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A WITCH OF THE HILLS

BY

FLORENCE WARDEN


AUTHOR OF 'THE HOUSE ON THE MARSH,' ETC.

IN TWO VOLUMES
VOL. II

LONDON

RICHARD BENTLEY & SON, NEW BURLINGTON STREET

Publishers in Ordinary to Her Majesty the Queen

1888




A WITCH OF THE HILLS




CHAPTER XIV


That visit of Mr. Ellmer's,--hard as I tried, and, as I believe,
Babiole tried, to cheat myself into believing the contrary,--spoiled
the old frank intercourse between us for ever. It was my fault, I
know. Dreams that stirred my soul and shook my body had sprung up
suddenly on that faint basis of a spurious tie between me and the girl
I had before half-unconsciously loved. Now my long-torpid passions
stirred with life again and held Walpurgis Night revels within me. Our
lessons had to be laid by for a time, while I went salmon-fishing,
and tried to persuade myself that it had been long neglect of my rod
that had caused forgotten passions and yearnings to run riot in my
blood in this undisciplined manner. But it would not do. Tired out I
would drag my way home, eat a huge dinner, and sink half-asleep into
my old chair. Instead of my falling into stupid, happy, dreamless
slumber, the leaden numbness of fatigue would settle upon my limbs,
while the one figure whose growing ascendancy over my whole nature I
made these energetic efforts to throw off, would pass and repass
through my mind's dull vision, the one thing distinct, the one thing
ever-recurring, enticing me to follow it, eluding me, coming within my
grasp, escaping me, and so on for ever.

Then I tried a new tack: the lessons were resumed. But we were both
more reserved than in the old days, and I, at least, was constrained
also. It was not the old child-pupil sitting by my side; it was the
woman I wanted to cherish in my bosom. The old free correction,
discussion, were exchanged for poor endeavours by little implied
compliments, by mild attempts at eloquence, by appeals to her
sentiment when the subject in hand allowed it, to gain her goodwill,
to prepare her for the time, which must come, when I should have to
entreat her to forget my hideous face and try to love me as a husband.

I knew I was making hopeless, ridiculous mistakes in my conduct
towards her; that the change in my manner she took merely as an
acknowledgment that she was now in some sort 'grown-up,' and answered
by a little added primness to show that she was equal to the
requirements of the new dignity. I felt that eight years' neglect of
the sex threw a man a century behind the times with regard to his
knowledge of women, and I was growing desperate when a ray of light
came to me in the darkness of my clumsy courtship. I would consult
Normanton, who was in the swim of the times, and who might be able to
advise me as to the prudence of certain bold measures which, in my
desperation, from time to time occurred to me. Neither Babiole nor I
ever spoke about her father's visit, but the attempt to go on as if
nothing had happened never grew any easier, and I welcomed the visit
of my four friends, which took place rather earlier in the year than
usual.

It was in the beginning of July that they all dropped in upon me in
their usual casual fashion, and we had our first dinner together in a
great tempest, excited by Edgar's announcement that this was his last
bachelor holiday, as he was going to be married. I listened to the
torrents of comment that, by long-standing agreement among us, were
bound to be free, with new and painful interest; at any rate, I
reflected that the private advice I was going to ask of Edgar later
would now have the added weight of experience, and would, therefore,
be more valuable than it could have been in the old days of his
unregenerate contempt for women. To hear my Mentor browbeaten on this
subject was not altogether disagreeable to me, for I had a keen memory
of his somewhat lofty tone of indulgence to me in the old times.

'And--er--what induced you to take this step?' asked Fabian, in an
inquisitorial tone, which implied the addition, 'without consulting
us.' He was holding a glass of sherry in his hand, and he looked at it
as if he thought that his friend's unaccountable conduct had spoilt
its flavour.

Edgar blushed and looked conscience-stricken. I feasted my eyes upon
the sight.

'Well, I believe there is always a difficulty about giving a
satisfactory account of these things,--an account, that is to say,
which will satisfy the strict requirements of logic.'

'We expect an account consistent with your own principles, often and
emphatically laid down. If you have not sinned against those, you will
be listened to with indulgence,' said Fabian dogmatically. 'You shall
be judged under your own laws.'

'Come, that's rather hard upon him,' pleaded Mr. Fussell.

Edgar dashed into his explanation in an off-hand manner.

'I met her at a tennis-party.' Maurice Browne, who hated muscular
exercise, groaned. 'She was dressed in light blue flannel.' Fabian,
who had been at Oxford, hissed. Edgar stopped to ask if this conduct
were judicial.

'As a set-off against your advantage of being judged by your own laws,
we claim the right to express our feelings each in his own manner,'
explained Fabian. 'Go on.'

'We entered into conversation.' Dead but excited silence. 'I found she
had read Browning,'--Murmurs of disgust from Fabian, of incredulity
from Browne; placid and vague murmur, implying ill-concealed
non-apprehension, from Mr. Fussell,--'but did not understand him.'
Explosion of mirth, in which everybody joined. 'I offered my services
as some sort of interpreter.' Sardonic laugh from Browne. 'Merely on
the assumption that a bad guess is better than none.' Interpellation
from Fabian, ''Tis better to have guessed all wrong, than never to
have guessed at all.' Edgar continued: 'After that we met
again,'--deep attention,--'and again.' Murmurs of disappointment. 'At
last we became engaged.'

A pause. Fabian drank a glass of champagne off hastily, and rose with
frowns.

'It seems to me, gentlemen, that a taste for Browning and blue
flannel, which is all our honourable friend seems to be able to put
forward in favour of this lady, is a poor equipment for a person who
(unless our honourable friend has gone back very far from his
often-declared views on the subject of matrimony) is to be his guiding
genius to political glory, the spur to his languid ambition, the
beacon to his best aspirations,--in fact, gentlemen, the tug-boat to
his man-of-war.'

'And as no girl reads Browning except under strong masculine
pressure,' added Browne gravely, 'our friend the man-of-war must make
up his mind that other and perhaps handsomer vessels have been towed
before him, with the same rope.'

'Is the lady handsome?' asked Mr. Fussell.

Edgar hesitated. 'She has an intelligent face,' he said.

Upon this there arose much diversity of opinion; Fabian holding that
this was consistent and even praiseworthy, while Maurice Browne and
Mr. Fussell agreed that to deliberately marry a woman without positive
and incontestable beauty ought to disqualify a man for the franchise
as a person unfit for any exercise of judgment. When, however, Edgar,
after allowing the controversy to rage, quietly produced and passed
round the portrait of a girl beautiful enough to convert the sternest
bachelor, there was a great calm, and the conversation, with a marked
change of current, flowed smoothly into the abstract question of
marriage. Edgar was not only acquitted; he changed places with his
judges. Every objection to matrimony was put forward in apologetic
tones.

'For my part, when I speak bitterly of marriage, of course I am
prejudiced by my own experience,' said Mr. Fussell, with a sigh that
was jolly in spite of himself. He was separated from his
wife,--everybody knew that; but he ignored--perhaps even scarcely
took in the significance of--the fact that he had previously deserted
her again and again.

Maurice Browne averred that his only objection to marriage was that it
was an irrational bond; men and women, being animals with the
disadvantage of speech to confuse each other's reason, should, like
the other animals, be free to take a fresh partner every year.

This was received in silence, none of us being strong enough in
natural history to contradict him, though we had doubts. He added that
a book of his which was shortly to be brought out would, he thought,
do much to bring about a more logical view of this matter, and to do
away with the present vicious, because unnatural, restrictions.

Mr. Fussell, the person present whose private conduct would the least
bear close inspection, was sincerely shocked, and wished to speak in
the interests of morality, when Fabian broke in, too full of his own
views to bear discussion of other people's.

'Marriage,' he asserted in his excitable manner, 'for princes, for
dukes, for grocers, and, in fact, the general rabble of humanity, is
not a choice, but a necessity, according to the present state of
things, which I see no pressing need to alter. But for the chosen ones
of the earth--the artists,'--involuntarily I thought of Mr.
Ellmer,--'by which I, of course, mean all those who, animated by some
spark of the divine fire, have obeyed the call of Art, and given their
lives and energies to her in one or another of her highest forms,--for
us artists, I say, marriage is so much an impediment, so much an
impossibility, that I unhesitatingly brand as mock-artists those
fiddlers, mummers, and paint-smudgers who prefer the vulgar joys of
domestic union to the savage independence and isolation which
Art--true Art--imperatively demands. The wife of an artist--for as
long as the pure soul of an artist remains weighted by a gross and
exacting body, as long as he has dinners to be cooked, shirt-buttons
to be sewn on, and desires to be satisfied, he may have what the world
calls a wife; that wife must be content with the position of a
kindly-treated slave.'

At this point there arose a tumult, and somebody threw a cork at him.
He wanted to say more, but even Browne, who had given him a little
qualified applause, desired to hear no more; and amid kindly
assurances that hanging was too good for him, and that it was to be
hoped Art would make it hot for him, and so forth, he sat down, and I,
perceiving that we were all growing rather warm over this subject,
suggested a move to the drawing-room, into which I had had the piano
taken.

A little figure in pale pink stuff sprang up from a seat in the corner
as we came in, letting a big volume of old-fashioned engravings fall
from her arms. It was Babiole, who had been too deep in her discovery
of a new book to expect us so soon. She gave a quick glance at the
window by which she had prepared a way of escape; but seeing that it
was too late, she came forward a few steps without confusion and held
out her hand to Fabian, who seemed much struck with the improvement
two years had brought about in her appearance. Then, after receiving
the greetings of the rest, she excused herself on the plea that her
mother was waiting for her at tea, and made a bow, in which most of us
saw a good deal of grace, to Maurice Browne, who held open the door
for her.

As Browne then made a rush to the piano, I lost no time in taking
Edgar on one side under pretence of showing him an article in a
review, and in unburdening myself to him with very little preface. I
was in love, hopelessly in love. He guessed with whom at once, but
did not understand my difficulty.

'She seems a modest, intelligent little girl; she has every reason to
be grateful to you, even fond of you. Why should you be so diffident?'

I explained that she was beautiful, romantic, inexperienced; that her
head was still full of silky-locked princes and moated castles, or
with creatures of her fancy little less impossible; all sorts of
dream-passions were seething in her girl's brain I knew, for I
understood the little creature with desperate clearness of vision
which only seemed to make her more inaccessible to me. If I could only
conquer that terrible diffidence, that overwhelming awe that her
fairy-like ignorance and innocence of the realities of life imposed
upon me, I felt that I could plead my cause with a fire and force that
would surmount even that ghastly obstacle of my hideous face; but
then, again, fire and force were no weapons to use against the
indifference of childlike innocence; and to ask her in cold blood to
marry me without making her heart speak first in my favour would be
monstrous. She had looked upon me till lately as she would have looked
upon her grandfather, and this unsatisfactory affection had given
place lately to a reserve which was even more unpromising. Edgar
listened to me, did not deny the enormous fascination of a young mind
one has one's self helped to form, but thought that I should resist
it, and was rather indignant that I had not taken the opportunity of
her father's visit to rid myself of mother and daughter together. He
inclined to the idea that the two unlucky women were imposing on my
generosity and were determined to make 'a good thing' out of me, and
it was not until I had spent some time in explaining minutely the
footing upon which we stood to one another that his prejudices began
to give way.

At this point I perceived that Maurice Browne was playing at chess
with Mr. Fussell, while Fabian had disappeared. When the game was
over, they insisted on our joining them at whist. Before we had played
one game I began to grow nervous at Fabian's long absence, and Mr.
Fussell, who was my partner, took to leaning over the table as soon as
I put down a card, and with one finger fixed viciously in the green
cloth, and his starting eyes peering up into my face over his double
eyeglass, saying in a sepulchral voice--

'_Did_ you see what was played, Mr. Maude?'

I had trumped his trick, revoked, and done everything else that I
ought not to have done before the missing Fabian came back in a
tornado of high spirits, and with a tiny white Scotch rose at his
buttonhole. Now there was only one Scotch rose-bush in the garden, and
it grew by the porch of the cottage and was Babiole's private
property. When the hand was played out I got Fabian to take my place,
for my fingers shook so that I could not sort my cards.

While I had been arguing with Edgar the necessity of delicacy in
making love to a young girl, Fabian had dashed into the breach, and
now bore the trophy of a first success on his breast.




CHAPTER XV


I believe that Edgar, in the innocence of his heart, thought that
Fabian's headlong flirtation and flaunting success with the girl I
loved in such meek and forlorn fashion formed a salutary experience
for me.

For while the young actor invariably sloped from fishing excursions,
and disappeared from picnics, and had a flower which I absolutely
recognised in his buttonhole every day, Edgar contented himself with
preaching to me a philosophical calm, and ignored my pathetic
insinuations that he might do some unspecified good by 'speaking to'
Fabian. Indeed, that would have been a delicate business; especially
as I had announced myself to be the girl's guardian, and she was thus
undeniably well provided with protectors. All the consolation I had
was the reflection that this flirtation could only last a fortnight;
but as it was my guests themselves who fixed not only the date but the
duration of their stay, even this comfort was destroyed by their
agreeing among themselves to extend their visit by another ten days.
When I learned that this was upon the proposal of Fabian I took a
stern resolution. I invited Mrs. Ellmer and her daughter to join us in
all our expeditions, so as to establish an effective check upon the
freedom of their intercourse. The result of this was that Mrs. Ellmer
abandoned herself to a rattling flirtation with Mr. Fussell, while
Fabian walked off with Babiole to gather flowers, or to climb hills,
or to race Ta-ta, in the most open manner, and Edgar laughed at my
annoyance, and talked about hens and ducklings to me in an
exasperating undertone.

I think he began to believe that I was entering prematurely into the
doddering and senile stage--this straight, wholesome, handsome fellow,
who disdained the least pang of jealousy of the girl who was fortunate
enough to have secured his magnanimous approval. If he had been
branded with a disfiguring scar, he would have renounced the joys of
love with such staunch, heroic, 'broad-shouldered' fortitude, that
there would have been quite a rush for the honour of consoling him; it
was not in him to find anything deeper than lip-compassion for
feverish and morbid emotions. I admired his grand and healthy
obtuseness, and wished that he could bind my eyes too. But I saw
plainly enough the radiance of unnatural exaltation of feeling which
lighted up the young girl's face after a walk with Fabian, and I knew
that the hectic enthusiasm of his artist temperament was kindling
fires in the sensitive nature, which it would be danger to feed and
ruin to extinguish. With a morbid sensibility of which I was ashamed,
I could look into the girl's glowing blue eyes as I shook her hand and
bade her good-night, and feel in my own soul every emotion that had
stirred her heart as she roamed over the hills with Fabian that day.

It was near the end of the third week of my visitors' stay, that I
waited one night for Fabian's return from the cottage, to which he and
Mr. Fussell had escorted the two ladies, who had dined with us. Mr.
Fussell had returned, and gone into the house to play cards. Fabian
came back sixteen minutes later. There had been a proposal to extend
my visitors' stay still further, and upon that hint I had determined
to speak. I was leaning against the portico, as we called the porch
of the house, to distinguish it from that of the cottage. I had smoked
through two cigars while I was waiting, but at the sound of his
footsteps I threw the third away. Fabian walked with a long swinging
step: off the stage the man was too earnest to saunter; crossing a
room, eating his breakfast, always seemed a matter of life or death to
him; and if he had to call a second time for his shaving-water, it was
in the tones of a Huguenot while the Saint Bartholomew was at its
height. I had always looked upon him as a very good fellow, impetuous
but honourable, doing intentional harm to no one. But I knew the
elasticity of my sex's morality where nothing stronger than the
sentiments is concerned, and I knew that his impetuosity was kept in
some sort of check by his ambition. His restless erratic life, and his
avowed principles, were antagonistic to happy marriage, and I knew
that he was in the habit of satisfying the _besoin d'aimer_ by open
and chivalrous attachments to now one and now another distinguished
lady; and this knightly devotion to Queens of Love and Beauty, though
it makes very pretty reading in the chronicles of the Middle Ages, is
not, in the interest of nineteenth century domestic peace, a thing to
be revived. So, although I had miserable doubts that the steed was
already stolen, I was determined to lock the stable door.

'Lovely night,' said he. 'I like your Scotch hills at night; and, for
the matter of that, I like them in the daytime too.'

Fabian always sank the fact that he was a Scotchman, though I burned
just now with the conviction that he was tainted with the national
hypocrisy.

'I suppose you will be glad to get back to the hum and roar again by
this time, though,' I said as carelessly as I could.

Fabian had none of Edgar's serene obtuseness. He looked at me to find
out what I meant.

'Well, you know, we were thinking of imposing ourselves upon you for
another week, if you have no objection.'

This show of civility was the first shadow on our unceremonious
intercourse. In spite of myself I was this evening grave and stiff,
and not to be approached with the customary affectionate familiarity.
There was silence while one might have counted twenty. Then I said--

'That was _your_ proposal, was it not?'

I spoke so gravely, so humbly, that my question, rude as it was in
itself, could not offend.

'Why--yes,' said he in a tone as low and as serious as my own. 'What's
the matter, Harry?'

'Will you tell me, honestly, why you want to stay?'

His big burning eyes looked intently into my face, and then he put one
long thin hand through his hair and laughed.

'Well, after all that you've done to make our stay agreeable, that's a
queer question to ask.'

I put my hand on his shoulder and forced him to keep still.

'Look here, Faby, I don't want to insult you, you know; but are you
staying because of that little girl?'

He drew himself up and answered me with a very fine and knightly
fire--

'Do you take me for a scoundrel?'

'No; if I did you would never have touched the child's hand.'

'Then what do you mean?'

'Simply this, that I know Babiole better than you do, and I can see
that every word you say to her strikes down deeper than you think. She
is an imaginative little--fool if you like; she believes that the
romance of her life is come, and she is beginning to live upon it and
upon nothing else.'

Fabian considered, looking down upon the grass, in which he was
digging a deep symmetrical hole with his right heel. At last he looked
up.

'I think you're wrong; I do indeed,' he said earnestly. 'You know as
well as I do that my trotting about with her has always been as open
as the day; that it was taken for granted there was no question of
serious love-making with a mere child like that. I'm sure her mother
never thought of such a thing for a moment.'

Now I knew that Mrs. Ellmer, on principle, scoffed so keenly at love
in her daughter's presence, by way of wholesome repression of the
emotions, that she would be sure to think that she had scoffed away
all danger of its inopportune appearance.

'My dear boy, I acquit you of all blame in the matter. The mother we
can leave out of account; she is not a person of the most delicate
discrimination. But I tell you I have watched the girl----'

'That is enough,' interrupted Fabian abruptly, and with off-hand
haughtiness. 'Of course, if I had understood that you were personally
interested in the little girl----'

I interrupted in my turn. 'I am interested only in getting her well,
that is--happily--married.'

Fabian bowed. 'You are anticipating your troubles with your ward, or
pupil, or whatever you call her,' said he lightly, though he was angry
enough for his words to have a bitter tone. 'However, of course I
respect your solicitude, and Babiole and I must, for the next few
days, hunt butterflies on separate hills.'

And shaking me by the shoulder, and laughing at me for an old woman,
he went into the house.

But he was obstinate, or more interested than he pretended to be. I
know that it was he who next morning at breakfast put up Fussell and
Maurice Browne to great eagerness for the extension of their stay.
When I regretted that I had made arrangements for going to Edinburgh
on business on the date already settled for their departure, Fabian
glanced up at my face with a vindictive expression which startled me.

This was the last day but one of my visitors' stay. We all went on the
coach to Braemar, having taken our places the night before. As we all
walked in the early morning to Ballater station, from which the coach
starts, I overheard Fabian say to Babiole--

'We shan't be able to see much of each other to-day, little one. Your
maiden aunt disapproves of my picking flowers for you. But I'll get
as near as I can to you on the coach, and this evening you must get
mamma to invite me to tea.'

'Maiden aunt!' she repeated, evidently not understanding him.

They were behind me, so that I could not see their faces; but by a
glance, a gesture, or a whisper Fabian must have indicated me; for she
burst out--

'Oh, you must not laugh at him; it is not right; I won't hear anything
against Mr. Maude.'

'Sh! Against him! Oh dear, no!' And the sneer died away in words I
could not hear.

They had fallen back, I suppose, for I lost even the sound of their
voices; but I heard no more than before of the monologue on the New
Era in literature to which Maurice Browne was treating me. He was the
pioneer of this New Era, so we understood; and there was so much more
about the pioneer than about the era in his talk on this his favourite
subject, that we, who were quite satisfied to know no more of the
inmost workings of his mind than was revealed by the small talk of
daily existence, seldom gave him a chance of unburdening himself fully
except when our minds, like mine on this occasion, were deeply engaged
with other matters.

On the coach Fabian sat next to Babiole, who looked so sweet in a
white muslin hat and a frock made of the stuff with which drawing-room
chairs are covered up when the family are out of town, that Maurice
Browne, in a burst of enthusiasm, compared her to a young brown and
white rabbit. Fabian had brought his umbrella, so I told myself, for
the express purpose of holding it over his companion in such a manner
as to prevent me, on the back seat, from seeing the ardent gaze of
the man, the shy glances of the girl, which I jealously imagined
underneath. Everybody declared that it was a beautiful drive; I had
thought so myself a good many times before. The winding Dee burnt its
way through the valley in a blaze of sunlight on our left, past the
picturesque little tower of Abergeldie, with its rough walls and
corner turret; past stately, romantic Balmoral, whose white pinnacles
and battlements peeped out, with royal and appropriate reserve, from
behind a screen of trees, on the other side of the river, far below
us. Near here we found our fresh team, standing quietly under a tree,
by a ruined and roofless stone building. Oddly frequent they are,
these ruinous farms and cottages, in the royal neighbourhood. As we
drew near Braemar the scenery grew wilder and grander. Between the
peaks of the bare steep hills, where little patches of tall fir-trees
grow on inaccessible ledges on the face of the dark-gray rock, we
caught glimpses of Lochnagar, with its snow-cap dwindled by the summer
sun into thin white lines. We passed close under steep Craig Clunie,
where the story goes that Colonel Farquharson, of Clunie, hid himself
after the battle of Culloden, and heard King George's soldiers making
merry over their victory in his mansion, which, in common with all old
Scotch country-houses, is called a castle. As the castle is
three-quarters of a mile from the Craig, Edgar opined that the Colonel
must have had sharp ears. Then he scoffed a little at the obstinate
ignorance of the Highland gentlemen who would hazard an acre in
defence of such a futile and worthless person as Charles James Stuart.
Edgar had advanced political notions, which, in another man, I should
have called rabid. I said that if it had been merely a matter of
persons, and not of principles, I should have backed up the Colonel,
since I would sooner swear allegiance to a home-born profligate than
to one of foreign growth; but then I own I would have English princes
marry English ladies, and I feel a sneaking regard for Henry the
Eighth for having given his countrywomen a chance, and thereby left to
the world our last great sovereign by right of birth, Queen Elizabeth.

That umbrella in front of me had made me cantankerous, I daresay; at
any rate, I disagreed persistently with Edgar for the rest of the way,
and called Old Mar Castle a mouldy old rat-hole merely because he was
struck with admiration of its many-turreted walls. We had luncheon at
the Fife Arms, where we were all overpowered by Mr. Fussell, who,
having been allowed by the coachman to drive for about half a mile as
we came, became so puffed up by his superiority, and so tiresomely
loud in his boasts about his driving that, Fabian being too much
occupied with Babiole to shut him up, and nobody else having the
requisite dash and disregard of other people's feelings, we all
sneaked away from the table, one by one, as quickly as we could, and
left him to finish by himself the champagne he had ordered. These
three, therefore, spent the hours before our return in the
neighbourhood of Braemar together. While keeping within the letter of
his promise to have no more _tête-à-tête_ walks with Babiole, Fabian
thus easily violated the spirit of it; since Mr. Fussell, being too
stout and too sleepy after luncheon to do much walking, suggested
frequent and long rests under the trees, which he spent with
gently-clasped hands, and a handkerchief over his face to keep the
flies off.

The rest of us took a beastly hot walk to the Falls of Corriemulzie,
and I wondered what I could have before seen to admire in them. Coming
back, Mrs. Ellmer chased Maurice Browne for some indiscreet
compliment. A tropical sun would not have taken the vivacity out of
that woman! and Edgar fell through a fence on which he was resting,
was planted in a bramble, and said 'Damn' for the first recorded time
in the presence of a lady. That is all I remember of the expedition.

For the return journey, as Mr. Fussell had retired into the interior
of the coach for a nap, being the laziest of men when he was not the
busiest, I took the box-seat by the coachman, and was thus spared the
sight of another _tête-à-tête_. After dinner that evening Fabian
disappeared as usual in the direction of the cottage, and on the
following day, which was the last of my visitors' stay, he threw his
promise to the winds so openly that I began to think he must have made
up his mind to let his principles go by the board, and make love
seriously. In that case, of course, I could have nothing to say, and
however much I might choose to torment myself with doubts as to the
permanent happiness of the union, I had really no grounds for
believing that his vaunted principles would stand the test of
practical experience better than did the ante-matrimonial prattle of
more commonplace young men.

