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THE GREAT AMULET

by

MAUD DIVER







"Love is the greatest Amulet that makes this world a garden: and 'Hope
comes to all' outwears the accidents of life; and reaches with
tremulous hands beyond the grave and Death."

--R. L. S.


"Four things come not back to man or woman: the sped arrow; the spoken
word; the past life; and the neglected opportunity."

--Omar El Khuttub.




THE GREAT AMULET

by

MAUD DIVER

Author of "Captain Desmond, V.C."

Shilling Edition




William Blackwood and Sons
Edinburgh and London
MCMXV
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_THIS BOOK IS DEDICATED TO_

_TRIX FLEMING_


  _IN MEMORY OF DALHOUSIE DAYS._


  Let thy heart see that still the same
  Burns early friendship's sacred flame,
  The affinities have strongest part
  In youth, to draw men heart to heart:
  As life draws on, and finds no rest,
  The individual in each breast
  Is tyrannous to sunder them.

  --Rossetti.




CONTENTS.


PROLOGUE


BOOK I.

AFTER FIVE YEARS


BOOK II.

JUST IMPEDIMENT


BOOK III.

THE TENTS OF ISHMAEL


BOOK IV.

THE VALLEY OF DECISION




THE GREAT AMULET.


PROLOGUE.

I.

  "The little more, and how much it is!
    The little less, and what worlds away."
        --Browning.


No one in Zermatt dreamed that a wedding had been solemnised in the
English church on that September afternoon of the early eighties.
Tourists and townsfolk alike had been cheated of a legitimate thrill of
interest and speculation.  Nor would even the most percipient have
recognised as bride and bridegroom the tall dark Englishman, in a rough
shooting suit, and the girl, in simple white travelling gear, who stood
together, an hour later, on the outskirts of the little town, and took
leave of their solitary wedding guest:--an artist _cap-à-pie_;
velveteen coat, loosely knotted tie, and soft felt hat complete.

In this Bohemian garb Michael Maurice,--as the bride's brother,--had
led his sister up the aisle, and duly surrendered her to Captain Lenox,
R.A., serenely unaware, the while, of censorious side-glances bestowed
upon him by the ascetic-featured chaplain, who had an air of
officiating under protest, of silently asserting his own aloofness from
this hole-and-corner method of procedure.  But his attitude was
powerless to affect the exalted emotion of that strange half-hour,
wherein, by the repetition of a few simple, forcible words, a man and
woman take upon themselves the hardest task on earth with a valiant
assurance which is at once pathetic and sublime.

To Quita Maurice, impressionable at all times, the absence of ceremony,
of those trivialities which obscure and belittle the one supreme fact,
gave an added solemnity to the unadorned service: forced upon her a
half-disturbing realisation that she was passing from an independence,
dearer to her than life, into the keeping of a man:--a man of whom she
knew little beyond the fact that he loved her with a strength and
singleness of heart which is the heritage of those who reach life's
summit without indulging in emotional excursions by the way.

And now all needful preliminaries were over; even to the wedding
breakfast, a cheerful, casual meal of cold chicken, iced cake, and a
bottle of champagne, served in Maurice's unpretentious rooms, on the
pastry-cook's second floor.

The scene of their brief courtship lay behind them, dozing in the
golden stillness of late September: before them a footpath climbed
through a forest of pine and fir to the Eiffel Alp Hotel; and on all
sides multitudinous mountains flung heroic contours outward and upward,
to a galaxy of peaks, that glittered diamond-bright upon a turquoise
sky.  A mule, ready-saddled, champed his bit at a respectful distance
from the trio: for Lenox, an indefatigable mountaineer, had insisted on
taking the footpath up to the Eiffel; where they would spend ten days,
before crossing into Italy, and so on to Brindisi, _en route_ for his
station in India.

The expiration of his leave, and his determination to take Quita
Maurice back with him, were responsible for the brevity of their
engagement, and for the absence, in both, of that brand-new aspect
which proclaims a bride and bridegroom to an eternally interested world.

For this last Eldred Lenox was abundantly grateful.  All the Scot in
him asserted itself in a fierce reticence, an inbred sense of privacy
where a man's deepest feelings were concerned: and now, as he stood
battling with his impatience to be gone, he was suffering acute
discomfiture from the demonstrative leave-taking in progress between
Maurice and his sister.  For their sakes, at least, he would fain have
effaced himself: while they, as a matter of fact, were momentarily
oblivious of his existence.

Artists both, of no mean quality, they had lived and worked together
for five years, since the day when Michael had rented his first modest
studio in the King's Road, Chelsea: and, setting aside Art, his feeling
for Quita was the one serious element in a nature light and variable as
a summer cloud.  From his French mother he derived an elastic spirit
that yielded itself to the emotion of the passing moment; and Lenox,
watching him, marvelled at the sharp dividing-lines drawn between the
different races of earth.

He half resented such facility of self-expression.  Possibly he envied
it: though no doubt he would have denied the impeachment with an oath.

Eventually it occurred to Maurice that he could not well stand in the
roadway till sunset, taking leave of the sister he was so loth to lose,
and, with a sigh of exasperation, he pushed her gently towards her
husband.

"_Voilà, cherie_, . . . enough of my endless adieux, or _ce bon_ Lenox
may be tempted to break the sixth commandment on my account, in
addition to the eighth."

Lenox smiled tolerantly down from six feet of height upon his slim,
fair brother-in-law.

"That temptation should be your own prerogative, my dear fellow, since
I am taking her from you for good."

Maurice laughed.

"_Mon Dieu_, yes.  You have certainly given me a fair excuse to hate
you.  And I have wondered more than once, in the last three months, why
one could not manage it."

"Too fatiguing for a man of your calibre!" the other answered with
good-humoured bluntness.  "You could never be bothered to keep it up."

"Ah, _mon ami_, you men who speak little speak to the point!  You are
altogether too discerning.  But for Quita's sake, at least, we could
never be otherwise than firm friends.  With all my heart I wish good
fortune to you both, and count the days to your return."

The two men shook hands cordially: and Lenox, beckoning the muleteer,
lifted his wife into the saddle; thus averting a final demonstration.
She waved her hand to a blurred vision of her brother, smiling
resolutely, till his back was turned: and he departed townward;--a
lonely brown figure, to which a slight stoop of the shoulders lent an
added air of pathos.

Quita sat looking after him, her stillness belying the clash of
emotions at her heart.

That vanishing figure on the sunlit road stood for all that she knew
and loved best in the world: for Art, independence, good comradeship:
for the happy, irresponsible, hand-to-mouth life of Bohemia: for the
Past, dear and familiar, as a well-loved voice: while the quiet man at
her side,--whose mere presence suggested latent force, and gave her a
sense of protection wholly new to her,--stood for the Future; the
undiscovered country, peopled with possibilities, dark and bright.  And
Quita Lenox, being blest, or curst, with the insight and detached
spirit of the artist, saw clearly that the Great Experiment held, for
her, a large element of hazard; that she had staked her all upon a turn
of the wheel, with what resulting Time alone could show.

Her husband's hand on her arm brought reflection abruptly to an end.

"He is almost out of sight now," Lenox said quietly.  "And I think it's
time we made a start.  Will you come?"

She turned to him at once, with a smile whose April quality heightened
its charm.

"Of course I will; and gladly.  Don't think me horrid, Eldred.  I have
always been frank with you, haven't I?  And . . . it _is_ a wrench
leaving Michael to live and work alone."

"I quite understand that: and I value your devotion to him for selfish
reasons.  It proves what you may be capable of feeling . . . for me,
one of these days."

The mingled dignity and humility of his tone so moved her that her only
answer was an impulsive pressure of the hand resting on her arm: and
they went forward for a long while without further speech, the muleteer
having set off for the summit by a series of short cuts known to his
kind.

Before long massed pines were above and below them; their jagged stems
and branches sharply imprinted on stretches of sunlit glacier, and on
the pathway in mottled patches of shadow.

Eldred Lenox walked close to his wife, one hand resting on the crupper
behind her.  The man's intensity of feeling did not rise readily to the
surface; and a certain proud sensitiveness, the cardinal weakness of
big natures, withheld him from the full expression of an emotion to
which she could not adequately respond.  He was content to wait, and
hope; and in the meanwhile, he walked at her side wrapt in the mere joy
of possession; one of the strongest, yet least recognised passions of a
man's heart.  From time to time he glanced at her attentively; and each
glance strengthened his faith in that which had come upon him, sudden
as an earthquake, and no less subversive of ancient landmarks, of
confirmed prejudices and convictions in regard to the woman element in
man's life.

For Quita Lenox, though far from beautiful, in the accepted sense, was
undeniably good to look at.  Coils of soft hair, golden in the sun,
brown in the shade; eyes neither grey nor green, intensified by
unusually large pupils, and by brows and lashes almost black; a
straight nose, low at the root; a mouth too long, too mobile for
beauty, its emotional quality safeguarded by an uncompromising chin,
completed a face whose charm lay in no particular excellence of
details; but in the vivid spirit,--quick to see, to feel, to
understand,--that informed and harmonised a somewhat contradictory
whole.  An abiding sense of humour, hovering about her lips and in her
eyes, kept the world sane and sweet for her, and leavened her whole
outlook on life.  A minor quality completed her charm.  By virtue of
the French blood in her veins, she imparted, even to the simplest
garments, an air of distinction, of exquisite finish, to which an
Englishwoman rarely attains.

At three-and-twenty Quita Lenox was very artist, though not, as yet,
very woman.  The complex Ego, which is the keystone of Art, had not
been tested and dominated by the great simple forces, which are the
keystone of life.

But her husband was in no mood to analyse her appearance, or her charm.
He wanted beyond all things to know what was passing in her mind, and
because his own thoughts were too passionate for utterance, he waited
for her to speak.  But for the first time in his knowledge of her, he
waited in vain.  Protracted silence on her part was a phenomenon so
unusual, that at length he turned to her definitely, a shadow of
misgiving in his clear Northern eyes.

"Are you thinking over it all very seriously . . . now that it is done
past undoing?"

He smiled in speaking, and she met his look with her accustomed
frankness.

"And if I am . . . ?  Surely that service gives one food for
reflection.  I had not so much as looked at it since early days when
curiosity impelled me to read it through; and weddings have never been
in my line.  As a matter of fact, I was thinking just then what
unaccountable creatures we men and women are!  How we ponder, and
debate, and fuss over trifles, and then plunge headlong past the big
turning-points of life, without a thought of the consequences lurking
round the corner.  Which doesn't mean that you and I need spell our
consequences with a capital C, or label them tragic in advance," she
added with a laugh.  "For honestly, it seems to me that a rising
artist, and a rising explorer, both devout worshippers of the eternal
hills, may reasonably expect to possess many ideas and interests in
common: and those are the bricks out of which two people build their
House of Happiness, _n'est-ce pas, mon ami_?"

"Yes; if you choose to leave mutual trust, and mutual devotion, out on
the doorstep."

"I don't choose: only, they are not the bricks, Eldred.  One is the
foundation-stone; and the other,--the other is a great mysterious
Something, that transforms the House into an enchanted palace.  But we
must be content to begin with the House,--do you see?"

"Yes--I see.  I am abundantly content to begin on any terms."

Something in the man's tone impelled her to lean outward a little, so
that her shoulder rested lightly against the arm passed behind her.

"You are much too good to me, dear," she said softly.  "I don't think
one could possibly live with you and fail to love you.  That is why I
have dared to take the risk."

He did not answer in words, nor did he give her the kiss she half
expected; but his hand deserted the crupper, and the mule pricked a
velvet ear at the check in his progress.  Then Quita straightened
herself, as if reasserting her cherished independence.

"After all, it is more interesting, in some ways, not to have
everything cut and dried from the start," she went on, striking off at
a tangent, with an innate perversity incomprehensible to a mere man.
"It prevents a headlong fall into the commonplace: and there is a
certain excitement in looking on, so to speak, at one's own personal
drama, without feeling quite sure of its developments."

Lenox knitted his brows.  He could not always keep pace with her more
fantastic moods.

"Quita, are you talking nonsense?" he asked with a touch of irritation.

"No."

"Well, I wish you were.  I don't like that sort of attitude towards
serious things; and I don't understand what you mean about looking on
at one's own life.  It sounds brutally detached, not to say
egotistical."

"That is because you only climb mountains and handle men, _mon cher_,
instead of trying to paint them, or translate them into verse.  You are
spared the artist's complication of a dual personality; of two souls
imprisoned in one body; the one who enjoys, and loves, and suffers; and
the one who looks on, and picks every emotion to pieces.  I am afraid
the one you disapprove of has had the upper hand in me so far.  Perhaps
it is your mission to develop the other into a healthier state of
activity."

"I hope to Heaven it may be," her husband answered fervently.  "The
present state of things strikes me as a trifle inhuman."

"But indeed I am not inhuman!  Only . . . we have still a good deal to
learn about one another, Eldred, although we are man and wife.  You
confess to an amazing ignorance of women; while my own varied
experience of men has lain chiefly among 'the sayers of words'; and one
can hardly class you under that heading!"

"Good Lord, no!  I should hope not."

Quita threw up her head and laughed outright.

"Really, Eldred, you are delightful!"

"Glad to hear it," Lenox replied, a shade of sarcasm in his tone.
"It's the first time I have been accused of such a thing."

He quickened his pace; and she, divining a slight jar in the
atmosphere, said no more.  The supreme art in human intercourse is the
art of punctuation, and in the long pause that ensued, silence
accomplished her perfect work.

Higher up they emerged on an open space of roadway, where the pines
came abruptly to an end; and the path shelved sheer from its broken
railing to the Visp Valley below.  Instinctively Quita drew rein and
drank in every detail of the vision before her with the wordless
satisfaction that is the hall-mark of the true Nature-worshipper.
Lenox stood quietly at her side, his gaze riveted on her face.  He had
seen many mountains, giants among their kind; but never till now had he
beheld the glory of them reflected in a woman's eyes.  At that moment
they seemed the only sentient things in a world of rock, and snow, and
sunshine.  It was as if the round earth, and the pillars thereof, had
been made for them, and them alone.

Above the road a weather-beaten hut struck an isolated note of life,
and across the valley Matterhorn towered,--solitary, superb,--his
rugged head and shoulders thrust heavenward through a diaphanous scarf
of cloud.  Suddenly Quita Lenox fronted her husband, and his face
softened to a smile that hovered in the eyes an appreciable time before
it reached his lips.

"_À la bonheur_!" she said, smiling back at him.  "We will break our
journey here.  You can tether 'Modestina' to that stump.  I must do a
rough sketch of this, and put in notes for colouring, while you sit
beside me and smoke, and talk.  When it's complete, I'll present it to
you as a memento of to-day.  Will that suit you?"

"Rather!"

He lifted her from the saddle, in defiance of her laughing protest,
and, holding her at arm's length, looked long and steadily into her
eyes, as though he would reach and capture, by force of will, the
elusive spirit that lived in their depths.

It was in these rare moments of revelation that Quita was troubled by a
disconcerting sense of exchanging false coin for gold.  She tried to
free herself from his grasp; and the colour deepened in her cheeks.

"Eldred,--let me go!" she said, with something less than her wonted
assurance.  "It frightens me when you look right into me like that."

"Frightens you?  Dearest, . . . what nonsense!"  But for once he
disregarded her behest.

"It's not nonsense.  It makes me see too clearly the chained-up forces
hidden under that surface quietness of yours.  I think you might be
rather terrible if they ever broke loose."

He laughed abruptly, and let her go.

"I keep them chained up, I promise you: and they are never likely to do
you any harm.  Now, begin upon your picture, and don't alarm yourself
about nothing."

She watched him thoughtfully as he led "Modestina" away, and tethered
her to a pine stump.  It needed small discernment to perceive that the
equitable poise of his character rested upon the noiseless conviction
that he was a man, and a gentleman: and it seemed to her that she did
well to feel proud of her husband.

With which satisfying conviction she settled herself upon a slab of a
rock, whipped out the sketch-book, that hung permanently in a flat
leather bag at her waist, and plunged headlong into her picture.  For
in her case, impression and expression were almost simultaneous: the
most distinctive quality of her work being the rapidity and certainty
with which she produced her effects.

Lenox, returning, extended his firmly-knit length of figure on the
sloping ground near by, and flung aside his cap; thus revealing more
clearly the rugged contour of his head, and the black hair whose
obstinate ripple no amount of brushing could subdue.  With leisurely
deliberation he filled his pipe, and surrendered himself to the
enchantment of the hour, before it slipped from him into the region of
accomplished things.  And it is this very evanescence, this rainbow
quality of our hill-top moments, that adds such poignant intensity to
their charm.

Much of their brief courtship had been spent in such wordless
companionship: the man smoking beside her, with, or without, a book,
while she worked; and he never wearied of watching that abiding
miracle, a picture springing to life under an artist's fingers.

"You're not likely to give up this sort of thing, I suppose?" he asked
suddenly; and she turned upon him with blank astonishment in her eyes.

"Give it up? . . .  You might as well ask if I shall ever give up
seeing, or hearing, or feeling.  It is a part of me.  You don't want me
to give it up, do you?"

"Far from it.  I was merely thinking that it seems suicidal for an
artist of your quality to bury herself alive in a little Frontier
station, on the edge of a desert, more than a hundred miles from
anywhere."

"Rubbish!  It simply means a new range of subjects for my brush.  Tell
me a little about it, please.  I like to try and picture things in
advance; and I am lamentably ignorant about this remarkable Frontier
Force, to which I now have the honour to belong.  Are we all on the
wrong side of the Indus, always?"

"Yes, for ever and ever; except when we get away on leave."

"And then we go camping and climbing in the far hills beyond Kashmir,
don't we?"

"Yes, invariably!  For the rest of the time we keep 'cave' along six
hundred miles of heart-breaking Border country."

"In other words, you are watch-dogs guarding the gates of an Empire?"

"That sounds far more imposing; and it's no less true.  We are also
actively engaged in helping the Indian Government to cultivate friendly
relations with the tribes at the point of the bayonet!"

"And don't the tribes respond?"

"Yes, vigorously, to the tune of bullets and cold steel; so that we
manage to keep things pretty lively between us!  Since we annexed the
Frontier, nearly forty years ago, the Piffers have taken part in more
than thirty Border expeditions, all told, to say nothing of the Afghan
War."

Quita's attention had been diverted from her picture to her husband's
face.

"You get your fill of fighting at that rate," she said, "And I think
you must be rather magnificent when you are fighting, Eldred."

Lenox shrugged his shoulders, and laughed.

"I'm a keen soldier, if that's what you're driving at: and I believe
the world holds no finer school for character than constant active
service."

"I confess I never thought of looking at war in that light!  But I can
well believe it, if its horrors and hardships turn out many men . . .
like you."

Words and tone set the man's pulses in commotion.  But he clenched his
teeth upon his pipe-stem, and ignored the personal allusion.

"Well, you can see for yourself, when you get there.  Taking 'em all
round, I think you'll find the Piffers as fine a set of fellows as you
could wish to meet anywhere; and it's hard work, and hard conditions of
life, that thrash them into shape."

"And the stations, where I am to be 'buried alive' in such good
company?"

"I'm afraid the stations are the least satisfactory part of the
programme.  There are five of them along our north-west strip of
desert; all more or less hopeless to get at.  We play general post
among them every two or three years, to avoid stagnation and keep the
men fit.  Just now my battery's quartered at Dera Ghazee Khan, a
God-forsaken place, right down by Scindh.  I don't know how I have the
cheek to think of taking you there."

"But if I refuse to be left behind . . . ?"

"Well, of course . . . in that case . . ."  His eyes, looking up into
hers, completed the sentence.

"I'm not a 'society woman,' remember; and setting aside your
companionship, I should prefer a 'God-forsaken place' on the Indian
Frontier to St. John's Wood or Upper Tooting, any day!  I am prepared
to find it all very interesting."

"So you may, at the start.  But the interest is likely to wear thin
after the first few years of it."

"Well, perhaps by that time we shall have arrived at the enchanted
palace, and then nothing else will matter at all!--There now; I've done
all I can to my sketch for the present.  Shall we go on?"

Lenox roused himself, not without reluctance, and they went on
accordingly.

Towards the summit, trees grew rare: and they found the solitary hotel
perched aloft, upon an open space; a hive of restless shifting human
life, set in the midst of the changeless hills.

After a short interview with the manager's wife, they found themselves
alone again, in the private sitting-room engaged by Lenox.  A wood fire
burned merrily in the open hearth, for September evenings are chilly at
that altitude; and the windows, looking westward, gave generous
admittance to a flood of afternoon sunlight.

Eldred, standing on the hearth-rug, surveyed all things in an access of
silent satisfaction; while Quita moved lightly to and fro, frankly
interested in details.

"Oh, how I love the cleanness and emptiness of these Swiss rooms!" she
exclaimed at last.  "They make one feel so unspeakably wholesome and
good.  And we are actually going to have dinner here, you and I?  Just
our two selves!  How strange!"

On a sudden impulse she came close to him, and standing before him,
took the lapels of his coat, one in each hand.

"Eldred, . . . I don't seem able to take it in at all!  Other brides
have so much of external paraphernalia to emphasise the fact they have
closed one chapter of life, and begun another.  But except for that
dreamlike half-hour in church, you and I seem merely to have come away
together for an everyday outing; and there is nothing anywhere, . . .
except this,"--she lifted the third finger of her left hand,--"to make
me realise that we are actually . . . married."

She spoke the last word under her breath; and almost before it was out,
he had caught her to himself, and kissed her fervently, again and again.

"Does that help you to realise it a little better, . . . my wife?" he
whispered; and for answer she drew in a long breath that was almost a
sob.  He released her at once; and as she faced him, flushed and
breathless, he saw that tears stood in her eyes.

"Why, . . . why did you never . . . kiss me . . . like that before?"
she asked very low.

"God knows I have wanted to, a hundred times," he answered.  "But I
think I was afraid you might . . . hate it.  Why do you ask, though?
Would it have made any difference between us if I had?"

"I can't tell; . . . oh, I can't tell!  Only . . . you have been so
restrained, so unlike an . . . ordinary lover, that I never dreamed it
could mean as much to you . . . as all that . . ."  She pulled herself
together with an effort.  "Now I am going to take off my things," she
said.  "Don't come, please.  I want to get away by myself."

A moment later he stood alone, between the sunlight and the firelight,
gazing blankly at the door that hid her from view; and wondering
whether he had advanced or retarded matters by his unpremeditated flash
of self-revelation.




II.

  "A turn, and we stand in the heart of things."
        --Browning.


When Eldred Lenox sailed from India six months earlier, he would have
scouted as impossible the suggestion that he might bring a wife back
with him on his return: and his uncompromising avoidance of women, from
boyhood upward, had seemed to justify him in his assurance.  But Nature
is inexorable.  She has her own methods of accomplishing those things
that are necessary to a man's salvation; and behold in three months the
impossible had come to pass.  The giant Mirabeau was right:--"_ce bête
de mot_" ought by now to be struck out of our dictionaries.

Lenox knew little of half measures: and, having succumbed,--in spite of
himself, in spite of inherent prejudices and convictions,--he succumbed
heart and soul.  That which he had unduly scorned, he now unduly
exalted.  Only Time and the woman could lead him into the Middle Way,
which is the way of truth.  For beneath the surface hardness of the
Scot lurked the fire, the imaginative force, the proud sensitiveness of
the Celt: a heritage from his Cornish mother, whose untimely death had
left her two younger sons in the hands of a bachelor uncle, of red-hot
Calvinistic views.  Their father--a man of an altogether different
stamp--had met his boys on rare occasions, and ardently desired to know
more of them: but an Afghan knife had ended his career before he could
find leisure to complete their acquaintance.  The history of
Anglo-India is one long chronicle of such minor tragedies.

Thus fire-eating Jock Lenox had exercised iron rule over his charges,
unhampered by parental interference: had reared them in an
unquestioning fear of God, and an unquestioning distrust of more than
half His creatures; had impressed upon them, in season and out of
season, that woman was the one fatal element in a man's life, the
author of nine-tenths of its tragedy, complexity, and crime.

Yet "one touch of Nature" had annulled, in three months, the work of
twenty years.  So much for education!

For a while Lenox stood motionless where his wife had left him, as
though life itself were suspended until her return: for despite the
glory of autumn sunshine, of leaping flames upon the hearth, the room,
robbed of her presence, seemed colourless, dead.

Then, as the minutes passed and she did not reappear, restlessness took
possession of him; sure sign that he was very deeply moved.  He crossed
to the open window, but even the colossal calm of the mountains failed
to quell the tumult of passion in his veins.  Her last words left him
anxious.  There could be no peace till he had interpreted them to his
full satisfaction; and the power of interpreting a woman's words could
not be reckoned among his attributes.

Suddenly it occurred to him that he had pocketed two unopened envelopes
before starting for church.  He drew them out; rather because he needed
some definite occupation, than because he felt curious as to their
contents.  Men of his type are rarely overburdened with correspondents.

The first was a business letter.  He read it with scant attention, and
returned it to his breast-pocket.  The second envelope bore the
handwriting of his senior subaltern, now in England on short leave.
The two men were close friends; but Eldred's last letter had been
written four months ago; and the envelope in his hand contained
Richardson's tardy response.  He broke the seal with a smile at thought
of his subaltern's astonishment when he should learn the truth.  The
letter was longer than usual; and in glancing through it hurriedly, the
name Miss Maurice caught his eye.  "Great Scott!" he muttered aloud;
then, with quickened interest, began upon the second page, ignoring the
opening.

"Wonder if you have run across the Maurices in Zermatt," wrote Max
Richardson, with no faintest prevision of the circumstances in which
the thoughtless lines would be read by his friend.  "Artists both of
them, brother and sister; and a rather remarkable couple, I'm told.
She seems to have made a hit at the Academy; and the cousins I'm
staying with are very keen about her.  I happened to mention that I was
writing to a chap in Zermatt, and they begged me to ask if you had
heard or seen anything of this Miss Maurice.  There's a bit of a
romance about her; that's what has pricked their interest.  Seems she
was engaged to Sir Roger Bennet this season.  A swell in the Art patron
line.  Lost his heart at first sight.  But evidently on closer
acquaintance found her rather a handful, and too much of a Bohemian to
suit his British taste!  At all events there was a flare-up over
something about three months ago, and Sir Roger backed out, politely
but definitely.  It seems that Miss Maurice was a good deal cut up.
Went off to Zermatt with her brother.  And now rumour has it that she
is engaged, if not married, to some other chap out there, I suppose by
way of a gentle intimation to Sir Roger that he hasn't broken her
heart.  My cousins are eaten up with curiosity to know if it's true.
Women appear to be capable of that sort of thing.  But it strikes a
mere man as playing rather low down on a luckless devil who has done
her no harm: and I don't envy him his hasty bargain, or the repenting
at leisure that's bound to follow.  Lord, what fools we men are!  And
how easily we lose our heads over a woman!  All except you--the Great
Invulnerable, looking down upon our folly from the superior height of a
snow-peak. . . ."

Lenox read no further.  The last words enraged him, like a blow between
the eyes, and set the blood hammering in his temples.  It would seem,
at times, that Fate selects with fiendish nicety the psychological
moment when her arrows will strike deepest, and stick fastest.  Thus,
when his thirst was at its height, Lenox found the cup dashed from his
lips; and that by the hand of his best friend:--a master-stroke of
Olympian comedy.

With a curse he flung the letter on to the table.

Wounded love, wounded pride, and baulked desire so clashed in him that
clear thought was impossible.  He only knew that he had been
deliberately deceived, the most intolerable knowledge to a man
incapable of deceit: and with the knowledge all the natural savage in
him sprang to life.  If Richardson had appeared before him in the
flesh, it is doubtful whether he could have stayed his hand: the more
so, since he believed that the man had written the truth: that this
girl--whom it seemed that he had wooed with quite unnecessary
reverence--had taken the best he could give, and utilised it as a mere
salve for her wounded vanity.

He understood now why her heart had proved more difficult of access
than her hand.  He had believed it unawakened; had dreamed, as lovers
will, of warming it into life with the fire of his own great love: and
lo, he found himself forestalled by this execrable man in England.
Clearly he had been a fool;--an infatuated fool!  He stabbed himself
with the epithet: and a vivid memory of his uncle's stock cynicisms
turned the knife in the wound.  All the prejudices and tenets of his
youth rushed back upon him now: an avenging host, mocking at his
discomfiture; narrowing his judgment; blinding him to the woman's point
of view.

And while he still stood battling with himself in a vain effort to
regain his shaken self-control, the bedroom door opened, and his wife
came quickly towards him.

His changed aspect arrested her: and the sight of her facing him thus,
with the sunlight in her eyes and on her hair, her young purity of
outline emphasised by the simplicity of her dress, so stirred his
senses, that, in defiance of pride, the whole heart of him went out to
her, claiming her for his own.  But it is at just such crises that
habit reveals itself as the hand of steel in a silken glove; and before
she could open her lips, Jock Lenox had stretched out a ghostly arm
from his grave in Aberdeen, and shut to the door of his nephew's heart.

Quita glanced hurriedly from the discarded letter to her husband's face.

"My dear, . . . what has gone wrong?  You look terrible.  Have you had
bad news?"

The irony of the question brought a smile to his lips.

"Yes.  I have had bad news.  Read it for yourself."  And he pushed the
letter towards her.

"Why?  Who is it from?"

"A friend of mine, in England, who seems to know a good deal more about
you than I do."

"What on earth do you mean?" she asked sharply.

"You know well enough what I mean.  Read that letter if your memory
needs refreshing."

Her first instinct was indignant refusal.  Then curiosity conquered.
Besides, she wanted above all things to gain time: and while she read,
her husband watched her keenly, with God knows what of forlorn hope at
his heart.

But a twisted truth is more formidable than a lie; and intuition warned
Quita that Lenox was in no mood to appreciate the fine shades of
distinction between the literal facts and Max Richardson's free
translation of the same.  His frankly masculine comments fired her
cheeks; and at the sight Lenox could restrain himself no longer.

"By Heaven!  You care for that fellow still!" he broke out hotly.  "And
you had the effrontery to take those solemn words on your lips this
morning, with the love of . . . another man in your heart!"

Quita Lenox, whatever her failings, lacked neither spirit nor courage.
She threw back her head, and faced his anger bravely.

"How dare you say such things to me?  I . . . don't care for him.  I--I
hate him!"

"Proof conclusive.  Indifference kills hatred.  No doubt you wanted to
convince yourself, and him, that you were indifferent; and to that end
you must needs crucify the first man who comes handy.  An admirable
sample of feminine justice!"

"Eldred, . . . you have no right to speak like that.  I won't hear you."

"I have every right; and you shall hear me.  It was one thing to know
that you could not give me all I wanted at the start.  One hoped to set
that right, in time.  But to accept me because another man's defection
had piqued your vanity, . . .  God knows how you could dare to do it!
I see now why you found me unlike an ordinary lover.  No doubt that
other fellow--curse him--took full advantage of his privileged
position: while to me you seemed a thing so sacred that I hardly dared
lay a hand on you.  I might have known that a man who is fool enough to
put a woman on a pedestal, is bound to pay a long price for his folly."

He was lashing himself more mercilessly than he lashed her: and in the
torment of his spirit he did not pause to consider the possible effect
of his words on a recklessly impulsive woman.

"Really . . . you are insufferable!" she retorted, her breath coming
short and quick.  "I have a little pride also; and you had better stop
before you push me too far.  For I tell you frankly, I don't care
enough for you to stand this sort of treatment at your hands."

The counter-stroke stung like a lash.  The lines about his mouth
hardened, and he straightened himself sharply.

"Pity you were not more frank with me twenty-four hours ago.  Then we
might both have been spared this morning's ironical service.  However,
the thing is done now. . . ."

"Indeed, it's not done!" she flashed out defiantly.  "I have no notion
of being your wife on sufferance, I assure you.  We are only on the
threshold as yet.  We need not go a step farther unless we choose.  And
after what you have said to me, . . .  I do not choose."

For an instant the man was stunned into silence; then, in a desperate
impulse, took a step towards her.

"Quita, . . . you don't realise what you are saying?  Nothing can alter
the fact that we are man and wife, now and always."

She motioned him from her with an imperious gesture.

"Don't touch me, please.  I do realise, perfectly, that we are not free
to make any more dangerous experiments.  But we are at least free to
live and work independently of one another.  Of course I know that you
can compel me to remain with you,"--her colour deepened on the
words.--"But I know also that you have too much chivalry, too much
pride, to force yourself upon me against my wish."

"By God, yes!" he answered from between his teeth.  "And . . . what is
your wish, may I ask?"

For the first time she hesitated, and lowered her eyes.

"I believe our wishes are identical," she said.

"No need to trouble about mine.  You can put them out of court
altogether."

His tone spurred her to instant decision.

"My wish is to go back to Zermatt at once, by the funicular; and . . .
that we should not see one another again.  I will accept nothing from
you.  I can earn my own living, as I have done till now.  Thank God,
Michael is too blessedly Bohemian to make a fuss, or be horrified at
things.  He will simply be overjoyed to get me back."

She turned from him hastily; and he stood, like a man paralysed,
watching her go.  On the threshold of the bedroom door she looked back.

"Don't think of writing to me, or of trying to patch up a
reconciliation between us," she said on a softened note.  "Mended
things are never reliable.  I can neither forget nor forgive what you
have said to me to-day, and when you have had time to think things
over, you will probably feel thankful that I had the courage to leave
you."

The soft closing of the door roused him, and he sprang forward with her
name on his lips.  Then Pride gripped him; Pride, and the habit of
self-mastery hammered into him by his redoubtable uncle.  The fact that
our spirits thus live and work, deathlessly, in the lives and hearts of
those with whom we have come into contact, is a form of immortality too
seldom recognised by man.

In the silence that followed, Lenox looked blankly round the empty
room:--the room where they should have spent their first evening
together.  Then the irony, the finality of it all, overwhelmed him, and
he sank upon the nearest chair.  "What have I done? . . .  My God, what
have I done?" he breathed aloud.  And it is characteristic of the man
that, for all his grinding sense of injury, he blamed himself more
bitterly than he blamed his wife.

His eye fell on the letter, which, had it contained a bombshell, could
scarce have wrought more damage in so short a space of time.  Tearing
it across and across, he flung it into the fire, and derived a gloomy
satisfaction from watching it burn.  But though paper and ink were
reduced to ashes, neither fire nor steel could annihilate the winged
words, thoughtlessly penned, that had altered the course of two lives.

Footsteps in the bedroom brought Lenox again to his feet.

He flung the door open, expecting--he knew what.

An apathetic hotel porter was removing Quita's trunk: and nothing that
had been said or done in the last half-hour had hurt him so keenly as
this insignificant item:--the touch of commonplace that levels all
things.

With a gesture he indicated his own portmanteau.  "Take that also," he
said, and strode out of the room.

At least he had the right to shield her from comment.  To all
appearance they must leave the place together!  and he settled his
account with the smiling manageress, adding simply: "Madame has had bad
news."

He took a later train down the hill; deposited his trunk in a hotel
bedroom; and spent his wedding-night under the stars; walking,
ceaselessly, aimlessly, to deaden the ache at his heart.

Next morning he despatched half a dozen lines to Richardson disowning
all knowledge of Miss Maurice's concerns: and three weeks later he
sailed from Brindisi without seeing his wife again.




BOOK I.--AFTER FIVE YEARS.


CHAPTER I.

  "I, who am Love, burn with too fierce a fire,
  Even if I only pass and touch the soul,
  Life is not long enough to heal the wound.
  I pass, but my touch for ever leaves its mark.
  I, who am Love, burn with too fierce a fire."
        --Turkish Song.


Max Richardson lifted the "chick," paused on the threshold, and
surveyed the empty room.

A bachelor's room, in a frontier bungalow, boasts little of beauty,
less of luxury.  The legend of Anglo-India--"Here to-day, and gone
to-morrow"--is visible on its nail-disfigured walls, battered camp
chairs and tables, supplemented by chance purchases from the "effects"
of brother officers, retired, or untimely hurried out of "the day, and
the dust, and the ecstasy."

To the observer for whom one hint of human revelation outweighs in
value a warehouseful of inexpressive furniture, a room of this type
holds one superlative interest.  It is an index of character no less
infallible than its owner's face.  Its salient features may tell the
same tale as a dozen others in the same station--the tale of a soldier
going to and fro in a land of unrest.  But its minor details reveal the
man beneath the uniform.

There is as much individuality after all in a soldier as in any other
specimen of God's handiwork; even though tradition and the War Office
compel him to an external suggestion of having been turned out by the
dozen.

The ramshackle room whereon Eldred Lenox had set his seal differed in
one notable respect from others of its type.  It contained no picture
either of a woman or a horse.  The dingy white wall was relieved by
groups of barbarous weapons--Thibetan daggers, a pair of wicked-looking
kookries, the jezail and Brown Bess of Border tribesmen, and the
murderous Afghan knife, whose triangular two-foot blade has disfigured
too many British uniforms.

In peaceful contrast to these trophies were one or two rough sketches
of the mountain regions beyond Kashmir; desolate stretches of glacier
and moraine, or groups of stately peaks, the colouring washed in with a
singular sureness of touch.  There were also maps, finely executed by
hand, of Thibet and Central Asia.  To these fresh names and markings
were added, from time to time, with a thrill of satisfaction only to be
gauged by the man for whom the waste places of earth are a goodly
heritage, and who would sooner contribute a new name to the world's
atlas than rule a kingdom.  Higher up the twenty-foot walls, heads of
sambhur, markor, and the lesser deer of the Himalayas showed dimly in
the light of one lowered lamp.  Skins of bear and leopard, and one or
two costly Persian prayer-rugs, partially hid the groundwork of dusty
matting, taken over with the bungalow from its former occupant, and in
places revealing the stone floor beneath.  The broad mantel-shelf was
given over to books, a motley crowd in divers stages of dilapidation.
'The Master of Ballantrae' shouldered 'The Queen's Regulations,' one
would fancy with a swaggering hint of scorn; a battered copy of the
'Pilgrim's Progress' stood resignedly between Bogle's 'Mission to
Thibet' and a technical handbook on Topography, the whole row being
propped into position at one end by a great brown tobacco-jar, and at
the other by a bronze image of the Buddha in cross-legged meditation--a
memento of Lenox's latest expedition to Thibet.

The solitary lamp, its green shade set at a rakish angle, stood upon a
spacious writing-table, strewn with closely written sheets of foolscap,
pens, pencils, pipes, and books of reference, half a dozen of these
last being piled on the floor, close to the writer's chair.  It was the
table of a man who leaves his work reluctantly, leaves it in such a
fashion that he can take it up again exactly where he left off, without
wasting precious time upon preliminaries.

On Lenox's bare deck-lounge a bull terrier, of powerful build and
uncompromising ugliness, slept soundly, nose to tail, and on one of the
costly prayer-rugs his Pathan bearer slept also.  The deep, even
breathing of dog and man formed a murmurous duet in the twilight
stillness.

All these things Max Richardson noted, with a twinkle of amusement in
his blue eyes.  Every detail of the room spoke to him eloquently of the
man he had not seen for a year.  Since his departure on furlough the
battery had changed stations, marching across sixty miles of sand
desert from Bunnoo to Dera Ishmael Khan, familiarly known as "Dera
Dismal," a straggling station a few miles beyond the Indus.

Richardson had arrived from Bombay late that evening, just in time to
change and hurry across to the station mess.  To his surprise Lenox had
not put in an appearance at the mess table, and Richardson,
anticipating fever,--the curse of frontier life,--had left early,
inquired the way to his Commandant's bungalow, and now stood on the
threshold, scarcely able to believe the evidence of his senses.
Strange developments must have taken place during his absence, if
Lenox--the woman-hater, the confirmed recluse--were actually dining out.

He approached the snoring Pathan and roused him, not ungently, with the
toe of his boot.  The native sprang up, fumbled at his disarranged
turban, salaamed deeply, and finally stood upright, a splendid figure
of a man, six feet of him, if his peaked turban were taken into
account--hard, wiry, with aquiline features, grey beard, and eyes keen
as a sword-thrust; a man without knowledge of fear, cunning and
implacable in hatred, but staunchly devoted to the Englishman he
served, who, in his eyes, was the first of living men.

"The Captain Sahib--where is he?" Richardson demanded in the vernacular.

"At Desmond Sahib's bungalow for dinner.  By eleven o'clock he
returneth.  Your Honour will await his coming?"

"Decidedly."

Zyarulla turned up the lamp, and proceeded to set whisky, soda-water,
and a tumbler among his master's scattered papers.  Brutus, at the
sound of a remembered voice, tapped the cane chair vigorously with his
stump of a tail, without offering to relinquish the one comfortable
seat in the room.  Richardson sat down beside him, caressed the strong
ugly head, and lit a cigar.

The Pathan withdrew, leaving him alone with the dog and the whisky
bottle, from which he helped himself liberally.  Then, drawing one of
the closely written sheets of paper towards him, he fell to reading it
with interest and attention.  It was a minute geographical record of a
recent journey through tracts of mountain country hitherto unexplored,
a journey which had gained Lenox the letters C.I.E. after his name.
Richardson, while failing to emulate the older man's zeal for
wanderings that cut him off for months together from intercourse with
his kind, was yet keenly interested in their practical outcome.

The stronger light in which he now sat revealed him as a big fair man,
by no means ill-featured, his soldierly figure emphasised by the gunner
mess-dress of those days, with its high scarlet waistcoat and profusion
of round gilt buttons, in each of which twin flames winked and
sparkled.  A suggestion of kindly, uncritical contentment with things
in general pervaded his face and bearing.  The blue eyes were rarely
serious for long together; the mouth, under a neatly trimmed moustache,
showed no harsh lines, no traces of past conflict.  Had the great
Overseer of men's destinies not seen fit to guide him to the Frontier,
out of reach of demoralising influences, it is doubtful whether he
would have escaped the trail of the petticoat, the snare of the
grass-widow in determined search of amusement.  As it was, he had
passed through the critical twenties with a clean defaulter sheet; had
established himself as a good soldier and a good comrade, a
"friend-making, everywhere friend-finding soul," and the closest among
these was the Commandant of his battery--a wholesome and pleasant state
of things for both.

He was beginning to weary of geographical detail, when steps sounded in
the verandah, and he was on his feet as Lenox came in.

"Hullo, Dick!  Good man to wait for me!  Thought I should have seen you
before mess, though.  What do you mean by not coming here straight?"

"None of my fault, old chap.  We were delayed as usual crossing that
blamed old Indus.  Stuck on a sandbank for over an hour.  Gives a
fellow time to count up his sins and renounce the devil, eh?  Expected
to find you at mess, of course.  I wasn't prepared for this sort of
upheaval in the natural order of things!"

Lenox stooped to caress Brutus, who was urgently demanding attention.

"Upheavals belong to the natural order of things," he said quietly.
"The world would come to a standstill without them.  Light a fresh
cheroot, and fill up."

He indicated the chair vacated by Brutus, sat down by the
writing-table, and picking up a pipe proceeded to clean it out with
scrupulous care.  Richardson watched him the while, his face grown
suddenly thoughtful.  Once he leaned forward, as though he had some
urgent matter to communicate, but apparently changed his mind, and
spoke conversationally between puffs at his cigar.

"Zyarulla said you were at the Desmonds.  Is that the cavalry Desmond,
the V.C. chap, whose wife was shot by a brute of a Ghazi four years
ago?"

"Yes;--a hideous affair.  Yet, in the face of his second marriage, one
can hardly call it a misfortune.  It was one of those evils that had
far better happen to a man than not--that's a fact; and there are a
good many such on this amazing planet."

"Sounds a bit brutal, though, when the murder of a man's wife is in
question."

"Facts are apt to be brutal; even facts relating to the holy estate of
matrimony!"  Lenox's tone had an edge to it, and Richardson somewhat
hastily shifted to another aspect of the subject.

"You are really intimate with these Desmonds,--both of them?"

"Yes.  Both of them.  I dine there about once a-week, just myself and
Desmond's inseparable pal, Wyndham, who is over there most days.  You
must call at once.  She is Colonel Meredith's sister, a magnificent
woman in every way."

"A miraculous one, I should say, to have dragged such an adjective out
of you!"

Lenox smiled.  "No.  Only one of the right sort.  The sort that makes
fine sons.  She has one already; splendid little chap.  The three of
'em are off to Dalhousie early in May, and they have just persuaded me
to spend my two months there instead of beyond Kashmir.  Mrs Desmond
has a misguided notion that I am knocking myself to bits over my work
in the interior."

"Deuced sensible woman!" laughed Richardson.  "It'll give me the
greatest pleasure in life to shake hands with her."

"Come and do it to-morrow then.  I'll go along with you."

While he talked Lenox had filled a long German pipe with a bowl of
generous dimensions.  Now he set a match to it, and as the first blue
clouds curled upward a peculiarly aromatic fragrance filled the room.

"That stuff of yours is A1," Richardson remarked, with an appreciative
sniff.  "Pretty costly, I suppose?"

"Yes.  My one extravagance.  A special brand that I get out from home,
a big batch at a time.  Nothing like it for settling a man's nerves in
the small hours."

"Do you still sit up over that sort of thing till the small hours?"

"Yes, most nights.  What moonshine are you bothering your head about
now?"

"Strikes me that sleeplessness of yours must be becoming serious.  You
look several degrees less fit than you did a year ago, and that's
saying a good deal."

Lenox took his pipe from between his teeth, and regarded his subaltern
steadily for a few seconds.

"When I need medical advice I'll send for Courtenay," he said, a hint
of authority in his bantering tone.  "We were discussing tobacco, and a
woman; and the conjunction reminds me of an inspired German proverb I
happened on the other day.  'God made man first; then He made woman;
then He felt so sorry for man that He made--tobacco.'  Supreme, isn't
it?"

Lenox chuckled with keen appreciation over the characteristically
Teuton bit of cynicism, and Richardson laughed aloud.

"Rather rough on woman, that.  You might almost have originated it
yourself."

"Wish I had.  I'd be proud of it.  Stick to tobacco, Dick, and you'll
never be tempted to blow your brains out.  You may take my word for it,
that jar of Arcadian mixture," he specified it with his pipe-stem, "is
worth all the women in creation put together."

The bitterness that of late years had so puzzled and distressed his
friend sounded again in his tone, and the laughter went out of
Richardson's eyes.

But Lenox, absorbed in his own reflections, noticed nothing.

"Let's hear what you've been doing with yourself at home, Dick," he
said suddenly.  "You're not coherent on paper.  I want a few facts.
You went abroad latterly, didn't you?  Toboganning, and that sort of
thing, I suppose?"

"Yes; went with those cousins I told you of--to Zermatt."

"Delectable spot," Lenox remarked drily, his eyes on the bowl of his
pipe.  "Hope you enjoyed yourself there?"

"Yes, rather so.  Had a rattling good time."  Then he leaned forward
again, elbows on knees.  "Look here, Lenox, old chap; I'm no hand at
skirting round a subject, and I feel bound to tell you that I know now
. . . what happened there five years ago."

Lenox started so violently that the pipe dropped from his hand.  A
minimum of sleep and a maximum of tobacco do not tend to steady a man's
nerve.

"How the devil d'you come to do that?" he asked, picking up his fallen
treasure, and readjusting its contents.

"Well, you see, I happened to be with my cousins when they found out
about it.  Queer what a deal of trouble some women will take just to
satisfy a bit of curiosity."

"Damn their curiosity!" Lenox muttered between his teeth, adding
something hastily, "You can spare me the details.  Nothing stands a
chance against a woman's passion for other people's affairs.  Very
straight of you to speak out at once.  Don't allude to it again,
though;--that's all."

"But, Lenox," Richardson persisted, not without misgiving, for it is
ill work tampering with the reserve of a Scot, "there's just one
question I want to ask you, and I think I have a right to know the
truth.  I remember writing a certain letter to you that autumn; a
rather disparaging letter about--Miss Maurice."  The name tripped him
up, and he reddened.  "I beg your pardon; I ought to say Mrs Lenox,
though she still paints under the other name."

"Say Miss Maurice, then, by all means," Lenox answered coldly.  "She is
welcome to call herself what she pleases so far as I am concerned.  Go
on."

"I want to know when that letter reached you."

"On the afternoon of the day--I was married."

"Good Lord!" the other ejaculated blankly.  "And all that I wrote
of,--was it news to you?"

Lenox nodded without looking up.

"My dear fellow, for God's sake don't tell me that a thoughtless letter
of mine was responsible----"

Lenox rose and went over to the mantelpiece.  The full light on his
face was more than he cared about just then.

"You asked for the truth," he said, in a hard, even voice, "and--you
have made a clean shot at it.  We separated that day.  I have neither
seen nor heard of her since."

A long silence followed this bald statement of the case.  Max
Richardson had no words in which to express the pain he felt.  Brutus
arose, and rubbed himself against his master's legs, as if dimly aware
that sympathy of some sort was required of him, and the regular beat of
the sentry's footsteps asserted itself in the stillness.

At last Richardson spoke.  "Wonder you cared about shaking hands with
me again after that."

Lenox came nearer, and took him by the shoulder.

"My dear good Dick," he said quietly, "don't talk rubbish; and oblige
me by putting the whole affair out of your head.  It's as dead as a
door-nail.  Has been these five years.  After all, you were simply an
instrument--a providential instrument," he added grimly--"in the
general scheme of things."  He paused for a moment; then returned to
his station on the hearth-rug.

"You say she has been painting under her own name.  Has she been doing
much in that line lately?"

"Yes.  She has made great strides.  Her Academy pictures fetched high
prices last year."

"I am glad of that."

The words were spoken with such grave politeness that Richardson looked
up as if suspecting sarcasm.  But the other's face was inscrutable.
"Do you happen to know where she is at present?" he asked, after a
pause.

"No.  I believe she and her brother travel about Europe.  They never
came back to England.  That's what made my cousins feel sure there was
something behind."

"Yes, naturally."  Then, with an abrupt return to his usual manner, he
added, "Now, old chap, I'm going to send you packing, and get to work.
Deuced glad to have you back again.  Hodson's a slacker of the
slackest.  We shan't keep _him_ up here much longer, I fancy.  Border
notions of work don't agree with his delicate digestion!  See you again
at early parade:--sharp up to time."

And as Richardson's footsteps died into silence, Eldred Lenox went
slowly back to the writing-table.

The past five years had not dealt tenderly with this man of surface
hardness and repressed sensibilities.  The black hair at his temples
was too freely powdered with silver, the lines between his brows, and
about his well-formed mouth and jaw, were too deeply indented for a man
of five-and-thirty.  The whole rugged face of him was only saved from
harshness by a humorous kindliness in the keen blue eyes, that had
measured distance and faced death with an equal deliberation; and by a
forehead whose breadth made the whole face vivid with intellect and
power.  He looked ten years older than the inwardly exultant bridegroom
who had stood upon that sunlit road outside Zermatt, waiting to take
possession of the woman he had won.

The attempt to relieve bitterness of spirit with the stimulant of
incessant work, and the questionable sedative of tobacco strongly
tinctured with opium, was already producing its insidious, inevitable
result--was, in truth, threatening to undermine an iron constitution
while failing conspicuously to achieve the end in view.

After sitting for twenty minutes before a blank sheet of foolscap,
Lenox gave up all further effort at mental concentration.  A nostalgia
of vast untenanted spaces was upon him,--of those great glacier regions
where a man could stand alone with God and the universe, could shake
himself free from the fret of personal desire.  And he had agreed to
forgo this--the one real rest and refreshment life afforded him,--to
"suffer gladly" the insistent trivialities of hill-station life,
merely, forsooth, because a woman had asked it of him.  He
anathematised himself for an inconsistent weak-minded fool.  But he had
no intention of breaking his promise to Mrs Desmond.

Since work was out of the question, he pushed his chair back
impatiently, left the table, and flung out both arms with a gesture of
desperate weariness.  Yet sleep was far from him, and he knew it;
unless he chose to induce it by the only means ready to his hand.

And to-night he did so choose.  In general he had steeled himself to
resist the temptation to smoke no more than was needed to quicken and
clarify thought.  But the short talk with Richardson had set all his
over-strained nerves on edge.  His sum of sleep in the past week did
not amount to twenty-four hours, and for once in a way oblivion must be
purchased at any cost.

Going over to the tall tobacco-jar that supported his library, he
refilled his pouch with cool deliberation, stretched himself out upon
the deck-lounge, and smoked pipe after pipe, till the portion of the
drug contained in each accumulated to a perceptible dose.  Then the
great Dream Compeller took pity upon him, deadening thought, feeling,
consciousness itself, till the pipe fell from between his fingers,--and
he slept.




CHAPTER II.

  "And, at each turn, it seemed as though
  Fate some huge net round both did throw
  To stay their feet, and dim their sight."
        --W. Morris.


Three weeks later, on a diamond-bright morning of early May, Eldred
Lenox was in the saddle, riding at a foot's pace along a strip of a
path that links the Strawberry Bank Hotel with Dalhousie's central
hill.  Brutus trotted soberly to heel, while Shaitan--a black Galloway,
half Biluch, half Arab--tossed an impatient head, sneezed several times
in succession, and generally declared his intention of taking matters
into his own hands, so soon as he should reach the broader expanse of
Terah Mall.  But Lenox, impelled by an inbred desire to climb, was
minded to push on to the higher, emptier levels of Bakrota--the great
hill that towered, formidable, directly ahead of him.  For the
chalet-like dwellings of Dalhousie are scattered sparsely over three
hills, Bakrota, Terah, Potrain; and the summit of the last and lowest
is crowned by Strawberry Bank Hotel, mainly the resort of captains and
subalterns from the four plains stations of the district, doing their
two months of signalling, Garrison Class, or of unadulterated loafing,
as the case may be.

Lenox himself came under none of these headings.  The man had a trick
of refusing to be classed collectively, soldier though he was; a trick
of isolation, inbred, unconscious, the outcome, perhaps, of much
solitary wandering, of intimate association with the uttermost hills.
It was as if they had imparted to him something of their own
ruggedness, their aloofness, their stoical power of endurance.

A cheery little breeze stirred the branches of horse-chestnuts and
rhododendrons, tossed the silver-backed foliage of the ilex, and set
the cedar boughs swaying with slow, dignified indolence.  Hidden within
their depths of shadow, birds and monkeys twittered and chattered; and
at intervals there came to Lenox the peculiar long-drawn note with
which the hill villagers call to one another across the valleys.  An
infectious spirit of jubilation pervaded the air.  The sun himself, in
these cheerful latitudes, is transformed from an instrument of torture
to the golden-locked hero of Norse and Greek legend; and with every
step of the ascent Lenox felt the blood course more swiftly through his
veins.

Ilex and rhododendrons, clustering close to the road's edge, shut off
the vast prospect on his left; till, at an abrupt turn of the road,
they gave place to a watercourse, descending in a cataract of boulders
to the valley below.  Then the glorious company of the mountains sprang
suddenly into view, lifting scarred heads to heaven, and greeting the
new day with a Te Deum audible to the spirit, if not to the ear itself.
To the spirit of Eldred Lenox these outward symbols of the eternal
verities, fit emblems of the stern faith in which he had been reared,
spoke with no uncertain voice; and their message was a message of
aspiration, of conquest, of the iron self-mastery and self-restraint
indispensable to both.  They reminded him, also, that life held many
good gifts in atonement for the one gift denied; that a man might do
worse than live and work unhindered by the volcanic forces of passion.

The past five years had, after all, been years of fruitful service to
the great country he loved; the three letters after his name assured
him of that.  And there remained much more to be done in the same
direction; work that would make unstinted demands upon his energy and
fortitude; work that must, in due time, force him to forget.

Arrived on the Mall, with its far-reaching view of valley and hill, and
its outcrop of glittering granite, a word of encouragement set Shaitan
into a smart canter that brought them speedily to the half-way corner,
whence a densely shadowed road climbs upward to the great forest of
Kalatope.  The glimpse of sun-splashed path and red pine-stems drew
Lenox aside from the open Mall; and horse and rider passed into the
stretch of scented coolness at a brisk trot.  The path, little more
than six feet wide, was innocent of railing.  But much riding in the
Himalayas hardens the nerves to these tight-rope performances, which
are part and parcel of life in the hills.

For a while they went steadily forward, well content; till, on rounding
a sharp corner, Shaitan stopped dead, his forefeet firmly planted on
the roadway, his sensitive ears thrust forward; and Lenox, who had
fallen into an absorbing train of thought, found himself confronted by
a sufficiently startling reality.

The path ahead of him was blocked by the unwieldy forms of five
buffaloes, in charge of a naked brown wisp of humanity four feet high,
armed with a no more formidable weapon than a pine branch stripped of
its needles.  But the crux of the situation lay in the fact that,
between the fourth and fifth buffaloes an Englishwoman, in a brown
habit, mounted on a restive chestnut pony, was in imminent danger of
slipping off the road to certain death among the rocks and boulders
below.  For the chestnut had succeeded in wrenching his hindquarters
outward, his heels were already over the edge, and his rider, leaning
well forward, was applying whip and spur with a coolness and vigour
that could not fail to excite the man's admiration.

It was a matter of seconds: Lenox could not stop to calculate possible
risks.  Buffaloes and herd-boy scattered right and left before his
furious onset.  A swinging blow from his hunting-crop sent two of the
bulky beasts scrambling up the inner slope, while Brutus, who found the
situation all that heart of dog could desire, sent a third crashing
over the khud to the accompaniment of shrill lamentations from the
terrified child in charge.

The whole thing passed in a flash; the pony, by a frantic but futile
effort to right himself, had just sent a shower of loose stones
rattling from under his hind feet, when Lenox, dismounting, gripped the
cheek-strap with one hand, the other being occupied with his own reins.

A vigorous forward pull landed the chestnut, panting and quivering,
with all four feet on terra firma.  But the rider's right arm had
fallen limply to her side, and Lenox, looking up, for the first time,
into a face deeply shadowed by a wide-brimmed helmet, recognised . . .
his wife.

Her breath was still coming In small, quick gasps; but there was no
shadow of fear in her eyes; no lightest tremor about her close-set lips.

"Great God!  _You_!" he ejaculated under his breath, and involuntarily
took a backward step away from her.

At the shock of their encountering glances her cheeks flamed, and she
lowered her lids.

"I suppose I may say thank you for that," she said, and her voice shook
ever so little.  "A minute later, I should have gone over."

He nodded, keeping his teeth close, his eyes down; and a deadweight of
silence fell between them.

Small sounds became suddenly self-assertive.  The rustle of squirrels
along the pine-stems, the monotonous music of the cuckoo, varied by a
charge of toy pistol-shots when an inexperienced monkey alighted on a
dead twig.  Brutus, standing squarely between them, eyed each in turn
with critical speculation, his ugly head cocked very much to one side.
He instinctively mistrusted all wearers of petticoats, and had found
the buffalo incident very much more to his taste.

At length, in desperation, Quita made a movement as if to pass on.  But
Lenox laid a peremptory hand upon her bridle.

"Tell me, how do you come to be _here_ of all impossible places on
earth?"

His voice was harder than he knew, and a slight shadow passed across
her face.

"Is it really necessary to explain?" she asked, coldly.

He relinquished her bridle at that.

"As you please, of course.  Only--it is a little awkward our being here
together; and it might be as well to come to some sort of understanding
before we separate.  Are you up here for the season?"

"Yes, we have been up all the winter, Michael and I, except for two
months at Lahore.  When the snow melted we moved to the highest cottage
on Bakrota.  It is beautiful up there.  We came out here eighteen
months ago," she went on a trifle hurriedly, grateful, now that the ice
was broken, for the relief of commonplace speech.  "I had heard a good
deal about India, you know.  I wanted to see it for myself, and if
possible put a little of it on canvas."

"And you are not disappointed?"

"No, indeed.  It is wonderful beyond words."

They had themselves well in hand now.  Each had given the other a false
impression at the start, and when two people are living at
cross-purposes it is easier to move mountains than to remove that most
intangible of all barriers, a false impression.

"And are you--up for the season?" Quita added, after a pause, with a
natural touch of hesitancy.

"No.  Two months' leave.  I am free, therefore, to go elsewhere, if my
presence here is in the least degree . . . annoying to you."

"Oh, but that would be a pity.  You must have had a special reason for
choosing Dalhousie."

"Some friends of mine were coming up, and asked me to come too.  But
they will quite understand if I say I should prefer to go shooting
beyond Chumba."

"Don't say it, though, please.  I would really rather you did not put
yourself out in the smallest degree on _my_ account.  Besides," she
added, achieving a rather uncertain smile, "we need not meet often, and
no one--except Michael--will have any notion of . . . the truth."

"Of course not," he agreed, with glacial dignity.  "I was forgetting
that you had--discarded my name."

Again the blood flew to her cheeks.

"It seemed the simplest way to avoid possible complications, or
unnecessary lies."

"And you flung away--my ring also?"

The question came out in spite of himself, for he had noted her
ungloved left hand.

"No.  Only I could not very well wear it--under the circumstances."

He stood aside now to let her pass.  He himself then mounted, and
followed her along the narrow path, raging against the irony of
circumstance, as a man bites upon a sore tooth.

On reaching the spaciousness of Bakrota Mall, he had no choice but to
ride abreast of his companion.  He did so without remark, and since
Quita lacked courage to spur her pony to a canter, they continued to
ride thus for a time; each, under an admirable mask of composure,
painfully aware of the other's presence.

Speech seemed only likely to widen the gulf between them, and at all
times Lenox had a large capacity for silence.

Not so Quita.  The last ten minutes had been overcrowded with
conflicting emotions; her husband's mute proximity got upon her nerves,
and a setting of pine and mountain put a finishing touch to an already
intolerable situation.  She turned upon him at length, with a small
gesture of defiance,--a well-remembered tilt of her chin that pierced
him like a sword-thrust.

"Don't feel bound to escort me, please.  I am constantly out alone.
You may have a long way to go; and we need hardly play at polite
conventionalities--you and I."

He glanced at her keenly for a second.

"Thanks; I am in no hurry.  But--if you would prefer it?"

"I think it would be less--uncomfortable for us both," she made answer
desperately.

"In that case, of course . . ."  He gathered up his reins, and lifted
his hat, "At least I am glad to have been of some small service to
you," he added, quietly.  And before her brain or lips could formulate
an answer, he had cantered off and vanished round a shoulder of the
hill.




CHAPTER III.

      "Flower o' the clove,
  All the Latin I construe is 'Amo, I love'!"
        --Browning.


Quita drew rein and sat motionless for several seconds, looking
straight before her.

"I wonder . . . I wonder very much," she mused, "exactly what one may
infer from all that.  Either he has superb self-control, or I have been
wiped off the slate altogether.  Most probably the latter."

Then she moved forward slowly, in a state of mind so complicated that,
for all her skill in self-analysis, she could not unravel her own
sensations.  She only knew that she felt jarred through and through,
and in a mood to give way to her most dare-devil impulses.  But happily
for her, no egregious piece of folly was ready to hand at the moment.

Her appearance in India was itself the outcome of an impulse generated
by the arrival of two cheques, whose united figures took away her
breath; and confirmed by the fact that Michael's relations with the
inevitable woman of the moment threatened serious complications--for
the woman.  For Michael himself serious complications seemed out of all
question.  Frank Pagan though he was, he lacked, in a peculiar degree,
the needful leavening of common clay.  Love, as he knew it, was not
inevitably based on passion.  It was his imagination rather than his
heart that took fire, and only under the influence of a dominant
emotion did he appear to be capable of the highest achievement.
Briefly, he was in love with Love, with that elixir of the heart that
stirs the pulses, and quickens inspiration.  The object loved stood
second.  But, so long as the enchantment held, so long as no new
impression caught and whirled him in another direction, he honestly
believed her to be supreme.

Hence complications, many and embarrassing, which went far to interpret
Quita's inconsequent flittings from one continental town to another.
For, although the younger by eighteen months, she was many years older
in thought and character than her irresponsible brother; and in all
matters of moment she took, and was expected to take, the lead.

The key to a perplexing character may often be found in the
idiosyncrasies of its nearest and dearest; and this reversal of the
natural order of things explained much in Quita that appeared
_difficile_ and contradictory; explained also her instant gravitation
to Lenox, in whom she divined a supply of moral force, and the
masculine spirit of protection, both strangely undeveloped in the
brother she so devoutly loved.  And if at times the uncongenial task of
conscience-keeper, and general financier, coupled with complexities,
arising from her own false position, had proved something of a strain
upon her, Michael had never yet discovered the fact.  She understood
and shared enough of his Pagan spirit to accept his emotional aids to
self-expression at their true value.  Do what he might, she could not
find it in her heart to be angry with him for long.  He carried his
fine crop of failings with a cheerfulness and assurance so engaging,
that it seemed almost ungracious to be aware of them.

But there were moments when the woman in her rebelled, even to
remonstrance, with small result; and when, at length, the arrival of
two cheques coincided with Michael's announcement that a certain
enamoured Countess obviously expected him to free her from the tyranny
of an unloved husband, Quita had laughingly suggested India as an
inviting means of escape from entanglements present and to come.

Half a night of meditation had sufficed to set her on the rock of
decision.  There were possibilities about India not to be named, even
to her own heart.  There were also empty spaces where white women would
be scarce, and where Michael must learn to work without the spur of a
fictitious stimulant.

Before the week was out, behold them ploughing through the
Mediterranean, leaving the misguided Countess to pacify a suspicious
husband.  A summer in Kashmir, and a winter in a deserted Himalayan
station, had confirmed Quita in the wisdom of their flight; and now her
own unnamed possibility had been sprung upon her so suddenly, so
strangely, that it took away her breath, and left her as yet neither
glad nor sorry, but profoundly disturbed.

Arrived at her own turning, she relieved her feelings a little by
getting Yorick at a canter up the twisted scrap of a path that climbed
to a wooden doll's house, christened by a poetical Hindu landlord, the
"Crow's Nest."  Perched on an impossible-looking slope of gravel and
granite, eight thousand feet above the Punjab, it seemed only to be
saved from falling headlong by an eight-foot ledge of earth, which
Quita spoke of proudly as her "garden," and which actually boasted two
strips of border aglow with early summer flowers.  Here she found her
_sais_ squatting on his heels; and springing from the saddle, dismissed
Yorick without his customary lump of sugar.

On the steps of the trellised verandah she paused, nerving herself to
recount her astonishing adventure in the right tone of voice, and
instinctively her brain noted every detail of the view outspread before
her.  The golden stillness of morning rested on hill and valley like a
benediction.  Green cornfields, white watercourses, granite
promontories, and black patches of forest--all were bathed in warmth
and light without languor.  The breath of the snows was still ice-cool,
and exhilarating as wine; its freshness penetrated and enhanced by the
faint sweet scent of Banksia roses, that clothed the rickety woodwork
in a fairy garment of green and ivory-white.  Each least sound was
crystal clear in the rarefied air; the quarrelling of two sparrows, the
high-pitched chatter from the compound behind the cottages, the
crooning of ring-doves among the pines.  Butterflies, like detached
flowers, fluttered in and out.  A faint breeze stirred the roses, so
that an occasional creamy petal fell circling to the ground.

But for the first time Quita Maurice felt out of tune with it all.  A
disturbing element had thrust itself into her life, deranging its
perspective, altering its values.  She felt badly in need of common
human sympathy, and the exalted calm of these high latitudes irritated
rather than soothed her.

With an impatient sigh she turned to enter the house.

The glass doors of the centre room stood open, a characteristic room,
half drawing-room, half studio; furnished mainly with two large easels,
painting-stools, and cane chairs, yet bearing in every detail the stamp
of Quita's iridescent personality.  A pianette, a violin, a litter of
music, and back numbers of the 'Art Journal' occupied one corner.  A
revolving bookcase showed an inviting array of books.  Her own canvas
was hidden by draperies of dull gold silk, and beside it, on a carved
stool, sprays of Banksia roses and honeysuckle soared plumelike from a
vase of beaten bronze.

Before the second easel Michael stood, with his back towards her, brush
and palette in hand, head critically tilted, his velveteen coat sagging
a little from rounded shoulders.  Absorbed in his picture, he was quite
unconscious of her presence.  This irritated her also to an
unjustifiable extent.  Her vanity had suffered recent shock, and an
unreasoning longing possessed her to be cared for, to be supremely
needed.

"_Michel_!" she cried imperatively from her post in the
doorway,--Michael objected strongly to the harsher pronunciation of his
name; and the two seldom spoke English when alone.  "Is it necessary to
fire a salute before you will deign to be aware that one has come back?"

At that he turned quickly about, and treated her to a burlesque bow of
apology.

"_Mais non, chérie_ . . . a thousand pardons!  But it is no fault of
mine that you have the footfall of a bird!"

She laughed in spite of herself.

"Keep those sort of speeches for Miss Mayhew.  She may possibly believe
them.  It would be all the same if I had the footfall of an elephant!
Nothing short of siege-guns would distract your mind from that picture.
It has bewitched you."

"_Eh bien_!  When it is complete it will be a masterpiece," he assured
her loftily.

"No doubt!  But, in the meanwhile, it may interest you to know that
except for a genuine miracle, I should not be here at all."

"_Mon Dieu_!  But what happened?  Tell me."

Flinging aside palette and brushes, he caught her hands in his, and it
cost her an effort to preserve her lightness of tone.

"Nothing blood-curdling, since you see me without bruise or scratch.
Only Yorick and I got tangled up with a herd of buffaloes on the Kajiar
Road.  In his fright, the little fool slipped half over the khud, and
if a knight-errant had not fallen from heaven, in the nick of time, we
should both be lying somewhere in the valley by now, 'spoiling a patch
of Indian corn'!"

Maurice frowned.  "Don't be gruesome, Quita."

"Sorry.  I didn't mean to be.  I was only quoting that uncannily clever
Kipling boy at Lahore.  Yorick and I were slithering over, just like
the loathly Tertium Quid on the Mushobra Road; and there is plenty of
Indian corn in the valley!  I thought of it, all in a flash, and it
wasn't enlivening, I assure you."

"That is enough," Maurice protested hastily.  Tragedy oppressed him to
the verge of annoyance.  "But tell me--who was the knight-errant, that
I may at least shake hands with him."

The blood tingled in Quita's cheeks, and she went quickly forward into
the room.

"I doubt if you will want to do that when you know his name," she said.
"It was--Captain Lenox."

"_Nom de Dieu_!  That fellow!"  Michael flung out his hands with a
dramatic gesture of despair.  "What is he doing here, _par exemple_,
instead of poking about among his glaciers?  _Now_ I suppose he will
not rest till he has taken you from me again."

The frank selfishness of the man's first thought was so characteristic
that Quita smiled.  But her smile had an edge to it.

"Set your mind at rest on that point," she said.  "He is no more
anxious to claim--his property, than I am to be claimed."

"Curse him!  Did he dare to tell you so?"

Quita lifted her head; a spark of anger flashed in her eyes.

"You seem to forget that he is a gentleman, and--my husband."  Then,
recovering herself, she added more gently, "There are ways and ways of
telling things, _mon cher_, and since I have relieved your anxiety, we
need not mention him again.  The subject is distasteful to me.  Now, I
want to see how you have got on with the masterpiece!"

She went to the easel; and Maurice, following, stood at her elbow
anticipating the sweet savour of praise.  For the picture was a notable
bit of work, daringly simple in colouring and design, yet arresting,
convincing, alive.

It represented a young girl, with the promise of womanhood on her
gravely sweet lips, and in the depths of her eyes, half-sitting upon
the crossed rails of the verandah.  An ivory-white dress of Indian silk
fell in shimmering folds to her feet.  A dawn of clear amber made a
tender background to the dull gold of her hair.  Trailing sprays of the
rose that ran riot over the house drooped towards her; and a pine
branch, striking in abruptly, made an effective splash of shadow in an
atmosphere palpitating with the promise of fuller light.  The only
intense bit of colour in the picture was the violet blue of Elsie
Mayhew's eyes--eyes that looked into you and through you to some
dream-world unsullied by the disconcerting realities of life, which
seemed only awaiting the given moment to rush in and dispel the dream.
For, as the sky gave promise of fuller light, so did the girl's spirit
seem hovering on the verge of fuller knowledge.

Such at least was Quita's thought, as she stood silently appraising her
brother's work; and it brought a contraction to her throat, a stinging
sensation to her eyeballs.

"I congratulate you, Michel," said she softly.  "You have never done
anything to equal that.  It is more than a portrait.  It is an
interpretation, or will be, when it is complete.  Her hopeless little
'Button Quail' of a mother won't understand it in the least, but
Colonel Mayhew will.  I wonder if you know yourself how much you have
put into it?"

"I know that I have put some superlative workmanship into it," he
answered, looking upon the creation of his hand and brains with
critical grey-green eyes, curiously out of keeping with an ill-formed
and unrestrained mouth.

"Indeed you have.  The thing is full of atmosphere, and your flesh
tints are worthy of Perugino.  You mean to give it to her?"

"_Cela va sans dire_.  She wants it as a present for her father."

"Why not hang it first, at Home?"

"Afterwards, perhaps.  If she permits."

"It is a big gift, Michel.  It would fetch a high price; and we need
money."

Michael shrugged his shoulders with all an artist's scorn of "the
common drudge."

"Since when have you turned commercialist, _petite soeur_?  If it is a
question of starving, I can always paint another.  I do not sell this
one, _voilà tout_.  If it were only mine, I would have five lines of
Swinburne under it for title.  They express her to perfection.  Listen--

  'Her flower-soft lips were meek and passionate,
  For love upon them like a shadow sat,
  Patient, a foreseen vision of sweet things,
  A dream with eyes fast shut and plumeless wings,
  That know not what man's love or life shall be.'"


On the last line his voice deepened to an impassioned tone that brought
an anxious crease to Quita's forehead.

"I wonder which you are most in love with," she said on a forced note
of lightness.  "The girl herself, or your picture of her?  Do you ever
treat her to such rhapsodies in the flesh?  They must be a little
embarrassing for a child of twenty!"

"Your 'child of twenty' is already very much a woman, and I have the
right to say to her what I please."

"Not altogether, _mon ami_--unless----"

But Michael dismissed criticism as serenely as he dismissed
consequences.  The episode of the Countess was as though it had never
been.

"I have no concern with 'unless.'  Such uncomfortable words are wiped
out of my vocabulary.  They affect me like a false note in music."

Quita laughed.  "No one knows that better than I do!  But speaking
simply as a woman, I know also that the man who opens our eyes to the
passionate side of things involves himself in a big moral
responsibility.  And even _you_ cannot shelve the moralities
altogether."

"_Dela dépend_.  If the moralities hamper one's art, the shelf is the
best place for them in my opinion."

His sister did not answer at once.  Michael's confession of faith was
not a matter to be lightly dismissed; for the simple reason that he
lived up to it in so far as human inconsistency will allow any man to
live up to his faith, however ignoble.

"I sometimes wonder whether one's art really does gain by that form of
freedom," she said thoughtfully, "or only--one's consuming egotism."

But the suggestion was rank heresy, and Michael would have none of it.

"Really, Quita, you are as enlivening as a Lenten service!  Upon my
soul, I'd sooner you turned vegetarian than developed a conscience!
But believe me, I am devoted to Miss Mayhew.  She is enchanting.  A
wild rose, half-open, with the dew still on her petals.
Metaphorically, I am at her feet.  Does that satisfy you, _ma belle_?"

"It might, if I had not heard a good deal of it before.  You are
chronically devoted to one or other of us, my beloved Pagan!  That's
the root of the difficulty."

In atonement for directness of speech, she laid hands upon his
shoulders, and smiled very tenderly into his face.

"I am chronically devoted to you, _coeur de mon coeur_," he declared in
all sincerity.  "That is the only form of it I have yet known."

His reward was a butterfly kiss between the eyebrows.

"Out of your own mouth you stand condemned!  It is quite charming for
me; and for the rest--one accepts the unavoidable!  But in sober
prosaic truth, Michel, Elsie Mayhew is a great deal too good for you;
and that nice Engineer boy, Mr Malcolm, is desperately in earnest about
her, I have seen his whole heart in his eyes when he looks at her----"

"_Mais, ma chère_, what a serious derangement of his organism!" Michael
broke in with irreverent laughter.  "When all's said, the heart is a
practical machine--even the heart of a lover, and a little of it must
have been left below for pumping purposes!"

She stamped her foot in helpless irritation.

"Michel, how exasperating you are!  Can't you see that I am in earnest?"

"Like my incomparable rival?" he queried unabashed.  "Poor devil!  I
wish him no harm.  Is it my fault, after all, if the lady prefers a man
who is not cut out on a pattern, and filed for reference at the War
Office?  He is immaculate, _ce cher Malcolm_, from his parting to the
toes of his boots.  And, _ma foi_, he is clean--like all that
redoubtable army of British officers--aggressively clean, inside and
out, which one cannot always say with truth!  But he has no finesse, no
_savoir faire_ where women are concerned.  If he is in earnest let him
try weapons more compelling than his _beaux yeux_.  A man was not given
lips and a pair of hands for eating and fighting merely; and if he
cannot turn them to good account, he deserves the fate that will
assuredly be his."

Quita's sigh, as she turned impatiently away, may have arisen from a
passing thought of that other, who had also been remiss in putting lips
and hands to their legitimate use, and had reaped disaster accordingly.
She took off her helmet, as if suddenly aware of its weight, and tossed
it into a chair.

"Is Miss Mayhew giving you another sitting after our sunrise picnic, on
Dynkund, to-morrow?" she asked in a changed voice.

"Yes, and I intend that she shall stay on for tiffin also."

"Then I will persuade Major Garth to follow suit, so that we may be a
_parti carré_.  And now, as it's more than half-past breakfast-time, we
might begin to think about sitting down!  I believe Major Garth is
riding up this morning with some books I lent him, and I must get
forward a little with my picture before he comes."

"His office hours seem to have become a negligible quantity lately,"
Maurice remarked casually, his eyes on Elsie's face.

"Yes, I told him so a few days ago, apparently without much effect.
Major Garth is one of those men who combine a maximum of pleasure and a
minimum of work with the capacity for securing good appointments, which
is quite an achievement--of its kind.  I suppose I must gently point
out to him that now the station is waking up it would be well to
consider the proprieties a little more than we have done so far; or the
'Button Quail' will be forbidding Elsie the house.  She is volubly
disapproving already, denounces him as a 'dangerous man' . . .
delectable adjective!  But the cackle of Quails is nothing to me.  So
long as the man behaves himself, and amuses me, I shall continue to see
just as much of him as I think fit."

Major Garth, it may be mentioned in passing, had lately secured the
coveted post of Station Staff Officer.  He also had spent the winter
months in Dalhousie; and he could by no means be reckoned among the men
who fail with women through undue fastidiousness in regard to ways and
means.




CHAPTER IV.

"A bird of the air shall carry the voice, and that which hath wings
shall tell the matter."--_Eccles_.


"Tired already?  Nonsense!  The air at this height is pure elixir
vitae.  It gives one a foretaste of the joy of being disembodied!  I
feel five years younger since I left the bungalow."

"And I, on the other hand, feel uncomfortably aware that I shall never
see the forty-third milestone again!"  And, seating himself
deliberately on the trunk of a fallen deodar, James Garth looked up at
his companion, where she stood above him on a rough-hewn block of
granite, her alpenstock held high like a shepherd's crook, the slender,
shapely form of her outlined upon a sky already athrill with the
foreknowledge of dawn.

Standing thus, lightly poised, impatient of delay, slim and upright as
a young birch-tree, a cluster of roses at her waist, her expressive
face shadowed by the wide-brimmed helmet, she appeared triumphantly,
girlishly young, for all her eight-and-twenty years.  Her cheeks
glowed; irrepressible animation sparkled in her eyes.  The shock and
jar of twenty-four hours ago seemed forgotten, as though they had never
been, for Quita Maurice was blessed with the happy faculty of living
vividly and exclusively in the present, and the exhilaration of ascent,
the prospect of watching the world's awakening from a pine-crowned
pinnacle, nine thousand feet up, were, for the moment, all-sufficing.

James Garth, in his upward glance, appraised every detail of her dress
and person; savoured to the full her very individual--if, at times,
thorn-set--charm.  He was a connoisseur of woman--of their moods, their
minor vanities, their methods of defence and attack--this man whose
career had been mainly remarkable for a succession of sentimental
friendship, innocuous and otherwise.

During the past air months he had spent an infinite deal of leisure in
a pastime whose every move and countermove he knew by heart, and for
the first time in eighteen years he had found himself out of his
reckoning.

An element little known to him had upset the balance of power.  He was
beginning to be aware that, for all his unquenchable self-assurance, he
had never for one moment felt sure of this woman, whose companionship
was so accessible, and whose inner self stood always just out of reach,
airy, impregnable, and by a natural sequence, the more entirely
desirable.  It had taken Garth some months to realise the truth: and on
this morning of golden promise he decided that Quita Maurice must be
made to realise it also.

Quita herself, meeting the eloquence of his eyes with that frank look
of hers which had been largely responsible for the unprecedented turn
of affairs, was vainly trying to repress a mischievous enjoyment of the
fact that her companion was patently out of his element; that his
drawing-room attitudes and demeanour struck an almost ludicrous note of
discord with the untamed majesty of his surroundings.

Face, figure, and point-device attire, culminating in a buttonhole of
freshly picked violets, stamped him as a man mentally and physically
addicted to the levels of life; a soldier of carpet conquests and
ball-room achievements.  A brow not ill-formed, and a bold pair of
eyes, more green than brown, suggested some measure of cultivated
intelligence, without which Quita could not have endured his
companionship for many hours together.  But the proportions of his
thick-set figure, and a certain amplitude of chin and jaw, bewrayed
him; classed him indubitably with the type for whom comfort and leisure
are the first and last words of life.  The fact that he had ascended a
matter of fifteen hundred feet before daybreak, and that with no more
than the mildest sense of martyrdom, was proof conclusive that the
balance of power had been very completely upset; and it is quite in
keeping with the delicate irony of things that the one woman who had
succeeded in upsetting it was, at that moment, dissecting him with the
merciless accuracy of the artist.

"Poor man!" she remarked, sympathetically.  "I'm afraid I have been
treating you rather mercilessly; and you don't look particularly happy
sitting on that deodar, either!  I suppose I may consider it something
of a triumph to have dragged a high priest of the arm-chair
unprotesting up to the heights at this unearthly hour of the morning?"

"A triumph exclusively your own," he answered, with lingering emphasis.
"No other woman in the world could have achieved as much."

Quita glanced at him quizzically.

"I honestly wonder," she said slowly, "if you could reckon up at random
how many times you have said that sort of thing before."

Garth reddened visibly; less at the justice of the retort than at the
humiliation of being put out of countenance by a woman from whom he
desired no less a gift than the gift of herself.

"Well, I never meant it fair and square before," he declared stoutly.
Whereat, to his consternation, she laughed outright.

"You seem to have a high opinion of my powers of credulity!  That is
too big a compliment for me to digest without salt!  But I think we
have talked nonsense enough for one while, and it's growing lighter
every minute.  Are you coming on?  Or would you sooner sit there in
peace while I push up to the top?"

The suggestion brought him to his feet.

"No, by no means.  When I set out to do a thing, I go through with it."

"Rally your forces, then, for one more spurt of climbing.  Time is
precious.  Can you really manage this formidable boulder, or would you
like a hand up?"

She laughingly flung out her free left hand; and the mockery in her
clear voice fired the man to make good his opportunity.  He took prompt
possession of the proffered hand, crushing it in his with unnecessary
force, but made no attempt to scale the rock; while she, instantly
perceiving his manoeuvre, sprang down to his side and freed herself
with imperious decision.  Then she turned upon him, her head held high,
a spark of genuine scorn in her eyes; and he realised that he was
dealing with no mere coquette, whose elusiveness might be taken as an
inverted form of encouragement, but with a woman of character and
spirit.

"Major Garth," she said in a tone of quietness more cutting than anger,
"when I pay a man the compliment of going out alone with him, I take it
for granted that he is in the habit of behaving like a gentleman.  I
should be sorry to find myself mistaken in your case."

Without giving him time to answer, she leapt lightly on to her deserted
rock, leaving him to follow, if he chose.

And he did choose.  For her scorn, while it stung his vanity to the
quick, fired his lukewarm blood with a lust of conquest far removed
from his usual cool-headed assurance at the critical moment.  He seemed
destined to experience more than one new sensation this morning; and
new sensations rarely came amiss to this epicure of the emotions.

Being quite incapable of emulating his companion's chamois method of
cutting corners, and striking out a direct line for the summit, he did
not succeed in coming up with her till the arduous feat was
accomplished,--the Pisgah height attained.  Here he found her
established on a slab of granite, hands loosely clasped over her knee,
helmet tilted a little backward, forming a halo round her head and
face.  He arrived in a very unheroic state of breathlessness, and she
greeted him with a frankly forgiving smile.

"That last bit came rather hard on you, I'm afraid.  But surely all
this makes ample amends."

She included in a wide sweep of her arm the superb panorama of hill and
valley and far-stretching plain, robed in a haze of its own tierce
breath, through which a silver network of rivers could be faintly
discerned in the crescent light.  Uprising from this blue interminable
distance, the first crumplings of the foothills showed like purple
velvet, and from these again the giant Himalayas--the "home of the
greater gods"--sprang aloft, in a medley of lovely lines and hues, till
they reached the uttermost north where the hoar head of Nanga Parbat
soared twenty-five thousand feet into the blue.

Quita motioned her companion to another rock, a little distance behind
her own.

"Sit down there, and recover your lost breath," she commanded, gently.
"I would rather not talk for the present, if you don't mind.  It would
jar somehow.  I daresay you understand what I mean."

He was many leagues removed from understanding: but he obeyed in
silence, wondering at himself, no less than at her.  And straightway
Quita forgot all about him, in the mere rapture of looking, and of
feeling in every fibre the incommunicable thrill of dawn.

A passionate nobility, freedom, and power breathed from the wide scene.
Already a pearly glimmer pulsed along the east; already the mountains
were awake and aware.  Peak beyond peak, range beyond range, a shadowy
pageant of purple and grey, they swept upwards to the far horizon,
where the still wonder of the snows shone pale and pure against the
dovelike tones of the sky.  Away across the valley, where night still
brooded, Kalatope ridge, serrated and majestic of outline, made a
massive incident of shadow amid the tenderer tints around.  The great
hushed world seemed holding its breath in expectation of a miracle--the
unconsidered miracle of dawn.

