a moment. Either this or else that the
girl had been mistaken altogether. It was thus she had dismissed the
subject of the scarf from her mind. It did not afford any clue; it did
not alter in the remotest degree the fact of the child being lost to
her, of her husband having cruelly and wantonly wronged her. But when
the scarf reappeared in this strangely unexpected manner it was like a
message from her child, a link by which it might be possible to trace
her, and the first revulsion of feeling which its sight occasioned was
so great as almost to deprive Margaret of her small remnant of strength.

She did not faint, though Arthur, when he saw the deadly pallor of her
face, was about to spring to the door and call out for assistance.
She warned him by a rapid gesture to do nothing of the kind. This was
her first impulse; she pointed then to a caraffe of water. He poured
some into a glass and brought it to her. It revived her partially. The
color struggled back into her pale cheeks, she sat up and tried to
smile--such a faint watery attempt at a smile that her companion could
have gone on his knees, then and there, imploring her only to weep.

"I am very foolish," she said faintly, "but since we last met I have
suffered, and suffering has made me weak. Have patience with me for one
moment. Give me your arm, that will be best; the fresh air may revive
me; and--walls have ears."

She looked round with a sudden terror in her eyes. To describe the
effect of her words, of her weakness, on the inflammable heart of the
young man would be impossible. He was beside himself with the longing
to take her to his heart, to proclaim himself, once and for ever,
her protector and champion. But love had taught him self-control.
Trembling from head to foot, he still preserved an apparent composure.
He took the hand she offered and raised it reverently to his lips, then
placed it on his arm.

"Be calm, dear lady," he said gently, "I have come here with this
express purpose to find some way out of your troubles, and, God helping
me, I will."

The boy spoke slowly, deliberately. In his words there was all the
fervor of a vow, all the hallowed binding power of a sacramental
utterance; and to her for the moment it did not seem unnatural. He
spoke again, after a short pause: "Mrs. Grey, do you think you can
trust me?"

She looked up. There was a dreamy softness in her eyes and her voice
was low: "Yes, I think I can. God knows I was sorely in need of a
friend. But" (her voice changed, she looked round in a bewildered
manner), "come out; I cannot speak to you here. I have a kind of
feeling--dear me! how weak and childish I have become!--I hear voices,
I see faces. I fancy sometimes I am being watched."

"You are weak and ill, Mrs. Grey; you should not be here alone. Let us
go out to the shore; the sea-air will do you good. See! your hat is
lying here."

She obeyed him. It almost seemed as if his voice had a certain power
over her for the moment. He took her hand again and led her from the
room and from the house, half supporting her from time to time. Neither
spoke until the cottage was left far in the background, and then they
were on the sands close by the sea.

"Shall we sit down here?" asked Arthur.

"Yes," she said, "we are alone; sea and sky--sea and sky." Then she
paused with a bewildered look: "What am I saying? I know I wanted to
speak to you, and now everything has gone."

This was far more bewildering to Arthur than her former state, for
there was a wild, appealing look about her eyes which made him fear for
her reason; but with the emergency came a certain power. It was truly a
transformation. The boy was changed into a man. He stood up and taking
both of Margaret's hands into his own, looked steadfastly into her
eyes.

"Mrs. Grey," he said slowly and distinctly, "try and remember what has
brought you here. Your child, little Laura!"

She put her hand to her head: "Laura! Laura! Do you know where she is,
poor child? The heat has tired her; she must be lying down."

Arthur trembled, but he kept his eyes still fixed on those of his
companion, which wandered hither and thither like restless stars.

"Mrs. Grey," he said again, "do you wish to find your child?"

Her eyes had begun to feel the power of his; they were falling under
the spell of his steadfast gaze. Now was Arthur's time of trial, for
the unmeaning wildness grew gradually into surprised displeasure. "Dear
lady!" he said pleadingly, but not for a moment removing his gaze, "you
have been patient; be so still. Do not let your sorrow overcome you
utterly."

There spread a faint color over the dead whiteness of her face. The
young man saw that for this time the danger had gone by. He had the
tact to release her suddenly and to turn away for a walk along the
shore. His true, unselfish love had given him eyes to see and a heart
to understand. He knew that the return to a sense of her position
would be painful to Margaret for more reasons than one. He left her to
recover herself alone. Presently she called him. He went to her, and
took his place by her side as if nothing had happened to disturb their
conversation.

"Thank you," she said, gently raising her dark, troubled eyes to his
face, "I understand you--you are my true friend;" and then a few tears
that she could not keep back flowed over her pale cheeks. "Oh," she
said, slowly and painfully, "if God will I shall learn; but, young man,
it is a dreary time for learning. In our days of happiness and youth we
put all this away, and the hour of trouble finds us without a refuge.
You see I bore all the trouble," she continued, smiling faintly; "it is
the glimmer of hope you have brought me that so nearly upset my poor,
weak brain. But tell me, have you seen my little one?"

In reply Arthur gave, as clearly as possible, the story given to
him by the waiter at the hotel in York, to all of which Margaret
listened with rapt attention. Once or twice she was on the point of
interrupting him, but she controlled herself to the end, and there
was disappointment in the heavy sigh with which she answered him.
"It is certainly my scarf," she said, taking it up and examining it
attentively; "I could not possibly be mistaken, and as certainly
that little child was my daughter--my lost Laura. Yes, it is all so
probable. My little one's grief, the love of those around her, and her
letter--it was to me--he never sent it. I am deceived, betrayed. Oh,
Maurice! Maurice!"

Her grief seemed to overcome her. She covered her face with her hands,
and once more, in his perplexity and distress, Arthur was on the point
of throwing himself at her feet, of declaring his boundless love.

Before he could decide she looked up again and spoke with apparent
calm: "There are some difficulties in the story. Are you sure the
waiter said he was old and like a foreigner?"

"Perfectly certain; I could not possibly be mistaken."

"Then he must have changed wonderfully in the short time."

"Forgive me for asking, Mrs. Grey, but whom do you suspect of this
atrocity? I would not be intrusive for the world; I only wish to be
your friend." The young man's voice trembled; he went on more rapidly:
"You must know, you must have seen, that I take no common interest
in your concerns. I feel this is neither the time nor the place to
force my own feelings upon you; but, Margaret, when I see you alone,
friendless, when I know it is in my power to give you everything, to
devote myself to you utterly, even to bring back perhaps those days
of happiness of which you spoke, how can I resist the temptation
of letting you know all? Since first I saw you your fair, sad face
has haunted me; I can think of nothing else. Ah! I have been idle,
good-for-nothing, but all that has passed away. Give me hope, and I
will yet make myself worthy of you."

He spoke with such impetuosity that it was almost impossible to stop
him. But when he paused for lack of breath, Margaret drew herself away,
putting back gently his pleading hand. Perhaps it was well for her that
this new excitement came. It seemed to restore her strength of mind,
her gentle, womanly dignity. "Hush!" she said quietly; "you must not
speak to me in this way. If you really care for me you will respect my
lonely position. Arthur, I am married, and my one absorbing anxiety is
to see my husband again before I die. Come, I do not mean to lose you
as a friend; you have shown yourself a man, and a noble man, to-day;
you will soon overcome this weakness."

Arthur was looking away over the sea. He was staggered for a moment,
and yet he was not really surprised. His voice was a little husky as he
answered, for after all he was only a boy, and he had taught himself to
hope. "Forgive my folly and presumption," he said.

She put her hand on his shoulder with the caressing gesture of an elder
sister. "I want a friend," she said, smiling into his downcast face.
"You shall be my brother, Arthur. I have never had a brother, for I was
an only child, and my sole friend in the wide world is my solicitor. He
is a man of position and character, and yet--do you know? my loneliness
makes me so sensitive--I sometimes feel inclined to distrust even him."

"Can you tell me his name?"

"It is rather a common one. Very likely you will not know it. Mr.
Robinson--James, I think, is his Christian name."

"Of the firm of Robinson and ----?"

"Yes."

"Then, Mrs. Grey, your suspicions were only too well founded." He
gnashed his teeth. "The old hypocrite! I trust you have not given him
your confidence to any great extent."

Margaret turned pale: "Everything I have is in his hands. Only two days
ago I gave him some valuable jewelry to ensure the speedy carrying out
of my instructions."

"And he took it away with him, I suppose," Arthur smiled
sardonically--"recommended patience and resignation. Ah! I know him
well. But forgive me; I am allowing my feelings to run away with me and
frightening you. The fact is that I happen to know something of your
solicitor, and the very mention of his name excites me. Mrs. Grey, we
must save you from him. Tell me once more, do you trust me?"

Margaret looked up into his frank, open face and smiled. "As I would
my own brother," she replied heartily; "and in proof of it, if you can
listen to a long, painful story, I will tell you my history, and how it
is that you find me here in this little village alone and unprotected.
You have given me the full confidence of your young, true heart; you
have trusted in me, Arthur, in spite of much that must have seemed
strange and mysterious. I will give you my confidence in return. But I
think for to-day the exertion would be almost too much for me. Can you
come again to-morrow, or must you go away at once?"

"I shall not leave this place until I have found out some way of
helping you, Mrs. Grey; but if you really mean to trust me as your
brother, will you let me say that I don't like the idea of your staying
by yourself in this solitary house? You want some one with you upon
whom you can thoroughly depend. I rather distrust your landlady; I
can scarcely say why." They had risen from their seat on the sands,
and were walking toward the little cottage. "As I came in," continued
Arthur, "she entertained me--a perfect stranger, at least as far
as she knew--with the story of your child's disappearance and your
fainting-fit of that evening, seeming to expect me to give my errand in
return."

"I rather distrust her myself," replied Margaret; "but one cannot
always tell. Her manner certainly is unfortunate. I believe, however,
that she is really a good kind of person, and her character stands
high in the neighborhood. I do not like the idea of a change just now,
but thank you all the same for the kind thought. You saw me, you must
remember, at a weak moment; I am not always so foolish, and to-night I
shall have something to think about. Here we are at the gate. Come in
and have a cup of tea. By the bye, where are you staying?"

"At the hotel, Mrs. Grey; it's not very far from here. I think if you
even called out to me from the window of your dining-room, I should
hear you."

Margaret smiled: "I shall have no occasion, I hope, for the assistance
of my champion till to-morrow; then you must hear my story, and help
me to devise some plan for communicating with my husband and child."

"You think your husband has taken the child?" said Arthur, stopping
suddenly.

"To-morrow, Arthur, to-morrow; before we discuss that point I must
rest."




CHAPTER XI.

_THE ACCOLADE OF KNIGHTHOOD._

    We live in deeds, not years; in thoughts, not breaths;
    In feelings, not in figures on a dial:
    We should count time by heart-throbs.


And Margaret rested that night, for the first time since the evening
when exhausted Nature had failed utterly and she had slept at the foot
of her lost child's bed. There was a new feeling of rest and hope in
her spirit; the events of the day had stimulated her; there was an
uprising of the dormant courage and energy in her nature; she began to
feel that something might yet be done. Jane was astonished that evening
to find some small impertinence on her part rebuked by her mistress
with all her old dignity, and to hear that if matters did not mend
very considerably she would run the chance of losing her lodger. She
was slightly alarmed, not only on this account, but also because this
sudden resurrection of spirit might notify a change in her lodger's
circumstances; but she kept her own counsel.

Breakfast was to be prepared for two. "Strange goings on," muttered
Jane to herself, but this time she did not dare to express her feelings.

Arthur arrived early in the morning. He was excited and restless.
With the impulsiveness of youth he had thrown himself heart and soul
into the task that appeared to be opening out before him, and until
some light had been thrown upon it he could not rest. He and Margaret
breakfasted together, but by mutual consent nothing was said about the
subject which engrossed them both until they had again left the house
behind them, and were able to talk quietly, without need for caution,
under the broad open sky.

She seemed so quiet, so self-contained, that Arthur began at last to
fear that she had forgotten her promise, or rather that it had been
given impulsively and withdrawn after calmer thought. And something
of curiosity--which, by the bye, is pretty highly developed in the
male portion of humanity--mingled with the true interest he took in
Margaret's concerns. But she had not forgotten.

They had been sitting for a few moments by the sea-shore, talking of
indifferent matters, when all at once she turned to him. "You ask me no
questions," she said; "you are not curious to know more about me?"

Arthur reddened: "Not curious, Mrs. Grey. I am ready to hear whatever
you wish to tell me. I know it can be nothing unworthy of yourself, and
pray do not imagine that I wish to hear anything you care to conceal or
that would give you pain to tell. I only desire to help you to the best
of my ability."

For Arthur was a little hurt by the question. She smiled and rested
her hand on his shoulder as she had done the day before, and her touch
stirred the young man's heart to a strange mixture of feelings--pride,
for it seemed to show that she depended on him, that his presence was a
comfort to her, and yet a certain mortification. "She would not treat
him in this way," he said to himself with somewhat of bitterness, "if
she could understand in the slightest degree the feelings that had
brought him to her--if she felt the remotest danger to her own heart in
the companionship. He was a boy to her, nothing more."

But Margaret spoke, and her voice had a salutary effect. In its sweet
sadness, the remnant of selfishness was rebuked.

    "Love took up the harp of life and smote on all the chords with might--
    Smote the chord of self, that, trembling, passed in music out of sight."

Thus it was with Arthur. Self trembled, but self passed. He was ready
to do everything for the sake alone of _her_ loveliness, of his love.

"You don't seem to care to ask me questions," she said gently, "so I
suppose I must take the matter into my own hands, and unasked let you
know something of my past life. I feel very old, Arthur--more fit to
be your mother than even your elder sister, as I called myself just
now; for life"--she looked across the sea, and her voice was low--"life
should be reckoned not by the years, the days, the moments, but by the
heart-pulses, the living, the battling, that the years and moments
hold. I am not really old. I married at the age of nineteen, and then
I had lived, I was older than my years; my little one was born when
I was twenty, just seven years ago; that gives you my age--an easy
piece of arithmetic. Many women are young at twenty-seven. I am old,
old; hush, Arthur! you must not protest. When life has lost all its
beauty and gladness, what can it be but dreary? And dreary days pass
slowly. The last eighteen months might have been eighteen years, and
that would make me old, even according to your reckoning. But I do not
seem to get on very fast with my story. Ah! I must go back--such a
long way--to the time when I was a girl, with a girl's freshness and
ignorance of life, and fervent belief in herself and the future. I lost
my parents even before that. I scarcely remember my mother. After her
death my father left me at school and took to wandering. He did not
survive her very long. But I was not left alone to battle with life.
An aunt, my mother's only sister, took her place with me. She, too,
had one daughter, and my cousin and I became like sisters; more than
sisters--friends. She was younger than I, but she was everything to me.
I don't think it can often be said of any woman that she loves another
verily better than herself, but this was actually the case with my poor
Laura. My loves, my accomplishments, my success were far more to her
than her own. We were one, absolutely one--never a breath of discord
between us; and now," Margaret paused and sighed deeply, "she has gone,
and my after-sorrows have been so bitter that I have not even a tear
to give to the memory of my first grief, the worst, I thought then,
that I could ever encounter. We had a passion for travelling--Laura and
I--and when she was about sixteen and I seventeen my aunt, who was then
a widow, indulged us by a six months' trip on the Continent. It was to
be strictly educational. My poor aunt! I can hear her now talking about
all we should do, the regular hours of study, the steady application.
Music was to be taken up in Germany, singing in Italy, languages
everywhere. She was too gentle for the management of such volatile
young ladies as we were. Laura and I had pretty much our own way. It
was a pleasant time. How intensely we enjoyed the fresh, new life, the
constant variety, the enlargement of ideas! Ah, if that could have been
all! But I must hasten on. You see," she smiled faintly, "I am like a
shivering mortal; afraid of the first plunge into icy waters, I hover
about the brink."

"If it is painful to you, say no more, Mrs. Grey," said Arthur
earnestly; "nothing you could possibly tell me would alter my feelings
toward you."

She shook her head: "It is kind of you to wish to spare me, but I
_must_ go on. You know you are to be my friend, and if you are ever
to help me you must know all. Laura and I were admired. Young English
ladies are thought much of abroad. And very innocently, I think, we
enjoyed the attention we excited. One of our admirers was continually
appearing and reappearing. He seemed to find out our plans as if by
intuition, was always on the spot when we wanted assistance, and on
more than one occasion saved us much trouble and annoyance by a little
timely help. A strange man who interested and puzzled us all, though
to this day I fail to understand him. As far as we could make out, he
was half Spanish, half French. Certainly he had the ease and grace
belonging so peculiarly to France, with the fire and enthusiasm of the
Spaniard. My aunt, I imagine, had full confidence in him, because his
hair was gray, though at that time he could not have been more than
forty, and his face was particularly plain. She could not have thought
of his cherishing anything but friendly feelings for girls like Laura
and me; indeed, I always have a kind of suspicion that she took his
manifold attentions to our party as a tribute of homage to herself,
for my aunt was a pretty woman, and by no means old to be Laura's
mother. M. L'Estrange did everything he could to foster this feeling.
How clever he was! his delicate flatteries! his personal kindnesses!
his assiduous courtesy! Laura and I enjoyed them often, for we were
wiser: _we_ knew that he thought himself neither too old nor too ugly
to fascinate _les demoiselles Anglaises_. And we both fell in love with
him, though in different ways. Laura had no scruple in speaking of her
affection. He was her 'bon père, her frère ainé;' she liked him better
than any one she had ever seen; and he in return petted and caressed
her, brought her cakes and bon-bons, took and demanded a thousand
and one little daughterly attentions, at all of which my good aunt
smiled complacently. But _she_ did not know what _Laura_ knew--that
he seized every opportunity for speaking to me of love. She made
opportunities--my sweet little cousin--for in her beautiful, unselfish
way she could imagine nothing more delightful than this love-making
ending in marriage, her sister and her _bon père_ living together, with
her for their little one, their 'chère fillette'--this last being one
of his pet names for Laura.

"We met in Paris, we met again in many of the Italian towns, and he and
I corresponded. I was very young; I knew nothing whatever of the world;
it seemed to me strange that with all his professions of devotion
he never mentioned marriage; but I believed his mode of living was
precarious and that as soon as something settled should be offered him
he would ask me to pledge myself. This was Laura's view, too, for my
little darling was older than her years, and she and I discussed the
matter frequently. But at last we--or I should say I--found out what he
was. Laura would scarcely believe anything against her bon père, but
_I_ knew that of him which I could not tell her. He and I parted, and
were to one another as if we never had been even so much as friends.
_I_ suffered, for though I believe now that my imagination rather than
my heart had been touched, still he had formed so large a part of my
life that the parting could not but be painful for the time. I should
have told you that all this had filled about two years; we had been
twice in England, and twice again on the Continent, before I could make
up my mind to break finally with my lover.

"It was in the course of the winter following my second visit, when
my heart was still aching with the kind of loneliness which the
withdrawal from my life of the one who had made all its romance for so
many months could not but cause, that I met my husband, Maurice Grey.
There could not have been a greater contrast. He had the fire of the
Frenchman, but he lacked his dissimulation. He was in those days--God
only knows how this trial may have changed him!--a true gentleman,
frank, manly, courageous, but with none of the delicate finish, the
courtly ease, the wily fascination of L'Estrange. I soon saw he loved
me--so deeply that my refusal to become his wife would cause him the
intensest pain--And when he made me an offer I accepted him at first
only because I was sorry for him and tired of my solitary position; but
I came to love him, and with a _far_ deeper, truer love than the former
had been, for that had a certain sense of dissatisfaction about it. I
never thoroughly understood M. L'Estrange; Maurice I honored as well
as loved, and with my whole heart. Ah!"--she covered her face with her
hands and moaned--"_if_ he could only have known! But to return: I told
him the whole story of my former love. It did not affect his feelings
toward me. We were married, and two, three years passed by happily.
I don't say we had _never_ little breaks. I suppose in every married
life these occur; and Maurice had one fault: he loved me too much--he
was inclined to be jealous of my affection. I think, when I look back
over that time, that the old story rankled in his mind; he could not
quite shake off the idea that my duty was his, my love still another's.
There came a time when our little child took ill. It was scarlet fever,
and after it was over the doctors recommended sea-air. This was in the
height of the London season, and my husband could not leave town. He
took lodgings for us in Ramsgate, and came to see us whenever it was
possible.

"Now comes the strange part of my story. Up to that time I had neither
seen Monsieur L'Estrange nor heard of him since my marriage.

"Of course I thought of him sometimes, and my poor Laura before she
died spoke of him often with lingering affection. At times I had a
kind of morbid curiosity about him. I felt as if I should like to meet
him, only to know whether I was perfectly cured--whether in my mature
age he could exercise the same strange fascination over me as in my
girlhood. This idea I never ventured to mention to Maurice. Would to
God I had! I was walking one day on the Ramsgate pier when suddenly I
saw him. My little girl and her nurse were with me. He recognized me
instantly, looked at me in his curious way and lifted his hat politely.
This chance meeting made a tumult in my brain, but I tried to treat
it as a matter of very small importance. On the next day Maurice was
to arrive, and here was my first false step. I said nothing to him of
the meeting. I noticed him once or twice look at me strangely, as if
trying to read my heart; but he said nothing and I said nothing. He
went away, and on that very morning arrived a letter in the small,
well-known handwriting. I knew it was from _him_, and yet, and yet--God
forgive me!--I opened and read it. It was a simple matter, after all,
claiming common acquaintanceship, asking permission to call on me.
He was waiting at the hotel; if I chose to forbid him he would go no
further; if he received no answer he would be with me in the course of
the afternoon. I persuaded myself that this meant nothing; we should
meet once more--meet as strangers. I should have the opportunity of
proving to myself how foolish my girlish weakness had been. And to
forbid his coming, what would it be but a tacit acknowledgment that he
still possessed a certain power over my heart? I decided to allow him
to come, and through the afternoon I sat indoors, waiting with (I will
always maintain) no stronger feeling than curiosity in my mind. It was
nearly evening before he arrived. I was in some trepidation, but he
behaved perfectly; his manner was easy and natural; he seemed to forget
there had been anything but simple friendship between us. We chatted
pleasantly for about half an hour, and then he rose to take his leave.
The room was in half darkness; I had sent my little one to bed. I put
out my hand carelessly, as I would have done to any ordinary stranger,
but a sudden change seemed to have come over him. To this day I have
never been able to account for it. He who had been so calm only a few
moments before was trembling with excitement. He seized my offered
hand, and before I knew where I was he was kneeling at my feet, pouring
out words that he had no right to speak nor I to hear. Before I could
thrust him away, before I could give voice to my indignation--ah! shall
I ever, ever forget that moment?--the door opened slowly, and I saw
my husband's face as I had never seen it before--dark, threatening,
suspicious. It all passed in a moment. I was conscious of sinking down
in a chair, and covering my face with my hands to hide my burning
shame, for my husband suspected me. I heard high words, and when I
looked up again Maurice and I were alone.

"'That man has escaped with his life,' he said sternly; 'he has you to
thank for it.' I tried to explain, but he stopped me harshly. It was a
stormy night. The wind was blowing about the house in fierce gusts. Oh
how every detail of that terrible time clings about my brain!

"My husband left me in the room alone. I sat there for it might be
an hour, as darkness had come before he returned. When he came in a
carpet-bag was in his hand; he was evidently dressed for travelling.
I sprang to my feet. I threw my arms around him; I implored him to
stay and listen to me, but he only answered with that dark suspicious
look. He loosened my hold at last--he reached the door; as he opened
it there swept a great blast of wind into the room. I shall always
feel thankful for that, for he saw me shivering as I lay exhausted on
the sofa, and he came back suddenly to cover me from head to foot in
his travelling-rug; then he kissed me--my poor Maurice!--and I saw
something like relenting in his sad eyes, but I was too weak to tell
him all: the soft moment passed, and I have never seen him since."

Margaret's voice sank into a wail. Her story had carried her away, so
much so that she had almost forgotten her companion, and when Arthur,
who had been listening intently, sprang suddenly to his feet, she was
almost startled.

"It is as we thought," he cried impetuously--"my cousin's very words;
she said it was some dreadful misunderstanding. But it shall be set
right. Mrs. Grey, you have given me your confidence nobly and truly. It
shall not be in vain. I have a kind of feeling that it will be given to
me to disentangle this coil."

And then he knelt down before her on the sands. "Margaret," he
said--and as he spoke the name with all a boy's timidity his young
face flushed and his eyes seemed to burn with a steady, lustrous
shining--"long ago, in the days of chivalry, ladies used to send out
their knights wearing their colors to fight for them and for truth and
for justice. Make me your knight, let me fight your battles. So help
me God, I will stand by you as your own brother might do; I will seek
through the world till I find your husband, I will never rest till I
have righted you! Will you accept my service?"

She smiled, and bending forward kissed him on the brow.

"It is the accolade of knighthood," she said. Then they rose together
and went toward the cottage, for the sun was high in the heavens.




CHAPTER XII.

_"I SHALL LIVE AND NOT DIE."_

    This world is the nurse of all we know,
      This world is the mother of all we feel,
    And the coming of death is a fearful blow
      To a brain unencompassed with nerves of steel.


They had further discussion that evening. Margaret told her young
protector, after she had rested a little, how from that day she had
been persecuted by the attempts of L'Estrange to force himself upon
her. How at last she had found this little seaside village, and had
rested there with her child, hoping its isolation and retirement would
hide her. She told of her adventures in London, of the escape so
ably managed by Adèle, of the discovery of her hiding-place, of that
interview, and of her persecutor's concluding words, which, as she
believed, had foreshadowed her present trouble.

"This is the mystery," said Mrs. Grey in conclusion, looking down at
the scarf, "for a vague idea begins to dawn on me that I did _not_
leave it on that seat on the sandhills. I remember, or I think I
remember--all that night is in a kind of maze--looking for it, and
being annoyed by the belief that M. L'Estrange had taken it away with
him for some reason best known to himself."

"What!" said Arthur eagerly; "then, after all, this might be explained.
Mrs. Grey, do you know I begin to have a dawning suspicion that your
husband was not the person who took away your child? In the first
place, to act in this way would be very unlike an English gentleman,
such as, from your account, I imagine Mr. Grey to be; then that threat
of the villain who was annoying you was _un peu fort_--one might
possibly see daylight through it; then--"

He stopped, for Margaret was giving no attention to his reasons. "_Not_
my husband!" she cried, and there came a sudden light into her face.
"If I could only think so, but even to wish it would be wrong. Think of
my poor little darling in strange hands!"

"That need scarcely alarm you. The person with whom your child was
seemed to take every care of her."

"And you think that person was--?" Margaret fixed her eye on Arthur.
The dreadful wildness was gathering there once more.

"Dear Mrs. Grey," he said earnestly, "I only say I have my suspicions.
Trust me, I will leave no stone unturned to find your husband and
child. I _have_ a clue to both."

"What do you mean?"

Arthur gave in answer the story of the Russian, omitting, of course,
the suspicion of the fair St. Petersburgers.

"My first step," he said, "shall be to look up Count Orloff. He has
set the Russian police to work, and I believe has found out something
through Mrs. Grey's solicitor in England. Your child and the gentleman
with whom she is will certainly be conspicuous travellers. I made
inquiries at York, at the hotel and station, and found that about a
week ago they must have taken the train from York to Southampton, so
it is highly probable they were bound for some foreign port. We must
set agents to work at Cherbourg, Havre, Lisbon and Gibraltar, for I
think it scarcely likely they can have left Europe. Courage, my dear
Mrs. Grey! I think we shall light upon them. _I_ will follow the track
most likely to have been taken by your husband, leaving the recovery of
the child in the hands of my solicitor--a very different person, I can
assure you, from Mr. Robinson--for if, as I suspect, this villain has
taken his revenge by depriving you of your child, remember, it is an
offence punishable by law, and he shall be hunted down till his crime
is discovered and himself traced."

The young man's form dilated, he stood erect, he looked what he was--an
Englishman, strong, vigorous, full of noble impulse, of physical
power, of untiring energy. The languor of the fashionable, the elegant
good-for-nothingness, the nonchalant indifference, had all gone; he had
found an object and was ready to throw himself heart and soul into its
pursuit.

Margaret listened to his hope-inspiring words, and she felt herself
animated with a new courage. She turned to her young protector with
glistening eyes: "And you are ready to do all this for me? How shall I
thank you?"

"By being strong and courageous," he answered; "but, Mrs. Grey, it
is I who should talk of gratitude. You have changed me from an idle
good-for-nothing into a man with an object before him, an aim to
which all his soul is given. I know it is a good thing. I feel it. It
will be my first battle with the world's injustice. God grant it may
succeed! I believe it will. There is one thing more. You tell me that
your landlady, in relating the story of your child's disappearance,
described your husband. Now, either one of two things. My theory,
supported by the waiter at York and suggested by the man's own words,
is wrong altogether, or else she has been bribed to give you false
information. In the latter case--which, I must say, rather fits in with
my own ideas--she ought to be watched; and certainly this is no place
for you. Who knows what she might not do in dread of discovery? Here
you are more or less in her power. Think a moment. Have you no friends?"

Margaret turned pale. "Jane has certainly acted strangely of late,"
she said, after a pause; "she has even been insolent once or twice
when, as she thought, I was too weak to notice it; but I cannot think
her quite so bad as you seem to imagine. I do not wish to leave this
place yet; you see, I have become accustomed to it. Then I have a kind
of feeling that here, if anywhere, my trouble is to end. You remember
that picture which was the first link between you and me? Do you know
why it appealed to me so strangely? It was like a kind of dream I have
often had. I used to say in the old days that I had what Goethe called
the second sight. Sometimes at superstitious moments I was inclined
to think this dream a kind of vision of the future, and it comforted
me beyond measure. It has come so often and in such different forms,
but it always ends in the same way--Maurice coming back to me over the
sea, and living here in my quiet corner. If I could tell you how much I
have built on this small foundation! But the dream only comes with the
sea-sounds. In those miserable London days I used even to pray for it
at night, I was so utterly hopeless; it never came."

Arthur looked thoughtful: "I shall see my cousin before I go; she has
been very delicate lately, and my aunt, I believe, is very anxious for
her to have change of air. Perhaps she would allow her to come here and
stay with you for a time."

Margaret shook her head: "I cannot hope for that, though of all things
I think it would be the pleasantest; but do not be uneasy on my
account. No doubt I shall manage very well by myself; and you will let
me hear whenever any trace has been found?"

"Indeed I will, Mrs. Grey; and cheer up, for I believe that will be
soon."

"God grant it!"

Margaret clasped her thin hands together. She looked so frail, so
shadow-like in the failing light, that Arthur's heart gave a sudden
bound. What if she were fading--if, before he could gladden her by the
news she craved, her spirit should have passed from earth? The thought
made him impatient. He longed to be up and doing, taking the first step
at least in his self-set task. And here would be a plea to urge with
her husband. If he had ever loved her, surely, surely he would forget
everything and fly back to her side when he should hear of her state.

Arthur was ready with youth's burning eloquence to plead for her. He
felt he could paint her in such colors that not the stoniest heart
could resist him. And while he was thinking it all out, already at his
goal, pouring into the ears of the man he sought the history that had
come upon his own youth like a life-giving power, of the beautiful,
patient lady wasting her fair life away in faithful solitude, she
turned from the open window, crossed the little room and sat down by
his side.

"God has been good to me," she said gently. "I thought He would take me
away in my sadness, life's broken entangled threads lying loosely in my
hands, but now He has given me back my hope. I shall live and not die,
at least not yet. Young man, there is something in the Bible about the
'blessing of those who are ready to perish.' Surely in the sight of the
All-pitiful that must be a good thing. It is yours. Poor that I am, I
can offer you no more."

Arthur's eyes glistened. "I hold it more precious than gold," he said,
stooping over her hand and raising it to his lips; "with this I think I
could engage the world."




CHAPTER XIII.

_ARTHUR AT WORK._

    Wait, and Love himself will bring
    The drooping flower of knowledge, changed to fruit
    Of wisdom.


And so Arthur Forrest's little love-dream was dispelled. In Margaret's
presence, with her calm, saddened beauty before him, her gentle
words in his ears, he had not seemed to feel it; for as at the first
her beauty had come upon him like a heaven-sent message, arousing
dormant emotion, awaking his spirit from youth's self-worship, so now
it continued its work by slaying absolutely the still dominant self
within him. He had thought and hoped and longed and chafed through
the weeks of London life, haunted by her presence and by the dream
of gaining her. He saw her again, he recognized that she was not for
him, and he submitted, without a single wish to drag down the goddess
of his idolatry from her seat in the clouds to a lower seat by his
side. Arthur was young. Had the dream come later he might have acted
differently, but as yet he was tolerably free from the world-wisdom
which so many able teachers were ready to impart; besides, there was
that in her quiet dignity, in her ready confidence, in her natural way
of accepting his knight-errantry, that would have effectually checked
any presumption. She did not even seem to imagine that the passion she
had inspired in the breast of this man, so much her junior, could be
anything but transitory, and in her presence he acquiesced calmly.

The reaction came when he was alone in the hotel that night. To lose no
time he had started for York in the evening, and the officious waiter,
his friend of the day before, had procured for him the same rooms which
he had occupied then. Peopled they had been with the creations of his
fancy evoked by her, and the prospect of seeing her again; he returned
to them disappointed, denuded of hope, and there was a rue look in his
young face as once more he inflicted the echo of his restlessness on
the innocent occupant of the room below. For when all had been said and
done--when he should have compassed heaven and earth to restore her to
happiness and peace--when (for Arthur never dreamt of failure) through
his efforts, and his alone, she should be enjoying once more the
position from which by no fault of her own she had been torn--when her
husband should return to his faith and devotion, and her child be given
back to her arms,--then for himself, what? A grateful remembrance at
most. Their lives would drift apart, ever more widely: he who believed
he should be able to make her joy would yet form no part of it. His
very love would have to be smothered--to be as if it had not been. With
all the grand sentiments in the world to set against it, this is not an
easy thing to bear.

The greatest hero, the most self-abnegating being that ever lived,
must, I think, have had these moments of reaction--moments when the
heart, looking inward, aches a little for the poor trembling self which
must be buried, hidden away out of sight, if the life would be whole
and consistent.

And Arthur Forrest was no hero; only a young gentleman trained in the
school of luxury and self-pleasing, and for the first time brought
face to face with necessity. One thing in his favor was that it was
necessity--that there could be no beating about the bush, no half
measures. As a gentleman and a man of honor he was bound to serve the
lady of his choice, and to serve without hope of recompense--such
recompense, at least, as he had pictured to himself only twenty-four
hours before.

Perhaps nothing better could have happened to the young man than this
early enforced lesson of submission to the law of necessity. Young men
start off on life's race like well-fed stallions, scenting the goal
afar off, and if the world be moderately submissive they ride over her
rough-shod till her weeds and nettles sting them and they fall back
panting from the course. But if the yoke be borne early, submission
becomes a habit and its difficulty is infinitely less. Arthur, however,
could not be expected to be thankful for the salutary lesson, and
what wonder that when the first excitement of planning and scheming,
of playing the grand _rôle_ of disinterested benefactor was over, he
looked a trifle blue and crestfallen, called himself hard names, and
quarrelled with what he was for the moment pleased to look upon as his
"ridiculous age!"

There is something in the forced inaction of night, when it is not
occupied entirely with its legitimate tenant, Sleep, to nurture morbid
thoughts and gloomy ideas. Like misshapen ghosts they flee with the
daylight--when, that is to say, their sources are not very deep in the
spirit, imbedded there by cruel, unbending circumstance, for then night
is the relief-bringer, morning has the pale terrors of reality in its
train. Arthur's woes were rather of the imagination than the heart.
Morning and action dissipated them.

He was up early, and before midday had satisfied the proprietor of
the hotel about the ownership of the Indian scarf, had gathered fresh
particulars from the waiter, had cross-examined Jane, the soft-hearted
chambermaid, with all the acumen of a barrister, had caught the morning
mail, and was far on his way to London.

The fruit of his first day's exertions--for he could not rest until
something had been done--was that he had obtained the permission of his
guardians (merely nominal, for he was within three weeks of attaining
his majority) for a lengthened absence from England, and that by the
next morning's mail a messenger was ready to start for Middlethorpe,
with a hopeful missive from himself and a little casket containing
the jewelry which had been left to the grasping hands and predatory
instincts of Mr. Robinson.

The messenger was an elderly woman, with gray hair and a pleasant,
homely face. She had been Arthur Forrest's nurse, and his mother had
left her a pension amply sufficient to keep her in comfort and supply
her few wants. The old woman's affection for her nursling was so great
that she had never lost sight of him, and the young man, who knew how
much he owed to her tender care, had gratified her in his youth and
manhood by visiting her from time to time.

Old Mrs. Foster had been the recipient of Arthur's confidence more
than once, and she had helped him out of many a boyish scrape. In this
dilemma he thought of her. The kind old woman took an interest in his
tale, especially because there seemed to be no scheme attached to it
for the entrapping of her darling. That he should be led away by the
snares of womankind was a subject of constant terror to Mrs. Foster.

"Tak' tent of the lassies, my bairn," she would say to him at times;
"they're an awfu' sight tae deep for the lads."

But on this occasion there seemed to be no lassie in the question; only
a suffering lady, who, in the very teeth of her bairn's most dangerous
admissions (over these the old woman shook her head solemnly), had
confessed to a husband still, as it seemed, in the land of the living.

She consented readily--all the more so, perhaps, because of the power
it would give her of watching the matter--to what Arthur had been
almost afraid to mention, that she herself should become for the time
being a kind of confidential servant to the lady, supposing Margaret
herself would permit it. In any case she would not shrink from the
office of messenger and from the task of observation, for with her
young master she was of opinion that the landlady was a dangerous
person.

It was a tolerable amount of work for one day, and Arthur was
satisfied. He felt that the stone was set rolling at all points, and
that it would reach its destination in time if human skill and human
energy could accomplish anything.




CHAPTER XIV.

_TWO INTERVIEWS._

    One equal temper of heroic hearts,
    Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will
    To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield.


Mr. Robinson was virtuously indignant and highly incensed at the turn
matters had taken. He talked loudly at home and among his religious
friends--who were accustomed to small roughnesses in his style, but
attributed them to the manly nature of his Christianity--about the
young jackanapes, another of your fine gentlemen, who impudently
meddled with what could not possibly concern him; but in presence of
Arthur Forrest's young chivalry he was rather more subdued than usual.
Not that he appeared to be crestfallen--that would have been a tacit
acknowledgment of feeling himself to be in the wrong: he only took the
matter as was becoming to a man and a Christian to take it, laying
himself down ostentatiously for his young friend to tread upon, but
bringing in from time to time unexpected hints about the youthfulness
of the course of conduct he was pursuing, about the necessity for
common sense in dealing with the world, and the certainty he felt that
sooner or later his young friend would find out his mistake.

Arthur left him with no victory but such as was represented by the
casket, which Mr. Robinson had willingly surrendered.

The lawyer assured Arthur Forrest, showing his teeth and smiling
pleasantly, that when he knew more of the world he would be aware that
what Mrs. Grey had done was a thing done every day. He could show--and
he opened drawer after drawer to substantiate his statement--pounds'
worth of jewelry left, and left wisely, by ladies who had no need for
it for the moment, in the keeping of their solicitor. If Mrs. Grey had
ceased to repose confidence in him--he shrugged his shoulders to prove
his entire indifference--he could only say that the sooner she took
charge of her own valuables the better, both for her and for himself.
Certainly, she had acted rather strangely after all the trouble he had
taken in the affair for very inadequate remuneration--and _his_ time,
as all the world knew, was valuable; but one must not expect gratitude
in this world. He only trusted--for he could not help still taking a
certain interest in the matter--that everything would be far better
managed.

Arthur left the office, in fact, with a very bewildered feeling about
his brain. He had known Mr. Robinson well by rumor, but hitherto he
had not been brought into very close contact with him. This interview
shook him considerably. He was at a loss to account for the strange
mixture in the man--his apparent frankness and bonhomie, his real
selfishness and hypocrisy. Before men and women know the world well
they find it difficult to understand mixtures. People, with them, are
ranged into two vast classes, each class bearing written on its brow
in legible characters the legend of its belonging. The good are in
their imagination all frankness, courage, ingenuity; the bad have the
malignant scowl of a villain in a play. They are totally unprepared for
the frank address, the words of common sense and true wisdom, which men
whose hearts are bad have picked up in intercourse with their betters,
and which they use daily in the world as a kind of current coin whose
worth is incalculable. Mr. Robinson had plenty of this, and it somewhat
staggered Arthur. But the recollection of his friend strengthened him,
and he cast aside as unworthy all the lawyer's hints.

Quietly he requested Mr. Robinson to use neither time nor money in the
effort to find Mr. Grey, and to prepare for having Mrs. Grey's affairs
most thoroughly looked into, as she had friends who would see justice
done to her. The lawyer's parting shrug and voluble assurance of entire
indifference were lost on the young man. He had a more satisfactory
interview later in the same day. His own man of business, Mr. Golding,
was shrewd and well versed in character. He knew where his own
interests lay, and when it was possible he guarded them carefully; but
he was actually--what Mr. Robinson made a loud profession of being--a
God-fearing, conscientious man. He, or the firm he represented, and
which had succeeded to him from his father, had taken charge of the
property inherited by Arthur Forrest for some generations. Naturally,
then, he took a deep interest in it, and it was a matter of some moment
to him that the young heir should place the same confidence in the firm
as his father had done before him.

When, therefore, he came with his tale--a tale that to the man of the
world sounded rather romantic and far-fetched--Mr. Golding listened
patiently. He did not fail to represent to his client that the business
on which he was embarking was of a highly delicate nature; that
action of his might very possibly be looked upon as an impertinent
interference; that in any case his success--in one at least of the
objects he had set before him--was extremely doubtful. Not that there
could be much difficulty in finding Mr. Grey. If he should still be
above ground he would be found; if not, the fact could easily be
ascertained. The question was, whether, in the first place, there had
not been some motive beyond that imagined for his long absence (it was
difficult for a hard-headed man of business like Mr. Golding even to
imagine how any man could behave so impulsively in such an emergency),
and in this case his return was certainly improbable; whether, in the
second place, should he have left England solely on this account, his
belief in his wife's unworthiness would not be too deeply rooted to
yield to a few enthusiastic words; whether, in the third place, granted
even that his mood toward his wife had softened in the interval, he
would not resent the intervention of a stranger, and be inclined to
feel annoyance at a stranger's intimate knowledge of his affairs.

To all this Arthur only answered, "I know there are difficulties: I am
prepared for them. I will set to work with great prudence, but set to
work I _must_. The question is this, Do you feel inclined to help me?"

The shrewd man of law saw that his young client was in earnest, and
he demurred no longer. "I will help you willingly," he said. "I
only wished to prepare you for certain difficulty and very probable
disappointment. And now to work. This gentleman was last heard of at
St. Petersburg?"

"Yes. He left there ill and evidently dissatisfied. His friends feared
he had some intention of committing suicide."

The lawyer's lip curled ever so slightly: "The ladies were in want
of a bit of sensation. Probably Mr. Maurice Grey is forgotten by
this time. More likely, I should say, late hours and a gay life had
knocked him up. There is no city where a man can live faster than in
St. Petersburg. He left, probably, to get a little rest, and would not
write for fear of another pressing invitation. But he can't live on
air, wherever he may be. Can you tell me if he derives his income from
property in England?"

"I believe he does, and that he communicates from time to time with his
solicitor in London. I have _his_ name too. But I believe he is close,
or has been recommended to secrecy by his client."

Arthur passed a card to Mr. Golding, who glanced at it and gave a
sudden exclamation: "_That_ Grey! Why, I know all about him. You have a
mortgage on his property, Mr. Forrest, and a very first-rate security
it is, too; we could not wish for better. I will write at once to my
friend Edwards appointing an interview. There's a little matter of
business between us, so he will suspect nothing. Then I shall draw him
on to Mr. Grey. He has once or twice entertained me with an account
of his eccentricities. You must not be _too_ sanguine. I believe Mr.
Grey has a kind of objection to letting any one know his true address;
so, even upon the authority of Edwards, I may be sending you off on a
wild-goose chase. However, if we hear something of his whereabouts, we
shall have less difficulty in tracing him."

"How strange," said Arthur meditatively, "that I should have had
something to do with him all this time without knowing it! But about
the other matter, Golding--the child?"

"There I disagree with you entirely. That any man can have taken so
stupid a revenge is really absurd, even to imagine. No: Mrs. Grey's
first impression was correct. Her husband wished to overlook the
education of his daughter. He carried out his purpose in a most
unwarrantable manner; but evidently the man is soured--_I_ should say
scarcely responsible. Perhaps he sent an agent to secure the child,
and this would account for the gray hair and foreign appearance. More
probably still, a good deal of this was put on for effect by your
informant."

"I don't think so," returned Arthur. "It is just possible, as you say,
that Mr. Grey deputed some one to fetch his child, but it would be a
very strange kind of proceeding."

"Not half so strange as your foreigner encumbering himself with such a
charge out of mere jealousy. However, all this remains to be proved.
Southampton, you say? I will send a clerk there to make inquiries--a
sharp fellow; he has often done me good service in this line. He
shall start this afternoon. It's a pity it has been delayed so long.
If Robinson had understood his duty, he would have set this search
on foot at once. In eight days no one knows what can be done with a
child. However, I have great hope of a clue from Southampton. As you
say, they must be conspicuous travellers. And now, my dear sir, you
are interesting yourself very much about your neighbors, but are you
aware that in three weeks' time we shall have to give an account of our
proceedings during your minority? It is quite necessary that you should
make some provision for the transaction of your business, especially
as, if you follow out your present plans, your whereabouts for the next
few months may be doubtful."

"I have thought of it," replied Arthur gravely, "and I hope I am
not totally unaware of the responsibilities of my position. For the
present, however, I shall ask you to continue to take the entire
management. When this affair which occupies me so much is over, I shall
be ready to receive your statement, which I know will be satisfactory
in every way." He smiled as he spoke and held out his hand.

Mr. Golding was surprised as well as touched. It was pleasant to the
man of business--whose labor in the cause of young Forrest's family had
been to a certain degree a labor of love--to find his client able to
take a practical, common-sense view of his position, and to appreciate
his upright and assiduous care.

He smiled in return, and shook the young man's hand warmly: "You
gratify me, my dear sir. Yes, indeed, I have done my best, my very
best, for the estate, as my father did before me; and the day upon
which I shall deliver up my accounts and those of your guardians
into your hands is one to which I have long looked forward with
pleasant anticipation. In the mean time I may say, in the name of
your guardians, that you can draw upon us in excess of your ordinary
allowance. There are certain accumulations of income which we always
thought would serve for some such purpose as this projected journey. We
could have wished, of course, that it had been delayed, but as matters
stand for you to anticipate their receipt by a few days can be an
affair of no great moment to us."

And thus it was arranged. Arthur's way was smoothed, and nothing
remained to be done but the attainment of some clue to Maurice Grey's
place of refuge.




CHAPTER XV.

_THE YOUNG PEOPLE UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER AT LAST._

    If that there be one scene in life wherefrom
    Evil is absent, it is pure early love.


Adèle's languor increased with the summer. The heat, which had grown
intense in and about London, the fatigues of the season, the anxiety
about Arthur and their mutual friend Mrs. Grey,--all these worked upon
a constitution in which the seeds of delicacy were deeply rooted.

Mrs. Churchill began to be anxious, and to cast about for some suitable
method of giving her daughter change of air. Nothing presented
itself for the moment. It was too early for Scarborough or Whitby;
only plebeians frequented Brighton in July; against the Continent,
Switzerland, Germany or the Italian lakes Adèle protested loudly, and
the good Mrs. Churchill felt a certain sinking of heart at the prospect
of putting the breadth of the Channel between herself and England
during the London season. The little gossip of society, the _projets
de mariage_, the whispers of political complications, the scandals of
high life were dear to Mrs. Churchill's soul. And at this special time,
when the air was rife with rumor, it would have been irritating, to say
the least of it, to go out into the blank of an existence from which
the _Morning Post_ and _Court Journal_ would of necessity be excluded.
But none of these things could alter the fact. Adèle was pining in the
great city; she wanted change of air.

Indecision and anxiety are not improving to the temper. The
good-natured Mrs. Churchill became sharp and irritable. She was annoyed
with Adèle for being ill, and with Fate for not delaying her illness by
a few weeks, when London could be left without a pang, and the bracing
climate of Scarborough would have been open to them; she was angry
with Arthur for his new independence and mysterious course of conduct,
and especially with that absurd Mrs. Grey, who seemed, by means of her
romantic story and inexplicable power of fascination, to be at the
root of all the inconvenience. The worst of it was that this internal
effervescence could be allowed very little external vent, for Arthur
and Mrs. Grey were out of reach, and the doctors, several of whom had
been consulted, had given express orders that Adèle should be kept as
quiet as possible. Of course it was idle to rave against Fate, for Fate
is calm and impersonal, and only bruises the breasts of the tumultuous.
The servants were the only sufferers, but they took their mistress's
ill-temper with great equanimity, knowing their personal comforts would
not be one jot diminished, and that this storm would pass as others
had passed before it. But Mrs. Churchill could not always keep her
annoyance from her daughter, and on one of these hot days her feelings
became quite too much for her.

Adèle was on the sofa again, deeply engrossed in one of her pet volumes
with the calf-skin binding. Her mother had been wandering about from
one position to another in the vain effort to cool herself; she had
tried at least a dozen different fans, she had bathed her face and
hands again and again in eau-de-cologne, she had read a little and
worked a little, had taken up the paper and thrown it down again, had
sighed and fumed and bustled till her state was really pitiable.

"Adèle," she cried at last, "for Goodness' sake put down that book.
Whatever the doctor may say about your not being crossed, I'm quite
sure--and so I told him only yesterday--that so much reading is very
bad for the mind, especially in hot weather. Why, _I_ can't even get
through the paper; and you look as pale as a ghost. Oh," wringing her
hands in desperation, "if I only knew what to do with you!"

"Only don't excite yourself, mamma," said Adèle languidly.

"Excite myself? That is not a very dutiful way of addressing your
mother, Adèle, especially when what you call my excitement is solely on
your account."

"I know it, mamma dear," said Adèle gently, putting down the obnoxious
volume. "Forgive me if I annoyed you, but really I wish so much that
you would cease being anxious about me. I shall be better as soon as
ever the weather is a little cooler."

"And how long may we suppose that will be?" Mrs. Churchill panted, and
began again agitating desperately the latest fan, a feathered one. "I
tell you what it is, if this goes on I shall shut up the house and
leave London altogether."

She spoke defiantly, as if London would be greatly the sufferer by such
a step.

Adèle shook her head: "You would certainly not like it, dear. No: I'll
tell you what to do. You must get Mary Churchill to stay with you here.
It will be pleasant for her to see a little of London, and you know
Aunt Mary will be charmed. Send me away somewhere for a fortnight. I
have a kind of longing for the sea." The young girl closed her eyes.
"I can imagine it, mamma, always so fresh and beautiful--Lord Byron's
'deep and dark blue ocean.' How nice it would be after the tiresome,
dusty streets and squares! I shall get better there directly; I feel
it."

Mrs. Churchill sighed impatiently: "One would think to hear you, Adèle,
that a young lady could live at the seaside by herself, without any
protection. Pray, little Miss Wisdom, how am I to send you to this sea
which you describe so romantically? I do believe those poetry-books are
at the root of all the mischief. I wish they were all drowned in that
same blue ocean. Blue, indeed! _I_ never see it anything but a dirty
gray. I suppose I want the fine poetic insight. And instead of helping
me you have started another difficulty. I promised your aunt Mary to
show your cousin a little of the world this season; of course it would
have been pleasanter for you to have gone out together; you are such
different styles that it might have been very safely done. I must say
it is extremely tiresome to have all one's plans upset. I wouldn't mind
so much if I could see any way out of all this, but really and truly I
was never so utterly at sea in my life."

"Write to Aunt Mary," said Adèle cheerfully, "and leave me to manage
the rest."

"Leave you, indeed! I might as well leave a baby. I know your
unpractical schemes of old. Dear me! I wish I could think of some
feasible plan."

"Only don't fret yourself, dear," said Adèle, kissing her mother
affectionately; "and listen! is that not Arthur's knock? I dare say he
can help us."

"_Very_ likely!" said Mrs. Churchill in a manner that was meant to be
splendidly satirical. "However," she continued, "I must dress now, but
I shall come down again before I go out; and remember, Adèle, if I find
he has excited your mind by any of his absurd romances, I shall forbid
him the house at once."

Adèle's eyes twinkled pleasantly at this awful threat. She knew her
mother too well to have even the faintest fear of its fulfilment.

When Arthur came in she saw in a moment that he was changed. The
languid, quasi-sentimental look had gone from his face, his step was
brisk and vigorous, he held himself erect; he even seemed to his
cousin's partial eyes to have grown since she saw him last. For the
moment as she gazed she trembled. It was all over, then. He had come to
tell her of success; but, reproving herself for the selfishness of the
thought, she held out her hand with a smile: "The sea-air has done you
good, Arthur; you look a different person."

He looked down upon her kindly: "I think I am better, Adèle, and in
more ways than one; but, my poor little cousin, I can't return the
compliment; you look as pale as a ghost. What in the world has Aunt
Ellen been doing with you?"

Adèle flushed painfully, for she was impatient to know what his
experience had been: "Please don't mind my looks, Arthur. Remember I am
curious. Be kind to me, dear," she smiled faintly; "keep me no longer
in suspense. Your eyes tell me something has been done."

Arthur sat down, and took one of her hands in his: "What do you read in
them, Adèle?"

She looked away, shading her face with her hand: "That you have
something to live for at last--that she, the woman whom you love--and I
believe she is worthy of your love"--it was bravely said, though there
was a certain rebellious rising in the poor little throat; she paused
a moment to choke it down, then continued very calmly--"that Margaret
has chosen you for her protector, that you are already busy planning to
restore her to happiness."

Arthur smiled again, then stooped over his cousin's sofa: "Why do you
look away, Adèle? If I should say that all this is true, that you are
the most penetrating little lady in the world, would you not be glad,
seeing that I have only obeyed you?"

"Don't, Arthur, don't," was the stifled answer, for he was struggling
with the hand which hid her averted face, and tears were in her eyes,
tyrannous exponents of a secret she would have died rather than
reveal. Arthur might have descanted with reason on the capriciousness
of woman's character, but he did not; he only smiled very tenderly,
and drew the tear-stained face to a surer shelter as he told in a few
earnest, manly words of the experiences of the last few days, and of
the task he had set himself.

"Adèle," he whispered in conclusion, "I am cured. When I left you my
brain was full of mad ideas. _She_ showed me their folly, and now I can
admire her, I can honor her, I can even love her, as a brother might,
with the purest desire for her happiness, which I still earnestly hope
to restore by giving her back her husband. For myself, my dream has
changed. Listen, Adèle, dear. Look up at me once: my present hope is
this--to strive by every means in my power to make myself worthy of the
gentlest, the most womanly, the noblest--"

She read the rest in his eyes, and with a smile that irradiated her
face till it was absolutely beautiful she looked up and put her finger
on his lips: "Hush, dear, hush! say no more; you make me ashamed of
myself, I have been so impatient and foolish. But, Arthur, I am happy
now, _so_ happy!"

She rested her head on the sofa and looked up at him, her blue eyes
shining and her cheeks glowing with soft excitement; a little smile of
contentment was playing about her lips, her golden hair fell back from
her forehead in rippling waves; she was fairer than ever before, for
nothing is so beautifying as happiness, especially to women of Adèle's
type.

Her cousin felt it. He looked at her with a smile. "Do you know,
Adèle," he said gently, "I never thought you beautiful before, but you
_are_ beautiful. What is it that is new to me in your face, little
cousin?"

She shook her head: "I can't tell, dear, unless perhaps it may be that
never in all my life have I been so _very_, very happy."

By which answer it will be seen that Adèle was but a novice in the ways
of the world. She was not afraid, now she knew her love was returned,
of letting its fullness be seen.

Let him love her little or much, that he loved her was enough. From the
moment that was known she could not help letting him see she was his
without reserve.

And Arthur's was not a nature to abuse such confidence "She trusts
me fully. She shall never regret it," he said to himself. The
consciousness of love and confidence unreservedly given is ennobling to
some natures. His cousin's simple trust was a new rock of strength to
the young man.

He stooped and kissed the young girl's ruddy lips, and there went
from her warm, glowing life and love a thrill of something reciprocal
through his being. He loved her, not with the first unreasoning love of
the boy throwing his wilful soul into a dream that has come he knows
not how--that is beautiful, fascinating, enthralling, he knows not
why--but with a riper, better feeling, for those weeks' experience had
served to form the young man's character, and it may be that for the
time he was even in advance of his years.

He loved his cousin for herself, with a love founded on the sure basis
of unwavering respect. He had seen her as she was, and he admired her
with all his soul for her beautiful unselfishness. Besides, _she_ loved
him with a force of loving that only a few weeks before would have
been utterly incomprehensible to him. Arthur's suffering had taught him
something, and he was able to understand his cousin.

After the mutual revelation they chatted together pleasantly, formed
plans by the thousand for Arthur's guidance in the difficult task that
was before him and for Adèle's demeanor in his absence. They were as
happy as two birds in a nest, for Arthur was at rest in his heart and
in his conscience, and in the light of her own happiness and pride
Adèle could not even be distressed at the indefinite separation before
them. For with the sanguine nature of youth she could not bring herself
to believe it would be long.

But as they talked the glow faded from her face. She was still weak,
and the glad excitement that had lent so soft a bloom to her cheek for
a time was itself exhausting.

Arthur was alarmed as he looked at her, she was so pale and fragile.
This friend, whose affection he had almost despised, was becoming
infinitely dear to him, and with a sudden pang he thought that perhaps
this delicacy might mean more than they had imagined.

"Adèle," he said in a startled tone, leaning over her sofa and gazing
anxiously into her eyes, "you must keep nothing from me; remember I am
to be your husband. Tell me the whole truth, or I shall go away from
you with a haunting fear. Is anything seriously wrong with you? Does
the doctor seem alarmed?"

She smiled a glad smile. It was sweet to be so cared for.

"In all honesty I believe not, dear. All I want is change of air. You
see I am weak," she sighed, "and all these people coming and going tire
me. Oh, Arthur, if you knew how I long for the sea sometimes! It is
like a kind of home-sickness. I feel as if I should be well at once if
I could only hear the waves. Don't you know--that nice, fresh, restful
sound?"

"I can't conceive why Aunt Ellen keeps you here," said Arthur with the
indignant impatience of youth. A few days before he had not been so
boundlessly considerate for his cousin himself. But human nature is
ever the same. We would wish all our neighbors to view the landscape
from our own standpoint; indeed, we are sometimes highly incensed if
they persist in looking at it from theirs.

"Poor mamma!" said Adèle, "she is quite put out and puzzled about me.
You see, she never likes to leave London at this time; and then she
promised to have Cousin Mary here, and there is so much going on."

"But why need _she_ go?" persisted Arthur. "Now, if she would only
agree to the arrangement, and if you could stand the journey, I would
willingly see you as far as Middlethorpe. Mrs. Grey has plenty of spare
room, she would be delighted to see you, and old Martha is travelling
there to-day, so that you would be well taken care of; then later in
the year Aunt Ellen could pick you up on her way to Scarborough."

Adèle shook her head: "_I_ should like it very much, but I fear mamma
won't. She will call it one of our unpractical schemes."

"But that's all nonsense," said Arthur impatiently; "she must either
take you away herself or let some one else do it, and surely I am as
fit a person as any one to decide on what is fitting for my future
wife."

Adèle laughed out merrily then, for as the last words were spoken in a
tone of indescribable importance, the door opened and Mrs. Churchill
appeared, radiant with smiles and good-humor. She had caught the
latter part of Arthur's sentence, and its decisive tenor set her mind
completely at rest. Evidently these ridiculous young people had at last
settled matters to their own satisfaction and hers.

"Treason in the camp!" she said, gayly, repulsing her nephew's offered
hand. "No, no, sir; before I have anything whatever to say to you I
must hear the burden of your complaint, and understand from your own
lips _what_ is fitting for your future wife."

"Mamma!" "Aunt Ellen!" Adèle and Arthur were covered with confusion in
a moment.

"Blushing, too!" said that lady unpityingly. "Come, Master Arthur, your
confusion is becoming, and Adèle's blushes particularly charming, but
_I_ am not answered. What are your lordship's commands? for I suppose
they must be obeyed."

"Must they, Aunt Ellen? _tant mieux_," answered the young man lightly;
"then I shall lay them upon you without delay. This young lady"--he
took one of Adèle's hands and held it in his--"my future wife, as you
observe, is looking wretchedly ill and worn; she requires change of air
at once."

Mrs. Churchill's face clouded: "Easily stated, my dear nephew; the
difficulty is at the present moment to give it to her."

"The difficulty can easily be overcome, Aunt Ellen, if you will only
have confidence in my judgment. You have heard something about Mrs.
Grey--"

"And quite enough, Arthur; pray don't begin upon _that_ old story."

"But I must, indeed, Aunt Ellen, if you are to understand what I want.
Mrs. Grey has been good enough to put all her affairs in my hands.
I have learned from her that the separation between herself and her
husband was brought about by a misunderstanding which she has been
allowed no opportunity of explaining. _My_ business now is to find out
her husband and make him understand the true state of affairs."

"All very well," broke in Mrs. Churchill impatiently; "and I'm glad to
hear she had the good taste and honesty to let you know at least that
her husband is living. But, pray, what has this to do with Adèle?"

"Patience for one moment, Aunt Ellen. I only trouble you with all these
details that you may know my scheme for my cousin is not so unpractical
as it may seem. Mrs. Grey, I am firmly convinced, is an honorable,
high-minded lady, or else indeed I could not wish to entrust her, even
for one day, with the keeping of any one so near and dear to me as
Adèle must be under any circumstances; for (_please_ let me go on for
one more moment) my scheme is this: Mrs. Grey has a charming little
house on the Yorkshire coast; the air is splendid, the neighborhood is
quiet."

Mrs. Churchill could not help smiling: "_Don't_ take a leaf out of
_Murray_, Arthur."

But the young man continued seriously: "She will be delighted to
receive Adèle for a time. If you agree to this, I can take her to
Middlethorpe before I go abroad, and you, on your way to Scarborough in
the autumn, can bring her on with you. Old Martha will be there, for
I sent her on to-day with some jewelry belonging to Mrs. Grey which I
have reclaimed from her lawyer. You know Martha will look after Adèle's
comfort as well as you could. Come now, Aunt Ellen, is this such a very
unpractical scheme?"

"Perhaps not, since your Mrs. Grey has turned out to be a respectable
matron after all; but what warrant have we that her story is true?"