On the morning of my guests' departure the house was all astir at five
o'clock in the morning. There was really no need for this effort, as
the train did not leave Ballater till 8.25, and my Norfolk cart and a
fly from M'Gregor's would not be at the door before half-past seven.
But it was a convention among us to behave to the end like schoolboys,
and, after all, a summer sunrise among the hills is a thing to be
seen once and remembered for ever.

So there was much running up and down stairs, and sorting of rugs and
collecting of miscellaneous trifles (I declare if they had been
professional pickpockets I could not have dreaded more the ravages
they made among the more modern and spicy of the volumes in my
library), and there was a general disposition to fall foul of Edgar
for the approaching vagary of his marriage, which would break up our
Round Table hopelessly.

'I look upon this as a "long, a last good-bye" to Normanton,' said
Maurice Browne, shaking his head. 'No man passes through the furnace
of matrimony unchanged. When we see him again he may be a _better_
man, refined by trial, ennobled by endurance; but he will not be the
_same_. He will be a phoenix risen from the ashes of the old----'

'Or a wreck broken up by the waves,' added Mr. Fussell.

I looked out of one of the eastern windows at the red sun-glow, in
which I took more pleasure than the Londoners, perhaps because I
considered it as a part of my Highland property. To the left, standing
in the long wet grass, shyly hiding herself among the trees, was
Babiole; I went to another window from which I could see her more
plainly, and discovered that her little face was much paler than
usual, that she was watching the portico with straining eyes; in her
hand, but held behind her, was a red rose, that she drew out from time
to time and even kissed. I think she was crying. It was half-past six
o'clock. I turned away and went back to my friends, who were already
deep in a gigantic breakfast. From time to time I went back, on some
pretext or other, to the window: she was always there, in the same
place. The fourth time I looked out she was shivering; and her hands,
red with the cold of the morning, were tucked up to her throat, red
rose and all. I went up to Fabian, who I am sure must have been at
quite his third chop, and touched him on the shoulder.

'There's some one waiting outside,--waiting for you, I think,' said I,
in a low voice, under cover of the rich full tones of my true friend
Fussell, who was waxing warm in the eloquence of his farewell to
Scotch breakfasts.

Fabian got up at once and went out. I saw the child start forward,
crimson in a moment, and the tears flowing undisguisedly; and with a
choking feeling at my throat I turned away.

'Hallo, why you're not eating, Harry,' cried Maurice presently. 'You
must be in love.'

'Another of 'em!' groaned Fussell.

'No,' said I hastily. 'The fact is I had something to eat before you
came down.'

There was a roar at my voracity, but their own appetites were too
vigorous for them to disbelieve me. I remember clearly only this of
our final departure for the station: that Fabian turned up late,
dashing after us down the drive in fact, and leaping up on to the
Norfolk cart beside me. And that his eyes were dry, but that the front
of his coat, just below the collar, was wet, perhaps with the dew.
Nevertheless, if Edgar had not been behind us, I should have felt much
inclined, when we drove along the road by the Dee, just where the bank
is nice and steep, to give a jerk of the reins to the left, pitch my
artistic friend out into the river's stony bed, and take my risk of
following him.




CHAPTER XVI


Life seemed to move in a somewhat slow and stagnant manner for several
days after the departure of my guests. I scarcely saw Babiole, and
never spoke to her, a great shyness towards each other having taken
possession of both of us. Mrs. Ellmer, upon whom I made a ceremonious
call when I could contain my anxious interest no longer, was stiff in
manner, haughty and depressed. She had evidently been informed of my
opposition to Fabian's intention of extending his stay, and I soon
learnt, to my great surprise, that she considered me responsible for
the destruction of Babiole's first chance--'and the only one she is
likely to have, poor child, living poked up here,' of 'settling well.'

'Oh,' said I, raising my eyebrows, and putting into that one
exclamation as much sardonic emphasis as I could, while I kept my eyes
fixed upon the cat and my hands much occupied with my deer-stalker,
'and may I be permitted to learn how I have done this?'

'It is useless to put on a satirical manner with me, Mr. Maude,' said
the lady with dignity; 'I am perfectly aware that it was you who
objected to Mr. Scott's remaining here long enough to make proposals
for my daughter, and that, in fact, you interfered in the most marked
way with his courtship of her.'

'And are you ignorant of the fact, madam, that to interfere with a
man's courtship is the very way to increase its warmth, and that if
my interference, as you call it, could not screw him up to the point
of proposing, nothing ever would?'

Mrs. Ellmer dropped into her lap the work which she had snatched up on
my entrance, and at which she had been stitching away ever since, as a
hint that she was busy and would be glad to be left alone; at the same
time being, I think, not sorry to vent her ill-humour on some one.

'You are using very extraordinary expressions, Mr. Maude,' she said
acidly. 'If her mother was satisfied with the gentleman's behaviour, I
really don't see what business you had in the affair at all.'

'Do you forget that her father has made me responsible for the care of
her? that she is certainly under my guardianship, and nominally
engaged to me.'

'Nominally! There it is. To be engaged to a man who acknowledges that
he never means to marry you! There's a pretty position for a girl, as
I've said to Babiole scores of times!'

My heart leaped up.

'You've said that to Babiole!' I echoed, in a voice of suppressed rage
that brought the little slender virago at once to reason.

'Well, Mr. Maude, with all respect to you, the position is something
like that,' she said more reasonably.

'It is not at all like that,' I answered in my gravest and most
magisterial tones. 'If your daughter could by any possibility overcome
a young girl's natural repugnance to take for husband such an
unsightly object as accident has made me, I should be a much happier
man than I am ever likely to be. But she could not do so; there is
such a ghastly incongruity about a marriage of that sort that I could
scarcely even wish her to do so.'

Mrs. Ellmer's eyes had begun to glow with the carefully but scarcely
successfully subdued interest of the match-making mamma. This,
however, gave place to uneasy disappointment as I went on--

'All the same I take an interest in your daughter's happiness quite as
strong as if it were a more selfish one. It was that interest which
prompted me to prevent the prolonging of a flirtation which might have
serious consequences for your sensitive and impressionable little
daughter.'

'Serious consequences!' stammered Mrs. Ellmer. 'Do you mean to say
that Mr. Scott, your friend, is a dishonourable man?'

'No,' said I, 'I would not say anything so severe as that. But I am
certainly of opinion that Mr. Scott had no more serious intention than
to fill up his time here pleasantly by talks and walks with a pretty
and charming girl. Lots of pretty and charming girls accept such
temporary devotion for what it is worth, and their regrets, when the
amusement is over, are proportionately light. But I know that Babiole
is not like that, and so I did all that my limited powers of
guardianship could do to lessen the danger.'

'But he may still write and propose,' murmured the dismayed mother.
'Even if his intentions were not serious while he was here, he may
find he cannot get on without her!'

I wanted to shake the woman, or to box her ears, and ask her how she
had dared wittingly to expose her daughter to the misery of hanging on
to such a hope as this.

'I don't think it's likely,' I said drily; and questioning my face
with doubt in her eyes, the match-maker tried another tack.

'After all, Mr. Maude, it may be for the best,' she began in a
conciliatory tone. 'It was I, rather than Babiole, that was so hot
upon this match, not understanding that my poor child had any chance
of a better husband. For my part, I don't see that you have any reason
to talk about yourself in the disponding manner you do, and if you
will only trust for a little while to my diplomacy, and speak to her
when I give you the word that it's the right moment----'

I interrupted her by standing up suddenly, and I can only hope my face
did not express what I thought of her and her miserable diplomacy.

'You will oblige me by saying not one word to your daughter on the
subject of me and my impossible pretensions,' I said authoritatively,
but with a sickening knowledge that my demand would be disregarded. 'I
am sensitive enough and humble enough on the score of my own
disadvantages, I admit. But I am not a miserable wreck of humanity who
would take what perfunctory favours a woman would throw to him, and
be satisfied. I am a man with powers of loving that any woman might be
proud to excite; and no girl shall ever be my wife who does not feel
of her own accord, and show, as an innocent girl can, that I have done
her a honour in loving her which she is bound to pay back by loving me
with all her might.'

And much excited by my own unexpected burst of unreserve, but somewhat
ashamed of having rather bullied a poor creature who, however she
might assume the high hand with me, was after all but an unprotected
and plucky little woman, I held out my hand with apologetic meekness
and prepared to go. Mrs. Ellmer shook my hand limply and showed a
disposition to whimper.

'Don't worry yourself and don't bother--I mean--er--don't talk to the
child. It will come all right. She's hardly grown up yet; there's
plenty of time for half-a-dozen princely suitors to turn up. And what
do you say to taking her once a week to Aberdeen and giving her some
good music lessons? It will distract her thoughts a bit, and do you
both good.'

This suggestion diverted the little woman's tears, and her face
softened with a kindly impulse towards me.

'You are very good, Mr. Maude, you really are,' she said in farewell
as I left her.

And though I was grateful for this _amende_, I should have been more
pleased if I could have felt assured that she would not, in default of
Mr. Scott, tease her daughter with recommendations to get used to the
idea of myself in the capacity of lover.

Of course after this interview I was more shy than ever of meeting
Babiole, and even when, on the second evening afterwards, I saw her
standing in the rose garden, apparently waiting for me to come and
speak to her, I pretended not to see her, and after examining the sky
as if to make out the signs by which one might predict the weather of
the morrow, I turned back to finish my cigar in the drive. But the
evening after that I found on my table a great bowl full of flowers
from her own private garden, and on the following afternoon, while I
was writing a letter, there came pattering little steps in the hall
and a knock at my open study door.

'Come in,' said I, feeling that I had gone purple and that the
thumping of my heart must sound as loudly as a traction engine in the
road outside.

Babiole came in very quietly, with a bright flush on her face and shy
eyes. Her hands were full of tiny wild flowers, and among them was one
little sprig carefully tied up with ribbon.

'I found a plant of white heather this morning on one of the hills by
the side of the Gairn,' said she quickly. 'You know they say it is so
rare that some Highlanders never see any all their lives. It brings
luck they say.'

'Why do you bring it to me then?' I asked, as she put the little
blossom on the table beside me. 'You should keep luck for yourself,
and not waste it on a person who doesn't deserve any.'

She had nothing to say to this, so she only gave the flower a little
push towards me to intimate that I was to enter into possession
without delay. I took it up and stuck it in the buttonhole of my old
coat.

'It has brought me luck already, you see, since this is the first
visit I have had from you for I don't know how long,' I said, looking
up at her, and noticing at once with a pang that she had grown in ten
days paler and altogether less radiant.

She blushed deeply at this, and sliding down on to her knees, put her
arms round Ta-ta, and kissed the collie's ears.

'Ta-ta has missed you awfully,' I went on; 'she told me yesterday that
you never take her out on the hills now, and that her digestion is
suffering in consequence. She says her tail is losing all its old
grand sweep for want of change of air.'

Babiole smoothed the dog's coat affectionately.

'I haven't been out much lately,' she said in a low voice; 'there has
been a great deal to do in the cottage, and here too. I've been
hemming some curtains for Janet, and helping mamma to make pickles.
Oh, I've been very busy, indeed.'

'And I suppose all this amazing superabundance of work is over at
last, since you can find time to come and pay calls of ceremony on
chance acquaintances.'

She looked up at me reproachfully. My spirits had been rising ever
since she came in, and I would only laugh at her.

'I'm sure it is quite time those curtains were hemmed and those
pickles were made, so that you can have a chance to go back to
Craigendarroch and look about for those roses you've left there.'

'Roses! Oh, do I look white then?' And she began to rub her cheeks
with her hands to hide the blush that rose to them.

'Has your mother said anything to you about Aberdeen and the music
lessons?'

'Yes.' She looked up with a loving smile.

I had turned my chair round to the fireplace, where a little glimmer
of fire was burning; for it was a wet cool day. Babiole had seated
herself on a high cloth-covered footstool, and Ta-ta sat between us,
looking from the one to the other and wagging her tail to
congratulate us on our return to the old terms of friendship. The sky
outside was growing lighter towards evening, and the sun was peeping
out in a tearful and shamefaced way from behind the rain-clouds. The
girl and the sun together had made a great illumination in the old
study, though they were not at their brightest.

'Well, and how do you like the idea?'

'It is quite perfect, like all your ideas for making other people
happy.'

'I'm afraid I don't always succeed very well.'

This she took as a direct accusation, and she bent her head very low
away from me.

'Has your mother been talking to you, Babiole?'

'Yes'--as a guilty admission.

'What did she say?'

'Oh, she talked and talked. That was why I didn't like to come and see
you. You see, though I told her she didn't understand, and that
whatever you thought must be right, yet hearing all those things made
me feel that I--I couldn't come in the old way. And then at last I
missed you so--that I thought I would dash in and--get it over.'

From which I gathered that Mrs. Ellmer had babbled out the whole
substance of our interview, and coloured it according to her lights,
so I ventured--

'Didn't you feel at all angry with me for something I said--something
I did?'

A pause. I could see nothing of her face, for she was most intent upon
making a beautifully straight parting with my ink-stained old ivory
paper-knife down the back of Ta-ta's head.

'I had no right to be angry,' she said at last, in a quivering voice,
'and besides--I am afraid--that what you said will come true.'

And the tears began to fall upon her busy fingers. I put my hand very
gently upon her brown hair and could feel the thrill sent through her
whole frame by a valiant struggle to repress an outburst of grief.

'You are afraid then that----' And I waited.

'That he will never think of me again,' she sobbed; and unable any
longer to repress her feelings, she sat at my feet for some minutes
quietly crying.

I hoped that the distress which could find this childlike outlet would
be only a transient one, and I thought it best for her to let her
tears flow unrestrainedly, as I was sure she had no chance of doing
under the sharp maternal eyes. I continued to smooth her hair
sympathetically until by a great effort she conquered herself and
dried her eyes.

'I am a great baby,' she said indignantly; 'as if I could hope that a
very clever accomplished man, whom all the world is talking about,
would be able to remember an ignorant girl like me, when once he had
got back to London.'

'Well, and you must pull yourself together and forget him,' I said--I
hope not savagely.

But there came a great change over her face, and she said almost
solemnly--

'No, I don't want to do that--even if I could. I want to remember all
he told me about art, and about ideals, and to become an accomplished
woman, so that I may meet him some day, and he may be quite proud that
it was he who inspired me.'

So Mr. Scott had known how, by a little dash and plausibility, and by
deliberately playing upon her emotions, to crown my work and to
appropriate to himself the credit and the reward of it all.

But after this enthusiastic declaration the light faded again out of
her sensitive face.

'It seems such a long, long time to wait before that can happen,' she
said mournfully.

And a remarkably poor ambition to live upon, I thought to myself.

'And do you think Mr. Scott's approbation is worth troubling your head
about if, after all his enthusiasm about you, he forgets you as soon
as you are out of his sight?' I asked rather bitterly.

Cut at this suggestion, corresponding so exactly with her own fears,
she almost broke down again. It was in a broken voice that she
answered--

'I can't think hardly about him; when I do it only makes me break my
heart afterwards, and I long to see him to ask his pardon for being so
harsh. He was fond of me while he was here, I couldn't expect more
than that of such a clever man. And he has sent me one letter--and
perhaps--I hope--he will send me another before long.'

'He has written to you?'

'Yes.' As a mark of deep friendship for me she not only let me see the
envelope (preserved in a black satin case embroidered with pink silk)
but flourished before my eyes the precious letter itself, a mere scrap
of a note, I could see that, and not the ten-pager of your
disconsolate lover.

I was seized with a great throb of impatience, and clave the top coal
of the small fire viciously. She must get over this. I turned the
subject, for fear I should wound her feelings by some outburst of
anger against Mr. Scott, who must indeed have worked sedulously to
leave such a deep impression on the girl's mind.

'Well, you will have to be content with your old master's affection
for the present, Babiole,' I said, when she had put her treasure
carefully away.

'Oh, Mr. Maude!' She leant lovingly against my knee.

'And if the worst comes to the worst you will have to marry me.'

She laughed as if this were a joke in my best manner.

'Didn't your mother say anything to you about that?' I asked, as if
carrying on the jest.

Babiole blushed. 'Don't talk about it,' she said humbly. 'I lost my
temper, and spoke disrespectfully to her for the first time. I told
her she ought to be ashamed of herself, after all you have done for
us.'

Evidently she thought the idea originated with her mother, and was
pressed upon me against my inclination. Seeing that I should gain
nothing by undeceiving her, I laughed the matter off, and we drifted
into a talk about the garden, and the croup among Mr. Blair's
bare-footed children at the Mill o' Sterrin a mile away.

According to all precedent among lovelorn maidens, Babiole ought to
have got over her love malady as a child gets over the measles, or
else she ought to have dwindled into 'the mere shadow of her former
self' and to have found a refined consolation in her beloved hills.
But instead of following either of these courses, the little maid
began to evince more and more the signs of a marked change, which
showed itself chiefly in an inordinate thirst for work of every kind.
She began by a renewed and feverish devotion to her studies with me,
and assiduous practice on my piano whenever I was out, to get the
fullest possible benefit from her music lessons at Aberdeen. This, I
thought, was only the outcome of her expressed desire to become an
accomplished woman. But shortly afterwards she relieved her mother of
the whole care of the cottage, filling up her rare intervals of time
in helping Janet. Walks were given up, with the exception of a short
duty-trot each day to Knock Castle or the Mill o' Sterrin and back
again. When I remonstrated, telling her she would lose her health, she
answered restlessly--

'Oh, I hate walking, it is more tiring than all the work--much more
tiring! And one gets quite as much air in the garden as on
Craigendarroch, without catching cold.'

She was always perfectly sweet and good with me, but she confessed to
me sometimes, with tears in her eyes, that she was growing impatient
and irritable with her mother. I had waited as eagerly as the girl
herself for another letter from Fabian Scott, but when the hope of
receiving one had died away, I did not dare to say anything about the
sore subject.

About the middle of December she broke down. It was only a cold, she
said, that kept her in the cottage and even forced her to lay aside
all her incessant occupations. But she had worked so much too hard
lately that she was not strong enough to throw it off quickly, and day
after day, when I went to see her, I found my dear witch lying back in
the high wooden rocking-chair in the sitting-room, with a very
transparent-looking skin, a poor little pink-tipped nose, and large,
luminous, sad eyes that had no business at all in such a young face.

On the fifth day I was alone with her, Mrs. Ellmer having fussed off
to the kitchen about dinner. I was in a very sentimental mood indeed,
having missed my little sunbeam frightfully. Babiole had pushed her
rocking-chair quickly away from the table, which was covered with a
map and a heap of old play-bills. By the map lay a pencil, which the
girl had laid down on my entrance.

'What were you doing when I came in?' I asked, after a few questions
about her health.

The colour came back for a moment to her face as she answered--

'I was tracing our old journeys together, mamma's and mine; and
looking at those old play-bills with her name in them.'

The occupation seemed to me dismally suggestive.

'You were wishing you were travelling again, I suppose,' said I, in a
tone which fear caused to sound hard.

'Oh no, at least not exactly,' said the poor child, not liking to
confess the feverish longing for change and movement which had seized
upon her like a disease.

I remained silent for a few minutes, struggling with hard facts, my
hands clasped together, my arms resting on my knees. Then I said
without moving, in a voice that was husky in spite of all my efforts--

'Babiole, tell me, on your word of honour, are you thinking about that
man still?'

I could hear her breath coming in quick sobs. Then she moved, and her
fingers held out something right under my averted eyes. It was the one
note she had received from Fabian Scott, worn into four little pieces.

'Look here, dear,' I said, having signified by a bend of the head that
I understood, 'do you think a man like that would be likely to make a
good husband?'

'Oh no,' readily and sadly.

'But you would be his wife all the same?'

'Oh, Mr. Maude!' in a low trembling voice, as if Paradise had been
suddenly thrown open to mortal sight.

I got up.

'Well, well,' I said, trying to speak in a jesting tone, 'I suppose
these things will be explained in a better world!'

Mrs. Ellmer came in at that moment, and the leave-taking for the day
was easier.

'Won't you stay and lunch with us, Mr. Maude? I've just been preparing
something nice for you,' she said with disappointment.

'Thank you, no, I can't stay this morning. The fact is I have to start
for London this afternoon, and I haven't a minute to lose.'

Babiole started, and her eyes, as I turned to her to shake hands,
shone like stars.

'Good-bye, Mr. Maude,' she faltered, taking my hand in both hers, and
pressing it feverishly.

And she looked into my face without any inquiry in her gaze, but with
a subdued hope and a boundless gratitude.

Mrs. Ellmer insisted on coming over to the house to see that
everything was properly packed for me. As I left the cottage with her
I looked back, and saw the little face, with its weird expression of
eagerness, pressed against the window.

It was an awful thing I was going to do, certainly. But what sacrifice
would not the worst of us make to preserve the creature we love best
in the world from dying before our eyes?




CHAPTER XVII


I arrived at King's Cross at 8.15 on the following morning, and after
breakfasting at the Midland Hotel, went straight to Fabian Scott's
chambers, in a street off the Hay-market. It was then a little after
half-past ten.

Fabian, who was at breakfast, received me very heartily, and was
grieved that I had not come direct to him.

'What would you have said,' he asked, 'if I had gone to have breakfast
at the Invercauld Arms in Ballater, instead of coming on to you?'

'That's not quite the same thing, my impetuous young friend. You
didn't expect me, for one thing, and London is a place where one must
be a little more careful of one's behaviour than in the wilds.'

'No, that is true, I did not expect you; though when I heard your
name, I was so pleased I thought I must have been living on the
expectation for the last month.'

'Out of sight, out of mind, according to the simple old saying.'

I was looking about me, examining my friend's surroundings, feeling
discouraged by the portraits of beautiful women, photographs on the
mantelpiece, paintings on the walls, the invitation cards stuck in the
looking-glass, the crested envelopes, freshly torn, on the table; the
room, which seemed effeminately luxurious, after my sombre,
threadbare, old study, gave no evidence of bachelor desolation. It was
just untidy enough to prove that 'when a man's single he lives at his
ease,' for an opera hat and a soiled glove lay on the chair, a new
French picture, which a wife would have tabooed, was propped up
against the back of another, and on the mantelpiece was a royal
disorder, in which a couple of pink clay statuettes of pierrettes, by
Van der Straeten, showed their piquant, high-hatted little heads, and
their befrilled, high-lifted little skirts above letters, ash trays,
cigarette cases, 'parts' in MS., sketches, a white tie, a woman's long
glove, the 'proof' of an article on 'The Cathedrals of Spain,' and a
heap of other things. In the centre stood a handsome Chippendale
clock, surmounted by signed photographs of Sarah Bernhardt and a much
admired Countess. Fresh hot-house flowers filled two delicate Venetian
glass vases on the table, long-leaved green plants stood in the
windows. I began to suspect that the feminine influence in Fabian
Scott's life was strong enough already, and I felt that any idea of
an appeal to a bachelor's sense of loneliness must straightway be
given up. There was another point, however, on which I felt more
sanguine. Fabian had no private means, his tastes were evidently
expensive, and he had had no engagement since the summer. Having made
up my mind that to marry my little Babiole to this man was the only
thing that would restore her to health and hope (about happiness I
could but be doubtful), I could not afford to shrink from the means.

I had been listening with one ear to Fabian, who never wanted much
encouragement to talk. He treated me to a long monologue on the low
ebb to which art of all kinds had sunk in England, to the prevailing
taste for burlesque in literature, and on the stage, and for 'Little
Toddlekins' on the walls of picture galleries.

'I thought burlesque had gone out,' I suggested.

He turned upon me fiercely, having finished his breakfast, and being
occupied in striding up and down the room.

'Not at all,' he said emphatically. 'What is farcical comedy but
burlesque of the most vicious kind? Burlesque of domestic life,
throwing ridicule on virtuous wives and jealous husbands, making
heroes and heroines of men and women of loose morals? What is
melodrama but burlesque of incidents and of passions, fatiguing to the
eye and stupefying to the intellect? I repeat, art in England is a
dishonoured corpse, and the man who dares to call himself an artist,
and to talk about his art with any more reverence than a grocer feels
for his sanded sugar, or a violin-seller for his sham Cremonas, is
treated with the derision one would show to a modern Englishman who
should fall down and worship a mummy.'

All which, being interpreted, meant that Mr. Fabian Scott saw no
immediate prospect of an engagement good enough for his deserts.

'Well, even if art is in a bad way, artists still seem to rub on very
comfortably,' I said, glancing round the room.

Fabian swept the place with a contemptuous glance from right to left,
as if it had been an ill-kept stable.

'One finds a corner to lay one's head in, of course,' he admitted
disdainfully; 'but even that may be gone to-morrow,' he added darkly,
plunging one hand into a suggestive heap of letters and papers on a
side table as he passed it.

'Bills?' I asked cheerfully.

He gave me a tragic nod and strode on.

'You should marry,' I ventured boldly, 'some girl with seven or eight
hundred a year, for instance, with a little love of art on her own
account to support yours.'

Fabian stopped in front of me with his arms folded. He was the most
unstagey actor on the stage, and the stagiest off I ever met. He gave
a short laugh, tossing back his head.

'A girl with seven hundred a year marry _me_, an _artist_! My dear
fellow, you have been in Sleepy Hollow too long. You form your
opinions of life on the dark ages.'

'No I don't,' I said very quietly. 'I know a girl with eight hundred a
year, who likes you well enough to marry you if you were to ask her.'

