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  THE
  HISTORY
  OF
  EMILY MONTAGUE.
  In FOUR VOLUMES.


  By the AUTHOR of
  Lady JULIA MANDEVILLE.


      --"A kind indulgent sleep
  O'er works of length allowably may creep."
                             Horace.

  Vol. 1


  LONDON,
  Printed for J. DODSLEY, in Pall Mall.
  MDCCLXIX.




TO HIS EXCELLENCY GUY CARLETON, Esq. GOVERNOR AND COMMANDER IN
CHIEF OF His Majesty's Province of QUEBEC, &c. &c. &c.

SIR,

As the scene of so great a part of the following work is laid in
Canada, I flatter myself there is a peculiar propriety in addressing it
to your excellency, to whose probity and enlightened attention the
colony owes its happiness, and individuals that tranquillity of mind,
without which there can be no exertion of the powers of either the
understanding or imagination.

Were I to say all your excellency has done to diffuse, through this
province, so happy under your command, a spirit of loyalty and
attachment to our excellent Sovereign, of chearful obedience to the
laws, and of that union which makes the strength of government, I
should hazard your esteem by doing you justice.

I will, therefore, only beg leave to add mine to the general voice
of Canada; and to assure your excellency, that

    I am,
      With the utmost esteem
        and respect,
      Your most obedient servant,
          Frances Brooke.
    London,
  March 22, 1769.



THE HISTORY OF EMILY MONTAGUE.


LETTER 1.


To John Temple, Esq; at Paris.

Cowes, April 10, 1766.

After spending two or three very agreeable days here, with a party
of friends, in exploring the beauties of the Island, and dropping a
tender tear at Carisbrook Castle on the memory of the unfortunate
Charles the First, I am just setting out for America, on a scheme I
once hinted to you, of settling the lands to which I have a right as a
lieutenant-colonel on half pay. On enquiry and mature deliberation, I
prefer Canada to New-York for two reasons, that it is wilder, and that
the women are handsomer: the first, perhaps, every body will not
approve; the latter, I am sure, _you_ will.

You may perhaps call my project romantic, but my active temper is
ill suited to the lazy character of a reduc'd officer: besides that I
am too proud to narrow my circle of life, and not quite unfeeling
enough to break in on the little estate which is scarce sufficient to
support my mother and sister in the manner to which they have been
accustom'd.

What you call a sacrifice, is none at all; I love England, but am
not obstinately chain'd down to any spot of earth; nature has charms
every where for a man willing to be pleased: at my time of life, the
very change of place is amusing; love of variety, and the natural
restlessness of man, would give me a relish for this voyage, even if I
did not expect, what I really do, to become lord of a principality
which will put our large-acred men in England out of countenance. My
subjects indeed at present will be only bears and elks, but in time I
hope to see the _human face divine_ multiplying around me; and, in
thus cultivating what is in the rudest state of nature, I shall taste
one of the greatest of all pleasures, that of creation, and see order
and beauty gradually rise from chaos.

The vessel is unmoor'd; the winds are fair; a gentle breeze agitates
the bosom of the deep; all nature smiles: I go with all the eager hopes
of a warm imagination; yet friendship casts a lingering look behind.

Our mutual loss, my dear Temple, will be great. I shall never cease
to regret you, nor will you find it easy to replace the friend of your
youth. You may find friends of equal merit; you may esteem them
equally; but few connexions form'd after five and twenty strike root
like that early sympathy, which united us almost from infancy, and has
increas'd to the very hour of our separation.

What pleasure is there in the friendships of the spring of life,
before the world, the mean unfeeling selfish world, breaks in on the
gay mistakes of the just-expanding heart, which sees nothing but truth,
and has nothing but happiness in prospect!

I am not surpriz'd the heathens rais'd altars to friendship: 'twas
natural for untaught superstition to deify the source of every good;
they worship'd friendship, which animates the moral world, on the same
principle as they paid adoration to the sun, which gives life to the
world of nature.

I am summon'd on board. Adieu!

          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 2.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, June 27.

I have this moment your letter, my dear; I am happy to hear my
mother has been amus'd at Bath, and not at all surpriz'd to find she
rivals you in your conquests. By the way, I am not sure she is not
handsomer, notwithstanding you tell me you are handsomer than ever: I
am astonish'd she will lead a tall daughter about with her thus, to let
people into a secret they would never suspect, that she is past five
and twenty.

You are a foolish girl, Lucy: do you think I have not more pleasure
in continuing to my mother, by coming hither, the little indulgencies
of life, than I could have had by enjoying them myself? pray reconcile
her to my absence, and assure her she will make me happier by jovially
enjoying the trifle I have assign'd to her use, than by procuring me
the wealth of a Nabob, in which she was to have no share.

But to return; you really, Lucy, ask me such a million of questions,
'tis impossible to know which to answer first; the country, the
convents, the balls, the ladies, the beaux--'tis a history, not a
letter, you demand, and it will take me a twelvemonth to satisfy your
curiosity.

Where shall I begin? certainly with what must first strike a
soldier: I have seen then the spot where the amiable hero expir'd in
the arms of victory; have traced him step by step with equal
astonishment and admiration: 'tis here alone it is possible to form an
adequate idea of an enterprize, the difficulties of which must have
destroy'd hope itself had they been foreseen.

The country is a very fine one: you see here not only the
_beautiful_ which it has in common with Europe, but the _great
sublime_ to an amazing degree; every object here is magnificent: the
very people seem almost another species, if we compare them with the
French from whom they are descended.

On approaching the coast of America, I felt a kind of religious
veneration, on seeing rocks which almost touch'd the clouds, cover'd
with tall groves of pines that seemed coeval with the world itself: to
which veneration the solemn silence not a little contributed; from Cape
Rosieres, up the river St. Lawrence, during a course of more than two
hundred miles, there is not the least appearance of a human footstep;
no objects meet the eye but mountains, woods, and numerous rivers,
which seem to roll their waters in vain.

It is impossible to behold a scene like this without lamenting the
madness of mankind, who, more merciless than the fierce inhabitants of
the howling wilderness, destroy millions of their own species in the
wild contention for a little portion of that earth, the far greater
part of which remains yet unpossest, and courts the hand of labour for
cultivation.

The river itself is one of the noblest in the world; its breadth is
ninety miles at its entrance, gradually, and almost imperceptibly,
decreasing; interspers'd with islands which give it a variety
infinitely pleasing, and navigable near five hundred miles from the
sea.

Nothing can be more striking than the view of Quebec as you
approach; it stands on the summit of a boldly-rising hill, at the
confluence of two very beautiful rivers, the St. Lawrence and St.
Charles, and, as the convents and other public buildings first meet the
eye, appears to great advantage from the port. The island of Orleans,
the distant view of the cascade of Montmorenci, and the opposite
village of Beauport, scattered with a pleasing irregularity along the
banks of the river St. Charles, add greatly to the charms of the
prospect.

I have just had time to observe, that the Canadian ladies have the
vivacity of the French, with a superior share of beauty: as to balls
and assemblies, we have none at present, it being a kind of interregnum
of government: if I chose to give you the political state of the
country, I could fill volumes with the _pours_ and the _contres_;
but I am not one of those sagacious observers, who, by staying a week
in a place, think themselves qualified to give, not only its natural,
but its moral and political history: besides which, you and I are
rather too young to be very profound politicians. We are in
expectation of a successor from whom we hope a new golden age; I shall
then have better subjects for a letter to a lady.

Adieu! my dear girl! say every thing for me to my mother. Yours,

          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 3.


To Col. Rivers, at Quebec.

London, April 30.

Indeed! gone to people the wilds of America, Ned, and multiply the
_human face divine?_ 'tis a project worthy a tall handsome colonel of
twenty seven: let me see; five feet, eleven inches, well made, with
fine teeth, speaking eyes, a military air, and the look of a man of
fashion: spirit, generosity, a good understanding, some knowledge, an
easy address, a compassionate heart, a strong inclination for the
ladies, and in short every quality a gentleman should have: excellent
all these for colonization: _prenez garde, mes cheres dames_. You
have nothing against you, Ned, but your modesty; a very useless virtue
on French ground, or indeed on any ground: I wish you had a little more
consciousness of your own merits: remember that _to know one's self_
the oracle of Apollo has pronounced to be the perfection of human
wisdom. Our fair friend Mrs. H---- says, "Colonel Rivers wants nothing
to make him the most agreeable man breathing but a little dash of the
coxcomb."

For my part, I hate humility in a man of the world; 'tis worse than
even the hypocrisy of the saints: I am not ignorant, and therefore
never deny, that I am a very handsome fellow; and I have the pleasure
to find all the women of the same opinion.

I am just arriv'd from Paris: the divine Madame De ---- is as lovely
and as constant as ever; 'twas cruel to leave her, but who can account
for the caprices of the heart? mine was the prey of a young
unexperienc'd English charmer, just come out of a convent,

  "The bloom of opening flowers--"

Ha, Ned? But I forget; you are for the full-blown rose: 'tis a
happiness, as we are friends, that 'tis impossible we can ever be
rivals; a woman is grown out of my taste some years before she comes up
to yours: absolutely, Ned, you are too nice; for my part, I am not so
delicate; youth and beauty are sufficient for me; give me blooming
seventeen, and I cede to you the whole empire of sentiment.

This, I suppose, will find you trying the force of your destructive
charms on the savage dames of America; chasing females wild as the
winds thro' woods as wild as themselves: I see you pursuing the stately
relict of some renown'd Indian chief, some plump squaw arriv'd at the
age of sentiment, some warlike queen dowager of the Ottawas or
Tuscaroras.

And pray, _comment trouvez vous les dames sauvages?_ all pure
and genuine nature, I suppose; none of the affected coyness of Europe:
your attention there will be the more obliging, as the Indian heroes, I
am told, are not very attentive to the charms of the _beau sexe_.

You are very sentimental on the subject of friendship; no one has
more exalted notions of this species of affection than myself, yet I
deny that it gives life to the moral world; a gallant man, like you,
might have found a more animating principle:

  _O Venus! O Mere de l'Amour!_

I am most gloriously indolent this morning, and would not write
another line if the empire of the world (observe I do not mean the
female world) depended on it.

      Adieu!
          J. Temple.



LETTER 4.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Quebec, July 1.

'Tis very true, Jack; I have no relish for _the Misses_; for
puling girls in hanging sleeves, who feel no passion but vanity, and,
without any distinguishing taste, are dying for the first man who tells
them they are handsome. Take your boarding-school girls; but give me
_a woman_; one, in short, who has a soul; not a cold inanimate form,
insensible to the lively impressions of real love, and unfeeling as the
wax baby she has just thrown away.

You will allow Prior to be no bad judge of female merit; and you may
remember his Egyptian maid, the favorite of the luxurious King
Solomon, is painted in full bloom.

By the way, Jack, there is generally a certain hoity-toity
inelegance of form and manner at seventeen, which in my opinion is not
balanc'd by freshness of complexion, the only advantage girls have to
boast of.

I have another objection to girls, which is, that they will
eternally fancy every man they converse with has designs; a coquet and
a prude _in the bud_ are equally disagreeable; the former expects
universal adoration, the latter is alarm'd even at that general
civility which is the right of all their sex; of the two however the
last is, I think, much the most troublesome; I wish these very
apprehensive young ladies knew, their _virtue_ is not half so
often in danger as they imagine, and that there are many male creatures
to whom they may safely shew politeness without being drawn into any
concessions inconsistent with the strictest honor. We are not half such
terrible animals as mammas, nurses, and novels represent us; and, if my
opinion is of any weight, I am inclin'd to believe those tremendous
men, who have designs on the whole sex, are, and ever were, characters
as fabulous as the giants of romance.

Women after twenty begin to know this, and therefore converse with
us on the footing of rational creatures, without either fearing or
expecting to find every man a lover.

To do the ladies justice however, I have seen the same absurdity in
my own sex, and have observed many a very good sort of man turn pale at
the politeness of an agreeable woman.

I lament this mistake, in both sexes, because it takes greatly from
the pleasure of mix'd society, the only society for which I have any
relish.

Don't, however, fancy that, because I dislike _the Misses_, I
have a taste for their grandmothers; there is a golden mean, Jack, of
which you seem to have no idea.

You are very ill inform'd as to the manners of the Indian ladies;
'tis in the bud alone these wild roses are accessible; liberal to
profusion of their charms before marriage, they are chastity itself
after: the moment they commence wives, they give up the very idea of
pleasing, and turn all their thoughts to the cares, and those not the
most delicate cares, of domestic life: laborious, hardy, active, they
plough the ground, they sow, they reap; whilst the haughty husband
amuses himself with hunting, shooting, fishing, and such exercises only
as are the image of war; all other employments being, according to his
idea, unworthy the dignity of man.

I have told you the labors of savage life, but I should observe that
they are only temporary, and when urg'd by the sharp tooth of
necessity: their lives are, upon the whole, idle beyond any thing we
can conceive. If the Epicurean definition of happiness is just, that it
consists in indolence of body, and tranquillity of mind, the Indians of
both sexes are the happiest people on earth; free from all care, they
enjoy the present moment, forget the past, and are without solicitude
for the future: in summer, stretch'd on the verdant turf, they sing,
they laugh, they play, they relate stories of their ancient heroes to
warm the youth to war; in winter, wrap'd in the furs which bounteous
nature provides them, they dance, they feast, and despise the rigors of
the season, at which the more effeminate Europeans tremble.

War being however the business of their lives, and the first passion
of their souls, their very pleasures take their colors from it: every
one must have heard of the war dance, and their songs are almost all on
the same subject: on the most diligent enquiry, I find but one love
song in their language, which is short and simple, tho' perhaps not
inexpressive:

  "I love you,
  I love you dearly,
  I love you all day long."

An old Indian told me, they had also songs of friendship, but I
could never procure a translation of one of them: on my pressing this
Indian to translate one into French for me, he told me with a haughty
air, the Indians were not us'd to make translations, and that if I
chose to understand their songs I must learn their language. By the
way, their language is extremely harmonious, especially as pronounced
by their women, and as well adapted to music as Italian itself. I must
not here omit an instance of their independent spirit, which is, that
they never would submit to have the service of the church, tho' they
profess the Romish religion, in any language but their own; the women,
who have in general fine voices, sing in the choir with a taste and
manner that would surprize you, and with a devotion that might edify
more polish'd nations.

The Indian women are tall and well shaped; have good eyes, and
before marriage are, except their color, and their coarse greasy black
hair, very far from being disagreeable; but the laborious life they
afterwards lead is extremely unfavorable to beauty; they become coarse
and masculine, and lose in a year or two the power as well as the
desire of pleasing. To compensate however for the loss of their charms,
they acquire a new empire in marrying; are consulted in all affairs of
state, chuse a chief on every vacancy of the throne, are sovereign
arbiters of peace and war, as well as of the fate of those unhappy
captives that have the misfortune to fall into their hands, who are
adopted as children, or put to the most cruel death, as the wives of
the conquerors smile or frown.

A Jesuit missionary told me a story on this subject, which one
cannot hear without horror: an Indian woman with whom he liv'd on his
mission was feeding her children, when her husband brought in an
English prisoner; she immediately cut off his arm, and gave her
children the streaming blood to drink: the Jesuit remonstrated on the
cruelty of the action, on which, looking sternly at him, "I would have
them warriors," said she, "and therefore feed them with the food of
men."

This anecdote may perhaps disgust you with the Indian ladies, who
certainly do not excel in female softness. I will therefore turn to the
Canadian, who have every charm except that without which all other
charms are to me insipid, I mean sensibility: they are gay, coquet, and
sprightly; more gallant than sensible; more flatter'd by the vanity of
inspiring passion, than capable of feeling it themselves; and, like
their European countrywomen, prefer the outward attentions of unmeaning
admiration to the real devotion of the heart. There is not perhaps on
earth a race of females, who talk so much, or feel so little, of love
as the French; the very reverse is in general true of the English: my
fair countrywomen seem ashamed of the charming sentiment to which they
are indebted for all their power.

Adieu! I am going to attend a very handsome French lady, who allows
me the honor to drive her _en calache_ to our Canadian Hyde Park,
the road to St. Foix, where you will see forty or fifty calashes, with
pretty women in them, parading every evening: you will allow the
apology to be admissible.

          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 5.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, July 4.

What an inconstant animal is man! do you know, Lucy, I begin to be
tir'd of the lovely landscape round me? I have enjoy'd from it all the
pleasure meer inanimate objects can give, and find 'tis a pleasure that
soon satiates, if not relieved by others which are more lively. The
scenery is to be sure divine, but one grows weary of meer scenery: the
most enchanting prospect soon loses its power of pleasing, when the eye
is accustom'd to it: we gaze at first transported on the charms of
nature, and fancy they will please for ever; but, alas! it will not
do; we sigh for society, the conversation of those dear to us; the
more animated pleasures of the heart. There are fine women, and men of
merit here; but, as the affections are not in our power, I have not
yet felt my heart gravitate towards any of them. I must absolutely set
in earnest about my settlement, in order to emerge from the state of
vegetation into which I seem falling.

But to your last: you ask me a particular account of the convents
here. Have you an inclination, my dear, to turn nun? if you have, you
could not have applied to a properer person; my extreme modesty and
reserve, and my speaking French, having made me already a great
favourite with the older part of all the three communities, who
unanimously declare colonel Rivers to be _un tres aimable homme_,
and have given me an unlimited liberty of visiting them whenever I
please: they now and then treat _me_ with a sight of some of the
young ones, but this is a favor not allow'd to all the world.

There are three religious houses at Quebec, so you have choice; the
Ursulines, the Hotel Dieu, and the General Hospital. The first is the
severest order in the Romish church, except that very cruel one which
denies its fair votaries the inestimable liberty of speech. The house
is large and handsome, but has an air of gloominess, with which the
black habit, and the livid paleness of the nuns, extremely corresponds.
The church is, contrary to the style of the rest of the convent,
ornamented and lively to the last degree. The superior is an
English-woman of good family, who was taken prisoner by the savages
when a child, and plac'd here by the generosity of a French officer.
She is one of the most amiable women I ever knew, with a benevolence in
her countenance which inspires all who see her with affection: I am
very fond of her conversation, tho' sixty and a nun.

The Hotel Dieu is very pleasantly situated, with a view of the two
rivers, and the entrance of the port: the house is chearful, airy, and
agreeable; the habit extremely becoming, a circumstance a handsome
woman ought by no means to overlook; 'tis white with a black gauze
veil, which would shew your complexion to great advantage. The order is
much less severe than the Ursulines, and I might add, much more useful,
their province being the care of the sick: the nuns of this house are
sprightly, and have a look of health which is wanting at the Ursulines.

The General Hospital, situated about a mile out of town, on the
borders of the river St. Charles, is much the most agreeable of the
three. The order and the habit are the same with the Hotel Dieu, except
that to the habit is added the cross, generally worn in Europe by
canonesses only: a distinction procur'd for them by their founder, St.
Vallier, the second bishop of Quebec. The house is, without, a very
noble building; and neatness, elegance and propriety reign within. The
nuns, who are all of the noblesse, are many of them handsome, and all
genteel, lively, and well bred; they have an air of the world, their
conversation is easy, spirited, and polite: with them you almost forget
the recluse in the woman of condition. In short, you have the best
nuns at the Ursulines, the most agreeable women at the General
Hospital: all however have an air of chagrin, which they in vain
endeavour to conceal; and the general eagerness with which they tell
you unask'd they are happy, is a strong proof of the contrary.

Tho' the most indulgent of all men to the follies of others,
especially such as have their source in mistaken devotion; tho' willing
to allow all the world to play the fool their own way, yet I cannot
help being fir'd with a degree of zeal against an institution equally
incompatible with public good, and private happiness; an institution
which cruelly devotes beauty and innocence to slavery, regret, and
wretchedness; to a more irksome imprisonment than the severest laws
inflict on the worst of criminals.

Could any thing but experience, my dear Lucy, make it be believ'd
possible that there should be rational beings, who think they are
serving the God of mercy by inflicting on themselves voluntary
tortures, and cutting themselves off from that state of society in
which he has plac'd them, and for which they were form'd? by renouncing
the best affections of the human heart, the tender names of friend, of
wife, of mother? and, as far as in them lies, counter-working creation?
by spurning from them every amusement however innocent, by refusing the
gifts of that beneficent power who made us to be happy, and destroying
his most precious gifts, health, beauty, sensibility, chearfulness, and
peace!

My indignation is yet awake, from having seen a few days since at
the Ursulines, an extreme lovely young girl, whose countenance spoke a
soul form'd for the most lively, yet delicate, ties of love and
friendship, led by a momentary enthusiasm, or perhaps by a childish
vanity artfully excited, to the foot of those altars, which she will
probably too soon bathe with the bitter tears of repentance and
remorse.

The ceremony, form'd to strike the imagination, and seduce the heart
of unguarded youth, is extremely solemn and affecting; the procession
of the nuns, the sweetness of their voices in the choir, the dignified
devotion with which the charming enthusiast received the veil, and took
the cruel vow which shut her from the world for ever, struck my heart
in spite of my reason, and I felt myself touch'd even to tears by a
superstition I equally pity and despise.

I am not however certain it was the ceremony which affected me thus
strongly; it was impossible not to feel for this amiable victim; never
was there an object more interesting; her form was elegance itself;
her air and motion animated and graceful; the glow of pleasure was on
her cheek, the fire of enthusiasm in her eyes, which are the finest I
ever saw: never did I see joy so livelily painted on the countenance of
the happiest bride; she seem'd to walk in air; her whole person look'd
more than human.

An enemy to every species of superstition, I must however allow it
to be least destructive to true virtue in your gentle sex, and
therefore to be indulg'd with least danger: the superstition of men is
gloomy and ferocious; it lights the fire, and points the dagger of the
assassin; whilst that of women takes its color from the sex; is soft,
mild, and benevolent; exerts itself in acts of kindness and charity,
and seems only substituting the love of God to that of man.

Who can help admiring, whilst they pity, the foundress of the
Ursuline convent, Madame de la Peltrie, to whom the very colony in some
measure owes its existence? young, rich and lovely; a widow in the
bloom of life, mistress of her own actions, the world was gay before
her, yet she left all the pleasures that world could give, to devote
her days to the severities of a religion she thought the only true one:
she dar'd the dangers of the sea, and the greater dangers of a savage
people; she landed on an unknown shore, submitted to the extremities of
cold and heat, of thirst and hunger, to perform a service she thought
acceptable to the Deity. To an action like this, however mistaken the
motive, bigotry alone will deny praise: the man of candor will only
lament that minds capable of such heroic virtue are not directed to
views more conducive to their own and the general happiness.

I am unexpectedly call'd this moment, my dear Lucy, on some business
to Montreal, from whence you shall hear from me.

      Adieu!
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 6.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Montreal, July 9.

I am arriv'd, my dear, and have brought my heart safe thro' such a
continued fire as never poor knight errant was exposed to; waited on at
every stage by blooming country girls, full of spirit and coquetry,
without any of the village bashfulness of England, and dressed like
the shepherdesses of romance. A man of adventure might make a pleasant
journey to Montreal.

The peasants are ignorant, lazy, dirty, and stupid beyond all
belief; but hospitable, courteous, civil; and, what is particularly
agreeable, they leave their wives and daughters to do the honors of the
house: in which obliging office they acquit themselves with an
attention, which, amidst every inconvenience apparent (tho' I am told
not real) poverty can cause, must please every guest who has a soul
inclin'd to be pleas'd: for my part, I was charm'd with them, and eat
my homely fare with as much pleasure as if I had been feasting on
ortolans in a palace. Their conversation is lively and amusing; all
the little knowledge of Canada is confined to the sex; very few, even
of the seigneurs, being able to write their own names.

The road from Quebec to Montreal is almost a continued street, the
villages being numerous, and so extended along the banks of the river
St. Lawrence as to leave scarce a space without houses in view; except
where here or there a river, a wood, or mountain intervenes, as if to
give a more pleasing variety to the scene. I don't remember ever having
had a more agreeable journey; the fine prospects of the day so
enliven'd by the gay chat of the evening, that I was really sorry when
I approach'd Montreal.

The island of Montreal, on which the town stands, is a very lovely
spot; highly cultivated, and tho' less wild and magnificent, more
smiling than the country round Quebec: the ladies, who seem to make
pleasure their only business, and most of whom I have seen this morning
driving about the town in calashes, and making what they call, the
_tour de la ville_, attended by English officers, seem generally
handsome, and have an air of sprightliness with which I am charm'd; I
must be acquainted with them all, for tho' my stay is to be short, I
see no reason why it should be dull. I am told they are fond of little
rural balls in the country, and intend to give one as soon as I have
paid my respects in form.

Six in the evening.

I am just come from dining with the ---- regiment, and find I have a
visit to pay I was not aware of, to two English ladies who are a few
miles out of town: one of them is wife to the major of the regiment,
and the other just going to be married to a captain in it, Sir George
Clayton, a young handsome baronet, just come to his title and a very
fine estate, by the death of a distant relation: he is at present at
New York, and I am told they are to be married as soon as he comes
back.

Eight o'clock.

I have been making some flying visits to the French ladies; tho' I
have not seen many beauties, yet in general the women are handsome;
their manner is easy and obliging, they make the most of their charms
by their vivacity, and I certainly cannot be displeas'd with their
extreme partiality for the English officers; their own men, who indeed
are not very attractive, have not the least chance for any share in
their good graces.

Thursday morning.

I am just setting out with a friend for Major Melmoth's, to pay my
compliments to the two ladies: I have no relish for this visit; I hate
misses that are going to be married; they are always so full of the
dear man, that they have not common civility to other people. I am told
however both the ladies are agreeable.

14th. Eight in the evening.

Agreeable, Lucy! she is an angel: 'tis happy for me she is engag'd;
nothing else could secure my heart, of which you know I am very
tenacious: only think of finding beauty, delicacy, sensibility, all
that can charm in woman, hid in a wood in Canada!

You say I am given to be enthusiastic in my approbations, but she is
really charming. I am resolv'd not only to have a friendship for her
myself, but that _you_ shall, and have told her so; she comes to
England as soon as she is married; you are form'd to love each other.

But I must tell you; Major Melmoth kept us a week at his house in
the country, in one continued round of rural amusements; by which I do
not mean hunting and shooting, but such pleasures as the ladies could
share; little rustic balls and parties round the neighbouring country,
in which parties we were joined by all the fine women at Montreal. Mrs.
Melmoth is a very pleasing, genteel brunette, but Emily Montague--you
will say I am in love with her if I describe her, and yet I declare to
you I am not: knowing she loves another, to whom she is soon to be
united, I see her charms with the same kind of pleasure I do yours; a
pleasure, which, tho' extremely lively, is by our situation without the
least mixture of desire.

I have said, she is charming; there are men here who do not think
so, but to me she is loveliness itself. My ideas of beauty are perhaps
a little out of the common road: I hate a woman of whom every man
coldly says, _she is handsome_; I adore beauty, but it is not meer
features or complexion to which I give that name; 'tis life,
'tis spirit, 'tis animation, 'tis--in one word, 'tis Emily
Montague--without being regularly beautiful, she charms every
sensible heart; all other women, however lovely, appear marble statues
near her: fair; pale (a paleness which gives the idea of delicacy
without destroying that of health), with dark hair and eyes, the
latter large and languishing, she seems made to feel to a trembling
excess the passion she cannot fail of inspiring: her elegant form has
an air of softness and languor, which seizes the whole soul in a
moment: her eyes, the most intelligent I ever saw, hold you enchain'd
by their bewitching sensibility.

There are a thousand unspeakable charms in her conversation; but
what I am most pleas'd with, is the attentive politeness of her manner,
which you seldom see in a person in love; the extreme desire of
pleasing one man generally taking off greatly from the attention due to
all the rest. This is partly owing to her admirable understanding, and
partly to the natural softness of her soul, which gives her the
strongest desire of pleasing. As I am a philosopher in these matters,
and have made the heart my study, I want extremely to see her with her
lover, and to observe the gradual encrease of her charms in his
presence; love, which embellishes the most unmeaning countenance, must
give to her's a fire irresistible: what eyes! when animated by
tenderness!

The very soul acquires a new force and beauty by loving; a woman of
honor never appears half so amiable, or displays half so many virtues,
as when sensible to the merit of a man who deserves her affection.
Observe, Lucy, I shall never allow you to be handsome till I hear you
are in love.

Did I tell you Emily Montague had the finest hand and arm in the
world? I should however have excepted yours: her tone of voice too has
the same melodious sweetness, a perfection without which the loveliest
woman could never make the least impression on my heart: I don't think
you are very unlike upon the whole, except that she is paler. You know,
Lucy, you have often told me I should certainly have been in love with
you if I had not been your brother: this resemblance is a proof you
were right. You are really as handsome as any woman can be whose
sensibility has never been put in motion.

I am to give a ball to-morrow; Mrs. Melmoth is to have the honors of
it, but as she is with child, she does not dance. This circumstance has
produc'd a dispute not a little flattering to my vanity: the ladies are
making interest to dance with me; what a happy exchange have I made!
what man of common sense would stay to be overlook'd in England, who
can have rival beauties contend for him in Canada? This important
point is not yet settled; the _etiquette_ here is rather difficult
to adjust; as to me, I have nothing to do in the consultation; my
hand is destin'd to the longest pedigree; we stand prodigiously on our
noblesse at Montreal.

Four o'clock.

After a dispute in which two French ladies were near drawing their
husbands into a duel, the point of honor is yielded by both to Miss
Montague; each insisting only that I should not dance with the other:
for my part, I submit with a good grace, as you will suppose.

Saturday morning.

I never passed a more agreeable evening: we have our amusements
here, I assure you: a set of fine young fellows, and handsome women,
all well dress'd, and in humor with themselves, and with each other: my
lovely Emily like Venus amongst the Graces, only multiplied to about
sixteen. Nothing is, in my opinion, so favorable to the display of
beauty as a ball. A state of rest is ungraceful; all nature is most
beautiful in motion; trees agitated by the wind, a ship under sail, a
horse in the course, a fine woman dancing: never any human being had
such an aversion to still life as I have.

I am going back to Melmoth's for a month; don't be alarm'd, Lucy! I
see all her perfections, but I see them with the cold eye of admiration
only: a woman engaged loses all her attractions as a woman; there is
no love without a ray of hope: my only ambition is to be her friend; I
want to be the confidant of her passion. With what spirit such a mind
as hers must love!

      Adieu! my dear!
        Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 7.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Montreal, August 15.

By Heavens, Lucy, this is more than man can bear; I was mad to stay
so long at Melmoth's; there is no resisting this little seducer: 'tis
shameful in such a lovely woman to have understanding too; yet even
this I could forgive, had she not that enchanting softness in her
manner, which steals upon the soul, and would almost make ugliness
itself charm; were she but vain, one had some chance, but she will take
upon her to have no consciousness, at least no apparent consciousness,
of her perfections, which is really intolerable. I told her so last
night, when she put on such a malicious smile--I believe the little
tyrant wants to add me to the list of her slaves; but I was not form'd
to fill up a train. The woman I love must be so far from giving
another the preference, that she must have no soul but for me; I am one
of the most unreasonable men in the world on this head; she may fancy
what she pleases, but I set her and all her attractions at defiance: I
have made my escape, and shall set off for Quebec in an hour. Flying
is, I must acknowledge, a little out of character, and unbecoming a
soldier; but in these cases, it is the very best thing man or woman
either can do, when they doubt their powers of resistance.

I intend to be ten days going to Quebec. I propose visiting the
priests at every village, and endeavouring to get some knowledge of the
nature of the country, in order to my intended settlement. Idleness
being the root of all evil, and the nurse of love, I am determin'd to
keep myself employed; nothing can be better suited to my temper than
my present design; the pleasure of cultivating lands here is as much
superior to what can be found in the same employment in England, as
watching the expanding rose, and beholding the falling leaves: America
is in infancy, Europe in old age. Nor am I very ill qualified for this
agreable task: I have studied the Georgicks, and am a pretty enough
kind of a husbandman as far as theory goes; nay, I am not sure I shall
not be, even in practice, the best _gentleman_ farmer in the
province.

You may expect soon to hear of me in the _Museum Rusticum_; I
intend to make amazing discoveries in the rural way: I have already
found out, by the force of my own genius, two very uncommon
circumstances; that in Canada, contrary to what we see every where
else, the country is rich, the capital poor; the hills fruitful, the
vallies barren. You see what excellent dispositions I have to be an
useful member of society: I had always a strong biass to the study of
natural philosophy.

Tell my mother how well I am employ'd, and she cannot but approve my
voyage: assure her, my dear, of my tenderest regard.

The chaise is at the door.

      Adieu!
          Ed. Rivers.

The lover is every hour expected; I am not quite sure I should have
lik'd to see him arrive: a third person, you know, on such an occasion,
sinks into nothing; and I love, wherever I am, to be one of the figures
which strike the eye; I hate to appear on the back ground of the
picture.



LETTER 8.


To Miss Rivers.

Quebec, Aug. 24.

You can't think, my dear, what a fund of useful knowledge I have
treasur'd up during my journey from Montreal. This colony is a rich
mine yet unopen'd; I do not mean of gold and silver, but of what are
of much more real value, corn and cattle. Nothing is wanting but
encouragement and cultivation; the Canadians are at their ease even
without labor; nature is here a bounteous mother, who pours forth her
gifts almost unsolicited: bigotry, stupidity, and laziness, united,
have not been able to keep the peasantry poor. I rejoice to find such
admirable capabilities where I propose to fix my dominion.

I was hospitably entertained by the curés all the way down, tho'
they are in general but ill provided for: the parochial clergy are
useful every where, but I have a great aversion to monks, those drones
in the political hive, whose whole study seems to be to make themselves
as useless to the world as possible. Think too of the shocking
indelicacy of many of them, who make it a point of religion to abjure
linen, and wear their habits till they drop off. How astonishing that
any mind should suppose the Deity an enemy to cleanliness! the Jewish
religion was hardly any thing else.

I paid my respects wherever I stopped, to the _seigneuress_ of
the village; for as to the seigneurs, except two or three, if they had
not wives, they would not be worth visiting.

I am every day more pleased with the women here; and, if I was
gallant, should be in danger of being a convert to the French stile of
gallantry; which certainly debases the mind much less than ours.

But what is all this to my Emily? How I envy Sir George! what
happiness has Heaven prepared for him, if he has a soul to taste it!

I really must not think of her; I found so much delight in her
conversation, it was quite time to come away; I am almost ashamed to
own how much difficulty I found in leaving her: do you know I have
scarce slept since? This is absurd, but I cannot help it; which by the
way is an admirable excuse for any thing.

I have been come but two hours, and am going to Silleri, to pay my
compliments to your friend Miss Fermor, who arrived with her father,
who comes to join his regiment, since I left Quebec. I hear there has
been a very fine importation of English ladies during my absence. I am
sorry I have not time to visit the rest, but I go to-morrow morning to
the Indian village for a fortnight, and have several letters to write
to-night.

  Adieu! I am interrupted,
      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 9.


To Mrs. Melmoth, at Montreal.

Quebec, August 24.

I cannot, Madam, express my obligation to you for having added a
postscript to Major Melmoth's letter: I am sure he will excuse my
answering the whole to you; if not, I beg he may know that I shall be
very pert about it, being much more solicitous to please you than him,
for a thousand reasons too tedious to mention.

I thought you had more penetration than to suppose me indifferent:
on the contrary, sensibility is my fault; though it is not your little
every-day beauties who can excite it: I have admirable dispositions to
love, though I am hard to please: in short, _I am not cruel, I am
only nice_: do but you, or your divine friend, give me leave to wear
your chains, and you shall soon be convinced I can love _like an
angel_, when I set in earnest about it. But, alas! you are married,
and in love with your husband; and your friend is in a situation still
more unfavorable to a lover's hopes. This is particularly unfortunate,
as you are the only two of your bewitching sex in Canada, for whom my
heart feels the least sympathy. To be plain, but don't tell the little
Major, I am more than half in love with you both, and, if I was the
grand Turk, should certainly fit out a fleet, to seize, and bring you
to my seraglio.

There is one virtue I admire extremely in you both; I mean, that
humane and tender compassion for the poor men, which prompts you to be
always seen together; if you appeared separate, where is the hero who
could resist either of you?

You ask me how I like the French ladies at Montreal: I think them
extremely pleasing; and many of them handsome; I thought Madame
L---- so, even near you and Miss Montague; which is, I think, saying as
much as can be said on the subject.

I have just heard by accident that Sir George is arrived at
Montreal. Assure Miss Montague, no one can be more warmly interested in
her happiness than I am: she is the most perfect work of Heaven; may
she be the happiest! I feel much more on this occasion than I can
express: a mind like hers must, in marriage, be exquisitely happy or
miserable: my friendship makes me tremble for her, notwithstanding the
worthy character I have heard of Sir George.

I will defer till another time what I had to say to Major Melmoth.

  I have the honour to be,
      Madam,
        Yours &c.
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 10.


Silleri, August 24.

I have been a month arrived, my dear, without having seen your
brother, who is at Montreal, but I am told is expected to-day. I have
spent my time however very agreably. I know not what the winter may be,
but I am enchanted with the beauty of this country in summer; bold,
picturesque, romantic, nature reigns here in all her wanton
luxuriance, adorned by a thousand wild graces which mock the cultivated
beauties of Europe. The scenery about the town is infinitely lovely;
the prospect extensive, and diversified by a variety of hills, woods,
rivers, cascades, intermingled with smiling farms and cottages, and
bounded by distant mountains which seem to scale the very Heavens.

The days are much hotter here than in England, but the heat is more
supportable from the breezes which always spring up about noon; and the
evenings are charming beyond expression. We have much thunder and
lightening, but very few instances of their being fatal: the thunder is
more magnificent and aweful than in Europe, and the lightening brighter
and more beautiful; I have even seen it of a clear pale purple,
resembling the gay tints of the morning.

The verdure is equal to that of England, and in the evening acquires
an unspeakable beauty from the lucid splendor of the fire-flies
sparkling like a thousand little stars on the trees and on the grass.

There are two very noble falls of water near Quebec, la Chaudiere
and Montmorenci: the former is a prodigious sheet of water, rushing
over the wildest rocks, and forming a scene grotesque, irregular,
astonishing: the latter, less wild, less irregular, but more pleasing
and more majestic, falls from an immense height, down the side of a
romantic mountain, into the river St. Lawrence, opposite the most
smiling part of the island of Orleans, to the cultivated charms of
which it forms the most striking and agreeable contrast.

The river of the same name, which supplies the cascade of
Montmorenci, is the most lovely of all inanimate objects: but why do
I call it inanimate? It almost breathes; I no longer wonder at the
enthusiasm of Greece and Rome; 'twas from objects resembling this their
mythology took its rise; it seems the residence of a thousand deities.

Paint to yourself a stupendous rock burst as it were in sunder by
the hands of nature, to give passage to a small, but very deep and
beautiful river; and forming on each side a regular and magnificent
wall, crowned with the noblest woods that can be imagined; the sides of
these romantic walls adorned with a variety of the gayest flowers, and
in many places little streams of the purest water gushing through, and
losing themselves in the river below: a thousand natural grottoes in
the rock make you suppose yourself in the abode of the Nereids; as a
little island, covered with flowering shrubs, about a mile above the
falls, where the river enlarges itself as if to give it room, seems
intended for the throne of the river goddess. Beyond this, the rapids,
formed by the irregular projections of the rock, which in some places
seem almost to meet, rival in beauty, as they excel in variety, the
cascade itself, and close this little world of enchantment.

In short, the loveliness of this fairy scene alone more than pays
the fatigues of my voyage; and, if I ever murmur at having crossed the
Atlantic, remind me that I have seen the river Montmorenci.

I can give you a very imperfect account of the people here; I have
only examined the landscape about Quebec, and have given very little
attention to the figures; the French ladies are handsome, but as to the
beaux, they appear to me not at all dangerous, and one might safely
walk in a wood by moonlight with the most agreeable Frenchman here. I
am not surprized the Canadian ladies take such pains to seduce our men
from us; but I think it a little hard we have no temptation to make
reprisals.

I am at present at an extreme pretty farm on the banks of the river
St. Lawrence; the house stands at the foot of a steep mountain covered
with a variety of trees, forming a verdant sloping wall, which rises in
a kind of regular confusion, "Shade above shade, a woody theatre," and
has in front this noble river, on which the ships continually passing
present to the delighted eye the most charming moving picture
imaginable; I never saw a place so formed to inspire that pleasing
lassitude, that divine inclination to saunter, which may not improperly
be called, the luxurious indolence of the country. I intend to build a
temple here to the charming goddess of laziness.

A gentleman is just coming down the winding path on the side of the
hill, whom by his air I take to be your brother. Adieu! I must receive
him: my father is at Quebec.

      Yours,
          Arabella Fermor.

Your brother has given me a very pleasing piece of intelligence: my
friend Emily Montague is at Montreal, and is going to be married to
great advantage; I must write to her immediately, and insist on her
making me a visit before she marries. She came to America two years
ago, with her uncle Colonel Montague, who died here, and I imagined was
gone back to England; she is however at Montreal with Mrs. Melmoth, a
distant relation of her mother's. Adieu! _ma tres chere!_



LETTER 11.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Sept. 10.

I find, my dear, that absence and amusement are the best remedies
for a beginning passion; I have passed a fortnight at the Indian
village of Lorette, where the novelty of the scene, and the enquiries I
have been led to make into their antient religion and manners, have
been of a thousand times more service to me than all the reflection in
the world would have been.

I will own to you that I staid too long at Montreal, or rather at
Major Melmoth's; to be six weeks in the same house with one of the
most amiable, most pleasing of women, was a trying situation to a heart
full of sensibility, and of a sensibility which has been hitherto,
from a variety of causes, a good deal restrained. I should have avoided
the danger from the first, had it appeared to me what it really was;
but I thought myself secure in the consideration of her engagements, a
defence however which I found grow weaker every day.

But to my savages: other nations talk of liberty, they possess it;
nothing can be more astonishing than to see a little village of about
thirty or forty families, the small remains of the Hurons, almost
exterminated by long and continual war with the Iroquoise, preserve
their independence in the midst of an European colony consisting of
seventy thousand inhabitants; yet the fact is true of the savages of
Lorette; they assert and they maintain that independence with a spirit
truly noble. One of our company having said something which an Indian
understood as a supposition that they had been _subjects_ of
France, his eyes struck fire, he stop'd him abruptly, contrary to
their respectful and sensible custom of never interrupting the person
who speaks, "You mistake, brother," said he; "we are subjects to no
prince; a savage is free all over the world." And he spoke only truth;
they are not only free as a people, but every individual is perfectly
so. Lord of himself, at once subject and master, a savage knows no
superior, a circumstance which has a striking effect on his behaviour;
unawed by rank or riches, distinctions unknown amongst his own nation,
he would enter as unconcerned, would possess all his powers as freely
in the palace of an oriental monarch, as in the cottage of the meanest
peasant: 'tis the species, 'tis man, 'tis his equal he respects,
without regarding the gaudy trappings, the accidental advantages, to
which polished nations pay homage.

I have taken some pains to develop their present, as well as past,
religious sentiments, because the Jesuit missionaries have boasted so
much of their conversion; and find they have rather engrafted a few of
the most plain and simple truths of Christianity on their ancient
superstitions, than exchanged one faith for another; they are baptized,
and even submit to what they themselves call the _yoke_ of
confession, and worship according to the outward forms of the Romish
church, the drapery of which cannot but strike minds unused to
splendor; but their belief is very little changed, except that the
women seem to pay great reverence to the Virgin, perhaps because
flattering to the sex. They anciently believed in one God, the ruler
and creator of the universe, whom they called _the Great Spirit_
and the _Master of Life_; in the sun as his image and representative;
in a multitude of inferior spirits and demons; and in a future
state of rewards and punishments, or, to use their own phrase,
in _a country of souls_. They reverenced the spirits of their
departed heroes, but it does not appear that they paid them any
religious adoration. Their morals were more pure, their manners more
simple, than those of polished nations, except in what regarded the
intercourse of the sexes: the young women before marriage were indulged
in great libertinism, hid however under the most reserved and decent
exterior. They held adultery in abhorrence, and with the more reason
as their marriages were dissolvable at pleasure. The missionaries are
said to have found no difficulty so great in gaining them to
Christianity, as that of persuading them to marry for life: they
regarded the Christian system of marriage as contrary to the laws of
nature and reason; and asserted that, as the _Great Spirit_ formed
us to be happy, it was opposing his will, to continue together when
otherwise.

The sex we have so unjustly excluded from power in Europe have a
great share in the Huron government; the chief is chose by the matrons
from amongst the nearest male relations, by the female line, of him he
is to succeed; and is generally an aunt's or sister's son; a custom
which, if we examine strictly into the principle on which it is
founded, seems a little to contradict what we are told of the extreme
chastity of the married ladies.

The power of the chief is extremely limited; he seems rather to
advise his people as a father than command them as a master: yet, as
his commands are always reasonable, and for the general good, no prince
in the world is so well obeyed. They have a supreme council of
ancients, into which every man enters of course at an age fixed, and
another of assistants to the chief on common occasions, the members of
which are like him elected by the matrons: I am pleased with this last
regulation, as women are, beyond all doubt, the best judges of the
merit of men; and I should be extremely pleased to see it adopted in
England: canvassing for elections would then be the most agreeable
thing in the world, and I am sure the ladies would give their votes on
much more generous principles than we do. In the true sense of the
word, _we_ are the savages, who so impolitely deprive you of the
common rights of citizenship, and leave you no power but that of which
we cannot deprive you, the resistless power of your charms. By the way,
I don't think you are obliged in conscience to obey laws you have had
no share in making; your plea would certainly be at least as good as
that of the Americans, about which we every day hear so much.

The Hurons have no positive laws; yet being a people not numerous,
with a strong sense of honor, and in that state of equality which gives
no food to the most tormenting passions of the human heart, and the
council of ancients having a power to punish atrocious crimes, which
power however they very seldom find occasion to use, they live together
in a tranquillity and order which appears to us surprizing.

In more numerous Indian nations, I am told, every village has its
chief and its councils, and is perfectly independent on the rest; but
on great occasions summon a general council, to which every village
sends deputies.

Their language is at once sublime and melodious; but, having much
fewer ideas, it is impossible it can be so copious as those of Europe:
the pronunciation of the men is guttural, but that of the women
extremely soft and pleasing; without understanding one word of the
language, the sound of it is very agreeable to me. Their style even in
speaking French is bold and metaphorical: and I am told is on important
occasions extremely sublime. Even in common conversation they speak in
figures, of which I have this moment an instance. A savage woman was
wounded lately in defending an English family from the drunken rage of
one of her nation. I asked her after her wound; "It is well," said she;
"my sisters at Quebec (meaning the English ladies) have been kind to
me; and piastres, you know, are very healing."

They have no idea of letters, no alphabet, nor is their language
reducible to rules: 'tis by painting they preserve the memory of the
only events which interest them, or that they think worth recording,
the conquests gained over their enemies in war.

When I speak of their paintings, I should not omit that, though
extremely rude, they have a strong resemblance to the Chinese, a
circumstance which struck me the more, as it is not the stile of
nature. Their dances also, the most lively pantomimes I ever saw,
and especially the dance of peace, exhibit variety of attitudes
resembling the figures on Chinese fans; nor have their features and
complexion less likeness to the pictures we see of the Tartars, as
their wandering manner of life, before they became christians, was
the same.

If I thought it necessary to suppose they were not natives of the
country, and that America was peopled later than the other quarters of
the world, I should imagine them the descendants of Tartars; as nothing
can be more easy than their passage from Asia, from which America is
probably not divided; or, if it is, by a very narrow channel. But I
leave this to those who are better informed, being a subject on which I
honestly confess my ignorance.

I have already observed, that they retain most of their antient
superstitions. I should particularize their belief in dreams, of which
folly even repeated disappointments cannot cure them: they have also an
unlimited faith in their _powawers_, or conjurers, of whom there
is one in every Indian village, who is at once physician, orator, and
divine, and who is consulted as an oracle on every occasion. As I
happened to smile at the recital a savage was making of a prophetic
dream, from which he assured us of the death of an English officer whom
I knew to be alive, "You Europeans," said he, "are the most
unreasonable people in the world; you laugh at our belief in dreams,
and yet expect us to believe things a thousand times more incredible."

Their general character is difficult to describe; made up of
contrary and even contradictory qualities, they are indolent, tranquil,
quiet, humane in peace; active, restless, cruel, ferocious in war:
courteous, attentive, hospitable, and even polite, when kindly treated;
haughty, stern, vindictive, when they are not; and their resentment is
the more to be dreaded, as they hold it a point of honor to dissemble
their sense of an injury till they find an opportunity to revenge it.

They are patient of cold and heat, of hunger and thirst, even beyond
all belief when necessity requires, passing whole days, and often
three or four days together, without food, in the woods, when on the
watch for an enemy, or even on their hunting parties; yet indulging
themselves in their feasts even to the most brutal degree of
intemperance. They despise death, and suffer the most excruciating
tortures not only without a groan, but with an air of triumph; singing
their death song, deriding their tormentors, and threatening them with
the vengeance of their surviving friends: yet hold it honorable to fly
before an enemy that appears the least superior in number or force.

Deprived by their extreme ignorance, and that indolence which
nothing but their ardor for war can surmount, of all the
conveniencies, as well as elegant refinements of polished life;
strangers to the softer passions, love being with them on the same
footing as amongst their fellow-tenants of the woods, their lives
appear to me rather tranquil than happy: they have fewer cares, but
they have also much fewer enjoyments, than fall to our share. I am
told, however, that, though insensible to love, they are not without
affections; are extremely awake to friendship, and passionately fond of
their children.

They are of a copper color, which is rendered more unpleasing by a
quantity of coarse red on their cheeks; but the children, when born,
are of a pale silver white; perhaps their indelicate custom of
greasing their bodies, and their being so much exposed to the air and
sun even from infancy, may cause that total change of complexion, which
I know not how otherwise to account for: their hair is black and
shining, the women's very long, parted at the top, and combed back,
tied behind, and often twisted with a thong of leather, which they
think very ornamental: the dress of both sexes is a close jacket,
reaching to their knees, with spatterdashes, all of coarse blue cloth,
shoes of deer-skin, embroidered with porcupine quills, and sometimes
with silver spangles; and a blanket thrown across their shoulders, and
fastened before with a kind of bodkin, with necklaces, and other
ornaments of beads or shells.

They are in general tall, well made, and agile to the last degree;
have a lively imagination, a strong memory; and, as far as their
interests are concerned, are very dextrous politicians.

Their address is cold and reserved; but their treatment of
strangers, and the unhappy, infinitely kind and hospitable. A very
worthy priest, with whom I am acquainted at Quebec, was some years
since shipwrecked in December on the island of Anticosti: after a
variety of distresses, not difficult to be imagined on an island
without inhabitants, during the severity of a winter even colder than
that of Canada; he, with the small remains of his companions who
survived such complicated distress, early in the spring, reached the
main land in their boat, and wandered to a cabbin of savages; the
ancient of which, having heard his story, bid him enter, and liberally
supplied their wants: "Approach, brother," said he; "the unhappy have
a right to our assistance; we are men, and cannot but feel for the
distresses which happen to men;" a sentiment which has a strong
resemblance to a celebrated one in a Greek tragedy.

You will not expect more from me on this subject, as my residence
here has been short, and I can only be said to catch a few marking
features flying. I am unable to give you a picture at full length.

Nothing astonishes me so much as to find their manners so little
changed by their intercourse with the Europeans; they seem to have
learnt nothing of us but excess in drinking.

The situation of the village is very fine, on an eminence, gently
rising to a thick wood at some distance, a beautiful little serpentine
river in front, on which are a bridge, a mill, and a small cascade, at
such a distance as to be very pleasing objects from their houses; and a
cultivated country, intermixed with little woods lying between them and
Quebec, from which they are distant only nine very short miles.

What a letter have I written! I shall quit my post of historian to
your friend Miss Fermor; the ladies love writing much better than we
do; and I should perhaps be only just, if I said they write better.

      Adieu!
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 12.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Sept. 12.

I yesterday morning received a letter from Major Melmoth, to
introduce to my acquaintance Sir George Clayton, who brought it; he
wanted no other introduction to me than his being dear to the most
amiable woman breathing; in virtue of that claim, he may command every
civility, every attention in my power. He breakfasted with me
yesterday: we were two hours alone, and had a great deal of
conversation; we afterwards spent the day together very agreably, on a
party of pleasure in the country.

I am going with him this afternoon to visit Miss Fermor, to whom he
has a letter from the divine Emily, which he is to deliver himself.

He is very handsome, but not of my favorite stile of beauty:
extremely fair and blooming, with fine features, light hair and eyes;
his countenance not absolutely heavy, but inanimate, and to my taste
insipid: finely made, not ungenteel, but without that easy air of the
world which I prefer to the most exact symmetry without it. In short,
he is what the country ladies in England call _a sweet pretty man_.
He dresses well, has the finest horses and the handsomest liveries I
have seen in Canada. His manner is civil but cold, his conversation
sensible but not spirited; he seems to be a man rather to approve than
to love. Will you excuse me if I say, he resembles the form my
imagination paints of Prometheus's man of clay, before he stole the
celestial fire to animate him?

Perhaps I scrutinize him too strictly; perhaps I am prejudiced in
my judgment by the very high idea I had form'd of the man whom Emily
Montague could love. I will own to you, that I thought it impossible
for her to be pleased with meer beauty; and I cannot even now change
my opinion; I shall find some latent fire, some hidden spark, when we
are better acquainted.

I intend to be very intimate with him, to endeavour to see into his
very soul; I am hard to please in a husband for my Emily; he must have
spirit, he must have sensibility, or he cannot make her happy.

He thank'd me for my civility to Miss Montague: do you know I
thought him impertinent? and I am not yet sure he was not so, though I
saw he meant to be polite.

He comes: our horses are at the door. Adieu!

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.


Eight in the evening.

We are return'd: I every hour like him less. There were several
ladies, French and English, with Miss Fermor, all on the rack to engage
the Baronet's attention; you have no notion of the effect of a title
in America. To do the ladies justice however, he really look'd very
handsome; the ride, and the civilities he receiv'd from a circle of
pretty women, for they were well chose, gave a glow to his complexion
extremely favorable to his desire of pleasing, which, through all his
calmness, it was impossible not to observe; he even attempted once or
twice to be lively, but fail'd: vanity itself could not inspire him
with vivacity; yet vanity is certainly his ruling passion, if such a
piece of still life can be said to have any passions at all.

What a charm, my dear Lucy, is there in sensibility! 'Tis the magnet
which attracts all to itself: virtue may command esteem, understanding
and talents admiration, beauty a transient desire; but 'tis sensibility
alone which can inspire love.

Yet the tender, the sensible Emily Montague--no, my dear, 'tis
impossible: she may fancy she loves him, but it is not in nature;
unless she extremely mistakes his character. His _approbation_ of
her, for he cannot feel a livelier sentiment, may at present, when with
her, raise him a little above his natural vegetative state, but after
marriage he will certainly sink into it again.

If I have the least judgment in men, he will be a cold, civil,
inattentive husband; a tasteless, insipid, silent companion; a
tranquil, frozen, unimpassion'd lover; his insensibility will secure
her from rivals, his vanity will give her all the drapery of happiness;
her friends will congratulate her choice; she will be the envy of her
own sex: without giving positive offence, he will every moment wound,
because he is a stranger to, all the fine feelings of a heart like
hers; she will seek in vain the friend, the lover, she expected; yet,
scarce knowing of what to complain, she will accuse herself of caprice,
and be astonish'd to find herself wretched with _the best husband in
the world_.

I tremble for her happiness; I know how few of my own sex are to be
found who have the lively sensibility of yours, and of those few how
many wear out their hearts by a life of gallantry and dissipation, and
bring only apathy and disgust into marriage. I know few men capable of
making her happy; but this Sir George--my Lucy, I have not patience.

Did I tell you all the men here are in love with your friend Bell
Fermor? The women all hate her, which is an unequivocal proof that she
pleases the other sex.



LETTER 13.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Montreal, Sept. 2.

My dearest Bell will better imagine than I can describe, the
pleasure it gave me to hear of her being in Canada; I am impatient to
see her, but as Mrs. Melmoth comes in a fortnight to Quebec, I know she
will excuse my waiting to come with her. My visit however is to
Silleri; I long to see my dear girl, to tell her a thousand little
trifles interesting only to friendship.

You congratulate me, my dear, on the pleasing prospect I have before
me; on my approaching marriage with a man young, rich, lovely,
enamor'd, and of an amiable character.

Yes, my dear, I am oblig'd to my uncle for his choice; Sir George is
all you have heard; and, without doubt, loves me, as he marries me with
such an inferiority of fortune. I am very happy certainly; how is it
possible I should be otherwise?

I could indeed wish my tenderness for him more lively, but perhaps
my wishes are romantic. I prefer him to all his sex, but wish my
preference was of a less languid nature; there is something in it more
like friendship than love; I see him with pleasure, but I part from him
without regret; yet he deserves my affection, and I can have no
objection to him which is not founded in caprice.

You say true; Colonel Rivers is very amiable; he pass'd six weeks
with us, yet we found his conversation always new; he is the man on
earth of whom one would wish to make a friend; I think I could already
trust him with every sentiment of my soul; I have even more confidence
in him than in Sir George whom I love; his manner is soft, attentive,
insinuating, and particularly adapted to please women. Without
designs, without pretensions; he steals upon you in the character of a
friend, because there is not the least appearance of his ever being a
lover: he seems to take such an interest in your happiness, as gives
him a right to know your every thought. Don't you think, my dear,
these kind of men are dangerous? Take care of yourself, my dear Bell;
as to me, I am secure in my situation.

Sir George is to have the pleasure of delivering this to you, and
comes again in a few days; love him for my sake, though he deserves it
for his own. I assure you, he is extremely worthy.

  Adieu! my dear.
      Your affectionate
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 14.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Quebec, Sept. 15.

Believe me, Jack, you are wrong; this vagrant taste is unnatural,
and does not lead to happiness; your eager pursuit of pleasure defeats
itself; love gives no true delight but where the heart is attach'd, and
you do not give yours time to fix. Such is our unhappy frailty, that
the tenderest passion may wear out, and another succeed, but the love
of change merely as change is not in nature; where it is a real taste,
'tis a depraved one. Boys are inconstant from vanity and affectation,
old men from decay of passion; but men, and particularly men of sense,
find their happiness only in that lively attachment of which it is
impossible for more than one to be the object. Love is an intellectual
pleasure, and even the senses will be weakly affected where the heart
is silent.

You will find this truth confirmed even within the walls of the
seraglio; amidst this crowd of rival beauties, eager to please, one
happy fair generally reigns in the heart of the sultan; the rest serve
only to gratify his pride and ostentation, and are regarded by him with
the same indifference as the furniture of his superb palace, of which
they may be said to make a part.

With your estate, you should marry; I have as many objections to the
state as you can have; I mean, on the footing marriage is at present.
But of this I am certain, that two persons at once delicate and
sensible, united by friendship, by taste, by a conformity of sentiment,
by that lively ardent tender inclination which alone deserves the name
of love, will find happiness in marriage, which is in vain sought in
any other kind of attachment.

You are so happy as to have the power of chusing; you are rich, and
have not the temptation to a mercenary engagement. Look round you for
a companion, a confidente; a tender amiable friend, with all the
charms of a mistress: above all, be certain of her affection, that you
engage, that you fill her whole soul. Find such a woman, my dear
Temple, and you cannot make too much haste to be happy.

I have a thousand things to say to you, but am setting off
immediately with Sir George Clayton, to meet the lieutenant governor at
Montreal; a piece of respect which I should pay with the most lively
pleasure, if it did not give me the opportunity of seeing the woman in
the world I most admire. I am not however going to set you the example
of marrying: I am not so happy; she is engaged to the gentleman who
goes up with me. Adieu!

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 15.


To Miss Montague, at Montreal.

Silleri, Sept. 16.

Take care, my dear Emily, you do not fall into the common error of
sensible and delicate minds, that of refining away your happiness.

Sir George is handsome as an Adonis; you allow him to be of an
amiable character; he is rich, young, well born, and loves you; you
will have fine cloaths, fine jewels, a fine house, a coach and six; all
the _douceurs_ of marriage, with an extreme pretty fellow, who is
fond of you, whom _you see with pleasure, and prefer to all his sex_;
and yet you are discontented, because you have not for him at
twenty-four the romantic passion of fifteen, or rather that ideal
passion which perhaps never existed but in imagination.

To be happy in this world, it is necessary not to raise one's ideas
too high: if I loved a man of Sir George's fortune half as well as by
your own account you love him, I should not hesitate one moment about
marrying; but sit down contented with ease, affluence, and an
agreeable man, without expecting to find life what it certainly is not,
a state of continual rapture. 'Tis, I am afraid, my dear, your
misfortune to have too much sensibility to be happy.

I could moralize exceedingly well this morning on the vanity of
human wishes and expectations, and the folly of hoping for felicity in
this vile sublunary world: but the subject is a little exhausted, and I
have a passion for being original. I think all the moral writers, who
have set off with promising to shew us the road to happiness, have
obligingly ended with telling us there is no such thing; a conclusion
extremely consoling, and which if they had drawn before they set pen to
paper, would have saved both themselves and their readers an infinity
of trouble. This fancy of hunting for what one knows is not to be
found, is really an ingenious way of amusing both one's self and the
world: I wish people would either write to some purpose, or be so good
as not to write at all.

I believe I shall set about writing a system of ethics myself, which
shall be short, clear, and comprehensive; nearer the Epicurean perhaps
than the Stoic; but rural, refined, and sentimental; rural by all
means; for who does not know that virtue is a country gentlewoman? all
the good mammas will tell you, there is no such being to be heard of in
town.

I shall certainly be glad to see you, my dear; though I foresee
strange revolutions _in the state of Denmark_ from this event; at
present I have all the men to myself, and you must know I have a
prodigious aversion to divided empire: however, 'tis some comfort they
all know you are going to be married. You may come, Emily; only be so
obliging to bring Sir George along with you: in your present situation,
you are not so very formidable.

The men here, as I said before, are all dying for me; there are many
handsomer women, but I flatter them, and the dear creatures cannot
resist it. I am a very good girl to women, but naturally artful (if you
will allow the expression) to the other sex; I can blush, look down,
stifle a sigh, flutter my fan, and seem so agreeably confused--you
have no notion, my dear, what fools men are. If you had not got the
start of me, I would have had your little white-haired baronet in a
week, and yet I don't take him to be made of very combustible
materials; rather mild, composed, and pretty, I believe; but he has
vanity, which is quite enough for my purpose.

Either your love or Colonel Rivers will have the honor to deliver
this letter; 'tis rather cruel to take them both from us at once;
however, we shall soon be made amends; for we shall have a torrent of
beaux with the general.