"Mamma!" began Adèle indignantly, but Arthur stopped her:

"My moral conviction of her truth is enough for me, Aunt Ellen, and
for Adèle; I believe it would be for you if you had once seen her. But
for your satisfaction I can tell you that her story has been rather
strangely confirmed. I went to see Golding about it this morning, for I
wished to set him on the track of Mrs. Grey's child, who, I should tell
you, was mysteriously stolen away from her about a week ago. He knows
Mrs. Grey's solicitor, and had heard from him all the leading points of
the story."

Mrs. Churchill sighed: "Ah, well! I hope no harm will come of it. I
must say it's a queer state of affairs altogether, but as far as I can
see it seems the best plan. Adèle is certainly old enough to take care
of herself, and Mrs. Grey could scarcely have any ulterior design in
asking her to stay at the house. Then old Mrs. Foster being there is
a great thing; she is a most trustworthy person. I suppose it will be
necessary for me to write to Mrs. Grey, but how am I to put it? Is she
supposed to have sent an invitation by you?"

Adèle's eyes were glistening with delight at this happy termination.
"Never mind about that, mamma," she said gayly. "I will write a little
note to Margaret to prepare her for my coming, and, let me see, if you
like, Arthur, I can start the day after to-morrow."

"My dear child, how impetuous you are!"

"The day after to-morrow, Aunt Ellen," said Arthur decisively; "that
will give me to-morrow for further inquiries in town, the day after for
our journey, then on the day following, if at all possible, I shall
start for the Continent."

"Well, well," said Aunt Ellen, good-humoredly, "you young people have
taken the law into your own hands, so all I have to do is to submit."
And thus the matter was arranged to the mutual satisfaction of the
cousins.




CHAPTER XVI.

_A STORM._

    There's somewhat in this world amiss,
    Shall be unriddled by and by.


The sultry afternoon was closed by a stormy evening. As Arthur and
Adèle sat together in the library--for Mrs. Churchill, who was herself
at a large dinner-party, had been graciously pleased to leave them
alone together in this coziest corner of the comfortable house--the
clouds began to gather and a moaning, sighing wind to sweep up the
street.

"There is going to be a storm," said Adèle with a little shiver; "close
the curtains, like a good old fellow, and come to tea."

"Don't you like storms, Adèle? I thought you were so brave."

"Sometimes, but not to-night."

She rose from her seat at the table and stood by his side, leaning her
hand on his shoulder and her little rounded chin on her hand.

"How the clouds are driven about, and how wild they look! Oh come away,
Arthur. I am so glad I am not alone!"

"Why, my little cousin? Is lightning more dangerous in solitude?"

"Everything _seems_ more dangerous when one is alone; but you don't
understand me, Arthur. I never feel as if a storm were dangerous. It's
not fear, but a kind of feeling rather difficult to explain, as though
bad things were about and near us."

"Witches on broomsticks and malignant fairies," suggested Arthur.

Adèle laughed: "Not exactly. I lost my faith in them a few years ago;
indeed, by the bye, I never believed in them. My fairies were always
pretty and good. This storm makes me think of wicked people more than
wicked spirits. There! look! That yellow, sinister-looking flash
brought before me as distinctly as if I had seen him at the moment the
face of Margaret Grey's tormentor, the tall dark man who smiled in at
the window so insolently. Oh, I do hope and trust I shall never meet
him anywhere!"

"How funny!" said Arthur lightly: "the storm made me also think of some
one connected with Mrs. Grey. That horrid old landlady's face came in
a most contorted manner before my mind. I fear that woman is no better
than she ought to be; however," he drew out his watch, "if Martha has
followed out my directions she ought to be at the cottage now. Let me
see: the train is due in York at half-past four, by six she should be
at Middlethorpe Station, then a two hours' drive. I hope it is all
right, but I can't help wishing I had got the old woman to start last
night."

"What are you afraid of, dear?" said Adèle nervously.

Arthur laughed, but there was something forced in his mirth: "We'll
draw the curtains, Adèle. You have infected me with your fancies. I
really feel as if something uncanny were abroad to-night." They sat
down together to the tea-table luxuriously spread with rich plate and
china. There were no hot fumes of gas to poison the atmosphere, but a
silver reading-lamp cast its warm light upon the table, leaving the
heavy crimson curtains in their long folds, the tall stately bookcases
and the oaken cabinet in shadow. It was a pleasant room, restful to the
senses. Adèle looked round her. "How comfortable we are here to-night,
Arthur! and," as a sullen crash of thunder and the splash of falling
rain came from outside, "how desolate it must be out there! Oh, Arthur,
why can't every one be as happy and comfortable as we are?"

For the sound of the tempest had brought the eternal shadow that lurks
in the background of every human joy to the young girl's soul, and she
was ready to reproach herself for her own exuberant gladness.

"It's much better not to think of it at all," said Arthur lightly--"at
least not to disturb one's self;" and then he added more gravely, "I
think if we each do our best to lessen the amount of human suffering,
we may safely enjoy our own happiness."

"And you are doing yours," said Adèle, looking admiringly at the young
face ennobled by its transient gravity; "if you succeed in bringing
back happiness to that _one_ life, it will be something to have lived
for."

"If I succeed!" Arthur sighed; some of the rebellious thoughts of the
preceding evening were troubling him once more. He rose and paced the
room. "I feel so restless, Adèle," he said in explanation. "When this
storm has cleared off a little I shall go out for a stroll."

Was there a reason for his restlessness? Had some electric current,
flashing through the troubled air, notified him of the terrible scene
that was being enacted under the storm-sounds in the distant little
village, where the woman to whom the first love of his boyhood had
been given was, as he fondly believed, resting calmly in her dwelling,
cheered by the hope and confidence he had brought her?

Who can tell? for life has many chords, and Nature has agents infinite
and varied to work her strange will, and humanity is a complex thing
that no philosopher has yet been able to resolve into all its component
parts. Matter he may hold, but mind defies him, and these strange
coincidences, these half-revelations, are all of the impalpable spirit,
humanity's crown and power.

It will be remembered that in the course of the last conversation
between Margaret Grey and her young protector he had expressed in very
strong terms his distrust of her landlady, and had even hinted some
suspicion of her false dealing in the information she had given about
the lost child.

That conversation had been overheard by Jane Rodgers. Something of this
she had suspected, and with ear applied to the keyhole she had been
listening to every syllable of the conversation. Much of it had been
inexplicable. It required the disclosures of the morning, which had
been given on the sea-shore utterly out of reach of her ears, to give
any meaning to much that passed between Mrs. Grey and her visitor; but
this one thing clung to Jane's mind with a sullen persistency. The
young man had seen through her--her lodger distrusted her.

Jane was conscious of this: that she had been guilty of double-dealing,
that she had received a bribe for carrying out a certain purpose,
that she had given the cunning of a clever brain to helping forward
the commission of what she knew to be a crime. And this she had done,
not for the money's sake, though Jane was fond of gold, but for
the gratification of a hatred which was daily strengthening in her
narrow mind. Jane had not many passions or affections; she had, as
she thought, outlived the gentler ones, she had grown hard in a hard
school; and this hatred had taken all the deeper root. It grew, in
fact, till it absorbed her, and drowned in its turbid depths every
other emotion.

She had long disliked her mistress--at first she could scarcely have
told why. Perhaps it was Mrs. Grey's peculiar beauty and grace and
the quiet dignity of her manner that made her so utterly antipathetic
to her landlady. Little natures are apt to be jealous in a wild,
unreasonable kind of way. Jane in the course of her life as a servant
had come often into close contact with beauty, wealth, happiness, but
none of these had affected her so strongly as the constant presence
of this patient lady, who, she had taught herself to believe, was
"no good," and yet whose quiet dignity and calm superiority made her
universally respected and admired.

Another element went to the forming of this deadly hatred. Her mistress
was kind and gentle, but she never descended to Jane's level. The
landlady might think as she would of her lodger's antecedents; there
remained in spite of all as immeasurable a distance between them as had
ever separated Jane Rodgers the servant from her haughtiest mistress.
It was a something that daily fretted the woman's spirit--in a great
measure, it may be, because it was incomprehensible.

Jane was no communist or republican; the barriers of rank and fashion
she could thoroughly understand. She had never bruised herself by
attempting to beat against those iron bars. "Providence," she would
piously remark to such of her equals as complained in her presence of
inequality of lots--"Providence had ordained as there should be rich
and poor, high and low, which, as far as she could see, was judicious,
for what would a servant do as a fine lady, and how could a fine lady
do for herself?"

But in the refinement that independently of circumstances and
surroundings raises one above another, Jane could not see the hand of
Providence so directly.

Mrs. Grey seemed to have no particular position in the world, few
people knew her, her clothes were often shabbier than Jane's. The
landlady believed, and probably with reason, that she could have bought
up her mistress's possessions with very little trouble. Where, then,
was the difference between them? Why was it that Jane had instinctively
stood in the presence of her lodger, and treated her (until the last
access of rage and hatred) with the same respect as she had treated
mistresses who were high in the scale of the world's honor? She could
not understand it, and it galled her proud spirit till dark, brooding
evil took full possession of her.

This it was that had prompted her strange behavior in Mrs. Grey's
absence. This it was that had caused her last and basest treachery.

Jane had not, indeed, objected to the bribe, which had been tolerably
large, but for the money's sake she would not have compromised
herself. It was against Jane's principles. That she had gone through
life tolerably clean-handed was chiefly owing to this. She had a mind
capable of looking beyond the paltry bribe to the consequences involved
in its reception. Anxiety of mind, care, terror of discovery,--she
was given to comparing the relative value of these with that of the
gold which would buy her concurrence in some underhand scheme, and
generally the decision was against the gold. But this time the danger
of discovery was not great and the service rendered was small, scarcely
amounting, so Jane reasoned with herself, to complicity in the deed.
The money was acceptable and the revenge was sweet.

It was very bewildering to Jane's mind and rather destructive to her
peace that as soon as ever the affair had occurred Mrs. Grey's friends
came flocking to the place. First the lawyer; but Jane was shrewd
enough to see that _he_ was not dangerous to her--rather, perhaps, to
her mistress. After him, however, came the young Arthur, a man of very
different type, and even before the overheard conversation Jane had
caught the young man watching her very closely. She knew then that
Margaret had told her troubles to a sympathizing listener, who was
ready to devote himself to her service. She had a shrewd suspicion,
too, that he would succeed in unearthing the mystery. And then her
share in the abduction of the child might very possibly come to light.

Her suspicions were confirmed by the few decided words in which Arthur
alluded to his fears for Margaret and his earnest desire that she
should choose another residence. If they had seen the white look of
fear and hatred which overspread the face of the listener, Margaret
would probably have come to a very different decision. Jane's hatred
had been great before. The penetration of the young man and the quiet
acquiescence of her lodger increased it tenfold; while joined to these
was a sudden fear lest the salutary advice should be followed, lest
Mrs. Grey should leave the house and the schemes of her young protector
be carried on wholly out of her reach.

Her fears were set at rest, but Margaret's calm answer inflamed
her once more. She read in it a quiet contempt at the bare idea of
Jane being able to inflict any kind of annoyance upon her, with the
exception of a stupid insolence.

The woman crept from the door with the spirit of evil in her heart. She
spent the next day brooding.




CHAPTER XVII.

_WHAT THE STORM BROUGHT._

    I said that I was dying. God is good:
    The heavens grow darker as they grow the purer;
    And both as we do near them; so near death
    The soul grows darker and diviner hourly.


The storm that had looked so wild among the streets and terraces of
London broke in absolute fury over the northern ocean. The waves
were lashed into violence under the fierce rushing of the winds, the
great yellow clouds sent out vivid flashes that lit up the desolate
scene, and ever and anon came the sullen crash of thunder through the
darkness.

The sun had gone down, the twilight had passed into the storm-darkness;
it was about the time when Adèle and Arthur had been discussing the
mental effects produced by tempest in the closely-curtained library,
and sending out the warm compassion of their young souls to the world's
great army of mourners. Margaret Grey sat beside her parlor-window
looking out upon the storm. She looked very desolate in the silent,
half-dark room, with its white curtains and ghostly holland draperies.
Her hands were folded listlessly, her eyes were full of sadness. She
had been much happier and far more hopeful since Arthur's visit, but
on this evening, she could not have told why, the deep depression from
which his presence and her own strenuous exertions had aroused her
seemed to be settling down upon her once more.

She felt so absolutely alone and uncared-for in the dreary tumult upon
which she gazed that she began to feel as if it were impossible for
anything but this to be her lot. Every sweet human tie that had once
rejoiced her had been loosened, and she told herself she only was to
blame, and therefore they might never, never be reknit. It was a curse
upon her, and she could not believe it would be removed.

She bowed her head upon her hands as she thought of the past--as she
felt within herself the rich, boundless capabilities of loving--as she
looked out upon her own desolation.

And while she was brooding the darkness gathered. In the distance the
white foam of the waves gleamed through it, and from time to time it
was disturbed by the lightning; but for that it was deep indeed. A
dark night has terrors for the imaginative: Margaret looked out with a
shudder.

"It was into such a darkness that he went out," she murmured. "Oh, my
darling! my darling!"

And then she turned, and began to feel with a certain creeping sense of
uneasiness that the house was very still. She drew down the blind with
a hasty impulse. The outside world made her think too painfully of that
wanderer in his first desolation. Alas! he would have recovered from
that--perhaps he was even rejoicing in his liberty. The thought was too
bitter. She felt her overstrained mind must have relief. A book might
bring it, so she rose to ring for lights.

But before she could reach the bell-handle the door opened slowly,
stealthily, as if ashamed of its own creaking, and a figure that in the
half darkness she did not recognize crossed to the window, and taking
a seat gazed at her across the interval of shadow. There was something
defiant in the action, and for a moment Margaret was frightened. Who
was this that had dared to intrude upon her?

But she and her landlady were alone in the house. Her fears, she told
herself, were puerile; crossing the dark room, she looked her intruder
in the face. By the faint light which still struggled through the
window-blind she recognized Jane Rodgers. But could she be right? Was
not this rather a distorted creature of her own imagination that had
taken the landlady's face and features to mock her? This being was
very unlike the quiet and eminently respectable landlady, for the
face was so livid that it seemed to gleam out of the darkness, the
eyes were wild and lurid, and the lips and tongue seemed to be moving
convulsively, as though the woman were agitated with burning thirst.

Margaret started back in momentary alarm; but she was naturally
brave--she would assure herself that this was no dream conjured up by a
diseased imagination, but actual, living flesh and blood. She put her
hand on her landlady's shoulder. "Jane," she said, "is this you? My
good woman, what is wrong? Has the storm alarmed you?"

Her touch was flung off with such violence that she staggered and
nearly fell, for the torrent of this woman's wrath and hatred had been
so long suppressed that now no bounds would hold it. "Leave me alone!"
she cried. "How dare you put a finger on me? No," with a wild laugh as
Margaret retreated quietly to the door. She thought the woman was mad,
and so Jane was in a sense. "I've turned the key. We're alone together,
at last, my fine lady; you shall hear me out; you shall know what's in
my power--what I'll do, by ----! It's a fine night, dark as pitch; a
body could be easily put out of the way--made quiet and then tossed out
there!"

She lifted the blind, and even as she did so came a lurid flash. It
showed the outside tumult, the black, restless waves, seeming in their
unrest to hunger for a victim, and for one moment it showed in bold
relief what was more dreadful still, a dark human face distorted with
hideous passion. The eyes of the landlady seemed to be starting from
their sockets, her strong sinewy hands were clenched, her body was
stooping forward; the attitude was that of a cat about to spring upon
its prey. Margaret saw and shrank back in sudden terror, the sight was
so repulsive. But she recovered herself. They were woman to woman.
Why should she fear? Again she touched the landlady on the shoulder.
"Jane," she said in a low voice that trembled in spite of her strong
effort to be calm, "you must be mad or dreaming. What does all this
mean?"

"It means ----." The woman hissed _one_ word into her ear, and then
for the first time Margaret realized her position. She had not much
physical strength, for the severe mental struggles through which she
had been passing had slowly but surely sapped at the springs of her
life. Alone! She had thought of it with sadness only a few moments
since; now she felt herself alone, and in the power of a hatred
rendered strong and brutal by human passion. In the presence of the
dark reality her small remnant of strength deserted her. She felt weak
and faint with sheer terror of what might be before her.

In one moment it all seemed to flash upon her--the horror, the mystery,
the sickening details. She closed her eyes and instinctively cried out
for help to the one Presence that alone was near her in this awful
moment. The lightning flashed in again upon the strange scene. It
showed her kneeling, with clasped hands and calm face and eyes raised
up to heaven.

Heaven! God! We think of them little in our hours of peace and
gladness, but in the storm-sounds, in the terrors of darkness, in
physical weakness brought home to our souls, perhaps we are all
somewhat alike. Weak women and strong, self-dependent men instinctively
look up, involuntarily call on the awful name. How often, how often,
the Name has proved a Power! Even in this case it seemed for a moment
effectual.

The woman with the deadly purpose in her eyes shrank back, awed by the
secret witness evoked by prayer. But darkness hid the calm, resolute
face, and the cruel heart was steeled once more. "What's the use of
praying?" she cried in a transport of fury; "them as prays should
practice--that's _my_ creed; and, look you here! if there's a heaven
and hell, as the pious says, you've killed my soul, for I was never
wicked till _you_ came our way; and _curse_ you for it, I say, with
your milk-white face and your smooth ways and your pride! But I'll
do for you yet. I didn't intend it," she continued, her voice rising
almost to a shriek, "leastways, not to-night; but the look of you, the
feel of you, makes me _mad_." She had seized Margaret's delicate wrists
and was holding them in a vice-like grasp as she glared into her eyes.
"Your fine young gentleman suspects me--you haven't that confidence. I
was insolent, was I? but not nothing to be afraid of. Perhaps you'll
cry another cry now, if I let you cry at all."

She laughed a savage laugh that made Margaret shiver, but she had not
lost all her power; with a sudden wrench she threw off the woman's
grasp, and springing to the window unloosened and opened it. It was
on the ground floor, but even a fall would have been better than this
life-and-death struggle in the darkness. The cool, keen night-air was
refreshing. She drew a long breath and threw herself forward. It was in
vain.

Jane had recovered from the momentary paralysis which Margaret's
unexpected effort had caused her. She caught her round the waist, and
dragging her back into the room threw her down upon the ground.

Then for a moment Margaret's consciousness deserted her. With a deep
sigh she closed her eyes, but not even her weakness would come to her
relief. Horror kept her senses alert. She opened her eyes to feel the
cool night-air bathing her face, and to see the face of her enemy very
close to her own.

Jane's knees were on Margaret's chest, her hand was uplifted to strike,
but her victim opened her eyes and the hand fell. "You're not quite
gone," she said--"only a sham, like t'other night. No more shams for
you, fine lady; but, listen! a big one for me, and it'll help your
last moments to hear it. You've destroyed yourself is to be my story
to-morrow when the neighbors inquire--went out in the storm unbeknown
to me--wasn't heard of no more."

Margaret closed her eyes again, but no cry for mercy came from her
lips.

Jane Rodgers waited. It would have been a triumph to have heard the
passionate prayers for which she had prepared herself to answer with
mocking reference to former times. She stooped down. "Have you nothing
to say?" she asked.

Still not a word, only the dark eyes opened, and the pure spirit seemed
to look out calmly on the passionate, sin-stained mortal.

And still Jane waited. It seemed almost as if an invisible power had
held back her hand.

In the moment given her Margaret was preparing to die. She looked
her position calmly in the face. She could not struggle. All her
strength seemed to have gone out of her in that last effort. Nothing
was left but submission. It was hard. For the sake of others, for the
sake of the future which was beginning to take fairer colors, she
would have wished to live; and then in this kind of death there was
something so revolting. To be put out of sight, to be cast like a dog
into the waters, to leave behind her as a memory either the stain of
self-destruction or the horrible nine days' wonder of a sickening
murder. But would not words be thrown away? and strength she had none.

She could only pray with passionate intensity for help. With the prayer
came calmness, and after it a strange thought that utterly absorbed her.

For the moment Margaret Grey forgot herself, forgot even the horror of
her situation. She looked up into the haggard, desperate face bending
over her, and her very soul was filled with a deep, boundless pity. Her
thought was no more to save herself; it was to save this woman from the
commission of a crime. A sudden sense of responsibility seemed to crush
her down, a feeling that if this woman's soul were lost she would be to
blame. It was a madness, a noble madness, but it gave her strength.

With an irresistible force she threw off the knees that were pressing
out her life, and rising to her feet looked in her turn into the eyes
of her bitter foe--a look that so astonished Jane as to render her for
the moment helpless, for she saw her mistress's face as the face of
an angel. Through the semi-darkness of the room those kind, sad eyes
looked into hers, and seemed to draw away half her venom.

Then Margaret spoke in a soft, low tone that contrasted strangely with
the fierce, savage words to which she had been forced to listen: "Poor
foolish woman! why do you hate me so?"

Her words fell clear and unanswered in the silence. She went on gently,
"If I have suspected you wrongfully, if I have caused you any kind of
evil, I am heartily sorry; but oh, for your own sake, for the sake
of all you hold dear, pause now before you do a deed that can never,
through all eternity, be undone."

She paused a moment to gather strength: "I did not intend to ask
you to spare me, but as I lay there helpless it came into my mind
that if I suffered this deed to be done your blood-guiltiness would
be on my head. You cannot hurt me much," she continued with a noble
truthfulness, "for what is death? I have looked it in the face more
than once--a bitter pang, no doubt, but a short one. I plead not for
_my_ sake, but for yours--for your poor soul, which is perishing this
night. In God's name I beseech you to spare it. Be wise in time, or at
least--for the long night is before us--take an hour to consider. I
will not escape--I will sit here in your sight. You were mad for the
moment--these feelings of hatred had taken possession of you--God would
not suffer--" She broke off suddenly, "Hark! what is that?"

"A knocking at the gate," said Jane, turning very pale. "Now's your
time. You have gained time with your false tongue. I sha'n't be able to
escape. You will have your revenge."

"Stop," said Margaret, holding her back, and there was heavenly
forgiveness in her face. "Believe that I wish you no ill. Look at me,
Jane. Do you see hatred or vengeance in my face? Forget these few awful
moments. I will forgive, and we shall both thank God for ever for
having saved as from an unspeakable horror. This is His hand; go down
an your knees and thank Him."

"It is--it is!" said Jane, shivering, for her superstitious nature had
been touched by the strange coincidence. Governed by a stronger will
than her own, she knelt, while the tears rained down her face.

But the knocking began to grow desperate.

"You had better go," said Margaret quietly; "our visitor is impatient."

Obedient as a child, the woman who but a few moments before had been
foaming with rage got up and went out. The cause of the noise was
soon explained. A chaise was standing at the gate, the sound of whose
approach had been unheard in the tumult of the night: an elderly woman
had dismounted.

"Sae ye're not all deed and buried," she said briskly as the landlady
showed her scared face at the gate. "I was rating the laddie here
for misguiding o' an auld wife that micht hae bin his mither, for,
thinks I to myself, sure and certain there's not a soul within, and a
awfu' nicht it is to keep a body outside"--the old woman spoke quite
reproachfully--"but noo I think on't," she continued, "ye're not living
here your lane. One Mrs. Grey is lodgin' wi' you, for, as I tak it,
you're the landleddy."

Jane was scarcely able to speak, but as silence gives consent the old
woman proceeded to pay the boy, to gather up her parcels and to walk
rapidly along the garden-path.

"An' here _is_ Mrs. Grey her ainsel', as I canna doobt," she continued
cheerfully, for Margaret had lighted the hall-lamp and was standing
underneath it.

The old Scotchwoman looked round her scrutinizingly as she passed
into the lighted hall. There was a certain appearance of repressed
excitement about both Margaret and the landlady that did not escape
her shrewd old eyes. "Bless me, how wild they look!" was her mental
ejaculation, but she refrained from all expression of her feelings.

Mrs. Foster understood her manners. She prided herself on this, that
she knew a lady the moment she set her eyes upon her. Whatever Mrs.
Grey might turn out to be, old Martha was satisfied at once that
she was a lady, and she acted accordingly. She dropped a little
old-fashioned curtsey, and the excitement of her first arrival having
in a measure passed, brought forward her best English to do honor to
the occasion:

"You'll be astonished, madam, and with reason, to see an old woman drop
down from the skies, as we may say, and at this hour of the night, too.
But I've brought my credentials with me, and, like mony anither, my
young gentleman likes to do everything in a hurry. Here's the letter
which will explain a sight better than I can."

"Come in, come in," said Margaret; then to Jane, who was looking at her
in a strange scrutinizing manner, "Bring the candles into the parlor,
Jane; then come in and consider how we are to provide for our guest. I
am sure she is heartily welcome, for I see Mr. Forrest has sent her."

Margaret's words had the desired effect. They set Jane's mind at rest.
She saw it was not her mistress's intention to make any revelation
about the scene that had preceded the old woman's arrival. Bewildered
and dazed, she found her way to the kitchen, mechanically did as she
was told, and returned to the parlor to find the old woman quietly
divesting herself of bonnet and shawl and looking round with the air of
one who had taken possession.

Old Martha seemed in fact to be the only capable person in the house,
for Margaret had fallen back on the sofa white and trembling. Up to
the moment of the old woman's arrival she had been sustained by her
overpowering excitement. In the pleasant, warm security she began to
feel a certain reaction, a sudden collapse of power.

And the landlady, notwithstanding her vigorous efforts to recover her
self-possession, looked rather scared. It was such a contrast--from the
horror and darkness to the light and pleasant security. But our life
is strange; the common things seize and silence the dramatic crises,
and we drop naturally into the old channels. The first access of
alarm over, Jane Rodgers put on her apron, smoothed back her hair and
set about the common tasks of relighting the kitchen fire, preparing
tea and airing sheets for the old woman's bed, just as if that awful
night's experience had never been. And Margaret swallowed a glass
of wine, fought down her longing for tears, and found herself in a
few moments looking with tranquil pleasure at her old treasures, the
rings and bracelets which Martha Foster had returned, and listening
quietly to the old woman's lively description of Mr. Arthur's babyhood
and early youth. Martha never imagined this could be anything but
interesting, and to have begun so soon on her pet subject was a high
mark of the old woman's favor.

Margaret believed she had conquered Jane Rodgers's fierce hatred--for
the moment at least--yet it was with a feeling of devout thankfulness
that she noticed how, of her own accord, the landlady had arranged
for Martha Foster to sleep in the little closet which opened from her
bedroom.

They all retired early, and the stormy evening closed in peace.




CHAPTER XVIII.

_LIGHT IN DARKNESS._

                        Oh, trust me, never fell
    By love a spirit or earthly or of heaven:
    Rather by love they are regenerate.
    Love is the happy privilege of mind--
    Love is the reason of all living things.


Margaret's work was not over. In that transcendent moment when death
was staring her in the face she had made a certain resolution, and
the security that followed the danger did not make her shrink from
carrying it out. Strange but true; the words in which she had striven
with the desperate spirit of evil that had taken possession of Jane
Rodgers actually represented her state of mind at the time. Margaret
had thrown herself out of herself. With the renovating power of the
intensest pity she had looked into the troubled spirit which was
revealing itself in all its unutterable depths of misery, and she had
resolved to save it even from itself. Hence it was that instead of the
abject cries self-pity would have drawn from the proudest heart at this
supreme crisis, her words had been calm, self-contained, spoken with an
authority which to the half-crazed brain of the desperate woman was so
strange as to seem mysterious and supernatural.

This it was that had saved Margaret at least from severe bodily harm.
In sheer astonishment the woman's hand had been stayed, and before the
wicked impulse could return help was at the door. The help had come so
strangely that Jane's superstitious fears were confirmed. She began to
think her mistress possessed some secret power. The idea cowed her. She
became abject in her dread. She looked upon the woman she had injured
as one surrounded by invisible protectors, ready at a moment's notice
to come to her assistance.

Even on that first evening Margaret had read a part at least of this in
her landlady's face. The sullen frown did not leave Jane's brow, but
the defiance had gone. It was a change for the better, yet Margaret
was not satisfied; she wanted more than this. She had felt on that
night like one in actual contact with the wild powers of darkness,
struggling at the very mouth of the bottomless pit for a lost soul; and
the impression continued. With the perseverance of a dominant idea that
haunts the mind it followed her through her sleep. She seemed to hear
the despairing cries of a dying soul; she seemed to see the mocking
smiles of fiends who were waiting, like the vultures of the sandy
wastes, till the last convulsive throes should be over to claim the
lost thing for their own; she seemed to feel the last speechless agony,
the outer darkness of despair.

Once she awoke, for the oppression was choking her, and when the waking
reality of the dream came back in all its fulness she rose and knelt
by her bed. "Thou hast saved _me_, my God," she prayed; "give _me_ the
power of saving, of helping to salvation, this wandering spirit." After
that she was calmer; she was able to lie and watch, as she scarcely
cared to sleep again, for the breaking of the morning, and to think and
plan about the best method of carrying out her noble work.

"Love is the antidote of hatred," thought Margaret; "I will teach this
woman to love, and perhaps love may be a ladder of life to her soul."

The morning broke slowly. She threw open her window and watched how it
spread itself over sea and sky. Then there was a stir in the village.
Windows and doors were opened, carts began to move heavily in the
streets, and the steps of passing laborers could be distinctly heard.

Margaret bowed her head upon her hand. "They come from homes," she
murmured; "they will go back to them to-night. My home is not."

But a rosy light spread itself over the sea; the waves that were
rolling steadily in to the shore caught on their rebound a glow as
of sapphire. It was the sun, and the sun brought hope. Then came
movement in the house; it showed that Jane was astir. Margaret's mind
went back to its planning. After a few moments' thought she wrapped
her dressing-gown round her and crept on tip-toe to the door of the
room where Martha Foster slept. The old woman was sleeping the sleep of
the righteous. Margaret closed the door of communication; and then she
rang the bell. Before her landlady could harden her heart against her
Margaret wished to make some impression. While the scene of the past
night was still fresh in her mind she might be more ready to hear the
words of love and forgiveness Margaret had prepared herself to utter.

Some minutes passed before Jane appeared. She was at a loss to imagine
what the object of her mistress could be. Jane had awoke that morning
like one who has been under the power of a fearful nightmare. She could
scarcely believe at first that she _was_ herself, and that she was
actually free from crime. But when she did, she felt for the first time
in her life an emotion of earnest thankfulness to the Power, visible or
invisible, which had withheld her hand.

For Jane had always been a prudent woman. As a general rule her
passions had been kept in check by some stronger motive-power.
Cupidity, self-love, interest, a strong desire for that paradise of a
certain class, respectability and independence, keen common sense that
showed the folly of a momentary gratification of passion, followed by a
life-long repentance,--these had hitherto kept her from all the grosser
forms of sin.

But this time they had all been too weak. The hatred had been
nourished in her heart till it had grown into a master-passion; fear
of her treachery being discovered, indignation and disgust at the
new happiness that seemed to be opening out before the object of her
hatred, had added their fearful impulse to her heated soul, and then
came the storm, the darkness, the opportunity.

In the cool clear morning Jane shuddered. If she had carried out her
dark purpose, what would she have been that morning? In all probability
a hunted criminal. She was thankful for her escape, but not yet truly
penitent for the sin. The soul from which one baffled demon has been
banished is ready for the seven if it be not occupied and filled with
some better guest.

Jane obeyed Margaret's call after a few moments' delay. She knocked
at the bedroom door, opened it and stood on the threshold, a quiet,
respectable-looking person, but there was a sullen frown on her brow.
"Did you please to want anything, ma'am?" she asked. Her broom was in
her hand--a hint, as it were, that she was in no mood to be delayed.

"Only to speak to you, Jane," said Margaret. "Come here; Mrs. Foster
seems to be fast asleep and I have shut the door, or if you like I
can speak to you in the next room, but we may not have so good an
opportunity again."

Jane looked down: "What might you wish to say to me, ma'am?"

There was a forced unconcern in her manner that was not particularly
encouraging, but Margaret would not despair. She held out her hand with
a smile: "I fear you distrust me, Jane. Why," she continued in a tone
of such deep sadness that the landlady's heart, in spite of herself,
was touched--"why will you persist in being my enemy? God is my witness
that I would do you good."

"You ain't got nothing to do with me," said Jane, in a stifled voice.
"If I choose to go to the bad, what's that to you or anybody else? I
won't try to hurt _you_ again, if that's what you want to know, and
only that I was mad I wouldn't have done it last night."

"I know you were mad--I felt it then; and then I resolved that I would
save you from yourself. You are mistaken, my poor woman; it is much,
very much, to me, whether, as you express it, you go to the bad. Jane,
I believe it has been given to me to save you, and, God helping me, I
will do it."

She spoke with a quiet determination that had marvellous power. Her
dream was with her once more. She seemed to see the wild, unholy
tumult; she seemed to be holding, clinging to the wretched life that
death in death was swallowing up.

And Jane watched her with a curious emotion, very strange and utterly
incomprehensible to herself.

The hard, selfish side of life had chiefly presented itself to the
landlady, both as regarded her own nature and the nature of those
with whom she had come into contact. This divine self-forgetfulness,
this pure love of the erring even because of its miserable errors, was
something so new as to be a kind of revelation to her soul. A good she
had conceived impossible seemed to be opening itself out as not only
possible, but real. And the revelation had a renovating power. There
came over her a remembrance of the time when she had been "joyful and
free from blame."

It brought a sudden softness to her heart. But she would not give
way to it. She seized her broom and half turned, so as to hide her
face from Margaret's gaze. "What's the use of talking?" she said in a
stifled voice; "talking won't make me no better. I hated you; why can't
you hate me and be done with it?"

"Because I do _not_ hate you, Jane; because, on the contrary, my soul
is filled with earnest longing for your good. It came to me here in
last night's darkness as I thought of your words that perhaps I had
given some cause for these feelings of yours. I have wrapped myself up
in my own sorrows and have neglected to enter with a woman's sympathy
into your troubles and joys. For--I know it--we must not and cannot
live to ourselves. Selfishness brings its own punishment."

Jane looked down: "I have no troubles in particular, not to interest
anybody but--"

It had come over her in an irresistible flood, the remembrance of her
_one_ happy time. Ah! it is a great fact, mysterious but true--misery
and hopeless wretchedness make half the criminals that fill our jails,
that prowl undetected about our streets. To the happy goodness is easy.

Jane broke down suddenly, and throwing herself on her knees buried her
face in the bed-clothes: "If _he_ had been true to me I'd have been
another woman. Oh! God was cruel. I was getting soft when he was coming
and going with his pleasant ways: it was too short--" Her voice was
choked with sobs. "I've been bad--bad from that day. I'm getting worse,
and God has left me. What'll I do? what'll I do?"

Margaret's eyes filled with tears. She stooped down and drawing one of
the woman's reluctant hands from the hidden face, held it in her own.

"I thought so," she said gently, as if speaking to herself: "there is
always a background." Then to the weeping woman: "Think of it--you and
I, my poor Jane, living here together, and shutting up our troubles in
our own hearts. No wonder we grew hard and selfish. But it is over, is
it not? You will help me to bear, and I will teach you to love. This is
what you want to take you out of yourself. Look up, Jane; be of good
courage."

But she only wept the more bitterly. "I can't," she said; "my heart is
like stone."

Margaret touched the heated face with cool, soft fingers.

"What do these tears mean?" she said gently. "They come from a heart
that is becoming soft, if it is not soft already. Yes, I feel it
too. We ought to be drawn out of ourselves. It is necessary to our
happiness, to the healthy life of our souls. We grow morbid here in our
solitude, with our thoughts toward inward. Since my darling little one
was taken from me I too have been getting hard, Jane, or perhaps you
and I might have understood each other better. But I thank God there is
still time before us. You must let me into the secrets of your life. I
will tell you what my sufferings have been, that there may be a true
sympathy between us; then we must look out from our own sorrows to
the great world of suffering around us, and whether the future bring
happiness or grief, it need not be altogether bereft of the treasures
of love and sympathy."

Jane listened, and her tears ceased. The words of Margaret were like
oil on the troubled waters. They brought hope, they suggested possible
comfort in a future that but a few moments before had been black with
the utter blackness of despair.

For humanity is not ever entirely bad. I think no living, breathing
creature can be said to be hopelessly depraved. Sin, it is said, brings
its own punishment, but the heaviest punishment sin can bring is the
agonizing suffering it inflicts upon the soul. To be without hope of
that beautiful attribute we call goodness would be misery unimaginable.

Yet this was what Jane had been feeling that morning, and Margaret's
words were like rays of light pointing to a possible redemption. "If
I'd aught in the whole world to care about," she said, "I'd try and be
better, but--"

And then she stopped suddenly, for Jane was eminently practical, and an
idea had flashed in upon her brain.

"Have you no friends?" asked Margaret.

"I was thinking of the child," she said.

"What child?"

"He married my young sister," she answered, speaking slowly and with
apparent difficulty, "and I hated him and her too; but afterward I was
glad, for he treated her bad. She died of a broken heart, they say. I
never went nigh her, though she sent to beg me hard. That's three years
agone next Whitsuntide. They had three or four children; all died but
one, a boy two years old when sister died. The father, he went off,
no one knows where, and Willie--that's his name, they say--was put in
the workhouse. I seen him once"--her voice grew broken again--"a fine
little chap, like his father, and for a bit I felt inclined to bring
him home, but that look of his made me hard and I came away."

Margaret smiled a brooding, motherly smile: "God is good to you, Jane.
He has not left you, as you said. He has given you little Willie. You
must find him, and I think he will soon teach you to love."

Jane had almost forgotten, in the new sweetness of speaking about her
own feelings, to whom she had been addressing herself. Margaret's words
reminded her, and she was struck with a sudden sense of wonder, almost
of awe.

"Why do you care for me?" she said in a low tone. "I've insulted you,
I've acted wrong by you, I've tried to do you a mischief, and you
listen to me, you take an interest that nobody ever did before, and
you're not afraid of me, either," she continued confusedly. "There's
them, I believe, as won't allow a hair of your head to fall. There must
be a reason for it."

"Only the reason that I told you, Jane. I want to save you from
yourself; but Mrs. Foster is moving, and I don't wish our conversation
to be overheard. I must hear more about little Willie at another time."
She held out her hand: "We are friends, are we not?"

Jane took it in an awkward, bewildered kind of way. Then, as she looked
into her mistress's face and read nothing but forgiveness there, her
feelings became quite too much for her. Throwing her apron over her
head, she rushed out of the room crying like a little child. For the
spirit of a little child had come into the hard heart.

Her night had been dark as pitch, but already the fair dawning had
gleamed out of the east.




CHAPTER XIX.

_GOOD-NIGHT AND GOOD-BYE._

                       Behold in yon skies
    This wild night is passing away while I speak.
    Lo! above us the day-spring beginning to break!
    Something wakens within me, and warms to the beam.
    Is it hope that awakens?


"My bairn was unco' fashed aboot naething," said Nurse Martha to
herself as she trotted about the cottage that day, trying to be very
busy, but finding the process hard.

The fact was this: Martha was considerably perplexed. She had been sent
to Middlethorpe because her young master was anxious about this lady,
in whom he had taken so deep an interest; he had given the old woman
as a reason for his anxiety that he had a strong suspicion about her
landlady--the only other person in the house--believing her to be not
only an untrustworthy person, but specially antagonistic to Mrs. Grey.

Martha Foster had been requested to watch this person. She _had_
watched, and what had she found out? Only an almost superfluous
devotion on Jane Rodgers's part.

Through the whole of that day Mrs. Grey had been suffering from a kind
of nervous depression. The thoughtful kindness of her attendant, which
seemed to be offered as a tribute of affection, could not possibly be
exceeded. Nothing was left for Martha to do. The landlady was even
inclined to resent her interference in any personal attendance on Mrs
Grey.

Her cold, quiet way of saying that, having known Mrs. Grey some time,
it was only natural she should understand her ways better than a
stranger, quite surprised the old woman.

"Gang yer ain gait, my gude woman," she had answered. "I'm blithe to
hear ye ken your wark and love yer bonny leddy sae weel."

And then the landlady had looked at her with a kind of suspicion.
Turning away, she had said in a low, constrained voice, "I should love
her if any one should."

What, perhaps, appeared still more mysterious to Nurse Martha was that
Mrs. Grey seemed thoroughly to understand, and even to return, the
feelings her landlady cherished for her.

When she was at her worst--and in the early part of the day the pain
in her head had been maddening--she could look up with a smile that
was almost one of pleasure at the anxious, hard-featured face leaning
over her, and receive with a sweet gratitude services which to the old
woman, experienced in nursing, seemed unnecessary and obtrusive.

The landlady and her lodger appeared, in fact, to understand each
other so perfectly that in the evening Mrs. Foster began to think
herself _de trop_. Not that Mrs. Grey was anything but most kind and
hospitable; she was even too grateful for her obedience to her young
gentleman's wishes; but there was nothing for her to do. Jane kept her
house in excellent order, and certainly, as far as Mrs. Grey's personal
requirements went, it did not seem as if she could have a more devoted
attendant.

Mrs. Foster made up her mind to write to her young master and point out
to him that her further presence would be unnecessary. But the next
morning brought a change. There were two letters--one for Margaret and
one for the old woman. Adèle and Arthur had both written to announce
the pleasing fact of their arrival.

Margaret was in bed when her letters came, but the sight of them
revived her. Her new champion was more active than the lawyer; he had
news, Adèle said, and he would bring it. For although the strange
events of the last few days had had the effect of dividing Margaret's
thoughts in a measure, yet this was still her one haunting desire--to
see Maurice once more, to let him at least hear of her, to have him
know that she was faithful to him in heart and conscience. Even the
recovery of her child was second to that.

"They will be here this evening," she said to old Martha, her face
radiant with hope. "I wish the evening were here."

And the old woman wondered, thinking within herself that this eagerness
was rather suspicious.

But further remarks were stopped by a knock at the door. The landlady
was there holding a fair-haired child by the hand. "Excuse me, ma'am,"
she said in that constrained tone which was always a puzzle to Martha;
"but I thought you might perhaps like to see my nephew."

A light which was very like most unfeigned joy spread itself over
Margaret's face. "Bring him to me, Jane," she said softly. "There, put
him up on the bed; he won't be frightened." For the child was looking
round bewildered at the strangeness of the scene.

"He's not properly dressed," said the woman falteringly.

Willie still wore the coarse workhouse suit, but his fair skin was as
white as snow, and his yellow curls might have been the pride of any
mother's heart.

"Never mind his clothes. Give him to me for one moment," said Margaret
pleadingly.

"If you really wish it, ma'am," said Jane, and her harsh voice was
husky, but she stooped over the child, and no one knew that the cold,
gray eyes were dim with tears.

"So this is little Willie?" said Margaret, passing her hand caressingly
over his curls, while the child looked up with blue eyes of wonder.
"Should you like to live with us, dear?" she said, in her soft motherly
voice.

The little boy had never taken his eyes from her face. "Stay wid you,"
he replied decisively.

"So you shall," said Margaret smiling; and then to his aunt, "I have
some little things that will almost fit him, Jane. My child's frocks
and petticoats two or three years ago would suit Willie very well. We
could alter them a little, and you might easily get a belt of some kind
in the village to keep him from looking too much like a girl."

"Thank you, ma'am," said Jane. She could not have spoken another word.

"How pleasant!" said Margaret almost gleefully. "I wanted something to
help me to pass the tiresome hours of this long day, and now my pretty
little Willie has come, and we must help him into prettier clothes.
Come, Mrs. Foster you know all about little ones. We must press you
into the service."

"Willingly," said the old woman, producing a monstrous thimble from her
pocket and popping it on her finger. And soon, united by the pleasant
mutual interest, even awkwardness was forgotten among the three women
as they worked together with a will to clothe the little one suitably.
They were all benefited: Martha had found an occupation, and she began
dimly to understand Mrs. Grey's tactics; Margaret was happy in seeing
the fruits of her efforts come even more fully than she could have
hoped; and Jane felt all the hardness melting away from her heart. Mrs.
Grey insisted she should join them in the afternoon to give her advice
and assistance in the serious task of changing a girl's clothes into
a boy's, but once or twice she was forced to make her escape. These
outbursts of feeling, however, made her better. They taught her that
she was not all bad. They showed her that in the heart she had thought
past redemption were yet the seeds of good; and unconsciously she
rejoiced, blessing the kindly hand which out of misery and blackness
had brought light, and even a measure of peace.

The day passed rapidly in this pleasant work, but Willie had long been
asleep before the welcome sound of wheels notified the approach of the
travellers.

The cottage and its surroundings certainly presented a more smiling
appearance than on the preceding evening. Indeed, the contrast could
not have been greater, for this was a kind of gala, and Jane Rodgers,
in deference to the wishes of her mistress, determined nothing should
be wanting that could produce a pleasing impression on the mind of the
visitor.

Jane was not, and never could be, a person of many words. She was
naturally self-contained. The business of preparation, from which she
spared neither labor nor thought, was a kind of outlet for the feelings
which could not find expression in words. If she could say nothing
about her gratitude, she would prove it.

She knew Margaret's love of flowers, so she had gathered them together
from every available corner. Roses, geraniums, fragrant heliotrope and
mignonette were literally scattered in the rooms, which were full of an
abundance of light. Some of Jane's cherished savings had been expended
in plants that lined the hall and peeped from the windows. The cottage,
indeed, looked very pleasant. The front door, thrown wide open, showed
the lighted hall, and even allowed a glimpse of the small sitting-room,
in which a substantial tea-table, spread with all kinds of dainties
and decorated with Jane's wealth of plate and china, seemed to invite
the entrance of the weary travellers. Outside was the moon, throwing
its white beams on the little plot of grass as it shone persistently
through the branches of the stately cedar which flanked the little
house on one side, while through the fragrant limes on the other side
came the glimmer of the starlit sea.

"How pretty and quiet it all looks!" said Adèle to her cousin as they
approached the cottage. "And that's the place, I feel sure; it is just
what I expected to see. Now I know I shall get well soon."

She leant back in the carriage with a little sigh, for Arthur was
paying scarcely any attention to her words. She could see his face in
the moonlight rapt and eager, and Adèle felt almost sick for a moment
with the longing that _she_ might ever be able to call that look into
his face. He turned to her at last. "It is all right," he said in a
tone of intense relief; "I see her."

Adèle looked at him in simple wonder: "And whom did you expect to see,
Arthur?"

Arthur turned away in slight confusion. He did not wish Adèle to know
that the kind of uneasiness aroused by the storm had never left his
mind--that he had been haunted by a certain inexplicable fear which
nothing but the sight of Margaret herself could take away. He did not
answer Adèle's question, but proceeded to gather together the bags and
parcels.

The landlady was at the gate, with curtseyed welcome, ready for any
consignment; Margaret was on the steps of the front door; the old woman
was behind her. Arthur for the first few moments had to be contented
with her and with a nod and a smile from Margaret, whose warmest
welcome was for Adèle. "Come in, come in," she said, holding out both
her hands; "I thought it almost too good to be true when I read your
letter this morning. But you have come, my poor, pale child, and we
must take care of you and make you strong." She drew her into her own
room: "Will you share this with me for the present, dear? I can look
after you better so."

Adèle was weak and tired. She could scarcely keep from tears as she
threw her arms round Margaret's neck in her impulsive girlishness. "I
am so glad to come," she said. "And oh! I wanted to thank you!" Adèle
was thinking of the little scene in the library.

"Thank me, dear!" replied Margaret, gently removing the young girl's
hat as she spoke, and smoothing back her hair with a loving hand. "What
shall I say to you, then, my faithful friend, who has believed in me
through everything?" She spoke lightly, but there was an undertone of
deep emotion in her voice. "We shall have plenty to talk about, Adèle,
but this evening is to be given to rejoicing. I feel as if it were the
opening of a new era in our lives--as if happiness, that capricious
little deity, were hiding somewhere very near us. Come into the
dining-room; your cousin will become impatient if we shut ourselves up
_too_ long."

They went together into the little parlor; and when Arthur saw Adèle's
glistening eyes and noted Margaret's loving little attentions to her
guest, he felt sorely inclined once more to be jealous of his cousin;
but he did not allow this to be seen, and the evening passed away
very happily. Harmony, that sweet, rare guest, seemed to reign in the
little household. Every one was comfortable and happy. The undisguised
satisfaction of the old woman, who began dimly to see through some
of the mysteries that had been perplexing her; the happiness of
Adèle, wavering between smiles and tears, and taking a final refuge
in the former; the confidence and peace which seemed for the moment
to have taken possession of Margaret; Arthur's apparent contentment
and overflowing merriment; the quiet, respectful attentions of the
landlady,--made a pleasing whole.

When the tea-things were cleared away, and Jane and Martha had finally
retired for a gossip in the kitchen, Arthur got up and closed the door
with great care. "Now, Mrs. Grey," he said, crossing over to where she
sat looking out upon the moonlight, "I must really have it out with
you. Are you a magician? _Please_ give us the secret of your power?"

Margaret smiled: "A serious accusation, Sir Knight. Before committing
myself in any way, I must hear upon what it is founded."

"You have bewitched that wretched old landlady of yours. Why, I declare
I never in my life saw the like of it. When I was last here I felt
once or twice an insane desire to say something that would astonish
her, I was so angry at the cool impertinence of her manner. Now, good
gracious! no humble slavey could be more obsequious. She seems actually
affectionate--has the appearance of a devoted family servant. What have
you done to arouse enthusiasm? Come, Mrs. Grey, confess!"

"You must confess, first," answered Mrs. Grey, more gravely, it seemed,
than the occasion warranted, "that such a thing is possible as to be
mistaken, even when we think our observation has been of the keenest.
You thought and I thought that Jane Rodgers was wholly without a
heart. I have discovered my mistake, and found a way to her heart;
that is all the mystery. Thank you, a thousand times, for your kind
thoughtfulness in sending Mrs. Foster. She is a charming old woman, and
I was delighted to receive her, but my landlady and I are perfectly
_d'accord_."

Arthur shrugged his shoulders: "The mystery remains a mystery still,
however; even in her changed attitude your landlady is not a lively
subject, to me especially, for she was the cause of a severe nightmare
which kept me awake for hours only a very short time ago. We'll change
it. What I want to tell you is, that all being well I start for Moscow
to-morrow night."

Margaret clasped her hands and looked straight before her into the
night. "Then you have heard of him?" she said in a low voice.

"I have heard something, dear Mrs. Grey." Arthur spoke slowly, a
certain sadness in his voice. It was as it should be. She loved her
husband. He was nothing to her but an intermediary, an instrument.
"But do not raise your hopes too high," he continued. "It may be a
long and tedious business. The last address given by Mr. Grey to his
solicitor--who, I suppose you know, is not the same as yours--for
letters and remittances, was that of an agent in Moscow. It is more
than probable he has left that place himself. He seemed to wish to keep
his ultimate destination a secret. I shall go to Moscow myself, and see
this agent. He will probably be able to give me some information."

"And what if he refuse?"

"I have a key. Russians are proverbially open to bribery and
corruption."

Margaret shivered a little: "It seems almost wrong, but I can't help
it. Oh, if I only knew!"

"We are working for him as well as for you," said Arthur quietly. He
felt for the moment an insane inclination to do something desperate to
this "_him_" for whom he was working so disinterestedly. For Margaret
looked more beautiful than ever--at least he thought so as she sat
there in the moonlight. The young man in his boyish enthusiasm could
have fallen before her, and, holding her feet, have worshipped her.
But she was so utterly unconscious. Adèle meanwhile was lying on the
sofa, listening and watching. She was trying to acquiesce in it all,
trying to feel it right that her Arthur should take so deep an interest
in another woman--for she knew his face well, she had read that sudden
longing--she was trying to rejoice in Margaret's unconsciousness and
her cousin's truth; but the little aching was at her heart. Margaret
had been, for the moment, absorbed in her own hopes and fears; as
Arthur spoke the last words, however, she thought suddenly of Adèle,
and crossing to the sofa she sat down by her side.

"Forgive me," she said softly.

"What for, Mrs. Grey?"

Adèle lifted her eyes to her friend's face, and Margaret saw that tears
were not far off.

"For sending _your_ Arthur away on this wild search," she whispered.
And Arthur, who had been standing at the window gazing regretfully at
the stars, and thinking with some discontent of life's contradictions,
heard what she said. The words were like a reproach. They made him
think of Adèle's self-forgetfulness; they brought back to him the
gentle scene of that stormy night.

He turned resolutely from the window, and placing himself at the head
of the sofa looked down upon his cousin's young fair face. She put out
her hand with a smile; he took it and held it in both his own. "She is
not to be pitied, Mrs. Grey," he said lightly, "for this is all her
own doing. I am only obeying, like a faithful knight, the orders of my
liege lady. She filled my mind with her grand poetic ideas about doing
good, and the rest of it; she was always making me ashamed of my idle,
aimless life; then after we first met you, and she and I had made up
our minds you had some great sorrow, she tried to bring me near to you;
and finally, the other day, when, as I told you, part of your history
came to us, she sent me off to see you and find out the truth; her
orders were--Shall I repeat them, Adèle?"

He had succeeded in making her pale cheeks a "celestial rosy red."

"You have said quite enough, dear, and too much. Have you discovered,
Mrs. Grey, that my cousin is rather given to exaggeration?"

"Am I to believe all this is exaggeration?" replied Margaret. And
then she stooped and kissed the young girl's glowing face. "It is so
very like the truth, Adèle, that you must allow me the happiness of
believing it. I shall take the services of your knight as your gift,
and we shall watch together for his safe return."

"And remember, Adèle," said Arthur impressively, "no flirting in my
absence. Mrs. Grey, I shall make you responsible."

Margaret laughed, and Adèle answered gayly, for her bright spirits were
rapidly returning, "Pray, sir, with what am I to flirt? As far as I can
see already, there are no objects but stones and waves, and I fear that
on them my fascinations would be thrown away. Mrs. Grey, have you many
visitors in this place in the summer?"

"Principally nurses and babies; I fear it will be dull for you."

"Dull!" said Adèle rapturously, "with you and the sea! Why, this is
the kind of dulness I have been craving for. If you only knew how
delightful it is to escape from soirées and dinner-parties, and, more
hateful still, afternoon callers! But have you nothing else to tell
Mrs. Grey, Arthur?"

"Very little more, Adèle. I think I told you, Mrs. Grey, that we had
traced your little girl to Southampton. We sent an agent there, and
to-day my solicitor, Golding, had a telegram from him. Travellers
answering exactly to our description seem to have taken tickets to
Paris. A sailor in one of the steam-packets remembers the child
perfectly. He seems to have been struck with her beauty and the
peculiar appearance of her companion. Paris is a large city, but I do
not despair. Our man has his wits about him. We have communicated with
the French police too, and they are on the alert."

Margaret sighed: "It is _so_ difficult to be patient. I long to be off
myself--my poor little darling!--but I suppose it would be useless."

"Worse than useless. You see we must proceed with great caution, and
the man we suspect knows you. If he found out that you were personally
on the track, he might take alarm and hide the child; but our agent is
unknown to him. By the bye, have you a picture or anything of the kind
of either or of both of them, your little Laura and this foreigner? If
you have it may be useful."

Margaret turned pale: "Wait a moment," she said. She went with her
candle into the next room, and opening a drawer took from it a little
old leather box. The key was on her watch-chain, but her hand trembled
as she fitted it into the lock. The lid flew open, revealing a little
velvet-lined case, which seemed to contain only two or three yellow
envelopes, a withered flower and two likenesses.

Sitting down, Margaret leant her head upon her hand, and two or three
tears fell into the box. It was like the opening of a grave. The
likenesses were miniatures, delicately painted and set in gold. She
took up the one that lay uppermost, and looked at it through a mist of
blinding tears. It was the portrait of a young girl; the face was not
so beautiful as that which looked down upon it, for the features were
irregular, but the artist had hit happily upon its principal charm: it
was in the eyes, which were dark and lustrous, and in the low, broad
brow, from which the hair swept back in soft waving lines.

"My Laura," said Margaret half aloud, "forgive me--he is unworthy."

She laid down the miniature softly, and taking up the other looked at
it silently, then turning it she touched a clasp at the back. Between
the gold and the ivory lay a scrap of yellow paper. With a sudden
impulse she crushed it in her hand, then smoothing it out carefully she
read it by the candlelight. The words written were few and simple: "A
Mddles. Marguerite et Laure, des amitiés bien sincères--L'ESTRANGE;"
but the strong man's hand that had traced them had trembled visibly,
and as the woman whose dignity he had outraged, whose treasure, as she
believed, he had stolen, looked on them that night, she remembered how
her heart had warmed at the thought of those trembling fingers, and of
what that trembling told.

It was not this, however, that brought the softness to her face at
that moment. Slowly she put down the paper and the opened miniature;
taking up the other, she held it against her heart. "Laura, my darling,
forgive me!" she murmured; "I would have kept your treasure; I cannot."
With the other hand she took the piece of yellow paper and held it in
the flames till it was consumed. Then replacing the first miniature,
she shut and locked the box, put it back in its place with scrupulous
care, and returned to Adèle and Arthur.

There was no trace of agitation in Margaret's manner as she held out
the miniature.

"This was a common treasure of my cousin's and mine," she said with a
sad smile. "I kept it only in obedience to her dying wishes, but I must
find my child, and my poor Laura would forgive me."

Arthur took it. "I think you are right," he said; "but about your
child?"

"I have plenty of likenesses of her. You had better take the last; it
is wonderfully good: I have never seen a better photograph of a child.
But, Arthur, before you send this miniature away, look at it carefully;
_you_ may possibly come across them."

"If I do--!" said Arthur from between his clenched teeth.

Margaret laid her hand on his arm and looked at him anxiously: "You
would do nothing rash, I hope, Arthur; you know my history; you will be
able to understand me when I say that for the sake of those old days,
for my darling's memory, I would not have a hair of his head touched. I
only want my child."

"Be of good courage," said Arthur cheerily; "if she is in the land of
the living, we shall find her, Mrs. Grey, and bring her back to you in
triumph. Thank you for these; they will be of great use to us. But now,
ladies, it is getting late, and I shall have to be up early to-morrow,
so I think I shall say good-night and good-bye. I have taken a room at
the hotel, and as I find the first train to York leaves this--or rather
the station--at half-past seven in the morning, it will be best to make
my adieus to-night."

"How soon shall we hear from you?" said Adèle, her lip trembling.

"As soon as ever I can send a letter. I mean to travel night and day,
therefore you must not be surprised if some days pass."

Arthur was himself again; the thoughts of action had been invigorating.
He shook hands with Margaret, kissed his cousin and then took his
departure. _They_ stood together under the moonbeams silent, for their
hearts were full. _He_, with never a backward look, walked steadily
away along the sounding sea.




PART IV.

AT WORK WITH A WILL.

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CHAPTER I.

_LAURA'S TASK._

    O source of the holiest joys we inherit!
    O Sorrow, thou solemn, invisible spirit!
    Ill fares it with man when through life's desert sand,
    Grown impatient too soon for the long-promised land,
    He turns from the worship of thee.


It will long ago have been suspected that Margaret was wrong in her
suspicion about her husband. Maurice Grey was not the person who had
taken forcible possession of her child. Jane, in her new capacity of
friend and protector (for the landlady had never done anything by
halves; hers was one of the world's strong natures--great in good as in
evil), had opened out, with much shame and contrition, everything that
concerned the transactions of that fatal day.

Her story was this: In the course of the afternoon a gentleman had
come up the garden-path, and proceeding to the back instead of to the
front door, had requested to have a few words with her. He had begun by
asking some trivial questions about her mistress, and Jane said that as
he asked them he looked at her in a searching kind of way. Apparently
it did not take him many minutes to discover a certain amount of
animus in her state of mind, and with the more readiness he revealed
to her the object of his visit, persuading her that the service she
was desired to render was very small. He was careful enough of her
conscience not to tell her in so many words what he intended to do. All
he asked her was to keep the fact of his having been there at all a
secret as long as possible, and if she should be questioned to give a
certain description of his personal appearance.

L'Estrange's revenge was perfect in its kind. In his angry bitterness
he had determined to punish, and not only to punish but to humiliate,
the woman who had kept him at arm's length, who offended him by her
dignity, who openly showed her contempt and loathing for his character;
and he had succeeded.

It was a bold scheme. Had it been deliberately planned, it might have
been said to be diabolical in its clever wickedness; but the fact,
though strange, was true: it was _not_ deliberately planned.

When L'Estrange found Margaret's address and followed her to
Middlethorpe, he had not the vaguest idea of being in any way inimical
to her. He had a passionate admiration for her beauty, and he believed
her to be weak. Even the persistent way in which she had hidden herself
from him had nurtured this idea in his mind. He thought she was afraid
of him, and his aim was to conquer this fear, to persuade her by his
specious reasoning that it was foolish and vain.

He was a man who believed he understood women perfectly, and as,
unhappily for himself, his experience had been rather with the weak and
erring than with the strong and pure, he had a rooted contempt for the
female character. The height and purity of such a soul as Margaret's it
was impossible for him to understand.

It must not be supposed that L'Estrange was any monster of
wickedness--he possessed, on the contrary, many good and noble
traits--but his foreign training, the wandering life he had led and
the strange notions he had picked up from modern sectaries had sorely
impaired his moral sense. Truth was a mere name to him. To cling to
it at an inconvenient season he would have considered the supreme of
folly. And yet he had a kind of honor of his own. To help the weak and
defend the oppressed were articles in his strange creed. If Margaret
had given herself up to him and followed him in his wanderings, he
would have been faithful to her even unto death.

In fact it was only tenderness for _her_, an instinctive feeling of
unfitness, that had prevented him from marrying the warm-hearted,
impulsive English girl who had given him her love so unreservedly.

Fortune had come to L'Estrange late in life, and unexpectedly; with
it came the desire for the renewal of old ties. He did not look upon
marriage as the insuperable barrier which it is happily considered
here. He believed Margaret's marriage to have been one of convenience,
not inclination, and that she would be rather thankful to him than
the reverse for interfering with its smooth tranquillity. Hence the
scene at Ramsgate, which, in reliance on Maurice's impulsive character
and his English repugnance to anything approaching a scandal, he had
deliberately planned.

It had succeeded beyond his hopes. Margaret was separated from her
obnoxious husband, and L'Estrange believed that all he had to do was
to go in and win. But for a long time she baffled him, and, as it has
been seen, he misinterpreted her motives, attributing to superstitious
fear of an unknown evil what really arose from disgust and horror. The
success of L'Estrange with women had been so unfailing that he could
not but have unbounded confidence in his own power of fascination.
That the heart which had once been unreservedly his could have been
transferred--and, above all, transferred to a husband--was a thing the
Frenchman failed to realize.

When he fell upon the traces he had been so long seeking, his
determination was this--to enlighten the fair Englishwoman, to lead
her out into what he looked upon as the true land of freedom, to
destroy her foolish prejudices, and then when the education was fairly
begun--what? The usual fools' paradise.