'These rapid modern railway journeys--A heavy breakfast--with perhaps
a glass of cognac on an empty stomach'--murmured Fabian softly, gazing
at me with kindly compassion.

'She is seventeen, the daughter of an artist, an artist herself by
every instinct. Her name is Babiole Ellmer,' I went on composedly.

Fabian started.

'Babiole Ellmer! Pretty little Babiole!' he cried, with affectionate
interest at once apparent in his manner; 'but,' he hesitated and
flushed slightly, 'I don't understand. The little girl--dear little
thing she was, I remember her quite well, with her coquettish Scotch
cap and her everlasting blushes. She was no heiress then, certainly.'

A bitter little thought of the different manner in which he would have
treated her in that case crossed my mind. 'I've adopted her. I allow
her eight hundred a year during my life, and of course afterwards----'

I nodded; he nodded. It was all understood. Fabian had grown suddenly
quiet and thoughtful, and I knew that Babiole had gained her precious
admirer's heart. He liked her, that was my comfort, my excuse. His
face had lighted up at the remembrance of her; and as she would bring
with her an income large enough to prevent his being even burdened
with her maintenance, I felt that I was heaping upon his head too much
joy for a mortal to deserve, and that he accepted it more calmly than
was meet. It is a curious experience to have to be thankful to see
another person receive, almost with indifference, a prize for which
one would gladly have given twenty years of life.

'She is a most beautiful and charming girl,' he said, after a pause,
in a new tone of respect. Eight hundred a year and 'expectations' put
such a splendid mantle of dignity on the shoulders of a little wild
damsel in a serge frock. 'Do you know, I thought, Harry, you would end
by marrying her yourself!'

I only laughed and said, oh no, I was a confirmed bachelor. But it was
in my mind to tell him how much obliged I felt for his contribution
towards my domestic felicity.

I presently said that I had some business to transact, that I had to
pay a visit to my lawyer. This young man's complacent beatitude since
he had discovered a not unpleasant way out of his difficulties was
beginning to jar upon me furiously. So we made an appointment for the
evening, and I took myself off.

When I made my excuse to Fabian I really had some idea in my mind of
calling upon a solicitor and having a deed drawn up, settling £800 a
year on Babiole. But I reflected, as soon as I was alone, that I
should make a better guardian than the law, and that I should do as
well to keep control over her allowance. I would alter my will on her
wedding-day, just as I must have done if it had been my own. A trace
of cowardice strengthened this resolution, for I look upon a visit to
a lawyer much as I do upon a visit to a dentist, with this difference,
that the latter really does sometimes relieve you of your pain, while
the former relieves you of nothing but your money.

So I found myself wandering about my old haunts, glancing up at the
windows of clubs of which I had once been a member, and feeling a
strong desire to enter their doors once more, and see what change
eight years had brought about in my old acquaintances. I had long ago
lost all acute sensitiveness about my own altered appearance; there
was so very little in common between the 'Handsome Harry' of
twenty-four and the scarred gray-haired backwoodsman of thirty-two,
that I looked upon them as two distinct persons, and I remained for a
few moments confounded by my exceeding astonishment, when a familiar
voice cried, 'Hallo, Maude!' and I found my hand in the grasp of an
important-looking gentleman, who, as a slim lad, had been one of my
constant companions. He now represented a small Midland town in
Parliament, in the Conservative interest, seemed amazed that I had not
heard of his speech in favour of increasing the incomes of bishops,
and confided to me his hopes of getting an appointment in the Foreign
Office when 'his party' came into power again. I said I hoped he
would, but I inwardly desired that it might not be a post of great
responsibility, for I found my friend addle-patted to an extent I had
never dreamed of in the old days, when we backed the same horses and
loved the same ladies. He insisted on taking me into the Carlton,
where I met some more of the old set, who all seemed glad to see me,
but with whom I now felt curiously out of sympathy. It was not so
much that my politics had veered round, as that, living an independent
and isolated life, I was not bound to hold fast to traditions and
prejudices, like these men who were in the thick of the fight. I had
gone into the club seeking distraction from my thoughts, trying to
reawaken my old sympathies. I went out again after an hour of animated
and friendly talk with my acquaintances of eight years ago, more
solitary, more isolated than ever. Yet when they had tried to persuade
me to come back to life again, being all of opinion that existence by
one's self in the Highlands was tantamount to a state of suspended
animation, I had answered it was not unlikely that I might do so.

For the game must be carried on still when Babiole was married; but
not with the old rules.

I had another interview with Fabian that evening, for we dined at the
Criterion together. It was arranged that he should spend Christmas at
Larkhall with me, and it was tacitly understood that he would use this
opportunity of assuring Miss Ellmer that her image had never been
absent from his mind, and that he could have no rest until she had
promised to become his wife at an early date.

I left King's Cross by the nine o'clock train that night, having
decided on this course suddenly, when I found I was in too restless a
mood to be able to get either sleep or entertainment in London.
Arriving at Aberdeen at 2.15 on the following afternoon, I caught the
three o'clock train to Ballater, and got to Larkhall before six. It
was quite dark by that time, and the lamp was shining through the
blind of the sitting-room window at the cottage. I knocked at the
door, which was opened by Babiole; she held a candle in her left hand,
and by its light I saw her eyes and cheeks were burning with
excitement.

'I knew your knock,' she said tremulously, as she gave me a hot dry
hand, 'though I did not expect you so soon.'

Here Mrs. Ellmer rushed out of the sitting-room, fell upon me, and
insisted upon my sitting down to tea with them.

'And how have you been since I left?' I said to the girl.

'Don't ask, Mr. Maude,' interrupted her mother. 'I'm sure you would
have felt flattered if you could have seen her. She's been just like a
wild bird in a cage, never still for two minutes, and half the time
with her face glued to the window, cold as it is; as if that would
make you come back any faster.'

Babiole hung her head; she may have blushed, poor child, but her
cheeks had been so hot and burning ever since my entrance, that no
deepening of their colour could be noticed. I concluded that she had
given no hint to her mother of her surmises concerning the object of
my journey.

'Well,' said I, 'leading such solitary lives as we do up here, of
course the absence of one person makes a great difference. In fact, my
own solitude has begun to prey upon me so much, that--that I rushed up
to London on purpose to try to find a friend to spend Christmas up
here, and make things livelier for us all.'

'Well,' said Mrs. Ellmer, 'that is an idea, to be sure. I confess I
have been eaten up with wonder at your suddenly going off like that,
and have been guessing myself quite silly as to the reason of it.'

'And did Babiole guess too?' I asked lightly, looking at the girl, who
sat very quietly, with her eyes fixed upon my face.

'Oh no, she has given up all such childish amusements as that,' said
Mrs. Ellmer rather sadly. 'There would never be so much as a laugh to
be heard in the place now if I didn't keep up my spirits.'

'Well, she must open her mouth now, at any rate. Now, Babiole, can you
guess who it is who is coming to spend Christmas with us?'

In an instant the strained expression left her face, a great light
flashed into her eyes, and seemed to irradiate every feature.

'I think you have guessed,' said I gently.

She got up quickly and opened the sideboard, as if looking for
something; but I think, from the attitude of her bent head, and from
the solemn peace that was on her face when she returned to us, that
she had followed her first impulse to breathe a silent thanksgiving to
God.

'Will you have some quince-marmalade, Mr. Maude?' she asked, as she
came back to the table with a little glass dish in her hand.

And she leaned over my shoulder to help me to the preserve, while her
mother, who had guessed with great glee the name of my Christmas
visitor, was still overflowing with exultation at the great news. For
she did not once doubt the object of his coming, which, indeed, I had
suggested by a delicate archness in which I took some pride.

Shortly after tea I rose to go, being tired out with my two rapid and
sleepless journeys. Mrs. Ellmer bade me good-night with kind concern
for my fatigue.

'Indeed, I don't think travelling agrees with you, or else you tried
to do too much in your short visit, for you look drawn, and worn, and
ill, and ten years older than when you started,' she said
solicitously.

'Yes, I'm getting too old for dissipation,' I said lightly.

Babiole was standing by the door; she was watching me affectionately,
and had evidently some private and particular communication to make to
me, by the impatience with which she rattled the door-handle. At last
I had shaken hands with Mrs. Ellmer and had got out into the passage.
The girl shut the room door quickly and threw herself upon my arm,
giving at last free rein to her excitement and passionate gratitude.
The gaze of her pure eyes, shining, not with earthly passion, but with
the ecstatic light of a dying saint, who sees the heavens opening to
receive him, struck a new fear into my heart. The happiness this
child-woman looked for was something which Fabian Scott, artist though
he was, with splendid verbal aspirations and chivalrous devotions,
would not even understand. As she poured forth soft whispering thanks
for my goodness--she knew it was all my doing, she said; she had even
guessed beforehand what I was going to do--I felt my eyes grow moist
and my voice husky.

'My child,' I whispered back, 'don't thank me. It hurts me, for I am
not sure that I am not bringing upon you a great and terrible
misfortune.'

'Don't be afraid,' she said, shaking her head with that far-off look
in her eyes which told so plainly that she saw into a life which could
not be lived on earth; 'you think I am romantic, fanciful; that I
expect more from this man than his love can ever give me. Oh, but you
don't know,' and she looked straight up into my face, with that
piercing dreamy earnestness that made her see, not the yearning
tenderness of the eyes into which she looked, but only the kind
guardian's mind to be convinced. 'You don't know how well I
understand. He would never have thought of me again if you had not
gone to him and said--I don't know what, but just the thing you knew
would touch him, with pity or with pride that a poor little girl could
love him so.' I almost shivered at the dreary distance which lay
between this surmise and the truth. 'But I don't mind; I know that I
love him so much, that when he knows and feels what I would do for
him, it will make him happy. You know,' she went on more earnestly
still, 'it isn't for him to love me that I have been craving and
praying all this time, it was for a sight of his face, or for a letter
that he had written himself with his own hand.'

She took my sympathy with her for granted now, and poured this
confession out to me quite simply, feeling sure that I understood, as
indeed I did to my cost. But after this I thought it wise to try to
calm down this exultation of feeling, by certain grandmotherly
platitudes about the difficulties of married life, the disillusions
one had to suffer, the forbearance one had to show, to all of which
she listened very submissively and well, but with an evident
conviction that she knew quite as much about the matter as I did. Then
I bade her good-night, and she stood in the porch, wrapt up in her
plaid, until I had reached my own door, for I heard her clear young
voice sing out a last 'good-night' as I went in.

Poor little girl! She could not know how her gratitude cut me to the
heart.




CHAPTER XVIII


The ten days before Christmas we spent on the whole happily. Mrs.
Ellmer burst into tears on my informing her of the allowance I
proposed to make to her daughter, and sobbed out hysterically, 'My own
child to be able to keep a carriage! Oh! if poor mamma could have
known!'

This announcement, when made to Babiole by her mother, was the one
drawback to her happiness. She implored me to change my mind, little
guessing, poor child, what other change that would have involved. I
was very angry with Mrs. Ellmer for spoiling the girl's perfect bliss
by this vulgar detail, which it had been necessary to impart to the
mother, but which I had particularly desired to withhold for the
present from the daughter's more sensitive ears. I had hard work to
comfort her, but I succeeded at last by reminding her that she was
under my guardianship, and that it was my pride to see my ward cut a
handsome figure in the world.

I almost think, if it does not sound far-fetched to say so, that the
girl enjoyed those ten days with me, prattling about her lover and
endowing him with gifts of beauty and nobility and wisdom which
neither he nor any man I ever met possessed, more than the fortnight
of feverish joy in his actual presence which followed. Not that Fabian
was disappointing as a _fiancé_; far from it. He had the gift of
falling into raptures easily, and he fell in love with his destined
bride as promptly as heart could desire. But the imaginative quality,
which formed so important a feature of the young girl's romantic
passion, caused her at first to shrink from his vehement caresses as
at a blow to her ideal, while on the other hand the light touch of his
fingers would send a convulsive shiver through her whole frame.

How did I know all this? I can scarcely tell. And yet it is true, and
I learnt it early in Fabian's short visit. As the savage knows the
signs of the sky, so did I, living by myself, study to some purpose
the gentle nature whose smiles made my happiness.

When Fabian left us at the end of a fortnight, it was settled that the
wedding was to take place in six weeks' time at Newcastle. I had a
prejudice against my ward's being married in Scotland, where I
conceived, rightly or wrongly, that a certain looseness of the
marriage-tie prevailed. On the other hand, I would not let her go to
London to be married, being of opinion that such a bride was worth a
journey. So Mrs. Ellmer having some relations at Newcastle, she and
her daughter spent there the three weeks immediately preceding the
ceremony. I missed them dreadfully during those three weeks, and was
not without a vague hope somewhere down in the depths of my heart that
something unforeseen might happen to prevent the marriage. But when I
arrived at Newcastle on the evening before the appointed day, Fabian
was already there, everybody was in the highest spirits; and Mrs.
Ellmer's Newcastle cousins, rather proud of the position in 'society'
which they were assured the bride was going to hold, had undertaken to
provide a handsome wedding breakfast.

I gave her away next morning, in the old church with its crowned tower
which they now call a cathedral. I think perhaps she guessed something
more than I would have had her know in the vestry when the service
was over, when I asked her for a kiss and fell a-trembling as she
granted it; at any rate she turned very white and grave in the midst
of her happiness, and thenceforth dropped her voice to a humble
half-whisper whenever she spoke to me. She had been married in her
travelling dress, an innovation rather alarming to Newcastle; but she
looked so pretty in her first silk gown--a dark brown--and in the long
sealskin mantle that had been my wedding present, that I think some of
the damsels at the breakfast decided that this fashion was one to be
followed.

The bride and bridegroom left us early, more, I think, because Fabian
found both breakfast and speeches heavy than because there was any
need to hurry for the train. I having no such excuse, and being
treated as a great personage with a Monte-Christo-like habit of
dowering marriageable maidens, was forced to remain. I made a speech,
I forget what about, which was received with laughter and enthusiasm.
The only things I remember about the people were the strong impression
of dull and commonplace provincialism which their speech and manner
made upon me, and that on the other hand, a little quiet maiden of
seventeen or so, who wore a very rusty frock and was awkwardly shy,
astonished me by quoting Tacitus in the original, and proved to be
quite an appallingly learned person.

When I could get away I bade farewell to Mrs. Ellmer, who touched my
heart by crying over my departure. She had made arrangements to stay
in Newcastle with an aunt who was getting old, and who felt inclined
for the cheap charity of discharging her servant and taking the active
and industrious little woman to live with her. Mrs. Ellmer was to take
care of Ta-ta till my return. Outside the door Ferguson met me with
my old portmanteau ready on a cab. In five minutes I was off on my
travels again.

I was out of England altogether for four years, during which, among
other little expeditions, I traversed America from the southernmost
point of Terra del Fuego to the land of the Eskimos. I heard nothing
of Babiole or her husband, nor did I make any efforts to hear anything
about them, being of opinion that a man and his wife settle down to
life together best without any of that outside interference which it
is so difficult for those who love them to withhold, when they see
things going amiss with the young household. At the end of four years,
I had said to myself, they will have obtained a rudimentary knowledge
of each other's character. Babiole will be a woman and will no longer
see the reflex of the divinity in any man; the experiment of marriage
will be in working order, and one will be able to judge the results.
I had not forgotten them, indeed I had thought of them continually. I
had taken care that Babiole's allowance was regularly paid; but my
second sentimental disappointment having found me some sort of a
misanthrope, had cured me of my misanthropy; and a freer intercourse
with men and women, and a particular study of such married couples as
I met convinced me that the mutual attraction of man and woman towards
each other is so great that merely negative qualities in the one sex
count as virtues in the eyes of the other, and that a husband and wife
who will only abstain from being actively disagreeable to one another
are in a fair way towards attaining a gentle mutual enthusiasm which
will make the grayest of human lives seem fair. Now Babiole could
never be actively disagreeable to anybody; and surely not even a
disappointed artist, and no artist is so disappointed as he who is
all but the most successful, could be actively disagreeable to
Babiole.

But my philosophy had weak points, which I was soon abruptly to
discover.

It was in the month of March that I came back to England and put up at
the Bedford Hotel, Covent Garden. Fabian and his wife lived in a flat
at Bayswater, the address of which I had taken care to obtain.
Although I was much excited at the thought of seeing them, I was by no
means anxious to anticipate the meeting, which I had decided should
not take place until tailor and hatter and hair-dresser had done their
best to remove all traces of barbarism. My beard I had decided to
retain, but it must be now the beard of Bond Street, and not that of
the prairies. In the meantime I took a solitary stall at the theatre
where Fabian was playing, with some vague idea of gaining a
premonitory insight into the course of his matrimonial career.

A keen sensation of something which I regret to say was not wholly
disappointment shot through me as I perceived that, so far from having
acquired any touch of the comfortable and commonplace which is the
outward and visible sign of an inward domestic tranquillity, Fabian
was leaner, more haggard than ever. He had grown more petulant and
irritable, too, as I gathered from his annoyance with a large and
lively party of very well dressed people who sat in one of the boxes
nearest the stage, and who, without transgressing such lax bonds of
good breeding as usually control the occupants of stalls and boxes,
evidently found more entertainment in each other than in the people on
the stage.

I glanced up at the box, following instinctively the direction of
Fabian's eyes, and saw an ugly but clever-looking young man very much
occupied with a pale sad-faced lady; two very young men and two other
ladies, both with the dead-white complexions and black dresses which
have been of late so popular with the half world and its imitators,
formed the rest of the occupants.

Before the end of the first scene in which he was engaged, Fabian had
recognised me, and in the pause between the acts a note from him was
brought to me by one of the attendants asking me to 'go and speak to
Babiole, and to come home to supper with them.'

Speak to Babiole! Why, then, she must be in the theatre! I got up and
peered about with my glasses; but though I could see well into every
part of the house, I could discover no one in the least like my little
witch of the hills. After a careful inspection, I decided that she
must be one of three or four ladies who were hidden by the curtains of
the boxes in which they sat. In this belief I had resumed my seat and
given up the search when, just as the curtain was rising upon the
next act, and I glanced up again at the people who had excited
Fabian's wrath, a look, a movement of the pale sad-looking lady
suddenly attracted my attention. I raised my glasses again in
consternation; for, changed as she was, with all her pretty colour
faded, the bright light gone from her eyes, the soft outlines of her
little face altered and sharpened, there was now no possibility of
mistaking the melancholy and listless lady who was still absorbing the
attention of the clever-looking man beside her for any other than my
old pupil.

Through the remaining two acts of the piece I scarcely dared to look
at her; everything seemed to indicate the total failure of the match I
had made. I wanted to escape for that night any further indictment
than my fears brought against me, but I was scarcely outside the
theatre after the performance when a hand was laid upon my shoulder
in the crowd, and Fabian, who had hurried round to meet me, led me
back into the building and presented me to his wife. The young fellow
who had been so devoted in the box was with her still, together with
one of the ladies in black. Fabian's manner to me was as emphatically
cordial as ever, and showed no trace of a grievance against me; but
Babiole's was utterly changed. She was talking to her companion when
she first caught sight of me, as I passed through the swinging doors
with her husband, and made my way toward her among footmen and
plush-enveloped ladies. The words she was uttering suddenly froze on
her lips, and the last vestige of colour left her pale face as if at
some sight at least as horrible as unexpected. Before I reached her
she had recovered herself, however, and was holding out her hand, not
indeed with the old frank pleasure, but with a very gracious
conventional welcome.

'Fancy, my dear,' said Fabian, 'the villain has been in the country
two whole days without thinking of calling upon us. These sneaking
ways must be punished upon the spot, and I pronounce therefore that he
be immediately seized and carried off to supper.'

I protested that I was too tired to do anything but fall asleep.

'Well, you can fall asleep at our place just as well as at yours. And
that reminds me that you had better sleep there. We've plenty of room,
and we can send the boy for your things.'

'Thanks. It's awfully kind of you, Scott, but I couldn't do that, I
have an appointment at----'

'There that second excuse spoils it all. A first excuse may awaken
only incredulity, a second inevitably rouses contempt. You shall sleep
where you like, but you must sup with us.'

'You will bring Mr. Maude with you in a hansom, then, Fabian,' said
his wife, who had not joined in the discussion, 'for Mrs. Capel is
coming with me.'

Fabian, who had been only coldly civil to Mrs. Capel, the lady in
black, looked annoyed, but had to acquiesce in these arrangements. We
saw the ladies into the brougham, Fabian gave a curt good-night to the
clever-looking young man, and then we jumped into a hansom and drove
towards Bayswater.

I confess I wished myself at the other end of the world, especially as
I began to think that, while my hostess certainly was not anxious for
my society, my host was chiefly actuated in his obstinate hospitality
by the desire to show that he bore me no malice. Thus when he
congratulated me on being still a bachelor it was in such a
magnanimous tone that I found myself forced to express a hope that he
did not envy me my freedom.

'I must not say that I do,' said he, with more magnanimity than ever.
'Still it is but frank to own that personal experience of marriage has
confirmed my previous convictions instead of reversing them. In short,
to put it plainly, I found soon after my marriage, as all men in my
position must sooner or later find, that I had to choose between being
my wife's ideal of a good husband or my own ideal of a good artist. I
found that a good woman is twice as exacting as a divine Art; for
while Art only demands the full and free exercise of your working
faculties in her service, a woman insists on the undivided empire of
your very thoughts; she must have a full, true, and particular account
of your dreams; you must not run, jump, sneeze, or cough but in her
honour.'

'And you chose the Art, I suppose,' I said, trying not to speak
coldly.

'My dear boy, I really had no choice. Babiole and I each wanted a
slave; but while I demanded a fellow-slave in the labours of my life,
this pretty little lady only wished for a human footstool for her
pretty little feet.'

'But I cannot understand. Babiole was always as submissive as a lamb,
a dog, anything you like that is gentle and docile.'

'My dear Maude, at the time you speak of she was unwedded. Now just as
the horse, in himself a noble animal, corrupts and depraves every man
with whom he comes in contact, from the groom to the jockey, so does
intercourse with man, the king of creatures, speedily destroy in woman
all the traces of those good qualities with which, in deference to the
poets, we will concede her to have been originally endowed.'

'I know nothing about that,' said I bluntly, 'but if Babiole Ellmer
has been anything short of a perfectly true-hearted wife, I will
stake my solemn oath that she has been harnessed to a damned bad
husband.'

I was cold and wet with overmastering indignation, or I should not
have blurted out my opinion so coarsely. Fabian was on fire directly,
gesticulating with his hands, glaring with his eyes, in his old
impulsive style.

'Do you mean to accuse me of telling you lies? Do you mean to
insinuate that I have not treated your ward as a gentleman should
treat his wife, especially when she is the adopted daughter of his
best friend? Do you think I should dare to look you in the face if I
had failed in my duty towards her?'

'If you were one of the "common rabble of humanity" you despise so
much, I should tell you you had failed in your duty very much. As you
belong to a clique which considers itself above such rules, I tell
you frankly that Art wouldn't suffer a jot if you did neglect her,
while this poor child does; and that if you were to act like Garrick,
write like Shakespeare, and paint like Raphael, it wouldn't excuse you
for the change between your wife on her wedding day and your wife
to-night.'

'You are very severe,' said Fabian, who was shaking with excitement
and passion. 'If you are really so lost to a man's common sense as to
take it for granted already that the fault is all on one side, you
must pardon me if I set your remarks down to the ravings of
infatuation.'

There was a pause. This thrust told, for indeed a great wave of bitter
and passionate regret at the loss beyond recall of my pretty witch of
the hills was drowning my calmer reason and making me rude and savage
beyond endurance. We had just self-control enough left to remain
silent for the remaining few minutes of the drive, both quaking with
rage, and both ashamed, I of my explosion, he, I hope, of the lameness
of his explanations. The hansom stopped at the mansions, on the third
floor of one of which Mr. and Mrs. Scott lived. I jumped out first,
raised my hat, and excusing myself coldly and formally, was hurrying
away, when Fabian, regardless of the cabman, who thought it was a
dodge, and hallooed after him, followed me at a run, put his arm
through mine, and dragged me back again.

'Can't quarrel with you, Harry,' he said affectionately. 'Say it's all
my fault if you like, but hear both sides first. Come in, come in I
tell you.'

And having given vent to his feelings in a volley of eloquent abuse to
the shouting cabman, he tossed him his fare and led me into the
house.

Curiously enough, the emotion which seemed to choke me as I mounted
the stairs and stood outside the door of Babiole's home, disappeared
entirely as soon as the door was opened to admit us. For there,
standing in the little entrance hall, at the open door of the
drawing-room, was the slim pale lady with pleasant conventional
manners, and the pretty little meaningless laugh of a desire to
please. We followed her into the room, which was charmingly furnished,
lighted by coloured lights, scented by foreign perfumes, and hung with
drawings and engravings of which the mistress of the house was very
proud. She was so lively and bright, criticised the piece in which her
husband was playing so unmercifully, and said so many witty and
amusing things during supper, that I forgot Babiole in Mrs. Scott, and
was only recalled to a remembrance of her identity by an occasional
gesture or a tone of the voice. If I had not seen her in the theatre
first I might have thought she was a happy wife, as, if I had not
remembered the round rosy cheeks and sparkling eyes of the little maid
of Craigendarroch, I might have admired the piquant delicacy of the
small white face before me, in which the gray eyes looked abnormally
large and dark.