Don't you think the sun in this country vastly more chearing than in
England? I am charmed with the sun, to say nothing of the moon, though
to be sure I never saw a moon-light night that deserved the name till I
came to America.

_Mon cher pere_ desires a thousand compliments; you know he
has been in love with you ever since you were seven years old: he is
vastly better for his voyage, and the clear air of Canada, and looks
ten years younger than before he set out.

Adieu! I am going to ramble in the woods, and pick berries, with a
little smiling civil captain, who is enamoured of me: a pretty rural
amusement for lovers!

Good morrow, my dear Emily,

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 16.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Sept. 18.

Your brother, my dear, is gone to Montreal with Sir George Clayton,
of whom I suppose you have heard, and who is going to marry a friend of
mine, to pay a visit to _Monsieur le General_, who is arrived
there. The men in Canada, the English I mean, are eternally changing
place, even when they have not so pleasing a call; travelling is cheap
and amusing, the prospects lovely, the weather inviting; and there are
no very lively pleasures at present to attach them either to Quebec or
Montreal, so that they divide themselves between both.

This fancy of the men, which is extremely the mode, makes an
agreable circulation of inamoratoes, which serves to vary the amusement
of the ladies; so that upon the whole 'tis a pretty fashion, and
deserves encouragement.

You expect too much of your brother, my dear; the summer is charming
here, but with no such very striking difference from that of England,
as to give room to say a vast deal on the subject; though I believe, if
you will please to compare our letters, you will find, putting us
together, we cut a pretty figure in the descriptive way; at least if
your brother tells me truth.

You may expect a very well painted frost-piece from me in the
winter; as to the present season, it is just like any fine autumn in
England: I may add, that the beauty of the nights is much beyond my
power of description: a constant _Aurora borealis_, without a
cloud in the heavens; and a moon so resplendent that you may see to
read the smallest print by its light; one has nothing to wish but that
it was full moon every night. Our evening walks are delicious,
especially at Silleri, where 'tis the pleasantest thing in the world to
listen to soft nonsense,

  "Whilst the moon dances through the trembling leaves"

(A line I stole from Philander and Sylvia): But to return:

The French ladies never walk but at night, which shews their good
taste; and then only within the walls of Quebec, which does not: they
saunter slowly, after supper, on a particular battery, which is a kind
of little Mall: they have no idea of walking in the country, nor the
least feeling of the lovely scene around them; there are many of them
who never saw the falls of Montmorenci, though little more than an
hour's drive from the town. They seem born without the smallest portion
of curiosity, or any idea of the pleasures of the imagination, or
indeed any pleasure but that of being admired; love, or rather
coquetry, dress, and devotion, seem to share all their hours: yet, as
they are lively, and in general handsome, the men are very ready to
excuse their want of knowledge.

There are two ladies in the province, I am told, who read; but both
of them are above fifty, and they are regarded as prodigies of
erudition.

Eight in the evening.

Absolutely, Lucy, I will marry a savage, and turn squaw (a pretty soft
name for an Indian princess!): never was any thing so delightful as
their lives; they talk of French husbands, but commend me to an Indian
one, who lets his wife ramble five hundred miles, without asking where
she is going.

I was sitting after dinner with a book, in a thicket of hawthorn
near the beach, when a loud laugh called my attention to the river,
where I saw a canoe of savages making to the shore; there were six
women, and two or three children, without one man amongst them: they
landed, tied the canoe to the root of a tree, and finding out the most
agreable shady spot amongst the bushes with which the beach was
covered, which happened to be very near me, made a fire, on which they
laid some fish to broil, and, fetching water from the river, sat down
on the grass to their frugal repast.

I stole softly to the house, and, ordering a servant to bring some
wine and cold provisions, returned to my squaws: I asked them in French
if they were of Lorette; they shook their heads: I repeated the
question in English, when the oldest of the women told me, they were
not; that their country was on the borders of New England; that, their
husbands being on a hunting party in the woods, curiosity, and the
desire of seeing their brethren the English who had conquered Quebec,
had brought them up the great river, down which they should return as
soon as they had seen Montreal. She courteously asked me to sit down,
and eat with them, which I complied with, and produced my part of the
feast. We soon became good company, and _brighten'd the chain
of friendship_ with two bottles of wine, which put them into such
spirits, that they danced, sung, shook me by the hand, and grew so very
fond of me, that I began to be afraid I should not easily get rid of
them. They were very unwilling to part with me; but, after two or three
very ridiculous hours, I with some difficulty prevailed on the ladies
to pursue their voyage, having first replenished their canoe with
provisions and a few bottles of wine, and given them a letter of
recommendation to your brother, that they might be in no distress at
Montreal.

Adieu! my father is just come in, and has brought some company with
him from Quebec to supper.

      Yours ever,
          A. Fermor.

Don't you think, my dear, my good sisters the squaws seem to live
something the kind of life of our gypsies? The idea struck me as they
were dancing. I assure you, there is a good deal of resemblance in
their persons: I have seen a fine old seasoned female gypsey, of as
dark a complexion as a savage: they are all equally marked as children
of the sun.



LETTER 17.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Repentigny, Sept. 18, ten at night.

I study my fellow traveller closely; his character, indeed, is not
difficult to ascertain; his feelings are dull, nothing makes the
least impression on him; he is as insensible to the various beauties of
the charming country through which we have travelled, as the very
Canadian peasants themselves who inhabit it. I watched his eyes at some
of the most beautiful prospects, and saw not the least gleam of
pleasure there: I introduced him here to an extreme handsome French
lady, and as lively as she is handsome, the wife of an officer who is
of my acquaintance; the same tasteless composure prevailed; he
complained of fatigue, and retired to his apartment at eight: the
family are now in bed, and I have an hour to give to my dear Lucy.

He admires Emily because he has seen her admired by all the world,
but he cannot taste her charms of himself; they are not of a stile to
please him: I cannot support the thought of such a woman's being so
lost; there are a thousand insensible good young women to be found, who
would doze away life with him and be happy.

A rich, sober, sedate, presbyterian citizen's daughter, educated by
her grandmother in the country, who would roll about with him in
unweildy splendor, and dream away a lazy existence, would be the proper
wife for him. Is it for him, a lifeless composition of earth and water,
to unite himself to the active elements which compose my divine Emily?

Adieu! my dear! we set out early in the morning for Montreal.

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 18.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Montreal, Sept. 19, eleven o'clock.

No, my dear, it is impossible she can love him; his dull soul is ill
suited to hers; heavy, unmeaning, formal; a slave to rules, to
ceremony, to _etiquette_, he has not an idea above those of a
gentleman usher. He has been three hours in town without seeing her;
dressing, and waiting to pay his compliments first to the general, who
is riding, and every minute expected back. I am all impatience, though
only her friend, but think it would be indecent in me to go without
him, and look like a design of reproaching his coldness. How
differently are we formed! I should have stole a moment to see the
woman I loved from the first prince in the universe.

The general is returned. Adieu! till our visit is over; we go from
thence to Major Melmoth's, whose family I should have told you are in
town, and not half a street from us. What a soul of fire has this
_lover!_ 'Tis to profane the word to use it in speaking of him.

One o'clock.

I am mistaken, Lucy; astonishing as it is, she loves him; this dull
clod of uninformed earth has touched the lively soul of my Emily. Love
is indeed the child of caprice; I will not say of sympathy, for what
sympathy can there be between two hearts so different? I am hurt, she
is lowered in my esteem; I expected to find in the man she loved, a
mind sensible and tender as her own.

I repeat it, my dear Lucy, she loves him; I observed her when we
entered the room; she blushed, she turned pale, she trembled, her
voice faltered; every look spoke the strong emotion of her soul.

She is paler than when I saw her last; she is, I think, less
beautiful, but more touching than ever; there is a languor in her air,
a softness in her countenance, which are the genuine marks of a heart
in love; all the tenderness of her soul is in her eyes.

Shall I own to you all my injustice? I hate this man for having the
happiness to please her: I cannot even behave to him with the
politeness due to every gentleman.

I begin to fear my weakness is greater than I supposed.

22d in the evening.

I am certainly mad, Lucy; what right have I to expect!--you will
scarce believe the excess of my folly. I went after dinner to Major
Melmoth's; I found Emily at piquet with Sir George: can you conceive
that I fancied myself ill used, that I scarce spoke to her, and
returned immediately home, though strongly pressed to spend the evening
there. I walked two or three times about my room, took my hat, and went
to visit the handsomest Frenchwoman at Montreal, whose windows are
directly opposite to Major Melmoth's; in the excess of my anger, I
asked this lady to dance with me to-morrow at a little ball we are to
have out of town. Can you imagine any behaviour more childish? It would
have been scarce pardonable at sixteen.

Adieu! my letter is called for. I will write to you again in a few
days.

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.

Major Melmoth tells me, they are to be married in a month at
Quebec, and to embark immediately for England. I will not be there; I
cannot bear to see her devote herself to wretchedness: she will be the
most unhappy of her sex with this man; I see clearly into his
character; his virtue is the meer absence of vice; his good qualities
are all of the negative kind.



LETTER 19.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Montreal, Sept. 24.

I have but a moment, my dear, to acknowledge your last; this week
has been a continual hurry.

You mistake me; it is not the romantic passion of fifteen I wish to
feel, but that tender lively friendship which alone can give charms to
so intimate an union as that of marriage. I wish a greater conformity
in our characters, in our sentiments, in our tastes.

But I will say no more on this subject till I have the pleasure of
seeing you at Silleri. Mrs. Melmoth and I come in a ship which sails
in a day or two; they tell us, it is the most agreeable way of coming:
Colonel Rivers is so polite, as to stay to accompany us down: Major
Melmoth asked Sir George, but he preferred the pleasure of parading
into Quebec, and shewing his fine horses and fine person to advantage,
to that of attending his mistress: shall I own to you that I am hurt at
this instance of his neglect, as I know his attendance on the general
was not expected? His situation was more than a sufficient excuse; it
was highly improper for two women to go to Quebec alone; it is in some
degree so that any other man should accompany me at this time: my pride
is extremely wounded. I expect a thousand times more attention from
him since his acquisition of fortune; it is with pain I tell you, my
dear friend, he seems to shew me much less. I will not descend to
suppose he presumes on this increase of fortune, but he presumes on the
inclination he supposes I have for him; an inclination, however, not
violent enough to make me submit to the least ill treatment from him.

In my present state of mind, I am extremely hard to please; either
his behaviour or my temper have suffered a change. I know not how it
is, but I see his faults in a much stronger light than I have ever seen
them before. I am alarmed at the coldness of his disposition, so ill
suited to the sensibility of mine; I begin to doubt his being of the
amiable character I once supposed: in short, I begin to doubt of the
possibility of his making me happy.

You will, perhaps, call it an excess of pride, when I say, I am much
less inclined to marry him than when our situations were equal. I
certainly love him; I have a habit of considering him as the man I am
to marry, but my affection is not of that kind which will make me easy
under the sense of an obligation.

I will open all my heart to you when we meet: I am not so happy as
you imagine: do not accuse me of caprice; can I be too cautious, where
the happiness of my whole life is at stake?

      Adieu!
        Your faithful
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 20.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Sept. 24.

I declare off at once; I will not be a squaw; I admire their talking
of the liberty of savages; in the most essential point, they are
slaves: the mothers marry their children without ever consulting their
inclinations, and they are obliged to submit to this foolish tyranny.
Dear England! where liberty appears, not as here among these odious
savages, wild and ferocious like themselves, but lovely, smiling, led
by the hand of the Graces. There is no true freedom any where else.
They may talk of the privilege of chusing a chief; but what is that to
the dear English privilege of chusing a husband?

I have been at an Indian wedding, and have no patience. Never did I
see so vile an assortment.

Adieu! I shall not be in good humor this month.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 21.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Montreal, Sept. 24.

What you say, my dear friend, is more true than I wish it was; our
English women of character are generally too reserved; their manner is
cold and forbidding; they seem to think it a crime to be too
attractive; they appear almost afraid to please.

'Tis to this ill-judged reserve I attribute the low profligacy of
too many of our young men; the grave faces and distant behaviour of
the generality of virtuous women fright them from their acquaintance,
and drive them into the society of those wretched votaries of vice,
whose conversation debases every sentiment of their souls.

With as much beauty, good sense, sensibility, and softness, at
least, as any women on earth, no women please so little as the English:
depending on their native charms, and on those really amiable qualities
which envy cannot deny them, they are too careless in acquiring those
enchanting nameless graces, which no language can define, which give
resistless force to beauty, and even supply its place where it is
wanting.

They are satisfied with being good, without considering that
unadorned virtue may command esteem, but will never excite love; and
both are necessary in marriage, which I suppose to be the state every
woman of honor has in prospect; for I own myself rather incredulous as
to the assertions of maiden aunts and cousins to the contrary. I wish
my amiable countrywomen would consider one moment, that virtue is
never so lovely as when dressed in smiles: the virtue of women should
have all the softness of the sex; it should be gentle, it should be
even playful, to please.

There is a lady here, whom I wish you to see, as the shortest way of
explaining to you all I mean; she is the most pleasing woman I ever
beheld, independently of her being one of the handsomest; her manner is
irresistible: she has all the smiling graces of France, all the
blushing delicacy and native softness of England.

Nothing can be more delicate, my dear Temple, than the manner in
which you offer me your estate in Rutland, by way of anticipating your
intended legacy: it is however impossible for me to accept it; my
father, who saw me naturally more profuse than became my expectations,
took such pains to counterwork it by inspiring me with the love of
independence, that I cannot have such an obligation even to you.

Besides, your legacy is left on the supposition that you are not to
marry, and I am absolutely determined you shall; so that, by accepting
this mark of your esteem, I should be robbing your younger children.

I have not a wish to be richer whilst I am a batchelor, and the only
woman I ever wished to marry, the only one my heart desires, will be in
three weeks the wife of another; I shall spend less than my income
here: shall I not then be rich? To make you easy, know I have four
thousand pounds in the funds; and that, from the equality of living
here, an ensign is obliged to spend near as much as I am; he is
inevitably ruined, but I save money.

I pity you, my friend; I am hurt to hear you talk of happiness in
the life you at present lead; of finding pleasure in possessing venal
beauty; you are in danger of acquiring a habit which will vitiate your
taste, and exclude you from that state of refined and tender friendship
for which nature formed a heart like yours, and which is only to be
found in marriage: I need not add, in a marriage of choice.

It has been said that love marriages are generally unhappy; nothing
is more false; marriages of meer inclination will always be so:
passion alone being concerned, when that is gratified, all tenderness
ceases of course: but love, the gay child of sympathy and esteem, is,
when attended by delicacy, the only happiness worth a reasonable man's
pursuit, and the choicest gift of heaven: it is a softer, tenderer
friendship, enlivened by taste, and by the most ardent desire of
pleasing, which time, instead of destroying, will render every hour
more dear and interesting.

If, as you possibly will, you should call me romantic, hear a man of
pleasure on the subject, the Petronius of the last age, the elegant,
but voluptuous St. Evremond, who speaks in the following manner of the
friendship between married persons:

"I believe it is this pleasing intercourse of tenderness, this
reciprocation of esteem, or, if you will, this mutual ardor of
preventing each other in every endearing mark of affection, in which
consists the sweetness of this second species of friendship.

"I do not speak of other pleasures, which are not so much in
themselves as in the assurance they give of the intire possession of
those we love: this appears to me so true, that I am not afraid to
assert, the man who is by any other means certainly assured of the
tenderness of her he loves, may easily support the privation of those
pleasures; and that they ought not to enter into the account of
friendship, but as proofs that it is without reserve.

"'Tis true, few men are capable of the purity of these sentiments,
and 'tis for that reason we so very seldom see perfect friendship in
marriage, at least for any long time: the object which a sensual
passion has in view cannot long sustain a commerce so noble as that of
friendship."

You see, the pleasures you so much boast are the least of those
which true tenderness has to give, and this in the opinion of a
voluptuary.

My dear Temple, all you have ever known of love is nothing to that
sweet consent of souls in unison, that harmony of minds congenial to
each other, of which you have not yet an idea.

You have seen beauty, and it has inspired a momentary emotion, but
you have never yet had a real attachment; you yet know nothing of that
irresistible tenderness, that delirium of the soul, which, whilst it
refines, adds strength to passion.

I perhaps say too much, but I wish with ardor to see you happy; in
which there is the more merit, as I have not the least prospect of
being so myself.

I wish you to pursue the plan of life which I myself think most
likely to bring happiness, because I know our souls to be of the same
frame: we have taken different roads, but you will come back to mine.
Awake to delicate pleasures, I have no taste for any other; there are
no other for sensible minds. My gallantries have been few, rather (if
it is allowed to speak thus of one's self even to a friend) from
elegance of taste than severity of manners; I have loved seldom,
because I cannot love without esteem.

Believe me, Jack, the meer pleasure of loving, even without a
return, is superior to all the joys of sense where the heart is
untouched: the French poet does not exaggerate when he says,

      --Amour;
  Tous les autres plaisirs ne valent pas tes peines.

You will perhaps call me mad; I am just come from a woman who is
capable of making all mankind so. Adieu!

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 22.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Sept. 25.

I have been rambling about amongst the peasants, and asking them a
thousand questions, in order to satisfy your inquisitive friend. As to
my father, though, properly speaking, your questions are addressed to
him, yet, being upon duty, he begs that, for this time, you will accept
of an answer from me.

The Canadians live a good deal like the ancient patriarchs; the
lands were originally settled by the troops, every officer became a
seigneur, or lord of the manor, every soldier took lands under his
commander; but, as avarice is natural to mankind, the soldiers took a
great deal more than they could cultivate, by way of providing for a
family: which is the reason so much land is now waste in the finest
part of the province: those who had children, and in general they have
a great number, portioned out their lands amongst them as they married,
and lived in the midst of a little world of their descendants.

There are whole villages, and there is even a large island, that of
Coudre, where the inhabitants are all the descendants of one pair, if
we only suppose that their sons went to the next village for wives, for
I find no tradition of their having had a dispensation to marry their
sisters.

The corn here is very good, though not equal to ours; the harvest
not half so gay as in England, and for this reason, that the lazy
creatures leave the greatest part of their land uncultivated, only
sowing as much corn of different sorts as will serve themselves; and
being too proud and too idle to work for hire, every family gets in
its own harvest, which prevents all that jovial spirit which we find
when the reapers work together in large parties.

Idleness is the reigning passion here, from the peasant to his lord;
the gentlemen never either ride on horseback or walk, but are driven
about like women, for they never drive themselves, lolling at their
ease in a calache: the peasants, I mean the masters of families, are
pretty near as useless as their lords.

You will scarce believe me, when I tell you, that I have seen, at
the farm next us, two children, a very beautiful boy and girl, of about
eleven years old, assisted by their grandmother, reaping a field of
oats, whilst the lazy father, a strong fellow of thirty two, lay on the
grass, smoaking his pipe, about twenty yards from them: the old people
and children work here; those in the age of strength and health only
take their pleasure.

_A propos_ to smoaking, 'tis common to see here boys of three
years old, sitting at their doors, smoaking their pipes, as grave and
composed as little old Chinese men on a chimney.

You ask me after our fruits: we have, as I am told, an immensity of
cranberries all the year; when the snow melts away in spring, they are
said to be found under it as fresh and as good as in autumn:
strawberries and rasberries grow wild in profusion; you cannot walk a
step in the fields without treading on the former: great plenty of
currants, plumbs, apples, and pears; a few cherries and grapes, but not
in much perfection: excellent musk melons, and water melons in
abundance, but not so good in proportion as the musk. Not a peach, nor
any thing of the kind; this I am however convinced is less the fault
of the climate than of the people, who are too indolent to take pains
for any thing more than is absolutely necessary to their existence.
They might have any fruit here but gooseberries, for which the summer
is too hot; there are bushes in the woods, and some have been brought
from England, but the fruit falls off before it is ripe. The wild
fruits here, especially those of the bramble kind, are in much greater
variety and perfection than in England.

When I speak of the natural productions of the country, I should not
forget that hemp and hops grow every where in the woods; I should
imagine the former might be cultivated here with great success, if the
people could be persuaded to cultivate any thing.

A little corn of every kind, a little hay, a little tobacco, half a
dozen apple trees, a few onions and cabbages, make the whole of a
Canadian plantation. There is scarce a flower, except those in the
woods, where there is a variety of the most beautiful shrubs I ever
saw; the wild cherry, of which the woods are full, is equally charming
in flower and in fruit; and, in my opinion, at least equals the
arbutus.

They sow their wheat in spring, never manure the ground, and plough
it in the slightest manner; can it then be wondered at that it is
inferior to ours? They fancy the frost would destroy it if sown in
autumn; but this is all prejudice, as experience has shewn. I myself
saw a field of wheat this year at the governor's farm, which was
manured and sown in autumn, as fine as I ever saw in England.

I should tell you, they are so indolent as never to manure their
lands, or even their gardens; and that, till the English came, all the
manure of Quebec was thrown into the river.

You will judge how naturally rich the soil must be, to produce good
crops without manure, and without ever lying fallow, and almost without
ploughing; yet our political writers in England never speak of Canada
without the epithet of _barren_. They tell me this extreme
fertility is owing to the snow, which lies five or six months on the
ground. Provisions are dear, which is owing to the prodigious number of
horses kept here; every family having a carriage, even the poorest
peasant; and every son of that peasant keeping a horse for his little
excursions of pleasure, besides those necessary for the business of the
farm. The war also destroyed the breed of cattle, which I am told
however begins to encrease; they have even so far improved in corn, as
to export some this year to Italy and Spain.

Don't you think I am become an excellent farmeress? 'Tis intuition;
some people are born learned: are you not all astonishment at my
knowledge? I never was so vain of a letter in my life.

Shall I own the truth? I had most of my intelligence from old John,
who lived long with my grandfather in the country; and who, having
little else to do here, has taken some pains to pick up a competent
knowledge of the state of agriculture five miles round Quebec.

Adieu! I am tired of the subject.

      Your faithful,
          A. Fermor.

Now I think of it, why did you not write to your brother? Did you
chuse me to expose my ignorance? If so, I flatter myself you are a
little taken in, for I think John and I figure in the rural way.



LETTER 23.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Sept. 29, 10 o'clock.

O to be sure! we are vastly to be pitied: no beaux at all with the
general; only about six to one; a very pretty proportion, and what I
hope always to see. We, the ladies I mean, drink chocolate with the
general to-morrow, and he gives us a ball on Thursday; you would not
know Quebec again; nothing but smiling faces now; all so gay as never
was, the sweetest country in the world; never expect to see me in
England again; one is really somebody here: I have been asked to dance
by only twenty-seven.

On the subject of dancing, I am, as it were, a little embarrassed:
you will please to observe that, in the time of scarcity, when all the
men were at Montreal, I suffered a foolish little captain to sigh and
say civil things to me, _pour passer le tems_, and the creature
takes the airs of a lover, to which he has not the least pretensions,
and chuses to be angry that I won't dance with him on Thursday, and I
positively won't.

It is really pretty enough that every absurd animal, who takes upon
him to make love to one, is to fancy himself entitled to a return: I
have no patience with the men's ridiculousness: have you, Lucy?

But I see a ship coming down under full sail; it may be Emily and
her friends: the colours are all out, they slacken sail; they drop
anchor opposite the house; 'tis certainly them; I must fly to the
beach: music as I am a person, and an awning on the deck: the boat puts
off with your brother in it. Adieu for a moment: I must go and invite
them on shore.

2 o'clock.

'Twas Emily and Mrs. Melmoth, with two or three very pretty French
women; your brother is a happy man: I found tea and coffee under the
awning, and a table loaded with Montreal fruit, which is vastly better
than ours; by the way, the colonel has brought me an immensity; he is
so gallant and all that: we regaled ourselves, and landed; they dine
here, and we dance in the evening; we are to have a syllabub in the
wood: my father has sent for Sir George and Major Melmoth, and half a
dozen of the most agreable men, from Quebec: he is enchanted with his
little Emily, he loved her when she was a child. I cannot tell you how
happy I am; my Emily is handsomer than ever; you know how partial I am
to beauty: I never had a friendship for an ugly woman in my life.

    Adieu! _ma tres chere_.
      Yours,
          A. Fermor.


Your brother looks like an angel this morning; he is not drest, he
is not undrest, but somehow, easy, elegant and enchanting: he has no
powder, and his hair a little _degagée_, blown about by the wind,
and agreably disordered; such fire in his countenance; his eyes say a
thousand agreable things; he is in such spirits as I never saw him:
not a man of them has the least chance to-day. I shall be in love with
him if he goes on at this rate: not that it will be to any purpose in
the world; he never would even flirt with me, though I have made him a
thousand advances.

My heart is so light, Lucy, I cannot describe it: I love Emily at my
soul: 'tis three years since I saw her, and there is something so
romantic in finding her in Canada: there is no saying how happy I am: I
want only you, to be perfectly so.

3 o'clock.

The messenger is returned; Sir George is gone with a party of French
ladies to Lake Charles: Emily blushed when the message was delivered;
he might reasonably suppose they would be here to-day, as the wind was
fair: your brother dances with my sweet friend; she loses nothing by
the exchange; she is however a little piqued at this appearance of
disrespect.

12 o'clock.

Sir George came just as we sat down to supper; he did right, he
complained first, and affected to be angry she had not sent an express
from _Point au Tremble_. He was however gayer than usual, and very
attentive to his mistress; your brother seemed chagrined at his
arrival; Emily perceived it, and redoubled her politeness to him, which
in a little time restored part of his good humor: upon the whole, it
was an agreable evening, but it would have been more so, if Sir George
had come at first, or not at all.

The ladies lie here, and we go all together in the morning to
Quebec; the gentlemen are going.

I steal a moment to seal, and give this to the colonel, who will put
it in his packet to-morrow.



LETTER 24.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Sept. 30.

Would you believe it possible, my dear, that Sir George should
decline attending Emily Montague from Montreal, and leave the pleasing
commission to me? I am obliged to him for the three happiest days of my
life, yet am piqued at his chusing me for a _cecisbeo_ to his
mistress: he seems to think me a man _sans consequence_, with whom
a lady may safely be trusted; there is nothing very flattering in such
a kind of confidence: let him take care of himself, if he is
impertinent, and sets me at defiance; I am not vain, but set our
fortunes aside, and I dare enter the lists with Sir George Clayton. I
cannot give her a coach and six; but I can give her, what is more
conducive to happiness, a heart which knows how to value her
perfections.

I never had so pleasing a journey; we were three days coming down,
because we made it a continual party of pleasure, took music with us,
landed once or twice a day, visited the French families we knew, lay
both nights on shore, and danced at the seigneur's of the village.

This river, from Montreal to Quebec, exhibits a scene perhaps not to
be matched in the world: it is settled on both sides, though the
settlements are not so numerous on the south shore as on the other: the
lovely confusion of woods, mountains, meadows, corn fields, rivers (for
there are several on both sides, which lose themselves in the St.
Lawrence), intermixed with churches and houses breaking upon you at a
distance through the trees, form a variety of landscapes, to which it
is difficult to do justice.

This charming scene, with a clear serene sky, a gentle breeze in our
favor, and the conversation of half a dozen fine women, would have made
the voyage pleasing to the most insensible man on earth: my Emily too
of the party, and most politely attentive to the pleasure she saw I had
in making the voyage agreable to her.

I every day love her more; and, without considering the impropriety
of it, I cannot help giving way to an inclination, in which I find such
exquisite pleasure; I find a thousand charms in the least trifle I can
do to oblige her.

Don't reason with me on this subject: I know it is madness to
continue to see her; but I find a delight in her conversation, which I
cannot prevail on myself to give up till she is actually married.

I respect her engagements, and pretend to no more from her than her
friendship; but, as to myself, will love her in whatever manner I
please: to shew you my prudence, however, I intend to dance with the
handsomest unmarried Frenchwoman here on Thursday, and to shew her an
attention which shall destroy all suspicion of my tenderness for Emily.
I am jealous of Sir George, and hate him; but I dissemble it better
than I thought it possible for me to do.

My Lucy, I am not happy; my mind is in a state not to be described;
I am weak enough to encourage a hope for which there is not the least
foundation; I misconstrue her friendship for me every moment; and that
attention which is meerly gratitude for my apparent anxiety to oblige.
I even fancy her eyes understand mine, which I am afraid speak too
plainly the sentiments of my heart.

I love her, my dear girl, to madness; these three days--

I am interrupted. Adieu!

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.

'Tis Capt. Fermor, who insists on my dining at Silleri. They will
eternally throw me in the way of this lovely woman: of what materials
do they suppose me formed?



LETTER 25.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Oct. 3, Twelve o'clock.

An enchanting ball, my dear; your little friend's head is turned. I
was more admired than Emily, which to be sure did not flatter my vanity
at all: I see she must content herself with being beloved, for without
coquetry 'tis in vain to expect admiration.

We had more than three hundred persons at the ball; above three
fourths men; all gay and well dressed, an elegant supper; in short,
it was charming.

I am half inclined to marry; I am not at all acquainted with the man
I have fixed upon, I never spoke to him till last night, nor did he
take the least notice of me, more than of other ladies, but that is
nothing; he pleases me better than any man I have seen here; he is not
handsome, but well made, and looks like a gentleman; he has a good
character, is heir to a very pretty estate. I will think further of it:
there is nothing more easy than to have him if I chuse it: 'tis only
saying to some of his friends, that I think Captain Fitzgerald the most
agreable fellow here, and he will immediately be astonished he did not
sooner find out I was the handsomest woman. I will consider this affair
seriously; one must marry, 'tis the mode; every body marries; why
don't you marry, Lucy?

This brother of yours is always here; I am surprized Sir George is
not jealous, for he pays no sort of attention to me, 'tis easy to see
why he comes; I dare say I shan't see him next week: Emily is going to
Mrs. Melmoth's, where she stays till to-morrow sevennight; she goes
from hence as soon as dinner is over.

Adieu! I am fatigued; we danced till morning; I am but this moment
up.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.


Your brother danced with Mademoiselle Clairaut; do you know I was
piqued he did not give me the preference, as Emily danced with her
lover? not but that I had perhaps a partner full as agreable, at least
I have a mind to think so.

I hear it whispered that the whole affair of the wedding is to be
settled next week; my father is in the secret, I am not. Emily looks
ill this morning; she was not gay at the ball. I know not why, but she
is not happy. I have my fancies, but they are yet only fancies.

Adieu! my dear girl; I can no more.



LETTER 26.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Oct. 6.

I am going, my Lucy.--I know not well whither I am going, but I
will not stay to see this marriage. Could you have believed it
possible--But what folly! Did I not know her situation from the first?
Could I suppose she would break off an engagement of years, with a man
who gives so clear a proof that he prefers her to all other women, to
humor the frenzy of one who has never even told her he loved her?

Captain Fermor assures me all is settled but the day, and that she
has promised to name that to-morrow.

I will leave Quebec to-night; no one shall know the road I take: I
do not yet know it myself; I will cross over to Point Levi with my
valet de chambre, and go wherever chance directs me. I cannot bear even
to hear the day named. I am strongly inclined to write to her; but what
can I say? I should betray my tenderness in spite of myself, and her
compassion would perhaps disturb her approaching happiness: were it
even possible she should prefer me to Sir George, she is too far gone
to recede.

My Lucy, I never till this moment felt to what an excess I loved
her.

Adieu! I shall be about a fortnight absent: by that time she will be
embarked for England. I cannot bring myself to see her the wife of
another. Do not be alarmed for me; reason and the impossibility of
success will conquer my passion for this angelic woman; I have been to
blame in allowing myself to see her so often.

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 27.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Beaumont, Oct. 7.

I think I breathe a freer air now I am out of Quebec. I cannot bear
wherever I go to meet this Sir George; his triumphant air is
insupportable; he has, or I fancy he has, all the insolence of a happy
rival; 'tis unjust, but I cannot avoid hating him; I look on him as a
man who has deprived me of a good to which I foolishly fancy I had
pretensions.

My whole behaviour has been weak to the last degree: I shall grow
more reasonable when I no longer see this charming woman; I ought
sooner to have taken this step.

I have found here an excuse for my excursion; I have heard of an
estate to be sold down the river; and am told the purchase will be
less expence than clearing any lands I might take up. I will go and see
it; it is an object, a pursuit, and will amuse me.

I am going to send my servant back to Quebec; my manner of leaving
it must appear extraordinary to my friends; I have therefore made this
estate my excuse. I have written to Miss Fermor that I am going to make
a purchase; have begged my warmest wishes to her lovely friend, for
whose happiness no one on earth is more anxious; but have told her Sir
George is too much the object of my envy, to expect from me very
sincere congratulations.

Adieu! my servant waits for this. You shall hear an account of my
adventures when I return to Quebec.

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 28.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Quebec, Oct. 7, twelve o'clock.

I must see you, my dear, this evening; my mind is in an agitation
not to be expressed; a few hours will determine my happiness or misery
for ever; I am displeased with your father for precipitating a
determination which cannot be made with too much caution.

I have a thousand things to say to you, which I can say to no one
else.

Be at home, and alone; I will come to you as soon as dinner is over.

      Adieu!
        Your affectionate
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 29.


To Miss Montague, at Quebec.

I will be at home, my dear, and denied to every body but you.

I pity you, my dear Emily; but I am unable to give you advice.

The world would wonder at your hesitating a moment.

      Your faithful
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 30.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Quebec, Oct. 7, three o'clock.

My visit to you is prevented by an event beyond my hopes. Sir George
has this moment a letter from his mother, desiring him earnestly to
postpone his marriage till spring, for some reasons of consequence to
his fortune, with the particulars of which she will acquaint him by the
next packet.

He communicated this intelligence to me with a grave air, but with a
tranquillity not to be described, and I received it with a joy I found
it impossible wholly to conceal.

I have now time to consult both my heart and my reason at leisure,
and to break with him, if necessary, by degrees.

What an escape have I had! I was within four and twenty hours of
either determining to marry a man with whom I fear I have little chance
to be happy, or of breaking with him in a manner that would have
subjected one or both of us to the censures of a prying impertinent
world, whose censures the most steady temper cannot always contemn.

I will own to you, my dear, I every hour have more dread of this
marriage: his present situation has brought his faults into full light.
Captain Clayton, with little more than his commission, was modest,
humble, affable to his inferiors, polite to all the world; and I
fancied him possessed of those more active virtues, which I supposed
the smallness of his fortune prevented from appearing. 'Tis with pain I
see that Sir George, with a splendid income, is avaricious, selfish,
proud, vain, and profuse; lavish to every caprice of vanity and
ostentation which regards himself, coldly inattentive to the real
wants of others.

Is this a character to make your Emily happy? We were not formed for
each other: no two minds were ever so different; my happiness is in
friendship, in the tender affections, in the sweets of dear domestic
life; his in the idle parade of affluence, in dress, in equipage, in
all that splendor, which, whilst it excites envy, is too often the mark
of wretchedness.

Shall I say more? Marriage is seldom happy where there is a great
disproportion of fortune. The lover, after he loses that endearing
character in the husband, which in common minds I am afraid is not
long, begins to reflect how many more thousands he might have expected;
and perhaps suspects his mistress of those interested motives in
marrying, of which he now feels his own heart capable. Coldness,
suspicion, and mutual want of esteem and confidence, follow of course.

I will come back with you to Silleri this evening; I have no
happiness but when I am with you. Mrs. Melmoth is so fond of Sir
George, she is eternally persecuting me with his praises; she is
extremely mortified at this delay, and very angry at the manner in
which I behave upon it.

Come to us directly, my dear Bell, and rejoice with your faithful

          Emily Montague.



LETTER 31.


To Miss Montague, at Quebec.

I congratulate you, my dear; you will at least have the pleasure of
being five or six months longer your own mistress; which, in my
opinion, when one is not violently in love, is a consideration worth
attending to. You will also have time to see whether you like any body
else better; and you know you can take him if you please at last.

Send him up to his regiment at Montreal with the Melmoths; stay the
winter with me, flirt with somebody else to try the strength of your
passion, and, if it holds out against six months absence, and the
attention of an agreable fellow, I think you may safely venture to
marry him.

_A propos_ to flirting, have you seen Colonel Rivers? He has
not been here these two days. I shall begin to be jealous of this
little impertinent Mademoiselle Clairaut. Adieu!

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.


Rivers is absurd. I have a mighty foolish letter from him; he is
rambling about the country, buying estates: he had better have been
here, playing the fool with us; if I knew how to write to him I would
tell him so, but he is got out of the range of human beings, down the
river, Heaven knows where; he says a thousand civil things to you, but
I will bring the letter with me to save the trouble of repeating them.

I have a sort of an idea he won't be very unhappy at this delay; I
want vastly to send him word of it.

      Adieu! _ma chere_.



LETTER 32.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Kamaraskas, Oct. 10.

I am at present, my dear Lucy, in the wildest country on earth; I
mean of those which are inhabited at all: 'tis for several leagues
almost a continual forest, with only a few straggling houses on the
river side; 'tis however of not the least consequence to me, all places
are equal to me where Emily is not.

I seek amusement, but without finding it: she is never one moment
from my thoughts; I am every hour on the point of returning to Quebec;
I cannot support the idea of her leaving the country without my seeing
her.

'Tis a lady who has this estate to sell: I am at present at her
house; she is very amiable; a widow about thirty, with an agreable
person, great vivacity, an excellent understanding, improved by
reading, to which the absolute solitude of her situation has obliged
her; she has an open pleasing countenance, with a candor and sincerity
in her conversation which would please me, if my mind was in a state to
be pleased with any thing. Through all the attention and civility I
think myself obliged to shew her, she seems to perceive the melancholy
which I cannot shake off: she is always contriving some little party
for me, as if she knew how much I am in want of amusement.

Oct. 12.

Madame Des Roches is very kind; she sees my chagrin, and takes every
method to divert it: she insists on my going in her shallop to see the
last settlement on the river, opposite the Isle of Barnaby; she does me
the honor to accompany me, with a gentleman and lady who live about a
mile from her.

Isle Barnaby, Oct. 13.

I have been paying a very singular visit; 'tis to a hermit, who has
lived sixty years alone on this island; I came to him with a strong
prejudice against him; I have no opinion of those who fly society; who
seek a state of all others the most contrary to our nature. Were I a
tyrant, and wished to inflict the most cruel punishment human nature
could support, I would seclude criminals from the joys of society, and
deny them the endearing sight of their species.

I am certain I could not exist a year alone: I am miserable even in
that degree of solitude to which one is confined in a ship; no words
can speak the joy which I felt when I came to America, on the first
appearance of something like the chearful haunts of men; the first man,
the first house, nay the first Indian fire of which I saw the smoke
rise above the trees, gave me the most lively transport that can be
conceived; I felt all the force of those ties which unite us to each
other, of that social love to which we owe all our happiness here.

But to my hermit: his appearance disarmed my dislike; he is a tall
old man, with white hair and beard, the look of one who has known
better days, and the strongest marks of benevolence in his countenance.
He received me with the utmost hospitality, spread all his little
stores of fruit before me, fetched me fresh milk, and water from a
spring near his house.

After a little conversation, I expressed my astonishment, that a man
of whose kindness and humanity I had just had such proof, could find
his happiness in flying mankind: I said a good deal on the subject, to
which he listened with the politest attention.

"You appear," said he, "of a temper to pity the miseries of others.
My story is short and simple: I loved the most amiable of women; I was
beloved. The avarice of our parents, who both had more gainful views
for us, prevented an union on which our happiness depended. My Louisa,
who was threatened with an immediate marriage with a man she detested,
proposed to me to fly the tyranny of our friends: she had an uncle at
Quebec, to whom she was dear. The wilds of Canada, said she, may afford
us that refuge our cruel country denies us. After a secret marriage,
we embarked. Our voyage was thus far happy; I landed on the opposite
shore, to seek refreshments for my Louisa; I was returning, pleased
with the thought of obliging the object of all my tenderness, when a
beginning storm drove me to seek shelter in this bay. The storm
encreased, I saw its progress with agonies not to be described; the
ship, which was in sight, was unable to resist its fury; the sailors
crowded into the boat; they had the humanity to place my Louisa there;
they made for the spot where I was, my eyes were wildly fixed on them;
I stood eagerly on the utmost verge of the water, my arms stretched out
to receive her, my prayers ardently addressed to Heaven, when an
immense wave broke over the boat; I heard a general shriek; I even
fancied I distinguished my Louisa's cries; it subsided, the sailors
again exerted all their force; a second wave--I saw them no more.

"Never will that dreadful scene be absent one moment from my memory:
I fell senseless on the beach; when I returned to life, the first
object I beheld was the breathless body of my Louisa at my feet. Heaven
gave me the wretched consolation of rendering to her the last sad
duties. In that grave all my happiness lies buried. I knelt by her, and
breathed a vow to Heaven, to wait here the moment that should join me
to all I held dear. I every morning visit her loved remains, and
implore the God of mercy to hasten my dissolution. I feel that we shall
not long be separated; I shall soon meet her, to part no more."

He stopped, and, without seeming to remember he was not alone,
walked hastily towards a little oratory he has built on the beach, near
which is the grave of his Louisa; I followed him a few steps, I saw
him throw himself on his knees; and, respecting his sorrow, returned
to the house.

Though I cannot absolutely approve, yet I more than forgive, I
almost admire, his renouncing the world in his situation. Devotion is
perhaps the only balm for the wounds given by unhappy love; the heart
is too much softened by true tenderness to admit any common cure.

Seven in the evening.

I am returned to Madame Des Roches and her friends, who declined
visiting the hermit. I found in his conversation all which could have
adorned society; he was pleased with the sympathy I shewed for his
sufferings; we parted with regret. I wished to have made him a
present, but he will receive nothing.

A ship for England is in sight. Madame Des Roches is so polite to
send off this letter; we return to her house in the morning.

  Adieu! my Lucy.
      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 33.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Oct. 12.

I have no patience with this foolish brother of yours; he is
rambling about in the woods when we want him here: we have a most
agreeable assembly every Thursday at the General's, and have had
another ball since he has been gone on this ridiculous ramble; I miss
the dear creature wherever I go. We have nothing but balls, cards, and
parties of pleasure; but they are nothing without my little Rivers.

I have been making the tour of the three religions this morning,
and, as I am the most constant creature breathing; am come back only a
thousand times more pleased with my own. I have been at mass, at
church, and at the presbyterian meeting: an idea struck me at the last,
in regard to the drapery of them all; that the Romish religion is like
an over-dressed, tawdry, rich citizen's wife; the presbyterian like a
rude aukward country girl; the church of England like an elegant
well-dressed woman of quality, "plain in her neatness" (to quote
Horace, who is my favorite author). There is a noble, graceful
simplicity both in the worship and the ceremonies of the church of
England, which, even if I were a stranger to her doctrines, would
prejudice me strongly in her favor.

Sir George sets out for Montreal this evening, so do the house of
Melmoth; I have however prevailed on Emily to stay a month or two
longer with me. I am rejoiced Sir George is going away; I am tired of
seeing that eternal smile, that countenance of his, which attempts to
speak, and says nothing. I am in doubt whether I shall let Emily marry
him; she will die in a week, of no distemper but his conversation.

They dine with us. I am called down. Adieu!

Eight at night.

Heaven be praised, our lover is gone; they parted with great
philosophy on both sides: they are the prettiest mild pair of
inamoratoes one shall see.

Your brother's servant has just called to tell me he is going to his
master. I have a great mind to answer his letter, and order him back.



LETTER 34.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Oct. 12.

I have been looking at the estate Madame Des Roches has to sell; it
is as wild as the lands to which I have a right; I hoped this would
have amused my chagrin, but am mistaken: nothing interests me, nothing
takes up my attention one moment: my mind admits but one idea. This
charming woman follows me wherever I go; I wander about like the first
man when driven out of paradise: I vainly fancy every change of place
will relieve the anxiety of my mind.

Madame Des Roches smiles, and tells me I am in love; 'tis however a
smile of tenderness and compassion: your sex have great penetration in
whatever regards the heart.

Oct. 13.

I have this moment a letter from Miss Fermor, to press my return to
Quebec; she tells me, Emily's marriage is postponed till spring. My
Lucy! how weak is the human heart! In spite of myself, a ray of
hope--I set off this instant: I cannot conceal my joy.



LETTER 35.


To Colonel Rivers, at Quebec.

London, July 23.

You have no idea, Ned, how much your absence is lamented by the
dowagers, to whom, it must be owned, your charity has been pretty
extensive.

It would delight you to see them condoling with each other on the
loss of the dear charming man, the man of sentiment, of true taste, who
admires the maturer beauties, and thinks no woman worth pursuing till
turned of twenty-five: 'tis a loss not to be made up; for your taste,
it must be owned, is pretty singular.

I have seen your last favorite, Lady H----, who assures me, on the
word of a woman of honour, that, had you staid seven years in London,
she does not think she should have had the least inclination to change:
but an absent lover, she well observed, is, properly speaking, no lover
at all. "Bid Colonel Rivers remember," said she, "what I have read
somewhere, the parting words of a French lady to a bishop of her
acquaintance, Let your absence be short, my lord; and remember that a
mistress is a benefice which obliges to residence."

I am told, you had not been gone a week before Jack Willmott had the
honor of drying up the fair widow's tears.

I am going this evening to Vauxhall, and to-morrow propose setting
out for my house in Rutland, from whence you shall hear from me again.

Adieu! I never write long letters in London. I should tell you, I
have been to see Mrs. Rivers and your sister; the former is well, but
very anxious to have you in England again; the latter grows so very
handsome, I don't intend to repeat my visits often.

      Yours,
          J. Temple.



LETTER 36.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Quebec, Oct. 14.

I am this moment arrived from a ramble down the river; but, a ship
being just going, must acknowledge your last.

You make me happy in telling me my dear Lady H---- has given my place
in her heart to so honest a fellow as Jack Willmott; and I sincerely
wish the ladies always chose their favorites as well.

I should be very unreasonable indeed to expect constancy at almost
four thousand miles distance, especially when the prospect of my return
is so very uncertain.

My voyage ought undoubtedly to be considered as an abdication: I am
to all intents and purposes dead in law as a lover; and the lady has
a right to consider her heart as vacant, and to proceed to a new
election.

I claim no more than a share in her esteem and remembrance, which I
dare say I shall never want.

That I have amused myself a little in the dowager way, I am very far
from denying; but you will observe, it was less from taste than the
principle of doing as little mischief as possible in my few excursions
to the world of gallantry. A little deviation from the exact rule of
right we men all allow ourselves in love affairs; but I was willing to
keep as near it as I could. Married women are, on my principles,
forbidden fruit; I abhor the seduction of innocence; I am too
delicate, and (with all my modesty) too vain, to be pleased with venal
beauty: what was I then to do, with a heart too active to be absolutely
at rest, and which had not met with its counterpart? Widows were, I
thought, fair prey, as being sufficiently experienced to take care of
themselves.

I have said married women are, on my principles, forbidden fruit: I
should have explained myself; I mean in England, for my ideas on this
head change as soon as I land at Calais.

Such is the amazing force of local prejudice, that I do not
recollect having ever made love to an English married woman, or a
French unmarried one. Marriages in France being made by the parents,
and therefore generally without inclination on either side, gallantry
seems to be a tacit condition, though not absolutely expressed in the
contract.

But to return to my plan: I think it an excellent one; and would
recommend it to all those young men about town, who, like me, find in
their hearts the necessity of loving, before they meet with an object
capable of fixing them for life.

By the way, I think the widows ought to raise a statue to my honor,
for having done my _possible_ to prove that, for the sake of
decorum, morals, and order, they ought to have all the men to
themselves.

I have this moment your letter from Rutland. Do you know I am almost
angry? Your ideas of love are narrow and pedantic; custom has done
enough to make the life of one half of our species tasteless; but you
would reduce them to a state of still greater insipidity than even that
to which our tyranny has doomed them.

You would limit the pleasure of loving and being beloved, and the
charming power of pleasing, to three or four years only in the life of
that sex which is peculiarly formed to feel tenderness; women are born
with more lively affections than men, which are still more softened by
education; to deny them the privilege of being amiable, the only
privilege we allow them, as long as nature continues them so, is such a
mixture of cruelty and false taste as I should never have suspected you
of, notwithstanding your partiality for unripened beauty.

As to myself, I persist in my opinion, that women are most charming
when they join the attractions of the mind to those of the person, when
they feel the passion they inspire; or rather, that they are never
charming till then.

A woman in the first bloom of youth resembles a tree in blossom;
when mature, in fruit: but a woman who retains the charms of her person
till her understanding is in its full perfection, is like those trees
in happier climes, which produce blossoms and fruit together.

You will scarce believe, Jack, that I have lived a week _tête à
tête_, in the midst of a wood, with just the woman I have been
describing; a widow extremely my taste, _mature_, five or six
years more so than you say I require, lively, sensible, handsome,
without saying one civil thing to her; yet nothing can be more certain.

I could give you powerful reasons for my insensibility; but you are
a traitor to love, and therefore have no right to be in any of his
secrets.

I will excuse your visits to my sister; as well as I love you
myself, I have a thousand reasons for chusing she should not be
acquainted with you.

What you say in regard to my mother, gives me pain; I will never
take back my little gift to her; and I cannot live in England on my
present income, though it enables me to live _en prince_ in
Canada.

Adieu! I have not time to say more. I have stole this half hour from
the loveliest woman breathing, whom I am going to visit: surely you are
infinitely obliged to me. To lessen the obligation, however, my calash
is not yet come to the door.

    Adieu! once more.
      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 37.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Oct. 15.

Our wanderer is returned, my dear, and in such spirits as you can't
conceive: he passed yesterday with us; he likes to have us to himself,
and he had yesterday; we walked _à trio_ in the wood, and were
foolish; I have not passed so agreable a day since I came to Canada: I
love mightily to be foolish, and the people here have no taste that way
at all: your brother is divinely so upon occasion. The weather was, to
use the Canadian phrase, _superbe et magnifique_. We shall not, I
am told, have much more in the same _magnifique_ style, so we
intend to make the most of it: I have ordered your brother to come and
walk with us from morning till night; every day and all the day.

The dear man was amazingly overjoyed to see us again; we shared in
his joy, though my little Emily took some pains to appear tranquil on
the occasion: I never saw more pleasure in the countenances of two
people in my life, nor more pains taken to suppress it.

Do you know Fitzgerald is really an agreable fellow? I have an
admirable natural instinct; I perceived he had understanding, from his
aquiline nose and his eagle eye, which are indexes I never knew fail. I
believe we are going to be great; I am not sure I shall not admit him
to make up a _partie quarrée_ with your brother and Emily: I told
him my original plot upon him, and he was immensely pleased with it. I
almost fancy he can be foolish; in that case, my business is done: if
with his other merits he has that, I am a lost woman.

He has excellent sense, great good nature, and the true princely
spirit of an Irishman: he will be ruined here, but that is his affair,
not mine. He changed quarters with an officer now at Montreal; and,
because the lodgings were to be furnished, thought himself obliged to
leave three months wine in the cellars.

His person is pleasing; he has good eyes and teeth (the only
beauties I require), is marked with the small pox, which in men gives a
sensible look; very manly, and looks extremely like a gentleman.

He comes, the conqueror comes.

I see him plainly through the trees; he is now in full view, within
twenty yards of the house. He looks particularly well on horseback,
Lucy; which is one certain proof of a good education. The fellow is
well born, and has ideas of things: I think I shall admit him of my
train.

Emily wonders I have never been in love: the cause is clear; I have
prevented any attachment to one man, by constantly flirting with
twenty: 'tis the most sovereign receipt in the world. I think too, my
dear, you have maintained a sort of running fight with the little
deity: our hour is not yet come. Adieu!

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 38.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Oct. 15, evening.

I am returned, my dear, and have had the pleasure of hearing you and
my mother are well, though I have had no letters from either of you.

Mr. Temple, my dearest Lucy, tells me he has visited you. Will you
pardon me a freedom which nothing but the most tender friendship can
warrant, when I tell you that I would wish you to be as little
acquainted with him as politeness allows? He is a most agreable man,
perhaps too agreable, with a thousand amiable qualities; he is the man
I love above all others; and, where women are not concerned, a man of
the most unblemished honor: but his manner of life is extremely
libertine, and his ideas of women unworthy the rest of his character;
he knows not the perfections which adorn the valuable part of your
sex, he is a stranger to your virtues, and incapable, at least I fear
so, of that tender affection which alone can make an amiable woman
happy. With all this, he is polite and attentive, and has a manner,
which, without intending it, is calculated to deceive women into an
opinion of his being attached when he is not: he has all the splendid
virtues which command esteem; is noble, generous, disinterested, open,
brave; and is the most dangerous man on earth to a woman of honor, who
is unacquainted with the arts of man.

Do not however mistake me, my Lucy; I know him to be as incapable
of forming improper designs on you, even were you not the sister of his
friend, as you are of listening to him if he did: 'tis for your heart
alone I am alarmed; he is formed to please; you are young and
inexperienced, and have not yet loved; my anxiety for your peace makes
me dread your loving a man whose views are not turned to marriage, and
who is therefore incapable of returning properly the tenderness of a
woman of honor.

I have seen my divine Emily: her manner of receiving me was very
flattering; I cannot doubt her friendship for me; yet I am not
absolutely content. I am however convinced, by the easy tranquillity of
her air, and her manner of bearing this delay of their marriage, that
she does not love the man for whom she is intended: she has been a
victim to the avarice of her friends. I would fain hope--yet what
have I to hope? If I had even the happiness to be agreable to her, if
she was disengaged from Sir George, my fortune makes it impossible for
me to marry her, without reducing her to indigence at home, or dooming
her to be an exile in Canada for life. I dare not ask myself what I
wish or intend: yet I give way in spite of me to the delight of seeing
and conversing with her.

I must not look forward; I will only enjoy the present pleasure of
believing myself one of the first in her esteem and friendship, and of
shewing her all those little pleasing attentions so dear to a sensible
heart; attentions in which her _lover_ is astonishingly remiss: he
is at Montreal, and I am told was gay and happy on his journey thither,
though he left his mistress behind.

I have spent two very happy days at Silleri, with Emily and your
friend Bell Fermor: to-morrow I meet them at the governor's, where
there is a very agreable assembly on Thursday evenings. Adieu!

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.

I shall write again by a ship which sails next week.



LETTER 39.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Quebec, Oct. 18.

I have this moment a letter from Madame Des Roches, the lady at
whose house I spent a week, and to whom I am greatly obliged. I am so
happy as to have an opportunity of rendering her a service, in which I
must desire your assistance.

'Tis in regard to some lands belonging to her, which, not being
settled, some other person has applied for a grant of at home. I send
you the particulars, and beg you will lose no time in entering a
_caveat_, and taking other proper steps to prevent what would be an
act of great injustice: the war and the incursions of the Indians in
alliance with us have hitherto prevented these lands from being
settled, but Madame Des Roches is actually in treaty with some Acadians
to settle them immediately. Employ all your friends as well as mine if
necessary; my lawyer will direct you in what manner to apply, and pay
the expences attending the application. Adieu!

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 40.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Oct. 20.

I danced last night till four o'clock in the morning (if you will
allow the expression), without being the least fatigued: the little
Fitzgerald was my partner, who grows upon me extremely; the monkey has
a way of being attentive and careless by turns, which has an amazing
effect; nothing attaches a woman of my temper so much to a lover as her
being a little in fear of losing him; and he keeps up the spirit of the
thing admirably.

Your brother and Emily danced together, and I think I never saw
either of them look so handsome; she was a thousand times more admired
at this ball than the first, and reason good, for she was a thousand
times more agreable; your brother is really a charming fellow, he is
an immense favorite with the ladies; he has that very pleasing general
attention, which never fails to charm women; he can even be particular
to one, without wounding the vanity of the rest: if he was in company
with twenty, his mistress of the number, his manner would be such, that
every woman there would think herself the second in his esteem; and
that, if his heart had not been unluckily pre-engaged, she herself
should have been the object of his tenderness.

His eyes are of immense use to him; he looks the civilest things
imaginable; his whole countenance speaks whatever he wishes to say; he
has the least occasion for words to explain himself of any man I ever
knew.

Fitzgerald has eyes too, I assure you, and eyes that know how to
speak; he has a look of saucy unconcern and inattention, which is
really irresistible.

We have had a great deal of snow already, but it melts away; 'tis a
lovely day, but an odd enough mixture of summer and winter; in some
places you see half a foot of snow lying, in others the dust is even
troublesome.

Adieu! there are a dozen or two of beaux at the door.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 41.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Nov. 10.

The savages assure us, my dear, on the information of the beavers,
that we shall have a very mild winter: it seems, these creatures have
laid in a less winter stock than usual. I take it very ill, Lucy, that
the beavers have better intelligence than we have.

We are got into a pretty composed easy way; Sir George writes very
agreable, sensible, sentimental, gossiping letters, once a fortnight,
which Emily answers in due course, with all the regularity of a
counting-house correspondence; he talks of coming down after Christmas:
we expect him without impatience; and in the mean time amuse ourselves
as well as we can, and soften the pain of absence by the attention of
a man that I fancy we like quite as well.

With submission to the beavers, the weather is very cold, and we
have had a great deal of snow already; but they tell me 'tis nothing to
what we shall have: they are taking precautions which make me shudder
beforehand, pasting up the windows, and not leaving an avenue where
cold can enter.

I like the winter carriages immensely; the open carriole is a kind
of one-horse chaise, the covered one a chariot, set on a sledge to run
on the ice; we have not yet had snow enough to use them, but I like
their appearance prodigiously; the covered carrioles seem the prettiest
things in nature to make love in, as there are curtains to draw before
the windows: we shall have three in effect, my father's, Rivers's, and
Fitzgerald's; the two latter are to be elegance itself, and entirely
for the service of the ladies: your brother and Fitzgerald are trying
who shall be ruined first for the honor of their country. I will bet
three to one upon Ireland. They are every day contriving parties of
pleasure, and making the most gallant little presents imaginable to the
ladies.

Adieu! my dear.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 42.


To Miss Rivers.

Quebec, Nov. 14.

I shall not, my dear, have above one more opportunity of writing to
you by the ships; after which we can only write by the packet once a
month.

My Emily is every day more lovely; I see her often, and every hour
discover new charms in her; she has an exalted understanding, improved
by all the knowledge which is becoming in your sex; a soul awake to all
the finer sensations of the heart, checked and adorned by the native
gentleness of woman: she is extremely handsome, but she would please
every feeling heart if she was not; she has the soul of beauty: without
feminine softness and delicate sensibility, no features can give
loveliness; with them, very indifferent ones can charm: that
sensibility, that softness, never were so lovely as in my Emily. I can
write on no other subject. Were you to see her, my Lucy, you would
forgive me. My letter is called for. Adieu!

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.

Your friend Miss Fermor will write you every thing.



LETTER 43.


To Miss Montague, at Silleri.

Montreal, Nov. 14.

Mr. Melmoth and I, my dear Emily, expected by this time to have seen
you at Montreal. I allow something to your friendship for Miss Fermor;
but there is also something due to relations who tenderly love you, and
under whose protection your uncle left you at his death.

I should add, that there is something due to Sir George, had I not
already displeased you by what I have said on the subject.

You are not to be told, that in a week the road from hence to Quebec
will be impassable for at least a month, till the rivers are
sufficiently froze to bear carriages.

I will own to you, that I am a little jealous of your attachment to
Miss Fermor, though no one can think her more amiable than I do.

If you do not come this week, I would wish you to stay till Sir
George comes down, and return with him; I will entreat the favor of
Miss Fermor to accompany you to Montreal, which we will endeavour to
make as agreable to her as we can.

I have been ill of a slight fever, but am now perfectly recovered.
Sir George and Mr. Melmoth are well, and very impatient to see you
here.

    Adieu! my dear.
      Your affectionate
          E. Melmoth.



LETTER 44.


To Mrs. Melmoth, at Montreal.

Silleri, Nov. 20.

I have a thousand reasons, my dearest Madam, for intreating you to
excuse my staying some time longer at Quebec. I have the sincerest
esteem for Sir George, and am not insensible of the force of our
engagements; but do not think his being there a reason for my coming:
the kind of suspended state, to say no more, in which those engagements
now are, call for a delicacy in my behaviour to him, which is so
difficult to observe without the appearance of affectation, that his
absence relieves me from a very painful kind of restraint: for the same
reason, 'tis impossible for me to come up at the time he does, if I do
come, even though Miss Fermor should accompany me.

A moment's reflexion will convince you of the propriety of my
staying here till his mother does me the honor again to approve his
choice; or till our engagement is publicly known to be at an end. Mrs.
Clayton is a prudent mother, and a woman of the world, and may consider
that Sir George's situation is changed since she consented to his
marriage.

I am not capricious; but I will own to you, that my esteem for Sir
George is much lessened by his behaviour since his last return from
New-York: he mistakes me extremely, if he supposes he has the least
additional merit in my eyes from his late acquisition of fortune: on
the contrary, I now see faults in him which were concealed by the
mediocrity of his situation before, and which do not promise happiness
to a heart like mine, a heart which has little taste for the false
glitter of life, and the most lively one possible for the calm real
delights of friendship, and domestic felicity.

Accept my sincerest congratulations on your return of health; and
believe me,

  My dearest Madam,
    Your obliged and affectionate
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 45.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Nov. 23.

I have been seeing the last ship go out of the port, Lucy; you have
no notion what a melancholy sight it is: we are now left to ourselves,
and shut up from all the world for the winter: somehow we seem so
forsaken, so cut off from the rest of human kind, I cannot bear the
idea: I sent a thousand sighs and a thousand tender wishes to dear
England, which I never loved so much as at this moment.

Do you know, my dear, I could cry if I was not ashamed? I shall not
absolutely be in spirits again this week.

'Tis the first time I have felt any thing like bad spirits in
Canada: I followed the ship with my eyes till it turned Point Levi,
and, when I lost sight of it, felt as if I had lost every thing dear to
me on earth. I am not particular: I see a gloom on every countenance; I
have been at church, and think I never saw so many dejected faces in my
life.

Adieu! for the present: it will be a fortnight before I can send
this letter; another agreable circumstance that: would to Heaven I
were in England, though I changed the bright sun of Canada for a fog!

Dec. 1.

We have had a week's snow without intermission: happily for us, your
brother and the Fitz have been weather-bound all the time at Silleri,
and cannot possibly get away.

We have amused ourselves within doors, for there is no stirring
abroad, with playing at cards, playing at shuttlecock, playing the
fool, making love, and making moral reflexions: upon the whole, the
week has not been very disagreable.

The snow is when we wake constantly up to our chamber windows; we
are literally dug out of it every morning.

As to Quebec, I give up all hopes of ever seeing it again: but my
comfort is, that the people there cannot possibly get to their
neighbors; and I flatter myself very few of them have been half so well
entertained at home.

We shall be abused, I know, for (what is really the fault of the
weather) keeping these two creatures here this week; the ladies hate us
for engrossing two such fine fellows as your brother and Fitzgerald, as
well as for having vastly more than our share of all the men: we
generally go out attended by at least a dozen, without any other woman
but a lively old French lady, who is a flirt of my father's, and will
certainly be my mamma.