It was in his surprise and indignation at finding himself utterly
baffled, in the light, hateful to him, of her last strong words of
contempt and loathing, that he hastily formed the scheme of cruel
revenge which he carried out so cleverly. The idea was flashed in upon
his brain by the very inspiration of madness.

It will be well, perhaps, to return to that afternoon when, penetrating
into Margaret's sanctuary, he carried away her treasure.

The little Laura was unsuspecting. When L'Estrange entered the parlor
he found her curled up, with her favorite story-book in her hand, in a
corner of the sofa. She recognized him instantly as the stranger whose
kindness to her on the sands had made her think he might be her lost
father. His appearance confirmed her in the idea. Throwing down her
book she ran to him and took his hand with confiding frankness "Then
you _are_ my papa after all?" she said.

"Who told you I was your papa, Laura?" he asked gravely.

"I told myself," replied the little one; "but come, poor mamma will be
_so_ pleased. I left her sitting on the sands, for she wanted to find
you too, and now you've come here instead. Shall we go out and tell
her?"

She did not wait for denial or assent, but dashed out of the room for
her hat, while L'Estrange, rather astonished at his reception, sat and
pondered for a few moments.

"She has taught her child to love him, the man who wronged and doubted
her," he thought with a growing wonder. "I must have been mistaken.
Does she care for him, after all?"

But the bare idea made him clench his teeth and knit his brows, till
the reappearance of the child forced him to dissimulate. L'Estrange was
a consummate actor. He could be all things to all men, but I think that
never in his life had he set himself a harder task than this. The child
was so confiding, so simple in her trust. Not much dissimulation was
necessary, however. The strong emotion he felt as he took up the little
one and felt her small arms round his neck was very real of its kind.
For, she was Margaret's; here lay the spell.

"Laura, my child!" he murmured, and his heart turned with sudden
loathing from the deed he was doing. He felt inclined to put her down
and to run from the house and from the place.

But as he spoke she smiled. It was her mother's beautiful smile, such
as had lit up her face in those bygone days when Margaret and he
had been one in heart and mind. He hesitated no longer. "Laura," he
said, putting her down and looking at her with a tenderness that was
certainly not altogether put on, "I know where your mother is. She is
not on the sands; she has walked so far that it would tire her to
walk back. We shall have to take a carriage to find her. You are not
frightened, little one? See, she has sent her scarf, that you may know
I have come from her."

"Is mamma ill?" said Laura with a quivering lip.

"No, only a little tired."

"Well, then, let's go at once! But how funny of mamma to walk so far! I
suppose she was talking and forgot."

A carriage which L'Estrange had already hired was waiting for them at
some little distance from the house. They got into it and drove away.

For the first half hour Laura was very happy. She did not speak much,
for she was a little shy of this new relation of whom she had heard so
often, and for whose return she was accustomed to pray at her mother's
knees.

She sat by his side, his arm round her, looking up into his face now
and then to point out something they were passing or to make a simple
remark, mostly about "mamma." _He_ was very silent. But still they went
on, up hills and down them, through villages, past trees and fields,
till at last all the well-known landmarks had disappeared and Laura
grew uneasy.

"Where _is_ mamma?" she asked with a half inclination to tears; "she
_can't_ have walked so far."

He drew her on to his knees, so tenderly that she smiled again, and
resting her head on his shoulder repeated the question in a quieter
tone. Still no answer, and still they drove on, till not even the
shelter of those loving arms could do away with the child's uneasiness;
she lifted up her dark eyes pleadingly: "_Please_ tell me, shall we
soon get to mamma?" Then he took both her small hands and looked at her
for a moment. "My poor Laura!" he said, "what will you say to me when I
tell you that you are going away from mamma?"

"Away from mamma!" replied the child, and there came a sudden terror
into her eyes. But Laura was a peculiar child. The life she had lived
with those much older than herself, the shadow of her mother's sorrow
and the influence of her mother's life and character, had made her
unlike others of her own age.

L'Estrange had been prepared for a passion of tears and cries. It did
not come. Only the child drew herself out of his arms, and crouching
down in a corner of the carriage looked round as though searching for
a means of escape. Her case seemed hopeless, so she clasped her small
hands together. "Take me back," she said, earnestly; "oh what will
mamma say?--poor mamma!"

And then she cried, but it was like a woman's weeping--a still
noiseless grief.

L'Estrange was a disciple of Rousseau's. He could understand the
beautiful pathos of a situation, and the child's quiet tears affected
him so painfully that he could scarcely refrain from giving vent to his
own sentiments in some such way, but they did not persuade him to alter
his purpose. He let the child weep for some time, then stooping down
he drew the cold little hands from her face, and holding them in his,
looked at her earnestly for a few moments.

"Come to me, Laura," he said. She half rose, but, as if bethinking
herself, drew back: "It's wrong to take me away from mamma. And _why,
why_ did you say we were going to her?"

Yes, there lay the sting. He had deceived her, and the child distrusted
him. He drew her to him. "This is a strange child," he thought, "and
must be strangely treated."

"Listen to me, Laura," he said gently, "and try to trust me. I know it
was wrong, very wrong, but I had a reason. I want to do good to your
mamma and to you. Your mother is unhappy."

"Yes," sobbed the child; "but it's only because papa is away; if you--"
She looked at him suddenly, then turned away, literally trembling with
a new fear. "Are you _really_ my own papa that mamma tells me stories
about?" she asked with unchildlike earnestness, fixing her dark,
mournful eyes on his face.

There followed a few moments of silence. L'Estrange was thinking.
For the first time in all his life he was staggered. Falsehood had
hitherto always befriended him, but he had never before been in such a
situation as this. Mentally he cursed his own folly, and cast about in
his usually ready mind for something to say, for in this pure child's
presence he felt as if he dared not lie. An inspiration came. "Laura,"
he said earnestly, "you are much better and wiser than other children
of your age or I should not say this to you. I am _not_ your father.
Remember, I never told you I was, but I love you as much as if I were,
and I love your mother. I want to make her happy, and you, her little
daughter, must help me."

L'Estrange did not mean precisely what he said, but for the moment he
persuaded himself that he did. The child held her breath and listened.

"Laura," he continued after a pause, "what would make your mother
happy?"

"For papa to come back," she said with a sigh, which he echoed. Only
a few hours before he had thought to make her happiness in a very
different way. But this should not interfere with his scheme.

"What if _you_ found your father, Laura, and told him this--that your
mother was unhappy, I mean, and wanted him back? Do you think he would
come?"

The child looked up eagerly: "Oh, I'm certain he would."

"Well, petite, if you consent to come away with me, I will try and take
you to your father. Do you understand me?"

Laura understood, certainly. She clasped her hands, but suddenly her
face fell. "You said you would take me to mamma, and you didn't," she
said; "perhaps this is just the same."

L'Estrange was right. She was a strange child and not easy to manage.
As he hesitated for an answer she spoke again: "Take me back to mamma,
and we can ask her about it."

"No, Laura," he said as firmly as he could, for he was easily moved and
the child had touched him to the heart. And then he took her in his
arms again, and smoothing back her hair kissed the tears from her eyes.
For the first time he was really in earnest. Instinctively the child
felt it and was soothed.

"Trust me, petite, and try to be calm. I do not mean you anything but
good, my fair child, for you are dear to me as my own soul."

There was a wonderful power of fascination about this man which had
seldom failed him. It had its effects on this girl-child. She looked
up into his strong face convulsed with emotion, and she was comforted.
Her tears ceased. She lay back silently, and he rocked her to and fro
in his arms while they drove on through the gathering darkness. Was
the child wrong? Had her heaven-sent gift of instinct failed her in
her hour of need? I think not. Rather, in that moment this strange,
complex-natured man was what he appeared--good and true. The pure
child-presence, the simple words, the dark, searching eyes seemed
to have drawn away his evil for the time. It was as though an angel
had looked into his soul's darkness and with a ray of living light
dispelled it utterly.

It must be remembered that L'Estrange was not an Englishman. There
is, I think, a certain oneness of nature about the Anglo-Saxon race
that renders it very difficult for its members to understand the
emotional, impulsive, two-sided character of the Celt, the Latin or
the Greek. An Englishman is eminently straightforward. He does not
stop to analyze. Be his object good or bad, he is given to carrying
it out perseveringly, leaving to the future thoughts of compunction
or self-gratulation. This is doubtless sweeping, as indeed all
generalities must be, but possibly a truth underlies it--a truth
which may explain the extreme lack of sympathy between ourselves and
our southern neighbors. With Englishwomen the case is different.
There is always something in the female character that answers to
this two-sidedness. Its very weakness challenges a woman's sympathy.
Muscular Christianity, strong, manly straightforwardness, is very
attractive in its way, but not so dangerous, I am inclined to imagine,
to the female heart as this emotional impulsiveness, ready at one
moment with tears of sentiment and tender analysis of feeling, and at
the next with passionate indignation and deep-breathed curses.

L'Estrange was a son of the South, a pupil of the great philosopher
of Nature. From his childhood upward he had indulged in every emotion
that ruffled the calm of his strong spirit. From Jean Jacques he had
learnt to invert the eternal unity of beauty and goodness, calling that
fair which is wanting in truth. Therefore, when involuntarily, as he
gazed on the child, who had sobbed herself to sleep on his shoulder,
the moisture dimmed his eyes and his heart softened before her fair
innocence, he felt a certain glow of self-approbation. "I am certainly
becoming a better man," he thought, but he did not make up his mind to
restore the child to her mother--the woman he had once loved, the woman
he had robbed of every joy.

His heart ached for her sadness as in the soft emotion of that evening
her pale face came before his mind; but if he would do her good at all,
it should be in his own way.

And so they drove on--Laura, wearied out with her tears and the
excitement, fast asleep in the arms of the man who had taken her from
her mother; L'Estrange scarcely daring to stir. In his strange way he
thanked God for this sleep.

The stopping of the carriage aroused the child. They were at a station
some miles distant from the one by which they usually went from
Middlethorpe to York.

The night was dark; only a few stars shone through the cloud-rents.
Laura started up. "Mamma!" she cried; then looking round her, she
remembered and said no more. L'Estrange was watching her narrowly. He
had dreaded this awakening, for he feared a passionate outburst of
grief, but it did not come.

The child looked out and around her with that far-seeing look that some
children have, as if they can see into the invisible, and then, as they
entered the dimly-lighted station--for the little lady had insisted
upon being put down to the ground--she looked up again into his face.
It was the same, mournful, searching gaze that had already touched him
so deeply.

Apparently the scrutiny satisfied her, or it may be her woman's
instinct showed her the uselessness of resistance, for she gazed away
again into the night and said no more till she found herself wrapped
up tenderly and laid amongst the cushions of a first-class railway
carriage. L'Estrange took his seat beside her and the train began to
move.

Then first the child's lip trembled, and there came a look of distress
into her small face. L'Estrange stooped over her: "Are you frightened,
darling?"

"Not frightened," said the little girl; "but--"

"But what? Tell me."

Then came the trouble with a burst of tears: "I want mamma to tuck me
up and hear my prayers. We say them--mamma and I--when the stars come
in the sky; and the stars are up there now, and--and I want mamma."

For Laura was only a very little girl, and this want made her first
realize what it was to be without her mother.

Her companion did not answer, and the child went on in her simplicity:
"God is up there above the stars a very long way away, but I know He
hears, for when mamma was in London and Jane was cross, I told Him and
He brought her back after a long time. Oh, please, will it be a _great_
many nights before we go back to mamma?"

As she spoke those silent tears so pitiful from a little child began to
flow, and her companion once more felt inclined to curse himself for
his short-sighted folly. He knelt down beside her in the carriage, and
she saw that his face was very pale and that real tears were in his
eyes.

"Ma fillette, ma chèrie," he whispered, for in his emotion the English
endearments sounded hard and cold, "be patient--trust me."

For a few moments Laura was soothed, but still, as there came the gleam
of the stars through the darkness, the childish wail was repeated: "I
want mamma! I want mamma!"

L'Estrange was perplexed. Passionate sorrow he had expected, and he had
not despaired of curing it by distractions, but this quiet pathos of
grief cut him to the very soul. In its presence he was helpless. How
could he comfort her?

He pondered, but for a long time in vain. At last his own childish days
returned to his mind, and the stories he had learnt at his nurse's
knee. "It was in parables," thought this master of human nature,
"that the Great Teacher taught the world; and what were the myths of
antiquity but parables to prepare the nations in their childhood for
the reception of truth? By a parable I may perhaps make this little one
believe that her present suffering is for a future good."

By which it will be seen that he still thought, in some vague way, of
redressing the great wrong he had committed, and by means of the child,
whom he had stolen in an access of bitter revenge, restoring Margaret
to happiness by giving her back her husband.

"Laura," he said, lifting her from the cushions and holding her in his
arms, "can you listen to a story?"

"Yes," said the child wearily.

"Listen, then, ma fillette, and try to understand me. It is long ago
that I heard this story, when I was a little child like you, and
perhaps you have heard it many times, for it comes from a book that
English people read. There was a man who had a great many sons--twelve,
I think--and he loved one of them more than all the others; we do not
know why--perhaps he was beautiful and good. This boy was of course
very happy at home, because he was always with his father, who gave him
everything he wanted. But at last his brothers grew angry---jealous, I
think you call it in English."

Laura drew in her breath with a sigh of contentment. "Why," she
interrupted, "you are telling me about Joseph!"

"Yes," he replied gravely, "and ma fillette knows that Joseph was sent
to a country a long way off, far from his father who loved him."

"Like me," said Laura sighing.

"And ma fillette knows, too, that Joseph saw his father again."

"After a long, long time," said the child.

"After a long time, it is true; but what did he do then?"

Laura looked away at the stars: "Gave his father bread and a house and
sheep, and everything he wanted."

For she knew all about this, her favorite Bible story.

There was a pause then. The child and her companion were thinking.

At last L'Estrange spoke: "And was he sorry afterward, this good
Joseph, that he had been taken away from his father?"

"I think he was glad," said Laura in a low tone; "only it was such a
very, very long time. But if I thought what you say I wouldn't mind the
long time."

"Think it, then, ma fillette," he said, stooping over her with his own
peculiar smile, which seemed to shine like light on his dark face. And
the child believed him.

It was a strange doctrine to take root in so young a mind, for the
subtle parable wrought powerfully. The great fact of self-sacrifice,
the suffering of some for the good of others, began to dawn upon the
child's mind. It was real suffering to be separated from her mother,
to be wandering with this stranger through the night instead of lying
in her warm white bed in her mother's room; but Laura neither wept
nor complained. Her tears ceased, and her dark eyes grew large with
thought. For she had overcome her distrust of her companion; she
believed with the simple faith of childhood that what he told her was
true. Her strong imagination idealized him into a guide (like Great
Heart in the bit of the _Pilgrim's Progress_ she loved the best) come
to put an end to her mother's troubles by bringing her father back to
them; and for her part in the great work the child, with unchildlike
calm and thoughtfulness, was ready.

It was late before they reached York, but rooms were ready at an hotel
to which L'Estrange had telegraphed, and the good-natured chambermaid
took every care of the little lady. Going to bed so far from mamma
was hard work for the poor child, and her sobs and tears and sudden
startings from sleep were subject of much speculation to the attendant;
but at this time she said nothing, as her services were very liberally
remunerated.

L'Estrange passed a very different night. He had been longing for
its deep solitude, that he might think out undisturbed the unwonted
thoughts to which the experiences of that day had given rise. And the
night came--heavy, dark, brooding, suitable to his spirit's mood.

He went to his room, but there he could not rest; under its narrow roof
even thought would not come to him; he rose and went out. The town was
silent in the darkness, and utterly undisturbed he walked through the
quaint, narrow streets, under low-browed gates and arches, till in
a few minutes he gained the open country. A wide, grassy expanse it
seemed to be, as far as he could see by the faint light that struggled
now and then through the clouds--undulating here and there, and
bordered in the distance by a fringe of wood, behind which a line of
light that told of either twilight or dawn was lying low down on the
horizon.

A gate opened on to the smooth turf. He unlatched it, and, after a few
more rapid steps, threw himself down on the grass with his face to
heaven. A sudden craving for rest of some kind--rest of conscience,
rest of heart, rest of soul--had come to him, and in the night's
stillness he had set himself the task of thinking out the problem.

In the morning of the long day he had thought to rest in love. That
hope had gone by. It did not require so consummate a master of human
nature as himself to recognize clearly that this was vain; and strive
as he would he could not forget Margaret; her beauty haunted him as
the vision of impossible good must follow the lost--a torment, because
unattainable for ever. Later, he had imagined that revenge in its
bitter satisfaction might rest his spirit. His scheme had succeeded,
but this too was vanity, or worse, for the child whom he had looked
upon merely as the instrument of his vengeance had opened his eyes,
and instead of rest came the stinging pang of remorse to harass his
tormented soul.

And thus it had ever been with him. The beautiful "spirit of delight"
he had been seeking from his youth up; always with the same result--to
find under the beauty, ashes; under the glory, dull despair.

At first, as he lay there under the canopy of cloud, the thoughts
of this strange man were nothing higher than self-pity and bitter
complaining of wayward fate. His being seemed for the moment a thing
apart from himself. He took it in his hand and reasoned on it. Why
was it formed to enjoy when enjoyment was a thing unattainable? Why
was it tortured with longings which for ever were destined to remain
unsatisfied? Why was beauty so fair and good so lovely when always they
looked on it from afar? What was this superior fate that fed its slave
with mocking visions--removing evermore and ever farther the cup of
bliss for which his thirsty soul was panting?

The soft sensualist felt the tears brimming to his eyes as he pondered
on his calamities. It was the remembrance of his own parable that
first aroused him, for the man was not naturally weak. Brought up in a
different school, he might have been different. Education had made him
a formalist and from forms he had turned away in his manhood, thinking
in the direct opposite to find freedom and truth.

The formalist had cast off every tie of faith, only to fall into the
closer bondage of fatalism. And the worst of it all was that there
seemed no opening for him into the light. But, though he little
suspected it, he had found a teacher, and in the stillness of that
night the lessons fallen from the lips of one of God's little ones
began to take effect upon his mind.

It was not so much his own parable as its effect upon Laura that struck
suddenly to the root of his selfish murmuring. His sensuous soul had
been hitherto seeking with all its power for beauty as a resting-place.
He had thought to find it in the gratification of his senses, but it
had always eluded him. The child's earnest look that night as she took
up at his command the burden of suffering for the good that was to
come--not so much to herself as to another--made a new idea dawn upon
his mind. Was there, then, an unsuspected beauty even in suffering when
sanctified by high ends? If so, he had been all his life seeking in
vain.

Suddenly as the idea flashed in upon his brain--with the vision of that
patient little face, from which something more than a child's spirit
seemed to look--he sprang to his feet and walked rapidly forward into
the night. Like a dream his former life seemed to map itself out before
him in those few moments of intense feeling. The days, the years that
had, in spite of his efforts, furrowed his face and sprinkled their
gray ashes on his head, how had he spent them? In seeking the good
which ever eluded him, in fleeing from the shadow that ever pursued
him. The good had been happiness, beauty--the evil had been pain,
suffering. Physical suffering, mental suffering, sympathetic suffering,
vicarious suffering,--this he had striven to blot out from the story
of his life; he would believe that it did not exist, and when in
unmistakable evidence it had presented itself to his senses, he would
forget its presence or drown its influence in distractions.

And now came this child-messenger to tell him that all this time he had
been banishing a holy thing, a soul-purifier. It had ennobled the young
face that night till an angel's pure beauty seemed to rest upon it.
Even his peerless Margaret had gained in calmness and strength by those
years of desolation; and he who had cast it aside as abhorrent, what
was he becoming?

He asked himself this with an involuntary shudder. He had always
rejoiced in the tenderness of his heart. His very objection to the
sight of suffering had been laid to this account in the self-analyses
which with him had been so frequent: and now what did he find himself
doing? Coolly inflicting torture on a woman and child--two of the
weakest of God's creatures--and all for the gratification, not of the
best but of the worst feelings of his nature. Once more L'Estrange
threw himself to the ground, but this time his face was turned
earthward and buried in his hands, while wave after wave of bitterness
passed over his troubled soul.

When he looked up the white dawn was beginning to struggle with the
darkness. Gray clouds and intermediate patches of pale blue had become
visible, and heavy, bead-like drops of dew stood on the blades of
grass. His face was wan, like that of one who had passed through a
death-agony, but it looked better. He rose to his feet and paced slowly
back to the town. At the railway-station he stopped, knocked up a
telegraph-clerk, and sent a message apparently to London, then returned
to his room at the hotel, arousing the astonishment of two or three
sleepy waiters who were up in expectation of an early train.

There he sat down before the table, opened his desk and taking from it
a sheet of paper began a letter. It seemed a difficult one to write,
for sheet after sheet was destroyed before he could satisfy himself. It
was accomplished at last, however, and the words written seemed to be
very few, but a smile flitted over his face as he read them. Then he
pressed the paper to his lips, enclosed it in an envelope, and wrote
the address with a trembling hand.

L'Estrange's method of spelling English words was very eccentric. He
could speak the language well enough, as he had lived long in England,
but he could never bring himself to write it. Why words should be spelt
in such an arbitrary way he could not or would not understand. All he
could suppose was that the English would keep in this, as in everything
else, to their national characteristic of eccentricity.

English eccentricity had always been a fruitful theme with L'Estrange.
On the point of spelling he was obstinate. He persisted in spelling
phonetically, and as a natural consequence his letters very often went
astray.

It will be as well to say at once that this was the unhappy fate of
the letter in which his mental struggles culminated. It was written in
French and addressed to Margaret. She never got it. Three weeks later,
after vain endeavors had been made to procure it some destination, it
was returned to the hotel from which it had been written. There it
awaited the return of its writer.




CHAPTER II.

_A WASTED LIFE._

    A glorious Devil, large in heart and brain,
    That did love Beauty only (Beauty seen
    In all varieties of mould and mind),
    And Knowledge for its beauty; or if Good,
    Good only for its beauty, seeing not
    That Beauty, Good and Knowledge are three sisters
    That doat upon each other--friends to man,
    Living together under the same roof,
    And never can be sundered without tears.


The heavy rings round Laura's eyes and her general languor when she
appeared in the private sitting-room her protector had taken deeply
grieved him.

For a few moments he felt inclined to act upon his natural impulse
of kindliness--to take the child back to her mother, and pursue his
strange scheme of setting Margaret right with her husband by himself.
But a remnant of selfishness withheld him. Laura, in her sweet,
childish innocence and in the unchildlike development of her inner
life, was a beautiful problem, the like of which had never before, in
all his wanderings through the fields of humanity, been presented to
him. He longed to study her more closely, and this could only be done
by following out his original scheme. He determined, therefore, to
leave the decision to her.

He said very little during breakfast-time, only watched her with a
certain curiosity. He was grateful to this child who had opened a door
of light in his soul, though he was not near enough to her in purity
and beauty to know how great was the service she had rendered him.

Breakfast was something of a pretence to both of them. The longing for
her mother, and the brave determination to choke it down in her heart
till she had done what was required of her--found this unknown father
and brought him back--made the child too excited for eating to be any
pleasure to her; and L'Estrange at the best of times could not eat so
early.

When it was over the child got up. "Please," she said hesitatingly. She
was in a great perplexity about what she should call her new protector.

He read her thought: "Come here, Laura."

She went quietly to his side, and he drew her on to his knees. "I knew
another Laura once," he said quietly, stroking back her hair; "she
was the sister of your mother; but she is dead now, pauvre enfant!"
And then he continued, as if talking to himself: "Comme elle était
gentille, la chère petite!"

"That must be my aunt Laura," said the child; "mamma has a picture of
her, and I kiss it sometimes."

"Yes, she would be your aunt, ma fillette; you are like her. Ah! I
remember now--it is of her that your eyes make me think. Turn round to
the light."

"But why do you talk about Aunt Laura?" said the child impatiently.
"Please, I want a sheet of paper. I can only write big letters, but I
think mamma would understand."

"Patience, ma mie. _I_ have written a letter to your mother. See, it is
here, all ready to be sent, and if you like some of your big letters
can go inside. You shall put it in the postbox yourself, that you may
trust your old friend as the other Laura did. I told you about her
because of what she used to call me. I should like you to do the same.
It was _mon père_. Can you say that?"

"Mon père," said Laura, in her small childish voice. Then she thought
a few moments: "That means my father, doesn't it? But you are not my
papa."

"I must be your father till you find your own, Laura," he said gravely.
"Shall it be so?"

"Yes, mon père," said the child, smiling up into his face.

And from that moment she never doubted her protector. He on his part
became more determined than ever in the pursuit of his new object.
Little by little the child was doing childhood's Heaven-given work,
drawing away selfishness and bringing pure love in its place. It was
this that brought him to try his experiment. He watched the child as
she sat down before a large sheet of paper with a pencil, writing
painfully her letter to her mother. L'Estrange had all the innate
delicacy of a refined mind; he would not attempt to see what the words
were that the child was tracing.

She brought the paper to him when the letter was done, and stood
beside him as he folded it up; but before it was finally put away he
hesitated: "Which would you rather, Laura--for this letter to go to
your mother, or to go back yourself?"

For a moment the child's face looked bright and joyous, but only for a
moment. The flush faded, she clasped her small hands together: "We must
find papa first; but, oh, I hope it will be soon!"

The strong man turned away; he had difficulty in keeping himself from
weeping like a child. When he spoke again his voice was calm: "We must
lose no time then, Laura." He rang the bell, and the waiter appeared.
"Send the chambermaid here."

When after a few moments the soft-hearted Jane came in, he gave her
money, ordering, in those imperative tones which always gained a
hearing with his inferiors, that the little lady should be supplied
without delay with every necessary for a long journey. He did not
deign to explain, nor did Jane venture to remonstrate. She went to an
outfitter's, procured all that was necessary, and in half an hour from
that time they were ready for another start.

There followed a long and wearisome day, for the heat and dust were
excessive, and before it was over, L'Estrange for the hundredth time
repented as he looked on the patient little flushed face that would yet
show no sign of weariness.

Arthur had been right in his conjecture. They were remarkable
travellers, and many were the comments of those who journeyed with
them--the man, with his dark face and foreign appearance and imperious
conduct, and the fair English child, at the very sight of whom his face
seemed to melt into tenderness and his manners to take the softness
of those of a woman. And no woman could have watched over her child
more lovingly or tended it with greater care than he watched over
and tended his little charge. Food and drink he brought her with his
own hands when it was possible to obtain them; whenever her position
grew wearisome she rested in his arms, the imperious voice sinking to
lulling murmurs as he told her long nursery-tales which he made out
of everything they passed. A house, a stream, the cows in a meadow
would be sufficient material for his fertile brain. Once even, when
the black grimy dust had literally overpowered the fastidious little
lady, and her timidity prevented her from appealing to the attendant
in a waiting-room, he took her himself to a kind of pump, and dipping
his cambric handkerchief into the cool water washed her hands and face
so effectually that she laughed for pleasure. It was her first laugh
since the moment when she had discovered that she was going away from
her mother, and it caused L'Estrange as sincere a throb of gladness
as he had ever known in all his life, for this child was gradually
becoming to him something more than a child--something more even than
the offspring of the woman who through all his lovings and longings had
most entirely held his heart. He began to look upon her, in his strange
fatalistic way, as a mysterious thing, sent to him at the very darkest
hour of all his dark career to touch his blackness with fingers of
light and bring good near to his soul.

And perhaps it was partly the truth. There is, for those who can
understand the mystery, something divine in childhood; certainly, if
not nearer to God than we, children have the power of drawing out the
divine that is in us. L'Estrange felt this in a very peculiar way; he
treated the child with a loving reverence, watching jealously her every
word and movement as one who looks for an inspiration.

And so the long hours of the day wore away. When they reached London it
was already late in the afternoon. Laura was tired, but she would not
hear of remaining there for the night, she was too anxious to press on.

They were met at the Great Northern Station by a gentleman who appeared
to have been expecting them. This man gave them a boisterous welcome,
shook hands warmly with L'Estrange, who did not seem to reciprocate
his cordiality, and, chucking Laura under the chin in a familiar way,
asked her where she was going. The child's lady-like instincts were
offended. She answered quietly that she did not know, and clung to her
protector's hand.

The stranger laughed in a peculiar way, and turned to L'Estrange: "I
didn't know you had a daughter, mossou."

"_Monsieur_," replied he, emphasizing the French word, "was mistaken,
as he very often is."

"Well! well!" answered the other rapidly--he was our friend Mr.
Robinson--"I can't stand here wasting my time. I gather from the
telegram, which duly arrived this morning, that you sent for me about a
certain subject. I _may_ have information for you--I _may_ not."

"It shall be worth Monsieur Rob_ee_nson's while to give me his
information," replied L'Estrange quietly, but with a kind of sarcastic
courtesy.

The courtesy struck Mr. Robinson's mind, the sarcasm glanced over
him harmlessly. "Of course, of course!" he protested volubly. "You
foreigners put things strangely, mossou; ignorance of English ways, no
doubt. Allow me to explain myself. In expectation of this (you gave me
reason a little while ago to believe it might possibly be wanted) I
have kept myself acquainted with the movements of the party discussed
between us. You will doubtless remember the occasion. Naturally
the firm is slightly out of pocket. These investigations, you must
understand, are costly, but everything shall be done in due form
between us. In the mean time, if I can be of any service--"

"Oblige me," said L'Estrange with the same manner, that might be either
courtesy or its semblance, "by taking this as an instalment." He handed
him a paper packet. "The firm I can settle with when your lawyer's bill
comes in. _Your_ services, monsieur, are for the moment personal."

Mr. Robinson bowed. His fingers itched to get to the inside of the
packet, but it would have been unprofessional to show anxiety, so it
rested quietly in his palm. L'Estrange looked at Laura to see how much
of all this she had understood. The little girl was still holding
his hand, but her thoughts seemed to be elsewhere, and he addressed
himself again to the lawyer: "Tell me, in as few words as can be,
where was he heard of last?"

"The last remittances were sent to Moscow. A few weeks ago he was
certainly there--probably is so still."

"Moscow!" L'Estrange repeated the word in a dismayed tone, looking down
as he did so at the child whose hand he held.

Mr. Robinson guessed his thought, and broke in volubly: "You surely
don't think of going there yourself, and with that child too! Why, it
would be preposterous, and not the smallest necessity. Give us time and
we can gain further information. If necessary, I could go there myself,
though of course it would be an expensive business. In any case,
leave your little girl. My wife would be delighted to look for a nice
school--conducted, you know, on Christian principles--where every care
would be taken, both in the way of physical and mental training."

Mr. Robinson would have his say out. He affected to consider that duty
required him to give salutary advice in season and out of season;
and as duty, in his sense of the term, was always closely connected
with business, he had already in his own mind fixed upon a temporary
residence for the child. A lady who owed him a long outstanding bill
was anxious to take in pupils. This new client was evidently a liberal
payer; through the profits made out of the child a part, at least, of
that just debt might be paid off.

But his client did not look at matters in the same light. He tried to
stop his voluble utterances, for the little hand he held was trembling.
Laura, hearing herself discussed, had taken a sudden interest in the
proceedings. She looked up at her protector and saw that his brows were
knit angrily. This alarmed her. She burst into tears. "Oh! please don't
leave me with him," she sobbed; "take me with you or let me go back to
mamma."

How his face changed as he heard the child's cry! It became suddenly
soft as that of a woman. He stooped down to her and wiped away her
tears, whispering all kinds of gentle assurances. Then he turned again
to the lawyer with that ominous frown: "You see what you have done. Be
so good, monsieur, as in the future to preserve business relations in
our necessary intercourse, nor presume to advise me at all on matters
that do not concern you."

Another man would have been struck dumb or else have retired offended,
but the lawyer was of the tough sort. This was too valuable a client
to be sacrificed to feelings. "No offence meant, I assure you, sir,"
he hastened to say--"only interest; but" (seeing the frown gather) "to
return to business. I have a few more details that may be useful--the
address of an agent in Moscow, the--"

"Write them out for me, and send them to the usual address in Paris by
to-morrow morning's mail. At the present, monsieur, we have no more
time for delay. It is necessary to dine before taking the train again
to Southampton."

"You leave, then, this evening? Can I be of any further--"

"No, thank you, Mr. Robeenson." He bowed in his stately manner and
turned away to the refreshment-rooms with Laura, leaving the lawyer on
the platform, still grinning his contentment.

As they distanced him the child gave a sigh: "I'm so glad he's gone!"

"Why, then, did you not like him, ma mie?"

"No, mon père, not at all; he doesn't look good."

"I think the bébé is right," he said in a low tone; "mais que faut il
faire?--Little wise one," he continued aloud, "we must take the people
as we find them, some good and some bad, making our own use of them
all. Is that too hard a philosophy for the little brain?"

Apparently it was, for the child made no answer.

In the mean time L'Estrange had seated her at one of the marble-topped
tables, and before thinking about his own dinner was trying to find
out what would best suit her appetite. The well-feed waiter was flying
about to supply all her wants; dainty after dainty, which she scarcely
touched, was put upon her plate. It was such a new scene to Laura that
her appetite fled with the excitement.

Many looked at her curiously in the crowded room, for Laura was a
peculiarly beautiful child. Her golden curls and her dark, lustrous
eyes, with the transparent delicacy of complexion she had inherited
from her mother, and the childish grace which is the gift of God to
her age of helplessness, made her very attractive. She was rather
embarrassed at the attention she excited, noticing which her protector
stood up and folding his arms looked right and left so haughtily that
the most compassionate and least curious of the many beholders felt as
if their admiration of the fair child had been an indiscretion.

After dinner the wearied little one fell asleep in his arms, and
only awoke to find herself in the train, which was far on its way to
Southampton. She was getting accustomed to her new friend and to these
sudden wakings; so this time, to his great relief, she did not cry out
for her mamma, but clung to him still more closely. They stopped at
Southampton. It was a lovely night, the sea still as glass and the dark
blue sky alight with moonshine and studded with stars.

Laura and her protector stood together on the steamer's deck. "Will ma
fillette go to bed?" he asked.

The child shook her head. "Oh! _please_ let me stay out here," she
pleaded. "I promise not to be a trouble, and the stars are so nice."

Without another word he wrapped her up in his own fur-lined overcoat
and made a bed for her on one of the seats, himself watching beside her.

But this time Laura could not sleep, the position was too strange.
"What is that noise?" she asked nervously as the plash of the water
against the great paddle-wheels came to her ears.

"The water and the wheels," he answered. "The wheels are rolling along
through the waves, taking us over the sea."

The child raised herself on her elbow and looked round: "Where are we
going? There's only sky and clouds out there. But, oh!" clasping her
hands in delight, "look at the moon on the water. I see it like that
at home sometimes. Once, when I could not go to sleep, mamma took me
to the window, and a little bit of the sea was all white as it is
to-night. She said it was the moon, and now we're going to catch the
moon in the water. Oh! _why_ didn't mamma come?"

For this was the ever-recurring trouble of the child. Her love for
her mother was stronger and more enduring than it generally is among
those of her age. A mother gives; but very often years pass before she
receives any return to her devotion. Laura's love was strong, because,
in the first place, there was nothing to divide it: her young life had
never held another affection. Then her love and childish sympathy had
for some time been partially checked, and, it may be, had therefore
grown stronger in their secret place. Only during the last weeks had
her young affection had its free course in the light of her mother's
comprehending love.

Her plaint made her companion wince, but he would not answer it. After
a few moments he looked at her again and saw that tears were in her
eyes. They were reflecting, in their moistness, the white shimmering
moonlight; in its pure unearthly shining the little face seemed almost
transfigured.

L'Estrange had been superstitious from his youth up. He was the very
creature of those dreams and inspirations to which the glowing South
gives birth. Perhaps they had weakened his strong intellect. At any
rate they had kept it in the shadowy twilight, giving little chance for
living truth to make its entrance into his soul.

The look on the child's face startled him. "_Does_ she belong to this
earth?" he asked himself.

"Laura," he whispered, "look away from the stars. Doubtless they are
thy sisters and brothers, little one, but look for one moment from
them to me, and say what thoughts are in the busy little brain at this
moment?"

The child smiled: "I was thinking about the moon and about mamma, mon
père. I was wondering if she is looking at the moon now, and if she got
my letter, and if she misses me very much."

Her simple reflections did not satisfy her friend. I think at the
moment he would scarcely have been surprised if the child had developed
budding wings and floated away into the sympathetic moonshine; his
superstition, it may be, specially as displayed by one whose sex might
have been supposed to lift him above such weakness, will seem strange
and improbable to the majority of readers. A _man allow_ himself to
think seriously of such follies? Yes--a _man_, and not the first nor
the last, by a great many. The inhabitants of our island are not
alone on the face of the earth. In the glow of the sunny South, where
generations have lapped their souls in sunshine and indolently lived
on the abundant gifts of lavish Nature, where life can be sustained by
a little, and the struggle for existence is less painful and bitter,
there has been time for dreaming; and perhaps this has enervated the
moral sense and loosened the sinews of mind, till pleasure has become a
god and the mind receptive of strange things.

In the early days of civilization, before these things had wrought
fully on the character, pure reason, law and its cold abstractions,
divine art and severe philosophy made the South their centre, for when
we think of these first Athens and then Rome come before the mind. And
at that age in the gray formless North the legend flourished, with many
a wild superstition. But all that has changed. A light dawned upon the
mighty tribes; their superstitions fell, and they girded themselves
with strength, while evermore in the sunny lands dreams gained ground,
and weakness followed in their train, till at last what is it that we
see? In the city where Pericles ruled, where Socrates taught, where
Plato reasoned, they dream and do not; in imperial Rome a shadow, an
old mediæval fiction, has kept the people from freedom as they gloried
in the past and dreamed about the future, and in the mean time we of
the gray North are rapidly casting from us almost everything but what
we can see, taste, hold and understand.

Be practical! is the watchword of the age, and sentiment is repudiated,
and imagination cried down or relegated to extreme youth and the
weakest of weak womanhood. Are there many, I wonder, who find the
medium--whose strong souls are strong enough to allow that there is
something which passes their ken--who think it no shame to be at
certain moments swayed by sentiment, governed by a dream of ideal
loveliness, and yet who work on in their daily calling unsickened and
undismayed?

There are some such souls, and to no climate are they peculiar.
L'Estrange might have been one of them. There was in his imaginative
faculty, in his receptivity to beauty and sentiment, in his sympathetic
tenderness, a something that marked him out as one born to a higher
life than that of self-gratification. His success among women was
chiefly owing to this. For it is the good, not the bad in a character,
that draws and enchains the loving worship of womanhood.

Where a man reads weakness a woman's keen eye beholds what underlies
that weakness, and if _it_ be lovable she is ready to adore.

What L'Estrange wanted was this: A soul to understand the beauty and
glory of truth--truth on the lips and truth in the life. To indulge
his love of beauty he had wrapped himself in the rose-colored mists of
dreams; to preserve himself and others from pain he had never hesitated
to resort to falsehood. He might have been very different. Some of the
misery of that "might have been" was in his soul that evening as he
turned from the child and paced up and down the steamer's deck, for a
dark hour had come and he could not bear to face his good genius. With
arms folded and brows knit, his dark face looking forward into the
moonlight, he thought until thinking was pain. But the influence of the
child had begun to work. He would not, as he usually did, cast aside
the painful thinking because of the pain that was in it; rather he
looked it in the face, trying to touch its centre, and so, it might be,
find a cure.

Oh, it was a hard task! For his was the misery of a wasted life, and
a life that had brought desolation. True his innate refinement, the
self-respect of a high intellect, had kept him tolerably free from
what is gross and degrading, but that midnight retrospect was bitter
notwithstanding. Pleasure sought and taken at the expense of truth;
blighted lives, to which he had brought the warm beauty of love,
leaving them when the mood had changed to find it where they could;
good that he might have done and did not; wasted talents, used-up
powers,--these came before his conscience in an accusing throng. And
there was no help for it. He had one life only, and the best of that
life had gone. L'Estrange, though he professed to believe in a futurity
to the soul, was that saddest of all beings, a practical infidel. In
the misery of self-communion his thoughts turned suddenly to the memory
of his boyhood's faith, to the days when heaven had been a reality and
the saints robed in white, the pure queen of the skies, the fair infant
in her breast, had formed part of his hopes and dreams for the future.
They had vanished like myths born of the early vapor. They had been
too shadowy to bear the inroad of hot, lurid noon. Tried, they had
been found wanting, and what had he left in the hour when his heart
and spirit craved for something unearthly as their rest? Nothing. All
he found within, as he ventured shudderingly to lift the curtain that
hides the unseen from the seen, was a "certain fearful looking-for of
judgment and fiery indignation," which no man, if ten times over an
infidel, can escape when the hour comes.

His dark face darkened. If all were hopeless, then why should he pause?
Why had the good that was in him made him hesitate at last? He would
crush it down and gain his own ends, even through suffering itself. He
stopped in his rapid walk and looked over the vessel's side. It was a
real blackness, for clouds had covered the face of the moon, and had
gathered here and there in heavy masses on the horizon.

A moaning wind swept across the sea, ruffling the waters till the
vessel rocked to and fro. Then the dark face relaxed. The desolation of
the watery waste had been responsive to his mood. "So be it, then," he
muttered, looking out into the darkness. He was for the moment like the
grand creation of Milton, that ideal Lucifer, when his last struggles
after goodness have culminated in the fatal cry, "Evil, be thou my
good!"

But L'Estrange was not yet absolutely God-forsaken. As he spoke
something touched his knees. He looked down impatiently. But suddenly
his impatience changed. He drew himself away with a murmured
exclamation and a strange contraction of heart. Was it a miracle? For
this was what he saw. The kneeling figure of a child, the hands clasped
and the eyes lifted up to his. On the face was a bright shining that
made the golden hair like a saint's halo, and brought out the picture
in every small detail--the tremulous lips, the fair soft brow, the
lustrous eyes under their silken fringe. The face was Laura's. In
her companion's mood it seemed transfigured, like that of an angel
lamenting over his sins and follies. Involuntarily he bowed his head.
The strong man trembled like a child at the evidence of all he had
imagined, and yet the phenomenon was very commonplace. This was what
had caused it. The faithful child had read his trouble, and as she
had already allowed him to find his way to her heart, it made that
little heart sad. In her mother's sadness Laura had sometimes proved a
comforter, and the thought came into her head that she might comfort
her friend. So when he had stopped by the vessel's side the little
child had risen noiselessly, and kneeling by his side had clasped her
small hands about his knees. Then came the partial darkness, which
with her friend's seeming indifference frightened her so much that she
loosened her hold and looked up pleadingly. A sailor who was walking
about with a lantern looking after the rigging had been watching this
little episode. In his curiosity he caused its light to shine full
upon the child's face, so that when L'Estrange turned round he saw it
irradiated, while, as the sailor stood behind him, the source of the
sudden radiance was hidden.

The illumination did not last longer than a few minutes. The man
turned away to his business, his heart softer for this glimpse of
innocent beauty; Laura and her protector were left in the darkness. But
until the day of his death L'Estrange believed that the light which
irradiated the child came down from heaven.

He was recalled to his belief in Laura's mortality by a little wailing
cry. She put out her hands to feel for her friend, as the darkness and
silence alarmed her. Then he stooped down reverently and lifted her up
in his arms. The sorrowing angel was his own little Laura, fair and
pure in her habitation of flesh and blood, for, clasping her small arms
about his neck, she burst into a passion of tears. The darkness, the
sense of loneliness, the over-excitement had wrought upon the child's
nerves, and L'Estrange forgot all his wild thoughts in the effort to
comfort her. Instead of seeking evil as a good, he became tender as the
tenderest of fathers while he strove to make her forget her fears.

He succeeded at last. She lay on his knees, quiet, only for a sob
or two at intervals, her golden head against his breast, one hand
round his neck, the other lost in his large grasp--she was afraid of
losing her friend again--and he soothed her by murmuring low, crooning
melodies that he thought he had forgotten long ago. Then when the
morning came and they were near their destination, he took her to the
stewardess for all needful combing and dressing. But from that time
L'Estrange treated the mortal child with a strange reverence.

Later in that day, when they were wandering through the quaint streets
and corners of old Rouen, and the child had almost forgotten her
sorrows in wonder and delight, he brought his trouble to his young
oracle. "Have you ever been naughty, Laura?" he asked, looking down
upon her with a smile that was almost one of incredulity.

The child smiled: "Oh yes, mon père--a number of times."

"And what did you do, ma fillette?--when you were naughty, I mean."

"I told mamma about it," said the child simply, "and she always said
something to make me good again."

"But, Laura, when people are grown up and have no mamma to tell, what
must they do then?"

For a moment the child looked troubled and thoughtful; then, as a light
seemed to dawn upon her, she smiled. "I should think they might tell
God," she said.

The wayworn man bowed his head, and that evening in the solitude he
told God. For the child was making him believe in the actual goodness
(for only the Good could have made anything so good and pure) and in
the possibility of goodness for himself, as he was still able to love
and reverence it.

Slowly the light dawned upon his benighted soul, and only after many
struggles with the darkness that was in him: this telling God was the
beginning.




CHAPTER III.

_A TALE ABOUT THE STARS._

    Could we but deem the stars had hearts, and loved,
    They would seem happier, holier, to us even than now;
    And ah! why not?--they are so beautiful.


The strange travellers continued their wanderings. News reached them at
Paris about the object of their journey, but news so indefinite that
L'Estrange thought it well to proceed with caution. In any of the
places through which they passed it was possible Maurice Grey might
be found. He did not seem to be in Moscow, although for the time all
communications were to be addressed to an agent there.

He told as much as was possible of his plans and ideas to the child,
and her impatience was stayed while they wandered through the English
quarter of Paris and appeared in the galleries and public places--her
friend, who knew the city well, making every inquiry about the
stranger's residence there.

And in the mean time L'Estrange enjoyed his peculiar position and the
kind of mystery that the beautiful, fair-haired child excited among the
few of his friends whom he could not avoid meeting. Mystery had always
been one of his chief tools. He delighted in wrapping himself up in
this misty obscurity. It challenged curiosity and excited interest.
He was given to appearing and disappearing without rendering to any
one an account of his motives, and the rumors current about him were
many. Even his nationality was a matter of doubt to some of his nearest
associates. The general idea was that he travelled here and there as a
secret emissary from one of the societies which work under ground in
Europe, or else that he was an agent from some one of its governments.
L'Estrange enjoyed this curiosity. It suited his purposes, and he
never, or very seldom, lifted the veil. To say the truth, the aims of
his journey were as varied and complex as himself. This was not the
first that had been undertaken with a good object, though never before,
perhaps, had self been so entirely set aside.

Maurice Grey was his enemy. He had taken his treasure. He had possessed
himself--for the fact was slowly dawning on his mind through the
child's innocent prattle--not only of the person, but of the heart
and affections, of the one woman in all the world for whom he had
ever cherished a perfect sympathy. For although L'Estrange had felt
many times a certain power in womanhood, although his senses had been
enchained and his self-love flattered, yet it was true that this time
only had his whole being been surrendered, this once only had love
become one with his life--entered into him as a thing from which
nothing but death could free him.

Sometimes, as with _his_ child beside him he wandered through the gay
city, it came over him like a flood what it would be to come upon this
man, to look into his face, to behold in it the workings of that soul
which for an apparent weakness could have cast off Margaret; and then
to do what? To take his revenge by proclaiming in words that could
not be denied the purity of his forsaken wife--by giving up into his
keeping the child whose young love he had despised. And if, after all,
he should be unworthy of this happiness? L'Estrange was walking through
the Champs Elysées with Laura late in the afternoon of a sultry day
when this thought dawned upon him.

He stopped, and sitting down on one of the chairs drew the child to
his knees. There was a fierce determination in his face that half
frightened her.

"Mon père!" she said gently.

He turned his face from her and hid it with his hand. L'Estrange was
vowing a great vow with himself.

"By Heaven!" he muttered, but so low that she could not hear, "I will
watch him, and if I read this weakness in his face he shall never know."

Then he looked forward down the avenue.

A tall, well-shaped and well-dressed man, English evidently, from
his carriage and general appearance, was sauntering leisurely in the
direction of the Place de la Concorde with a young French girl, who
seemed to be chattering volubly and making good use of her eyes,
hanging on his arm. There was a carelessness in his manner to her
that seemed to mark her out as not precisely of his own position in
the social scale, and this, as well as a certain resemblance, tempted
L'Estrange to follow the pair.

"Stay where you are till I come back," he whispered to the child. In
the gathering twilight he followed till he was close on the heels of
the young Englishman.

His companion was at that moment looking up coaxingly into his face.

"But how close you Englishmen are!" she was saying in a wheedling
tone. "I am dying of curiosity, mon ami. Tell me, then, about this
immaculate, this runaway husband, this milord Anglais, who finds
nothing better to do than pine away, perhaps die, for the wife he
has left behind. Mon Dieu! what a nation! You are great, vous autres,
in love as in war; but why does he hide? One might find a method of
consoling him; pas vrai?"

L'Estrange, who had crept under the shadow of the trees, and was now
walking parallel with the pair, could see by the light of one of the
scattered lamps that the young man's brow darkened.

"He doesn't want such consolation as yours, Laurette. But why do you
persist in questioning me? I have told you a dozen times that Maurice
Grey will never be game for us--for _us_," he continued with a strange
emphasis. "If I had taken _his_ advice--"

She smiled--a smile that looked rather dangerous: "Your associates
would not have been the same. Continue then, mon ami. Are we not
friends?"

"Of course, of course," he said hastily. "Ma chère, what a little goose
you are, taking up a fellow in this serious kind of style! You see,
it's all your own fault--you put me out of temper by talking about that
prig. I believe he has buried himself in the wilds. I saw him last in
St. Petersburg; then he said he was going to the mountains. But, good
gracious! how should this interest you? I shall be jealous presently,
Laurette, and think you in love with my saintly cousin."

Laurette laughed--a clear, ringing laugh, but to the watchful listener
it sounded hollow.

"There is sadness under that mirth," he said to himself; "she has tried
her wiles on the Englishman, and tried them in vain; so much the better
for him."

After a few more light words, Laurette and her companion turned into
a brilliantly-lit and decorated _café_. L'Estrange walked slowly back
to the seat where he had left Laura. His face was very pale and his
fine mouth was quivering. A fear had been partially laid to rest, but
it might be that even in the fear a hope, the shadow of self-love, had
rested.

As he drew near to the seat where Laura had been left his steps
quickened, for the murmur of her sweet voice reached his ears. Some one
was speaking to her, and his unquiet conscience filled him with fear.
Perhaps they were trying to steal away his treasure.

His fears were realized. A man was leaning over the child's chair and
speaking to her earnestly. Laura looked troubled and irresolute, but
all her hesitation fled when she saw her friend. She rose suddenly,
eluding with the agility of a child the grasping hand that sought to
detain her, and took refuge in his arms.

The darkness and his knowledge of Paris favored L'Estrange. He
caught her up and disappeared among the shadows with the rapidity
of lightning, leaving the man, who was Golding's agent and had been
triumphing in his discovery, altogether baffled. He had certainly
shown very little judgment, for he had not even mentioned that he had
come from her mother. The first thing he had done was to bewilder the
child by cross-examination, to test the truth of his discovery. Then
he had told her, in the directest way possible, that the man with whom
she was travelling was a bad man, and that it was her duty to leave
him at once. This, Laura, who had given her faith to her companion,
entirely disbelieved. She rather feared the stranger who had come in
the darkness to steal her away from her friend.

But all these contradictions puzzled her brain; she felt alarmed, and
in her bewilderment the sight of her friend was reassuring. It was rest
for the weary child to be gathered up into his strong arms, and his
sudden flight through the cool night-air was rather satisfactory than
the contrary. The dry manner of this man of business was so different
from the tender reverence, the deep emotion, of the man she called
her father!--what wonder then that the little girl, woman-like in her
instincts, trusted the one and was glad to flee from the other?

With long strides L'Estrange passed on through the darkness, for,
though the child was in his arms, he did not grow weary. His love
prevented him from feeling her a burden.

"I shall only give thee up to one, my treasure," he whispered; and
Laura was quite content.

If she was becoming unspeakably dear to her friend, he was also
becoming dear to her. In his tenderness and devotion he seemed to clasp
her round like a providence. The little one began to think that he must
be her father, whatever he might say to the contrary.

And while she was thinking they went on together more slowly, as the
darkness deepened and the danger of pursuit became less, into the very
heart of Paris, among its network of streets and lanes. L'Estrange knew
every inch of the way as well by night as by day. This was not his
first midnight flight.

They stopped at last before a small house in a little side street.
L'Estrange rang the bell, and there came a respectable middle-aged
woman to the door. She smiled her recognition, then put out her hand
and drew them in.

"C'est toi, donc, mon ami? et, mon Dieu! un bébé! Comment! Mais entre
toujours."

She took the candle from the concierge, and preceded them up stairs
to a little room furnished partly as a bedroom and partly as a
sitting-room. Then, when they had seated themselves and she had
removed Laura's hat and jacket, she began bustling about, helpful as a
Frenchwoman generally is, to prepare everything for their further stay.
L'Estrange stopped her:

"A thousand thanks, ma bonne Marie: we go on to-night."

She shrugged her shoulders, a significant gesture. Marie was a very old
friend, and L'Estrange had been her benefactor. She knew his weakness.
"As you will, mon ami," she answered, "but this bébé wants rest," she
continued in English, approaching the child and stroking her fair hair
caressingly.

The bébé had been sitting in a large arm-chair, looking curiously
about her. She was perfectly happy and comfortable, for her friend was
with her, and Marie's benevolent face and pleasant cheerful voice had
inspired her with confidence.

"I'm not at all tired, thank you," she said; "mon père carried me a
long way."

The woman turned round abruptly: "This is not yours, Adolphe?"

"Pour le moment," he answered; and she did not dare to question him
further, for this man, when he liked, could be repellant even to his
friends. But the shadow passed. He chatted gayly with Marie upon a
variety of subjects, sent a messenger to their hotel to settle their
account and bring their portmanteau, and partook with Laura of coffee
of Marie's making, and of such few substantials as she could get
together in a hurry.

The Frenchwoman was commissioned, sorely to Laura's perplexity, to take
her to the station from which they were to start for Vienna according
to L'Estrange's plans. But she had full confidence in her friend, and
made no demur. He went in a separate conveyance, meeting them in the
waiting-room. Before he joined them he looked round searchingly. The
train was on the point of starting, and the first-class passengers,
penned up in expectation of the signal to take their places, were not
many. L'Estrange seemed to breathe more freely as at last he sat down
by Laura, and there was a light of triumph and hope in his face, which
the keen-eyed Frenchwoman remarked. She kept her own counsels, but
her eyes were moist as she bade them heartily farewell. Laura and her
companion sped onward for another weary journey. Travelling was life
to him, it had become his second nature, and the child was so tenderly
cared for, so constantly amused, that she scarcely knew how long the
time was.

A night and a day and another night, with only a few hours'
interval--for she cared no more for rest than her companion--and at
last Vienna was reached. There L'Estrange determined to rest for a few
days, because he feared that in spite of all his efforts the child's
health might suffer from the constant movement; besides, he had given
orders that letters should be addressed to a hotel in that city. Some
of these might possibly contain information which would greatly affect
their further movements.

L'Estrange was beginning to be cautious, for he saw he was
watched--that an effort was being made to follow him. This puzzled him
considerably. He could not imagine how the search had arisen. He had
thought that his letter would have explained everything to Margaret,
and that with the hope before her of the child being instrumental in
bringing back the father she would have acquiesced in his certainly
rather wild proceedings. She knew him well enough to be aware that,
heavy as his sins had been, from this sin he was free. He had never
hurt a weak thing. She had known and seen how in the past his
tenderness had carried him even too far sometimes, and she could not
believe him so utterly changed. He had imagined that when she knew
of his sudden repentance she would have been ready even to trust her
treasure in his hands, in full faith that he meant well by her and by
her child. And so far L'Estrange was right. If Margaret had received
that strange letter, penned, as it were, with his heart's life blood,
she would have been woman enough to have read its reality--she would
have waited patiently, trustfully for the issue. The misfortune was
that she did _not_ receive it.

He had written to her again from Paris, but this time he had been
still more bewildered about the address. Laura could not assist. Like
her friend, she could have found her way to her mother's cottage even
in the night, but she had never thought much about the name of the
place where she lived, and its spelling was quite beyond her. Fate was
inexorable. His second letter went astray like the first, and Laura,
who was hoping for an answer to her big letters, and L'Estrange, who
was looking passionately for one line to tell him that he was forgiven
and understood, were both destined to disappointment. There was a
letter, however, an English letter, which partially explained the
mystery of the attempt to recapture Laura on the Champs Elysées.

Mr. Robinson, that most respectable of solicitors, had been highly
satisfied with the contents of the mysterious little packet which
his foreign client had put into his hands at the Great Northern
Station. It confirmed him in his opinion that the Frenchman was
likely to be valuable. He determined at once to make himself useful.
And no one understood better how to make himself useful without
needlessly disturbing his conscience or compromising his character
for rectitude. He had scented a mystery in the fair-haired English
child, and Margaret's story, related to him on the day following his
meeting with L'Estrange, made him imagine that he saw through it.
Hence his lukewarmness in the pursuit entrusted to him. But the young
Arthur's vigorous championship alarmed him for his client. He saw that
everything would be done for the recovery of the child, whom it was
his firm conviction the Frenchman had stolen, from some motive utterly
unguessed at by himself.

After Arthur had left him the lawyer cogitated for a while. It would
not do for him, in his capacity of family lawyer to Mrs. Grey, and more
especially still in his character for even ultra-scrupulousness, to
appear to connive at such a deed as this of his client's, but he might,
by warning him of the search which was being set on foot, buy his
gratitude, and, what was better still, bind him to himself.

After much planning he resolved to give the little episode of Arthur's
visit and the search that was being inaugurated for the lost child as
a piece of gossip which might be interesting to his client on account
of his supposed connection with Laura's father. The letter was a grand
piece of lawyer's art, and Mr. Robinson chuckled over it with delight.

L'Estrange saw through the artifice, and as he read the letter his dark
face looked grim. Opposition was like food to his determined soul. He
set his teeth together, vowing inwardly that he would carry out his
project in spite of them all.

They were detained at Vienna. It was as he had feared: the constant
movement, the over-excitement, the strange, new life, had been too
much for Laura. She had a slight feverish attack, but her friend, who
knew a little of everything, had studied medicine in his early years,
not with a view of entering the profession, for as a profession he
despised it, but simply to increase and intensify his power over his
fellows. He knew how to treat the child, and was not even alarmed at
her sudden weakness. Rest and quietness were the best remedies, and
these he gave her, with some simple medicine whose efficacy he had
often tested. The child was inclined to be sorely fretted at the delay.
On the sixth day of their stay in Vienna (she was lying on a sofa in a
splendidly-furnished room that looked out upon the broad, grand Danube
flowing majestically through the city, and her friend for the first
time had left her a few minutes alone) this impatience grew almost too
great to be borne. She buried her head in the sofa-pillows, and the
wailing plaint for mamma came now and then, with heavy sobs, from her
child's heart. This continued for some little time. When she looked up
again, trying with the vain endeavor of a troubled child to stay her
weeping and think no more of her sorrow, L'Estrange was standing at the
head of the sofa looking down on her. His arms were folded, he stood
perfectly still, and there was on his face a look of such fixed and
hopeless sadness that, child as she was, she recognized it suddenly.
Her own tears ceased to flow, and for a moment she looked back into his
face as if, with the angelic intuition of her age (I wonder if angels
do whisper these secrets to the little ones?), she would find out and
understand what was the great woe that oppressed him. Then, as if she
had come to a partial understanding, she raised herself on the sofa and
tried with all her small strength to draw down his dark, weary-looking
face to the level of hers. He yielded to the sweet compulsion; kneeling
beside her, he suffered her to lay his head on the sofa-pillow and draw
his cheek to hers.

It was a very simple mode of consolation. She only whispered again and
again the name he had taught her to call him, and pressed her childish
lips to his forehead, and stroked back his hair with her small, hot
fingers; but it was very effectual. The dark look left her friend's
face. It was as though "a spirit from the face of the Lord" had visited
him.

He lifted the little one into his arms and held her there for a few
minutes, then, with a softness of tone and manner which none but the
pure child could awake in him, he told her a part, at least, of his
trouble. It was in the form of a parable. "Laura," he murmured--the
darkness was gathering, and two or three stars had begun to shine out
in the sky--"look up: what do you see?"

"The sky, mon père; and now, ah, see! the stars are beginning to
shine--one, two, three. I can see them in the water too."

"Do you know what it is that makes them so bright, fillette?"

The child shook her head.

"No, ma mie, nor do I very well, except that it is a transparent,
beautiful something we in this world call light: what this something is
I know not; I can only tell that the light is very good. Now, shall I
tell you a story that came into my head a little minute ago, about the
stars out there and the light?"

"Yes, yes!" Laura clasped her hands with delight.

In the joy of one of her friend's own stories even the trouble about
her mother was for the time forgotten.

He stopped as if to think. How often in the long after-time, when
L'Estrange was to the child only the memory of a strange dream, when
the knowledge that womanhood brought threw its light on this part
of her life, did Laura remember his look that evening. Even then,
in her childhood's ignorance, it touched and charmed her, till all
unconsciously she clung to him more closely and trusted him more
fully. He was looking up. The fitful twilight was playing on his
broad, massive brow, and on that brow was rest. But in the deep-set,
passionate eyes, in the quivering lips, the struggle could still be
read. A longing seemed to look out from his face--a longing that held
and enchained him till it could be satisfied.

They sat by the window, L'Estrange in a deep arm-chair, the child in
her favorite position on his knee. And after a pause, during which
they were both looking up, watching how one star after another lit its
small lamp in the sky, he began in a dreamy tone, rather as if he were
speaking to himself than to any listener: "They are all alive; yes,
must it not be so? for every body has a soul. Those bright ones that
walk in light amid the ceaseless music of the spheres are instinct with
the mystery that we of this world call Life. And why should this not
be? for life consists in the power of movement and volition. Surely
they move. Science proves that they revolve evermore in their grand
orbits, and surely they _will_ to shine, for it is only when we need
their light that the light appears. Yes, it is true--these bright
things live. They suffer pain, they know delight as well as we."

Then, as the clasping arms of the little one recalled him to the
remembrance of her presence, he smiled: "I promised a story, and ma
fillette will scarcely understand such philosophy yet. It was a prelude
to the tale. Listen, then, ma mie. Those bright things up there are
alive. Each one has its spirit, a being more beautiful than we of earth
can conceive. I must describe them, must I? Hélas, bébé! I fear it
is beyond me. I must tell, then, of things that have not for me the
beauty they once had--the golden dawn, and the silver twilight, and
the freshness of early youth, and the mildness of sunset skies. Put
all these together and thou hast a part only of the fairness of these
beings, who were placed by God thousands of ages since in the bright
stars up there. The spirits were given a work to do. They were to shine
when the sun, who was made to be king over them all, had gone away to
rest behind the sky. The stars were glad when they were told to shine,
for they were all good, and this shining, which is for the good of our
dark world down here, made them happy. Little children who look, as ma
fillette is doing now, at those stars up there, feel glad when they see
the light, but they do not know that the stars are glad too--that when
they shine out in the night they are singing aloud for joy."

