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                             TWO STRANGERS




                                  TWO
                               STRANGERS

                                  BY
                             MRS. OLIPHANT

                               NEW YORK
                        R. F. FENNO AND COMPANY
                           112 FIFTH AVENUE

                            COPYRIGHT, 1895
                        R. F. FENNO AND COMPANY




CHAPTER I.


“And who is this young widow of yours whom I hear so much about? I
understand Lucy’s rapture over any stranger; but you, too, mother--”

“I too--well, there is no particular witchcraft about it; a nice young
woman has as much chance with me as with any one, Ralph--”

“Oh, if it’s only a nice young woman--”

“It’s a great deal more,” said Lucy. “Why, Miss Jones at the school is a
nice young woman--don’t you be taken in by mother’s old-fashioned
stilts. She is a darling--she is as nice as nice can be. She’s pretty,
and she’s good, and she’s clever. She has read a lot, and seen a lot,
and been everywhere, and knows heaps and heaps of people, and yet just
as simple and as nice as if she had never been married, never had a
baby, and was just a girl like the rest of us--Mother! there is nothing
wrong in what I said?” Lucy suddenly cried, stopping short and blushing
all over with the innocent alarm of a youthfulness which had not been
trained to modern modes of speech.

“Nothing wrong, certainly,” said the mother, with a half smile;
“but--there is no need for entering into all these details.”

“They would have found out immediately, though,” said Lucy, with a
lowered voice, “that there was--Tiny, you know.”

The scene was a drawing-room in a country house looking out upon what
was at this time of year the rather damp and depressing prospect of a
park, with some fine trees and a great breadth of very green, very
mossy, very wet grass. It was only October, though the end of the month;
and in the middle of the day, in the sunshine, the trees, in all their
varied colors, were a fine sight, cheerful and almost exhilarating,
beguiling the eye; but now the sun was gone, the leaves were falling in
little showers whenever the faintest breath of air arose, and where the
green turf was not veiled by their many colored remnants, it was green
with that emerald hue which means only wet; one knew as one gazed across
it that one’s foot would sink in the spongy surface, and wet, wet would
be the boot, the skirt which touched it; the men in their
knickerbockers, or those carefully turned up trousers--which we hear are
the fashion in the dryest streets of Paris and New York--suffered
comparatively little. The brushwood was all wet, with blobs of moisture
on the long brambles and drooping leaves. The park was considered a
beautiful park, though not a very large one, but it was melancholy
itself to look out for hours together upon that green expanse in such an
evening. It was not a bad evening either. There was no rain; the clouds
hung low, but as yet had given forth no shower. The air was damp but yet
brisk. There was a faint yellow glimmer of what might have been sunset
in the sky.

The windows in the Wradisley drawing-rooms were large; one of them, a
vast, shallow bow, which seemed to admit the outside into the interior,
rather than to enlighten the interior with the view of what was outside.
Mrs. Wradisley sat within reach of, but not too near, a large, very red
fire--a fire which was like the turf outside, the growth of generations,
or at least had not at all the air of having been lighted to-day or any
recent day. It did not flame, but glowed steadily, adding something to
the color of the room, but not much to the light. Later in the season,
when larger parties assembled, there was tea in the hall for the
sportsmen and the ladies who waited for them; but Mrs. Wradisley thought
the hall draughty, and much preferred the drawing-room, which was
over-furnished after the present mode of drawing-rooms, but at least
warm, and free from draughts. She was working--knitting with white pins,
or else making mysterious chains and bridges in white wool with a
crochet-hook, her eyes being supposed to be not very strong, and this
kind of industry the best adapted for them. As to what Lucy was doing,
that defies description. She was doing everything and nothing. She had
something of a modern young lady’s contempt for every kind of
needlework, and, then, along with that, a great admiration for it as
something still more superior than the superiority of idleness. A needle
is one of the things that has this double effect. It is the scorn of a
great number of highly advanced, very cultured and superior feminine
people; but yet here and there will arise one, still more advanced and
cultured, who loves the old-fashioned weapon, and speaks of it as a
sacred implement of life. Lucy followed first one opinion and then
another. She had half a dozen pieces of work about, begun under the
influence of one class of her friends, abandoned under that of another.
She had a little studio, too, where she painted and carved, and executed
various of the humbler decorative arts, which, perhaps, to tell the
truth, she enjoyed more than art proper; but these details of the young
lady’s life may be left to show themselves where there is no need of
such vanities. Lucy was, at all events, whatever her other qualities
might be, a most enthusiastic friend.

“Well, I suppose we shall see her, and find out, as Lucy says, for
ourselves--not that it is of much importance,” the brother said, who had
begun this conversation.

“Oh! but it is of a great deal of importance,” cried Lucy. “Mrs. Nugent
is my chief friend. She is mother’s prime favorite. She is the nicest
person in the neighborhood. She is here constantly, or I am there. If
you mean not to like her, you might as well, without making any fuss
about it, go away.”

“Lucy!” cried Mrs. Wradisley, moved to indignation, and dropping all the
white fabric of wool on her knees, “your brother--and just come home
after all these years!”

“What nonsense! Of course I don’t mean that in the least,” Lucy cried.
“Ralph knows--_of course_, I would rather have him than--all the friends
in the world.”

There was a faltering note, however, in this profession. Why should she
like Ralph better than all the friends in the world? He was her brother,
that was true; but he knew very little of Lucy, and Lucy knew next to
nothing of him; he had been gone since she was almost a child--he came
back now with a big beard and a loud voice and a step which rang through
the house. It was evident he thought her, if not a child, yet the most
unimportant feminine person who did not count; and why should she prefer
him to her own nice friends, who were soft of voice and soft of step,
and made much of her, and thought as she did? It is acknowledged
universally that in certain circumstances, when the man is her lover, a
girl prefers that man to all the rest of the creation; but why, when it
is only your brother Raaf, and it may really be said that you don’t know
him--why should you prefer him to your own beloved friends? Lucy did not
ask herself this question--she said what she knew it was the right thing
to say, though with a faltering in her voice. And Ralph, who fortunately
did not care in the least, took no notice of what Lucy said. He liked
the little girl, his little sister, well enough; but it did not upset
the equilibrium of the world in the very least whether she preferred him
or not--if he had thought on the subject he would probably have said,
“More shame to her, the little insensible thing!” but he did not take
the trouble to give it a passing thought.

“I’ve got to show Bertram the neighborhood,” he said; “let him see we’re
not all muffs or clowns in the country. He has a kind of notion that is
about what the English aborigines are--and I daresay it’s true, more or
less.”

“Oh, Raaf!” cried Lucy, raising her little smooth head.

“Well, it’s natural enough. One doesn’t meet the cream of the cream in
foreign parts; unless you’re nothing but a sportsman, or a great swell
doing it as the right thing, the most of the fellows you meet out there
are loafers or blackguards, more or less.”

“It is a pity to form an estimate from blackguards,” said Mrs.
Wradisley, with a smile; “but that, I suppose, I may take as an
exaggeration too. We don’t see much of that kind here. Mr. Bertram is
much mistaken if he thinks--”

“Oh, don’t be too hasty, mother,” said Ralph. “We know the breed; our
respectable family has paid toll to the devil like other folks since it
began life, which is rather a long time ago. After a few hundred years
you get rather proud of your black sheep. I’m something of the kind
myself,” he added, in his big voice.

Mrs. Wradisley once more let the knitting drop in her lap. “You do
yourself very poor justice, Raaf--no justice at all, in fact. You are
not spotless, perhaps, but I hope that black--”

“Whitey-brown,” said her son. “I don’t care for the distinction; but one
white flower is perhaps enough in a family that never went in for
exaggerated virtue--eh? Ah, yes--I know.”

These somewhat incoherent syllables attended the visible direction of
Mrs. Wradisley’s eyes toward the door, with the faintest lifting of her
eyelids. The door had opened and some one had come in. And yet it is
quite inadequate to express the entrance of the master of the house by
such an expression. His foot made very little sound, but this was from
some quality of delicacy and refinement in his tread, not from any want
of dignity or even impressiveness in the man. He was dressed just like
the other men so far as appeared--in a grey morning suit, about which
there was nothing remarkable. Indeed, it would have been against the
perfection of the man had there been anything remarkable in his
dress--but it was a faultless costume, whereas theirs were but common
coats and waistcoats from the tailor’s, lined and creased by wear and
with marks in them of personal habit, such, for instance, as that minute
burnt spot on Raaf’s coat-pocket, which subtly announced, though it was
a mere speck, the thrusting in of a pipe not entirely extinguished, to
that receptacle. Mr. Wradisley, I need not say, did not smoke; he did
not do anything to disturb the perfect outline of an accomplished
gentleman, refined and fastidious, which was his natural aspect. To
smell of tobacco, or indeed of anything, would have put all the fine
machinery of his nature out of gear. He hated emotion as he hated--what
shall I say?--musk or any such villainous smell; he was always _point
devise_, body and soul. It is scarcely necessary to say that he was Mr.
Wradisley and the head of the house. He had indeed a Christian name, by
which he was called by his mother, brother, and sister, but not
conceivably by any one else. Mr. Wradisley was as if you had said Lord,
when used to him--nay, it was a little more, for lord is _tant soit peu_
vulgar and common as a symbol of rank employed by many other people,
whereas Mr., when thus elevated, is unique; the commonest of addresses,
when thus sublimated and etherealized, is always the grandest of all. He
was followed into the room by a very different person, a person of whom
the Wradisley household did not quite know what to make--a friend of
Ralph’s who had come home with him from the deserts and forests whence
that big sportsman and virtuous prodigal had come. This stranger’s name
was Bertram. He had not the air of the wilds about him as Ralph
Wradisley had. He was said to be a bigger sportsman even than Ralph, and
a more prodigious traveler; but this was only Ralph’s report, who was
always favorable to his friends; and Mr. Bertram looked more like a man
about town than an African traveler, except that he was burnt very brown
by exposure, which made his complexion, once fair, produce a sort of
false effect in contrast with his light hair, which the sun had rather
diminished than increased in color. Almost any man would have looked
noisy and rough who had the disadvantage to come into a room after Mr.
Wradisley; but Bertram bore the comparison better than most. Ralph
Wradisley had something of the aspect of a gamekeeper beside both of
them, though I think the honest fellow would have been the first to whom
a child or injured person would have turned. The ladies made involuntary
mental comments upon them as the three stood together.

“Oh, if Raaf were only a little less rough!” his mother breathed in her
heart. Lucy, I think, was most critical of Bertram, finding in him, on
the whole, something which neither of her brothers possessed, though he
must have been forty at the very least, and therefore capable of
exciting but little interest in a girl’s heart.

“I have been showing your friend my treasures,” said Mr. Wradisley, with
a slight turn of his head toward his brother, “and I am delighted to
find we have a great many tastes in common. There is a charm in
sympathy, especially when it is so rare, on these subjects.”

“You could not expect Raaf to know about your casts and things,
Reginald,” said Mrs. Wradisley, precipitately. “He has been living among
such very different scenes.”

“Raaf!” said Mr. Wradisley, slightly elevating his eyebrows. “My dear
mother, could you imagine I was referring in any way to Raaf?”

“Never mind, Reg, I don’t take it amiss,” said the big sportsman, with a
laugh out of his beard.

There was, however, a faint color on his browned cheeks. It is well that
a woman’s perceptions should be quick, no doubt, but if Mrs. Wradisley
had not been jealous for her younger son this very small household jar
need not have occurred. Mr. Wradisley put it right with his natural
blandness.

“We all have our pet subjects,” he said; “you too, mother, as much as
the worst of us. Is the time of tea over, or may I have some?”

“Mr. Wradisley’s casts are magnificent,” cried the stranger. “I should
have known nothing about them but for a wild year or two I spent in
Greece and the islands. A traveler gets a sniff of everything. Don’t you
recollect, Wradisley, the Arabs and their images at--”

The name was not to be spelt by mere British faculties, and I refrain.

“Funny lot of notions,” said Raaf, “I remember; pretty little thing or
two, however, I should like to have brought for Lucy--just the things a
girl would like--but Bertram there snapped them all up before I had a
chance--confounded knowing fellow, always got before me. You come down
on him, Lucy; it’s his fault if I have so few pretty things for you.”

“I am very well contented, Raaf,” said Lucy, prettily. As a matter of
fact the curiosities Ralph had brought home had been chiefly hideous
ivory carvings of truly African type, which Lucy, shuddering, had put
away in a drawer, thanking him effusively, but with averted eyes.

“There were two or three very pretty little Tanagra figurine among the
notions,” said Bertram. “I am sorry Miss Wradisley had not her share of
them--they’re buried in my collections in some warehouse or other, and
probably will never see the light.”

“Ah, Tanagra!” said Mr. Wradisley, with a momentary gleam of interest.
He laid his hand not unkindly on his little sister’s shoulder, as she
handed him, exactly as he liked it, his cup of tea. “It is the less
matter, for Lucy would not have appreciated them,” he said.

“When,” said Mrs. Wradisley, with a little gasp, “do you expect your
friends, Reginald? October is getting on, and the ladies that belong to
them will lie heavy on our hands if we have bad weather.”

“Oh, the guns,” said Mr. Wradisley. “Don’t call them my friends,
mother--friends of the house, friends of the covers, if you like. Not so
great a nuisance as usual this year, since Raaf is here, but no
intimates of mine.”

“We needn’t stand upon words, Reginald. They are coming, anyhow, and I
never remember dates.”

“Useless to attempt it. You should make a memorandum of everything,
which is much more sure. I can tell you at once.”

He took a note-book from his pocket, unerringly, without the usual
scuffle to discover in which pocket it was, and, drawing a chair near
his mother, began to read out the names of the guests. Then there ensued
a little discussion as to where they were to be placed; to Mrs.
Wradisley proposing the yellow room for one couple who had already, in
Mr. Wradisley’s mind, been settled in the green. It was not a very great
difference, but the master of the house had his way. A similar little
argument, growing fainter and fainter on the mother’s side, was carried
on over the other names. In every case Mr. Wradisley had his way.

“I am going to run down to the park gates--that is, to the village,--I
mean I am going to see Mrs. Nugent,” said Lucy, “while mother and
Reginald settle all these people. Raaf, will you come?”

“And I, too?” said Bertram, with a pleasant smile. He had a pleasant
smile, and he was such a gentleman, neither rough like Raaf, nor
over-dainty like Reginald. Lucy was very well content he should come
too.




CHAPTER II.