We sweep into the general's assembly on Thursdays with such a train
of beaux as draws every eye upon us: the rest of the fellows crowd
round us; the misses draw up, blush, and flutter their fans; and your
little Bell sits down with such a saucy impertinent consciousness in
her countenance as is really provoking: Emily on the contrary looks
mild and humble, and seems by her civil decent air to apologize to them
for being so much more agreable than themselves, which is a fault I for
my part am not in the least inclined to be ashamed of.

Your idea of Quebec, my dear, is perfectly just; it is like a third
or fourth rate country town in England; much hospitality, little
society; cards, scandal, dancing, and good chear; all excellent things
to pass away a winter evening, and peculiarly adapted to what I am
told, and what I begin to feel, of the severity of this climate.

I am told they abuse me, which I can easily believe, because my
impertinence to them deserves it: but what care I, you know, Lucy, so
long as I please myself, and am at Silleri out of the sound?

They are squabbling at Quebec, I hear, about I cannot tell what,
therefore shall not attempt to explain: some dregs of old disputes, it
seems, which have had not time to settle: however, we new comers have
certainly nothing to do with these matters: you can't think how
comfortable we feel at Silleri, out of the way.

My father says, the politics of Canada are as complex and as
difficult to be understood as those of the Germanic system.

For my part, I think no politics worth attending to but those of the
little commonwealth of woman: if I can maintain my empire over hearts,
I leave the men to quarrel for every thing else.

I observe a strict neutrality, that I may have a chance for admirers
amongst both parties. Adieu! the post is just going out.

      Your faithful
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 46.


To Miss Montague, at Silleri.

Montreal, Dec. 18.

There is something, my dear Emily, in what you say as to the
delicacy of your situation; but, whilst you are so very exact in acting
up to it on one side, do you not a little overlook it on the other?

I am extremely unwilling to say a disagreable thing to you, but Miss
Fermor is too young as well as too gay to be a protection--the very
particular circumstance you mention makes Mr. Melmoth's the only house
in Canada in which, if I have any judgment, you can with propriety live
till your marriage takes place.

You extremely injure Sir George in supposing it possible he should
fail in his engagements: and I see with pain that you are more
quicksighted to his failings than is quite consistent with that
tenderness, which (allow me to say) he has a right to expect from you.
He is like other men of his age and fortune; he is the very man you so
lately thought amiable, and of whose love you cannot without injustice
have a doubt.

Though I approve your contempt of the false glitter of the world,
yet I think it a little strained at your time of life: did I not know
you as well as I do, I should say that philosophy in a young and
especially a female mind, is so out of season, as to be extremely
suspicious. The pleasures which attend on affluence are too great, and
too pleasing to youth, to be overlooked, except when under the
influence of a livelier passion.

Take care, my Emily; I know the goodness of your heart, but I also
know its sensibility; remember that, if your situation requires great
circumspection in your behaviour to Sir George, it requires much
greater to every other person: it is even more delicate than marriage
itself.

I shall expect you and Miss Fermor as soon as the roads are such
that you can travel agreably; and, as you object to Sir George as a
conductor, I will entreat Captain Fermor to accompany you hither.

    I am, my dear,
      Your most affectionate
          E. Melmoth.



LETTER 47.


To Mrs. Melmoth, at Montreal.

Silleri, Dec. 26.

I entreat you, my dearest Madam, to do me the justice to believe I
see my engagement to Sir George in as strong a light as you can do; if
there is any change in my behaviour to him, it is owing to the very
apparent one in his conduct to me, of which no one but myself can be a
judge. As to what you say in regard to my contempt of affluence, I can
only say it is in my character, whether it is generally in the female
one or not.

Were the cruel hint you are pleased to give just, be assured Sir
George should be the first person to whom I would declare it. I hope
however it is possible to esteem merit without offending even the most
sacred of all engagements.

A gentleman waits for this. I have only time to say, that Miss
Fermor thanks you for your obliging invitation, and promises she will
accompany me to Montreal as soon as the river St. Lawrence will bear
carriages, as the upper road is extremely inconvenient.

  I am,
    My dearest Madam,
      Your obliged
        and faithful
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 48.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Dec. 27.

After a fortnight's snow, we have had near as much clear blue sky
and sunshine: the snow is six feet deep, so that we may be said to walk
on our own heads; that is, speaking _en philosophe_, we occupy the
space we should have done in summer if we had done so; or, to explain
it more clearly, our heels are now where our heads should be.

The scene is a little changed for the worse: the lovely landscape is
now one undistinguished waste of snow, only a little diversified by the
great variety of ever-greens in the woods: the romantic winding path
down the side of the hill to our farm, on which we used to amuse
ourselves with seeing the beaux serpentize, is now a confused,
frightful, rugged precipice, which one trembles at the idea of
ascending.

There is something exceedingly agreable in the whirl of the
carrioles, which fly along at the rate of twenty miles an hour; and
really hurry one out of one's senses.

Our little coterie is the object of great envy; we live just as we
like, without thinking of other people, which I am not sure _here_
is prudent, but it is pleasant, which is a better thing.

Emily, who is the civilest creature breathing, is for giving up her
own pleasure to avoid offending others, and wants me, every time we
make a carrioling-party, to invite all the misses of Quebec to go with
us, because they seem angry at our being happy without them: but for
that very reason I persist in my own way, and consider wisely, that,
though civility is due to other people, yet there is also some civility
due to one's self.

I agree to visit every body, but think it mighty absurd I must not
take a ride without asking a hundred people I scarce know to go with
me: yet this is the style here; they will neither be happy themselves,
nor let any body else. Adieu!

Dec. 29.

I will never take a beaver's word again as long as I live: there is
no supporting this cold; the Canadians say it is seventeen years since
there has been so severe a season. I thought beavers had been people
of more honor.

Adieu! I can no more: the ink freezes as I take it from the standish
to the paper, though close to a large stove. Don't expect me to write
again till May; one's faculties are absolutely congealed this weather.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 49.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Jan. 1.

It is with difficulty I breathe, my dear; the cold is so amazingly
intense as almost totally to stop respiration. I have business, the
business of pleasure, at Quebec; but have not courage to stir from the
stove.

We have had five days, the severity of which none of the natives
remember to have ever seen equaled: 'tis said, the cold is beyond all
the thermometers here, tho' intended for the climate.

The strongest wine freezes in a room which has a stove in it; even
brandy is thickened to the consistence of oil: the largest wood fire,
in a wide chimney, does not throw out its heat a quarter of a yard.

I must venture to Quebec to-morrow, or have company at home:
amusements are here necessary to life; we must be jovial, or the blood
will freeze in our veins.

I no longer wonder the elegant arts are unknown here; the rigour of
the climate suspends the very powers of the understanding; what then
must become of those of the imagination? Those who expect to see

  "A new Athens rising near the pole,"

will find themselves extremely disappointed. Genius will never
mount high, where the faculties of the mind are benumbed half the year.

'Tis sufficient employment for the most lively spirit here to
contrive how to preserve an existence, of which there are moments that
one is hardly conscious: the cold really sometimes brings on a sort of
stupefaction.

We had a million of beaux here yesterday, notwithstanding the severe
cold: 'tis the Canadian custom, calculated I suppose for the climate,
to visit all the ladies on New-year's-day, who sit dressed in form to
be kissed: I assure you, however, our kisses could not warm them; but
we were obliged, to our eternal disgrace, to call in rasberry brandy as
an auxiliary.

You would have died to see the men; they look just like so many
bears in their open carrioles, all wrapped in furs from head to foot;
you see nothing of the human form appear, but the tip of a nose.

They have intire coats of beaver skin, exactly like Friday's in
Robinson Crusoe, and casques on their heads like the old knights errant
in romance; you never saw such tremendous figures; but without this
kind of cloathing it would be impossible to stir out at present.

The ladies are equally covered up, tho' in a less unbecoming style;
they have long cloth cloaks with loose hoods, like those worn by the
market-women in the north of England. I have one in scarlet, the hood
lined with sable, the prettiest ever seen here, in which I assure you I
look amazingly handsome; the men think so, and call me the _Little
red riding-hood_; a name which becomes me as well as the hood.

The Canadian ladies wear these cloaks in India silk in summer,
which, fluttering in the wind, look really graceful on a fine woman.

Besides our riding-hoods, when we go out, we have a large buffaloe's
skin under our feet, which turns up, and wraps round us almost to our
shoulders; so that, upon the whole, we are pretty well guarded from the
weather as well as the men.

Our covered carrioles too have not only canvas windows (we dare not
have glass, because we often overturn), but cloth curtains to draw all
round us; the extreme swiftness of these carriages also, which dart
along like lightening, helps to keep one warm, by promoting the
circulation of the blood.

I pity the Fitz; no tiger was ever so hard-hearted as I am this
weather: the little god has taken his flight, like the swallows. I say
nothing, but cruelty is no virtue in Canada; at least at this season.

I suppose Pygmalion's statue was some frozen Canadian gentlewoman,
and a sudden warm day thawed her. I love to expound ancient fables, and
I think no exposition can be more natural than this.

Would you know what makes me chatter so this morning? Papa has made
me take some excellent _liqueur_; 'tis the mode here; all the
Canadian ladies take a little, which makes them so coquet and agreable.
Certainly brandy makes a woman talk like an angel. Adieu!

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 50.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Jan. 4.

I don't quite agree with you, my dear; your brother does not appear
to me to have the least scruple of that foolish false modesty which
stands in a man's way.

He is extremely what the French call _awakened_; he is modest,
certainly; that is, he is not a coxcomb, but he has all that proper
self-confidence which is necessary to set his agreable qualities in
full light: nothing can be a stronger proof of this, than that,
wherever he is, he always takes your attention in a moment, and this
without seeming to solicit it.

I am very fond of him, though he never makes love to me, in which
circumstance he is very singular: our friendship is quite platonic, at
least on his side, for I am not quite so sure on the other. I remember
one day in summer we were walking _tête à tête_ in the road to
Cape Rouge, when he wanted me to strike into a very beautiful thicket:
"Positively, Rivers," said I, "I will not venture with you into that
wood." "Are you afraid of _me_, Bell?" "No, but extremely of
_myself_."

I have loved him ever since a little scene that passed here three or
four months ago: a very affecting story, of a distressed family in our
neighbourhood, was told him and Sir George; the latter preserved all
the philosophic dignity and manly composure of his countenance, very
coldly expressed his concern, and called another subject: your brother
changed color, his eyes glistened; he took the first opportunity to
leave the room, he sought these poor people, he found, he relieved
them; which we discovered by accident a month after.

The weather, tho' cold beyond all that you in England can form an
idea of, is yet mild to what it has been the last five or six days; we
are going to Quebec, to church.

Two o'clock.

Emily and I have been talking religion all the way home: we are both
mighty good girls, as girls go in these degenerate days; our
grandmothers to be sure--but it's folly to look back.

We have been saying, Lucy, that 'tis the strangest thing in the
world people should quarrel about religion, since we undoubtedly all
mean the same thing; all good minds in every religion aim at pleasing
the Supreme Being; the means we take differ according to the country
where we are born, and the prejudices we imbibe from education; a
consideration which ought to inspire us with kindness and indulgence to
each other.

If we examine each other's sentiments with candor, we shall find
much less difference in essentials than we imagine;

  "Since all agree to own, at least to mean,
  One great, one good, one general Lord of all."

There is, I think, a very pretty Sunday reflexion for you, Lucy.

You must know, I am extremely religious; and for this amongst other
reasons, that I think infidelity a vice peculiarly contrary to the
native softness of woman: it is bold, daring, masculine; and I should
almost doubt the sex of an unbeliever in petticoats.

Women are religious as they are virtuous, less from principles
founded on reasoning and argument, than from elegance of mind, delicacy
of moral taste, and a certain quick perception of the beautiful and
becoming in every thing.

This instinct, however, for such it is, is worth all the tedious
reasonings of the men; which is a point I flatter myself you will not
dispute with me.

Monday, Jan. 5.

This is the first day I have ventured in an open carriole; we have
been running a race on the snow, your brother and I against Emily and
Fitzgerald: we conquered from Fitzgerald's complaisance to Emily. I
shall like it mightily, well wrapt up: I set off with a crape over my
face to keep off the cold, but in three minutes it was a cake of solid
ice, from my breath which froze upon it; yet this is called a mild day,
and the sun shines in all his glory.

Silleri, Thursday, Jan. 8, midnight.

We are just come from the general's assembly; much company, and we
danced till this minute; for I believe we have not been more coming
these four miles.

Fitzgerald is the very pink of courtesy; he never uses his covered
carriole himself, but devotes it intirely to the ladies; it stands at
the general's door in waiting on Thursdays: if any lady comes out
before her carriole arrives, the servants call out mechanically,
"Captain Fitzgerald's carriole here, for a lady." The Colonel is
equally gallant, but I generally lay an embargo on his: they have each
of them an extreme pretty one for themselves, or to drive a fair lady a
morning's airing, when she will allow them the honor, and the weather
is mild enough to permit it.

    _Bon soir!_ I am sleepy.
      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 51.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Quebec, Jan. 9.

You mistake me extremely, Jack, as you generally do: I have by no
means forsworn marriage: on the contrary, though happiness is not so
often found there as I wish it was, yet I am convinced it is to be
found no where else; and, poor as I am, I should not hesitate about
trying the experiment myself to-morrow, if I could meet with a woman
to my taste, unappropriated, whose ideas of the state agreed with mine,
which I allow are something out of the common road: but I must be
certain those ideas are her own, therefore they must arise
spontaneously, and not in complaisance to mine; for which reason, if I
could, I would endeavour to lead my mistress into the subject, and know
her sentiments on the manner of living in that state before I
discovered my own.

I must also be well convinced of her tenderness before I make a
declaration of mine: she must not distinguish me because I flatter her,
but because she thinks I have merit; those fancied passions, where
gratified vanity assumes the form of love, will not satisfy my heart:
the eyes, the air, the voice of the woman I love, a thousand little
indiscretions dear to the heart, must convince me I am beloved, before
I confess I love.

Though sensible of the advantages of fortune, I can be happy without
it: if I should ever be rich enough to live in the world, no one will
enjoy it with greater gust; if not, I can with great spirit, provided I
find such a companion as I wish, retire from it to love, content, and a
cottage: by which I mean to the life of a little country gentleman.

You ask me my opinion of the winter here. If you can bear a degree
of cold, of which Europeans can form no idea, it is far from being
unpleasant; we have settled frost, and an eternal blue sky. Travelling
in this country in winter is particularly agreable: the carriages are
easy, and go on the ice with an amazing velocity, though drawn only by
one horse.

The continual plain of snow would be extremely fatiguing both to the
eye and imagination, were not both relieved, not only by the woods in
prospect, but by the tall branches of pines with which the road is
marked out on each side, and which form a verdant avenue agreably
contrasted with the dazzling whiteness of the snow, on which, when the
sun shines, it is almost impossible to look steadily even for a moment.

Were it not for this method of marking out the roads, it would be
impossible to find the way from one village to another.

The eternal sameness however of this avenue is tiresome when you go
far in one road.

I have passed the last two months in the most agreable manner
possible, in a little society of persons I extremely love: I feel
myself so attached to this little circle of friends, that I have no
pleasure in any other company, and think all the time absolutely lost
that politeness forces me to spend any where else. I extremely dread
our party's being dissolved, and wish the winter to last for ever, for
I am afraid the spring will divide us.

    Adieu! and believe me,
      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 52.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Jan. 9.

I begin not to disrelish the winter here; now I am used to the cold,
I don't feel it so much: as there is no business done here in the
winter, 'tis the season of general dissipation; amusement is the study
of every body, and the pains people take to please themselves
contribute to the general pleasure: upon the whole, I am not sure it is
not a pleasanter winter than that of England.

Both our houses and our carriages are uncommonly warm; the clear
serene sky, the dry pure air, the little parties of dancing and cards,
the good tables we all keep, the driving about on the ice, the
abundance of people we see there, for every body has a carriole, the
variety of objects new to an European, keep the spirits in a continual
agreable hurry, that is difficult to describe, but very pleasant to
feel.

Sir George (would you believe it?) has written Emily a very warm
letter; tender, sentimental, and almost impatient; Mrs. Melmoth's
dictating, I will answer for it; not at all in his own composed
agreable style. He talks of coming down in a few days: I have a strong
notion he is coming, after his long tedious two years siege, to
endeavor to take us by storm at last; he certainly prepares for a
_coup de main_. He is right, all women hate a regular attack.

Adieu for the present.

Monday, Jan. 12.

We sup at your brother's to-night, with all the _beau monde_ of
Quebec: we shall be superbly entertained, I know. I am malicious enough
to wish Sir George may arrive during the entertainment, because I have
an idea it will mortify him; though I scarce know why I think so.
Adieu!

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 53.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Jan. 13, Eleven o'clock.

We passed a most agreable evening with your brother, though a large
company, which is seldom the case: a most admirable supper, excellent
wine, an elegant dessert of preserved fruits, and every body in spirits
and good humor.

The Colonel was the soul of our entertainment: amongst his other
virtues, he has the companionable and convivial ones to an immense
degree, which I never had an opportunity of discovering so clearly
before. He seemed charmed beyond words to see us all so happy: we staid
till four o'clock in the morning, yet all complained to-day we came
away too soon.

I need not tell you we had fiddles, for there is no entertainment in
Canada without them: never was such a race of dancers.

One o'clock.

The dear man is come, and with an equipage which puts the Empress of
Russia's tranieau to shame. America never beheld any thing so
brilliant:

  "All other carrioles, at sight of this,
  Hide their diminish'd heads."

Your brother's and Fitzgerald's will never dare to appear now; they
sink into nothing.

Seven in the evening.

Emily has been in tears in her chamber; 'tis a letter of Mrs.
Melmoth's which has had this agreable effect; some wise advice, I
suppose. Lord! how I hate people that give advice! don't you, Lucy?

I don't like this lover's coming; he is almost as bad as a husband:
I am afraid he will derange our little coterie; and we have been so
happy, I can't bear it.

Good night, my dear.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 54.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Jan. 14.

We have passed a mighty stupid day; Sir George is civil, attentive,
and dull; Emily pensive, thoughtful, and silent; and my little self as
peevish as an old maid: nobody comes near us, not even your brother,
because we are supposed to be settling preliminaries; for you must
know Sir George has graciously condescended to change his mind, and
will marry her, if she pleases, without waiting for his mother's
letter, which resolution he has communicated to twenty people at Quebec
in his way hither; he is really extremely obliging. I suppose the
Melmoths have spirited him up to this.

One o'clock.

Emily is strangely reserved to me; she avoids seeing me alone, and
when it happens talks of the weather; papa is however in her
confidence: he is as strong an advocate for this milky baronet as Mrs.
Melmoth.

Ten at night.

All is over, Lucy; that is to say, all is fixed: they are to be
married on Monday next at the Recollects church, and to set off
immediately for Montreal: my father has been telling me the whole plan
of operations: we go up with them, stay a fortnight, then all come
down, and show away till summer, when the happy pair embark in the
first ship for England.

Emily is really what one would call a prudent pretty sort of woman,
I did not think it had been in her: she is certainly right, there is
danger in delay; she has a thousand proverbs on her side; I thought
what all her fine sentiments would come to; she should at least have
waited for mamma's consent; this hurry is not quite consistent with
that extreme delicacy on which she piques herself; it looks exceedingly
as if she was afraid of losing him.

I don't love her half so well as I did three days ago; I hate
discreet young ladies that marry and settle; give me an agreable fellow
and a knapsack.

My poor Rivers! what will become of him when we are gone? he has
neglected every body for us.

As she loves the pleasures of conversation, she will be amazingly
happy in her choice;

  "With such a companion to spend the long day!"

He is to be sure a most entertaining creature.

Adieu! I have no patience.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.


After all, I am a little droll; I am angry with Emily for concluding
an advantageous match with a man she does not absolutely dislike, which
all good mammas say is sufficient; and this only because it breaks in
on a little circle of friends, in whose society I have been happy. O!
self! self! I would have her hazard losing a fine fortune and a coach
and six, that I may continue my coterie two or three months longer.

Adieu! I will write again as soon as we are married. My next will, I
suppose, be from Montreal. I die to see your brother and my little
Fitzgerald; this man gives me the vapours. Heavens! Lucy, what a
difference there is in men!


END OF VOL. I.




THE HISTORY OF EMILY MONTAGUE.


Vol. II



LETTER 55.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Jan. 16.

So, my dear, we went on too fast, it seems: Sir George was so
obliging as to settle all without waiting for Emily's consent; not
having supposed her refusal to be in the chapter of possibilities:
after having communicated their plan of operations to me as an affair
settled, papa was dispatched, as Sir George's ambassador, to inform
Emily of his gracious intentions in her favor.

She received him with proper dignity, and like a girl of true spirit
told him, that as the delay was originally from Sir George, she should
insist on observing the conditions very exactly, and was determined to
wait till spring, whatever might be the contents of Mrs. Clayton's
expected letter; reserving to herself also the privilege of refusing
him even then, if upon mature deliberation she should think proper so
to do.

She has further insisted, that till that time he shall leave
Silleri; take up his abode at Quebec, unless, which she thinks most
adviseable, he should return to Montreal for the winter; and never
attempt seeing her without witnesses, as their present situation is
particularly delicate, and that whilst it continues they can have
nothing to say to each other which their common friends may not with
propriety hear: all she can be prevailed on to consent to in his favor,
is to allow him _en attendant_ to visit here like any other
gentleman.

I wish she would send him back to Montreal, for I see plainly he
will spoil all our little parties.

Emily is a fine girl, Lucy, and I am friends with her again; so, my
dear, I shall revive my coterie, and be happy two or three months
longer. I have sent to ask my two sweet fellows at Quebec to dine here:
I really long to see them; I shall let them into the present state of
affairs here, for they both despise Sir George as much as I do; the
creature looks amazingly foolish, and I enjoy his humiliation not a
little: such an animal to set up for being beloved indeed! O to be
sure!

Emily has sent for me to her apartment. Adieu for a moment.

Eleven o'clock.

She has shewn me Mrs. Melmoth's letter on the subject of concluding
the marriage immediately: it is in the true spirit of family
impertinence. She writes with the kind discreet insolence of a
relation; and Emily has answered her with the genuine spirit of an
independent Englishwoman, who is so happy as to be her own mistress,
and who is therefore determined to think for herself.

She has refused going to Montreal at all this winter; and has
hinted, though not impolitely, that she wants no guardian of her
conduct but herself; adding a compliment to my ladyship's discretion so
very civil, it is impossible for me to repeat it with decency.

O Heavens! your brother and Fitzgerald! I fly. The dear creatures!
my life has been absolute vegetation since they absented themselves.

    Adieu! my dear,
      Your faithful
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 56.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Jan. 24.

We have the same parties and amusements we used to have, my dear,
but there is by no means the same spirit in them; constraint and
dullness seem to have taken the place of that sweet vivacity and
confidence which made our little society so pleasing: this odious man
has infected us all; he seems rather a spy on our pleasures than a
partaker of them; he is more an antidote to joy than a tall maiden
aunt.

I wish he would go; I say spontaneously every time I see him,
without considering I am impolite, "La! Sir George, when do you go to
Montreal?" He reddens, and gives me a peevish answer; and I then, and
not before, recollect how very impertinent the question is.

But pray, my dear, because he has no taste for social companionable
life, has he therefore a right to damp the spirit of it in those that
have? I intend to consult some learned casuist on this head.

He takes amazing pains to please in his way, is curled, powdered,
perfumed, and exhibits every day in a new suit of embroidery; but with
all this, has the mortification to see your brother please more in a
plain coat. I am lazy. Adieu!

      Yours, ever and ever,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 57.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Jan. 25.

So you intend, my dear Jack, to marry when you are quite tired of a
life of gallantry: the lady will be much obliged to you for a heart,
the refuse of half the prostitutes in town; a heart, the best feelings
of which will be entirely obliterated; a heart hardened by a long
commerce with the most unworthy of the sex; and which will bring
disgust, suspicion, coldness, and depravity of taste, to the bosom of
sensibility and innocence.

For my own part, though fond of women to the greatest degree, I have
had, considering my profession and complexion, very few intrigues. I
have always had an idea I should some time or other marry, and have
been unwilling to bring to a state in which I hoped for happiness from
mutual affection, a heart worn out by a course of gallantries: to a
contrary conduct is owing most of our unhappy marriages; the woman
brings with her all her stock of tenderness, truth, and affection; the
man's is exhausted before they meet: she finds the generous delicate
tenderness of her soul, not only unreturned, but unobserved; she
fancies some other woman the object of his affection, she is unhappy,
she pines in secret; he observes her discontent, accuses her of
caprice; and her portion is wretchedness for life.

If I did not ardently wish your happiness, I should not thus
repeatedly combat a prejudice, which, as you have sensibility, will
infallibly make the greater part of your life a scene of insipidity
and regret.

You are right, Jack, as to the savages; the only way to civilize
them is to _feminize_ their women; but the task is rather
difficult: at present their manners differ in nothing from those of the
men; they even add to the ferocity of the latter.

You desire to know the state of my heart: excuse me, Jack; you know
nothing of love; and we who do, never disclose its mysteries to the
prophane: besides, I always chuse a female for the confidante of my
sentiments; I hate even to speak of love to one of my own sex.

Adieu! I am going a party with half a dozen ladies, and have not
another minute to spare.

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 58.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Jan. 28.

I every hour, my dear, grow more in love with French manners; there
is something charming in being young and sprightly all one's life: it
would appear absurd in England to hear, what I have just heard, a fat
virtuous lady of seventy toast _Love and Opportunity_ to a young
fellow; but 'tis nothing here: they dance too to the last gasp; I have
seen the daughter, mother, and grand-daughter, in the same French
country dance.

They are perfectly right; and I honor them for their good sense and
spirit, in determining to make life agreable as long as they can.

_A propos_ to age, I am resolved to go home, Lucy; I have found
three grey hairs this morning; they tell me 'tis common; this vile
climate is at war with beauty, makes one's hair grey, and one's hands
red. I won't stay, absolutely.

Do you know there is a very pretty fellow here, Lucy, Captain
Howard, who has taken a fancy to make people believe he and I are on
good terms? He affects to sit by me, to dance with me, to whisper
nothing to me, to bow with an air of mystery, and to shew me all the
little attentions of a lover in public, though he never yet said a
civil thing to me when we were alone.

I was standing with him this morning near the brow of the hill,
leaning against a tree in the sunshine, and looking down the precipice
below, when I said something of the lover's leap, and in play, as you
will suppose, made a step forwards: we had been talking of indifferent
things, his air was till then indolence itself; but on this little
motion of mine, though there was not the least danger, he with the
utmost seeming eagerness catched hold of me as if alarmed at the very
idea, and with the most passionate air protested his life depended on
mine, and that he would not live an hour after me. I looked at him with
astonishment, not being able to comprehend the meaning of this sudden
flight, when turning my head, I saw a gentleman and lady close behind
us, whom he had observed though I had not. They were retiring: "Pray
approach, my dear Madam," said I; "we have no secrets, this declaration
was intended for you to hear; we were talking of the weather before you
came."

He affected to smile, though I saw he was mortified; but as his
smile shewed the finest teeth imaginable I forgave him: he is really
very handsome, and 'tis pity he has this foolish quality of preferring
the shadow to the substance.

I shall, however, desire him to flirt elsewhere, as this _badinage_,
however innocent, may hurt my character, and give pain to my little
Fitzgerald: I believe I begin to love this fellow, because I begin to
be delicate on the subject of flirtations, and feel my spirit of
coquetry decline every day.

29th.

Mrs. Clayton has wrote, my dear; and has at last condescended to
allow Emily the honor of being her daughter-in-law, in consideration of
her son's happiness, and of engagements entered into with her own
consent; though she very prudently observes, that what was a proper
match for Captain Clayton is by no means so for Sir George; and talks
something of an offer of a citizen's daughter with fifty thousand
pounds, and the promise of an Irish title. She has, however, observed
that indiscreet engagements are better broke than kept.

Sir George has shewn the letter, a very indelicate one in my
opinion, to my father and me; and has talked a great deal of nonsense
on the subject. He wants to shew it to Emily, and I advise him to it,
because I know the effect it will have. I see plainly he wishes to make
a great merit of keeping his engagement, if he does keep it: he hinted
a little fear of breaking her heart; and I am convinced, if he thought
she could survive his infidelity, all his tenderness and constancy
would cede to filial duty and a coronet.

Eleven o'clock.

After much deliberation, Sir George has determined to write to
Emily, inclose his mother's letter, and call in the afternoon to enjoy
the triumph of his generosity in keeping his engagement, when it is in
his power to do so much better: 'tis a pretty plan, and I encourage him
in it; my father, who wishes the match, shrugs his shoulders, and
frowns at me; but the little man is fixed as fate in his resolve, and
is writing at this moment in my father's apartment. I long to see his
letter; I dare say it will be a curiosity: 'tis short, however, for he
is coming out of the room already.

Adieu! my father calls for this letter; it is to go in one of his to
New York, and the person who takes it waits for it at the door.

      Ever yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 59.


To Miss Montague, at Silleri.

Dear Madam,

I send you the inclosed from my mother: I thought it necessary you
should see it, though not even a mother's wishes shall ever influence
me to break those engagements which I have had the happiness of
entering into with the most charming of women, and which a man of honor
ought to hold sacred.

I do not think happiness intirely dependent on rank or fortune, and
have only to wish my mother's sentiments on this subject more agreable
to my own, as there is nothing I so much wish as to oblige her: at all
events, however, depend on my fulfilling those promises, which ought to
be the more binding, as they were made at a time when our situations
were more equal.

I am happy in an opportunity of convincing you and the world, that
interest and ambition have no power over my heart, when put in
competition with what I owe to my engagements; being with the greatest
truth,

    My dearest Madam,
        Yours, &c.
          G. Clayton.

You will do me the honor to name the day to make me happy.



LETTER 60.


To Sir George Clayton, at Quebec.

Dear Sir,

I have read Mrs. Clayton's letter with attention; and am of her
opinion, that indiscreet engagements are better broke than kept.

I have the less reason to take ill your breaking the kind of
engagement between us at the desire of your family, as I entered into
it at first entirely in compliance with mine. I have ever had the
sincerest esteem and friendship for you, but never that romantic love
which hurries us to forget all but itself: I have therefore no reason
to expect in you the imprudent disinterestedness that passion
occasions.

A fuller explanation is necessary on this subject than it is
possible to enter into in a letter: if you will favor us with your
company this afternoon at Silleri, we may explain our sentiments more
clearly to each other: be assured, I never will prevent your complying
in every instance with the wishes of so kind and prudent a mother.

    I am, dear Sir,
      Your affectionate friend
        and obedient servant,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 61.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

I have been with Emily, who has been reading Mrs. Clayton's letter; I
saw joy sparkle in her eyes as she went on, her little heart seemed to
flutter with transport; I see two things very clearly, one of which
is, that she never loved this little insipid Baronet; the other I leave
your sagacity to find out. All the spirit of her countenance is
returned: she walks in air; her cheeks have the blush of pleasure; I
never saw so astonishing a change. I never felt more joy from the
acquisition of a new lover, than she seems to find in the prospect of
losing an old one.

She has written to Sir George, and in a style that I know will hurt
him; for though I believe he wishes her to give him up, yet his vanity
would desire it should cost her very dear; and appear the effort of
disinterested love, and romantic generosity, not what it really is, the
effect of the most tranquil and perfect indifference.

By the way, a disinterested mistress is, according to my ideas, a
mistress who _fancies_ she loves: we may talk what we please, at a
distance, of sacrificing the dear man to his interest, and promoting
his happiness by destroying our own; but when it comes to the point, I
am rather inclined to believe all women are of my way of thinking; and
let me die if I would give up a man I loved to the first dutchess in
Christendom: 'tis all mighty well in theory; but for the practical
part, let who will believe it for Bell.

Indeed when a woman finds her lover inclined to change, 'tis good to
make a virtue of necessity, and give the thing a sentimental turn,
which gratifies his vanity, and does not wound one's own.

Adieu! I see Sir George and his fine carriole; I must run, and tell
Emily.

      Ever yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 62.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Jan. 28.

Yes, my Lucy, your brother tenderly regrets the absence of a sister
endeared to him much more by her amiable qualities than by blood; who
would be the object of his esteem and admiration, if she was not that
of his fraternal tenderness; who has all the blooming graces,
simplicity, and innocence of nineteen, with the accomplishments and
understanding of five and twenty; who joins the strength of mind so
often confined to our sex, to the softness, delicacy, and vivacity of
her own; who, in short, is all that is estimable and lovely; and who,
except one, is the most charming of her sex: you will forgive the
exception, Lucy; perhaps no man but a brother would make it.

My sweet Emily appears every day more amiable; she is now in the
full tyranny of her charms, at the age when the mind is improved, and
the person in its perfection. I every day see in her more indifference
to her lover, a circumstance which gives me a pleasure which perhaps it
ought not: there is a selfishness in it, for which I am afraid I ought
to blush.

You judge perfectly well, my dear, in checking the natural vivacity
of your temper, however pleasing it is to all who converse with you:
coquetry is dangerous to English women, because they have sensibility;
it is more suited to the French, who are naturally something of the
salamander kind.

I have this moment a note from Bell Fermor, that she must see me
this instant. I hope my Emily is well: Heaven preserve the most
perfect of all its works.

    Adieu! my dear girl.
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 63.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Feb. 1.

We have passed three or four droll days, my dear. Emily persists in
resolving to break with Sir George; he thinks it decent to combat her
resolution, lest he should lose the praise of generosity: he is also
piqued to see her give him up with such perfect composure, though I am
convinced he will not be sorry upon the whole to be given up; he has,
from the first receipt of the letter, plainly wished her to resign
him, but hoped for a few faintings and tears, as a sacrifice to his
vanity on the occasion.

My father is setting every engine at work to make things up again,
supposing Emily to have determined from pique, not from the real
feelings of her heart: he is frighted to death lest I should
counterwork him, and so jealous of my advising her to continue a
conduct he so much disapproves, that he won't leave us a moment
together; he even observes carefully that each goes into her
respective apartment when we retire to bed.

This jealousy has started an idea which I think will amuse us, and
which I shall take the first opportunity of communicating to Emily;
'tis to write each other at night our sentiments on whatever passes in
the day; if she approves the plan, I will send you the letters, which
will save me a great deal of trouble in telling you all our _petites
histoires_.

This scheme will have another advantage; we shall be a thousand
times more sincere and open to each other by letter than face to face;
I have long seen by her eyes that the little fool has twenty things to
say to me, but has not courage; now letters you know, my dear,

  "Excuse the blush, and pour out all the heart."

Besides, it will be so romantic and pretty, almost as agreable as a
love affair: I long to begin the correspondence.

    Adieu!
      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 64.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Feb. 5.

I have but a moment, my Lucy, to tell you, my divine Emily has broke
with her lover, who this morning took an eternal leave of her, and set
out for Montreal in his way to New York, whence he proposes to embark
for England.

My sensations on this occasion are not to be described: I admire
that amiable delicacy which has influenced her to give up every
advantage of rank and fortune which could tempt the heart of woman,
rather than unite herself to a man for whom she felt the least degree
of indifference; and this, without regarding the censures of her
family, or of the world, by whom, what they will call her imprudence,
will never be forgiven: a woman who is capable of acting so nobly, is
worthy of being beloved, of being adored, by every man who has a soul
to distinguish her perfections.

If I was a vain man, I might perhaps fancy her regard for me had
some share in determining her conduct, but I am convinced of the
contrary; 'tis the native delicacy of her soul alone, incapable of
forming an union in which the heart has no share, which, independent of
any other consideration, has been the cause of a resolution so worthy
of herself.

That she has the tenderest affection for me, I cannot doubt one
moment; her attention is too flattering to be unobserved; but 'tis that
kind of affection in which the mind alone is concerned. I never gave
her the most distant hint that I loved her: in her situation, it would
have been even an outrage to have done so. She knows the narrowness of
my circumstances, and how near impossible it is for me to marry; she
therefore could not have an idea--no, my dear girl, 'tis not to love,
but to true delicacy, that she has sacrificed avarice and ambition; and
she is a thousand times the more estimable from this circumstance.

I am interrupted. You shall hear from me in a few days.

      Adieu!
        Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 65.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Feb. 10.

I have mentioned my plan to Emily, who is charmed with it; 'tis a
pretty evening amusement for two solitary girls in the country.

Behold the first fruits of our correspondence:

"To Miss Fermor.

"It is not to you, my dear girl, I need vindicate my conduct in
regard to Sir George; you have from the first approved it; you have
even advised it. If I have been to blame, 'tis in having too long
delayed an explanation on a point of such importance to us both. I
have been long on the borders of a precipice, without courage to retire
from so dangerous a situation: overborn by my family, I have been near
marrying a man for whom I have not the least tenderness, and whose
conversation is even now tedious to me.

"My dear friend, we were not formed for each other: our minds have
not the least resemblance. Have you not observed that, when I have
timidly hazarded my ideas on the delicacy necessary to keep love alive
in marriage, and the difficulty of preserving the heart of the object
beloved in so intimate an union, he has indolently assented, with a
coldness not to be described, to sentiments which it is plain from his
manner he did not understand; whilst another, not interested in the
conversation, has, by his countenance, by the fire of his eyes, by
looks more eloquent than all language, shewed his soul was of
intelligence with mine!

"A strong sense of the force of engagements entered into with my
consent, though not the effect of my free, unbiassed choice, and the
fear of making Sir George, by whom I supposed myself beloved, unhappy,
have thus long prevented my resolving to break with him for ever; and
though I could not bring myself to marry him, I found myself at the
same time incapable of assuming sufficient resolution to tell him so,
'till his mother's letter gave me so happy an occasion.

"There is no saying what transport I feel in being freed from the
insupportable yoke of this engagement, which has long sat heavy on my
heart, and suspended the natural chearfulness of my temper.

"Yes, my dear, your Emily has been wretched, without daring to
confess it even to you: I was ashamed of owning I had entered into such
engagements with a man whom I had never loved, though I had for a short
time mistaken esteem for a greater degree of affection than my heart
ever really knew. How fatal, my dear Bell, is this mistake to half our
sex, and how happy am I to have discovered mine in time!

"I have scarce yet asked myself what I intend; but I think it will
be most prudent to return to England in the first ship, and retire to a
relation of my mother's in the country, where I can live with decency
on my little fortune.

"Whatever is my fate, no situation can be equally unhappy with that
of being wife to a man for whom I have not even the slightest
friendship or esteem, for whose conversation I have not the least
taste, and who, if I know him, would for ever think me under an
obligation to him for marrying me.

"I have the pleasure to see I give no pain to his heart, by a step
which has relieved mine from misery: his feelings are those of wounded
vanity, not of love.

      "Adieu! Your
        Emily Montague."


I have no patience with relations, Lucy; this sweet girl has been
two years wretched under the bondage her uncle's avarice (for he
foresaw Sir George's acquisition, though she did not) prepared for her.
Parents should chuse our company, but never even pretend to direct our
choice; if they take care we converse with men of honor only, 'tis
impossible we can chuse amiss: a conformity of taste and sentiment
alone can make marriage happy, and of that none but the parties
concerned can judge.

By the way, I think long engagements, even between persons who love,
extremely unfavorable to happiness: it is certainly right to be long
enough acquainted to know something of each other's temper; but 'tis
bad to let the first fire burn out before we come together; and when
we have once resolved, I have no notion of delaying a moment.

If I should ever consent to marry Fitzgerald, and he should not fly
for a licence before I had finished the sentence, I would dismiss him
if there was not another lover to be had in Canada.

      Adieu!
        Your faithful
          A. Fermor.

My Emily is now free as air; a sweet little bird escaped from the
gilded cage. Are you not glad of it, Lucy? I am amazingly.



LETTER 66.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Feb. 11.

Would one think it possible, Lucy, that Sir George should console
himself for the loss of all that is lovely in woman, by the sordid
prospect of acquiring, by an interested marriage, a little more of that
wealth of which he has already much more than he can either enjoy or
become? By what wretched motives are half mankind influenced in the
most important action of their lives!

The vulgar of every rank expect happiness where it is not to be
found, in the ideal advantages of splendor and dissipation; those who
dare to think, those minds who partake of the celestial fire, seek it
in the real solid pleasures of nature and soft affection.

I have seen my lovely Emily since I wrote to you; I shall not see
her again of some days; I do not intend at present to make my visits to
Silleri so frequent as I have done lately, lest the world, ever
studious to blame, should misconstrue her conduct on this very delicate
occasion. I am even afraid to shew my usual attention to her when
present, lest she herself should think I presume on the politeness she
has ever shewn me, and see her breaking with Sir George in a false
light: the greater I think her obliging partiality to me, the more
guarded I ought to be in my behaviour to her; her situation has some
resemblance to widowhood, and she has equal decorums to observe.

I cannot however help encouraging a pleasing hope that I am not
absolutely indifferent to her: her lovely eyes have a softness when
they meet mine, to which words cannot do justice: she talks less to me
than to others, but it is in a tone of voice which penetrates my soul;
and when I speak, her attention is most flattering, though of a nature
not to be seen by common observers; without seeming to distinguish me
from the crowd who strive to engage her esteem and friendship, she has
a manner of addressing me which the heart alone can feel; she contrives
to prevent my appearing to give her any preference to the rest of her
sex, yet I have seen her blush at my civility to another.

She has at least a friendship for me, which alone would make the
happiness of my life; and which I would prefer to the love of the most
charming woman imagination could form, sensible as I am to the sweetest
of all passions: this friendship, however, time and assiduity may ripen
into love; at least I should be most unhappy if I did not think so.

I love her with a tenderness of which few of my sex are capable: you
have often told me, and you were right, that my heart has all the
sensibility of woman.

A mail is arrived, by which I hope to hear from you; I must hurry to
the post office; you shall hear again in a few days.

      Adieu!
        Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 67.


To Colonel Rivers, at Quebec.

London, Dec. 1.

You need be in no pain, my dear brother, on Mr. Temple's account;
my heart is in no danger from a man of his present character: his
person and manner are certainly extremely pleasing; his understanding,
and I believe his principles, are worthy of your friendship; an
encomium which, let me observe, is from me a very high one: he will be
admired every where, but to be beloved, he wants, or at least appears
to me to want, the most endearing of all qualities, that genuine
tenderness of soul, that almost feminine sensibility, which, with all
your firmness of mind and spirit, you possess beyond any man I ever yet
met with.

If your friend wishes to please me, which I almost fancy he does, he
must endeavor to resemble you; 'tis rather hard upon me, I think, that
the only man I perfectly approve, and whose disposition is formed to
make me happy, should be my brother: I beg you will find out somebody
very like yourself for your sister, for you have really made me saucy.

I pity you heartily, and wish above all things to hear of your
Emily's marriage, for your present situation must be extremely
unpleasant.

But, my dear brother, as you were so very wise about Temple, allow
me to ask you whether it is quite consistent with prudence to throw
yourself in the way of a woman so formed to inspire you with
tenderness, and whom it is so impossible you can ever hope to possess:
is not this acting a little like a foolish girl, who plays round the
flame which she knows will consume her?

My mother is well, but will never be happy till you return to
England; I often find her in tears over your letters: I will say no
more on a subject which I know will give you pain. I hope, however, to
hear you have given up all thoughts of settling in America: it would be
a better plan to turn farmer in Rutland; we could double the
estate by living upon it, and I am sure I should make the prettiest
milk-maid in the county.

I am serious, and think we could live very superbly all together in
the country; consider it well, my dear Ned, for I cannot bear to see my
mother so unhappy as your absence makes her. I hear her on the stairs;
I must hurry away my letter, for I don't chuse she should know I write
to you on this subject.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Lucy Rivers.

Say every thing for me to Bell Fermor; and in your own manner to
your Emily, in whose friendship I promise myself great happiness.



LETTER 68.


To Miss Montague, at Silleri.

Montreal, Feb. 10.

Never any astonishment equalled mine, my dear Emily, at hearing you
had broke an engagement of years, so much to your advantage as to
fortune, and with a man of so very unexceptionable a character as Sir
George, without any other apparent cause than a slight indelicacy in a
letter of his mother's, for which candor and affection would have found
a thousand excuses. I will not allow myself to suppose, what is however
publicly said here, that you have sacrificed prudence, decorum, and I
had almost said honor, to an imprudent inclination for a man, to whom
there is the strongest reason to believe you are indifferent, and who
is even said to have an attachment to another: I mean Colonel Rivers,
who, though a man of worth, is in a situation which makes it impossible
for him to think of you, were you even as dear to him as the world says
he is to you.

I am too unhappy to say more on this subject, but expect from our
past friendship a very sincere answer to two questions; whether love
for Colonel Rivers was the real motive for the indiscreet step you have
taken? and whether, if it was, you have the excuse of knowing he loves
you? I should be glad to know what are your views, if you have any. I
am,

    My dear Emily,
      Your affectionate friend,
          E. Melmoth.



LETTER 69.


To Mrs. Melmoth, at Montreal.

Silleri, Feb. 19.

My dear Madam,

I am too sensible of the rights of friendship, to refuse answering
your questions; which I shall do in as few words as possible. I have
not the least reason to suppose myself beloved by Colonel Rivers; nor,
if I know my heart, do I _love him_ in that sense of the word
your question supposes: I think him the best, the most amiable of
mankind; and my extreme affection for him, though I believe that
affection only a very lively friendship, first awakened me to a sense
of the indelicacy and impropriety of marrying Sir George.

To enter into so sacred an engagement as marriage with one man, with
a stronger affection for another, of how calm and innocent a nature
soever that affection may be, is a degree of baseness of which my heart
is incapable.

When I first agreed to marry Sir George, I had no superior esteem
for any other man; I thought highly of him, and wanted courage to
resist the pressing solicitations of my uncle, to whom I had a thousand
obligations. I even almost persuaded myself I loved him, nor did I find
my mistake till I saw Colonel Rivers, in whose conversation I had so
very lively a pleasure as soon convinced me of my mistake: I therefore
resolved to break with Sir George, and nothing but the fear of giving
him pain prevented my doing it sooner: his behaviour on the receipt of
his mother's letter removed that fear, and set me free in my own
opinion, and I hope will in yours, from engagements which were equally
in the way of my happiness, and his ambition. If he is sincere, he will
tell you my refusal of him made him happy, though he chuses to affect a
chagrin which he does not feel.

I have no view but that of returning to England in the spring, and
fixing with a relation in the country.

If Colonel Rivers has an attachment, I hope it is to one worthy of
him; for my own part, I never entertained the remotest thought of him
in any light but that of the most sincere and tender of friends. I am,
Madam, with great esteem,

    Your affectionate friend
      and obedient servant,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 70.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Feb. 27.

There are two parties at Quebec in regard to Emily: the prudent
mammas abuse her for losing a good match, and suppose it to proceed
from her partiality to your brother, to the imprudence of which they
give no quarter; whilst the misses admire her generosity and spirit, in
sacrificing all for love; so impossible it is to please every body.
However, she has, in my opinion, done the wisest thing in the world;
that is, she has pleased herself.

As to her inclination for your brother, I am of their opinion, that
she loves him without being quite clear in the point herself: she has
not yet confessed the fact even to me; but she has speaking eyes, Lucy,
and I think I can interpret their language.

Whether he sees it or not I cannot tell; I rather think he does,
because he has been less here, and more guarded in his manner when
here, than before this matrimonial affair was put an end to; which is
natural enough on that supposition, because he knows the impertinence
of Quebec, and is both prudent and delicate to a great degree.

He comes, however, and we are pretty good company, only a little
more reserved on both sides; which is, in my opinion, a little
symptomatic.

La! here's papa come up to write at my bureau; I dare say, it's only
to pry into what I am about; but excuse me, my dear Sir, for that.
Adieu! _jusqu'au demain, ma tres chere_.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 71.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, Feb. 20.

Every hour, my Lucy, convinces me more clearly there is no happiness
for me without this lovely woman; her turn of mind is so correspondent
to my own, that we seem to have but one soul: the first moment I saw
her the idea struck me that we had been friends in some pre-existent
state, and were only renewing our acquaintance here; when she speaks,
my heart vibrates to the sound, and owns every thought she expresses a
native there.

The same dear affections, the same tender sensibility, the most
precious gift of Heaven, inform our minds, and make us peculiarly
capable of exquisite happiness or misery.

The passions, my Lucy, are common to all; but the affections, the
lively sweet affections, the only sources of true pleasure, are the
portion only of a chosen few.

Uncertain at present of the nature of her sentiments, I am
determined to develop them clearly before I discover mine: if she loves
as I do, even a perpetual exile here will be pleasing. The remotest
wood in Canada with her would be no longer a desert wild; it would be
the habitation of the Graces.

But I forget your letter, my dear girl; I am hurt beyond words at
what you tell me of my mother; and would instantly return to England,
did not my fondness for this charming woman detain me here: you are
both too good in wishing to retire with me to the country; will your
tenderness lead you a step farther, my Lucy? It would be too much to
hope to see you here; and yet, if I marry Emily, it will be impossible
for me to think of returning to England.

There is a man here whom I should prefer of all men I ever saw for
you; but he is already attached to your friend Bell Fermor, who is very
inattentive to her own happiness, if she refuses him: I am very happy
in finding you think of Temple as I wish you should.

You are so very civil, Lucy, in regard to me, I am afraid of
becoming vain from your praises.

Take care, my dear, you don't spoil me by this excess of civility,
for my only merit is that of not being a coxcomb.

I have a heaviness of heart, which has never left me since I read
your letter: I am shocked at the idea of giving pain to the best parent
that ever existed; yet have less hope than ever of seeing England,
without giving up the tender friend, the dear companion, the adored
mistress; in short the very woman I have all my life been in search of:
I am also hurt that I cannot place this object of all my wishes in a
station equal to that she has rejected, and I begin to think rejected
for me.

I never before repined at seeing the gifts of fortune lavished on
the unworthy.

Adieu, my dear! I will write again when I can write more chearfully.

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 72.


To the Earl of ----.

My Lord,

Silleri, Feb. 20.

Your Lordship does me great honor in supposing me capable of giving
any satisfactory account of a country in which I have spent only a few
months.

As a proof, however, of my zeal, and the very strong desire I have
to merit the esteem you honor me with, I shall communicate from time to
time the little I have observed, and may observe, as well as what I
hear from good authority, with that lively pleasure with which I have
ever obeyed every command of your Lordship's.

The French, in the first settling this colony, seem to have had an
eye only to the conquest of ours: their whole system of policy seems
to have been military, not commercial; or only so far commercial as was
necessary to supply the wants, and by so doing to gain the friendship,
of the savages, in order to make use of them against us.

The lands are held on military tenure: every peasant is a soldier,
every seigneur an officer, and both serve without pay whenever called
upon; this service is, except a very small quit-rent by way of
acknowledgement, all they pay for their lands: the seigneur holds of
the crown, the peasant of the seigneur, who is at once his lord and
commander.

The peasants are in general tall and robust, notwithstanding their
excessive indolence; they love war, and hate labor; are brave, hardy,
alert in the field, but lazy and inactive at home; in which they
resemble the savages, whose manners they seem strongly to have
imbibed. The government appears to have encouraged a military spirit
all over the colony; though ignorant and stupid to a great degree,
these peasants have a strong sense of honor; and though they serve, as
I have said, without pay, are never so happy as when called to the
field.

They are excessively vain, and not only look on the French as the
only civilized nation in the world, but on themselves as the flower of
the French nation: they had, I am told, a great aversion to the regular
troops which came from France in the late war, and a contempt equal to
that aversion; they however had an affection and esteem for the late
Marquis De Montcalm, which almost rose to idolatry; and I have even at
this distance of time seen many of them in tears at the mention of his
name: an honest tribute to the memory of a commander equally brave and
humane; for whom his enemies wept even on the day when their own hero
fell.

I am called upon for this letter, and have only time to assure your
Lordship of my respect, and of the pleasure I always receive from your
commands. I have the honor to be,

    My Lord,
        Your Lordship's, &c.
          William Fermor.



LETTER 73.


To Miss Fermor.

Feb. 24, Eleven at night.

I have indeed, my dear, a pleasure in his conversation, to which
words cannot do justice: love itself is less tender and lively than my
friendship for Rivers; from the first moment I saw him, I lost all
taste for other conversation; even yours, amiable as you are, borrows
its most prevailing charm from the pleasure of hearing you talk of him.

When I call my tenderness for him friendship, I do not mean either
to paint myself as an enemy to tenderer sentiments, or him as one whom
it is easy to see without feeling them: all I mean is, that, as our
situations make it impossible for us to think of each other except as
friends, I have endeavored--I hope with success--to see him in no
other light: it is not in his power to marry without fortune, and mine
is a trifle: had I worlds, they should be his; but, I am neither so
selfish as to desire, nor so romantic as to expect, that he should
descend from the rank of life he has been bred in, and live lost to the
world with me.

As to the impertinence of two or three women, I hear of it with
perfect indifference: my dear Rivers esteems me, he approves my
conduct, and all else is below my care: the applause of worlds would
give me less pleasure than one smile of approbation from him.

I am astonished your father should know me so little, as to suppose
me capable of being influenced even by you: when I determined to refuse
Sir George, it was from the feelings of my own heart alone; the first
moment I saw Colonel Rivers convinced me my heart had till then been a
stranger to true tenderness: from that moment my life has been one
continued struggle between my reason, which shewed me the folly as well
as indecency of marrying one man when I so infinitely preferred
another, and a false point of honor and mistaken compassion: from which
painful state, a concurrence of favorable accidents has at length
happily relieved me, and left me free to act as becomes me.

Of this, my dear, be assured, that, though I have not the least idea
of ever marrying Colonel Rivers, yet, whilst my sentiments for him
continue what they are, I will never marry any other man.

I am hurt at what Mrs. Melmoth hinted in her letter to you, of
Rivers having appeared to attach himself to me from vanity; she
endeavors in vain to destroy my esteem for him: you well know, he never
did appear to attach himself to me; he is incapable of having done it
from such a motive; but if he had, such delight have I in whatever
pleases him, that I should with joy have sacrificed my own vanity to
gratify his.

      Adieu! Your
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 74.


To Miss Montague.

Feb. 25, Eight o'clock, just up.

My dear, you deceive yourself; you love Colonel Rivers; you love him
even with all the tenderness of romance: read over again the latter
part of your letter; I know friendship, and of what it is capable; but
I fear the sacrifices it makes are of a different nature.

Examine your heart, my Emily, and tell me the result of that
examination. It is of the utmost consequence to you to be clear as to
the nature of your affection for Rivers.

      Adieu! Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 75.


To Miss Fermor.

Yes, my dear Bell, you know me better than I know myself; your Emily
loves.--But tell me, and with that clear sincerity which is the
cement of our friendship; has not your own heart discovered to you the
secret of mine? do you not also love this most amiable of mankind? Yes,
you do, and I am lost: it is not in woman to see him without love;
there are a thousand charms in his conversation, in his look, nay in
the very sound of his voice, to which it is impossible for a soul like
yours to be insensible.

I have observed you a thousand times listening to him with that air
of softness and complacency--Believe me, my dear, I am not angry with
you for loving him; he is formed to charm the heart of woman: I have
not the least right to complain of you; you knew nothing of my passion
for him; you even regarded me almost as the wife of another. But tell
me, though my heart dies within me at the question, is your tenderness
mutual? does he love you? I have observed a coldness in his manner
lately, which now alarms me.--My heart is torn in pieces. Must I
receive this wound from the two persons on earth most dear to me?
Indeed, my dear, this is more than your Emily can bear. Tell me only
whether you love: I will not ask more.--Is there on earth a man who
can please where he appears?



LETTER 76.


To Miss Montague.

You have discovered me, my sweet Emily: I love--not quite so
dyingly as you do; but I love; will you forgive me when I add that I am
beloved? It is unnecessary to add the name of him I love, as you have
so kindly appropriated the whole sex to Colonel Rivers.

However, to shew you it is possible you may be mistaken, 'tis the
little Fitz I love, who, in my eye, is ten times more agreable than
even your nonpareil of a Colonel; I know you will think me a shocking
wretch for this depravity of taste; but so it is.

Upon my word, I am half inclined to be angry with you for not being
in love with Fitzgerald; a tall Irishman, with good eyes, has as clear
a title to make conquests as other people.

Yes, my dear, _there is a man on earth_, and even in the little
town of Quebec, _who can please where he appears_. Surely, child,
if there was but one man on earth who could please, you would not be so
unreasonable as to engross him all to yourself.

For my part, though I like Fitzgerald extremely, I by no means
insist that every other woman shall.

Go, you are a foolish girl, and don't know what you would be at.
Rivers is a very handsome agreable fellow; but _it is in woman_ to
see him without dying for love, of which behold your little Bell an
example. Adieu! be wiser, and believe me

      Ever yours,
          A. Fermor.

Will you go this morning to Montmorenci on the ice, and dine on the
island of Orleans? dare you trust yourself in a covered carriole with
the dear man? Don't answer this, because I am certain you can say
nothing on the subject, which will not be very foolish.



LETTER 77.


To Miss Fermor.

I am glad you do not see Colonel Rivers with my eyes; yet it seems
to me very strange; I am almost piqued at your giving another the
preference. I will say no more, it being, as you observe, impossible to
avoid being absurd on such a subject.

I will go to Montmorenci; and, to shew my courage, will venture in a
covered carriole with Colonel Rivers, though I should rather wish your
father for my cavalier at present.

      Yours,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 78.


To Miss Montague.

You are right, my dear: 'tis more prudent to go with my father. I
love prudence; and will therefore send for Mademoiselle Clairaut to be
Rivers's belle.

        Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 79.


To Miss Fermor.

You are a provoking chit, and I will go with Rivers. Your father may
attend Madame Villiers, who you know will naturally take it ill if she
is not of our party. We can ask Mademoiselle Clairaut another time.

      Adieu! Your
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 80.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Feb. 25.

Those who have heard no more of a Canadian winter than what regards
the intenseness of its cold, must suppose it a very joyless season:
'tis, I assure you, quite otherwise; there are indeed some days here of
the severity of which those who were never out of England can form no
conception; but those days seldom exceed a dozen in a whole winter,
nor do they come in succession; but at intermediate periods, as the
winds set in from the North-West; which, coming some hundred leagues,
from frozen lakes and rivers, over woods and mountains covered with
snow, would be insupportable, were it not for the furs with which the
country abounds, in such variety and plenty as to be within the reach
of all its inhabitants.

Thus defended, the British belles set the winter of Canada at
defiance; and the season of which you seem to entertain such terrible
ideas, is that of the utmost chearfulness and festivity.

But what particularly pleases me is, there is no place where women
are of such importance: not one of the sex, who has the least share of
attractions, is without a levee of beaux interceding for the honor of
attending her on some party, of which every day produces three or four.

I am just returned from one of the most agreable jaunts imagination
can paint, to the island of Orleans, by the falls of Montmorenci; the
latter is almost nine miles distant, across the great bason of Quebec;
but as we are obliged to reach it in winter by the waving line, our
direct road being intercepted by the inequalities of the ice, it is now
perhaps a third more. You will possibly suppose a ride of this kind
must want one of the greatest essentials to entertainment, that of
variety, and imagine it only one dull whirl over an unvaried plain of
snow: on the contrary, my dear, we pass hills and mountains of ice in
the trifling space of these few miles. The bason of Quebec is formed by
the conflux of the rivers St. Charles and Montmorenci with the great
river St. Lawrence, the rapidity of whose flood tide, as these rivers
are gradually seized by the frost, breaks up the ice, and drives it
back in heaps, till it forms ridges of transparent rock to an height
that is astonishing, and of a strength which bids defiance to the
utmost rage of the most furiously rushing tide.

This circumstance makes this little journey more pleasing than you
can possibly conceive: the serene blue sky above, the dazling
brightness of the sun, and the colors from the refraction of its rays
on the transparent part of these ridges of ice, the winding course
these oblige you to make, the sudden disappearing of a train of fifteen
or twenty carrioles, as these ridges intervene, which again discover
themselves on your rising to the top of the frozen mount, the
tremendous appearance both of the ascent and descent, which however are
not attended with the least danger; all together give a grandeur and
variety to the scene, which almost rise to enchantment.

Your dull foggy climate affords nothing that can give you the least
idea of our frost pieces in Canada; nor can you form any notion of our
amusements, of the agreableness of a covered carriole, with a sprightly
fellow, rendered more sprightly by the keen air and romantic scene
about him; to say nothing of the fair lady at his side.

Even an overturning has nothing alarming in it; you are laid gently
down on a soft bed of snow, without the least danger of any kind; and
an accident of this sort only gives a pretty fellow occasion to vary
the style of his civilities, and shew a greater degree of attention.

But it is almost time to come to Montmorenci: to avoid, however,
fatiguing you or myself, I shall refer the rest of our tour to another
letter, which will probably accompany this: my meaning is, that two
moderate letters are vastly better than one long one; in which
sentiment I know you agree with

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 81.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Feb. 25, Afternoon.

So, my dear, as I was saying, this same ride to Montmorenci--where
was I, Lucy? I forget.--O, I believe pretty near the mouth of the
bay, embosomed in which lies the lovely cascade of which I am to give
you a winter description, and which I only slightly mentioned when I
gave you an account of the rivers by which it is supplied.

The road, about a mile before you reach this bay, is a regular
glassy level, without any of those intervening hills of ice which I
have mentioned; hills, which with the ideas, though false ones, of
danger and difficulty, give those of beauty and magnificence too.

As you gradually approach the bay, you are struck with an awe, which
increases every moment, as you come nearer, from the grandeur of a
scene, which is one of the noblest works of nature: the beauty, the
proportion, the solemnity, the wild magnificence of which, surpassing
every possible effect of art, impress one strongly with the idea of its
Divine Almighty Architect.

The rock on the east side, which is first in view as you approach,
is a smooth and almost perpendicular precipice, of the same height as
the fall; the top, which a little over-hangs, is beautifully covered
with pines, firs, and ever-greens of various kinds, whose verdant
lustre is rendered at this season more shining and lovely by the
surrounding snow, as well as by that which is sprinkled irregularly on
their branches, and glitters half melted in the sun-beams: a thousand
smaller shrubs are scattered on the side of the ascent, and, having
their roots in almost imperceptible clefts of the rock, seem to those
below to grow in air.

The west side is equally lofty, but more sloping, which, from that
circumstance, affords soil all the way, upon shelving inequalities of
the rock, at little distances, for the growth of trees and shrubs, by
which it is almost entirely hid.

The most pleasing view of this miracle of nature is certainly in
summer, and in the early part of it, when every tree is in foliage and
full verdure, every shrub in flower; and when the river, swelled with a
waste of waters from the mountains from which it derives its source,
pours down in a tumultuous torrent, that equally charms and astonishes
the beholder.

The winter scene has, notwithstanding, its beauties, though of a
different kind, more resembling the stillness and inactivity of the
season.

