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[Illustration: "It was a beautiful thing, that dance, grotesque, pagan
and yet divine"]




THE PLACE BEYOND THE WINDS

BY HARRIET T. COMSTOCK


_Illustrated by_
HARRY SPAFFORD POTTER

GARDEN CITY, NEW YORK
DOUBLEDAY, PAGE & COMPANY
1914




FOREWORD


The In-Place cannot be found; you must happen upon it! Hidden behind its
rugged red rocks and hemlock-covered hills, it lies waiting for something
to happen. It has its Trading Station, to and from which the Canadian
Indians paddle their canoes--sometimes a dugout--bearing rare, luscious
blue berries invitingly packed in small baskets with their own green
leaves. And to the Station, also, go the hardy natives--good English,
Scotch, or "Mixed"--with their splendid loads of fish.

"White fish go: pickerel come"--but always there is fish through summer
days and winter's ice.

There is a lovely village Green, around which the modest homes cluster
sociably. Poor, plain places they may be, but never dirty nor untidy. And
the children and dogs! Such lovely babies; such human animals. They play
and work together quite naturally and are the truest friends.

A little church, with a queer pointed spire and a beautiful altar,
stands with open doors like a kindly welcome to all. Back of this, and
apologetically placed behind its stockade fence, is the jail.

To have a jail and never need it! What more can be said of a community?
But you are told--if you insist upon it--that the building is preserved
as a warning, and if any one should by chance be forced to occupy it, "he
will have the best the place affords"--for justice is seasoned with mercy
in the In-Place.

If you would know the aristocracy of the hamlet you must leave the
friendly Green and the pleasant water of the Channel, climb the red
rocks, tread the grassy road between the hemlocks and the pines, and find
the farms. For, be it understood, by one's ability to wrench a living
from the soil instead of the water is he known and estimated. To fish is
to gamble; to plant and reap is conservative business.

Dreamer's Rock and One Tree Island, Far Hill Place and Lonely Farm,
safely sheltered they lie, and from them, in obedience to the "Lure of
the States," comes now and again an adventurous soul to make his way, if
so he may; and never was there a braver, truer wanderer than Priscilla of
Lonely Farm. Equipped with a great faith, a straight method of thinking,
and an ideal that never faded from her sight, she, by the help of the
Poor Property Man, found her place and her work awaiting her. Love, she
found, too--love that had to be tested by a man's sense of honour and a
woman's determination, but it survived and found its fulfilment before
the Shrine in the woods beyond Lonely Farm, where, as a little child,
Priscilla had set up her Strange God and given homage to it.

Harriet T. Comstock.




LIST OF ILLUSTRATIONS


"It was a beautiful thing, that dance, grotesque, pagan and yet divine"
_Frontispiece_

"'And now,' she cried, 'I'll keep my word to you. Here! here! here!' The
bottles went whirling and crashing on the rocks near the roadway"

"'You mean, by this device you will make me marry you! You'll blacken
my name, bar my father's house to me, and then you will be generous
and--marry me?'"

"In one of those marvellous flashes of regained consciousness, the man
upon the bed opened his eyes and looked, first at Travers, then at
Priscilla"

"'It's past the Dreamer's Rock for us, my sweet, and out to the open
sea'"




The Place Beyond the Winds




CHAPTER I


Priscilla Glenn stood on the little slope leading down from the farmhouse
to the spring at the bottom of the garden, and lifted her head as a young
deer does when it senses something new or dangerous. Suddenly, and
entirely subconsciously, she felt her kinship with life, her relation to
the lovely May day which was more like June than May--and a rare thing
for Kenmore--whose seasons lapsed into each other as calmly and
sluggishly as did all the other happenings in that spot known to the
Canadian Indians as The Place Beyond the Wind--the In-Place.

Across Priscilla's straight, young shoulders lay a yoke from both ends of
which dangled empty tin pails, destined, sooner or later, to be filled
with that peculiarly fine water of which Nathaniel Glenn was so proud.
Nathaniel Glenn never loved things in a human, tender fashion, but he was
proud of many things--proud that he, and his before him, had braved the
hardships of farming among the red, rocky hills of Kenmore instead of
wrenching a livelihood from the water. This capacity for tilling the soil
instead of gambling in fish had made of Glenn, and a few other men, the
real aristocracy of the place. Nathaniel's grandfather, with his wife and
fifteen children, had been the first white settlers of Kenmore. So eager
had the Indians been to have this first Glenn among them that it is said
they offered him any amount of land he chose to select, and Glenn had
taken only so much as would insure him a decent farm and prospects. This
act of restraint had further endeared him to the natives, and no regret
was ever known to follow the advent of the estimable gentleman.

The present Glenn never boasted; he had no need to; the plain statement
of fact was enough to secure his elevated position from mean attack.

Nathaniel had taught himself to read and write--a most unusual thing--and
naturally he was proud of that. He was proud of his stern, bleak religion
that left no doubt in his own mind of his perfect interpretation of
divine will. He was proud of his handsome wife--twenty years younger than
himself. Inwardly he was proud of that, within himself, which had been
capable of securing Theodora where other men had failed. Theodora had
caused him great disappointment, but Nathaniel was a just man and he
could not exactly see that his disappointment was due to any deliberate
or malicious act of Theodora's; it was only when his wife showed weak
tendencies toward making light of the matter that he hardened his heart.

In the face of his great desire and his modest aspirations--Theodora had
borne for him (that was the only way he looked at it) five children--all
girls, when she very well knew a son was the one thing, in the way of
offspring, that he had expected or wanted.

The first child was as dark as a little Indian, "so dark," explained
Nathaniel, "that she would have been welcome in any house on a New Year's
Day." She lasted but a year, and, while she was a regret, she had been
tolerated as an attempt, at least, in the right direction. Then came the
second girl, a soft, pale creature with ways that endeared her to the
mother-heart so tragically that when she died at the age of two Theodora
rebelliously proclaimed that she wanted no other children! This blasphemy
shocked Nathaniel beyond measure, and when, a year later, twin girls were
born on Lonely Farm, he pointed out to his wife that no woman could fly
in the face of the Almighty with impunity and she must now see, in this
double disgrace of sex, her punishment.

Theodora was stricken; but the sad little sisters early escaped the
bondage of life, and the Glenns once again, childless and alone, viewed
the future superstitiously and with awe. Even Nathaniel, hope gone as to
a son, resignedly accepted the fate that seemed to pursue him. Then,
after five years, Priscilla was born, the lustiest and most demanding of
all the children.

"She seems," said Long Jean, the midwife, "to be made of the odds and
ends of all the others. She has the clear, dark skin of the first, the
blue eyes of the second, and the rusty coloured hair and queer features
of the twins."

Between Long Jean and Mary Terhune, midwives, a social rivalry existed.
On account of her Indian taint Long Jean was less sought in aristocratic
circles, but so great had been the need the night when Priscilla made her
appearance, that both women had been summoned, and Long Jean, arriving
first, and, her superior skill being well known, was accepted.

When she announced the birth and sex of the small stranger, Nathaniel,
smoking before the fire in the big, clean, bare, living-room, permitted
himself one reckless defiance:

"Not wanted!" Long Jean made the most of this.

"And his pretty wife at the point of death," she gossiped to Mrs. McAdam
of the White Fish Lodge; "and there is this to say about the child being
a girl: the lure of the States can't touch her, and Nathaniel may have
some one to turn to for care and what not when infirmity overtakes him.
Besides, the lass may be destined for the doing of big things; those
witchy brats often are."

"The lure don't get all the boys," muttered Mary McAdam, cautiously
thinking of her Sandy, aged five, and Tom, a bit older.

"All as amounts to much," Long Jean returned.

And in her heart of hearts Mary McAdam knew this to be true. The time
would come to her, as it had to all Kenmore mothers, when she would have
to acknowledge that by the power of the "lure" were her boys to be
tested.

But Priscilla at Lonely Farm showed a hardened disregard of her state.
She persisted and grew sturdy and lovely in defiance of tradition and
conditions. She was as keen-witted and original as she was independent
and charming. Still Theodora took long before she capitulated, and
Nathaniel never succumbed. Indeed, as years passed he grew to fear and
dislike his young daughter. The little creature, in some subtle way,
seemed to have "found him out"; she became, though he would not admit it,
a materialized conscience to him. She made him doubt himself; she laughed
at him, elfishly and without excuse or explanation.

Once they two, sitting alone before the hearth--Nathaniel in his great
chair, Priscilla in her small one--faced each other fearsomely for a
time; then the child gave the gurgling laugh of inner understanding that
maddened the father.

"What you laughing at?" he muttered, taking the pipe from his mouth.

"You!" Priscilla was only seven then, but large and strong.

"Me? How dare you!"

"You are so funny. If I screw my eyes tight I see two of you."

Then Nathaniel struck her. Not brutally, not maliciously; he wanted
desperately to set himself right by--old-time and honoured methods--force
of authority!

Priscilla sprang from her chair, all the laughter and joyousness gone
from her face. She went close to her father, and leaning toward him as
though to confide the warning to him more directly, said slowly:

"Don't you do that or Cilla will hate you!"

It was as if she meant to impress upon him that past a certain limit he
could not go.

Nathaniel rose in mighty wrath at this, and, white-faced and outraged,
darted toward the rebel, but she escaped him and put the width of the
room and the square deal table between them. Then began the chase that
suddenly sank into a degrading and undignified proceeding. Around and
around the two went, and presently the child began to laugh again as
the element of sport entered in.

So Theodora came upon them, and her deeper understanding of her husband's
face frightened and spurred her to action. In that moment, while she
feared, she loved, as she had never loved before, her small daughter. If
the child was a conscience to her stern father, she was a materialization
of all the suppressed defiance of the mother, and, ignoring consequences,
she ran to Priscilla, gathered her in her arms, and over the little, hot,
panting body, confronted the blazing eyes of her husband.

And Nathaniel had done--nothing; said nothing! In a moment the fury,
outwardly, subsided, but deep in all three hearts new emotions were born
never to die.

After that there was a triangle truce. The years slipped by. Theodora
taught her little daughter to read by a novel method which served the
double purpose of quickening the keen intellect and arousing a
housewifely skill.

The alphabet was learned from the labels on the cans of vegetables and
fruits on Theodora's shelves. There was one line of goods made by a firm,
according to its own telling, high in the favour of "their Majesties So
and So," that was rich in vowels and consonants. When Priscilla found
that by taking innocent looking little letters and stringing them
together like beads she could make words, she was wild with delight, and
when she discovered that she could further take the magic words and by
setting them forth in orderly fashion express her own thoughts or know
another's thoughts, she was happy beyond description.

"Father," she panted at that point, her hands clasped before her, her
dark, blue-eyed face flushing and paling, "will you let me go to Master
Farwell to study with the boys?"

Nathaniel eyed her from the top step of the porch; "with the boys" had
been fatal to the child's request.

"No," he said firmly, the old light of antagonism glinting suddenly under
his brow, "girls don't need learning past what their mothers can give
them."

"I--do! I'm willing to suffer and _die_, but I do want to know things."
She was an intense atom, and from the first thought true and straight.

A sharp memory was in her mind and it lent fervour to her words. It
related to the episode of the small, fat mustard jar which always graced
the middle of the dining table. They had once told her that the contents
of the jar "were not for little girls."

They had been mistaken. She had investigated, suffered, and learned!
Well, she was ready to suffer--but learn she must!

Nathaniel shook his head and set forth his scheme of life for her,
briefly and clearly.

"You'll have nothing but woman ways--bad enough you need them--they will
tame and keep you safe. You'll marry early and find your pleasure and
duty in your home."

Priscilla turned without another word, but there was an ugly line between
her eyes.

That night and the next she took the matter before a higher judge,
and fervently, rigidly prayed. On the third night she pronounced
her ultimatum. Kneeling by the tiny gable window of her grim little
bedchamber, her face strained and intense, her big eyes fixed on a red,
pulsing planet above the hemlocks outside, she said:

"Dear God, I'll give you three days to move his stony heart to let me
go to school; if you don't do it by then, I'm going to worship graven
images!"

Priscilla at that time was eight, and three days seemed to her a generous
time limit. But Nathaniel's stony heart did not melt, and at the end of
the three days Priscilla ceased to pray for many and many a year, and
forthwith she proceeded to worship a graven image of her own creation.

A mile up the grassy road, beyond Lonely Farm and on the way toward the
deep woods, was an open space of rich, red rock surrounded by a soft,
feathery fringe of undergrowth and a few well-grown trees. From this spot
one could see the Channel widened out into the Little Bay: the myriad
islands, and, off to the west, the Secret and Fox Portages, beyond which
lay the Great Bay, where the storms raged and the wind--such wind as
Kenmore never knew--howled and tore like a raging fiend!

In this open stretch of trees and rock Priscilla set up her own god. She
had found the bleached skull of a cow in one of her father's pastures;
this gruesome thing mounted upon a forked stick, its empty eye-sockets
and ears filled with twigs and dried grasses, was sufficiently pagan
and horrible to demand an entirely unique form of worship, and this
Priscilla proceeded to evolve. She invented weird words, meaningless but
high-sounding; she propitiated her idol with wild dances and an abandon
of restraint. Before it she had moments of strange silence when, with
wonder-filled eyes, she waited for suggestion and impression by which to
be guided. Very young was she when intuitively she sensed the inner call
that was always so deeply to sway her. Through the years from eight to
fourteen Priscilla worshipped more or less frequently before her secret
shrine. The uncanny ceremony eased many an overstrained hour and did for
the girl what should have been done in a more normal way. The place on
the red rock became her sanctuary. To it she carried her daily task of
sewing and dreamed her long dreams.

The Glenns rarely went to church--the distance was too great--but
Nathaniel, looming high and stern across the table in the bare kitchen,
morning and night, set forth the rigid, unlovely creed of his belief.
This fell upon Priscilla's unheeding ears, but the hours before the
shrine were deeply, tenderly religious, although they were bright and
merry hours.

Of course, during the years, there were the regular Kenmore happenings
that impressed the girl to a greater or lesser degree, but they were like
pictures thrown upon a screen--they came, they went, while her inner
growth was steady and sure.

Two families, one familiar and commonplace, the other more mystical than
anything else, interested Priscilla mightily during her early youth.
Jerry and Michael McAlpin, with little Jerry-Jo, the son of old Jerry,
were vital factors in Kenmore. They occupied the exalted position of
rural expressmen, and distributed, when various things did not interfere,
the occasional freight and mail that survived the careless methods of the
vicinity.

The McAlpin brothers were hard drinkers, but they were most considerate.
When Jerry indulged, Michael remained sober and steady; when Michael fell
before temptation, Jerry pulled himself together in a marvellous way, and
so, as a firm, they had surmounted every inquiry and suspicion of a
relentless government and were welcomed far and wide, not only for their
legitimate business, but for the amount of gossip and scandal they
disbursed along with their load. Jerry-Jo, the son of the older McAlpin,
was four years older than Priscilla and was the only really young
creature who had ever entered her life intimately.

The other family, of whom the girl thought vaguely, as she might have of
a story, were the Travers of the Far Hill Place.

Now it might seem strange to more social minds that people from a distant
city could come summer after summer to the same spot and yet remain
unknown to their nearest neighbours; but Kenmore was not a social
community. It had all the reserve of its English heritage combined with
the suspicion of its Indian taint, and it took strangers hard. Then,
added to this, the Traverses aroused doubt, for no one, especially
Nathaniel Glenn, could account for a certain big, heavy-browed man who
shared the home life of the Hill Place without any apparent right or
position. For Mrs. Travers, Glenn had managed to conjure up a very actual
distrust. She was too good-looking and free-acting to be sound; and her
misshapen and delicate son was, so the severe man concluded, a curse, in
all probability, for past offences. The youth of Kenmore was straight and
hearty, unless--and here Nathaniel recalled his superstitions--dire
vengeance was wreaked on parents through their offspring.

With no better reason than this, and with the stubbornness he mistook for
strength, Glenn would have nothing to do with his neighbours, four miles
back in the woods, and had forbidden the sale of milk and garden stuff to
them.

All this Priscilla had heard, as children do, but she had never seen any
member of the family from the Far Hill Place, and mentally relegated them
to the limbo of the damned under the classification of "them, from the
States." Their name, even, was rarely mentioned, and, while curiosity
often swayed her, temptation had never overruled obedience.

The McAlpins, with all their opportunity and qualifications, found little
about the strangers from which to make talk. The family were reserved,
and Tough Pine, the Indian guide they had impressed into summer service,
was either bought or, from natural inclination, kept himself to himself.

So, until the summer when she was fourteen, Priscilla Glenn knew less
about the Far Hill people than she did about the inhabitants of heaven
and hell, with whom her father was upon such intimate and familiar terms.

Once, when Priscilla was ten, something had occurred which prepared her
for following events. It was a bright morning and the McAlpin boat
stopped at the wharf of Lonely Farm. While old Jerry went to the
farmhouse with a package, Jerry-Jo remained on guard deeply engrossed in
a book he had extracted from a box beneath the seat. He appeared not to
notice Priscilla, who ran down the path to greet him in friendly fashion.

The boy was about fifteen then, and all the bloods of his various
ancestors were warring in his veins. His mother had been a full-blooded
Indian from Wyland Island, had drawn her four dollars every year from the
English Government, and ruled her family with an iron hand; his father
was Scotch-Irish, hot-blooded and jovial; Jerry-Jo was a composite
result. Handsome, moody, with flashes of fun when not crossed, a good
comrade at times, an unforgiving enemy.

He liked Priscilla, but she was his inferior, by sex, and she sorely
needed discipline. He meant to keep her in her place, so he kept on
reading. Priscilla at length, however, attracted his attention.

"Hey-ho, Jerry-Jo!"

"Hullo!"

"Where did you get the book?"

"It's for him up yonder."

And with this Jerry-Jo stood up, turned and twisted his lithe body into
such a grotesque distortion that he was quite awful to look upon, and
left no doubt in the girl's mind as to whom he referred. He brought the
Far Hill people into focus, sharply and suddenly.

"He has miles of books," Jerry-Jo went on, "and a fiddle and pictures and
gewgaws. He plays devil tunes, and he's bewitched!"

This description made the vague boy of the woods real and vital for the
first time in Priscilla's life, and she shuddered. Then Jerry-Jo
generously offered to lend her one of the books until his father came
back, and Priscilla eagerly stepped from stone to stone until she could
reach the volume. Once she had obtained the prize she went back to the
garden and made herself comfortable, wholly forgetting Jerry-Jo and the
world at large.

It was the oddest book she had ever seen. The words were arranged in
charming little rows, and when you read them over and over they sang
themselves into your very heart. They told you, lilting along, of a road
that no one but you ever knew--a road that led in and out through wonders
of beauty and faded at the day's end into your heart's desire. Your
Heart's Desire!

And just then Jerry-Jo cried:

"Hey, there! you, Priscilla, come down with that book."

"Your Heart's Desire!" Priscilla's eyes were misty as she repeated the
words. Indeed, one large, full tear escaped the blue eyes and lay like a
pitiful kiss on the fair page, where there was a broad, generous space
for tears on either side of the lines.

"Hist! Father's coming!"

Then Priscilla stood up and a demon seemed to possess her.

"I'm not going to give it back to you! It's mine!" she cried shrilly.

Jerry-Jo made as if he were about to dash up the path and annihilate her,
but she stayed him by holding the book aloft and calling:

"If you do I'll throw it in the Channel!" She looked equal to it, too,
and Jerry-Jo swore one angry word and stopped short. Then the girl's mood
changed. Quite gently and noiselessly she ran to Jerry-Jo and held the
opened book toward him. His keen eye fell upon the tear-stain, but his
coarser nature wrongly interpreted it.

"You imp!" he cried; "you spat upon it!"

But Priscilla shook her head. "No--it's a tear," she explained; "and, oh!
Jerry-Jo, it is mine--listen!--you cannot take it away from me."

And standing there upon the rock she repeated the words of the poem, her
rich voice rising and falling musically, and poor Jerry-Jo, hypnotized by
that which he could not comprehend, listened open-mouthed.

       *       *       *       *       *

And now, again, it was spring and Priscilla was fourteen. Standing in the
garden path, her yoke across her shoulders, her ears straining at the
sound she heard, the old poem returned to her as it had not for years.
She faltered over the words at the first attempt, but with the second
they rushed vividly to her mind and seemed set to the music of that
"pat-pat-pat" sound on the water. An unaccountable excitement seized
her--that new but thrilling sense of nearness and kinship to life and the
lovely meaning of spring. She was no longer a little girl looking on at
life; she was part of it; and something was going to happen after the
long shut-in winter!

And presently the McAlpin boat came in sight around Lone Tree Island
and in it stood Jerry-Jo quite alone, paddling straight for the
landing-place! For a moment Priscilla hardly knew him. The winter
had worked a wonder upon him. He was almost a man! He had the manners,
too, of his kind--he ignored the girl on the rocks.

But he had seen her; seen her before she had seen him. He had noted
the wonderful change in her, for eighteen is keen about fourteen,
particularly when fourteen is full of promise and belongs, in a
sense, to one.

The short, ugly frock Priscilla wore could not hide the beauty and grace
of her young body--the winter had wiped out forever her awkward length of
limb. Her reddish hair was twisted on the top of her head and made her
look older and more mature. Her uplifted face had the shining radiancy
that was its chief charm, and as Jerry-Jo looked he was moved to
admiration, and for that very reason he assumed indifference and gave
undivided attention to his boat.




CHAPTER II


With skill and grace Jerry-Jo steered his boat to the landing-place at
the foot of the garden. He leaped out and tied the rope to the ring in
the rocks, then he waited for Priscilla to pay homage, but Priscilla was
so absorbed with her own thoughts that she overlooked the expected
tribute of sex to sex. At last Jerry-Jo stood upright, legs wide apart,
hands in pockets, and, with bold, handsome face thrown back, cried:

"Well, there!"

At this Priscilla started, gave a light laugh, and readjusting her yoke,
walked down to the young fellow below.

"It's Jerry-Jo," she said slowly, still held by the change in him; "and
alone!"

"Yes." Jerry-Jo gave a gleaming smile that showed all his strong, white
teeth--long, keen teeth they were, like the fangs of an animal.

"Where are the others?" asked Priscilla.

"Uncle's dead," the boy returned promptly and cheerfully; "dead, and a
good thing. He was getting cranky."

Priscilla started back as if the mention of death on that glorious day
cast a cloud and a shadow.

"And your father, Jerry-Jo, is he, too, dead?"

"No. Dad, he is in jail!"

"In--jail!" Never in her life before had Priscilla known of any one being
in Kenmore jail. The red, wooden house behind its high, stockade fence
was at once the pride and relic of the place. To have a jail and never
use it! What more could be said for the peaceful virtues of a community?

"Yes. Dad's in jail and in jail he will stay, says he, till them as put
him there begs his pardon humble and proper."

Priscilla now dropped the yoke upon the rocks and gave her entire thought
to Jerry-Jo, who, she could see, was bursting with importance and a sense
of the dramatic.

"What did your father do, Jerry-Jo?"

"It was like this: Uncle Michael died and the wake we had for him was the
most splendid you ever saw. Bottles and kegs from the White Fish and
money to pay for all, too! Every one welcome and free to say his say and
drink his fill. I got drunk myself! Long about midnight Big Hornby he
said as how he once licked Uncle Michael, and Dad he cried back that to
blacken a man's name when he was too dead to stand up for it was a dirty
trick, and so it was! Then it was forth and back for a time, with
compliments and what not, and if you please just as Dad sent a bit of a
stool at Big Hornby, who should come in at the door but Mr. Schoolmaster,
him as had no invite and was not wanted! The stool took him full on the
arm and broke it--the arm--and folks took sides, and some one, after a
bit, got Dad from under the pile and tried to make him beg pardon! Beg
pardon at his own wake in his own home, and Schoolmaster taking chances
coming when he was not invited! Umph!"

Jerry-Jo's eyes flashed superbly.

"'I'll go to jail first and be damned,' said Dad, and that put it in the
mind of Big Hornby, and he up and says, 'To jail with him!' And so they
takes Dad, thinking to scare him, and claps him into jail, not even
mending the lock or nailing up the boards. That's three days since, and
yesterday Hornby he comes to Dad and says as how a steamer was in with
mail and freight and who was to carry it around? And Dad says as how I
was a man now and could hold up the honour of the family, says he, and
moreover, says Dad, 'I'll neither eat nor come out till you come to your
senses and beg pardon for mistaking a joke for an insult!'"

Jerry-Jo paused to laugh. Then:

"So here am I with the boatload--there's a box of seeds for your
father--and then I'm off to the Hill Place, for them as stays there has
come, and there are boxes and packages for them as usual."

Jerry-Jo proceeded to extract Mr. Glenn's box from the boat, and
Priscilla, her clear skin flushed with excitement, drew near to examine
the cargo.

"More books!" she gasped. "Oh, Jerry-Jo, do you remember the first book?"

"Do I?" Jerry-Jo had shouldered the box of seeds and now bent upon the
girl a glad, softened look.

"Do I? You was a wild thing then, Priscilla. And I told him about the
slob of a tear and he laughed in his big, queer way, and he said, I
remember well, that by that token the book was more yours than his, and
he wanted me to carry it back, but I knew what was good for you, and I
would not! See here, Priscilla, would you like to have a peek at this?"
And then Jerry-Jo put his burden down, and, returning to the boat, drew
from under the seat a book in a clean separate wrapper and held it out
toward her.

"Oh!" The hands were as eager as of old.

"What will you give for it?" A deep red mounted to the young fellow's
cheeks.

"Anything, Jerry-Jo."

"A--kiss?"

"Yes"--doubtfully; "yes."

The book was in the outstretched hands, the hot kiss lay upon the smooth,
girlish neck, and then they looked at each other.

"It--is _his_ book?"

"No. Yours--I sent for it, myself."

"Oh! Jerry-Jo. And how did you know?"

"I copied it from that one of his."

Priscilla tore the wrappings asunder and saw that the book was a
duplicate of the one over which, long ago, she had loved and wept.

"Thank you, Jerry-Jo," the voice faltered; "but I wish it--had the tear
spot."

"That was _his_ book; this is yours." An angry light flashed in
Jerry-Jo's eyes. He had arranged this surprise with great pains and had
used all his savings.

"But it cannot be the same, Jerry-Jo. Thank you--but----"

"Give us another kiss?" The young fellow begged.

Priscilla drew back and held out the book.

"No." She was ready to relinquish the poems, but she would not buy them.

"Keep the book--it's yours."

Jerry-Jo scowled. And then he shouldered the box and ran up the path.
When he came back Priscilla was gone, and the spring day seemed
commonplace and dull to Jerry-Jo; the adventure was over. Priscilla had
filled her pails and had carried them and the book to the house.
Something had happened to her, also. She was out of tune with the
sunlight and warmth; she wanted to get close to life again and feel, as
she had earlier, the kinship and joy, but the mood had passed.

It was after the dishes of the midday meal were washed that she bethought
her of the old shrine back near the woods. It was many a day since she
had been there--not since the autumn before--and she felt old and
different, but still she had a sudden desire to return to it and try
again the mystic rite she had practised when she was a little girl. It
was like going back to play, to be sure; all the sacredness was gone, but
the interest remained, and her yearning spurred her to her only resource.

At two o'clock Nathaniel was off to a distant field, and Theodora
announced that she must walk to the village for a bit of "erranding." She
wanted Priscilla to join her, thinking it would please the girl, but
Priscilla shook her head and pleaded a weariness that was more mental
than physical. At three o'clock, arrayed in a fresh gown, over which hung
a red cape, Priscilla stole from the house and made her way to the
opening near the woods. As she drew close the power of suggestion
overcame the new sense of age and indifference; the witchery of the place
held her; the old charm reasserted itself; she was being hypnotized by
the Past. Tiptoeing to the niche in the rock she drew away the sheltering
boughs and branches she had placed there one golden September day. The
leaves had been red and yellow then; they were stiff and brown now. The
leering skull confronted her as it had in the past and changed her at
once to the devotee.

Before the dead thing the live, lovely creature bowed gravely. After all,
had not the image, instead of God, answered her first prayer? Nathaniel's
heart had not been softened and school had not been permitted, but there
had been lessons given by the master when she told him of her new god.
How he had laughed, clapping his knees with his long, thin, white hands!
But he had taught her on hillside and woodland path. No one knew this but
themselves and the strange idol!

A rapt look spread over Priscilla's face; the look of the worshipper who
could lose self in a passion. But this was no dread god that demanded
unlovely sacrifice. It was a glad creature that desired laughter, song,
and dance. Priscilla had seen to that. A repetition of her father's creed
would have been unendurable.

"Skib, skib, skibble--de--de--dosh!"

Again the deep and sweeping courtesy and chanting of the weird words. The
final "dosh!" held, in its low, fierce tone, all the significance of
abject adoration. With that "dosh" had the child Priscilla wooed the
favour and recognition of the god. It was a triumph of appeal.

And then the dance began--the wild, fantastic steps full of grace and joy
and the fury and passion of youth. Round and round spun the slight form,
with arms over head or spread wide. The red cape floated, rising and
falling; the uplifted face changed with every moment's flitting thought.
It was a beautiful thing, that dance, grotesque, pagan, and yet divine,
and through it all, panting and pulsing, sounded the strange,
incomprehensible words:

"Skib, skib, skibble--de--de--dosh!"

While the rite was at high tide a young fellow, lying prone under a
clump of trees beyond the open space, looked on, first in amaze mingled
with amusement, and then with delight and admiration. He had never
seen anything at once so heathenish and so exquisite. To one hampered
and restricted as he was in bodily freedom, the absolute grace was
marvellous, but the uncanny words and the girl's apparent seriousness
gave a touch of unreality to the scene. Presently, from sheer inability
to further control himself, the looker-on gave a laugh that rent the
stillness of the afternoon like a cruel shock.

Priscilla, horrified, paused in the midst of a wild whirl and listened,
her eyes dilating, her nostrils twitching. She waited for another burst
that would make her understand.

Having given vent to that one peal of mirth, Richard Travers pulled
himself to a sitting position, and, by so doing, presented his head and
shoulders to the indignant eyes of Priscilla Glenn.

"Oh!" cried she; "how dare you!"

And now Travers got rather painfully upon his feet, and, with fiddle
under one arm and book under the other, came forward into the open and
inclined his uncovered head. He was twenty then, fair and handsome, and
in his gray eyes shone that kindliness that was doomed later on to bring
him so much that was both evil and good.

"I beg your pardon. I did not know I was on sacred ground. I just
happened here, you see, and I could not help the laugh; it was the only
compliment I could pay for anything so lovely--so utterly lovely."

Priscilla melted at once and fear fled. Not for an instant did she
connect this handsome fellow with the crooked wrongdoer of the Hill
Place. Jerry-Jo's long-ago description had been too vivid to be
forgotten, and this stranger was one to charm and win confidence.

"Will you--oh! please do--let me play for you? You dance like a nymph. Do
you know what a nymph is?"

Priscilla shook her head.

"Well, it's the only thing that can dance like you; the only thing that
should ever be allowed to dance in the woods. Come, now, listen sharp,
and as I play, keep step."

Leaning against a strong young hemlock, Dick Travers placed his fiddle
and struck into a giddy, tuneful thing as picturesque as the time and
occasion. With head bent to one side and eyes and lips smiling, Priscilla
listened until something within her caught and responded to the tripping
notes. At first she went cautiously, feeling her way after the enchanted
music, then she gained courage, and the very heart of her danced and
trembled in accord.

"Fine! fine! Now--slower; see it's the nymph stepping this way and that!
Forward, so! Now!"

And then, exhausted and laughing madly, Priscilla sank down upon a rock
near the musician, who, seeing her worn and panting, played on, without
a word, a sweet, sad strain that brought tears to the listener's
eyes--tears of absolute enjoyment and content. She had never heard music
before in all her bleak, colourless life, and Dick Travers was no mean
artist, in his way.

"And now," he said presently, sitting down a few feet from her, "just
tell me who you are and what in the world prompts you to worship, so
adorably, that hideous brute over there?"

Between fourteen and twenty lies a chasm of age and experience that
ensures patronage to one and dependence to the other. Travers felt aged
and protecting, but Priscilla grew impish and perverse; besides, she
always intuitively shielded her real self until she capitulated entirely.
This was a new play, a new comrade, but she must be cautious.

"I--I have no name--he made me!" She nodded toward the grinning skull.
"On bright sunny afternoons in spring, when flowers and green things are
beginning to live, he lets me dance, once in a great while, so that I can
keep alive!"

Priscilla, with this, gave such a beaming and mischievous smile that
Travers was bewitched.

"You----" But he did not put his thought into words; he merely gave smile
for smile, and asked:

"Did he teach you to dance?"

"No. The dance is--is me! That's why he likes me. He's so dead that he
likes to see something that is alive."

"The whole world would adore you could it see you as I just have!"

Then Travers, with the artist's eye, wondered how dark hair could
possibly hold such golden tints, and how such a dark face could make
lovely the blue, richly lashed eyes. He knew she must be from Lonely
Farm--Jerry-Jo used to speak of her; lately he had said nothing, to be
sure, but this certainly must be the child who had once cried over a
book of his. Poor, little, temperamental beggar!

"Come up and deliver!" Travers gave a laugh. "I'm Robin Hood and I want
you to explain yourself. Why do you bow down before that brazen and
evil-looking brute?"

Priscilla hugged her knees in her clasped hands, and said, on the
defence:

"He's the only god that answered my prayer. I tried father's God and--it
didn't work! Then I fixed up this one, and--it did!"

"What was it you wanted?"

"I wanted to learn things! I wanted to go to school. I prayed to have
father's heart softened, but it stayed--rocky. Then I began to worship
this"--the right hand waved toward the bleached and grinning skull--"and
my wish came true. I told the schoolmaster. Do you know Mr. Anton
Farwell?"

"I've heard of him."

"I told him I wanted to learn, and after he got through laughing he said
he'd been sent by my god to teach me all I wanted to know; but of course
he can't do that!"

"Do what?" Travers was fascinated by the child's naïvety.

"Teach me all I want to know. Why, I'm going to suffer and know many
things!"

"Good Lord!" ejaculated Travers; "you won't mind if I laugh?"

"I don't think there's anything to laugh at!" Priscilla held him sternly.
"Have you ever suffered?"

The laugh died from Travers's face.

"Suffered!" he repeated. "Yes! yes!"

"Well, doesn't it pay--when you get what you want and know things?"

"Why, see here, youngster--it does! You've managed to dig out of your
life quite a brilliant philosophy, though I suppose you do not know what
that is. It's holding to your ideal, the thing that seems most worth
while, and forcing everything else into line with that. Now, you see I
had a bad handicap--a clutch on me that made me a weak, sickly fellow,
but through it all I kept my ideal."

Priscilla was listening bravely. She was following this thought as she
had the music; something in her was responding. She did not speak, and
Travers went on talking, more to himself than to her.

"Always before the poor thing I really was, walked the fine thing I would
be. I _thought_ myself straight and strong and clean. Lord! how it hurt
sometimes; but I grew, after a time, into something approaching the ideal
going on before me, thinking high and strong thoughts, forgetting the
meannesses and aches--do you understand?"

This was a fairy story to the listener. Rigid and spellbound she replied:

"Yes. And that's what I've been doing--and nobody knew. I've just been
working hard for that _me_ of _me_ that I always see. I don't care what
I have to suffer, but--" the throbbing words paused--"I'm going to know
what--it is all about!"

"It?" Again Travers was bewildered and bound.

"Yes. Life and me and what we mean. I'm not going to stay here; when the
lure of the States gets me I'm--going!"

Things were getting too tense, and Travers yielded to a nervous impulse
to laugh again. This brought a frown to Priscilla's brow.

"Forgive me!" he pleaded. "And now see here, little pagan, let us make
a compact. Let us keep our ideals; don't let anything take them from us.
Is it a go?"

He stretched his hand out, and the small, brown one lay frankly in it.

"And we'll come here and--and worship before that fiend, just you and I?
And we won't ever tell?"

Priscilla nodded.

"And now will you dance once more, just once?"

The girl bounded from the rock, and before the bow struck the strings she
was poised and ready. Then it was on again, that strange, wild game. The
notes rang clear and true, and as true tripped the twinkling feet. With
head bent and eyes riveted on the graceful form, Travers urged her on by
word and laugh, and he did not heed a shadow which fell across the
sunlighted, open space, until Priscilla stopped short, and a deep voice
trembling with emotion roared one word:

"You!"

There stood Nathaniel Glenn, his face twitching with anger and something
akin to fear. How much he had heard no one could tell, but he had heard
and seen enough to arouse alarm and suspicion. In his hand was a long
lash whip, and, as Priscilla did not move, he raised it aloft and sent it
snapping around the rigid figure.

It did not touch her, but the act called forth all the resentment and
fierce indignation of the young fellow who looked on.

"Stop!" he shouted. Then, because he sought for words to comfort and
could think of no others, he said to Priscilla, "Don't let them kill your
ideal; hold to it in spite of everything!"

"Yes," the words came slowly, defiantly, "I'm going to!"

"Go!" Nathaniel was losing control. "Go--you!"

Then, as if waking from sleep, the girl turned, and with no backward
look, went her way, Nathaniel following.

Travers, exhausted from the excitement, stretched himself once more upon
the mossy spot from which Priscilla had roused him. He was sensitive to
every impression and quivering in every nerve.

What he had witnessed turned him ill with loathing and contempt.
Brutality in any form was horrible to him, and the thought of the pretty,
spiritual child under the control of the coarse, stern man was almost
more than he could bear. Then memory added fuel to the present. It was
that man who had conjured up some kind of opposition to his mother--had
made living problems harder for her until she had won the confidence of
others. The man must be, Travers concluded, a fanatic and an ignoramus,
and to think of him holding power over that sprite of the woods!

He could not quite see how he might help the girl, but, lying there, her
dancing image flitting before his pitying eyes, he meant to outwit the
rough father in some way, and bring into the child's life a bit of
brightness. Then he smiled and his easy good nature returned.

"I'll get her to dance for me, never fear! I'll teach her to love music,
and I'll tell her stories. I must get her to explain about the lure of
the States. What on earth could the little beggar have meant? It sounded
as if she thought America had some sinister clutch on the Dominion. And
those infernal-sounding words!"

Travers shook with laughter. "That '_dosh_' was about the most
blasphemous thing I ever listened to. In a short space of time that child
managed to cram in more new ideas, words, and acts than any one I've ever
met before. I shouldn't wonder if she proves a character."




CHAPTER III


The day of warmth and song and dance changed to a cool evening. There was
a glowing sunset which faded into a clear, starry night.

Dick Travers, encased in a heavy sweater, lingered, after the light
failed, on the broad piazza facing the still purpled sky, and looked out
toward the Georgian Bay, which was hidden from sight by the ridge of hill
through which the Fox and Secret Portages cut. The mood of the afternoon
had fallen, as had the day, into calmness and restfulness. The fiddle,
which was never far from Travers, lay now beside him on the deep porch
swing, and every few moments he took it up and began an air that broke
off almost at once, either to run into another, or into silence.

"Choppy," muttered Doctor Ledyard as he sat across the hearth from his
hostess and looked now at her fair, tranquil face and then at the
cheerful fire of hemlock boughs.

"He's always happiest when he's--choppy." Helen Travers smiled. "I wonder
why I take your words as I take your pills, without question?"

"You know what's good for you."

"And so you really think there is no doubt about Dick? He can enter
college this fall?"

"As sure as any man can be. He'll always be a trifle lame probably,
though that will be less noticeable when he learns to forget the cane and
crutch periods; as for his health--it's ripping, for him!"

"How wonderful you have been; what a miracle you have performed. When I
recall----"

"Don't, Helen! It's poor business retracing a hard road unless you go
back to pick something up."

"That's why--I must go back. Doctor Ledyard, I must tell you something!
Now that Dick's semi-exile and mine are to end in the common highway, he
and--you must know why I have done many things--will you listen?"

From under Ledyard's shaggy brows his keen eyes flashed. There had been
a time when he had hoped Helen Travers would love him; he had loved
her since her husband's death, but he had never spoken, for he knew
intuitively that to do so would be to risk the only thing of which he
was, then, sure--her trusting friendship. He had not dared put that to
the test even for the greater hope. That was why he had been able to
share her lonely life in the Canadian wilds--she had never been disturbed
by a doubt of him. And this comradeship, safe and assured, was the one
luxury he permitted himself in a world where he was looked upon as a
hard, an almost cruel, man.

"I do not want you to tell anything in order to explain your actions
now, or ever. I am confident that under all circumstances you would act
wisely. You are the most normal woman I ever knew."

"Thank you. But I still must speak--more for Dick than for you. I need
your help for him."

Outside, the fiddle was repeating again and again a nocturne that Helen
particularly loved.

"Dick is not--my son!" she said quickly and softly from out the shadows.
She was rarely abrupt, and her words startled Ledyard into alertness. He
got up and drew his chair close to hers.

"What did you say?" he whispered, keeping his eyes upon her lowered face.

"I said--Dick is not my son."

"And--whose is he--may I ask?"

There was a tenseness in the question. Now that he saw the gravity of the
confession Ledyard wished beyond all else to cut quick and deep and then
bind up the wound.

"He is the child of--my husband, and--another woman."

In the hush that followed, Dick's fiddle, running now through a delicious
strain of melody, seemed like a current bearing them on.

"Perhaps you had better--tell me," Ledyard was saying, and his words
blended strangely with the tune. "Yes, I am sure you ought to tell me."

Helen Travers, sitting in her low wicker chair, did not move. Her
delicate face was resting on the tips of her clasped hands, and her long,
loose, white gown seemed to gather and hold the red glow of the fire.

"I suppose I have done Dick a bitter wrong, but at first, you know, even
you thought he could not live and so it would not have mattered, and then
I--I learned to love the helpless little chap as women of my sort do who
have to make their own lives as best they may. He clung to me so
desparately, and, you see, as he grew older I either had to accept his
belief in me or--or--take his father from him. They were such close
friends, Dick's father and he! And now--I must lay everything low, and I
am wondering what will come of it all. He is such a strange fellow; our
life apart has left him--well, so different! How will he take it?"

Whatever her own personal sorrow was, Helen Travers made no moan, exacted
no sympathy. She had come alone to the parting of the ways, and she had
thought only for the boy whom she had mothered tenderly and successfully.
Ledyard did not interrupt the gentle flow of her thoughts. There was
time; he would not startle or hurry her, although her first statement had
shocked and surprised him beyond measure.

"I've always thought of myself as like one of those poor Asiatic
hornbills," she was saying. "It seems to me that all my life long some
one has walled me up in a nice, safe nest and fed me through my longings
and desires. I cannot get to life first hand. I'm not stupid exactly, but
I am terribly limited." Helen paused, then went on more rapidly: "First
it was my father. He and I travelled after mother's death continually,
and alone. He educated me and interpreted life for me; he was a man of
the world, I suppose, but he managed to keep me most unworldly wise. Of
course I knew, abstractly, the lights and shadows; but I wonder if you
will believe me when I tell you that, until after my marriage, I never
suspected that--that certain codes of honour and dishonour had place in
the lives of those closest to me? The evil of the world was classified
and pigeon-holed for me. I even had ambition to get out of my walled-up
condition and help some mystical people, detached and far from my safe,
clean corner. Father left me more money than was good for any young
woman, and my simple impulse was to use it properly."

"You were very young?" Ledyard interrupted.

Helen Travers shook her head.

"Not very. I was twenty-four when I married. I had never had but one
intimate friend in my life, and to her I went at my father's death. It
was her brother I married--John Travers."

Ledyard nodded his head; he knew of the Traverses--the older generation.

"This thing concerning Dick occurred some three or four years before my
marriage. My wedding was a very quiet one; it was not reported, and that
accounted for Dick's mother--Elizabeth Thornton--not knowing of it.

"It seems that there had been an alliance between John Travers and--and
Dick's mother, and it had been terminated some time before he met me, by
mutual consent. There was the child--Dick. The mother took him. There was
no question of money: there was enough for them, but she had told John
that should anything arise, such as illness or disaster, she would call
upon him. They had sworn that to each other.

"Well, my own baby came a year after my marriage and died a month later.
When I was least able to bear the shock, the call came from Elizabeth
Thornton. John had to tell me. I shall never forget his face as he did
it. I realized that his chief concern was for me, and even in all the
wreck and ruin I could but honour him for his bravery and sincerity. I
think he believed I would understand, but I never did; I never shall. The
shock was more surprise than moral resentment. I could not believe at
first that such a thing could possibly happen to--one of my own. I felt
as if a plague had fallen upon me, and I shrank from every eye, from
every touch with the world.

"Doctor Ledyard, you can understand, I hope, but John Travers was not a
bad man, and that girl, Dick's mother, was good. Yes; that's the only
word to use, strange as it seems to me even after all these years. You
see, she was not a hornbill. She came in touch with life at first hand;
she took from life what she wanted; she had, what were to me, unheard-of
ideas about love and the free gift of self, and yet she never meant to
hurt any one; and she had kept herself, amid all the confusion, the
gentlest and sweetest of souls.

"When she sent for John she was dying and she did not know what to do
about the boy. She had no family--no near friend.

"I went with my husband to see her. There did not seem to be anything
else to do. I had no feeling; it was plain duty. Even with the touch of
death upon her, Elizabeth Thornton was the most beautiful woman I have
ever seen. I cannot describe the sensation she made upon me; but she was
like an innocent, pure child who had played with harmful and soiled toys
but had come wearily to the day's end, herself unsullied.

"When she knew about me she was broken-hearted. She wept and called to
little Dick, who sat in a small chair by her couch:

"'Oh! little son, we could have managed, couldn't we? We would not have
hurt any one for the world, would we, sonny?' And the boy got up and
soothed her as a man might have done, and he was only a little creature.
I think I loved him from the moment I saw him shielding that poor, dying
mother from her own folly. 'Course, mummy, course!' he repeated over and
again. Then he looked at me with the eyes of my own dead baby. Both
children were startlingly like the father. The look pleaded for mercy
from me to them--John, the mother, and the little fellow himself. And I,
who had vaguely meant to help the world some day, began--with them! Just
for a little time after Elizabeth Thornton's death I became human, or
perhaps inhuman. I resented the wrong that had been done me; I wanted to
fling John and the child away from me; but then a sense of power rallied
me. I had never tasted it before. I could cast the helpless pair from me,
or--I could save them from the world and the world's hideous pity for me.
I accepted the burden laid upon me. I think John thought I would forget,
would forgive. I cannot explain--my sort of woman is never understood
by--well, John's sort of man. I am afraid he grew to have a contempt for
me, but I lived on loving them both, but never becoming able to meet
John's hope of me. I knew he was often lonely--I have pitied him
since--but I could not help being what I was.

"I tried, but it was no use. We lived abroad for years, and little Dick
forgot--I am sure he forgot--his mother, and when I felt secure I gave
him all, all the passion and devotion of my life.

"John died abroad; I came home with my crippled boy; came home to--you.
That is all!"

Ledyard bent and laid a handful of boughs upon the fire. The room was
cold and cheerless, and the still, white figure in the chair seemed the
quiet, chill heart of it all. And yet--how she had loved and laboured for
the boy! Was she passionless or had her passion been killed while at
white heat?

"And--and I suppose Dick must know?"

"Yes. Dick must know."

There was no sternness, but there was determination in the strong, even
voice. Then:

"Helen, let me do this for you!"

For a moment the uplifted eyes faltered and fell away from the man's
face. Very faintly the words came:

"God bless you! I could not bear to see--him fail me. If he must--fail,
I cannot see him until--afterward."

The blaze rose higher, and the dark room was a background for that
deathlike form before the hearth.

Ledyard left the room silently, and a moment later Helen Travers heard
his heavy footfall on the porch outside. Presently the erratic violin
playing ceased and there seemed no sound on the face of the earth.

After what seemed hours, Pine, the guide, entered the room to replenish
the fire, and Helen told him he need not light the lamps. After his going
another aching silence followed through which, at last, stole the
consciousness that she was not alone. Some one had come into the room
from a long window opening on the piazza. Helen dared not look, for if it
were Ledyard she would know that things were very bad indeed. Then came
the slightly dragging step that she had learned to be so grateful for
after the helplessness of crippled childhood. Still she did not move, nor
deeply hope. The boy was kind, oh! so tenderly kind, he might only have
come because he must!

The red glow of the fire made the woman's form by the hearth vividly
distinct, and toward that Dick Travers went as if led by a gleam through
a new and strange experience. He knelt by her side and, for a moment,
buried his face against her clasped hands; then he looked up and she saw
only intensified love and trust upon his young face. She waited for him
to speak, her heart was choking her.

"You thought, dear, that I did not know--that I had forgotten? I wonder
if any lonely, burdened little chap could forget--what came before you
lifted the load and taught me to be a--child? Oh! she was so sweet; such
a playfellow. I realize it now even though she has faded into something
like a shadowy dream. But I recall, too, the loneliness; the fear that
she might leave me alone with no one to care for me. I can remember her
fear, too; always the fear that one of us might leave the other alone.
The recollection will always stand out in my memory. I shall never forget
her nor her sweetness. Afterward you came and my father. Only lately have
I understood all of--that part of my life and yours--but I knew he was my
father, and I wondered about you, because I could _not_ forget--my
mother!

"I learned to love you out of my great need and out of yours, too, I
realize now, and slowly, far too early, I saw that the happiest thing I
could do for you, who had given me so much, was to seem to forget and
rest only on one thought--you were my mother! Can I make you understand,
mother, what you are in my life--to-night?"

He kissed the cold hands clutching his hot ones, and with that touch the
barrier broke down forever between them. Travers took her in his arms,
but she did not burden his young strength as the earlier mother had done.
Even in her abandon, they supported each other bravely.

       *       *       *       *       *

The days that followed were busy ones. Dick's tutor came from New York,
plans were laid, and there was small opportunity, just then, for the
red-rock shrine.

"You see," Dick said to Ledyard one afternoon, "I've never voiced it
before--it seemed presumptuous--but now that I'm going to have the life
of a fellow, I can choose a fellow's career. I want, more than anything
else, to be a physician."

Ledyard's eyes flashed, but he lowered his lids.

"It's a devil of a life, boy."

"I think it's the finest of all."

"No hours you can call your own; never daring to ask for the common
things a man cares for. You see, women are mostly too jealous and small
to understand a doctor's demands. They usually raise hell sooner or
later. I had a friend whose wife used to look through the keyhole of his
consulting-room door. A patient tripped over her once and it nearly cost
my friend his practice. Doctors are only half human anyway, and women
can't go halves with their husbands."

Dick laughed.

"Between a wife and a profession," he said, "give me the profession."

"Besides," Ledyard went on; "you get toughened and brutal; most of us
drink, when we don't do something worse."