A Himalayan dawn is brief, as it is beautiful.  One after one, the
snow-peaks passed from the pallor of death to the glow of life.  Then,
sudden as an inspiration, the full splendour of morning broke, sublime
as the eternity from which it came.  Rapier-like shafts of light
pierced the purple lengths of shadows that engulfed the valley.
Threading their way through fir and deodar and pine, they flung all
their radiant length across a rock-studded carpet of fir-needles and
moss, and rested, like a caress, upon Quita's face and figure.

At last, with a long breath of satisfaction, she forced her sun-dazzled
eyes and mind back to earth; only to discover that Garth had risen and
was standing at her side.  The man had seen and studied her in many
moods.  But never in one so exalted, so self-forgetful, as the present;
and to the varied new experiences of the morning was added a wholesome
sense of his own unworthiness to lay a hand upon her.  In that
illumined moment he was vouchsafed a glimpse into the temple of Love; a
temple he had desecrated and defiled time and again; whose holy of
holies he had never entered, nor ever could.

"Does it really mean as much as all that to you?" he asked, still
watching her, with unusual concentration.

She nodded, and a soft light gleamed in her eyes.  "Yes--as much as
that, and more--infinitely more.  One's cramped mind and heart seem to
need expanding to take it all in."

Garth's smile lacked its habitual touch of cynicism.

"I am afraid even sunrise on Dynkund in your company has no power to
lift me to such flights of ecstasy."

"I never supposed it had, you poor fellow!  I wouldn't change souls
with you for half a kingdom.  Nearly every day of my life I thank the
goodness and the grace that dowered me with the spirit of an artist.
Think what a heritage it is to be eternally interested in a world full
of people who seem to be eternally bored!"

"I suppose you include me in that noble army of martyrs?"

"Decidedly.  It is one of your worst faults."

"At least I never commit it in your presence."

She laughed, and lifted her shoulders.

"At least you know how to flatter a woman!  But, for goodness' sake,
don't let's talk trivialities in the face of these stupendous
mountains."

"And why not?  In my opinion, the trivialities of a human being are
worth more than the grandeur of a mountain, any day.  But, seriously,
Miss Maurice--if you can be serious with me for five minutes--does all
this, and the Art in which you live and breathe, so satisfy you that
you feel no need for the far better things a man might have to offer
you?"

She frowned, and looked with sudden intentness at a distant, abject in
the valley.

"Yes--seriously--it does.  What is more, it seems to me that most men
set too high a value on what they have to offer a woman, and that a
good many of us are better off without it."

Garth set his teeth, and did not answer at once.  That his first
genuine attempt at a proposal of marriage should be thus cavalierly
nipped in the bud was disconcerting, to say the least of it.

"But not you--of all women," he protested, incredulously.  "Are you
quite sure you understand what I mean?  Won't you give me a chance to
explain----?"

Her low laughter maddened him.

"Oh, no--please have mercy on me!  Explanations are the root of all
evil!  If only people had not such a passion for explaining themselves,
there would be fifty per cent fewer misunderstandings in the world.
Don't you know the delightful story of a zealous mother reading the
Bible to her boy, and explaining profusely to bring it within the scope
of his small mind, and when she asked him, anxiously, 'Are you quite
sure you understand it all, darling?' he answered, with the heavenly
frankness of childhood, 'Yes, beautifully, mummy--except when you
explain.'  That's my feeling exactly; so we'll skip the explanations,
if you don't mind."

He stifled an oath, and flung his half-smoked cigar down the khud.

"You're enough to drive a sane man distracted!" he declared hotly, and
was not a little surprised at his own vehemence.

"No, no!  That's exaggeration, I assure you.  The strong wine of the
morning has got into your head.  Do be reasonable now, and keep
personalities at arm's length.  I detest them."

He moved away for a space; then, turning on his heel, came back again.

"At least you don't object to my companionship?" he said, ignoring her
request.

"Of course not, so long as it amuses you to bestow it upon me."

"Amuses me!  God in heaven, what makes you so hopelessly detached?"

"Some radical defect in me, I suppose.  The Pagan strain, perhaps, that
comes out so strong in Michael.  I believe I am incapable of _les
grandes passions_.  But that does not prevent me from being a good
friend, and a constant one, as you will find, if you care to test me in
that capacity.  Now you may sit down here," she patted her slab of rock
invitingly, "and discourse about anything you please, except myself.
Egoist though I am, I have had enough of the subject for to-day!"

And Garth--the man of surface emotions and ready tongue--found nothing
to say in answer to this kindly but inexorable dismissal of his
unspoken suit.  He had no choice but to accept the inevitable, and the
proffered seat.  But the permission to discourse about anything he
pleased left him dumb, and it was Quita herself who guided their talk
into a less personal channel.

"Have you had any new arrivals at the Strawberry Bank lately?" she
asked, conversationally; and the question was more relevant to the
tabooed topic than Garth was likely to guess.  He lived close to the
hotel, and dined there when he felt convivially disposed.

"Yes; two new fellows came up this week.  A doctor from Mooltan and a
Gunner from 'Dera Dismal,'--the Thibet man,--Lenox, who seems to be
making a reputation of sorts.  But he looks a wreck.  Smokes like a
chimney; and is apparently working himself to death; a thankless form
of folly."

"Perhaps.  Yet India needs a few unsparing workers--like Captain Lenox."

She spoke with studied indifference; but her fingers were busy
uprooting a patch of moss.

"Oh yes, India has a healthy appetite for unsparing workers!  She is a
grasping harridan, who demands all and offers nothing.  She devours the
lives of men who are foolish enough to lose their hearts to her, and
wrecks their bodies by way of thanks."

Quita's lips lifted in the merest shadow of a smile.  "Aren't you a
little ungrateful to her?  She has been fairly merciful to you!"

"I have never given her the ghost of a chance to be otherwise!  I don't
believe in overwork, plus the Indian climate.  More men kill themselves
by a happy mixture of both than the importance of their achievements
justifies.  I was chaffing Lenox only last night about his leaning
towards that unrecognised form of suicide; and all the answer I got was
that a man might die of a more degrading disease.  You never by any
chance get a rise out of old Lenox!"

"Do you know him well?"

"As well as it's possible to know a fellow who lives with all his
shutters up.  And in any case an anchorite, and a woman-hater, would
never be much in my line.  The symptoms appear to have developed in the
last few years.  Not without reason, as I happen to know."

"_What_ do you happen to know?"

The question came almost in a whisper; but Garth, who had all a woman's
weakness for other people's affairs, was too intent upon his ill-gotten
scrap of gossip to observe his companion's slight change of manner.

"Why, that it's simply a case of _cherchez la femme_, as usual," he
answered, lightly.  "I believe it's a fact that he went so far as to
marry one of these women he affects to despise, when he was on leave
five years ago."

Quita started, and bit her lips.  "What reason can you have for
believing anything . . . so improbable?"

"My dear lady, marriage is never improbable.  You women have a knack of
tripping up the most unlikely subjects!  In this case, I had the
details from an old friend of mine.  She happened to be stopping at the
same hotel as Lenox at Zermatt.  Then one morning he disappeared; and,
as she had taken rather a fancy to him, she tried to find out what had
become of him.  After a good deal of questioning, it transpired that he
had been seen coming out of the English church with a lady; and further
inquiry revealed the fact that an officer named Lenox had been quietly
married there the day before.  Naturally, she scented a romance, and
was keen to know more.  But he seemed to have vanished outright.  Then
ten days later she met him on the station platform, travelling alone,
and obviously down on his luck.  He told her he was off to join his
battery in India: nothing more.  Problem: What, in the name of mystery,
had he done with the lady?"

At that Quita rose abruptly, her cheeks on fire, her whole frame tense
with suppressed agitation.

"Oh, stop--stop.  I can't stand any more!" she protested, in a
smothered voice; and at once Garth was beside her, contrite and amazed.

"Miss Maurice--what have I said to upset you so?"

"It's not your fault.  You couldn't help it," she answered, without
looking up.  "But--you were telling me my own story!"

"Good Lord!  Then--it was _you_?"

"Don't say any more, please.  I never meant to speak; only--one had to
stop you--somehow.  It's time we went back to the others now.  I am
sure you must be wanting your breakfast.  And remember"--she faced him
at last, with brave deliberation--"I trust you, as a gentleman, never
to speak of this again--to me, or to any one else."

And Garth bowed his head, and followed her, in a bewildered silence.




CHAPTER V.

"He that getteth a wife beginneth a possession; a help like unto
himself, and a pillar of rest."--_Ecclesiasticus_.


Eldred Lenox stood alone in the Desmonds' diminutive drawing-room,
patiently impatient for companionship more responsive than that of cane
chairs and tables, pictures and a piano.  Yet the room itself, with its
atmosphere of peace and refinement, gave him a foretaste of the
restfuluess that made Honor Desmond's companionship a growing necessity
to this man, whose heart and brain were in a state of civil war.  It
was filled with afternoon sunlight, with the faint, clean fragrance of
violets, wild roses, and maiden-hair fern, and its emptiness was
informed and pervaded by countless suggestions of a woman's presence; a
woman versed in that finest of all fine arts, the beautifying of daily
life.

In this era of hotels, clubs, and motors, of days spent in sowing hurry
and reaping shattered nerves, the type is growing rarer, and it will be
an ill day for England's husbands and sons, nay, for her supremacy
among nations, if it should ever become extinct.  For it is no
over-statement, but simple fact, that the women who follow, soon or
late, in the track of her victorious arms, women of Honor Desmond's
calibre--home-loving, home-making, skilled in the lore of heart and
spirit--have done fully as much to establish, strengthen, and settle
her scattered Empire as shot, or steel, or the doubtful machinations of
diplomacy.

A half-acknowledged conviction of this truth was undermining Eldred's
skin-deep cynicism; and it did not tend to alleviate his renewed sense
of loss.  A week had passed since his astounding experience on the
Kajiar Road; a week in which the hours of sleep had been a more
negligible quantity than usual; in which he had fought squarely against
an imperative need to escape from the haunting consciousness of his
wife's presence, and had been squarely beaten.  His present need to see
and speak with Honor Desmond was an ultimate confession of that defeat.

On reaching the bungalow, he was told that the Mem-sahib bad gone out
with the Chota Sahib, but would doubtless be back before long, and had
decided to await her return.  During his ride with her that morning, he
had not been able to bring himself to speak.  But this time he intended
to go through with the ordeal.  He felt too restless to sit down; and
she did not keep him waiting long.

Footsteps and low voices, punctuated with silver laughter, heralded her
coming, and a few minutes later she entered, carrying a pocket edition
of herself, who clung about her neck, and pressed a cool rose-petal
cheek against her own.

Lenox had described her as a magnificent woman.  A Scot may generally
be trusted not to overstate his facts; and certainly Honor Desmond, in
those radiant early days of marriage, deserved no less an adjective.
Height, and a buoyant stateliness of bearing, lent a regal quality to
her beauty.  Her grey-blue eyes under very level brows were the eyes of
a woman dwelling in the heart of life, not merely in its outskirts and
pleasure-grounds.

She expressed no surprise at seeing Lenox again so soon.  Come when he
might, his presence was accepted as a matter of course; the surest way
to put a man at his ease.

"So sorry I kept you waiting," she said simply, and the hand she gave
him was at once soft and strong,--an epitome of the woman.  "Theo was
lunching out with Colonel Mayhew--they are both very full of that book
of his on the Hill Tribes--and I have been devoting most of my time to
this very exacting person!"

Lenox caressed the child's red-gold hair with a cautious reverent hand,
and a contraction of envy at his heart.

"What a beautiful little chap he is!  Begins to look an out-and-out
Meredith already.  Desmond must be tremendously proud of him."

She smiled and pressed him closer.

"He is; and I'm nearly as bad!  One son, three fools, you know!  Poor
little Paul, it's not fair to call him names when he can't hit back."

"You called him after Wyndham?"

"Yes.  They're like brothers, those two.  Now let me get rid of him,
and we'll have a quiet talk till Theo comes back.  Sit down and smoke,
please."

He complied; and she, returning, established herself beside her
work-table, and took up an elaborate bit of smocking without question
or remark.

His trouble and stress of mind were very evident to her; but she was
one of those rare women who are chary of questions--who, for all their
desire to help and serve, never approach too near, or say the word too
much, which was, perhaps, one reason why men found her so restful, and
instinctively talked to her about themselves.

But Lenox was long in beginning.

By imperceptible degrees, this unsought gift of friendship was melting
the morsel of ice at his heart; was reviving in him, against his will,
that keen appreciation of a cultivated woman's sympathy and
companionship, which, among finely tempered men, is as potent a factor
in the shaping of destinies as passion, or hot-headed emotion.

For a while he permitted himself the bitter-sweet satisfaction of
merely watching her where she sat, in a shaft of sunlight, that struck
golden gleams through the burnished abundance of her hair; of noting
the grace and dignity of her pose, and speculating as to the nature of
her thoughts.  His wife's reckless impulse on that fateful September
day was bringing him now within measurable distance of a very human
danger.  The deep, passionate heart of him, crushed and stifled during
the past five years, was in no safe state to be brought into contact
with a lighted match.  But of this danger he was, by his very nature,
sublimely unaware.

Finally he took the short pipe from his lips and spoke.

"Of course you know I have something definite to say, or I should
hardly have the cheek to inflict myself on you twice in the twenty-four
hours."

She looked up and smiled.  "You're evidently in one of your bad moods,
or you would not vex me by putting it like that."

"Sorry to vex you, but I _am_ in a bad mood; have been for the last
week; so you must make allowances, I can't sleep, and a restless devil
inside me won't let me settle to steady work.  Nerves, I suppose.  I
don't look a likely subject, do I?  But they give me a deal of trouble
at times; and I came to say that I must go back on my arrangement with
you and Desmond and clear out of this before the end of the week."

"Oh, but surely that would be a great pity; a great disappointment to
us both.  Is it really a case of 'must'?"

"I think so."

"And you have only been here a fortnight!  Isn't it rather early days
to give in?"

"Very early days--as the case must appear to you; and the evil of it is
that I have no power to make things clearer.  Think me an overwrought
fool; a broken-backed corn-stalk, if you choose.  It will hurt, of
course; but it can't be helped."

He spoke with undisguised bitterness, and, laying down her work, she
looked at him straightly, a great compassion in her eyes.

"You misunderstand the fundamentals of friendship if you can talk like
that," she said gently.  "It is rooted in reticence in respect for
another's individuality.  Whatever you choose to do, you may be very
sure that I shall neither doubt your good reasons, nor seek to know
them.  That is my idea of what it means to be a friend."

"I stand rebuked," he answered gravely, "and I'm not likely to forget
what you have said."

"At the same time," she added in a lighter tone, "one is only human!
And I can't let you leave Dalhousie without a word of protest--even if
it is useless."  She hesitated.  "May I speak straight?"

"As straight as you please.  I should prefer it."

"Well, I think that if it is a case of nerves, or--worry of any kind,
nothing can be worse for you than your own society.  Such amusement as
we can offer you up here may be frivolous and insignificant enough,
but, believe me, it is far better for you just now than the most
sublime snowfields and glaciers at the back of Beyond!  You know you
are free to come here whenever you please.  Theo enjoys having you; so
do I.  And I'm sure it's good for you to fraternise with something more
human than a mountain!"

He smiled, but did not answer at once; and suddenly she lifted her
head, her face all animation.

"Look here, I have a notion--an inspired notion.  Why should not you
two get Colonel Mayhew's permission to go off on a week's shooting trip
beyond Chumba.  Ten days if you like.  Theo would love it.  You would
come back to your writing like a giant refreshed.  There now, isn't
that a plan worth thinking over?"

Moved beyond his wont, Lenox leaned impulsively towards her.

"My dear Mrs Desmond, your kindness overpowers me.  But I really can't
see that you and your husband are called upon to put yourselves out
like that, on my behalf.  You are up here to enjoy your short holiday
together; and you are rare good companions, as I know.  What right have
I to monopolise him for ten days, and leave you alone?  Why should you
care, after all, if I do go and knock myself to bits in the interior?"

"That question is unworthy of you, and doesn't deserve an answer," she
said on a note of gentle reproof.  "Mine does.  Will you do what I ask?"

"Since you ask it of me--yes.  Always supposing that it suits Desmond
to go."

"Of course it will suit him.  We will settle it when he comes in."

He leaned back in his chair, and sighed.

"You're amazingly good to me, Mrs Desmond; and I'm an ungrateful brute.
Will you overlook that, and play me something warranted to soothe
jarred nerves, till your husband comes?"

"Of course I will, gladly.  Only you mustn't expect real music from a
hireling!"

She chose one of Beethoven's most tenderly gracious Allegrettos, and
the soul of the hireling responded creditably to the magic of her touch.

But before she had played many bars a clatter of hoofs announced
Desmond's return.  He flung himself from the saddle, cleared the
verandah steps at a bound, and entered the room:--a man of magnetic
vitality, with a temperament like a clear flame; a typical officer of
that isolated force to whose gallantry and unwearied devotion to duty
India owes more than she is apt to acknowledge, or, possibly, to
perceive.  He nodded a welcome to Lenox, signed to him to remain
seated, and going straight to the piano laid a hand on his wife's
shoulder.

"Don't stop.  Finish your piece," he said, as she smiled up at him; and
he did not remove his hand, but remained standing there, in simple
satisfaction at having got back to her.

Now and again, at very rare intervals, Nature seems to select a
favoured man and woman to uphold the torch of the ideal, lest it be
reduced to sparks and smoke, to refute the cynic and the pessimist; to
hearten a world nauseated and discouraged by the eternal tragi-comedy
of marriage, with the spectacle of a human relationship of unsullied
beauty: a relationship that passes, by imperceptible degrees, from the
first antiphony of passionate hearts to a deep deliberate bliss,
"durable from the daily dust of life."

Desmond's first marriage had brought him no such revelation of the
hidden mysteries of union; no companionship worthy of the name; and the
happiness that comes late, on the heels of conflict and pain, takes a
more conscious grip on the heart, is more firmly held to, more
jealously guarded, than that which meets us on the threshold, and is
accepted as part of the natural order of things.  Blest with vivacity,
courage, and an ardent zest for Frontier soldiering, Desmond had rarely
found life other than very good; but he had only proven the full
measure of its goodness since his marriage with Honor Meredith.  And
the mouths brought increasing reliance on her comradeship; increasing
insight into the depths and delicacies of a passion that was almost
genius.  His need of her was deeper now than it had been two years ago,
when he had believed himself at the summit of desire.  For a great love
is like a great mountain-range.  Each height scaled reveals farther
heights beyond.  Attainment is no part of our programme here; and there
may well be truth in the axiom that "to travel hopefully is better than
to arrive."

But Eldred Lenox, tangled in the twofold cords of temperament and
circumstance, was denied even the privilege of travelling hopefully,
and at moments like the present he suffered the additional torment of
looking into happiness through another man's eyes.  It was futile to
reiterate the obvious drawbacks of marriage for an ambitious man,
standing on the threshold of a coveted career.  These distracting
Desmonds cheerfully and unconsciously refuted them all!  But he
accepted the thorns of the situation as toll paid for the privilege of
an intimacy he would on no account have forgone, and endured them with
the grim stoicism that was his.

The Allegretto ended, Honour swung round on her stool, and set forth
her Chumba project without reference to Eldred's threatened departure.
Desmond laughingly professed himself ready to obey orders, within
reasonable limits; and it was finally decided that he should write at
once to Colonel Mayhew, Resident of the native State in which
Dalhousie's hills are situated, and whose capital lies in a cup-shaped
valley eighteen miles below the English station.

Thereupon Lenox rose to take his leave; but on the threshold he paused,
as though an afterthought had occurred to him.

"Next time you happen to go out calling, Mrs Desmond," he said, with
studied carelessness, "you might like to look up a Miss Maurice and her
brother.  They've been here all the winter; and are living on the top
of Bakrotas.  I met them--some years ago, in Switzerland.  Artists, out
here for painting purposes--and rather out of the common run.  You
might find them interesting."

"They sound as if they would be!  Thank you for letting me know of
their existence.  I'll amuse myself by exploiting them while you two
are away."

But Lenox had no wish to expatiate upon the subject, and with a
muttered disclaimer he was gone.




CHAPTER VI.

  "I will but say what mere friends say--
    Or only a thought stronger.
  I will hold your hand as long as all may--
    Or--no very little longer."
        --Browning.


"No, I don't like her, and I don't believe I ever shall.  One cannot
deny that she is beautiful, charming, complete; too complete for my
taste.  _Cela me géne_.  I know no other way to express it."

Quita Maurice balanced herself on the railing of her matchbox verandah,
and gazed critically at the corner where the last of Honor Desmond's
_jhampannis_ had not long since disappeared from view.  Garth, the
inevitable, stood close beside her, faultlessly equipped as always,
even to the gold-tipped cigarette, and the violets that blossomed
perennially in his coat.  He grew them in pots expressly for the
purpose; and his bearer set them in a wine-glass on his breakfast-table
every morning.

Quita's verdict on her visitor moved him to a smile of half-cynical
amusement.  He enjoyed her occasional unabashed lapses into the eternal
feminine.

"I'm with you there," he answered, heartily.  "The worst fault a human
being can commit is to be faultless.  Poor Mrs Desmond!  She will have
to subsist without our admiration."

"No need to waste pity on her, _mon ami_.  I am convinced that she gets
far more admiration than is good for her as it is.  She has only been
married a little over two years, I believe, and it is safe to presume
that her husband idolises her shadow.  She is the sort of woman men put
on a pedestal, and worship kneeling; and women mostly detest, because,
in their secret hearts, they would like to be up there too!  Personally
I have no use for pedestals.  I am content to be _bon camarade_!  As
for that sublime Desmond woman, I feel morally certain that she never
commits an indiscretion, or has a knot in her shoe-lace, or loses her
scissors!"

"Are you peculiarly lenient towards those three failings?"

"I am quite culpably lenient towards the whole tribe of human failings.
They are the salt of life.  I have never really understood that
incessant harping on the mystery of pain and sin.  The question, Why
should they be allowed to exist? seems to me simply fatuous.  No world
worth living in could have been created without them.  They are the
backbone of all drama; and I love drama inordinately.  They put the
iron into men's souls, and the grit into their characters.  Think what
a nauseating crew of sentimentalists we should be,

  'If all had love, as every nest hath eggs,
  And every head of maize her feathery cap.'

I, for one, should beg to be excused from spending three-score years
and ten on a planet full of sugar-plums and kisses!"

She left her perch on the railings, and stood erect, in an unconscious
attitude of defiance; and Garth watched her speculatively through
narrowed lids.  He was wondering whether Mrs Desmond's remark that she
had persuaded Captain Lenox to go shooting beyond Chumba, instead of
deserting Dalhousie for the interior, might not be accountable for this
unusual burst of eloquence.

"I had no notion that you went in for studying big questions of that
kind," he remarked, with an amused air of interest.

"Studying them!  But no!  What call is there to study them?  I have my
ears and eyes, and my priceless intuitions.  It is enough.  An artist
will learn more about life and character with the help of those three,
than all the _savants_ in creation could imbibe from a hecatomb of
books.  Michel--where are you?  What has been keeping you so quiet
since Mrs Desmond's departure?"

Michael, who promptly appeared on the threshold, held up a large
drawing-block for his sister's inspection.

"_Voilà donc_!  _Que dis-tu_?  Is it not to the life?"

The picture was a rapid, delicate pastel study of Honor Desmond,
presenting her, as Michael had said, "to the life."  The broad brow,
the short straight nose, the strength and tenderness of the mouth and
chin, the smile that hovered like a light in her serious eyes; every
detail was faultlessly rendered.  But Quita's cry of surprise expressed
annoyance rather than admiration.

"What possessed you to do _that_?" she asked, sharply.  "It is a living
likeness--yes.  Better send it to her friend, Captain Lenox.  He would
give you a hundred and fifty rupees for it like a shot."

The instant the words were out she tingled with mortification at having
spoken them in Garth's presence.  But he assumed a critical interest in
the picture, and Michael, in the first flush of achievement, had eyes
and thoughts for nothing else.

"A hundred and fifty?  _Parbleu, non_!" he answered, hotly.  "It is a
possession, a triumph.  I do not part with it for money.  All the while
she talked to you, I never took my eyes from her face, and I struck
while the iron was hot.  _Mon Dieu, mais die est superbe_!  _C'est une
déesse veritable_!  _Rien non plus_!"

In ecstatic moments Michael deserted English altogether for the natural
language of the emotions; and Quita flashed a glance of amusement at
Garth.

"The pedestal already, you see!"

But Michael, deaf or unheeding, continued his paean of praise.

"But the head alone is not enough.  _Il faut le tout ensemble_.  _Ça
sera magnifique_.  Now at last I have the centre figure for my great
picture--Mater Triumphans.  In a day or two I call on her.  I ask her
permission to immortalise her and myself in one achievement.  No woman
in her senses could refuse so flattering a request; and her lips, her
eyes, betray that, goddess or not, she is before all things a woman."

"But, my good Michel," Quita interposed, with a deliberate lightness,
"ride your enthusiasm on the curb, I beg of you.  Isn't one goddess at
a time enough to fill your expansive heart?  I warn you that if you are
going to disgrace me by ostentatiously falling in love with this Mrs
Desmond, I shall give you up for good, and insist on a legal
separation!  Now, I am tired of idling, and it's high time I went back
to my picture."  She held out a hand to Garth.  "_À demain_," she said,
with a gracious smile of dismissal.  "But not till tea-time, please.  I
have a certain amount of work to get through every day if _you_ have
not!"

Garth's reply was conveyed to a lingering pressure of her hand.  He was
a past master in this discreet method of expressing the inexpressible;
and he had the satisfaction of seeing the colour deepen in her cheeks,
as she released herself hastily, and passed on into the house.

During a long ride homeward, Garth found time for much interested
speculation on the possible issue of events.  The situation appeared
sufficiently incomprehensible to afford scope for dramatic
developments; and he shared to the full Quita's taste for drama,
provided always that it did not deprive him of sleep, or render him
personally uncomfortable.  He shared also her magnanimous attitude
towards human shortcomings; frankly acknowledging his own, and
skilfully utilising those of other men--and women.  But bad men are as
often tripped up by the unquenchable spark of good in human nature as
good men are by the equally unquenchable spark of evil; and James Garth
was not altogether devoid of the little leaven that leavens the whole
lump.  There were even moments--and the present was one--when it
asserted itself to the detriment of his cool-headed schemes.  Generally
speaking, a husband in the background in no way disturbed his
accommodating code of morals.  But scruples, hitherto unknown, seemed
set like a hedge of defence about this girl, who was, in every respect,
so very much a woman.

For all her love of dangerous ground, her airy scorn of conventions,
she had a knack of compelling some measure of uprightness, even from so
unpromising a subject as James Garth.  Thus, bone-bred gossip though he
was, his silence in respect of her astounding revelation was assured.
Her words, "I trust you, as a gentleman," had quickened that good grain
in him, which is the saving grace of us all.  Also the knowledge itself
hurt him more than he could have believed.  It seriously upset his
equanimity for no less than a week; not indeed to the extent of
damaging his appetite, or his sleep, but enough to make her society a
distraction more bitter than sweet; enough to drive him into dining at
the Strawberry Bank Hotel, though the cuisine of that mixed
establishment compared very unfavourably with his own.

Here he naturally met Lenox, and the meeting reawakened his consuming
curiosity; awakened also those primitive savage instincts which no
surface civilisation will ever annihilate while the world holds one
woman and two men.  And how should it be accounted theft to rob a man
of that which, to all appearance, he neither possessed nor desired to
recapture?

In twenty years of philandering he had never experienced so keen a
desire for conquest; and if this inexplicable husband chose to leave
his wife in an equivocal position, he must be prepared to accept the
consequences, which are, in general, the last things that any average
man is prepared to accept.  Shrewdness and vanity alike convinced Garth
that Quita's attitude on Dynkund, viewed in the light of her subsequent
disclosure, counted for nothing; while the fact that for six months she
had readily accepted his companionship counted for much.  Her fine
sense of honour had naturally compelled her to "head him off" dangerous
ground.  But he consoled himself with the reflection that a woman's
sense of honour is rarely her strongest point.  Pit her heart against
it, and the outcome is merely a question of time.  A conviction founded
on his own complicated past!

In his esteem, then, nothing stood between him and his desire but a
poor crop of scruples, readily trampled under foot; and by a fine
stroke of irony Lenox himself completed the trampling process.  He, who
rarely took an active part in the random, unedifying talk congenial to
after-dinner "pegs" and cigars, had one night been moved to administer
advice to a rapturous subaltern, in the shape of a few trenchant
cynicisms in respect of women and marriage, bidding him not be fool
enough to run his misguided head into the noose; and the subaltern had
collapsed like a pricked air-ball.  But Garth, to his own surprise,
retorted with no little warmth; and Lenox, turning in his chair, looked
at him deliberately--a glint of steel in his eyes.

"I couldn't presume to cross swords with you, Major," he remarked, on a
quiet note of contempt.  "Your experience is as extensive as my own is
limited; and you have the good luck to be popular.  I have not.  But
that is simply a question of _métier_.  Yours is to flatter women, even
behind their backs; whilst I am blockhead enough to speak the truth
about them, even to their faces.  And the last thing a normal woman
wants from any man is--the truth."

From that moment Garth had hardened his heart.  And now--a week
later--as he rode down from the Crow's Nest, he chuckled to himself
over the satisfactory way in which Lenox was playing into his hands by
adopting an attitude that would plainly act as a foil to his own
deferentially persistent courtship; a metaphorical walking round the
walls of Jericho, that must end in capitulation, soon or late.

From his point of view, Quita's unique position of personal freedom,
coupled with legal bondage, added a distinct flavour to the whole
affair: and so well pleased was he with the aspect of things in
general, that, before reaching Potrain, he headed his pony up another
corkscrew path, that climbed to another doll's house bungalow.  Here he
spent a couple of hours, lounging in the drawing-room of one of the
lesser lights in his firmament, flattering her by a delicately conveyed
impression that he found her the only woman in the station worth
talking to.  And so, home to his own well-appointed house, where, two
hours after an irreproachable dinner, he slept the sleep of the man
whose conscience has been trained not to make inconvenient remarks.




CHAPTER VII.

  "God uses us to help each other so,
  Lending our lives out."
        --Browning.


Before May was out Honor met her unpromising acquaintance several
times, by chance.  But nothing beyond formal greetings passed between
them.  Twice she happened to be riding alone with Lenox; the third
time, her husband was with them: and on every occasion Quita's
companion was James Garth,--the only one among them all who enjoyed the
situation.  Quita herself found a perverse satisfaction, unworthy of
her best moments, in thus emphasising her indifference to her husband's
presence; ignoring, with characteristic heedlessness, the fact that a
two-edged weapon is an ill thing to handle: and Lenox, accepting her
unspoken intimation _au pied de la lettre_, steeled himself to
half-cynical, half-stoical endurance.

He had returned heartened, and fortified by a week of stirring sport,
and by closer contact with a personality wholesome and invigorating as
a hill wind; a sympathy of the practical order, that found expression
in matter-of-fact service and good fellowship, rather than in speech.
He had given up all thought of leaving the station; had decided to set
his teeth, and go through with his ordeal, sooner than disappoint these
new-found friends, who seemed already to have become a part of his
life.  Such rapid intimacies are a distinctive feature of a country
where a guest may come for a night, and stay for a month; where all
white men are brothers, in the widest sense of the word.

And Eldred Lenox did not hold with half measures.  Since he stood his
ground in order to please the Desmonds, he held himself ready to fall
in with any joint plans they might choose to make.  Thus, he agreed to
share in their arrangements for the June camp, at Kajiar,--a natural
glade hid in the heart of Kalatope Forest: and even accepted, without
demur, Colonel Mayhew's proposal to preface the 'week' with a two days'
house-party at the Chumba Residency;--a picturesque house, whose garden
of lawns, and roses, and English trees falls sheer to the eddying river
below.  The two sportsmen had spent a couple of days here on their way
back, the Resident being down in Chumba on State business; and his
suggestion had been the natural outcome of Desmond's keen interest in
the book which was his hobby of the moment.

"I must be down here then," he explained, "for the _Minjla Mèla_, a
superstitious ceremony by which we test the luck of the State for the
coming year.  An unfortunate buffalo is flung into the Ravee, just
above the rapids; and if he succumbs, or scrambles out on the far side,
the gods will not fail us.  But if he lands on the town bank, they
won't trouble their heads about us till next June.  Naturally we do our
best to prevent such a catastrophe, in spite of our conviction that the
matter is settled by the will of the gods!  As far as I know, the
ceremony is peculiar to Chumba; and this would be a good chance for you
to see it, if you don't mind a trifle of heat, and if your wife would
care to come too, so much the better."

"She'll come like a shot, thanks," Desmond answered heartily.

"Good!--We'll get up a native dinner at the Palace in honour of the
occasion.  My little girl has set her heart on the plan, rather to my
wife's dismay.  The Maurices want to come too; and we may have to
include Garth, on her account; though I confess I wanted her for
myself!  She's worth talking to, that girl.  There's a touch of genius
in her composition, and a touch of the folly that's apt to go along
with it; or she would never give the gossips a chance to couple her
name with Garth's.  If he is in earnest, so much the worse for her.--We
may count on you, Lenox, I hope?" he added, turning to the impassive
man at his side, whom he had unwittingly smitten between the joints of
his harness.

Lenox's muttered assent was a trifle indistinct, owing to the thick
pipe-stem between his teeth, and rising deliberately, he passed out of
the smoking-room into the wistaria-shadowed verandah, where the
turbulent voice of the river seemed to echo his own mood.  It was well
for himself, and for James Garth also, that he ran no risk of meeting
the man at that moment.

The thought of that first fortnight in June unnerved him.  For Colonel
Mayhew's words had done more than turn the knife in an open wound.
Lenox was blest, or curst, with that most pitiless of mentors, a Scotch
conscience.  Whatever Quita's failings, or her attitude to himself,
there could be no shelving the fact that he was her husband:--the
guardian of her good name, the one man on earth who could claim the
right to criticise her conduct.  Her probable repudiation both of his
criticism, and his right to offer it, did not, in his view, justify him
in standing aloof, if need for speech should arise.  Possibly passion,
smouldering at the heart of duty, urged him towards the desperate
experiment.  But if so, he would not admit it, even to himself.  He
merely decided--with an access of fastidious disgust at the whole
situation--to accept this fate-sent opportunity for judging how far her
behaviour warranted Colonel Mayhew's kindly concern.  For he knew
enough of Garth and his methods to feel certain that, in his case, to
covet an invitation was to procure it.

After all, he reflected bitterly, a closer acquaintance with facts
might cure him of an infatuation against which pride and inherited
instinct had rebelled ill vain: and so intricate are the mazes of
self-deception, that he firmly believed in his own desire to be cured.

It was, no doubt, solely in pursuance of this purpose that, a few days
later, he added his initials, with a wry face of resignation, to a
subscription list, proposing that the bachelors of the station should
give a ball on the third of June.  He had not seen the inside of a
ballroom for years: but since the season seemed marked for strange
experiences, this one might as well be included with the rest.  And in
the meantime, this inconsistent misogynist slept little, smoked
inordinately, and spent the greater part of his leisure at Terah
Cottage.  Perhaps this also was part of the cure!

Desmond noted the fact, not without an occasional spark of annoyance.
For all his magnanimity, the man was masculine to the core;
hot-blooded, and still very much a lover at heart.  But pride and a
boundless trust in the woman he had won had withheld him as yet from
serious comment.

Lenox dined with them on the night of the dance; and came armed with
programmes, at Honor's request.

"Are you going to give me my share before we start?" he asked, as they
shook hands.

"If I do, will you try to dance?"

He laughed abruptly.  "Not I.  It would be a sight to make angels weep!
I shall take you right away from the whole thing, and talk to
you--that's all.  Is that good enough?"

"Quite good enough!"

He scanned an open programme with perplexed interest, as though it were
an Egyptian hieroglyph.

"How long do each of these things last?" he asked, with evident
amusement.

"About twelve minutes, with the pause."

"What's the good of twelve minutes?  Can't I have them in batches,
three at a time.  Or would that be going quite out of bounds?"

Honor laughed. . . .  "I'm afraid so!  Though it would be far nicer.
But I will give you one 'batch,' and two isolated ones; and that's a
generous allowance, I assure you."

"Thanks.--I suppose Desmond takes you in to supper?"

"Yes.  It's a standing engagement!  Why don't you ask Miss Maurice?"
There was a moment of silence.

"We are not intimate enough for that," he answered, with a bad
imitation of unconcern; and Honor wondered, as she had done before now,
wherein lay the key to a curiosity-provoking situation.  But just then
Desmond joined them; and no more was said.

The moment they entered the ballroom Lenox was aware of his wife,--the
focal point in a circle of men, distributing her favours with a smiling
impartiality that was, in itself, a delicate form of coquetry, while
Garth stood sentinel beside her, with an unmistakable suggestion of 'No
Thoroughfare,' which he could assume to a nicety; and which Lenox noted
with a curse at the restrictions imposed upon civilised man.

But a second glance at Quita crowded all else out of his mind.  It was
his first sight of her in full evening dress, and he stood spellbound
by the radiant quality of her charm: a charm that triumphed over minor
imperfections of feature and form; a mental and spiritual vitality that
had deepened rather than diminished with the years.  Her dress, like
everything about her, was an instinctive expression of herself: though
Lenox, while appreciating its harmony, could not have defined it in set
terms.  He knew that it was of velvet; that it sheathed her rounded
slenderness as a rind sheathes its fruit; that the light and shade on
its surface, as she moved, reminded him of willows in a wind; that,
from shoulder to hem, the eye was nowhere checked, the simplicity of
outline nowhere marred by objectless incidents of adornment.  He noted
also that its indefinite colour was repeated in a row of aquamarines,
that glistened like drops of sea-water at her throat.

A light touch on his arm recalled him to outward things.

"Captain Lenox, where are your manners?" Honor Desmond remonstrated,
with laughter in her eyes.  "The Mayhews have just gone past, and you
looked straight through them!  Is that the way you welcome your guests?"

He muttered an incoherent apology, and fervently hoped that she had not
observed the direction of his gaze.  A vain hope, seeing that she was a
woman!

"Better get safe into the card-room before I do anything worse!" he
added uneasily.  "I'll be back for number five.  Trust me not to
forget."

As he crossed the barn of a room,--lavishly draped with bazaar bunting,
and starred with radiating bayonets,--his eyes lighted on Kenneth
Malcolm, the Engineer subaltern, whose current of courtship had been
checked by Maurice's arrival on the scene:--a boy of stalwart build;
his straight features and well-poised head justifying the sobriquet of
Apollo, bestowed upon him by an effusive admirer, whose sole reward had
been a cordial detestation.  He leaned against the wall, absently
twirling the cord of his programme; his attention centred on a corner
of the room, where Elsie Mayhew--an incarnate moonbeam of a girl--was
critically examining the pattern on her fan, while Maurice possessed
himself of her programme, and sprinkled it liberally with the letter M.
In the boy's bottled-up resentment Lenox saw a reflection of his own;
and the fact moved him to scorn rather than sympathy.

"Damned idiots, both of us!" he reflected savagely.  "A couple of dogs
whose bones have been confiscated, and we haven't even the pluck to
snarl."

The opening valse struck up as he reached the cardroom.  Without
looking directly at his wife, he saw Garth's arm encircle her waist,
saw him hold her thus, for an appreciable moment, before starting; and
sat down to the whist table with murder in his heart.

At number five he re-entered the ballroom to claim Honor Desmond for
his 'batch' of dances, and to take her, as he had said, right away from
it all.  She found him little inclined for talk; yet none the less
quick to appreciate her understanding of his mood.

"Thank you for bearing with me," he said, as they parted in one of the
many doorways opening on to the long verandah.  "I won't come in.  I am
in the humour for the profound philosophies of tobacco and the stars."

"Better companions than a mere woman!" she answered, smiling into the
gravity of his eyes.  "Don't deny it.  I have no taste for lip service."

"Nor I the smallest gift for it.  Still, truth is truth; and a good
deal depends on the quality of--the mere woman."

She vouchsafed him the stateliest shadow of a curtsey.

"I believe I shall end in converting you, after all!  Number twelve.
Don't forget."

And turning from him she saw that her husband stood a few paces off,
watching them with a thoughtful scrutiny that caught at her heart.
Gliding across the polished floor, she slipped a hand under his elbow,
and leaned close to him.

"Darling," she whispered, "I am so glad this is ours."  Without a word,
he put his arm round her, and swept her into the crowd.

For a while Lenox followed them with his eyes, as they circled smoothly
in and out among the dancers, as notable a couple as the room
contained.  Then he raked the shifting crowd for Quita's grey-green
figure,--in vain.  Neither she nor Garth was to be seen.  It needed
small perspicacity to locate them: and grinding his teeth Lenox went
out again into a night jewelled with the unnumbered bonfires of the
universe.  Striking a match, he lit his pipe, in defiance of the
knowledge that for the past few weeks he had been persistently
overstepping his self-imposed allowance, and fell to pacing the railed
path outside the building.

Was it altogether his own fault, he wondered bitterly, that he stood
thus, cut off from the core of life, breaking his teeth upon the husks
of it, and making believe that they satisfied his hunger?  In the
tragedies resulting from 'the ill-judged execution of the well-judged
plan of things,' that question flung, again and again into the
'derisive silence of eternity,' mocks the soul with echo's answer.
Where lies the blame?  Where, indeed?  For all his vaunted supremacy
man is not always master of his fate.  Circumstance, heredity, the
despicable trifle, the inexpert finger, which a certain type of human
is so zealous to thrust into an alien life, compass him about with a
cloud of witnesses to his own impotence.

With which conclusion, softened by the kindly influence of drugged
tobacco, Lenox knocked the ashes out of his pipe; and decided that
since he was here to observe his wife and Garth, and to cure himself of
an undignified infatuation, it would be well to return to the ballroom
till number twelve.

But as he moved forward a low laugh, near at hand, chained him to the
spot.  Then Quita emerged from a patch of shadow, closely followed by
Garth.  She tilted her chin, and flung a smiling threat at him over her
shoulder.

"If you can't be more reasonable, I shall cancel your remaining dances
and give them to the Riley boy."  Which announcement brought him
swiftly to her side; and Lenox failed to catch his murmured reply.
They passed on without perceiving him; and he followed . . . merely
from a sense of duty!

At one of the open doorways, that flung panels of light across the
verandah, they paused; and he paused also, a few paces off.  The
couples within were forming themselves into ordered squares.

"Lancers," she said, in a tone of distaste.

"Are you dancing them?" he asked.

"No."

"Come and sit out again, then; and I'll be as reasonable as you please."

She glanced quickly round the room, as if in search of something.

"Very well," she said: and turning on the threshold, came face to face
with her husband.

With a scarcely perceptible start, she acknowledged his grave bow of
recognition, and drew back to let him pass.  But he remained close
enough to catch what followed.

"I'd rather dance than sit out, after all," she announced, with a brisk
change of manner.

"But, dear lady, . . . why?"

She laughed.  "What a question!  I thought you pretended to know
something about women?  I claim the divine right of whim.  _Voilà,
tout_!  One can't spend the evening in explanation.  The spirit moves
me to romp.  It's infinitely more wholesome than mooning under the
stars.  All we want now is a cheery _vis-à-vis_.  Ah . . . there's
Michel.  The very man!"

She signalled across the room with her fan, and Michael came skidding
and slithering towards her, a delighted girl clinging to his arm:--a
girl in the glamour of her first season, a-thrill to her white kid
finger-tips because these rested on the sleeve of a living artist, who
had already paid her one or two chivalry-coated compliments.

"Now why the deuce did she weather-cock round like that?" Lenox
wondered, floundering in the quicksands of masculine ignorance.

But no answer suggested itself; because this woman, who was his, and
yet not his,--this woman, with her many-hued personality, rich in
subtle contradictions--was a sealed book to him, and seemed like to
remain so.  And what, after all, are the hearts that beat closest to
our own but sealed books, which we open from time to time, at random;
too often at the wrong page?  But a ballroom is no fit place for
abstract meditation.  The lust of eye and ear, the pride of life,
challenge the sense at every turn, till mere thought seems a mighty
bloodless affair.

Lenox moved back to the doorway, leaned against the woodwork, and
folding his arms, surveyed the scene before him with the apathetic
interest of the large and mystified.  The long room was crowded with
jumbled atoms of colour, like a damaged kaleidoscope; with talk and
laughter; with the whisper of sweeping skirts, and the clink of spurs.
Then the first provocative bars set every foot in motion; and the
kaleidoscope effect was complete.

Lenox,--towering isolated, amid a world of light-hearted couples,--was
aware that beneath his surface indifference there lurked a certain
shamefaced envy of these bewildering mortals who could shuffle off the
years, and revert, unabashed, to the entrancing follies of childhood;
and who could yet, in lucid intervals, grapple undismayed with
intricacies of Indian legislation, lead a forlorn hope, love and suffer
and die, if need be, with a stiff lip, and an obstinate faith in 'the
ultimate decency of things.'  For of a truth, the earth holds no more
fantastic farrago of folly and heroism than your average human being;
and musing on these things, Lenox decided that there must have been
some radical flaw in his own education.

Not twenty feet away, the General himself--the host-in-chief of the
evening--condemned, despite increasing years and girth, to the Eton
jacket of boyhood, pranced and glided with elaborate precision, and
took every opportunity of twirling plump little Mrs Mayhew almost off
her feet.  Both laughed inordinately at each repetition of the mild
joke: and if the C.B. blazing on the General's mess-jacket, and the
little lady's full-grown daughter contrasted oddly with their passing
display of childishness, both were serenely blind to the fact.

But among a hundred dancers, not one plunged more whole-heartedly into
the folly of the moment than Quita.  She had stationed herself opposite
the door where Lenox stood, and the very spirit of devilry seemed to
have entered into her, driving her to italicise every trait in herself
that must needs grate on his fastidiousness where a woman's conduct was
concerned.  Her effervescent gaiety dominated the 'set,' which speedily
degenerated into a romp till, in the third figure, an incident occurred
which partially brought her to her senses.

The room reeled and hummed with spinning circles, like living
Katherine-wheels, when Quita,--losing her precarious hold upon her
partner's coat-sleeve, and flying outward, by a natural impetus that
must have sent her crashing against the woodwork of the door,--found
herself caught, and steadied by her husband's hands at her waist.  For
a lightning instant he held her thus--breathless and throbbing, like a
bird prisoned in his grasp: then he straightened himself, and let fall
his empty hands.

"I am sorry," he muttered, barely looking at her.  "But I was afraid
you might hurt yourself."

"Thank you.  It was very stupid of me."

She left him hurriedly, red-hot vexation tingling in her cheeks: and
when next the Katherine-wheels spun about, she remained stationary,
smiling and waving her hand in answer to repeated invitations to "come
on."

Lenox remained stationary also, though the whole scene had suddenly
become hateful to him: for that moment of contact, and the rush of
colour to his wife's face, had roused him to the need for immediate
action.  Thus, when a final mad galop scattered the coherent atoms of
the kaleidoscope, he intercepted Quita and her partner, as they hurried
out to secure a favourite nook.

But the polite formula of the ballroom did not spring readily to his
lips.

"Have you a spare dance to give me?" he asked bluntly.  "Since you
evidently don't object to sitting out."

His tone had in it more of demand than of request, an effect heightened
by his deliberate omission of her name; and against his will annoyance
lurked in the last words.  But some men have a positive talent for
standing in their own light.

For a second or two her eyes challenged his in mute amazement.  Each
seemed trying to read the other's thought.  But pride darkens insight:
and at the critical moment a slight movement of the arm she held
reminded her of Garth's glimpse behind the scenes.  She pulled herself
together, and made an obvious feint of consulting her programme.

"If you really wanted one, you should have spoken earlier," she rebuked
him lightly.  "I'm afraid I haven't so much as half an extra to offer
you now."

He accepted his dismissal with a curt bow of acknowledgment.

"Thought I wanted to make love to her, no doubt," he reflected
savagely, as he moved away.  And she passed on into the verandah,
wondering . . . wondering why he had wanted that dance, and whether she
would have thrown some one over for him, but for Garth's opportune
reminder at her elbow.

On the opening of the next dance, Lenox sought and found Honor Desmond,
silently offered his arm, and led her through the verandah out into the
starshine,--which is a reality in India, on moonless nights.

"What a thundering relief it is to get away from it all!" he said at
length.  "Would it bother you to stroll a little way up the hill?  We
shall be crowded out here, in no time; and I must have another pipe."

"Let's stroll then, by all means.  I should enjoy it; and you know how
I love tobacco.  I saw you looking on at that dance; and I rather
envied you.  I often wish I could set aside a few dances just for
looking on, without having to make talk for any one.  People interest
me so passionately; always have done, since I can remember."

"Even Button Quails, and black-hearted woman-haters?"

"Yes.  Especially the woman-haters; because they need converting!"

"And are unconvertible," Lenox declared with a laugh.  "But don't you
ever get sickened with the deadly sameness of the whole tribe of
us,--grinding ourselves to dust in the eternal treadmill of hatred and
love, hope and despair?  Every conceivable human complication has been
repeated _ad nauseam_ since Adam made a fool of himself in the garden
of Eden."

"And through all that endless sameness, no two men and women have ever
behaved twice alike!  That's where the interest comes in, don't you
see?  To-night, for instance, Miss Maurice and that pretty child Elsie
Mayhew are both wasting their sweetness on men quite unworthy of them;
but each is doing the same thing in a fashion so entirely her own, that
it is not like looking on at the same play at all.  I am specially
concerned over the Mayhew muddle, for I believe that handsome Engineer
boy is capable of breaking his heart in earnest because Elsie has lost
hers _pro tem._,--engaging little goose that she is.  Really I
sometimes think that the man and woman puzzle is just an endless game
of cross questions and crooked answers!"

Lenox laughed again, harshly.

"That's a straight shot!" he said.  "It's a mad world; and the maddest
creature in it is the man who stakes his happiness on the state of a
woman's heart."

Honor slipped her hand from his arm.

"Really, Captain Lenox," she protested, half-laughing, half in earnest,
"that remark almost amounts to an insult!  What do you suppose Theo
would say if he heard you?"

"Wouldn't stop to pick his language," Lenox answered with a twisted
smile.  "But his testimony counts for nothing.  He has found the one
woman among a thousand, that even Solomon failed to find; and the Lord
knows he didn't judge them from hearsay!"

The sincerity underlying his bluntness brought the blood to Honor's
cheeks.  "Theo has simply found--a woman who loves him," she answered
softly.  "A discovery most men can make if they choose; even rank
heretics like you!  Will you forgive me, I wonder, if I say that I
believe the thing you really need, though you may not guess it,
is . . . a woman in your life?"

Lenox did not answer: and they walked on for a time in silence.

"Have I vexed you?" Honor asked at length.

"No.  You touched an exposed nerve.  That was all.  And I should like
you to know the truth now; or at least part of it.--Five years ago I
did take . . . a woman into my life, as you put it; and I have never
known real peace or comfort since."

Honor started, and turned upon him a face of incredulity.

"Captain Lenox!  Do you mean--have you actually--been married?"

"I actually am married, in the eyes of the law, at least.  What's more,
my wife is here, in Dalhousie, in that cursed ballroom,--with neither
my name nor my ring to protect her--playing the fool for the amusement
or perdition of another chap.  You spoke of her a minute ago.  I need
hardly say more, need I?"

"No, no.  I understand it all now," she murmured, deeply moved.  "Then
that was why you wanted to go away last month?"

"Yes."

"And I stupidly made things harder, in my blind zeal to help you?"

"No, indeed.  You simply convinced me, without suspecting it, that it
would be cowardly to bolt at sight.  Besides, it would have amounted to
an open confession that--one cared."

"And don't you--care?"

Lenox clenched his teeth upon an inarticulate sound; and his amber
mouthpiece snapped like a stick of sealing-wax.  He took the pipe from
his mouth; eyed it ruefully, and slipped it into his breast-pocket.

"A good friend gone," he muttered.  "And all on account of a woman who
doesn't care a snap of the fingers whether one is alive or dead."

"In my opinion that remains to be proved."

"Does it?  Isn't her conduct with that confounded ladykiller proof
enough to convince you?"

"No."

"Well, then, look here.  Ten minutes ago I went so far as to ask her
for a dance.  She gave me the snub direct: and she'll not get a chance
to refuse another request of mine--that's certain."

Honor's lips lifted at the corners.

"I wonder what tone of voice you asked her in?" was all she said.

"Quite the wrong one, no doubt.  I was in no humour for going on my
knees.  But she knew right enough that I wouldn't have risked refusal,
unless I was very keen on the dance."

"All the same, you _will_ give her another chance.  You must.  No act
of folly on her part can make it right for you to leave her in such a
false position."

"The position was her own choice,--not mine."

"One could guess as much.  Yet the fact remains that she is--yours, to
make or mar: and it seems to me no less than your duty to pocket your
pride, and save her from her own foolishness in spite of herself."

Lenox drew an audible breath, like a man in pain.

"You do know how to hit between the eyes," he said very low.  "But--I
have suffered enough at her hands."

"And has she suffered nothing--at yours?"

Honor's voice was scarcely louder than his own, and her pulses throbbed
at her own daring.  Lenox stood stock-still, and looked at her.

"Upon . . my . . soul," he said slowly, "you are a stunning woman!
I . . ."

"Please don't think I meant you to answer such a question," she broke
in hurriedly, with flaming cheeks.

"Of course not.  You meant it as a reminder that there are two sides to
every question."

"Yes.  How nice of you to understand!  I have no shadow of right to
take you to task.  But when the fate of two lives seems hanging on a
thread, one dare not keep silence.--Now, I think we ought to turn back.
And I wonder if you would mind telling me a little about your wife,"
she added, with diplomatic intent to prolong his softened mood.  "She
is so charming; so individual.  But I haven't been able to get at her
at all.  She seems almost to dislike me; and I am just beginning to
guess why."

"Nonsense . . . nonsense," he protested brusquely.  "You are entirely
mistaken."

"That also remains to be proved!"

They retraced their steps down the rough path that descends from the
Mall to the Assembly Rooms, walking very slowly, as people do when
absorbed.  Honor, with all a woman's skill, imparted a flavour of
reminiscence to their talk; and no man with a spark of love in his
heart can hold out, for long, against the magic suggestiveness of
memory.  For all his guarded indifference of manner, she felt the ice
melting under her touch: and the passionate human interest, of which
she had already spoken, held her, to exclusion of such minor
trivialities as possibly distracted partners.  For this woman, the
human note,--be it never so untuneful--surpassed the sublimest music
plucked from the heart of wood or wire.

Arrived on the gravel ledge outside the building, they paused in a
shaft of light, still intent on their subject; till the inspiriting
rhythm of a polka shattered the stillness, and Honor, turning hastily,
caught sight of an erect figure in the doorway behind her.

"There's Theo.  He seems to be looking for me," she said.  "Why, we
must have talked through two dances.  Come."

But at the foot of the verandah steps Lenox held out his hand.

"The evening is ended for me.  I am going straight home, to think over
all you have said.  I'll be round by ten to-morrow.  Good-night--and
thank you."

He italicised the last words by a vigorous hand-clasp; and a moment
later she stood in the doorway, confronting her husband.  A glance at
his face put her laughing apology to flight.

"I tell you what it is, Honor," he broke out hotly, "you're going too
far altogether.  Here has Maurice been letting half Dalhousie know that
he couldn't find you anywhere; and the last dance--was mine.  Heaven
knows where you buried yourselves.  I didn't attempt to look.  Lenox
has no business to monopolise you in this way.  Woman-hater, indeed!"

"It was not _his_ fault," she flashed out, in an impulse more generous
than wise: but her blood was as quick to take fire as his own.

"Then it was yours, which is fifty times worse."

Honor lifted her head with a superb dignity of gesture.

"As you please," she said quietly.  "It is useless to attempt
explanation here, or anywhere, till you are more . . like yourself."

Returning couples were by now besieging the doorway; and she passed on
into the ballroom, her head still high, her lips compressed, lest
others should note their tendency to quiver.  A woman who loves the man
of her choice with every fibre of her being does not readily forget,
though she may forgive, his first rough words to her.

Honor was claimed at once by Kenneth Malcolm, a favourite partner, boy
though he was.  But the keen edge of her interest was blunted.  She
wanted one thing only to be alone with Theo; to set his mind at rest:
and those 'separated selves,' who drew her like nothing else on earth,
became of a sudden mere voluble obstructions between herself and her
desire.

Half an hour later she came up to him, where he stood, laughing and
talking in a group of men.

"I am tired, Theo," she said in a low tone.  "Mr Maurice is getting my
dandy for me.  But don't come away if you'd rather stop on."

Their eyes locked for an instant.

"Is that likely?" he asked, a gleam in his own.

"I don't know."

"You do know.  Look sharp and get your things on."

Michael Maurice did not hurry himself over the congenial task of
settling his _déesse véritable_ among the cushions of her dandy,--a
hybrid conveyance, half canoe, half cane lounge, slung from the
shoulders of four men, by an ingenious arrangement of straps and cross
poles.  Closer acquaintance had deepened his admiration: but a nameless
something in her manner warned him that it must not be expressed in his
usual promiscuous fashion.  She had refused, very sweetly but
decisively, the honour of appearing in his great picture.  But Desmond
had succumbed to the temptation of procuring a portrait of her and
'little Paul.'  "At the worst, I can sell a pony to pay for it," he had
said, in answer to her remonstrance.  "And I shall think it cheap at
the price!"

And now, as the dandy-bearers turned to mount the ascent, he came to
his wife's side.  She had drawn off her gloves, and one hand rested on
the woodwork of her canoe.  He covered it with his own, walking by her
thus, for a few steps, in silence: and it was enough.

"Mount now," she commanded him softly.  "And let's hurry home, I've
ever so much to tell you."

He obeyed: and they journeyed upward to familiar music of hoof-beats,
and the murmur of _jhampannies_, wrapt about by the magic of a night so
still that all the winds seemed to have gone round with the sun to the
other side of the world.

A tray set with glass and silver awaited them in the drawing-room.

Honor, entering first, slipped the long cloak from her shoulders with a
satisfied sigh, a sense of passing from the unreal to the real, which
she often experienced on returning from a dance: and underlying all, a
profound pity for the lone and ill-mated women, in a world of oddments
and misfits, who have never felt the thrill of such home-comings as
this of hers to-night.  Then she swept round, and fronted her
husband:--a gleaming figure, like a statue cut in ivory; no colour
anywhere, save the living tints of her face and eyes and hair.

"Well?" she laughed, on a low clear note of happiness.  "I hope you are
properly ashamed of yourself!"

But before the words were out, he had her in his arms; and for a
supreme moment the great illusion was theirs that they were not two,
but one, as the Book decrees.

Then she pushed him gently into a chair, and kneeling beside him drew
his arm around her, resting her head against his in a fashion
inexpressibly tender.  The natural dignity that was hers set a high
value on such sweet familiarities: and if Desmond submitted to them in
silence, it was because the man in him was too deeply moved for speech.

Then she told him, at some length, all that she had gleaned of the past
and present relations between Lenox and his wife.

"Now, do you see how I came to lose sight of everything for the time
being?" she concluded, smiling up at him.  "So far as I can gather,
things seem to be at a deadlock, unless one can persuade him to take
the first step forward."

"And you want to play Providence, as usual?  Is that it?"

"Don't laugh at me, Theo!  I am in earnest.  I would gladly move heaven
and earth to put things straight between them."

"But this seems a case of moving a Scot.  A far tougher job, I can tell
you!"

"Well, I think I moved him a little to-night; and he is coming round
to-morrow for a ride."  Desmond frowned; and she made haste to add;
"Now that is just where I must have your co-operation, Theo, or I can
do nothing.  I want you to trust me, and give me a free hand for these
next few weeks.  Will you, . . please?"

"Does that mean I am to let you be about with Lenox as much as you
choose?"

"Probably not more than I have been so far.  I only want to be sure
that whatever I do you won't speak to me again as you did to-night."

She felt the muscles of his arm tighten.

"I think you may feel sure of that much," he said.  "But you are asking
a very hard thing of me, Honor.  Lenox is a thorough good chap; and I
don't want to be driven into disliking him.  It isn't as if I were a
saint, like Paul.  I'm just a man, and a grasping one at that!  What's
more, I am very jealous for you; and I have the right to be.  Society
doesn't recognise philanthropic motives.  It takes you and your acts at
their face value . . ."

"I know, I know,"--she straightened herself impulsively; her hands
clasped, her bare arms laid across his knees.  "And I'll be ever so
circumspect, dearest, I promise you.  But oh, Theo, . . . don't you
understand?  It is just because we are so blessedly happy, you and I,
that the thought of what those two foolish people are missing troubles
me so sorely."

Such an appeal was irresistible.  They had lived deeply enough, these
two, to know the real importance of happiness.

"Bless your big heart," he answered warmly.  "I understand right
enough.  By all means help 'em if you can.  I'll not baulk you.  But
it's a delicate task; and I don't quite see how you are going to set
about it."

"Nor do I,--yet.  One can only trust to intuition, and the inspiration
of the moment.  From the little he said, it seems that the first move
ought to come from her: and possibly my intimacy with him may help to
bring her to her senses.  Everything depends, of course, on how much
she cares.  That's still an unknown quantity.  But she dislikes me
already; which is a promising sign!--Now I am going to fill your pipe,
and pour you out a peg; and we'll enjoy ourselves till it's time for
second supper!"

It is just such quiet hours of heart-to-heart intimacy that constitute
true marriage.  For in these uneventful moments links are forged and
soldered strong enough to resist the buffeting of storms, or the
deadlier, corrosive influence of those minor miseries which poison the
very core of life.

A handful of stars--visible through the open glass door into the
verandah--had began to pale, when Desmond lifted his wife to her feet,
and blew out the lamp.  In the profound stillness their footsteps and
low laughter sounded up the wooden stairs.  Then a door shut somewhere
in the house, and the night absorbed them into herself.




CHAPTER VIII.

  "Ce n'est pas le mort qui separe le plus les individus."
        --De Coulevain.


And what of Lenox, after Honor Desmond's sympathetic exertions on his
behalf?

He went straight from her side to the cloak-room; and thence slowly
back to his unhomelike rooms at the hotel; a dark solitary figure, with
bent head, and a heart full of tumultuous hopes and fears.  The events
of the evening had stirred him as he had not been stirred since those
early days of torment, of undignified oscillation between yearning and
despair: and now, at last, love unsteadied for the first time the
foundations of his pride; brought home to him the cardinal truth that
all the beauty and terror of life spring from the inexorable law of
duality that links man and woman, act and consequence, with the same
passionless unconcern.

All the way up the hill, this man--who loved night and her
manifestations as most men love the morning--had no thought to spare
for the splendour of the heavens or the shrouded majesty of earth, so
absorbed was he in framing and rejecting possible letters to his wife,
who, for all he knew, had already half-lost her heart to another man.

The small sitting-room where Brutus, the faithful, awaited his coming,
was more or less a replica of his larger one at Dera Ishmael: the
chronically disordered table, books, pipes, sketches, his inseparable
friends, the bull terrier, and the brown tobacco-jar.  All these, the
familiars of his lonely hours, gave him silent greeting as he crossed
the threshold.  But for once his spirit failed to respond.  The
witchery of his wife's lips and eyes; the distracting music of her
laughter; that one poignant moment of contact with her living,
palpitating self, and Honor Desmond's belief in an undreamed-of
possibility, had kindled the man's repressed passion as a lighted match
kindles dry powder; had revived in him the common human need, which
neither ambition nor work, however absorbing, has yet been known to
satisfy.

"My God," he thought.  "If I believed I had a ghost of a chance to get
hold of her again, I'd go back to that infernal ballroom this minute!"

He turned, as if to carry out his resolve: but at the last, shut down
the flood-gates of emotion, fell back on years of self-discipline, and
told his heart he was a fool.  He had yet to learn that there is a
folly worth more than all the wisdom of philosophers, the folly of a
man who loves a woman better than his own soul.

Going over to the table, he turned up the lamp, acknowledged the
ponderous jubilations of Brutus, and took the damaged pipe out of his
pocket.  Then he stood looking at it thoughtfully, as it lay in the
palm of his hand; an eloquent testimony to that which had been starved,
denied, trampled upon for years,--with this result!  Smiling
half-scornfully at his new-found sentimentalism, he put the pieces into
an empty cigarette tin, and thrust it into the top drawer of his table.
As he did so, a strange thought invaded his mind.  Some day, perhaps,
he would show it to her; and how delightfully she would laugh at him
for his pardonable foolishness!

But in the meantime the wooing and winning of her still remained to be
achieved; a unique position for a husband!

Absorbed in thoughts evoked by the bare possibility of success, Lenox
mechanically drew out his empty tobacco-pouch, opened the jar, and
thrust a hand into its capacious depths.

Then he started; and two lines of vexation furrowed his forehead.  For
his fingers, descending in search of the good brown leaf, that was more
to him than meat and drink, encountered only a chill hardness,--the
bottom of the jar.

He had not emptied it when filling his pouch that morning; and being
much preoccupied had not even noticed how little was left.  Evidently,
during his absence, a hotel servant had helped himself to the remaining
handful, and a clear ten days must elapse before the arrival of a fresh
consignment from home.

He gathered up the remaining scraps, and gazed at them blankly.  His
consignments were carefully timed to overlap one another.  By rights
the jar should have contained quite a fortnight's supply of his elixir
vitae: and it took him one or two seconds to grasp the full
significance of that which had befallen him.

"Great Heaven!  I must have been overdoing it like blazes this last
month," he reflected grimly, "And how about the next ten days?"

He stood aghast before that simple question, and its obvious answer.
It was as if the earth has opened under his feet; as if he had suddenly
discovered that only a thin crust intervened between himself and the
crater of a volcano.  And he had travelled hitherward blindly; goaded
by the threefold necessity to work, and sleep, and forget.  Thus,
stealthily, inexorably, a habit creeps upon a man; enclosing him mesh
by mesh in a network imponderable as spun silk, tenacious as steel
wire.  A sudden movement, a break in the hypnotic influence of routine,
and he wakes to find himself prisoned in a web of his own weaving.

Lenox pushed aside the jar impatiently, as though it were in some way
to blame; and sank into his chair, head bent, legs outstretched; the
picture of defeat.  All his thoughts and hopes crashed about him in
ruins: and Lenox, contemplating the fragments with a numb acquiescence
far removed from resignation, saw only the old maddening irony at work;
saw himself, standing yet again, on the threshold of an Eden locked and
barred against him; felt in every nerve the grip of the pitiless fact,
and asked himself fiercely; "What next?"

Gradually thought penetrated the dull ache of rebellion; and Memory,
that capricious handmaid of the brain, unearthed from the rubbish-heap
of things forgotten, an incident of early days.

He recalled how, on a certain night, after the confiscation of their
candles, and a stern injunction from old Ailie to speak "nae word" till
morning, his elder brother--greatly daring--had invaded his bed, and
with lips set close to his ear had startled and thrilled him with the
following announcement:--

"Listen, Eldred,--what do you think?  I've found out at last why Uncle
Jock won't tell about grandfather, and why there's an empty place in
the big album where he ought to be.  Ailie told me.  I bothered her,
and bothered her, till she said I should hear it for a warning; and I
think you ought to hear it for a warning too.  She says grandfather
served the East India Company for forty years.  He was a grand soldier,
and a sportsman; a great tall man, like you will be.  Ailie says you
'have his face.'  But he went to hell"--this in an awestruck
whisper--"through eating too much opium, like some of the natives do
out there.  I wonder if it's nice stuff to eat; don't you?"

To the boy of ten, listening with rapt interest, his grandfather's
backsliding had sounded only a few degrees more heinous than
gormandising at Christmas; and since Ailie had proved obdurate when
pressed, and even bribed for further information, the spark of
curiosity had died out for lack of fuel.  But to the man of
five-and-thirty, racked with reawakened passion, and with a restless
irritability, whose significance could no longer be ignored, the memory
of his brother's whispered revelation flashed like a lightning-streak
across his present dilemma; leaving him in the grasp of those invisible
forces that are the true masters of destiny; that must either break or
be broken by man's individual spirit and will.  For some of us the
struggle is conscious; for some unconscious; for others it never arises
at all: because only the touchstone of circumstance can evoke any one
of those past lives whereof each single life is so mysteriously compact.

For Eldred Lenox, imbued with his uncle's iron creed, the fight would,
of necessity, be conscious and unremitting.  But he had no heart to
begin it yet.  He felt as a man may feel who is suddenly struck blind.
Thought, movement, life itself, seemed paralysed by a fear unnameable,
and new; the fear of that other self, who is the arch-enemy of us all.

One certainty alone stood out, like a black headland from a sea of
mist; all immediate hope of ratifying his marriage was at an end.
There spoke his tyrannical conscience with disconcerting directness:
and Lenox had never acquired the art of disguising plain fact in a
garment of high-sounding words.  He told himself straightly that no
right-minded man could deliberately risk handing down to others such a
heritage of struggle and possible failure as was his.  Yet, in the same
breath, the Devil whispered a plausible reminder that men as good as he
had taken the risk time after time; that De Quincey himself had
followed passion's dictates seemingly without a twinge of
self-reproach.  But Lenox was too single-minded to take shelter behind
the failures of others.  For him the principle was all.  For him all
thought of marriage must be set aside, at least, until he knew for
certain how completely the subtle poison had entered into his blood.

"Thank God she didn't give me the chance I wanted!" he breathed in all
sincerity: and flinging himself back in his chair, he lay open-eyed and
still, while night slipped silently on toward morning.

Brutus made one or two attempts to attract his master's attention by
means of a moist nose and an urgent paw; and failing, returned
philosophically to the hearth-rug.

The lamp burned low, and lower, till the room reeked with fumes of
kerosene.  This minor discomfort roused Lenox.  He lit two candles,
blew out the lamp, and throwing aside his mess jacket, yawned and
stretched himself extensively.  By this time one craving outweighed all
others.  Every nerve in him ached for the respite of sleep; and his one
chance lay in succumbing to mental or physical exhaustion.

He sat down to the table, and took up his pen, determined to write till
it dropped from his fingers.  But here also defeat confronted him.  For
although his subconscious brain was discomfortably alert and voluble,
ordered consecutive thought refused to come at his bidding.

He gave it up at length for the simpler expedient of pacing to and fro
in the measured mechanical fashion most conducive to weariness of mind
and body.  But though weariness came in due course, and the weight of
all time hung heavy on his eyelids, sleep held pitilessly aloof from
his brain.

For the greater part of two hours the man held out.  Then his face
hardened; and he turned deliberately to a combined book-shell and
cupboard that hung on the wall.  From the cupboard he took a dark
slender bottle labelled chlorodyne; and seating it on the table,
fetched a glass and water-bottle from the bedroom.

That done, he poured himself out a dose far exceeding the normal
allowance, and diluted it with the least admissible amount of water.

He drank the mixture slowly, savouring its sweetness and warmth; its
uncanny power to soothe and bless.  But as he set down the glass
revulsion took hold of him; and on the heels of revulsion came
self-scorn.  This last roused him like the prick of a spur: for to men
of Eldred Lenox's calibre, self-respect is the oxygen of the soul.  The
spirit of his grandfather had "scored a point" to-night.  But such an
achievement must not be risked again.

With the same deliberation that had marked all his former movements,
Lenox picked up the bottle, emptied its sluggish contents down one of
those primitive sluices that are to be found in every Indian bungalow,
and returned, still absently holding it between his finger and thumb.
A confession of weakness: there is no denying it.  But let him who has
not yet found the devil's chink in his own defences cast the stone.
Head, heart, or heel--there is a weak spot in the strongest.  Not even
Achilles' self was plunged wholesale into the waters of immunity.

Quite suddenly Lenox realised that he was still holding the bottle: and
for some unfathomable reason the trivial detail acted as a fuse that
fires the magazine.  For the first time that night, unreasoning anger
mastered him: anger against himself; against the whole tragi-comical
scheme of things: against the man whose dead sins he was called upon to
expiate in his own living flesh.

A curse forced its way between his teeth; and he flung the unoffending
scrap of glass into the open hearth, where it clinked and shivered into
a hundred splinters, filling the room with the strong sickly odour of
the drug.

Then he went back again to the long chair; limbs and brain weighted
with a luxury of weariness.  Shattered hope; a life-and-death struggle
ahead:--the words held no meaning for him now.  His lids fell.  The
balm of Nirvana shrouded his senses, blotting out thought, as sea
mists, rolling landward, obliterate all things.

The June morning broke in one sheet of gold.  Creeping in through the
interstices of lowered "chicks," it emphasised the untidy, up-all-night
aspect of the room; the sharp lines, pencilled by pain and struggle, on
the sleeper's face, where he lay full length, in shirt-sleeves and
scarlet waistcoat, unhooked and flung open before weariness overpowered
him.

A deep sound, persistently repeated, at last invaded and dispelled the
drugged torpor of his brain: the voice of Zyarulla murmuring:
"Sahib--Sahib," with the regularity of a minute-gun.

Lenox stirred, yawned, and looked blankly about him, as though he had
waked in another world.  Then remembrance sprang at him, like a wild
thing upon its prey: and his lids fell again heavily.  In that first
moment of consciousness he understood why men of proven honour and
courage have been known to take liberties with the laws of life and
death.

Zyarulla, entering soundlessly, set down the _chota hassri_ on a small
table at his master's elbow without betraying his surprise and concern
by so much as the flicker of an eyelash.  For not even your immaculate
family butler can excel, in dignity and true reserve, a bearer of the
old school, whose Sahib stands only second to his God, and who would
almost as soon think of defiling his caste as of entering another man's
service.  We have educated the grand old ideal of service out of our
own land; and we are fast educating it out of India also: though it
remains an open question whether the good wrought by over-civilisation
can honestly be said to counterbalance the evil.  A question few
Anglo-Indians will be found to answer in the affirmative.

Lenox poured out his tea, and drank it thirstily.  But the first
mouthful of toast was enough for him.  He pushed the plate away; and
his hand went out instinctively to the pipe Zyarulla, had laid beside
it.

"Damn!" he muttered between his teeth, almost flinging it from him; and
at that instant the door opened.

"_Desmin, Sahib argya_," [1] the Pathan announced; and with a startled
sound, Lenox got upon his feet, and began fastening his waistcoat.

"Good morning," he said quietly.  "Made a night of it, as you see; and
overslept myself."

But beneath his quiet he was acutely aware of the contrast between his
own dishevelled aspect, and Desmond's unobtrusive neatness and
freshness.

"Hope I don't intrude," the latter apologised, smiling: but his keen
eyes searched the other's face, and read tragedy there.  "As you hadn't
turned up by ten-thirty, my wife was afraid something might have gone
wrong.  So I came over to set her mind at rest!"

"Your wife?  Why, of course!  And I promised to be round by
ten--ill-mannered cur that I am!"  He sank wearily into his chair.
"Truth is," he added in a changed tone, "I couldn't get a wink of sleep
till near dawn; and then it came down on me like a sledge-hammer.  You
know the sort of thing."

Desmond nodded, and took a seat on the edge of the table.

"Are you often given that way?" he asked with seeming unconcern.

"Now and again."

"Ever been really bad with it?"

"Pretty bad.  Why d'you ask?"

"Because from the looks of you, I should say it was wearing your nerves
to fiddle-strings.  Ever take anything for it?"

Lenox frowned; and Desmond made haste to add: "No call, of course, to
answer a question of that sort.  But you look downright ill; and it's
unwise to let that kind of thing become a habit."

"Damned unwise!" Lenox answered, with a smile that did not lift the
shadow from his eyes.  "As I know to my cost.  The thing has been a
habit with me for longer than I care to reckon."

Desmond raised his eyebrows.  He had noticed the fragments in the
fender: the faint suggestion of chlorodyne that still clung in the air.

"My dear Lenox, I am sorry for that.  And--the remedy?  You must have
tried something before now?"

"Yes.  Drugged tobacco:--opium, a good strong mixture," the other
answered bluntly.  "You may as well have it straight.  You're an
understanding fellow; and no Pharisee."

Then, in a few clipped sentences, he stated the bald facts of the case,
culminating in his discovery of the previous night.  He leaned forward
in speaking; elbows on knees; eyes averted from the other's face.

"You see, it's in the blood,--that's the hell of it all," he concluded
fiercely.  "This morning, when I'd had my fill of thinking things out,
I took a stiff dose of chlorodyne.  Smashed the bottle afterwards, in
disgust.  But where's the use?  The dice are loaded: and no doubt one
will be driven back to it again, sooner or later."

Words and tone betrayed the dread note of fatalism--the moral microbe
of the East.  But men of Theo Desmond's calibre rarely succumb to its
paralysing influence.

"Look here, Lenox,"--he spoke almost brusquely,--"you must get quit of
that notion.  No man worth his salt goes to meet failure half-way.  I
grant you're on the edge of an ugly pit, and if you insist on peering
into it, your chance is gone.  All you have to do is to shut your eyes,
and hang to the reins like the very deuce; if it's only for the sake
of--your wife.  Honor told me about her," he added, with more
gentleness.

But Lenox threw up his head impatiently.  "My wife?" he repeated on a
note of concentrated bitterness.  "The greatest kindness I could do her
would be to plunge wholesale into the pit, and give her back the
freedom she wants.  A man with a taint in his blood has no business to
beget children foredoomed to fight--and lose."

"My good chap," Desmond broke in hotly.  "I'll never believe that any
living soul is foredoomed to lose.  The chance of a fight, no matter
how heavy the odds, includes the chance of victory.  And even if things
do look a bit hopeless for a time, our orders are plain and straight;
'No surrender.'"

Lenox searched his face.

"Ever been through the fire yourself?"

Desmond nodded.

"I suppose moat of us have to go through hell once or twice," he said
quietly.  "And I know how it feels to wish that some one would lock up
my revolver."

For answer Lenox got up and paced the room, head down; hands plunged
deep into trouser-pockets; lost, by now, to all sense of his
incongruous appearance.

The other watched him thoughtfully.  Then his hand went to his
breast-pocket, and drew out a leather case.  A man proffers tobacco to
a friend in trouble as instinctively as a woman proffers a caress.

"Have a cheroot?" he said, holding them out: and Lenox checked his
pacing.

"Thanks,--no.  I've no taste for 'em.  Never had."

"Better cultivate it, then.  These are A1 Havannahs.  A passing
extravagance.  Good to begin upon.  I'd drop pipes for a time, if I
were you.  When it comes to breaking a habit, association is the devil.
And whatever happens, don't let this heredity bogey get the upper hand
of you.  The taint you speak of is no more, as yet, than inherited
tendency: and this accident--if you believe in accident, I don't--gives
you the chance of killing the snake in the egg.  Now light up, there's
a good chap; just to keep me company."

Lenox helped himself with a wry face; lit the cigar, and continued his
walk.  The iron had bitten into his soul: and, at the moment, he was
incapable of gratitude.  Bit by bit brain and body were adjusting
themselves to the new outlook, the new demands enforced upon them; and
the process was not a pleasant one.

Suddenly he drew up, and faced his companion.

"You can leave me out of the reckoning now for Chumba and Kajiar," he
said abruptly.  "I'm in no mood for that sort of foolery.  I'll stay
here and grind at this book of mine instead.  You must excuse me to Mrs
Desmond; and tell her just as much of the truth as you think fit."

But before he had finished speaking, Desmond was on his feet, decision
in every line of him.

"Not if I know it, my dear fellow!  You won't get a stroke of work done
just at present; and 'that sort of foolery,' as you call it, will do
you all the good in the world.  Your best chance is to get right
outside yourself; and we'll make it our business to keep you
there--Honor and I."

At that Lenox turned huskily away; and his broken attempt at a laugh
was not good to hear.

"Damn it all, man, why don't you leave me alone, to go to the devil in
my own way?  What can it matter to you, or to any one, whether I break
myself in pieces, or am merely broken on the wheel?"

Desmond's quick ear detected emotion beneath the ungraciousness of
speech and tone; and following him, he laid a hand on his shoulder, a
friendly liberty to which Lenox was little accustomed.

"Come along home with me," he said quietly.  "Stay for tiffin, and talk
it all out with my wife.  She'll be able to answer you far better than
I can.  Nothing like a woman's sympathy to put a dash of conceit back
into a man.  Will you follow on?  Or shall I wait while you change?"

For an instant Lenox stood silent; then, greatly to his own surprise,
he held out his hand.

"I'll be ready in ten minutes," was all he said.


An hour later, Desmond rode away from Terah Cottage, leaving Lenox and
his wife alone together.  He had promised to give her what help he
could in the delicate task she had set her heart upon: and he belonged
to the satisfactory type of man who may be counted upon for good
measure, pressed down, and running over.



[1] Has come.




BOOK II.-JUST IMPEDIMENT.


CHAPTER IX.

  "So many men; so many loves."
        --M. O. Willcocks.


A dinner of native dishes served on leaves--to each guest his own
portion on his own leaf--eaten picnic-fashion on a Kashmir carpet in
the presence of twelve regally reproachful chairs, is a form of
entertainment only to be met with in India; and when, to these
incongruities, is added the crowning one that the host may not defile
himself by sharing the meal with his guests, you have a situation
typical of the land where all things are possible.

Prompted by Colonel Mayhew, the Chumba Rajah, a shy taciturn boy of
sixteen, had despatched a formal invitation, hoping that the Residency
party would honour him with their company at the Palace on the evening
of their arrival from Dalhousie; though in truth he wished them
anywhere else in the world; and Colonel Mayhew, who was by no means too
old to enjoy a spasmodic daylight flirtation with a woman of Quita's
intelligence, had devised the native menu mainly for her delectation.

A large sheet, promoted to the rank of tablecloth, covered the carpet,
while ten cushions apologised for the absence of chairs.  A bowl of
roses, rigidly arranged in alternate lines of flower and fern, filled
the room with fragrance.  In front of each guest a snowy dome of rice,
ringed about with a strange assortment of curries, gleamed on a silver
salver.  A quaint array of flat baskets held fragments of roast chicken
and kid; unleavened cakes of a peculiarly greasy nature did duty for
bread; and the only concessions to civilisation were knives and forks,
table-napkins, and champagne.

"Why shouldn't we have the courage of our barbarism, and do without
knives and forks as well?" Quita had suggested airily, at the outset;
and a faint look of horror convulsed Mrs Mayhew's bird-like face.

Her husband saw it, and came promptly to her aid.

"No forks, no champagne!" he retorted, laughing; and Quita picked up
her fork straightway.

"Hobson's choice!" she said, in a tone of mock resignation.  "It would
be sheer brutality to deprive six men of champagne!"

She was sitting now on a cushion, at the Resident's right hand, feet
tucked away under her skirts, and a napkin laid across her knee.  On
this she had set a leaf piled with saffron-tinted rice, which she was
exploring eagerly for incidental sultanas and yellow lumps of sugar,
exchanging bulletins, from time to time, with Desmond, who had taken
her in to dinner, and in whom she speedily recognised a morning quality
of mind that matched her own.

Lenox, sitting opposite between Honor and Elsie, acutely aware that his
legs were too long for the occasion, almost forgot the torment of the
past week in looking and listening, and wondering how he had ever
attained even a passing hold upon a spirit so lightly poised, so
compact of volatile essences, that he shrank, almost with awe, from the
bare thought of subjecting her uncaptured loveliness to the pains and
penalties of marriage.  He sat for the most part in silence; content to
let the ripple of her voice and laughter play over him like water over
parched earth.  Her voice had drawn him irresistibly from the first.
It was a thing of exquisite modulations.  It thrilled like a caress.
Its clear, cool tones, pure from passion, intoxicated him like the
rarefied atmosphere of the heights.  Once or twice she flung him a
question or a remark, as if compelling him to be aware of her
existence.  He answered her with grave politeness, and an occasional
direct look, before which her eyes fell, as if dazzled by a helio-flash
from the man's inner fire.

All these things Honor Desmond noted; and, by the searchlight of her
womanhood, discerned more than Quita herself had yet realised.

Garth, from his uncoveted post of honour at Mrs Mayhew's left hand,
noted them also; but with less of understanding.  Stung to irritation
by a sense of vague happenings in which he counted for nothing, and by
the fact that Quita was evidently enjoying herself far more than the
occasion seemed to warrant, he was in no mood to do justice to the
supreme event of the day--his dinner.  Strange foods, too, were an
abomination to his clockwork order of mind; and when, in addition, he
found himself condemned to eat them sitting cross-legged on the ground,
a leaf balanced precariously on one knee, he began to entertain grave
doubts as to the comparative values of the game and the candle.

He quite resented the manifest contentment of Elsie Mayhew and her
partner, who sat facing him, absorbed in the low-toned talk of
incipient lovers, blind and deaf to the insignificant doings around
them.  Nor was he greatly blest in his left-hand partner, Bathurst, the
Rajah's tutor--a clean-limbed athlete of the two-adjective genus, who
discoursed complacently of "bags," "mounts," and handicaps; the staple
topics of his kind.  And while the stream of words flowed on, unchecked
by his flagrant inattention, Garth's ears were tantalised by snatches
of talk from the lively end of the table, where Desmond and Quita were
behaving like two children; by the silver quality of her laughter that
whipped his senses, while it lulled his conscience like a narcotic, and
set him devising a moonlight stroll with her later on, in the Palace
courtyard, by way of compensation for present martyrdom endured on her
account.  For since the night of the dance she had been so uniformly
gracious, that he was beginning to regard his rebuff on Dynkund as
little more than a delicate prelude to surrender after all.

Such absorbing reflections made him so neglectful of his hostess, that
the little lady's spasmodic efforts to enliven him with spiced snippets
of gossip--more than one item of which had emanated from
himself--fizzled out dismally, long before the meal was over; and it
was with an audible sigh of relief that she glanced across at Mrs
Desmond, and got upon her feet with as much dignity as a cushion, a
plump figure, and cramped limbs would allow.

"What?  You do not desert us?" Quita asked, as Desmond offered her his
arm.

"No--I do not desert you!"  He spoke lightly, but significance lurked
in his tone.  "The Rajah and his suite are waiting to receive us in the
Durbar Hall, and unless you object to my cigar, or send me to the
right-about, I claim you as my prisoner of war for the evening!"

"_À la bonheur_!  Smoke as much as you please.  You will not need to
tie a thread round my ankle, I promise you.  Why didn't I get to know
you sooner?"

"Perhaps because you discovered metal more attractive?"

The light thrust drew blood.  She flushed, and laughed uneasily.