Laura looked delighted, and put out her hand to stop her friend for a
moment: "They must be singing now. Oh listen! Perhaps we shall hear
them."

But he shook his head and smiled: "No, petite: long ago, when there
were very few people, this music was heard. Now there are too many
noises; but if any one could hear it would be such as thee."

Then he stopped again, and there came a sad look into his eyes. "There
are more stars up there than we can see," he went on, "for some are not
allowed to shine. They lie in the night like dead things, but still
they are alive, for sadness is in their hearts, and this sadness is
greatest now when all the others are shining and singing out for joy."

Laura's eyes looked sorrowful. "Why do they sing so loud?" she asked;
"they might be sorry for the poor little dead stars."

"Some of them are so far away that it would take them thousands of
years even to know that the light of the poor dead stars had gone out,
and so they cannot tell that their singing makes the dead stars sad;
but those who are near are sad, and sometimes even try to help. My
story is about one of the dead stars. He was meant to be a beautiful
star, for his spirit was great and strong, with mighty wings and eyes
piercing like those of an eagle. Every day he knelt before God's white
throne, which is quite in the middle of those stars, and every night
he shone out into the darkness with a fair and glorious shining, and
sang more loudly and sweetly than any. But there came a time when
the star-spirit grew tired of this happy life: his light shone less
brightly than it had done, his voice was sometimes missed from the
night-chorus. A change had come over him, and this was what had caused
it. There had come to him at a time when he was resting idly on his
wings in that dark azure above--it was too early for his light to be
shining, and he had left the crystal throne--a being until then unknown
to him. It was dark and mournful, with black plumes covering it from
head to foot, and nothing of light about it but a last remnant that
shone from its eyes. This was the spirit of darkness, whose dominions
had been invaded and conquered by light. The spirit of the night let
her black plumes fall, and the star saw she was beautiful--with a
beauty that did not belong to the light, it is true, but that still
possessed a wild charm of its own. It was fascinating to him, perhaps,
because unlike anything he had ever seen before."

L'Estrange was getting past Laura, but he had almost forgotten the
child, and she listened, not understanding much, but entranced as she
might have been by some bewitching melody. Her friend paused for a
moment; when he continued his voice was low, and its tones were more
sad than they had been:

"The star-spirit and the spirit of the night met many times, and at
each time of their meeting the light of the star waned fainter. At
last, when the fascination with which she surrounded him had reached
its full force, he forgot, or omitted purposely, to light his lamp and
shine with his companion-spheres in the midnight heavens. Terrible
things happened that night, for our star, which was very bright and
large, had been well known upon the earth.

"Sailors had given it a name of their own, and often, when the sea was
all round them and they could not tell where they were, looking up they
had seen this star, and its light had guided them. On this night the
sea was running high, and as usual the sailors had looked up for their
star, that they might know no rocks were near. Think of their despair
when they found it not! Ah! there was one great ship full of women and
little children. The sailors had lost their way. They looked up for
the star which had guided them so often: hélas! its bright shining was
swallowed up by the darkness. They took a wrong path in the waters,
the big ship struck upon a rock, the women and little children were
drowned. The star-spirit did not know this. He felt no sadness that
night, for the spirit of darkness was with him; yet the next night,
when he would have shone out in his place, he found that the power of
shining had gone from him--that his star was a dead star in the sky.
Ah, mon Dieu! to tell of his sadness! He would have no more to say to
the night-spirit who had tempted him; he shut himself up in his dark
star; he waited, waited, night after night, thinking that the power
and gladness of shining might come back. It did not come; even, it
seemed, his star grew blacker as the ages passed, as if the dark spirit
were wrapping it round in her heavy plumes. So sad a change! No little
children looking up to him, no weary traveller blessing him for his
help, no pleasant music sounding from him in the evening; nothing but
darkness, sorrow, misery. The stars went singing about him, and he lay
there still, all his gladness gone out of him--a dead star in heaven.
At last there came a night when the singing was louder and more joyous,
and the spirit of the dead star, who had been hiding his head for shame
at his darkness, looked out to see what it meant. A baby-star had been
born into the sky, and all its sisters and brothers were rejoicing over
its birth. The spirit of the dead star saw that its light was very
near where his had been. It was feeble, but clear as dawn. The sight
of the tiny light recalled to him the time when he too had shone out,
a new joy and gladness, into the sky, and folding his wings he wept,
as only spirits can weep, for a time that we on earth should call
years. Perhaps his weeping made him better. It is impossible to say;
but suddenly in the midst of it he heard a sound. It was clear, like
the dripping of water from a fountain; it was silvery, like the ringing
of bells in the distance. The spirit lifted his head from his folded
wings, and there--even in his habitation, in the dead star whose light
he had been--stood a beautiful child-spirit, her head drooping, her
snowy wings folded over her breast, a small lamp in her hand. When the
spirit of the dead star looked at the child she trembled, as if with
fear at her own boldness; so the spirit could not be angry, although
he knew this was the baby-light that had caused his weeping through
those long dark years. Indeed, as he looked up he began to feel love
stirring in his heart; the child-spirit was so beautiful and good, and
her voice was like music. For she spoke when she saw she needed not to
fear. 'I have come to stay with thee,' she whispered, 'for thy darkness
and silence made my heart ache, and I have been praying to come for
all these years. At last I have been allowed. Must I go away into the
darkness?'

"He was moved with the child-spirit's humility and love. He rose, and
towering above her in his grandeur gathered her up into his breast.
'Thou shalt stay with me for ever,' he answered. It was the night-time.
Even as the spirit spoke he became conscious of a certain gladness
unknown to him for the ages of darkness that had passed, and the
everlasting song and music grew suddenly louder and more joyous. The
child had broken the spell of night's spirit, she had brought him of
her light, and he was born again, feebly but truly, into the sky."

L'Estrange stopped and looked down with a half smile, then his brow
contracted. Laura had been listening breathlessly. She could not
understand his tale, but its strangeness charmed her. "Is that all?"
she said with a long-drawn sigh.

"Not quite all," he answered; then, as if to himself, "the end has
yet to come. They were very happy together," he continued after a few
moments' silence, "the spirit of the star that had been dead, but was
gradually being restored to life and gladness, and the child whose
presence had wrought the wonder. Once more the spirit of the star bowed
down by day before the great white throne, and the child went with
him; her angelic purity made her welcome there. But one day when they
returned there was sadness at the heart of the spirit of the star, for
he had learned that the child who had restored him was not to be left
with him for ever; she had another work to do. He looked at her. _She_
could not be sad, for, unlike the other spirit, she had never sinned,
and perhaps this made his sadness the greater. Then it had been sweet
to shine and sing with his companion-spheres, and he hardly knew how
he would be able to shine and sing alone. But he would not keep her
back. Another one, sad, it might be, in his darkness, wanted her,
and with the life and gladness his child-messenger had brought him
love. So"--L'Estrange's voice sank--"he let her go, his beautiful, his
God-given--he let her go."

He said no more. For a few moments there was deep silence between them.
Something of his sadness and a knowledge of its cause had penetrated
the child's soul through his parable. Her eyes filled with tears. She
looked up at the starry multitude, shining out now in their full glory
above her, with a new love. At last she spoke, laying her head against
his breast: "But, mon père, the spirit of the star shone out still?"

He answered sadly: "Mon enfant, I know no more."




CHAPTER IV.

_MOSCOW._

              Mind's command o'er mind,
    Spirit o'er spirit's, is the close effect
    And natural action of an inward gift
    Given of God.


Laura was much better the next day; indeed, the improvement was so
great that her protector considered himself justified in pressing on
for another stage of their journey. She was not so joyful as might
have been expected. Perhaps his parable had calmed the little girl,
making her impatience less by the hint of possible separation. Laura
cared very much for her friend. She had become so united to him in
thought and affection that she could scarcely imagine a future without
him. We must remember that with little ones, especially when their
natures are impressionable like Laura's, it does not take long for
these attachments to be formed. With them habit passes quickly into
a necessity. It was thus with Laura. She had become so accustomed to
her friend's protecting tenderness that she could not bear to think of
being separated from him. But Laura was not untrue to her mother. She
thought as much as ever of her return to the little cottage by the sea.
Only in thus far her dreams and ideas were changed. She could not and
would not think of that return, of those pleasant days when mamma would
be happy and papa at home, without including in them all this kind
guide who was planning their happiness.

Her friend's look at the end of his tale had been so sad that she dared
not ask for an explanation, and indeed her own little heart had been
almost too full of sympathy with the bereaved star-spirit for her to
think of much else at the moment. But to this one thing in her after
reflections Laura made up her mind: her friend should go back with her
to her mother, he should not look so sad, they would make him as happy
as they would be. In fact, the child mapped out the future, as many of
her elders will do, in those long days of travelling that succeeded
their stay in Vienna.

They were very long and very wearisome, unbroken by incident of any
kind; the very passengers became few, and the towns scattered as
they advanced. It was not difficult to get a carriage to themselves,
but certainly some comforts were necessary to make the long journeys
tolerable. Laura, however, had no relapse. At every possible
resting-place her companion watched narrowly to see if fatigue were
taking any effect upon her. He was reassured. The child slept, ate and
made herself happy.

L'Estrange was not so fortunate. Anxiety, suspense, and a certain vague
uneasiness of conscience concerning even this late delight--which
seemed to have aroused the latent good that was in him--kept him
wakeful, and by the time Moscow was nearly reached the faithful child
noticed that he looked pale and ill. She told him so with a sweet
womanly concern that sat strangely on her child's face. But he only
smiled, and said rest would set him right. Evening had fallen on the
earth when at last Moscow the long-desired dawned on the sight of the
wanderers. It was from the midst of a desolate country, bleak and
half cultivated, that it rose suddenly, almost, as it were, by magic,
its glittering cupolas and myriad towers visible long before the city
itself came in sight.

L'Estrange, who knew all about this strange appearance (he had
travelled through Russia before), pointed it out to the child. Very
little could have surprised Laura much at this time; she had been
living ever since she had left quiet Middlethorpe in an atmosphere
of wonders; but amongst them all this arrival had been looked to as
something pre-eminent. For Moscow was the city where this wonderful
father was hiding. Laura was fully convinced that he would be the first
person they should meet in the streets, and it did not seem unnatural
that Moscow itself should be strange as any of the wonders in the
Arabian tales. Perhaps, Laura reasoned with herself, it was because it
was so beautiful and wonderful that her father had remained there. She
had heard of people who had gone to heaven, not wishing to come back,
and vaguely she blent the two ideas together till the feeling in her
mind was something like this: Moscow was like heaven, so beautiful and
delightful that those who went there never wanted to go home again.

The first sight of the ancient city was enough to justify her dreams.
It was to the child like a glimpse of Fairyland. Once at the window,
watching the gradual approach, out of the pale evening light, of
those dim, ghostly giants that lifted their stately heads from the
surrounding dimness, nothing would persuade her to leave it.

They drew nearer and the darkness gathered, so that Laura, though
straining her eyes into it, could see nothing. When they arrived
finally, and drove into the enchanted city, its wonders were hidden
by the dim, gray night of the North. From the magic and dazzle that
through the twilight had shone many-colored on the background of sky,
they passed to a hotel exceedingly like the others at which they had
put up.

It was a death to the child's first illusion. Her companion watched
her curiously. He noted how the dazzle of expectation and wonder died
out of her eyes, and how the real, growing weariness began to assert
itself after the excitement which had veiled it for the time. They were
together in the handsome, stately saloon--alone, for travellers at this
season were few; the short, bright summer of the North was nearly over,
the evenings were becoming gray, the nights black and dreary. There was
a large square black monument in the room they occupied that emitted a
close heat, and the process of shutting out carefully all external air
had begun.

L'Estrange seated himself on one of the massive couches and drew the
child to his side. "What is it, petite?" he asked as he noted her
disappointment.

"Where is papa?" she questioned sadly.

"We shall look for him to-morrow."

He threw off his hat as he spoke, and the child saw that his face was
very weary-looking and sad. Fatigue, anxiety and want of sleep were
gradually taking their effect on his strong frame, while the close air
of the room in his weak condition almost overpowered him.

"Mon père," she said, clinging to him, "how pale you look!"

He tried to rouse himself: "I am tired, fillette."

But suddenly the pallor spread till his very lips were blanched. He
sank back on the couch with a faint moan, yet even then the soul of
the man was strong enough to conquer partially the physical weakness.
He thought of her through the pain that was striving to master him; he
saw her face of despair, though a film seemed to be gathering over his
sight, and with a strenuous effort he half raised himself, his pale
lips parted in a reassuring smile: "I shall be better soon--water."

She brought it to him in a moment, all the woman in her risen to meet
the emergency, and then she placed a pillow under his head and chafed
his cold hands. By the time the waiter arrived to lay the cloth for
dinner L'Estrange was better. It was a kind of spasm that had robbed
him of his power for the moment. He had experienced something of this
kind before, and it alarmed him; understanding a little about the
science of medicine himself, he knew the danger of mysterious pains,
and he felt that it would not answer for him to be laid up until his
work was done.

When dinner was over they went out into the night together, and the
cool air revived him; but afterward, when real solitude had fallen over
everything, and the child had been committed to the care of one of the
women of the house, the fear of what might come quite mastered him.

L'Estrange was no coward, to shrink from physical pain. Whenever it was
possible he would escape suffering (though perhaps his real horror was
rather of mental than physical pain); when it was impossible he met it
like a man. But this time he felt his frame was weakening. The mental
rest he had craved so passionately would never come till his work was
over, and in the mean time another such paroxysm as the one through
which he had passed might lay him prostrate. In this case what would
become of Laura? How would he prove to his wronged Margaret that his
intentions with regard to her were good and true?

Even as he thought he felt the pain approaching with stealthy creeping,
like a thief come to rob him of his power. He rose with difficulty from
the couch on which he had been lying, and opening one of his packages
drew from it the small medicine-chest he always carried. His hand shook
as he turned the key, for he knew what he was doing, and had it not
been for his strange position would have dreaded it far more than the
physical pain, which he felt it could not cure, only put away for a
time. For L'Estrange had once been in the habit of putting into him
this enemy to steal away his soul. He had felt then that his intellect
was being weakened--that his bodily and mental powers were being
destroyed; he had fought with the weakness and had conquered it.

But as he took out the little well-known phial, with its dark liquid,
once so precious, he felt that another victory would be still more
dearly bought, and he trembled. Necessity, however, is strong and knows
no law. While he hesitated the pain gained ground.

Hastily he poured out a strong dose, drank it, and slept a heavy,
uneasy sleep, broken by dreams and distorted images of reality, while
through them all the keen finger of pain found its way, touching his
heart and chilling its warm life. But even this semblance of sleep was
better than the dismal wakefulness.

He got up better, and found that the pain whose ravages he had been
dreading had left him. He sighed as he rose. An inner consciousness
told him it was only for a time. Through that day the effects of
the potion of the night followed him. Even Laura, child as she was,
remarked the change. There was about her friend a certain languor, an
absence of vital energy. He could scarcely rouse himself, even to take
the steps needful for the accomplishment of the object that had brought
them so far.

Toward the next evening, however, the effects of his dose began to
lessen. He regained something of his physical energy, and in the
gathering twilight started, without the child, for the address of the
agent who held the information they required.

Laura had been restless and uneasy during the whole day, startled with
the slightest noise, watching curiously all who came in and went out;
for now that the time, as she believed, was very near for her meeting
with this unknown father, she began to feel vaguely afraid.

"You are going to find him," she said as her companion came booted and
cloaked into the room where she was sitting.

He looked at her earnestly: "And to give up my treasure."

She clung to him: "He won't take me away, mon père. We shall all go
home to mamma together."

Her friend smiled, but he shook his head, and Laura's heart sank and
the tears filled her eyes. She was too young for all this conflict of
feeling. L'Estrange felt it with a sudden sense of compunction. He
tried to comfort her as he would have comforted any ordinary child
under the circumstances: "No doubt it shall be all as my little girl
wishes."

But Laura looked up into his face with those mournful, searching eyes,
and then turned away from him. In her simplicity she had read the
hollowness of his efforts at consolation, and she was hurt that he
should tell her anything but the truth. Her friend stooped down to her
and took both her hands in his:

"You are a little witch, Laura. What am I to say to you, then?"

"I don't want you to say what I like," she answered in a low, tearful
voice; "I want you to say what is _really_ true." And then she began to
cry: "I love you, and I love mamma--oh, so much!--and I think I shall
love my papa when I see him. _Why_ can't we all be happy together?"

"Why, little wise one?" He settled his hat upon his brows and turned
away, leaving her unconsoled. "Ask the stars," he said from the door,
and Laura was left alone to think and wonder, for young as she was the
shadow that rests evermore on things human was closing her in its dark
embrace. The why, the dark mystery of human fate, had already begun in
her young soul its restless questioning.

Her friend felt this, and his heart ached for her, but the mischief was
wrought--he could do nothing. Action was the only cure for their common
sadness, therefore he would delay no longer. Hiring a droshki, he drove
through the modern Moscow, while ever before him rose that mighty
circlet of walls and battlements, enclosing, its forest of towers,
steeples and cupolas, gorgeous as an Eastern tale, fantastic as the
dream of a diseased imagination, that city within a city--the Kremlin.

He was gathering together the forces of his mind, and this helped
him in his task, for L'Estrange had ever been specially alive to the
influence of externals. Beauty of form and coloring had always been
able to sway his moods. This mighty monument, by strength formed and
endowed, seemed to brace his spirit as he looked out upon it and
thrilled to the memories it enshrined. The great impregnable, before
whom Napoleon and his legions melted, the strong abode of the Muscovite
giants--Ivan the Terrible and his court--the treasure-house of the
Czars, the representative of the history of a nation destined to great
things,--as he gazed upon it he felt the softness leave his heart. He
was trying to be great, and this monument of human greatness helped
him. He could not meet his enemy, although his words were to be, in
a certain sense, peace, with the tender voice of a child ringing its
sweet sadness into his ears, with the languor of sorrow and pain
stealing away his strength.

And gradually as he drove through the shadowy streets, by the walled
gardens and stone buildings, with the Kremlin rising ever before him
in the distance, his mind took a stronger tone. Not as the wrong-doer,
but as the representative of the wronged, he would stand before the
man he sought, arraigning his enemy for the crime to which, as he well
knew, his own conduct had lent a colorable pretext. L'Estrange could
scarcely believe that it was anything but a pretext. Margaret's fault,
if fault there had been, was so venial, her manner of life after the
separation--and L'Estrange was too much given to intrigue himself to
be able to understand how Maurice Grey could know nothing whatever of
that--had been so pure, so single in its aims, that the harshness of
her husband's judgment became great and vindictive in comparison.

L'Estrange found it by no means difficult to work himself up into
a state of suitable indignation, and as he reached the door of the
house indicated as that of the agent who held the knowledge of Maurice
Grey's hiding-place, he was once more the dark, stern man, strong and
self-contained.

His newly-formed resolutions were not yet destined to be fulfilled.
Time and distance still separated him from Maurice Grey.

He had gathered from the conversation overheard in the Champs Elysées
an approximation to the truth, though some diplomacy was necessary
before anything could be wormed out of the crafty Russian.

The golden key opened his lips at last, and L'Estrange applied it
liberally, but with a certain amount of caution, for he wished to be
sure his information was accurate.

At last, however, the man was conquered, and perhaps gold was not the
only or even the most potent agent. After many twistings and turnings
and sundry circumlocutions, which their common tongue, the French
language, so supple and delicate, could ably render, the wily Russian
told his visitor all he wanted to know. The English milord--so he
styled Maurice, probably because his pockets were well lined--had been
in Moscow, but had only remained there two days. He had put up at his
house, for he and the Englishman had met before, and their relations
one with the other were of the most friendly character; also, Mr. Grey
disliked hotels: for some reason he had seemed to desire the incognito.
Monsieur had unfolded to his friend his intention of wandering, and
under these circumstances had appeared to be in some perplexity about
his letters, which he wished sent to another address than his own. He
(M. Petrovski) had come to the help of monsieur (his readiness to help
travellers, more especially, perhaps, the English, had always been very
great), proposing that all communication with England should be carried
on through himself.

He did not say that as he was a kind of property-agent this was
altogether in his line of business, and that for everything he did
he was amply paid. Probably the Russian thought it well to leave
something to the imagination. And in this he was wise. L'Estrange's
imagination was all-embracing, in his species more especially. He
understood the position at once, and added so largely to the profit
on the transaction--demonstrated so clearly how in the whole matter
he would be a gainer--that the Russian's tongue, as by a species of
intoxication, wagged more freely than ever.

His small black eyes glittering above his hawk-like nose and long, dark
beard--he was a Russian Jew--he proceeded to assure his guest that
nothing but his full assurance of the fact that only friendliness was
intended to his dear friend Monsieur Grey would have persuaded him to
open his lips on the subject.

And L'Estrange entering into his motives and approving heartily of
his reticence, he showed his sincerity by leading him to a little
side-window which commanded the ante-room, and bidding him look out
carefully without allowing himself to be seen.

L'Estrange obeyed. He looked out, and treasured up what he saw for
further use.

It was a large, bare room, containing only a table and two or three
chairs. On one of these, in full relief, for the light from a small
oil-lamp shone on his face, sat a young man. He was evidently English,
and very young, almost a boy, for his face was clean shaven and his
short fair hair curled over a broad, open brow, upon which time had as
yet written no wrinkles. But what L'Estrange chiefly remarked in those
few moments of intense study was this: the earnestness of his face, the
purpose that shone out of his eyes, the manliness of his bearing and
attitude.

He turned from the window to find out how it was that this young
Englishman had been shown to him so mysteriously, and the Russian, who
had been observing him narrowly, took him by the arm: "The young man
has come by appointment on the same errand as yourself: apparently he
is very anxious--for some time since he has pestered me with letters.
Mark my confidence. I ask _you_ how I am to treat him?"

For a moment L'Estrange was perplexed, then suddenly came back to his
mind the remembrance of the lawyer's letter. This was Margaret's
messenger. He looked out again. Perhaps the manliness of the young
face pleased him; perhaps he saw in this strange search an access to
his strength--an instrument that he might use to confirm the absolute
truthfulness of what he was about to tell the mistaken husband; perhaps
he had a certain compunction at the idea of sending on a fruitless
search this young, disinterested champion of the woman who seemed to
win all hearts. Whatever might be the cause, the effect of his second
look was this. He turned from the window with a half smile: "Tell him
what you have told me, my good friend, but keep him about here for some
days."

The Russian bowed his assent, and after a few more courteous words
preceded his visitor to the door. How had L'Estrange obtained this
power over a nature so mercenary? Not by money alone, for others could
hold out the same inducement--Arthur had been ready to pour out gold at
his feet--nor indeed altogether by his superior diplomacy, though that
no doubt had contributed to bring about the result.

That there are certain men who have an extraordinary power over their
fellows is indisputable. Strength of purpose and character may be an
element in the formation of this power, but it is not altogether alone.
Such knowledge of the workings of the human mind as L'Estrange had
gained by means of keen observation and long study of his fellows is
perhaps the strongest element of all. For L'Estrange knew how to take
men, what chord to strike in their natures, often strange and complex,
to make them answer to his hand--how to render them actually desirous
of doing his will.




CHAPTER V.

_A GLIMPSE OF MARGARET'S CHILD._

    To look upon the fair face of a child
    Feels like a resurrection of the heart.
    Children are vast in blessings; kings and queens
    According to the dynasties of love.


Arthur, then, had found his way to Moscow. After days of wandering,
after vain efforts to entrap the wily Russian into sending him by
letter the information he desired, after keen and hungry searching in
the English quarter of every city through which he had passed, he had
gained the dim metropolis of the North, but only to be forestalled,
to have a watch set upon his movements, to play into the hands of the
man for whom, in his youthful enthusiasm, he cherished the bitterest
contempt, the most undying enmity.

Perhaps under any circumstances it would have been impossible for the
impulsive, straightforward young Englishman, headlong in his pursuits,
whether good or evil, to understand the complex, two-sided nature of
such a man as L'Estrange. Knowing what he did of him, it is scarcely a
matter of surprise that he felt his strong young arm tingle at times
to fell him to the earth, and if he should never rise again, so much
the better--there would be one villain the less in the world. All he
desired was to meet him face to face.

But Margaret had laid her commands upon him. His enemy, her enemy, was
to be respected. The remembrance of her words made Arthur tremble, for
in the holy indignation of his youth he felt that if they should meet
it would be difficult to restrain himself from dealing the well-merited
blow.

He consoled himself with the reflection that words have power to slay.
And words were ready on his lips for the disturber of Margaret's peace,
the maker of her misery, which in his inexperience he believed must go
to the heart of the worst villain that ever lived.

Arthur did not confine his search to Maurice. Wherever he went strict
inquiry had been instituted for the dark foreigner and fair-haired
English child. At Paris, as has been already seen, his agent was upon
the traces of the pair. There they had been lost altogether, for
L'Estrange's ruse had succeeded, and never again had Arthur or the
agent he employed been able to recover them.

The only consolation that could be derived from the chance encounter in
the Champs Elysées was in the relation that appeared to exist between
the child and this man. He was evidently kind to her, for the agent,
who reported their conversation accurately, told of her indignation
when he so foolishly began to abuse her friend, and also of her little
cry of delight when she saw him reappear.

In the long letter which Arthur was writing to Middlethorpe that
evening he related this incident, scarcely knowing whether or no it
would be a comfort to the bereaved mother--whether she would fear
the strange influence which this man seemed to have acquired over
her child, or be thankful that at least he was treating her kindly.
In any case, of one blessed fact she might rest assured--for the
child's companion had been seen, and dark as the night was the agent
had recognized the original of Margaret's miniature--her husband was
innocent of this last, this bitterest wrong and humiliation. _He_ had
not removed his child from her care. The letter was addressed to Adèle,
but it was written for Margaret. It told of that evening's interview,
of his wanderings up to that moment and of his further hopes.

He had ascertained Maurice Grey's hiding-place--that is to say,
the address was promised--but days of travelling would probably be
necessary before he could reach it. Arthur, however, was full of
courage and hope. He looked upon the success of his enterprise as only
delayed, not put from him altogether. And his young, strong spirit
of devotion shone out in every line of the letter which was to find
the two lonely women watching and hoping--_their trust in him_. To
know this was enough to brace the young man's mind, to drain him of
self-love, to make and keep him strong and pure.

He was in the heat of composition that evening (it must be confessed,
in spite of Arthur's literary dreams, the pen was not his strong
point), laboring to express enough, and not too much, of the hope his
partial success had generated in his mind--to give his friends new
courage without buoying them up with false hope; striving to give his
devotion to Margaret the delicate expression that might mean what it
really was, and yet not offend or alarm her; trying to consider duly
the feelings of his cousin and future wife--to prevent her from being
in any way hurt by his absorption in that which concerned another; and
through it all making his travels and adventures appear in the most
interesting and favorable light.

The combination was anything but easy, and once or twice Arthur threw
down his pen in despair. To frame a letter satisfactory in every way
seemed a hopeless task. On one of these occasions, as he was casting
his eyes round the room for inspiration, he was startled by the sound
of the door being softly opened. He looked round. A little girl,
dressed for travelling, was standing on the threshold and looking at
him earnestly. When she saw his face a cloud came over hers, and she
looked very much inclined to cry.

Arthur got up and went to the door, the kindliness of his nature
aroused by the sight of the child's distress. She threw off her hood
then, and shaking back her golden curls showed him one of the loveliest
child-faces he had ever seen; but it was not its loveliness that made
him start back with a sudden exclamation; it was a memory which that
face recalled.

In a moment he gathered his ideas together--where had he seen her
before?--and then, with the rapidity of thought, that last evening in
England, Margaret, the miniature, the child's likeness, came before his
mind. Fate had been kind to him. Margaret's treasure was within his
grasp.

Unfortunately, the idea agitated him so much that he could scarcely act
with the necessary coolness.

Laura had come into his room by mistake. She had lost her way in the
great house, and was looking for her friend, whose room, though in
another wing of the building, resembled in position that which Arthur
occupied.

Already the child was alarmed by his sudden exclamation. She retreated
hastily to the door, but Arthur caught her by the arm and tried
forcibly to detain her.

Then Laura really cried, and the young man, between his earnest desire
to secure her and his distress at her tears, scarcely knew how to act.
He tried gentleness, coaxing her by all kinds of bribes to remain with
him, only for a few minutes; but the child grew the more frightened;
crying bitterly, she tried with all her small strength to loosen his
grasp on her arm. It was in vain, and Laura in her despair called aloud
for help: "Mon père! mon père!"

Arthur began to think they had all been mistaken, that her father
had actually taken her away, but he had scarcely time to come to any
conclusion, for as he was still struggling with the child, drawing her
into the room with gentle entreaty, there came a dark figure into the
gloomy, unlit passage. Arthur was too much absorbed to see him; Laura
did, and with a sudden wrench she tore herself free from the young
man's grasp. The strong right arm of her friend received her, while
before the young man could recover from his surprise (he was at the
moment stooping forward to catch the small retreating form) the left
hand thrust him back with such violence that he fell, and lay at full
length on the floor of his room. Before he could leap to his feet he
had the mortification of hearing the key turned in the lock, and of
knowing that as his room was in a remote part of the house, Laura and
her protector, whoever that protector might be, would have time during
his forced inaction to put at least some of the tortuous streets of old
Moscow between themselves and his pursuit.

Arthur's position was ignominious in the extreme, and very difficult of
explanation. Rubbing his bruised shins, he thought over it woefully.
But thinking would not mend matters. He rang the bell violently.

No one came. Probably his violence defeated its own object. A long hour
passed, in which, his letter forgotten, he paced the floor of his room,
stamping and fuming like an imprisoned lion.

At last a waiter came. He was a Russian, naturally rather timorous, to
whom even French was an unknown tongue; and Arthur, from the other side
of the locked door, had great difficulty in making him understand in
what consisted the obstruction to its opening.

To tell the truth, his stamping and fuming and stormy gestures of
impatience had alarmed the poor man considerably. He had always
possessed a strong opinion about the violence of the English character,
and it was only with many an inward tremor that, seeing the thing was
inevitable, he slowly turned the key in the lock and released the young
man from his prison.

His alarm was almost justified by Arthur's subsequent behavior. The
delay, the ignominious failure, the blow from the hand of the man he so
keenly despised, had nearly maddened the unfortunate young Englishman.
Thrusting the waiter to one side with such violence that he staggered
back against the wall of the passage, Arthur rushed down the wide
staircase, three steps at a time, and demanded an interview with the
proprietor of the hotel.

The head man waited upon him, respectful in attitude, fluent in speech,
but chuckling inwardly at the Englishman's discomfiture.

L'Estrange had given his explanation of the little scene, and it had
been by the order of the head-waiter himself that the young man had
been detained so long in his prison.

The flood of bad French in which Arthur poured out his indignation
was listened to with quiet deprecation, and answered by a multitude
of well-turned apologies; but when the young man moderated his tone,
and began to think prudence would be advisable if he wished to get
anything from the people of the house about the movements of those who
had escaped him, he could scarcely be surprised that diplomacy, bribery
and a harrowing tale of wrong proved alike unavailing. He was obliged
to give up the effort in despair. Through all the polite assurances,
the smooth phrases, the courteous attention of the head-waiter he could
read incredulity and indifference.

Arthur spent that night in haunting the railway-stations to extract
information from the officials, and in knocking up the drivers of
droshkies, trying to make them understand that he wished to find out
whom they had driven that evening. It was hopeless. They were very
civil; Arthur made it worth their while to be communicative. They were
ready with highly-colored accounts of their passengers of the evening,
but amongst them all he could find none answering to the description
of those he sought. He returned to the hotel baffled and worn-out,
longing to leave Moscow at once (the hotel and the smooth-faced
head-waiter had become so utterly distasteful to him), but detained
by an interview for the following day. M. Petrovski had promised him
some further details about the residence of his client. He professed
to expect letters which would let him know the Englishman's final
resting-place.

That letter whose commencement had caused Arthur such pleasant tremors
of anxiety was abruptly concluded. He could not make up his mind to
relate to his friends in all its ignominious details the incident of
that evening, although he longed to let Margaret know that he had
actually seen and held her child. Several times he even tried to frame
an account of this his first meeting with the little one, but always in
vain. He sent off the letter as it was, and curses not loud but deep
followed the swiftly-retreating enemy who had foiled him.

L'Estrange did not altogether deserve them. He had purposely treated
the young man gently. He might have dealt him a far severer blow, but
that glimpse of his face had taught the man of the world something
about his character and purposes, had made him respect the boy, and so
long as he did not interfere with himself he was ready to spare him.
Laura, however, and her share in the task of restoring the wanderer
to his home and wife, L'Estrange reserved to himself. He would bring
her forward at his own time, and in the mean while he would show this
young man, brave with the temerity of youth, that his guardianship, if
tenacious, was strong.

Laura had acted instinctively in the occurrence of the evening,
but when it was over, when she and her protector were once more in
the train, travelling rapidly southward, she was agitated at the
remembrance of what had passed.

"Mon père," she said, clinging to him fearfully, "why do they all try
to take me away from you?"

He looked down at her earnestly: "Because they know not how much I love
thee."

The child clasped her hands: "I hope, oh I hope, papa will know."

"Why, Laura?"

"Because then he won't wish to take me away."

"But you, ma belle enfant--you will wish to go back with your father.
Is it not so?"

"Back to mamma?" said the child. "Oh yes, mon père, but you must go
too."

He looked down upon her with a sudden pain in his eyes: "Kiss me,
fillette, put your arms round my neck. There, so--it is easier now.
Little wise one, what shall I do without thee?"

Laura did not answer, only with her gentle womanly ways she soothed her
friend, while in her small heart rose a certain determination. It was
this. Not even for her father would she leave her friend. He should
go back with them to her mother, for her mother could do him good. It
was the determination of a woman, for a woman's tenderness and depth
of feeling were becoming prematurely developed in the young girl, who
would never perhaps in all her life be a thoughtless child again. Had
she gained or lost by the exchange? It was for the future to say.

But my readers will be impatient; and truly it seems that in looking
back on this strange story, which the past has evolved out of its
mists, an undue prominence has been given to this part. It has been
altogether unconsciously done, and only because of the enchaining
nature of the subject.

There was something so touching in the confidence and affection of this
innocent child's heart, that with the instincts of truth itself found
beauty where others might have only been able to find its opposite;
there was something so beautiful in the surrender of the strong man's
soul to the guiding influence of the poor child, in whose tenderness
the heavenly side of him had read a possibility of salvation for his
whole nature; and in all the sweet mystery there was so evidently
present the working of an unseen Power, preparing this man, who had
missed his right aim in the world, for the reception of a pure ideal,
for the vision of undying truth. Time presses. We must linger no more
over the tender scenes that marked the intercourse between Laura and
her strange protector, but pass on our way, leaving them together.

On the following day, while Laura and L'Estrange were putting
vast tracts of country between themselves and the ancient city of
Moscow, Arthur Forrest, jaded and worn-out by a sleepless night, and
considerably discouraged at the total failure of this his first effort
to restore Margaret to her own, prepared himself for another interview
with Petrovski.

He wished to be calm and cool, for what, he said to himself, if he
were to be sent on a fool's errand?--what if the man who had dealt him
that mysterious blow could have been really Laura's father? He found
it difficult on such a supposition to assign a motive for his conduct,
unless indeed he could have heard of his search, and have believed he
was simply an agent sent by his wife to entice the child back to her.
On the other hand, what could have led L'Estrange, if it should be he,
to Moscow?

Arthur was very much perplexed. He determined to call the calmest,
clearest judgment to his aid in sifting the information which the
agent was ready to proffer. Alas! when did an old head sit upon young
shoulders? If ever they have been united, the combination has not
produced such a pleasing whole as Arthur Forrest, who, in spite of
the knowledge of this world on which he prided himself, was above all
things young and confiding.

Petrovski might have deceived him, might have sent him to the
antipodes, if he had seen fit, but his master in the art of
dissimulation had advised him to be truthful. Arthur, therefore,
after some days' delay, was told the simple truth--that Maurice Grey,
disgusted with his life in St. Petersburg, had made up his mind to
turn his back on society altogether. With this view he had sought the
mountains, and had established himself, one servant his only companion,
in a chalet hastily fitted up with a few necessaries in one of the
higher Swiss valleys.

The agent professed to have just received letters from this
remote point. In them Mr. Grey had directed that his money and
business-letters from England should be sent to the hotel nearest to
his temporary home, and this was the address which was given to Arthur,
which had previously been given to L'Estrange.

By the following night's mail Arthur left Moscow. As may well be
supposed, he lost no time on the way.

Of this strange flight through almost the entire breadth of Europe
he never thought afterward save in the light of a feverish dream. It
seemed like a vision. Sleeping and waking he was flying still, with
all manner of various impressions, multitudes of scenes and strange
faces, flitting before him like a kind of phantasmagoria. Glimpses of
grand cities, appearing but to vanish, vast solitudes, uncultivated and
barren wastes, mountain-country and soft pastoral scenes passed before
him in an ever-varying succession. At last the train had to be left
behind; he had gained the mountains, and with them a mode of travelling
that seemed painfully slow and wearisome to his brain, in a whirl with
swift movement and tumultuous thought.

Arthur was haunted through those long days, and, strange to say, it
was not Margaret's face that haunted him, nor even that of his gentle
cousin who was pining in distant England for his return. The lovely
child's face followed him day after day and night after night. It
reminded him of failure, brought back in vivid colors the memory
of what he looked upon as a species of ignominy, and yet, do what
he would, he could not banish it. The bright golden hair, the dark
mournful eyes, the fair contour, the childish grace returned again and
again.

At times it was like a nightmare. He would see the child, even touch
her, and as he touched her she would vanish. Once or twice during those
long nights of travelling Arthur seriously interfered with the comfort
of his fellow-voyagers by his strange proceedings. Reaching forward at
one time, he would seize upon the hand or knee of the person who sat
in front of him, laying himself open, if the individual were of the
feminine order, to serious misconception--if of the masculine, to a
rude rebuff and rough awakening; at another he would passionately grasp
the window-blind, giving rise to an irresistible titter among those of
his companions who did not find sleeping in a train such easy work as
he did. But whenever Laura's face came before his mind, in sleeping or
waking moments, Arthur looked at it with a strange reverence. To him it
was scarcely a child's face. It seemed almost as if behind the fairness
and beauty there was a meaning.

Arthur could not analyze character. He did not sufficiently understand
human nature's diversity to be able to explain to himself why this
child was so different from other children, but he felt it; and
stronger almost than his longing to restore Maurice Grey to faith in
his wife's perfections became his desire to rescue that child from him
who had taken her, he firmly believed, with some bad motive, and to
lead her back to her mother.

The strange thing was that she loved this man (for Petrovski had so
impressed Arthur with a belief in his veracity that once more he had
settled with himself the identity of Laura's companion). Could it be,
then, that there was some good even in him? But Arthur would not follow
out this line of reasoning. He was more than ever confirmed in his
hatred of L'Estrange.

"There is something in the Bible," he said to himself, "about Satan
putting on the form of an angel of light. This man has only followed
the example of his forerunner in all evil. He is deceiving the innocent
darling, and she thinks him good."

He was driving in an open sledge--for the season was late and snow had
begun to fall on the mountains--when these thoughts crowded in upon his
brain.

It was tolerably cold in these high latitudes, but the young man was
wrapped up in a fur-lined travelling cloak, the thick leather apron
of the sledge covered his knees, and a cigar emitting fragrant blue
clouds, whose ascent into the pure air he watched curiously, was
between his lips.

Arthur Forrest had not been bred in Belgravia altogether in vain. He
understood very thoroughly how to make himself comfortable.

In this thing he considered himself fortunate. The crowd of Britons
that yearly fill the Swiss solitudes with their all-engrossing presence
had fled at the first breath of winter, "like doves to their windows."

Two or three hardy Swiss returning to their mountains, an adventurous
German desirous of studying the aspect of Switzerland in winter, a
Pole who wished to put the mountains, soon to be an almost impassable
barrier, between himself and his enemies, the vigilant and all-powerful
Russian police,--these, with a conductor and driver, formed the whole
of the small cavalcade that crossed the St. Gothard on this bleak
autumnal day.

In spite of the glorious scenes through which they had been passing,
the beauty of Italy rising into the grand desolation of the country
that belongs to the snow-kingdom, and that again descending into the
awful grandeur of rugged precipices, hissing torrents and shaggy
pines, the little party was gloomy. The Pole shivered, and folding his
fur-cloak around him cursed the ancestral enemies of his race; the
Swiss rubbed their hands, stamped their feet and looked defiantly at
a threatening storm-cloud that was rising up behind them; the German
tried to get up a shadow of enthusiasm. He stared, with what was
meant to be earnestness, through his spectacles, emitted a series of
"wunderschöns and wunderhübschs," and strove dutifully to think that
this was seeing life and entering sympathetically into Nature's most
secret joys--the joy of the torrent, the delight of the snow-whirl.
Perhaps it was scarcely matter for surprise that his enthusiasm left
rather a dreary effect upon the minds of his companions.

Arthur was the only one who really enjoyed, for this was novelty to
him, and in his fashionable life he had long been craving for something
out of the common. Then, too, there was about this kind of travelling a
certain necessity for endurance which braced his nerves. He was doing
this for Margaret, and as each keen blast of wind, sweeping with biting
force from the ice-fields, touched his young face, he felt the blood
tingle in his veins. He was full of satisfaction, strong to endure.

With an Englishman's insight into possibilities he had forgotten
nothing that could possibly conduce to an approximation to comfort in
such a situation as that in which he found himself. This being so,
he was able to enter more thoroughly into Nature's strange caprices,
as exhibited in this land of wonders, than the sentimental German,
who shivered in a threadbare coat. For--there can be no doubt about
it--physical comfort frees the mind: when the body is irritated by
discomfort, the mind, sympathetic, is occupied by itself.

In the intervals of meditation on his plans and further attempts for
Margaret, and efforts to take in and write upon his brain some at
least of the wonderful combinations of form and coloring through
which they were passing, Arthur looked with a dreamy philosophy at his
fellow-travellers.

The young man was inclined, from the depths of his magnificent cloak,
to wonder lazily why Providence had bestowed the world's allowance of
common sense upon our nation. The experience of foreigners which he had
been gaining during those weeks of travelling had only confirmed Arthur
in his preconceived idea. One and all they were absurd. The absurdities
might differ in kind and degree--this the young man would not attempt
to deny--and no doubt there were clever people among them; still, as a
rule, were they to be compared to Englishmen?

He looked at the sturdy, commonplace Swiss, the shivering Pole (only
half a man he pronounced him), the sentimental German, trying so
conscientiously to enjoy, and with a feeling of self-gratulation that
actually helped to send a warm glow through his frame answered the
question by a decided negative. No wonder they pronounced the young
Englishman supercilious; he had intended to be very condescending. From
the heights of his superior nationality it was so easy to look with a
calm pity upon those who had been less highly favored by Nature. It
need scarcely be considered matter for surprise that they regarded
his condescension in another light, and were inclined to repel his
spasmodic efforts to be very pleasant and friendly.

All the travellers were glad when the foot of the mountain was reached.
Even the indefatigable Arthur, when he found himself so near his
destination, thought it well to take a night's rest at Amsteg, where
he broke off from the St. Gothard route for Meyringen and Grindelwald.
It was somewhere between these two places that the chalet occupied by
Maurice Grey was supposed to be situated.

Once in the neighborhood, the young man felt that it would not be
difficult to find it. The very fact of a stranger having made for
himself a lonely habitation in the mountains would be sufficient to
render his home a celebrated place.

Arthur's only difficulty now was what it had been at York before his
interview with Margaret--the framing of some reason which might account
for his seeming intrusiveness. He formed a thousand plans. He would
wander in the direction of the chalet, he would put himself in the
position of a benighted traveller thrown on the hospitality of the
hermit; finally, he determined to torment himself no longer--Fate would
perhaps befriend him as before. That evening Arthur sent another letter
to Margaret and his cousin. There was not much in it of the impressions
which the grand scenes among which he was sojourning had written on his
mind, but it held a courage and hope that might inspire the lonely wife
and bereaved mother with a kindred sentiment.

Arthur was an inexperienced traveller, and the plan of his route had
been principally traced in obedience to the suggestions of the few
English people he had met. It is more than possible, therefore, that
the route chosen was not the most direct; for although it had not
been possible for L'Estrange in any way to emulate his swiftness in
travelling (he was obliged to suit himself to Laura's capabilities),
yet on that night when, from the small village in the valleys, Arthur
sent his second letter to Margaret, the child and her protector were
already at the address given by Petrovski, in the close vicinity of the
child's father, of her friend's most bitter and unrelenting enemy. She
was utterly unconscious of the strange position, though a change had
come over her in those last days of travelling. There was about her
even more of the sedateness of the thoughtful woman, still less of the
child's merry unconcern. For the shadows that had threatened this young
life's joy were gathering thickly around her. She was in the centre of
emotions too strong, of a life too earnest, for her tender youth, and
her friend saw with concern how the color faded from her face, how her
brow grew transparent, how the quiet gestures of a woman became more
and more habitant.

But he could do nothing; the mischief had been wrought in that hour
when his passion had overpowered his judgment, when he had consummated
the rash deed of taking a tender little one from the mother's fostering
care. He had done what he could to obviate the evil, and in the
interval the child had grown dear to him as his own soul. This it
was that added a tenfold poignancy to the pain with which L'Estrange
sometimes looked at her.

Once or twice in the course of this later journey L'Estrange had
further accesses of the pain he dreaded, and more than once he had been
forced to resort to his kindly enemy, entrancing opium, to stay his
fierce pangs for a time. It produced its true effect upon him. Moments
he had of joys too great for earth--moments when his imagination played
freely, when his heart expanded, when all the dark places of his past
life's journey were irradiated with a golden light, and when the
growing uneasiness of the present strangeness and the certain future
pain passed into calm security and pleasant rosy dreams. But the false
potion brought other moments in its train--moments when his whole being
seemed weak and nerveless, when deep depression possessed his soul,
when even the higher life and nobler possibilities of existence which
he had been learning in the child's pure presence became to his languid
soul unattainable as the dreams of a weak visionary.

At such times he would sit with folded arms and knit brows looking out
and away to the far stretches of horizon that were fleeing evermore
before them. Only the child had power to arouse him from one of these
gloomy fits of abstraction, though sometimes his mood was so dark that
even she scarcely ventured to break in upon it. But she never really
feared him; there was a strange sympathy between the two that made her
understand him in some wonderful way.

As they neared the end of their journey and rest became a possibility,
L'Estrange once more tried to refrain from his death-winged potion. He
felt that languor and weakness were possessing themselves of his being,
and strength of mind would be more needful than strength of body for
the work he had to do.

Only those who have known what this refraining means can understand
his sufferings. Racked with pain, that reckless gnawing pain which
seems to be verily eating into life, he lay for two nights and days
on a bed in the hotel at Grindelwald, where he had decided to remain
for a few days. And still during the long hours the patient child, his
ministering angel in very truth, sat by his bedside helping her friend
to bear, and waiting for him to be better.




CHAPTER VI.

_THE LIFE OF A SOLITARY._

    And soon we feel the want of one kind heart
    To love what's well, and to forgive what's ill
    In us.


Maurice Grey had at last been successful in his weary seeking after
loneliness. Whether he had gained happiness thereby is scarcely so easy
to say; certainly his surroundings could not possibly have been more
beautiful or peace-inspiring.

On an Alpine meadow green with a vivid brightness, spangled in the
spring and early summer with many-colored fragrant flowers, bounded on
one side by a wood, the home of ferns and moss and lovely things of
every shape and hue, overtopped on the other by a ridge of mountains
that, rising sheer from the soft greenness, towered into white
ice-fields and shoulders and pinnacles of virgin snow, he had found
in the summer of that year a tumble-down chalet. It was large and
tolerably commodious, evidently intended to be something superior to
the ordinary dwelling of the Swiss herdsman.

Maurice Grey was tired of hotel-life when he came upon this treasure
trove. Life in the mountains, with the constant companionship of
ignorant tourists, would-be enthusiasts and _blasé_ fashionables (for
Maurice, though touched and charmed by Nature's beauty, had not arrived
at the higher point of seeing beauty in humanity), was scarcely the
life of solitude he had been seeking.

In the inane vapidity of travellers' talk all the impressions which
Nature's loveliness had been writing on his soul seemed to pass
into cynicism and irritability. He would get away from the charmed
circle--he would break loose once and for ever from the galling fetters
with which his kind would chain him. This chalet was the very thing to
suit him. He had come upon it in the course of a long, solitary ramble
which was taking him into ground untrodden apparently by the ordinary
tourist. It led to no point of special interest, there was nothing
remarkable to distinguish it from thousands of Alpine meadows in the
vicinity, it was intersected by no well-frequented path.

Maurice Grey set inquiries on foot. He found that the neglected chalet
had been intended for a small pension; that the proprietor, who was a
farmer, had sustained an unexpected loss in cattle, and had thus been
unable to complete and furnish it; that he would be only too delighted
to let it on very moderate terms to any one who would take the trouble
of making it habitable.

On the very next day Maurice found out the farmer, and an arrangement
was entered into highly to the satisfaction of both. It took a very
short time to fit up the small abode, or two rooms on the ground floor,
with the few articles an Englishman would find necessary--a wooden bed
and a large bath, a table and chair, one leather-backed arm-chair,
rough shelves with a selection of books that he had ordered in one of
the German towns through which he had passed, writing-materials and his
beloved pipe, sole companion of his solitude.

These were all, save the kitchen utensils, which his new servant, a
German who could do everything, had procured for him, and with these
Maurice Grey settled down to a hermit's life. It was scarcely the life
to suit him. There was too much vigor and manhood in his frame, too
many cravings in the heart he had thought dead, for the death-in-life
of one cut off from the society of his fellows to be bearable for any
length of time. During the long hours of the day, when even his servant
was absent seeking at the nearest village for the daily necessaries
of their life, Maurice Grey, the sociable, lively Englishman, would
sit like a patriarch at the door of his tent and look out--not on his
children and children's children playing on the green sward, but on the
savage grandeur of the mountains, on shaggy pines rising head above
head like a great army on the hillside, on the flash of torrents, their
fall scarcely heard in the far distance, scattering their white foam
into the sunshine, on radiant ice-rivers sweeping down between dark
gray rocks. And the wonder entered into his soul. But the illusion
faded, for, all grand and glorious as it was, there was yet in it
nothing to lay hold upon the heart or satisfy its wants.

Sometimes the stillness would grow so oppressive that even the tinkling
of the cattle-bells, notifying the approach of the sleepy, quiet
animal, would be a relief to the man's brain And then he would rush
into the wood. There was sound enough there--the rustling of leaves,
the chirping of grasshoppers, the movement and ceaseless murmur of life
various and multiform.

At times Maurice Grey would enjoy it, but not always, for in the midst
of this rich profusion of Nature his was a life apart. More than once
he was mortified, even in those first days, when solitude had a certain
novelty, to discover how instinctively his step would quicken and his
heart grow lighter when in the evening, his hour for dinner drawing
near, he could look forward to seeing at the door of his chalet the
familiar face of his servant and only companion. He was too proud,
however, to betray himself even to Karl, and in spite of everything
was determined to persevere. He would give the new life a fair trial.
Happily, Maurice had a resource in his pen. In his youth he had
cherished ambitious dreams of distinguishing himself in the world of
letters. In these hours of solitude the desire returned--not, indeed,
with a like force, for the cry of the miserable, the _cui bono?_ of a
sick soul, was at the heart of it.

If the grandeur of Nature could inspire him with high thoughts--if as a
poet he could breathe out any one of these, sending it forth a living
image of beauty into the world--why and for whom should he do it? For
men and women? For _their_ enjoyment, _their_ false praise? Maurice
Grey, as it will be seen, had not lost his cynicism in his solitude.
But he wrote as he had never written before. He transcribed his
strange, wild dreams that were formed in the ice-caverns, and clothed
the woods and hills with legends, dismal, gloomy, awe-inspiring, that
had drunk from the bitter waters of his own dark soul.

As days and weeks passed on that soul grew darker. Even the faithful
Karl, who was strongly attached to his English master, began to fear
his strange moods and wonder vaguely at his caprices, recalling the
weird märchen that had fed his boyhood in his Black Forest home--of
men haunted with the spirit of evil, condemned to wander for ever,
seeking rest and finding none; of ghosts that had taken to themselves
a fleshly home, and living with human beings had been considered human
themselves, till the dark fear of betraying their origin in some
unwary moment had driven them to the wilds, there to batten on horrors
till the startled flesh should forsake, once and for ever, the naked,
shivering ghost.

Karl grew afraid of his own shadow. Indeed, only his visits (and he
took care they should be of daily recurrence) to inhabited places kept
him sane and capable. So absolute is the truth, old as humanity itself,
that "it is not well for man to dwell alone."

For Maurice Grey where was the helpmate to be found? Not upon earth,
if perfection such as he sought in his lofty idealism was to be its
necessary accompaniment. He had broken his idol for a flaw in its
fair whiteness, and what wonder that he found it difficult--nay,
impossible--to replace it?

Not that Maurice, to do him justice, had ever sought to replace his
idol by any creature outside of him in the world of men and women. It
may be, however, that his dream was wilder and more vain. For he looked
within instead of without--looked to the poor trembling self for that
satisfaction and peace which life with one who was (though he had not
known it) verily his other self, by reason of her tenderness and warm
womanly sympathy, might have brought him.

Maurice and Margaret had been alike wrong in this, that they had
sought in the transitory and fleeting what is impalpable and enduring.
Happiness springs not from the dust, and happiness abiding is only to
be found outside of ourselves, outside of humanity, outside even of the
world.

This they were learning, the husband and wife, each in the secret place
of a stricken heart--learning it with stormy seas and vast plains and
snow-clad mountains between them. Sometimes it would dawn upon Maurice,
in the midst of a dream of impossible bliss, that he had been seeking
the good in a wrong channel--that perhaps it might be found when and
where he least thought to meet it. And the idea would make him tremble
as with a sudden inspiration his eyes would seek the blue vault above,
so restful in its calm transcendent purity.

And so the long summer months, laden with beauty, passed by him. Days
he had of musing, when his soul, entering in upon itself, would
strive painfully for the secret of Nature's abiding joy--days of
inspiration, when after a restless night dreams and imaginings would
shape themselves into burning words which he would trace with a poet's
tremulous joy--days of moody abstraction, when even the blue heavens
irritated him by their calm beauty, when the white snow-peaks glared
and dazzled and robed themselves in dark palls: days too he had when a
better spirit seemed to be taking possession of him, when the spirit of
good brooded over his soul, when from the everlasting pæan of hill and
vale, of rustling leaves, rushing torrents and tuneful birds the shadow
of a peace that might yet be his descended on his soul. And still Karl
came and went, leaving the hermit in the morning, returning with early
evening, ministering to his necessities and preventing him from feeling
the hardships that might have been his lot in the strange life he had
chosen.

If the truth must be told, the imaginative German half expected
at times, as he entered the dark gorges which led to his master's
dwelling, to find that in his absence companion-ghosts had spirited him
away. But such an occurrence never happened, and the man began to take
heart and breathe more freely.

Unhappily, the summer-time could not last for ever. Autumn came, and on
this particular occasion an early autumn fell upon the valley. Bleak
winds began to moan and sigh among the hills, the mountains robed
themselves in gray, impenetrable mist, the leaves shuddered and fell by
myriads.

Maurice Grey was an Englishman. He had always prided himself on his
independence of externals, but hitherto he had been well occupied,
mentally or physically, in such a season. This coming on of autumn was
very different from any former experience. To be absolutely alone,
or shut up with a servant who only at intervals shows a scared face;
a blanket, damp, white, clinging, about the house, and entering in
by every nook and cranny; nothing visible but walls of chilly vapor
rising in billowy folds about dark, formless giants, that are known
to be snow-mountains only because they have been visible before,--is
sufficiently depressing; but add to all this a mental life unhealthily
alive and sensitive, an absence of present joys, with the memory of
past happiness rising at times to mock the heart by its fairness, the
sting of a remorseful conscience, physical powers fast decaying under
the unspeakable horrors of a lonely, unloved life, and I think it will
be allowed that Maurice Grey would have been more than human if even
his intellect had not begun to fail him.

It was such a morning as that I have been describing; he sat before his
desk; his pipe was on the table before him, books were scattered on
every side, a manuscript was open, the pen was in the ink; but he was
doing literally nothing, not even attempting to beguile his dreariness
with that friend of the forlorn--a pipe. His folded arms rested
listlessly on the table; he was looking out into the thick mists with a
dreary hopelessness that in a man seemed miserable beyond compare. He
was not even thinking. It was as though a gloomy abstraction had seized
upon his soul.

The door grated on its hinge--it was not particularly well hung--but
Maurice did not hear the sound. He was like a man who was under the
influence of some strong narcotic, plunged in visions that shut out
the external world. Karl was the intruder. He peeped cautiously into
the room, took a back-view of his master's position, then steered
noiselessly round to the front (Maurice was painfully irritable in
these moods) and gained a side-view of his face. It resulted in an
ominous shake of the head and a bold move. Creeping still nearer, Karl
touched his master on the arm, then sprang back, for the angry frown
gathered on his brow.

Karl had been observing him, and Maurice had a vague fear that in his
moody fit he had been ridiculous. An Englishman hates to be absurd,
even to a valet, and Maurice Grey, as he glanced at the repentant
German brimful of apologies that were only waiting a suitable outlet,
felt his choler rising. "How many times have I ordered you," he said
angrily, "not to come in here without knocking?"

"Meinherr did not hear," replied the submissive youth.

"Then you should have knocked again or gone away. By Heaven! do you
think me incapable of taking care of myself? Speak, idiot! what is the
meaning of this intrusion?"

The frightened German extended his arms apologetically: "Meinherr must
condescend to hear that, as this weather has lasted some days, we are
nearly out of provision."

"Go to Grindelwald to-day."

"Impossible. Meinherr will please to take the trouble of observing how
thick are these mists."

"Then why, in the name of all that's sensible, do you annoy me? Can I
make provisions?"

"No, but meinherr might wish to know why his table shall be so poorly
provided this day, and--" The man hemmed.

"And--what? Go on, can't you?"

"Meinherr should also know that weather like this at present never
lasts very long about here."

"So much the better. Is that all you wished to tell me?"

"Meinherr would for the few days be so much better at the hotel. If he
should please we might go there to-morrow and rest till the weather
shall be a little more clear. There are not a great many people
travelling just now. Meinherr would have a good apartment and would be
very little annoyed."

The poor man's voice trembled with fear and anxiety. It was one word
for his master and several for himself. Karl was beginning to feel
that he could scarcely bear another week of such horrors as those to
which he had lately been exposed. His master himself, by his dark
moodiness and mysterious surroundings, peculiarly awe-inspiring, his
only companion; the dark gorges and mountain-caverns yawning round him
like so many graves; no creature to whom he could unfold the tale of
the fears that beset him,--nothing less than such a combination could
have emboldened the submissive Karl to make the proposition which he
had advanced in so timorous a manner.

After the murder was out he stood silent, aghast at his own audacity,
waiting for the torrent of angry words with which the Englishman would
answer him.

To his surprise no such answer came. Maurice rose from his seat and
burst into a loud laugh. The diversion had been salutary: "You would
make a first-rate special pleader, Karl. A word for me and a dozen for
yourself, eh? Well, what are we to do? Some one must be left in charge
here. Since you are so anxious about my welfare, I had better go to
Grindelwald and leave you behind me."

Karl smiled pleasantly. Matters were taking a favorable turn.

"Meinherr is pleased to joke. He would most certainly require the
services of a valet in Grindelwald as well as here, and no one else
would understand his ways so well. I spoke--it is perhaps a few days
since--to an old woman who is well known in the village. She would
be very glad for a small sum to look after the chalet. Meinherr will
excuse this liberty. I feared for him the severity of the winter
season."

"All right, Karl. Poor fellow!" he added, gently, "I fear you lead a
hard kind of life here, and you are a faithful servant. Well, let it be
so. You shall have a little change."

By these sudden flashes of kindliness, these glimpses of a better
nature, Maurice had endeared himself to his servant. To be harshly
treated was too common to the German to be in any way food for
complaint, but for a master to consider him, to take a kindly interest
in his feelings, was something quite new. His heart warmed to this
proud Englishman who was considerate enough to give him his due meed of
thanks and praise.

At Maurice's last remark he pressed eagerly forward, his eyes
glistening: "Not for worlds if at all inconvenient to meinherr. What is
good enough for him should, it is quite certain, be good enough for his
servant."

Maurice smiled: "I begin to think you are right, my good Karl; a change
will do me good, as well as you. I left a portmanteau at the hotel, so
we shall not require to take anything with us. If by to-morrow the mist
has at all cleared we shall start for Grindelwald."

The next day rose bright and clear. Maurice and his servant left the
chalet early in the morning, locking the door carefully, as Maurice had
a deep regard for his books and manuscripts, and taking with them the
key, which was to be given to the old Swiss woman, destined heiress to
the horrors of the lonely place.

Happily, Marie was endowed neither with an overflow of imagination nor
highly-strung nerves. With her small grandchild to wait upon her, and
plenty of coffee, sausage and black bread, she could be happy anywhere.




CHAPTER VII.

_THE WORK OF MARGARET'S MESSENGER BEGUN._

    Sometimes we feel the wish across the mind
    Rush like a rocket tearing up the sky,
    That we should join with God and give the world
    The slip; but while we wish the world turns round,
    And peeps us in the face--the wanton world!
    We feel it gently pressing down our arm.


Maurice and his servant reached the hotel in safety. Its situation was
fine, though not to be compared with that of the Englishman's chosen
dwelling. It was perhaps too much shut in with the great giants that
enclosed the valley in their apparently indissoluble embrace, too
much under their shadow for their true grandeur to be felt. In the
summer and early autumn it was a busy place, for it was a favorite
resting-point and suitable centre for many excursions. But at this
time, as Karl had wisely predicted, it was nearly empty. The flock of
guides who during the summer months had been accustomed to haunt its
approach had gone home to their families and their winter-life among
the herds of cattle and goats; the _dépendances_ were entirely closed,
and many of the windows of the hotel itself showed white blinds and a
general appearance of being shut up for the time.