"You don't."

"How do you know?"

"I do know, and I'm sure you wouldn't let any one else say that about
your associates; they're the noblest ever and you know it!"

"Well, we're bound and gagged, and that's a fact. We're not given much
leeway. We are led up to a case and forced to carry out the rules. While
we're doctors we can't be men."

Dick recalled that years later with a bitter sense of its truth!

"All the same, if the profession will have me, I'll have it and thank
God. When I think of--well, of the little cuss I was, and of you--why,
I tell you, I cannot get too soon into harness. I'd like to specialize,
too. I've even gone so far as that."

"Good Lord! In what?"

"Oh, women and children, principally--putting them straight and strong,
you know."

"Umph," grunted Ledyard. "Well, at the first you'll probably be thankful
to get any old case that needs tinkering."

Dick Travers did not see Priscilla again that summer. After a while he
went to the rocks, and once he laid sacrilegious hands on the strange god
with a longing to smash the hideous skull, but in the end he left it and,
after a time, forgot the girl he had played for, even forgot the
fantastic dance, for his thoughts were of sterner stuff.

There were guests at the Hill Place, too, for the first time that year,
and some entertainment. There were fishing, and in due season, hunting,
at which Ledyard excelled, and the family returned to the States earlier
than usual, owing to Dick's affairs.




CHAPTER IV


Nathaniel Glenn had said some terrible things in Priscilla's presence the
evening of the day when he drove her before him while Richard Travers
implored her to hold to her ideal. Fortunately, youth spared Priscilla
from a full understanding of her father's words, but she caught the drift
of his thought. She was convinced that he feared greatly for her here on
earth, and had grave doubts as to her soul's ultimate salvation. There
was that within her, so he explained, which, unless curbed and corrected,
would cast her into eternal damnation! Those were Nathaniel's words.

"She looked a very devil as she danced and smirked at that strange
fellow," so had Glenn described the scene; "a man she says she had never
laid eyes on before! A daughter of Satan she seemed, with all the
witchcraft of her sort." To Nathaniel, that which he could not
understand, was wrong.

Theodora spoke not a word. Certain facts from all the evidence stood
forth and alarmed her as deeply--though not as bitterly--as they did her
husband. There certainly was a daring and brazenness in a young girl
carrying on so before a total stranger. In all the conversation the name
of the stranger was not mentioned, and oddly enough Priscilla did not
even then connect her friend of the music and laughter with the boy of
the Hill Place. How could she, when Jerry-Jo's description still stood
unchallenged in her mind? Indeed, the stranger did not seem wholly of the
earth, earthy. She had accepted him as another phase evolved by the
mysterious rite--a new revelation of the strange god.

From all the torrent of misinterpretation Nathaniel gave vent to, one
startling impression remained in Priscilla's mind. Sitting in the bare,
unlovely kitchen of the farmhouse, with her troubled parents confronting
her, a great wave of realization overpowered the girl. She could never
make them understand! There was no need to try. She did not really belong
to them, or they to her, and she must--get away!

That was it, of course. The lure had caught her. They all felt as she
was now feeling--the Hornbys, all the boys and men who left Kenmore.
Something always drove them to see they must go, and that was what the
lure meant.

Priscilla laughed.

As usual, this angered Nathaniel beyond control.

"You--laugh--you! Why do you laugh?"

Priscilla leaned back in her hard wooden chair.

"The lure's got me!" she panted.

"The--lure?"

"Yes. It means getting away. You have to follow the lure and find your
true place. Some people are put in the wrong place--then the lure gets
them!"

At this Theodora gave a moan of understanding. They had driven the child
too far, been too hard upon her, and the impulse to fly from the love
that was seeking to hold her was the one thing to be avoided.

"I'm tired of things. Once I wanted to go to school, but you wouldn't let
me." The blazing eyes were fixed upon Nathaniel. "You're always trying
to--to hold me back from--from--my life! I want to go away somewhere!
I want"--a half-sob shook the fierce, young voice--"I want to be part
of--things, and you--you won't let me! I hate this--this place; I'm
choking to death!"

And with this Priscilla got up and flung her arms over her head, while
she ejaculated fiercely: "I want to be--doshed!"

The effect of this outburst upon the two listeners was tremendous.
Theodora recognized with blinding terror that her daughter was no longer
a child! The knowledge was like a stroke that left her paralyzed. What
could she hope to do with, and for, this new, strange creature in whose
young face rising passion and rebellion were suddenly born? Nathaniel was
awed, too, but he managed to utter the command: "Leave the room, hussy!"

When the parents were alone they took stock of the responsibility that
was laid upon them. Helplessly Theodora began to cry. She could no more
cope with this situation than a baby. She had never risen above or beyond
the dead level of Kenmore life, and surely no Kenmore woman had ever
borne so unnatural a child. She feared hopelessly and tremblingly.

With Nathaniel it was different. He was a hard man who had forced
himself, as he had others, along the one grim path, but he had the male's
inheritance of understanding of certain traits and emotions. Had any one
suggested to him that his girl had derived from him--not her colourless
mother--the desire for excitement through the senses, he would have flung
the thought madly from him. Men were men; women were women! Even if
temptation came to a girl, only a bad, an evil-natured girl would
recognize it and succumb. His daughter, Nathaniel firmly believed, was
marked for destruction, and he was frightened and aroused not only for
Priscilla herself but for his reputation and position. He had known
similar temptation; had overcome it. He understood, or thought he did!

He gave the girl no benefit of doubt; his mind conceived things that
never had occurred. He believed she had often met the young fellow from
the Hill Place. God alone knew what had gone before!

"What shall we do?" sobbed Theodora. "We cannot make a prisoner of her;
we cannot watch her every move--and she's only a bit over fourteen!"

Had the girl died that night Nathaniel would not have mourned her, he
would have known only relief and gratitude.

"She was unwelcomed," he muttered to his weeping wife; "and she has
become a curse to us. It lies with us to turn the punishment into our
souls' good; but what can we do for her?"

Priscilla did not die that night. She slept peacefully and happily with
the red, pulsing planet over the hemlock shining faithfully upon her. The
next day she reappeared before her parents with a cloudless face and a
willingness to make such amends as could be brought about without too
much self-abnegation. In the broad light of day the mother could not hold
to the horrors of the evening before. She had been nervous and
overwrought; it wasn't so bad as they had thought!

"I want you to go erranding," she said to Priscilla soon after the midday
meal and by way of propitiation. "It's one by the clock now. Given an
hour to go, another to return, and a half hour for the buying, you should
be back by four at the latest."

Priscilla looked laughingly up at her mother, "Funny, little mother," she
said; "he's made you afraid of me. Hadn't you better tie a string to my
foot?" But all the time the girl was thinking. "An hour for both going
and coming will be enough, and that will leave an hour for the
schoolmaster."

Aloud she said: "I was fiercely angry last night, mother, for he read me
wrong and would not believe me, but it made me feel the _lure_; it really
did."

"You must never speak so again, child," Theodora replied, thinking she
was impressing the girl; "and, Priscilla, what did you mean by saying you
wanted to be--be doshed? That was the most unsanctified word I ever
heard. What does it mean? Where did you learn it?"

At this Priscilla doubled over with laughter but managed to say:

"Why, it means just--doshed! Haven't you ever wanted to be doshed,
mother, when you were young, and before father took the dosh out of
you?"

Theodora was again overcome by former fears, and to confirm her terror
Priscilla sprang toward her with outstretched, gripping fingers and wide,
eager eyes.

"It means," she breathed, advancing upon her mother's retreating form,
"it means skib, skib, skibble--de--de--dosh!"

At this she had her mother by the shoulders and was seeking to kiss the
affrighted and appalled face.

Theodora escaped her, and realized that a changeling had indeed entered
her home. An unknown element was here. It was as if, having been
discovered, Priscilla felt she no longer needed to hide her inner self,
but was giving it full sway.

If they could only have known that the spring of imagination and joy
had been touched in the girl and merely the madness of youth and the
legitimate yearning for expression moved her! But Theodora did not
understand and she tried to be stern.

"You are to be back in this house at four!" she cried; "at quarter after
at the latest."

So Priscilla started forth. The mother watched her from the doorway.
Suspicion was in her heart; she feared the girl would turn toward the
woods; she was prepared for that, but instead, the flying figure made for
the grassy road leading to Kenmore and was soon lost to sight.

Three miles of level road, much of it smooth, moss-covered rock, was
easy travelling for nimble feet and a glad heart. And Priscilla was
the gladdest creature afield that day. Impishly she was enjoying the
sensation she had created. It appealed to her dramatic sense and animal
enjoyment. In some subtle fashion she realized she had balked and
defeated her father--she was rather sorry about her mother--but that
could be remedied later on. There was no doubt that she had the whip hand
of Nathaniel at last, and the subconscious attitude of defiance she
always held toward her father was strengthened by the knowledge that
he was unjustly judging her.

There were many things of interest in Kenmore that only limited time
prevented Priscilla from investigating. She longed to go to the jail and
see if the people had prevailed upon old Jerry McAlpin to discharge
himself. She admired Jerry's spirit!

She wanted to call upon Mrs. Hornby and question her about Jamsie, her
last boy, who had succumbed to the lure of the States. She longed to know
the symptoms of one attacked by the lure. Then there was the White Fish
Lodge--she did so want to visit Mrs. McAdam. The annual menace of taking
Mrs. McAdams' license from her was man's talk just then, and Mrs. McAdam
was so splendid when her rights were threatened. On the village Green
she annually defended her position like a born orator. Priscilla had
heard her once and had never got over her admiration for the little, thin
woman who rallied the men to her support with frantic threats as to her
handling of their rights unless they helped her fight her battle against
a government bent upon taking the living from a "God-be-praised
widow-woman with two sons to support."

It had all been so exactly to Priscilla's dramatic taste that she with
difficulty restrained herself from calling at the White Fish.

There was a good hour to her credit when the erranding was finished and
the time needed for the home run set aside, so to the little cabin, built
beside the schoolhouse, she went with heavily loaded arms and an
astonishingly light heart.

Since the day when Anton Farwell had undertaken Priscilla's
enlightenment, asserting that he had been ordained to do so by her god,
he had had an almost supernatural influence upon her thought. For her,
he was endowed with mystery, and, with the subtle poetry of the lonely
young, she deafened her ears to any normal explanation of the man.

Reaching the cabin, she pushed gently against the door, knowing that if
it opened, Kenmore was free to enter. Farwell was in and, when Priscilla
stood near him, seemed to travel back from a far place before he saw her.
Farwell was an old-young man; he cultivated the appearance of age, but
only the very youthful were deceived. His long, dark hair fell about his
thin face lankly, and it was an easy matter, by dropping his head, to
hide his features completely.

He was tall and, from much stooping over books or the work of his garden,
was round-shouldered. When he looked you fully in the face, which he
rarely did, it was noticed that his eyes were at once childishly friendly
and deathly sad.

The older people of Kenmore had ceased to wonder about him. Having
accepted him, they let matters drop. To the children, to all helpless
animals, he was an enduring solace and power. When all else failed they
looked to him for solution. For this had Priscilla come.

"To be sure!" cried Farwell at length. "It's Priscilla Glenn. Bad child!
It's many a day since we had a lesson. There! there! no excuses. Sit down
and--own up!"

While he was speaking Farwell replenished the wood on the fire and
brushed the ashes from the hearth. Priscilla, in a chair, sat upright and
rather breathlessly wondered how she could manage all she wanted to say
and hear in the small space of time that was hers.

Anton's back was toward her when she uttered her first question and the
words brought him to an upright position, facing her at once.

"Mr. Farwell, where did you come from--I mean before the wreck?"

For a moment the master looked as if about to spring forward to lock the
door and bar the windows. Real alarm was in his eyes.

"Who told you to ask that?" he whispered.

"No one. No one has to tell me questions; I have more of my own than I
can ask. I never thought before about you, Mr. Farwell, we're so used to
you, but now it's because of _me_. I want to know. Somebody has got to
help me--I feel it coming again."

"Feel what coming?" Farwell sat limply down in the chair he had lately
occupied.

"Why, the lure. It comes to the boys, Mr. Farwell. They just get it and
go off to the States, and it's come to me! I've always known it would.
You see, I've got to go away; not just now, but some time. I'm going out
through the Secret Portage. I'm going away, away to find my real place.
I'm going to do something--out where the States are. I hoped you came
from there; could tell me--how to go about it. Do you know, I feel as if
I had been dropped in Kenmore just to rest before I went on!"

Farwell looked at the girl and something new and changed about her
startled him as it had her parents, but, being wiser, he felt no
antagonism. It was an amazing, an interesting thing. The girl had
suddenly developed: that was all. She was eager to try her wings at a
longer flight than any of her sex in Kenmore had ever before dreamed. It
was amusing even if it were serious.

Years before, Farwell had discovered the girl's keen mind and her
quaint originality. As much for his own pleasure as her advantage he
had taught her as he had some of the other village children, erratically,
inconsequently, and here she was now demanding that he fit her out with
a chart for deep-sea sailing.

How could he permit her to harbour, even for an idle moment, the idea of
leaving her shelter and going away? At this the thin, dark face grew
rigid and stern. But too well the man knew the folly of setting up active
opposition to any young thing straining against the door of a cage.
Better open the door even if a string on the leg or a clipped wing had
to be resorted to!

"Did you ever see the States?" The tense voice was imploring.

"Oh, yes. Why do you wish to go there?"

"Why do the boys?"

This was baffling.

"Well, there was Mrs. Hornby's oldest boy, he went to the States, got the
worst of it, and came home to die. He did not find them happy places."

"Yes, but all the other Hornbys went just the same, even Jamsie. It's the
chance, you know, the chance to try what's in you, even if you _do_ come
home and die! You never have a chance in Kenmore; and I don't mean to be
like my mother--like the other women. You see, Mr. Farwell, I'm willing
to suffer, but I _am_ going to know all I want to, and I am going to find
a place where I fit in, if I can."

So small and ignorant did the girl look, yet so determined and keen, that
Farwell grew anxious. Evidently Nathaniel had borne too hard upon her,
borne to the snapping point, and she had, in her wild fashion, caught the
infection of the last going away--Jamsie Hornby's. It was laughable, but
pathetic.

"What could you do?" Farwell leaned forward and gazed into the strange
blue eyes fixed upon him.

"Dance. Have you ever seen me dance? Do you want to?" She was prepared to
prove herself.

"Good Lord! no, no!"

"Oh! I can dance. If some one would play for me--play on--on a fiddle, I
could dance all day and night. Wouldn't people pay for that?"

This was serious business. By some subtle suggestion Priscilla Glenn had
introduced into the bare, cleanly room an atmosphere of danger, a curious
sense of unreality and excitement.

"Yes--they do pay," Farwell said slowly; "but where in heaven's name did
you get such ideas?"

The girl looked impishly saucy. She was making a sensation again and,
while Anton Farwell was not affected as her parents had been, he was
undoubtedly impressed.

"It's this way: You have to sell what you've got until you get something
better. There isn't an earthly thing I can do but dance now; of course I
can learn. Don't you remember the nice story about the old woman who went
to market her eggs for to sell? Master Farwell, I'm like her, and my
dancing is my--egg!"

She was laughing now, this unreasoning, unreasonable girl, and she was
laughing more at Farwell's perplexity than at her own glibness. She must
soon go, her time was growing short, but she was enjoying herself
immensely.

Looking at her, Farwell was suddenly convinced of one overpowering fact:
Priscilla Glenn was destined for--living! Hers was one of those natures
that flash now and then upon a commonplace existence, a strange soul from
an unknown port, never resting until it finds its way back.

"Poor little girl!" whispered Farwell, and then he talked to her.

Would she let him go to her father and mother?

"What's the use?" questioned Priscilla, and she told him of the
experience in the woods. "Father saw only evil when it was the most
beautiful thing that ever happened."

Farwell saw a wider stretch and more danger.

"But I will try, and anyway, Priscilla, if I promise to help you get
ready, will you promise me to do nothing without consulting me?"

This the girl was ready enough to do. She was restless and defiant under
her new emotion, but intuitively she had sought Farwell because he had
before aided her and sympathized with her. Yes, she would confide in him.

That night Farwell called at Lonely Farm. Followed by his two lean, ugly
sledge dogs he made his way to the barn where Nathaniel was doing the
evening's work. While the men talked, the dogs, behind the building,
fought silently and ferociously. Farwell had fed one before he left home
and a bitter jealousy lay between the animals. It was almost more than
one might hope that the master could influence Glenn or change his mind,
but Farwell did bring to bear an argument that, because nothing else
presented itself, swayed the father.

"You cannot get the same results from all children," Farwell said,
looking afar and smiling grimly; "there's no use trying to make an
abnormal child into a normal one. Priscilla is like a wild thing of the
woods. You may tame her, if you go about it right; you'll never be able
to force her. She's kind and affectionate, but she cannot be fettered or
caged, without mischief being done. Better let her think she is having
her own way, or--she may take it!"

"I'll break her will!" muttered Glenn.

"And if you do--what then?"

"She'll fall into line--women do! Their life takes it out of them. Once I
get her on the right track, she'll go straight enough. There's no other
way for her sex, thank God!"

"She'd be a poor, despicable thing if she was cowed." Contempt rang in
Farwell's voice.

"She'd serve her purpose." Glenn was so angry that he became brutal.
"Spirit ain't needed for her job."

"Purpose? Job?" Farwell repeated.

"Yes. Child-bearing; husband-serving. If they take to it naturally
they're all the better off; if they have to be brought to terms--well,
then----"

Gradually the truth dawned upon Farwell, and his thin face flushed, while
in his heart he pitied Theodora Glenn and Priscilla.

"I wish I'd kept to my first ideas!" Glenn was saying surlily, "and never
let the limb learn of you or another. I gave her her head and here we
are!"

"Had she been taught regularly by some one better fitted than I she would
have done great credit to you. She has a bright mind and a vivid
imagination."

To this Glenn made no response, but the energy with which he applied the
brush to his horse caused the animal to rear dangerously.

"Come, come," Farwell continued; "better loosen the rein and let her run
herself out--she may settle happily after a bit. If you don't, she may
run farther than you know."

"Run? Run where?" Nathaniel, safe from the horse's heels, glared at
Farwell.

"To the States. There is no sex line on the border."

"But there's good, plain law. I'd have her back and well cowed, if she
attempted that!"

And then Farwell played his card.

"See here, Mr. Glenn, you do not want to drive this girl of yours to--to
hell! Of course there is law and of course you have the whip hand while
Priscilla is in your clutch, but with a wit like hers, if she slipped
across the border she could lose herself so completely that neither your
hate nor legal power could ever find her. Do you want to drive her to
such lengths?"

Some of the truth of what Farwell was saying dashed Glenn's temper with
fear. Hard and cruel as he was, he was not devoid of affection of a
clammy sort, and for an instant Priscilla as a helpless girl wandering
among strangers replaced Priscilla, the rebellious daughter, and pity
moved him.

"Well, what do you suggest?" he asked grudgingly.

"Simply this: You can trust me. Good Lord you surely can trust me with
her! Let me teach her and bring a little diversion into her life. What
she wants is what all young things want--freedom and fun--pure, simple
fun. Don't let her think you are expecting evil of her; let her alone!"

The extent of Glenn's confusion may be estimated by the fact that he
permitted Priscilla thereafter to go, when she chose, to Kenmore and
learn of Farwell what Farwell chose to give her, and, for the first time
in the girl's life, she felt a glow of appreciation toward her father.

With this new freedom she became happier, less restless, and her
admiration for Farwell knew no bounds.

The schoolmaster managed to procure a violin and laboriously practised
upon it until an almost forgotten gift was somewhat restored. He did not
play as Travers did--he had only his ear to depend upon; he had never
been well taught--but his music sufficed to accompany Priscilla's nimble
feet, and it gave Farwell himself an added interest in his dull life.

"She'll marry Jerry-Jo McAlpin some day," the schoolmaster thought at
times; "and have a brood of half-breeds--no quarter-breeds--and all this
joy and gladness will become a blurred, or blotted-out, background. Good
God!"




CHAPTER V


Mrs. McAdam of the White Fish Lodge came out upon the village Green one
evening in late August and, in a loud voice, hailed Jerry McAlpin:

"I've heard it said," called she, "that you, you Jerry McAlpin, are not
against the taking away of my license; not against the making of Kenmore
a teetotal town!"

There was menace in the high-pitched voice; warning in the accusation.
But Jerry had not taken a drop to drink since his self-releasement from
jail (after an apology from Hornby), and he was uncannily clear headed.

"I've said that same!" he replied, and stopped short in his walk.

Two or three other men, followed by dogs, paused to listen. Then a boat,
coming in loaded with fish, tied up to the wharf, and the crew, leaning
over the sides, waited for developments.

"And for why?" called Mary, hands on hips and her sharp eyes blazing.

"For this: The drink turns us mad! I'm late finding it out, but I've
found it! It sent me to jail with my wits all afire. My boy drank that
night, drank like a young beast, and lay on the floor of the cabin, they
tell me, after I went away; and he only sixteen, and his dead uncle stark
there beside him for company!"

By this time a goodly gathering was on the Green, and Mary was in her
element.

"And so," she said calmly, waxing eloquent as her power grew, "you and
the like of you would take an honest woman's living from her, and she
a God-be-praised widow at that, because you can't control the beast in
yourselves and can't train the cubs of your kennels!"

This was going to great lengths, and many a listener who sided with Mary
was chilled by her offensive words.

"Come! come!" warned Hornby, the father of the recently lured Jamsie,
"them ain't exactly womanly terms, are they?"

But Mary was on her high horse. Availing herself of the safety her sex
secured for her, she struck left and right without grace or favour, and
her audience gaped while they listened.

"Oh, I know! 'Tis this year a dry town with me ruined, and it's next year
a wet town with McAlpin, Hornby, or another creature in trousers taking
my place; and after that there will be no more dry town for ever and
ever! It's not morals you are after, but a man-controlled tavern. Blast
ye!" A sneer marked Mary's thin, dark face. "You want your drinks and
your freedom, but you say you fear for your lads. Shame on you! Have
I no lads?"

Silence.

"Have I not trained them in the way they should go? Do I fear for them?"
A grave silence, and McAlpin glared at Hornby, while an irreverent youth,
with a fish dangling from his hands, laughed and muttered:

"Like gorrems!"

"Play a man's part, Jerry McAlpin. 'Tis not for Jerry-Jo you fear; it's
my business you'd get from me, and you know it! Teach that lad of yours
to be decent, as I've trained mine. I have no fear for my boys! I know
what I'm talking about, and I tell you now, if my lads were like yours
I'd fling the business over, but I don't see why a decent woman, and her
a God-be-praised widow, should lose her living because you can't train
your brats in the way they should go. But this is mine! If you don't
stand by me and swear to do it here and now, it's not another drink one
of you shall get in my place till after things are settled."

This was going farther than Mary McAdam had ever gone before. She had
threatened dire restrictions against them who failed to support her cause
should her cause be won in spite of them; she had even hinted at cash
payments to insure her against want if, possibly, her license was
revoked, but this shutting down upon human rights before election came
off was upsetting to the last degree. Hornby looked at McAlpin and
McAlpin dropped his eyes; there was a muttering and a grumbling, and a
general feeling prevailed that every man should be his own keeper and
the guardian of his own sons, and it would be a bitter wrong against a
God-be-praised widow to let family affairs ruin her business.

In the end Mary McAdam, with a manly following of stern upholders of
individual rights and the opportunity for mutual good fellowship, retired
to the bar of the White Fish and, waited upon by Mary herself and her two
exemplary sons, made merry far into the evening.

Tom and Sandy McAdam, handsome, carefree boys of sixteen and eighteen,
passed the drinks with many a jest and often a wink, but never a drop
drank they, not until the Lodge had closed its doors on all visitors, and
then Tom, the elder, with a final leer at Sandy the younger, drained off
a glass of bad whisky with a grace that betokened long practice.

"Hold, there!" cautioned Sandy, filling a glass of beer for himself;
"you'll not be able to hide it from the mother, you galoot."

"Oh, the night's long before the day breaks, and it's yourself as must
take the turn at house chores the morning."

The following day was cloudy and threatening, and why Mary McAdam should
take that time for suggesting that her boys go over to Wyland Island and
buy their winter suits, she herself could not have told. Perhaps, from
the assurance of last night, she felt freer with money; perhaps she
thought the boys could not be spared so well later; be that as it might,
she insisted, even against Sandy's remark that "a lad couldn't put his
mind to a winter outfit with the sweat rolling down his back," that they
should set forth by eleven o'clock.

"Make a lark of it," said she generously; "take that scapegoat Jerry-Jo
McAlpin with you and have it out with him about being a young beast and
worrying the heart out of old Jerry, who means well but ain't got no kind
of a headpiece. Take your lunch along and----"

Here she pointed her remarks with a lean, commanding finger: "You take
that sail off the launch! It's quiet enough now, but it ain't going to
last forever, and I couldn't rest with three flighty lads in a boat with
a sail _and_ an engine."

Mrs. McAdam always expected to be obeyed. Her personality was such that
she generally was; but always, when disobedience followed, it was hidden
from her immediate attention, and she was never one to show the weakness
of watching to see her orders carried out. That was why she, of all the
people in the little village, did not realize that her boys often drank
more than was good for them--always managed, by clever devices, to escape
her eye.

"A glass of harmless stuff now and again," she would say with a toss of
her head; "what's that but a proof of the lads' self-control? That's what
I'm a-telling you: make your lads strong and self-respecting."

Tom did not take the sail from the boat that day, neither did he expect
to use it. He furled it close and shipped it carefully, but it was late,
and, in the last hurry, he kept his mother's caution in mind, but did not
carry out her command. Then Sandy, when they were about to start, did a
bold thing. Stealing into the bar, he took a bottle of whisky and a
bottle of brandy; these he hid under his reefer, and, with a laugh at his
own cunning, put into the empty places on the shelves two partly filled
bottles, and ran to the wharf.

Mary McAdam waved them a farewell from the steps. She had packed the
hamper and stowed it under the very sail she had ordered off. In the
excitement of preparation she overlooked it entirely.

"You, Sandy, see to it that you buy a suit that you won't repent when the
winter nips you!" she called.

"And you, Tom, get a quiet colour and _no_ checks! When yer last year's
suit shrank and the squares got crooked ye looked like a damaged
checker-board!"

Jerry-Jo McAlpin from his seat in the stern roared with laughter at this,
and just then the sturdy little engine puffed, thudded, and "caught on,"
and off went the three with loud words of good-bye.

The Channel was as smooth as a summer brook, and the launch shot ahead.

"It's a bit chilly," Sandy said as they neared the mouth opening at
Flying Point into the Little Bay.

"Put on your storm coat," cautioned Tom, "and you, too, Jerry-Jo; we'll
get the wind when we pass Dreamer's Rock and strike the Big Bay."

The boys got out their coats and put them on, and then Sandy said:

"See what I've got! Snitched it from under the mother's eye, too!" He
held up the bottles. Tom laughed, but Jerry-Jo reached out for one.

"A nip will ward off the cold better than a coat," he said.

They all three indulged in this preventive.

Beyond Dreamer's Rock the wind fulfilled Tom's prophecy; it was not a
great wind, but it was a steady one, and, perhaps, because the whisky had
warmed Tom's blood too hastily and hotly, he grew reckless.

"What do you say, fellows, to eating our lunch and then trying sail and
engine together? We could beat the record and surprise folks by our time
in coming and going. The wind's safe; not a puff! What do you say?"

Jerry-Jo was something of a coward, but by the time he had eaten his
lunch and washed it down with more whisky than he had meant to take, he
was ready to handle the sail himself and proceeded to do so.

Little Bear Island was the last one before the entrance to Big Bay, and
when the launch passed that, either the wind had changed, or Tom, at the
engine and Jerry-Jo at the sail, had lost nerve and head, for the boat
became unmanageable. Sandy, keeping to the exact middle of the boat,
called to Jerry-Jo to lower the sail, but Jerry-Jo did not hear, or
failed to clearly comprehend. The little craft shot ahead like an arrow,
but Tom knew that when they went about there would be trouble. They were
fully a mile from either rock-bound shore. Wyland Island was a good two
miles before them, and home seven miles to the rear.

A biggish sea was rolling and the sky was clouding threateningly. The
liquor had done its worst for the boys: it had unnerved them, while at
the same time it had given them a mad courage.

"Keep straight ahead," shouted Tom, "until we get near shore, and then
pull in that infernal sail!"

What happened just then Jerry-Jo could never tell, and he alone remained
at the day's end for the telling!

They were in the water, all three of them! For a moment Jerry-Jo,
thoroughly sobered and keener witted than he had ever been before in his
life, believed he was the only one of the party ever again to appear in
that angry sea. Then he saw the over-turned boat, heard the last sobbing
pants of the engine as it filled with water; then Tom's black head and
agonized face appeared; then Sandy's red head. They all made for the boat
and the wide sail lying flat in the water!

They reached the launch, chilled and desperate, climbed upon it, and
gazed helplessly at each other. Through chattering teeth they tried to
speak, but only a moan escaped Tom's blue lips. The wind was colder; the
sun had gone behind a bank of dull storm clouds. After a long while
Sandy, looking over the expanse of ugly choppy waves, shuddered and
panted:

"It's going to be dark soon; it can't be more than a half mile to yonder
rock--I'm for swimming to it! Once on land we can move about, get our
blood going, and perhaps find a sheltered spot--till--morning!"

Tom looked at his brother vaguely; he was suffering keenly:

"Don't be a fool!" he shuddered. Jerry-Jo, huddled in a wet heap, was
sobbing like a baby--gone utterly to pieces.

Another hideous space of silence followed, then Sandy spoke again:

"I'm going to make the try. I'm dying of cold. It's the only chance for
any of us. Here goes!"

And before any one could interfere he made his leap and was in the water,
a bobbing speck among the ugly white caps!

"Good God!"

That was all Tom said, but his crazed eyes were upon that strained,
uplifted face. Jerry-Jo ceased his moaning and--laughed! It was a foolish
cackle, such as a maniac might give, mistaking a death-struggle for a bit
of play.

"He's--a good swimmer!" he gasped, and laughed again. Tom turned, for an
instant, wondering eyes upon him. He may have, in that moment, estimated
his own chance, his duty to Jerry-Jo, and his determination to be with
his brother. The perplexed gaze lasted but the briefest space of time and
then with:

"All right! here goes!" he was making for Sandy with a strength born of
despair and madness.

"Come back!" shrieked Jerry-Jo with the frenzy of one deserted and too
cowardly or helpless to follow: "Come back!"

But neither swimmer heard nor heeded. For a moment more the black and the
red heads bobbed about, the faces turned toward each other grimly. Even
in that waste and at the bitter last the sense of companionship held
their thought. Jerry-Jo, rigid and every sense at last alert in an effort
for self-preservation, saw Sandy smile. It was a wonderful smile: it was
like a flash of sunlight on that black sea; then Sandy's lips moved, but
no one was ever to know what he said, and then--Jerry-Jo was alone in the
coming night and the rolling waves!

"They should," said Mary McAdam, "be home by seven at the latest. The
wind's with them coming back; it was with them part of the way going!"

Anton Farwell sat on the steps of the Lodge, his dogs peacefully lying at
his feet. All day, since hearing of the boys' trip, he had been restless
and anxious. Farwell had his bad hours often, but he rarely permitted
himself companionship at such times, but to-day, after his noon meal, he
had been unable to keep away from the Lodge.

"Fall's setting in early," Mrs. McAdam went on; "pickerel come; whitefish
go. Beasts and fish and birds ken a lot, Mr. Farwell."

"They certainly do. The more you live with dumb creatures, the more you
are impressed with that. Is that Sandy's dog, Mrs. McAdam?"

A yellow, lank dog came sniffing around the side of the house and lay
down, friendly wise, by Farwell.

"Yes, and he's a cute one. Do you believe me, Mr. Farwell, that there
Bounder knows the engine of our boat! Any other boat can come into the
Channel and he don't take any notice, but let my boys be out late and
Bounder, lying asleep on the floor, will start up at the chugging of the
launch and make for the dock. He never makes a mistake."

Farwell laughed and bent over to smooth Bounder's back.

"What time is it?" he asked.

"Six-thirty," Mary replied with alarming readiness. "Six-thirty, and the
clock's a bit slow at that."

Farwell felt sure it was a good ten minutes slow; but because of that he
turned the conversation.

"Jerry McAlpin was telling me to-day," he said in his low, pleasant
voice, "of how he and others used to smuggle liquor over the border.
Jerry seems repenting of his past."

Mary laughed and shrugged her shoulders.

"My man and Jerry, with old Michael McAlpin, were the freest of
smugglers. In them days the McAlpins wasn't pestered with feelings; they
was good sports. Jerry marrying that full-breed had it taken out of him
somewhat--she was a hifty one. Them Indians never can get off their high
heels--not the full-breeds. But I tell you, Mr. Farwell, and you take it
for truth, when Jerry begins to maudle about repentance, it's just before
a--debauch. I know the signs."

Just then Bounder raised his head and howled.

"None of that! Off with yer!" shouted Mary, making for the dog with
nervous energy. "Once," she went on, her lips twitching, "my man and
Michael McAlpin had a good one on the officers. They had a big load of
the stuff on the cart and were coming down the road back of the Far Hill
Place when they sensed the custom men in the bushes. What do they do but
cut the traces and lick the horses into a run; then they turned the
barrels loose, jumped off, letting them roll down the hill, and they,
themselves, made for safety. It was only a bit more trouble to go back in
a week's time and gather up the barrels; but those government devils
followed the horses like idiots and felt mighty set up when they overtook
them! But when they saw they had _only_ the horses, oh! good Lord!"

Farwell laughed absently; his eyes were fixed on the water. Even in the
Channel it had an angry look. The current was set from the Bay, and the
stream rose and fell as if it had an ugly secret in its keeping.

"Mrs. McAdam," he said suddenly, "I'm going out to--to meet the boys!"

"God save ye, Mr. Farwell--for which?"

When Mary fell into that form of speech she was either troubled or
infuriated.

"I'm restless; I feel like a fling. Come on, you scamps!" to his dogs,
"get home and keep house till I come back."

His dogs leaped to him and then made for the Green. Without another word
Farwell walked to his launch at the foot of the wharf steps and prepared
for his trip.

A black wave of fear enveloped Mary McAdam. She was overcome by a
certainty of evil, and, when Farwell's boat had disappeared, she strode
to the Green and gave vent to her anxiety. There were those who
comforted, those who jeered, but the men were largely away on fishing
business, and the women and boys were more interested in her excitement
than they were in her cause for fear.

It was eight o'clock and very dark when Doctor Ledyard, driving down
from Far Hill Place for the mail, paused to listen to Mrs. McAdam's
expressions of anxiety. Young Dick Travers was beside him, and Mary's
words held him.

"Was Jerry-Jo with your boys, Mrs. McAdam?" he asked.

"He was that! And Jerry-Jo always brings ill-luck on a trip. I should
have known better than to let the half-breed scamp go. 'Twas pity as
moved me. Jerry-Jo is one as thinks rocking a boat is spirit, and yelling
for help, when no help is needed, a rare joke. The young devil!"

Doctor Ledyard and Dick stayed on after getting the mail. A strange,
tense feeling was growing in the place. Mary's terror was contagious.

"If the men would only come back," moaned the distracted mother; "I'd
send the lot of them out after the young limbs!"

At eight-thirty the storm broke. A dull, thick storm which had used most
of its fury out beyond Flying Point, and in the breast of the sullen wind
came the sound of an engine panting, panting in the darkness that was
shot by flashes of lightning and rent by thunder-claps. Mary McAdam gazed
petrified at Bounder, who had followed her to the Green.

"Why don't yer yelp?" she muttered, giving the dog a kick. But Bounder
blinked indifferently as the coming boat drew near and nearer.

Every boy, woman, and child, with the old men and lazy young ones, were
at the wharf when the launch emerged from the darkness. Some one was
standing up guiding the boat, ready to protect it from violent contact;
some one was huddled on the floor of the boat--some one who made no cry,
did not look up. They two were all! Just then a lurid flash of lightning
seemed to photograph the scene forever on the minds of the onlookers.

Ledyard, with Dick, was close to the boat when it touched the dock. By
the lurid light of electricity the face of the man in the launch rose
sharply against the darkness and for one instant shone as if to attract
attention.

Farwell was known by reputation to the doctor; he had probably been seen
by him many times, but certainly his face had never made an impression
upon him before. But now, in the hour of anguish and excitement, it held
Ledyard's thought to the exclusion of everything else.

"Who? where?" The questions ran through his mind and then, because every
sense was alert, he knew!

"Jerry-Jo!" Dick was calling, "where are the others?"

It was a mad question, but the boy, huddling in the launch, replied
quiveringly:

"Gone! gone to the bottom off Dreamer's Rock."

Then he began to whimper piteously.

A shuddering cry rang out. It was Mary McAdam, who, followed by her dog,
ran wildly, apron over head, toward the White Fish Lodge.

Farwell, casting all reserve aside, worked with Ledyard over the
prostrate Jerry-Jo. The recognition was no shock to him; he had always
known Ledyard; had cleverly kept from his notice heretofore, but now the
one thing he had hoped to escape was upon him, and he grew strangely
indifferent to what lay before.

He obeyed every command of the doctor as they sought to restore Jerry-Jo.
More than once their eyes met and their hands touched, but the contact
did not cause a tremor in either man.

When the inevitable arrives a strength accompanies it. Nature rarely
deserts either friend or foe at the critical moment.




CHAPTER VI


The bay was dragged, various methods being used, but the bodies of Sandy
and Tom McAdam were not recovered. Mary McAdam with strained eyes and
rigid lips waited at the wharf as each party returned, and when at last
hope died in her poor heart, she set about the doing of two things that
she felt must be done.

The behaviour of the boys in the boat on the day of the accident had at
last reached her ears, for, with such excitement prevailing and Jerry-Jo
reduced to periods of nervous babbling as he repeated again and again the
story, Mary was certain of overhearing the details. As far as possible
she verified every word. That her sons had disobeyed her about the sail
there could be no doubt, and when she went to the shelf of the bar and
discovered the half-filled bottles which Sandy had put in the places of
the brandy and whisky, her heart gave up doubt. She relinquished all that
she had prided herself upon in the past. They had defied and deceived
her! They had permitted her to be mocked while she prated of her
superiority! It was bitter hard, but Mary McAdam made no feeble cry--she
prepared for the final act in the little drama. Beyond that she could
not, would not look.

"Dig me two graves," she commanded Big Hornby; "dig them one on either
side of my husband's."

"You'll be thinking the bodies will yet be found, poor soul?" Hornby had
a tender nature kept human by his hunger for his absent boys.

"I'm not thinking. I'm doing my part; let others do the same."

And then Mary went to Anton Farwell. Farwell, since the night of the
tragedy, was waiting, always waiting for the inevitable. Every knock at
his door brought him panting to his feet. He knew Doctor Ledyard would
come; he fervently hoped he would, and soon, but the days dragged on.
There were moments when the man had a wild desire to shoulder his bag and
set forth under shadow of the night and the excitement, for one of his
long absences, this one, however, to terminate as far from Kenmore as
possible. Once he had even started, but at the edge of the water where
his boat lay he halted, deterred by the knowledge that his safer course
lay in facing what he must face sooner or later. Now that he was known to
be alive it were easier to deal with one man than with the pack of
bloodhounds which that one man might set upon him. Always the personal
element entered in--it was weak hope, but the only one. He might win
Ledyard; he could not win the pack!

When Mary McAdam knocked on Farwell's door he thought the time had come,
but the sight of the distracted mother steadied him. Here was something
for him to do, something to carry him away from his lonely forebodings.

"Come in, Mrs. McAdam. Rest yourself. You look sorely in need of rest."

It was the early evening of a hot day. It was lighter out of doors than
in the cottage, for the shades were drawn at Farwell's windows; he
disliked the idea of being watched from without.

"I can't rest, Master Farwell, till I've done my task," said the poor
soul, sinking into the nearest chair. "And it's to get your help I've
come."

"I'll do what I can," murmured Farwell. "What I'll be permitted to do,"
he felt would be more true.

"I've said more than once, Mr. Farwell, that were my boys like other boys
I'd give up the business of the White Fish. Well, my lads were like
others, only they were keener about deceiving me. I thought I'd made them
strong and sure, but I did the same hurt to my flesh and blood that I did
to others. I put evil too close and easy to them. I prided myself on what
I had never done! They'll come back to me no more. Could I have a talk
with them, things might be straightened out; but I must do what is to be
done alone."

Not a quiver shook the low, severe voice. The very hardness moved Farwell
to deep pity.

"It's now, Mr. Farwell, that I'd have you come to the Lodge and help me
with my task, and when it's over I want you to stand with me beside those
two empty graves and say what you can for them who never had the right
mother to teach them. I'm no church woman; the job of priest and minister
sickens me, but I know a good man when I see one. You helped the lads
while they lived; you risked your life to help them home at the last; and
it's you who shall consecrate the empty beds where I'd have my lads lie
if the power were mine!"

Farwell got up and paced the room restlessly. Suddenly, with Ledyard's
recognition, the poor shell of respectability and self-respect which,
during his lonely years, had grown about him, was torn asunder, and he
was what he knew the doctor believed him. To such, Mary McAdam's request
seemed a cruel jest, a taunt to drive him into the open. And yet he knew
that up to the last ditch he must hold to what he had secured for
himself--the trust and friendship of these simple people. Hard and
distasteful as the effort was he dared not turn himself from it. Full
well he knew that Ledyard's magnifying glass was, unseen, being used
against him even now. The delay was probably caused by the doctor's
silent investigation of his recent life, his daily deeds. He could well
imagine the amusement, contempt, and disbelief that would meet the story
of his poor, blameless years during which he had played with children,
worked in his garden, been friends with the common folk, not from any
high motive, but to keep himself from insanity! He had had to use any
material at hand, and it had brought about certain results that Ledyard
would dissect and toss aside, he would never believe! Still the attempt
to live on, as he had lived, must be undertaken. A kind of desperation
overcame him.

What did it matter? He might just as well go on until he was stopped. He
was no safer, no more comfortable, sitting apart waiting for his summons.
He would, as far as in him lay, ignore the menacing thing that hovered
near, and play the part of a man while he might.

"I'm ready to go with you, Mrs. McAdam," he said, turning for his hat,
"and as we go tell me what you are about to do."

It was no easy telling. The mere statement of fact was so crude that
Farwell could not, by any possibility, comprehend the dramatic scene he
was soon to witness and partake of.

"I'm going to keep my word," Mary McAdam explained. "I'll not be waiting
for the license to be given, or taken away, I'll keep my word."

It was a still, breathless night, with a moon nearly full, and as Mrs.
McAdam, accompanied by Farwell, passed over the Green toward the Lodge,
the idlers and loiterers followed after at a respectful distance. Mary
was the centre of attraction just then, and Farwell always commanded
attention, used as the people were to him.

"Come on! come on!" called Mary without turning her head. "Bring others
and behold the sight of your lives. Behold a woman keeping her word when
the need for the keeping is over!"

A growing excitement was rising in Mary's voice; she was nearing the end
of her endurance and was becoming reckless.

By the time the Lodge was reached a goodly crowd was at the steps leading
up to the bar. Jerry McAlpin was there with Jerry-Jo beside him. Hornby,
just come from the digging of the two graves, stood nearby with the scent
of fresh earth clinging to him.

Suddenly Mary McAdam came out of the house, her arms filled with bottles,
while behind her followed Farwell rolling a cask.

What occurred then was so surprising and bewildering that those who
looked on were never able to clearly describe the scene. Standing with
her load, Mary McAdam spoke fierce, hot words. She showed herself no
mercy, asked for no pity. She had dealt in a business that threatened the
souls of men and boys, made harder the lives of women. She had blinded
herself and made herself believe that she and hers were better, stronger
than others, and now----

Mary was magnificent in her abandon and despair. Her words flowed freely,
her eyes flashed.

[Illustration: "'And now,' she cried, 'I'll keep my word to you. Here!
here! here!' The bottles went whirling and crashing on the rocks near the
roadway"]

"And now," she cried, "I'll keep my word to you. Here! here! here!"

The bottles went whirling and crashing on the rocks near the roadway.

"And you, Master Farwell, break open the keg and set the evil thing
free."

This Farwell proceeded to do with energy born of the hour. "And fetch out
all that remains!" shrieked Mary. "Here, you! McAlpin, I'll have none of
your help! Stay in your place; I'd not trust you inside when all's as
free as it is to-night. You have your lad--heaven help you! Keep him and
give him a clean chance. Nor you, Hornby! Out with you! It's a wicked
waste, is it? Better so than what I suffer. Your lads are above ground,
though out of your sight, Hornby, while mine----Here, Master, more! more!
let us water the earth."

The mad scene went on until the last drop of liquor was soaking into the
earth or dripping from the rocks.

White-faced and stern, Farwell carried out the mother's commands and
heeded not the muttered discontent or the approach of the horse and buggy
bearing Doctor Ledyard and Dick Travers. He was one in the drama now and
he played his part.

At the close a dull silence rested on the group, then Mary McAdam made
her appeal. Her voice broke; her hands trembled. She looked aged and
forlorn.

"And now," she said; "who'll come to the graveyard with me?"

She need not have asked. To the last child they followed mutely. They
were overcome by curiosity and fear, and the faces in the dull light of
the late day and early night looked ghostly.

As Farwell stood near Mary McAdam by the newly made graves, he raised
his eyes and found Ledyard's stern, yet amused, ones on his face. For
a moment he quivered, but with the courage of one facing an operation,
the outcome of which he could not know, he returned the look steadily.
He heard his own voice speaking words of helpfulness, words of
memory-haunted scenes. He told of Tom's courage and Sandy's sunshiny
nature. 'Twas youth, he pleaded for them, youth with its blindness and
lack of foresight. He recalled the last dread act as Jerry-Jo had
depicted it. The older brother risking all for the younger. The
smile--Sandy's last bequest--the moving lips that doubtless spoke words
of affection to the only one who could hear them. Together they had
played their pranks, had trod the common path; together they
went--Farwell paused, then returned Ledyard's sneering gaze
defiantly,--"To God who alone can understand and judge!" This was
flung out boldly, recklessly.

With ceremony and the sound of sobbing, the empty graves were refilled,
and the strange company turned away.

Then, alone and spent, Farwell returned to his cottage with a sure sense
that before he slept he would know his fate, for he acknowledged that his
fate lay largely, now, in the hands of the man who no longer had any
doubt of his identity.

It was half-past eight when the buggy passed Farwell's window bound for
the Hill Place. Young Travers was driving and the seat beside him was
empty! Nine o'clock struck; the lights went out in the village, but
Farwell rose and trimmed his lamp carefully. Ten o'clock--all Kenmore,
excepting Mary McAdam, slept. Still Farwell waited while his clock ticked
out the palpitating seconds. The moonlight flooded the Green. Where was
he, that waiting man who was to come and give the blow?

It was nearly eleven when Farwell saw him advancing across the Green. He
had been down by the water, probably hiding in some anchored boat until
he was sure that he would not be seen. As he reached the door of
Farwell's house a clear voice called to him:

"Will you come in, or would you prefer to have me come out?"

This took Ledyard rather at a disadvantage. He could hardly have told
what he expected, but he certainly did not look for this calm acceptance
of him and his errand.

"I'll come in. I see you have a light. Thank you"--for Farwell had
offered a chair near the table--"I hope I'm not disturbing you."

The irony of this was apparently lost upon Farwell. He sat opposite
Ledyard, his arms folded on the table, waiting.

"So you're alive!"

"So it seems--at least partly so." Farwell parried the blows as one does
even when he sees failure at hand.

"Perhaps you know your death was reported some years ago? There was a
full account. You were escaping into Canada. The _La Belle_ was the name
of the boat. It went down near here?"

"Off Bleak Head," Farwell broke in.

"Thanks. There was even a picture of you in the papers," Ledyard said.

"A very poor one, I recall." Now that he was on the dissecting table,
Farwell found himself strangely calm and collected. He saw that his
manner irritated Ledyard; felt that it might ruin his chances, but he
held to it grimly.

"So you saw--the papers?" The eyes under the shaggy brows looked ugly.

"Oh, yes. I had them all sent to me. It was very interesting reading
after I got over the shock of the wreck and had accepted my isolated
position."

"I suppose--Boswell keeps in touch with you--damn him!"

"Do you begrudge me--this one friend?"

"Yes. You have put yourself outside the pale of human companionship and
friendships."

To this Farwell made no rejoinder. Again he waited.

"What do you think I'm going to do about it, now that I've run you down
so unexpectedly?"

"I have supposed you would tell me, once we got together."

"Well, I've come to tell you!"

Ledyard leaned back in his chair and stretched his long legs out before
him.

"But first I'm going to ask you a few questions. Your answers won't
signify much one way or the other, but I'm curious. Why did you make such
a fight--just to live? It must have been a devil of a game."

Farwell leaned against the table and so came nearer to his inquisitor.

"It was," he said quietly, "and I wonder if you can understand why it is
that I'm glad to tell--even you about it? I don't expect sympathy, pity,
or--even justice, but when a man's been on a desert isle for years it's a
relief to speak his own tongue again to any one who can comprehend and
who will listen."

"I'm prepared to listen," Ledyard muttered, and shrugged his heavy
shoulders; "it will pass the time."

"After the thing was done," Farwell plunged in, "the thing I--had to
do--I was dazed; I couldn't think clear. I'd been driven by drink
and--and other things into a state bordering on delirium. Afterward, when
they had me and I was forced to live normally, simply, I began to think
clearly and suffer. God! how I suffered! I faced death with the horror
that only an intelligent person can know. I saw no escape. The trial, the
verdict, brought me closer and closer to the hideous reality. At first
I thought it could _not_ happen to me--to me! But it could! I sat day
in and day out, looking at the electric chair! That was all I could see:
it stood like a symbol of all the torture. I wondered how I would
approach it. Would I falter, or go as most poor devils do--steadily? I
saw myself--afterward--all that was left of me to give back to the world.
Oh! I suffered, I suffered!"

The white, haggard face held Ledyard's fascinated gaze, but drew no word
from him.

Farwell loosened the neck of his shirt--he was stifling, yet feeling
relief as the past dreams of his lonely life formed themselves into
words.

"At night I was haunted by visions," the low, vibrant voice rushed on.
"It was worse at night when semi-unconsciousness made me helpless. I'd
wake up yelling, not with fright, but pain, actual pain--the hot, knifing
pain of an electric current trying to find my heart and brain.

"Then they said I was mad. Well, so I was; and the fight was on! At first
there was a gleam--the chair faded from sight. If I lived--there was
hope; but I was mistaken. You know the rest. The legal struggle, the
escapes and captures. One friend and much money did what they could; it
wasn't much.