"A palpable hit!  I might retaliate with a coal of fire in the shape of
a compliment.  But you don't deserve it.  Anyway, let's make up for
lost time now.  I have a feeling that we shall be good friends,
only . . . ."

"Only--what?"

"Mrs Desmond may disapprove of me."

"You'd not say that if you knew her better," he answered, warmly.  "She
isn't one of your good women who make a hobby of disapproval."

"That's a mercy!  It is the pet vice of the virtuous; and Mrs Mayhew
deals in it largely.  No doubt it keeps her happy, and makes her feel
superior; and I wouldn't rob my worst enemy of such a heavenly
sensation!  I'm sorry for her to-night, though.  She hates natives
almost as much as Colonel Mayhew loves them; and I'm afraid she's not
envying herself; nor will poor Elsie, if Captain Lenox makes _her_ a
prisoner of war for the evening!  He hardly vouchsafed her half a dozen
words through dinner."

"Lenox is no conversationalist," Desmond answered, looking straight
before him.  "But he is a splendid fellow--worth fifty of your
drawing-room acrobats."

"You like him so much, then?"

"I do more than that.  I admire him."

"You are an enthusiast!"

The shadow of change in her tone did not escape him.

"Is that also one of the vices you detest?"

"But, no!  I gave you credit for more discernment.  Enthusiasts and
idealists are the salt of the earth.  That's why I want to know more of
_you_.  There!  In spite of myself I have crowned you with a coal of
fire after all!  Now, please introduce me to our resplendent Rajah
Sahib.  I am going to make him talk.  Colonel Mayhew has dared me to
succeed!"

They entered the Durbar Hall as she spoke--a long room overloaded with
gilt furniture, gilt-framed mirrors, and the inevitable chandeliers and
musical boxes that are the insignia of semi-civilised opulence
throughout India.  No self-respecting Maharajah, or Rana, or Nawab
would dream of living in a Palace devoid of either.

Rajah Govind Singh and his four companions stood together by a
marble-topped table, laughing and whispering over a book filled with
photographs of music-hall celebrities, while beside it a spurious
album, whose heart was a musical box, tinkled an age-old air from "Les
Cloches" with maddening precision.  At the far end of the room a native
conjurer had established himself, and was already performing
indefatigably for the benefit of no one in particular.

The group by the table showed a medley of colour quite in keeping with
the flash and glitter of the whole.  Over spotless shirts and trousers
the boys wore brilliant silk _chogas_[1] cunningly patterned with gold
wire, and surmounted by turbans of palest primrose, orange, and green.
But Govind Singh, by divine right of Rajahdom, eclipsed the rest.
Beneath his scarlet coat gleamed a waistcoat of woven gold, and the
jewelled buckle of his Rajput _chuprass_.[2]  Three strings of pearls
formed a close collar at his throat, and in front of his sea-green
turban a heron's plume sprang from a cluster of brilliants.  The faces
of all were no darker than ripe wheat; for your high-caste hill-man
never takes colour, like his brother of the plains.

They had long since eaten their own simple dinner, in the scantiest
clothing, and in a solemn silence, squatting on a bare mud floor.  For
to the Hindu a meal is a sacred ceremony, and the Sahib's idiosyncrasy
for making merry over his food can only be accepted as part and parcel
of his bewildering lack of sense and dignity in regard to the conduct
of life.

During a long minority this boy had been zealously inoculated with
Western knowledge and Western points of view; and with the deceptive
pliancy of the Oriental he had smilingly submitted to the process.  But
deep down in the unplumbed heart of him he waited for the good day when
he would be rid of these well-meaning interlopers,--tireless as their
own fire-carriages,--who troubled the still waters of life and talked
so vigorously about nothing in particular; when he would be free to
forget cricket and polo and futile efforts to cleanse the State from
intrigue; free to sit down in peace and grow fat, unhindered by the
senseless machinations of the outer world.

And in the heart of Govind Singh you have a fair epitome of the great
heart of India herself: aloof, long-suffering, illogical to a degree
inconceivable by Western minds; ready to lavish deep-hearted devotion
upon individual Nicholsons and Lawrences when they come her way; yet,
for all her surface submission and progress, not an inch nearer to
racial sympathy, or to the inner significance of English life and
character than she was fifty years ago.

But, in the meanwhile, our concern is with a minor Maharajah, and his
passion for musical boxes.

At the Resident's approach, the laughter and whispering ceased; and the
four boys endured with impassive politeness the mysterious rite of
introduction.  The tinkling album gave Quita her cue.  She insisted on
hearing its entire repertoire, which was mercifully limited; and her
natural ease of manner, her knack of plunging whole-heartedly into the
subject of the moment, soon put Govind Singh's shyness to flight.  He
deserted monosyllables for clipped, hurried sentences, jerked out with
an odd mixture of nervousness and self-satisfaction.  Quita flashed a
smile at Desmond, who stood sentry at her elbow, in seeming ignorance
of the fact that Garth was making tentative attempts to usurp his place.

"You must show me some of the others, Rajah Sahib," she declared, as
the complacent album clicked into silence, "and when I go home to
England I will hunt you up a new kind to add to your collection!"

The boy's eyes lost their look of lazy indifference; a gleam of superb
teeth illumined his face.

"An upright grand is the last trifling addition to it, Miss Maurice,"
Colonel Mayhew informed her, "but the Rajah was a little disappointed
when he found that it couldn't be set going by the turning of a key."

"I am liking the big noise--the big _tamasha_," the young monarch
explained in all gravity.  "And I think that one is too much price for
a box that will do nothing unless somebody knows to make it speak."

"Mrs Desmond can make it speak for you, Rajah Sahib," Colonel Mayhew
suggested; and the boy turned upon her with shy eagerness.

"Can you really do a tune?" he asked.

"Several tunes!" she answered, smiling.  "A big noise, if you like."

"Oh, that is very good business.  Thanks awfully."

He spoke the slang phrases, picked up from Bathurst, with mechanical
precision; and Honor, still smiling, went over to the piano--a
flamboyant instrument of rosewood and gold.  After a second of
hesitation Lenox followed, opened it for her, and resting a hand on the
gilt back of her chair, bent down to speak to her before she began to
play.  The suggestion of intimacy in his attitude was not lost on
Quita, who saw it all, without glancing in their direction.  Her lips
tightened; and she started slightly when Desmond spoke to her.

"Will you go round the musical boxes with me?" he asked, in an
undertone that bordered on tenderness.  For he saw that something in
her suffered, whether it were pride or love.

"But yes--by all means," she answered, with a lift of her head which
suggested to Desmond a jerk on the curb-chain.  In moving off together
they passed close to Garth.  But Quita, who was abstractedly opening
and closing her fan, did not seem aware of his presence; and he stood
looking after them--nonplussed and inwardly blaspheming.  He did not
hold the key to this new phase of the situation.

Mrs Mayhew--noting his detachment from the Palace group, and quite
needlessly alarmed lest politeness should impel him to return to
her--sought out a strategic seat near the piano; though in truth Honor
Desmond's masterly rendering of Chopin's heroic polonaise was, for her,
no more than a complicated tumult of sound without sense, and her wrapt
expression resulted from the fact that she was debating whether her
_durzi_ could possibly reproduce at sight the subtle simplicity of Mrs
Desmond's evening gown.  For she had sons growing up at home--this
insignificant woman, whose plump proportions and bird-like eyes had
earned her the nickname of "the Button Quail"; and even a good
appointment did not annul the vagaries of the rupee, which was behaving
peculiarly ill just then.  In the intervals of imaginary dressmaking,
she was enjoying shrewd speculations as to the nature and extent of the
budding "affair" between the two at the piano; for her small mind clung
tenaciously to the Noah's Ark view of life.  Also it seemed that
Elsie's own "little affair" was assuming quite a promising aspect.
Personally, she disliked the man, but his talent was undeniable.  She
supposed he must be making money by it; and he was quite clearly making
a right-of-way into her daughter's heart.

They had drifted apart from the rest without need of spoken suggestion;
and now, under cover of Honor's music, which produced a tendency to
gravitate towards the piano, the man grew bolder.

"There is moonlight out in the courtyard," he said, very low; and he
tried, without success, to look into her eyes.  "_Que dítes-vous_?
Shall we go?"

She did not answer at once.  A new spirit of boldness was awake in her,
urging her to take hold of her golden hour with both hands, nothing
doubting.  But the man, even when he charmed her most, failed to
inspire her trust.  And while she stood hesitating, his gaze never left
her face.

"Are you thinking it would scandalise _la petite mère_?"

"It might.  She is easily scandalised!"

"But you would like to come?"

"Yes--I would like to come."

"_Eh bien_--that is enough."

"Is it?"

She looked up at him now with those great, truthful eyes of hers, which
he found oddly disconcerting at times.

"Enough for me, at all events!" he answered boldly.  "Come!"

And she came.

The flagged quadrangle, walled in with darkness and worn with the tread
of numberless women's feet, showed silver-grey in the light of a moon
nearing the full; and above it, in a square patch of sky, stars
sparkled with a veiled radiance like diamonds caught in a film of
gossamer.  As Elsie emerged from the shadow of the verandah, she had a
sense of stepping into an unreal world, and the Palace walls, shutting
out the familiar contours of earth, strengthened the illusion.  The
night seemed the accomplice of her mood, in league with her own
exquisite sensibility; a night created for sheltering tenderness.

Michael Maurice, divining her sensations with the uncanny accuracy of
his type, pressed a little closer to her as they walked, so that now
and again, as if by chance, his arm brushed her own, and each contact
quickened her happy commotion of heart and pulse.  They came upon a
rough stone bench, and he paused.

"It is pleasanter to sit, _n'est-ce pas_?"

"Yes.  But we mustn't sit long."

"Mustn't we?  How does one measure time on such a night as this?  By
the beating of hearts, or by the pulsations of stars?"

She laughed softly.

"How foolish you are!"

"It is good to be foolish at the right time, and with the right person!
Wisdom is the death's-head at the feast of life.  But we are going to
shut her outside the door for a whole week--you and I."

The strangely sweet magic of those linked pronouns stirred Elsie as
never before; though the sound of them had pleased her once, not a
little, on the lips of Kenneth Malcolm.  Bud she answered lightly, as
women will, when they feel barriers giving way.

"I never knew I had agreed to anything so desperate!"

He had laid his arm along the back of the seat; so that his hand was
within an inch of her shoulder.  He moved it closer.

"You have done more than that without knowing it--_petite amie_," he
said, yielding himself, as always, to the witchery of the moment.  "It
is your doing that I have achieved an inspired picture.  It is your
doing that I want this week in Arcadia to be an idyll we shall neither
of us forget--an idyll of sunlight, moonshine, and blessed freedom from
_les convenances_.  No past--no future--only the present; and in it two
spirits tuned to one key.  That is the secret of perfect enjoyment."

She shook her head.

"I don't quite understand.  It sounds too fantastic.  The past and the
future are there always.  One can't get rid of them."

"But one can shut the door on them when they threaten to disturb the
present, which is the great reality after all."

"Can one?  You seem to have a talent for shutting doors!"

"A convenient talent; worth cultivating!  You may take my word for it."

Something in the statement or its manner of utterance jarred, ever so
slightly,--threatened to break the charm that held her.

"Dangerously convenient," she murmured, in gentle reproof.

"Little Puritan!  What a narrow track you walk upon.  Hardly room on it
for two abreast.  Is there?"

The last words were almost a whisper.  He pressed nearer, bringing his
face close to hers.  At the same moment she felt a light touch on her
shoulder, and drawing back to escape the disturbing eloquence of his
eyes, she discovered the presence of his encircling arm.  The discovery
brought her to her feet--flushed, palpitating, aquiver with anger at
this first shadow of insult to her maidenhood.

"Will you take me in again, please?" she said quietly, and the request
savoured of command.  For her gentle nature was founded on a rock; and
a very little below the unresisting surface one came upon adamant, pure
and simple.  But the unabashed Frenchman caught one of her hands, and
crushed it against his lips.

"_Petite amie_--forgive me!  I was overbold.  I am not fit to touch the
hem of your dress.  But one is only flesh and blood; and you . . . say
you are not angry with me, in your heart . . . ."

She drew her hand away decisively; and with unconscious cruelty rubbed
the back of it against her dress, as if to remove a stain.

"I am angry--I have a right to be angry," she answered in the same
toneless voice.  "And if you will not come in with me, I shall go
alone."

He rose then; and they crossed the enchanted courtyard together--a
clear foot of space between them.

The brilliance of the Durbar Hall smote the girl painfully.  It was as
though the light had power to penetrate and reveal her hidden
perturbation.  Without looking up, she felt her mother's eyes upon her;
and the wild-rose tint of her cheeks deepened under their scrutiny.
But she avoided meeting them, and, going straight to her father,
slipped a small hand under his arm.  She felt indefinably in need of
protection, not only from the man, whose kiss had moved her more than
he guessed, but from herself, and the new emotions quickening at her
heart; and in all times of trouble she turned spontaneously to her
father.  He was the true parent of her spirit; and, but for the
matter-of-fact, half-condescending devotion of three boys at home, Mrs
Mayhew might, at times, have felt left out in the cold.

"Enjoying yourself, little girl?" the father asked, smiling down at her.

"Yes, of course, dear--ever so much," she replied, with brave
untruthfulness; and the lie must have been forgiven her in heaven.

But the veil of enchantment was rent; and no needle of earth has ever
been ground fine enough to draw its frayed edges together.



[1] Long loose coats.

[2] Cross-belt.




CHAPTER X.

  "Woman, I grope to find you; but I cannot,
  O, is there no way to you, and no path,--
  No winding path!"
        --S. Phillips.


And the good folk of Chumba,--men, women, and children,--were early
astir on this June day, in whose fiery lap lay hid the luck of the
State for the coming year.

The stone streets of the little town, so steep as to be cut out, here
and there, into a rough semblance of steps, were alive with quickly
moving figures, in holiday attire: which, in the East, is a true
outward and visible sign of its wearer's inward and spiritual sense of
festivity.

Open shop fronts and quaintly carven balconies were noisy with shrill
voices.  Every self-respecting house was plastered with fresh mud;
every window and doorway garlanded with marigold and jasmine buds;
every brain, absorbed in the paramount speculation, as to how the
sacrificial buffalo would behave.

At three o'clock, under a blazing sun, the Rajah set out, enthroned on
his State elephant, whose silver howdah and gala trappings formed a
fitting pedestal for the red and gold magnificence of the young prince
himself.  Two ropes of pearls hung down to his waist: a huge uncut
emerald made a vivid incident of green upon his gilded chest: and the
diamond aigrette, surmounting his turban of palest green muslin,
flashed and quivered in the sunshine, like living fire.  The Resident,
in immaculate grey suit and tall white helmet, sat beside him in the
awkwardly swaying howdah with an admirable air of comfort and
unconcern; and their triumphal progress was enlivened by the brazen
cheerfulness of trumpets and trombones, the melancholy squeal of
bagpipes, and the ear-piercing shriek of native instruments; while,
through all, and above all, and under all, the throbbing of innumerable
tom-toms suggested the heart-beats of the mighty crowd made audible.

Journeying thus, along the unshadowed road that overhangs the river,
they came at length to the promontory itself.  Here, beneath the huge
State _shamianah_, gaily coloured Kashmir rugs were spread, for Govind
Singh and his court: while curtained enclosures, set at duly decorous
distance, concealed the women-folk, who had been conveyed thither under
close cover much earlier in the day.

Through the surging chattering crowd,--which fell back right and left
before their quietly determined advance,--the Residency party made
their way in to the partial shade of the _shamianah_, wherein chairs
had been set for the English guests; four on either side of the Palace
group.

It was a very dignified Elsie who slid to the ground before Maurice
could get to her, and carefully avoided his reproachful gaze.  But he
followed her into the tent, and took his seat beside her unrebuked.
The trifling incident of the night before had increased not merely her
charm but her value in his eyes.  If this were not the 'real thing,' he
reflected, in a virtuous glow of self-approval, then surely there could
be no reality on earth.

At this moment he became aware that Garth and Mrs Desmond were
established in the two neighbouring chairs.  His surprise at this
unexpected conjunction showed so plainly in his face that Honor,
meeting his glance, responded with dimplings of sheer enjoyment before
devoting herself to the entertainment of her victim.

Desmond, in pursuance of a policy which at least saved Lenox from the
sharpest sting of all, had managed to ride close behind Quita and
Garth; and being nimbler in dismounting than the older man, had
successfully usurped his privilege of lifting her from the saddle.  She
herself, though not a little puzzled as to the meaning of it all, was
beginning to relish the humour of the game; and as Desmond escorted her
into the tent, she turned upon him a smile of unabashed amusement.

"This is flattering!  I appear to have made a conquest of _Monsieur le
Capitaine_!"

"And for once appearances are not deceitful," he capped her straight.

"How enchantingly direct you are!  But at this rate Mrs Desmond really
_will_ disapprove. . ."

"No fear!  Mrs Desmond is enjoying it quite as much as I am!"

She divined a hidden meaning in his words: but merely lifted her
eyebrows and shoulders in characteristic fashion.

"Well--it she doesn't object, I am sure I don't!"

"Nor I, by any means. . . .  Come this way."

He led her across the tent, having noted and admired his wife's skilful
bit of strategy: and Lenox instinctively took the same direction.

Quita chose the chair farthest from the Palace group; and in a few
moments, she knew that her husband was standing close behind her.  It
was the first time he had deliberately approached her since their
encounter at the ball: and the silent tribute, so characteristic of the
man, elated her with a renewed sense of power over a personality
immeasurably stronger than her own.  It was like bringing down big game
after the mild diversion of shooting pheasants.  But he had spent the
whole morning in the verandah with Honor Desmond; and the remembrance
still rankled.  Upset her equanimity as he might, the spirit of
surrender was still far from her.

At his approach Desmond made a slight movement, as if to rise; but the
other shook his head.  It was enough to be thus close to her, to feel
that speech was possible, yet not compulsory.  All of which Desmond was
quick to understand.

"Look, . . look . . ." Quita whispered suddenly, leaning towards him.
"They are forcing that poor brute to the edge.  He has been in before.
Colonel Mayhew told me.  He knows; . . . he is afraid.  Oh, _mon Dieu_,
how horrible! . . .  He is over!"

A mighty shout from the assembled thousands, who stood ten and twenty
deep along the banks, confirmed her words.  The shuddering victim had
been forced over the ten-foot drop; and for a few breathless moments,
was lost in the green swirling water.  A second shout,--unanimous, as
from one Gargantuan throat,--heralded the reappearance of the flat
black head, with its dilated nostrils held well above the blinding
wreaths of foam.  Tossed mercilessly from boulder to boulder, the stout
swimmer neared the first big rapid; and a moment later was swept, an
unresisting log, into its treacherous clutches.  Out of it he plunged,
still swimming valiantly; and, despite the opposing force of the
current, made a bold dash for one of the few possible landings on the
town bank.  But the people, foreseeing the attempt from long
experience, were gathered at this particular danger-point in
overwhelming numbers; with the result that the unhappy beast was fairly
hustled back into the boiling stream.

Here the second rapid claimed him; and excitement became intense; for
the fate of a year hung trembling in the balance.  There was no
shouting now; but a breathless expectant silence.  Only the
river,--full of sound and fury,--babbled unceasingly to the majestic
sky.

The moment of uncertainty was short as it was tense.  Once more the
brave black head appeared, a blot on the foam-flecked surface, no
longer battling, with dilated nostrils, against fearful odds; but lying
sideways, inert . . . lifeless; . . . and a prolonged outburst of
shouting, clapping, and huzzaing informed the echoing hills that the
great spirit of rivers and streams had accepted the sacrifice; that the
luck of the State was established for twelve good months to come.

"Poor beast, poor plucky beast!" Quita murmured rebelliously.  Her
sympathies had been strangely stirred; and an unbidden moisture clouded
her eyes.  In that hapless drowned buffalo she beheld, not a mere dead
animal, but one victim the more to the eternal law of sacrifice;--the
law that makes one man's suffering the price of another man's
gain;--the law that lies at the root of half the tragedy of the world.
"How happy they all are!" she went on.  "That Rajah boy is delighted.
They have no imaginations these people.  So much the better for them!"

By now the _shamianah_ hummed with talk and laughter and congratulation
on the outcome of the _Mèla_.  Every one had risen; and Desmond turned
with the rest to add his quota to the polite speeches that were the
order of the moment.

But Quita, still intent upon the stirring scene without, moved forward
a little space to obtain a better view of the river and the crowd.
Lenox followed her; and with a start she became aware that he was
standing almost at her elbow; though still a little behind her, so that
she must turn if she wanted to see his face.

"Are you wishing you could put some of that on canvas?" he asked in a
voice that he vainly strove to render natural.

"Yes.  It would be such a triumphant riot of colour.  But I'm afraid it
would look crude and impossible in any frame except the frame of an
Indian sky."

She did not turn in speaking; but the softness of her voice soothed his
chafed spirit like a benediction, and robbed him for the moment of all
power to reply.

"I was really trying to stamp it all on my memory," she went on after a
pause.  "It is a sight one doesn't see twice in a lifetime.  Just for a
few seconds it was terrible.  But I would not have missed it for the
world."

"Nor I.  Now that I am here, I feel grateful to the Desmonds for
persuading me to come."

"Did they have to drag you here by main force?"

"Not quite!  I thought I had better stay and grind at my book; that was
all.  But they wouldn't hear of it."

"Do you always obey their orders implicitly?"  There was veiled scorn
in her tone, and a new warmth in his as he replied:

"I would do any mortal thing they asked me to, within reason.  In all
my life no two people have been so good to me."

"You evidently admire _her_ very much."  The stress on the pronoun was
too delicate to catch his notice.

"I do, immensely.  How could any man in his senses do otherwise?  Or,
for that matter, any woman either?  I hoped--I thought--you would have
been good friends with her."

He spoke his honest enthusiasm in the simple desire that she should
share it.  But her nerves were still strung to concert pitch, and he
had struck the wrong note.

"You thought her many virtues might have an improving effect on me, I
suppose?"

The acorn was no longer veiled: and he winced under it.

"No: only is occurred to me that the two . . . . best women I have ever
known might reasonably have a good deal in common."

"It is kind of you to couple me with her.  I am flattered, I assure
you!--But, personally, I prefer something lees exalted, something more
human, more fallible. . . ."

"Perhaps that explains your predilection for Garth?" he broke in
abruptly, pricked to resentment by her persistent note of mockery.

"I am not aware that my friendship with Major Garth requires any sort
of explanation."

She was rigid now--face, voice, figure: his golden opportunity gone
past recall.  Men pay as dearly for sins of ignorance as for the baser
kinds of trespass: and the man who does not understand women is almost
worse, in their esteem, that the man who treats them ill.

"Is it wise--for your own sake . . . to be so careless of your good
name?" he persisted desperately; goaded by the knowledge that he would
not soon get speech of her again.

"Possibly not.  But I don't feel called upon to retire into a convent,
or to advertise the fact that I am not . . . 'on the market.'  Nor do I
choose to have my conduct called in question by any man living."

She faced him now;--defiant, a bright spot on either cheek.

And before he knew how to answer her, Colonel Mayhew was upon them,
overflowing with cheerful raillery, and radiantly unaware that he had
stepped into a powder magazine.

Long before the returning procession reached the Residency, Quita had
repented of her little-minded display of irritation, consoling herself
with the resolve that she would atone for it next time; whereas Lenox
had decided that for once Honor Desmond's intuition was at fault: that
it needed no 'bogey of heredity' to widen the impassable gulf dividing
him from his wife.




CHAPTER XI.

  "O all that in me wanders, and is wild,
  Gathers into one wave, and breaks on thee."
        --Phillips.


In the deep heart of Kalatope Forest, where the trees fall apart as if by
unanimous consent, the natural glade of Kajiar lies like a giant emerald
under a turquoise sky.  Peace broods over this sanctuary of Nature's
making, dove-like, with folded wings.  No lightest echo of the world's
turmoil and strife disturbs the stillness.  Only at dawn and dusk, the
thin note of the temple bell, the chanting of priests, and the unearthly
minor wail of conches, announce the downsitting and uprising of the
little stone image of godhead, housed in a picturesque temple that
nestles among low trees, beside the Holy Lake, at the southern end of the
glade.

For Hindus are the most devout Nature-worshippers on the face of the
earth.  To them, beauty of place translates itself as God's direct cry to
the soul; and in the isolated glade of Kajiar, with its sweep of shelving
turf, its encircling pines and deodars, and its towering snow-peaks
standing sentinel in the north,--deity reigns supreme; deity and the
great grey ape of the Himalayas.

Only for one week in the year does Kajiar spring full-fledged into a
place of human significance.  From Dalhousie, on the one hand, and from
Chumba on the other, a light-hearted crowd of revellers profanes the
quiet of earth and sky.  On the outskirts of the forest tents spring up,
like mushrooms, in a night; the devotional voices of the temple are
drowned in the clamour of bugles, the throb of racing hoofs, the
challenging gaiety of the band, and the heart-stirring wail of the Royal
Chumba Pipers; wiry hill-men, in kilts and tartans;--the pride of the
young Rajah's heart.

The 'Kajiar week' is the central event of Dalhousie's season:--an
Arcadian revel of perfumed shadow, and sun-warmed earth; a carnival of
camp-life; ushering in the gloom of the Great Rains;--the triple tyranny
of mist, mildew, and mackintoshes.  And early on the morning after the
_Mèla_,--while the breath of night still lingered in gorges and ravines,
and in shadowed patches of the ascending path, a mixed procession of men
and horses, shuffling mules, and trotting coolies wound, snake-like, out
of the Chumba valley towards Kalatope Forest and the emerald glade.

All the Rajah's party was mounted, save Mrs Mayhew and the medical
missionary's wife, who preferred the leisurely ease of their dandies: and
in the van of the procession, a hundred yards and more in advance of it,
Quita rode with James Garth.

Her husband's bearing throughout the previous evening had convinced her
that their passage of arms in the _shamianah_ had killed the budding
possibility of a better understanding between them: and the fact that she
was to blame, did not make the knowledge easier to bear.  For she knew
now--knew consciously--that she craved the love and admiration of this
big silent husband of hers, as she had never yet craved anything in earth
or heaven: that his mere presence disturbed every fibre of her in a
fashion she had hitherto believed impossible; that his aloofness drew and
held her, as no other man's ardour had ever done.  These two days of
closer contact, of hearing his voice, of watching, without seeming to
watch, the familiar movements of his face and figure, had waked to
conscious life germs that had long lain at her heart, quickening in
darkness.

But pride was a stubborn element in her.  Where she gave greatly, she
demanded greatly.  The fact that he had taken her to task bred a
suspicion that she had been sought out for that purpose, not because he
could no longer keep away: and his evident determination to give her no
chance of retrieving the damage done in a moment of irritation, brought
her near to defiance,--the danger-point of her nature.  Hence renewed
encouragement of Garth, with intent to italicise her Declaration of
Independence; and with a half-acknowledged hope that Lenox might be
goaded by jealousy to renewed remonstrance.

And Garth,--who was used to the bestowal, rather than the receipt of
favours,--accepted this woman's encouragement as gratefully as an
enamoured subaltern.  Desmond's recent tactics had but served to convince
him that the walls of Jericho must be carried by assault.  Whatever the
outcome, the thrill of conquest must at least be his.

The six-foot roadway up to Kajiar gave him ample excuse for riding
needlessly close to his companion; and he inclined himself closer in
talking, thus giving a provocative flavour to ordinary speech.

"I think, in common fairness, it is my turn for an innings again,--don't
you?"

She laughed, and lifted her shoulders, evading direct reply.

"Does that mean that you care nothing, one way or other?"  There was
smothered passion in his tone.

"And if it does?  What then?"

"Gad!  How coolly you stab a poor devil, whose worst sin is that he is
in----"  But before the word was out, she checked him sharply.

"Major Garth!--How _dare_ you?"

Her white-hot anger seared both his vanity and his heart.  But he had
courage of a sort: and he stood his ground.

"A man in my case will dare anything.  Besides, you have insight enough
to have known it these many weeks; and why should the plain statement
anger you, when evidently the plain fact does not?--Tell me that."

The question smote her to silence.  For she could not tell him: neither
could she answer hotly and break with him for good.  Throughout the
coming week, at least, their intimacy must remain intact; and beyond it
her mind refused to look.  She saw herself caught in a tangle of her own
making: a hot wave of vexation at her helplessness, at her cruelly false
position, fired her face from chin to brow.

But Garth, noting the phenomenon, interpreted it otherwise.

"You find my riddle unanswerable?" he questioned almost tenderly: and was
met by a lightning-flash of denial.

"No.  By no means!  The answer is simple enough.  Unhappily you cannot
wipe out--the fact.  But you can avoid expressing it: and you
must,--unless you are prepared to lose everything."

"By Jove, no!--I keep what I have gained,--at any price.  And at least
your proffer of friendship gives me better right to monopolise you than
that chap Desmond can lay claim to.  But he appears to be privileged."

"He is privileged."

"How so?"

"Simply by being the right sort of man."

Garth scrutinised her keenly.

"And a V.C. into the bargain--eh?  I don't mind betting that's half the
attraction.  Just a showy bit of pluck, dashed off at a hot-headed
moment--and you women turn a man into a god on the strength of it!  The
fellow got his chance, and took it--that's all."

It is of the nature of small minds to disparage great ones; and in
general Quita would have dismissed the matter with a light retort.  But
in her present mood, the man's petty personalities jarred more than
usual.  "I think we won't discuss Captain Desmond," she said without
looking round.  "To pick holes in a man of that quality only seems to
accentuate one's own littleness."

"Yours--or mine?"

"Both."

"By Jove--but you're frank!"

"Have you ever known me otherwise?"

"Can't say I have.--But I'm hanged if I know what's come to you these
last two days!  Except that you are always far too alluring for my peace
of mind, you hardly seem like the same woman."

The truth of his assertion wrenched her back to a lighter mood.

"What an alarming accusation!  Is any healthily intelligent and
progressive human being ever the same for many weeks together?
Change--readjustment--is the keynote of life; the very breath of it.
When you can accuse me of _not_ changing I shall know that I have fallen
into the sere and withered leaf past redemption.  And now that I have
expiated myself--(probably to your more complete confusion!)--we'll have
a short canter to blow away cobwebs.  The road is rather less breakneck
just here."

A flick of the whip sent Yorick forward at a bound; and Garth--stifling
unheroic qualms--could not choose but follow her daring lead.

Throughout the remaining eight miles neither her tongue nor her spirit
flagged; and for the man at least the journey's end came too soon.

It was a transformed Kajiar that basked in the full glory of noon, as
they emerged from the forest, and drew rein on the high ground behind the
little wooden rest-house, to enjoy a few moments' survey of the brilliant
scene.

At the far end, around the Rajah's private chalet, the native camp was
fast springing into life.  While, down in the northern hollow, where
white tents clustered thickest, lay the big general camp; the core of all
things social and frivolous.

Hurdles, water jumps, and a long tent pavilion had changed the centre of
the glade into a racecourse, where subalterns, undaunted by a blazing
sun, were practising ponies for forthcoming gymkhanas.  Goal-posts were
already fixed for the great yearly football match between Chumba and
Dalhousie; in which contest victory was by no means always to the West,
since Jeff Bathurst, a famous performer, trained and captained the Chumba
team: and in another part of the green, three wooden sign-posts of
unequal height gave promise of tilting matches to come.

Couples and groups, in the lightest of muslins and flannels, sauntered
idly in the scented shadow of the pines; or lounged, smoking and talking,
on the warm green earth.

The appeal of the whole was to a spirit of enjoyment pure and simple, to
the casting aside of care and thought; a passing respite from the shadow
of the future: and Quita's native zest for happiness urged her to instant
response.


  "Unborn To-morrow, and dead Yesterday,
  Why fret about them, if To-day be sweet,"

she quoted softly.  "That is clearly the motto of the week; and it looks
as if every one intended to live up to it,--conscientiously."

Garth saw his advantage and pressed it home.

"You and I among the number, eh?  At least we understand one another,
which is more than most of those philandering couples do.  Why shouldn't
we make the most of our seven golden days and leave next week to look
after itself?"

"Why not, indeed?"

She spoke absently; her eyes resting on the snow-peak in the north.  The
answer lay too deep down for utterance.  But Garth took her enigmatical
echo for acquiescence, and laid his plans accordingly.

Nor were these two the only pair who arrived at Garth's philosophical
conclusion.  Life was fulfilled, for the nonce, with laughter and
leisure; with the unchanging, passion-breathing blue and gold of a
Himalayan June; and on all sides the charmed circle of pines and deodars
shut them off from the forgotten world and 'them that dwell therein.'


Atmosphere, circumstance, and her own half-awakened heart conspired with
Michael Maurice to draw Elsie down, by slow and delicious degrees, from
the small pedestal whereon she had taken refuge since the night of the
Palace dinner; till all unaware, she acceded to his fantastic notion of
shutting the door upon Wisdom.  Nor was it long before those whose profit
and pleasure it is to make capital out of their neighbours' doings had
assured themselves and each other that the 'week' would be responsible
for two engagements at least.

Such talk did not readily reach Lenox's ears.  But Kenneth Malcolm, whose
aspirations were no secret to the busily idle world around him, was
speedily enlightened: and there could be neither peace nor rest for him
till he had confirmation or denial from Elsie's lips.

Six months earlier he had pleaded his cause with such halting eloquence
as he could command; and the girl's refusal had been qualified by a
confession that at least she preferred him to any other man of her
acquaintance.  On the strength of this admission the boy had simply stood
aside and waited: hoping, as only the young can hope, because the fervour
of their desire renders the possibility of non-fulfilment unthinkable.
Then Maurice had entered the field, carrying all before him, with the
inimitable assurance that was his; and by now Kenneth had reached the
agony-point in a painful, if educative experience.  Standing aside was no
longer endurable.  By some means he must secure Elsie, if only for ten
minutes, and discover the truth.

"And a man need only look into her eyes for that," he decided, with a
throb of troubled anticipation.

His opportunity came on the third day of the 'week.'  The great football
match between East and West was progressing vigorously to the tune of
shouts and cheers.  Maurice, who had small taste for sport, had gone
sketching with his sister at her urgent request; and as Elsie settled
herself, with a book, on a slope of hot pine-needles, she was surprised
and startled to see Kenneth Malcolm approaching her.

"May I sit here for a little?" he asked.  "I have hardly had two words
with you since you came back from Chumba.  I suppose you enjoyed it all
tremendously?"

"Oh yes.  It was delightful.  Do sit down."

The restraint of his manner was infectious, as restraint is apt to be;
and she was hampered by a prescience of things to come.

"I was awfully keen to go too," he said, as he obeyed her.  "But perhaps
it's just as well that I didn't get the chance, judging from . . . from
what I hear."

"You shouldn't judge from what you hear," she murmured.

"Shouldn't I?  But unluckily it fits in with . . . what I see.  Miss
Mayhew . . ." he pressed forward, his eyes searching her face, devout
worship in the sincere blue depths of them.  "Will you be angry with me,
if I ask you a straight question?"

She shook her head.

"And will you give me a straight answer?"

"If I can."

"Is it true that you are likely to . . . marry Maurice?"

"Not that I know of."  He took a great breath, like a condemned man who
hears his reprieve.

"Then, may I still believe . . . what you told me at Lahore?"

Her answer seemed an eternity in coming; for a plain 'yes' or 'no' were
equally far from the truth.  This boy of four-and-twenty gave her the
restful sense of reliance and reserve force that she so missed in
Maurice.  But there was no art, no thrill in his love-making.  It was
direct and simple as himself.  He never struck a chord of emotion and
left it quivering, as Maurice had done many times.

"May I?"--he persisted gently.

"I still think you are . . . the best man I know," she admitted, without
looking at him; and he flushed to the roots of his hair.

"But not the one you--care for most?  It's that that matters, you know."

"Oh, I can't tell--truly I can't," she pleaded distressfully.

"Then I must just go on waiting."

"I wish you wouldn't even do that."

"I can only prevent it by putting a bullet through my head."

The quiet finality of his tone was more convincing than volumes of
protestations; and she shuddered.

"Don't say such things, please.--You hurt me."

"I wouldn't do that for a kingdom.  But it's the truth.--I go down on the
fifteenth, you know."

"Yes.--I'm sorry."

"Are you?  Then why--oh, I don't understand you!" he broke off in despair.

"I'm not sure that I understand myself--yet.  It takes time, I suppose."

"Not when the right chap turns up, I fancy.  But I'll give you as much
time as you want.  I have a year's leave due.  Shall I take it, and go
home?"

She looked rueful.

"A year is a long time.  But perhaps that would be best.  You might
find--some one else there, who understood herself better."

"That's out of the question," he answered almost harshly.

"But at all events,--I'll go."

A prolonged silence followed this statement: and when he spoke again, it
was of other things.  Elsie followed suit: but the result was not
brilliant.  She endured the strain as long as she could; then inventing
an excuse, she left him; though, to her surprise, it hurt her more than
she could have believed a week ago.

That afternoon, during the progress of a hybrid gymkhana,--ranging from
steeplechasing to obstacle races for men and natives,--the first whisper
of current gossip reached Lenox's ears.

Standing behind a restless row of hats and parasols, he was watching with
some interest the preliminary canter of a horse he had backed heavily,
when Garth and Quita, deep in animated talk, passed across the line of
chairs, and a woman close to Lenox turned to her neighbour.

"That match is a certainty, Mrs Mayhew.  Say what you like.  I'm sure of
it.  I only wonder it hasn't been given out before now."

Mrs Mayhew shifted her parasol and inspected the retreating pair through
her gold-rimmed pince-nez, as though, by examining their shoulder-blades,
she could determine the exact state of their hearts.

"I don't quite know _what_ to think," she remarked with judicial
emphasis.  "I don't believe anything is a certainty where Major Garth is
concerned.  But if they are not engaged they _ought_ to be!  I don't like
that girl, though.  She is much too independent for my taste; and
engagement or no, she probably lets Major Garth make love to her.  He
would never have stuck to her for six months otherwise."

On the last words Lenox started as it a cold finger-tip had touched his
heart.  Such a thought had never occurred to him: and he could have
murdered, without compunction, the small self-satisfied woman who had
lodged the poisoned shaft in his mind.

Turning on his heel, he made straight for his tent, where a littered
camp-table gave proof that the art of taking a holiday could not be
reckoned among his accomplishments.  Then he sat down by it and bowed his
head upon his hands.  To doubt his wife's integrity was rank insult.  Yet
he knew Garth's evil reputation; knew also that the suggestion would
cling to his memory like a limpet, and torture him in the endless hours
of wakefulness from which there was now no way of escape.

Enforced abstinence from tobacco and stimulants had told severely upon
his nerves, appetite, and health; and a foretaste of the sleepless night
ahead of him tempted him to regret his hasty destruction of the bottle of
chlorodyne, which had not been replaced.

Till dusk he worked without intermission; and, as if by a fiendish nicety
of calculation, the evening mail-bag,--brought out by runner from
Dalhousie,--contained the coveted parcel of tobacco, whose arrival he had
alternately craved and dreaded throughout the past ten days.

Zyarulla set it before him with manifest satisfaction.

"Now will my Sahib taste comfort and peace again," he muttered into the
depths of his beard, and having cut the strings of the parcel, discreetly
withdrew.

For a while Lenox merely grasped his recovered treasure, feasting his
soul upon the knowledge that here, within the space of one small cube,
lay the promise of sleep, peace of mind, oblivion.  Then, with unsteady
hands, he opened the tin: took from his pocket a briar of great age and
greater virtue; filled it; lighted it; and drew in the first mouthful of
aromatic fragrance, with such rapture of refreshment as a man, parched
with fever, drains a glass held to his lips.

A great peace enfolded him: and no thought of resistance arose to break
the enchantment.  For the 'mighty and subtle' drug kills with kindness.
Coming to a tormented man in the guise of an angel of peace, it lures
him, lulls him, and wraps him about with false contentment before
plunging him into the pit.

While the holiday folk trooped into the long mess-tent, laughing or
lamenting over the afternoon's vicissitudes, Lenox sat at his table in
shirt and trousers, his pen devouring the loose sheets before him.  He
bade Zyarulla bring him meat, bread, and a cup of coffee, and deny
admittance even to 'Desmond Sahib' himself.  And throughout the night he
worked, and smoked, and finally slept as he had not slept since the
Bachelors' Ball.

Before dawn he was up, and out: a gun on his shoulder, field-glasses
slung across his back.  He had given orders for a party of beaters to be
requisitioned, in his name, from the Rajah's camp; and Zyarulla could be
trusted to see to it that he should not starve.  All day he tramped and
climbed, shot and sketched, to his huge satisfaction; and returning at
dusk, repeated his programme of the night before.

His departure without a word of explanation had roused Desmond's anxiety.
He suspected a fresh supply of tobacco; and this sudden invisibility
confirmed his worst fears.  He spoke of them to his wife after breakfast:
and for all her radiant hopefulness of heart, she had small consolation
to offer him.

The 'week's' events had disappointed her grievously; for the deadlock
between man and wife seemed complete.

"Truly, Theo, I don't know what to make of them both," she concluded
desperately.  "They are the most perverse couple that were ever invented.
Benedick and Beatrice were turtle-doves by comparison!  After this week I
shall give them up in despair."

"Poor darling!  They ought to mend their ways, if only out of
consideration for you!  Come on now and comfort your soul with tilting.
I want you to carry all before you in the tournament."

"Do you indeed!" she answered, laughing.  "But I shan't hit a single ring
to-day.  This distracting muddle is getting on my nerves!"

And if Honor Desmond found the strain of sympathetic anxiety ill to
endure, what of Quita, whose life's happiness hung upon the issue?

For her the Kajiar Camp, despite its light-comedy atmosphere, had proved
a nightmare of surface hilarity, broken rest, and growing distaste for
the man whose name she had permitted to be coupled with her own:--all to
no purpose, it seemed, save to inflate his self-satisfaction, and fortify
his intention, now too clearly manifest, of hindering to the utmost her
reunion with her husband.

Moreover, her self-imposed attitude became increasingly hard to maintain.
A flash of defiance is one thing; but sustained defiance, when the heart
has unblushingly gone over to the enemy, puts a severe strain upon the
nerves.

And what was to be the outcome?

The question stabbed her in the small hours, when ugly possibilities loom
large, like figures seen through mist.  So strongly had this late love
smitten her, that she had been capable of strangling pride, and taking
the initiative, had Lenox's bearing given her the smallest hope of
success.  But unsought surrender, plus the mortification of failure, was
more than she felt prepared to risk, even for a chance of winning the one
man in all the world:--the man who could at least belong to no other
woman, she assured herself with a throb of satisfaction.  Thus there
seemed no choice left but to go blindly forward along the line of least
resistance.

Lenox's non-appearance on Wednesday evening had startled her into fuller
knowledge of her dependence on his mere presence to maintain even a
mimicry of good spirits; and she heaped contempt upon her own head
accordingly.  Nevertheless she escaped at an early hour; and lay awake
half the night tormenting herself with unanswerable problems.

When breakfast brought no sign of him, she concluded that he must have
returned to Dalhousie in disgust: and the conclusion brought her near to
the end of her tether.  She took refuge in her tent, and, for the first
time in many years, sobbed shamelessly, till her eyelids smarted, and her
head throbbed and burned.  After that she felt better, and her
unquenchable courage revived.  There is much virtue in your
thunder-shower at the psychological moment!  She got upon her feet at
last; hands pressed against pulsing temples, swaying a little, like a
willow that the storm had shaken.  But cold water, eau-de-cologne, and
the stinging tonic of self-scorn, soon restored her to a semblance of her
normal aspect: and by lunch-time she was out again in the mocking
sunshine, swept unresisting back into the light-hearted whirl of things.

At tiffin, to her intense relief, Theo Desmond took the empty chair next
her own.  He had missed her during the morning: and a glance at her face
sufficed to give him an inkling of the truth.  All his heart went out to
her; and he hastened to answer the question in her eyes.

"Lenox went off at sunrise, for a day's shooting," he remarked
conversationally, when they had exchanged greetings.

She lifted her eyebrows.  "Did he?  Sensible man!  I suppose he is tired
to death of our frivolous fooling."

"That's rather severe!  I can't let you run him down.  The other thing's
more in his line, that's all; and it'll do him a power of good.  He
suffers cruelly from want of sleep, poor chap.--By the way, have you
heard the latest suggestion for to-morrow?"

"No.  I was--lying down this morning.  What is it?"

"A burlesque polo match: ladies against men: the men to play on
side-saddles by way of a mild handicap!  Some of the older folk are a bit
horrified at the notion.  But I believe it'll come off; and they want me
to captain the team."

"You?  One of the champions of the Punjaub!  What impertinence!  Shall
you?"

"Why, certainly.  It will be rather a lark."

"Well, then, I'll play too, if they'll have me.  Will you ask them,
please?"

He regarded her in frank astonishment.  "Jove!  I never thought of that.
Are you in earnest?"

"But yes.  In cut-throat earnest!" she answered, laughing.

"Ever tried your hand at it?"

"Never, in all my days.  I will this afternoon though, if you'll take me
in hand for an hour or so."

"With all the pleasure in life.  You can ride Diamond, if you like.  He
knows almost as much about the game as I do."

Her eyes sparkled.

"That gem of an Arab?  May I, really?  I always thought you were a man in
a hundred; and now I know it!  That's a bargain, then.  Things have been
deadly insipid the last two days.  But I have something to live for now!"

Garth received her announcement with open dismay.  He suspected Desmond's
influence: and, in his zeal to dissuade her, ventured on a mild tone of
authority, with disastrous results.

"Well, I shan't have a comfortable moment till the thing is safely over,"
he concluded unwisely: and she tossed an indignant head.

"Am I such a despicable horseman?" she demanded haughtily.  "Captain
Desmond doesn't find me so, I assure you."

And indeed, after an hour of assiduous instruction, Desmond had frankly
expressed his approval both of her aptness and daring.


When Lenox heard the news on Friday morning, he heartily wished he had
decided on a second day's shooting.

Anxiety apart, the knowledge that the woman he loved could thus make a
public exhibition of herself for the amusement of a very mixed crowd, set
the fastidious, old-world temper of the man on edge.  For all that he was
in his place, well before the appointed time: and from the first crack of
polo-stick on ball his eyes never left his wife's flushed face and
lightly swaying figure.

The polo ground, occupying the centre of the glade, was ringed about by a
crowd as varied and gay in colouring as a bed of mixed tulips in spring.
Even the open tent, where the English spectators were gathered, showed a
prevailing lightness and brightness of tint.  On the farther side of the
tent, the Depot band gave out a cheerful blare of sound; and a June sun
beamed complacently over all.

For the first twenty minutes the serio-comic game went forward merrily:
the women playing in desperate earnest; the men making broad farce out of
their ludicrous handicap.

Quita, who had elected to play Diamond first and fourth, was restrained
at the outset by the fact that she was handling a priceless pony.  But,
with the opening of the third _chukkur_, increasing self-confidence,
coupled with the pace and keenness of Bathurst's 'Unlimited Loo,' fired
her venturesome spirit: and she flung herself heart and soul into the
intoxication of the game; half hoping that some sudden crash and fall
might solve the problem of her life by the simple expedient of putting
out the light.

More than once Desmond called out an unheeded warning.  He saw that pony
and rider alike were in danger of losing their heads; and Lenox, leaning
forward in an anguish of suspense, followed her every movement with
conflicting fury and admiration.

At last the _chukkur_ drew to an end.

Away by the farthest goal-posts a fine parody of a scrimmage was in
progress, Desmond and Quita being 'on the ball.'  The advantage was hers;
and she made haste to secure it.  Rising in the saddle, she swung her
stick for an ambitious back-handed stroke, missed the ball, and smote
'Unlimited Loo,' with the full force of her arm, high up on the off
hind-leg.

At this uncalled bolt from the blue, the sensitive animal,--who had never
in all his days been chastised by a polo stick for doing his simple
duty,--lost his head outright.  His first bound snapped the curb chain;
and taking the bit between his teeth he bolted across the green as if all
the fiends in hell were after him.  In vain Quita sat back, and put her
whole light weight into her arms.  Sheer terror had caught hold of him:
and he headed blindly for the ring of natives, who broke away right and
left, with shrill cries that gave the finishing touch to his terror.

And now no more than a stretch of shelving turf lay between him and the
unfathomed lake.  Towards it he fled at an undiminished pace: and Quita,
sitting square and steady, with a rushing sound in her ears, foresaw that
in less than five minutes her mad hope might be terribly fulfilled.  For
at the lake's edge the pony must needs swerve sharply, or come to a dead
halt: and in either case, at their present rate of speed, she would be
flung violently out of the saddle.

Desmond dared not follow, lest he make matters worse.

Maurice sprang up from his seat in the pavilion, and stood transfixed,
helpless.  "_Nom de Dieu . . . que faire?  Elle va mourir!_" he muttered
with shaking lips: and Elsie, child as she was, yearned over him with all
the tenderness and pity of inherent motherhood.

Then the tall figure of Lenox broke away from the stunned crowd racing
diagonally across the clear stretch between the pony and the lake.

The instant Quita missed her stroke he had risen to his feet; and his
intent now was to reach a given spot simultaneously with the pony, and by
the force of his added weight on the reins save the situation.

A shout of approval went up from soldiers and natives; and 'Unlimited
Loo' fled faster.  He passed the point Lenox was making for a bare
hand's-length out of reach: but two strides landed him on a treacherous
strip of thinly-crusted bog that encircles the lake, and he sank up to
his knees in semi-liquid mud.

Quita, breathless and shaken, was jerked out of the saddle, and must have
fallen, ignominiously, face downward in her Slough of Despond, but that
Lenox,--reaching her in the nick of time--caught and crushed her in his
arms.

"You're not hurt.  Thank God, you're not hurt," he whispered unsteadily.

With a gasp of amazement that ended in a sob, she leaned her cheek
against his coat; and the riotous music of their hearts seemed to fill
the universe.

Then reality rushed in, and shattered the dream.  For Garth, Maurice, and
Bathurst were hurrying towards them.

Quita felt her husband stiffen, and lifted her head.

"Thank you--thank you," she said with a twisted smile.  "I think I can
stand on my feet now."

In two strides he was clear of the mud, and had set her on firm earth.
But she was still clinging to his arm when Garth came up, brimming with
concern.

"I'm quite disappointingly all right," she assured him hastily, stung by
a keen sense that her catastrophe had fallen headlong from impending
tragedy to bathos.  "Please bestow all your sympathy on Mr Bathurst, and
Unlimited Loo!"

For a second Garth looked up at the man who stood beside her; but only
for a second.  For in the Scotchman's eye hate gleamed like a naked
sword; and Garth had small taste for bared weapons of any kind.

"_Ah, mon pauvre Michel_!" Quita exclaimed, in a quick rush of
tenderness, as her brother half ran to her, white and panting, both hands
outstretched: and deserting Lenox, she flew to him, anathematising her
own folly in a rapid flow of French.  "Take me to my tent now," she
concluded, linking her arm in his.  "I still feel idiotically shaky, and
I am certainly no loss to my side!--Mr Bathurst"--she turned in Jeff's
direction--"please forgive me.  I promise I'll never ask you to lend me a
polo pony again!"

Bathurst,--who had rescued his treasure, and was feeling him all over
with skilled hands,--shouted a cheery: "Don't mention it, Miss Maurice.
Always glad to oblige a lady!"

And with a tired smile she turned back to Michael.

"_Viens, mon cher_," she said gently; and he led her away.

Conscious of Garth's eyes on her face, she could not trust herself to
look again at Lenox, who had neither moved nor spoken since he set her on
dry ground.  But that one moment in his arms had solved her problem in a
fashion that she dreamed not of: a fashion that still seemed past belief.
She knew now that she had never lost him; and her heart sang a Jubilate
Deo all the way to her tent.  But she knew also that his pride equalled
hers; that the first move was 'up to her'; and that now, at last, she
might make it without fear of rebuff.  But how--how?

Ten minutes later Maurice left her prostrate, in the twilight of her
tent;--eau de cologne on her temples, and a chaos of mixed emotions at
her heart.




CHAPTER XII.

  "How the world seems made for each of us;
  How all we perceive and know in it
  Tends to some moment's product,--thus,
  When the soul declares itself; to wit,
  By its fruit: the thing it does."
        --Browning.


Quita lacked courage to appear again in public till the dinner bugle
sounded.  Garth was her promised partner: and she found him awaiting
her just outside her tent.

"My turn now, dear lady," he said, pressing her fingertips against his
side, as she took his proffered arm.  "It has been a blank afternoon
for me; but in revenge, I mean to keep you all the evening."

"You are presumptuous, as always!" she answered with admirable
lightness.  "Your claim ends with dessert."

"Quite so.  But you are generous; and I can trust the rest to you,
since you know how much I want it."

She smiled, as in duty bound.  But to-night the man's facile gallantry
revolted her as it had never yet done.  She wondered how she had
endured it these many months.

The instant they entered the long tent her eyes sought and found the
thing they craved: though the sight of Lenox in his accustomed place
between the Desmonds reawakened her smouldering jealousy of Honor, and
gave the lie to her amazing instant of revelation.  But once during the
meal she encountered her husband's eyes.  It was as if he had put out a
hand and touched her; and her partner's veiled love-making became a
meaningless murmur at her ear.  Yet the surface of her brain travelled
mechanically along the beaten track of dinner-table talk: and Garth,
finding her gentler and more serious than her wont, deemed his hour of
triumph very near at hand.  Direct encouragement, in the face of his
hidden knowledge, had strengthened his conviction that for many weeks
she had been stifling her true feelings; that one touch at the right
moment would suffice to lift the veil, to bring her at last into his
arms.  Beyond that moment of mastery he did not choose to look.  For
to-night passion had elbowed prudence out of the field.  He had claimed
her for the evening; and he anticipated great things from the next two
hours under the stars.

At these informal camp dinners men and women left the table together;
only habitual card-players remaining behind to tempt fortune until the
small hours.  Quita's hope had been that Desmond might come to her aid.
But he had made up a rubber of whist; and to her dismay, she saw Lenox
and Honor depart without him.  Garth, who also noted their movements,
carefully led her round to the far side of a blazing bonfire, piled ten
feet high on this last night of Arcadia; and with a suppressed sigh she
resigned herself to an evening of comic songs and personalities; and
decided that a headache must rescue her, if no other champion were
forthcoming.

It was a clear night of stars.  The moon had not yet risen; though a
herald brightness gave news of her coming.  No least whisper of wind
stirred the tree-tops.  Sun-baked fir branches crackled and snapped
like fairy musketry; and many-hued flames,--rose and saffron,
heliotrope and sea-green,--played hide-and-seek among them, flinging
inverted shadows on faces nearest the blaze.

Human beings break into song round a bonfire as naturally as birds
after a shower of rain, and for those who see in such a fire no mere
holocaust of dead twigs, but the Red Flower of the Jungle, the symbol
and spirit of wild life, this spontaneous minstrelsy has a charm
peculiarly its own.  A charm of the simplest, certainly; for at
camp-fires the banjo reigns supreme; and the aptest songs are those
that 'rip your very heartstrings out' and offer fine facilities for
effervescing between the verses.

Already a remarkable assortment of these had challenged the winking
stars; and Quita was encouraging the requisite headache, while Garth
contemplated the suggestion of a stroll towards the lake, when Michael
Maurice came up to them.

"Quita, _chérie_, they have sent me to ask if you will sing.  I have my
fiddle here for accompaniment."

She hesitated.  A rare shyness, born of the afternoon's fiasco, was
still upon her.

"Who sent you?" she asked, smiling up at him.

"Colonel Mayhew, and several others."  He bent lower.  "_Tu es trop
fatiguée apres ce vilain polo_?"

"_Non, ce n'est pas ça . . . mais . . ._"

"Do, Miss Maurice, please, do," urged an enthusiastic young civilian on
her left.  "A woman's voice, especially yours, would be a rare treat
after our promiscuous shouting."

And on her other side Garth, pressing closer, whispered his plea.

"Don't disappoint me.  It is ages since I last heard you sing."

Without answering either, she touched her brother's arm.  "Tune up,
Michel," she said low and hurriedly.  "I have thought of a song."

Garth murmured his thanks with unusual _empressement_.  Her instant
acquiescence had both moved and flattered him; and his hopes rode high.
As a matter of fact, she had not even heard his request.  She had
simply obeyed an impulse, as in most crises of her life;--an impulse so
peremptory that it seemed almost a command from Beyond.

"What song is it to be?" Maurice asked, when the tuning process was
complete.

"Swinburne's 'Ask Nothing More.'"

He raised his eyebrows.  "A man's song?"

"Yes.  But you know I often sing it; and I want to . . . to-night."

"_Qu'y a-t-il, petite soeur_?" he asked, for her manner puzzled him.

"_Rien . . . rien de tout_.  Commence."

And he played the soft chords, pregnant with pleading, that usher in
the song.

A moment later, Lenox, leaning back in a canvas chair, sat upright, and
took the cigar from his lips.

"A woman singing?  Jove--it's Quita!" he added under his breath.  Then
he remained motionless, straining his eyes for a sight of her between
the dancing flames.

Clear and unfaltering her voice soared into the night; and as the song
swept on, through pleading to impassioned longing, the whole awakened
heart of her took fire from the poet's faultless phrases; till, in the
last verse, it spoke straightly and simply to her husband, as though
they two stood alone in the interstellar spaces of the universe.

  "I who have love, and no more,
  Give you but love of you, sweet;
  He that hath more, let him give;
  He that hath wings let him soar.
  Mine is the heart at your feet . . .
  Here that must love you . . . love you, to live!"


The last stupendous chords crashed into silence; and the fall of a
charred twig sounded loud in the pause that followed.  Then there came
from the shadowy circle of listeners no clatter of hands and voices,
but a low disjoined murmur;--the very attar of applause.

But by that time Quita was making her way blindly through the outskirts
of the crowd into the blessed region of darkness and stars.

For, as the last words left her lips, the full apprehension of her act
and its possible consequences submerged her in a red-hot wave of shame
and self-consciousness; and before Garth had recovered himself
sufficiently to rise and make the request that hovered on his lips, she
was gone.  For a space he sat still, lost in an amazement that swelled
to exultation as the conviction grew in him that at last, after long
and laudable repression, her heart had spoken, indirectly, yet
unmistakably; that now, scandal or no scandal, he must make her
altogether his.

And while he sat stunned to inaction by the vital issues at stake,
Quita hurried on toward the temple, with no purpose in her going save
to escape from the consciousness of human presence.  She stood still at
length, and wrung her hands together.

"Oh, but it was folly--worse than folly!  He will only think or
hateful,--theatrical.  He will never understand."

Yet if, by miraculous chance, he did understand . . . what then?  She
held her breath and waited; till the night seemed alive with voices
that laughed her to scorn.

The new-risen moon hung low as if caught and tangled among the
tree-tops of the forest that broke up her golden disc in fantastic
fashion.  Away there by the bonfire some one else was singing now; a
song with a boisterous chorus.  Her mad impulse had simply been added
to the mass of ineffectual things that form the groundwork of our rare
successes.

Suddenly she started, and raised her head.  The sound she desired yet
dreaded was close at hand.  He was coming to her.  He must have
understood.  And because she needed all her courage to face him, she
did it at once; for nothing saps courage like hesitation.

Then her heart stood still; a chill aura swept through her and she
shivered.  The dark figure nearing her was not Lenox.  It was Garth.

But that all power of initiative seemed gone from her, she must have
turned and fled.  Instead she stood her ground, without motion or
speech; and he, still misreading her, held out his arms.

"Quita . . . darling . . ." he began, his voice thick with passion.

But her name on his lips roused her like a pistol-shot.

"Go back . . . please go back," she cried imperatively.  "I came away
because I wanted . . . to be alone."

"But I thought . . ."

"I can't help what you thought!  If you have any--respect for me at
all, you will do what I ask."

"Of course.  Only I shall see you again to-night.  I must."

"No . . . no.  Not to-night."

"To-morrow then?"

But she had already left him; and for his part, he must needs return
the way he came,--frustrated, yet not enlightened; cursing, in no
measured terms, the unfathomable ways of women.  No doubt she was
upset, unstrung by the knowledge of all that her confession implied;
and woman-like, showed small regard for his consuming impatience to
possess her.  But to-morrow he would ride home with her.  And after
that--the Deluge!

Quita left alone again went forward with lagging feet, and a heart
emptied of hope.  Her own disappointment crowded out all thought of
Garth's unusual behaviour; till renewed steps behind her suggested the
astonishing possibility that he had dared to disregard her request, and
followed her, in spite of all.  The suggestion roused not fear, but
anger, and the militant spirit of independence that circumstances had
so fostered in her.

She knew now that she hated him, as we only hate those whom we have
wronged.  It was intolerable that he should persecute her against her
wish; and she swung round sharply, with words of pitiless truth on her
lips.

But the night seemed marked for the unexpected:--and now it was joy
incredible that fettered her tongue and her feet, while her husband
hastened forward, his face clearly visible in the growing light.

"I followed that fellow when he went after you," he said bluntly, anger
smouldering in his tone.  "And I saw him leave you.  Did you send him
away?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

"I didn't want him."

"Does that apply to me also?"

"No . . . please stay."

There fell a silence pregnant with things unutterable.  Lenox came
closer.

"What possessed you to sing that song,--in that way--Quita?"

It was the first time he had spoken her name, and she turned from him,
pressing her fingers against flaming cheeks.

"Oh, I am burnt up with shame!  I feel as if I had told all of them."

"Told them--what?"

"_Mon Dieu_!  Will you compel me to say everything?"

She flung out both hands, and he caught and crushed them till she
winced under the pressure.  Then, holding her at arm's-length, he
looked searchingly into her eyes.

And while they stood so--in this their first instant of real union,
that dwarfed the years between to a watch in the night--each was aware
of the other's answering heart; and in each, love burnt with so
flame-like a quality that neither speech nor touch was needed to seal
the intimacy of contact.

At length he drew her nearer.

"Does it frighten you now when I look right into you?" he asked, an odd
vibration in his voice.

"No . . . no.  I am only afraid you may not see deep enough."

He drew a great breath.

"Thank God for that.  But tell me,--for I am still in the dark,--how on
earth has such a miracle come to pass?"

Her low laugh had a ring of inexpressible content.

"Dearest, and blindest!  Did it never occur to you that you could not
have laid a surer trap to win me than by just keeping clear of me, and
living in . . . that Mrs Desmond's pocket?"

He shook his head, smiling down at her.  Her old subtle charm with this
strange new tenderness superadded, was working like an elixir in his
veins.

"But what does the _how_ of it matter, after all?" she went on, leaning
closer, and speaking low and fervently.  "Isn't it enough that I love
you with all there is of me . . . Eldred; that I ask you to believe me,
and to make me . . . your very wife.  There: you have compelled me to
say everything!  Are you satisfied now?"

To such a question he could find no answer in words.  But his silence
was cardinal.  He put an arm round her, straining her close, and with a
sigh of sheer rapture she lifted her face to his.

Their eyes met.  Then their lips; and Eldred Lenox entered into a
knowledge that he dreamed not of.  The whole soul of his wife came to
him in that kiss; and for a long minute ecstacy held them.

Then he released her, slowly . . . reluctantly.

"Shall we sit out here?" he said.  "The whole camp will soon be asleep;
but I can't let you go yet."

She sank down, forthwith, upon the grassy slope, in which the fire of a
June sun still lingered; and clasping her hands about her knees, looked
up at him invitingly.  By way of response he stretched himself full
length, a little below her, resting on his elbow in such a position as
afforded him a clear view of her profile, that gleamed, like a cameo
against a background of deodars.

"Smoke," she said softly.

"No.  I think not."

His tone had a touch of constraint, and a lone silence fell.

The strange solitude about them was no stranger than the enchantment of
being alone in it together; and there was that in their hearts that
made speech difficult.

They sat looking northward toward the moonlit hollow where the station
camp clustered close to the forest's edge.  Behind the camp--a mass of
unbroken shadow--it climbed up and upward to the mystery of a sky,
powdered with the gold-dust of faint stars, on which its jagged outline
was printed black as ink.  Beyond that again, one majestic
snow-peak,--like a stainless soul rising out of a tomb,--gleamed in the
light of an increasingly brilliant moon.  The crowd round the bonfire
had crumbled into a hundred insignificant seeming units; and the fire
itself, no longer aspiring to the stars, glowed like an angry eye in
the dusky face of the glade.

Presently Quita spoke.

"There is so endlessly much to say, that I don't know where to begin.
And after all, I am utterly content just to feel that you are there;
that I have really got you back at last."

"You have had me, body and soul, these five years," he answered simply.
"It is I who have gained you, by some miracle of your womanhood that I
shall never fathom."

"If you set it down to your own manhood, you might be nearer the mark.
You are very much too humble, Eldred; and I love you for it,--always
did."

"Always?"

"I verily believe so."

"Good God!  I never misjudged you, did I?  If you . . . cared _then_,
why ever did you leave me?"

"Because you gave me no time to take it in.  But I am sure now that the
germ was there.  I think your . . . kisses must have waked it into
life.  That was why they upset me so.  And when I came back, I meant
to . . .  Oh why should we rake it all up again?  It hurts too much."

"But I must know everything now, Quita.  You meant to tell me,--was
that it?"

"Yes.  Though I own it was rather late in the day.  Then you sprang it
upon me with that letter.  I detest the man who wrote it, and I always
shall.  There was just enough of truth in it, and in your bitter
reproaches, to make me feel the hopelessness of lame explanations.
Besides, your anger frightened me, though I didn't show it; and I
simply acted on a blind impulse to escape from the unknown things
ahead; to get back to the love and work I could understand."

"My poor darling!  What a blackguard I was to you!"

"Hush!  You are not to say that."

"I will.  It's true.  But . . . didn't you care a great deal for the
other chap?"

"I imagined I did.  Girls can't always analyse new feelings of that
sort.  I can see now that it was chiefly mental sympathy between us, on
my side at least.  But I only discovered that when the real thing
came--in a flash."

"When was that?" he asked on a note of eagerness.

"One May morning on the Kajiar road!  I knew then that I must have
cared always, without guessing it.  But your coolness roused my pride;
and I vowed that if you had wiped me out of your heart, I would die
sooner than let you suspect my discovery.  Yet all the while I longed
for you to know it; and in the end, goaded by your blindness, and your
astonishing want of conceit, I break my pride into a hundred little
bits.  _Ai-je été assez femme_?" she concluded with a whimsical smile.

One of her hands lay on the grass beside him.  He covered it with his
own.

"And was the amazing discovery responsible for the Garth episode?"  His
tone had a hint of anxiety.

"For the latter part of it, yes; though we have been friends all the
winter.  He is at least moderately intelligent; and an intelligent
egoist is always interesting.  Besides, companionship is the breath of
life to me, you understand; and I seldom manage to make friends with
women."

"The other kind of friendship is an edged tool."

"And therefore irresistible!  It's like fencing with the buttons off
the foils."

"You speak from much practical experience?"

"Yes.  I have had my share of it.  But please believe me, Eldred,"--she
hesitated,--"I have been as loyal to you in word and deed, all these
years, as if I had borne your name, and lived under your roof.  In
spite of my weakness for edged tools, I have never let any man tell me
that he loved me since you told me so yourself, in the dark ages.  And
if a few have wanted to do so, I could hardly help that, could I?"

"No more than you could help breathing or sleeping," he answered with a
slow strong pressure of her hand.

"I know I ought not to have let Major Garth see so much of me after I
saw how it was with him, but--since it's the whole truth to-night--I
confess your aloofness hurt me so, that I wanted to see if I could
rouse you to a spark of feeling by hurting you back, and I chose the
weapon readiest to my hand."

"You struck deep with it.  Does the knowledge give you any
satisfaction?"

"It fills my cup of shame to overflowing.  Yet,--come to think of
things, you did much the same without realising it."

"Which makes a vast difference, surely?"

"Not to me, _mon ami_.  It is only God who judges by the intention;
possibly because He never suffers from the action."

"Quita!  That's irreverent!"

"Is it?  I'm sorry if it sets your Scottish prickles on end!  Are
you . . . a very religious man, Eldred?"

"I believe in God," he answered simply.

A short silence followed the statement.  Then Quita spoke.

"But you see, don't you, dear man, that I spoke truth.  My pain was
none the less sharp because you inflicted it unwittingly.  It's one of
the things people are apt to forget."

"Your pain?  Before God I never dreamed that any act of mine could give
you a minute's uneasiness; though Mrs Desmond . . ."

"Don't begin about Mrs Desmond, please!"  She drew her hand away with a
touch of impatience.  "She is everything that is perfect, of course.
But I hate her; and I believe I always shall."

Lenox turned on his elbow and looked up into her face.

"My dear . . . I can't let you speak so of my best friend.  We owe her
everything, you and I.  You shall hear about it all one of these days.
And apart from that, she is . . ."

"Yes, yes.  I can see what she is, clearly enough.  A superbly
beautiful woman, outside and in, who possesses a good deal of influence
over you.  I can be just to her, you see, if I am . . . jealous."

"Jealous?  Nonsense.  The word is an insult to her, and to me."

She reddened under the reproof in his tone.

"Forgive me.  I didn't mean it so.  I am only afraid that after close
intimacy with her you will find--your wife rather a poor thing by
comparison.  Just the 'eternal feminine' with all an artist's egoism,
and more than the full complement of faults."

She spoke so simply, and with such transparent sincerity, that again he
turned on her abruptly; his smouldering passion quickened to a flame.

"Quita . . . you dear woman . . . if I could only make you
realise . . . !"

But long repression, and the knowledge that was poisoning his perfect
hour, constrained him to reticence.  He dared not let himself go.

"I think I do realise . . . now . . ." she whispered, stirred to the
depths by the repressed intensity of his tone.

"Then don't belittle yourself any more.  I forbid it.  You understand?"

Again he heard the low laugh on which her soul seemed to ride.  Then,
leaning impulsively down to him, she put her bare arms round his
shoulders from behind, and rested her cheek upon his hair.

The man held his breath, and remained very still, as if fearful lest
word or movement should break the spell.  After five years of unloved
loneliness, this first spontaneous caress from his wife, with its
delicate suggestion of intimacy, seemed to break down invisible
barriers and set new life coursing in his veins.

"You forbid it?" she echoed, on a tremulous note of happiness.  "And
you have the right to.  You, and no one else in all the world!  You
laughed at me in the old days--do you remember?--for clutching at my
independence.  Well, I have had my surfeit of it now; and I am
desperately tired of standing alone . . . darling."

She paused before the unfamiliar word, unconsciously accentuating its
effect, and Lenox, taking her two hands in one of his own, kissed them
fervently.  The moment he dreaded was upon him, and in the face of her
impassioned tenderness he scarcely knew how to meet it.

"You should not stand alone one minute longer, if I could have my
will," he said in a repressed voice.

She lifted her head and looked at him.

"And why can't you have your will?  What are we going to do about it,
Eldred?"

"Nothing in a hurry," he answered slowly.  "We paid too dearly for that
last time."

"But, _mon cher_ . . . we have waited five whole years."

"That is just the difficulty.  Five years of overwork and bitterness of
spirit are not to be wiped out in a single hour; even such an hour as
this.  The man you married had not gone through the fire, and been
badly burned in the process."

He paused.  The irony of their reversed positions stung him to the
quick, and she sat watching his face.  The pallor of moonlight
intensified its ruggedness, its deep indentations of cheek and brow.
She began to be aware that the dropped stitches of life cannot always
be picked up again at will; that there is no tyrant more pitiless than
the Past; and a vague dread took hold of her, sealing her lips.

"We have got to look facts in the face to-night," Lenox went on with
the doggedness of his race.  "I'm a poor hand at discussing myself.
It's an unprofitable subject.  But I can't let you rush headlong into a
reunion that may prove disastrous . . . for you.  To-night's revelation
has astounded me.  It isn't easy to get one's bearings all at once; but
before we take any further irretrievable step I am bound, in
conscience, to tell you how the land lies.  When you--repudiated me, I
accepted your decision as final.  I never dreamed of your coming back;
and I acted accordingly.  I took to work as I might have taken to
drink, if I had been made that way; with the natural result that
I . . . smoked a great deal too much, and slept too little.  I saw no
earthly reason to husband my strength, or my life; and in consequence,
I have gained something of a reputation for tackling dangerous and
difficult jobs.  There's plenty more work of the kind ahead, with the
forward policy in full swing; and one can't go back on all that has
been done.  You see that, don't you?"

"Yes.  But couldn't I ever go with you?"

He smiled.  "I believe you have grit enough!  But it would be unheard
of.  Besides . . . there is another trouble, and a very serious one,
blocking the way."

"You will tell me what it is?"

He did not answer at once.  To blacken himself deliberately in the eyes
of the woman he loves is no light ordeal for a man; and Lenox shrank
from it with the peculiar sensitiveness of a nature at once humble and
proud; the more so since to-night had brought home to him the
heart-breaking truth that in "the devil's wedlock of evil and pain" one
can never suffer alone.

But a great love had been given him, and a force stronger than his will
impelled him to speak truth, even at the cost of losing it.

"Yes . . . I will tell you what it is," he said slowly, looking
straight before him.  "You have the right to know."

And in a few blunt words, unsoftened by excuse or justification, he
told her, not the fact only, but his dread of its far-reaching effect.

"And it seems plain as daylight to me," he added bitterly, "that a man
so cursed has no right to multiply misery by taking a woman into his
life.  That was the real reason why I kept clear of you latterly, and
tried to thank God that you did not care."

He could not trust himself to look round at her face, but he felt her
lean close to him again.  For the unobtrusive strength of the man stood
revealed in his confession; and it is woman's second nature to admire
strength.

"Eldred, . . . my husband," she breathed, her voice breaking on the
word.  "How cruelly you must have suffered!  And it was all _my_ fault."

There spoke the woman!--intent upon the individual; blind--wilfully or
otherwise--to the larger issues involved.

"It was _not_ your fault," he answered with smothered vehemence.  "And
in any case, don't you see, it's no question of blame, but of
consequences.  And we dare not shut our eyes to them.  For this
business of marriage is a complicated affair.  What's more, I believe
the wrench of immediate separation, with the comparative freedom it
involves, would come less hard on you in the long-run, than actual
marriage with a man of my stamp.--Oh, you would find me a sorry bargain
all round, I assure you," he concluded with a short, hard laugh.  "And
you will do well to think twice before you burn your boats for me!"

She slid lower down the slope, and laid one hand on his knee.

"I don't choose to think twice; and I _have_ burnt my boats as it is!
Besides . . . you will be strong to conquer your trouble, now you know
that all my happiness depends upon it."  She paused for an appreciable
moment.  "We seem to have changed places since that long-ago morning,
Eldred.  It is I who want--to begin now--on any terms."

He put out his arm, and drew her very close to him.

"Feckless as ever!" he chided without severity.  "You dismissed me on
an impulse; and now you would take me back again with the same
stupendous disregard for results.  It is very evident you need some one
to look after you, and teach you common-sense."

"I have told you already _who_ it is that I need.  Isn't that enough?"

The thrill in her low tone set all the man in him on fire.  The
influence of the hour was strong upon him.

"My God!" he muttered under his breath.  "How can mere flesh and blood
hold out against you?"

"Must you hold out against me--even after what I said?"

She nestled nearer, and stray tendrils of hair softly brushed his
cheek.  His lips whitened, but he set them close.  Her touch, the
perfume of her passion, had their exalting effect on him.  Her weakness
challenged his strength.

"Yes; I must," he answered quietly.  "For your sake, my dear, and for
my own self-respect.  I am fighting this thing, you understand, with
every weapon at my command.  And until I see my way clear out on the
other side, I will not--I dare not--take you back.  Now come.  It is
high time you were asleep.  We can't stay out here together all night."

"We have every right to . . . if we choose," she murmured, still
rebellious.

"You forget, I am to teach you common-sense!  There is to-morrow to be
thought of, and your long ride back to Dalhousie."

A small shiver ran through her.

"I am afraid of to-morrow.  I shall wake up and feel as if all this had
been a dream.  When shall I see you again . . . alone?"

"I will come up and call on you the day after!" he said, assuming a
deliberate lightness in sheer self-defence.  "Don't let me find Garth
there, though; or I warn you I shall not be accountable for my
behaviour!"

He rose on the words, and lifted her to her feet.  They descended the
slope in silence, walking a little apart, as if accentuating the fact
that their reunion in this June night of enchantment and faint stars
was an incomplete thing after all.

The moon was near her zenith; and, outside the formless dark of the
forest, the great glade held her radiance as a goblet holds wine.  Past
the half-hidden temple of the holy lake they moved leisurely towards
the cluster of tents that showed like a pallid excrescence at the
forest's edge.  To-night again, as on that earlier unforgettable day,
they seemed the only living beings in a world of shadows and folded
wings; and the decree of separation, coming at such a moment, put a
severe strain on their self-control.

Fifty feet from Quita's tent they stood still.

She held out her hands.  He pressed them closely between his own, that
were strangely cold, and lifted them to his lips.  Then she swayed
forward unsteadily; and in an instant her face was hidden against his
shoulder, her whole frame shaken with soundless sobs.

A woman in tears sets even a case-hardened man at a disadvantage; and
Lenox, confronted with the phenomenon for the first time in his life,
experienced a sense of helpless bewilderment, coupled with a vague
conviction of his own brutality in having brought this happy-hearted
wife of his to such a pass.  He could not guess that after a week of
ceaseless tension, played out with no little fortitude, this moment of
unrestraint came as a pure relief to her overwrought nerves; a relief
that verged upon ecstasy, since her husband's arm was round her, his
hand mechanically stroking her hair.

"Hold up, hold up," he urged her gently.  "This sort of thing will
never do."

But control, once lost, is ill to regain.  His words produced no
visible affect, for in her momentary abandonment, she could not see his
face; or guess at the struggle that was enacting behind its curtain of
self-mastery.  And now, to discomfiture was added an overpowering
temptation to trample on all scruples of conscience; to take that which
was his, without further let or hindrance; and put an end to their
distracting situation once for all.

"Quita, . . . my darling wife . . . !" he broke out desperately.  "For
Heaven's sake pull yourself together.  You are torturing me past
endurance.  Do you suppose it is an easy thing . . . to let you go?"

She raised her head at that, compressing her lips to still their tremor.

"Forgive me, . . . dearest.  It was stupid of me to make a fuss.  I
will go now; and I promise not to behave like this again."

She deliberately drew his head down to her own; and they kissed, once.
Then she left him, something hurriedly; and he stood transfixed looking
after her, till the falling flap of the tent hid her from view.


There could be no thought of sleep for Eldred Lenox that night.

Till the moon slipped behind the pines, and the sentinel snow-peak in
the North caught, and flung back, the first glimmer of dawn, he paced
the empty glade from end to end.  His mouth and throat were parched.
His every nerve clamoured for the accustomed narcotic.  But pipe and
tobacco-pouch reposed in his breast-pocket--untouched.




CHAPTER XIII.

  "Ah, Love, but a day,
    And the world has changed!"
        --Browning.


An early return journey had been advocated by all experienced weather
prophets of the mushroom colony of Kajiar.  The great monsoon was
already rolling up from the coast-line, and at any moment might break
in thunder over the hills.

By eight of the morning tent-poles were swaying and falling on all
sides: and the wide glade that had slept in silver when Quita parted
from her husband, was astir from end to end.  From every corner came
the brisk insistent tapping of hammers on tent-pegs; the shrill
neighing of ponies, and shriller chatter of coolies, bargaining for
payment in advance; repudiating loads a few ounces overweight, and
tragically prophesying death on the road if the illegal incubus were
not removed.

Peremptory bugle-notes rang out upon the air; and mounted Englishmen,
galloping hither and thither, scattered commands right and left in a
series of deep-chested shouts.

Striking camp,--breaking up!  It is the key-note of Anglo-Indian life.
The chord of change unchanging sounds unceasingly in travel-weary ears.

But experience breeds proficiency; and the native servant is an adept
in the art of so oiling the wheels that his master shall accomplish his
appointed pilgrimage with the least possible damage to his much-tried
nervous system.

Zyarulla, the indomitable, was a man of this order.  In his opinion the
Sahib had no concern whatever with the minor details of the march: an
opinion with which the Sahib in question had not the smallest desire to
quarrel.  And on this particular morning Lenox had little attention to
spare even for the sorting and bestowal of his priceless
manuscripts,--so impatient was he to verify the dream-like happenings
of the night; to look into his wife's eyes and feel the answering
pressure of her hand.  Swallowing a hasty cup of tea and a banana while
he dressed, he hastened out to the place of their parting seven hours
earlier.

Afar off he caught sight of her, standing, in habit and _terai_, on the
open space where her tent had been, supervising the departure of her
last load of luggage, and listening patiently to tales of coolie
villainy and extortion poured forth by her Kashmiri ayah, on a high
note of vituperation.

He checked his advance for the pure pleasure of watching her from a
distance: and when the ayah,--denouncing as she ran,--hurried off in
the wake of her refractory army, he went briskly forward and held out
his hand.

She gave him her own without a word, and for a full minute of time they
stood thus, hands and eyes inter-locked, oblivious of the noisy world
about them, which, happily for them, was absorbed in matters of far
greater moment.

"Can't I help you?" Lenox asked; and the simple question, with all that
it implied of his renewed right of service, thrilled her like a caress.

"I wish you could.  But I've got through most of it already."

"That's bad luck.  Maurice not much use on these occasions, I suppose?"

"Not the smallest use, bless him!  He says I have more talent for it
than he!  But call him Michael, _cher ami_, only to me."

"Michael then, by all means--Quita.--You can't think what it is to me
to be able to call you by your name again," he added with sudden
fervour.

She laughed and blushed deliciously.

"I noticed that you never called me by--the other one," she said,
looking intently at a distant tree.

"Good Lord, no--I'd have bitten my tongue out sooner!"

He could not keep his eyes from her face; and as the blush died down
its pallor smote him.

"Did you sleep at all?" he asked abruptly.

"Yes; for an hour or two.  Did you?"

"Didn't even lie down."

"Oh, _mon pauvre_----!"

"Hush!--Don't trouble your dear head about that,"

"But I must.  It breaks my heart----"

He laughed.  "That's worse than ever!  You've got to keep your heart
intact--for me."

His eyes travelled from her face to her unadorned left hand.  Hers
followed them; and a half smile parted her lips.

"Where d'you keep them?" he asked under his breath.

Still smiling, she unfastened two buttons of her habit and vouchsafed
him a glimpse of gold and diamonds.  "They live on a chain--in there,"
she explained softly.

"You have worn them, then, after a fashion?"

"Yes: since I learnt to love--my bondage!"

"Did you really never wish that I might be conveniently wiped out, even
in the early days?"

"No, never:--and I am thankful now that I _can_ say 'No' with perfect
truth."

She drew in a long breath of ecstasy.  The morning cheerfulness of the
world at large, the music of her own pulses, and of the man's voice,
vibrant with things inexpressible, filled her with a very oppression of
happiness.

"Oh, Eldred," she breathed.  "It still feels like a dream.  Let's talk
sheer prose just to make it feel real!--Are you and the Desmonds riding
back with Colonel and Miss Mayhew?"

"Yes."

"So are we."

"And Garth?"

"I suppose so.  But I want _you_ to ride with me.  Will you--darling?"

She added the entreaty of her eyes to the last word, and he hesitated.

"It will look a little odd, and sudden, of course.  But I don't see why
I shouldn't."

"Nor do I.  We can at least begin our courtship--can't we?--to prepare
people for what is to come!  Besides--if it isn't you, it will be Major
Garth, and . . . I'm a little afraid of him after last night."

"Why?  What the devil did he do?"

"Nothing--nothing definite.  He only spoke rather strangely before I
sent him away; and I don't want to be alone with him, if I can help it.
You see, he . . . he cares for me, Eldred; and I am afraid he thinks
now that I--care for him.  Oh, I feel contemptuously wicked!  But I
have been rather desperate this week, all on account of you; and I
really think it's your business to protect me from the consequences!"

"Of course it is my business, and my privilege to protect you," he
answered fervently.  Her confession of dependence was sweeter to him
than honey in the honeycomb.  "But you gave me an almighty snubbing the
other day when I made a clumsy attempt at it."

"Make allowances, _mon cher_, and don't fail me now."

"Fail you?"  He flashed a reproachful glance at her.  "I hope I may
never do that, while there's breath in my body!  Trust me to be at your
right hand when we start.  Mrs Desmond will have wit enough to
capture--your friend, if she sees that I want you."

"Why?  Does she know all about it?"

"Just the bare facts.  I told her myself."

"And he?"

"Certainly.  They are one, those two, if ever man and woman achieved
the miracle."

"Does that account for his flattering attentions to me since Chumba?"

"Quite possibly."

"But that wasn't fair play!  He is such a grand fellow; and I was so
proud of my small conquest!"

Her lighter mood was even more irresistible than her seriousness had
been: but Lenox palled himself together.

"Tell him so, and you'll make your conquest at once, if you've not made
it already!  Hullo--there is the last breakfast bugle.  Shall we go in
together?  If I am doomed to fall in love with you, I may as well set
about it at once!"

Her answering look set a crown on him.

"Ah, my dear," she whispered.  "In spite of all you said last night, I
am happy beyond words."

"So am I," he answered simply.  "Come."


From her own area of luggage-strewn ground, Honor Desmond,--carrying
little Paul, whom she had insisted on bringing into camp,--looked after
them as they went, her glad heart in her eyes; and Desmond, coming up
from behind, took her lightly by the arm.

"Well, old lady," he asked.  "Are you satisfied yet?"

"Abundantly."

"And am I to get my wife back again as a reward for distinguished
services rendered?"

"I imagine so!" she answered, laughing happily.  "Unless you would
rather keep your grievance!--Now go on to breakfast, darling; and I'll
follow when I have packed this priceless person into his dandy.
Whatever happens, he and Parbutti must run no risk of getting drenched."

Breakfast was half through before Garth sauntered into the mess-tent:
and Honor, who had watched for his coming, felt an unbidden pang of
pity at sight of his blank face, when he beheld Quita sitting beside
her husband, a bright spot of colour in either cheek, her eyes
radiating a light that refused to be hidden under a bushel.

The unexpected blow roused all the devil in him.  Man of prudence
though he was, he could have murdered Lenox at that moment.  But life
rarely lends itself to melodrama: and instead he sat down at the far
end of the table; and, for once in his life, ate a meal without being
aware of its quality.  His brain was busy reviewing the events of the
previous day; putting two and two together, and trying not to see that
they made four.  A physical chill took him as he realised how narrowly
he had escaped the ignominy of betraying the fact that he had counted
on the consent of this proudest among women to the only proposals
possible in the circumstances.