The river being on its sides bound up in frost, and its channel
rendered narrower than in the summer, affords a less body of water to
supply the cascade; and the fall, though very steep, yet not being
exactly perpendicular, masses of ice are formed, on different shelving
projections of the rock, in a great variety of forms and proportions.

The torrent, which before rushed with such impetuosity down the deep
descent in one vast sheet of water, now descends in some parts with a
slow and majestic pace; in others seems almost suspended in mid air;
and in others, bursting through the obstacles which interrupt its
course, pours down with redoubled fury into the foaming bason below,
from whence a spray arises, which, freezing in its ascent, becomes on
each side a wide and irregular frozen breast-work; and in front, the
spray being there much greater, a lofty and magnificent pyramid of
solid ice.

I have not told you half the grandeur, half the beauty, half the
lovely wildness of this scene: if you would know what it is, you must
take no information but that of your own eyes, which I pronounce
strangers to the loveliest work of creation till they have seen the
river and fall of Montmorenci.

In short, my dear, I am Montmorenci-mad.

I can hardly descend to tell you, we passed the ice from thence to
Orleans, and dined out of doors on six feet of snow, in the charming
enlivening warmth of the sun, though in the month of February, at a
time when you in England scarce feel his beams.

Fitzgerald made violent love to me all the way, and I never felt
myself listen with such complacency.

Adieu! I have wrote two immense letters. Write oftener; you are
lazy, yet expect me to be an absolute slave in the scribbling way.

      Your faithful
          A. Fermor.

Do you know your brother has admirable ideas? He contrived to lose
his way on our return, and kept Emily ten minutes behind the rest of
the company. I am apt to fancy there was something like a declaration,
for she blushed,

  "Celestial rosy red,"

when he led her into the dining room at Silleri.

      Once more, adieu!



LETTER 82.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

March 1.

I was mistaken, my dear; not a word of love between your brother and
Emily, as she positively assures me; something very tender has passed,
I am convinced, notwithstanding, for she blushes more than ever when he
approaches, and there is a certain softness in his voice when he
addresses her, which cannot escape a person of my penetration.

Do you know, my dear Lucy, that there is a little impertinent girl
here, a Mademoiselle Clairaut, who, on the meer merit of features and
complexion, sets up for being as handsome as Emily and me?

If beauty, as I will take the liberty to assert, is given us for the
purpose of pleasing, she who pleases most, that is to say, she who
excites the most passion, is to all intents and purposes the most
beautiful woman; and, in this case, I am inclined to believe your
little Bell stands pretty high on the roll of beauty; the men's _eyes_
may perhaps _say_ she is handsome, but their _hearts feel_
that I am so.

There is, in general, nothing so insipid, so uninteresting, as a
beauty; which those men experience to their cost, who chuse from
vanity, not inclination. I remember Sir Charles Herbert, a Captain in
the same regiment with my father, who determined to marry Miss Raymond
before he saw her, merely because he had been told she was a celebrated
beauty, though she was never known to have inspired a real passion: he
saw her, not with his own eyes, but those of the public, took her
charms on trust; and, till he was her husband, never found out she was
not his taste; a secret, however, of some little importance to his
happiness.

I have, however, known some beauties who had a right to please; that
is, who had a mixture of that invisible charm, that nameless grace
which by no means depends on beauty, and which strikes the heart in a
moment; but my first aversion is your _fine women_: don't you
think _a fine woman_ a detestable creature, Lucy? I do: they are
vastly well to _fill_ public places; but as to the heart--Heavens,
my dear! yet there are men, I suppose, to be found, who have a taste
for the great sublime in beauty.

Men are vastly foolish, my dear; very few of them have spirit to
think for themselves; there are a thousand Sir Charles Herberts: I
have seen some of them weak enough to decline marrying the woman on
earth most pleasing to themselves, because not thought handsome by the
generality of their companions.

Women are above this folly, and therefore chuse much oftener from
affection than men. We are a thousand times wiser, Lucy, than these
important beings, these mighty lords,

  "Who strut and fret their hour upon the stage;"

and, instead of playing the part in life which nature dictates to
their reason and their hearts, act a borrowed one at the will of
others.

I had rather even judge ill, than not judge for myself.

      Adieu! yours ever,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 83.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, March 4.

After debating with myself some days, I am determined to pursue
Emily; but, before I make a declaration, will go to see some ungranted
lands at the back of Madame Des Roches's estate; which, lying on a very
fine river, and so near the St. Lawrence, may I think be cultivated at
less expence than those above Lake Champlain, though in a much inferior
climate: if I make my settlement here, I will purchase the estate
Madame Des Roches has to sell, which will open me a road to the river
St. Lawrence, and consequently treble the value of my lands.

I love, I adore this charming woman; but I will not suffer my
tenderness for her to make her unhappy, or to lower her station in
life: if I can, by my present plan, secure her what will in this
country be a degree of affluence, I will endeavor to change her
friendship for me into a tenderer and more lively affection; if she
loves, I know by my own heart, that Canada will be no longer a place of
exile; if I have flattered myself, and she has only a friendship for
me, I will return immediately to England, and retire with you and my
mother to our little estate in the country.

You will perhaps say, why not make Emily of our party? I am almost
ashamed to speak plain; but so weak are we, and so guided by the
prejudices we fancy we despise, that I cannot bear my Emily, after
refusing a coach and six, should live without an equipage suitable at
least to her birth, and the manner in which she has always lived when
in England.

I know this is folly, that it is a despicable pride; but it is a
folly, a pride, I cannot conquer.

There are moments when I am above all this childish prejudice, but
it returns upon me in spite of myself.

Will you come to us, my Lucy? Tell my mother, I will build her a
rustic palace, and settle a little principality on you both.

I make this a private excursion, because I don't chuse any body
should even guess at my views. I shall set out in the evening, and make
a circuit to cross the river above the town.

I shall not even take leave at Silleri, as I propose being back in
four days, and I know your friend Bell will be inquisitive about my
journey.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 84.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, March 6.

Your brother is gone nobody knows whither, and without calling upon
us before he set off; we are piqued, I assure you, my dear, and with
some little reason.

Four o'clock.

Very strange news, Lucy; they say Colonel Rivers is gone to marry
Madame Des Roches, a lady at whose house he was some time in autumn; if
this is true, I forswear the whole sex: his manner of stealing off is
certainly very odd, and she is rich and agreable; but, if he does not
love Emily, he has been excessively cruel in shewing an attention which
has deceived her into a passion for him. I cannot believe it possible:
not that he has ever told her he loved her; but a man of honor will
not tell an untruth even with his eyes, and his have spoke a very
unequivocal language.

I never saw any thing like her confusion, when she was told he was
gone to visit Madame Des Roches; but, when it was hinted with what
design, I was obliged to take her out of the room, or she would have
discovered all the fondness of her soul. I really thought she would
have fainted as I led her out.

Eight o'clock.

I have sent away all the men, and drank tea in Emily's apartment;
she has scarce spoke to me; I am miserable for her; she has a paleness
which alarms me, the tears steal every moment into her lovely eyes.
Can Rivers act so unworthy a part? her tenderness cannot have been
unobserved by him; it was too visible to every body.

9th, Ten o'clock.

Not a line from your brother yet; only a confirmation of his being
with Madame Des Roches, having been seen there by some Canadians who
are come up this morning: I am not quite pleased, though I do not
believe the report; he might have told us surely where he was going.

I pity Emily beyond words; she says nothing, but there is a dumb
eloquence in her countenance which is not to be described.

Twelve o'clock.

I have been an hour alone with the dear little girl, who has, from a
hint I dropt on purpose, taken courage to speak to me on this very
interesting subject; she says, "she shall be most unhappy if this
report is true, though without the least right to complain of Colonel
Rivers, who never even hinted a word of any affection for her more
tender than friendship; that if her vanity, her self-love, or her
tenderness, have deceived her, she ought only to blame herself." She
added, "that she wished him to marry Madame Des Roches, if she could
make him happy;" but when she said this, an involuntary tear seemed to
contradict the generosity of her sentiments.

I beg your pardon, my dear, but my esteem for your brother is
greatly lessened; I cannot help fearing there is something in the
report, and that this is what Mrs. Melmoth meant when she mentioned his
having an attachment.

I shall begin to hate the whole sex, Lucy, if I find your brother
unworthy, and shall give Fitzgerald his dismission immediately.

I am afraid Mrs. Melmoth knows men better than we foolish girls do:
she said, he attached himself to Emily meerly from vanity, and I begin
to believe she was right: how cruel is this conduct! The man who from
vanity, or perhaps only to amuse an idle hour, can appear to be
attached where he is not, and by that means seduce the heart of a
deserving woman, or indeed of any woman, falls in my opinion very
little short in baseness of him who practises a greater degree of
seduction.

What right has he to make the most amiable of women wretched? a
woman who would have deserved him had he been monarch of the universal
world! I might add, who has sacrificed ease and affluence to her
tenderness for him?

You will excuse my warmth on such an occasion; however, as it may
give you pain, I will say no more.

      Adieu!
        Your faithful
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 85.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Kamaraskas, March 12.

I have met with something, my dear Lucy, which has given me infinite
uneasiness; Madame Des Roches, from my extreme zeal to serve her in an
affair wherein she has been hardly used, from my second visit, and a
certain involuntary attention, and softness of manner I have to all
women, has supposed me in love with her, and with a frankness I cannot
but admire, and a delicacy not to be described, has let me know I am
far from being indifferent to her.

I was at first extremely embarrassed; but when I had reflected a
moment, I considered that the ladies, though another may be the object,
always regard with a kind of complacency a man who _loves_, as
one who acknowledges the power of the sex, whereas an indifferent is a
kind of rebel to their empire; I considered also that the confession
of a prior inclination saves the most delicate vanity from being
wounded; and therefore determined to make her the confidante of my
tenderness for Emily; leaving her an opening to suppose that, if my
heart had been disengaged, it could not have escaped her attractions.

I did this with all possible precaution, and with every softening
friendship and politeness could suggest; she was shocked at my
confession, but soon recovered herself enough to tell me she was highly
flattered by this proof of my confidence and esteem; that she believed
me a man to have only the more respect for a woman who by owning her
partiality had told me she considered me not only as the most amiable,
but the most noble of my sex; that she had heard, no love was so
tender as that which was the child of friendship; but that of this she
was convinced, that no friendship was so tender as that which was the
child of love; that she offered me this tender, this lively friendship,
and would for the future find her happiness in the consideration of
mine.

Do you know, my dear, that, since this confession, I feel a kind of
tenderness for her, to which I cannot give a name? It is not love; for
I love, I idolize another: but it is softer and more pleasing, as well
as more animated, than friendship.

You cannot conceive what pleasure I find in her conversation; she
has an admirable understanding, a feeling heart, and a mixture of
softness and spirit in her manner, which is peculiarly pleasing to men.
My Emily will love her; I must bring them acquainted: she promises to
come to Quebec in May; I shall be happy to shew her every attention
when there.

I have seen the lands, and am pleased with them: I believe this will
be my residence, if Emily, as I cannot avoid hoping, will make me
happy; I shall declare myself as soon as I return, but must continue
here a few days longer: I shall not be less pleased with this situation
for its being so near Madame Des Roches, in whom Emily will find a
friend worthy of her esteem, and an entertaining lively companion.

    Adieu, my dear Lucy!
        Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.

I have fixed on the loveliest spot on earth, on which to build a
house for my mother: do I not expect too much in fancying she will
follow me hither?



LETTER 86.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, March 13.

Still with Madame Des Roches; appearances are rather against him,
you must own, Lucy: but I will not say all I think to you. Poor Emily!
we dispute continually, for she will persist in defending his conduct;
she says, he has a right to marry whoever he pleases; that her loving
him is no tie upon his honor, especially as he does not even know of
this preference; that she ought only to blame the weakness of her own
heart, which has betrayed her into a false belief that their tenderness
was mutual: this is pretty talking, but he has done every thing to
convince her of his feeling the strongest passion for her, except
making a formal declaration.

She talks of returning to England the moment the river is open:
indeed, if your brother marries, it is the only step left her to take. I
almost wish now she had married Sir George: she would have had all the
_douceurs_ of marriage; and as to love, I begin to think men
incapable of feeling it: some of them can indeed talk well on the
subject; but self-interest and vanity are the real passions of their
souls. I detest the whole sex.

        Adieu!
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 87.


To the Earl of ----.

My Lord,

Silleri, March 13.

I generally distrust my own opinion when it differs from your
Lordship's; but in this instance I am most certainly in the right:
allow me to say, nothing can be more ill-judged than your Lordship's
design of retiring into a small circle, from that world of which you
have so long been one of the most brilliant ornaments. What you say of
the disagreableness of age, is by no means applicable to your Lordship;
nothing is in this respect so fallible as the parish register. Why
should any man retire from society whilst he is capable of contributing
to the pleasures of it? Wit, vivacity, good-nature, and politeness,
give an eternal youth, as stupidity and moroseness a premature old
age. Without a thousandth part of your Lordship's shining qualities, I
think myself much younger than half the boys about me, meerly because I
have more good-nature, and a stronger desire of pleasing.

My daughter is much honored by your Lordship's enquiries: she is
Bell Fermor still; but is addressed by a gentleman who is extremely
agreable to me, and I believe not less so to her; I however know too
well the free spirit of woman, of which she has her full share, to let
Bell know I approve her choice; I am even in doubt whether it would not
be good policy to seem to dislike the match, in order to secure her
consent: there is something very pleasing to a young girl, in opposing
the will of her father.

To speak truth, I am a little out of humor with her at present, for
having contributed, and I believe entirely from a spirit of opposition
to me, to break a match on which I had extremely set my heart; the
lady was the niece of my particular friend, and one of the most
lovely and deserving women I ever knew: the gentleman very worthy, with
an agreable, indeed a very handsome person, and a fortune which with
those who know the world, would have compensated for the want of most
other advantages.

The fair lady, after an engagement of two years, took a whim that
there was no happiness in marriage without being madly in love, and
that her passion was not sufficiently romantic; in which piece of folly
my rebel encouraged her, and the affair broke off in a manner which has
brought on her the imputation of having given way to an idle
prepossession in favor of another.

Your Lordship will excuse my talking on a subject very near my
heart, though uninteresting to you; I have too often experienced your
Lordship's indulgence to doubt it on this occasion: your good-natured
philosophy will tell you, much fewer people talk or write to amuse or
inform their friends, than to give way to the feelings of their own
hearts, or indulge the governing passion of the moment.

In my next, I will endeavor in the best manner I can, to obey your
Lordship's commands in regard to the political and religious state of
Canada: I will make a point of getting the best information possible;
what I have yet seen, has been only the surface.

  I have the honor to be,
    My Lord,
      Your Lordship's &c.
          William Fermor.



LETTER 88.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, March 16, Monday.

Your brother is come back; and has been here: he came after dinner
yesterday. My Emily is more than woman; I am proud of her behaviour:
he entered with his usual impatient air; she received him with a
dignity which astonished me, and disconcerted him: there was a cool
dispassionate indifference in her whole manner, which I saw cut his
vanity to the quick, and for which he was by no means prepared.

On such an occasion I should have flirted violently with some other
man, and have shewed plainly I was piqued: she judged much better; I
have only to wish it may last. He is the veriest coquet in nature, for,
after all, I am convinced he loves Emily.

He stayed a very little time, and has not been here this morning; he
may pout if he pleases, but I flatter myself we shall hold out the
longest.

Nine o'clock.

He came to dine; we kept up our state all dinner time; he begged a
moment's conversation, which we refused, but with a timid air that
makes me begin to fear we shall beat a parley: he is this moment gone,
and Emily retired to her apartment on pretence of indisposition: I am
afraid she is a foolish girl.

Half hour after six.

It will not do, Lucy: I found her in tears at the window, following
Rivers's carriole with her eyes: she turned to me with such a look--in
short, my dear,

  "The weak, the fond, the fool, the coward woman"

has prevailed over all her resolution: her love is only the more
violent for having been a moment restrained; she is not equal to the
task she has undertaken; her resentment was concealed tenderness, and
has retaken its first form.

I am sorry to find there is not one wise woman in the world but
myself.

Past ten.

I have been with her again: she seemed a little calmer; I commended
her spirit; she disavowed it; was peevish with me, angry with herself;
said she had acted in a manner unworthy her character; accused herself
of caprice, artifice, and cruelty; said she ought to have seen him, if
not alone, yet with me only: that it was natural he should be surprized
at a reception so inconsistent with true friendship, and therefore
that he should wish an explanation; that _her_ Rivers (and why not
Madame Des Roches's Rivers?) was incapable of acting otherwise than as
became the best and most tender of mankind, and that therefore she
ought not to have suffered a whisper injurious to his honor: that I had
meant well, but had, by depriving her of Rivers's friendship, which she
had lost by her haughty behaviour, destroyed all the happiness of her
life.

To be sure, your poor Bell is always to blame: but if ever I
intermeddle between lovers again, Lucy--

I am sure she was ten times more angry with him than I was, but this
it is to be too warm in the interest of our friends.

    Adieu! till to-morrow.
      Yours,
          A. Fermor.


I can only say, that if Fitzgerald had visited a handsome rich
French widow, and staid with her ten days _téte à téte_ in the
country, without my permission--

O Heavens! here is _mon cher pere_: I must hide my letter.

        _Bon soir. _



LETTER 89.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, March 6.

I cannot account, my dear, for what has happened to me. I left
Madame Des Roches's full of the warm impatience of love, and flew to my
Emily at Silleri: I was received with a disdainful coldness which I did
not think had been in her nature, and which has shocked me beyond all
expression.

I went again to-day, and met with the same reception; I even saw my
presence was painful to her, therefore shortened my visit, and, if I
have resolution to persevere, will not go again till invited by Captain
Fermor in form.

I could bear any thing but to lose her affection; my whole heart was
set upon her: I had every reason to believe myself dear to her. Can
caprice find a place in that bosom which is the abode of every virtue?

I must have been misrepresented to her, or surely this could not
have happened: I will wait to-morrow, and if I hear nothing will write
to her, and ask an explanation by letter; she refused me a verbal one
to-day, though I begged to speak with her only for a moment.

Tuesday.

I have been asked on a little riding party, and, as I cannot go to
Silleri, have accepted it: it will amuse my present anxiety.

I am to drive Mademoiselle Clairaut, a very pretty French lady: this
is however of no consequence, for my eyes see nothing lovely but Emily.

    Adieu!
        Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 90.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Wednesday morning.

Poor Emily is to meet with perpetual mortification: we have been
carrioling with Fitzgerald and my father; and, coming back, met your
brother driving Mademoiselle Clairaut: Emily trembled, turned pale, and
scarce returned Rivers's bow; I never saw a poor little girl so in
love; she is amazingly altered within the last fortnight.

Two o'clock.

A letter from Mrs. Melmoth: I send you a copy of it with this.

    Adieu!
      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 91.


To Miss Montague, at Silleri.

Montreal, March 19.

If you are not absolutely resolved on destruction, my dear Emily, it
is yet in your power to retrieve the false step you have made.

Sir George, whose good-nature is in this instance almost without
example, has been prevailed on by Mr. Melmoth to consent I should write
to you before he leaves Montreal, and again offer you his hand, though
rejected in a manner so very mortifying both to vanity and love.

He gives you a fortnight to consider his offer, at the end of which
if you refuse him he sets out for England over the lakes.

Be assured, the man for whom it is too plain you have acted this
imprudent part, is so far from returning your affection, that he is at
this moment addressing another; I mean Madame Des Roches, a near
relation of whose assured me that there was an attachment between them:
indeed it is impossible he could have thought of a woman whose fortune
is as small as his own. Men, Miss Montague, are not the romantic beings
you seem to suppose them; you will not find many Sir George Claytons.

I beg as early an answer as is consistent with the attention so
important a proposal requires, as a compliment to a passion so generous
and disinterested as that of Sir George. I am, my dear Emily,

      Your affectionate friend,
          E. Melmoth.



LETTER 92.


To Mrs. Melmoth, at Montreal.

Silleri, March 19.

I am sorry, my dear Madam, you should know so little of my heart, as
to suppose it possible I could have broke my engagements with Sir
George from any motive but the full conviction of my wanting that
tender affection for him, and that lively taste for his conversation,
which alone could have ensured either his felicity or my own; happy is
it for both that I discovered this before it was too late: it was a
very unpleasing circumstance, even under an intention only of marrying
him, to find my friendship stronger for another; what then would it
have been under the most sacred of all engagements, that of marriage?
What wretchedness would have been the portion of both, had timidity,
decorum, or false honor, carried me, with this partiality in my heart,
to fulfill those views, entered into from compliance to my family, and
continued from a false idea of propriety, and weak fear of the censures
of the world?

The same reason therefore still subsisting, nay being every moment
stronger, from a fuller conviction of the merit of him my heart
prefers, in spite of me, to Sir George, our union is more impossible
than ever.

I am however obliged to you, and Major Melmoth, for your zeal to
serve me, though you must permit me to call it a mistaken one; and to
Sir George, for a concession which I own I should not have made in his
situation, and which I can only suppose the effect of Major Melmoth's
persuasions, which he might suppose were known to me, and an
imagination that my sentiments for him were changed: assure him of my
esteem, though love is not in my power.

As Colonel Rivers never gave me the remotest reason to suppose him
more than my friend, I have not the least right to disapprove his
marrying: on the contrary, as his friend, I _ought_ to wish a
connexion which I am told is greatly to his advantage.

To prevent all future importunity, painful to me, and, all
circumstances considered, degrading to Sir George, whose honor is very
dear to me, though I am obliged to refuse him that hand which he surely
cannot wish to receive without my heart, I am compelled to say, that,
without an idea of ever being united to Colonel Rivers, I will never
marry any other man.

Were I never again to behold him, were he even the husband of
another, my tenderness, a tenderness as innocent as it is lively,
would never cease: nor would I give up the refined delight of loving
him, independently of any hope of being beloved, for any advantage in
the power of fortune to bestow.

These being my sentiments, sentiments which no time can alter, they
cannot be too soon known to Sir George: I would not one hour keep him
in suspence in a point, which this step seems to say is of consequence
to his happiness.

Tell him, I entreat him to forget me, and to come into views which
will make his mother, and I have no doubt himself, happier than a
marriage with a woman whose chief merit is that very sincerity of heart
which obliges her to refuse him.

    I am, Madam,
      Your affectionate, &c.
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 93.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, Thursday.

Your brother dines here to-day, by my father's invitation; I am
afraid it will be but an awkward party.

Emily is at this moment an exceeding fine model for a statue of
tender melancholy.

Her anger is gone; not a trace remaining; 'tis sorrow, but the most
beautiful sorrow I ever beheld: she is all grief for having offended
the dear man.

I am out of patience with this look; it is so flattering to him, I
could beat her for it: I cannot bear his vanity should be so
gratified.

I wanted her to treat him with a saucy, unconcerned, flippant air;
but her whole appearance is gentle, tender, I had almost said,
supplicating: I am ashamed of the folly of my own sex: O, that I could
to-day inspire her with a little of my spirit! she is a poor tame
household dove, and there is no making any thing of her.

Eleven o'clock.

  "For my shepherd is kind, and my heart is at ease."

What fools women are, Lucy! He took her hand, expressed concern for
her health, softened the tone of his voice, looked a few civil things
with those expressive lying eyes of his, and without one word of
explanation all was forgot in a moment.

      Good night! Yours,
          A. Fermor.


Heavens! the fellow is here, has followed me to my dressing-room;
was ever any thing so confident? These modest men have ten times the
assurance of your impudent fellows. I believe absolutely he is going to
make love to me: 'tis a critical hour, Lucy; and to rob one's friend of
a lover is really a temptation.

Twelve o'clock.

The dear man is gone, and has made all up: he insisted on my
explaining the reasons of the cold reception he had met with; which you
know was impossible, without betraying the secret of poor Emily's
little foolish heart.

I however contrived to let him know we were a little piqued at his
going without seeing us, and that we were something inclined to be
jealous of his _friendship_ for Madame Des Roches.

He made a pretty decent defence; and, though I don't absolutely
acquit him of coquetry, yet upon the whole I think I forgive him.

He loves Emily, which is great merit with me: I am only sorry they
are two such poor devils, it is next to impossible they should ever
come together.

I think I am not angry now; as to Emily, her eyes dance with
pleasure; she has not the same countenance as in the morning; this
love is the finest cosmetick in the world.

After all, he is a charming fellow, and has eyes, Lucy--Heaven be
praised, he never pointed their fire at me!

Adieu! I will try to sleep.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 94.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Quebec, March 20.

The coldness of which I complained, my dear Lucy, in regard to
Emily, was the most flattering circumstance which could have happened:
I will not say it was the effect of jealousy, but it certainly was of
a delicacy of affection which extremely resembles it.

Never did she appear so lovely as yesterday; never did she display
such variety of loveliness: there was a something in her look, when I
first addressed her on entering the room, touching beyond all words, a
certain inexpressible melting languor, a dying softness, which it was
not in man to see unmoved: what then must a lover have felt?

I had the pleasure, after having been in the room a few moments, to
see this charming languor change to a joy which animated her whole
form, and of which I was so happy as to believe myself the cause: my
eyes had told her all that passed in my heart; hers had shewed me
plainly they understood their language. We were standing at a window at
some little distance from the rest of the company, when I took an
opportunity of hinting my concern at having, though without knowing it,
offended her: she blushed, she looked down, she again raised her lovely
eyes, they met mine, she sighed; I took her hand, she withdrew it, but
not in anger; a smile, like that of the poet's Hebe, told me I was
forgiven.

There is no describing what then passed in my soul: with what
difficulty did I restrain my transports! never before did I really know
love: what I had hitherto felt even for her, was cold to that
enchanting, that impassioned moment.

She is a thousand times dearer to me than life: my Lucy, I cannot
live without her.

I contrived, before I left Silleri, to speak to Bell Fermor on the
subject of Emily's reception of me; she did not fully explain herself,
but she convinced me hatred had no part in her resentment.

I am going again this afternoon: every hour not passed with her is
lost.

I will seek a favorable occasion of telling her the whole happiness
of my life depends on her tenderness.

Before I write again, my fate will possibly be determined: with
every reason to hope, the timidity inseparable from love makes me dread
a full explanation of my sentiments: if her native softness should have
deceived me--but I will not study to be unhappy.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 95.


To Miss Rivers, Clarges Street.

Silleri, March 20.

I have been telling Fitzgerald I am jealous of his prodigious
attention to Emily, whose cecisbeo he has been the last ten days: the
simpleton took me seriously, and began to vindicate himself, by
explaining the nature of his regard for her, pleading her late
indisposition as an excuse for shewing her some extraordinary
civilities.

I let him harangue ten minutes, then stops me him short, puts on my
poetical face, and repeats,

  "When sweet Emily complains,
  I have sense of all her pains;
  But for little Bella, I
  Do not only grieve, but die."

He smiled, kissed my hand, praised my amazing penetration, and was
going to take this opportunity of saying a thousand civil things, when
my divine Rivers appeared on the side of the hill; I flew to meet him,
and left my love to finish the conversation alone.

Twelve o'clock.

I am the happiest of all possible women; Fitzgerald is in the
sullens about your brother; surely there is no pleasure in nature equal
to that of plaguing a fellow who really loves one, especially if he has
as much merit as Fitzgerald, for otherwise he would not be worth
tormenting. He had better not pout with me: I believe I know who will
be tired first.

Eight in the evening.

I have passed a most delicious day: Fitzgerald took it into his wise
head to endeavor to make me jealous of a little pert French-woman, the
wife of a Croix de St. Louis, who I know he despises; I then thought
myself at full liberty to play off all my airs, which I did with
ineffable success, and have sent him home in a humor to hang himself.
Your brother stays the evening, so does a very handsome fellow I have
been flirting with all the day: Fitz was engaged here too, but I told
him it was impossible for him not to attend Madame La Brosse to Quebec;
he looked at me with a spite in his countenance which charmed me to the
soul, and handed the fair lady to his carriole.

I'll teach him to coquet, Lucy; let him take his Madame La Brosse:
indeed, as her husband is at Montreal, I don't see how he can avoid
pursuing his conquest: I am delighted, because I know she is his
aversion.

Emily calls me to cards. Adieu! my dear little Lucy.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 96.


To Colonel Rivers, at Quebec.

Pall Mall, January 3.

I have but a moment, my dear Ned, to tell you, that without so much
as asking your leave, and in spite of all your wise admonitions, your
lovely sister has this morning consented to make me the happiest of
mankind: to-morrow gives me all that is excellent and charming in
woman.

You are to look on my writing this letter as the strongest proof I
ever did, or ever can give you of my friendship. I must love you with
no common affection to remember at this moment that there is such a man
in being: perhaps you owe this recollection only to your being brother
to the loveliest woman nature ever formed; whose charms in a month
have done more towards my conversion than seven years of your preaching
would have done. I am going back to Clarges Street. Adieu!

      Yours, &c.
          John Temple.



LETTER 97.


To Colonel Rivers, at Quebec.

Clarges Street, January 3.

I am afraid you knew very little of the sex, my dear brother, when
you cautioned me so strongly against loving Mr. Temple: I should
perhaps, with all his merit, have never thought of him but for that
caution.

There is something very interesting to female curiosity in the idea
of these very formidable men, whom no woman can see without danger; we
gaze on the terrible creature at a distance, see nothing in him so very
alarming; he approaches, our little hearts palpitate with fear, he is
gentle, attentive, respectful; we are surprized at this respect, we are
sure the world wrongs the dear civil creature; he flatters, we are
pleased with his flattery; our little hearts still palpitate--but not
with fear.

In short, my dear brother, if you wish to serve a friend with us,
describe him as the most dangerous of his sex; the very idea that he is
so, makes us think resistance vain, and we throw down our defensive
arms in absolute despair.

I am not sure this is the reason of my discovering Mr. Temple to be
the most amiable of men; but of this I am certain, that I love him with
the most lively affection, and that I am convinced, notwithstanding all
you have said, that he deserves all my tenderness.

Indeed, my dear prudent brother, you men fancy yourselves extremely
wise and penetrating, but you don't know each other half so well as we
know you: I shall make Temple in a few weeks as tame a domestic animal
as you can possibly be, even with your Emily.

I hope you won't be very angry with me for accepting an agreable
fellow, and a coach and six: if you are, I can only say, that finding
the dear man steal every day upon my heart, and recollecting how very
dangerous a creature he was,

      "I held it both safest and best
  To marry, for fear you should chide."

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate, &c.
          Lucy Rivers.


Please to observe, mamma was on Mr. Temple's side, and that I only
take him from obedience to her commands. He has behaved like an angel
to her; but I leave himself to explain how: she has promised to live
with us. We are going a party to Richmond, and only wait for Mr.
Temple.

With all my pertness, I tremble at the idea that to-morrow will
determine the happiness or misery of my life.

      Adieu! my dearest brother.



LETTER 98.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Quebec, March 21.

Were I convinced of your conversion, my dear Jack, I should be the
happiest man breathing in the thought of your marrying my sister; but I
tremble lest this resolution should be the effect of passion merely,
and not of that settled esteem and tender confidence without which
mutual repentance will be the necessary consequence of your connexion.

Lucy is one of the most beautiful women I ever knew, but she has
merits of a much superior kind; her understanding and her heart are
equally lovely: she has also a sensibility which exceedingly alarms me
for her, as I know it is next to impossible that even her charms can
fix a heart so long accustomed to change.

Do I not guess too truly, my dear Temple, when I suppose the
charming mistress is the only object you have in view; and that the
tender amiable friend, the pleasing companion, the faithful confidante,
is forgot?

I will not however anticipate evils: if any merit has power to fix
you, Lucy's cannot fail of doing it.

I expect with impatience a further account of an event in which my
happiness is so extremely interested.

If she is yours, may you know her value, and you cannot fail of
being happy: I only fear from your long habit of improper attachments;
naturally, I know not a heart filled with nobler sentiments than yours,
nor is there on earth a man for whom I have equal esteem. Adieu!

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 99.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Quebec, March 23.

I have received your second letter, my dear Temple, with the account
of your marriage.

Nothing could make me so happy as an event which unites a sister I
idolize to the friend on earth most dear to me, did I not tremble for
your future happiness, from my perfect knowledge of both.

I know the sensibility of Lucy's temper, and that she loves you: I
know also the difficulty of weaning the heart from such a habit of
inconstancy as you have unhappily acquired.

Virtues like Lucy's will for ever command your esteem and
friendship; but in marriage it is equally necessary to keep love alive:
her beauty, her gaiety, her delicacy, will do much; but it is also
necessary, my dearest Temple, that you keep a guard on your heart,
accustomed to liberty, to give way to every light impression.

I need not tell you, who have experienced the truth of what I say,
that happiness is not to be found in a life of intrigue; there is no
real pleasure in the possession of beauty without the heart; with it,
the fears, the anxieties, a man not absolutely destitute of humanity
must feel for the honor of her who ventures more than life for him,
must extremely counterbalance his transports.

Of all the situations this world affords, a marriage of choice gives
the fairest prospect of happiness; without love, life would be a
tasteless void; an unconnected human being is the most wretched of all
creatures: by love I would be understood to mean that tender lively
friendship, that mixed sensation, which the libertine never felt; and
with which I flatter myself my amiable sister cannot fail of inspiring
a heart naturally virtuous, however at present warped by a foolish
compliance with the world.

I hope, my dear Temple, to see you recover your taste for those
pleasures peculiarly fitted to our natures; to see you enjoy the pure
delights of peaceful domestic life, the calm social evening hour, the
circle of friends, the prattling offspring, and the tender impassioned
smile of real love.

Your generosity is no more than I expected from your character; and
to convince you of my perfect esteem, I so far accept it, as to draw
out the money I have in the funds, which I intended for my sister: it
will make my settlement here turn to greater advantage, and I allow you
the pleasure of convincing Lucy of the perfect disinterestedness of
your affection: it would be a trifle to you, and will make me happy.

But I am more delicate in regard to my mother, and will never
consent to resume the estate I have settled on her: I esteem you above
all mankind, but will not let _her_ be dependent even on you: I
consent she visit you as often as she pleases, but insist on her
continuing her house in town, and living in every respect as she has
been accustomed.

As to Lucy's own little fortune, as it is not worth your receiving,
suppose she lays it out in jewels? I love to see beauty adorned; and
two thousand pounds, added to what you have given her, will set her on
a footing in this respect with a nabobess.

Your marriage, my dear Temple, removes the strongest objection to
mine; the money I have in the funds, which whilst Lucy was unmarried I
never would have taken, enables me to fix to great advantage here. I
have now only to try whether Emily's friendship for me is sufficiently
strong to give up all hopes of a return to England.

I shall make an immediate trial: you shall know the event in a few
days. If she refuses me, I bid adieu to all my schemes, and embark in
the first ship.

Give my kindest tenderest wishes to my mother and sister. My dear
Temple, only know the value of the treasure you possess, and you must
be happy. Adieu!

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 100.


To the Earl of ----.

My Lord,

Silleri, March 24.

Nothing can be more just than your Lordship's observation; and I am
the more pleased with it, as it coincides with what I had the honor of
saying to you in my last, in regard to the impropriety, the cruelty,
I had almost said the injustice, of your intention of deserting that
world of which you are at once the ornament and the example.

Good people, as your Lordship observes, are generally too retired
and abstracted to let their example be of much service to the world:
whereas the bad, on the contrary, are conspicuous to all; they stand
forth, they appear on the fore ground of the picture, and force
themselves into observation.

'Tis to that circumstance, I am persuaded, we may attribute that
dangerous and too common mistake, that vice is natural to the human
heart, and virtuous characters the creatures of fancy; a mistake of the
most fatal tendency, as it tends to harden our hearts, and destroy
that mutual confidence so necessary to keep the bands of society from
loosening, and without which man is the most ferocious of all beasts
of prey.

Would all those whose virtues like your Lordship's are adorned by
politeness and knowledge of the world, mix more in society, we should
soon see vice hide her head: would all the good appear in full view,
they would, I am convinced, be found infinitely the majority.

Virtue is too lovely to be hid in cells, the world is her scene of
action: she is soft, gentle, indulgent; let her appear then in her own
form, and she must charm: let politeness be for ever her attendant,
that politeness which can give graces even to vice itself, which makes
superiority easy, removes the sense of inferiority, and adds to every
one's enjoyment both of himself and others.

I am interrupted, and must postpone till to-morrow what I have
further to say to your Lordship. I have the honor to be, my Lord,

      Your Lordship's, &c.
          W. Fermor.



LETTER 101.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, March 25.

Your brother, my dear Lucy, has made me happy in communicating to me
the account he has received of your marriage. I know Temple; he is,
besides being very handsome, a fine, sprightly, agreable fellow, and is
particularly formed to keep a woman's mind in that kind of play, that
gentle agitation, which will for ever secure her affection.

He has in my opinion just as much coquetry as is necessary to
prevent marriage from degenerating into that sleepy kind of existence,
which to minds of the awakened turn of yours and mine would be
insupportable.

He has also a fine fortune, which I hold to be a pretty enough
ingredient in marriage.

In short, he is just such a man, upon the whole, as I should have
chose for myself.

Make my congratulations to the dear man, and tell him, if he is not
the happiest man in the world, he will forfeit all his pretensions to
taste; and if he does not make you the happiest woman, he forfeits all
title to my favor, as well as to the favor of the whole sex.

I meant to say something civil; but, to tell you the truth, I am not
_en train_; I am excessively out of humor: Fitzgerald has not been
here of several days, but spends his whole time in gallanting Madame
La Brosse, a woman to whom he knows I have an aversion, and who has
nothing but a tolerable complexion and a modest assurance to recommend
her.

I certainly gave him some provocation, but this is too much:
however, 'tis very well; I don't think I shall break my heart, though
my vanity is a little piqued. I may perhaps live to take my revenge.

I am hurt, because I began really to like the creature; a secret
however to which he is happily a stranger. I shall see him to-morrow at
the governor's, and suppose he will be in his penitentials: I have some
doubt whether I shall let him dance with me; yet it would look so
particular to refuse him, that I believe I shall do him the honor.

    Adieu!
        Your affectionate
          A. Fermor.

26th, Thursday, 11 at night.

No, Lucy, if I forgive him this, I have lost all the free spirit of
woman; he had the insolence to dance with Madame La Brosse to-night at
the governor's. I never will forgive him. There are men perhaps quite
his equals!--but 'tis no matter--I do him too much honor to be
piqued--yet on the footing we were--I could not have believed--

        Adieu!


I was so certain he would have danced with me, that I refused
Colonel H----, one of the most agreable men in the place, and therefore
could not dance at all. Nothing hurt me so much as the impertinent
looks of the women; I could cry for vexation.

Would your brother have behaved thus to Emily? but why do I name
other men with your brother! do you know he and Emily had the
good-nature to refuse to dance, that my sitting still might be the less
taken notice of? We all played at cards, and Rivers contrived to be of
my party, by which he would have won Emily's heart if he had not had it
before.

        Good night.



LETTER 102.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Quebec, March 27.

I have been twice at Silleri with the intention of declaring my
passion, and explaining my situation, to Emily; but have been prevented
by company, which made it impossible for me to find the opportunity I
wished.

Had I found that opportunity, I am not sure I should have made use
of it; a degree of timidity is inseparable from true tenderness; and I
am afraid of declaring myself a lover, lest, if not beloved, I should
lose the happiness I at present possess in visiting her as her friend:
I cannot give up the dear delight I find in seeing her, in hearing her
voice, in tracing and admiring every sentiment of that lovely
unaffected generous mind as it rises.

In short, my Lucy, I cannot live without her esteem and friendship;
and though her eyes, her attention to me, her whole manner, encourage
me in the hope of being beloved, yet the possibility of my being
mistaken makes me dread an explanation by which I hazard losing the
lively pleasure I find in her friendship.

This timidity however must be conquered; 'tis pardonable to feel
it, but not to give way to it. I have ordered my carriole, and am
determined to make my attack this very morning like a man of courage
and a soldier.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.


A letter from Bell Fermor, to whom I wrote this morning on the
subject:

"To Colonel Rivers, at Quebec.

Silleri, Friday morning.

"You are a foolish creature, and know nothing of women. Dine at
Silleri, and we will air after dinner; 'tis a glorious day, and if you
are timid in a covered carriole, I give you up.

    "Adieu!
        Yours,
          A. Fermor."



LETTER 103.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Quebec, March 27, 11 at night.

She is an angel, my dear Lucy, and no words can do her justice: I am
the happiest of mankind; I painted my passion with all the moving
eloquence of undissembled love; she heard me with the most flattering
attention; she said little, but her looks, her air, her tone of voice,
her blushes, her very silence--how could I ever doubt her tenderness?
have not those lovely eyes a thousand times betrayed the dear secret of
her heart?

My Lucy, we were formed for each other; our souls are of
intelligence; every thought, every idea--from the first moment I
beheld her--I have a thousand things to say, but the tumult of my
joy--she has given me leave to write to her; what has she not said in
that permission?

I cannot go to bed; I will go and walk an hour on the battery; 'tis
the loveliest night I ever beheld, even in Canada: the day is scarce
brighter.

One in the morning.

I have had the sweetest walk imaginable: the moon shines with a
splendor I never saw before; a thousand streaming meteors add to her
brightness; I have stood gazing on the lovely planet, and delighting
myself with the idea that 'tis the same moon that lights my Emily.

Good night, my Lucy! I love you beyond all expression; I always
loved you tenderly, but there is a softness about my heart
to-night--this lovely woman--

I know not what I would say, but till this night I could never be
said to live.

      Adieu! Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 104.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Quebec, 28th March.

I had this morning a short billet from her dear hand, entreating me
to make up a quarrel between Bell Fermor and her lover: your friend has
been indiscreet; her spirit of coquetry is eternally carrying her
wrong; but in my opinion Fitzgerald has been at least equally to blame.

His behaviour at the governor's on Thursday night was inexcusable,
as it exposed her to the sneers of a whole circle of her own sex, many
of them jealous of her perfections.

A lover should overlook little caprices, where the heart is good and
amiable like Bell's: I should think myself particularly obliged to
bring this affair to an amicable conclusion, even if Emily had not
desired it, as I was originally the innocent cause of their quarrel. In
my opinion he ought to beg her pardon; and, as a friend tenderly
interested for both, I have a right to tell him I think so: he loves
her, and I know must suffer greatly, though a foolish pride prevents
his acknowledging it.

My greatest fear is, that an idle resentment may engage him in an
intrigue with the lady in question, who is a woman of gallantry, and
whom he may find very troublesome hereafter. It is much easier to
commence an affair of this kind than to break it off; and a man, though
his heart was disengaged, should be always on his guard against any
thing like an attachment where his affections are not really
interested: meer passion or meer vanity will support an affair _en
passant_; but, where the least degree of constancy and attention are
expected, the heart must feel, or the lover is subjecting himself to a
slavery as irksome as a marriage without inclination.

Temple will tell you I speak like an oracle; for I have often seen
him led by vanity into this very disagreable situation: I hope I am not
too late to save Fitzgerald from it.

Six in the evening.

All goes well: his proud heart is come down, he has begged her
pardon, and is forgiven; you have no idea how civil both are to me,
for having persuaded them to do what each of them has longed to do from
the first moment: I love to advise, when I am sure the heart of the
person advised is on my side. Both were to blame, but I always love to
save the ladies from any thing mortifying to the dignity of their
characters; a little pride in love becomes them, but not us; and 'tis
always our part to submit on these occasions.

I never saw two happier people than they are at present, as I have a
little preserved decorum on both sides, and taken the whole trouble of
the reconciliation on myself: Bell knows nothing of my having applied
to Fitzgerald, nor he that I did it at Emily's request: my conversation
with him on this subject seemed accidental. I was obliged to leave
them, having business in town; but my lovely Emily thanked me by a
smile which would overpay a thousand such little services.

I am to spend to-morrow at Silleri: how long shall I think this
evening!

Adieu! my tenderest wishes attend you all!

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 105.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, March 27, evening.

Fitzgerald has been here, and has begged my pardon; he declares he
had no thought of displeasing me at the governor's, but from my
behaviour was afraid of importuning me if he addressed me as usual.

I thought who would come to first; for my part, if he had stayed
away for ever, I would not have suffered papa to invite him to Silleri:
it was easy to see his neglect was all pique; it would have been
extraordinary indeed if such a woman as Madame La Brosse could have
rivalled me: I am something younger; and, if either my glass or the men
are to be believed, as handsome: _entre nous_, there is some
little difference; if she was not so very fair, she would be
absolutely ugly; and these very fair women, you know, Lucy, are always
insipid; she is the taste of no man breathing, though eternally making
advances to every man; without spirit, fire, understanding, vivacity,
or any quality capable of making amends for the mediocrity of her
charms.

Her insolence in attempting to attach Fitzgerald is intolerable,
especially when the whole province knows him to be my lover: there is
no expressing to what a degree I hate her.

The next time we meet I hope to return her impertinence on Thursday
night at the governor's; I will never forgive Fitzgerald if he takes
the least notice of her.

Emily has read my letter; and says she did not think I had so much
of the woman in me; insists on my being civil to Madame La Brosse, but
if I am, Lucy--

These Frenchwomen are not to be supported; they fancy vanity and
assurance are to make up for the want of every other virtue; forgetting
that delicacy, softness, sensibility, tenderness, are attractions to
which they are strangers: some of them here are however tolerably
handsome, and have a degree of liveliness which makes them not quite
insupportable.

You will call all this spite, as Emily does, so I will say no more:
only that, in order to shew her how very easy it is to be civil to a
rival, I wish for the pleasure of seeing another French lady, that I
could mention, at Quebec.

Good night, my dear! tell Temple, I am every thing but in love with
him.

      Your faithful,
          A. Fermor.

I will however own, I encouraged Fitzgerald by a kind look. I was
so pleased at his return, that I could not keep up the farce of disdain
I had projected: in love affairs, I am afraid, we are all fools alike.



LETTER 106.


To Miss Fermor.

Saturday noon.

Come to my dressing-room, my dear; I have a thousand things to say
to you: I want to talk of my Rivers, to tell you all the weakness of my
soul.

No, my dear, I cannot love him more, a passion like mine will not
admit addition; from the first moment I saw him my whole soul was his:
I knew not that I was dear to him; but true genuine love is
self-existent, and does not depend on being beloved: I should have
loved him even had he been attached to another.

This declaration has made me the happiest of my sex; but it has not
increased, it could not increase, my tenderness: with what softness,
what diffidence, what respect, what delicacy, was this declaration
made! my dear friend, he is a god, and my ardent affection for him is
fully justified.

I love him--no words can speak how much I love him.

My passion for him is the first and shall be the last of my life: my
bosom never heaved a sigh but for my Rivers.

Will you pardon the folly of a heart which till now was ashamed to
own its feelings, and of which you are even now the only confidante?

I find all the world so insipid, nothing amuses me one moment; in
short, I have no pleasure but in Rivers's conversation, nor do I count
the hours of his absence in my existence.

I know all this will be called folly, but it is a folly which makes
all the happiness of my life.

You love, my dear Bell; and therefore will pardon the weakness of
your

        Emily.



LETTER 107.


To Miss Montague.

Saturday.

Yes, my dear, I love, at least I think so; but, thanks to my stars,
not in the manner you do.

I prefer Fitzgerald to all the rest of his sex; but _I count the
hours of his absence in my existence_; and contrive sometimes to
pass them pleasantly enough, if any other agreable man is in the way:
in short, I relish flattery and attention from others, though I
infinitely prefer them from him.

I certainly love him, for I was jealous of Madame La Brosse; but, in
general, I am not alarmed when I see him flirt a little with others.
Perhaps my vanity was as much wounded as my love, with regard to Madame
La Brosse.

I find love is quite a different plant in different soils; it is an
exotic, and grows faintly, with us coquets; but in its native climate
with you people of sensibility and sentiment.

Adieu! I will attend you in a quarter of an hour.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 108.


To Miss Fermor.

Not alarmed, my dear, at his attention to others? believe me, you
know nothing of love.

I think every woman who beholds my Rivers a rival; I imagine I see
in every female countenance a passion tender and lively as my own; I
turn pale, my heart dies within me, if I observe his eyes a moment
fixed on any other woman; I tremble at the possibility of his changing;
I cannot support the idea that the time may come when I may be less
dear to my Rivers than at present. Do you believe it possible, my
dearest Bell, for any heart, not prepossessed, to be insensible one
moment to my Rivers?

He is formed to charm the soul of woman; his delicacy, his
sensibility, the mind that speaks through those eloquent eyes; the
thousand graces of his air, the sound of his voice--my dear, I never
heard him speak without feeling a softness of which it is impossible to
convey an idea.

But I am wrong to encourage a tenderness which is already too great;
I will think less of him; I will not talk of him; do not speak of him
to me, my dear Bell: talk to me of Fitzgerald; there is no danger of
your passion becoming too violent.

I wish you loved more tenderly, my dearest; you would then be more
indulgent to my weakness: I am ashamed of owning it even to you.

Ashamed, did I say? no, I rather glory in loving the most amiable,
the most angelic of mankind.

Speak of him to me for ever; I abhor all conversation of which he is
not the subject. I am interrupted. Adieu!

      Your faithful
          Emily.


My dearest, I tremble; he is at the door; how shall I meet him
without betraying all the weakness of my heart? come to me this moment,
I will not go down without you. Your father is come to fetch me;
follow me, I entreat: I cannot see him alone; my heart is too much
softened at this moment. He must not know to what excess he is beloved.



LETTER 109.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Quebec, March 28.

I am at present, my dear Lucy, extremely embarrassed; Madame Des
Roches is at Quebec: it is impossible for me not to be more than polite
to her; yet my Emily has all my heart, and demands all my attention;
there is but one way of seeing them both as often as I wish; 'tis to
bring them as often as possible together: I wish extremely that Emily
would visit her, but 'tis a point of the utmost delicacy to manage.

Will it not on reflection be cruel to Madame Des Roches? I know her
generosity of mind, but I also know the weakness of the human heart:
can she see with pleasure a beloved rival?

My Lucy, I never so much wanted your advice: I will consult Bell
Fermor, who knows every thought of my Emily's heart.

Eleven o'clock.

I have visited Madame Des Roches at her relation's; she received me
with a pleasure which was too visible not to be observed by all
present: she blushed, her voice faltered when she addressed me; her
eyes had a softness which seemed to reproach my insensibility: I was
shocked at the idea of having inspired her with a tenderness not in my
power to return; I was afraid of increasing that tenderness; I scarce
dared to meet her looks.

I felt a criminal in the presence of this amiable woman; for both
our sakes, I must see her seldom: yet what an appearance will my
neglect have, after the attention she has shewed me, and the friendship
she has expressed for me to all the world?

I know not what to determine. I am going to Silleri. Adieu till my
return.

Eight o'clock.

I have entreated Emily to admit Madame Des Roches among the number
of her friends, and have asked her to visit her to-morrow morning: she
changed color at my request, but promised to go.

I almost repent of what I have done: I am to attend Emily and Bell
Fermor to Madame Des Roches in the morning: I am afraid I shall
introduce them with a very bad grace. Adieu!

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 110.


To Miss Fermor.

Sunday morning.

Could you have believed he would have expected such a proof of my
desire to oblige him? but what can he ask that his Emily will refuse? I
will see this _friend_ of his, this Madame Des Roches; I will even
love her, if it is in woman to be so disinterested. She loves him; he
sees her; they say she is amiable; I could have wished her visit to
Quebec had been delayed.

But he comes; he looks up; his eyes seem to thank me for this excess
of complaisance: what is there I would not do to give him pleasure?

Six o'clock.

Do you think her so very pleasing, my dear Bell? she has fine eyes,
but have they not more fire than softness? There was a vivacity in her
manner which hurt me extremely: could she have behaved with such
unconcern, had she loved as I do?

Do you think it possible, Bell, for a Frenchwoman to love? is not
vanity the ruling passion of their hearts?

May not Rivers be deceived in supposing her so much attached to him?
was there not some degree of affectation in her particular attention to
me? I cannot help thinking her artful.

Perhaps I am prejudiced: she may be amiable, but I will own she does
not please me.

Rivers begged me to have a friendship for her; I am afraid this is
more than is in my power: friendship, like love, is the child of
sympathy, not of constraint.

      Adieu! Yours,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 111.


To Miss Montague.

Monday.

The inclosed, my dear, is as much to you as to me, perhaps more; I
pardon the lady for thinking you the handsomest. Is not this the
strongest proof I could give of my friendship? perhaps I should have
been piqued, however, had the preference been given by a man; but I
can with great tranquillity allow you to be the women's beauty.

Dictate an answer to your little Bell, who waits your commands at
her bureau.

        Adieu!

"To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Monday.

"You and your lovely friend obliged me beyond words, my dear Bell,
by your visit of yesterday: Madame Des Roches is charmed with you
both: you will not be displeased when I tell you she gives Emily the
preference; she says she is beautiful as an angel; that she should
think the man insensible, who could see her without love; that she is
_touchant_, to use her own word, beyond any thing she ever beheld.

"She however does justice to your charms, though Emily's seem to
affect her most. She even allows you to be perhaps more the taste of
men in general.

"She intends paying her respects to you and Emily this afternoon;
and has sent to desire me to conduct her. As it is so far, I would wish
to find you at home.

      "Yours,
          Ed. Rivers."



LETTER 112.


To Miss Fermor.

Always Madame Des Roches! but let her come: indeed, my dear, she is
artful; she gains upon him by this appearance of generosity; I cannot
return it, I do not love her; yet I will receive her with politeness.

He is to drive her too; but 'tis no matter; if the tenderest
affection can secure his heart, I have nothing to fear: loving him as I
do, it is impossible not to be apprehensive: indeed, my dear, he knows
not how I love him.

      Adieu!
          Your Emily.



LETTER 113.


To Miss Fermor.

Monday evening.

Surely I am the weakest of my weak sex; I am ashamed to tell you all
my feelings: I cannot conquer my dislike to Madame Des Roches: she
said a thousand obliging things to me, she praised my Rivers; I made
her no answer, I even felt tears ready to start; what must she think of
me? there is a meanness in my jealousy of her, which I cannot forgive
myself.

I cannot account for her attention to me, it is not natural; she
behaved to me not only with politeness, but with the appearance of
affection; she seemed to feel and pity my confusion. She is either the
most artful, or the most noble of women.

      Adieu!
        Your
          Emily.



LETTER 114.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, March 29.

We are going to dine at a farm house in the country, where we are to
meet other company, and have a ball: the snow begins a little to
soften, from the warmth of the sun, which is greater than in England in
May. Our winter parties are almost at an end.

My father drives Madame Des Roches, who is of our party, and your
brother Emily; I hope the little fool will be easy now, Lucy; she is
very humble, to be jealous of one, who, though really very pleasing, is
neither so young nor so handsome as herself; and who professes to wish
only for Rivers's friendship.

But I have no right to say a word on this subject, after having been
so extremely hurt at Fitzgerald's attention to such a woman as Madame
La Brosse; an attention too which was so plainly meant to pique me.

We are all, I am afraid, a little absurd in these affairs, and
therefore ought to have some degree of indulgence for others.

Emily and I, however, differ in our ideas of love: it is the
business of her life, the amusement of mine; 'tis the food of her
hours, the seasoning of mine.

Or, in other words, she loves like a foolish woman, I like a
sensible man: for men, you know, compared to women, love in about the
proportion of one to twenty.

'Tis a mighty wrong thing, after all, Lucy, that parents will
educate creatures so differently, who are to live with and for each
other.

Every possible means is used, even from infancy, to soften the minds
of women, and to harden those of men; the contrary endeavor might be of
use, for the men creatures are unfeeling enough by nature, and we are
born too tremblingly alive to love, and indeed to every soft affection.

Your brother is almost the only one of his sex I know, who has the
tenderness of woman with the spirit and firmness of man: a circumstance
which strikes every woman who converses with him, and which contributes
to make him the favorite he is amongst us. Foolish women who cannot
distinguish characters may possibly give the preference to a coxcomb;
but I will venture to say, no woman of sense was ever much acquainted
with Colonel Rivers without feeling for him an affection of some kind
or other.

_A propos_ to women, the estimable part of us are divided into
two classes only, the tender and the lively.

The former, at the head of which I place Emily, are infinitely more
capable of happiness; but, to counterbalance this advantage, they are
also capable of misery in the same degree. We of the other class, who
feel less keenly, are perhaps upon the whole as happy, at least I would
fain think so.

For example, if Emily and I marry our present lovers, she will
certainly be more exquisitely happy than I shall; but if they should
change their minds, or any accident prevent our coming together, I am
inclined to fancy my situation would be much the most agreable.

I should pout a month, and then look about for another lover; whilst
the tender Emily would

 "Sit like patience on a monument,"

and pine herself into a consumption.

Adieu! They wait for me.

        Yours,
          A. Fermor.

Tuesday, midnight.

We have had a very agreable day, Lucy, a pretty enough kind of a
ball, and every body in good humor: I danced with Fitzgerald, whom I
never knew so agreable.

Happy love is gay, I find; Emily is all sprightliness, your
brother's eyes have never left her one moment, and her blushes seemed
to shew her sense of the distinction; I never knew her look so handsome
as this day.

Do you know I felt for Madame Des Roches? Emily was excessively
complaisant to her: she returned her civility, but I could perceive a
kind of constraint in her manner, very different from the ease of her
behaviour when we saw her before: she felt the attention of Rivers to
Emily very strongly: in short, the ladies seemed to have changed
characters for the day.

We supped with your brother on our return, and from his windows,
which look on the river St. Charles, had the pleasure of observing one
of the most beautiful objects imaginable, which I never remember to
have seen before this evening.

You are to observe the winter method of fishing here, is to break
openings like small fish ponds on the ice, to which the fish coming for
air, are taken in prodigious quantities on the surface.

To shelter themselves from the excessive cold of the night, the
fishermen build small houses of ice on the river, which are arranged in
a semicircular form, and extend near a quarter of a mile, and which,
from the blazing fires within, have a brilliant transparency and vivid
lustre, not easy either to imagine or to describe: the starry
semicircle looks like an immense crescent of diamonds, on which the sun
darts his meridian rays.

Absolutely, Lucy, you see nothing in Europe: you are cultivated, you
have the tame beauties of art; but to see nature in her lovely wild
luxuriance, you must visit your brother when he is prince of the
Kamaraskas.

    Adieu!
      Your faithful
          A. Fermor.


The variety, as well of grand objects, as of amusements, in this
country, confirms me in an opinion I have always had, that Providence
had made the conveniences and inconveniences of life nearly equal every
where.

We have pleasures here even in winter peculiar to the climate, which
counterbalance the evils we suffer from its rigor.

Good night, my dear Lucy!



LETTER 115.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Quebec, April 2.

I have this moment, my dear, a letter from Montreal, describing some
lands on Lake Champlain, which my friend thinks much better worth my
taking than those near the Kamaraskas: he presses me to come up
immediately to see them, as the ice on the rivers will in a few days be
dangerous to travel on.

I am strongly inclined to go, and for this reason; I am convinced my
wish of bringing about a friendship between Emily and Madame Des
Roches, the strongest reason I had for fixing at the Kamaraskas, was an
imprudent one: gratitude and (if the expression is not impertinent)
compassion give me a softness in my behaviour to the latter, which a
superficial observer would take for love, and which her own tenderness
may cause even her to misconstrue; a circumstance which must retard her
resolution of changing the affection with which she has honored me,
into friendship.

I am also delicate in my love, and cannot bear to have it one moment
supposed, my heart can know a wish but for my Emily.

Shall I say more? The blush on Emily's cheek on her first seeing
Madame Des Roches convinced me of my indiscretion, and that vanity
alone carried me to desire to bring together two women, whose affection
for me is from their extreme merit so very flattering.

I shall certainly now fix in Canada; I can no longer doubt of
Emily's tenderness, though she refuses me her hand, from motives which
make her a thousand times more dear to me, but which I flatter myself
love will over-rule.

I am setting off in an hour for Montreal, and shall call at Silleri
to take Emily's commands.

Seven in the evening, Des Chambeaux.

I asked her advice as to fixing the place of my settlement; she said
much against my staying in America at all; but, if I was determined,
recommended Lake Champlain rather than the Kamaraskas, on account of
climate. Bell smiled; and a blush, which I perfectly understood,
over-spread the lovely cheek of my sweet Emily. Nothing could be more
flattering than this circumstance; had she seen Madame Des Roches with
a calm indifference, had she not been alarmed at the idea of fixing
near her, I should have doubted of the degree of her affection; a
little apprehension is inseparable from real love.

My courage has been to-day extremely put to the proof: had I staid
three days longer, it would have been impossible to have continued my
journey.

The ice cracks under us at every step the horses set, a rather
unpleasant circumstance on a river twenty fathom deep: I should not
have attempted the journey had I been aware of this particular. I hope
no man meets inevitable danger with more spirit, but no man is less
fond of seeking it where it is honorably to be avoided.

I am going to sup with the seigneur of the village, who is, I am
told, married to one of the handsomest women in the province.

Adieu! my dear! I shall write to you from Montreal.

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 116.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Montreal, April 3.

I am arrived, my dear, after a very disagreable and dangerous
journey; I was obliged to leave the river soon after I left Des
Chambeaux, and to pursue my way on the land over melting snow, into
which the horses feet sunk half a yard every step.

An officer just come from New York has given me a letter from you,
which came thither by a private ship: I am happy to hear of your
health, and that Temple's affection for you seems rather to increase
than lessen since your marriage.

You ask me, my dear Lucy, how to preserve this affection, on the
continuance of which, you justly say, your whole happiness depends.

The question is perhaps the most delicate and important which
respects human life; the caprice, the inconstancy, the injustice of
men, makes the task of women in marriage infinitely difficult.

Prudence and virtue will certainly secure esteem; but,
unfortunately, esteem alone will not make a happy marriage; passion
must also be kept alive, which the continual presence of the object
beloved is too apt to make subside into that apathy, so insupportable
to sensible minds.

The higher your rank, and the less your manner of life separates you
from each other, the more danger there will be of this indifference.

The poor, whose necessary avocations divide them all day, and whose
sensibility is blunted by the coarseness of their education, are in no
danger of being weary of each other; and, unless naturally vicious, you
will see them generally happy in marriage; whereas even the virtuous,
in more affluent situations, are not secure from this unhappy cessation
of tenderness.

When I received your letter, I was reading Madame De Maintenon's
advice to the Dutchess of Burgundy, on this subject. I will transcribe
so much of it as relates to _the woman_, leaving her advice
to _the princess_ to those whom it may concern.

"Do not hope for perfect happiness; there is no such thing in this
sublunary state.

"Your sex is the more exposed to suffer, because it is always in
dependence: be neither angry nor ashamed of this dependence on a
husband, nor of any of those which are in the order of Providence.

"Let your husband be your best friend and your only confidant.

"Do not hope that your union will procure you perfect peace: the
best marriages are those where with softness and patience they bear by
turns with each other; there are none without some contradiction and
disagreement.