After enjoying myself greatly, though not quite unreservedly, I had
risen to take leave, when Fabian, suddenly remembering that he had
some proofs to send off which were already overdue at a publisher's,
asked me if I would mind waiting while he finished correcting them. It
wouldn't take a minute. He had his hand upon the door which led from
the dining-room to the little den he called his study, when his wife,
in almost terror-struck entreaty, rushed towards him and begged him to
leave it till next day.

'I can't, Bab; they must go by the first post, and you know very well
I shan't be up in time to do them.'

'I'll do them for you,' she said eagerly.

'No, no, don't tease,' said her husband authoritatively, 'take Mr.
Maude into the drawing-room and play him something,' and he pushed her
off and left the room.

She turned to me with a smiling shrug of the shoulders, and said
playfully, 'See what it is to be a down-trodden wife.' Then, leading
the way into the drawing-room, and seating herself at once at the
piano, she dashed into a lively waltz air. But it suddenly occurred to
me that she was possessed with some strange fear of being alone with
me, and this idea broke the spell of her brilliant manner, and reduced
me to shy and stupid silence.




CHAPTER XIX


I had sat down in a low chair near the piano, and I remained looking
at a rug under my feet as my hostess went on playing one bright piece
after another with scarcely a pause between.

'I know very well,' she said at last, 'that you don't care for any of
this music a bit. Men call it rubbish, and affect to despise it, just
as they do high-heeled boots, dainty millinery, and lots of other
pretty frivolous things.'

'I don't despise it, I assure you. It is very inspiriting, at
least--it would chime in well with one's feelings if one were in high
spirits.'

'Still I know you are ascribing my change of taste in music to a great
moral deterioration. But listen----'

She broke off in a gavotte she was playing, and sang 'Auld Robin Gray'
so that every note seemed to strike on my heart. In the old time among
the hills Babiole used to sing it to me, in a wild, sweet, bird-like
voice that thrilled and charmed me, and made me call her my little
tame nightingale; but the song I heard now was not the same; there was
a new ring in the pathos, a plaintive cry that seemed to reach my very
soul; and I listened holding my breath.

When the last note was touched on the piano, I raised my head with an
effort and looked at her; almost expecting, I believe, to see tears in
her eyes. She was looking at me, curiously, with a very still face of
grave inquiry. As she met my gaze she looked down at the keys, and
began another waltz.

'Don't play any more,' I said abruptly.

She stopped, and seeming for a moment rather embarrassed, began to
turn over the leaves of a pile of music on a chair beside her.

'You have learnt to sing, I suppose,' I said quietly. 'You know I am a
Goth in musical matters, but I can tell that.'

'And of course you are going to tell me that my fresh untutored voice
gave sweeter music than any singing-master could produce,' said she,
with almost spasmodic liveliness.

'Indeed I am not. Your singing to-night not only struck me as being
infinitely better than it used to be from a musician's point of view,
but it expressed the sentiment of the song with a vividness that
caused me acute pain.'

I had risen from my seat, and was standing by the piano. She shot up
at me one of her old looks, a child's shy appeal for indulgence.

'You have learnt a great deal since I saw you last; you have become
the accomplished fascinating woman it was your ambition to be. I have
never met any one more amusing.'

'Yes,' she said slowly; 'I have fulfilled my ambition, I suppose.' For
a few minutes she remained busy with the leaves of the music, while I
still watched her, and noticed how the plump healthy red hands of the
mountain girl had dwindled into the slender white ones of the London
lady. Then she leaned forward over the keyboard, and asked curiously,
'Which do you like best, the little wild girl whom you used to teach,
or the accomplished woman who amuses you?'

'I like them both, in quite a different way.' If I am not mistaken her
face fell. 'To tell you the truth, I now find it hard to connect the
two. I love the memory of the little wild girl who used to sit by my
side, and make me think myself a very wise person by the eagerness
with which she listened to me, while I laid down the law on all
matters human and divine; and I have a profound admiration for the
gracious lady whom I meet to-night for the first time.'

'Admiration!' She repeated the word in a low voice, rather scornfully,
touching the keys of the piano lightly, and looking at me with a
dreary smile. Then she turned her head away, but not quickly enough to
hide from me that her eyes were filling with tears.

A great thrill of pity and tenderness for the forlorn soul thus
suddenly revealed drew me nearer to her, and I said, leaning towards
the little bending figure--

'I did not mean to pain you, Babiole. You cannot think that, caring
for you as I used to do as if you had been my own child, I have lost
all feeling for you now.'

She turned quickly towards me again, biting her under lip as she fixed
her eyes wistfully, eagerly, upon my face. Then with tears rolling
down her cheeks, she laid her head on my arm, and clinging to my hand,
to my sleeve, began to sob and to whisper incoherent words of gladness
at my coming.

'My child, my child!' I said hoarsely, with a passionate yearning to
comfort the fragile little creature whose whole body was trembling
with repressed sobs. I got into a sort of frenzy as she went on
helplessly crying, and eloquence soon ran dry in my efforts to comfort
her. 'Look here, child, this won't do any good. Hold up your head,
Babiole; for goodness sake don't go on like this, my dear, or I shall
be snivelling myself in a moment,' I said, with more of the same
matter-of-fact kind, until she presently looked up and laughed at me
through her tears.

'There now, you've quite spoilt yourself by this nonsense,' I
continued severely. 'Go and put yourself to rights before your husband
comes in.'

And I led her to the looking-glass with my arm round her, feeling,
though I did not recognise the fact at the time, a great relief in
this little demonstration of an affection which was growing every
moment stronger.

'Do you know,' she asked presently, as she turned her head away from
the glass before which she had, by some dexterous feminine sleight of
hand with two or three hairpins, arranged her disordered hair, 'why
Fabian had proofs to correct to-night?'

I confessed with shame that my male mind had been content with the
reason he had given.

'He wanted to leave me alone with you,' she explained, 'because he
knows what a strong influence you have over me, and he hoped that you
would give me a lecture.'

'A lecture! What did he want me to lecture on?'

'Oh, on my general conduct, I suppose; on my acquaintance, intimacy
with people he dislikes; on my taking part in amateur theatricals; on
a lot of things--on everything in fact.'

'But if your husband can't induce you to do what he wishes, what
chance have I, an outsider?'

'Oh, Mr. Maude, dear Mr. Maude, have you been so long among the hills
as to think like that? Or is it that life was a different thing when
you took an active part in it? It's only in books that husbands are
husbands, and wives are wives.'

She had sat down on the sofa beside me, but I was not going to be
talked over like that. Her words had roused in me the instinctive
antagonism of the sexes, and I got up and walked up and down, an
occupation which demanded some care amidst the miniature inlaid
furniture with which the small room was somewhat overcrowded.

'You know, my dear,' I began rather drily, looking at the ceiling,
which was not far above my head, 'when things get so radically wrong
between husband and wife, as they seem to be between you and Fabian,
the fault is very seldom all on one side.'

'But it is in this case.'

'Are you sure?'

'Yes, quite sure.'

'You think you are not to blame in the least?'

'In this, no.'

'And that all the fault lies on poor Fabian's side?'

'Oh no.'

'Well, on whose side does it lie then?'

'On yours.'

I stopped short in front of her, and looked down on the little
Dresden china figure, sitting with clasped hands and crossed feet in
exasperating demureness on the sofa below me.

'Do you know that you are a confoundedly ungrateful little puss?'

'No, I'm not,' she answered passionately, raising her head and meeting
my gaze with eyes full of fire. 'I think of you by day and by night. I
read over the books I read with you, to try to feel as if you were
still by my side explaining them to me. I talk to you when I am by
myself, I sing my best songs to you, I almost pray to you. But just as
the heathen beat their gods and throw them in the dust when they lose
a battle, so I, when things go wrong with me, find a consolation in
accusing you of being the cause.' She laughed a little as she
finished, as if ashamed of her temerity, and anxious to let it pass as
a joke. But I held my ground and looked at her steadily.

'That is very flattering,' said I, more moved than I cared to show,
'but it is nothing in support of your accusation. Women, the very best
of you, think nothing of bringing against your friends charges which a
man----'

She interrupted hastily, 'I brought no charge.'

'You only accused me of deliberately spoiling the lives of two of my
dearest friends.'

'No, no, not that; I only said that you brought about our marriage.'

'Which then seemed to you the climax of earthly happiness. Remember,
you married him with your eyes open, content not even to expect him to
be a good husband. You admitted that yourself. Is it my fault that
your love has proved a weaker thing than you thought?'

'Weaker!' This was apparently a new idea to her. She now spoke in a
humbler tone. 'How could I know,' she asked meekly, 'what strong
things it would have to conquer? I thought all men were something like
you--at heart, and that to please them one had only to try. Oh, and I
did try so hard!'

The poor little face was drawn into piteous lines and wrinkles as she
sighed forth this lament.

'But what has he done, child?'

She shook her head. 'Nothing. If I could have seen before marriage a
diary of my married life as it would be, I should have thought, as I
did, that I was going into an earthly paradise. There is nothing wrong
but the atmosphere, and there is only one thing wanting in that.'

'He does not care for you?' I scarcely did more than form the words
with my lips, but the answering tears rolled down her cheeks again at
once.

'Not a bit. At least, not so much as _you_ care for To-to or--Janet.
And it isn't his fault. He is perfectly kind to me in his fashion,
admires the way I have worked to please him, is grieved that I am
dissatisfied with the result. Only--he did not take me in--of his own
accord, and so I have remained always--outside. That's all!'

She spread out her little hands, and clasped them again, with a
plaintive gesture of resignation.

'And--and if I seem ungrateful you must forgive me; I've never been
able to tell it all to any one for all these four years.'

I was stricken with remorse, but I dared not give it the least
expression for fear of the lengths to which it might carry me.

I made another journey among the gipsy tables and the pestilent
_bric-à-brac_, and returning sat down, not on the sofa beside her, but
in a chair a few feet away. I took a book up from a table by my side;
I remember that it was _Marmion_, and that it had very exquisite
illustrations.

'How about these friends, then, whose intimacy your husband
disapproves of?'

'Oh, those!' contemptuously. 'One doesn't open one's heart quite wide
to such friends as those.'

'Then if you care about them so little, why not give them up and
please your husband?'

'One must be intimate with somebody,' she said entreatingly, 'even if
it's only a tea-drinking and scandal-talking intimacy.'

'But why with these particular people?'

'Because we all have a particular grievance: we all have bad husbands.
At least--no, Fabian's not a bad husband,' she corrected hastily; 'but
we are all dissatisfied with our husbands.'

'Perhaps the husbands of those ladies I saw with you at the
theatre--forgive me if I am making a rude and ridiculous mistake--are
dissatisfied with them?' I suggested, very meekly and mildly.

'I daresay they are,' she answered, flushing. 'The less a man has of
domestic virtues, the more he invariably expects from his wife.'

'I am not surprised that Fabian shrinks from the thought of your
looking as they do.'

'You mean that they make up their faces? Mr. Maude, Mr. Maude, listen.
A woman must have something to live upon, to live for. If through her
fault or her misfortune, there is not love enough at home to keep her
heart warm, she will--I don't say she ought, but she does--look about
for a make-shift, and finds it in the admiration of some lad younger
than herself, who is ready to give more than he ever hopes to receive.
The boys like dyed hair and powdered faces, they think it "chic." But
my friends are not the depraved creatures Fabian would like to make
out.'

I was horribly shocked at her defence of these ladies, for it showed a
bitter knowledge of some of the world's ways that jarred on the lips
of a woman of twenty.

'I should not like to see you consoling yourself like that.'

She looked at me frankly, and her face relaxed into a faint smile as
she spoke.

'You need not be afraid; now you are back in England, I don't want any
other consolation. I can't forget that there is goodness in the world
while I can see you and hear from you. You are going to settle in
town?' she added quickly and anxiously.

'No, I had not thought of doing so. I am going back to Lark----'
Before I could finish the word she was at my feet, kneeling on a
cushion and leaning over the arm of my chair with her face distorted
by strong excitement.

'No, no, not Larkhall; you must not go back to Larkhall,' she
whispered earnestly. 'Promise me you won't go there, promise,
promise.'

'Why, what's the matter? Where should I go but to the only home I have
had for eleven years?'

'Yes, but it isn't safe now. If I tell you why you will only laugh at
me.'

'No, child, I should be ungrateful to laugh at any proof of your
interest in me.'

She put her hand on my arm, earnestly pressing it at every other word
to give emphasis to her warning.

'My father--you remember him--he is dissatisfied with my marriage. He
says you promised to be answerable for my happiness, and he shall make
you answer for breaking faith with him.'

'But I have not----'

'I know. I told him that, I told him everything; that I was dying,
like the idiot I was, for the love of a man who didn't care for me. He
has taken to drink--much worse than before--and he is impatient,
savage, and won't listen to reason. He will do nothing but repeat,
again and again, "He said he would answer for it, and he shall."'

'But he doesn't even know I have returned.'

'He said you were sure to fly back to the old nest, and--listen, Mr.
Maude, for I know this is true; he has gone up there to lie in wait
for you. And remember, a man who has one crazed idea and won't listen
to anything but his own mad impulses, is more dangerous than one who
is angry with good cause.'

'Poor fellow, I think he has good cause.'

'But, Mr. Maude, you don't know what ridiculous things he says!'

'What things?'

'He says that you ought not to have consulted my caprices, but to have
married me yourself straight away!'

She began to laugh as she finished, but I stopped her.

'He is quite right. So I ought to have done. Unluckily, there was one
thing in the way.'

Babiole, who was still on the cushion at my feet, leaning against the
arm of my chair as she used to do in the Highlands, was looking
interested and deeply surprised.

'One thing in the way!' she echoed softly, looking into my face with
earnest scrutiny. 'What--_before_ I fell in love with--Fabian?'

'Yes, long before that.'

She hesitated, and her eyes slowly left my face, while her brows
contracted with a puzzled expression.

'What was it?' she asked at last, in a whisper.

'I was in love with you.'

I could see very little of her face, but a shiver passed over her. For
a moment I wondered, sitting quietly back in my chair, what she
thought.

'Didn't you ever guess anything of it, child, when we had that odd
sort of half-engagement?' I asked, in a most loyal tone of
indifference.

She raised her head and looked at me modestly and solemnly.

'I should as soon have thought,' she said, in a low unsteady voice,
'that the Archbishop of Canterbury was--in love with me.'

'Aha!' I said with a ridiculous cackling laugh. 'Then I shouldn't have
had much chance.'

The next moment I knew better. She rose without another word, as the
sounds of an opening and shutting door reached our ears. But as she
did so she cast upon me one quick, shy, involuntary side-glance, and I
knew that my scruples about my ugly face had been worse than thrown
away.

The next moment Fabian came into the room.




CHAPTER XX


I left London for Ballater the very next day; and having sent Ferguson
on in advance to prepare the place for me, I found Larkhall just as I
had left it four years before, down to a newspaper which had been
lying on my study table. But the spirit of home had deserted the
place; Ta-ta was still at Newcastle. To-to recognised me indeed, but
with more sulky impatience at my absence than pleasure at my return.
The cottage was shut up and empty; I got the key from Janet after
dinner, and wandered through the unused, damp-smelling little rooms.
The furniture had been left, by my orders, just as it had been during
the occupation of Babiole and her mother. But I found that instead of
recalling the child Babiole, as I had seen her so often flitting about
the sitting-room, or, in the latter days, leaning back, languid and
listless, with glistening dreamy eyes, in the rocking-chair by the
fire, it was the pale little London lady with pretty conventional
manners and worn weary face that I was trying to picture to myself in
the uninhabited rooms. I came out again, locked the door carefully,
and finished my cigar in the porch. It seemed to me a remarkably odd
thing that Babiole's degeneration from the faultless angel she used as
a child to appear, into a mere soured and sorrowful woman who looked
six or seven years more than her age, had deepened my interest in her,
while my knowledge that she had been lost to me through nothing but my
own diffidence had changed its character.

To get the better of the unhealthy and morbid state of mind into which
I now found myself falling, I began to break through my old habits of
retirement, and to avail myself of such society as Ballater and its
neighbourhood afforded. The hot weather had begun early this year, and
the summer residents were already established before my arrival. I was
a sort of 'great unknown' concerning whom there were floating about
many interesting and romantic stories; therefore I found no lack of
eager acquaintances as soon as I cared to make them. Prominent among
these was a certain Mr. Farington, a Liverpool solicitor, who, after
having made a yearly retreat to the Highlands each autumn, had now
retired from business and taken the lease of a large house at the foot
of Craigendarroch. He had been married twice, first to a lady of
dazzling pecuniary charms who had left him one daughter, and after her
death to a large and handsome lady who gave me a strong impression of
having had doubtful antecedents. This second wife had a numerous
family, ranging from five years old to fifteen, between whom and their
half-sister was fixed the gulf of her mother's fortune.

At a very early stage of our acquaintance the eldest Miss Farington,
who was a good-looking young woman of three and twenty, with a strong
sense of the importance attached to an income of fifteen hundred a
year, had honoured me by a marked partiality for which I, in my new
sociability, at first felt grateful. It was pleasant to find some one
who could pass an opinion, even if it was not a very original opinion,
on a picture, a book, or a landscape, and Miss Farington could always
do that with great precision. Perhaps, too, it flattered my vanity to
be appealed to as the one representative of high civilisation amidst
barbarian hordes. But when it became plain even to my modest merit
that the lady proposed to annex me, I grew suddenly coy; and I then
found to my surprise that, diffident as my disfigurement had made me,
I was still, like the rest of my sex, humble only to one woman, and
mightily fatuous as regarded the rest. But if Miss Farington was
merely what one calls 'a nice girl,' with no particularly conspicuous
qualities of alluring sweetness or captivating vivacity, she had one
virtue which would not have shamed an ancient Roman--an indomitable
resolution that would not know defeat.

I am not making an idle boast; I am recording a fact when I say that
that girl laid siege to me with a skill and patience which filled me
alternately with admiration, gratitude, and alarm. She learned my
tastes, she studied my habits, she mastered my opinions, until I began
to think that if a person who apparently knew me so well could like
me so much, I must be an infinitely more amiable man than I had ever
supposed. This frame of mind naturally led me to look kindly on the
lady who had enabled me to make such a pleasing discovery, and I knew
myself to be softening to such an extent that I felt that, unless Mr.
Farington should leave Ballater before the summer was over, I should
be 'a gone coon' before autumn. If she held on until the evenings grew
cold and long, until the winds began to howl about lonely Larkhall,
and to bring swirling showers of dead leaves to the ground with the
hissing sound of a beach of pebbles under the retreating waves of a
wintry sea, then I felt that I should give way, that I should see in
Miss Farington's prosaic gray eyes pleasant domestic pictures, in her
erect figure and sloping shoulders an attraction which to a lonely
man, when the deer-stalking and fishing seasons were over, were quite
irresistible.

I had had one plaintive little letter from Babiole, in which she
entreated me, in rather stiff and stilted language, out of which
peeped a most touching anxiety, to beware of her father, who, she
assured me, was more desperate and dangerous in his intentions to do
me harm than she had even dared to suggest when face to face with me.
I wrote back in a clumsy letter as stiff as her own, but not so
touching, that she need have no fear, as her father had settled down
quietly at Aberdeen. I dared not tell her the truth, which I had found
out through Ferguson--that Mr. Ellmer had indeed come up to the
Highlands with the avowed intention of doing me some desperate harm;
but that, having availed himself too freely, through his daughter's
generosity, of his favourite indulgences, he had had an attack of
_delirium tremens_, and had been placed under restraint in the county
lunatic asylum.

Babiole's letter I carried about with me, and sometimes--for
loneliness among the hills would make a sentimental fool of the most
robust of us--I fancied that the little sheet of paper, in spite of
Miss Farington and the domestic pictures, burnt into my heart.

It was in the middle of August, while the weather was
still--everywhere but in the Highlands--insufferably hot, that I
received a letter from Fabian which gave me a great shock. His wife
had been very ill, he said, and although she had now been declared out
of danger, she recovered strength so slowly that it had become
imperative to send her away somewhere. Mrs. Ellmer, who was now with
her, having suggested her old home in the Highlands, the doctor had
agreed warmly, and Fabian therefore begged, as an old friend, that I
would lend his wife and her mother the cottage for a short time,
adding that he was sure I would look after my little favourite until,
in a few days' time, he could rejoin her.

I took this letter up to Craigendarroch, and had first a cigar and
then a pipe over it. To refuse Fabian's request was impossible; to
lend the cottage and go away myself would be inhospitable and
suspicious; to lend it and stay would be dangerous. With the last
whiffs of tobacco an inspiration came. I swung back home, wrote back
to Fabian that Larkhall itself, the cottage, the garden, the stables,
and every toolshed about the place were entirely at Mrs. Scott's
disposal, together with all the live stock, human and otherwise; and
that she had only to fix the time of her arrival and Mrs. Ellmer's.

The letter finished and put in the bag, I had a glass of sherry; and
fortified by that and by an heroic sense of duty, I sallied forth in
the direction of the Mill o' Sterrin, in which neighbourhood Miss
Farington, who did everything by rule, was always to be found
district-visiting on a Thursday.

I suppose no man with ever so little brain or ever so little heart,
who has deliberately made up his mind to propose to a girl, sees the
moment approaching without a certain trepidation. I own that when I
saw the moment and Miss Farington approaching together, although I had
very little doubt about her answer, and very little enthusiasm about
the result, I had a thumping at my heart and a singing in my ears.
With the memory of Babiole and the thought of her visit in my mind,
not even the sherry would cast a glamour over those exceedingly
sloping shoulders, which seemed almost to argue some moral deficiency,
some terrible lack of some quality without which no woman's character
is complete. In the meantime, she was bearing down upon me, and I was
still without an opening speech. But she was not.

'What a treat to see you in this part of the world, Mr. Maude,' said
she, holding out her hand. 'I confess I did you the injustice to think
you would forget your promise.'

'Promise!' I repeated vaguely. 'I am afraid I must confess----'

'You had forgotten?' she said smiling. 'Really this is too bad.'

'At least, you see, I hadn't forgotten that this is the way you always
walk on a Thursday,' said I, with a look that was intended to convey
much.

'And had forgotten my beautiful site for a new school!'

However, she was more pleased with me for what I had remembered than
angry for what I had forgotten.

'At any rate you can come and see it now,' she said, and turning back
she led the way towards a broad meadow in the valley of the Muick,
with a fair view of the little river and of the hills beyond, which
would have been a very good site for a school, if a school had been
needed.

'An awfully nice place for it,' I agreed, as she expatiated upon the
merits of a rising ground with drainage towards the river, and shelter
from the woods above. 'And if the school ever gets built, I expect
there will be only one thing it will want.'

'Go on, though I know what you are going to say,' said she.

'Scholars,' I finished briefly.

Miss Farington nodded. 'They will come,' she said confidently, 'if the
thing is properly organised.'

Organisation was her hobby. If that little affair came off, my library
would be partly catalogued and partly burnt, and To-to would be
organised into the stable-yard. Still I did not flinch.

'Think,' said she enthusiastically, 'what it would mean! To plant the
first footing of knowledge, civilisation, refinement, among these
peasants! To give them eyes to see the beauty of the nature which
surrounds them! To give them resources for refined enjoyment when
winter closes the door of nature to them! To widen their knowledge of
the world, and teach them that "hinter den Bergen sind auch Leute!"
Oh, Mr. Maude, if building and starting this school were to cost ten
thousand pounds, I should say the money had been well spent if in it
but one single Highland boy were taught to read!'

Rather appalled by the thought of the lengths to which such a
boundless enthusiasm might carry her, I murmured something to the
effect that it would be rather expensive. Whereat she turned upon
me--

'And can you, Mr. Maude, who profess to revel in Montaigne and
Shakespeare, delight in Charles Lamb and Alfred de Vigny, deny such
pleasures to your humble neighbours?'

'But my humble neighbours wouldn't read Shakespeare or Montaigne, nor
even Wilkie Collins nor Dumas the Elder. They'd read the _Bow Bells_
novelettes. And as to teaching them to admire their own hills, why
they love them more than you do, for Nature isn't to them a closed
book in winter as it seems to you.'

I was on the wrong tack altogether, as I felt, when by good luck the
lady herself brought me to more congenial ground.

'Then I suppose I mustn't expect much help from you, Mr. Maude,' she
said, rather stiffly.

'Yes, you may indeed, you may expect every help,' I said, rushing at
the opportunity, and growing hot over it. 'It's true I--that--I
don't much care--I mean I'm not deeply interested in Highland
children, except as scenery, you know, picturesqueness and all that;
but--er--but for you--in a plan of yours, that is to say, I should be
delighted to do whatever lay in my power.'

During this lame performance Miss Farington listened with a perfectly
stolid face, but with a heightened colour which told that she knew, in
vulgar parlance, what I was driving at. Now that I was coming to the
point, however, she did not mean to have any 'humbugging about.' At
least, some such determination as that, rather than maiden coyness,
seemed to prompt her next speech.

'I don't _think_ I quite understand you, Mr. Maude.'

This was a challenge. I took it up.