It was an awkward corner for James Garth; and in his chequered
experience of awkward corners the _rôle_ of victim had rarely been his.
Even the witness of his eyes did not carry conviction.  By some means
he must contrive to ride home with her, and learn from her lips the
'wherefore' of this astonishing change of front.  He reflected that
Lenox had little _finesse_, and anticipated small trouble in
circumventing him.

But he reckoned without Honor Desmond, whose strategical skill came to
her from a long line of distinguished soldiers, and whose sympathies
had been touched to the quick by the grave contentment in Eldred
Lenox's eyes when they lingered on his wife's face and figure.

Breakfast over, she accosted Garth straightway with a cheerful morning
greeting: and from that moment, to the time of their departure, she
took charge of him, gently yet irresistibly; keeping him well away from
Quita's neighbourhood; and so isolating him that he could not desert
her without open rudeness: proceedings that at once mystified and
flattered him, as Honor herself was delightedly aware.

For a full hour the exodus of man and beast went noisily forward.  But
Colonel Mayhew's departure was delayed by his desire to see the Chumba
contingent well under weigh before leaving: and by the time he
announced his readiness to start, the last remaining units of the Great
Camp were out of sight, trotting briskly along the shadowed road that
winds up through the forest to Bukrota Mall.

"If we push along briskly we may get in with dry skins yet," he said,
scanning the sky, where a vanguard of tattered cloud trailed aimlessly
across the blue.

"And I was actually hoping we might get caught!" Quita confessed on a
mock note of apology.  "It would make such a thrilling _finale_: and I
delight in your Indian storms."

Colonel Mayhew laughed and shook his head.

"When you have seen and heard as many of them as I have, Miss Maurice,
you will simply find them 'demnition damp and disagreeable,' like
Mantalini's dead body!  And even at the risk of disappointing you, I
intend to make a bolt for it.--Come on, my contingent!"

Lenox was at his wife's right hand, as he had promised: and Garth had
so far succumbed as to lift Mrs Desmond into her saddle.

"You are a practised hand at it!" she said, smiling down upon his
obvious annoyance at the fate in store for him.  "Why shouldn't you and
I head the contingent?  Some one must go first!"

There was nothing for it but to acquiesce; and to endure, as best he
might, the torment of Quita's clear tones close behind, alternating
with her husband's bass; both voices pitched too low to be articulate,
Desmond followed with Mayhew, while Maurice and Elsie, and the
customary string of coolies, brought up the rear.

For the first few miles splashes of sunlight gleamed and quivered on
the rough pathway, on red-pine stems, and moss-coated rocks.  But
before half their journey was accomplished, it became evident that they
were not to escape the opening storm of the great monsoon.

A shuddering wind set the dense pines above and below them swaying and
moaning, a sound of strange and infinite melancholy.  The sunlight went
out like a snuffed candle; battalions of clouds, charged with
electricity, rolled silently northward, obliterating all things; and an
ochreous twilight settled down upon the forest.  Save for the
whispering of wind-tossed trees, all Nature seemed hushed, expectant,
holding her breath.

The dusky stillness wrought upon the nerves of the riders, producing a
vague, discomfortable sense of foreboding.  Talk grew fitful; and was
instinctively carried on in lowered tones.

"Push on a bit faster, Mrs Desmond.  It would be as well to get out
where the trees are thinner before the worst is upon us."

Colonel Mayhew's voice had an anxious note.  He had weathered the
opening storm of many monsoons; but his daughter's presence wakened in
him a new fear of the thunderbolts of the gods.

Even as he spoke, a phosphorescent gleam sped through the trees, like a
passing soul; and a threatening growl rumbled up from the South.  It
was the prelude.  Two minutes later, rocks, stems, branches, and the
minutest fir-needles that flickered against the grey, showed like
ink-strokes on tarnished silver as a forked flash, leaped, quivering,
from the heart of a blue-black cloud.  The report that followed, after
scarce five seconds of stillness, was smart, crisp, short as a
revolver-shot; and long before a hundred peaks had made an end of
flinging back the sound, a second flash and crash--in swifter
succession--smote the eyes and ears of the riders, who now urged their
horses to a canter, _saises_, coolies, and three devoted dogs panting
zealously behind them.

Their hope was to gain shelter in the Government woodsheds, two miles
ahead, before the inevitable downpour came to drench their bodies and
impede their progress.  But fate was in a merciless mood on that June
morning.

The third flash split up the sky as a stone splits a window pane.
Pulsating streaks of fire, red, green, and blue, radiated in all
directions, half-blinding them with the brazen glare.  And before it
faded, a crackling detonation seemed to rip the very heavens from marge
to marge.

As yet no rain had fallen: and for ten deafening minutes the little
party rode in silence through an inferno of reiterate light and sound.
Once or twice Quita glanced at her husband, cantering beside her, and
wondered vaguely when she would hear him speak again; wondered, too, at
her own matter-of-fact acceptance of that which a week ago had appeared
impossible.  But the storm stunned heart and brain, as well as eye and
ear.  Everything human,--life, death, love itself,--seemed trivial in
face of this stupendous battle of the elements.  Above them, and on all
sides of them, the lightning leaped and darted, like a live thing
seeking its prey.  It was as if the sombre heavens were bringing forth
brood upon brood of fiery serpents, and greeting the birth of each with
ear-splitting peals of Titanic laughter.

Then came the rain:--not in mere drops, but in a solid sheet of water,
blinding, drenching, stupefying.  At the same instant the fury of the
storm culminated in a blaze of white light that seemed to spring upon
them from all sides at once, with a shout as of fiends let loose; and,
through the echoing after-roll of thunder, came a sharper, harsher
sound,--the death note of a mighty tree.

Lenox and his wife faced one another involuntarily with startled looks.

"How appalling!--What was it?" she asked between two breaths.

"A pine struck somewhere up the _khud_.  Not frightened, are you,
lass?" he added with tender concern.  "It's the very thing you wanted.
You've got your thrilling finale with a vengeance!"

A clatter of breaking branches made him look up.  "Great God!" he
cried, on a note of alarm.  "Back your pony sharp.  It's coming down on
the top of us!"

And as she obeyed, with the swift instinct of fear, Desmond's voice
reached him through the rush of the rain.

"Look out for yourself, Lenox!  She's safe enough."

But before the words were out, the upper half of a great deodar crashed
down upon the narrow path, and a long branch struck the Galloway's
shoulder with tremendous force.  For an instant Shaitan staggered under
the blow:--then horse, and man, and tree were hurled headlong down the
steep, rain-lashed ravine.

A great cry broke from Quita: and in that cry, and the white, rigid
repression that followed it, Garth had his answer to the question he
had never asked.

For the hundredth part of a second all seven sat paralysed by the
hideous thing that had happened before their eyes, and by the hopeless
nature of the drop down which Lenox had disappeared:--wiped out, as
though he had never been.

Then Desmond's practical vigour asserted itself, and he sprang lightly
to the ground.

"Here, take hold of the Demon, some one!"

And it was Quita who leant forward and grasped the bridle with a steady
hand.  Her action gave him the chance he wanted of getting close enough
to speak a few words of encouragement in a hurried undertone.

"Don't lose heart.  It's an ugly drop.  But he fell clear of the tree;
and these _khuds_ are the most chancy things imaginable.  I'm off after
him, as fast as hands and feet can take me."

Speech was beyond her; but she thanked him with her eyes.

A moment later he was kneeling in the mud, rapidly unfastening boots
and gaiters; for one downward glance had convinced him that it would be
a matter of climbing, and difficult climbing at that.

By now Colonel Mayhew had dismounted also; and as Desmond stood
upright--in socks and breeches--and flung aside his dripping helmet,
the older man drew him to the path's edge.

"Look here, my dear chap," he mid, when they were out of earshot of the
group, who sat spellbound in the grip of tragedy, "are you justified in
running a serious risk, probably--to no purpose?  For I'm afraid poor
Lenox hasn't a ghost of a chance.  You're a married man, remember; and
it looks to me uncommonly like madness to attempt that _khud_ in such
weather.  It'll be a case of holding on with your eyelids; and there's
a coolie track not far from here, that leads down to the valley."

Desmond's month took the dogged line that his _sowars_ knew and loved;
and a combatant light flashed in his eyes.

"Your blood's cooler than mine, sir," he answered quietly.  "But I have
a fairly steady head; and my wife would be the last person in the world
to hold me back, thank God.  In such cases five or ten minutes may mean
just the difference between life . . . and death.  If you will get
together some sort of a stretcher--a good strong one--and come on
post-haste down the coolie track, I'll be grateful.  I suppose we
haven't a drop of brandy among us?--bad luck to it!"

"There's a provision _kilter_ on one of the coolies.  Shall we have it
turned out, on the chance?"

"Good Lord, yes.  Get it done at once, please."  Then he turned to
Garth.  "I say, Major, gallop on, will you, and catch up Dr O'Malley.
I saw him start with the last contingent.  They can't be more than two
miles ahead."

And as Garth obeyed the peremptory request, the devil himself must have
whispered to his heart the despicable suggestion that possibly Fate had
struck a blow in his favour after all.

Colonel Mayhew, meanwhile, rummaging feverishly in the depths of the
_kilter_ with scant hope of success, bestrewed the wet earth on all
sides of him with canned fruits, sardines, greasy jharrons, and
crumpled wads of newspaper: till at length, like Hope out of Pandora's
casket, there came forth from an unsuspicious-looking bundle of clothes
half a bottle of brandy, stowed carefully away by the kitmutgar, for
private ends best known to himself.

Desmond, who stood by fuming with impatience to be gone, laid eager
hands on it.

"Lord, what a miracle!  Pity there's no flask handy," he muttered,
buttoning his coat, and thrusting the unwieldly impediment into a
side-pocket.  Then, catching sight of a horn tumbler among the
_débris_, he picked it up, and drew out the bottle.

"Better leave you some for the women,--if you can get 'em to drink it
diluted with a trifle of rain!--There now, I'm off.  For God's sake,
Colonel, look sharp after me."

Without waiting for an answer, he swung round on his heel, and for the
first time looked at his wife, whose eyes had never left him since he
sprang from the saddle.  Now, as his own challenged them, they gave him
in full the approval he craved; and, for the space of a few seconds,
their spirits clung together in an embrace more intimate than any
communion of the lips.

Then Theo Desmond wrenched himself away.

Stepping deliberately backward, over a short, sheer drop, he let
himself down by his hands on to a tumbled mass of boulders, and began
his perilous descent in earnest.  Whereupon Brutus,--who stood at the
_khud's_ edge peering into space, ears and tail dumbly demanding
explanation,--lunged forward, as if to follow so practical a lead; and
only Colonel Mayhew's prompt clutch at his collar saved him from
joining the master who had so basely deserted him.  Both he and
Desmond's distracted Aberdeen were handed over to a _sais_; and after
much ineffectual choking and gurgling, subsided into apathetic despair.

Already half a dozen natives were busy devising an impromptu stretcher
from fir branches, ropes, and strips of coolie blanket,--drenched and
evil-smelling, yet acceptable enough; while Quita sat watching its
construction in a dazed stillness; her eyes dry and wide; her artist's
brain picturing too vividly that which lay awaiting it down there in
the pitiless rain, that seemed to add a refinement of cruelty to the
horse-play of lightning and thunder.

But Colonel Mayhew, unaware of the morning's double tragedy, had eyes
only for his daughter; and, in his first free moment, hurried to her
side.  She had hidden her face, and was crying softly, to Michael's
open dismay.  Once or twice he had even laid a hand on her, unheeded,
and unrebuked.  But her father's touch roused her, and she took
convulsive hold of him.  She was still little more than a child; and
this was her first face-to-face encounter with the brutality of God's
universe.

"Don't upset yourself, girlie," he said kindly.  "The damage may be
less than we think for.  I must stay here and help; but you must be a
good child, and ride on at once.  You'll see her safe home for me,
won't you, Maurice?"

Michael acquiesced eagerly.  Unrelieved tragedy upset his nerves.  He
longed to escape from the consciousness of Quita's dumb despair; and
when Elsie had been induced to swallow a drop of brandy that would not
have warmed a sparrow, they rode off briskly through the sullen
downpour.

With a breath of relief, Colonel Mayhew went up to Honor Desmond, who
had just dismounted.

"What's that for?" he asked anxiously.  "You and Miss Maurice are going
on too, of course."

Honor shook her head.

"But you can do no earthly good by waiting.  We may be an hour or more
before we get up here again.  It will be slow work, if . . . if Lenox
is alive;--and you will be drenched to the skin."

"There are worse evils than that!" she answered with gentle immobility.
"Don't trouble about me, please.  I _must_ stay here till I know what
has happened; and I think Miss Maurice will wish to stay too.  We shall
come to no harm.  We women have nine lives, you know!"

"And if you will--you will. . . .  I know that also!  But at least take
a nip to keep out the damp.  Your husband gave me this at the last
moment for the three of you."

"How like him to think of it!" she murmured, smiling unsteadily.

"Yes--it _was_ like him,"--and in the expansion of the moment the
warm-hearted Resident put a fatherly hand on her shoulder.  "He's a
deuced fine fellow, my dear, and he has found a wife that's worthy of
him."

Honor blushed rose-red, and took the proffered stimulant.

"I'll give Miss Maurice some too," she said.  "Don't lose a second on
our account, please."

Thus urged, the good man hurried away; and Honor went straight to
Quita, whose unnatural apathy cut her to the heart.

"Miss Maurice, here's brandy," she said softly.  "Drink all of it,
before I help you down."

Quita emptied the tumbler; and Honor, grasping her waist with both
hands, lifted her out of the saddle.

"How strong you are," she said, in the toneless voice of a
sleep-walker.  Then her frozen anguish melted suddenly and completely.
For Honor Desmond, instead of releasing her, clasped her close, kissing
her, with passionate tenderness, on cheeks and brows, like wet marble:
and in the midst of her bewildered misery Quita realised dimly what it
might mean to possess a mother.

"Theo and I know about it all," Honor explained at length; and Quita
nodded.  The fact that she was crying her heart out on the shoulder of
her detested rival made the whole incident dreamlike to the verge of
stupefaction: and it was Honor who spoke again.

"We'll just wait here together till they come back; and shut--the worst
out of our thoughts.  You have splendid courage, my dear, and I think I
love nothing in the world more than courage.  Sit down with me now on
this pile of fir-needles.  It looks a little less saturated than the
rest of the world."

Still keeping an arm round her, she drew her down unresisting to her
side: and Quita, choking back the tears that had probably saved her
brain from after-effects of the shock, looked with awakened interest at
her new-found friend.

"I don't deserve that you should be so good to me," she said, humour
flashing through her pain like a watery sunbeam on a day of mist.  "I
have hated you, with all my heart, ever since I first saw you!"

At which confession Honor pressed her closer.  "Bless you for telling
me!--I take it simply as the measure of--your love for him."

"_Mon Dieu_, no!  Not now," she answered very low.

"I am glad of that too.  For I want very much to be good friends with
Captain Lenox's wife."

On the last word a slow colour crept back into Quita's cheeks.

"You mustn't speak of it--yet, to any one else.  There are
difficulties--big difficulties . . ."

"I know;--but you may trust him to conquer them.  One feels in him the
sort of force that moves mountains."

Again Quita nodded.  "You seem to know everything," she added, a last
spark flickering in the ashes of her jealousy.  "And I suppose you
blame _me_ for it all."

"I am too ignorant of the facts to blame either of you.  I only know
that even if he wronged you in any way, he has been more than
sufficiently punished."

At that Quita's lips quivered, and the storm of her grief broke out
afresh: while the greater storm overhead, having accomplished its evil
work, rolled rapidly northward, with the colossal unconcern of a giant
who crushes a beetle in his path; and the first stupendous downrush of
water subsided into a melancholy drizzle of rain.

In that endless hour of looking and waiting for those who seemed as if
they had been blotted out for all time, Quita learned once and for all
what manner of woman Honor Desmond was; learnt also something of the
loyalty and reserve that had marked Eldred's intercourse with her whom
he had spoken of as his best friend.




CHAPTER XIV.

  "My undissuaded heart I hear
  Whisper courage in my ear."
        --R.L.S.


Down,--steadily, interminably down the face of that formidable ravine,
Theo Desmond slid, and scrambled, and climbed; holding his mind rigidly
on the practical necessities of the moment, which were many and
disconcerting.  His stockinged feet showed dull-red streaks and blotches,
where sharp stones had cut them.  His hands were grazed and torn by
futile clutchings at the surface of broken rocks: and the protruding neck
of the brandy bottle had a trick of digging him playfully in the ribs:
which made him swear.  Impertinent raindrops chased each other down his
cheeks and forehead; trickling into his eyes, and blinding him at
critical moments when he dared not release a hand to brush them away.
The inch-by-inch progress to which he was condemned fretted the hasty
spirit of the man; anxiety consumed him, and conspired with impatience to
beget a nightmare illusion that he had been battling with naked rock and
dripping vegetation since the beginning of Time.

Once,--for all the caution with which he crept backward and
downward,--his foot slipped, on the wet surface of a boulder; and, in the
hope of avoiding a fall, he clutched at a small shrub, with one hand,
shielding the aggressive brandy bottle with the other.  But the
treacherous sapling yielded under his weight; and wrenching its roots
from the moist earth, he rolled over and over, knocking his head and
chest violently against outlying peninsulars of rock.

Both hands were requisitioned now, in a vain effort to check a descent
that had become too rapid for comfort or dignity: and before long, a
musical clink, followed by a strong whiff of spirit, announced the fate
of the brandy bottle.

"Damn the thing!" he exclaimed in an access of helpless fury.  Then a
fresh blow on his head whelmed anger and anxiety in sheer pain, and sent
him rolling like a log into a kindly patch of undergrowth, which had, so
far, blocked his downward view.

Here he lay awhile, half stunned, small runnels of water trickling from
his clothing.  But his vitality--never long in abeyance--soon reasserted
itself.  He sat up, and his hand went instinctively to his pocket.
Drawing out the beheaded bottle, he was relieved to find that it still
held a tablespoonful or more; and that his handkerchief was saturated
with the precious fluid.  He sucked a mouthful from it with keen
satisfaction: then, using it for a wad, plugged up the bottle; and
undaunted by bruises, dizziness, torn hands, and smarting feet, lost no
time in starting afresh.

For the time being, progress was simpler, and less hazardous: and, once
through the undergrowth, he came with disconcerting abruptness upon that
which he sought.

Eight feet below him, on a merciful ledge of earth wide enough to check
the fatal rebound into space, Eldred Lenox lay face downward, his left
arm crumpled under him; the other flung outward as if in a last desperate
effort to ward off the inevitable.  Shaitan was nowhere to be seen.  The
sheer drop beyond told his fate.

Soldier as he was, and inured to the sight of death in its most barbarous
aspect, Desmond's heart stood still as he looked down upon that powerful
figure of manhood lying helpless and alone, pattered upon indifferently
by the dripping heavens.

Choosing a spot that promised a soft landing-place, Desmond dropped on to
the ledge; knelt beside the injured man; and speedily assured himself
that life was not extinct.  Unconsciousness was due to a wound on the
back of his head, from which blood still trickled sluggishly through the
thick black hair.  The arm crumpled under him was broken below the elbow.
Very gently, as though he were a child asleep, Desmond turned him on to
his back.  His eyes showed fixed and glazed between half-open lids, and a
deep scratch disfigured his cheek.  Pillowing the inert head on one arm,
Desmond applied the spirit to his lips again and again, a few drops at a
time: till the lids lifted heavily, and life returned with a slow
shuddering breath.

Desmond bent down to him eagerly.

"Not going out this journey, Lenox, old chap."

But no answering gleam rewarded him; no movement of limb or feature.
Only the lids fell again; and Desmond knew that this was no fainting fit,
but collapse from probable damage to the brain.

After applying more brandy to the lips and temples without result, he
removed his Norfolk coat--still warm and dry within--and with the help of
two fir boughs contrived to shelter Lenox's head and chest from the
chilling downpour.  Then he set to work on the broken arm.  The same
fir,--springing sturdily from a cleft in the rock below,--provided a
splint; and with two handkerchiefs (he had wrung the last drop of
rain-diluted brandy from his own) he tied the injured limb skilfully and
securely into place.  That done, there remained nothing but to wait:--the
hardest task that can be assigned to a man of action.

And to wait sitting was beyond him.  Steady pacing in the cramped space
available helped to deaden thought and promote warmth,--for by now his
soaked shirt-sleeves clung to his arms.

He kept it up doggedly till approaching footsteps brought his damp vigil
to an end; and Colonel Mayhew stepped on to the ledge.

"Alive?" he asked, glancing at the prostrate figure, and Desmond nodded.

"Can't get him round, though.  Concussion, I'm afraid.  A nasty wound on
his head, and one arm fractured.  But for that strip of undergrowth, he
would have been done for.  Hope to God that lazy beggar Garth hurried up
after O'Malley.  We won't wait here, though.--Come on, _coolie-log_."
[Transcriber's note: The "o" in "_log_" is the Unicode "o-macron",
U+014D.]

Colonel Mayhew going forward to lend a hand, glanced over the precipitous
drop on his right, and turned hastily away again.  That which had been
Shaitan was visible below; and it was not pleasant to look at.

"Lenox'll be cut up about that," he muttered as they lifted him
cautiously on to the reeking strip of blanket.

It was a dreary journey up that corkscrew footpath, inch-deep in running
water, that led to the ordinary levels of life.  Desmond kept his post by
Lenox's head and shoulders, sheltering him still with the discarded coat,
and clinging to the track's edge with supple, stockinged feet.  But there
was no preventing jars and jolts arising from broken ground, and the
difficulty of carrying a litter at an almost impossible angle.  Half-way
up they caught sight of Dr O'Malley,--a Pickwickian figure of a man,
booted and spurred,--skipping, stumbling, and slithering towards them in
a fashion ludicrous enough to bring a flicker of mirth into Desmond's
eyes.

They drew up when, at length, he bore down upon them with a rush of
expletives by way of sympathy: for he was good-hearted and a ready man of
his tongue, if not a brilliant unit of his profession.  His rapid
examination of Lenox ended in praise of Desmond's amateur bit of surgery,
and a confirmation of his verdict--concussion of the brain.

"An' there's no telling yet, of course, if it's slight or serious.  But
begad be must have had a nasty tumble.  Devilish lucky to get off with
his life,--that's a fact.  What's the nearest bungalow we can get him
into?  'Tis a good eight miles to the hospital; and the sooner he's out
of this d--d watering-can business the better chance for him."

Desmond turned to Colonel Mayhew.

"How about the Forest bungalow, sir?  Only a couple of miles on, isn't
it?  Brodie must be there now; and he's the right sort, if he is a bit of
an anchorite."

"Why, of course.  The very thing.  He's something of an experimentalist
too.  Keeps up a small pharmacy in one of his outhouses.  He'll make room
for Lenox like a shot."

"And for me too, I hope.  I'm game to sleep anywhere.  But I won't leave
Lenox till he's fit to go into Dalhousie."

Colonel Mayhew nodded approval; and the dismal procession set out again;
O'Malley enlivening its progress with highly-coloured reminiscences of
_khud_ accidents he had known, and with incidental attempts at jocularity
that fizzled out like damp fireworks.  It was all meant kindly enough.
But Desmond was thinking of both man and wife as he had seen them greet
one another that morning; and an atmosphere of pseudo-hilarity jarred his
nerves like a discord in music.  For the man possessed that mingling of
fortitude and delicacy of feeling, which stands revealed in the lives of
so many famous fighters, and may well be termed the hall-mark of heroism.

In due time they came upon the two women, still sitting--drenched and
patient--on their bank of soaked fir-needles; and Desmond hurried forward
to get in a word or two with Quita unobserved.  At sight of
him--coatless, mud-bespattered, with torn clothes, and blood-stained face
and hands--Honor could not repress a small sound of dismay.  But Quita
saw in his eyes the one thing she wanted; and may surely be forgiven if
she paid small heed to his plight.  Her face fell at the details of the
damage done.

"Mayn't I just have a sight of him as he passes us?" she pleaded.

"Better not," he answered kindly,  "You have an artist's brain, remember;
and I want you to sleep a little to-night.  Trust me to do every mortal
thing I can for him.  Honor will see you home, and I'll send a runner in
with news this evening.  We'll pull him through between us,--never fear."

She tried to speak her thanks; but failing, put out a hand impulsively to
speak for her; and his enfolding grasp made her feel less lonely, less
desperate than she had felt since the awful moment when her husband
vanished into space.  The fact that he was in Desmond's hands seemed a
guarantee that all would go well with him.  There was no logic in the
conclusion; and she knew it.  But logic has little to do with conviction:
and many who came to know Desmond fell into this same trick of depending
on him to win through the thing to which he set his band.  Yet his
optimism had no affinity with the cheap school of philosophy, that nurses
a pleasant mind without reference to disconcerting facts.  It was the
outcome of that supreme faith in an Ultimate Best, working undismayed
through failure and pain, which lies at the root of all human
achievement: and it was, in consequence, singularly infectious and
convincing.

Quita's impressionable spirit readily caught a reflection from its rays:
and hope revived sent a glow through all her chilled body.

"Take a stiff whisky toddy the minute you get in," he commanded, while
lifting her into the saddle.  "And try to remember that over-anxiety
won't mend matters.  It will only exhaust your strength.  I'll come in
and see you whenever I can.  Ride on at once," he added hastily, for the
stretcher, with its pitiful burden, was close upon them.  "We'll catch
you up."

She obeyed with a childlike docility that touched him to the heart, and
he turned quickly to his wife.

"Come on, you dear, drenched woman.  You've no business to be here at
all; and we mustn't keep 'em waiting."

"But Theo, . . . your feet!" she murmured distressfully.  "Are they quite
cut to bits?"

"No--not quite."  He glanced whimsically down at his dishevelled figure.
"Lord, what a scarecrow I must be!  Aren't you half-ashamed of owning me?"

"Well--naturally!" she answered, beaming upon him as she set her foot in
the hollow of his hand.  "I shall see something of you,--shan't I?"

"Trust me for that.  See all you can of her too.  She's as plucky as they
make 'em: but she may need it all and more, before we're through with
this, poor little soul."

He mounted, and rode with them as far as the woodsheds, where the men
branched off to the Forest bungalow, leaving the two women to ride on
alone: and, in obedience to Desmond's parting injunction, they kept up a
steady canter most of the way.




CHAPTER XV.

  "How the light light love, he has wings to fly
      At suspicion of a bond."
        --Browning.


The rugged peak of Bakrota was enveloped in a grey winding-sheet,
impenetrable, all-pervading; a dense mass of vapour ceaselessly rolling
onward, yet never rolling past.  It was as if the mountain had become
entangled in the folds of a giant's robe.

The Banksia rose that climbed over the verandah of the Crow's Nest had
shed its first crop of blossoms.  The border below was strewn with
bright petals of storm-scattered flowers; while above the dank pines
dripped and drooped beneath the dead weight of universal moisture.  The
far-off glory of the mountains was blotted out, as though it had never
been; and the doll's house, with its subsidiary group of native huts,
had the aspect of a dwelling in Cloudland.  From within came the plash
of water falling drop by drop, suggesting a vision of zinc tubs, pails,
and basins, set here, there, and everywhere, to check the too complete
invasion of the saturated outer world.

Just outside the drawing-room door, heedless of the mist that hung
dewdrops on her lashes, and on blown wisps of hair, Quita stood,
devouring with her eyes a damp note, handed to her a minute since by
one of Mrs Desmond's _jhampannis_.


"DEAR MISS MAURICE"--(it ran)--"At last I am allowed to write and
say--Come.  Not this afternoon, because he had quite a long outing this
morning in that blessed spell of sunshine; and he is sound asleep after
it, has been for an hour and more; or of course he would send a line
with this himself.  Come to dinner.  Half-past seven.  Then you can
have a long evening together without keeping him up too late.  For Theo
is still high-handed with him about sleep and rest.  But really he has
made astonishing progress since we got him over here.  Dr O'Malley is
quite comically elated over his recuperative power.  Says he has seldom
seen such a rapid and vigorous convalescence after concussion; and
takes more than half the credit to himself; but I am convinced that it
is you who are mainly responsible for it.  He says little enough, even
to Theo.  Yet one can see how impatient he is to be well again, because
of you; and that's half the battle.  Though perhaps my prosaic zeal for
concentrated food of all kinds deserves to be taken into account!
Theo, who is reading every word of this over my shoulder--in spite of
my insistence on the privacy of _all_ correspondence!--wishes to point
out that his own genius for nursing is really at the bottom of it.
(_N.B._--This is simply because he wants you to be extra charming to
him to-night!)  But apart from all my nonsense, the point remains that
among us all we have done great things in less than three weeks.  Come
and see for yourself, and we can squabble over our laurels at leisure!

"Theo sends sympathy and _salaams_, and I think you know that I am very
really 'yours,'

"HONOR M. DESMOND."


Quita smiled as she folded up the note, though her lashes were wet with
more than mist.  Tears came too readily to her eyes just now, a fact
that engendered occasional bickerings between herself and Michael.

"And to think that I was blind enough to hate that dear woman," she
thought.  "I, who pride myself on my intuition!"

Then she scribbled a hasty note of acceptance, despatched the
_jhampanni_, and remained standing absently by the verandah rail,
looking out into nothingness; trying to grasp the fact that the
longest, hardest three weeks of her life were over; that in less than
four hours' time she would once more set eyes on the man who was, to
all intents and purposes, her newly accepted lover; would verify in the
flesh the remembrance of that wonderful night and morning.

The thought so unsteadied her, that she clenched her hands, and jerked
herself together.  Having more of Diana than of Venus in her
composition, the intensity of her love--since avowal had levelled all
barriers--was a constant surprise to her; and now she was even a little
ashamed of her natural longing for the touch of hands and lips, that
she had at times been disposed to scorn.  None the less, she hoped,
unblushingly, that she would be allowed to have him to herself for an
hour, or so; hoped also--nay, confidently expected--that she would end
in overruling this stern purpose of his, that irritated her, even while
it compelled her admiration.

To her, as to all eager natures, the appeal of the present was
all-powerful, the more so when that present offered her with both hands
the best that life has to give.  To sacrifice it on the altar of a
problematical future seemed sheer folly; magnificent folly, perhaps,
but, in the circumstances her quickened heart leaned towards a less
magnificent wisdom.  She detected in this unmanageable husband of hers
a strain of unpretentious heroism, which delighted her in the abstract.
But when the heroic puts on flesh and blood, and shoulders itself into
our narrow lives, it is apt to appear a little too big for the stage;
and Quita had an artist's eye for proportion, whether in pictures or in
the human comedy.

Moreover, a mingling of French and Irish blood rarely results in an
irksome development of the conscience, or of that moral bugbear, a
sense of responsibility; and deep down, Quita knew herself to be more
like her brother in both respects than she quite cared to acknowledge.
For all her husband's conscientious suggestion that marriage was a
"complicated affair," she persisted in regarding it simply as the crown
and completion of their great love, a happiness to which they were
entitled by every law human and divine.  The generations still to be
had not yet laid their arresting hand upon her.  In her esteem, such
shadowy probabilities had neither right nor power to stem the new
imperious forces at work within her.

It remains to add that Eldred's avowal had not shocked or repelled her
as much as he had feared.  For, among Michael's promiscuous intimates
in Paris, Vienna, Rome, she had seen and heard more than Lenox was
likely to guess of that enslavement to drugs and absinthe to which the
artist's temperament seems peculiarly prone; though she was far from
realising in detail the full horror and degradation involved.  She
merely felt certain that--heredity or no--Eldred was, by the nature of
him, incapable of travelling far down that awful road; that with her at
his side to hearten and help him, he could not fail to free himself
from "the accursed chain."

But they must fight the battle together.  That was the Alpha and Omega
of her thoughts.  He had not yet measured the height and depth of her
love.  Let her only make this clear to him, and he must give in; if not
to-night, at least before his leave was up.  Years of living with
Michael had accustomed her to getting her own way in all essentials.
But she had yet to try her strength against the bed-rock of Scottish
granite underlying her husband's surface quietness; against the
terrible singleness of mind that cannot--even for Love's dear
sake--view harsh facts through a medium of rosy mist.

While she stood thus, trying to see into the darkness that shrouds the
coming day, even the coming hour, from inquisitive eyes, the drifting
vapour all about her paled from grey to white, from white to a gossamer
film; and finally uprose from the valley, like a spotless scroll rolled
backward by an unseen Hand, giving gradually to view a multitude of
mountains, newly washed; mountains that glowed with richest tints of
purple and amethyst and rose, in the level light of afternoon.  And
Quita, being in a fanciful mood, saw in this "good gigantic smile" of
the rain-soaked earth a happy omen; an assurance that so would the
mists rise from her own life, and the sunlight prevail.  A sudden
recollection of the buffalo "_Mèla_" set her smiling.

"How idiotic I am!" she reproved herself gently;--we are apt to be
gentle with our own foolishness; it never seems quite so egregious as
other people's--"I might be a girl of twenty, after my first proposal,
instead of nearly thirty, and a nominal wife of five years' standing."

She drew out her watch.  Four o'clock.  Three mortal hours before she
could even think of starting.  There was nothing for it but to have
recourse to her easel, _faute de mieux_.  The last words waked her
normal self.  They were no less than heresy, treason to her art.
Michael would have disowned her, had she spoken them in his hearing!
Was Art, then, so small a thing when compared with this overwhelming
force of Love, which dwarfed all thoughts and acts that did not
minister to its needs?  It was too early days as yet to answer so large
a question.  She simply knew that since that first kiss had set her on
the threshold of an unexplored world, Art had lost its grip; that, for
the present, at all events, she did not want to paint, but to love and
live!

"Pity Michael isn't here to scold me," she thought, as she turned back
into the house.

But Michael was away at Jundraghat, the Rajah's summer Residency.  His
finished portrait had been sent off that afternoon; and he had followed
it, for the pleasure of hearing Elsie's thanks and praise in person.

The little room, robbed of the picture that had been its chief ornament
for many weeks, looked empty, desolate; and with a restless sigh she
went over to her easel.  This also was empty.  Her study of a hill
girl,--begun half jestingly, as a contrast to Michael's flower of
Western Maidenhood,--had so grown and beautified under her hands, that
it had been voted worthy of a Home Exhibition; and its case now stood
against the wall, awaiting mail day.  Three or four unfinished pictures
leaned against the easel.  Quita looked through them, aimlessly, in
search of a congenial subject.  But they were chiefly landscape
studies; and in her present mood Nature seemed a little tame, and
bloodless.  Her heart cried out for something human, and she wished
that Michael would come back.

Then, like a ray of light, came the required inspiration, satisfying at
once the counter-claims of Art and Love.  She sought out a fresh
canvas, set it on the easel, and plunged, forthwith, into a rough
head-and-shoulder study of her husband.

Now time no longer stood still.  Michael was forgotten.  And, while her
brush sped hither and thither, she crooned low and clear, the song that
had proved the open sesame to her cave of enchantment.

And, in the meantime, Michael--the forgotten--was manipulating a new
and delicate complication in a fashion peculiarly his own.

On entering Mrs Mayhew's drawing-room, he had found, not his "moonlight
maiden," as it pleased him to call her, but the Button Quail herself,
who greeted him with a rather embarrassing effusion of thanks.

"And the best point about it is, that it's really _like_ Elsie," she
concluded, with an air of paying an exceptional tribute to his skill.
"Portraits so seldom _are_ like people.  Haven't you noticed it?
That's why I generally prefer photographs.  But your picture is
different.  There are only two things about it that don't _quite_
please me."  She paused, eyeing the canvas with her head on one side;
and Maurice, who was irresistibly reminded of a bird contemplating a
worm, wondered idly what was coming in the way of criticism.  "I wish
you had allowed her to wear something _smarter_ than that limp white
silk; and I think she looks much too unpractical, day-dreaming on a
verandah railing at that hour of the morning!  But then, Elsie _is_
rather unpractical; or would be," she added quickly, "if I didn't
insist on her helping me with the house.  That's where moat
Anglo-Indian mothers make such a mistake.  But _I_ always say it is a
mother's duty to have _some_ consideration for her girl's future
husband!"

And she smiled confidentially upon the aspirant at her side.  But
Maurice, absorbed in critical appraisement of his own skill in
rendering the luminous quality of Elsie's eyes, missed the smile;
missed also most of the interesting disquisition on her education.

"Yes, yes,--no doubt," he agreed with vague politeness, and Mrs Mayhew
opened her round eyes.

But the direction of his gaze was excuse enough for any breach of
manners; and she returned to the charge undismayed, approaching her
subject this time from a less prosaic point of view.

"Really, Mr Maurice, I never knew till now that I _had_ such a pretty
daughter!  The whole effect is so charming, that I begin to think you
must have flattered her!" she remarked archly; and Maurice fell
headlong into the trap.

"Flattered her?  _Mon Dieu_, no!  Nature has taken care to make that
impossible.  For, although she falls short of true beauty, she has such
delicacy of outline, of colouring, an atmosphere so ethereal, that one
wants a brush of gossamer dipped in moonlight, not coarse canvas,
camel's hair, and oils, if one is even to do her justice.  Some day I
must try water-colours, or pastels.  _Sans doute ça ira mieux_."  He
was off on his Pegasus now, far above Mrs Mayhew's bewildered head.
"She would make a divine Undine--moonlight, and overhanging trees.  The
face and figure dimly seen through a veil of water weeds.--But where is
she, then?" he broke off, falling suddenly to earth like a rocket.
"May one see her this afternoon?  I want to hear from herself that she
is satisfied."

Mrs Mayhew smiled and nodded, a world of comprehension in her eyes.

"Yes, yes, I can quite believe _that_.  I will tell her you are here.
She looked rather a wisp after the dance last night, so I sent her up
to rest, for the sake of her complexion!  But, of _course_, she must
come down now.  You will find her more entertaining than '_la petite
mère_,'  She has taken to calling me that lately!"

The complacent little lady took a step forward, then--a bubble with
maternal satisfaction--spoke the word too much that is responsible for
half the minor miseries of life.

"Do you know, Mr Maurice, it is quite charming of you to have shown me
your feelings so openly, and I think the least that I can do is to
assure you of my sympathy and approval.  I don't feel _quite_ so
certain about her father.  He is wrapped up in the child, and man-like,
wants to keep her for himself.  But no doubt between us we shall
persuade him to listen to reason!  Now, I will go to Elsie."

But Michael made haste to interpose;--a changed Michael, puzzled to the
verge of anger, yet punctiliously polite withal.

"One moment, Mrs Mayhew, please.  It might be as well if you and I
understood one another first.  It seems that I have been clumsy in
expressing myself, that I have given you a false impression.  If so, I
ask your pardon.  Believe me, I fully sympathise with Colonel Mayhew's
reluctance to part with such a daughter; and I am not arrogant enough
to dream of asking him to make such a sacrifice,--on my behalf."

It was very neatly done.  Michael's detached self, looking on at the
little scene, applauded it as quite a masterpiece in its way.  But Mrs
Mayhew stood petrified.  Her brain worked slowly, and it took her an
appreciable time to realise that she had been something more than a
fool.  Then, drawing herself up to her full height--barely five feet in
her heels,--she answered him with an attempt at hauteur that quite
missed fire.

"Since you are so _considerate_ of Colonel Mayhew's feelings, I only
wonder it has not occurred to you that your conduct during the past two
months has been little short of dishonourable?"

"Dishonourable?"  His eyes flashed.  "_Mais comment_?"

"You have given every one in Dalhousie the impression that you were--in
love with Miss Mayhew."

His relief was obvious.

"Naturally, my dear lady.  For I _am_ in love with her.  How could a
man, and an artist, be anything else?  But marriage--no----"  He shook
his head decisively.  "That is another pair of sleeves.  Women are
adorable.  But they are terrible monopolists; and, frankly, I have no
talent for the domesticities.  As a lover, I am well enough.  But as a
husband--believe me, in six months I should drive a woman distracted!
Ask Quita.  She knows.  If I have given Miss Mayhew cause to regret her
kindness to me, I am inconsolable; though, in any case, I can never
regret the privilege of having known, and--loved her."

Throughout this ingenious jumble of egoism and gallantry, his listener
had been freezing visibly.  On the last word she compressed her mouth
to a mere line, and stabbed the unrepentant sinner with her eyes; since
it was unhappily impossible to stab him with a hat-pin, which she would
infinitely have preferred.

"I have never in my _life_ heard any man express such improper ideas
upon a serious subject," she remarked with icy emphasis.  "And I am
_quite_ thankful that your peculiar views prevent you from wishing to
marry my daughter."

"_Bien_!  Then we are of one mind after all," Maurice answered
cheerfully.  "And since we understand each other, may I at least be
permitted to see Miss Mayhew before I go?"

"See her?  Certainly _not_.  Really, Mr Maurice, your effrontery
astounds me!  Understand, please, that from to-day there is an _end_ of
your free-and-easy French intimacies!  Colonel Mayhew and I have to
consider her good name and her future happiness; and we cannot allow
you, or any man, to endanger either."

Michael shrugged his shoulders.  His disappointment was keener than he
cared to show; but this hopeless little woman, with her bourgeois point
of view, was obviously blind and deaf to common-sense or reason.

"I would not for the world endanger Miss Mayhew's happiness, or her
good name," he said, not without dignity.  "And as one may not see her,
there is no more to be said."

He held out his hand.  But Mrs Mayhew's manners were not proof against
so severe a shock to her maternal vanity.  She bowed as if the gesture
had escaped her notice.

"Good-bye, Mr Maurice," she said rigidly.

He returned her bow in silence, slipped the rejected hand into his
pocket, and went out.

In passing through the hall he was aware of a slim white figure coming
down the broad staircase; and without an instant's hesitation he stood
still.  In spite of "the little she-dragon in there," he would see her
yet.  For the knowledge that he had lost her increased her value
tenfold.

"You are really pleased with it--tell me?" he said eagerly as their
hands met, for he saw the question in her eyes.

"Pleased?  You know I am.  It is _much_ too good of you to give me such
a splendid present; and father is simply delighted.  But why are you
going away?  I thought you would stay to tea."

He still held her hand, in defiance of a gentle attempt to withdraw it,
and now he pressed it closer.

"Unhappily I must go," he said, without looking at her.  "Your mother
will tell you why, better than I can do.  Good-bye---_petite amis_.
Think well of me, if you can."

He bent over her hand, kissed it lingeringly, and was gone before she
could find words to express her bewilderment.




CHAPTER XVI.

  "What we love we'll serve, aye, and suffer for too."
        --W. Penn.


After sunset the mist came down again, thick as cotton-wool.  Heaven
and earth were obliterated, and a quietly determined downpour set in
for the night.

Quita was still at her easel, trying bravely to disregard the collapse
of her happy omen; Michael lounging in a cane chair, with Shelley and a
cigarette.  He had returned from Jundraghat in a mood of skin-deep
nonchalance, beneath which irritation smouldered, and Quita's news had
set the sparks flying.  Behold him, therefore, doubly a martyr; ready,
as always, to make capital out of his crown of thorns.  A renewed
pattering on the verandah slates roused him from the raptures of the
Epipsychidion.

"Well, at least you can't think of going _now_," he said, flinging the
book aside with a gesture of impatience.  "That's one blessing, if the
rest's a blank."

Quita, who was washing out her brushes, looked round quickly.

"I'm sorry to leave you alone in a bad mood, Michael; but I mean to go,
whatever the weather chooses to say about it."

"_Parbleu_!  But what has come to you, Quita?  You are infatuated with
that granite-natured Scotchman!"

"And if I am . . . I have every right to be."

Her gaze had returned to the vigorous outline on the easel, and her
voice softened to an unconscious tenderness, peculiarly exasperating to
a man in Michael's mixed frame of mind.

"_Naturellement_!" he answered with a shrug.  "Being a woman, you have
divine right to monopolise a man,--if the man is fool enough to submit
to it.  Nature is determined that you women shall not escape your real
trade.  That is why she takes care to make every one of you a bourgeois
at heart.  And all these years I have cherished the delusion that you,
at least, were a genuine artist!"

"So I am.  Every whit as much as yourself."

"And also--a genuine woman?"

"I hope so."

Michael smiled--a smile of superior knowledge.

"One cannot serve two masters, _ma chère_.  That's where the
complication comes in, when an artist happens also to be a woman.  The
creative force, mental or physical, is a master-force.  Only a
superhuman vitality can accomplish both with any hope of success.
Succumb to your womanhood, and there's an end of your Art--_voilà
tout_."

"But no, Michel.  I won't believe that."  She spoke stoutly, though
cold fear was upon her that a germ of truth lurked in his statement.

"Believe it or not, as you please.  You are on the high-road to make
the discovery for yourself, and you will find it a case of no
compromise.  One of the two must predominate.  You will either become
an amateur artist or an amateur wife and mother.  Which do you suppose
it will be?"

She shut her paint-box with an impatient snap.

"I really don't know.  I am not in the mood for abstract speculation."

"No.  You are in the mood for concrete love-making; and in pursuit of
it, you're ready to face a drenching, to leave me is the worst possible
company, without a sisterly qualm, and without even troubling to put my
razor in your pocket."

"Don't talk melodramatic nonsense," she rebuked him sharply.  Then pity
and tenderness prevailed.  "If it's really as bad as that, _mon cher_,
why on earth didn't you take yesterday's chance, and ask Elsie to be
your wife?  I believe she would have said 'Yes.'"

"So do I.  Therefore I preferred not to ask her.  Still--it's none the
less maddening that because you women have this incurable mania for
marriage, one should be cut off from her sweet companionship, from the
inspiration that is to be found in that delectable borderland between
friendship and love; and insulted into the bargain by a chit of a
mother-woman, with no more brains and imagination than a sparrow!  But
for me, at any rate, there can be no compromise.  I do not choose to
profane the sanctuary of my soul, to corrupt my Art, by becoming a mere
breadwinner, a slave of the hearth-rug, and the tea-cup--in fact, the
property of a woman.  That's what it amounts to.  And I doubt if any of
us relish the position when it comes to the point.  Even that devoted
husband of yours, after waiting five years upon your imperial pleasure,
seems in no hurry to tie himself up again; or you would hear less about
his conscientious scruples, I assure you.  They would be swept aside,
like straws before a flood."

At that Quita's eyes flashed.

"Michel, you _shall_ not speak so of him," she cried imperiously.
"I've said already that I won't have the subject discussed.  How should
_you_ understand a man like Eldred,--you, who hardly know the meaning
of the word 'conscience'?"

"_Dieu merci_; since its chief function seems to be to make oneself and
every one else uncomfortable.--Hark at the rain!  I wish you joy of
your journey."

He spoke the last words to an empty room.  Quita was already changing
her dress hurriedly, defiantly, shutting her ears to the discouraging
sounds without.  Michael's half-jesting insinuation had hit her harder
than he guessed; had deepened her determination to extricate herself,
without loss of time, from a position that justified a suggestion so
galling to her pride.

But the mere getting down from the top of Bakrota, and climbing
half-way up the neighbouring hill, through a desolating world of mist
and rain, was, in itself, a prospect that would have daunted a less
headstrong woman.  Michael returned her hasty "good-night" in a voice
of resigned martyrdom, and out in the verandah, four drenched
_jhampannis_ cowering round a hurricane-lantern, had passed beyond
martyrdom to the verge of open rebellion.

They were poor men, and the Miss Sahib's slaves, they protested in
chorus; but it was a very bad rain.  Even with the lantern, it would be
impossible to keep the path; and if harm should come to the Protector
of the Poor, the Sahib would smite them without mercy.  Also the "mate"
[1] was even now shivering with ague; in proof whereof he so vigorously
shook the lantern that it almost fell out of his hand.

But Quita was adamant.  She bade them set out at once, or the Sahib
would smite them there and then.  Awed by a threat that would never
have been executed, they hastened to assure her that she was,
collectively and individually, their "father and mother," that their
worthless lives were at her service, and that they would start
forthwith.

Three minutes later, they were swinging cautiously along the four-foot
track that corkscrews down to the level of the Mall, the foremost man
thrusting the lantern well ahead, with the sole result that a great
white circle showed weirdly upon the curtain of mist, through which
they journeyed by faith, and not by sight.  With every step of the way
Quita's conviction grew that she had pushed persistence to the verge of
folly; and the thought of Michael, alone and dejected, tugged at her
heart.  The rain formed miniature canals in the waterproof sheet that
covered her; and more than once a jerk of the dandy emptied these into
her lap; while the mist itself was so dense that she seemed to be
breathing water instead of air.  There was no denying that to-morrow
would do as well as to-night.  But her impatient spirit fretted against
delay; and this senseless obtrusion of inanimate things,--angering her,
as only the inanimate can,--drowned the still small voice of
common-sense.

Nevertheless, human will and endeavour have small chance in a duel with
that invisible Force, which men call Fate.  In the language of the
East, "it was written" that she should not get down the hill that
night; and before they reached the Mall, Quita was compelled to own
herself beaten.

A jerk, a crash, followed by darkness, and a thud that brought her
half-overturned dandy into violent contact with the ground, fairly
settled the matter.  The "mate" had missed the path; and, but for an
instantaneous counter-jerk on the part of the men behind, Quita would
have been shot down the _khud_, instead of on to the stony roadway.  As
it was, she thrust out both hands to save herself, while the rain
pattered through the light lace scarf on to her head and neck.  The
lantern glass was broken, and the "mate," lamenting volubly, declared
that his arm appeared to be broken also.  Quita herself was
ignominiously damp and bedraggled; and vanity apart, going on was out
of the question.  Even getting back, minus the lantern, would be a
difficult matter.  With tears in her eyes, and fierce disappointment at
her heart, she submitted to the inevitable.

Michael greeted her with lifted eyebrows, and an exasperating chuckle.

"Thought ten minutes of it would be enough for you," he remarked
coolly; and her wrath against things in general vented itself on him.

"Really, Michel, you are _detestable_!  It was not enough.  The 'mate'
lost his footing, and the lantern broke.  Oh, it's cruel . . . after
nearly three weeks . . ."

Her voice broke, and Michael, thankful to see her again, took one of
her hands and drew her towards him.

"_Pauvre chérie_," he said more gently.  "Don't break your heart over
it.  Send a note to say you'll come to-morrow, and cheer me up a bit
now, like the sweet sister you are."

There was nothing else to be done.  Arming an adventurous _sais_ with
Maurice's lantern, an alpenstock, and two notes tied up in a scrap of
oiled silk, Quita choked down her misery, and did her utmost to comply
with his request.  But the meal was only a partial success, for the
rebellious heart of her was out there in the rain, following the notes
to their destination.

They did not reach it till well after eight o'clock, when those who
awaited her had given up all hope, and were just sitting down to dinner.

Lenox still wore his arm in a sling, and the lines in his face looked
deeper than usual.  Otherwise he was quite himself again.  The anxiety
in his eyes gave place to dejection as Honor handed him Quita's note.

"Shall I open it for you?" she added gently.

He frowned, and thanked her.  There are few things more galling to a
man than helplessness over trifles.  He laid the open note beside his
plate, and its half-dozen lines of love took him an amazingly long
while to read: for Quita, like many spontaneous natures, had the gift
of making herself almost seen and heard by means of a few written
words.  He tried to win comfort from the thought that it was only a
matter of getting through eighteen hours, after all, and roused himself
resolutely to a fair semblance of cheerfulness.  But both husband and
wife were too keenly sympathetic to be quite successful in their
attempts to change the current of his thoughts; and their own hearts
were heavy with a great anxiety for Desmond's life-long friend, Paul
Wyndham.  A phenomenal downpour at Dera Ishmael had produced a prolific
crop of fever cases, and Wyndham's had taken a serious turn.  The last
two days had brought such disquieting news that Desmond was already
half-inclined to throw up the rest of his leave and go straight down to
Paul's bedside.  The possibility of broaching the subject to his wife
that night so absorbed his mind that surface conversation was an
effort; and all three were thankful when the meal was over.

"Bring your coffee and cigars into the drawing-room, and we'll have
some music," Honor said, as they rose from the table, and Lenox looked
his gratitude.  Intimate speech of any kind, even with Desmond, was
anathema to him just then, and his full heart went out to this woman,
whose genius for divining others' needs was so unerring, because her
sympathies were so deep and true.

He determined to put Quita out of his head for the evening, if she
would consent to stay there; and less than five minutes after this
triumph of common-sense, a slight stir in the verandah roused him to
unreasoning hope that it might be she after all.  But it was only Amar
Singh, the bearer, with a telegram for Desmond.

His heart stood still as he tore it open; then a stifled sound of
dismay brought Honor instantly to his side.

"Dearest--what is it?" she asked under her breath.

For answer he handed her the flimsy scrap of paper, and went quickly
into the next room.  Honor's eyes took in the curt statement at a
glance.

"Leave cancelled.  Return at once.  Infantry for cholera camp.  None of
ours yet.  Wyndham worse.  High temperature persists.  Condition
critical."

A low sound escaped her, and she passed the telegram to Lenox.  It was
from her brother, Colonel Meredith, now in command of the regiment.

"A double blow," she murmured mechanically.  "By this time it may
be--all over!"

Her lips quivered, but she did not follow her husband, knowing that in
the first bewilderment of grief he would prefer to be alone.  And Lenox
had no answer for her; had, in fact, scarcely heard what she said.
Then, as his brain grasped the latter half of the telegram, he glanced
at her.  He had never seen her look less like herself.

"I'm afraid this has hit you hard," he said, with more of feeling in
his eyes than he knew how to put into his tone.  "But you mustn't take
the worst for granted.  Desmond won't, if I know anything of him."

"I hope not.  But this is . . . Paul; and you don't know what that
means to us both.  Besides . . . the saints of the earth are always
taken too soon."

"No, not always.  Fate does sometimes make mistakes on the right
side . . . by accident," he added grimly.  "I suppose one of these has
gone to the Strawberry Bank.  I must send Zyarulla off at once to get
my traps together.  It means starting first thing."

She looked at him in surprise.

"Yes.  But not you, surely.  You're hardly fit for duty yet."

"Nonsense.  Barring my arm, I'm fit for anything.  And if we're in for
cholera, I don't see myself leaving Dick to handle the Battery without
me."

"You're bound to ask Dr O'Malley's permission, though."

"Yes, worse luck.  But I fancy I shall square him.  At the same
time--it's hard lines----"

He broke off short.  The thing did not bear speaking of.

"It _is_ bitterly hard lines, for you both," Honor answered, looking
away from him.  But she knew the best men of her service too well to
suggest that, without straining a point, he might honestly be declared
unfit for duty.

"At least it will be a comfort to her having _you_ here," he went on
mechanically, because the thing had to be said somehow.  "I'll leave a
note, of course, but I'd be grateful if you'd take it for me some time
in the morning.  She may not understand how impossible it is for a man
to hold back--on any pretext, at a time like this, and I know I can
trust _you_ to make things clear to her.  You're more than half a
soldier yourself."

"So I ought to be!" Honor answered, inexpressibly touched by his
confidence in her.  "And of course I would go to her if I were here.
But to-morrow I shall be on my way back to Dera with you both."

"Dera!--But that would be madness.  Do you suppose Desmond would ever
hear of such a thing?"

"I haven't supposed anything about it yet," she answered, smiling.  "I
only know that I can't let him go down into--all that, alone.  Now I
must say good-night, and go to him.  We'll make all arrangements for
the journey," she added, as they shook hands, "and Zyarulla will do the
packing for you.  So be sure and get some sleep when you have seen Dr
O'Malley."

His face hardened.

"I only know one way to make sure of that," he said, avoiding her eyes.

"Oh, no, no; not that way, please."

"I imagine it'll be that or none," he answered almost roughly, as he
turned away, and with a sigh Honor followed her husband into the
dining-room.

He sat with his back to her, elbows planted on the writing-table, his
head between his hands.  But at her approach he looked up, and with a
sharp contraction of heart she saw that tears stood in his eyes.  A
woman takes small account of her own wet lashes, but a man's tears are
like drops of blood wrung from the heart.

Honor took his head between her hands, and kissed him, long and
tremulously.  After that there seemed no need for words on the subject
nearest their hearts.

"You knew why I didn't come sooner?" was all she said, and Desmond
pressed the hand resting on his shoulder.  Then, seating herself
opposite him on the edge of the table, she glanced at the telegraph
form lying before him.

"Are you wiring for more news?"

"Yes.  I want an 'urgent,' care of the Station-master, to catch me at
Lahore to-morrow night, and another at Thung dak bungalow next day;
unless . . . of course . . ."

"Hush, hush.  You _must_ not think of that."

He frowned, and was silent.  The two men loved one another as men
linked by half a lifetime of toil and ambition learn to love,--or hate;
and in the face of a calamity so unthinkable, even Desmond's incurable
hopefulness was shaken.

"Captain Lenox believes he will be allowed to go," Honor went on after
a pause.  "But he's hardly fit for it, is he?"

"Not quite, perhaps, though he's made of iron under it all, and if he's
set on going, I don't fancy O'Malley will stand in his way."

"I told him we would make all travelling arrangements, and you'll be
sending Dunni out with this, I suppose?"

"Yes.  At once.  Why?"

"Because I want him to take a note to Mrs Rivers at the same time."

"Mrs Rivers?  Would you sooner go to her than stay on here?"

Honor smiled.

"Do you really imagine I shall stay on here?"

"Why not?  It would save the trouble of moving; and you wouldn't feel
lonely with the little chap for company."

"But, you dear, foolish man, can't you see that it's you I want?"  And
she leaned forward, speaking quickly to stave off interruption.  "Don't
make a fuss about it, please; because I have settled everything in my
mind.  I'll ask Mrs Rivers to take baby and Parbutti for me.  I know
she gladly will.  As for me, of course I go down to Dera to-morrow, and
do what I can for you all."

At that Desmond straightened himself; and Honor foresaw one of those
pitched battles, which, between natures equally imperious and
hot-headed, were unavoidable from time to time; while Desmond, because
he meant to have his own way, dared not let her see how profoundly he
was moved by this culminating proof of her devotion.

"My dear Honor, the thing is out of the question," he said decisively.
"It's splendid of you even to think of coming down.  But it would be
unpardonable in me to allow it, so be a sensible woman and put the
notion out of your head, once for all.  You know you could never bear
to leave little Paul when it came to the point."

"I could . . . I could.  Oh, Theo, don't be unreasonable over this."

"The unreasonableness is yours, my dear.  If this is going to be bad,
we may all be off into camp before the week's out."

"Well, then, Frank would take me in . . . and at least I should be on
the spot--in case . . .  Oh, Theo, I _must_ come!  Why on earth
shouldn't I be there just as much as Frank, and that little missionary
woman, Mrs Peters?"

"Frank" Olliver, a Major's wife, was the only other woman in the
regiment, and hill stations were not (as she would have expressed it)
"in her line."  But Desmond was immovable.

"That's quite another matter.  Being there already, they naturally
wouldn't desert their post.  But you are here, thank God, safe out of
it all; and I must insist on your remaining here, if it's only for my
sake."  A half smile dispelled the gravity of his face.  "I've a notion
that when you married me you promised, among other things, to obey me!"

"Well, I was driven to.  It was the only way to get you.  But I'm sure
most of us make that promise with mental reservations.  In certain
cases I should not dream of obeying you, Theo, and this is one!"

"But if I flatly refuse to take you with me?"

"I suppose I should have to follow on alone."

He looked at her straightly for a moment.  Then: "I don't think you
would deliberately defy me, Honor," he said in a level tone.  "I
couldn't put up with that, even from you."

There was a short silence.  She saw that in direct opposition to his
will she could go no further.  But the woman who loves, and knows
herself beloved, has subtler weapons at command.  Setting her two hands
upon his shoulders, and bringing her beautiful face very close to his,
Honor returned her husband's look with a smile so mutely beseeching,
that his fortitude, already undermined by the news from Dera, began to
waver, and she saw it.

"My very dearest," she said, on a low note of tenderness, "of course I
would never defy you.  But don't break my heart by pushing me on one
side, and leaving me up here alone, idle, anxious, when there is real
work--woman's work--waiting to be done down there.  I'm as strong as a
church, you know that.  And I could help with Paul when he is
convalescent.  We could have him in the bungalow.  I know separation is
bound to come some day.  But not in this terrible fashion, and not yet.
_Please_, Theo, not yet."

Then, because tears threatened, she leaned down till her forehead
rested against his shoulder, and furtively dried her lashes with the
back of her hand.  When a strong woman lays aside her strength, and
relies on the inherent power of her womanhood, no man on earth is a
match for her.  Desmond could only surrender at discretion, and take
her altogether to himself.

"And you began by saying you would never defy me!" he whispered into
her ear.  "What else do you call this, I wonder?  You incurable woman!
Is it really because you are so keen to help, or chiefly because you
want to be in my pocket?  Which?"

"Chiefly because I want to be in your pocket," she answered without
shame, and he kissed her bowed head.

"But mind you," his tone changed abruptly, "I have no business to give
in to you; and if any harm should come of it, I could never forgive
myself.  I believe I should blow my brains out on the spot."

At that she lifted her head and stood up beside him.

"Theo, you _shall_ not say such dreadful things."

"It's no more than the truth," he answered, with a touch of defiance.
"Lord, how you women, and the children you give us, complicate life for
a man!  Yet it's not worth a brass farthing without you both."

"Thank you for owning that much!--Now I must write my note, and see
about packing.  Come up soon, dear.  There's an endless deal to do
before we can think of going to bed."

On his way up to join her twenty minutes later, Desmond looked into
Lenox's small room.  Zyarulla had strewn the floor with books, boots,
clothes, and a couple of boxes, preparatory to going into action.  His
master, enveloped in a cloud of blue smoke, sat afar off directing the
plan of campaign.  A great peace pervaded his aspect, and the
unmistakable fragrance that filled the room brought two deep lines into
Desmond's forehead.

"Just looked in to find out how you were getting on," said he.  "Not
seen O'Malley already, have you?"

"No.  But his verdict is a foregone conclusion, so we're going ahead
with things.  Your wife's not really coming, is she?"

"Yes.  I did my best to prevent it; but there's no gainsaying her."

"Great Scott, she's a plucky woman!  You must have plenty to see to
both of you.  Don't let me keep you, old chap, I'm all right."

"Glad to hear it.  You'll sleep.  That's certain.  But I wish to
goodness you'd given Nature a chance."

"Nature wouldn't have given _me_ a chance," the other answered with
sudden heat.  "And there's a limit to what a man can stand.  By the
way," he added in an altered tone, "I can't tell you how sorry I am
about Wyndham.  But you must hope for the best."

"Thanks," Desmond answered quietly.  "Good-night."

The door of his wife's room stood ajar, and in passing it to go to his
dressing-room, his thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a muffled
sob.  Treading softly, he pushed the door open, and looked in.

A night-light in the basin, and one candle on the dressing-table showed
him a tall white figure bending over the rail of the cot where his son
lay asleep.  Honor had discarded her dinner dress for a light wrapper,
and her loosened hair fell in a dusky mass almost to her knees.

For a few seconds Desmond stood watching her, uncertain whether to
intrude upon her grief or no.  He knew her peculiar dread of separation
from those she loved, knew that throughout the sixteen mouths of her
child's life she had never left him for more than a few hours except to
go to Chumba, and then not without remonstrance.  Yet she was leaving
him now of her own free will, for an indefinite time, and in the full
knowledge of the grim possibilities ahead.  It is in such rare moments
of revelation that a man realises dimly what it may mean for a woman
dowered with the real courage and dignity of self-surrender to give
herself to him; that he is vouch-safed a glimpse into that mystery of
love, which cynics of the decadent school dismiss as "amoristic
sentiment," a fictitious glorification of mere natural instinct.  But
Desmond took a simpler, more reverential view of a quality which he
believed to be the most direct touch of the Divine in man, and which he
had proved to be the corner-stone of his wife's character.

He went forward at length, but so noiselessly that Honor had no idea of
his presence till his arms came round her from behind, and drew her up
so close against him that her wet cheek touched his own.

"Theo . . . that wasn't fair!" she protested with a little broken laugh.

"Not quite.  But I couldn't resist it."

Then they stood silent, looking down at the sleeping child.

He lay on his back, one half-opened hand flung high above his head, and
the fair soft face, in its halo of red-gold hair, bore the impress of
the angelic, that only comes with sleep, and vanishes like magic at the
lifting of the eyelids.

Suddenly Desmond tightened his hold of her, and by a mutual impulse
their lips met.



[1] Headman.




CHAPTER XVII.

"Our frailties are invincible, our virtues barren; and the battle goes
sore against us to the going down of the sun."--R.L.S.


The rain, which had set in with such quiet determination at sunset,
fulfilled its promise of continuing through the night: and the
pattering on the slates that had mingled with Quita's latest thoughts
greeted her, with derisive iteration, when she opened her eyes next
morning.  But its power to thwart her was at an end.  Now that daylight
was come, nothing short of a landslip could withhold her from the thing
she craved.  The thought leaped in her brain before she was fully
awake.  "And after all, why should I wait till the afternoon," was her
practical conclusion.  "I'll go down at eleven."

With that she sprang out of bed, and slipping on a dull blue
dressing-gown, hurried into the dining-room, where she and Michael
always met for _chota hazri_.

Here she found him, in Japanese smoking suit and slippers, smiling
contentedly over an item of his early post.

"What's pleasing you, _mon cher_?" she asked absently, depositing a
light kiss on his hair.  For a woman in love--and a man no less--is as
royally indifferent to the joys and sorrows of all creation as
childhood itself.

"A letter from my pretty Puritan.  It is not for nothing that she has
those straight brows, and that small resolute chin.  She will not be
thrust down any man's throat for all the hen-sparrows in Christendom!"

"Why--what does she say?" Quita asked, peering critically into the
teapot, and wondering how it would feel to pour out Eldred's early tea!

"Listen then; and judge for yourself:

"'DEAR MR MAURICE,---There seems to have been an unlucky
misunderstanding between you and mother yesterday.  But I hope this
need not make any real difference in our friendship.  Because I think
we have always understood each other, haven't we?  Of course if my
parents prefer that we should not be about together quite so much,
there is no help for it.  But at least I would like you to know that I
am still, as I always have been, your friend (if you wish it)

"'ELSIE MAYHEW.'"


"_Tiens_!  How is that for your 'child of twenty'?  It is the letter of
a woman; and a woman with an exquisite sense of her own dignity into
the bargain."

Quita smiled thoughtfully as she buttered her toast.

"I am wondering how she would have answered if you had asked her," was
all she said.  "I don't feel quite so certain as I did last night."

"_Ni moi non plus_.  Which makes the situation just twice as
interesting.  For all the Button Quail's beak and claws, I fancy I
shall see more of my Undine yet!"

With a chuckle of satisfaction, he fell to re-reading Elsie's note: and
Quita, immersed in her own affairs, promptly forgot them both.

An hour later she reappeared--her whole face and form radiating the
light within; went straight to her easel, flung aside its draperies,
and surveying her work of the previous day, found it very good.  But
there were certain lines and shadows that displeased her critical eye.
She would study his face afresh this morning, with the twofold
appreciation of heart and brain, and surprise him with the picture when
it was nearer completion.

Just then the bearer, entering, handed her a note.  She opened it
eagerly--recognising Eldred's handwriting--and read, with a
bewilderment bordering on despair, the stoical statement of facts set
down by Lenox in the first bitterness of disappointment, ten hours ago.
The shock staggered her like a blow between the eyes.  Her lips parted
and closed on a soundless exclamation.  The abrupt change in her face
was as if a light had been suddenly blown out.

"_Mon Dieu_, . . . cholera!" she murmured helplessly, putting one hand
over her eyes as if to shut out the horror of it.  "This is my
punishment for ever having let him go."

Then, as if in hope of discovering some mitigation of her sentence, she
re-read the short letter, lingering on the last paragraph, which alone
contained some ray of comfort, some assurance of the strong love that
was at once the cause and the anodyne of their mutual pain.


"And now, my dearest" (Lenox wrote), "what more can I say, except--be
of good courage, and write to me often.  The rest, and there's a good
deal of it, can't be put upon paper.  That's the curse of separation.
Start a picture, and throw your heart into your work, as I must into
mine.  God knows when I shall see you again.  But trust me, Quita, as
soon as ever I can, and dare, to put an end to this intolerable state
of things.--Till then, and always, your devoted husband,----E. L."


It was the first time he had signed himself thus: and the envelope was
addressed 'Miss Maurice'!  The irony of it cut her to the quick.  Tears
of self-pity, flooding her eyes, startled her back to reality; and sent
her stumbling towards her own room.  But before she could reach it,
Michael's voice arrested her.

"Come on, Quita," he shouted good-humouredly.  "Where _are_ you off to?
I want my breakfast."

She turned upon him a face distorted with grief.

"_Parbleu, chérie, qu'y-a-t'il a maintenant_?" he demanded, with an odd
mingling of irritation and concern.

"Cholera at Dera Ishmael--Eldred's gone down this morning. . . ."  Then
tears overwhelmed her, and he turned sharply away.  "Oh go, . . . go,
and have your breakfast, Michel; and let me be.  I want nothing,
nothing, but to be left alone."

And vanishing into her room, she bolted the door behind her.

Maurice frowned, and sighed.  In all his knowledge of her, Quita had
never so completely lost her self-control.  It was quite upsetting: and
he disliked being upset the first thing in the morning.  It put him out
of tune for the rest of the day.  But after all . . one must eat.  And
he retraced his steps to the dining-room.

"I wish to heaven she had never discovered this uncomfortable husband
of hers!" he reflected as he went "Since he will neither marry her, nor
leave her alone; and it is we who have to suffer for his heroics!"

For all that, he found speedy consolation in the thought that at ten
o'clock a new 'subject' was coming to sit to him:--a wrinkled hag, whom
he had met on his way back from Jundraghat, bent half double under a
towering load of grass, her neutral-tinted tunic and draped trousers
relieved by the scarlet of betel-nut on her lips and gums, and by a
goat's-hair necklet strung with raw lumps of amber and turquoise,
interset with three plaques of beaten silver;--the only form of savings
bank known to these simple children of the hills.

While hastily demolishing his breakfast, Maurice visualised his picture
in every detail: and with the arrival of his model all thought of Quita
and her woes was crowded out of his mind.  Yet the man was not
heartless, by any means.  He was simply an artist of the extreme type,
endowed by temperament with the capacity for subordinating all
things,--his own griefs no less than the griefs of others,--to one
dominant, insatiable purpose.  And according to his lights he must be
judged.


Quita remained invisible till lunch-time, lying inert, where she had
flung herself, upon her unmade bed.

The first tempest of misery, and rebellion, and self-castigation had
given place to sheer exhaustion.  For even suffering has its
limitations; which is perhaps the reason why grief rarely kills.  All
the springs of life seemed suddenly to have run down.  Her spirit felt
crushed and broken by the obstructiveness of all about her.  The strain
of the past three weeks, following upon a severe shock, had told upon
her more than she knew; and this morning's sharp revulsion of feeling
brought her near to purely physical collapse.

And while she lay alone through two endless hours, tracing designs from
the cracks in the whitewashed wall, one conviction haunted her with
morbid persistence.  Because she had not valued him in the beginning,
because she had repudiated him in a moment of wounded pride, he would
be taken from her, now that heart and soul were set upon him, and she
would never see him again.  It was useless to argue that the idea was
childish; a mere nightmare of overwrought nerves.  It persisted and
prevailed, till she felt herself crushed in the grip of a relentless,
impersonal Force, against which neither penitence nor tears would avail.

Finally, worn out with pain and rebellion, she fell asleep.




BOOK III.-THE TENTS OF ISHMAEL.


CHAPTER XVIII.

  "Leave the what at the what's-its-name,
  Leave the sheep without shelter;
  Leave the corpse uninterred,
  Leave the bride at the altar."
        --Kipling.


Even in a land where danger and discomfort flourish like the ungodly,
that journey from the cedar-crowned Himalayas to the white hot flats of
the Derajat, with the Punjab furnace in full swing, was an experience not
readily forgotten by the three who set out upon it in the dripping grey
dawn of a July morning.  Before them stretched two nights and three days
of pure martyrdom, aggravated by that prince of evils--a troubled mind:
for the Desmonds a haunting anxiety, and for Lenox the harassing
realisation that his own strength or weakness during the next few months
stood for no less than the happiness or misery of the only woman on
earth.  It is this irrevocable fusion of two lives, and the network of
responsibilities arising from an act less simple than it seems, that
constitute the strength, the charm, the tragedy of marriage: and a dim
foreknowledge of its complexity dawned upon Lenox during his penitential
progress into a land of fire and death.

Throughout their fifty mile descent to the foot-hill terminus it rained
perseveringly.  But toward evening the clouds parted, and an hour of
sunshine set the drenched earth steaming like a soup kettle when the lid
is lifted off.  Desmond had ordained that Lenox and his wife should be
carried down in doolies; an indignity to which they submitted under
protest: and Honor, scrambling out of her prison through an opening level
with the ground, passed quite gratefully from its stuffy twilight,
redolent of sodden canvas and humanity, to the smell of hot wood and
leather that pervaded the sun-saturate railway carriage awaiting them in
Pathankôt station.

With the unhurried deftness of an experienced pilgrim, she set about
making the place cooler, and more habitable; drew up all the
window-shutters; opened her bedding roll; and taking possession of Lenox,
established him, with tender imperiousness, in the least stifling corner,
a pillow set lengthways behind him.  He leaned against it, and closed his
eyes.

"Head bad?" she asked a little anxiously.  For the concussion headache is
no child's play, and ten hours in a doolie might breed neuralgia in a
cannon-ball.

"Pretty average.  Nothing to trouble about."  The assurance was not
convincing: and she gleaned the truth from two deep lines in his forehead.

"I'm going to make you some tea in a minute," she announced cheerfully,
opening her basket, and clamping a travelling spirit-lamp to the woodwork
above the seat.  "Real tea.  Not the stewed leaves and water we should
pay six annas for outside!  There's half a dozen of soda, three pints of
champagne, a fowl, and an aspic in the icebox under your seat.  But tea
would be best now.  We'll keep the rest for your dinners."

He opened his eyes and smiled at her.

"You've a remarkable talent for spoiling a man!"

"It's one I'm very proud of," she answered simply: and leaning out of the
open doorway, caught sight of her husband striding down the platform,
closely followed by an army of coolies, two bearers, and two
pessimistic-looking dogs on chains.  "Theo," she called, "do leave that
eternal luggage to Amar Singh, and come and be spoilt!  We're going to
have tea."

Before the train jolted out of the station, she had served it to them in
large cups, an insubstantial biscuit in each saucer: for it is drink, not
food, that a man wants when the thermometer stands at 110 degrees in the
shade.

At Umritsur the train halted for half an hour.  The thermometer had not
fallen with the sun; and when the faint breeze of their going died down,
there seemed to be no air left to breathe.

Lenox dined regally out of the ice-box: while Desmond and Honor,
silencing his protests by flight, carried off iced soda and a
whisky-flask to the frowsy, airless refreshment room, where they wrestled
undismayed with curried kid, the ubiquitous chicken cutlet, and two
plates of discoloured water,--flavoured with _jharron_,[1]--that
masqueraded as clear soup.  Two quarrelsome Eurasians shared their table.
A punkah that may once have been white waggled officiously overhead.  But
for all that the flies were lords of the meal; and enjoyed it far better
than those who paid for it.

"Thank God for my good dinner!" Desmond muttered with a wry face as he
put down his money.  "_You_ must supplement it out of Lenox's rations,
old lady.  _Hukm hai . . . sumja_?" [2]

She laughed and shrugged her shoulders.  Having won the victory that
mattered, she could afford to be submissive over trifles.

An hour or so before midnight, they clanked into Lahore station--a
big-bastioned building, whose solid masonry breathed fire, as literally
as any dragon of romance.  Within was a great darkness, partially
dispelled by hanging oil-lamps; and babel enough to wake the Seven
Sleepers.  The uninitiated arriving at an Indian railway station are apt
to imagine that a riot of some sort must be in progress.  But it is only
the third-class passenger, whose name is legion, fighting, tooth and
nail, for the foot of space due to every possessor of the precious morsel
of cardboard tucked into the folds of his belt: because he knows, from
harsh experience, that when the train moves on more than a few will be
left disconsolate, to watch its unwinking eye vanish out of their
ken:--bewildered adventurers, for many of whom the "fire-carriage" still
remains a new-fangled god, who feeds on coal and water, and can only be
propitiated by repeated offerings of that wonder-working hieroglyph--the
tikkut.

At Lahore passengers to Dera change into the night mail for Mooltan: and
almost before the train drew up Desmond was out on the platform, pushing
his way, purposefully, through a mass of jostling, shouting, perspiring
humanity:--Sikhs, Punjabi farmers, moneylenders, 'fat and scant of
breath,' women of all ages, with apathetic babies, in round cap and
necklet, astride upon their hips.  In the station-master's office he
found the fateful red envelope awaiting him; and broke the seal with a
shaking hand.


"Crisis over.  Condition more hopeful.  Will wire Jhung."


"Thank God!" he muttered, choking down a lump that had risen in his
throat.  Then, elbowing his way back to where Honor and Lenox stood guard
over a disordered pile of luggage, he thrust the paper into her hand.

"We'll bring him round between us, you and I," he said, as she looked up;
and she nodded contentedly, her eyes deep in his.  He could no longer
regret having given way to her; and she knew it!

They were not the only English passengers in the Mooltan train.  Two Dera
subalterns, who had fled posthaste from Simla, stood smoking outside
their carriage:--Hodson, the 'slacker' of the Battery, a small sallow
individual, with heavy-lidded eyes, and a disagreeable mouth; and Major
Olliver's 'sub,' Bobby Nixon, who answered indiscriminately to half a
dozen names, but was officially registered as The Chicken, a tribute to
his cheerful lack of wisdom, worldly or otherworldly, and to the sparse
crop of 'down' that surmounted an extensive freckled face, and shadowed a
mouth whose one beauty lay in its readiness to smile capaciously upon the
world at large.

As Honor and Lenox came towards him, the said mouth screwed itself into a
low whistle.

"Great Scott, Mrs Desmond, . . but this is flagrant heroism!  Who'd have
dreamt of meeting _you_ here?"

"A pleasant surprise, I hope," she asked, smiling, as they shook hands.

"Why, of course it's always good to see you," the boy answered, looking
upon her with frank admiration.  "And you bet we're proud to have our
ladies facing the music with us.  But still . . cholera's cholera; and it
looks like a record year.  They've got it hot and strong at Mian Mir.
Two of the Norfolks came down the hill with us, swearing like Billy O.
Been up less than a fortnight; and there's a masked ball on at the Club
to-morrow.  Oh Lord, it's a lively country!  Poor old Hodson only got a
week in Simla; and he has fever on him still."

Lenox glanced quizzically at the man he desired to weed out of his
beloved Battery by the simple means of making him work.

"Hard luck," he remarked; a suspicion of irony in his tone.  And Hodson,
anathematising under his breath India in general, and the Frontier in
particular, strolled off down the platform, head in air.  There was
little love lost between him and a commandant for whom work was the
backbone of life.

Just then, through the open windows of the next carriage, there came
forth a voice of thunder--articulate, unparliamentary thunder: and Lenox,
with a touch of friendly authority, drew Honor farther away.

"That's old Buckstick," Bobby explained genially.  "Giving it to his poor
devil of a bearer, because he wants to hit out at some one.  They say in
the regiment that some fool of a palmist told him to beware of cholera;
and I believe the old chap's in a blue funk.  Queer thing, funk.  Put
that man on an unbroken horse, or in the thick of a hand-to-hand
scrimmage, and he wouldn't know the meaning of fear.  Yet now . . ."

His dissertation was interrupted by the appearance at the window of
Colonel Stanham Buckley of the Punjab Infantry, who mopped a moist bald
head, and inquired picturesquely of a passing official when the blank
this blankety blank train was supposed to start.  Then catching sight of
a woman's figure, he vanished, with a final incoherent explosion,
slamming up the window-shutter behind him.

How the devil, he asked himself furiously, should a sane man expect
to find an Englishwoman hanging about Lahore station on a murderous
night of July?  The idea that she might be travelling to Dera never
entered his head.  His own wife, after five years of Frontier
vicissitudes,--aggravated by debt, and the tyranny of 'little drinks at
mess,'--had developed pronounced views on the duties of motherhood.
These had led to a house in Surrey, which, for one reason or another, it
had never yet seemed feasible to give up: and Buckley had consoled
himself after the fashion of his kind, with hard drinking, hard riding,
and hard swearing,--the only form of Trinity recognised by a certain type
of man.

And as he opened his ice-box, and helped himself to a stiff 'nightcap'
before turning in, Desmond joined the group outside.

"Come on, you two," he said, grasping an arm of each, "Dogs and luggage,
and carriage all square.  We shall be off in a minute.  Only half an hour
behind time!  See you again at Chichawutni, Nick.  Don't lie too flat,
and get apoplexy.  We can't afford to lose willing men!"

They met again, all six of them, on the Chichawutni platform, in a dry
hot dawn; for they were nearing the desolation of the Sindh Sagar desert,
where the monsoon is a negligible quantity.  Lenox, who had neither slept
nor smoked all night, looked rather more ragged than usual in the clear
light; but otherwise seemed to be bearing the journey well.  'Old
Buckstick,' as he had been christened by irreverent juniors, raised his
hat to Honor from a distance; and wondered what the hell women of that
sort were made of.

Early breakfast over, they set out upon a six hours' tonga drive to
Jhung; an isolated civil station fifty miles off the line of rail.
Tortured India was already awake and astir; and along an interminable
road of fine white dust, covered with straw, they sped at a hand-gallop
between converging lines of sheesham-trees, with clank and rattle and
incessant tooting of horns, scattering the unhurried traffic of the open
road:--a procession of five tongas loaded to the limit of allowance with
human beings, dogs, saddles, and battered boxes.  In all directions the
unprofitable land rolled level to the sky-line.  Every seven or eight
miles they stopped to change ponies.  Every hour the heat and glare grew
fiercer; the clangour of wheels and tonga-bar more assertive, till it
seemed to beat on bared nerves; and the terrible thirst of the Frontier
took hold upon the dust-filled throats of dog and man alike.

It is possible to compress a good deal of discomfort into six hours: and
the Dak Bungalow, in its noonday quiet and comparative coolness, seemed
an Island of the Blest after the glare and riot of the road.  Here the
Desmonds were cheered by a reassuring telegram; and here all rested till
after sundown, when the pitiless tongas claimed them again; and all night
long they fled across the open desert over a track of straw, through an
interminable darkness strewn with stars.

Now and again a handful of these, seemingly dropped to earth, heralded a
changing station, and a halt for fresh ponies.  Here would be brief and
blessed respite; a moment to stretch cramped limbs: moving lights that
revealed shadowy shapes of men and horses: much apostrophising of the
Prophet, interspersed with questionable jokes and laughter: and the voice
of the pariah, roused from light sleep, or the absorbing pursuit of
fleas.  Here also Colonel Buckley would wake up, and confound creation in
smothered expletives, mindful of Honor's presence; and on one occasion
Hodson was heard confiding to the Chicken his determination to 'get quit
of this blasted Frontier' on the first opportunity.  Whereat Lenox lost
his apathy, and turned upon Desmond, who walked beside him.

"Listen to that now!  By Jove, he shall get his opportunity sooner than
he thinks for.  We can't have young skrimshankers of his kidney
patronising the finest service in India."

"Get Richardson to give him a taste of the swimming-bath, in his mess
kit, when the cold weather comes!" Desmond suggested with a laugh.  "I've
known that knock the nonsense out of some of 'em."

Lenox nodded thoughtfully.

"I'm not over-partial to that form of argument," said he.  "But in this
case, I believe I should rather enjoy it."

Then the voice of the driver requested the Heaven-borne to return to
their seats: and they were off again, full clatter, half a dozen pariahs
speeding their progress.  Honor, by her own choice, shared the back seat
with her husband in comparative comfort.  His enclosing arm shielded her,
as far as might be, from the incessant jolting; and from time to time, in
utter weariness, her head sank upon his shoulder, and she slept, while
the two men smoked and talked fitfully in undertones.

Such primitive journeyings are fast becoming obsolete in the India of
to-day, where the railway stretches its antennae in all directions, and
the horn of the motor has been heard beyond Chaman.  Yet, for all their
obvious discomforts, they possessed their own peculiar flavour of
interest and charm.

Dawn showed them the Indus at last: a sheet of tarnished silver, five
miles wide, sprawling over the colourless country, its normal banks
submerged by the rush of water from the hills: and behind them day sprang
out of the east, 'a tyrant with a flaming sword.'

Through eight blazing hours that sword hung bared above them.  For their
ferry-boat was a native barge, persuaded rather than propelled in any
given direction by oars as long as punt poles; and set with one unwieldy
sail that could neither be tacked nor furled; but which provided them,
for a time, with a patch of burning shadow, by no means to be despised.
In it they smoked and picnicked, and made merry with cards and dogs, to
the best of their ability; while erratic currents bore them from sandbank
to sandbank; each collision involving an interlude of shouting, shoving,
coaxing, and upbraiding on the part of four assiduous boatmen; and when,
by the mercy of God and the river, they managed to run aground on the
farther side, it was nearing four o'clock in the afternoon.

Here were more tongas awaiting their prey: and this time the travellers
hailed them gratefully: for the swollen river had almost invaded the
gardens of outlying bungalows; and a short gallop brought them at last
into the straggling station, whose name literally signifies the Tents of
Ishmael.  But the day of tents had long since given place to the day of
spacious, square-shouldered bungalows, with pillared verandahs, set in
the midst of rambling compounds, where the ferasch and banana flourished
in dusty luxuriance, while orange, pomegranate, hybiscus, and
poinsettia,--to say nothing of marigolds and roses,--blazed regally in
the blossoming season with scarlet, and crimson gold.  A bird's-eye view
of the station itself might have suggested to the imaginative eye a game
of noughts and crosses scratched on a Titanic slate:--a network of wide
white roads, unrelieved by curve or undulation; their rigidity emphasised
by equidistant lines of trees, and whitewashed gate-posts, innocent of
gates.

Into one of these openings three out of the five tongas finally clattered
and stood still; and a familiar brogue gave them greeting from the
verandah.

"Praise the Powers, ye've got here at last!  We'd begun to think you
might be setting up house on a sandbank for the night!"