"Do not expect the same degree of friendship that you feel: men are
in general less tender than women; and you will be unhappy if you are
too delicate in friendship.

"Beg of God to guard your heart from jealousy: do not hope to bring
back a husband by complaints, ill humor, and reproaches. The only means
which promise success, are patience and softness: impatience sours and
alienates hearts; softness leads them back to their duty.

"In sacrificing your own will, pretend to no right over that of a
husband: men are more attached to theirs than women, because educated
with less constraint.

"They are naturally tyrannical; they will have pleasures and
liberty, yet insist that women renounce both: do not examine whether
their rights are well founded; let it suffice to you, that they are
established; they are masters, we have only to suffer and obey with a
good grace."

Thus far Madame De Maintenon, who must be allowed to have known the
heart of man, since, after having been above twenty years a widow, she
enflamed, even to the degree of bringing him to marry her, that of a
great monarch, younger than herself, surrounded by beauties, habituated
to flattery, in the plenitude of power, and covered with glory; and
retained him in her chains to the last moment of his life.

Do not, however, my dear, be alarmed at the picture she has drawn of
marriage; nor fancy with her, that women are only born to suffer and
to obey.

That we are generally tyrannical, I am obliged to own; but such of
us as know how to be happy, willingly give up the harsh title of
master, for the more tender and endearing one of friend; men of sense
abhor those customs which treat your sex as if created meerly for the
happiness of the other; a supposition injurious to the Deity, though
flattering to our tyranny and self-love; and wish only to bind you in
the soft chains of affection.

Equality is the soul of friendship: marriage, to give delight, must
join two minds, not devote a slave to the will of an imperious lord;
whatever conveys the idea of subjection necessarily destroys that of
love, of which I am so convinced, that I have always wished the word
obey expunged from the marriage ceremony.

If you will permit me to add my sentiments to those of a lady so
learned in the art of pleasing; I would wish you to study the taste of
your husband, and endeavor to acquire a relish for those pleasures
which appear most to affect him; let him find amusement at home, but
never be peevish at his going abroad; he will return to you with the
higher gust for your conversation: have separate apartments, since your
fortune makes it not inconvenient; be always elegant, but not too
expensive, in your dress; retain your present exquisite delicacy of
every kind; receive his friends with good-breeding and complacency;
contrive such little parties of pleasure as you know are agreable to
him, and with the most agreable people you can select: be lively even
to playfulness in your general turn of conversation with him; but, at
the same time, spare no pains so to improve your understanding, which
is an excellent one, as to be no less capable of being the companion of
his graver hours: be ignorant of nothing which it becomes your sex to
know, but avoid all affectation of knowledge: let your oeconomy be
exact, but without appearing otherwise than by the effect.

Do not imitate those of your sex who by ill temper make a husband
pay dear for their fidelity; let virtue in you be drest in smiles; and
be assured that chearfulness is the native garb of innocence.

In one word, my dear, do not lose the mistress in the wife, but let
your behaviour to him as a husband be such as you would have thought
most proper to attract him as a lover: have always the idea of pleasing
before you, and you cannot fail to please.

Having lectured you, my dear Lucy, I must say a word to Temple: a
great variety of rules have been given for the conduct of women in
marriage; scarce any for that of men; as if it was not essential to
domestic happiness, that the man should preserve the heart of her with
whom he is to spend his life; or as if bestowing happiness were not
worth a man's attention, so he possessed it: if, however, it is
possible to feel true happiness without giving it.

You, my dear Temple, have too just an idea of pleasure to think in
this manner: you would be beloved; it has been the pursuit of your
life, though never really attained perhaps before. You at present
possess a heart full of sensibility, a heart capable of loving with
ardor, and from the same cause as capable of being estranged by
neglect: give your whole attention to preserving this invaluable
treasure; observe every rule I have given to her, if you would be
happy; and believe me, the heart of woman is not less delicate than
tender; their sensibility is more keen, they feel more strongly than
we do, their tenderness is more easily wounded, and their hearts are
more difficult to recover if once lost.

At the same time, they are both by nature and education more
constant, and scarce ever change the object of their affections but
from ill treatment: for which reason there is some excuse for a custom
which appears cruel, that of throwing contempt on the husband for the
ill conduct of the wife.

Above all things, retain the politeness and attention of a lover;
and avoid that careless manner which wounds the vanity of human nature,
a passion given us, as were all passions, for the wisest ends, and
which never quits us but with life.

There is a certain attentive tenderness, difficult to be described,
which the manly of our sex feel, and which is peculiarly pleasing to
woman: 'tis also a very delightful sensation to ourselves, as well as
productive of the happiest consequences: regarding them as creatures
placed by Providence under our protection, and depending on us for
their happiness, is the strongest possible tie of affection to a
well-turned mind.

If I did not know Lucy perfectly, I should perhaps hesitate in the
next advice I am going to give you; which is, to make her the
confidante, and the _only_ confidante, of your gallantries, if you
are so unhappy as to be inadvertently betrayed into any: her heart will
possibly be at first a little wounded by the confession, but this proof
of perfect esteem will increase her friendship for you; she will regard
your error with compassion and indulgence, and lead you gently back by
her endearing tenderness to honor and herself.

Of all tasks I detest that of giving advice; you are therefore
under infinite obligation to me for this letter.

Be assured of my tenderest affection; and believe me,

      Yours, &c.
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 117.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, April 8.

Nothing can be more true, my Lord, than that poverty is ever the
inseparable companion of indolence.

I see proofs of it every moment before me; with a soil fruitful
beyond all belief, the Canadians are poor on lands which are their own
property, and for which they pay only a trifling quit-rent to their
seigneurs.

This indolence appears in every thing: you scarce see the meanest
peasant walking; even riding on horseback appears to them a fatigue
insupportable; you see them lolling at ease, like their lazy lords, in
carrioles and calashes, according to the season; a boy to guide the
horse on a seat in the front of the carriage, too lazy even to take the
trouble of driving themselves, their hands in winter folded in an
immense muff, though perhaps their families are in want of bread to eat
at home.

The winter is passed in a mixture of festivity and inaction; dancing
and feasting in their gayer hours; in their graver smoking, and
drinking brandy, by the side of a warm stove: and when obliged to
cultivate the ground in spring to procure the means of subsistence, you
see them just turn the turf once lightly over, and, without manuring
the ground, or even breaking the clods of earth, throw in the seed in
the same careless manner, and leave the event to chance, without
troubling themselves further till it is fit to reap.

I must, however, observe, as some alleviation, that there is
something in the climate which strongly inclines both the body and
mind, but rather the latter, to indolence: the heat of the summer,
though pleasing, enervates the very soul, and gives a certain lassitude
unfavorable to industry; and the winter, at its extreme, binds up and
chills all the active faculties of the soul.

Add to this, that the general spirit of amusement, so universal here
in winter, and so necessary to prevent the ill effects of the season,
gives a habit of dissipation and pleasure, which makes labor doubly
irksome at its return.

Their religion, to which they are extremely bigoted, is another
great bar, as well to industry as population: their numerous festivals
inure them to idleness; their religious houses rob the state of many
subjects who might be highly useful at present, and at the same time
retard the increase of the colony.

Sloth and superstition equally counterwork providence, and render
the bounty of heaven of no effect.

I am surprized the French, who generally make their religion
subservient to the purposes of policy, do not discourage convents, and
lessen the number of festivals, in the colonies, where both are so
peculiarly pernicious.

It is to this circumstance one may in great measure attribute the
superior increase of the British American settlements compared to
those of France: a religion which encourages idleness, and makes a
virtue of celibacy, is particularly unfavorable to colonization.

However religious prejudice may have been suffered to counterwork
policy under a French government, it is scarce to be doubted that this
cause of the poverty of Canada will by degrees be removed; that these
people, slaves at present to ignorance and superstition, will in time
be enlightened by a more liberal education, and gently led by reason to
a religion which is not only preferable, as being that of the country
to which they are now annexed, but which is so much more calculated to
make them happy and prosperous as a people.

Till that time, till their prejudices subside, it is equally just,
humane, and wise, to leave them the free right of worshiping the Deity
in the manner which they have been early taught to believe the best,
and to which they are consequently attached.

It would be unjust to deprive them of any of the rights of citizens
on account of religion, in America, where every other sect of
dissenters are equally capable of employ with those of the established
church; nay where, from whatever cause, the church of England is on a
footing in many colonies little better than a toleration.

It is undoubtedly, in a political light, an object of consequence
every where, that the national religion, whatever it is, should be as
universal as possible, agreement in religious worship being the
strongest tie to unity and obedience; had all prudent means been used
to lessen the number of dissenters in our colonies, I cannot avoid
believing, from what I observe and hear, that we should have found in
them a spirit of rational loyalty, and true freedom, instead of that
factious one from which so much is to be apprehended.

It seems consonant to reason, that the religion of every country
should have a relation to, and coherence with, the civil constitution:
the Romish religion is best adapted to a despotic government, the
presbyterian to a republican, and that of the church of England to a
limited monarchy like ours.

As therefore the civil government of America is on the same plan
with that of the mother country, it were to be wished the religious
establishment was also the same, especially in those colonies where the
people are generally of the national church; though with the fullest
liberty of conscience to dissenters of all denominations.

I would be clearly understood, my Lord; from all I have observed
here, I am convinced, nothing would so much contribute to diffuse a
spirit of order, and rational obedience, in the colonies, as the
appointment, under proper restrictions, of bishops: I am equally
convinced that nothing would so much strengthen the hands of
government, or give such pleasure to the well-affected in the colonies,
who are by much the most numerous, as such an appointment, however
clamored against by a few abettors of sedition.

I am called upon for this letter, and must remit to another time
what I wished to say more to your Lordship in regard to this country.

  I have the honor to be,
      My Lord, &c.
          Wm. Fermor.



LETTER 118.


To Mrs. Melmoth, at Montreal.

Silleri, April 8.

I am indeed, Madam, this inconsistent creature. I have at once
refused to marry Colonel Rivers, and owned to him all the tenderness of
my soul.

Do not however think me mad, or suppose my refusal the effect of an
unmeaning childish affectation of disinterestedness: I can form to
myself no idea of happiness equal to that of spending my life with
Rivers, the best, the most tender, the most amiable of mankind; nor can
I support the idea of his marrying any other woman: I would therefore
marry him to-morrow were it possible without ruining him, without
dooming him to a perpetual exile, and obstructing those views of
honest ambition at home, which become his birth, his connexions, his
talents, his time of life; and with which, as his friend, it is my
duty to inspire him.

His affection for me at present blinds him, he sees no object but me
in the whole universe; but shall I take advantage of that inebriation
of tenderness, to seduce him into a measure inconsistent with his real
happiness and interest? He must return to England, must pursue fortune
in that world for which he was formed: shall his Emily retard him in
the glorious race? shall she not rather encourage him in every laudable
attempt? shall she suffer him to hide that shining merit in the
uncultivated wilds of Canada, the seat of barbarism and ignorance,
which entitles him to hope a happy fate in the dear land of arts and
arms?

I entreat you to do all you can to discourage his design. Remind him
that his sister's marriage has in some degree removed the cause of his
coming hither; that he can have now no motive for fixing here, but his
tenderness for me; that I shall be justly blamed by all who love him
for keeping him here. Tell him, I will not marry him in Canada; that
his stay makes the best mother in the world wretched; that he owes his
return to himself, nay to his Emily, whose whole heart is set on seeing
him in a situation worthy of him: though without ambition as to myself,
I am proud, I am ambitious for him; if he loves me, he will gratify
that pride, that ambition; and leave Canada to those whose duty
confines them here, or whose interest it is to remain unseen. Let him
not once think of me in his determination: I am content to be beloved,
and will leave all else to time. You cannot so much oblige or serve me,
as by persuading Colonel Rivers to return to England.

  Believe me, my dear Madam,
        Your affectionate
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 119.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, April 9.

Your brother, my dear, is gone to Montreal to look out for a
settlement, and Emily to spend a fortnight at Quebec, with a lady she
knew in England, who is lately arrived from thence by New York.

I am lost without my friend, though my lover endeavors in some
degree to supply her place; he lays close siege; I know not how long I
shall be able to hold out: this fine weather is exceedingly in his
favor; the winter freezes up all the avenues to the heart; but this
sprightly April sun thaws them again amazingly. I was the cruellest
creature breathing whilst the chilly season lasted, but can answer for
nothing now the sprightly May is approaching.

I can see papa is vastly in Fitzgerald's interest; but he knows our
sex well enough to keep this to himself.

I shall, however, for decency's sake, ask his opinion on the affair
as soon as I have taken my resolution; which is the very time at which
all the world ask advice of their friends.

A letter from Emily, which I must answer: she is extremely absurd,
which your tender lovers always are.

      Adieu! yours,
          A. Fermor.

Sir George Clayton had left Montreal some days before your brother
arrived there; I was pleased to hear it, because, with all your
brother's good sense, and concern for Emily's honor, and Sir George's
natural coldness of temper, a quarrel between them would have been
rather difficult to have been avoided.



LETTER 120.


To Miss Fermor.

Quebec, Thursday morning.

Do you think, my dear, that Madame Des Roches has heard from Rivers?
I wish you would ask her this afternoon at the governor's: I am
anxious to know, but ashamed to enquire.

Not, my dear, that I have the weakness to be jealous; but I shall
think his letter to me a higher compliment, if I know he writes to
nobody else. I extremely approve his friendship for Madame Des Roches;
she is very amiable, and certainly deserves it: but you know, Bell, it
would be cruel to encourage an affection, which she must conquer, or be
unhappy: if she did not love him, there would be nothing wrong in his
writing to her; but, as she does, it would be doing her the greatest
injury possible: 'tis as much on her account as my own I am thus
anxious.

Did you ever read so tender, yet so lively a letter as Rivers's to
me? he is alike in all: there is in his letters, as in his
conversation,

  "All that can softly win, or gaily charm
  The heart of woman."

Even strangers listen to him with an involuntary attention, and hear
him with a pleasure for which they scarce know how to account.

He charms even without intending it, and in spite of himself; but
when he wishes to please, when he addresses the woman he loves, when
his eyes speak the soft language of his heart, when your Emily reads
in them the dear confession of his tenderness, when that melodious
voice utters the sentiments of the noblest mind that ever animated a
human form--My dearest, the eloquence of angels cannot paint my Rivers
as he is.

I am almost inclined not to go to the governor's to-night; I am
determined not to dance till Rivers returns, and I know there are too
many who will be ready to make observations on my refusal: I think I
will stay at home, and write to him against Monday's post: I have a
thousand things to say, and you know we are continually interrupted at
Quebec; I shall have this evening to myself, as all the world will be
at the governor's.

      Adieu, your faithful
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 121.


To Miss Montague, at Quebec.

Silleri, Thursday morning.

I dare say, my dear, Madame Des Roches has not heard from Rivers;
but suppose she had. If he loves you, of what consequence is it to whom
he writes? I would not for the world any friend of yours should ask her
such a question.

I shall call upon you at six o'clock, and shall expect to find you
determined to go to the governor's this evening, and to dance:
Fitzgerald begs the honor of being your partner.

Believe me, Emily, these kind of unmeaning sacrifices are childish;
your heart is new to love, and you have all the romance of a girl:
Rivers would, on your account, be hurt to hear you had refused to dance
in his absence, though he might be flattered to know you had for a
moment entertained such an idea.

I pardon you for having the romantic fancies of seventeen, provided
you correct them with the good sense of four and twenty.

Adieu! I have engaged myself to Colonel H----, on the presumption
that you are too polite to refuse to dance with Fitzgerald, and too
prudent to refuse to dance at all.

      Your affectionate
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 122.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Quebec, Saturday morning.

How unjust have I been in my hatred of Madame Des Roches! she spent
yesterday with us, and after dinner desired to converse with me an hour
in my apartment, where she opened to me all her heart on the subject of
her love for Rivers.

She is the noblest and most amiable of women, and I have been in
regard to her the most capricious and unjust: my hatred of her was
unworthy my character; I blush to own the meanness of my sentiments,
whilst I admire the generosity of hers.

Why, my dear, should I have hated her? she was unhappy, and deserved
rather my compassion: I had deprived her of all hope of being beloved,
it was too much to wish to deprive her also of his conversation. I
knew myself the only object of Rivers's love; why then should I have
envied her his friendship? she had the strongest reason to hate me, but
I should have loved and pitied her.

Can there be a misfortune equal to that of loving Rivers without
hope of a return? Yet she has not only born this misfortune without
complaint, but has been the confidante of his passion for another; he
owned to her all his tenderness for me, and drew a picture of me,
which, she told me, ought, had she listened to reason, to have
destroyed even the shadow of hope: but that love, ever ready to flatter
and deceive, had betrayed her into the weakness of supposing it
possible I might refuse him, and that gratitude might, in that case,
touch his heart with tenderness for one who loved him with the most
pure and disinterested affection; that her journey to Quebec had
removed the veil love had placed between her and truth; that she was
now convinced the faint hope she had encouraged was madness, and that
our souls were formed for each other.

She owned she still loved him with the most lively affection; yet
assured me, since she was not allowed to make the most amiable of
mankind happy herself, she wished him to be so with the woman on earth
she thought most worthy of him.

She added, that she had on first seeing me, though she thought me
worthy his heart, felt an impulse of dislike which she was ashamed to
own, even now that reason and reflexion had conquered so unworthy a
sentiment; that Rivers's complaisance had a little dissipated her
chagrin, and enabled her to behave to me in the manner she did: that
she had, however, almost hated me at the ball in the country: that the
tenderness in Rivers's eyes that day whenever they met mine, and his
comparative inattention to her, had wounded her to the soul.

That this preference had, however, been salutary, though painful;
since it had determined her to conquer a passion, which could only make
her life wretched if it continued; that, as the first step to this
conquest, she had resolved to see him no more: that she would return to
her house the moment she could cross the river with safety; and
conjured me, for her sake, to persuade him to give up all thoughts of a
settlement near her; that she could not answer for her own heart if she
continued to see him; that she believed in love there was no safety but
in flight.

That his absence had given her time to think coolly; and that she
now saw so strongly the amiableness of my character, and was so
convinced of my perfect tenderness for him, that she should hate
herself were she capable of wishing to interrupt our happiness.

That she hoped I would pardon her retaining a tender remembrance of
a man who, had he never seen me, might have returned her affection;
that she thought so highly of my heart, as to believe I could not hate
a woman who esteemed me, and who solicited my friendship, though a
happy rival.

I was touched, even to tears, at her behaviour: we embraced; and, if
I know my own weak foolish heart, I love her.

She talks of leaving Quebec before Rivers's return; she said, her
coming was an imprudence which only love could excuse; and that she
had no motive for her journey but the desire of seeing him, which was
so lively as to hurry her into an indiscretion of which she was afraid
the world took but too much notice. What openness, what sincerity, what
generosity, was there in all she said!

How superior, my dear, is her character to mine! I blush for myself
on the comparison; I am shocked to see how much she soars above me:
how is it possible Rivers should not have preferred her to me? Yet this
is the woman I fancied incapable of any passion but vanity.

I am sure, my dear Bell, I am not naturally envious of the merit of
others; but my excess of love for Rivers makes me apprehensive of
every woman who can possibly rival me in his tenderness.

I was hurt at Madame Des Roches's uncommon merit; I saw with pain
the amiable qualities of her mind; I could scarce even allow her person
to be pleasing: but this injustice is not that of my natural temper,
but of love.

She is certainly right, my dear, to see him no more; I applaud, I
admire her resolution: do you think, however, she would pursue it if
she loved as I do? she has perhaps loved before, and her heart has lost
something of its native trembling sensibility.

I wish my heart felt her merit as strongly as my reason: I esteem, I
admire, I even love her at present; but I am convinced Rivers's return
while she continues here would weaken these sentiments of affection:
the least appearance of preference, even for a moment, would make me
relapse into my former weakness. I adore, I idolize her character; but
I cannot sincerely wish to cultivate her friendship.

Let me see you this afternoon at Quebec; I am told the roads will
not be passable for carrioles above three days longer: let me therefore
see you as often as I can before we are absolutely shut from each
other.

      Adieu! my dear!
        Your faithful
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 123.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, April 14.

England, however populous, is undoubtedly, my Lord, too small to
afford very large supplies of people to her colonies: and her people
are also too useful, and of too much value, to be suffered to emigrate,
if they can be prevented, whilst there is sufficient employment for
them at home.

It is not only our interest to have colonies; they are not only
necessary to our commerce, and our greatest and surest sources of
wealth, but our very being as a powerful commercial nation depends on
them: it is therefore an object of all others most worthy our
attention, that they should be as flourishing and populous as
possible.

It is however equally our interest to support them at as little
expence of our own inhabitants as possible: I therefore look on the
acquisition of such a number of subjects as we found in Canada, to be a
much superior advantage to that of gaining ten times the immense tract
of land ceded to us, if uncultivated and destitute of inhabitants.

But it is not only contrary to our interest to spare many of our own
people as settlers in America; it must also be considered, that, if we
could spare them, the English are the worst settlers on new lands in
the universe.

Their attachment to their native country, especially amongst the
lower ranks of people, is so very strong, that few of the honest and
industrious can be prevailed on to leave it; those therefore who go,
are generally the dissolute and the idle, who are of no use any where.

The English are also, though industrious, active, and enterprizing,
ill fitted to bear the hardships, and submit to the wants, which
inevitably attend an infant settlement even on the most fruitful lands.

The Germans, on the contrary, with the same useful qualities, have a
patience, a perseverance, an abstinence, which peculiarly fit them for
the cultivation of new countries; too great encouragement therefore
cannot be given to them to settle in our colonies: they make better
settlers than our own people; and at the same time their numbers are an
acquisition of real strength where they fix, without weakening the
mother country.

It is long since the populousness of Europe has been the cause of
her sending out colonies: a better policy prevails; mankind are
enlightened; we are now convinced, both by reason and experience, that
no industrious people can be too populous.

The northern swarms were compelled to leave their respective
countries, not because those countries were unable to support them, but
because they were too idle to cultivate the ground: they were a
ferocious, ignorant, barbarous people, averse to labor, attached to
war, and, like our American savages, believing every employment not
relative to this favorite object, beneath the dignity of man.

Their emigrations therefore were less owing to their populousness,
than to their want of industry, and barbarous contempt of agriculture
and every useful art.

It is with pain I am compelled to say, the late spirit of
encouraging the monopoly of farms, which, from a narrow short-sighted
policy, prevails amongst our landed men at home, and the alarming
growth of celibacy amongst the peasantry which is its necessary
consequence, to say nothing of the same ruinous increase of celibacy in
higher ranks, threaten us with such a decrease of population, as will
probably equal that caused by the ravages of those scourges of heaven,
the sword, the famine, and the pestilence.

If this selfish policy continues to extend itself, we shall in a few
years be so far from being able to send emigrants to America, that we
shall be reduced to solicit their return, and that of their posterity,
to prevent England's becoming in its turn an uncultivated desart.

But to return to Canada; this large acquisition of people is an
invaluable treasure, if managed, as I doubt not it will be, to the best
advantage; if they are won by the gentle arts of persuasion, and the
gradual progress of knowledge, to adopt so much of our manners as tends
to make them happier in themselves, and more useful members of the
society to which they belong: if with our language, which they should
by every means be induced to learn, they acquire the mild genius of our
religion and laws, and that spirit of industry, enterprize, and
commerce, to which we owe all our greatness.

Amongst the various causes which concur to render France more
populous than England, notwithstanding the disadvantage of a less
gentle government, and a religion so very unfavorable to the increase
of mankind, the cultivation of vineyards may be reckoned a principal
one; as it employs a much greater number of hands than even agriculture
itself, which has however infinite advantages in this respect above
pasturage, the certain cause of a want of people wherever it prevails
above its due proportion.

Our climate denies us the advantages arising from the culture of
vines, as well as many others which nature has accorded to France; a
consideration which should awaken us from the lethargy into which the
avarice of individuals has plunged us, and set us in earnest on
improving every advantage we enjoy, in order to secure us by our native
strength from so formidable a rival.

The want of bread to eat, from the late false and cruel policy of
laying small farms into great ones, and the general discouragement of
tillage which is its consequence, is in my opinion much less to be
apprehended than the want of people to eat it.

In every country where the inhabitants are at once numerous and
industrious, there will always be a proportionable cultivation.

This evil is so very destructive and alarming, that, if the great
have not virtue enough to remedy it, it is to be hoped it will in time,
like most great evils, cure itself.

Your Lordship enquires into the nature of this climate in respect to
health. The air being uncommonly pure and serene, it is favorable to
life beyond any I ever knew: the people live generally to a very
advanced age; and are remarkably free from diseases of every kind,
except consumptions, to which the younger part of the inhabitants are a
good deal subject.

It is however a circumstance one cannot help observing, that they
begin to look old much sooner than the people in Europe; on which my
daughter observes, that it is not very pleasant for women to come to
reside in a country where people have a short youth, and a long old
age.

The diseases of cold countries are in general owing to want of
perspiration; for which reason exercise, and even dissipation, are here
the best medicines.

The Indians therefore shewed their good sense in advising the
French, on their first arrival, to use dancing, mirth, chearfulness,
and content, as the best remedies against the inconveniences of the
climate.

I have already swelled this letter to such a length, that I must
postpone to another time my account of the peculiar natural
productions of Canada; only observing, that one would imagine heaven
intended a social intercourse between the most distant nations, by
giving them productions of the earth so very different each from the
other, and each more than sufficient for itself, that the exchange
might be the means of spreading the bond of society and brotherhood
over the whole globe.

In my opinion, the man who conveys, and causes to grow, in any
country, a grain, a fruit, or even a flower, it never possessed before,
deserves more praise than a thousand heroes: he is a benefactor, he is
in some degree a creator.

  I have the honor to be,
    My Lord,
      Your Lordship's &c.
          William Fermor.



LETTER 124.


To Miss Montague, at Quebec.

Montreal, April 14.

Is it possible, my dear Emily, you can, after all I have said,
persist in endeavoring to disswade me from a design on which my whole
happiness depends, and which I flattered myself was equally essential
to yours? I forgave, I even admired, your first scruple; I thought it
generosity: but I have answered it; and if you had loved as I do, you
would never again have named so unpleasing a subject.

Does your own heart tell you mine will call a settlement here, with
you, an exile? Examine yourself well, and tell me whether your
aversion to staying in Canada is not stronger than your tenderness for
your Rivers.

I am hurt beyond all words at the earnestness with which you press
Mrs. Melmoth to disswade me from staying in this country: you press
with warmth my return to England, though it would put an eternal bar
between us: you give reasons which, though the understanding may
approve, the heart abhors: can ambition come in competition with
tenderness? you fancy yourself generous, when you are only indifferent.
Insensible girl! you know nothing of love.

Write to me instantly, and tell me every emotion of your soul, for I
tremble at the idea that your affection is less lively than mine.

Adieu! I am wretched till I hear from you. Is it possible, my Emily,
you can have ceased to love him, who, as you yourself own, sees no
other object than you in the universe?

      Adieu! Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.

You know not the heart of your Rivers, if you suppose it capable of
any ambition but that dear one of being beloved by you.

What have you said, my dear Emily? _You will not marry me in
Canada_. You have passed a hard sentence on me: you know my fortune
will not allow me to marry you in England.


END OF VOL. II.




THE HISTORY OF EMILY MONTAGUE.


Vol. III



LETTER 125.


To Colonel Rivers, at Montreal.

Quebec, April 17.

How different, my Rivers, is your last letter from all your Emily
has ever yet received from you! What have I done to deserve such
suspicions? How unjust are your sex in all their connexions with ours!

Do I not know love? and does this reproach come from the man on whom
my heart doats, the man, whom to make happy, I would with transport
cease to live? can you one moment doubt your Emily's tenderness? have
not her eyes, her air, her look, her indiscretion, a thousand times
told you, in spite of herself, the dear secret of her heart, long
before she was conscious of the tenderness of yours?

Did I think only of myself, I could live with you in a desart; all
places, all situations, are equally charming to me, with you: without
you, the whole world affords nothing which could give a moment's
pleasure to your Emily.

Let me but see those eyes in which the tenderest love is painted,
let me but hear that enchanting voice, I am insensible to all else, I
know nothing of what passes around me; all that has no relation to you
passes away like a morning dream, the impression of which is effaced in
a moment: my tenderness for you fills my whole soul, and leaves no room
for any other idea. Rank, fortune, my native country, my friends, all
are nothing in the balance with my Rivers.

For your own sake, I once more entreat you to return to England: I
will follow you; I will swear never to marry another; I will see you,
I will allow you to continue the tender inclination which unites us.
Fortune may there be more favorable to our wishes than we now hope;
may join us without destroying the peace of the best of parents.

But if you persist, if you will sacrifice every consideration to
your tenderness--My Rivers, I have no will but yours.



LETTER 126.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

London, Feb. 17.

My dear Bell,

Lucy, being deprived of the pleasure of writing to you, as she
intended, by Lady Anne Melville's dining with her, desires me to make
her apologies.

Allow me to say something for myself, and to share my joy with one
who will, I am sure, so very sincerely sympathize with me in it.

I could not have believed, my dear Bell, it had been so very easy a
thing to be constant: I declare, but don't mention this, lest I should
be laughed at, I have never felt the least inclination for any other
woman, since I married your lovely friend.

I now see a circle of beauties with the same indifference as a bed
of snowdrops: no charms affect me but hers; the whole creation to me
contains no other woman.

I find her every day, every hour, more lovely; there is in my Lucy a
mixture of modesty, delicacy, vivacity, innocence, and blushing
sensibility, which add a thousand unspeakable graces to the most
beautiful person the hand of nature ever formed.

There is no describing her enchanting smile, the smile of
unaffected, artless tenderness. How shall I paint to you the sweet
involuntary glow of pleasure, the kindling fire of her eyes, when I
approach; or those thousand little dear attentions of which love alone
knows the value?

I never, my dear girl, knew happiness till now; my tenderness is
absolutely a species of idolatry; you cannot think what a slave this
lovely girl has made me.

As a proof of this, the little tyrant insists on my omitting a
thousand civil things I had to say to you, and attending her and Lady
Anne immediately to the opera; she bids me however tell you, she loves
you _passing the love of woman_, at least of handsome women, who
are not generally celebrated for their candor and good will to each
other.

  Adieu, my dearest Bell!
      Yours,
          J. Temple.



LETTER 127.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Silleri, April 18.

Indeed?

  "Is this that haughty, gallant, gay Lothario,
  That dear perfidious--"

Absolutely, my dear Temple, the sex ought never to forgive Lucy for
daring to monopolize so very charming a fellow. I had some thoughts of
a little _badinage_ with you myself, if I should return soon to
England; but I now give up the very idea.

One thing I will, however, venture to say, that love Lucy as much as
you please, you will never love her half so well as she deserves;
which, let me tell you, is a great deal for one woman, especially, as
you well observe, one handsome woman, to say of another.

I am, however, not quite clear your idea is just: _cattism_, if
I may be allowed the expression, seeming more likely to be the vice of
those who are conscious of wanting themselves the dear power of
pleasing.

Handsome women ought to be, what I profess myself, who am however
only pretty, too vain to be envious; and yet we see, I am afraid, too
often, some little sparks of this mean passion between rival beauties.

Impartially speaking, I believe the best natured women, and the most
free from envy, are those who, without being very handsome, have that
_je ne sçai quoi_, those nameless graces, which please even without
beauty; and who therefore, finding more attention paid to them by men
than their looking-glass tells them they have a right to expect, are
for that reason in constant good humor with themselves, and of course
with every body else: whereas beauties, claiming universal empire, are
at war with all who dispute their rights; that is, with half the sex.

I am very good natured myself; but it is, perhaps, because, though a
pretty woman, I am more agreable than handsome, and have an infinity of
the _je ne sçai quoi_.

_A propos_, my dear Temple, I am so pleased with what
Montesquieu says on this subject, that I find it is not in my nature to
resist translating and inserting it; you cannot then say I have sent
you a letter in which there is nothing worth reading.

I beg you will read this to the misses, for which you cannot fail of
their thanks, and for this reason; there are perhaps a dozen women in
the world who do not think themselves handsome, but I will venture to
say, not one who does not think herself agreable, and that she has this
nameless charm, this so much talked of _I know not what_, which is
so much better than beauty. But to my Montesquieu:

"There is sometimes, both in persons and things, an invisible charm,
a natural grace, which we cannot define, and which we are therefore
obliged to call the _je ne sçai quoi_.

"It seems to me that this is an effect principally founded on
surprize.

"We are touched that a person pleases us more than she seemed at
first to have a right to do; and we are agreably surprized that she
should have known how to conquer those defects which our eyes shewed
us, but which our hearts no longer believe: 'tis for this reason that
women, who are not handsome, have often graces or agreablenesses and
that beautiful ones very seldom have.

"For a beautiful person does generally the very contrary of what we
expected; she appears to us by degrees less amiable, and, after having
surprized us pleasingly, she surprizes us in a contrary manner; but
the agreable impression is old, the disagreable one new: 'tis also
seldom that beauties inspire violent passions, which are almost always
reserved for those who have graces, that is to say, agreablenesses,
which we did not expect, and which we had no reason to expect.

"Magnificent habits have seldom grace, which the dresses of
shepherdesses often have.

"We admire the majesty of the draperies of Paul Veronese; but we are
touched with the simplicity of Raphael, and the exactness of Corregio.

"Paul Veronese promises much, and pays all he promises; Raphael and
Corregio promise little, and pay much, which pleases us more.

"These graces, these agreablenesses, are found oftener in the mind
than in the countenance: the charms of a beautiful countenance are
seldom hidden, they appear at first view; but the mind does not shew
itself except by degrees, when it pleases, and as much as it pleases;
it can conceal itself in order to appear, and give that species of
surprize to which those graces, of which I speak, owe their existence.

"This grace, this agreableness, is less in the countenance than in
the manner; the manner changes every instant, and can therefore every
moment give us the pleasure of surprize: in one word, a woman can be
handsome but in one way, but she may be agreable in a hundred
thousand."

I like this doctrine of Montesquieu's extremely, because it gives
every woman her chance, and because it ranks me above a thousand
handsomer women, in the dear power of inspiring passion.

Cruel creature! why did you give me the idea of flowers? I now envy
you your foggy climate: the earth with you is at this moment covered
with a thousand lovely children of the spring; with us, it is an
universal plain of snow.

Our beaux are terribly at a loss for similies: you have lilies of
the valley for comparisons; we nothing but what with the idea of
whiteness gives that of coldness too.

This is all the quarrel I have with Canada: the summer is delicious,
the winter pleasant with all its severities; but alas! the smiling
spring is not here; we pass from winter to summer in an instant, and
lose the sprightly season of the Loves.

A letter from the God of my idolatry--I must answer it instantly.

      Adieu! Yours, &c.
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 128.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Yes, I give permission; you may come this afternoon: there is
something amusing enough in your dear nonsense; and, as my father will
be at Quebec, I shall want amusement.

It will also furnish a little chat for the misses at Quebec; a
_tête à tête_ with a tall Irishman is a subject which cannot escape
their sagacity.

      Adieu! Yours,
          A. F.



LETTER 129.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, April 20.

After my immense letter to your love, my dear, you must not expect
me to say much to your fair ladyship.

I am glad to find you manage Temple so admirably; the wisest, the
wildest, the gravest, and the gayest, are equally our slaves, when we
have proper ideas of petticoat politics.

I intend to compose a code of laws for the government of husbands,
and get it translated into all the modern languages; which I apprehend
will be of infinite benefit to the world.

Do you know I am a greater fool than I imagined? You may remember I
was always extremely fond of sweet waters. I left them off lately, upon
an idea, though a mistaken one, that Fitzgerald did not like them: I
yesterday heard him say the contrary; and, without thinking of it, went
mechanically to my dressing-room, and put lavender water on my
handkerchief.

This is, I am afraid, rather a strong symptom of my being absurd;
however, I find it pleasant to be so, and therefore give way to it.

It is divinely warm to-day, though the snow is still on the ground;
it is melting fast however, which makes it impossible for me to get to
Quebec. I shall be confined for at least a week, and Emily not with me:
I die for amusement. Fitzgerald ventures still at the hazard of his own
neck and his horse's legs; for the latter of which animals I have so
much compassion, that I have ordered both to stay at home a few days,
which days I shall devote to study and contemplation, and little pert
chit-chats with papa, who is ten times more fretful at being kept
within doors than I am: I intend to win a little fortune of him at
piquet before the world breaks in upon our solitude. Adieu! I am idle,
but always

      Your faithful
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 130.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, April 20.

'Tis indeed, my Lord, an advantage for which we cannot be too
thankful to the Supreme Being, to be born in a country, whose religion
and laws are such, as would have been the objects of our wishes, had we
been born in any other.

Our religion, I would be understood to mean Christianity in general,
carries internal conviction by the excellency of its moral precepts,
and its tendency to make mankind happy; and the peculiar mode of it
established in England breathes beyond all others the mild spirit of
the Gospel, and that charity which embraces all mankind as brothers.

It is equally free from enthusiasm and superstition; its outward
form is decent and respectful, without affected ostentation; and what
shews its excellence above all others is, that every other church
allows it to be the best, except itself: and it is an established rule,
that he has an undoubted right to the first rank of merit, to whom
every man allows the second.

As to our government, it would be impertinent to praise it; all
mankind allow it to be the master-piece of human wisdom.

It has the advantage of every other form, with as little of their
inconveniences as the imperfection attendant on all human inventions
will admit: it has the monarchic quickness of execution and stability,
the aristocratic diffusive strength and wisdom of counsel, the
democratic freedom and equal distribution of property.

When I mention equal distribution of property, I would not be
understood to mean such an equality as never existed, nor can exist but
in idea; but that general, that comparative equality, which leaves to
every man the absolute and safe possession of the fruits of his labors;
which softens offensive distinctions, and curbs pride, by leaving
every order of men in some degree dependent on the other; and admits
of those gentle and almost imperceptible gradations, which the poet so
well calls,

  "Th' according music of a well-mix'd state."

The prince is here a centre of union; an advantage, the want of
which makes a democracy, which is so beautiful in theory, the very
worst of all possible governments, except absolute monarchy, in
practice.

I am called upon, my Lord, to go to the citadel, to see the going
away of the ice; an object so new to me, that I cannot resist the
curiosity I have to see it, though my going thither is attended with
infinite difficulty.

Bell insists on accompanying me: I am afraid for her, but she will
not be refused.

At our return, I will have the honor of writing again to your
Lordship, by the gentleman who carries this to New York.

  I have the honor to be, my Lord,
      Your Lordship's, &c.
          Wm. Fermor.



LETTER 131.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, April 20, Evening.

We are returned, my Lord, from having seen an object as beautiful
and magnificent in itself, as pleasing from the idea it gives of
renewing once more our intercourse with Europe.

Before I saw the breaking up of the vast body of ice, which forms
what is here called _the bridge_, from Quebec to Point Levi, I
imagined there could be nothing in it worth attention; that the ice
would pass away, or dissolve gradually, day after day, as the influence
of the sun, and warmth of the air and earth increased; and that we
should see the river open, without having observed by what degrees it
became so.

But I found _the great river_, as the savages with much
propriety call it, maintain its dignity in this instance as in all
others, and assert its superiority over those petty streams which we
honor with the names of rivers in England. Sublimity is the
characteristic of this western world; the loftiness of the mountains,
the grandeur of the lakes and rivers, the majesty of the rocks shaded
with a picturesque variety of beautiful trees and shrubs, and crowned
with the noblest of the offspring of the forest, which form the banks
of the latter, are as much beyond the power of fancy as that of
description: a landscape-painter might here expand his imagination,
and find ideas which he will seek in vain in our comparatively little
world.

The object of which I am speaking has all the American magnificence.

The ice before the town, or, to speak in the Canadian stile, _the
bridge_, being of a thickness not less than five feet, a league in
length, and more than a mile broad, resists for a long time the rapid
tide that attempts to force it from the banks.

We are prepared by many previous circumstances to expect something
extraordinary in this event, if I may so call it: every increase of
heat in the weather for near a month before the ice leaves the banks;
every warm day gives you terror for those you see venturing to pass it
in carrioles; yet one frosty night makes it again so strong, that even
the ladies, and the timid amongst them, still venture themselves over
in parties of pleasure; though greatly alarmed at their return, if a
few hours of uncommon warmth intervenes.

But, during the last fortnight, the alarm grows indeed a very
serious one: the eye can distinguish, even at a considerable distance,
that the ice is softened and detached from the banks; and you dread
every step being death to those who have still the temerity to pass it,
which they will continue always to do till one or more pay their
rashness with their lives.

From the time the ice is no longer a bridge on which you see crowds
driving with such vivacity on business or pleasure, every one is
looking eagerly for its breaking away, to remove the bar to the
continually wished and expected event, of the arrival of ships from
that world from whence we have seemed so long in a manner excluded.

The hour is come; I have been with a crowd of both sexes, and all
ranks, hailing the propitious moment: our situation, on the top of Cape
Diamond, gave us a prospect some leagues above and below the town;
above Cape Diamond the river was open, it was so below Point Levi, the
rapidity of the current having forced a passage for the water under the
transparent bridge, which for more than a league continued firm.

We stood waiting with all the eagerness of expectation; the tide
came rushing with an amazing impetuosity; the bridge seemed to shake,
yet resisted the force of the waters; the tide recoiled, it made a
pause, it stood still, it returned with redoubled fury, the immense
mass of ice gave way.

A vast plain appeared in motion; it advanced with solemn and
majestic pace: the points of land on the banks of the river for a few
moments stopped its progress; but the immense weight of so prodigious a
body, carried along by a rapid current, bore down all opposition with a
force irresistible.

There is no describing how beautiful the opening river appears,
every moment gaining on the sight, till, in a time less than can
possibly be imagined, the ice passing Point Levi, is hid in one moment
by the projecting land, and all is once more a clear plain before you;
giving at once the pleasing, but unconnected, ideas of that direct
intercourse with Europe from which we have been so many months
excluded, and of the earth's again opening her fertile bosom, to feast
our eyes and imagination with her various verdant and flowery
productions.

I am afraid I have conveyed a very inadequate idea of the scene
which has just passed before me; it however struck me so strongly, that
it was impossible for me not to attempt it.

If my painting has the least resemblance to the original, your
Lordship will agree with me, that the very vicissitudes of season here
partake of the sublimity which so strongly characterizes the country.

The changes of season in England, being slow and gradual, are but
faintly felt; but being here sudden, instant, violent, afford to the
mind, with the lively pleasure arising from meer change, the very high
additional one of its being accompanied with grandeur. I have the
honor to be,

    My Lord,
      Your Lordship's, &c.
          William Fermor.



LETTER 132.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

April 22.

Certainly, my dear, you are so far right; a nun may be in many
respects a less unhappy being than some women who continue in the
world; her situation is, I allow, paradise to that of a married woman,
of sensibility and honor, who dislikes her husband.

The cruelty therefore of some parents here, who sacrifice their
children to avarice, in forcing or seducing them into convents, would
appear more striking, if we did not see too many in England guilty of
the same inhumanity, though in a different manner, by marrying them
against their inclination.

Your letter reminds me of what a French married lady here said to me
on this very subject: I was exclaiming violently against convents; and
particularly urging, what I thought unanswerable, the extreme hardship
of one circumstance; that, however unhappy the state was found on
trial, there was no retreat; that it was _for life_.

Madame De ---- turned quick, "And is not marriage for life?"

"True, Madam; and, what is worse, without a year of probation. I
confess the force of your argument."

I have never dared since to mention convents before Madame De ----.

Between you and I, Lucy, it is a little unreasonable that people
will come together entirely upon sordid principles, and then wonder
they are not happy: in delicate minds, love is seldom the consequence
of marriage.

It is not absolutely certain that a marriage of which love is the
foundation will be happy; but it is infallible, I believe, that no
other can be so to souls capable of tenderness.

Half the world, you will please to observe, have no souls; at least
none but of the vegetable and animal kinds: to this species of beings,
love and sentiment are entirely unnecessary; they were made to travel
through life in a state of mind neither quite awake nor asleep; and it
is perfectly equal to them in what company they take the journey.

You and I, my dear, are something _awakened_; therefore it is
necessary we should love where we marry, and for this reason: our
souls, being of the active kind, can never be totally at rest;
therefore, if we were not to love our husbands, we should be in
dreadful danger of loving somebody else.

For my part, whatever tall maiden aunts and cousins may say of the
indecency of a young woman's distinguishing one man from another, and
of love coming after marriage; I think marrying, in that expectation,
on sober prudent principles, a man one dislikes, the most deliberate
and shameful degree of vice of which the human mind is capable.

I cannot help observing here, that the great aim of modern education
seems to be, to eradicate the best impulses of the human heart, love,
friendship, compassion, benevolence; to destroy the social, and
encrease the selfish principle. Parents wisely attempt to root out
those affections which should only be directed to proper objects, and
which heaven gave us as the means of happiness; not considering that
the success of such an attempt is doubtful; and that, if they succeed,
they take from life all its sweetness, and reduce it to a dull unactive
round of tasteless days, scarcely raised above vegetation.

If my ideas of things are right, the human mind is naturally
virtuous; the business of education is therefore less to give us good
impressions, which we have from nature, than to guard us against bad
ones, which are generally acquired.

And so ends my sermon.

    Adieu! my dear!
      Your faithful
          A. Fermor.


A letter from your brother; I believe the dear creature is out of
his wits: Emily has consented to marry him, and one would imagine by
his joy that nobody was ever married before.

He is going to Lake Champlain, to fix on his seat of empire, or
rather Emily's; for I see she will be the reigning queen, and he only
her majesty's consort.

I am going to Quebec; two or three dry days have made the roads
passable for summer carriages: Fitzgerald is come to fetch me. Adieu!

Eight o'clock.

I am come back, have seen Emily, who is the happiest woman existing;
she has heard from your brother, and in such terms--his letter
breathes the very soul of tenderness. I wish they were richer. I don't
half relish their settling in Canada; but, rather than not live
together, I believe they would consent to be set ashore on a desart
island. Good night.



LETTER 133.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, April 25.

The pleasure the mind finds in travelling, has undoubtedly, my Lord,
its source in that love of novelty, that delight in acquiring new
ideas, which is interwoven in its very frame, which shews itself on
every occasion from infancy to age, which is the first passion of the
human mind, and the last.

There is nothing the mind of man abhors so much as a state of rest:
the great secret of happiness is to keep the soul in continual action,
without those violent exertions, which wear out its powers, and dull
its capacity of enjoyment; it should have exercise, not labor.

Vice may justly be called the fever of the soul, inaction its
lethargy; passion, under the guidance of virtue, its health.

I have the pleasure to see my daughter's coquetry giving place to a
tender affection for a very worthy man, who seems formed to make her
happy: his fortune is easy; he is a gentleman, and a man of worth and
honor, and, what perhaps inclines me to be more partial to him, of my
own profession.

I mention the last circumstance in order to introduce a request,
that your Lordship would have the goodness to employ that interest for
him in the purchase of a majority, which you have so generously offered
to me; I am determined, as there is no prospect of real duty, to quit
the army, and retire to that quiet which is so pleasing at my time of
life: I am privately in treaty with a gentleman for my company, and
propose returning to England in the first ship, to give in my
resignation: in this point, as well as that of serving Mr. Fitzgerald,
I shall without scruple call upon your Lordship's friendship.

I have settled every thing with Fitzgerald, but without saying a
word to Bell; and he is to seduce her into matrimony as soon as he
can, without my appearing at all interested in the affair: he is to ask
my consent in form, though we have already settled every preliminary.

All this, as well as my intention of quitting the army, is yet a
secret to my daughter.

But to the questions your Lordship does me the honor to ask me in
regard to the Americans, I mean those of our old colonies: they appear
to me, from all I have heard and seen of them, a rough, ignorant,
positive, very selfish, yet hospitable people.

Strongly attached to their own opinions, but still more so to their
interests, in regard to which they have inconceivable sagacity and
address; but in all other respects I think naturally inferior to the
Europeans; as education does so much, it is however difficult to
ascertain this.

I am rather of opinion they would not have refused submission to the
stamp act, or disputed the power of the legislature at home, had not
their minds been first embittered by what touched their interests so
nearly, the restraints laid on their trade with the French and Spanish
settlements, a trade by which England was an immense gainer; and by
which only a few enormously rich West India planters were hurt.

Every advantage you give the North Americans in trade centers at
last in the mother country; they are the bees, who roam abroad for that
honey which enriches the paternal hive.

Taxing them immediately after their trade is restrained, seems like
drying up the source, and expecting the stream to flow.

Yet too much care cannot be taken to support the majesty of
government, and assert the dominion of the parent country.

A good mother will consult the interest and happiness of her
children, but will never suffer her authority to be disputed.

An equal mixture of mildness and spirit cannot fail of bringing
these mistaken people, misled by a few of violent temper and ambitious
views, into a just sense of their duty.

    I have the honor to be,
        My Lord, &c.
          William Fermor.



LETTER 134.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

May 5.

I have got my Emily again, to my great joy; I am nobody without her.
As the roads are already very good, we walk and ride perpetually, and
amuse ourselves as well as we can, _en attendant_ your brother,
who is gone a settlement hunting.

The quickness of vegetation in this country is astonishing; though
the hills are still covered with snow, and though it even continues in
spots in the vallies, the latter with the trees and shrubs in the woods
are already in beautiful verdure; and the earth every where putting
forth flowers in a wild and lovely variety and profusion.

'Tis amazingly pleasing to see the strawberries and wild pansies
peeping their little foolish heads from beneath the snow.

Emily and I are prodigiously fond after having been separated; it is
a divine relief to us both, to have again the delight of talking of our
lovers to each other: we have been a month divided; and neither of us
have had the consolation of a friend to be foolish to.

Fitzgerald dines with us: he comes.

      Adieu! yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 135.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, May 5.

My Lord,

I have been conversing, if the expression is not improper when I
have not had an opportunity of speaking a syllable, more than two hours
with a French officer, who has declaimed the whole time with the most
astonishing volubility, without uttering one word which could either
entertain or instruct his hearers; and even without starting any thing
that deserved the name of a thought.

People who have no ideas out of the common road are, I believe,
generally the greatest talkers, because all their thoughts are low
enough for common conversation; whereas those of more elevated
understandings have ideas which they cannot easily communicate except
to persons of equal capacity with themselves.

This might be brought as an argument of the inferiority of women's
understanding to ours, as they are generally greater talkers, if we did
not consider the limited and trifling educations we give them; men,
amongst other advantages, have that of acquiring a greater variety as
well as sublimity of ideas.

Women who have conversed much with men are undoubtedly in general
the most pleasing companions; but this only shews of what they are
capable when properly educated, since they improve so greatly by that
accidental and limited opportunity of acquiring knowledge.

Indeed the two sexes are equal gainers, by conversing with each
other: there is a mutual desire of pleasing, in a mixed conversation,
restrained by politeness, which sets every amiable quality in a
stronger light.

Bred in ignorance from one age to another, women can learn little of
their own sex.

I have often thought this the reason why officers daughters are in
general more agreable than other women in an equal rank of life.

I am almost tempted to bring Bell as an instance; but I know the
blindness and partiality of nature, and therefore check what paternal
tenderness would dictate.

I am shocked at what your Lordship tells me of Miss H----. I know her
imprudent, I believe her virtuous: a great flow of spirits has been
ever hurrying her into indiscretions; but allow me to say, my Lord, it
is particularly hard to fix the character by our conduct, at a time of
life when we are not competent judges of our own actions; and when the
hurry and vivacity of youth carries us to commit a thousand follies and
indiscretions, for which we blush when the empire of reason begins.

Inexperience and openness of temper betray us in early life into
improper connexions; and the very constancy, and nobleness of nature,
which characterize the best hearts, continue the delusion.

I know Miss H---- perfectly; and am convinced, if her father will
treat her as a friend, and with the indulgent tenderness of affection
endeavor to wean her from a choice so very unworthy of her, he will
infallibly succeed; but if he treats her with harshness, she is lost
for ever.

He is too stern in his behaviour, too rigid in his morals: it is the
interest of virtue to be represented as she is, lovely, smiling, and
ever walking hand in hand with pleasure: we were formed to be happy,
and to contribute to the happiness of our fellow creatures; there are
no real virtues but the social ones.

'Tis the enemy of human kind who has thrown around us the gloom of
superstition, and taught that austerity and voluntary misery are virtue.

If moralists would indeed improve human nature, they should endeavor
to expand, not to contract the heart; they should build their system on
the passions and affections, the only foundations of the nobler
virtues.

From the partial representations of narrow-minded bigots, who paint
the Deity from their own gloomy conceptions, the young are too often
frighted from the paths of virtue; despairing of ideal perfections,
they give up all virtue as unattainable, and start aside from the road
which they falsely suppose strewed with thorns.

I have studied the heart with some attention; and am convinced
every parent, who will take the pains to gain his children's friendship,
will for ever be the guide and arbiter of their conduct: I speak from a
happy experience.

Notwithstanding all my daughter says in gaiety of heart, she would
sooner even relinquish the man she loves, than offend a father in whom
she has always found the tenderest and most faithful of friends. I am
interrupted, and have only time to say, I have the honor to be,

      My Lord, &c.
          Wm. Fermor.



LETTER 136.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, May 13.

Madame Des Roches has just left us; she returns to-day to the
Kamaraskas: she came to take leave of us, and shewed a concern at
parting from Emily, which really affected me. She is a most amiable
woman; Emily and she were in tears at parting; yet I think my sweet
friend is not sorry for her return: she loves her, but yet cannot
absolutely forget she has been her rival, and is as well satisfied that
she leaves Quebec before your brother's arrival.

The weather is lovely; the earth is in all its verdure, the trees in
foliage, and no snow but on the sides of the mountains; we are looking
eagerly out for ships from dear England: I expect by them volumes of
letters from my Lucy. We expect your brother in a week: in short, we
are all hope and expectation; our hearts beat at every rap of the door,
supposing it brings intelligence of a ship, or of the dear man.

Fitzgerald takes such amazing pains to please me, that I begin to
think it is pity so much attention should be thrown away; and am half
inclined, from meer compassion, to follow the example you have so
heroically set me.

Absolutely, Lucy, it requires amazing resolution to marry.

      Adieu! yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 137.


To Colonel Rivers, at Montreal.

Silleri, May 14.

I am returned, my Rivers, to my sweet friend, and have again the
dear delight of talking of you without restraint; she bears with, she
indulges me in, all my weakness; if that name ought to be given to a
tenderness of which the object is the most exalted and worthy of his
sex.

It was impossible I should not have loved you; the soul that spoke
in those eloquent eyes told me, the first moment we met, our hearts
were formed for each other; I saw in that amiable countenance a
sensibility similar to my own, but which I had till then sought in
vain; I saw there those benevolent smiles, which are the marks, and
the emanations of virtue; those thousand graces which ever accompany a
mind conscious of its own dignity, and satisfied with itself; in short,
that mental beauty which is the express image of the Deity.

What defence had I against you, my Rivers, since your merit was such
that my reason approved the weakness of my heart?

We have lost Madame Des Roches; we were both in tears at parting; we
embraced, I pressed her to my bosom: I love her, my dear Rivers; I have
an affection for her which I scarce know how to describe. I saw her
every day, I found infinite pleasure in being with her; she talked of
you, she praised you, and my heart was soothed; I however found it
impossible to mention your name to her; a reserve for which I cannot
account; I found pleasure in looking at her from the idea that she was
dear to you, that she felt for you the tenderest friendship: do you
know I think she has some resemblance of you? there is something in her
smile, which gives me an idea of you.

Shall I, however, own all my folly? I never found this pleasure in
seeing her when you were present: on the contrary, your attention to
her gave me pain: I was jealous of every look; I even saw her amiable
qualities with a degree of envy, which checked the pleasure I should
otherwise have found in her conversation.

There is always, I fear, some injustice mixed with love, at least
with love so ardent and tender as mine.

You, my Rivers, will however pardon that injustice which is a proof
of my excess of tenderness.

Madame Des Roches has promised to write to me: indeed I will love
her; I will conquer this little remain of jealousy, and do justice to
the most gentle and amiable of women.

Why should I dislike her for seeing you with my eyes, for having a
soul whose feelings resemble my own?

I have observed her voice is softened, and trembles like mine, when
she names you.

My Rivers, you were formed to charm the heart of woman; there is
more pleasure in loving you, even without the hope of a return, than in
the adoration of all your sex: I pity every woman who is so insensible
as to see you without tenderness. This is the only fault I ever found
in Bell Fermor: she has the most lively friendship for you, but she has
seen you without love. Of what materials must her heart be composed?

No other man can inspire the same sentiments with my Rivers; no
other man can deserve them: the delight of loving you appears to me so
superior to all other pleasures, that, of all human beings, if I was
not Emily Montague, I would be Madame Des Roches.

I blush for what I have written; yet why blush for having a soul to
distinguish perfection, or why conceal the real feelings of my heart?

I will never hide a thought from you; you shall be at once the
confidant and the dear object of my tenderness.

In what words--my Rivers, you rule every emotion of my heart;
dispose as you please of your Emily: yet, if you allow her to form a
wish in opposition to yours, indulge her in the transport of returning
you to your friends; let her receive you from the hands of a mother,
whose happiness you ought to prefer even to hers.

Why will you talk of the mediocrity of your fortune? have you not
enough for every real want? much less, with you, would make your Emily
blest: what have the trappings of life to do with happiness? 'tis only
sacrificing pride to love and filial tenderness; the worst of human
passions to the best.

I have a thousand things to say, but am forced to steal this moment
to write to you: we have some French ladies here, who are eternally
coming to my apartment.

They are at the door. Adieu!

      Yours,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 138.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, May 12.

It were indeed, my Lord, to be wished that we had here schools, at
the expence of the public, to teach English to the rising generation:
nothing is a stronger tie of brotherhood and affection, a greater
cement of union, than speaking one common language.

The want of attention to this circumstance has, I am told, had the
worst effects possible in the province of New York, where the people,
especially at a distance from the capital, continuing to speak Dutch,
retain their affection for their ancient masters, and still look on
their English fellow subjects as strangers and intruders.

The Canadians are the more easily to be won to this, or whatever
else their own, or the general good requires, as their noblesse have
the strongest attachment to a court, and that favor is the great object
of their ambition: were English made by degrees the court language, it
would soon be universally spoke.

Of the three great springs of the human heart, interest, pleasure,
vanity, the last appears to me much the strongest in the Canadians; and
I am convinced the most forcible tie their noblesse have to France, is
their unwillingness to part with their croix de St. Louis: might not
therefore some order of the same kind be instituted for Canada, and
given to all who have the croix, on their sending back the ensigns
they now wear, which are inconsistent with their allegiance as British
subjects?

Might not such an order be contrived, to be given at the discretion
of the governor, as well to the Canadian gentlemen who merited most of
the government, as to the English officers of a certain rank, and such
other English as purchased estates, and settled in the country? and, to
give it additional lustre, the governor, for the time being, be always
head of the order?

'Tis possible something of the same kind all over America might be
also of service; the passions of mankind are nearly the same every
where: at least I never yet saw the soil or climate, where vanity did
not grow; and till all mankind become philosophers, it is by their
passions they must be governed.

The common people, by whom I mean the peasantry, have been great
gainers here by the change of masters; their property is more secure,
their independence greater, their profits much more than doubled: it is
not them therefore whom it is necessary to gain.

The noblesse, on the contrary, have been in a great degree undone:
they have lost their employs, their rank, their consideration, and many
of them their fortunes.

It is therefore equally consonant to good policy and to humanity
that they should be considered, and in the way most acceptable to them;
the rich conciliated by little honorary distinctions, those who are
otherwise by sharing in all lucrative employs; and all of them by
bearing a part in the legislature of their country.

The great objects here seem to be to heal those wounds, which past
unhappy disputes have left still in some degree open; to unite the
French and English, the civil and military, in one firm body; to raise
a revenue, to encourage agriculture, and especially the growth of hemp
and flax; and find a staple, for the improvement of a commerce, which
at present labors under a thousand disadvantages.

But I shall say little on this or any political subject relating to
Canada, for a reason which, whilst I am in this colony, it would look
like flattery to give: let it suffice to say, that, humanly speaking,
it is impossible that the inhabitants of this province should be
otherwise than happy.

    I have the honor to be,
        My Lord, &c.
          William Fermor.



LETTER 139.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, May 20.

I confess the fact, my dear; I am, thanks to papa, amazingly
learned, and all that, for a young lady of twenty-two: yet you will
allow I am not the worse; no creature breathing would ever find it out:
envy itself must confess, I talk of lace and blond like another
christian woman.

I have been thinking, Lucy, as indeed my ideas are generally a
little pindaric, how entertaining and improving would be the history of
the human heart, if people spoke all the truth, and painted themselves
as they really are: that is to say, if all the world were as sincere
and honest as I am; for, upon my word, I have such a contempt for
hypocrisy, that, upon the whole, I have always appeared to have fewer
good qualities than I really have.

I am afraid we should find in the best characters, if we withdrew
the veil, a mixture of errors and inconsistencies, which would greatly
lessen our veneration.

Papa has been reading me a wise lecture, this morning, on playing
the fool: I reminded him, that I was now arrived at years of
_indiscretion_; that every body must have their day; and that those
who did not play the fool young, ran a hazard of doing it when it would
not half so well become them.

_A propos_ to playing the fool, I am strongly inclined to
believe I shall marry.

Fitzgerald is so astonishingly pressing--Besides, some how or
other, I don't feel happy without him: the creature has something of a
magnetic virtue; I find myself generally, without knowing it, on the
same side the room with him, and often in the next chair; and lay a
thousand little schemes to be of the same party at cards.

I write pretty sentiments in my pocket-book, and carve his name on
trees when nobody sees me: did you think it possible I could be such an
ideot?

I am as absurd as even the gentle love-sick Emily.

I am thinking, my dear, how happy it is, since most human beings
differ so extremely one from another, that heaven has given us the same
variety in our tastes.

Your brother is a divine fellow, and yet there is a sauciness about
Fitzgerald which pleases me better; as he has told me a thousand
times, he thinks me infinitely more agreable than Emily.

Adieu! I am going to Quebec.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 140.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

May 20, Evening.

_Io triumphe!_ A ship from England! You can have no idea of
the universal transport at the sight; the whole town was on the beach,
eagerly gazing at the charming stranger, who danced gaily on the waves,
as if conscious of the pleasure she inspired.

If our joy is so great, who preserve a correspondence with Europe,
through our other colonies, during the winter, what must that of the
French have been, who were absolutely shut up six months from the rest
of the world?

I can scarce conceive a higher delight than they must have felt at
being thus restored to a communication with mankind.

The letters are not delivered; our servant stays for them at the
post-office; we expect him every moment: if I have not volumes from
you, I shall be very angry.

He comes. Adieu! I have not patience to wait their being brought up
stairs.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.