Nevertheless, in the village of Grindelwald a slight commotion seemed
to be on foot, of which the hotel was apparently the centre. Curious
men in white ties were discussing volubly with the few rough outsiders
who, in the vague hope of further spoil, were haunting the outskirts
of the hotel with bare-backed mules and alpenstocks; from the little
shop where carvings and views were temptingly exhibited the ancient
proprietor was looking curiously across at the hotel; and the village
people were gathered together in small knots, evidently discussing some
object of common interest. Into the midst of this excitement Maurice
Grey and his servant walked quietly about noon on this bright autumnal
day.

Karl pricked up his ears. "Something has happened, meinherr," he
ventured with the familiarity of a favorite attendant; then, perceiving
no sign of disapproval, "Travellers lost in yesterday's mist. Ach! wie
schrecklich!" he continued, lapsing into German as exciting scraps of
one of the many conversations reached his ears. "Meinherr has without
doubt heard. 'II ne peut pas se consoler.' An Englishman, it may well
be, who has lost his son, perhaps even two. Will meinherr permit that I
make inquiry?"

Maurice could not help laughing at the man's overweening curiosity.
"Ask about my room and luggage first," he said, "then you may do as you
like."

But by this time the landlord had seen the Englishman, and had
advanced, hat in hand, to ask his pleasure. The rarity of new arrivals
in this season made an extra coating of politeness desirable.

"Is anything wrong?" asked Maurice when the trivial matter of
accommodation had been settled.

The landlord answered in French; he had never been able to acquire
English: "Ah, monsieur, a sad event indeed; but come within and you
shall hear of it. We are idle now, and my people have nothing better
to do than to talk about these things. Better not--better not," and he
shook his head seriously.

"But why?" asked Maurice, his curiosity aroused. "Is there anything
particularly mysterious about this event, which seems to have excited
you all so much?"

"Mysterious! Monsieur has truly chosen a right word to describe this
occurrence."

And he proceeded to pour into Maurice's ear some account of the
sensational event which had that day formed the one topic of
conversation in the little village.

It will be as well, perhaps, to take the story out of his hands and
to give in a few words a _résumé_ of what, with interruptions and
circumlocutions manifold, the landlord made comprehensible at last to
his new guest.

It seemed that a few days before the Englishman's arrival several
travellers had put up at the hotel, apparently with the intention of
staying there some time.

The first party consisted of only two, an elderly gentleman who
appeared to be in a bad state of health, and a child strikingly lovely
if the impassioned description of the landlord was at all worthy of
belief.

They took three rooms _en suite_, and the little lady was to be
constantly attended by one of the chambermaids.

Later in the same day the second party arrived. It consisted of two
gentlemen and a lady, all of whom gave Austria as their country. The
lady, a peculiarly proud and beautiful woman, seemed to be the wife of
one of the gentlemen, but they both treated her with a tolerable amount
of carelessness.

For two days these different families had remained in the hotel without
meeting or having any intercourse one with the other, for the elderly
gentleman had been suffering so acutely that he never left his room,
and the child would not leave his side.

On the third or fourth day he appeared at the _table d'hôte,_
accompanied by the little girl, and seats were placed for them exactly
opposite to those occupied by the Austrians. The lady and one of the
gentlemen were already seated when they entered.

One of the waiters, it appeared, was a particularly observant
character, though, indeed, there are always observant characters at
hand when such are found convenient, and a waiter's life at some large
hotel is specially favorable to the cultivation of this habit of mind.
Many a waiter might frame exciting romances, the materials drawn simply
from the sphere of his own observations. The waiter in question was
German, a man of an inquiring turn of mind, and specially given to the
study of character. Some peculiarity of countenance, as he afterward
declared, led him to look rather attentively at the dark, handsome face
of the Austrian lady. Lost in his favorite study, he forgot to notice,
by the necessary bustle, the drawing out of chairs and readjustment
of knives and forks, the entry of the elderly Frenchman and his
fair-haired child. He could not, therefore, have been mistaken in his
assertion that as the lady lifted her eyes from her plate and caught
a glimpse of the new arrival, her face became suddenly convulsed. She
started violently, first flushed crimson, then turned as pale as death.

This circumstance made the intelligent waiter think. He turned his
attention instantly from the strangely-affected lady to the apparent
cause of her agitation, but here he was partially baffled. There
seemed to have been a kind of flash of recognition in the face of the
gentleman with the iron-gray hair as he seated himself opposite to her;
even this, however, was so slight that possibly he might only have
imagined it, for the Frenchman's conduct during the time allotted to
dinner was absolutely natural. Once or twice he even looked across at
his companions with that quiet species of scrutiny which is allowable
between perfect strangers meeting in this way, and several times he
addressed himself in French to one or other of the gentlemen who faced
him. The lady made no further sign, only to the far-seeing German she
seemed to be making a violent effort to control herself. On the evening
of that day something--he did not explain what--led this particular
waiter to the part of the house in which the suite of rooms taken by
the gentleman (who will have been recognized as M. L'Estrange) was
situated. He stated afterward that he had been chained to the spot--the
spot being the outside of the door of the Frenchman's apartment--by
strange and unusual sounds. He heard a woman's voice, interrupted
often with tears and sobs; she was speaking in tones of entreaty or
expostulation, raising her voice violently from time to time as her
excitement grew with her theme. What that was the waiter could not
precisely say. He was an exact man, who never liked to go beyond
his authority. In fact, as he was eminently practical and had never
cultivated his imaginative faculties, perhaps he chose the easiest
course.

Stern, low tones answered from time to time the woman's impassioned
appeals, and at last, very suddenly as it seemed, the door was thrown
violently open, and cloaked and hooded, her face covered by a thick
black veil, there walked out the proud Austrian lady. He recognized her
by her exceptional height and her stately carriage.

The door was closed softly from the inside, and the lady walked rapidly
through the passage to her own rooms, which were situated in another
part of the house.

This happened two days before the arrival of Maurice. In the night the
lady had disappeared. A French waiter went at the same time, whether
as her attendant or not no one could discover. One thing alone was
certain--the deed had been cleverly done. During the whole of those
days the lady had been sought, but sought in vain.

"We thought her husband careless," said the landlord in conclusion,
"but ever since he has been like a madman. We dare not tell him what
monsieur knows about the conversation that has been overheard: the
life of the French gentleman, who seems still very ill, would scarcely
be safe; and, after all, who can say? He seems to have acted well. A
woman's caprice, an old attachment. Monsieur will doubtless be of my
advice. It would be useless to arouse ill feeling without just cause."

And so saying, the landlord shrugged his shoulders. Why should he
affect himself at all with the miseries of forsaken husbands or runaway
wives? It is an ill wind that blows nobody good, and the landlord, to
speak truly, was not discontented with the kind of notoriety which this
romantic tale, told and retold as it might very probably be--especially
if the _dénouement_ should turn out to be tragic--would bring upon his
house.

Maurice Grey read something of this in the man's eyes, and in his turn
he shrugged his shoulders, a sign with him of bitter contempt.

Not "What fools," but "What knaves these mortals be!" was the constant
cry of his sick soul. It was meeting him again as he emerged from his
solitude.

When the landlord left him to answer some summons, Maurice Grey looked
out upon the mountains, and laughed a laugh that was sad to hear, for
under the mirth lay a weary weight of misery and bitterness. Women
inconstant, man faithless--everywhere self-interest the great ruling
motive of life, and in all the green earth no spot where he could lay
his head, feeling "Here I may rest with a perfect confidence." The
man's heart contracted painfully; from such a standpoint as his the
outlook on humanity is gloomy indeed. He felt for a moment that he
would fain be out of it all. The frank, round face of Karl aroused him
to a sense of his position, and to the recollection that while such
simple souls as his were left all honesty had not passed away from the
earth. It was certainly a relief.

"Meinherr's rooms are ready, his fire lit and his clothes airing. Will
he please to see if everything is to his liking?" said the German.

"Where is my room?"

"In the best part of the house, eccellenz, close to the apartments
occupied by the gentleman of whom he has doubtless heard."

"The inconsolable husband?" Maurice's lips were curled into a kind of
sneer as he asked the question.

"No, meinherr; the other person concerned, as they say, in this sad
business--a Frenchman, I believe."

"So all these details are the common talk of the place," said Maurice
to himself. "Unfortunate man!" And then he set his teeth together. "I
acted wisely," he muttered; "such a scandal as this would have killed
me."

He said nothing more to Karl, and the honest soul, who had rejoiced
in the interest his master was taking in sublunary affairs, who had
been congratulating himself, in fact, on the very rapid success of his
plan for drawing his master out of his dark moods, was distressed and
perplexed to see the old frown gather on his brow, to hear his fierce,
impatient sigh, and to find himself banished summarily from his room
with the curt abruptness to which Karl had become accustomed.

Left alone, Maurice sat down by the little wood-fire, which had been
kindled solely in consideration for his feelings as an Englishman,
and returned to his sad pondering. He was playing a dangerous game
with himself, for he was in that mood which has often tempted a man to
tamper with his humanity--to put out his rash hand and experimentalize
on the nature whose fearful beauty and hidden mystery it is impossible
for him to understand. It would have been better, a thousand times
better, for the Englishman at such a moment as this to have thrown
himself into any kind of work, to have sought society, however
humble, to have looked for some interest in the outer world; anything
would have been better, indeed, than this giving way to the spirit
that possessed him--this looking for and searching into what no son
or daughter of humanity may fathom. Like a fiend's temptation ran
backward and forward through his mind, haunting him with its dull
rhythm, the burden of a song that he remembered to have heard in some
bygone time:

    "A still small voice, it spake to me--
    Thou art so full of misery,
    Were it not better not to be?"

And again, with an added force--

        "Thou art so steeped in misery,
    Surely 'twere better not to be--better not to be."

As he repeated these words half aloud, Maurice rose and paced the room
excitedly.

"Yes," he said to himself, "a wise counsel. Men, women, what are they?"
He knit his brows and his eyes looked fierce. "What are we?--miserable,
and our misery makes us bad. God!--if there be a God!"--he lifted
his pale, agitated face, but underlying his wretched, wild doubts
might have been read there the reverence of a fine soul--"why are we
miserable, seeking good for evermore, and finding evil, inconstancy,
falsehood? Why is our fair world the abode of fiends incarnate, who
burden the ages with their folly? And if we were happy"--again he
lifted his pale face, and the dazzling snow-peaks against their azure
background met his gaze--"if we were happy," he repeated slowly--"if
_she_ had been happy--O God! she would have been good, for the soul of
purity was in her; but misery brings madness to the blood and thoughts
of evil to the heart; and for misery there is no cure under the sun."

For a few moments he remained perfectly still and silent, his arms
folded, his brow contracted, looking out upon the snow-fields; then
added, this time half aloud, "_But one!_"

He turned from the window and cast a rapid, hungry glance round the
room. It was comfortably arranged, the small wood-fire crackling
merrily, the clothes he was about to wear hanging on a chair beside it
carefully brushed, his bed turned down, exhibiting the whitest of white
linen; but what specially drew Maurice's attention was his portmanteau,
which, after the necessary articles had been taken from it, Karl had
left open, that the expediency of further unpacking might be decided
by his master. It was a large travelling portmanteau, evidently full
of a miscellaneous collection of articles--books, dressing-apparatus,
clothes, curiosities picked up in wandering from place to place. On one
of these curiosities, which was lying near the top of the open side,
Maurice's eyes finally rested.

For a moment he gazed silently, then crossing the room took it up in
his hand to examine it more closely. A case containing a pair of small
pocket-pistols, the barrels of silvered metal richly chased with gold.
One of these Maurice removed from its covering. He handled it with a
certain curiosity, took it to pieces to examine its condition, cleaned
it with the most delicate care, then, after putting it together again,
spent a few moments in listening to its click. It looked more like an
elegant toy than a dangerous weapon. Maurice put it down and returned
it to the case, which contained, besides the companion pistol, a small
flask of gunpowder and some bullets. These he took out, then in a
quiet, leisurely manner proceeded to load the pistol. His attitude was
rather that of a man who is amusing himself, trying to kill time, than
of one who has any serious purpose in view. And perhaps at this moment
Maurice was scarcely serious. In any case, when his work was done he
did not proceed farther; he put the pistol down again. It almost seemed
as if this quiet, ordinary occupation (for Maurice's firearms had
always been treated by him with minute personal care--he did not allow
a servant to touch them) had quieted the tone of his mind and banished
some of his dark thoughts. He put down the pistol then, and turned back
to the fireside to resume his unhealthy musing.

For here lay Maurice Grey's error. Instead of mastering his morbid
feelings, driving them away by stress of hard work and diversity of
thought, he, like many a strong man before and since, suffered them to
master him.

Again and again he would return to the old mystery, bringing the
energy of his soul to bear upon it. Again and again it would elude
him, till, mortified and baffled, tied down to the narrow circle of
self-knowledge, a broad outlook on humanity impossible by reason of
his self-chosen fate, he had come to loathe his very life as an evil
thing.

It is easier to meet a foe in fair fight than a giant formed by a
diseased imagination--blurred, indistinct, but awful with the terrors
of the unknown.

With his small pistol within reach, Maurice set to work once more
thinking over humanity's woes and wrongs, gloomily seeking for the
shadow of a reason why life should be thought worth having--why it
would not be well to pass out from it once and for ever through the
lurid portals of self-destruction. What wonder that his unhealthy
pondering should point out to him no ray of light, no gleam of hope?

But happily for Maurice, and for the many who were interesting
themselves in his welfare, his mind at the time could bear no further
tension. Rather to his own surprise, he found it wandering from
the solemn question of life versus death to the common things that
surrounded him. How strange it is that at the solemnest moments the
trivial and commonplace intrude the most perseveringly! And yet it is a
fact that might be proved by numberless instances.

Maurice's window looked out upon the hotel garden; gradually, as
the tension on his nerves grew less, he caught himself counting and
remarking curiously the very few who from time to time passed up and
down the snow-shrouded paths and alleys. A woman-servant, apparently
looking for some kind of herb; two waiters, who walked rapidly up and
down as if enjoying the keen air and glittering sunshine; the landlady,
in morning undress, crossing to the _dépendance_ in the grounds, and
returning with some utensil which had been left there accidentally;
finally--and this it was that riveted Maurice's attention--a traveller,
probably a new arrival, for the landlord had given Maurice a detailed
account of all those who were in his house at the time, especially
giving him to understand that no English visitors remained. And this
young man was certainly from England. What other country could have
produced the faultless exterior with regard to form, the fair freshness
of face, the well-bred nonchalance of manner?

The young man held a cigar lightly in the tips of his fingers, his
lively whistle penetrated to Maurice's retreat, he walked up and down
on the crystallized snow with a resolute, energetic step; there was, to
the eyes of the jaded man of the world, something peculiarly pleasant
and attractive about his general appearance.

"I wonder who he is?" said Maurice to himself. "It would be rather
pleasant to meet anything so fresh; he has a good face, too. That young
fellow is no scamp."

Inconsistency of human nature, or rather, perhaps, adaptability to
circumstances. Maurice a few moments before had been condemning his
generation indiscriminately, calling men and women by the harshest
names in the vocabulary, longing passionately to escape from them for
ever. Appears upon the scene a young man with a fair, fresh face, and
he endows him immediately with the qualities in which all his kind had
been pronounced deficient! Strange, but true, for such is life, so
complex a thing, driven hither and thither by trifles light as air.

Maurice Grey turned away from the window, looked with a half smile,
half tremor at the loaded pistol, put it in a safe place lest Karl
should see fit to meddle with it, and proceeded to dress himself
carefully for the early _table-d'hôte_ dinner.

And thus, though he himself was all unconscious of the fact, the work
of Margaret's messenger was begun.




CHAPTER VIII.

_A TÊTE-À-TÊTE DINNER AT THE HOTEL._

    For how false is the fairest breast!
      How little worth, if true!
    And who would wish possessed
      What all must scorn or rue?
    Then pass by beauty with looks above:
    Oh seek never--share never--woman's love.


Maurice Grey's costume was as faultless as that of the young man whom
he had admired in the hotel-garden when at the strange hour of two
o'clock P. M. he, in obedience to the summoning bell, peered into
the long dining-room, at the extremity of which was a small table
spread with two or three covers. Karl, his face beaming all over as he
recognized his master, was standing behind the chair destined for him,
the young Englishman was brushing his feet vigorously on the mat before
the door that stood midway in the room, two waiters were hovering about
helplessly.

Maurice took his place at one side, Arthur Forrest seated himself at
the other side of the table. They were Englishmen and total strangers
one to the other, therefore it is scarcely necessary to say that
the places they chose were as far apart as the small size of the
table would permit. And yet the two men were anxious to know one
another--Maurice, because he felt that his companion's freshness would
be a relief to his jaded soul; Arthur, because he had recognized in
Maurice Grey the husband of Margaret, the man for whom he had been
searching through the length and breadth of Europe.

Burning with anxiety to unfold his mission, he could scarcely preserve
his composure now the fatal moment had arrived, now he and the man
he had been seeking were at last face to face. For he could not be
mistaken; he had ascertained from the landlord the name of this only
other Englishman besides himself who had not fled from the valleys at
the first breath of winter, and Maurice's likeness, confided to him by
Margaret, had been too often studied in its every lineament for him not
to be able at once to know its original. With the knowledge came an
excitement that threatened to overpower him utterly; but he controlled
himself. That calm self-possession and a certain amount of diplomacy
were absolutely necessary if he would bring his mission to a successful
issue, he felt most keenly.

Once Maurice caught the young men's eye scanning his face, and as
the eyes met Arthur blushed; he felt, too much for his comfort and
composure, that the slightest false move might be fatal. Maurice was
utterly unsuspicious; he attributed his young companion's confusion to
embarrassment at being caught exhibiting a little too much curiosity,
and ne was simply amused, determining in his own mind to find out more
about the young fellow, so evidently a gentleman, yet so frank and
transparent in his ways.

A few moments of delay passed by; then, as there was no further
accession to the company, soup was served. Arthur, too full of
tremulous excitement to be able to find a single commonplace, began
to eat in total silence; Maurice looked across at him between the
spoonfuls.

"Apparently we are to dine alone together," he said at last with a
pleasant smile; "rather a different scene from the one I looked in upon
a few weeks ago."

"I suppose this place is very full in the season," was Arthur's not
very brilliant reply.

"Especially so this year; it is gaining in renown, and certainly the
situation is good. But to me hotel-life is _so_ distasteful."

Arthur was beginning to gain confidence. "Do you think so?" he said.
"Now, I like it--abroad, that is to say; the people one meets are
off their stilts, and generally inclined to be friendly; there is
no bother, something approaching to comfort, and plenty of life and
gayety."

"I'm afraid present circumstances will scarcely answer to your
description," said Maurice.

Arthur laughed: "No, indeed, you and I seem to be the only sane people
in the establishment. I gather from the waiters--one of whom, happily
for me, speaks English--that the present company consists of an elderly
gentleman, ill or out of his mind, certainly peculiar; his daughter, an
angel of beauty and goodness; a fuming Austrian, scouring the mountains
for his lost wife; attendant brother, similarly occupied; landlord,
landlady, staff of servants."

Maurice smiled: "I think you have omitted nobody, only, for fear your
expectations should have risen too high, even under circumstances so
meagre, I should inform you that the angel of beauty is a child, a mere
baby; but my arrival only preceded yours by a few hours, so, like you,
I speak from rumor. Now, may I venture to ask how long you will be
likely to stand out against such an atrocious state of things? I have
an interest in the question, as I believe I am a fixture for some time."

It was by no means an easy question for Arthur to answer. He might
have said that the time of his stay depended entirely upon Maurice
himself. Not being able to give the true answer, he treated the
question as lightly as possible: "Oh I I can scarcely say, exactly. I
was recommended to come--mountains in winter, snow, and that kind of
thing; they certainly look very well, but, you see, I am not precisely
an enthusiast in that line."

"Was it for your health?" asked Maurice with grave interest, looking
compassionately at the fresh young face, whose brilliant coloring might
possibly hide disease.

This question made Arthur turn as red as fire. The knowledge of
what his errand really was rendered him painfully self-conscious.
"Why, no--yes--no, I mean," he answered, his confusion growing as he
advanced.--"What a fool I must be!" he muttered to himself angrily;
then, as he caught a faint smile, polite but perplexed, on the lips
of his questioner, he controlled himself suddenly. "The fact is," he
said rapidly, "I've been so desperately chaffed about this midwinter
journey--But, you see, I rather like cold weather, and the air here is
bracing."

Maurice saw his questions had been ill-timed, and with true courtesy
proceeded to change the subject: "You would not have said so yesterday.
Then, and for some days previously, it was anything but bracing up
here. We had a fine blanket of cold mist about us--not a tree to be
seen beyond the distance of a handsbreadth."

"I thought you had only arrived yesterday," said Arthur, a tremor in
his voice. He knew perfectly well whence Maurice had come, but it was
his plan to feign ignorance; he wished to draw him on to speak about
himself.

Maurice smiled: "I don't come from very far. You must have heard from
the people about here of the peculiar Englishman who shuns civilized
places--I believe this is the form the rumors take--and lives by
himself in a chalet among the mountains. That strange individual is
before you now."

Arthur bowed, as in acknowledgment of this peculiar kind of
introduction. "I must confess," he replied, "that Mr. Grey is known to
me by fame, and being so far in advance of you I must ask you to be
obliging enough to accept my card. If, as I suppose, we are to dine in
this way tête-à-tête for some few days to come, it is as well that we
should at least know each other by name."

"Thank you," replied Maurice cordially. He was at a loss to account for
the timidity, the hesitation, the evident constraint of this young man,
who was yet, to all appearance, no novice in the ways of the world; but
he liked him and wished to set him at his ease.

"You have just come from England, I presume?" he said after a short
pause, looking kindly into Arthur's flushed face. "_I_ have been a
wanderer for many years. How do you like this kind of life?"

"It has been pleasant enough," replied the younger man, reassured once
more by his companion's friendliness; "but, do you know, I find nothing
to compare with the comfort, the convenience--in fact, you know the
kind of thing that one finds at home. Here one can't get even decent
tobacco; there is nothing to be had in the way of drink but sour wine.
As for the cooking, some people praise it very highly; but--" As he
spoke there came up a little dish of vegetables swimming in butter.
"Bah! they call _that_ an _entrée_, I suppose."

Maurice laughed, and helped himself to the obnoxious dish: "You see
what wandering does. _I_ have become cosmopolitan in my tastes. From
the sauerkraut of Germany to the caviare of Russia I am tolerably at
home, able at least to pick up a living; but come, you are right about
the wine, which I really think grows in sourness with the added degrees
of frost; we might have better tipple than this, and it is an occasion.
I have not done the social for many a long day. The 'Wein kart,' Karl.
Let us order up the best bottle of champagne the landlord has in his
cellar, though I greatly fear his stock is low. Karl, inquire for
me--any first quality champagne left?"

The landlord's cellar was not absolutely empty. In a few moments a
bottle of very excellent champagne stood on the table between the two
young men. Maurice drained a brimming glass; Arthur would scarcely do
more than wet his lips. He had not forgotten his purpose, and to bring
it to a successful issue he knew it would be necessary to have all his
wits about him. Laughingly, Maurice reproached his young companion for
his abstemiousness, and filled and refilled his own glass with the
glittering draught. For after the dull weight of loneliness, after the
terrible experiences of the morning, after the gloomy musing that had
oppressed him with its horror, this return, even transitory as he felt
it to be, to some of life's amenities was a boundless relief to the
man's soul. In the old happy days society had been Maurice Grey's life;
it had intoxicated him like wine. Among his peers, when, soul meeting
soul, the sparkles of wit, the flashes of gay humor had been struck out
in the heat of social intercourse, he had reigned as a king: brilliant,
vivacious, boundlessly hospitable, his society had been courted by
the world, and he had met the world courteously, drawing out from its
pleasures the extreme of good that was in them.

But misery had changed Maurice woefully, and it was only when the wine
was in his blood, when its liquid fire was coursing through his veins,
that he could return in any degree to his former self--that he could
become once more the fascinating, brilliant, cordial man of society. On
this particular occasion he had determined to forget himself. It was
the flying back of the bow that had been bent nigh to breaking. Wine
could make him forget, and he poured out glass after glass, draining
them rapidly, as a man might do who was consumed with burning thirst.
Gradually his eyes began to shine and his words to flow more readily.
The haughty, self-contained man spoke freely of himself, and made a
friend and companion of the youth whom hazard had thrown into his way.

Arthur listened silently, with a tremulous joy. If Maurice would
confide in him his task was half done already. But love had taught
the young man prudence. He would hear before he would speak; he would
earnestly study the character of him he had come so far to seek
before he would determine how and when his object should be revealed.
Maurice, in this mood, was a marvellously agreeable companion. The
younger man, standing, as it were, on the threshold of life, listened,
entranced, to his descriptions of the great world, and Mr. Grey knew
the world better than most men. He had plunged into every kind of
society; he had feigned to be what he was not, that he might gain
access to that which would otherwise have been denied to him; he had
played upon the weaknesses of men and women, only to scathe them with
his biting ridicule. Then too, he had seen the world from a variety of
standpoints. During the first part of his life as a man he had taken
a part in the careers which the great world offers to its votaries;
afterward he had lived as a spectator: holding himself aloof from
the heartburnings, the jealousies, the ambitions, the intrigues, he
had been able more calmly to note and criticise. He had made undying
enemies, he had knit to himself faithful friends, he had been concerned
in strange histories; but all these things had been apart from himself.
As far as his own feelings were concerned, they were nothing, feathers
light as air, incidents _pour passer le temps_--nothing more. He was
in the midst of a brilliant series of anecdotes drawn from his life in
St. Petersburg, which had been fruitful in events, commenting lightly,
even with a kind of sarcasm--for these things could not move Maurice
Grey--on the enthusiasm he had excited in female breasts, and on the
confusion and dismay which his mysterious absence would create, when
the light began to wane, and the waiter came in to set a match to the
solitary oil-lamp which was the hotel dining-room's winter allowance of
light.

Maurice stopped and drew out his watch: "By Jove! young gentleman,
your society is so fascinating that I had altogether forgotten the
time. Do you know we have been nearly three hours at table? Now tell
me candidly, have you any plan for this evening? I need scarcely ask,"
he continued laughing; "amusements are not in this primitive corner;
if you went out to walk you would infallibly lose yourself, and as far
as I can make out there are in the hotel at present no fair ladies to
conquer; but so much the better for you. If I had my life to live over
again, I would flee woman as I would the plague." His brow contracted.
"I wonder why I talk about women at all. They are all alike false and
fickle."

Arthur looked up. He was but a boy, and in presence of this man of the
world, steeped to the lips in cynicism, it was difficult to express
the strong faith of his young soul. But Margaret's face in its calm
beauty came suddenly like a sweet vision before his eyes, and he
answered, trembling slightly, "I am younger than you, Mr. Grey, and
have had much less experience of the world; but I know that in this
thing you are wrong. There may be some women who are bad and faithless,
and all that kind of thing--there are ever so many more who are good
and pure. Perhaps you have been unfortunate in your intercourse with
women--perhaps--" his voice shook, and there was a sudden light in his
blue eyes--"perhaps you have made some terrible mistake."

Maurice was earnestly intent on the business of lighting his cigar from
the solitary oil-lamp, so that the look on Arthur's face escaped him,
but the earnestness, the apparent meaning in the boy's voice, impressed
him strangely. He turned round instantly, a slight appearance of
surprise in his manner; then as he caught sight of the flushed face and
gleaming eyes of his companion, he shook his head and his lips curled
into something like a sneer: "My dear fellow, you are young. Wait a
few years, and your vigorous championship will die down, withered by
circumstances."

He laughed bitterly, and Arthur turned away, a cold feeling at his
heart. He could not understand this cynicism. To him who knew this
man's history it seemed cruel and wanton beyond compare.

But Maurice was good-natured, and he liked the boy; his very freshness,
whose springs he had been trying to poison, pleased him. He took him
by the arm and looked into his averted face. "Have I frightened you
altogether?" he said kindly, "or will you listen to what I was about to
propose?" Arthur smiled his acquiescence, but it was with an effort; he
felt in no smiling mood.

"If you like, then, let us adjourn to my quarters. This great place
looks desolate with the one oil-lamp they generously allow us. There
I have a jar of excellent whisky, and Karl will soon find us all
appliances and means to boot for the concoction of whisky-punch, which,
if you had lived so long in these inhospitable regions as I have, you
would know to be a real luxury."

Arthur smiled: "I have not tasted a drop since I left England."

"Then you agree to my proposal? Come!"

The two men rose, Maurice linking his arm into that of his companion,
and leaving the long dining-room, threaded the ill-lit passages
which led to Maurice's apartment. The door of the room adjoining
his was ajar, and close to its threshold they paused involuntarily
for a second or two. What made them stop was nothing more than a
child's voice singing a child's hymn: an untaught, feeble voice,
thrilling with melody that made it tremble, there was yet in it that
which irresistibly drew and fascinated. Even in its weakness there
was something strange. To the imaginative it would have seemed like
a woman's heart trying to express itself through the feeble medium
of a child's voice. For there was soul and purpose in the quavering
treble that trilled against the air. With one accord the men stopped
to listen, holding their breath lest any of the sounds should escape
them. The voice paused a moment and they passed on, but before they
had reached their destination, Maurice, who had been looking back
toward the door whence the sound had proceeded, caught an instantaneous
glimpse of the owner of the childish voice. A little golden head and
fair face, on which light from within the room was shining, peered out
and looked up and down the passage. Only for a moment, but in that
moment the dark eyes of the golden-haired child and the dark eyes of
the world-weary man met. The child, frightened vaguely, retreated to
the inside of the room; the man staggered as if he had received a blow,
and sank down, to his companion's dismay, pale and speechless on the
nearest chair.

Maurice, it must be remembered, had been drinking pretty freely and in
such a condition as his men are scarcely so well able to master their
sudden emotions as they may be at another time.

The face of his child, the sound of the hymns her mother had sung at
her cradle, was to Maurice like the dim memory of a fair dream. He
did not for a moment recognize the child as his own; he was far from
imagining that the little Laura was near him, and the look in her eyes,
the expression of her features, the music of her voice, constituted a
haunting mystery that absolutely staggered him.

He met her eyes, and suddenly, as in a vision, his wife's pure face,
his child's cradle, all the details in their utmost minuteness of a
home that had once been happy, flashed over his mind. He did not know
how it had come. He scarcely even connected this sudden revulsion of
feeling with the sight of the child's face; he only knew that it was
there, a haunting memory of past happiness, and that his present pain
was almost too great to be borne. Covering his face with his hands,
the strong, cynical man sat for some minutes--minutes that seemed ages
to Arthur--plunged in bitter thought.

When he looked up, Arthur thought his face was more haggard than it had
been, and there was a certain excitement in his manner. He rang the
bell vigorously. "You will say I am a pretty host, Mr. Forrest," he
said lightly; "this is scarcely the entertainment I promised you."

Then, as Karl, who had been in the close neighborhood of the room
expecting some such summons, appeared in the doorway, "Try and get a
small kettle, two tumblers and a lemon."

In a very short time the required articles were in the room, and with
his favorite beverage before him the frown passed from Maurice's brow
and the gloomy abstraction from his manner.

He returned to the descriptions which his adjournment to his own room
had interrupted, and Arthur was by turns convulsed with merriment,
thrilling with sympathy, absorbed in interest; but Maurice's tales
left a sad impression. There ran through them all the spirit of the
preacher's bitter cry, "Vanity of vanities, all is vanity."

"Yes, Solomon was a wise man," cried Maurice at the end of one of his
vivid bits of description. "'One man in a thousand have I found, but a
woman have I not found.'"

He flung down his glass with a laugh so bitter that it made his young
companion shudder.

"You look incredulous," continued Maurice; "when the gray begins to
sprinkle your hair you will come to the same conclusion. Look!" he
bowed his head and showed the deep furrows that lined his brow, the
white that shone out here and there from his dark hair. "I _could_ have
done great things in the world: a woman made me what I am--a wreck in
every sense of the word."

The whisky was rapidly mounting to the man's brain. Maurice's cheek was
flushed, his eyes glistened, but he recollected himself suddenly: "I am
a fool to prate about my own affairs, God knows it were best to hide
them; but, young man, you will understand it all some day." He laughed
harshly. "Lives there a man who has not suffered?"

Arthur listened to his ravings, and as he did so the memory of
Margaret's pure life, the echo of her noble words, shone out to him
like light through the darkness of her husband's desperate words.

At first he felt his heart swell with indignation, but he looked at
Maurice and the indignation changed to pity. "Yes," said the young man
to himself, "to believe such a woman false must be enough to kill a
man's faith in humanity."

He rose from his seat, and stood up before the world-sated man strong
in the pure faith of his young soul. His companion had said he would
understand this some day.

"Never!" said Arthur earnestly; "God grant that day may never come! I
know women on whose constancy and purity I would stake my life." He was
thinking of Margaret and Adèle.

Maurice looked at him curiously. For the second time he saw that in
Arthur's face which made him think there might possibly be a meaning
under his vigorous assertions.

"Life is not very much to stake," he said lightly--"more, no doubt, to
you than to me--but I confess I am curious." The cynical smile which
Arthur disliked was playing round his lips. "I have given you a chapter
out of my experience; return it by giving me one out of yours. I should
like to know more about those fair ladies--but perhaps they are _not_
fair; that would make all the difference--upon whose integrity you
would be ready to stake your life." Then his voice deepened and his
brow contracted: "God knows I would have done the same once upon a
time, but that is past, with other things."

There was silence between the two men for a few moments; then Maurice
looked across at the young face, on which a shade of weariness was
resting, with some compunction.

"Poor fellow!" he said gently, "I have done wrong. Faith is such a
beautiful thing, and it lasts so short a time, I should have left you
yours."

But Arthur looked up almost angrily: "You cannot surely think that _my_
faith is weakened by anything you have said."

Maurice smiled. "Youthful infatuation!" he muttered. "But let me hear
your story," he added aloud, "then perhaps I shall discover that unlike
mine your faith is founded on a rock."

Arthur looked at his companion searchingly. The last words had been
carelessly spoken, for the excitement brought on by wine and whisky was
wearing Maurice out; fatigue and exhaustion were fast taking possession
of him.

The young man read this, and he rose to his feet.

"I cannot tell you my story to-night," he said; "it is rather long,
considering the lateness of the hour."

"As you will, my dear fellow." Maurice's eyes were nearly closed.

Arthur went to his own room, and when Karl appeared a few minutes
later to take his master's last commands, he had great difficulty in
persuading him of the desirability of undressing and lying down between
the sheets like a Christian. He succeeded at last, and Maurice slept
such a deep unbroken sleep as he had not known for days; but he woke
with a racking headache and a general sense of dissatisfaction.




CHAPTER IX.

_A TORMENTED SPIRIT._

    Yes, all the faithless smiles are fled
      Whose falsehood left thee broken-hearted;
    The glory of the moon is dead,
      Night's ghosts and dreams have now departed:
    Thine own soul still is true to thee,
    But changed to a foul fiend through misery.


In the mean time, L'Estrange, in his enforced retirement, had not
forgotten to supply himself with a means of knowing everything that
went on in the house. In most places he had an agent of some kind;
where he had not his intimate knowledge of human nature made it not
difficult for him to find out the creature he needed.

He had heard of the Austrian lady's flight. This small episode, which
in days gone by would scarcely have caused him a moment's thought, had
wrought upon his mind to such an extent that a serious relapse had been
the consequence.

It was pretty much as the landlord had conjectured. The proud lady who
had put down her pride so woefully, trampling her own and her husband's
honor in the dust, was one of the many to whom this man had vowed
undying attachment. She had tired him, and he had abandoned her; and
from the day of their parting years before in sunny Italy to this time,
when L'Estrange and she found themselves strangely under the same roof,
they had never met. The fair Austrian had been forgotten, relegated in
his mind to the record of past absurdities, but she had never forgotten
him.

Her life had been uneventful, lived out in a small German town, where
petty gossip is the sole excitement. She had married a man for whom
she cared little, simply because to marry had been rendered almost
necessary by the exigencies of her position. She had had no children.
What wonder, then, that her mind dwelt, ever more morbidly as the slow
years passed by, on this one warm, passionate episode in her otherwise
cold career?

In any case, so it was. She believed that the man who had loved her
then--the man whose tender speeches rung ever in her ears--loved her
still with the same passion, and that only necessity, biting poverty
or unacknowledged ties, had forced him to leave her so cruelly. After
all, it was only a very commonplace and every-day matter. To the woman
this summer-day's love-making had been that one great epoch from which
everything past and future should thenceforward be dated--the era of
an awakening into life of feelings that had before lain dormant and
unsuspected in her being. To the man it was nothing more than one sweet
out of many--a sweet which, when it should cloy upon his fastidious
taste, could be put away without a sigh to the memory of its sweetness.

With the idea in her mind of his continued faithfulness, the Austrian
lady had persuaded her husband to travel, only that she might search
for her lost lover through the length and breadth of Europe. But for
the greater part of two years they had been wanderers, and still
they had come upon no traces of him who had formerly seemed to be
ubiquitous. She had begun to mourn for him as the dead, when suddenly,
in this out-of-the-way corner, at this strange season, she saw his face
once more.

It was seldom that this proud lady betrayed the emotions of her soul.
It may be that her inner consciousness of want of rectitude of purpose
had been one great agent in the formation of those barriers of steel
with which she sought to surround herself. But this time there was no
help for her. The pent-up torrent had grown in force and intensity,
until no bounds could restrain its impetuous overflow. She was a woman,
and the haggardness of the face of the man she loved, the stooping
walk, the whitened hair, spoke so powerfully to her imagination that
she could scarcely be calm. Was it for her he had been sorrowing?
And yet in that flash of recognition at the dinner-table she had
read nothing but cold indifference. She knew him to be a consummate
actor: was this, then, put on? In her hungry desire to know the whole
truth she prepared an interview for that evening; but before it her
measures had been taken. There was a person in the house--one she had
met before--who, her woman's instinct told her, would willingly lay
down his life in her service. She would take him into her counsels;
and if the presentiment which lay cold at her heart as she looked upon
the well-known face that evening should turn out to be true--if she
could never be consoled with this man's love--she would flee from the
place, leave her husband, give up her position in society and hide her
humiliation in a convent.

And so it had all happened. What could L'Estrange say when she spoke to
him passionately of their former love, when she asked him plainly if
there remained any vestige of it in his heart?

He thought to do what was best and wisest; he thought to kill the
madness in her soul by letting her see at once that all which had
passed between them was as though it had never been. For Laura's
unconscious influence and those struggles through which he had passed
had not been altogether in vain; L'Estrange was a better man than he
had been in almost any period of his strange, wild career.

Deeply as he pitied the erring lady, he told her the truth--told her
that in his heart all such feelings as she would have striven to awaken
were for ever dead. It was painful to listen to her wild reproaches,
to hear that it was he who had made her life a desolation--painful,
with only the frail panels of a dividing door between them and the
pure child, to bow his head beneath the torrent of her well-deserved
anger. But it did not last long. In his dark eyes, made brilliant by
fever, in the stern lines written by trouble on his strong face, in
the determined tones of his voice, she read his resolve, and with
the coming on of darkness she fled over the snows to a hamlet in the
mountains, there to stay, under the roof of a poor herdsman, until the
first hue-and-cry should be over. Those who helped her flight were
faithful to her cause; their measures were well taken, and the drifting
of the snow obliterated all marks of footsteps. In time she reached the
distant convent, and the mystery of her disappearance was never solved.

But into L'Estrange's soul the iron entered. At the threshold of a
new life past evil--evil irrevocable--was meeting him, and before the
irrevocable the spirit of the strong man sank. That night he would not
touch the beguiling potion. He almost hailed the bitter physical and
mental pain which this abstaining entailed. It seemed like a kind of
expiation for the follies of his life. He could not close his eyes.
Throughout the long watches of the night he paced his room, body and
soul racked with inconceivable anguish. The pain was beginning to tell
on his strong frame.

When, early on the following morning, the little Laura went into her
friend's room, she found him stretched on the sofa pale and gaunt, like
one who has passed through a death-agony. She noticed the change at
once, and ran to his side: "Mon père is worse?"

"Yes, Laura," he replied; then he took her small face in his hands,
and holding it there for a few moments gazed on it earnestly: "Petite
chèrie, we must lose no time."

"In finding papa?" replied the little one seriously. "Mon père, I think
it will be soon. Last night I dreamt I saw him. Is he here, in this
house, I wonder?"

But her friend turned away: "Little one, you are too much shut up here,
and this makes you imaginative. It is a fine day. We must ask the good
girl who waits on you to take you for a run on the crisp snow."

The little girl clapped her hands. "Yes," she said, "it will be nice,
but mon père must have breakfast first."

She rang the bell and proceeded to arrange everything, to have the
stove lighted, to set out the breakfast-things in their little
sitting-room, and to superintend the preparation of chocolate _à la
Française_, for Laura had become quite a little woman in her ways:
then, as she saw that her friend was still suffering, she sat by his
side and sang to him in her sweet, childish way till his eyes closed.
The little child-heart, by the outcome of its tenderness, had brought
rest to the weary brain, the pain-racked soul.

It was nearly midday when, all radiant with color and life, Laura
returned from her ramble with the good-natured chambermaid. As she
entered the room one of the waiters left it. She found L'Estrange
dressed, and sitting in an easy-chair close by the stove, which showed
a little patch of glowing red.

He called her to his side, and lifting her on to his knees took off her
warm cloak and hood with all the tenderness of a woman, then stroking
back her fair hair he kissed her on the brow. "Laura, petite chèrie,"
he said in a low tone, as if speaking to himself rather than addressing
her, "the time has nearly come."

She put her arms round his neck, and resting her fair head on his
shoulder looked up into his strong, pale face. "What time, mon père?"
she asked in an awed whisper.

"When thou and I must part, fillette."

But the child lifted her head and shook her golden curls. The clear,
bracing air, the brilliant sunshine, the glittering snow had breathed a
spirit of gladness into her heart. She could not see the necessity for
such sad forebodings.

"Mon père," she answered eagerly, "you should not say things like that;
indeed, indeed, it's very wrong. You are going back with me to mamma,
who'll be ever so glad to see us; and my own papa is to be found: he
will thank you, mon père, for bringing me, and then we shall all be
_so_ happy together."

For this was always the end of the child's plans. She could not
imagine anything else. Her friend smiled, and then he sighed. "Soit
donc, petite sage," he replied enigmatically, and Laura was perfectly
satisfied.

Once or twice during that day the mysterious waiter interviewed
L'Estrange, and each time Laura was condemned to be mystified. They
spoke in a language which was a jargon to her; but she was accustomed
to mystery where this strange friend of hers was concerned.

The waiter was keeping him _au courant_ in the most trivial details
that concerned those inhabitants of the house in whom L'Estrange was
interested. He heard of the hue-and-cry that followed the Austrian
lady, and of her husband's despair; he heard of the several arrivals,
first Maurice Grey's, and then Arthur Forrest's; he knew that they
had dined together tête-à-tête and sat a long time over their wine,
evidently in deep converse; finally, when the two men were closeted in
Maurice's room, his confidential emissary was hovering about, ready to
report the slightest extraordinary demonstration. For L'Estrange did
not credit Arthur Forrest with so much diplomacy as he had hitherto
used in his treatment of the delicate mission with which Margaret had
entrusted him, and he knew that fire lay hidden under Maurice Grey's
cold reserve. The name of his wife blundered out by a stranger, who
would appear to know the sad details of her history and his own, might
very possibly cause an explosion of some kind; indeed, during that
long evening, whose tedious hours not even Laura's gentle ministries
could beguile, the Frenchman was on the alert. From moment to moment
he expected to hear the door of the neighboring room pushed violently
open, and to understand from his well-feed observer that the young
peace-maker had been thrust out from the presence of the proud
Englishman, who would feel himself doubly injured by this interference.

Laura did not tell her friend about the strange look which had met hers
that evening, though the child pondered it in her simple heart, trying
to find out what there was in it that had affected and fascinated her.
She would have asked L'Estrange if he thought that this man who had
looked at her with a kind of yearning in his sad face could be, indeed,
the father they were seeking; but one of his dark moods was on him, and
for the first time in all their intercourse she feared to break it.

Since their dinner in the afternoon he had not stirred from the one
position, except when the mysterious informant had come in to report
progress, and then he had looked at him from under his shaggy eyebrows
with a glance that would have killed deceit at its very birth. At other
times he remained silent, his hands clasped over an ancient staff, on
his strong face a look of pain--but pain crushed down by indomitable
will--his lips and nostrils faintly quivering as any sound came
from outside, his eyes fixed on the small patch of glowing red that
was waning and fading out as the day passed away behind the western
mountains.

But though Laura feared to break in upon his silence, she did not fear
him. She sat at his feet, curled up like a kitten wearied with play,
on a crimson cushion that belonged to the heavy-looking couch, trying
by the shimmering firelight to look over a book of very gaudy pictures
which the landlady, who pitied her apparent isolation, had lent her.

Evening deepened into the early night of the season. Candles were
brought by Laura's friend, the good-natured Swiss chambermaid, and
before the little girl had succeeded in tracing a history for half of
the wonderful pictures in her book, she grew so sleepy that her friend
was moved from his abstraction to ring the bell and give her into
the care of Gretchen, after a most loving good-night and many tender
recommendations to the waiting-maid to take every care of his little
treasure.

He did not leave his place by the fireside till his delicate ear told
him that there was nothing stirring in the house but himself.




CHAPTER X.

_PEACE, BE STILL._

    But what time through the heart and through the brain
    God hath transfixed us, we, so moved before,
    Attain to a calm. Ay, shouldering weights of pain,
    We anchor in deep waters, safe from shore,
    And hear, submissive, o'er the stormy main
    God's chartered judgments walk for evermore.


Was he to pass another night of racking pain, another night of restless
wandering? The little chest which held the only means by which
this question, to him so awful, could be answered in the negative,
lay at his feet; his very soul was yearning for rest. Outside, the
white mountains were sleeping, pure as angels undefiled, beneath the
moonbeams; from the next room, the door of which he had opened, came
the light sound of the child's regular breathing; in the house was
silence absolute.

And his rest might be as absolute as any--nay, not only so, it might be
filled with sensuous pleasure, such pleasure as his brilliant youth,
that had gone by for ever, had often afforded him; it might be clothed
with images of beauty and delight. But, on the other hand, had he not
chosen suffering--suffering instead of delight--to be a soul-purifier,
to atone, if atonement might be, for some of the self-seeking of his
ruined life?

And he could delay no longer; an act of expiation was to be wrought
which would demand all the force of his soul to carry to a successful
issue; the father of the child he loved was at hand; with all the
strong energies of his soul awake he must meet him, and make him own
that his enemy's words were the words of truth.

Then--L'Estrange acknowledged it to himself with a sigh--the suffering
whose ravages he dreaded did not overcloud his intellect, did not
bewilder his brain, as its antidote had done; rather, like the purging
fire, it seemed to draw out and develop the greatness of the soul that
was in him.

The strong man shivered as he turned from his only hope, and began
once again in the unhealthy activity of his heart and brain to
think and reason, to live an inner life that was gradually, by its
overpowering force, drawing away the life from his body.

He bowed his face in his hands. Where was all this to end? he asked
himself. Was he to go down to the grave with the burden of his own
ruined life and of the lives he had ruined hanging like a millstone
about his neck, dragging him down to the nether hell, without a hope
save in the last vague dream of the infidel--an utter death, an eternal
sleep?--and this, in his very darkest moments, L'Estrange had never
brought himself to believe.

So intense was his mental life during the first part of that night that
his physical sufferings were almost forgotten, but at last, as the
slow hours went by, pain came, twinge after twinge, that would not be
denied, and panting and exhausted, his great strength failing in the
struggle, the man threw himself down upon his bed, moaning faintly.

A wild impatience followed. The spasms he experienced were of that
gnawing, craving kind more difficult, perhaps, than any other to be
borne.

Not the sharp stinging which rends the frame, and then, spent by very
force, allows it to rest; but the dull, ceaseless throbbing that
nothing can stay, that gives no moment of respite to the overwrought
nerves. L'Estrange at the moment felt as if it would madden him. His
blood was coursing like liquid fire through his veins; his hands and
feet were burning; drops of agony stood on his brow. He crossed his
room suddenly, and throwing open the window leaned out into the night;
but first--for through everything this strange man did ran the tender
thoughtfulness that could only have been prompted by a fine soul--he
shut noiselessly the door of communication between his room and Laura's
lest the chill night-air should touch his darling. He looked out upon
a strange scene--the white earth, in shadow save where the moon had
touched it with an unearthly radiance; the mountains looking verily
like giants in the uncertain light, yet glistening and transparent
where the night-born light was resting; cloud-shadows, whose depth
seemed infinite as the outer darkness of despair, blotting out here
and there the transparent whiteness; behind one of the distant peaks
a pale line, faint and tremulous, that told of coming dawn; over all a
weird unreality.

The face that looked out into the dim night was as strange as the
scene could be, though it lacked the utter stillness of the shrouded,
moonlit earth. The eyes were wild and wandering, with an impatient,
hungry look in them, as though they were searching, seeking, striving
to draw from the visible the secrets of that which no eye beholds; the
mouth quivered with the storms of feeling; the brow was contracted
by a mortal agony, and from time to time the pale lips moved as if
in pitiful appeal to some hidden power. But after a few moments of
earnest gazing some of all this passed by. It would almost have seemed
as though the influence of Nature's eternal calm had been breathed in
upon his soul through the medium of sense, or rather perhaps it was a
thought from within that swept over the tumult of the man's brain, so
that suddenly his agony was stayed.

Was it so very strange? Long ago, in the far ages, a Man to whom
conflict and storm were known in all their fulness stood up on a dark
night and said to the angry billows and raging winds, "Peace, be
still." Was it altogether for the sake of that terror-stricken crew,
or was it not also a sublime parable? For, evermore, it is the same.
The Man, present in the midst of the soul's tumult, bids in His own
time--the best time for the stricken--that the storms which overwhelm
it shall sink to rest.

Thus it was with L'Estrange. In the silence and solitude he was finding
the great Father, who, though we know it not, is never very far from
any one of us. "God is here" was the thought that swept over him
through the stillness of Nature, through the profound silence of the
night. He knelt before the window and stretched out his hands to the
midnight heavens. Who shall say what dreams, what possibilities, passed
in that moment through his soul? For with his errors and imperfections,
his falseness and his folly, this man was one of the mighty few, a son
of divine genius. Will they be judged by another code, I sometimes
wonder, than the common herd to whom their gigantic struggles, their
vast temptations, their agonies, their failures, must for ever be a
life unknown, a sealed-up book?--such a man as Shelley, peering in
his spirit's misery through the ages, then when nothing but the aching
void, the yawning nothing, answered his wild search, giving himself up
to the proclamation of a dark infidelity; or Byron, dying for a dream;
or Keats, breathing out his young life with the cry of a disappointed
soul? Will the misguided, distorted greatness find in the Hereafter a
better sphere? Have they, these mighty dead, even with the last breath
of a life tortured with earth's blackness, received as by inspiration
the fair beauty of undying truth into their souls? Who shall say? In
the presence of mysteries like these we can only bow our heads and pray
that so it may be.

To L'Estrange a moment of such inspiration had come. He had prayed
before. Often during these last days, when gradually the fetters of
self-love had been falling off from his soul, he had cried out in the
darkness to the Father of spirits. But _then_ He had been a grand
abstraction; _now_, for the first time, He was near and real.

First happiness, then vengeance, then atoning suffering and
self-abnegation, had been looked for as the life of his spirit's life.
In that hour of awful sweetness they all fell off from him. God looked
down into the man's heart; God was what, all unconsciously to itself,
that heart had been seeking, and there was a great calm.

Sweetly the daughter of his affections had sung to him that evening
about the Crucified; to the man of the world her hymn had been an idle
tale; now all was changed. In the great stillness of God's calm upon
his heart he was able to listen more truly.

Bowing his head, the stricken man wept as the Gospel-story in its
simple beauty surged in upon his heart. He had often reasoned about it.
Calmly and coolly he had torn to shreds the arguments which men weaker
but better than himself had brought to bear upon its truth. In this
transcendent moment reasoning was not--it could not be.

True, in the craving need of his own heart, in the sudden, awful
revelation of his spirit's darkness, _there_ he read its truth, and
like a little child he wept before its unspeakable beauty and pathos.

L'Estrange could never have told how long the time was that he passed
on his knees before the open window looking out upon the snow. It was
like a dream, but when he rose the white dawn was beginning to rise
over the mountains.

The spasms had left him; he scarcely dreaded them now, for the mental
struggles that had rent his very being had merged into a great calm.
But as he shut the window and tried to cross the room his knees
trembled and he staggered strangely.

Weakness as of a little child seemed to have come upon him, and
weariness too--a blessed weariness. He threw himself down upon the bed,
and for the time forgot all his woes in sleep.




CHAPTER XI.

_HAUNTING MEMORIES._

    I am digging my warm heart
    Till I find its coldest part;
    I am digging wide and low,
    Further than a spade can go,
    Till that, when the pit is deep
    And large enough, I there may heap
    All my present pain and past.


It was late on the following morning when L'Estrange awoke. He felt
strangely refreshed, and wondered for the first few moments what was
this change which had come upon him. Then the remembrance of that
night's conflict and conquest returned. The calm was still in his
heart, drowning in its depths all earthly yearnings.

But more urgently than before he felt the necessity for action. He rang
the bell, and his special attendant answered it. From him he learnt
that the child, fearful of disturbing him, had taken her morning run
with Gretchen while he slept, and that the two Englishmen had started
from the hotel with alpenstocks and knapsacks, stating that they would
probably not return that evening. From scraps of their conversation the
man had gathered that the elder of the two was desirous of showing
the younger his home among the mountains. It was therefore more than
probable that the chalet usually inhabited by Mr. Grey was their
destination.

Mr. Grey's servant, somewhat to his own displeasure, had been left
behind at the hotel.

To all this intelligence L'Estrange listened silently. He was
surprised, for he had not imagined Maurice Grey would have taken so
kindly to the young man who was interesting himself in his affairs;
he was disappointed, for on this very day he had determined to meet
Maurice, and now another necessary delay must intervene. But he did not
express any of his feelings to his attendant. He was accustomed to make
use of men, but to all whom he made thus useful himself, his motives
and his emotions were a sealed book.

He rose, dressed with the help of the complaisant waiter, and went into
the hotel-garden to wait for the return of his darling, and to try, by
diligent exercise and exposure to the keen bracing air, to regain some
of his old strength.

In the mean time, Maurice Grey and Arthur Forrest were finding their
way over the mountains to the chalet, which Arthur was curious to see.

They were drawn together by a kind of mutual attraction that neither of
them could explain to himself. Arthur was occasionally very indignant
with Maurice's cynicism; he was almost afraid of his superior knowledge
of the world; he shrank painfully from his ready sneer, and while he
was with him lived in a constant state of agitation in his fear of
letting out anything before the time, and thus widening the breach
between husband and wife; yet he liked Maurice Grey, he admired his
fine proportions, endowed him with all kinds of knowledge and wisdom,
and was impatient of the hours that divided them. Maurice, on the other
hand, was inclined to despise this boy's rawness and simplicity, and to
despise himself for in any sense making a confidant of him, and yet he
liked him; he enjoyed his society; the bright expressive eyes of the
young man had the power of drawing him out, of making him talk about
himself and the troubles of his life.

Perhaps the secret of this strange attraction on his side might have
been found in the young Arthur's sympathy and frank admiration, for
few men are above the pardonable weakness of liking to be admired and
sought out.

The paths that led to Maurice's dwelling-place were tolerably steep,
and in some places the snow was soft, in others the frost made the
paths slippery; therefore during their walk Maurice and Arthur were
too much engrossed with the one necessity of keeping their footing to
find much breath for conversation. But they were both good walkers
and strong, stalwart men; therefore, although they had started
comparatively late in the morning, the sun had not dropped behind the
mountains that shut in the valley before they were seated in Maurice's
little room, a jug of whisky punch between them, and on the table the
white bread and the meat with which Maurice had taken care to provide
himself before leaving the hotel that morning.

They found everything in first-rate order. On the previous day Marie
and her little grandchild had arrived. The stove had been kept alight
all night, according to Karl's strict orders, lest the books and
manuscripts should suffer from the damp, and the old woman had just
finished a general cleaning up when her master and his visitor arrived.

The dinner was certainly plain, but the two Englishmen did justice to
it--Arthur perhaps appreciating it all the more for the absence of any
suspicious-looking _entrées_.

"What do you think?" said Maurice when they both paused at last from
sheer exhaustion. "This is a very rough place; can you manage to put up
with it for a night or two? If so, I will undertake to show you some of
the finest points of view in the Alps, seeing which at this season, you
know, will render you for all the future a respectable traveller."

Arthur laughed: "Put up with it! I should just think so. I never saw
anything so delightfully primitive. I quite envy you your little
snuggery."

A sad smile played round Maurice's lips, it softened his face
marvellously: "I am scarcely a person to envy, and yet this had been my
dream for many a long day. I thought it would make me happy."

There was a bitter ring, a kind of irony of self, in the last words. He
looked out meditatively over the snow. "Men are strangely constituted,"
he continued sadly; "the dream and hope of to-day are the weariness
and disgust of to-morrow." He turned to his young companion: "People
will always insist upon buying their own experience at any cost, or
else I should prove to you, as a lesson that I have painfully gained,
how foolish it is to set one's heart too much on anything under the
sun. 'Light come, light go;' if we hold to our possessions lightly, the
loss of them grieves us little. I see in your eyes that my philosophy
is repugnant."

For Arthur read all Maurice's cynicism in the light of his history. His
face flushed. "Depth of feeling is never wasted," he said earnestly; "I
ought to know that."

Maurice had cleared away the remnants of their simple meal. They were
sitting, one on each side of the small stove, discussing some famous
cigars, a stock of which Arthur always had on hand.

His remark made Maurice turn round to him suddenly: "That's rather
a deep doctrine for one of your age; but it reminds me you were to
tell me something to prove that Solomon, who professed, by the bye,
to understand human nature, was altogether wrong in that impolite
statement of his about women. Stop, let me see! I drank rather too much
last night; still, I don't think I am wrong."

But Arthur turned away. His heart and courage had fallen suddenly.
It had been easy enough to think and plan, to imagine how with
heart-eloquence he would describe the woman he loved--how he could
tell of her quiet, self-denying life, of her constancy, of her undying
memory of the past--how, when his story had been triumphantly told, he
would give her name, and so dispel for ever the mist of falsehood which
had risen in dark clouds about her husband's idea of her. The moment
for all this had come, and he found that the heart-thrilling words
would not answer to his summons, that his feelings were too intense,
that the fear of failure paralyzed him.

"Not now, not here," he said to himself, and then he rose and looked
out of the window.

The sun was setting over the mountains, and on their summits a dark
cloud was resting, but above it and beyond in a vast circle of rays the
golden glory shone. It irradiated the pure snows till they blushed into
beauty, it lit up the heavens, it glistened from the torrents. The
whole landscape was transfigured--changed from the still fixity of the
snow-bound North into the voluptuous warmth of an Oriental dream; the
dark fir trees showed crimson stems; the reaches of billowy snow looked
warm and inviting under the golden radiance; the distant peaks glowed
and shone till to the excited fancy of the gazer they might have seemed
hewn out of fire. Arthur looked, and the narrow roof seemed to press
him down, the four walls of his friend's chalet were a prison.

"I cannot tell it here," he said to himself; "out there under the
witness of the sky, in the presence of the pure snow-peaks, it may
perhaps be easier."

Maurice was looking at him curiously. "I fear I have been showing
impertinent curiosity," he said lightly, "but you drew it on yourself.
Why did you interest me so strangely?"

"I spoke impulsively," replied Arthur in the same light manner, "and,
I think, rather underrated the difficulties of what I was attempting.
For this once you must excuse me. I have a certain disinclination, for
which I really am at a loss to account, to telling my story (a very
simple one, after all) in this place. If you can preserve your interest
till to-morrow, I will promise not to disappoint you. Take me to the
point you mentioned just now, and there I will tell you as well as I
can."

As he spoke the last words the young man's voice deepened, and
there was a certain solemnity in his manner which aroused Maurice's
curiosity; but he said nothing more on the subject, and the two men
smoked on in silence till the golden glory had passed from the earth,
and the snow lay pale once more under the gray mystery of a northern
night. Then Maurice looked at his young companion across the interval
of shadow, and saw, by the light which gleamed fitfully from the open
stove, that there was a deep thoughtfulness on his brow.

Perhaps it was this that drew him on to speak as he did. "You have only
begun life," he said, "I have lived out mine, at least all the good
that is in it, and yet, I scarcely know how it is, I have been drawn
on to speak to you as I seldom speak to either men or women. I don't
say I have no friends. I have made many, and good ones too, in the
course of my wanderings, and I have appreciated their friendship, but
to the best of them all my life has been a sealed-up book." He paused
a little, puffing away silently, and Arthur did not speak, only the
earnestness on his face deepened as he literally trembled with hope.

For Arthur's heart was as true as steel. He had thrown himself with a
self-denying ardor that nothing could curb into Margaret's cause. She
was still the queen of his heart, but since those first days, when her
regal beauty and apparent friendlessness had driven him nearly mad
with longing and desire, his queen had risen to a far loftier place in
his thoughts and dreams. There was something very beautiful and rare
in this unselfish devotion. Margaret _for himself_, even if he had
found that her husband was dead, Arthur never imagined for a moment;
in so far he had gained full victory over his own heart. Margaret
happy, Margaret raised to her true position, restored to her undoubted
rights, and by _his_ instrumentality,--this was the proud desire of his
soul. Therefore it was that he hung upon Maurice's words that evening,
rejoicing with trembling that so far he had been successful.

Young and inexperienced as he was, he saw the world-weary man trusted
him. This was something gained, a step in the right direction.

Arthur scanned his companion's face curiously during the silence that
followed his last words. It was a mobile face, though for years it had
been trained to express nothing but cynic indifference to life and its
concerns. On this special evening Maurice had given way, and emotions
for which few of his friends would have given him credit were writing
their impress on his brow.

He got up suddenly, and crossing to the window shut out the pale snow.
"It is desolate," he said in a low tone; "it makes one shiver." Then he
lighted a small reading-lamp, that cast a warm yellow light over the
room, and sat down again. "I saw a picture once," he continued in the
same low voice, "and the snow out there makes me think of it. It was an
English scene, a bit out of a village, the church lit up from inside,
a house near it, the pleasant firelight shining from within crimson
curtains; outside, snow and desolation. There was a solitary figure
amongst it all--a woman with thin tattered clothes and haggard face in
which could be seen the remnants of beauty. She was shivering alone in
the cold and darkness, looking piteously in at the light. Some moral
was tacked on to it, for, if I remember rightly, I came across this
long ago in a book or magazine. The whole runs strangely in my mind
to-night."