"You've seen a cat play with a mouse? The mouse always runs, doesn't it?
Well, so did I, though I didn't know where in God's world I was running,
nor to what."

For some minutes Farwell had been speaking like a man distraught by
fever. He had forgotten the listener across the table; he was remembering
_aloud_ at last, with no fear of consequences. He did not look at
Ledyard, and when he spoke again it was in a calmer tone.

"It was on the last run--that I was supposed to have drowned. Well, I did
die; at least something in me died. I lost breath, consciousness, and
when I came to I was a poor, broken thing not worth turning the hounds
on. I'm done for as far as the past's concerned. I'm a different man--not
a reformed one! God knows I never played that rôle. I'm another man. I
took what I could to keep me from insanity. I had to do something to
occupy my time. That's why I've taught these poor little devils; it
wasn't for them, it was for me; and when they grew to like me and trust
me--I was grateful. Grateful for even that!"

Ledyard was holding the white, drawn face by his merciless eyes. So he
looked when a particularly interesting subject lay under his knife and he
was all surgeon--no man.

"But you're not equal to going back to the States without being hauled
there--and taking your medicine?" he asked calmly.

"No. I suppose in the final analysis all that justice demands is that I
should be put out of the way--out of the way of harming others? Well,
that's accomplished. I don't suppose your infernal ideas of justice claim
that a man should be hounded beyond death, and every chance for right
living be barred from him? If a poor devil ever can expatiate his sin and
try to live a decent life, why shouldn't he be given the opportunity here
and now instead of in some mythical place among creatures of one's
fancy?"

"You didn't argue that way when you shot Charles Martin down, did you? He
was my friend; he had to--take his medicine!" Ledyard almost snarled out
these words. "He may have deserved his punishment for the lapses of his
life--but you were not the one to deal it. His family demand and should
have justice for him--I mean to see that they shall. Martin, for all his
folly was a genius, and gave to the world his toll of service. Why should
you, who gave nothing, escape at his expense?"

"Martin was no better, no worse, than I. He and I lived on the same plane
then; had the same interests. Had I not killed him, he would have killed
me. He swore that."

"But you took him--at a disadvantage, like the damned----" Ledyard
paused; he was losing his self-control. The calm, living face across the
table enraged him.

"I met him in the open; I did not know he was unarmed. I drew my pistol
in full view. A week before he had done the same; I escaped. No one
believed that when I told it at the trial. I had no witnesses; he had
many when I took my revenge."

"Who could believe you? What was your life compared with his?"

"Exactly. Perhaps that is why I--I kept running. Martin only dipped into
such lives as mine was then; he always scurried back to respectability
and honour; I grovelled in the mire and got stuck! When you get stuck you
get what the world calls--justice."

"I recall"--Ledyard's face was hardening--"I recall you always squealed.
You were always the wronged one; society was against you. Bah!"

Farwell sat unmoved under this attack.

"I'm not squealing now," he said quietly; "I am merely defending myself
as I can. That's the prerogative of any human being, isn't it? Why, see
here, Ledyard, there's one thing men like you never comprehend. On the
different stratas of life exactly the same passions, impulses, and
emotions exist; it's the way they're dealt with, how they affect people,
that makes the difference. Up where you live and breathe they love and
hate and take revenge, don't they? That's what happened down where I
wallowed and where Martin sometimes came--to enjoy himself!"

And now Farwell clutched his thin hands on the table to stay their
trembling as he went on:

"I loved--the woman in the case. That sounds strange to you, but it's the
only thing I warn you not to laugh at! I loved her because she was
beautiful, fascinating, and as--as bad as I. I knew the poor creature had
never had half a show. She was born in evil and exploited from the cradle
up. Martin knew it, too, and took advantage. She was fair game for him
and his money. When he came down to hell to play, he played with her and
defied me. But on my plane it was man against man, you see, and when he
flung his plaything aside, she came to me; that's all! She told me how he
had brought her where she was--yes, damn him! when she was innocent! She
paid her toll then, _not_ for his money--though who would believe
that?--but for the chance to be decent and clean. He told her, when
she was only sixteen, that the one way she could prove her vows to him
was to give herself to him. If she trusted him so far, he could trust
her. She trusted, poor child! Two years later he married up on his higher
plane--your plane--and laughingly offered a second best place to her. It
was the only bargain she could make then! The rest was an easy downhill
grade.

"Well, I took her. I was all you say, but I meant to do the right
thing by her, and she knew it! Yes, she knew it, and later he came back
and tried to get her away. After I shot him and went to her with the
story--she told me she'd pull herself together and wait for me
until--until I came for her. She understood!"

Ledyard moistened his lips and set his jaws harshly. The story had not
moved him to pity.

"And--where is she now?" he asked.

"In New York, I suppose. She thinks me dead."

"Boswell tells you that?"

"Yes. And he will never let her know. Unless I----"

"You expect to go back--some day?"

Farwell gave a dry, mirthless laugh at this, and then replied:

"After I've been dead long enough, when I've been good long enough,
perhaps. You know even in a disembodied spirit hope dies hard. Yes--I
_had_ hoped to go back."

"I--I thought so." Ledyard leaned forward and across the table; his face
was not three feet from Farwell's.

"I like to trace diseases down to the last germ," he said. "You're a
disease, Farwell Maxwell, a mighty, ugly, dangerous one. You oughtn't to
be alive; you're a menace while you have breath in your body; you should
have died years ago in payment of your debt, just as Martin did, but you
escaped, and now some one has got to keep an eye on you; see that you
don't skip quarantine. You understand?"

Farwell felt the turning of the screw.

"I'm going to be the eye, Maxwell. You're going to stay right where you
are until you pass off this sphere. Remembering what you once were, your
pastimes and love of luxury, this seems as hellish a place and existence
as even you deserve. When I saw you last night"--and here Ledyard
laughed--"it was all I could do to control myself. You play your part
well; but you always had a knack for theatricals. I know I'm a hard,
unforgiving man, but there is just one phase of human nature that I will
not stand for, and that is the refusal to take the medicine prescribed
for the disease. What incentive have people for better living and upright
thinking if every devil of a fellow who gets through his beastiality is
permitted to come up into the ranks and march shoulder to shoulder with
the best? If it's living you want and will lie for, steal for, and beg
for--have it; but have it here where the chances are all against your old
self. You'll probably never murder any one here or ruin the women; so
grovel on!"

As he listened Farwell seemed to shrink and age. In that hour he
recognized the fact that through all the years of self-imposed exile he
had held to the hope of release in the future: the going back to that
which he had once known. But looking at the hard, set face opposite he
knew that this hope was futile: he must live forever where he was, or, by
departing, bring about him the bloodhounds of justice and vengeance.
Ledyard had but to whistle, he knew, and again the pursuit would be keen,
and in the end--a long blank lay beyond that!

"You will--stay where you are!" Ledyard was saying.

"Surely. I intend to stay right here."

Then Farwell laughed and leaned back in his chair.




CHAPTER VII


Life settled into calm after the storm and subsequent happenings. Mary
McAdam, having done what she felt she must do, grimly set her house in
order and prepared for a new career. The bar, cleansed and altered,
became her private apartment. With the courage and endurance of a martyr
she determined to fight her battle out where there would be the least
encouragement or comfort.

"I'll drink to the dregs," she said to Mary Terhune, who gave up her
profession to share the solitude and fortunes of the White Fish; "but
while I'm drinking there's no crime in serving my kind. Come summer I'll
open my doors to tourists and keep the kind of house a woman--and a
God-bepraised widow one at that--should keep. Time was when the best
would not come to me, the bar being against their liking. Well, the best
may come now and find peace."

"'Tis a changed woman you are, Mrs. McAdam."

"No, just a stricken one, Mary. When I sit by those empty graves back of
the pasture lot I seem to know that I must do the work of my boys as well
as my own--and the time's short! I'm over sixty."

"And looking forty, Mrs. McAdam." The manners of her trade clung to Mrs.
Terhune.

"The shell doesn't count, Mary, if the heart of you is old and worn."

The people from the Far Hill Place returned early to town that year, and
Anton Farwell breathed easier and sunk back into his old life when he
knew they were gone.

In resurrecting the man Farwell once was, Ledyard had all but slain the
man he had, perforce, become.

Whether former characteristics were dead or not, who could tell?
But certainly with temptation removed, with the routine of a bleak,
uninteresting existence his only choice, Farwell was a harmless creature.
Gradually he had found solace in the commonplaces that surrounded
him. Like a person relieved of mortal agony he was grateful for
semi-invalidism. Previous to Ledyard's recognition of him he had sunk to
a monotonous indifference, waiting, he realized now, for the time when he
might safely shake off his disguise and slip away to what was once his
own. Now, with his exit from Kenmore barred, he found that he no longer
could return to his stupor; he was alert, keen, and restless. In the
past he had often forced himself to exercise in order that he might be
ready to journey on when the time of release came. His walks to the
distant town, his long hours on the water, had all been preparations
for the final leave-taking from his living tomb.

But now that he had no need of lashing himself into action, he found
himself always on the move. He worked early and late at trifling tasks
that occupied his hands while sharpening his wits. With shades drawn at
night, he drew, with pencil and paper, plans of escape. He must choose
a calm spell after a storm; he would take his launch, with a rowboat
behind, to the Fox Portage. He'd set his launch free and shoulder his
boat. Once he reached the Little Bay, he'd take his chances for an
outgoing steamer. He'd have plenty of money and a glib story of a bad
connection. It would go. He must defeat Ledyard.

Then he would tear the sheets of paper in bits, toss them on the coals,
and laugh bitterly as he realized that he was imprisoned forever.

Foolish as all this was, it had its effect upon the man. He played with
the thought as a child might play with a forbidden toy. Then he decided
to test the matter. He would have to buy clothes and provisions for the
winter--he always made a pilgrimage about this time. There would be a
letter from Boswell, too. There always was one in September. So on a
certain morning Farwell turned the key in his lock and quite naturally
set forth with a sense of exaltation and freedom he had imagined he would
never feel again.

Followed by his dogs, he went to his boat, which happened just then to be
tied at the ricketty dock of the White Fish.

"It's off for a tramp you are, maybe?" asked Mrs. McAdam from her
doorway. "God keep you, Mr. Farwell, and bring you back safe and sound."

At this Farwell paused.

"I think I'll leave the dogs behind," he said. "I may wish to hurry back,
and a brace of dogs, keen on scents and full of spirits, is a handicap on
a journey."

"Sure I'll feed and care for the two, and welcome, and if their staying
behind brings you quicker home, 'tis a good piece of work I'm doing for
Kenmore."

With this Mary McAdam came down to the boat and looked keenly at Farwell.

"Are you well?" she asked with a gentleness new and touching. "'Tis pale
you look, and thin, I'm thinking. I'm getting to depend upon you, and the
thought of anything happening to you grieves the heart of me. In all
Kenmore there's no one as I lean on like you. There be nights when I look
out toward your house and see your light a-shining when all else is dark,
and say to myself, 'The master and me' over and over, and I'm less
lonely."

For a moment Farwell could not speak. Once an inward desire to laugh,
to scoff, would have driven him to supernatural gravity; now he merely
smiled with grave pleasure, and said:

"A tramp will do me good, Mrs. McAdam. Thank you. I'll take your words
with me for comfort and cheer."

The first night Farwell slept beside his fire, not ten miles from
Kenmore. He had revelled in his freedom all day, had played like a boy,
often retracing his steps, carefully using the same footprints, and
laughing as he imagined the confusion of any one trying to follow him;
the vague somebody being always Ledyard.

After a frugal meal, Farwell smoked his pipe, even attempted a snatch of
rollicking song, then, rolling himself in a blanket, fell into natural
and happy slumber.

At four he awoke with the creeping sensation of unexplainable fear. He
first thought some animal was prowling near, and, raising himself on his
elbow, looked keenly about. The appearance of the fire puzzled him. It
looked as if fresh wood had been laid upon it, but, as no one was in
sight he concluded that his own wood had been damp, and, therefore, had
burned slower.

He did not sleep again, however, and his excited thoughts trailed back to
his past and the one woman who had magically caught and held all the best
that was in him. To what point of vantage had she, poor, disabled little
soul, drifted? The world was a hard enough place for a woman, God knew,
and for her, with her sudden-born determination to rise above the squalor
of her early youth, it would be a serious problem. Boswell told him so
little. He could count on his fingers the few sharp facts his friend had
given him with the promise that if conditions changed he should know, but
if all remained well, he might be secure in his faith and hope for the
future. The future! Was there any future for him except Kenmore? And if
she heard now that he was alive, had only _seemed_ dead for her safety
and his own, would she come to him and share the dun-coloured life of the
In-Place?

She was alive; she was faithful. Boswell was making her comfortable with
Farwell's money. She was accepting less and less because she was winning
her way to independence in an honourable line. Since no man had entered
her life after Farwell's death was reported, Farwell could readily see
why.

Over and over, that first night in the woods, Farwell rehearsed these
facts for comfort's sake. Suppose he made an escape. Suppose he lost
himself in the city's labyrinth--what then?

And then, just at daybreak, a vivid and sharp memory of the woman's face
came to him as he had last seen it pressed against the bars of his cell.
Behind the squares of metal it shone like an angel's. Fair, pitiful,
wonder-filled eyes, and quivering mouth. All day the picture haunted him
and seemed to draw him toward it. He walked twenty miles that day and
came at sunset to a dense jungle where he made his camp and stretched
himself exhaustedly before the fire.

Sleep did not come easily to him; he was too excited and nerve worn. The
white face checked by iron bars would not fade, and in the red glow of
the flames it began to look wan and haggard, as if the day had tired it
and it could find no rest or comfort.

The feeling of suffocation Ledyard had managed to create, returned to
him. He grew nervous, ill at ease, and fearful.

Then he fell to moralizing. He was not often given to that, or
introspection. Longing and alternate hope and despair had been his
comrades and bedfellows, but he rarely indulged in calm consideration.
Smoking his pipe, stretched wearily on the moss, he wondered if men knew
how much they punished while fulfilling their ideals of justice?

"If only the sense of vindictiveness could be left out," he thought; "the
Lord knows they have it all in their power once the key is turned on us.
I deserved all they meant to inflict, but no human being deserves all
that was given unconsciously."

Then Farwell relived his life, while the wood crumbled to ashes and the
moon came up over the hills. A misguided, misspent boyhood; too much
money; too little common sense; then the fling in the open with every
emotion and desire uncurbed. Well, he had to learn his lesson and God
knew he had; but why, in the working of things, shouldn't one be given
a chance to prove the well-learned task; an opportunity, while among the
living, to settle the question?

However, such fancies were idle, and Farwell shook the ashes from his
pipe and gave a humorous shrug.

It would be a fine piece of work to slip from the clutches of the past
and make good! This idea caused him to tremble. Surely no one would look
for him in the camp of the upright. Walking the paths of the clean and
sane he would be more surely secure from detection than anywhere else on
earth. That was what his past had done for him. The truth of this sank
into the lonely man's soul with sickening finality. And as he realized
it, and compared it with the fact of his youth, he groaned. What an
infernal fool he had been! What fools all such fellows were who, like
him, wasted everything in their determination to make the unreal, real.
He did not now desire to be a drivelling repentant; he wanted, God knew
he really wanted, a chance to be decent and live; but in order to live he
must go on acting a part and cringing and hiding.

These thoughts led nowhere and unfitted him for his journey, so he made
the fire safe, lay down beside it, and slept as many a better man would
have given much to sleep.

At four he awoke as on the previous night. So quietly, however, did he
open his eyes that he took by surprise a man crouching by the fire as if
stealing a bit of warmth. Farwell turned over, and the two eyed each
other with wide, penetrating gaze.

Tough Pine, the guide, finding himself discovered, grinned sheepishly; he
was loathing himself for being taken off guard, and muttered:

"Me share fire? me helped keep it."

Farwell raised himself on his elbow, all the light and courage gone from
his face. It was the old story, the dream of freedom and--the prison
bars!

"Where are you going?" he asked, though he knew full well.

"Where--you go? There, Pine go! Pine--good friend and good guide."

They questioned each other no more. Farwell finished his errand in dull
fashion, bought his goods, found a letter, long waiting him, read all the
papers he could lay hands on, and then set his face toward Kenmore. And
that winter he devoted himself as he never had before to the simple
people who were the means of keeping him sane.

Upon this newly restricted and devastated horizon Priscilla Glenn loomed
large and vital. With Nathaniel's loosened rein and Theodora's restored
faith, the girl developed wonderfully. Farwell made no more objection to
her dancing or her flights of fancy. He fiddled for her and fed the flame
of her imagination. She was the sunniest creature he had ever known;
the bleak life of Lonely Farm had spurred her to greater lengths of
self-defence; nothing could daunt her. She had an absorbing curiosity
about life, out and beyond the Kenmore confines; and more to keep his own
memory clear than to satisfy Priscilla, Farwell set himself to the task
of educating the girl in ways that would have appalled Nathaniel and
reduced Theodora again to tears and apprehension.

The bare room of the master's house was the stage upon which were set, in
turn, the scenes of distant city life. Vicariously Priscilla learned the
manners of a "real lady" under the most trying circumstances. Farwell
told her of plays, operas, and, over his deal table, they chatted in
brilliant restaurants. They walked gay streets and stood bewildered
before flashing shop windows. It was all dangerous, but fascinating, and
in the playing of the game Farwell grew old and drawn, while Priscilla
gradually came into her Heart's Desire of delight.

"My Road!" she proudly thought. "My Road!"

The old poem was recalled and was often repeated like a litany, while
life became more and more vital and thrilling with dull Kenmore as a
background and setting.

Just about this time Jerry-Jo took to wearing his Sunday suit on week
days, thus proclaiming his aspirations and awaking the ribald jests of
his particular set.

Mary Terhune, now partner of Mrs. McAdam, took note of Jerry-Jo's
appearance, and, on a certain afternoon in midwinter, when she, Long
Jean, and Mary McAdam sat by the range in the White Fish kitchen, fanned
a lively bit of gossip into flame.

"Trade's a bit poor these days, eh, Jean?"

Jean grunted over her cup of green tea.

"Not so many children born as once was, eh? What you make of it,
Jean--the woman getting heady or--which?"

Mary McAdam broke in.

"What with poverty and the terrors of losing them, there's enough born to
my thinking. Time was when the young 'uns happened; they're thought more
on, these days. Women _should_ have a say. If there's one thing a man
should keep his tongue off it's this matter of families!"

To this outrageous sentiment the listeners replied merely by two audible
gulps of tea, and then Mary Terhune found grace to remark:

"You certainly do talk most wonderful things, Mary McAdam. You be an
ornament to your sex, but only such women as you can grip them audacious
ideas. Let them be sowed broadcast and----"

"Where would me, and such as me, be?" Long Jean muttered, defending her
profession.

Mrs. Terhune tactfully turned the conversation:

"Have you noticed the change in Jerry-Jo McAlpin?" she asked with a
mysterious shake of her head.

"Any change for the better would be welcome," Mrs. McAdam retorted. "Have
another cup, Jean? Strong or weak?"

"Strong. I says often, says I, that unless tea curls your tongue you
might just as well take water. When I'm on duty I keep a pot on the back
of the stove week in and week out; it do brace me powerful."

Mrs. McAdam poured the tea into the outstretched cup and proceeded to
discuss Jerry-Jo.

"Why doesn't the scamp go to the States and find himself instead of
worrying old Jerry's very life out of him--the vampire!"

"He may have it in his mind," soothed Mary Terhune, "but the lad's deep
and far seeing like his Injun mother--beg pardon, Jean, the term's a
compliment, God save me!"

"You've saved your face, Mrs. Terhune. Go on!"

Jean had begun to resent, but the explanation mollified her.

"More tea," she said quietly, "and you might stir the dregs a mite, Mrs.
McAdam; it's plain sinful to let the strength go to waste."

"If I was Theodora Glenn," Mary Terhune went on, monotonously stirring
the cold liquid in her cup, "I'd have my eye on that girl of hers."

And now the ingredients were prepared for the mixing!

"What's Priscilla Glenn got to do with Jerry-Jo McAlpin?" Mrs. McAdam
asked sharply, fixing her little ferret eyes on the speaker.

Long Jean bridled again and interjected:

"And for why not? Young folks is young folks, and there ain't too many
boys for the gels. What with the States and the toll to death, the gels
can't be too particular, not casting my flings at Jerry-Jo, either. He's
a handsome lad and will get a footing some day. Glenn's girl ain't none
too good for him; he'd bring her to her senses. All that dancing and
fiddle-scraping at Master Farwell's is not to my liking. The goings-on
are evil-looking to my mind. The girl always was a parcel of
whim-whams--made up of odds and ends, as it was, of her fore-runners.
What _all_ the children of the Glenns might have been--Priscilla is!"

"So Jerry-Jo's fixed his bold eyes on the girl?" asked Mary McAdam. "It
bodes no good for her. She's a sunny creature and mighty taking in her
ways. I wish her no ill, and I hate to think of Jerry-Jo shadowing her
life till she forgets to dance and sing. For my part, I wish the master
were twenty-five years younger and could play for the lass to dance to
the end of their days."

"And a poor outlook for me!" grumbled Jean humorously. "Another cup of
the tea, Mary Terhune, and make it stronger. I begin to feel the bitter
in my toes."

And while this talk and more like it was permeating Kenmore, Jerry-Jo,
adorned and uncomfortable, did his own thinking and planned his own plans
after the manner of his mixed inheritance. He could not settle to any
task or give heed to any temptation from the States until he had made
Priscilla secure. The girl's age in no wise daunted McAlpin. His eighteen
years were all that were to be considered; he knew what he wanted, what
he meant to have. He could wait, he could bide the fulfillment of his
hopes, but one big, compelling subject at a time was all he could master.

He secretly and furiously objected to the dancing and visits in Farwell's
cottage. He was ashamed to voice this feeling, for Farwell was his friend
and had taught him all he knew, but Farwell's age did not in the least
blind Jerry-Jo to the fact that he was a man, and he did not enjoy seeing
Priscilla so free and easy with any other of the male sex, be he ancient
enough to topple into the grave.

"She'll dance for me--for me!" the young fellow ground his teeth. "I'll
make her forget to prance and grin unless she does it for me. The
master's just training her away from me and putting notions in her head.
I'll take her to the States--maybe her dancing will help us both there.
I don't mean to drudge as Jamsie Hornby does! Better things for me!"

Sex attraction swayed Jerry-Jo madly in those days and he thought it
love, as many a better man had done before him. The blood of his mother
controlled him largely and he wished that he might carry the girl off to
his wigwam, and, at his leisure, with beads and blankets, or other less
tangible methods, win her and conquer her. But present conditions held
the boy in check and compelled him to adopt more modern tactics. He
stole, when he couldn't beg, from his poor father all the money Jerry
wrenched from an occasional day's work. With this he bought books for
Priscilla, vaguely realizing that these would most interest her, but his
selection often made her laugh. Piqued by her indifference, Jerry-Jo
plotted a thing that led, later, to tragic results. Remembering the
favour Priscilla had long ago shown for the book from Far Hill Place, he
decided to utilize the taste of the absent owner, and the owner himself,
for his own ends, not realizing that Priscilla had never connected the
cripple Jerry-Jo had described, with the musician of the magic summer
afternoon that had set her life in new currents.

It was an easy matter to enter the Far Hill Place, and, where one was
not troubled with conscience, a simple thing to select at random, but
with economy, books from the well-filled shelves. These gifts presently
found their way to Priscilla, cunningly disguised as mail packages.
Inadvertently the very book Priscilla had once cried over came to her and
touched her strangely.

"Why should he send me these--send me this?" she asked Jerry-Jo, who had
brought the package to her.

"He always wanted you to have it. I told you that; he remembers, I
suppose, and wants you to have it. He said it was more yours than his."
To test her Jerry-Jo was hiding behind Travers.

"I'd walk a hundred miles over the rock on bare feet to thank him," the
girl replied, her big eyes shining. And with the words there entered into
Jerry-Jo's distorted imagination a concrete and lasting jealousy of poor
Dick Travers, who was innocent of any actual memory of Priscilla Glenn.
Travers at that time was studying as few college men do, always with the
spur of lost years and a big ambition lashing him on.

During that winter the stolen books from the Far Hill Place caused
Priscilla much wonderment and some little embarrassment. She had to keep
them secret owing to her father's sentiment, and, for some reason, she
did not confide in Farwell. This new and unexpected interest in her life
was so foreign to anything with which the master had to do that she felt
no inclination to share it.

"But I cannot understand," she often said to Jerry-Jo. "I'd like to write
to him. Do you think you could find out for me where he is? That he
should even remember me! I would not have him think me so ungrateful as
I must seem."

She and Jerry-Jo were in the path leading to Lonely Farm from Kenmore as
she spoke, and suddenly something the young fellow said brought her to a
sharp standstill.

"Oh! I suppose, after your cutting up in the woods that day he wants to
make you remember him."

This was an outburst that Jerry-Jo permitted himself without forethought.
He was using Travers as an old tribeman might have used torture, to test
his own bravery and endurance, but the effect upon Priscilla was so
startling and unexpected that he fell back bewildered.

"In--the--the--woods?" she gasped.

"Sure. That time your father drove you home."

For a full moment Priscilla stared helplessly, then she began to see
light.

"Do you mean," she gasped, "that he who made me dance--was the boy of the
Hill Place?"

"As if you did not know it!" Jerry-Jo grunted.

"But Jerry-Jo you said he--that boy was a poor, twisted thing, ugly past
all belief, while he who played and laughed that day was like an angel of
light just showing me the way to heaven!"

And now Jerry-Jo's dark face was not pleasant to look upon.

"Can't a twisted thing become straight?" he muttered; "can't a devil trap
himself out like an--an angel?"

"Oh! Jerry-Jo, he who played for me in the woods could never have been
evil. Why, all his life he had been making himself into something big
and fine. He put into words the things I had always thought and dreamed
about--an ideal was what he called it! And to think I never knew! And he
remembered and wanted to be kind! I shall worship him now while I live.
And when he comes back to the Hill Place I will go and thank him, even
if my father should kill me. I shall never be happy until I can explain.
What a stupid he must think me!"

After that the secret became the sacredest thing in Priscilla's life and
the most tormenting in Jerry-Jo's. They were both at ages when such an
occurrence would appeal to a girl's sentimentality and a young man's
hatred.

The family did not return to the Hill Place for many summers, and only
once during the following years did Priscilla's name pass Travers's
lips.

Apropos of something they were talking about he said to Helen Travers: "I
wonder what has become of that little dancing dervish up in Canada? She
wasn't plain, ordinary stuff, but I suppose she'll be knocked into shape.
Maybe that half-breed, Jerry-Jo, will get her when she's been reduced to
his level. There are not girls enough to go around up there, I fancy.
That little thing, though, was too spiritual to be crushed and
remodelled. As she danced that day, her scarlet cape flying out in the
breeze, she looked like a living flame darting up from the red rock.
And those awful words she uttered--poor little pagan! Jerry-Jo told
me afterward what the lure of the States meant: it's a provincial
expression. Mother, if the lure should ever control that girl of Lonely
Farm I wish we might greet her, for safety's sake."

But it was not likely that either of the Traverses for a moment conceived
of the reality of Priscilla leaving the In-Place, and in time even the
memory of her became blurred to Dick by the eternal verities of his
strenuous young life.

Gradually his lameness disappeared until a slight hesitation at times was
all that remained. Five years of college, two abroad--one with Helen, one
with Doctor Ledyard--and then Richard Thornton Travers (Helen had, when
he went to college, insisted for the first time upon the middle name)
hung out his modest sign--it looked brazenly glaring to him--under that
of Thomas R. Ledyard, and nervously awaited the first call upon him. He
was twenty-five when he started life, and Priscilla Glenn, back in
forgotten Kenmore, was nearing nineteen, with Jerry-Jo in hot pursuit
behind her. As to Anton Farwell, there was no doubt about his age now.
Not even the very old called him young, and there was a pathos about him
that attracted the attention of those with whom he had lived so long.

"He looks haunted," Mary Terhune ventured; "he starts at times when one
speaks sudden, real pitiful like. The look of his eyes, too, has the
queer flash of them as sees forward as well as back. Do you mind, Mrs.
McAdam, how 'tis said that them as comes nigh to drowning have a glimpse
on before as well as the picture of all that has past?"

"I've heard the same," nodded Mary McAdam.

"Belike the master remembers and often looks to the end of his journey.
Well, he's been a good harmless sort, as men go. He's kept the children
out of trouble far more than one could expect, and he's been a merciful
creature to humans and beasts. I wonder what he had in his life before he
washed up from the _La Belle_?"

All this seemed to end the discussion.

Mary McAdam was an important personage about that time. The White Fish
Lodge had become famous. Without bar or special privilege of any sort,
the house was patronized by the best class of tourist. Mary was a born
proprietress, and, while she extracted the last penny due her, always
gave full value in return. She and Mary Terhune did the cooking; a bevy
of clean, young Indian girls from Wyland Island served as waitresses and
maids, their quaint, keen reserve was charming, and no better public
house could have been found on the Little or Big Bay.

Priscilla drifted to the Lodge as naturally as a flower turns to the sun.
The easy-going people, the laughter and merriment appealed strongly to
her, and again did she cause Jerry-Jo serious displeasure and arouse her
father's lurking suspicions.

"Watch her! watch her!" was his warning, and Theodora returned to her
fears and tears.




CHAPTER VIII


Anton Farwell had, little by little, accepted the fate of those who,
deprived of many blessings, learn to depend on a few. As the remaining
senses are sharpened by the loss of one, so in this man's life the
cramping process, begun by his own wrongdoing, and prolonged and
completed by other conditions, had the effect of focussing all his power
on the atoms that went to the making up of the daily record of his days.
Had he kept a diary it would have been interesting from its very lack of
large interest. And yet, with all this narrowing down, a certain fineness
and purpose evolved that were both touching and inspiring. He never
complained, not even to himself. After recognizing the power which
Ledyard held in his life, he relinquished the one hope that had held him
to the past. Then, for a year or two, the light of the doctor's contempt,
which had been turned on him, took the zest from the small efforts he had
made for better living and caused him to distrust himself. He saw himself
what he knew Ledyard thought him--a mean, cowardly creature, and yet, in
his better moments, he knew this was not so.

"Men have made friends of mice and insects in prison," he argued; "they
have kept their reason by so doing; why, in heaven's name, shouldn't I
play with these people here and make life possible?"

But try as he might he found his courage failing, and more and more he
dwelt apart and clung to the few--Priscilla Glenn, Mary McAdam, and old
Jerry McAlpin--who regarded him in the light of a priest to whom they
might confess freely.

Then one of Farwell's dogs died and he was genuinely anxious at the
effect this had upon him.

"So this is what I've come to!" he muttered as he buried the poor brute,
while the tears fell from his eyes and the other dog whined dolorously
beside him--"broken hearted over--a mongrel!" But he got another dog!

For a time Farwell vigorously set himself against depending upon
Priscilla Glenn as a support in his narrowing sphere. Many things
threatened such a friendship--Nathaniel, Jerry-Jo, and the girl
herself--for Priscilla, during the first years of Nathaniel's relaxed
severity, was like a bee sipping every flower, and Farwell was not at
all confident that anything he had to give would hold even her passing
interest for long. Then, too, like a many-wounded creature, he dreaded
a new danger, even though for a moment it gave promise of comfort. But
finally Priscilla got her bearings and more and more brought all her
powers to bear upon one ambition.

The childish madness that prompted her to run away from anything that
hurt or angered her, gradually disappeared, and in its place came a staid
determination to seek her fortunes, soon, in some place distant from
Kenmore.

The tourists opened a new vista to her, but many of them, with stupid
ignorance, mistook her position and traditions. She was offered
occupations as cook, maid, or laundress. She had sense of humour enough
to laugh at these, and often wished she dared repeat them for her
father's edification.

"The daughter of the King of Lonely Farm," she said to Farwell one day
with her mocking smile and comical courtesy "is bidden to the service of
Mrs. Flighty High as skivvy. If this comes to the king's ears, 'twill
mean the head of Mrs. Flighty High!"

Farwell joined her in her amusement and felt the charm of her coming
womanhood.

"But there is one up at the Lodge," Priscilla went on more gravely, "who
is not such a wild fool. She has a sick baby, and for two nights she and
I have watched and tended together. She says I have the touch and nature
of the true nurse and she has told me how in the States, and England,
too, they train young girls in this work. She says we Canadians are in
great demand, and the calling is a wonderful one, Master Farwell."

This interested Anton Farwell a good deal and he and Priscilla discussed
it often after the woman who had just broached it had departed. It seemed
such a normal, natural opening for Priscilla if the time really came for
her to go away. The doubt that she would eventually go was slight in
Farwell's heart. He, keener than others, saw the closing-in of
conditions. He was not blind to Jerry-Jo's primitive attempts to attract
the girl's attention, but he was not deceived. When the moment came that
Priscilla recognized the half-breed's real thought, Farwell knew her
quick impulse would, as of old, be to fly away. She was like a wild bird,
he often pondered; she would give to great lengths, flutter close, and
love tenderly, but no restraining or harsh touch could do aught but set
her to flight.

At twenty-three Jerry-Jo surlily and passionately came to the conclusion
that he must in some way capture his prize. Other youths were wearing
gaudy ties and imperilling their Sunday bests; he was letting precious
time slip. Then, too, by Farwell's advice, old Jerry was growing rigid
along financial lines, and at last the _States_ took definite shape in
Jerry-Jo's mind, but he meant to have Priscilla before he heeded the
lure. With all his brazen conceit and daring he intuitively knew that
the girl had never thought of him as he thought of her, and he dared not
awaken her by legitimate means. Quite in keeping with his unrestrained
nature, he plotted, indirectly, to secure what otherwise might escape
him. Fully realizing Nathaniel's attitude toward his daughter, counting
his distorted conceptions and foolish pride, Jerry-Jo began to construct
an obstacle that would shut Priscilla from her father's protection and
cause her to accept what others had to offer--others, being always and
ever, himself!

Once Lonely Farm was closed to the girl, other houses in the serenely
moral In-Place would inevitably slam their doors. The cunning of the
half-breed was diabolic in its sureness. Anton Farwell could not assume
responsibility for Priscilla if all Kenmore turned its back on her, and
in that hour the girl would, of course, come running or crawling--never
dancing--to him, Jerry-Jo!

It was all for her own good, the evil fellow thought.

"I'll be kind to her when I get her. I'm only playing her with the hook
in her mouth."

But Jerry-Jo was scheming without considering the Lure, which never was
long absent from Priscilla's mind at that time.

One early September afternoon Priscilla presented herself at Farwell's
cabin in so startling a manner that she roused the man as nothing
previously in his association with her had ever done.

He was sitting at the west window of his living-room, his back toward the
door leading to the Green. For a wonder, what he was reading had absorbed
him, and he was far and away from the In-Place. He had taken to fine, old
literature lately and had found, to his delight, that his mind was
capable of appreciating it.

    "Wisdom, slow product of laborious years,
  The only fruit that life's cold winter bears,
    Thy sacred seeds in vain in youth we lay,
  By the fierce storm of passion torn away;
  Should some remain in rich, gen'rous soil,
  They long lie hid, and must be raised with toil;
  Faintly they struggle with inclement skies,
  No sooner born than the poor planter dies."

With such word-comfort did Farwell dig, from other's experiences, crude
guidings for himself! And at that moment a stir outside the open door
caused him to turn and confront what, in the excited moment, seemed an
apparition from the past, which, for him, was sealed and barred.

"Good Lord!" he ejaculated under his breath and started to his feet. A
visitor from the Lodge apparently had descended upon him.

"I beg pardon," he said aloud, and then a laugh, familiar and ringing,
brought the colour to his pale, thin face.

The girl came in, threw back the veil from her merry face, and confronted
Farwell.

"Miss Priscilla Glenn, sir! Behold her in the battered finery of the
place she is going to--to grace some day!"

Then Priscilla wheeled about lightly and displayed her gown to Farwell's
astonished eyes.

"Cast-offs," she explained; "the Honourable Mrs. Jones from the States
left them with Mrs. McAlpin for the poor. Just imagine the 'poor'
glinting around in this gay silk gown all frayed at the hem and in holes
under the arms! The hat and veil, too, go with the smart frock; likewise
the scarf of rainbow colours. But, oh! Mr. Farwell, how do I look as a
real lady in my damaged outfit?"

Farwell stared without speaking. He had grown so used to the change in
the girl since the time when he had prevailed upon Glenn to loosen the
rein upon her, that the even stream of their intercourse had been
unruffled. He had passed from teacher to friendly guide, from guide to
good comrade; but here he was suddenly confronting her--man to woman!

All his misfortune and limitations had but erected a shield of age about
him beneath which smouldered dangerously, but unconsciously, all the
forbidden and denied passions and sentiments of a male creature of early
middle life.

In thinking afterward of the shock Priscilla gave him, Farwell was always
glad to remember that his first thought was for her, her danger, her
need.

"I declare!" he exclaimed. "I did not know you, Priscilla Glenn."

His tone had a new ring in it, a vibration of defence--the astonished
male on guard against the attack of a subtle force whose power he could
not estimate.

"And no wonder. I did not know myself when I first saw myself. Do you
know, Mr. Farwell, I never thought about my--my face, much, but it is
really a--very nice face, isn't it? As faces go, I mean?"

"Yes," Farwell returned, looking at her critically and speaking slowly.
"Yes, you are very--beautiful. I had not thought of it before, either."

"Drop me down, now, in the States, Mr. Farwell, and I fancy that with my
looks and my dancing I might--well, go! What do you think?"

She was preening herself before a small mirror and did not notice the
elderly man, who, under her fascination, was being transformed.

"You're a regular Frankenstein," he muttered, while the consciousness
of the blue eyes in the dusky skin, the long slenderness of her body,
and the hue of her strange hair grew upon him. "Do you know what a
Frankenstein is?"

"No." And now Priscilla, weary of her play and self-contemplation, turned
about and took a chair opposite Farwell. "Tell me."

So he told her, but she shook her head.

"You've only helped me to find myself; you did not make me," she said
with a little sigh. "Oh, Mr. Farwell, I do--much thinking up at Lonely
Farm. The winters are long, and the nights, too. You know there is a
queer little plant beside the spring at the foot of our garden; it has
roots long enough and thick enough for a thing twice its size. It grew
strong and sure underground before it ventured up. It blossomed last
summer; an odd flower it had. I think I am like that. You've taught me
to--well, know myself. I shall not shame you, Master Farwell. You know we
of the lonesome In-Place make friends with strange objects; everything in
nature talks to us, if we will but listen. You have taught me to listen,
too. Back a piece in the woods are a strong young hemlock and a little
white birch. For years I have watched and tended them. When I was a small
girl I likened the hemlock to you, sir, and there was I, leaning and
huddling close to you, like the ghostly stripling of the woods. Well, I
noticed to-day, Mr. Farwell, the birch stands quite securely; it doesn't
bend for support on the hemlock, but it is standing friendly all the
same. I think"--and here Priscilla clasped her hands close and
outstretched them--"I think I am soon going away!"

Her eyes were tear-dimmed, her face very earnest.

"I wish--you would give up the childish folly, Priscilla." A fear rose
in Farwell's eyes. "What could you, such an one as you have become, do
out--in the States? It is madness--sheer, brutal madness."

Priscilla shook her head.

"You think it childish folly? Why, I have never lost sight of it for a
day. You have not understood me if you have imagined that. I have always
known I must go. Lately I have felt the nearness of the going, and it is
the _how_ to break away and begin that puzzle me. I am ready."

"Priscilla, you are a wild child still, playing with dangerous tools.
You cannot comprehend the trouble into which you are willing, in your
blindness, to plunge. Why, you are a--a woman; a beautiful one! Do you
know what the world does with such, unless they are guarded and
protected?"

"What does it do?" The true eyes held Farwell commandingly, and with a
sense of dismay he looked back at the only world he really knew: the
world of his own ungoverned passions and selfishness. A kind of shame
came over him, and he felt he was no safe guide. There were worlds and
worlds! He had sold his birthright; this woman, bent upon finding hers,
might inherit a fairer kingdom.

"What does it do, Master Farwell?"

"I do not know. It depends upon--you. It is like a great quarry--I have
read somewhere something like this--we must all mould and chisel our
characters; some of us crush them and chip them. It isn't always the
world's fault. God help us!"

Priscilla looked at him with large, shining eyes and the maternal in her
rose to the call of his sad recognition of failure where she was to go
with such brave courage.

"Do not fear for me," she said gently; "'twould be a poor return if I
failed, after all you have done for me."

"I--what have I done?"

"Everything. Have you ever thought what sort I would have been had Lonely
Farm been my only training?" she smiled faintly, and her girlish face, in
the setting of the faded hat and soiled veil, struck Farwell again by its
change, which now seemed to have settled into permanency. Of course it
was only the ridiculous fashion of the world he once knew, but he could
not free himself of the fancy that Priscilla was more her real self in
the shabby trappings than she had ever been in the absurd costumes of the
In-Place.

With the acceptance of the fact that the girl really meant to get away
and at once, a wave of dreariness swept over him. He thought of the time
on ahead when his last vital interest would be taken from him. Then he
aroused from his stupor and brought his mind to bear upon the inevitable;
the here and now.

"It's a big drop in your ambition, Priscilla," he said; "you used to
think you could dance your way to your throne."

"There is no throne now, Master Farwell. I'm just thinking all the time
of My Road."

"But there's the Heart's Desire at the end, you know."

"Yes; but I do not think I would want it to be a throne."

"What then?"

"Oh! love--my own life--the giving and giving just where I long to give.
It's splendid to tramp along your road, if it _is_ your road, and be
jolly and friendly with those you care for. It will all be so different
from Kenmore, where one has to take what one must."

"I wonder how Jerry-Jo will feel about all this?"

"Jerry-Jo! And what right has he to think at all--about me?"

The girl's eyes flashed with mischief and daring.

"Jerry-Jo!" she laughed with amusement. "Just big, Indian-boy Jerry-Jo!
We've played together and quarrelled together, but you're all wrong,
Master Farwell, if you think he cares about me! He knows better than
that--far, far, better."

But even as she spoke the light and fun left her eyes. She looked older,
more thoughtful.

"Isn't it queer?" she said after a pause.

"What, Priscilla?"

"Oh, life and people and the things that go to their making? You're quite
wrong about Jerry-Jo. I'm sure you're wrong."

Then suddenly she sprang up.

"I must go," she said abruptly; "go and exchange these rags for my own
plain things. I only wanted to surprise you, sir; and how deadly serious
we have grown."

She passed out of the cottage without a word more. Farwell watched her
across the Green and up to the Lodge. He was disturbed and restless. The
old fever of escape overcame him. With the thought of Priscilla's flight
into the open, he strained against the trap that Ledyard had caught him
in. The guide who, he knew, never permitted him to escape his vigilance,
became a new and alarming obstacle, and Farwell set his teeth grimly.
Then he muttered:

"Curse him! curse him!" and an emotion which he had believed was long
since dead rose hotly in his consciousness. Before the dread spectre,
suddenly imbued with vitality, Farwell reeled and covered his face.
Murder was in his heart--the old madness of desire to wipe out, by any
means, that which barred his way to what he wanted.

"My God!" he moaned; "my God! I--I thought I--was master. I thought it
was dead in me."

Farwell ate no evening meal that night. Early he closed and locked his
outer door, drew the dark green shades, and lighted his lamp. His hands
were clammy and cold, and he could not blot out with book or violin the
horror of Charles Martin's face as it looked up at him that night so long
ago. Way on toward morning Farwell paced his room trying to forget, but
he could not.

But Priscilla, after leaving Farwell, dressed again in her plain
serviceable gown and hat, had made her way toward the farm. Her happy,
light-hearted mood was past; she felt unaccountably gloomy, and as she
walked on she sought to explain herself to herself, and presently
Jerry-Jo came into focus and would not stir from her contemplation. Yes,
it was Jerry-Jo's personality that disturbed her, and it was Farwell's
words that had torn the shield she herself had erected, and set the truth
free. Yes, she had played with Jerry-Jo; she had tested her coquetry and
charm upon him for lack of better material. In her outbreaks of youthful
spirits she had claimed him as prey because the others of his sex were
less desirable. Jerry-Jo had that subtle, physical attraction that
responded to her youthful allurements, but the young fellow himself,
taken seriously, repelled her, and Farwell had taken Jerry-Jo seriously!

That was it! She was no longer a child. She was a woman and must remember
it. Undoubtedly Jerry-Jo himself had never given the matter a moment's
deep thought. Well, she must take care that he never did. Jerry-Jo in
earnest would be unbearable.

And then, just as she reached the pasture bars separating her father's
farm from the red rock highway, Jerry-Jo McAlpin strode in sight from the
wood path into which the highway ran. She waited for him and gave him a
nervous smile as he came near. His first words startled her out of her
dull mood.

"I've been up to the Hill Place. Him and her's there for a few days."

"Him and her!" Priscilla repeated, her face flushing. "Oh, him and her!"

"Sure!" McAlpin was holding her with a hard, fixed gaze.

In the mesh that was closing about Priscilla, strangely enough names
were always largely eliminated. They might have altered her course later
on, might have held her to the past, but Kenmore dealt briefly with
personalities and visualized whatever it could. The name Travers had
rarely, if ever, been spoken in Priscilla's presence. "The Hill Place
folks" was the title found sufficient for general use.

"And I was remembering," Jerry-Jo went on, "how once you said you wanted
to thank him for--for the books. We might take the canoe, come to-morrow,
and the day is fine, and pay a visit."

Still Priscilla did not notice the gleam in McAlpin's keen eyes.

"Oh! if I only dared, Jerry-Jo! What an adventure it would be, to be
sure. And how good of you to think of it."

"What hinders?"

"Father would never forgive me!"

"And are you always to be at the beck and whistle of your father even in
your pleasures?"

Priscilla was in just the attitude of mind to receive this suggestion
with appreciation.

"There's no reason why I shouldn't go if I want to," she said with an
uplift of her head.

"And--don't you want to?" Jerry-Jo's eyes were taking in the loveliness
of the raised face as the setting sun fell upon it.

"Yes, I do want to! I'll go, Jerry-Jo."

Then McAlpin came close to her and said in a low voice:

"Priscilla, give us a kiss for pay."

So taken out of herself was the girl, so overpowered by the excitement
of adventure, that before she realized her part in the small drama of
passionate youth, she gave a mocking laugh and twisted her lips saucily.

Jerry-Jo had her in his arms on the instant, and the hot kiss he pressed
on her mouth roused her to fury.

"If you ever touch me again," she whispered, struggling into freedom,
"I'll hate you to the last day of my life!"

So had she spoken to her father years ago; so would she always speak when
her reservations were threatened. "I declare I am afraid to go with you
to-morrow."

McAlpin fell back in shamed contrition.

"You need not be afraid," he muttered. "I reckon I was bidding
you--good-bye. Him and me is different. Once you see him and he sees you,
it's good-bye to Jerry-Jo McAlpin."

Something in the words and tone of humility brought Priscilla, with a
bound, back to a kindlier mood. After all, it was a tribute that McAlpin
was paying her. She must hold him in check, that was all.

They parted with no great change. There had been a flurry, but it had
served to clear the atmosphere--for her at least.

But Nathaniel, that evening in the kitchen, managed to arouse in the girl
the one state of mind needed to drive her on her course.

"What was the meaning of that scuffling by the bars a time back?" he
asked, eyeing Priscilla with the old look of suspicious antagonism. Every
nerve in the girl's body twitched with resentment and her spirit flared
forth. She shielded herself behind the one flimsy subterfuge that Glenn
could never understand or tolerate.

"A kiss you mean. What's a kiss? You call that a scuffle?"

Theodora, who was washing the tea dishes while Priscilla wiped them, took
her usual course and began to cry dispiritedly and forlornly.

"What's between you and--McAlpin?" Nathaniel asked, scowling darkly.

"Between us? What need for anything between us?"

Priscilla ceased smiling and looked defiant.

"Maybe you better marry that half-breed and have done with it."

"It's more like--would _he_ marry me?"

This was unfortunate.

"And why not?" Nathaniel shook the ashes from his pipe angrily. "A little
more such performance as I saw to-day and no decent man will marry you!
As for Jerry-Jo, he'll marry you if I say so! You foul my nest, miss, and
out you go!"

"Husband! husband!" And with this Theodora dropped a cup, one of Glenn's
mother's cups, and somehow this added fire to his fury.

"And when the time comes, wife, you make your choice: Go with her, who
you have trained into what she is, or stay with me who has been defied in
his own home, by them nearest and closest to him."

Priscilla breathed fast and hard. The tangible wall of misunderstanding
between her and her father stifled her to-night as it never had before.
Again she realized the finality of something--the breaking of the old
ties, the helpless sense of groping for what lay hidden, but none the
less real, just on before.




CHAPTER IX


The next day was gloriously clear and threateningly warm. Such days do
not come to Kenmore in September except to lure the unheeding to acts of
folly. And at two o'clock in the afternoon Priscilla, from the kitchen
door, saw Jerry-Jo paddling his canoe in still, Indian fashion around
Lone Tree Island. Theodora was off erranding, and Nathaniel, as far as
human knowledge went, was in some distant field; he had started off
directly after dinner. Priscilla was ready for her adventure. With the
natural desire of youth, she had decked herself out in her modest
finery--a stiffly starched white gown of a cheap but pretty design, a
fluff of soft lace at throat and wrist, and, over it, the old red cape
that years before had added to her appearance as she danced on the rocks.
Perhaps remembering that, she had utilized the garment and was thankful
that cloth lasted so long in Kenmore!

The coquetry of girlhood rose happily in Priscilla's heart. Jerry-Jo had
become again simply a link in her chain of events; he had lost the
importance the flash of the evening before had given him; he was not
forgiven, but for the time he was, as a human being, forgotten. He was
Jerry-Jo who was to paddle her to her Heart's Desire! That was it, and
the old words, set to music of her own, were the signals used to attract
McAlpin's attention. But the merry call brought Glenn from out the barn
just as the canoe touched the rocks lightly, and Priscilla prepared to
step in.

"Where you two going?" he shouted in the tone that always roused the
worst in Priscilla's nature. Jerry-Jo paused, paddle in air, but his
companion whispered:

"Go on!" To Nathaniel she flung back: "We're going to have a bit of fun,
and why not, father? I'm tired of staying at home."

This was unfortunate: on the home question Glenn was very clear and
decided.

"Come back!" he ordered, but the little canoe had shot out into the
Channel. "Hi, there McAlpin, do you hear?"

"Go on!" again whispered Priscilla, and Jerry-Jo heard only her soft
command, for his senses were filled with the loveliness of her charming,
defiant face set under the broad brim of a hat around which was twined
a wreath of natural flowers as blue as the girl's laughing eyes.