They are here; six letters from you; I shall give three of them to
Emily to read, whilst I read the rest: you are very good, Lucy, and I
will never call you lazy again.



LETTER 141.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Pall Mall, April 8.

Whilst I was sealing my letter, I received yours of the 1st of
February.

I am excessively alarmed, my dear, at the account it gives me of
Miss Montague's having broke with her lover, and of my brother's
extreme affection for her.

I did not dare to let my mother see that letter, as I am convinced
the very idea of a marriage which must for ever separate her from a son
she loves to idolatry, would be fatal to her; she is altered since his
leaving England more than you can imagine; she is grown pale and thin,
her vivacity has entirely left her. Even my marriage scarce seemed to
give her pleasure; yet such is her delicacy, her ardor for his
happiness, she will not suffer me to say this to him, lest it should
constrain him, and prevent his making himself happy in his own way. I
often find her in tears in her apartment; she affects a smile when she
sees me, but it is a smile which cannot deceive one who knows her whole
soul as I do. In short, I am convinced she will not live long unless my
brother returns. She never names him without being softened to a
degree not to be expressed.

Amiable and lovely as you represent this charming woman, and great
as the sacrifice is she has made to my brother, it seems almost cruelty
to wish to break his attachment to her; yet, situated as they are, what
can be the consequence of their indulging their tenderness at present,
but ruin to both?

At all events, however, my dear, I intreat, I conjure you, to press
my brother's immediate return to England; I am convinced, my mother's
life depends on seeing him.

I have often been tempted to write to Miss Montague, to use her
influence with him even against herself.

If she loves him, she will have his true happiness at heart; she
will consider what a mind like his must hereafter suffer, should his
fondness for her be fatal to the best of mothers; she will urge, she
will oblige him to return, and make this step the condition of
preserving her tenderness.

Read this letter to her; and tell her, it is to her affection for my
brother, to her generosity, I trust for the life of a parent who is
dearer to me than my existence.

Tell her my heart is hers, that I will receive her as my guardian
angel, that we will never part, that we will be friends, that we will
be sisters, that I will omit nothing possible to make her happy with my
brother in England, and that I have very rational hopes it may be in
time accomplished; but that, if she marries him in Canada, and suffers
him to pursue his present design, she plants a dagger in the bosom of
her who gave him life.

I scarce know what I would say, my dear Bell; but I am wretched; I
have no hope but in you. Yet if Emily is all you represent her--

I am obliged to break off: my mother is here; she must not see this
letter.

      Adieu! your affectionate
          Lucy Temple.



LETTER 142.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, May 21.

Your letter of the 8th of April, my dear, was first read by Emily,
being one of the three I gave her for that purpose, as I before
mentioned.

She went through it, and melting into tears, left the room without
speaking a word: she has been writing this morning, and I fancy to you,
for she enquired when the mail set out for England, and seemed pleased
to hear it went to-day.

I am excessively shocked at your account of Mrs. Rivers: assure her,
in my name, of your brother's immediate return; I know both him and
Emily too well to believe they will sacrifice her to their own
happiness: there is nothing, on the contrary, they will not suffer
rather than even afflict her.

Do not, however, encourage an idea of ever breaking an attachment
like theirs; an attachment founded less in passion than in the
tenderest friendship, in a similarity of character, and a sympathy the
most perfect the world ever saw.

Let it be your business, my Lucy, to endeavor to make them happy,
and to remove the bars which prevent their union in England; and depend
on seeing them there the very moment their coming is possible.

From what I know of your brother, I suppose he will insist on
marrying Emily before he leaves Quebec; but, after your letter, which
I shall send him, you may look on his return as infallible.

I send all yours and Temple's letters for your brother to-day: you
may expect to hear from him by the same mail with this.

      I have only to say, I am,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 143.


To Colonel Rivers, at Quebec.

London, April 8.

My own happiness, my dear Rivers, in a marriage of love, makes me
extremely unwilling to prevent your giving way to a tenderness, which
promises you the same felicity, with so amiable a woman as both you
and Bell Fermor represent Miss Montague to be.

But, my dear Ned, I cannot, without betraying your friendship, and
hazarding all the quiet of your future days, dispense with myself from
telling you, though I have her express commands to the contrary, that
the peace, perhaps the life, of your excellent mother, depends on your
giving up all thoughts of a settlement in America, and returning
immediately to England.

I know the present state of your affairs will not allow you to marry
this charming woman here, without descending from the situation you
have ever held, and which you have a right from your birth to hold, in
the world.

Would you allow me to gratify my friendship for you, and shew, at
the same time, your perfect esteem for me, by commanding, what our
long affection gives you a right to, such a part of my fortune as I
could easily spare without the least inconvenience to myself, we might
all be happy, and you might make your Emily so: but you have already
convinced me, by your refusal of a former request of this kind, that
your esteem for me is much less warm than mine for you; and that you do
not think I merit the delight of making you happy.

I will therefore say no more on this subject till we meet, than that
I have no doubt this letter will bring you immediately to us.

If the tenderness you express for Miss Montague is yet conquerable,
it will surely be better for both it should be conquered, as fortune
has been so much less kind to each of you than nature; but if your
hearts are immoveably fixed on each other, if your love is of the kind
which despises every other consideration, return to the bosom of
friendship, and depend on our finding some way to make you happy.

If you persist in refusing to share my fortune, you can have no
objection to my using all my interest, for a friend and brother so
deservedly dear to me, and in whose happiness I shall ever find my own.

Allow me now to speak of myself; I mean of my dearer self, your
amiable sister, for whom my tenderness, instead of decreasing, grows
every moment stronger.

Yes, my friend, my sweet Lucy is every hour more an angel: her
desire of being beloved, renders her a thousand times more lovely; a
countenance animated by true tenderness will always charm beyond all
the dead uninformed features the hand of nature ever framed; love
embellishes the whole form, gives spirit and softness to the eyes, the
most vivid bloom to the complexion, dignity to the air, grace to every
motion, and throws round beauty almost the rays of divinity.

In one word, my Lucy was always more lovely than any other woman;
she is now more lovely than even her former self.

You, my Rivers, will forgive the over-flowings of my fondness,
because you know the merit of its object.

Adieu! We die to embrace you!

      Your faithful
          J. Temple.



LETTER 144.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, May 21.

Your letter, Madam, to Miss Fermor, which, by an accident, was first
read by me, has removed the veil which love had placed before mine
eyes, and shewed me, in one moment, the folly of all those dear hopes I
had indulged.

You do me but justice in believing me incapable of suffering your
brother to sacrifice the peace, much less the life, of an amiable
mother, to my happiness: I have no doubt of his returning to England
the moment he receives your letters; but, knowing his tenderness, I
will not expose him to a struggle on this occasion: I will myself,
unknown to him, as he is fortunately absent, embark in a ship which has
wintered here, and will leave Quebec in ten days.

Your invitation is very obliging; but a moment's reflection will
convince you of the extreme impropriety of my accepting it.

Assure Mrs. Rivers, that her son will not lose a moment, that he
will probably be with her as soon as this letter; assure her also, that
the woman who has kept him from her, can never forgive herself for what
she suffers.

I am too much afflicted to say more than that

      I am, Madam,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 145.


To Miss Montague, at Silleri.

Montreal, May 20.

It is with a pleasure no words can express I tell my sweet Emily, I
have fixed on a situation which promises every advantage we can wish as
to profit, and which has every beauty that nature can give.

The land is rich, and the wood will more than pay the expence of
clearing it; there is a settlement within a few leagues, on which there
is an extreme agreable family: a number of Acadians have applied to me
to be received as settlers: in short, my dear angel, all seems to smile
on our design.

I have spent some days at the house of a German officer, lately in
our service, who is engaged in the same design, but a little advanced
in it. I have seen him increasing every hour his little domain, by
clearing the lands; he has built a pretty house in a beautiful rustic
style: I have seen his pleasing labors with inconceivable delight. I
already fancy my own settlement advancing in beauty: I paint to myself
my Emily adorning those lovely shades; I see her, like the mother of
mankind, admiring a new creation which smiles around her: we appear, to
my idea, like the first pair in paradise.

I hope to be with you the 1st of June: will you allow me to set down
the 2d as the day which is to assure to me a life of happiness?

My Acadians, your new subjects, are waiting in the next room to
speak with me.

All good angels guard my Emily.

      Adieu! your
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 146.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, May 24.

Emily has wrote to you, and appears more composed; she does not
however tell me what she has resolved; she has only mentioned a design
of spending a week at Quebec. I suppose she will take no resolution
till your brother comes down: he cannot be here in less than ten days.

She has heard from him, and he has fixed on a settlement: depend
however on his return to England, even if it is not to stay. I wish he
could prevail on Mrs. Rivers to accompany him back. The advantages of
his design are too great to lose; the voyage is nothing; the climate
healthy beyond all conception.

I fancy he will marry as soon as he comes down from Montreal, set
off in the first ship for England, leave Emily with me, and return to
us next year: at least, this is the plan my heart has formed.

I wish Mrs. Rivers had born his absence better; her impatience to
see him has broken in on all our schemes; Emily and I had in fancy
formed a little Eden on Lake Champlain: Fitzgerald had promised me to
apply for lands near them; we should have been so happy in our little
new world of friendship.

There is nothing certain in this vile state of existence: I could
philosophize extremely well this morning.

All our little plans of amusement too for this summer are now at an
end; your brother was the soul of all our parties. This is a trifle,
but my mind to-day seeks for every subject of chagrin.

Let but my Emily be happy, and I will not complain, even if I lose
her: I have a thousand fears, a thousand uneasy reflections: if you
knew her merit, you would not wish to break the attachment.

My sweet Emily is going this morning to Quebec; I have promised to
accompany her, and she now waits for me.

I cannot write: I have a heaviness about my heart, which has never
left me since I read your letter. 'Tis the only disagreable one I ever
received from my dear Lucy: I am not sure I love you so well as before
I saw this letter. There is something unfeeling in the style of it,
which I did not expect from you.

      Adieu! your faithful
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 147.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, May 25.

I am unhappy beyond all words; my sweet Emily is gone to England;
the ship sailed this morning: I am just returned from the beach, after
conducting her on board.

I used every art, every persuasion, in the power of friendship, to
prevent her going till your brother came down; but all I said was in
vain. She told me, she knew too well her own weakness to hazard seeing
him; that she also knew his tenderness, and was resolved to spare him
the struggle between his affection and his duty; that she was
determined never to marry him but with the consent of his mother; that
their meeting at Quebec, situated as they were, could only be the
source of unhappiness to both; that her heart doated on him, but that
she would never be the cause of his acting in a manner unworthy his
character: that she would see his family the moment she got to London,
and then retire to the house of a relation in Berkshire, where she
would wait for his arrival.

That she had given you her promise, which nothing should make her
break, to embark in the first ship for England.

She expressed no fears for herself as to the voyage, but trembled at
the idea of her Rivers's danger.

She sat down several times yesterday to write to him, but her tears
prevented her: she at last assumed courage enough to tell him her
design; but it was in such terms as convinced me she could not have
pursued it, had he been here.

She went to the ship with an appearance of calmness that astonished
me; but the moment she entered, all her resolution forsook her: she
retired with me to her room, where she gave way to all the agony of her
soul.

The word was given to sail; I was summoned away; she rose hastily,
she pressed me to her bosom, "Tell him, said she, his Emily"--she
could say no more.

Never in my life did I feel any sorrow equal to this separation.
Love her, my Lucy; you can never have half the tenderness for her she
merits.

She stood on the deck till the ship turned Point Levi, her eyes
fixed passionately on our boat.

Twelve o'clock.

I have this moment a letter from your brother to Emily, which she
directed me to open, and send to her; I inclose it to you, as the
safest way of conveyance: there is one in it from Temple to him, on the
same subject with yours to me.

Adieu! I will write again when my mind is more composed.

      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 148.


To Miss Montague, at Silleri.

Montreal, May 28.

It was my wish, my hope, my noblest ambition, my dear Emily, to see
you in a situation worthy of you; my sanguine temper flattered me with
the idea of seeing this wish accomplished in Canada, though fortune
denied it me in England.

The letter which I inclose has put an end to those fond delusive
hopes: I must return immediately to England; did not my own heart
dictate this step, I know too well the goodness of yours, to expect the
continuance of your esteem, were I capable of purchasing happiness,
even the happiness of calling you mine, at the expence of my mother's
life, or even of her quiet.

I must now submit to see my Emily in an humbler situation; to see
her want those pleasures, those advantages, those honors, which fortune
gives, and which she has so nobly sacrificed to true delicacy of mind,
and, if I do not flatter myself, to her generous and disinterested
affection for me.

Be assured, my dearest angel, the inconveniencies attendant on a
narrow fortune, the only one I have to offer, shall be softened by all
which the most lively esteem, the most perfect friendship, the
tenderest love, can inspire; by that attention, that unwearied
solicitude to please, of which the heart alone knows the value.

Fortune has no power over minds like ours; we possess a treasure to
which all she has to give is nothing, the dear exquisite delight of
loving, and of being beloved.

Awake to all the finer feelings of tender esteem and elegant desire,
we have every real good in each other.

I shall hurry down, the moment I have settled my affairs here; and
hope soon to have the transport of presenting the most charming of
friends, of mistresses, allow me to add, of wives, to a mother whom I
love and revere beyond words, and to whom she will soon be dearer than
myself.

My going to England will detain me at Montreal a few days longer
than I intended; a delay I can very ill support.

Adieu! my Emily! no language can express my tenderness or my
impatience.

      Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 149.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Montreal, May 28.

I cannot enough, my dear Temple, thank you for your last, though it
destroys my air-built scheme of happiness.

Could I have supposed my mother would thus severely have felt my
absence, I had never left England; to make her easier, was my only
motive for that step.

I with pleasure sacrifice my design of settling here to her peace of
mind; no consideration, however, shall ever make me give up that of
marrying the best and most charming of women.

I could have wished to have had a fortune worthy of her; this was my
wish, not that of my Emily; she will with equal pleasure share with me
poverty or riches: I hope her consent to marry me before I leave
Canada. I know the advantages of affluence, my dear Temple, and am too
reasonable to despise them; I would only avoid rating them above their
worth.

Riches undoubtedly purchase a variety of pleasures which are not
otherwise to be obtained; they give power, they give honors, they give
consequence; but if, to enjoy these subordinate goods, we must give up
those which are more essential, more real, more suited to our natures,
I can never hesitate one moment to determine between them.

I know nothing fortune has to bestow, which can equal the transport
of being dear to the most amiable, most lovely of womankind.

The stream of life, my dear Temple, stagnates without the gentle
gale of love; till I knew my Emily, till the dear moment which assured
me of her tenderness, I could scarce be said to live.

      Adieu! Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 150.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, June 1.

I can write, I can talk, of nothing but Emily; I never knew how much
I loved her till she was gone: I run eagerly to every place where we
have been together; every spot reminds me of her; I remember a
thousand conversations, endeared by confidence and affection: a tender
tear starts in spite of me: our walks, our airings, our pleasing little
parties, all rush at once on my memory: I see the same lovely scenes
around me, but they have lost half their power of pleasing.

I visit every grove, every thicket, that she loved; I have a
redoubled fondness for every object in which she took pleasure.

Fitzgerald indulges me in this enthusiasm of friendship; he leads me
to every place which can recall my Emily's idea; he speaks of her with
a warmth which shews the sensibility and goodness of his own heart; he
endeavors to soothe me by the most endearing attention.

What infinite pleasure, my dear Lucy, there is in being truly
beloved! Fond as I have ever been of general admiration, that of all
mankind is nothing to the least mark of Fitzgerald's tenderness.

Adieu! it will be some days before I can send this letter.

June 4.

The governor gives a ball in honor of the day; I am dressing to go,
but without my sweet companion: every hour I feel more sensibly her
absence.

5th.

We had last night, during the ball, the most dreadful storm I ever
heard; it seemed to shake the whole habitable globe.

Heaven preserve my Emily from its fury: I have a thousand fears on
her account.

Twelve o'clock.

Your brother is arrived; he has been here about an hour: he flew to
Silleri, without going at all to Quebec; he enquired for Emily; he
would not believe she was gone.

There is no expressing how much he was shocked when convinced she
had taken this voyage without him; he would have followed her in an
open boat, in hopes of overtaking her at Coudre, if my father had not
detained him almost by force, and at last convinced him of the
impossibility of overtaking her, as the winds, having been constantly
fair, must before this have carried them out of the river.

He has sent his servant to Quebec, with orders to take passage for
him in the first ship that sails; his impatience is not to be
described.

He came down in the hope of marrying her here, and conducting her
himself to England; he forms to himself a thousand dangers to her,
which he fondly fancies his presence could have averted: in short, he
has all the unreasonableness of a man in love.

I propose sending this, and a large packet more, by your brother,
unless some unexpected opportunity offers before.

    Adieu! my dear!
      Yours,
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 151.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

6th.

Your brother has taken his passage in a very fine ship, which will
sail the 10th; you may expect him every hour after you receive this;
which I send, with what I wrote yesterday, by a small vessel which
sails a week sooner then was intended.

Rivers persuades Fitzgerald to apply for the lands which he had
fixed upon on Lake Champlain, as he has no thoughts of ever returning
hither.

I will prevent this, however, if I have any influence: I cannot
think with patience of continuing in America, when my two amiable
friends have left it; I had no motive for wishing a settlement here,
but to form a little society of friends, of which they made the
principal part.

Besides, the spirit of emulation would have kept up my courage, and
given fire and brilliancy to my fancy.

Emily and I should have been trying who had the most lively genius
at creation; who could have produced the fairest flowers; who have
formed the woods and rocks into the most beautiful arbors, vistoes,
grottoes; have taught the streams to flow in the most pleasing
meanders; have brought into view the greatest number and variety of
those lovely little falls of water with which this fairy land abounds;
and shewed nature in the fairest form.

In short, we should have been continually endeavoring, following the
luxuriancy of female imagination, to render more charming the sweet
abodes of love and friendship; whilst our heroes, changing their
swords into plough-shares, and engaged in more substantial, more
profitable labors, were clearing land, raising cattle and corn, and
doing every thing becoming good farmers; or, to express it more
poetically,

  "Taming the genius of the stubborn plain,
  Almost as quickly as they conquer'd Spain:"

By which I would be understood to mean the Havannah, where, vanity
apart, I am told both of them did their duty, and a little more, if a
man can in such a case be said to do more.

In one word, they would have been studying the useful, to support
us; we the agreable, to please and amuse them; which I take to be
assigning to the two sexes the employments for which nature intended
them, notwithstanding the vile example of the savages to the contrary.

There are now no farmeresses in Canada worth my contending with;
therefore the whole pleasure of the thing would be at an end, even on
the supposition that friendship had not been the soul of our design.

Say every thing for me to Temple and Mrs. Rivers; and to my dearest
Emily, if arrived.

      Adieu! your faithful
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 152.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, June 6, 1767.

It is very true, my Lord, that the Jesuit missionaries still
continue in the Indian villages in Canada; and I am afraid it is no
less true, that they use every art to instill into those people an
aversion to the English; at least I have been told this by the Indians
themselves, who seem equally surprized and piqued that we do not send
missionaries amongst them.

Their ideas of christianity are extremely circumscribed, and they
give no preference to one mode of our faith above another; they regard
a missionary of any nation as a kind father, who comes to instruct them
in the best way of worshiping the Deity, whom they suppose more
propitious to the Europeans than to themselves; and as an ambassador
from the prince whose subject he is: they therefore think it a mark of
honor, and a proof of esteem, to receive missionaries; and to our
remissness, and the French wise attention on this head, is owing the
extreme attachment the greater part of the savage nations have ever had
to the latter.

The French missionaries, by studying their language, their manners,
their tempers, their dispositions; by conforming to their way of life,
and using every art to gain their esteem, have acquired an influence
over them which is scarce to be conceived; nor would it be difficult
for ours to do the same, were they judiciously chose, and properly
encouraged.

I believe I have said, that there is a striking resemblance between
the manners of the Canadians and the savages; I should have explained
it, by adding, that this resemblance has been brought about, not by the
French having won the savages to receive European manners, but by the
very contrary; the peasants having acquired the savage indolence in
peace, their activity and ferocity in war; their fondness for field
sports, their hatred of labor; their love of a wandering life, and of
liberty; in the latter of which they have been in some degree indulged,
the laws here being much milder, and more favorable to the people, than
in France.

Many of the officers also, and those of rank in the colony troops,
have been adopted into the savage tribes; and there is stronger
evidence than, for the honor of humanity, I would wish there was, that
some of them have led the death dance at the execution of English
captives, have even partook the horrid repast, and imitated them in all
their cruelties; cruelties, which to the eternal disgrace, not only of
our holy religion, but even of our nature, these poor people, whose
ignorance is their excuse, have been instigated to, both by the French
and English colonies, who, with a fury truly diabolical, have offered
rewards to those who brought in the scalps of their enemies. Rousseau
has taken great pains to prove that the most uncultivated nations are
the most virtuous: I have all due respect for this philosopher, of
whose writings I am an enthusiastic admirer; but I have a still greater
respect for truth, which I believe is not in this instance on his side.

There is little reason to boast of the virtues of a people, who are
such brutal slaves to their appetites as to be unable to avoid
drinking brandy to an excess scarce to be conceived, whenever it falls
in their way, though eternally lamenting the murders and other
atrocious crimes of which they are so perpetually guilty when under its
influence.

It is unjust to say we have corrupted them, that we have taught them
a vice to which we are ourselves not addicted; both French and English
are in general sober: we have indeed given them the means of
intoxication, which they had not before their intercourse with us; but
he must be indeed fond of praising them, who makes a virtue of their
having been sober, when water was the only liquor with which they were
acquainted.

From all that I have observed, and heard of these people, it appears
to me an undoubted fact, that the most civilized Indian nations are
the most virtuous; a fact which makes directly against Rousseau's ideal
system.

Indeed all systems make against, instead of leading to, the
discovery of truth.

Pere Lafitau has, for this reason, in his very learned comparison of
the manners of the savages with those of the first ages, given a very
imperfect account of Indian manners; he is even so candid as to own, he
tells you nothing but what makes for the system he is endeavoring to
establish.

My wish, on the contrary, is not to make truth subservient to any
favorite sentiment or idea, any child of my fancy; but to discover it,
whether agreable or not to my own opinion.

My accounts may therefore be false or imperfect from mistake or
misinformation, but will never be designedly warped from truth.

That the savages have virtues, candor must own; but only a love of
paradox can make any man assert they have more than polished nations.

Your Lordship asks me what is the general moral character of the
Canadians; they are simple and hospitable, yet extremely attentive to
interest, where it does not interfere with that laziness which is their
governing passion.

They are rather devout than virtuous; have religion without
morality, and a sense of honor without very strict honesty.

Indeed I believe wherever superstition reigns, the moral sense is
greatly weakened; the strongest inducement to the practice of morality
is removed, when people are brought to believe that a few outward
ceremonies will compensate for the want of virtue.

I myself heard a man, who had raised a large fortune by very
indirect means, confess his life had been contrary to every precept of
the Gospel; but that he hoped the pardon of Heaven for all his sins, as
he intended to devote one of his daughters to a conventual life as an
expiation.

This way of being virtuous by proxy, is certainly very easy and
convenient to such sinners as have children to sacrifice.

By Colonel Rivers, who leaves us in a few days, I intend myself the
honor of addressing your Lordship again.

  I have the honor to be
      Your Lordship's, &c.
          Wm. Fermor.



LETTER 153.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, June 9.

Your Lordship will receive this from the hands of one of the most
worthy and amiable men I ever knew, Colonel Rivers, whom I am
particularly happy in having the honor to introduce to your Lordship,
as I know your delicacy in the choice of friends, and that there are so
few who have your perfect esteem and confidence, that the acquaintance
of one who merits both, at his time of life, will be regarded, even by
your Lordship, as an acquisition.

'Tis to him I shall say the advantage I procure him, by making him
known to a nobleman, who, with the wisdom and experience of age, has
all the warmth of heart, the generosity, the noble confidence, the
enthusiasm, the fire, and vivacity of youth.

Your Lordship's idea, in regard to Protestant convents here, on the
footing of that we visited together at Hamburgh, is extremely well
worth the consideration of those whom it may concern; especially if the
Romish ones are abolished, as will most probably be the case.

The noblesse have numerous families, and, if there are no convents,
will be at a loss where to educate their daughters, as well as where to
dispose of those who do not marry in a reasonable time: the convenience
they find in both respects from these houses, is one strong motive to
them to continue in their ancient religion.

As I would however prevent the more useful, by which I mean the
lower, part of the sex from entering into this state, I would wish only
the daughters of the seigneurs to have the privilege of becoming nuns:
they should be obliged, on taking the vow, to prove their noblesse for
at least three generations; which would secure them respect, and, at
the same time, prevent their becoming too numerous.

They should take the vow of obedience, but not of celibacy; and
reserve the power, as at Hamburgh, of going out to marry, though on no
other consideration.

Your Lordship may remember, every nun at Hamburgh has a right of
marrying, except the abbess; and that, on your Lordship's telling the
lady who then presided, and who was young and very handsome, you
thought this a hardship, she answered with great spirit, "O, my Lord,
you know it is in my power to resign."

I refer your Lordship to Colonel Rivers for that farther information
in regard to this colony, which he is much more able to give you than I
am, having visited every part of Canada in the design of settling in
it.

  I have the honor to be,
      My Lord, &c.
          Wm. Fermor.


Your Lordship's mention of nuns has brought to my memory a little
anecdote on this subject, which I will tell you.

I was, a few mornings ago, visiting a French lady, whose very
handsome daughter, of almost sixteen, told me, she was going into a
convent. I enquired which she had made choice of: she said, "The
General Hospital."

"I am glad, Mademoiselle, you have not chose the Ursulines; the
rules are so very severe, you would have found them hard to conform
to."

"As to the rules, Sir, I have no objection to their severity; but
the habit of the General Hospital--"

I smiled.

"Is so very light--"

"And so becoming, Mademoiselle."

She smiled in her turn, and I left her fully convinced of the
sincerity of her vocation, and the great propriety and humanity of
suffering young creatures to chuse a kind of life so repugnant to human
nature, at an age when they are such excellent judges of what will make
them happy.



LETTER 154.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, June 9.

I send this by your brother, who sails to-morrow.

Time, I hope, will reconcile me to his and Emily's absence; but at
present I cannot think of losing them without a dejection of mind which
takes from me the very idea of pleasure.

I conjure you, my dear Lucy, to do every thing possible to
facilitate their union; and remember, that to your request, and to Mrs.
Rivers's tranquillity, they have sacrificed every prospect they had of
happiness.

I would say more; but my spirits are so affected, I am incapable of
writing.

Love my sweet Emily, and let her not repent the generosity of her
conduct.

      Adieu! your affectionate
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 155.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, June 10, Evening.

My poor Rivers! I think I felt more from his going than even from
Emily's: whilst he was here, I seemed not quite to have lost her: I now
feel doubly the loss of both.

He begged me to shew attention to Madame Des Roches, who he assured
me merited my tenderest friendship; he wrote to her, and has left the
letter open in my care: it is to thank her, in the most affectionate
terms, for her politeness and friendship, as well to himself as to his
Emily; and to offer her his best services in England in regard to her
estate, part of which some people here have very ungenerously applied
for a grant of, on pretence of its not being all settled according to
the original conditions.

He owned to me, he felt some regret at leaving this amiable woman in
Canada, and at the idea of never seeing her more.

I love him for this sensibility; and for his delicate attention to
one whose disinterested affection for him most certainly deserves it.

Fitzgerald is below, he does all possible to console me for the loss
of my friends; but indeed, Lucy, I feel their absence most severely.

I have an opportunity of sending your brother's letter to Madame Des
Roches, which I must not lose, as they are not very frequent: 'tis by
a French gentleman who is now with my father.

      Adieu! your faithful,
          A. Fermor.

Twelve at night.

We have been talking of your brother; I have been saying, there is
nothing I so much admire in him as that tenderness of soul, and almost
female sensibility, which is so uncommon in a sex, whose whole
education tends to harden their hearts.

Fitzgerald admires his spirit, his understanding, his generosity,
his courage, the warmth of his friendship.

My father his knowledge of the world; not that indiscriminate
suspicion of mankind which is falsely so called; but that clearness of
mental sight, and discerning faculty, which can distinguish virtue as
well as vice, wherever it resides.

"I also love in him," said my father, "that noble sincerity, that
integrity of character, which is the foundation of all the virtues."

"And yet, my dear papa, you would have had Emily prefer to him, that
_white curd of asses milk_, Sir George Clayton, whose highest
claim to virtue is the constitutional absence of vice, and who never
knew what it was to feel for the sorrows of another."

"You mistake, Bell: such a preference was impossible; but she was
engaged to Sir George; and he had also a fine fortune. Now, in these
degenerate days, my dear, people must eat; we have lost all taste for
the airy food of romances, when ladies rode behind their enamored
knights, dined luxuriously on a banquet of haws, and quenched their
thirst at the first stream."

"But, my dear papa--"

"But my dear Bell--"

I saw the sweet old man look angry, so chose to drop the subject;
but I do aver, now he is out of sight, that haws and a pillion, with
such a noble fellow as your brother, are preferable to ortolans and a
coach and six, with such a piece of still life and insipidity as Sir
George.

Good night! my dear Lucy.



LETTER 156.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, June 17.

I have this moment received a packet of letters from my dear Lucy; I
shall only say, in answer to what makes the greatest part of them, that
in a fortnight I hope you will have the pleasure of seeing your
brother, who did not hesitate one moment in giving up to Mrs. Rivers's
peace of mind, all his pleasing prospects here, and the happiness of
being united to the woman he loved.

You will not, I hope, my dear, forget his having made such a
sacrifice: but I think too highly of you to say more on this subject.
You will receive Emily as a friend, as a sister, who merits all your
esteem and tenderness, and who has lost all the advantages of fortune,
and incurred the censure of the world, by her disinterested attachment
to your brother.

I am extremely sorry, but not surprized, at what you tell me of poor
Lady H----. I knew her intimately; she was sacrificed at eighteen, by
the avarice and ambition of her parents, to age, disease, ill-nature,
and a coronet; and her death is the natural consequence of her regret:
she had a soul formed for friendship; she found it not at home; her
elegance of mind, and native probity, prevented her seeking it abroad;
she died a melancholy victim to the tyranny of her friends, the
tenderness of her heart, and her delicate sense of honor.

If her father has any of the feelings of humanity left, what must he
not suffer on this occasion?

It is a painful consideration, my dear, that the happiness or misery
of our lives are generally determined before we are proper judges of
either.

Restrained by custom, and the ridiculous prejudices of the world, we
go with the crowd, and it is late in life before we dare to think.

How happy are you and I, Lucy, in having parents, who, far from
forcing our inclinations, have not even endeavored to betray us into
chusing from sordid motives! They have not labored to fill our young
hearts with vanity or avarice; they have left us those virtues, those
amiable qualities, we received from nature. They have painted to us the
charms of friendship, and not taught us to value riches above their
real price.

My father, indeed, checks a certain excess of romance which there is
in my temper; but, at the same time, he never encouraged my receiving
the addresses of any man who had only the gifts of fortune to recommend
him; he even advised me, when very young, against marrying an officer
in his regiment, of a large fortune, but an unworthy character.

If I have any knowledge of the human heart, it will be my own fault
if I am not happy with Fitzgerald.

I am only afraid, that when we are married, and begin to settle into
a calm, my volatile disposition will carry me back to coquetry: my
passion for admiration is naturally strong, and has been increased by
indulgence; for without vanity I have been extremely the taste of the
men.

I have a kind of an idea it won't be long before I try the strength
of my resolution, for I heard papa and Fitzgerald in high consultation
this morning.

Do you know, that, having nobody to love but Fitzgerald, I am ten
times more enamored of the dear creature than ever? My love is now like
the rays of the sun collected.

He is so much here, I wonder I don't grow tired of him; but somehow
he has the art of varying himself beyond any man I ever knew: it was
that agreable variety of character that first struck me; I considered
that with him I should have all the sex in one; he says the same of me;
and indeed, it must be owned we have both an infinity of agreable
caprice, which in love affairs is worth all the merit in the world.

Have you never observed, Lucy, that the same person is seldom
greatly the object of both love and friendship?

Those virtues which command esteem do not often inspire passion.

Friendship seeks the more real, more solid virtues; integrity,
constancy, and a steady uniformity of character: love, on the contrary,
admires it knows not what; creates itself the idol it worships; finds
charms even in defects; is pleased with follies, with inconsistency,
with caprice: to say all in one line,

 "Love is a child, and like a child he plays."

The moment Emily arrives, I entreat that one of you will write to
me: no words can speak my impatience: I am equally anxious to hear of
my dear Rivers. Heaven send them prosperous gales!

    Adieu!
      Your faithful
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 157.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, June 30.

You are extremely mistaken, my dear, in your idea of the society
here; I had rather live at Quebec, take it for all in all, than in any
town in England, except London; the manner of living here is uncommonly
agreable; the scenes about us are lovely, and the mode of amusements
make us taste those scenes in full perfection.

Whilst your brother and Emily were here, I had not a wish to leave
Canada; but their going has left a void in my heart, which will not
easily be filled up: I have loved Emily almost from childhood, and
there is a peculiar tenderness in those friendships, which

  "Grow with our growth, and strengthen with our strength."

There was also something romantic and agreable in finding her here,
and unexpectedly, after we had been separated by Colonel Montague's
having left the regiment in which my father served.

In short, every thing concurred to make us dear to each other, and
therefore to give a greater poignancy to the pain of parting a second
time.

As to your brother, I love him so much, that a man who had less
candor and generosity than Fitzgerald, would be almost angry at my very
lively friendship.

I have this moment a letter from Madame Des Roches; she laments the
loss of our two amiable friends; begs me to assure them both of her
eternal remembrance: says, "she congratulates Emily on possessing the
heart of the man on earth most worthy of being beloved; that she cannot
form an idea of any human felicity equal to that of the woman, the
business of whose life it is to make Colonel Rivers happy. That, heaven
having denied her that happiness, she will never marry, nor enter into
an engagement which would make it criminal in her to remember him with
tenderness: that it is, however, she believes, best for her he has
left the country, for that it is impossible she should ever have seen
him with indifference."

It is perhaps as prudent not to mention these circumstances either
to your brother or Emily; I thought of sending her letter to them, but
there is a certain fire in her style, mixed with tenderness, when she
speaks of Rivers, which would only have given them both regret, by
making them see the excess of her affection for him; her expressions
are much stronger than those in which I have given you the sense of
them.

I intend to be very intimate with her, because she loves my dear
Rivers; she loves Emily too, at least she fancies she does, but I am a
little doubtful as to the friendships between rivals: at this distance,
however, I dare say, they will always continue on the best terms
possible, and I would have Emily write to her.

Do you know she has desired me to contrive to get her a picture of
your brother, without his knowing it? I am not determined whether I
shall indulge her in this fancy or not; if I do, I must employ you as
my agent. It is madness in her to desire it; but, as there is a
pleasure in being mad, I am not sure my morality will let me refuse
her, since pleasures are not very thick sown in this world.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          A. Fermor.



LETTER 158.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, July 10.

By this time, my dear Lucy, I hope you are happy with your brother
and my sweet Emily: I am all impatience to know this from yourselves;
but it will be five or six weeks, perhaps much more, before I can have
that satisfaction.

As to me--to be plain, my dear, I can hold no longer; I have been
married this fortnight. My father wanted to keep it a secret, for some
very foolish reasons; but it is not in my nature; I hate secrets, they
are only fit for politicians, and people whose thoughts and actions
will not bear the light.

For my part, I am convinced the general loquacity of human kind, and
our inability to keep secrets without a natural kind of uneasiness,
were meant by Providence to guard against our laying deep schemes of
treachery against each other.

I remember a very sensible man, who perfectly knew the world, used
to say, there was no such thing in nature as a secret; a maxim as true,
at least I believe so, as it is salutary, and which I would advise all
good mammas, aunts, and governesses, to impress strongly on the minds
of young ladies.

So, as I was saying, _voilà Madame Fitzgerald!_

This is, however, yet a secret here; but, according to my present
doctrine, and following the nature of things, it cannot long continue
so.

You never saw so polite a husband, but I suppose they are all so the
first fortnight, especially when married in so interesting and romantic
a manner; I am very fond of the fancy of being thus married _as it
were_; but I have a notion I shall blunder it out very soon: we were
married on a party to Three Rivers, nobody with us but papa and Madame
Villiers, who have not yet published the mystery. I hear some misses at
Quebec are scandalous about Fitzgerald's being so much here; I will
leave them in doubt a little, I think, merely to gratify their love of
scandal; every body should be amused in their way.

      Adieu! yours,
          A. Fitzgerald.


Pray let Emily be married; every body marries but poor little Emily.



LETTER 159.


To the Earl of ----.

Silleri, July 10.

I have the pleasure to tell your Lordship I have married my daughter
to a gentleman with whom I have reason to hope she will be happy.

He is the second son of an Irish baronet of good fortune, and has
himself about five hundred pounds a year, independent of his
commission; he is a man of an excellent sense, and of honor, and has a
very lively tenderness for my daughter.

It will, I am afraid, be some time before I can leave this country,
as I chuse to take my daughter and Mr. Fitzgerald with me, in order to
the latter's soliciting a majority, in which pursuit I shall without
scruple tax your Lordship's friendship to the utmost.

I am extremely happy at this event, as Bell's volatile temper made
me sometimes afraid of her chusing inconsiderately: their marriage is
not yet declared, for some family reasons, not worth particularizing to
your Lordship.

As soon as leave of absence comes from New York, for me and Mr.
Fitzgerald, we shall settle things for taking leave of Canada, which I
however assure your Lordship I shall do with some reluctance.

The climate is all the year agreable and healthy, in summer divine;
a man at my time of life cannot leave this chearing, enlivening sun
without reluctance; the heat is very like that of Italy or the South of
France, without that oppressive closeness which generally attends our
hot weather in England.

The manner of life here is chearful; we make the most of our fine
summers, by the pleasantest country parties you can imagine. Here are
some very estimable persons, and the spirit of urbanity begins to
diffuse itself from the centre: in short, I shall leave Canada at the
very time when one would wish to come to it.

It is astonishing, in a small community like this, how much depends
on the personal character of him who governs.

I am obliged to break off abruptly, the person who takes this to
England being going immediately on board.

  I have the honor to be,
    My Lord,
      Your Lordship's, &c.
          Wm. Fermor.



LETTER 160.


To John Temple, Esq; Pall Mall.

Silleri, July 13.

I agree with you, my dear Temple, that nothing can be more pleasing
than an _awakened_ English woman; of which you and my _caro sposo_
have, I flatter myself, the happy experience; and wish with you that
the character was more common: but I must own, and I am sorry to own
it, that my fair countrywomen and fellow citizens (I speak of the
nation in general, and not of the capital) have an unbecoming kind of
reserve, which prevents their being the agreable companions, and
amiable wives, which nature meant them.

From a fear, and I think a prudish one, of being thought too
attentive to please your sex, they have acquired a certain distant
manner to men, which borders on ill-breeding: they take great pains to
veil, under an affected appearance of disdain, that winning sensibility
of heart, that delicate tenderness, which renders them doubly lovely.

They are even afraid to own their friendships, if not according to
the square and rule; are doubtful whether a modest woman may own she
loves even her husband; and seem to think affections were given them
for no purpose but to hide.

Upon the whole, with at least as good a native right to charm as any
women on the face of the globe, the English have found the happy secret
of pleasing less.

Is my Emily arrived? I can say nothing else.

Twelve o'clock.

I am the happiest woman in the creation: papa has just told me, we
are to go home in six or seven weeks.

Not but this is a divine country, and our farm a terrestrial
paradise; but we have lived in it almost a year, and one grows tired of
every thing in time, you know, Temple.

I shall see my Emily, and flirt with Rivers; to say nothing of you
and my little Lucy.

Adieu! I am grown very lazy since I married; for the future, I shall
make Fitzgerald write all my letters, except billet-doux, in which I
think I excel him.

      Yours,
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 161.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Dover, July 8.

I am this moment arrived, my dear Bell, after a very agreable
passage, and am setting out immediately for London, from whence I shall
write to you the moment I have seen Mrs. Rivers; I will own to you I
tremble at the idea of this interview, yet am resolved to see her, and
open all my soul to her in regard to her son; after which, I shall
leave her the mistress of my destiny; for, ardently as I love him, I
will never marry him but with her approbation.

I have a thousand anxious fears for my Rivers's safety: may heaven
protect him from the dangers his Emily has escaped!

I have but a moment to write, a ship being under way which is bound
to Quebec; a gentleman, who is just going off in a boat to the ship,
takes the care of this.

May every happiness attend my dear girl. Say every thing
affectionate for me to Captain Fermor and Mr. Fitzgerald.

      Adieu! Yours,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 162.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

London, July 19.

I got to town last night, my dear, and am at a friend's, from whence
I have this morning sent to Mrs. Rivers; I every moment expect her
answer; my anxiety of mind is not to be expressed; my heart sinks; I
almost dread the return of my messenger.

If the affections, my dear friend, give us the highest happiness of
which we are capable, they are also the source of our keenest misery;
what I feel at this instant, is not to be described: I have been near
resolving to go into the country without seeing or sending to Mrs.
Rivers. If she should receive me with coldness--why should I have
exposed myself to the chance of such a reception? It would have been
better to have waited for Rivers's arrival; I have been too
precipitate; my warmth of temper has misled me: what had I to do to
seek his family? I would give the world to retract my message, though
it was only to let her know I was arrived; that her son was well, and
that she might every hour expect him in England.

There is a rap at the door: I tremble I know not why; the servant
comes up, he announces Mr. and Mrs. Temple: my heart beats, they are at
the door.

One o'clock.

They are gone, and return for me in an hour; they insist on my
dining with them, and tell me Mrs. Rivers is impatient to see me.
Nothing was ever so polite, so delicate, so affectionate, as the
behaviour of both; they saw my confusion, and did every thing to
remove it: they enquired after Rivers, but without the least hint of
the dear interest I take in him: they spoke of the happiness of knowing
me: they asked my friendship, in a manner the most flattering that can
be imagined. How strongly does Mrs. Temple, my dear, resemble her
amiable brother! her eyes have the same sensibility, the same pleasing
expression; I think I scarce ever saw so charming a woman; I love her
already; I feel a tenderness for her, which is inconceivable; I caught
myself two or three times looking at her, with an attention for which I
blushed.

How dear to me is every friend of my Rivers!

I believe, there was something very foolish in my behaviour; but
they had the good-breeding and humanity not to seem to observe it.

I had almost forgot to tell you, they said every thing obliging and
affectionate of you and Captain Fermor.

My mind is in a state not to be described; I feel joy, I feel
anxiety, I feel doubt, I feel a timidity I cannot conquer, at the
thought of seeing Mrs. Rivers.

I have to dress; therefore must finish this when I return.

Twelve at night.

I am come back, my dearest Bell; I have gone through the scene I so
much dreaded, and am astonished I should ever think of it but with
pleasure. How much did I injure this most amiable of women! Her
reception of me was that of a tender parent, who had found a long-lost
child; she kissed me, she pressed me to her bosom; her tears flowed
in abundance; she called me her daughter, her other Lucy: she asked me
a thousand questions of her son; she would know all that concerned him,
however minute: how he looked, whether he talked much of her, what were
his amusements; whether he was as handsome as when he left England.

I answered her with some hesitation, but with a pleasure that
animated my whole soul; I believe, I never appeared to such advantage
as this day.

You will not ascribe it to an unmeaning vanity, when I tell you, I
never took such pains to please; I even gave a particular attention to
my dress, that I might, as much as possible, justify my Rivers's
tenderness: I never was vain for myself; but I am so for him: I am
indifferent to admiration as Emily Montague; but as the object of his
love, I would be admired by all the world; I wish to be the first of
my sex in all that is amiable and lovely, that I might make a sacrifice
worthy of my Rivers, in shewing to all his friends, that he only can
inspire me with tenderness, that I live for him alone.

Mrs. Rivers pressed me extremely to pass a month with her: my heart
yielded too easily to her request; but I had courage to resist my own
wishes, as well as her solicitations; and shall set out in three days
for Berkshire: I have, however, promised to go with them to-morrow, on
a party to Richmond, which Mr. Temple was so obliging as to propose on
my account.

Late as the season is, there is one more ship going to Quebec, which
sails to-morrow.

You shall hear from me again in a few days by the packet.

      Adieu! my dearest friend!
        Your faithful
          Emily Montague.

Surely it will not be long before Rivers arrives; you, my dear
Bell, will judge what must be my anxiety till that moment.



LETTER 163.


To Captain Fermor, at Silleri.

Dover, July 24, eleven o'clock.

I am arrived, my dear friend, after a passage agreable in itself;
but which my fears for Emily made infinitely anxious and painful: every
wind that blew, I trembled for her; I formed to myself ideal dangers
on her account, which reason had not power to dissipate.

We had a very tumultuous head-sea a great part of the voyage, though
the wind was fair; a certain sign there had been stormy weather, with a
contrary wind. I fancied my Emily exposed to those storms; there is no
expressing what I suffered from this circumstance.

On entering the channel of England, we saw an empty boat, and some
pieces of a wreck floating; I fancied it part of the ship which
conveyed my lovely Emily; a sudden chillness seized my whole frame, my
heart died within me at the sight: I had scarce courage, when I landed,
to enquire whether she was arrived.

I asked the question with a trembling voice, and had the transport
to find the ship had passed by, and to hear the person of my Emily
described amongst the passengers who landed; it was not easy to mistake
her.

I hope to see her this evening: what do I not feel from that dear
hope!

Chance gives me an opportunity of forwarding this by New York; I
write whilst my chaise is getting ready.

      Adieu! yours,
          Ed. Rivers.


I shall write to my dear little Bell as soon as I get to town. There
is no describing what I felt at first seeing the coast of England: I
saw the white cliffs with a transport mixed with veneration; a
transport, which, however, was checked by my fears for the dearer part
of myself.

My chaise is at the door.

    Adieu!
      Your faithful, &c.
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 164.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Rochester, July 24.

I am obliged to wait ten minutes for a Canadian gentleman who is
with me, and has some letters to deliver here: how painful is this
delay! But I cannot leave a stranger alone on the road, though I lose
so many minutes with my charming Emily.

To soften this moment as much as possible, I will begin a letter to
my dear Bell: our sweet Emily is safe; I wrote to Captain Fermor this
morning.

My heart is gay beyond words: my fellow-traveller is astonished at
the beauty and riches of England, from what he has seen of Kent: for my
part, I point out every fine prospect, and am so proud of my country,
that my whole soul seems to be dilated; for which perhaps there are
other reasons. The day is fine, the numerous herds and flocks on the
side of the hills, the neatness of the houses, of the people, the
appearance of plenty; all exhibit a scene which must strike one who has
been used only to the wild graces of nature.

Canada has beauties; but they are of another kind.

This unreasonable man; he has no mistress to see in London; he is
not expected by the most amiable of mothers, by a family he loves as I
do mine.

I will order another chaise, and leave my servant to attend him.

He comes. Adieu! my dear little Bell! at this moment a gentleman is
come into the inn, who is going to embark at Dover for New York; I will
send this by him. Once more adieu!



LETTER 165.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Clarges Street, July 25.

I am the only person here, my dear Bell, enough composed to tell you
Rivers is arrived in town. He stopped in his post chaise, at the end of
the street, and sent for me, that I might prepare my mother to see him,
and prevent a surprize which might have hurried her spirits too much.

I came back, and told her I had seen a gentleman, who had left him
at Dover, and that he would soon be here; he followed me in a few
minutes.

I am not painter enough to describe their meeting; though prepared,
it was with difficulty we kept my mother from fainting; she pressed
him in her arms, she attempted to speak, her voice faltered, tears
stole softly down her cheeks: nor was Rivers less affected, though in a
different manner; I never saw him look so handsome; the manly
tenderness, the filial respect, the lively joy, that were expressed in
his countenance, gave him a look to which it is impossible to do
justice: he hinted going down to Berkshire to-night; but my mother
seemed so hurt at the proposal, that he wrote to Emily, and told her
his reason for deferring it till to-morrow, when we are all to go in my
coach, and hope to bring her back with us to town.

You judge rightly, my dear Bell, that they were formed for each
other; never were two minds so similar; we must contrive some method of
making them happy: nothing but a too great delicacy in Rivers prevents
their being so to-morrow; were our situations changed, I should not
hesitate a moment to let him make me so.

Lucy has sent for me. Adieu!

    Believe me,
      Your faithful and devoted,
          J. Temple.



LETTER 166.


To Miss Fermor, at Silleri.

Pall Mall, July 29.

I am the happiest of human beings: my Rivers is arrived, he is well,
he loves me; I am dear to his family; I see him without restraint; I
am every hour more convinced of the excess of his affection; his
attention to me is inconceivable; his eyes every moment tell me, I am
dearer to him than life.

I am to be for some time on a visit to his sister; he is at Mrs.
Rivers's, but we are always together: we go down next week to Mr.
Temple's, in Rutland; they only stayed in town, expecting Rivers's
arrival. His seat is within six miles of Rivers's little paternal
estate, which he settled on his mother when he left England; she
presses him to resume it, but he peremptorily refuses: he insists on
her continuing her house in town, and being perfectly independent, and
mistress of herself.

I love him a thousand times more for this tenderness to her; though
it disappoints my dear hope of being his. Did I think it possible, my
dear Bell, he could have risen higher in my esteem?

If we are never united, if we always live as at present, his
tenderness will still make the delight of my life; to see him, to hear
that voice, to be his friend, the confidante of all his purposes, of
all his designs, to hear the sentiments of that generous, that exalted
soul--I would not give up this delight, to be empress of the world.

My ideas of affection are perhaps uncommon; but they are not the less
just, nor the less in nature.

A blind man may as well judge of colors as the mass of mankind of
the sentiments of a truly enamored heart.

The sensual and the cold will equally condemn my affection as
romantic: few minds, my dear Bell, are capable of love; they feel
passion, they feel esteem; they even feel that mixture of both which is
the best counterfeit of love; but of that vivifying fire, that lively
tenderness which hurries us out of ourselves, they know nothing; that
tenderness which makes us forget ourselves, when the interest, the
happiness, the honor, of him we love is concerned; that tenderness
which renders the beloved object all that we see in the creation.

Yes, my Rivers, I live, I breathe, I exist, for you alone: be happy,
and your Emily is so.

My dear friend, you know love, and will therefore bear with all the
impertinence of a tender heart.

I hope you have by this time made Fitzgerald happy; he deserves you,
amiable as you are, and you cannot too soon convince him of your
affection: you sometimes play cruelly with his tenderness: I have been
astonished to see you torment a heart which adores you.

I am interrupted.

    Adieu! my dear Bell.
        Your affectionate
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 167.


To Captain Fermor, at Silleri.

Clarges Street, Aug. 1.

Lord ---- not being in town, I went to his villa at Richmond, to
deliver your letter.

I cannot enough, my dear Sir, thank you for this introduction; I
passed part of the day at Richmond, and never was more pleasingly
entertained.

His politeness, his learning, his knowledge of the world, however
amiable, are in character at his season of life; but his vivacity is
astonishing.

What fire, what spirit, there is in his conversation! I hardly
thought myself a young man near him. What must he have been at five and
twenty?

He desired me to tell you, all his interest should be employed for
Fitzgerald, and that he wished you to come to England as soon as
possible.

We are just setting off for Temple's house in Rutland.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 168.


To Captain Fermor, at Silleri.

Temple-house, Aug. 4.

I enjoy, my dear friend, in one of the pleasantest houses, and most
agreable situations imaginable, the society of the four persons in the
world most dear to me; I am in all respects as much at home as if
master of the family, without the cares attending that station; my
wishes, my desires, are prevented by Temple's attention and friendship,
and my mother and sister's amiable anxiety to oblige me; I find an
unspeakable softness in seeing my lovely Emily every moment, in seeing
her adored by my family, in seeing her without restraint, in being in
the same house, in living in that easy converse which is born from
friendship alone: yet I am not happy.

It is that we lose the present happiness in the pursuit of greater:
I look forward with impatience to that moment which will make Emily
mine; and the difficulties, which I see on every side arising, embitter
hours which would otherwise be exquisitely happy.

The narrowness of my fortune, which I see in a much stronger light
in this land of luxury, and the apparent impossibility of placing the
most charming of women in the station my heart wishes, give me
anxieties which my reason cannot conquer.

I cannot live without her, I flatter myself our union is in some
degree necessary to her happiness; yet I dread bringing her into
distresses, which I am doubly obliged to protect her from, because she
would with transport meet them all, from tenderness to me.

I have nothing which I can call my own, but my half-pay, and four
thousand pounds: I have lived amongst the first company in England; all
my connexions have been rather suited to my birth than fortune. My
mother presses me to resume my estate, and let her live with us
alternately; but against this I am firmly determined; she shall have
her own house, and never change her manner of living.

Temple would share his estate with me, if I would allow him; but I
am too fond of independence to accept favors of this kind even from
him.

I have formed a thousand schemes, and as often found them abortive;
I go to-morrow to see our little estate, with my mother; it is a
private party of our own, and nobody is in the secret; I will there
talk over every thing with her.

My mind is at present in a state of confusion not to be expressed; I
must determine on something; it is improper Emily should continue long
with my sister in her present situation; yet I cannot live without
seeing her.

I have never asked about Emily's fortune; but I know it is a small
one; perhaps two thousand pounds; I am pretty certain, not more.

We can live on little, but we must live in some degree on a genteel
footing: I cannot let Emily, who refused a coach and six for me, pay
visits on foot; I will be content with a post-chaise, but cannot with
less; I have a little, a very little pride, for my Emily.

I wish it were possible to prevail on my mother to return with us to
Canada: I could then reconcile my duty and happiness, which at present
seem almost incompatible.

Emily appears perfectly happy, and to look no further than to the
situation in which we now are; she seems content with being my friend
only, without thinking of a nearer connexion; I am rather piqued at a
composure which has the air of indifference: why should not her
impatience equal mine?

The coach is at the door, and my mother waits for me.

Every happiness attend my friend, and all connected with him, in
which number I hope I may, by this time, include Fitzgerald.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 169.


To Captain Fermor, at Silleri.

Aug. 6.

I have been taking an exact survey of the house and estate with my
mother, in order to determine on some future plan of life.

'Tis inconceivable what I felt on returning to a place so dear to
me, and which I had not seen for many years; I ran hastily from one
room to another; I traversed the garden with inexpressible eagerness:
my eye devoured every object; there was not a tree, not a bush, which
did not revive some pleasing, some soft idea.

I felt, to borrow a very pathetic expression of Thomson's,

  "A thousand little tendernesses throb,"

on revisiting those dear scenes of infant happiness; which were
increased by having with me that estimable, that affectionate mother,
to whose indulgence all my happiness had been owing.

But to return to the purpose of our visit: the house is what most
people would think too large for the estate, even had I a right to call
it all my own; this is, however, a fault, if it is one, which I can
easily forgive.

There is furniture enough in it for my family, including my mother;
it is unfashionable, but some of it very good: and I think Emily has
tenderness enough for me to live with me in a house, the furniture of
which is not perfectly in taste.

In short, I know her much above having the slightest wish of vanity,
where it comes in competition with love.

We can, as to the house, live here commodiously enough; and our only
present consideration is, on what we are to live: a consideration,
however, which as lovers, I believe in strictness we ought to be much
above!

My mother again solicits me to resume this estate; and has proposed
my making over to her my half-pay instead of it, though of much less
value, which, with her own two hundred pounds a year, will, she says,
enable her to continue her house in town, a point I am determined never
to suffer her to give up; because she loves London; and because I
insist on her having her own house to go to, if she should ever chance
to be displeased with ours.

I am inclined to like this proposal: Temple and I will make a
calculation; and, if we find it will answer every necessary purpose to
my mother, I owe it to Emily to accept of it.

I endeavor to persuade myself, that I am obliging my mother, by
giving her an opportunity of shewing her generosity, and of making me
happy: I have been in spirits ever since she mentioned it.

I have already projected a million of improvements; have taught new
streams to flow, planted ideal groves, and walked, fancy-led, in shades
of my own raising.

The situation of the house is enchanting; and with all my passion
for the savage luxuriance of America, I begin to find my taste return
for the more mild and regular charms of my native country.

We have no Chaudieres, no Montmorencis, none of those magnificent
scenes on which the Canadians have a right to pride themselves; but we
excel them in the lovely, the smiling; in enameled meadows, in waving
corn-fields, in gardens the boast of Europe; in every elegant art which
adorns and softens human life; in all the riches and beauty which
cultivation can give.

I begin to think I may be blest in the possession of my Emily,
without betraying her into a state of want; we may, I begin to flatter
myself, live with decency, in retirement; and, in my opinion, there
are a thousand charms in retirement with those we love.

Upon the whole, I believe we shall be able to live, taking the word
_live_ in the sense of lovers, not of the _beau monde_, who will
never allow a little country squire of four hundred pounds a year to
_live_.

Time may do more for us; at least, I am of an age and temper to
encourage hope.

All here are perfectly yours.

    Adieu! my dear friend,
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 170.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, Aug. 6.

The leave of absence for my father and Fitzgerald being come some
weeks sooner than we expected, we propose leaving Canada in five or six
days.

I am delighted with the idea of revisiting dear England, and seeing
friends whom I so tenderly love: yet I feel a regret, which I had no
idea I should have felt, at leaving the scenes of a thousand past
pleasures; the murmuring rivulets to which Emily and I have sat
listening, the sweet woods where I have walked with my little circle of
friends: I have even a strong attachment to the scenes themselves,
which are infinitely lovely, and speak the inimitable hand of nature
which formed them: I want to transport this fairy ground to England.

I sigh when I pass any particularly charming spot; I feel a
tenderness beyond what inanimate objects seem to merit.

I must pay one more visit to the naiads of Montmorenci.

Eleven at night.

I am just come from the general's assembly; where, I should have
told you, I was this day fortnight announced _Madame Fitzgerald_,
to the great mortification of two or three cats, who had very
sagaciously determined, that Fitzgerald had too much understanding ever
to think of such a flirting, coquetish creature as a wife.

I was grave at the assembly to-night, in spite of all the pains I
took to be otherwise: I was hurt at the idea it would probably be
_the last_ at which I should be; I felt a kind of concern at parting,
not only with the few I loved, but with those who had till to-night
been indifferent to me.

There is something affecting in the idea of _the last time_ of
seeing even those persons or places, for which we have no particular
affection.

I go to-morrow to take leave of the nuns, at the Ursuline convent; I
suppose I shall carry this melancholy idea with me there, and be hurt
at seeing them too _for the last time_.

I pay visits every day amongst the peasants, who are very fond of
me. I talk to them of their farms, give money to their children, and
teach their wives to be good huswives: I am the idol of the country
people five miles round, who declare me the most amiable, most generous
woman in the world, and think it a thousand pities I should be damned.

Adieu! say every thing for me to my sweet friends, if arrived.

7th, Eleven o'clock.

I have this moment a large packet of letters for Emily from Mrs.
Melmoth, which I intend to take the care of myself, as I hope to be in
England almost as soon as this.

    Good morrow!
      Yours ever, &c.
          A. Fitzgerald.

Three o'clock.

I am just come from visiting the nuns; they expressed great concern
at my leaving Canada, and promised me their prayers on my voyage; for
which proof of affection, though a good protestant, I thanked them very
sincerely.

I wished exceedingly to have brought some of them away with me; my
nun, as they call the amiable girl I saw take the veil, paid me the
flattering tribute of a tear at parting; her fine eyes had a concern in
them, which affected me extremely.

I was not less pleased with the affection the late superior, my good
old countrywoman, expressed for me, and her regret at seeing me _for
the last time_.

Surely there is no pleasure on earth equal to that of being beloved!
I did not think I had been such a favorite in Canada: it is almost a
pity to leave it; perhaps nobody may love me in England.

Yes, I believe Fitzgerald will; and I have a pretty party enough of
friends in your family.

Adieu! I shall write a line the day we embark, by another ship,
which may possibly arrive before us.



LETTER 171.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Silleri, Aug. 11.

We embark to-morrow, and hope to see you in less than a month, if
this fine wind continues.

I am just come from Montmorenci, where I have been paying my
devotions to the tutelary deities of the place _for the last time_.

I had only Fitzgerald with me; we visited every grotto on the lovely
banks, where we dined; kissed every flower, raised a votive altar on
the little island, poured a libation of wine to the river goddess; and,
in short, did every thing which it became good heathens to do.

We stayed till day-light began to decline, which, with the idea of
_the last time_, threw round us a certain melancholy solemnity; a
solemnity which

  "Deepen'd the murmur of the falling floods,
  And breath'd a browner horror on the woods."

I have twenty things to do, and but a moment to do them in. Adieu!

I am called down; it is to Madame Des Roches: she is very obliging
to come thus far to see me.

12th.

We go on board at one; Madame Des Roches goes down with us as far as
her estate, where her boat is to fetch her on shore. She has made me a
present of a pair of extreme pretty bracelets; has sent your brother an
elegant sword-knot, and Emily a very beautiful cross of diamonds.

I don't believe she would be sorry if we were to run away with her
to England: I protest I am half inclined; it is pity such a woman
should be hid all her life in the woods of Canada: besides, one might
convert her you know; and, on a religious principle, a little
deviation from rules is allowable.

Your brother is an admirable missionary amongst unbelieving ladies:
I really think I shall carry her off; if it is only for the good of her
soul.

I have but one objection; if Fitzgerald should take a fancy to
prefer the tender to the lively, I should be in some danger: there is
something very seducing in her eyes, I assure you.



LETTER 172.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Kamaraskas, Aug. 14.

By Madame Des Roches, who is going on shore, I write two or three
lines, to tell you we have got thus far, and have a fair wind; she will
send it immediately to Quebec, to be put on board any ship going, that
you may have the greater variety of chances to hear of me.

There is a French lady on board, whose superstition bids fair to
amuse us; she has thrown half her little ornaments over-board for a
wind, and has promised I know not how many votive offerings of the same
kind to St. Joseph, the patron of Canada, if we get safe to land; on
which I shall only observe, that there is nothing so like ancient
absurdity as modern: she has classical authority for this manner of
playing the fool. Horace, when afraid on a voyage, having, if my memory
quotes fair, vowed

  "His dank and dropping weeds
  To the stern god of sea."

The boat is ready, and Madame Des Roches going; I am very unwilling
to part with her; and her present concern at leaving me would be very
flattering, if I did not think the remembrance of your brother had the
greatest share in it.

She has wrote four or five letters to him, since she came on board,
very tender ones I fancy, and destroyed them; she has at last wrote a
meer complimentary kind of card, only thanking him for his offers of
service; yet I see it gives her pleasure to write even this, however
cold and formal; because addressed to him: she asked me, if I thought
there was any impropriety in her writing to him, and whether it would
not be better to address herself to Emily. I smiled at her simplicity,
and she finished her letter; she blushed and looked down when she gave
it me.