"We've had our fill of 'em without that, Frank," Desmond answered as he
sprang from his seat.

For the voice was the voice of Mrs Olliver, a rough-cut Irishwoman, whose
short reddish curls, and masculinity of speech and manner, cloaked the
woman's heart that glowed deep down in her,--a jewel crusted with common
clay.  Beside her stood Max Richardson, and Colonel Meredith--a big,
broad-shouldered man, extraordinarily like his sister in face and
temperament--who cleared the steps like any subaltern, lifted Honor out
of the tonga, and kissed her on both cheeks.

"You've no earthly business to be here, you know," he reprimanded her by
way of greeting.  "I'll tell Theo what I think of him, when I get him
alone!"

"No, please, John, you mustn't," she entreated in a low tone.  "He did
his best to prevent me.  But I meant to come . . . and I came!"

"I thought as much, when I got his wire!"  Then, still keeping hold of
her, he shook hands with Desmond.  "Mighty glad to get you back, Theo:
and to see you looking so fit.  You'll find your work cut out, I promise
you."

"So much the better.  Any cases?"

"Not yet, thank God.  We must steer clear of camp, if the thing can be
done.  But the fever's bad enough.  They're dropping like flies in the
city, poor devils.  Our hospital's crammed; and two 'subs' on the
sick-list at well as Wyndham.  He's going on all right now; but goodness
knows when he'll be fit for duty."

"I want to see Mackay about getting him over here as soon as possible.
May I borrow Suliman, and ride round at once?"

"When you've got outside a fair allowance of tea and sandwiches.  Not a
minute sooner!"

"Tea?  Rather not.  But I'd sell my immortal soul for an iced peg!"

While they talked, Max Richardson had led his friend into the lofty
shadowed drawing-room, that, in spite of a thermometer at 96 degrees,
struck cool as a grotto after the furnace without: and Frank Olliver,
consigning Honor to the largest arm-chair, herself presided at the tray;
apologising, in characteristic fashion, for having temporarily 'taken
over charge.'

"But bossing the show's one of me few talents; an' I'm not for wrapping
it in a napkin.  Geoff swears I took over charge of creation before I'd
cut me first tooth!  Any way it struck me that perhaps in the hustle of
starting you'd not thought of sending full instructions; so I just came
over this morning, and made free with your linen cupboard, an' your
bazaar account.  For I know how it feels to come back to a dead house at
this time of year.--Lord, there's that Theo man off again; incarnate
whirlwind that he is!  He'll get Major Wyndham over here to-morrow, sure
as fate; though the good man refused _my_ pressing invitation a week ago.
And 'tis the first time one o' me own brother officers has denied me the
only kind o' Woman's Rights this child's ever likely to clamour for!"

"Hear, hear, Mrs Olliver!" Meredith and Richardson applauded her, as she
held out both hands for their tea-cups; and Lenox smiled amused approval
from the depths of his chair.

When Desmond returned an hour later, he found Lenox's luggage in the
verandah, awaiting removal, and Lenox himself sitting alone in the
drawing-room with Brutus and his pipe.  It rested on his knee, held in
place by the finger-tips emerging from his sling; and as Desmond entered
he was scientifically pressing its contents into place with the ball of
his thumb.

Impulsively the other hurried forward, and laid an arresting hand on his
arm.

"Not that again, surely, old chap," he said, a note of anxiety in his
voice.  "Do you quite realise how many times you have filled it in the
last thirty-six hours?"

Lenox's fingers closed like a vice upon his treasure.

"Can't say I've troubled to keep count," he answered in a hard voice.
"And I'm damned if I can see what right you have to take me to task about
it."

"Not a shadow of right," Desmond owned frankly, "Except that I care
immensely what comes to you, and to that plucky wife of yours who has
honoured me with her friendship; and whom I am hoping to welcome here--as
Mrs Lenox before many months are out."

The shot took affect.  With a listless movement Lenox let his fingers
fall apart, and the pipe rolled on to the rug at his feet.  Here Brutus
lazily investigated it as a possible treasure trove; and after a puzzled
sniff or two lifted inquiring ears to his master, who was looking
absently in another direction.

Then Desmond stooped, and picked it up.

"Will you let me empty it, and fill it from my own pouch?" he asked
quietly: and Lenox gave silent assent.

"No doubt I seem to you a contemptible brute enough," he added bitterly,
while the transfer of tobaccos was in progress.  "And no doubt you're not
far wrong either.  But if you could get inside my head for a few hours,
you might possibly understand."

"My dear Lenox, it is just because I understand that I'm keen to do what
little I can for you, even at the risk of being damned for officiousness!
If your head's giving you trouble, why not take a genuine dose of the
stuff last thing; and get a night of solid rest before you start work?
That seems to me safer than trifling with poison in the form of tobacco.
You know yourself you'd make a square stand against the naked drug.  It's
the little 'nips,' the small capitulations, that do the damage in the
long-run."

He held out the pipe: and Lenox, clenching his teeth upon it, proceeded
to set it alight.

"Say what you please about things in future, Desmond."

He spoke without removing his eyes from the match he was manipulating.
"I swear I won't take it amiss again."  Then he rose abruptly.  "But I
must be off now.  I only waited to see you, and--thank you before
leaving.  You've the knack of putting fresh heart into a fellow when he
feels played out."

Desmond eyed the man thoughtfully for a second before replying.  Every
line of him proclaimed utter weariness of soul and body.

"Anything ready for you over there?" said he.

"Not that I know of.  But Zyarulla will shake things down in no time."

"All the same, as your luggage is handy, why not stop on here?  You'd be
uncommonly welcome; and I know Honor would be glad to keep an eye on you
for a while longer."

The invitation, given on the spur of the moment, took Lenox aback.

"But, my good chap, . . . you've got Wyndham coming over."

"Yes.  Thank God.  To-morrow or next day.  No distaste for Paul's
company, have you?"

Lenox smiled, and shook his head.

"Hang it all, Desmond, you know what I mean.  You and your wife have done
too much for me already.  There _are_ limits to a man's capacity for
sponging on other folks' generosity."

"Well, if that's your only objection, we'll consider the matter settled!
Wyndham goes into my dressing-room; so the boy's nursery is at your
service.  My wife is never so happy as when she has her hands full; and
it'll be less trying for you here, than in your own empty bungalow."

The last words flashed a suspicion into Lenox's mind.

"Look here, man," he broke out hotly, his eyes searching Desmond's face.
"Isn't it you yourself who would be glad to keep an eye on me?  You're
half afraid I shall knock under to this infernal thing if I'm too much
alone.  Is that it?"

Desmond met question and glance four-square.

"You gave me leave just now not to mince matters, and I take you at your
word," said he.  "To acknowledge that living alone may make the fight
harder for you is no reflection on your powers of resistance.  It is
simple fact; and no earthly good can come of disregarding it.  In your
case discretion is the better part of valour.--Now, will you be
reasonable, and accept my suggestion in the spirit in which it was made?"

He held out his hand.  Lenox grasped, and wrung it hard.

"Thanks, old chap," he said.  "I'll stay for the present.  There's no
withstanding you two."


That night he excused himself from mess: and long after the house and
compound had fallen asleep, he and Desmond sat together in the _dufta_,
with pipes and pegs, and softly snoring dogs at their feet, talking
intermittently of all things in earth and heaven, with the rare unreserve
bred of tobacco, and the communicative influence of midnight.  Talk of
this kind draws men very close together; and in the course of it Lenox
discovered--as others had done before him--that this man who had become
so intimately linked with the vital issues of his life was no mere good
comrade, but a dynamic force, challenging and evoking the manhood of his
friends.

When they parted Lenox felt more hopeful than he had done since the
arrival of Quita's note; and honest sleep hung heavy on his eyelids.

"Don't believe you need the dose we spoke of after all," Desmond remarked
on a note of satisfaction.

"Not a bit of it.  Thanks to you, I believe I shall sleep like a top."

Nor was he disappointed.

For the first time in fifty-six hours he took his fill of natural
dreamless sleep: and, on waking next morning, the first sight that
greeted him was a letter from Dalhousie, propped against the milk-jug on
his early tea tray.



[1] Duster.

[2] It is an order--you understand!




CHAPTER XIX.

  "And methought that beauty and terror were only one, not two;
  And the world has room for love and death, and thunder and dew;
  And all the sinews of Hell slumber in summer air;
  And the face of God is a rock; but the face of the rock is fair."
        --R.L.S.


That same evening after sunset, a hospital doolie was set down in the
verandah, and from it emerged Paul Wyndham--a long lean figure of a
man, whose most notable features were deep steadfast eyes, neither blue
nor grey; a mouth of extraordinary gentleness and capacity for
endurance; and the grave quietness of movement and speech, that may
mean power in perfect equilibrium or mere dulness.

Desmond and Honor welcomed him with unconcealed affection; and for
himself, his descent into the Valley of the Shadow seemed a small price
to pay for a convalescence cheered by the ministrations of these two,
than whom there were none dearer to him on earth.  Of the unalterable
nature of his feeling for Honor, both husband and wife were well aware;
though no word of it ever passed their lips.  They were aware, also,
that the love of a man like Paul Wyndham was a thing apart; implying
neither disloyalty to his friend, nor the remotest danger to any of the
three concerned.  Conditions inconceivable to the pedestrian order of
mind.

Too weak to fret against enforced inaction at a time of stress, Wyndham
passed his days between sleeping and waking and eating; between rare
talks with Lenox and Desmond, and the restfulness diffused through
heart and brain and body by Honor's constant presence at his bedside.
She had amply fulfilled the promise given him more than four years ago
of close and privileged friendship; and he counted himself more blest
in its possession than many a man who wins the entire woman, to find
her no more than a plaster goddess after all.

Honor herself, apart from the natural woman's pleasure in nursing an
appreciative patient, was thankful for a definite demand upon her time.
For Theo was seldom available now, except for an occasional
after-dinner drive, through darkness two degrees cooler than high noon;
and beneath her surface serenity she suffered keenly from the ache of
empty arms; from the completeness of separation involved in leaving a
child too young to span distance even by hieroglyphs, profusely
decorated with 'kisses,' such as she had seen women treasure in the
days of her young ignorance.  Mrs Rivers wrote constantly and
copiously.  But can the most unwearied pen set down all that a mother
craves to know about her child?

At the end of a week, Lenox was with them still.  To his sole
suggestion of departure, Desmond had merely replied: "My dear man,
don't talk nonsense.  When we've had enough of you, we'll let you know
it, without ceremony!"  And Lenox, strangely loth to return to his
bachelor quarters, took him at his word, and stayed on.

Yet the two men saw little enough of one another.  For on the Frontier
work means work: and when cholera hovers over the station like a bird
of prey, it is carried on with redoubled vigour.  Only by constant
occupation can fear and fatalism be held at arm's-length.  Only the
infectious mettle of the British officer can infuse into all ranks that
cheerful alertness which, at a time of epidemic, is the finest
safeguard in the world.  There is much virtue, also, in mere routine,
one of the wingless good angels of earth; and only those who have
proved its power to drag broken heart or broken body through the things
that must be done, estimate it at its true value.

In Lenox's case, it helped to deaden the prick of anxiety as to the
future and the physical ache of longing; for as Commandant with two out
of four subalterns on the 'sick list,' he had his hands full; and
Desmond, the Colonel's chosen friend and ally in all regimental
matters, was in the same enviable condition.  The more so, since he and
Meredith between them had anticipated the modern theory that the spread
of cholera or fever can be partially checked by a determined assault on
flies and mosquitoes, the great disease-breeders of the East; a
suggestion received at that time with a mild amusement, bordering on
scorn.  But the two men, zealous for the credit and welfare of the
regiment--the Great Fetish 'that claims the lives of all and lives for
ever'--determined to give the new notion a fair trial in their own
Lines; and Desmond, as may be supposed, flung himself heart and soul
into the organisation of this very novel form of campaign!  Plunged
neck-deep again in the work he loved, there seemed no limit to his
tireless energy; and from the Colonel downward, all were heartily glad
to get him back.

Even in an age given over to the marketable commodity, England can
still breed men of this calibre.  Not perhaps in her cities, where
individual aspiration and character are cramped, warped, deadened by
the brute force of money, the complex mechanism of modern life: but in
unconsidered corners of her Empire, in the vast spaces and comparative
isolation, where old-fashioned patriotism takes the place of parochial
party politics, and where, alone, strong natures can grow up in their
own way.

It is to the Desmonds and Merediths of an earlier day that we are
indebted for the sturdy loyalty of our Punjab and Frontier troops, for
our hold upon the fighting races of the North.  India may have been won
by the sword, but it has been held mainly by attributes of heart and
spirit; by individual strength of purpose, capacity for sympathy and
devotion to the interests of those we govern.  When we fail in these,
and not till then, will power pass out of our hands.

That there was no such failure among the little band of Englishmen
throughout that inglorious campaign against an enemy one could never
have the satisfaction of thrashing in the open, the attitude of their
Native officers and men bore ample witness.  Light-hearted
subalterns--whisked away from half-fledged love affairs, or the more
serious business of sport--might curse their luck with blasphemous
vigour; older men might grumble openly at extra parades, at the strain
of additional vigilance and discipline; but for all that, the work was
done,--thoroughly, and with a will; not within the station only, but
out there on the open plain, rolling in vast undulations to the naked
spurs of the Saliman range, where the sun smote through the canvas as
if it had been so much brown paper and the stricken regiment strove, by
constantly shifting ground, to shake off the pursuing horror that
steadily thinned its ranks.  Here Colonel Stanham Buckley waked each
morning with the cold clutch of fear at his heart; fortified himself
with incessant 'nips' throughout the day; and left the bulk of the work
to a cheery little Adjutant, untroubled by the sorrowful great gift of
imagination.  And here, as in the station, all officers were diligent
in visits to the hospital; heartening the sufferers by their presence,
and combating, as far as might be, the Oriental's fatalistic attitude
towards disease and death.  Perhaps only those who have had close
dealings with the British officer in time of action or emergency
realise, to the full, the effective qualities hidden under a careless
or conventional exterior:--the vital force, the pluck, endurance, and
irrepressible spirit of enterprise, which--it has been aptly said--make
him, at his best, the most romantic figure of our modern time.

And while indefatigable soldiers fought the enemy in camp and in the
Lines, Dudley Norton, O.S.I., Deputy Commissioner, and ruler-in-chief
of the station, fought him no less energetically in the bazaar and
native city; an even more heart-breaking task.  For here was no
disciplined body of men, but a swarm of prejudiced individuals, caring
nothing for infection, and everything for the sanctity of house and
caste.  Precautions and sanitary measures had to be carried at the
point of the bayonet; and they were so carried.  For Dudley Norton, no
novice at Frontier work, had long since made himself wholesomely feared
and respected throughout the Derajat; while, among the Maliks of his
district, his hawk-like eyes gleaming under heavy brows were accredited
with the power of watching a man's thoughts at their birth.  A
reputation too useful to be discouraged!

Like all detached frontier civilians, he practically lived at the
station mess; except on fugitive occasions, when a placidly handsome
woman, bearing his name, vouchsafed him a flying visit from home; for
no other reason--said the evil-minded--than to establish a right-of-way
over her property.  At these times Norton welcomed, and entertained his
wife with a scrupulous politeness and concern for her physical
well-being that was a tragedy in itself; and eventually 'saw her off'
at the nearest railway station with a sigh of relief.  For, once--in a
former life, it seemed--he had been in love with her; and the ghost of
a dead passion is an ill companion at bed and board.  At the present
moment, he had seen neither her nor his only son for more than five
years; and of the small daughter, whose coming had transfigured his
life, there remained only a cross in Kohat cemetery, and a faded photo
of the flagrantly unnatural type that prevailed in the late 'seventies.
But the man who gives his heart to the Indian Borderland must steel
himself to forgo much that, in the arrogance of youth, he has deemed
indispensable to happiness, or even to living at all.

Frontier service begets closer contact between soldier and civilian,
both in work and play, than cantonment life down country; most often to
the uprooting of prejudice on both sides; and Norton was one of the few
men in the station who had achieved comparative intimacy with Lenox.
Those formidable eyes of his had been quick to detect in the taciturn
Gunner, who had done so much, and had so little to say about it, a
coming 'political' of no mean quality, a man of ideas and ambitions,
for whom the great country of his service was something more than a
vast playground, or shooting-box; in effect, a man after his own heart.

Thus, finding Lenox established at the Desmonds, Norton called upon
them soon after Honor's arrival.  He was rewarded by a standing
invitation to 'drop in' any afternoon, or evening that he happened to
be free, an invitation which Honor extended to most of the men who came
to bid her welcome; and tea at the Desmonds--with iced coffee or pegs
as alternatives, and smoking a matter of course--soon became a daily
institution; a respite, if only for an hour or two, from the monotony
of mess, parade-ground, and hospital.

"Awfully sporting of Mrs Desmond," was the verdict of grateful
subalterns, who found these tea-drinkings a vast improvement on stale
home papers, and half-hearted gambling at the Club.  There was always
music.  Honor, besides playing magnificently, could be safely relied
upon for impromptu accompaniments.  The Chicken, and an irrepressible
Irishman of the Sikhs, who gloried in the name of O'Flanagan, were
indefatigable on the banjo, and in the construction of topical verses
to vary the programme.  Hot-weather audiences are not hypercritical;
and in the red-hot circle of days and nights the mildest innovation is
welcome as a sail on a blank horizon.

Desmond himself was delighted with his wife's spontaneous contribution
to the good spirits of the station; and if the two had little quiet
time together, they had at least a satisfying sense of comradeship in
work; the strongest link that can be added to the strong chain of
marriage.

Frank Olliver, with her big smile, and infectious gaiety, looked in
most days, as a matter of course; till one of the two fever cases she
had managed to lay hands on took a serious turn, and an hour off duty
could only be secured when Honor insisted on relieving guard, and
sending Frank over to play hostess in her stead.

There was also little Mrs Peters, the only other wife in the station; a
square, shapeless cushion of a woman, who would rush in for a
breathless half-hour to pour tales of native cunning, and Eurasian
apathy into Desmond's sympathetic ears.  Being both plump and
energetic, she suffered cruelly in the heat; mopped her face without
shame between her sentences; and, according to Frank Olliver, lived
chiefly on lime-squash, and a limitless admiration for her missionary
husband,--a large, ungainly man, with the manners of a shy schoolboy,
and the wrapt gaze of a seer; a man who, in an age of fanaticism, would
have walked smiling to the rack.  As it was, he walked with no less
equanimity through the pestilential mazes of the city and bazaar.  For
although in this age of tolerance run to seed, a man is not called upon
to die for his beliefs, he is occasionally called upon to live for
them; which is not necessarily the easier of the two.  But up to his
lights Henry Peters achieved it.  At all possible and impossible hours,
his unwieldy white umbrella, pith hat, and badly-cut drill suit
pervaded the dwellings of his scattered converts; while his wife, torn
between pride in him and mortal dread of infection, grieved in secret
over inadequate meals snatched at odd hours; and supplemented tremulous
prayers for his safety with lumps of camphor, screwed up in paper, and
slipped surreptitiously into the pockets of his coats.

Once or twice she dragged him in triumph to the Desmonds,--a reluctant
dishevelled hero,--and 'showed him off' to that little company of
well-groomed, kindly-natured soldiers, with a naïve simplicity that
went to Honor's heart.

"Why is it that some of us have a special licence to be so exquisitely
natural?" she wondered, as she stood beside the tea-table, dispensing
iced coffee, and surveying, with satisfaction, a room full of
tobacco-smoke and contented men.  "That's just how I feel tempted to
'show off' Theo, sometimes.  And wouldn't the dear man crush me to
powder if I tried!"

She glanced approvingly at him where he sat astride on a reversed
chair, in dusty polo kit, reporting progress of the great 'fly
campaign' to Wyndham, who had been newly promoted to a deck-lounge in
the drawing-room at tea-time.

It was a larger gathering than usual; and, in spite of the fact that
for three days the thermometer had recorded a hundred and twenty in the
shade, spirits ran high.  The subalterns--for whose exuberant fooling
Honor had a very tender tolerance--had 'chorussed' themselves hoarse
and thirsty; and were receiving the reward of the public-spirited out
of long misty tumblers, that fizzed and bubbled.  Peters had forgotten
his shyness in a discussion with Norton on the vexed question of
cholera infection, and the probable futility of quarantine; while Mrs
Peters, listening anxiously, made inconsequent darts into the argument,
to her husband's obvious discomfiture, and Norton's equally obvious
amusement.

A group of men near Honor were talking of England, tormenting
themselves gratuitously by bare imagination of a feast.  Captain Unwin
of the Sikhs was casually unfolding a plan to elude superfluous
creditors, and spend next summer 'at home.'  His debts were phenomenal;
and it was six years since he had sighted the funnel of a steamer.  He
expatiated yearningly on prospective delights.  Cup Day at Ascot; a
July evening on the upper reaches of the Thames; a punt in a backwater;
a pipe and a cushion; just enough breeze to stir the willows; and, with
any luck, a pretty woman in the bows.

"Just a shade better than a sandbank on the Indus, eh?" he wound up
with a chuckle of enjoyment.  "And I'll pull it through this time or
perish in the attempt!  Lord . . . think of jingling down Piccadilly in
a hansom once again . . ."

"To dinner at the Savoy," suggested a thick-set Major on a note of
relish.  "Devilish good one they gave me there three years ago.  Night
before I sailed."

Sympathetic murmurs encouraged him to enlarge on the cherished memory!
but before he had reached the _entrée_--an elaborate item--Honor was
out of hearing; having crossed the room to where Lenox sat balancing a
coffee-cup on one knee, watching the faces round him with keen, kindly
eyes, and taking little active part in the proceedings.  He still wore
his arm in a sling; and his teeth held the inevitable pipe, filled from
a tin of tobacco that Desmond had induced him to accept on the night of
their talk.  Only three times in the past week had he succumbed to the
forbidden mixture.  But the glow of satisfaction, which those who have
never resisted unto blood, complacently couple with self-conquest, was
denied him.  Restlessness, lack of sleep, constant recurrence of the
concussion headache,--these had been his reward; with the result that a
rising temperature had forced him to put his name on the 'sick-list'
and take a few days off duty.  But at Honor's approach his whole face
lit up.  The intimacy of everyday life had drawn them very near to each
other; for Honor had all the magnetism of a woman made for tenderness;
a magnetism few men can resist, and few women condone.

"You look so tired, and aloof from it all," she said gently.  "I'm
afraid the boys' nonsense and noisiness worries your head."

"Not a bit of it.  It's good to see them enjoying themselves.  You're a
public benefactor, Mrs Desmond."

She laughed, and blushed.

"Nonsense.  It's only so nice of them to come, when one can do so
little to amuse them.  Do have some more coffee."

"Thanks.  It's capital stuff.  Dick's very late," he added anxiously.
"I'm wondering what's come to him."

He rose, and followed her to the tea-table, where Bobby Nixon saluted
with his most expansive smile; and announced that O'Flanagan,
reinforced by refreshment, was once more 'willing to oblige.'

An assurance that the rest were unanimously willing to listen brought
the Irishman to his feet, banjo in hand; a lank, clean-shaven
individual, who secreted a well-spring of humour beneath the
tragi-comic solemnity of the born-low comedian.  He was greeted with
cries of "Fire away, old Flannel Jacket!" "Phil the Fluter's Ball!"
"An' give ut in shtyle!"  He gave it in style accordingly, and in a
brogue as broad as his own shoulders; the whole room spontaneously
taking up the chorus.

  "Wid the toot of the flute, an' the twiddle of the fiddle,
    Dancin' in the middle, like a herring on a griddle!
  Up an' down, hands come round, cross into the wall--
    Faith, hadn't we the gaietee . . ."


But at this point the door opened to admit Max Richardson.  He was
still in uniform; and there was that in his face which checked their
hilarity, and made O'Flanagan instantly put down his banjo.

Honor went quickly towards him, holding out her hand.

"What is it?" she asked in a low tone.

"It's young Hodson.  He died . . . half an hour ago."

"Not cholera?"

Dick nodded.

An inarticulate murmur went round the room; and for several seconds no
one spoke.  The first white man down seemed to bring the enemy within
striking distance of each one of them.

Then Lenox came forward.  "You'll excuse us, Mrs Desmond?" he said
quietly.  And the two men went out, leaving a strangely silent room
behind them.

They passed through the hall into the dining-room before Lenox took the
pipe from his lips, and spoke.

"Bad business," he remarked laconically.  "And, God forgive me, when he
'went sick' this morning I half thought he was malingering.  Poor
chap . . . he's quit of the Frontier sooner than he thought for,
without any help from me.  You were with him, I suppose, . . . at the
last?"

"Yes; for the best part of two hours," Dick answered, absently helping
himself to a cheroot.  "Never saw a man take it harder.  No getting him
to make a fight for it.  Kept on begging me to tell him if this show
was fellow's only chance; and . . . I couldn't."

Lenox looked intently at his friend.

"That so?"

The other nodded; and there was a short silence.  Richardson took up a
photograph of old Sir John Meredith, and examined it with critical
interest.

"You might have sent for Peters," Lenox said at length,

"No earthly use.  He swore like a trooper when I suggested it; and I
can't blame him.  Professional platitudes are not the style of physic
to ease a man when he's suffering hell's own torments in his mind and
body."  He set down the picture abruptly, and swung round on his heel.
"I'll be going on now, for a tub, and a change of clothing.  Idiotic of
me, no doubt; but I feel a bit off colour after all that.  How about
the funeral?  To-night?"

"No.  First thing to-morrow.  I'll arrange it with Peters before he
leaves; and get Courtenay to let me off the sick-list, if I can."  Then
grasping the younger man's shoulder with rough kindliness, he added:
"Good old Dick.  Pull yourself together, and come back here for dinner.
It may be my turn . . . or yours, before we're through.  And if it
is . . . we don't go out like snuffed candles, remember.  You may take
my word for it."

"Hope to God you're right," the other answered between his teeth, and
was gone.


Next morning, in a flaming dawn, all that remained of Tom Hodson was
consigned, with military honours, to the dust of that Frontier he had
grown to hate, because it demands so much of a man, and offers so
little in return; and every house within earshot of the cemetery
vibrated to the three parting volleys fired over the open grave.

Lenox was present at the service; and at the gun practice that followed
shortly after it.  Thirty grains of phenacetin and several forbidden
pipes, had ensured him six hours' sleep, and a cooler skin; with the
result that he had successfully induced an amused medical officer to
report him 'fit for duty.'  But Nature is relentless; and Lenox,
driving back from 'orderly room' through a white-hot glare, and a haze
of pungent dust, found himself speculating vaguely--as though the
question concerned some unknown entity in another world--how he was
going to drag a protesting body and brain through the rest of the day's
work.

"Got to be done somehow, though.  That's flat," was his final verdict
as he passed into the twilight of the hall.

Every door in the house was shut against the furnace without; had been
shut since seven of the morning; and would so remain till after sunset.
Yet, the mercury hovered between ninety-seven and a hundred all day,
and most of the night.  In India the thermometer supersedes the
barometer; and in the hot weather it becomes an obsession.  There is
always a mild satisfaction in knowing exactly what one has endured.

Desmond was not yet back, and the study was empty; a friendly-looking
room, its simple haphazard furniture unified by the rich colour
harmonies of Indian carpets and curtains; while a liberal supply of
books, unusual for the country, proclaimed it the room of a soldier who
found time for study and thought.

Too weary to get out of uniform, Lenox laid aside his helmet and
accoutrements; shouted to the punkah coolie, sleeping in the verandah,
chin on chest; sorted his geographical papers, and sat down to the
table.  Then he took out his pipe, eyed it thoughtfully, and flung it
aside with a curse.  Each relapse resulted in a renewed access of
self-distrust; and this morning the cloud upon his spirit fell heavier
than ever, because he foresaw that if the work ahead of him were to be
pulled through, in the teeth of the grinding headaches consequent on
his fall, last night's programme must be repeated, not once, but many
times, And at that rate, what was to be the end of it?  The degradation
of submitting to the drug itself?  A thousand times, no.  The soldier
in him sprang to arms at the mere suggestion.  Like all men capable of
greatness, he believed, not in the mastery of circumstance, but in the
mastery of will.  Yet, unhappily, the will, like all spiritual forces,
is ignominiously dependent on bodily conditions.  Pain, sheer pitiless
pain, will have its way with the bravest of us.

The man was ill without realising it.  The nerves in his head throbbed
to a devil's hornpipe of their own, and mental effort was beyond him.
In vain he contracted his heavy brows, and tried to gather up the
threads of the chapter he had been working at.  Black depression
overpowered him, obliterating rational thought.  The morning's service
haunted him with unnatural persistence, and the half-hour he had spent
with Dick in the dead boy's bungalow, looking through his papers--a
chaos of bills, mostly unpaid; racing notes; old programmes; and half a
dozen envelopes addressed in a girl's unformed hand.  On the open
blotter, an unfinished letter to a friend in Simla had announced his
hope of a speedy exchange down country! his determination not to spend
another hot weather 'on this God-forsaken Frontier . . .'

"Poor misguided chap," Lenox mused, not without a tinge of his old
contempt.  "Now if only _I_ could have gone in his place, it would have
simplified matters all round."

But he thrust away the thought as morbid and cowardly; and by way of
curative drew Quita's last letter out of his breast-pocket.  The fact
of her love for him still remained a miracle incompletely realised; and
she had been right in her belief that he had yet to discover its
intensity and depth.

The great noontide silence had already fallen upon house and compound.
Outside, brazen earth and brazen sky glared at one another with
malignant intensity.  Two bullocks lounged under the bananas by the
mill wheel flicking lazy tails when the flies presumed too shamelessly
upon their apathy; and crows, with beaks agape, hopped resignedly from
one burning patch of shade to another.  Among the verandah roof-beams,
three grey squirrels argued, with subdued chitterings, over a kipper's
head stolen from a breakfast plate; and at intervals a piteous wailing
came from the servants' quarters, where, as all knew, Nizam Din,
kitmutgar, was beating his pretty wife, Miriam Bibi, for the third time
that week, because she had grown careless in the matter of covering her
face, since the coming of Zyarulla, whose arrogant magnificence had
created a flutter in more than one respectable household.

But Quita's letter, written in her 'garden' on a boulder, before
breakfast, had transported Lenox many hundred miles away from it all.
The cluttering of squirrels, and the cries of poor Miriam Bibi entered
his ears; but the spirit of him was back among the mountains; the scent
of warm pine-needles was is his nostrils, the spell of his wife's face
and voice upon his heart.

A sudden sense of suffocation dispelled the dream.  He found himself
breathless, in a bath of perspiration.  The punkah had stopped dead.
And one must have endured this trifling inconvenience to gauge the
significance of those five words.

Lenox straightened himself with an oath.  "_Kencho_.[1] . . . you son
of a jackal!" he thundered; at the same time jerking the punkah frill,
an effective means of reanimating the long-suffering punkah coolie, who
has a trick of twisting the rope round his arm, that he may jerk it the
more easily in his dreams.

But Lenox's vigorous pull merely brought a great length of rope through
the wall; and his command was answered by the groans of a man in
torment.  Springing up, he wrenched open the glass door; and a blast as
from a furnace struck him across the face.  The coolie, a brown,
distorted mass, writhed upon the hot stones in mortal agony.  At the
Sahib's approach, he struggled to his knees with a rush of incoherent
detail; while Lenox shouted for Zyarulla, and the dogcart; flung a word
of encouragement to the stricken man, and went in again for his helmet.

Till the trap appeared Lenox paced the verandah; the punkah coolie
groaned; and Zyarulla protested as openly as he dared against his Sahib
being put to personal inconvenience for a base-born--mere dust of the
earth.  None the less, at the Sahib's order he gingerly helped the dust
of the earth into the trap, where Lenox put his one available arm round
the writhing body; and the _sais_, who showed small relish for the
situation, was ordered to get up and drive from behind.  The which he
did; leaning over the back seat, and keeping ostentatiously clear of
the misbegotten son of a pig who had broken his midday sleep.

In this fashion they journeyed, awkwardly enough, to the temporary
cholera hospital; a handful of tents and grass huts on the outskirts of
the station.  Betwixt the clutches of cramp, and the abject humility of
his kind, the coolie slithered from the seat on to the mat; and Lenox
had some ado to prevent his falling headlong from the cart.  But in due
time he was handed over safely to a suave, coffee-coloured hospital
assistant, and carried shrieking into a tent crammed with sights unfit
to be told; whence he emerged, two hours later, without protest of
voice or limb, to swell the intermittent stream of fellow-corpses that
flowed from the hospital to the burning ghatt or the Mahommedal
burial-ground outside the station.

When Lenox staggered back into the hall, dizzy with headache, and
half-blinded with glare, he was met by Desmond, who, noticing a slight
lurch as he entered, took hold of his arm.

"Zyarulla told me what happened," he said, a great gentleness in his
voice.  "Come on to your room, old man.  Take a rousing dose of
phenacetin, and lie down till tiffin.  I'll bring you a lime-squash."

"Thanks.  You are a damned good sort, Desmond.  The sun's touched me
up, I fancy.  I shall be all right in a couple at hours."

But before two hours were out, Desmond's orderly was speeding through
the dust to the Doctor Sahib's house; and Desmond himself had gone
hurriedly to his wife's room, where she too was lying down after her
morning's duties.  She rose at his coming, holding out both hands.  For
she read disaster in his eyes.

"Darling, what has gone wrong?"

"It's Lenox.  He's down with it.  Not severe as yet.  But there's no
mistaking what it is."

Her faint colour--it had grown perceptibly fainter in the past
week--left her face.

"Oh, his poor wife!  We must send a wire at once."

"I've sent one already, by the orderly who went for Courtenay.  Told
her she should have news every day, for the present."

"Oh, bless you, Theo!  You think of everything!"

"Steady, Honor, steady," he rebuked her gently.  "We've got to do a
fair share of thinking between us just now.  Paul can safely stay on if
one isolates that side of the house; and Zyarulla and I can do
everything for Lenox between us.  As for you, John must give you a bed
till we're through."

"But, Theo . . ."

"Be quiet!" he broke in almost roughly; adding on a changed note: "For
once in a way, my dearest, you will obey orders without question--or go
altogether.  Now give me the chlorodyne, and let me get back to poor
Lenox.  Seems brutal to give him any form of opium after all he's been
through.  Hullo, there's Richardson shouting outside.  He'll be
terribly cut up when he knows."

It transpired that Richardson had come over, post-haste, to report
three cases among his men; and at sun-down the little mountain battery,
with its three subalterns and full camp equipment, marched out into the
open desert, scornfully overlooked by that Pisgah height of the
Frontier, the Takti Suliman, whose square-cut crags were printed in
sharp outline upon a stainless sky.



[1] Pull.




CHAPTER XX.

  "Passion has but one cry, one only;--Oh to touch thee, my beloved!"
        --Olive Schreiner.


Asiatic cholera is as capricious as a woman; capricious both as to her
choice of victims, and as to the grisly fashion of her wooing.  In one
mood she will kill at a stroke, like a poisoned arrow; in another she
will play with a tortured body as a cat plays with a mouse.  And it was
thus that she dealt with Eldred Lenox.

For two days and nights Desmond and the Pathan wrestled against the
evil thing, and against that deadly apathy as to the result, which
kills more surely than the disease itself.  And since the regiment
claimed many hours of the Englishman's day, the brunt of the nursing
devolved upon Zyarulla, who scorned suggestions of sleep, and appeared
to live on pellets of opium, and a hookah, which inhabited the verandah
outside his master's room.

There were moments when they were tempted to despair.  But they fought
on doggedly, and without comment; and as the second night wore towards
morning, they knew that they had conquered.  The gong at the police
station down the road had just clanged three times.  Every door and
window-slit stood open at their widest; and through them entered in the
familiar, unforgettable smell of the Indian Empire under her yearly
baptism of fire; a smell of dust, and baked brick work, and stale
native tobacco.  A hand-lamp on the mantelpiece diffused a yellow
twilight through the room; a twilight flavoured with kerosine: and
across the twilight the shadow of the punkah flitted, like a whispering
ghost.

Zyarulla, crouching at the bedside, slid a cautious knotted hand
between the buttons of the sleeping-coat, and laid it lightly on his
master's heart.  The flutter within was feeble, but regular; though the
face, grey and shrunken almost past recognition, still bore the impress
of death.

"God is great," the Pathan muttered into his beard.  "The strength of
the Heaven-born is as that of mine own hills; and my Sahib will live.
It is enough."

On the farther side of the bed, Desmond, in gauze vest, and belted
trousers, mopped his forehead, and drew a long breath.  Then, measuring
out a tablespoonful of raw-meat soup, he slipped a hand under the dark
head on the pillow.

"Lenox, dear chap, drink this, will you?" he said, speaking as
persuasively as a mother to a child.

Lenox obeyed automatically.  For a mere instant his lids lifted, and
recognition gleamed in the eyes that seemed to have retreated half-way
into his head.  Then, with an incoherent murmur, he settled himself
into a more natural attitude of rest; and the two men watching him
intently, exchanged a nod of satisfaction.

The Pathan, sitting back on his heels, fumbled at his belt for a pellet
of opium.

"He will sleep now, Huzoor, like a day-old babe; and the Presence will
sleep also.  Since yesterday at this time your Honour hath taken no
rest; and there be three hours yet to parade-time."

"Good.  We have fought a tough fight, thou and I, and be sure Lenox
Sahib will know of thy share in it.  Wake me at half-past five."

"Huzoor."

Zyarulla salaamed profoundly; and Desmond, dropping with fatigue, flung
himself, even as he was, on to a chair-bed in the adjoining
dressing-room, and slept the dreamless sleep of exhaustion.


Before six he was over at Meredith's bungalow, sitting on the edge of
his wife's bed, drinking tea with an egg in it,--her own
prescription,--and enjoying her delight at his news.

"Good enough, isn't it?" he concluded heartily.  "I'll take the
telegraph office on my way back."

"And _I'll_ come over to breakfast, bag and baggage!"

"Capital.  If John agrees."

"Of course he will.  He's not such a fidget as you are!"

"Glad to hear it; if it means getting you back; and both rooms shall be
disinfected to-day, Lord, but it's a weight off my mind!"

And he cantered down to the Lines in such a mood of exaltation as they
know who have been privileged to fight for a human life, and win.

Honor got her own way, as she always did; and half-past nine found her
back at her deserted post behind the teapot.  Desmond fancied that she
looked paler than usual; that her cheerfulness was veiled by a shadow
of constraint.  But as Paul was present, enjoying his first normal
breakfast, he contented himself with scrutinising her, when her
attention seemed to be taken up elsewhere.  As a matter of fact, Honor
knew precisely how often he looked at her; and, womanlike, hugged his
solicitude to her heart.  For there had been moments, in the past two
days, when the traitorous thought would obtrude itself that perhaps the
child needed her most after all.

Directly the meal was over, she rose, murmuring that she had 'things to
see to,' and went out, leaving the men with their cigars.  But instead
of going to the store cupboard, where the old Khansamah awaited her,
armed with his daily _hissab_,[1] she slipped into the drawing-room,
sat down at her bureau, and leaned her head on her hand; honestly
hoping that Theo might leave the house without coming to her.  For all
that, the sound of his elastic step brought a light into her eyes.  She
did not rise, or look round; and he came and stood beside her.

"Not quite yourself this morning, old lady?" he asked.  "Anything
really wrong?  Fever?  Headache?"

She caught the note of anxiety, and with a quick turn of her head
kissed the fingers resting on her shoulder.

"No, darling, neither.  Don't worry yourself.  I'm perfectly well."

"Sure?"

"Quite sure."

"Good."  And he departed, whistling softly; clear sign that all was
well with his world.

But twenty minutes later when Paul came in to look for a strayed pipe,
he found Honor, quite oblivious of 'things,' crying quietly behind her
hands.  He retreated hastily; but she heard him and looked up.

"Don't go, Paul.  I want you."

No three words in the language could have pierced him with so keen a
thrust of happiness.

"Do you mean . . . can I help you?" he asked eagerly.  "I felt sure
something was wrong."

"Did you?  I'm a bad actress!  But . . it's about Baby,--the other
Paul," she added, smiling through wet lashes.  "I have just had a
letter from Mrs Rivers that makes me want to pack my boxes and go
straight back to Dalhousie."

"And shall you?  Is it serious enough for that?"

"Oh, how _can_ one tell?" she cried desperately, her voice breaking on
the words.  "It mightn't seem serious to you.  He has fever, and a
touch of dysentery, and terrible fits of crying with his double teeth.
Mrs Rivers seems anxious; and of course one thinks . . . of
convulsions.  It all sounds rather a molehill, doesn't it, after the
horrors we have been living in here?  And perhaps only a mother would
make a mountain out of it.  But I think mothers must have God's leave
to be foolish . . . sometimes!"

Fresh tears welled up, and she hid her face again.  Paul could only
wait beside her tongue-tied, half-sitting on the edge of the
writing-table, wondering what dear, unfathomable impulse had led her to
admit him to the sanctuary of her sorrow; realising, so far as a
masculine brain can realise, something of the struggle involved in
woman's twofold responsibility--to the man, and to the gift of the man.

It is the eternally old, eternally new tragedy of Anglo-Indian
marriage; none the less poignant because it is repeated _ad infinitum_.
Love him as she may, it costs more for a wife, and still more for a
mother, to stand loyally by her husband in India than the sheltered
women of England can conceive.  For to read of such contingencies in
print, is by no means the same thing as having one's heart of flesh
pierced by the sword of division.

"Has Theo heard all this?" Paul hazarded gently.  "He went off in such
good spirits."

She dried her eyes, and looked up,

"I couldn't spoil it all by telling him.  But I thought it might seem
less of a nightmare, if I could tell some one . . . and . . ."

"And I happened to come handy?" he suggested with a rather pathetic
smile.

"Oh, Paul, how horrid!  It wasn't that," she contradicted him hotly.
"It was because you are . . you, my boy's godfather, and my very dear
friend.  Do you suppose I would have shown my mother-foolishness to any
other man of my acquaintance?"

"No.  I don't suppose it," he answered, looking steadily down into the
anxious beauty of her face.  "Forgive my much less pardonable
foolishness, and let me help you, if that's possible.  Are you really
thinking of going?"

"N . . no.  I don't believe I am.  Only . . for one mad moment, I felt
as if _nothing_ could hold me back.  But children are such elastic
creatures; and if I arrived to find him quite frisky and well, think
how ashamed I should feel at having deserted Theo, and put him to so
much expense for nothing.  But I do want to wire at once; though I
hardly like sending Theo's orderly . . ."

"Let me write it for you, and send my man," he volunteered, catching
gratefully at something definite to be done; and taking up a form he
prepared to write at her dictation.

"Reply prepaid, please; and addressed to Frank.  I shall go straight
over there, and stay till I get the answer, I could never keep it up
with Theo all day.  You saw how badly I did it at breakfast!--What's
that?  Some one come?"

Sounds of arrival were followed by an unmistakable Irish voice in the
hall; and Honor hurriedly dabbed her eyes.

"Dear Frank, how clever of her!  She can drive me over."

A minute later she was in the room; an angular workmanlike figure, in
sun helmet, and the unvarying coat and skirt.  It was her one idea of a
dress,--drill in summer, tweed in winter.  "An' be all that's sensible,
what more should an ugly woman want?" had been her challenge to a
misguided friend, who had suggested higher aspirations.  "'Tis no
manner o' use to dress up a collection of limbs and features without
symmetry; an' it saves no end of mental wear and tear, to say nothing
of rupees, that's badly wanted for polo ponies."

She entered talking; and shook hands talking still.

"The top o' the morning to you both!  'Tis an unholy hour for a visit.
But I'm after the loan of a feeding-cup, knowing you've two.  That
murdering villain of a _messalchi_[2] broke me only one this morning;
an' I'm afraid I used 'language' when I saw the corpse, besides
threatening to cut the price of a new one out of his pay!  '_Memsahib
ke kushi_,'[3] he answers, salaaming like a sainted martyr, and taking
the wind clean out o' me sails.  But I'll wash yours meself; so you
needn't fear to lend it."  Then, becoming aware of Honor's red eyelids,
she broke off short.  "Why, Honor, me dear, it's the born fool I am to
be chattering like a parrot when you're in trouble, by the looks of
it."  A glance from one to the other revealed the telegram in Paul's
hand.  "Great goodness, it's never the child, is it?" she asked with a
swift change of tone.

"Yes.  Honor has had disturbing news," he answered for her.  "She'll
tell you about it while I send off this wire."

Honor, who had risen, sank into her chair again as he left the room.

"Read that, dear," she said simply: and while Frank Olliver read, a
strange softness stole over her face, blanched and lined by many
Frontier hot weathers.  Outsiders, who wondered how any man had ever
come to fall in love with her, might have wondered less had they
chanced to see her then.  On reaching the signature, she awkwardly
patted Honor's shoulder.

"'Tis just one o' the bad minutes there's no evading, me darlint.  The
price you've to pay for the high privilege of carrying on the race."

"It seems a big price sometimes . . in India," Honor answered, not
quite steadily.  "And it's your one bit of compensation, Frank, that
you're spared the wrench of having to live with your heart in two
places at once."

At that Frank bit her lip, and stinging tears--an unusual
phenomenon--blinded her eyes.  But she was overstrung by a week of hard
nursing; and some childless women never loss the tragic sense of
incompleteness, the unacknowledged ache of empty arms.

"Spared?  Ah, me dear, you ought to know me better by now," she
protested reproachfully.  "I've no use at all for cheap comforts o'
that kind.  What's the sharpest pangs, after all, balanced
against . . . the other thing?  Lighter than vanity itself; an' you
know it.  None better.  But there . . . I'm clean daft to be talking so
at this stage o' the proceedings.  It's the happy woman I am, sure
enough.  Geoff and I are rare good friends.  Always have been.  But
don't you talk to me again about being spared.  It's one more than I
can stand; an' that's the truth."

Honor took possession of the hand that patted her shoulder,--a square
hand; rough with much riding and exposure,--and laid it against her
cheek.

"Bless you, Frank," she said softly.  "You make me feel quite ashamed
of myself.  Come and get the feeding-cup; and take me home with you.
I've wired to Mrs Rivers; and the answer will come to you.  I couldn't
tell Theo, till . . I must."

Frank's smile had the effect of sunshine striking through a shower.

"Saints alive, how you spoil the dear man!  But indeed an' I wonder who
could help it?  Not meself, I'll swear."


Desmond came in very late for tiffin.  At Paul's announcement that
Honor had gone to Mrs Olliver's till tea-time, he raised his eyebrows
without question or comment: then, going over to the mantelpiece, stood
contemplating a recent photo of her and the child.

"Did you happen to notice her at breakfast?" he asked abruptly, his
eyes on the picture.  "She didn't seem to me quite up to the mark.  And
of course . . bringing her into this . . . one feels responsible . . ."

There was more in the tone than in the broken sentence; and Wyndham,
coming up behind him, grasped his shoulders.

"My dear Theo," he said soothingly, "I can't let you be hag-ridden by
your favourite nightmare!  Honor is woman enough to be responsible for
her own actions.  Besides, she is perfectly well.  I had a talk with
her before she went.  As to her coming down into this, you couldn't
have held her back.  She has every right to stand by you, if she
chooses; and you must know, even better than I do, that in the good
future ahead of you, wherever you may be, unless it's active service,
Honor will be there too, . . as sure as my name's Wyndham."

This was quite a long speech for Paul; one that it cost him an effort
to make; and Desmond, fully realising the fact, turned upon his friend
with impulsive warmth.

"True for you, Paul, old man!  She's a Meredith.  That about covers
everything.  What an amazing talent you have for casting out
devils!--Now, let's be common-sensible, and have some food.  Kohi hai!
Tiffin lao." [4]

And as if the walls had ears, the meal made its appearance with that
silent celerity which the retired Anglo-Indian--who has sworn at native
servants for thirty years--misses so keenly, when he is relegated to
the cumbersome ministrations of the British house-parlourmaid of Baling.

"By the way," Desmond remarked, as he dissected a fowl, cooked--by the
mercy of the gods--in that elusive interval between toughness and
putrescence, the pursuit of which gives to hot-weather housekeeping an
excitement peculiarly its own, "there's bad news from the Infantry camp
this morning.  Poor old Buckley.  A cramp seizure at midnight.  Went
out in three hours; and was buried at dawn, Mackay showed me a note
from Dr Lowndes saying he believed it was one of those odd freaks of
disease, a spurious case.  Sheer funk; and nothing else.  Camp was in a
flourishing condition.  No deaths for nearly a week.  Then, yesterday,
the Colonel's bearer must needs appropriate an unattached germ; and it
seems that this got on the poor chap's nerves.  He dined chiefly off
whisky; and afterwards yarned away to Lowndes about his wife and
children.  Hadn't seen 'em for eight years.  Never mentioned 'em to
Lowndes in his life before: and from what one has heard, the wire that
goes home this morning will barely spoil her appetite for dinner; which
only seems to add a finishing touch to the pity of it all.  Mysterious
thing . . . marriage . . ."

He broke off short on the word.  The thought of his own first venture,
and the misery that might have come of it, but for an accident so
strange as to seem unreal, sealed his lips on the subject of the
eternal riddle of the universe: and Paul, being blest with
understanding, unobtrusively shifted the talk to another channel.


There could be no thought of polo for Desmond that afternoon; though
Major Olliver came and reasoned with him forcibly in the verandah.  He
devoted himself, instead, to the exhaustive disinfection of the
sick-room and dressing room.  It was hot work; unpleasant work.  But it
was good to be through with it; to have rid the house of the last
vestige of an uninvited and unwelcome guest.  With which reflection
Desmond sat down finally in the sanctuary of his study; lit a cheroot;
and opened a battered original of Omar Khayyam, whose stately quatrains
and exquisite imagery were less hackneyed then, than they have since
become among modern devotees of culture.

A great silence pervaded the house.  He had left Lenox in the blessed
borderland between sleeping and waking, with Zyarulla on guard; and
looking in on Paul, had found him dozing also, after the morning's
unwonted exertion.  No doubt Frank would drive Honor back for tea: and
even while he read Desmond's ear was strained to catch the sound of
wheels.  This capacity for sustained ardour is a very rare quality in
love that has attained its object, and the woman who does not
succeed--unwittingly enough--in extinguishing it within the first few
years of marriage is rarer still.

The sound he waited for came at length; and he sprang out of his chair.
But in hurrying through the drawing-room, towards the hall, another
sound arrested him; the unmistakable clink of the tonga bar.

"A tonga?  Why, who the deuce . . ." he ejaculated mentally.  "It can't
be . . . ."

But at this point he fairly ran into the arms of a woman, in alpaca
dust-cloak and shikarri helmet; a woman who clutched his left arm with
both hands: and before he could collect his scattered senses, Quita's
voice was in his ears.

"Oh, Captain Desmond . . tell me . . is he . . . ?"

"He is out of all danger now, . . if he can be kept quiet," Desmond
answered, stifling his own amazement in view of her white face and
shaking lips.

"Thank God.  Oh, thank God!"  The words were a mere flutter of breath;
and with the sudden relief from long tension all her courage went to
pieces.  A dry sob broke in her throat.  Her lids dropped; and she fell
limply against him.

"You poor, dear, plucky woman," he murmured, putting an arm round her,
and gently removing the heavy helmet; while she lay motionless; her
head on his shoulder; no vestige of colour in lips or cheeks.

Desmond began to think she must have fainted outright: and while he
held her thus, meditating a cautious removal of his burden to the sofa,
steps in the hall were followed by the appearance of Honor in the
doorway: a radiant Honor, aglow with the good news that had brought her
straight back to him, like a homing bird.  Her small gasp of surprise
melted into a smile of amused understanding, as Theo telegraphed
wireless messages to her over the golden brown head that was
trespassing, flagrantly and confidingly, on her own exclusive property.
The whole thing was so exactly like Quita: so daring; so preposterous;
so entirely forgivable!  And Honor's hospitable brain at once began
scouring the bungalow for some corner where she might stow this
unexpected addition to her elastic household.

"She must have left Dalhousie directly she got my first wire," Desmond
said under his breath.  "Get some brandy, while I put her down."

But his first movement roused Quita from semi-unconsciousness.  She
lifted her head with a startled sound; and at sight of Honor the blood
rushed back into her face.

"This is pretty behaviour!" she said with a little broken laugh.  "I'm
so sorry.  It must have been the reaction, the relief, after that
excruciating journey."

"No need to apologise!" Desmond answered, a twinkle of amusement in his
eyes.  "No use either to try and push my arm away.  Let me get you to
the sofa first."

Honor piled two cushions behind her; and as she sank back into their
silken softness, leaned over and kissed her cheek.

"You very wonderful person," she said.  "How on earth did you pull
through it, all alone?"

Quita shrugged her shoulders.

"It was not amusing," she answered with her whimsical smile.  "But it
was an experience: and that is always something,--when it is over!  I
think I never realised before how big and how terrible a country India
is; or how kind people are out here," she added, looking from one to
the other with misty eyes.

"Kind?  Nonsense!"  It was Honor who spoke.  "Now . . will you have a
peg, or some tea?"

"Tea, please.  And after that, I may see . . Eldred, mayn't I?"

Instinctively she appealed to Desmond, who knitted his brows in
distress.  "I'm afraid that's out of the question, . . yet awhile," he
said.

"Well then . . when?"

"Can't say for certain.  Probably not for two or three days.  I
wouldn't so much as risk telling him that you are here till then."

The mist on her lashes overflowed; and she dashed an impatient hand
across them with small result.

"But I have waited three days already.  And since this morning I have
been counting the hours . . the minutes . ."

It was no use.  She could not go on without further loss of dignity;
and Honor hastened into the breach.

"Drink your tea first, dear.  You can talk afterwards."

And as she obeyed, Desmond came round and sat beside her.

"See here, Miss Maurice," he began.  But she raised an imploring hand.

"Oh, don't call me that . . now.  It hurts.  It makes me feel I have no
manner of right to be here.  And I have a little right, haven't I?"

"More than a little, I should say, . . Mrs Lenox.  Is that better?"

She flushed to the eyes, and glanced down at her bare left hand.  It
was the first time she had heard her married name; and the sound of it
was music in her ears.  But she shook her head.

"No.  It's almost worse, till I know for certain what's going to come
of my mad leap in the dark."

"Well then . . . ?"

"Why not . . 'Quita'?"  She looked up beseechingly.  "I should love
that: and it would make me feel less of an intruder."

"You are forbidden, on pain of instantaneous eviction, to feel anything
of the sort!  And I heartily vote for 'Quita,'" Desmond answered,
smiling into her troubled face with so irresistible a friendliness that
she must needs smile back at him, however mistily.

"Oh, but it's good to talk nonsense with you again!" she cried.  "Only,
I want to know, . . please, about Eldred.  He is too weak.  Is that it?"

"Far too weak.  You see, we only pulled him round the corner at three
o'clock this morning; and the great thing now is to avoid any risk of
reactionary fever.  Well, you know yourself . . I may speak frankly?"
She inclined her head.  "Your coming, besides being emotionally
disturbing, will make something of a complication under the
circumstances . ."

"Oh, I know . . I know!  It seems like forcing his hand.  Every minute
I see more plainly that I ought never to come at all."

"Waiting would have been wiser," Desmond reproved her gently.  "But I
admire the pluck of the whole thing far too much to scold you for it."

Her smile had a touch of wistfulness.

"That's so like you!  But I don't know about pluck.  Perhaps, if I had
realised all the details, I might have hesitated; though I doubt it.  I
half lost my senses for the time being; and I believe poor Michel
thought I'd lost them permanently!  He was furious with me for going."

"Rather rough on him, when you come to think of it!  But why on earth
didn't you wire to us before starting?"

"At first it simply didn't occur to me; and when it did, I had just
sense enough to know that you would probably wire back 'Don't come.'
And even _I_ could hardly have persisted in the face of that!  So I
determined to take the small risk with the big one.  Dak bungalows seem
to grow wild in India; and I thought there would surely be one here
where I could get some sort of a bed."

"Dak bungalow, indeed!  If there is one, _I_ won't help you to find
it!"  This from Honor, in a burst of righteous wrath.  "So you may as
well resign yourself to staying with us, whether you like it or not!"

"With you?  Is it possible?  I thought . . .  But have you really a
corner available?  I could sleep divinely on the hearth-rug, I'm so
desperately tired, and so relieved."

"Very well.  That settles it.  But I'll let you off the hearth-rug,
even though you did fling Dak bungalows at my head!  Captain Lenox is
in Baby's nursery; and we can shut off the dressing-room for you, if
you can manage with a chair-bed.  It's quite safe.  Everything has been
disinfected.  I believe Theo knew you were coming!  Will that do?"

"Do?  _Ma foi_, . . but how does one say thank you for such goodness?"

"One refrains!" Desmond remarked, handing her empty cup across to his
wife.

Quita laughed.

"You are incorrigible!" said she.  "But there is still this to think
of.  With your friends coming and going, how am I to be . . accounted
for till I have seen . . Eldred?  If I am Miss Maurice, _par exemple_,
what am I doing in Dera Ishmael?  And if not . . ?  _Mon Dieu_, but
it's an ignominious tangle.  I'm as bad as Alice in Wonderland in the
wood.  I seem suddenly to have lost my identity: and in my mad anxiety
and impatience to get here I never thought anything about it till I was
sweltering in that horrible barge this morning.  Shall I live
altogether in my room?  It would be no more than I deserve."

"My dear, you'll do nothing of the sort."  It was Honor this time,
"Luckily for you, the Battery's in camp; and since Captain Lenox's
illness there's been an end of my tea-parties.  Our own people may be
looking in now he's better.  But for the next two days or so I shall
simply be '_dawazar bund_.'[5]  It needs no effort to develop a
headache, or a touch of fever this weather.  There's only Paul, and
Frank, whom I couldn't shut out.  May we just explain to them, more or
less, how things stand?"

"But yes.  Of course you must.  And . . after all . . ."

She hesitated, flushing painfully.

"After all," Desmond came to her rescue, "it won't be so very long
before the vexed question of your identity is settled for good.  Now
I'd better go and speak to Paul.  He may be turning up for tea, any
minute; and that would be awkward for you."

As he reached the door at the far end of the room, Honor fled after him.

"Read those, dear," she said breathlessly, thrusting a letter and
telegram into his hand.  "They will account for this morning.  I had
bad news.  But thank God it's all right now.  I wired."

"And never told _me_?"

"You were so happy.  How could I?"

"Then that was why you bolted?"

"Yes.  I couldn't have kept it up for long."

"Well . . I've no time to scold you now," he said, looking unspeakable
things at her.  "Wait till I get you to myself, . . that's all!"

This short colloquy, carried on in an undertone, did not reach Quita's
ears.

"What sort of a man is this Paul?" she asked as Honor returned to her
chair.  "I don't know his other name!  Is he the sort that would be
likely to understand . . our very incomprehensible position?"

Honor took a leather frame from the table beside her, and put it into
Quita's hands.

"If you are any judge of faces, that's the best answer I can give you."

Quita scanned the picture abstractedly for several seconds.

"Yes.  He'll do," was her verdict.  Then she flung the thing from her;
and burying her face in the cushions sobbed with the heart-broken
abandonment of a child.

"Oh, what a blind fool I was to come!" she lamented through her tears.
"I don't believe he'll understand my madness.  And if he doesn't . . .
he'll never forgive me!"



[1] Account.

[2] Scullery man.

[3] As Memsahib pleases.

[4] Any one there!  Bring tiffin.

[5] Not at home.




CHAPTER XXI.

"Here the lost hours the lost hours renew."--Rossetti.


"It progresses, doesn't it?"

"It does more than that.  It lives.  You've transfigured it in these few
days; and I like your knack of emphasising essentials without jarring the
harmony of the whole.  You ought to make your mark as a portrait painter
in time."

"I've done so already . . more or less," Quita answered modestly,
stepping backward, with tilted head, to get a better view of her
achievement.  It was the study of Lenox, which, for all her perturbation,
she had packed as tenderly as if it were a live thing; and which alone
had made life endurable for the past three days.  Her easel had been set
up in the dining-room, where she could work without fear of chance
intruders, who gravitated either to the drawing-room or the study: and on
this fourth morning after her arrival, she was standing at it with
Desmond, who had looked in for a word with her before starting for the
Lines.  "If you were to go home now," she added, after a pause, "you
would find the name Quita Maurice not quite unknown in artistic circles.
But they'll never see this, though it's going to be the best thing I've
done yet; because . . ."

"Yes, naturally, . . because . . ."

"How nice you are!" she said simply.  "One needn't dot the i's, and cross
all the t's with you.  Of course it's very incomplete still.  A
suggestive study is the most one can achieve from memory.  So you mustn't
judge it as a portrait,--yet.  It's just a daring experiment that no
right-minded artist would have attempted.  But it's come out better than
I thought possible.  And I'm glad you like my work."

"I do; no question.  I'm no critic, though; only a soldier, with a taste
for most kinds of art.  It's full of latent vigour; rugged without being
rough, like Lenox himself.  A fine bit of weathered rock, eh?  I am only
afraid that after feasting your eyes on this, the original may give you
something of a shock at first sight."

"Is he so terribly changed . . in one month?"

"Well, think what he's been through.  Concussion and cholera have knocked
some of the vigour out of him; and he looks years older, for the time
being.  But you mustn't let that upset you.  It's not unusual after
cholera; and in a week he'll be looking more like himself again."

Then the truth dawned on her.

"Captain Desmond,--are you telling me all this because . . ?"

"Yes . . again, because . . . !" he answered, smiling.

"To-day?"

"As soon as you please."

She gave a little gasp; then shut her lips tightly.

"Do you mean . . have you actually told him?" she murmured with averted
eyes.

"Yes."

"And did he--is he----?"

"It's not for me to say."  Desmond seemed equal to any amount of
incoherence this morning.  "You'll find out for yourself in no time."

"Oh dear!"

"Is it as dreadful as all that?"

"In some ways,--yes.  It takes my breath away."

"Try and get it back before you go in to him," he counselled her kindly.
"And keep some sort of hold on yourself--for his sake.  Don't trouble him
about results, unless he broaches the subject.  It we can keep clear of
the worry element, just getting hold of you again may do him a power of
good."

Then,--creature of moods and impulse that she was,--she turned on him
spontaneously, both hands outflung.

"_Mon Dieu_, what a friend you have been to us both!  Thank you a
thousand times, for everything.  I know you hate it.  But if I kept it in
any longer, I should burst!"

"Just as well you let it out, then," Desmond answered, laughing, and
grasping the proffered hands.  "I must be off now.  Good luck to you,
Quita.  You're worthy of him."

For some minutes after he had gone Quita stood very still, trying to get
her breath back, as he had suggested: a less simple affair than it
seemed, on the face of it.  For although she had taken the plunge, in an
impulse of despair, a week ago, she had only grasped the outcome in all
its bearings during the past three days, throughout which she had been
acutely aware of Eldred's presence on the farther side of her barred and
bolted door.  He had told her plainly that, until he felt quite sure of
himself, he dared not take her back.  Yet now, by her own unconsidered
act, she was forcing upon him, at the least, a public recognition of
their marriage; an acknowledgment that might make further separation
difficult, if not impossible, for the present.  All her pride and
independence of spirit revolted against this unvarnished statement of
fact; and the memory of Michael's random remark heightened her nervous
apprehension.  Yet, on the other hand, Love--who is a born
peace-maker--argued that, after all, he might not be sorry to have his
hand forced by so clear a proof of all that she was ready to do and
suffer on his behalf.  An argument strongly reinforced by her original
determination to overrule his scruples, and help him in the struggle that
loomed ahead.

In this fashion Love and Pride tossed decision to and fro, as they have
done in a hundred heart-histories; till common-sense stepped in with the
reminder that Eldred was waiting; and that by now retreat was out of the
question.  The thought roused her to a more normal state of confidence
and courage.  Putting away palette and brushes, she covered up her
canvas: and because, for all her artistry, she was very much a woman,
went straightway--not to her husband's door--but to her own mirror!  The
vision that looked out at her was by no means discouraging: a demure
vision, in a simple, unconventional gown of green linen, with a Puritan
collar, and a wide white ribbon at the waist.  A few superfluous touches
to her hair, and equally superfluous tweaks to the bow of her ribbon
belt, wrought some infinitesimal improvement in the picture, which no
mere man, hungering for the sight and sound of her, would be the least
likely to detect.  Then half a dozen swift steps brought her to his door:
the one that communicated with the dining-room.

It opened on to a curtain, about which there still clung a faint
suggestion of carbolic.

"Eldred?" she said softly.  And the voice she had last heard through the
hiss of rain, and the crash of broken branches, answered: "Come in."

She pushed aside the curtain, and stood so, paralysed by a nervousness
altogether new to her.

He lay on a Madeira lounge-chair, with pillows at his back.  Every bone
in his face, every line scored by the graving-tools of conflict and pain,
showed cruelly distinct in the morning light.  At sight of her, he tried
to speak; but the muscles of his throat rebelled: and he simply held out
his arms.  Then, in one rush, she came to him: and as he laid hands on
her, drawing her down on to a spare corner of his chair, she leaned
forward and buried her face in the soft flannel of his coat.

Nothing but silence becomes the great moments of life; and for a long
while he held her thus, without power or desire of speech.  All his man's
strength melted in him at the faint fragrance of her hair; at the
exquisite yielding of her figure, as she lay palpitating against him; at
the yet more exquisite assurance that the love he had gained was a thing
beyond estimation, a thing indestructible as the soul itself.  For her
very surrender was quick with the vitality that was her crowning charm.

And she, feeling the tremor that ran through him as he kissed the
blue-veined hollow of her temple,--the only space available--exulted in
the belief that love had triumphed over bloodless scruples once and for
all.

"Quita," he whispered at length, "what possessed you to face that
nightmare of a journey alone?"

"You possessed me."  She made no attempt to lift her head.

"But, my darling, you ought not to have come.  You ought not to be here.
You know that."

"Yes.  I know it.  Are you . . angry, that I am here?"

"Angry?  My God!  It's new life to me.  Your voice, just the music of it,
gets into my head like wine.  Look up, lass.  I love your hair, every
wisp and thread of it.  But I am waiting for something more."

The appeal was irresistible; and she looked up, accordingly, setting her
hands lightly on his shoulders.  The change wrought in him by illness and
mental struggle pierced her like a physical pang; and her eyes fell
before the yearning in his, the revelation of chained-up forces, and
emotions straining at the leash.  Then, still keeping her lids closed,
she tilted her head backward, her lips just parted; and again, as on that
night of enchantment at Kajiar, they were swept beyond the boundaries of
space and time; beyond the stumbling-blocks, the pitiful limitations of
earth.

But limitations are as indispensable to life on our bewildering planet as
bread and meat.  The wine of ecstasy can only be taken in small doses, at
a price.

Quita sat upright at last, on the spare corner of her husband's chair,
flushed, smiling, and not a little tremulous.  Stumbling-blocks and
limitations loomed again on the horizon.  But for the present she would
have none of them.  Eldred was not angry.  He wanted her--supremely:--how
supremely, his lips had just been telling her in language more primitive,
more forcible than speech.

And now he lay merely watching her, still retaining her hands, drinking
in the penetrating charm of her, as a parched traveller drinks at a
roadside spring.

"Well?" he asked presently.  "After all that--what next?  There's the
rub."

"Need we spoil these first heavenly moments together by looking for rocks
ahead, _mon cher_?  Captain Desmond begged me to keep the 'worry element'
at arm's-length."

"Dear old Desmond!  He's made of gold.  But now that you are here, you've
got to be explained.  And there's only one way to explain you--Mrs Lenox!"

Her face quivered.

"Eldred, I won't be explained . . that way, unless . . you really wish
it.  Only Mrs Olliver and Major Wyndham know about me: and now I've seen
you, and feel sure there's no more danger, I can easily go back to
Dalhousie and stay there, till you . . till you're more ready for me."

"Can you though?"  He pressed her hands.  "And do you believe I am
capable of packing you off to-morrow?"

"I don't know.  I think you'd prefer not to.  But I believe you are
capable of doing anything, once you're convinced it's right."

"Dearest, indeed I'm not."  He spoke with sudden vehemence.  "If I were,
we might be clear of this unholy tangle by now.  But since you've
honoured me by plunging into hell fire on my account, I can't let you go
again . . . yet."

The last word fell like a drop of cold water on the hope that glowed at
her heart.  But she chose to ignore it.

"Well then?"

He raised one hand, and laid it lightly on her breast, feeling for hidden
treasure.  Then his fingers closed on the two rings; and he smiled.

"Since you seem to have forgiven the ill-tempered chap who gave you
those, you might do worse than have 'em out, and wear them--by way of
explanation!"

Her own hand went up to them, instinctively, and closed over his.

"I'll take them out now, at once, if you'll promise to put the wedding
one on, yourself, with the proper words."

"What?  Not the whole blessed service?"

At the note of dismay in his voice her laughter rang out, clear and
natural; a silver sound, that pierced him with its poignant sweetness.

"Darling idiot!  Of course not.  I only meant the 'ring' words for luck.
Though if I could have my own way, I'd like the whole thing over again,
to make it feel more real.  All that seems to have happened to a not very
admirable girl I once knew, in another life."

"Does it indeed?" he asked, smiling upon her in great contentment.  "I
rather admired that girl myself!  But believe me, Quita, it's all real
enough to satisfy us both.  'There's no discharge in that war.'  And you
don't get a human man to go through the ordeal of that service except
under severe stress of circumstance!  If I couldn't recapture you any
other way, I'd do it . . with alacrity.  Not unless."

"But who will do the explaining to the station at large?"

"Desmond and his wife will gladly do that much for us."  He was about to
add that his chief friend knew already: but decided that it would be
hardly fair on Dick to 'give him away.'

"And where did it all happen?" she demanded, dimpling with enjoyment.
"In Dalhousie?"

"I imagine so."

"You mustn't imagine.  We must have all the details clear, so as to lie
consistently!"

"Well then, to account for our abruptness, we'll decide that I lost my
heart to you at home, some time ago; and rediscovered you by chance in
Dalhousie."

She laughed again, from pure exuberance of happiness.

"That's capital!  I'll explain it all to Mrs Desmond; and she shall do
the rest."

While they talked, she had succeeded in extricating her rings; and now
she dropped them into his open palm:--the gold band of Destiny, and the
hoop of sapphires and diamonds that he had chosen with such elaborate
care, and presented to her with such awkward, palpitating shyness nearly
six years ago.

"Put them on, please," she said softly, thrusting out her wedding finger.
"'For better for worse; for richer for poorer; in sickness and in health;
till death us do part.'"

On the last words she lifted her head.  He caught the gleam of tears on
her lashes, and slipped the ring on to her finger; uttering the triple
asseveration with a suppressed fervour rarely to be heard at the altar
rails.  Then the second hoop was added; and, still keeping possession of
the fettered hand, he sat silent a moment, looking down at his
achievement with an absurd sense of satisfaction.  Quita was looking at
it also, wondering if he could hear the hammering of her heart.

"Now we are really married," she murmured as simply as a child.

"Weren't we before?" he asked, on a note of amusement.

"I suppose so.  It didn't feel like it."

"And does it feel more like it now?"

"Not much, yet.  But it will, in time."

"Yes.  In _time_."

The pause, and the emphasis smote her.  But again she ignored the cloud
no bigger than a man's hand; defying its power to veil her sunlight.

"The proper thing after a wedding is . . to kiss your wife," she remarked
demurely, without looking up.

"Is it?  I don't remember doing so last time."

"You never did; and it's bad luck not to.  That's why everything went
wrong!  You were too shy; and . . your first wife didn't much like that
sort of thing."

"My second wife will have to put up with it, whether she likes it or
not!" he answered, drawing her towards him by dear and delicious degrees.
"We won't play fast and loose with our luck this time."

An abrupt knock at the door startled her out of his arms; and the curtain
was pushed aside by Desmond:--a strangely transfigured Desmond, with set
jaw, and desperate eyes.

"My dear man . ." Lenox began.  But an intuition of catastrophe past the
show of speech made him break off short.

Then Desmond spoke, in a voice thick and unlike his own.

"Sorry to spoil things by interrupting you in this way.  But one had to
tell you.  It's Honor . . ."

He could get no further: but his eyes were terribly eloquent; and the
silence held them all as in a vice.  The awakening woman in Quita gave
her courage to break it.

"May I go to her?" she pleaded.  "And help her . . if one can?"

Though the plea was addressed to Desmond, she glanced first at Lenox, and
read approval in his eyes.

But Desmond shook his head.

"That's my business," he answered quietly.  He had mastered his voice by
now.  "I want you to take over charge here.  It's a sharp attack.  I
shan't leave her again, till . . . it's over."

And before either of them knew how to answer him, the curtain had fallen
heavily behind him.

Overwhelming tragedy, striking across their golden hour like a naked
sword, wrenched them out of themselves.

Without a word Quita knelt down beside her husband, bowing her forehead
on the back of his hand.  Women of her temperament are little given to
the habit of prayer: and her rare communings with the Hidden Soul of
Things more often took the form of wordless aspiration, than of direct
petition or praise.  But now her uplifted soul went out in a passionate
appeal to the Great Giver, and the great Taker Away, for the life of the
woman whom she had hated so heartily less than three months ago.

And Lenox lay looking straight before him, stroking her hair soothingly
from time to time.

"Desmond is a strong man, a very strong man," he said, as if speaking to
himself.  "But there's a flaw in his armour just above the heart; and I
believe that if any real harm comes to that wife of his, he'll go to
pieces, like a wheel with the centre knocked out."




CHAPTER XXII.

  "What Love may do, that dares Love attempt."
        --Shakspere.


It was evening at last: a sullen, breathless evening, heavy with
threatening cloud.

Since morning Honor Desmond had been fighting for life, against
appalling odds; while the man, whose love for her almost amounted to a
religion, did all that human skill could devise, which was pitifully
little after all, to ease the torturing thirst and pain, to uphold the
vitality that ebbed visibly with the ebbing day.  But the very vigour
of her constitution went against her; for cholera takes strong bold
upon the strong.  And Desmond never left her for an instant.  He seemed
to have passed beyond the zone of hunger, thirst, or weariness, to have
reached that exalted pitch of suffering where the soul transcends the
body's imperious demands, asserts itself, momentarily, for the absolute
unconquerable thing it is.

Frank Olliver, in defiance of a July sun, flitted restlessly in and out
of the bungalow; and since Desmond would admit no one but the doctor to
his wife's room, she found some measure of comfort in futile attempts
to lighten Paul Wyndham's anxiety, and distract his thoughts; while the
newly joined husband and wife, so strangely isolated in their moment of
reunion, waited and hoped through the interminable hours, and snatched
fugitive gleams of contentment from the fact that now, at least, they
could suffer together.

James Mackay, the regimental doctor, a crustacean type of Scot, came
and went as frequently as his manifold duties would permit.  On each
occasion he was waylaid in the dining-room by Paul Wyndham, his face
haggard with suffering; and on each occasion the little man's decisive
headshake struck a fresh blow at the hope that took 'such an
unconscionable time a-dying.'  Finally he spoke his conviction
outright.  It was late afternoon, and Honor's strength and courage,
though still flickering fitfully, were almost spent.

"I'm doubting if we can do much more for her now," he said, when the
door of her room had been quietly closed behind him.  "It'll be no less
than a miracle if she lasts through the night."

"Have you told him that?" Wyndham asked in a voice of stunned quietness.

"Man alive, no!  'Twould be no mortal use.  _He_ won't give up hope
till the last nail's in her coffin."  Paul winced visibly, and by way
of atonement for his bluntness, the other made haste to add: "If
there's the remotest chance of pulling her through, Desmond 'll do it.
You may swear to that.  The man's just one concentrated, incarnate
purpose."

Wyndham set his lips, and turned away: and the Scotchman stood eyeing
him keenly.

"What sort of a tiffin did you have?" he asked with rough kindliness.

"Oh, I don't know.  Nothing much."

"I thought so.  Eat a good dinner, man.  Starvation's no use to any
one, and I don't want to have you back on my hands."

With that he departed, and Wyndham had just decided on filling another
pipe, since some pretence at occupation was imperative, when Meredith
entered unannounced.

A glance at his face showed Paul that he knew, and believed the worst;
and for a moment they confronted one another in mute dismay.  The
Englishman's inability to put his heart into words has its pathetic
aspect at times.  These two men were linked by years of mutual work,
and immediate mutual pain: yet Wyndham merely laid down his pipe and
asked; "Have you seen Mackay?"

"Yes.  Met him on my way here.  I'm going in to her at once."

And Paul, picking up the discarded pipe, looked after him with envy and
hunger in his eyes.

Meredith knocked at the bedroom door.

"Who's there?"  Desmond's voice came sharp as a challenge.

"John."

"Come in, then."

And he went in.

The room was large, lofty, and very simply furnished.  With the
leisurely swaying of the punkah, light and shadow flitted across the
wide, low bed, on one side of which Honor lay, warmly covered with
blankets, her breath coming in laboured gasps.  Desmond knelt by her;
and, on Meredith's entrance, set down the feeding-cup, but because her
hand was on his coat-sleeve, he did not change his position, or rise
from his knees.  She held out the other to Meredith,  But it fell
limply before he could reach her.

"John . . dear," she greeted him in a husky whisper.  "I'm so glad.
Sit near me . . here."

He obeyed, seating himself on the unoccupied part of the bed; and
taking up her hand, cherished it between both his own.  It was cold and
clammy, the finger-tips wrinkled like a washerwoman's, and at sight of
her face his self-control deserted him, so that he dared not risk
speech.  For cholera does its work swiftly and efficaciously, and in
eight hours Honor Desmond's beauty had been ruthlessly wiped out.  In
the grey, pinched features and sunken eyes--already dimmed by a
creeping film that blurred the two faces she so loved--it was hard to
trace any likeness to the radiant woman of twenty-four hours ago.  Only
the burnished bronze of her hair, encircling her head in a large loose
plait, remained untouched by the finger of death.

When Meredith could command his voice, he spoke quietly and cheerfully
of the day's work, and of the certainty that she would pull through.
Then the hand in his stirred uneasily.

"What is it, dear?" he asked.

"John, I want you to remember,"--the voice was still husky, and she
spoke with difficulty--"whatever happens, . . and tell father,
please . . it wasn't Theo's fault.  It was mine."

The hand on her husband's coat-sleeve felt its way up uncertainly, till
it rested in a lingering caress on the dark bowed head.  For Desmond,
leaning on his elbow, had covered his eyes with one hand.

Meredith frowned.

"Dearest girl, it was no one's fault.  Besides, you are going to get
well.  But talking is a strain on you now, I'll look in later."

He stooped and kissed her forehead.

"Good-bye," she whispered.

"No, not good-bye," he contradicted her steadily.  "I shall see you
again after mess."

She sighed, and her lids fell.  The terrible apathy of cholera was
crushing the soldier spirit out of her by inches.

"God!  I don't believe she heard me," he murmured in sudden despair.

At that Desmond uncovered his eyes.  "She heard you, right enough," he
said quietly, "Trust me not to let her go."

And Meredith went reluctantly out, leaving man and wife alone with the
Shadowy Third; the only third that could ever come between them.

Honor's hand slipped down from his head to his shoulder, and she opened
her eyes; the soul in them struggling to pierce the mists that deepened
every minute.

"Darling," she breathed.  "Come closer . . much closer.  I wish . . I
wish you didn't seem all blurred."

He bent nearer, looking steadfastly into her altered face.

"That better, dear?" he asked, controlling his voice with an effort.

"Yes.  A little.  Whatever John may say, it was my fault," she
persisted, for in spite of pain and prostration, the mists had not
clouded her brain.  "It was selfish of me to insist.  See . . what I've
made you suffer.  But you don't . . blame me, do you, . . in your
heart?"

"Blame you, . . my best beloved?  How can you ask it?  I . . I worship
you," he added very low.

The extravagant word, reviving dear and imperishable memories, called
up a quivering smile, more heart-piercing than a cry: and Desmond,
putting a great restraint upon himself, enfolded her with one arm, and
kissed her softly, lingeringly, as one might kiss a child.

"My very Theo," she murmured, her voice breaking with love.  "It has
been so perfect . . I suppose that's why . .  Not three years yet;
and . . I can't bear . . to leave you behind, even for a little."

"You'll not do that, Honor," his voice had the level note of decision.
"If _you_ go, . . . I go too."

"No, no.  You must wait . . for your boy."

Desmond set his teeth, and answered nothing.  In the stress of anguish
he had forgotten his child.

Suddenly a convulsive shuddering ran through her, and her breath came
short and quick.

"Theo, . . what's happening?" she panted.  "Where are you?  Hold me.
Everything's . . slipping away."

It cut him to the heart to unclasp the fingers that clung to him;
though he was back again in a moment, holding weak brandy and water to
her lips.

"Drink it, Honor.  For God's sake, drink it!" he commanded, a ring of
fear in his voice.  For in that moment, a change, terrible and
significant, had come over her.  His appeal produced no response, no
movement of lips or eyelids.  Her face seemed to shrink and sharpen,
and change colour before his eyes.  Her breath was cold as the air from
a cave.

He set down the wine-glass, and in the first shock and horror of it all
stood like a man turned to stone.  Then common-sense pricked him back
to life, and to the necessity for immediate action.  After so sharp an
attack, collapse would probably be severe and prolonged.  He laid his
fingers on her pulse.  It was rapid, and barely perceptible, but the
still small flutter of life was there.

He opened the verandah door, where Amar Singh and a very aggrieved
Aberdeen terrier had sat since morning, and issued a swift order for
hot water, mustard, warm turpentine; a grim repetition of the battle he
had fought out a week ago.  But now he fought single-handed, while Amar
Singh and a small tremulous ayah, crouching beside a charcoal brazier
in the verandah, kept up a steady supply of his primitive needs.

Thus James Mackay found him on his return; still doggedly applying
friction and restoratives without having made an inch of progress for
his pains.  Darkness had fallen by now, and the one lamp, set well away
from the bed, made a pallid oasis in its own vicinity.  Desmond had
flung aside his coat, and his thin shirt clung in patches to his damp
body.  His face was set in rigid lines; and the little doctor, who
carried a heart of flesh under a porcupine exterior, was haunted for
days by the despair in his eyes.

"How long have you been at it, man?" he asked without preamble.

"A lifetime, I should say.  Possibly an hour."

"No change at all?"

"Not the slightest.  But I know . . she's alive."

Mackay scrutinised the awful stillness on the bed.

"We must try hypodermic injection," he said gently.  "And in the
meantime . . ." he went over to a table strewn with sick-room
paraphernalia, and poured out half a pint of champagne, "you'll please
drink that."

And as Desmond obeyed automatically, his hand shook so that the edge of
the tumbler rattled against his teeth.  The body was beginning to
assert itself at last.  But the stinging liquid revived him; and in a
silence, broken only by an abrupt direction or request from the
Scotchman, the last available resources were tried again and yet again,
without result.  Finally Mackay looked up, and Desmond read the verdict
in his eyes.

"My dear man, it's no use," he said simply.  "She's beyond our reach
now."

Desmond's lips whitened: but he braced his shoulders.  "She's not.  I
don't believe it," he answered, on a toneless note of decision.  And
the other knew that only the slow torture of the night-watches could
brand the truth into his brain.

With a gesture of weariness, infinitely pathetic, he turned back to the
bed, and bending down, mechanically rearranged the sheet, and smoothed
a crease or two out of the pillow.  The bowed back and shoulders,
despite their suppleness and strength, had in them a pathos too deep
for tears: and Mackay, feeling himself dismissed, went noiselessly out.

For a long moment Desmond's unnatural stoicism held firm.  Then, deep
down in him, something seemed to snap.  With a dry, choking sob, he
flung himself on his knees beside the bed, and the waters came in even
unto his soul.

It seemed a thing incredible that one hour could hold such a store of
anguish.  The half of his personality, the hidden life of heart and
spirit, seemed dead already: and in that first shuddering sense of
loneliness, time was not.


A familiar choking sensation recalled him to outward things.  The
punkah coolie had fallen asleep; and in a fever of irritation he sprang
to his feet.  Then the thought pierced him: "What on earth does it
matter . . now?"

But the trivial prick of discomfort had, in some inexplicable fashion,
readjusted the balance of things; reawakened the conviction that had so
strangely upheld him throughout the day; and with it the spirit of 'no
surrender,' which was the very essence of the man.  All the tales he
had heard of cholera patients literally dragged from the brink of the
grave by devoted nursing crowded in upon him, like reinforcements
backing up a forlorn hope, and once again he bent over his wife,
caressing the crisp upward sweep of her hair.

"Honor, you _shall_ live.  By God, you shall!" he whispered low in her
ear, as though her spirit could hear and take comfort from the
assurance.

A downward jerk of the punkah rope set the great frill flapping with
ostentatious vigour; and he himself set to work again no less
vigorously; fighting death hand to hand with every weapon at command.
He clung to his renewed hope with a desperation that was terrible;
realising more acutely than before that to let go of her was to fall
into nameless spaces void of companionship and love.  Once or twice the
flicker of the punkah frill created an illusion of movement in the
face, and his heart leapt into his throat, only to sink to the depths
again when he discovered his mistake.  But nothing now could turn him
from his purpose; or quench that indomitable determination to succeed
which is one of the strongest levers of the world.

And at long-last, when persistence had begun to seem mere folly, came
the first faint shadow of change.  Slowly, very slowly, her face
appeared to be losing the bluish tinge of cholera.  Fearful lest
imagination should be cheating him, he fetched the lamp, and held it
over her.  Unquestionably the colour had improved.

The loose chimney rattled as he set down the lamp; and he spilled half
the brandy he tried to pour into a spoon.  Then, steadying himself by a
supreme effort, he managed to pour a little of it between her lips,
watching with suspended breath for the least sign of moisture at the
corners.  A drop or two trickled uselessly out, but the muscles of her
throat stirred slightly, and the rest was retained.

Then for a moment Desmond let himself go.  With a low cry he leaned
down, and slipping both arms under her, pressed his lips upon her cold
ones, long and passionately, as though he would impart to her the very
power of his spirit, the living warmth of his body and heart.  And at
length, he was aware of a faint unmistakable attempt to return his
pressure.  He could have shouted for sheer triumph.  It was as if he
had created her anew.  But love, having achieved its perfect work, must
be kept under subjection till the accepted moment.

A little more brandy, a little more chafing of hands and limbs, and the
miracle was complete.  By degrees, as imperceptible as the coming of
dawn, life stole back in response to his touch.  She stirred, drew a
deep breath, and opened her eyes.