Nathaniel, defied and helpless, stood by the barn door and impotently
fumed as the canoe rounded Lone Tree Island and was lost to his
infuriated sight.

"You'll catch it," Jerry-Jo comforted when pursuit was impossible, and he
had the responsibility of the rebel on his hands. "I wouldn't be in your
place, and you need not drag me in, for I'd have turned back had you said
the word."

A fleeting contempt stirred the beauty of the girl's face for a moment,
and then she told him of that which was seething in her heart.

"What does it matter, Jerry-Jo? All my life, ever since I can remember,
I have been growing surely to what is now near at hand. I cannot abide my
father; nor can he find comfort in me. Why should I darken the lives of
my parents and have no life of my own? The lure of the States has always
been in my thought and now it calls near and loud."

McAlpin stared helplessly at her, and her beauty, enhanced by her unusual
garments, moved him unwholesomely.

"What you mean?" he muttered.

"Only this: It would be no strange thing did a boy start for the States.
A little money, a ticket on a steamer, and--pouf! Off the boys and men
go to make their lives. Well, then, some day you will--find me gone,
Jerry-Jo. Gone to make my life. Will you miss me?"

This question caused McAlpin to stop paddling.

"You won't be--let!" he murmured; "you--a girl!"

"I, a girl!" Priscilla laughed scornfully. "You will see. This day, after
I have thanked him up yonder, I am going to ask his mother to help me get
away. Surely a lady such as she could help me. I will not ask much of
her, only the guiding hand to a safe place where I can--live! Oh! can you
understand how all my life I have been smothered and stifled? I often
wonder what sort I will be--out there! I'm willing to suffer while I
learn, but Jerry-Jo"--and here the excited voice paused--"I have a
strange feeling of--myself! I sometimes feel as if there were two of me,
the one holding, demanding, and protecting the other. I will not have men
always making my life and shielding me; the woman of me will have its
way. Men and boys never know this feeling."

And Jerry-Jo could, of course, understand nothing of this, but the thing
he had set out to do, more in rude, brutish fun than anything else,
assumed graver purpose. A new and ugly look grew in his bold eyes, a
sinister smile on his red mouth, which showed the points of his white,
fang-like teeth. But Priscilla, too absorbed with her own thoughts, did
not notice.

It was four o'clock when the canoe touched the landing spot of Far Hill
Place, and Priscilla sprang out.

"I'll bide here; don't be long," said McAlpin.

But Priscilla paused and glanced up at the sky.

"It's darkening," she faltered, a shyness overcoming her. "I
smell--thunder. Don't you think you better come up with me Jerry-Jo?
Suppose they are not at home?"

"They'll be back soon in that case, and as for a shower, that would
hasten them and you would be under shelter. I can turn the canoe over me
and be dry as a mouse in a hayrick. I'll not go with you, not I. Do your
own part, with them looking on as will enjoy it."

"I believe you are--jealous, Jerry-Jo." This was said idly and more to
fill in an awkward pause than for anything else.

"And much good that would do me, after what you've just said. If you're
bound for the devil, Priscilla, 'tis little power I have to stay you."

"I'm not--for the devil!" Priscilla flung back, and started sturdily up
the hill path toward the house hidden among the trees.

Out of McAlpin's sight, the girl went more slowly, while she sought to
arrange her mode of attack. If her host were what he once was, he would
make everything easy after she recalled herself to him. As for the
mother, Priscilla had only a dim memory of her, but something told her
that the call would be a happy and memorable one after the first moment.

A bit of tune cheered the girl; a repeating of the Road Song helped even
more, for it resurrected most vividly the young fellow who had introduced
music and happiness into her life.

"I'll be doshed!" she cried. The word had not passed her lips for years;
it brought a laugh and a complete restoration of poise. So she reached
the house. Smoke was issuing from the chimney. A fire had been made even
on this hot day, but like enough it was to dry the place after the years
of closed doors and windows. Evidently it was a many-houred fire, for the
plume of smoke was faint and steady. The broad door was set wide but the
windows were still boarded up at the front of the house, though the side
ones had escaped that protection.

Priscilla knocked and waited. No reply or sound came in response, and
presently a low muttering of distant thunder broke.

"That will bring them in short order," she said, "and surely they will
not object if I make myself comfortable until they come."

She went inside. The room had the appearance of one from which the owner
had long been absent, that unaccountable, vacant look, although a
work-bag hung on the back of a chair by the roaring fire, and a blot of
oil lay on the table near the lamp which had evidently been recently
filled. Back of these tokens lay a wide sense of desolation.

For a moment Priscilla hesitated before sitting down; her courage failed,
but a second thought reconciled conditions with a brief stay after long
absence, and she decided to wait.

And while she waited, suddenly and alarmingly, the storm burst! The
darkness of the room and the wooded space outside had deceived her: there
was no escape now!

She was concerned for the people she had come to see. Jerry-Jo, she knew,
would crawl under his boat and be as dry as a tortoise in its shell. But
those others!

With this thought she set about, mechanically, making the room
comfortable. She piled on fresh wood and noticed that it was so wet that
it sputtered dangerously. Presently the wind changed sharply, and a blast
of almost icy coldness carried the driving rain halfway across the floor.

It was something of a struggle to close the heavy door, for it opened
outward, and Priscilla was drenched by the time it was made secure.
Breathing hard, she made her way to the fire and knelt before it. The
glow drew her attention from the darkness of the space back and around
her.

It was unfortunate and depressing, and she had no choice but to make
herself as comfortable as she might, though a sense of painful uneasiness
grew momentarily. At first she imagined it was fear of what she must
encounter upon her return home; then she felt sure it was her dread of
meeting the people for whom she had risked so much. Finally Jerry-Jo
loomed in the foreground of her thought and an entirely new terror was
born in her soul.

"Jerry-Jo!" she laughed aloud as his name passed her lips. "Jerry-Jo, to
be sure. My! how thankful I'd be to see him this instant!"

And with the assertion she turned shudderingly toward the door. The gloom
behind her only emphasized her nervousness.

"I'll--I'll have to go!" she whispered suddenly, while the wind and the
slashing of sleety rain defied her. "It will be better out of doors, bad
as it is!"

The grim loneliness of four walls, compared with the dangers of the open,
was worse. But when Priscilla, trembling and panting, reached the door
and pushed, she found that the storm was pitting its strength against
hers and she could not budge it.

"Oh, well," she half sobbed; "if I must, I must." And she stealthily
tiptoed back to the warmth and light as if fearing to arouse something,
she knew not what, in the dim place.

There was no way of estimating time. The minutes were like hours and the
hours were like minutes while Priscilla sat alone. As a matter of fact,
it was after seven when steps, unmistakable steps, sounded on the porch
and carried both apprehension and relief to the storm-bound prisoner
inside.

"Thank heaven!" breathed she, and sprang to her feet. She was midway in
the room when the door opened, and, as if flayed forward by the lashing
storm, Jerry-Jo broke into the shadow and drew the heavy oak door after
him. In a black panic of fear Priscilla saw him turn the key in the lock
before he spoke a word to her; then he came forward, flung his wet cap
toward the hearth, and laughed.

"What's the matter?" he asked quickly as Priscilla's white face
confronted him. "Disappointed, I suppose. Do you begrudge me a bit of
warmth and shelter? God knows I'm drenched to the bone. The rain came up
from the earth as well as down from the clouds. It's a devil's storm and
no mistake. What you staring at, Priscilla? Had you forgotten me? Thought
me dead, and now you're looking at my ghost? Didn't I wait long enough
for you? Where are the--others?"

This seemed to clarify and steady the situation and Priscilla gave a
slight laugh:

"To be sure. You did not know. They--they were away. The storm came up
suddenly. I had to wait. You are wet through and through, Jerry-Jo. It's
good we have such a fire. You'll be comfortable in a moment. I'm glad you
came; I was getting--afraid."

"Let's see if there is any oil in the lamp!" Jerry-Jo exclaimed. He was
in no mood for darkness himself.

"They must have filled it before they went," Priscilla answered. "See,
there is some oil on the table."

McAlpin struck a match and soon the room was flooded with a new
brightness that reached even to the far corners and seemed to set free
the real loneliness that held these two together.

"I--I managed to keep this dry," McAlpin spoke huskily. "I always have
a bite with me when I take to the woods. Who can ever tell what may
happen!"

He pushed a coarse sandwich toward Priscilla and began eating one
himself.

"Go on!" he said.

"I'm not hungry, Jerry-Jo, and I want to start back home at once."

Jerry-Jo leered at her over his bread and meat.

"What's your hurry? I want to get warm and dry before I set out again.
This is an all-nighter of a storm, if I know anything about it."

"Get dry, of course, Jerry-Jo. It won't take long with this heat; then we
must start, storm or no storm."

The old discomfort and unrest returned, and she fixed her eyes on
Jerry-Jo.

"There's no great hurry," said he, munching away. "It's warm here and
cozy. What's got you, Priscilla? You was mighty keen to come, and you
ain't finished your errand yet. What's ailing you? No one could help the
storm, and we'd be swamped in the bay if we was there now."

Priscilla got up and walked slowly toward the door, but without any
apparent reason Jerry-Jo arose also, and, still chewing his bread and
meat, backed away from the table, keeping himself between the girl and
whatever her object was. Noticing this, a real terror seized upon
Priscilla and she darted in the opposite direction, reached the hearth,
and was bending toward a heavy poker which lay there, before she herself
could have explained her motive. Jerry-Jo was alert. Tossing his food
upon the table as he strode forward, he gripped her wrist.

"None of that!" he muttered. "What ails you, Priscilla?" They faced each
other at close range.

"I--I am afraid of you!"

At this McAlpin threw back his head and roared with laughter, releasing
her at the same time. With freedom Priscilla gained a bit of courage and
a keen sense of the necessity of calmness. She did not move away from
Jerry-Jo, but fixing him with her wide eyes she asked:

"Are--are the--family here--here in Kenmore?" Suspicion and anger shook
the voice. The slow, tense words brought things down to fact.

"No! God knows where they are! I don't know or care."

Brought face to face with great danger, mental or physical, the majority
of people rise to the call. Priscilla knew now that she was in grave
peril--peril of a deeper kind than even her tormentor could realize.
Every nerve and emotion came to her defence. She would hold this creature
at bay as hunters hold the wild things of the woods when gun or club
fail. Then, after that, she would have to deal with what must inevitably
confront her at home. She seemed to be standing alone amid cruel and
unfamiliar foes, but she was calm!

"You lied, then? What for?"

"What do you think?"

"You believe, by shutting me away from everything, every one, you can win
what otherwise you could not get?" It all seemed cruelly plain, now. She
felt she had always known it.

"Something like that, yes. You'll come to me fast enough, after to-night.
Once you come I'll--I'll do the fair and square thing by you, Priscilla."

The half-pleading caught the girl's thought.

"You mean, by this device you will make me marry you? You'll blacken
my name, bar my father's house to me, and then you will be generous
and--marry me?"

[Illustration: "'You mean, by this device you will make me marry you?
You'll blacken my name, bar my father's house to me, and then you will be
generous and--marry me?'"]

Jerry-Jo dropped his bold, dark eyes.

"I never cared for you, Jerry-Jo. I hate you, now!"

At this McAlpin raised his head and a fierce red coloured his face.

"You'll get over that!" he muttered. "Any port in a storm, you know.
You better not drive me now! I ain't--safe, and I've got you tight
for--to-night!"

Suddenly the pure flame of spirituality flashed into the soul of
Priscilla Glenn. Alone, undefended, facing a hideous possibility, beyond
which lay a black certainty of desolation, she rose supreme to protect
something that her rudely aroused womanhood must defend, even by death!

"You--beast!" she cried, and all her shrinking fear fell from her. "Go
back! Sit down! I have something to say to you--before----" She did not
finish, but the pause made Jerry-Jo understand that she recognized her
position.

"I'll stand here, by God!" he almost shouted, and came close.

The proximity of the rough, coarse body was the one thing the girl felt
she could not bear. She smelled the odour of his wet clothing, felt his
breath, and she shrank back a step.

"This--this body, Jerry-Jo McAlpin," she whispered, "is all you can
touch. That, I will kill to-morrow--the next day--it does not matter. But
the soul of me shall haunt you while you live. Night and day it shall
torment and clutch you until it brings your sinful spirit to--to God!"

"You--you devil!" cried McAlpin, all the superstitious fear of his mixed
blood chilling him. "You----" And then as if daring the fate she had it
in her power to evoke, he rushed toward her and clasped her close in his
strong arms. His face was bent over hers, his lips parted from his cruel
teeth, but he did not force them upon her.

So here she was--she, Priscilla Glenn, in the jaws of death, she who
would have laughed, danced, and sang her way straight into happiness!
Here she was, with what on ahead--if she lived?

She waited, she struggled, then she relaxed in the iron hold, and for a
moment, only a moment, lost the sense of reality. Presently words that
McAlpin was saying came to her in the black stillness of her
consciousness.

"I had--to have you! Now that I've shown you my power, I can wait until
you come whining to me. I ain't going to hurt you! I want you as you are
when you come a-begging of me. I only wanted to prove to you that--I've
got you!"

Again Priscilla was aware of the red warmth of the fire, the sickening
smell of drying wool, the loosening of the bands of McAlpin's arms.

"You--you who boast that when you hunt, out of season, you shoot
one shot in the air in order to give a poor wild thing a chance of
escape--you bring me here with a lie; close every hope to me,
and--call that--victory! You--you--fiend! What do you mean?"

She was standing free at last! She was so weak that she staggered to a
chair, fearing that McAlpin, seeing her need, might again lay hands upon
her.

"I mean--that I've fired my shot!" Her words had caught his fancy. "You
have your chance to--to get away! But where? Where?"

The dark face leered.

"See! I'm going to leave you. Go out into the night. You can try for
your--your life, but in the end you'll come to me. I don't care what they
of Kenmore will say, I'll know you are--what you are, and sympathy will
be with me, gal, when I take you. And you'll know, once you come to me,
proper and asking, I'll do--I'll do the best any man could do--for--I
love you!"

This was flung out desperately, defiantly.

"Yes, I love you as--Jerry-Jo McAlpin knows how to love. It's his way.
Remember that!"

Not a word rose to Priscilla's lips. She saw McAlpin turn and stride to
the door; she heard him turn the key and--she was alone! But a strange
thing happened just at that moment, a thing that did more to unnerve the
girl than anything that had gone before. As the heavy oak door slammed
after the retreating figure, the jar caused the tall clock, back among
the shadows of the far side of the room, to strike! One, two, three!
Then followed a whirring that faded into deathly silence. It was like the
voice of one, believed to be dead, speaking!

Frightened, but thoroughly roused to her only hope, Priscilla staggered
to the door, clutched the key in cold, trembling fingers, and turned it
in the lock. Then, sinking upon her knees, she crept back to the fire,
keeping close to the wall. If an eye were pressed to a knothole in the
shutter it could not follow her.




CHAPTER X


Priscilla kept the fire alive. She laid the sticks and logs on
cautiously; she turned wide eyes now and again on the tall clock whose
white face gleamed pallidly among the shadows like a dead thing that had
used its last breath to speak a message. If the clock struck again
Priscilla felt that she might go mad.

It was after midnight when Nature laid a commanding and relentless touch
upon the girl, and, crouching by the hearth, her head in her arms folded
upon a chair, she slept.

Outside the storm sobbed itself into silence; the rain dripped
complainingly from the roof of the porch and then ceased. At five o'clock
the new day, rosy and full of cheer, made itself felt in the dim room
where Priscilla, breathing evenly and softly, still slept. No gleam of
brightness made its way through the heavy shutters or curtains, but a
consciousness of day at last roused the sleeper. At first the experience
through which she had passed made no demand upon her. She got painfully
upon her feet and looked about. The fire was but embers, the air was hot
and stifling, and then, with the thought of opening a door or window, the
grim spectre of the black hours lay warning touch upon her. She shrank
back and began again to--wait! Of course McAlpin would return--and what
lay before her when he did? Her strength was spent, lack of food----And
here her eyes fell on the broken fragments of stale bread and meat that
Jerry-Jo had tossed aside.

She took the morsels and devoured them eagerly; the nerves of the stomach
were calling for nutrition, and even the coarse crumbs gave relief.

The moments passed slowly, but presently, with the knowledge that day lay
beyond her prison, she gained a new, a more desperate courage. If she
must die, she would die in the open, where she at least might test her
pitiful strength against Jerry-Jo's did he pursue her. The determination
to act gave relief. The dark, damp room she could no longer bear; the
lamp had hours before ceased to burn; the smell of stale oil smoke was
sickening. No matter what happened she felt she must make a break for
freedom. She knew full well that should Jerry-Jo enter now she could not
combat him.

Then, for the first time, she wondered why no one had come to seek her
through the long, black hours of the night. The men of Kenmore never
permitted a wanderer to remain unsought; there was danger. Why, even her
father could not be so--so hard as to sleep undisturbed while she was
unhoused! And her mother? Oh! surely her mother would have roused the
people! And Anton Farwell? Why, he would have started at once, as he
had for the McAdam boys. And with that conclusion came a new hope:

"If they are searching it will be on the water!"

Of course. Cheered by this thought, Priscilla made her way silently
toward the door. With trembling fingers she turned the key and pushed
gently outward. Through the crack the sun poured, and oh, the fresh
sweetness of the morning air! Again she pushed, once again, and then with
a rush she dashed through and was a hundred feet down the path when a
loud laugh stayed her like a shot from a gun.

She turned and braced herself against a tree for support. Jerry-Jo,
pressed close to the house and not a foot from the door through which she
had come, again shrieked with laughter. Presently he conquered himself,
and, without moving, said:

"You're free! The canoe's ready for you, too. Go home--if you want--go
home and get what's coming to you! I've been busy. There's a boat
stopping at the wharf to-night. I'm leaving for the States. I've told
them, as will pass it on, that you and me are going together. I'll stand
by it, too, God hears me!"

"My--my father will kill you when he knows of this night!"

Priscilla flung the words back savagely. She knew now that she was
free--free for what? Again Jerry-Jo's laugh taunted her, and as she
turned to the path her father faded from her hope. Only Anton Farwell
seemed to loom high. Just and resourceful, he would help her!

The soggy, mossy path made heavy travelling for weary, nervous feet, but
at the foot of the hill Priscilla saw the little canoe bobbing at the
side of the dock. Once out upon the sunlit water the soul-horror
disappeared and the task before her appeared easy. Now that the real
danger was past, her physical demands seemed simple and well within her
control. If her father turned her away--and as she drew near to Lonely
Farm she felt that he probably would--she would go to Farwell, and from
him, with his assistance, go to the States. The time had come--that was
all--the time had come! She was as ready as she ever would be. She had
herself well in hand before she stepped from the canoe at the foot of her
father's garden.

The only signs of anxiety in evidence about the house were Nathaniel's
presence in the kitchen at eleven in the morning, and Theodora's red and
swollen eyes as she bent over the dishwashing of a belated breakfast.

"Mother! Father!"

They turned and gazed at the pale, dishevelled girl in the doorway.
Neither spoke and Priscilla asked:

"May I come in?"

Had she wept, or flung herself upon their mercy, Nathaniel could have
understood, but her very calmness and indifference angered him, coming as
it did upon his real anxiety. He had not heard the village gossip that
Long Jean had already started. He had been out alone most of the night on
the water, and the relief of seeing his girl alive and unharmed turned
his earlier emotions to bitterness.

"Yes, come in," he said sternly. "Where have you been?"

Had Priscilla been given more time, had she been less physically spent,
she would have protected herself from her father's thought; as it was she
could only summon enough strength to parry his questions with truthful
answers, and until it was too late she did not realize how they damned
her.

"Up at--at--Far Hill Place."

"All night?"

"Yes."

"With----"

"With--with Jerry-Jo McAlpin."

"Oh!" This came like a snake's warning.

"The--the storm was--oh! Father----"

"The storm!" roared Nathaniel; "the storm! Are you sugar or salt? Have
you so little morality that you choose to stay overnight with a man in a
lonely house instead of coming wet but clean-charactered to your safe
home?"

And then Priscilla understood! She had come into the room and was sitting
near the door she had closed behind her. She, on the sudden, seemed to
grow old and strong; the ancient distrust and dislike of her father
overcame her; she looked at her mother, bent and sobbing over the sink,
and only for _her_ sake did she continue the useless conversation.

"You--you judge me unheard!" she went on, addressing Nathaniel with an
anger, glowing in her eyes, that equalled his own.

"Have you not just incriminated yourself--you!"

"Stop! Do you think that is all? Do you think I would have stayed
there--if--if----" Here the memory of what she had endured choked her.

"A woman who puts herself in a man's power as you have can expect no
mercy." Nathaniel stormed.

"Why?"

"Because it is God's law. All decent women know it. That is what I've
feared for you always, but I'll still stand by you if you show reason.
I'll do it for your mother's sake and my good name. He shall marry you,
by God! Say the word and I'll bring him here."

Priscilla's upper lip twitched. This was a trick her nerves had of
warning her, but she heeded not.

"You--you would _force_ me to marry Jerry-Jo even against his will?
You would make that little hell for me without even knowing what has
happened? You'd fling me in it to--to save your name?"

"You've made your own hell! No matter what has happened, there is only
one way out for you. If you refuse that----" And here Nathaniel flung his
big arms wide, as if pushing his child out--out!

With white face but blazing eyes Priscilla got up and went over to her
mother. She drew the bowed and quivering form toward her and looked
straight into the tear-flooded eyes.

"Mother, tell me, do you believe me--dishonoured?"

The contact of the dear, strong young body gave Theodora power to say:

"Oh! my dear, my dear, I cannot, I will not believe evil of you. But you
must do what your father thinks best; it is the only way. You have been
so heedless, my child, my poor child."

"You--side with her?" thundered Nathaniel, feeling himself defied. "Then
heed me! If she refuses, out you go with her! No longer will I live with
my family divided against me. The world with her, or the home with me!"

Then suddenly and quite clearly Priscilla saw the only way open to her,
the only way that led to even the poor peace she yearned to leave to the
sad, little, clinging, broken creature looking piteously up at her.

"My child, my child, your father knows best."

"There! there mother. Now listen!"

Still holding Theodora, she looked over the gray head at her father's
cruel face.

"I have only to tell you," she said slowly and with deadly hardness, "you
will not have to force Jerry-Jo McAlpin to marry me; he's eager enough to
do it. He leaves to-night for the States; he has arranged for me to go
with him." She paused, then went on, speaking now to her mother:

"As God hears me, I am not dishonoured, little mother. I will never bring
dishonour upon you. I could have explained to you--you would have
understood, but father--never! I am going to the States. Good-bye."

"My child! oh! my girl!"

"Good-bye, dear mother."

"Oh, Priscilla! Do not leave us so!"

"This is the only way."

"But, you--you are not yet wedded."

Priscilla smiled.

"You must leave that to Jerry-Jo and me. And now a kiss--and the dear
cheek against mine. So!"

"But you will come back----" Theodora sank gently to the floor. She had
fainted quite away!

Priscilla bent with her, she lifted the white head to her knee, and again
addressed her father.

"You are satisfied?" she asked. The shield was down between them. Man and
woman, they stared, understandingly, in each other's eyes.

"Leave her to me!" commanded Nathaniel, and strode toward the prostrate
form.

"You've lied first and last. Neither McAlpin nor any other honest man
will have you! Go!"

"I will go and--my hate I leave with you!"

And when Theodora opened her eyes she was lying on the rough couch in the
sunny kitchen, and Nathaniel was bathing her face with cool water.

"The child?" faltered the mother, looking pleadingly around. And then
Nathaniel showed mercy, the only mercy in his power.

"She's gone to McAlpin. They leave for the States to-night. It's you and
I alone now to the end of the way."

"Husband, husband! We've been hard on her; we've driven her to----"

"Hush, you! foolish one. Would you defy God? Each one of us walks the
path our feet are set upon. 'Twas fore-ordained and her being ours makes
no difference. Every light woman was--some one's, God knows--and with Him
there be no respecter of persons."

"Oh! but if you had only been kinder. It seems as if we haven't gone
beside her on her path. Couldn't we have drawn her from it--if we had
expected different of her? Oh! I shall miss her sore. The loneliness, the
loneliness with her out of the days and the long nights."

Theodora was weeping again desolately.

"Be grateful, woman, that worse has not come to us."

Now that the deathlike faint was over, Nathaniel's softening was passing.

"And she went from our door hungry, the poor dear! We wouldn't have
treated a beggar so."

"Had she come as a suppliant, all would have been different."

Then Theodora sat up, and a kind of frenzy drove her to speak.

"She had something to tell! You did not let her say her say. _What_ kept
her away all night? Jerry-Jo McAlpin has the devil blood in him when he's
up to--to pranks. Suppose----" A sort of horror shook the thin, livid
face. Nathaniel, in spite of himself, had a bad moment; then his hard
common sense steadied him.

"Would she go to him, if what you fear was true?"

"Has she gone to him?"

"Where else then--and all Kenmore not know? Wait till to-morrow before
you leap to the doing of that which you may regret. Calm yourself and
wait until to-morrow."

And Theodora waited--many, many morrows.




CHAPTER XI


"And you see, Master Farwell, I cannot go back to my father's house."

It was after nine of the evening of the day Priscilla Glenn had left
home. She had reached Farwell's shack without being seen. By keeping to
the woods and watching her opportunity, she had gained the rear of the
schoolhouse, entered while Farwell was absent, and breathed freely only
after securing the door.

The master had returned an hour later and, the gossip of the Green
ringing in his ears, confronted the white, silent girl with no questions,
but merely a glad smile of relief. He had insisted upon her taking food,
drink, and rest before explaining anything, and Priscilla had gratefully
obeyed.

"I'll gather all the news that is floating about," Farwell had comforted
her. "Sleep, Priscilla. You are quite safe." Then he went out again.

So she had eaten ravenously and slept far into the early evening while
Anton Farwell went about listening to all who talked. It was a great day
for Kenmore!

"She and him were together all the night," panted Long Jean, about noon,
in the kitchen of the White Fish.

"What's that?" called Mary McAdam from the closet. Jean repeated her
choice morsel, and Mary Terhune, preparing the midday meal, thrilled.

"I was at her borning," Jean remarked, "and I minded then and spoke it
open, that she was made of the odds and ends of them who went before her.
I've a notion that the good and evil that might have thinned out over all
the Glenn girls must work out thick in Priscilla."

"I'm thinking," Mary Terhune broke in, "that the mingling with such as
visits at the Lodge has upset the young miss. Her airs and graces! Lord
of heaven! how she has flouted the rest of the young uns! Aye, but they
are mouthing about her this day! 'Me and her,' said Jerry-Jo to me this
early morning, 'me and her got caught up in the woods, and, understanding
one another, we chose the dry to the wet, and brought things to a point.
Her and me will make tracks for the States. It's all evened up.' And I do
say," Mary went on, "that all considering, Jerry-Jo is doing the handsome
thing. I ain't picking flaws in her--maybe she's as clean as the
cleanest, but there's them who wouldn't believe it, as you both very well
know."

This last was to include Mrs. McAdam, who had issued from the closet with
an ugly look on her thin, dark face.

"You old harpies!" she cried, striding to the middle of the big room and
getting into position for an oratorical outburst. "You two blighted old
midwives as ought, heaven knows, to have mercy on women; you who see the
tortures of women! You would take a girl's name from her on the word of
that half-breed, who would sooner lie than steal--and both are easy to
the whelp. That girl is the straightest girl that ever walked, and no
evil has come to her from my house. A word more like that, Mary Terhune,
and you'll never share my home again, and as for you, Jean, you who
helped the lass into life, what kind of a snake-heart have you?"

Mary McAdam had both women trembling before her.

"I'll go up to Lonely Farm myself," screamed she, "and if Glenn and his
poor little slave-wife are doing the low trick by their girl, as God
hears me, I'll take her for my own, and turn you both back to the trade
you dishonour!"

Anton Farwell, passing near the window, heard this and went his way.

Later old Jerry McAlpin came to him on the wharf where the men were
gathered to meet the incoming steamer.

"Lordy! Master Farwell," quavered Jerry; "while I was out on the bay this
early morning, my lad, what all the town is humming about, goes to my
home and takes everything--everything of any vally and leaves this----"

McAlpin passed a dirty piece of paper to Farwell.

  "I'm going to get out on the steamer. Going to the States, and had to
  have the stuff to get away with. _I--ain't--alone!_ I'm going down the
  Channel to board the steamer where it stops for gasoline. _Don't_
  follow me for God's sake. I'll pay you back and more."

Farwell read the words twice, then said:

"Well?"

"Shall I--stop him, Master Farwell?"

"Can you spare what he has taken?"

"'Tain't that, sir."

"Then let him go! Let him have his fling."

"They do say--Long Jean, she do say--it's Glenn's girl. My lad's been
crazy for her. I'm afraid of Glenn."

"Let things alone, McAlpin. This is your time to lie low and hold your
tongue."

Farwell tore the paper in shreds and cast them to the wind.

The steamer came in at eight. At nine-thirty it left the wharf, and, a
mile down the Channel, stopped at the little safety station to take on
oil and gasoline. Tom Bluff, a half-breed, had the place in charge, and
later that evening he put the finishing touch to the day's gossip.

"'Twas Jerry-Jo, as you live, who jumped aboard, taking the last can I
was hauling up with him. So in a hurry was he that he nigh pushed some
one down who was in front of him.

"'Where going?' calls I. 'To the States,' he says back, and picks up the
young person he nigh knocked down."

Long Jean, to whom Tom was confiding this, drew near.

"Who was the young person?" whispered she, with the fear of Mary McAdam
still upon her.

"Her face? I did not see her face."

"'Twas Glenn's girl," panted Long Jean; "Priscilla!"

"Ugh!" grunted Tom as his ancestors had often grunted in the past. "Ugh!"

That was all for the day, and behind closed doors and windows Kenmore
slept. The storm of the previous night had been followed by a cold wave,
and upon Farwell's hearth a fire crackled cheerily.

       *       *       *       *       *

"And so, you see, I cannot go back to my father's house."

Farwell bent his head over his folded arms.

"But Mrs. McAdam will take you in, Priscilla. After things calm down and
the truth is accepted, your people will forgive and forget. You poor
child!"

Priscilla closed her lips sharply. Her eyes were very luminous, very
tender, as they rested upon Farwell, but her heart knew no pity for her
father.

"How old one grows, Master Farwell, in--a night," she said with a quiver
in her voice. "I went happily away with Jerry-Jo, quite, quite a girl,
only yesterday. I had the feeling of a child trying to make believe I was
a woman. I wanted to show my father he could no longer control me as he
always had before. I--I wanted to have my way, and then my way brought me
to--those black hours of horror when something in me died forever and
something new was born. And how strange, Master Farwell, that when I
could think at all clear--you stood out as my only friend. I seemed to
know how it would be with my father and my poor mother. My father has
always expected evil of me, and something in me seemed ever to work
against the good of me, to give him cause for believing me wrong. But
you saw the good, my friend, and to you I come--a woman, now. I do not
know the language of what I feel here"--she pressed her hands to her
heart--"but I feel sure you will understand. I cannot stay in Kenmore!
I do not want to. Always I have wanted to have a bigger place, a larger
opportunity, and even if Kenmore would take me, I will not have Kenmore!
Somehow I feel as if I had never belonged here, really. You do not belong
here. Oh, Master Farwell, can you not come, too?"

As she spoke, the old, weary look passed for an instant from her eyes;
she was a child, daring, yet fearful! Ready to go forward into the dark,
but pleading for a trusted hand to hold. And Farwell, who, could she have
known, was clinging more to her than she to him, almost groaned the one
word:

"No!"

"Why, oh, why, Mr. Farwell? Like father and daughter we could make our
way. I think I have never known what a father might be, but you would
show me now in my great need."

"Hush!" Farwell's eyes held hers commandingly, entreatingly. "You must
hear what I have to say. Why do you think I have stayed in Kenmore? Why
I _must_ stay? Have you thought?"

"No." And for the first time in her life Priscilla wondered. Before, the
man had been but part of her life; now she wondered about him, with the
woman-mind that had come so suddenly and tragically to her.

"No, Master Farwell, why?"

"Because--well, because Kenmore is my grave--must always be my grave. I'm
dead. Good people, just people said I was dead. I am dead. Alive, I would
be a menace, a curse. Dead, I am safe. I've paid my debt, and you, you,
the people of my grave, since you do not know, have given me a chance,
and I've been a friend among friends! Why, I've even come to a
consciousness that--perhaps it is best for me to be dead, for back there,
back among the living, the thing I once was might assert itself again."

The bitterness, the pitiful truthfulness, of Farwell's voice and words
sank deep into Priscilla's heart. Out of them she instantly accepted one
great, vital fact: he was in Kenmore as a refugee; he had been--had
done--wrong! With the acceptance of this, a strange thing happened.
Curiosity, even interest, departed. For no reason that she could have
classified, Priscilla Glenn fiercely desired to--keep Farwell! If she
knew what he seemed bent upon telling, he might take away her faith--her
only support. She would keep and hold to what she believed him, what he
had been since he came to the In-Place. It was childish, blind perhaps,
but her words were those of a determined woman.

"Master Farwell, I will not listen to you. If you are dead, and are
safe, dead, I will not look into the grave. All my life you have been
good to me, been my only friend; you shall not take yourself from me! And
I--please let me do this one little thing for you--let me prove that I
can love and honour you without--explanation!"

Farwell's face twitched. He struggled to speak, and finally said
unsteadily:

"I have been--good, as you say, because I had to be. At any moment
I might have been what I once was. Why, girl, without knowing it,
Kenmore--all of you--had it in your power to fling me to the dogs had
you known, so you see----"

But Priscilla shook her head.

"You did not have to risk your life as you did for the McAdam boys.
Perhaps you do not know how you have--grown in your grave, Master
Farwell. Trust and liking come hard to us in Kenmore, yet not one of us
doubts you. No, no, lie quiet. I do not want to see you as you remember
yourself; you are better as you are. I will not hear; I will not have it
in my thought when I am far away."

The hardness passed from Farwell's face. Something like relief replaced
it, and he said slowly:

"My God! what a woman you will make if they do not harry you to death."

"They will not!" The white, tired face seemed illumined from within.
"Last night made me so sure--of myself. It showed me how weak I was,
and how strong. Do you know"--and here a flush, not of ignorance,
but of strange understanding, struck across Priscilla's face like a
flame--"women like my mother, all the women here in Kenmore, do not
understand? They just let people take from them what no one has a right
to take, what only they should give! It's when this something is taken
that they become like my poor mother--afraid and crushed. If I live and
die alone and lonely, I shall keep what is my own until I--I give it
gladly and because I trust. I am not afraid! But if I had married
Jerry-Jo because of--of--what he and my father thought, then I would have
been lost, like my mother, don't you see? I--I can--live alone, but I
will not be lost."

"But, great heavens! you are a woman!"

"Is it so sad a thing to be a--woman? Why?"

To this Farwell made no reply. Shading his gloomy eyes with his thin
hand, he turned from the courageous, uplifted face and sighed. Finally he
spoke as if the fight had all gone from him.

"Stay here. The thing you want isn't worth the struggle. There is no use
arguing, but I urge you to stay. The In-Place is safer for you. What is
it that you must have?"

Priscilla laughed--a wild, dreary little sound it was, but it dashed hope
from Farwell's mind.

"I want my chance, a woman's chance, and I cannot have it here. I'm not
going to hide under Mrs. McAdam's wing, or even yours, Master Farwell.
I've left all the comfort with my poor mother that I can. Never let her
know the truth, now I am going--going to start on My Road! I do not care
where it leads, it is mine, and I am not afraid."

In her ignorance and defiance she was splendid and stirred the dead
embers of Farwell's imagination to something like life. If she were
bent upon her course, if his hand could not rest upon the tiller of her
untested craft when she put out to sea, what could he do for her? To whom
turn?

"Is there not one, Master Farwell, just one, out beyond the In-Place,
who, for your sake, would help me at first until I learned the way?"

The question chimed in with Farwell's thought.

He leaned across the table separating him from Priscilla Glenn and asked
suddenly:

"Can you keep a secret?"

Promptly, emphatically, the answer came. "Yes, I can."

"Then listen! You must stay here, hide yourself, keep yourself as best
you may, while I go to--make arrangements. I will be no longer than I can
help, but it will take time. The house is well stocked; make yourself
comfortable. There are days when no one knows whether I am here or
elsewhere. Protect yourself until I return. And when"--Farwell paused and
moistened his lips--"when you are over the border, in the whirlpool, the
past, this life, must be forgotten. Raise up a high wall, Priscilla, that
no one can scale. Begin your new life from the hour you reach the States.
The one who will befriend you need know no more than I tell him; others
must take you on faith. At any moment your father, or some one like
Jerry-Jo, might hound you unless you live behind a shield. You
understand?"

He did not plead for his own safety, and he was, at that moment, humanly
thinking of hers alone.

"If you get the worst of it, come back; but leave the gate open only
for--yourself."

"Yes, yes." And now Priscilla's eyes were shining like stars. "I will do
all that you say; I feel so brave and strong and sure. I want the test,
and I will leave the door to Kenmore ajar until the day when I can push
it wide and enter as I will, taking or bringing my dear friends with me.
I see"--she paused and her eyes grew misty--"I see My Road, stretching on
and on, and it ends--oh, Master Farwell, it ends in my Heart's Desire!"
She was childishly elated and excited.

Farwell was fascinated.

"Your Heart's Desire?" he muttered; "and what is that?"

"Who knows until--she sees it? Hurry! hurry! Master Farwell, I long to
set forth."

Forgotten was her recent experience of horror; fading already was Kenmore
from her sight. Danger by the way did not daunt her; the man bowed before
her was but a blurred speck upon her vanishing horizon; then suddenly a
sound caught her ear.

"You--you--are"--she arose and stood beside Farwell, her hand upon his
bent shoulder--"you are crying; and for why?"

"Loneliness, remorse, and fear for _you_, poor child."

And then Priscilla came back to the grim room and the cowering form.

"I will bring happiness to you," she whispered; "this I swear. In some
way you shall be happy."

But Farwell shook his head.

"To bed," he said suddenly; "to bed, girl, and to sleep. I'll take a nap
out here on the couch. Before you awake I'll be on my way. Keep the
shades drawn; it's my way of saying I do not wish to be disturbed. Good
night, and God bless you, Priscilla."




CHAPTER XII


About two in the morning Farwell set out upon his business for Priscilla.
He left a safe and roaring fire upon the hearth; the window shades he did
not raise, and well he knew that with that signal of desire for privacy
his house would be passed by without apparent notice. The smoke might
curl from the chimney, the dogs might, or might not, materialize, but
with those close-drawn shades the simple courtesy of Kenmore would
protect the master.

Priscilla was sleeping when Farwell silently closed the door after him,
and, followed by his dogs, provided with food and blankets, he
noiselessly took to the shadowy woods. It was a starry, still hour,
lying between night and morning, and it partook of both. Dark it was, but
with that silvery luminosity which a couple of hours later would be
changed to pink glow. The stars shone, and the one great, pulsing planet
that hung over the sleeping village seemed more gloriously near than
Farwell had ever before noticed it. All nature was waiting for the magic
touch of day; soon action and colour and sound would stir; just then the
hush and breathlessness were a strange setting for the lonely man moving
forward into the deeper shadows followed close by his faithful dogs. This
man who, in the mad passion of his blighted youth, had taken life as if
it were but one of the many things over which he claimed supremacy, with
bowed head and slow steps, was going on an errand of mercy; he was going
to claim, for a helpless human creature, assistance from the only man in
all God's world upon whom he could call with hope of success.

The program, the next few days, was as clear in Farwell's mind as if he
had already followed it from start to finish. By eight Pine would be on
his tracks; by noon they would be together, the dogs grumbling and
fighting at their heels. Two nights by the fire, smoking in a dull
silence, broken now and then, in sheer desperation, by Farwell himself.

In Ledyard's plan there had evidently been but one stipulation: the
constant guardianship with explicit reports. Beyond that there seemed to
be no exactions. Farwell had tried to make Pine drink more than was good
for him on various occasions in order to test the metal of the restraint,
but the Indian displayed a wonderful self-control. He knew when and where
to begin and stop in any self-indulgence, but having fulfilled his part
he showed no interest or curiosity in his companion. Once the trading
station was reached, Farwell might buy or seek pleasure as he chose; he
might write or receive letters; might sleep or wake. So long as the
tangible Farwell was where the guide could locate him at a moment's
notice, he was free to think and act to his own satisfaction.

As he plodded on Farwell contemplated, as he never had before, his
relations with the Indian; in fact, the Indian himself. A superficial
friendliness had sprung up between the two. How deep was it? how much to
be depended upon? If Ledyard could buy the fellow, might not a higher
price secure his allegiance? This, strange to say, was a new thought to
Farwell. Perhaps he had accepted the situation too doggedly; it was his
way to cease struggling when the tide turned against him. It was
weakness, it was folly, and, after Priscilla went, after the girl opened
the doors again into that old life, how could he endure the loneliness,
the tugging of her hold upon him from the place he once had called his?

The day came late to the deep woods beyond Kenmore, and Farwell seemed
going toward the night instead of facing the morning. At five he paused
to feed his dogs and take a bite himself, and, as he sat upon a fallen
tree, the mystic stirrings of life thrilled him as they often had before.
It was more a sense of rustle and awakening than actual sound. Hidden
under the silence of the forest lay the quivering promises, as the rosy
light lay just on the border of the woodland. Both were pressing warm and
comfortingly close to the lonely man with his patient dogs at his feet.
Farwell was a better man, a finer man, than he knew, but only
subconsciously did this support him.

It was three of the afternoon before he heard the quick, measured steps
on the trail behind him. He did not turn his head, but he called back a
genial "Hello!" which was answered by a grunt not devoid of friendliness.

The evening meal was eaten together, and the two arranged their blankets
near the fire for the night's rest. Farwell's two dogs and Pine's one
faithful henchman lay down in peace a short distance away. It was as it
had been for a time back, except that the Indian had become, suddenly,
either an obstacle to be overcome or a friend to assist. Not realizing
his new importance, the guide grunted a good night and fell into that
sleep of his that never seemed to capture his senses entirely.

At the small town, which was reached late the following day, Farwell
engaged two rooms at the ramshackle tavern and informed Pine that he was
to share the luxuries.

This was unusual. In the past a day at the station sufficed for business
transactions, and night found them in the woods again. Pine was confused
but alert. However, things progressed comfortably enough. The expected
mail was awaiting Farwell, and he greedily bought all the newspapers he
could get. His purchases at the store did not interest the Indian and he
was not even aware that several garments for a woman were included in
Farwell's list. A telegram sent, and another received, did perturb the
fellow a good deal, but when Farwell tore the one he got into shreds, the
simple mind of the guide concluded that the matter was unimportant, and
he forgot it before they reached Kenmore. He could not burden his poor
intellect with unnecessary rubbish, and the whole business was getting on
to what stood for nerves in the Indian's anatomy.

What really had occurred was this: Farwell had reached across the
desolate stretches that divided him from his one friend and got a
response. He had impressed upon John Boswell that he could not come in
person to Kenmore, but he could meet a certain needy young person and
convey her to safety in the States. And he had asked a question that for
months had never risen to the surface--he had been too crushed to give it
place.

"Is Joan Moss still alive?"

Boswell was ready to aid him in any way, would even deny himself the
longing of seeing his old friend face to face, since that seemed
desirable. He would meet the young woman at a place called Little Corners
and would do what he could for her.

"Joan Moss is still alive."

A strong light and a new hope came into Farwell's sad eyes. He had a hold
on the future! With the possibility of supplanting Ledyard in Pine's
ideas of loyalty and economics what might not happen?

And so they started back.

It was midnight, four days after Farwell had left home, that he entered
his own door again. The return trip had been rushed, much to Pine's
approbation. Priscilla was quietly sewing at the table when Farwell,
having loudly bidden the Indian good night, came into the living-room.

The girl's alarmed glance turned to one of relieved welcome when she saw
Farwell. She had some food ready for him--every night she had been
prepared--and he ate it ravenously. She noted how white and weary he
looked, but the triumphant expression in his sad eyes did not escape her,
either.

"You have good news?" she asked as soon as Farwell had rested a bit by
his fireside.

"Yes. And you?"

"Oh! I have done famously. Only two knocks at the door, and I was well
hidden. Once it was Mrs. McAdam and once old Jerry. They did not try to
enter."

"They would not. And there was food and fuel enough?"

"Food--yes; I went out three times for wood, and I took one wild, mad
walk. I ran, while all the world slept, to Lonely Farm. I looked in at my
father's window; he was dozing by the fire, and--my mother----"

"Well, Priscilla?"

"My mother--was crying! I shall always remember her--crying. I did not
know there were so many tears in the world!"

"You--you still insist upon going away?"

"Yes. There is no other way for me. Already I seem a stranger, a
passerby. Not even for my mother can I stay; it could work no good for
her or me. Perhaps, by and by----" Priscilla paused. Now that she was
about to turn her back on all that was familiar to her, she became
serious and intense, but she knew no shadow of wavering.

Then Farwell told her the arrangements he had made.

"I have a hundred dollars for you, Priscilla. I wish it were more. My
friend Boswell will meet you at Little Corners. This is Friday; he will
be there on Sunday and will wait for you at the inn; there is only one.
Ask for it and go straight to it. From here to Little Corners is the
hardest part. I will go as far as I dare with you; the rest you must make
alone. Halfway, there is a deserted shanty near the old factory; there
you can make yourself comfortable for the night. Are you afraid?"

Priscilla was white and intent, but she answered:

"No, I shall not be afraid."

"You ought to cover the distance in a couple of days and a night; the
walking is not hard, and the woods are fairly well cleared. Once you
reach Boswell you are safe. He will not question you, but you can trust
him. He's a strange man--younger than I; he stands, has always stood, for
all that is noble and good in my life. I have told him that you are some
one in whom I am interested."

The feeling of adventure closed in and clutched the girl. Now that the
hour had actually come, the hour up to which all her preparations tended,
she quivered with excitement tinged with sadness.

"This way of leaving Kenmore is safer," Farwell was saying. "If any one
were to see you and know you, your father would find you out and bring
you back. No one will know you at Little Corners. That's a place which
most honest people let alone. You'll like Boswell--every one does--after
the first. He'll put you in the way of helping yourself, and your people
may still hold their belief about you and Jerry-Jo, since it makes things
easier for them."

"Yes; they must believe that until----" But Priscilla did not finish the
sentence.

The two sat silent for a few minutes while the tired dogs upon the hearth
breathed loud and evenly. Then at last Priscilla asked:

"When do we start, Master Farwell?"

"Start? Oh, to be sure. I had forgotten." Farwell roused himself from his
lethargy. "We start at once; in an hour or two at the latest. I will nap
here on the couch; you must rest as best you can. There's a long coat and
a hat in yonder bundle. They must serve you until you meet Boswell. He'll
rig you out in some town before you reach civilization. Here's the money;
take wallet and all. Hide it somewhere, Priscilla." Farwell was on his
feet and active once more.

"Go in an hour or two?" gasped Priscilla absentmindedly, following
Farwell's words and accepting the money with a long, tender look of
gratitude. "In an hour or two? Why, you've only just come in, Master
Farwell!"

"What matters? After to-morrow I shall have time to rest and sleep to my
fill."

"You will--miss me, Master Farwell?" Priscilla's eyes were dim. "I would
like to have some one--miss me!"

"I shall, indeed, miss you! You can never understand what you have meant
to me, Priscilla. I cannot make you understand; I shall not try; but in
helping you I have perhaps helped myself. I cannot walk out of the
In-Place beside you, as I would like to do--not now. Maybe a long time
hence, some day, I may follow!"

Farwell's excitement showed in his eyes and voice and wiped out the
weariness of his face.

"You mean that, Master Farwell? You are not trying to comfort me?"

"No; I am comforting myself!"

Then, forgetful of the need for sleep, he went on rapidly:

"Out where you are going, Priscilla, there is a--a woman I love; she once
loved me. This must seem queer to you who have only known me as--as I now
seem. I will seem different to you when you have wakened up--seen other
kinds of men and women."

"Is she young--pretty?"

The senseless words escaped Priscilla's lips because quivering interest
and a strange embarrassment held her thought.

"I--I do not know--how she is now. She _was_ pretty. Good God! how pretty
she was, and young, and kind, too. It was the kindness that mattered
most. You see, she thinks me dead; it was best so. I--I had to be dead
for a while and then I meant to go to her myself. But--something
happened. I was obliged to stay on here, and she might not have
understood. I'd like----" Farwell paused and looked pleadingly at the
white girl-face across the rude table, where the fragments of food still
lay: "I'd like you to go and see her. Boswell could take you. He's done
everything for her, God bless him! I'd--I'd like to have you tell her
gently, kindly, that I am alive. You might say it so as to spare her
shock; you might, better than any one else!"

The longing in the man's eyes was almost more than Priscilla could
endure. Crude as she was, wrong and sinful as the man near her may at one
time have been, she knew intuitively that the love for that woman in the
States had been his consuming and uplifting passion. If he had sinned for
her, he had also died for her, and now he pleaded for resurrection in her
life.

"I will do anything in all the world for you, Master Farwell; anything!"

And Priscilla stretched her hands out impulsively. Farwell took them in
his cold, thin ones and clung to her grimly.

"I'd like to know she'd welcome me!" he whispered. "Unless she could, I'd
rather stay--dead!"

Another silence fell between the man and girl while he relived the past
and she sought to enter the future.

The clock struck the half-hour of one and Farwell sprang up.

"Get ready!" he said. "No time for napping now. It is--it is Saturday
morning! We must be off! I'll go with you as far as I can. For the
rest----" He stopped suddenly and looked blankly at Priscilla.

A little after two they started away from the small, darkened house. It
was a cloudy morning; day would be long in coming, and the two made the
most of the darkness. They were well in the deep woods by six o'clock; at
seven they ate some food Farwell had hurriedly prepared, and were on
their way again by eight. They did not talk much. Priscilla found that
she needed all her strength, now that she must soon depend upon herself,
and Farwell had nothing more to say but--good-bye!

Anton Farwell had got ahead of his spy for once! Not even so
indefatigable an Indian as Pine could be expected to watch a man who had
just returned from a long tramp. But Farwell knew full well that by high
noon his guard would have sensed danger and be uncommonly active, so he
pushed the march to Priscilla's utmost limit.

At four o'clock they reached the deserted hut near the old factory. A
fire was made upon the hearth and a broken-down settle drawn close.

"I'd rest until early morning," advised Farwell in a hard, constrained
voice. "Good Lord, Priscilla, it's a cruel place to leave you--alone!"