She is less like a sprightly French widow, than a foolish English
girl, who loves for the first time.

But I suppose, when the heart is really touched, the feelings of all
nations have a pretty near resemblance: it is only that the French
ladies are generally more coquets, and less inclined to the romantic
style of love, than the English; and we are, therefore, surprized when
we find in them this trembling sensibility.

There are exceptions, however, to all rules; and your little Bell
seems, in point of love, to have changed countries with Madame Des
Roches.

The gale encreases, it flutters in the sails; my fair friend is
summoned; the captain chides our delay.

Adieu! _ma chere Madame Des Roches_. I embrace her; I feel the
force of its being _for the last time_. I am afraid she feels it
yet more strongly than I do: in parting with the last of his friends,
she seems to part with her Rivers for ever.

One look more at the wild graces of nature I leave behind.

Adieu! Canada! adieu! sweet abode of the wood-nymphs! never shall I
cease to remember with delight the place where I have passed so many
happy hours.

Heaven preserve my dear Lucy, and give prosperous gales to her
friends!

        Your faithful
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 173.


To Miss Montague.

Isle of Bic, Aug. 16.

You are little obliged to me, my dear, for writing to you on
ship-board; one of the greatest miseries here, being the want of
employment: I therefore write for my own amusement, not yours.

We have some French ladies on board, but they do not resemble Madame
Des Roches. I am weary of them already, though we have been so few
days together.

The wind is contrary, and we are at anchor under this island;
Fitzgerald has proposed going to dine on shore: it looks excessively
pretty from the ship.

Seven in the evening.

We are returned from Bic, after passing a very agreable day.

We dined on the grass, at a little distance from the shore, under
the shelter of a very fine wood, whose form, the trees rising above
each other in the same regular confusion, brought the dear shades of
Silleri to our remembrance.

We walked after dinner, and picked rasberries, in the wood; and in
our ramble came unexpectedly to the middle of a visto, which, whilst
some ships of war lay here, the sailors had cut through the island.

From this situation, being a rising ground, we could see directly
through the avenue to both shores: the view of each was wildly
majestic; the river comes finely in, whichever way you turn your sight;
but to the south, which is more sheltered, the water just trembling to
the breeze, our ship which had put all her streamers out, and to which
the tide gave a gentle motion, with a few scattered houses, faintly
seen amongst the trees at a distance, terminated the prospect, in a
manner which was inchanting.

I die to build a house on this island; it is pity such a sweet spot
should be uninhabited: I should like excessively to be Queen of Bic.

Fitzgerald has carved my name on a maple, near the shore; a pretty
piece of gallantry in a husband, you will allow: perhaps he means it as
taking possession for me of the island.

We are going to cards. Adieu! for the present.

Aug. 18.

'Tis one of the loveliest days I ever saw: we are fishing under the
Magdalen islands; the weather is perfectly calm, the sea just dimpled,
the sun-beams dance on the waves, the fish are playing on the surface
of the water: the island is at a proper distance to form an agreable
point of view; and upon the whole the scene is divine.

There is one house on the island, which, at a distance, seems so
beautifully situated, that I have lost all desire of fixing at Bic: I
want to land, and go to the house for milk, but there is no good
landing place on this side; the island seems here to be fenced in by a
regular wall of rock.

A breeze springs up; our fishing is at an end for the present: I am
afraid we shall not pass many days so agreably as we have done this. I
feel horror at the idea of so soon losing sight of land, and launching
on the _vast Atlantic_.

      Adieu! yours,
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 174.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Aug. 26, at Sea.

We have just fallen in with a ship from New York to London, and, as
it is a calm, the master of it is come on board; whilst he is drinking
a bottle of very fine madeira, which Fitzgerald has tempted him with on
purpose to give me this opportunity, as it is possible he may arrive
first, I will write a line, to tell my dear Lucy we are all well, and
hope soon to have the happiness of telling her so in person; I also
send what I scribbled before we lost sight of land; for I have had no
spirits to write or do any thing since.

There is inexpressible pleasure in meeting a ship at sea, and
renewing our commerce with the human kind, after having been so
absolutely separated from them. I feel strongly at this moment the
inconstancy of the species: we naturally grow tired of the company on
board our own ship, and fancy the people in every one we meet more
agreable.

For my part, this spirit is so powerful in me, that I would gladly,
if I could have prevailed on my father and Fitzgerald, have gone on
board with this man, and pursued our voyage in the New York ship. I
have felt the same thing on land in a coach, on seeing another pass.

We have had a very unpleasant passage hitherto, and weather to
fright a better sailor than your friend: it is to me astonishing, that
there are men found, and those men of fortune too, who can fix on a sea
life as a profession.

How strong must be the love of gain, to tempt us to embrace a life
of danger, pain, and misery; to give up all the beauties of nature and
of art, all the charms of society, and separate ourselves from mankind,
to amass wealth, which the very profession takes away all possibility
of enjoying!

Even glory is a poor reward for a life passed at sea.

I had rather be a peasant on a sunny bank, with peace, safety,
obscurity, bread, and a little garden of roses, than lord high admiral
of the British fleet.

Setting aside the variety of dangers at sea, the time passed there
is a total suspension of one's existence: I speak of the best part of
our time there, for at least a third of every voyage is positive
misery.

I abhor the sea, and am peevish with every creature about me.

If there were no other evil attending this vile life, only think of
being cooped up weeks together in such a space, and with the same
eternal set of people.

If cards had not a little relieved me, I should have died of meer
vexation before I had finished half the voyage.

What would I not give to see the dear white cliffs of Albion!

Adieu! I have not time to say more.

      Your affectionate
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 175.


To Mrs. Temple, Pall Mall.

Dover, Sept. 8.

We are this instant landed, my dear, and shall be in town to-morrow.

My father stops one day on the road, to introduce Mr. Fitzgerald to
a relation of ours, who lives a few miles from Canterbury.

I am wild with joy at setting foot once more on dry land.

I am not less happy to have traced your brother and Emily, by my
enquiries here, for we left Quebec too soon to have advice there of
their arrival.

Adieu! If in town, you shall see us the moment we get there; if in
the country, write immediately, to the care of the agent.

Let me know where to find Emily, whom I die to see: is she still
Emily Montague?

    Adieu!
        Your affectionate
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 176.


To Mrs. Fitzgerald.

Temple-house, Sept. 11.

Your letter, my dear Bell, was sent by this post to the country.

It is unnecessary to tell you the pleasure it gives us all to hear
of your safe arrival.

All our argosies have now landed their treasures: you will believe
us to have been more anxious about friends so dear to us, than the
merchant for his gold and spices; we have suffered the greater
anxiety, by the circumstance of your having returned at different
times.

I flatter myself, the future will pay us for the past.

You may now, my dear Bell, revive your coterie, with the addition of
some friends who love you very sincerely.

Emily (still Emily Montague) is with a relation in Berkshire,
settling some affairs previous to her marriage with my brother, to
which we flatter ourselves there will be no further objections.

I assure you, I begin to be a little jealous of this Emily of yours;
she rivals me extremely with my mother, and indeed with every body
else.

We all come to town next week, when you will make us very unhappy if
you do not become one of our family in Pall Mall, and return with us
for a few months to the country.

My brother is at his little estate, six miles from hence, where he
is making some alterations, for the reception of Emily; he is fitting
up her apartment in a style equally simple and elegant, which, however,
you must not tell her, because she is to be surprized: her dressing
room, and a little adjoining closet of books, will be enchanting; yet
the expence of all he has done is a mere trifle.

I am the only person in the secret; and have been with him this
morning to see it: there is a gay, smiling air in the whole apartment,
which pleases me infinitely; you will suppose he does not forget jars
of flowers, because you know how much they are Emily's taste: he has
forgot no ornament which he knew was agreable to her.

Happily for his fortune, her pleasures are not of the expensive
kind; he would ruin himself if they were.

He has bespoke a very handsome post chaise, which is also a secret
to Emily, who insists on not having one.

Their income will be about five hundred pounds a year: it is not
much; yet, with their dispositions, I think it will make them happy.

My brother will write to Mr. Fitzgerald next post: say every thing
affectionate for us all to him and Captain Fermor.

      Adieu! Yours,
          Lucy Temple.



LETTER 177.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Sept. 13.

I congratulate you, my dear friend, on your safe arrival, and on
your marriage.

You have got the start of me in happiness; I love you, however, too
sincerely to envy you.

Emily has promised me her hand, as soon as some little family
affairs are settled, which I flatter myself will not take above another
week.

When she gave me this promise, she begged me to allow her to return
to Berkshire till our marriage took place; I felt the propriety of
this step, and therefore would not oppose it: she pleaded having some
business also to settle with her relation there.

My mother has given back the deed of settlement of my estate, and
accepted of an assignment on my half pay: she is greatly a loser; but
she insisted on making me happy, with such an air of tenderness, that I
could not deny her that satisfaction.

I shall keep some land in my own hands, and farm; which will enable
me to have a post chaise for Emily, and my mother, who will be a good
deal with us; and a constant decent table for a friend.

Emily is to superintend the dairy and garden; she has a passion for
flowers, with which I am extremely pleased, as it will be to her a
continual source of pleasure.

I feel such delight in the idea of making her happy, that I think
nothing a trifle which can be in the least degree pleasing to her.

I could even wish to invent new pleasures for her gratification.

I hope to be happy; and to make the loveliest of womankind so,
because my notions of the state, into which I am entering, are I hope
just, and free from that romantic turn so destructive to happiness.

I have, once in my life, had an attachment nearly resembling
marriage, to a widow of rank, with whom I was acquainted abroad; and
with whom I almost secluded myself from the world near a twelvemonth,
when she died of a fever, a stroke I was long before I recovered.

I loved her with tenderness; but that love, compared to what I feel
for Emily, was as a grain of sand to the globe of earth, or the weight
of a feather to the universe.

A marriage where not only esteem, but passion is kept awake, is, I
am convinced, the most perfect state of sublunary happiness: but it
requires great care to keep this tender plant alive; especially, I
blush to say it, on our side.

Women are naturally more constant, education improves this happy
disposition: the husband who has the politeness, the attention, and
delicacy of a lover, will always be beloved.

The same is generally, but not always, true on the other side: I
have sometimes seen the most amiable, the most delicate of the sex,
fail in keeping the affection of their husbands.

I am well aware, my friend, that we are not to expect here a life of
continual rapture; in the happiest marriage there is danger of some
languid moments: to avoid these, shall be my study; and I am certain
they are to be avoided.

The inebriation, the tumult of passion, will undoubtedly grow less
after marriage, that is, after peaceable possession; hopes and fears
alone keep it in its first violent state: but, though it subsides, it
gives place to a tenderness still more pleasing, to a soft, and, if you
will allow the expression, a voluptuous tranquillity: the pleasure does
not cease, does not even lessen; it only changes its nature.

My sister tells me, she flatters herself, you will give a few months
to hers and Mr. Temple's friendship; I will not give up the claim I
have to the same favor.

My little farm will induce only friends to visit us; and it is not
less pleasing to me for that circumstance: one of the misfortunes of a
very exalted station, is the slavery it subjects us to in regard to the
ceremonial world.

Upon the whole, I believe, the most agreable, as well as most free
of all situations, to be that of a little country gentleman, who lives
upon his income, and knows enough of the world not to envy his richer
neighbours.

Let me hear from you, my dear Fitzgerald, and tell me, if, little as
I am, I can be any way of the least use to you.

You will see Emily before I do; she is more lovely, more enchanting,
than ever.

Mrs. Fitzgerald will make me happy if she can invent any commands
for me.

    Adieu! Believe me,
      Your faithful, &c.
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 178.


To Colonel Rivers, at Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Sept. 15.

Every mark of your friendship, my dear Rivers, must be particularly
pleasing to one who knows your worth as I do: I have, therefore, to
thank you as well for your letter, as for those obliging offers of
service, which I shall make no scruple of accepting, if I have occasion
for them.

I rejoice in the prospect of your being as happy as myself: nothing
can be more just than your ideas of marriage; I mean, of a marriage
founded on inclination: all that you describe, I am so happy as to
experience.

I never loved my sweet girl so tenderly as since she has been mine;
my heart acknowledges the obligation of her having trusted the future
happiness or misery of her life in my hands. She is every hour more
dear to me; I value as I ought those thousand little attentions, by
which a new softness is every moment given to our affection.

I do not indeed feel the same tumultuous emotion at seeing her; but
I feel a sensation equally delightful: a joy more tranquil, but not
less lively.

I will own to you, that I had strong prejudices against marriage,
which nothing but love could have conquered; the idea of an
indissoluble union deterred me from thinking of a serious engagement: I
attached myself to the most seducing, most attractive of women,
without thinking the pleasure I found in seeing her of any consequence;
I thought her lovely, but never suspected I loved; I thought the
delight I tasted in hearing her, merely the effects of those charms
which all the world found in her conversation; my vanity was gratified
by the flattering preference she gave me to the rest of my sex; I
fancied this all, and imagined I could cease seeing the little syren
whenever I pleased.

I was, however, mistaken; love stole upon me imperceptibly, and
_en badinant_; I was enslaved, when I only thought myself amused.

We have not yet seen Miss Montague; we go down on Friday to
Berkshire, Bell having some letters for her, which she was desired to
deliver herself.

I will write to you again the moment I have seen her.

The invitation Mr. and Mrs. Temple have been so obliging as to give
us, is too pleasing to ourselves not to be accepted; we also expect
with impatience the time of visiting you at your farm.

      Adieu!
        Your affectionate
          J. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 179.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Stamford, Sept. 16, Evening.

Being here on some business, my dear friend, I receive your letter
in time to answer it to-night.

We hope to be in town this day seven-night; and I flatter myself,
my dearest Emily will not delay my happiness many days longer: I grudge
you the pleasure of seeing her on Friday.

I triumph greatly in your having been seduced into matrimony,
because I never knew a man more of a turn to make an agreable husband;
it was the idea that occurred to me the first moment I saw you.

Do you know, my dear Fitzgerald, that, if your little syren had not
anticipated my purpose, I had designs upon you for my sister?

Through that careless, inattentive look of yours, I saw so much
right sense, and so affectionate a heart, that I wished nothing so much
as that she might have attached you; and had laid a scheme to bring you
acquainted, hoping the rest from the merit so conspicuous in you both.

Both are, however, so happily disposed of elsewhere, that I have no
reason to regret my scheme did not succeed.

There is something in your person, as well as manner, which I am
convinced must be particularly pleasing to women; with an extremely
agreable form, you have a certain manly, spirited air, which promises
them a protector; a look of understanding, which is the indication of a
pleasing companion; a sensibility of countenance, which speaks a friend
and a lover; to which I ought to add, an affectionate, constant
attention to women, and a polite indifference to men, which above all
things flatters the vanity of the sex.

Of all men breathing, I should have been most afraid of you as a
rival; Mrs. Fitzgerald has told me, you have said the same thing of me.

Happily, however, our tastes were different; the two amiable
objects of our tenderness were perhaps equally lovely; but it is not
the meer form, it is the character that strikes: the fire, the spirit,
the vivacity, the awakened manner, of Miss Fermor won you; whilst my
heart was captivated by that bewitching languor, that seducing
softness, that melting sensibility, in the air of my sweet Emily, which
is, at least to me, more touching than all the sprightliness in the
world.

There is in true sensibility of soul, such a resistless charm, that
we are even affected by that of which we are not ourselves the object:
we feel a degree of emotion at being witness to the affection which
another inspires.

'Tis late, and my horses are at the door.

      Adieu! Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 180.


To Miss Montague, Rose-hill, Berkshire.

Temple-house, Sept. 16.

I have but a moment, my dearest Emily, to tell you heaven favors
your tenderness: it removes every anxiety from two of the worthiest and
most gentle of human hearts.

You and my brother have both lamented to me the painful necessity
you were under, of reducing my mother to a less income than that to
which she had been accustomed.

An unexpected event has restored to her more than what her
tenderness for my brother had deprived her of.

A relation abroad, who owed every thing to her father's friendship,
has sent her, as an acknowledgement of that friendship, a deed of gift,
settling on her four hundred pounds a year for life.

My brother is at Stamford, and is yet unacquainted with this
agreable event.

You will hear from him next post.

      Adieu! my dear Emily!
        Your affectionate
          L. Temple.


END OF VOL. III.




THE HISTORY OF EMILY MONTAGUE.


Vol. IV



LETTER 181.


To Colonel Rivers, at Bellfield, Rutland.

Rose-hill, Sept. 17.

Can you in earnest ask such a question? can you suppose I ever felt
the least degree of love for Sir George? No, my Rivers, never did your
Emily feel tenderness till she saw the loveliest, the most amiable of
his sex, till those eyes spoke the sentiments of a soul every idea of
which was similar to her own.

Yes, my Rivers, our souls have the most perfect resemblance: I never
heard you speak without finding the feelings of my own heart developed;
your conversation conveyed your Emily's ideas, but cloathed in the
language of angels.

I thought well of Sir George; I saw him as the man destined to be my
husband; I fancied he loved me, and that gratitude obliged me to a
return; carried away by the ardor of my friends for this marriage, I
rather suffered than approved his addresses; I had not courage to
resist the torrent, I therefore gave way to it; I loved no other, I
fancied my want of affection a native coldness of temper. I felt a
languid esteem, which I endeavored to flatter myself was love; but the
moment I saw you, the delusion vanished.

Your eyes, my Rivers, in one moment convinced me I had a heart; you
staid some weeks with us in the country: with what transport do I
recollect those pleasing moments! how did my heart beat whenever you
approached me! what charms did I find in your conversation! I heard you
talk with a delight of which I was not mistress. I fancied every woman
who saw you felt the same emotions: my tenderness increased
imperceptibly without my perceiving the consequences of my indulging
the dear pleasure of seeing you.

I found I loved, yet was doubtful of your sentiments; my heart,
however, flattered me yours was equally affected; my situation
prevented an explanation; but love has a thousand ways of making
himself understood.

How dear to me were those soft, those delicate attentions, which
told me all you felt for me, without communicating it to others!

Do you remember that day, my Rivers, when, sitting in the little
hawthorn grove, near the borders of the river, the rest of the company,
of which Sir George was one, ran to look at a ship that was passing: I
would have followed; you asked me to stay, by a look which it was
impossible to mistake; nothing could be more imprudent than my stay,
yet I had not resolution to refuse what I saw gave you pleasure: I
stayed; you pressed my hand, you regarded me with a look of unutterable
love.

My Rivers, from that dear moment your Emily vowed never to be
another's: she vowed not to sacrifice all the happiness of her life to
a romantic parade of fidelity to a man whom she had been betrayed into
receiving as a lover; she resolved, if necessary, to own to him the
tenderness with which you had inspired her, to entreat from his esteem,
from his compassion, a release from engagements which made her
wretched.

My heart burns with the love of virtue, I am tremblingly alive to
fame: what bitterness then must have been my portion had I first seen
you when the wife of another!

Such is the powerful sympathy that unites us, that I fear, that
virtue, that strong sense of honor and fame, so powerful in minds most
turned to tenderness, would only have served to make more poignant the
pangs of hopeless, despairing love.

How blest am I, that we met before my situation made it a crime to
love you! I shudder at the idea how wretched I might have been, had I
seen you a few months later.

I am just returned from a visit at a few miles distance. I find a
letter from my dear Bell, that she will be here to-morrow; how do I
long to see her, to talk to her of my Rivers!

I am interrupted.

      Adieu! Yours,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 182.


To Mrs. Temple.

Rose-hill, Sept. 18, Morning.

I have this moment, my dear Mrs. Temple's letter: she will imagine
my transport at the happy event she mentions; my dear Rivers has, in
some degree, sacrificed even filial affection to his tenderness for me;
the consciousness of this has ever cast a damp on the pleasure I should
otherwise have felt, at the prospect of spending my life with the most
excellent of mankind: I shall now be his, without the painful
reflection of having lessened the enjoyments of the best parent that
ever existed.

I should be blest indeed, my amiable friend, if I did not suffer
from my too anxious tenderness; I dread the possibility of my becoming
in time less dear to your brother; I love him to such excess that I
could not survive the loss of his affection.

There is no distress, no want, I could not bear with delight for
him; but if I lose his heart, I lose all for which life is worth
keeping.

Could I bear to see those looks of ardent love converted into the
cold glances of indifference!

You will, my dearest friend, pity a heart, whose too great
sensibility wounds itself: why should I fear? was ever tenderness equal
to that of my Rivers? can a heart like his change from caprice? It
shall be the business of my life to merit his tenderness.

I will not give way to fears which injure him, and, indulged, would
destroy all my happiness.

I expect Mr. and Mrs. Fitzgerald every moment. Adieu!

      Your affectionate
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 183.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Sept. 17.

You say true, my dear Fitzgerald: friendship, like love, is more the
child of sympathy than of reason; though inspired by qualities very
opposite to those which give love, it strikes like that in a moment:
like that, it is free as air, and, when constrained, loses all its
spirit.

In both, from some nameless cause, at least some cause to us
incomprehensible, the affections take fire the instant two persons,
whose minds are in unison, observe each other, which, however, they may
often meet without doing.

It is therefore as impossible for others to point out objects of our
friendship as love; our choice must be uninfluenced, if we wish to find
happiness in either.

Cold, lifeless esteem may grow from a long tasteless acquaintance;
but real affection makes a sudden and lively impression.

This impression is improved, is strengthened by time, and a more
intimate knowledge of the merit of the person who makes it; but it is,
it must be, spontaneous, or be nothing.

I felt this sympathy powerfully in regard to yourself; I had the
strongest partiality for you before I knew how very worthy you were of
my esteem.

Your countenance and manner made an impression on me, which inclined
me to take your virtues upon trust.

It is not always safe to depend on these preventive feelings; but in
general the face is a pretty faithful index of the mind.

I propose being in town in four or five days.

Twelve o'clock.

My mother has this moment a second letter from her relation, who is
coming home, and proposes a marriage between me and his daughter, to
whom he will give twenty thousand pounds now, and the rest of his
fortune at his death.

As Emily's fault, if love can allow her one, is an excess of
romantic generosity, the fault of most uncorrupted female minds, I am
very anxious to marry her before she knows of this proposal, lest she
should think it a proof of tenderness to aim at making me wretched, in
order to make me rich.

I therefore entreat you and Mrs. Fitzgerald to stay at Rose-hill,
and prevent her coming to town, till she is mine past the power of
retreat.

Our relation may have mentioned his design to persons less prudent
than our little party; and she may hear of it, if she is in London.

But, independently of my fear of her spirit of romance, I feel that
it would be an indelicacy to let her know of this proposal at present,
and look like attempting to make a merit of my refusal.

It is not to you, my dear friend, I need say the gifts of fortune
are nothing to me without her for whose sake alone I wish to possess
them: you know my heart, and you also know this is the sentiment of
every man who loves.

But I can with truth say much more; I do not even wish an increase
of fortune, considering it abstractedly from its being incompatible
with my marriage with the loveliest of women; I am indifferent to all
but independence; wealth would not make me happier; on the contrary, it
might break in on my present little plan of enjoyment, by forcing me to
give to common acquaintance, of whom wealth will always attract a
crowd, those precious hours devoted to friendship and domestic
pleasure.

I think my present income just what a wise man would wish, and very
sincerely join in the philosophical prayer of the royal prophet, "Give
me neither poverty nor riches."

I love the vale, and had always an aversion to very extensive
prospects.

I will hasten my coming as much as possible, and hope to be at
Rose-hill on Monday next: I shall be a prey to anxiety till Emily is
irrevocably mine.

Tell Mrs. Fitzgerald, I am all impatience to kiss her hand.

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 184.


To Captain Fermor.

Richmond, Sept. 18.

I am this moment returned to Richmond from a journey: I am rejoiced
at your arrival, and impatient to see you; for I am so happy as not to
have out-lived my impatience.

How is my little Bell? I am as much in love with her as ever; this
you will conceal from Captain Fitzgerald, lest he should be alarmed,
for I am as formidable a rival as a man of fourscore can be supposed to
be.

I am extremely obliged to you, my dear Fermor, for having introduced
me to a very amiable man, in your friend Colonel Rivers.

I begin to be so sensible I am an old fellow, that I feel a very
lively degree of gratitude to the young ones who visit me; and look on
every agreable new acquaintance under thirty as an acquisition I had no
right to expect.

You know I have always thought personal advantages of much more real
value than accidental ones; and that those who possessed the former had
much the greatest right to be proud.

Youth, health, beauty, understanding, are substantial goods; wealth
and title comparatively ideal ones; I therefore think a young man who
condescends to visit an old one, the healthy who visit the sick, the
man of sense who spends his time with a fool, and even a handsome
fellow with an ugly one, are the persons who confer the favor,
whatever difference there may be in rank or fortune.

Colonel Rivers did me the honor to spend a day with me here, and I
have not often lately passed a pleasanter one: the desire I had not to
discredit your partial recommendation, and my very strong inclinations
to seduce him to come again, made me intirely discard the old man; and
I believe your friend will tell you the hours did not pass on leaden
wings.

I expect you, with Mr. and Mrs. Fitzgerald, to pass some time with
me at Richmond.

I have the best claret in the universe, and as lively a relish for
it as at five and twenty.

      Adieu! Your affectionate
          H----



LETTER 185.


To Colonel Rivers, at Bellfield, Rutland.

Rose-hill, Sept. 18.

Since I sent away my letter, I have your last.

You tell me, my dear Rivers, the strong emotion I betrayed at seeing
Sir George, when you came together to Montreal, made you fear I loved
him; that you were jealous of the blush which glowed on my cheek, when
he entered the room: that you still remember it with regret; that you
still fancy I had once some degree of tenderness for him, and beg me to
account for the apparent confusion I betrayed at his sight.

I own that emotion; my confusion was indeed too great to be
concealed: but was he alone, my Rivers? can you forget that he had with
him the most lovely of mankind?

Sir George was handsome; I have often regarded his person with
admiration, but it was the admiration we give to a statue.

I listened coldly to his love, I felt no emotion at his sight; but
when you appeared, my heart beat, I blushed, I turned pale by turns, my
eyes assumed a new softness, I trembled, and every pulse confessed the
master of my soul.

My friends are come: I am called down. Adieu! Be assured your Emily
never breathed a sigh but for her Rivers!

      Adieu! Yours,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 186.


To Colonel Rivers, at Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Sept. 18.

I have this moment your letter; we are setting out in ten minutes
for Rose-hill, where I will finish this, and hope to give you a
pleasing account of your Emily.

You are certainly right in keeping this proposal secret at present;
depend on our silence; I could, however, wish you the fortune, were it
possible to have it without the lady.

Were I to praise your delicacy on this occasion, I should injure
you; it was not in your power to act differently; you are only
consistent with yourself.

I am pleased with your idea of a situation: a house embosomed in the
grove, where all the view is what the eye can take in, speaks a happy
master, content at home; a wide-extended prospect, one who is looking
abroad for happiness.

I love the country: the taste for rural scenes is the taste born
with us. After seeking pleasure in vain amongst the works of art, we
are forced to come back to the point from whence we set out, and find
our enjoyment in the lovely simplicity of nature.

Rose-hill, Evening.

I am afraid Emily knows your secret; she has been in tears almost
ever since we came; the servant is going to the post-office, and I have
but a moment to tell you we will stay here till your arrival, which
you will hasten as much as possible.

    Adieu!
        Your affectionate
          J. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 187.


To Colonel Rivers, at Bellfield, Rutland.

Rose-hill, Sept. 18.

If I was not certain of your esteem and friendship, my dear Rivers,
I should tremble at the request I am going to make you.

It is to suspend our marriage for some time, and not ask me the
reason of this delay.

Be assured of my tenderness; be assured my whole soul is yours, that
you are dearer to me than life, that I love you as never woman loved;
that I live, I breathe but for you; that I would die to make you happy.

In what words shall I convey to the most beloved of his sex, the
ardent tenderness of my soul? how convince him of what I suffer from
being forced to make a request so contrary to the dictates of my heart?

He cannot, will not doubt his Emily's affection: I cannot support
the idea that it is possible he should for one instant. What I suffer
at this moment is inexpressible.

My heart is too much agitated to say more.

I will write again in a few days.

I know not what I would say; but indeed, my Rivers, I love you; you
yourself can scarce form an idea to what excess!

      Adieu! Your faithful
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 188.


To Miss Montague, Rose-hill, Berkshire.

Bellfield, Sept. 20.

No, Emily, you never loved; I have been long hurt by your
tranquillity in regard to our marriage; your too scrupulous attention
to decorum in leaving my sister's house might have alarmed me, if love
had not placed a bandage before my eyes.

Cruel girl! I repeat it; you never loved; I have your friendship,
but you know nothing of that ardent passion, that dear enthusiasm,
which makes us indifferent to all but itself: your love is from the
imagination, not the heart.

The very professions of tenderness in your last, are a proof of your
consciousness of indifference; you repeat too often that you love me;
you say too much; that anxiety to persuade me of your affection, shews
too plainly you are sensible I have reason to doubt it.

You have placed me on the rack; a thousand fears, a thousand doubts,
succeed each other in my soul. Has some happier man--

No, my Emily, distracted as I am, I will not be unjust: I do not
suspect you of inconstancy; 'tis of your coldness only I complain: you
never felt the lively impatience of love; or you would not condemn a
man, whom you at least esteem, to suffer longer its unutterable
tortures.

If there is a real cause for this delay, why conceal it from me?
have I not a right to know what so nearly interests me? but what cause?
are you not mistress of yourself?

My Emily, you blush to own to me the insensibility of your heart:
you once fancied you loved; you are ashamed to say you were mistaken.

You cannot surely have been influenced by any motive relative to our
fortune; no idle tale can have made you retract a promise, which
rendered me the happiest of mankind: if I have your heart, I am richer
than an oriental monarch.

Short as life is, my dearest girl, is it of consequence what part we
play in it? is wealth at all essential to happiness?

The tender affections are the only sources of true pleasure; the
highest, the most respectable titles, in the eye of reason, are the
tender ones of friend, of husband, and of father: it is from the dear
soft ties of social love your Rivers expects his felicity.

You have but one way, my dear Emily, to convince me of your
tenderness: I shall set off for Rose-hill in twelve hours; you must
give me your hand the moment I arrive, or confess your Rivers was never
dear to you.

Write, and send a servant instantly to meet me at my mother's house
in town: I cannot support the torment of suspense.

There is not on earth so wretched a being as I am at this moment; I
never knew till now to what excess I loved: you must be mine, my Emily,
or I must cease to live.



LETTER 189.


To Captain Fitzgerald, Rose-hill, Berkshire.

Bellfield, Sept. 20.

All I feared has certainly happened; Emily has undoubtedly heard of
this proposal, and, from a parade of generosity, a generosity however
inconsistent with love, wishes to postpone our marriage till my
relation arrives.

I am hurt beyond words, at the manner in which she has wrote to me
on this subject; I have, in regard to Sir George, experienced that
these are not the sentiments of a heart truly enamored.

I therefore fear this romantic step is the effect of a coldness of
which I thought her incapable; and that her affection is only a more
lively degree of friendship, with which, I will own to you, my heart
will not be satisfied.

I would engross, I would employ, I would absorb, every faculty of
that lovely mind.

I have too long suffered prudence to delay my happiness: I cannot
longer live without her: if she loves me, I shall on Tuesday call her
mine.

Adieu! I shall be with you almost as soon as this letter.

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 190.


To Colonel Rivers, Clarges Street.

Rose-hill, Sept. 21.

Is it then possible? can my Rivers doubt his Emily's tenderness?

Do I only esteem you, my Rivers? can my eyes have so ill explained
the feelings of my heart?

You accuse me of not sharing your impatience: do you then allow
nothing to the modesty, the blushing delicacy, of my sex?

Could you see into my soul, you would cease to call me cold and
insensible.

Can you forget, my Rivers, those moments, when, doubtful of the
sentiments of your heart, mine every instant betrayed its weakness?
when every look spoke the resistless fondness of my soul! when, lost in
the delight of seeing you, I forgot I was almost the wife of another?

But I will say no more; my Rivers tells me I have already said too
much: he is displeased with his Emily's tenderness; he complains, that
I tell him too often I love him.

You say I can give but one certain proof of my affection.

I will give you that proof: I will be yours whenever you please,
though ruin should be the consequence to both; I despise every other
consideration, when my Rivers's happiness is at stake: is there any
request he is capable of making, which his Emily will refuse?

You are the arbiter of my fate: I have no will but yours; yet I
entreat you to believe no common cause could have made me hazard giving
a moment's pain to that dear bosom: you will one time know to what
excess I have loved you.

Were the empire of the world or your affection offered me, I should
not hesitate one moment on the choice, even were I certain never to see
you more.

I cannot form an idea of happiness equal to that of being beloved by
the most amiable of mankind.

Judge then, if I would lightly wish to defer an event, which is to
give me the transport of passing my life in the dear employment of
making him happy.

I only entreat that you will decline asking me, till I judge proper
to tell you, why I first begged our marriage might be deferred: let it
be till then forgot I ever made such a request.

You will not, my dear Rivers, refuse this proof of complaisance to
her who too plainly shews she can refuse you nothing.

      Adieu! Yours,
          Emily Montague.



LETTER 191.


To Miss Montague, Rose-hill, Berkshire.

Clarges Street, Sept. 21, Two o'clock.

Can you, my angel, forgive my insolent impatience, and attribute it
to the true cause, excess of love?

Could I be such a monster as to blame my sweet Emily's dear
expressions of tenderness? I hate myself for being capable of writing
such a letter.

Be assured, I will strictly comply with all she desires: what
condition is there on which I would not make the loveliest of women
mine?

I will follow the servant in two hours; I shall be at Rose-hill by
eight o'clock.

    Adieu! my dearest Emily!
        Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 192.


To John Temple, Esq; Temple-house, Rutland.

Sept. 21, Nine at night.

The loveliest of women has consented to make me happy: she
remonstrated, she doubted; but her tenderness conquered all her
reluctance. To-morrow I shall call her mine.

We shall set out immediately for your house, where we hope to be the
next day to dinner: you will therefore postpone your journey to town a
week, at the end of which we intend going to Bellfield. Captain Fermor
and Mrs. Fitzgerald accompany us down. Emily's relation, Mrs. H----, has
business which prevents her; and Fitzgerald is obliged to stay another
month in town, to transact the affair of his majority.

Never did Emily look so lovely as this evening: there is a sweet
confusion, mixed with tenderness, in her whole look and manner, which
is charming beyond all expression.

Adieu! I have not a moment to spare: even this absence from her is
treason to love. Say every thing for me to my mother and Lucy.

      Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 193.


To John Temple, Esq. Temple-house, Rutland.

Rose-hill, Sept. 22, Ten o'clock.

She is mine, my dear Temple; and I am happy almost above mortality.

I cannot paint to you her loveliness; the grace, the dignity, the
mild majesty of her air, is softened by a smile like that of angels:
her eyes have a tender sweetness, her cheeks a blush of refined
affection, which must be seen to be imagined.

I envy Captain Fermor the happiness of being in the same chaise with
her; I shall be very bad company to Bell, who insists on my being her
cecisbeo for the journey.

Adieu! The chaises are at the door.

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 194.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Temple-house, Sept. 29.

I regret your not being with us, more than I can express.

I would have every friend I love a witness of my happiness.

I thought my tenderness for Emily as great as man could feel, yet
find it every moment increase; every moment she is more dear to my
soul.

The angel delicacy of that lovely mind is inconceivable; had she no
other charm, I should adore her: what a lustre does modesty throw round
beauty!

We remove to-morrow to Bellfield: I am impatient to see my sweet
girl in her little empire: I am tired of the continual crowd in which
we live at Temple's: I would not pass the life he does for all his
fortune; I sigh for the power of spending my time as I please, for the
dear shades of retirement and friendship.

How little do mankind know their own happiness! every pleasure worth
a wish is in the power of almost all mankind.

Blind to true joy, ever engaged in a wild pursuit of what is always
in our power, anxious for that wealth which we falsely imagine
necessary to our enjoyments, we suffer our best hours to pass
tastelessly away; we neglect the pleasures which are suited to our
natures; and, intent on ideal schemes of establishments at which we
never arrive, let the dear hours of social delight escape us.

Hasten to us, my dear Fitzgerald: we want only you, to fill our
little circle of friends.

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 195.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Oct. 3.

What delight is there in obliging those we love!

My heart dilated with joy at seeing Emily pleased with the little
embellishments of her apartment, which I had made as gay and smiling
as the morn; it looked, indeed, as if the hand of love had adorned it:
she has a dressing room and closet of books, into which I shall never
intrude: there is a pleasure in having some place which we can say is
peculiarly our own, some _sanctum sanctorum_, whither we can
retire even from those most dear to us.

This is a pleasure in which I have been indulged almost from
infancy, and therefore one of the first I thought of procuring for my
sweet Emily.

I told her I should, however, sometimes expect to be amongst her
guests in this little retirement.

Her look, her tender smile, the speaking glance of grateful love,
gave me a transport, which only minds turned to affection can conceive.
I never, my dear Fitzgerald, was happy before: the attachment I once
mentioned was pleasing; but I felt a regret, at knowing the object of
my tenderness had forfeited the good opinion of the world, which
embittered all my happiness.

She possessed my esteem, because I knew her heart; but I wanted to
see her esteemed by others.

With Emily I enjoy this pleasure in its utmost extent: she is the
adoration of all who see her; she is equally admired, esteemed,
respected.

She seems to value the admiration she excites, only as it appears to
gratify the pride of her lover; what transport, when all eyes are fixed
on her, to see her searching around for mine, and attentive to no other
object, as if insensible to all other approbation!

I enjoy the pleasures of friendship as well as those of love: were
you here, my dear Fitzgerald, we should be the happiest groupe on the
globe; but all Bell's sprightliness cannot preserve her from an air of
chagrin in your absence.

Come as soon as possible, my dear friend, and leave us nothing to
wish for.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 196.


To Colonel Rivers, Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Oct. 8.

You are very cruel, my dear Rivers, to tantalize me with your
pictures of happiness.

Notwithstanding this spite, I am sorry I must break in on your
groupe of friends; but it is absolutely necessary for Bell and my
father to return immediately to town, in order to settle some family
business, previous to my purchase of the majority.

Indeed, I am not very fond of letting Bell stay long amongst you;
for she gives me such an account of your attention and complaisance to
Mrs. Rivers, that I am afraid she will think me a careless fellow when
we meet again.

You seem in the high road, not only to spoil your own wife, but mine
too; which it is certainly my affair to prevent.

Say every thing for me to the ladies of your family.

      Adieu! Your affectionate
          J. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 197.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Oct. 10.

You are a malicious fellow, Fitzgerald, and I am half inclined to
keep the sweet Bell by force; take all the men away if you please, but
I cannot bear the loss of a woman, especially of such a woman.

If I was not more a lover than a husband, I am not sure I should not
wish to take my revenge.

To make me happy, you must place me in a circle of females, all as
pleasing as those now with me, and turn every male creature out of the
house.

I am a most intolerable monopolizer of the sex; in short, I have
very little relish for any conversation but theirs: I love their sweet
prattle beyond all the sense and learning in the world.

Not that I would insinuate they have less understanding than we, or
are less capable of learning, or even that it less becomes them.

On the contrary, all such knowledge as tends to adorn and soften
human life and manners, is, in my opinion, peculiarly becoming in
women.

You don't deserve a longer letter.

      Adieu! Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 198.


To Mrs. Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Oct. 12.

I am very conscious, my dear Bell, of not meriting the praises my
Rivers lavishes on me, yet the pleasure I receive from them is not the
less lively for that consideration; on the contrary, the less I deserve
these praises, the more flattering they are to me, as the stronger
proofs of his love; of that love which gives ideal charms, which
adorns, which embellishes its object.

I had rather be lovely in his eyes, than in those of all mankind;
or, to speak more exactly, if I continue to please him, the admiration
of all the world is indifferent to me: it is for his sake alone I wish
for beauty, to justify the dear preference he has given me.

How pleasing are these sweet shades! were they less so, my Rivers's
presence would give them every charm: every object has appeared to me
more lovely since the dear moment when I first saw him; I seem to have
acquired a new existence from his tenderness.

You say true, my dear Bell: heaven doubtless formed us to be happy,
even in this world; and we obey its dictates in being so, when we can
without encroaching on the happiness of others.

This lesson is, I think, plain from the book providence has spread
before us: the whole universe smiles, the earth is clothed in lively
colors, the animals are playful, the birds sing: in being chearful with
innocence, we seem to conform to the order of nature, and the will of
that beneficent Power to whom we owe our being.

If the Supreme Creator had meant us to be gloomy, he would, it seems
to me, have clothed the earth in black, not in that lively green, which
is the livery of chearfulness and joy.

I am called away.

    Adieu! my dearest Bell.
      Your faithful
          Emily Rivers.



LETTER 199.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Oct. 14.

You flatter me most agreably, my dear Fitzgerald, by praising Emily;
I want you to see her again; she is every hour more charming: I am
astonished any man can behold her without love.

Yet, lovely as she is, her beauty is her least merit; the finest
understanding, the most pleasing kind of knowledge; tenderness,
sensibility, modesty, and truth, adorn her almost with rays of
divinity.

She has, beyond all I ever saw in either sex, the polish of the
world, without having lost that sweet simplicity of manner, that
unaffected innocence, and integrity of heart, which are so very apt to
evaporate in a crowd.

I ride out often alone, in order to have the pleasure of returning
to her: these little absences give new spirit to our tenderness. Every
care forsakes me at the sight of this temple of real love; my sweet
Emily meets me with smiles; her eyes brighten when I approach; she
receives my friends with the most lively pleasure, because they are my
friends; I almost envy them her attention, though given for my sake.

Elegant in her dress and house, she is all transport when any little
ornament of either pleases me; but what charms me most, is her
tenderness for my mother, in whose heart she rivals both me and Lucy.

My happiness, my friend, is beyond every idea I had formed; were I a
little richer, I should not have a wish remaining. Do not, however,
imagine this wish takes from my felicity.

I have enough for myself, I have even enough for Emily; love makes
us indifferent to the parade of life.

But I have not enough to entertain my friends as I wish, nor to
enjoy the god-like pleasure of beneficence.

We shall be obliged, in order to support the little appearance
necessary to our connexions, to give an attention rather too strict to
our affairs; even this, however, our affection for each other will make
easy to us.

My whole soul is so taken up with this charming woman, I am afraid I
shall become tedious even to you; I must learn to restrain my
tenderness, and write on common subjects.

I am more and more pleased with the way of life I have chose; and,
were my fortune ever so large, would pass the greatest part of the year
in the country: I would only enlarge my house, and fill it with
friends.

My situation is a very fine one, though not like the magnificent
scenes to which we have been accustomed in Canada: the house stands on
the sunny side of a hill, at the foot of which, the garden intervening,
runs a little trout stream, which to the right seems to be lost in an
island of oziers, and over which is a rustic bridge into a very
beautiful meadow, where at present graze a numerous flock of sheep.

Emily is planning a thousand embellishments for the garden, and will
next year make it a wilderness of sweets, a paradise worthy its lovely
inhabitant: she is already forming walks and flowery arbors in the
wood, and giving the whole scene every charm which taste, at little
expence, can bestow.

I, on my side, am selecting spots for plantations of trees; and
mean, like a good citizen, to serve at once myself and the public, by
raising oaks, which may hereafter bear the British thunder to distant
lands.

I believe we country gentlemen, whilst we have spirit to keep
ourselves independent, are the best citizens, as well as subjects, in
the world.

Happy ourselves, we wish not to destroy the tranquillity of others;
intent on cares equally useful and pleasing, with no views but to
improve our fortunes by means equally profitable to ourselves and to
our country, we form no schemes of dishonest ambition; and therefore
disturb no government to serve our private designs.

It is the profuse, the vicious, the profligate, the needy, who are
the Clodios and Catilines of this world.

That love of order, of moral harmony, so natural to virtuous minds,
to minds at ease, is the strongest tie of rational obedience.

The man who feels himself prosperous and happy, will not easily be
perswaded by factious declamation that he is undone.

Convinced of the excellency of our constitution, in which liberty
and prerogative are balanced with the steadiest hand, he will not
endeavor to remove the boundaries which secure both: he will not
endeavor to root it up, whilst he is pretending to give it
nourishment: he will not strive to cut down the lovely and venerable
tree under whose shade he enjoys security and peace.

In short, and I am sure you will here be of my opinion, the man who
has competence, virtue, true liberty, and the woman he loves, will
chearfully obey the laws which secure him these blessings, and the
prince under whose mild sway he enjoys them.

    Adieu!
      Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 200.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Oct. 17.

I every hour see more strongly, my dear Fitzgerald, the wisdom, as
to our own happiness, of not letting our hearts be worn out by a
multitude of intrigues before marriage.

Temple loves my sister, he is happy with her; but his happiness is
by no means of the same kind with yours and mine; she is beautiful, and
he thinks her so; she is amiable, and he esteems her; he prefers her to
all other women, but he feels nothing of that trembling delicacy of
sentiment, that quick sensibility, which gives to love its most
exquisite pleasures, and which I would not give up for the wealth of
worlds.

His affection is meer passion, and therefore subject to change; ours
is that heartfelt tenderness, which time renders every moment more
pleasing.

The tumult of desire is the fever of the soul; its health, that
delicious tranquillity where the heart is gently moved, not violently
agitated; that tranquillity which is only to be found where friendship
is the basis of love, and where we are happy without injuring the
object beloved: in other words, in a marriage of choice.

In the voyage of life, passion is the tempest, love the gentle gale.

Dissipation, and a continued round of amusements at home, will
probably secure my sister all of Temple's heart which remains; but his
love would grow languid in that state of retirement, which would have a
thousand charms for minds like ours.

I will own to you, I have fears for Lucy's happiness.

But let us drop so painful a subject.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 201.


To Colonel Rivers, Bellfield, Rutland.

Oct. 19.

Nothing, my dear Rivers, shews the value of friendship more than the
envy it excites.

The world will sooner pardon us any advantage, even wealth, genius,
or beauty, than that of having a faithful friend; every selfish bosom
swells with envy at the sight of those social connexions, which are the
cordials of life, and of which our narrow prejudices alone prevent our
enjoyment.

Those who have neither hearts to feel this generous affection, nor
merit to deserve it, hate all who are in this respect happier than
themselves; they look on a friend as an invaluable blessing, and a
blessing out of their reach; and abhor all who possess the treasure for
which they sigh in vain.

For my own part, I had rather be the dupe of a thousand false
professions of friendship, than, for fear of being deceived, give up
the pursuit.

Dupes are happy at least for a time; but the cold, narrow,
suspicious heart never knows the glow of social pleasure.

In the same proportion as we lose our confidence in the virtues of
others, we lose our proper happiness.

The observation of this mean jealousy, so humiliating to human
nature, has influenced Lord Halifax, in his Advice to a Daughter, the
school of art, prudery, and selfish morals, to caution her against all
friendships, or, as he calls them, _dearnesses_, as what will make
the world envy and hate her.

After my sweet Bell's tenderness, I know no pleasure equal to your
friendship; nor would I give it up for the revenue of an eastern
monarch.

I esteem Temple, I love his conversation; he is gay and amusing;
but I shall never have for him the affection I feel for you.

I think you are too apprehensive in regard to your sister's
happiness: he loves her, and there is a certain variety in her manner,
a kind of agreable caprice, that I think will secure the heart of a man
of his turn, much more than her merit, or even the loveliness of her
person.

She is handsome, exquisitely so; handsomer than Bell, and, if you
will allow me to say so, than Emily.

I mean, that she is so in the eye of a painter; for in that of a
lover his mistress is the only beautiful object on earth.

I allow your sister to be very lovely, but I think Bell more
desirable a thousand times; and, rationally speaking, she who has,
_as to me_, the art of inspiring the most tenderness is, _as to me_,
to all intents and purposes the most beautiful woman.

In which faith I chuse to live and die.

I have an idea, Rivers, that you and I shall continue to be happy: a
real sympathy, a lively taste, mixed with esteem, led us to marry; the
delicacy, tenderness, and virtue, of the two most charming of women,
promise to keep our love alive.

We have both strong affections: both love the conversation of women;
and neither of our hearts are depraved by ill-chosen connexions with the
sex.

I am broke in upon, and must bid you adieu!

      Your affectionate
          J. Fitzgerald.

Bell is writing to you. I shall be jealous.



LETTER 202.


To Colonel Rivers, Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Oct. 19.

I die to come to Bellfield again, my dear Rivers; I have a passion
for your little wood; it is a mighty pretty wood for an English wood,
but nothing to your Montmorencis; the dear little Silleri too--

But to return to the shades of Bellfield: your little wood is
charming indeed; not to particularize detached pieces of your scenery,
the _tout ensemble_ is very inviting; observe, however, I have no
notion of paradise without an Adam, and therefore shall bring
Fitzgerald with me next time.

What could induce you, with this sweet little retreat, to cross that
vile ocean to Canada? I am astonished at the madness of mankind, who
can expose themselves to pain, misery, and danger; and range the world
from motives of avarice and ambition, when the rural cot, the fanning
gale, the clear stream, and flowery bank, offer such delicious
enjoyments at home.

You men are horrid, rapacious animals, with your spirit of
enterprize, and your nonsense: ever wanting more land than you can
cultivate, and more money than you can spend.

That eternal pursuit of gain, that rage of accumulation, in which
you are educated, corrupts your hearts, and robs you of half the
pleasures of life.

I should not, however, make so free with the sex, if you and my
_caro sposo_ were not exceptions.

You two have really something of the sensibility and generosity of
women.

Do you know, Rivers, I have a fancy you and Fitzgerald will always
be happy husbands? this is something owing to yourselves, and something
to us; you have both that manly tenderness, and true generosity, which
inclines you to love creatures who have paid you the compliment of
making their happiness or misery depend entirely on you, and partly to
the little circumstance of your being married to two of the most
agreable women breathing.

To speak _en philosophe_, my dear Rivers, you are not to be
told, that the fire of love, like any other fire, is equally put out
by too much or too little fuel.

Now Emily and I, without vanity, besides our being handsome and
amazingly sensible, to say nothing of our pleasing kind of sensibility,
have a certain just idea of causes and effects, with a natural blushing
reserve, and bridal delicacy, which I am apt to flatter myself--

Do you understand me, Rivers? I am not quite clear I understand
myself.

All that I would insinuate is, that Emily and I are, take us for all
in all, the two most charming women in the world, and that, whoever
leaves us, must change immensely for the worse.

I believe Lucy equally pleasing, but I think her charms have not so
good a subject to work upon.

Temple is a handsome fellow, and loves her; but he has not the
tenderness of heart that I so much admire in two certain youths of my
acquaintance.

He is rich indeed; but who cares?

Certainly, my dear Rivers, nothing can be more absurd, or more
destructive to happiness, than the very wrong turn we give our
children's imaginations about marriage.

If miss and master are good, she is promised a rich husband, and a
coach and six, and he a wife with a monstrous great fortune.

Most of these fine promises must fail; and where they do not, the
poor things have only the consolation of finding, when too late to
retreat, that the objects to which all their wishes were pointed have
really nothing to do with happiness.

Is there a nabobess on earth half as happy as the two foolish little
girls about whom I have been writing, though married to such poor
devils as you and Fitzgerald? _Certainement_ no.

And so ends my sermon.

      Adieu!
        Your most obedient,
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 203.


To John Temple, Esq; Temple-house, Rutland.

Bellfield, Oct. 21.

You ridicule my enthusiasm, my dear Temple, without considering
there is no exertion of the human mind, no effort of the understanding,
imagination, or heart, without a spark of this divine fire.

Without enthusiasm, genius, virtue, pleasure, even love itself,
languishes; all that refines, adorns, softens, exalts, ennobles life,
has its source in this animating principle.

I glory in being an enthusiast in every thing; but in nothing so
much as in my tenderness for this charming woman.

I am a perfect Quixote in love, and would storm enchanted castles,
and fight giants, for my Emily.

Coldness of temper damps every spring that moves the human heart; it
is equally an enemy to pleasure, riches, fame, to all which is worth
living for.

I thank you for your wishes that I was rich, but am by no means
anxious myself on the subject.

You sons of fortune, who possess your thousands a year, and find
them too little for your desires, desires which grow from that very
abundance, imagine every man miserable who wants them; in which you are
greatly mistaken.

Every real pleasure is within the reach of my little fortune, and I
am very indifferent about those which borrow their charms, not from
nature, but from fashion and caprice.

My house is indeed less than yours; but it is finely situated, and
large enough for my fortune: that part of it which belongs peculiarly
to my Emily is elegant.

I have an equipage, not for parade but use; and the loveliest of
women prefers it with me to all that luxury and magnificence could
bestow with another.

The flowers in my garden bloom as fair, the peach glows as deep, as
in yours: does a flower blush more lovely, or smell more sweet; a peach
look more tempting than its fellows, I select it for my Emily, who
receives it with delight, as the tender tribute of love.

In some respects, we are the more happy for being less rich: the
little avocations, which our mediocrity of fortune makes necessary to
both, are the best preventives of that languor, from being too
constantly together, which is all that love founded on taste and
friendship has to fear.

Had I my choice, I should wish for a very small addition only to my
income, and that for the sake of others, not myself.

I love pleasure, and think it our duty to make life as agreable as
is consistent with what we owe to others; but a true pleasurable
philosopher seeks his enjoyments where they are really to be found; not
in the gratifications of a childish pride, but of those affections
which are born with us, and which are the only rational sources of
enjoyment.

When I am walking in these delicious shades with Emily; when I see
those lovely eyes, softened with artless fondness, and hear the music
of that voice; when a thousand trifles, unobserved but by the prying
sight of love, betray all the dear sensations of that bosom, where
truth and delicate tenderness have fixed their seat, I know not the
Epicurean of whom I do not deserve to be the envy.

Does your fortune, my dear Temple, make you more than happy? if not,
why so very earnestly wish an addition to mine? believe me, there is
nothing about which I am more indifferent. I am ten times more anxious
to get the finest collection of flowers in the world for my Emily.

You observe justly, that there is nothing so insipid as women who
have conversed with women only; let me add, nor so brutal as men who
have lived only amongst men.

The desire of pleasing on each side, in an intercourse enlivened by
taste, and governed by delicacy and honor, calls forth all the graces
of the person and understanding, all the amiable sentiments of the
heart: it also gives good-breeding, ease, and a certain awakened
manner, which is not to be acquired but in mixed conversation.

Remember, you and my dear Lucy dine with us to-morrow; it is to be a
little family party, to indulge my mother in the delight of seeing her
children about her, without interruption: I have saved all my best
fruit for this day; we are to drink tea and sup in Emily's apartment.

      Adieu! Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.


I will to-morrow shew you better grapes than any you have at
Temple-house: you rich men fancy nobody has any thing good but
yourselves; but I hope next year to shew you that you are mistaken in a
thousand instances. I will have such roses and jessamines, such bowers
of intermingled sweets--you shall see what astonishing things Emily's
taste and my industry can do.



LETTER 204.


To Mrs. Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Oct. 22.

Finish your business, my dear girl, and let us see you again at
Bellfield. I need not tell you the pleasure Mr. Fitzgerald's
accompanying you will give us.

I die to see you, my dear Bell; it is not enough to be happy, unless
I have somebody to tell every moment that I am so: I want a confidante
of my tenderness, a friend like my Bell, indulgent to all my follies,
to talk to of the loveliest and most beloved of mankind. I want to tell
you a thousand little instances of that ardent, that refined affection,
which makes all the happiness of my life! I want to paint the
flattering attention, the delicate fondness of that dear lover, who is
only the more so for being a husband.

You are the only woman on earth to whom I can, without the
appearance of insult, talk of my Rivers, because you are the only one I
ever knew as happy as myself.

Fitzgerald, in the tenderness and delicacy of his mind, resembles
strongly--

I am interrupted: adieu! for a moment.

It was my Rivers, he brought me a bouquet; I opened the door,
supposing it was my mother; conscious of what I had been writing, I was
confused at seeing him; he smiled, and guessing the reason of my
embarrassment, "I must leave you, Emily; you are writing, and, by your
blushes, I know you have been talking of your lover."

I should have told you, he insists on never seeing the letters I
write, and gives this reason for it, That he should be a great loser by
seeing them, as it would restrain my pen when I talk of him.

I believe, I am very foolish in my tenderness; but you will forgive
me.

Rivers yesterday was throwing flowers at me and Lucy, in play, as we
were walking in the garden; I catched a wallflower, and, by an
involuntary impulse, kissed it, and placed it in my bosom.

He observed me, and his look of pleasure and affection is impossible
to be described. What exquisite pleasure there is in these agreable
follies!

He is the sweetest trifler in the world, my dear Bell: but in what
does he not excel all mankind!

As the season of autumnal flowers is almost over, he is sending for
all those which blow early in the spring: he prevents every wish his
Emily can form.

Did you ever, my dear, see so fine an autumn as this? you will,
perhaps, smile when I say, I never saw one so pleasing; such a season
is more lovely than even the spring: I want you down before this
agreable weather is all over.

I am going to air with my mother; my Rivers attends us on horseback;
you cannot think how amiable his attention is to both.

Adieu! my dear; my mother has sent to let me know she is ready.

      Your affectionate
          Emily Rivers.



LETTER 205.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Oct. 24.

Some author has said, "The happiness of the next world, to the
virtuous, will consist in enjoying the society of minds like their
own."

Why then should we not do our best to possess as much as possible of
this happiness here?

You will see this is a preface to a very earnest request to see
Captain Fitzgerald and the lovely Bell immediately at our farm: take
notice, I will not admit even business as an excuse much longer.

I am just come from a walk in the wood behind the house, with my
mother and Emily; I want you to see it before it loses all its charms;
in another fortnight, its present variegated foliage will be literally
_humbled in the dust_.

There is something very pleasing in this season, if it did not give
us the idea of the winter, which is approaching too fast.

The dryness of the air, the soft western breeze, the tremulous
motion of the falling leaves, the rustling of those already fallen
under our feet, their variety of lively colors, give a certain spirit
and agreable fluctuation to the scene, which is unspeakably pleasing.

By the way, we people of warm imaginations have vast advantages over
others; we scorn to be confined to present scenes, or to give
attention to such trifling objects as times and seasons.

I already anticipate the spring; see the woodbines and wild roses
bloom in my grove, and almost catch the gale of perfume.

Twelve o'clock.

I have this moment received your letter.

I am sorry for what you tell me of Miss H----; whose want of art has
led her into indiscretions.

'Tis too common to see the most innocent, nay, even the most
laudable actions censured by the world; as we cannot, however,
eradicate the prejudices of others, it is wisdom to yield to them in
things which are indifferent.

One ought to conform to, and respect the customs, as well as the
laws and religion of our country, where they are not contrary to
virtue, and to that moral sense which heaven has imprinted on our
souls; where they are contrary, every generous mind will despise them.

I agree with you, my dear friend, that two persons who love, not
only _seem_, but really are, handsomer to each other than to the
rest of the world.

When we look at those we ardently love, a new softness steals
unperceived into the eyes, the countenance is more animated, and the
whole form has that air of tender languor which has such charms for
sensible minds.

To prove the truth of this, my Emily approaches, fair as the rising
morn, led by the hand of the Graces; she sees her lover, and every
charm is redoubled; an involuntary smile, a blush of pleasure, speak a
passion, which is the pride of my soul.

Even her voice, melodious as it is by nature, is softened when she
addresses her happy Rivers.

She comes to ask my attendance on her and my mother; they are going
to pay a morning visit a few miles off.

Adieu! tell the little Bell I kiss her hand.

      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 206.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Three o'clock.

We are returned, and have met with an adventure, which I must tell
you.

About six miles from home, at the entrance of a small village, as I
was riding very fast, a little before the chaise, a boy about four
years old, beautiful as a Cupid, came out of a cottage on the
right-hand, and, running cross the road, fell almost under my horse's
feet.

I threw myself off in a moment; and snatching up the child, who was,
however, unhurt, carried him to the house.

I was met at the door by a young woman, plainly drest; but of a form
uncommonly elegant: she had seen the child fall, and her terror for him
was plainly marked in her countenance; she received him from me,
pressed him to her bosom, and, without speaking, melted into tears.

My mother and Emily had by this time reached the cottage; the
humanity of both was too much interested to let them pass: they
alighted, came into the house, and enquired about the child, with an
air of tenderness which was not lost on the young person, whom we
supposed his mother.

She appeared about two and twenty, was handsome, with an air of the
world, which the plainness of her dress could not hide; her countenance
was pensive, with a mixture of sensibility which instantly prejudiced
us all in her favor; her look seemed to say, she was unhappy, and that
she deserved to be otherwise.

Her manner was respectful, but easy and unconstrained; polite,
without being servile; and she acknowledged the interest we all seemed
to take in what related to her, in a manner that convinced us she
deserved it.

Though every thing about us, the extreme neatness, the elegant
simplicity of her house and little garden, her own person, that of the
child, both perfectly genteel, her politeness, her air of the world, in
a cottage like that of the meanest laborer, tended to excite the most
lively curiosity; neither good-breeding, humanity, nor the respect due
to those who appear unfortunate, would allow us to make any enquiries:
we left the place full of this adventure, convinced of the merit, as
well as unhappiness, of its fair inhabitant, and resolved to find out,
if possible, whether her misfortunes were of a kind to be alleviated,
and within our little power to alleviate.

I will own to you, my dear Fitzgerald, I at that moment felt the
smallness of my fortune: and I believe Emily had the same sensations,
though her delicacy prevented her naming them to me, who have made her
poor.

We can talk of nothing but the stranger; and Emily is determined to
call on her again to-morrow, on pretence of enquiring after the health
of the child.

I tremble lest her story, for she certainly has one, should be such
as, however it may entitle her to compassion, may make it impossible
for Emily to shew it in the manner she seems to wish.

    Adieu!
      Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 207.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Oct. 24.

We have been again at the cottage; and are more convinced than
ever, that this amiable girl is not in the station in which she was
born; we staid two hours, and varied the conversation in a manner
which, in spite of her extreme modesty, made it impossible for her to
avoid shewing she had been educated with uncommon care: her style is
correct and elegant; her sentiments noble, yet unaffected; we talked
of books, she said little on the subject; but that little shewed a
taste which astonished us.

Anxious as we are to know her true situation, in order, if she
merits it, to endeavor to serve her, yet delicacy made it impossible
for us to give the least hint of a curiosity which might make her
suppose we entertained ideas to her prejudice.

She seemed greatly affected with the humane concern Emily expressed
for the child's danger yesterday, as well as with the polite and even
affectionate manner in which she appeared to interest herself in all
which related to her; Emily made her general offers of service with a
timid kind of softness in her air, which seemed to speak rather a
person asking a favor than wishing to confer an obligation.

She thanked my sweet Emily with a look of surprize and gratitude to
which it is not easy to do justice; there was, however, an
embarrassment in her countenance at those offers, which a little alarms
me; she absolutely declined coming to Bellfield: I know not what to
think.