'I think, Miss Farington, you must have noticed my growing interest
in----'

'In my plans? No, indeed I haven't. Don't you remember your saying
the other day that it seemed a pity to waste good drainage and
sanitary regulations upon people who were never ill?'

'I--I only mean that my interest in--er--in drainage was swallowed up
in my interest in you.'

It was the very last way in which I should have chosen to introduce a
declaration of love, but with a girl too much absorbed in the progress
of humanity to encourage that of the individual man, there is nothing
for you but to take what opening you can get. It was all right, at any
rate, for she smiled and gave me her hand, the glove of which I
respectfully kissed, noticing at the time that it smelt of treacle,
and wondering how it had acquired that particular perfume. It occurred
to me, even as I stood there trying to think of something to say, that
the little boys she had been teaching must have been eating bread and
treacle, and imparted its fragrance to their lesson-books.

'You have surprised me very much, Mr. Maude,' she said. 'Are you quite
sure that I deserve this honour?'

Perhaps the question was not so insincere as it seemed to me, for she
looked pleased, though not at all agitated. But I felt, as I reassured
her with some conventional words, that my heart would have gone out
more to the emptiest-headed little fool that ever giggled and blushed
than to this most intelligent and matter-of-fact young woman. And I
fell to wondering, as we began to walk back together, why the
sentimental and the practical were so oddly divided in the feminine
mind that a girl could glow with enthusiasm while talking about
impracticable plans for making her neighbours uncomfortable, and
listen quite coolly to a proposal to pass her life with the man she
had made no secret of liking best. I had an awkward sense of not
knowing what to talk about, and I asked her how she liked Larkhall.
She had evidently considered that matter well already, and was quite
prepared with her answer.

'I think it only wants the south wing raised a storey, and the
drawing-room enlarged by taking in that space between the outer wall
and that row of lilacs and guelderroses at the back, to make it one of
the pleasantest of the country houses about here,' she replied
promptly.

I felt a cold shiver up my back, perceiving that even my study might
be already doomed.

'But I like it even as it is because it is your home,' she added, with
a touch of human feeling for which I felt grateful.

'Thank you,' I said, and I took her hand again. I hesitated about
using her Christian name, and decided not to. 'Lucy' seemed such an
inappropriate appellation for Miss Farington; she ought at least to
have been 'Henrietta.'

'I will try to make you like it still more,' I said, quietly and
sincerely, upon which she went the length of returning the pressure of
my fingers on hers.

But she could not keep long away from those confounded plans. As we
drew near the grounds of Larkhall, and could see the stables and one
corner of the roof of the cottage, she stopped short and said
pensively--

'I've often thought, Mr. Maude, what a pity it is that cottage should
be kept empty, when it is so nicely furnished too. Your housekeeper,
Mrs. Janet, took me over it one day.' Perhaps it was anger at the
thought that this young lady had mentally disposed of all my property
prematurely, perhaps annoyance that she should have intruded in the
cottage at all, which helped to augment the sudden fury which seized
me at this suggestion. She went on, quite unaware of what she had
done. 'Now I was thinking what a charming convalescent home a place
like that would make for poor widows in reduced circumstances who----'

'Unfortunately I am too selfish to give up to strangers the
accommodation which has always been reserved for my friends.'

Miss Farington might be cold, might be prosaic, but she was not
stupid. She saw at once she had gone too far, and hastened to
apologise with very maidenly humility.

'I am afraid you will think I care more for my plans than for the
great happiness and honour you have just done me. But indeed, Mr.
Maude, it is not so. It is only that I never find any one to
sympathise with my efforts but you, and so I tax your patience too
much in my delight at meeting some one who is kind to me.'

'Be kind to me too, then,' I suggested, venturing, now that we had got
among the trees of the garden, to put my hand lightly on her waist.
She understood, and with a real blush at last, she let me kiss her. 'I
have been a hermit a long time,' I said in a low voice, 'and I have
fallen out of the ways of the world and of women. But if you will only
have patience with me, and not be too much frightened by my uncouth
ways, I will make you a very good husband; and I promise you it shall
be your own fault if I do not make you happy.'

'I am sure of it,' she said simply, with a confidence which was
flattering, if still astonishingly prosaic.

I led her round the garden, gathered for her my best roses and
fastened them together, while she critically surveyed the front of the
house.

'It wants a coat of whitewash, doesn't it?' I suggested, anxious to
show her that I was not too conservative.

'Ye--es, and the ivy wants trimming. Why don't you put it in the hands
of the painters, Mr. Maude?'

'What, and go away--already! Surely that is too much to expect,' I
ventured, looking down into her eyes, which, if not boasting any
poetical attractions of 'hidden depths,' were very clear and
straightforward.

'Oh no, I don't mean that; but you could come and stay nearer to us.
The people at Lossie Villa are just going to leave, I know.'

'I am bound here for a little while, as one of my oldest friends has
just asked me to give shelter to his wife and her mother for a few
weeks.'

'Indeed! Oh, they will be some people to know. Have I ever heard of
them?'

'I don't know. The mother's name is Mrs. Ellmer, the daughter's--Mrs.
Scott. She has been ill, I believe.'

'Mrs. Ellmer! Why, surely those are the people who used to live at the
cottage! Oh, I have heard about them and your kindness to them. People
said----' She hesitated.

'Well, what did they say?'

'Oh, well, they said you used to be very fond of--the daughter.'

'So I was; so I am. But you need not be jealous.'

She laughed, a bright clear laugh, scarcely without a touch of
good-humoured contempt at the suggestion.

'I jealous! Oh, Mr. Maude, you would not seriously accuse me of such a
paltry feeling! It would be unworthy of you, unworthy of me.'

I felt, when I had taken my _fiancée_ home and formally received her
parents' sanction to our engagement, that I was myself unworthy to
live in the intellectual and moral heights on which she flourished.
But I could creep after her in a humble fashion, and do my best to
make her love me.

And in the meantime my loyalty to my friend and my friend's wife was
strengthened by a new and sacred bond.




CHAPTER XXI


I suppose no man ever tried harder to be deeply, earnestly, sincerely
in love than I tried to be with Miss Farington; and I suppose no man
ever failed more completely. I believe now that to any other woman I
have ever met, being a man by no means without affectionate impulses,
and being also in a most propitious mood for sentiment, I should have
been by the end of the week a submissive if not adoring slave. I
wanted to be a slave; I was even anxious to become, for the time at
least, the mere chattel of somebody else, a gracious and kindly
somebody, be it well understood, who would give me the wages of
affection in return for my best efforts in her service.

But Miss Farington's heart and mind were far too well regulated for
her to tolerate, much less seek, such an empire over the man who was
to be her lord and master. She despised sentiment, and meant to begin
as she intended to keep on, neither giving nor accepting an
unreasonable amount of affection. Respect and esteem, and above all,
compatibility of aim, she used to say, not harshly, but with an
implied reproach to my own more vulgar and sensual views, were the
only sure foundation of happy married life; and I felt that so long as
there was an unrepaired pig-stye within a mile of Larkhall, I was an
object of comparatively small importance in my _fiancée's_ eyes. And
the worst of it was I couldn't contradict her. Reserving all her
philanthropic projects, she was on other matters the incarnation of
common sense; and I soon found that it was the vague reputation for
intellect which any man gets in the country who likes his books better
than his neighbours, which had attracted her attention to my unworthy
self. She was disappointed with her bargain already; I was sure of
that: but having made it, she was not the woman to go back from her
word. She even had the good taste, on finding that her 'plans' palled
upon me, to drop them out of her conversation to a great extent, but I
had a shrewd suspicion that they would be let loose upon me again with
full force as soon as she should be installed as mistress of Larkhall.
I was secretly resolved however, since my lady-love declined to rule
me in the right woman's way--through her heart--to assert my supremacy
of the head in a startling and unexpected manner so soon as I should
be legally the master.

In the meantime we jogged on with our engagement, and I found in my
daily walks with Lucy, and in luncheons and teas at her father's, no
charm strong enough to make me for a moment forget the fact that in a
few days Babiole would be under my own roof.

For I had decided that not honour enough could be done to my guests at
the cottage; and, Ferguson and old Janet joining in the work with a
heartiness which made me love them, we turned out the whole house from
garret to basement, and for a week there was such a sweeping and
garnishing as never was known. We had only just got it in order when
Fabian's telegram came announcing that they were off, and for the next
forty-eight hours nobody could stop to take breath. The stable-boy had
insisted on erecting at the entrance a lop-sided triumphal arch which,
after having required constant renewing of its branches for a day and
a half, having been put up much too soon, had to be taken down at the
last moment, as it was found that a carriage could not drive under it
without either the arch carrying away the coachman, or the coachman
carrying away the arch. They were to break the journey by spending one
night at Edinburgh, and I had proposed to meet them at Aberdeen on the
following day. But Miss Farington's uncle having come to Ballater on
purpose to annoy me--I mean on purpose to meet me--I was forced to
attend a most dull luncheon at Oak Lodge where I, in absence of mind,
made myself very objectionable by expressing a doubt whether any
lawyers would be found in heaven.

They made me stay to tea, though I'm sure nobody wanted me, and I was
dying to get away. It was nearly six before I could leave, and I
rushed to the little station just as the passengers were streaming out
of the train. I knew that Babiole was among them, and I came upon her
suddenly as I got through the door on to the platform. She was
leaning on her mother, pale, thin, wasted so that for pity and terror
I could not speak, but just held out my arm and supported her to the
carriage which, by my orders, was waiting outside. As we drove off she
leaned against her mother and held out her hand to me.

'Again--after four years, to be back with you under old
Craigendarroch,' she said, almost in a whisper, with moist eyes.

'Yes, yes, we'll set you up again as none of your London doctors could
do,' I said huskily.

She smiled at me, still keeping my hand.

'Will you, Mr. Maude?' she asked half doubtingly, like a child.

'See what marriage has done for her!' broke in Mrs. Ellmer half
mournfully, half tartly. 'She wouldn't be satisfied till she'd tried
it, and look at the result.'

At that moment a yelping and barking behind us attracted our
attention, and the next moment poor old Ta-ta, released from the van
in which she had been travelling, overtook the carriage, and tried to
leap up from the road to lick my face.

'Ta-ta, old girl, why, we're going to have the old times back again,'
I cried, much moved; and after a drive in which only Mrs. Ellmer
talked much, we all reached Larkhall in a more or less maudlin
condition, overcome by old recollections.

All the men and boys about the place had assembled in two rows at the
entrance, and gave us a hearty cheer as we drove past. Ferguson was
standing at the door, and I vow his hard old eyes were moist as he
insisted on helping the little lady out himself. Janet, in a cap which
rendered the wearer insignificant, made a respectful curtsey to Mrs.
Scott as she came up the steps, but threw her arms around her as soon
as she was fairly inside the hall.

Mrs. Ellmer and I were rather afraid of the effects of fatigue and
excitement on a frame scarcely convalescent, but the pleasure of being
back among the hills was such a powerful stimulant that within half an
hour of going upstairs to the big south bedroom, which had been aired
and cleaned and done up expressly for her, she flitted down again with
quick steps, and with a faint stain of pink colour showing under the
transparent skin of her thin cheeks.

I was just outside the front door, where I had been hovering about
with an unlighted cigar between my lips, when I caught a glimpse of
soft white drapery in the heavy shadows of the old staircase. I went
back into the hall and looked up at her, as she stopped with one hand
on the bannisters, smiling down at me but saying nothing. She wore a
transparent white dress that looked like muslin only that it was
silky, with a long train that remained stretched on the stairs above
her as she stopped.

'I thought it was an angel flying over my staircase,' I said gently.

'And all the while it was only a silly moth that had singed its wings
in the big bright candle you had warned it to keep away from,' she
answered gravely, after a pause.

'The wings will grow again, and when it goes back to the light----'

'We won't talk about going back yet,' she broke in with a little
shiver. 'I want to forget all about London for a little while, and try
to feel just as I used to do here. I wouldn't bring Davis with me.
Poor mamma is going to be my nurse, and you to be my doctor, and I am
going to take Craigendarroch after every meal.'

'You must be ready for one now, one meal, I mean, not one mountain.
Where is poor mamma?'

'Oh, she's gone to talk to Janet. She thinks I am still waiting for
her to do my hair. But she shall see that I am not an invalid any
longer.'

But as she spoke, the light died out of her eyes, and I saw the
fragile white hand, the blue-veined delicacy of which had alarmed me,
suddenly clutch the bannister-rail tightly.

'You mustn't boast too soon,' said I, as I ran up the stairs and
supported her.

She recovered herself in a few moments, being only very weak and
tired, and she suddenly lifted her face to mine quite merrily.

'Shall we take Froude to-morrow, Mr. Maude? Or shall I prepare a
chapter of Schiller's _Thirty Years' War_?' she asked, just in the old
manner. 'Or a couple of pages of _Ancient History_?'

'I think,' I answered slowly, while my heart leapt up as a salmon does
at a fly, and I honestly tried not to feel so disloyally, unmistakably
happy, 'that we'll do a little modern poetry, and that we'll begin
with "The Return of the Wanderer."'

I was leading her slowly downstairs, when Mrs. Ellmer's high piercing
voice, coming towards us as the door of the housekeeper's room was
opened, suddenly broke upon our ears.

'Well, I must go and congratulate him. I'm sure I always said that a
nice wife was just the one thing he wanted.'

'Who's that?' asked Babiole quite sharply.

'Why, don't you know your own mother's voice?'

'Yes, yes, but who is she talking about? Who is it wants a nice wife?'

'I suppose most of us do, only we are not all so lucky as a certain
young actor I know,' I said brightly; but my heart beat violently,
and I felt Babiole's fingers trembling on my arm.

She asked me no more questions, and I took her into the dining-room to
admire the roses with which we had loaded the table. But when her
mother joined us a moment later, brimming over with excitement about
my engagement, Babiole nodded and said, 'Yes, mother, I've heard all
about it,' and offered no congratulations.

As for me, the remembrance of my _fiancée_ this evening threw me into
a reckless mood. 'Let us eat and drink, for to-morrow we--marry Miss
Farington' was the kind of thought that lay at the bottom of my
deliberate abandonment of myself to the enthralling pleasure the mere
presence of this little white human thing had power to give me. Mrs.
Ellmer and I were very lively both at dinner and afterwards in the
study, where we all went merely to look at To-to, but where Babiole
insisted on our staying. She did not talk much; but on the other hand,
her face never for a moment fell into that listless sadness which had
pained and shocked me so much in London. When at last she was so
evidently tired out that we had reluctantly to admit that she must go
to bed, she let her mother see that she wanted to speak to me, and
remained behind to say--

'I want to see this lady you are going to marry. For I'm not going to
congratulate you till I see whether she is sweet, and beautiful, and
noble, and worthy to--worship you, Mr. Maude,' she ended earnestly.

'She is a very nice girl,' said I, playing with To-to with unconscious
roughness, which the monkey resented.

'A nice girl for _you_!' she said scornfully. 'She must be more than
that, or I will forbid the banns. I was afraid you would think it
strange that I didn't say something about it,' she went on, after a
moment's pause, rather nervously; 'but when I heard it--just now--I
prayed about it--I did indeed--just as I used to for myself and
Fabian.'

A fear evidently struck her here that the reminiscence was ill-omened,
for she hastened to add, 'But then I didn't deserve to be happy--and
you do. Good-night,' she concluded abruptly, and drawing her hot hand
with nervous haste out of mine she left me.

The next day came a reaction from the excitement of her arrival, and
Babiole was not able to leave her room until late in the afternoon. I
had paid my duty-call at Oak Lodge in the morning, and had been
disconcerted to find that common sense and philanthropy had grown less
attractive than ever. Lucy expressed her intention of calling upon
Mrs. Scott that very afternoon, and when I explained that she was
tired and not likely to make her appearance before dinnertime, my
philanthropist said she would drive round to Larkhall in the evening.
From this pertinacity I concluded that Miss Farington was perhaps not
so entirely free from human curiosity and perhaps feminine jealousy as
she would have liked me to suppose. At any rate she kept me with her
all day, an unquiet conscience having made me exceedingly docile; and
it was six o'clock before I got home.

I went straight into the drawing-room, where Babiole, lying on a sofa
before one of the windows, was enjoying the warm light of the
declining sun.

'Better?' said I simply, coming up to the sofa and looking down. All
the energy and animation of the evening before were gone now; but to
me Babiole never lost one charm without gaining a greater; she had
been fascinating in a lively mood, she was irresistible in a quiet
one. She gave me her hand and answered in a weak voice--

'Yes, I'm better, thank you.'

'What have you been thinking about so quietly all by yourself? I don't
fancy you ought to be allowed to think at all.'

'I've been thinking about poor papa. Have you heard anything more
about him?'

'Yes, he's all right, I believe, settled down in Aberdeen. I don't
think you'd better try to see him though. It might set him worrying
again on the old subject, which perhaps he has forgotten.'

She shook her head. 'You don't know papa as mamma and I do. He wastes
his life so that people despise him, and believe that he cares for
nothing but the day's enjoyment. But they are wrong. He is fierce and
sullen, and he never forgets. He came up here to see _you_, and to do
you harm; and he will never rest until at least he's tried to.'

'Well, he and I were very good friends, and there is nothing I should
like better than to meet him and make him listen to reason--as I'm
sure he would do.'

'He--he might not give you the chance.'

I was pleased by her solicitude for me, but I showed her how very
far-fetched her fears were, and assured her, moreover, that if Mr.
Ellmer, with the brutal ferocity which had been ascribed to him,
should ever go so far as to attack me personally, he would probably
find his match in a man who lived so hardily as I.




CHAPTER XXII


I did not mention Miss Farington's threatened visit until the very
moment when, after dinner, as we were all turning out for a walk round
the garden, I caught a glimpse of her little pony carriage between the
trees of the drive. Babiole, wrapt in a long shawl of Indian
embroidery which I had taken a fancy to in a bazaar in Calcutta, and
had sent home to her, was standing by a rose-tree and choosing the
flowers which I was to cut. Mrs. Ellmer, with characteristic vivacity,
was running little races with old Ta-ta, whose failing energy was now
satisfied with such small performances as these. The dog stopped
short to bark at the carriage, to which Mrs. Ellmer now directed my
attention.

'Oh yes, it's Miss Farington, I think; she said she might come round
this evening.'

'What! Miss Farington? Your young lady? And you could forget that she
was coming! Oh, naughty, naughty!' cried Mrs. Ellmer.

Babiole's face had flushed from chin to forehead.

'We must go and meet her,' she said quietly, setting the example of
going up the steps which led from terrace to terrace to the house.

Reminded of my duty, I hastened up to the lawn, and was just in time
to help my visitor out of the little carriage. She wore a gray dress,
a dark blue jacket, a brown hat, and black silk gloves--a costume in
which I had seen her often before, but which had not struck me as
being a hideous combination until I saw it straightway after looking
at a figure which, seen in the soft evening shadows which had begun to
creep up under the trees, had left in my mind an intoxicating vision
of rich colours and soft outlines, like the conception of an Indian
princess by an Impressionist painter.

Lucy Farington's manner suffered as much by contrast with Mrs. Scott's
as her dress had done. Never before had she seemed so matter-of-fact,
so brusque, so blind and deaf to everything that was not strictly
useful or severely intellectual. On finding that Mrs. Scott took but a
tepid interest in the subject of artisans' dwellings, and had no
acquaintance with the writings either of Kant or Klopstock, she
glanced at me, who had never been bold enough to avow the whole depth
of my indifference to the one and my ignorance of the other subject,
with an expression of scarcely disguised contempt.

'I'm afraid Henry and I shall scarcely find in you a warm sympathiser
with our plans, Mrs. Scott,' she said with rather a pitying smile.
'But of course we must not expect you London ladies to condescend to
take an interest in cottagers; and it is only we poor country girls
who, for want of anything better to do, have to improve our minds.'

We were all in the drawing-room now, to my great regret, for I felt
that if we had remained in the garden we might have dispersed
ourselves, and I might have been spared hearing my _fiancée's_
unaccountable outbreak of bad taste. Babiole answered very quietly.

'You have misunderstood me a little, I am afraid, Miss Farington,' she
said. 'It is not that my mother and I don't take an _interest_ in
cottagers; but that, having been cottagers ourselves, and having known
and visited cottagers rather as friends than as patrons, we can't at
once jump into the habit of considering them wholesale, as if we were
poor-law guardians.'

'And as for improving one's mind,' broke in Mrs. Ellmer, who was
growing exceedingly irate at the persistent manner in which the
philanthropist ignored her, 'you must blame Mr. Maude if she is not
learned enough, for it was he who educated her.'

This bold speech made a great sensation. Miss Farington drew herself
up. Babiole shot at me an eloquent involuntary glance from eyes which
were suddenly filled with tears; while I confess that if I had been
called upon to speak at that moment I should have gone near to
choking. In the meantime Mrs. Ellmer went on undaunted.

'I suppose it's very old-fashioned to think that one's studies ought
to be with the object of giving pleasure to other people. But I'm sure
it's pleasanter to hear a girl play a nice piece of music than to
hear her talk about books that most of us have never heard of.'

'I love music--_good_ music,' said Lucy coldly. 'No study is more
refining and more profound than that of the great masters of harmony.
I had no idea, Mrs. Scott, that you were an accomplished amateur. Will
you not give me the pleasure of hearing you?'

'I am afraid I am not a very scientific student,' said Babiole, as she
walked towards the piano, which I opened for her.

She looked so pale and tired that I suggested in a low voice that she
had better not play to-night. She glanced at Miss Farington, however,
and I, following the direction of her eyes, saw that my _fiancée_ was
watching us in a displeased manner. I therefore beat a retreat from
the piano, and Babiole began to play. She was a good performer, and
though not one of phenomenal accomplishment, she seemed to me to give
something of her own grace and charm to the music she interpreted. She
was nervous this evening on account of the critical element in the
audience; but I thought she played with even more of sympathy and of
power than usual. She had chosen one of the less hackneyed of
Mendelssohn's 'Songs without Words,' and when she had finished I
thanked her heartily, while Miss Farington chimed in with more
reserve.

'I am afraid,' said Babiole, 'that it is not the sort of music to give
you great pleasure, but I can't play much by heart, and that is one of
the few things I know.'

'Of course,' agreed Miss Farington readily, 'I acquit you of such a
terrible charge as an enthusiasm for the shallow sentimentalism of the
"Lieder ohne Worte." Some day, I hope, in the daytime, you will let me
have the pleasure of hearing you play something you really like. It
is really very good of you to have received me at all so late, but I
had heard so much about you that I really must plead guilty to the
_childish_ charge of not being able to control my impatience to see
you.'

And Miss Farington took leave of the two ladies and sailed out of the
room, followed meekly by me. I was in no affectionate mood, having
been astonished and disgusted by her undreamt-of powers of making
herself disagreeable.

'I want you to come and spend the day at Oak Lodge to-morrow, Henry,'
she said in a kinder tone than she had used during the evening, as
soon as she was seated in the pony-carriage. 'I have some designs of a
new church to show you, which I think even you will like; and my Uncle
Matthew is most anxious to see more of you than he had a chance of
doing yesterday.'

'Thank you; it is very kind,' I answered rather coldly; 'and of course
I shall be happy to come and see you to-morrow as usual if you will
let me. But I couldn't spend the whole day at Oak Lodge, because, you
see, I have guests to consider.'

'And can't they spare you for a single afternoon?' asked Lucy with a
hard laugh. 'I shall really begin to feel quite jealous.'

'You need not indeed,' I broke out hastily and earnestly, 'I assure
you----'

She interrupted me in a very abrupt and icy manner. 'Pray do not take
the trouble. No man who was such a flimsy creature as to give me
reason for jealousy could possibly retain a hold upon my affections.'

'Of course not,' I assented, in my usual mean-spirited way, but with a
dawning suspicion that my _fiancée's_ affections would not prove
strong enough for even a less flimsy creature than I to obtain a firm
grip on.

'My father and Mrs. Farington will drive over to-morrow,' Lucy went
on; 'I believe they intend to ask Mrs. Scott to dinner. I suppose one
must ask the mother too,' she added dubiously.

'It will certainly be better, unless you wish to insult them both,' I
said in an unnaturally subdued tone the significance of which I think
she failed to notice. 'But in any case the invitation will have no
awful results, for Mrs. Scott is not well enough to go out to
dinners.'

'Ah, poor thing, I suppose not. She looks very ill. It seems almost
impossible to believe what they tell me, that she was once very
pretty. Perhaps she would not look so bad though if somebody could
only persuade her to dress like other people. Did you ever see
anything like that shawl arrangement she had on when I first came?'

'Never,' said I calmly. 'But I confess I am barbarous enough to think
that a merit. Every lady's style of dress should have something
unique about it.'

'Indeed! Then how about mine?'

'Your style of dress is unique too,' said I politely.

Miss Farington looked at me doubtfully, but came, I think, to the
conclusion that she had been disagreeable enough for one day, even if
this compliment were a dubious one. So she contented herself with
begging me warmly to come early the next day and to remember that my
guests were not to absorb me too entirely, and then she advanced her
cheek for me to kiss and drove away through the trees. When I turned
back into the house I found a great turmoil prevailing. 'Mistress
Scott had been on her way to her room when she had swooned awa' on the
stairs,' Janet said. I stole presently up the staircase to her door,
and Mrs. Ellmer came out to tell me that Babiole had indeed been
overcome by fatigue and had fainted, but that she was much better
now, and would be all right in the morning after the night's rest.