"I shall not mind, Master Farwell." All that was brave and unselfish in
the girl rose now to the fore. She recognized that Farwell, even more
than she, needed comfort.

"I shall never forget you," she said, holding her hands out to him;
"never forget you or cease to--love you!"

The last words made him wince.

"Good-bye, Priscilla."

"Good-bye, Master Farwell."

When the door closed upon the man, for a moment Priscilla stood with
horrified glance following him. The sense of high adventure perished at
his going. Alone in the woods, in the ghostly hut, the night to face, and
the blank future stretching beyond! It was more than she could bear, and
a cry escaped her parted lips. But Farwell did not hear, and the paroxysm
passed.

Priscilla slept that night, slept well and safely, and the early light of
Sunday morning found her refreshed and full of courage. She never knew
that two hours after leaving her Farwell met Pine and found in him--a
friend!

They had come face to face on a side trail.

"Here I am!" said Farwell cheerfully; then he took his place in front of
the guide. That had always been the unspoken understanding.

"See here, Pine, we've never said much to each other about what--all this
means, but I want to say something now. I won't give you much trouble in
the future. I shall not go often for my mail, or necessaries. In return,
forget _this_ journey. I went to let a--a poor little devil of a creature
out of a trap. That is all. I just couldn't--leave it to suffer--and I
hadn't time to call you up after our long tramp of yesterday."

"Ugh!" came from behind.

"Pine, can you trust me?"

"Ugh!" But the grunt was affirmative.

"Smoke on it, Tough?"

And they smoked while they plodded wearily back into bondage.




CHAPTER XIII


Little corners, lying on the borderland of Canada and the States,
stretched like a hand, the thumb and small finger of which belonged to
the Dominion, the three digits, in between, to the sister country. Of
course it was comparatively easy to bring merchandise, and what not,
by way of the thumb and little finger and send the same forth by the
three exits, known to Timothy Goodale as "furrin parts." Timothy was
excessively British, as so many Canadians are, but he was a broad-minded
man in his sympathies, and a friend to all--when it paid. He was a man of
keen perceptions, of conveniently short memory, and had the capacity for
giving a lie all the virtuous appearance of truth and frankness. Goodale
had no family, and, as far as possible, served his guests himself. A
half-breed cooked for him; a half-witted French-Canadian girl did
unimportant tasks about the bedchambers, but the host himself took his
patrons into his own safekeeping and their secrets along with them.

Little Corners was not a town of savoury reputation. Law-abiding folks
gave it a wide berth; tourists found nothing interesting there, and
newcomers, of a permanent type, were discouraged. For these reasons it
was the place of all places for Mr. John Boswell to enter, by way of the
long, middle finger, and meet Priscilla Glenn, who advanced via the
thumb. No one would know them; no one would remember them an hour after
they departed.

Timothy was bustling about on a certain Sunday morning, ruminating on the
thanklessness of the task of getting ready for people who might never
appear, when, to his delight, he saw a team of weary horses advancing. He
had time only to put his features in order for business when a man
entered the room.

No one but Goodale could have taken the shock of the traveller's
personality in just the way he did. The smile froze on his face, his eyes
beamed, and his stiff, red hair seemed bristling with welcome. "Advance
agent of a circus," he thought; "sort of advertising guy."

The man who had entered was about three feet tall, horribly twisted as to
legs, and humped as to back and chest. The long, thin arms reached below
the bent knees, and large, white hands dangled from them as if attached
by wires. The big head, set low on the shoulders, seemed to have no
connecting link of neck. It was a great, shaggy head with deep-set,
wonderful eyes, sensitive mouth and chin, and a handsome nose.

"Ah, sir, delighted," said Goodale. "Shall I tell your driver to go to
the stables?"

"I'm my own driver, but I'd like your man to see to the horses. I'm John
Boswell from New York, though you'll probably forget that an hour after I
leave."

Goodale nodded. This was quite in his line, and he suddenly became aware
of the exquisite texture and quality of the stranger's clothing; the
fineness of the piping voice. All sorts came to the inn, but this last
comer was a gentleman, for all his defects.

"I'm expecting a young woman, a distant relative, from farther back in
Canada. I shall await her here. My stay is uncertain. Make me as
comfortable as you can; I like to be comfortable."

"You--you are alone, sir?"

"Until the young lady comes, yes. She is to return to the States with me.
It depends upon her how soon we travel back."

This did away with the show business, but it added romance to the
adventure.

Goodale made Boswell extremely comfortable, surprisingly so. Two bedrooms
were got in order as if by magic; a little sitting-room emerged from
behind closed doors; an apartment quite detached and cozy, with a
generous fireplace and accommodations for private meals.

After a good dinner Boswell went for a stroll, telling his host to make
the young lady welcome upon her arrival.

At half-past four Priscilla Glenn walked into the office of the inn. She
was tired and worn, rather unkempt as to appearance, but she stepped
erect and with some dignity.

"Is--is Mr. Boswell here?" she asked.

"He is, and then again he ain't," smiled Timothy, who was always playful
with women when he wasn't brutal. None knew better than he the use and
abuse of chivalry.

"You are to make yourself at home, Miss; then I'll serve tea in the
sitting parlour; all quite your own and no fear of intrusion. I'm host
and servant to my guests. I never trust them to--to menials."

"Where's my room?" Priscilla broke in abruptly. She was near the
breaking-point and she longed for privacy and shelter before she
collapsed. Her tone and manner antagonized Goodale. He understood and
recognized only two classes of women, and this girl's attitude did not
fit either class. In silence he showed her to her bedchamber, and once
the door separated him from her his smile departed and he relieved his
feelings by muttering a name not complimentary to Mr. Boswell's relative.

The sense of safety, warmth, and creature comforts speedily brought about
courage and hope to Priscilla; a childish curiosity consumed her; she was
disappointed that Boswell did not present himself, but his absence gave
her time for rallying her forces. She found her way to the little
sitting-room by six o'clock, and, to her delight, saw that tea things
were on a table by the hearth and a kettle was boiling over the fire.

"And so--this is Miss Priscilla Glenn?"

So noiselessly had the man entered the room through the open door, so
kind and gentle his voice, that, though the girl started, she felt no
fear until her eyes fell upon the speaker. Boswell waited. He knew what
must follow. Readjustment always took time. In this case the time might
be longer because of the crudity of the girl.

"Ah!" The shuddering word escaped the trembling lips and the tightly
clasped hands that had instinctively gone to the face. "Ah!"

The man by the door sent forth a pitiful appeal for mercy and acceptance
in so sweet and rare a smile that for very shame Priscilla stood up and
smiled back wanly and apologetically.

Boswell liked the attempt and ready willingness; they showed character.

"Now that that is over," he said in his strange, fine voice, "we may sit
down and be friends. May we not?"

"I will make fresh tea for you--please let me!" for Boswell was waving
aside the suggestion.

"Very well! Weak--just flavoured water. Now, then!"

The sidling form edged to the deep chair beside the hearth and scrambled
up, using both hands as a child does. Priscilla kept her eyes upon her
task and struggled for composure.

"I--I suppose Max--I mean Farwell--did not describe me?"

"No, sir."

"It was mistaken kindness. My friends have a habit of doing that. They
think to spare me; it only makes it harder. Try to forget, as soon as
you can, my ugly shell; I am commonplace beneath."

The pathos of this almost brought tears to Priscilla Glenn's eyes. Her
warm, sympathetic nature responded generously.

"I--I am very sorry I gave you pain, sir. Forgive me!"

"We will not mention it again. If you can think of me as--a man, a friend
who wishes to help you for another friend's sake, you will honour me and
make easier your own position. You see, you are no stranger to me; I have
the advantage of you. Farwell has kept me in touch with you from your
childhood up. You have amused him, helped him to bear many things that
would have been harder for him without you. I thank you for this. I
am Farwell's friend. Why, do you know"--and now the deep eyes glowed
kindly--"he has even told me of that original religion you evolved from
your needs; he pictured the strange god you worshipped. I've laughed over
that many times."

"Your tea is getting cold, sir."

Priscilla was gaining control of her emotions, and John Boswell's evident
determination to place her in a comfortable position won her gratitude
and admiration.

"I like cold tea; the colder and weaker the better. Thank you. Let the
cup stand on the table; I will help myself presently. I sincerely hope
we, you and I, are going to be friends. It would hurt Farwell so if we
were not."

"How good you are!"

"Yes. Goodness is--my profession." The drollery in the voice was more
touching than amusing. "I call myself the Property Man. I help people
artistically, when I can. It is my one pleasure, and I find it most
exciting. You will learn, now that you have taken your place on the stage
of life, that the Property Man is very important."

In this light talk, half serious, half playful, he reassured Priscilla
and claimed for himself what his deformity often retarded.

"Already you seem my friend. Mr. Farwell said you would be."

Priscilla's eyes did not shrink now. The soul of the man had, in some
subtle fashion, transformed him. She began to succumb to that power of
Boswell's that had held many men and women even against their wills.

"Farwell was always a dramatic fellow," the weak voice continued. "When
he sent me word, I wanted to go direct to Kenmore; I wanted to see him
after all these years. But he had made his own plans in his own way.
There were--reasons."

Priscilla looked bravely in the thin, kindly face. She remembered that
Farwell had said that she need tell nothing more than she cared to, but
an overpowering desire was growing upon her to confide everything to this
friend of an hour. His deep, true eyes, fixed upon her, were challenging
every doubt, every reserve.

"Farwell says you dance like a sprite."

At this Priscilla started as if from sleep.

"Ah! a childish bit of play," she said. "I--I have almost forgotten how
to dance."

"I hope you will never forget. To dance and sing and laugh should be the
heritage of all young things. You must forget to be serious, past the
safety point! That's where danger lies. It does not pay to take our parts
ponderously. I learned that long ago."

"I shall be--happy after a while." And now, quite simply and frankly,
Priscilla cast away her anchors of caution and timidity and spoke openly:

"I--I have been so troubled. Things have happened to me that should not
have happened if--if my mother and father could have trusted in me. They
believed--wrong of me when really they should have pitied me. You trust
me?"

"Absolutely."

"Master Farwell trusted me. As things were, the only comfort I could give
my poor parents was to let them think I left Kenmore with--with a young
man. Something had occurred that--looked wrong. It was only a terrible
experience. No one helped me but Master Farwell. My--my people turned
from me."

"It was Farwell's way: to help where he had faith," murmured Boswell.

The deep eyes were so perilously kind that Priscilla had to struggle to
keep back her tears. A sense of security and peace flooded her heart, but
the past strain had left its mark.

"My father would have been glad to have me marry the--the man. I would
rather have died after what happened! They--my father and mother--must
believe I have gone with him. It will at least make them feel I have not
disgraced them. Now--you can understand!"

"Perfectly."

"I want to go into training. I want to be a nurse. I am sure I can
succeed."

So very humble and modest was the ambition that it quite took Boswell by
surprise. Priscilla did not notice the uplifting of the shaggy brows. She
went on eagerly, thoughtfully:

"You see, I have only such education as Master Farwell has given me, but
I have a ready mind, he says. I am sure I could watch and tend the sick.
A lady staying in Kenmore at one time told me I had the--the touch of a
skilled hand. I want--to help the world, somehow, and this seems the only
way open to a girl like me. I am strong; I never tire. Yes; I want to be
a nurse, the best one I can be."

Boswell understood the deeper truth. This girl, original, artistic, was
foregoing much in accepting this safe, humble course. She expected no
charity, nothing but a helpful interest. It was unusual and delightful.

"I have a hundred dollars that Master Farwell gave me. It will help, and
I can repay it by and by. I know it will be years before I can do so, but
he understands. While I am studying there will be little expense, the
lady told me. And oh!"--here Priscilla interrupted herself suddenly--"I
have an errand to do for Master Farwell as soon as I get to New York. He
told me you--would help me."

"An errand?"

"Yes. There is a--woman he once--loved; loves still. She thinks he--is
dead. It was best so in the past. There was a reason for letting her
believe so; but now he wants her--to know!"

Boswell sprang up in his chair as if he were on a strong spring.

"Wants you to go and tell her--that he still lives?"

"Yes. It will be hard, but I will do it for him."

Boswell settled back in his seat.

"I thought he only meant her to know--when he could go himself," he said
quietly.

"He made me promise."

Boswell leaned forward and drew the cup from the table, and in one long
draught drank the cold, weak tea. When he spoke again the conversation
was set in a different channel.

"I hardly know what I expected to find you, Miss Glenn," he said with his
rare, sweet smile. "You evidently seemed more a child to Farwell than you
do to me. That was natural. Now that we have become acquainted I hope you
will accept my help and hospitality until your own plans are formed. I
can make you very comfortable in my town home. I am sure I can place you
in the best training school in the city; I have some influence there. But
before you settle to your hard work you will let me play host, as Farwell
would in my place? This would be a great pleasure to me."

What there was in the words and tone Priscilla could never tell, but
at once the future seemed secure, and the present placed on a sound
foundation. Every disturbing element was eliminated and the whole
situation put upon a perfectly commonplace basis. By a quick transition
the unreality was swept aside.

"Indeed, I will be glad to accept."

They smiled quite frankly and happily at each other.

"An odd story occurs to me." Boswell pressed back in his chair and his
face was in shadow. "You must get used to my stories and plays. The
Property Man must have his sport. There was once a garden, very
beautiful, very desirable, but full of traps to the unwary. Quite
unexpectedly, one day, a particularly fine butterfly found herself poised
on the branch of a tree with a soaring ambition in her heart, but a blind
sense of danger, also. It was a wise butterfly, by way of change. While
it hesitated, a beetle crawled along and offered its services as guide.
The pretty, bright thing was sane enough to accept. Do you follow?"

Priscilla started. She had been caught in the mesh of the story, and now
with a sudden realization of its underlying thought she flushed and
laughed.

"I still have my childish delight in stories, you see," she said. Then,
"I--I do see what you mean. Again I repeat, I am so glad to accept
your--your kindness."

"Middle life has its disadvantages." The voice from out the shadows
sounded weary. "It has none of the blindness of youth and none of the
assurance of old age. If I were twenty, you and I could play together in
the Garden; if I were ninety I could tuck you safely away in my nest and
feed you on dainties, and no one could say a word. As it is--well, we'll
do the best we can, and, after you are in your training, you'll be glad
enough to have my nest to fly to for a change of air and an opportunity
to chat with me. The Property Man will come in handy. Hark! the wind is
rising. How it blows!"

The ashes were flying about on the hearth and the trees outside beat
their branches against the windows.

"It never roars like that in the In-Place," whispered Priscilla, awed by
the sound and fury that were rapidly gaining power.

"The In-Place?" Boswell sighed. "What a blessed name! To think of any one
fluttering about in the dangerous Garden when he or she might remain in
the In-Place!"

There was a tap on the door, and in reply to Boswell's "Come!" Goodale
entered.

"Shall I serve supper now, sir?"

"Yes."

"In here?"

"No; in the dining-room." Then, "How far is it to the railway station?"

"Twenty-six miles, sir."

"It seemed like a hundred. Can the team make it to-morrow if the storm
ceases?"

"They look capable, sir."

"Then we will start to-morrow for the States."




CHAPTER XIV


Priscilla Glenn always looked back on the next four weeks of her life as
a transition stage between one incarnation and another. Kenmore, and that
which had gone to the making of her life previous to her meeting with
John Boswell, seemed to have accomplished their purpose and left her
detached and finished, up to a certain point, for the next period of her
existence. In the severing of all the ties of the past, even affection,
gratitude, and memory, for the time being, were held in abeyance. This
was a merciful state, for, had ordinary emotions and sentiments held her,
she would have been unfitted for the difficult task of readjustment which
she gradually achieved, simply because of her dulled mental and spiritual
sensations.

The noise and flash of the big city bewildered and dazzled the girl from
the In-Place and encrusted her with an unreality that spared her many a
pang of loss, and also fear for the future. Boswell's apartment, high
above the street and overlooking the Hudson River and Palisades, became a
veritable sanctuary from which she dreaded to emerge and to which she
clung in a passion of self-preservation. The gray wall of stone across
the sparkling stream grew to be, in her vivid fancy, the barrier between
the past and future. Against it, unseen, faint, but persistent, beat what
once had been--her grim father, her weak, tearful mother, lonely, kindly
Master Farwell, and all the lesser folk of Kenmore. Pressing close and
straining to hold her, these dim, shadowy memories clustered, but she no
longer appeared a part of them, like them, or in any way connected with
them. On the other hand, below the eyrie dwelling in which she was
temporarily sheltered, lay the whirlpool of sound and motion into which,
sooner or later, she must plunge.

With keen appreciation and understanding of this phase of her
development, John Boswell kept conversation and life upon the surface,
and rarely permitted a letting-down of thought. Cautiously, and not too
often, he took his guest on tours of inspection and watched her while she
underwent new ordeals or experienced pain from unknown thrills. He had
never been more interested or amused in his life, and, in his enthusiasm,
exaggerated Priscilla's capabilities. He revelled in her frankness and
her confidence; he learned from her more of Farwell than he could have
learned in any other way, and his faithful heart throbbed in pity, pride,
and affection for the lonely master of the In-Place, who, little heeding
his own progress, had triumphed over his old and lesser self at last.

The home of Boswell was a large and sunny apartment high up in the huge
building. Only one servant, a marvellously silent and efficient Japanese,
ran the economic machinery, awesomely defended Boswell's library when the
master retired to perform his mystic rites, and in all relations was
exemplary. Poor Boswell's rites comprised a devouring appetite for
reading and a rather happy talent for turning off a short story as unique
and human as he was himself.

After Priscilla Glenn arrived, Toky, as the servant was called, was
tested to the uttermost. Never before had Boswell introduced a woman into
the sphere sacred to Man. Toky disapproved, was utterly disgusted; he
lost his implicit faith in his master's wisdom, but he adopted a manner
at once so magnanimous and charming that Boswell set to work and planned
future gifts of appreciation for his servant.

No other woman came to the apartment; Boswell shrank from them, not
bitterly or resentfully, but sensitively. Men took him more or less for
granted when he touched their lives; women overdid the determination, on
their parts, to set him at ease. Long since he had turned his poor,
misshapen back upon the very natural and legitimate desire for the happy
mingling of both sexes, but after Priscilla Glenn became his guest he
recognized the need of women friends in a sharp and painful manner. They
could have helped him so much; could have solved so many problems for him
and the girl; but as it was he had to do the best he could alone.

The hundred dollars, still to be repaid to Farwell, worked wonders in the
week following the arrival of the Beetle and the Butterfly, as Boswell
insisted upon calling himself and Priscilla. Having no power at court,
Boswell cast himself on the mercy of lesser folks and managed, by way of
secret nods and whispers, to gain the coöperation of sympathetic-looking
shop girls in order to array Priscilla in garments that would secure her
and him from impudent stares and offensive leers. The evenings following
these shopping expeditions were devoted to "casting up accounts."
Priscilla was absolutely lacking in worldly wisdom, but she had a sense
of accuracy that drove Boswell to the outer edge of veracity. Never
having bought an article of clothing for herself, Priscilla attacked this
new problem with perfectly blank faith. Prices often surprised and
startled her by their smallness, but the results obtained were gloriously
gratifying.

"I can better understand the lure of the States now, Mr. Boswell," she
said one evening as the two sat in the library with the wind howling
down Boswell's exaggerations and the fire illuminating the girl's
face. "Kenmore prices were impossible, but one can go wild here for so
little. Just fancy! That whole beautiful suit for two dollars and
eighty-seven----"

"Eighty-nine!" Boswell severely broke in, shaking his pencil at her as he
sat perched, like a benign gargoyle, by his study table. "I'll not have
Farwell defrauded while he cannot protect his own interests."

"Two eighty-nine," Priscilla agreed, with a laugh so merry and carefree
that the listener dropped his tired eyes. "And how much does that leave
of the hundred, Mr. Boswell? I tremble when I think of the silk gown so
soft and pretty, the slippers and stockings to match, and the storm coat,
umbrella, heavy shoes, and--and--other things."

Boswell referred to his notes and long lines of figures.

"All told, and in round numbers, there are forty-seven dollars and three
cents left."

"It's marvellous! wonderful!" Priscilla exclaimed. "You are sure, Mr.
Boswell?"

"Do you doubt me?"

"Sometimes I do, you are so kind, so generous, and under ordinary
circumstances it would seem impossible to buy things so cheap. You must
select your shops carefully."

"One has to on a moderate allowance."

Then quite suddenly Priscilla Glenn spoke quickly and breathlessly:

"Mr. Boswell, I--I must begin my training. Have you made any
arrangements? And, when I go, will they pay me from the start?"

Boswell grew grave as he thought of the knowledge that would come
concerning dollars and cents later on.

"I have started operations," he replied; "in a short time you will be
able to begin your studies, and I hear they will pay you the princely sum
of ten dollars a month from the day you are accepted. Canadians are
greatly in demand."

"Ten dollars!" gasped Priscilla, "Ten dollars a month! when I think what
this hundred has done, and the twelve months in each year, it--it dazzles
me!"

Boswell gave an uncomfortable laugh. In the light of nearby
disillusionment his practical joke looked mean and ghastly.

Then, with another abrupt change of thought, Priscilla brought Boswell
again at bay.

"Before I go into training," she said, "I must go and see Master
Farwell's friend--his old friend, you know. I feel very guilty and
ungrateful, but it has all been so strange and bewildering, I have seemed
dead and done for and then born again, I could not help myself; but I can
now. Please tell me all about her, Mr. Boswell, and how I can find her."

Boswell dropped the pencil upon the mahogany desk and looked blankly at
Priscilla.

"Let us sit by the fire," he said presently, "I am cold and--tired. Turn
down the lights."

They took their positions near the hearth: the dwarf in his low, deep
leather chair with its wide "wings" that hid him so mercifully; Priscilla
in the small rocker that from the first had seemed to meet every curve
and line of her long, young body with restful welcome.

"And now," Priscilla urged, "please tell me. I feel, to-night, like
myself once more. I am adjusted to the new life, I hope, ready to do my
part."

When John Boswell cast aside his whimsical phase he was a very simple and
direct man. He, too, was becoming adjusted to Priscilla's presence in his
home and her rightful demands upon him.

"Yes, I will tell you," he said slowly, wearily.

"Perhaps you are too tired to-night, Mr. Boswell? To-morrow will do."

"No. I never sleep when the wind howls; it gets into my imagination. I'd
rather talk. The thing I have to tell you--is what I shall tell Farwell
if I ever see him again. It's rather a bungling thing I've done. I'll
receive my reward, doubtlessly, but I would do the same, were I placed in
the same position, over and over again.

"Farwell Maxwell, known to you as Anton Farwell, has been part, the
biggest part, of my life since we were young boys. We were about as
pitiful a contrast as can be imagined, and for that reason met each
other's needs more completely. We had only one thing in common--money. He
was a straight, handsome fellow, while I was--what you see before you--a
crooked, distorted creature, but one in whose heart and soul dwelt all
the cravings and aspirations of youth and intelligence. I was alone in
the world. My father died before my birth, and I cost my mother--her
life. Farwell had, until he was twenty, an adoring though foolish mother,
who laid undue emphasis upon his rights and privileges. She, and an older
brother, died when he was twenty-one--died before the trouble came, but
not before they had done all they could to train him for it. At
twenty-one he was a selfish, hot-headed fellow with a fortune at his
command, a confused sense of right and wrong, an ungoverned, artistic
nature swayed by impulse, and, yes, honest affection and generous
flashes. And I? Well, I found I could buy with my money what otherwise I
must have gone without, but the shadow never counted for the substance
with me. The fawning favour, which held its sneer in check, filled me
with disgust, and I would have been a bitter, lonely fellow but--for
Farwell.

"I never could quite understand him; I do not to-day, but he, from the
beginning, did not seem to recognize or admit my limitations. Through
preparatory school and college we went side by side. He called me by the
frank and brutal names that boys and men only use to equals. I wonder if
you can understand when I say that to hear him address me as an infernal
coward, when I shrank from certain things, was about the highest
compliment I knew?"

"Yes," murmured Priscilla, "I can understand that." She could not see
Boswell; the low, impassioned words came from out the shadows like
thoughts. "Yes, I can quite understand how you felt."

"I am glad that you can, for then you will see--why I have done--what I
could for Farwell--when he needed me. Back in those old days he was not
content to shame me into playing my part; by that power of his, that
worked both good and evil, he compelled others, in accepting him, to
accept me on equal terms. There was a seat for me at the tables to which
he was invited; he discovered my poor talent for telling a story, and
somehow hypnotized others into considering me a wit! A wit!"

A silence fell between the two by the fire. Priscilla's throat was hard
and dry, her heart aching with pity.

"And then," Boswell continued drearily, "the crash came when he was only
twenty-five! I suppose he was savagely primitive. That was why externals
did not count so much with him. He could not brook opposition, especially
if injustice marked it; he was never able to estimate or eliminate. He
was like a child when an obstacle presented itself. If he could not get
around it, he attacked it with blind passion.

"It was part of his nature to espouse the cause of the weak and needy;
that was what held him, unconsciously, to me; it was what attracted him
to Joan Moss."

The name fell upon Priscilla's mind like a shock. The story was nearing
the crisis.

"She was outwardly beautiful; inwardly she was as deformed--as I! But in
neither case was he ever able to get the right slant. He loved us both in
his splendid, uncritical way. His love brought me to his feet in abject
devotion: it lured the woman to accomplish his destruction. Something,
some one, menaced her! He tried to sweep the evil aside, but----"

"Yes, yes, please go on!" Priscilla was breathless.

"Well, he couldn't sweep it aside; so he committed--murder."

"Oh! Mr. Boswell!"

The shuddering cry drew Boswell to the present. He remembered that his
listener knew Farwell only as a friend and gentle comrade. Her shock was
natural.

"You--you never guessed? Why do you think he, that brilliant fellow,
stayed hidden like a dead thing all these years?"--there was a quiver in
Boswell's voice--"hidden so deep that--not even I dared to go to him for
fear I would be followed and he again trapped! Oh! 'twas an ugly thing he
did; but he was driven to insanity--even his judges believed that--at the
last; but his victim was too big a man to go unavenged, so they hunted
Farwell down, caught him in a trap, and tried to finish him, but he got
away and they thought him--dead."

"Yes, yes," moaned Priscilla, "yes, I know. And the woman--did her heart
break?"

At this Boswell leaned forward, and, in the fire's glow, Priscilla saw
his face grow cruel and hard.

"Her heart break? No, she went promptly to the devil, once she was sure
she had lost Farwell and his money. Down to the last hope she made him
believe in her. How she acted! But when he was reported dead, well!"--and
Boswell gave a harsh laugh--"her heart did not break!"

A sound brought Boswell back to the dim room.

"You are--crying?" he said slowly; "crying for him?"

"For him, yes, and for you!"

"For me?"--a wonderful tenderness stole into the man's voice--"for me? I
do not think any one before--ever cried for me. Thank you. You understand
what all this meant to me? What a--woman you will be--if----"

Priscilla raised her tear-stained face and her lips quivered as she
recalled that Farwell had said almost exactly the same words to her back
there in the In-Place. She understood because she had been lonely and
known the suffering of the lonely. She must never forget, never fail
those who needed her! But Boswell was talking on again with a new note of
feeling in his voice.

"While I thought him dead I sank back into my shell, sank lower than I
had ever been before. I wanted to die; wanted it so truly that I planned
it; grew interested in arranging my affairs. Preparing to die became my
excitement, and when everything was ready, Farwell spoke to me--from his
grave! That letter from your In-Place worked a miracle upon me. While he
lived there would always be something for me to do. He had made a place
in the world for me; I could keep his place ready for him. It was a small
return, but it meant life--for me.

"There were years when Farwell felt he was coming back. I heard from him
spring and autumn, and there were hope and promise each time. When people
forgot, he would return, and he wanted to go to--to Joan Moss himself
with his story. So long as he knew that she was alive and faithful it was
enough, and, besides, he realized that had she or I gone to him just then
it might have been fatal. He believed that if she knew where he was she
would hasten to him!

"Well, just at first I thought that he might come at any time and might
rescue--Joan Moss. I was even willing for him to have her if it could add
any happiness to him. Then there was the money--his money. I kept his
belief in that, too. Everything of his went at the time of the trial, but
mine was his, so that was a small matter. I suppose all the sentiment and
passion that most men spread over their entire lives were, in me,
concentrated on Farwell. When I thought of him caged and alone, in the
wilds, I found lying to him about the only thing I could do. So I kept
his belief in Joan Moss and his fortune. Then something happened to him.
I never knew what it was, but it seemed to take all the hope and courage
from him. He wanted me to see that Joan Moss was well taken care of, and
in case of his death she must have all that he died possessed of. Just at
that time Joan Moss came to me, a wreck! She lived only six months, but
for his sake I saw that she had all that he would have had for her. She
thought that he gave it to her, too, or at least she thought his money
gave it, since it was in his will that she should have it. His name was
on her lips when the end came. I will tell him that some day. It will
help him to forgive me. After that I wrote and wrote to him, making
frantic efforts to secure to him, until he were free, what existed no
longer on earth! That is all."

The fire had died down and become ashy; the wind no longer howled; the
night had fallen into peace at last.

Priscilla got up stiffly, for she was cold and nerve-worn. She walked
unsteadily to Boswell, her tear-stained face twitching with emotion, her
hands outstretched. In her eyes was the look that only once or twice
in his life had Boswell ever seen directed toward him by any human
being--the look that claimed the hidden and best in him, forgetting the
deformities that limited him.

"I think you are the best man on earth, the noblest friend. Oh! what can
we do for Master Farwell?"

Quite simply Boswell took the hands in his. Her eyes made him brave and
strong, and her "we" throbbed in his thoughts like a warm and tender
caress.

"You must leave that to me," he said gently, giving his kindly smile. "I
cannot share this burden with you. So long have I borne it that it has
become sacred to me. It means only making the story a little longer, a
little stronger. Some day he will have to know--some day; but not now!
not now!"

Just then a distant church bell struck the midnight hour. Solemnly,
insistently, the twelve strokes rose and fell.

"The wind has passed," whispered Boswell.

"Yes, and the fire is dead. You are very, very tired, I am sure,"
Priscilla murmured.

Something new and maternal had entered into her thought and voice. While
life lasted she was always to see in the crippled man a brave and patient
soul who played with sternest problems because he had no other toys with
which to while away his dreary years; no other offerings for them he
loved.

"Yes. The play is over for--to-night. The Property Man can take his rest
until--to-morrow. Turn on the lights, Priscilla Glenn. You and I must
find our way out of the darkness."

"Let me help you, Mr. Boswell."

"Help me? That sounds very kind. I will make believe that I am ninety!
Yes, you may help me. Thank you! And now good night. You need not write
of--Joan Moss to Farwell. I am grateful because you understand and
appreciate my--my attempt. I can bring the tale to a close in great
style. I was a bit discouraged, but it seems clear and convincing now.
That is often the way in my trade of story-maker. We come against a blank
wall, only to find there a gateway that opens to our touch."




CHAPTER XV


After Boswell's confidence concerning Anton Farwell, Priscilla's relation
to the man who had befriended her, to life itself, became more vital and
normal. The superficial conditions were dissipated by the knowledge that
Boswell, in speaking so frankly to her, considered her a woman, not a
child, and expected a woman's acceptance of duties and responsibilities.
Besides this, Boswell himself took on new proportions. His whimsical
oddities had been, for an hour, set aside. For a time he had permitted
her to see and know him--the simple, good man he really was. In short,
Priscilla could no longer play, could no longer make a defence of her
shyness and ignorance; she realized that she must plunge into the
whirlpool for which she had left the In-Place and she must do so at once.

Boswell might fantastically play at being ninety and permit her to lend
her strength and youth to his use, but she never again could be deceived.
He was assisting her for Farwell's sake. He liked her, found her
entertaining, but intuitively she knew that in order to retain his
respect and confidence she must fulfil her part.

For a week or so longer he and she went to operas and theatres together
while final arrangements were being completed for her immediate
admittance, on trial, to the finest private hospital in the city, to
which was attached a training school of high repute.

Priscilla was both right and wrong about Boswell. He did appreciate and
admire her insistence to begin her career. It was the only course for her
to take; but he looked forward to the lonely, empty days without her with
real concern.

He had, to a certain extent, grown used to the detachment and
colourlessness of his life since Farwell had left it; but here, quite
unexpectedly, a young and vital personality had entered in and had given
him, in a crude, friendly way, to be sure, what his absent friend had
given--the assurance that his deformity could not exclude him from the
sweet humanity that was keen enough to recognize the soul of him.
Sensitive, shrinking from suffering and publicity, the man found in
Priscilla's companionship and confiding friendliness the deepest joy he
had known since his great loss. He wished that he was ninety, indeed, and
that his infirmity and wealth might secure for him this new interest that
had taken him out of himself and caused his sluggish senses to revive.
But he was not yet fifty. For all his handicaps he was still in fair
health, and the best that he could hope for was that Priscilla, among
her new duties, would remember him, come back to him, make his lonely
home a retreat and comfort when her arduous duties permitted.

Those last few days of freedom and companionship were beautiful to them
both. With pride and a certain complacency, Boswell saw that he had
somewhat formed and developed Priscilla's tastes and judgment. She was no
longer the ignorant girl she once had been. Music did not now move her to
tears and a kind of dumb suffering. She began to understand, to control
her emotions, and gain, through them, pleasure without pain.

"She laughs," Boswell thought, "more intelligently and discriminately
when she sees a good farce."

All this was satisfying to them, but on a certain late-winter day it came
to an end, and Priscilla, thrilling with a sense of achievement, entered
St. Albans on probation.

What the weeks of doubt and preparation meant, no one, not even Boswell,
ever knew. The old childish determination to suffer, in order to know,
held true and unfaltering. The tortured nerves, after the first shocks,
regained their poise and strength; the heavy work and strict discipline
left the sturdy body like fine steel, although weariness often tested it
sorely.

"'Tis not to dance, Priscilla Glenn," she often warned herself; "it is to
suffer and know!"

Then she grimly set her strong, white teeth. With all the getting and
relinquishing, however, she never forgot to laugh, and her courageous
cheerfulness won for her more than she realized while she was learning
the curves of her Road.

And then she was accepted. No one but herself had ever doubted her
triumph, but when she first learned the verdict she was wild with delight
and could hardly wait for her "hours off" to tell Boswell all about it.

She was "capped" at last. No hard-won crown was ever appreciated more
than that white trifle which rested like a bit of snow upon the "rusty
hair" of Priscilla Glenn.

Before the little mirror in her own bedchamber, on that first victorious
day, she posed and confided to her appreciative reflection.

"So this is Priscilla Glenn of the In-Place?" she whispered. "I simply
can't believe it! No one else would believe it either; and you are not
the same. You never will be again what you once were."

The flush of excitement showed plainer now than of yore, for the clear,
dark skin had taken on the delicacy of the city's tint. The eyes were
deep and grave, for already they had witnessed the mystery of life and
death. They had smiled down at pain-racked motherhood; had held, in calm
courage, many an outgoing soul. Priscilla had a closer vision than she
once had had when she dreamed her dreams of what lay beyond the Secret
Portage and the Big Bay.

The reflection nodded acknowledgment to all that the excited brain
affirmed. Then suddenly:

"Why, Priscilla Glenn, you are crying! And for--which?"

The quaint expression brought a smile.

"You are homesick, Priscilla Glenn, homesick for what you have never had!
That's the matter with you. You want some one to go to and tell about
this, but in all the world there isn't any one who could understand. You
poor, poor dear! What would your father and mother think of you? There,
now, never mind. You are only a--blue and white nurse. Even Master
Farwell and Mr. Boswell could not understand; but a woman could. Some
woman! She would know what it means to be free at last and have
something, quite your own, with which to hew and cut your own road; yes,
your own road, right along to--to the end, just as old Pine used to cut
the new trails. It's the standing up straight at last on your own roots
like the dear little white birch in the Place Beyond the Winds. A woman
could understand, but no one else."

By some subtle power Priscilla had thought and talked her fancy far and
away from the plain room of St. Albans. Her longing, her quaint "for
which?" the memory of the Indian guide and the little white birch had
performed a miracle. Through the excitement and elation stole the
fantastic power of childhood. She was on her Road, bound for her Heart's
Desire! No doubt, no misgiving, assailed the moment of joy. Forward, just
a little beyond, success awaited her. The possibility of defeat was over
forever. From now on, through weariness, toil, and perhaps suffering, she
was going to her own. She had never realized the tense mental and
physical strain through which she had passed; she did not realize it now,
but with the relaxation came an almost dangerous exhilaration. The
present, only so far as it verified the past, had no hold upon her;
she let herself go.

Back again was she in Kenmore. It was springtime, and the red rocks and
hemlocks shone and the water sparkled; she heard it lapping against the
tiny islands, so glad was it to be free of the winter's grasp. Some one
was dancing to the Spring's Call--a small, graceful thing with a bright
red cape flying on the wind, the soft wind of the In-Place. There was
music, too! Oh! how clearly it came rising and falling; and then, in the
bare hospital room, the blue-clad nurse tripped this way and that, while
memory held true to note and step!

Oh! It was on again, on again, that dear old dance. It dried the tears in
the tender eyes and held the smile on the joyous lips. Then, as suddenly
as it had begun, the dance ceased, a flushed face confronted the
reflection in the glass, and a low curtsey followed, while a reverent
voice repeated as if in prayer:

"Skib, skib, skibble--de--de--dosh!"

The words came of their own volition; they were part and kin to the mood
that held and swayed her. They were a pagan plea for guidance and
protection in the opening life where wind and fury would beset her.

Suddenly words of everyday life found their way to her detached
consciousness and recalled her to the present with almost cruel force.

"It's the little Canuck he wants! Just fancy! I heard him say so to--to
Mrs. Thomas. Such injustice! But there the old Grenadier comes now.
Hustle!"

Priscilla heard the scampering feet, then, after a moment's pause, the
dignified advance of the superintendent. There was a tap on the door. The
doors of some rooms, owing to discipline, were never tapped by Mrs.
Thomas, but the reason that compelled her to show this courtesy to
Priscilla also caused her to wish this young Canadian was a less serious
person; one more prone to frivol in her "hours off," and not have, for
her most intimate companion, the strange dwarf. She could have forgiven
Priscilla Glenn if, having overdone her "late leave," she had crawled
into a back window to escape punishment. It would have made her more
understandable. As it was, Mrs. Thomas tapped!

"Come in, please," said Priscilla, and the large, handsome superintendent
entered and sat down.

"I thought I would come and tell you," she said, trying to keep her
professional expression while her maternal heart warmed to the girl,
"that you have been highly honoured. There is to be a very important
operation to-morrow at three o'clock. Doctor Ledyard is to perform it,
assisted by his young partner. He has asked for several nurses, and he
named _you_--singled you out. He has observed you; wishes to--use you.
It's a great compliment, Miss Glynn." So often had Priscilla corrected,
to no avail, the wrong pronouncing of her name, that she now accepted it
without further demur. Flushing and trembling, she went close to Mrs.
Thomas and held her hands out impulsively.

"All my glory is coming at once!" she faltered.

"Glory? Well, you are a queer girl. To stand for hours under that man's
eye! You call it glory? Why, it is an honour because it is _that man,
that eye_; but as to glory! My dear Miss Glynn, I must insist that you go
off this afternoon and play--somewhere. Then come back and get a good
night's rest. The life of the richest man in New York will hang in the
balance to-morrow, and not even the glorified nurse can afford to have a
trembling hand when she passes up an instrument or wipes the perspiration
from the surgeon's brow."

"Thank you, oh! thank you, Mrs. Thomas! Of course, if I were not so
stupid I could make you understand how I feel. I seem to have found the
right way, and everything is conspiring to tell me so. You see, I might
not have qualified; some girls do not. No one might have noticed me; you
might not have been so kind. Often I am rather lonely and ungrateful;
but you must try to believe that I am--very happy now."

"I suppose"--Mrs. Thomas was holding the radiant young face with her
clear, calm eyes--"I suppose you are one of those natures that craves
success; cannot brook defeat. Life will deal harshly with you."

"I am willing to suffer. It is the learning I must have. It is the chance
to learn that makes me so glad," Priscilla burst in, "and it's this sure
feeling that I am on the right trail."

"There is a difference. But somehow the career of a nurse is
so--well--difficult, and--hard," Mrs. Thomas went on. "I wonder how you
can approach it with your enthusiasm undaunted after months of service."

"I do not know, but it seems my road to what is mine. It gets me so near
people--when they most need me--are so glad to have me! There seems to
be nothing between me--and them. I love it, oh! I love it, Mrs. Thomas!"

"See here, Miss Glynn, where are you going this afternoon?"

"I do not know; just--going."

"I wish--dear me! I do wish you could go somewhere; do something
shockingly frivolous."

"No, I couldn't to-day. I feel like praying--or dancing. There's the most
wonderful, singing feeling inside of me. That's why I do not need--fun
as much as most of the girls do. You are very kind; I think I will go to
your big, fine park and walk and walk. I'd like to see the sun set and
the stars----"

"Now, Miss Glynn, unless you promise me to get under shelter before the
stars come out I'll call the police. Some day you will learn that New
York is not your Canadian hamlet."

Priscilla laughed gayly.

"Very well. I will take my walk and then go to my dear old friend. He'll
be looking for me from his high window. He always stands there late
afternoons, on the chance of my coming. He says it's a pleasure to feel
you have something that _may_ come, even if you know it isn't coming just
then."

Priscilla changed her clothing and set forth a half hour later for her
walk and to meet with an adventure that changed the current of her
thought materially. From that afternoon she was pressed and forced up her
Road by a power that had taken her into control with definite purpose.

She went into the park at the lower entrance and walked rapidly to a high
place that was a favourite with her. So peaceful and detached it was that
she could generally think her thoughts, sing aloud a little song, and
feel safe from intrusion. Being high and open, the sunlight rested longer
there than it did below and misled one as to time.

There was a glorious sunset that evening, a golden, deep one, against
which the bare trees, towers, and house roofs stood outlined black and
sharp. It was like a burnished shield. It was a still day, with a gentle
crispness in the air that stimulated while it did not chill.

"Everything is waiting. What for? what for?" Priscilla whispered sociably
to herself. She was young, full of health and success. Of course she was
waiting as the young do. And then something touched her cheek softly,
and, looking down, she saw that her dark suit was covered with feathery
snowflakes. So silently had they escaped a passing cloud that she was
startled. She arose at once and was surprised to find, in the hollow
below, that the paths were crusted and the electric lights gleamed
yellow through a fluttering mist of flying snow. It was very beautiful,
but it warned one to hasten, and besides it had grown quite dark.

There was a path, Priscilla knew it well, that led straight across the
park to an entrance near Boswell's home, and she took it now at a rapid
pace.

The beauty of the walk did not escape her, the exhilaration of the air
acted like a cordial upon her, she seemed hardly to touch the ground as
she ran on; and once she paused before setting her foot upon the lovely
whiteness. As she hesitated some one stepped from the shadow of a clump
of bushes and confronted her under the electric light.

"Can you tell me how to find the nearest way out? I'm lost."

Priscilla's heart gave one hard throb and stood still, it seemed for an
hour, while an almost forgotten terror seized and held her. She was
looking full upon Jerry-Jo McAlpin! A soiled and haggard shadow he was
of what he once had been, but it was Jerry-Jo and no other.

"I--I did not mean to frighten you. Forgive me. I ain't going to hurt
you, Miss. I----"

But Priscilla was gone before the sentence was finished. Gone before she
knew whether the speaker had recognized her or not. Gone before--and then
she stood still. She could not leave him to wander alone at night in that
big, strange place. No matter what happened, she must treat him humanly,
she, who knew the danger. She went back, her blood running like ice
through her body; but Jerry-Jo McAlpin was not there. Priscilla waited,
and once she spoke vague directions to the empty space, but no answering
voice replied. Presently she controlled herself, and took to the path
again, and reached John Boswell's house before he had left his window.

She did not tell of the encounter; she felt she must wait, but in her
heart she knew that Jerry-Jo McAlpin was as surely on her trail as she
was herself. Such things as that meeting did not happen to them of the
In-Place unless for a purpose.

She had a wonderful evening with Boswell. They did not go out, and after
dinner he read her some manuscript stories. Boswell had never before so
intimately permitted her to come close to his work. She had seen stories
of his in print, had heard plans for others, but before the fire in his
study that night he read, among other things, "The Butterfly and the
Beetle." So beautifully, so touchingly, had he pictured the little
romance, of which Priscilla herself was part, that the tears fell from
the girl's eyes while her lips were smiling at the tender humour. The
undercurrent of meaning threw new light on the lonely life of the rich,
but wretched man. The joy depicted in simple, friendly intercourse, the
aspiration of the Beetle, the grateful appreciation for the plain, common
happenings that in most lives were taken for granted, but which in his
rose to monumental importance, endeared him to her anew. It brought back
to her what Boswell had told her of his relations with Farwell Maxwell,
her Anton Farwell. She could now, with her broader, more mature reason,
understand the devotion the cripple had given the one man who, in the
empty years, had taken him without reservation, had ignored his
limitations, and had been his friend and comrade.

Suddenly she asked:

"Have you heard from--from Master Farwell lately?" The question startled
Boswell.

"Yes. I had a letter yesterday. He has been ill. That squaw woman, Long
Jean, took care of him. The letter sounded restless. There'll be trouble
with Farwell before we get through. My letters are evidently lacking
power, and your silence baffles him."

"Poor Master Farwell!"

"I fancy he thought Joan Moss would go to him. It has been hard work to
build a barrier between him and her that could satisfy, now that he
believes you have told her of his being among the living."

"What have you said to him all this time?"

Boswell shifted his position, and Priscilla saw the haggard, careworn
look spread over his face. By sudden insight she realized that he looked
old, pitiful, and far from well, and her heart filled with sympathy.
The half-mystical life was telling upon him, becoming a burden.

"Oh, at first I said the surprise of knowing he lived had made her, made
Joan Moss, ill. It took nearly six months to cover that, and I did some
good writing during that period. Then I told him there were things to
settle; then, fear for his safety overpowered her: dread of being
tracked. And since then--well, since then there has been silence. Can
you not understand? His pride has asserted itself at last. If she will
not communicate with him herself, he will have none of me; none of you.
Has he ever said a word about her to--you?"

"Never," Priscilla answered.

"But," Boswell went on, "I notice a change in him; an almost feverish
impatience. I fear he doubts me--after all these years!"

"And when he knows?"

The man by the fire shrank deeper in his chair.

"When he knows?" he repeated. "Why, then he will have an opportunity to
understand my life-long devotion, my gratitude, my love! That is all."




CHAPTER XVI


"For real emergencies," Doctor Ledyard once remarked to Helen Travers,
"give me the nervous, high-strung women. They come through shock and
danger better, they hold to a climax more steadily. Your phlegmatic woman
goes to pieces because she hasn't imagination and vision enough to carry
her over the present."

This reasoning caused him to select Priscilla Glenn for one of the most
critical operations he had ever performed. Among the blue and white
nurses of his knowledge this girl with the strange, uplifted expression
of face; this girl who was actually on the lookout for experience and
practice, and who seriously loved her profession, stood in a class by
herself. He had long had his eye upon her, had meant to single her out.
And now the opportunity had come.

Perhaps the most important man in business circles, certainly one of the
richest men in the city, had come to that period of his life's career
when he must pay toll for the things he had done and left undone in his
past. The broad, common gateway gaped wide for him, and only one chance
presented itself as a possible means of holding him back from the long
journey he so shudderingly contemplated.

"One chance in ten?" he questioned.

"One--in----" Ledyard had hesitated.

"A hundred?"

"A thousand."

A breathless pause followed. Then:

"And if I do not take it, how long?"

"A week, a month; not longer."

"I'll take it."

"I'll have my partner----Would you care for any one else?" Ledyard asked.

"No. Since it must be, I put myself in your hands. I trust you above any
one I know. Do your best for me, and in case I slip through your fingers
I thank you now, and--good-bye."

Before any great event, or operation, Ledyard was supersensitive, highly
wrought, and nervous. When he heard the announcement that day of the
operation: "All is ready, sir!" he stepped, gowned and masked, into the
operating-room, and was aware of a senseless inclination to ask some
one--he did not know whom--to make less noise and to lower the shades.
Then his eye fell, not on the dignified and serene head nurse, not on the
other ghostly young forms in their places near the table, not on the
anesthetist, nor young Travers, his partner, but on the nurse who stood
a little apart, the girl he had selected in order to test her on a really
great case. So radiant and inspired was Priscilla Glenn's face that it
fairly shone in that grim place and positively had the effect of bringing
Ledyard to the calmness that characterized his action once the necessity
demanded.

"How is your patient, Doctor Sloan?" he asked the anesthetist.

"Fine, Doctor Ledyard. I'm ready when you are."

Then tense silence followed, broken only by the click of instruments and
the curt, crisp commands. The minutes, weighted with concentration, ran
into the hour. Not a body in that room was aware of fatigue or anxiety. A
life was at stake, and every one knew it. It did not matter that the man
upon the table was important and useful: had he been the meanest of the
mean and in the same critical state, that steady hand, which guided the
knife so scientifically and powerfully, would have worked the same.

The sun beat down upon the glass roof of that high room; the perspiration
started to Ledyard's forehead and a nurse wiped it away.

From her place Priscilla Glenn watched breathlessly the scene before her.
It seemed to her that she had never seen an operation before; had never
comprehended what one could be. She realized the odds against which those
two great men were battling, and her gaze rested finally, not on the head
surgeon, but on his partner. Once, as if by some subtle attraction, he
raised his eyes and met hers. Above the mask his glance showed kindly and
encouragingly. He knew that some nurses lost their nerve when a thing
stretched on as this did; he never could quite overlook the fact that
nurses were women, as well, and he hated to see one go under. But this
young nurse was showing no weakness. Travers saw that, after a moment,
and dropped his eyes. But that glance had fixed Priscilla's face in his
memory, and when, after the great man had been carried to his room with
hope following him, when he could be left with safety to his private
nurse, Travers came upon the girl standing by a deep window in the upper
hall. He remembered her at once and stopped to say a pleasant word.

This was not the strictly proper thing to do, and Travers knew it.
Ledyard was always challenging his undignified tendencies.

"Unless doctors and nurses can leave their sex outside their profession,"
was a pet epigram of Ledyard's, "they had better choose another."

But Travers had never been able to fulfil his partner's ideal.

"It was a wonderful operation," he said. "I hope it did not overtire you.
You will get hardened after a while."

"I am not at all tired. Yes, it was--wonderful! I did not know any
operation could be like that--I mean in the way that it was done. I have
always been afraid of Doctor Ledyard before; all of us are; I shall never
be again."

"May I ask why?"