It was a lingering and pleasant walk with many little pauses in it and
much conversation. Lucy was herself the cause of some of them, for it
was quite necessary that here and there Mr. Bertram should be made to
stop, turn round, and look at the view. I will not pretend that those
views were any very great things. Bertram, who had seen all the most
famous scenes of earth, was not much impressed by that point so dear to
the souls of the Wradisbury people, where the church tower came in, or
that other where the glimmer of the pond under the trees, reflecting all
their red and gold, moved the natives to enthusiasm. It was a pretty,
soft, kindly English landscape, like a good and gentle life, very
reposeful and pleasant to see, but not dramatic or exciting. It was
Ralph, though he was to the manner born, who was, or pretended to be,
the most impatient of these tame but agreeable vistas. “It don’t say
much, your landscape, Lucy,” he said. “Bertram’s seen everything there
is to see. A stagnant pool and a church tower are not so grand to him as
to--” Probably he intended to say us, with a little, after all, of the
native’s proud depreciation of a scene which, though homely, appeals to
himself so much; but he stopped, and wound up with “a little ignoramus
like you.”

“I am not so fastidious, I suppose. I think it’s delightful,” said
Bertram. “After all the dissipations of fine scenery, there’s nothing
like a home landscape. I’ve seen the day when we would have given all we
possessed for a glimmer of a church tower, or, still better, a bit of
water. In the desert only to think of that would be a good thing.”

“Oh, in the desert,” said Ralph, with a sort of indulgent acknowledgment
that in some points home did commend itself to the most impartial mind.
But he too stopped and called upon his friend to observe where the
copse spread dark into the sunset sky--the best covert within twenty
miles--about which also Bertram was very civil, and received the
information with great interest. “Plenty of wild duck round the corner
of that hill in the marshy part,” said Ralph. “By Jove! we should have a
heavy bag when we have it all to ourselves.”

“Capital ground, and great luck to be the first,” said Mr. Bertram. He
was certainly a nice man. He seemed to like to linger, to talk of the
sunset, to enjoy himself in the fresh but slightly chill air of the
October evening. Lucy’s observation of him was minute. A little wonder
whether he might be the man--not necessarily _her_ man, but the ideal
man--blew like a quiet little breeze through her youthful spirit. It was
a breeze which, like the actual breeze of the evening, carried dead
leaves with it, the rags of past reputation and visions, for already
Lucy had asked herself this question in respect to one or two other men
who had not turned out exactly as at first they seemed. To be sure,
this one was old--probably forty or so--and therefore was both better
and worse than her previous studies; for at such an age he must of
course have learnt everything that experience could teach, and on the
other hand did not matter much, having attained to antiquity. Still, it
certainly gave a greater interest to the walk that he was here.

“After all,” said Ralph, “you gave us no light, Lucy, as to who this
widow was.”

“You speak as if she were like old Widow Thrapton in the village,” cried
Lucy. “A widow!--she says it’s a term of reproach, as if a woman had
tormented her husband to death.”

“But she is a widow, for you said so--and who is she?” said the
persistent Ralph.

“He is like the little boy in ‘Helen’s Babies,’” said Lucy, turning to
her other companion. “He always wants to see the wheels go round,
whatever one may say.”

“I feel an interest in this mysterious widow, too,” said Bertram, with a
laugh.

It was all from civility to keep Ralph in countenance, she felt sure.

“Who is she?” said that obstinate person.

“I can tell you what she is,” cried Lucy, with indignant warmth. “She
must be older than I am, I suppose, for there’s Tiny, but she doesn’t
look it. She has the most lovely complexion, and eyes like stars, and
brown hair--none of your golden stuff, which always looks artificial
now. Hers might be almost golden if she liked, but she is not one to
show off. And she is the nicest neighbor that ever was--comes up to the
house just when one is dull and wants stirring up, or sends a note or a
book, or to ask for something. She likes to do all sorts of things for
you, and she’s so generous and nice and natural that she likes you to do
things for her, which is so much, much more uncommon! She says, thank
heaven, she is not unselfish; and, though it sounds strange,” said Lucy,
with vehemence, “I know exactly what she means.”

“Not unselfish?” said Ralph. “By George! that’s a new quality. I thought
it was always the right thing to say of a woman that she was unselfish;
but all that doesn’t throw any light upon the lady. Isn’t she
somebody’s sister or cousin or aunt? Had she a father, had she a
mother?--that sort of thing, you know. A woman doesn’t come and settle
herself in a neighborhood without some credentials--nor a man either, so
far as I know.”

“I don’t know what you mean by credentials. She was not introduced to us
by any stupid people, if that is what you mean. We just found her out
for ourselves.”

Ralph gave a little whistle at this, which made Lucy very angry. “When
you go out to Africa or--anywhere,” she cried, “do you take credentials?
And who is to know whether you are what you call yourself? I suppose you
say you’re a Wradisley of Wradisbury. Much the black kings must know
about a little place in Hants!”

“The black kings don’t stand on that sort of thing,” said Ralph, “but
the mother does, or so I supposed.”

“I ought to take the unknown lady’s part,” said Mr. Bertram. “You’ve all
been very kind to me, and I’m not a Bertram of--anywhere in particular.
I have not got a pedigree in my pocket. Perhaps I might have some
difficulty in making out my family tree.”

“Oh, Mr. Bertram!” cried Lucy, in deprecation, as if that were an
impossible thing.

“I might always call myself of the Ellangowan family, to be sure,” he
said, with a laugh.

Now Lucy did not at all know what he meant by the Ellangowan family. She
was not so deeply learned in her Scott as I hope every other girl who
reads this page is, and she was not very quick, and perhaps would not
have caught the meaning if she had been ever so familiar with “Guy
Mannering.” She thought Ellangowan a very pretty name, and laid it up in
her memory, and was pleased to think that Mr. Bertram had thus, as it
were, produced his credentials and named his race. I don’t know whether
Ralph also was of the same opinion. At all events they went on without
further remark on this subject. The village lay just outside the park
gates on the right side of a pretty, triangular bit of common, which
was almost like a bit of the park, with little hollows in it filled with
a wild growth of furze and hawthorn and blackberry, the long brambles
arching over and touching the level grass. There was a pretty bit of
greensward good for cricket and football, and of much consequence in the
village history. The stars had come out in the sky, though it was still
twilight when they emerged from the shadow of the trees to this more
open spot; and there were lights in the cottage windows and in the
larger shadow of the rectory, which showed behind the tall, slim spire
of the church. It was a cheerful little knot of human life and interest
under the trees, Nature, kindly but damp, mantling everything with
greenness up to the very steps of the cottage doors, some of which were
on the road itself without any interval of garden; and little irregular
gleams of light indicating the scarcely visible houses. Lucy, however,
did not lead the way toward the village. She went along the other side
of the common toward a house more important than the cottages, which
stood upon a little elevation, with a grassy bank and a few
moderate-sized trees.

“Oh, she’s in Greenbank, this lady,” said Ralph. “I thought the old
doctor was still there.”

“He died last year, after Charlie died at sea--didn’t you know? He never
held up his head, Raaf, after Charlie died.”

“The more fool he; Charlie drained him of every penny, and was no credit
to him in any way. He should have been sent about his business years
ago. So far as concerned him, I always thought the doctor very weak.”

“Oh, Raaf, he was his only son!”

“What then? You think it’s only that sort of relationship that counts.
The doctor knew as well as any one what a worthless fellow he was.”

“But he never held up his head again,” said Lucy, “after Charlie died.”

“That’s how nature confutes all your philosophy, Wradisley,” said the
other man. “That is the true tragedy of it. Worthy or unworthy, what
does it matter? Affection holds its own.”

“Oh, I’ve no philosophy,” said Ralph, “only common sense. So they sold
the house! and I suppose the poor old doctor’s library and his
curiosities, and everything he cared for? I never liked Carry. She would
have no feeling for what he liked, poor old fellow. Not worth much, that
museum of his--good things and bad things, all pell-mell. Of course she
sold them all?”

“The most of them,” Lucy confessed. “What could she do otherwise, Raaf?
They were of no use to her. She could not keep up the house, and she had
no room for them in her own. Poor Carry, he left her very little; and
her husband has a great struggle, and what could she do?”

“I don’t suppose she wanted to do anything else,” said Ralph, in a surly
tone. “Look here, I sha’n’t go in with you since it’s the doctor’s
house. I had a liking for the old fellow--and Bertram and I are both
smoking. We’ll easy on a bit till the end of the common, and wait for
you coming back.”

“If you prefer it, Raaf,” Lucy said, with a small tone of resignation.
She stood for a moment in the faint twilight and starlight, holding her
head a little on one side with a wistful, coaxing look. “I did wish you
to see her,” she said.

“Oh, I’ll see her some time, I suppose. Come, Bertram; see you’re ready,
Lucy, by the time we get back.”

Lucy still paused a moment as they swung on with the scent of their
cigars sending a little warmth into the damp air. She thought Mr.
Bertram swayed a little before he joined the other, as if he would have
liked to stay. Undeniably he was more genial than Raaf, more ready to
yield to what she wanted. And usually she was alone in her walks, just a
small woman about the road by herself, so that the feeling of leading
two men about with her was pleasant. She regretted they did not come in
to show Mrs. Nugent how she had been accompanied. She went slowly up the
grassy bank alone, thinking of this. She had wanted so much to show Raaf
to Mrs. Nugent, not, she fancied, that it was at all likely they would
take to each other. Nelly Nugent was so quick, she would see through
him in a moment. She would perceive that there was not, perhaps, a great
deal in him. He was not a reader, nor an artist, nor any of the things
Nelly cared for--only a rough fellow, a sportsman, and rather
commonplace in his mind. He was only Raaf, say what you would. Oh! he
was not the one to talk like that of poor Charlie. If Charlie was only
Charlie, Raaf was nothing but Raaf--only a man who belonged to you, not
one to admire independent of that. But whatever Raaf might do it would
never have made any difference, certainly not to his mother, she did not
suppose to any one, any more than it mattered to the poor old doctor
what Charlie did, seeing he was his father’s Charlie; and that nothing
could change. She went along very slowly, thinking this to herself--not
a very profound thought, but yet it filled her mind. The windows were
already shining with firelight and lamplight, looking very bright. The
drawing-room was not at all a large room. It was under the shade of a
veranda and opened to the ground, which made it a better room for summer
than for winter. Lucy woke up from her thoughts and wondered whether in
the winter that was coming Mrs. Nugent would find it cold.

The two men went on round the common in the soft, damp evening air.

“That’s one of the things one meets with, when one is long away,” said
Raaf, with a voice half confused in his beard and his cigar. “The old
doctor was a landmark; fine old fellow, and knew a lot; never knew one
like him for all the wild creatures--observing their ways, don’t you
know. He’d bring home as much from a walk as you or I would from a
voyage--more, I daresay. I buy a few hideous things, and poor little
Lucy shudders at them” (he was not so slow to notice as they supposed),
“but I haven’t got the head for much, while he--And all spoiled because
of a fool of a boy not worth a thought.”

“But his own, I suppose,” said the other.

“Just that--his own--though why that should make such a difference. Now,
Carry was worth a dozen of Charlie. Oh, I didn’t speak very well of
Carry just now!--true. She married a fellow not worth his salt, when,
perhaps--But there’s no answering for these things. Poor old doctor!
There’s scarcely anybody here except my mother that I couldn’t have
better spared.”

“Let’s hope it’s a good thing for him,” said Bertram, not knowing what
to say.

“I can’t think dying’s better than living,” said Raaf. “Oh, you
mean--that? Well, perhaps; though it’s hard to think of him,” he said,
with a sudden laugh, “in his old shiny coat with his brown gaiters
in--what one calls--a better world. No kind of place suited him as well
as here--he was so used to it. Somehow, though, on a quiet night like
this, there’s a kind of a feeling, oh! I can’t describe it in the least,
as if--I say, you’ve been in many queer places, Bertram, and seen a
lot?”

“That is true.”

“Did you ever see anything that made you--feel any sort of certainty,
don’t you know? There’s these stars, they say they’re all worlds,
globes, like this, and so forth. Who lives in them? That’s what I’ve
always wanted to know.”

“Well, men like us can’t live in them, for one thing, according to what
the astronomers say.”

“Men like us, ah! but then! We’ll not be fellows like us when we’re--the
other thing, don’t you know. There!” said Ralph; “I could have sworn
that was the old man coming along to meet us; cut of his coat, gaiters
and everything.”

“You can’t be well, old fellow, there is nobody.”

“I know that as well as you,” said Ralph, with a nervous laugh. “Do you
think I meant I saw anything? Not such a fool; no, dear old man, I
didn’t see him; I wish I could, just to tell him one or two things about
the beasts which he was keen about. I don’t think that old fellow would
be happy, Bertram, in a fluid, a sort of a place like a star, for
instance, where there were no beasts.”

“There’s no reason to suppose they’re fluid. And for that matter there
may be beasts, as some people think; only I don’t see, if you take in
that, where you are to stop,” said Bertram. “We are drawing it too fine,
Wradisley, don’t you think?”

“Perhaps we are, it’s not my line of country. I wish you had known that
old man. You’re a fellow that makes out things, Bertram. He was quite
comfortable--lots of books, and that museum which wasn’t much of a
museum, but he knew no better. Besides, there were a few good things in
it. And enough of money to keep him all right. And then to think, Lord,
that because of a fool of a fellow who was never out of hot water,
always getting his father into hot water, never at peace, that good old
man should go and break his heart, as they call it, and die.”

“It may be very unreasonable, but it happens from time to time,” Bertram
said.

“By Jove, it is unreasonable! An old man that was really worth coming
back to--and now he’s clean swept away, and some baggage of a woman,
probably no good, in his place, to turn Lucy’s head, and perhaps bring
us all to sixes and sevens, for anything I know.”

“Why should you suppose so? There seems nothing but good in the lady,
except that she is a stranger. So am I a stranger. You might as well
believe that I should bring you to sixes and sevens. You’re not well
to-night, old fellow. You have got too much nonsense in your head.”

“I suppose that’s it--a touch of fever,” said the other. “I’ll take some
quinine when I go home to-night.” And with that wise resolution he drew
up, having come back to the point from which they started, to wait for
his sister at Mrs. Nugent’s door.




CHAPTER III.


The door of the little house was standing open when they drew up at the
gate. It was a door at the side round the corner from the veranda, but
with a porch which seemed to continue it. It was full of light from
within, against which Lucy’s figure stood dark. She was so much afraid
to keep the gentlemen waiting that she had come out there to be ready,
and was speaking her last words with her friend in the porch. Their
voices sounded soft, almost musical, through the dusk and the fresh air;
though, indeed, it was chiefly Lucy who was speaking. The men did not
hear what she said, they even smiled a little, at least Bertram did, at
the habit of the women who had always so much to say to each other about
nothing; and who, though they had perhaps met before more than once
that day, had still matter to murmur about down to the very last moment
by the opening of the door. It went on indeed for two or three minutes
while they stood there, notwithstanding that Lucy had cried, “Oh, there
they are! I must go,” at the first appearance of the tall shadows on the
road. She was pleading with her friend to come up to the hall next day,
which was the reason of the delay.