But I was anxious about the poor child; for her pallor during the
evening had frightened me. My Lucy's new departure too had given me
something to think about, so that sleep for the present was out of the
question. I therefore determined to keep my vigil comfortably; going
into the study, I threw another log on the fire which, winter and
summer, was always necessary in the evening, and, lighting my pipe,
stretched myself in my old chair and gave myself up to meditation,
which resolved itself before long into a doze.

I woke up suddenly before the fire had got low, and heard the old
boards of the floor above me creaking repeatedly, as if some one were
hurrying about on them with a soft tread. The room over my study was
that which had been assigned to Mrs. Scott, so that I was on the
alert at once, afraid that she had been taken ill again in the night,
and that her mother, who slept in a little room next to hers, was
running to and fro in attendance upon her.

I jumped up from my chair, with the intention of going upstairs to ask
Mrs. Ellmer whether I could be of any use; but before I had taken two
steps, in a slow sleepy fashion, listening all the time, the creaking
ceased, and I heard the sound of a door being opened on the landing
above. The study-door was ajar, so that in the complete stillness of
the night the faintest noise was audible to me. I crossed the room
softly, creeping nearer to the door with keenly open ears and with
something more than curiosity in my mind. For without being at all one
of those highly sensitive persons who can distinguish without fail one
footfall from another, I knew the difference between Mrs. Ellmer's
quick active step, and the slow soft tread which I now heard on the
polished uncarpeted floor of the corridor. The steps became inaudible
as I caught the light sound of a skirt sweeping from stair to stair:
then again I heard a slow tread on the polished floor of the hall.
Although I knew well enough who it was, a long sigh which suddenly
reached my ears and proclaimed beyond doubt the wanderer's identity,
seemed to pierce my body and leave a deep wound. It was Babiole,
either in misery or in pain, who was wandering about the house in the
middle of the night. She was feeling about for something in the
darkness when I opened wide the door of my study, and let the
lamplight fall upon her just as the chain of the front door rattled in
her hands and fell with a loud noise against the oak.

She glanced back at me in a startled manner, but proceeded to unlock
the door and to turn the handle. She had on the muslin dress she had
worn during the evening, with her travelling cloak and bonnet. I saw
by the vacant manner in which her eyes rested for a moment upon me,
without surprise or recognition, that there was some cloud in her
brain. I advanced quickly into the hall and laid my fingers upon the
handle of the door.

'What are you doing down here to-night?' I asked in a low voice, but
with an air of authority. 'You ought to be sleeping.'

She drew back a little and looked helplessly from the door to me.

'Now go upstairs again and get into bed as fast as you can,' I
continued coaxingly, 'or your mother will find out that you have left
your room, and be very much frightened.'

But recalling her purpose, she made a spring towards the door, and as
I stood firm and prevented her opening it, she fell to wild and
piteous entreaties.

'Let me pass, please. I must go, I tell you I must go, before they
know--before they guess. It will all come right if I go.'

'Tell me first why you want to go,' said I gently.

The lamplight streamed out from the open study door upon us, showing
me her dazed, almost haggard face, her disordered dress, the nervous
trembling of her hands. She looked at me for a moment more steadily,
and I thought she was coming to herself.

'I can't tell _you_,' she whispered, still fumbling with the door
handle and looking down at her own fingers.

'Well, then, go upstairs now, and you shall tell me all about it
to-morrow,' I said persuasively.

'No, no, no,' she broke out wildly and vehemently as at first, seeming
again to lose all control of herself as she became excited. 'To-morrow
I shall be happy again, and I shall not be able to go. He cannot care
for this girl while I'm here, I know it! I am spoiling everything for
them: I want to go back to my husband, and not wait for him to come
and fetch me. Don't you see? Don't you understand?'

Even while she babbled out these secrets, ignorant who I was, her
instinct of confidence in me made her support herself on my arm, and
lean upon me as she whispered excitedly in my ear.

'Well, but it is night, and there are no trains till the morning, you
know.'

For a moment she seemed bewildered. Then with an expression of
childlike simplicity she said, 'I shall find my way. God told me I was
right to go. I can pray up here among the hills, just as I used when I
was a child, and He told me it was right.'

Luckily, perhaps, her strength was failing her even as she spoke. She
swayed unsteadily on my arm and made little resistance but a faint
murmur of protest as I half carried her back to the staircase. As her
head fell languidly against my shoulder I saw that again, as fatigue
overcame excitement, she was recovering her wandering consciousness,
and I made haste to take advantage of the fact.

'Come,' said I, 'you had better go upstairs and rest a little
while--before you start, you know.'

She looked up at me in a dreamy bewildered manner as she leant,
supported by my arms, against the staircase, and two tears, shining in
the darkness, rolled down her cheeks. 'I am afraid,' said she in a
broken whisper, 'that I shall not be able to go at all.'

Then, with a long sigh, she stood up, twined her arms within mine and
let me lead her upstairs. The door of her room was open, and the two
candles, flickering and smoking in the draught, cast moving shadows
over a disorder of dress and dainty woman's clothing flung in
confusion about the room. Babiole glanced inside and then looked up at
me in bewilderment and alarm, like one roused out of sleep to see
something strange and terrible. I wanted her to go to rest before her
memory should overtake her. So I took off her bonnet and cloak, and
profiting by the utter docility she showed me, glanced into the room
and said, in a tone of authority, such as one would use to a child--

'Now, I shall come upstairs again in exactly five minutes and shall
knock at your door. If you are in bed by that time you are to call out
"good-night." If you are not, I shall wake your mother up, and send
her to you. Now will you do as I tell you?'

'Yes, yes,' said she meekly.

'Then good-night.'

'Good-night, Mr. Maude.'

She knew me then; but I somehow fancied, from the old-fashioned
demureness with which she gave her hand, that she believed herself to
be once more the little maid of Craigendarroch, and me to be her old
master.

Next day Babiole did not appear at breakfast, and her mother said she
was in a state of deep depression, and must, her mother thought by her
manner, have had a fright in the night. I was very anxious to see her
again, and to find out how much she remembered of our nocturnal
adventure. So anxious was I, in fact, that I forgot all about my
appointment at Oak Lodge at eleven, and it was not until Mrs. Ellmer
and I were having luncheon at two that I was suddenly reminded of my
neglect in a rather summary fashion by being presented by Ferguson
with a note directed in my _fiancée's_ handwriting, and told that a
messenger was waiting. I opened it, conscience-stricken, but hardly
prepared for the blow it contained. This was the note:--

     DEAR MR. MAUDE--[The opening was portentous] It is with
     feelings of acute pain that I address thus formally a gentleman
     in whom I once thought I had had the good fortune to discover a
     heart, and more especially a mind, to which I could in all
     things submit the control of my own weaker and more frivolous
     nature. [Lucy Farington frivolous! Shades of Aristotle and
     Bacon!] For some time past I have begun to feel that I was
     deceived. I do not for a moment mean that you intended
     deception, but that, in my anxiety to believe the best, I
     deceived myself. Your growing indifference to the dearest
     wishes of my heart, culminating in your positive non-appearance
     this morning (when I had prepared a little surprise for you in
     shape of a meeting with Mr. Finch, the architect, with his
     designs for a model self-supporting village laundry), leave
     hardly any room for doubt that our views of life are too
     hopelessly dissimilar for us to hope to embark happily in
     matrimony. If this is indeed the case, with much regret I will
     give you back your liberty, and request the return of my
     perhaps foolishly fond letters. If, on the other hand, you are
     not willing that all should be at an end between us, I beg that
     you will come to me in the pony carriage which will await your
     orders.--I remain, dear Mr. Maude, with my sincerest apologies
     if I have been unduly hasty, yours most sincerely,

     LUCY FARINGTON.

My first emotion was one of anger against the girl for being such a
fool; my second was of thankfulness to her for being so wise. I should
have liked, in pique, to have straightway got those letters, which she
was mistaken in considering compromisingly affectionate, to have made
them into a small but neat parcel and despatched them forthwith.
Instead of this, I excused myself to Mrs. Ellmer, went into the study
in a state of excitement, half pain and half relief, and wrote a note.

     MY DEAR MISS FARINGTON--Your letter forbids me to address you
     in a more affectionate way, though you are mistaken in
     supposing that my feelings towards you have changed. It seems
     to be that we have both, if I may use the expression, been
     running our heads against a brick wall. You have been seeking
     in me a learned gentleman with a strong natural bent for
     philanthropy, while I hoped to find in you an intelligent and
     withal most kind and loving-hearted girl, who would condescend
     to console me for the "slings and arrows of outrageous
     fortune," in return for my very best endeavours to make her
     happy. Well, is the mistake past repairing? I am not too old to
     learn philanthropy under your guidance; you, I am sure, are too
     sweet not to forgive me for preferring a walk with you alone to
     interviews with all the architects who ever desecrated nature.
     I cannot come back with the carriage now to see Mr. Finch; but
     if you will, in the course of the afternoon, let me have
     another ever so short note telling me to come and see _you_, I
     shall take it as a token that you are willing to give me
     another chance, and within half an hour of receiving it I will
     be with you to take my first serious lesson in philanthropy and
     to pay for it in what love coin you please.--Believe me, dear
     Lucy if I may, dear Miss Farington if I must, yours ever most
     faithfully and sincerely,

     HENRY L. MAUDE.

I saw the groom drive off with this note, and spent the early part of
the afternoon wandering about the garden, trying to make out what sort
of answer I wished for. This was the one I got:--

     DEAR MR. MAUDE--The tone of levity which characterises your
     note admits but of one explanation. No gentleman could so
     address the lady whose respect and esteem he sincerely wished
     to retain. I therefore return your letters and the various
     presents you have been kind enough to make me, and beg that you
     will return me my share of our correspondence. Please do not
     think I bear you any ill-will; I am willing to believe the
     error was mutual, and shall rather increase than discontinue my
     prayers on your behalf, that your perhaps somewhat pliable
     nature may not render you the victim of designing persons.--I
     remain, dear Mr. Maude, ever sincerely your friend,

     LUCY FARINGTON.

When I got to the end of this warm-hearted effusion I rushed off to
make up my parcel: seven notes, a smoking-cap, and a pair of slippers,
which last I regretted giving up, as they were large and comfortable;
a book on Village Architecture, and another of sermons by an eloquent
and unpractical modern preacher, completed the list. I fastened them
up, sealed and directed them, and sent them out to the under-gardener
from 'Oak Lodge,' who had brought the note, and had been directed to
wait for an answer. Then, with a sense of relief which was unmixed
this time, I went back to my study, lit my pipe, and sat down in front
of the parcel my late love had sent me. I was struck by its enormous
superiority in neatness to the ill-shapen brown paper bundle in which
I had just sent off mine; and it presently occurred to me that the
remarkable deftness with which corners had been turned in and string
knotted and tied could never have been attained by hands unused to any
kind of active labour. Miss Farington, either too much overcome by
emotion to tie her parcel up herself, or from an absence of sentiment
which might or might not be considered to do her credit, had entrusted
the task of sending back my presents to her maid.

Mechanically I opened the parcel and, not being deeply enough wounded
by the abrupt termination of my engagement to throw my rejected gifts
with passion into the fire, I arranged them on the table in a row,
spread out my returned letters (which had all been neatly opened with
a pen--or small paper-knife), and considered the well-meant but
disastrous venture of which they were the relics with much
thoughtfulness. It had been a failure from first to last: not only had
it failed to draw my thoughts and affections from the little pale lady
who was now the wife of my friend, but it had also unhappily resulted
in rendering her by contrast a lovelier and more desirable object than
before. There was no doubt of it: the only unalloyed pleasure my
_fiancée_ had afforded me was the increase of delight I had felt,
after nearly three weeks of her improving society, in meeting my
little witch of the hills once more. On the whole my conscience was
pretty clear with regard to Miss Farington; I had been prepared to
offer her affection, and she had preferred an interest in domestic
architecture, which I had then sedulously cultivated: the question
was, what was to be done now? I decided that the most prudent course
would be to say nothing of my rupture with my lady-love, and if I
should be unable to subdue a certain unwonted hilarity at dinner time,
to ascribe it to other causes.

I had scarcely made this resolution, however, when I heard light
sounds in the hall and a knock at my door, and I said 'Come in' with
my heart leaping up and a hot and feverish conviction that it was all
up with the secret; for the outspread letters which I convulsively
gathered into a heap, the lace pocket-handkerchief, the chased gold
smelling-bottle, and other articles for which a bachelor of retired
habits would be likely to have small use, told their own tale; while,
to make matters worse, To-to had got hold of the engagement ring and
had placed it on the top of his box for safety while he minutely
inspected its morocco case, and chewed up the velvet lining with all
the zest of a gourmand.

One helpless glance was all I had time for before the door opened, and
Babiole came in.




CHAPTER XXIII


On hearing the soft tap of Babiole's fingers on the door of my study,
there had sprung up in me quite suddenly a feeling that my anchor was
gone, and the tempest of human passion which I had controlled for so
long burst out within me with a violence which made me afraid of
myself. There, on the table before me, lay the eloquent relics of my
rejected suit to the woman I had tried to love. And here, shut out
from me only by the scarcely-closed door, was the woman I loved so
dearly without the trying, that just that faint sound which told me
she was near thrilled through every fibre of my body as the
musician's careless fingers sweep the keys of his instrument in a
lightly-touched prelude before he makes it sing and throb with any
melody he pleases. I had sprung to my feet and begun to toss my
returned letters one by one with shaking hands into the fire, when I
heard Babiole's voice behind me.

I turned abruptly, and it seemed to myself almost defiantly. But no
sooner had I given one glance at the slender figure dressed in some
plain dark stuff and one into the little pale face than all the tumult
within me began to calm down, and the roaring, ramping, raging lion I
had felt a moment before transformed himself gradually before the
unconscious magic of my fairy's eyes into the mild and meek old lamb
he had always been with her.

'You seem very busy, Mr. Maude,' said she, smiling.

Surely it was my very witch herself again, only a little thinner and
whiter, who spoke to me thus in the old sweet voice, and held out her
hand with the half-frank, half-shy demureness of those bygone,
painful-pleasant days when we were 'engaged,' and when the new and
proud discovery that she was 'grown-up' had given a delicious piquancy
to her manner of taking her lessons! I shook hands with her, and she
pointed to her old chair; as she took it quite simply and thus had the
full light of the windows on her face, I noticed with surprise and
pleasure that, in spite of the excitement of the night before, the
atmosphere of her old home was already taking effect upon her, the
listless expression she had worn in London was disappearing from her
face, and the old childlike look which blue eyes were meant to wear
was coming back into them again.

'You are better,' said I gently, taking no notice of her remark upon
my occupation. 'You have been lazy, madam. I am sure you might very
well have come down to breakfast. You had a good night, I suppose?'

Ta-ta, who had followed her into the room, pushed her nose lovingly
into her old companion's hand, and Babiole hid a sensitively flushing
face by bending low over the dog's sleek head. I think she must have
found out that morning by the confusion in her room that something had
happened the night before, the details of which she could not
remember; perhaps also she had a vague remembrance of her expedition
downstairs, and wanted to find out what I knew about it. But of course
I knew nothing.

'Yes, I--I slept well--thank you. Only I had dreams.'

'Did you? Not bad ones, I hope?'

She glanced at me penetratingly, but could discover nothing, as I was
fighting with To-to over the fragments of the morocco ring case.

'No-o, not exactly bad, but very strange. Do you know--I found--my
travelling hat and cloak--lying about--and I wondered whether--in my
sleep--I had put them on--thinking I was--going back to London!'

All this, uttered very slowly and with much hesitation, I listened to
without interruption, and then, standing up with my back to the fire,
nodded to her reassuringly.

'Well, so you did, Mrs. Scott, and a nice fright your sleep-walking
propensities gave me, I can tell you. It was by the luckiest chance in
the world that I didn't brain you with the poker for a burglar when I
heard footsteps in the hall in the middle of the night!'

'You did!' cried she, pale to the lips with apprehension.

'Yes; and when I saw you, you muttered something I couldn't
understand, and then you half woke up, and you went back quickly to
your room again, leaving me considerably wider awake than before.'

'Is that all?' asked Babiole, the faint colour coming back to her face
again.

'It was quite enough for me, I assure you. And I hope you will take
your walking exercise for the future in the daytime, when my elderly
nerves are at their best.'

Babiole laughed, much relieved. She evidently retained such a vivid
impression of the thoughts which had preyed upon her excited mind on
the previous evening that she was tormented by the fear or the dim
remembrance of having given them expression. She now looked with
awakening interest at the odd collection on the table.

'Are you making preparations for a fancy bazaar, Mr. Maude?' she
asked, taking up a case which contained a gold thimble.

But she knew what the exhibition meant, and she was glad, though
neither of us looked at the other as she put this question, and I made
my answer.

'No; the bazaar is over, and these are the things left on my hands.'

'Then I am afraid--the bazaar--has not been very successful?' she
hazarded playfully, but in a rather unsteady voice.

'Not very. My customers were discontented with their bargain, and
wanted their money back.'

Babiole's sensitive face flushed suddenly with hot indignation.

'How dare she----' she began passionately, and stopped.

'My dear Mrs. Scott, these girls dare anything!' said I lightly, in
high spirits at the warmth with which she took up my cause. 'There is
no respect left for the superior sex now that ladies out-read us,
out-write us, outshoot us, and out-fish us. And the end of it is that
I wash my hands of them, and have made up my mind to die a bachelor!'

If she could have known how clearly her fair eyes showed me every
succeeding emotion of her heart and thought of her brain, as I glanced
with apparent carelessness at her face while I spoke, she would have
died of shame. I had thought, on that night when I met her in London
when she had charmed and yet pained me by her brilliant, graceful, but
somewhat artificial manner, that she was changed, that I should have
to learn my Babiole over again. But it was only the pretty little
closed doors I had seen outside her shut-up heart. When the heart was
called to, the doors flew open, and here was the treasure exposed
again to every touch, so that I had read in her mobile face
indignation, affection, jealousy, sympathy, and finally contentment,
before she remarked in a very demure and indifferent manner--

'On the whole I am not sorry, Mr. Maude, that it is broken off. She
wasn't half good enough for you.'

'Not good enough for me?' I cried in affected surprise. I was
thirsting for her pretty praises. 'I'm sure everybody who knew me
thought me a very lucky man.'

'Nobody who knew both well could have thought that,' she answered very
quietly. 'Wasn't she rude to mamma, whom you treated as if she were a
queen? Is she not hard and overbearing in her manner to you, who have
offered her the greatest honour you could give? And wasn't she, for
all the cold charity she prides herself upon, distant and contemptuous
to me when she knew I had been the object of _your_ charity for seven
years?'

'Not charity, child----'

'Oh, but it was. Charity that was real, full of heart and warmth and
kindness, that made the world a new place and life a new thing. Why,
Mr. Maude, do you know what happened that night when you met us in the
cold, outside the theatre at Aberdeen, when the manager had told us he
didn't want us any more, and we knew that we had hardly money enough
when we had paid for our lodging for that week to find us food for the
next?'

There was colour enough in her face now, as she clasped her hands
together and leant forward upon the table, with her blue eyes
glistening, her sensitive lips quivering slightly, and a most sweet
expression of affection and gratitude illuminating her whole face. I
gave her only an inarticulate, guttural murmur for answer, and she
went on with a thrill in her voice.

'You spoke first, and mamma hurried on, not knowing your voice, and
of course I went with her. But though I scarcely looked at you, and
certainly did not recognise you, there was something in your manner,
in the sound of your voice, though I couldn't hear what you
said--something kind, something chivalrous, that seemed to speak to
one's heart, and made me sorry she didn't stop. And then, you know,
you came after us, and spoke again; and I heard what you said that
time, and I whispered to mamma who you were. And then, while you were
talking to her, and I only stood and listened, I felt suddenly quite
happy, for a minute before I had wondered where the help was coming
from, and now I knew. And I was right you see.' She bent her head,
with an earnest face, to emphasise her words. 'So that when poor mamma
used to warn me afterwards of the wickedness of men it all meant
nothing to me. For I only knew one man, and he was everything that
was good and noble, giving us shelter and sympathy and beautiful
delicate kindness; and to me time and thought and care that made me,
out of a little ignorant girl, a thinking woman. If that was not
charity, what was it?'

Now I could have told her what it was; indeed with that little tender
flower-face looking so ardently up into mine it did really need a
strong effort not to tell her. In the flow of her grateful
recollections she had forgotten that, the grandfatherly manner I had
cultivated for so long perhaps aiding her; but I think, as I kept
silence, a flash of the truth came to her, for she grew suddenly shy,
and instead of going on with the list of my benefactions, as
she had been evidently prepared to do, she took up the lace
pocket-handkerchief which had been one of my gifts to Miss Farington,
and became deeply interested in the pattern of the border. After a
pause she continued in a much more self-controlled manner.

'If Miss Farington's charity had been real, she would have been
interested in the people you had been kind to.'

'Now you do the poor girl injustice. She took the greatest possible
interest in you, for she was jealous.'

'Jealous! Oh no,' said Babiole with unexpected decision; and she
caught her breath as she went on rapidly. 'One may hate the people one
is jealous of, but one does not despise them. One may speak of them
bitterly and scornfully, but all the time one is almost praying to
them in one's heart to have mercy--to let go what they care for so
little, what one cares for one's self so much. One's coldness to a
person one is really jealous of is only a thin crust through which the
fire peeps and flashes out. Miss Farington was not jealous!'

It was easy enough to see that poor Babiole spoke from experience of
the passion; and this conviction filled me with rage against her
husband, and against myself for having brought about her marriage with
such an unappreciative brute. It is always difficult to realise
another person's neglect of a treasure you have found it hard to part
with; so I sat silently considering Fabian's phenomenal insensibility
for some minutes until at last I asked abruptly--

'Who did he make you jealous of?'

Babiole, who had also been deep in thought, started.

'Fabian?' said she in a low voice. Then, trying to laugh, she added
hastily, 'Oh, I was silly, I was jealous of everybody. You see I
didn't know anything, and because I thought of nobody but him, I
fancied he ought to think of nobody but me--which of course was
unreasonable.'

'I don't think so,' said I curtly. 'Unless I gave a woman all my
affection I shouldn't expect all hers.'

'Ah, _you_!' she exclaimed with a tender smile. 'There was the
mistake; without knowing it I had been forming my estimate of men on
what I felt to be true of you.' I did not look at her; but by the way
in which she hurried on after this ingenuous speech, I knew that a
sudden feeling of womanly shame at her impulsive frankness had set her
blushing. 'But really Fabian was quite reasonable,' she went on. 'He
only wanted me to give to him what he gave to me--or at least he
thought so,' she corrected.

'And what was that?'

'Well, just enough affection to make us amiable towards each other
when it was impossible to avoid a _tête-à-tête_.'

'But he can't have begun like that! He admired you, was fond of you.
No man begins by avoiding a bride like you!'

'Ah, that was the worst of it! For six weeks he seemed to worship me,
and I--I never knew whether it was wet or fine--warm or cold. Every
wind blew from the south for me, neither winter nor death could come
near the earth again. We were away, you know, in Normandy and
Brittany--when I try to think of heaven I always see the sea with the
sun on it, and the long stretches of sand. Before we came back I
knew--I felt--that a change was coming, that life would not be always
like that; but I did not know, of course I could not know, what a
great change it would be. Fabian said, "Our holiday is over now,
dearest, we must get to work again! My Art is crying to me." Well, I
was ready enough to yield to the claims of Art, real Art, not the poor
ghost of it papa used to call up; and I was eager for my husband to
take a foremost place among artists, as I knew and felt he could do.
But when we got back to England--to London--to this Art which was
calling to us to shorten our holiday, I found--or thought I
found--that it had handsome aquiline features, and a title, and that
it wore splendid gowns of materials which my husband had to choose,
and that it found its own husband and its own friends wearisome,
and--well, that Fabian was painting her portrait, which was to make
his fortune and proclaim him a great painter.'

'Who was she?' I asked in a low voice.

She named the beautiful countess whose portrait I had seen on Scott's
mantelpiece on the morning when I visited him at his chambers.

'She came to our rooms several times for sittings, as she had gone to
his studio before he married me. But she found it was too far to
come--Bayswater being so much farther than Jermyn Street from
Kensington Palace Gardens!--and he had to finish the picture in her
house. How the world swam round me, and my brain hammered in my head
on those dreadful days when I knew he was with her, glancing at her
with those very glances which used to set my heart on fire and make me
silent with deep passionate happiness. I had seen him look at her like
that when he gave her those few sittings which she found so tiresome
because, I suppose, of my jealous eyes. I never said anything--I
didn't, indeed, Mr. Maude, for I knew he was the man, and I was only
the woman, and I must be patient; but the misery and disappointment
began to eat into my soul when I found that those looks I had loved
and cherished so were never to be given to me again. At first I
thought it would be all right when this portrait was painted and done
with; this brilliant lady's caprice of liking for my clever husband
would be over, and I should have, not only the careless kindness which
never failed, but the old glowing warmth that I craved like a child
starving in the snow. But it never came back.' A dull hopelessness was
coming into her voice as she continued speaking, and her great eyes
looked yearningly out over the feathery larches in the avenue to the
darkening sky. 'When that picture was finished there were other
pictures, and there were amateur theatricals to be superintended,
where the "eye of a true artist" was wanted, but where there was no
use at all for a true artist's wife. And there were little scented
notes to be answered, and their writers to be called upon; and as I
had from the first accepted Fabian's assurance that an artist's
marriage could be nothing more than an episode in his life, and that
the less it interrupted the former course of his life the happier that
marriage would be, there was nothing for me but to submit, and to
live on, as I told you, outside.'