Travers, being young and vital, was forgetting, for the moment, his
professional air to a dangerous extent. He was noticing the strange
coloured hair under the snowy cap, the poise of the head, the deep
violet eyes in the richly tinted face.

"It was that--well, the look on his face after he had done all that he
could--done it so wonderfully. That look was--a prayer! I shall never
forget."

Travers gave a light laugh.

"It would be like Doctor Ledyard," he said with a peculiarly boyish ring
in his voice, "to do his part first and pray afterward."

"But no one could ever be afraid of him again having once seen that
look!"

"Miss Glynn," Travers replied; "they could! and yet the _look_ holds the
fear in check."

Priscilla went early to bed that night. She had planned a visit to
Boswell when her enthusiasm was at its height, but at the day's end she
found herself so exhausted that she sought her room in a state bordering
on collapse.

Sounds outside caught and held her attention; every sense was quiveringly
alert and receptive; she was at the mercy of her subconscious self.

"Extry! extry!" bellowed a boy just below her window; "turribul
accident on--de--extry! extry! Latest bulletin--Gordan Moffatt--big
fin--cier--extry! extry!"

Priscilla sat up in bed and listened. So intimate had the insistent boy
in the street become that she was drawn to him by a common bond of
sympathy.

Slowly a luxurious sense of weariness overcame her and again she leaned
back on her pillow and sank into a semiconscious sleep. Balanced between
life and the oblivion, into which reason enters blindfolded, she made no
resistance, but was swayed by every passing wave of thought, memory, and
vision.

The voice outside merged presently into Jerry-Jo McAlpin's. So naturally
did it do so that the girl upon the bed, rigid and pale, accepted the
change with no surprise.

Jerry-Jo was asking her the way out! He was lost--lost. He wanted to get
out of the darkness and the noise; he wanted to find his way back to the
In-Place.

Yes, she would show him! There was no fear of him; no repulsion. She was
very safe and strong, and she knew that it was wiser for Jerry-Jo to go
back home.

Then suddenly she and he were transported from the bewildering city,
talking in its sleep, to the sweet, fresh dimness of the Kenmore Green,
where the steamer had left them. It was early, very early morning, not
more than four o'clock, and the stars were bright and the hemlocks black,
and the red rocks looked soft in the shadows, like pillows. And over the
Green, loping and inquisitive, came Sandy McAdam's dog, Bounder. How
natural and restful the scene was! Then it was Jerry-Jo, not Priscilla,
who was leading. The half-breed with a gesture of friendliness was
beckoning her on toward the mossy wood path leading to Lonely Farm. There
was a definiteness about the slouching figure that forbade any pause at
the White Fish Lodge or the master's dark and silent house. Priscilla
longed to stop, but she hastened on, feeling a need for hurry.

Presently she saw the little house, her father's house, and there was a
light shining from the kitchen window. Jerry-Jo, still preceding her,
tapped on the outer door, but when the door fell open Jerry-Jo was gone!
Alone, Priscilla confronted her father, and saw with surprise that he
evidently expected her. While the look of hatred and doubt still rested
in his eyes, there was also a look of dumb pity. No word was spoken.
Nathaniel merely stepped aside and closed the door behind her. Then she
began a strange, breathless hunt for something which, at first, she could
not call by name; it evaded and eluded her. Something was missing;
something she wanted desperately; but the rooms were horribly dark and
lonely, and the stillness hurt her more and more.

At last she came back to her father and the warm, lighted kitchen.

"I cannot find--my mother," she said, and the reality set her trembling.

"Your--mother? I--I cannot find her, either. I thought she--followed
you!"

Cold and shivering, Priscilla sat up in bed. Her teeth chattered and
there were tears on her cheeks. They did not seem like her own tears. It
was as if some one, bending over her, had let them fall from eyes seeking
to find her in the dark.

"Mother!" moaned Priscilla, and with the word a yearning and craving for
her mother filled every sense. By a magic that the divine only controls,
poor Theodora Glenn in that moment was transformed and radiantly crowned
with the motherhood she had so impotently striven to achieve in her
narrowed, blighted life. The suffering of maternity, its denials and
relinquishings she had experienced, but never its joy of realization,
unless, as her spirit passed from the Place Beyond the Winds to its
Home, it paused beside the little, narrow, white bed upon which Priscilla
lay, and caught that name "Mother!" spoken with a sudden inspiration of
understanding.

And that night, with only her grim husband and Long Jean beside her,
Theodora escaped the bondage of life.

After the strange dream, Priscilla, awed and trembling, walked to the
wide open window of her room. For some moments she stood there breathing
fast and hard while the cruel clutch of superstition hurt and held her.

"Something has happened," she faltered, leaning upon the casement and
looking down into the silent street, for the restless city had at last
fallen to sleep. "Something in Kenmore!"

A red, pulsing planet, shining high over a nearby church tower, caught
her eye and brought a throb of comfort to her--a tender thought of home.

"To-morrow, perhaps, a letter will come from Master Farwell; if not, I
will write to him. I must know."




CHAPTER XVII


For two or three days things fell into such commonplace routine that the
excitement of the big operation and the disturbing dream of the night
lost their sharp, clear lines; became blurred and part of the web and
woof of the hospital régime. There was little time for introspection or
romancing and even the chance meeting with Jerry-Jo was relegated to the
non-essentials. Of course he was in the city, but so were the Hornby boys
and others from the In-Place. The whirlpool was a big and rushing thing,
and if they who had once been neighbours caught a glimpse of each other
from dizzy eddies, what did it matter? The possibility of second meetings
was rare.

John Boswell had been sympathetic, to a certain degree, with Priscilla
concerning the operation and her very evident pride in the part she had
been permitted to take in it. With the instinctive horror that many have
concerning sickness and suffering, he always made an effort to appear
sympathetic when Priscilla grew graphic. Often this caused her to laugh,
but she never doubted Boswell's sincere interest in her, personally. That
she had overcome and achieved was a thing of real gratification to the
lonely man; that she came to him naturally and eagerly, during her hours
of freedom, was the only unalloyed joy of his present existence. Even
Toky hailed her appearances now with frank pleasure, for she, and she
alone, brought the rare, sweet smile to the master's face and gave a
meaning to the artistic meals that were planned.

"I think, my Butterfly," Boswell often said to her, "that you have soared
to glory through suffering and gore! But it is the soaring and the glory
that matter, after all. Do not lay it up against your poor Beetle if he
makes a wry face now and then. You are desperately dramatic, you know,
but even in my shudders I do not lose sight of the fact that you are a
very triumphant Butterfly."

Priscilla beamed upon him; the new light of well-poised serenity did not
escape him.

"If I could only explain!" she once said to him as they sat facing each
other across the table that Toky had laid so artistically. "When I feel
the deepest my words seem shut in a cage; only a few get through the
bars. I really believe people all feel the same about their little
victories. It isn't the kind of victory; it is the sure realization that
you are doing _your_ work--the work you can do best. Why, sometimes I
feel as if I were the big All Mother, and the sad, helpless, suffering
folk were _my_ dear children just looking to me--to me! And then I try
to take the pain and fear from their faces by all the arts my profession
has taught me and all the--the _something_ that is in me, and--I tell
you----"

Priscilla paused, while the shining light in her big eyes was brightened,
rather than lessened, by the tears that gathered, then retreated.

"And for all this," Boswell broke in, "you are to get twenty-five per, or
for a particular case, thirty-five per?"

They smiled broadly at each other, for their one huge, compelling joke
loomed close.

"Well, sir, when one considers what two intelligent people, like you and
me, did with Master Farwell's one hundred dollars, the future looks
wonderfully rich! I shall soon be able to repay the loan with interest."

And then they talked a bit of Master Farwell and the In-Place, always
skirting the depths gracefully, for Boswell never permitted certain
subjects to escape his control. It was the half-playful, but wholly
kind dignity that had won for him Priscilla's faith and dependence.

For a week or two after Gordon Moffatt's operation things went calmly and
prosaically at the hospital. The rich man recovered so rapidly and
satisfactorily that even the outside world took things for granted, and
any items of news concerning him were to be found on the inside pages of
the newspapers. During his convalescence Priscilla met Doctor Ledyard and
Doctor Travers many times. Once, by some mysterious arrangement, she was
assigned charge, in the rich man's room, while his own nurse was absent.
For three days and nights she obeyed his impatient commands and reasoned
with him when he confused his dependent condition with his usual
domineering position.

"Damn me!" he once complained to Travers when he thought Priscilla was
out of hearing; "that young woman you've given charge over me ought to
have a bigger field for her accomplishments. She's a natural-born tyrant.
I tried to escape her this morning; had got as far as one foot out of bed
when she bore down upon me, calmly, devilishly calmly, pointed to my
offending foot, and said: "Back, sir!" Then we argued a bit--I'm afraid I
was a trifle testy--and finally she laid hands upon my ankle in the most
scientific manner and had me on my back before I could think of the
proper adjectives to apply to her impudence."

Travers laughed and looked beyond the sick man's bed to the bowed head of
Priscilla as she bent over some preparation she was compounding in an
anteroom. From a high window the sunlight was streaming down on the
wonderful rusty-coloured hair. The girl's attitude of detachment and
concentration held the physician's approving glance, but the wave of
hair under the white cap and against the smooth, clear skin lingered in
the memory of the _man_ long after he forgot Moffatt's amusing anecdote.

And then, because things were closing in upon Priscilla Glenn's little
stage, something happened so commonplace in its character that its effect
upon the girl was out of all proportion.

After a rather strenuous day she was sleeping heavily in her little white
room when a sharp knock on her door brought her well-trained senses into
action at once.

"There's been an accident, Miss Glynn." It was the superintendent who
spoke. "Please report on Ward Five as soon as possible."

It was an insignificant accident; such a one as occurs shockingly often
in our big cities. A large touring car, with seven passengers, rushing up
a broad avenue with a conscientious man at the wheel, had overhauled a
poor derelict with apparently no fixed purpose in his befuddled brain. In
order to spare the fellow, the chauffeur had wheeled his car madly to one
side, and, by so doing, had hit an electric-light pole, with the result
that every one was more or less injured, the forlorn creature who had
caused the excitement, most of all, for the over-turned machine had
included him in its crushing destruction.

Four men and three women were carried to St. Albans and now occupied
private rooms, while the torn and broken body of the unknown stranger lay
in Ward Five, quite unconscious. He was breathing faintly, and, since
they had made him clean and decent, he looked very young and wan as he
rested upon the narrow, white bed.

Priscilla stood at the foot of the cot and read the chart which a former
nurse had hurriedly made out; then she came around to the side and looked
down upon--Jerry-Jo McAlpin!

She knew him at once. The deathlike repose had wiped away much that
recent years had engraven on his face. He looked as Priscilla remembered
him, standing in his father's boat, proudly playing the man.

For a moment the quiet girl grew rigid with superstitious fear. That
deathlike creature before her filled her with unreasoning alarm. She
almost expected him to open his black eyes and laughingly announce that
he had found her at last! She longed to flee from the room before he had
a chance to gain control of her. She breathed fast and hard, as she had
that morning when his ringing jeer had stayed her feet as she ran from
the Far Hill Place after the night of terror. Then sanity came to her
relief and she knew, with a pitying certainty born of her training, that
Jerry-Jo McAlpin could never harm her again. That he was a link between
the past and the future she realized with strange sureness. He had always
been that. He had made things happen; been the factor in bringing
experiences to her. She, in self-preservation, would not claim any
knowledge of him now; she would care for him and wait--wait until she
understood just what part he was to play in her present experience.
He might threaten all that she had gained for herself--her peace and
security. Her only safeguard now was to ignore the personality before
her and respond to the appeal of the "case."

Jerry-Jo was destined to become interesting before he slipped away. Known
only as a number, since he had not been identified or claimed, he rapidly
rose to importance. After three days of unconsciousness he still
persisted, and while his soul wandered on the horizon, his body responded
to the care given it and grew in strength. One doctor after another
watched and commented on his chances, and in due time Doctor Travers,
hearing of the case, stopped to examine it, and, in the interest of
science, suggested an operation that might possibly return the poor
fellow to a world that had evidently no place for him.

"It's worth trying," Travers said as he and Priscilla stood beside the
bed. "We haven't found out anything concerning him, have we?"

Priscilla shook her head.

"Suppose he--well, suppose he had any claim upon you, would you take the
chance of the operation for him?"

The deep, friendly eyes were fixed upon the girl. She coloured sharply,
then went quite pale. There was a most unaccountable struggle, and
Travers smiled as he thought how conscientious she was to feel any deep
responsibility in a question he had asked, more in idle desire to make
talk than for any other reason.

"Yes," she replied suddenly, as her head was lifted; "yes, I'd give him
every chance."

Just then, in one of those marvellous flashes of regained consciousness,
the man upon the bed opened his eyes and looked, first at Travers, then
at Priscilla. Again his gaze shifted, gaining strength and meaning. From
the far place where he had fared for days his mind, lighted by reason,
was abnormally clear and almost painfully reinforced by memory. Then he
laughed--laughed a long, shuddering laugh that drew the thin lips back
from the white, fang-like teeth. Before the sound was finished the light
faded from the black eyes and the grim silence shut in close upon the
last quivering note.

[Illustration: "In one of those marvellous flashes of regained
consciousness, the man upon the bed opened his eyes and looked,
first at Travers, then at Priscilla"]

"We'll take the chance," said Travers. And late that very afternoon they
took it.

A week later Priscilla sat beside the man's bed, her right hand upon his
pulse, her watch in her left. So intent was she upon the weak movement
under her slim fingers that she had forgotten all else until a voice from
a far, far distance seemingly, whispered hoarsely:

"So--so this is--you? I'm not dreaming? I wasn't dreaming before
when--when he and you came?"

They had all been expecting this. The operation had been very successful,
though it was not to give the patient back to life. They all knew that,
too.

"Yes, Jerry-Jo, it's I."

There was no tremor in the low voice, only a determination to keep the
world from knowing. Jerry-Jo was past hurting any one.

"The--lure got you, too?"

"Yes, the lure got me."

"I knew you that night in the dark--that night in the park--you ran from
me. I was lost and--and starving!"

"I came back, Jerry-Jo. I did indeed."

"Have I been here--long?"

"Not very. Do not talk any more. You must rest. There is to-morrow, you
know."

The poor fellow was too weak to laugh, but the long teeth showed for a
moment.

"I must talk. Listen! Do they know here--about me? know my name?"

"No."

"Don't tell them. Don't tell any one. I have done something for you!
They think, back there in Kenmore, that you are with me. I've written
that--and schoolmaster hasn't let on. I haven't gone to the Hornbys here,
because I stood by you. No one must know. See?"

"Yes, Jerry-Jo, I see. Please lie still now. It shall be as you wish. You
have been--very good--for my sake!"

"I've starved and slept in dark holes--for you, and now you and him--have
got to take care of me--or--I'll tell! I'll tell, as sure as God hears
me!"

"We will take care of you, Jerry-Jo. There! there! I promise; and you
know we of the In-Place stand by each other."

He was comforted at last, and fell into the deep sleep of exhaustion.
Occasionally, in the days following, he opened his tired eyes and gave
evidence of consciousness. He was drifting out calmly and painlessly,
and all the coarseness and degeneracy of the half-breed seemed dropping
by the way. Sometimes his glance rested on Doctor Travers's face, for
the young physician was deeply interested in the case and was touched by
the lonely, unclaimed fellow who had served science, but could derive no
benefit in return. Often Jerry-Jo's dark eyes fell upon the pitying face
of Priscilla Glenn with ever-growing understanding and kindliness.
Sometimes in the long nights he clung to her like a child, for she was
very good to him; very, very devoted.

One night, when all the world seemed sleeping, he whispered to her:

"You--you don't know, really?"

Priscilla thought he was wandering, and said gently:

"No, Jerry-Jo, really I do not know."

"What will you give me--if I tell you the biggest secret in the world?"

She had his head in the hollow of her arm; he was resting more calmly so.
He had been feverish all day.

"What--can I give you, Jerry-Jo?"

The old, pleading look was in the dark eyes, but low passion had vanished
forever.

"Could you--would you give me a kiss for the secret?"

"Yes, Jerry-Jo," and the kiss fell upon the white brow.

Could John Boswell have been there then he would have understood.

"You--you are crying! I feel a tear with the kiss!"

The quivering, broken smile smote Priscilla to the heart. The ward
was deathly quiet; only the deep breathing of men closer to life than
Jerry-Jo McAlpin broke the stillness.

"Why--do you cry?"

"You know, it's a bad habit of mine, Jerry-Jo."

"Yes. You--you cried on his book, you remember?"

"I remember."

"Do--you know where he is--now?"

"No. Do you?"

The head upon the strong, young arm moved restlessly.

"Yes--I know--and I'm--going to tell you! It's the biggest joke I ever
knew. Just to think--that you don't know, and he doesn't know, and--and
I do!"

A rattling, husky laugh shook the thin form dangerously. Every instinct
of the nurse rose in alarm and defence.

"You must not talk any more, Jerry-Jo. Lie still. Come, let us think of
the In-Place."

Priscilla slipped her arm from under the dark head, and took the
wandering hands in hers. Her random words had power to hold and chain
the weak mind.

"I'm going to tell you--where he is--but we'll go back to the In-Place. I
want to tell you there, and--he'll come and find you. I'd like to do you
both a good turn--for what you've done for me."

Then, after a pause and a gasping breath:

"It's growing dark, but there's Dreamer's Rock and Bleak Head!"

"And, Jerry-Jo," whispered Priscilla, "there's Lone Tree Island,
don't you see? Your boat is coming around into the Channel. Please tell
me--where he is, Jerry-Jo----"

Priscilla realized he was going fast, and the secret suddenly gripped her
with strange power. She must have it; she must know!

"Please, Jerry-Jo, tell me where he is. I have wanted so to know! Listen!
Can you not hear--the dear old sounds, the pattering of the soft little
waves that the ice has let go free? There's the farm, the woods----" But
Jerry-Jo was struggling to rise; his black eyes wide and straining, his
thin arms outstretched.

"No!" he moaned hoarsely, and already he seemed far away. "I can't make
the Channel. I'm headed for the Secret Portage and the Big Bay."

"Jerry-Jo! oh! tell me, where is he? Where is he?"

But Priscilla knew it was too late. She bent and listened at the still
breast that was holding the secret close from her. Then, with a sense of
having been baffled, defeated, and cruelly cheated, she dropped her wet
face in her hands for a moment before she went to do her last duty for
Jerry-Jo.




CHAPTER XVIII


The following June Priscilla Glenn graduated. She and John Boswell grew
quite merry over the event.

"I really can't let you spend anything on me," she said laughingly;
"nothing more than the cost of a few flowers. I have the awful weight of
debt upon me at the beginning of my career. One hundred dollars to Master
Farwell, and----"

"The funeral expenses of that poor waif you were so interested in! My
dear child, you are as niggardly with your philanthropies as you are with
your favours. Why not be generous with me? And, by the way, can you tell
me just why that young fellow appealed to you so? I daresay other
'unknowns' drift into St. Albans."

"He looked--you will think me foolish, Mr. Boswell--but he looked like
some one I once knew in Kenmore."

The warm June day drifted sunnily into Boswell's study window. There was
a fragrance of flowers and the note of birds. Priscilla, in her plain
white linen dress, was sitting on the broad window seat, and Boswell,
from his winged chair, looked at her with a tightening of the throat.
There were times when she made him feel as he felt when Farwell Maxwell
used to look at him before the shadow fell between them--the shadow that
darkened both their lives.

"And that was why you had a--a Kenmore name graven on the stone?"

"Yes, Mr. Boswell, Jerry-Jo McAlpin. Jerry-Jo is dead, too, you know.
They name living people after dead ones. Why not dead people?"

"Why, indeed? It's quite an idea. Quite an original idea. But as to my
spending money on your graduation, a little more added to what you
already owe me will not count, and, besides, there is that trifle left
from Farwell's loan still to your credit."

"Now, Mr. Boswell, don't press me too close! I was a sad innocent when
I came from the In-Place, and a joke is a joke, but you mustn't bank on
it."

The bright head nodded cheerfully at the small, crumpled figure in the
deep chair.

"After you live in New York three years, Mr. Boswell, you never mistake
a shilling for a dollar, sir. But just because it is such a heavenly
day--and between you and me, how much of that magic fund is left?"

"I've mislaid my account," Boswell replied, the look that Toky watched
for stealing over his thin face; "but, roughly speaking, I should say
that, with the interest added, about fifty dollars, perhaps a trifle
more."

Priscilla threw back her head and laughed merrily.

"I can understand why people say your style is so absorbing," she said
presently; "you make even the absurd seem probable."

"Who have you heard comment on my style?" Boswell leaned forward. He was
as sensitive as a child about his work.

"Oh, one of the doctors at St. Albans told me that, to him, you were the
Hans Christian Andersen of grown-ups. He always reads you after a long
strain."

A flush touched the sallow cheeks, and the long, white fingers tapped the
chair arms nervously.

"Well!" with a satisfied laugh, "I can prove the amount to your credit in
this case without resorting to my style. Would you mind going into your
old room and looking at the box that you will find on the couch?"

Priscilla ran lightly from the study, her eyes and cheeks telling the
story of her delight.

The box was uncovered. Some sympathetic hand, as fine as a woman's, had
bared the secret for her. No mother could possibly have thought out
detail and perfection more minutely. There it lay, the gift of a generous
man to a lonely girl, everything for her graduating night! The filmy gown
with its touch of colour in embroidered thistle flowers; the slippers and
gloves; even the lace scarf, cloud-like and alluring; the long gloves and
silken hose.

Down beside the couch Priscilla knelt and pressed her head against the
sacred gift. She did not cry nor laugh, but the rapt look that used to
mark her hours before the shrine in Kenmore grew and grew upon her face.

"You will accept? You think I did well in my--shopping?"

Boswell stood in the doorway, just where a long path of late June
sunlight struck across the room. For the girl, looking mutely at him with
shining eyes, he was transfigured, translated. Only the great, tender
soul was visible to her; the unasking, the kind spirit. Moved by a sudden
impulse, Priscilla rose to her feet and walked to him with outstretched
hands; when she reached him he took her hands in his and smiled up at
her.

"I--I accept," she whispered with a break in her voice. "You have made
me--happier than I have ever been in my life!"

Boswell drew her hands to his lips and kissed them.

"And you will come and see me in them"--Priscilla turned her eyes to the
box--"when I--dance?"

"You are to dance?"

"We are all to dance."

"I have not seen you dance for many a day. If you dance as you once did
there will be only you dancing. Yes, I will come."

And Boswell went. The exercises were held in the little chapel. From his
far corner he watched the young women, in uniforms of spotless white,
file to the platform for their diplomas. They all merged, for him, into
one--a tall, lithe creature with burnished hair, coppery and fine, and an
exalted face. Later, from behind the mass of palms and ferns in the
dancing hall, he saw only one girl--a girl in white with the tints of
the thistle flower matching the deep eyes.

And Priscilla danced. Some one, a young doctor, asked her, and
fortunately for him he was a master hand at following. After a moment of
surprise, tinged with excited determination, he found himself, with his
brilliant partner, the centre of attraction.

"Look! oh, do look at the little Canuck!" cried a classmate.

"I never saw any one dance as she does"--it was Doctor Travers who spoke
from the doorway beside Mrs. Thomas--"but once before. It's quite
primeval, an instinct. No one can teach or acquire such grace as that."

Then, suddenly, and apropos of nothing, apparently:

"By the way, Mrs. Thomas, Miss Moffatt has been ordered abroad by Doctor
Ledyard. He spoke to-day about securing a companion-nurse for her. She's
not really ill, but in rather a curious nervous condition. I was
wondering if----" His eyes followed Priscilla, who was nearing the
cluster of palms behind which Boswell sat.

"Of course!" Mrs. Thomas smiled broadly; "Miss Glynn, of course! She's
made to order. The girl has her way to make. She's been rather overdoing
lately. I don't like the look in her eyes at times. She never asks for
sympathy or consideration, you understand, but she makes every woman, and
man, too, judging by that rich cripple, Mr. Boswell, yearn over her.
She'd be the merriest soul on earth, with half a chance, and she's the
most capable girl I have: ready for an emergency; never weary. Why, of
course, Miss Glynn!"

"I'll speak to Doctor Ledyard to-night," said Travers.

Then, strangely enough, Travers realized that he was very tired. He
excused himself, and, walking back through the dim city streets to the
Ledyard home, he thought of Kenmore and the old lodge as he had not for
years.

"I believe I'll run up there this summer," he muttered half aloud. "I'll
take mother and urge Doctor Ledyard to join us. I would like to see how
far I've travelled from the In-Place in--why it's years and years! All
the way from boyhood to manhood."

But Ledyard changed the current of his desire. The older man was sitting
in his library when Travers entered, and Helen Travers was in the deep
window opening to the little garden space behind the house.

Time had dealt so gently with Helen that now, in her thin white gown, she
looked even younger than in the Kenmore days, when her dress had been
more severe.

"You're late," said Ledyard, looking keenly at him.

"Very late," echoed Helen, smiling. "I had dinner here and am waiting to
be escorted home."

"She's refused my company. Where have you been, Dick?"

"I had to give out the diplomas, you know, at St. Albans."

"It's after eleven now, Dickie." Helen's gaze was full of gentle pride.

"I stopped for an hour to see those little girls play."

"The nurses?" Ledyard frowned. "Girls and nurses are not one and the same
thing, to a doctor."

"Oh, come, come, dear friend!" Helen Travers went close to the two who
were dearest to her in the world. "Do not be unmerciful. Being a woman,
I must stand up for my sex. Did they play prettily, Dick? I'm sure they
did not look as dear as they do in their uniforms."

"One did. She was--well, to put it concisely, she was a--dance!"

"Umph! That ruddy-headed one, I bet!" Ledyard turned on another electric
light. "See here, Dick, do you think that girl could go abroad with
Gordon Moffatt's daughter? Moffatt spoke about her. She rather impressed
him while he was in St. Albans. She stood up against him. He never
forgets that sort; he swears at it, but he trusts it. The old housekeeper
is going along to keep the party in order, but a trained hand ought to
go, too. The Moffatt girl has the new microbe--Unrest. It's playing the
devil with her nerves. She's got to be jogged into shape."

"I think we could prevail upon Miss Glynn to go. She has her way to make.
She's been rather----" Travers stopped short; he was quoting Mrs. Thomas
too minutely.

"Rather what, Dick?" Helen had her head against her boy's shoulder.

"Hunting a job," he lied manfully. "Most of those girls are up against it
once the training is over."

"And Dick," Helen raised her eyes, "Doctor Ledyard and I were talking
of a trip abroad this summer for--ourselves. Will you come? We want the
off-the-track places. Little by-products, you know. I'm hungry for--well,
for detachment; but with those I love."

"Just the thing, little mother, just the thing!" The In-Place faded from
sight. In its stead rose a lonely mountain peak that caught the first
touch of day and held it longest. A little lake lay at its foot, and
there was the old house where he and Helen had spent so much of the
summer while he and she were abroad!

"Where does Miss Moffatt intend to go?" asked Travers.

"That's it. Her ideas at present are typical of her condition. 'Snip
the cord that holds me,' she said to me to-day; 'beg father to give
me a handful of blank checks and old Mousey'--that's what she calls
the housekeeper--'buy a nice nurse for me in case I need one--a nice
un-nurse-like nurse,' she stipulated--'and let me play around the world
for a few months to see if I can find my real self hiding in some cranny;
then I'll come back and be good!' The girl's a fool, but most girls are
when they've been brought up as she has been. Moffatt is at his wits'
end. Young Clyde Huntter is on the carpet just now. Think of that match!
think of what it would mean to Moffatt! There are times when I regret the
club and cliff-dwelling age where women are concerned."

"Now, now, my dear friend, please remember my sex."

Helen ran from Richard to Ledyard. "We're all fagged, and the June night
is sultry. After all, girls, even women, should be allowed a mind of
their own! Take me home, Dick, I'm deeply offended." She smiled and held
out her hands.

"If they were all as sane as you, Helen," Ledyard's glance softened. "You
are exceptional."

"Every woman is an exceptional something, good friend, if only an
exceptional fool. I'm rather proud of Margaret Moffatt's determination to
have her way, and that idea of finding herself in some cranny of the old
world is simply beautiful. I wonder----"

"What, Helen?"

"I wonder if an old lady like me, a lady with hair turning frosty, might,
by any possibility, find _her_ real self left back there--oh! ages, ages
before--well, before things happened which she never understood?"

Ledyard's eyes grew moist, but he made no reply.

It was three days later that Priscilla Glenn received a note from
Margaret Moffatt, but she had already been prepared for it by Doctor
Ledyard and Mrs. Thomas.

"Since they think I need a nurse," the note ran, "will you call at eleven
to-morrow and see if you consider me sufficiently damaged to require your
care? From what father says, I am prepared to succumb to you at once.
Both father and I like strong oppositions!"

The June weather had turned chilly after the brief spell of heat, and
when Priscilla was ushered into Margaret Moffatt's private library she
found a bright cannel coal fire in the little grate, beside which sat a
tall, handsome girl in house gown of creamy white.

"And so you are--Miss Glynn?"

As a professional accepts a non de plume, Priscilla had accepted her
name.

"Yes. And you are--Miss Moffatt?"

"Please sit down--no, not way off there! Won't you take this chair beside
me? I'm rather an uncanny person, I warn you. If I do not like to have
you close to me now, we could never get on--across the water! What
belongs to me, and what I ought to have, is mine from the first. Besides,
I want you to know the worst of me--for your own sake. Would you mind
taking off your hat? You have the most cheerful hair I ever saw."

Priscilla laid her broad-brimmed hat aside and laughed lightly. She was
as uncanny as Margaret Moffatt, but she could not have described the
charm that drew her to the girl across the hearth.

"I'm rather a hopelessly cheerful person," she said, settling herself
comfortably; "it's probably my chief virtue--or shortcoming."

"You know I am not a bit sick--bodily, Miss Glynn. It's positively
ridiculous to have a nurse for me, but if I am to get my way with my
father I must humour him. A dear old family servant is going with me.
Father did want a private cook and guide, but we've compromised on--you!
I do hope you'll undertake the contract. I'm not half bad when I have my
way. Do you think, now that you have seen me for fifteen minutes, that
you could--tolerate me; take the chance?"

"I should be very glad to be with you." Priscilla beamed.

"Your eyes are--blue, I declare! Miss Glynn, by all the laws of nature
you should have eyes as dark as mine."

"Yes; an old nurse back in my Canadian home used to say I was made of the
odds and ends of all the children my mother had and lost."

"What a quaint idea! I believe she was right, too. That will make you
adaptable. Miss Glynn, let me tell you something, just enough to begin
on, about myself--as a case. I'm tired to death of everything that has
gone before; I do not fit in anywhere. I believe I'm quite a different
person from what every one else believes; I've never had a chance to
know myself; I've been interpreted by--by generations, traditions, and
those who love me. I want to get far enough away to--get acquainted with
myself, and then if I am what I hope I am, I will return like a happy
queen and triumphantly enter my kingdom. If I am not worthy--well, we
will not talk about that! Something, I may tell you some day, has
suddenly awakened me. I'm rather blinded and deafened. I must have time.
Can you bear with me?"

Margaret Moffatt leaned forward in her chair. Priscilla saw that her
large brown eyes were tear-filled; the strong, white, outstretched
hands trembling. A wave of sympathy, understanding, and great liking
overwhelmed Priscilla, and she rose suddenly and stood beside the girl.

"I--think I was meant--to help you," she said so simply that she could
not be misunderstood. "When do we--go?"

"Go? Oh! you mean on the hunt for myself?"

"Yes."

"Father has the refusal of staterooms on two steamers. Could you start
in--a week? Or shall we say three weeks?"

"It will not take me a day to get ready. My uniforms----"

"Please, Miss Glynn, leave them behind. I'm sure you're just a nice girl
besides being a splendid nurse. I want the nice girl with me."

"Very well. That may take two days longer."

"We'll sail, then, in a week. And will you--will you--will you accept
something in advance, since time is so short?"

"Something----?"

"Yes. Your--your salary, you know."

"Oh, you mean money? I had forgot. I shall be glad to have some. I am
very poor."

Again the simple, frank dignity touched Margaret Moffatt with pleasurable
liking.

"It's to be a hundred and fifty dollars a month and all expenses paid,
Miss Glynn."

"A hundred and fifty? Oh! I cannot----"

"Doctor Ledyard arranged it with my father. You see, they know what you
are to undergo. I rather incline to the belief that they consider they
are making quite a bargain. I hate to see you cover your hair. Somehow
you seem to be dimming the sunshine. Good-bye until----"

"Day after to-morrow."

"I will send a check to St. Albans to-night, Miss Glynn."

And she did. A check for two hundred dollars with a box of yellow
roses--Sunrise roses they were called.




CHAPTER XIX


There are times in life, especially when one is young, that high peaks
are the only landmarks in sight. Priscilla Glenn felt that henceforth her
Road was to be a highway constructed in such a fashion that airy bridges
would connect the lofty altitudes, and all below would exist merely as
views.

Her first thought, on the day following her interview with Margaret
Moffatt, was to get to John Boswell, and, as she laughingly put it, pay
off her debts!

Two hundred dollars and a full month's money from St. Albans! Gordon
Moffatt certainly could not feel richer than she. And then the months
ahead! Well--one could get dizzy on one's own heights. So Priscilla
calmed herself by a day of strenuous shopping and looked forward to the
evening with Boswell.

A dim drizzle set in late in the afternoon, and there was a chill in the
air that penetrated sharply. The mist transformed everything, and, to
tired, overexcited nerves, the real had a touch of the unreal. The park
glistened: the tender new green on tree, bush, and grass looked as if it
had just been polished, and the early flowers stood crisply on their
young stalks.

At the point where once she had met poor Jerry-Jo McAlpin, Priscilla
paused and was taken into control by memory and the long-ago Past. Quite
unaccountably, she longed to have her mother, even her father, know of
her wellbeing. Surely they would forgive everything if they knew just how
things had turned out for her! She almost wished she had decided to go
back to the In-Place before she started on her trip abroad. She could
have made them understand about her and poor Jerry-Jo. Was old Jerry
waiting and waiting? Something clutched Priscilla sharply. The loneliness
and silence of the Place Beyond the Winds enfolded her like a compelling
dream. How they could patiently wait, those home folks of hers! And how
dear they suddenly became, now that she was going into the new life that
promised her her Heart's Desire!

Then she decided: since she could not go to them she must write to Master
Farwell, he had never answered her last letter, and beg him to tell them
all about it. He would go, she felt sure, and, by some subtle magic, she
seemed to see him passing along the red-rock road, his long-caped coat
flapping in the soft wind, his hair blowing across his face, the dogs
following sociably. He'd go first to old Jerry's, and then afterward, an
hour, maybe, for it would be hard for Jerry McAlpin--he would go to
Lonely Farm by way of the wood path that led by the shrine in the open
place--was the skull still there with the long-dead grasses in its ears?
It would be night, perhaps, when the master reached the farm; maybe the
star would be shining over the hemlock----

At this point Priscilla paused and caught her breath sharply. She had
come out of the park by the gateway opposite Boswell's apartment, and
just ahead of her, across the street, was a thin, stooping figure with
caped coat flapping in the rising wind, and hair blowing across a bent
face.

"I--I am dreaming!" The words came brokenly. "I am bewitched!"

But with characteristic quickness of thought and action she put her doubt
to the test. Running across the space between her and that slow-stepping
figure she panted huskily:

"Master Farwell! Master Farwell!"

He turned and fixed his deep, haunting eyes upon her.

"It's Priscilla Glenn!" he whispered, as if to reassure himself; "little
Priscilla of the In-Place."

By some trick of over-stimulated imagination Priscilla tried to adjust
the gentle, kindly man she knew and loved to the strange creature into
which he had evolved since last she met him, but she could not! To her he
would always be the friend and helper, the understanding guide of her
stormy girlhood. The rest was but shadows that came and went, cast by
happenings with which she had nothing to do.

They were holding each other's hands under the window from which Boswell
was, perhaps, at that very moment watching and waiting.

"Oh! my Master Farwell!" The tears rolled from the glad eyes. "I did not
know how far and how sadly I had gone until this minute!"

"But you have not forgotten to be little Priscilla Glenn. My dear! My
dear! how glad and thankful I am to see you. You have grown--yes; you
have grown into the woman I knew you would. Your eyes are--faithful; your
lips still smile. Oh! Priscilla, the world has not"--he paused and his
old, quivering laugh rang out cautiously--"the world has not--doshed
you!"

And then Priscilla caught him by the arm.

"You have not seen--him?" she looked upward.

"No. I was getting up my courage. The bird just freed from its cage--is
timid."

"Come! A minute will not matter. I must know about my home people."

They walked on together. Then, because her heart was beating fast and the
tears lying near, she drew close to her deepest interest by a circuitous
way.

"Tell me of--of Mrs. McAdam and Jerry McAlpin?"

"Mrs. McAdam is famous and rich. The White Fish Lodge has a waiting list
every summer. The--the body of Sandy drifted into the Channel a month
after you left. Bounder found it. You remember how he used to know the
sound of Sandy's engine? The day the body was washed up he--seemed to
know. One grave is filled, and Mary McAdam has put a monument between the
two graves with the names of both boys. Jerry McAlpin has grown old
and--and respectable. He has a fancy that Jerry-Jo will come back a fine
gentleman. All these years he has been preparing for the prodigal. The
young devil has never sent a line to his father. A bad lot was Jerry-Jo."

And then Priscilla told her story with many a catch in her voice.

"You see--he did it for me, Master Farwell. He was not all bad. Who is,
I wonder? He lies in a quiet spot Mr. Boswell and I found far out in the
country. There's a hemlock nearby and a glimpse of water. I--I think I
will not let old Jerry know. While he waits, he is happy. While he is
getting ready, life will mean something to him. And oh! Master Farwell,
when--when Jerry-Jo went, he thought he was going through the Secret
Portage to the Big Bay. I believe he will--welcome his father in the open
some day. I will not send word back to the In-Place."

Farwell frowned.

"Boswell has touched you with his fanciful methods," he muttered; "is
it--for the best?"

"I am sure it is. And--my--my people, Master Farwell, my mother?"

At this Farwell started and stepped back. The light from an electric lamp
fell full on the girl's quivering, brilliant face. He had told Boswell of
the mother's death.

"You--you did not know?" he asked. "She died----"

"Died? Master Farwell, my mother dead!"

"You see--how it hurts when Boswell plays with you?"

A note of bitterness crept into the voice.

"When the day of reckoning comes--it hurts, it hurts like--hell!"

He had forgotten the girl, the white, frantic face.

"Tell me, tell me when she, my poor mother, died?"

The words brought him back sharply, and with wonderful tenderness he told
her.

"Long Jean was with her. She would have her and no other, because she
said Jean had helped you into the world and only she should help her out.
It is a beautiful story they tell in Kenmore of your mother's passing.
She thought she was going to you. She seemed quite happy once she found
the way!

"'I have found her!' she cried just at the last, 'and
she--understands!'"

"And I did, I did!" sobbed Priscilla.

A passerby noticed the sound and paused to look at the two sharply.

"Come, come," Farwell implored her; "we will arouse suspicion. Let us get
back to--to Boswell. I haven't much time, you see. I have promised Pine
to be back in ten days. Ten days!"

"You promised--Pine?"

"And you never knew?" Farwell gave an ugly laugh. "Well, I carried the
ball and chain without a whimper, I can say that for myself. Pine is my
ball and chain. Because he isn't all devil, because he knows I am not, he
went off to play on Wyland Island. You know they kill the devil there the
second week in June. Have you forgotten? Well, Pine has gone to take a
stab at satan, and I'm free--for ten days. Free!"

"And then?"

"And then I'm going back voluntarily, and--assume the ball and chain!"

"Master Farwell!"

"Do not pity me! It doesn't matter now. I only wanted to--settle with
Boswell. I've been in town--three days."

They were nearing the big apartment house; lights from the windows were
showing cheerily through the misty fog. A chill fear shook Priscilla as
she began to comprehend the meaning of Farwell's words. In her life
Boswell, and this man beside her, stood for friendship in its truest,
highest sense, and she felt that she must hold them together in spite of
everything. She stood still and gripped Farwell's arm.

"You--you shall not go to him," she whispered, "until you tell me--how
you are to pay him--for what he has done!"

Farwell's white, grim face confronted her.

"How does one pay another for lying to him, cheating him, and--and
playing with him as though he were an idiot or a child?"

"Why did he do it, Master Farwell, why did he do it?"

"Because----" But for very shame Farwell hesitated. "It makes no
difference," he muttered. "I'm no fool and Boswell shall find it out."

"He has told me--the story." Priscilla still stayed the straining figure.
"All his life he has given and given to you all that was in his power to
give. He is the noblest man I ever knew, the gentlest and kindest, and I
never knew a man could love another as he has loved you. What have you
given to him--really? The smiles and jokes of the days long ago that were
heavenly to him--what did they cost you? He gave, and gave his heart's
best; he lied and cheated you, that you might have--some sort of peace
in--in Kenmore. Oh! if you only knew how he has hated it all, how he has
struggled to keep up the play even when he was so weary that the soul of
him almost gave out! And now you come to--to pay him with hate and
revenge when you have the only thing he wants in all the world at your
command--to give him!"

The impassioned words fell into silence; the uplifted face with its
shining eyes, mist-wet and indignant, aroused Farwell at last.

"And that is?" he asked.

"Yourself! your faith! See, that is his light. He is waiting--for me,
because, since you sent me to him, he has been kind, heavenly kind to me,
for your sake! Everything is, has always been, for your sake. Go to him,
Master Farwell--go alone. I will come by and by; not now. Pay him for all
he has done for you--all these lonely years!"

Farwell no longer struggled. He took Priscilla's hands in a long, close
clasp.

"What a woman you have become, Priscilla Glenn! Thank you."

Without a word more they parted: Farwell to go to the reckoning;
Priscilla to walk in the mist for a bit longer.

All that occurred in Boswell's library Priscilla was never to know.

There had been a moment of shock when Boswell, raising his eyes to greet
Priscilla, saw Farwell Maxwell standing in the doorway.

"You have come!" Boswell gasped, with every sacred thing at stake.

"I--have come."

"For--what--Max?"

"To--to thank you, if I can. To--to tell you
my story."

       *       *       *       *       *

In the outer room Toky artistically held the dinner back. The honourable
master and his strange but equally honourable friend must not be
disturbed. Something was happening; but after a time Boswell laughed as
Toky had never heard him laugh; so it was well, and the dinner could bide
its time.

Then Priscilla came, wet and white-faced, but with the "shine-look" in
her eyes that Toky, despite his prejudices and profession, had noted and
respected.

"We will have the dinner now, Mees?" as if Toky ever considered her to
that extent!

"I will--see Mr. Boswell."

"He has--honourable friend."

"My friend, Toky. The honourable friend is mine, also! And, oh! the
flowers, Toky! There are no roses like the June roses. How wonderfully
you have arranged them! A rose should never be crowded."

Toky grinned helplessly.

"Tree hours I take to make--look beautifully. One hour for each--rosy.
That why it look beautifully."

"Yes, that is why it looks--beautifully. Three hours and--you, Toky!"

Boswell and Farwell were sitting in front of the grate, upon which the
wood lay ready to light. Their faces were pale and haggard, but their
eyes turned to Priscilla without shame or doubt.

"There is much--to talk about," said Boswell with his ready friendliness;
"Max--your Farwell and mine--has told me----"

"After dinner, dear friends. I am hungry, bitterly hungry and--cold!"

"Cold?"

"Yes; see, I am going to set the wood to burning. By the time we come
back the room will be ready for us."

"To be sure!" Boswell sidled from his deep chair, the pinched look on his
face relaxing.

"A fire, to be sure. Now, Max, no one but a woman would have thought of a
fire in June."

"No one but Priscilla!" Farwell added.

They talked before the fire until late that evening. Priscilla's plans
were discussed and considered. So full was she of excitement and joy that
she did not notice the shock of surprise that Farwell showed when the
names of Ledyard and Travers passed her lips. Seeing that she either did
not connect the men with her past, or had reasons for not referring to
it, Farwell held his peace. It was long afterward that he confided his
knowledge to Boswell, and that wise friend bade him keep his secret.

"It's her life, and she's treading her Road," he said; "she has an odd
fancy that her Heart's Desire lies just ahead. I cannot see that either
you or I have the right to awaken her to realities while she lives so
magically in her dreams."

After Priscilla's own plans were gone over and over again, Boswell said
quietly:

"I'm going back to that blessed In-Place of yours, Butterfly. You
remember how I told you, the first day I met you, that I could not
understand any one choosing the dangerous Garden when he might have--the
Place Beyond the Winds?"

Priscilla leaned forward, her breath coming sharply.

"You mean--you are going to--to live in Kenmore?"

"Yes! _Live!_ That is a bright way of putting it. Live! live! The Beetle
is--going to live!"

Priscilla looked about at the rich comfort of the room, thought of what
it meant to the delicate cripple crouching toward the blaze, his deep
eyes flame-touched and wonderful. Then she looked at Master Farwell,
whose lips were trembling.

"He--he calls that--living!" he said slowly. "Tell him, Priscilla, of the
bareness and hardness of the life. I have tried to, but he will not
listen."

The tears, the ready, easy tears filled Priscilla's eyes, and her heart
throbbed until it hurt.

"He will love the hemlocks and the deep red rocks," she said, as if
speaking to herself; "he will love the Channel and the little islands, he
will love the woods--and the wind does not blow hard there--he will be
glad of that."

"But the ugly, wretched bareness of my hut, Priscilla! For heaven's sake,
make him see that!"

"But the--fireplace, Master Farwell!"

"And--the friend beside it!" Boswell broke in; "and no more loneliness. A
beetle that has crawled in the Garden so long will thank God for a real
place--of its own. 'Tis but a change of scene for the Property Man."

"I love the Garden!" murmured Priscilla, sitting between the two men,
her clasped hands outstretched toward the fire, which was smouldering
ruddily.

"That is because you have wings, Butterfly," Boswell whispered.

"And no fetter on your soul," Farwell said so softly that only Boswell
heard.

"I see," Priscilla childishly wandered on, "such a lovely trail leading,
leading--where?"

"Where, indeed?" Boswell was watching her curiously.

"That is the beauty of it! I cannot see beyond the next step. All my life
I have tried to keep my yearnings within bounds; now I--just follow. It's
very, very wonderful. Some day I am going back to the In-Place. I shall
find you both sitting by Master Farwell's beautiful fire, I am sure. It
will be the still morning time, I think, and you will be so glad to see
me, and I shall tell you--all about it!"

"Heaven keep you!"

Boswell's voice was solemn and deep.

"Life will keep her safe," Farwell said with a laugh. "Life will take no
liberties with her. She got her bearings, Jack, before the winds knocked
her. Let us both walk home with her. What sort of a night is it?"

Priscilla went to the window.

"It's rather black," she returned; "as black as the big city ever is. The
mist is clearing; it's a beautiful night."




CHAPTER XX


"Of course," Priscilla leaned back in her deep-cushioned chair and
laughed from sheer delight, "I was a better girl in my former life
than I ever had any idea of, or I wouldn't have been given this----"

She and Margaret Moffatt were sitting on the piazza of a little Swiss
inn. Below them lay a tiny lake as blue and as clear as a rare gem; round
about them towered snowy peaks, protectingly. All that was past--was
past! There did not seem to be any future; the present was sufficient.

"I think you must have been rather a good child, back there," Margaret
Moffatt said, looking steadfastly at the girl near her; "and, anyway, you
ought to have a rich reward for your hair if for no other reason."

"A recompense, you mean?"

"Heavens! no! I was thinking, as I often do when I see the lights in your
hair, that for making people so cheerful and contented nothing is too
good for you. I'm extremely fond of you, Priscilla Glynn! It's only when
you put on your cap and apron manner that I recall--unpleasant things.
Just tuck them out of sight and let us forget everything but--this!
Isn't it divine?"

"It's--yes, it is divine, Miss Moffatt."

"Now then! Along with the cap and apron, please pack away Miss Moffatt
and Miss Glynn. Let us be Priscilla and Margaret. This is a whim of mine,
but I have a fancy for knowing what kind of _girls_ we are. No one can
tamper with us here. Dear old Mousey never gets above a dead level, or
below it. Practically we are alone and detached. Let us play--girls!
Nice, chummy girls. Do you know, I never had a friend in my life who
wasn't labelled and scheduled? I was sent to school where just such and
such girls were sent--girls proper for me to know. Often they were not,
but that was not considered so long as they wore their labels. It wasn't
deemed necessary for me, or my kind, to go to college: our lines of
action were chosen for us. Certain labelled men were presented; always
labels, labels! Even when I was running about with my label on I used to
have mad moments of longing to snatch all the hideous things off--my own
as well as others--and find out the truth! And here we are, you and I! I
do not want to know anything about you; I want to find out for myself, in
my own way. I want you to forget that I ever wore a tag. Did you ever
have a girl chum?"

"I think I know, now," Priscilla said quietly, "why this particular
little heaven was given to me. I never, in all my life, had a girl
friend. Think of that! I did not realize what I was missing until I--came
into your life. Actually, I never had a girl or woman friend in the sense
you mean. I was a lonely, weird little child; and then I--I came to the
training school; and the girls there did not like me--I was still
weird----"

"Now, Priscilla, I do not want to know anything more about you! I intend
to find you out for myself. Come, there's a boat down there, big enough
for you and me. Do you row?"

"Yes, and paddle."

"You lived near the water! Ha! ha!"

"And you do--not row, Margaret?"

"No."

"Then you have never lived at all. You must learn to use oars and a
paddle. It's when you have your own hand on the power that makes you
go--that you live."

Margaret Moffatt turned and looked at Priscilla.

"You say, haphazard, the most Orphic things. There are times when I can
imagine you before some shrine making an offering and chanting all sorts
of uncanny rites. Of course it is when one has her hand on her own
tiller, and is heading for what she wants, that she begins to--live. I
declare, I haven't felt so young in--twenty years! I'm twenty-five,
Priscilla. My father considers me on the danger-line. Poor daddy!"

"I'm----"

"I do not want to know your age, Priscilla. Mythological characters are
ageless."

Those were the days when Priscilla Glenn and Margaret Moffatt found their
youth. Safeguarded by the faithful old housekeeper, who, happily, could
understand and sympathize, they played the hours away like children.

"We'll travel by and by," promised Margaret. "It's rather selfish for me
to hold you here when all the world would be fresh to you."

"I take root easily," Priscilla returned, "and I'm like a plant we have
in my old home. My roots spread, and time is needed to strengthen them;
suddenly I shoot up and--flower. The little Canadian blossom doesn't seem
to justify the strong, spreading roots. I hope you will not find me
disappointing, Margaret."