"Theo, . . is it you?  Have I . . got you . . still?"

It was her own voice, clear and low, no longer the husky whisper of
cholera.  The caress in it penetrated like pain; and tears, sharp as
knives, forced their way between his lids.

"Yes, my darling; . . . and I've got _you_ still," he answered, his
tenderness hovering over her like a flutter of wings.

"But what happened?  I thought . . ."

"Don't tire your dear head with thinking.  By God's mercy, I dragged
you back from the utmost edge of things; and you've come to stay.
That's enough for me."


Ten minutes later she was sleeping, lightly and naturally, her head
nestling in the crook of his elbow, one hand clinging to a morsel of
his shirt; while he leaned above her, half-sitting, half-lying on the
extreme edge of the bed, not daring to shift his strained position by
so much as a hair's-breadth; till overwhelming weariness had its way
with him, and he slept also, his head fallen back against the wall.

When at last he awoke, a pale shaft of light was feeling its way across
the room from the long glass door that gave upon the verandah.  Outside
in the garden the crows and squirrels were awake, and talkative.  The
well-wheel had begun its plaintive music, punctuated with the plash of
falling water, and the new day, in a sheet of flame, rolled up
unconcernedly from the other side of the world.

Honor had turned over in her sleep, leaving him free to rise, and
stretch himself exhaustedly; and as he stood looking down upon the
night's achievement, upon the rhythmical rise and fall of his wife's
breast beneath its light covering, new fires were kindled in the man's
deep heart; new intimations of the height and depth, and power of that
'grand impulsion,' which men call Love; and with these, a new humility
that forced him down upon his knees in a wordless ecstasy of
thanksgiving.




CHAPTER XXIII.

  "They are one and one, with a shadowy third;
  One near one is too far."
        --Browning.


Quita was troubled.

A full week had elapsed since that day so strangely compounded of
rapture and dread; of matter-of-fact service, and shy, tender
intimacies that had seemed to set a seal on the completeness of their
reunion.  Yet, in the days that followed, she had been increasingly
aware of a nameless something, an indefinable constraint between them,
which instinct told her would not have been there if conscience had
surrendered all along the line.

It was not his mere avoidance, after the first, of caresses congenial
to the opening phase of marriage that disconcerted her.  Such emotional
reticence squared with her idea of the man.  She would not have had him
otherwise.  They were sure of one another; and in both natures passion
was proud and fastidious.  It could thrive without much lip-service.
The undefined aloofness that troubled Quita was spiritual, rather than
physical.  She was conscious of walls within walls, separating her from
his essential self; and behind these again of an unobtrusive reserve
force, whose power of endurance she could not estimate; because her
dealings with Michael's shallower nature had afforded her no experience
of a moral stability free from the warp of the personal equation.  It
was as if some intangible part of him, over which she could establish
no hold, stood persistently afar off,--tormented, but immovable.

She could not know that the form of opium administered during his
illness had revived and strengthened temptation when he himself was
physically unfit to cope with it; that by her impulsive return to him,
at a critical moment, she was forcing him open-eyed toward a
catastrophe more lasting, more terrible for them both, than the initial
harm done by her rejection of him five years ago.  Reserve and
self-disgust made speech on the subject seem a thing impossible; while
his mere man's chivalry shrank from allowing her to guess that by an
act of seeming reparation, she had run grave risk of putting real
reparation out of her power.  Once only did the love that consumed him
break through the restraint he put upon himself in sheer self-defence.

It was the first day he had been allowed up at a normal hour; and
coming into the dining-room, he had found her alone at her easel, near
one of the long glass doors.  At the sound of his step she turned her
canvas round swiftly, and came to him with a glad lift of her head.  He
took her hands in his big grasp, and kissed her forehead.

"Good morning, lass," he said.  "You never told me you had brought that
with you.  Couldn't be divorced from it, eh?  What's the great work
now?  May I see?"

"But yes, naturally.  I've been keeping it as a surprise for you.  I
don't believe I should ever have got through this last fortnight
without it.  _Voilà_!"

She set it facing him, and standing so with her eyes on the picture,
waited eagerly for his word of praise.  But as the seconds passed, and
it did not come, she turned, to find him looking at her, not at the
picture; his teeth tormenting his lower lip; a suspicious film dimming
the clear blue of his eyes.  Emboldened by this last incredible
phenomenon, she came and stood close to him, yet without touching him.

"Darling, you do like it, don't you?  I can't complete it till you give
me a few sittings; but then--it will be my masterpiece.  I shall never
show it, at home, though.  It's too much a part of myself . . . my very
inmost self."

And he could not withhold the demonstration that such a confession
provoked.

"Oh, my dear," he said at last, without releasing her.  "You made too
little of me once; and now you're making too much.  I'm not worth it
all."

She put a hand on his lips.

"Be quiet!  I won't hear you when you talk so.  Look properly at my
picture now.  You haven't told me it's good."

"Of course it's good.  Amazingly good.  But . . ." he laughed, a short
contented laugh--"it's beyond me how you could be misguided enough to
waste your remarkable talent in perpetuating anything so ugly!"

Her smile hinted at superior knowledge; yet she paid his obvious
sincerity the compliment of not contradicting his final statement.

"In the first place, because I love it.  And in the second place,
because, for all true artists, who see in form and colour just a soul's
attempts at self-expression, there is more essential beauty in certain
kinds . . . of ugliness, than in the most faultless symmetry of lines
and curves.  One is almost tempted to say that there is no such thing
as actual ugliness; that it is all a matter of understanding, of seeing
deep enough.  For instance, I find that essential beauty I spoke of in
Mrs Olliver's face."

"Ah . . . so do I; of a rare quality."

"Well then, dear stupid, allow me to find it in yours also!"

"One to you," he admitted, smiling.  "But now . . . I am in your hands
till tiffin.  What are you going to do with me?  Read?  Sing?  The
drawing-room's empty; and I haven't heard you since Kajiar."

"Do you want the Swinburne again?"

"No; by no means."

"Why not?  Don't you like the song?"

"I like it far too well; and I'm not strong enough yet to stand a
brutal assault upon my feelings!  Come along, and give me something
wholesome and simple.  A convalescent needs milk diet mentally as well
as physically, you know!"

This was on one of his best days.  But there were others,--following
upon nights of sleeplessness, and pain, and heart-searching
unspeakable, only to be alleviated by the one unfailing remedy,--when
the strain of repression demanded by her constant presence so wrought
upon his nerves that he would get up and leave her abruptly without
excuse; or shut himself into his room on the empty pretext of revising
manuscript.  As a matter of fact, he spent most of the time girding at
the deliberate waste of good hours; till the consciousness of slipping
deeper into the mire and the dread of ultimate defeat became almost an
obsession, aggravated by ill-health and want of rest.

Quita, who remembered well his inexhaustible capacity for keeping
still, was distressed and puzzled by these moods of restlessness
verging on irritability, whose true significance she could not guess
at; though she was woman enough to know that a position merely
unsatisfactory for her, must be an actual strain on him.  And as his
strength returned, she could only hope from day to day for some
allusion to the possibility of moving into their own bungalow; since it
was clear that they could not remain with the Desmonds for ever!  Pride
and delicacy alike withheld her from the lightest mention of the
subject.  It seemed to her that she had transgressed sufficiently in
both respects already.  Yet, as the days accumulated to a week, and
still he said no word, she grew definitely anxious to know what was
going to happen next.

But, with all its drawbacks and difficulties, this week of intimate
everyday companionship had been one of the best weeks in her life.  It
had served, above all things, to establish her conviction that the
husband she had chosen, by a lightning instinct of the brain rather
than the heart, was in all respects a man among men.  He appealed to
the artist in her by a natural dignity and distinction of person and
character, by a suggestion of volcanic forces warring with the ascetic
strain in him yet steadfastly controlled; and above all, by a superb
simplicity and unconsciousness of self, that draws introspective
temperaments as infallibly as the moon draws the sea.

And apart from her joy in him, she was keenly alive to her
surroundings; to the practical work going on about her; to the
stimulating contact with a new type, a new atmosphere.  At first she
saw little of outsiders, or indeed of any one besides her husband.
John Meredith came over every day; Wyndham, though still living in the
house, had gone back to duty; while Desmond--after one day of complete
collapse, when Frank revenged herself on him by monopolising Honor--had
taken up his work again with heightened zest, and devoted every spare
hour to his wife.  But the four met at meals, and in the evening, when
Quita kept all three men alert and amused by her intelligent
questionings, her frank interest in every detail of her new profession,
as it pleased her to call it.

Before the week was out her pocket note-book contained a small
portrait-gallery of studies in pencil and water-colour.  She sketched
Desmond's old Sikh Ressaldar, with his finely carved features, deep
eyes, and vast lop-sided blue and gold turban; and Desmond himself in
the white uniform and long boots, which so greatly pleased her,
occupied several pages.

Mounted on Shaitan's successor, she rode down with him twice to early
parade; and sat entranced through the whole proceeding; watching the
long lines of men and horses sweeping across the open plain, wheeling,
retiring, advancing, changing formation with exquisite and
instantaneous precision, in response to Meredith's brisk words of
command; while massed lance-heads and steel shoulder-chains flashed and
winked in the level light.

It was her first experience of meeting soldiers in the mass, on their
own ground, and the man who has faced death and dealt it out to others
appeals irresistibly to the fundamental barbaric in women.  To this
fascination, Quita added the artist's reverence for the men who 'do
things,' as opposed to the men who record or express them.

She enlarged on the subject at breakfast one morning, in her usual
direct fashion; but Desmond would have none of it.

"Remember, Quita," said he, "that an artist, in the inclusive sense,
when he is worth anything, stands for the strongest thing in the world
. . . an idea."

Her face brightened with interest.

"That's true.  But unhappily great art doesn't necessarily imply great
character, and great action does.  That's why the world's heroes have
nearly always been men of action; and always will be."

"Ah, now you've given yourself away neatly!" Desmond cried, like a
great schoolboy.  "Where would your heroes be a hundred years after
their death, but for the men who immortalise them on canvas, and in
print?  Would the effect of their noble living be one-half as
far-reaching, if it remained unrecorded?  It's no case for comparison,
any more than the eternal man and woman question.  They are diverse;
and the world has equal need of both.  So there's consolation for us
all!"

"Well played, Desmond!" Lenox remarked, smiling and nodding across the
table at his wife.

"I surrender at discretion," she admitted sweetly.  "But still, being
an artist, I take off my hat to men of action, and always shall."

"Good luck for the men of action!" Desmond retorted, with an amused
glance at Lenox, as they rose from the table.


By now cholera and fever were dying out slowly, like spent fires.  The
Infantry had come in from camp; and the Battery was expected back
shortly, only two fresh cases having occurred.  Then, as Honor began to
mend, people dropped in again at tea-time, eager for news of her; and
Quita discovered how widely and deeply she was beloved.  Little Mrs
Peters disappeared behind a very crumpled handkerchief while trying to
express her feelings; and the Chicken blew his nose vigorously when
Quita announced that Honor would soon be allowed into the drawing-room
for tea.

She was getting used to her new name now.  Officers of all ranks came
to call on her as a 'bride'; an embarrassing attention which she would
gladly have dispensed with in the circumstances, since Eldred basely
deserted her on each occasion; and she was introduced to Norton, who
inspected her critically and flagrantly, as a possible stumbling-block
to a promising career.  Altogether, she was beginning to see India in a
new perspective.  Hitherto, in her aimless wanderings with Michael, she
had merely looked on at its vast and varied panorama of life; had
studied it with the detached interest of the outsider.  Now she felt
herself absorbed into the brotherhood of those who worked and suffered
for the great country of her husband's service; who were as flies on
the wheels of its complex mechanism; and who heartily loved or hated
it, as the case might be.

At last, after a week of devoted nursing, Honor was allowed to make her
first appearance in the drawing-room; and Desmond invited a 'select
few' to tea for the occasion.  Wyndham stood alone on the hearth-rug
when she entered, her husband supporting her with his arm.  She was
visibly thinner; and her face was almost as colourless as the sweeping
folds of her tea-gown.  Otherwise her beauty had reasserted itself
triumphantly; and Wyndham caught his breath as he came towards her.

She gave him both her hands; and he held them closely for a long
moment.  Then, obeying a rare and imperative impulse, he bent down and
touched them with his lips.  A faint colour tinged Honor's cheeks.
"Dear Paul," she said under her breath: and Desmond, leading her to the
sofa, established her in a nest of cushions, with a light covering for
her feet, just as Quita and Lenox came in, closely followed by Max
Richardson in uniform.

He had come in from camp not an hour ago; and had ridden over without
changing, in his zeal to shake hands with Lenox and his wife.  The
former had endured his congratulations and delight at the news with the
best grace he could muster; and had avoided a word with him alone.  Now
he drew up a chair and sat down by Honor: while Quita, pricked to a
passing jealousy by his instant gravitation to her, moved off with Max
Richardson, talking and laughing as if she had known him for years.  It
was not her habit to waste time in preliminaries.

"They'll get on splendidly, those two," Honor said, smiling as she
watched them.

"I'll be glad if they do," Lenox answered without enthusiasm; and her
eyes scanned his face.

"You aren't getting on splendidly, though.  You look worn to a shadow.
I'm afraid it's been difficult."

"Hideously difficult."

"And you ought both to be so happy, now of all times . . ."

"Yes.  That's the exquisitely refined torment of it."

"You haven't been sleeping?"

"No . . . nothing to speak of.  But don't give yourself a headache on
my account, dear lady.  Desmond would never forgive me!  I'm a tough
customer.  I shall pull through somehow."

"If you could only bring yourself to talk it over with Theo," she urged
in a lower tone, as he came towards them with Mrs Peters, who flung
shyness to the winds, and fairly took Honor's breath away by kissing
her on both cheeks.

Desmond's 'select few' amounted to less than a dozen.  Honor's sofa was
the centre of attraction; and her sympathetic spirit thrilled in
response to the friendliness that glowed, like a jewel, at the heart of
everyday talk and laughter.  For the past fortnight of pain and stress
seemed to have drawn them all indefinably closer to one another: which
is the true mission of pain and stress in this very human world.

Later in the evening there were light sports on the Cavalry
parade-ground, which Meredith, Desmond, and Olliver were bound to
attend; Wyndham and half a dozen others remaining behind.

Courtenay, on his way to the door, remarked to Lenox that a short
outing would do him no harm; and Quita, who chanced to be standing at
his elbow, pressed lightly against him.

"Drive me down, dear," she said softly.  "I should love it."  And since
he had avoided her for the greater part of the morning, he could not
well refuse.

"I like your 'Dick,' Eldred," she informed him, as they bowled along
the wide straight road.  "He is _bon garçon_, through and through.  Not
brilliant, perhaps: but quick, appreciative, and he can talk."

"Yes: Dick's a real good sort.  Glad you approve of him.  And as for
talking . . . _you_ could draw conversation out of a stone wall!"

"I don't always succeed with the one I am leaning against just now!"

"Well, I'll swear it's not your fault if you fail," he answered,
smiling down upon her with such unfathomable sadness in his eyes, that
she cried out involuntarily, between vexation and despair--

"Oh, _mon Dieu_, is it always going to be like this between us?  Is
there nothing I can do to make you happy again?"

"Nothing just at present, worse luck," he said grimly, looking straight
ahead: for in the face of such an appeal he could hardly confess his
desperate need to be left alone.  "It's a question of time, as I told
you, and my own strength of will.  But if the situation becomes too
intolerable for you, there is always the last resort of overstepping
the limit, and setting you free for good."

Quita could not know how cruelly ill he had slept since her coming, nor
how little a man tortured by insomnia can be held responsible for his
utterances; and the significance of his last words so startled her that
she clutched his arm.

"Eldred . . . Eldred, promise me you'll never even think of such a
thing . . . never!"

He winced under her touch.  "Quita, remember where we are," he said
sharply; and she dropped her hand.

"But all the same, promise me . . what I asked; or I shall never have
an easy moment."

"It might come to seem the kindest thing one could do for you," he
persisted, still without looking at her.  But fear gave her courage to
strike deep while the chance of speech was hers.

"It would never be anything less than an act of cruelty and cowardice.
Remember that.  I am ready to put up with everything . . . everything
rather than lose you, now."

"If that's the truth, lass," he said with sudden gentleness, "you may
set your mind at rest.  I promise."

"Thank you, _mon cher_."

Then they fell silent till the parade-ground came in sight.

This, their first appearance together in public, was something of an
ordeal to both; and at the last minute Quita's courage evaporated.

"Eldred . . . stop, please," she said suddenly.  "I'm shy of them all;
and I don't want to talk to them just now."

"Thank the Lord for that!" he answered so fervently, that they both
laughed aloud; and there is nothing like laughter for clearing the air.

"Take me for a drive," she suggested.  "Show me your bungalow . . . our
bungalow, will you?"

He hesitated.  It seemed he was only to exchange one ordeal for
another.  "It's a ramshackle, comfortless place, Quita," he objected.
"Wouldn't it be better to wait till . . till I can have it decently
fitted up for you?  Or you might like to pick another one."

"But no.  I want that one; and I want to see it first just as you lived
in it, please."

"Very well.  If you wish it."

An officious chowkidar opened doors for them with a great clatter of
bolts, and an elaborate air of being very much on the spot; and they
stepped straight from the verandah into the one room Lenox had
furnished besides the bedroom.  It looked desolate, and smelt
uninhabited; but Quita inspected the horns, the rugs, the sketches,
even the handful of books left on the writing-table, with eager
interest; and Eldred, stationed on the hearth-rug, answered her running
fire of questions a little vaguely, because he was listening more
intently to her voice than to what it said!

Suddenly his thoughts were checked by a vivid sense of having lived
through this identical scene before; of standing near a fireplace
watching her light-hearted explorations.  But where?  When?  Then, like
a dash of cold water, came enlightenment.  It was at the Kiffel Alp
Hotel, on the day of their wedding; and the bitterness of the lost
years between, with their final heritage of evil, flowed over him like
the sluggish waters of a dead sea.

Quita was hesitating on the threshold of the bedroom now; and an insane
conviction came upon him that if she went in there he would lose her
again, as on that earlier day.  It was all sheer brain-sickness, and
lack of sleep, but at the moment it was horribly real.

"May one look at the other rooms too?" she asked.  "I want to see which
would do best for my studio!"

"Look into every hole and corner, if it amuses you, dearest," he
answered; but made no attempt to accompany her.

When at last she reappeared, the nightmare feeling took him afresh.  He
felt certain she would come straight up to him, and lay hold of the
lapels of his coat.  And this she actually did; lifting a glowing face
to his.

"Eldred," she began, exactly as before . . . and it was more than he
could stand.  The oppression of her nearness set the blood rushing in
his ears; and taking her hands from their resting-place he put her from
him, almost an arm's-length, as though the better to look into her eyes.

"Well?" he asked, with an attempt at lightness that rang false.  "Is
your Highness quite satisfied with it all?"

But she was not to be deceived.  Her cheeks flamed; and she almost
snatched away her hands.

"Yes.  I am quite satisfied," she said, in a changed voice.  "And I
think it's high time we went back."

Then she left him, a shade too rapidly for dignity, and sprang into the
cart, before he could get near enough to help her up.

"Quita . . . why did you do that?  What's wrong?" he asked, lamely
enough as he gathered up the reins.

"Need you add insult to injury by asking that?" she flashed out, angry
tears pricking her eyeballs.  "I'm wrong.  You're wrong.  Everything's
wrong.  I ought never to have come here . . . before I was wanted."

He made no comment on that.  It was not a question to be discussed in
the open road, with a _sais_ jogging on the tail-board behind; and no
more was said till they reached home.

Then, as Eldred pressed the reins under the clip, he said in a quiet
tone of command: "Stay where you are, please, till I can get round."
And for all the rebellion in her blood, she obeyed.

He lifted her out bodily, and drew her into the hall.  It was empty and
almost dark: and before she guessed his intent, his lips had touched
hers lightly, with a quick sigh that told of passion held in check.
But she broke away from him, unappeased, and shut herself into her room.

She was relieved to find that a sprinkling of the tea party--the
Ollivers, Norton, and Richardson--had stayed to dinner.  Olliver was
her partner; and evinced his appreciation of the fact by chaffing her
laboriously throughout the meal; the one form of conversation she
frankly detested.

But Richardson sat on her right, and, in Olliver's phraseology, "made
the running with her all the time."  For good, single-hearted Max
frankly admired her.  His conscience pricked him more acutely than it
had yet done at thought of his own responsibility for the wasted years;
and he longed for a chance to say as much to his friend.  But Lenox was
not in a mood to talk about his wife; and Richardson got no word in
private with him throughout the evening.

Frank Olliver left early; and as Desmond half-lifted his wife from the
sofa, Quita came up and said good-night also.  She had been watching
these two with reawakened interest throughout the afternoon and
evening, and wondering whether she and Eldred could ever arrive at such
perfect community of heart and mind.

In passing her husband, she laid butterfly finger-tips upon his
coat-sleeve.  "Good-night, _mon ami_," she said, just framing the words
with her lips: and before he could get a square look at her, she was
gone.

When the three men were left alone, Wyndham drank his 'peg' standing,
and departed; but Desmond took Lenox by the arm.

"Come into the dufta[1] for half an hour," he said.  "I've hardly
spoken to you since Monday; and I think we have a thing or two to talk
over."

Lenox submitted with a smile of resigned amusement, and the study door
closed behind them.



[1] Study.




CHAPTER XXIV.

        "I dare not swerve
  From my soul's rights; a slave, though serving thee.
  I but forbear more nobly to deserve;
    The free gift only cometh of the free."
        --O. Meredith.


"Well, old chap?"

Lenox tried to speak carelessly; to evade the inevitable; for he was
sore, with the twofold soreness of insomnia and thwarted passion; and
when all a man's nerves are laid bare, he naturally dreads a touch in
the wrong place:--hence irascibility.  To any one else he would have
presented an impenetrable curtain of reserve, of ironical refusal to
admit that anything was wrong.  But Desmond had the man's tenderness,
which is sometimes greater than the woman's: and, as Quita had once
said, he was privileged, simply by being what he was.

Having set glasses and spirit-decanter within reach of their two
chairs, he came over to Lenox, and set both hands on his shoulders.

"My dear fellow, it's no use shirking facts," he said straightly.
"You're only flesh and blood; and the strain of all this is just
knocking you to pieces again.  No reflection on your wife.  You know
what I mean?"

"Yes.  I know very well what you mean."  Lenox spoke with repressed
bitterness.  "I once heard hell defined as disqualification in the face
of opportunity."

Desmond turned back to the table, and helped himself to a fresh cigar.
"Are you so dead certain about the disqualification?" he asked without
looking up: and he heard Lenox grind his teeth.

"Oh Lord, man, if you're going on that tack, I'm off."

"Indeed you're not.  There's a deal more to be said.  As far as I
understand matters, I imagine that your wife's coming here makes a
decided difference in regard to--ultimate possibilities?"

"Yes; that's just it.  She has cut away the ground from under my feet
on all sides."  He was thinking of his promise that afternoon, and his
voice lost its schooled hardness.  "She's set on going through with
things, at any price.  But then . . she doesn't realise . . ."

"Believe me, it wouldn't make the smallest difference if she did.
Women are made that way, to our eternal good fortune.  Their capacity
for loving us in spite of what we are is a thing to go down on one's
knees for.  You'll appreciate it, one of these days, if you haven't
done so already."

"Appreciate it?  Great Scott, Desmond, haven't I ten times more cause
to do so than _you_ can ever have had?  But that doesn't wipe out facts
or principles."

He left the hearth-rug, and paced the room in restless agitation.
Desmond sat down, lit his cigar, and waited.  His own suggestion could
best be made if Lenox could be induced to unburden himself a little
first.  Presently he sat on the edge of the writing-table, well out of
range of the lamp; stretched out his long legs, and folded his arms.

"By rights, I suppose I ought to have let her go back to Dalhousie at
once.  She suggested it herself.  But it seemed too brutal; and I
wasn't up to the wrench of letting her go just then.  Besides, there
was your wife's illness.  It would have been out of the question.  And
now I'm in a bigger hole than before.  We are living at cross purposes.
She sees I'm holding back; and she's puzzled, and unhappy.  But how the
deuce is a man to tell her plainly that by an act of pure pluck and
devotion, at the wrong moment, she has practically pushed me deeper
into the pit than I've been yet?  In fact, I'm beginning to be afraid
that . . . the damage may be permanent."

Desmond stifled an exclamation of dismay.

"I wonder if you could bring yourself to tell me exactly what you mean
by that?" he said quietly.  "Perhaps I have no business to ask; but
unless one goes to the root of a thing it's useless to talk of it at
all."

"I know that.  If I hadn't meant to tell you, I shouldn't be in here
now.  The fact is . . it's gone a good bit beyond tobacco this last
fortnight."  He hesitated; but Desmond made no sign.  "Did you never
miss that bottle of chlorodyne you brought me the day I was bowled
over?"

This time Desmond started.

"Good heavens, yes!  I had to get a fresh one . . for Honor.  But it
never occurred to me . . ."

"It wouldn't.  You're not the sort.  I emptied it, though, in no time.
But it's poor stuff.  It didn't half work.  Then, one night--I was mad
with pain, and want of sleep--I got hold of the raw drug, in
pellets--from the bazaar."  He shivered at the recollection: "I tell
you, Desmond, it's appalling to feel the foundations of things giving
way.  But I've taken it ever since, . . pain or no.--_Now_ do you doubt
the disqualification I spoke of?  Personally I don't feel fit to touch
her hand."

The bitterness of conviction in his tone made Desmond lean forward to
get a better sight of him.

"Lenox, old man," he said, almost tenderly, "such exaggerated notions
are all a part of your unsettled nerves.--Smash up your devil's box of
pills; or . . hand it over to me . . if you will . . . ?"

Lenox hesitated; but his face gave no sign of the short sharp struggle
within.  "You shall have the thing, if you wish it," he said at length.
"It gives me no pleasure to make a beast of myself.  But that doesn't
touch the heart of the difficulty.  So long as she's here, I haven't a
chance.  If I give up the stuff, I shall go to pieces with headache and
insomnia.  That's flat."

"Indeed I think you're mistaken," Desmond spoke with deliberate
lightness.  "At all events, I have a suggestion to make that may help
you . . for the moment.  I have quite decided that Honor must leave
this, directly she is strong enough to stand the short journey to Sheik
Budeen; probably in three or four days; and after a week or two there,
she must go on to Dalhousie till September.  Can you see a chink of
daylight now?"

"Why, naturally.  You want Quita to go up with her?  A capital notion!"

His eagerness was an unconscious revelation of all that he had endured.

"Yes.  I want you to tell her, from me, that she would be doing us both
a very real kindness.  Honor would break her poor heart alone at Sheik
Budeen; and if you put it to Quita that way, I don't think she will
take your suggestion amiss."

"I'm positive she won't.  I'll speak to her to-morrow."

He got up; squared his shoulders, with a great sigh of relief; helped
himself to whisky-and-soda; and emptied half the tumbler at a draught.

"By Jove, Desmond, you've put fresh spirit into me.  This will give me
a chance to fight the thing squarely; and I hope to God I may
succeed,--even yet."

"Of course you'll succeed.  We may take that for granted," Desmond
answered, smiling.  "You've won the great talisman that puts failure
out of the question.  As soon as we are officially through with the
cholera, you should take sick leave, and go off into the hills.  You'll
not fight to any purpose, till you're in sound health again."

"How about Dick, though?  It's his turn for leave."

"He'll survive missing it.  He's in splendid condition; and this is a
life-and-death matter for you.  Besides, Courtenay will never let you
start duty till you've been away.  'Dick' can take fifteen days when
you get back."

"Poor chap!  But I'm afraid that's the only programme possible."

He sat down at last; and for a time they smoked contentedly; then Lenox
drew a letter from his breast-pocket.

"From Sir Henry Forsyth at Simla," he explained, "about my chances up
Gilgit way.  If we decide on re-establishing the Agency there, he
evidently counts on sending me up again, with young Travers as my
Assistant.  He and I have done some decent work together in that part
of the world.  Nothing I should like better, of course.  But . . in the
face of recent developments, I swear I don't know how to answer him."

He handed the letter to Desmond, who read it and looked thoughtful

"If you get this chance, I think you must take it," he said.  "With
your special knowledge, you'd be the right man in the right place, up
there: and apart from your own ambition, you owe something to India,
after what you've done already."

Lenox sighed.

"I owe something to my wife also.  You'd be the last to deny
that.--Jove, it's amazing what a fine crop of complications will grow
out of one false step.  A little want of frankness on her part; a
little over-hastiness on mine; . . and see where we've travelled in
consequence.  All my work in the past five years has been tending
towards something of this kind.  But it would never do . . for Quita.
Think what a life for a woman, even if one could hope to have her there
in time.  Shut up in the heart of the hills, with half a dozen
Englishmen, and a husband who might end in going to the devil.  Not
another woman nearer than Srinagar; and communication with India cut
off for six months in the year.  No.  One would never get permission.
It would simply wrench us apart again.--There seems to be a Fate
against this marriage of mine every way.  My fault, no doubt.  Perhaps
as a soldier with a taste for exploration, I was a fool to go in for it
at all."

Desmond leaned forward, and flicked the ash from his cigar.

"Nonsense, man," he said emphatically.  "You're talking heresy and
schism!  Soldier or no soldier, I believe in marriage.  Always have
done.  With all its difficulties, it's an incomparable bond; as you'll
find out, once you two are on the right footing.  But you're hardly fit
enough yet to see things in their true perspective.  All this Gilgit
business is still a good way ahead; and I can only say that if it does
come to spending a good part of your service up in the wilds, you could
not have chosen a woman more fitted for it than Quita.  The better one
knows her, the more one admires her . ."

The other's face softened.

"She's as straight and as plucky as a man," he said simply.  "And
whenever comes of it, I'm a lucky devil to be her husband.--Think I'll
turn in now, and try for a little sleep.  I never meant to inflict my
affairs on you like this.  But you bring it on yourself, Desmond, by
being so confoundedly sympathetic!"

Before the two men parted, the box of opium pills had changed hands:
and Lenox, by way of trying for a little sleep, lit a fresh cigar,--he
was beginning to tolerate them now,--and went out into the garden.

Its open spaces were saturated with moonlight; while trees and bushes,
solitary or huddled together, stood in black pools of shadow, and
fragments of curded cloud trailed across the sky.  Absorbed in thought,
Lenox crossed a stretch of lawn set with rose-beds; and turning at the
far end strolled back towards the house, that loomed, an unwieldy mass
of shadow, against the palpitating radiance beyond.

The light in his own room showed through the split bamboo of the
'chick' in hair-line streaks of brightness; but from the door next his
own it issued in a wide stream that lost itself in the moon-splashed
verandah.  Quita had rolled up her 'chick,' and stood leaning against
the doorpost in an attitude that suggested weariness, or despondency,
or both; the tall slender form of her thrown into strong relief by the
light within.  He knew that she must have seen him; and his hope was
that she would come out and say good-night to him.  Since he must
speak, it would be a relief to speak at once, and get it over.  It
might even be possible to sleep, if matters could be definitely settled
between them without further discord; otherwise, bereft of the opium,
his chances were small indeed.

But though he drew steadily nearer, she remained motionless; to all
appearance unaware of his presence.  But the mere craving to touch her,
to hear her voice, grew stronger every minute; and he was not to be
thwarted thus.  At the verandah's edge he paused.

"Quita," he said, scarcely above his breath.

"Yes."

"Have you forgiven me?"

"No.  Not quite."

"But I want you."

"Come to me, then."  A slight movement suggested a defiant tilt of her
chin.

The verandah itself stood more than two feet above the ground; but
instead of going round by the steps, he sprang up on it, flung away his
cigar, and stood before her with proffered hands.

She surrendered her own.

"Now?" he asked, smiling.

"No, no."

He stooped and kissed her hair.

"Now, perhaps?"

"Yes, . . almost.  Though I'm not sure that you deserve it."

"I don't," he answered humbly, taking the wind out of her sails.

Then objects in the room behind her caught his attention:--her
dressing-table, with its silver-backed brushes and hand-glass, its
dainty feminine litter; her blue dressing-gown flung over a chair; and,
tucked away in a corner, her small comfortless bed.

"Come out into the garden, away from all this," he said hurriedly,
almost angrily.  "Why on earth did you drag me up here?"

"Because it's the man's place to come to the woman," she answered, with
a demure dignity more provocative than tenderness.  "It has been too
much the other way round between us lately.  As one has to suffer from
the drawbacks of being a woman, one may as well enjoy the advantages
also."

"And having enjoyed them, will you graciously condescend to come out
there with me?"

"But yes; of course I will."

He turned on his heel; and they went out together.  In the strong
Indian moonlight her soft blue dinner-dress, sweeping the grass behind
her, was blanched to a silvery pallor; her bare neck and arms gleamed
like marble touched into life; and unconsciously she swayed a little
towards him as she walked, like a tall flower in a breeze.  The radiant
mystery of earth and sky, the scarcely less radiant mystery of
womanhood beside him, conspired with her veiled mood of gentle
aloofness to strike his defences from him.  But he kept his hands in
his pockets by way of safeguard; and because he had small skill in
broaching a difficult subject, he held his tongue.

Half-way across the lawn, she came deliberately closer.

"You know, you hurt me cruelly this afternoon, Eldred."

"Did I, lass?  That was abominable of me.  But you must make
allowances, even if you don't understand.  I'm a man, and you're a
woman.  That seems to be the root of the difficulty.  And now I'm half
afraid I may hurt you again."

"Why?"

"Because I'm a clumsy brute; and I do it without meaning to.  But I
suppose it's plain to you that we can't go on much longer as we are
doing now?"

"Of course we can't."  She let out a breath of relief.  "I've been
wondering when you were going to see that."

"I have seen it all along.  Only, for the life of me, I didn't know how
to make the next move.  But I have just had a talk with Desmond, . .
about his wife.  He wants to send her to Sheik Budeen, the minute she's
fit to spend a night in a doolie."

"Where . . and what . . is Sheik Budeen?"

The perceptible change in her tone disconcerted him.  But the thing had
to be got through; and he went ahead without swerving.

"It is an apology for a Hill Station, about fifty miles north of this.
Just a handful of bungalows, on an ugly desolate rock, rising straight
out of the plain.  No trees; no water, except what they collect in a
tank for use.  But being nearly four thousand feet up, it's a few
degrees cooler than this: and probably after a week or two there Mrs
Desmond would be fit to stand the journey to Dalhousie."

It was characteristic of him that he made no attempt to soften facts:
and Quita, edging a little away from him, lifted her head.

"Is it settled when one is to start for this inviting spot?" she asked,
critically examining a distant star.

"In a few days, if Mackay agrees.  Poor Desmond, he hates letting his
wife go.  But for her sake he wants to get her away from here as soon
as possible."

"I see.  And you want to get me away from here as soon as possible.
It's a very convenient arrangement for you both."

Her implication stabbed him.  He stood still, and faced her; his eyes
full of pain.  But he made no attempt to touch her: which was a mistake.

She stood still also,--head uplifted, hands clasped behind
her,--without discontinuing her scrutiny of the heavens.

"By the Lord, you are hitting back harder than I deserve," he
reproached her desperately.  "At least you might believe of me all that
I said of Desmond, . . that it is for your sake, and that I shall hate
letting you go.  The suggestion was entirely his own.  He asked me to
tell you, from him, that you would be doing them both a very real
kindness by going with Mrs Desmond; and I thought . . you would be glad
of a chance to help either of them; especially since you must know,
after all I said at Kajiar, that it is impossible . . yet for us to
start fair and square."

It was a long speech for Eldred, and it brought her down from the stars.

"Naturally I am delighted to do anything on earth for the Desmonds,"
she said sweetly, ignoring his final remark.  "You speak as if I might
refuse to go.  But I haven't fallen quite so low as that."

"Quita, have you _no_ mercy on a man?" he flashed out between anger and
pain.  "There has never been any question of 'falling' on your side,
and you know it.  But surely you understand that, in spite of all that
has happened between, what I dared not to do a month ago, I dare not do
now."

"Do you mean . . is . . the trouble not any less?"

"No."

"But I thought you were going . . to fight it?"

"So I am; so I shall, till I break it, or it breaks me.  But look back
over the past few weeks, and ask yourself if I have had much of a
chance so far."

She unclasped her hands and looked up at him, speech hovering in her
eyes.  But she dropped them again, and stood so, with bowed head,
shifting her rings nervously up and down her slim third finger.

"Dear lass, what's troubling you?" he asked.  "We've got to understand
one another to-night; so don't be afraid to speak out.  Better make a
clean wound and have done with it, than think hard things of me that
may be unjust.  Tell me the thought I saw in your eyes."

"I was thinking of something Michael said."  She spoke in an even voice
without looking up.

"Michael?  Well . . what was it?"  Anxiety sharpened his tone.

"He said that if . . if you really . . wanted me back again, your
conscientious scruples would be swept away like straws before a flood.
I wouldn't believe him then.  But now . . I'm afraid it's true."

"Confound the man!  What does he know about my scruples?" Lenox broke
out with irrepressible vehemence; and she looked up quickly.

"Please don't be violent, Eldred.  You told me to speak out.  Besides,
Michael is my brother."

"I'm sorry.  But if he were ten times your brother, I'd say the same.
He had no business to try and set you against me like that."  He caught
her unresisting hands now, and held them fast.

"You take Michael's word against mine . . is that so?" he asked, a dull
flush rising in his face; and he tried to look into her eyes.  But she
would not have it.

"Oh, my dear, can't you see it's not," she said, so low that he
scarcely heard her.  "It's . . your own actions, contradicting your own
words, that make me feel he must be right."

Lenox stood aghast at this new and unanswerable aspect of the case; at
the knowledge that, in respect of practical proof to the contrary, his
hands were tied.

"Good God! what can a man do to convince you?" he demanded on a note of
smothered passion.  "Quita . . my very wife, look me in the eyes, and
answer me straight.  Do you honestly believe that I have been insulting
you with mere lip-service all this while?"

He stood before her in mingled dignity and humility, trying to master
himself, to find some admissible outlet for the tumult of feeling that
was undermining the foundations of his will.  But she did not answer at
once; nor did she look up.

"Think how I welcomed you a week ago," he urged.

"I do think of it.  But . . since then . . ."  She hesitated; and a
slow wave of colour crimsoned her neck and face, even to her forehead.
"I . . I don't know what to believe," she added very low.

The words struck away his last defences, and he caught her in his arms;
straining her to him, and kissing her almost roughly on lips and eyes
and throat.  She submitted at first, in sheer amazement and
half-frightened joy at having roused him thus.  Then she tried to free
herself; but he held her close, and hard.

"Do you believe now," he asked, his lips at her ear, "that I want
you . . that I love you . . with every part of me, heart, and mind, and
body?"

For all answer she leaned her head against him with a broken sob.

"Oh, Eldred," she rebuked him through her tears.  "I never knew you
could behave . . like that!"

"No more did I," he answered bluntly.  "Forgive me, darling, if you
can.  I was a brute to lose control of myself.  But you pushed me too
far.  There are things no man of human passions can put up with; and if
you are going to begin by doubting my sincerity, all hope of real union
between us is at an end."

"Dear love, I promise I'll never doubt it again," she whispered
fervently.  "I'll go away, and stay away . . without any fuss, if only
I can see things straight and clear; if only you won't quite shut me
out from the best part of yourself."

"I've no notion of shutting you out from any part of myself, you
precious woman.  But the habit of half a lifetime is not easy to break
through; and I suppose that when two people marry they have to learn
one another bit by bit, like a new language; except in such a rare case
as the Desmonds, where love and understanding are not two things, but
one, like the man and woman themselves.  There . . did you ever guess I
had thought all that about marriage!"

She laughed contentedly.

"No.  How could I?  And it's your thoughts I want, Eldred;--the hidden
you, that belongs to no one but me."

"Do you, though?  It sounds rather wholesale!  But I'll do my best."

"Come over and sit on the steps; and I'll try to tell you just how
matters stand, and how I feel about it all."

He led her back to the verandah, and establishing her on the topmost
step, seated himself lower down, one arm passed behind her, his left
hand covering hers that lay folded in her lap.  Quita, looking down
upon it in a flutter of happiness, noted and approved it as an epitome
of the man; large, without clumsiness, nervous and full of character.

Then he told her, simply and straightly, a part of what he had told
Desmond; and more, that was for herself alone.  Through all he said,
and left unsaid, Quita felt the force of his ascetic personality, of a
strong man, stern with himself and his own passion; and, womanlike,
thrilled at thought of her dominion over him; her power to set him
vibrating by a word, a look, a touch.  Yet she listened without
movement or interruption; for the which he blessed her in his heart.

"I suppose there are numbers of men who would take . . what I refuse
without a twinge of conscience," he said finally.  "But the fact that I
should be acting dead against the right, as I see it, would make
capitulation wrong for me, . . if not for them.  Besides, one dare not
trifle with an inherited evil. One's only chance lies in taking strong
measures on the spot.  You understand?"

"Yes, I understand . . now; though I didn't at first.  And I wouldn't
have you different by one hair's-breadth, though your strength and
single-mindedness does make things harder for both of us."

He pressed her hands.

"It's worth all I've been through, and more, to hear you say that.
Only remember, lass, it's not simply a question of principles that may
seem to you high-flown, but of bedrock facts.  I don't want to enlarge
on the ugly or painful side of a very ugly subject; but I do want you
to understand that not only my career, but our whole future happiness
depends upon my crushing out this habit before it degenerates to a
craving; before my conscience gets blunted, my will-power undermined.
Opium is worse than drink in both respects: and if things ever reached
such a pass--which God forbid--it would mean losing my commission; just
going under, like dozens of ill-fated chaps, and sinking in the scale:
or at best scraping along in the army by means of constant subterfuges,
at the hourly risk of discovery and disgrace.  A nice sort of life for
you, my proud little woman.  And for----" he broke off short.

She tried to speak, but tears were clutching at her throat; and after a
moment's pause, he went on: "There is a great black something deep down
in me, Quita, that rises up now and then, like a spiritual fog, and
blots all the light and colour out of life.  This, and the dread of
those hideous possibilities I spoke of, made me feel, a month ago, as
if it might be better for you to be left in comparative freedom, than
chained to a man with a devil inside him.  But your coming down here
has put all that out of the question."

"Thank God I came, then."

"Yes.  Thank God you came," he echoed fervently.  "Though I was afraid
you didn't quite realise . . ."

"Dear, I did.  More than you imagine.  But I wanted . . to help you in
spite of yourself; and I hoped we could fight it out together."

He shook his head.

"Don't think me brutal, Quita, but a man's got to fight out this sort
of thing alone with his own soul . . and God.  You can only help just
by . . loving me, and believing that I shall pull through.  Dear old
Desmond has done about as much for me as one human being seems
permitted to do for another in big contingencies; and, by the way, he
said rather a charming thing to-night."

"He has a gift for that.  What was it?"

"He said I won the great talisman that put failure out the question."

She laughed again, softly.

"Oh, how I love that man, and his incurable idealism!"

"You do?  You lawless young woman!  How many more?"

"Only one more . . I think!"

And freeing her left hand she slipped it round his head, that was on a
level with her shoulder, drew it close against her, and ran her fingers
lightly through his thick hair.

"I'm going to weave a magic over your head to make you sleep, and
reward you for giving up the opium, you poor, poor darling."

And with a sigh Lenox yielded himself to the ecstasy of her touch.

Their talk grew fitful, and fragmentary; intimate lover's talk,
interspersed with luminous pauses, that were but hidden channels of
speech; till Quita felt the walls within walls giving way under her
'magic,' and knew that she had reached the shy, inmost heart of the man
at last.  That enchanted hour lifted them beyond the ardours of
passion, to the mastery of spirit; to a passing revelation of the
eternal beauty underlying earth's tragedies and complexities: and both
were conscious of an exalted strength.

The harsh clanging of the police gong, twelve times repeated, brought
them back to the iron facts of life.  With a murmur of reluctance they
rose; and Lenox escorted his wife to the door of her room.

"Shall I let down your 'chick' for you?" he asked.

"Please."

He untied the strings that held it up.  Then, as the curtain fell
between them and the lamplit room, Quita turned, and with a gesture all
tenderness, laid both arms round his neck.

"I shall never forget to-night, Eldred," she whispered, "even if we
live to be cross prosaic old people together.  You may go to the other
end of the world, now, and stay there as long as you like!  I am sure
of you; and I feel in every fibre of me that we are going to win
through in the end."




CHAPTER XXV.

"In a hundred ages of the gods I could not tell thee of the glory of
Himachal.  As the dew is dried up by the sun, so are the sins of
mankind, by the glory of Himachal."--_From the Hindu_.


That night Eldred Lenox slept long, and dreamlessly; and awoke with new
life throbbing in his veins.  The three uneventful days that followed
were among the happiest in his life; and on the fourth, before sunset,
the two women set out, in hospital doolies, on their primitive journey
to Sheik Budeen.

Honor had protested, almost to tears, at being compelled to spend a
fortnight with her heart in two places, and her body in a third!  But
Desmond, reinforced by John Meredith, had held his own; promising to
escort her to the barren Rock of Refuge, whose only virtue was its
elevation; and, by arranging a relay of ponies along the route, gallop
back in time for 'orderly room' next morning.  "Which is more than nine
husbands out of ten would do for a headstrong wife!" Meredith had
concluded, stroking her flushed cheek: and thus the matter had been
settled.

Lenox and Quita spent the last afternoon together in their own
bungalow, at her suggestion.  The officious chowkidar unearthed two
punkah coolies for the occasion: and the planning of their future home,
a picnic tea served on Eldred's writing-table, and practical
considerations in respect of furniture and house linen--though Quita
had small inherent regard for either!--helped, more or less, to obscure
the thought of separation.  Before leaving the bungalow, she won
through the dreaded last injunctions and kisses without ignominious
collapse, since Lenox was to ride out for a few miles beside the
doolie; and they parted finally with brave words, and a prolonged
hand-clasp that left her fingers tingling for a good five minutes
afterwards.

Quita never forgot that journey.  Its weird fascination, clashing with
the ache of parting, stamped every detail indelibly upon her
memory;--the vast, featureless plain, empty as a widow's heart; the
lavish moonlight poured out upon it like water, flowing unhindered to
the naked spurs of the frontier hills, whose huge shoulders, peaks, and
escarpments blotted out the stars along the western horizon; the
occasional appearance of wild-looking Waziri militia-men, from the
chain of outposts along the foothills, who had been warned to keep up a
sharp look-out along the road: no villages; no trees; no sound or
movement anywhere, save the distorted shadows and rythmical grunting of
her doolie-bearers, the soft shuffling of their feet, and the click of
hoofs, as Desmond rode at a foot's pace beside his wife, or
dismounting, walked and talked with her, his bridle slung over his arm.

The suggestion of tenderness and companionship in their low tones
seemed to accentuate the lifeless desolation through which they moved,
the blankness and uncertainty of the anxious months ahead.  Possibly
something of this occurred to Desmond; for after the first few miles he
deserted his wife now and again, and walked by Quita; exorcising the
spirit of self-torment that haunts the imaginative, as he of all men
best knew how to do.

Finally, lulled by the movement of the doolie, she fell asleep; and
awoke to find herself in a changed world; a world of rough-cut volcanic
rock and boulder, piled up on either hand in fantastic disarray; a
world of white light and sharp black shadows; of mystery, and terror,
and uncanny beauty.  It was as if she had been transported back to the
morning of Time, when the earth giants wrenched up the mountains, and
pelted one another in pure sport: and as she flung back the loose flap
of her doolie to get a wider view of it all, Desmond trotted up to her.

"It's less alarming than it looks," he reassured her.  "We have only
turned off into the Paizu Pass.  It's a nasty dangerous bit of road;
but our own men are on ahead, so we're safe enough.  We shall be
climbing the hill directly; and I'll be uncommonly glad of my _chota
hazri_."

"You deserve it, you poor fellow!  But it sounds an anachronism!  I
can't believe that anything so commonplace as a bungalow, with servants
and tea and toast, exists within a hundred miles of this primeval
nakedness."

But in the fulness of time, bungalow, tea, and servants were all
forthcoming: and between three and four of the morning their fantastic
journey culminated in a prosaic meal of eggs and buttered toast.  When
it was over Quita vanished, leaving Desmond alone with his wife; and
before moonset he was speeding back along the road they had come;
covering the fifty miles at a hand-gallop, in something less than five
hours.


A fortnight later two very unwilling grass-widows were rescued by
Lenox, who had secured his sick leave; and who escorted them from Dera
Ishmael as far as Lahore, where he left them to go on into the mountain
region beyond Kashmir.

Hillmen have a saying, 'Who goes to the hills goes to his mother'; and
Eldred Lenox, a hillman both by love and lineage, confirmed it for the
hundredth time, as he pushed his way upward, by leisurely enchanting
stages, from the steaming Punjab, through the great natural gateway of
the Baramullah Pass, a towering defile, thunderous with full-fed
torrents and waterfalls, into the familiar Valley, . . a very sanctuary
of peace; its terraced slopes splashed with the vivid green of
rice-fields, the russet and gold of ripe orchards and cornlands; up
through Srinagar, 'the City of the Sun,' of carved and gilded temples,
thronged waterways, and flat house-tops blazoned with flowers; and yet
again upward, by ways well known to him, into the hidden mysteries of
the mountains massed about the valleys; a mighty conclave of immortals
brooding in majestic meditation; shrouded at this season by dazzling
continents of cloud; and plunging green arms to the rivers and lakes,
that gleamed like molten silver under a pale sky.

To know a character rightly it should be seen in its natural element;
and the Lenox of the Himalayas was by no means the same man as the
Lenox of the Plains.  All his latent energy and vigour blossomed out
like flowers at the first whisper of spring.  'The glory of Himachal'
drew and penetrated and inspired him like nothing else on earth.

Here he tracked and brought down oonyal, markhor, and the great
mountain sheep; explored on a small scale, because the fever of going
was upon him; and slept as a man only sleeps when he is living close to
the heart of Nature.  Here, also,--fortified by solitude, by the
uplifting sense of things awful and divine which is the gift of great
mountains to those who love them,--he fought doggedly and
systematically against a craving that persisted in spite of improved
health.  For the tyranny of opium is as tenacious as it is deadly; and
the habit of five years is not to be broken in as many weeks.  But the
man who wills to conquer evil has God and Nature fighting on his side:
and in the teeth of several flagrant lapses, Lenox made steady progress.

In Srinagar he bought a bottle of chlorodyne; and two days later flung
it down the _khud_.  When his store of drugged tobacco ran out, he
replaced it by a brand in which an innocuous admixture of opium just
sufficed to produce the faint fragrance that he loved.  The black fits
of melancholy, which were native to his temperament, and which, in the
past five years, had threatened to dominate him permanently, evaporated
like morning fogs before the sun as the certainty grew in him that he
must prevail: and Quita, who had done most of the harm, made
unconscious reparation by letters whose consummate faith in the final
issue was stimulating as the mountain air itself.


By October he was back at Dera Ishmael Khan;--a renewed man, bronzed
and vigorous, the shadow gone from his eyes; testing his achievement
and finding that it held good; bending all his energies to the task of
fitting up a home for his wife; a task whereof Honor usurped as large a
share as he would permit.  Then, towards the end of the month, he wrote
to Quita: "Come.  We are ready, and waiting for you,--the house,
Zyarulla, Brutus, and your impatient husband, who will pick you up at
Lahore."

And on the last day of October, more than six years after their hasty
wedding, Eldred and Quita Lenox entered upon their married life.

"Have you forgotten, darling, the nonsense I talked that day about the
House, and the Enchanted Palace?" she asked, as they stood together on
their first evening in the drawing-room, whose every detail he had
planned with elaborate care.

"Is it likely?  Why?"

His arm was round her shoulders; and putting up one hand she touched
his face.

"Why . . because I said we would have to begin with the House.  But we
seem to have reached the Enchanted Palace before starting after all?"

"By a very roundabout route," he answered, a suspicion of the old
sadness in his eyes.

"Yes; but we _have_ reached it.  That's the main point, dear Pessimist;
and the commonplace House I offered you has tumbled into a dust-heap of
ruins.  Don't let's build it up again, whatever else we may do in the
way of foolishness.  Retrogression is the one unforgiveable sin!"

It is the instinctive cry of love in the first flush of fulfilment.
The grand impulsion of man to woman brushes aside lesser considerations
like so many flies.  But Life and Temperament, standing discreetly in
the background, will have their say in the 'fateful second act' of the
human comedy before the curtain drops.




CHAPTER XXVI.

  "Climb high, love high, what matter!  Still . . .
  Feet, feelings, must descend the hill."
        --Browning.


On a certain afternoon of early March, Quita Lenox stood at her easel,
in the small room she had fitted up as a studio, palette in one hand,
long-handled brush in the other, two broken lines of irritation between
her brows.

The verandah door stood wide; and through it the breath of spring came
in to her, velvet soft, compact of a hundred nameless scents, mingled
with the paramount scent of roses.  For March is India's rose month:
and in the midst of so much that is unlovely, the roses of Dera Ishmael
Khan are things to marvel at, and thank Heaven for.  Quita's rambling
compound was packed with them, from the plebeian Cabbage, to the lordly
Maréchal Neil.  Three golden buds of the latter drooped over the white
ribbon bow at her waist: and a bowl of dark red ones stood on the
untidy table behind her.

But even the subtle-sweet influence of the day failed to sooth the
creases out of her forehead.  For the panel picture on her easel would
not 'behave'; her scattered ideas refused to range themselves: and the
fount of inspiration seemed dried up within her: trifles insignificant
enough to the 'lay' mind: but for the artist, whether of pencil, or
brush, or chisel, they spell despair.  All the morning she had wrestled
with the picture half defiantly, as it were against the stream.  Such
work is seldom satisfactory; and since lunch she had been engaged in
blotting it all out ruthlessly, bit by bit.

The refractory creation of her spirit was a small panel in oils: a
subject picture, more or less symbolical, such as she did not often
attempt:--a broken hillside, of Himalayan character: bare blocks of
granite, dripping with recent rain, their dark corners and interstices
alight with shy wild flowers and ferns: a stone-set path zigzagging
among them, and half-way up the path, the figures of a man and woman:
the man ahead, upon a jutting ledge of rock, half turning with
down-stretched hand to draw the woman up after him, his vigorous form
backed by a sky of driving cloud.  Of the woman's face, as she lifted
it to his, nothing could be seen save the outline of cheek and brow.
Her bowed shoulders and the lines of her figure expressed effort,
tinged with weariness.  Below her, the topmost half of a deodar sprang
upward, a suggestion of wind in its drooping bows: and through torn
grey cloud, a sun-ray, striking across the two figures, waked coppery
gleams in the woman's dark hair, and points of brightness on drenched
rock and fern.

All these things were as yet conveyed rather than expressed: the
figures, in particular, being still little more than studies suggesting
both the strain and exhilaration of ascent.  On a strip of cardboard
propped above the canvas, four lines were scribbled in pencil.

  "Does the road wind up-hill all the way?
    Yes, to the very end.
  Will the day's journey take the whole long day?
    From morn till night, my friend."


Quita read and pondered the words for the hundredth time: but the hint
of melancholy in them only increased her vague feeling of annoyance,
and the lines deepened between her brows.

It was her first serious attempt at a picture after four months of
idleness, and 'amateur scribblings'--so she designated them in her
letters to Michael; and for the time being brain and hand seemed to
have lost their cunning.  She needed the stimulant of criticism, of
discussion, to oil the wheels and set the machine going afresh.  If
only Michael were here, how they would have argued and squabbled, to
their souls' content, over values, and proportions and effects of light
and shade; and what a fine day's work would have sprung from it all!

"I really think I must get him down here for a week or two," she
thought.  "Just to give me a fillip in the right direction."

Fired by the notion, she made one or two ineffectual dabs at the
woman's draperies: then, flinging down brush and palette, sank into a
deep, cushioned chair sacred to her husband, as a small table bearing
ash-tray, pipes, and a pile of corrected proofs, bore witness.  She
glanced through them lazily, with softened eyes: then, as if drawn by a
magnet, her gaze returned to the picture.

"Horrid depressing thing!" the reflected.  "And yet . . how attractive!
The general character of it is rather like Eldred himself.  I suppose I
could produce nothing that wasn't at this stage!  They are both up-hill
subjects, certainly; worth tackling; and not to be mastered in a day."

But for all that she was little used to wrestling with her art.  The
touch of genius in her was of the spontaneous, rather than of the
painstaking order; and a remembered word of Michael's rose up to
disconcert her.  "Succumb to your womanhood and there is an end of your
Art."  Irritating man!  What business had he to make random shots so
near to the truth.  Yet it was not the whole truth; and hers was the
chance to prove it.

Certainly for the past six months and more, she had succumbed
unreservedly to her womanhood; had endured without a pang the temporary
eclipse of her art.  What need to strive after the presentation, the
expression of life, when she had penetrated to the core of it: was
living it buoyantly, fervently, with every faculty of heart and spirit?
By nature a being of extremes, she was apt to fling all her energies in
one direction at a time: and in these last months of so-called idleness
she had been mastering the rudiments of the finest and most complex of
all arts,--the art of living in closest human relationship with 'a
creature of equal, if of unlike frailties'; an art that must be
mastered afresh, year by year: because life, as we know it, is rooted
in change; and if a husband and wife are not imperceptibly growing
towards one another, they are almost infallibly growing in the other
direction.  But for the artist woman self-surrender is no natural
instinct: it is a talent to be consciously acquired, if she ever
acquire it at all: and although Quita had, in some sort, been through
the fire, she was still a novice in those 'profound and painless
lessons of love,' that can only be taught in the incomparable school of
marriage.

Meanwhile, she was learning her husband,--in his own phrase,--like a
new language; and enjoying the process, despite its undeniable
difficulty.  For the man was by temperament inarticulate, and a
solitary: propensities aggravated by six years of bitterness, and
stifled passion.  Let his love be never so deep and true, the spell of
isolation, the spirit that drives men into the wilderness, was as
strong in him as the need to share thought and feeling with the heart
nearest her own was in his wife.  At no time could he have been classed
among the frankly unthinking men who slip into marriage as composedly
as they slip into a new suit of clothes: and at five-and-thirty, the
complete readjustment of life and habit demanded by this exquisite yet
exacting bond could not be arrived at without some degree of conscious
strain and compromise.

The past few weeks had revealed to both, more or less clearly, the 'sea
of contrarieties' through which they were called upon to steer without
capsizing; had brought them to that critical turning-point when the
first rapture of passion in possession subsides imperceptibly, into an
emotion deeper and more stable; when the insignificant outer world
resumes its normal proportions; and individuality reasserts itself,
often with disconcerting results!

Hence Quita's revived zeal to finish a picture begun and flung aside
months ago; and Eldred's unusually prompt response to a request from an
Editor friend in England for a set of articles on Tibet, whose holy of
holies had not then been unveiled and described for the benefit of
man's insatiable curiosity.

He was in his study now, finishing the first of them in time for the
homeward mail: unconsciously enjoying a return to the familiar
occupation.  The writing of it had engrossed more of his mind and
leisure during the last week than Quita chose to consider quite
admissible in those early days.  Her own absorption in her picture was
quite another matter, be it understood!  And, in truth, she would
gladly have had him in the studio, ensconced in his own chair, and
available for argument or love-making according to her mood.  Hitherto
she had resisted temptations to invade his study when she knew him to
be at work.  But this afternoon a vague spirit of unrest had gotten
hold of her, making the thought of his diligence, and complacent
detachment from her, peculiarly exasperating; and before long
exasperation drove her to the door of his sanctum.

It stood ajar: and pushing it open, she went softly in.  His back was
towards her, and his concentration so complete that he was not aware of
her till she stood at his elbow.  Then he started and looked up with a
smothered exclamation of doubtful character.

"Hullo, my lady, I thought this was against regulations!  What's up?"

She perched lightly on the arm of his chair.

"Nothing's up.  I'm rather 'down,' that's all; or I wouldn't have
infringed your territorial rights!  _Do_ leave off being a model of
industry, and come into the studio."

"But, my dear girl, . . why?"

"Because I want you.  Isn't that reason enough?  There'll be plenty of
time to finish grinding out dry-as-dust facts about Tibet after tea."

"I'm afraid not.  I told Desmond I'd get down to the tent-pegging
early.  Is it really anything important, lass?" he added, controlling
his impatience with an effort.

"Oh dear, no, not the least in the world!"  She was on her feet now:
head erect: dignity incarnate.  "Unless it is important to do what your
wife asks you with good grace.  But I believe little illusions of that
kind are warranted not to outlast four months of marriage."

He brought his hand sharply down on the table.

"Quita, you are talking childish nonsense.  Why the dickens can't you
leave me in peace till I'm through?  I shan't be much longer now: and
you can lecture me on the whole duty of husbands all the evening, if
you've a mind to."

"Indeed I've not.  Duty never gets a word in edgeways, while Love is
master of the house.  If it ever comes to 'duty' between you and me, I
shall pack my kit and go, I promise you.  It's the reality or nothing
for me.--But don't hurry your work on my account, _mon ami_," she
added, on her way to the door.  "I shall probably drive over to
Honor's, and leave you in peace till dinner-time.  In fact, you have my
permission to dine at mess for a change, if it would amuse you."

And as he turned quickly with remonstrance on his lips, the door closed
behind her.  With a sigh that ended in a smile, he took up his pen
again: wishing her back the moment she was out of reach.  For beneath
his surface equanimity, the man in him was still thrilling under the
emotion and astonishment of absolute possession; under the hallowing
sense of permanence that at once calmed and exalted the fever heat of
passion.

But Quita returned to her studio feeling more out of tune than ever.
It was her own foolish fault, of course, for interrupting him: a form
of knowledge that has never yet made for consolation.  And while she
stood alone before her picture, wondering whether she really would
order the trap and go over to the Desmonds, footsteps in the verandah
heralded Honor's appearance in the doorway:--a glowing Honor, looking
remarkably young and fresh in a long, loose alpaca coat, and a shady
Leghorn in which roses nodded: the peach-bloom of health back in her
cheeks, the old buoyant stateliness in her step and carriage.

Quita flew to her with a little cry.

"Honor, you dear woman!  How engaging of you to turn up, just when I
was wanting you, and feeling too lazy to go and find you."

The kiss that passed between them was a real one; not the perfunctory
peck of greeting that usurps its name.  For, as flowers most exquisite
spring from strangely unpromising soil, so had those two weeks of
isolation and heart-hunger on the unloveliest hill-top of Northern
India generated an enduring friendship between these two women, so
unlike in outward seeming: a deeper thing than the facile feminine
interchange of Christian names and kisses.

"Come your ways in, you patent radiator of happiness!"  And Quita would
have thrust her friend into Eldred's chair: but Honor, catching sight
of the picture, went eagerly up to it.

"My dear, how remarkable!  When did you begin it?"

"Ages ago, in Dalhousie; and now I want to finish it.  But the lamp of
inspiration won't burn.  I'm afraid the wick's gone mouldy from disuse."

But Honor was reading the lines above the canvas.

"Ah, I see!  Christina Rossetti," she said.  "Quita, you must finish
this.  It's going to be very good.  I love that little poem."

"Yes, you would.  I've always rebelled against it.  But last year when
everything seemed such a struggle, the lines haunted me so, that I
tried to get rid of them by turning them into a picture; and that's the
result.  Rather like Eldred and me!  He's always dragging me up on to
higher ground: yet he's so divinely unconscious of it all the time."

"Dear fellow!" Honor said softly.  "But _he_ hasn't done all the
lifting.  You've made a new man of him, Quita."

"Have I?"  Sudden seriousness shadowed her eyes.  "It was the least I
could do, . . considering all things.  Only . . I wish he wasn't quite
so inward; so in love with his own company."

"You'll change that, in time."

"Do you think so?  I wonder."

She bent in speaking to look through three or four small canvases that
stood with their faces to the wall.

"I want to show you the pair to my Up-Hill picture.  It's another
Rossetti, _Amor Mundi_; and the contrast pleases me.  I've taken the
opening lines:

  "'Oh where are you going, with your love-locks flowing,
    On the west wind blowing, along this valley track?'
  'The down-hill path is easy; come with me, an' it please ye;
    We shall escape the up-hill, by never turning back.'
  So they two went together, in glowing August weather,
    The honey-breathing heather lay to their left and right . .'

There now, can't you see them going down and down . . . ?"

With a quick turn of the wrist she brought the picture into view, and
set it on the table in a good light.

"Can't you feel the soft wind against their faces, . . the ease, the
swiftness, and the thrill of it all; the thrill of yielding to earth
and the beauty of earth, of giving up for a while one's futile
strugglings to reach the moon?"

Honor stood silent, gazing at the picture with rapt interest.  To this
deep-hearted passionate woman, whose sympathies stretched upward and
downward along the whole gamut of human feeling, its appeal was far
stronger than Quita--in whom passion was mainly an imaginative
quality--was likely to realise.  For the small picture was heavy with
heat and colour, and the glamour of high mid-summer; the sky's blue
intensity glowing between masses of white thunderous cloud; the
hillsides clothed in their August splendour of purple, and pink, and
green: and down the white track that sloped to the valley a man and a
woman, hand in hand, the woman leading, appeared to be coming straight
out of the picture.  Her flying hair, and the sweep of her draperies,
showed the speed of their going; and the ecstasy of it shone in the
faces of both.

"It's a powerful little poem," Quita exclaimed.  "As they go on they
meet with grisly portents, the track gets steeper, and they are afraid.
But by that time it is 'too steep for hill-mounting, and too late for
cost-counting; the down-hill path is easy, but there's no turning
back.'"

Honor gave a little shiver.

"It's a wonderful bit of work," she said.  "But is it always the man
who leads up, and the woman who leads down, Quita?"

"No.  By no manner of means!  I happened to see it so in those two
instances.  Probably the sainted Christina saw it the other way
round.--But come and sit in Eldred's chair now, and let's get back to
realities."

"Realities?  Why, my dear, your pictures touch the height and depth of
the biggest realities.  I never knew you did that sort of thing."

"I don't as a rule.  But those poems possessed me."

"Well, I can only say, go on and do more."

"I will . . if I can."  And gently pushing Honor into the chair, she
settled herself on the carpet, and flung an arm over her friend's knee.
"It's high time I started work again.  I've been idling far too long."

Honor smiled.  "Don't be in a hurry to put an end to it, dear.  It's
one of the divinest and most profitable kinds of idling you will ever
know.  You are building up your future in these first months together."

Quita's sigh was a little anxious, though not sad.

"Are we?  Well, I hope we've got the foundations right," she said,
looking thoughtfully up into the other's face.  Something in its veiled
brilliance caught her attention, and bent her flexible mind in another
direction.  "Do you know, Honor," she went on, "you've blossomed out
amazingly just lately.  Your eyes are shining like two stars, as if you
had some heavenly secret hidden behind them."

"It's an open secret, and a very human one!" Honor answered, smiling.
"You are well on the way to discovering it for yourself."

With a low sound, Quita captured the hand lying near her own.

"Oh, you utter woman!" she murmured.  "Is it still so beautiful . . .
after three years?"

Honor's colour deepened.  "It's more beautiful.  Much more beautiful.
Because now . . there are two of them."

There was a moment of silence, while Quita fidgeted with the great
square sapphire on her friend's wedding-finger.

"You'll think me dreadful," she said at last.  "But I'm not quite sure
that I see the logic of that.  For the present, at all events, I only
want Eldred, and these . . my spirit children," she indicated her
pictures with a little nervous laugh.  "You must make allowances for
the artist woman, Honor.  She so seldom feels and does the things she
ought to feel and do!"

"That's just why she is apt to be so refreshing!--But believe me,
Quita, the most perfect marriage is not quite perfect till it becomes
'the trio perfect,' three persons and one love.  That's not fantastic
idealism but simple fact.  Besides," she hesitated and caressed a stray
tendril of Quita's hair, "doesn't it seem to you a bigger thing, on the
whole, to make men and women to the best of one's power, than to make
books or pictures, even fine ones?"

"Yes, in some ways . . it does.  And for that very reason I doubt
whether I am fitted to make them.  It's a gift, an art, like everything
else.  Not the creating of them, of course.  That's a privilege, or a
fatality, as the case may be!  But the moulding of them, after they are
created.  You can't deny that they complicate things: and even at this
stage, I find marriage a far more complicated affair than I imagined it
to be.  Didn't you?"

Honor's smile was sufficient evidence to the contrary.  But she was
old-fashioned enough to have a difficulty in talking about the hidden
poem of her life.

"Perhaps we were exceptions, Theo and I," she said at last.  "We knew
one another . . intimately, before starting; and to live with him,
and . . in him, seemed to come as natural as breathing.  But then, my
dear, I'm simply a wife and a mother: not a woman of genius, like you."

"Aren't you, indeed?  Don't pulverise me with sarcasms, please!  In my
opinion this exquisite passion of yours for being 'simply a wife and a
mother' is in itself a kind of genius: perhaps the highest there is.
You see and feel the essential beauty of both relations so vividly that
you make one see and feel it also; just as certain other kinds of women
make one half-ashamed of being a woman at all!  Yours is the
temperament that gives, Honor, . . gives royally; and is always sure of
return because it looks for none.  While as for me, my present
complications are the natural outcome,--multiplied by six years,--of my
long-ago blindness and folly, that sprang from my capacity for taking,
without a thought of giving in return.  You see, Eldred and I have both
an ample time to crystallise in different directions: and the years we
let slip may be trusted to exact their debt to the uttermost
farthing.--Ah, there he is!"

The words were a mere throb of the heart.  She was on her feet when the
man entered: and Honor, watching her face, thought she had never seen
it so nearly beautiful.  She herself rose also, with a prompt excuse
for departure.

"I haven't even _seen_ Theo since breakfast," she said as they shook
hands.  "Tent-pegging days are hopeless: and I promised to go down
early.  Don't trouble to come out with me, please."

But Lenox insisted: and on his return found Quita back at her canvas,
to all appearance working diligently at a difficult bit of detail in
one corner.  She greeted him with lifted brows.

"Finished your article already?"

"No."

"Then what on earth are you doing, loafing about in here?  I'm busy.  I
want to get this bit done before I go out."

"Do you though?" but instead of retreating, he came closer,
deliberately confiscated palette and brushes, and drew her into his
arms.

"Shall I send Desmond a 'chit,' to say 'I have married a wife, and
therefore I cannot come'?"

"Yes,--do.  He'll forgive you."

"And shall we go for a long ride across country, when I'm through with
my work: and look in at the tent-pegging later?"

For answer she leaned against him with a sigh of content.




CHAPTER XXVII.

  "Elfin and human, airy and true;
  *      *      *      *      *      *
  Your flowers and thorns you bring with you."
        --R.L.S.


But the stumbling-block reasserted itself, and prevailed.

The articles on Tibet were solid affairs, for a solid journal; twelve
of them, to be paid for on acceptance; and since Lenox needed the money
to clear off debts incurred when furnishing and pay for their trip to
Kashmir, he decided to get them written as soon as might be, before the
stealthy increase of heat made mental effort a burden.  Thus, while the
Battery absorbed his mornings, Tibet made unlawful inroads upon his
afternoons and evenings; and the narrow margin of leisure thus left to
him did not by any means satisfy Quita's healthy appetite for
companionship.  More than once she attempted remonstrance, pitched in
the wrong key, only to be routed by the unanswerable argument that the
work must be done, and that there was no other time in which to do it.
Finally, in a mood between pride and resignation, she shrugged her
shoulders and turned elsewhere for companionship; for interests to fill
the long hours which Eldred's devotion to work left empty on her hands.

And here, in a virtue pushed to the confines of vice, in the man's
blind unintentional neglect of the woman for whom he would wring the
last blood-drop out of his heart, you have the nucleus of more than
half the pitiful domestic tragedies of India.  It is the crucial
moment, the genesis of a hundred unsuspected possibilities, this first
divergence of the man and woman, along separate paths of interest.
Love may be strong enough to stand the strain, but it will be love
debarred from that intimate fusion of heart and brain which alone
constitutes true marriage.  The other kind is at best a permanent
'friendship recognised by the police':--a tacit confession of failure
which this high-hearted, if contrarious couple were by no means minded
to arrive at, now or ever.  But there is no warning sign-post at the
turn of the road; and already their feet were nearing it, without
knowledge that its easy gradient slips into the Valley of Dry Bones.

Quita, however, was in a better case than many wives so circumstanced;
in that her art was no mere distraction for spare hours, but a living
reality; though, unhappily, a capricious one.  And now when she would
have returned to it in earnest after months of philandering with brush
and pencil, it stood aloof, unmanageable as Eldred himself!  She was
too genuinely an artist to attempt the completion of an imaginative
picture against the stream; and for fresh work, fresh mental stimulus
was needed.  This was not readily to be found in the everyday
happenings--the riding, tennis, and gatherings at the Club
Gardens--that made up the cold-weather life at Dera Ishmael; and she
had little taste for small social or domestic amenities, in themselves.
The call of the wild was in her blood.  One might as well hope to
domesticate a sea-gull as a woman of this type.  She managed her
household on broad lines, ignoring minor details, and Zyarulla, to his
secret relief, found himself still the lynx-eyed custodian of the
Sahib's _Izzat_[1] in houses and compound, still the controller of his
petty cash.  Quita received his monthly account--plus a minute
percentage on each item--in perfect good faith.  His visions of
possible dismissal evaporated.  He heartily commended his master's
choice of a wife; and, in moments of expansion over the evening hookah,
confided to the Khansamah--a friend and ally in the matter of
accounts--his conviction that Mem Sahibs who made pictures were of a
different _jat_ to those who played tennis, harried their ayahs, and
rode rough-shod over the sensibilities of honest bearers like himself!
[Transcriber's note: The "a" in "_jat_" is an a-macron, Unicode U+0101.]

And, in truth, the Bohemian and cosmopolitan elements in Quita made her
airily contemptuous of trifles, of the petty point of view, the 'local'
attitude of mind often found in isolated Indian stations, more
especially among the women.  And setting aside Honor and Frank, the
half-dozen officers' wives belonging to the Infantry Regiments were for
the most part colourless average types of femininity such as Quita was
something too ready to despise.

But the woman element had never played a large part in her life; and it
was to the men she turned instinctively for mental companionship; for
the larger outlook, the saner grasp of things big and small.  She drew
them by a natural magnetism; and held them by a talent for comradeship
which never degenerated into familiarity or freedom.  The four Battery
subalterns, headed by Richardson, surrendered at discretion.  And there
were others also; notably George Rivers, Desmond's subaltern, a
promising Lothario with a profile, a tenor voice, and an unimpeachable
taste in ties and waistcoats.  But Quita gave the preference to
Eldred's brother officers; and to their open delight made them free of
the house.  One or more of them dined with her at least three nights
a-week; and her instantaneous gravitation to Max Richardson had already
resulted in an informal friendship equally delightful for both.

Lenox accepted these developments without comment, yet not without
inward regret.  For he craved the restfulness of quiet evenings alone
with his wife, after a hard day's work: and indeed saw more than enough
of his subalterns--always excepting Dick--on the parade-ground and in
the orderly room every morning.  Very soon he took to excusing himself
early, on these convivial evenings, with the result that before long
the old habit of working at night had him in its clutches once again,
the charm of it heightened by months of abstinence.  For a while he
held out against it; but the quiet within and without, the certainty of
freedom from interruption, the lucidity of thought that brains of a
certain order seem only able to arrive at in the small hours, were
powerful advocates for surrender; and little by little habit conquered.
He smoked more and slept less; and the quality of his work improved in
great strides.

But Quita objected strongly to this barefaced revival of 'bachelor
habits' within six months of marriage; and more than once--waking in
the small hours to find herself alone--she had slipped on her
dressing-gown and boldly invaded his study; a disarming vision enough,
her face flushed with sleep, looking absurdly young in a halo of
tumbled hair, her eyes alight with tenderness and enjoyment of her own
daring.  On each occasion she was reproved without severity;
established herself in the deck-lounge of old days; fell asleep
promptly, and was carried protesting back to bed; but not until she had
seen the lamp put out and the detestable litter of papers tidied up for
the night.


In this fashion the first half of March slipped uneventfully by, each
day bringing with it that imperceptible advance of heat which strikes
an undernote of dread through the rose-scented languor of a Punjab
March.  For in the vast Northern Plains of India, it is autumn, not
spring, that bears the winged word of resurrection.  But Quita was
still at that enviable stage in love's progress when times and seasons
and places shrink to mere pin-points beside the one supreme fact.  A
Frontier hot weather in Eldred's company held no terrors for her.
Possibly two months' leave would be available later on, when they would
spend the honeymoon--of which they had been twice defrauded--in
Kashmir; and, in the meantime, so long as one roof covered them, all
was well; in spite of her secret wish that Tibet and the Pamirs could
be expunged from the map of Asia by means of a private deluge!

But if Quita were inclined to quarrel with her husband's industry, Max
Richardson was not.  He was enjoying, for the first time in his life,
the mere pleasantness of a woman's intimate companionship;--in Quita's
case a companionship full of incident, of delicate reticences,
alternating with unexpected revelations of thought and feeling; and
through it all a frank interest in everything that concerned himself,
which is perhaps the subtlest form of coquetry.  Not that Quita meant
it as such.  In her entire devotion to her husband, she simply did not
consider her effect upon other men; to whom, in consequence, she showed
her true self almost with the freedom and spontaneity of a child.
Richardson's own simplicity of character, and the ease with which one
slips into a pleasant path, helped matters forward; and before long,
they had fallen quite naturally into the habit of riding or driving
together when Lenox happened to be very much engaged.  Quita saw no
reason to conceal her pleasure in these outings.  Lenox thanked his
friend once or twice, bluntly enough, yet with evident sincerity; and
Richardson accepted his own good fortune with an unquestioning
appreciation very characteristic of the man.

His thoughts were running definitely upon this pleasant state of
things, as he drove Quita Lenox homeward through the main street of the
native city, on a glowing evening, some two weeks after Honor's visit
to the studio.  Behind them clattered a small guard of native police,
without whom it would not be advisable to explore a frontier city; and
on either hand stretched a narrowing vista of open shop fronts noisy
with vituperative buyers and sellers; brilliant with piled vessels of
brass and copper, with the rainbow tints of dyed silks and muslins,
piles of parched corn and spices, oranges, bananas, and pomegranates;
their upper storeys breaking out into quaintly carved windows and
balconies, strange splashes of colour, or rough childish pictures,
innocent of proportion.  And, better than these, in Quita's esteem, was
the wide street itself, packed with the noisy, leisurely life of an
Indian city:--goats and cattle; women and children; open bullock-carts
that seemed to have all eternity to travel in; princely-looking Afghan
traders in long coats and peaked turbans; Waziris, with keen, Jewish
faces framed in greasy locks that fell upon their shoulders; the _sais_
from his tail-board shouting ineffectual commands to make way for the
Sahib; long-legged fowls, leaping and fluttering up under the pony's
nose; pariahs, lazily insolent, almost allowing the wheel to graze
thigh-bone or paw, before they condescended to loaf away to a fresh
resting-place; and over all an arch of blue, so deep and passionate as
to be almost vocal; and pervading all, the indefinable, unforgettable
smell of the East:--a smell compounded of musk, spices, open drains,
and humanity.

When at last they emerged into the open, and quickened their pace,
Quita drew a breath of satisfaction, and smiled up at her companion,
who allowed his eyes to linger in hers a moment longer than the
occasion required.

Their outing had been an unusually long one; for whenever she could
find her way into the city Quita was insatiable.  Again and again
Richardson had sat waiting in the sun, while she made thumb-nail
sketches of street corners, bargained with curio-sellers for the
Alexander coins and relics which abound at Dera Ishmael, or extracted
information from shy, smiling women, whose faces happened to take her
fancy in passing.

"You have been a miracle of patience!" she assured him, as they neared
cantonments.  "And I daresay you hated it half the time, and scorned my
globe-trotter behaviour!  I've noticed how quickly most Anglo-Indians
get bored if one asks questions, or shows the smallest interest in the
country and the people."

"Probably they don't enjoy airing their own ignorance," he suggested,
with lazy amusement in his eyes.  "_I'm_ not bored with you, though.
Shouldn't be, even if you were to pelt me with questions till midnight."

She laughed lightly.

"Don't dare me to put you to the test!  It might make us enemies for
life.  And it's really capital that we get on so well.  Just think how
awkward for Eldred if I had taken one of my strong unreasoning dislikes
to you!"

"Still more awkward for me!  I never thought you carried hidden weapons
of that sort about with you."

"Wait till you know me better.  I am a hopeless creature of extremes!
You can't think how I hated my dear Honor Desmond last year,--though
I'd cut off a hand for her now; nor how I still hate . . . some one I
have never seen;--some one who wrote to Eldred--about me--years ago."

She broke off, remembering that in his eyes she had only been married
nine months; though if she had been looking at him instead of
contemplating the hands that lay clasped in her lap, she must have
noticed his start, the sudden tension of his face and figure.  Lenox
had never told her, then.  He might have guessed as much.  And why
should she ever know, after all?  His native honesty prompted him to
make a clean breast of it, and ask her forgiveness.  But something
stronger,--a new imperative desire to stand well with her at any
price,--held him silent.  Presently, she glanced up at him curiously;
but his straight-featured profile and steady hands upon the reins
revealed nothing beyond a momentary abstraction of thought.

"I forgot, when I spoke just now," she said in a changed voice--a voice
of closer intimacy--"that you don't know how long we have really been
married,--do you?"

"Yes, I do know," he answered, still intent upon the pony.  Every
moment made him more exquisitely uncomfortable.  But he could not lie
to her.

"Did my husband tell you?" she flashed out almost angrily.

"No, indeed.  He's not that sort.  I--found out by chance."

"How strange!  Another man did the same.  One can never keep a secret
in this world.  Well--it was the letter I spoke of that did all the
harm; that broke up everything between us for five years.  Can you
wonder that I've never forgiven the writer, and never shall?  Not
because he wrote unfairly of me, but because of all that Eldred
suffered then, and afterwards."

"Did you never make allowance for the fact that he could not have known
how things were between you,--that he meant no harm?"

"I'm afraid I made _no_ allowances; though I'm quite aware that,
speaking justly, one can't blame him.  Probably Eldred never did.  But
I told you my dislikes were unreasonable; and it makes me hate him to
think that he was quite happy away there in England all those five
years, while Eldred was half-killing himself with work and misery."

"Yes, I understand that.  But it's all over now; and the harm's
repaired."

"I hope so, in a measure; though it's my belief that harm done can
never really be repaired; only patched up."

"That's a very terrible doctrine, Mrs Lenox."

"I'm afraid facts go to prove the truth of it."

Although she spoke quietly, a touch of hardness had invaded her voice;
and Richardson had no answer to give her.  His cheerful, easy-going
nature had rarely been so deeply stirred.  A new and delightful
experience seemed to be taking an unlooked-for turn, and his lame
attempts at self-defence in the third person struck him as bordering on
the grotesque.  He set his teeth and flicked the pony viciously; then
hauled at his mouth because he broke into a canter.  Yet he was a
tender-hearted man.

"Poor little beast!  Don't treat him like that," she rebuked him,
between jest and earnest, "What's wrong?  The city seems to have
disagreed with you."

Again he did not answer: and for a time they drove on without speaking,
each, if the truth be told, thinking of the other.  Then she startled
him with one of her direct, inconsequent questions.

"Mr Richardson, how old are you?"

He laughed.

"Just thirty.  Why?"

"I was only wondering.  You're the sort of man who ought to marry.
Have you never thought of it yet?"

"No.  Too little money.  Besides, I'm a lazy beggar, and I shirk the
responsibility."

"That means you've never been in love!"

"I suppose not.  Nothing more serious than a passing inclination.  Mere
growing pains!"  He smiled at the remembrance of a certain romantic
episode in his early twenties.  "What's your notion?  Have I been
overdosing you with my company that you are so keen to marry me off?"

"Don't talk nonsense.  I was simply thinking of you.  You've the right
stuff in you for a husband.  But personally, I prefer you unattached.
I should probably quarrel with your wife; and she would break up our
friendship; which would be a thousand pities."

"Mrs Lenox--d'you mean that?  Do you really value it one little bit?"

His repressed eagerness puzzled her, and she lifted her eyebrows.  "But
yes, _mon ami_!  Would I go about with you so much if I didn't?  I have
failings enough, Heaven knows, but insincerity is not one of them.  By
the way, am I to put you on my other side to-night?  Wouldn't you
prefer Mrs Norton, or Mrs Lacy Smith for a change?  I couldn't get the
Desmonds; and Eldred hates my poor little party in consequence."

"So shall I, if you banish me from your end of the table."

"Well, that settles it.  Two conspicuously large men in open mutiny
would be more than the rest of us could stand!"

They swerved in between the gate-posts, and drew rein as she spoke.
The sound of their wheels had brought Lenox into the verandah.

"It's high time you were back again, you two," he said, with a touch of
decision, as he lifted his wife from the cart.  "I was wondering what
had come to you.  See you again at eight, Dick."

And Richardson, having quite recovered from his bad quarter of an hour,
drove off humming the refrain of a song Quita had sung to him a few
evenings back.  After all, so long as she liked him, and valued his
friendship, she was welcome to hate the supposed unknown, whose
identity she must never be allowed to guess.

Meanwhile Lenox and his wife went on into the house, Quita disarming
reproof by instant apology.  "It was delightful; but I'm sorry we were
away too long, dear."

He smiled contentedly down upon her.  "Well--there are limits!  Where
on earth did you go?"

"All through the city again, and I unearthed endless treasures.  You'd
have loved it."

"Of course I should.  Great fool that I was not to chuck the writing
and take you myself!"

"Oh, if you only would, a little oftener!"

Something in her tone smote him; and putting both hands on her
shoulders, he bent towards her, pain and passion in his eyes.

"Darling, tell me, have I been neglecting you lately?"

Her low laughter reassured him.  "Neglecting me?  Dear stupid!  D'you
suppose I'd sit down under it if you did?  Now I'm going to change for
dinner; and do please make yourself agreeable to Mrs Norton this
evening."

For the Deputy Commissioner's wife was honouring her husband with a
flying visit, before going north to spend the season in Simla.

"The devil take Mrs Norton.  Odious woman!"

"No,--it's _you_ that will have to take her!" she answered, laughing.
"And it's not my fault that you won't have your beautiful Honor on the
other side to keep the balance true."