"And what was the moral?" asked Arthur.

"An unloved life or some such sentimental rubbish."

He tried to laugh off the impression, but Arthur, who was deeply
interested, said nothing to change the subject, and almost in spite of
himself, as it were, Maurice returned to it.

"Strange how this haunts me!" he muttered. "'An unloved life!'--poets'
trash. Women can always console themselves, and the misery of the fair
is given rather to reclining on velvet and down than shivering out in
the snow."

He laughed aloud, and raising his glass drained it at a draught; but
there came a sudden change over his face, his brows knit, his hands
worked convulsively. "If I had been mistaken--" he murmured, and
his head sank upon his breast. Then, as the futility of his vague
thoughts flashed over him, he raised it again. "There is no peace but
in forgetfulness," he cried, and pouring out a glass of raw spirit he
tossed it down his throat.

There followed a few moments of silence which Arthur feared to break,
then Maurice looked across at him with a sad smile. "Young man," he
said, "it is a good thing to be happy. Misery and remorse change a
man woefully. Ah, it is wonderful," he continued, and there was a
plaintive ring in his voice--"wonderful to think how entirely they can
change us--how we become morose, dark, fretful--how we look for the
old landmarks and find them gone, vanished like a dream--how we become
absolutely others than ourselves!"

Arthur's voice was husky as he questioned: "Remorse! what have you to
do with that?"

"I once thought nothing. Great God!"--he lifted his gleaming eyes; in
the agony of the moment he seemed to have forgotten his companion--"we
cannot all have patience like to Thine; and I _thought_ I acted for
the best. I took away my obnoxious presence, I left her to her chosen
pleasures, I fled from my own disgrace."

His head sank. Emotion, fatigue, strong drink had combined to unnerve
him utterly. "The face in the picture is hers," he continued in a low,
broken voice; "last night I saw her so--pale, wasted by misery, an
outcast--and I opened my arms to take her to a shelter, but she fled
from me with horror."

Arthur was listening with an interest so deep and earnest that for
a moment he forgot his self-imposed caution. He started forward
impulsively, and gazing into the bloodshot eyes of the man who faced
him, "It was a lying dream," he cried. "She--"

But he broke off suddenly, for Maurice looked at him in a strange,
questioning manner. He could have bitten off his tongue for its
betrayal. "I mean--I mean--" he explained falteringly, "it was a
strange dream."

His explanation could not mend matters; the mischief was done. Maurice
was sufficiently himself to be able to detect a certain reality in
those first hasty words. He looked at Arthur with suspicion. Could it
be possible that the young man knew something of his history? The bare
idea made him hastily resume his cloak of proud reserve.

He drew himself up, composed his face, and threw out his hands with a
yawn: "I really should crave your indulgence. Something has come over
me to-night. I feel as if I had been talking a considerable amount
of nonsense." He shook his fist at the whisky-bottle. "There's the
traitor. Then," bending his head courteously, "it is long since I
have enjoyed anything so pleasant as an evening gossip with a friend.
Really, the worst of this kind of life is the difficulty of passing
one's evening. Come! a recipe for killing the time: what do you advise?"

"I know no means but endurance," replied Arthur, trying to speak
lightly, though his heart was full, for the earnestness had left
Maurice's face, the smile of the cynic was playing round his lips.

Indignant and disappointed, Arthur turned away, in case his less
manageable features should betray him. The sphere of his experience was
narrow, and therefore it was that in this relapse to his indifferent
mood he failed to sympathize with Maurice.

It is only when the world has given thrust upon thrust to the heart,
it is only when the dreary cry, "Vanity of vanities!" has written
itself in all its desolation on the spirit, that these rapid changes
from grave to gay, from deep earnestness to bitter cynicism, can be
understood; for they are the product of the world's harsh lessons,
the carrying out into practice of a creed taught by repeated
disappointments. They speak of the soul's fear of revealing itself.
Its best and its highest it would cover over with the frost-work of
frivolity and cynicism, lest the pearls of its spiritual being should
be trampled under the feet of swine.

Too often, unhappily, the result is that the pearls are buried
irrecoverably and for ever, that the soul gains the indifference it
assumes--an undying heritage of bitterness.

Ah! it is sad, infinitely sad, to think of a soul torn, ruined, in its
struggles with wayward fate--too sad, if there were no beyond. But if
man be weak, God is merciful. It may be that for the disappointed there
is a haven, after all, in the great Hereafter to which all humanity is
hastening.




CHAPTER XII.

_TOLD AMONG THE SNOWS._

    Oh, she was fair: her nature once all spring
    And deadly beauty, like a maiden sword--
    Startlingly beautiful. I see her now!


That was the end of anything like confidential intercourse between
Maurice Grey and the young Arthur, so far as the evening passed in the
chalet was concerned. They were both tired, and Maurice had once more
allowed himself to take rather more strong drink than was good for him.

It was a new fault. Hitherto, in all his dark moods, through his dreary
solitude, and, to him, almost as dreary times of gayety, he had always
respected himself so far as to refrain from drowning his sorrows in
so contemptible a way. Now, it seemed as though a crisis in his fate
had come, as though he were destined to be swept away utterly in the
numbing torrent of misery and loneliness.

Arthur had to assist him to bed that evening, for he was almost
incapable of doing anything for himself. The young man recovered very
soon from the indignant displeasure into which Maurice's cynicism had
thrown him. He saw the weary man, overcome as much perhaps by emotion
and fatigue as by what he had taken, sink into a deep sleep, and a dim
idea of the truth dawned in upon his mind. It softened him so much
that he could scarcely keep from tears as he looked on the face of his
new friend, so fine in all its outlines, yet so evidently wasted by
care. And this was the long-sought, the earnestly-desired--Margaret's
husband, the arbiter of her destinies, the object of her changeless
love.

Arthur felt a new love stirring in his heart; he treated his companion
with a tender reverence.

He had some difficulty and met a few harsh words before he could
rouse Maurice so far as to half lead, half drag him, into his small
bedroom. When at last his efforts had been successful, when he saw
him resting in the death-like immobility of sleep upon the pillow, he
half trembled about the effect upon Maurice's morning mood of this
little night-episode. Would he be humiliated at the remembrance of the
weakness into which he had been betrayed, and shut up his heart still
more from his companion?

Arthur might have spared himself the trouble of forming any conjecture
on the subject. Maurice the next morning remembered very little of his
strange revelations, and nothing whatever of the torpor that succeeded.

"I must have been tolerably done up last night," he said lightly when
they met at the breakfast-table. "I don't really know how I got to bed.
I think I must have undressed in my sleep."

"You seemed half asleep," said Arthur cautiously. "When we separated I
was pretty far gone myself. I dare say this strong air has something to
do with it."

"It has the effect of champagne upon one's spirits--at least, so they
say. I feel anything but lively this morning. However, if you are
still in the same mind, we had better try what high latitudes can do
for us. Do you feel up to a good climb?"

"Thoroughly--in the very mood for exertion."

"Well, then, old fellow! set to work with a will, for if we intend to
sup on anything more inviting than black bread and sausages, we must
get back to the hotel this evening. That rascal Karl only half supplied
us with bread and meat."

"I could sup on anything after a walk like yesterday's to give me an
appetite. However, Master Karl evidently intended that we should return
to-day. What a joke he is! If eyes could kill, I should certainly have
been slain yesterday when I suggested that we could dispense with
attendance."

Maurice smiled: "Poor old Karl! Well, I believe he is one of the few a
man can trust. It is my chief reason for keeping him, for really, in
some ways, he's an immense bore. That big fellow is as frightened of
bogies as a baby. The dark weather we had sent him nearly out of his
wits. It was chiefly in consideration for his feelings that I put up at
the hotel the other day."

"Then I ought, certainly, to be very thankful to him," said Arthur
warmly; "he will think I have made him a poor return. I suppose we
may leave our knapsacks under the care of your old woman here?" he
continued. "It's all very well to talk of their convenience and that
kind of thing; I can only say that my shoulders ached considerably
yesterday; they've not recovered yet."

Maurice laughed: "You are a young traveller, my dear fellow; however,
I'll be merciful. Leave them here, by all means, and start this time
untrammelled. But come! Are you ready? Now, if you take my advice--and
I know something of the mountains--you should begin quietly. We can
quicken the pace when we get into the swing and get up the wind--two
very serious matters, I can assure you."

There had been sufficient thaw to make the roads practicable, at least
to men with strong boots and leathern gaiters. Many of the steeper
paths were nothing better than watercourses. But this was a matter of
minor import to the two men. It took Arthur some time, as his friend
had predicted, to get into the swing, and they plodded on for some
miles in silence, Arthur turning over and over in his head that tale,
so oft told in the silence of his heart, of his first love, which
had come upon him like a kind of magic, awakening him to a truer
comprehension of life, a fuller appreciation of beauty--the tale which
he must tell, before many minutes should pass over, to another--to
a man unsympathetic perhaps, and hard. Once or twice he ventured to
steal a glance at Maurice. His face was inscrutable. For the moment
he was really nothing more than the quiet English gentleman, patient
and enduring, as becomes one of his race--manly in his way of meeting
difficulties, determined when it is necessary to overcome them. In
walking, more especially in climbing, there is abundant room for the
display of character, and in Switzerland a young Englishman of breeding
and degree may be known at once by his bearing.

Their route was very lonely. It would have shocked an American
traveller, who does not care to pass over any but well-frequented
roads, where pedestrians, _chaises-à-porteur_ and heavily-laden
mules are to be met with in numbers. But with the early break-up of
the season these things had gone. Even the small sheds where light
refreshments are temptingly displayed in the summer months were
empty and deserted; the places of the men who for the small sum of
fifty centimes had been wont to awaken the echoes of the everlasting
hills, "knew them no more." Maurice and Arthur had the mountains to
themselves. They reached about midday the point of which Maurice had
spoken. He had not overpraised it. After a last little bit of climbing,
so steep that it had taken all their attention to keep a footing on the
slippery rock, they reached a kind of rocky plateau partly covered with
snow, partly patched with the emerald green which belongs peculiarly to
the Alps. Standing near a ragged pine tree, they looked up. The sky was
of a deep unruffled blue, and against it, clear as crystal, shone out
the dazzle of the snow-peaks; lower down, a glacier, rendered pure by
the late snow-falls, swept a radiant ice-river between gray, cloud-like
rocks, in whose crevices the rich soft moss had made a home; lower
still, tier above tier, rose the straight stems and green crowns of the
hardy pine; while far below, at an almost inconceivable depth, that
which could not be seen made itself felt--a torrent had been making
for its waters a way throughout the ages, and its roar and hiss rose
evermore into the daylight.

Arthur gazed silently for a few minutes, then turned to his friend
a pale and earnest face. "Beautiful!" he said in a low, impassioned
voice. He bent his young head. "It make me think of _her_."

Maurice smiled. He was pleased with the frank expression of enjoyment,
and in his answer there was an elder man's indulgence to the amiable
weakness of a younger: "Come! here's a forsaken shed looks as if it
had been left on purpose--faces the sunshine and sheltered from the
wind. We can sit down and rest if you like, take our brandy and water,
and eat the crusts we were provident enough to bring, for, by Jove! in
these regions, at least, a man can't live on air; then you must tell
me about this mysterious '_her_,' in whom I really begin to take an
alarming interest. Why, old fellow, what's come over you? Here, take
some brandy. You've been doing too much. One oughtn't to overdo this
kind of thing at first."

But Arthur put away the brandy-flask with an attempt at a smile. Not
fatigue, but a sudden emotion had overcome him. Margaret's fate seemed
in his hands. It was trembling in the balance, and he felt, for the
moment, powerless by excess of feeling.

"I will drink nothing, thank you," he said; and he sat down on a stone
bench in full view of the radiant snow-peaks. They were sheltered from
the bleak wind by one of the walls; the opening of the shed let in a
flood of sunlight. It might have been a summer's day.

Maurice spread his overcoat on the ground and stretched himself out
luxuriously, with his face toward Arthur. "After labor, rest," he said
lightly; "but come, I am impatient; let the mystic lady appear."

He laughed as he spoke, but there was no answering merriment in
Arthur's face. He looked away from Maurice toward the mountains. "I
wish to God she might!" he said earnestly. "If her sweet face were
here my poor words would be useless. It would tell its own tale of
long-suffering, of angelic patience, of truth, of purity. But--" he
felt, though he did not dare to look round, that the face of his
companion expressed calm philosophic wonder, that his lips were curled
into the faintest possible sneer--"I did not intend to rhapsodize. My
tale should speak for itself plain, unvarnished facts, which I defy the
falsest being that ever lived to gainsay."

He paused, and Maurice sighed. "The young man is evidently cracked
on this point," was the burden of his thought. "I am in for a good
half hour of ecstasies. Well, I brought it on myself. Patience is the
only remedy.--Permit me," he said aloud; "this promises to be rather
exciting--I must hear it through the medium of my usual sedative."
He lit a cigar, and the blue wreaths of smoke curled up into the
sunshine, while Arthur, his task rendered all the more difficult by
his companion's nonchalance, struggled to find the truant words in
which he had thought to clothe his subject. "It is not very long since
I first met her," he said quietly, "but it seems a lifetime, for the
meeting changed me. In the light of her history I read that life has
a certain reality; in the depths of her sad eyes I saw that endurance
and self-denial are beautiful and good. It must have been early in the
month of May--yes, I remember, the Exhibition of the Royal Academy had
not long been open--I strolled in one day to amuse myself and pass an
hour or two of the afternoon. My cousin and fiancée was to have met me
there. She did not appear, and I was considerably indignant, for at
that time I believed that all womankind owed me a debt of gratitude,
simply for being and giving them the light of my countenance. You see,
women had spoiled me from my babyhood upward. But enough about myself.

"As I was wandering about, discontented and cross, a picture took my
fancy. I sat down on the seat that faced it to examine it in detail.
There was only one other on the same bench (for it was tolerably late
and the rooms were thinning), a lady, but I paid little attention
to her, as her dress was shabby and she wore a close bonnet and
thick crape veil. It had been my habit to ogle only the well-dressed
ladies--others offended my fastidious taste; but when this stranger
fell back suddenly in a deep faint I did my duty as a gentleman (there
was no one else in the room at the moment)--I rose hastily to offer her
assistance.

"Then for the first time I saw her face, as the bonnet and veil had
fallen back. Such a face! I wish I could describe it---its purity of
outline, its exquisite marble-like coloring, its deep sadness. She had
a quantity of golden hair: as I tried to raise her it fell down in a
perfect shower over my arm. I was paralyzed--a sudden fever possessed
me. I could have carried off the mysterious lady there and then, and
hidden her away from every eye. But do what I would I could not restore
her to consciousness, and I began to tremble. I had a kind of objection
to calling in the assistance of any passing stranger. At the critical
moment, however, like the good genius in a fairy-tale, my kind little
cousin appeared, and in a very few moments took the matter out of my
hands altogether. She was as enthusiastic as I had been, and far more
successful. In a few moments we had the pleasure of seeing our fair
lady restored, and of taking her back to her home, which turned out to
be only a miserable lodging in the gloomiest part of London.

"If I had been in love with her in her fainting condition, I tell you
honestly that when I saw her eyes open, when I heard her voice--above
all, when I read that deep sadness in her face--I was ten times more
in love than before. But such was the influence of her gentle womanly
dignity I dared express nothing either by word or sign. She thanked us
with all the cordiality of a lady, but utterly and absolutely denied
herself to us for the future, and I could not think of disobeying. In
accepting our services she was like a queen dispensing her favors.
All I could hope was that kindly chance would favor me. For the
next few days I could think of nothing else: her face followed me
like a dream of beauty that haunts the soul. My one hope was in the
picture-galleries. As you may believe, I attended them daily, and some
days later I saw her again in the same place. This time she did not see
me. I watched her, myself unseen. Unhappily, a false counsellor was at
hand. He had traced the direction of my glance before I knew he was
near. I took his odious advice; I was weak enough to believe him. In
disobedience to her express commands I visited her at the address to
which we had taken her."

Maurice's cigar had died down; he was listening with apparent interest.
"And you received a rebuff for your pains," he said lightly.

Arthur flushed: "A rebuff! say rather a rebuke; and such a gentle,
womanly one that it cut me to the very soul. I felt that, _coûte que
coûte_, I must know more of her; but I could not do it in _that_ way,
you know. I was puzzled and baffled, doubtful how to act. Then came
in the gentle self-denial, the noble trustfulness of another woman
to my assistance. My cousin Adèle read my sadness, and was not long
in putting her finger on the cause. She helped me; she made herself
Margaret's friend--"

Arthur stopped suddenly. He had let out the name, which he had intended
to bring in at the end of his tale--a grand finale.

His sudden and evidently conscious pause gave the error significance.
In a moment Arthur saw what he had done. A tremor passed through
Maurice's frame. He turned round sharply and fixed the young man with
his stern eyes. "Why do you stop?" he said. "Go on, if your tale be
worth the telling."

And Arthur continued falteringly: "We were able to give her some
assistance--that is, my cousin did. In her lonely and unprotected
condition she had been tortured by the persecutions of the man who,
as I afterward found out, had wrought the wrong from the effects of
which she had been suffering during those long years. To live out her
solitary life in peace, she had hidden herself in an out-of-the-way
seaside village. Her visit to London had been made for the purpose
of gaining some employment, her income proving insufficient for the
education of her only child, a daughter, whom she had brought up in
strict seclusion."

Maurice's face was turned from Arthur, but as, almost insensibly to
himself, the young man's voice grew stern and deep, he saw that his
companion winced and cowered. It was almost as though he had received
some unlooked-for blow.

"In London," continued Arthur, "the ruffian came upon her traces.
Mrs. Grey feared and hated him--the very sight of him was odious to
her. It was only to save her name--her husband's name, as I afterward
learnt--from public notice that she refrained at this time from calling
in the strong arm of the law.

"To baffle him and preserve her privacy she took refuge in flight; my
cousin helped her, and from that day dated their warm friendship. She
returned then to her own home--the little village by the seaside. Adèle
knew her address. I was not taken into their confidence; I was suffered
to be useful, but I knew nothing, and yet even in that usefulness I
reckoned myself happy.

"After this weeks passed by of which I can scarcely give an
account--weeks during which my life might have been summed up in one
short sentence--I was in love. I felt it was hopeless. My cousin,
who knew more of Mrs. Grey's history than I did, let me feel this
whenever--and it was very often--she was the topic of conversation
between us. She herself had not given me the faintest encouragement,
yet I hoped against hope. I thought, I studied, I planned, I put off my
idleness. My dream was to gain fame and distinction by my own efforts.
It was all for her. Ah!"--once more the young man was warming to his
subject--"words fail when I try to express what her influence was.
I became a different man; the memory of her goodness and beauty, of
her life of self-denial, changed me utterly. But at last the craving
to see her face again, to know more certainly that my hope was vain,
became almost too great to be borne. You see, I was young, and had not
been accustomed to this kind of thing. It preyed upon my health and
spirits. Besides all this, certain disagreeable and--as I must always
maintain--utterly unfounded rumors with regard to Mrs. Grey were flying
about."

Again Maurice winced and shrank, but this time Arthur did not pause.

He went on rapidly: "These things maddened me: if she had been an angel
from heaven I could not have believed more steadfastly in her truth.
I longed to make myself her champion, to gain from herself the right
to protect her. Then once more my cousin helped me. She gave me the
address I wanted, she sent me to find our friend, she told me to offer
her my services.

"As you may imagine, it was not necessary to urge the matter. I found
my way to the seaside village. I entered the little cottage where her
quiet, lonely life had been lived out, and there I learned the secret
of her sadness. It had wrought upon her fearfully since we parted in
London. When first I saw her she was sitting in her garden; I was at
the window of her drawing-room. I thought that death was written on
her face, it was so worn and wasted, so utterly forlorn, but beautiful
still. Another trouble had come to overwhelm her: her little child,
a girl, in whom all the affection of her heart was centred, had been
stolen from her in some mysterious way."

In his earnestness Arthur's voice grew husky: "I forgot my own desires;
all I had come to say passed away from my mind; only I threw myself
heart and soul at her feet, imploring her to use me for her service,
and"--the boy's voice sank--"she trusted me; she told me something of
her history; she let me know that she had _one_ craving, one longing
desire."

He paused. Maurice had risen to a sitting position; his face was buried
in his hands, his great frame was convulsed. "It was--?" he asked,
fixing his eyes suddenly on his companion's face. "Speak, and at once."

Arthur rose and stood before him. "Maurice Grey," he said, "your wife
is pure as an angel, white as the snow up there. Her one thought
through these long years has been of you. The name she teaches her
child to lisp is yours. She loves you only; her heart is single. All
she asks is this--to speak to you face to face, to see you again before
she dies. This is the quest that brought me here, for I have hunted for
you through the length and breadth of Europe--sought you as a man seeks
his enemy. It was to tell you this, to bring you a message from your
wife."

He bowed his head: "God knows it has been done in singleness of heart.
All I wish or seek is her restoration to happiness. I have not said
half I intended. I greatly fear I am a poor pleader, but, Maurice Grey,
I call upon you to listen to me. Return to England, see your wife,
judge for yourself; you will find then that you have both been the
victims of some terrible mistake."

He ceased, but Maurice did not answer, and once more his face was
averted.

Arthur's heart sank. "It has been all in vain," he said to himself.
"Oh, how shall I tell Margaret?"

Mechanically the two rose, and Maurice preceded Arthur, without a
single word passing between them, until they stood where two roads met.
There Maurice stopped and turned to his companion. "You must pardon
me," he said, "if I say very little just now; I must be alone." He
put his hand to his head. "I must think. The hotel is over there; you
cannot possibly miss the road. I must return to the chalet." He seemed
to be passing through some severe mental struggle, for he paused, then
added, "In the mean time, for your kind intention to her and to me I
thank you."

He turned away, and in a few moments was lost to Arthur's following
gaze in the intricacies of the mountain-paths. Sadly, yet with a
certain rising of hope in his spirit, the young man went on to the
hotel.




PART V.

THE MYSTERY SOLVED--THE WORKERS REWARDED.

       *       *       *       *       *

CHAPTER I.

_WAITING._

    Look? I would rather look on thee one minute
    Than paradise for a whole day--such days
    As are in heaven.


Autumn had fallen upon the little village by the seaside where Margaret
was waiting and hoping and longing, with still no tidings, or but very
scant ones, of her lost. She and Adèle were left almost alone, for the
bleak winds and stormy seas had driven away the few visitors. It was
a very different scene from the one which Arthur had looked in upon
on that sunny August day not so many weeks before, for now the balmy
summer winds had given place to strong blustering gales; the trees,
almost bare, shivered in their nakedness; and instead of the soft,
continuous murmuring of rippling waters, there came ever and anon to
the ear the boom of waves breaking in upon the shore. It was a dreary
time. Chill mists and equinoctial gales divided the sea between them,
while the dank earth-smell of decaying leaves and dying blossoms made
the earth desolate.

The two women in the little cottage, knit together by so strange a
tie, fought vigorously against the influence of the season, but there
were times when it was too strong for them--times when Adèle would
read danger in the stormy seas and long passionately for Arthur's safe
return--times when Margaret would fear that her hope had been vain,
that never, in all the long life that lay before her, would she see
her husband again or know the mystery of his long forgetfulness.

Through it all Margaret and Adèle clung to one another; their mutual
friendship was a source of great comfort to both. Adèle was unlike
many others of her sex. The knowledge that Margaret was the woman
who had first called out her cousin's force of character, instead of
making her sick with jealousy, filled her soul with loving reverence
for her who had been the cause of this awakening. She never hid her
frank admiration, her untiring love and sympathy, from her companion;
and what wonder that Margaret returned her feelings, honored her as
she deserved, and reckoned her friendship the most precious thing her
years of suffering had brought her? They were different, these two who
had been thrown in so strange a manner upon one another's society--as
different in character as they were in appearance; and perhaps, strange
as it may seem, the younger of the two, who seemed little more than a
child with her flaxen hair and bright blue eyes and general fragility,
was stronger in some ways than the woman of queenly stature, of much
experience, of many woes.

In any case, since that evening when Arthur left them the relations
between them were partially reversed, for now it was Margaret who
leaned upon Adèle for support and comfort. When her courage was about
to fail utterly; when, weary and heart-sick, she was ready to arraign
God himself for cruelty and injustice; when the long days which would
have to pass before anything certain could be known seemed so hard to
live through that she would clench her hands and pace up and down,
seeking rest and finding none,--then the younger and more inexperienced
would bring her strength, would speak with a calm assurance she was
far from feeling, would use a gentle authority in enforcing rest that
Margaret found it difficult to resist.

"I wonder how it is, Adèle," she said one day when, after a paroxysm
of bitter weeping, the young girl had soothed her into something like
rest--"I wonder how it is that you have such power? A few moments ago
everything seemed hopeless. You tell me to hope, and my courage comes
back. What makes you so certain?"

"I scarcely know," replied the young girl; she was silent for a few
moments, then added in a low tone, "I believe in God."

Margaret put out her hand; it had grown thin and transparent during
these last days: "Darling, I know, but He allows wrong."

"Not for ever," replied Adèle firmly, taking the offered hand in her
warm grasp. "Margaret, be patient--your wrong will end--the truth will
be known."

"But if _he_ does not know it, what will be the use? And perhaps he is
dead. Ah, listen!" She raised her hands and pressed them against her
ears.

"Only the wind, dear; but why need you mind that? October is a
stormy month, and those we love are far inland. Come! I see I must
read Arthur's last letter to convince you that the meeting has not
taken place on the stormy seas, with only a plank between them and
destruction. Confess, now, something like this was working in your
brain."

"I _am_ very foolish--I know it."

Adèle stooped and kissed her friend: "You are weak, darling. Remember
how patient you were with me when my strength seemed as if it would not
come. Now it is my turn to keep your courage up; you are wasting away
to skin and bone with fretting, Margaret. Have faith!"

"In what, Adèle?"

"In yourself--in God--in the future," replied the young girl quietly.

She rose from her seat by Margaret's side and fetched her Bible. We
learn in very different ways. To this young girl, trained from her
babyhood to think of nothing better and higher than dress and gayety,
than self-pleasing in some form, religion had come of itself.

Adèle had always loved to think of the something that for ever lies
beyond this world and its fleeting joys; so it was not strange that
in her hour of perplexity she should turn instinctively to this for
comfort and help.

The afternoon of that chill October day waned, the last flickering rays
of light fled, while the young girl read softly of that beyond--the
city that hath no need of the sun, the fair land where night is not.

"Patience," she had said.

"I _will_ have patience," whispered Margaret, "even to the end," she
added faintly, "for the morning cometh." She paused for a few moments,
as if in enjoyment of new rest; but suddenly, as it were, the full
import of her thought broke over her: "Earth holds my treasures," she
cried passionately. "God forgive me! I _cannot_ wish to leave them yet.
Adèle, light the lamp and bring that green book from my table. An old
story is haunting me to-night. It has followed me in my strange life,
for sometimes it seems to me that I have loved the human too much. Will
you read it for me, dear?"

She repeated some of the lines in a low tone:

    "Then breaking into tears, 'Dear God,' she cried, 'and must we see
    All blissful things depart from us or e'er we go to Thee?
    Ay, sooth we feel too strong in weal to need Thee on that road,
    But woe being come, the soul is dumb that crieth not on God.'"

Adèle's eyes filled with tears: "Not to-night, dear, it sounds so
dreary."

"Yes, to-night. I feel as if the good and evil were struggling together
in my heart, and I have a certain craving to hear the old story, which
long ago, when I was an uncomprehending child, used to move me to tears:

    "'Onora! Onora! her mother is calling.'"

Adèle said no more. She began to read the "Lay of the Brown Rosary" in
a soft low voice, that trembled often from excess of feeling. It seemed
real and possible in the tremulous half light of the little room, the
sound of boisterous winds and breaking waves running through it like a
vivid illustration of its imagery; Margaret's fair face, in its pure
delicate outline, her pale patient hands folded calmly, giving a kind
of witness to its truth. She listened with apparent calm, but once or
twice her face flushed, and now and then the tears would roll one by
one down her pale cheeks.

Adèle read well. She knew how to put the true spirit of the scene
into the words that represented them. She came to the third part, the
spirits of good round the maiden's bed:

    "How hath she sinned?
    In bartering love,
              God's love, for man's,"

when she was suddenly interrupted.

Margaret had started up, her eyes and cheeks on flame, "There are steps
outside. Adèle! Adèle! go and see."

Adèle went to the window, while Margaret shaded the lamp. "A man
standing outside," she said, "hunting for the latch of the gate. Be
calm, dear; it's only the postman. He promised to come if there should
be any letter to-night. He's very good not to have forgotten. And such
a night, too! Poor old fellow! I must tell Martha to give him supper."

"But the letter! the letter!" said Margaret, sinking back upon her
pillow. The flush of excitement had died out from her cheeks, leaving
them deadly pale.

Adèle forgot the letter and the postman. She rushed to her friend's
side.

"I thought _he_ had come back," said Margaret faintly. "Don't look so
frightened, dear; this is nothing," but she moaned as if in pain, "O
God! if this is to last much longer I _cannot, cannot_ bear it!"

Adèle stooped to raise her friend, and her warm clasping arms spoke
boundless love and sympathy: "Be of good courage, Margaret; perhaps
this is to say that they are near."

But the young girl's heart sank. What if, after all, their sacrifices
and suffering should be in vain? for Margaret was visibly sinking.

It sometimes happens so. The brave heart that has borne unflinchingly
a weary weight of woe fails suddenly when hope--but hope that must be
waited for--succeeds. And Margaret had been tried almost past endurance
by her life of solitude. A glass of water revived her for the moment.
She did not faint, and in the interval Martha brought up three letters.
Two were from Arthur, the other from Mr. Robinson, who was still
acting, or professing to act, as Margaret's legal adviser.

This was set aside for after-perusal. They did not reckon very much
upon his zeal and earnestness. But Margaret's letter from Arthur was
eagerly seized, almost too eagerly, for when she had opened it the
words swam before her eyes; she found it impossible to decipher it.

"Read it, Adèle," she said; "my eyes are dim this evening."

It was the letter that had been written in Moscow--the letter that had
begun so joyfully, that had ended in a cloud. Arthur had not let them
know in his letter the reason for the sudden discouragement, but the
two women read it and their hearts sank.

They had received one letter before this. It had told of the meeting
with Laura in Paris. In it, too, Arthur had announced, with all the
sanguine assurance of youth, that the next letter, to be written in
Moscow, would certainly bring positive news. He could see no reason
for doubting this. The second letter had met with certain delays _en
route_, and the very length of the interval had in her most courageous
moods filled Margaret with hope.

When, therefore, the long looked-for letter came, and heralded nothing
but another endless journey, another weary search, her heart sank, her
courage failed suddenly.

She turned her face to the wall and wept. "I shall never live to see
it," she moaned.

Adèle was bewildered; she scarcely knew how to comfort her friend, for
her own heart was sad. This unfolding of another weary age of suspense
and delay had disappointed her bitterly. In her despair she turned to
the lawyer's letter. It might possibly promise hope from another source.

She read it hastily, then, stooping over her friend, "Listen, Margaret
dear; you must be brave and not give way. Mr. Robinson is to be here
to-morrow; perhaps he may bring news about Laura."

But the mother shook her head: "No, no; my little one is lost--lost!
Child, I tell you, God is punishing me. I have sinned."

"Margaret, be calm. How have you sinned?"

But the young girl trembled as she spoke, there was so intense a
sadness in Margaret's face.

She raised her head from the pillow, and throwing back the long waves
of yellow hair from her face and eyes looked wildly at her companion.
And then she laughed--a low hollow laugh that made Adèle shiver.

"In bartering love, God's love, for man's!" she cried, and leaped from
the bed, for the madness of fever was on her. "And what is worse,
I do it still," she cried. "Yes, I would barter my soul--my soul,
do you hear?--only to see him once"--from a shriek her voice sank
into plaintive wailing--"to feel his hand upon my hair as in the old
days--to hear him call me love, wife. Oh, Maurice, Maurice!"

Adèle was frightened, but she would not call for assistance. Her tears
falling fast, she threw her arms round her friend and tried by gentle
force to make her lie down again.

But at first Margaret resisted. "Let me alone," she cried; "none of
them understand, for men cannot love like women. I must go myself and
tell him or he will never know. _He_ might have done wrong--_I_ should
have loved him still. Dear, I could never have left _you_ for these
long years without a word, a sign; and what had I done?" Her voice
sank, she fell back on the bed. "It was God's will. I loved him more
than Heaven--more than goodness."

The paroxysm had exhausted her. Adèle covered her feet with a shawl.
Margaret closed her eyes and fell into a troubled sleep, which lasted
about half an hour. When she awoke the room was in darkness, only the
white moonlight streamed in under the raised blind, and there was the
sound of bitter weeping by her bed. She put out her hand: "Adèle, are
you there? What is it, dear?"

"I thought you were fast asleep;" and the young girl choked back her
sobs courageously.

"But what has happened, Adèle? what makes you cry like this?"

"Don't ask me, please, but try to sleep again."

"Child, you must think me very selfish. Was it on my account you were
crying? I think I must have said some strange things before I went to
sleep, but I forget what they were--indeed, I sometimes fear my brain
is giving way. But, Adèle dear, I can't allow you to grieve for me in
this way. Perhaps it was something else. Tell me. Come, I intend to
know."

She drew one of Adèle's cold little hands from her face and held it
lovingly, then the young girl told out her trouble in a few simple
words.

Her religion was the growth of her loving heart; she had no particular
doctrines, for so-called theology always seemed to her too hard to be
understood, but she believed, in the full simplicity and truth of her
young soul, what many religionists by their harsh doctrine practically
deny--that God, the Father of spirits, is a merciful God, "tender,
compassionate, boundless in loving-kindness and truth." She wept that
night because the friend whom she loved so deeply would not take to her
soul the comfort of the truth that God loved her.

It had come over Adèle's sympathetic heart that evening like a kind
of agony that the loving God is for ever, through the long ages,
misunderstood and denied--that while He is calling in His tenderest
tones to the stricken, they will look to any comfort rather than His
for help in their trouble. "God is angry with them--God is punishing
them," when in reality "God is with them--God is loving them." She told
it all to Margaret in a voice often broken with tears, and her earnest
conviction gave a certain reality to her words.

Margaret's sore heart was soothed. "It may be," she said. "God grant
it! Dear, I was beginning to feel Him near, but now the earthly things,
the longings of youth, have come back with this delayed hope. They
stand between my soul and God; I must long for them more than I long
for Him."

"And who told you He would be angry, Margaret? Could He wish you to do
what is contrary to nature? He gave you these earthly desires, this
longing, this love. I sometimes think"--the young girl's voice sank,
she bowed her head reverently--"that Christ became a man for this,
not only that _He_ might understand us, but that we might know He
understands. It is such a good thing; it helps us to bear."

Margaret smiled: "I think it will come. I am better already; but, dear,
where did you learn all this wisdom?"

There was a knock at the door which prevented an answer. The landlady's
little nephew was standing in the passage, a few choice flowers in his
small hands. He wanted to say good-night to Mrs. Grey, and his auntie
had sent her some flowers.

It was the best possible diversion. The child's blue eyes smiled up
into those of the weary woman, and they brought her pleasant memories.
She took the child up on the bed kissed him tenderly and listened to
his infant prattle.

Then when the landlady appeared, quiet and respectful, but allowing
her honest sympathy to be seen, to ask whether the little boy were
troublesome and to say that it was his bed-time, Margaret turned to her
comforter with something like hope in her face. "Child," she said, "you
are right; God is merciful. I will trust Him."

They slept together that night, for Margaret's nerves were unstrung,
she could not bear to be left alone; but both of them slept calmly, and
a peace, verily Heaven-born, brooded over the small company of women in
their temporary home within the circle of the sea-sounds.




CHAPTER II.

_THE LAWYER GAINS HIS POINT._

    With lips depressed as he were meek,
      Himself unto himself he sold:
    Upon himself himself did feed--
      Quiet, dispassionate and cold.


Mr. Robinson in the mean time had not been idle. He could certainly
never have presented so unsullied a front before the world if he had
ever been idle where his own interests were concerned. During those
weeks, while L'Estrange and Margaret's child had been wandering--while
Arthur had been throwing himself into the task of unravelling the
mystery that surrounded Maurice Grey and his desertion--while Margaret,
sick at heart, had been waiting and watching--he had been putting all
his energy into the task of winding up her affairs in such a way as to
make it appear that in their management he had been guilty of nothing
but a little pardonable imprudence. He had been obliged to sacrifice
some of his own interests in the process, but this was a matter of very
small moment.

Mr. Robinson was careful, even as regarded trivial sums, but he was too
clever a man of the world not to know the impolicy of the "penny-wise,
pound-foolish system." A small sacrifice that would have the effect of
impressing the world with his upright character would, he knew, bring
in returns fully commensurate to the outlay. He did not, therefore,
hesitate to pay up, out of his own pocket, as he magnanimously put
it to some highly-impressionable lady clients, that amount of Mrs.
Grey's capital which had been lent on insufficient security to the
bankrupt trader; but (and this he did not tell the ladies) for the
whole transaction he made both sides pay heavily. The man of business
was kept under the lawyer's thumb for further use, and Mrs. Grey, out
of the capital sum, had to pay not only the expenses, which were heavy,
but also certain sundries, including various advances of twenty pounds
at a time for maintenance, setting on foot of a search for Mr. Grey and
his daughter, letters innumerable, railway journeys and interviews.
Mrs. Grey had even the pleasure of defraying the expenses of a trip
to Paris taken by her lawyer at the moderate charge of five guineas a
day, for the purpose of personally investigating the city with a view
to the recovery of Mrs. Grey's daughter. That she had not been met
with, either in the Bois de Boulogne or on the Boulevards, was not Mr.
Robinson's fault. He carefully frequented both. "Honesty is the best
policy." One of the ladies to whom Mr. Robinson mentioned this matter
quite incidentally (it illustrated aptly some of her own affairs) put
his name down instantly in her will for one thousand pounds; another
reported the story to a lately-widowed friend, who at once appointed
this upright man her solicitor and confidential adviser. Mr. Robinson
held his head higher, and at the next cottage-meeting he attended gave
out for the text, "Godliness hath the promise of this life and of that
which is to come"--a fact, he proceeded to say, which was strangely
borne out by his own late experiences. But this was incidental, a
providential side-wind. The real object of his attention at this time
was to get rid altogether of Mrs. Grey's affairs, which, as she had
the power in her hands of appointing another trustee, he knew it was
possible to do. He was anxious, therefore, to press the matter forward,
that he might gain her signature acknowledging full satisfaction with
his proceedings before any sharper eyes than hers could look into the
business and so a contrary advice be given.

It was to accomplish this purpose that Mr. Robinson had planned an
interview for the day succeeding that on which Arthur's letter had
been received. That morning Margaret was better. The first paroxysm
of disappointment had passed. Adèle's words of gentle wisdom had made
her almost ashamed of her own impatience. Better than all, perhaps, it
was a fine, clear October day. The sun was shining; the bare trees,
waving gracefully in the breeze, wrote their delicate tracery against
the clear blue sky, the sea had fallen to partial rest. Margaret's
excitement had exhausted her. She slept late. When she awoke the sun
was high in the heavens. Adèle had long left her side, but before she
could look round inquiringly the young girl had opened the door gently
and was creeping in to see if her friend were awake.

"Come in, Adèle," said Margaret. "Why, it must be late. How is it that
you allowed me to sleep so long?"

"I knew it would do you good, and I was right; you look better already.
Now, what do you intend to do? Mr. Robinson, you know, is to be here.
Do you feel able to see him, or shall I do it for you?"

"No, no, Adèle. You are spoiling me. I must exert myself."

But in spite of her brave words Margaret felt very weak. It was only
with old Martha's assistance that she could manage to make herself at
all presentable.

The old woman shook her head once or twice as the task of dressing
proceeded. "It was pitiable," as she afterward remarked to Jane, "to
see a body fallen away like that. Bless the poor soul!" she continued,
wiping her eyes, "if they don't find and bring back her folks pretty
soon, it's precious little of her'll be left, what with fretting and
one thing and another."

In these days Margaret would always be dressed with care. She had
a kind of feeling that her husband might return suddenly, and she
wished him to see her at her best. She had left off the black which
she had worn during her widowhood, and had returned to the pretty
morning-dresses, the soft flowing draperies that in the old days
Maurice had loved.

On this morning Adèle thought she had never seen her friend look so
fair. Her dress was of gray cashmere. It fitted closely to her slight
form and flowed round her in ample folds. Her hair, gathered up at the
back into thick coils, rippled off in waves of shimmering gold from
her brow, so that the pure outlines of her face were clearly marked.
It was held back by a broad band of blue ribbon, over which fell
lappets of choice lace. Her face seemed perfectly transparent, it was
so delicately fair; and the absence of color, the brightness fever had
given to her eyes, the general fragility of her appearance, made her
look many years younger than she really was.

When the tedious business of dressing was over she went into the little
sitting-room, and standing with her hands resting on the back of a
chair for support, looked earnestly into the mirror that hung over the
fireplace.

"Adèle," she said, "I am changed. There are lines in my face, there are
dark shadows under my eyes. I am a poor, pale, colorless thing. If he
were to come back now, what would he say?"

"That you are more beautiful than ever," replied the young girl
impulsively, looking at her friend with the enthusiastic admiration
that belonged to her susceptible nature and her eighteen years.
"Margaret, how can you say such things?"

But Margaret did not answer. She still looked meditatively at the
mirror: "_If_ he cannot love me, _if_ he have not loved me for these
long years, I would almost rather he did not come at all. It would be
dreadful to meet his indifference. Adèle, duty might bring him."

"And if it did, Margaret, something else would keep him."

"But it is such a long time! He may have forgotten. He may have--"
"formed other ties," she was about to add, but she checked herself
suddenly. "I am talking nonsense," she said hastily, "I must find
something to do."

She got her work. It was a child's frock, of the same delicate material
and color as that she wore.

"Maurice's favorite color," she said. "I want to have it ready for
Laura when she comes back. It will go well with her golden curls, and
she wants something new. Dear little one! I wonder has she forgotten
me? I scarcely think so."

Adèle walked to the window to hide her tears. In the vague uncertainty,
in the view of possible disappointment, there was something more
pathetic in this mood of Margaret's than in that of the preceding
night. She was just in time to meet Mr. Robinson's cold eyes. He
had found the garden-gate open, and was walking up the narrow
grass-bordered path.

One of the windows of the parlor where they were sitting opened on to
the garden; the lawyer bowed politely when he saw the young lady, and
with his usual obtuseness cut short the ceremony of ringing and gaining
admittance in the usual way, by crossing the greensward and tapping in
his peculiarly lively manner at the window.

Adèle turned round suddenly to prepare her friend for this summary
entrance and to recover her own inclination for tears. Margaret's
face reassured her. For the first time since Arthur had gone and the
fever of hope-deferred had taken possession of her, Margaret looked
really happy; her fingers, almost transparent, were flying backward and
forward with the busy needle; she was looking down upon her work, which
began to assume the appearance of a child's frock, with a smile. In her
whole attitude there was rest.

The woman's work had taken its effect upon her mind. To be working for
her lost darling made her recovery and return seem real and near to
her. It brought back the quiet days when the child had been her one
comfort and joy.

"Mr. Robinson is here," said Adèle, crossing the room. Margaret looked
up, and met a frank smile from the outside of the still closed window.
She rose, threw up the sash, and the lawyer entered, hat in hand.

"Good-morning, ladies," he said cordially. "I was beginning to fear,
from the stern appearance of our young friend here, that I was to be
left out in the cold. Ha! ha! not a pleasant position on a frosty
day. Mrs. Grey, you look thin; not fretting, I hope, though indeed I
can scarcely wonder. The absurd way in which your affairs are being
conducted is really enough to worry you."

At this point Adèle looked indignant and Margaret tried to protest.
But the lawyer waved his hand: "One moment, Mrs. Grey; I wish to make
no reflections. As I stated before, in my interview with Mr. Forrest
(he took up no less than two hours of my time on a very busy day; this
is the sole grudge I bear him);" the lawyer showed his teeth--"as I
stated before, Mrs. Grey, I wash my hands altogether of this part of
the business. I did my best; my poor services were rejected wholesale,
I may say. As a Christian I forgive; yes indeed, what I have come to
tell you of my after-conduct will prove that I bear no malice. But it
hit me hard--hit me hard."

He touched the region of the body where the centre of feeling is always
supposed to reside, and looked sentimental.

"Pray sit down, Mr. Robinson. I am sorry your feelings were hurt in
any way," said Margaret with gentle dignity; "and I know quite well
that my kind friend, Mr. Forrest, is apt to be a little impulsive. Let
me assure you that I am not ungrateful for the various services you
have rendered me." Poor Margaret! she was thinking, with a kind of
compunction, about that interview in London and the sundry advances for
maintenance which had been a great boon to her at the time. "His heart
is kind," she said to herself; "we may have judged him harshly." Then
to him: "I must honestly confess that I was inclined to blame you for
lukewarmness in the last matter I confided to you: I mean the search
for my husband and child."

"Lukewarmness, Mrs. Grey!" Mr. Robinson lifted his hands in a kind
of holy horror; and surely it was a superabundance of honesty that
shone out from his eyes. "You really astonish me. In fact I am at a
loss to understand you at all. Let me pass the facts of the case in
review"--his voice grew stern--"perhaps then the blame will rest upon
the right shoulders. If I remember rightly--Be so good as to correct
any misstatements; I like to be accurate, but naturally my mind is so
full of other matters. Well, as I was saying, you consulted me--in this
very room, I think. I promised to do my best, letting you know results.
Thereupon you placed in my care certain trinkets. I took them simply
because I thought them safer in my strong box than here with you in
this lonely place. As to making any use of them, why, Mrs. Grey, facts
prove the contrary. Mr. Forrest had only to demand them on your part.
Without hesitation I restored them intact. To proceed: as soon as I
return (remember, I have not the faintest clue), I consult a detective,
put him, as far as possible, on the track, and, further, demand
an interview with Mr. Grey's solicitor--perfectly unsatisfactory,
professes to know nothing. I take various other measures--needless
to enter into detail. The principles of what one may call the
private-inquiry business are not easy to explain, especially to ladies.
I think I obtain a clue, but is it for me to torture you with half
revelations? I wait for a little more certainty, and in the interval
in dashes Mr. Forrest, states that you have given over these matters
into his hands, that your confidence is shaken, that affairs would be
strictly looked into."

Here Mr. Robinson made a dramatic pause and looked sternly at his
repentant client. "Mrs. Grey," he continued, "do you know what was my
impulse at that moment? Your affairs, as you are well aware, are--or
I should say _were_--in a complicated condition. I felt inclined
to take no more trouble, to let your new friends have the burden
and responsibility; but"--he lifted his eyes sanctimoniously to the
ceiling--"I do nothing upon impulse. Further consideration showed
me that to act in so hasty a manner would be unworthy of myself,
inconsistent with my character as a Christian man. I _wish_ to 'adorn
my profession in all things.' Whether in this I am successful or no is
not for me to say."

Through all her penitence Margaret was growing impatient of this long
harangue, and Adèle's face showed that she, at least, would not hear it
much longer.

Mrs. Grey broke the little interlude short: "And pray, Mr. Robinson,
what did you do?"

"Set to work immediately to disentangle your affairs. But, mind you,
a man may go to a _certain_ length; self-respect forbids him to go
further. What I said to myself was this: I am distrusted, I must resign
my position."

Margaret was about to interrupt him.

"Allow me. Before you answer, I must give my reasons, both from my side
of the question and from yours, for the advisability of the step which
I may say is irrevocably determined in my own mind. We shall take
the reasons from your point of view first. Mr. Forrest has your full
confidence. You acknowledge so far as this?" Margaret bowed. "You took
measures with him totally unknown to me--a breach of confidence--but
this I should have been content to waive. Ladies are naturally
impulsive. To proceed with our reasons. Mr. Forrest distrusts and
dislikes me--impossible to say why. He is a worldling. It may be that a
few words of warning and exhortation which I felt it my bounden duty to
give him on the occasion of our last meeting have something to do with
it. It is a matter of small import, except in so far as it concerns
you. Mr. Forrest has inspired you with distrust; he will do so further;
possibly your husband also, for I hear he has succeeded in finding out
something through Mr. Edwards. But of this you doubtless know more
than I. Under such circumstances it will be far wiser for you to allow
me at once to give up the management of your affairs. My reasons for
desiring it are many of them personal. I will not enter into them, as
I fear I have tired you already. If you like I can proceed to open out
my accounts and give a rapid sketch of my proceedings, that you may
sign this document with your eyes open. Your friend looks dissatisfied;
I know ladies often object to signing. Let me reassure her: this is
nothing but a deed of release, to pave the way for transfer papers
which are now being prepared."

"You are quite right to withdraw, Mr. Robinson," replied Margaret
with dignity, "if you feel as you do, but in the mean time, until my
husband's return--"

The lawyer looked at her curiously. Then he was only just in time.
Certain news had arrived.

Margaret's face expressed nothing. "--Who," she continued, "will manage
my affairs?"

"It is on this very matter that I desired to consult you."

"Would it not be better to wait?"

"For the actual conclusion of the business?--yes, if you see fit. We
could even have the papers ready, leaving the names a blank, until such
time as you can consult your friends. Still, I must beg you to conclude
the business that has brought me here to-day. I am anxious, without
delay, to pay into your account at the bank the sum which has been
matter of question between us--deducting from it, of course, as was
previously arranged, the few trivial sums forwarded, the expenses of
search and the inevitable legal charges. Of these I have brought you a
full account, and shall be much obliged by your looking over it."

Margaret sighed: "I make no doubt it is all as it should be, Mr.
Robinson."

She opened it listlessly, and the long rows of figures swam before her
eyes.

"I should not have ventured to bring it had it not been so, Mrs.
Grey. Still, it would be satisfactory. You will observe that I have
myself paid up the sum so unfortunately invested. It may be I shall
be reimbursed out of the debtor's property--it may be not; this I am
content to leave. You will also observe that out of the capital sum I
have deducted the total of this account. All is clearly stated in this
document, which I am anxious for you to sign."

Adèle, while the lawyer was stating his views, had been listening and
observing. At the moment when he brought his last harangue to a climax,
Margaret was sitting at her writing-table. The account lay open at her
side. The deed of release, fairly copied on parchment, was under her
hand. She felt too utterly indifferent to all these business-matters to
be able to question anything that was told her. All she desired was the
cessation of this wearisome importunity. She dipped her pen in the ink.
Adèle saw how it was with her. Her younger, stronger spirit recoiled
from the oppression. She leaned forward suddenly and drew the pen from
her friend's hand:

"Margaret, take my advice--sign nothing."

Margaret smiled, and then she sighed wearily. In this matter she would
have preferred taking her own way, but she gave in.

"Impulsive child!" she said, a slight tone of irritation in her voice;
then, turning to the lawyer, "Perhaps, Mr. Robinson, even for form's
sake it will be wiser for me to try and make out what all this means.
But for the moment I feel slightly bewildered. You must allow me to
think over it. You are staying at the hotel, I suppose? If you will
give us the pleasure of your company to lunch we can further discuss
this in the afternoon."

The lawyer rose. Margaret's invitation was a dismissal. He was obliged
to submit to the delay, although it was a matter of great importance
to him that the business which had brought him to Middlethorpe should
be settled at once; but Adèle's sharp eyes, rendered far-seeing by
love and anxiety, were watching him narrowly, and he would show no
sign of anxiety. "Take your own time, my dear Mrs. Grey," he replied
benignantly. "You must have seen and understood all along that my
special object in my business dealings with ladies is to persuade them
to do everything intelligently--comprehending, that is to say, the
why and the wherefore of the step they are advised to take. I find
some _too_ ready. They throw themselves entirely on their lawyer's
superior knowledge, increasing, of course, our responsibility, and this
I deprecate. Others"--he looked across at Margaret with his charming
smile--"are inclined to be too timorous. They take fright at the sight
of parchment, and when asked to sign imagine they are being defrauded
of some right. Your position, Mrs. Grey, is the wisest--indeed I
may say the most satisfactory to one's self, for when, by repeated
explanations, I have made all this perfectly clear to your mind, my
position will be the more tenable. Then if in the future subject of
discussion should arise--which, understand me, I do not apprehend--I
shall be able to call upon you and our young friend here as witnesses
to the truth of what I assert--namely, that you did everything with
your eyes open."

The lawyer bowed himself out of the room. This time he had struck the
right chord. To Margaret, in her state of bewilderment, the "repeated
explanations" sounded like a kind of threat. Her thoughts and hopes
were all engrossed, given to the one absorbing subject, and this forced
attention to foreign matters was very irksome.

"If Maurice come back," she said to herself, "he will manage everything
for me. If not"--and at the bare supposition all her life and energy
seemed to pass, leaving her cold and spiritless--"if not, what does
anything matter?"

She turned to the table. Mr. Robinson, it should be observed, had
pocketed the papers. He had not thought it well, probably, that the
ladies should examine them without the commentary of his instructive
explanations. Mr. Robinson professed to think little of the female
intellect, probably because, as a general rule, he found ladies
gullible.

Not finding the papers, Margaret arose and walked to the window.

"Adèle, my dear," she said after a few moments' pause, "I _must_ sign
this." In her voice were the querulous tones of weakness. "That man's
explanations will send me wild. Can you give me any solid reason for
objecting?"

"Only, that he has no right, in the present state of affairs, to ask
you to sign anything. It all sounds plausible enough, but _I_ think
that if the man were really honest he would wait for this 'winding up,'
as he calls it, until your husband's return."

"You see he wishes to pay over this sum, whatever it may be, at once,"
returned Margaret. She was inclined to take the lawyer's part. "I
really think the man is honest, and certainly until just lately he has
been a very kind friend to me--a friend in need."

"But why does he come in this sneaking way," persisted the young girl,
"to make you write that you are satisfied with him? I may be wrong,
but it seems to me that he only wants to stop your mouth and prevent
accounts from being looked into by your friends."

"My dear child, are you not a _little_ unjust? Confess, now, that
Arthur prejudiced you. Mr. Robinson's vulgarity is, I know, quite
enough to account for your cousin's dislike, and some of the things he
did had a bad appearance; still, that need not make us all put him down
as dishonest."

"But, Margaret, what can be his motive?"

"How can I tell?" Again Margaret's voice sounded querulous. She said
nothing more for some time, and Adèle forbore to press the subject; she
feared that already she had gone too far. It was Margaret who opened
it again, for her mind had been working. "Allowing," she said, almost
apologetically, "that this signature is unnecessary, I think I may
as well oblige Mr. Robinson, if only in acknowledgment of his former
kindness."

"Kindness!" The young girl shrugged her shoulders ever so slightly,
but all further discussion was stopped by the return of Mr. Robinson
and the appearance of lunch. During the meal the lawyer made himself,
as he thought, perfectly charming, but after it was over he returned to
the attack.

Margaret, as it will be seen, was predisposed in favor of what he
desired; Adèle had done her best to prevent it, but in vain. The wily
man gained his point. Margaret signed the deed with full knowledge of
its contents. Mr. Robinson was protected, and his mind was once more at
rest.

It was thus with him always. His escapes were wonderful. As at this
point his connection with Margaret's history ended altogether,
for that cooked-up account and the transactions which led to its
concoction continued to be a sealed book, it may be as well, perhaps,
to let him once for all disappear from our pages. He is practicing
still, and it is more than probable that the Robinson name, on whose
lustre he prides himself, has never been dimmed by action of his,
although among solicitors of a higher class he has the name of being
a sharp practitioner. He may be known by his frank address, his manly
appearance, his deep and outspoken conviction of the necessity of not
living for this world alone. He has been an actor in the play so long
that at last he has almost come to believe he is what he makes so loud
a profession of being.

Let him go on his way rejoicing. If other and more really honest people
understood, as he does, the grand art of taking care of themselves,
there would be less misery in the world. It may be, however, that it
would be a doubtful advantage.

The poetry of chivalry and romance has died out in a great measure
from our "Merrie Land," but woe worth the day when selfishness becomes
the rule, and what Mr. Robinson would term "stupid Quixoterie" the
exception!




CHAPTER III.

_THREATENED SEPARATION._

    The rainbow dies in heaven, and not on earth;
    But love can never die: from world to world,
    Up the high wheel of heaven, it lives for aye.


Adèle was in despair. By that evening's post a letter had arrived from
her mother. Mrs. Churchill was on her way to Scarborough, and her niece
was travelling with her. They were sleeping at York that night. On the
following day they would call for Adèle at Middlethorpe, and take her
on with them. Again and again the date of her return to her mother's
care had been deferred, in obedience to her wishes repeatedly and
earnestly expressed.

Mrs. Churchill, always indulgent to what she looked upon as Adèle's
whims, had in consequence spent the month of September in Brighton, but
her forbearance would extend no further. It was high time, she thought,
that her daughter's absurd seclusion should come to an end. Her letter
was written in a very decided manner. She wished to leave no loophole
for excuse or further delay.

It seemed to Adèle that the announcement had come just at the wrong
time. In the long, heart-sickening anxiety of suspense, Margaret's
strength was failing, and the young girl knew she was her chief comfort
and help. She trembled to think how the much-tried endurance of her
friend might fail if she were thrown suddenly on her own resources.

And Margaret had been given into her care by Arthur. The patient
fulfilling of her task was a pledge of her love. It was not a hard
task, for Adèle's affection, which had partaken of the fervid nature
of passion in the admiration of her young heart for Margaret's beauty,
in the pity which had arisen on that first day of their meeting at the
sight of her distress, had taken perhaps a calmer tone during these
weeks of close intimacy, but withal a much deeper and firmer root.

Adèle loved her friend so truly that she would willingly have
sacrificed any happiness of her own for her good, and the idea of
leaving her, of returning to the old rounds of tedious gayety, of
knowing that in her absence the strong, brave heart was failing, the
weakened spirit was giving way, even when the end might be very near,
made her heart ache and throb.

She would not tell Margaret that night, for the business and discussion
of the day had wearied her, but there was an almost unusual tenderness
in her manner, which Margaret attributed to her fear of having unduly
urged the non-signature of Mr. Robinson's papers.

Old Martha was ready at her post to help Margaret to bed. Adèle sent
her away peremptorily. "No one shall touch you to-night but me," she
said, stooping over the arm-chair in which Margaret was sitting, and
loosening her hair with gentle fingers; then, as Margaret smilingly
protested, "Just for this once," she pleaded; and her friend did not
see, for the long, blinding tresses, that slow tears were falling one
by one from the young girl's eyes.

There was exceeding comfort in the passing to and fro of those busy
fingers, for their every touch spoke eloquently of love. This it was
that Margaret felt. Once she caught one of the busy hands and pressed
it to her lips.

"What should I do without you, Adèle?" she said softly. "Little one,
I begin to fear I am loving you too much. My loves are unfortunate.
It is the old story of the fair gazelle. Scold me well; I deserve it
for my sentimental folly; still, the feeling is here--I can't get rid
of it."

Adèle had to choke back her tears before she could answer. When she
did her voice was slightly husky: "I don't think loves can ever be
unfortunate--quite altogether, I mean--for you know to lose for a time
is not to lose for always, and where there is love, real true love,
there must be lasting." She paused for a moment, as if in earnest
struggle to express herself worthily, and then her voice grew more
earnest and her eyes seemed to deepen: "It is charity--love--that
abideth--the only earthly feeling we can never do without."

She had finished brushing and combing Margaret's long hair; she was
sitting on a stool at her feet gazing into the fire.

"Adèle," said Margaret, "you are wiser than I, or perhaps there's
something altogether wrong about me. I cannot take the comfort you do
out of these generalities. Child, child," her voice grew intensely
earnest, "it is not this beautiful something, this 'charity which
abideth,' that I want; it is my personal loves--my husband, my child."

The young girl looked up into her eyes; she answered with the calm
assurance of faith: "Margaret, be calm: you shall have them. But do you
know I never look upon all these things as generalities; if love is to
last, our personal loves are to last too." She sighed. "I know I express
myself badly. I wish I could make you understand what I mean."

"I think I _do_ understand," said Margaret thoughtfully. "Adèle," she
said after a pause, during which perhaps almost the very same thought
had been passing through their minds, "our love, yours and mine and
your cousin's, the strange tangle which your straightforwardness and
self-forgetfulness unravelled, is certainly of the lasting kind. The
future may throw us widely apart, but I think that neither here nor
hereafter can it ever be the same as if we had not loved."

This time Adèle did not answer, because she could not. The shadow
of that dreadful separation was on her spirit. After a few moments'
silence she said lightly that Margaret had talked quite enough--that
it was time for her to rest; which dictum Margaret obeyed with great
willingness.

The next day was that fixed upon by Mrs. Churchill for her visit.
Adèle could no longer delay letting Margaret know that a summons from
her mother had come; but the morning is generally more favorable to
hopefulness than the evening. Adèle had begun to think matters were not
so desperate as they looked. Possibly she might obtain further respite.
She took in the unwelcome letter with Margaret's breakfast-tray, which
had been delicately arranged by her own hands.

"Adèle, you must go," was Margaret's comment on the letter. And she
tried not to show how sorely she would miss her comforter.

Adèle was slightly wounded: "Do you really mean it, Margaret?"

"I do indeed, dear. Your mother is quite right; you have sacrificed
yourself too long."

"And _you_ can think I have been sacrificing myself!" said the young
girl. "But no, you only mean to tease me."

There was something of the disquieting jealousy of that feeling which
is always supposed to be more engrossing than mere friendship in her
further words: "Perhaps you would not even miss me, Margaret?"

But the tears Margaret could not restrain, the sudden weariness in her
pale face, spoke more eloquently than words. Adèle threw herself down
on her knees by her friend's side: "Forgive me, darling, but if you
only knew--"

"--All the tenderness of this warm young heart," and Margaret smiled
faintly, resting her hand, as if in silent blessing, on the bowed head.

"But look, dear," she continued after a pause, "your mother is coming,
and I am anxious to see her, so she must not find me in bed. Will _you_
help me to dress this morning?"

Adèle rose and brushed away her tears. "How stupid I am!" she cried,
"and really I didn't intend to be so silly to-day, for, Margaret, I
was just thinking--Mamma is so good and kind, she generally lets me do
as I like; then, you see, she has never met you. I mean to dress you
as you were dressed yesterday, and I want you to put forth all your
fascinations. The result will be that mamma won't have the heart to
carry me off."

"But, Adèle--"

"But, Margaret. Put yourself in my hands, madam. Remember I am
responsible for your safe-keeping to somebody--my somebody, not yours,
Margaret. By the bye, I will urge Arthur's wishes. Mamma never likes to
offend _him_."

And so Adèle rattled on to hide her true, deep feelings, while once
more she ministered tenderly to the friend she loved.