“Oh, Nelly, do come--to-morrow is an off day--they are not going to
shoot. And I so want you to see Raaf; oh, I know he is not much to
see--that’s him, the tallest one. He has a huge beard. You’ll perhaps
think he’s not very intellectual or that sort of thing; but he’s our
Raaf--he’s mother’s Raaf--and you’re so fond of mother. And if I brought
him to see you he would be shy and gauche. Do come, do come, to-morrow,
Nelly; mother is so anxious you should come in good time.”

Then the gentlemen, though they did not hear this, were aware of a new
voice breaking in--a small, sweet treble, a child’s voice--crying, “Me
too, me too!”

“Yes, you too, Tiny; we always want you. Won’t you come when Tiny wishes
it, Nelly? You always give in to Tiny.”

“Me come now,” shouted Tiny, “see gemplemans; me come now.”

Then there was a little scuffle and laughing commotion at the open door;
the little voice loud, then others hushing it, and suddenly there came
flying down the bank something white, a little fluttering line of
whiteness upon the dark. The child flew with childish delight making its
escape, while there was first a startled cry from the doorway, and then
Lucy followed in pursuit. But the little thing, shouting and laughing,
with the rush of infantile velocity, short-lived but swift, got to the
bottom of the bank in a rush, and would have tripped herself up in her
speed upon the fastening of the gate had not Bertram, coming a step
forward, quickly caught her in his arms. There was not much light to see
the child by--the little face like a flower; the waving hair and shining
eyes. The little thing was full of laughter and delight in her small
escapade. “Me see gemplemans, me see gemplemans,” she said. Bertram
lifted her up, holding her small waist firm in his two hands.

And then there came a change over Tiny. She became silent all at once,
though without shrinking from the dark face up to which she was lifted.
She did not twist in his grasp as children do, or struggle to be put
down. She became quite still, drew a long breath, and fixed her eyes
upon him, her little lips apart, her face intent. It was only the effect
of a shyness which from time to time crept over Tiny, who was not
usually shy; but it impressed the man very much who held her, himself
quite silent for a moment, which seemed long to both, though it was
scarcely appreciable in time, until Lucy reached the group, and with a
cry of “Oh, Tiny, you naughty little girl!” restored man and child to
the commonplace. Then the little girl wriggled down out of the
stranger’s grasp, and stole her hand into the more familiar one of
Lucy. She kept her eyes, however, fixed upon her first captor.

“Oh, Tiny,” cried Lucy, “what will the gentleman think of you--such a
bold little girl--to run away from mamma, and get your death of cold,
and give that kind gentleman the trouble of catching you. Oh, Tiny,
Tiny!”

“Me go back to mummie now,” Tiny said, turning her back upon them. It
was unusual for this little thing, whom everybody petted, to be so
subdued.

“You have both beards,” cried Lucy, calling over her shoulder to her
brother and his friend, as she led the child back. “She is frightened of
you; but they are not bad gemplemans, Tiny, they are nice gemplemans.
Oh, nurse, here she is, safe and sound.”

“Me not frightened,” Tiny said, and she turned round in the grip of the
nurse, who had now seized upon her, and kissed her little hand.
“Dood-night, gemplemans,” Tiny cried. The little voice came shrill and
clear through the night air, tinkling in the smallness of the sound,
yet gracious as a princess; and the small incident was over. It was
nothing at all; the simplest little incident in the world. And then Lucy
took up her little strain, breathless with her rush, laughing and
explaining.

“Tiny dearly loves a little escapade; she is the liveliest little thing!
She has no other children to play with, and she is not afraid of
anybody. She is always with her mother, you know, and hears us talk of
everything.”

“Very bad training for a child,” said Ralph, “to hear all your scandal
and gossip over your tea.”

“Oh, Ralph, how common, how old fashioned you are!” cried Lucy,
indignantly. “Do you think Mrs. Nugent talks scandal over her tea? or
I--? I have been trying to make her promise to come up to lunch
to-morrow, and then you shall see--that is, if she comes; for she was
not at all sure whether she would come. She is not fond of strangers.
She never will come to us when we have people--that is, not chance
people--unless she knows them beforehand. Oh, you, of course, my
brother, that’s a different thing. I am sure I beg your pardon, Mr.
Bertram, for making you wait, and for seeming to imply--and then Tiny
rushing at you in that way.”

“Tiny made a very sweet little episode in our walk,” said Bertram.
“Please don’t apologize. I am fond of children, and the little thing
gave me a look; children are strange creatures, they’re only half of
this world, I think. She looked--as if somehow she and I had met
before.”

“Have you, Mr. Bertram? did you perhaps know--her mother?” cried Lucy,
in great surprise.

“It is very unlikely; I knew some Nugents once, but they were old people
without any children, at least--No, I’ve been too long in the waste
places of the earth ever to have rubbed shoulders with this baby;
besides,” he said, with a laugh, “if there was any recognition, it was
she who recognized me.”

“You are talking greater nonsense than I was doing, Bertram,” said
Ralph. “We’re both out of sorts, I should think. These damp English
nights take all the starch out of one. Come, let’s get home. You shan’t
bring us out again after sunset, Lucy, I promise you that.”

“Oh, sunset is not a bad time here,” cried Lucy; “it’s a beautiful time;
it is only in your warm countries that it is bad. Besides, it’s long
after sunset; it’s almost night and no moon for an hour yet. That’s the
chief thing I like going to town for, that it is never dark like this at
night. I love the lamps--don’t you, Mr. Bertram?--there is such company
in them; even the cottage windows are nice, and _that_ ‘Red Lion’--one
wishes that a public-house was not such a very bad thing, for it looks
so ruddy and so warm. I don’t wonder the men like it; I should myself,
if--Oh, take care! there is a very wet corner there, just before you
come to our gates. Why, there is some one coming out. Why--it’s
Reginald, Raaf!”

They were met, in the act of opening the gate, by Mr. Wradisley’s slim,
unmistakable figure. He had an equally slim umbrella, beautifully
rolled up, in his hand, and walked as if the damp country road were
covered with velvet.

“Oh, you are coming back,” he said; “it’s a fine night for a walk, don’t
you think so?--well, not after Africa, perhaps; but we are used in
England to like these soft, grey skies and the feeling of--well, of dew
and coolness in the air.”

“I call it damp and mud,” said Ralph, with an explosion of a laugh which
seemed somehow to be an explosion _manqué_, as if the damp had got into
that too.

“Ah,” said his brother, reflectively. “Well it is rather a brutal way of
judging, but perhaps you are right. I am going to take a _giro_ round
the common. We shall meet at dinner.” And then he took off his hat to
Lucy, and with a nod to Bertram went on. There was an involuntary pause
among the three to watch him walking along the damp road--in which they
had themselves encountered occasional puddles--as if a carpet had been
spread underneath his dainty feet.

“Is this Rege’s way?” said Ralph. “It’s an odd thing for him
surely--going out to walk now. He never would wet his feet any more than
a cat. What is he doing out at night in the dark, a damp night, bad for
his throat. Does my mother know?”

“Oh,” said Lucy, with a curious confusion; “why shouldn’t he go now, if
he likes! It isn’t cold, it’s not so very damp, and Reginald’s an
Englishman, and isn’t afraid of a bit of damp or a wet road. You are so
hard to please. You are finding fault with everybody, Raaf.”

“Am I?” he said. “Perhaps I am. I’ve grown a brute, being so much away.”

“Oh, Raaf, I didn’t mean that. Reginald has--his own ways. Don’t you
know, we never ask what he means, mother and I. He always means just
what’s the right thing, don’t you know. It is a very nice time to--to
take a _giro_; look how the sky’s beginning to break there out of the
clouds. I always like an evening walk; so did mother when she was strong
enough. And then Reginald has such a feeling for art. He always says
the village is so pretty with the lights in the windows, and the sweep
of the fresh air on the common--and--and all that.”

“Just so, Lucy,” said Ralph.

She gave him a little anxious look, but she could not see the expression
of his face in the darkness, any more than he could see what a wistful
and wondering look was in her eyes. Bertram, looking on, formed his own
conclusions, which were as little right as a stranger’s conclusions upon
a drama of family life suddenly brought before his eyes generally are.
He thought that this correct and immaculate Mr. Wradisley had tastes
known to his family, or at least to the ladies of his family, which were
not so spotless as he appeared to be; or that there was something going
on at this particular moment which contradicted the law of propriety and
good order which was his nature. Was it a village amour? Was it some
secret hanging over the house? There was a little agitation, he thought,
in Lucy, and surprise in the brother, who was a stranger to all the ways
of his own family, and evidently had a half-hostile feeling toward his
elder. But the conversation became more easy as they went along,
emerging from under the shadow of the trees and crossing the openings of
the park. The great house came in sight as they went on, a solid mass
amid all its surrounding of shrubbery and flower gardens, with the
distance stretching clear on one side, and lights in many windows. It
looked a centre of life and substantial, steadfast security, as if it
might last out all the changes of fortune, and could never be affected
by those vicissitudes which pull down one and set up another. Bertram
could fancy that it had stood like a rock while many tempests swept the
country. The individual might come and go, but this habitation was that
of the race. And it was absurd to think that the little surprise of
meeting its master on his way into the village late on an October
evening, could have anything to do with the happiness of the family or
its security. Bertram said to himself that his nerves were a little
shaken to-night, he could not tell how. It was perhaps because of
something visionary in this way of walking about an unknown place in
the dark, and hearing of so many people like shadows moving in a world
undiscovered. The old doctor, for example, whose image was so clear
before his companion, that he could almost think he saw him, so clear
that even to himself, a stranger, that old man had almost appeared; but
more than anything else because of the child who, caught in her most
sportive mood, had suddenly grown quiet in his arms, and given him that
look, with eyes unknown, which he too could have sworn he knew. There
were strange things in his own life that gave him cause to think. Was it
not this that made him conscious of mystery and some disturbing
influence in the family which he did not know, but which had received
him as if he had been an absent brother too?

To see Mrs. Wradisley was, however, to send any thought of mystery or
family trouble out of any one’s mind. The lamps were lit in the
drawing-room when they all went in, a little dazzled by the
illumination, from the soft dark of the night. She was sitting where
they had left her, in the warmth of the home atmosphere, so softly
lighted, so quietly bright. Her white knitting lay on her knee. She had
the evening paper in her hand, which had just come in; for it was one of
the advantages of Wradisbury that, though so completely in the country,
they were near enough to town to have an evening post. Mrs. Wradisley
liked her evening paper. It was, it is true, not a late edition, perhaps
in point of fact not much later than the _Times_ of the morning--but she
preferred it. It was her little private pleasure in the evening, when
Lucy was perhaps out, or occupied with her friends, and Mr. Wradisley in
his library. She nodded at them over her paper, with a smile, as they
came in.

“I hope it is a fine night, and that you have had a pleasant walk, Mr.
Bertram,” she said.

“And is she coming, Lucy?”

“I could not get her to promise, mother,” Lucy said.

“Oh, well, we must not press her. If she were not a little willful
perhaps we should not like her so much,” said Mrs. Wradisley, returning
to her journal. And how warm it was! but not too warm. How light it
was! but not too bright.

“Come and sit here, Raaf. I like to see you and make sure that you are
there; but you need not talk to me unless you wish to,” the mother said.
She was not exacting. There was nothing wrong in the house, no anxiety
nor alarm; nothing but family tranquility and peace.




CHAPTER IV.


The little house called Greenbank was like a hundred other little houses
in the country, the superior houses of the village, the homes of small
people with small incomes, who still are ladies and gentlemen, the
equals of those in the hall, not those in the cottage. The drawing-room
was darkened in the winter days by the veranda, which was very desirable
and pleasant in the summer, and chilled a little by the windows which
opened to the floor on a level with the little terrace on which the
house stood. It looked most comfortable and bright in the evening when
the lamps were lighted and there was a good fire and the curtains were
drawn. Mrs. Nugent was considered to have made a great difference in the
house since the doctor’s time. His heavy, old furniture was still in
the dining-room, and indeed, more or less, throughout the rooms; but
chintz or cretonne and appropriate draperies go a long way, according to
the taste of the time. The new resident had been moderate and had not
overdone it; she had not piled the stuffs and ornaments of Liberty into
the old-fashioned house, but she had brightened the whole in a way which
was less commonplace. Tiny was perhaps the great ornament of all--Tiny
and indeed herself, a young woman not more than thirty, in the fulness
of her best time, with a little dignity, which became her isolated
position and her widowhood, and showed that, as the ladies in the
neighborhood said, she was fully able to take care of herself. He would
have been a bold man indeed who would have been rude or, what was more
dangerous, overkind to Mrs. Nugent. She was one of those women, who, as
it is common to say, keep people in their place. She was very gracious,
very kind; but either she never forgot that she was alone and needed to
be especially circumspect, or else it was her nature always to hold
back a little, to be above impulse. I think this last was the case; for
to be always on one’s guard is painful, and betrays a suspicion of
others or doubt of one’s self, and neither of these was in Mrs. Nugent’s
mind. She liked society, and she did not shut herself out from the kind
people who had adopted her, though she did not bring introductions or
make any appeal to their kindness. There was no reason why she should
shut them out; but she was not one who much frequented her neighbors’
houses. She was always to be found in her own, with her little girl at
her knee. Tiny was a little spoiled, perhaps, or so the ladies who had
nurseries and many children to regulate, thought. She was only five, yet
she sat up till eight, and had her bread-and-milk when her mother had
her small dinner, at the little round table before the dining-room fire.
Some of the ladies had even said to Mrs. Nugent that this was a
self-indulgence on her part, and bad for the child; but, if so, she did
not mind, but went on with the custom, which it was evident, for the
moment did Tiny no harm.

The excitement of Tiny’s escapade had been got over, and the child was
sitting on the carpet in the firelight playing with her doll and singing
to herself. She was always singing to herself or to the waxen companion
in her arms, which was pale with much exposure to the heat of the fire.
Tiny had a little tune which was quite different from the little
snatches of song which she picked up from every one--from the butcher’s
boy and the postman and the maids in the kitchen, as well as from her
mother’s performances. The child was all ear, and sang everything,
whatever she heard. But besides all this she had her own little tune, in
which she kept singing sometimes the same words over and over again,
sometimes her dialogues with her doll, sometimes scraps of what she
heard from others, odds and ends of the conversation going on over her
head. It was the prettiest domestic scene, the child sitting in front of
the fire, in the light of the cheerful blaze, undressing her doll,
hushing it in her arms, going through all the baby routine with which
she was so familiar, singing, talking, cooing to the imaginary baby in
her arms, while the pretty young mother sat at the side of the hearth,
with the little table and work-basket overflowing with the fine muslin
and bits of lace, making one of Tiny’s pretty frocks or pinafores, which
was her chief occupation. Sometimes Tiny’s monologue was broken by a
word from her mother; but sewing is a silent occupation when it is
pursued by a woman alone, and generally Mrs. Nugent said nothing more
than a word from time to time, while the child’s little voice ran on.
Was there something wanting to the little bright fireside--the man to
come in from his work, the woman’s husband, the child’s father? But it
was too small, too feminine a place for a man. One could not have said
where he would sit, what he would do--there seemed no place for him, if
such a man there had been.