Emily, who has taken a strong prejudice in her favor, will answer
for her conduct with her life; but I will own to you, I am not without
my doubts.

When I consider the inhuman arts of the abandoned part of one sex,
and the romantic generosity and too unguarded confidence, of the most
amiable of the other; when I reflect that where women love, they love
without reserve; that they fondly imagine the man who is dear to them
possessed of every virtue; that their very integrity of mind prevents
their suspicions; when I think of her present retirement, so
apparently ill suited to her education; when I see her beauty, her
elegance of person, with that tender and melancholy air, so strongly
expressive of the most exquisite sensibility; when, in short, I see the
child, and observe her fondness for him, I have fears for her, which I
cannot conquer.

I am as firmly convinced as Emily of the goodness of her heart; but
I am not so certain that even that very goodness may not have been,
from an unhappy concurrence of circumstances, her misfortune.

We have company to dine.

Adieu! till the evening.

Ten at night.

About three hours ago, Emily received the inclosed, from our fair
cottager.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.

"To Mrs. Rivers.

"Madam,

"Though I have every reason to wish the melancholy event which
brought me here, might continue unknown; yet your generous concern for
a stranger, who had no recommendation to your notice but her appearing
unhappy, and whose suspicious situation would have injured her in a
mind less noble than yours, has determined me to lay before you a
story, which it was my resolution to conceal for ever.

"I saw, Madam, in your countenance, when you honored me by calling
at my house this morning, and I saw with an admiration no words can
speak, the amiable struggle between the desire of knowing the nature of
my distress in order to soften it, and the delicacy which forbad your
enquiries, lest they should wound my sensibility and self-love.

"To such a heart I run no hazard in relating what in the world
would, perhaps, draw on me a thousand reproaches; reproaches, however,
I flatter myself, undeserved.

"You have had the politeness to say, there is something in my
appearance which speaks my birth above my present situation: in this,
Madam, I am so happy as not to deceive your generous partiality.

"My father, who was an officer of family and merit, had the
misfortune to lose my mother whilst I was an infant.

"He had the goodness to take on himself the care of directing my
education, and to have me taught whatever he thought becoming my sex,
though at an expence much too great for his income.

"As he had little more than his commission, his parental tenderness
got so far the better of his love for his profession, that, when I was
about fifteen, he determined on quitting the army, in order to provide
better for me; but, whilst he was in treaty for this purpose, a fever
carried him off in a few days, and left me to the world, with little
more than five hundred pounds, which, however, was, by his will,
immediately in my power.

"I felt too strongly the loss of this excellent parent to attend to
any other consideration; and, before I was enough myself to think what
I was to do for a subsistence, a friend of my own age, whom I tenderly
loved, who was just returning from school to her father's, in the north
of England, insisted on my accompanying her, and spending some time
with her in the country.

"I found in my dear Sophia, all the consolation my grief could
receive; and, at her pressing solicitation, and that of her father, who
saw his daughter's happiness depended on having me with her, I
continued there three years, blest in the calm delights of friendship,
and those blameless pleasures, with which we should be too happy, if
the heart could content itself, when a young baronet, whose form was
as lovely as his soul was dark, came to interrupt our felicity.

"My Sophia, at a ball, had the misfortune to attract his notice; she
was rather handsome, though without regular features; her form was
elegant and feminine, and she had an air of youth, of softness, of
sensibility, of blushing innocence, which seemed intended to inspire
delicate passions alone, and which would have disarmed any mind less
depraved than that of the man, who only admired to destroy.

"She was the rose-bud yet impervious to the sun.

"Her heart was tender, but had never met an object which seemed
worthy of it; her sentiments were disinterested, and romantic to
excess.

"Her father was, at that time, in Holland, whither the death of a
relation, who had left him a small estate, had called him: we were
alone, unprotected, delivered up to the unhappy inexperience of youth,
mistresses of our own conduct; myself, the eldest of the two, but just
eighteen, when my Sophia's ill-fate conducted Sir Charles Verville to
the ball where she first saw him.

"He danced with her, and endeavored to recommend himself by all
those little unmeaning, but flattering attentions, by which our
credulous sex are so often misled; his manner was tender, yet timid,
modest, respectful; his eyes were continually fixed on her, but when he
met hers, artfully cast down, as if afraid of offending.

"He asked permission to enquire after her health the next day; he
came, he was enchanting; polite, lively, soft, insinuating, adorned
with every outward grace which could embellish virtue, or hide vice
from view, to see and to love him was almost the same thing.

"He entreated leave to continue his visits, which he found no
difficulty in obtaining: during two months, not a day passed without
our seeing him; his behaviour was such as would scarce have alarmed the
most suspicious heart; what then could be expected of us, young,
sincere, totally ignorant of the world, and strongly prejudiced in
favor of a man, whose conversation spoke his soul the abode of every
virtue?

"Blushing I must own, nothing but the apparent preference he gave to
my lovely friend, could have saved my heart from being a prey to the
same tenderness which ruined her.

"He addressed her with all the specious arts which vice could invent
to seduce innocence; his respect, his esteem, seemed equal to his
passion; he talked of honor, of the delight of an union where the
tender affections alone were consulted; wished for her father's
return, to ask her of him in marriage; pretended to count impatiently
the hours of his absence, which delayed his happiness: he even
prevailed on her to write her father an account of his addresses.

"New to love, my Sophia's young heart too easily gave way to the
soft impression; she loved, she idolized this most base of mankind;
she would have thought it a kind of sacrilege to have had any will in
opposition to his.

"After some months of unremitted assiduity, her father being
expected in a few days, he dropped a hint, as if by accident, that he
wished his fortune less, that he might be the more certain he was loved
for himself alone; he blamed himself for this delicacy, but charged it
on excess of love; vowed he would rather die than injure her, yet
wished to be convinced her fondness was without reserve.

"Generous, disinterested, eager to prove the excess and sincerity of
her passion, she fell into the snare; she agreed to go off with him,
and live some time in a retirement where she was to see only himself,
after which he engaged to marry her publicly.

"He pretended extasies at this proof of affection, yet hesitated to
accept it; and, by piquing the generosity of her soul, which knew no
guile, and therefore suspected none, led her to insist on devoting
herself to wretchedness.

"In order, however, that this step might be as little known as
possible, as he pretended the utmost concern for that honor he was
contriving to destroy, it was agreed between them, that he should go
immediately to London, and that she should follow him, under pretence
of a visit to a relation at some distance; the greatest difficulty was,
how to hide this design from me.

"She had never before concealed a thought from her beloved Fanny;
nor could he now have prevailed on her to deceive me, had he not
artfully perswaded her I was myself in love with him; and that,
therefore, it would be cruel, as well as imprudent, to trust me with
the secret.

"Nothing shews so strongly the power of love, in absorbing every
faculty of the soul, as my dear Sophia's being prevailed on to use art
with the friend most dear to her on earth.

"By an unworthy piece of deceit, I was sent to a relation for some
weeks; and the next day Sophia followed her infamous lover, leaving
letters for me and her father, calculated to perswade us, they were
privately married.

"My distress, and that of the unhappy parent, may more easily be
conceived than described; severe by nature, he cast her from his heart
and fortune for ever, and settled his estate on a nephew, then at the
university.

"As to me, grief and tenderness were the only sensations I felt: I
went to town, and took every private method to discover her retreat,
but in vain; till near a year after, when, being in London, with a
friend of my mother's, a servant, who had lived with my Sophia, saw me
in the street, and knew me: by her means, I discovered that she was in
distress, abandoned by her lover, in that moment when his tenderness
was most necessary.

"I flew to her, and found her in a miserable apartment, in which
nothing but an extreme neatness would have made me suppose she had ever
seen happier days: the servant who brought me to her attended her.

"She was in bed, pale, emaciated; the lovely babe you saw with me in
her arms.

"Though prepared for my visit, she was unable to bear the shock of
seeing me; I ran to her, she raised herself in the bed, and, throwing
her feeble arms round my neck, could only say, 'My Fanny! is this
possible!' and fainted away.

"Our cares having recovered her, she endeavored to compose herself;
her eyes were fixed tenderly on me, she pressed my hand between hers,
the tears stole silently down her cheeks; she looked at her child, then
at me; she would have spoke, but the feelings of her heart were too
strong for expression.

"I begged her to be calm, and promised to spend the day with her;
I did not yet dare, lest the emotion should be too much for her weak
state, to tell her we would part no more.

"I took a room in the house, and determined to give all my attention
to the restoration of her health; after which, I hoped to contrive to
make my little fortune, with industry, support us both.

"I sat up with her that night; she got a little rest, she seemed
better in the morning; she told me the particulars I have already
related; she, however, endeavored to soften the cruel behaviour of the
wretch, whose name I could not hear without horror.

"She had in the afternoon a little fever; I sent for a physician,
he thought her in danger; what did not my heart feel from this
information? she grew worse, I never left her one moment.

"The next morning she called me to her; she took my hand, and
looking at me with a tenderness no language can describe,

"'My dear, my only friend,' said she, 'I am dying; you are come to
receive the last breath of your unhappy Sophia: I wish with ardor for
my father's blessing and forgiveness, but dare not ask them.

"'The weakness of my heart has undone me; I am lost, abandoned by him
on whom my soul doated; by him, for whom I would have sacrificed a
thousand lives; he has left me with my babe to perish, yet I still love
him with unabated fondness: the pang of losing him sinks me to the
grave!'

"Her speech here failed her for a time; but recovering, she
proceeded,

"'Hard as this request may seem, and to whatever miseries it may
expose my angel friend, I adjure you not to desert my child; save him
from the wretchedness that threatens him; let him find in you a mother
not less tender, but more virtuous, than his own.

"'I know, my Fanny, I undo you by this cruel confidence; but who else
will have mercy on this innocent?'

"Unable to answer, my heart torn with unutterable anguish, I
snatched the lovely babe to my bosom, I kissed him, I bathed him with
my tears.

"She understood me, a gleam of pleasure brightened her dying eyes,
the child was still pressed to my heart, she gazed on us both with a
look of wild affection; then, clasping her hands together, and
breathing a fervent prayer to heaven, sunk down, and expired without a
groan--

"To you, Madam, I need not say the rest.

"The eloquence of angels could not paint my distress; I saw the
friend of my soul, the best and most gentle of her sex, a breathless
corse before me; her heart broke by the ingratitude of the man she
loved, her honor the sport of fools, her guiltless child a sharer in
her shame.

"And all this ruin brought on by a sensibility of which the best
minds alone are susceptible, by that noble integrity of soul which made
it impossible for her to suspect another.

"Distracted with grief, I kissed my Sophia's pale lips, talked to
her lifeless form; I promised to protect the sweet babe, who smiled on
me, and with his little hand pressed mine, as if sensible of what I
said.

"As soon as my grief was enough calmed to render me capable of any
thing, I wrote an account of Sophia's death to her father, who had the
inhumanity to refuse to see her child.

"I disdained an application to her murderer; and retiring to this
place, where I was, and resolved to continue, unknown, determined to
devote my life to the sweet infant, and to support him by an industry
which I did not doubt heaven would prosper.

"The faithful girl who had attended Sophia, begged to continue with
me; we work for the milleners in the neighbouring towns, and, with the
little pittance I have, keep above want.

"I know the consequence of what I have undertaken; I know I give up
the world and all hopes of happiness to myself: yet will I not desert
this friendless little innocent, nor betray the confidence of my
expiring friend, whose last moments were soothed with the hope of his
finding a parent's care in me.

"You have had the goodness to wish to serve me. Sir Charles Verville
is dead: a fever, the consequence of his ungoverned intemperance,
carried him off suddenly: his brother Sir William has a worthy
character; if Colonel Rivers, by his general acquaintance with the
great world, can represent this story to him, it possibly may procure
my little Charles happier prospects than my poverty can give him.

"Your goodness, Madam, makes it unnecessary to be more explicit: to
be unhappy, and not to have merited it, is a sufficient claim to your
protection.

"You are above the low prejudices of common minds; you will pity the
wretched victim of her own unsuspecting heart, you will abhor the
memory of her savage undoer, you will approve my complying with her
dying request, though in contradiction to the selfish maxims of the
world: you will, if in your power, endeavor to serve my little
prattler.

"'Till I had explained my situation, I could not think of accepting
the honor you allowed me to hope for, of enquiring after your health at
Bellfield; if the step I have taken meets with your approbation, I
shall be most happy to thank you and Colonel Rivers for your attention
to one, whom you would before have been justified in supposing
unworthy of it.

"I am, Madam, with the most perfect respect and gratitude,

    "Your obliged
      and obedient servant,
          F. Williams."


Your own heart, my dear Fitzgerald, will tell you what were our
reflections on reading the inclosed: Emily, whose gentle heart feels
for the weaknesses as well as misfortunes of others, will to-morrow
fetch this heroic girl and her little ward, to spend a week at
Bellfield; and we will then consider what is to be done for them.

You know Sir William Verville; go to him from me with the inclosed
letter, he is a man of honor, and will, I am certain, provide for the
poor babe, who, had not his father been a monster of unfeeling
inhumanity, would have inherited the estate and title Sir William now
enjoys.

Is not the midnight murderer, my dear friend, white as snow to this
vile seducer? this betrayer of unsuspecting, trusting, innocence? what
transport is it to me to reflect, that not one bosom ever heaved a sigh
of remorse of which I was the cause!

I grieve for the poor victim of a tenderness, amiable in itself,
though productive of such dreadful consequences when not under the
guidance of reason.

It ought to be a double tie on the honor of men, that the woman who
truely loves gives up her will without reserve to the object of her
affection.

Virtuous less from reasoning and fixed principle, than from
elegance, and a lovely delicacy of mind; naturally tender, even to
excess; carried away by a romance of sentiment; the helpless sex are
too easily seduced, by engaging their confidence, and piquing their
generosity.

I cannot write; my heart is softened to a degree which makes me
incapable of any thing.

Do not neglect one moment going to Sir William Verville.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 208.


To Colonel Rivers.

Oct. 28.

The story you have told me has equally shocked and astonished me: my
sweet Bell has dropped a pitying tear on poor Sophia's grave.

Thank heaven! we meet with few minds like that of Sir Charles
Verville; such a degree of savage insensibility is unnatural.

The human heart is created weak, not wicked: avid of pleasure and of
gain; but with a mixture of benevolence which prevents our seeking
either to the destruction of others.

Nothing can be more false than that we are naturally inclined to
evil: we are indeed naturally inclined to gratify the selfish passions
of every kind; but those passions are not evil in themselves, they only
become so from excess.

The malevolent passions are not inherent in our nature. They are
only to be acquired by degrees, and generally are born from chagrin and
disappointment; a wicked character is a depraved one.

What must this unhappy girl have suffered! no misery can equal the
struggles of a virtuous mind wishing to act in a manner becoming its
own dignity, yet carried by passions to do otherwise.

One o'clock.

I have been at Sir William Verville's, who is at Bath; I will write,
and inclose the letter to him this evening; you shall have his answer
the moment I receive it.

We are going to dine at Richmond with Lord H----.

Adieu! my dear Rivers; Bell complains you have never answered her
letter: I own, I thought you a man of more gallantry than to neglect a
lady.

    Adieu!
      Your faithful
          J. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 209.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Oct. 30.

I am very impatient, my dear friend, till you hear from Sir William,
though I have no doubt of his acting as he ought: our cottagers shall
not leave us till their fate is determined; I have not told Miss
Williams the step I have taken.

Emily is more and more pleased with this amiable girl: I wish
extremely to be able to keep her here; as an agreable companion of her
own age and sex, whose ideas are similar, and who, from being in the
same season of life, sees things in the same point of view, is all that
is wanting to Emily's happiness.

'Tis impossible to mention similarity of ideas, without observing
how exactly ours coincide; in all my acquaintance with mankind, I
never yet met a mind so nearly resembling my own; a tie of affection
much stronger than all your merit would be without that similarity.

I agree with you, that mankind are born virtuous, and that it is
education and example which make them otherwise.

The believing other men knaves is not only the way to make them so,
but is also an infallible method of becoming such ourselves.

A false and ill-judged method of instruction, by which we imbibe
prejudices instead of truths, makes us regard the human race as beasts
of prey; not as brothers, united by one common bond, and promoting the
general interest by pursuing our own particular one.

There is nothing of which I am more convinced than that,

  "True self-love and social are the same:"

That those passions which make the happiness of individuals tend
directly to the general good of the species.

The beneficent Author of nature has made public and private
happiness the same; man has in vain endeavored to divide them; but in
the endeavor he has almost destroyed both.

'Tis with pain I say, that the business of legislation in most
countries seems to have been to counter-work this wise order of
providence, which has ordained, that we shall make others happy in
being so ourselves.

This is in nothing so glaring as in the point on which not only the
happiness, but the virtue of almost the whole human race is concerned:
I mean marriage; the restraints on which, in almost every country, not
only tend to encourage celibacy, and a destructive libertinism the
consequence of it, to give fresh strength to domestic tyranny, and
subject the generous affections of uncorrupted youth to the guidance of
those in whom every motive to action but avarice is dead; to condemn
the blameless victims of duty to a life of indifference, of disgust,
and possibly of guilt; but, by opposing the very spirit of our
constitution, throwing property into a few hands, and favoring that
excessive inequality, which renders one part of the species wretched,
without adding to the happiness of the other; to destroy at once the
domestic felicity of individuals, contradict the will of the Supreme
Being, as clearly wrote in the book of nature, and sap the very
foundations of the most perfect form of government on earth.

A pretty long-winded period this: Bell would call it true
Ciceronian, and quote

  "--Rivers for a period of a mile."

But to proceed. The only equality to which parents in general
attend, is that of fortune; whereas a resemblance in age, in temper, in
personal attractions, in birth, in education, understanding, and
sentiment, are the only foundations of that lively taste, that tender
friendship, without which no union deserves the sacred name of
marriage.

Timid, compliant youth may be forced into the arms of age and
disease; a lord may invite a citizen's daughter he despises to his bed,
to repair a shattered fortune; and she may accept him, allured by the
rays of a coronet: but such conjunctions are only a more shameful
species of prostitution.

Men who marry from interested motives are inexcusable; but the very
modesty of women makes against their happiness in this point, by giving
them a kind of bashful fear of objecting to such persons as their
parents recommend as proper objects of their tenderness.

I am prevented by company from saying all I intended.

      Adieu! Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 210.


To Colonel Rivers.

Temple-house, Nov. 1.

You wrong me excessively, my dear Rivers, in accusing me of a
natural levity in love and friendship.

As to the latter, my frequent changes, which I freely acknowledge,
have not been owing to any inconstancy, but to precipitation and want
of caution in contracting them.

My general fault has been the folly of chusing my friends for some
striking and agreable accomplishment, instead of giving to solid merit
the preference which most certainly is its due.

My inconstancy in love has been meerly from vanity.

There is something so flattering in the general favor of women, that
it requires great firmness of mind to resist that kind of gallantry
which indulges it, though absolutely destructive to real happiness.

I blush to say, that when I first married I have more than once been
in danger, from the mere boyish desire of conquest, notwithstanding my
adoration for your lovely sister: such is the force of habit, for I
must have been infinitely a loser by changing.

I am now perfectly safe; my vanity has taken another turn: I pique
myself on keeping the heart of the loveliest woman that ever existed,
as a nobler conquest than attracting the notice of a hundred coquets,
who would be equally flattered by the attention of any other man, at
least any other man who had the good fortune to be as fashionable.

Every thing conspires to keep me in the road of domestic happiness:
the manner of life I am engaged in, your friendship, your example, and
society; and the very fear I am in of losing your esteem.

That I have the seeds of constancy in my nature, I call on you and
your lovely sister to witness; I have been _your_ friend from
almost infancy, and am every hour more _her_ lover.

She is my friend, my companion, as well as mistress; her wit, her
sprightliness, her pleasing kind of knowledge, fill with delight those
hours which are so tedious with a fool, however lovely.

With my Lucy, possession can never cure the wounded heart.

Her modesty, her angel purity of mind and person, render her
literally,

  "My ever-new delight."

She has convinced me, that if beauty is the mother, delicacy is the
nurse of love.

Venus has lent her her cestus, and shares with her the attendance of
the Graces.

My vagrant passions, like the rays of the sun collected in a burning
glass, are now united in one point.

Lucy is here. Adieu! I must not let her know her power.

You spend to-morrow with us; we have a little ball, and are to have
a masquerade next week.

Lucy wants to consult Emily on her dress; you and I are not to be in
the secret: we have wrote to ask the Fitzgeralds to the masquerade; I
will send Lucy's post coach for them the day before, or perhaps fetch
them myself.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          J. Temple.



LETTER 211.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Nov. 1.

I have this moment a letter from Temple which has set my heart at
rest: he writes like a lover, yet owns his past danger, with a
frankness which speaks more strongly than any professions could do, the
real present state of his heart.

My anxiety for my sister has a little broke in on my own happiness;
in England, where the married women are in general the most virtuous in
the world, it is of infinite consequence they should love their
husbands, and be beloved by them; in countries where gallantry is more
permitted, it is less necessary.

Temple will make her happy whilst she preserves his heart; but, if
she loses it, every thing is to be feared from the vivacity of his
nature, which can never support one moment a life of indifference.

He has that warmth of temper which is the natural soil of the
virtues; but which is unhappily, at the same time, most apt to produce
indiscretions.

Tame, cold, dispassionate minds resemble barren lands; warm,
animated ones, rich ground, which, if properly cultivated, yields the
noblest fruit; but, if neglected, from its luxuriance is most
productive of weeds.

His misfortune has been losing both his parents when almost an
infant; and having been master of himself and a noble fortune, at an
age when the passions hurry us beyond the bounds of reason.

I am the only person on earth by whom he would ever bear to be
controlled in any thing; happily for Lucy, I preserve the influence
over him which friendship first gave me.

That influence, and her extreme attention to study his taste in
every thing; with those uncommon graces both of mind and person she has
received from nature, will, I hope, effectually fix this wandering
star.

She tells me, she has asked you to a masquerade at Temple-house, to
which you will extremely oblige us all by coming.

You do not tell us, whether the affair of your majority is settled:
if obliged to return immediately, Temple will send you back.

      Adieu! Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.


I have this moment your last letter: you are right, we American
travellers are under great disadvantages; our imaginations are
restrained; we have not the pomp of the orient to describe, but the
simple and unadorned charms of nature.



LETTER 212.


To Colonel Rivers, Bellfield, Rutland.

Nov. 4.

Sir William Verville is come back to town; I was with him this
morning; he desires to see the child; he tells me, his brother, in his
last moments, mentioned this story in all the agony of remorse, and
begged him to provide for the little innocent, if to be found; that he
had made many enquiries, but hitherto in vain; and that he thought
himself happy in the discovery.

He talks of settling three thousand pounds on the child, and taking
the care of educating him into his own hands.

I hinted at some little provision for the amiable girl who had saved
him from perishing, and had the pleasure to find Sir William listen to
me with attention.

I am sorry it is not possible for me to be at your masquerade; but
my affair is just at the crisis: Bell expects a particular account of
it from Mrs. Rivers, and desires to be immediately in the secret of the
ladies dresses, though you are not: she begs you will send your fair
cottager and little charge to us, and we will take care to introduce
them properly to Sir William.

I am too much hurried to say more.

    Adieu! my dear Rivers!
      Your affectionate
          J. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 213.


To Mrs. Fitzgerald.

Nov. 8.

Yes, my dear Bell, politeness is undoubtedly a moral virtue.

As we are beings formed for, and not capable of being happy without,
society, it is the duty of every one to endeavor to make it as easy and
agreable as they can; which is only to be done by such an attention to
others as is consistent with what we owe to ourselves; all we give them
in civility will be re-paid us in respect: insolence and ill-breeding
are detestable to all mankind.

I long to see you, my dear Bell; the delight I have had in your
society has spoiled my relish for that of meer acquaintance, however
agreable.

'Tis dangerous to indulge in the pleasures of friendship; they
weaken one's taste too much for common conversation.

Yet what other pleasures are worth the name? what others have spirit
and delicacy too?

I am preparing for the masquerade, which is to be the 18th; I am
extremely disappointed you will not be with us.

My dress is simple and unornamented, but I think becoming and
prettily fancied; it is that of a French _paisanne_: Lucy is to
be a sultana, blazing with diamonds: my mother a Roman matron.

I chuse this dress because I have heard my dear Rivers admire it; to
be one moment more pleasing in his eyes, is an object worthy all my
attention.

    Adieu!
      Your faithful
          Emily Rivers.



LETTER 214.


To Mrs. Rivers, Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Nov. 10.

Certainly, my dear, friendship is a mighty pretty invention, and,
next to love, gives of all things the greatest spirit to society.

And yet the prudery of the age will hardly allow us poor women even
this pleasure, innocent as it is.

I remember my aunt Cecily, who died at sixty-six, without ever
having felt the least spark of affection for any human being, used to
tell me, a prudent modest woman never loved any thing but herself.

For my part, I think all the kind propensities of the heart ought
rather to be cherished than checked; that one is allowed to esteem
merit even in the naughty creature, man.

I love you very sincerely, Emily: but I like friendships for the men
best; and think prudery, by forbidding them, robs us of some of the
most lively as well as innocent pleasures of the heart.

That desire of pleasing; which one feels much the most strongly for
a _male_ friend, is in itself a very agreable emotion.

You will say, I am a coquet even in friendship; and I am not quite
sure you are not in the right.

I am extremely in love with my husband; yet chuse other men should
regard me with complacency, am as fond of attracting the attention of
the dear creatures as ever, and, though I do justice to your wit,
understanding, sentiment, and all that, prefer Rivers's conversation
infinitely to yours.

Women cannot say civil things to each other; and if they could, they
would be something insipid; whereas a male friend--

'Tis absolutely another thing, my dear; and the first system of
ethics I write, I will have a hundred pages on the subject.

Observe, my dear, I have not the least objection to your having a
friendship for Fitzgerald. I am the best-natured creature in the world,
and the fondest of increasing the circle of my husband's innocent
amusements.

_A propos_ to innocent amusements, I think your fair
sister-in-law an exquisite politician; calling the pleasures to Temple
at home, is the best method in the world to prevent his going abroad
in pursuit of them.

I am mortified I cannot be at your masquerade; it is my passion,
and I have the prettiest dress in the world by me. I am half inclined
to elope for a day or two.

    Adieu! Your faithful
      A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 215.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Nov. 12.

Please to inform the little Bell, I won't allow her to spoil my
Emily.

I enter a caveat against male friendships, which are only fit for
ladies of the _salamandrine_ order.

I desire to engross all Emily's _kind propensities_ to myself;
and should grudge the least share in her heart, or, if you please in
her _friendship_, to an archangel.

However, not to be too severe, since prudery expects women to have
no propensities at all, I allow single ladies, of all ranks, sizes,
ages, and complexions, to spread the veil of friendship between their
hearts and the world.

'Tis the finest day I ever saw, though the middle of November; a dry
soft west wind, the air as mild as in April, and an almost Canadian
sunshine.

I have been bathing in the clear stream, at the end of my garden;
the same stream in which I laved my careless bosom at thirteen; an
idea which gave me inconceivable delight; and the more, as my bosom is
as gay and tranquil at this moment as in those dear hours of
chearfulness and innocence.

Of all local prejudices, that is the strongest as well as most
pleasing, which attaches us to the place of our birth.

Sweet home! only seat of true and genuine happiness.

I am extremely in the humor to write a poem to the houshold gods.

We neglect these amiable deities, but they are revenged; true
pleasure is only to be found under their auspices.

I know not how it is, my dear Fitzgerald; but I don't find my
passion for the country abate.

I still find the scenes around me lovely; though, from the change
of season, less smiling than when I first fixed at Bellfield; we have
rural business enough to amuse, not embarrass us; we have a small but
excellent library of books, given us by my mother; she and Emily are
two of the most pleasing companions on earth; the neighbourhood is full
of agreable people, and, what should always be attended to in fixing in
the country, of fortunes not superior to our own.

The evenings grow long, but they are only the more jovial; I love
the pleasures of the table, not for their own sakes, for no man is more
indifferent on this subject; but because they promote social,
convivial joy, and bring people together in good humor with themselves
and each other.

My Emily's suppers are enchanting; but our little income obliges us
to have few: if I was rich, this would be my principal extravagance.

To fill up my measure of content, Emily is pleased with my
retirement, and finds all her happiness in my affection.

We are so little alone, that I find our moments of unreserved
conversation too short; whenever I leave her, I recollect a thousand
things I had to say, a thousand new ideas to communicate, and am
impatient for the hour of seeing again, without restraint, the most
amiable and pleasing of woman-kind.

My happiness would be complete, if I did not sometimes see a cloud
of anxiety on that dear countenance, which, however, is dissipated the
moment my eyes meet hers.

I am going to Temple's, and the chaise is at the door.

    Adieu! my dear friend!
      Your affectionate
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 216.


To Colonel Rivers.

Nov. 14.

So you disapprove male friendships, my sweet Colonel! I thought you
had better ideas of things in general.

Fitzgerald and I have been disputing on French and English manners,
in regard to gallantry.

The great question is, Whether a man is more hurt by the imprudent
conduct of his daughter or his wife?

Much may be said on both sides.

There is some hazard in suffering coquetry in either; both
contribute to give charms to conversation, and introduce ease and
politeness into society; but both are dangerous to manners.

Our customs, however, are most likely to produce good effects, as
they give opportunity for love marriages, the only ones which can make
worthy minds happy.

The coquetry of single women has a point of view consistent with
honor; that of married women has generally no point of view at all; it
is, however of use _pour passer le tems_.

As to real gallantry, the French style depraves the minds of men
least, ours is most favorable to the peace of families.

I think I preserve the balance of argument admirably.

My opinion, however, is, that if people married from affection,
there would be no such thing as gallantry at all.

Pride, and the parade of life, destroy all happiness: our whole
felicity depends on our choice in marriage, yet we chuse from motives
more trifling than would determine us in the common affairs of life.

I knew a gentleman who fancied himself in love, yet delayed marrying
his mistress till he could afford a set of plate.

Modern manners are very unfavorable to the tender affections.

Ancient lovers had only dragons to combat; ours have the worse
monsters of avarice and ambition.

All I shall say further on the subject is, that the two happiest
people I ever knew were a country clergyman and his wife, whose whole
income did not exceed one hundred pounds a year.

A pretty philosophical, sentimental, dull kind of an epistle this!

But you deserve it, for not answering my last, which was divine.

I am pleased with Emily's ideas about her dress at the masquerade;
it is a proof you are still lovers.

I remember, the first symptoms I discovered of my _tendresse_
for Fitzgerald was my excessive attention to this article: I have
tried on twenty different caps when I expected him at Silleri.

Before we drop the subject of gallantries, I must tell you I am
charmed with you and my _sposo_, for never giving the least hint
before Emily and me that you have had any; it is a piece of delicacy
which convinces me of your tenderness more than all the vows that ever
lovers broke would do.

I have been hurt at the contrary behaviour in Temple; and have
observed Lucy to be so too, though her excessive attention not to give
him pain prevented her shewing it: I have on such an occasion seen a
smile on her countenance, and a tear of tender regret starting into her
eyes.

A woman who has vanity without affection will be pleased to hear of
your past conquests, and regard them as victims immolated to her
superior charms: to her, therefore, it is right to talk of them; but
to flatter the _heart_, and give delight to a woman who truly
loves, you should appear too much taken up with the present passion to
look back to the past: you should not even present to her imagination
the thought that you have had other engagements: we know such things
are, but had rather the idea should not be awakened: I may be wrong,
but I speak from my own feelings.

I am excessively pleased with a thought I met with in a little
French novel:

"Un homme qui ne peut plus compter ses bonnes fortunes, est de tous,
celui qui connoît le moins les _faveurs_. C'est le coeur qui les
accorde, & ce n'est pas le coeur qu'un homme à la mode interesse. Plus
on est _prôné_ par les femmes, plus il est facile de les avoir,
mais moins il est possible de les enflammer."

To which truth I most heartily set my hand.

Twelve o'clock.

I have just heard from your sister, who tells me, Emily is turned a
little natural philosopher, reads Ray, Derham, and fifty other strange
old fellows that one never heard of, and is eternally poring through a
microscope to discover the wonders of creation.

How amazingly learned matrimony makes young ladies! I suppose we
shall have a volume of her discoveries bye and bye.

She says too, you have little pets like sweethearts, quarrel and
make it up again in the most engaging manner in the world.

This is just what I want to bring Fitzgerald to; but the perverse
monkey won't quarrel with me, do all I can: I am sure this is not my
fault, for I give him reason every day of his life.

Shenstone says admirably, "That reconciliation is the tenderest part
of love and friendship: the soul here discovers a kind of elasticity,
and, being forced back, returns with an additional violence."

Who would not quarrel for the pleasure of reconciliation! I shall be
very angry with Fitzgerald if he goes on in this mild way.

Tell your sister, she cannot be more mortified than I am, that it is
impossible for me to be at her masquerade.

      Adieu! Your affectionate
          A. Fitzgerald.


Don't you think, my dear Rivers, that marriage, on prudent
principles, is a horrid sort of an affair? It is really cruel of papas
and mammas to shut up two poor innocent creatures in a house together,
to plague and torment one another, who might have been very happy
separate.

Where people take their own time, and chuse for themselves, it is
another affair, and I begin to think it possible affection may last
through life.

I sometimes fancy to myself Fitzgerald and I loving on, from the
impassioned hour when I first honored him with my hand, to that
tranquil one, when we shall take our afternoon's nap _vis a vis_
in two arm chairs, by the fire-side, he a grave country justice, and I
his worship's good sort of a wife, the Lady Bountiful of the parish.

I have a notion there is nothing so very shocking in being an oldish
gentlewoman; what one loses in charms, is made up in the happy liberty
of doing and saying whatever one pleases. Adieu!



LETTER 217.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Nov. 16.

My relation, Colonel Willmott, is just arrived from the East Indies,
rich, and full of the project of marrying his daughter to me.

My mother has this morning received a letter from him, pressing the
affair with an earnestness which rather makes me feel for his
disappointment, and wish to break it to him as gently as possible.

He talks of being at Bellfield on Wednesday evening, which is
Temple's masquerade; I shall stay behind at Bellfield, to receive him,
have a domino ready, and take him to Temple-house.

He seems to know nothing of my marriage or my sister's, and I wish
him not to know of the former till he has seen Emily.

The best apology I can make for declining his offer, is to shew him
the lovely cause.

I will contrive they shall converse together at the masquerade, and
that he shall sit next her at supper, without their knowing any thing
of each other.

If he sees her, if he talks with her, without that prejudice which
the knowledge of her being the cause of his disappointment might give,
he cannot fail of having for her that admiration which I never yet met
with a mind savage enough to refuse her.

His daughter has been educated abroad, which is a circumstance I am
pleased with, as it gives me the power of refusing her without wounding
either her vanity, or her father's, which, had we been acquainted,
might have been piqued at my giving the preference to another.

She is not in England, but is hourly expected: the moment she
arrives, Lucy and I will fetch her to Temple-house: I shall be anxious
to see her married to a man who deserves her. Colonel Willmott tells
me, she is very amiable; at least as he is told, for he has never seen
her.

I could wish it were possible to conceal this offer for ever from
Emily; my delicacy is hurt at the idea of her knowing it, at least from
me or my family.

My mother behaves like an angel on this occasion; expresses herself
perfectly happy in my having consulted my heart alone in marrying, and
speaks of Emily's tenderness as a treasure above all price.

She does not even hint a wish to see me richer than I am.

Had I never seen Emily, I would not have married this lady unless
love had united us.

Do not, however, suppose I have that romantic contempt for fortune,
which is so pardonable, I had almost said so becoming, at nineteen.

I have seen more of the world than most men of my age, and I have
seen the advantages of affluence in their strongest light.

I think a worthy man not only may have, but ought to have, an
attention to making his way in the world, and improving his situation
in it, by every means consistent with probity and honor, and with his
own real happiness.

I have ever had this attention, and ever will, but not by base
means: and, in my opinion, the very basest is that of selling one's
hand in marriage.

With what horror do we regard a man who is kept! and a man who
marries from interested views alone, is kept in the strongest sense of
the word.

He is equally a purchased slave, with no distinction but that his
bondage is of longer continuance.

Adieu! I may possibly write again on Wednesday.

      Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 218.


To Colonel Rivers, Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Nov. 18.

Fitzgerald is busy, and begs me to write to you.

Your cottagers are arrived; there is something very interesting in
Miss Williams, and the little boy is an infant Adonis.

Heaven send he may be an honester man than his father, or I foresee
terrible devastations amongst the sex.

We have this moment your letter; I am angry with you for blaspheming
the sweet season of nineteen:

      "O lovely source
  Of generous foibles, youth! when opening minds
  Are honest as the light, lucid as air,
  As fostering breezes kind, as linnets gay,
  Tender as buds, and lavish as the spring."

You will find out I am in a course of Shenstone, which I prescribe
to all minds tinctured with the uncomfortable selfishness of the
present age.

The only way to be good, is to retain the generous mistakes, if they
are such, of nineteen through life.

As to you, my dear Rivers, with all your airs of prudence and
knowing the world, you are, in this respect, as much a boy as ever.

Witness your extreme joy at having married a woman with two thousand
pounds, when you might have had one with twenty times the sum.

You are a boy, Rivers, I am a girl; and I hope we shall remain so as
long as we live.

Do you know, my dear friend, that I am a daughter of the Muses, and
that I wrote pastorals at seven years old?

I am charmed with this, because an old physician once told me it was
a symptom, not only of long life, but of long youth, which is much
better.

He explained this, by saying something about animal spirits, which I
do not at all understand, but which perhaps you may.

I should have been a pretty enough kind of a poetess, if papa had
not attempted to teach me how to be one, and insisted on seeing my
scribbles as I went on: these same Muses are such bashful misses, they
won't bear to be looked at.

Genius is like the sensitive plant; it shrinks from the touch.

So your nabob cousin is arrived: I hope he will fall in love with
Emily; and remember, if he had obligations to Mrs. Rivers's father, he
had exactly the same to your grandfather.

He might spare ten thousand pounds very well, which would improve
your _petits soupers_.

Adieu! Sir William Verville dines here, and I have but just time to
dress.

      Yours,
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 219.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Nov. 17, Morning.

I have had a letter from Colonel Willmott myself to-day; he is still
quite unacquainted with the state of our domestic affairs; supposes me
a batchelor, and talks of my being his son-in-law as a certainty, not
attending to the probability of my having other engagements.

His history, which he tells me in this letter, is a very romantic
one. He was a younger brother, and provided for accordingly: he loved,
when about twenty, a lady who was as little a favorite of fortune as
himself: their families, who on both sides had other views, joined
their interest to get him sent to the East Indies; and the young lady
was removed to the house of a friend in London, where she was to
continue till he had left England.

Before he went, however, they contrived to meet, and were privately
married; the marriage was known only to her brother, who was
Willmott's friend.

He left her in the care of her brother, who, under pretence of
diverting her melancholy, and endeavoring to cure her passion, obtained
leave of his father to take her with him to France.

She was there delivered of this child, and expired a few days after.

Her brother, without letting her family know the secret, educated
the infant, as the daughter of a younger brother who had been just
before killed in a duel in France; her parents, who died in a few
years, were, almost in their last moments, informed of these
circumstances, and made a small provision for the child.

In the mean time, Colonel Willmott, after experiencing a great
variety of misfortunes for many years, during which he maintained a
constant correspondence with his brother-in-law, and with no other
person in Europe, by a train of lucky accidents, acquired very rapidly
a considerable fortune, with which he resolved to return to England,
and marry his daughter to me, as the only method to discharge fully
his obligations to my grandfather, who alone, of all his family, had
given him the least assistance when he left England. He wrote to his
daughter, letting her know his design, and directing her to meet him in
London; but she is not yet arrived.

Six in the evening.

My mother and Emily went to Temple's to dinner; they are to dress
there, and I am to be surprized.

Seven.

Colonel Willmott is come: he is an extreme handsome man; tall,
well-made, with an air of dignity which one seldom sees; he is very
brown, and, what will please Bell, has an aquiline nose: he looks about
fifty, but is not so much; change of climate has almost always the
disagreable effect of adding some years to the look.

He is dressing, to accompany me to the masquerade; I must attend
him: I have only time to say,

      I am yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 220.


To Mrs. Rivers, Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Nov. 18, twelve at night.

Who should I dine and sup with to-day, at a merchant's in the city,
but your old love, Sir George Clayton, as gay and amusing as ever!

What an entertaining companion have you lost, my dear Emily!

He was a little disconcerted at seeing me, and blushed extremely;
but soon recovered his amiable, uniform insipidity of countenance, and
smiled and simpered as usual.

He never enquired after you, nor even mentioned your name; being
asked for a toast, I had the malice to give Rivers; he drank him,
without seeming ever to have heard of him before.

The city misses admire him prodigiously, and he them; they are
charmed with his beauty, and he with their wit.

His mother, poor woman! could not bring the match she wrote about to
bear: the family approved him; but the fair one made a better choice,
and gave herself last week, at St. George's, Hanover-square, to a very
agreable fellow of our acquaintance, Mr. Palmer; a man of sense and
honor, who deserves her had she been ten times richer: he has a small
estate in Lincolnshire, and his house is not above twenty miles from
you: I must bring you and Mrs. Palmer acquainted.

I suppose you are now the happiest of beings; Rivers finding a
thousand new beauties in his _belle paisanne_, and you exulting in
your charms, or, in other words, glorying in your strength.

So the maiden aunts in your neighbourhood think Miss Williams no
better than she should be?

Either somebody has said, or the idea is my own; after all, I
believe it Shenstone's, That those are generally the best people, whose
characters have been most injured by slanderers, as we usually find
that the best fruit which the birds have been pecking at.

I will, however, allow appearances were a little against your
cottager; and I would forgive the good old virgins, if they had always
as suspicious circumstances to determine from.

But they generally condemn from trifling indiscretions, and settle
the characters of their own sex from their conduct at a time of life
when they are themselves no judges of its propriety; they pass sentence
on them for small errors, when it is an amazing proof of prudence not
to commit great ones.

For my own part, I think those who never have been guilty of any
indiscretion, are generally people who have very little active virtue.

The waving line holds in moral as well as in corporeal beauty.

    Adieu!
      Yours ever,
          A. Fitzgerald.


All I can say is, that if imprudence is a sin, heaven help your poor
little Bell!

On those principles, Sir George is the most virtuous man in the
world; to which assertion, I believe, you will enter a caveat.



LETTER 221.


To Colonel Rivers, at Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Nov. 19.

You are right, my little Rivers: I like your friend, Colonel
Willmott vastly better for his aquiline nose; I never yet saw one on
the face of a fool.

He is a fortunate man to be introduced to such a party of fine women
at his arrival; it is literally _to feed among the lilies_.

Fitzgerald says, he should be jealous of him in your esteem, if he
was fifteen years younger; but that the strongest friendships are,
where there is an equality in age; because people of the same age have
the same train of thinking, and see things in the same light.

Every season of life has its peculiar set of ideas; and we are
greatly inclined to think nobody in the right, but those who are of the
same opinion with ourselves.

Don't you think it a strong proof of my passion for my _sposo_,
that I repeat his sentiments?

But to business: Sir William is charmed with his little nephew; has
promised to settle on him what he before mentioned, to allow Miss
Williams an hundred pounds a year, which is to go to the child after
her death, and to be at the expence of his education himself.

I die to hear whether your oriental Colonel is in love with Emily.

Pray tell us every thing.

    Adieu!
      Your affectionate
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 222.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Temple-house, Thursday morning, 11 o'clock.

Our masquerade last night was really charming; I never saw any thing
equal to it out of London.

Temple has taste, and had spared no expence to make it agreable; the
decorations of the grand saloon were magnificent.

Emily was the loveliest _paisanne_ that ever was beheld; her
dress, without losing sight of the character, was infinitely becoming:
her beauty never appeared to such advantage.

There was a noble simplicity in her air, which it is impossible to
describe.

The easy turn of her shape, the lovely roundness of her arm, the
natural elegance of her whole form, the waving ringlets of her
beautiful dark hair, carelessly fastened with a ribbon, the unaffected
grace of her every motion, all together conveyed more strongly than
imagination can paint, the pleasing idea of a wood nymph, deigning to
visit some favored mortal.

Colonel Willmott gazed on her with rapture; and asked me, if the
rural deities had left their verdant abodes to visit Temple-house.

I introduced him to her, and left her to improve the impression:
'tis well I was married in time; a nabob is a dangerous rival.

Lucy looked lovely, but in another style; she was a sultana in all
the pride of imperial beauty: her charms awed, but Emily's invited; her
look spoke resistless command, Emily's soft persuasion.

There were many fine women; but I will own to you, I had, as to
beauty, no eyes but for Emily.

We are going this morning to see Burleigh: when we return, I shall
announce Colonel Willmott to Emily, and introduce them properly to each
other; they are to go in the same chaise; she at present only knows him
as a friend of mine, and he her as his _belle paisanne_.

    Adieu! I am summoned.
      Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.


I should have told you, I acquainted Colonel Willmott with my
sister's marriage before I took him to Temple-house, and found an
opportunity of introducing him to Temple unobserved.

Emily is the only one here to whom he is a stranger: I will caution
him not to mention to her his past generous design in my favor. Adieu!



LETTER 223.


To Mrs. Fitzgerald.

Temple-house, Thursday morning.

Your Emily was happy beyond words last night: amongst a crowd of
beauties, her Rivers's eyes continually followed her; he seemed to see
no other object: he would scarce let me wait till supper to unmask.

But you will call me a foolish romantic girl; therefore I will only
say, I had the delight to see him pleased with my dress, and charmed
with the complaisance which was shewed me by others.

There was a gentleman who came with Rivers, who was particularly
attentive to me; he is not young, but extremely amiable: has a very
fine person, with a commanding air; great politeness, and, as far as
one can judge by a few hours conversation, an excellent understanding.

I never in my life met with a man for whom I felt such a partiality
at first sight, except Rivers, who tells me, I have made a conquest of
his friend.

He is to be my cavalier this morning to Burleigh.

It has this moment struck me, that Rivers never introduced his
friend and me to each other, but as masks; I never thought of this
before: I suppose he forgot it in the hurry of the masquerade.

I do not even know this agreable stranger's name; I only found out
by his conversation he had served in the army.

There is no saying how beautiful Lucy looked last night; her dress
was rich, elegantly fancied, and particularly becoming to her graceful
form, which I never saw look so graceful before.

All who attempted to be fine figures, shrunk into nothing before her.

Lucy carries her head, you know, remarkably well; which, with the
advantage of her height, the perfect standard of women, her fine
proportion, the native dignity of her air, the majestic flow of her
robe, and the blaze of her diamonds, gave her a look of infinite
superiority; a superiority which some of the company seemed to feel in
a manner, which rather, I will own, gave me pain.

In a place consecrated to joy, I hate to see any thing like an
uneasy sensation; yet, whilst human passions are what they are, it is
difficult to avoid them.

There were four or five other sultanas, who seemed only the slaves
of her train.

In short,

  "She look'd a goddess, and she mov'd a queen."

I was happy the unassuming simplicity of the character in which I
appeared, prevented comparisons which must have been extremely to my
disadvantage.

I was safe in my littleness, like a modest shrub by the side of a
cedar; and, being in so different a style, had the better chance to be
taken notice of, even where Lucy was.

She was radiant as the morning star, and even dazzlingly lovely.

Her complexion, for Temple would not suffer her to wear a mask at
all, had the vivid glow of youth and health, heightened by pleasure,
and the consciousness of universal admiration.

Her eyes had a fire which one could scarce look at.

Temple's vanity and tenderness were gratified to the utmost: he
drank eagerly the praises which envy itself could not have refused her.

My mother extremely became her character; and, when talking to
Rivers, gave me the idea of the Roman Aurelia, whose virtues she has
equalled.

He looked at her with a delight which rendered him a thousand times
more dear to me: she is really one of the most pleasing women that
ever existed.

I am called: we are just setting out for Burleigh, which I have not
yet seen.

      Adieu! Yours
          Emily Rivers.



LETTER 224.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Thursday, two o'clock.

We are returned: Colonel Willmott is charmed with Burleigh, and more
in love with Emily than ever.

He is gone to his apartment, whither I shall follow him, and
acquaint him with my marriage; he is exactly in the disposition I
could wish.

He will, I am sure, pardon any offence of which his _belle paisanne_
is the cause.

I am returned.

He is disappointed, but not surprized; owns no human heart could
have resisted Emily; begs she will allow his daughter a place in her
friendship.

He insists on making her a present of diamonds; the only condition,
he tells me, on which he will forgive my marriage.

I am going to introduce him to her in her apartment.

Adieu! for a moment.

Fitzgerald!--I scarce respire--the tumult of my joy--this
daughter whom I have refused--my Emily--could you have believed--my
Emily is the daughter of Colonel Willmott.

When I announced him to her by that name, her color changed; but
when I added that he was just returned from the East Indies, she
trembled, her cheeks had a dying paleness, her voice faltered, she
pronounced faintly, "My father!" and sunk breathless on a sofa.

He ran to her, he pressed her wildly to his bosom, he kissed her
pale cheek, he demanded if she was indeed his child? his Emily? the
dear pledge of his Emily Montague's tenderness?

Her senses returned, she fixed her eyes eagerly on him, she kissed
his hand, she would have spoke, but tears stopped her voice.

The scene that followed is beyond my powers of description.

I have left them a moment, to share my joy with you: the time is too
precious to say more. To-morrow you shall hear from me.

      Adieu! Yours,
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 225.


To Captain Fitzgerald.

Temple-house, Friday.

Your friend is the happiest of mankind.

Every anxiety is removed from my Emily's dear bosom: a father's
sanction leaves her nothing to desire.

You may remember, she wished to delay our marriage: her motive was,
to wait Colonel Willmott's return.

Though promised by him to another, she hoped to bring him to leave
her heart free; little did she think the man destined for her by her
father, was the happy Rivers her heart had chosen.

Bound by a solemn vow, she concealed the circumstances of her birth
even from me.

She resolved never to marry another, yet thought duty obliged her to
wait her father's arrival.

She kindly supposed he would see me with her eyes, and, when he knew
me, change his design in my favor: she fancied he would crown her love
as the reward of her obedience in delaying her marriage.

My importunity, and the fear of giving me room to doubt her
tenderness, as her vow prevented such an explanation as would have
satisfied me, bore down her duty to a father whom she had never seen,
and whom she had supposed dead, till the arrival of Mrs. Melmoth's
letters; having been two years without hearing any thing of him.

She married me, determined to give up her right to half his fortune
in favor of the person for whom he designed her; and hoped, by that
means, to discharge her father's obligations, which she could not pay
at the expence of sacrificing her heart.

But she writes to Mrs. Fitzgerald, and will tell you all.

Come and share the happiness of your friends.

    Adieu!
      Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.



LETTER 226.


To Mrs. Fitzgerald.

Temple-house, Friday.

My Rivers has told you--my sweet friend, in what words shall I
convey to you an adequate idea of your Emily's transport, at a
discovery which has reconciled all her duties!

Those anxieties, that sense of having failed in filial obedience,
which cast a damp on the joy of being wife to the most beloved of
mankind, are at an end.

This husband whom I so dreaded, whom I determined never to accept,
was my Rivers.

My father forgives me; he pardons the crime of love: he blesses that
kind providence which conducted us to happiness.

How many has this event made happy!

The most amiable of mothers shares my joy; she bends in grateful
thanks to that indulgent power who has rewarded her son for all his
goodness to her.

Rivers hears her, and turns away to hide his tears: her tenderness
melts him to the softness of a woman.

What gratitude do we not owe to heaven! may the sense of it be for
ever engraven on our hearts!

My Lucy too; all, all are happy.

But I will tell you. Rivers has already acquainted you with part of
my story.

My uncle placed me, with a servant, in whom he could confide, in a
convent in France, till I was seven years old; he then sent for me to
England, and left me at school eight years longer; after which, he took
me with him to his regiment in Kent, where, you know, our friendship
began, and continued till he changed into another, then in America,
whither I attended him.

My father's affairs were, at that time, in a situation, which
determined my uncle to take the first opportunity of marrying me to
advantage.

I regarded him as a father; he had always been more than a parent to
me; I had the most implicit deference to his will.

He engaged me to Sir George Clayton; and, when dying, told me the
story of my birth, to which I had till then been a stranger, exacting
from me, however, an oath of secresy till I saw my father.

He died, leaving me, with a trifle left in trust to him for my use
from my grandfather, about two thousand pounds, which was all I, at
that time, ever expected to possess.

My father was then thought ruined; there was even a report of his
death, and I imagined myself absolute mistress of my own actions.

I was near two years without hearing any thing of him; nor did I
know I had still a father, till the letters you brought me from Mrs.
Melmoth.

A variety of accidents, and our being both abroad, and in such
distant parts of the world, prevented his letters arriving.

In this situation, the kind hand of heaven conducted my Rivers to
Montreal.

I saw him; and, from that moment, my whole soul was his.

Formed for each other, our love was sudden and resistless as the
bolt of heaven: the first glance of those dear speaking eyes gave me a
new being, and awaked in me ideas never known before.

The strongest sympathy attached me to him in spite of myself: I
thought it friendship, but felt that friendship more lively than what I
called my _love_ for Sir George; all conversation but his became
insupportable to me; every moment that he passed from me, I counted as
lost in my existence.

I loved him; that tenderness hourly increased: I hated Sir George, I
fancied him changed; I studied to find errors in a man who had, a few
weeks before, appeared to me amiable, and whom I had consented to
marry; I broke with him, and felt a weight removed from my soul.

I trembled when Rivers appeared; I died to tell him my whole soul
was his; I watched his looks, to find there the same sentiments with
which he had inspired me: that transporting moment at length arrived;
I had the delight to find our tenderness was mutual, and to devote my
life to making happy the lord of my desires.

Mrs. Melmoth's letter brought me my father's commands, if unmarried,
to continue so till his return.

He added, that he intended me for a relation, to whose family he had
obligations; that, his affairs having suffered such a happy
revolution, he had it in his power, and, therefore, thought it his
duty, to pay this debt of gratitude; and, at the same time, hoping to
make me happy by connecting me with an amiable family, allied to him by
blood and friendship; and uniting me to a man whom report spoke worthy
of all my tenderness.

You may remember, my dearest Bell, how strongly I was affected on
reading those letters: I wrote to Rivers, to beg him to defer our
marriage; but the manner in which he took that request, and the fear of
appearing indifferent to him, conquered all sense of what I owed to my
father, and I married him; making it, however, a condition that he
should ask no explanation of my conduct till I chose to give it.

I knew not the character of my father; he might be a tyrant, and
divide us from each other: Rivers doubted my tenderness; would not my
waiting, if my father had afterwards refused his consent to our union,
have added to those cruel suspicions? might he not have supposed I had
ceased to love him, and waited for the excuse of paternal authority to
justify a change of sentiment?

In short, love bore down every other consideration; if I persisted
in this delay, I might hazard losing all my soul held dear, the only
object for which life was worth my care.

I determined, if I married, to give up all claim to my father's
fortune, which I should justly forfeit by my disobedience to his
commands: I hoped, however, Rivers's merit, and my father's paternal
affection, when he knew us both, would influence him to make some
provision for me as his daughter.

Half his fortune was all I ever hoped for, or even would have chose
to accept: the rest I determined to give up to the man whom I refused
to marry.

I gave my hand to Rivers, and was happy; yet the idea of my
father's return, and the consciousness of having disobeyed him, cast
sometimes a damp on my felicity, and threw a gloom over my soul, which
all my endeavors could scarce hide from Rivers, though his delicacy
prevented his asking the cause.

I now know, what was then a secret to me, that my father had offered
his daughter to Rivers, with a fortune which could, however, have been
no temptation to a mind like his, had he not been attached to me: he
declined the offer, and, lest I should hear of it, and, from a romantic
disinterestedness, want him to accept it, pressed our marriage with
more importunity than ever; yet had the generosity to conceal this
sacrifice from me, and to wish it should be concealed for ever.

These sentiments, so noble, so peculiar to my Rivers, prevented an
explanation, and hid from us, for some time, the circumstances which
now make our happiness so perfect.

How infinitely worthy is Rivers of all my tenderness!

My father has sent to speak with me in his apartment: I should have
told you, I this morning went to Bellfield, and brought from thence my
mother's picture, which I have just sent him.

      Adieu! Your faithful
          Emily Rivers.



LETTER 227.


To Mrs. Rivers, Bellfield, Rutland.

London, Sunday.

No words, my dear Emily, can speak our joy at the receipt of your
two last letters.

You are then as happy as you deserve to be; we hope, in a few days,
to be witnesses of your felicity.

We knew from the first of your father's proposal to Rivers; but he
extorted a promise from us, never on any account to communicate it to
you: he also desired us to detain you in Berkshire, by lengthening our
visit, till your marriage, lest any friend of your father's in London
should know his design, and chance acquaint you with it.

Fitzgerald is _Monsieur le Majeur_, at your ladyship's service:
he received his commission this morning.

I once again congratulate you, my dear, on this triumph of
tenderness: you see love, like virtue, is not only its own reward, but
sometimes intitles us to other rewards too.

It should always be considered, that those who marry from love,
_may_ grow rich; but those who marry to be rich, will _never_
love.

The very idea that love will come after marriage, is shocking to
minds which have the least spark of delicacy: to such minds, a marriage
which begins with indifference will certainly end in disgust and
aversion.

I bespeak your papa for my _cecisbeo_; mine is extremely at
your service in return.

But I am piqued, my dear. "Sentiments so noble, so peculiar to your
Rivers--"

I am apt to believe there are men in the world--that nobleness of
mind is not so very _peculiar_--and that some people's sentiments
may be as noble as other people's.

In short, I am inclined to fancy Fitzgerald would have acted just
the same part in the same situation.

But it is your great fault, my dear Emily, to suppose your love a
phoenix, whereas he is only an agreable, worthy, handsome fellow,
_comme un autre_.

I suppose you will be very angry; but who cares? I will be angry
too.

Surely, my Fitzgerald--I allow Rivers all his merit; but
comparisons, my dear--

Both our fellows, to be sure, are charming creatures; and I would
not change them for a couple of Adonis's: yet I don't insist upon it,
that there is nothing agreable in the world but them.

You should remember, my dear, that beauty is in the lover's eye; and
that, however highly you may think of Rivers, every woman breathing has
the same idea of _the dear man_.

O heaven! I must tell you, because it will flatter your vanity about
your charmer.

I have had a letter from an old lover of mine at Quebec, who tells
me, Madame Des Roches has just refused one of the best matches in the
country, and vows she will live and die a batchelor.

'Tis a mighty foolish resolution, and yet I cannot help liking her
the better for making it.

My dear papa talks of taking a house near you, and of having a
garden to rival yours: we shall spend a good deal of time with him, and
I shall make love to Rivers, which you know will be vastly pretty.

One must do something to give a little variety to life; and nothing
is so amusing, or keeps the mind so pleasingly awake, especially in the
country, as the flattery of an agreable fellow.

I am not, however, quite sure I shall not look abroad for a flirt,
for one's friend's husband is almost as insipid as one's own.

Our romantic adventures being at an end, my dear; and we being all
degenerated into sober people, who marry and _settle_; we seem in
great danger of sinking into vegetation: on which subject I desire
Rivers's opinion, being, I know, a most exquisite enquirer into the
laws of nature.

Love is a pretty invention, but, I am told, is apt to mellow into
friendship; a degree of perfection at which I by no means desire
Fitzgerald's attachment for me to arrive on this side seventy.

What must we do, my dear, to vary our days?

Cards, you will own, are an agreable relief, and the least subject
to pall of any pleasures under the sun: and really, philosophically
speaking, what is life but an intermitted pool at quadrille?

I am interrupted by a divine colonel in the guards.

      Adieu! Your faithful
          A. Fitzgerald.



LETTER 228.


To Mrs. Fitzgerald.

Bellfield, Tuesday.

I accept your challenge, Bell; and am greatly mistaken if you find
me so very insipid as you are pleased to suppose.

Have no fear of falling into vegetation; not one amongst us has the
least vegetative quality.

I have a thousand ideas of little amusements, to keep the mind
awake.

None of our party are of that sleepy order of beings, who want
perpetual events to make them feel their existence: this is the defect
of the cold and inanimate, who have not spirit and vivacity enough to
taste the natural pleasures of life.

Our adventures of one kind are at an end; but we shall see others,
as entertaining, springing up every moment.

I dare say, our whole lives will be Pindaric: my only plan of life
is to have none at all, which, I think, my little Bell will approve.

Please to observe, my sweet Bell, to make life pleasant, we must not
only have great pleasures but little ones, like the smaller auxiliary
parts of a building; we must have our trifling amusements, as well as
our sublime transports.

My first _second_ pleasure (if you will allow the expression)
is gardening; and for this reason, that it is my divine Emily's: I must
teach you to love rural pleasures.

Colonel Willmott has made me just as rich as I wish to be.

You must know, my fair friend, that whilst I thought a fortune and
Emily incompatible, I had infinite contempt for the former, and fancied
that it would rather take from, than add to, my happiness; but, now I
can possess it with her, I allow it all its value.

My father (with what delight do I call the father of Emily by that
name!) hinted at my taking a larger house; but I would not leave my
native Dryads for an imperial palace: I have, however, agreed to let
him build a wing to Bellfield, which it wants, to compleat the original
plan, and to furnish it in whatever manner he thinks fit.

He is to have a house in London; and we are to ramble from one to
the other as fancy leads us.

He insists on our having no rule but inclination: do you think we
are in any danger of vegetating, my dear Bell?

The great science of life is, to keep in constant employment that
restless active principle within us, which, if not directed right, will
be eternally drawing us from real to imaginary happiness.

Love, all charming as it is, requires to be kept alive by such a
variety of amusements, or avocations, as may prevent the languor to
which all human pleasures are subject.

Emily's tenderness and delicacy make me ever an expecting lover: she
contrives little parties of pleasure, and by surprize, of which she is
always the ornament and the soul: her whole attention is given to make
her Rivers happy.

I envy the man who attends her on these little excursions.

Love with us is ever led by the Sports and the Smiles.

Upon the whole, people who have the spirit to act as we have done,
to dare to chuse their own companions for life, will generally be
happy.

The affections are the true sources of enjoyment: love, friendship,
and, if you will allow me to anticipate, paternal tenderness, all the
domestic attachments, are sweet beyond words.

The beneficent Author of nature, who gave us these affections for
the wisest purposes--

"Cela est bien dit, mon cher Rivers; mais il faut cultiver notre
jardin."

You are right, my dear Bell, and I am a prating coxcomb.

Lucy's post-coach is just setting off, to wait your commands.

I send this by Temple's servant. On Thursday I hope to see our dear
groupe of friends re-united, and to have nothing to wish, but a
continuance of our present happiness.

      Adieu! Your faithful
          Ed. Rivers.


THE END.






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