Mrs. Churchill, impatient as the time drew nearer to see her daughter
again, had left York by an early train, and Margaret and Adèle had
not been long seated over their work in the little parlor before a
travelling carriage, heavily laden with luggage, drove up to the door.
She had brought her carriage and horses so far by rail, her intention
being to post for the remainder of the way.

It was long since Margaret had met any stranger, and she felt a little
nervous when the rattle of wheels came to her ears; but as from her
station by the parlor-window she caught a sight of Mrs. Churchill's
pleasant, kindly face, some of her painful anticipations fled.

Adèle had run down the garden-path. She brought her mother in to
introduce her to her friend.

The good Mrs. Churchill had been rather curious to see Margaret.
Adèle's enthusiasm and Arthur's boyish admiration had made her look
for something remarkable, but she was scarcely prepared for the
refinement, the style, the exquisite grace of her daughter's friend.
It was a rare combination, even in those circles in which the rich and
highly-connected widow moved.

Mrs. Churchill knew enough of the world to be quite sure at once that
she was in the house of a lady--not only highly born and bred, but
accustomed to the usages of society. Her good sense and kindly feeling
led her to treat her hostess with all due deference.

"I have long wished to have the pleasure of making your acquaintance,
Mrs. Grey," she said when Margaret had persuaded her to divest
herself of bonnet and shawl, "I have heard so much about you from
these enthusiastic children of mine. I call them my children, because
Arthur has been almost like my own son, and I presume you are in the
confidence of this little girl, and that she has let out her secret."
Mrs. Churchill looked at Margaret rather curiously.

"Yes," replied Mrs. Grey quietly, drawing down Adèle, who had been
hovering about her nervously, to a seat by her side. "I heard long ago,
both from your daughter and nephew, of this engagement; and much as I
admire Mr. Forrest, I cannot but think, knowing your daughter as I do,
that he is a very fortunate man."

Adèle blushed: "Margaret, be quiet; you shouldn't say such things." But
her smile belied her words; it was so radiant that it transfigured her
face.

Her mother turned to her: "Adèle, my dear, do you know that you ought
to be very much obliged to Mrs. Grey for her long hospitality? Now I
look at you I am surprised; I never saw such a change. When you left
London you were colorless and sickly."

"Mamma, mamma!" protested Adèle, "how very uninteresting!"

But Mrs Churchill persisted: "Yes, my dear, I speak the bare truth; now
your animation has come back, you have gained flesh and color, you are
_absolutely_ a different being. Mrs. Grey, what have you been doing
with her?"

Margaret smiled: "I am so glad you think her looking well, and that
her visit here has done her good, for I was beginning to think myself
selfish for keeping her so long in this lonely place. I suppose the
fresh sea-air has worked the miracle."

"The cure is not quite accomplished, mamma," said Adèle coaxingly; but
Margaret interrupted her:

"We can talk about that presently, dear; just now your mother wants
rest and refreshment. Would you mind hurrying Jane on with lunch for
me?"

She turned to Mrs. Churchill: "Our establishment is small, and I have
been delicate lately, so your daughter kindly helps me in many little
ways."

"Small indeed!" thought Mrs. Churchill, but she would not have said so
for the world. She was far too much of the real lady to be able to take
upon herself any fine-lady airs of superiority, and then she began to
interest herself strangely in her daughter's friend. Mrs. Churchill
would have been very much displeased could she have heard herself
called impulsive; indeed, it was only in a certain way that she was so.
Her impulses were generally inspired by some tolerably solid reasons.
In this case her keen eye had instantly detected the lady, also the
absence of all those qualities which go to make up the _intriguante_.
This set her at ease at once, while the gentleness, the evident
weakness, the traces of profound suffering, moved her kind heart as it
had not been moved for long. She had not been in the cottage half an
hour before, with true motherliness of intent, she made up her mind to
take Mrs. Grey in hand.

"I am glad to hear Adèle has been of any service to you," was her
answer to Margaret, cordially spoken, and then she looked at Mrs.
Grey as she had looked at her daughter. "I am sorry to hear of this
delicacy, Mrs. Grey; you certainly look far from well, but I think so
lonely a place as this would kill me in a few months. Why not try
a change--a little gayety, for instance? Now, if you would allow me
to return your hospitality to my daughter by taking you with us to
Scarborough, I really think you would find the change would do you
good. Then a little cod-liver-oil, quinine and port-wine, steel--But
perhaps you are taking some of these?"

Margaret smiled: "Thank you very much for your kind interest in my
health. No, I take none of these things, and I scarcely think they
could do me good. As to a change, you are very good to propose it; I
fear at present I could enjoy nothing. I could not enter into general
society; I should only be a burden on your hands."

Mrs. Churchill looked across at Margaret's pale face and warmed into
sympathy and interest: "But this is a dreadful state of things, Mrs.
Grey. Nothing so insidious, I can assure you, as the creeping on of
general ill-health; you ought to do something. Have you consulted a
doctor?"

"A doctor could do me no good. My dear Mrs. Churchill, pray don't
distress yourself on my account; I think you know enough of my history
to understand me when I say that my illness is far more mental than
physical. These weeks, which are bringing me hope, have been almost
more trying to me than the years that went before."

"And how long is this state of thing to be supposed to last?" cried the
impulsive and warm-hearted lady. "Now, Mrs. Grey, _will_ you take my
advice? I am many years older than you--old enough, I imagine, to be
your mother. You look incredulous. Well, have it your own way. They say
I bear my years well, and I believe that in this case the _on dits_ are
more correct than usual. You will allow, at least, that I have larger
experience of the world than you. Shall I give you my secret--the true
elixir of life, my dear? Never allow yourself to feel too deeply.
Feelings have been the ruin of some of the finest constitutions."

"But what if they cannot be helped?" said Margaret, who was smiling
through a half inclination to tears.

"My dear (_child_ I was about to say, but I don't wish to offend you),
an effort should be made, for what does all the crying over spilt milk
mean?" This was a favorite theme with Mrs. Churchill. "Why, as I have
told Adèle a thousand times, to fret one's self into a premature death
because things don't go altogether as one could wish is clearly nothing
more nor less than flying in the face of Providence; for how did we get
our health and strength, and all the rest of it? and if we acknowledge
that these are gifts of Providence, ought we to trifle with them? Come
now, Mrs. Grey, what have you to say?" Her voice softened as she looked
at the pale face and fragile form. "You must excuse me, my dear. You
see I am given to speaking my mind, and I am interested in you; so
it comes naturally somehow to speak to you as I might to this wilful
little girl of mine." For Adèle had come in during the latter part of
Mrs. Churchill's harangue. She was listening with real pleasure to the
energetic words, for she knew her mother well enough to be aware that
she never took the trouble of lecturing in this manner any one who had
not first made great way in her affections.

"This is mamma's pet subject, Margaret," she said; "what have _you_
to say? I always find her arguments unanswerable, but then they never
converted me."

Margaret smiled: "I have to say, Adèle, that your mother is perfectly
right, that I deserve every word of her lecture, and that I intend to
make an effort in the way of getting rid of these tiresome feelings and
becoming strong again."

"Only if you have me to help you, Margaret," pleaded Adèle.

But Margaret shook her head: "No, no; I have no right to keep you
longer from your mother."

Adèle turned pleadingly to Mrs. Churchill: "Mamma, mamma, leave me here
a _little_ longer."

"Your 'littles' are elastic, Adèle. For how many weeks have you been
saying this?"

"And I suppose I shall say the same"--the young girl looked up saucily
at her mother, blushing ever so slightly--"until Arthur comes back,
mamma. _He_ wishes me to stay and take care of Margaret."

Mrs. Churchill was in a very good humor; she laughed outright: "You are
certainly a pretty pair, and very well adapted to the task of taking
care of yourselves. When that event, which you are always thrusting in
my face, really happens, I shall have to engage an elderly female of
strong common sense to look after you both and keep you in order--a
pair of babies!"

"But, mamma, you haven't answered me."

"Mrs. Grey says nothing, Adèle; perhaps she is tired of you, or
perhaps--which to my mind would be the best of all--you could persuade
her to change her mind and become our guest at Scarborough."

Adèle's eyes glistened. Certainly her mother must have taken a strong
as well as sudden fancy to her friend: "Oh, mamma, you have asked
Margaret to stay with us? How good of you!"

Mrs. Churchill turned to her hostess in mock despair: "I believe this
foolish child thinks I had nothing but her fancies in view. You must
excuse her, Mrs. Grey; the excitement seems to have put her slightly
off her head. Let me assure you once more that, purely for your own
sake, I shall be most delighted if you will become our guest until your
future is a little more decided."

Margaret put out her hand; she was touched by Mrs. Churchill's delicate
kindness. "Thank you a thousand times," she said gently; "if I were
even in a fit state for travelling I should not hesitate to take
advantage of your kind offer, so attractive in every way. But Adèle
will tell you how it is with me at times; I cannot even dress myself.
No; I must say good-bye to Adèle, with many thanks both to her and to
you, and return to my lonely life. I hope it may soon be over."

"_What_ may soon be over?" Mrs. Churchill turned round sharply, for
there was a sad ring in the voice, which Margaret had striven to render
absolutely calm. She met Mrs. Grey's quiet smile. "I see you mean
that you believe your husband will soon return, but I do wish people
would say what they mean." There was something of fretfulness in Mrs.
Churchill's voice; she did not like to be puzzled, and her daughter's
friend was puzzling her.

"I really think," she continued meditatively, "that my best plan would
be to put up here at the hotel for a few days. By the bye, Adèle,
I left Mary there; I would not bring her on here until I knew more
certainly about your arrangements. Yes, I think that will do. You and
she could amuse yourselves together, and I should like very much to try
the effect of quinine and port wine on Mrs. Grey. I brought a hamper of
our own wine with me--exceedingly fortunate, as it turns out."

Margaret was weak. Do what she would she could not prevent the tears
from filling her eyes. "You are too good to me," she said; "how shall I
thank you?"

"By trying to get strong, my dear, and remembering first of all (you
see you begin by breaking my rules) to take things quietly is the best
policy. Now, Adèle, put on your hat and drive to the hotel. Make them
unload the carriage and bring Mary back in it. Are we trespassing too
much, Mrs. Grey? You young people will have plenty to talk about, so
you need not hurry back. Mrs. Grey in the mean time must give me some
account of her symptoms. It may be that the worldly wisdom of a worldly
old woman will do as much to help her as the romantic enthusiasm of the
young folk who in the present day rule the roast."

Adèle obeyed her mother to the letter. She left her and Margaret alone
together for a good hour. She returned to find them fast friends.
The cheerful optimism of the elder lady had strengthened the younger
considerably, for Margaret wanted bracing, and Mrs. Churchill's sound
common-sense was like a blast of north wind: it swept away sundry
vapors, it invigorated the heart that a succession of evils had
rendered distrustful of good. And Margaret's pathetic story, her truth,
her goodness, her life of devotion--for all these had, insensibly to
herself, shone out in her simple narrative--filled her hearer with
admiration, elevated her conception of human nature, made her believe
(a humanizing belief to many natures), in looking back upon her own
mistrust, that her judgment was not always infallible.

For a whole week--and it was a real act of self-sacrificing
friendship--Mrs. Churchill remained in the quiet village by the sea.
The season was late, so she made up her mind to give up Scarborough and
return from Middlethorpe to London. She dosed Margaret abundantly with
quinine and port wine, she braced her mind by vigorous common sense,
well-grounded cheerfulness and antipathetic banishment of any thing
approaching morbidness or so-called sentiment. When she left she had
the satisfaction of seeing her patient better. It is almost needless to
add that the kind-hearted lady had not the heart to deprive Margaret of
her friend. Adèle remained at the cottage till the chill winds of early
winter swept the waters, while still no certain tidings came to them of
their wanderers.




CHAPTER IV.

_A DREAM INTERRUPTED AND A STRANGE REVELATION MADE._

    Just as I thought I had caught sight of heaven,
    It came to naught, as dreams of heaven on earth
    Do always.


The Alpine mountains again--"silences of everlasting hills"--Nature and
man face to face in the quiet, stealthy creeping on of night!

Maurice Grey sat in his little chalet alone; no friend was near to
catch the outflowings of his heart--no watcher, not even a faithful
servant, to note the changes that followed one another over his face.
The untouched meal, prepared by old Marie, was on the table; he sat
before his desk facing the little window, and looked out with sad,
weary eyes.

For more than an hour he had been thinking, reviewing the tale Arthur
had told him, trying frantically to rend the net of mystery that
surrounded him, but trying in vain. A letter was under his hand. He had
read it over by the failing light, and then crushed it together in his
strong grasp. It was an old, faded, yellow paper which had evidently
lain for years in his desk, but the sting of that it contained was
still as fresh as on the first day when it had been read. The letter
was one of those anonymous productions which perhaps show up in more
lurid light than anything else the depths of cowardly spite that lie
hidden in the hearts of men. This particular one, to give it its due,
was well put together and plausible.

The writer began by acknowledging cordially the apparent cowardice of
the step he had taken. Necessity and strong feeling were urged as the
excuse. He represented himself as one who owed a debt of gratitude to
Mr. Grey; it was therefore peculiarly painful to see him imposed upon.
For in purport it was an accusation, cleverly drawn up, implying more
than it revealed against Maurice Grey's wife. The history of stolen
meetings between her and her former lover, of whose residence in
England Mr. Grey was aware, was circumstantially given. They coincided
strangely, as Maurice remembered with a pang almost as bitter as that
first one had been, with Margaret's comings and goings; but further,
a certain test was offered. It was proposed that on that very evening
the husband should profess to leave his wife, that instead of returning
to London he should remain in Ramsgate, and that if, at a specified
time, he should not find her and the foreigner together, he might throw
aside all that the letter contained as unworthy of belief. Maurice was
naturally jealous. His wife's unusual beauty, the difficulty of winning
her, the knowledge that he had not been the first to possess her heart,
combined to make him distrustful. Instead of showing her the letter or
treating it with merited contempt, he was weak enough to fall into the
snare.

The event had been planned with a fatal accuracy. He found L'Estrange
at Margaret's feet, and in the agony of wounded love, of despairing
rage, left her altogether. For four long years he had wandered
hopelessly and aimlessly, not daring, in case his worst fears should
receive terrible confirmation, to find out anything about the woman
whom through it all he loved so madly. And now, when, as he believed,
his heart had grown callous, when he thought his retreat was surely
hidden from all his former friends, this earnest champion came
forward, sent evidently by her to plead her cause, to assure him of
her continued love and unwearied faithfulness, to recall him to her
side. But the mystery was unexplained. All she offered was a simple
declaration of the falsehood of that of which Maurice believed he held
incontrovertible proof.

What could it all mean? Was it, he asked himself--and his brows were
fiercely knit--a plot to betray him? Did she wish to regain her
position, only that she might the more surely carry on her intrigues?
Had her paramour wearied her, and in his turn been cast off? He
thought, but suddenly, as on the preceding evening, there came, like a
gleam of light through his dark thoughts, the memory of that pale, pure
face.

The strong man bowed his head, and tears such as only men can weep
found their way to his burning eyelids. He covered his face with his
hands. "It is possible," he cried--"possible! O my God, I may have been
wrong." As he spoke he trembled like a child, this man who knew the
world, whose wide experience had made him a cynic.

But if the thought held pain, it had also infinite sweetness. That
first spasm past, Maurice gave way to it. He looked up again and
the pale snows met his gaze. There was a soft, tender light in his
dark eyes. Between them and those pale snows that fair, sad face was
shining. "Margaret!" he whispered.

The man was weary with his mental struggles, overwrought by the
physical exertions of the day. He allowed hope in its soft, tremulous
beauty to take possession of his soul, old memories to steal over
his heart. He leaned back in his arm-chair, folded his arms over his
breast and fell into a kind of trance. Gradually, as his senses lost
their hold upon the visible, the snow-laden pines, the white peaks, the
swollen torrents passed away from his gaze, till at last it seemed that
the sternness of winter had passed away--spring, life, green beauty
took its place.

The four walls of his chalet fell; he was sitting on the green sward,
innumerable delicious odors filled the air with fragrance, bright-eyed
flowers were about him, the birds twittered gayly, everywhere was life
and gladness; but in the midst of all was a something incongruous, like
a minor chord in a fair melody--a sound of low, sad singing, the voice
as of one in pain. Maurice thought he knew the voice; turning suddenly,
he saw his wife. She was walking steadily forward with a gliding step;
a black robe covered her from head to foot; her eyes were fixed on the
distant horizon. He thought that he called her "Margaret!" but her eyes
did not move, only her lips stirred as if in prayer. She glided past
him, but before she had quite gone out of his reach he caught the hem
of her dress. Then, while her heaven-turned face was slowly moving,
while he was yearning to catch the gleam of her eyes, the vision
passed, as visions will.

The whole had only lasted a few minutes, though it seemed to Maurice as
if he had been long insensible. When reality and consciousness began
slowly to assert their cold superiority it was absolute pain. At first
he tried to deny them, in the vain hope that closed eyes and utter
stillness would bring back the fair vision; then suddenly the vague
uneasiness a watchful presence brings awoke him fully.

He started up, and saw by the failing light that he was not alone--he
was being watched. Between him and the window a dark form was standing;
keen, searching eyes scanned his face; they were those of his enemy.
L'Estrange had found his way to the chalet. At last these two were face
to face.

It was a rude awakening from a pleasant dream, and the very contrast
between the fairness of the vision and the blackness of that reality
which to Maurice's inflamed heart this man personified made his hatred
more intense. It took him but a moment to start to his feet. His first
impulse was to seize the intruder by the throat and cast him out; his
very presence seemed a wanton insult. But L'Estrange met his gaze
calmly, and Maurice checked himself: "Before I touch him I will get to
the bottom of the mystery, and if he have betrayed her as well as me--"

He clenched his teeth and involuntarily smote his knotted fists
together. For a few moments the men looked at one another in silence.
Maurice spoke first, and his voice was like the growl of an angry lion:
"What has brought you here?"

A sneer curled the Frenchman's lips: "No love to you, Mr. Grey,
but--listen to me patiently, or I vow I will be silent for ever--a late
repentance for an old wrong."

"_Then_--" There was a whole torrent of wrath pent up in the opening
syllable.

"I tell you not to speak," cried his visitor, "or what I have come to
say shall never be told. Maurice Grey, you are my enemy. You married
the only woman I ever loved. This I could have forgiven; it was my
fault, it was in the course of Nature; but you won her heart, the
heart that once was mine. Yes, short-sighted Englishman, of this I
can speak, for you knew it; she told you, and this it was that filled
you with proud jealousy, that made you torment yourself. Yet it is
true your wife loved you as she never loved me. I did not believe it
then: now I know it. You gasp: well you may. That was my snare, and
you fell into it. I see the letter; give it to me. Is it true, then,
that with all your boasted knowledge of the world you could not read
jealousy and spite under these fine phrases, made for me by a lying
English servant? But yours is a strange nation. Clever and far-seeing
where your money is in question, you are in knowledge of character, in
all that touches your affections, easy to take in as little children.
You frown impatiently. I shall soon have done. I tell you, Monsieur
Grey, the meeting you interrupted that day was the first and only one
that had taken place between your wife and me since your marriage. And
the attitude in which you found me? Mon Dieu! nothing simpler--got up
for you--_un tableau vivant motivé_. She was more surprised than you,
la pauvrette!" His voice sank. "Since that day four long years have
passed by. I have spent them in seeking her--persecuting her, if you
like; so it was, so it must be. Her hatred is strong and bitter. I
deserve it for misunderstanding her. But women have been my study all
my life, and I never met _her_ like before. _You_ had less cause. What
do you deserve? But do not answer me yet. Never fear, proud Englishman;
your reckoning shall come by and by; my task must first be finished.
She hid herself from me for a long time, but at last I came upon her
in a miserable London lodging. The sight of me shocked and terrified
her. She left London at once, and returned to the lonely place where
she had lived in the closest retirement since your desertion. But,
woman-like, she had left her address behind her. I found it out,
followed her, forced myself upon her; and then at last, then first, I
understood her. It was in the midst of deep loneliness--a loneliness
which I saw by her face was killing her--that I found her out. She had
one joy and consolation, a little daughter whom she had trained to love
_you_, to wait and watch for your return. I spoke to her that day, but
she repelled me with scorn and abhorrence. Maurice Grey, I offer for
myself no excuse. I was mad with rage and pain. I determined to punish
her. I stole her little one, and in such a way that she might think it
had been done by you."

The Englishman could bear it no longer. He sprang forward, and seizing
his enemy by the collar shook him vigorously:

"Villain! do you know what you deserve?"

"Patience!" replied the man when he had wrenched himself free from that
strong grasp. "You shall have my life. Mon Dieu! it is worth little.
But first you must listen to me."

He retreated to the side of the little window, the evening light shone
full on his face. He fixed his enemy with his piercing eyes, to which
the fever of his brain had given strange brilliancy. "You want to know
what brought me here," he continued. "I have told you--no love to you,
albeit my hand and voice may restore you to life and happiness--to
all life holds most precious and dear. And yet it is love as well as
penitence that has brought me to this. Love--a truer love than I have
ever known--to the woman and child whom you have forsaken; for your
little daughter changed my mood. I dare not speak of _her_. It would
make me soft when I should be stern. She has been with me ever since;
she is with me now. See her for yourself. She is a living proof of
what I tell." The man bowed his head. "I give her up to you. I have
found you for this, that you may take my treasure. And now--for I
read the fierce hunger of your eyes; you Englishmen are all alike,
insatiate, uncontrolled--_la revanche_. Well! it is well. Monsieur
Grey, I understand your nature, and my hand shall supply you with an
instrument. I went into your room to-day. I found these; I have brought
them with me."

He took from a chair on which he had laid them the pair of pistols, one
of which Maurice had loaded and prepared for action only a few days
before.

The sight inflamed him. It recalled to his mind what this man had
done--how for these long years his life had been a blank of good--a
burden from which he had even sought to free himself. He seized the
offered case. "Yes," he said sternly, "it is well. Villain, it were a
good deed to rid the world of such as you."

The Frenchman shrugged his shoulders. "Soit donc," he said calmly; then
folded his arms with the equanimity of a red Indian, who looks death
and all its horrors in the face without shrinking.

It was too much for Maurice Grey's patience. He drew near to his
enemy and shook him roughly: "Do you take me for an assassin? Come
out, if you have any of the feelings of a man left in you, and defend
yourself," he said hoarsely, and led the way to the door.

L'Estrange followed with a calmness that was no longer real, for his
nervous system had given way suddenly. The tension that had supported
him through these long weeks of wandering, the iron purpose, the
self-constraining force, had given way suddenly when the necessity had
gone by, when his tale had been told, when he had read in his enemy's
face that it was counted true.

For this time Maurice could not help himself. Perhaps even in his
passionate longing for this, a restored belief in the truth and purity
of her who had once been to him the embodiment of all that was best and
fairest in womanhood, had kept him incredulous through Arthur's tale.
This strange confirmation of its every detail, wrung out from the very
torture of his enemy's heart, commended itself to him as true.

He disbelieved her no longer. Rather, his soul was overflowing with
passionate repentance and pity--repentance for the cruel blow he had
dealt her, pity for those years of loneliness, anguish for his own
mistakes, for a past that would ever remain the past, that no future,
however blessed, could recall. All this was surging in his brain as he
listened to those few but fate-laden words, and the first impulse was
indignation against her betrayer. He could not detach his past from his
present; out of his own mouth he was condemned. Persecutor, villain,
torturer of weak women and helpless children (for Maurice had not seen
his child; how could he tell that _she_ had not suffered ill-treatment
at his hands?), he should die the death of a dog, be cast out into the
frozen valleys to sleep the sleep of bitter ignominy.

It may be that in the glance cast at him by his enemy when he had
seized him, when his pale face was close to his own, L'Estrange had
read this wild determination, for as he followed his guide his knees
trembled. He was no more the accuser, but the accused, the condemned.

Margaret was avenged. With head cast down and failing heart he followed
his stern guide, while still the fitful twilight, reflected from the
dazzling snow, shone cold and calm over the hills. The stricken man
groaned in spirit. "It is the bitterness of death," he said to himself.
"Mon Dieu! I am punished. I would have seen la petite. She will grieve
for me."

His thoughts were broken in upon suddenly; they had reached the border
of a deep ravine, and Maurice stopped. He looked round: "The light is
uncertain, but we shall have the same chance. Whoever falls, falls
there."

He pointed down to the abyss, fathomless in the dim evening light.

"We have no seconds--allow me to arrange everything."

He took out the pistols, examined their priming with minute care, and
handed one to L'Estrange.

"I will give the word," he said; "we fire together."

With steady, measured tread he paced the distance that was to divide
them, then took his place by the ravine, pale, calm, determined--the
avenger.

Maurice Grey did not suppose for a moment that _he_ would fall, though,
a true Englishman, he would give his enemy a fair chance for life.
Evil as he believed this man to be, deserving death for the traitorous
wrong he had consummated, he would yet give him the power of defending
himself. But as this man of iron nerve counted out unfalteringly the
seconds that divided one of them from death, he showed his belief in
the issue by the defiance he shouted out across the shadows: "But
yesterday I would have taken my own life, and with this very weapon;
now I take yours. Traitor, coward, slanderer of the innocent, prepare
for death!"

Was it the knell of fate? No answer came from the condemned man, but
before the fatal ball could cleave the air, before the word that
might have meant death to one of them had been spoken, he staggered
strangely, gave utterance to a gurgling cry and fell forward to the
ground.




CHAPTER V.

_ES IST NUR EIN KINDLEIN--ONLY A CHILD._

    What wert thou then? A child most infantine,
    Yet wandering far beyond that innocent age
    In all but its sweet looks and mien divine?


Lights were glittering in the hotel at Grindelwald--something more than
the paltry allowance of which Arthur had feelingly complained was being
displayed, for, late as it was in the season, there had been arrivals,
and the landlord's heart was light.

He could not understand this fancy of people for keen winds, frost and
snow, but it suited his purpose and he rejoiced. The dull season would
be rendered shorter, and his winter expenses proportionately lightened.
In the fulness of his heart he made a great display in the way of
illumination, lighted the large stove in the small saloon, and did all
he could to make his friends forget the dreariness and desolation that
reigned outside.

For the evening that had fallen with a certain calm, autumnal beauty
had deepened into a blustering, stormy night. The wind whistled among
the hills, the loose snow-drifts were driven blindingly hither and
thither; it would not have been a pleasant night to face. Decidedly,
the fireside, or, as at Grindelwald, the stove-corner, was the
most comfortable resting-place. And so the new arrivals, two young
Englishmen and a German (the very same, by the bye, who had annoyed
Arthur by his vigorous "wunderschöns" and his dutiful "enthousiasmus"
in the course of their journey across the St. Gothard), appeared to
think.

As the household was principally composed of men, sundry indulgences
were permitted, and unchecked they discussed their cigars and drank
their "lager bier" in the saloon, gathered together in a close circle
by the stove, their feet filling up by turns its narrow opening. But
apparently every one in the hotel was not of the same mind. Several
times in the course of one short hour the Englishmen were driven to
indulge in strong language, and the German to splutter and fume, by
the inroad of a blast of chill air.

The hotel had not been constructed in such a way as to exclude
draughts, and whenever the outer door was opened the cold air sweeping
up the passages made itself felt in the saloon.

"Donner wetter!" said the German at last as the blast of cold air came
in a continued stream, "I must find out all about zis. What can, zen,
be ze meaning of it?"

"Some one out in the snow," suggested a mild young man with auburn hair
and pale whiskers.

"But, my good friend, why not bring him in?" asked the puzzled German.

"Lost, pewhaps," replied the young man, puffing calmly.

"Lost, lost! but what may zat have to do wid ze door?"

"Anxious fwiends," replied the Englishman calmly--"excitable
foweigners, I should say."

The German looked at him in a helpless way, scarcely certain whether,
as a unit in that generic body known by the English under the name
of foreigners, he ought to take notice of the implied slight. His
indecision ended in a walk to the door of the room. It was clearly
useless to regard the eccentricities of those proud islanders, he
said to himself. If they _would_ persist in looking down on other and
worthier nationalities, why so they might; they would find out their
mistake some day. So absorbed was the German in his mental soliloquy
that in passing out from the room he left the unhappy door open, and
curses not loud but deep followed him from the proud islander he had
left behind. The German found out in the mean time that his sensitive
nature had not betrayed him. That the outer door was open became
evident to him at once by the blast of keen air which swept up the
dimly-lit passage.

Two figures were standing in the doorway, faintly shown by the light of
the little oil-lamp that hung over the entrance. One was a fair-haired
child, wrapped from head to foot in a scarlet cloak, the other was the
landlord of the hotel.

He was stooping over the child, his face very red in the extremity of
his effort to make her understand that it was impossible for her to go
out in the snow.

"Mademoiselle--not go--snow cold--mademoiselle be wander--lose--nicht
finden--" he was saying spasmodically, holding the door shut, while
she, with her small strength, was struggling to open it.

"But--we can no permit--" he began more fluently.

The child interrupted him with tears and sobs: "Please let me only see
if they are coming. Mon père said he would come back to-night. He is
lost. I thought yesterday he was going to die. Oh, please, I know the
way he went. It's not very dark. I can always make him better."

The landlord was in despair. He wanted the assistance of some
interpreter, and yet he was afraid to leave the child, lest she should
give him the slip and run out into the snow.

The appearance of the German was a great relief, for this young man
had not been accustomed to hide his light under a bushel. Wherever
he went he exhibited his knowledge of English. Already that day the
landlord had been astonished by his fluency in this most intricate and
embarrassing tongue.

In a few words he described the situation to the new-comer. The German
immediately addressed himself to the weeping child: "Your _papa_ is out
in ze snow, my leetle maid."

The child's tears stopped; she raised her dark eyes pleadingly to his
face: "Not my papa--mon père. Oh, please take me to find him."

This was rather embarrassing. The compassionate German looked out into
the snowy night: "Wid all my heart I would help you, liebe fräulein,
but you will no doubt perceive I know none of ze paths, and you--" He
looked down at the tiny figure.

Almost unconsciously these two men had been answering that strange
womanliness in the little face by treating this child as if she had
been three times her age.

The German smiled and looked at the landlord: "Es ist nur ein
kindlein." Then to Laura, with an assumption of sternness, "Leetle
maids are sometimes weelful. Zey should understand zat ze elders know
best. Come now wid me to ze fire."

He put out his hand to lead her, but Laura shrank back, her eyes
growing large with fear. She did not understand being so treated by a
stranger. It made her long all the more for her friend's protecting
tenderness. She rejected the hand held out to her with all the dignity
of one double her age: then suddenly her child-heart failed. She threw
herself on her knees on the cold stones, pressed her forehead against
the door and wailed out her childish plaint: "Mon père! mon père! come
back to Laura."

The landlord shook his head helplessly, but the young German, who had
always prided himself on a certain determination of character, looked
stern. "Dis ees all folly," he said; "as I said just now, leetle maids
must not be weelful. Komme mit, mademoiselle; or, as I should say, come
wid me, mees."

He stooped to the little figure, all huddled together on the stones,
and tried to raise it in his arms, but with sudden agility the child
escaped him. She stopped crying and stood upright against the wall of
the passage, facing her tormentor, her eyes and cheeks on flame.

"Go!" she cried, stamping her little foot. "Why do you speak to me? why
do you touch me?"

And in spite of his boasted determination the German stood back abashed.

Proceedings were at this stage--the landlord helpless, the German
doubtful about the next step that ought to be taken in the task of
subduing this child, who partook so early of that proud island-nature
which had already called for his reprobation, and Laura looking up
at them both with more than a child's determination in her small
face--when another actor appeared upon the scene.

Arthur had been sitting during all that afternoon alone in his room,
thinking over the occurrences of the past days--now hoping, now
despairing, as he reviewed in all its minutest details the interview of
that day. He was torturing himself by recalling the eloquent words he
had intended to use, but had not--the conclusive reasons he might have
brought forward had he only remembered them at the right time--when
there came to his ears the sound of a child's cry.

The voice was strangely familiar; at first he could not recall why it
was so, for the memory of his humiliating defeat at Moscow had been
swamped by the succession of exciting events that had followed it.

Curiosity led him to investigate the matter. He went down stairs, and
the first sight of the little flushed face told its tale. This was
Margaret's child. The second prize he had been seeking was actually
within his grasp, and in his first excitement Arthur felt inclined
to seize the child and carry her off whether she would or not. But
experience, the two failures that preceded this most unlooked-for
meeting, had taught him caution. This time he would not attempt to
coerce the strange little being whom Fate had thrown in his way, but it
was quite possible that he might win her over to confidence. Acting on
this determination, he stood back in the shadow and bided his time.

The German was half ashamed of his irresolution. "Leetle maids must be
sensible," Arthur heard him say, and as he spoke he tried once more to
raise the child in his arms.

Laura gave a little frightened cry and turned hastily to run up the
staircase, but only to find her way blocked by one she looked upon
as another enemy. For even by that uncertain light she recognized in
Arthur the man who had made an attempt upon her liberty at Moscow. But
this time the child was desperate. She stood and faced him like a wild
animal at bay.

"Let me pass, let me pass!" she cried.

He did not attempt to touch her, but, standing aside on the staircase,
looked at her with kind, gentle eyes. "What is it, dear? is any one
hurting you?" he asked.

The child looked up into the frank, boyish face and trusted him.
"Perhaps you can help Laura," she said; "but--"

"I was foolish the other day," he said quietly; "I did not quite
understand; you must forgive me."

"You wanted to take me away from mon père, and now"--the child burst
into tears--"mon père is lost. Please, please take me to find him!"

"Come up stairs and tell me all about it, Laura. I will help you if I
possibly can."

Then to the German, who was gazing at him open-mouthed, "Sir, this is
the child of one of my dearest friends; I take her under my protection."

"As you like," replied he, and shrugged his shoulders. "Ze young man is
offended," he muttered, "because I did not treat ze bébé like one great
princess."

He returned to the stove, while Arthur drew from Laura all he desired
to know. She had come there with "mon père," as she always called
L'Estrange. They were looking for papa. Early that day he had told her
that he knew where her father was--that he would go away alone, and
return in the evening to let her know if her father had been found.
He was not very far away, he had said, and the little Laura had been
waiting and watching all the evening. The evening had deepened into
night, and still her friend had not come back. He must be lost.

This was the burden of her simple tale. It made Arthur think. What
could be the meaning of this? Had a sudden repentance seized this man?
Had he really determined to find Maurice Grey and tell him the actual
truth about his deserted wife? Or could any other motive have moved him
to seek his enemy? No, no; human wickedness could not surely go so far.
With this man's child in his grasp, this child, whose pure affection he
had undoubtedly won, it was not possible; and yet if the enemies had
met alone, face to face, in the great solitude--The young man shuddered.

"Laura," he said, turning to the little one, "I must find them at once."

The child clung about his knees: "Oh, take me with you! Please, please
take me! I can make mon père well when no one else can--he says so."

Arthur did not answer at first. He was thinking. He rang the bell and
made inquiries about a guide, for it would have been dangerous on such
a night to have made the attempt alone. He ascertained that it would be
possible to obtain one with very little delay.

The distance which separated them from the chalet was not great. They
would be two men. The child might easily be carried between them, and
it was more than probable that her presence would do more than anything
else to allay the fever-heat of the two men, one of whom must love her
instinctively, while the other evidently loved her deeply already.
The only fear--and it shot through Arthur's heart like a pain--was
that they might be too late--that already in the fierce anger of that
moment, in the awful solitude one of these two might have taken the
life of the other.

"If I had only known, if I could only have guessed, I should never have
left him," he said to himself.

But Laura was still looking up at him anxiously. He answered her with a
smile: "If you will wrap yourself up well, little one, and submit to be
carried."

"Yes, yes," answered the child joyfully; "mon père carries me
sometimes; but"--she stopped, and there came a cloud over her face--"I
will tire you; I am heavy."

She was answered by a knock at the door. There appeared on the
threshold the burly figure of one of the true sons of the soil. He
was accustomed to much heavier burdens than the little Laura, wraps
and all. The honest Swiss was at a loss to understand why this little
maiden should go with them on such a search, but he did not express
his feelings in any way. He lifted her as lightly as if she had been a
bird, placed her on his shoulder, and in a few moments the hotel, the
astonished landlord, the hurt German and the glimmering village-lights
were left in the distance.

The little party--the two men and the child--were threading the dark,
lonely mountain-path that led to the chalet.

It was a strange experience for a child like Laura, but happily for
herself she did not understand its strangeness. All she knew was that
her wish was being accomplished--that, guided and befriended, she was
hastening through the night to find her two fathers.

Blessed is the faith of earth's little ones!

I wonder if the reason for it is that "in heaven their angels do always
behold the face of the Father"?




CHAPTER VI.

_HADST THOU THE SECOND SIGHT?_

    Digging thine heart and throwing
      Away its childhood's gold,
      That so its woman-depth might hold
    His spirit's overflowing?
    (For surging souls no worlds can bound
    Their channel in the heart have found.)


Arthur would not allow his guide to do all the work. He wanted to know
this strange child--Margaret's child; he wanted to try and understand
what was this power, savoring to his mind of dark magic, that her
mother's enemy had gained over her. After they had walked in total
silence for about half an hour he insisted on a change.

Laura wished to walk, but upon Arthur pointing out to her that her
small feet would be swamped in the snow, she submitted again. She
was very grateful to this new ally for his prompt carrying out of
her wishes, and with that strange woman-insight which belonged so
peculiarly to this child she read in the face of her new guide that in
submitting to his wishes she could best show her gratitude.

In Arthur's manner to her there was something of the reverent devotion
that had been one means of drawing her heart so completely to the
friend she was seeking in the desolate Alpine solitudes. The German
had insulted Laura by treating her like a little child, for her
late experiences had drawn her on, not from the sweet simplicity of
childhood--for in this had consisted her power over the wild heart of
L'Estrange--but from many of its feelings; Laura had become sensitive
beyond her years, and this under the circumstances was scarcely
wonderful. She had shared, and probably understood, her mother's
sorrows; she had lived for her sake a life too intense for one of her
tender years; she had taken a part in struggles of whose existence she
ought to have known nothing; she had thought and dreamed and reasoned
till the woman-nature that lies hidden in the heart of every girl-child
had become unhealthily developed. Her childhood, in this sense, had
passed by; Laura would never return to the gay carelessness of early
youth.

Gravely she allowed Arthur to gather her up into his arms, and as, in
their momentary stoppage, the light of the guide's lantern shone upon
her pale fair face and deep earnest eyes, the young man wondered. He
wondered at her unchildlike beauty--he wondered at his own instinctive
reverence.

"Are you quite comfortable, Laura?" he inquired as he drew her cloak
over her tiny feet.

"Quite, thank you," replied the child; "and you are very kind. Mon père
will thank you; but oh, I wonder shall we find him soon?"

"Do you know that we are going to find some one else, Laura?" asked
Arthur, rather shocked to find her head so full of her false father
that she had no thoughts to spare for her true one.

"Yes, I know," she answered gravely; "and sometimes I'm sorry that I
can't love my own papa so much as mon père; but, you see, I've never
seen him: at least, mamma says I have; I don't remember at all." She
paused a moment, then added in a grieved, puzzled tone, "Oh, _please_
tell me--for I want so much to know--_ought_ I to love my own papa as
well as mamma and mon père?" The question had evidently been tormenting
her.

"You _ought_ to put such ideas out of your little head," said Arthur
lightly.

"But I _can't_," replied the child in a grieved tone; and Arthur, quite
perplexed, tried a new set of tactics:

"What makes you love this person so much whom you call mon père?"

"What _makes_ me?" Unconsciously Arthur had started another
bewildering question. She raised her head and knit her small brows:
"It's not because he's good to me, for other people have been good to
me, and I didn't love them. You know loving and liking are different.
Mamma told me I ought to love my papa, but you see there isn't any
_ought_ in love, and I must love mon père best. Oh, I wonder why!"

This was certainly a strange child. Arthur had not laid his hand upon
the magic; her answer only made it appear the more mysterious. He put
another leading question: "Is he very good to you, Laura?"

"Mon père, do you mean? Oh, he is so good! I want him to come back with
me to mamma, but when I talk about it he looks at me in that sad way,
like people do when they are going to say good-bye. Do you _think_ I
shall be able to get him to say he will come? Oh"--the child's face
brightened, a happy thought seemed to have struck her--"will _you_
ask him to come? Perhaps he will do it for you." She went on rapidly,
for the child-nature was beginning to assert itself: "He left a great
big dog in the village--big enough to carry me on its back, mon père
says. And just fancy! it's to be all mine. I wonder how long we shall
be getting back to mamma, and _won't_ she be pleased?" For at the
thought of the great dog, the sea, the village and mamma the painful
questioning had passed away from Laura's mind. She was the child
again--her mother's darling--the tender little one whom Margaret loved.

Arthur's throat contracted strangely as he listened. It was such a
contrast. The night, the darkness, the desolation around them, the
horror that might only too possibly be before them, and the child's
innocent dreams, her unconsciousness of evil, her calm certainty
of hope. The idea made him press forward almost fiercely for a
few moments, but his stolid guide called him back to reason. The
torch-bearer would not hasten; he went forward with quiet, plodding
step, and to distance him would have been in the highest degree
dangerous.

Laura's question remained unanswered, for Arthur had not L'Estrange's
strength of muscle or iron nerve, and he was passing through a mental
experience intense enough to draw away some of his physical force. His
arms began to ache and his knees to tremble. He was obliged to give up
Laura to the guide, and to stop one moment to gather up his strength
for a new effort.

Laura was concerned. "I knew I was too heavy," she said.

But the young man answered with a smile, and again they plodded on
in silence. Their task was not an easy one. In some places the ice
had gathered in a thin frost-work over the snow, so that where they
thought to find sure footing they sank to their knees in the soft,
white mass; in others, the path intersecting a meadow was almost
undiscoverable by reason of the white unity that did away with all
known landmarks. But happily, their guide was a good one and the path
was well trodden. He knew it thoroughly; then, before midnight had
chimed from the village-clock the mists had partially risen, the wind
had fallen, and the glamour of moonlight shone cold over the snow. By
its light Arthur saw a thin wreath of blue smoke rising from beyond
the pine wood they were nearing. He pointed it out to Laura, his heart
almost standing still with the conflict of fear and hope that possessed
him.

The child smiled up into his face. "Mon père is there," she said.

"Your _father_ is there," was the answer sternly spoken, and the little
one was checked. She said no more, but watched till the dark pines,
looking weird and gaunt in the moonshine, rose high above their heads,
shutting out that first glimpse of Maurice Grey's dwelling.

"I will go first," said Arthur; "I know the way."

He began to think he had been wrong in bringing the tender child. He
feared the effect upon her mind of some terrible discovery, she was so
utterly unprepared for the horror that had been in his mind during the
latter part of that weary journey.

The chalet was on the outskirts of the wood, just where an Alpine
meadow opened out. As Arthur drew near he looked up earnestly. No light
shone from the little window. He trembled, but there was no time for
delay; he knocked long and desperately, as one might do who had come on
an errand of life and death.

Marie in her night-cap appeared at the window. Her face had a scared
look; she shook her head and refused to let him in.

Arthur had forgotten, in his impatience to press on, that if those
he sought should not be within, the old woman, obtuse at the best of
times, might fail to recognize and refuse to admit him.

He was obliged to wait until his guide, a person well known to Marie,
could come up with Laura. His decided summons brought out the old
woman again; she obeyed her countryman, and opened the door after very
little further delay.

They entered, and Arthur found that his fears had been only too well
grounded. The chalet was empty. It was clear, further, from the excited
signs made by the old woman as she told her story to the guide, that
there had been some kind of quarrel, and that the enemies had gone out
together.

Arthur wrung his hands. For the first time his heart failed him. Had
Maurice been found only for this--either that his own life should fall
a prey to his enemy, or that the stain of blood-guiltiness should rest
for ever on his head?--for their departure, their long absence, the
scared looks of the old woman, all pointed to one suspicion; the two
men had left the solitary dwelling with no friendly motive actuating
them. It was more than probable that a fierce conflict had taken
place--that the meeting in the snows had been fatal to one, perhaps to
both of them. And then--what then? He scarcely dared to think.

The old woman had lit Maurice's lamp in the interval. Its light shone
upon the face of his child. She was gazing with lips parted, and eyes
in which a certain instinct of some unknown horror was gleaming, into
Arthur's face. She went up to him and touched his arm with her small
hand. "Why does the old woman look at me like that?" she whispered,
lifting up a pale, scared face. "And what have they done with mon père?
He's not here." And she looked round inquiringly.

"I am afraid they have lost themselves in the snow," replied Arthur as
calmly as he could. "Laura, we must leave you here and go out again to
look for them."

"_Them?_" repeated she in a low tone. "Then my own papa is with him.
But what's the matter? why do you all look so frightened? Is mon père
dead? Oh, please, please, let me go to him!"

"Laura, you must be sensible. We cannot take you, my poor child! Stay
here with Marie! Listen, dear! We may go into dangerous places; we may
be lost."

But the child did not seem to hear him. There had come a strange,
sudden look into her face, as though she could see more than others
saw. She held up her hand. "Hush!" she said in a tone that made Arthur
shiver, it was so unchildlike in its earnestness; and even as she spoke
that dawning consciousness of a certain mysterious horror paled her
cheek and made her dark eyes large and deep. "Mon père is calling me,"
she said. "They are hurting him. Come, come!"

She rushed to the door, and opening it stood for a moment on the
threshold, mute, in the attitude of deep attention, her hands plunged
forward into the darkness, as though she were appealing to some unseen
power, her golden hair thrown back from her uncovered head, her face
peering out into the night.

Within, no one stirred. It almost seemed as if they were waiting for
the development of a mysterious power in this strange child. And as
they stood, silent, motionless, watchful, there came to their ears a
sound. It was distinct from the moaning of the wind among the trees,
distinct from the rush of the torrents, distinct from the rattle of the
leafless pine-branches. The sound was a groan. It spoke as plainly as
words of human anguish.

For a moment none of them stirred, and yet the sound had fallen on the
ears of all, but this certainty of an unseen, nameless horror acted on
them like a spell. It was only when the child started forward into the
night that Arthur was aroused from the momentary inaction to a sense of
the necessity for immediate exertion.

He rushed after Laura, caught hold of her, and for the second time
gathered her up into his arms. "My child," he said hoarsely, "you
_must_ come back. God only knows what we may find out there! Be calm.
We shall do our best to bring them to you." The child looked up at him;
she never struggled when she knew all struggling would be useless, and
there was wonder as well as a certain awe in her gaze.

"What do you mean?" she asked; "none of you understand. Mon père is
ill, and papa is taking care of him; and it's cold out there in the
snow, but he won't leave him. He wants us to help him."

"_Us!_" Involuntarily Arthur smiled as he held the tiny figure in his
grasp.

"We can find them without you, Laura," he said. The guide had joined
them with the lantern. "Go in, like a good child."

In her turn Laura smiled. "Which way will you go to find them?" she
asked. "Listen to me: I know all about it. Just now, when I wanted to
listen and you _would_ talk, God showed it to me in a dream. Mon père
is ill. He wants me--I'll take you to find him."

Marie stood at the door holding out her arms; the guide motioned
peremptorily that the child should return to the chalet. Arthur
stood irresolute. He felt half inclined to trust to the little one's
instincts, and in the delay, while the precious moments that might mean
life or death to one of the two men in the snow were passing, _that_
sound came to their ears again--a heavy groan, drawn, it would seem,
from a heart's agony.

It was more than Laura could bear, for she, and she alone of that
little company, knew the sound; she had heard it before.

In his excitement Arthur's hold on her hand relaxed. With a sudden cry
she wrenched herself free, and before the two men could seize her again
her white dress and scarlet cloak made a blot on the moonlit snow far
on in advance. What could they do but follow in her track? and when
they had come up with her, when she had allowed herself once more to
be caught, the light from the open door of the chalet gleamed far away
in the distance. The wilful little maiden was perched once more on the
shoulder of the stolid Swiss guide. She arrogated to herself the right
of directing her companions, and it was well. Once, at least, from her
tower of observation she scented danger and warned them away from the
brink of a ravine. But the men had a surer guide than the dreams of a
child. In a part of the meadow that was sheltered from the wind Arthur
had found the traces of footsteps in the snow.

Strange to say, the discovery was made in the very direction which
Laura had taken when she started on her wild flight. Had her loving
instincts guided her, or was there really something supernatural in her
knowledge?

Arthur asked himself this question repeatedly as he followed his guide
in silence. He never found an answer. The events of that night were
always wrapped in a partial mystery.

Was it so very unnatural? Who that has looked into the far-seeing eyes
of some children, who that has carefully noted their strange ways,
will be able to answer unhesitatingly that it was? They are nearer
to heaven, nearer to the invisible, than those who have weathered
a hundred storms, who have lost their faith in humanity, who have
travelled for long years along the dusty highways of the world,
tarnishing much of their soul's beauty, and forgetting too often the
grandeur of their high destiny.

What wonder that the little ones sometimes see farther than we? for the
invisible chord which binds their soul to heaven is, at their tender
age, free for the passage to and fro of the angels, and it may be that
they whisper to the children of the things that no eye can see. And the
child is ready for these beautiful intuitions. It does not question--it
believes.




CHAPTER VII.

_FOR THE SECOND TIME SAVED FROM HIMSELF._

                                Oh, unsay
    What thou hast said of man; nor deem me wrong.
    Mind cannot mind despise--it is itself.
    Mind must love mind.


The two men and the child pressed on. They had left the path behind
them, they were winding between huge boulders, the débris from some
devastating avalanche; like a mighty wall the mountains rose above
them, hedging them in on the one side, while on the other was the
continuation of the pine wood.

The guide had given up the lantern to Arthur; he could not manage
both it and the child, and the young man, a few yards in advance, was
seeking on hands and knees for further traces of footsteps in the snow.

The groans had not been repeated, and from this Arthur augured badly.
It might be that the dying had passed into the dead. The young man's
heart was sad. He had reckoned so entirely on the success of his
enterprise, he had been so full of hope, and now it seemed as if the
whole--all his hopes, all his efforts--was to be swamped in this sudden
horror. For even if Maurice had escaped unhurt, even if the life of
his enemy had fallen by his hand in his first horror at the discovery
of that enemy's dark treachery, what would the result be on his own
mind, on those of others?--to Margaret, who above all things had
entreated that this man should be unharmed; to Laura, who loved him
with all the strength of her young soul; to Maurice himself, who would
feel when the deed was done that it was wrongly done, for this man
had thrown himself, alone and helpless, into his hands, carrying as a
peace-offering the act of expiation for his past wrongs, the confession
of Margaret's spotless innocence. Arthur had gathered from Laura's
words, beyond the possibility of a doubt, that this, and only this, had
been the intention of L'Estrange in seeking an interview with Mr. Grey.

If he could only have foreseen all this, he said to himself mournfully,
it might have been so different.

The voice of the child awoke him from his sad musing. It was very low,
but in the stillness of that snowy night the slightest sound wrote its
impress on the air. The earth itself seemed to be listening. "We're
very near them now," she said; "I am sure we are. There, there! listen!
The trees are shaking."

Almost instinctively the two men obeyed her imperative gestures. They
rounded a great shoulder of rock. It led them on to a kind of plateau,
studded here and there with stunted, snow-laden pines, ending abruptly
in a depth of darkness, for what lay beyond the ravine that bounded it
was hidden by the snow-vapors.

At first they saw nothing, but a certain feeling warned them to pause
and look round attentively.

"Put me down," cried the child, and as if in answer to her call the
branches of the pine that overhung the precipice crackled and stirred.

This excited Laura. She broke loose from the guide, and once more
outstripping her companions rushed forward over the snow. A moment
more, and her cry, partly of joy, partly of pain, drew Arthur to the
spot. It was on the very brink of the ravine, under an overhanging
pine tree, whose black shadow on the moonlit snow had prevented them
from discovering what lay beneath it.

L'Estrange was outstretched there, silent, motionless, to all
appearance dead. Laura was on her knees beside her friend, calling out
to him piteously to open his eyes and speak to her. In her excitement
the little one had not seen at first that there was another there--that
the head of her friend was on the knees of a man who sat upright on the
cold snow, his back resting against the stem of a pine tree. That man
was her father--Maurice Grey.

Just before they came up he had fallen into that most dangerous of
all states, a sleep among the snows--a dull, numb insensibility
induced by the constrained posture, the long watching, the extreme
cold. His child's wail aroused him. He opened his eyes, but his first
thought was that he was dreaming, for as Arthur's lantern was turned
slowly on the little group he saw in the golden hair from which the
scarlet hood had fallen back, in the fair, delicately-chiselled face,
in the dark, mournful eyes, so like his own, the little one he had
deserted--Margaret's child. How had she come there? Gradually, as the
film passed from his senses, he began to remember the events of the
night, and the latter part of L'Estrange's strange confession flashed
over his mind. While horror withheld Arthur from speaking, while the
guide, whose movements were slower than his, was coming up to their
assistance, a glimmering of the truth dawned upon Maurice's mind.
_His_ child had come out to seek this man, his enemy--_his_ child was
pouring out on her mother's betrayer the treasures of her young heart's
affection. It smote him with a sudden pang.

But no answer came from the stricken man to the child's impassioned
cries, and suddenly she raised her eyes. They met those of her father.
She looked at him for a moment in silence, and involuntarily Maurice
trembled. He was thinking of what might have been if the hand of God
had not forestalled his.

In his first burst of anger against this man, the destroyer of his
peace, the slanderer of her who was dearer to him than life, it had
seemed no crime to avenge himself once and for ever of his enemy. But
with the silence of that solemn night other thoughts had come. In the
unlooked-for ending of their strife that evening God had rebuked him.
"Vengeance is mine!" seemed to be crying in his ears. What was he, that
he should arrogate to himself the functions that belong to the Divine?
And say what one will, under any circumstances it is an awful thing--a
thing that can never be forgotten or put away--to destroy human life.

Maurice Grey was neither weak nor sentimental, but that night as he
hung over his enemy, tending as a brother might have done the man he
had intended to destroy, he shuddered at the remembrance of what might
have happened in the fever of his just indignation. And now, when the
child--his child--looked up at him, her eyes large with fear for his
enemy, asking him mutely for an account of this strangeness, Maurice
was thankful that his answer might be no revelation of a tragedy that
would have chilled her warm young blood and filled her with loathing of
him--her father.

"Who has hurt mon père?" asked Laura.

"Little one," replied Maurice gravely, "he is ill; he will be better
soon."

By this time Arthur was close beside them. He stumbled over something
hard, stooped, and found a pistol at his feet.

"Don't touch it!" cried Maurice hastily; "it is loaded."

"Loaded!" repeated the young man slowly; "then--"

"Foolish boy!" replied Maurice with meaning. "I tell you this man was
taken ill near my door. In the impossibility of getting assistance to
move him, I have been watching him ever since his first seizure; but,
for Goodness' sake, don't stand looking at us, or we shall die of cold
out here! Get your burly friend to help you, and between you perhaps
you may be able to carry this man as far as the chalet. As for myself,
I am so cramped and numb that it will be all I can do to creep."

Maurice spoke cheerfully. It was as if a great load had suddenly been
lifted from his soul.

Margaret pure, his hands free from blood-guiltiness, his little
daughter within his grasp! It was like the opening of heaven to a
spirit long tormented in the purifying fires.

Laura looked up triumphantly as she heard her father's words. "Didn't I
say so?" she cried; "mon père was ill, and my own papa was taking care
of him?" She stooped over L'Estrange: "Mon père, pauvre, cher père!"
Then to Arthur and the guide: "Oh, please, lift him very gently. We
must put him beside the fire. It will make mon père better."

She made an effort to raise his head on her small arm. And at her touch
L'Estrange opened his eyes. "Ma fillette!" he whispered. Laura was
satisfied.

"I have done him good already," she said, looking round at Arthur; "I
said I could."

It was only when she had seen her friend raised, the burly Swiss
supporting his head and shoulders, Arthur his feet, that she had eyes
or words for Maurice. He rose with difficulty, the little one standing
beside him and offering her small hand by way of assistance.

"Have you nothing to say to me, Laura?" he asked rather sadly as he
walked, painfully at first, after Arthur and the guide, the little one
trotting joyfully through the snow by his side.

She looked up at him: "You _are_ my own papa?"

"Yes, Laura."

"And you are coming back home with us?"

"Yes."

"And you really want to see mamma again?"

"Yes."

"Then"--the child gave a deep sigh--"I am very glad."

That was the end of the first conversation between Laura and her
father. They were obliged to look carefully to their footing, for two
or three times the child had fallen upon the frozen snow. She did not
seem to care much, but her father did; when at last the congealed
blood began to flow through his veins, and his wonted vigor to return,
Maurice Grey stooped and in his turn gathered her up into his arms.

Laura had found her true place at last. After her wanderings, her
strange adventures, her fears and her dreams, she was able to lay her
head on her father's breast. He was a stranger to the child. As yet her
love for her false father was much stronger than any feeling for the
true; but the consciousness perhaps of this, that he _was_ her father,
that her task was ended, her childish work accomplished, made a deep
rest steal over her. With her arms round Maurice's neck and her head
upon his shoulder the child fell fast asleep after her fatigues. It was
childhood's sleep, dreamless and unbroken.

So Maurice brought her in to his house, solitary now no longer. He
would not give her up into Marie's care, but taking the blankets from
his bed, he arranged them with his pillows in a corner near the stove,
and laid the little one down. There was a soft look in his face as
he stooped over her. Where was all his cynicism? It had gone. He was
thinking of Laura's mother, and reckoning how long the time might be
before he could himself give back her child to her arms.

And in the mean time the cold dawn was beginning to creep over the
snow. Maurice turned to his companions and held a council of war. They
examined L'Estrange carefully, and found that one of his arms and part
of his side were perfectly dead and helpless. He seemed to be partially
paralyzed.

The question was, What should they do with him? In the solitude of
Maurice's little chalet it would be impossible for him to obtain the
necessary treatment, yet to move a man in his condition so far as the
hotel would be a serious matter, and required more hands than they
could muster.

They had improvised a kind of bed on the floor of the small
sitting-room; they were standing round him, Maurice and Arthur talking
earnestly, the guide only waiting for a sign to do anything that might
be desired of him, when suddenly, to their astonishment, the man they
had thought utterly insensible looked up and tried to raise himself.
He fell back helpless. Then he opened his lips and tried to speak.
Maurice stooped over him to catch the words, for his voice was thick
and changed. "La fillette!" he murmured; "I saw her." Then, as Maurice
pointed out the child fast asleep among the pillows: "It is well," he
said quietly, and his head fell back again. He was thinking.

Gradually the events of the night were shaping themselves out of
the mists which his long insensibility had thrown over his mind. "I
remember," he said at last in a faint, low tone. He beckoned to
Arthur, who wondered at the recognition which he read in the face of
the stricken man. But the dying have their privileges. Arthur overcame
his repugnance and stooped down to listen to his words. "Tell me--" was
all he said, pointing to the bed where Laura lay asleep.

The young man understood what he wanted. In as few words as possible he
told of his discovery, of Laura's anxiety, of their midnight journey,
and once or twice, as his tale went on, a tear rolled down L'Estrange's
face, for in spirit as in body the man was overcome.

When it was ended he called Maurice to his side, and held out the only
hand over which his will had any power, whispering as he did so, "Is it
peace?"

Maurice took the hand and held it in his own. "Forgive me--" he began,
but the man interrupted him with something of his old imperiousness.

"Young people," he said, "lie down--rest."

It was, after all, the most sensible, suggestion. They gave him some
brandy and hot water, which seemed to revive him; then, as utter
weariness had taken possession of Arthur and the guide, they thought
it best to obey, Maurice, who had piled fuel on the stove, declaring
his intention of watching it and L'Estrange. But he too gave way before
long, and the morning light streamed in upon the little chalet parlor,
full of prostrate forms stretched out on the floor and wrapped in every
kind of material.

Before the full morning light had aroused the weary men Laura had risen
from her bed, and had knelt down by her friend to place one of the
pillows her father had arranged for her under his head.

He was awake, and he opened his eyes with a smile, but the smile passed
into a frown, and Laura feared she had offended him. The fact was,
L'Estrange was steeling his heart and hers. He wanted to detach himself
from his darling--to accustom himself to do without her--to teach her,
if possible to care for him less.

But the little one put it down to pain, and tears filled her eyes "Mon
père is worse," she murmured.

She remained by his side till the full light, breaking in upon the
room, had aroused the sleepers.

Then another discussion took place. It was very strange. But the night
before Maurice Grey would have thought it no sin to deprive his enemy
of life. Another hand than his had smitten L'Estrange, and instead of
deserting him, as he might have done, leaving him to find his death
among the snows, Maurice Grey had risked his own life (for the numbness
which had been creeping over him when his friends came up might soon
have proved fatal) to watch over his. Perhaps the reason might be
found in his helplessness. On the previous evening he had stood before
Maurice as an accuser and a judge, arraigning him for the folly and
short-sightedness which, according to his showing, had been far more
instrumental than anything else in bringing about his suffering and
Margaret's. And his biting words had found their echo in Maurice's
own heart, being gifted with a double sting. In the man's attitude
there had been a certain power, and this it was that had inflamed his
opponent, till he had longed with a fierce, sudden passion of hatred to
punish him to the uttermost.

For the second time Maurice Grey had been saved from himself, and now,
as the man he had hated lay helpless at his feet--the brain that had
conceived and the hand that had written that cruel letter torpid, the
tongue which had given forth its biting irony silent--all his feelings
changed. The helplessness of the strong man recommended him to his
compassion; the remembrance of the service he had rendered him, the
consciousness of his penitence for the wrong he had committed, softened
Maurice toward him. He saw, for the first time, in L'Estrange's strange
conduct the return to itself of a soul that had wandered from his own
nobility. Bowing his head, the man who had been known as a bitter cynic
confessed his wrong to humanity, his distrust of God. Maurice Grey
was a changed man. He felt it in the lightness of heart with which he
rose that morning; for, say what we will, it cannot but be that this
hatred of their kind on which some men pride themselves is a bad and
heart-degrading thing. It recoils upon itself. A man cannot despise his
own nature and be happy. Maurice during these wretched years had been
heaping up misery to himself. But it was over, once and for ever. In
Margaret's faithful devotion and forgiving love, in his enemy's return
to a better mind, in his child's simplicity, in Arthur's high-hearted
chivalry, Maurice saw the other side of the picture he had so long been
contemplating.

In the course of his life of wandering he had been pleasing himself by
drawing out and marking the weaknesses of his fellows, and he had not
found his task difficult; but now in his God-given nature, the nature
he had despised, he began to see there was something underlying all
these superficialities For humanity had shown itself to him in its
beauty--the beauty which made God Himself pronounce it good on that
creation-dawn when "the morning stars sang together and all the sons
of God shouted for joy." Maurice Grey thanked God and took courage.
The discussion between himself and Arthur (for the guide was a silent
assistant) resulted in very little.