Nevertheless a place was made for Mr. Wradisley when he came in, as he
did immediately, announced by the smart little maid, carrying his hat
in his hand. A chair was got for him out of the glow of the firelight,
which affected his eyes. He made a little apology for coming so late.

“But I have a liking for the twilight; I love the park in the dusk; and
as you have been so good as to let me in once or twice, and in the
confidence that when I am intrusive you will send me away--”

“If you had come a little sooner,” said Mrs. Nugent, in a frank, full
voice, different from her low tones, “you might have taken care of Lucy,
who ran in to see me.”

“Lucy was well accompanied,” said her brother; “besides, a walk is no
walk unless one is alone; and the great pleasure of a conversation, if
you will allow me to say so, is doubled when there are but two to talk.
I know all Lucy’s opinions, and she,” he said, pausing with a smile, as
if there was something ridiculous in the idea, “knows, or at least
thinks she knows, mine.”

“She knows more than she has generally credit for,” said Mrs. Nugent;
“but your brother was with her. It has pleased her so much to have him
back.”

“Raaf? yes. He has been so long away, it is like a stranger come to the
house. He has forgotten the old shibboleths, and it takes one a little
time to pick up his new ones. He is a man of the desert.”

“Perhaps he has no shibboleths at all.”

“Oh, don’t believe that! I have always found the more unconventional a
man is supposed to be, the furthest from our cut-and-dry systems, the
more conventional he really is. We are preserved by the understood
routine, and keep our independence underneath; but those who have to
make new laws for themselves are pervaded by them. The new, uneasy code
is on their very soul.”

He spoke with a little warmth--unusual to him--almost excitement, his
correct, calm tone quickening. Then he resumed his ordinary note.

“I hope,” he said, with a keen look at her, “that poor Raaf made a
favorable impression upon you.”

Her head was bent over her needlework, which she had gone on with, not
interrupting her occupation.

“I did not see him,” she said. “Lucy ran in by herself; they waited for
her, I believe, at the door.”

“Me see gemplemans,” sang Tiny, at his feet, making him start. She went
on with her little song, repeating the words, “Dolly, such nice
gemplemans. Give Dolly ride on’s shoulder ’nother time.”

And then Mrs. Nugent laughed, and told the story of Tiny’s escapade. It
jarred somehow on the visitor. He did not know what to make of Tiny; her
little breaks into the conversation, the chant that could not be taken
for remark or criticism, and yet was so, kept him in a continual fret;
but he tried to smile.

“My brother,” he said, “is the kind of primitive man who, I believe,
pleases children--and dogs and primitive creatures generally--I--I beg
your pardon, Mrs. Nugent.”

“No; why should you?” She dropped her work on her knee and looked up at
him with a laugh. “Tiny is quite a primitive creature. She likes what
is kind and big and takes her up with firm hands. That is how I have
always explained the pleasure infants take often in men. They are only
accustomed to us women about them; but they almost invariably turn from
us poor small things and rejoice in the hold of a man--when he’s not
frightened for them,” she added, taking up her work again.

“As most men are, however,” Mr. Wradisley said.

“Yes; that is our salvation. It would be too humiliating to think the
little things preferred the look of a man. I have always thought it was
the strength of his grasp.”

“We shall shortly have to give in to the ladies even in that, they say,”
Mr. Wradisley went on, with relief in the changed subject. “Those tall
girls--while we, it appears, are growing no taller, or perhaps
dwindling--I am sure you, who are so womanly in everything, don’t
approve of that.”

“Of tall girls? oh, why not? It is not their fault to be tall. It is
very nice for them to be tall. I am delighted with my tall maid; she
can reach things I have to get up on a chair for, and it is not
dignified getting up on a chair. And she even snatches up Tiny before
she has time to struggle or remonstrate.”

“Tiny,” said Mr. Wradisley, with a little wave of his hand, “is the
be-all and end-all, I know; no one can hope to beguile your thoughts
from that point.”

Mrs. Nugent looked up at him quickly with surprise, holding her work
suspended in her hand.

“Do you think it is quite right,” he said, “or just to the rest of the
world? A child is much, but still only a child; and here are you, a
noble, perfect woman, with many greater capabilities. I do not flatter;
you must know that you are not like other women--gossips, triflers,
foolish persons--”

“Or even as this publican,” said Mrs. Nugent, who had kept her eyes on
him all the time, which had made him nervous, yet gave him a kind of
inspiration. “I give alms of all I possess--I--Mr. Wradisley, do you
really think this is the kind of argument which you would like a woman
whom you profess to respect to adopt?”

“Oh, you twist what I say. I am conscious of the same thing myself,
though I am, I hope, no Pharisee. To partly give up what was meant for
mankind--will that please you better?--to a mere child--”

“You must not say such thing over Tiny’s head, Mr. Wradisley. She
understands a great deal. If she were not so intent upon this most
elaborate part of Dolly’s toilet for the night--”

“Mrs. Nugent, could not that spectator for one moment be removed?--could
not I speak to you--if it were but for a minute--alone?”

She looked at him again, this time putting down the needle-work with a
disturbed air.

“I wish to hear nothing, from any one, Mr. Wradisley, which she cannot
hear.”

“Not if I implored for one moment?”

His eyes, which were dull by nature, had become hot and shining, his
colorless face was flushed; he was so reticent, so calm, that the
swelling of something new within him took a form that was alarming. He
turned round his hat in his hands as if it were some mystic implement of
fate. She hesitated, and cast a glance round her at all the comfort of
the little room, as if her shelter had suddenly been endangered, and the
walls of her house were going to fall about her ears. Tiny all the time
was very busy with her doll. She had arranged its nightgown, settled
every button, tied every string, and now, holding it against her little
bosom, singing to it, got up to put it to bed. “Mammy’s darling,” said
Tiny, “everything as mammy has--dood dolly, dood dolly. Dolly go to
bed.”

Both the man and the woman sat watching her as she performed this little
ceremony. Dolly’s bed was on a sofa, carefully arranged with a cushion
and coverlet. Tiny laid the doll down, listened, made as if she heard a
little cry, bent over the mimic baby, soothing and quieting. Then she
turned round to the spectators, holding up a little finger. “Gone to
sleep,” said Tiny in a whisper. “Hush, hush--dolly not well, not twite
well--me go and ask nursie what she sinks.”

The child went out on tip-toe, making urgent little gesticulations that
the others might keep silence. There was a momentary hush; she had left
the door ajar, but Mr. Wradisley did not think of that. He looked with a
nervous glance at the doll on the sofa, which seemed to him like another
child laid there to watch.

“Mrs. Nugent,” he said at last, “you must know what I mean. I never
thought this great moment of my life would come thus, as if it were a
boy’s secret, to be kept from a child!--but you know; I have tried to
make it very clear. You are the only woman in the world--I want you to
be my wife.”

“Mr. Wradisley--God help me--I have tried to make another thing still
more clear, that I can never more be any one’s wife.”

She clasped her hands and looked at him as if it were she who was the
supplicant.

He, having delivered himself, became more calm; he regained his
confidence in himself.

“I am very much in earnest,” he said; “don’t think it is lightly said.
I have known since the first moment I saw you, but I have not yielded to
any impulse. It has grown into my whole being; I accept Tiny and
everything. I don’t offer you any other inducements, for you are above
them. You know a little what I am, but I will change my very nature to
please you. Be my wife.”

She rose up, the tears came in a flood to her eyes.

“Be content,” she said; “it is impossible, it is impossible. Don’t ask
me any more, oh, for God’s sake don’t ask me any more, neither you nor
any man. I would thank you if I could, but it is too dreadful. For the
love of heaven, let this be final and go away.”

“I cannot go away with such an answer. I have startled you, though I
hoped not to do so. You are agitated, you have some false notions, as
women have, of loving only once. Mrs. Nugent--”

She crossed the room precipitately in front of him as he approached
toward her, and closing the door, stood holding it with her hand.

“I could explain in a word,” she said, “but do not force me to
explain--it would be too hard; it is impossible, only understand that.
Here is my child coming back, who must not indeed hear this. I will give
you my hand and say farewell, and you will never think of me again.”

“That is the thing that is impossible,” he said.

Tiny was singing at the door, beating against it. What an interruption
for a tale--and such a love tale as his! Mr. Wradisley was terribly
jarred in all his nerves. He was more vexed even than disappointed; he
could not acknowledge himself disappointed. It was the child, the
surprise, the shock of admitting for the first time such an idea; he
would not believe it was anything else, not even when she held open the
door for him with what in any other circumstances would have been an
affront, sending him away. The child got between them somehow with her
little song. “Dood-night, dood-night,” said Tiny. “Come again anodder
day,” holding her mother’s dress with one hand, and with the other
waving to him her little farewell, as was her way.

He made a step or two across the little hall, and then came back.
“Promise me that you will let this make no difference, that you will
come to-morrow, that I shall see you again,” he said.

“No, no; let it be over, let it be over!” she cried.

“You will come to-morrow? I will not speak to you if I must not; but
make no difference. Promise that, and I will go away.”

“I will come to-morrow,” she said. “Good-by.”

The maid was standing behind him to close the outer door. Did that
account for the softening of her tone? or had she begun already to see
that nothing was impossible--that her foolish, womanish prejudice about
a dead husband could never stand in the way of a love like his? Mr.
Wradisley’s heart was beating in his ears, as he went down the bank, as
it had never done before. He had come in great excitement, but it was
with much greater excitement that he was going away. When the maid came
running after him that laboring heart stood still for an instant. He
thought he was recalled, and that everything was to be as he desired; he
felt even a slight regret in the joy of being recalled so soon. It would
have been even better had she taken longer to think of it. But it was
only his umbrella which he had forgotten. Mr. Wradisley to forget his
umbrella! That showed indeed the pass to which the man had come.

It was quite dark now, and the one or two rare passers-by that he met on
the way passed him like ghosts, yet turned their heads toward him
suspiciously, wondering who he was. They were villagers unwillingly out
in the night upon business of their own; they divined a gentleman,
though it was too dark to see him, and wondered who the soft-footed,
slim figure could be, no one imagining for a moment who it really was.
And yet he had already made two or three pilgrimages like this to visit
the lady who for the first time in his life had made the sublime Mr.
Wradisley a suitor. He felt, as he opened softly his own gate, that it
was a thing that must not be repeated; but yet that it was in its way
natural and seemly that his suit should not be precisely like that of an
ordinary man. Henceforward it could be conducted in a different way, now
that she was aware of his feelings without the cognizance of any other
person. If it could be possible that her prejudices or caprice should
hold out, nobody need be the wiser. But he did not believe that this
would be the case. She had been startled, let it even be said shocked,
to have discovered that she was loved, and by such a man as himself.
There was even humility--the sweetest womanly quality--in her conviction
that it was impossible, impossible that she, with no first love to give
him, should be sought by him. But this would not stand the reflection of
a propitious night, of a new day.




CHAPTER V.


The dinner was quite a cheerful meal at Wradisbury that night. The
master of the house was exactly as he always was. Punctilious in every
kindness and politeness, perfect in his behavior. To see him take his
mother in as he always did, as if she were the queen, and place her in
her own chair, where she had presided at the head of that table for over
forty years, was in itself a sight. He was the king regnant escorting a
queen dowager--a queen mother, not exactly there by personal right, but
by conscious delegation, yet supreme naturalness and reverence, from
him. He liked to put her in her place. Except on occasions when there
were guests he had always done it since the day of his father’s death,
with a sort of ceremony as showing how he gave her all honor though
this supreme position was no longer her absolute due. He led her in with
special tenderness to-night. It perhaps might not last long, this reign
of hers. Another and a brighter figure was already chosen for that
place, but as long as the mother was in it, the honor shown to her
should be special, above even ordinary respect. I think Ralph was a
little fretted by this show of reverence. Perhaps, with that subtle
understanding of each other which people have in a family, even when
they reach the extreme of personal difference or almost alienation, he
knew what was in his brother’s mind, and resented the consciousness of
conferring honor which moved Reginald. In Ralph’s house (or so he
thought) the mother would rule without any show of derived power. It
would be her own, not a grace conferred; but though he chafed he was
silent, for it was very certain that there was not an exception to be
taken, not a word to say. It is possible that Mrs. Wradisley was aware
of it too, but she liked it, liked her son’s magnanimous giving up to
her of all the privileges which had for so long been hers. Many men
would not have done that. They would have liked their houses to
themselves; but Reginald had always been a model son. She was not in any
way an exacting woman, and when she turned to her second son, come back
in peace after so many wanderings, her heart overflowed with content.
She was the only one in the party who was not aware that the master of
the house had left his library in the darkening. The servants about the
table all knew, and had formed a wonderfully close guess as to what was
“up,” as they said, and Lucy knew with a great commotion and trouble of
her thoughts, wondering, not knowing if she were sorry or glad, looking
very wistfully at her brother to see if he had been fortunate or
otherwise. Was it possible that Nelly Nugent might be her sister, and
sit in her mother’s place? Oh, it would be delightful, it would be
dreadful! For how would mamma take it to be dethroned? And then if Nelly
would not, poor Reginald! Lucy watched him covertly, and could scarcely
contain herself. Ralph and Mr. Bertram, I fear, did not think of Mrs.
Nugent, but of something less creditable to Mr. Wradisley. The mother
was the only one to whom any breach in his usual habits remained
unknown.

“You really mean to have this garden party to-morrow, mother?” he said.

“Oh, yes, my dear, it is all arranged--the last, the very last of the
season. Not so much a garden party as a sort of farewell to summer
before your shooting parties arrive. We are so late this year. The
harvest has been so late,” Mrs. Wradisley said, turning toward Bertram.
“St. Swithin, you know, was in full force this year, and some of the
corn was still out when the month began. But the weather lately has been
so fine. There was a little rain this morning, but still the weather has
been quite remarkable. I am glad you came in time for our little
gathering, for Raaf will see a number of old friends, and you, I hope,
some of the nicest people about.”

“I suspect I must have seen the nicest people already,” said Bertram,
with a laugh and a bow.

“Oh, that is a very kind thing to say, Mr. Bertram, and, indeed, I am
very glad that Raaf’s friend should like his people. But no, you will
see some very superior people to-morrow. Lord Dulham was once a Cabinet
Minister, and Colonel Knox has seen an immense deal of service in
different parts of the world; not to speak of Mr. Sergeant--Geoffrey
Sergeant, you know, who is so well known in the literary world--but I
don’t know whether you care for people who write,” Mrs. Wradisley said.