'But you were wrong, you should have spoken out to him--reproached
him, moved him!' I burst out--jumping up, and playing, in great
excitement, with the things on the mantelpiece, unable to keep still.

'I did,' she answered sadly. 'One night, when he was going to the
theatre to act as usual--he had just got an engagement--he told me not
to sit up, he was going to the Countess's to meet some great foreign
painter--I forget his name. The mention of her name drove me suddenly
into a sort of frenzy; for he had just been sweet to me, and I had
fancied--just for a moment, that the old times might come back. And I
forgot all my caution, all my patience. I said angrily, "The Countess,
the Countess! Am I never to hear the last of her? What do you want in
this idle great lady's drawing-rooms when your own wife is wearing
her heart out for you at home?" Then his face changed, and I shook and
trembled with terror. For he looked at me as if I had been some
hateful creeping thing that had suddenly appeared before him in the
midst of his enjoyment. He drew himself away from me, and said in a
voice that seemed to cut through me, "I had no idea you were jealous."
I faltered out, "No, no," but he interrupted me. "Please don't make a
martyr of yourself, Babiole. Since you desire it, I shall come
straight home from the theatre."'

'He ought to have married Miss Farington!' said I heartily.

Babiole went on: 'I called to him not to do so; begged him not to mind
my silly words. But he went out without speaking to me again. All the
evening I tortured myself with reproaches, with fears, until, almost
mad, I was on the point of going to the theatre to implore him to
forgive and forget my wretched paltry jealousy. But I hoped that he
would not keep his word. I was wrong. Before I even thought the piece
could be over he returned, having come as he said, straight home. I
don't think he can know, even now, how horribly cruel he was to me
that night. He meant to give me a lesson, but he did not know how
thorough the lesson would be. Seeing that he had come back, although
against his wish, I tried my very utmost to please, to charm him, to
show him how happy his very presence could make me. He answered me, he
talked to me, he told me interesting things--but all in the tone he
would have used to a stranger, placing a barrier between us which all
my efforts could not move. In fact he showed me clearly once for all
that, however kind and courteous he might be to me, I had no more
influence over him than one of the lay figures in his studio. That
night I could not sleep, but next morning I was a different woman. A
little water will make a fire burn more fiercely; a little more puts
it out. Even Fabian, though he did not really care for me, could not
think the change in me altogether for the better; but his deliberate
unkindness had suddenly cleared my sight and shown me that I was
beating out my soul against a rock of hard immovable selfishness. He
was nicer to me after a while, for he began to find out that he had
lost something when I made acquaintances who thought me first
interesting and presently amusing. But he never asked me for the
devotion he had rejected, he never wanted it; he is always absorbed in
half a dozen new passions; a Platonic friendship with a beauty, a
furious dispute with an artist of a different school, a wild
admiration for a rising talent. And so I have become, as I was bound
to become, loving him as I did, just what he said an artist's wife
should be--a slave; getting the worst, the least happy, the least
worthy, part of his life, and all the time remaining discontented, and
chafing against the chain.'

'Yet you have never had cause to be seriously jealous?'

Babiole hesitated, blushed, and the tears came to her eyes.

'I don't know. And--I know it sounds wicked, but I could almost say I
don't care. I am to my husband like an ingenious automaton, moving
almost any way its possessor pleases; but it has no soul--and I think
he hardly misses that!'

'But that is nonsense, my dear child; you have just as much soul as
ever.'

'Oh yes, it has come to life again here among the hills. But when I go
back to London----'

'Well?'

'I shall leave it up here--with you--to take care of till I come back
again.'

She had risen and was half laughing; but there was a tremor in her
voice.

'Where are you going?' I asked as I saw her moving towards the door.

'I am going to see if there is a letter from Fabian to say when he is
coming. I saw Tim come up the avenue with the papers.'

'But Fabian can't know himself yet!' I objected. However that might
be, she was gone, leaving me to a consideration of the brilliant
ability I had shown in match-making, both for myself and my friends.




CHAPTER XXIV


When I joined Mrs. Ellmer and her daughter that evening, I found that
the former lady was oppressed by the conviction that 'something had
happened,' something interesting of which there was an evil design
abroad to keep her in ignorance. She had been questioning Babiole I
felt sure, and getting no satisfactory replies; for while there was a
suspicious halo of pale rose-colour--which in my sight did not detract
from her beauty--about the younger lady's eyes, her mother made
various touching references to the cruelty of want of confidence, and
at last, after several tentative efforts, got on the right track by
observing that my 'young lady' was not very exacting, since I had not
been near her that day. This remark set both her daughter and me
blushing furiously, and Mrs. Ellmer, figuratively speaking, gave the
'view halloo.' After a very short run I was brought to earth, and
confessed that--er--Miss Farington and I--er--had had a--in fact a
disagreement--a mere lover's quarrel. It would soon blow over--but
just at present--that is for a day or two, why----

Mrs. Ellmer interrupted my laboured explanation with a delighted and
shrill little giggle.

'And so you've had a quarrel! Well, really, Mr. Maude, as an old
friend, you must allow me to take this opportunity--before you make it
up again, you know--to tell you that really I think you are throwing
yourself away.'

The truth was that the poor little woman had been smarting, ever
since Miss Farington's visit, from the supercilious scorn with which
that well-informed young lady had treated her. I protested, but very
mildly; for, indeed, to hear a little gentle disapprobation of my late
too matter-of-fact love gave me no acute pain.

'I wouldn't for the world have said anything before, you know, for if,
of course, a person's love affairs are not his own business, whose are
they? But having known you so long, I really must say, now that I can
open my lips without indiscretion, that the moment I saw that stuck-up
piece of affectation I said to myself: "She must have asked him!"'

I assured Mrs. Ellmer that was not the case, but she paid little heed
to my contradiction. She had relieved her feelings, that was the great
thing, and it was with recovered calmness that she inquired after the
friends who had made my yearly shooting party in the old times. I
knew little more of them than she did; for that last gathering, when
Fabian won my pretty witch's heart, had indeed been the farewell
meeting predicted by Maurice Brown. That young author having shocked
the public with one exceedingly nasty novel, had followed it up by
another which would have shocked them still more if they had read it;
this, however, they refrained from doing with a unanimity which might
have proved disastrous to his reputation if a well-known evening paper
had not offered him a good berth as a sort of inspector of moral
nuisances, a post which the clever young Irishman filled with all the
requisite zeal and indiscretion. As for Mr. Fussell, he had done well
for himself in the city, and now leased a shooting-box of his own.
While Edgar, my dear old friend and chum, had fallen back into the
prosperous ranks of the happily married, and was now less troubled by
political ambition than by a tendency to grow fat.

The ten days which followed the rupture of my engagement to Miss
Farington passed in a great calm, troubled only by a growing sense of
dread, both to Babiole and me, of what was to come after. She got well
rapidly, quite well, as nervous emotional creatures do when once the
moral atmosphere about them is right. For it was the loving sympathy
of every living being round her, from her mother down--or up to Ta-ta,
which worked the better part of her cure, though I admit that the
hills and the fir-trees and the fresh sweet air had their share in it.
She went out every day, sometimes with her mother and me, oftener with
me and Ta-ta, as Mrs. Ellmer's strong dislike to walking exercise did
not decrease as the years rolled on. As for Babiole, I thank God that
the pleasure of those walks in the crisp air up the hills and through
the glens was unallayed for her. The tarnish which want of warmth and
sympathy had breathed on her childlike and trusting nature was wearing
off; and her old faith in the companion to whom she had graciously
given a place in her heart as the incarnation of kindness had only
grown the stronger for the glimpses she had lately had of something
deeper underneath. I even think that in the languid and irresponsible
convalescence of her heart and mind from the wounds her unlucky
marriage had dealt to both, she cherished a superstitious feeling that
now I had returned from my travels it would come all right, and that I
should be able to mend the defects of the marriage by another exercise
of the magical skill which had brought it about. So she chattered or
sang or was silent at her pleasure, as we walked between the now bare
hedges beside the swollen Dee, or climbed on a thick carpet of
rustling brown oak leaves up Craigendarroch, and noticed how day by
day the mantle of snow on Lochnagar grew wider and ampler, and how the
soft wail of the wind among the fir-trees in summer-time had grown
into an angry and threatening roar, as if already hungering for those
days and nights of loud March when the tempest would tear up the young
saplings from the mountain-sides like reeds and hurl them down
pell-mell over the decaying trunks which already choked up the
hill-paths, and told of the storms of past years. She would look into
my face from time to time to see if I was happy, for she had got the
trick of reading through that ugly mask; if the look satisfied her,
she either talked or was silent as she pleased, but if she fancied she
detected the least sign of a cloud, she never rested until, by sweet
words and winning looks, she had driven it away.

I, poor devil, was of course happy after a very different fashion. The
blood has not yet cooled to any great extent at six and thirty, and
blue eyes that have haunted you for seven years lose none of their
witchery at that age, when the demon Reason throws his weight into the
scale on the side of Evil, and tells you that the years are flitting
by, carrying away the time for happiness, and that the beauty which
steeps you to the soul in longing has been left unheeded by its
possessor like a withered flower. But Babiole's perfect confidence was
her safeguard and mine, and like the wind among the pines, I kept my
tumults within due bounds. I was, however, occasionally distressed by
a consideration for which I had never cared a straw before--what the
neighbours would say. If I, an indifferent honest man, really had
some trouble in keeping unworthy thoughts and impulses down within me,
what sort of conduct these carrion-hunting idiots would ascribe to a
man, whom they looked upon as an importer of foreign vices and the
type of all that was godless and lawless, was pretty evident. They
would all, in a commonplace chorus, take the part of the commonplace
Miss Farington, and unite in condemnation of poor Babiole. Now no man
likes to let the reputation of his queen of the earth be pulled to
pieces by a cackling crew of idiots, and, therefore, though I had not
enough strength of mind to suggest giving up those treasured walks, I
began, torn by my struggling feelings, to look forward feverishly to
the letter which Fabian had promised to send off as soon as he knew on
what date he would be free to come north. His wife herself showed no
eagerness.

'He is the very worst of correspondents,' she said. 'He will probably
write a letter to say he is coming just before starting, post it at
one of the last stations he passes through, and arrive here before
it.'

It did not comfort me to learn thus that he might come at any moment.
My conscience was pretty clear, but I wanted to have a fair notice of
his arrival, that I might receive him in such a manner as to prepare
the peccant husband for the desperately earnest sermon I had made up
my mind to preach him on what his wife called neglect, but what I felt
sure was infidelity.

A very serious addition to the cares I felt on behalf of my old pupil
came upon me in the shape of a rumour, communicated by Ferguson in a
mysterious manner, that a strange figure had been seen by the keepers
in the course of the past week, wandering about the hills in the
daytime and hovering in the vicinity of the Hall towards evening. I
spoke with one of the men who had seen him, and from what he said I
could have no doubt that the wanderer was the unlucky Ellmer who, as I
found by sending off a telegram to the lunatic asylum where he had
been for some time confined, had been missing for four days and was
supposed to be dangerous. I at once gave orders for a search to be
made for him, being much alarmed by the possibility of his presenting
himself suddenly to either of the two poor ladies, who were not even
aware of his condition. The first day's scouring of the hills and of
the forest proved fruitless, however, while Babiole was much surprised
at the pertinacity with which I insisted that the wind was too keen
for her to go out. On the second day I think she began to have
suspicions that something was being kept from her, for on my
suggesting that she had better stay indoors again, as the keepers
were out shooting very near the Hall, she gave me a shy apprehensive
glance, but made no remonstrance. As I started to 'make a round with
the keeper,' as I truly told her, though I did not explain with what
object, she came to the door with me, making a beautiful picture under
the ivy of the portico, her white throat rising out of her dark gown
like a lily, and the pink colour which the mountain air had brought
back again flushing and fading in her face.

'Well,' said I, looking at her with a great yearning over the fairness
and brightness which were so soon to disappear from my sight, to be
swallowed up in the fogs and the fever of London life, 'Well, I shall
call at the post-office, and see if I can't charm out of the
post-mistress's fingers a letter from Fabian.'

'Ah, you want to get rid of us!' said she, half smiling, half
reproachful.

'No-o,' said I, looking down at my gaiters, 'Not so particularly.'

Then we neither of us said any more, but stood without looking at each
other. I don't know what she was thinking about, but I know that I
began to grow blind and deaf even to the sight of her and the sound of
the tapping of her little foot upon the step; the roar of the
rain-swollen Muick in the valley below seemed to have come suddenly
nearer, louder, to be thundering close to my ears, raising to tempest
height the passionate excitement within me, and shrieking out
forebodings of the desolation which would fall upon me when my poor
witch should have fled away. I was thankful to be brought back to
commonplace by the shrill tones of Mrs. Ellmer, who had followed her
daughter to the doorstep, and who encouraged me with much banter about
my shooting powers as I set off.

The gillie who accompanied me was a long, lank, weedy young
Highlander, silent and shrewd, who was already a valuable servant, and
who promised to develop into a fine specimen of stalwart Gaelic
humanity before many years were over. We made the circuit of that part
of the forest near the Hall which had been appointed our beat for the
day, but failed to find any trace of the fugitive. Jock was not
surprised at this.

'A mon wi' a bee in's bonnet's nae sa daft but a' can mak' the canny
ones look saft if a' will,' said he with a wise look.

And his opinion, which I apprehensively shared, was that the fugitive
would not be secured until he had given us some trouble.

It was a cold and gloomy day. The chilling penetrating Scotch mist
shrouded the whole landscape with a mournful gray veil, and gave
place, as the day wore on and the leaden clouds grew heavier, to a
thin but steady snow-fall. I left Jock, as the time drew near for the
arrival of the train that brought the London letters, to return to the
Hall without me, and got to Ballater post-office just as the mail-bag
was being carried across from the little station, which is just
opposite. In a few minutes I had got my papers, and a letter for
Babiole in her husband's handwriting. The snow was falling faster by
this time, and already drifting before the rising wind into little
heaps and ridges by the wayside and on the exposed stretch of somewhat
bare and barren land which lies between Ballater and the winding Dee.
I walked back at a quick pace, scanning the small snow-drifts
narrowly, measuring with my eyes the progress the soft white covering
was making, and wondering with the foolish heart-quiver and
miracle-hunger of a school-boy on the last day of the holidays,
whether that snow-fall would have the courage and strength of mind to
go on bravely as it had begun, and snow us up! If only the train would
stop running--it did sometimes in the depths of a severe winter--and
cut off all possibility of my witch being taken away from me for
another month. I had worshipped her so loyally, I had been so 'good,'
as she used to say--I couldn't resist giving myself this little pat on
the back--that surely Providence might trust me with my wistful but
well-conducted happiness a little longer. And all the time I knew that
my solicitous questionings of sky and snow were futile and foolish,
that I was carrying the death-warrant of my dangerous felicity in my
pocket, and that if I had a spark of sense or manliness left in my
wool-gathering old head, I ought to be heartily glad of it.

The notion of the death-warrant disturbed me, however, and when I
burst into the drawing room where Mrs. Ellmer was darning a handsome
old tapestry curtain, and looking, with her worn delicate face, pink
with interest, rather pretty over it, I felt nervous as I asked for
Babiole. She entered behind me before the question was out of my
mouth, and I put the letter into her hands without another word, and
retreated to one of the windows while she opened and read it. She was
moved too, and her little fingers shook as they tore the envelope. I
felt so guiltily anxious to know whether she was pleased that I was
afraid if I glanced in her direction she would look up suddenly and
detect my meanness. So I looked out of the window and watched the snow
collecting on the branches of the firs outside, while Mrs. Ellmer,
without pausing in her work, wondered volubly whether Fabian wasn't
ashamed of himself for having left his wife so long without a letter,
and would like to know what he had got to say for himself now he had
written. Then suddenly the mother gave a little piercing cry, and I,
turning at once, saw that Babiole, standing on the same spot where I
had seen her last, and holding her husband's letter tightly clenched
in her hands, seemed to have changed in a moment from a young, sweet,
and beautiful woman into a livid and haggard old one. She had lost all
command of the muscles of her face, and while her eyes, from which the
dewy blue had faded, stared out before her in a meaningless gaze, the
pallid lips of her open mouth twitched convulsively, although she did
not attempt to utter a word.

Her mother was by her side in a moment, while I stood looking stupidly
on, articulating hoarsely and with difficulty--

'The letter! Is it the letter!'

Mrs. Ellmer snatched the paper out of her daughter's hands so
violently that she tore it, and supporting Babiole with one arm, read
the letter through to the end, while I kept my eyes fixed upon her in
a tumult of feelings I did not dare to analyse. As she read the last
word she tossed it over to me with her light eyes flashing like steel.

'Read it, read it!' she cried, as the paper fell at my feet. 'See what
sort of a husband you have given my poor child!'

The words and the action roused Babiole, who had scarcely moved except
to shiver in her mother's arms. She drew herself away as if stung back
to life, and a painful rush of blood flowed to her face and neck as
she made two staggering steps forward, picked up the letter, and
walked quietly, noiselessly, with her head bent and her whole frame
drooping with shame, out of the room. Mrs. Ellmer would have followed,
but I stopped her.

'Don't go,' I said in a husky voice. 'Leave her to herself a little
while first. If she wants comforting, it will come with more force
later when she has got over the first shock. What was it?'

'Oh, nothing,' said Mrs. Ellmer, who had become more acid on her
daughter's behalf than she had ever been on her own. 'Nothing but what
every married woman must expect.'

'Well, and what's that?'

She gave a little grating laugh.

'You a man and you ask that!'

'I'm a man, but not a married man, remember. Don't impute to me the
misdemeanours I have had no chance of committing. Now what was it?
Fabian wrote unkindly, I suppose.'

'Oh, _dear_ no. It was very much the kindest letter from him I have
ever seen.'

'Did he put off his coming then?'

'Not at all. He made an appointment to meet his darling in Edinburgh.'

'Edinburgh!' I echoed in amazement. 'Why Edinburgh?'

'Why not, Mr. Maude?' said she, in a harder voice than ever. 'It's a
very pretty place, and two people who are fond of each other may spend
a pleasant enough time together there. Only Mr. Scott spoilt his nice
little plan by a stupid mistake. Into the envelope he had addressed to
his wife he slipped his letter to another woman!'

With a glance of disgust at me which was meant to include my whole
sex, Mrs. Ellmer, with the best tragic manner of her old stage days,
left me stupefied with rage and remorse, as she sailed out of the
room.




CHAPTER XXV


At the time when the mind is oppressed by a long-gathering cloud of
passionate yet scarcely defined anxiety, the awakening crash of an
event, even of an event tragic in its consequences, is a relief. This
miserable letter, therefore, exposing as it did in unmistakable terms
Fabian's infidelity, shook me free of the morbid imaginings and
unwholesome yearnings to which I had lately been a prey, and set me
the more worthy task of devising some means of helping both my friends
out of the deadlock to which I myself had unwittingly helped them to
come.

For the first time I was sorry for Fabian. A serious fault committed
by a person whom accidents of birth or circumstance have brought near
to one's self sets one thinking of one's own 'near shaves,' and after
that the tide of mercy flows in steadily. How was I, who had never
been able to conquer my own love for an unattainable woman, to blame
this man of much more combustible temperament, whom I had myself
induced to form a marriage with a girl whom I had no means of knowing
to be first in his heart? I would take no high moral tone with him
now; I would speak to him frankly as man to man, hold myself
blameworthy for my own share in the unlucky matrimonial venture, and
appeal to the sense and kindness I knew he possessed not to let the
punishment for my indiscretion fall upon the only one of us three who
was entirely free from blame. There crossed my mind at this point of
my reflections an unpleasant remembrance of the manner in which
Fabian had received a somewhat similar appeal from me years ago, and
down at the bottom of my heart there lurked a conviction that he would
hear whatever I might say without offence, and neglect it without
scruple. However, it was impossible to be silent now; and as the gray
day dissolved into darkness, and the only light in the study, to which
I had retreated, came from the glowing peat-fire, I got up from the
old leather chair which was consecrated to my reveries, and with one
glance through the eastern window out at the great woolly flakes of
snow that were now falling thickly, I left the room and went in search
of Mrs. Ellmer.

I heard her voice in her daughter's room, and knocking at the door,
called to her softly. She came out at once, and by her gentle manner I
judged that she was already contrite for having treated me so
cavalierly at our late interview.

'How is Babiole?' I asked first.

'She is quiet now and much better, Mr. Maude. Would you like to see
her?'

'Well, no; I couldn't do her so much good as you can. I wanted to
speak to you. I've been thinking; of course Fabian wrote two letters,
and put them into the wrong envelopes. Then the letter he intended for
his wife told her when he was coming, while the other letter made an
appointment on the way. Can you find out by the letter which has come
to your hands when he expects to arrive here?'

'It was written the night before last; the appointment was for last
night,' answered she with a fresh access of acidity.

'Then he probably meant to come on here to-day. I think I'll go to
Ballater and meet the six o'clock train; I shall just have time. And
if he doesn't come by that I'll telegraph to Edinburgh. What address
does he give there?'

'Royal Hotel. But you don't suppose that he will dare to come on here
when he finds out what he has done?'

'I don't suppose he will find out till he gets here.'

'I hope, Mr. Maude, if he does come, you will persuade Babiole to show
a little spirit. She seems inclined at present to receive him back
like a lamb.'

I was sorry to hear this, because it suggested to me that her feeling
for her husband had declined even below the point of indifference. I
left Mrs. Ellmer and went downstairs to put on my mackintosh and
prepare for my tramp in the snow. The lamp in the hall had not yet
been lighted, and I was fumbling in the darkness for my deer-stalker
on the pegs of the hat-stand when I heard my name called in a hoarse
whisper from the staircase just above me. I turned, and saw the
outline of Babiole's head against the faint candle-light which fell
upon the landing above through the open door of her room.

'Mr. Maude,' she repeated, trying to clear and steady her voice.
'Where are you going?'

'Only as far as the village,' said I in a robust and matter-of-fact
tone.

'Are you going to meet Fabian?'

'Yes, if he is anywhere about.'

'Ah, I thought so!' burst from her lips in a sharp whisper. She came
down two more steps hurriedly: 'You are not to reproach him, Mr.
Maude, you are not to plead for me, do you hear? What good can you do
by interceding for a love which is dead? I was jealous when I read
that letter, but not so jealous as shocked, wounded. And now that I
have thought a little I am not jealous at all; so what right have I
to be even wounded? This lady he wrote to he has admired for a long
time, and though I never knew anything before, I guessed. She is a
beauty, her photograph is in all the windows, and a little fringe of
scandal hangs about her. She has dash, _éclat_, brilliancy; I have
heard him say so. So he is consistent, you see, after all. I can
acknowledge that now, and I don't feel angry.'

Her voice was indeed quite calm, although unutterably sad. But I
noticed and rejoiced in the absence of that bitterness which had
jarred on me so painfully in London.

'I do though,' I said gruffly.

'But you must not show it. You cannot reconcile us through the heart,
for you cannot make him a different man. You must be satisfied with
knowing that you have made me a better wife. I am just as much
stronger in heart and mind as I am in health since I have been up
here; I wanted to tell you that while I had the opportunity, to tell
you that you have cured me, and to--thank you.'

As she uttered the last words in a low, sweet, lingering tone, a light
burst suddenly upon us and showed me what the darkness had hidden--an
expression on her pale face of beautiful strength and peace, as if
indeed the quiet hills and the dark sweet-scented forests and the two
human hearts that cared for her had poured some elixir into her soul
to fortify it against indifference and neglect.

A little dazzled and befooled by her lovely appearance, I stood gazing
at her face without a thought as to where the idealising light came
from, until I heard at the other end of the hall a grating preliminary
cough, and turning, saw that it was Ferguson, entering with the lamp,
who had brought about this poetical effect. He had something to say to
me evidently, since instead of advancing to place the light on its
usual table, he remained standing at a distance still and stiff as a
statue of resignation, as his custom was when his soul was burning to
deliver itself of an unsolicited communication.

'Well, Ferguson!' said I.

'Yes, sir,' said he, with another cough.

But he did not come forward. Now I knew this was a sign that he
considered his errand serious, and I moved a few steps towards him and
beckoned him to me.

'Anything to tell me?' I asked; and as he glanced at Babiole I came
nearer still.

'Jock has just been in to say, sir, that a gun has been stolen from
his cottage.'

Babiole, who had not moved away, overheard, and must have guessed the
import of this, for I heard behind me a long-drawn breath caused by
some sudden emotion.

'When did he miss it?' I asked in a very low voice.

'Just now, sir. He came straight here to tell you of it. It must have
been taken while he was out on his rounds this afternoon.'