Quita enjoyed her little dinner, and saw to it that others did
likewise.  She was a natural-born hostess.  Talk never flagged in her
neighbourhood, and her own lack of self-consciousness set the stiffest
and shyest at their ease.  Besides, she always enjoyed talking to
Norton, whose cynicism and critical attitude she disarmed by the simple
means of ignoring them.  She liked the man's plain, hard-featured face,
ploughed with deep lines of thought and effort, and only redeemed from
ugliness by his remarkable eyes.

"Stoking up!" he remarked grimly, sipping his soup with a keen
appreciation of its quality.  "Punkahs and hell-fire again in no time.
One hardly has time to cool down before the winter slips away.  Mrs
Norton's off to Simla in ten days; and I suppose you'll be bolting also
by the end of next month?"

She laughed, and shook her head.  "If you're counting on getting my
husband to chum with you this hot weather, I'm afraid you'll be
disappointed."

He eyed her quizzically for a moment.

"Of course--I forgot.  You're a new broom!  If I meet you in March
three or four years hence, I shall hear another story."

"And enjoy the triumph of your own cynicism!  Very well, I accept your
challenge.  I shall write to you three years from now, just to tell you
how the land lies."

"Do.  And if you forget, I shall hear of you from some one else.  We
know all one another's little doings in this corner of the world.  I
feel curious about you, and prophesy that Simla and amateur theatricals
will carry the day; though for Lenox's sake I hope all the triumph will
be on your side.  But it's no light matter, I can tell you, to win your
spurs as a Frontier officer's wife of the right quality."

"Like Mrs Desmond, for instance?"

"Quite so.  Like Mrs Desmond."

"I notice all the cynicism goes out of your voice when you speak of
her.  Yet you can make insulting prophecies about _me_, at my own table
too!  Am I so immeasurably inferior?"

"That remains to be seen!  You have still to be tested in the furnace,
and no imaginary furnace either.  Man or woman, staying power's the
great requisite for India, Mrs Lenox.  To pull through for half a dozen
hot weathers is all very well,--mere getting one's hand in.  But by the
time a man has completed his twentieth he begins to know something
about the weakness of the flesh.  I seem to you, with your youth and
high courage, a cynical, disagreeable fellow enough.  But perhaps when
you are middle-aged and disillusioned, and all the good blood in your
veins has been dried up by fever, you'll forgive my straight speaking
to-night; though by then I shall be a forgotten old fogey, eating my
heart out in England, or I shall have dropped in harness, which would
be the kinder fate of the two."

"Indeed I have forgiven you already," she answered in a softened tone;
and involuntarily her eyes sought the handsome heavy-featured woman
beside her husband, whose Paris dinner-dress was cut lower than need
be, and whose elaborate 'fringe' rather too obviously grew off her head.

"Thank you.  It's more than I deserve; and I'm sorry I must repay you
by giving you your first taste of the pleasant little surprises that
are a main feature of Frontier life.  I have to go off across the
Border early next week, to fix the position of a post we are going to
build for our Mahsud levies, and to collect a fine from some rascals
who have been raiding Tank."

"Where's that?"

"An unlucky village near the Gomal Pass,--the great trade route into
the hills.  It gets burnt to the ground periodically by the Waziris,
probably much to its advantage; but one can't overlook the insult to
British authority.  So I'm obliged to visit them in state and talk to
them like a father, after collecting their fine; and I'm afraid I must
take your husband and Richardson along with me, besides a handful of
cavalry and infantry by way of protection and prestige."

Quita's face fell.  "For how long?" she asked, collecting her last
crumbs of pastry with a peculiar deliberation.

"We might be ten days coming and going.  Not more."

"And--would there be fighting?"

"Probably not.  It's a peaceful deputation.  But peace armed to the
teeth is the only kind the Waziri understands; and he can't always
control his rifle when he finds the eternally aggressive white man
taking liberties with his sacred hills!  We shan't be sorry for a whiff
of cool air any of us; and you won't be the only injured wife.  Colonel
Montague, of the Sikhs, comes with us; and I'm going to rob Mrs Desmond
of her _preux chevalier_ also.  I only want half a squadron, but I
shall make special request for Desmond.  He's a capital man to have
handy in case of accidents.  As for Lenox, he'll be delighted, if
that's any consolation to you."

"Well, naturally," she faced him now, eyes and lips under control.
"Besides, ten days is nothing.  One has to make a beginning; and it
might have been ever so much worse."

"That's the plucky way to look at it," he said in evident approval, and
Quita rather abruptly changed the subject.

The evening that followed was a remarkably cheerful affair, imbued with
that spirit of friendly informality which makes the little dinners of
India live long in the memory.  O'Flannagan had brought his banjo.
Rivers and Richardson both sang creditably; and Quita herself was in
one of her 'inspired' moods.  Only Mrs Norton, having deposited her
grey satin magnificence upon the sofa, protested mutely against what
she considered a tendency to 'rowdyism' in her hostess;
flirted--intellectually--with any one who had the hardihood to sit near
her; and on the stroke of ten rose with a suppressed yawn and a
transparently insincere little speech about an enjoyable evening.

"Begad, but her works want oiling badly!" O'Flannagan confided to
Quita, as the last shimmering morsel of her train slid out of sight.
"She's one o' your immaculate Englishwomen who give me the blues.  Come
on, Mrs Lenox.  Thank Heaven for the dash of ould Ireland in you; and
let's begin to enjoy ourselves!"

From that moment the evening took a new lease of life.  Two battery
subalterns came over from mess, and it was close on midnight when
Lenox, returning from his final duties in the verandah, found Quita
standing by the mantelpiece, her cheeks flushed, her eyes radiating
enjoyment.

"Thank the Lord that's over!" he ejaculated fervently, flinging himself
into a deep arm-chair; and she turned on him promptly, with a visible
ruffling of her feathers.

"Eldred, you're positively inhuman.  When you talk like that you make
me want to hit you!"

She stood above him, threatening him with one slim hand; but Lenox,
reaching up lazily, grasped her arms below the elbow, and gently but
irresistibly forced her on to her knees.

"Hit out, lass, if you've a mind to," he said good-humouredly.  "I
swear I won't retaliate!"

She struggled for freedom; but he held her in a vice.

"You great schoolboy,--let me go!" she commanded, between laughter and
vexation.  "I don't care if you do hate dinner parties.  I must have
them sometimes.  I love to see people enjoying themselves as they all
did tonight, except that odious Mrs Norton, who doesn't count.  You're
not pliable enough.  That's what's the matter with you.  But if I live
to a hundred and twenty you'd never make a hermit out of _me_!"

"And if you gave a party every night of your life you'd never make a
society man out of me.  I should simply apply for a trans-frontier
billet, where wives are not admitted.  But look here, little woman, did
Norton tell you about next week?"

"Of course he did.  You'll be gone in three or four days.  It's
hateful.  Do let me have my arms back, darling."

And he surrendered this time.

"Are you sleepy?" she asked, her eyes, full of laughter, resting in his.

"Lord, no.  I'm going to sit up and put in two hours work at least
before turning in."

"Indeed you'll do no such thing.  You're going to sit up and talk to
me.  I didn't like to bother Mr Norton; but I've a hundred questions to
ask you about it all."

"_Hazúr ke kushi_! [2]  Ask away.  Only let me get at my pipe, and I'm
at your service."

He filled and lighted it with leisurely satisfaction; and Quita,
settling herself on the carpet beside him, her face looking into his,
her bright head laid against his knee, kept him talking of Border
politics and Border warfare till all thought of putting in two hours'
work was out of the question.



[1] Prestige.

[2] As your Honour's pleases.




CHAPTER XXVIII.

  "The work is with us; the event is with Allah."
        --Kipling.


"Shade, water, grass . . .  Not half a bad place for a picnic, eh,
Major?  And I hope that plausible-looking scoundrel, talking to Norton,
has provided a decent breakfast for us.  Five hours of marching in this
air puts an edge on a fellow's appetite."

Richardson's remark was addressed to Desmond,--now a Major of six
months' standing,--whose practised eye was critically surveying the
camping-ground assigned by the local magnate, Nussar Ali Khan, to the
seven British officers and their handful of native troops.

The site chosen was the topmost of two wide terraces descending to a
stream, from whose farther bank a great hill rose abruptly, dark with
pine and ilex, and cleft into a formidable nullah.  On the right, flat
house-tops of a walled native village overlooked the terrace, with its
inviting group of trees, beneath which breakfast was in preparation.
On the left another elevation, crowned with huts; behind them an open
field, sloping to a ten-foot wall; and above the wall the ubiquitous
watch-tower of the Border glowered like a frown upon the face of peace.
The impedimenta of the little force,--transport, field-hospital, and
camp-followers,--still trailed along a narrow lane leading from the
_kotal_[1] over which they had come, to the terrace itself.  Already
grey films of wood-smoke soared, plume-like, into the blue; and the air
at ten of the morning was still keen with the sharpness of a small
frost at high altitudes.

"Not half a bad place for a picnic," Desmond admitted mentally; though
for several reasons, this man,--who was a Frontier soldier by instinct
and heritage,--would scarcely have chosen it himself.

But stringent military precautions were no part of the programme:
Norton's escort of half a squadron, two guns, and five hundred Sikhs
and Punjabis, being little more than a necessary appendage to a
peaceful visitation.  Such commonplaces of Frontier government as the
enforcing of a fine, and the choosing of a site for an outpost manned
by friendly tribesmen, was unlikely to cause friction or stir up
strife; and Norton, standing apart from the group of officers in khaki,
was listening politely to Nussar Ali Khan and his friends,--some half a
dozen Maliks from the fortified villages scattered among the hills.
Spare, muscular men, all of them, in peaked caps and turbans,
sheep-skin coats, and voluminous trousers, girded by the formidable
Pathan belt, with its pouches, dagger, and straight-handled sword;
their bearded faces lighted up, as they talked, by flashes of white
teeth; most of them towering half a head above the squarely-built
Englishman, with the jaw of a bull-dog and the eyes of a hawk, who
understood their language, their strange mingling of courage and
cruelty, of simplicity and cunning, as a man only understands that to
which he has devoted a lifetime of labour and thought.

Lower down, under the lee of the village wall, a local _jirgah_[2] sat
watching the influx of troops with non-committal indifference, waiting
to come forward and protest their devotion to the White Queen and the
Burra Sahib; their entire readiness to be bound over by the Maliks'
proposals, and, in effect, to behave themselves till next time!  The
utmost guarantee of good conduct that will ever be wrung out of the
lawless sons of the North-western hills.

"It is enough, Khan Sahib," Norton said at length, cutting short a
string of compliments that he knew by heart.  "Let the _jirgah_ come to
me and make their statement while breakfast is preparing."

But the Khan, indicating with a sweep of his arm the limitless time at
their disposal, declared that a matter so trifling could very well wait
till the Presence and the officer Sahibs had refreshed themselves.

"It is well known among our people, Hazúr," he concluded, "that your
Honour regardeth not food or rest when work remaineth to be done.  But
the matter hath already been peacefully settled with these men.
Moreover, there be the officer Sahibs also, desiring breakfast; and my
son hath commanded everything of the best for your Honour's reception:
even wood and grass in abundance, that labour might be spared."

Having struck camp before six that morning, Norton needed no further
pressing: and ten minutes later the eight Englishmen were breakfasting
heartily on provisions that atoned in quantity for lack of quality.

Besides Desmond and the Gunners, the Deputy Commissioner, who knew how
to pick his men, had secured Unwin and Montague with the Sikhs, a smart
subaltern with the Punjab Infantry, and Courtenay as medical officer.
Behind them, sepoys and sowars, keeping their arms by Colonel
Montague's orders, smoked or slept at their ease.  Sentries had been
told off; pickets posted in front and rear; the screw guns unlimbered,
and stationed with their infantry escort on rising ground at the far
end of the field.  Scattered groups of villagers, appearing on walls
and house-tops and on the hill to the left, squatted on their heels,
watching the mild tamasha with evident interest, and exchanging broad
sallies of wit with the sepoys by way of adding flavour to the
entertainment.

Pipes, cigars, and a pleasant sense of wellbeing followed the meal.

"I congratulate you, Norton," Montague remarked between pulls at a
stumpy briar that was consoling him for muscular fowl and curried
leather.  "Your Wolves of the Khanigoram are behaving like
Sunday-school children at a prize giving!  We can fix the site for the
post when we've rested a bit longer, and start back this afternoon, eh?"

"Yes, by all means.  I have only to settle matters with the _jirgah_."

"Thank goodness, I'm booked for first leave," the other continued
conversationally.  He was a plump, well-cared-for little man, hampered
by half a dozen boys and girls clamouring for education at home, and
was beginning to lose his taste for scratch picnics across the Border.
"This sort of thing sets one hankering for the hills.  I suppose you
won't be doing wonders up Tibet way this year, Lenox?  Metal more
attractive, and all that sort of thing, eh?"

"Yes, I shall stick to the Battery for the present," Lenox answered,
ignoring the playful allusion: and Richardson, detecting annoyance in
the tone, put in his own oar deftly enough.

"Unwin's the lucky beggar.  When do you sail, old chap?"

"To-day fortnight, praise the powers!  No more dancing attendance on
Waziris for eighteen good months to come."  He stretched his cramped
legs contentedly.  "Those Johnnies on the wall seem to be getting bored
with our show.  We ought to have brought a couple of banjos along to
amuse their majesties!"

It was true.  Gradually, by twos and threes, the villagers were melting
away: and Desmond, who was leaning against a tree trunk close to
Norton, helmet tilted over his nose, apparently half asleep, touched
the civilian's arm.

"I say, Norton," he said under his breath.  "Take your oath it's all
square?"

Norton looked round sharply.

"My dear man, we've eaten their food.  Ever know a Pathan commit a
breach of hospitality?"

"No.  But it looks queer."

For by now their audience had practically disappeared.  The village
wall was empty, save for one crouching figure, that sprang suddenly and
silently to its full height, and brandished a bared sword: the blade
flashing like a helio in the strong light.

"What's the _mutlub_[3] of that theatrical interlude?" Richardson
demanded with a laugh; and was answered by a signal shot from the
watch-tower behind.

In a flash all eight of them were on their feet: Montague and Lenox
shouting to their men to 'fall in.'

The order was obeyed with incredible promptness.  But the Waziris had
the advantage of playing a prepared game; and before the officers had
time to disperse a murderous fire was poured upon them from all sides
at once: from the village, the watch-tower, and the huts on the left.
Swift as magic the walls bristled with picked marksmen, armed with
matchlocks, Winchesters, and Martini Henry's stolen from Border
sentries: and it was clear that the enemy held the nullah in great
strength.

"Massacre, by God!" Desmond muttered between his teeth as he dodged a
whizzing bullet, while a second glanced off his brass buckle, and
buried itself in the tree behind him.

Colonel Montague, advancing to meet his men, who came forward at the
double, fell, mortally wounded, with two bullets through his body.  He
staggered to his feet; only to fall again, face downward, as Desmond
and Courtenay hurried up to him, and--covered by the fire of his
Sikhs--carried him into comparative safety behind a stack of
_bhusa_,[4] within reach of the ambulance; his bugler following close
at their heels.

"I'm done for," he panted, as they laid him down.  "Make the best job
you can of me; and prop me . . against the stack.  I'll direct
operations . . while I can . . hold out."

There was clearly nothing else to be done; and while Courtenay obeyed
the dying man's injunctions, Desmond made haste to join his own sowars,
who were already doing smart work with their rifles, under Ressaldar
Rajinder Singh.

By now the din was terrific.  It was as if a special department of hell
had been suddenly opened up.  Firing had become general from all the
surrounding hills; for an attack of this kind, once started, speedily
degenerates into a matter of _ghazá_.[5]  Every moment brought fresh
reinforcements to the Waziris; every moment their fire grew hotter; and
every moment, through the rattle of musketry and the yells of the
tribesmen, came the deep-throated duet of the sturdy little screw-guns
under the wall, as they pitched shell after shell into the nullah, from
whose depths a hidden foe responded with pitiless accuracy and vigour.

For, simultaneously with Montague's advance, Lenox and Richardson had
doubled to their guns through a hailstorm of humming, leaping bullets.
One, passing through Lenox's coat-sleeve, grazed his upper arm; while a
second struck Richardson's breast-pocket, and was only prevented from
wounding him mortally by a pad of first-aid bandages which Courtenay
had served out to him, in joke, two days earlier.  Reaching the guns
unscathed, they found the gunners at their posts, the infantry escort
blazing merrily and effectively at the marksmen on the wall: and at
once opened fire on the nullah with case-shot and shell.

But their height and exposed position rendered them too conspicuous to
be missed for long by an enemy whose skill in picking off British
officers makes the little wars of the Frontier such cruelly costly
affairs.  In less than two minutes, a burning pain near his
shoulder-blade told Lenox he was hit.  But not being disabled, he paid
small heed to so trivial an incident at the time.  The incessant firing
took up all his attention.

Before ten minutes were out, shells, case-shot, and shrapnel had all
been exhausted.  The Mahsuds were firing more steadily than ever; and
on the terrace itself, the infantry and sowars were in no enviable
case.  Unwin had fallen, shot through the head.  Montague had
momentarily succumbed to pain and exhaustion; and Desmond, with little
Martin of the Punjab Infantry and a Sikh Subadar, was in command of
affairs.

Sudden faintness, and a damp discomfort down his back, warned Lenox
that his wound must be bleeding more freely than he knew.  He gripped
the shoulder of a gunner standing near him; and for an instant all
things swam together before his eyes.

"Look, Captain Sahib, look!  There be fresh men on the hill."

The voice of the Havildar Major in his ear steadied his senses: and he
saw the new danger that threatened.  Down the steep hillside at their
right rear, a compact body of men leapt cautiously from cover to cover;
an occasional glint of sunlight on a sword-blade revealing their
probable intent.

"I say, Dick, those devils'll rush the guns if we give 'em half a
chance," he said, turning to his subaltern; and without waiting for an
answer, ordered his escort to cover the hill, and prepare for a volley.

But almost before the command could be obeyed,--with a final leap and a
dull roar, rising to a yell of triumph,--the Waziris were upon them at
close quarters; the front ranks brandishing long knives, the rest armed
with matchlocks and rifles.

The Sikhs stood their ground sturdily: as Sikhs may be trusted to do in
any straits; while the guns, firing over their heads, sent many of the
frenzied fanatics rolling over and over, with yells of a very different
nature.

Then, suddenly . . Lenox never quite knew how it happened . .  he felt
the earth heave under him; some one gripped him from behind: Dick's
tall figure, revolver in hand, interposed between him and the swarming
hillside; and the next instant reeled against him with such violence
that both fell heavily to the ground.  At once their men closed round
them, covering them with their rifles; a Havildar and two gunners
eagerly proffering lengths of turban for bandages, since it was plain
that Richardson's wound in the thigh was no light matter.

Startled and stunned as he was, Lenox righted himself speedily; and
kneeling on one knee, supported his subaltern's shoulders against the
other, while a Havildar roughly bandaged the wounded leg, and bullets
whinged and whirred on all sides of them.

"Dick, you'd no business to be there.  What the devil did you do?"
Lenox asked, a queer vibration in his voice: for it seemed that not
till this moment had he understood the strength of the link that bound
him to the simple-hearted man who was his friend.

"For God's sake don't plague a chap with questions when he's hard hit.
The thing's done; and . ."  Richardson's voice trailed off
inaudible,--"it's better this way . . for her."  Then he roused himself
with an effort.  "We've crushed the brutes, haven't we?"

"Yes.  For the present.  The men behaved splendidly.  Jove! here comes
Norton through the thick of it all.  Orders to clear out, most likely.
If it's that, I wish to hell it had come five minutes sooner."  And
Richardson murmured inarticulate assent.

Norton carried his message in his face.

"The Colonel has rallied a little," he said, after expressing sympathy
and concern for the plight of both officers.  "And he agrees with me
that it is wanton sacrifice of men to hold out any longer.  Only
Courtenay and Martin untouched out of the seven of you; for Desmond's
just had his wrist smashed, poor fellow.  We must get back, as best we
can, by the lane and over the _kotal_.  Desmond has despatched a party
of his sowars to Brownlow, of your corps, for reinforcements of men and
ammunition.  His post is only nine miles off, and we can push along in
that direction.  Now I must get back to the Colonel.  I'll let
Courtenay know he's wanted: and send a stretcher along."

With his departure, began the desperate business of dismembering guns
and loading mules under a sharp fire; gunners, drivers, and native
officers vieing with each other in carrying off the wounded, repulsing
hand-to-hand attacks, and in many individual acts of gallantry.  While
limbering up the guns a mule was shot, and two wheels rolled down the
slope.  The Havildar in charge sped after them, through pattering
bullets; returning with seventy-two pounds of solid metal hanging from
each arm.  But even as he flung them down in triumph, he rolled over,
with a bullet through his chest: while Richardson's orderly staggered
past, carrying the gun itself, a matter of two hundred pounds.  Such
amazing feats can flesh and blood achieve under the spur of momentary
exaltation.

And at last,--despite the catastrophe of a stampede among the
ammunition and ambulance mules, which left them poorer by four thousand
rounds and their field hospital,--the preliminaries were accomplished.
Covered by the sharp rifle practice of the infantry and sowars, men,
animals, and stretchers retired, without precipitation or disorder,
along the narrow lane, bounded by stone walls and rugged hills swarming
with a jubilant enemy.  For at the first signs of evacuation the
Mahsuds came out in greater numbers; harrying and pressing in upon the
dogged little column on all sides, yet rarely offering a mark for
riflemen; their lithe bodies and marvellous activity enabling them to
find cover almost anywhere.

It was heart-breaking work: for, in the soldier's vocabulary, there is
no more unwelcome word than retreat; notwithstanding the fact that a
retreat which covers all ranks with honour and glory is perhaps the
finest achievement possible in the great game of war.  Certain it is
that the progress of Norton's broken escort through that veritable
death-trap, to the _kotal_ where a second stand might prove feasible,
was carried out by officers and men with the indomitable coolness and
spirit that converts failure into 'an honourable form of victory.'

It is such crises which test the mettle of our native troops: adding
fresh proof, if more were needed, of the magnificent fighting material
that India has given into our hands.  For Colonel Montague had again
lost consciousness; and Martin having been shot in the calf as he
entered the lane, the task of carrying out all the details of the
retirement fell upon the senior Native officer, Subadar Hira Singh,
under Desmond's orders.  He and Norton, bearing the joint burden of
responsibility, kept close together.  The surface cynicism of the
civilian had been burnt up in the fire of healthy savage action; and at
odd moments, when ordinary speech was possible, his admiration for the
conduct of all concerned vented itself in disjointed ejaculations of
approval that warmed the cavalryman's heart.

"Wait till I make out my report of all this," he said on one occasion.
"Be sure you Piffers will get all the kudos you deserve."

And five minutes later, he fell--shot through the body--into Desmond's
arms.

"Nothing . . nothing serious," he protested, while his face wried with
pain.  "Don't delay matters . . on my account.  I can pull along
somehow, if you'll give me an arm."

But they got him on to a stretcher, none the less; and Courtenay did
all he could till a definite halt was possible.

"Bad . . is it?" the civilian asked coolly, noting the concern in the
other's eyes.  "Well, a man might do worse than die . . . like a
soldier.  But by God, I'll hang on to life somehow,--till I can draft
out my report."

And hang on to life he did, in defiance of mortal pain, with a tenacity
worthy of his bull-dog jaw.

At the foot of the _kotal_, Desmond called a halt; and the rearguard
under Hira Singh closed up, to hold the enemy in check, that the guns
and wounded might get over in safety before the position should be
finally abandoned.

And now began the toughest bit of fighting the day had yet seen.  For
the Waziris closed with the Sikhs and Punjabis in overwhelming numbers;
exchanging the clatter of musketry for the clash of steel, the
sickening thud of blows given and received.  But neither numbers nor
cold steel availed to break up that narrow wall of devoted men.  With
each gap in their ranks, they merely closed in, and fought the more
fiercely: Hira Singh, with his brother the Jemadar, and a score of
unconsidered heroes, flinging away their lives with less of hesitation
than they would have flung away a handful of current coin, to gain time
for those whose safety hung upon their power of resistance.

At last,--when all had passed over the small hill behind them,--came
the order to fall back: and not till that moment had any man among them
yielded a foot of space to the persistent foe, who now pressed after
them; and, with renewed jubilations and flutterings of green standards,
occupied every available position on the surrounding hills.

For two interminable hours the dreary game went on; till six ridges,
that climbed to a commanding plateau, had been held and abandoned
through shortage of ammunition.  But thanks to the steadiness of the
rearguard, and to their leader's genius for the art of war, no further
lives were lost; no further advantage gained by the Waziris; and at
length, heart-weary and leg-weary, they reached the plateau itself, to
find Brownlow,--with shot and shell, and two hundred Sikhs thirsting
for battle,--already there before them, having covered the nine miles
in one and a half hours.

Perhaps only a soldier who has drunk his cup of blood and fire to the
dregs, knows the strange mingling of emotions packed into that little
word 'relieved': and assuredly none but a soldier could enter into the
joy with which Lenox stood swaying dizzily beside his beloved guns,
while he and Brownlow pitched eight-and-twenty shells into the
fortified village below the last one, to their shameless satisfaction,
lighting on the mosque itself, and lifting the Mullah, with his green
flag of victory, twenty feet into the air.


It was a more or less damaged and dejected party of five which
assembled in the small mess tent that night.

So much had been lost, so little gained by the day's disaster: an
epitome of too many 'regrettable incidents' beyond the Border.  The
costliest item of Frontier defence is this unavoidable waste of the
lives of picked soldiers.  The Sikhs had lost heavily in Native
officers and men.  Colonel Montague had succumbed to his wounds during
the retirement.  Norton and Richardson, both too severely hurt to
appear at mess, were officially in hospital,--that is to say, on
stretchers in two field service tents: and three out of the five men at
the mess table had brought away superfluous mementoes of Waziri
marksmanship.

Lenox himself had suffered more from loss of blood than from the flesh
wound in his shoulder, which was not a serious affair; and to Desmond's
broken wrist had been added a disfiguring slash across his cheek.  No
doubt orders and commendation awaited them: but their elation at the
prospect was hushed by the very present shadow of death.  For the
soldier, inured as he is, does not count death a little thing.  He
cannot, any more than the rest of us, 'go out of the warm sunshine
easily.'  And the thought of Montague's wife and children, of Unwin's
'No more dancing attendance on Waziris,' intruded unsought, breaking
the thread of common speech.

No doubt, also, Desmond and Lenox were thinking, manlike, of their own
wives; and thanking God for wounds that would only let loose the
woman's divine reserves of tenderness, her passion for 'mothering' the
man she loves.  Once during the evening they exchanged a glance of
comprehension,--the freemasonry of those who love,--and the same
question sprang simultaneously to their minds.  "How about poor Norton?
Would the news bring that wife of his back to Dera Ishmael in the last
week of March?"  And Desmond decided that if it did not, Norton must be
persuaded to put up with them, and submit to Honor's ministrations, in
whose power to soothe and bless he had the faith of a little child, or
of a great man; for the two are so nearly allied as to be almost
identical.

As for Norton himself, he was too much engrossed in the painful task of
'hanging on to life' to trouble his head about any other matter.  The
news of his serious hurt spread through the neighbouring villages as
news only speeds in India, without help of post or wire: and when, on
the following morning, a deputation of friendly Khans waited upon the
Burra Sahib, to express their sorrow and shame at so flagrant a breach
of the great Border law of hospitality, and to offer help with the
bringing in of dead bodies, Norton insisted on receiving them, propped
up on a chair: a broken, but unconquered remnant of the man whom they
had feared, and loved, and obeyed, with that mixture of independence
and loyal allegiance which is perhaps England's greatest triumph in
India.

But all his courage could not conceal the truth from their eyes: and
with one accord, these hardened men--who had no regard for death in the
abstract, and an unlimited veneration for strength in any form--bowed
themselves at the Englishman's feet, and wept like children.

"Oh, Sahib, . . Father of the District, . . this is an evil thing that
hath befallen," the oldest among them wailed, in deep-toned
lamentation.  "How will it be with us who have so long been ruled by
your wisdom, when the light of your Honour's countenance is withdrawn?
And whom will the _Sirkar_[6] send us in thy stead?"

"In less than a month the Sirkar will send fire and sword," Norton
answered sternly.  "Smoking villages, and blackened crops.  A gift for
a gift, a blow for a blow, is straight dealing.  But for one life taken
yesterday the _Sirkar_ will exact ten: of that ye may rest assured."

"Nay, but let it not be forgotten, Hazúr, that we, who are present, be
men of one word, true to our salt; not as those murderers, upon whom
the wrath of Allah will be poured out like water, even upon the
man-child at the breast, for yesterday's black work."

Which comfortable prediction Norton received with rather a bitter
smile.  It did not square with his own experience of the ironical
tangle men call Life.  But for all that, it is possible that, in his
extremity, he envied these savage Sons of the Prophet their faith in
the rough justice of Allah's dispensations.



[1] Hill.

[2] Tribal council.

[3] Meaning.

[4] Chopped straw.

[5] Fanatical slaughter.

[6] Government.




CHAPTER XXIX.

  "The man was my whole world, all the time,
  With his flowers and praise, and his weeds to blame;
  And either, or both, to love."
        --Browning.


The Father of the District never saw his unruly children again; nor did
Mrs Dudley Norton ever return to Dera Ishmael Khan.  The telegram he
despatched to her on arrival, made light of his wound, and its possible
result; perhaps because pride urged him to take the initiative rather
than submit to the culminating proof of her total detachment from him;
perhaps because he shrewdly guessed that she could not reach him in
time.

It had needed all the reserves of strength that are the reward of clean
and temperate living, to keep him alive throughout the return marches.
Yet the feat was accomplished, and his official report--a lucid,
vigorous bit of work--drawn up in full; with the result that, in
leisurely course of time--a mere trifle of seven months or so after the
event--there appeared in the 'Army Gazette' the names of Major Desmond,
V.C., Captain Lenox, C.I.E., and Lieutenant Richardson, as officers on
whom her Majesty had been graciously pleased to bestow the
Distinguished Service Order.  The principal Native officers, whose
gallantry had been so notable a feature of that grim day's work,
received the coveted Order of Merit; Hira Singh and his brother being
gazetted, though killed, that their widows might draw a larger pension.
For England is rarely unmindful of her heroes; notwithstanding her
superb dilatoriness in honouring the men who risk death and disablement
for the maintenance of her scattered Empire.

With the completion of the report, on which his heart was set, the will
to live deserted Dudley Norton.  To drop in harness was, as he had said
to Quita, a kinder fate than the dismal disintegration of a loveless
old age; and the loosening of his grip on life brought reaction sharp
and sudden, from which he never rallied again.

His death, following close upon that of the two Sikh officers, cast a
temporary gloom over the station; and on the occasion of its
announcement, the two chief papers of Upper India broke out into
journalistic eulogies on the notable qualities of the man's work and
character; extolling his strength and breadth of purpose and of view;
his daring disregard for red-tape and all the paraphernalia of
mechanical officialdom; and above all, his remarkable hold upon the
Frontier tribes; administering, too late--with true human
perversity--the praise that had been so grudgingly dealt out to him
when ambition was at its height, when a word or two of generous
recognition would have atoned in some measure for the failure and
embitterment of his private life.  Finally, they commiserated with the
man on whom would devolve the insuperable task of replacing a Dudley
Norton.

He arrived in due course:--a stop-gap from an obscure down-country
station; a man of hide-bound conventionalism, who brought with him
three children and a washed-out, subdued-looking wife, and who spoke
magnanimously of Norton as "a clever fellow, of course, but deplorably
casual officially."  With such haphazard shifting of pawns on the
chess-board is the momentous game of Empire played.  Yet long after
Dudley Norton's name had been almost forgotten by the overtasked,
fluctuating world of Anglo-India, it still remained a household word
among the Mahsud Waziris, whose brothers in blood had so treacherously
taken his life.


And while Norton lay dying at the Desmonds' bungalow, Richardson was
established under his friend's roof as a matter of course.  For this is
India: the land of the Good Samaritan, as those who have lived there
longest know best.  It has been well said that "an Englishman's house
in India is not his castle, but a thousand better things--a casual
ward, a convalescent home, a rest-house for the strayed traveller; and
he himself is the steward of it merely."  That this is no exaggeration
but simple fact, Quita had already seen; and now, when she herself was
called upon to obey the unwritten law of her husband's country and
service, Lenox noted, with a throb of pride, that for all her artist's
tendency to shrink from pain and suffering, she rose to the situation
like a high-mettled horse to a fence.

On their first evening together, when Dick, under the merciful
influence of morphia, had forgotten pain in sleep, Lenox spoke to her
of the thought that troubled his mind.

He was lying back luxuriously in his deep chair--the wounded shoulder
and left arm scientifically bandaged--while Quita hovered about him, or
knelt at his side; her every tone and gesture, and the misty shining of
her eyes, enveloping him in so exquisite an atmosphere of tenderness
that, like Stevenson, Lenox felt inclined to vote for separations (not
to say wounds) when they were both safely over!

"Come here a minute, darling," he said at length, drawing her down
beside him.  "I want to tell you about Dick.  There's no getting at the
rights of it, of course.  He won't say a word himself; and I went all
to pieces for the moment.  I only know that when the firing was
hottest, he managed to cross in front of me; that the bullet in his leg
ought by rights to have gone into mine; and it's quite bad enough to
know that."

Quita's eyes swam in sudden tears.  "I always thought him a dear
fellow," she said softly.  "Just a dear fellow; not much more.  But
now--one begins to admire your 'Dick.'"

Lenox nodded.  "You never quite know what stuff a fellow's made of till
he gets his chance."

But Quita, crouching lower, had bowed her forehead upon his hand.

"What is it, lass?" he asked; and when she looked up, not only her
lashes, but her cheeks were wet.

"Eldred, am I hideously wicked?" she faltered.  "I was--I was thanking
God that he _did_ take his chance.  Think--if it _had_ been you!  _Am_
I wicked?"

He drew her close, and kissed her.  "Hardly that, dearest.  Only very
human."

"But there's no danger, is there?  No permanent damage done?"

"No.  Mercifully the bullet only grazed the bone.  He may have a week
of fever, and a slow convalescence; but you'll not grudge the trouble
of nursing him, after what I've told you."

"I'd never have done that.  And now,"--she rose to her feet, her eyes
kindling,--"now it will be a privilege.  Oh, I'll be ever so good to
him," she added under her breath.

And for the next three weeks--being, as she had said, a creature of
extremes--she was so uniformly and enchantingly 'good to him' that
those long days of fever, pain, and enforced idleness were among the
most delectable Max Richardson had ever known, or ever wished to know;
that, in truth, each landmark on the road back to health and duty could
no longer be regarded with that unmixed satisfaction common to the
masculine invalid.

But Richardson was too little capable of analysis to be troubled by
this wrong-headed state of things, or to detect the hidden seed from
which his flower of contentment sprang.  Mrs Lenox was astonishingly
kind to him, and quite the most charming companion a sick man could
desire: that was all.

His sharp bout of fever once over, she sang to him, read to him, argued
with him on a quaint variety of subjects, enlarging his mental horizon,
drawing out thoughts and opinions at whose existence he had never
guessed till now.  But for him the hidden charm of their intercourse
lay less in what she said or sang, than in the vibrations of her voice;
in the quick response of lips and eyes to her April changes of mood;
and more than all in her unfailing spirit of humour, which broke up the
monotone of days spent in a long chair as a prism breaks white light
into a band of brilliant colours.  For Quita's genius was not of the
highly specialised order.  It did not inhabit an air-tight compartment
of her brain where pictures grew.  It pervaded her whole personality.
It was not merely a genius for art, but for living, for being vital,
for seeing and feeling and doing all that it is possible to see and
feel and do in the sum of man's threescore years and ten.  Small wonder
then if Max Richardson enjoyed his convalescence, and was in no hurry
to complete the process.

As for Quita, she was unconsciously slipping back to her favourite
pastime, to that alluring compound of friendship and etherealised
flirtation which she had likened to fencing with the buttons off the
foils.  The outcome of her last fencing-bout might have awakened
glimmerings of caution in a less reckless offender.  But Richardson was
not to be named in the same day with James Garth; and in his case it
was less a matter of fencing than of 'two heads bending over the same
board till they touch, and the thrill passes between them'; a dangerous
variation of the same amusement.  The two heads had not touched as yet.
In all probability they never would.  But prophecy is unsafe where the
human heart is in question: and as the month slipped by, and Eldred's
reabsorption in the Battery and the hated articles left them constantly
alone together, Quita grew genuinely fond of this big, fair man, with
his unruffled sweetness of temper, and lazily smiling eyes.  He
satisfied the lighter elements in her nature as completely as her
husband satisfied its deeper needs; and in truth, so little did one
man's sphere of influence trench upon the other's, that she had almost
been capable of loving both at once; each with a different set of
faculties:--an achievement only possible to that bewildering creation,
the artist woman!

Not that Quita had yet achieved anything so remarkable.  But her
feeling for Richardson, founded upon gratitude and built up by
sympathy, was a real thing; and being singularly free from the taint of
baser clay, she frankly acknowledged the fact, not only to herself but,
on more than one occasion, to her husband, thinking to please him by
her appreciation of his friend.

But man is born to perversity as the sparks fly upward; which is more
than half the reason why he is born to trouble.  Also, perversity
apart, it was early days for a husband, endowed with the normal man's
desire for exclusive possession, to stand the strain of a triangular
household.  Therefore, when Quita, extolling Richardson's patience and
gratitude, remarked for the second time with unguarded fervour, "One
really grows much too fond of the dear fellow," Lenox turned upon her a
straight glance of scrutiny.

"Great luck for him.  Have you ever told him so, I wonder?"

The undernote of sarcasm in his half-bantering tone brought the blood
to her cheeks.  But her manner froze in proportion to her inward heat.

"Am I given to making promiscuous declarations of that sort?"

"Not that I am aware of.  But you have rather original ideas on the
platonic question; and one can never quite tell where you draw the
line."

"I draw it at telling a man I am fond of him," she answered, with a
slight lift of her head.  "Even a man so little likely to misunderstand
one as your Dick."

"Is _that_ what you call him now?"

"I won't answer such a question.  You may think what you please."

Then, in defiance of dignity and pride, her lip quivered, and she came
closer to him.

"Eldred, what makes you say such detestable things?  I thought you
wanted me to be good to him.  Are you--angry with me about it now?"

The touch of hesitancy, so rare in her, disarmed the man, reawakened
his better self; and slipping an arm round her, he crushed her against
him with a force that took away her breath.

"I'm a selfish brute, Quita.  That's all about it," he said bluntly.
"And Dick's the best chap in the world."

She hid her eyes a moment against his coat.  Then straightened herself,
and stood away from him.  "You exaggerate the selfishness, I assure
you," she said, smiling at his gravity of aspect.  "And even if you
didn't, I could forgive that; but not that you should so misunderstand
my whole nature.  Honestly, Eldred, I would almost rather you struck
me."

"Struck you?  Great Scott!"

The amazement in his eyes brought a sparkle into her own.

"Yes, exactly.  That's so like a man!  D'you fancy I don't know that if
you laid your littlest finger on me roughly, in a moment of heat, you'd
never forgive yourself?  Yet you struck something much more sensitive
than my mere body, when you said you couldn't tell where I drew the
line.  I may not have been reared upon copy-book maxims, but I have my
own ideas about the fitness of things; even if they don't coincide with
yours, at least I think I may be trusted not to disgrace you."

"Do you really need to tell me that, Quita?"

"It seems so--after what you said just now."

He frowned.  "You can wipe out what I said just now, lass.  It was
spoken in annoyance."

"Well, please don't say such things again, even in annoyance; or there
will never be any peace between us.  Besides, my dear, they are quite,
quite unworthy of you, and no one knows that better than yourself."

She came closer now, and laying both hands upon him, lifted her face to
his.  Then she left the study, with the seal of reconciliation upon her
lips, and revived assurance in her heart.

But Lenox, drawing out pipe and tobacco-pouch, as he watched her go,
was discomfortably aware that his first attempt at remonstrance had
ended in strategic surrender.  Not only had he failed to dispel the
nameless cloud that hung upon him, but he had managed matters so ill
that now the whole subject must be labelled 'dangerous'; not to be
reopened except under special stress of circumstance.

"She needs riding on the snaffle," was his masculine reflection,
arising from the natural conviction that in all matters of moment the
mastery must rest with him; which was not Quita's view by any means;
and her husband was just beginning to recognise the fact.  He noted, in
spite of her genuine devotion, a curious detachment, mental and moral,
a certain airy evasion of common, womanly responsibility, the free
attitude of the good comrade rather than the wife; inherent tendencies,
fostered and established by the dead years that took their toll at
every turn.

Each week of living with her deepened his conviction that the winning
of the entire woman would be a matter of time and trouble; of acquiring
knowledge in which he was still sadly deficient.  And how infinitely
she was worth it all!  He reminded himself that the first year of
marriage was proverbially difficult; that two pronounced
individualities could not be expected to fuse without a certain degree
of turmoil; and having lighted his pipe, he flung himself into a chair,
and closed his eyes.

For his trouble of mind had a physical basis of which his wife knew
nothing.  His wound, though only keeping him on the sick-list a week,
had given him a good deal of pain, intermittent fever, and broken
nights, which he had made light of that Quita might feel free to devote
herself to Richardson, whose first bout of fever had been severe.  But
when pain and heated blood had subsided, the broken nights remained.  A
crushed habit--let it be never so sternly trodden under--retains its
vitality for an amazing length of time.  Lenox fought the threatened
return of insomnia with every legitimate weapon; spent the greater part
of each night in his study, writing doggedly, or pacing the long room
with mechanical persistence,--to no purpose.

Then, with a stunned incredulity, he realised what was happening.
Stealthily, insistently, the old craving was reasserting its dominion
over him.  He had been prepared for the possibility of its
recrudescence once or twice in the event of illness or mental strain,
before he could count it conquered for good.  But that it should have
come so soon, and upon so slight a provocation, knocked all the heart
out of him; blackened for the time being his whole outlook on life.  In
ordinary circumstances, he would have found it an unspeakable relief to
share the trouble with his wife; to give her the chance she had once so
desired of helping him to fight against it.  But now they were rarely
alone together for long; and her lightly detached attitude tended to
establish rather than dispel his native instinct of reserve.  Moreover,
she was so happily absorbed in ministering to his friend, that he
shrank from shadowing her bright nature with the cloud that darkened
his own;--a mistake arising from his rudimentary knowledge of women.
For an appeal to her deeper sympathies might have wakened her
undeveloped mother instinct; and by drawing them into closer union
might have averted much.  But in the last event, it is 'character that
makes circumstance, and character is inexorable.'

Thus Lenox, lying back in his chair, was still far from recognising his
fundamental error.  He was simply pondering Quita's last words to him,
and endorsing their truth with characteristic honesty.  He had put
himself in the wrong by his manner of broaching the subject; but the
belief in his right to speak of it remained.  He was prepared to put up
with a good deal for Dick, but not for others; and it was beginning to
dawn upon him that Dick was in all likelihood the first of a series;
that only so could her need for varied companionship be satisfied.  An
idea that suggested disturbing contingencies.  His mind reverted to
Garth, to Sir Roger Bennet, and to the nameless unknowns who had
probably bridged the space between.  Since her frank confession of
loyalty at Kajiar, he had refrained from expressing curiosity on the
subject.  But a man cannot always keep his mind from straying into
forbidden places.  "If only she would not treat the whole crew as if
they were her brothers; and favourite brothers at that!" had been his
thought more than once during the past few months.  It was all very
well with Dick,--a gentleman through and through, without a grain of
conceit in him; but there were scores of others who would not
understand.  Garth, for instance, had clearly not understood; and for
her sake, as well as his own, Lenox did not choose that she should
multiply mistakes of that kind.

With a sigh, he drew out his watch, remembering that he had consented
to be one of the judges at the Punjab Infantry sports, in which some of
his own men and Native officers were taking part.  Perhaps Quita would
drive down with him: but he would not press the point.

Her infectious laughter seemed to challenge and rebuke his black mood,
as he opened the drawing-room door to find her taking her patient for a
walking tour, his hand resting on her shoulder; her face alight with
encouragement, looking up into his.  For it was this big man, with his
dependence, and his simplicity of character, who had wakened the mother
spirit in Quita after all; though she was not yet alive to the fact.

They stood still when Lenox appeared, Richardson a little breathless
from some recent effort.

"He tripped over your bear's head, and I saved him from falling!" Quita
explained triumphantly.  "I wanted him to try without the crutch,
because Dr Courtenay takes him in to dinner to-night; and he hardly had
to lean on me at all!"

"I told Mrs Lenox you'd be down on me if I turned her into a
walking-stick," Richardson added in half-laughing apology.  "But she
insisted.  And you know how much chance a fellow has when she insists!"

"Yes--_I_ know," Lenox answered, such depth of conviction in his tone
that Quita laughed again.

"_Mon Dieu_--listen to the man!  One would think I spent half my time
insisting on his doing what he hates; which is a rank libel!  Now, Mr
Richardson, back to your chair, please.  You've done enough for one
while."

Lenox put out a hand to steady him across the room.

"He's going to beat me at picquet now, by way of gratitude," Quita
remarked, shaking out his pillows and settling him in.  "Are _you_ off
anywhere, _mon cher_?"

"Yes: to the P. I. sports.  I'm one of the judges."

"Then it would be quite useless to go with you.  But I'll ride down, if
you like."

Lenox hesitated.  He had seen the shadow of disappointment in his
subaltern's eyes.

"N . . no," he said at length.  "Better stop and play with Dick.  When
I come back I'll get you up into the trap, old man, and take you for a
drive before dinner.  Who's coming, Quita?  Just the Desmonds and
Courtenay?"

"Yes; and the Ollivers."

"I'm glad.  She's good company."

"Which is more than I can say of _him_," Quita remarked, as the door
closed behind her husband.  "And he takes me in.  Poor me!  But you'll
be on the other side; and you must be very kind to me to make up."

He smiled gravely upon her, without replying.  She had established
herself on a low stool fronting him; elbows on knees, hands framing her
face, her fearless eyes searching his own.

"What are you smiling at?" she asked.

"The notion of a great buffer like me being 'kind' to _you_.  It's you
and Lenox who are a long sight too kind to me.  You're spoiling me
between you.  Why didn't you go to the sports with him just now?"

"Because I didn't choose!" she answered sweetly.  "And as for
spoiling,--what else did we have you here for?  The only thing I ask in
return is that you will give up this nonsense about not letting me
paint your portrait.  Will you, please?"

He was silent a moment, tugging at his fair moustache, his eyes
avoiding hers.  Then:

"It wouldn't be worth all the work you'd put into it," he objected with
an uneasy laugh.

"I'm the best judge of that.  Inspiration's been dead in me for months;
and now that you have set the spark ablaze, it's hardly fair or
gracious to fling cold water on the poor thing.  But of course if the
sittings would bore you, now you can move about a bit----"

"Bore me?  Mrs Lenox!"  He looked straight at her now, emphatic denial
in his gaze; and she nodded contentedly, knowing that her point was
gained.

"That's a mercy," she said.  "Put on your service kit to-morrow
morning, and we'll start in earnest.  I'm longing to begin.  But in the
meantime you are generously permitted to beat me at picquet!"


The dinner that evening was, as Quita explained, "Just a family
affair," to celebrate Richardson's good progress, and drink success to
the punitive expedition, which on that very day was filing through the
Gomal Pass into Mahsud territory, to take toll, not only in men's
lives, but 'in steer and gear and stack' for that day of treachery and
black disaster, whose hidden motive still remained a mystery even to
those most intimate with the tribes of the district.

Honor, who had not seen Lenox for nearly a week, was struck by a change
in him, whose significance she understood too well.  The lurking shadow
in his eyes, the bitterness in his tone,--recalling 'bad days' last hot
weather,--so troubled her that she found surface talk and laughter an
effort, and felt grateful to Frank, who could always be counted upon
for more than her share of both.

She rallied him on his gravity, in happy ignorance of the cause.

"Sure ye're just in low water, Captain Lenox," she declared with her
big laugh, "because your dapper little screw guns have been left out of
the show.  You want to be hitting the scoundrels back with your own
shells, eh?"

To which Lenox replied in an undertone of savage conviction that
puzzled Honor.

"You never made a straighter shot, Mrs Olliver.  I'd give five years of
my life to be taking the Battery through the Gomal to-day."

But if Lenox had little to say for himself, Quita was not in the same
dilemma.  In fact, it seemed to Desmond that she talked a little too
daringly, a little too much; and for the first lime he found his
appreciation tinged with criticism.

He had gathered from Lenox that she knew little or nothing of his
hidden trouble; but it struck him that a wife of the right sort (Honor,
for instance) would have guessed the truth by now.  He knew how little
Lenox appreciated the constant influx of men to tea and dinner; and one
or two people--of the social vulture species--had already spoken to him
of her friendship with Richardson in the tone of voice which made
Desmond clench and pocket his fists, lest he should knock them down out
of hand.  He took advantage of his seat next the Gunner to mention,
under cover of general conversation, his anxiety about Lenox's health;
and managed also to take part in most of his talk with Quita throughout
the meal.

She redoubled her friendliness to Richardson by way of flinging down
her gage; whereupon Desmond with admirable _insouciance_ retired from
the lists.  Once or twice her eyes challenged his, half-puzzled,
half-defiant.  Her quick perception detected his critical attitude, and
in her present mood the undernote of antagonism acted as a spur rather
than a check upon the dare-devil strain in her, which was responsible
for her odd mingling of folly and heroic self-devotion.

Before the ladies left the table, the success and thoroughness of the
expedition was proposed with cheers; followed by a second toast, drunk
in silence, to the memory of the three men who had been alive in their
midst less than a month ago: and later in the evening--when the
Ollivers, Richardson, and Courtenay were absorbed in whist, and Honor
had gone out with Lenox into the garden, where a late moon was
rising--Desmond lured Quita to the piano at the far end of the room by
asking her to sing.

At the close of the second song, he leaned his elbow on the top of the
instrument, and stood so, searching her face with such discomposing
directness that a burning wave of colour submerged her, and she dropped
her eyes.

"I don't believe you ever criticised me till to-night, Major Desmond,"
she murmured, striking soft chords at random with her left hand.

"Not since I really came to know you," he answered in the same tone.
"You have never given me cause."

"Well--I don't like it."

"Few of us do.  You prefer indiscriminate admiration?"

The flush deepened, but she looked up.

"I prefer your approval to your disapproval," she said, still moving
her hand over the notes.  "But I have always gone my own way; and I
warn you that nothing rouses the devil in me like being scolded or
dictated to."

"My dear Quita, I have no right nor wish to do either.  I only want to
ask you a question or two--if I may?"

"What about?"

"Your husband.  He won't consult Courtenay; and I am getting anxious.
Would you mind telling me about how much sleep he has had this last
week?"

She shrugged her shoulders.

"As far as I know he hardly ever comes to bed at all."

"Quita, you are exaggerating!"

"I only mean, it's no use asking me for accurate information."

"But do you know that insomnia's a serious thing--especially for him?"

"Yes.  I made a fuss when he first began working late.  It's bad for
him and a nuisance for me.  But I have given that up now.  He's as
obstinate as I am about going his own way.  It's almost the only
quality we share in common."

"Don't you feel it might be worth trying again?"

"Possibly.  If _you_ think I ought."

Desmond's eyes twinkled at the implied compliment.

"I do think it."

She sighed.

"Oh, well,--I don't promise, and we've had enough of the dismal subject
for now.  One never seems allowed to enjoy one's self in peace.  D'you
want more music, or--would you prefer whist?"

"I'm to cut in, and leave Richardson free.  Is that it?"

The blush that still burned in her cheeks spread slowly over her neck
to the soft lace at her breast; and the man felt that in his momentary
vexation he had struck too hard.  Then her eyes flashed fire into his.

"Major Desmond, if you begin saying things like that to me--I shall
_hate_ you."

"No, Quita.  It'll never be that between us.  I apologise.  But you
know I care immensely for your husband, and it angers me to see
you--apparently indifferent . . ."

"Indifferent?  How _dare_ you . . . ?" she breathed low and
passionately, her breath coming in small gasps.

"I understand.  But I'm not sorry I roused you.--Here comes Honor.  I
know she wants to get home early.  Good-night to you.  Am I forgiven?"

"No.  But you will be--to-morrow morning.  I believe one could forgive
you almost anything."

"I'll not be base enough to take advantage of such a generous
admission," he answered, smiling and grasping her hand.

Lenox, with a keen glance at his wife's face, followed the Desmonds
into the verandah, and helped Honor into her seat.

"You'll keep your promise, won't you?" she pleaded.  "And go straight
to bed without even looking into your study.  Never mind if the lamp
burns there all night.  You can charge me for the kerosene!"

"That's a bargain then," he answered, laughing.  "It's like old times
to have _you_ laying commands on me again!"

"Not only to-night, remember: a whole week of nights and more."

"Trust me.  I have promised.  Good-night, Mrs Desmond, and thank you."

As the dog-cart turned into the open road, Honor spoke: "Theo, if she
lets him go to pieces again . . . I shall never, never forgive her."

There was a break in her low voice, and Desmond slipping a hand through
her arm, pressed it close against him.

"You dear blessed woman, no fear of that.  She cares,--with all her
heart.  But there are faults and difficulties on both sides; and I'm
afraid they have still a lot of rough ground to get over before they
settle into their stride."

And Quita, the perverse, Quita, the inconsistent, cried herself to
sleep that night upon her husband's shoulder.




CHAPTER XXX

"Hearts are like horses; they come and go without whip or spur."
        --_Native Proverb_.


"Only ten minutes more; a bare ten minutes.  Then you shall 'ease off'
and stretch your legs a little.  I'm sure by this time you must be
wishing all artists at the bottom of the sea!"

"N-no; I haven't got quite as far as that yet," Richardson answered
with lazy good-humour, flicking the ash off his cigar.

"You will, though, before I've done with you!  I know I have been
exacting to-day, for the eyes are the crux of a portrait.  Unless the
individual soul looks out of them, it's a dead thing.  D'you know, I
once told Eldred that yours were like bits of sea water with sunbeams
caught in them; and the effect isn't easy to produce on canvas.  But
I'm succeeding--I'm succeeding _à merveille_.  That's why I must get
the effect while my hand is in; and you've not once hampered me by
looking bored or impatient.  How is one to reward you for such angelic
behaviour?"

"There are ways and ways.  Am I allowed to choose?"

"Perhaps,--within limits!  But we'll discuss that when I can give my
mind to the subject.  Now, your head a little more to the right,
please.  That's better.  You get out of position when you talk."

"Sorry.  I may lean back though, mayn't I?"

"Why, of course!  I only wonder you don't get up and throw the chair at
my head!"

He laughed and leaned back accordingly, blowing an endless chain of
smoke-rings, and watching her face, her supple slenderness, the deft
movements of her hand, with a contentment whose vital ingredients he
either could not or would not recognise--yet.

For a full week he had spent many hours of each day in smoking and
watching her thus; and the fact that he had never yet found the
occupation monotonous was a danger-signal in itself.  But your
comfort-loving man is singularly obtuse in the matter of
danger-signals: and loyalty apart, Richardson was too genuinely devoted
to his friend to admit the possibility of that which was almost an
accomplished fact.  The man was not built for high tragedy; and, in
truth, the sittings were an equal pleasure to him when Lenox joined
them, as he often did; the two men smoking and talking horses or their
beloved 'shop,' while Quita worked and listened, and interrupted
without scruple whenever the spirit moved her.

Yet beneath the smooth-seeming surface of things Lenox was more than
ever aware of her curious detachment, of a disturbing sense that his
hold over her was still an imperfect thing.  Nor was he altogether
mistaken.  Quita had not yet learned to give herself royally.  The fact
that she had put her heart and life into the hands of the man she loved
did not prevent her from going her own way; from feeling--as she had
always felt--responsible to herself alone for her words and actions.

And the past week had seemed to emphasise these idiosyncrasies;
because, at the first mysterious breath of inspiration, the submerged
artist in her had risen again with power, had, for the time being,
dominated her,--body and soul: and she may surely be forgiven if the
'world-lifting joy' of creation swept her off her feet; if she had eyes
and thoughts for little else save the picture coming to life under her
hand.  Perhaps it needs an artist, one who has felt the Divine breath
stir a spark into a flame, rightly to understand and make allowance for
such spiritual intoxication.  Michael,--shallow-hearted egoist though
he might be,--would have understood: because he was an artist.  But
Lenox, being simply a man and a soldier, found it difficult to
distinguish between her absorption in the picture and in the subject of
the picture; difficult to realise her momentary freedom from the
personal equation.

What with incessant sittings, and equally incessant people to tea and
dinner, he had little intimate speech of her in the daytime; and in the
long hours of wakefulness as he lay beside her listening to her even
breathing, he faced the fact that his growing irritability was due to
jealousy;--not the jealousy that doubts or suspects,--of that he was
incapable; but the primitive man's demand for exclusive possession of
his own.  Probably Desmond, in such a case, would have lost his temper
and cleared the air in half an hour.  But temperament is destiny: and
Lenox was not so made.  He merely shut the door upon the evil thing;
and tried--not very successfully--to ignore its existence.  And with
three evil spirits in possession of him, it is not surprising if at
times he gave place to the devil.

Of all this Quita was airily unaware.  Since he had given up coming to
bed at unearthly hours, she concluded that he slept.  Mixed motives had
held him silent in regard to the threatening shadow of opium, even
during her moment of collapse and self-reproach after the expedition
dinner; and of his dawning jealousy he was at once too ashamed and too
proud to speak.

This morning his repressed irritability had been more marked than
usual; and Quita had decided that once free from her enthralling
picture, she must devote herself definitely to 'cheering him up.'  But
for the present she discouraged troublesome thoughts; and now, while
Richardson sat smoking and watching her, she was conscious of nothing
on earth save the exhilaration of success.

She let fall both hands at last, with a sigh of supreme satisfaction.

"There!  I can do no more to it--for the present.  You are released.
You may come and look."

He obeyed; and stood beside her lost in uncomprehending admiration of
her skill.

It was Quita who spoke first.  "We have achieved a rather remarkable
bit of work between us, you and I."

"We?" he echoed in amaze.  "I don't quite see where I come in."

"No: you wouldn't: and I'm afraid I can't enlighten you.  But the fact
remains.  Would you mind if I sent it to the Academy, just as a
Portrait of a Soldier?"

"The Academy?  Good Lord!  I should be proud."

"Thank you.  I believe they'll hang it; and hang it well.  That will be
_my_ reward.  But what about yours?"

She looked up at him now, letting her eyes rest confidently in his: and
the glad light in them held him, dazzled him, so that he forgot to
answer her; forgot much that he ought to have remembered, in the
flashlight of a revelation so simple yet so astounding that it took him
several seconds to understand what had befallen him.

"Well?" she asked, smiling.  "Is it so tremendous?"  And the spell was
broken.  But reality remained.

He felt something in him throb strangely; the pain of it melting into a
glow more startling than the first shock; and with an awkward laugh he
turned abruptly away from her;--too abruptly, as a twinge in his left
leg gave warning, so that the laugh ended in an involuntary sound of
pain.

"Mr Richardson, do be careful," she reproved him gently.  "What has
come to you?  And why do you go off like that without answering my
question?"

For he had crossed to the mantelpiece; and a photo of her portrait of
Lenox seemed to be absorbing his attention.  Nor did he take his eyes
from it in speaking.

"Because--well, because it struck me that perhaps you wouldn't be so
keen about rewarding me,--if you knew . . . ."

"What?  _Is_ there anything to know?"

"Yes: worse luck.  I ought to have spoken sooner.  But I shirked it,
especially after what you said out driving.  You remember--that
letter--long ago?"

"Am I likely to forget?  What about it?"

This time he faced her deliberately, though the blood mounted to his
forehead.

"I am the chap who wrote it.  I'm the man you have been hating all
these years; the man you _hate still_."

She came a step closer and stood gazing at him blankly, reorganising
her sensations.

"You wrote it?  _You_?"

"Yes; I."

"But did you really know anything about me, or about Sir Roger Bennet?"

"Nothing on earth.  I was simply repeating idle gossip."

"Oh, how could you!  And look what came of it.  The years of bitterness
and estrangement----!"  He winced under her passionate reproach.

"It was done in ignorance, remember; though, as you reminded me not
long since, that doesn't soften facts.  Slang me; hate me for it, if
you must.  It can't be helped."

"But I don't hate you, _mon ami_; I couldn't if I tried for a month."

This was disconcerting.  He had thought to snap the cord of their
friendship, and so make it easier to see less of her in future.

"Not even now you know?" he persisted desperately.  And she shook her
head.

"Yet you told me distinctly that you could never forgive that unlucky
chap."

"But then I never guessed it was _you_," she retorted with true woman's
logic.  "How _could_ one hate you, after what happened last month.
Eldred told me."

"That,"--he shrugged his shoulders,--"that was a mere nothing."

"Excuse me, as men go now it was a good deal.  But still--I am puzzled.
If you shirked telling me all this while, what made you tell me to-day?"

This also was disconcerting.  But he did his best.

"I don't know.  Perhaps it was talking of rewards.  Besides--I'm one of
those clumsy fools who never feel quite comfortable until he has
blurted out the truth."

He tried to laugh, but her direct look broke the sound in his throat.

"I rather admire that kind of fool," she said, with quiet emphasis.
"And you have lost nothing by your folly,--nothing."

"Does that mean you have quite forgiven me?"  For the life of him he
could not stifle the exultation in his tone.

"Quite--quite.  Will that do for your reward?  Shake hands on
it,--please: and I promise never to speak or think of it again."

Before their hands fell apart Lenox entered, and a slight shadow
crossed his face.

"A note for you, Dick," he said quietly.  "The man wants an answer."

Richardson's relief was evident.

"Thanks.  I won't keep him waiting."  And he departed without opening
the envelope.

"Don't be too long; and don't change your coat," Quita called after
him.  "There's some detail work that I might get in before tea."  Then
conscious of gathering storm, she turned hurriedly to her husband.

"What were you and Dick shaking hands about at this time of day!" he
asked as the door closed upon his subaltern.

She had meant to tell him as a matter of course.  But something in his
tone roused her fatal spirit of perversity--and up went her chin into
the air.

"We were striking a bargain.  Have you any objection?"

"No.  Not the smallest.  Would it be any use if I had?"

She paused, weighing the question.

"I don't think it would.  Petty tyranny of that kind is the last thing
I could put up with; the last thing one would expect from you."

"Quite so.  At the same time--marriage means compromise.  You
understand?"

"When a man says that he usually implies that the woman will do most of
the compromising, in order that he may have his own way."

"Within limits, a man has a certain right to his own way in his own
house."

"And generally gets it!" she answered lightly.

Lenox shrugged his shoulders, and going over to the easel, contemplated
in silence the living likeness of his friend: while Quita, watching
him, was increasingly aware of slumbering electricity that might at any
moment break into a lightning-flash of speech.

"It's good.  Don't you think so?" she asked on a tentative note of
conciliation.

"Of course it is.  Damned good," he answered gruffly.

"Eldred!  Even if you _are_ in a bad mood, you might control your
language."

"I beg your pardon.  It's exceedingly good.  But you've had it long
enough on hand.  Shall you finish it to-day?"

"I don't think so.  Why?"

"Because, though Dick isn't quite up to duty yet, he's fit to be back
at mess again and in his own bungalow."

"Has he said anything about it?"

"No."

"And do you propose to tell him outright that he has been here long
enough?"

"What I propose to say to him is my own affair.  You needn't distress
yourself on his account.  Dick and I understand one another perfectly."

"No doubt you do.  But after all, I am his hostess, and though you may
not object to being flagrantly inhospitable, _I_ do--very strongly.
Besides, why should you be in such a hurry to turn him out?  Are you
annoyed again because we happen to be good friends and enjoy one
another's society?  I thought you were above that sort of thing."

The suggestion of scorn in her tone pricked him past endurance.  He
turned upon her sharply; and his eyes took on their blue of steel.

"I am not above the natural passions of the natural man.  You may as
well know it first as last.  And I do not choose that Dick and half the
men of the station shall practically live in my house because I happen
to possess a very attractive wife."

"In fact, you imply that the attractive wife is bound over not to go
beyond correct platitudes with any of them but you.  Is that it?" she
demanded, the red of rebellion staining her cheeks.

The man was sore rather than angry; and the least touch of tenderness
or hesitancy would have melted him to generous contrition.  But her
manner hardened him, and he set his teeth.

"I imply nothing of the sort; and you know it.  It would never occur to
me to set limits, general or particular, on your conduct with other
men; and as for your intimacy with Dick, if I didn't believe in you
both absolutely I wouldn't live with you another week.  But I want to
make it clear to you that, having accepted the fact of marriage, you
cannot in reason be as independent and daringly unconventional in your
dealings with men as you were when you had no one to consider but
yourself.  I know India better than you do.  We live in glass houses
out here: and I know the sort of remarks that are made about a young
married woman who is never seen without half a dozen men at her
heels . . ."

"But, my dear man," she broke out impatiently, "who cares one grain of
dust what their remarks may be?  Men are my natural-born companions.
Always have been.  Always will be.  And it's no use asking me to cramp
and distort my whole nature because bourgeois people take a low view of
the matter."

"No use, is it?  That's pretty strong, Quita.  Not that I _am_ asking
anything of the kind: only that you should show some small
consideration for my point of view; that you should make some effort to
adapt yourself to a new relation."

"I _do_ make an effort, Eldred," she answered unappeased.  "But
individuality and temperament are stubborn things, even in a woman; and
I can't sacrifice mine because I happen to be your wife.  Marriage
doesn't change one into an invertebrate creature of wax and pack-thread
to be moulded or pushed into any shape a man pleases; especially if one
happens to be an artist as well as a woman.  We have our own devils
inside us; our own minds and bodies as well as you.  It wouldn't be the
least use my promising to walk discreetly and weigh my words and
actions; because I shouldn't keep the promise for five minutes.
Besides . . ."  Returning steps sounded without, and Lenox held up his
hand.

"That's enough," he said decisively.  "Here's Dick.  You're simply
telling me, in roundabout language, that you intend to take the bit
between your teeth.  Well, I intend to keep a firm hold on the reins
for your sake as much as my own."

She flushed hotly.

"_Mon Dieu_, what a detestable similie!"

"Quite so.  But it expresses the position.  If you will make it a case
of mastery, what else can a man do?"

And as Richardson entered from the dining-room, Lenox went out; by way
of the verandah into his study.




CHAPTER XXXI.

  "When the fight begins within himself,
  The man's worth something."
        --Browning.


Lenox, back at his writing-table, automatically took up his pen.  But
five minutes later he still sat thus, looking straight ahead of him
into a future darkened by the encroaching shadow of opium, and
complicated by this new factor of open discord, which--apart from the
pain of finding division, where he had looked for unity--set all his
nerves on edge.

Hitherto, his distaste for friction, coupled with an almost unlimited
power of endurance, had inclined him to let matters slide.  But now his
conscience--the accusing, spiritual thing that was himself--warned him
that if marriage meant compromise, it also meant responsibility; that
having been goaded into decisive speech, he stood pledged to decisive
action, for her sake, even more than for his own.  Yet, at the moment,
he felt physically and mentally unfit to grapple with the complex
situation, hampered as he was by the experience of all that may spring
from one false move, one instant of unguarded speech; and the knowledge
that his insight, his judgment, were clouded by the insomnia, grinding
headache, and renewed wrestling with a power stronger than his will.
For there was no evading the truth, that, in the past weeks, the drug
had gained fresh hold upon him; had resuscitated the old paralysing
pessimism and dread of defeat, so that he asked himself bitterly what
right had he to sit in judgment upon any one, least of all upon the
dear woman who was the core and mainspring of his life?

Yet, fit or unfit, the need for action, for the rightful assertion of
authority, remained.  He laid down his pen, planted an elbow on the
table, and covered his eyes; struggling for clear unprejudiced thought;
tormented by the consciousness of a certain small box hidden away in a
locked drawer within easy reach of his hand.

Suddenly he sat upright.  The lines of his face hardened; a cold
moisture broke out upon his forehead; and the desperate look in his
eyes was an ill thing to see.  Yet his movements had a strange
mechanical deliberation, as he opened the drawer, found the box, helped
himself from its contents, and, locking it up again, leaned back with
the long exhausted sigh of a man released from tension.

For several minutes he sat thus, arms folded, eyes closed; yielding
himself to the luxury of relief that stole over him, while the great
magician plucked the pain from throbbing nerves, unravelled the tangle
of thought and feeling, soothed brain and body like the touch of a
woman's hand.

But relief, as always, brought revulsion; this time sooner than usual;
because for many days he had held his own against the evil thing, and
had almost begun to believe himself on the upward grade.

"Damnation!" he broke out fiercely, and, the key being still in his
hand, flung it haphazard right across the room.  It fell between a
heavy bookcase and the wall; and with a savage laugh of satisfaction,
he took up his pen, and began to write rapidly, without pausing to
select words or phrases.  He tore it all up next morning, but for the
time being it served to distract his thoughts.

Presently he heard Quita's voice at the door.

"Eldred, aren't you coming to tea?"

"No," he answered, without looking round.

"Shall I bring you some, then?"

"No, thank you."

He turned his head just in time to catch sight of her as she closed the
door; then went on writing with less regard than ever for the matter in
hand.

In less than half an hour, Richardson's uneven footstep, betraying the
slight limp, sounded without.  He paused so long on the other side of
the door, that Lenox's brows went up in surprise.

"That you, Dick?" he called out.  "Come along in."

Richardson obeyed; and Lenox removed three or four books from an
adjacent chair.

"Sit down, old chap.  You've not been in here often enough lately.
Chained to my wife's easel, eh?"

"Partly . . . yes," the other answered, absently fingering some loose
sheets of manuscript and ignoring the proffered chair.

"Wasn't sure, either, if you cared about being interrupted.  I came in
now to say I thought of dining at mess to-night, and clearing out into
my own bungalow to-morrow.  You've been uncommonly good to me, you and
Mrs Lenox.  But I think I've been quartered on you long enough; and I
shall probably get back to duty next week."

He spoke rather rapidly, as if to ward off interruption or dissent; and
Lenox started at finding the initiative thus taken out of his hands.
It was not Quita's doing.  He felt sure of that.  But Dick's manner
puzzled him, and mere friendliness made acquiescence impossible.

"Well, you seem in a deuce of a hurry to be quit of us," he said, with
a short laugh.  "Might as well stop till you do get back to duty; and
you might as well sit down and have a smoke, now you're here, instead
of standing there like a confounded subordinate, making havoc of my
papers!"

At that Richardson sat down rather abruptly, and helped himself from
his friend's cigar-case.  He had small talent and less taste for
subterfuge; and, his pulses being in an awkward state of commotion, he
took his time over the beheading and lighting of his cigar.  In fact he
took so long that Lenox spoke again.

"What do you suppose my wife will say to your bolting in this way, at a
moment's notice!  Have you spoken to her yet?"

"No.  I was afraid of seeming . . . ungracious; and one could speak
straighter to you."

"Does that mean you really won't stop on?"

"I think not, thanks.  It's awfully good of you to suggest it.  I can
look in, of course, if Mrs Lenox wants any more sittings.  But I may as
well stick to my arrangement and go before she gets sick of having me
on her hands."

"You're a long way ahead of that, I fancy," Lenox remarked, with an odd
change of tone.

For a statement of that kind Richardson had no answer.  He could only
acknowledge it with a rueful smile that did not lift the shadow from
his eyes.  There were no sunbeams caught in Quita's 'bits of sea water'
just then; and for a while silence and tobacco-smoke reigned in the
room.  Richardson, who appeared to be reading the closely written sheet
of foolscap at his elbow, was casting about in his mind for the best
means of saying that which must be said; while Lenox, watching him
keenly, arrived at the masculine conclusion that Dick had 'come a
cropper' over something, and possibly needed his help.

"Anything on your mind, old chap?" he asked bluntly, when the silence
had lasted nearly five minutes.  And Richardson, taking his resolution
in both hands, looked up from the meaningless page.

"Yes, that's about it.  Don't misunderstand me, Lenox.  I'd sooner
work with you than with any man in creation; but--there are
difficulties . . .  I can't put it plainer--and I'm thinking of
applying for a Staff appointment.  My uncle in the Secretariat would
give me a helping hand, if you'd forward the thing with a decent
recommendation.  But if you think me too much of a duffer for Staff
work, I must try--for an exchange----"

He could get no further; and Lenox, leaning across the corner of the
table, scrutinised his face with eyes that penetrated like a
searchlight.

"Well . . . I'm damned!" he said slowly.  "Am I to understand that
after all we've pulled through together, you want to get away from the
Battery at any price?"

"It's not a question of what I want to do; it's what I've got to do,"
the other answered, averting his eyes.

"My good Dick, you're talking in riddles.  Have you taken temporary
leave of your senses?  Or is it a case of 'urgent private affairs'?"

Lenox's tone had an edge to it.  Of course the man was free to go where
he chose.  But it had grown to be an understood thing between them that
they would work together as long as might be, and he could not conceal
his disappointment.  Richardson knew this, and looked up quickly.  It
was the worst quarter of an hour he had ever known.  Facing Waziri
bullets was a small matter compared with this despicable business of
disappointing and deceiving his friend.

"It's urgent enough, God knows!" he answered desperately.  "I can't say
more than that, Lenox.  I swear I can't."

He looked straight at Lenox in speaking.  And this time the older man's
gaze held him, in spite of himself, till the blood burned under his
fair skin; till he perceived, between shame and relief, that his secret
was his no longer; that Lenox had seen, and understood.  His first
instinct was--to escape.  Such knowledge shared was enough to strike
any man dumb.

"You _will_ recommend me, won't you, old chap?" he asked all in a
breath, with a forward movement, as if to rise and depart.

But Lenox reached across the table, and a heavy hand on his shoulder
pressed him back into his seat.

"No need to hurry away, Max.  We've settled nothing yet."

The assurance of unshaken friendship in his altered manner, and in the
sudden use of Richardson's first name, automatically readjusted the
situation, without need of so much as a glance of mutual understanding,
which neither could have endured.

"I'm afraid I can't recommend you for Staff work," Lenox went on
quietly, as though dealing with a mere official detail, submitted for
his approval.  "Not because you are a duffer, but because I can't spare
my right-hand man.  I'm not an easy chap to work with, as you know.
But we've learnt one another's ways by now, and, unless political work
claims me, we can't do better than run the Battery together till you
get a command--and that's not far off now.  As for your urgent need of
a change, if six months at home would suit you, I'll do my best to
square it.  We might manage sick-leave, on the strength of your leg,
eh?"

Richardson breathed deeply.

"Thank you, Lenox.  It's splendid of you.  I'd be awfully glad of the
change."

"That's all right.  And I tell you what, Dick," he paused, and smiled
upon his friend.  "Hope I'm not taking an infernal liberty!  But if you
can afford it--and if you can hit on the right girl--you might do worse
than bring a wife back with you.  You're the sort that's bound to marry
some time, and you may take my word for it, thirty's a better age to
start than thirty-five."

Richardson laughed, and coloured again, hotly.

"It takes two to make that sort of start," he said, "And if a fellow
hits on the wrong one, it must be the very devil."

"Yes, by Jove, it must!" Lenox answered feelingly; adding in his own
mind that even with the right one, it could be the very devil, now and
again.  "Think of poor Norton.  But you'll have better luck, I hope.
About stopping on for the present, of course you must please yourself.
You'd be very welcome; and if you're afraid of taking up too much of my
wife's time, you can easily give me more of your company than you have
done so far.  See how you feel about it to-morrow."

"Thanks, I will."

He rose now unhindered; and stood a moment hesitating, fired with a
very human wish to express his gratitude.  But Lenox had accepted and
dismissed the whole incident in a fashion at once so impersonal, so
chivalrous, that his aching sense of disloyalty and unworthiness seemed
to have been tacitly wiped out, leaving one only course open to him--to
act as though that culminating hour of madness had never been.

"See you again before I start for mess," he said, as Lenox looked up.
And the dreaded interview--that should have broken up everything, yet
had altered nothing, save his own estimate of life--was over.

Lenox, left alone again, bowed his head upon his hands, and sat a long
time motionless, while the white flame of anger leaped and burned in
his brain; anger such as he had never yet felt towards his wife.  The
spirit of his formidable uncle still so far survived in him that
instinctively he blamed the woman; blamed himself also because pride
and a strong distaste for self-assertion had inclined him to an
attitude of masterly inactivity.  In this fine fashion, between them,
they had rewarded Dick for an unrecognised act of gallantry that might
well have cost him his life; and nothing now remained but to make such
inadequate atonement as the case admitted.  Strange as it may seem, he
had never come so near to loving his friend as at that moment.

As for Quita--was there even the remotest chance that she also . . . ?
His brain refused to complete such a question.  The thing was
unthinkable.  But in any case his own duty stood out crystal clear.
When he had mastered his anger sufficiently to risk speech, he and she
must come to terms upon this thorny subject once for all.  And he must
take his stand upon the bare rock of principle.  Let her brand him
bourgeois, Covenanter, what she would.  Dick's secret must be kept--at
any cost!




CHAPTER XXXII.

  "Love's strength standeth in Love's sacrifice,
  And he who suffers most has most to give."
        --Hamilton King.


Dinner that evening was an oppressively silent affair.  The man's white
Northern anger still smouldered beneath his surface immobility; while
Quita, who could not bring herself to believe in the spontaneity of
Richardson's engagement at mess, was instinctively measuring and
crossing swords with the husband, whose personality held her captive
even while it forced her every moment nearer to the danger-point of
open defiance.

Both were thankful when the solemn farce of eating and drinking came to
an end; and Quita rose with an audible sigh of relief.

"Are you coming into the drawing-room at all?" she asked, addressing
the question to his centre shirt-stud.

"Yes--at once.  I have a good deal to say to you."

She raised her eyebrows with a small polite smile, and swept on before
him, her step quickened by the fact that his words had set the blood
rushing through her veins.  The dead weight of his silence pulverised
her.  Speech, however dangerous, would be pure relief.

Before following, he locked up spirit tantalus and cigar-box with his
wonted deliberation; and on reaching the drawing-room found her
absorbed in contemplation of Dick's portrait, hands clasped behind her,
the unbroken lines of her grey-green dress lending height and dignity
to her natural grace; the glitter of defiance gone out of her eyes.

Lenox set his lips, and confounded the advantages nature and art
conspire to bestow upon some women, more especially when they know
themselves beloved.  The mere man in him had one impulse only,--to take
instant possession of her; to conquer her lurking antagonism by sheer
force of passion and of will.  But he had sense enough to know that
such primitive methods would not shift, by one hair's-breadth, their
real point of division; would, in fact, be no less than inverted
defeat.  The heart of her was secure:--that he knew.  It was her
detached, elusive mind and spirit that were still to win; and a man's
arms had small concern with that form of capture.

Quita vouchsafed him a glance as he entered.  Then her gaze returned to
the picture.

"One misses him," she said, presumably to the tall figure on the
hearth-rug.  "I think I have never known a man so uniformly cheerful
and sweet-tempered.  But it is selfish to grudge him a little change of
atmosphere.  And no doubt he is having a livelier evening than we are."

She was facing her husband now; but something in his aspect made her
feel suddenly ashamed of using small weapons against a nature too
magnanimous to retaliate.  And, without giving him time to answer, she
went on, a little hurriedly, "Eldred, if this intolerable state of
things means that you really imagine I am--how does one put anything so
detestable?--growing . . . too fond of Mr Richardson, you can set your
mind at rest.  Morality apart, you are much too masterful, too
large--in every way--to leave room for any one else in a woman's heart,
once she has let you in."

"Thank you," Lenox answered, in a non-committal tone.  But a shadow
passed from his face, and she saw it.

"Of course I know it has been rather marked this last week.  But that
was simply because for the moment he and my picture were the same
thing.  Being absorbed in one meant being absorbed in the other.  To
produce a living portrait, one needs to get inside the subject of it as
far as possible.  At least, I do.  And on the whole, I think my method
is justified by the result!"

But Lenox, as he stood listening, experienced fresh proof of man's
innate spirit of perversity.  For many days past he had been angered by
the suspicion that in this affair of portrait painting, the subject
counted for too much;--and now, when he ought to have been relieved, he
found his anger rekindled to white heat by Quita's frank confession
that his friend--whose heart had been wrenched from him by her
so-called 'method'--counted for nothing at all.  For one ignoble
instant, he was tempted to break through every restraining
consideration and lash her with the truth.

The fact that he did not answer her at once puzzled Quita.

"Do you understand now, _mon ami_?" she asked, coming a step closer.
"I was absorbed in an interesting subject.  It is over--_voilà tout_."

"No, Quita; I do not understand," he answered, repressed heat hardening
his voice and face more than he knew.  "To a mere soldier it all sounds
rather inhuman; and I can only say that if you find it so necessary to
'get inside' your subjects, as you express it, you had better make
women and children your speciality, and let us poor devils alone."

"Women and children?  But, my dear--what a suggestion!  One does not
choose one's subjects to order.  Women and children don't interest me.
I have always preferred to paint men, and always shall."

"Then I'm afraid it may end in your having to drop portrait painting
altogether."

That touched the artist to the quick.  With a small gasp--as if he had
struck her--she sank upon the arm of his big chair; her hands clasped,
so that the knuckles stood out sharp and white; two spots of fire
burning in her cheeks.

"Do you seriously mean--what you say?" she asked, pausing between the
words.

"Certainly.  I am not given to speaking at random."

"You mean--you would insist?"

"I hope it would never come to that."

"_Mon Dieu_, no.  It never would!"  She flung up her head with a broken
sound between a laugh and a sob.  "Because--if it ever did----"

She hung on the word a moment; and in a flash Lenox saw how near they
were to repeating the initial tragedy of more than six years ago.

"Quita," he broke in sharply, "listen to me before you say unconsidered
things that we may both of us regret.  Are we going to make havoc of
everything again at the outset?  Tell me that."

"How do I know?  It depends on you.  I think I told you then, that you
might as well expect me to give up seeing or hearing as to give up my
art.  And that is truer--ten times truer--to-day, even though I
am . . . your wife."

He saw her vibrating like a smitten harp-string; saw the quick rise and
fall of the lace at her breast; and it was all a man could do to keep
his hands off her.  He had to remind himself that she was no child to
be comforted with empty kisses; but very woman and very artist, torn
between the master-forces of life.

"See here, lass," he said quietly, laying aside his half-smoked cigar.
"As this is a big matter for us both, we may as well get at the root of
it straight away.  You said this afternoon that you could not give up
your individuality because you had accepted marriage.  Very well.
Neither can I.  That still leaves us two alternatives.  Either we must
give up the notion of living together; or we must be prepared to make
concessions--both of us.  That is why I said that marriage means
compromise.  If we go on much longer as we have been doing lately,
seeing next to nothing of one another because the house has been
converted into a surplus club for half the fellows in the station; and
if you are going to spend your time 'getting inside' other men with a
view to painting their portraits, we shall simply drift apart as the
Nortons did.  Conditions of life out here make that sort of thing
fatally easy to fall into.  But I tell you plainly that if there is to
be no attempt at amalgamation, if we are each to go our own way,
then--we must lead separate lives.  I would not even have you in India.
It would be a case of going home."

The two spots of fire had died out of her face, and she turned wide,
startled eyes upon him.

"I don't--quite understand."  Her voice was barely audible, "Are you
telling me--to go?"

"My dear--can you ask that?  I am only pointing out the conditions that
might make such a catastrophe--inevitable.  Looking things in the face
may prevent future friction and misunderstanding, which are the very
devil.  What's more, I never realised till lately what a very big
factor your art is in your life.  I believe it is the biggest thing of
all.  Am I right?"

"I don't know.  I can't tell--yet."

He straightened himself, and his face hardened.

"You can easily find out by putting the matter to practical proof.  In
fact, I am going to make a proposal that will not leave you very long
in doubt.  You have genius, Quita.  I recognise that.  And I want you
to think seriously over all you said this afternoon about not cramping
or distorting your individuality to suit my 'prejudices.'  If you feel
that your art must come before everything, that marriage will only
hamper its full development, without making good what you lose,--in
fact, if you think that the purely artist life will be better and
happier for you in the long-run, I would sooner you said so frankly, I
would indeed."

"Eldred!" she gasped, between indignation and fear.  But he motioned
her to silence.

"Hear me out first.  I told you I had a good deal to say; and as I am
not often taken that way, you must bear with me, for once.  You know
now something, at least, of what it means for a man and woman to live
together, as we do.  I warned you that I should prove a sorry bargain;
and--take me or leave me--I cannot pretend that any amount of
compromise will make me other than I am.  You think me hard, narrow,
conventional, in some respects, no doubt.  But in a matter so vital
conventional moralities go for nothing.  I want the truth.  If you
believe, as I said, that art must stand first with you--always, I shall
respect your frankness and courage in telling me so; and I will give
you--such freedom as the circumstances admit."

"_Mon Dieu_!" she breathed, and for a second or two could say no more.
She had touched the bed-rock of granite in the man at last.  Then the
fear that clutched at her found words, in her own despite.

"Have I killed--your love, so soon?  Surely you could not make such a
suggestion--in cold blood, unless--I had."

"You are simply shifting the argument," he answered without unbending.
"You know whether--I love you.  In fact, if it comes to that, it is
you, my dear, who have not yet grasped the full meaning of the word, or
you would not need to be told that the free choice I am offering you of
compromise with me, or independence--without me, is the utmost proof
one can give that you and your happiness stand absolutely first----"

At that she made an impulsive movement towards him, and her fingers
closed upon his arm.  But with inexorable gentleness he unclasped her
hand, and put it from him.

"No, no," he said, and there was more pain than hardness in his tone.
"Better keep clear of that form of argument, for the present.  Passion
settles nothing.  Contact is not fusion.  We have proved it,--you and
I.  It is not a question of what we feel.  That may be taken for
granted by now.  It is a question of what we are, individually,
intrinsically; of how much each of us is ready to forego for the sake
of the one essential form of union that counts between a man and woman
who are not mere materialists; and we are neither of us that.  I don't
want my answer to-night, nor even to-morrow.  I have not spoken on
impulse; and I want you to think very thoroughly over all I have said
when your brain is cooler than it is just now."

"But suppose--I don't want to think it over?"