Margaret Moffatt smiled happily.

"Just to think," she said, "that my real self and your real self
were waiting for us here behind the white hills! All along, through
generations and generations, they have been acquainted and have loved and
trusted each other, and then we, the unreal selves, came! Sometimes I
wonder"--Margaret looked dreamy--"what they think of us, just between
themselves? I am sure your true self must be prouder of you than mine can
be of me, for, with everything at my command, what am I? While you--oh,
Priscilla, how you have made everything tell!"

But Priscilla shook her head.

"Still," Margaret went on, "things were not at my command. They were all
there, but pigeon-holed and controlled. Such and such things were for
nice little girls like me! After a time I got to believe that, and it was
only when, one day, I touched something not intended for me that my soul
woke up. Priscilla, did you ever feel your soul?"

"Yes."

"Isn't it wonderful? It makes you see clearly your--your----"

"Ideal?" suggested Priscilla.

"Yes; the thing you want to be; the thing that seems best to _you_
without the interpretation of others. It stands unclouded and holy; and
nothing else matters."

"And you never forget--never!"

"No. Your eyes may be blinded for a moment, but you do not forget--ever!"

They were out on the gemlike lake now, and Priscilla was sternly
instructing Margaret how to handle an oar.

"It will never go the way you want it to," Margaret protested, making an
ineffectual dab at the water.

"When it does you will know the bliss! Get a little below the surface,
and have faith in yourself."

And that was the day that Priscilla caught a new light on Margaret's
character. They landed at a tiny village across the lake and wandered
about, Margaret talking easily to the people in their own tongue,
Priscilla straining to follow by watching faces and gestures. While they
stood so, discussing the price of some corals, a little child came close
to them and slipped a deliciously dimpled, but very dirty little hand in
Margaret's. At the touch the girl started, turned first crimson and then
pale, and looked down. Suddenly her eyes deepened and glowed.

"The darling!" she whispered, and bent to catch what the child was
saying. Presently she looked up, tears dimming her eyes, and said to
Priscilla, "She says a new baby came to their house last night. She
wanted to tell--me!"

"And ten already have been there," broke in a brown-faced native woman.

"But she is glad, and she wanted _me_ to know! Come, my sweet, tell me
more about the baby, and then we will go and see it."

They sat down under a clump of trees, and the dirty little maid nestled
close to Margaret, while with uplifted head and unabashed confidence she
told of the mystery.

Priscilla watched Margaret Moffatt's face. She was almost awed by the
change that had come over it. The aloofness and pride which often marked
it had disappeared as if by magic; the tenderness, passionate in its
intentness, cast upon the little child, moved her to wonder and
admiration. Later they went to the poor hovel and bent beside the humble
bed on which the mother and child lay. Then it was that Priscilla played
her part and made comfortable and grateful the overburdened creature,
worn and weak from suffering.

"'Twas the good God who sent you," murmured she.

"'Twas your little maid," smiled Margaret, tucking a roll of bills under
the hard, lumpy pillow. "Take time to love the babies--leave other
things--but love them and enjoy them."

"Yes, my lady."

On the way back in the boat Margaret was very silent for a time as she
watched Priscilla row; finally she said:

"Did it surprise you--my show of feeling for the--the child?"

"It was very beautiful. I did not know you cared so much for children,
and this one was so--dirty."

"But so real! You see I have never had real children in my life. The
kinds passed out to nice girls like me were sad travesties. Since I saw
the darling of to-day I've been wondering--do not laugh, Priscilla--but
I've been wondering what poor, cheated little morsel of humanity, in the
unreal world, would find herself in that eleventh miracle of the wretched
hovel? And what an art yours is, dear Priscilla! How you soothed away the
suffering by your touch. I loved you better as I realized how that
training of yours knows neither high nor low when it seeks to heal."

Priscilla thought of the operation on Margaret Moffatt's father, and her
quick colour rose.

"And I loved you better when I saw how your humanity knows neither high
nor low--just love!"

"Only toward little children. I cannot explain it, but when I touch the
babies, their littleness and helplessness make me weak and trembling
before--well, before the strength comes in a mighty wave. There is a
physical sensation, a thrill, that comes with the first contact, and when
they trust me, as that darling did this morning, I feel as if--God had
singled me out! Only lately have I begun to understand what this means
in me. It is one reason why I came away. I had to think it out. I
suppose"--she paused and looked steadily at Priscilla--"I suppose the
maternal has always been a master passion in me, and I've rebelled at
being an only child; at having no children but the--specialized kind.
I have been hungry for so many things I am realizing now."

"In my training I have seen--what you mean. All sorts drift in--to pay
the price of love or the penalty of passion, as Doctor Ledyard used to
express it; but"--and Priscilla's eyes grew darker--"I used to find--a
nurse gets so much closer, you know, than a doctor can--I found that
sometimes it was the penalty of love and the price of passion. Those
sad young creatures, with only blind instinct to uphold them, were
so--divinely human, and paid so superbly. When it comes to the hour of
a life for a life, one thing alone matters, I am afraid, and it is the
thing _you_ mean, Margaret."

"Yes. And what a horrible puzzle it all is. The thing I mean should be
always there--always. The world's wrong when it is not."

Suddenly Priscilla, sending the light boat forward by the impulse of her
last stroke, said, as if it were quite in line with all that had gone
before:

"There's Doctor Travers on the wharf!"

He heard her, and called back:

"Quite unintentionally, I assure you. I was waiting for the boat to take
me across. I've been wandering about, sleeping where I could. I simply
find myself--here!"

At this both girls laughed merrily.

"This is the place of Found Personalities," Margaret Moffatt said,
jumping lightly to the wharf. "Perhaps you'll come to the inn and have
luncheon with us--that is, if you are sure Doctor Ledyard did not send
you here to spy on me."

"I haven't seen him since I left America. My mother is with me; she's in
a crack of the hills in Italy. She wanted to be alone. Doctor Ledyard
will join us later."

"Then come to the house. They serve meals on a dangerously poised balcony
over the lake; we curb our appetites for fear our weight may be the one
thing the structure cannot stand. Our old housekeeper waits upon us, but
is in no wise responsible for the food which is often very bad and
lacking in nourishment."

"You seem to thrive on it." Travers looked at the two before him. "I
wonder just what it is this air and place have done to you?"

"Tell him, Priscilla."

"Oh, like you, Doctor Travers, we simply found ourselves--here! That's
all."

Travers did not leave the inn that night, nor for many days thereafter.

"Doctor Ledyard will join my mother and me early in August," he
explained; "until then I'm a floating proposition. I wish you'd let me
stay on a while, Miss Moffatt, right here. I want to analyze the food, it
puzzles me. Why just this kind of conglomeration should achieve such
results is interesting. I've gained five pounds in six days."

"And lost ten years," Margaret broke in. "I never thought of you as
young, Doctor Travers; professional men never do seem youthful; but
_here_ you're rather a good sort."

And Travers remained, much to the delight of the old housekeeper, who,
with a nurse and a doctor in command, cast all responsibility aside.

"Young Miss looks well," she confided to the proprietor's wife, who,
fortunately, could understand a word or so of English; "but folks is like
weather: the fairer they seem, the nearer a storm. When a day or a person
looks uncommonly fair--a weather breeder, says I, and generally, nine
times out of ten, I'm right. My young lady is too changed to be
comfortable. It's either a breaking up, or----" But here a shout for
"Mousey," silenced further prophecy.

The days ran along without cloud or shadow. Quite naturally, perhaps,
Priscilla began to think that a drama of life was being enacted in the
quiet, detached village. They three were always together, always enjoying
the same things, but certainly no man, so she thought, could be with
Margaret Moffatt long without falling at her feet. Gradually to Priscilla
Glenn this girl stood for all that was fine and perfect. In her she saw
all women as women should be. With the adoration she was so ready to give
to that which appealed to her, Priscilla lavished the wealth of her
affection upon Margaret Moffatt. Surely it was because of Margaret that
Doctor Travers stayed on, and became the life of the party. To be sure he
was tact itself in making Priscilla feel at ease; but that only confirmed
her in her belief that he wanted to please Margaret to the uttermost.
Often Priscilla recalled, with keener appreciation, John Boswell's
description of Anton Farwell's conception of friendship. In like manner
Margaret Moffatt claimed for her companion all that justly belonged to
herself. Dispassionately, vicariously, Priscilla learned to know and
admire the man who undoubtedly in time would win her one friend. It was
all beautiful and natural, and in the lovely detachment it grew and grew.
The long walks and drives, the rows upon the lake by sunlight and
moonlight, all conspired to perfect the comradeship. They read together,
sang together--very poorly to be sure--and once, just to vary the charm,
they travelled to a nearby town and danced at a village fête. An odd
thing happened there. Owing to high spirits and a sense of
unconventionality, they entered into the sports with abandon. Travers
even begged a reel with a pretty Swiss maiden, and led her proudly away,
much to Margaret's and Priscilla's delight. Later, the men and women of
the place came forward, and, entering a little ring formed by admiring
friends, performed, separately, the native dances.

Travers watched Priscilla with a puzzled look in his eyes. She trembled
with excitement; seemed hypnotized by the exhibition, much of which was
delightfully graceful and picturesque. Then, suddenly, to the surprise of
every one, she took advantage of a moment's pause and ran into the ring.

"Whatever possesses her?" whispered Margaret to Travers; "she looks
bewitched. See! she is--dancing!"

Travers watched the tall, slim figure in the thin white gown over
which a light scarf, of transparent crimson, floated as the evening
breeze and the girl's motions freed it. At first Priscilla took her steps
falteringly, her head bent as if trying to recall the measure and rhythm;
then with more confidence she swung into the lovely pose and action. With
uplifted eyes and smiling lips, seeming to see something hidden from
others, she bent and glided, curtesied and tripped, this way and that.

The lookers-on were wild with delight. The beauty of the thing itself,
the willingness of the foreigners to join in the sport, aroused the
temperamental enthusiasm, and the clapping and cheering filled the hall
with noise. Suddenly the musicians dropped their instruments. They were
but human, and, since they could not keep in time with this new and
amazing dance, they drew near to admire.

"Play!" pleaded Priscilla, past heeding the sensation she was creating.
"The best is yet to come!"

Carried out of himself, entering now wholly into the adventure, Travers
caught up a violin near him and sent the bow over the strings with a
master touch. He hardly knew what he played; he was himself, carried away
on a wave of enchantment.

"Ah!"

The word escaped Priscilla like a cry of glad response.

"Now!"

They two, the musician and the dancer, seemed alone in the open space.
The flashing eyes, the cheering voices, the clapping hands, even Margaret
Moffatt, pale, puzzled, yet charmed, were obliterated. It was spring time
in the Place Beyond the Winds, and the dance of adoration was in full
swing, while the old tune, never out of time with the graceful, whirling
form, played on and on. And then--the ring melted away, the lights grew
dim, and Priscilla stood still.

"I'm--I'm tired," faltered she. A hand was laid upon her arm, some one
guided her out of the heated, breathless room; they were alone, she and
he, under wide-spreading trees, and a particularly lovely star was
pulsing overhead.

"You are crying!" Travers's voice was low and tense. "Why?"

"It--it was the music! It was like something I had heard, and--and I was
so tired. I was very foolish. Can you, can Margaret, forgive me?"

"Forgive you? Why, you were--I dare not tell you what you were! Here, sit
down. Do not tremble so! Tell me, where did you learn to dance as you
do?"

Priscilla had dropped upon the rough rustic seat; she did not seem to
notice the hand that rested upon her clasped ones under the thin scarf.
She no longer cried, but the tears shone on her long lashes.

"I--I never learned. It--it is I, myself. I thought I had grown into
something else, but--I shall always be the same--when I let myself go."

"Let yourself go? Good heavens! Why not let yourself go--forever?"
Travers's voice shook. "You have brought joy and youth to us all--to me,
who never had youth. What--who are you?" he laughed boyishly. She sat
rigidly erect and turned her sad eyes upon him.

"I'm Priscilla Glynn--a nurse! And you? Oh! you are Doctor Travers! Can
you not see my beautiful, happy, happy life is ended--must end? Margaret,
you, everything this joyous summer has made me--forget. Soon I am going
back--where there is no dancing!"

"And--cease to be yourself?"

"Yes. But I shall always remember. Not many have had the wonderful
glimpse I have had--not many."

"I--I will not let you go back! You belong in the light; in love and the
giving of love. You have given me a glimpse of myself--as I should be. I
have stayed in this magic place without a past and a future--for your
sake! I see it now. I love----"

"Oh! please, please stop. We are both mad, and when to-morrow comes and
the day after, and the day after that, we will both be sorry, and, oh! I
want all my life to--to--be glad because of this night."

"You shall--remember it--all your life as--your happiest night, if I can
make it so!"

His face was bent close to hers. For the first time Travers was
overpowered by the charm of woman, and all the pent passion and love of
his life broke bonds like a wild, primeval thing that education and
conventions had never touched.

"I--I want you! I want you without knowing any more than if you and I had
been born anew in this wonderful life. Look at me! You believe I can
offer you--the one perfect gift a man should offer a woman?"

She looked long and tenderly in his eyes. She was--going to leave him;
she could afford the truth. She was brave now.

"Yes," she whispered.

"And I know you to be--what I want. Isn't that enough? Can we not trust
each--for the rest?"

"Yes, if the white hills could shut us forever from the other things."

"Other things?"

"Yes, the things of to-morrow. Duty, the demands that lie--over the
Alps."

"I--renounce them all!"

"But they will not renounce us!"

Travers felt her slipping from him. A man whose youth has been denied, as
his had, is a puppet in Fate's hands when youth makes its claims.

"I--mean to have you! Do you hear me? I mean to have you."

And just then Margaret Moffatt drew near. Calmly, smilingly, she came
like one playing her part in a perfectly arranged drama.

"You are here? Ready for home? Wasn't it sublime and exactly as it should
be? We are so nice and friendly with our real selves."

There was no surprise; no suggestion of disapproval. The world in which
they were all playing could have only direct and simple processes. But,
having lived in a past world where her perceptions had been made keen and
vital, Margaret Moffatt understood what she saw. She had noticed every
letting down and abandonment of Travers since he had joined them. She was
too wise not to know the effect of such a woman as Priscilla upon such a
man; such a denied and almost puritanical man as Travers. She knew his
story from her father. An artistic triumph was hers that night. The
splendid elements of primitive justice had been set in motion, and almost
gleefully she wondered what they would do with Richard Travers and
Priscilla Glynn.

For herself? Well, she had put herself to the test and had come out
clear-visioned and glad to a point of dangerous excitement. Only two or
three mighty things mattered, if one were to gain in the marvellous game.
She meant to hold to them and let the rest go!

But Travers had not passed through Ledyard's school and come out
untouched. After leaving Priscilla, silent and white, he had gone to his
room and flung himself down upon a low couch by the window. Then his old
self took him in hand while he stubbornly resisted every attack that
reason, as trained by Ledyard, made upon him.

"Think of--your mother! What has she not done and suffered that you might
stand before the world--a free man? And your profession; your future!
They are all your mother holds to for her peace and joy. And I? Well, I
do not claim anything for myself; but you know the game as well as I. If
you toss to the winds all that has been gained for you, professionally
and socially, you are done for! Your renunciation and restraint, what
have they amounted to, unless you accept them as stepping-stones and
go--on?"

And then Travers clenched his hands and had his say.

In that moment his own mother rose clear and radiant beside him and made
her appeal. She pleaded for justice, but she showed mercy. He must not
forget or forego anything that had been gained for him; but he was her
child, the child of her love--unasking, unfettered love--and the passion
that was throbbing in him was pure and instinctive; he must not deny it
or the rest would be shucks! Non-essentials must not hamper him. Alone,
unsought, a strange and compelling force had made him captive. All that
others, and himself, had achieved for him must make holy this simple but
all-powerful desire.

Then she faded, that poor, little, half-forgotten mother! But she left,
like the fragrance of rare flowers that had been taken from the dim,
moon-lighted room, a memory of happiness and sweetness and content.




CHAPTER XXI


By all the deductions of experience the three people in the little inn
should have, in the light of the morning after, been reduced to common
sense; but the day laughed common sense to scorn and fanned the fires of
the previous evening to bright flame.

"I must write a letter," announced Margaret after breakfast, "a letter so
momentous that it will take me--an hour and a half! But my plans and
yours are all laid. Now, Priscilla, none of your cap and apron look.
You'll do exactly what I tell you to do; and you, too, Doctor Travers."

"I haven't the slightest intention of disobeying. And as for my cap and
apron, I've burned them!" Priscilla tossed her head.

Travers looked at her, and her loveliness seemed enhanced in her trim
white linen gown with its broad collar of Irish lace. How magnificent her
throat was! What a perfect woman she was! And _what_ hair!

"There is a train that leaves here at nine-thirty, a mad little
ramshackle train that goes to The Ghost and back in an hour and a half.
We've all yearned to climb The Ghost, or as much of it as we dared. Now
you two, with Mousey and a servant, are to go on the nine-thirty. I'll
finish my destruction of the social system and catch the eleven o'clock
train. We'll have picnic lunch. They say there's a dreadful cavern at the
base of The Ghost that is corking for picnics, and then we'll explore
until we have to return. Any objections?"

There were none.

"Very well! It's nine now! Priscilla, wear the roughest, heaviest things
you've got. You always have your hours of remorse too late. The Ghost
will chill your blood."

When the little party reached the small station at the mountain foot the
servants started at once to the cavern to build a fire and prepare for
the luncheon.

"Let us walk a bit up the trail," suggested Travers. "I always feel
like the Englishman who said the views halfway up a mountain are more
enjoyable than those on top. At least, you have life enough left to enjoy
them. This particular trail is a mighty wicked one. There ought to be
guides, for safety. I know the way perfectly; my mother and I once stayed
here some years ago. She meant to come here this summer early, but has
decided to wait until Doctor Ledyard joins us. I feel as if I were taking
the cream off the thing. Will you trust me--Priscilla?"

There was challenge and command in the use of her name.

"Absolutely."

"Come, then! I want you to go first. The rise is easy for a half-mile or
so. I can better watch out for you and catch you--if you make a misstep.
The stones are loose and mischievous; the path is ridiculously near the
edge of things. If one should--now do not get nervous, but if you should
go over, just clutch the bushes, the sturdy little clumps, and nothing
can really happen."

"I never get nervous in high places. Being used to dead levels, I have
the courage of the ignorant. Doesn't the air make one----"

"Heady?"

"Yes. I suppose that is it. Heady and--light-hearted."

Travers had his eyes fixed on the form ahead in its dark blue mountain
skirt and corduroy waist.

"I wish you would take off your hat," he said.

Priscilla obeyed.

"Thank you! Will you let me--love you?"

He noticed a tremor run the length of her body.

"Is--that in my giving?" Priscilla meant to play just a little longer,
only a little, and then she must make him see that because this sudden
and great thing had come to them both, they must prove themselves worthy
of it by unselfish recognition of deep truths.

"No. But I would like to have you say--yes! I meant all I said last
evening; you said nothing. I mean to have you, because I love you;
because I know you love me, and because nothing else matters. It's only
fair to warn you. You _do_ love me?"

"Is it love--when everything else is swept aside?"

"Yes."

"All but the longing--for the best?"

"Yes. That is love."

"Then, I love you."

"On ahead there is a tiny bluff, do not speak again until we reach it. A
strange and wonderful thing came to me there once--years ago. I want to
tell you about it, my beloved!"

Travers watched her as he spoke. Again that tremor ran through Priscilla.

It was nearly noon when they stopped, at Travers's word. They had come,
silently, up the trail, only their footsteps and their quicker breathing
breaking the awesome stillness. Their separate thoughts were bringing
them dangerously nearer together, trampling caution, warning, and purpose
beneath their young yearning for the vital meaning of life. When they
faced each other at last it was as if they had indeed been transfigured.

"Mine!" whispered Travers, stretching out his hands. "You are mine! Do
not struggle."

Priscilla put her hands in his, but did not speak.

"And now let us sit here. I want you to understand. You will try to
understand?"

"Yes."

All her life Priscilla was to look back on that moment as the first
perfect one of her life. She felt no shame in taking it. It belonged to
her, and she meant to prove herself to him.

"I feel as if there were a new heaven and a new earth, Priscilla, and
that you and I had just been created--the first man, the first woman.
Dear heart, rest your head, so, against my knee." He was sitting above
her. "Your hair holds all the glory of the sunlight, and how white and
warm your throat is!" His fingers touched it reverently. "Let us cling
to this one hour that has given us to each other. Are you happy?"

"It means--something more than that--this moment----" Priscilla spoke as
if held by a dream.

"You are--content?"

"Yes. That is it. I am--content. I shall never ask for anything more,
anything better. I have everything--the world and--and God, has to give."

"My darling! Now let me tell you. Years ago I came here after a hard
struggle for health. I had never had childhood or boyhood, in the real
sense; but I was well at last! I saw that I was going to have a man's
life, with all that that means, and for months the emotions and cravings,
that generally go to the years of making a child and boy, had been
crowding and pushing me to a sense of having been defrauded, and I meant
to have my turn at last: my joy and pleasure. It seemed just and right to
me that I should taste and revel in all that I had been deprived of. I
had even been deprived of the longing, had not even had the glory of
conquest. I had been such a meaningless creature, I thought I could
afford even to be selfish. I shrank from being _different_--I had been
forced to in the past--but I meant to make up for lost time and take my
place among my fellows.

"One morning, just such a morning as this, I found myself alone--here!
Then I had it out with myself. More distinctly than anything had ever
come to me before I realized that life meant one thing, and one thing
only: the biggest fight or the meanest defeat! I knew that every passion
that burned and flayed me was a warhorse that, if controlled, would carry
me safely through the battle; if succumbed to, would trample me under its
relentless feet. This I knew with my brain, while tradition, inclination,
and longing called me--fool! Well, I was given strength to follow my
head; but every year has been a struggle. I found that to be different
meant contempt often, misunderstanding always. Sometimes it has not
seemed worth while; the victories were so lonely and useless; but I
thanked God last night, when I saw your face as you danced, that I could
offer you a love that need not make the pitiful plea for mercy from your
love. Through temptation and the long fight it has always seemed to me
that no man should ask for pure love without the equivalent to offer in
return.

"Can you understand when I say that this battle of mine has brought me
closer to men and women, with no bitterness in my heart; has left me
free, not to despise them, but to help them?"

"Yes, oh, yes; all my life I could understand those who--fight. I, too,
have fought and fought."

Travers's hand was pressing upward the head against his knee so that he
could look in the uplifted eyes.

"My love! as free man and woman, let us give ourselves to each other!"

Then he bent and kissed the smiling mouth.

"Speak to me, my--wife."

"Yes! But let me think, dear heart. I must speak; the half has only been
told." She moved a bit away from him. Travers let her go with no fear.

"Now, strange little thing, since you cannot speak in my arms, have your
will!" he whispered.

"There is a to-morrow." The even voice had no strain of pain or sorrow in
it. "And we must not forget that. We have played and played until we have
made ourselves believe--such wonderful things; but to-morrow--we will
wake up and be what we have been made! I have heard, oh! so many people,
tell of your future, your honours. I have seen Doctor Ledyard's eyes upon
you; I know you have a mother who adores you. I do not know your world; I
could not touch your place but to mar it, and, because I love you so--oh!
so absolutely, and because I would want, and must have, glory in my own
love--we must stop playing! We have not"--and now the eyes dimmed--"we
have not played for keeps!"

"You poor, little girl! How you use the old, foolish arguments, thinking
yourself--wise. Do you imagine I could let you dim the sacred thing that
has come to us--by such idle prating? There are only you and I and--the
future. You darling child, come here!"

In reaching toward her, Travers's foot pressed too heavily against the
stone upon which she sat; it moved, slipped, and Priscilla escaped his
clutch. Not realizing her danger, she smiled up at him radiantly. She
meant what she had said, but youth could not relinquish its rights
without a struggle, and his eyes were so heavenly kind.

"My God! Clutch the bushes, Priscilla!"

"What--is the matter?" But with the question came the knowledge. She was
going down, down, and every effort he made to save her sent her farther
along the awful slope! She held to a nearby bush but uprooted it by the
force with which she gripped it. Faster, faster, with that terrified face
above her!

"My precious one! Try again! Do not be afraid!"

"No."

And then they both heard the hoarse whistle of the little shuttle train
nearing The Ghost, with Margaret Moffatt on board!

Travers realized the new danger. Very steep was the grade of the
mountain, and it ended on--the tracks!

He shut his eyes; he could do no more. Every move he made imperilled the
woman he would give his life to save. The only comfort he knew was that
he, too, was losing, losing. They would be together at the last.

Priscilla understood also. She looked up and saw him close his eyes; then
fear fled, as it does when the last hope takes it. It would soon be over
for them, and--nothing in all the world could separate them. There was
nothing but him and her! He had seen that; but now she saw it, too. Him
and her! him and her!

"I--love you so!" she whispered. "I am not afraid. I'm sorry. I would
have given myself to you! I would indeed!"

She wanted him to know. He opened his eyes and smiled a twisted, hideous
smile.

"I--meant--to have you." The words came to her faintly. A nearer shriek
of the whistle, and a deafening clang of the bell! Some one at the
throttle of the engine had an inspiration and sent the crazy thing
shooting ahead.

Then it was past, and upon the tracks over which the car had but just
gone lay Priscilla Glenn quite unconscious!

Travers came to himself at once, and took her head on his knee where but
a short time ago it had lain so happily.

"You, Priscilla!" It was Margaret Moffatt who spoke. The train had
stopped; the few passengers had come back to see what had happened.

"Yes; my God! Yes! Miss Moffatt, will you see if she is dead? I dare not
trust--myself."

       *       *       *       *       *

It was late that night, in Priscilla's room at the inn, that she and
Margaret had their talk.

Priscilla lay upon her bed weak and bruised, but otherwise safe. Margaret
sat beside her, her hand in Priscilla's.

"Doctor Travers has pulled himself together at last," she said. "I never
saw a strong man so shattered. And you, dear, you are sure you have told
me the truth--you are not suffering?"

"No, only a little dazed. That's natural after looking death in the face
for hours and hours while everything slipped away from you--things you
had always thought meant something."

"Yes, poor girl!"

"And they--meant nothing. They never do."

"No. You found that at death's door; I found it at life's. I want to tell
you something, dear, that will make you forget yourself--and think of me.
You are sure you cannot sleep?"

"I do not want to sleep."

"Priscilla, I have given myself to love! You can understand. Travers has
just told me--about him and you!"

A faint colour touched the face on the pillow.

"It was the telling that brought him around. He's superb, and you're a
daffy little goose, Cilla. Imagine a man like Travers letting a girl like
you slip through his fingers."

"He did!" weakly interrupted Priscilla.

"But he followed you right down, and into--hell!"

"Into life and joy, you mean, Margaret--life!"

"Well, at any rate, he was with you. It is magnificent to see a man,
or a woman, big enough, brave enough, and sensible enough to sweep the
senseless rubbish of life aside, and get each other! Oh! it's life as God
meant it. Priscilla, the letter I wrote to-day was to--_my_ man. He's as
splendid as yours. I told you once how I--I loved children. I had taken
that love for granted until something happened. A friend of mine
married--one of the girls my people thought was the kind for me to know.
She didn't understand life any more than I did; she just took one of the
men who wore the same label she did. Her child came--a year after; a
horrible little creature--diseased; dreadful--can you understand?"

"Yes"--Priscilla had turned toward the girl by her side--"yes, I know
what you mean. I have been a nurse."

"That was the first time things we should have known--were known by my
friend and me!" Margaret's voice was low and hard.

"She--she cursed him, her husband--and left him! It was terrible! I was
frightened, more frightened than I had ever been. Everything seemed
tottering around me. I thought--I must die; I dared trust nothing. Just
then--some one told me--he loved me; and I--I had loved him. But I was
more afraid of him than of any one in God's world. I thought I was going
mad, and then--I went to Doctor Ledyard and told him all about it. I just
threw my whole burden of doubt and ignorance upon him--he is such a
_good_ man! Sometimes I weep when I think of him. He was father, friend,
and physician, all in one. He understood. He told me to go away; he got
you for me. He told me to play like a little girl, with only the real and
beautiful things of life; to forget the worries, and he would make sure!

"Priscilla, he has made sure! My love is safe. I can give myself to my
love and let it have its way with me, and in the beautiful future, our
future, his and mine, little children cannot--curse us by their suffering
and deformity.

"This _must_ be the heritage a woman should be able to give her children,
or she has no right to her own love. God has been so good to me--he has
not asked for sacrifice; but"--here she spoke fiercely--"I was ready to
sacrifice my love--for I had seen my friend's baby!

"I had never known God before as I know him now. He came to me with love
and faith and my glorious life. Before, my God was a prayer-book God; a
dead thing that only rustled when we touched him; and now, oh! Cilla, he
is alive and breathing in good men and women, in little children, in all
the beautiful, real things. They did not bury my God, or yours, long ago;
they only set him free for us to find and love and follow."

They clung to each other in a passion of reverence and happiness, and
then kissed each other good night.




CHAPTER XXII


"My girl," said Travers a week later, "how shall it be? May I tell every
one how madly happy I am? May I take you to that little shrine a mile up
the mountain yonder and make you--mine--and then show them all _why_ I
am so happy? Or----"

"Yes. Or----" Priscilla lay quite contentedly in his arms, her eyes on
the shining outlines of The Ghost.

"And that means, my sweet?"

"That we should keep this blessed secret just a little longer--to
ourselves. I feel as if I could not bear to have it explained, defended,
or justified, and all that must follow, my very dear man, when the play
is over and we return to--to school. I shall be glad and ready to do all
this a little later on; proud to have you do it for me, and--we'll face
the music. It is going to be music, dear, I am sure of that. But some
very stern questions will be asked by that sweet mother of yours, and she
shall have her answer. Then Doctor Ledyard, with all the prayer gone from
his eyes, will call me up for judgment and demand to know what right a
nurse, even a white nurse, had to lay hands upon a young physician who
was on the road to glory! It will be hard to answer him; but never mind!"

"And then, dear lady of mystery, what then?"

"Why, then I'm going to beckon to you and we'll dance----"

"Dance, my darling?"

"Yes, dance away and away to a holy place I know, and then I'm going to
tell you the whole story of Priscilla----"

But at that moment Margaret Moffatt came upon the scene. The miracle of
love had transfigured the girl. She looked, as Travers had said to
Priscilla, like the All Woman: large, fine, and noble, with unashamed
surrender in her splendid eyes.

"And that is what she is!" Priscilla had replied, "the All Woman. I could
die for her, live for her, do anything for her. For me, she is the first,
the one woman, in all the world."

"Young devotee, could you, would you, give your--love up for her?"
Travers had asked, and then Priscilla spoke words that Travers remembered
long afterward.

"I could not give my love up for--that is--I, myself; just as the dance
is--just as my soul is--but I could; yes, I know I could give up--my
happiness for her, if by so doing I could spare her one shadow. Her
glorious nature could reach where mine never could."

"Yours reaches to me, little girl."

"But hers--oh! my dear man, hers reaches to--the world. If you knew her
as I know her!"

But Margaret was whimsical and witchy as she came upon the two in the
small arbour by the lake.

"Folks," she said, "let us keep our nice little surprises to ourselves
for a while, like miserly creatures. My dear old daddy-boy is fretting
and fussing about me, 'dreading the issue,' as he told Doctor Ledyard,
and behold--I'm going to do exactly what my daddykins desires! And you,
Doctor Richard Travers, you are wanted by your lady mother. Here's a
telegram. The girl in the office always tells what is in a telegram, to
spare shock. And Cilla, my shining-headed chum, you and I are going to
scamper about a bit before we go home. I'd be a miserable defaulter,
indeed, if I did not give you your share of this experience. Oh! I know
you've snatched bits that in no wise were included in the program, but
we're all grafters. I want to play fair. Will you flit over the continent
with me and Mousey, dear little--pal?"

And three days later they began their trip, while Travers returned to
Helen. It was a charming trip the girls made, but their hearts were
elsewhere.

In October they were in New York again, and the inevitable happened.
Margaret was returned to her world, and, for the moment, was absorbed.
Priscilla lost sight of her, though she heard constantly from her by
telephone or delicately worded notes.

A sad occurrence kept Richard Travers abroad. Helen contracted fever and
for weeks lay between life and death. Doctor Ledyard waited until the
danger was past, and then left the two together in Paris, while Helen
recovered, with Travers to watch and care for her.

The letters that came to Priscilla were all that kept her eyes shining
and her heart singing.

"I shall go on as usual," she wrote to Richard. "When you come, then
we'll make the wonderful announcement. I see now that we have no right to
our secret alone; but with the ocean between us, it is best."

During those months Priscilla learned to know Helen Travers through
Travers's letters. Woman-like, she read between the lines and caught a
glimpse of Helen's nobility and simple sweetness. Her loved ones were so
sacred to her that no personal demands could ever cause her to raise
objections. Once she was sure that they she worshipped wanted anything
for their true happiness, her energies were bent to that end.

"And she will love you, my girl; will learn to depend upon you as I do.
As for Doctor Ledyard, when he is cornered, he is the best soul that ever
drew breath, and mother can bully him into anything."

It was in February that Priscilla was called up by Doctor Hapgood, a man
of high repute.

"Are you on duty?"

"No, sir."

"Any immediate engagement?"

"None until March."

"I would like to have you take a case of mine that requires tact as well
as efficiency. Can you take it?"

"Yes, sir."

"Report then at 60 West Eighty-first Street this afternoon, at four."

Priscilla found herself promptly at four o'clock in the waiting-room of a
palatial bachelor apartment, and there Doctor Hapgood joined her.

"Before we go upstairs," he said, drawing his chair close to Priscilla's
and lowering his voice, "I wish to say to you what, doubtless, there is
no real need of saying. I simply emphasize the necessity. The young man
who requires your services is Clyde Huntter. This means nothing to you,
but it does to many others. He is supposed to be in--Bermuda. You
understand?"

"Yes, Doctor Hapgood."

"The case is a particularly tragic one, such an one as you may encounter
later on in your career. It demands all your sympathy, encouragement, and
patience. Mr. Huntter is as fine a man, as upright a one, as I know, his
ideals and--and present life are above reproach. He is paying a bitter
debt for youthful and ignorant folly. I believed this impossible, but so
it is. I am thankful to say, however, that he has every reason to hope
that the future, after this, is secure. I have chosen you to care for
him, because I know your ability; have heard of your powers of reticence
and cheerfulness. I depend upon you absolutely."

"Thank you, Doctor Hapgood."

Priscilla's face had gone deadly white, but never having heard Huntter's
name before, she was impersonal in her feeling.

"I will do my best."

The days following were days of strain and torture to Priscilla. Her
patient was a man who appealed to her strongly, pathetically. There were
hours when his gloom and depression would almost drag her along to the
depths into which he sank; then again he would beg her to pardon him for
his brutal thoughtlessness.

"Sit there, Miss Glynn," he said one day. "The sunshine is rather
niggardly, but when it rests on your hair--it lasts longer."

"Oh, my poor hair!"

"Poor? It looks like a gold mine." Then: "I wish you would read to me.
No; nothing recent or superficial. Something from the old, cast-iron
writers who knew how to use thumb screws and rack. There's something
wholesome in them; something you buck up against. They make you writhe
and groan, but they leave you with the thought that--you've lived through
something."

Again, another day, after a bad night:

"I think you'd better go into the next room, Miss Glynn, and take a nap.
I'd feel less brutally selfish if I could see your eyes calmer. Besides,
being shut away here from all I'm dying to have makes an idiot of me. If
you stay any longer, looking at me with those queer eyes of yours, I may
break down and tell you all about it, just for the dangerous joy of
easing my own soul by dumping a load on yours. Good God! Miss Glynn,
such women as you should not be nurses; it isn't fair. I'd give--let me
see--well, I'd give six months of my life--since Hapgood says I stand a
fair chance for ninety years--to talk to you, man to woman, and get your
point of view--about something. There are moments, after a bad night,
when I think you women haven't had all they say you should have had. We
men have been too blindly sure we could play your game as well as our
own. Run now! If you stay another minute I'll regret it, and so will
you."

"Shall I shake your pillow before I go, Mr. Huntter?"

"Yes. Thank you. You manage to shake more whim-whams out of the creases
than you know."

He stayed her by a wistful, longing, and half-boyish smile.

"Say," he said, "you see you didn't run quick enough, and now I'm going
to ask you something. You must have seen a good deal of women as well
as men in your calling."

"Yes, I have."

"Seen them with their masks off?"

"Yes."

"What does love count for in the big hours of life? Does it stand
everything, anything?"

Priscilla felt her throat contract. She longed to say something that
would reach Huntter without arousing his suspicions.

"No; love--at least, woman's love, doesn't stand everything--always."

"What doesn't it stand? The essence, I mean."

"It doesn't stand unfair play! Women understand fair play and for
it would die. They may not say much, but--they never forgive
being--tricked."

"Oh! of course. How graphic you are, Miss Glynn. You sound as if we
were discussing a game of--of tennis or bridge. Gentlemen do not trick
ladies." He frowned a bit.

"Don't they, Mr. Huntter?"

"Certainly not! What I meant was this: You seem, for a trained woman,
very human and--and--well, what shall I say?--observing and rather
a--thoroughbred. If _you_ loved, now, loved really, is there anything you
would not forgive a man? That is, if his love for you was the biggest
thing in his life?"

Priscilla stood quite still and looked at the pale, handsome face on the
pillow.

"My love--yes; my love could and would forgive anything, if it related
only to--to--the man I loved and--me!"

The frown deepened on Huntter's face; he turned uneasily.

"After all," he muttered, "a man and woman see things so differently.
There is no use!"

"I wonder--if things would not seem plainer if they saw them--together?"

But Priscilla saw she had gone too far. The whimsical mood in Huntter had
passed. He was himself again, and she was his nurse--his nurse who knew
too much! More fretfully than he had ever spoken to her, he said:

"I wish to be alone, Miss Glynn."

Priscilla passed out, leaving the door between the rooms ajar, and lay
down upon the couch.

To Doctor Hapgood she was a machine merely; an easy-running one, a
dependable one, but none the less a machine. To Huntter, shut away from
society, gregarious, friendly, and kindly, she had meant much more. Her
recent experience abroad, with all the exquisite touches of human
interest and uplift, had left her peculiarly sensitive to her present
environment.

She liked the man in the room next her. There was much that was noble and
fine about him, but he was a type that had never entered her life before,
and often, by his kindliest word and gesture, drew her attention to a
yawning space between them. She was at her ease, perfectly so, when near
him, but she knew it was because of the distance that separated them.
Still, she was confronted by a certain grim fact, and that ugly knowledge
held him and her together. By some strange process of reason she wanted
him to live up to the best in him. There were two markedly different
sides of his nature; she trembled before one; before the other she gave
homage as she did to Travers, to John Boswell, and Master Farwell.

The day before, Huntter had had a long talk with Doctor Hapgood while she
was off duty. That conversation had doubtlessly caused the bad night; she
wondered about it now. It had evidently upset Huntter a good deal.

Then Priscilla, losing consciousness gradually, thought of Travers, of
Margaret Moffatt, who believed her to be out of the city. She smiled
happily as she relived her blessed memories of good men and women. They
justified and sanctified life, love, and happiness, and they made it
possible for her, poor, struggling, little white nurse as she was, with
all her professional knowledge, to trust and sympathize, and faithfully
serve.

She must have slept deeply, for it took her a full moment to realize that
some one in the next room was talking and--saying things!

"No, she's asleep, Huntter. She looks worn out. We must get a night
nurse. Well, I have only this to say: God knows I pity you, but my duty
compels me to say that--you should not marry! The chances are about even;
but--you shouldn't take the risk."

A groan brought Priscilla to her feet, alert and quivering. Like a sudden
and blinding shock she understood, what seemed to her, a whole life
history. She stumbled to the door and faced Dr. Hapgood, hat in hand,
keen-eyed, but detached.

"You slept--heavily?"

"Yes, Doctor Hapgood."

"I am going to send a night nurse to relieve you. When did you say your
next engagement began?"

"March fifth."

"Well, you will need a week to recuperate. Make your plans accordingly.
Do you understand?"

"Yes."

Did he suspect? Did he warn her? But his next words were kindness alone.

"There should have been two nurses all along. One forgets your youth in
your efficiency. Good morning."

When Priscilla stood beside Huntter again his wan face, close-shut eyes,
and grim mouth almost frightened her.

"I want to sleep," he said briefly. "Draw down the shades."

The night nurse became a staple joke between her and Huntter.

"Lord!" he exclaimed one day as Priscilla entered; "you're like the
morning: clear, fresh, and hopeful. Do you know, that to escape the
nightmare that haunts my chamber after you go, I have to play sleep even
if I'm dying with thirst or blue devils? She's religious! Think of a
nurse with religion that she feels compelled to share with a sick man!
I'm going to get up to-day, Miss Glynn. I've bullied Hapgood into giving
permission, and I've done him one better. I'm going to have a visitor!
I'm back from Bermuda, you know. After you've fixed me up--isn't it a
glorious day?--open the windows, and--I've ordered a lot of flowers.
Put them in those brass bowls. My visitor is a lady. She likes yellow
roses. By the way, Miss Glynn, Doctor Hapgood tells me that you've been
in--Bermuda, too? Thorough old disciplinarian he! You must have been
lonely. And you leave me next week? I want to thank you. I shall thank
you ceremoniously every time you enter after this. You've been--a good
nurse and a--good friend. I couldn't say more, now could I?"

"No, Mr. Huntter. And you've been--a very brave man! I know you will
always be that, and make light of it. I rather like the half-joking way
you do your kindest things. Here are the flowers! Oh, what beauties!"

Priscilla turned from helping Huntter and began arranging the glorious
mass of roses in the brass bowls.

"What time is it, Miss Glynn?"

"Eleven o'clock."

"And my friend is due at eleven-thirty. She will be here on the minute.
I feel like a boy, Miss Glynn. One gets the doldrums being alone and
convalescing. How the grim devils catch and hold you while they try to
distort life! I must have been a sad trial to you, but I'm myself again.
Tell me, honest true, Miss Glynn, just how have I come out in your
estimation? A man is no hero to his valet. What is he to his trained
nurse?"

"You have been very patient and considerate." Priscilla's back was turned
to Huntter; her face was quivering.

"Negative virtues! Had I been a brute you would have gone. I might have
had the night nurse for twenty-four hours. I dared not run the risk of
letting you go."

"I've come out pretty well in _your_ estimation? That's a feather in my
nice, white cap," she said.

"I wonder why I care what you think of me?"

"I do not know, Mr. Huntter, except that we all care for the good opinion
of those who wish us well."

"You wish me well?"

"With all my heart."

"I'd like"--Huntter turned his face toward the window and the glorious
winter day--"I'd like to be worthy of every well-wisher. I feel quite the
good boy this morning. I've been--well, I've been rather up against it, I
fear, and a trial to you, for all that you say to the contrary; but I am
going to make amends to you--and the world! Now, when my friend comes,
you won't mind if I ask you to leave us alone for a few moments? I can
call you when I need you."

"Yes, Mr. Huntter."

"The lady is--you may have guessed--my fiancée. I have important things
to say to her, and----"

Priscilla's heart beat madly. She felt she was near a deeper tragedy than
any that had ever entered her life. And just then, as the clock struck
the half hour, came a tap on the door:

"Come!" cried Huntter, in a tone of joy; "Come!" And in burst Margaret
Moffatt!

She did not notice the rigid figure by the bowl of flowers; her radiant
face was fixed upon Huntter, and she ran toward him with outstretched
arms.

"My beloved!" she whispered. "Oh! my dear, my dear! How ill you have
been! They did not tell me. I shall never forgive them. When did you
get back from Bermuda?"

Priscilla slipped from the room and closed the door noiselessly behind
her, but not before she had seen Margaret Moffatt sink into Huntter's
arms; not before she heard the sigh of perfect content that escaped her.

Alone in the anteroom, the hideous truth flayed Priscilla into suffering
and clear vision.

"What shall I do?" she moaned, clasping her hands and swaying back and
forth. All the burden and responsibility of the world seemed cast upon
her. Then reason asserted itself.

"He will tell her! He is telling her now! Killing her love--killing her!
Oh, my God!"

Then she shrank from the thought that she would, in a few moments, have
to face her friend! How could she, when she remembered that holy night of
confession in the little Swiss village? Again she moaned, "Oh! my God!"
But she was spared that scene. Moments, though they seemed ages, passed,
and then Huntter called:

"Miss Glynn!"

She hardly recognized his voice. It was--triumphant, thrilling. It rang
boldly, commandingly. When she entered, Huntter was alone. Gone was the
guest; gone the mass of golden roses. Huntter turned a face glowing and
confident to her.

"Just because you are you, Miss Glynn, and because I'm the happiest man
in New York, I want you to congratulate me. That was Miss Moffatt. She
and I are to marry--in the spring."

"Did you--mention my name to her?"

Priscilla's haggard face at last attracted the man.

"No. I was inhumanly selfish. You must forgive me. I meant to tell her of
your faithful care; I meant to have you meet her. I forgot."

"Never mention--me to her! She is my--one friend in all the world; my one
woman friend."

They faced each other blankly, fiercely. Then:

"Good Lord, Miss Glynn!" and Huntter--laughed!




CHAPTER XXIII


The week of recuperation Doctor Hapgood recommended was one of prolonged
torture to Priscilla Glenn. Thinking of it afterward, she realized that
it was the Gethsemane of her life--the hour when, forsaken by all, she
fought her bitter fight.

The drift of the ages confronted her. Her own insignificance, her
humbleness, accentuated and betrayed her. Who would listen? How dared she
speak! Who would heed her?

One, and one only. Margaret Moffatt!

From her Priscilla shrank and hid until she could gain courage to go
and--by saving her, kill her! Yes, it meant that. The killing of the
beautiful All Woman, as Travers had called her. After the telling there
would be only the shadow of the splendid creature that God had meant to
be so happy, if only the wrong of the world had not come between!

There were moments when, worn by struggle and wakeful nights, Priscilla
felt incapable of sane thought.

Why should she interfere, she asked herself. Professional silence was her
only course. And--there was the chance--the chance! Against it stood,
pleading, Margaret's radiant love and Huntter's strength and devotion.

Who could blame her if she--forgot? But oh! how they would curse her if
she spoke! They might not believe; they might ruin her!

Then faith laid its commanding touch upon her spirit. It had been given
her to know a woman who, for high principles and all the sacred future,
was prepared to sacrifice her love if needs must be!

They two, Margaret of the high-soul, and she, Priscilla Glenn of the
understanding devotion, seemed to stand apart and alone, each, in her
way, called upon to testify and act.

"It must be done!" moaned Priscilla; "she must know and--decide! But how?
how?"

John Boswell and Master Farwell were gone to the In-Place. The sanctuary
overlooking the river was closed. There was no one, no place, to which
Priscilla could go for comfort and advice, and her secret and her duty
left her no peace or rest.

She had taken a tiny suite in a family hotel. The rooms had the comfort
needed for her physical wants, but she tossed on the bed nights and slept
brokenly. She ate poorly and grew very thin, very pale. She walked, days,
until her body cried out for mercy. She cancelled her engagement, for she
was unfitted for service, and intuitively she knew that, for her, a great
change was near.

When she was weak from weariness and lonely to the verge of exhaustion,
she thought of Kenmore--not Travers--with positive yearning. The woman
of her, madly defending, or about to defend, woman, excluded even her own
love and her own man. It was sex against sex; the world's injustice
against all that woman held sacred! If Margaret were to be sacrificed, so
was she, for she blindly felt that Travers would not uphold her! How
could he when tradition held him captive? How could he when his oath
bound him like a slave? Doctor Hapgood had done his part, had spoken his
word--to man! But that was not enough. Man had flaunted it, was willing
to take--the chance without giving the woman intelligent choice. Oh! it
was cruel, it was unjust, and it must be defied. She and Margaret must
stand side by side, or life never again would taste sweet and pure!

Priscilla had not heard from Travers in ten days, and this added to her
sense of desolation. Then, one evening, coming in from a long tramp in
the park, snow covered and bedraggled, she faced him in her own little
parlour!

"My blessed child!" cried he, rushing toward her. "What have you been
doing to yourself?"

She was in his arms; his hands were taking off her snow-wet coat and hat.
He was whispering to her his love and gladness while he placed her in a
chair and lighted the tiny gas log in the grate.

"It's a wicked shame!" he said laughingly; "but it will have to do. Now
then, confess!"

"Oh! I have longed so for you! I have been--mad!"

Priscilla tried to smile, but collapsed miserably.

"I don't believe you have eaten a morsel since----" Travers glared at her
ferociously.

"Since I--I was in Switzerland." The sob aroused Travers to the girl's
condition.

"You poor little tyke!" he said. "Now lean back and do as you're told.
I'm going to ring for food. Just plain, homely food. I'm as hungry as a
bear myself. I came to you from the vessel. I sent mother home in a cab.
I had to see you. We'll eat--play; and then, my precious one, we'll talk
business."

"How I have wanted you! needed you!" Again the pitiful wail.

"Now behave, child! When the waiter comes we must be as staid as Darby
and Joan. You poor little girl! Heavens! how big your eyes are, and how
frightened! Come in! Yes. This is the order; serve it here."

The waiter took the order wrapped in a good-sized bill, and departed on
willing feet.

"Your hair is about all that's familiar; longing for me couldn't take the
shine from that!" Travers kissed it.

"I see my next case," he laughed. "To get you in shape will be quite an
achievement. We both need--play. We thrive on that."

"Yes, my dear, my dear; but I have forgotten how!"

"Nonsense! Here's the food. Put the table near the grate"--this to the
man--"things smoking hot; that's good. The wine, please. Thanks! Miss
Glynn, to your health!"

How Travers managed it no one could tell, but his own unfettered joy
drove doubt and care from the little room. Priscilla, warmed and
comforted, laughed and responded, and the meal was a merry one. But it
was over at last, and the grim spectre stalked once more. Travers noticed
the haunted look in the eyes following his every movement, and took
warning. Something was seriously wrong, that was evident; but he had
boundless faith in his love and power to drive the cloud away. After the
room was cleared of dishes and the grateful waiter, Travers attacked the
shadow at once.

He drew a stool to Priscilla's chair and flung his long body beside her.

"Now," he said, with wonderful tenderness, "let me begin my life work at
once, my darling. You are troubled; I am here to bear it all--for you!"

"Oh! Will you bear--half, dear heart?"

"Yes, and that is better. We need not waste words, my tired little girl.
Out with the worst and then--you and I are going to--my mother!"

"Your--mother?"

"My mother! God bless her! You know she came near slipping away. She will
need and love you more than ever."