I did not think the poor crack-brained creature whom I guessed to be
the thief was likely to do much mischief with his prize. But I told
Ferguson to put all the keepers on their guard, and to take care that
such crazy old bolts and bars as we used in that primitive part of the
world should be drawn and raised, so that the unlucky fugitive should
not be able to possess himself of any more weapons. I also directed
that the search about the grounds should be kept up, and that if the
poor wretch were caught, he was to be treated with all gentleness, and
taken to the now disused cottage to await my return.

It was now so late that if Fabian had come by the four o'clock train
he must by this time be half way from the station. But it was
possible that he had already discovered the mistake of the letters,
and had felt a shyness about continuing a journey which was likely to
bring him to a cold welcome; so I stuck to my intention of going to
Ballater either to meet him if he had arrived, or to telegraph to him
if he had not. When I had finished speaking to Ferguson, I found that
Babiole had disappeared from the hall. I was rather glad of it; for I
had dreaded her questioning, and I hurried the preparations for my
walk so that in a few moments I was out of the house and safe from the
difficult task of calming her fears.

It was already night when I shut the halldoor behind me and stepped
out on to the soft white covering which was already thick on the
ground. The snow was still falling thickly, and the only sound I
heard, as I groped my way under the arching trees of the avenue, was
the occasional swishing noise of a load of snow that, dislodged by a
fresh burden from the upper branch of a fir-tree, brushed the lower
boughs as it fell to the earth. I am constitutionally untroubled by
nervous tremors, and I was too deeply occupied with thoughts of Fabian
and his wife to give much grave consideration to possible danger from
the unhappy lunatic who was now in all probability hidden somewhere in
the neighbourhood with a weapon in his possession; but when in the
oppressive darkness and stillness the tramp of footsteps in the soft
snow just behind me fell suddenly on my ears, I confess that it was
with my heart in my mouth, as the dairymaids say, that I turned and
raised threateningly the thick stick I carried. It was, however, only
Jock, gun in hand as usual, who had run fast to overtake me, and had
come upon me sooner than he expected, the small lantern he carried in
his hand being of little use in the darkness.

'What made you come, Jock?' I asked, not, to tell the truth, sorry to
have a companion upon the lonely forest road which seemed on this
night, for obvious reasons, a more gloomy promenade than usual.

'Mistress Scott bid me gang wi' ye, sir,' answered he. 'She said the
necht was sae dark ye might miss the pairth by the burn.'

We walked on together in silence until, having left the avenue far
behind us, we were well in the hilly and winding road which runs
through the forest from Loch Muick to the Dee. At one of the many
bends in the roadway Jock suddenly stopped and stood in a listening
attitude.

'Deer?' said I.

'Nae,' answered he, after a pause, in a measured voice, 'It's nae
deer.'

He said no more, but examined the barrels of his gun by the light of
the lantern, and walked on at a quicker pace. I had heard nothing, but
his manner put me on the alert, and it was with a sense of coming
adventure that, peering before me in the darkness and straining my
ears to catch the faintest sound, I strode on beside the sturdy young
Highlander. Warned as I was, it was with a sickening horror that, a
moment later, I too heard sounds which had already caught his keener
ears. Muffled by the falling snow, by the intervening trees, there
came faintly through the air the hoarse yelping cries of a madman. I
glanced at the stolid figure by my side.

'Was that what you heard, Jock?' I asked stupidly, more anxious for
the sound of his voice than for his answer.

'I dinna ken, sir, if ye heard what I heard,' said he cautiously.

All the while we were walking at our best pace through the snow. It
seemed a long time before, at one of the sharpest turns of the road,
Jock laid his hand on my shoulder and we stopped. There was nothing to
be seen but trees, trees, the patch of clear snow before us and the
falling flakes. But we could plainly hear the noise of tramping feet
and hoarse guttural cries--

'I've done it, I've done it! I said I would, and I've kept my word!
I've done it, I've done it, I've done it!'

The tramping feet seemed to beat time to the words. I had hardly
distinguished these cries when I started forward again, and dashing
round the angle of the road with a vague fear at my heart, I came
close upon the wild weird figure of the unhappy madman who, with his
hat off and his long lank hair tossed and dishevelled, was dancing
uncouthly in the deep shadow of the trees and chanting to himself the
words we had heard. On the ground at one side of him lay the stolen
gun, and at the other, close to the bank which bordered the road on
the left, was some larger object, which in the profound darkness I
could not at first define. With a sudden spring I easily seized the
lunatic and held him fast, while Jock lifted the lantern high so as to
see his face. As the rays of light fell upon me, however, Mr. Ellmer,
who had been too utterly bewildered by the sudden attack to make sign
or sound, gave forth a loud cry, and staring at me with starting
eyeballs and distorted shaking lips stammered out--

'It's he, he himself! Come back! Oh my God, I am cursed, cursed!'

In the surprise and fear these words inspired me with I released my
hold, so that he might with a very slight effort have shaken himself
free of my grasp. But he stood quite still, as if overmastered by
some power that he did not dare to dispute, and allowed himself to be
transferred from my keeping to Jock's without any show of resistance.
As soon as my hands were thus free, the young Highlander silently
passed me the lantern, which I took in a frenzy of excitement which
precluded the reception of any defined dread. I fell back a few steps
until the faint rays of the light I carried showed me, blurred by the
falling snow, the outline of the dark object I had already seen on the
white ground. It was the body of a man. I had known that before; I
knew no more now; but an overpowering sickness and dizziness came upon
me as I glanced down, blotting out the sight from before my eyes, and
filling me with the cowardly craving we have all of us known to escape
from an existence which has brought a sensation too deadly to be
borne. Every mad impulse of the passion with which I had lately been
struggling, every vague wish, every feeling of jealous resentment
seemed to spring to life again in my heart, and turn to bitter gnawing
remorse. I think I must have staggered as I stood, for I felt my foot
touch something, and at the shock my sight came to me again and I
knelt down in the snow.

'Fabian, Fabian, old fellow!' I called in a husky voice.

He was lying on his face. I put my arm under him and turned him over
and wiped the snow from his lips and forehead. His eyes were wide
open, but they did not see me; they had looked their last on the world
and on men. The blood was still flowing from a bullet wound just under
the left ribs, and his body was not yet cold.

Mad Mr. Ellmer, in the snow and the darkness, had mistaken Fabian for
me. He had sworn he would kill the man who should destroy his
daughter's happiness, and fate or fortune or the providence which has
strange freaks of justice had blinded his poor crazy eyes and enabled
him most tragically to keep his word.




CHAPTER XXVI


I stayed beside the body of my dead friend while Jock, by my
direction, returned to the Hall with the unhappy Ellmer, who had
already fallen into a state of maudlin apathy, and was crying, not
from remorse, but from the effects of cold, hunger, and exposure on
his now wasted frame. He allowed himself to be led away like a child,
and seemed cheered and soothed by the promise of food and fire. I
wondered, as I watched him stagger along by the side of the stalwart
Highlander, that the spirit of a not ignoble revenge should have kept
its vitality so long in his breast in spite of enfeebled reason,
poverty and degradation.

It was a terrible vigil that I was keeping. I knew by my own feelings
that the shock of this tragic return to her would be a hundred times
more severe to Babiole than if her bosom had been palpitating with
sweet expectancy for the clasp of a loving husband's arms. Instead of
the passionate yearning sorrow of a woman truly widowed, she would
feel the far crueller stings of remorse none the less bitter that her
conduct towards him had been blameless.

As for me, I remembered nothing but his brilliancy, his vivacity, the
twinkling humour in his piercing eyes as he would stride up and down
the room, pouring out upon any inoffensive person or thing that failed
in the slightest respect to meet with his approval such vials of wrath
as the less excitable part of mankind would reserve for abandoned
scoundrels and nameless iniquities. With all his faults, there was a
charm, an exuberant warmth about Fabian that left a bare place in the
heart of his friends when he was gone. As I leant over his dead body
and gazed at the still white face by the light of the lantern, I
wished from the depths of my heart that Ellmer had shot down the man
he hated, and had left this poor lad to enjoy a few years longer the
beautiful world he loved with such passionate ardour.

The snow-fall began to slacken as I waited beside him, and when Jock
returned from the stable with Tim and another man, the rising moon was
struggling out from behind the clouds, and giving promise of a fair
night after the bitter and stormy day. We laid my dead friend on a
hurdle and carried him home to the Hall, while old Ta-ta, who had come
with the men, sniffed curiously at our heels, and, divining something
strange and woeful in our dark and silent burden, followed with her
sleek head bent to the glistening snow, and only offered one wistful
wag of her tail to assure me that if I were sad, well, I knew she was
so too.

I learnt from Jock that Mrs. Ellmer had met her husband, and that,
after the manner of women, she had led him in and ministered to his
bodily wants while taking advantage of his weak and abject state to
inflict upon him such chastisement with her voluble tongue as might
well reconcile him to another long absence from her. But Jock thought
that the poor wretch's wanderings were nearly over.

'I doot if a's een will see the mornin' licht again,' said the gillie
gravely. 'A' speaks i' whispers, an' shivers an' cries like a bairn.
A' must be verra bad, for a' doesna' mind the lady's talk.'

'And Mrs. Scott, does she know?'

Jock looked solemn and nodded.

'Meester Ferguson told her, and he says the poor leddy's crazed like,
an' winna speak nor move.'

I asked no more, and I remember no further detail of that ghastly
procession. I saw nothing but Babiole's face, her eyes looking
straight into mine full of involuntary reproach to me for having
unwittingly brought yet another disaster upon her.

Ferguson met us at the door of the Hall, and told me, in a voice which
real distress made only more harsh and guttural, that Mrs. Ellmer had
had the cottage unlocked, and had caused fires to be lighted there for
the reception of her husband, the poor lady believing that he would
give less trouble there.

'How is Mrs. Scott?' I asked anxiously.

Ferguson answered in a grating broken whisper.

'She went away--by herself, sir--when I told her--let her guess
like--the thing that had happened.'

They were taking Fabian's body to the little room where he used to
sleep during our yearly meetings. As the slow tramp, tramp up the
stairs began, I opened the door of my study, and entered with the
subdued tread we instinctively affect in the neighbourhood of those
whom no sound will ever disturb again. The lamp was on the table, but
had not yet been turned up. The weak rays of the moon came through the
south window; for the curtains were always left undrawn until I chose
myself to close out the night-landscape. The fire was red and without
flame. I advanced as far as the hearth-rug and stopped with a great
shock. On the ground at my feet, her head resting face downward on the
worn seat of my old leather chair, her hands pressed tightly to her
ears, and her body drawn up as if in great pain, was Babiole; even as
I watched her I saw that a shudder convulsed her from head to foot,
and left her as still as the dead. Every curve of her slight frame,
the rigidity of her arms, the evident discomfort of her cramped
attitude, told me that my poor child was a prey to grief so keen that
the dread of her turning her face to meet mine made a coward of me,
and I took a hasty step backwards, intending to retreat. But the sight
of her had unmanned me; my eyes were dim and I lost command of my
steps. I touched the screen in my clumsy attempt to escape, and To-to,
disturbed from sleep, sprang up rattling his chain and chattering
loudly.

Babiole, with a low startled cry that was scarcely more than a
long-drawn breath, changed her attitude, and her eyes fell upon me. I
stood still, not knowing for the first moment whether it would
frighten her least for me to disappear unseen or let her see that it
was only I. But no sooner had she caught sight of me than she turned
and started up upon her knees with a look on her face so wild, so
unearthly in its exaltation that my heart seemed to stand still, and
my very blood to freeze with the fear that the mind of the little lady
had been unable to stand the shock of her husband's death.

'Babiole, Babiole,' I said hoarsely; and moved out of myself by my
terrible fear, I came back to her and stooped, and would have raised
her in my arms with the tenderness one feels for a helpless child
alone in the world, to try to soothe and comfort her. But before my
hands could touch her a great change had passed over her, a change so
great, so marked, that there was no mistaking its meaning; and
breaking into a flood of passionate tears, while her face melted from
its stony rigidity to infinite love and tenderness, she clasped her
hands and whispered brokenly, feverishly, but with the ardour of an
almost delirious joy--

'Thank God! Thank God! Then it was not you! They told me it was you!'

I stepped back, startled, speechless, overwhelmed by a rush of
feelings that in my highly-wrought mood threw me into a kind of
frenzy. Drunk with the transformation of my despair into full-fledged
hope, and no longer master of myself, I stretched out a madman's arms
to her, I heard my own voice uttering words wild, incoherent, without
sense or meaning, that seemed to be forced out of my breast in spite
of myself, under pressure of the frantic passion that had burst its
bonds at the first unguarded moment, and spoilt at one blow all my
hard-won record of self-control and self-restraint. She had sprung to
her feet and evaded my touch; but as she stood at a little distance
from me, her face still shone with the same radiance, and she looked,
to my excited fancy, the very spirit of tender, impassioned, exalted
human love, too sweet not to allure, too pure not to command respect.
There was no fear in her expression, only a shade of grave gentle
reproach. As she fixed her solemn eyes upon me I stammered and grew
ashamed, and my arms dropped to my sides as the recollection of the
tragedy which had brought us here came like a pall over my excited
spirits. Then she came round the table on her way towards the door,
and would have gone out without a word, I think, if the abject shame
and self-disgust with which I hung my head and slunk out of her way
had not moved her to pity. I was afraid she would not like to pass me,
savage beast as I had shown myself to be, so I had turned my back to
the door and moved towards my old chair. But Babiole was too
noble-hearted to need any affectations of prudery, and to see her old
friend humiliated was too painful for her to bear.

'Mr. Maude,' she called to me in a low voice, and the very sound of
her voice brought healing to my wounded self-esteem.

I turned slowly, without lifting my eyes, and she held out her little
hand for me to take.

'I am a great rough brute,' I said hoarsely. 'It is very good of you
to forgive me.'

'You are our best friend, now and always,' she said, holding her hand
steadily in mine. She continued with an effort: 'You are not hurt;
then it is----'

She looked at me with eyes full of awe, but she was prepared for my
answer.

'Fabian,' I whispered huskily.

'He is dead?' I scarcely heard the words as her white lips formed
them.

'Yes.'

'God forgive me!' she said brokenly, while her eyes grew dark and soft
with sorrow and shame; then drawing her hand from mine, she crept
with noiseless feet out of the room.

I remained in the study for some time, a prey to the most violent
excitement, in which the emotions of grief and remorse struggled
vainly against the intoxicating belief that Babiole loved me. I strode
up and down what little space there was in the room, until the four
walls could contain me no longer. Then for an hour I wandered about
the forest, climbed up to the top of a rock which overlooked the Dee
and the Braemar road, and came back in the moonlight by the shell of
old Knock Castle, from which, three hundred years ago, James Gordon
went forth to fight for his kinsman and neighbour, the Baron of
Braickley, and fell by his side in one of the fierce and purposeless
skirmishes which seem to have been the only occupation worth
mentioning of the Highland gentlemen of those times. When I returned
home I saw Babiole's shadow through the blind of the little room
where her husband's body was lying. It was long past my dinner hour,
and I was so brutishly hungry that I felt thankful that neither of the
unhappy ladies was present to be disgusted with my mountain appetite.
I had scarcely risen from table when Ferguson informed me that Mrs.
Ellmer had sent Tim to beg me to come to the cottage to see her
husband, who she feared was dying. Remembering the poor wretch's
ghastly and haggard appearance when we found him, I was not surprised;
nor could I, knowing the fate that might be in store for him if he
lived, be sorry that his miserable life would in all probability end
peacefully now.

I found him lying in bed in one of the upper rooms of the cottage with
his wife standing by his side. His eyes were feverishly bright, and
the hand he let me take felt dry and withered. He said nothing when I
asked him how he was, but stared at me intently while his wife spoke.

'He wanted to see you, Mr. Maude, just while he felt a little better
and able to speak,' said she, 'to tell you how sorry he is for the
foolish and dreadful thoughts he had about you, when he did not know
the true state of the case, and when his head was rather dizzy because
he had lived somewhat carelessly, you know.'

Poor little woman! it was to her all my sympathy went, to this brave,
energetic, fragile creature whose worst faults were on the surface,
and who, to this bitter shameful end, valiantly worked with her busy
skilful hands, and made the best of everything. She looked so worn
that all the good her late easy life had done her seemed to have
disappeared; and from shame at her husband's conduct, though her voice
remained bright and shrill, she did not dare to meet my eyes. I went
round to her, and held one of her thin workworn hands as I spoke to
her husband.

'And you've persuaded him that I'm not an ogre after all,' I said
cheerfully.

Mr. Ellmer, after one or two vain attempts to answer, got back voice
enough to whisper huskily, with a dogged expression of face--

'She says I was wrong--that if Babiole was unhappy, it was the fault
of--the other one. Well, if I was wrong then, I'm right now. You'll
marry her?'

'Yes.'

He gave a nod of satisfaction, and looked contemptuously at his wife.

'And she says I was mad! Perhaps so. But I was mad to some purpose if
I shot the right man.'

With a hoarse weak laugh he turned away, and as she could not induce
him to speak to me again, I bade him good-night and held out my hand,
which, after a minute's consideration, he took and even pressed
limply for a moment in his hot fingers. I had scarcely got to the door
when his wife began to scold him for his ingratitude, and he startled
us both by suddenly finding voice enough to call me back. He had
struggled up on to his elbow, and a rush of excitement had given him
back his strength for a few moments.

'She shall hold her tongue!' he growled angrily, by way of prelude, as
I returned to the bedside. 'By your own showing you have loved Babiole
seven years?'

'Yes.'

'And during these long walks I have watched you take with her lately
on Craigendarroch and through the forest, you have never told her so?'

'Never. One can't be a man seven years to be a scoundrel the eighth,
Mr. Ellmer.'

'Then which of us two ought to be the most grateful now, I for your
lending me a roof to die under, or you for my bringing back to you the
woman you were a fool to let go before.'

It was an impossible question for me to answer, and I was thankful
that the dying man's ears caught the sound of footsteps on the stairs,
which diverted his attention from me and gave me an opportunity to
escape. Outside the door I met Babiole, who flitted past me quickly as
I went down. I saw no more of the ladies that night, for both stayed
at the cottage. But next day when Ferguson came to my room, he
informed me that the poor fugitive had died early that morning.

I was sincerely thankful that the unfortunate man had slipped so
easily out of the chain of troubles he had forged for himself, since,
as I expected, intelligence of the affair had already got abroad, and
two police officers from Aberdeen came down early in the afternoon,
and were followed soon after by an official of the asylum from which
Ellmer had made his escape.

Then there were inquiries to be held, and a great deal of elaborate
fuss and formality to be gone through before the bodies of my poor
friend and his crazy assailant could be laid quietly to rest. I sent
the two widowed ladies away to Scarborough to recover from the effects
of the torturing interrogatories of high-dried Scotch functionaries
and gave myself up to a week of the most dismal wretchedness I ever
remember to have endured, until the half-dozen judicial individuals
who questioned me at various times and in various ways concerning
details, of most of which I was entirely ignorant, succeeded in
reducing me to a state of abject imbecility in which I answered
whatever they pleased, and went very near to implicating myself in
the double catastrophe which was the subject of the inquiry. A tragic
occurrence must always have for the commonplace mind an element of
mystery; if that element is not afforded by the circumstances of the
case, it must be introduced by conjecture and ingenious
cross-questioning of witnesses. Therefore, when at last the 'inquiry'
was ended, and victim and assailant were both buried in Glenmuick
churchyard amid the stolid interest of a little crowd of Highland
women and children, I found that I had become the object of a morbid
curiosity and horror as the central figure of what had already become
a very ugly story.

I suppose that Fabian's death, the terrible circumstances which
surrounded it, and the barrier they formed between myself and Babiole,
combined to make me more sensitive than of old. It is certain that
popular opinion, about which I had never before cared one straw, now
began to affect me strangely; that my solitude became loneliness, and
although the old wander-fever burned in me no longer, I began to feel
that the mountains oppressed me, and the prospect of being snowed up
with my books and my beasts, as I had been many times before, lowered
in my horizon like a fear of imprisonment. I had heard nothing from
Babiole except through her mother, whose letters were filled with
minute accounts of the paralysing effect her husband's death seemed to
have had upon the younger lady. These tidings struck me with dismay! I
began to feel that I had underestimated the effect that such a shock
would have on a keenly sensitive nature, and to fear that his tragic
death had perhaps done more to reinstate Fabian in the place he had
first held in her heart than years of penitent devotion could have
done. This conjecture became almost conviction when, just as I had
found a pretext on which to visit the ladies, I received a letter
from Babiole herself which struck all my hopes and plans to the
ground. It was written in such a constrained manner that the
carefully-chosen expressions of gratitude and affection sounded cold
and formal; while the purport of the letter stood out as precise and
clear as a sentence of death to me. She was going away. She found it
impossible to impose longer upon my generosity, and she had obtained
the situation of companion to a lady who was going to Algeria, and
before the letter announcing the fact was in my hands, she would be on
her way to France.

I confess I could have taken more calmly the burial of Larkhall and
all it contained under an avalanche. That she could go like that, with
no farewell but those few chilling words, on a journey, to an
engagement to which she had bound herself, so she said, for three
years, was a shock so great that it stunned me. To-to and Ta-ta both
knew that night there was something wrong, and we sat, three
speechless beasts, dolefully round the fire, without a rag of comfort
between the lot of us. There was no use in writing; she was gone;
besides, I wasn't quite a serf, and if she had no more feeling than
that for me now that she was free, well at least she should not know
that I was less philosophical. So I doggedly resolved to give up all
thoughts of roaming, lest my ill-disciplined feet should carry me
where I was not wanted; and, presenting a respectful but firm refusal
to give up my lease of Larkhall to a certain great personage who had
taken a fancy to it, I wrote a stupid letter to Mrs. Ellmer highly
applauding her daughter's action, and settled myself down again to the
bachelor life nature seems to have determined me for.

But the winds blow more coldly than they used to do across the bleak
moors, the mists are more chilling than they used to be, and the broad
lines of snow on Lochnagar, that I once thought such a pretty sight in
the winter sun, look to me now like the pale fingers of a dead hand
stretching down the mountain side, the taper points lengthening
towards me day by day, even as the keen and nipping touch of a
premature old age seems to threaten me as the new year creeps on and
the zest of life still seems dead, and like a foolish woman who
neglects the pleasures within her reach to dream idly of those she
cannot have, I sneak through the deserted rooms of the old cottage
when the sinking of the sun has allowed me to be maudlin without loss
of self-respect, and I won't answer for it that I don't see ghosts in
the silent rooms. And after all, what right has a man of nearly forty,
and not even a decent-looking one at that, to ask for better company?
Poor little witch! Let her wake up to love and happiness with whom she
will, after the feverish dream of disappointed hope which I
unwittingly encouraged, I'll not blame her, and it will go hard with
me, but I'll bring a cheerful face to her second wedding. For a first
love which has not burnt itself out, but has been extinguished at its
height, leaves an inflammable substance very ready to ignite again on
the earliest reasonable provocation. And as for me, I have To-to,
Ta-ta, my books and my pine-woods, and may be the spring will bring me
a better philosophy.

       *       *       *       *       *

                                                        _April._

_P.S._--Spring has done it! Surely never was such a spring since the
hawthorn buds first burst on the hedges, and the pale green tips of
the hart's-tongue first peeped out of the fissures in the gray rocks
by the Gairn. It all came at once too--sweet air and sunshine, and
fresh bright green in the dark fringe of the larches. Yesterday I
swear we were in the depths of as black and hard a winter as ever
killed the sheep in their pens, and splitting the earth with frost,
caused great slabs of rock to fall from their place on Craigendarroch
into the pass below; but this morning came Babiole's letter, and when
I went out of the house with that little sheet of paper against my
breast, I found that it was spring. She is back in England; she 'would
be glad to see me'; she 'hopes I shall soon find some business to take
me to London.' I rather think I shall; my portmanteau is packed
indeed, my sandwiches are cut, the horse being harnessed. And I
haven't a fear for the end now; the embers are warm in her heart for
me, me to set glowing. The great personage may have the lease of
Larkhall at her pleasure; To-to and Ta-ta, and the rest of my small
household must follow me to a warmer home in the South. For my exile
is over, and I am reconciled to my kind.

Babiole wants me; God bless her!


                           THE END

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=TEMPLE BAR= is as good as usual. Few keep their level more
equally.--_Spectator._ July 11, 1885.

=TEMPLE BAR'S= Biographical Papers are always interesting.--_Glasgow
Herald._

=TEMPLE BAR= contains Literary Articles.

Essays of the =TEMPLE BAR= type, solid yet vivacious, not too learned,
but not too superficial.--_Manchester Examiner._

=TEMPLE BAR= contains Historical Reviews.

=TEMPLE BAR= has a well-established fame for admirable Historical
Articles.--_Western Daily Mercury._

=TEMPLE BAR= has articles on French Literature.

French Literature and Literary Characters are always welcome in
=TEMPLE BAR=.--_Morning Post._

=TEMPLE BAR= is as good as ever, and that is saying a good
deal.--_Lady's Pictorial._

=TEMPLE BAR= is sparkling and brilliant. It might command a
constituency by its fiction alone, but it takes so much care of its
more solid matter that, if there were no stories at all, there is
enough to interest the reader.--_English Independent._

A Magazine for the Million.--_Standard._

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