Something in the way of a litter would be necessary to take the
sufferer over the hills, and at least four strong men who could relieve
one another. They were only three, and it seemed perfectly impossible
to construct a litter out of the materials at hand.

The best plan seemed to be for the guide to return to the hotel and
bring back with him men and litter, also provisions of some kind, for
Marie's black bread and sausages had been so seriously besieged by her
numerous invaders that very little, even of this uninviting food, was
to be found in the small kitchen upon which Arthur made a raid. There
was fortunately enough coffee to supply them each with a strong cup,
only it had to be taken with goat's milk that had been standing for
some days in Marie's pans.

Arthur and Laura, the two most fastidious of the little party, made
many a wry face over the poor fare. These two had become fast friends;
indeed, the child was in a fair way to be spoilt. She reigned like a
queen among these men, so strangely met together in the solitary's
dwelling. The general devotion did not much impress her. Most of her
thoughts were given to one, and he seemed to take very little notice of
his darling. Once or twice the tears filled Laura's eyes as she noticed
how he would refuse what nourishment he could take when she offered
it, and then receive it from another hand. It gave the young heart,
premature in its development, a bitter pang to feel that the affection
of this friend might possibly cease. But of all this the child said
nothing. Breakfast--if breakfast it might be called--was over, the
guide was about to start for Grindelwald, Arthur was busying himself
about domestic matters, trying by his rapid movements to quicken the
perceptions of old Marie, who had been rendered even more stupid than
usual by the strange events of the night; Maurice sat by the side of
his stricken guest, with his little daughter on his knees, when over
the snow outside there came the sound of voices.

Laura ran to the window. "Four men," she cried, "and a mule, and one
of those chairs to carry people, and rugs, and a big bundle, and--Oh,
I hope there's some white bread; but perhaps they're not going to stop
here."

She appealed to Arthur, the person with whom she felt most on terms of
equality: "_Do_ go out and see if they'd give us just one little bit."

Her summons drew the whole of the little party to the door, just in
time to see the small cavalcade draw up, and to meet the questioning,
reproachful gaze of the good Karl.

To explain his appearance on the scene, it will be necessary to relate
how the ungrateful Arthur had quite forgotten his friend's servant,
who according to his own showing had earned for him the favor of that
tête-à-tête dinner at the hotel with the man to find whom he had
traversed Europe in its length and breadth.

It was only when the good German showed his round face, in which
sentiment and joy were struggling for the mastery, at the door of the
chalet that Arthur remembered his intention of letting him know of
his own return to the hotel and his master's whereabouts. The rapid
start with Laura and the guide, following on the interval of regretful
meditation in his own room, had put everything else out of his mind,
and Karl, who, as was his wont, had been making himself useful and
entertaining in the kitchen of the hotel, only found out when it was
too late to do any good that uneasy rumors were afloat in the house
about the two Englishmen, one of whom was his master.

Karl was eminently practical. He lost no time in dreaming about their
probable fate. Something--perhaps an accident to his master, since the
younger man had returned for assistance--was detaining them at the
chalet. The chalet was ill-provided with food and necessary comforts.
As soon as it could be possible to gather together a company large
enough to be useful in any emergency, he would find his way to his
master.

He spent the rest of the night in making every arrangement. Before
dawn he and his party of three stalwart men were on foot. Hence their
arrival at a comparatively early hour of the morning.

Karl's astonishment at the appearance presented by the chalet was very
great, and it was blended with reproach. His master and his master's
friend were on their feet, apparently uninjured; they seemed to have
plenty of assistants, for the guide, Marie, Arthur, Maurice and the
child made an imposing show in the small doorway; it was impossible
to tell how many more might be behind them. Why, then, had he, the
Englishman's faithful servant, been forgotten in this strange jubilee?

But his helpful nature reasserted itself when he found how very much
his services were needed. In the course of a few minutes he was
bustling about, acting as interpreter, preparing a substantial meal for
Maurice's half-starved little company, presenting everybody with shawl
or rug, and making himself generally useful.

Laura had her white bread and some sugar and milk. Arthur and Maurice
rejoiced in the dissection of a fowl, and the guide had a fresh and
unlimited supply of sausages; they were therefore soon sufficiently
strengthened to think with equanimity of a new start. The poles of the
_chaise-à-porteur,_ brought up in case of emergency by the provident
Karl, formed, with mattresses and ropes, an excellent litter. On this
they laid L'Estrange, well wrapped up in rugs and blankets.

Before the sun had risen very high in the heavens the little cavalcade
was in motion--Laura mounted on the mule which her father led;
L'Estrange, passive as an infant, in the litter they had prepared for
him; the rest of the party on foot.

As they entered the pinewood, Maurice turned, and shading his eyes from
the morning sun, took one last look at his temporary dwelling. It had
been the home of his solitude, the mute witness of despair that had
reached its climax in those last days when his life had seemed a burden
too heavy to be borne, and he was leaving it--leaving it and the past
life for ever.

His pride had been rebuked, his self-reliance had fallen. But a few
months before he had thought himself sufficient to himself: _that_
madness had gone; human interests had already begun to throw their
sweet influence around him; from the hermit's dwelling he was going out
once more into the great world. It had done its work. The trial-time
was over. He was stronger and better. His faith in God and humanity
had returned. He could now look forward with hope--not, perhaps, the
sanguineness of youth, which hopes simply because to despair would be
impossible, but hope resting on a well-grounded confidence in himself,
in humanity, in God.

Maurice Grey's after-life was not without its troubles, but through
them all he never lost sight of the lessons learnt in his hermit life.
Painfully gained, they were earnestly held.




CHAPTER VIII.

_A PARTING._

    Thou whose exterior semblance doth belie
           Thy soul's immensity;
    Thou best philosopher, who yet dost keep
    Thy heritage; thou eye among the blind:
    Thou over whom thy immortality
    Broods like the day, a master o'er a slave,
    A presence which is not to be put by!


In the hotel they returned, for the moment, to their old arrangements.
The faithful child would not forsake her friend; his illness had, if
possible, only endeared him to her.

L'Estrange was better. The shock had only been very partial. On the
day following that of his return to the hotel he was already able to
speak intelligibly, and to understand everything that went on around
him. It was the morning of that day. Laura had been busy about the
room putting everything tidy, as she said in her childish way, for her
father had sent his servant to say that he would pay them a visit.
She noticed that the eyes of L'Estrange followed her painfully about
the room. There was a trouble in his face the child did not quite
understand. Except for his illness--which, childlike, Laura looked
upon as something very transient--she could not see in their present
circumstances any cause for sadness. Her mind was troubled with no
doubts about the right course to pursue. They were all to go back to
her mamma as soon as ever her friend could be moved. It had never
crossed her gentle mind that he was to be shut out of their happiness,
and, so far as she was concerned, she had no intention of leaving him.

The heart of the little child was light. Everything had come about as
she had hoped.

But Laura, young as she was, had been too often in the presence of
suffering not to recognize it, and her friend had taught her to
observe. She read the sorrow in his face and went to his bedside: "Mon
père, what is it? Are you worse?"

"Come to me, fillette," he answered, and with his left hand he drew her
face to his.

The child smiled: "Pauvre cher père, why do you look so sorry? You
ought to look glad, because we're all going back to mamma. Oh, I am so
happy! That night, mon père, you remember, when you were out in the
snow, and I thought you were lost, and I was to be left alone with
people who said cross things, I wasn't happy then; but now it's all
right. My papa is found--and," she lowered her voice as if speaking
in confidence, "I think I shall love him too--then we shall see mamma
again--"

She stopped suddenly, for the tears were falling one by one over her
companion's face. To a stronger heart than Laura's the sight would have
been pitiful. This stern, self-contained man did not often express
his feelings. Even the child he loved had trembled sometimes as she
looked at his dark, strong face--even she had feared to intrude upon
his silence; now all was broken down. Weakness as of a little child
had taken hold upon him. Laura was very much distressed. With tears
of sympathy in her own eyes, she stroked the dark, passionate face,
murmuring gentle words.

He spoke at last, and there was a sternness in his voice that might
have repelled the child had she not known her friend so well. "Laura,"
he said, "you must not again say such things as these; you must try and
understand, little one. What must be, must be; and thou and I _must_
part. Hush! hush!"

For Laura's face was averted; she had hidden it in the bed-clothes;
she was weeping in the silent, unchildlike way that once or twice
before had moved L'Estrange so deeply. In his weakness the man had much
difficulty in preventing himself from giving way once more and weeping
with her, but he controlled himself, for he was determined that no one
but himself should make her understand.

"Laura," he said very tenderly, laying his left hand on the soft,
golden head he loved so well, "it is necessary--you must go. I am not
worthy of this love, and your mother is waiting for you."

"But, mon père--" Laura lifted up her tear-stained face and met his
deep, stern eyes. Her voice faltered, for, child as she was, she read
his resolve. "You will be better," she said, "and come too."

"Never," he answered slowly. "Listen, little one." He put away the
hair from her face and looked at her long and tenderly: "In years to
come--ah, petite, long, long years--after your friend has been put away
under the ground, ma fillette will be a woman, tall and beautiful and
good; then she will know and understand that this thing is right; then
she will know that her friend, who loved her, acted for the best in
this--that what my Laura desires would not be possible. She must say to
her old friend good-bye; she must go away to those who love her; not
better--that could not be--but to those who have a greater right to her
love. Why do you care for me, fillette? Ah, mon Dieu! it is painful,"
he added as if to himself, for the child's sobs had never ceased.

He drew her face down to him again: "Little bird, it is not well. These
deep feelings give me grief. Thine is the age of laughter. Think then
of la pauvre maman--she is weeping too."

"Yes," replied the child through her tears. "I want to go back; but
oh"--a happy thought had struck her; she clasped her hands and looked
up into her friend's face--"if papa and I go away now, at once, you'll
get well and come afterward. This won't be saying good-bye for always:
_please, please_, say it won't."

He felt inclined to give her an indefinite answer, to let her think
that it should be as she wished; but when he looked into her dark,
imploring eyes--the eyes from which shone out the tenderest, most
innocent soul that had ever loved him in all his wild career--he felt
that to deceive her would be impossible. He answered slowly and calmly,
with the manner of one who for ever puts away some beautiful thing out
of his sight: "Thou hast said it, fillette. Good-bye for always."

"Always! always!" The child repeated the word, her large dark eyes
dilating as if with some hidden awe. "Mon père," she said almost in
a whisper, "it is so long--always, for ever. Do you mean that I am
_never, never_ to see you again?"

He looked at her curiously. In his old way he was analyzing. He was
trying to understand the sudden emotion that had blanched the little
one's cheek and brought that look of awe into her eyes. It was not
the first time that this vague terror of the unknowable had taken
possession of this strange child's mind.

She shivered slightly as, standing by her friend's side, she reasoned
out the matter with herself: "Mon père, what does it mean? To-day ends,
and to-morrow will end; and this year and next year, and every year,
I suppose, till we die; and then--after then--there is heaven and for
ever--always, always, for ever. I _can't_ understand it. Oh, mon père,
is it true?" The child was in an agony. This was the mental torture
that had, several times, racked her brain.

"And," she added under her breath, with the look and tone of one treble
her age, "in all this for ever--so long, so long--I must not see mon
père any more."

It was L'Estrange's turn to tremble. Rapidly as in a dream the
remembrance came of that first day when for his own purpose he had
implanted into the little one's mind thoughts and ideas too great and
strong for one of her years.

"Mon Dieu!" murmured the stricken man, "and must it always be thus? I
only love to blight and poison."

"Laura," he answered aloud--and his voice was grave and earnest--"you
take things too much to heart. Try now to understand me, little one.
Words have a certain meaning of their own, but people may give them
too much meaning or too little. When ma fillette is older she will
know that 'always' may sometimes mean a day, a week, a year--sometimes
indeed this for ever of which she speaks so earnestly, but _very, very_
seldom. Look up, petite. _My_ always is not at all so very terrible.
All I mean is this: you must go back home with your own father, and
leave your friend here. See! I have made a letter be written to Paris,
to the person whom you will remember there. Marie will come and help me
to move to her little house; then if ever ma fillette comes to Paris
she will know where to hear of her old friend."

"Oh, please let me have it," cried the child. She took the letter
from the hand of L'Estrange, sat down before the table, and copied
the address, letter by letter, in her large childish handwriting, her
friend spelling it over for her that there might be no mistake. Then
she folded up the paper and clasped it in both hands. "Mon père," she
said, "I will never lose it."

In the practical action Laura's dreamy fears had fled. Hope, the hope
of a young child, reasserted itself once more. "I will show it to
mamma," she said, "and we'll come together to see you; then perhaps--"

She was interrupted by a knock at the door. Her father was outside
waiting for admittance.

As might have been expected, Maurice Grey had lost no time in making
all needful preparation for their journey to England. He was in a fever
of anxiety to be moving once more, to be on his way to his injured
wife, to assure himself of her forgiveness and continued love. And
there had been certain points in the story told by Arthur which had
alarmed him. Margaret's poverty: the thought of this gave him perhaps
the keenest pang he had experienced. He could not understand it,
for, as has already been seen, Maurice Grey was not exactly to blame
for this; but in his after review of all the circumstances he blamed
himself bitterly for what he now looked upon as his own weak-minded
folly in preserving this total silence. He had thought of his own pain
in the event of all his fears receiving fatal confirmation, and his
wife, so tenderly reared, had been suffering.

Then her delicacy, the sudden collapse of her powers. The thought
of this was almost too hard to be borne, for if--if there should be
disappointment before him--if he could never ask her forgiveness for
the cruel wrong he had committed, never hold her again to his heart,
never let her know how deeply through it all he had loved her--the
man felt as if it would be better even to die himself. The bare idea
maddened him.

He would willingly have cut through the air to reach her, and the
necessary delay chafed his spirit. Since the moment of their return to
the hotel the Englishman had been busy in making every preparation for
departure.

Happily for him, the season had not yet entirely closed. Sledges
would have to be used in various parts of the journey, and guides and
drivers would probably require to be highly feed; but this was a matter
of very small import. All he desired was speed. Arthur seconded his
efforts ably. As the diligence had ceased running between Grindelwald
and Interlachen, and the steamers no longer made their daily journey
on the lake, a visit to Interlachen had been necessary, that special
arrangements might be made as well for this as for their further
journey; the railway connecting Thun with Berne had not then been
completed.

It was arranged that Arthur should act as courier, preceding them
to Thun to have relays prepared, and that Maurice should return to
Grindelwald for Laura.

The child had not seen him since their journey through the snow from
his solitary chalet in the mountains. She was a little shy of this new
father, though inclined, as she had expressed herself to L'Estrange, to
think that she should love him.

The fact was, that Laura, too much given to reason upon every point,
could not quite reconcile to herself his love for her mother and his
long absence. This had tormented the little one considerably during
these last days. She took his caresses that morning very calmly.
She would have run away then and left her father and friend alone
together, but L'Estrange detained her. She obeyed his gesture and sat
down again by his side.

Maurice drew her toward him, "Laura," he asked, "are you ready to come
home?"

"Now?" said the child, "at once?"

"You want to go back to mamma, Laura?" he said gravely.

The child stood silent, trembling from head to foot. She was afraid to
show what she felt before her father.

"Come," said Maurice, "we must thank your friend who has been so kind
to you, and say good-bye to him."

Laura looked at L'Estrange. The proud face was turned to the wall. Weak
as he was, he would yet show nothing before Maurice Grey. She went
close up to his side. He motioned her away from him, and the heart
of the little child could bear no longer. "Mon père will die if I go
away," she cried piteously. She covered her face with her hands and
began to cry. It was difficult for Maurice to know what to do. The
child's tears made him feel perfectly helpless. He was not accustomed
to little ones, and he felt inclined not only to wonder, but to feel
rather angry, at the strange power this man, her mother's bitterest
enemy, had gained over the child's mind.

He answered her with a man's impatience. Like others, he forgot for
the moment, in her strange womanliness, that Laura was only a little
child. "My dear Laura," he said sternly, "I must have no more of this.
Leave off crying at once, and do as I tell you. Say good-bye to Mr.
L'Estrange, find your cloak and hat and come with me. I have told the
maid to put your things together, and a sledge is waiting at the door."

Her father's voice checked the child so suddenly that the moment he had
spoken he reproached himself for having spoken too strongly.

She left off crying at once, looked up with a pale, resolute face, and
went into her own room to get ready for the journey. Then, when the
scarlet cloak and hood had been put on by the sympathetic Gretchen,
Laura returned and stood once more beside her friend.

"Papa," she said, turning to Maurice, "I'm quite ready, and you may go
down now. I shall come presently. Please, I want to say good-bye to mon
père alone."

Maurice could not have been more astonished if he had suddenly seen his
little daughter put on her womanhood than he was at this calm demand.
He even hesitated a moment. But the little one stood her ground.

Laura's instincts had told her what it was that had made her friend so
suddenly cold and distant. She could not leave him without _one_ more
kind word; then, on the other hand, the presence of her father, and
his stern forbidding of her ready tears, prevented her from letting
her friend see some at least of the love and gratitude that filled her
small heart.

Maurice looked at the tiny figure and smiled: "My daughter has her
father's will. Well, little one, I suppose I must give in this time. It
is natural, perhaps, that you should feel this, only don't be too long
about your adieus."

He turned to L'Estrange, thanked him for his kindness to the child,
asked if he could do anything for him before he went away; then, when
the question had received a decided negative, bade him a courteous
farewell.

Once more, and for the last time, the child and the man--the
child so near heaven in her simplicity, the man world-weary and
travel-stained--were left alone together, and now the little one felt
that it was really for the last time.

He turned his face toward her. She threw herself down on her knees by
his side, sobbing convulsively. "Mon père," she cried piteously, "is it
for ever?"

For a few moments he was silent. In the sorrow of parting from this
only creature in the world who purely loved him, the memory of that
night when God's peace had been shed abroad in his soul, when the
tumult of his heart had been stayed by the consciousness of a presence
above and around him, returned to his mind. He was alone and hopeless
no longer. "Little one," he answered, drawing her soft cheek to his,
"you must look for me there--in heaven."

"I will, I will," answered the sobbing child, for heaven at this moment
seemed near and real to her.

She was about to rise, but he drew her down again: "Laura, remember,
if I go there ever it will be through thee. My child! my child!"--his
voice broke down suddenly--"the great God bless thee, now, every day of
thy life, and even for ever!"

A knock at the door; the child's father was becoming impatient. Laura
rose, kissed her friend once more, smoothed his bed-clothes as she had
been accustomed to do, then turned away, choking back her sobs. The
little one could not trust her own father yet. She was afraid he would
be angry. She did not dare to look back at the door: she went, and
L'Estrange was left alone.

The excitement had been almost too much for him in his weak state.
That night L'Estrange thought that he would die. They were very kind
and attentive to him in the hotel, did everything that could be done
to lighten his sufferings, but all he wished was to be left alone,
that he might die in peace. He was mistaken, however, as he had often
been before. This stroke did not mean death. A few days after Laura's
departure he was able to sit up, a day or two later he was trying
to teach his left hand to do the duties of the right, and before a
fortnight had passed his friend from Paris had arrived.

Sorely in those days of enforced solitude he had missed his little
comforter, but Marie's bright, helpful presence did much toward
restoring him. He recovered in time to a certain measure of health and
strength, and yet the man was changed.

The spirit that had faced the world's storms, that had made joys for
itself wherever fate had thrown him, was broken down. He had no aims,
and to begin again his life of wandering seemed desolate beyond measure.

Perhaps his intercourse with Laura, and that parting which had wrung
both their hearts, had stung him in this: it had brought before
his mind the torment of that "might-have-been" which lurks in the
background of pleasure and self-seeking to seize upon the remnant of a
wasted life. It was his retribution, the portion he had prepared for
himself, but none the less was it bitterly hard to be borne.

L'Estrange never regained his former vigor of body or strength of mind.
He spent the rest of his life in wandering, for no ties held him to
any particular place, and he was restless.

He wrote to Margaret as soon as ever he had acquired sufficient power
over his left hand (the right remained for some time comparatively
helpless). The letter was a pouring out of his heart, a confession of
her wrongs. He took no merit to himself for having been instrumental
in restoring her to happiness. He only offered this as a proof of his
sincerity, he only asked for a line to let him know he was forgiven.

They never met again; indeed, L'Estrange did not live very much longer,
but his end was peace.

    "After the burden and heat of the day,
    The starry calm of night."




CHAPTER IX.

_THE NEST IS EMPTY._

    The warm sun is failing, the bleak wind is wailing,
    The bare boughs are sighing, the pale flowers are dying,
          And the year
    On the earth, her deathbed, in a shroud of leaves dead,
          Is lying.


One evening--it must have been in the month of November, when the days
had grown short and the nights long, when the autumn winds whistled
bleakly and the waves were given to lashing the shore--a young girl sat
alone at the window of a room which only the red fire and flickering
twilight redeemed from total darkness. She was looking out, gazing
with dreamy eyes that saw very little of that upon which they were
apparently fixed, at the desolation of the world that lay outside. And
yet that desolation was writing its impress on her brain, giving to
the inner life the images of dreary hopelessness that belonged for the
moment to the outer.

The young girl scarcely saw the leafless giants shivering in their
nakedness, or the leaden clouds driving restlessly over the sky, or
the dark sea moaning, plunging like a mighty thing tied down--a power
compelled by a higher power to miserable inaction; yet these things
were with and around her; they helped to call that deep look into
her eyes, to cause the impatient sigh that escaped her now and then.
Inside, there was nothing to disturb her meditation. In the room and
in the house was an utter stillness. It was the stillness of watchers
engaged in a hand-to-hand struggle with man's last and darkest foe.
For that struggle had been going on in the little house during three
or four long days and nights, and now, at last, a lull had come. The
patient slept.

Poor Adèle! It could scarcely be matter for wonder that her cheek
looked pale and her blue eyes deep, that impatient sighs broke from
her, that she was ready to sympathize with the gray desolation of a
winter night. For Adèle had been passing through a time of anxiety such
as she had never before experienced.

Margaret dying, Arthur gone--no word, no line to let them know the fate
of the wanderers--no possibility of being able to give the sufferer
the news for which her soul was craving--nothing in all the here and
hereafter but vague uncertainty, but cruel delay.

And Adèle, in the bitterness of her spirit, had begun to doubt about
everything. It had been so hard to watch the patient sufferer, to
know that in any moment she might be the prey of death--that the
pure, noble life, worn away by sorrow, might pass into the invisible
without one gleam of light to cheer it on its progress; it had been so
hard to listen in the sombre light of the sick room to the passionate
ravings of the faithful wife, and to realize the utter impossibility of
bringing her that for want of which her life was waning.

These things preyed upon Adèle's mind. In the darkness and solitude, in
the suspension of immediate anxiety, her heart sank, her spirit began
with itself humanity's dreary questioning.

Everywhere, everywhere--in the angry cries of the young child, in the
quiet sorrow of those of riper years, in the patient sadness of the
aged, in the pallor of young faces--_it_ can be read--the why that
rises evermore to Heaven, the great mystery of human woe. Shall it be
answered one day? Ah, who can doubt it? Else were we wretched beyond
compare.

The _why_ was in Adèle's heart that evening, welling up from its
innermost depths, proving itself too strong and terrible for her young
brain to fathom. And still she sat there, her arms folded and her pale
face looking seaward, thinking, thinking.

Once or twice she turned to look at her companion. Margaret was on the
sofa. For the first time since that attack of brain-fever which had so
terrified her devoted nurses she was dressed, and her dress was of the
soft, pale material which Maurice loved.

They had been afraid of the fatigue, for Margaret was very ill.
Emotion, anxiety, suspense had told upon her to such a degree that at
last her life had been despaired of.

For three days her mind had been wandering. Such strange, pathetic
wandering it was that often and often tears had poured down the cheeks
of those who watched over her. But early in this evening her senses
seemed suddenly to return. There came a light into her eyes; she sat
up and looked round her. And then she insisted upon being dressed and
taken into the little parlor. They could not refuse her, though the old
woman shook her head ominously. "It's well to be seen," she whispered
to Adèle, "what the end of it a' will be. Puir leddie!" and she wiped
her eyes, "the sair heart hae dune it. Humor her bit fancies, bairnie;
'twill be the same, ony gait."

Weeping in spite of herself, Adèle obeyed the old nurse. They
dressed Margaret with minute care, combed the waving hair--short
now, alas!--from her white forehead, put on her the trailing
lavender-colored dress and the pretty lace ruffles, wrapped the Indian
scarf round her shoulders, and laid her down, exhausted but happy, on
the parlor sofa.

She thanked them with her gentle smile, gave a sigh of intense
contentment; then, after a few moments, fell into a quiet, healthy
sleep.

It was this sleep which Adèle had been watching in the dark room until,
so quiet and peaceful had been the sleeper's face, the tension on her
watcher's nerves was partially relaxed. She turned from that earnest
gazing at the pale face, so beautiful in its pure outlines, to look at
the outside world--to think and dream and hope. For in the heart of the
young hope is ever rampant. It is only when years of experience have
shown hope's futility that the radiant companion forsakes the soul.
Forsakes! Ah, in thousands of instances scarcely forsakes--rather takes
a higher ground, shows a larger prospect. In the dreariness of wintry
age hope is still busy, gilding not the transitory _here_, but the
lasting beyond.

Adèle had not reached that stage of experience. Her young heart, though
ready at times to look forward even to that shadowy beyond, was yet
very busy with the _here_, the sweet earthly happiness which all young
humanity is earnestly craving.

That evening there seemed very little to feed her persistent
hopefulness. Another day and yet another, with no line from Arthur,
the consciousness of his devotion, of his thoughtful affection,
making his silence the more strange and ominous; winter in its dreary
desolation looking in at her from sea and land, telling loudly of the
difficulty--even perhaps the danger--of travelling; the life of her
friend waning, passing in its miserable famine of all that makes a
woman's joy. These were the gloomy thoughts with which the hopefulness
of the young soul struggled that evening.

For a few moments they overpowered her. In a dark phalanx rose before
her mind tales of sorrow and wrong; pallid faces passed her by, tones
of bitter misery rang in her ears. She covered her face with her hands.
"They are the many," she cried, "the great multitude! Why should any
think to be happy? God help us! for this is a dreary world." The words
were spoken half aloud, for in the momentary despair she had forgotten
everything but this--the aching of her own heart, the sadness of a
hope-forsaken world.

She was aroused by a slight rustling among the leaves outside.

The house was very solitary, and the lonely women had more than once
experienced that nervous terror which shudders at a sound and sees an
intruder in every shadow. However, they kept nothing of great value
in the house, and they had hitherto had no real cause for uneasiness.
But Adèle in all her night-terrors had never heard anything so meaning
as this stealthy rustling among the branches. She leaped to her feet
and peered out into the night. This time she had not been deceived. At
the gate there was a vision of fluttering garments. Adèle thought she
recognized the form that was passing out into the night. With blanched
face and trembling limbs she flew, rather than ran, across the room.
It was almost too dark to see, but feeling on hands and knees the
young girl discovered, to her horror, that the sofa was empty. Those
fluttering garments were Margaret's. An access of fever had come on. In
its delirium she had rushed out to meet certain death in the cold and
desolate night.

For a moment Adèle was almost paralyzed by this new misfortune--fruit,
as she told herself bitterly, of her own carelessness; then gathering
her wits rapidly together, she threw a shawl round her head and rushed
out in pursuit of the fugitive. She did not even wait to let the
landlady and the old nurse know of their patient's flight. Time was the
great consideration. Margaret might be stopped and brought back before
any serious mischief should have happened.

And thus it came about that the two elder women, who were in the lower
part of the house enjoying a cup of tea and a chat, in the pleasant
relaxation of that anxiety which had been oppressing them all, knew
nothing whatever of the strange commotion, of the mysterious flight of
the two younger, for whose safety either of them would have staked her
life.

The little parlor was deserted, the red fire flickered and waned, the
door of the house stood open, through the dark hall the wind whistled
and shrieked; while all the time, outside in the darkness, by the
shores of the moaning sea, life and death, reason and madness, love and
folly were carrying on their fierce, impatient strife.

      *       *       *       *       *

Had Adèle waited for one more moment, she might have been startled
by another sound. Scarcely had she left the little house, wild with
anxiety, to discover and bring back her friend, before there came from
the direction opposite to that she had taken the sound of horses' hoofs
that echoed through the silent night.

For this was what had been happening in the mean time. A carriage had
been driving as rapidly as a very poor horse could take it in the
direction of the cottage. Inside it were a young man and a child,
neither of whom spoke a word for the intensity of their outlook into
the night.

A horseman rode beside them, and at times it seemed as if his
impatience could scarcely be restrained, as if it were impossible for
him to suit himself to the slow movement of the carriage.

There was a cry at last from the child, which the horseman heard. He
half stopped and bent over her, then rose again erect and vigorous,
for the little hand had pointed out his goal, and the dark spot, still
in the distance, but faintly showing against the background of sea by
the solitary lamp that shone before it, was the shrine that held his
treasure. A moment, and Maurice Grey was tearing wildly along the road.
Would that faint light ever grow nearer? Maurice was wont to say in
after years that those minutes spent in rushing through the darkness
were the longest he had ever known.

But the longest minutes have an end. The panting horse was drawn up
at last before the solitary lamp. Blindly and madly, not thinking of
what might become of it, Maurice threw himself from his saddle, burst
open the little garden-gate, and trying, but in vain, to steady his
trembling nerves, walked up the path.

But as he looked at the cottage his fierce pace slackened, and a sudden
horror seized him, for in its dreary solitude it looked like death.

Maurice stopped for a moment. The heart of the strong man, the heart
that had borne so much, beat violently. He thought he must have fallen
to the ground, but gathering himself together he pressed forward,
trying to reassure his coward heart.

"They are in the back part of the house, of course," he muttered. The
door of the cottage stood wide open. "Strange," he thought, "on so cold
a night!"

Noiselessly the husband, who was a stranger in his wife's house, passed
into the little hall, and still that sickening silence, that dreariness
of solitude, met him. A faint light glimmered from the remnants of
the parlor-fire. He peered into the room; it was dark and seemingly
empty. Maurice struck a match and looked round him. The red ashes, the
position of the chairs, the tumbled covers, the crushed sofa pillow,
all told of recent occupation; and indeed the two fugitives could
scarcely have gone many yards from the house. As he gazed the haggard
face relaxed. Crossing to the sofa, he stooped and pressed his lips to
the pillow, for something told him that Margaret's head had been there.
But his match died down; he was left again in darkness.

"Was anything stirring," he asked himself, "in this house of death?
Where was she the traces of whose presence he was finding in the
deserted room?"

He decided to remain there for a moment. It could not but be that
before many moments should pass the music of her voice would meet
his ears, and then he could discover himself. But waiting met with
the same fate as searching. Not a sound, not a breath broke the
stillness. It was a strange coincidence. In the very room, by the very
spot where the deserted wife, the bereaved mother had thrown herself
down, almost lost, even to herself, in her anguish, he stood, he
waited, his heart sinking with vague dread, his spirit fainting in its
sickening suspense, the man who had deserted her, the husband who had
misunderstood, who had lightly judged her.

The first sound which met Maurice's ear was the rattling of the wheels
that announced the approach of his companions. He rose and went to the
door of the room. Surely this new sound would be heard. In the little
hall, on the narrow staircase, he might catch the fluttering of her
dress. Before she knew of his coming he might clasp her in his arms.

As the little Laura sprang from the carriage, and danced rather than
walked along the path, up the steps, through the hall, the driver rang
the outside bell with some violence, and this at last proved effectual.
Maurice's hungry ears detected movement, but it came from below. There
was the sound of chairs being pushed back, of steps on the lower
passages and stairs.

The fact was this: Jane and the old nurse, worn out by nursing and
anxiety, having ascertained that Margaret was sleeping calmly, had
allowed themselves to be beguiled by the pleasant fumes of tea and
the kindly warmth of the kitchen fire into giving way themselves.
During Margaret's flight and Adèle's pursuit, during the arrival of
Margaret's husband and the subsequent drawing up of the carriage, they
had been sleeping, one on each side of the kitchen fire.

Jane was the first to be aroused--the first, that is to say, to gain
full possession of her senses, for the violent ringing of the outside
bell had startled the old woman so much that at first she scarcely knew
where she was. Jane got up at once, straightened her sprightly figure,
smoothed her hair and apron and struck a light. "Who in the world may
it be?" she muttered indignantly: "I'd be bound it's one of them boys.
The mistress just gone off too, and frightening her out of her wits.
Them sort hasn't got a spark of feeling about them."

She walked leisurely up the stairs with her candle, and opened the door
that led into the hall. She had scarcely done so before a blast of wind
sweeping through the hall put it out. In the next moment her arm was
seized, she was dragged into the semi-light outside and confronted with
Maurice's fierce eyes. For while Jane was preparing herself to answer
the importunate bell the child had been up and down; she had opened
the door of the different rooms, all well known to her; she had come
down trembling and weeping to say that they were dark and empty, and
where--where was mamma?

There was reproach in the wailing cry; in her rapid journey, in her
enforced separation from L'Estrange, in her weariness, in her childish
sorrow, this had been the one consolation: at the end of it she should
see her mother, she should rest in her arms. And now, when the end
had come, when the home so intensely longed for had been found, the
promised remained unfulfilled.

The blow to Laura was all the more cruel that it was utterly
unexpected. No sad forebodings had crossed _her_ young mind. She had
pictured the little parlor and the lighted lamp and her mother's gentle
face and open arms, and then the rest in those arms, the telling out of
her pent-up woes.

The cottage had been found, but within it was only empty darkness.
Laura threw herself down on the sofa, and her wailing cry reached
the ears of her father as he dragged the landlady out into the
light: "Mamma has gone, and mon père is dead." That and his own
disappointment made him almost mad for the moment. Seizing Jane by the
shoulder, he shook her roughly as he looked down into her white face:
"What have you done with her, woman? Speak, or by Heaven I will make
you!"




CHAPTER X.

_LAURA AND HER FATHER._

    Oh, there is never sorrow of heart
      That shall lack a timely end,
    If but to God we turn and ask
      Of Him to be our Friend.


It was an awful moment for the bewildered landlady. The wildness of the
night, the mystery of that empty room, the violence of the disappointed
man, brought vividly to her mind that other night when, but for the
interposing power of God, her hands might have been imbrued with the
ineffaceable stain of crime. It had passed, it had been forgiven, but
in this moment, her senses scarcely awake, the suddenness and mystery
around her, it seemed almost as if the deed had been done, as if the
accuser were before her.

Instead of answering she cowered and shrank, while Maurice in his
agony, without ever relaxing that vice-like grasp, repeated his fierce
inquiries. "You know; I can read it in your coward face. Great God,
give me patience!" And as he spoke he shook her roughly, making the
poor woman all the more powerless to utter a word.

Only a few moments had passed, but they seemed ages to them both,
before Arthur came out among the trees. His face was very pale, for
in the interval the old woman had been telling him all that had
happened--at least all she knew. It appeared that they were totally
unexpected, for although both Maurice and Arthur had written to
announce their arrival, in the uncertainty of the winter-post from
Switzerland they had preceded their letters.

The continued suspense after Mrs. Churchill's cheerful presence was
withdrawn had been too much for Margaret to bear up against, but her
sudden disappearance was as much of a mystery to the old woman as it
had been to them; she connected it, however, with her illness, and the
conclusions she drew were very gloomy. In the whole circumstance there
was only one ray of hope--Margaret's faithful friend was with her, as
Adèle was missing too. But how had she allowed her to leave the house?
why had she not called for assistance?

Arthur, as he went out to meet the disappointed man, felt hope sink
down in his heart. But though pale and sad his face was resolute. It
would be necessary to act, and to act at once. Taking Maurice by the
arm, he drew away from his grasp the terrified woman. "Mr. Grey," he
said, "listen to me. Your wife is out there in the night. Be calm or
nothing can be done. My cousin is with her."

Maurice gave a sudden start. "What? how?" he gasped.

"I tell you," replied the younger man, "you _must_ command yourself.
She has had a dangerous fever; it may be delirium--no one knows. In any
case they must be instantly followed. We certainly did not pass them
in the direction of the station. Take you the road to the sea; I with
Martha will go inland. Mr. Grey, do you hear?" for Maurice was staring
wildly about him.

"In the night, by the sea," he muttered, staggering blindly against the
wall.

Arthur was in despair. This was worse than all; _how_ could he make
him understand? But at that very moment help came from an unexpected
source. A little soft hand was put into that of the bewildered man,
large spiritual eyes looked up into his face. Laura had heard the last
words. Her father's emotion had for the first time brought him near to
her.

"Dear papa, you will find mamma. Come!"

He submitted to the leading hand, walked with the little one down
the garden-path to the gate, outside of which the saddled horse was
standing, quietly cropping the wayside grass.

The fearless child caught the bridle and put it into her father's hand.
Then first Maurice seemed to understand what was wanted. He took the
bridle from the child's hand and stooped to kiss her on the brow.
"Pray for us, Laura," he whispered--"your father and mother."

A moment, and the good horse was spurred forward again, this time on
the sandy road that led down to the sea.

Happily, the moon came out from a rent in the clouds.

The child looked up. "He will see mamma," she whispered; then, as the
horseman disappeared behind the trees, her strong little heart failed.

She threw herself down on her knees in the wet grass by the
garden-gate, and clinging to its posts poured out her sorrow: "O God,
save mamma. O God, bring her back to Laura."

It was the landlady who found her there.

After her first terror about the strange events of the evening, Jane
vaguely remembered to have caught a glimpse of the little one, and her
first thought was to search for her in every direction, for she was
alone in the house, Nurse Martha having at once started off with Arthur
to look for the wanderers.

She found Laura at last by the garden-gate, and in spite of resistance
carried her in to the warm fireside, for, practical in the midst of
her excitement, Jane had rekindled the parlor fire, and it was blazing
merrily.

"Miss Laura, my dear, think what your mamma will say if you're ill too;
and you know you'll be ill if you stay out in the cold."

This made her submit at last to be wrapped up warmly and laid on
the parlor sofa. It was well for her. The fatigue and subsequent
excitement, the exhaustion of her sorrow, and the pleasant warmth
combined to cause a drowsiness that could not be restrained.

Laura forgot all her troubles. While the fate of her parents still
trembled in the balance she slept childhood's unbroken sleep, and Jane
was set free to run up to her own little charge, who had been aroused
by the commotion and was crying out for her lustily.

She found him so excited that as it was impossible to divide herself
between parlor and bedroom, she thought it well to wrap him up warmly
and bring him down.

The bright fire was as effectual with Willie as it had been with
Laura. Jane laid him down on the sofa, and the hard, unsympathetic
woman felt her eyes grow dim and her heart soft as she watched the
quiet sleep of the little ones--the one round and rosy as the day, the
other pale, with a troubled look even in sleep, but fair as one of
God's angels.




CHAPTER XI.

_UNITED AT LAST._

    One moment these were heard and seen--another
    Past; and the two who stood beneath that night,
    Each only saw or heard or felt the other.


Adèle had been swift--swift as the wind. Instinctively in her rapid
departure she had chosen their favorite road, that which led down to
the sea, but at first it seemed as if all her efforts were destined to
be in vain. The fluttering garments had disappeared; on the white road,
stretching away into the distance, was no sign of the wanderer.

Choking down the horror which possessed her, the young girl tried to
collect her senses. A few moments ago their patient had been sleeping
so peacefully that their fears had been set at rest, they had believed
her out of danger; now--Adèle was inexperienced, but rapidly in her
despair old stories of disease, madness, delirium, unnatural strength
crowded in upon her mind.

What if at last the long anguish had destroyed the fair mind? What if
a dull horror was to swamp their hopes for ever? If--if--She dared
not look this last woe in the face. Impulsively she pressed on, her
trembling limbs endowed with a new strength, her young heart breathing
out its resolves upon the night: "I will save her--I. Great God, in Thy
mercy help me."

She had come to a turn in the road. Rounding it, she made an eager
bound forward, for there through the darkness she could distinguish at
last the outlines of Margaret's form.

Pressing her hands to her head, Adèle tried to think. If only the old
nurse had been with her, or their landlady! How was she to act? how in
her single strength to arrest and bring back the fugitive?

Yet there was something in Margaret's gliding movement which made the
girl think rather of somnambulism than of delirium. If this should
be the cause of her flight Adèle knew that a sudden awakening might
possibly be dangerous to health or reason.

Struggling with her terror, trying to come to some right conclusion,
she at last reached her friend. Close by was a little path which Adèle
and Margaret know well. It led off from the road, through a wilderness
of stunted grass and tangled weeds, to the sea.

Here Margaret paused a moment, as if in hesitation. During that
moment's pause Adèle looked at her fixedly. The young girl's last
suspicion had been true. By the wide-open, sightless eyes, by the
groping of the hands, by the soft, continuous murmuring of the lips,
she saw her friend was asleep.

Straining her ears, she distinguished through the moaning wind and
sobbing sea some of the words that were falling from Margaret's lips.
"Which way?" And then groping forward, with that blind, pitiful
movement of the hands, "To the sea? Cold, so cold, but," with a smile
that made Adèle weep, "Maurice is there."

As she spoke, Margaret turned into the winding path, and Adèle
shivered. What awful dream was bewildering her brain?

Throwing her arm gently round the sleeper, she tried to draw her back
to the road.

"Maurice is here," she said in a tone as dreamy as her own; "come."

To her intense relief, Margaret obeyed her guidance, the shore was
left behind, they were passing on to their quiet home; but the relief
was transient. Scarcely had they lost sight of the sea before Margaret
stopped--the bewildered look returned to her face--there began that
dark, dreary groping of the hands. "I have lost him," she cried in a
voice pitiful as a child's wail, and turning once more she pressed
forward to the sands with a swift-gliding step. What could the young
girl do? In her powerlessness the tears rolled down her face.

Her arms were still round her friend, but she did not dare to constrain
her. "Margaret," she whispered pleadingly, her lips close to her
friend's ear.

Quietly Margaret turned her pale face, over which a strange, sweet
smile was beaming. "Coming, my beloved," she answered softly.

They had left the grass and tangled weeds behind them; they were
treading the soft yellow sands; behind them was the warm earth, touched
by the light of a young crescent moon, set like a silver bow in the
parting clouds; before them, dark and hungry, roaring evermore like a
monster chained, lay the awful sea.

Adèle groaned. If indeed a conflict were before them, she wished it
had taken place above, while those terrible waters were comparatively
distant, and Margaret was now pressing forward as though _they_ were
her goal. "Margaret, my darling! for pity's sake awake!" she cried in
her desperation.

But Margaret only answered the voice of her dream. Again came that
strange, sweet smile--again her lips moved: "Coming, Maurice, coming."
Then, as Adèle with all her force tried to drag her back to the path,
"Patience, my beloved!" and as she spoke the young girl felt in her
quiet resistance the strength of madness.

Lifting up her heart in a passionate prayer for help to the one Being
who seems in these awful moments near and real to weak humanity, Adèle
made another effort. "Margaret!" she cried, and the ring of her young
voice sounded clear above the tumult of wind and waves--"Margaret,
listen to me."

Had she been understood at last? Was the terrible moment over?
Certainly her voice had pierced the films of sleep. Into the fixed eyes
came a sudden meaning. Margaret shivered, and pausing in her mad flight
looked before her wildly. But not yet was the danger over--rather it
was prolonged and intensified. The quiet somnambulism had given place
to the worst kind of delirium.

With a shriek Margaret threw her hands above her head and tore herself
free from the detaining grasp. "Maurice!" she cried in the strange
exaltation of this madness. "I saw him there--they shall keep me from
him no longer. Beloved, wait for me; I am coming."

One despairing glance Adèle threw around her; no human being was in
sight; she felt numb and powerless, while the frail being, the faint
pulsations of whose ebbing life they had been watching through those
anxious nights and days, seemed endowed suddenly with a giant's
strength. Sobbing convulsively, Adèle threw herself upon Margaret, and
seizing her by the waist dragged her backward with all her remaining
strength. A moment of struggle; then she felt herself being borne along
the sands, her arms still round Margaret, but all her weight as nothing
in comparison with this fierce energy of disease. Cooler and damper
blew the wind, nearer and nearer came the sound of beating waves; at
last the light foam began to sprinkle their faces; yet the faithful
girl would not loosen her grasp--rather she would die with her friend.

A moment, and memory, grown acute in the death-agony, showed her
pleasant scenes and soft home-pictures, children's faces, blazing
fires, fair poetic dreams of beauty and use, Arthur and the to-come
which was to have been so bright,--all to pass away for ever in the
pitiless suction of those on-creeping waves.

Another moment, and she felt the crawling foam about her; a wave fell
thundering even at their feet, throwing over them its cold salt spray;
and the young girl moaned. There would still be time to escape, to
return to life and its warm beauty. Would she draw back? A thousand
times no. In the numbing of every faculty, in the passing away of every
joy, that grasp of the slender arms grew only the mightier. She would
save her friend if she could. If not, all she had left was to die with
her. Like a black cloud that wave hung over them. What delayed its
onward sweep? Adèle used to say afterward that it was a miracle, for if
it had fallen they were lost, beyond the possibility of salvation.

But while they stood, their feet in the foam and that ominous cloud
above them--for Margaret's impetuous rushing had ceased, and Adèle
lacked power to drag her backward--there was a shout, a cry. Another
of those long moments, and a strong arm was extended; they were drawn
on to the dry sands, and even as they stood there shivering the
mighty wave fell, sucking back into the watery waste that lay beyond
the treacherous foam where their feet had been. Margaret fell back
unconscious, while Adèle for the moment scarcely thought either of her
or their preserver.

As she felt the solid ground beneath her feet and the cool air around
her she fell on her knees. "Saved, saved!" she cried, and the labored
hysteric sobs showed how terrible her excitement had been.

But then came other thoughts. Had they escaped the sea only to meet
worse dangers? Who was this deliverer? She turned round to look at him.
By the light of the moon, which still struggled through the clouds, she
was able to see his face. There was about it a wildness that seemed
to confirm her worst fears, and his arms were about Margaret--he was
gazing into her face.

She did not seem to be aware of it. She was all but inanimate, for,
although not alive to the terrible danger of her situation, Margaret
had been exhausted by the struggle.

The sight aroused Adèle. Though her knees were trembling under her from
fatigue and exhaustion, though her bosom was heaving with sobs that
refused to be choked down, the brave little champion had still a work
to do. Her friend was helpless; she must defend her.

Adèle got up, and showing a pale but resolute front touched the
stranger on the arm. He turned to her with a sudden start and muttered
apology for his neglect; he did not seem to have been aware of her
presence, and as she caught a nearer view of the dark face, lined with
suffering, convulsed with emotion, some suspicion of the truth began to
dawn upon her mind.

A flutter of hope, more exciting than all the previous agitation,
nearly choked her; the dignified little sentence in which she had
intended, while thanking him for his timely assistance, to rebuke
his presumption and recall him to a sense of his duty as a man and
a gentleman, died away on her lips; she could only stammer out
incoherently, "Who are you? For pity's sake tell me!"

The dark eyes which had been scanning the pale calm beauty of
Margaret's face were turned on her. "I am her husband," he said
simply; his voice trembled, he spoke with difficulty. "And you have
saved her," he added softly. But this Adèle scarcely heard. She had
turned away. She was passing as fast as her wearied limbs could carry
her along the path that led to the road. She would leave them alone
together, and--the cottage held her Arthur.

       *       *       *       *       *

They were united at last. By the shores of the surging sea, the
desolate night around them, they stood together, and at first, so
overpowering were the emotions that swept over the man's soul, he
could think only of this--that they were together, that she was in his
arms, safe from harm and danger--that once more he was gazing into her
face--a face so calm and pure that even in this moment Maurice cursed
himself for not having understood better the strong purity, the beauty,
the loveliness of the soul it revealed.

After the delirium which had so nearly been fatal a great calm had
fallen upon Margaret. With the touch of Maurice's hand, with the
encircling of his arms, the unrest seemed to have fled. She did
not look up, apparently she did not know him; but her eyes closed,
her breathing became soft and regular, she lay back in his arms
contentedly, like a weary child that has found its resting-place.

In times of intense feeling a life seems to be condensed into a moment.
Scarcely more than a moment had Maurice been holding her to his
throbbing heart before he recovered from his stupor to a knowledge of
the necessity for immediate action.

The winds of the wintry night were beating about his darling. She was
ill, unconscious, it might be dying. Her clothes were drenched with
the sea-foam that had besprinkled them in their wild flight, her hair,
damp with the night vapors, was clinging about her face, the shoes in
which she had started from the cottage had been carried out to sea,
the delicate lavender dress and soft lace ruffles with which she had
adorned herself that she might look fair in the eyes of the husband she
had gone out to meet in her delirium, were torn in the struggle that
had taken place, were bespattered with mud and sea-sand. It was not in
such a plight as this that Margaret had thought of presenting herself
to the long-absent. But when does anything in this world correspond
with those same dreams and ideas of ours? In Maurice's eyes she was
fair--perhaps all the fairer for her weakness. Hastily he took off his
fur-lined cloak and wrapped it round her, then he raised her in his
arms to carry her up the road.

This time the horse had been tethered. Maurice had caught sight of
the light dresses in the moonlight just at the moment when Adèle had
succeeded in arousing Margaret from the dangerous sleep, and there
had been a moment's hesitation. Totally unprepared for the impetuous
rush upon the sea, he had taken the precaution, before following the
fugitives on foot, of tying up the horse, that it might be ready for
any emergency.

He was glad he had done so, for the emotion of that evening seemed to
have affected his physical power. Under the weight of his wife, his
recovered treasure, he staggered and almost fell.

Margaret remained unconscious, and Maurice fervently hoped that for
the moment she would continue in the same state. He was fearful of the
effect upon her mind of a sudden awakening in his arms: but it was not
to be. Just as they reached the point of junction between the path and
high-road a faint tremor convulsed her; she opened her eyes and turned
them on the dark face that was stooping over her.

Maurice was afraid the delirium was about to return; but gazing at her
anxiously he saw, to his astonishment, that there was no bewilderment
in her eyes; only, as she met her husband's gaze, she glided from his
arms, and before he knew what she meant to do she was kneeling at his
feet on the moonlit road. Her hands were clasped, her pale face looked
haggard in its earnestness. "Maurice! Maurice, forgive me!" she cried.

At the sight of her husband the memory of that one moment of weakness
had flashed over her soul with such a bitter force that until his
forgiveness had been gained, she could not forgive herself.

But Maurice! If an angel had knelt to him he could scarcely have been
more astonished. In his agitation he seized her almost roughly, and
raising her from the ground pressed her once more to his breast, while
the hot tears fell on her face and neck.

"Margaret, you will kill me! Beloved, it is I who should kneel--I who
should make my life one long repentance."

Then she twined her arms about his neck and laid her head upon his
shoulder, but she was not altogether satisfied. To the craving of her
weakness his answer was like an evasion: she persisted in her demand:
"You are good to me, dear, but you have not answered. Tell me, tell me!
Is my miserable folly forgiven?"

"Margaret, for pity's sake--" he began.

But she stopped him, and in her look and tone there was some of the
wildness of disease. "I see how it is," she moaned; "he is too kind to
say it, but I know my folly was beyond forgiveness. Have I not felt it?
O God! O God! pity!" Her voice sank into a moan. Her head fell heavily
on her breast: she began to cry plaintively, like a child that has been
crossed in its whim.

They were close now to the spot where the horse had been tethered; the
moon shone brightly above them; their dark shadows made a blot on the
whiteness of the moonlit road. Maurice paused a moment, and the drops
of agony stood on his brow.

He felt the urgent necessity for getting her home with as little delay
as possible, but in the state in which she was he dared not put her
out of his arms. He bowed his head over her till his cheek touched
hers: "Be comforted, my wife, my own--mine now and for ever. Forgive
you?--yes, yes." And then looking up he turned his pale face to the
skies, as if calling Heaven for a witness to his extremity: "I have
forgiven her--I who wronged her, who tortured her, who vexed her pure
soul by mistrust! God preserve my reason!"

But Margaret took his answer to her heart. She smiled again, the
wildness left her eyes, and a deep, restful calm took its place. She
said no more, but for the first time since their meeting by the waters
she pressed her lips to his.

Without demur she allowed him to lift her into the saddle and to
support her with his one hand, while with the other he took the bridle
and led the horse at a quick walk to the cottage, which was about half
a mile distant from the little path that led down to the sea.

Before they had gone very far Margaret had relapsed into total
unconsciousness, and Maurice was obliged to mount the horse himself,
taking her before him on the saddle.

Meanwhile, Adèle had reached the cottage, just in time to stop Arthur
and the old nurse from starting on another fruitless search.

As the horse with its double burden paced along the road, she and her
cousin, their arms lovingly intertwined, stood at the gate of the
cottage-garden waiting for its approach out of the shadows. They were
together and alone--Nurse Martha and the landlady being busy indoors,
making everything ready in Margaret's room, for the young girl had
told her tale of horrors, and they feared it would be impossible for
Margaret to survive so much.

But Adèle had seen her calm face, and she answered the doleful
prophecies of the nurses by a smile: "You'll see, nurse; our Margaret
will soon be better now."

They had been extremely anxious to seize the young girl, after her
breathless entry and thrilling tale, and put her to bed as an invalid,
but Adèle decidedly refused submission. The sight of Arthur was like
a tonic to her trembling nerves. She would only allow her poor little
wet feet to be dried and warmed by the parlor fire, close to which the
children were still sleeping, and her wet clothes to be changed. As to
shutting herself out from Arthur when she had just found him, it was
simply cruel to ask it.

She was the heroine of the moment, for although her own tale had
barely done justice to the self-forgetfulness with which that terrible
struggle had been conducted, they yet heard enough to know that in her
faithful devotion she had risked her own life, and Arthur, the old
woman, the landlady looked upon the young girl with a new respect.

"What did you think of, Adèle," asked her cousin as, wrapped up warmly,
she stood clinging to him by the garden-gate--"what did you think of
when that ugly wave was so close to you?" Doubtless, Arthur knew what
the answer would be. Of course the heroine had thought about her hero.
How could it possibly have been otherwise?

"Dear," she replied softly, and the ready tears flowed down her cheeks,
"I thought of you, and how miserable and lonely you would be. Margaret
gone, and--and--"

"My Adèle gone," he said very softly, filling up the pause.

And then--ah yes--and then all kinds of foolish things no doubt were
said and done, for these young people were, as it will be seen, very
young, and what is more very much in love; and as we all know the kind
of things, perhaps it is scarcely necessary to put them down in black
and white.

Black and white is not the dress for lovers' nothings, especially the
sweet almost childish nothings that would flow from lips like Adèle's
and Arthur's. They should be written in such colors as the blushing
east can give, inscribed by the pen of one of God's angels.

For young as Adèle and Arthur were, they knew what they were doing.
They had passed through the hand of the Great Instructor, so terrible
in His aspect, so wise, even loving, in His ways of dealing with weak
humanity. In the furnace of suffering their hearts had been tried, and
they knew how to value their happiness, how to prize one another.




CHAPTER XII.

_A LONG SLEEP._

                     O wind!
    If winter comes, can spring be far behind?


Everything was ready in Margaret's room--warm blankets, steaming cans
of water, hot fomentations, cordials of many a different kind--for her
nurses were afraid that the unconsciousness of which Adèle had spoken
might, after her previous excitement, be very difficult to conquer.
They were surprised, then, when Maurice at last carried her in and laid
her down, to find that she bore every appearance of being wrapped in a
quiet, healthy sleep; indeed, so convinced was her husband that this,
and this only, was the cause of her unconsciousness, that he would
allow no means to be used for her restoration, at least until the
morning, when the doctor from the neighboring town had already promised
to look in upon them.

Nurse Martha shook her head. There was something mysterious about it
all. "Who ever heard," she asked Jane in whispers, "of a body sleeping
awa' that gait, and she in a dangerous fever that had wellnigh ta'en
her life?"

But in spite of protest Maurice's wishes were obeyed, Margaret's wet
things were removed as quietly as possible by the experienced old
woman, and she only stirred once during the process. Her husband
watched her sleep that night. Kindly but peremptorily he sent everyone
away, and sat himself by his wife's side, counting the very pulsations
of her heart as the hours of the night passed by. The old nurse and
the landlady (they had insisted upon sending the younger people to
bed) watched by turns during the night in the little parlor adjoining
the bedroom, for neither of them had much belief in the efficiency of
this new care-taker. But no sound came from the room where the husband
was watching the death-like repose of her he had wronged and deserted,
the woman who was suffering, as he told himself bitterly, for his
uncomprehending folly. Once or twice during that long watch he grew
alarmed, the rest was so deep; but putting his ear to her heart he
heard the pulsations, faint yet regular, and he was comforted.

So the night went by, and in the morning he could no longer keep his
treasure to himself; they would all come in to know how she was, to
watch and wonder. The little Laura was the first to creep into the
room. She had been told on the preceding night that her mother had been
found, but was too ill to see her--that she would doubtless be better
in the morning. Submitting to the inevitable had become a habit with
Laura. She had allowed herself to be undressed and put to bed, but very
early, in night-dress and bare toes, she made a voyage of discovery to
find out where her mamma could be.

When, as she softly opened the door of Margaret's room, the little
child saw her father sitting dressed on a chair by the bedside, and
her mother, so white and silent, in the bed, she stopped suddenly,
trembling from head to foot. Laura had heard of death, though she had
never seen it, and this solemn hush, this silent watching, struck like
a chill upon her heart; she turned very pale, and seemed half afraid to
cross the room, but her father called her: "Mamma is asleep, darling;
come here and see her." He took her up and laid her down on the bed
beside Margaret, telling her to be very still. Laura scarcely required
the warning. She crept close to her mother. The strange child could
not have spoken at that moment, she was so absolutely content. And
Maurice had to turn away from her searching gaze; he would not have his
child see that tears were gathering in his eyes at the sight of them
together--the mother and child united one to the other, given back to
his arms.

But still that sleep went on, and all but Maurice grew uneasy. The
doctor came in at a tolerably early hour, but went away again after
giving utterance to a few commonplaces. It was evident that he was
puzzled. He asked repeatedly whether any narcotic had been given to
her, and when he was answered in the negative shook his head ominously.
She had better, he said, be left to herself; it might possibly be
dangerous to arouse her. Nature in some cases was the best guide; he
would call again.

The hours of the day passed by--morning, noon, evening, and still
Maurice watched, and still he hoped, while still there was no cessation
of that death-like trance. Evening passed into night, and all but
Maurice gave up hope. They were allowed to come into the room and
share the watch, for there was not one in the little house who did not
enter deeply into the anxiety. The night deepened, and still no sign
of life from the sleeper. Adèle's cheeks became pale and her eyes red
with frequent weeping; this seemed so desolate an ending to their hopes
and anxieties. On the child's young face the shadow deepened. She had
found her mother, but that mother was deaf to her little one's voice,
unconscious even of her presence; the old nurse's gestures grew more
and more mysterious, only Maurice retained his quiet confidence.

The hours of the night passed by; none of them would go to bed. If
those eyes were ever again to open, each one wished to be the first to
hear the joyful news. The night waned, and even Maurice grew restless.
His face resumed the old haggard look; oftener and oftener he applied
to her lips the testing mirror, which still at each trial gave the
answering dimness. The night passed into morning, the night-lamp showed
a yellow flame, the white dawn began to struggle with the darkness;
only Laura and her father were in the room. The child was watching her
mother's face, Maurice had turned away to draw up the blind; perhaps
the breaking of the morning-light might arouse the sleeper; they were
afraid as yet to use stronger means. Suddenly the child gave a cry. He
looked hastily at the bed; Margaret was in the same position. There was
the same death-like immobility of face, the same rigidity of attitude.

But Laura's eyes were rapt and eager. "Mamma moved, she will soon
awake," she cried, and before her father could stop her she had danced
out of the room to proclaim the joyful news.

Adèle was dozing on the parlor sofa, Arthur was pacing the room
restlessly. He saw the light in the little one's eyes and stopped.
Laura to Arthur was a kind of prophet, a superior being.

"Mamma will soon awake," she said, and passed on to tell the old nurse,
who was in the kitchen preparing restoratives of various kinds, for she
had made up her mind that some means would have to be used to break
this death-like sleep.

Adèle had heard the child's voice. She started from the sofa. "Let us
go to her," she cried, and Arthur and she went into the room together.

They were joined after a few moments by the child, the nurse, the
landlady, all eager to find the happy news confirmed.

The child was right. Margaret was certainly waking. The death-like
stillness had gone from her face, her hands moved, she sighed now and
then.

Maurice hung over her, breathless in his anxiety; he would meet her
first glance. Adèle and Arthur stood together at the foot of the bed;
the child had crept on to it, and lay very silent close beside her
mother. It seemed a long time that they waited there together, but when
the end came it was like a shock to them all.

A shiver convulsed her, her eyelids quivered; slowly she raised them,
and first fixed her eyes upon her husband, then looked in a bewildered,
half-frightened way about the room.

Maurice raised her on his arm. "Margaret," he whispered, and she looked
at him again.

"Is it morning?" she asked, and when he had answered in the
affirmative, "I knew it would come," she said, then lay silent, smiling
calmly.

Evidently as yet she did not know where she was, and Maurice was
perplexed.

Adèle came to the rescue. Motioning to him to give up his place, she
stooped over her friend. "Margaret darling," she whispered, "Maurice
has come, and little Laura and Arthur."

The familiar face and well-known voice seemed to arouse her. "It is not
a dream, then," she said. "No," for the little Laura's clasping arms
were about her neck, "my child is here, and Maurice; I thought I saw
him last night and that he forgave me. Was it true, Adèle?"

Her voice sank, for she was very weak, but the old nurse came forward
with a cordial, which restored her so much that her mind began
gradually to take in all that had happened.

Later in the day they dressed her and laid her down once more on the
parlor sofa. Until then she had not spoken much, she had been in a
quiet, passive state, but with the familiar surroundings a full sense
of the reality of her dream-like happiness seemed to come to her. The
first person for whom she asked was Arthur.

In his boyish timidity he had vanished as soon as ever he had become
certain that she was really awake. Adèle found him and brought him into
the room. Margaret held out her hand. "How can I ever thank you, my
best, my most untiring friend?" she said.

And then--for he seemed as if he did not know how to answer--she drew
Adèle toward her and joined their hands.

"You will be happy," she said smiling--"perhaps all the happier
for this. Maurice"--he was sitting close beside her, his arm round
her shoulders--"we shall be happier too, for if God will we shall
understand better." Her voice sank, she looked dreamily over the sea:
"Morning is all the fairer for the black night that goes before. Dear,
we should thank Him even for our darkness."


THE END.





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