"Oh! how good it sounds! Mother! Oh, my love, my love! I've had so little
and I've wanted so much! Your mother!"

"She'll be yours, too, Priscilla. But hurry, child! Just the bare
structure; my love will fill in the rest."

"Do not look up at me, dear man! So, let me rest my face on your head.
Can you hear me--if I whisper?"

"Yes."

"It's about Margaret--Margaret Moffatt."

"The All Woman, the happiest creature, next to what you're going to be,
in all God's world?"

"No!"

"No? Priscilla, what do you mean?"

"Do not move. Please do not look up. She is--engaged to--to Clyde
Huntter!"

"Well?"

"I did not know; she never mentioned his name. While we played, names did
not matter--his, mine, no one's." An hysterical gasp caused Travers to
start.

"No, please keep your face turned. I must tell you in my way. I have just
taken care of--Mr. Huntter. He is not--fit to marry any woman--he cannot
marry--Margaret! Doctor Hapgood told him, but--he--means to marry! She
came to see him; she did not see me; she does not know; but she _must_
know!" fiercely; "she must know! That is the one thing above all else
that would matter to her; she told me so! She does not live for the--the
now; she was made for--for bigger things!"

"My God!" Travers was on his feet, and he dragged Priscilla with him. He
held her close by her wrists and searched her white, agonized face. Truth
and stern purpose were blazoned on it. She had never looked so beautiful,
so noble, or so--menacing.

"You heard Doctor Hapgood say that?"

"I did."

"In your presence?"

"No." Then she described the little scene graphically.

"But Ledyard----" Then he paused. Ledyard's confidence must be sacred to
him.

"And Huntter--Huntter knows that you know; does he know that you are
Margaret's friend?"

"Yes."

"And--he trusts you?"

"He thinks I do not count, but I do--with Margaret."

"Priscilla, this is no work for you, poor child!"

"It is--hers--and mine, and God's!" determinedly.

"Darling, you are overwrought. You must trust me. You know what I think
of such things; you can safely leave this to me. Ledyard is Huntter's
physician. Why he called Hapgood in, I do not know. I will go to Ledyard.
Can you not see--that they would not believe--you?"

"Margaret will!"

"But her father! You do not understand, my precious. You dear, little,
unworldly soul! Margaret Moffatt's marriage means a ninth wonder. Any
meddling with that would have to be sifted to the dregs. And when they
reached you, my own girl, they would grind you to atoms!"

"Not--Margaret!"

Priscilla drew herself away from the straining hands. She was quite calm
now and terribly earnest.

"When all's told, it is Margaret and I--and God!"

"No. There are others, and other things. All the world's forces are
against you."

"No, they are not! They are turning with me. I feel them; I feel them.
I am not afraid." Then she took command, while Travers stood amazed. She
put her hands on his shoulders and held him so before the bar of her
crude, woman-judgment.

"Answer me, my beloved! You believe--what I have told you?"

"I do."

"You know Doctor Hapgood will do no more?"

"He--cannot."

"If you go to Doctor Ledyard--and he knows and believes--what will he
do?"

"He has been Huntter's physician for years. If he has been mistaken, he
will go to Huntter."

"Go to--Huntter! And what then? Suppose Mr. Huntter--still takes the
chance?"

"Ledyard will--he will forbid it!"

"And what good will that do?" A pitiful bitterness crept into Priscilla's
voice; her lips quivered.

"It is all Huntter! Huntter! All men! men! and there stands my
dear--alone! No one goes to her to let--_her_ choose; no one but me!
Don't you see what I mean? Oh! my love, my love! My good, good man, can
you leave her there in ignorance, all of you? Through the ages she has
not had her say--about the chance, and that is why----"

Priscilla paused, choked by rising passion.

"Little girl, listen! What do you mean?" Travers was genuinely alarmed
and anxious.

"I mean"--the white, set face looked like an avenger's, not a
passionately loving woman's--"I mean--that because women have never had
an opportunity to know and to choose, you and I, and all people like us,
stand helpless with our own great heaven-sent love at peril!"

"At peril! Oh, my dear girl!"

"Yes, at peril. We do not know what to do, where to turn. You see the
great injustice clearly as I do; but you--all men have tried to right it
by themselves, in their way, while all women, through all the ages, have
stood aside and tried to think they were doing God's will when they
accepted--your best; your _half_ best! Now, oh! now something--I think it
is God calling loud to them--is waking them up. They know--you cannot do
this thing alone; it is their duty, too--they must help you, for,
oh!"--Priscilla leaned toward him with tear-blinded eyes and pleading
hands--"For the sake of the--the little children of the world. Oh! men
are fathers, good fathers, but they have forgotten the part mothers must
take! We women cannot leave it all to you. It is wicked, wicked for women
to try! There is something mightier than our love--we are learning that!"

Travers took her in his arms. She was weeping miserably. His heart
yearned over her, for he feared she was feeling, as women sometimes did,
the awful weight of injustice men had unconsciously, often in deepest
love, laid upon them.

"Priscilla, you trust me; trust my love?"

"Yes."

"You believe me when I say that I see this--as you do--but that we only
differ as to methods?"

"I--I hope I see that and believe it."

"Then"--and here Travers did his poor, blind part to lay another straw
upon the drift of burden--"leave this--to me. I know better than you do
the end of any such mad course as you, in your affection and sense of
wrong, might take. Little girl, let me try to show you. Suppose you went
to Margaret Moffatt. You know her proud, sensitive nature; her loyalty
and absolute frankness. After the shock and torture she would go to her
father with the truth--for she would believe you--and announce her
unwillingness--I am sure, even though her heart broke, she would do
this--to marry Huntter. Then the matter would lie among men; men with the
traditional viewpoint; men with much, much at stake. If Huntter has, as
you say, taken the chance, in his love for Margaret--and he does love
her, poor devil!--he will defend himself and his position."

"How?" Priscilla was regaining her calm; she raised her head and faced
Travers from the circle of his arms.

"He will--send Moffatt to--to--Hapgood."

"And he--what will he do?"

"What does the priest do when the secrets of the confessional are
attacked?"

"Yes, yes--but then?"

"Then--oh! my precious girl! Can you not see? You will come into focus.
You, my love, my wife, but, nevertheless, a woman! a trained nurse!
Hapgood would flay you alive, not because he has anything against you,
but professional honour and discipline would be at stake. Between such a
man as Hapgood and--Priscilla Glynn--oh! can you not see my dear, dear
girl?"

"Yes, I begin to see. And--I see I dare not trust even you!" The hard
note in Priscilla's voice hurt Travers cruelly. "And--you, you and Doctor
Ledyard--how would you stand?" she asked faintly.

Travers held her at arm's length, and his face turned ashen gray.

"Besides being men, we, too, are physicians!" he said. "Brutal as this
sounds, it is truth!"

The light burned dangerously in Priscilla's eyes.

"When you are physicians--you are _not_ men!" she panted, and suddenly,
by a sharp stab of memory, Ledyard's words, back in the boyhood days at
Kenmore, stung Travers. They were like an echo in his brain.

"You--you of all women, cannot say that and mean it, my darling!" he
cried, and tried to draw her to him. She resisted.

"Our love, the one sacred thing of our very own," he pleaded, "is in
peril." He saw it now. "Can you not see? Even if it is woman against
woman, what right have you, Priscilla, to cloud and hurt our love?"

"It is not--woman against woman--any more." The words came sweetly,
almost joyously; something like renunciation tinged them. "It is woman
_for_ woman until men will take us by the hands, trustingly, faithfully,
and work with us for what belongs equally to us both!"

The radiance of the uplifted eyes frightened Travers. So might she look,
he thought, had she passed through death and come out victorious.

"Now, just for a time," the tense, thrilling voice went on, "she and
I--women--must stand alone, and do our best as we see it. It is no good
leaving it to--to any man. I see that! And our love, yours and mine! Oh!
dear man of my heart, that can never die or be hurt. It is yours, mine!
God gave it. God will not take it away. God will not take Margaret's
either. She will understand, and, even alone, far, far from _her_ love,
she will be true, as I will be. That is what it means to us!" Then she
paused and smiled at Travers as across a widening chasm.

"I--am going now!"

"Going? My beloved--going--where?"

"To Margaret."

"You--dare not! You shall not! You are--mad!"

"No. I am--going, because, as things are, I cannot--trust you, even you!
That is our penalty for the world's wrong. Long, long ago some one--oh!
it was back in the days when I did not know what life meant--some one
told me--never to let any one kill my ideal! No one ever has! It goes on
before, leading and beckoning. I must follow. I do not know where he is,
he who told me, but I know, as sure as I know that I shall always love
you, that he is following _his_ ideal, and living true and sure. Good
night."

Unable to think or act, Travers saw Priscilla take up her still damp coat
and hat. Like a man in a nightmare he saw her turn a deadly white face
upon him, and then the door closed and he was alone in her little room!

He looked about, dazed and emotionless. He felt _her_ in every touch
of the lonely place; her books, her little pictures, herself! Some women
are like that: they leave themselves in the presence of them they
love--forever!

"Kill her ideal!" The words rang in the empty corners of his heart and
mind. "Somewhere he is following his ideal, and living true and sure!"

Unconsciously, as men do in an hour of stress, Travers turned to action.
Presently he found himself setting the tiny room in order as one does
after a dear one has departed, or a spirit taken its flight. And while he
moved about his reason was slowly readjusting itself, and he felt
poignantly his impotency, his inability to use even his love for
dominance. Being a just and honest man, he could not deny what Priscilla
had said; truth rang in every sentence, chimed in with the minor notes of
his life. No thought of following or staying her entered his mind; she
had set about her business, woman's business, and, to the man's excited
fancy, he seemed to see her pressing forward to the doing of that to
which her soul called her. Then it was her beautiful shining hair he
remembered, and his passion cried out for its own.

"This comes," he fiercely cried, setting his teeth hard, "of our leaving
them behind--our women! Through the ages their place has been beside us
as we fought every foe of the race. We set them aside in our folly, and
now"--he bowed his head upon his folded arms--"and now they are waking up
and demanding only what is theirs!"

A specimen of the new man was Travers, but inheritance, and Ledyard's
teaching, had left their seal upon him. Bowed in Priscilla's little room
he tried to see his way, but for a time he reasoned with Ledyard's words
ringing in his ears. Had he not gone over this with his friend and
partner many a time?

"Yes, I know the cursed evil, know its power and danger! Yes, it
threatens--the race, but it has its roots in the ages; it must be
tackled cautiously. If we take the stand you suggest"--for Travers had
put forth his violent, new opposition--"what will happen? The quacks and
money-making sharks will get the upper hand. Do you think men would come
to us if exposure faced them? It's the devil, my boy; but of the two
evils this, God knows, is the least. We must do what we can; work for
a scientific and moral redemption, but never play the game like
fools."--"But the women," Travers had put in feverishly, "the
women!"--"Spare me, boy! The women have clutched the heart of me--always.
The women and the--the babies. I've used them to flay many men into
remorse and better living. I am thinking of them, as God hears me, when I
take the course I do!"

And so Travers suffered and groaned in the small, deserted room.

Above and beyond Ledyard's reasoning stood two desolate figures. They
seemed to represent all women: his Priscilla and Margaret Moffatt! One,
the crude child of nature with her gleam undimmed, leading her forth
unhampered, though love and suffering blocked her way; the other, the
daughter of ages of refinement and culture, who had heard the call of the
future in her big woman-heart and could leave all else for the sake of
the crown she might never wear, but which, with God's help, she would
never defile.

On, on, they two went before Travers's aching eyes. The way before them
was shining, or was it the light of Priscilla's hair? They were leaving
him, all men, in the dark! It was to seek the light, or----And then
Travers got up and left the room with bowed head, like one turning his
back upon the dead.

He went to Ledyard at once, and found that cheerful gentleman awaiting
him.

"At last!" he cried. "Helen telephoned at seven. She thought you were on
your way here. Did you get lost?"

"Yes."

"What's the matter, Dick? You look as if you had seen a ghost."

"I have. An army of them."

"Are you--ill?"

"No."

"Sit down, boy. Here, take a swallow of wine. You're used up. Now then!"

"Doctor Ledyard, you were wrong--about Huntter! You remember what you
told me, before Margaret Moffatt announced her engagement?"

"Yes." Ledyard poured himself a glass of wine and walked to his chair
across the room.

"You were wrong; he is not what you think."

"What do you mean? I haven't seen Huntter for--for a year or more. I took
care, sacred care, though, to--to trace him from the time he first came
to me, more than ten years ago. No straighter, more honourable man
breathes than he. He was one of the victims of ignorance and crooked
reasoning, but, thank God! he was spared the worst."

"He was--not."

"Dick, in God's name, what do you mean?"

"Hapgood was called in. Huntter has not been in Bermuda; he has been
right here in New York, under Hapgood's care."

"And Hapgood--told you?"

A purplish flush dyed Ledyard's face.

"No."

"Who, then? No sidetracking, Dick. Who?"

"The--the nurse."

"She-devil! Fell in love with her patient? I've struck that kind----"

"Stop!"

Both men were on their feet and glaring at each other.

"You are speaking of my future--wife!"

Ledyard loosened his collar and--laughed!

"You're mad!" he said faintly, "or a damned fool!"

"I'm neither. I am engaged to marry Priscilla Glynn; have been since the
summer. I meant to tell you and mother to-night. I went to her from the
vessel. Priscilla Glynn took care of Huntter without knowing of his
connection in the Moffatt affair. Above all else in the world"--Travers's
voice shook--"she adores Margaret Moffatt, knows her intimately, and
wishes, blindly, to serve her as she understands her. There are such
women, you know, and they are becoming more numerous. She has gone
to--tell Margaret Moffatt."

"Gone?" Ledyard reeled back a step. "And you permitted that?"

"I had no choice. You do not know--my--my--well, Miss Glynn."

"Not know her? The young fiend! Not know her? I remember her well. I
might have known that no good could come from her. But--we can crush her,
the young idiot! I do not envy you your fiancée, Dick."

The telephone rang sharply and Ledyard took up the receiver with
trembling hand.

"It's your mother," he said; "you had better speak for yourself."

"So you are there, Dick?"

"Yes, mother."

"There was a message just now. Such a peculiar one. I thought you had
better have it at once. It was only this: 'She knows' and a 'good-bye.'"

"Thanks, mother. I understand."

Ledyard watched the unflinching face and noted the even voice. He was so
near he had caught Helen's words.

"And that is all, mother?"

"All, dear."

"I'll be home soon. Good night."

Then he looked up at Ledyard, and the older man's face softened.

"You'll find this sort of thing is a devil of a jigsaw. It cuts in all
directions," he said, laying his hand on Travers's shoulder.

"Yes, doesn't it? But, Doctor Ledyard, I want to tell you something.
She's right--that girl of mine, and Margaret Moffatt, too--and you know
it as well as I do! If I can, I'm going to have my love and my woman; but
even if I go empty hearted to my grave I shall know--they are right!
Besides being women, and our loves, they are human beings, and they are
beginning to find it out. The way may lead through hell, but it ends
in----"

"What?" Ledyard breathed; his eyes fixed on the stern young face.

"In understanding. It leads to the responsibility all women must take.
Good night, old friend."




CHAPTER XXIV


Priscilla had gone straight from Margaret Moffatt's to her own little
apartment. She had no sense of suffering; no sensation at all. She must
pack and get away! And like a dead thing she set to work, although it was
midnight and she had been so weary before; and then she smiled
quiveringly:

"Before!"

She stood and stretched out her arms to the empty space where Travers had
been.

"Oh! my dear, dear man!" she moaned. "My beloved!"

She had set the spark to the powder; by to-morrow the devastation would
be complete. That, she knew full well. And he--the man she loved above
all else in life--in order to escape must seek safety with those others!
All those others--men! men! men! Only she and Margaret, suffering and
alone, would stand in the ruins. But from those ruins! Her eyes shone as
with a vision of what must be.

"I wish I could tell you--all about it!" the weak, human need called to
the absent love. The whispered words brought comfort; even his memory was
a stronghold. It always would be, even when she was far away in her
In-Place, never to see him again.

How thankful she was that he did not know, really. He could not follow;
she would not be able to hurt him--after to-morrow. Her changed name
had saved her!

"Priscilla Glynn," she faltered, "hide her, hide her forever, hide poor
Priscilla Glenn."

Then her thoughts flew back to the recent past. She had found Margaret
alone in her own library.

"Now how did you know I wanted you more than any one else in the world?"
Margaret had said. "When did you get back? You baddest of the bad! Why
did you hide from me? Where were you?"

"In--Bermuda." How ghastly it sounded, but it caught Margaret's quick
thought.

"Sit down, you little ghost of bygone days of bliss. You'll have to play
again. Work is killing you. In Bermuda? What doing?"

"Wearing--my cap and apron, dear, dear----"

"Your cap and apron? I thought you burned them! I shall tell Travers, you
deceitful, money-getting little fraud! Well, who has taken it out of you
so? You are as white as ivory. Do you know the Traverses came in on the
_St. Cloud_ to-day?"

"Yes. Doctor Travers came to see me."

"Ha! ha! He doesn't seem to have cheered you much. I wager he's told you
what he thinks of you, tossing to the winds all the beautiful health and
spirits of the summer! When are you to be married? I must tell him to
bully you as--as my dear love is bullying me! Has Doctor Ledyard growled
at you? I can twist him easily! He is a darling, and just wears that face
and voice for fun in order to scare little redheaded nurses. Cilla, dear
heart, I'm going to be married in June! Dear, old-fashioned June, with
roses and good luck and--oh! the heaven seems opening and the glory is
pouring down! There, girlie! cuddle here! I'm going to tell you
everything; even to the mentioning of names! I've always hated to label
my joy before. But, first, take some chocolate; it's hot and piping. Now!
Who did you nurse in Bermuda? I'm going to tell him, or her, what I think
of him!"

"I--nursed--Mr. Clyde Huntter. We were in New York all the time. That is
why--I had to keep--still----"

"Mr. Clyde Huntter?" Margaret set the cup she held, down sharply. The
quick brain was alert and in action.

"Mr. Clyde Huntter?" And then Margaret Moffatt came close to Priscilla,
and looked down deep into the unfaltering eyes raised to hers.

"Mr. Clyde Huntter--is the man I am to marry!" she said in a voice from
which the girlish banter had gone forever. It was the voice of a woman in
arms to defend all she worshipped.

"Yes, I know. I was in his room the day you called. I thought I should
die. I hoped he would tell you. I was ready to stand beside you; but he
did not tell!"

"Tell--what? As God hears you, Priscilla, as you love me, and--and as I
trust you, tell me what?"

And then Priscilla had told her. At first Margaret stood, taking the
deadly blow like a Spartan woman, her grave eyes fixed upon Priscilla.
Slowly the cruel truth, and all it implied, found its way through the
armour of her nobility and faith. She began to droop; then, like one
whose strength has departed, she dropped beside Priscilla's chair and
clung to her. It had not taken long to tell, but it had lain low every
beautiful thing but--courage!

"Back there," Margaret had said at last, "back there where we played, I
told you I was ready for sacrifice. I thought my God was not going to
exact that, but since he has, I am ready. Priscilla, I still have God! I
wonder"--and, oh! how the weak, pain-filled voice had wrung Priscilla's
heart--"I wonder if you can understand when I tell you that I love my
love better now--than ever? Shall always love him, my poor boy! Can you
not see that he did not mean--to be evil? It was the curse handed down to
him, and when he found out--his love, our love, had taken possession of
him, and he could not let me--go! I feel as if--as if I were his mother!
He cannot have the thing he would die for, but I shall love him to the
end of life. I shall try to make it up to him--in some way; help him to
be willing and brave, to do the right; teach him that my way is the
only--honourable way. I am sure both he and I will be--glad not--not to
let others, oh! such sad, little others, pay the debt for us. Our day
is--is short at best, but the--the eternity! And you, dear, faithful
Cilla! You, with your blessed love, how will it be when I have done what
I must do? I must go to--to father and tell the truth, and then----"

"I know," Priscilla had said. "Doctor Travers told me what would follow.
I shall not be here for him to suffer for; I am going----"

"Where, my precious friend?"

"To--the Place Beyond the Winds! You do not understand. You cannot; no
one can follow me; but I cannot bear the hurting blasts any more. I want
the In-Place."

Then it was over, and now she was back in her lonely rooms. She packed
her few, dear possessions, and toward morning lay down upon her bed. At
daylight she departed, after settling her affairs with the night clerk
and leaving no directions that any one could follow.

"It is business," she had cautioned, and the sleepy fellow nodded his
head.

The rest did not matter. She would travel to the port from which the
boats sailed to Kenmore. Any boat would do; any time. Some morning,
perhaps, at four o'clock, if the passage had not been too rough, she
would find herself on the shabby little wharf with the pink morning light
about her, and the red-rock road stretching on before.

Then Priscilla, like a miser, gripped her purse. Never before had money
held any power over her, but the hundreds she had saved were precious to
her now. Her father's doors were still, undoubtedly, closed to her. She
could not be a burden to the two men living in Master Farwell's small
home. There was, to be sure, Mary McAdam! By and by, perhaps, when the
hurt was less and she could trust herself more, she would go to the White
Fish Lodge and beg for employment; but until then----

The morning Priscilla departed, Ledyard, unequal to any further strain,
was called upon to bear several. By his plate, at the breakfast table,
lay a scrawled envelope that he recognized at once as a report from
Tough Pine.

"What's up now?" muttered he. "This thing isn't due for--three weeks
yet."

Then he read, laboriously, the crooked lines:

  I give up job. Dirty work. Money--bad money. I take no more--or I be
  damned! He better man--than you was; you bad and evil, for fun--he grow
  big and white. No work for bad man--friend now to good mens.

  Pine.

"The devil!" muttered Ledyard; but oddly enough the letter raised, rather
than lowered, his mental temperature. Those ill-looking epistles of
Pine's had nauseated him lately. He had begun to experience the sensation
of over-indulgence. Some one had told him, a time back, of Boswell's
leaving the city, and he had been glad of the suspicion that arose in him
when he heard it.

Later in the day the forces Priscilla had set in motion touched and drew
him into the maelstrom.

"Ledyard"--this over the telephone--"my daughter has just informed me
that she is about to break her engagement. May I see you at--three?"

"Yes. Here, or at your office?"

"I will come to you."

They had it out, man to man, and with all the time-honoured and hoary
arguments.

"My girl's a fool!" Moffatt panted, red-faced and eloquent. "Not to
mention what this really means to all of us, there is the girl's own
happiness at stake. What are we to tell the world? You cannot go about
and--explain! Good Lord! Ledyard, Huntter stands so high in public esteem
that to start such a story as this about him would be to ruin my own
reputation."

"No. The thing's got to die," Ledyard mused. "Die at its birth."

"Die in my girl's heart! Good God! Ledyard, you ought to see her after
the one night! It wrings my heart. It isn't as if the slander had killed
her love for him. It hasn't; it has strengthened it. 'I must bear this
for him and for me,' she said, looking at me with her mother's eyes. She
never looked like her mother before. It's broken me up. What's the world
coming to, when women get the bit in their teeth?"

"There are times when all women look alike," Ledyard spoke half to
himself; "I've noticed that." The rest of Moffatt's sentence he ignored.

"Why, in the name of all that is good," Moffatt blazed away, "did you
send that redheaded girl into our lives? I might have known from the hour
she set her will against mine that she was no good omen. Things I haven't
crushed, Ledyard, have always ended by giving me a blow, sooner or later.
Think of her coming into my home last night and daring----" The words
ended in a gulp. "Let me send Margaret to you," pleaded the father at his
wits' end. "Huntter is away. Will not be back until to-morrow. Perhaps
you can move her. You brought her into the world; you ought to try and
keep her here."

At four Margaret entered Ledyard's office. She was very white, very
self-possessed, but gently smiling.

"Dear old friend," she said, drawing near him and taking the rôle of
comforter at once. "Do not think I blame you. I know you did your best
with your blessed, nigh-to glasses on, but we younger folks have long
vision, you know. Do you remember how you once told me to swallow your
pills without biting them? I obeyed you for a long, long time; but I've
bitten this one! It's bitter, but it is for the best. The medicine is in
the pills; we might as well know."

"See here, Margaret, I'm not going to use your father's weapons. I only
ask you--to wait! Do not break your engagement; let me see Huntter. Do
not speak to him of this. I can explain, and--" he paused--"if the worse
comes to the worst, the wedding can be postponed; then things can happen
gradually."

"No," Margaret shook her head. "This is his affair and mine, and our love
lies between us. I want--oh! I want to make him feel as I do, if I can;
but above all else he must know that whatever I do is done in love. You
see, I cannot hate him now; by and by it would be different if we were
not just to each other."

"My poor girl! Do you women think you are going to be happier, the world
better, because of--things like this? Men have thought it out!"

"Alone, yes. And women have let you bear the burden--alone. Happiness
is--not all. And who can tell what the world will be when we all do the
work God sent us to do? I know this: we cannot push our responsibilities
off on any one else without stumbling across them sooner or later, for
the overburdened ones cannot carry too much, or forever!"

Ledyard expected Travers for dinner, but, as the time drew near, he felt
that his young partner would not come. At six a note was handed to him:

  Kindest of Friends:

  To-morrow, or soon, I will come to you; not to-night. I have to be
  alone. I am all in confusion. I can see only step by step, and must
  follow as I may. Two or three things stand out clear. We haven't, we
  men, played the game fair, though God knows we meant to. They--she
  and such women as my girl--are right! Blindly, fumblingly right. They
  are seeking to square themselves, and we have no business to curse them
  for their efforts.

  Lastly, I love Priscilla Glynn, and mean to have her, even at the
  expense of my profession! You have set my feet on a broad path and
  promised an honourable position. I have always felt that to try and
  follow in your steps was the noblest ambition I had. I know now that I
  could not accomplish this. You have truth and conviction to guide and
  uphold you. I have doubt. I must work among my fellows with no hint of
  distrust as to my own position. Forgive me! Go, if you will, to my
  mother--to Helen. She will need you--after she knows. You will,
  perhaps, understand when I tell you that, for a time at least, I must
  be by myself, and I am going to the little town where my own mother and
  I, long ago, lived our strange life together. She seems to be there,
  waiting for me.

Ledyard ate no dinner that night; he seemed broken and ill; he pushed
dish after dish aside, and finally left the table and the house.

Everything had failed him. All his life's work and hopes rustled past him
like dead things as he walked the empty streets.

"Truth and conviction," he muttered. "Who has them? The young ass! What
is truth? How can one be convinced? It's all bluff and a doing of one's
best!"

And then he reached Helen Travers's house and found her waiting for him.

"I have a--a note from Dick," she said. Ledyard saw that she had been
crying.

"Poor boy! He has gone to--his mother; his real mother. We"--she caught
her breath--"we have, somehow, failed him. He is in trouble."

"I wonder--why?" Ledyard murmured. Never had his voice held that tone
before. It startled even the sad woman.

"We have tried to do right--have loved him so," she faltered.

"Perhaps we have been too sure of ourselves, our traditions. Each
generation has its own ideals. We're only stepping-stones, but we like
to believe we're the--end-all!"

"That may be."

Then they sat with bowed heads in silence, until Ledyard spoke again.

"I'm going to retire, Helen. Without him, work would be--impossible.
His empty place would be a silent condemnation, a constant reminder,
of--mistakes."

"If he leaves me, I shall close this house. I could not live--without him
here. I never envied his mother before. I have pitied, condoned her, but
to-night I envy her from my soul!"

"Helen"--and here Ledyard got up and walked the length of the room
restlessly; he was about to put his last hope to the test--"Helen, this
world is--too new for us; for you and me. We belong back where the light
is not so strong and things go slower! We get--blinded and breathless and
confused. I have nothing left, nor have you. Will you come with me to
that crack in the Alps, as Dick used to call it, and let me--love you?"

"Oh! John Ledyard! What a man you are!"

"Exactly! _What_ a man I am! A poor, rough fool, always loving what was
best; never daring to risk anything for it. I'm tired to death----"

She was beside him, kneeling, with her snow-touched head upon his knee.

"So am I. Tired, tired! I could not do without you. I have leaned on you
far too long; we all have. Now, dear, lean on me for the rest of the
way."

He bent his grizzled head upon hers and his eyes had the look of prayer
that Priscilla once discovered.

"Dick--has not told me his real trouble," Helen faintly said. "I know it
is somehow connected with a--nurse."

"The redheaded one," Ledyard put in; "a regular little marplot!" Then he
gave that gruff laugh of his that Helen knew to be a signal of surrender.

"It's odd," he went on, "how one can admire and respect when often he
disapproves. I disapprove of this--redheaded girl, but, if it will
comfort you any, my child, I will tell you this: Dick's future, in her
hands, would be founded on--on everlasting rock!"

"Perhaps--she won't have him!"

"Helen"--and Ledyard caught her to him--"you never would have said that
if you had been Dick's mother!"

"Perhaps--not!"

"No. You and I have only played second fiddles, first and last; but
second fiddles come in handy!"

The room grew dim and shadowy, and the two in the western window clung
together.

"Have you heard--John, that Margaret Moffatt has broken her engagement to
Clyde Huntter?"

"Yes. Where did you hear it?"

"She came--to see me; wanted to know how I was. She was very beautiful
and dear. She talked a good deal about that--that----"

"Redheaded nurse?" asked Ledyard.

"Yes. I couldn't quite see any connecting link then, but you know Dick
did go to that Swiss village last summer. I fear the party wasn't
properly chaperoned, for 'twas there he met--the nurse!"

"It--was!" grunted Ledyard.

"There is something sadly wrong with this broken engagement of
Margaret's, but I imagine no one will ever know. Girls are so--so
different from what they used to be."

"Yes," but a tone of doubt was in Ledyard's voice. Presently he said:
"Since Dick has left, or may leave, the profession, I suppose he'll take
to writing. He's always told me that when he could afford to, he'd like
to cut the traces and wollop the race with his pen. Many doctors would
like to do that. A gag and a chain and ball are not what they're cracked
up to be. The pen is mightier than the pill, sometimes, but it often
eliminates the butter from the bread."

Helen caught at the only part of this speech that she understood.

"There's the little income I'm living on," she said; "it's Dick's
father's. I wish--you'd let me give it to him--now. I am old-fashioned
enough to want to live on my husband's money."

"Exactly!" Ledyard drew her closer; "quite the proper feeling. It can be
easily arranged."

And while they sat in the gathering gloom, Travers was wending his way up
a village street, and wondering that he found things so little changed.

While his heart grew heavier, his steps hastened, and he felt like a
small boy again--a boy afraid of the dark, afraid of the mystery of
night--alone! The boy of the past had always known a heavy heart, too,
and that added reality to the touch.

There stood the old cottage with a sign "To Let" swinging from the porch.
Had no one lived there since they, he and the pretty creature he called
mother, had gone away?

There had been workmen in the house, evidently. They had carelessly left
the outer door open and a box of tools in the living-room. Travers went
in and sat down upon the chest, closed his eyes, and gave himself up to
his sad mood. Clearly he seemed to hear the low, sweet voice:

"Little son, is that you?" Yes, it was surely he! "Come home to--to
mother? Tired, dear?" Indeed he was tired--tired to the verge of
exhaustion. "Suppose--suppose we have a story? Come, little son! It shall
be a story of a fine, golden-haired princess who loves and loves, but--is
very, very wise. And you are to be the prince who is wise, too. If you
are not both very wise there will be trouble; and of course princesses
and princes do not have trouble." The old, foolish memory ran on with its
deeper truth breaking in upon the heart and soul of the man in the
haunted room.

Then Travers spoke aloud:

"Mother, I will make no mistake if I can help it, and as God hears me,
I will not cheat love. As far as lies in me, I will play fair for her
sake--and yours!"

When he uncovered his eyes he almost expected to see a creaky little
rocker and a sleepy boy resting on the breast of a woman so beautiful
that it was no wonder many had loved her.

"Poor, little, long-ago mother!"

Then he thought of Helen and her strong purpose in life, her devotion and
sacrifice.

"I must go to her!" he cried resolutely. "I owe her--much, much!"




CHAPTER XXV


The pines and the hemlocks stood out sharply against a pink, throbbing
sky in which the stars still shone faintly but brilliantly. It was five
o'clock of a dim morning, and no one was astir in the In-Place as the
little steamer indolently turned from the Big Bay into the Channel and
headed for the wharf.

Not a breath of air seemed stirring, and the stillness was unbroken
except by the panting of the engines.

Priscilla Glenn stood near the gangway of the boat. Now that she had left
all her beautiful love and life, she was eager to hide, like a hurt and
bruised thing, in the old, familiar home. Leaning her poor, tired head
against the post near her, she thought of the desolate wreck behind, and
the tears came to the deep, true eyes.

"I could have done--nothing else!" she murmured, as if to comfort the sad
thing she was. "It had to be! Margaret knew that; she understood. By now
she is as bereft as I; poor, dear love! Oh! it seems, just sometimes it
seems, like an army of men on one side and all of us women on the other.
Between us lies the great battlefield, and they, the men, are trying to
fight alone--fight our battle as well as theirs. And--they cannot! they
cannot!"

Just then the boat touched the wharf, and a sleepy man, a stranger to
Priscilla, materialized and looked at her queerly.

"For the Lodge?" he grunted.

"Yes--I suppose so. Yes, the Lodge."

"Up yonder." Then he turned to the freight. Once she was on the Green,
Priscilla paused and looked about.

"For which?" Then she smiled a ghost of her bright, sunny smile.

"My father's doors are shut to me," she sighed; "I cannot go to the
Lodge, yet! I must go--to----" Something touched her hand, and she
looked down. It was Farwell's dog, the old one, the one who used to play
with Priscilla when she was a little girl.

"You dear!" she cried, dropping beside him; "You've come to show me the
way. Beg, Tony, beg like a good fellow. I have a bit of cake for you!"

Clumsily, heavily, the old collie tried to respond, but of late he had
been excused from acting; and he was old, old.

"Then take it, Tony, take it without pay. That comes of being a doggie.
You ought to be grateful that you are a dog, and--need not pay!"

It was clear to her now that Farwell's home must be her first shelter,
and taking up her suit-case she passed over the Green and took the path
leading to the master's house.

Some one had been before her. Some one who had swept the hearth, lighted
a fire, and set the breakfast table. Pine had taken Toky's place and was
vying with that deposed oriental in whole-souled service.

Priscilla pushed the ever-unlatched door open and went inside. The bare
living-room had been transformed. John Boswell had transferred the
comfort, without the needless luxury, from the town home to the
In-Place--books, pictures, rugs, the winged chair and an equally easy one
across the hearth. And, yes, there was her own small rocker close by, as
if, in their detachment, they still remembered her and missed her and
were--ready for her coming! Priscilla noiselessly took off her wraps and
sat down, glad to rest again in the welcoming chair.

She swayed back and forth, her closely folded arms across her
fast-beating heart. She kept her face turned toward the door through
which she knew the men would enter. She struggled for control, for a
manner which would disarm their shock at seeing her; but never in her
life had she felt more defeated, more helplessly at bay.

The early morning light, streaming through the broad eastern window,
struck full across her where she sat in the low rocker; and so Boswell
and Farwell came upon her. They stopped short on the threshold and each,
in his way, sought to account for the apparition. The brave smile upon
Priscilla's face broke and fled miserably.

"I--I've been doshed!" she cried in a last effort at bravado, and then,
covering her face with her hands, she wept hysterically, repeating again
and again, "I've come home, come home--to--no home!"

They were beside her at once. Boswell's hand rested on the bowed head;
Farwell's on the back of her chair.

"Dear, bright Butterfly!" whispered Boswell comfortingly; "it has come to
grief in the Garden."

"Oh! I wanted to learn, and oh! Master Farwell, I said I was willing to
suffer, and I have, I have!"

Then she looked up and her unflinching courage returned.

"I was tired!" she moaned; "tired and hungry."

"After breakfast you will explain--only as much as you choose, child."
This from Farwell. "Make the toast for us, Priscilla. I remember how
you used to brown it without blackening it. Boswell always gets dreaming
on the second side of the slice."

After the strange meal Priscilla told very little, but both men read
volumes in her pale, thin face and understanding eyes.

"Damn them!" thought Farwell; "they have taken it out of her. I knew they
would; but they have not conquered her!"

Boswell thoughtfully considered her when her eyes were turned from him.

"She learned," he thought; "suffered and learned; but when she gets her
breath she will go back. The In-Place cannot hold her."

Then they told her of the Kenmore folk.

"Your father has had a stroke, Priscilla," Farwell said in reply to her
question; "it has made him blind. Long Jean cares for him. He will have
no other near him."

"And--he never wants me?" Priscilla whispered.

"No; but he needs you!" Boswell muttered. "You must let your velvety
wings brush his dark life; the touch will comfort him."

"And old Jerry?"

Farwell leaned forward to poke the fire.

"Old Jerry," said he, "has gone mildly--mad. All day he sits dressed in
his best, ready to start for Jerry-Jo's. He fancies that scapegoat of his
has a mansion and fortune, and is expecting his arrival. He amuses
himself by packing and unpacking a mangy old carpet-bag. Mary McAdam
looks after him and the village youngsters play with him. It's rather
a happy ending, after all."

Many a time after that Priscilla packed and unpacked the old carpet-bag,
while Jerry rambled on of his great and splendid lad to the "Miss from
the States."

"It's weak I am to-day, ma'am," he would say, "but to-morrow, to-morrow!
'Tis the Secret Portage I'll make for; the Fox is a bit too tricky for my
boat--a fine boat, ma'am. I'm thinking the Big Bay may be a trifle rough,
but the boat's a staunch one. Jerry-Jo's expecting me; but he'll
understand."

"I am sure he will be glad to see you, sir." Priscilla learned to play
the sad game. The children taught her and loved her, and all the quiet
village kept her secret. Mary McAdam claimed her, but Priscilla clung
to the two men who meant the only comfort she could know. They never
questioned her; never intruded upon her sad, and often pitiful, reserve;
but they yearned over her and cheered her as best they could.

Priscilla's visits to her father's house were often dramatic. At first
the sound of her voice disturbed and excited the blind man pathetically.

"Eh? eh?" he stormed, holding to Long Jean's hand; "who comes in my
door?"

"Oh! a lass--from the States," Jean replied with a reassuring pat on the
bony shoulder.

"From the States?" suspiciously.

"Aye. She's taken training in one of them big hospitables, and is a
friend to the crooked gentleman who bides with Master Farwell. The lass
comes to give me lessons in my trade." Jean had a touch of humour.

"I'll have no fandangoing with me!" asserted Glenn, settling back in his
chair. "Old ways are good enough for me, Jean, and remember that, if you
value your place. I want no woman about me who has notions different from
what God Almighty meant her to have. Larning is woman's curse. Give 'em
larning, I've always held, and you've headed 'em for perdition."

But Priscilla won him gradually, after he had become accustomed to her
disturbing voice. He would not have her touch him physically. She seemed
to rouse in him a strange unrest when she came near him, but eventually
he accepted her as a diversion and utilized her for his own hidden need.

One day, with a hint of spring in the air, he reached out a lean hand
toward the window near which Jean had placed him, and said:

"Woman, are you here?"

"Jean's gone--erranding." The old mother-word attracted Glenn's
attention.

"Eh?" he questioned.

"To the village. I'm waiting until she comes back. Can I do anything for
you, sir?"

"No. Is--is it a sunny day?"

"Glorious. The ice is melting now--in the shady places."

"I thought I felt the warmth. 'Tis cold and drear sitting forever in
darkness."

"I am sure it must be--terrible."

But Glenn resented pity.

"God's will is never terrible!" he flung back. Then:

"Are you one--who got larning?"

"I--learned to read, sir."

"And much--good it's done you--the larning! I warrant ye'd be better off
without it. Women are. Good women are content with God's way. My wife
was. Always willing, was she, to follow. God was enough for her--God and
me!"

"I wonder!"

"Eh? What was that?"

"Nothing, sir. May I read to you?"

"Is the Book there?"

"Right here on the stand. What shall I read?"

"There's one verse as haunts me at times; find it in Acts--the
seventeenth, I think--and along about the twenty-third verse. I used to
conjure what it might mean more than was good for me. It haunts me now,
though I ain't doubting but what the meaning will come to me, some day.
Them as sits in darkness often gets spiritual leadings."

And Priscilla read:

"'For as I passed by, and beheld your devotions, I found an altar with
this inscription, To the Unknown God. Whom, therefore, ye ignorantly
worship, him I declare unto you?'"

A silence fell between the old, blind father and the stranger-girl
looking yearningly into his face.

"I've conned it this way and that," Glenn said, with his oratorical
manner claiming him. "It might be that some worship an Unknown God and
the true God might pass by and set things straight. There be altars and
altars, and sometimes even my God seems----"

"An Unknown God?" Priscilla asked tenderly. "That must be such a lonely
feeling."

"No!" almost shrieked Nathaniel, as if the suggestion insulted him; "no!
The true God declared himself to me long since. But what do you make
of it, young Miss?"

Priscilla turned her eyes to the open, free outer world, where the
sunshine was and the stirring of spring.

"Sometimes," she whispered, "I love to think of God coming down from all
the shrines and altars of the world, and walking with his children--in
the Garden! They need him so. I do not like altars or shrines; the Garden
is the holiest place for God to be!"

"Thou blasphemer!" Glenn struggled to an upright position and his
sightless eyes were fixed upon his child. "Wouldst thou desecrate the
holy of holies, the altars of the living God?"

"If he is a living God he will not stay upon an altar; he will come and
walk with his children!"

The tone of the absorbed voice reached where heretofore it had never
touched.

"I'll have none of thee!" commanded Nathaniel, his face dangerously
purple. "Your words are of the--the devil! Leave me! leave me!" And for
the second time Priscilla was ordered from her father's house.

It did not matter. It was all so useless, and the future was so blank.
Still, to go back to Master Farwell's just then was impossible, and
Priscilla turned toward the wood road leading to the Far Hill Place. She
had no plan, no purpose. She was drifting, drifting, and could not see
her way. The bright sun touched her comfortingly. In the shadow it was
chilly; but the red rock was warm and luring. And so she came to the open
space and the almost forgotten shrine where once she had raised her
Strange God.

She sat down upon a fallen tree and looked over the little, many-islanded
bay to the Secret Portage. Through that she seemed to pass yearningly,
and her eyes grew large and strained. Then she stretched out her arms,
her young, empty arms.

"My Garden!" she called; "my Garden, my dear, dear love and Margaret's
God! Margaret's and mine!"

And so she sat for a while longer. Then, because the chill air crept
closer and closer, she arose and faced the old, bleached skull. The
winters had killed the sheltering vines that once hid it from all eyes
but hers. It stood bare and hideous, as if demanding that she again
worship it. A frenzy overpowered Priscilla. That whitened, dead thing
brought back memories that hurt and stung by their very sweetness. She
rushed to the spot and seized the forked stick upon which the skull
rested.

"This for all--Unknown Gods!" she cried in breathless passion, and dashed
the skull to the ground. "And this! and this!" She trampled it. "They
shall not keep you upon shrines! They shall not keep you hidden from all
in the Garden!" With that she took a handful of the shattered god and
flung it far and wide, with her blazing eyes fixed on the Secret Portage.

Standing so, she looked like a priestess of old defying all falseness and
traditional wrong.

Among the trees Richard Travers gazed upon the scene with a kind of
horror gripping him.

He was not a superstitious man, but he was a worn and weary one, and he
had come to the Far Hill Place, two days before, because, after much
searching, he had failed to find Priscilla Glynn, and his love was hurt
and desperate. He had wanted to hide and suffer where no eyes could
penetrate. But he had discovered that for a man to return to his boyhood
was but to undergo the torture of those who are haunted by lost spirits.
It had been damnable--that dreary, dismantled house back on the hill!
The nights had maddened him and left him unable to cope intelligently
with the days. Nothing comforting had been there. The pale boy he once
had been taunted him with memories of lowered ideals, unfilled promise
and purpose. He had travelled a long distance from the Far Hill Place,
and he was going back to fight it out--somehow, somewhere. He would
stop at Master Farwell's and then take the night steamer for the old
battle-ground. And just at that moment, in the open space, he saw the
strange sight that stopped his breath and heart for an instant.

Of course his wornout senses were being tricked. He had known of such
cases, and was now thoroughly alarmed. Like a man in delirium, he walked
into the open and confronted the fascinated gaze of the girl for whom he
had been searching for weeks.

"How came--you here?" he asked in a voice from which normal emotions were
eliminated.

"And--you?" she echoed.

They came a step nearer, their hands outstretched in a poor, blind
groping for solution and reality.

"Why--I am--I meant to tell you--some day. I am Priscilla Glenn--not
Glynn--Priscilla Glenn of--Lonely Farm."

"My God!" Travers came a step nearer, his face set and grim. "Of course!
I see it now--the dance! Don't you remember? The dance at the Swiss
village?"

"And the--the tune that made me cry. Who--are----How did _you_ know that
tune? How did you know--the In-Place?"

Their hands touched and clung now, desperately. Together they must find
their way out.

"I am--I was--the boy of the Far Hill Place. I played for you--once--to
dance--right here!"

Something seemed snapping in Priscilla's brain.

"Yes," she whispered, breathing hard and quick. "I remember now: you
taught me music, and--and you taught me--love, but you told me not to let
them kill my ideal; and, oh! I haven't! I haven't!"

She shut her eyes and reeled forward. She did not faint, but for a moment
her senses refused to accept impressions.

Travers knelt and caught her to him as she fell. Her dear head was upon
his knee once more, and he pressed his lips to the wonderful hair from
which the little hat had fallen. Then her eyes opened, but her lips
trembled.

"You--came all the way from the Place Beyond the Winds, little girl, to
show me my ideal again; to strike your blow--for women." Travers was
whispering.

"Your ideal? But no, dear love. Your ideal is back there--in the Garden."

"And yours? I--I do not understand, Priscilla. I am still dazed. What
Garden?"

"The big world, my dear man; your world."

"My blessed child! Do not look like that. Do you think I'm going back
without you? I've been looking for--Priscilla Glynn--fool that I was!
And you were--great heavens! You were the little nurse in St. Albans!"

"Yes--and you and I--stood by Jerry-Jo McAlpin's bed--you and I! That was
his secret."

"Priscilla, what do you mean?"

Then she told him, clinging to him, fearing that he might fall from her
hold as she had once fallen from his, on the mountain across the sea.

"And you danced before my eyes as only one woman on earth can dance--and
I did not know! Tricked by a name and--and the change in me! You were
always the same--the flame-spirit that I first saw--here!"

"And you played--that tune, and you were divinely good; and I--I did not
know."

"But we drifted straight to each other, my girl!"

"Only--to part."

"To part? Never! It's past the Dreamer's Rock for us, my sweet, and out
to the open sea. We'll slip our moorings to-night, and send word after!
I must have you, and at once. I know what it means to see you escaping my
hold. Flame-spirits are elusive."

"And--and Margaret?"

"She--needs you. A fortnight ago I saw her, and this is what she said,
smiling her old, brave smile: 'I think I could bear it better if her
dear, shining head was in sight. Greater love hath no woman! Find her and
bring her back!' That's your place, my sweet. Out there where the fight
is on. Such as you can show us--that 'tis no fight between men and women,
but one against ignorance and tradition. You'll trust yourself to me,
dear girl?"

[Illustration: "'It's past the Dreamer's Rock for us, my sweet,
and out to the open sea'"]

"I did--long ago!"

"To think"--Travers was gaining control of himself; the shock, the
readjustment, had been so sudden that sensation returned slowly--"to
think, dear blunderer, of your coming among us all, striking your blow,
and then rushing to your In-Place! But love is mightier than thou;
mightier than all else!"

"Not mightier than honour--such honour as Margaret knows!" Then fiercely:
"What right have I to my--joy, when she----"

"She told me that only by your happiness being consummated could she hope
for peace."

Travers's voice was low and reverent.

"What--a girl she is!" Priscilla faltered.

"The All Woman."

"Yes, the All Woman."

The sun began to drop behind the tall hemlocks. Priscilla shivered in the
arms that held her.

"Little girl, I wish I could wrap you in the old red cape you wore once,
before the shrine."

"It is gone now, like the shrine. Oh! my love, my love, to think of the
Garden makes me live again." The fancy caught Travers's imagination.

"The Garden!"

'Twas a day for dreamy wandering, now that they had come to a cleared
space from which they could see light.

"The Garden, with its flowers and weeds."

"And its men and women!" added Priscilla, her eyes full of gladness.
"Oh! long ago, I told Master Farwell that I felt Kenmore was only my
stopping-place; I feel it now so surely."

"Yes, my sweet, but you and I will return here to polish our ideals and
catch our breaths."

"In the Place Beyond the Winds, dear man?"

"Exactly! Those old Indians had a genius for names."

"And in the Garden--what are we to do?" Priscilla asked, her eyes growing
more practical. "They will have none of--Priscilla Glynn, you know. And
you, dear heart, what will they do to you, now that you have defied their
code?"

"Priscilla Glynn has done her best and is--gone! There will be a
Priscilla Travers with many a stern duty before her."

"Yes, but you?"

"I shall try to keep your golden head in sight, little girl! For the
rest--I have a small income--my father's. I must tell you about him and
my mother, some day; and I shall write--write; and men and women may read
what they might not be willing to listen to."

"I see! And oh! how rich and bright the way on ahead looks! Just when I
thought the clouds were crushing me, they opened and I saw----"

"What, Priscilla?"

"You!"

"And now," Travers got upon his feet and drew her up; "do you know what
is going to happen?"

"Can anything more happen to-day?"

"We are going to Master Farwell's, you and I. We are going to take him
with us to the little chapel down the Channel; there we'll leave
Priscilla Glenn, and, in her place, bring Priscilla Travers forth."

The colour rose to the thin, radiant face.

"And may we take John Boswell, too?"

"Boswell? Is he here?"

"Yes, with my Master Farwell."

Travers rapidly put loose ends of the past together, then exclaimed:

"God bless him; God bless Master Farwell!"

"I only know"--Priscilla's eyes were dim--"I only know--they are good
men--both!"

"Yes, both! And to-night," Travers came back to the present, "I will take
my wife away with me on the steamer."

"A poor, vagabond wife. Nothing but a heart full of love--as baggage."

"The Garden is a rich place, my love."

"And one can get so much for so little there." Priscilla meant to hold to
her dear old joke.

"And so little--for so much!"

"That's not the language of the Garden, good man!"

It was so easy to play, now that Travers was leading the way from the
wrecked shrine.

"You are right, my girl!" Then Travers stopped and faced her, his eyes
glowing with love and courage. "And to-morrow--is not yet touched!" he
said.

THE END



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End of Project Gutenberg's The Place Beyond the Winds, by Harriet T. Comstock