“He writes himself,” said Ralph, out of his beard. “Letters half a mile
long, and leaders, and all sorts of things. If we don’t look out he’ll
have us all in.”

The other members of the party looked at Bertram with alarm. Mr.
Wradisley with a certain half resentment, half disgust.

“Indeed,” he said; “I thought I had been so fortunate as to discover for
myself a most intelligent critic--but evidently I ought to have known.”

“Don’t say that,” said Bertram, “indeed I’m not here on false pretenses.
I’m not a literary man afloat on the world, or making notes. Only a
humble newspaper correspondent, Mrs. Wradisley, and only that when it
happens to suit me, as your son knows.”

“Oh, I am sure we are very highly honored,” said the lady, disturbed,
“only Raaf, you should have told me, or I might have said something
disagreeable about literary people, and that would have been so very--I
assure you we are all quite proud of Mr. Sergeant, and still more, Mr.
Bertram, to have some one to meet him whom he will--whom he is sure
to--”

“You might have said he was a queer fish. I think he is,” said Bertram,
“but don’t suppose he knows me, or any of my sort. Raaf is only playing
you a trick. I wrote something about Africa, that’s all. When one is
knocking about the world for years without endless money to spend,
anything to put a penny in one’s purse is good. But I can’t write a
bit--except a report about Africa,” he added, hurriedly.

“Oh, about Africa,” Mrs. Wradisley said, with an expression of greater
ease, and there was a little relief in the mind of the family generally.
Bertram seized the opportunity to plunge into talk about Africa and the
big game, drawing Ralph subtly into the conversation. It was not easy to
get Ralph set a-going, but when he was so, there was found to be much in
him wanting expression, and the stranger escaped under shelter of
adventures naturally more interesting to the family than any he had to
tell. He laughed a little to himself over it as the talk flowed on, and
left him with not much pride in the literary profession, which he had in
fact only played with, but which had inspired him at moments with a
little content in what he did too. These good folk, who were intelligent
enough, would have been a little afraid of him, not merely gratified by
his acquaintance, had he been really a writer of books. They were much
more at their ease to think him only a sportsman like Ralph, and a
gentleman at large. When they went into the drawing-room afterwards,
the conversation came back to the party of to-morrow, and to the pretty
widow in the cottage, of whom Mrs. Wradisley began to talk, saying they
would leave the flowers till Mrs. Nugent came, who was so great in
decoration.

“I thought,” said Ralph, “this widow of yours--was not to be here.”

Mr. Wradisley interposed at this point from where he stood, with his
back to the fire. “Ah,” he said, “oh,” with a clearing of his throat, “I
happened to see Mrs. Nugent in the village to-day, and I certainly
understood from her that she would be here.”

“You saw her--after I did, Reginald?” said Lucy, in spite of herself.

“Now, how can you say anything so absurd, Lucy--when you saw her just
before dinner, and Reginald could only have seen her in the morning, for
he never goes out late,” Mrs. Wradisley said.

Bertram felt that he was a conspirator. He gave a furtive glance at the
others who knew different. He could see that Lucy grew scarlet, but not
a word was said.

“You are mistaken, mother,” said Mr. Wradisley, with his calm voice, “I
sometimes do take a little _giro_ in the evening.”

“Oh, a _giro_;” said his mother, as if that altered the matter;
“however,” she added, “there never was any question about the party;
that she fully knew we expected her for; but I wanted her to come for
lunch that she might make Ralph’s acquaintance before the crowd came;
but it doesn’t matter, for no doubt they’ll meet often enough. Only when
you men begin to shoot you’re lost to all ordinary occupations; and so
tired when you come in that you have not a word to throw at--a lady
certainly, if you still may have at a dog.”

“I am not so bent on meeting this widow, mother, as you seem to think,”
said Ralph.

“You need not always call her a widow. That’s her misfortune; it’s not
her character,” said Lucy, unconsciously epigrammatic.

“Oh, well, whatever you please--this beautiful lady--is that better?
The other sounds designing, I allow.”

“I think,” said Mr. Wradisley, “that we have perhaps discussed Mrs.
Nugent as much as is called for. She is a lady--for whom we all have the
utmost respect.” He spoke as if that closed the question, as indeed it
generally did; and going across the room to what he knew was the most
comfortable chair, possessed himself of the evening paper, and sitting
down, began to read it. Mrs. Wradisley had by no means done with her
evening paper, and that Reginald should thus take it up under her very
eyes filled her soul with astonishment. She looked at him with a gasp,
and then, after a moment, put out her hand for her knitting. Nothing
that could have happened could have given her a more bewildering and
mysterious shock.

All this, perhaps, was rather like a play to Bertram, who saw everything
with a certain unconscious exercise of that literary faculty which he
had just found so little impressive to the people among whom he found
himself. They were very kind people, and had received him confidingly,
asking no questions, not even wondering, as they might have done, what
queer companion Ralph had picked up. Indeed, he was not at all like
Ralph, though circumstances had made them close comrades. Perhaps if
they could have read his life as he thought he could read theirs, they
might not have opened their doors to him with such perfect trust. He had
(had he?) the ruin of a woman’s happiness on his heart, and the
destruction of many hopes. He had been wandering about the world for a
number of years, never knowing how to make up his mind on this question.
Was it indeed his fault? Was it her fault? Were they both to blame?
Perhaps the last was the truth; but he knew very well he would never get
her, or any one, to confess or to believe that. There are some cases in
which the woman has certainly the best of it; and when the man who has
been the means of bringing a young, fair, blameless creature into great
trouble, even if he never meant it, is hopelessly put in the wrong even
when there may be something to be said for him. He was himself
bewildered now and then when he thought it all over, wondering if
indeed there might be something to be said for him. But if he could not
even satisfy himself of that, how should he ever satisfy the world? He
was a little stirred up and uncomfortable that night, he could scarcely
tell why, for the brewing troubles of the Wradisleys, if it was trouble
that was brewing, was unlikely to affect a stranger. Ralph, indeed, had
been grumbling in his beard with complaints over what was in fact the
blamelessness of his brother, but it did not trouble Bertram that his
host should be too perfect a man. He had quite settled in his own mind
what it was that was going to happen. The widow, no doubt, was some
pretty adventuress who, by means of the mother and sister, had
established a hold over the immaculate one, and meant to marry him and
turn her patronesses adrift--the commonest story, vulgar, even. And the
ladies would really have nothing to complain of, for Wradisley was
certainly old enough to choose for himself, and might have married and
turned off his mother to her jointure house years ago, and no harm
done. It was not this that made Bertram sleepless and nervous, who
really had so little to do with them, and no call to fight their
battles. Perhaps it was the sensation of being in England, and within
the rules of common life again, after long disruption from all ordinary
circumstances of ordinary living. He to plunge into garden parties, and
common encounters of men and women! He might meet some one who knew him,
who would ask him questions, and attempt to piece his life together with
guesses and conjectures. He had a great mind to repack his portmanteau
and sling it over his shoulder, and tramp through the night to the
nearest station. But to what good? For wherever he might go the same
risk would meet him. How tranquil the night was as he looked out of the
window, a great moon shining over the openings of the park, making the
silence and the vacant spaces so doubly solitary! He dared not break the
sanctity of that solitude by going out into it, any more than he dared
disturb the quiet of the fully populated and deeply sleeping house. He
had no right, for any caprice or personal cowardice of his, to disturb
that stillness. And then it gave him a curious contradictory sensation,
half of relief from his own thoughts, half of sympathy, to think that
there were already here the elements of a far greater disturbance than
any he could work, beginning to move within the house itself, working,
perhaps, toward a catastrophe of its own. In the midst of all he
suddenly stopped and laughed to himself, and went to bed at last with
the most curiously subdued and softened sensation. He had remembered the
look of the child whom he had lifted from the ground at the little gate
of Greenbank--how she had suddenly been stilled in her childish
mischief, and fixed him with her big, innocent, startled eyes. Poor
little thing! She was innocent enough, whatever might be the nest from
which she came. This was the thought with which he closed his eyes.




CHAPTER VI.


Mr. Wradisley had never been known to give so much attention to any of
his mother’s entertainments before. Those which were more exclusively
his own, the periodical dinners, the parties of guests occasionally
assembled in the house either for political motives or in discharge of
what he felt to be his duty as an important personage in the county, or
for shooting--which was the least responsible of all, but still the
man’s part in a house of the highest class--he did give a certain solemn
and serious attention to. But it had never been known that he had come
out of himself, or even out of his library, which was in a manner the
outer shell and husk of himself, for anything in the shape of an
occasional entertainment, the lighter occurrences of hospitality. On
this occasion, however, he was about all the morning with a slightly
anxious look about his eyes, in the first place to see that the day
promised well, to examine the horizon all round, and discuss the clouds
with the head gardener, who was a man of much learning and an expert, as
might be said, on the great question of the weather. That great
authority gave it as his opinion that it would keep fine all day. “There
may be showers in the evening, I should not wonder, but the weather will
keep up for to-day,” he said, backing his opinion with many minutiæ
about the shape of the clouds and the indications of the wind. Mr.
Wradisley repeated this at the breakfast table with much seriousness.
“Stevenson says we may trust to having a fine day, though there may be
showers in the evening,” he said; “but that will matter less, mother, as
all your guests will be gone by that time.”

“Oh, Reginald, do you think Stevenson always knows?” cried Lucy, “He
promised us fine weather the day of the bazaar, and there was a storm
and everything spoiled in the afternoon.”

“I am of the same opinion as Stevenson,” said Mr. Wradisley, very
quietly, which settled the matter; and, then, to be more wonderful
still, he asked if the house were to be open, and if it was to be
expected that any of the guests would wish to see his collection. “In
that case I should direct Simmons to be in attendance,” he said.

“Oh, if you would, Reginald!--that would give us great _éclat_,” said
his mother; “but I did not venture to ask. It is so very kind of you to
think of it, of yourself. Of course it will be wished--everybody will
wish it; but I generally put them off, you know, for I know you don’t
like to be worried, and I would not worry you for the world.”

“You are too good to me, mother. There is no reason why I should be
worried. It is, of course, my affair as much as any one’s,” he said, in
his perfectly gentle yet pointed way, which made the others, even Mrs.
Wradisley herself, feel a little small, as if she had been assuming an
individual responsibility which she had not the right to assume.

“My show won’t come to much if Rege is going to exhibit, mother,” said
Ralph. “I’d better keep them for another day.”

“On the contrary,” said Mr. Wradisley, with great suavity, “get out your
savage stores. If the whole country is coming, as appears, there will be
need for everything that we can do.”

“There were just as many people last time, Reginald, but you wouldn’t do
anything,” said Lucy, half aggrieved, notwithstanding her mother’s
“hush” and deprecating look.

“Circumstances are not always the same,” her brother said; “and I
understood from my mother that this was to be the last.”

“For the season, Reginald,” said Mrs. Wradisley, with a certain alarm in
her tone.

“To be sure. I meant for the season, of course--and in the
circumstances,” he replied.

Mrs. Wradisley was not at all a nervous nor a timorous woman. She was
very free of fancies, but still she was disturbed a little. She allowed
Lucy to run on with exclamations and conjectures after the master of
the house had retired. “What is the matter with Reginald? What has
happened? What does he mean by it? He never paid any attention to our
garden parties before.”

Mrs. Wradisley was a very sensible woman, as has been said. After a very
short interval she replied, calmly, “Most likely he does not mean
anything at all, my dear. He has just taken a fancy to have everything
very nice. It is delightful of him to let his collection be seen. That
almost makes us independent of the weather, as there is so much in the
house to see; but I do believe Stevenson is right, and that we are going
to have a most beautiful day.”

But though she made this statement, a little wonder remained in her
mind. She had not, she remembered, been very well lately. Did Reginald
think she was failing, and that it might really be his mother’s last
entertainment to her neighbors? It was not a very pleasant thought, for
nothing had occurred for a long time to disturb the quiet tenor of Mrs.
Wradisley’s life, and Ralph had come back to her out of the wilds, and
she was contented. She put the thought away, going out to the
housekeeper to talk over anything that was necessary, but it gave her a
little shock in spite of herself.

Mr. Wradisley, as may well be believed, had no thought at all of his
mother’s health, which he believed to be excellent, but he had begun to
think a little of brighter possibilities, of the substitution of another
feminine head to the house, and entertainments in which, through her, he
would take a warmer interest. But it was only partly this, and partly
nothing at all, as his sensible mother said, only the suppressed
excitement in him and impulse to do something to get through the time
until he should see Mrs. Nugent again and know his fate. He did not feel
very much afraid, notwithstanding all she had said in the shock of the
moment. He could understand that to a young widow, a fanciful young
woman, more or less touched by the new fancies women had taken up, the
idea of replacing her husband by another, of loving a second time, which
all the sentimentalists are against, would be for the moment a great
shock. She might feel the shock all the more if she felt, too, that
there was something in her heart that answered to that alarming
proposal, and might feel that to push off the thought with both hands,
with all her might, was the only thing possible. But the reflections of
the night and of the new morning, which had risen with such splendor of
autumnal sunshine, would, he felt almost sure, make a great difference.
Mrs. Nugent did not wear mourning; it was probably some years since her
husband’s death. She was not very well off, and did not seem to have
many relations who could help her, or she would not have come here so
unfriended, to a district in which nobody knew her. Was it likely that
she should resist all that he had to offer, the love of a good man, the
shelter of a well-known, wealthy, important name and house? It was not
possible that for a mere sentiment a woman so full of sense as she was,
could resist these. The love of a good man--if he had not had a penny in
the world, that would be worth any woman’s while; and she would feel
that. He thought, as he arranged with a zeal he had never felt before,
the means of amusing and occupying his mother’s guests, that he would
have all the more chance of getting her by herself, of finding time and
opportunity to lead her out of the crowd to get her answer. Surely,
surely, the chances were all in favor of a favorable answer. It was not
as if he were a nobody, a chance-comer, a trifling or unimportant
person. He had always been aware that he was an important person, and it
seemed impossible that she should not see it too.

Ralph Wradisley and his friend Bertram went out for a long walk. They
were both “out of it,” the son as much as the visitor, and both moved
with similar inclinations to run away. “Of course I’ll meet some fellows
I know,” Ralph said. “Shall I though? The fellows of my age are knocking
about somewhere, or married and settled, and that sort of thing. I’ll
meet the women of them, sisters, and so forth, and perhaps some wives.
It’s only the women that are fixtures in a country like this; and what
are the women to you and me?”

“Well, to me nothing but strangers--but so would the men be too.”

“Ah, it’s all very well to talk,” said Ralph. “Women have their place in
society, and so forth--wouldn’t be so comfortable without them, I
suppose. But between you and me, Bertram, there ain’t very much in women
for fellows like us. I’m not a marrying man--neither are you, I suppose?
The most of them about here are even past the pretty girl stage, don’t
you know, and I don’t know how to talk to them. Africa plays the deuce
with you for that.”