A half smile dispelled his gravity.  "Knowing you intimately, I should
not suppose anything else!  In the two big crises of our life,
remember, you were ruled purely by impulse and emotion, and you brought
us very near to shipwreck in consequence.  But this time, you will do
what I ask, and give my slower methods a chance; because this time your
decision will be final.  If we are to separate again, we separate for
life.  That much _I_ have decided.  The rest--I leave in your hands."

She stood very still, like one magnetised, her gaze riveted on the
carpet.  His steadfast aloofness had chilled her first headlong impulse
of surrender; and she knew now that he was right:--that, dearly as she
loved him, independence in thought, word, and act were still the breath
of life for her and for her art.  He had put the matter to practical
proof with a sledge-hammer directness all his own; had opened her eyes
to the humiliating truth that never in all her thirty years of living
had she given up anything that mattered for any one.  And now----

She raised her head with a start, Zyarulla had brought in a telegram,
and Lenox stood reading it with a transfigured face, an eager light in
his eyes.

"What is it?" she wondered, not daring to ask.  "He is going away
somewhere--he is delighted.  And he says I come absolutely first."

Then Lenox raised his eyes, and a lightning instinct told her that for
the moment he had forgotten her existence.

"Well, Quita," he said, unconscious elation in his tone, "I think the
Foreign Office must have known we had got to a difficult corner, and
decided to give us a helping hand.  They want me to undertake an
exploration north of Kashmir, and remonstrate with a small chief who
has been misbehaving up there.  I am to report myself at Simla _ek
dum_,[1] to receive detailed instructions of the mission, and we shall
have time enough to think things out very thoroughly before I get back."

"Time?  How long?"

Her colour had ebbed; but the change in him had steeled her to
unreasoning hardness of heart.

"Six months, certain.  Possibly more."

"And you are as glad as you can be.  One sees that quite plainly."

Her tone stung him to sharp retort.

"Yes, I am glad--since you insist, and since I am no hypocrite."

Pride would not suffer her to remind him of his assurance, "You stand
absolutely first."  Instead she asked him in a repressed voice--

"Doesn't it occur to you, after your eloquence about what each of us
should give up, that this is precisely where your share of the
compromise comes in?"

"It occurred to me nearly a year ago," he said simply.  "After our talk
at Kajiar, I faced the fact that there was an end of my exploring as a
hobby;--at least on the big scale that appeals to me most.  It was just
the price one had to pay for getting you back again; and I paid
it--willingly.  In fact, I should never have mentioned it, if you
hadn't dragged it out of me."

The quiet of his tone, and the kindliness in the blue eyes that
challenged her own, brought the blood into her face.  He shamed her
every way, this big husband of hers.  He had counted the cost and paid
it--willingly.  He would not even have mentioned it.  There you have
the essence of the man.  Her lids fell, and her incurable instinct for
comedy set a faint dimple in her cheek.  Here he was at his old trick
of dragging her on to higher ground; and the perverse spirit of her
loved and hated him for it in one breath.

"But you are going now?" she whispered, without looking up.

"Certainly.  That is quite another matter.  When Government needs my
services for work which I have made a speciality, it would be neither
right nor possible for me to refuse; and, frankly, I am glad, because I
love the work, fully as much as you love yours; and because the
opportunity could hardly have come at a better moment."

"And I--go back to Michael?"

"Yes.  For six months you will be free to travel, paint--what you will;
and for six months I shall have my mountains to grapple with."  Again
the light sprang to his eyes.  "By the end of that time we shall know
once for all how much we are ready to forego for the sake of spending
our lives together.  That is the ultimate test of a big thing,
Quita--what one will give up for it.  Marriage is a big thing; and if
ours is built on the right foundations, it will stand the test.  Now, I
shall have a good deal to see to this evening, and I think you had
better go to bed early.  You look tired."

"I am tired."  She realised suddenly that all the spring had gone out
of her.  "When do you leave?"

"To-morrow, most likely.  You had better write to Michael."

"Very well.  I suppose--one will be able to write to _you_?"

"Yes.  Now and then.  But for a great part of the time I shall be
beyond the reach of posts."

Though his surface hardness had melted, his voice had an impersonal
note that crushed her, making her feel as if she were dealing with a
cosmic force, rather than a human being;--one of his own detestable
mountains, for instance.  But for that, it is conceivable that there
might have been something approaching a 'scene'; that she might have
obeyed her unreasoning impulse to plead with him, and exhort him not to
push his test of her to such pitiless lengths.  As it was, she sank
into a chair without answering; and he turned towards the study with a
new lift of his head, a new elasticity of step that struck at her heart.

For, in truth, until he read that summons from Simla he had scarcely
known how irresistibly the old free life drew him; how the white
silence of the mountains called to him as friend calls friend; and the
whole heart of him answered, 'I come.'  'As the dew is dried up by the
sun, so are the sins of mankind by the glory of Himachal.'  The words
of the old Hindoo worshipper sprang to his brain, and for him they were
no fanciful imagery, but a radiant truth.  Six months of the Himalayas,
six months of freedom from brain work, and headache, and strain,--for
though loyalty denied it, the past month had been a strain,--would
suffice to break the power of the hideous thing that was sapping his
manhood; to dispel the great black something that shadowed his mind and
spirit--to set him on his feet again, a free man.

But since he had kept the deeper source of his trouble secret from
Quita, she did not hold the key to the deeper source of his joy.  And
now, lying back in his chair, her eyes closed, violet shadows showing
beneath the black line of her lashes, she saw herself, momentarily, as
a trivial thing--a mere tangle of nerves, perversity, and
egotism--flung aside without hesitation, perhaps even with relief, at
the first call of the larger life, the larger loyalty.  Two tears stole
out on to her lashes, and slipped down her check.  Mere concessions to
overwrought feeling, and she knew it; knew, in the depths of her, that
she was no triviality, but a woman into whose hands power had been
given; the power of things primeval that are the mainspring of life.

For Quita also had her secret--at once mysterious and disturbing; since
to your highly-strung woman motherhood rarely comes as a matter of
course--a secret that brought home to her, with a force as quiet and
compelling as her husband himself, the awful sense of the human bond.
He had told her she was free to choose; to take him or leave him as she
saw fit.  But the dice were loaded.  They were bound to one another now
by a far stronger power than mere law; by the power of action and
consequence, which transcends all laws.

She had guessed the truth, and rebelled against it, on that day when
Honor had unwittingly spoken the right word at the right moment, as
those who believe in Divine transmission through human agency are apt
to do.  She had faced and accepted it during Eldred's absence; but had
not found courage since his return to put it into words; had, in fact,
with the revival of inspiration, thrust the knowledge aside, and
deliberately tried to forget.

Now it came back upon her, unrebuked; and while she lay thinking over
all that had passed between them, one insistent question repeated
itself in her brain, "Can I tell him?  Shall I tell him before he
goes?"  And after much debating, she decided on silence.  In the first
place, he would be saved anxiety if he should not return in time; and
in the second place--though this consideration stood undeniably first
with her--she preferred that he, at least, should believe in the
fiction of their freedom; that nothing should weigh with him, or draw
him back to her but his unalterable need of herself.  How far her
secret was her own to hide or reveal, how far she had any right to
withhold such knowledge from the man on the eve of a perilous
undertaking,--the man to whom insight told her it would mean
immeasurably much,--were questions that simply did not enter her mind.
The artist's egotism, and the woman's love of dominion, left no room
for fine-drawn scruples of the kind.  Never till to-night had she
realised how the mountains claimed and held him; and in her sudden fear
of losing him, either through misadventure or through the reawakening
of the explorer in him, she lost sight of the original point at issue;
of the fact that it was her own work, not his, which had threatened to
stand between them.


An hour later she went into the study, where Lenox, his brow furrowed
into deep lines, bent over an outspread map.  A glance showed her that
already in spirit he was miles away from her, planning the exploration
of passes and glaciers guessed at in former journeyings, engrossed,
mind and heard, in the possibilities ahead.

She came and stood beside him.  "I am going now, Eldred," she said, a
touch of listlessness in her tone.

He looked up and nodded.  "That's right.  You do look rather fagged
this evening."

"Only a headache," she answered, flushing and avoiding his eyes.  "I
shall be all right if I sleep well."

"Do you ever sleep badly?" he asked, with the quick sympathy of the
sufferer.

"Oh dear, no."  She hesitated.  "Are you coming?"

"Yes--later."

Still she stood irresolute.  Caresses had become rare between them of
late; and now pride as well as shyness checked her natural impulse.  In
turning away, she allowed her left hand to swing outward, ever so
little, merely by way of experiment.  "He won't see it," she told
herself.  And, as if in mute denial, his own hand met and grasped it,
close and hard.

On the threshold she paused and looked back.  He was miles away again,
hopelessly out of reach.  A sudden thought seized her, tempted her.
Half a dozen words would suffice to snap the chain that held him; to
bring her into his arms.  Yet now it seemed impossible to speak them,
even if she would; and she went out, leaving him in undisturbed
possession of his maps and his mountains.

She lingered long over her undressing; and when it was over could not
bring herself to put out the lamp; but lay, waiting and listening for
his coming.  Then, as the night slipped away and the silence became a
burden, a dead weight upon brain and heart, the old haunting dread of
those days in Dalhousie came back upon her, and she shivered.  The
Pagan in her leaned too readily to superstitious fancy, and her dread
shaped itself finally in a definite thought.  "If he comes to me now, I
know I shall conquer the mountains in the end.  But if he doesn't come,
they will be too strong for me.  They will take him from me for good."

And he did not come; till one of the morning, when he found her fast
asleep, the lamp still burning beside her.



[1] At once.




CHAPTER XXXIII.

  "Ledge by ledge outbroke new marvels, now minute, and now immense:
  Earth's most exquisite disclosure, heaven's own God in evidence!"
        --Browning.


"Sahib, dinner is ready."

"I also am ready.  More than ready!" Lenox answered, a twinkle in his
eyes.

Zyarulla responded by a gleam of teeth as he followed his master to the
camp fire of roots and scrub, on whose summit 'dinner' was served
steaming hot; a delectable mass of mutton and rice; eaten straight from
the copper cooking vessel, lest the ice-bound breath of the mountains
freeze it before it could reach its destination.  The fire itself was
small, and gave out little heat: for in the heart of the glaciers,
sixteen hundred feet up, fuel is scarce, and even more precious than
food.

The five human forms, crouching close to it, had been Lenox's sole
companions through three months of hardship and danger, sweetened by
the exhilaration of conquering such difficulties as brace a man's nerve
and fortitude to the utmost.  Four of them were Gurkhas,--a Havildar
and three men; short, sturdy hill folk of the Mongol type, with the
spirits of schoolboys and the grit of heroes.  The fifth was a Pathan
from Desmond's regiment, told off to act as orderly and surveyor; a man
of immovable gravity, who shared but two qualities with the
thick-headed, stout-hearted little soldiers from Nepal:--courage of the
first order, and devotion to the British officer, for whom any one of
them would have laid down his life, if need be; not as a matter of
sentiment or heroism, but simply as a matter of course.  The Gurkhas
had, in fact, settled it among themselves before starting, that if any
harm came to the Sahib none of them were to disgrace the name of the
regiment by returning without their leader.

Now, as he neared the fire, looking bigger and broader than usual in
his sheep-skin coat and Balaklava cap,--his jaw and throat protected by
a beard black as his hair,--all five stood up to receive him: and the
quivering light showed that they also were muffled to the eyes.

"It is a _burra khana_[1] to-night, Hazúr," the Havildar informed him
with a chuckle; his slits of eyes vanishing as his teeth flashed out.
"In a treeless country, the castor-oil is a big plant!  And the cook,
having three handfuls of flour to spare, hath made us three
_chupattis_; one for your Honour, and one to be broken up among
ourselves."

"No, no, Havildar; fair play," Lenox answered, smiling.  "We will
divide the three."

But seeing that insistence would damp their childish spirit of
festivity, he accepted Benjamin's portion; and satisfied his conscience
by sharing it with Brutus, the inevitable, who snuggled contentedly
under a corner of his poshteen, and thanked his stars he was not as
other dogs, a mere loafer round clubs and cantonments.  It was bad to
be cold and hungry; to plunge shoulder-deep through snow, and slither
across hideous slopes of ice; but it was uplifting to share your
master's dinner and your master's bed; and there are few things more
sustaining than a sense of one's own importance in the general scheme
of things!

The fire was their mess-table, round which they dined together, to save
time and trouble in cooking; and also because community of hardship and
danger links men to one another with hooks of steel; dispels all minor
distinctions of colour and creed; reveals the Potter's raw material
underlying all.

And while they so sat, enjoying their one-course dinner as no gourmet
ever enjoyed a city feast, night and frost crept stealthily, almost
visibly, over the stupendous snow-peaks and pinnacles of opaque ice
that towered on all sides, breathing out cold; and contemplating, as if
in silent amazement, these atoms of 'valiant dust' who dared and were
beaten back, and dared again; who day by day pushed farther into their
white sanctuary of silence, in search of a pass whose existence was
guessed at rather than known.  At sunset there had been a brief burst
of colour,--green and opal and rose; but by now the mountains shimmered
grey and hard as steel under the tremulous fire of the stars; and every
moment the grip of frost tightened upon half-melted glacier, upon man
and beast.  For behind the little group of servants, who sat apart,
enjoying their own meal in their own fashion, stood twelve apathetic
Kashmiri ponies,--unconsidered martyrs to man's lust of
achievement,--who endured to the full the miseries of mountaineering,
and reaped none of its rewards.

Dinner over, the fire must be allowed to die down.  A pipe over the
embers, and a sheep-skin bag shared with Brutus, was the evening's
unvarying programme on this detached expedition into the hidden core of
things; tents and lesser luxuries having been left with the heavy
baggage in charge of two Gurkhas at the foot of the pass.

While Lenox sat smoking, and encouraging the fire to keep alive as long
as might be, his men vied with one another in discovering sheltered
corners for the night.  The Havildar was in high spirits after his
morsel of chupatti, washed down with a mouthful of rum; and the
laughter of his comrades echoed strangely among the ghostly peaks.

"You seem to be in great form, Chundra Sen," Lenox called out at last.
"What's the joke now?"

"We are seeking soft stones to sleep on, Hazúr; and betting, like the
_Sahiblog_, which of us shall find the softest!"  [Transcriber's note:
the "o" in "_Sahiblog_" is o-macron, Unicode U+014D.]

Lenox joined in the laugh that greeted this sally,

"Good men," he said.  "Hope you find a few!  First-rate joke of yours,
Havildar."

"By ill fortune, it was not I who made it, Hazúr!  But an officer
Sahib, up in Kabul; one who knew that it is good to laugh even when the
knife is at the throat."  And the search went forward with renewed zest.

Apparently soft stones were forthcoming: for one by one the men rolled
themselves up in their blankets and sheep-skins, and slept soundly on
two hundred feet of ice under a freezing sky; leaving Lenox alone with
his pipe and his thoughts, and the silence that dwelt like a presence
in the eerie place.

As a rule a hard day on the glaciers left him so over-powered with
sleep that he could scarcely finish his smoke: but to-night his brain
was alert and active; stimulated by the knowledge that two more days of
climbing ought to bring him at last to the Pass of his dreams:--the
Pass that must be found and crossed in the teeth of all that Nature
might do to hinder him!

That discovery would close the first phase of his journey: and
to-night, looking back over it, from the day of his departure for
Simla, he saw that it had been good.

Sir Henry Forsyth, Foreign Secretary, and an old school friend of his
brother's, had instructed him to work his way up to Hunza, a small
independent state north of Kashmir, hidden among lofty mountains and
impenetrable valleys, whence robber bands--secure from retaliation--had
for long amused and enriched themselves by flying descents upon
neighbouring tribes, and upon caravans passing from Asia to India.  And
now, after an unusually daring raid, the peace-loving Kirghiz of the
district had appealed to the Indian Government for protection and help.

Lenox, with his little escort of six Gurkhas and one Pathan, was to
enter this stronghold of brigands; reason with their chief, and bind
him down to good behaviour for the future.  In addition, Sir Henry
suggested that instead of going to Hunza direct, he should strike out
eastward from Kashmir, working his way round through the great Mustagh
Mountains, and exploring as he went, also that he should finally push
on northward, and penetrate as far into the Pamirs as the approach of
winter would permit.

"There will be no difficulty with the authorities.  I have arranged all
that; and you need not be back at Dera till October or November," the
great man had concluded, in a tone half question, half command.

"No, sir.  I may as well do all I can while I'm up there."

Whereat Sir Henry had eyed him thoughtfully from between narrowed lids.
For all his great brain, he was a man of one idea: and that idea--"The
North safeguarded."  Mere men, himself included, were for him no more
than pawns in the great game to be played out between two Empires, on
the chess-board of Central Asia.  But . . there are pawns, and pawns:
and Sir Henry had had his eye on Lenox for some years; recognising in
him a pawn of high value; a man to be sent to the front on the first
opportunity, and kept there as long as might be.  The news of his
marriage had been a shock to the Foreign Secretary: and it is
conceivable that he had wished to test Lenox by asking him to undertake
such a mission within a year of the fatal event.  He was speculating
now, as he watched him, how far the 'woman complication' was likely to
count with this impenetrable Scot.  With Sir Henry, after the first
year or two, the woman had not counted at all; and, unhappily for her,
she knew it.

The pause lasted so long that Lenox shifted his position: but Sir Henry
only said, "I was relieved when I got your wire."

"Surely I could not have answered otherwise?"

"I am glad you think so.  But frankly, when I heard of your marriage, I
was half afraid I had lost one of my ablest men."

Lenox smiled.  "Not quite as bad as that, sir, I hope."

"Well then . . what about Gilgit?"

Sir Henry spoke carelessly; but his eyes were on Lenox's face, and he
saw him flinch.

"Is that likely to be an immediate contingency?" Lenox asked quietly.

"Next, year, I should say, as things are going now."

"Well, I hope it may be possible.  But . . one would have to think it
over."

"_Talk_ it over, you mean . . eh?"

Something in the tone angered Lenox.

"Yes, sir . . talk it over.  That is what I meant," he had answered,
looking straightly at the other: and they had returned somewhat
abruptly to the matter in hand.

But Lenox had dined with the Foreign Secretary that night, and they had
parted good friends, as ever: Sir Henry begging the younger man to ask
him for anything that might serve to lessen the hardships and dangers
ahead of him, adding, as they shook hands: "I assure you, my dear
fellow, we who sit in Simla fully realise how much the country owes to
men of your sort; and grudge no money spent in making the way smoother
for you."

But Lenox, knowing well that hardships and perils loom larger in an
easy-chair than on the slope of a glacier, had asked for little, beyond
permission to depart, and that speedily.

A few days at Pindi had sufficed for the collecting of stores and
equipment.  Then he had pushed northward in earnest, picking up his
escort of Gurkhas from their station in the foot-hills: and so on
through Kashmir, where spring had already flung her bridal veil over
the orchards, and retreating snow-wreaths had left the hills carpeted
with a mosaic of colour,--primula, iris, orchid, and groundlings
innumerable: over the Zoji-la Pass, into the shadeless, fantastic
desolation of Ladak; and on, across stark desert and soundless
snow-fields, to Leh, the terminus of all caravans from India and
Central Asia.  Here Lenox had spent two days with one Captain Burrow of
the Bengal Cavalry, who, with a handful of half-starved Kashmiri
soldiers, upheld the interests of the British Raj on this uttermost
edge of Empire.  Here also he found a letter from Quita; read and
re-read it, and stowed it away in his breast-pocket, trying not to be
aware of a haunting ache deep down in him, which must perforce be
ignored.  The old charm of the Road, the 'glory of going on,' that
works like madness in the blood, was strong upon him as ever.  But
whereas, in former journeyings, he had been one man, he was now two.
The whole-hearted ecstasy of travel would never again be his.  He had
given a part of himself into a woman's keeping; and let him put the
earth's diameter between them, she would hold him still.  Every week,
every day that drew him farther from her did but bring home to him more
forcibly the mysterious, compelling power of marriage, its large
reserves of loyalty, its sacred and intimate revelations, its
inexorable grip on life and character.

But meanwhile, there was the Road before him; a rough road, full of
vicissitudes and anxieties, of interests and anticipations that left
him small leisure for the communings of his heart.

Before leaving Leh, hill camels and ponies had been added unto him;
besides twenty-one decrepit Kashmir soldiers,--a type extinct since
they have been handled by British officers.  These were to be deposited
by Lenox at his so-called 'base of operations,' by way of guarding the
trade route so grievously troubled by the brigand state.

Followed two more weeks of marching,--rougher marching this
time,--through the core of the lofty mountains that divide India from
Central Asia; across the terrible Depsang Plains, seventeen thousand
feet up; and over four passes choked with snow; till they came upon a
deserted fort, set in the midst of stark space, and knew that here,
indeed, was the limit of human habitation.  Next day the work of
exploration had begun in earnest.  Week after week, with unwearying
persistence, they had pushed on, upward, always upward, through regions
sacred to the eagles and the clouds; working along streams that cut
their way through hillsides steep as houses, or along tracks that ran
to polished ledges of rock and dropped sheer to unimaginable depths;
clambering over formidable ranges by any chance opening that could be
dignified by the name of a pass; the eternally cheery Gurkhas solacing
themselves with rum; the Pathans with opium; the Scot with rare nips of
brandy, on the bitterest nights.  Still more rarely,--at wider and
wider intervals of time,--he drew from his breast-pocket a pill-box,
like the one still locked in his writing-table drawer at home.  Its
contents were running very low by now; and, once gone, they would never
again be replenished.  That he knew; with a knowledge born not of
arrogance, but of faith that somehow, somewhen the right must prevail.

And to-night,--as he sat alone by the fire, watching the greyness of
death quench spark after spark of living light, while a late moon
sailed leisurely into view, overlaying the steely hardness of ice and
snow with a veil of shimmering silver,--he took out the box, and opened
it.  He knew it held two pellets; no more.  Why not take them at once,
and so break the last link of the devil's chain?  He turned them into
his palm, . . and paused, while the enemy within whispered words of
seduction hard to be withstood.  But now a second voice spoke in him
also: a voice of mingled authority and pleading.  Why not fling away
both box and pellets, foregoing the final degradation, the final
rapture, that every nerve in him clamoured for more imperatively than
he dared admit even to himself.

For some reason the suggestion brought Desmond vividly to his
mind:--Desmond, with his characteristic assertion: "Of course you will
succeed.  You have won His great talisman."  Yes.  He was right!--'the
great talisman.'  Surely if marriage were worth anything, if it meant
more to a man than mere domesticity, and material satisfaction, it
ought by rights to act as a talisman to protect him from the evils of
his baser self.

While thinking, he had mechanically returned the pellets to the box,
closing it firmly, crushing it between his hands; and now, with a wide
sweep of his arm, he flung it far from him, into the blue-black mystery
of a ravine that swooped past the camping-ground to the valley below.

"Thank God _that's_ done with!" he muttered; though as yet the pain
rather than the elation of conquest prevailed.  Then, lifting Brutus in
his arms, as though he had been a child, he slipped, dog and all, into
his sheep-skin bag, and slept without dreams.

An hour later, a sudden gust from the north swept down the ravine.
Battalions of cloud blotted out the stars; and a host of snow-flakes
whirled above the sleeping camp, like spirits of fairies, incapable of
doing harm.


The chill discomfort of snow melting on their faces woke the men, one
by one, at an unearthly hour, to find their whole world shrouded in
white, and a mist of snow-dust still falling.  But Lenox, undismayed,
ordered tea and biscuits, and lost no time in setting out.

A stiff climb up the ravine into which he had flung his pill-box lay
ahead of them; but since the side nearest the camp was unbroken
glacier, it seemed wisest to hack their way across it before attempting
the ascent.

It was freezing hard: earth and sky were muffled in fine white powder,
and scudding clouds constantly hid the moon.  An ice-slope overlaid
with snow is not pleasant going at the best of times; and on this one
there were ugly rents, into which men and animals slipped, to their
sore discomfort.  But the way of life is by courage and persistence:
and in time the thing was done.

The farther side proved less formidable: and while they halted to
recoup their energies, a report like thunder, followed by an
unmistakable rushing sound, made every man of them catch his breath.
It was an avalanche: and its appalling crescendo was coming straight
down the hill on which they stood.

The two Pathans remained rigid, impassive,--the greater the danger the
cooler do these men become: but the Kirghiz--a creature without
self-respect--shook so violently that he dropped the bridles of his
ponies.

"Run, Sahib . . run!" he stammered.  "Or we be all dead men."

But there was nowhere to run to, even had running on an ice-slope been
possible; which it was not.  Neither was it possible to guess the exact
direction of the invisible annihilation that was racing down upon them
through a mist of snow.  There was nothing for it but to stand
steady--till that happened which must happen.  So they stood steady,
without speech or movement, like men turned to stone.

It may have been a matter of minutes.  To Lenox it seemed a matter of
years.  Because, in that short breathing space, fear--overmastering
fear--gripped him as it never yet had done.  A year or two ago, for all
his human love of life, he would have accepted a mountaineer's death
with something of the same pride and stoicism as a soldier accepts
death in battle.  But now . . now . . life meant so infinitely more to
him, that every throbbing artery and nerve rebelled against the loss of
it.  For it is happiness, more than conscience, that 'makes cowards of
us all.'

Nearer and louder grew the appalling sound.  Then a great cloud of
snow-dust burst in their faces, half blinding them: and, with the roar
of an express train, the avalanche sped down the ravine; burying the
ice-slope they had just crossed; and obliterating their footsteps as
man's work is obliterated by the soundless avalanche of the years.

All five men let out their breath in an audible murmur.

"_Burra tamasha_,[2] Hazúr," Yusuf Ali remarked gravely.  "Never before
have I seen the like."

But for the moment Lenox had lost his voice.  Ten minutes' delay in
starting, and they had been swept out of life, without a struggle or a
cry.  It is this significance of trifles in determining large issues
that at times staggers faith and reason.

"The Sahib still goes forward?" the Pathan added presently, as one who
merely asks for orders: and the Sahib nodded.

But this was too much for the Kirghiz.  Emboldened by terror, he flung
himself on the ground.

"I who speak am as dust beneath the feet of the Heaven-born.  But
consider, Hazúr, there will be many more such before the pass can be
reached."

"It is possible," Lenox answered unmoved.  "It is also possible that,
like this one, they will keep out of our path.  Make no more fool's
talk.  Go back to the ponies."

The Kirghiz was not mistaken.  There were 'many more such' during the
next few days.  But Lenox was not mistaken either: for none of them
came their way.  Only the muffled thunder of their descent broke the
stillness of a world whose mystery and grandeur surpassed anything
Lenox himself had ever seen.

For on the second night, a night without wind or cloud, they camped in
the heart of the great glacier: and all about them,--touched to
ethereal unreality by the light of moon and stars,--were unnumbered
crests and pinnacles, fantastically carven; black mouths of caverns,
shaggy with icicles; sudden fissures and vast continents of shadow,
like ink-stains on unsullied purity; and over-arching all, the still
wonder of the sky, pierced with points of flame.

Tired as he was, Lenox resented the need for shutting his eyes upon a
scene so stirring alike to the imagination and the heart: a scene that
lifted both, past Nature's uttermost sublime, to the Master-Builder,
whose mind is the Universe, and whose thoughts are its stars and
worlds, and the living souls of men.  But for all that Nature had her
way with him; sealing up eyes and mind with the double seal of
weariness and the supreme content of the climber who knows that the
summit is at hand.

And upon the fourth day, in a blaze of sunlight, that set the uncharted
snow-fields glittering like dust of diamonds, they crossed the
Pass,--Lenox's own Pass, that no living man had set eyes or foot
upon,--and looked at last on that elusive 'other side,' that draws
certain natures like a magnet to the far-flung limits of earth.

And in this case the other side proved well worth the hardships endured
to reach it.  After 30 many days cooped up between ice-walls and
precipitous heights, Lenox caught his breath at the magnitude of the
view outspread before him; an amphitheatre of 'the greater gods', ridge
beyond ridge, peak beyond dazzling peak, stabbing the blue, the highest
of them little lower than Everest's self: while across the rock-bound
valley a host of glaciers, like primeval monsters, crept downward from
the mountains that gave them birth.

As Lenox stood feasting his soul upon the splendour of it all, he knew
that this was one of the great days of his life: that only Quita's
inspiring presence was needed to crown the triumph of it.  Even in the
first glow of achievement, his heart turned instinctively to hers for
sympathy and approval: and, could she have known it, her haunting fear
that the mountains would prove too strong for her had crumbled into
nothingness there and then.  For if 'many waters cannot quench love,'
neither can many mountains dwarf it.  When all is said, it is still
'the great amulet that makes the world a garden', and always will be,
while God's men and women have red blood in their veins.



[1] Big dinner.

[2] Great excitement.




CHAPTER XXXIV.

  "And echo circles in the air,
  Is this the end--is this the end?"
        --Tennyson.


September was drawing to a close.  Every day the sun fought a losing
battle against the frost and bitter winds of the Pamirs, that pierce
even through sheep-skin coats to the marrow of the bones; and every
night the thermometer fell to zero, or below it.  For winter begins
betimes on the "Roof of the World."

On just such a night of keen stars, and still, penetrating cold, Lenox
sat alone in his circular tent of felt and lattice-work--the one form
of habitation used by the nomads of the district--his coat-collar
turned up, a rug round his legs, his fingers numb and blue, writing up
the official and private records of his week's work.  In the middle of
the floor a fire of roots flamed and crackled cheerfully enough, the
smoke, and most of the heat, escaping through a hole in the domed roof
above.  A felt rug or two, a camp chair and table, and three sheep-skin
bags, laid out for sleeping, gave an air of rough comfort to the place.
But with the thermometer at zero, fuel scarce, and provisions running
very low, actual comfort was past praying for.  Lenox shifted his chair
an inch or two nearer the blaze, drawing the camp table along with him,
and disturbing Brutus, who acted as foot-warmer in return for the
privilege of sleeping under the rug.

"Sorry to shunt you, old chap," he apologised aloud.  "But you're a
deal better off down there than I am."

Sundry tappings on his left foot signified grateful acknowledgment of
the fact, as Brutus settled himself afresh and dropped back into the
land of dreams, whither Lenox would gladly have followed him.  For the
week had been a hard one, and he was very tired.  The frost seemed to
have gripped both body and brain, and too long a spell of
mountaineering at high altitudes was beginning to tell upon his
strength; so that he had been thankful for the flat expanses of the
Pamirs, which had made riding possible and pleasant once again.

His entrance into the brigand state, and his polite, but unequivocal
ultimatum to its insubordinate chief had been carried through, not
without moments of uncertainty and danger, yet with complete success,
and throughout the past six weeks he had been enjoying his first big
tour of that strange region of raised valleys and vast, wind-swept
spaces where the boundary lines of three Empires meet.

Since the night when he had flung away the cherished pill-box that now
lay regally entombed under fifty feet of snow, he had suffered no
collapse.  His gradual method of unwinding the chain had averted that
final danger and degradation.  Bat there had been days when all his
training in self-discipline had been needed to restrain him from
applying to Zyarulla, whose kummerbund held a perennial store of the
precious drug,--the more so since his Ladaki 'cook'--chosen mainly for
his powers of endurance--knew rather less about the primitive
requirements of camp catering than Lenox himself; and in spite of keen
air and exercise his appetite had steadily fallen away.  There were
rare days, of course, when he could have eaten camel's flesh, and that
gratefully; but there were many more when the mere man yearned towards
the luxury of plate and silver, of varied meats, and the sparkle of an
iced peg.  To-night his 'dinner' consisted of a large cup of cocoa,
some native biscuits, and a lump of milk-cheese made by the Khirgiz,
whose domed huts and scattered flocks are the only signs of human life
in this dry region of snow and sun and tireless wind.

On the table at his elbow, besides the steaming cocoa, were two camp
candlesticks, some closely written sheets of a letter to Quita, and her
last that had reached him outside Hunza five weeks ago.  Each one he
had received showed more clearly how the mysterious influence of
absence was winning for him that volatile essence of her which had
eluded his grasp throughout six months of personal contact, and years
of unwearied devotion.  Of the deeper, hidden forces at work on his
behalf, he guessed nothing.  Only he was aware of subtle changes taking
place in her--of an indefinable softening and uplifting of the whole
woman, that increased tenfold his longing for a reunion which promised
to be closer, more consummate than the best that they had achieved as
yet.

But to-night, because body and spirit were flagging unawares, the miles
upon miles of inhospitable mountain country, that must be traversed
before he could regain the outposts of civilised life, overpowered his
imagination.  To-night, for the first time, despondency and the ache of
desire magnified the very real dangers ahead--the lateness of the
season, the uncertainty of weather and supplies.  Difficulties in
respect of transport had obliged him to cut down his commissariat,
despatching the remainder, with his heavy baggage, to await him on the
Indian side of the Darkót Pass--the last great obstacle that cut him
off from India, and from the dear woman, never dearer than at this
moment.  It was a risk, of course, and a big one.  But mountaineering
implies risks; and the man who is not prepared to face them and sleep
soundly on them, had better stick to his armchair and an office.

The original risk had been increased by the fact that his programme of
exploration had taken longer than he calculated, and now ominous
snow-clouds, a rapidly dwindling food supply, and his own importunate
heart, urged an immediate start for the terrible Wakhan Valley and the
Darkót Pass.  It meant a race for life--that he saw plainly enough.
The chances were ten to one against the Pass being open after the 1st
of October--the earliest date by which he could hope to get across.

With a sigh, he closed his diaries, emptied the cup of cocoa at a gulp,
and took out of his breast-pocket a folded leather frame.  It contained
a photo of Quita in evening dress--a photo so disturbingly alive that
in general he contented himself with the knowledge that it was there.
But now he sat looking at it long and intently, till the eyes seemed to
soften and speech hovered on the too-expressive lips.  Almost the music
of her voice was in his ears, when the night's colossal stillness was
broken by voices of a very different quality--the deep tones of the two
Pathans and the interpreter, who, on this lightly-equipped expedition,
were sharing his tent; while the six little Gurkhas, packed like
sardines into a smaller one, seemed to find the experience as amusing
as they found the whole varied field of life.  It takes more than mere
hardship to knock the spirits out of a Gurkha.

As the three men entered, Lenox slipped the frame back into his pocket;
and, with a few friendly words, gave them leave to retire into their
sleeping bags, while Zyarulla laid out his master's 'bed' on the
farther side of the fire.  That done, he came forward, and, squatting
on his heels, held out fingers like knotted twigs to the blaze.  Lenox,
under a pretence of reading, sat watching him spellbound, knowing
precisely what would happen next.  Nor was he mistaken.  Presently the
thawed fingers fumbled at his kummerbund, produced a discoloured twist
of paper, opened it, and taking out two familiar dark pellets, tossed
them down his throat.  In the act he met his master's gaze fixed on him
with strange intensity, and at once two more pellets appeared upon his
palm.

"Will not the Sahib honour his servant by partaking also?" he asked,
proffering his treasure.  "The cold increaseth every hour, and the
Heaven-born hath had too little food to-day."

It was a moment before Lenox could find his voice; not because
temptation mastered him, but because he could scarcely believe the
evidence of his brain.  The sight of the forbidden thing within easy
reach no longer tormented him as it would have done two months ago.
The habit of resistance was beginning to take effect at last; and,
almost before Zyarulla had time to wonder at his silence, Lenox had
waved aside his open palm.

"No, no," he said quietly.  "I have eaten enough, and thou wilt need
all and more before we set foot in a bazaar again.  Opium is not for
Sahibs.  For the Pathan people, who are made of wood and iron, it may
be very well; but for the white man it is poison."

The Asiatic shook his head, and a light gleamed under his grizzled
brows.

"Great is the wisdom of the Sahib; yet in this matter have I also some
knowledge.  The Dream Compeller is no poison, Hazúr, but Allah's
bountiful gift to man, bringing strength out of weakness, peace out of
turmoil, even as the rain draweth grass from parched earth.
Nevertheless, it is as your Honour wills."

And Lenox, still watching the man's movements with a strange mingling
of indifference and triumph, saw the miracle-worker--of whose powers he
knew far more than the Pathan--disappear unhindered into the folds of
the man's kummerbund; saw himself once more a free man,--captain of the
soul and body given into his charge.

"Now it is time to sleep," he said, pushing back his chair, and rising
so abruptly that Brutus stumbled on to his feet, and emerged from the
folds of the rug with an injured air.  "All things are in readiness for
setting out?"

"Hazúr, all things are in readiness."

"It is well.  Scatter ashes on the fire, and call me at dawn."

And as he slipped into the sheep-skin bag, his whole heart echoed the
words, "It is well."  Let him only win his way back to the wife whose
spirit called to him across the silence and the miles, and all would be
well indeed!

Ten minutes later, the candles were put out; the glow of the fire
quenched; while outside the temperature fell steadily, and a sky heavy
with threatening cloud brooded over the sleeping camp.


Lenox woke before dawn to find a creditable snow-peak piled above his
dead fire, while flakes as large as plucked feathers whirled and
fluttered down upon it through the generous hole in the roof.  The
three natives had vanished, sleeping bags and all; and the Ladaki cook,
with the astounding patience of his kind, had coaxed into life a fire
large enough to make his master a cup of tea from the few remaining
spoonfuls of the magic leaf, more priceless to the mountaineer than
brandy.

It was a bad beginning.  Even the Gurkhas looked grave, and shook their
heads.  The sky, low and heavy with tumbled cloud, was a study in greys
and indigoes; the earth a still, uncharted waste.  No whisper of wind
or trees; no sound of life; no break of colour anywhere, from the level
plain to the galaxy of peaks and rounded shoulders tossed aloft like a
frozen tempest.  Only at intervals, far up the mountain-sides, black
specks--that were grazing yaks--suggested a Khirgiz encampment
cunningly hidden in the folds of the hills.  Presumably the sun was up,
though the east showed as lifeless and unpromising as any other quarter
of the heavens.

A detailed investigation of the commissariat department--revealing a
serious shortage of tea, cocoa, and rice, to say nothing of minor
essentials--proved no less discouraging than the aspect of earth and
sky.  Only by the most stringent economy could the little store be
persuaded to last out four days, by which time they hoped to be over
the pass.  Lenox, as usual, blamed himself.

"Extra work on siege rations is about our programme!" he remarked with
grim humour to his devoted ally the little Havildar.  "We must manage
the first three marches in two days if possible.  But I'm sorry to have
let you all in for a risk of this kind."

"All right, Sahib," the Gurkha answered with a brisk salute.  "We be
Frontier soldiers.  It is not the first time.  And 'when sparrows have
picked up the grain where is the use of regret?'  If there be enough
for your Honour all is well.  The black man can tighten his belt, and
forget that the stomach is empty!"  He tightened his own on the spot;
and went off to bid his brothers do likewise on pain of dire penalties.

Stepping down, undismayed, from the voiceless, trackless Roof of the
World, they were met by a desolating wind; the feathered snow-flakes
changed to a storm of sleet,--stinging, saturating; and only the
knowledge that twenty-four hours delay might mean a blocked pass and
another six months of isolation from his kind, induced Lenox to urge
his men forward in the teeth of it.

As it was, they pushed doggedly on over snow-sodden tracks, that were
speedily converted into drainage rivulets; trailing single file along
the 'devil's pathways' that overhang the Wakhan river,--mere ledges cut
out of the cliff's face, where a false step means dropping a hundred
feet and more into the valley beneath; scrambling up giant staircases
of rock, and glacier _débris_; zigzagging down one or two thousand
feet, by the merest suggestion of a route, only to start a fresh
climb--drenched and weary--after floundering through a local torrent,
rushing full 'spate' from the hills.  Such crossings, without bridge or
boat, through streams ice-cold as the glaciers that gave them birth,
formed the most exciting episodes of the day's march.  They had at
least the merit of creating a diversion, if a damp and dangerous one.
For the Kashmir baggage ponies, battling helplessly against a current
strong enough to sweep them off their feet, could only be guided and
controlled by showers of stones, and a chorus of picturesque terms of
abuse from their distracted drivers.  The Gurkhas, whose irrepressible
spirits kept the rest from flagging, enjoyed these interludes to the
top of their bent; plunging waist-deep into the icy water, shaking
themselves like terriers as they scrambled out on the far side, and
shouting incessantly to each other, or to the terrified animals, till
the cliffs echoed with ghostly voices and laughter.

Along tracks possible and impossible Lenox rode his tireless scrap of a
hill pony, who climbed like a goat, and whose unshod feet picked their
way unerringly even over rocks covered with new snow that gave no
foothold to man or beast.  The rest walked; while the baggage ponies
slid and stumbled, and scrambled in their wake with the stupefied
meekness of their kind.

Journeying thus,--now drenched with snow and sleet, now heartened by
rare bursts of sunshine,--through the worst bit of hill country between
Persia and China, they camped at last in the grim Wakhan valley,
rightly named 'the Valley of Humiliation.'  To Lenox, the name struck
home with a peculiar force.  For his time-saving scheme had failed.
The three marches had not been accomplished in two days.  Evil weather,
incessant delays, and the impossibility of hurrying baggage animals
over dangerous ground, had prevailed against him.  The valley had
conquered: and for the man remained nothing but stoical acceptance of
defeat, and the 'half of a broken hope' that even in heaven and earth's
despite, he might yet win through in time.

On a night of intermittent moonbeams and racing cloud, the scene from
the little camp across the river had a sombre majesty--a suggestion of
impersonal, relentless power that crushes rather than uplifts; that
dwarfs man, with his puny struggles and aspirations, to a pin-point of
sand on an illimitable shore.  Colossal ice-bound spurs walled them in;
their sides astonishingly steep, their embattled heads shattered by sun
and frost into fantastic peaks, from which masses of rock and stones
are hurled down into the valley, when rain and melting snow begin their
yearly task of modelling the face of the earth.  And between these
threatening heights the Wakhan river hurried, a pale streak of light,
now grey, now silver, as the clouds, like great birds of ill-omen,
chased one another across the moon.

The sinister aspect of the place had its effect on Lenox,
hypersensitised as he was by anxiety over lost hours, and by the
premonitory chill of fever, strengthening that prescience of disaster
which saps spirit and courage more surely than disaster itself.  But
they were on the march again betimes, next morning, breasting the
northern slopes of the Hindu Kush, which at this point can be crossed
without much difficulty.  Before noon they were over the crest; and
Lenox, weary at last of his nightmare struggle with the mountains,
dropped thankfully into the Yarkhun valley, beyond which towered his
last great obstacle--the Darkót Pass.

It was late afternoon, and, come what might, he intended to requisition
a guide (no easy matter) and push his way across at daylight.  But
neither earth nor heaven had a word of encouragement for the man who
scanned them with tired, desperate eyes.  At his feet the Yarkhun river
whirled and foamed, a grey glacier torrent, thick with the milky scum
of ice-ground salt; beyond it the ink-black gorge leading to the summit
was shrouded in a scroll of threatening cloud; and the first natives
whom they questioned as to the state of the pass replied unconcernedly
that it had been closed four days; adding that no man who valued his
life would attempt to cross it in uncertain weather.

To force his little contingent forward in the face of such news seemed
nothing less than murder and suicide of an elevated type.  But Lenox,
gritting his teeth on a curse, despatched Zyarulla in search of more
precise information, and ordered his tent to be set up without delay.
For even at times of despondency and ill-health, the man possessed his
full share of that 'outward-going force' which is the hall-mark of the
Scottish race; and the instant books and maps were available, he sat
down, filled a pipe from his dwindling store of tobacco, and proceeded
to look out possible alternatives should the worst befall.

There were two: desperate resources both, yet one degree better than
imprisonment in the Yarkhun valley till it pleased the snows to melt.
They could follow the course of the river to Chitral,--no Frontier
outpost then, but an independent Native State; or work their way, by
faith and courage, through the wild Swat country to the Punjab.  The
state of both routes was unknown; the question of supplies a hopeless
one; and amid a chaos of uncertainties, bad weather was the one thing
that might safely be counted on in October.  To crown all, their line
of communication must, in either case, be broken.  They would be lost
to the outside world for many days, if not weeks; and apart from
consideration for his wife, Lenox was the last man to enjoy creating a
temporary excitement at headquarters.

None the less, after thinking himself into a blinding headache, he
decided to face the Chitral route, if snow fell, and if Zyarulla
brought no better news about the pass.  Then, because his last cup of
tea was being held in reserve for breakfast, he contented himself with
goat's milk, a slab of chocolate, and native biscuits that served him
for bread.

It was late before Zyarulla returned, with a companion,--a native from
Yasin, on the Indian side of the Pass.

"This man, Sahib, hath even now crossed over from Darkót village," the
Pathan explained, indicating the wizened leader of a forlorn hope with
the air of a showman exhibiting a curiosity.  "He came to fetch the
remains of his sister, who died in this valley, that she may be buried
among her own people.  I have therefore engaged him as guide, to take
the Sahib over on his return."

"The thing can be done?" Lenox asked, with an eagerness not to be
repressed; and the small man bowed his head upon his hands.

"Allah alone can answer the question of the Heaven-born.  For one man
to travel safely among glaciers and crevasses without number, it was no
easy matter--and as for a company of men and ponies, how can this slave
tell?  Nevertheless, if the Sahib wills, and there is no snow before
morning, I go before, showing the way; and that which will fall--will
fall."

"Good.  That is a bargain.  Fulfil it, and thy reward shall be worth
the winning.  Let yaks be ordered from the nearest _aul_; and at
daylight we set out."

The man from Yasin salaamed and departed; but at the tent door Zyarulla
paused, a glitter of triumph in his eyes.

"Captain Sahib,--was it well done?"

"Excellently done," Lenox answered, smiling.  "Thou art worth thy
weight in tobacco of the first quality!"

And the Pathan, knowing that to his master the value of tobacco was
above all the rupees ever minted, went out to patronise lesser mortals,
and impress them with the fact that he was not as other men, since he
had rendered signal service to "the first-best Sahib in all India,
whose eyes pierce the earth, and whose feet tread upon the necks of
mountains even as those of common Sahibs scatter the dust of cities!"

That night, ominous pains in his limbs and a sensation as of cold water
down his spine drove Lenox to open his second and last bottle of
brandy.  Stimulated by the kindly spirit, he wrestled with a fowl
tougher than india-rubber, and slept as a doomed man might sleep on the
night of his reprieve.

But he woke to hear the tread of his sentry muffled by new-fallen snow;
and hope died in him at the sound.  Outside, the world was white with
it; the whole air thick with it; yet his men were striking camp and
loading up, confident in the white man's reputation for achieving the
impossible.  Only the little guide demurred, trembling at his own
audacity.

"Hazúr, look whether the thing can be done.  I said--if no snow fell."

"And _I_ say, if it fall or no, we cross to-day," Lenox answered, with
more of assurance than he felt.  "Bid the yaks go forward to prepare a
way for our coming."

The great shaggy beasts went forward accordingly, head downward,
ploughing a way through the snow, to make marching easier and disclose
hidden pitfalls or crevasses; and by the time Lenox had despatched a
travesty of a breakfast, a pallid light in the east hinted that the
storm might be local after all.  Wet and draggled as they were, the
order was given to load up and start; and even as they crossed the
torrent to the foot of the glacier, earth and sky leaped suddenly into
light; broken streaks of radiance danced and sparkled on the river, and
the sun swept the shadows from hill and valley, converting their
deathlike shroud into a glittering garment, stainless as the soul of a
child.

"Inshallah!!  Now all is well!"

It was the deep voice of Yusuf Ali; and Lenox heard his cheery little
friend, the Havildar, make answer, "True talk, brother; the gods favour
those who go forward!"

Cheered by the prospect of getting dry, and by the sun's mysterious
power to exhilarate all things living, the whole party quickened their
pace.  But in less than an hour fresh clouds had rolled up, blotting
out the sun; and on the glacier they overtook the yaks and their
drivers, lumbering soberly through the snow-drifts with true Oriental
disregard for time.

The men chorussed voluble excuses; but since time meant life or death,
Lenox waved them aside impatiently, and ordered the guide to go on,
making his own tracks as best he might.  The which he did, with the
help of two others, pressed into service by promises of liberal
backsheesh, stepping out valiantly at the head of the mixed procession;
his sister's remains--tied up in a wisp of turban--bobbing over his
shoulder; driving on before him a donkey followed by a goat.  And the
unerring instinct by which this despised creature of God avoided hidden
fissures and crevasses must needs be seen to be believed.

The guides, keeping in the tracks of the animals, marked off dangerous
places with their sticks; and behind them rode Lenox, muffled to the
eyes in poshteen and Balaklava cap, his league of leg barely two feet
off the ground; his keen little pony--long since christened 'The
Rat'--almost as trustworthy on dangerous ground as the donkey himself.
And wherever he led, all self-respecting Kashmiri ponies would
follow,--even into a crevasse!

Through four mortal hours they plodded on, a strange procession of
muffled figures, leaving in their wake a dark, contorted track, as
though some wounded thing had writhed its way upward through the frozen
snow.

And by one o'clock the crest was in sight!  "The gods favour those who
go forward!"  Chundra Sen had spoken truth.  Another half hour would
see them through the worst; and Lenox--scarcely able to believe in his
good fortune--urged The Rat to renewed exertion, and shouted to his men
to hurry on.

But the gods are nothing if not capricious; and the 'advanced guard,'
reaching the summit, found no promised land spread out below them, but
a mass of blue-black cloud, heavy with snow, surging up the valley,
with the rush of a tidal wave and the breath of an iceberg, blotting
out creation as it came; till it shrouded the little band of
men--'unconquering, yet unconquered'--in a sinister twilight, cold as
Death's own self.

There was nothing to be said or done.  They simply stood still, and
waited for the end:--the Asiatics with the phlegm of fatalism; Lenox
with the stillness of despair.

"Checkmate," he muttered grimly.  "Two hours of this will about finish
us off."

In two seconds his moustache was frozen to his face; his limbs numbed,
so that movement became imperative.  Mechanically he dismounted,
stamped his feet, and beat his arms across his chest as the others were
doing; a proceeding about as effective as thimblefuls of water flung on
a fire.  For every moment the iron clutch of frost tightened and
penetrated; even, it seemed, to the life-blood in his veins.  But
through its deadening influence the thought of Quita struck like a
knife-thrust.  "God help her!" his heart cried out in bitter rebellion
against his own helplessness to shield her from pain.  "It will hit her
hard.  But she has grit;--and her art.  She will live it down."

For five awful minutes the darkness held; and the men waited;--free yet
helpless, like castaways on an open sea.  Yet no snow fell.

Suddenly Lenox was aware of Brutus rubbing against his leg, plainly
demanding what was wrong.  He stooped and caressed the ugly head of his
eight years' companion and friend.  "Rough luck on you, old chap.  You
never asked to come."

For answer Brutus licked his woollen glove.  And as he straightened
himself, Chundra Sen came up and saluted.

"Captain Sahib, it is strange.  No snow falls; and the darkness
moves--moves.  May be it is not the storm itself; but a cloud that will
pass."

"I doubt it, Havildar," Lenox answered, smiling at the characteristic
suggestion.  Yet his eyes, half-blinded with snow-glare, peered
anxiously southward, and detected a change; a faint hint of
transparency, as though light were struggling through.

The Gurkha detected it also.

"Hazúr, behold!--The cloud _will_ pass."  His teeth flashed out
exultant.  "A good tale is not to be bought with cowries; and we shall
tell this one in India before many weeks be out."

Chundra Sen was right.  With astonishing swiftness the twilight paled
from grey to white; a streak of spectral sunlight quivered through,
like life creeping back into the face of death; and the cloud rolled
harmlessly over into the Yarkhun valley behind them.

It was but a herald of the great battalion that billowed up an hour
later, enveloping glacier, peak, and crag, and sealing up the pass for
seven months to come.

But by then, they were clattering recklessly down the slope,
helter-skelter, like a pack of children let out of school; slithering
over fissured glacier and moraine, sending loose boulders flying from
rock to rock; the Gurkhas shouting and laughing, the Kashmiri coolies
breaking into weird snatches of song.  Even The Rat lost his sober
little head, and in scuttling over a glacier slope sat suddenly down
upon his tail, dog fashion, landing Lenox on his feet, and sliding away
from under him, to the vociferous delight of every one but himself.
Only the two Pathans and the Scot accepted reprieve as imperturbably as
they had accepted sentence of death; suggesting by their silence, in
the midst of excitement, the large reserves of strength common to the
natures of both.

Before five they had sighted the willows and poplars of Darkót; and by
sunset they were encamped outside the village, walled in with a rugged
amphitheatre of granite and limestone cliffs.  Here they found the man
in charge of the welcome caravan of supplies and heavy baggage, taking
his ease, a little puzzled, yet in no wise troubled at the Sahib's
delay.

Lenox, broken with fatigue, relief, and incipient illness, realised, as
he sank into his camp chair, that throughout the past week he had kept
himself going by pure force of will.  And his record was a fair one,
even as Frontier records go:--incessant marching in wet clothes, on a
minimum of food, culminating in ten hours of severe exposure and the
acutest anxiety he had ever known.  And over and above all such
incidentals of the day's work,--achievement, in full measure, of that
which he had set out to do; not merely in respect of his mission, but
in respect of that hidden struggle and victory, 'that weighed not as
his work, yet swelled the man's amount.'  For he knew now that by the
God-given power of sheer, unwearied resistance he had vanquished an
evil the most insidious and alluring that can assail a man; knew that
he had put the accursed thing under his feet; and he meant to keep it
there.

But the struggle, combined with hardship and privation, had left its
mark on him.  The protests of Nature had been disregarded; and now she
took her revenge in the sledge-hammer fashion that is hers.

By next morning the man's skin was like hot parchment, his limbs rigid
with pain, his brain verging on delirium; and before evening it was
clear that rheumatic fever had him in its relentless grip.

The Gurkhas and Zyarulla were in despair.  Chundra Sen, goaded by
responsibility for the safety of his officer, set out, straightway, by
double marches for Srinagar, determined to cover the distance in ten
days; while the Pathan, commanding a _charpoy_[1] from the headman of
the village, remained to exorcise the 'fever devil' with the rude skill
and limitless patience of his kind.

But he reaped small reward for his pains.  Racked with rheumatism and
burnt up with fever, Lenox had almost reached the end of his tether;
and through the awful hours of delirium, Zyarulla could only crouch,
helpless, by the bedside; listening, listening to the hoarse, hurried
mutterings, of which he could understand nothing beyond the frequent
recurrence of the Mem-sahib's name.

Each day life flickered more uncertainly in the great gaunt frame; and
on the morning when Chundra Sen, with a dapper little doctor, set his
face towards Darkót, Zyarulla, kneeling beside his unheeding master,
bowed his head upon his hands.

"It is the will of God," he muttered.  But the formula carried no
conviction to his heart, that whispered rather: "It is the work of
Sheitan, the accursed."



[1] String-bed.




CHAPTER XXXV.

  "Why was the pause prolonged, but that singing should issue thence?
  Why rushed the discords in, but that harmony should be prized!"
        --Browning.


Quita Lenox lay back in a long low chair, lost in thought, her hands
clasped behind her head, the folds of her dull-blue tea-gown trailing
on the carpet.  A cushion of darker blue threw into stronger relief the
brighter tints of her hair; and at her throat three rough lumps of
Tibetan turquoise--recently sent by Lenox--hung on a fine gold chain.
His last letter, full of the discovery of his Pass, lay open on her
knee,--read and re-read till its contents were stamped upon her brain;
and it seemed to her high time that a fresh one came to take its place.
But the days slipped by--uneventful days, in which the long chair
played a definite part--and no envelope in his hand-writing came to
cheer her.

Yet she was far removed from unhappiness.  Her increasing pride in him,
and in his achievement, prevented that.  Only there were moments when
the inner vision was too vivid; moments between sleep and waking when
pictures trooped unbidden through the corridors of her brain; when
neither sleep nor effort of will could shield her from that awful
visualisation of the dreaded thing, which is the artist's penalty in
the day of trouble.  At such times, the fear that he might slip out of
her life without knowledge of the great fact, that no amount of
repetition can minimise, nor custom stale; without knowledge that
through his long love and constancy she had attained to the 'greatest
creative art of all,' had almost dragged her out of bed at midnight to
begin the letter that should carry the word to him amid the sublimity
of his glaciers and eternal silences.  But always something stronger
than fear had restrained her; so that the weeks had dropped away one by
one, like faded petals, and the secret that was to be the crowning
glory of their new life together still lay hidden in her heart.

The cheerful round of festivities common to an Indian Hill season had
passed her by; and she was content to have it so.  Between her canvas
and her unpractised needle, between the companionship of Michael, and
of the Desmonds--while they were 'up'--her days had gone softly, yet
pleasantly and profitably in more respects than one.  For it is in the
pauses between times of activity and stress that the still small voice
of God speaks most clearly to the soul; that power is generated and
garnered against the hidden things that shall be.  It is in the pauses
that we can, as it were, stand back a space from our own corner of the
picture we are so zealously making or marring, and catch an
illuminating glimpse of the proportions of the whole.

Thus it had been with Quita Lenox.  In these four months of seeming
inactivity, the large, underlying forces of life had been silently at
work in her, touching the impressionable spirit of her to 'fine issues'
that the sure years would reveal.  Nor had her time of quiet been
lacking in immediate results.  A completed picture stood to her credit;
and a drawer full of surprising achievements in the way of needlecraft;
achievements so pathetically small that at times the sight of them
brought tears to her eyes.

But this afternoon neither brush nor needle tempted her.  In spirit she
was with her husband, trying by concentration of thought to bridge the
space between.  But always her thoughts ended in one cry: If only--if
only--he could get back in time!

Michael Maurice had stayed on at the Crow's Nest, possibly
from laziness, possibly for other reasons; and its little
studio-drawing-room was as attractive, as untidy, and as eloquent of
Quita's personality as it had been sixteen months ago.  It was late
August now; and a week's break in the rains had given the drenched
hills and those who dwelt upon them a foretaste of that elixir of light
and air which makes September the crowning month of the Himalayan year.
And to Quita it gave promise that her days of waiting were numbered.
In a week she would follow the Desmonds to Dera Ishmael, and remain
with them, at their urgent invitation, till her husband's return.  The
friendly smile of the sun after days of downpour and restless mist
lifted her to renewed hope that in spite of the mountains he would
surely reach her in time.

From the open door a stream of afternoon light barred the room with
gold.  Passing across her prostrate figure, it fell full upon her
easel, and upon the picture in which she had tried to express her own
solution of the artist's eternal problem--Art or Love.  It had been
begun as a subject-picture, inspired by the impassioned cry of Aurora
Leigh: "Oh, Art, my Art!  Thou art much; but Love is more!"  Then
because her taste leaned always to the actual, and because the picture
was to be a present for her husband, the woman's figure had grown into
a portrait of herself; a thing so living, so eloquent of her new
appealing charm, that even Michael's critical spirit had been roused to
enthusiasm.  He had one quarrel only with her achievement, namely, that
it was not to be his own!

In detail, the picture was simplicity itself.  Merely the woman beside
her easel, turning eagerly away from it as if at the sound of a
footstep; every line and curve of her athrill with expectancy, her eyes
luminous with the dawn of a new truth, a new ecstasy of heart and
spirit; while at her feet her palette lay broken in a dozen pieces, and
her canvas had fallen, unheeded, to the ground.  An open doorway behind
her revealed a glimpse of sunlit verandah, trellis-work and
honeysuckle; revealed also an unmistakable length of shadow,--the head
and shoulders of the man whose large, lonely personality had so taken
possession of her, as to transform her whole vision of life.  And below
the canvas, on the gilding of the frame, were graven the words: 'Love
is more.'

For all her delight in this last work of her hands, there were days
when the sight of it pricked her to an anguish of impatience, shadowed
always by the darker anguish of fear lest the ecstasy she had so
vividly portrayed should be snatched untasted from out her grasp; lest
the footstep her heart hungered for should never come back into her
life.  But she fought resolutely against such black moods, for
Michael's sake no less than her own.  His joy in getting her back had
done much to soften the pang of separation; and now, while she lay
waiting and dreaming,--too lazy to pour out tea till he came--it was
his footstep that put her dreams to flight.

He had been out on the Kajiar road 'taking notes,' and he flourished a
sketch-book at her by way of greeting.

"Tea, _chérie_?  _Ah, c'est bien_.  I am thirsty!"

She flung out her left hand and took possession of the book.

"Pour it out yourself, there's a dear; and mine too."

"_Voilà donc_!  What laziness!"

"Energetic people are privileged to be lazy--sometimes."

He laughed, and obeyed her, setting a cup and plate within reach.

"You seem to have been making the most of your privilege.  Have you
done anything while I was out?"

"But yes.  I have been possessing my soul in quietness; and--I have
been talking to Eldred."

He passed a caressing hand over her hair.

"_Pauvre petite_!  How much of that do you really believe?"

"Don't ask uncomfortable questions!  At least it helps a little when I
feel I can't wait any longer, and--I am almost sure it helps him too.
I shall find that out when--_if_ he gets back."

"Let 'ifs' alone, _ma belle_.  They are gadflies of the devil's
breeding.  That great Scotchman of yours would work his way back to
you, if he had to go through hell to do it.  _Moi, je le sais_."

She flushed softly; and her eyes looked beyond his through the open
doorway, rapt and shining.

"You _do_ believe in him now, Michel," she said.  "And you forgive him?
He has made me so supremely happy."

Michael shook his head.

"Was I ever an altruist, _petite soeur_?  If the man had not made you
happy, I should never have rested till I had you back again.  As it
is--" he shrugged his shoulders with an expressive turn of the
hands--"one is glad--for your sake; and one makes the best of an empty
house.  But, _mon Dieu_! it _is_ empty without you, Quita!  You have
light and fire in you;--now, more than ever.  You have temperament.
You inspire a man.  Your absence actually affects the quality of my
work.  Absurd; but true!  And as for my affairs--_nom de Dieu_, the
money slips away like water, but the bills never get paid!  You saw how
it was when you came.  And in one little week you go again, with a
light heart; while I return, _faute de mieux_, to my 'wallowing in the
mire!'"

"_Mon pauvre Michel_!" she said softly.  "What a tragedy!  You make me
wish I was twins!"

But a smile gleamed through her tenderness; for, while she loved him
dearly, she knew every turn and phase of his character; knew that the
picture of desolation, so feelingly drawn, was seen for the moment
through the magnifying lens of self-pity.  Yet her concern for him was
genuine, deep-rooted, a habit dating from the days of pinafores and
broken toys.  To keep Michael happy had, for long, been the chief part
of her religion: the least of his troubles, real or imaginary, still
had the ancient entry to her heart; and now she leaned impulsively
towards him, elbows on knees, her chin in her hands, her eyes resting
in his.

"It is not true that I leave you lightly, _mon cher_; nor that I love
you less because I have given myself to another--body and soul.
Indeed, I think the very bigness of my feeling for him has made love go
deeper with me in all directions, has opened my eyes to see that to
love means no less than changing the axis on which one's whole nature
revolves.  There's the stumbling-block with us artists.  We rebel by
instinct against anything that threatens to encroach upon our cherished
_ego_; and excuse ourselves on the plea that it would undermine our
art.  But that is not true;--oh, believe me it's not."

Michael's shoulders went up again, and he smiled indulgently.  But
behind the smile lurked a shadow of gravity unusual in him.  He had
been aware of hidden changes in her, but this was his first glimpse
into the depths.

"Possibly not, _chérie_--for a woman," he admitted grudgingly.  "But
for a man----"

"Yes, even for a man, dear ignoramus!" she broke in eagerly, setting
her two hands upon his knees.  "Love may fill more of a woman's
horizon; but it goes deeper with men,--of the right sort, even if they
are artists!  Look at Browning.  _He_ knew.  A big brain may set you on
a pinnacle, Michel; but a big love keeps you human, sets your pulses
beating in tune with all the hidden harmonies of the world."

A hot wave of shyness checked her.  She withdrew her hands hastily, and
sat upright.

"_Tiens_!  But I am preaching!  A new vice, _n'est ce pas_?"

"New enough to be interesting, . . and forgivable!  What's your text?"

"Need you ask?  The first remark ever made upon the subject: 'It is not
good that the man should be alone.'"

A dull flush showed under Michael's sallow akin.

"_C'est à dire, il faut se ranger_!" he said with an embarrassed laugh.
"Well . . . find me a woman who understands and inspires me like
yourself, and it is possible,--I do not say probable,--that I may yet
fulfil the whole duty of man.  If one could only suggest a five years'
contract . . !"

"Michel!  You are incorrigible; and I have preached in vain!  Besides,
it is not a wife of my sort you need, I thought you found that out last
year; and . . .  I think so still.  If not, why have you stayed on
here?  And why did you make that exquisite pastel of her portrait?"

Michael's eyes seemed to demand an answer from the accusing picture;
and there was an instant of silence.

"I stayed on here," he said at length, "chiefly because, lacking you, I
seem to lack initiative; and I painted that . . well, as a memento of
my best bit of work, and of a dream, more delectable than most . . .
while it lasted; but none the less . . a dream."

"Yet you have seen a good deal of her this season, one way and another."

"Yes.  In spite of the Button Quail!"

"And it would hurt you it she were to marry another man?"

Michael frowned.  "There _is_ no other man, since Malcolm went home."

"Is there any man at all, I wonder?"

Michael rose abruptly, and going over to Elsie's portrait stood before
it, his hands clasped behind him.

"I have wondered also," he said on a rare note of gravity.  "But you
women are enigmas; even the simplest of you."

"Ask her, Michel; ask her.  Wondering is waste of time: and time is
life.  People so often forget that."

Maurice did not answer.  But Quita was well content: for she saw how
Elsie's violet-blue eyes were holding him, drawing him irresistibly
back to the old allegiance.  Yet, had she known it, Elsie's eyes had
less to do with the matter than her own stimulating personality.  The
subtle development in her had not been without its effect on him.  He
saw her transfigured by the exquisite, self-effacing passion of the
woman; and found himself envying the man; though the eloquence of her
appeal had, as usual, fired his imagination rather than his heart.

Suddenly he swung round upon her, his face alight.

"_Parbleu_, Quita, but you are right!  You always are.  And as there's
no time like now, I'll ask her to-day . . I have scarcely seen her this
last fortnight.  But that shall be atoned for . . later.  Give me your
blessing, _ma belle_!"

Half-seriously, half in joke, he knelt beside her chair.  But the
entrance of the kitmutgar with a note brought him swiftly to his feet.

"Talk of an angel!  It is herself," he exclaimed as he broke the seal.
"My demure little Puritan meets me half-way after all!"

He scanned the first page at a glance, then, with a sound between a
laugh and a curse, crumpled up the paper in his hand.

"_Mon Dieu_ . . a pretty bit of comedy!"

"What is it now, _mon cher_?" Quita asked anxiously, guessing his
answer.

"It is Malcolm; no less.  He reaps the reward of constancy; like the
good boy in a Sunday-school book!  And she . . _eh bien_, she is quite
certain I shall be delighted to hear of her great good fortune.  Very
charming!  Very correct!"

"And you, Michel . . _you_?"

He shrugged his shoulders, and tossed the note into the fender.

"_Comme ça_!  It seems I am a negligible quantity.  Possibly have been
all along.  The notion does not comfort a man's natural vanity.  But on
the whole . ." he paused; smiling at the concern in Quita's eyes, "on
the whole, _petite soeur_ . . . I am profoundly relieved!  I should
have proposed . . yes; and enjoyed a few weeks of Elysium.  But it is
certain I should never have delivered myself permanently into the hands
of a woman!  After that, it u useless to ask for your blessing, _n'est
ce pas_?"

"Quite useless!"

But the hands stretched out to him belied her words; and as he knelt
beside her once more, she set them upon his shoulders and kissed his
forehead.

"This time I give you up for good, Michel!" she said, smiling.  "At
least I have done my level best for you; so my conscience is clear.
But it is written that 'no man may redeem his brother'; and I might
have known that Providence was not likely to make an exception in
favour of a woman!"

"Is it perhaps a step towards redemption if, on your account, I give up
playing with the _feu sacré_ of the heart, and confine myself to the
only form of it that the gods appear to have granted me?"

"_Dieu vous garde_," she whispered, and kissed him again.




CHAPTER XXXVI.

  "I have my lesson; understand
  The worth of flesh and blood at last."
        --Browning.


"Oh, Theo--it is too cruel.  Too terrible!  What on earth is one to
tell her?"

"Anything but the truth," Desmond answered decisively, his gaze
reverting to the telegram in his hand.  It was from the Resident of
Kashmir; bald and brief, yet full of grim possibilities.


"Captain Lenox dangerously ill at Darkót.  Rheumatic fever.  Doctor
sent out.  Will wire further news.  Writing."


Desmond read and re-read the words mechanically, an anxious frown
between his brows.  Then, looking up again, he encountered his wife's
eyes, heavy with tears; and his arm enfolded her on the instant.

"Bear up, my darling, like the plucky woman you are," he commanded
gently, his lips against her cheek.  "It's not the worst.  By God's
mercy we may get him back yet.  You must keep on upholding her a little
longer; that's all.  I know it has been a strain for you,--this last
fortnight; so soon after your own affair too."

For they themselves had been enriched by a new life, a new link in the
chain that bound them--a bright-haired daughter not yet four months old.

Honor did not answer at once; but leaned upon him, choking back her
sobs, soothed by the magnetism of his hand and voice, that seemed
always to leave things better than they found them.

When her tears were under control, she drew herself up, brushing them
from her cheeks and lashes.

"Yes, it has been a strain," she admitted.  "And I did so hope this had
brought news I could give her, at last.  You don't see her as I do,
Theo, lying there day after day, so frail and white and patient.  Quita
patient!  Can you picture it?  I quite long for a flash of her old
perversity.  She has almost left off speaking of him.  But the eternal
question in her eyes haunts me; and I feel half ashamed of my golden
time with you, when I see her going through it alone, poor darling; her
natural joy in the child shadowed and broken by the anxiety and longing
that are eating her heart out, and holding her back from health.  Is
there nothing I can tell her, that would be truth, yet not all the
truth?"

Desmond knitted his brows again, pondering.

"Go to her now," he said.  "Tell her we've heard by wire that he is
safely over the Darkót, but he may be delayed in getting on to Kashmir,
and we hope for more news within the week.  If she asks to see the
wire, say you're sorry, but I tore it up."

He did so on the spot, dropping the shreds of paper reflectively among
the smouldering logs upon the hearth; while Honor hurried to the
sick-room, with her fragment of news: the room in which Lenox had
almost died of cholera, and in which Quita's ring had been restored to
her finger sixteen months before.

She lay in it now, propped up among frilled pillows, an etherealised
edition of herself; her hair divided into two plaits, one lying over
each shoulder; the sweeping curve of her lashes shadowing her cheek;
her eyes resting on a small dark head that nestled in the hollow of her
arm.  For, to Quita's intense satisfaction, the child had Eldred's
black hair, and the clear Northern eyes that held all she knew, or as
yet cared to know, of heaven.

Her delight at the inadequate tidings of her husband was greater than
Honor had dared to expect.  For she could not know how the wakeful
night watches, and the hours of enforced quiet, had been haunted by
that nightmare dread of the mountains, which Eldred's expurgated
accounts of certain vicissitudes had justified rather than dispelled.
But now--now he was through the worst of them, within easy distance of
Kashmir; and she felt as a prisoner may feel when the doors swing wide,
and he finds himself once more lord of light and space.

"Oh, Baby, think of it!" she whispered in ecstasy to the unheeding
morsel of life in her arms.  "He is coming--actually coming!  Nothing
can delay him very long now."

But the slow days multiplied into weeks; and still he did not come; and
the scanty news from Kashmir was not hopeful enough to be passed on to
her--yet.  Then, as she grew stronger, and more openly bewildered at
the silence and delay, Desmond decided to speak to her himself.  And
while the tale was still upon his lips, while Quita sat listening to
it, white and tearless, his hand grasping her own, a merciful fate
brought her an envelope quaveringly addressed in pencil, containing
word of definite progress at last, and an assurance that once he could
set foot to ground nothing should hold him back.

Ten days later the message, "Starting this morning," flashed through
space to Dera Ishmael from Kashmir; and after that each hour brought
him nearer.  A second flash from Lahore; a third from Jhung; and
Desmond, sending on a spare horse, rode down to the Indus to meet his
friend, in Oriental fashion, 'at the edge of the carpet.'

It was a gaunt, weather-beaten figure of a man that stepped out of the
ferry-boat and grasped his hand; but there was that in his bearing and
in his unshadowed eyes that told Desmond the chief of what he wished to
know.  For the rest, the greeting between them was of their race and
kind.

"Well, old chap, how are you?"

"Deuced glad to see you back again."

"And--Quita?"

"Deuced glad also, I suspect."

"Uncommonly kind of you both keeping her all this while."

"Kind?  It's been a privilege seeing so much of her.  We shall grudge
giving her up."

And Desmond bestowed a reflective glance on the man who guessed nothing
of the revelation in store for him.

Their talk riding back to the station was fitful and fragmentary.  All
that remained to be said--and there was a good deal of it--would come
out bit by bit, at odd moments, mainly under the influence of tobacco.
In the meantime, their mutual satisfaction went deeper than speech; and
it was enough.

At the drawing-room door they parted.

"You'll find all you need in there, I think," Desmond said, on a note
of profound understanding; and Lenox, putting a strong hand upon
himself, pushed aside the heavy curtain and stood, at last, before his
wife.

With a low cry, and arms outflung, she came to him; and that first
rapture of reunion, of the heart's passionate upheaval and
revealing--the more intense for the muteness of it--was a rapture
sacred to themselves alone; not to be pried upon or set down.  Such
moments--come they but once in a lifetime, to one among a hundred--are
God's reiterate answers to the problem of creation.  The man or woman
who has passed that way will never ask the soul's most withering
question: To what end was I born?  'The rest may reason and welcome.'
They are of the few who know.

Lenox and Quita swept headlong, as it were, to the crest of a wave,
dropped presently back to earth.  Then he set her a little away from
him, almost at arm's-length, the better to feast his eyes upon the
sight of her; and so became aware of the subtle change perceptible in
her letters:--some exquisite quality, the fruit of long waiting,
crowned by the miracle of motherhood; an appreciable softening of the
lips; a triumph of the essential woman over mere line and curve that
brought her near to actual beauty.  But it was the new depth and
tenderness in her eyes that drew and held him; eyes luminous, as never
before, with the pride, the exaltation, of a consummate
self-surrender,--not of necessity, but of free choice, the woman's
utmost gift to her own one lover and compeer in all the world; if so be
that she is privileged to find him, and if so be that he himself
aspires to the larger claim.  Eldred Lenox had so aspired; and, in
consequence, had attained.  Her mute confession of it stirred him to
speech.

"I believe I _have_ won the whole of you at last--you very woman," he
said almost under his breath.

"And I know it," she answered in the same tone.  "Do you remember
saying that day you were angry: 'If you _will_ make it a case of
mastery----!'  Well, it is a case of mastery--absolute and permanent."

She spoke truth.  At that moment, and indeed for many years after, she
would have walked, at his bidding, into the heart of a furnace.  He
drew her close again.

"No, no, lass.  I hope it's a case of love and comradeship on an equal
footing,--as you have seen it in this house; the rarest thing in the
world between a man and woman."

Her smile brought into play the dimple that he loved.

"How one needs you at every turn, to keep the balance of things!  But
come over to my easel.  I have something to show you."

Very deliberately she lifted the draperies that hid the picture, and a
low sound broke from him.  Then he stood gazing upon it,--absorbed,
captivated; and whereas, a moment since, the woman had triumphed, now
all the artist in her thrilled at his tribute of silence, knowing it
for the highest praise.

"A bit of pure inspiration," he said at last.  "It lives and breathes!"

"That is your doing, more than mine.  And I am glad it pleases you; for
it is a present, and--a confession!"

"You did it simply for me?"

"For who else, in earth or heaven, dear and dense one?" she demanded,
laughing; and was effectually put to silence.  "Wasn't it just like me
to throw all my heart into a portrait of myself?" she added, as he
released her.

"It was enchanting of you; that's all _I_ know.  But see here, lass,
there must be no question of murdering half your personality on my
account.  I am grasping.  I want both of you,--artist and woman."

"Dear heart, you've taken arbitrary possession of as many of me as
there are!  And indeed, I'd be puzzled to swear to the exact number.  I
seem to have let you in for three sorts of wives already!  But
seriously, Eldred, I have come to one conclusion in the long months I
have had for thinking things over.  I believe you were right in saying
it might be best for me to give up painting men's portraits.  Not
altogether: I don't think I could, unless you insisted!  But I won't
make it a speciality, as I have done; and I'll be more circumspect in
my methods, and in my choice of subjects.  Will that do?"

He looked full at her for a moment; his keen eyes melting into wells of
tenderness.

"My darling--what's come to you?" was all he said.

"A spirit of understanding, I hope," she answered sweetly.  "But you'll
find plenty of the old unreasonable Quita effervescing underneath!
_Par exemple_--on the heels of my great renunciation, the first thing I
want to do is a portrait of Major Desmond for my dear Honor,--if I may?"

"If you may!  What next?"  But being a man and human, he was obviously
gratified.  "You could suggest nothing that would please me better.
You'll make a fine thing of it; and as for your methods, 'get inside'
Desmond for all you're worth.  You'll do no harm in _that_ quarter!"

"Harm?" she flashed out, half indignant.  "Has it ever, in all of your
knowledge of me, gone as far as that?"

He could not lie to her; neither would he betray Dick.

"Did such a possibility never occur to you?" he suggested, evading
direct reply.

But she was not to be thwarted.

"I asked you a question, _mon cher_."

"And that is my answer."

"A question is not an answer."  Then intuition, and his evident
discomfiture, enlightened her.  "_Mon Dieu_, Eldred!  Yon are never
thinking--of Dick?"

He frowned.  "What put that into your head?"

"Your manner; and something he wrote to me while he was away.  You
heard, of course?  He said he had told you the good news."

"What good news?  When?"

"Weeks ago.  Before he came back off leave."

"I had no letter.  Must have been mislaid while I was ill.  What's up?
Has he got a command?"

"Yes.  And better than that.  He is going to be married."

"By Jove!  That's first-rate.  Good old Dick!  But what was it he said
to you?"

"I'll show you the letter.  Such a charming one.  He began, 'Dear
Friend,' which wasn't like him.  It puzzled me.  And he ended by saying
he felt sure I should be glad to know how much of his present happiness
he owed to his intimacy with me.  So you see, dearest, I did no
irretrievable harm."

"No, mercifully not, thanks to Dick's uprightness, and his happy
temperament.  But he might have been quite another sort; like myself,
for instance.  By the time I had known you two weeks, Quita, the damage
was permanent.  Even if there had been no word of love between us, I
should never have given a thought to another woman--after that."

The quietness of his tone carried conviction, and her arms went out to
him.

"Bless you, bless you, my own man," she murmured into the lapel of his
coat.  "I can never thank God enough that I came out to India and won
you back."

Weak as he still was from the pain and prostration of his terrible
illness, the exquisite completeness of her surrender almost unmanned
him; and she felt him tremble through all his big frame.  That roused
the mother in her.

"Darling, how thoughtless of me!  You are not strong enough yet for
this sort of thing.  Let me get you some wine--please."

"Wine?  Nonsense, I'm all right.  Desmond gave me a peg."

"Come to a chair, then."

She drew him towards one; but he gently forced her into it, sinking on
one knee beside her, with a sigh of satisfaction.

"That's good.  I begin to realise that I am actually home!"

"And I begin to realise what a wreck of yourself you are, _mon pauvre_.
Wait till I've tyrannised over you for a month or so!  Then we must get
long leave."

And taking his head between her hands, she cherished it, smiling into
his eyes; the passion of the wife deepened and hallowed by the
protective tenderness of the mother.  When and how should she tell him?
That was the question in her mind.  A paralysing shyness, for which she
spurned herself, suffused her at the thought; and behind the shyness
lurked a great longing to know how he would receive her culminating
revelation.  But in his present state she dreaded a shock for
him,--even a shock of joy.  She would wait a little longer for the
given moment; and then . . . .

"The hair on your temples has gone quite silver," she lamented,
caressing it with light finger-tips.  "It is all those terrible
mountains; and I hope you've had enough of them now to keep you quiet
for a time.  But I begin to dread Sir Henry Forsyth.  He hasn't got
another 'mission' up his sleeve, has he?"

She spoke laughingly, but his eyes were grave; and taking her two hands
he prisoned them in his own.

"Quita, my brave lass," he said gently.  "After all that has just
passed between us, I can tell you no less than the truth, and leave you
to give the casting vote.  I am afraid the mountains are bound to play
a big part in our immediate future, unless you seriously prefer that I
should give up all idea of political work in those parts, and stick to
the Battery."

"And if I _do_ seriously prefer it?"

"Your decision will be mine."

He spoke so steadily that she would fain have believed in his
indifference as to the result.  But the art of self-deception was not
one of her accomplishments.  She suppressed a sigh.

"Dear, there is only one decision possible.  But for me you might never
have put your hand to that plough.  It was the one good that came to
you through my crowning act of folly; and I'll not undo it, whatever it
may mean--for me."

He thanked her with his eyes; and the mute homage in them was dearer to
her than a score of kisses.  When he tried to speak, she forestalled
him.

"You have said it all, Eldred.  I understand.  I only want--more facts.
Is it Gilgit?  And when?"

"Next year, I'm afraid.  They want us to re-establish the
Agency--Travers and myself.  I was up there, you see, before I found
you again.  We should be quite alone, at the start, with just a doctor
and our Kashmiri soldiers."

"And I--it would be impossible?"

He pressed her hands.

"For the first few years--certainly.  Everything would be raw; and the
work incessant and absorbing.  But later on, who can tell?  We might
see what could be done."

"And the nearest I could get to you, so as to live more or less within
reach?"

"Srinagar.  That's about twenty days' march from Gilgit.  I could do it
in ten, to get to you!" he added, smiling.  "Spare time would be
scarce, though; and in the winter we should be quite cut off by snow."

"Oh, Eldred!"

"I should hate that no less than you, be sure.  But when things got a
bit more settled, some sort of arrangement might be possible, at least
for part of the summer; if you could really stand the isolation and the
life."

"Stand it?  Of course I could.  I should love it."

His eyes lit up.

"You have pluck enough for half a dozen!  But you don't look as strong
as you did.  There's a fragile air about you that troubles me.  I never
saw it before."

The faint colour in her cheeks invaded her temples.  It was the given
moment; long enough delayed in all conscience.  Yet it found her
palpitating--unprepared.

"You mustn't be troubled."  She plunged desperately; unsure of what
would come next.  "It will pass.  I am growing stronger every day."

"Stronger?  Good Lord!  You haven't been ill too, and I never knew it?"

"No--oh, no!  Not ill--that is . . . not exactly.  I mean . . ."

Confusion submerged her.  His shoulder--the woman's legitimate
refuge--was conveniently close; and she buried her blushes in it.  At
that a suspicion of the truth thrilled through him, like an electric
current.

"Quita--look up--speak to me!" he besought her; his voice low, and not
quite steady.  "Is it possible . . ?"

"Darling, of course it is," she whispered back, without stirring.
"Only--will you ever forgive me?  I've saddled you with two women now,
as if one wasn't bother enough!"

For answer he strained her closer; and so knelt for the space of many
seconds; stunned, momentarily, by that deep-rooted, elemental joy in
the transmission of life, which, in men of fine fibre, is tempered with
amazement and awe; a sense of poignant, personal contact with the Open
Secret of the world.

At last he spoke; and his words held no suggestion of the emotion that
uplifted him.

"When?  How old . . . how long ago?"

"Seven weeks ago.  The second of October."

"Great Heaven!  The day I was nearly done for; the day I crossed the
Pass.  And I never dreamed . . . how it was with you."

Then, very gently, she found her head lifted from its resting-place;
his eyes searching her own with an insistence not to be denied.

"Quita, you must have realised--all this before I started?"

"Yes."

"And you let me go without a word!  By the Lord, I think I had the
right to know."

Her lips trembled a little at the reproach in his tone; but she did not
avert her eyes.

"Of course you had the right," she acknowledged with a flash of her old
frankness.  "But things were going crooked just then.  It all seemed so
strange, so difficult to speak of; and I thought if you were delayed it
would save you from anxiety, not to know.  Besides--I confess I knew it
would mean . . . a great deal to you; and I wanted to win you all my
own self, before I told you.  There!  That's the whole truth.  Can you
forgive me?"

"Forgive you, my darling?  To-day of all days!  I am at your feet."

She drew a deep breath.  "That is quite wrong!  But I can't pretend not
to be proud of it; though in theory I object to pedestals as much as
ever!  And now----" she laid both hands upon him, her eyes full of
laughter and tenderness.  "Now--don't you want to come and see--the
other woman?"

At that, his gravity went to pieces.

"Woman indeed!  Bless her heart.  Naturally I do.  Hasn't she achieved
a name yet?"

"No, poor little heathen.  I told her she must wait for you; though the
matter was settled long ago.  What else could we call her--but Honor?
And I pray she may be worthy of the name.  Both the Desmonds will stand
for her.  I thought you would wish it; for, indeed, without their great
goodness to us both she might never have found her way into the world
at all!  Now--come."

He raised her to her feet, and together they entered the room where, in
a railed cot, the unconscious herald of a larger joy, a more sacred
intimacy, lay sleeping:--a creature of flower-soft tints and curves,
who, in the sublime wisdom of babyhood, was concerned for nothing on
earth but her own inspired devices for self-development.

For long the two stood speechless before that astonishing, yet
inevitable, third; that miracle of incorporate self-expression, whereby
a man and woman behold their hidden spirits that have so passionately
clung together across the gateless barrier of individual being,
'visibly here commingled and made flesh.'  Then Lenox put out a hand
and caressed the small soft head, reverently, cautiously, as if to
verify its actuality.  At his touch the child stirred; the dark lashes
lifted; and in that instant of revealing, the truth came home to him
that, by his will, a living soul, a thing of mysterious and infinite
potentialities, had been added to the world's sum of life.

"See--she has your eyes," said Quita, tenderly triumphant; and for the
second time she looked into his own through a mist of tears.  "My last
picture pleases you even better than the other one?" she added; and
stooping, he kissed her lips.

"It lifts you into a new kingdom, Quita; and doesn't he honestly seem
to you worth all the rest put together?"

"But yes, _mon ami_.  She is my masterpiece--our masterpiece," she
answered very low.