“No,” said Bertram, “I am not a marrying man. I am--I feel I ought to
tell you, Wradisley--there never was any need to go into such questions
before, and you may believe I don’t want to carry a placard round my
neck in the circumstances;--well--I am a married man, and that is the
truth.”

Ralph turned upon him with a long whistle and a lifting of the
eyebrows. “By Jove!” he said.

“I hope you won’t bear me a grudge for not telling you before. In that
case I’ll be off at once and bother you no more.”

“Stuff!” cried Ralph; “what difference can it make to me? I have thought
you had something on your mind sometimes; but married or single, we’re
the same two fellows that have walked the desert together, and helped
each other through many a scrape. I’m sorry for you, old chap--that is,
if there’s anything to be sorry for. Of course, I don’t know.”

“I’ve been afloat on the world ever since,” said Bertram. “It was all my
fault. I was a cursed fool, and trapped when I was a boy. Then I thought
the woman was dead--had all the proofs and everything, and--You say you
know nothing about that sort of thing, Wradisley. Well, I won’t say
anything about it. I fell in love with a lady every way better than
I--she was--perhaps you do know more than you say. I married her--that’s
the short and the long of it; and in a year, when the baby had come,
the other woman, the horrible creature, arrived at my very door.”

“Good Lord!” cried Ralph softly, in his beard.

“She was dying, that was one good thing; she died--in my house. And
then--We were married again, my wife and I--she allowed that; but--I
have never seen her since,” said Bertram, turning his head away.

“By Jove!” said Ralph Wradisley once more, in his beard; and they walked
on in silence for a mile, and said not another word. At last--

“Old chap,” said Ralph, touching his friend on the shoulder, “I never
was one to talk; but it’s very hard lines on you, and Mrs. Bertram ought
to be told so, if she were the queen.”

Bertram shook his head. “I don’t know why I told you,” he said; “don’t
let us talk of it any more. The thing’s done and can’t be undone. I
don’t know if I wish any change. When two paths part in this world,
Wradisley, don’t you know, the longer they go, the wider apart they
get--or at least that’s my experience. They say your whole body changes
every seven years--it doesn’t take so long as that to alter a man’s
thoughts and his soul--and a woman’s, too, I suppose. She’s far enough
from me now, and I from her. I’m not sure I--regret it. In some ways
it--didn’t suit me, so to speak. Perhaps things are best as they are.”

“Well,” said Ralph, “I’d choose a free life for myself, but not exactly
in that way, Bertram--not if I were you.”

“Fortunately we are none of us each other,” Bertram said, with a laugh
which had little mirth in it. He added, after a moment: “You’ll use your
own discretion about telling this sorry tale of mine, Wradisley. I felt
I had to tell you. I can’t go about under false pretenses while you’re
responsible for me. Now you know the whole business, and we need not
speak of it any more.”

“All right, old fellow,” Ralph said; and they quickened their pace, and
put on I don’t know how many miles more before they got back--too late
for lunch, and very muddy about the legs--to eat a great deal of cold
beef at the sideboard, while the servants chafed behind them, intent
upon changing the great dining-room into a bower of chrysanthemums and
temple of tea. They had to change their dress afterwards, which took up
all their time until the roll of carriages began. Bertram, for his part,
being a stranger and not at all on duty, took a long time to put himself
into more presentable clothes. He did not want to have any more of the
garden party than was necessary. And his mind had been considerably
stirred up by his confession, brief as it was. It had been necessary to
do it, and his mind was relieved; but he did not feel that it was
possible to remain long at Wradisbury now that he had disclosed his
mystery, such as it was. What did they care about his mystery?
Nothing--not enough to make a day’s conversation out of it. He knew very
well in what way Ralph would tell his story. He would not announce it as
a discovery--it would drop from his beard like the most casual statement
of fact: “Unlucky beggar, Bertram--got a wife and all that sort of
thing--place down Devonshire way--but he and she don’t hit it off,
somehow.” In such terms the story would be told, without any mystery at
all. But Bertram, who was a proud man, did not feel that he could live
among a set of people who looked at him curiously across the table and
wondered how it was that he did not “hit it off” with his wife. He knew
that he would read that question in Mrs. Wradisley’s face when she bade
him good-morning; and in Lucy’s eyes--Lucy’s eyes, he thought, with a
half smile, would be the most inquisitive--they would ask him a hundred
questions. They would say, with almost a look of anxiety in them, “Oh!
Mr. Bertram--why?” It amused him to think that Lucy would be the most
curious of them all, though why, I could not venture to say. He got
himself ready very slowly, looking out from the corner of his window at
all the smart people of the county gathering upon the lawn. There was
tennis going on somewhere, he could hear, and the less loud but equally
characteristic stroke of the croquet balls. And the band, which was a
famous band from London, had begun to play. If he was to appear at all,
it was time that he should go downstairs; but, as a matter of fact, he
was not really moved to do this, until he saw a little flight across the
green of a small child in white, so swift that some one had to stoop and
pick her up as he picked up Tiny at the gate of Greenbank. The man on
the lawn who caught this little thing lifted her up as Bertram had done.
Would the child be hushed by his grasp, and look into his face as Tiny
had looked at him? Perhaps this was not Tiny--at all events, it gave no
look, but wriggled and struggled out of its captor’s hands. This sight
decided Bertram to present himself in the midst of Mrs. Wradisley’s
guests. He wanted to see Tiny once again.




CHAPTER VII.


Bertram soon lost himself among the crowd on the lawn, among all the
county people and the village people, making his way out and in, in a
solitude which never feels so great as among a crowd. It seemed
wonderful to him, as it is specially to those who have been more or less
in what is called “Society,” that he saw nobody whom he knew. That is a
thing almost impossible to happen for those that are born within that
charmed circle. Whether at the end of the world or in the midst of it,
it is incredible that you should see an assemblage of human creatures
without discovering one who is familiar at least, if not
friendly--unless, indeed, you wander into regions unknown to society;
and Mrs. Wradisley and her guests would all have been indignant indeed
had that been for a moment imagined of them. But yet this is a thing
that does happen now and then, and Bertram traversed the lawns and
flower gardens and conservatories without meeting a single face which he
recognized or being greeted by one voice he had ever heard before. To be
sure, this was partly owing to the fact that the person of whom he was
specially in search was a very small person, to be distinguished at a
very low pitch of stature near to the ground, not at tall on a level with
the other forms. There were a few children among the groups on the lawn,
and he pursued a white frock in various directions, which, when found,
proved to contain some one who was not Tiny; but at last he came to that
little person clinging to Lucy’s skirts as she moved about among her
mother’s guests. Lucy turned round upon Bertram with a little surprise
to find him so near her, and then a little rising glow of color and a
look in her mild eyes of mingled curiosity and compassion, which
penetrated him with sudden consciousness, annoyance, yet amusement.
Already it was evident Ralph had found a moment a tell his tale. “Oh,
Mr. Bertram!” Lucy said. She would have said precisely the same in
whatever circumstances; the whole difference was in the tone.

Then a small voice was uplifted at her feet. “It is the gemplemans,”
Tiny said.

“So you remember me, little one? though we only saw each other in the
dark. Will you come for a walk with me, Tiny?” Bertram said.

The child looked at him with serious eyes. Now that he saw her in
daylight she was not the common model of the angelic child, but dark,
with a little olive tint in her cheeks and dark brown hair waving upon
her shoulders. He scarcely recognized, except by the serious look, the
little runaway of the previous night, yet recognized something in her
for which he was not at all prepared, which he could not explain to
himself. Why did the child look at him so? And he looked at her, not
with the half fantastic, amused liking which had made him seek her out,
but seriously too, infected by her survey of him, which was so
penetrating and so grave. After Tiny had given him this investigating
look, she put her little velvety hand into his, with the absolute
confidence of her age, “’Ess, me go for a walk,” she said.

“Now, Tiny, talk properly to this gentleman; let him see what a lady you
can be when you please,” said Lucy. “She’s too old to talk like that,
isn’t she, Mr. Bertram? She is nearly five! and she really can talk just
as well as I can, when she likes. Tiny! now remember!” Lucy was very
earnest in her desire that Tiny should do herself justice; but once more
lifted the swift, interrogative look which seemed to say, as he knew she
would, “Oh, Mr. Bertram--why?”

“Where shall we go for our walk, Tiny?” Bertram said.

“Take Tiny down to the pond; nobody never take me down to the wasser.
Mamma says Tiny tumble in, but gemplemans twite safe. Come, come, afore
mummie sees and says no.”

“But, Tiny, if you’re sure your mother would say no--”

“Qwick, qwick!” cried Tiny. “If mummie says nuffin, no matter; but if
she says no!”--this was uttered with a little stamp of the foot and
raised voice as if in imitation of a familiar prohibition--“then Tiny
tan’t go. Come along, quick, quick.”

It was clear that Tiny’s obedience was to the letter, not the spirit.

“But I don’t know the way,” said Bertram, holding a little back.

“Come, come!” cried the child, dragging him on. “Tiny show you the way.”

“And what if we both fall in, Tiny?”

“You’s too old, too big gemplemans to fall into the wasser--too big to
have any mummie.”

“Alas! that’s true,” he said.

“Then never mind,” said the little girl. “No mummie, no nursie, nobody
to scold you. You can go in the boat if you like. Come! Oh, Tiny do, do
want to go in the boat; and there’s flowers on the udder side,
fordet-me-nots!--wants to get fordet-me-nots. Come, gemplemans, come!”

“Would you like to ride on my shoulder? and then we shall go quicker,”
he said.

She stood still at once, and held out her arms to be lifted up. Now
Bertram was not the kind of man who makes himself into the horse, the
bear, the lion, as occasion demands, for the amusement of children. He
was more surprised to find himself with this little creature seated on
his shoulder, than she was on her elevated seat, where indeed she was
entirely at her ease, guiding him with imperative tugs at the collar of
his coat and beating her small foot against his breast, as if she had
the most perfect right to his attention and devotion. “This way, this
way,” sang Tiny; “that way nasty way, down among the thorns--this way
nice way; get fordet-me-nots for mummie; mummie never say nuffin--Tiny
tan go!”

He found himself thus hurrying over the park, with the child’s voice
singing its little monologue over his head, flushed with rebellion
against the unconscious mother, much amused at himself. And yet it was
not amusement; it was a curious sensation which Bertram could not
understand. It is not quite an unexampled thing to fall in love with a
child at first sight; but he was not aware that he had ever done it
before, and to be turned so completely by the child into the instrument
of her little rebellions and pleasures was more wonderful still. He
laughed within himself, but his laugh went out of him like the flame of
a candle in the wind. He felt more like to cry, if he had been a subject
for crying. But why he could not tell. Never was man in a more disturbed
and perplexed state of mind. Guided by Tiny’s pullings and beatings, he
got to the pond at last, a pond upon the other side of which there was,
strange to say, visible among the russet foliage, one little clump of
belated forget-me-nots quite out of season. The child’s quick eye had
noted them as she had gone by with her nurse on some recent walk.
Bertram knew a great many things, but it is very doubtful whether he was
aware that it was wonderful to find forget-me-nots so late. And Tiny was
a sight to see when he put her down in the stern of the boat and pulled
across the pond with a few long strokes. Her eyes, which had a golden
light in their darkness, shone with triumph and delight; the brown of
her little sunburnt face glowed transparent as if there was a light
within; her dark curls waved; the piquancy of the complexion so unusual
in a child, the chant of her little voice shouting, “Fordet-me-nots,
fordet-me-nots!” her little rapture of eagerness and pleasure carried
him altogether out of himself. He had loved that complexion in his day;
perhaps it was some recollection, some resemblance, which was at the
bottom of this strange absorption in the little creature of whose very
existence he had not been aware till last night. Now, if he had been
called on to give his very life for Tiny he would have been capable of
it, without knowing why; and, indeed, there would have been a very
likely occasion of giving his life for Tiny, or of sacrificing hers, as
her mother foresaw, if he had not caught her as she stretched herself
out of the boat to reach the flowers. His grip of her was almost
violent--and there was a moment during which Tiny’s little glow
disappeared in a sudden thunder-cloud, changing the character of her
little face, and a small incipient stamp of passion on the planks
betrayed rebellion ready to rise. But Tiny looked at Bertram, who held
her very firmly, fixed him with much the same look as she had given him
at their first meeting, and suddenly changed countenance again. What did
that look mean? He had said laughingly on the previous night that it was
a look of recognition. She suddenly put her two little hands round his
neck, and said, “Tiny will be dood.” And the effect of the little
rebel’s embrace was that tears--actual wet tears, which for a moment
blinded eyes which had looked every kind of wonder and terror in the
face--surprised him before he knew. What did it mean? What did it mean?
It was too wonderful for words.

The flowers were gathered after this in perfect safety and harmony; Tiny
puddling with her hands in the mud to get the nearest ones “nice and
long,” as she said, while Bertram secured those that were further off.
And then there arose a great difficulty as to how to carry these wet and
rather muddy spoils. Tiny’s pretty frock, which she held out in both
hands to receive them like a ballet dancer, could not be thought of.

“For what would your mother say if your frock was wet and dirty?” said
Bertram, seriously troubled.

“Mummie say, ‘Oh, Tiny, Tiny, naughty schild,’” said the little girl,
with a very grave face; “never come no more to garden party.”

Finally an expedient was devised in the shape of Bertram’s handkerchief
tied together at the corners, and swung upon a switch of willow which
was light enough for Tiny to carry; in which guise the pair set out
again toward the house and the smart people, Tiny once more on Bertram’s
shoulder, with the bundle of flowers bobbing in front of his nose, and,
it need not be said, some trace of the gathering of the flowers and of
the muddy edges of the pool, and the moss-grown planks of the boat
showing on both performers--on Tiny’s frock, which was a little wet,
and on Bertram’s coat, marked by the beating of the little feet, which
had gathered a little mud and greenness too. Tiny began to question him
on the returning way.

“Gemplemans too big to have got a mummie,” said Tiny; “have you got a
little girl?”

Not getting any immediate answer to this question, she sang it over him
in her way, repeating it again and again--“Have zoo dot a little
girl?”--her dialect varying according to her caprice, until the small
refrain got into his head.

The man was utterly confused and troubled; he could not give Tiny any
answer, nor could he answer the wonderful maze of questions and thoughts
which this innocent demand of hers awakened in his breast. When they
came within sight of the lawn and its gay crowd, Bertram bethought him
that it would be better to put his little rider down, and to present her
to perhaps an anxious or angry mother on a level, which would make her
impaired toilet less conspicuous. After all, there was nothing so
wonderful in the fact that a little girl had dirtied her frock. He had
no occasion to feel so guilty and disturbed about it. And this is how it
happened that the adventurers appeared quite humbly, Tiny not half
pleased to descend from her eminence and carrying now over her shoulder,
as Bertram suggested, the stick which supported her packet of flowers,
while he walked rather shamefaced by her, holding her hand, and looking
out with a little trepidation for the mother, who, after all, could not
bring down very condign punishment upon him for running away with her
child.




CHAPTER VIII.


Mrs. Nugent had been very unwilling to fulfill her promise and appear at
Mrs. Wradisley’s party. She had put off her arrival till the last
moment, and as she walked up from the village with her little girl she
had flattered herself that, arriving late under shelter of various other
parties who made much more commotion, she might have escaped
observation. But if Bertram, of whom she knew nothing, had been intent
on finding Tiny, Mr. Wradisley was much more intent on finding Tiny’s
mother. He had been on the watch and had not missed her from the first
moment of her appearance, carefully as she thought she had sheltered it
from observation. And even her appearance, though she had condemned it
herself as excited and sullen, when she gave herself a last look in the
glass before coming away, did not discourage him. Excitement brightens a
woman’s eye and gives additional color to her face, or at least it did
so to Nelly. The gentle carelessness of the ordinary was not in her
aspect at all. She was more erect, carrying her animated head high.
Nobody could call her ordinary at any time. She was so full of life and
action. But on that day every line of her soft, light dress seemed to
have expression. The little curls on her forehead were more crisp, the
shining of her eyes more brilliant. There was a little nervous movement
about her mouth which testified to the agitation in her. “Is there
anything wrong, dear?” asked Mrs. Wradisley, pausing, holding her by the
hand, looking into her face, startled by this unusual look, even in the
midst of her guests.

“Oh, no--yes. I have had some disturbing news, but nothing to take any
notice of. I will tell you afterwards,” Mrs. Nugent said. Lucy too hung
upon her, eager to know what was the matter. “Only some blunders--about
my affairs,” she had replied, “which I can set right.”

“Oh, if that is all!” Lucy had cried, running off to salute some other
new-comers and carrying Tiny in her train. “Affairs” meant business to
Lucy, and business, so far as she was aware, touched only the outside,
and could have nothing to do with any one’s happiness. Besides, her mind
was in a turmoil for the moment with that strange story of Mrs. Bertram
which her mother had just told her by way of precaution, filtered from
Ralph. “Mr. Bertram is married, it appears; but he and his wife don’t
get on,” was what Mr. Wradisley had said. Lucy’s imagination had, as we
are aware, been busy about Bertram, and she was startled by this strange
and sudden conclusion to her self-inquiry whether by any chance he might
be the Ideal man.

It was thus that Mrs. Nugent had been suddenly left without even the
protection of her child, and though she had managed for some time to
hide herself, as she supposed (though his watchful gaze in reality
followed her everywhere), from her host amid the crowd of other people
assembled, there came the inevitable moment when she could keep herself
from him no longer. He came up to her while the people who surrounded
dispersed to examine his collection or to go in for tea.

“But I have seen your collection, Mr. Wradisley,” she said; “you were so
kind as to show me everything.”

“It is not my collection,” he said; “it is--a flower I want to show you.
The new orchid--the new--Let me take you into the conservatory. I must,”
he said, in a lower tone. “You must be merciful and let me speak to
you.”

“Mr. Wradisley,” she cried, almost under her breath, “do not, for pity’s
sake, say any more.”

“I must,” he said, impetuously. “I must know.” And then he added in his
usual tone, “Stevenson is very proud of it. It is a very rare kind, you
know, and the finest specimen, he says.”

“Oh, what is that, Mr. Wradisley?--an orchid? May I come too?” said
another guest, without discrimination.

“Certainly,” he said; “but all in its order. Simmons comes first,
Stevenson afterwards. You have not seen my Etruscan collection.” Mrs.
Nugent was aware that he had caught a floating ribbon of the light cloak
she carried on her arm, and held it fast while he directed with his
usual grave propriety the other lady by her side. “Now,” he said,
looking up to her. If it was the only thing that could be done, then
perhaps it was better that it should be done at once. He led her through
the lines of gleaming glass, the fruit, and the flowers, for Wradisbury
was famous for its vineries and its conservatories--meeting a few
wanderers by the way, whom it was difficult to prevent from
following--till at last they got to the inner sanctuary of all, where a
great fantastic blossom, a flower, but counterfeiting something that was
not a flower, blazed aloft in the ruddy afternoon light, which of itself
could never have produced that unnatural tropical blossom. Neither the
man nor the woman looked at the orchid. She said to him eagerly before
he could speak: “This is all dreadful to me. You ought to let me go. You
ought to be satisfied with my word. Should I speak as I have done if I
had not meant it? Mr. Wradisley, for God’s sake, accept what I have
already said to you and let me go.”

“No,” he said. She stood beside the flower, her brown beauty shining
against the long leaves and strong stem of the beautiful monster, and he
planted himself in front of her as if to prevent her escape. “You think
I am tyrannical,” he said; “so I am. You are shocked and startled by
what I have said to you. It is because I understand that that I am so
pressing, so arbitrary now. Mrs. Nugent, you can’t bear that a man
should speak to you of love. You think that love only comes once, that
your heart should be buried with your husband; that is folly, it is
fancy, it is prejudice, it is not a real feeling. That is why I force
you almost to hear me. Pause a moment, and hear me.”

“Not a moment, not a moment!” she cried. “It is more than that. Take my
word for it, and let me go and say no more.”

“A widow,” he said, “you make up an idea to yourself that it’s something
sacred. You are never to love, never to think of any one again. But all
that is fiction--don’t interrupt me--it is mere fiction. You are living,
and he is dead.”

“You force me,” she cried, “to betray myself. You force me--to tell you
my secrets. You have no right to force my secret from me. Mr. Wradisley,
every word you say to me is an offense. It is my own fault; but a man
ought surely to be generous and take a woman’s word without compelling
her in self defense--”

“I know by heart all that you can say in self-defense,” he cried,
vehemently, “and you ought to be told that these are all
fictions--sentimentalisms--never to be weighed against a true
affection--a man’s love--and home and protection--both for yourself and
your child.”

The young woman’s high spirit was aroused. “I will have no more of
this,” she said. “I am quite able to protect myself and my child. Let
me go--I will go, Mr. Wradisley. I do not call this love. I call it
persecution. Not a word more.”

Mr. Wradisley was more astonished than words could say. He fell back,
and allowed her to pass. He had thought, with a high hand, in the
exercise of that superior position and judgment which everybody allowed
him, to bring her to reason. Was it possible that she was not to be
brought to reason? “I think,” he said, “Mrs. Nugent, that when you are
calm and consider everything at your leisure you will feel--that I am
justified.”

“You can never be justified in assuming that you know--another person’s
position and feelings; which you don’t, and can’t know.”

“I argue from the general,” said Mr. Wradisley, with an air almost of
meekness, “and when you think--when you take time to consider--”

“No time would make any difference,” she said, quickly; and then, for
she was now free and going back again toward the lawn, her heart smote
her. “Don’t bear me any malice,” she said. “I respect you very much; any
woman might be proud--of your love”--her face gave a little twitch,
whether toward laughing or crying it was difficult to tell--“but I
couldn’t have given you mine in any circumstances, not if I had
been--entirely free.”

“Which you are--from everything but false sentiment,” he said, doggedly.

But what did it matter?--he was following her out, her face was turned
from him, her ears were deaf to his impressive words, as her eyes were
turned from his looks, which were more impressive still. Mr. Wradisley
had failed, and it was the first time for many years that he had done
so; he had even forgotten that such a thing was possible. When they
came, thus walking solemnly one behind the other, to the outer house
where some of the other guests were lingering, Mrs. Nugent stopped to
speak to some of them, to describe the new orchid. “It is the most
uncanny thing I ever saw,” she said. And then Lady Dulham, the great
lady of that side of the county, the person whom he most disliked,
appealed to Mr. Wradisley to show her too the new wonder. It was perhaps
on the whole the best way he could have got out of this false position.
He offered the old lady his arm with a deeply wounded, hotly offended
heart.

Mrs. Nugent lingered a little with the others in the great relief and
ease of mind which, though it was only momentary, was great. She had not
after all been obliged to reveal any of her secrets, whatever they might
be. If he had been less peremptory, more reasonable, she would have been
obliged to explain to him; and that she had very little mind to do.
After the first relief, however, she began to feel what a blow had been
struck at her temporary comfort in this place by so untoward an
accident. His mother and sister were her chief friends; they had
received her so generously, so kindly, with such confidence. Her secret
was no guilty one, but still it had made her uncomfortable, it had been
the subject of various annoyances; but none of these kind people had
asked her any questions; they had received her for herself, never
doubting. And now it seemed that she had only appeared among them to do
harm. She was a pretty and attractive young woman, and not altogether
unaware that people liked her on that account; but yet she never had
been one of those women with whom everybody is acquainted, in novels, at
least, before whom every man falls down. She had had her share, but she
had not been persecuted by inopportune lovers. And she had not
entertained any alarm in respect to Mr. Wradisley. She hoped now that
his pride would help him through it, and that nobody would be the wiser;
but still she could not continue here under the very wing of the family
after so humiliating its head, either meeting him, or compelling him to
avoid her. She went on turning over this question in her mind, pausing
to talk to this one and that one, to do her duty to Mrs. Wradisley still
by amusing and occupying her guests, putting on her smiles as if they
had been ribbons to conceal some little spot or rent beneath. Indeed,
it was no rent. She had not been very long at Wradisbury. It would be no
dreadful business to go away. She was neither without friends nor
protectors, and London was always a ready and natural refuge, where it
would be so simple to go. But this fiasco, as she called it to herself,
vexed her. She wanted to get away as soon as possible, to think it over
at leisure, to find Tiny, who no doubt was hanging on Lucy Wradisley’s
skirts somewhere, or else playing with the other children, and to steal
home as soon as there was any pretext for departure. She felt that she
would prefer not to meet his mother’s eye.

She was beginning to get very impatient of waiting when at last she
caught sight of Tiny being set down on the ground from somebody’s
shoulders. She did not pay any attention for the moment to the man. Tiny
had so many friends; for the child was not shy; she had no objection to
trust herself to any one who pleased her, though it was not every one
who had this advantage and pleased Tiny. The mother saw at once that
Tiny’s best frock had suffered, and a momentary alarm about the pond,
which was one of her favorite panics, seized her. But the child was
evidently quite right, which settled that question. She went to meet
Tiny with a word of playful reproof for her disheveled condition on her
lips. The child and her guardian were coming round a clump of trees
which hid them for a moment, and toward which Mrs. Nugent turned her
steps. She heard the small voice running on in its usual little
sing-song of monologue.

“Have zoo dot a little girl? Have zoo dot a little girl?”

What an odd question for Tiny to ask! The child must really be trained
to be a little more like other children, not to push her little
inquiries so far, not to ask questions. Mrs. Nugent could not help
smiling a little at the sound of her small daughter’s voice, especially
as there was no reply made to it. The man had a big beard, that was all
she had observed of him; perhaps it was the other son, the brother Raaf,
the adventurer, or perhaps prodigal, who had newly come home.

These were her thoughts as she turned round the great bole of that big
tree of which the Wradisleys were so proud. Bertram was coming on the
other side, half smiling, too, at Tiny’s little song; while she, spying
some children in the distance, swayed backward from his hold to call to
them, and then detaching herself from his hand altogether, ran back a
few paces to show them her treasures. His face half averted for a moment
looking after her thus, gave Mrs. Nugent one breath of preparation, but
none to him, who turned round again half conscious of some one coming to
meet him, with still that half smile and the tender expression in his
eyes. He stood still, he wavered for a moment as if, strong man as he
was, he would have fallen.

“My God--Nelly!” he cried.




CHAPTER IX.


After the most successful party, even if it is only a garden party, a
flatness is apt to fall upon the family of the entertainers who have
been so nobly doing their best to amuse their friends. Besides the
grateful sense of success, and of the fact that the trouble is well
over, comes a flagging of both physical and mental powers. The dinner at
Wradisbury was heavy after the great success of the afternoon; there was
a little conversation about that, and about how everybody looked, and on
Ralph’s part, who was decidedly the least dull of the party, on the
changes that time had made, especially upon the women whom he remembered
as little girls, and who were now, as he said, “elderly,” some of them
with little girls of their own; but neither Mr. Wradisley nor Mr.
Bertram were at all amused, and Lucy was tired, and agreeing with Ralph
completely in his estimation of the old young ladies, was not
exhilarated by it as she might have been. The master of the house did
not indeed betray fatigue or ill-humor, he was too well bred for that.
But he was a little cross to the butler, and dissatisfied with the
dinner, which was an unusual thing; he even said something to his mother
about “_your_ cook,” as if he thought the sins of that important person
resulted from the fact that she was Mrs. Wradisley’s cook, and had
received bad advice from her mistress. When he was pleased he said “my
cook,” and on ordinary occasions “the cook,” impersonally and
impartially. Bertram on the other hand, had the air of a man who had
fallen from a great height, and had not been able to pick himself up--he
was pale, his face was drawn. He scarcely heard when he was spoken to.
When he perceived that he was being addressed he woke up with an effort.
All this Lucy perceived keenly and put down to what was in fact its
real reason, though with a difference. She said to herself:

“Nelly Nugent must have known him. She must have known his wife and all
about him, and how it was they didn’t get on. I’ll make her tell me,”
Lucy said to herself, and she addressed herself very particularly to Mr.
Bertram’s solace and entertainment, partly because she was romantically
interested and very sorry for him, and partly to show her mother, who
had told her with a certain air that Mr. Bertram was married, that his
marriage made not the slightest difference to her. She tried to draw him
out about Tiny, who was the first and most natural subject.

“Isn’t she a delightful little thing? I am sure she made a slave of you,
Mr. Bertram, and got you to do everything she wanted. She always does.
She is a little witch,” Lucy said.

“Oh, Tiny,” said Bertram, with a slight change of color. “Yes--I had not
been thinking. What is her--real name?”

“I believe it is Agnes, and another name too--an old-fashioned name; do
you remember, mother?”

“Laetitia. I don’t know what you mean by an old-fashioned name. I had
once a great friend whose name was Laetitia. It means light-heartedness,
doesn’t it?--joy. And a very nice meaning, too. It would just suit Tiny.
They can call her Letty when she gets a little older. But the worst of
these baby names is that there is no getting rid of them; and Tiny is so
absurd for a big girl.”

During this rather long speech Bertram sat with a strange look, as if he
could have cried, Lucy thought, which, however, must have been absurd,
for what he did do was to laugh. “Yes, they do stick; and the more
absurd they are the longer they last.”

“Tiny, however, is not absurd in the least; and isn’t she a delightful
little thing?” Lucy repeated. She was not, perhaps, though so very good
a girl, very rapid in her perceptions, and besides, it would have been
entirely idiotic to imagine the existence of any reason why Bertram
should not discuss freely the little characteristics of Mrs. Nugent’s
child.

“Poor little Tiny!” he said, quite inappropriately, with a sort of
stifled sigh.

“Oh! do you mean because her father is dead?” said Lucy, with a
countenance of dismay. She blamed herself immediately for having thought
so little of that misfortune. Perhaps the thing was that Mr. Bertram had
been a friend of Tiny’s father, and it was this that made him so grave.
She added, “I am sure I am very sorry for poor Mr. Nugent; but then I
never knew him, or knew anybody that knew him. Yes, to be sure, poor
little Tiny! But, Mr. Bertram, she has such a very nice mother. Don’t
you think for a girl the most important thing is to have a nice mother?”

“No doubt,” Bertram said very gravely, and again he sighed.

Lucy was full of compunction, but scarcely knew how to express it. He
must have been a very great friend of poor Mr. Nugent, and perhaps he
had felt, seeing Nelly quite out of mourning, and looking on the whole
so bright, that his friend had been forgotten. But no! Lucy was ready to
go to the stake for it, that Mrs. Nugent had not forgotten her
husband--more at least than it was inevitable and kind to her other
friends to forget.

And then Mr. Wradisley, having finished his complaints about “your
cook,” told his mother across the table that it was quite possible he
might have to go to town in a few days. “Perhaps to-morrow,” he said.
The dealer in antiquities, through whose hands he spent a great deal of
money, had some quite unique examples which it would be sinful to let
slip by.

Mrs. Wradisley exclaimed against this suggestion. “I thought, Reginald,
you were to be at home with us all the winter; and Ralph just come,
too,” she said.

“Oh, don’t mind me,” said Ralph.

“Ralph may be sure, mother,” said Mr. Wradisley, with his usual dignity,
“that I mind him very much. Still there are opportunities that occur but
once in a lifetime. But nothing,” he added, “need be settled till
to-morrow.”

What did Reginald expect to-morrow? Mr. Bertram looked up too with a
sort of involuntary movement, as if he were about to say something
concerning to-morrow; but then changed his mind and did not speak. This
was Lucy’s observation, who was uneasy, watching them all, and feeling
commotion, though she knew not whence it came, in the air.

In the morning there was still the same commotion in the air to Lucy’s
consciousness, who perhaps, however, was the only person who was aware
of it. But any vague sensation of that sort was speedily dispersed by
the exclamation of Mrs. Wradisley, after she had poured out the tea and
coffee (which was an office she retained in her own hands, to Lucy’s
indignation). While she did this she glanced at the outside of the
letters which lay by the side of her plate; for they retained the bad
habit in Wradisbury of giving you your letters at breakfast, instead of
sending them up to your room as soon as they arrived; so that you
received your tailor’s bill or your lover’s letter before the curious
eyes of all the world, so to speak. Mrs. Wradisley looked askance at her
letters as she poured out the tea, and said, half to herself, “Ah! Mrs.
Nugent. Now what can she be writing to me about? I saw her last night,
and I shall probably see her to-day.”

“It will be about those cuttings for the garden, mother,” said Lucy.
“May I open it and see?”

Mrs. Wradisley put her hand for a moment on the little pile. “I prefer
to open my letters myself. No one has ever done that for me yet.”

“Nor made the tea either, mother,” said Ralph.

“Nor made the tea either, Raaf, though Lucy would like to put me out, I
know,” said Mrs. Wradisley, with a little nod of her head; and then,
having finished that piece of business like one who felt her very life
attacked by any who should question her powers of doing it, she
proceeded to open her letters--one or two others before that on which
she had remarked.

Lucy was so much interested herself that she did not see how still her
elder brother sat behind his paper, or how uneasy Bertram was, cutting
his roll into small pieces on his plate. Then Mrs. Wradisley gave a
little scream, and gave them all an excuse for looking up at her, and
Mr. Wradisley for demanding, “What is the matter, mother?” in his quiet
tones.

“Dear me! I beg your pardon, Reginald, for crying out; how very absurd
of me. Mrs. Nugent has gone away! I was so startled I could not help it.
She’s gone away! This is to tell me--and she was here all the afternoon
yesterday, and never said a word.”

“Oh, that’s the little widow,” said Ralph; “and a very good thing too, I
should say, mother. Nothing so dangerous as little widows about.”

Again I am sorry that Lucy was so much absorbed in her own emotions as
not to be capable of general observation, or she would have seen that
both her brother Reginald and Mr. Bertram looked at Raaf as if they
would like to cut his throat.

“She says she did tell me yesterday,” said Mrs. Wradisley, reading her
letter. “‘I mentioned that I had news that disturbed me a little.’ Yes,
now I recollect she did. I thought she wasn’t looking herself, and of
course I asked what was the matter. But I had forgotten all about it,
and I never thought it was serious. ‘And now I find that I must go. You
have all been so kind to me, and I am so sorry to leave. Tiny, too, will
break her little heart; only a child always believes she is coming back
again to-morrow; and the worst of it is I don’t know when I may be able
to get back.’”

“But, mother, she can’t have gone yet; there will be time to run and say
good-by by the ten o’clock train,” said Lucy, getting up hurriedly.

Once more Mrs. Wradisley raised a restraining hand, “Listen,” she said,
“you’ve not heard the end. ‘To-night I am going up to town by the eight
o’clock train. I have not quite settled what my movements will be
afterwards; but you shall hear when I know myself.’ That’s all,” said
the mother, “and very unsatisfactory I call it; but you see you will do
no manner of good, Lucy, jumping up and disturbing everybody at
breakfast on account of the ten o’clock train.”

“Well,” said Lucy, drawing a long breath, “that is something at
least--if she will really let us know as soon as she knows herself.”

“Gammon,” said Ralph. “My belief is you will never hear of your pretty
widow again. She’s seen somebody that is up to her tricks, or she’s
broken down in some little game, or--”

“Raaf!” cried mother and sister together.

But that was not all. Mr. Wradisley put down his newspaper; his
countenance appeared from behind it a little white and drawn, with his
eyebrows lowering. “I am sorry, indeed,” he said, “to hear a man of my
name speak of a lady he knows nothing about as perhaps--a cad might
speak, but not a gentleman.”

“Reginald!” the ladies cried now in chorus, with tones of agitation and
dismay.

Meanwhile Bertram had got up from the table with a disregard of good
manners of which in the tumult of his feelings he was quite unconscious,
and stalked away, going out of the room and the house, his head thrust
forward as if he did not quite realize where he was going. The ladies
afterwards, when they discussed this incident, and had got over their
terror lest hot words should ensue between the brothers, as for the
moment seemed likely--gave Bertram credit for the greatest tact and
delicacy; since it was evident that he too thought a crisis was coming,
and would not risk the chance of being a spectator of a scene which no
stranger to the family ought to see.

But none of these fine sentiments were in Bertram’s mind. He went out,
stumbling as he went, because a high tide of personal emotion had surged
up in him, swelling to his very brain. That may not be a right way to
describe it, because they say all feeling comes from the brain--but that
was how he felt. He scarcely heard the jabberings of these Wradisley
people, who knew nothing about it. He who was the only man who had
anything to say in the matter, to defend her or to assail her--he would
have liked to knock down that fellow Ralph; but he would have liked
still more to kick Ralph’s brother out of the way, who had taken upon
him to interfere and stand up for her, forsooth, as if he knew anything
about her, whereas it was he, only he, Frank Bertram, who knew. He went
staggering out of the house, but shook himself up when he got into the
open air, and pulled himself together. There had been such a strong
impulse upon him to go after her last night and seize hold upon her, to
tell her all this was folly and nonsense, and couldn’t be. Why had he
not done it? He couldn’t tell. To think that was his own child that he
had carried about, and that after all she had been called Laetitia,
after his mother, though _her_ mother had cut him off and banished him
for no immediate fault of his. It was his fault, but it was the fault of
ignorance, not of intention. He had believed what he had so intently
wished to be true, but he had no more meant to harm Nelly or her child
than to sully the sunshine or the skies. And now, when chance or
providence, or whatever you chose to call it, had brought them within
sight of each other again, that he should not have had the heart to
follow that meeting out at once, and insist upon his rights! Perhaps she
would not have denied him--he had thought for a moment that there had
been something in her eyes--and then, like the dolt he was, like the
coward he was, he had let her go, and had gone in to dinner, and had sat
through the evening and listened to their talk and their music, and had
gone to bed and tossed and dreamed all night, and let her go. There had
been impulses in him against all these things. He had thought of
excusing himself from dinner. He had thought of pretending a headache,
and stealing out later; but he had not done it. He had stuck there in
their infernal routine, and let her go. Oh, what a dolt and coward slave
am I! He would not put forth a hand to hold her, to clutch her, not a
finger! But began to bestir himself as soon as she was out of his reach
and had got clear away.

He went straight on toward the gate and the village, not much thinking
where he was going, nor meaning anything in particular by it; but
before he was aware found himself at Greenbank, where he had stopped
once in the darkness, all unaware who was within, and listened to Ralph
Wradisley (the cad! his brother was right) bringing forth his foolish
rubbish about the pretty widow, confound him! And some one had asked him
if perhaps he knew the Nugents, and he had said, Yes; but they were old
people. Yes, he knew some Nugents, he had said. They had only been her
grandparents, that was all. It was her mother’s name she had taken, but
he never guessed it, never divined it, though Tiny had divined it when
she suddenly grew silent in his hands and gave him that look. Tiny had
recognized him, like a shot! Though she had never seen him, though she
was only five weeks old when--But he had not known her, had not known
anything, nor how to behave himself when Providence placed such an
unlooked for chance in his hands.

He went up to the house, the door of which stood wide open, and went in.
All the doors were open with a visible emptiness, and that look of mute
disorder and almost complaint which a deserted house bears when its
inmates have gone away. A woman came out of the back regions on hearing
his step, and explained that she had acted as Mrs. Nugent’s cook, but
was the caretaker put in by the landlord, and let or not with the house
as might suit the inmate. Mrs. Nugent had behaved very handsome to her,
she said, with wages and board wages, and to Lizzie too, the housemaid,
who had gone back to her mother’s, and refused to stay and help to clean
out the house. It was out of order, as Mrs. Nugent only went last night;
but if the gentleman would like to see over it--Bertram behaved handsome
to her also, bidding her not trouble herself, and then was permitted to
wander through the house at his will. There was nothing to be seen
anywhere which had any association either to soothe or hurt his excited
mind--a broken doll, an old yellow novel, a chair turned over in one
room, the white coverlet in another twisted as if packing of some sort
had been performed upon it--nothing but the merest vulgar traces of a
sudden going away. In the little drawing-room there were some violets in
water in a china cup--he remembered that she had worn them
yesterday--and by their side and on the carpet beneath two or three of
the forget-me-nots he had gathered for Tiny. He had almost thought of
taking some of the violets (which was folly) away with him. But when he
saw the forget-me-nots he changed his mind, and left them as he found
them. His flowers had not found favor in her sight, it appeared! It was
astonishing how much bitterness that trivial circumstance added to his
feelings. He went out by the open window, relieved to get into the open
air again, and went round and round the little garden, finding here and
there play places of Tiny, where a broken toy or two, and some daisies
threaded for a chain, betrayed her. And then it suddenly occurred to him
that there were but two or three forget-me-nots, which might easily have
fallen from Tiny’s hot little hand, whereas there had been a large
number gathered. What had been done with the rest? Had they by any
possibility been carried away? The thought came with a certain balm to
his heart. He said Folly! to himself, but yet there was a consolation in
the thought.

He was seated on the rude little bench where Tiny had played, looking at
her daisies, when he heard a step; and, looking through the hedge of
lilac bushes which enclosed him, he saw to his great surprise Mr.
Wradisley walking along the little terrace upon which the drawing-room
windows opened. Mr. Wradisley could not be stealthy, that was
impossible, but his step was subdued; and if anything could have made
his look furtive, as if he were afraid of being seen, that would have
been his aspect. He walked up and down the little terrace once or twice,
and then he went in softly by the open window. In another moment he
reappeared. He was carefully straightening out in his hands the limp
forget-me-nots which had fallen from the table to the carpet out (no
doubt) of Tiny’s little hot hands. Mr. Wradisley took out a delicate
pocket-book bound in morocco, and edged with silver, and with the
greatest care, as if they had been the most rare specimens, arranged in
it the very limp and faded flowers. Then he placed the book in his
breast-pocket, and turned away. Bertram, in the little damp arbor, laid
himself upon the bench to suppress the tempest of laughter which tore
him in two. It was more like a convulsion than a fit of merriment, for
laughter is a tragic expression sometimes, and it came to an end very
abruptly in something not unlike a groan. Mr. Wradisley was already at
some distance, but he stopped involuntarily at the sound of this groan,
and looked back, but seeing nothing to account for it, walked on again
at his usual dignified pace, carrying Tiny’s little muddy, draggled
forget-me-nots over his heart.

It was not till some time after that Bertram followed him up to the
hall. He had neither taken Nelly’s violets nor Tiny’s daisies, though he
had looked at them both with feelings which half longed for and half
despised such poor tokens of the two who had fled from him. The thought
of poor Mr. Wradisley’s mistake gave him again and again a spasm of
inaudible laughter as he went along the winding ways after him. After
all, was it not a willful mistake, a piece of false sentiment
altogether? for the man might have remembered, he said to himself, that
Nelly wore violets, autumn violets, and not forget-me-nots. When he got
to the house, Bertram found, as he had expected, a telegram summoning
him to instant departure. He had taken means to have it sent when he
passed through the village. And the same afternoon went away, offering
many regrets for the shortness of his visit.

“Three days--a poor sort of Saturday to Monday affair,” said Mrs.
Wradisley. “You must come again and give us the rest that is owing to
us.”

“It is just my beastly luck,” Bertram said.

As for Lucy, she tried to throw a great deal of meaning into her eyes as
she bade him good-by; but Bertram did not in the least understand what
the meaning was. He had an uncomfortable feeling for the moment, as if
it might be that Lucy’s heart had been touched, unluckily, as her
brother’s had been; but grew hot all over with shame, looking again at
her innocent, intent face though what was in it, it was not given to him
to read. What Lucy would have said had she dared would have been, “Oh,
Mr. Bertram, go home to your wife and live happy ever after!” but this
of course she had no right to say. Ralph, however, the downright, whom
no one suspected of tact or delicacy, said something like it as he
walked with his friend to the station. Or rather it was at the very last
moment as he shook hands through the window of the railway carriage.

“Good-by, Bertram,” he said; “I’d hunt up Mrs. Bertram and make it up,
if I were you. Things like that can’t go on forever, don’t you know.”

“There’s something in what you say, Wradisley,” Bertram replied.


THE END.